1 00:00:01,534 --> 00:00:02,802 >> Nikki: Leave me alone! 2 00:00:02,869 --> 00:00:03,870 >> Jack: Let me in, Nikki. 3 00:00:03,937 --> 00:00:04,871 You're not okay. 4 00:00:04,938 --> 00:00:05,772 None of this is okay. 5 00:00:05,839 --> 00:00:06,706 >> Nikki: Pretend you didn't 6 00:00:06,773 --> 00:00:07,407 see me. 7 00:00:07,474 --> 00:00:08,441 >> Jack: No, I saw you. 8 00:00:08,508 --> 00:00:09,542 >> Nikki: Well, I don't want 9 00:00:09,609 --> 00:00:10,977 to see you, so get out of here. 10 00:00:11,044 --> 00:00:11,845 >> Jack: I am not 11 00:00:11,911 --> 00:00:12,645 going anywhere. 12 00:00:12,712 --> 00:00:13,580 I am your sponsor, remember? 13 00:00:13,646 --> 00:00:15,248 A job you asked me to do. 14 00:00:15,315 --> 00:00:17,016 >> Nikki: I am fine. 15 00:00:17,083 --> 00:00:18,852 And you're fired. 16 00:00:18,918 --> 00:00:20,086 >> Jack: No, you can fire me 17 00:00:20,153 --> 00:00:21,221 once you're sober. 18 00:00:21,287 --> 00:00:22,389 Let me in. Come on. 19 00:00:22,455 --> 00:00:23,957 You can't even stand up here. 20 00:00:24,023 --> 00:00:26,526 Don't make me push the door in. 21 00:00:26,593 --> 00:00:27,994 [ Nikki grunts ] 22 00:00:28,061 --> 00:00:29,963 >> Nikki: Fine. 23 00:00:30,029 --> 00:00:31,731 You asked for it. 24 00:00:37,003 --> 00:00:40,073 >> Jack: My God. 25 00:00:40,140 --> 00:00:41,441 What happened here? 26 00:00:41,508 --> 00:00:42,542 >> Nikki: Oh, 27 00:00:42,609 --> 00:00:43,610 what's the matter, Jack? 28 00:00:43,676 --> 00:00:44,878 You were just trying to beat 29 00:00:44,944 --> 00:00:46,546 my door down a second ago, 30 00:00:46,613 --> 00:00:50,450 and now you're running scared? 31 00:00:52,519 --> 00:00:53,386 >> Jack: Give me that. 32 00:00:53,453 --> 00:00:54,087 Give me that. 33 00:00:54,154 --> 00:00:56,656 >> Nikki: Hey-- 34 00:00:56,723 --> 00:00:58,625 Well, gee, thanks. 35 00:00:58,691 --> 00:01:00,160 What a gentleman. 36 00:01:00,226 --> 00:01:02,996 Make mine a double, will ya? 37 00:01:03,062 --> 00:01:05,432 >> Jack: This is over. 38 00:01:05,498 --> 00:01:07,600 >> Nikki: Oh, no, it is not. 39 00:01:07,667 --> 00:01:09,669 You are not the boss of me. 40 00:01:09,736 --> 00:01:11,771 I am the boss of me. 41 00:01:11,838 --> 00:01:14,073 And I want a drink, so either 42 00:01:14,140 --> 00:01:15,375 pour or get out of here. 43 00:01:15,442 --> 00:01:16,543 >> Jack: You have had plenty 44 00:01:16,609 --> 00:01:18,445 to drink. I'm not going anywhere 45 00:01:18,511 --> 00:01:19,712 until I sober you up 46 00:01:19,779 --> 00:01:20,847 and take you to a meeting. 47 00:01:20,914 --> 00:01:21,581 We can still make 48 00:01:21,648 --> 00:01:22,415 the late night meeting. 49 00:01:22,482 --> 00:01:25,151 >> Nikki: I'm sick of meetings. 50 00:01:25,218 --> 00:01:28,888 All those sad sacks. 51 00:01:28,955 --> 00:01:30,490 My name is Nikki 52 00:01:30,557 --> 00:01:32,792 and I'm an alcoholic. 53 00:01:32,859 --> 00:01:34,360 God, 54 00:01:34,427 --> 00:01:36,896 how many times have I said that 55 00:01:36,963 --> 00:01:39,132 in depressing church basements? 56 00:01:39,199 --> 00:01:42,235 And where has it gotten me? Huh? 57 00:01:42,302 --> 00:01:44,137 Right here. 58 00:01:44,204 --> 00:01:46,806 Well, I'm done. It doesn't work. 59 00:01:46,873 --> 00:01:48,174 >> Jack: No, it works 60 00:01:48,241 --> 00:01:49,242 if you work it-- 61 00:01:49,309 --> 00:01:51,711 >> Nikki: Oh, shut up. 62 00:01:51,778 --> 00:01:53,546 I'm not going to a meeting 63 00:01:53,613 --> 00:01:55,682 and I'm not going to get sober. 64 00:01:55,748 --> 00:01:56,683 >> Jack: Nikki. 65 00:01:56,749 --> 00:01:59,552 >> Nikki: No. Get away. 66 00:01:59,619 --> 00:02:00,887 >> Jack: Nikki, stop. 67 00:02:00,954 --> 00:02:04,757 [ Nikki pants ] 68 00:02:04,824 --> 00:02:08,194 >> Nikki: I can't do it, Jack. 69 00:02:08,261 --> 00:02:12,065 Not this time. I give up. 70 00:02:12,131 --> 00:02:13,833 >> Jack: No. 71 00:02:13,900 --> 00:02:16,135 No, you are not giving up. 72 00:02:16,202 --> 00:02:18,304 Not on my watch. 73 00:02:20,974 --> 00:02:25,912 ♪♪ 74 00:02:25,979 --> 00:02:32,685 ♪♪ 75 00:02:32,752 --> 00:02:39,058 ♪♪ 76 00:02:39,125 --> 00:02:45,064 ♪♪ 77 00:02:45,131 --> 00:02:50,870 ♪♪ 78 00:02:54,107 --> 00:02:55,875 >> Nikki: Hey, 79 00:02:55,942 --> 00:02:57,844 turn those lights back down. 80 00:02:57,911 --> 00:03:01,214 You're ruining my mood lighting. 81 00:03:01,281 --> 00:03:03,249 >> Jack: This room is a mess. 82 00:03:03,316 --> 00:03:04,751 You are a mess. 83 00:03:04,817 --> 00:03:06,386 Your breath reeks of alcohol. 84 00:03:06,452 --> 00:03:07,554 It's oozing out of your pores. 85 00:03:07,620 --> 00:03:09,956 Look at yourself. 86 00:03:10,023 --> 00:03:11,424 >> Nikki: Wow, 87 00:03:11,491 --> 00:03:13,326 that's your idea of a pep talk? 88 00:03:13,393 --> 00:03:15,895 Cuz it stinks. 89 00:03:15,962 --> 00:03:18,865 I know what I look like. 90 00:03:18,932 --> 00:03:21,334 I know what all this looks like, 91 00:03:21,401 --> 00:03:23,870 and it's what it is. 92 00:03:23,937 --> 00:03:25,905 It's a bender. 93 00:03:25,972 --> 00:03:27,674 And you're not invited. 94 00:03:27,740 --> 00:03:28,541 >> Jack: Could you please 95 00:03:28,608 --> 00:03:29,976 send up two bottles-- 96 00:03:30,043 --> 00:03:31,244 Make it four bottles of water, 97 00:03:31,311 --> 00:03:33,446 a pot of coffee and an omelet, 98 00:03:33,513 --> 00:03:34,480 some sourdough toast 99 00:03:34,547 --> 00:03:35,548 and potatoes. 100 00:03:35,615 --> 00:03:37,016 And put a rush on it, please. 101 00:03:37,083 --> 00:03:38,451 I'll pay for it. 102 00:03:38,518 --> 00:03:40,086 >> Nikki: I sure hope that's 103 00:03:40,153 --> 00:03:41,220 for you because that 104 00:03:41,287 --> 00:03:42,221 sounds disgusting. 105 00:03:42,288 --> 00:03:42,989 >> Jack: Well, hopefully, 106 00:03:43,056 --> 00:03:43,790 it'll sober you up. 107 00:03:43,856 --> 00:03:44,857 >> Nikki: That's so 108 00:03:44,924 --> 00:03:45,992 not true, Jack. 109 00:03:46,059 --> 00:03:46,793 I mean, 110 00:03:46,859 --> 00:03:48,528 why does everybody think that? 111 00:03:48,595 --> 00:03:50,630 It just makes you wide awake, 112 00:03:50,697 --> 00:03:53,132 drunk with a sick stomach. 113 00:03:53,199 --> 00:03:54,267 >> Jack: We'll see who's right 114 00:03:54,334 --> 00:03:55,501 when you eat. 115 00:03:55,568 --> 00:03:57,203 Lauren is looking for you. 116 00:03:57,270 --> 00:03:58,571 Victor is looking for you. 117 00:03:58,638 --> 00:03:59,872 You're ignored at all my calls. 118 00:03:59,939 --> 00:04:00,807 >> Nikki: Uh-huh, uh-huh. 119 00:04:00,873 --> 00:04:03,543 I got the messages. 120 00:04:03,610 --> 00:04:06,479 >> Jack: Nikki, talk to me. 121 00:04:06,546 --> 00:04:08,247 How did you end up here 122 00:04:08,314 --> 00:04:09,649 like this? 123 00:04:09,716 --> 00:04:11,317 >> Nikki: Well, 124 00:04:11,384 --> 00:04:13,586 same way I always do. 125 00:04:13,653 --> 00:04:16,456 I am me. 126 00:04:16,522 --> 00:04:18,057 >> Jack: No, I don't understand. 127 00:04:18,124 --> 00:04:19,225 The whole nightmare 128 00:04:19,292 --> 00:04:20,827 with Jordan is over. 129 00:04:20,893 --> 00:04:22,862 Wait, maybe you haven't heard. 130 00:04:22,929 --> 00:04:25,031 Cole and Victoria found Claire. 131 00:04:25,098 --> 00:04:27,834 She's okay. 132 00:04:27,900 --> 00:04:28,968 >> Nikki: Yeah, I know. 133 00:04:29,035 --> 00:04:31,337 I got the texts. 134 00:04:31,404 --> 00:04:33,973 I-- I'm glad that she's safe. 135 00:04:34,040 --> 00:04:36,209 Let's do a toast to Claire. 136 00:04:36,275 --> 00:04:39,012 >> Jack: Yeah, thank you. 137 00:04:39,078 --> 00:04:40,647 Claire is okay. 138 00:04:40,713 --> 00:04:42,548 Harrison is home. 139 00:04:42,615 --> 00:04:43,916 Jordan is dead. 140 00:04:43,983 --> 00:04:46,219 Now, you can stop drinking. 141 00:04:46,285 --> 00:04:47,186 >> Nikki: None of that 142 00:04:47,253 --> 00:04:48,521 changes anything for me. 143 00:04:48,588 --> 00:04:49,656 >> Jack: Was this just 144 00:04:49,722 --> 00:04:50,790 a celebration? 