TELEVISION: One person has died, dozens are injured,
some in a critical condition as
emergency services continue to work
here at the hotel, which was hosting
a medical conference.
Doctors, nurses and paramedics are
all amongst the injured.
And speculation continues...
Hey. What?
Where's my phone?
It's, uh, here in the fridge.
Don't be ridicu...
You OK?
I'm fine.
You're not fine.
Joe, we're leaving in five!
Zara.
No, no, no, what I'm saying is I
don't have any officers to send.
My priority is to keep the public safe.
OK, thank you. Bye.
Unbelievable!
I'm four officers down because they're helping CSI.
And I've got Letherbridge Council
on the phone wondering why we're
having to re-arrange a meet and greet.
Ah, ha, I've done one of those - you're missing a nice lunch.
Not the top of my priority list at the moment, not after yesterday.
And criminals don't stop committing crimes just
because there's been a critical incident.
Inconsiderate of them.
Anyway, thanks for coming in.
Are you up to it?
Well, I am remarkably physically unscathed, so...
It's not the physical that worries me.
I'd rather be busy.
Besides, I don't think there was anybody else available.
Sadly, that is true.
Anyway, if it gets too much, give us a shout.
Yeah, will do.
Oh, it might not catch up with you
for few days, maybe a few weeks, but you know that.
Talk to somebody.
Yeah, I will. I helped Daniel
arrange a counsellor for everyone at the Mill,
so I'll go and see her after I finish my shift.
Good.
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Sorry.
Sergeant Hollins.
Oh, geez.
You nearly gave me a heart... Sorry.
Are you all right?
Yeah, erm, yes, I was...
I was just thinking about them all
in there when the bomb went off.
What if one of them had been killed? Yeah.
I can't imagine how they're all feeling.
Ooh, incoming.
Morning.
Good morning.
How you both doing? Ah.
Is she OK?
Fine, Karen. Mm.
Are you OK?
Yes, I'm getting there.
Did you get my email?
Yes, I did. You want us to move some
appointments over to the campus.
We've been phoning 'round.
Thank you.
Kirsty and Bear are there already, braced for impact.
Oh, morning, Al.
Hey, just give us a sec. Yeah?
Al, there's... Oh, OK.
Hi.
Hey!
Stop!
Police!
Erm, what's with Goldilocks?
Sorry?
Someone's been sitting at my desk.
In fact, they're still there.
Yeah, that's Jen. Erm, she didn't introduce herself?
I said she could have your room for the day. What...
What for?
Well, OK, so she is a trauma counsellor -
highly recommended by Jimmi.
And I would like everybody to take
the opportunity today to speak to her.
And not just those of us who were in the building,
but those who were outside too,
because everybody's shaken.
Don't look at me, I told him it wasn't necessary.
Karen and Scarlett have redirected
some of the appointments to the campus,
I've also asked the locum that stood in yesterday,
to cover for us there as well.
It should give us a little bit of
space, just to have a chat with Jen.
I don't need to talk to a trauma counsellor.
I need to get on with my job. Hear, hear.
I actually don't think that's such a bad idea.
Where am I supposed to see my patients if Goldilocks is in there?
Al, you weren't supposed to be here today.
You'd booked the day off to sort your boiler out or something.
Yeah, I know, but I'm just happier keeping busy.
So, can I have my room back, pretty please?
That might not be such a bad idea.
Jen can have Bear's office.
But I am insisting that we all speak
to her at some point in the day.
All right? If you were my patients,
I would want you to speak to somebody.
I need to speak to somebody.
Because what happened yesterday was traumatic.
And I, for one, am traumatised. All right?
So, let's just take a moment.
Well, you unburden yourself to your heart's content.
I need to cancel a plumber.
Are you OK? Yeah.
Have they gone?
Did you get a good look at 'em?
They'll be long gone by now.
Let me have a look at that.
That could need a stitch.
I'm Rob Hollins, by the way. I don't think we've met.
Hi. It's Sam Barkworth PC.
No, I don't think we've had the pleasure.
What station are you from?
Erm, Barons Road.
Barons Road? That's miles away. Are you lost?
No, I was on my way to work and I
spotted a bunch of kids giving this
other kid a hard time.
So I chased them down here and they had a bit of a go.
I think you've lost your radio.
Is that why you didn't call it in? Yeah.
