1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 3 00:00:45,646 --> 00:00:50,151 ** [ Acoustic Guitar Playing Intro ] 4 00:01:08,936 --> 00:01:12,740 * TIME IT WAS AND WHAT A TIME IT WAS * 5 00:01:12,740 --> 00:01:16,144 * IT WAS * 6 00:01:16,144 --> 00:01:19,413 * A TIME OF INNOCENCE * 7 00:01:19,413 --> 00:01:24,518 * A TIME OF CONFIDENCES * 8 00:01:24,518 --> 00:01:27,855 * LONG AGO IT MUST BE * [ Weeping ] 9 00:01:27,855 --> 00:01:31,392 * I HAVE A PHOTOGRAPH * 10 00:01:31,392 --> 00:01:34,862 * PRESERVE YOUR MEMORIES * 11 00:01:34,862 --> 00:01:38,932 * THEY'RE ALL THAT'S LEFT YOU ** 12 00:01:38,932 --> 00:01:41,902 [ Woman Narrating ] HAVE YOU EVER CONFUSED A DREAM... 13 00:01:41,902 --> 00:01:43,837 WITH LIFE ? 14 00:01:46,307 --> 00:01:50,178 OR STOLEN SOMETHING WHEN YOU HAVE THE CASH ? 15 00:01:53,981 --> 00:01:56,250 HAVE YOU EVER BEEN BLUE ? 16 00:01:58,386 --> 00:02:03,123 OR THOUGHT YOUR TRAIN MOVING WHILE SITTING STILL ? 17 00:02:04,292 --> 00:02:06,827 MAYBE I WAS JUST CRAZY. 18 00:02:08,762 --> 00:02:10,698 MAYBE IT WAS THE '60s. 19 00:02:12,032 --> 00:02:14,034 OR MAYBE I WAS JUST A GIRL... 20 00:02:14,034 --> 00:02:17,438 [ Footsteps ] INTERRUPTED. 21 00:02:17,438 --> 00:02:19,807 PUT HER IN RESTRAINTS. LET'S DRAW BLOOD FOR TOX. 22 00:02:19,807 --> 00:02:23,844 HOLD ON, DEAR. GIVE HER FIVE MILLIGRAMS OF VALIUM, I.V. 23 00:02:23,844 --> 00:02:27,080 TURN HER HEAD SO SHE DOESN'T ASPIRATE. [ Retching ] 24 00:02:27,080 --> 00:02:29,082 THERE YOU GO. 25 00:02:29,082 --> 00:02:31,385 [ Doctor 2 ] ASPIRIN FRAGMENTS AND VODKA, I THINK. 26 00:02:31,385 --> 00:02:34,622 [ Doctor 1 ] DON'T TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK. TAKE HER TO THE LAB. 27 00:02:34,622 --> 00:02:38,859 YOU SHOULD CHECK MY HAND. THERE'S-- THERE'S NO BONES IN IT. 28 00:02:38,859 --> 00:02:41,061 [ Doctor 1 ] LOOKS LIKE A WRIST BANGER. 29 00:02:41,061 --> 00:02:43,063 IS THAT WHY YOU DID THIS ? 30 00:02:43,063 --> 00:02:45,433 AND OTHER THINGS. 31 00:02:45,433 --> 00:02:48,035 [ Nurse ] HER PARENTS ARE ON THE WAY. 32 00:02:48,035 --> 00:02:51,205 SOMETIMES IT'S HARD... 33 00:02:51,205 --> 00:02:53,807 FOR ME TO STAY IN ONE... 34 00:02:53,807 --> 00:02:55,609 PLACE. 35 00:02:55,609 --> 00:02:59,913 [ Man ] SUSANNA, IF YOU HAD NO BONES IN YOUR HAND, 36 00:03:02,149 --> 00:03:04,585 HOW DID YOU PICK UP THE ASPIRIN ? 37 00:03:14,595 --> 00:03:17,398 WHAT IS MY MOTHER DOING ? 38 00:03:17,398 --> 00:03:20,401 WOULD YOU ANSWER MY QUESTION, PLEASE ? 39 00:03:20,401 --> 00:03:22,803 HOW DID YOU PICK UP THE ASPIRIN... 40 00:03:22,803 --> 00:03:25,406 IF YOU HAD NO BONES IN YOUR HAND ? 41 00:03:26,674 --> 00:03:28,776 BY THEN THEY HAD COME BACK. 42 00:03:31,879 --> 00:03:33,481 I SEE. 43 00:03:35,015 --> 00:03:37,117 NO, YOU DON'T. 44 00:03:37,117 --> 00:03:39,119 WELL, 45 00:03:39,119 --> 00:03:42,222 INDULGE ME THEN. 46 00:03:43,424 --> 00:03:45,559 EXPLAIN IT TO ME. 47 00:03:47,895 --> 00:03:49,697 EXPLAIN WHAT ? 48 00:03:49,697 --> 00:03:52,433 EXPLAIN TO A DOCTOR THAT THE LAWS OF PHYSICS... 49 00:03:52,433 --> 00:03:54,835 CAN BE SUSPENDED ? 50 00:03:54,835 --> 00:03:57,838 THAT WHAT GOES UP MAY NOT COME DOWN ? 51 00:04:03,076 --> 00:04:05,078 EXPLAIN... 52 00:04:05,078 --> 00:04:07,615 THAT TIME... 53 00:04:07,615 --> 00:04:11,084 CAN MOVE BACKWARDS AND FORWARDS, 54 00:04:11,084 --> 00:04:13,220 AND NOW TO THEN AND BACK AGAIN, 55 00:04:13,220 --> 00:04:16,957 AND YOU CAN'T CONTROL IT ? [ Dog Barks ] 56 00:04:16,957 --> 00:04:19,327 WHY CAN'T YOU CONTROL IT ? 57 00:04:19,327 --> 00:04:21,795 [ Dog Barking ] 58 00:04:21,795 --> 00:04:23,597 WHAT ? 59 00:04:23,597 --> 00:04:26,066 WHY CAN'T YOU CONTROL TIME ? 60 00:04:26,066 --> 00:04:28,369 [ Barking Continues ] 61 00:04:30,170 --> 00:04:33,507 [ Barking Continues, People Chattering, Laughing ] 62 00:04:38,379 --> 00:04:42,383 [ Chatter Grows Louder ] 63 00:04:42,383 --> 00:04:44,518 SAM, SHH ! 64 00:04:45,519 --> 00:04:48,856 WHERE WERE YOU ? EVERYONE IS HERE. 65 00:04:48,856 --> 00:04:50,791 COME ON. 66 00:04:53,527 --> 00:04:56,864 MARY, YOU REMEMBER SUSANNA. YES, I DO. 67 00:04:56,864 --> 00:04:59,633 HI. HI. HI. 68 00:04:59,633 --> 00:05:01,935 SO THIS IS WHAT YOU'RE WEARING ? 69 00:05:01,935 --> 00:05:04,705 I DIDN'T KNOW IT WAS SO EARLY. I WOULD'VE CHANGED. 70 00:05:04,705 --> 00:05:08,041 [ Laughs ] HEY, EVERYBODY, LOOK WHO'S HERE. 71 00:05:08,041 --> 00:05:10,077 HI ! HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DAD. 72 00:05:12,413 --> 00:05:14,448 OH. I'M SORRY. I WANT TO SAY HI TO HER. 73 00:05:14,448 --> 00:05:16,850 SWEETIE, WOULD YOU HOLD THIS FOR ME ? 74 00:05:16,850 --> 00:05:19,687 I JUST WANT TO SAY HI TO SUSANNA. 75 00:05:19,687 --> 00:05:21,855 EXCUSE ME. SUSANNA ! 76 00:05:21,855 --> 00:05:25,025 SUSANNA ! [ Whispering ] PROFESSOR GILCREST'S WIFE. 77 00:05:25,025 --> 00:05:27,561 HI. BARBARA GILCREST. DO YOU REMEMBER ME ? 78 00:05:27,561 --> 00:05:30,330 BONNIE'S MOM. I'M BONNIE'S MOM. YEAH. 79 00:05:30,330 --> 00:05:32,400 YOUR SKIN IS SO BEAUTIFUL. 80 00:05:32,400 --> 00:05:34,735 NOW, BONNIE WAS IN YOUR LIT CLASS, WASN'T SHE ? 81 00:05:34,735 --> 00:05:37,571 YEAH. H-HOW IS SHE DOING ? 82 00:05:37,571 --> 00:05:40,173 SHE JUST GOT ACCEPTED TO RADCLIFFE. OH ! 83 00:05:40,173 --> 00:05:42,175 OH, WHAT A CONUNDRUM. 84 00:05:42,175 --> 00:05:44,978 I'M A WELLESLEY GIRL, MYSELF. 85 00:05:44,978 --> 00:05:47,781 BUT I THINK YOUNG WOMEN SHOULD MAKE UP THEIR OWN MIND, DON'T YOU THINK SO ? 86 00:05:47,781 --> 00:05:49,717 SUSANNA ? 87 00:05:52,085 --> 00:05:54,021 ARE YOU STONED ? 88 00:05:57,224 --> 00:05:59,359 DO YOU SMOKE POT ? 89 00:06:01,228 --> 00:06:03,664 TAKE L.S.D. ? 90 00:06:06,900 --> 00:06:08,836 NO DRUGS ? 91 00:06:14,107 --> 00:06:16,376 HOW DO YOU FEEL RIGHT NOW ? 92 00:06:19,847 --> 00:06:21,782 I... 93 00:06:22,850 --> 00:06:24,918 DON'T KNOW. 94 00:06:24,918 --> 00:06:27,120 I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M FEELING. 95 00:06:30,524 --> 00:06:32,426 YOU NEED A REST. 96 00:06:33,861 --> 00:06:36,797 WELL, I'LL GO HOME AND TAKE A NAP. NO, NO. 97 00:06:36,797 --> 00:06:39,733 YOU NEED TO GO SOMEWHERE WHERE YOU CAN GET A GENUINE REST. 98 00:06:40,734 --> 00:06:42,536 AND YOU'RE VERY LUCKY. 99 00:06:42,536 --> 00:06:45,205 THE BEST PLACE IN THE WORLD FOR SOMEONE LIKE YOU... 100 00:06:45,205 --> 00:06:48,075 IS LESS THAN A HALF AN HOUR FROM HERE. 101 00:06:48,075 --> 00:06:52,145 YOU DON'T MEAN CLAYMOORE ? SUSANNA, 102 00:06:52,145 --> 00:06:54,815 FOUR DAYS AGO, 103 00:06:54,815 --> 00:06:58,552 YOU CHASED A BOTTLE OF ASPIRIN WITH A BOTTLE OF VODKA. 104 00:07:00,287 --> 00:07:02,623 I HAD A HEADACHE. 105 00:07:05,058 --> 00:07:06,994 SUSANNA, 106 00:07:07,928 --> 00:07:10,330 YOUR FATHER IS A FRIEND OF MINE. 107 00:07:10,330 --> 00:07:12,132 HE'S A COLLEAGUE. 108 00:07:12,132 --> 00:07:17,337 HE ASKED ME TO SEE YOU EVEN THOUGH I DON'T DO THIS ANYMORE. 109 00:07:17,337 --> 00:07:21,709 YOU'RE HURTING EVERYONE AROUND YOU. 110 00:07:22,876 --> 00:07:28,215 NOW, CLAYMOORE IS A TOP-NOTCH PLACE. 111 00:07:28,215 --> 00:07:30,350 A LOT OF PEOPLE GO THERE. 112 00:07:30,350 --> 00:07:32,486 EVEN WRITERS-- 113 00:07:32,486 --> 00:07:34,488 LIKE YOU. 114 00:07:37,491 --> 00:07:39,627 [ Whispering ] GREAT. 115 00:07:52,439 --> 00:07:55,909 UH, YES, I'D LIKE A CAB AT 1240 MILFORD, PLEASE. 116 00:07:57,511 --> 00:07:59,312 MY MOTHER'S HERE. 117 00:07:59,312 --> 00:08:03,551 IT'LL BE LESS... EMOTIONAL IF WE DO IT THIS WAY. 118 00:08:03,551 --> 00:08:06,086 YOUR PARENTS AND I HAVE TALKED ABOUT IT. 119 00:08:40,020 --> 00:08:42,155 [ Radio D.J. Chattering Indistinctly ] 120 00:08:43,757 --> 00:08:46,560 [ Therapist ] NOW, MAKE SURE-- NO STOPS. 121 00:08:48,328 --> 00:08:50,263 BYE-BYE. 122 00:08:57,170 --> 00:08:59,973 [ Announcer On Radio ] MOSTLY CLEAR TONIGHT, WITH A LOW NEAR 60. 123 00:08:59,973 --> 00:09:03,543 THE OUTLOOK FOR TOMORROW IS PARTLY CLOUDY AND MILD, WITH A HIGH IN THE MID-70s. 124 00:09:03,543 --> 00:09:05,512 IT'S 69 IN BOSTON ! 125 00:09:05,512 --> 00:09:08,115 [ On Radio ] * WHEN YOU'RE ALONE AND LIFE IS MAKIN' YOU LONELY * 126 00:09:08,115 --> 00:09:12,519 * YOU CAN ALWAYS GO DOWNTOWN * 127 00:09:12,519 --> 00:09:16,724 * WHEN YOU'VE GOT WORRIES ALL THE NOISE AND THE HURRIES * 128 00:09:16,724 --> 00:09:19,326 * SEEMS TO HELP I KNOW * 129 00:09:19,326 --> 00:09:21,128 * DOWNTOWN * 130 00:09:21,128 --> 00:09:24,932 * JUST LISTEN TO THE MUSIC OF THE TRAFFIC IN THE CITY * 131 00:09:24,932 --> 00:09:29,402 * LINGER ON THE SIDEWALK WHERE THE NEON SIGNS ARE PRETTY ** 132 00:09:29,402 --> 00:09:32,272 [ People ] * ...A JOLLY GOOD FELLOW * [ Man Whispering ] SUSANNA ? 133 00:09:32,272 --> 00:09:35,142 * WHICH NOBODY CAN DENY * SUSANNA ? 134 00:09:35,142 --> 00:09:40,013 * NOBODY CAN DENY NOBODY CAN DENY * SUSANNA ? 135 00:09:40,013 --> 00:09:42,883 [ Knock At Door ] * FOR HE'S A JOLLY GOOD FELLOW * 136 00:09:42,883 --> 00:09:45,619 * HE'S A JOLLY GOOD FELLOW * SUSANNA, ARE YOU THERE ? 137 00:09:45,619 --> 00:09:49,022 * FOR HE'S A JOLLY GOOD FELLOW * 138 00:09:49,022 --> 00:09:52,259 HEY. I WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN. * WHICH NOBODY CAN DENY ** 139 00:09:52,259 --> 00:09:55,528 [ People Cheering ] LOOK, IT WAS A ONE-TIME THING, OKAY ? 140 00:09:55,528 --> 00:09:57,765 JUST COME TO MY OFFICE TONIGHT. [ Woman ] SWEETIE ? 141 00:09:57,765 --> 00:09:59,767 WHERE ARE YOU ? WE'RE OPENING THE PRESENTS. 142 00:09:59,767 --> 00:10:01,702 TELL THEM YOU'RE GOING TO A FRIEND'S. PLEASE. 143 00:10:01,702 --> 00:10:05,739 WHO SHOULD I TELL FIRST-- MY PARENTS, THE DEPARTMENT CHAIRMAN, OR YOUR WIFE ? 144 00:10:05,739 --> 00:10:07,875 SUSANNA. SUSANNA. NO. 145 00:10:14,381 --> 00:10:16,383 [ Man ] WHAT DID YOU DO ? 146 00:10:17,450 --> 00:10:19,386 WHAT DID YOU DO ? 147 00:10:21,254 --> 00:10:23,256 EXCUSE ME ? 148 00:10:24,925 --> 00:10:27,060 WELL, YOU LOOK NORMAL. 149 00:10:29,529 --> 00:10:32,532 I'M SAD. [ Chuckles ] 150 00:10:32,532 --> 00:10:36,269 WELL, EVERYONE'S SAD. 151 00:10:36,269 --> 00:10:38,071 I SEE THINGS. 152 00:10:38,071 --> 00:10:40,674 YOU MEAN LIKE, UH, TRIPPIN' ? 153 00:10:42,409 --> 00:10:44,211 KIND OF. 154 00:10:44,211 --> 00:10:48,015 WELL, THEN THEY SHOULD PUT JOHN LENNON AWAY, HUH ? 155 00:10:49,950 --> 00:10:52,820 I'M NOT JOHN LENNON. 156 00:10:52,820 --> 00:10:54,955 [ Chuckles ] 157 00:11:38,631 --> 00:11:41,268 DON'T GET TOO COMFORTABLE. 158 00:11:50,778 --> 00:11:52,880 SHOULDN'T MY PARENTS-- 159 00:11:52,880 --> 00:11:54,882 YOU HAVE TO SIGN THEM, MISS KAYSEN. 160 00:11:54,882 --> 00:11:57,417 YOU'RE OVER 18. THIS IS YOUR DECISION. 161 00:12:05,658 --> 00:12:07,795 UM-- 162 00:12:09,262 --> 00:12:11,498 I-I DIDN'T TRY TO KILL MYSELF. 163 00:12:13,533 --> 00:12:18,071 THAT'S THE KIND OF THING YOU TALK ABOUT IN THERAPY, HONEY. NOT HERE. 164 00:12:22,709 --> 00:12:24,845 MISS KAYSEN ? 165 00:12:24,845 --> 00:12:28,882 YOU HAVE THE DISTINCTION OF BEING THE ONLY SENIOR AT SPRINGBROOK... 166 00:12:28,882 --> 00:12:30,984 NOT GOING ON TO COLLEGE. 167 00:12:36,023 --> 00:12:38,291 MAY I ASK WHAT YOU PLAN TO DO ? 168 00:12:39,492 --> 00:12:42,029 I PLAN TO WRITE. 169 00:12:43,630 --> 00:12:45,833 BUT WHAT DO YOU PLAN TO DO ? 170 00:12:47,034 --> 00:12:50,170 LOOK. I'M NOT GONNA BURN MY BRA OR DROP ACID... 171 00:12:50,170 --> 00:12:52,172 OR GO MARCH ON WASHINGTON. 172 00:12:52,172 --> 00:12:55,142 I JUST DON'T WANT TO END UP LIKE MY MOTHER. 173 00:12:55,142 --> 00:12:57,945 WOMEN TODAY HAVE MORE CHOICES THAN THAT. 174 00:12:57,945 --> 00:13:00,713 [ Scoffs ] NO, THEY DON'T. 175 00:13:00,713 --> 00:13:02,950 AND HERE. 176 00:13:04,351 --> 00:13:08,455 YOU FORGOT ONE, DEAR. HERE. OH. 177 00:13:10,223 --> 00:13:13,226 SPEAKING FOR DR. WICK AND MYSELF, 178 00:13:13,226 --> 00:13:15,495 WELCOME TO CLAYMOORE, SUSANNA. 179 00:13:18,966 --> 00:13:22,102 THIS IS THE WOMEN'S WARD, ALSO KNOWN AS SOUTH BELL. 180 00:13:22,102 --> 00:13:24,104 THIS IS WHERE YOU'LL BE STAYING, 181 00:13:24,104 --> 00:13:26,706 AND THIS IS WHERE I WORK. 182 00:13:26,706 --> 00:13:29,642 ALL RIGHT, THIS IS THE SECOND FLOOR. 183 00:13:29,642 --> 00:13:33,981 I NEED YOU TO STAY CLOSE TO ME BECAUSE IT'S EASY TO GET LOST HERE. 184 00:13:39,119 --> 00:13:41,388 THIS IS OUR WARD. 185 00:13:41,388 --> 00:13:43,523 [ Door Closed, Locked ] 186 00:13:43,523 --> 00:13:47,394 ALL RIGHT. LET'S START WITH THIS ROOM. 187 00:13:49,396 --> 00:13:52,832 THIS IS THE ART ROOM. ** [ Off-Key Guitar Plucked ] 188 00:13:52,832 --> 00:13:54,634 POLLY. 189 00:13:54,634 --> 00:13:59,806 - WHAT ARE YOU DOING IN HERE ? - I FEEL VERY MUSICAL TODAY. CAN I-- 190 00:13:59,806 --> 00:14:03,944 CAN I JUST FOR-- JUST FOR A SECOND ? NOT TODAY, HONEY. MM-MMM. 191 00:14:11,952 --> 00:14:13,954 THAT'S POLLY. 192 00:14:13,954 --> 00:14:16,089 COME ON. 193 00:14:17,557 --> 00:14:19,492 [ Sighs ] 194 00:14:20,560 --> 00:14:22,362 MARGIE, 195 00:14:22,362 --> 00:14:26,199 POLLY WAS IN THE ART ROOM BY HERSELF. I'M SORRY, VAL. 196 00:14:27,300 --> 00:14:29,236 ALL RIGHT. 197 00:14:29,970 --> 00:14:32,105 AH, THE LIVING ROOM. 198 00:14:32,105 --> 00:14:34,241 EVERYONE HATES IT. 199 00:14:44,817 --> 00:14:46,886 AND THESE ARE THE PHONES. 200 00:14:46,886 --> 00:14:50,590 YOU NEED TO MAKE A CALL, PICK UP THE HANDLE, TELL THE NURSE. 201 00:14:50,590 --> 00:14:52,392 SHE'LL CONNECT YOU. 202 00:14:52,392 --> 00:14:56,196 THIS IS THE NURSES' STATION, WHICH IS SELF-EXPLANATORY, AND THIS... 203 00:14:56,196 --> 00:14:59,732 IS THE TV ROOM, WHERE EVERYONE HANGS OUT. 204 00:14:59,732 --> 00:15:01,734 I WANT MY FUCKING CLOTHES ! 205 00:15:01,734 --> 00:15:05,472 THEN YOU'LL HAVE TO EAT SOMETHING, WON'T YOU ? 206 00:15:06,739 --> 00:15:09,142 THIS IS THE CHECK-IN BOARD. * OH, LORDY * 207 00:15:09,142 --> 00:15:11,078 YOU CHECK IN HERE IF YOU WANT TO TAKE A WALK ON THE GROUNDS. * PICK A BALE OF COTTON * 208 00:15:11,078 --> 00:15:13,480 * OH, LORDY PICK A BALE OF HAY * 209 00:15:13,480 --> 00:15:16,316 * GOTTA JUMP DOWN, SPIN AROUND PICK A BALE OF COTTON * 210 00:15:16,316 --> 00:15:19,086 * JUMP DOWN, SPIN AROUND PICK A BALE OF HAY * 211 00:15:19,086 --> 00:15:22,622 * JUMP DOWN, SPIN AROUND PICK A BALE OF COTTON ** SHE THINKS THAT BOTHERS ME. 212 00:15:22,622 --> 00:15:25,025 RIGHT NOW YOU'RE AN "R," WHICH MEANS YOU'RE RESTRICTED TO THE WARD. 213 00:15:25,025 --> 00:15:28,028 BUT I THINK IN ABOUT A MONTH YOU'LL PROBABLY MOVE UP TO TWO-TO-ONES, 214 00:15:28,028 --> 00:15:30,430 WHICH IS TWO NURSES TO EVERY PATIENT. ** [ Continues ] 215 00:15:30,430 --> 00:15:33,766 I'M NOT GONNA BE HERE THAT LONG. I'M JUST HERE FOR A REST. 216 00:15:33,766 --> 00:15:36,669 IT'S ALL RIGHT. EVERYBODY GETS THE SAME TOUR FREE OF CHARGE. 