You shouldn't even be here at all!
You should be in a hospital. You need shock therapy.
- You really do. - You need a lobotomy.
Someone to pound that stupid fa�ade!
You want to take this outside?
- I would love to. - What? I... You know, I am in.
I would love to, but I am going to be
meeting Dr. Kroger, at eight o'clock!
So I can't take it outside.
Dr. Kroger, thank god.
Haven't I-
Haven't I always, had the eight o'clock time slot on friday?
Dr. K, would you tell this lunatic, what you told me,
you said, and I quote, "Harold, we will finish this discussion"
"the first thing on Friday. "
He didn't mean, "the first session on Friday,
He meant, the first thing during your regular
thing during your regular session, right?
Well, look at that! Look at him!
He is so ridiculous, he is so jealous.
It's like look at right into the face of crazy.
Look at him!
He's acting like a little twelve year old.
He's acting like a 10 year old now.
He's acting like a 5 year old.
He's acting like a little baby year old.
That doesn't even make any sense. He doesn't...
Harold!
- You may have misunderstood. - No, no, he didn't misunderstand.
No, no!
No, he has been trying to get that first time slot, for years.
I need to see him first, when he's still fresh.
After you, he's all worn out.
After you, he's a bath you could get in.
- No, that is... - You've never seen him cry?
You have never seen what he's...
- Hello! - .. laugh, we laugh.
Why is this door opened?
How did-
How did you two get in here?
- He broke in. - No, I didn't.
The door was opened.
He's a liar.
You are lying.
Who is it?
That's Theresa Mueller, she's-
with the cleaning service.
Now, I would call 911, but don't use the office phone.
Whatever you do, don't touch anything.
I said, don't touch anything.
Well, you touched it.
I'm allowed to touch it, I'm a former police officer.
Right?
Mr. Monk, are you sure, you're okay?
Maybe we should take you home.
I am home, I mean-
I always consider this room, this office, my-
second home.
Cap! Lieutenant!
Look!
Bottom of her shoes.
Clean!Somebody wiped them off?
Why?
- That's a good question. - Thank you.
Did you check the vacuum?
Yeah. Bag's empty. Completely clean.
Wait. Excuse me.
This belongs right here.
- How do you know? - Because it's my chair.
- What's all this? - I'm checking for prints.
Cap-uh-Cap-
Leland, sir.
Leland.
Can we get somebody to dust this chair?
I just dusted it.
No, I mean... dust it.
Dust dust it.
- Dust the dust. - Macy.
When you're done, make sure that the chair is clean.
- Okay. - Thank you.
Monk, why don't you wait outside?
Oh, no, no. No, no.
Captain, I have to do this.
I have to... This is personal.
That's precisely why I want you to wait outside.
No, please. I'm begging you.
Look, I have to be here.
Please?
L ieutenant?
All right. Teresa Mueller.
She's been cleaning the building for 12 years.
Starts on the top floor at 7:00.
Works her way down.
This is alwaysher last stop.
So it probably happened about 10:00, 10:30.
Somebody broke in looking for something, probably a file.
Teresa comes in.
Wrong place, wrong time.
But... but Dr. Kroger said he took a quick inventory.
He didn't think anything was missing.
So the guy panicked, killed her, took off.
No, no, I don't- I don't think so.
No...
Those sofa cushions and those files.
There's blood under them but not on them.
I think he killed her first,
and then just took his time and ransacked the place.
But why would he do that?
Maybe he wasn't well.
Harold!Harold Krenshaw.
You think Harold did this?
No, I guess not. Damn it.
Captain? They need to, uh, release the body.
I've always been kind of curious about this place.
Yep. This is where it all doesn't happen.
Is that Harold's file?
Are you allowed to do that?
Look, I knew it. I knew it!
"Paranoia, acute narcissism.
Patient believes Adrian Monk is obsessed with him. "
If anybody is obsessed with anybody,
he is obsessed with me.
I've been telling Dr. Kroger that for years.
We talk about it all the time.
Okay, but Mr. Monk, you should not be reading this.
How would you feel if someone read your file?
My file?
What are you doing?
I just had a theory about the case.
I was checking a suspect.
Hey, that's your file.
Well, you can't rule anybody out.