145 00:04:50,857 --> 00:04:51,891 Is that what it is? 146 00:04:51,958 --> 00:04:53,393 An excuse to get hammered again? 147 00:04:53,459 --> 00:04:54,427 >> Nikki: I don't need 148 00:04:54,494 --> 00:04:55,228 an excuse. 149 00:04:55,294 --> 00:04:56,996 >> Jack: Why didn't you call me 150 00:04:57,063 --> 00:04:58,531 when you first got the urge 151 00:04:58,598 --> 00:05:00,066 to pick up a bottle again? 152 00:05:00,133 --> 00:05:01,467 >> Nikki: There's no point. 153 00:05:01,534 --> 00:05:03,136 I mean, it would have just been 154 00:05:03,202 --> 00:05:06,806 a huge waste of time for you, 155 00:05:06,873 --> 00:05:09,542 just like now is. 156 00:05:09,609 --> 00:05:12,211 Don't you get it? 157 00:05:12,278 --> 00:05:16,249 I'm a lost cause. 158 00:05:23,289 --> 00:05:24,123 >> Jack: Nikki. 159 00:05:24,190 --> 00:05:24,791 >> Nikki: Hey. 160 00:05:24,857 --> 00:05:25,658 >> Jack: Listen to me. 161 00:05:25,725 --> 00:05:26,859 You are not a lost cause. 162 00:05:26,926 --> 00:05:28,094 That is the booze talking. 163 00:05:28,161 --> 00:05:29,295 I'm not going to listen to it 164 00:05:29,362 --> 00:05:30,296 and neither should you. 165 00:05:30,363 --> 00:05:32,498 >> Nikki: Get off of me! 166 00:05:32,565 --> 00:05:33,433 >> Jack: They're going 167 00:05:33,499 --> 00:05:34,600 to bring up food soon. 168 00:05:34,667 --> 00:05:35,468 Why don't you go splash 169 00:05:35,535 --> 00:05:37,870 your face with water? 170 00:05:37,937 --> 00:05:40,640 >> Nikki: Oh. 171 00:05:40,707 --> 00:05:42,141 Yeah, you'd like that. 172 00:05:42,208 --> 00:05:45,244 I know what you're doing. 173 00:05:45,311 --> 00:05:48,281 You want me to take a good hard 174 00:05:48,347 --> 00:05:51,584 look in the bathroom mirror and 175 00:05:51,651 --> 00:05:53,619 recognize that I have 176 00:05:53,686 --> 00:05:56,956 hit rock bottom and need to pull 177 00:05:57,023 --> 00:05:58,758 myself up and all that, 178 00:05:58,825 --> 00:06:00,359 but you don't understand. 179 00:06:00,426 --> 00:06:02,729 It is too late. 180 00:06:02,795 --> 00:06:05,164 I've been here so many times 181 00:06:05,231 --> 00:06:06,866 and here I am again. 182 00:06:06,933 --> 00:06:08,067 >> Jack: You know what? I don't 183 00:06:08,134 --> 00:06:09,202 want to hear this anymore. 184 00:06:09,268 --> 00:06:10,136 I don't know who you 185 00:06:10,203 --> 00:06:11,104 see in the mirror. 186 00:06:11,170 --> 00:06:12,772 I see a strong, compassionate 187 00:06:12,839 --> 00:06:14,640 woman who has been tortured 188 00:06:14,707 --> 00:06:16,109 for months by Jordan. 189 00:06:16,175 --> 00:06:17,910 It has been harrowing, yes, 190 00:06:17,977 --> 00:06:19,579 but I know one thing about you. 191 00:06:19,645 --> 00:06:20,980 You always come out on the other 192 00:06:21,047 --> 00:06:22,148 side of these battles 193 00:06:22,215 --> 00:06:24,550 stronger and better. 194 00:06:24,617 --> 00:06:27,053 >> Nikki: Well, not this time. 195 00:06:27,120 --> 00:06:28,855 My family hates me. 196 00:06:28,921 --> 00:06:30,156 I've let them all down. 197 00:06:30,223 --> 00:06:31,023 >> Jack: Where is this 198 00:06:31,090 --> 00:06:31,858 coming from? 199 00:06:31,924 --> 00:06:32,959 Your family could not 200 00:06:33,025 --> 00:06:33,993 be more supportive. They're 201 00:06:34,060 --> 00:06:34,894 probably worried 202 00:06:34,961 --> 00:06:36,462 sick about you right now, 203 00:06:36,529 --> 00:06:37,497 and where you are. In fact, 204 00:06:37,563 --> 00:06:38,564 we should give them a call. 205 00:06:38,631 --> 00:06:39,499 >> Nikki: What? No! 206 00:06:39,565 --> 00:06:41,100 No, don't you dare, Jack! 207 00:06:41,167 --> 00:06:42,301 Don't you do that! 208 00:06:42,368 --> 00:06:43,035 >> Jack: Stop! 209 00:06:43,102 --> 00:06:44,504 >> Nikki: I had a dream. 210 00:06:44,570 --> 00:06:45,772 Do you hear me? 211 00:06:45,838 --> 00:06:47,340 I had a dream and I-- 212 00:06:47,406 --> 00:06:50,109 I saw the future. 213 00:06:50,176 --> 00:06:53,146 My whole family hates me 214 00:06:53,212 --> 00:06:55,014 and they're-- they're sick of me 215 00:06:55,081 --> 00:06:57,750 and my crap choices, and 216 00:06:57,817 --> 00:06:59,585 I made those even 217 00:06:59,652 --> 00:07:01,821 when I was sober, 218 00:07:01,888 --> 00:07:04,690 and they finally had enough. 219 00:07:04,757 --> 00:07:07,593 I-- I ruined everything, 220 00:07:07,660 --> 00:07:11,197 so the least I can do is let 221 00:07:11,264 --> 00:07:12,799 them move on without me, right? 222 00:07:12,865 --> 00:07:14,600 >> Jack: Nikki, it's a dream. 223 00:07:14,667 --> 00:07:16,569 It's a vodka-soaked nightmare. 224 00:07:16,636 --> 00:07:18,171 I know it feels real sometimes. 225 00:07:18,237 --> 00:07:19,438 It's not. 226 00:07:19,505 --> 00:07:21,207 It is your fears and you 227 00:07:21,274 --> 00:07:22,909 can't put any stock in it. 228 00:07:22,975 --> 00:07:25,511 >> Nikki: You're right. 229 00:07:25,578 --> 00:07:27,346 There is only one 230 00:07:27,413 --> 00:07:29,315 thing I can count on 231 00:07:29,382 --> 00:07:32,552 and I can't let it down. 232 00:07:32,618 --> 00:07:35,188 I can't hurt it. 233 00:07:35,254 --> 00:07:38,357 I can't break its heart 234 00:07:38,424 --> 00:07:40,092 and it can't break mine. 235 00:07:40,159 --> 00:07:41,594 Will you stop it? 236 00:07:41,661 --> 00:07:42,762 >> Jack: It will break 237 00:07:42,829 --> 00:07:44,964 your heart every time, Nikki. 238 00:07:45,031 --> 00:07:46,933 It will. 239 00:07:46,999 --> 00:07:48,000 That dream was not 240 00:07:48,067 --> 00:07:48,935 telling you the future. 241 00:07:49,001 --> 00:07:49,836 That dream was warning you 242 00:07:49,902 --> 00:07:50,937 what would happen if you 243 00:07:51,003 --> 00:07:52,672 don't stop drinking. 244 00:07:52,738 --> 00:07:54,173 All that you could lose, 245 00:07:54,240 --> 00:07:55,308 a family you adore, 246 00:07:55,374 --> 00:07:56,843 a family that loves you, 247 00:07:56,909 --> 00:07:58,878 adores you. 248 00:07:58,945 --> 00:07:59,946 They depend on you 249 00:08:00,012 --> 00:08:00,980 more than you know. 250 00:08:01,047 --> 00:08:03,749 You are the rock of that family 251 00:08:03,816 --> 00:08:04,884 and your dear friends 252 00:08:04,951 --> 00:08:06,152 count on you as well. 253 00:08:06,219 --> 00:08:07,353 >> Nikki: My dear friends 254 00:08:07,420 --> 00:08:08,888 are gone, Jack. 255 00:08:08,955 --> 00:08:11,357 Katherine, Neil. 256 00:08:11,424 --> 00:08:12,592 >> Jack: If Katherine and Neil 257 00:08:12,658 --> 00:08:13,626 were here right now, 258 00:08:13,693 --> 00:08:14,427 what would they say? 259 00:08:14,493 --> 00:08:15,461 They've given you some tough 260 00:08:15,528 --> 00:08:16,262 love over the years. 261 00:08:16,329 --> 00:08:18,431 >> Nikki: They're not here. 262 00:08:18,497 --> 00:08:19,832 >> Jack: No, I am, 263 00:08:19,899 --> 00:08:21,133 and so is Lauren, 264 00:08:21,200 --> 00:08:22,301 and so is Michael, 265 00:08:22,368 --> 00:08:23,970 and so many other people who 266 00:08:24,036 --> 00:08:27,406 come to you for guidance. 267 00:08:27,473 --> 00:08:28,908 >> Nikki: Anybody who would 268 00:08:28,975 --> 00:08:31,010 count on me now is an idiot. 269 00:08:31,077 --> 00:08:33,346 You can tell them I said so. 270 00:08:33,412 --> 00:08:34,547 >> Jack: No, I'm not going 271 00:08:34,614 --> 00:08:35,681 to do that. 272 00:08:35,748 --> 00:08:37,216 No, you want to sober up 273 00:08:37,283 --> 00:08:38,651 and tell them yourself, 274 00:08:38,718 --> 00:08:40,453 knock yourself out, because you 275 00:08:40,519 --> 00:08:41,687 and I both know once the vodka's 276 00:08:41,754 --> 00:08:42,755 out of your system, you're going 277 00:08:42,822 --> 00:08:43,823 to think straight again. 278 00:08:43,890 --> 00:08:45,024 >> Nikki: No, not going 279 00:08:45,091 --> 00:08:45,958 to happen. 