Lily. Oh! When you texted about getting together,
it made my whole day. Come in, come in, come in.
Are you sure it's not a bad time?
I'm positive. I cleared my calendar.
Mrs. Martinez, in your honor,
has made a lovely pitcher of lemonade.
The house, we have to ourselves.
We can talk all afternoon if you want to.
Thank you. I would--I'd love
nothing more than that but...
this isn't really
a happy catch-up.
Well, what's wrong?
I mean, everything, you know.
I just...
I feel like...
my whole world is imploding
and I just need a friend to tell me
that it's gonna be okay.
Nothing like holding
someone's life in your hands.
No pressure there, huh?
I know what I'm asking of you
is a lot.
Is it? I mean, you are,
after all, my biological father.
Not that I even knew that or you
an hour ago.
And that's my fault. I'm sorry.
I don't even know what it means
to donate bone marrow.
What do I have to do?
First, you'd have to do a cheek swab
to test your HLA profile.
Then there's a blood test to verify.
After that, if the HLA matches,
we do a full health screening.
Okay, and if I pass all of that and I'm a match, then what?
The transplant is surgical. You'd be put under anesthesia.
Holden.
You don't have to make a full decision right now.
If you could just agree to find out
if you're a viable option...
♪♪
Malcolm's right.
Before any major decisions can be made,
we have to first determine if you're a match.
I guess I could do that much.
I appreciate it. And I am sorry
that you're being blindsided like this.
Guys, for now, if we could table
the emotional end of this,
and let's deal with
the more urgent issues at hand.
That's probably a good idea since I don't even know
where I'm at emotionally at the moment.
Well, you're not alone in that.
I'll go check on you getting tested at a local clinic.
I'll be right back.
I'm sorry for being such a mess.
I just--I didn't know who else to call.
Don't apologize. We're friends!
Unloading is what we do.
I know, I just...
I wouldn't normally bother you with something like this, but...
Devon is just really, really angry at me.
I guess I'm not surprised that he's a little angry,
but I would think he would be happy you're back.
You were away for so long.
Yeah. It's just that he had that whole nightmare
with Dominic and, you know,
I added to it, and...
-I didn't mean to hurt him. -No, no.
Of course you didn't. And Devon knows that.
Just give him a little time. He'll come around.
I hope so.
'Cause I just feel like I can't talk to him right now.
And I also promised that I wouldn't tell him
what I found out.
Wait--who did you promise
that you wouldn't tell something to Devon?
It wasn't Cane, was it?
No, no, no. That's a whole other issue.
No, um...
My Uncle Malcolm confided in me
in something this morning, and...
he doesn't want me to tell anyone about it.
But I feel like I have to talk to someone,
and I know that you'll be the person
that will keep it between us.
Okay, sweetie, Lily,
you can tell me as little or as much as you need to.
I promise I will not tell a soul.
Thank you.
How is Malcolm?
He's not good.
I'm so sorry to hear that.
You know he's my biological father.
Yes.
So he came to me to see if I could be a donor
for his bone marrow donation.
Well...this does sound serious.
It is serious. It is. And...
what's worse is that I can't help him--I can't.
Which just makes me feel so awful
on so many different levels.
And if he doesn't find another donor soon...
Like, I don't know what I'll do, Traci.
Oh, honey, honey.
Oh, my gosh, honey.
I still can't believe that you're Lily Winters' father
and she and I are brother and sister.
It is wild.
I grew up an only child,
always wishing that I had brothers and...
You know, I had a friend who was like a brother.
And it was...it was great.
[laughs] Until I lost him.
I'm sorry.
Yeah, me too.
I can honestly say
I never imagined having a sister,
let alone wanting one.
The fact that it's Lily Winters, of all people...
Why don't you have a seat?
You said you know her.
I hope the two of you are at least on good terms.
Yeah, we...we hit some rocky patches when we first met.
But it's--it's definitely less tense.
It was never that bad.
I'm happy to hear that.
Not that we're like best buds or anything but, uh,
we can be civil with each other.
It's a start.
Yeah.
How you doing with all this?
Honestly...
this all feels surreal.
It's not like... it's not like I'm sad
that Jerry isn't my bio dad.
I have no memory of the man since he died when I was a baby.
But it's my mom...
the fact that she sat on this for all those years
and she never said a word...
That part really blows my mind.
You know you got every right to be angry.
I don't know if I'm angry or disappointed
or...or what I feel.