Mr. Monk, I do not think this is a good idea.
Come on,just a quick look. It'll only take a second.
Monk, you cannot read that.
Wait, wait, wait- oh, my God, wait.
Monk. That's it. That's it.
You've crossed the line. Out of here.
Okay.
You okay?
I... saw something in my file.
Oh, Mr. Monk. I told you not to look.
What was it?
Two words at the bottom of the page.
Two words.
What did it say?
"No hope. "
She worked for me, cleaning my office, for... 10, 12 years.
I- I didn't really know her.
- I think she had a daughter. - Yeah, one daughter in Santa Fe.
No other family, though.
- It's terrible. - Yeah.
Doc, you know, the door wasn't jimmied.
Somebody had a key.
Who elsehas a key to your office?
- Just me. And Teresa. - What about your patients?
My patients? No, of course not.
Well, there was an extra set of keys in the desk out front.
Which wasn't locked.
Somebody could've lifted the mand made a copy.
Wait, wait, you're saying one of my patients...
To be honest with you,Doc, that's how it looks.
We figure somebody broke in,looking for a file.
Probably his own file.
Look, I realize that you're reluctant here,
but I happen to be a homicide detective,
and this happens to be a homicide investigation.
I- I understand.
I truly hope you do, because if you do know something-
If you believe one of your patients could be involved in this,
you are legally obligated to help us out here.
Go on, ask your lawyer. He'll tell you.
All right.
There is one patient.
He's delusional-
borderline schizophrenic.
He always thought that I was talking to his ex-wife behind his back.
He wanted to see his file to prove that I wasn't lying.
Of course I refused.
He threatened me.
He-he threatened to break into my office.
I didn't think he meant it.
What have I done?
- What's his name? - Wheeler.
Joseph Wheeler.
There he is! Dr. Kroger.
I just called your house.
Your wife said you'd be down here.
Doctor, I'm sorry. I tried to stop him.
He doesn't mind.
Larry, I'll meet you outside.
Here's the thing- at the crime scene.
My file happened to fall open,
and I accidentally read something, something you had written.
A notation. It's no big deal.
- Adrian. Not a good time. - No, I-I understand.
I understand this has been a tough day.
A woman was slaughtered in your office, for God's sake.
This can wait until Monday.
Adrian, I'm not going to be in my office on Monday.
Perfectly understandable.
You need some time. I'll see you Wednesday.
Adrian, you may as well be the first one to know.
I'm quitting my practice. I'm retiring.
- As of when? - As of ten minutes ago.
I have some money saved. Maybe- maybe I'll do some writing.
As you both know, I don't have much of a sense of humor.
So sometimes it's hard for me to tell-
Mr. Monk, he's not joking.
A drian.
I cannot continue to practice any more after today.
The police think that one of my patients killed Teresa Mueller.
I should have seen it coming. I didn't.
I missed it. This is all my fault.
This... this isn't happening.
This can't be... happening.
Adrian, I promise you I'll get you another doctor.
I'll- I'll call you next week.
Okay. So it's not true.
You're not retiring.
I mean- You can't, because-
He- he can't retire.
This is step one in the grieving process.
- Denial, denial. - He can't possibly retire.
Damn you, Charles!
Damn you to hell!
I hate you.
I hate you!
You are dead to me.
That's not denial.
No, step two- that's anger.
Okay.
Okay, we're all adults here.
We can work this out.
I can hire you full time.
I'll put you on the payroll.
This is step three. It's bargaining.
It usually doesn't go around this quickly.
Why me? Why is it always me?
Everybody's always leaving me.
- Depression? - This just can't go on.
It's just too much. Okay.
You're right.
It's not the end of the world.
I'm just gonna have to find another doctor.
I owe you so much.
Thanks to you, I think I can get past this.
Thanks, Doc.
And finally, acceptance.
Thank God that's over.
He can't retire!
The man can't quit!
- Because he's not a quitter! - Wait, what's going on?
I don't know, I don't know.
It's like he's starting all over again, like he's in a loop.
I hate you for this, Kroger!
You are dead to me, you understand me?
Dead!
I- I really should be heading home.
Okay, okay, let's be reasonable.
I'll come to your house.
You'll never have to go to your office again.