280 00:08:46,025 --> 00:08:47,159 >> Jack: I'm not going to let 281 00:08:47,226 --> 00:08:48,527 you give up, Nikki. 282 00:08:48,594 --> 00:08:50,429 >> Nikki: Really? 283 00:08:50,496 --> 00:08:51,631 What are you going to do 284 00:08:51,697 --> 00:08:53,165 to stop me? 285 00:08:53,232 --> 00:08:54,634 >> Jack: I think we need 286 00:08:54,700 --> 00:08:55,735 to talk about rehab. 287 00:08:55,801 --> 00:08:57,103 >> Nikki: Oh, no, no. No way. 288 00:08:57,169 --> 00:08:58,137 >> Jack: I know you thought 289 00:08:58,204 --> 00:08:58,938 you could handle it. 290 00:08:59,005 --> 00:08:59,805 >> Nikki: No way. Uh-uh. 291 00:08:59,872 --> 00:09:00,740 >> Jack: This has progressed, 292 00:09:00,806 --> 00:09:02,642 Nikki. You need more than me 293 00:09:02,708 --> 00:09:03,643 and meetings. You need 294 00:09:03,709 --> 00:09:05,278 the constant care and help 295 00:09:05,344 --> 00:09:07,179 of professionals in a facility. 296 00:09:07,246 --> 00:09:08,414 >> Nikki: It's not going 297 00:09:08,481 --> 00:09:09,749 to work, Jack. 298 00:09:09,815 --> 00:09:13,119 My God, do you know how many 299 00:09:13,185 --> 00:09:15,488 times I've been down this-- 300 00:09:15,554 --> 00:09:18,224 Well, yeah, you do. 301 00:09:18,291 --> 00:09:19,592 Been around for decades. 302 00:09:19,659 --> 00:09:22,762 First was my riding accident, 303 00:09:22,828 --> 00:09:25,965 then my intervention. 304 00:09:26,032 --> 00:09:28,267 I've tried everything. 305 00:09:28,334 --> 00:09:31,070 >> Jack: And they worked. 306 00:09:31,137 --> 00:09:32,705 >> Nikki: Until they didn't. 307 00:09:32,772 --> 00:09:33,973 >> Jack: Nikki, 308 00:09:34,040 --> 00:09:35,841 relapse is part of recovery. 309 00:09:35,908 --> 00:09:37,043 You know that. 310 00:09:37,109 --> 00:09:38,444 You have to let the program 311 00:09:38,511 --> 00:09:40,079 work for you again. 312 00:09:40,146 --> 00:09:42,315 >> Nikki: It won't work, Jack, 313 00:09:42,381 --> 00:09:44,784 because I know all 314 00:09:44,850 --> 00:09:46,686 the right words to say, okay? 315 00:09:46,752 --> 00:09:49,322 I-- I can do anything 316 00:09:49,388 --> 00:09:50,990 to make people believe 317 00:09:51,057 --> 00:09:53,159 I am working the program, 318 00:09:53,225 --> 00:09:54,660 but I won't be. 319 00:09:54,727 --> 00:09:56,595 It's all an act. 320 00:09:56,662 --> 00:09:57,830 >> Jack: So you fake it 321 00:09:57,897 --> 00:09:58,898 'til you make it. 322 00:09:58,965 --> 00:10:00,232 >> Nikki: Will you shut up with 323 00:10:00,299 --> 00:10:01,901 your stupid sayings? 324 00:10:01,968 --> 00:10:04,804 I am trying to be honest here. 325 00:10:04,870 --> 00:10:08,040 You have to want to get sober, 326 00:10:08,107 --> 00:10:09,709 but I don't. 327 00:10:09,775 --> 00:10:13,179 >> Jack: Why not? 328 00:10:13,245 --> 00:10:14,613 >> Nikki: I'm sorry 329 00:10:14,680 --> 00:10:15,715 I let you down. 330 00:10:15,781 --> 00:10:17,216 And don't take it personally. 331 00:10:17,283 --> 00:10:19,151 I let everybody down. 332 00:10:19,218 --> 00:10:20,186 >> Jack: The only important 333 00:10:20,252 --> 00:10:21,220 person here is you. 334 00:10:21,287 --> 00:10:25,358 Do not let yourself down, Nikki. 335 00:10:25,424 --> 00:10:27,226 You can do this. 336 00:10:27,293 --> 00:10:28,928 I know it seems bleak now. 337 00:10:28,995 --> 00:10:30,363 I know it's scary. 338 00:10:30,429 --> 00:10:31,864 I have been here myself. 339 00:10:31,931 --> 00:10:33,132 But it can turn around. 340 00:10:33,199 --> 00:10:35,735 You know it can turn around. 341 00:10:35,801 --> 00:10:37,336 >> Nikki: Yeah, let me guess. 342 00:10:37,403 --> 00:10:39,205 This too shall pass? 343 00:10:39,271 --> 00:10:41,273 >> Jack: Yes, and without it 344 00:10:41,340 --> 00:10:43,376 being a miracle from heaven. 345 00:10:43,442 --> 00:10:45,311 >> Nikki: Oh, stop it. 346 00:10:45,378 --> 00:10:48,848 Your damn positivity. 347 00:10:48,914 --> 00:10:50,816 You can't turn on a few lights 348 00:10:50,883 --> 00:10:52,351 and say that everything is going 349 00:10:52,418 --> 00:10:53,786 to be okay and make it so. 350 00:10:53,853 --> 00:10:54,720 >> Jack: That is not 351 00:10:54,787 --> 00:10:57,189 what I expected. 352 00:10:57,256 --> 00:10:58,257 >> Nikki: You know what 353 00:10:58,324 --> 00:10:59,725 I'm doing right now? 354 00:10:59,792 --> 00:11:01,961 I am trying to figure out 355 00:11:02,028 --> 00:11:03,829 how to get you out of here 356 00:11:03,896 --> 00:11:05,131 so I can open another bottle. 357 00:11:05,197 --> 00:11:06,165 >> Jack: Too bad. 358 00:11:06,232 --> 00:11:07,433 I got nothing but time 359 00:11:07,500 --> 00:11:08,334 on my hands. 360 00:11:08,401 --> 00:11:09,935 I have nowhere I have to go. 361 00:11:10,002 --> 00:11:10,936 I'm going to sit here 362 00:11:11,003 --> 00:11:12,238 and listen to you until you 363 00:11:12,304 --> 00:11:13,773 agree to go to a meeting. 364 00:11:13,839 --> 00:11:17,777 >> Nikki: Oh, my God. Your ego. 365 00:11:17,843 --> 00:11:21,447 I mean, you are so damn smug. 366 00:11:21,514 --> 00:11:22,882 You really think 367 00:11:22,948 --> 00:11:25,851 that you can fix me? 368 00:11:25,918 --> 00:11:27,586 Why don't you go to 369 00:11:27,653 --> 00:11:29,221 an Al-Anon meeting? 370 00:11:29,288 --> 00:11:30,790 I mean, maybe they can knock 371 00:11:30,856 --> 00:11:32,691 it into your thick skull 372 00:11:32,758 --> 00:11:34,126 that you can't change 373 00:11:34,193 --> 00:11:36,328 anybody, especially me. 374 00:11:36,395 --> 00:11:38,097 >> Jack: Stop feeling sorry 375 00:11:38,164 --> 00:11:39,398 for yourself. Stop thinking 376 00:11:39,465 --> 00:11:40,800 you know the future. 377 00:11:40,866 --> 00:11:43,135 We are here. This is now. 378 00:11:43,202 --> 00:11:44,537 And you can leave those bottles 379 00:11:44,603 --> 00:11:46,906 unopened just for tonight. 380 00:11:46,972 --> 00:11:47,773 That's all you have 381 00:11:47,840 --> 00:11:48,908 to think about. 382 00:11:48,974 --> 00:11:51,110 >> Nikki: Ah, there you are. 383 00:11:51,177 --> 00:11:52,011 >> Jack: Nikki. 384 00:11:52,078 --> 00:11:55,614 >> Nikki: Come to mama. 385 00:11:55,681 --> 00:12:01,120 [ Nikki sighs ] 386 00:12:01,187 --> 00:12:02,455 Damn it. 387 00:12:02,521 --> 00:12:03,456 >> Jack: Nikki, 388 00:12:03,522 --> 00:12:04,590 I know this is terrifying. 389 00:12:04,657 --> 00:12:06,258 I know some part wants to 390 00:12:06,325 --> 00:12:07,827 just give up and drown yourself. 391 00:12:07,893 --> 00:12:09,095 It's seductive. 392 00:12:09,161 --> 00:12:10,262 But it also fools you into 393 00:12:10,329 --> 00:12:12,631 believing this is what you want, 394 00:12:12,698 --> 00:12:14,100 that this is what you deserve. 395 00:12:14,166 --> 00:12:15,568 The booze is telling you 396 00:12:15,634 --> 00:12:16,635 you're not strong enough. 397 00:12:16,702 --> 00:12:17,903 The booze is telling you 398 00:12:17,970 --> 00:12:18,737 you failed. 399 00:12:18,804 --> 00:12:20,606 You have to find a way 400 00:12:20,673 --> 00:12:24,610 to drown out that noise. 401 00:12:24,677 --> 00:12:26,245 >> Nikki: I don't want 402 00:12:26,312 --> 00:12:27,580 to find it, Jack. 403 00:12:27,646 --> 00:12:30,983 I-- I can't fight this anymore. 404 00:12:31,050 --> 00:12:34,286 It's 24-7. 405 00:12:34,353 --> 00:12:36,455 I mean, will I drink 406 00:12:36,522 --> 00:12:37,723 or will I not drink? 407 00:12:37,790 --> 00:12:39,258 And then-- and then, 408 00:12:39,325 --> 00:12:40,426 when I take a drink, 409 00:12:40,493 --> 00:12:42,795 then all that goes away. 410 00:12:42,862 --> 00:12:44,430 I mean, don't I deserve to have 411 00:12:44,497 --> 00:12:45,998 a little piece and quiet? 412 00:12:46,065 --> 00:12:48,501 [ bottle shatters ] 413 00:13:06,185 --> 00:13:08,020 >> Nikki: Oh, you're still here. 414 00:13:08,087 --> 00:13:09,288 >> Jack: Hey, yeah. 415 00:13:09,355 --> 00:13:10,456 Room service came, 416 00:13:10,523 --> 00:13:11,657 cleaned up a little bit. 417 00:13:11,724 --> 00:13:12,658 Why don't-- Come have 418 00:13:12,725 --> 00:13:14,560 something to drink? 