You need to see a doctor.
Look, we're only round the corner, at Letherbridge.
Let's get our FME to look you over
then you can call your station.
No, it's fine, honestly.
No, no, I think you should.
Then, I'll call them - let them know where you are.
Right. Come on.
And then this incredible woman...
Nina?
I wanted to kill her when I first met her...
She ended up saving my life.
Of course, the dress was ruined.
She did manage to get the coffee
stains out, but who knew a building
was going to explode all over me?
I can't imagine what it must have been like in there.
Well, we all came out unscathed,
so that's the main thing.
The worst thing was just not knowing.
You know, what was going on inside,
whether you were alive or dead.
I didn't know that Daniel was outside.
All the time, he was fine.
Well, I wouldn't go so far as to say fine.
He was beside himself.
I know.
He wanted to go inside and look
for you, but I wouldn't let him.
Well, good, no point in us both...
KNOCK AT DOOR
Yeah.
Emma, Mrs Heeske's here.
Do you mean, Mrs Hesketh?
She says take your time and she'll
try not to die before you get there.
But I think she was being sarcastic.
OK. I'm on my way.
And, erm, the counsellor's still waiting for customers.
And...?
It's just, she's sat there doing, like, nothing.
As am I.
Because you have insisted on sending
half of my patients over to the campus.
Anything else?
No.
I'm sorry.
Oh, Al, are you busy?
Am I busy? No.
I have nothing but free time.
Just cos the counsellor's free, if you are.
Well, good for them.
KNOCK AT DOOR
Yup.
Oh, Lynda, whoa, no way.
What are you doing here?
Jimmi. I thought you were a doctor.
Erm, yeah, I am and an FME.
Oh, right.
You two know each other?
Erm, only since yesterday.
Lynda was the one who helped me get out after the explosion.
You're kidding? No.
I couldn't find you anywhere, I wanted to say thank you.
Well, you can say it now while
you're patching her up. Back in a bit.
Erm...
..I really thought that I was going to lose Zara.
My friends...
..my colleagues, everyone.
It was overwhelming.
I don't know how to describe it.
Maybe it was fear.
This...
..awful...
..terrible...
..like it was the end of the world.
You know? Like it was the end of everything.
But now I feel...
..almost like I've won the lottery.
You know? And I have to keep reminding
myself to suppress that.
Erm, I feel so happy, so...
..almost elated.
Is that normal?
Whatever you feel is absolutely valid.
Right. But I shouldn't feel happy, should I?.
Because somebody died.
And more people might.
People are in critical condition.
And I have to keep telling myself...
..that I shouldn't be feeling
happy about any of this.
Is it happiness or relief?
Yeah.
Yes, it's relief, of course.
Of course, it's relief.
Relief is a powerful, positive emotion.
It can be overwhelming.
Yeah, because...
Because I thought she was dead.
It doesn't need stitches but I can glue it.
Daft, isn't it?
I walk out of an exploded building
unscathed and then get beaten up by a bunch of kids.
Didn't you tell them they were messing with a hero?
Didn't get much chance, to be honest.
Well, look, as far as your leg's concerned,
I think it's just a small sprain.
So, I'm going to put a support bandage on it.
But I think you should have a word with your sergeant.
Ask him to put you behind a desk
for the rest of the day. OK? Will do.
I am so glad I got to see you again.
Different circumstances would have
been better, obviously. Obviously.
But I wanted to say thank you, properly.
Well, consider me thanked.
I'm sorry. Are you one of our patients?
You're a journalist. No, you can't
speak to one of the doctors.
No, are you listening...
I'll talk to them.
This is Dr Haskey speaking.
Which newspaper are you?
Right, you listen close.
I was in the room with the bomber
when the bomb went off.
I tried to save his life.
That's what we do.
We go against the odds.
Despite the cuts, the decimation
of staff, the undermining and the outsourcing.
The only reason we want to do this
job is to look after people,
regardless of their background,
their income, or their politics -
we just want to take care of them.
Or at least give it our best shot.
But the truth is...
..it is getting harder and harder to do our best.
Do you know why?
We are working - we are all working
under increasingly difficult circumstances.
We are under ridiculous pressure.
And when you put doctors and nurses
and paramedics under pressure, people die!
Put that in your damn newspaper.
You just called her Lynda, how come?
But that's her name, isn't it?