That's fair.
Why?
Why me?
Why always leaving me?
This place is great.
Cool.
Hey, you can build your own bear here.
Look, I know you have strong feelings about this one, Monk.
But if you can't handle it, tell me now.
Don't go all "you" on me.
Watch it.
Hey, you gonna go with the little baseball cap or the army helmet?
Patrolman's hat.
Why don't you give him your badge, too?
You're not using that, are you?
Go find the manager's office.
See if this guy wasn't working on Thursday night.
Yes, sir.
Every baby bear needs a heart.
So why don't you go over there to the heart room,
and get a wonderful new heart for your wonderful new friend?
Joseph Wheeler.
I'm Captain Leland Stottlemeyer,Homicide.
This is Adrian Monk and Natalie Teeger.
Do you know Dr. Charles Kroger?
Is this about the cleaning lady?
She had a name. Teresa Mueller.
Ranger Joe! It's not beating.
You have no right to be here.
This is where I work.
Actually, for the moment, we work here too.
- You're squeezing it. - I know what I'm doing.
Dr. Kroger said that you wanted to see your file.
Let me ask you something.
If some shrink had your file, wouldn't you want to see it?
He said when he wouldn't show it to you, you threatened him.
You're hurting him!
I was in the middle of a divorce.
I was in a bad place.
I wasn't thinking straight. That doesn't mean I'm a killer.
I think you broke its heart.
Yeah, well, join the club.
Okay, okay, okay.
I think that he's good.
I think he's okay. Look, look.
You said yourself you weren't thinking straight.
You broke into Kroger's office, didn't you?
No, no, not me.
Yeah, you surprised Teresa, you panicked, you grabbed
a letter opener, and you stabbed her.
And you know what else you did?
Do you have any idea? Dr. Kroger quit.
He quit. He's giving up his practice forever.
That's what you did.
You're a patient too.
I heard about Dr. Kroger.
You think I wanted him to quit?
I would've taken a bullet for that man.
I love Dr. Kroger. He was all I had.
That's how I feel too.
I don't know what I'm gonna do without him.
Wheeler was doing inventory until 1:00 AM Thursday morning.
You mean he's not the guy?
- What are we gonna do? - What are we gonna do?
- I'm so bereft.
I'm bereft too. We're all bereft.
Everybody's bereft.
And I've been thinking about Natalie.
I've become so dependent on her.
Too dependent.
I don't know what I'm gonna do if she leaves.
I maybe should say "when she leaves,"
because it's just a matter of time.
She's gonna die, or find another job.
Either way, I'm screwed.
Mr. Monk, I don't really feel comfortable about this.
Well, it's Monday morning, 9:00 AM.
I have to talk to somebody.
Okay, but you cannot talk about me.
- Okay? I'm off limits. - Fine.
So, when I was 12, my mother decided to go back to work.
She said it was only part time,
but she was gone almost every night...
That's hard. I know.
I remember when my mother started to do volunteer work.
It was so difficult-
What are you doing?
I'm just talking.
That's not how it works.
Nobody cares about your problems.
So... I keep thinking about Dr. Kroger's file.
Those two words.
You know? "No hope. "
That could mean a lot of different things.
Like what?
Like, it could...
I didn't see that last week.
- Must've been covered up. - What?
From here to here, it's been vacuumed.
She only vacuumed part of the rug.
Well, what does that mean?
It means she didn't walk in on the killer.
He walked in on her.
He knew she was here.
He must have heard the vacuum.
He was after her. This was all about her.
Hi. Hello.
Are you guys cops?
Not technically.
No, but we work with the police.
This is Adrian Monk, and I'm Natalie Teeger.
Francis Merrigan.
I have the office, uh, right there.
- Import-export. - Right.
I- I saw the door open.
I got a little worried.
You know, after what happened last week,
you can't be too careful.
Right.
Can I tell you the truth?
I'm kind of glad Doc Kroger's leaving.
I mean, he's a nice guy.
But his patients...
You know what I'm talking about.
No, I don't think that I do.
You know?
I mean, some of 'em-
I- I could see 'em from my office.
It was like a freak show.
Well, I'm sure that they're doing the best that they can.
They're... doing the best they can.
Yeah, sure. But...