It's like...
it's like I'm outside of my body just watching all this unfold,
and I honestly just feel numb.
I'm pretty shellshocked myself.
Unfortunately, I don't really have the time to process it,
but it's not that I don't want to.
Holden.
I do.
Okay. Okay.
This does sound serious. So tell me, how sick is Malcolm?
I mean, if you ask him, he's acting like everything is fine.
He's being really upbeat and positive, you know,
but the truth is is that he has this serious blood disorder,
and I just found out this morning.
Oh, honey, no wonder you're upset!
And I was just so happy when he called
to say that he wanted to see me.
You know, I felt like something was finally going right.
And he looked so good, too.
Like, I would have never guessed that anything was wrong.
Okay. What does he have, Lily?
It's called aplastic anemia.
And I guess it's curable if it's addressed early,
which is why he wanted to see me.
Okay. So he has asked you to get tested
to find out if you're a viable donor.
Yeah. And we both had really high hopes, you know,
and it also almost felt like my dad had a hand in it
because I've always...
I've always felt so guilty that I couldn't save his life.
Lily, you have been a wonderful daughter to Neil.
He was so proud of you. He loved you so much.
I know, but I couldn't save him when it mattered.
Now I--and now I can't save Malcolm.
Oh, sweetie.
Why do you think you're not a match?
It doesn't matter if I am or not because I can't be a donor
because of my past cancer treatment.
Oh, my God, honey,
that must have been so painful to hear that.
I just feel like I've failed him.
No! This is not your fault.
I know, but I just wanted to be able to help, you know?
Sweetie.
You will help. Just not as a donor.
But you're going to find so many ways to be there for Malcolm.
I know, but I just feel like anything else I do,
it's not gonna be enough.
You have to stop talking like that.
Okay. Tell me what's next.
I don't even wanna think about it.
Because if I can't give him what he needs...
No. Lily, listen to me.
You can't give up hope. There is every reason to believe
that there is a donor out there that can help Malcolm.
I know, but that could take months or years
for him to find one, and by then, it could be too late.
[whispering] Stop, Sweetie, stop.
Jumping to the worst-case scenario
isn't good for anyone.
I know that. I'm not trying to.
I'm just scared, Traci.
Because if I lose Malcolm after I lost my dad,
I don't know what I'm gonna do.
Oh, honey, honey, honey.
Oh...
I can't imagine what you must be going through.
On top of dealing with a life-threatening disease,
finding out that...
that you have a son that you never even knew about.
Kinda feels like drinking through a firehose
going full blast.
Ha. Yeah.
Look, uh...
I don't know how this is gonna play out between us,
and it's too soon to think about
what a relationship might look like going forward or...
if you even want one, but...
I hope you do.
Right now...
I'm just...just trying to get through this moment,
sitting across from a stranger who I...
I just found out is my dad.
It is a lot to process.
It kinda feels like my karma, learning things too late.
As far as your medical condition goes, it won't be too late.
I told you before. This disease is very treatable
if addressed early on, and that's what we're doing.
The clinic can take you as early as this afternoon.
-Wow. That soon, huh? -Mm-hmm. Yeah.
I just texted you the address and information.
Got it.
Uh, okay. Well, uh...
I guess I will--I'll head over.
Holden.
Call me when you're done. I wanna see how things go.
If Holden is a match,
we can start looking at how soon we can schedule your surgery.
I can't believe you did this.
How could you keep my son from me?
I'm sorry. I don't mean to unload all of this on you.
Oh, honey, don't you dare apologize.
You are obviously sitting on so much,
and you've gotta get it out.
That's the only way you're gonna be able to move past it.
I know. I just feel like...
I lost my mom...you know.
I lost the best dad that anyone could ever ask for.
And Malcolm is all that I have left.
Sweetie...
I know this is all so painful for you,
but you're talking like there's no hope.
And I just won't let you do that.
There is always a reason to hope,
no matter how bad the situation is.
And I refuse to believe anything but this--
a positive outcome for Malcolm and for you.
You just have to believe it will be.
Thank you.
I needed to hear that.
You know what, sweetie? I did too.
I guess I need to just... [sniffling]
text Malcolm and tell him to meet me
so that I can... tell him the news.
Oh, he texted me.
He wants to see me.
Okay. Do me a favor.
When you see him,
tell him right away that you can't be a donor.
That will give him plenty of time
to make other arrangements, okay?