217 00:15:40,107 --> 00:15:42,242 [ Door Opens ] 218 00:15:43,510 --> 00:15:47,247 GEORGINA, THIS IS SUSANNA, YOUR NEW ROOMMATE. 219 00:15:47,247 --> 00:15:49,482 OH, GREAT. HI. HI. 220 00:15:49,482 --> 00:15:52,552 YOU'RE VERY LUCKY. GEORGINA'S AN EXCELLENT ROOMMATE. 221 00:15:52,552 --> 00:15:54,354 WHY, THANK YOU, VALERIE. 222 00:15:54,354 --> 00:15:56,156 YOU'RE WELCOME. VALERIE ? 223 00:15:56,156 --> 00:15:59,892 [ Whispering ] THE COPS ARE BRINGING UP LISA. THEY FOUND HER IN THE PARK. 224 00:15:59,892 --> 00:16:01,961 ALL RIGHT. 225 00:16:01,961 --> 00:16:03,963 SUSANNA, WILL YOU EXCUSE ME ? 226 00:16:03,963 --> 00:16:06,399 I HAVE SOME BUSINESS I HAVE TO ATTEND TO. 227 00:16:06,399 --> 00:16:08,835 GEORGINA, WILL YOU TAKE SUSANNA DOWN TO THE DINING ROOM... 228 00:16:08,835 --> 00:16:11,738 IN A HALF HOUR ? SURE. 229 00:16:11,738 --> 00:16:13,840 YES MEANS YES, GEORGINA. 230 00:16:13,840 --> 00:16:15,975 I KNOW. 231 00:16:31,458 --> 00:16:33,660 GROOVY BOX. 232 00:16:34,894 --> 00:16:37,030 THAT. OH ! 233 00:16:37,030 --> 00:16:39,166 YEAH, UM, THEY'RE FRENCH. 234 00:16:39,166 --> 00:16:41,534 THE FRENCH RESISTANCE SMOKED THEM, I THINK. 235 00:16:49,276 --> 00:16:51,478 DID YOU EVER READ THIS ? 236 00:16:51,478 --> 00:16:53,280 UM, NO. 237 00:16:53,280 --> 00:16:56,116 I SAW THE MOVIE A BUNCH OF TIMES, THOUGH. OH, WELL, UM, 238 00:16:56,116 --> 00:16:59,952 THE MOVIE'S ACTUALLY BASED ON THE FIRST BOOK. I READ THAT ONE TOO, 239 00:16:59,952 --> 00:17:02,789 BUT THERE WERE NO RUBY SLIPPERS IN IT ORIGINALLY. 240 00:17:02,789 --> 00:17:05,558 THEY ADDED THAT. THIS ONE TAKES PLACE AFTERWARDS. 241 00:17:05,558 --> 00:17:08,861 DOROTHY DOESN'T REALLY HAVE SUCH A BIG PART IN THIS ONE. 242 00:17:08,861 --> 00:17:11,331 OH. 243 00:17:11,331 --> 00:17:13,733 [ Police Radio Chatter ] 244 00:17:13,733 --> 00:17:15,802 FUCKIN' PIG. 245 00:17:18,138 --> 00:17:20,273 GET OFF ME ! 246 00:17:31,050 --> 00:17:33,052 THANKS, GRETTA. 247 00:17:33,052 --> 00:17:36,656 HEY, DAIS, LET ANYONE IN YOUR ROOM YET ? 248 00:17:36,656 --> 00:17:38,591 HUH ? 249 00:17:40,127 --> 00:17:43,163 HEY, GIRLS ! HEY, SEXY. 250 00:17:43,163 --> 00:17:46,666 [ Kissing Noises, Growls ] 251 00:17:46,666 --> 00:17:48,601 IT'S GOOD TO BE HOME ! 252 00:17:51,738 --> 00:17:54,307 HEY, TORCH. HEY, LISA. 253 00:17:54,307 --> 00:17:56,643 YOU MISS ME ? NOT MUCH. 254 00:17:58,311 --> 00:18:01,281 GET HER TO HER ROOM. GRETTA'LL DO THE STRIP SEARCH. 255 00:18:01,281 --> 00:18:03,650 WHO'S THAT WITH GEORGIE-GIRL ? COME ON. 256 00:18:03,650 --> 00:18:06,219 WHO IS THAT ? WHERE'S JAMIE ? I CAN'T DEAL WITH THIS. 257 00:18:06,219 --> 00:18:08,388 LISA, DON'T GIVE ME A HARD TIME. WHERE'S JAMIE ? 258 00:18:08,388 --> 00:18:10,790 WHERE IS SHE ? WHERE'S JAMIE ? 259 00:18:10,790 --> 00:18:12,725 [ Lisa Shouting ] 260 00:18:14,627 --> 00:18:16,729 WHO ARE YOU ? 261 00:18:16,729 --> 00:18:20,733 HER NAME IS SUSANNA. SHE SMOKES FRENCH CIGARETTES. 262 00:18:20,733 --> 00:18:22,902 WHY IS ALL YOUR SHIT ON HER BED ? 263 00:18:22,902 --> 00:18:25,905 - [ Valerie ] LISA, OPEN THE DAMN DOOR ! - WHY ? WHERE'S JAMIE ? 264 00:18:25,905 --> 00:18:30,177 - I DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT ! - [ All Shouting ] 265 00:18:30,177 --> 00:18:33,079 WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING, LISA ? 266 00:18:33,079 --> 00:18:35,382 BACK OFF HER. 267 00:18:35,382 --> 00:18:38,618 BACK OFF ! YOU'VE BEEN GONE FOR TWO WEEKS. 268 00:18:38,618 --> 00:18:41,254 A LOT OF SHIT HAS GONE DOWN. BACK OFF ! 269 00:18:41,254 --> 00:18:45,192 HOW'D SHE DO IT ? HOW'D SHE DO IT ? 270 00:18:45,192 --> 00:18:47,727 HOW DID SHE DO IT, VALERIE ? 271 00:18:47,727 --> 00:18:49,629 GET THE FUCK OFF ME ! 272 00:18:49,629 --> 00:18:51,764 YOU WEAK PEOPLE. YOU'RE ALL WEAK FUCKING PEOPLE ! 273 00:18:51,764 --> 00:18:55,235 YOU'RE VICTIMS ! YOU PEOPLE ARE FUCKING SICK ! [ Valerie ] GRETTA ? 274 00:18:55,235 --> 00:18:58,238 WHAT ? NO. NO, NO. VAL, PLEASE. PLEASE ! 275 00:18:58,238 --> 00:19:00,673 NO ! NO ! 276 00:19:00,673 --> 00:19:04,377 [ Man ] LISA ! GET HER LEGS ! [ Clamoring ] 277 00:19:04,377 --> 00:19:06,546 FUCK YOU ! NO ! GET HER FEET ! 278 00:19:06,546 --> 00:19:09,182 I GOT HER. GET OFF ME ! NO ! NO ! NO ! 279 00:19:09,182 --> 00:19:13,186 NO ! NO ! NO ! NO ! NO ! GET OFF ! 280 00:19:17,557 --> 00:19:20,260 WE HAVE GOT TO CUT THOSE NAILS AGAIN. 281 00:19:20,260 --> 00:19:23,763 [ Sobbing, Muttering ] 282 00:19:26,466 --> 00:19:30,337 MY GOD. WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT ? 283 00:19:30,337 --> 00:19:32,339 THAT WAS LISA. 284 00:19:32,339 --> 00:19:36,075 AND JAMIE WAS YOUR ROOMMATE ? 285 00:19:36,075 --> 00:19:37,910 JAMIE WAS LISA'S BEST FRIEND. 286 00:19:37,910 --> 00:19:40,880 SHE WAS SAD LAST WEEK 'CAUSE LISA RAN AWAY, 287 00:19:40,880 --> 00:19:43,550 SO SHE HUNG HERSELF WITH A VOLLEYBALL NET. 288 00:19:47,620 --> 00:19:51,224 MASTER ? OOH ! OH, I'M SORRY. 289 00:19:51,224 --> 00:19:53,493 [ Both Giggling ] 290 00:19:53,493 --> 00:19:55,628 [ Woman ] MEDS ! 291 00:19:57,964 --> 00:19:59,899 CYNTHIA CROWLEY. 292 00:20:00,967 --> 00:20:03,803 SUSANNA KAYSEN. 293 00:20:04,971 --> 00:20:07,274 SUSANNA KAYSEN ! 294 00:20:08,908 --> 00:20:11,644 I AM MRS. McWILLEY, AND THESE ARE FOR YOU. 295 00:20:11,644 --> 00:20:14,781 WHAT ARE THEY ? THEY'LL HELP YOU SLEEP. 296 00:20:14,781 --> 00:20:17,784 - IT'S 10:30. I'M NOT GONNA-- - FOR CHRIST'S SAKE. 297 00:20:17,784 --> 00:20:20,653 YOU CAN DISCUSS IT IN THE MORNING, DEAR, WITH YOUR DOCTOR. 298 00:20:20,653 --> 00:20:23,490 IN THE MEANTIME, WE'LL JUST HAVE TO AGREE TO DISAGREE. 299 00:20:26,793 --> 00:20:29,396 TAKE THEM HERE. HAVE SOME WATER. 300 00:20:31,831 --> 00:20:33,766 POLLY CLARK. 301 00:20:35,001 --> 00:20:36,936 YOU CAN GO NOW. 302 00:20:41,207 --> 00:20:43,343 TERESA McCULLIAN. 303 00:20:49,015 --> 00:20:50,950 DAISY RANDONE. 304 00:20:54,421 --> 00:20:56,556 ANGELA COURY. 305 00:21:00,159 --> 00:21:02,362 JACQUELINE LIGHTS. 306 00:21:05,097 --> 00:21:07,033 DONNA SMITH. 307 00:21:09,502 --> 00:21:11,638 [ Continues, Indistinct ] 308 00:21:37,530 --> 00:21:39,799 [ Voices Echoing ] 309 00:21:39,799 --> 00:21:43,703 [ Man ] ...ALL THE WAY TO PRINCETON UNIVERSITY. 310 00:21:43,703 --> 00:21:46,138 [ Applause ] 311 00:21:46,138 --> 00:21:49,342 [ McWilley Continues ] 312 00:21:49,342 --> 00:21:52,412 [ Man Continuing ] ...YEARBOOK EDITOR, AND MEMBER OF THE HONOR SOCIETY, 313 00:21:52,412 --> 00:21:54,414 HEADING OFF TO TULANE UNIVERSITY. 314 00:21:54,414 --> 00:21:56,949 [ Applause ] CONGRATULATIONS, SON. 315 00:21:56,949 --> 00:22:02,455 ANDREA JACOBS, PRESIDENT OF THE FRENCH CLUB AND HONOR SOCIETY, 316 00:22:02,455 --> 00:22:05,324 AND ON HER WAY TO SARAH LAWRENCE. 317 00:22:08,027 --> 00:22:09,762 SUSANNA KAYSEN. 318 00:22:11,330 --> 00:22:13,966 WHAT IS SHE DOING ? SOME KIND OF A STUNT. 319 00:22:13,966 --> 00:22:17,370 [ Crowd Murmuring ] SUSANNA KAYSEN. 320 00:22:21,107 --> 00:22:24,010 [ Feedback Whines ] SUSANNA KAYSEN. 321 00:22:24,010 --> 00:22:27,447 [ Boy ] WAKE UP, YOU FREAK. [ Door Opens ] 322 00:22:27,447 --> 00:22:29,716 [ Whispering ] CHECKS. 323 00:22:36,322 --> 00:22:38,458 [ Door Closes ] 324 00:22:44,230 --> 00:22:46,599 [ Whispering ] GEORGINA. 325 00:22:49,235 --> 00:22:51,370 WHY DO THEY DO THAT ? 326 00:22:52,639 --> 00:22:55,041 THEY'RE JUST DOING CHECKS. 327 00:22:55,041 --> 00:22:58,645 THEY'LL SPACE THEM OUT MORE AFTER YOU'VE BEEN HERE A WHILE. 328 00:23:03,182 --> 00:23:06,118 THAT GIRL, POLLY. 329 00:23:07,587 --> 00:23:09,856 HOW DID SHE GET ALL-- 330 00:23:11,057 --> 00:23:13,125 WHEN SHE WAS TEN, 331 00:23:13,125 --> 00:23:16,596 HER MOTHER TOLD HER THAT SHE HAD TO GIVE AWAY HER PUPPY... 332 00:23:16,596 --> 00:23:19,932 'CAUSE HE WAS GIVING HER A RASH. 333 00:23:19,932 --> 00:23:22,902 SO POLLY WENT... 334 00:23:22,902 --> 00:23:26,473 AND FOUND HER FATHER'S GAS CAN, 335 00:23:26,473 --> 00:23:30,677 AND SHE POURED IT ALL OVER WHERE SHE WAS GETTING THE RASH. 336 00:23:31,544 --> 00:23:33,680 AND THEN... 337 00:23:35,147 --> 00:23:37,450 SHE LIT A MATCH. 338 00:23:38,918 --> 00:23:40,853 OH, MY GOD. 339 00:23:46,425 --> 00:23:48,861 WELL, WHAT ABOUT YOU ? WHY ARE YOU HERE ? 340 00:23:49,729 --> 00:23:52,832 PSEUDOLOGIA FANTASTICA. 341 00:23:54,166 --> 00:23:56,736 WHAT'S THAT ? 342 00:23:57,704 --> 00:24:01,774 I'M A PATHOLOGICAL LIAR. 343 00:24:06,212 --> 00:24:09,148 ** [ Rock On Radio ] 344 00:24:11,751 --> 00:24:14,153 * TIME HAS COME TODAY * 345 00:24:15,622 --> 00:24:18,024 * YOUNG HEARTS CAN GO THEIR WAY * 346 00:24:19,892 --> 00:24:22,829 * CAN'T PUT IT OFF ANOTHER DAY * 347 00:24:24,030 --> 00:24:26,866 * I DON'T CARE WHAT OTHERS SAY * 348 00:24:26,866 --> 00:24:30,637 * THEY THINK WE DON'T LISTEN ANYWAY * 349 00:24:30,637 --> 00:24:34,641 * TIME HAS COME TODAY * 350 00:24:34,641 --> 00:24:36,776 * HEY * 351 00:24:38,244 --> 00:24:41,113 ** [ Grows Louder ] 352 00:24:41,113 --> 00:24:42,915 * OH * 353 00:24:42,915 --> 00:24:46,653 * THE RULES HAVE CHANGED TODAY * * HEY * 354 00:24:46,653 --> 00:24:50,590 * I HAVE NO PLANS TO STAY * * HEY * 355 00:24:50,590 --> 00:24:54,594 * I'M THINKING ABOUT THOSE OTHER WAYS * * HEY * 356 00:24:54,594 --> 00:24:57,063 ** [ Continues ] HEY, WHAT ARE YOUR PLANS THIS FALL ? 357 00:24:57,063 --> 00:24:59,666 WHAT ? WHAT ARE YOUR PLANS THIS FALL ? 358 00:24:59,666 --> 00:25:01,868 I DON'T HAVE ANY. 359 00:25:01,868 --> 00:25:04,470 I'M GOING TO BE AN ETHNOBOTANIST. 360 00:25:04,470 --> 00:25:07,740 FULL SCHOLARSHIP TO M.I.T. 361 00:25:07,740 --> 00:25:09,742 I'M GONNA JOIN THE KRISHNAS. 362 00:25:09,742 --> 00:25:14,080 HARE KRISHNA ? THAT'S INTERESTING, ACTUALLY. 363 00:25:14,080 --> 00:25:16,015 I WAS KIDDING. 364 00:25:17,717 --> 00:25:19,852 ** [ Continues ] 365 00:25:26,025 --> 00:25:29,095 * NOW THE TIME HAS COME * 366 00:25:29,095 --> 00:25:31,330 * TIME * * THERE'S NO PLACE TO RUN * 367 00:25:31,330 --> 00:25:33,633 YOU'RE SUSANNA, RIGHT ? 368 00:25:33,633 --> 00:25:38,170 ** [ Continues ] I'M TOBY. ANDREA JACOBS' BROTHER. 369 00:25:39,639 --> 00:25:43,142 I WAS AT GRADUATION. [ Sighs ] 370 00:25:44,310 --> 00:25:45,912 YOU'RE, UH-- 371 00:25:47,747 --> 00:25:49,515 YOU'RE PRETTY WHEN YOU SLEEP. * TIME ** 372 00:25:49,515 --> 00:25:51,550 CHECKS. 373 00:25:51,550 --> 00:25:53,686 IT'S 7:00. 374 00:26:08,400 --> 00:26:12,004 I MEAN, EVERYBODY THINKS ABOUT IT AT SOME POINT. 375 00:26:13,873 --> 00:26:16,008 HOW WOULD YOU DO IT ? 376 00:26:17,810 --> 00:26:19,812 I DON'T KNOW. 377 00:26:19,812 --> 00:26:22,381 I GUESS I HAVEN'T REALLY THOUGHT ABOUT IT. 378 00:26:22,381 --> 00:26:27,019 * THE SUMMER HAD INHALED AND HELD ITS BREATH TOO LONG ** 379 00:26:28,487 --> 00:26:31,023 SEE, ONCE IT'S IN YOUR HEAD, THOUGH, 380 00:26:31,023 --> 00:26:33,025 ** [ Continues, Indistinct ] 381 00:26:33,025 --> 00:26:37,096 YOU BECOME THIS... STRANGE NEW BREED-- 382 00:26:37,096 --> 00:26:42,869 A LIFE-FORM THAT LOVES TO FANTASIZE ABOUT ITS OWN DEMISE. 383 00:26:42,869 --> 00:26:46,505 MAKE A STUPID REMARK, KILL YOURSELF. 384 00:26:46,505 --> 00:26:48,507 YOU LIKE THE MOVIE, YOU LIVE. 385 00:26:48,507 --> 00:26:50,509 YOU MISS THE TRAIN, KILL YOURSELF. 386 00:26:50,509 --> 00:26:53,312 SUSANNA. WHAT ? 387 00:26:53,312 --> 00:26:57,249 LET'S NOT TALK ABOUT THIS ANYMORE, OKAY ? 388 00:26:57,249 --> 00:26:59,185 WHY ? 389 00:27:02,822 --> 00:27:07,226 BECAUSE... IT'S, UH, STUPID. 390 00:27:13,565 --> 00:27:16,736 [ Groans ] WHAT ? 391 00:27:20,272 --> 00:27:22,074 WHAT ARE YOU DOING ? 392 00:27:22,074 --> 00:27:25,611 OH, WHAT ? 'CAUSE I DON'T WANT TO KILL MYSELF, 393 00:27:25,611 --> 00:27:27,313 THAT'S NOT COOL TO YOU ? 394 00:27:28,748 --> 00:27:30,750 I DON'T WANT TO DIE. I WAS JUST TALKING. 395 00:27:30,750 --> 00:27:33,953 LOOK, SUSANNA, THE WORLD IS FUCKED UP, OKAY ? 396 00:27:33,953 --> 00:27:36,255 ALL RIGHT, IT'S SO FUCKED UP THAT IF SOME-- 397 00:27:36,255 --> 00:27:39,325 SOME DRAFT ZOMBIE PULLS MY BIRTHDAY OUT OF A BARREL, 398 00:27:39,325 --> 00:27:41,493 I'M GONNA DIE. 399 00:27:41,493 --> 00:27:44,063 WHEN'S YOUR BIRTHDAY ? 400 00:27:46,098 --> 00:27:48,034 DECEMBER 30. 401 00:27:50,536 --> 00:27:54,040 - I'LL PRAY FOR YOU. - HEY. SUSANNA. 402 00:27:54,941 --> 00:27:58,077 - CHECKS ? - [ Gasps ] 403 00:28:01,613 --> 00:28:03,750 [ Door Closes ] 404 00:28:06,886 --> 00:28:09,288 [ Sighs ] [ Gretta ] CHECKS. 405 00:28:20,299 --> 00:28:22,234 [ Door Opens ] 406 00:28:24,036 --> 00:28:26,172 [ Valerie ] YOU ASKED FOR THIS ? 407 00:28:36,048 --> 00:28:40,452 - ARE YOU GONNA WATCH ? - 'FRAID SO. 408 00:28:40,452 --> 00:28:43,923 THAT'S WHY THERE'S SO MANY FUZZY-LEGGED WOMEN AROUND HERE. 409 00:28:47,927 --> 00:28:50,629 HAS ANYBODY EVER WATCHED YOU SHAVE YOUR LEGS ? 410 00:28:50,629 --> 00:28:54,867 I GOT TWO KIDS AND ONE BATHROOM. WHAT DO YOU THINK ? 411 00:28:55,935 --> 00:28:58,337 I THINK YOU SHOULD LOCK THE DOOR. 412 00:29:00,106 --> 00:29:04,243 [ Man Over P.A. ] SEPTEMBER 14. 413 00:29:04,243 --> 00:29:06,245 [ Man 2 ] SEPTEMBER 14 ? 414 00:29:06,245 --> 00:29:08,580 [ Man 1 Continues, Indistinct ] 415 00:29:08,580 --> 00:29:09,949 [ Woman ] BINGO. 416 00:29:11,750 --> 00:29:14,386 BINGO. BINGO. [ Man #1 ] DECEMBER 30. 417 00:29:15,454 --> 00:29:17,456 OH, MY GOD. 418 00:29:17,456 --> 00:29:19,391 [ Woman ] BINGO. 419 00:29:21,227 --> 00:29:24,596 A GUY I KNOW WAS JUST DRAFTED. 420 00:29:24,596 --> 00:29:26,899 WHAT'S HIS NAME ? 421 00:29:28,467 --> 00:29:30,269 TOBY. 422 00:29:30,269 --> 00:29:32,471 [ TV Continues, Indistinct ] BINGO. 423 00:29:32,471 --> 00:29:35,441 HE'S DEAD NOW. BINGO. 424 00:29:37,209 --> 00:29:38,477 BINGO. 425 00:29:40,679 --> 00:29:43,215 [ Daisy ] GET OUT, LISA ! I'M NOT IN YOUR ROOM, DAISY. 426 00:29:43,215 --> 00:29:46,118 I'M RIGHT FUCKIN' HERE. I WAS GONNA OFFER YOU SOME OF MY NAIL POLISH. 427 00:29:46,118 --> 00:29:48,120 GET OUT ! [ Door Slams ] 428 00:29:48,120 --> 00:29:50,890 [ Chuckling ] YOU'RE LOOKING BETTER, LISA. 429 00:29:50,890 --> 00:29:53,059 WHY, THANKS, MARGIE. 430 00:29:53,059 --> 00:29:55,061 HOW'S THE ENGAGEMENT GOING ? OH, YOU KNOW. 431 00:29:55,061 --> 00:29:57,029 NO, I DON'T. I'VE BEEN AWAY. 432 00:29:57,029 --> 00:30:00,599 JOE WANTS ME TO... BEFORE THE WEDDING. 433 00:30:00,599 --> 00:30:04,670 FUCK HIS BRAINS OUT. USE A RUBBER. [ Giggling ] 434 00:30:04,670 --> 00:30:07,806 GOSH, I DON'T KNOW. YEAH ! 435 00:30:26,825 --> 00:30:28,794 CAN I BUM ONE ? 436 00:30:28,794 --> 00:30:31,230 GO AHEAD. 437 00:30:50,282 --> 00:30:51,918 HUH. 438 00:30:53,252 --> 00:30:56,588 SO. HAVE YOU HAD YOUR FIRST MELVIN YET ? 439 00:30:56,588 --> 00:30:58,390 WHO'S THAT ? 440 00:30:58,390 --> 00:31:02,028 BALD GUY WITH A LITTLE PECKER AND A FAT WIFE. 441 00:31:02,028 --> 00:31:04,163 YOUR "THER-RAPIST," SWEAT PEA. 442 00:31:05,597 --> 00:31:09,335 UNLESS, UH-- UNLESS THEY'RE GIVING YOU SHOCKS. 