419 00:13:14,627 --> 00:13:17,163 >> Nikki: Oh, that'll be vodka. 420 00:13:17,229 --> 00:13:18,397 >> Jack: I don't give up that 421 00:13:18,464 --> 00:13:19,598 easily. Come on, 422 00:13:19,665 --> 00:13:20,666 have a little bite to eat. 423 00:13:20,733 --> 00:13:23,068 >> Nikki: No, I'm not hungry. 424 00:13:23,135 --> 00:13:24,837 Smells nauseating. 425 00:13:24,904 --> 00:13:26,372 >> Jack: Ah, that'll go away 426 00:13:26,438 --> 00:13:27,640 after the third bite. 427 00:13:27,706 --> 00:13:28,841 >> Nikki: Oh, are you 428 00:13:28,908 --> 00:13:29,942 a doctor now? 429 00:13:30,009 --> 00:13:32,178 Or just playing one on TV? 430 00:13:32,244 --> 00:13:36,782 >> Jack: Just a few forkfuls. 431 00:13:36,849 --> 00:13:38,817 Here. 432 00:13:45,925 --> 00:13:47,860 Have some coffee. 433 00:13:47,927 --> 00:13:50,196 >> Nikki: Um, 434 00:13:50,262 --> 00:13:53,499 I really don't feel well. 435 00:13:53,566 --> 00:13:55,868 Could you get me a cold towel 436 00:13:55,935 --> 00:13:57,403 in the bathroom? 437 00:13:57,469 --> 00:13:58,604 >> Jack: So you can get 438 00:13:58,671 --> 00:13:59,972 another slug? 439 00:14:00,039 --> 00:14:01,607 No, that's not going to happen. 440 00:14:01,674 --> 00:14:02,775 No, I know all the tricks. 441 00:14:02,841 --> 00:14:05,077 Come on, drink. 442 00:14:14,420 --> 00:14:15,621 >> Nikki: I don't have the 443 00:14:15,688 --> 00:14:19,425 strength to fight this anymore. 444 00:14:19,491 --> 00:14:22,361 I mean, look what I've done. 445 00:14:22,428 --> 00:14:25,030 Harrison could have been killed. 446 00:14:25,097 --> 00:14:25,931 Claire, too. 447 00:14:25,998 --> 00:14:26,832 >> Jack: Nikki, Nikki, 448 00:14:26,899 --> 00:14:27,766 that's over. 449 00:14:27,833 --> 00:14:29,468 Jordan is gone. 450 00:14:29,535 --> 00:14:31,170 >> Nikki: I can't even 451 00:14:31,237 --> 00:14:33,906 celebrate that. 452 00:14:33,973 --> 00:14:36,976 The damage is done. 453 00:14:37,042 --> 00:14:39,245 How many years does 454 00:14:39,311 --> 00:14:41,447 poor Harrison have of 455 00:14:41,513 --> 00:14:44,416 horrific nightmares? 456 00:14:44,483 --> 00:14:46,151 As for Claire, who knows 457 00:14:46,218 --> 00:14:47,686 what Jordan did to her, 458 00:14:47,753 --> 00:14:48,787 how that will affect her. 459 00:14:48,854 --> 00:14:49,655 >> Jack: I don't have 460 00:14:49,722 --> 00:14:50,356 any of those answers. 461 00:14:50,422 --> 00:14:51,090 No one does. 462 00:14:51,156 --> 00:14:52,825 We'll only know with time. 463 00:14:52,891 --> 00:14:54,326 But I will say 'til I am blue 464 00:14:54,393 --> 00:14:56,128 in the face, you are not to 465 00:14:56,195 --> 00:14:59,031 blame for Jordan's actions. 466 00:14:59,098 --> 00:15:00,065 >> Nikki: I should have 467 00:15:00,132 --> 00:15:01,000 let her die 468 00:15:01,066 --> 00:15:02,401 when I had the chance. 469 00:15:02,468 --> 00:15:03,602 >> Jack: If you insist on 470 00:15:03,669 --> 00:15:05,037 being responsible, 471 00:15:05,104 --> 00:15:07,840 why not do what you do best? 472 00:15:07,906 --> 00:15:09,008 >> Nikki: Hand me that bottle 473 00:15:09,074 --> 00:15:09,875 and I will. 474 00:15:09,942 --> 00:15:11,043 >> Jack: Pulling yourself 475 00:15:11,110 --> 00:15:14,079 together to help your family. 476 00:15:14,146 --> 00:15:15,748 >> Nikki: Yeah, I'm a real 477 00:15:15,814 --> 00:15:16,849 Mother Teresa. 478 00:15:16,915 --> 00:15:18,117 >> Jack: Think, if you were able 479 00:15:18,183 --> 00:15:19,218 to take all of the energy 480 00:15:19,285 --> 00:15:20,152 you're using 481 00:15:20,219 --> 00:15:21,687 to convince me you should drink 482 00:15:21,754 --> 00:15:24,323 to fighting for something else, 483 00:15:24,390 --> 00:15:26,392 for people you love, for 484 00:15:26,458 --> 00:15:28,093 organizations you believe in. 485 00:15:28,160 --> 00:15:30,329 >> Nikki: Oh, God, Jack. 486 00:15:30,396 --> 00:15:31,697 You think doing charity 487 00:15:31,764 --> 00:15:34,900 work will make me sober? 488 00:15:34,967 --> 00:15:36,435 >> Jack: I think if you stopped 489 00:15:36,502 --> 00:15:37,803 wallowing in self-pity 490 00:15:37,870 --> 00:15:38,570 for long enough, 491 00:15:38,637 --> 00:15:39,972 you would realize that 492 00:15:40,039 --> 00:15:42,508 it has helped you in the past 493 00:15:42,574 --> 00:15:44,643 to be there for others. 494 00:15:44,710 --> 00:15:45,811 Think of how you have helped 495 00:15:45,878 --> 00:15:46,812 New Hope. 496 00:15:46,879 --> 00:15:47,846 Think of all the fundraising 497 00:15:47,913 --> 00:15:49,281 you've done for MS. 498 00:15:49,348 --> 00:15:50,549 >> Nikki: Well, I'll just 499 00:15:50,616 --> 00:15:51,517 do another concert. 500 00:15:51,583 --> 00:15:52,518 Then, all my troubles 501 00:15:52,584 --> 00:15:53,252 will be over. 502 00:15:53,319 --> 00:15:54,219 >> Jack: That is not 503 00:15:54,286 --> 00:15:55,287 you talking. You are a kind, 504 00:15:55,354 --> 00:15:56,188 thoughtful person. 505 00:15:56,255 --> 00:15:57,189 That is liquor talking. 506 00:15:57,256 --> 00:15:58,691 >> Nikki: I'm just letting 507 00:15:58,757 --> 00:16:00,225 the real me out 508 00:16:00,292 --> 00:16:02,728 and it's a damn relief. 509 00:16:02,795 --> 00:16:03,896 >> Jack: So, what about 510 00:16:03,962 --> 00:16:06,532 the people you've helped? 511 00:16:06,598 --> 00:16:08,033 People whose lives you 512 00:16:08,100 --> 00:16:09,034 have literally changed. 513 00:16:09,101 --> 00:16:09,968 Katherine and Neil would 514 00:16:10,035 --> 00:16:11,403 tell you, you changed theirs. 515 00:16:11,470 --> 00:16:13,138 You helped them at very low 516 00:16:13,205 --> 00:16:15,074 moments in their lives. 517 00:16:15,140 --> 00:16:16,375 Why not do the same thing 518 00:16:16,442 --> 00:16:18,077 for your great-grandson? 519 00:16:18,143 --> 00:16:20,112 Create happy memories for him to 520 00:16:20,179 --> 00:16:22,081 block out all those nightmares. 521 00:16:22,147 --> 00:16:23,349 Help Claire so she doesn't 522 00:16:23,415 --> 00:16:26,018 backslide. Hug her. Welcome her. 523 00:16:26,085 --> 00:16:27,519 I think you'll be surprised at 524 00:16:27,586 --> 00:16:32,224 how helpful all that is. 525 00:16:32,291 --> 00:16:35,094 >> Nikki: You're right. 526 00:16:35,160 --> 00:16:39,465 I-- I should help them. 527 00:16:39,531 --> 00:16:42,835 They deserve it. 528 00:16:42,901 --> 00:16:49,742 They deserve all of me. 529 00:16:49,808 --> 00:16:52,911 They deserve 530 00:16:52,978 --> 00:16:54,780 for me to pour this down 531 00:16:54,847 --> 00:16:58,617 the sink. 532 00:16:58,684 --> 00:17:02,321 And call that rehab. 533 00:17:02,388 --> 00:17:07,025 >> Jack: Wait, do you mean that? 534 00:17:07,092 --> 00:17:09,661 >> Nikki: Nice try, Jack, 535 00:17:09,728 --> 00:17:11,730 but I can't help anybody. 536 00:17:11,797 --> 00:17:13,565 >> Jack: Don't do this, Nikki. 537 00:17:13,632 --> 00:17:15,100 Don't do this. Trust yourself. 538 00:17:15,167 --> 00:17:16,335 Trust the program. 539 00:17:16,402 --> 00:17:18,103 Trust your higher power. 540 00:17:18,170 --> 00:17:19,505 That bottle can't do 541 00:17:19,571 --> 00:17:21,874 a damn thing for you. 542 00:17:21,940 --> 00:17:23,375 I know you, Nikki. 543 00:17:23,442 --> 00:17:28,046 You can beat this. 544 00:17:28,113 --> 00:17:31,717 >> Nikki: That Nikki is gone. 545 00:17:31,784 --> 00:17:33,919 And you're going to have to rip 546 00:17:33,986 --> 00:17:36,989 this out of my hand to stop me. 547 00:17:53,305 --> 00:17:54,706 >> Jack: Nikki, I'm not going 548 00:17:54,773 --> 00:17:57,509 to wrestle you for that bottle. 549 00:17:57,576 --> 00:17:58,911 >> Nikki: Well, that's too 550 00:17:58,977 --> 00:18:00,245 proper for you. 551 00:18:00,312 --> 00:18:01,346 Don't want to get down 552 00:18:01,413 --> 00:18:02,247 in the mud with me. 553 00:18:02,314 --> 00:18:03,115 >> Jack: Come on, let-- 554 00:18:03,182 --> 00:18:04,349 let me take you to a meeting. 