No, no, Mom, I'm not canceling. No.
Right. I'm just...
pushing it, okay?
The plan is to head out tomorrow or the day after that.
Yes, absolutely. I'll keep you posted.
Okay. I'll see you soon.
Hey!
Thought you and Sally would be sipping mimosas
on your way to London by now.
Yeah, so did I. Sally's not feeling well,
so I don't think champagne's the answer.
AUDRA: I heard it helps if you take the test
out of the box.
Okay, so maybe I misunderstood.
You just want a test
in the house for backup?
Or, if, down the road,
you think, gee, I really wish
I had a pregnancy test.
Ah. So there's a reason
you needed one right away.
I've just been tired. [sighs]
Like a different tired,
like I needed a nap
after I brushed my teeth tired.
Okay.
And really queasy.
Not exactly heartburn,
but not exactly...
roller coaster after a funnel cake.
It's a really bad idea to think about funnel cakes.
I try not to.
And before you ask, no.
Billy has no idea.
Yeah, I got that vibe when you kicked him out.
Uh...
You know, it really could just be a bug.
Yeah, I mean, that happens.
Yeah, you think the test
is gonna come out one way.
You're sure of it, and then
it's the other way around.
Yeah, I mean...
has it happened to you?
Where you think it was gonna be a yes
and then it turned out to be a no?
I, um...
I thought it was gonna be a no...
And it turned out to be a yes.
Wait, Audra. You were pregnant?
Once.
Can I ask what happened?
Hey. There's...
no news from Dad.
Every time I text him, nothing.
I leave a voicemail,
there's nothing again.
And I'm getting to be
a little crazy here, so please tell me
you have some better news.
♪♪
I haven't been able to contact your dad either.
This is exactly why I should be out there,
to stay in the loop and to reach out to you
when Dad can't.
I hear you and I understand
that instinct, I do, but...
two Newman men spoiling for a fight--
that's enough.
You, your dad, and Adam all trying to track down Matt? No!
Yeah, instead we just sit here and pretend everything is okay.
Chelsea and I discussed it last night.
Of course we're worried.
And with no contact,
we can only imagine what's happening there.
What is wrong with you?
Who tells lies like that?
People overdose and they die.
It's...it's sad.
You know, here's the thing. The war on drugs only works
if you [laughs] actually stop taking the drugs.
And it's not a fair fight. Nick did the best that he could,
and...
RIP.
To the golden ones.
You...
are a lying son of a bitch.
I hope Sally's not too ill.
I think she's just fighting a virus.
Not well enough to travel. Although she feels well enough
to have Audra come over and do some work.
Well, I'd say that's a good sign.
How did Jill take the news?
About me postponing? She said she's fine, although...
I don't know. Feels like she thinks I'm covering.
-Covering what? -I don't know, wimping out?
Not wanting to go there and follow through.
-Did she say that? -No, she didn't.
I just don't like that Jill thinks I'm, you know,
putting up a roadblock.
Hey, if Sally's sick, she's sick.
-I mean, what can you do? -Yeah.
She's definitely not feeling well.
She feels good enough to have
Audra come over and work, though. I don't know.
-Meaning what? -I don't know.
It seems like maybe she's having second thoughts
about playing the happy family.
If you'd rather not talk about it,
I understand, really. It's not my place. I'm sorry.
It's okay.
It was years ago.
With Tucker?
Uh...with Noah.
Oh, wow. I had no idea.
Yeah, neither did he.
I had realized it after we'd broken up.
My cycle was so messed up because...
I was so messed up.
Well, after you found out, did you tell him?
And say what? Yes, we're...
broken up, but I'm pregnant?
It was all so messy when things fell apart.
And I... I was afraid that he'd think
that I was planning to trap him all along
and that I was just telling him to make him feel guilty
Or...or worse, that...
I was lying about it.
The thought of that just killed me.
We went from...
being so close, so in love...
to things twisted and so ugly.
And me looking like some lying gold digger.
What happened?
I miscarried.
And then I couldn't tell him that either
because what if he thought that was a lie?
Or that I'd done something wrong.
That it was just all my fault?
Hey, Audra, no.
Okay? No. It is not your fault, all right?
Sometimes really terrible things happen,
and it is no one's fault.
I know it's not my fault. And, um...
what you went through wasn't yours.
I know the situations were very different.
-I would never presume. -Hey.
Grief is not a competition, okay?
What you went through matters.
And, yeah, I-I...