How am I gonna tell him?
Yeah, I-I know. I just left.
But I wanted to reconfirm.
You'll call me with the results, right?
Whether or not I'm a match?
Okay.
Thanks. I'll be waiting.
[whispers] Man.
You were always my go-to.
Whenever I had something important in my life,
you were the first person I'd call.
And you've been lying to me my whole life.
How dare you?
Who are you talking to?
Are you spying on me?
Like I have nothing better to do?
Well, since you do...
don't let me keep you.
Ah, funny.
Uh, where's your mom?
Did she leave town already?
She's still here.
Well, why aren't you with her?
Did something happen?
-I get why you're angry. -Stephanie, answer the question.
I wish I could.
Truth is, I can't totally justify
why I kept the truth from you.
You and I had already parted ways
when I found out I was pregnant, so...
-I didn't see the point. -Why not?
It's not like we ended on bad terms.
-True. -So why not call?
I guess I didn't wanna disrupt your life.
You and I weren't together that long.
It's not like either one of us saw each other
as some everlasting love.
You make it sound like it was just a fling.
I don't mean to.
I can still remember how excited Olivia and Dru were
setting us up.
They thought we were perfect for each other.
MALCOLM: So Dru's been talking me up again, huh?
Better believe it.
Good old Dru, doing her little matchmaking thing.
You know, if it's bugging you, I can talk to her.
No. No, no, no.
Why not?
I told her I wouldn't mention it to you.
[laughs]
Well, I'm kinda glad you did. 'Cause you know something?
I don't think it's such a bad idea.
What isn't?
You and me hooking up.
Aw, hey, come on now, girl. Don't start bugging.
I'm just talking about a little date.
Just a date?
So what's up? Is that a yes?
It's probably the only way
I'll get your two PR people off my back.
-Two? -Dru and Olivia?
[laughs] Olivia's been on your back too?
I don't know what you're paying these women,
but you sure are getting your money's worth.
They're your two biggest fans.
We didn't hit it off at first, did we?
No, we did not. [chuckling]
But then...we had some fun.
Dinner, dancing.
Watching you do your thing at the photo studio.
Didn't we even work out together?
You wanted to show off your six-pack.
And I think I remember you looking pretty good
-in those spandex leggings. -[chuckles]
But then our careers took off.
We were both so driven to be successful
that our relationship didn't last.
The spark that we once had, it just...fizzled out.
And then you left town carrying our child.
I know it seems awful, but...
at the time, I thought it was for the best.
Stephanie, it wasn't only your decision to make.
I know. It wasn't.
But I want you to be honest with me.
Think back to that time in your life
when your career was taking off, the freedom you had.
Would you have really been ready
to welcome a child into your world?
Or would you have thought of it as an obstacle,
something that you resented,
that kept you from going after your dreams?
I guess we'll never know.
Lily, telling Malcolm you can't be a donor
will not be easy...
but you have to do it
and believe that everything is happening
the way it's supposed to.
I know, I just--I don't know how I can do that
when I feel like I'm letting him down.
Oh, honey, how are you letting him down?
You can't be a donor because you took cancer treatment.
Even if you could have predicted this,
if you had opted out of that,
there's a chance you wouldn't even be here today.
And nobody would want that, especially not Malcolm.
I never thought of it that way.
I'm completely convinced that once you explain to him
why you can't be a donor, he will understand.
And he certainly isn't going to blame you.
Besides...
even though your cancer treatment has disqualified you,
there was never a guarantee that you were gonna be a match.
You're amazing.
Oh, stop. [laughs]
No, I'm serious.
You really helped me see the silver lining in all of this.
Thank you.
Just promise me...
you're not gonna dance around the truth.
When you see him, tell him.
That will give him plenty of time
to explore other options, okay?
I will.
I love you.
Thank you for always being there for me.
Oh, honey. [chuckles] Always is right.
[continues chuckling]
Malcolm, maybe you're right.
Maybe I shouldn't have kept it from you or from Holden,
but I did, and I can't change that.
Bottom line-- I'm only telling you now
because I wanted to save your life.
So what are you saying? If not for my condition,
you may never have told me or Holden the truth?
Probably not.
So much time had passed, what was the point?
He's my son, Stephanie.
And he will be as long as he lives.
I've already missed out
on all the years of him growing up.
Malcolm, please know I never meant to hurt you.
Well, you know what?