443 00:31:09,335 --> 00:31:11,603 OR, GOD FORBID, LETTING YOU OUT. 444 00:31:11,603 --> 00:31:14,540 THEN YOU GET TO SEE THE GREAT, WONDERFUL DR. DYKE. 445 00:31:14,540 --> 00:31:16,475 SHE MEANS DR. WICK. 446 00:31:18,344 --> 00:31:21,147 I'VE BEEN IN HIS OFFICE, BUT I HAVEN'T MET HIM YET. 447 00:31:21,147 --> 00:31:23,482 HE'S A SHE. DR. WICK'S A GIRL. 448 00:31:23,482 --> 00:31:26,085 THAT'S RIGHT, M.G. WICK'S A CHICK. WICK'S A CHICK. 449 00:31:26,085 --> 00:31:29,221 [ Woman ] LISA ! HENCE THE NICKNAME. 450 00:31:29,221 --> 00:31:33,592 OH ! HEY, LIL. WHEN THE FUCK IS MY CHECKUP ? 451 00:31:33,592 --> 00:31:36,895 NOW. IT'S NOW, LISA. YOU SAID YOU'D BE IN YOUR ROOM. 452 00:31:36,895 --> 00:31:40,099 CAN'T LET YOU SIT TOO LONG WITHOUT POPPING THE HOOD, HUH ? 453 00:31:55,447 --> 00:31:57,049 ASSHOLE. 454 00:31:57,049 --> 00:31:59,251 [ Margie ] SUSANNA, YOU HAVE MELVIN IN HALF AN HOUR. 455 00:31:59,251 --> 00:32:02,654 I'LL TAKE YOU THERE. I-- I'M SORRY. 456 00:32:04,523 --> 00:32:07,326 [ Man ] WHY ARE YOU USING THE PAST TENSE ? 457 00:32:07,326 --> 00:32:09,328 [ Susanna ] WHAT DO YOU MEAN ? 458 00:32:09,328 --> 00:32:12,931 WELL, HE WAS ONLY DRAFTED TODAY, 459 00:32:12,931 --> 00:32:16,335 SO CHANCES ARE HE'S NOT DEAD YET. 460 00:32:16,335 --> 00:32:19,938 PROBABLY HAS SEVERAL MONTHS... 461 00:32:19,938 --> 00:32:22,274 BEFORE HE EVEN REPORTS. 462 00:32:23,475 --> 00:32:25,944 HE WAS JUST A NICE GUY, THAT'S ALL, 463 00:32:25,944 --> 00:32:28,580 AND IT MADE ME FEEL BAD. 464 00:32:28,580 --> 00:32:30,582 YOU'VE BEEN FEELING BAD IN GENERAL. 465 00:32:30,582 --> 00:32:34,286 RIGHT ? YOU'VE BEEN FEELING DEPRESSED ? 466 00:32:35,754 --> 00:32:39,625 WELL, I HAVEN'T EXACTLY BEEN A BALL OF JOY, MELVIN. 467 00:32:39,625 --> 00:32:43,229 I UNDERSTAND YOU TRIED TO KILL YOURSELF LAST WEEK. 468 00:32:43,229 --> 00:32:46,232 ANYTHING YOU WANT TO TELL ME ABOUT THAT ? 469 00:32:46,232 --> 00:32:47,566 I HAD A HEADACHE. 470 00:32:49,635 --> 00:32:52,571 SO I ASSUME YOU TOOK THE RECOMMENDED ASPIRIN DOSAGE... 471 00:32:52,571 --> 00:32:54,640 FOR A HEADACHE. 472 00:32:54,640 --> 00:32:58,377 I DIDN'T TRY TO KILL MYSELF. WHAT WERE YOU TRYING TO DO ? 473 00:32:58,377 --> 00:33:00,979 I WAS TRYING TO MAKE THE SHIT STOP. 474 00:33:00,979 --> 00:33:04,150 THE TIME JUMPS, THE DEPRESSION, 475 00:33:04,150 --> 00:33:07,719 THE, UH, HEADACHES, THE THING WITH YOUR HAND ? 476 00:33:09,155 --> 00:33:11,290 ALL OF THE ABOVE. 477 00:33:13,359 --> 00:33:15,294 I SEE. 478 00:33:16,428 --> 00:33:20,132 [ Faintly ] PAUL IS DEAD ! 479 00:33:23,769 --> 00:33:25,137 SUSANNA ? 480 00:33:27,473 --> 00:33:30,209 WHAT IS IT ? ARE YOU PUZZLED ABOUT SOMETHING ? 481 00:33:31,910 --> 00:33:34,012 YEAH, I GUESS I AM, MELVIN. 482 00:33:34,012 --> 00:33:36,014 I GUESS I'M PUZZLED AS TO WHY IT IS... 483 00:33:36,014 --> 00:33:37,916 I HAVE TO BE IN A MENTAL INSTITUTION. 484 00:33:37,916 --> 00:33:40,086 YOU-YOU PUT YOURSELF HERE. 485 00:33:40,086 --> 00:33:42,088 MY PARENTS PUT ME HERE. 486 00:33:42,088 --> 00:33:46,058 NO. NO, THEY DIDN'T. 487 00:33:46,058 --> 00:33:48,894 EVERYONE HERE'S FUCKING CRAZY ! 488 00:33:48,894 --> 00:33:51,130 YOU WANT TO GO HOME. 489 00:33:54,032 --> 00:33:56,402 SAME PROBLEM. 490 00:33:56,402 --> 00:33:59,671 [ High-Pitched Voice ] M.G., LOOK AT ME. 491 00:33:59,671 --> 00:34:01,540 PLAY WITH ME. 492 00:34:01,540 --> 00:34:05,777 DON'T BE SAD. DON'T BE SAD. 493 00:34:05,777 --> 00:34:07,779 HEY. LISA. 494 00:34:07,779 --> 00:34:10,482 [ Lisa ] YEAH. 495 00:34:13,819 --> 00:34:15,821 AAH. THANK YOU. 496 00:34:15,821 --> 00:34:17,856 MM-HMM. 497 00:34:17,856 --> 00:34:20,492 [ Footsteps ] 498 00:34:23,395 --> 00:34:25,731 [ Indistinct Conversation ] 499 00:34:30,869 --> 00:34:32,804 HI. 500 00:34:35,607 --> 00:34:37,643 [ Lisa Sighs ] 501 00:34:38,877 --> 00:34:40,812 [ No Audio ] 502 00:34:46,585 --> 00:34:47,719 SUSANNA. 503 00:34:49,921 --> 00:34:53,192 OH. WHAT ARE THESE ? COLACE. IT'S JUST A LAXATIVE. 504 00:34:53,192 --> 00:34:55,361 OH, I DON'T-- I DON'T NEED THEM. 505 00:34:55,361 --> 00:34:57,496 ARE WE GOING TO HAVE A PROBLEM ? 506 00:34:59,498 --> 00:35:01,700 [ Lisa To Puppet ] ARE WE GOING TO HAVE A PROBLEM ? 507 00:35:01,700 --> 00:35:04,270 ARE WE GOING TO HAVE A PROBLEM ? 508 00:35:04,270 --> 00:35:06,272 MAY I SEE ? 509 00:35:06,272 --> 00:35:09,141 THANK YOU. SURRENDER. 510 00:35:10,142 --> 00:35:12,278 ARE WE GOING TO HAVE A PROBLEM ? 511 00:35:13,279 --> 00:35:15,914 NO ? NO PROBLEM. 512 00:35:15,914 --> 00:35:18,550 SUSANNA ? PHONE CALL, BOOTH ONE. 513 00:35:21,887 --> 00:35:24,690 HELLO ? [ Woman ] HOLD ON. 514 00:35:24,690 --> 00:35:27,559 HELLO ? [ Woman Shouting ] SUSANNA ? 515 00:35:27,559 --> 00:35:29,928 HI, MOM. HI, HONEY. YOUR FATHER'S ON TOO. 516 00:35:29,928 --> 00:35:33,098 HE JUST GOT BACK FROM RESERVE HEARINGS. HIS PLANE GOT STUCK AT DULLES. 517 00:35:33,098 --> 00:35:35,301 [ Father ] HOW YOU DOING, HONEY ? [ Shouting ] 518 00:35:35,301 --> 00:35:38,003 I'M FINE, DAD. [ Mother ] YOU KNOW, SWEETHEART-- 519 00:35:38,003 --> 00:35:39,805 [ Continues, Indistinct ] OH, GOD ! 520 00:35:39,805 --> 00:35:41,807 THAT'S WHAT DOCTOR-- VALERIE ? VALERIE, PLEASE. 521 00:35:41,807 --> 00:35:44,576 IF YOU CAN'T GIVE ME ANY EX-LAX, CAN I PLEASE HAVE SOME COLACE ? 522 00:35:44,576 --> 00:35:46,712 [ Valerie ] NO. NO MORE LAXATIVES. 523 00:35:46,712 --> 00:35:49,448 MARGIE ? I CAN GET HER SOME PRUNE JUICE. 524 00:35:49,448 --> 00:35:52,751 [ Laughs ] PRUNE JUICE ! 525 00:35:52,751 --> 00:35:55,120 THIS IS OUTRAGEOUS. [ Mother Continues, Indistinct ] 526 00:35:55,120 --> 00:35:57,456 ...SHE WAS WONDERING WHETHER YOU'D MADE ANY NEW FRIENDS, 527 00:35:57,456 --> 00:35:59,558 AND I SAID, "NO, MOM. 528 00:35:59,558 --> 00:36:02,628 THIS ISN'T CAMP WINNETKA." 529 00:36:02,628 --> 00:36:06,131 ** [ Radio Playing ] 530 00:36:06,131 --> 00:36:09,535 DAISY ? [ Daisy ] FUCK OFF. 531 00:36:09,535 --> 00:36:11,670 I HAVE SOMETHING YOU WANT. 532 00:36:14,273 --> 00:36:16,675 [ Footsteps ] 533 00:36:18,610 --> 00:36:20,346 COME IN. 534 00:36:20,346 --> 00:36:24,716 [ Door Opens ] * QUE SERA, SERA WHATEVER WILL BE * 535 00:36:24,716 --> 00:36:26,818 * WILL BE * 536 00:36:26,818 --> 00:36:30,088 * THE FUTURE'S NOT OURS TO SEE * 537 00:36:30,088 --> 00:36:34,460 * QUE SERA, SERA * 538 00:36:34,460 --> 00:36:38,797 * WHAT WILL BE WILL BE ** 539 00:36:38,797 --> 00:36:40,732 ** [ Continues ] 540 00:36:50,409 --> 00:36:52,411 YOU'RE ALL PACKED UP. 541 00:36:52,411 --> 00:36:55,347 YEAH. I'M LEAVING IN A MONTH. 542 00:36:55,347 --> 00:36:57,148 MY DAD GOT ME AN APARTMENT. 543 00:36:57,148 --> 00:37:01,219 REALLY ? WHERE ? WHAT KIND OF-- IT'S NEAR THE AIRPORT. 544 00:37:01,219 --> 00:37:03,955 ONE BEDROOM, TWO BATHS, EAT-IN CHICKEN. 545 00:37:03,955 --> 00:37:07,293 HE FIXED IT UP REAL NICE FOR ME. YOU MEAN "EAT-IN KITCHEN." 546 00:37:07,293 --> 00:37:10,429 THAT'S WHAT I SAID, ASSHOLE. 547 00:37:10,429 --> 00:37:12,831 SO WHAT DO YOU HAVE THAT I WANT ? 548 00:37:16,435 --> 00:37:18,937 PUT IT ON THE BED AND GET OUT. 549 00:37:18,937 --> 00:37:22,608 - PUT YOURS ON THE BED. - OH, JESUS. GET OUT ! 550 00:37:22,608 --> 00:37:26,978 - GET OUT ! - DAIS, DON'T TAKE ADVANTAGE JUST 'CAUSE SHE'S NEW. 551 00:37:26,978 --> 00:37:30,516 PONY UP SOME VALIUM. GET THE FUCK OUT, OR I'M CALLING VALERIE ! 552 00:37:30,516 --> 00:37:33,585 - VALERIE ! - WHY DON'T YOU CALL VALERIE ? 553 00:37:33,585 --> 00:37:35,587 LET'S CALL VALERIE AND ASK HER FOR SOME COLACE, 554 00:37:35,587 --> 00:37:37,656 JUST LIKE SUSIE Q's GOT IN HER FUCKIN' HAND. 555 00:37:37,656 --> 00:37:39,658 WHY DOES IT STINK IN HERE ? 556 00:37:39,658 --> 00:37:43,929 - I DON'T TAKE VALIUM. - [ Lisa ] I KNOW, DAISY. THAT'S THE POINT. 557 00:37:43,929 --> 00:37:46,798 YOU DON'T TAKE THEM. THEY GIVE THEM TO YOU, AND YOU DON'T TAKE THEM. 558 00:37:46,798 --> 00:37:48,800 WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO, ARE YOU GONNA EAT THAT, OR-OR-- 559 00:37:48,800 --> 00:37:52,404 CHECKS. HEY, YOU'VE GOT VISITORS, DAISY. 560 00:37:52,404 --> 00:37:54,506 I WANT SOME FUCKING COLACE. 561 00:37:54,506 --> 00:37:56,642 TALK TO MELVIN TOMORROW. 562 00:38:07,853 --> 00:38:11,923 YOU KNOW WHAT I THINK ? I THINK YOU WANT TO POOP, DAISY. 563 00:38:11,923 --> 00:38:14,360 I THINK IT'S BEEN DAYS. 564 00:38:15,594 --> 00:38:18,063 LOOK IT'S OKAY. I DON'T CARE. I DO ! 565 00:38:18,063 --> 00:38:19,998 I DO CARE. 566 00:38:22,734 --> 00:38:26,438 SO, DADDY BUYS YOU A PRIVATE AND NO ONE GETS IN, HUH ? 567 00:38:28,239 --> 00:38:31,076 YOU NEVER LEAVE, EXCEPT FOR WHEN VALERIE MAKES YOU GO TO THE CAFETERIA, 568 00:38:31,076 --> 00:38:33,445 WHERE, UH, YOU NEVER EAT. 569 00:38:33,445 --> 00:38:35,447 YOU'RE A LAXATIVE JUNKIE, SO... 570 00:38:35,447 --> 00:38:37,282 I ALWAYS THOUGHT YOU WERE LIKE JANET. 571 00:38:37,282 --> 00:38:41,353 BUT THEN-- BUT THEN HERE YOU ARE WITH THIS FUCKING CHICKEN. 572 00:38:41,353 --> 00:38:44,856 [ Imitates Chicken ] SO WHAT'S WITH THAT, HUH ? 573 00:38:44,856 --> 00:38:48,894 MY DAD OWNS A DELI, ASSHOLE, WITH A ROTISSERIE. 574 00:38:48,894 --> 00:38:52,063 I LIKE MY DAD'S CHICKEN, AND WHEN I EAT SOMETHING ELSE, I PUKE. 575 00:38:52,063 --> 00:38:54,933 OH. BUT WHY DO YOU EAT IT HERE ? 576 00:38:54,933 --> 00:38:58,069 WHY DON'T YOU LIKE TO GO TO THE CAFETERIA ? 577 00:38:58,069 --> 00:39:00,038 WHICH DO YOU LIKE BETTER ? 578 00:39:00,038 --> 00:39:02,874 TAKING A DUMP ALONE, OR WITH VALERIE WATCHING ? 579 00:39:02,874 --> 00:39:04,743 ALONE. 580 00:39:04,743 --> 00:39:08,414 [ Daisy ] EVERYONE LIKES TO BE ALONE WHEN IT COMES OUT. 581 00:39:08,414 --> 00:39:10,482 I LIKE TO BE ALONE WHEN IT GOES IN. 582 00:39:10,482 --> 00:39:13,685 TO ME, THE CAFETERIA IS LIKE BEING... 583 00:39:13,685 --> 00:39:16,154 WITH 20 GIRLS ALL AT ONCE, TAKING A DUMP. 584 00:39:16,154 --> 00:39:19,391 THAT IS FUCKED UP, DAISY. 585 00:39:20,959 --> 00:39:24,596 COME ON. COME ON. 586 00:39:26,331 --> 00:39:28,333 ALL RIGHT. ASSHOLES. 587 00:39:28,333 --> 00:39:30,469 FINE. HERE. 588 00:39:35,407 --> 00:39:37,876 HERE. 589 00:39:46,317 --> 00:39:49,054 NO ! LISA, DON'T ! 590 00:39:49,054 --> 00:39:51,289 NO, NO, NO, NO ! PLEASE. 591 00:39:51,289 --> 00:39:53,625 DIOS FUCKING MIO. 592 00:39:53,625 --> 00:39:56,261 [ Coughs ] UGH. 593 00:39:56,261 --> 00:39:59,230 [ Lisa ] I GUESS THAT'S HOW DADDY KNOWS SHE'S EATING. 594 00:39:59,230 --> 00:40:01,232 WHEN I GET FIVE, [ Lisa Laughing ] 595 00:40:01,232 --> 00:40:03,635 VALERIE MAKES ME THROW THEM AWAY. 596 00:40:16,848 --> 00:40:18,850 SCRIBBLE, SCRIBBLE, SCRIBBLE. [ Gasps ] 597 00:40:18,850 --> 00:40:22,754 - WRITTEN ANYTHING ABOUT ME YET ? - DON'T DO THAT ! 598 00:40:24,022 --> 00:40:25,957 OKAY. 599 00:40:32,664 --> 00:40:36,535 LISA, IS DAISY REALLY GETTING OUT ? 600 00:40:38,804 --> 00:40:42,808 YEAH. SHE COUGHED UP A BIG ONE. 601 00:40:42,808 --> 00:40:47,078 B-BUT HOW CAN-- I MEAN, SHE'S... INSANE. 602 00:40:47,078 --> 00:40:50,081 YEAH, WELL, THAT'S WHAT "THER-RAPE-ME" IS ALL ABOUT. 603 00:40:50,081 --> 00:40:53,819 THAT'S WHY FUCKIN' FREUD'S PICTURE'S ON EVERY SHRINK'S WALL. 604 00:40:53,819 --> 00:40:55,687 HE CREATED A FUCKIN' INDUSTRY. 605 00:40:55,687 --> 00:41:00,158 YOU LIE DOWN, CONFESS YOUR SECRETS, AND YOU'RE SAVED. "KA-CHING !" 606 00:41:00,158 --> 00:41:04,462 AND, THE MORE YOU CONFESS, THE MORE THEY THINK ABOUT SETTING YOU FREE. 607 00:41:04,462 --> 00:41:07,065 BUT WHAT IF YOU DON'T HAVE A SECRET ? 608 00:41:08,867 --> 00:41:11,002 THEN YOU'RE A LIFER, LIKE ME. 609 00:41:12,170 --> 00:41:14,740 I WAS CHANGING HER DIAPER, 610 00:41:14,740 --> 00:41:16,742 AND I TURNED TO GET THE POWDER, 611 00:41:16,742 --> 00:41:20,879 AND WHILE MY BACK WAS TURNED, SHE ROLLED OFF THE BED. 612 00:41:23,148 --> 00:41:26,017 SHE ROLLED OFF THE BED AND BROKE HER LEG. 613 00:41:27,452 --> 00:41:29,087 AND THE DOCTOR PUT HER IN A BODY CAST, 614 00:41:29,087 --> 00:41:31,557 BUT HE ALSO STRAPPED HER DOWN. 615 00:41:31,557 --> 00:41:33,992 - [ Father ] ANNETTE, THIS HAS NOTHING TO DO-- - YOU NEVER TOLD ME THIS. 616 00:41:33,992 --> 00:41:36,461 [ Annette ] CARL HAD BEEN PLANNING THIS TRIP TO SANTA MONICA. 617 00:41:36,461 --> 00:41:38,730 HE HAD A COMMITMENT AT RAND. 618 00:41:38,730 --> 00:41:40,899 SO WE-- WE TOOK HER WITH US, 619 00:41:40,899 --> 00:41:44,736 ON THE BACK SEAT, STRAPPED TO THIS BOARD, 4,000 MILES. 620 00:41:44,736 --> 00:41:47,005 IF YOU LIKE, MRS. KAYSEN, WE CAN... 621 00:41:47,005 --> 00:41:51,242 DISCUSS THIS, UH, FURTHER ON THE WAY OUT, BUT, UH-- 622 00:41:51,242 --> 00:41:54,479 JUST HOW LONG IS MY DAUGHTER GOING TO BE HERE ? 623 00:41:54,479 --> 00:41:56,281 WITH ALL DUE RESPECT, MR. KAYSEN, 624 00:41:56,281 --> 00:42:00,752 PSYCHIATRY AND ECONOMICS ARE, UH-- ARE DIFFERENT. 625 00:42:00,752 --> 00:42:03,822 THE LENGTH OF SUSANNA'S STAY ISN'T FIXED. 626 00:42:03,822 --> 00:42:07,659 UH, IT DEPENDS ON HER RESPONSE TO TREATMENT. 627 00:42:07,659 --> 00:42:09,661 [ Carl ] FOR WHAT ? DEPRESSION ? 628 00:42:09,661 --> 00:42:11,496 LOOK, IT'S ALMOST CHRISTMAS. 629 00:42:11,496 --> 00:42:15,601 WHAT ARE WE SUPPOSED TO SAY TO THE PEOPLE BACK HOME WHO CARE ABOUT HER ? 630 00:42:15,601 --> 00:42:18,236 YOU SEE, MELVIN, WHAT'S GOING ON HERE... 631 00:42:18,236 --> 00:42:22,641 IS MY PARENTS ARE HAVING A LITTLE HOLIDAY COCKTAIL CHRISTMAS PARTY CRISIS. 632 00:42:22,641 --> 00:42:24,776 [ Carl ] SUSANNA ! WHAT ? 633 00:42:26,311 --> 00:42:29,480 SO WHAT IS THIS "BORDERLINE" BUSINESS YOU MENTIONED ON THE PHONE ? 634 00:42:29,480 --> 00:42:31,917 UH, UM-- 635 00:42:31,917 --> 00:42:35,020 I DON'T THINK THAT'S USEFUL... TO SUSANNA. 636 00:42:35,020 --> 00:42:37,589 I MEAN, NOT, UH-- WHAT "BORDERLINE BUSINESS" ? 637 00:42:37,589 --> 00:42:39,490 SEE, THE MIND... BORDERLINE WHAT ? 638 00:42:39,490 --> 00:42:42,060 IS THE-- BORDERLINE BETWEEN WHAT AND WHAT ? 639 00:42:42,060 --> 00:42:45,130 MELVIN. IT'S A CONDITION, SUSANNA, 640 00:42:45,130 --> 00:42:47,933 AND IT'S CALLED BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER. 641 00:42:47,933 --> 00:42:49,868 OH, GOD. 642 00:42:50,769 --> 00:42:52,771 IT'S NOT UNCOMMON, 643 00:42:52,771 --> 00:42:55,473 ESPECIALLY AMONG YOUNG WOMEN. 644 00:42:55,473 --> 00:42:57,275 WELL, WHAT CAUSES IT ? 645 00:42:57,275 --> 00:43:00,011 WE'RE-- WE'RE REALLY NOT SURE. 646 00:43:00,011 --> 00:43:03,081 IS IT GENETIC ? OH, CHRIST ! 647 00:43:03,081 --> 00:43:06,952 IT IS FIVE TIMES MORE COMMON... 648 00:43:06,952 --> 00:43:09,988 AMONG THOSE WITH A BORDERLINE... 649 00:43:09,988 --> 00:43:11,923 PARENT. 