She told me her name was Sam Barkworth.
Oh. Well, maybe I misunderstood, then.
I mean, there was a lot going on the
other day. I'm not so sure.
She says that she's from Barons Road station
but I've just called them, they
don't have a Sam Barkworth.
Oh, weird.
She says that when she was attacked
she was on her way to work, but she's in full uniform.
No police officer travels to work in a full uniform.
We all get changed at the station, don't we? OK.
And I ran her collar number through the system.
It's not attached to anyone, but it does ring a bell.
Do me some digging, try and get some background, will you?
I'm pretty sure she's not who she says she is. Right.
Erm, I might head off, if that's OK.
I've just had a phone call...
Just a minute. You did say that your
name was Sam Barkworth, didn't you?
Can I see your warrant card?
Sorry, I've really got to go.
No, no, you see, I can't find any
trace of you on our system.
Now, why would that be, do you think?
OK, whoever you are, I am arresting
you on suspicion of impersonating a police officer.
You do not have to say anything but
it may harm your defence if you don't
mention when questioned something
you later rely on in court.
Anything you do say may be given in evidence.
Do you understand? Yeah.
No. Not you.
No, this is my safe space.
So, get out.
Get in, whatever, just hokey cokey
yourself away from my vicinity,
if you don't mind. Thank you.
Just wanted a breath of fresh air. Ha!
You seem angry.
Of course I'm angry.
Someone blew up a medical conference.
Anger is not an overreaction.
Who are you angry with?
That's a long list.
The bomber?
Yeah.
Yeah, he's top of the list.
Anger doesn't even...
This is the thing...
..I also felt a little bit sorry for him.
OK.
Definitely for his wife.
For what they had to go through.
I mean, that's not right, is it?
No-one should die of waiting.
You had sympathy for his cause?
For his cause, not for his actions.
It doesn't matter that he only intended to blow himself up.
Going into a hotel full of people
with a bomb and then being surprised that
it goes off...
The stupidity is mind-numbing.
You think he was stupid, not...evil?
The end result was the same.
The complete disregard for human life was the same.
But you still tried to save him.
'Course I did.
I'm a doctor.
I heal, therefore I am.
Did his death upset you?
Yeah.
Yeah, it upset me.
The whole thing upset me.
So I'm angry and I am upset
and they are perfectly rational
and normal responses to such a thing.
And not a indication that I need some kind of counselling.
OK.
That's not what just happened here.
You did not just counsel me.
Sometimes, the glue doesn't completely hold.
There you go.
You know, I'm still incredibly
grateful about yesterday.
Exactly.
Thank you.
I was only trying to help.
Fancy getting arrested for trying to help.
Yeah, well, I don't think it was the helping that was the issue.
I think it was more the impersonating a police officer.
And it wasn't the uniform that saved me -
it was you.
The uniform's important.
It's what it represents.
And what does it represent, to you?
A force for good.
Protection...
..someone to turn to.
And that's what you are?
It's what I want to be.
A force for good?
And you can't be that without the uniform?
I don't know.
I never could before...
Before what?
I think they're heroes, the people who wear uniform.
Police officers...
..firefighters, paramedics...
..superheroes.
But putting this on doesn't give them superpowers.
They're just people who want to help.
I just wanted to help.
I was just wondering if you'd had
a chance to talk to Jen?
Because I have and I found it really helpful.
Hmm, well, bully for you.
I have seen some patients and I'm now typing up their notes.
It's therapeutic.
Yeah, but It's not therapy, though.
I don't need therapy.
I need more hours in the day.
At least talk to me, Zara.
We talked last night.
No, we didn't, not properly.
Well, actions speak louder than words.
Please, please, please, Zara.
OK, fine!
I will see her if it makes you happy!
Thank you.
How did you sleep last night?
Very well, thank you.
It would be understandable if you didn't.
You were in a life-threatening situation.
Sometimes, the subconscious can take
a while to process it.
Exactly.
So, I'll let you know when it does, shall I?
It's only natural to be scared of talking about it.
But it's even more natural to be
scared of admitting that.
I am not scared.
What's all that?
We ran some background checks.
And I can tell you, they make for
some pretty interesting reading.
Do they? They do.
This is not the first time you've been
arrested for impersonating a police officer, is it?
No.