This isn't the time or place to rehash all of this.
I got way too much on my mind
to be brought down by decisions made in the past.
I agree.
I gotta go see Lily and give her the news about her donor status.
-Gonna tell her about Holden? -I think I should,
so she doesn't feel like she's my only option.
How do you think she'll take the news that she has a brother?
This ain't the first time
Lily's had a bomb like this dropped on her.
Nothing happened, Audra.
Are you sure?
You didn't tell your mom
how we really know each other, did you?
Why would I do that?
Well, you told Claire.
What's to stop you from blabbing to your mom?
Look...look, I don't need this right now.
Oh, so something did happen.
Let me guess. She's disappointed in you
-for staying on with Cane. -Well, she's not the one
that should be disappointed with anyone, believe me.
What does that mean?
Nothing. Look, I'm not really up for conversation
right now, okay?
Seriously, Holden, I can see you're upset.
Are you sure you don't wanna talk about it?
Do you smell blood in the water, Audra?
-Is that what this is? -Excuse me?
Do you really think I would tell you if something was wrong
knowing that you would just turn it around
and use it against me later?
I was just trying to be nice.
Well, I don't need your nice,
and I'm not up for the usual back and forth here, okay?
This is private and personal, and...
I don't really wanna share it with you.
Well, in case you forgot,
we already share a pretty big secret.
And if you can't trust me, who can you trust?
Would you just go already?
Look, as much as you're trying to hide it,
I can see that you're hurting.
And given everything we've already been through together,
I like to believe, when all is said and done,
we're still friends.
Friends?
You wanna be a friend, then leave me alone.
Fine.
I'll leave you to your private pity party.
[footsteps retreat]
Was that request to be left alone
for everyone or just Audra?
I guess it was meant for everyone.
I'm sorry to bother you.
Uh, Claire, wait.
I, uh, I actually...
I could use somebody to talk to.
Although I'm a little surprised.
I thought you didn't want anything to do with me.
I never said I didn't want to be friends.
And you look like you could use one right now.
It's that obvious, huh?
Very.
Well...
if I'm gonna bare my soul,
I'd like it to be with someone who actually has one.
[footsteps approach]
It's like she knew you were talking about her.
I'm just grateful she didn't pull up a seat.
-Should we? -Uh, yes, please.
I know you pride yourself on keeping a cool exterior,
but all I had to do was look at you to know that
something's seriously wrong.
You...
you always got me in a way that...
not too many other people did.
LILY: So...[sighs]
I'm not gonna pretend like I have good news.
-Unfortunately, I-- -You can't be a donor
because of your cancer treatment.
How do you know that?
My doctor informed me when I let her know
that you were looking into getting tested.
But how does she know about my cancer treatment?
I told you before, Lily.
Stephanie's an old friend from Genoa City
and she's kept in touch with a few people from back in the day,
including your Aunt Olivia.
Okay. Well, I'm really sorry that you didn't hear it from me.
No, you got nothing to be sorry about.
It was a shot in the dark anyway.
No, I know, I just...
-I feel like I've let you down. -No.
No. There is no way you could ever do that.
Okay, well, I know that your doctor is an old friend, but...
is she gonna be able to find another donor?
I mean, do you feel like you can trust her judgment?
I can tell you're dealing with something big, so...
if you don't wanna talk about it, we can just sit here.
A person...
who I-I trusted...
probably more than anyone...
kept something pretty major from me.
I know that feeling. I'm not talking about Kyle.
I mean my aunt when she lied to me about the Newmans.
And then when you find out the truth,
it makes you question everything you were ever told.
Exactly.
I...
I never really knew my father.
I was a baby when he died unexpectedly.
And the only thing I have to remember him by
is a photo of him holding me when I was...
when I was first born.
Is that secret someone kept from you about him?
Partly.
My mom...my mom came to visit me today
and dropped some... some pretty shocking news.
It turns out the guy in the photo,
the one who died when I was a baby,
his name was Jerry Novak.
He wasn't my actual biological father.
The guy who is my bio-dad is--
he's still alive.
In fact, I-I just met him. [small laugh]
No way.
That's pretty big.
There's more.
Turns out that guy...
he has a daughter, which means I have...
A sister.
And you'll never guess who it is.
Do you know her? Do I know her?
It's Lily Winters.
What are the odds, right?
CLAIRE: I thought Lily's dad is Neil Winters.