650 00:43:13,825 --> 00:43:16,094 I-I CAN'T DO THIS. 651 00:43:16,094 --> 00:43:18,830 I'M SORRY. I CAN'T. I CAN'T DO THIS. 652 00:43:18,830 --> 00:43:23,702 ** [ Marching Band ] 653 00:43:32,978 --> 00:43:35,714 "RAZORS PAIN YOU, RIVERS ARE DAMP. 654 00:43:35,714 --> 00:43:37,716 "ACID STAINS YOU, DRUGS CAUSE CRAMP. 655 00:43:37,716 --> 00:43:39,718 "GUNS AREN'T LAWFUL, NOOSES GIVE. 656 00:43:39,718 --> 00:43:43,021 GAS SMELLS AWFUL, YOU MIGHT AS WELL LIVE." 657 00:43:43,021 --> 00:43:44,656 GIN. 658 00:43:44,656 --> 00:43:49,895 [ Man On TV ] ...ONE OF OUR OLD FAVORITES, MURPHY THE SNOWMAN. 659 00:43:49,895 --> 00:43:52,430 RENDERED FOUR STORIES HIGH, MURPHY REQUIRES... 660 00:43:52,430 --> 00:43:55,400 [ Continues, Indistinct ] HEY ! 661 00:43:56,501 --> 00:43:59,237 ASSHOLE. FATSO. 662 00:44:01,172 --> 00:44:03,241 HEY, SUSANNA. 663 00:44:03,241 --> 00:44:05,777 HEY. JOHN-- 664 00:44:05,777 --> 00:44:09,681 - CALL ME A CAB. - OKAY, YOU'RE A CAB. 665 00:44:14,485 --> 00:44:17,555 [ Telephone Rings ] LISA SAID YOU GOT INTO DAISY'S ROOM. 666 00:44:17,555 --> 00:44:20,959 YES. AND IT WAS FULL OF CHICKENS ! 667 00:44:20,959 --> 00:44:23,729 [ Nurse ] SUSANNA, YOU HAVE A PHONE CALL. 668 00:44:25,563 --> 00:44:27,365 HELLO ? 669 00:44:27,365 --> 00:44:29,968 [ Lisa ] SO WHAT'S YOUR "DIAG-NONSENSE" ? 670 00:44:29,968 --> 00:44:33,238 WHO IS THIS ? WHAT'D HE SAY TO MOM AND POP ? 671 00:44:42,113 --> 00:44:44,349 I HAVE A BORDERLINE PERSONALITY. 672 00:44:44,349 --> 00:44:47,118 [ Scoffs ] WELL, THAT'S NOTHING. WHAT ELSE ? 673 00:44:47,118 --> 00:44:50,688 HE DIDN'T WANT TO SAY. HE THOUGHT IT WOULD AFFECT MY RECOVERY. 674 00:44:50,688 --> 00:44:53,391 ALL RIGHT, LISTEN. TONGUE YOUR MEDS TONIGHT. 675 00:44:53,391 --> 00:44:56,394 AFTER 1:00 CHECKS, GRETTA ALWAYS GOES OUT FOR A SMOKE. 676 00:44:56,394 --> 00:45:00,265 CHECK THE MIRRORS, AND IF THEY'RE CLEAR, YOU GO DOWN TO HECTOR'S CLOSET. 677 00:45:00,265 --> 00:45:03,334 IT'S NEAR THE ART ROOM, AND IT WILL BE OPEN. 678 00:45:19,818 --> 00:45:21,820 TORCH ! 679 00:45:21,820 --> 00:45:25,156 COME ON. 680 00:45:35,366 --> 00:45:37,302 [ Laughter ] 681 00:45:41,506 --> 00:45:45,844 SUSANNA ! SUSANNA ! THIS IS HOW LISA GETS OUT WHEN SHE ESCAPES. 682 00:45:49,647 --> 00:45:54,119 WE'RE UNDER ADMINISTRATION, SO... NO GOOD HERE. 683 00:45:54,119 --> 00:45:56,387 GOOD THING THIS PLACE WORKS ON A SLIDING SCALE. 684 00:45:56,387 --> 00:45:59,257 WE GET TO MINGLE WITH THE LOCK-PICKING TRASH. 685 00:46:00,859 --> 00:46:03,528 [ Giggling ] WHOO ! 686 00:46:13,204 --> 00:46:15,006 WOW. 687 00:46:15,006 --> 00:46:17,775 HERE'S MISS DYKE ! 688 00:46:18,910 --> 00:46:21,046 [ Giggling ] 689 00:46:22,747 --> 00:46:24,883 WHOO ! 690 00:46:28,386 --> 00:46:30,455 SUSANNA, YOU'RE UP. 691 00:46:30,455 --> 00:46:33,458 NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO. I'VE ONLY DONE THIS ONCE IN MY LIFE. 692 00:46:33,458 --> 00:46:36,828 COME ON ! COME ON ! WE CAME ALL THE WAY HERE. 693 00:46:36,828 --> 00:46:38,796 COME ON ! 694 00:46:42,633 --> 00:46:45,670 * YOU KNOW THE NIGHTTIME * 695 00:46:45,670 --> 00:46:47,805 * IS THE RIGHT TIME * 696 00:46:49,607 --> 00:46:54,212 * OH, TO BE BE WITH THE ONE YOU LOVE * 697 00:46:54,212 --> 00:46:56,814 - WHOO ! - ALL RIGHT ! 698 00:46:56,814 --> 00:46:59,750 * COME ON, BABY * 699 00:46:59,750 --> 00:47:03,554 - * I WANT TO BE WITH THE ONE I LOVE * - YES ! 700 00:47:03,554 --> 00:47:05,556 * AND YOU KNOW * 701 00:47:05,556 --> 00:47:09,427 - * JUST WHO I'M THINKIN' OF * - WHOO ! 702 00:47:10,929 --> 00:47:14,365 * TELL YOU THE NIGHTTIME * 703 00:47:14,365 --> 00:47:16,567 * YEAH, IS THE RIGHT TIME * 704 00:47:16,567 --> 00:47:19,905 * OH, TO BE WITH THE ONE YOU LOVE * 705 00:47:19,905 --> 00:47:23,975 - WHOO ! YEAH ! - [ Laughing ] 706 00:47:23,975 --> 00:47:26,177 ** [ Continues ] 707 00:47:29,647 --> 00:47:31,849 WHEN THEY BUILT THIS PLACE, THEY PUT THE TUNNELS IN... 708 00:47:31,849 --> 00:47:34,920 SO THE LOONIES DIDN'T HAVE TO GO ANYWHERE IN THE COLD. 709 00:47:34,920 --> 00:47:36,955 I MUST HAVE MISSED THAT IN THE BROCHURE. 710 00:47:36,955 --> 00:47:40,926 * OH, COME ON, BABY I NEED YOU * 711 00:47:40,926 --> 00:47:43,461 [ Janet ] HEY, OPEN THE DOOR. 712 00:47:43,461 --> 00:47:47,198 * AND I WANT YOU TO SQUEEZE ME * 713 00:47:47,198 --> 00:47:51,336 * YEAH, JUST AS TIGHT AS YOU CAN * 714 00:47:51,336 --> 00:47:54,072 [ Fades ] * I TELL YOU THAT THE NIGHTTIME ** 715 00:47:56,041 --> 00:47:58,910 WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING ? 716 00:48:09,354 --> 00:48:13,291 [ Whispering ] WOW. DR. WICK'S OFFICE. 717 00:48:27,772 --> 00:48:30,308 ALL RIGHT. GEORGINA TUSKIN. 718 00:48:42,520 --> 00:48:44,455 SUSANNA KAYSEN. 719 00:48:46,924 --> 00:48:49,260 POLLY CLARK. 720 00:48:51,662 --> 00:48:54,065 CYNTHIA CROWLEY. 721 00:48:54,065 --> 00:48:56,267 CONGRATULATIONS. THANK YOU. 722 00:48:57,535 --> 00:48:59,470 JANET WEBBER. 723 00:49:02,073 --> 00:49:04,209 LISA ROWE. 724 00:49:13,684 --> 00:49:15,620 [ Scoffs ] 725 00:49:37,708 --> 00:49:39,644 FUCK YOU, MELVIN. 726 00:49:44,115 --> 00:49:46,117 WANT TO SEE MINE ? 727 00:49:46,117 --> 00:49:48,286 LET ME SEE YOURS. 728 00:49:54,525 --> 00:49:56,461 [ Sighs ] 729 00:49:57,795 --> 00:50:00,998 [ Janet ] "LISA ROWE. 730 00:50:00,998 --> 00:50:03,668 "HIGHS AND LOWS INCREASINGLY SEVERE. 731 00:50:03,668 --> 00:50:07,172 "CONTROLLING RELATIONSHIPS WITH PATIENTS. 732 00:50:07,172 --> 00:50:10,641 "NO APPRECIABLE RESPONSE TO MEDS. 733 00:50:10,641 --> 00:50:12,910 NO REMISSION OBSERVED." 734 00:50:12,910 --> 00:50:15,280 THAT WAS BEFORE YOU RAN AWAY. 735 00:50:15,280 --> 00:50:17,115 WE ARE VERY RARE, AND WE ARE MOSTLY MEN. 736 00:50:17,115 --> 00:50:20,451 [ Janet ] LISA THINKS SHE'S HOT SHIT 'CAUSE SHE'S A SOCIOPATH. 737 00:50:20,451 --> 00:50:22,920 I'M A SOCIOPATH. NO, YOU'RE A DYKE. 738 00:50:22,920 --> 00:50:26,057 "BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER. 739 00:50:26,057 --> 00:50:28,193 "AN INSTABILITY OF SELF-IMAGE, 740 00:50:28,193 --> 00:50:29,994 "RELATIONSHIPS AND MOOD. 741 00:50:29,994 --> 00:50:33,464 "UNCERTAINTY ABOUT GOALS, IMPULSIVE IN ACTIVITIES... 742 00:50:33,464 --> 00:50:38,103 "THAT ARE SELF-DAMAGING, SUCH AS CASUAL SEX. 743 00:50:38,103 --> 00:50:40,238 I LIKE THAT. 744 00:50:40,238 --> 00:50:45,076 SOCIAL CONTRARINESS AND A GENERALLY PESSIMISTIC ATTITUDE ARE OFTEN OBSERVED." 745 00:50:46,511 --> 00:50:48,279 WELL, THAT'S ME. 746 00:50:48,279 --> 00:50:50,348 THAT'S EVERYBODY. 747 00:50:50,348 --> 00:50:53,184 I MEAN, WHAT KIND OF SEX ISN'T CASUAL ? 748 00:50:53,184 --> 00:50:56,053 THEY MEAN PROMISCUOUS. 749 00:50:56,053 --> 00:50:58,389 I'M NOT PROMISCUOUS. 750 00:51:02,660 --> 00:51:04,229 I'M NOT. 751 00:51:21,646 --> 00:51:23,648 JESUS. 752 00:51:23,648 --> 00:51:25,583 LOOK AT JANET. 753 00:51:25,583 --> 00:51:27,585 [ Valerie ] NO, NO, NO. IT'S ALL RIGHT. 754 00:51:27,585 --> 00:51:30,488 OKAY, OKAY, OKAY. IT'S OKAY. 755 00:51:30,488 --> 00:51:33,758 YOU KNOW, TAKING US FOR ICE CREAMS IN A BLIZZARD, 756 00:51:33,758 --> 00:51:36,627 MAKES YOU WONDER WHO THE REAL WHACK JOBS ARE. 757 00:51:36,627 --> 00:51:38,763 YOU KNOW, I THINK IT'S KIND OF NICE. 758 00:51:38,763 --> 00:51:43,100 I MEAN, I THINK IT'S NICE TO DO SOMETHING NICE ON DAISY'S LAST DAY. 759 00:51:45,270 --> 00:51:47,405 ** [ Easy-Listening Christmas Carols ] 760 00:51:50,975 --> 00:51:53,378 [ Valerie ] COME ON, COME ON. 761 00:51:53,378 --> 00:51:55,513 [ All Chattering ] 762 00:52:10,961 --> 00:52:14,799 - FUCK ! - I'M GONNA HAVE PEPPERMINT STICK. 763 00:52:14,799 --> 00:52:18,203 - YEAH, ME TOO. CAN I JUST HAVE PEPPERMINT STICK ? - SURE. 764 00:52:18,203 --> 00:52:20,838 NO. IT'S JUST CALLED PEPPERMINT. 765 00:52:20,838 --> 00:52:23,941 PEPPERMINT DICK ! [ Laughter ] HONESTLY. 766 00:52:23,941 --> 00:52:25,876 PEPPERMINT CLIT ! 767 00:52:25,876 --> 00:52:28,846 [ Laughter ] [ Valerie ] OKAY, OKAY, OKAY. 768 00:52:28,846 --> 00:52:33,318 - OKAY. WE'RE JUST GOING TO HAVE FOUR CONES. - FOUR CONES. 769 00:52:33,318 --> 00:52:35,453 SUSANNA, DO YOU WANT ANYTHING ? 770 00:52:35,453 --> 00:52:37,822 I'M FINE. LISA ? 771 00:52:42,193 --> 00:52:44,329 HEY, RONNY. 772 00:52:44,329 --> 00:52:46,331 YES ? YOU GOT ANY HOT FUDGE ? 773 00:52:46,331 --> 00:52:48,333 YES. YEAH ? 774 00:52:48,333 --> 00:52:52,203 CAN I HAVE A VANILLA SUNDAE WITH HOT FUDGE... 775 00:52:52,203 --> 00:52:56,040 AND, UH, SPRINKLES-- RAINBOW, NOT CHOCOLATE. 776 00:52:56,040 --> 00:52:59,210 MM-HMM. AND, UH, 777 00:52:59,210 --> 00:53:01,379 UM, 778 00:53:02,880 --> 00:53:06,617 WHIPPED CREAM, CHERRIES... 779 00:53:06,617 --> 00:53:08,519 AND, UH-- 780 00:53:08,519 --> 00:53:11,422 - NUTS ? - [ All Laughing ] 781 00:53:16,561 --> 00:53:20,331 OKAY, NOW. OKAY. LET'S HAVE A SEAT, LADIES. 782 00:53:23,301 --> 00:53:25,102 MELVIN... 783 00:53:25,102 --> 00:53:28,839 THOUGHT THAT I SHOULD LIVE IN A HALFWAY HOUSE. [ Scoffs ] 784 00:53:28,839 --> 00:53:32,710 BUT MY FATHER KNEW THAT I DESERVED MY OWN APARTMENT, 785 00:53:32,710 --> 00:53:35,179 SO HE GOT ME THE PRETTIEST APARTMENT. 786 00:53:35,179 --> 00:53:37,248 IT HAS AN EAT-IN CHICKEN. 787 00:53:37,248 --> 00:53:41,752 AND ALL THIS BEAUTIFUL WICKER FURNITURE, WHICH IS FANTASTIC. 788 00:53:41,752 --> 00:53:43,554 WICKER BUTTERFLIES-- 789 00:53:43,554 --> 00:53:47,692 MY VERY FAVORITE PART IS THAT LIKE IN THE PHONE BOOTH... 790 00:53:47,692 --> 00:53:50,027 THERE'S A SIGN RIGHT OUTSIDE... 791 00:53:50,027 --> 00:53:55,232 THAT SAYS, "IF YOU LIVED HERE, YOU'D BE HOME NOW." 792 00:53:55,232 --> 00:53:58,836 HELLO, SUSANNA. DO YOU REMEMBER ME ? 793 00:53:58,836 --> 00:54:02,940 YOU MUST REMEMBER ME. YES. MRS. GILCREST, HI. 794 00:54:02,940 --> 00:54:08,078 - SUSANNA, ARE YOU OKAY ? - OH, I'M-- I'M FINE. 795 00:54:08,078 --> 00:54:11,248 HEY, BONNIE. HOW'S RADCLIFFE ? WELLESLEY. 796 00:54:11,248 --> 00:54:14,218 I'M ENJOYING IT. IT'S STRONG IN ART. 797 00:54:14,218 --> 00:54:16,421 GOING TO THE SORBONNE THIS SUMMER. THAT'S GREAT. 798 00:54:16,421 --> 00:54:19,290 YOU KNOW, I KNOW ALL ABOUT YOU. 799 00:54:19,290 --> 00:54:22,059 AND I HOPE THEY PUT YOU AWAY FOREVER. 800 00:54:22,059 --> 00:54:26,096 - IS THIS THE PROFESSOR'S WIFE ? - WHAT PROFESSOR ? 801 00:54:26,096 --> 00:54:30,801 - OH, SO YOU TOLD EVERYBODY ? - LADY, BACK OFF. 802 00:54:30,801 --> 00:54:32,803 WAS I TALKING TO YOU ? MOTHER, WE HAVE TO GO. 803 00:54:32,803 --> 00:54:35,840 NO, YOU WERE SPITTING ON ME, SO MELLOW FUCKIN' OUT. 804 00:54:35,840 --> 00:54:37,975 [ Mrs. Gilcrest ] DON'T YOU TELL ME WHAT TO DO. 805 00:54:37,975 --> 00:54:40,511 LOOK, SHE GAVE YOUR HUSBAND A RIM JOB. BIG FUCKIN' DEAL. 806 00:54:40,511 --> 00:54:43,948 I'M SURE HE WAS BEGGING FOR IT, AND I HEARD IT WAS LIKE A PENCIL ANYWAY. 807 00:54:43,948 --> 00:54:46,717 - WHY, YOU-- HOW DARE YOU ! - SOME ADVICE, OKAY ? 808 00:54:46,717 --> 00:54:49,654 JUST DON'T POINT YOUR FUCKIN' FINGER AT CRAZY PEOPLE ! 809 00:54:49,654 --> 00:54:52,857 - [ Growling, Barking ] - [ Howling ] 810 00:54:52,857 --> 00:54:55,526 LET GO OF ME ! 811 00:54:55,526 --> 00:54:58,329 - MOTHER ? - GET THAT OUT OF MY FACE, ASSHOLE ! 812 00:55:00,598 --> 00:55:05,135 - LET GO. NOW. - [ Barking, Howling Continue ] 813 00:55:05,135 --> 00:55:08,272 - STOP IT ! - [ Janet ] RANK YOU ! 814 00:55:08,272 --> 00:55:11,175 COME AGAIN, MRS. PROFESSOR ! 815 00:55:11,175 --> 00:55:13,778 [ Lisa ] YOU SHARED A MAN WITH THAT WOMAN ? 816 00:55:20,250 --> 00:55:22,252 DID YOU ENJOY THE FRESH AIR, LISA ? 817 00:55:22,252 --> 00:55:24,054 YEAH, I DID, VAL. THANKS. GOOD. 818 00:55:24,054 --> 00:55:28,258 'CAUSE IT'S THE LAST TIME YOU'RE LEAVING THE WARD. 819 00:55:28,258 --> 00:55:30,928 IS THAT A DARE, OR A DOUBLE DARE ? 820 00:55:33,263 --> 00:55:35,566 [ Woman ] OKAY, RAISE YOUR ARMS. ** [ Slow-Tempo Waltz ] 821 00:55:35,566 --> 00:55:38,102 VERY GOOD. WE'RE GOING TO BE TREES. 822 00:55:38,102 --> 00:55:41,839 FEEL THE STRENGTH IN YOUR ARMS AS THE BRANCHES, 823 00:55:41,839 --> 00:55:44,575 AND REACH THOSE BRANCHES UP TO THE SKY-- 824 00:55:44,575 --> 00:55:46,577 COME ON, SUSANNA. REACH. 825 00:55:46,577 --> 00:55:48,579 VERY GOOD. OH. 826 00:55:48,579 --> 00:55:50,981 LISA, GET ON. ALL RIGHT. 827 00:55:50,981 --> 00:55:53,150 REACH YOUR ARMS, GIRLS. REACH. REALLY LIFT. 828 00:55:53,150 --> 00:55:55,986 [ Meows ] FEEL THE STRETCH THROUGH THE HIP. 829 00:55:55,986 --> 00:55:58,389 [ Barks ] VERY GOOD. LET YOUR ARMS BE BRANCHES. 830 00:55:58,389 --> 00:56:01,125 [ Laughing ] FEEL THE STRENGTH OF THOSE BRANCHES. 831 00:56:01,125 --> 00:56:04,529 REACH. REACH ALL THE WAY UP INTO THE SKY. 832 00:56:04,529 --> 00:56:06,531 VERY GOOD. 833 00:56:06,531 --> 00:56:08,466 LET THE WINDS BLOW THE LEAVES... 834 00:56:08,466 --> 00:56:12,069 [ Lisa Laughing ] AND LET YOUR FINGERS BE THE LEAVES. 835 00:56:12,069 --> 00:56:16,240 VERY GOOD. FEEL THE WIND. GOOD. GOOD, LISA. 836 00:56:16,240 --> 00:56:18,208 VERY GOOD. 837 00:56:18,208 --> 00:56:21,746 JUST LIFT UP. LIFT UP. VERY GOOD, GIRLS. 838 00:56:21,746 --> 00:56:24,549 NOW, FEEL YOUR FEET. FEEL YOUR FEET BE ROOTED. 839 00:56:24,549 --> 00:56:26,951 GO DOWN INTO A PLIE. VERY GOOD. 840 00:56:26,951 --> 00:56:29,620 GOOD, GIRLS. POLLY, VERY GOOD. 841 00:56:29,620 --> 00:56:33,758 OKAY. NOW STRETCH IT. THE WIND'S BLOWING REALLY HARD. THIS WAY. THIS WAY. 842 00:56:33,758 --> 00:56:35,826 IT'S BLOWING YOU OVER. THAT'S NOT FAIR. 843 00:56:35,826 --> 00:56:37,828 [ Screaming ] THAT'S NOT FAIR ! 844 00:56:37,828 --> 00:56:39,964 [ Continues Screaming ] THAT IS NOT FAIR ! 845 00:56:39,964 --> 00:56:42,399 SEVENTY FOUR IS THE PERFECT WEIGHT. 846 00:56:42,399 --> 00:56:45,202 [ Sobs ] 847 00:56:45,202 --> 00:56:47,404 GOOD LUCK, CRAZY BITCH. 848 00:56:47,404 --> 00:56:50,975 [ Instructor ] WHAT KIND OF TREE CAN YOU BE, JANET, DOWN THERE ON THE FLOOR ? 849 00:56:50,975 --> 00:56:53,711 [ Janet ] I'M A FUCKING SHRUB, ALL RIGHT ? 850 00:56:56,180 --> 00:56:58,483 ** [ Minor-Key Ballad ] 851 00:56:59,850 --> 00:57:04,889 * HOW DO YOU FIGHT LONELINESS * 852 00:57:07,625 --> 00:57:11,762 * YOU SMILE ALL THE TIME * 853 00:57:15,165 --> 00:57:19,504 * SHOWIN' YOUR TEETH TILL MEANINGLESS * 854 00:57:23,240 --> 00:57:28,045 * AND SHARPEN THEM WITH LIES * 855 00:57:30,515 --> 00:57:34,251 * AND WHATEVER IS GOING DOWN * 856 00:57:34,251 --> 00:57:36,053 ...AND I CANNOT FIGHT BACK. 857 00:57:36,053 --> 00:57:38,455 YOU'RE USING ME. I MEAN, IT'S SO CLEAR THAT YOU'RE USING ME. 858 00:57:38,455 --> 00:57:42,326 * WILL FOLLOW YOU AROUND * [ Susanna Continues, Indistinct ] 859 00:57:42,326 --> 00:57:46,797 * THAT'S HOW YOU FIGHT LONELINESS * [ Shouting ] 860 00:57:50,400 --> 00:57:54,539 * YOU LAUGH AT EVERY JOKE * 861 00:57:59,276 --> 00:58:02,146 [ Laughing, Cheering ] 862 00:58:02,146 --> 00:58:06,483 * YOU DRAG YOUR BLANKET BLINDLY * 863 00:58:09,887 --> 00:58:14,024 [ Chattering ] * YOU FILL YOUR HEART WITH SMOKE * 864 00:58:15,560 --> 00:58:17,762 [ Announcer ] MARTIN LUTHER KING, JR., WAS KILLED TONIGHT... 