555 00:18:04,416 --> 00:18:05,317 >> Nikki: Oh, that would 556 00:18:05,384 --> 00:18:06,385 be pretty. 557 00:18:06,452 --> 00:18:07,586 All those people 558 00:18:07,653 --> 00:18:09,154 I've poured my heart out 559 00:18:09,221 --> 00:18:10,722 to looking at me like this. 560 00:18:10,789 --> 00:18:11,957 >> Jack: No one is turned away. 561 00:18:12,024 --> 00:18:12,991 You are always welcome 562 00:18:13,058 --> 00:18:14,059 in that room. 563 00:18:14,126 --> 00:18:14,993 >> Nikki: I am not 564 00:18:15,060 --> 00:18:16,595 going anywhere. 565 00:18:16,662 --> 00:18:17,729 >> Jack: Okay, okay, okay, fine. 566 00:18:17,796 --> 00:18:18,864 Let-- let me distract you. 567 00:18:18,931 --> 00:18:20,098 Talk to me. 568 00:18:20,165 --> 00:18:21,066 We can talk about 569 00:18:21,133 --> 00:18:21,934 happy memories. 570 00:18:22,000 --> 00:18:23,569 Memories we share. 571 00:18:23,635 --> 00:18:24,636 >> Nikki: You think I haven't 572 00:18:24,703 --> 00:18:25,771 done that? 573 00:18:25,838 --> 00:18:27,573 It's a landmine. 574 00:18:27,639 --> 00:18:29,274 I mean, for every happy memory, 575 00:18:29,341 --> 00:18:31,009 there's one ten times worse. 576 00:18:31,076 --> 00:18:31,977 >> Jack: Okay, okay, then 577 00:18:32,044 --> 00:18:33,045 let's talk about family. 578 00:18:33,111 --> 00:18:35,080 You have a great family. 579 00:18:35,147 --> 00:18:37,549 A husband who would follow you 580 00:18:37,616 --> 00:18:38,750 to the ends of the earth. 581 00:18:38,817 --> 00:18:40,452 Children who adore you. 582 00:18:40,519 --> 00:18:41,854 Who would be devastated if 583 00:18:41,920 --> 00:18:42,654 anything happened to you. 584 00:18:42,721 --> 00:18:43,689 >> Nikki: Will you stop it? 585 00:18:43,755 --> 00:18:45,591 You're just making things worse. 586 00:18:45,657 --> 00:18:47,226 You can't fix me. 587 00:18:47,292 --> 00:18:48,126 >> Jack: Here, give me. 588 00:18:48,193 --> 00:18:48,861 >> Nikki: Hey! 589 00:18:48,927 --> 00:18:49,628 >> Jack: Give me. 590 00:18:49,695 --> 00:18:50,329 >> Nikki: Stop it. 591 00:18:50,395 --> 00:18:51,163 You said that 592 00:18:51,230 --> 00:18:52,331 you wouldn't wrestle me. 593 00:18:52,397 --> 00:18:53,632 >> Jack: No, if it takes getting 594 00:18:53,699 --> 00:18:55,501 down in the mud with you, 595 00:18:55,567 --> 00:18:57,402 I will make it happen. 596 00:18:57,469 --> 00:18:59,671 >> Nikki: Fine. 597 00:18:59,738 --> 00:19:01,173 Pour it down the sink 598 00:19:01,240 --> 00:19:02,007 if you want. 599 00:19:02,074 --> 00:19:02,875 There's plenty more 600 00:19:02,941 --> 00:19:03,575 where that came from. 601 00:19:03,642 --> 00:19:04,476 >> Jack: Nikki, please. 602 00:19:04,543 --> 00:19:05,677 >> Nikki: None of your lectures 603 00:19:05,744 --> 00:19:07,045 have worked. 604 00:19:07,112 --> 00:19:08,747 I-- I'm sorry 605 00:19:08,814 --> 00:19:10,449 I picked you as my sponsor. 606 00:19:10,516 --> 00:19:11,917 >> Jack: Wait, don't say that. 607 00:19:11,984 --> 00:19:12,885 >> Nikki: Why? Why? 608 00:19:12,951 --> 00:19:14,253 Because it makes you feel bad 609 00:19:14,319 --> 00:19:15,988 because you failed? 610 00:19:16,054 --> 00:19:18,123 The great Jack Abbott finally 611 00:19:18,190 --> 00:19:20,225 met a problem he couldn't solve. 612 00:19:20,292 --> 00:19:22,127 Well, don't blame yourself. 613 00:19:22,194 --> 00:19:23,595 That-- that's my fault. 614 00:19:23,662 --> 00:19:26,031 I mean, I-- I let you talk me 615 00:19:26,098 --> 00:19:28,734 into it against Victor's wishes. 616 00:19:28,800 --> 00:19:31,169 Something else I screwed up. 617 00:19:31,236 --> 00:19:32,604 But he was right. 618 00:19:32,671 --> 00:19:34,773 You couldn't help me and now 619 00:19:34,840 --> 00:19:37,075 he can say I told you so. 620 00:19:44,750 --> 00:19:46,552 [ Nikki sighs ] 621 00:19:46,618 --> 00:19:50,923 >> Nikki: That feels good. 622 00:19:53,892 --> 00:19:55,928 Don't look so sad, Jack. 623 00:19:55,994 --> 00:19:57,796 It's a buzzkill. 624 00:19:57,863 --> 00:19:59,698 You either join the party 625 00:19:59,765 --> 00:20:03,602 or get out. 626 00:20:03,669 --> 00:20:06,271 >> Jack: Fine, I will. 627 00:20:23,155 --> 00:20:24,656 Wow, that is smooth. 628 00:20:24,723 --> 00:20:26,158 I see you sprung 629 00:20:26,224 --> 00:20:27,492 for the triple distilled. 630 00:20:27,559 --> 00:20:28,794 >> Nikki: Yeah, well, 631 00:20:28,860 --> 00:20:31,229 my life might be in the gutter, 632 00:20:31,296 --> 00:20:33,198 but I still have my standards. 633 00:20:33,265 --> 00:20:34,299 >> Jack: Well, then you won't 634 00:20:34,366 --> 00:20:35,400 mind my taking one of these 635 00:20:35,467 --> 00:20:36,802 bottles for myself. 636 00:20:36,868 --> 00:20:38,737 >> Nikki: And do you really 637 00:20:38,804 --> 00:20:40,072 think you can stop me 638 00:20:40,138 --> 00:20:41,039 from getting drunk 639 00:20:41,106 --> 00:20:43,976 by drinking half my supply? 640 00:20:44,042 --> 00:20:46,645 >> Jack: Just watch me. 641 00:20:46,712 --> 00:20:48,213 >> Nikki: Put the glass down, 642 00:20:48,280 --> 00:20:49,514 Jack. You're making a fool 643 00:20:49,581 --> 00:20:50,682 of yourself. 644 00:20:50,749 --> 00:20:51,683 >> Jack: You know what? 645 00:20:51,750 --> 00:20:52,951 We should call room service. 646 00:20:53,018 --> 00:20:54,319 See if they can send up some 647 00:20:54,386 --> 00:20:56,221 vermouth, some olives. 648 00:20:56,288 --> 00:20:57,489 I'll make us a martini. 649 00:20:57,556 --> 00:20:59,591 Well, that's not the kind of 650 00:20:59,658 --> 00:21:01,159 drinking we're doing now, is it? 651 00:21:01,226 --> 00:21:02,995 >> Nikki: What is your plan? 652 00:21:03,061 --> 00:21:05,364 Because I am not amused. 653 00:21:05,430 --> 00:21:06,231 >> Jack: Oh, you want 654 00:21:06,298 --> 00:21:06,898 to be amused? 655 00:21:06,965 --> 00:21:08,433 Come on, let's see if ol' 656 00:21:08,500 --> 00:21:12,304 smilin' Jack can have fun again. 657 00:21:12,371 --> 00:21:14,640 >> Nikki: I doubt that. 658 00:21:14,706 --> 00:21:17,242 >> Jack: Oh, you don't think so? 659 00:21:17,309 --> 00:21:22,047 Okay, I got a better idea. 660 00:21:22,114 --> 00:21:23,982 We got it in here somewhere. 661 00:21:24,049 --> 00:21:25,784 Oh, there it is. 662 00:21:25,851 --> 00:21:27,319 >> Nikki: What are you doing? 663 00:21:27,386 --> 00:21:29,021 You can't have me committed, 664 00:21:29,087 --> 00:21:29,855 you know. 665 00:21:29,921 --> 00:21:31,089 You don't have the authority. 666 00:21:31,156 --> 00:21:32,224 >> Jack: Relax, 667 00:21:32,290 --> 00:21:34,493 this isn't about you. 668 00:21:34,559 --> 00:21:38,630 Kieran, it's Jack Abbott. 669 00:21:38,697 --> 00:21:39,831 Yeah, 670 00:21:39,898 --> 00:21:41,166 yeah, it's been a long time. 671 00:21:41,233 --> 00:21:43,902 Um, could you make a delivery to 672 00:21:43,969 --> 00:21:45,704 the Genoa City Athletic Club, 673 00:21:45,771 --> 00:21:49,675 room 428? 674 00:21:49,741 --> 00:21:53,011 Yeah, same stuff. 675 00:21:53,078 --> 00:21:54,146 Thanks, buddy. 676 00:21:58,684 --> 00:22:01,753 You know what? 677 00:22:01,820 --> 00:22:03,555 You're right. 678 00:22:03,622 --> 00:22:06,358 I have been wound too tight 679 00:22:06,425 --> 00:22:08,193 for too long. 680 00:22:08,260 --> 00:22:12,264 It is time to get loose. 681 00:22:18,870 --> 00:22:20,205 >> Nikki: Who was that? 682 00:22:20,272 --> 00:22:21,506 Who did you call? 683 00:22:21,573 --> 00:22:22,874 >> Jack: Patience, my dear. 684 00:22:22,941 --> 00:22:24,209 All-- 685 00:22:24,276 --> 00:22:27,446 It's fine. 686 00:22:27,512 --> 00:22:28,547 >> Nikki: Whatever you're up to, 687 00:22:28,613 --> 00:22:29,414 it won't work. 688 00:22:29,481 --> 00:22:30,649 >> Jack: I am merely doing 689 00:22:30,716 --> 00:22:31,616 what you asked. 690 00:22:31,683 --> 00:22:33,552 I'm joining the party. 691 00:22:33,618 --> 00:22:34,886 >> Nikki: You know damn well 692 00:22:34,953 --> 00:22:36,221 it's not a party. 