I really miss Ava.
But I'm really grateful to have held her.
And to have known her, even if it was just in my heart.
You know, um...
Sometimes I wonder...
What would have happened if I had gotten to be a mom.
I probably wouldn't have worked for Tucker.
Would you have still been an artist?
Oh, God, I hope not. I like to eat.
God.
You'd have been the mother of a Newman heir.
Groceries wouldn't have been an issue.
Yeah, but can you imagine the trade-off?
They would just try to control me and my baby
the way they do that entire family.
Do you think you and Noah would have still been together?
Um...
I can, um...
You know, I can wonder...
...about the baby's cheeks...
how much hair he or she would have had.
But I don't think about Noah. I can't.
What about you?
Do you, um...
do you think about Adam?
Adam is a great dad to Connor,
and I know he would have been an amazing father
to Ava.
But he and Chelsea...
They just have something really strong.
I think Noah's meant to be a dad.
Just look at his father.
The compulsive hero.
You were with Nick when you were pregnant.
Oh, yeah. Yeah, I was.
I was.
It was really...
...really complicated.
And then it was just really simple.
All that mattered was Ava.
I, um...
I don't know if I'm [sniffles]
meant to be a mom.
But, um, you don't have to
say or do anything to try to make me feel better.
This is about you.
And...
if you're ever gonna open that test.
I know. [exhales]
Once I do, I will have an answer.
Yeah. And that's scary.
Yeah. I think I just need another minute.
Well, take an hour.
But remember, it could just be heartburn.
Yeah.
Or it could be not...
heartburn.
You don't have to have all the answers, Sally.
I definitely don't have any of them.
But I could have one.
You okay?
Not really.
Me either.
[sniffling]
Did Chelsea hear something that we didn't?
-What did she tell you? -Chelsea had a nightmare
that something happened to Adam,
and it was one of those dreams where it feels so real,
she took it as a premonition.
Well, once you get something like that in your head,
it's hard to shake, so...
She was ready to go to Vegas to see for herself.
Do we have any idea if she went?
Like, do you think she's in Vegas now?
-You are a lying son of a bitch. -Stop it.
Where's my brother? What have you done with him?
RIZA: Come on, we don't need this drama.
He's lying! Nick is not dead, but Matt can't take you to him
if you throttle him, Adam! Stop! Stop!
-Come on. -You're scum, man.
I think that's the grief talking.
Just tell us where Nick is.
[laughing] Nick's in a better place.
-Listen, I'm-- -No, no, no, okay, wait.
Okay, look.
I heard this from a guy. Nick took some fent to calm down
and then he took some cocaine 'cause he wanted to amp back up,
and that's when bad things happened.
No. No way.
Yes, way.
Did you know that your brother was using?
Did you know that?
I think he started after our little road trip.
You know, it's always the big, strong meatheads
who think that they can beat the odds.
But this is Vegas, baby!
The house always wins.
Nick Newman...
he rolled snake eyes.
SHARON: There's a good chance
that Chelsea is in Vegas.
I don't know for sure.
Then you haven't heard from her either.
-No, not yet. -Okay, so...
Dad isn't responding to texts, Adam is outta touch,
and now Chelsea, who's probably in Vegas,
hasn't sent you an update
even though she knows that you're worried?
There are red flags everywhere, Mom. You have to see that.
Noah, I understand your concern.
Please don't treat me like I'm arguing with you.
I am just explaining, and there is a difference.
I have a lot on my mind.
Oh. Is it Mariah?
Like how are things going at the hospital?
She and her team have a lot to unpack,
but she wants help.
She's not resisting it like she used to.
-That's good. -If she doesn't leave.
Mom, it's court-ordered. She can't just walk outta there.
Mariah is supposed to stay there
as long as it takes for her to get well.
But...that's not good enough for Devon.
What does that mean? Has he said something?
Devon has gone to the courts.
He believes that Mariah belongs in a prison cell,
and he's not about to let that go.
Did you take the test?
I did, yeah.
And?
It's positive.
Wow!
Yeah.
This is--this is real!
It is. Yeah. Yeah.
Yeah, I mean, yeah, I know it's a--it's a...
It's a thing. It's--it's a big thing.
I just--I don't feel...
like it's real yet in my head.
Well, I take it it wasn't planned.
No.
No. I mean, no. We hadn't talked about it.
I mean, we just got back together.
And I was gonna-- I was gonna walk away.
Yeah, but you came back.