The last time, you were released with a caution,
but there's also a string of other
arrests and convictions, there's
shoplifting, vandalism, minor drug offences.
That was all a while ago.
I am not that person any more.
Maybe not, but it still begs the question -
why is an ex-petty criminal impersonating a police officer?
Where did you get the real uniform from?
It's my daughter's.
She used to be a policewoman.
Used to be?
You were wearing the collar
number 3263, weren't you?
You see, that number rings a bell.
Can I get some more water, please?
What's your daughter's name?
Lola Keenan.
Denial is a very common response
to an extremely traumatic experience.
But I'm not in denial.
I agree, yesterday was very traumatic
but I don't have to let it define
the rest of my life, do I?
Absolutely not. Good.
Because I was finally almost
completely happy with my life.
Almost?
Well, we worked too hard -
Daniel and I.
But we had ideas.
We were going to work less...
..spend more time together...
..have more family time.
We had so many plans.
Why do you use the past tense?
I didn't.
Did I?
I didn't mean it.
Oh, don't over-analyse that, please.
What are you feeling right now?
Nothing.
Nothing beyond an intense desire for
a large glass of Shiraz.
It's perfectly understandable to
want to self-medicate.
Self-medicate?
Block out the feelings, deal with them later.
But those feelings are completely normal.
You can allow yourself to experience them.
Can I?
I get the impression that you like to be in control.
And yesterday, that control was
taken from you in the most terrifying way.
Right, well, THIS is me taking back control.
I never even wanted her to join the police.
You've seen my record.
I pushed her away.
I think I even called her a traitor at one point.
I wish I could take that back.
Be careful what you say to people you love,
cos it may be the last thing
you ever say to them.
It's OK, take your time.
She was trying to break up a fight
and they stabbed her.
She was two minutes away my house.
She tried to get to me.
And then she bled to death on my doorstep.
I wasn't even there.
I was drinking in a pub at the end
of the road, and somebody came in to tell me,
and I ran so fast...
She was lying outside my front door.
And she must have been banging
and banging and I wasn't there!
And I couldn't stop the blood.
Cos I didn't know how.
So, I just, I just held her.
And told her she was my hero
and that I loved her!
And she just, she just slipped away while I was holding her.
I am so, so sorry.
Have you had a chance to talk to somebody about this?
I can put you in touch with someone.
They...
..offered me counselling after, I didn't want it.
In my experience, talking can help -
a lot.
It can help you choose the right action to take.
That's what I'm trying to do.
The right thing, now, I mean.
I never amounted to much when Lola was alive.
I just want to make it up to her.
I just want to be like her.
Finish the work she started.
I promised to be better.
Try and help people, like she did,
try and fill her place in the world.
I know I'm ridiculous.
I never meant to undermine people.
I can see that, now, I can.
You were trying to turn something terrible...
..into something positive, and that is to be admired.
But...?
But you have to find a different way to help people -
a legal one.
Hmm?
There are lots and lots of charities
and agencies who are crying out for volunteers.
You don't have to run into an
exploding building to make a difference.
I think I've got a bit of a death wish.
Will you let me get you some help?
Cos trauma and grief...
..is so hard to handle on your own.
Let me help you.
And then you'll be in a much better position to help others.
Don't you think?
Yeah.
Is he asleep?
He's in bed.
It's a start, right?
He asked if you were all right.
Joe did? Yeah.
A lot of people were talking about
the bomb, in school today. No.
Yeah.
What did he say?
He's upset...
..at the thought that you might have died.
So am I.
And if Nina hadn't been there...
..I would have.
I haven't thanked her properly.
Not that I ever could.
I didn't think I was going to get to hold your hand again...
..or hear your voice.
OK.
I thought...
..I thought I was...
..I thought I was going to die
without saying goodbye to you!
Without telling you...
..without telling you and Joe...
..how much I love you,
because I love you so much.
And I thought I was going to die.
I thought I was going to die...
..in the dark...
..without you.
I've got you, I've got you.
OK.
Just go away!
You don't have any right.
Yeah, they do.
This is an inventory, they can take anything on it.
Sorry, I'll leave you to eat.
We'll only be ten minutes. No, don't be daft.
You've got to treat this place like it's your own.
Isn't that right, Rob?
I was thinking about tonight.
Erm, tonight? Yeah, probably best
not to call me while I'm at work, OK?
No, I didn't mean...
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Hello?