693 00:22:36,288 --> 00:22:37,789 >> Jack: Oh boy, do I know 694 00:22:37,856 --> 00:22:39,324 that well. 695 00:22:39,391 --> 00:22:40,492 But as you so kindly 696 00:22:40,559 --> 00:22:42,027 pointed out, I have been 697 00:22:42,094 --> 00:22:45,530 a failure as your sponsor. 698 00:22:45,597 --> 00:22:47,099 So, to hell with it. 699 00:22:47,165 --> 00:22:48,900 >> Nikki: Don't try your reverse 700 00:22:48,967 --> 00:22:51,403 psychology on me. 701 00:22:51,470 --> 00:22:53,238 I want you out of here 702 00:22:53,305 --> 00:22:54,439 right now. 703 00:22:54,506 --> 00:22:56,408 >> Jack: Or what? 704 00:22:56,475 --> 00:22:59,377 >> Nikki: Or I will 705 00:22:59,444 --> 00:23:01,613 start screaming. 706 00:23:01,680 --> 00:23:02,681 >> Jack: No, I don't think 707 00:23:02,748 --> 00:23:03,582 you're going to do that. 708 00:23:03,648 --> 00:23:05,550 No, I think you're curious 709 00:23:05,617 --> 00:23:06,785 how far I'm going to take this. 710 00:23:06,852 --> 00:23:08,620 No, you can't drink 711 00:23:08,687 --> 00:23:10,055 all that liquor yourself. 712 00:23:10,122 --> 00:23:11,156 My God, it puts you in 713 00:23:11,223 --> 00:23:12,524 the hospital, and that's not 714 00:23:12,591 --> 00:23:14,593 part of the plan, is it? 715 00:23:14,659 --> 00:23:15,994 You said no rehab, and that's 716 00:23:16,061 --> 00:23:17,162 exactly where the hospital 717 00:23:17,229 --> 00:23:18,330 would send you. 718 00:23:18,396 --> 00:23:20,265 And after an ugly detox, 719 00:23:20,332 --> 00:23:21,700 the strongest drink 720 00:23:21,767 --> 00:23:23,001 they serve you is apple juice. 721 00:23:23,068 --> 00:23:24,569 No, I'm doing you a favor, 722 00:23:24,636 --> 00:23:25,737 helping you with this, 723 00:23:25,804 --> 00:23:26,905 so you don't overdo it. 724 00:23:26,972 --> 00:23:28,740 So come on! Let's have 725 00:23:28,807 --> 00:23:30,308 a little fun here. 726 00:23:30,375 --> 00:23:31,476 Let's have some toast. 727 00:23:31,543 --> 00:23:35,113 Come on. 728 00:23:35,180 --> 00:23:36,748 Come on! 729 00:23:36,815 --> 00:23:39,251 You want to do the first toast? 730 00:23:39,317 --> 00:23:40,886 >> Nikki: No. 731 00:23:40,952 --> 00:23:43,188 >> Jack: Okay, I'll do it. 732 00:23:43,255 --> 00:23:48,293 To Jordan's reign of terror. 733 00:23:48,360 --> 00:23:50,362 She fell to her death running 734 00:23:50,428 --> 00:23:52,397 from her own damn crimes. 735 00:23:52,464 --> 00:23:53,865 >> Nikki: For God's sake, 736 00:23:53,932 --> 00:23:54,800 stop this. 737 00:23:54,866 --> 00:23:55,700 >> Jack: Okay, okay, okay. 738 00:23:55,767 --> 00:23:56,434 We'll lighten it up. 739 00:23:56,501 --> 00:23:59,037 It's family. Talk about... 740 00:23:59,104 --> 00:24:01,940 No, your 40th anniversary. 741 00:24:02,007 --> 00:24:03,041 Victor would be pissed 742 00:24:03,108 --> 00:24:05,410 if we left him out of this. 743 00:24:05,477 --> 00:24:07,646 I mean, speaking of that, 744 00:24:07,712 --> 00:24:08,647 what about our marriage? 745 00:24:08,713 --> 00:24:09,414 You want to drink 746 00:24:09,481 --> 00:24:13,485 to our marriage? 747 00:24:13,552 --> 00:24:15,987 >> Nikki: Jack, no, I-- 748 00:24:16,054 --> 00:24:17,222 >> Jack: No, no, no, 749 00:24:17,289 --> 00:24:18,190 stop, stop. 750 00:24:18,256 --> 00:24:19,858 I know just the toast. 751 00:24:19,925 --> 00:24:24,930 Please, please. 752 00:24:24,996 --> 00:24:27,799 To our enduring friendship. 753 00:24:27,866 --> 00:24:30,602 A lifetime together. 754 00:24:30,669 --> 00:24:33,605 As friends. 755 00:24:33,672 --> 00:24:35,874 Through thick and thin, 756 00:24:35,941 --> 00:24:37,943 no matter what. 757 00:24:38,009 --> 00:24:40,745 >> Nikki: I don't wanna toast. 758 00:24:40,812 --> 00:24:42,080 I want you to leave 759 00:24:42,147 --> 00:24:43,281 so I can drink in peace. 760 00:24:43,348 --> 00:24:44,015 >> Jack: But, wait, it' 761 00:24:44,082 --> 00:24:44,482 >> Jack: But, wait, it's just 762 00:24:44,549 --> 00:24:46,284 getting started. 763 00:24:46,351 --> 00:24:48,854 >> Nikki: Now you're mocking me. 764 00:24:48,920 --> 00:24:50,856 Trying to get me to see 765 00:24:50,922 --> 00:24:53,124 what I look like. Well, 766 00:24:53,191 --> 00:24:54,059 don't bother. 767 00:24:54,125 --> 00:24:55,560 I know how pathetic I am. 768 00:24:55,627 --> 00:24:56,928 >> Jack: Oh, please, stop 769 00:24:56,995 --> 00:24:58,964 feeling sorry for yourself. 770 00:24:59,030 --> 00:25:00,732 Did it ever occur to you 771 00:25:00,799 --> 00:25:02,601 this isn't all about you? 772 00:25:02,667 --> 00:25:04,536 Maybe I've been experienced some 773 00:25:04,603 --> 00:25:08,640 hell these past few months. 774 00:25:08,707 --> 00:25:10,942 Harrison is my grandson. 775 00:25:11,009 --> 00:25:13,578 I almost lost him. 776 00:25:13,645 --> 00:25:15,113 I spent countless hours 777 00:25:15,180 --> 00:25:16,381 with Victor Newman, 778 00:25:16,448 --> 00:25:17,883 of all people, looking for him. 779 00:25:17,949 --> 00:25:18,917 And Claire. 780 00:25:18,984 --> 00:25:21,419 And that's just the half of it. 781 00:25:21,486 --> 00:25:24,089 Ashley is a mess 782 00:25:24,155 --> 00:25:26,424 and she won't ask for help. 783 00:25:26,491 --> 00:25:28,326 Kyle and Diane are doing some 784 00:25:28,393 --> 00:25:29,728 tug-of-war over their jobs 785 00:25:29,794 --> 00:25:31,162 at Jabot, with me in the middle. 786 00:25:31,229 --> 00:25:34,165 And then... 787 00:25:34,232 --> 00:25:36,101 And then, there is you. 788 00:25:36,167 --> 00:25:38,036 My lifelong friend 789 00:25:38,103 --> 00:25:40,038 who I could not help. 790 00:25:40,105 --> 00:25:41,172 I've been juggling 791 00:25:41,239 --> 00:25:43,041 a million balls in the air. 792 00:25:43,108 --> 00:25:43,875 Trying to be there 793 00:25:43,942 --> 00:25:45,877 for everyone. I can't do it. 794 00:25:45,944 --> 00:25:49,180 It's not working. 795 00:25:49,247 --> 00:25:50,749 And then, I see you. 796 00:25:50,815 --> 00:25:53,852 I see you drink and... 797 00:25:53,919 --> 00:25:54,986 all the relief 798 00:25:55,053 --> 00:25:56,855 you get out of a drink. 799 00:25:56,922 --> 00:25:58,356 It kills me. 800 00:25:58,423 --> 00:26:02,160 I want some relief. 801 00:26:02,227 --> 00:26:03,561 >> Nikki: Well, there's just 802 00:26:03,628 --> 00:26:04,696 one thing wrong with 803 00:26:04,763 --> 00:26:06,731 your pitch, Jack. 804 00:26:06,798 --> 00:26:09,834 Alcohol was never your problem. 805 00:26:09,901 --> 00:26:11,102 >> Jack: No, you mean it was 806 00:26:11,169 --> 00:26:12,470 never my solution. 807 00:26:12,537 --> 00:26:15,807 No, alcohol will calm me, yes. 808 00:26:15,874 --> 00:26:18,910 Now, to take away the pain, 809 00:26:18,977 --> 00:26:21,179 I need something stronger. 810 00:26:21,246 --> 00:26:23,114 [ knocks on door ] 811 00:26:23,181 --> 00:26:24,449 Wow! 812 00:26:24,516 --> 00:26:25,817 Talk about timing. 813 00:26:25,884 --> 00:26:28,019 This is first-class delivery. 814 00:26:28,086 --> 00:26:29,287 >> Nikki: You better not be 815 00:26:29,354 --> 00:26:31,589 trying to pull something. 816 00:26:31,656 --> 00:26:32,757 >> Jack: This is about me, 817 00:26:32,824 --> 00:26:38,029 not you. 818 00:26:38,096 --> 00:26:40,465 Thanks. 819 00:26:50,842 --> 00:26:52,110 Now, this is what hits 820 00:26:52,177 --> 00:26:54,012 the spot. 821 00:27:03,321 --> 00:27:06,057 >> Nikki: Stop this, Jack. 822 00:27:06,124 --> 00:27:07,225 What you're doing is 823 00:27:07,292 --> 00:27:08,927 very dangerous. 824 00:27:08,994 --> 00:27:09,928 >> Jack: I know what 825 00:27:09,995 --> 00:27:11,129 I have to do now. 826 00:27:11,196 --> 00:27:13,164 It's crystal clear. 827 00:27:13,231 --> 00:27:14,332 I have to put myself 828 00:27:14,399 --> 00:27:15,166 in your shoes. 829 00:27:15,233 --> 00:27:16,067 I haven't been doing that 830 00:27:16,134 --> 00:27:17,102 as a sponsor. 831 00:27:17,168 --> 00:27:18,436 No, I've been lecturing you 832 00:27:18,503 --> 00:27:20,472 with empty platitudes 833 00:27:20,538 --> 00:27:22,273 and slogans. 