865 00:58:17,762 --> 00:58:20,765 * AND THE FIRST THING THAT YOU WANT * 866 00:58:20,765 --> 00:58:23,433 ...AS HE STOOD ALONE ON THE BALCONY OF HIS HOTEL ROOM. 867 00:58:23,433 --> 00:58:28,839 LAST NIGHT, HE SAID THIS-- * WILL BE THE LAST THING YOU EVER NEED * 868 00:58:28,839 --> 00:58:32,309 [ King ] WE'VE GOT SOME DIFFICULT DAYS AHEAD. * THAT'S HOW YOU FIGHT IT ** 869 00:58:32,309 --> 00:58:35,913 BUT IT REALLY DOESN'T MATTER WITH ME NOW. ** [ Fades ] 870 00:58:35,913 --> 00:58:39,917 BECAUSE I'VE BEEN TO THE MOUNTAINTOP. [ Applause ] 871 00:58:39,917 --> 00:58:42,119 I DON'T MIND. I DON'T MIND. 872 00:58:43,954 --> 00:58:45,656 [ Man on TV ] SO WHAT DO YOUR OTHER CHILDREN CALL YOU ? 873 00:58:45,656 --> 00:58:49,594 WELL THEY'VE CALLED ME MOM, AND MAMA, AND MOMMY... 874 00:58:49,594 --> 00:58:52,897 [ Door Shuts ] [ Valerie ] SUSANNA. YOU HAVE A VISITOR. 875 00:58:56,400 --> 00:58:58,803 WH-WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE ? 876 00:59:01,305 --> 00:59:03,440 HI. 877 00:59:03,440 --> 00:59:06,143 I, UH, GOT TO SHIP OUT NEXT WEEK. 878 00:59:06,143 --> 00:59:09,279 HERE. 879 00:59:15,586 --> 00:59:17,722 [ Both Chuckle ] 880 00:59:19,590 --> 00:59:21,726 [ Laughing ] 881 00:59:24,862 --> 00:59:28,465 [ Gretta ] CHECKS. 882 00:59:28,465 --> 00:59:30,467 SORRY. 883 00:59:30,467 --> 00:59:32,269 NO. IT'S OKAY. 884 00:59:32,269 --> 00:59:34,705 WE HAVE TEN MINUTES TILL THEY COME BACK. 885 00:59:34,705 --> 00:59:39,209 MEOW. MEOW. 886 00:59:39,209 --> 00:59:41,145 [ Hisses ] 887 00:59:44,481 --> 00:59:46,483 HEY, TORCH. 888 00:59:46,483 --> 00:59:49,486 WHAT YOU DOING ? 889 00:59:49,486 --> 00:59:51,288 NOTHING. 890 00:59:51,288 --> 00:59:56,493 WELL, WHY DON'T YOU GO TO YOUR ROOM AND DO NOTHING, HUH ? 891 00:59:56,493 --> 00:59:59,897 [ Sobbing ] 892 01:00:06,236 --> 01:00:09,339 [ Margie ] CHECKS. 893 01:00:09,339 --> 01:00:12,276 CHECKS. 894 01:00:14,244 --> 01:00:16,180 CHECKS. 895 01:00:19,249 --> 01:00:21,385 HEY, MARGIE. HEY, LISA. 896 01:00:21,385 --> 01:00:23,387 WHAT ARE YOU DOING ? CHECKS. 897 01:00:23,387 --> 01:00:25,389 HOW'S JOE ? 898 01:00:25,389 --> 01:00:27,024 HE'S FINE. YEAH. 899 01:00:27,024 --> 01:00:28,959 LISA, I HAVE TO DO MY CHECKS. 900 01:00:28,959 --> 01:00:32,529 YEAH, AND WHAT ? TAKING FIVE MINUTES FOR ME WOULD BE A DERELICTION OF DUTY ? 901 01:00:32,529 --> 01:00:35,666 WHAT IF I HAD A PUNCTURED ARTERY ? WHAT WOULD YOU DO ? 902 01:00:35,666 --> 01:00:38,268 WOULD YOU JUST KEEP GOING ABOUT YOUR ROUNDS AND IGNORE MY WOUNDS ? 903 01:00:38,268 --> 01:00:41,205 - LISA, STOP IT. - STOP WHAT ? YOU FUCKING-- LOOK AT THIS. 904 01:00:41,205 --> 01:00:44,141 - GO AHEAD. GO AHEAD. - THAT'S ENOUGH. 905 01:00:44,141 --> 01:00:47,144 TAKE ONE FUCKING STEP AND I'LL JAM THIS IN MY AORTA. GO AHEAD. 906 01:00:47,144 --> 01:00:50,815 STOP IT. LISA, YOUR AORTA IS IN YOUR CHEST. 907 01:00:52,249 --> 01:00:54,084 GOOD TO KNOW. 908 01:00:54,084 --> 01:00:56,520 I'LL MAKE A NOTE OF THAT. 909 01:00:56,520 --> 01:00:59,523 GOOD. 910 01:00:59,523 --> 01:01:01,591 MEOW. 911 01:01:01,591 --> 01:01:03,728 [ Laughs, Whistles ] 912 01:01:05,395 --> 01:01:09,333 SUSANNA, YOU HAVE GROUNDS PRIVILEGES. WHY DON'T YOU TAKE A WALK ? 913 01:01:09,333 --> 01:01:12,236 GO GET A CUP OF COFFEE. [ Cheering, Laughing ] 914 01:01:12,236 --> 01:01:14,171 [ Panting, Moaning ] 915 01:01:15,339 --> 01:01:18,308 [ Sighs ] WE SHOULD GET OUT OF HERE. 916 01:01:33,791 --> 01:01:35,592 THE CAF-- THE CAFETERIA IS THIS WAY. 917 01:01:35,592 --> 01:01:37,795 JUST KEEP WALKING. MY WHEELS ARE RIGHT HERE. WAIT. 918 01:01:37,795 --> 01:01:40,030 WH-WHAT ARE WE DOING ? 919 01:01:42,566 --> 01:01:44,802 [ Whispering ] WE'RE GOING TO CANADA. 920 01:01:47,237 --> 01:01:50,440 SUSANNA. 921 01:01:50,440 --> 01:01:53,077 YOU'RE NOT CRAZY. OKAY ? 922 01:01:53,077 --> 01:01:55,212 YOU DON'T NEED TO BE HERE. 923 01:01:56,246 --> 01:01:58,849 I TRIED TO KILL MYSELF, TOBY. 924 01:01:58,849 --> 01:02:01,651 BUT-- Y-YOU TOOK SOME ASPIRIN-- 925 01:02:01,651 --> 01:02:03,921 I TOOK A BOTTLE OF ASPIRIN. 926 01:02:03,921 --> 01:02:06,791 WHA-- AND THAT BUYS YOU A YEAR IN THIS PLACE ? 927 01:02:06,791 --> 01:02:08,926 THAT-- SUSANNA, TH-THAT'S BULLSHIT, OKAY ? 928 01:02:08,926 --> 01:02:10,727 THEY'RE BREAKING YOU. 929 01:02:10,727 --> 01:02:14,331 NOW, COME ON. ALL RIGHT ? E-EVERYTHING IS CHANGING, MAN. 930 01:02:14,331 --> 01:02:17,067 WH-WHAT THE FUCK DO THEY KNOW ABOUT BEING NORMAL ? 931 01:02:18,068 --> 01:02:21,738 I-- I HAVE FRIENDS IN HERE. 932 01:02:22,672 --> 01:02:25,542 WHO ? THEM ? 933 01:02:25,542 --> 01:02:27,912 THOSE GIRLS ? SUSANNA. 934 01:02:27,912 --> 01:02:31,816 THEY'RE EATING GRAPES OFF OF THE WALLPAPER. 935 01:02:31,816 --> 01:02:35,419 OKAY ? TH-THEY'RE INSANE. 936 01:02:35,419 --> 01:02:38,355 IF THEY ARE, I AM. 937 01:02:39,689 --> 01:02:42,226 NO. NO, BABY. 938 01:02:42,226 --> 01:02:44,361 LISTEN, COME WITH ME. NO. 939 01:02:48,833 --> 01:02:51,101 LOOK, MY, UH-- 940 01:02:51,101 --> 01:02:54,771 MY DAD GAVE ME FIVE GRAND. OKAY ? 941 01:02:54,771 --> 01:02:58,575 WE CAN GO UP THERE. WE COULD BUILD A CABIN IN THE WOODS. 942 01:02:58,575 --> 01:03:00,577 SUSANNA. 943 01:03:00,577 --> 01:03:03,013 LOOK, I KNOW IT SOUNDS CRAZY... 944 01:03:04,748 --> 01:03:07,151 BUT I THINK I LOVE YOU. 945 01:03:07,151 --> 01:03:10,287 SO COME WITH ME, OKAY ? 946 01:03:12,356 --> 01:03:14,291 COME WITH ME. 947 01:03:20,364 --> 01:03:22,366 UH. 948 01:03:22,366 --> 01:03:24,434 YOU WANT TO LEAVE. 949 01:03:24,434 --> 01:03:27,337 DON'T YOU ? I MEAN, IT-IT-- YES. 950 01:03:27,337 --> 01:03:29,573 I WANT TO LEAVE. 951 01:03:32,910 --> 01:03:35,312 BUT NOT WITH YOU. 952 01:03:38,648 --> 01:03:40,817 NOT WITH YOU. 953 01:03:41,785 --> 01:03:43,921 I'M SORRY. 954 01:03:44,955 --> 01:03:47,091 SUSANNA, WAIT A SECOND. 955 01:04:33,037 --> 01:04:35,172 WHY DID YOU DO THAT ? 956 01:04:38,775 --> 01:04:41,345 FIX THE LIGHTBULB AT NIGHT ? 957 01:04:43,313 --> 01:04:46,183 I'M NOT HERE IN THE MORNING, 958 01:04:46,183 --> 01:04:49,253 AND THAT'S WHEN YOU LIKE TO DRAW YOUR PICTURES AND STUFF. 959 01:04:49,253 --> 01:04:51,288 SO-- 960 01:04:52,389 --> 01:04:54,291 UH-HUH. 961 01:05:00,965 --> 01:05:03,233 JOHN. 962 01:05:04,601 --> 01:05:06,636 YEAH. 963 01:05:10,574 --> 01:05:12,509 WHY DO YOU LIKE ME ? 964 01:05:15,579 --> 01:05:18,715 I JUST LIKE YOU. 965 01:05:18,715 --> 01:05:20,417 THAT'S ALL. 966 01:05:21,651 --> 01:05:24,421 I WISH YOU WERE GETTING BETTER, THOUGH. 967 01:05:24,421 --> 01:05:26,790 I WOULD, UH-- 968 01:05:26,790 --> 01:05:31,528 [ Chuckles ] I WOULD TAKE YOU OUT TO GO SEE A MOVIE OR SOMETHING. 969 01:05:34,131 --> 01:05:37,101 THAT WOULD BE NICE. 970 01:05:37,101 --> 01:05:39,669 [ Woman Shouting, Objects Clattering ] 971 01:05:42,139 --> 01:05:45,275 MY FACE. I'M OKAY. 972 01:05:45,275 --> 01:05:48,078 JUST-JUST STEP-- LET HER BE. SHE'S FINE. SHE'S FINE. 973 01:05:48,078 --> 01:05:52,249 [ Wailing ] [ Nurse ] SECLUSION. TAKE HER TO SECLUSION. COME ON. 974 01:05:52,249 --> 01:05:54,884 [ Sobbing ] I GOT YOU. 975 01:05:54,884 --> 01:05:58,788 MY FACE. MY FACE. WHY ? 976 01:05:58,788 --> 01:06:03,293 MY FACE ! MY FACE ! 977 01:06:03,293 --> 01:06:05,962 QUIETEN DOWN. QUIETEN DOWN. 978 01:06:05,962 --> 01:06:07,998 YOU'RE ALL RIGHT. 979 01:06:07,998 --> 01:06:11,235 [ Fading ] MY FACE ! I'M UGLY ! 980 01:06:16,073 --> 01:06:18,208 [ Polly Weeping ] 981 01:06:23,480 --> 01:06:25,515 [ Man On TV ] THE SKETCHES AND PLANS YOU WILL SEE TODAY... 982 01:06:25,515 --> 01:06:29,886 WILL SHOW CLEARLY THE ENORMOUS SIZE AND SCOPE OF OUR PROJECT. 983 01:06:29,886 --> 01:06:34,358 AND THE IMPORTANT THING IS THAT DISNEY WORLD IS LOCATED... 984 01:06:34,358 --> 01:06:36,660 JUST A FEW MILES FROM THE CROSSING POINT-- 985 01:06:36,660 --> 01:06:39,329 [ Susanna ] HEY. [ TV continues ] 986 01:06:39,329 --> 01:06:41,698 WHAT HAPPENED TO POLLY ? 987 01:06:43,800 --> 01:06:47,237 WHAT NEEDS TO HAPPEN ? NO ONE IS EVER GOING TO KISS HER, MAN. 988 01:06:49,406 --> 01:06:52,542 THEY'RE BUILDING A NEW DISNEYLAND IN FLORIDA. 989 01:06:52,542 --> 01:06:57,013 IF I COULD HAVE ANY JOB IN THE WORLD, I'D BE A PROFESSIONAL CINDERELLA. 990 01:06:57,013 --> 01:06:59,015 YOU COULD BE SNOW WHITE. 991 01:06:59,015 --> 01:07:00,817 AND POLLY COULD BE MINNIE MOUSE. 992 01:07:00,817 --> 01:07:03,487 AND THEN EVERYONE WOULD HUG HER AND KISS HER AND LOVE HER... 993 01:07:03,487 --> 01:07:06,090 AND NO ONE WOULD KNOW WHAT WAS INSIDE THAT BIG GIANT HEAD, 994 01:07:06,090 --> 01:07:08,825 YOU KNOW ? 995 01:07:08,825 --> 01:07:11,095 GIVE ME YOUR KEYS. 996 01:07:29,379 --> 01:07:32,116 [ Weeping Continues ] 997 01:07:36,853 --> 01:07:38,788 HEY, POLLY. 998 01:07:40,124 --> 01:07:43,127 IT'S SUSANNA. JUST PLAY SOMETHING. 999 01:07:43,127 --> 01:07:46,130 IF TALKING DID SHIT, WE'D BE OUT OF HERE BY NOW. 1000 01:07:46,130 --> 01:07:48,265 COME ON. 1001 01:07:58,608 --> 01:08:00,544 * THE * 1002 01:08:03,347 --> 01:08:06,183 UH-- 1003 01:08:07,784 --> 01:08:09,586 * WHEN YOU'RE ALONE * 1004 01:08:09,586 --> 01:08:11,921 * AND LIFE IS MAKING YOU LONELY * 1005 01:08:11,921 --> 01:08:15,325 * YOU CAN ALWAYS GO * 1006 01:08:15,325 --> 01:08:17,827 [ Laughing ] * DOWNTOWN * 1007 01:08:19,763 --> 01:08:21,698 [ Silence ] 1008 01:08:25,202 --> 01:08:27,204 * WHEN YOU'VE GOT WORRIES * 1009 01:08:27,204 --> 01:08:29,939 * ALL THE NOISE AND THE HURRY * 1010 01:08:29,939 --> 01:08:32,709 * SEEMS TO HELP I KNOW * 1011 01:08:34,778 --> 01:08:36,746 [ Tambourine Jangling ] 1012 01:08:40,350 --> 01:08:43,987 * DOWNTOWN * 1013 01:08:43,987 --> 01:08:49,159 * JUST LISTEN TO THE MUSIC IN THE TRAFFIC IN THE CITY * 1014 01:08:49,159 --> 01:08:54,198 * LINGER ON THE SIDEWALKS WHERE THE NEON LIGHTS ARE PRETTY * 1015 01:08:54,198 --> 01:08:58,768 * HOW CAN YOU LOSE * 1016 01:08:58,768 --> 01:09:01,738 * THE LIGHTS ARE MUCH BRIGHTER THERE * 1017 01:09:01,738 --> 01:09:04,574 * YOU CAN FORGET ALL YOUR TROUBLES * 1018 01:09:04,574 --> 01:09:06,743 * FORGET ALL YOUR CARES AND GO * 1019 01:09:06,743 --> 01:09:08,845 BACK TO YOUR ROOM, PLEASE. * DOWNTOWN * 1020 01:09:08,845 --> 01:09:11,181 PLEASE, BACK IN YOUR ROOM. * THINGS WILL BE GREAT WHEN YOU'RE * 1021 01:09:11,181 --> 01:09:13,250 * DOWNTOWN * 1022 01:09:13,250 --> 01:09:15,319 McWILLEY IS GOING TO WAKE UP. * EVERYTHING'S WAITING FOR YOU* 1023 01:09:15,319 --> 01:09:18,322 SUSANNA, GIVE ME THE GUITAR. * JUST LISTEN TO THE RHYTHM * 1024 01:09:18,322 --> 01:09:20,824 SO YOU'RE GOING TO GET ME FIRED. LISA-- 1025 01:09:20,824 --> 01:09:24,594 * YOU'LL BE DANCING WITH HIM TO BEFORE THE NIGHT IS OVER * 1026 01:09:24,594 --> 01:09:26,963 SUSANNA, GIVE ME THE GUITAR. * HAPPY AGAIN * 1027 01:09:26,963 --> 01:09:30,133 - * AGAIN * - NO. NO. 1028 01:09:30,133 --> 01:09:31,935 IT'S OKAY. IT'S OKAY. COME HERE. 1029 01:09:31,935 --> 01:09:34,704 YOU'RE GOING TO GET ME FIRED. DO YOU KNOW THAT ? YOU-- 1030 01:09:46,182 --> 01:09:50,320 [ Polly ] * DOWNTOWN * 1031 01:09:50,320 --> 01:09:53,056 * EVERYTHING'S GREAT * 1032 01:09:53,056 --> 01:09:57,627 * WHEN YOU'RE DOWNTOWN ** 1033 01:10:03,467 --> 01:10:06,503 [ Door Opens ] 1034 01:10:23,487 --> 01:10:25,489 I'M WRITING YOU UP. 1035 01:10:25,489 --> 01:10:28,224 I AM SICK OF THIS BULLSHIT. 1036 01:10:32,962 --> 01:10:35,365 [ Woman ] IS SHE HERE ? 1037 01:10:35,365 --> 01:10:37,567 YOU CAN GO IN NOW. 1038 01:10:42,872 --> 01:10:44,908 [ Woman Whispering ] WHAT DID SHE DO ? 1039 01:10:44,908 --> 01:10:47,477 [ Woman 2 ] THEY DRUGGED NURSE McWILLEY. 1040 01:10:53,383 --> 01:10:55,385 GOOD MORNING, SUSANNA. GOOD MORNING. 1041 01:10:55,385 --> 01:10:57,521 HOW ARE YOU ? 1042 01:10:58,988 --> 01:11:01,891 I'M FINE, I GUESS. 1043 01:11:01,891 --> 01:11:04,828 SIT DOWN. 1044 01:11:13,770 --> 01:11:15,739 YOU LOOK TIRED. 1045 01:11:17,574 --> 01:11:19,576 POLLY FREAKED OUT LAST NIGHT... 1046 01:11:19,576 --> 01:11:22,879 AND WE STAYED UP SINGING TO HER, LISA AND I. 1047 01:11:24,448 --> 01:11:26,850 HAVE YOU BECOME FRIENDS WITH LISA ? 1048 01:11:29,319 --> 01:11:31,321 WHY ? IS THAT BAD ? 1049 01:11:31,321 --> 01:11:33,957 DOES IT FEEL BAD ? NO. 1050 01:11:33,957 --> 01:11:38,061 BEFORE YOU CAME HERE DID YOU HAVE MANY GIRLFRIENDS ? 1051 01:11:38,061 --> 01:11:39,629 NOT REALLY. 1052 01:11:41,465 --> 01:11:45,935 WOULD YOU SAY THAT BEFORE YOU CAME HERE YOUR FRIENDS CONSISTED MAINLY... 1053 01:11:45,935 --> 01:11:47,537 OF BOYS, OF MEN ? 1054 01:11:48,872 --> 01:11:51,741 DOES IT SAY IN THERE THAT I'M PROMISCUOUS ? 1055 01:11:51,741 --> 01:11:54,143 WHY DO YOU CHOOSE THAT WORD ? 1056 01:11:54,143 --> 01:11:56,145 HOW MANY GUYS WOULD I HAVE TO SLEEP WITH... 1057 01:11:56,145 --> 01:12:00,950 TO BE CONSIDERED PROMISCUOUS-- TEXTBOOK PROMISCUOUS ? 1058 01:12:00,950 --> 01:12:03,019 WHAT DO YOU THINK ? 1059 01:12:03,019 --> 01:12:06,756 TEN, EIGHT, FIVE. 1060 01:12:06,756 --> 01:12:10,894 AND HOW MANY GIRLS WOULD A GUY MY AGE HAVE TO SLEEP WITH TO BE CONSIDERED PROMISCUOUS ? 1061 01:12:10,894 --> 01:12:12,962 TEN, 20, 109 ? 1062 01:12:12,962 --> 01:12:14,998 WELL, SOMEONE WHO'S COMPULSIVELY PROMISCUOUS... 1063 01:12:14,998 --> 01:12:18,702 MIGHT ENGAGE IN A SEX ACT WITH A GUEST IN THEIR ROOM, 1064 01:12:18,702 --> 01:12:20,904 AND THEN ENGAGE IN ANOTHER SEX ACT-- 1065 01:12:20,904 --> 01:12:22,906 DURING THE SAME DAY-- 1066 01:12:22,906 --> 01:12:24,941 WITH AN ORDERLY. 1067 01:12:27,977 --> 01:12:30,447 AM I IN TROUBLE FOR KISSING AN ORDERLY, 1068 01:12:30,447 --> 01:12:32,949 OR GIVING MY BOYFRIEND A BLOW JOB ? 1069 01:12:35,051 --> 01:12:37,120 MELVIN SAYS... 1070 01:12:37,120 --> 01:12:41,458 YOU HAVE SOME VERY INTERESTING THEORIES ABOUT YOUR ILLNESS. 1071 01:12:41,458 --> 01:12:46,463 YOU BELIEVE THERE IS A MYSTICAL UNDERTOW IN LIFE-- 1072 01:12:46,463 --> 01:12:49,132 QUICKSANDS OF SHADOWS. 1073 01:12:49,132 --> 01:12:51,334 YEAH, AND ANOTHER ONE OF MY THEORIES IS THAT... 1074 01:12:51,334 --> 01:12:53,870 YOU PEOPLE DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU'RE DOING. 1075 01:12:53,870 --> 01:12:57,140 STILL, YOU ACKNOWLEDGE THERE IS A PROBLEM IN COPING WITH THIS QUICKSAND. 1076 01:12:57,140 --> 01:13:01,110 YOU KNOW, I HAVE A PROBLEM COPING WITH THIS HOSPITAL. I WANT TO LEAVE. 1077 01:13:02,412 --> 01:13:04,213 I CAN'T DO THAT. 1078 01:13:04,213 --> 01:13:07,417 I SIGNED MYSELF IN. I SHOULD BE ABLE TO SIGN MYSELF OUT. 1079 01:13:07,417 --> 01:13:09,419 YOU SIGNED YOURSELF INTO OUR CARE. 1080 01:13:09,419 --> 01:13:11,421 WE DECIDE WHEN YOU LEAVE. 1081 01:13:11,421 --> 01:13:13,423 YOU'RE NOT READY FOR IT, SUSANNA. 