Yeah.
And now...
And now you're--
No, please, please, I'm so sorry, not yet.
I can't--I just--I don't wanna say it out loud yet.
Just not yet.
Yeah. Um...
You're, um...
you're positive...
by Billy.
You--you are gonna tell him.
BILLY: I don't blame Sally
for second-guessing being part of the family get-together.
I mean, we all know that things between Mom and me
can be tense at best, and at worst--
You have some autonomy in all of this.
It doesn't have to devolve into chaos
if you don't want it to.
My mother might disagree with you on that.
Your mother wants this reunion, Billy.
Yes, I know she is a large and powerful personality,
but she wants peace here. As for Sally,
you really think she would claim to be sick
just to get out of this trip?
You don't think so?
No, I think she's too strong for that, too honest.
And, Billy, she's in your corner.
No, I get that. If she's sick, she's sick.
It's just...I don't know.
It feels like there's something else she's not saying.
About you and Jill?
Maybe.
You don't have any theories? Any guesses?
You know what? This is pointless.
Sally's not feeling well, she's not feeling well.
I trust her. She wants to talk to me about it, she will.
-Yep. -That is not the reason
why I called you, by the way.
You didn't wanna talk about you and Sally?
No. I wanna talk about you and Diane.
Have you been able to connect with your wife yet?
My brother isn't dead. And you know where he is.
So take me to him.
-I don't know where he is. -Matt...
dead or alive, I wanna see Nick.
Cool. I can't help you.
If you don't...
I will kill you.
How does sticking Mariah into prison help anyone
if she gets locked up and doesn't get the treatment
that she needs?
Devon feels that...
the court didn't give enough weight
to the family's trauma.
What about Abby?
Abby seemed more willing to discuss things,
but that's her husband, and he's in pain.
She doesn't wanna make matters worse by disagreeing.
What, by standing up for Mariah, doing the right thing?
Christine said that
Devon has the right to present his argument.
And it's a long shot, but...
the court might listen.
And then we would have to go to trial,
something that we've been trying to avoid all along.
So after all this... Mariah might end up in prison.
And the thought of that...
just breaks my heart.
Breaks my heart.
Yeah, no, I'm--I'm-- I'm definitely gonna tell Billy.
I--I'm gonna-- yes, I'm gonna tell him.
I just, I...
Yeah, I hope I have words by then,
because right now, my brain's just--it's swirling.
Hey, I-I get it.
I'm really sorry...
if this is weird for you because of your experience.
It's a little weird, but it's...
it's not awful.
It's just not something, I, um, I talk about a lot.
Holden was bugging me about Noah,
and all I could say is...
there's painful history there.
Just leave it alone.
That's a very polite way of saying shut up.
But why would Holden think he could bug you about anything,
much less Noah?
Well, I guess I had a face when Noah was around.
Holden noticed.
Okay, well, A--it is still none of his business.
And B--I'm...
I'm really sorry.
I didn't realize how complicated
everything must have been for you--Noah coming back to town.
So much happened, and you didn't have him to lean on.
Yeah, well, that was my choice.
And I've lived with it.
But that's not you and Billy.
No. Billy and I have had a lot of really big talks.
He used to drive me crazy when nothing changed.
There's no way around it this time.
This big talk is gonna change everything.
Diane refuses to exchange more than a few words with me.
I don't know what else I can say or do.
Flowers delivered to the Club
are left to wither at the front desk.
Gifts returned.
Notes unopened, unread.
We have done so much to build this amazing life together.
We have fought together on the same team, and...
this is what it takes to turn us against each other?
If anyone understands that...
Okay, if you're about to take Diane's side here--
I'm not saying that. I'm just saying emotions
take on a life of their own.
I think the rational part of Diane knows
that you're not responsible for what happened,
but she saw you with another woman, Jack.
A psychotic, despised woman.
So logic has a hard time erasing that image,
if you know what I mean.
If I was really honest, what ticks me off
is that I have turned myself inside out
when she knows there is no other woman I wanna be with,
-regardless of what she saw. -So you're upset with her now?
I know what it takes to forgive the unforgivable.
-I have done it with her. -Yeah. Yeah.
That's true.
What she did to me, to Kyle, to all of us.
I somehow found a way to forgive her.
Another death threat.
Man, if I had a nickel
for every time a Newman threatened my life,
I would have actual Newman money.
And I mean old school Newman money,
not like the new poor version.
Matt, you don't know me.
I'm not my brother.