834 00:27:22,340 --> 00:27:24,542 And that's not enough. 835 00:27:24,609 --> 00:27:26,044 No, I have to remember what 836 00:27:26,111 --> 00:27:28,013 it feels like. 837 00:27:28,079 --> 00:27:30,048 And alcohol is not 838 00:27:30,115 --> 00:27:31,383 my drug of choice. 839 00:27:31,449 --> 00:27:32,484 Now, these. 840 00:27:32,550 --> 00:27:33,785 When I hold these in my hand, 841 00:27:33,852 --> 00:27:36,087 that gives me comfort. 842 00:27:36,154 --> 00:27:38,356 The ease they can give me. 843 00:27:38,423 --> 00:27:39,991 >> Nikki: What about the harm 844 00:27:40,058 --> 00:27:41,059 they can do? 845 00:27:41,126 --> 00:27:41,893 You know that too. 846 00:27:41,960 --> 00:27:42,660 >> Jack: Well, 847 00:27:42,727 --> 00:27:43,895 it doesn't matter. 848 00:27:43,962 --> 00:27:45,430 Once the urge is triggered, 849 00:27:45,497 --> 00:27:47,332 the pull is too hard, right? 850 00:27:47,399 --> 00:27:49,067 >> Nikki: Well, make a damn 851 00:27:49,134 --> 00:27:50,602 gratitude list. 852 00:27:50,668 --> 00:27:53,805 >> Jack: I am grateful for you. 853 00:27:53,872 --> 00:27:55,740 I am grateful for the bond 854 00:27:55,807 --> 00:27:58,109 we have. 855 00:27:58,176 --> 00:28:00,945 I would do anything for you. 856 00:28:01,012 --> 00:28:02,313 >> Nikki: Yeah, 857 00:28:02,380 --> 00:28:04,916 but not like this. 858 00:28:04,983 --> 00:28:06,484 You-- you can't ruin 859 00:28:06,551 --> 00:28:08,186 your life to help me. 860 00:28:08,253 --> 00:28:09,421 >> Jack: I am your sponsor, 861 00:28:09,487 --> 00:28:10,722 Nikki. I will do 862 00:28:10,789 --> 00:28:11,956 whatever it takes. 863 00:28:12,023 --> 00:28:13,091 I would follow you 864 00:28:13,158 --> 00:28:14,692 to rock bottom 865 00:28:14,759 --> 00:28:16,928 so we could climb out together. 866 00:28:16,995 --> 00:28:20,398 >> Nikki: Is your ego so big? 867 00:28:20,465 --> 00:28:23,234 You-- you hate failure so much 868 00:28:23,301 --> 00:28:24,736 that you would do something 869 00:28:24,803 --> 00:28:26,137 so stupid? 870 00:28:26,204 --> 00:28:28,106 Are-- are you telling me 871 00:28:28,173 --> 00:28:29,774 that-- that you still have 872 00:28:29,841 --> 00:28:31,109 your dealer's number 873 00:28:31,176 --> 00:28:32,510 after all these years? 874 00:28:32,577 --> 00:28:33,511 Why would you do that? 875 00:28:33,578 --> 00:28:34,646 >> Jack: For the same reason 876 00:28:34,712 --> 00:28:36,714 you have a bottle of vodka 877 00:28:36,781 --> 00:28:38,283 at the Newman Ranch. 878 00:28:38,349 --> 00:28:40,085 Just to know it's there. 879 00:28:40,151 --> 00:28:41,319 A little test we give 880 00:28:41,386 --> 00:28:42,954 ourselves, we addicts. 881 00:28:43,021 --> 00:28:45,056 Just to know we have the power 882 00:28:45,123 --> 00:28:47,325 over our addiction. 883 00:28:47,392 --> 00:28:50,628 Until now. 884 00:28:50,695 --> 00:28:51,830 >> Nikki: Well, you're not 885 00:28:51,896 --> 00:28:52,831 as weak as I am. 886 00:28:52,897 --> 00:28:55,066 You're strong. 887 00:28:55,133 --> 00:28:55,400 You' 888 00:28:55,834 --> 00:28:56,534 You've got too many years 889 00:28:56,601 --> 00:28:58,336 under your belt. 890 00:28:58,403 --> 00:29:00,939 Too much to lose. 891 00:29:01,005 --> 00:29:03,441 >> Jack: I said that to Diane. 892 00:29:03,508 --> 00:29:04,876 She didn't know I had 893 00:29:04,943 --> 00:29:06,144 a pain pill problem. 894 00:29:06,211 --> 00:29:08,546 I confided in her when I agreed 895 00:29:08,613 --> 00:29:09,581 to be your sponsor. 896 00:29:09,647 --> 00:29:11,015 And you know what she said? 897 00:29:11,082 --> 00:29:13,151 She was worried 898 00:29:13,218 --> 00:29:16,020 that helping you might tempt me. 899 00:29:16,087 --> 00:29:18,189 Draw me back to the pills. 900 00:29:18,256 --> 00:29:19,424 I told her there's not 901 00:29:19,491 --> 00:29:22,293 a chance. 902 00:29:22,360 --> 00:29:25,230 And then the stress builds 903 00:29:25,296 --> 00:29:27,365 and builds until I'm dealing 904 00:29:27,432 --> 00:29:30,902 with a maniac who's with control 905 00:29:30,969 --> 00:29:32,837 of my grandchild. 906 00:29:32,904 --> 00:29:34,372 And for the first time in 907 00:29:34,439 --> 00:29:36,741 I don't know how long, I thought 908 00:29:36,808 --> 00:29:38,910 just one pill would give me 909 00:29:38,977 --> 00:29:39,978 some release. 910 00:29:40,044 --> 00:29:43,948 Just-- just to ease the tension. 911 00:29:44,015 --> 00:29:45,750 It would help everyone else. 912 00:29:45,817 --> 00:29:47,185 If they didn't have to deal 913 00:29:47,252 --> 00:29:48,219 with my tension. 914 00:29:48,286 --> 00:29:49,454 If they didn't have to deal 915 00:29:49,521 --> 00:29:53,091 with Mr. Uptight. 916 00:29:53,158 --> 00:29:54,526 >> Nikki: Nobody thinks of you 917 00:29:54,592 --> 00:29:55,727 that way. 918 00:29:55,793 --> 00:29:57,362 >> Jack: You do. 919 00:29:57,428 --> 00:29:58,730 You said it yourself. 920 00:29:58,796 --> 00:29:59,631 >> Nikki: That was just 921 00:29:59,697 --> 00:30:02,834 because I was mad at you. 922 00:30:02,901 --> 00:30:04,702 And I want you out of here. 923 00:30:04,769 --> 00:30:05,703 >> Jack: I don't want 924 00:30:05,770 --> 00:30:08,239 to go anywhere. 925 00:30:08,306 --> 00:30:11,876 I want what you have! 926 00:30:11,943 --> 00:30:13,211 I want to just drink 927 00:30:13,278 --> 00:30:15,446 and wash it all away. 928 00:30:15,513 --> 00:30:16,781 You do that. 929 00:30:16,848 --> 00:30:18,416 You've survived. 930 00:30:18,483 --> 00:30:19,984 I just want it for me. 931 00:30:20,051 --> 00:30:22,487 For one night. 932 00:30:22,554 --> 00:30:23,955 >> Nikki: You know that's not 933 00:30:24,022 --> 00:30:25,690 how it works, Jack. 934 00:30:25,757 --> 00:30:27,792 That's crap. 935 00:30:27,859 --> 00:30:29,861 That's the disease talking. 936 00:30:29,928 --> 00:30:32,297 It's the rationalization. 937 00:30:32,363 --> 00:30:34,165 >> Jack: Wow, who's handing out 938 00:30:34,232 --> 00:30:36,601 the platitudes and advice now? 939 00:30:36,668 --> 00:30:38,570 >> Nikki: Well, that's 940 00:30:38,636 --> 00:30:39,971 because you're the one with 941 00:30:40,038 --> 00:30:41,639 the family who needs you. 942 00:30:41,706 --> 00:30:43,975 I mean, they count on you. 943 00:30:44,042 --> 00:30:45,276 You're the glue 944 00:30:45,343 --> 00:30:46,611 that holds them together. 945 00:30:46,678 --> 00:30:48,947 >> Jack: I said that about you. 946 00:30:49,013 --> 00:30:50,014 >> Nikki: Yeah, but that was 947 00:30:50,081 --> 00:30:51,282 a lie. 948 00:30:51,349 --> 00:30:53,084 My family blames me for this 949 00:30:53,151 --> 00:30:54,452 whole nightmare with Jordan. 950 00:30:54,519 --> 00:30:56,387 You saw it on Summer's face 951 00:30:56,454 --> 00:30:57,755 when I told her that I had 952 00:30:57,822 --> 00:30:59,524 saved Jordan's life. 953 00:30:59,591 --> 00:31:01,259 Oh, she tried to deny it, 954 00:31:01,326 --> 00:31:02,694 but it was obvious. 955 00:31:02,760 --> 00:31:03,962 She blames me. 956 00:31:04,028 --> 00:31:05,029 I saw it in her eyes. 957 00:31:05,096 --> 00:31:05,964 >> Jack: No, no, no. 958 00:31:06,030 --> 00:31:08,066 No, no, no. I did not see that. 959 00:31:08,132 --> 00:31:09,133 >> Nikki: Well, I don't want 960 00:31:09,200 --> 00:31:10,401 to hear it. 961 00:31:10,468 --> 00:31:12,837 And I don't want any company 962 00:31:12,904 --> 00:31:14,706 on my trip to rock bottom. 963 00:31:14,772 --> 00:31:15,974 Do you understand? 964 00:31:16,040 --> 00:31:18,176 This is my world. 965 00:31:18,243 --> 00:31:20,245 My nightmare 966 00:31:20,311 --> 00:31:22,447 and I don't want company. 967 00:31:22,513 --> 00:31:23,948 You're not welcome. 968 00:31:24,015 --> 00:31:24,882 >> Jack: Too bad. 969 00:31:24,949 --> 00:31:28,086 You're stuck with me. 970 00:31:28,152 --> 00:31:29,420 Come on! 971 00:31:29,487 --> 00:31:33,825 Let's do this together. 