1082 01:13:13,423 --> 01:13:16,760 YOUR PROGRESS HAS PLATEAUED. 1083 01:13:18,294 --> 01:13:20,564 DOES THAT DISAPPOINT YOU ? 1084 01:13:20,564 --> 01:13:22,499 I'M AMBIVALENT. 1085 01:13:22,499 --> 01:13:25,068 IN FACT, THAT'S MY NEW FAVORITE WORD. 1086 01:13:25,068 --> 01:13:28,037 DO YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS, "AMBIVALENCE" ? 1087 01:13:28,037 --> 01:13:31,808 - I DON'T CARE. - IF IT'S YOUR FAVORITE WORD, I WOULD HAVE THOUGHT-- 1088 01:13:31,808 --> 01:13:33,910 IT MEANS, "I DON'T CARE." 1089 01:13:33,910 --> 01:13:37,681 THAT'S WHAT IT MEANS. ON THE CONTRARY, SUSANNA. 1090 01:13:37,681 --> 01:13:41,017 AMBIVALENCE SUGGESTS STRONG FEELINGS... 1091 01:13:41,017 --> 01:13:42,819 IN OPPOSITION. 1092 01:13:42,819 --> 01:13:46,022 THE PREFIX-- AS IN AMBIDEXTROUS-- 1093 01:13:46,022 --> 01:13:48,157 MEANS "BOTH." 1094 01:13:48,157 --> 01:13:50,159 THE REST OF IT-- IN LATIN-- 1095 01:13:50,159 --> 01:13:52,061 MEANS "VIGOR." 1096 01:13:52,061 --> 01:13:55,799 THE WORD SUGGESTS THAT YOU ARE TORN... 1097 01:13:55,799 --> 01:13:58,935 BETWEEN TWO OPPOSING COURSES OF ACTION. 1098 01:14:02,472 --> 01:14:04,874 "WILL I STAY OR WILL I GO ?" 1099 01:14:04,874 --> 01:14:08,478 "AM I SANE OR AM I CRAZY ?" 1100 01:14:08,478 --> 01:14:10,580 THOSE AREN'T COURSES OF ACTION. 1101 01:14:10,580 --> 01:14:14,884 THEY CAN BE, DEAR, FOR SOME. 1102 01:14:14,884 --> 01:14:17,320 WELL, THEN IT'S THE WRONG WORD. 1103 01:14:17,320 --> 01:14:19,322 NO. 1104 01:14:19,322 --> 01:14:21,190 I THINK IT'S PERFECT. 1105 01:14:26,763 --> 01:14:28,965 QUIS HIC LOCUS ? 1106 01:14:28,965 --> 01:14:32,636 QUAE REGIO ? 1107 01:14:32,636 --> 01:14:35,104 QUAE MUNDI PLAGA ? 1108 01:14:35,104 --> 01:14:38,107 "WHAT WORLD IS THIS ? 1109 01:14:38,107 --> 01:14:39,909 "WHAT KINGDOM ? 1110 01:14:39,909 --> 01:14:44,313 WHAT SHORES OF WHAT WORLDS ?" 1111 01:14:44,313 --> 01:14:49,919 IT'S A VERY BIG QUESTION YOU'RE FACED WITH, SUSANNA. 1112 01:14:49,919 --> 01:14:53,890 THE CHOICE OF YOUR LIFE. 1113 01:14:53,890 --> 01:14:57,060 HOW MUCH WILL YOU INDULGE IN YOUR FLAWS ? 1114 01:14:58,595 --> 01:15:02,331 WHAT ARE YOUR FLAWS ? ARE THEY FLAWS ? 1115 01:15:02,331 --> 01:15:04,133 IF YOU EMBRACE THEM, 1116 01:15:04,133 --> 01:15:07,036 WILL YOU COMMIT YOURSELF TO HOSPITAL FOR LIFE ? 1117 01:15:08,872 --> 01:15:13,442 BIG QUESTIONS, BIG DECISIONS. 1118 01:15:13,442 --> 01:15:17,881 IT'S NOT SURPRISING YOU PROFESS CARELESSNESS ABOUT THEM. 1119 01:15:25,088 --> 01:15:27,523 IS THAT IT ? 1120 01:15:28,958 --> 01:15:30,960 FOR NOW. 1121 01:15:39,235 --> 01:15:41,170 THIS WAY, SUSANNA. 1122 01:15:55,451 --> 01:15:58,021 [ Susanna ] JOHN WAS MOVED TO THE MEN'S WARD. 1123 01:15:59,789 --> 01:16:03,092 AND LISA NEVER CAME BACK FROM DR. WICK'S OFFICE. 1124 01:16:31,120 --> 01:16:33,356 [ Man ] WE LIVE IN A TIME OF DOUBT. 1125 01:16:34,891 --> 01:16:38,494 THE INSTITUTIONS WE ONCE TRUSTED NO LONGER SEEM RELIABLE. 1126 01:16:38,494 --> 01:16:40,596 [ TV Continues, Indistinct ] 1127 01:16:40,596 --> 01:16:42,398 [ Polly ] SUSANNA. 1128 01:16:42,398 --> 01:16:46,469 DAISY SENT US A POSTCARD ALL ABOUT HER NEW APARTMENT. 1129 01:16:46,469 --> 01:16:50,073 SHE GOT A PUSSYCAT. 1130 01:16:50,073 --> 01:16:52,241 WHERE'S LISA ? 1131 01:16:52,241 --> 01:16:55,578 YOU KNOW WHERE SHE IS. 1132 01:16:55,578 --> 01:16:59,215 THEY JUST PUT HER IN ANOTHER WARD. 1133 01:17:10,559 --> 01:17:13,096 I THINK YOU NEED TO GET UP. 1134 01:17:13,096 --> 01:17:17,233 I'M JUST GOING TO REST FOR A WHILE. JUST A LITTLE WHILE. 1135 01:17:20,169 --> 01:17:22,171 HEY. [ Mumbles ] 1136 01:17:22,171 --> 01:17:24,573 HEY. I-- 1137 01:17:24,573 --> 01:17:26,642 I'M NOT-- WHAT ARE YOU DOING ? 1138 01:17:26,642 --> 01:17:29,713 [ Shouts ] 1139 01:17:29,713 --> 01:17:33,149 FUCK. YOU SH-- 1140 01:17:33,149 --> 01:17:35,384 SORRY. TOO COLD ? 1141 01:17:35,384 --> 01:17:37,320 WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING ? 1142 01:17:37,320 --> 01:17:41,157 - GET ME THE FUCK OUT OF THIS TUB. - GET YOURSELF OUT. 1143 01:17:41,157 --> 01:17:43,960 WHERE'S LISA ? 1144 01:17:43,960 --> 01:17:46,062 WHERE THE FUCK IS LISA ? 1145 01:17:46,062 --> 01:17:48,597 WHAT'S THE MATTER, CAN'T HACK IT WITHOUT HER ? 1146 01:17:48,597 --> 01:17:52,836 YOU BANISH HER FOR SINGING TO POLLY ? WE WERE TRYING TO HELP HER. 1147 01:17:52,836 --> 01:17:58,307 WE WERE TRYING TO HELP HER. THIS PLACE IS A FUCKING FASCIST TORTURE CHAMBER. 1148 01:17:58,307 --> 01:17:59,976 NO. 1149 01:17:59,976 --> 01:18:02,211 SEE, I'VE WORKED IN STATE HOSPITALS. 1150 01:18:02,211 --> 01:18:04,047 THIS PLACE IS A FIVE-STAR HOTEL. 1151 01:18:04,047 --> 01:18:07,751 [ Laughing ] * OH, LORDY, PICK A BALE OF COTTON ** 1152 01:18:07,751 --> 01:18:11,687 YOU KNOW, I CAN TAKE A LOT OF CRAZY SHIT... ** [ Continues ] 1153 01:18:11,687 --> 01:18:13,823 FROM A LOT OF CRAZY PEOPLE, 1154 01:18:13,823 --> 01:18:17,426 BUT YOU-- YOU ARE NOT CRAZY. 1155 01:18:17,426 --> 01:18:19,228 THEN WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME, HUH ? 1156 01:18:19,228 --> 01:18:22,065 WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON INSIDE MY HEAD ? 1157 01:18:22,065 --> 01:18:25,101 TELL ME, DOCTOR VAL. WHAT'S YOUR "DIAG-NONSENSE" ? 1158 01:18:25,101 --> 01:18:29,705 YOU ARE A LAZY, SELF-INDULGENT, LITTLE GIRL... 1159 01:18:29,705 --> 01:18:32,375 WHO IS DRIVING HERSELF CRAZY. 1160 01:18:34,978 --> 01:18:39,382 OH. IS THAT YOUR, UH, MEDICAL OPINION ? HUH ? 1161 01:18:39,382 --> 01:18:43,119 IS THAT WHAT YOU'VE LEARNED IN YOUR ADVANCED STUDIES AT NIGHT SCHOOL... 1162 01:18:43,119 --> 01:18:45,621 FOR NEGRO, WELFARE MOTHERS ? 1163 01:18:45,621 --> 01:18:48,391 I MEAN, MELVIN DOESN'T HAVE A CLUE, 1164 01:18:48,391 --> 01:18:51,995 WICK IS A PSYCHO, AND YOU-- YOU PRETEND YOU'RE A DOCTOR. 1165 01:18:51,995 --> 01:18:54,397 YOU SIGN THE CHARTS AND YOU DOLE OUT MEDS, 1166 01:18:54,397 --> 01:18:56,866 [ Exaggerated Accent ] BUT "YOU'S" AIN'T NO DOCTOR, MISS VALERIE. 1167 01:18:56,866 --> 01:18:59,735 "YOU'S" AIN'T NOTHING BUT A BLACK NURSEMAID. 1168 01:19:03,039 --> 01:19:05,842 AND YOU'RE JUST THROWING IT AWAY. 1169 01:19:31,667 --> 01:19:34,303 DO YOU STILL WANT TO GO TO FLORIDA ? 1170 01:19:36,339 --> 01:19:39,342 LISA, WE NEED MONEY, DON'T WE ? 1171 01:19:39,342 --> 01:19:42,411 YOU'VE BEEN TONGUING YOUR MEDS AT NIGHT, RIGHT ? YEAH, BUT I ONLY HAVE-- 1172 01:19:42,411 --> 01:19:44,814 THEY GAVE ME SHOCKS AGAIN. 1173 01:19:44,814 --> 01:19:47,050 ALL RIGHT, JAMIE? I HAVE TO GET OUT OF HERE. 1174 01:19:49,819 --> 01:19:51,955 I'M SUSANNA. 1175 01:19:51,955 --> 01:19:54,090 I'M SUSANNA. 1176 01:19:58,094 --> 01:20:00,229 [ Car Passing ] 1177 01:20:13,843 --> 01:20:15,979 WHAT ARE WE DOING ? 1178 01:20:18,714 --> 01:20:21,584 WHAT IS THIS ? 1179 01:20:21,584 --> 01:20:23,386 "DEAR SIR. 1180 01:20:23,386 --> 01:20:25,388 "PLEASE GIVE DAISY RANDONE ASSISTANCE... 1181 01:20:25,388 --> 01:20:29,125 INSTALLING A TELEPHONE AT 23 VICAR STREET." 1182 01:20:29,125 --> 01:20:30,927 I THOUGHT WE WERE GOING TO FLORIDA. 1183 01:20:30,927 --> 01:20:34,530 WE ARE. WE JUST NEED A PLACE TO CRASH TILL WE GET PLANE TICKETS. 1184 01:20:36,599 --> 01:20:38,534 COME ON. 1185 01:20:43,572 --> 01:20:46,109 ** [ Radio Playing ] 1186 01:20:48,844 --> 01:20:50,980 NICE COAT. 1187 01:20:52,348 --> 01:20:55,018 * COME ON LET'S GO DOWNTOWN * 1188 01:20:56,119 --> 01:20:58,988 * SHE SAID I GOT TO GO * 1189 01:20:58,988 --> 01:21:02,325 * BUT MY FRIEND CAN STICK AROUND * 1190 01:21:02,325 --> 01:21:06,062 * TAKE A LOAD OFF ANNIE * 1191 01:21:06,062 --> 01:21:09,332 * TAKE A LOAD FOR FREE * 1192 01:21:09,332 --> 01:21:12,969 * TAKE A LOAD OFF ANNIE * 1193 01:21:12,969 --> 01:21:15,538 * AND, AND, AND * 1194 01:21:15,538 --> 01:21:21,877 * YOU PUT THE LOAD RIGHT ON ME ** 1195 01:21:27,816 --> 01:21:30,019 [ Blues-Rock ] * WELL, KEEP YOUR EYES ON THE ROAD * 1196 01:21:30,019 --> 01:21:35,424 * YOUR HANDS UPON THE WHEEL * 1197 01:21:35,424 --> 01:21:37,893 * OH, KEEP YOUR EYES ON THE ROAD * 1198 01:21:37,893 --> 01:21:42,031 * YOUR HANDS UPON THE WHEEL * 1199 01:21:43,899 --> 01:21:45,901 * GOING TO THE ROADHOUSE * 1200 01:21:45,901 --> 01:21:49,038 * GONNA HAVE A REAL * 1201 01:21:49,038 --> 01:21:51,040 * GOOD TIME ** 1202 01:21:51,040 --> 01:21:53,042 ** [ Continues ] 1203 01:21:53,042 --> 01:21:55,044 LISA ? LISA. 1204 01:21:55,044 --> 01:21:57,646 WHY ? [ Laughing ] 1205 01:21:57,646 --> 01:22:00,383 YOU DON'T WANT ME, TONY. 1206 01:22:00,383 --> 01:22:02,485 YES, I DO, BABY. 1207 01:22:02,485 --> 01:22:05,221 NO, YOU DON'T. I'M A CRAZY GIRL. 1208 01:22:05,221 --> 01:22:07,957 YOU'RE CRAZY, SO WE CAN'T HAVE ONE NIGHT OF BLISS ? 1209 01:22:07,957 --> 01:22:11,394 I AM A CRAZY GIRL. SERIOUSLY. 1210 01:22:12,561 --> 01:22:14,563 YOU BEEN IN A HOSPITAL ? 1211 01:22:14,563 --> 01:22:16,499 YES. 1212 01:22:21,237 --> 01:22:23,372 DO YOU SEE PURPLE PEOPLE ? 1213 01:22:24,840 --> 01:22:27,276 MY FRIEND, HE SAW PURPLE PEOPLE. 1214 01:22:27,276 --> 01:22:31,847 AND SO THE STATE CAME AND TOOK HIM AWAY. 1215 01:22:31,847 --> 01:22:33,983 HE DIDN'T LIKE THAT. 1216 01:22:33,983 --> 01:22:36,119 SOME TIME WENT BY AND-- 1217 01:22:36,119 --> 01:22:39,122 AND HE TOLD THEM HE DIDN'T SEE PURPLE PEOPLE NO MORE. 1218 01:22:39,122 --> 01:22:41,157 HE GOT BETTER. 1219 01:22:41,157 --> 01:22:44,893 NO. HE STILL SEES THEM. 1220 01:22:44,893 --> 01:22:46,362 [ Door Slams ] 1221 01:22:46,362 --> 01:22:48,497 COME ON. WE'VE GOT TO SPLIT. 1222 01:22:48,497 --> 01:22:52,668 [ Man ] HEY, SOMEBODY STOP HER ! SHE TOOK MY FUCKING WALLET ! 1223 01:23:03,479 --> 01:23:06,082 [ Daisy ] IDENTIFY YOURSELF. 1224 01:23:06,082 --> 01:23:08,084 IT'S SUSANNA AND-- 1225 01:23:08,084 --> 01:23:10,386 IT'S SUSANNA. 1226 01:23:10,386 --> 01:23:12,321 DAISY ? 1227 01:23:17,726 --> 01:23:19,728 YOU GOT VALIUM ? 1228 01:23:19,728 --> 01:23:21,897 YEAH. 1229 01:23:21,897 --> 01:23:24,100 OKAY. 1230 01:23:28,003 --> 01:23:30,239 [ Chains Unlatching ] 1231 01:23:34,977 --> 01:23:37,146 [ Susanna ] WOW. COOL PAD. 1232 01:23:37,146 --> 01:23:39,115 HEY, DAISY. 1233 01:23:39,115 --> 01:23:40,916 PEACE, MAN. PEACE. 1234 01:23:40,916 --> 01:23:43,586 COME ON. I'M SORRY FOR BEING A BITCH. I WAS A DRAG. 1235 01:23:43,586 --> 01:23:46,689 THAT'S FOR YOU. 1236 01:23:48,157 --> 01:23:50,659 [ Hisses ] 1237 01:23:52,128 --> 01:23:54,130 [ Lisa Meowing ] 1238 01:23:54,130 --> 01:23:56,732 THAT'S RUBY. 1239 01:23:56,732 --> 01:23:58,234 MY DAD BOUGHT HER FOR ME. 1240 01:24:00,669 --> 01:24:04,140 [ Daisy ] THIS IS A CASTRO CONVERTIBLE. OOH. 1241 01:24:04,140 --> 01:24:06,309 IT FOLDS OUT. YEAH. 1242 01:24:06,309 --> 01:24:08,444 [ Lisa ] WHERE'S YOUR BATHROOM ? RIGHT THERE. 1243 01:24:12,215 --> 01:24:16,085 - YOU DON'T HAVE A TUB. - NO. I DON'T. 1244 01:24:16,085 --> 01:24:18,887 WHAT ABOUT UPSTAIRS ? NOPE. 1245 01:24:18,887 --> 01:24:20,556 YEAH. OKAY. 1246 01:24:20,556 --> 01:24:24,026 SO, WHAT ? DID YOU TWO ESCAPE, OR WHAT ? 1247 01:24:24,026 --> 01:24:26,129 [ Susanna ] ACTUALLY, WE'RE GOING TO FLORIDA. 1248 01:24:26,129 --> 01:24:30,233 [ Daisy ] OH ! ALL YOU HAVE IS MUSTARD AND YOUR CHICKENS. 1249 01:24:30,233 --> 01:24:34,203 SO, WHAT ARE YOU GIRLS GOING TO DO IN FLORIDA ? 1250 01:24:34,203 --> 01:24:36,205 I'M GOING TO BE THE NEW CINDERELLA... 1251 01:24:36,205 --> 01:24:39,208 AT WALT DISNEY'S NEW THEME PARK. OH. 1252 01:24:39,208 --> 01:24:41,477 SUSANNA'S GOING TO BE SNOW WHITE. 1253 01:24:41,477 --> 01:24:44,213 YOU CAN COME IF YOU WANT. YOU CAN, UH-- 1254 01:24:44,213 --> 01:24:47,350 YOU CAN BE THE COCKER SPANIEL THAT ATE SPAGHETTI. 1255 01:24:48,217 --> 01:24:50,986 I WANT TO MAKE PANCAKES. 1256 01:24:50,986 --> 01:24:52,955 I'M TIRED. I WANT TO GO TO BED. 1257 01:24:52,955 --> 01:24:55,424 IN THE MORNING. I WANT TO MAKE PANCAKES IN THE MORNING. 1258 01:24:55,424 --> 01:24:57,426 THERE'S A MARKET ON THE CORNER. 1259 01:24:57,426 --> 01:24:59,962 PANS ARE UNDER THE SINK. 1260 01:24:59,962 --> 01:25:02,131 SILVER IS IN THAT DRAWER. 1261 01:25:05,268 --> 01:25:06,702 DO YOU HAVE ANY MONEY ? 1262 01:25:08,437 --> 01:25:12,275 DO YOU HAVE SOME SORT OF A SAFETY NET DOWN THERE ? 1263 01:25:12,275 --> 01:25:16,111 PEOPLE YOU KNOW DOWN THERE IN FLORIDA ? 1264 01:25:16,111 --> 01:25:19,148 RELATIVES ? 1265 01:25:19,148 --> 01:25:22,117 FRIENDS, ANYTHING ? 1266 01:25:23,018 --> 01:25:25,421 YEAH. 1267 01:25:32,761 --> 01:25:36,131 THIS IS FOR YOUR PANCAKES. 1268 01:25:36,131 --> 01:25:38,267 DON'T MAKE A LOT OF NOISE IN THE MORNING. 1269 01:25:40,169 --> 01:25:43,038 I LIKE TO SLEEP LATE. 1270 01:25:43,038 --> 01:25:45,441 I'LL COME DOWN WHEN I'M READY. 1271 01:25:50,045 --> 01:25:52,448 PSST, PSST, PSST. 1272 01:25:56,151 --> 01:25:58,321 ** [ Humming ] 1273 01:26:04,893 --> 01:26:06,929 ** [ Continues Humming ] 1274 01:26:13,336 --> 01:26:16,439 GIVE ME THE VALIUM. 1275 01:26:17,406 --> 01:26:19,442 WE DON'T NEED YOUR DADDY'S MONEY. 1276 01:26:19,442 --> 01:26:22,144 THEN LEAVE IT THERE. 1277 01:26:22,144 --> 01:26:25,481 JUST GIVE ME THE FUCKING VALIUM. 1278 01:26:30,118 --> 01:26:31,954 WHAT'S THIS ? HUH ? 1279 01:26:31,954 --> 01:26:35,090 WHAT'S THIS ? TRYING OUT YOUR NEW SILVER ? LET GO. 1280 01:26:35,090 --> 01:26:36,959 GET THE FUCK OFF ME. 1281 01:26:36,959 --> 01:26:39,962 - LESS APPEALING FOR DADDY, HUH ? - LISA. 1282 01:26:39,962 --> 01:26:42,130 LOOK AT YOUR OWN ARM, ASSHOLE. 1283 01:26:42,130 --> 01:26:44,166 I'M SICK, DAISY. WE KNOW THAT. 1284 01:26:44,166 --> 01:26:46,835 BUT HERE YOU ARE IN SO-CALLED RECOVERY, PLAYING BETTY CROCKER, 1285 01:26:46,835 --> 01:26:50,806 CUT UP LIKE A GODDAMN VIRGINIA HAM. LISA, JUST STOP IT, OKAY ? 1286 01:26:51,807 --> 01:26:54,743 HELP ME UNDERSTAND, DAISY, 'CAUSE... 1287 01:26:54,743 --> 01:26:56,745 I THOUGHT YOU DIDN'T DO VALIUM. 1288 01:26:56,745 --> 01:26:58,747 TELL ME HOW THIS SAFETY NET IS WORKING. 1289 01:26:58,747 --> 01:27:01,950 TELL ME THAT YOU DON'T TAKE THAT BLADE... 1290 01:27:01,950 --> 01:27:03,752 AND DRAG IT ACROSS YOUR SKIN... 1291 01:27:03,752 --> 01:27:07,256 AND PRAY FOR THE COURAGE TO PRESS DOWN. 1292 01:27:08,757 --> 01:27:11,026 TELL ME HOW YOUR DADDY... CHRIST. 1293 01:27:11,026 --> 01:27:13,228 HELPS YOU COPE WITH THAT. 1294 01:27:13,228 --> 01:27:15,364 ILLUMINATE ME. 1295 01:27:17,833 --> 01:27:19,902 MY FATHER LOVES ME. 1296 01:27:22,237 --> 01:27:24,239 I BET. 1297 01:27:24,239 --> 01:27:27,142 WITH EVERY INCH OF HIS MANHOOD. 1298 01:27:27,142 --> 01:27:29,612 OH, GOD. 1299 01:27:33,382 --> 01:27:36,585 I'M GOING TO SLEEP NOW. 1300 01:27:38,687 --> 01:27:40,589 [ Moans ] 1301 01:27:44,393 --> 01:27:46,562 PLEASE BE GONE IN THE MORNING. 1302 01:27:49,264 --> 01:27:51,767 YOU'RE JUST JEALOUS, LISA. 1303 01:27:53,135 --> 01:27:55,270 BECAUSE I GOT BETTER. 