See, I don't have a noble streak.
I've done things...things that a sick freak like you'd
probably be impressed by.
Oh, we're bonding.
-[laughs] -Take me to my brother. Now.
-There's no hurry, seriously. -CHELSEA: Would you stop?
Is Nick ill? Is he in danger?
No, the danger has passed because he has passed.
We're going to see my brother. Now.
-Okay. Fine. -Right now.
Okay. [laughing]
Let's go.
-Thank God. -No, no, no, no, not you.
You stay here with Riza and compare notes.
Not a chance.
And we were careful.
Usually.
Basically.
Have you done the math yet?
As to when it happened?
Well...
what was happening then?
It was probably when we got back together.
I mean, not that we were completely broken up,
but, yeah, it was all... "I love you."
And "we're so good together."
"We can do this."
And you did.
Okay.
This needs to happen now.
Are you texting Billy?
Yeah.
He needs to come home.
We need to talk.
Jack, what are you saying?
I think I have reached my limit for groveling.
Look, I know you're frustrated about this whole--
If you're about to take Diane's side, please don't.
I think you need to understand
the shock of seeing you in the situation that we did,
especially for Diane.
I realize it is completely unexplainable.
How I got in that situation is unexplainable to me.
It's a combination of things, okay?
We thought you were in danger. We were looking for you.
The drugs, Victor's evil machinations, all of it.
I get it. I think Diane does too.
But that does not undo the shock of seeing you.
Then why is she throwing everything we have away?
Why am I the only one trying to heal this marriage?
I cannot answer that.
I will try again. I will get on my knees
and beg her to forgive me.
But if she won't listen to me, if she won't talk to me,
if we can't work on this together,
I don't know what else I can do.
Well, then it better work, right?
[phone chimes]
That Jill or Sally?
Sally.
Does that maybe mean she's feeling worse?
I'm about to find out.
Keep me posted. And on Jill.
I will. Listen.
I have hope for you, okay?
I have faith that you and Diane will come back from this.
Hang in there.
That's cute.
She thinks she has a choice.
She is right here, and you're not going anywhere without me.
I wanna be right by Adam's side because you're a garbage person
who can't be trusted.
You're very attractive, but you're pushing your luck.
You're gonna take us to Nick, and we're gonna make sure
he's okay, because he didn't overdose.
If something bad happened to him, it was you.
You're responsible, and you're gonna have to answer for it.
Another threat.
Couple more, and I'll have a whole set, like steak knives.
-ADAM: Stop wasting our time. -I'm not the one
wasting time here.
I offered you a deal. It's take it or leave it.
I will be fine. Just stay here.
I'm not doing that.
Every word that he says to you, I wanna throat punch him.
But like you said, if I do that, he cannot take me to my brother.
I will be fine, and I will look out for Nick.
Okay! Shake a leg.
Corpse isn't getting any fresher.
I thought you were supposed to be some badass.
I thought you cared about your friend Spider,
yet you just rolled over for that psychopath. So...
whose side are you really on?
You're strong, you're smart.
You are capable.
And positive.
One step at a time, okay?
Thank you.
For running over here when I needed you.
I haven't always had someone to count on, so...
I'm not getting emotional or sentimental
or anything like that, 'cause I know you hate that. I just...
Thank you for being there for me.
Well, it's best friend protocol.
I don't make the rules.
Now, what did I tell you?
Oh, yes. Yes, yes, yes.
Drink more ginger ale.
And one step at a time.
As easy as that.
Mm-hmm.
Yeah, no problem.
Well, Billy'll be here soon, and...
Yes. And you two will talk.
But call me if you need anything.
Anything.
Thank you.
Okay. Leave before I make you stay.
Okay. I'm gone.
-Call me. -I will, I will.
-Hey. -Hey.
You leaving already? I thought you guys were working.
Is Sally o--
[keys clatter]
-Hey. -Hey.
-You just missed Mom. -What?
She came by to pick up more of her things.
Did she? Good to know.
And Traci tried talking to her.
And got nowhere, I suppose.
I gave it a shot as well.
Well, thank you. I appreciate both of you,
but Diane is nothing if not stubborn,
and words have not seemed to move her at all.
Dad, like I've been saying, she needs time.
Yeah, I'm not sure time is on my side.
Just makes me feel more hopeless,
like she's digging her heels in deeper.
You're not giving up on Mom, are you?
That point might be moot.
From all I can see, your mother has given up on me.