Well, apparently, there's a story there too,
but my mom didn't want to get into it.
I guess she felt like I was dealing with enough already
finding out that the guy who I thought was my dad wasn't...
and that this guy-- Malcolm is his name--
he's not only my bio-dad, but he's Lily's too.
So this Malcolm guy...
what's he like?
He seemed like a decent guy.
And he just found out about me today too,
so his head was spinning just as fast as mine.
When I finally got to know my dad...
he exceeded my wildest dreams for a father.
I hope that happens for you too.
Well, I'm not sure Malcolm and I will ever be close.
You know, it's... it's a little late in the game
to do the whole father/son thing. Ha.
Why did your mom tell you now
after all this time?
Well, he... he has a blood disease,
and he needs a bone marrow donor.
-Lily's not a match? -Apparently not.
But my mom, and Malcolm,
are hoping I am.
I actually just got my test run not too long ago
to see if I'm a match, and, uh...
I should get the results pretty soon.
This is crazy.
And it's not over yet.
Lily, look...
the thing is, Stephanie isn't just my doctor.
Her and I went out years ago here in Genoa City.
Oh. I mean, I didn't know that.
I never heard you talk about her.
It wasn't all that serious.
I mean, we had our fun together, but in the end,
we were both so focused on our careers
the relationship didn't really stand a chance.
Yeah. Ambition can do that.
Stephanie's specialty is hematology,
so she was naturally the first person I thought to call.
Okay. So is that why she came here,
to tell you that I couldn't be a donor?
That was one reason.
The other was to offer a solution
because she knew I was still in need of a miracle.
Wait, she knows another way to potentially save your life?
She does.
But get ready.
When I tell you what it is, it's gonna blow your mind.
So if you are a match, I assume you're gonna help the guy.
My mom said that it means saving a man's life.
It's hard to say no to that.
Well, you should at least figure out what the risks are.
Right. Because...
I'll be taking the risks for somebody who I don't even know,
who...who also happens to be
my father.
Yeah, it's pretty mixed up.
I can see why you're all over the place.
Um...
thank you for listening.
I know I'm--I'm rambling, and...
No.
You just got a major shock. It changes everything,
like your whole life as you know it.
Of course you're trying to make sense of it all.
I mean, there's a part of me that gets why my mom
didn't tell Malcolm the truth.
They were so young, they were just starting their careers.
They weren't even together when she realized they were pregnant.
That couldn't have been easy for her.
I'm sure it wasn't, but...
the part that gets me is...
Why she kept me in the dark for all...those...years.
I mean, I...
I thought we were so close.
Now I can't help wondering what else she hasn't told me.
When Stephanie left town, she was pregnant.
I had no idea.
She had a son.
My son.
Wait...
what?
For a whole lotta reasons I still don't understand,
she decided to keep that news from me until today.
Uh, sorry, I--[huffs]
I can't believe what I'm hearing.
Imagine how I felt when she laid it on me.
Are you saying that... I have another brother?
Hey, Holden.
You know, I was thinking. You should talk to your mom.
She told you eventually, but she owes you an explanation
for why she kept it from you for so long.
I agree. I...
I just don't feel like talking to her right now.
[phone rings]
[laughs] Someone's ears were burning.
Well...
I'll go so you two can talk in private.
Uh, don't.
I'm...I'm not ready.
I'd actually rather take a walk.
Care to join me?
Holden, it's me.
I'm sure you're feeling all kind of emotions,
none of the least which is anger toward me
for keeping this from you for all these years.
I have no excuse, and I won't offer one except...
I thought what I was doing was the right thing back then.
And the more that time passed by,
seemed like it didn't matter as much...
until Malcolm's life was suddenly in jeopardy
and I thought you might be the one person
that could save him.
Ha.
I guess what they say about secrets is true.
They always come out.
Son, all I can hope
is that you open your heart...
...and please find a way to forgive me.
I'm sorry.
Lily, I know this is a huge shock
and I'm sorry to dump it all on you like this.
No, it's okay. I mean...
you just found out. I just--I-I...
cannot believe that I have a half-brother.
Wait--do you know who it is?
I do.
Okay, well, I guess that's good, right?
'Cause he could possibly be a donor for you.
He's getting tested to see if he's compatible as we speak.
-Wait a second. You met him? -A little while ago.
-For the first time. -I'm sorry. He's here in town?
He is.
And the two of you know each other.
-Who is it? -Holden Novak.
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