1304 01:27:55,270 --> 01:27:59,007 BECAUSE I WAS RELEASED. 1305 01:27:59,007 --> 01:28:02,811 BECAUSE I HAVE A CHANCE... 1306 01:28:02,811 --> 01:28:04,747 AND A LIFE. 1307 01:28:06,449 --> 01:28:09,485 THEY DIDN'T RELEASE YOU BECAUSE YOU'RE BETTER, DAISY. 1308 01:28:09,485 --> 01:28:11,420 THEY JUST GAVE UP. 1309 01:28:12,521 --> 01:28:14,423 YOU CALL THIS A LIFE ? HUH ? 1310 01:28:14,423 --> 01:28:16,625 TAKING DADDY'S MONEY, 1311 01:28:16,625 --> 01:28:18,627 BUYING YOUR DOLLIES AND YOUR KNICKKNACKS, 1312 01:28:18,627 --> 01:28:20,629 AND EATING HIS FUCKING CHICKEN, 1313 01:28:20,629 --> 01:28:24,166 FATTENING UP LIKE A PRIZE FUCKING HEIFER ? 1314 01:28:24,166 --> 01:28:26,502 YOU CHANGED THE SCENERY, BUT NOT THE FUCKING SITUATION... 1315 01:28:26,502 --> 01:28:29,104 AND THE WARDEN MAKES HOUSE CALLS. 1316 01:28:29,104 --> 01:28:31,507 AND EVERYBODY KNOWS-- 1317 01:28:31,507 --> 01:28:33,509 EVERYBODY KNOWS-- 1318 01:28:33,509 --> 01:28:36,111 THAT HE FUCKS YOU. 1319 01:28:36,111 --> 01:28:38,914 WHAT THEY DON'T KNOW... 1320 01:28:38,914 --> 01:28:40,716 IS THAT YOU LIKE IT. 1321 01:28:40,716 --> 01:28:43,786 HUH ? YOU LIKE IT. 1322 01:28:43,786 --> 01:28:46,389 SHUT THE FUCK UP ! BUT HEY, MAN, IT'S COOL. 1323 01:28:46,389 --> 01:28:49,191 IT'S OKAY. IT'S FINE. IT'S FUCKING FINE. 1324 01:28:49,191 --> 01:28:53,261 A MAN IS A DICK IS A MAN IS A DICK IS A CHICKEN... 1325 01:28:53,261 --> 01:28:55,263 IS A DAD... 1326 01:28:55,263 --> 01:28:58,734 A VALIUM, A SPECULUM, WHATEVER, HUH ? 1327 01:28:58,734 --> 01:29:01,737 WHATEVER. 1328 01:29:01,737 --> 01:29:03,572 YOU LIKE BEING MRS. RANDONE. 1329 01:29:03,572 --> 01:29:07,643 PROBABLY ALL YOU'VE EVER KNOWN, HUH ? 1330 01:29:10,513 --> 01:29:13,115 HAVE FUN IN FLORIDA. 1331 01:29:26,862 --> 01:29:28,797 [ Door Shuts ] 1332 01:29:41,844 --> 01:29:43,779 [ Chuckles ] 1333 01:30:49,612 --> 01:30:53,482 * [ Ballad ] 1334 01:30:53,482 --> 01:30:59,154 * WHY DO THESE EYES OF MINE CRY * 1335 01:31:00,222 --> 01:31:02,357 * DON'T THEY KNOW * 1336 01:31:02,357 --> 01:31:04,593 * IT'S THE END * 1337 01:31:04,593 --> 01:31:06,762 HAS SHE COME DOWN YET ? * OF THE WORLD * 1338 01:31:06,762 --> 01:31:09,464 NO. * IT ENDED WHEN YOU SAID * 1339 01:31:09,464 --> 01:31:13,201 BUT SHE'S BEEN PLAYING THAT SHIT ALL MORNING. * GOOD-BYE * 1340 01:31:14,537 --> 01:31:17,272 * WHY DOES MY HEART * 1341 01:31:17,272 --> 01:31:20,943 * GO ON BEATING * 1342 01:31:20,943 --> 01:31:26,682 * WHY DO THESE EYES OF MINE CRY * 1343 01:31:28,216 --> 01:31:31,019 * DON'T THEY KNOW * 1344 01:31:31,019 --> 01:31:34,422 * IT'S THE END OF THE WORLD * 1345 01:31:34,422 --> 01:31:39,094 [ Knocks ] DAISY ? * IT ENDED WHEN YOU SAID * 1346 01:31:39,094 --> 01:31:43,198 * GOOD-BYE ** 1347 01:31:49,371 --> 01:31:52,140 * [ Ends ] 1348 01:31:56,278 --> 01:31:58,513 * [ Resumes ] 1349 01:32:02,184 --> 01:32:04,787 * WHY DOES THE SUN * 1350 01:32:04,787 --> 01:32:08,591 [ Meows ] * GO ON SHINING * 1351 01:32:08,591 --> 01:32:11,326 * WHY DOES THE SEA * 1352 01:32:11,326 --> 01:32:15,463 * RUSH TO SHORE * 1353 01:32:15,463 --> 01:32:18,466 * DON'T THEY KNOW * 1354 01:32:18,466 --> 01:32:21,737 * IT'S THE END OF THE WORLD * 1355 01:32:21,737 --> 01:32:25,473 * 'CAUSE YOU DON'T LOVE ME * 1356 01:32:25,473 --> 01:32:29,211 * ANYMORE * 1357 01:32:29,211 --> 01:32:32,014 * WHY DO THE BIRDS * 1358 01:32:32,014 --> 01:32:34,282 DAISY ? * GO ON SINGING * 1359 01:32:35,884 --> 01:32:38,621 * WHY DO THE STARS * 1360 01:32:38,621 --> 01:32:43,258 DAISY ? * GLOW ABOVE * 1361 01:32:43,258 --> 01:32:45,761 * DON'T THEY KNOW * 1362 01:32:45,761 --> 01:32:49,031 [ Gasping ] * IT'S THE END OF THE WORLD * 1363 01:32:49,031 --> 01:32:52,668 [ Gagging ] * IT ENDED WHEN I LOST * 1364 01:32:52,668 --> 01:32:55,037 OH, MY GOD ! * YOUR LOVE ** 1365 01:32:57,305 --> 01:33:01,343 [ Sobbing ] ** [ Continues Indistinct ] 1366 01:33:06,815 --> 01:33:08,951 OH, WHAT AN IDIOT. 1367 01:33:10,819 --> 01:33:13,355 ** [ Continues ] 1368 01:33:17,359 --> 01:33:19,561 [ Sobbing ] YES, I NEED AN AMBULANCE. 1369 01:33:19,561 --> 01:33:21,697 MAKE IT A HEARSE. 1370 01:33:21,697 --> 01:33:24,833 DAISY RANDONE. 1371 01:33:24,833 --> 01:33:27,970 SHE KILLED HERSELF. 1372 01:33:27,970 --> 01:33:31,606 TWENTY-THREE VICAR STREET. 1373 01:33:31,606 --> 01:33:34,743 YES. PLEASE HURRY. 1374 01:33:35,744 --> 01:33:37,880 * [ Continues ] 1375 01:33:45,420 --> 01:33:46,755 YOU PRESSED HER BUTTONS. 1376 01:33:46,755 --> 01:33:48,490 NOW YOU'RE TAKING HER MONEY. 1377 01:33:48,490 --> 01:33:51,927 PLEASE. I DIDN'T PRESS SHIT. SHE WAS WAITING FOR AN EXCUSE. 1378 01:33:51,927 --> 01:33:54,663 COME ON, PACK UP. WE HAVE TO GO. ALL RIGHT ? 1379 01:33:54,663 --> 01:33:57,232 WE HAVE TO GO. 1380 01:33:57,232 --> 01:33:59,167 WE HAVE MONEY. 1381 01:34:02,705 --> 01:34:05,841 SUSANNA, DON'T BE STUPID. 1382 01:34:07,976 --> 01:34:11,780 ALL RIGHT, FINE. BE STUPID. 1383 01:34:11,780 --> 01:34:16,719 * IT ENDED WHEN YOU SAID * 1384 01:34:16,719 --> 01:34:20,689 * GOOD-BYE ** 1385 01:34:20,689 --> 01:34:22,858 [ Sobbing ] 1386 01:34:31,333 --> 01:34:33,335 [ Thunderclap ] 1387 01:36:24,012 --> 01:36:27,415 WE SHOULD SEND SOMEONE FOR A LITTER BOX. 1388 01:36:44,366 --> 01:36:46,301 HEY. HEY. 1389 01:36:55,643 --> 01:36:57,645 CAN I-- 1390 01:36:57,645 --> 01:37:00,648 CAN I PET THE KITTY ? 1391 01:37:00,648 --> 01:37:04,386 YEAH. CAREFUL. 1392 01:37:05,453 --> 01:37:07,455 HELLO. 1393 01:37:07,455 --> 01:37:09,457 HELLO, PUDDYCAT. 1394 01:37:09,457 --> 01:37:11,459 KITTY. [ Meows ] 1395 01:37:11,459 --> 01:37:13,962 YOU'RE SO CUTE. 1396 01:37:25,740 --> 01:37:27,876 [ Whispering ] CHECKS. 1397 01:37:29,477 --> 01:37:31,880 WHERE'S GEORGINA ? 1398 01:37:31,880 --> 01:37:34,883 SHE'S STAYING WITH POLLY TONIGHT. 1399 01:37:34,883 --> 01:37:37,419 THEY'RE PLAYING WITH YOUR CAT. 1400 01:37:41,156 --> 01:37:43,291 DID THEY FIND LISA ? 1401 01:37:44,759 --> 01:37:46,895 NO. 1402 01:38:04,679 --> 01:38:07,349 I COULDN'T STAND UP TO HER. 1403 01:38:11,219 --> 01:38:15,090 A DECENT PERSON WOULD HAVE DONE SOMETHING. 1404 01:38:17,425 --> 01:38:19,361 SHUT HER UP. 1405 01:38:22,965 --> 01:38:25,100 GONE UPSTAIRS. 1406 01:38:25,968 --> 01:38:28,103 TALKED TO DAISY. 1407 01:38:30,705 --> 01:38:33,241 MELVIN SAID YOU WENT UPSTAIRS. 1408 01:38:35,310 --> 01:38:37,245 TOO LATE. 1409 01:38:39,381 --> 01:38:41,984 WHAT WOULD YOU HAVE SAID TO HER ? 1410 01:38:43,585 --> 01:38:45,520 I DON'T KNOW. 1411 01:38:46,989 --> 01:38:49,524 THAT I WAS SORRY. 1412 01:38:54,529 --> 01:38:58,266 THAT I'LL NEVER KNOW WHAT IT WAS LIKE TO BE HER, 1413 01:39:02,070 --> 01:39:06,341 BUT I KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE TO WANT TO DIE. 1414 01:39:10,078 --> 01:39:12,947 HOW IT HURTS TO SMILE. 1415 01:39:14,349 --> 01:39:18,086 HOW YOU TRY TO FIT IN, BUT YOU CAN'T. 1416 01:39:19,487 --> 01:39:23,091 HOW YOU HURT YOURSELF ON THE OUTSIDE... 1417 01:39:23,091 --> 01:39:26,628 TO TRY TO KILL THE THING ON THE INSIDE. 1418 01:39:28,563 --> 01:39:30,365 SUSANNA, 1419 01:39:30,365 --> 01:39:33,168 IT'S ALL WELL AND GOOD TO TELL ME ALL THIS, 1420 01:39:33,168 --> 01:39:36,971 BUT YOU'VE GOT TO TELL SOME OF THIS TO YOUR DOCTORS. 1421 01:39:44,112 --> 01:39:46,114 HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO RECOVER... 1422 01:39:46,114 --> 01:39:49,284 WHEN I DON'T EVEN UNDERSTAND MY DISEASE ? 1423 01:39:50,152 --> 01:39:52,520 BUT YOU DO UNDERSTAND IT. 1424 01:39:52,520 --> 01:39:56,324 YOU SPOKE VERY CLEARLY ABOUT IT A SECOND AGO. 1425 01:39:56,324 --> 01:40:00,328 BUT I THINK WHAT YOU'VE GOT TO DO IS PUT IT DOWN. 1426 01:40:00,328 --> 01:40:02,997 PUT IT AWAY. PUT IT IN YOUR NOTEBOOK. 1427 01:40:02,997 --> 01:40:05,200 BUT GET IT OUT OF YOURSELF-- 1428 01:40:05,200 --> 01:40:09,404 AWAY, SO YOU CAN'T CURL UP WITH IT ANYMORE. 1429 01:40:16,744 --> 01:40:19,781 LISA THINKS IT'S A GIFT. 1430 01:40:21,883 --> 01:40:25,287 THAT IT LETS YOU SEE THE TRUTH. 1431 01:40:28,022 --> 01:40:31,726 LISA HAS BEEN HERE FOR EIGHT YEARS. 1432 01:40:38,433 --> 01:40:41,336 [ Sobbing ] I'M SO SORRY. 1433 01:40:41,336 --> 01:40:43,905 I WAS A PIG. I WAS A PIG. 1434 01:40:43,905 --> 01:40:46,040 IT'S ALL RIGHT. LISTEN. 1435 01:40:47,309 --> 01:40:50,212 DO NOT DROP ANCHOR HERE. 1436 01:40:50,212 --> 01:40:52,347 UNDERSTAND ? 1437 01:41:05,527 --> 01:41:08,863 [ Susanna Narrating ] WHEN YOU DON'T WANT TO FEEL, 1438 01:41:08,863 --> 01:41:12,867 DEATH CAN SEEM LIKE A DREAM. 1439 01:41:12,867 --> 01:41:15,803 BUT SEEING DEATH-- 1440 01:41:15,803 --> 01:41:18,406 REALLY SEEING IT-- 1441 01:41:18,406 --> 01:41:21,643 MAKES DREAMING ABOUT IT FUCKING RIDICULOUS. 1442 01:41:23,545 --> 01:41:27,282 MAYBE THERE'S A MOMENT GROWING UP... 1443 01:41:27,282 --> 01:41:29,684 WHEN SOMETHING PEELS BACK. 1444 01:41:29,684 --> 01:41:31,686 MAYBE. MAYBE I-- 1445 01:41:31,686 --> 01:41:36,524 WE LOOK FOR SECRETS BECAUSE WE CAN'T BELIEVE OUR MINDS-- AND THOUGH I MISSED LISA, 1446 01:41:36,524 --> 01:41:38,360 LIFE WAS EASIER WITHOUT HER. 1447 01:41:38,360 --> 01:41:42,964 A THOUGHT IS A HARD THING TO CONTROL-- OUT IN THE REAL WORLD-- 1448 01:41:42,964 --> 01:41:45,567 ALL I KNOW IS THAT I BEGAN TO FEEL THINGS AGAIN-- 1449 01:41:45,567 --> 01:41:48,836 ...CRAZY, SANE, STUPID, SMART, ANGRY-- ...WHATEVER I WAS-- 1450 01:41:48,836 --> 01:41:52,174 I KNEW THERE WAS ONLY ONE WAY BACK TO THE WORLD, 1451 01:41:52,174 --> 01:41:54,509 AND THAT WAS TO USE THE PLACE-- 1452 01:41:54,509 --> 01:41:56,978 TO TALK. 1453 01:41:56,978 --> 01:42:01,316 [ Indistinct ] SO I SAW THE GREAT AND WONDERFL DR. WICK THREE TIMES A WEEK, 1454 01:42:01,316 --> 01:42:04,352 AND I LET HER HEAR EVERY THOUGHT IN MY HEAD. 1455 01:42:07,889 --> 01:42:11,993 DO YOU THINK MAYBE I HAVE E.S.P. OR SOMETHING ? THAT I'M GIFTED ? 1456 01:42:11,993 --> 01:42:14,529 PERHAPS. 1457 01:42:26,508 --> 01:42:29,344 YOU THINK I CAN BE HOME BY THANKSGIVING ? 1458 01:42:33,248 --> 01:42:36,284 NOTHING HAS HAPPENED IN WEEKS, YOU KNOW. 1459 01:42:36,284 --> 01:42:39,721 THE POINT IS CONTROL. 1460 01:42:39,721 --> 01:42:41,756 YEAH, AND HERE I AM-- 1461 01:42:41,756 --> 01:42:44,125 IN CONTROL, OFF MEDS, 1462 01:42:44,125 --> 01:42:46,928 NO HEADACHES, SLEEPING SOUND. 1463 01:42:55,337 --> 01:42:58,072 [ Woman On TV ] OH, WILL YOU HELP ME ? CAN YOU HELP ME ? 1464 01:42:58,072 --> 01:43:00,275 [ Woman 2 ] YOU DON'T NEED TO BE HELPED ANY LONGER. 1465 01:43:00,275 --> 01:43:02,777 YOU'VE ALWAYS HAD THE POWER TO GO BACK TO KANSAS. 1466 01:43:02,777 --> 01:43:06,414 I HAVE ? [ Man ] THEN WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL HER BEFORE ? 1467 01:43:06,414 --> 01:43:10,485 BECAUSE SHE WOULDN'T HAVE BELIEVED ME. SHE HAD TO LEARN IT FOR HERSELF. 1468 01:43:10,485 --> 01:43:13,087 [ Man ] WHAT HAVE YOU LEARNED, DOROTHY ? 1469 01:43:13,087 --> 01:43:14,956 [ Dorothy ] WELL, 1470 01:43:17,625 --> 01:43:20,362 I THINK THAT IT-- THAT IT WASN'T ENOUGH 1471 01:43:20,362 --> 01:43:23,164 JUST TO WANT TO SEE UNCLE HENRY AND AUNTIE EM. 1472 01:43:23,164 --> 01:43:26,401 [ Woman ] VALERIE. AND THAT IF I EVER GO LOOKING 1473 01:43:26,401 --> 01:43:28,503 [ Whispering ] FOR MY HEART'S DESIRE AGAIN, 1474 01:43:28,503 --> 01:43:32,240 I WON'T LOOK ANY FURTHER THAN MY OWN BACK YARD. 1475 01:43:32,240 --> 01:43:34,642 BECAUSE IF IT ISN'T THERE, 1476 01:43:34,642 --> 01:43:36,978 I NEVER REALLY LOST IT TO BEGIN WITH. 1477 01:43:36,978 --> 01:43:38,980 IS THAT RIGHT ? 1478 01:43:38,980 --> 01:43:40,915 [ TV Continues, Indistinct ] 1479 01:44:02,203 --> 01:44:04,439 [ Gretta ] THANKS, JOE. 1480 01:44:55,089 --> 01:44:57,024 [ Tapping ] 1481 01:45:06,634 --> 01:45:08,436 GO AWAY. 1482 01:45:08,436 --> 01:45:10,572 GO AWAY ! 1483 01:45:11,906 --> 01:45:13,841 LISA. 1484 01:45:16,644 --> 01:45:18,580 IT'S ME. 1485 01:45:32,927 --> 01:45:37,064 IT'S BEEN A WHILE... 1486 01:45:37,064 --> 01:45:39,734 AND I JUST WANTED TO SAY HEY. 1487 01:45:43,805 --> 01:45:46,941 YOU OKAY ? 1488 01:45:46,941 --> 01:45:49,343 FABULOUS. 1489 01:45:49,343 --> 01:45:51,278 [ Valerie ] SUSANNA. 1490 01:45:51,278 --> 01:45:54,682 YOU'RE GOING TO BE LATE. GRETTA'S WAITING FOR YOU. 1491 01:45:54,682 --> 01:45:56,618 OKAY. 1492 01:45:58,820 --> 01:46:00,822 I GOT TO GO. 1493 01:46:00,822 --> 01:46:02,824 DOCTOR WICK. 1494 01:46:04,692 --> 01:46:07,429 ARE THEY STILL FUCKING WITH YOU ? 1495 01:46:10,432 --> 01:46:12,567 THEY'RE, UH-- 1496 01:46:13,568 --> 01:46:16,704 ACTUALLY, THEY'RE LETTING ME OUT. 1497 01:46:20,174 --> 01:46:22,109 OH, THAT'S GREAT. 1498 01:46:25,046 --> 01:46:27,582 YOU BETTER GO. 1499 01:46:43,097 --> 01:46:47,669 UH, WELL, MY DAD GOT ME A JOB-- A PART-TIME JOB-- 1500 01:46:47,669 --> 01:46:50,071 AT A BOOKSTORE IN HARVARD SQUARE. 1501 01:46:50,071 --> 01:46:53,541 AND I GOT AN APARTMENT WITH A PHONE SO I CAN-- 1502 01:46:53,541 --> 01:46:55,677 STAY IN TOUCH. UH-HUH. 1503 01:46:56,744 --> 01:46:59,481 YEP. AND, UH, I'LL BE SEEING SONIA... 1504 01:46:59,481 --> 01:47:01,282 TWICE A WEEK. 1505 01:47:01,282 --> 01:47:05,419 IS THAT YOUR LONG-TERM PLAN, TO WORK IN RETAIL ? 1506 01:47:08,923 --> 01:47:11,425 MY PLAN ? NO. 1507 01:47:11,425 --> 01:47:14,562 THEN WHAT DO YOU PLAN TO DO ? 1508 01:47:16,063 --> 01:47:18,600 I PLAN TO WRITE. 1509 01:47:19,801 --> 01:47:21,969 AH. 1510 01:47:26,007 --> 01:47:28,209 [ McWilley ] POLLY CLARK. 1511 01:47:28,209 --> 01:47:31,145 CYNTHIA CROWLEY. 1512 01:47:34,348 --> 01:47:36,718 SUSANNA KAYSEN. 1513 01:47:38,553 --> 01:47:41,288 YOU KNOW WHAT ? I DON'T THINK I NEED THEM. SLEEPING PILLS, DARLING. 1514 01:47:41,288 --> 01:47:43,625 I-- YOU WANT TO BE RESTED FOR TOMORROW, DON'T YOU ? 1515 01:47:43,625 --> 01:47:46,193 THE LAST NIGHT IS A LONG ONE. GOOD GIRL. 1516 01:47:46,193 --> 01:47:48,195 KATIE COOPER. 1517 01:47:48,195 --> 01:47:49,997 [ Woman Shouting ] 1518 01:47:49,997 --> 01:47:52,133 [ McWilley ] ROSEMARY JONES. 1519 01:47:54,401 --> 01:47:57,539 TERESA McCULLIAN. 1520 01:48:05,179 --> 01:48:08,115 [ Shouting, Clamoring ] 1521 01:48:13,320 --> 01:48:15,857 [ Shouting, Shrieking ] 1522 01:48:20,595 --> 01:48:22,730 [ Shrieking ] 1523 01:48:27,735 --> 01:48:29,871 [ Clamoring Continues ] 1524 01:49:21,889 --> 01:49:24,558 RUBY ? 1525 01:49:35,302 --> 01:49:37,238 [ Cat Meows ] 1526 01:49:42,309 --> 01:49:44,245 RUBY ? 1527 01:49:47,048 --> 01:49:48,850 RUBY-- 1528 01:49:48,850 --> 01:49:50,985 [ Woman Speaking, Indistinct ] 1529 01:50:04,265 --> 01:50:07,401 [ Lisa ] "IF I SPREAD MY FINGERS OUT, MY HAND LOOKED MORE HUMAN. 1530 01:50:07,401 --> 01:50:09,403 "SO I DID THAT. 1531 01:50:09,403 --> 01:50:12,139 "BUT IT WASN'T TIRING HOLDING MY FINGERS APART, SO I LET THEM RELAX. 1532 01:50:12,139 --> 01:50:15,009 "AND THEN I TURNED MY HAND OVER. 1533 01:50:15,009 --> 01:50:17,344 OH, MY GOD. "THE BACK OF IT WASN'T MUCH BETTER. 