And it takes more than one person
to rebuild a relationship.
Thanks.
Um, I need to call Christine
to see if she has any updates on Devon's petition.
Yeah. Let me know what she says.
I will.
Hey.
You mind if I sit?
Please. Go ahead.
You...
look a little off.
Yeah, I, uh, I feel a little off.
Did something happen?
You know when you...
When you do whatever you can
to push something out of your mind?
When you tell yourself that it's over, and...[huffs]
and the only thing you can do is to move on?
Yeah.
Yeah. Something come up for you?
London.
Our baby.
I'm fine, Billy. I'm not dying.
You have far too much color in your cheeks for that.
-What about a fever? -My--my temperature is fine.
That's true.
My nausea has eased up.
Nausea? Didn't know you had nausea.
You know, as your doctor, I, uh,
I can't take care if you don't tell me what's going on.
Is there any other symptoms
that you're not telling me about?
I'm not...sick, Billy.
Okay, well, that'd be denial.
Billy, I don't have a virus or a bug or anything like that.
I know exactly what it is.
You think I should have picked a fight with a maniac?
If you don't wanna be an accessory
to whatever crime your partner committed.
Ronnie or Matt or whatever might still trust me.
Blowing that up would mean losing our one advantage.
"Our" advantage?
[laughing] As if you're on our team?
How do we know that you're not playing us
because Matt told you to?
If you knew how dangerous Matt was,
why did you all come here to begin with?
Because he's that dangerous, and he needs to be stopped.
So you knew about this whole setup--
Adam coming back, doing his Spider thing?
Course I did.
-Mm. -We're in this together.
We don't keep secrets from each other.
Yeah.
Yeah, I'm sure you tell each other everything.
What is that supposed to mean?
It's like you're all playing a game
you're so sure you can win.
We are. Because losing is not an option.
And it didn't worry you at all
sending Adam back to his old life here?
You weren't afraid maybe he might actually
like being Spider again?
'Cause from what I saw,
this life could be Adam's addiction.
Nick.
I'm sorry that you're going through this
and that you've gone through so much on your own.
Well, it was... my choice not to tell you.
And if I handled it on my own, that's on me.
No, no, that's not what I meant.
Well, it's the truth.
I didn't tell you until so much later.
If you didn't think
that you could tell me at the time,
that's on me.
And I'm so, so sorry.
You know, Aunt Traci gave Mom a talking to.
-What did she say? -That you love her.
You wanna win back her trust
and that Mom hurt you and the rest of us in the past,
so maybe she could cut you a little grace.
-She went that far? -She did.
And what did your mother say?
She got worked up.
Angry. Defiant. Anything but contrite.
Dad, Mom loves you.
-We all know that. -Do we?
I mean, from all I can see,
Diane has forgotten that we are meant for each other.
She needs a gentle reminder. No argument there.
But I think what Traci said got to her.
Maybe a little.
Kyle, I'm at my wit's end. I--
I do not know what to do,
and I'm sorry I dragged you into the middle of this.
I'm in the middle of this
whether any of us like it or not.
I gotta get to the office.
I just wish I could be more help.
No, it helps to talk.
Gets me out of my own head for a while.
-See ya. -See ya.
Nikki.
Any chance we could have dinner together?
Yeah. Tonight.
Sally, you're kinda freaking me out a little bit.
I know. I know. I'm really sorry.
-I'm--I'm sorry. -It's okay.
Look, whatever it is...
we can talk about it, right?
And there's specialists. We have plenty of resources.
We don't have to worry about that.
Whatever it is, we'll...
figure it out.
Hey.
[whispering] I'm pregnant.
Adam is fighting to protect the family he loves
from a monster, so, no...
I don't care that he's here...
or playing poker or the fact that he's teamed up with you.
It just serves one purpose and one purpose only
and that is to keep Matt Clark away from his family.
How 'bout you explain exactly what Matt did to Adam's family.
The sadism goes back decades. The list goes on and on.
But can I just ask you a question?
So do you always just pick up a random creep off the street
to partner with?
Because if you really trusted Matt Clark,
it shows that you don't read people well.
Oh.
You all wanted to find Matt, yeah?
You did. What was the plan after that?
Trust me when I say this.
You better pray that Nick is found alive.
Hey. Nick.
Come on, Nick.
Come on, open your eyes, Nick!
Come on, wake up!
Nick! Come on.
You can't be dead. Come on.
-Nick-- -[thunk]
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