972 00:31:33,891 --> 00:31:35,493 >> Nikki: You are being 973 00:31:35,560 --> 00:31:37,862 incredibly cruel. 974 00:31:37,929 --> 00:31:39,897 >> Jack: Oh, that is rich. 975 00:31:39,964 --> 00:31:41,499 I give up and join you, 976 00:31:41,566 --> 00:31:42,567 and I'm the cruel one. 977 00:31:42,634 --> 00:31:43,901 You level vitriol 978 00:31:43,968 --> 00:31:45,270 and accusations at me 979 00:31:45,336 --> 00:31:46,437 all night long. 980 00:31:46,504 --> 00:31:47,672 What do you expect me to do? 981 00:31:47,739 --> 00:31:48,873 Just turn my back on you? 982 00:31:48,940 --> 00:31:49,807 >> Nikki: I expect you 983 00:31:49,874 --> 00:31:51,209 to get the hell out of here. 984 00:31:51,276 --> 00:31:52,143 >> Jack: We're in this 985 00:31:52,210 --> 00:31:53,444 together now. 986 00:31:53,511 --> 00:31:54,245 >> Nikki: You're trying 987 00:31:54,312 --> 00:31:56,180 to make me feel more worried 988 00:31:56,247 --> 00:31:57,181 about you than 989 00:31:57,248 --> 00:31:58,049 I am about myself. 990 00:31:58,116 --> 00:31:59,350 >> Jack: No, no. But you don't 991 00:31:59,417 --> 00:32:00,318 have to worry about me. 992 00:32:00,385 --> 00:32:01,552 I can handle it, just like 993 00:32:01,619 --> 00:32:02,787 you say you can. 994 00:32:02,854 --> 00:32:04,455 >> Nikki: Okay, that's it. 995 00:32:04,522 --> 00:32:05,957 That's it. 996 00:32:06,024 --> 00:32:07,625 You're out of here, buddy. 997 00:32:07,692 --> 00:32:09,060 Now. 998 00:32:09,127 --> 00:32:10,228 Or I am going to start 999 00:32:10,295 --> 00:32:11,262 screaming and I'm going 1000 00:32:11,329 --> 00:32:13,364 to call the police, too. 1001 00:32:13,431 --> 00:32:14,766 Jack! 1002 00:32:14,832 --> 00:32:16,100 No! 1003 00:32:16,167 --> 00:32:18,036 I can't let you do that. 1004 00:32:18,102 --> 00:32:20,505 >> Jack: How's it feel? 1005 00:32:20,571 --> 00:32:22,307 To not be able to stop someone 1006 00:32:22,373 --> 00:32:23,341 you love from hurting 1007 00:32:23,408 --> 00:32:25,343 themselves? 1008 00:32:25,410 --> 00:32:27,745 >> Nikki: Jack! 1009 00:32:35,453 --> 00:32:36,721 >> Nikki: You didn't really take 1010 00:32:36,788 --> 00:32:38,156 that pill. 1011 00:32:38,222 --> 00:32:39,524 It was all an act. 1012 00:32:39,590 --> 00:32:41,693 You were trying to show me 1013 00:32:41,759 --> 00:32:43,194 what it's like to not be able 1014 00:32:43,261 --> 00:32:44,929 to stop you, right? 1015 00:32:44,996 --> 00:32:46,197 >> Jack: There is something 1016 00:32:46,264 --> 00:32:49,334 liberating about just giving up. 1017 00:32:49,400 --> 00:32:51,169 >> Nikki: Jack, you-- you have 1018 00:32:51,235 --> 00:32:53,504 no reason to give up. 1019 00:32:53,571 --> 00:32:55,039 I mean, you-- 1020 00:32:55,106 --> 00:32:56,307 you have everything. 1021 00:32:56,374 --> 00:32:58,343 Your-- your life is perfect. 1022 00:32:58,409 --> 00:33:00,244 >> Jack: On the outside, yeah. 1023 00:33:00,311 --> 00:33:02,680 You don't know my inner life. 1024 00:33:02,747 --> 00:33:04,816 >> Nikki: It's because I've been 1025 00:33:04,882 --> 00:33:07,318 too selfish to ask. 1026 00:33:11,489 --> 00:33:13,358 >> Jack: I let you down 1027 00:33:13,424 --> 00:33:17,428 as a friend, as a sponsor. 1028 00:33:17,495 --> 00:33:19,097 I know you blame yourself 1029 00:33:19,163 --> 00:33:21,432 for what happened to Claire. 1030 00:33:21,499 --> 00:33:23,401 I blame myself for your slip. 1031 00:33:23,468 --> 00:33:24,469 >> Nikki: No, please, don't. 1032 00:33:24,535 --> 00:33:25,436 Don't do that. 1033 00:33:25,503 --> 00:33:27,138 Jack, please, listen. 1034 00:33:27,205 --> 00:33:28,539 Listen to me. 1035 00:33:28,606 --> 00:33:31,442 I-- I am going to get sober, 1036 00:33:31,509 --> 00:33:32,477 okay? 1037 00:33:32,543 --> 00:33:34,278 I'm going to have some coffee 1038 00:33:34,345 --> 00:33:36,280 and a little something to eat, 1039 00:33:36,347 --> 00:33:39,217 okay? 1040 00:33:44,956 --> 00:33:47,325 Come, come join me. 1041 00:33:47,392 --> 00:33:48,693 >> Jack: No, no, 1042 00:33:48,760 --> 00:33:53,364 this feels too good. 1043 00:33:53,431 --> 00:33:54,532 >> Nikki: Jack, Jack, no, 1044 00:33:54,599 --> 00:33:55,666 please, stop. 1045 00:33:55,733 --> 00:33:57,502 I'm begging you, please, 1046 00:33:57,568 --> 00:33:58,970 give me the pills. 1047 00:33:59,036 --> 00:34:00,004 Give me the pills. 1048 00:34:00,071 --> 00:34:01,873 You-- you can't mix them 1049 00:34:01,939 --> 00:34:02,774 with alcohol. 1050 00:34:02,840 --> 00:34:04,642 >> Jack: You're giving me 1051 00:34:04,709 --> 00:34:06,310 advice now? I like that. 1052 00:34:06,377 --> 00:34:08,146 [ phone ringing ] 1053 00:34:08,212 --> 00:34:11,182 What? What? 1054 00:34:11,249 --> 00:34:12,450 I got it! 1055 00:34:12,517 --> 00:34:13,918 >> Nikki: Oh! 1056 00:34:13,985 --> 00:34:15,920 >> Jack: It's Victor. 1057 00:34:15,987 --> 00:34:17,855 It's a missed messages. 1058 00:34:17,922 --> 00:34:19,791 Missed, mixed-- Can't say it. 1059 00:34:19,857 --> 00:34:20,525 >> Nikki: All right. 1060 00:34:20,591 --> 00:34:21,292 Give me my phone-- 1061 00:34:21,359 --> 00:34:22,460 >> Jack: No, what, you don't 1062 00:34:22,527 --> 00:34:23,394 want me answering it? 1063 00:34:23,461 --> 00:34:25,096 Hello, Mr. Mustache. 1064 00:34:25,163 --> 00:34:27,098 It's me, Mr. Uptight. 1065 00:34:27,165 --> 00:34:28,366 You would not believe 1066 00:34:28,433 --> 00:34:29,267 where I am. 1067 00:34:29,333 --> 00:34:30,334 You should come join us 1068 00:34:30,401 --> 00:34:31,135 for the fun. 1069 00:34:31,202 --> 00:34:33,037 >> Nikki: That is so not funny. 1070 00:34:33,104 --> 00:34:34,105 >> Jack: Can you imagine how 1071 00:34:34,172 --> 00:34:34,972 he would react 1072 00:34:35,039 --> 00:34:35,873 if he saw us here? 1073 00:34:35,940 --> 00:34:37,008 It would be fun to see 1074 00:34:37,074 --> 00:34:38,776 the look on his face-- 1075 00:34:38,843 --> 00:34:40,311 Yeah, okay, yeah. 1076 00:34:40,378 --> 00:34:41,579 Maybe we should leave him 1077 00:34:41,646 --> 00:34:42,480 in the dark. 1078 00:34:42,547 --> 00:34:43,614 He'd just disapprove. 1079 00:34:43,681 --> 00:34:44,549 Give me that look. 1080 00:34:44,615 --> 00:34:45,516 Why does he do that 1081 00:34:45,583 --> 00:34:47,618 with his eyebrow? 1082 00:34:47,685 --> 00:34:49,420 Hey, hey. 1083 00:34:49,487 --> 00:34:52,223 Hey, what? 1084 00:34:52,290 --> 00:34:55,993 Hey, let's just stay here. 1085 00:34:56,060 --> 00:34:58,663 Our own private paradise. 1086 00:34:58,729 --> 00:35:00,331 You and me, okay? 1087 00:35:00,398 --> 00:35:01,732 Look out for each other. 1088 00:35:01,799 --> 00:35:02,733 >> Nikki: Jack, Jack, Jack, 1089 00:35:02,800 --> 00:35:06,871 I-- I-- I was wrong. 1090 00:35:06,938 --> 00:35:10,007 You're right, I-- I-- I'm sorry. 1091 00:35:10,074 --> 00:35:11,943 I do need a meeting. 1092 00:35:12,009 --> 00:35:13,878 I-- I need you to take me. 1093 00:35:13,945 --> 00:35:15,613 You need one, too. 1094 00:35:15,680 --> 00:35:16,547 >> Jack: Dance with me. 1095 00:35:16,614 --> 00:35:17,482 >> Nikki: No, no, no. 1096 00:35:17,548 --> 00:35:18,349 >> Jack: No, come on, 1097 00:35:18,416 --> 00:35:19,083 dance with me. 1098 00:35:19,150 --> 00:35:19,951 >> Nikki: I don't feel 1099 00:35:20,017 --> 00:35:20,718 like dancing, Jack. 1100 00:35:20,785 --> 00:35:21,719 >> Jack: Dance with me. 1101 00:35:21,786 --> 00:35:22,453 >> Nikki: Please, Jack. 1102 00:35:22,520 --> 00:35:23,721 Oh, my God. 1103 00:35:23,788 --> 00:35:28,392 Jack, Jack, wake up. 1104 00:35:28,459 --> 00:35:31,095 Oh, my God, wake up. 1105 00:35:31,162 --> 00:35:34,699 Jack, wake up, please. 1106 00:35:34,765 --> 00:35:36,801 Jack! 1107 00:35:50,181 --> 00:35:53,184 Captioned by Los Angeles Distribution and Broadcasting, Inc. 1108 00:35:53,251 --> 00:35:56,254 Captioning provided by Bell Dramatic Serial Company, 1109 00:35:56,320 --> 00:35:59,357 Sony Pictures Television and CBS, Inc. 1110 00:36:00,858 --> 00:36:05,162 Join us again for "The Young and the Restless."