1534 01:50:17,344 --> 01:50:19,747 MY VEINS BULGED." 1535 01:50:19,747 --> 01:50:22,016 [ Continues, Indistinct ] 1536 01:50:24,051 --> 01:50:27,621 SHUT UP. I'M READING. SHUT UP. 1537 01:50:27,621 --> 01:50:29,423 LISA ! 1538 01:50:29,423 --> 01:50:34,095 "I CAN HONESTLY SAY THAT MY MEMORY HAS BEEN TRANSFORMED... 1539 01:50:34,095 --> 01:50:37,765 "SO THAT BY FREUD'S DEFINITION, I HAVE ACHIEVED MENTAL HEALTH. [ Chuckling ] 1540 01:50:37,765 --> 01:50:40,534 AND MY DISCHARGE SHEET READS 'RECOVERED.'" 1541 01:50:40,534 --> 01:50:43,037 OH. "RECOVERED." [ Laughing ] 1542 01:50:45,506 --> 01:50:48,275 DON'T DO THIS ! 1543 01:50:48,275 --> 01:50:50,311 "WHATEVER IT WAS--" 1544 01:50:51,946 --> 01:50:54,048 "HAD MY PERSONALITY--" LISA ! 1545 01:50:54,048 --> 01:50:56,150 [ Continues, Indistinct ] 1546 01:50:56,150 --> 01:50:59,520 "HAD I STOPPED ARGUING ?" [ Laughs ] LISA ! 1547 01:50:59,520 --> 01:51:01,723 [ Lisa ] "RECOVERED." 1548 01:51:01,723 --> 01:51:04,792 HEY, SUSANNA. WE WERE JUST READING YOUR BOOK. WE FIGURED ON YOUR LAST NIGHT 1549 01:51:04,792 --> 01:51:07,128 WE'D HAVE A LITTLE SALON-- A LITTLE READ-ALOUD. 1550 01:51:07,128 --> 01:51:09,731 CELEBRATE ALL THE WISDOM YOU'RE CARRYING INTO THE WORLD. 1551 01:51:09,731 --> 01:51:12,900 TRY TO LEARN SOMETHING-- GROW AS PEOPLE. 1552 01:51:12,900 --> 01:51:17,038 WE READ HOW WHEN YOU WERE A BABY, THEY STRAPPED YOU TO A BOARD. 1553 01:51:17,038 --> 01:51:19,040 AND HOW YOU THINK GEORGINA DOESN'T REALLY WANT TO LEAVE, 1554 01:51:19,040 --> 01:51:21,675 AND POLLY NEVER WILL, AND THAT I'M CRIMINALLY INSANE. 1555 01:51:21,675 --> 01:51:24,311 WHAT-- WHAT ARE YOU GUYS DOING HERE ? 1556 01:51:24,311 --> 01:51:28,015 "LISA'S EYES, ONCE SO MAGNETIC, NOW JUST LOOK EMPTY." 1557 01:51:28,015 --> 01:51:30,217 [ Whispering ] LISA. 1558 01:51:30,217 --> 01:51:32,820 THAT IS MINE. 1559 01:51:32,820 --> 01:51:35,156 THAT IS MINE. 1560 01:51:35,156 --> 01:51:39,460 GEORGINA. "GEORGINA LIES ONLY TO PEOPLE WHO KEEP HER HERE. 1561 01:51:39,460 --> 01:51:42,296 SOMETIMES I THINK SHE WANTS TO LIVE IN OZ FOREVER." 1562 01:51:42,296 --> 01:51:44,298 [ Lisa ] HOW PERCEPTIVE. YOU BETTER ERASE THAT THING. 1563 01:51:44,298 --> 01:51:46,267 GEORGINA, I-- YOU BETTER ERASE IT ! 1564 01:51:46,267 --> 01:51:48,335 'CAUSE MY FATHER IS THE HEAD OF THE C.I.A., 1565 01:51:48,335 --> 01:51:50,537 AND HE COULD HAVE YOU DEAD IN MINUTES ! 1566 01:51:50,537 --> 01:51:52,639 - "IN THIS WORLD, LOOKS ARE EVERYTHING. - [Susanna ] OH, GOD. 1567 01:51:52,639 --> 01:51:56,778 "SOMETIMES I THINK POLLY'S SWEETNESS AND PURITY AREN'T GENUINE AT ALL, 1568 01:51:56,778 --> 01:52:00,247 BUT A DESPERATE ATTEMPT TO MAKE IT EASIER FOR US TO LOOK AT HER." 1569 01:52:00,247 --> 01:52:04,018 SO NICE OF YOU TO PASS JUDGMENT ON US NOW THAT YOU'RE CURED. 1570 01:52:04,018 --> 01:52:06,520 WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING, LISA ? 1571 01:52:06,520 --> 01:52:09,456 I'M PLAYING THE VILLAIN, BABY. JUST LIKE YOU WANT. 1572 01:52:09,456 --> 01:52:12,259 I TRY TO GIVE YOU EVERYTHING YOU WANT. NO, YOU DON'T. 1573 01:52:13,761 --> 01:52:15,863 YOU WANTED YOUR FILE-- I FOUND YOU YOUR FILE. YOU WANTED OUT-- 1574 01:52:15,863 --> 01:52:18,866 I GOT YOU OUT. YOU NEEDED MONEY-- I FOUND YOU SOME. 1575 01:52:18,866 --> 01:52:22,603 I'M CONSISTENT. I TOLD YOU THE TRUTH. I DIDN'T WRITE IT IN A BOOK. 1576 01:52:22,603 --> 01:52:24,806 I TOLD YOU TO YOUR FACE. 1577 01:52:24,806 --> 01:52:26,607 AND I TOLD DAISY TO HER FACE-- 1578 01:52:26,607 --> 01:52:29,010 WHAT EVERYBODY KNEW AND WOULDN'T SAY-- AND SHE KILLED HERSELF. 1579 01:52:29,010 --> 01:52:31,012 AND I PLAYED THE FUCKING VILLAIN. 1580 01:52:31,012 --> 01:52:34,215 JUST LIKE YOU WANTED. WHY WOULD I WANT THAT ? 1581 01:52:35,349 --> 01:52:38,085 BECAUSE IT MAKES YOU THE GOOD GUY, SWEET PEA. 1582 01:52:38,085 --> 01:52:40,087 IT MAKES YOU THE GOOD GUY, AND YOU COME BACK HERE, 1583 01:52:40,087 --> 01:52:42,089 ALL SWEETNESS AND LIGHT, SAD AND CONTRITE, 1584 01:52:42,089 --> 01:52:44,125 AND EVERYBODY SITS, WRINGING THEIR HANDS, 1585 01:52:44,125 --> 01:52:46,493 CONGRATULATING YOU AND ALL YOUR BRAVERY. 1586 01:52:46,493 --> 01:52:49,096 AND MEANWHILE, I'M BLOWING GUYS IN THE BUS STATION... 1587 01:52:49,096 --> 01:52:52,599 FOR THE MONEY THAT WAS IN HER FUCKING ROBE. 1588 01:52:52,599 --> 01:52:56,103 - STOP IT, LISA. SHE'S TOO-- - SHUT UP, POLLY ! 1589 01:52:58,072 --> 01:53:00,474 [ Lisa ] WHERE ARE YOU GOING ? 1590 01:53:00,474 --> 01:53:03,044 I'M TALKING TO YOU. WHERE ARE YOU GOING ? 1591 01:53:06,280 --> 01:53:09,150 WHERE ARE YOU GOING ? I'M TALKING TO YOU. 1592 01:53:10,852 --> 01:53:12,987 SUSANNA. 1593 01:53:12,987 --> 01:53:15,556 WHAT ? YOU DON'T LIKE ME ANYMORE ? 1594 01:53:15,556 --> 01:53:17,424 NO, I DON'T ! 1595 01:53:18,792 --> 01:53:20,862 BECAUSE YOU'RE FREE ? [ Screaming ] SHUT UP ! 1596 01:53:20,862 --> 01:53:23,197 YOU THINK YOU'RE FREE ? [ Shouting, Indistinct ] 1597 01:53:23,197 --> 01:53:28,235 I'M FREE. YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT FREEDOM IS ! 1598 01:53:28,235 --> 01:53:30,171 I'M FREE. 1599 01:53:30,171 --> 01:53:32,039 [ Lisa ] I CAN BREATHE. 1600 01:53:32,039 --> 01:53:36,810 YOU, YOU'RE GONNA GO CHOKE ON YOUR AVERAGE FUCKING MEDIOCRE LIFE. 1601 01:53:41,415 --> 01:53:43,584 [ Screams ] 1602 01:53:49,090 --> 01:53:51,192 YOU KNOW, THERE ARE TOO MANY BUTTONS IN THE WORLD. 1603 01:53:51,192 --> 01:53:53,560 THERE'S TOO MANY BUTTONS AND THEY'RE JUST-- NO. NO. 1604 01:53:53,560 --> 01:53:55,362 NO. NO. 1605 01:53:55,362 --> 01:53:58,099 THERE'S WAY TOO MANY JUST BEGGING TO BE PRESSED. 1606 01:53:58,099 --> 01:54:00,501 THEY'RE JUST BEGGING TO BE PRESSED, YOU KNOW. 1607 01:54:00,501 --> 01:54:02,904 THEY'RE JUST-- THEY'RE JUST BEGGING TO BE PRESSED. 1608 01:54:02,904 --> 01:54:05,873 NO. NO. AND IT MAKES ME WONDER, YOU KNOW. 1609 01:54:05,873 --> 01:54:07,875 IT REALLY MAKES ME FUCKING WONDER-- 1610 01:54:07,875 --> 01:54:09,643 WHY DOESN'T ANYBODY EVER PRESS MINE ? 1611 01:54:09,643 --> 01:54:12,679 WHY AM I SO NEGLECTED ? WHY DOESN'T ANYBODY... 1612 01:54:12,679 --> 01:54:14,781 REACH IN AND RIP OUT THE TRUTH ? 1613 01:54:14,781 --> 01:54:17,451 AND TELL ME THAT I'M A FUCKING WHORE ? 1614 01:54:17,451 --> 01:54:19,921 OR THAT MY PARENTS WISH I WERE DEAD ? 1615 01:54:19,921 --> 01:54:23,257 BECAUSE YOU'RE DEAD ALREADY, LISA. 1616 01:54:29,130 --> 01:54:33,800 NO ONE CARES IF YOU DIE, LISA. 1617 01:54:33,800 --> 01:54:37,071 BECAUSE YOU'RE DEAD ALREADY. 1618 01:54:37,071 --> 01:54:41,208 YOUR HEART IS COLD. 1619 01:54:43,077 --> 01:54:45,612 THAT'S WHY YOU KEEP COMING BACK HERE. 1620 01:54:47,081 --> 01:54:50,084 YOU'RE NOT FREE. 1621 01:54:50,084 --> 01:54:53,087 YOU NEED THIS PLACE. YOU NEED IT TO FEEL ALIVE. 1622 01:54:53,087 --> 01:54:55,156 IT'S PATHETIC. 1623 01:54:55,156 --> 01:54:57,524 [ Screams ] [ Glass Breaking ] 1624 01:54:59,160 --> 01:55:02,997 [ Sobbing ] GOD. 1625 01:55:05,766 --> 01:55:08,970 [ Sobbing ] I HATE-- 1626 01:55:23,017 --> 01:55:26,153 [ Wailing ] 1627 01:55:36,897 --> 01:55:40,567 I'VE WASTED A YEAR OF MY LIFE. 1628 01:55:45,306 --> 01:55:48,709 MAYBE EVERYONE OUT THERE IS A LIAR, 1629 01:55:52,046 --> 01:55:55,149 AND MAYBE THE WHOLE WORLD... 1630 01:55:55,149 --> 01:55:58,585 IS STUPID AND IGNORANT, 1631 01:56:01,822 --> 01:56:04,525 BUT I'D RATHER BE IN IT-- 1632 01:56:05,993 --> 01:56:09,997 I'D RATHER BE FUCKING IN IT-- 1633 01:56:09,997 --> 01:56:12,533 THAN DOWN HERE WITH YOU. 1634 01:56:27,148 --> 01:56:30,684 [ Georgina ] LISA. 1635 01:56:30,684 --> 01:56:33,954 DON'T. 1636 01:56:33,954 --> 01:56:36,157 DON'T. 1637 01:56:43,630 --> 01:56:47,034 [ Sobs ] 1638 01:56:47,034 --> 01:56:49,203 OH, GOD. 1639 01:57:32,879 --> 01:57:34,815 DID YOU GET IT ? 1640 01:57:37,951 --> 01:57:41,488 HAD TO TRADE WITH A TRANSVESTITE IN THE MEN'S WARD. 1641 01:57:43,890 --> 01:57:46,093 THANKS. 1642 01:58:41,982 --> 01:58:44,851 [ Whispering ] YOU KNOW, 1643 01:58:44,851 --> 01:58:46,887 I'M NOT REALLY DEAD. 1644 01:58:52,993 --> 01:58:55,128 I KNOW. 1645 01:58:57,598 --> 01:58:59,400 [ Sighs ] 1646 01:58:59,400 --> 01:59:01,868 I'M GOING TO MISS YOU, SUSIE Q. 1647 01:59:03,937 --> 01:59:05,739 NO, YOU'RE NOT. 1648 01:59:05,739 --> 01:59:08,074 YOU'RE GOING TO GET OUT OF HERE... 1649 01:59:08,074 --> 01:59:10,844 AND YOU'RE GOING TO COME AND SEE ME. 1650 01:59:10,844 --> 01:59:13,747 OKAY ? 1651 01:59:13,747 --> 01:59:17,618 [ Sighs ] 1652 01:59:17,618 --> 01:59:20,221 YEAH. 1653 01:59:20,221 --> 01:59:22,423 [ Chattering ] 1654 01:59:32,799 --> 01:59:35,302 HEY, GEORGINA. 1655 01:59:35,302 --> 01:59:38,439 YOU KNOW ALL THAT STUFF I WRITE IN MY JOURNAL ? 1656 01:59:38,439 --> 01:59:40,974 I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M SAYING. 1657 01:59:40,974 --> 01:59:44,945 THEY'RE JUST THOUGHTS. 1658 01:59:44,945 --> 01:59:48,181 MAYBE I'M THE LIAR. 1659 01:59:48,181 --> 01:59:51,418 MAYBE NOT. 1660 01:59:59,793 --> 02:00:01,728 SEE YOU. 1661 02:00:09,836 --> 02:00:11,638 POLLY, 1662 02:00:11,638 --> 02:00:14,475 DO YOU THINK IF I LEFT RUBY HERE, 1663 02:00:14,475 --> 02:00:16,510 YOU'D TAKE CARE OF HER FOR ME ? 1664 02:00:16,510 --> 02:00:20,814 AND LET ME PLAY WITH HER WHEN I COME FOR MY THERAPY ? 1665 02:00:20,814 --> 02:00:23,216 [ Chuckling ] 1666 02:00:23,216 --> 02:00:26,086 YEAH. OKAY. 1667 02:00:26,086 --> 02:00:28,221 THANK YOU. 1668 02:00:30,223 --> 02:00:32,893 BYE, RUBY. 1669 02:00:36,430 --> 02:00:39,800 BYE. YEAH. 1670 02:00:54,247 --> 02:00:56,817 REMEMBER ME WHEN YOU SHAVE YOUR LEGS. 1671 02:01:26,847 --> 02:01:29,450 [ Susanna Narrating ] DECLARED HEALTHY... 1672 02:01:29,450 --> 02:01:32,586 AND SENT BACK INTO THE WORLD. 1673 02:01:32,586 --> 02:01:35,456 MY FINAL DIAGNOSIS-- 1674 02:01:35,456 --> 02:01:38,859 A RECOVERED BORDERLINE. 1675 02:01:38,859 --> 02:01:43,063 WHAT THAT MEANS, I STILL DON'T KNOW. 1676 02:01:43,063 --> 02:01:45,632 WAS I EVER CRAZY ? 1677 02:01:45,632 --> 02:01:48,301 MAYBE. 1678 02:01:48,301 --> 02:01:50,571 OR MAYBE LIFE IS. 1679 02:01:50,571 --> 02:01:52,773 [ Driver ] HEY. 1680 02:01:52,773 --> 02:01:55,041 I REMEMBER YOU. 1681 02:01:55,041 --> 02:01:57,210 HEY. 1682 02:01:57,210 --> 02:01:59,480 WHERE ARE YOU GOING ? 1683 02:01:59,480 --> 02:02:02,282 SEVENTEEN BURLINGAME. 1684 02:02:02,282 --> 02:02:04,685 ALL RIGHT. 1685 02:02:04,685 --> 02:02:07,688 [ Susanna, Continuing ] CRAZY ISN'T BEING BROKEN... 1686 02:02:07,688 --> 02:02:11,558 OR SWALLOWING A DARK SECRET. 1687 02:02:11,558 --> 02:02:13,927 IT'S YOU OR ME... 1688 02:02:13,927 --> 02:02:16,563 AMPLIFIED. 1689 02:02:16,563 --> 02:02:19,299 IF YOU EVER TOLD A LIE... 1690 02:02:19,299 --> 02:02:22,569 AND ENJOYED IT-- 1691 02:02:22,569 --> 02:02:25,772 IF YOU EVER WISHED YOU COULD BE A CHILD... 1692 02:02:25,772 --> 02:02:28,575 FOREVER-- 1693 02:02:28,575 --> 02:02:31,311 THEY WERE NOT PERFECT, 1694 02:02:31,311 --> 02:02:34,381 BUT THEY WERE MY FRIENDS. 1695 02:02:34,381 --> 02:02:37,451 AND BY THE '70s... 1696 02:02:37,451 --> 02:02:39,453 MOST OF THEM WERE OUT, 1697 02:02:39,453 --> 02:02:42,456 LIVING LIVES. 1698 02:02:42,456 --> 02:02:45,125 SOME I'VE SEEN, 1699 02:02:45,125 --> 02:02:49,262 SOME, NEVER AGAIN. 1700 02:02:49,262 --> 02:02:54,000 BUT THERE ISN'T A DAY MY HEART DOESN'T FIND THEM. 1701 02:03:03,944 --> 02:03:07,548 * WHEN YOU'RE ALONE AND LIFE IS MAKING YOU LONELY * 1702 02:03:07,548 --> 02:03:10,551 * YOU CAN ALWAYS GO * 1703 02:03:10,551 --> 02:03:13,487 * DOWNTOWN * 1704 02:03:13,487 --> 02:03:15,689 * WHEN YOU'VE GOT WORRIES ALL THE NOISE AND THE HURRY * 1705 02:03:15,689 --> 02:03:18,425 * SEEMS TO HELP I KNOW * 1706 02:03:18,425 --> 02:03:20,226 * DOWNTOWN * 1707 02:03:20,226 --> 02:03:24,230 * JUST LISTEN TO THE MUSIC OF THE TRAFFIC IN THE CITY * 1708 02:03:24,230 --> 02:03:28,569 * LINGER ON THE SIDEWALK WHERE THE NEON SIGNS ARE PRETTY * 1709 02:03:28,569 --> 02:03:30,971 * HOW CAN YOU LOSE * 1710 02:03:30,971 --> 02:03:33,974 * THE LIGHTS ARE MUCH BRIGHTER THERE * 1711 02:03:33,974 --> 02:03:36,710 * YOU CAN FORGET ALL YOUR TROUBLES * 1712 02:03:36,710 --> 02:03:38,912 * FORGET ALL YOUR CARES SO GO * 1713 02:03:38,912 --> 02:03:40,714 * DOWNTOWN * 1714 02:03:40,714 --> 02:03:43,049 * THINGS WILL BE GREAT WHEN YOU'RE * 1715 02:03:43,049 --> 02:03:44,851 * DOWNTOWN * 1716 02:03:44,851 --> 02:03:47,053 * NO FINER PLACE FOR SURE * 1717 02:03:47,053 --> 02:03:48,989 * DOWNTOWN * 1718 02:03:48,989 --> 02:03:54,861 * EVERYTHING'S WAITING FOR YOU * 1719 02:03:58,999 --> 02:04:02,636 * DON'T HANG AROUND AND LET YOUR PROBLEMS SURROUND YOU * 1720 02:04:02,636 --> 02:04:05,371 * THERE ARE MOVIE SHOWS * 1721 02:04:05,371 --> 02:04:07,173 * DOWNTOWN * 1722 02:04:07,173 --> 02:04:10,644 * MAYBE YOU KNOW SOME LITTLE PLACES TO GO TO * 1723 02:04:10,644 --> 02:04:13,379 * WHERE THEY NEVER CLOSE * 1724 02:04:13,379 --> 02:04:15,181 * DOWNTOWN * 1725 02:04:15,181 --> 02:04:19,319 * JUST LISTEN TO THE RHYTHM OF A GENTLE BOSSA NOVA * 1726 02:04:19,319 --> 02:04:23,389 * YOU'LL BE DANCING WITH THEM TOO BEFORE THE NIGHT IS OVER * 1727 02:04:23,389 --> 02:04:25,325 * HAPPY AGAIN * 1728 02:04:25,325 --> 02:04:28,795 * THE LIGHTS ARE MUCH BRIGHTER THERE * 1729 02:04:28,795 --> 02:04:30,797 * YOU CAN FORGET ALL YOUR TROUBLES * 1730 02:04:30,797 --> 02:04:34,000 * FORGET ALL YOUR CARES SO GO * 1731 02:04:34,000 --> 02:04:35,802 * DOWNTOWN * 1732 02:04:35,802 --> 02:04:38,004 * WHERE ALL THE LIGHTS ARE BRIGHT * 1733 02:04:38,004 --> 02:04:39,806 * DOWNTOWN * 1734 02:04:39,806 --> 02:04:42,008 * WAITING FOR YOU TONIGHT * 1735 02:04:42,008 --> 02:04:43,810 * DOWNTOWN * 1736 02:04:43,810 --> 02:04:47,814 * YOU'RE GOING TO BE ALL RIGHT NOW * 1737 02:04:47,814 --> 02:04:49,950 ** [ Continues ] 1738 02:05:00,293 --> 02:05:02,495 * DOWNTOWN * 1739 02:05:07,634 --> 02:05:09,636 * DOWNTOWN * 1740 02:05:09,636 --> 02:05:11,638 * AND YOU MAY FIND SOMEBODY KIND * 1741 02:05:11,638 --> 02:05:13,574 * TO HELP AND UNDERSTAND YOU * 1742 02:05:13,574 --> 02:05:17,243 * SOMEONE WHO IS JUST LIKE YOU AND NEEDS A GENTLE HAND * 1743 02:05:17,243 --> 02:05:20,046 * TO GUIDE THEM ALONG * 1744 02:05:20,046 --> 02:05:23,049 * SO MAYBE I'LL SEE YOU THERE * 1745 02:05:23,049 --> 02:05:25,786 * WE CAN FORGET ALL OUR TROUBLES * 1746 02:05:25,786 --> 02:05:28,254 * FORGET ALL OUR CARES SO GO * 1747 02:05:28,254 --> 02:05:30,056 * DOWNTOWN * 1748 02:05:30,056 --> 02:05:32,258 * THINGS WILL BE GREAT WHEN YOU'RE * 1749 02:05:32,258 --> 02:05:34,060 * DOWNTOWN * 1750 02:05:34,060 --> 02:05:36,262 * DON'T WAIT A MINUTE MORE * 1751 02:05:36,262 --> 02:05:38,064 * DOWNTOWN * 1752 02:05:38,064 --> 02:07:22,903 * EVERYTHING'S WAITING FOR YOU **