One of 'em did kill Teresa, right?
Actually, we're not so sure. We were just talking about that.
Well, I, uh-
I'm gonna make some coffee. I got a long night ahead of me.
So I'll let you guys get back to work.
Okay, well, it was nice to meet you.
Yeah. Good luck.
Great. Thanks. See you soon.
Have a good night.
Adrian.
Dr. Kroger, it's me. Adrian Monk.
How did you get here? Where-where's Natalie?
- Natalie refused to bring me. - Good for her.
I had to take a cab. It was horrible.
- I'd love to talk to you- - Adrian, no. No.
I have told you, I'm retired.
Here's the thing- Joseph Wheeler did not kill Teresa.
Adrian, I've been talking to the captain.
I know that.
It doesn't matter which of my patients killed Teresa,
it is still my responsibility.
But I don't think it was any of your patients.
It was not about you at all.
Adrian, of course you would say that.
You-you want me to come back to work.
Hey Dad! Close the damn door! It's freezing!
- Is that Troy? - Yes, that's my son.
He sounds wonderful.
I hope he appreciates how lucky he is to have you in his life.
The food's getting cold. We're not waiting for you.
- Something smells good. - Adrian. Adrian.
I can't invite you in.
It's just... I'm thirsty.
I'm parched, really.
Adrian, you can't come in. It's really inappropriate.
Isn't it?
- Adrian, you've got to let go. - It's not easy.
I've been seeing you for almost nine years.
No, I mean, you've got to let go of the door.
Oh. Yeah.
Adrian, I promise you, I will find you another
doctor as soon as I can.
That's good. That's good. Two...
Two... two more fingers.
Go on, good. Go, go, go.
Come on, that's very good.
Great.
I read your notes!
What did you mean by "no hope"?
What does that mean?
No hope.
You get out of here! I'm here.
You are out of your mind. You're crazy.
No, you are sick.
Don't! Get away!
You are pathetic!
You are crazy!
Dear, no, no.
Don't-don't answer that. Wait for the police to come.
It's... Adrian Monk.
Mrs. Kroger. Is there a problem?
Somebody threw a rock.
It broke a window in the bedroom.
How did you get here so quickly?
We just called 91130 seconds ago.
Well, I...
Have you been out there all this time? It's been three hours.
What have you been doing?
I... was looking for my, uh...
Hey Dad! Telegram for a Dr. Kroger.
"Dr. K, you ruined my life. You will pay.
You were in the den when the wife ran?
That's right. Is that important?
It means he could see you.
He could have hurt you if he wanted to.
I think he was just trying to scare you.
Well, he succeeded.
So, you think it was definitely one of my patients.
Well, that's what we think,yeah.
- And nobody saw the car? - No.
Monk, can you ID the car? - No, sorry.
I don't think he'll be back.
But if it will make you feel better,
I can offer you some protection.
I'll do it! Be glad to do it.
I'm the bodyguard.
- You know, it's not necess- - I'll move in!
I'll be right here with you, 24/7.
I'll never leave your side.
I just have to go home, pick up a few things, okay?
Actually, I was thinking of-
a couple of these guys parked out front.
Great. That would be...
Couple of cops out front. That's great.
Fine.
It was just a suggestion.
- Okay? - Wait a second.
- What? - I've seen that rock.
I know that rock.
This particular rock?
I know that rock.
I've seen it before somewhere.
If anybody else had said that,
I'd have said they were crazy.
Where? My dad thinks I did it.
- Troy, that's not true. - Yeah, right.
Before you guys got here he asked me if I did it.
Why don't you admit it?
Why are you afraid of telling the truth?
What kind of shrink are you, afraid of the truth?
Troy, I'm sorry, I was upset!
- Hey, Troy, remember me? - Yeah, I remember.
- You, uh, staying out of trouble? - No.
All right, why don't you just wait upstairs, son?
I told you, never to call me that!
Look, officers, is there a way that a doctor
could fix a DNA test?
Because there is no way Charlie and me are related.
- Troy, please. - You're not my mother, Madeline!
And that man is certainly not my father!
He's your father, Troy, you're going to have to accept that!
No!
Hey, what do you want from me?
I've taken the test three times!
Whatever!
We better be going, Monk.
- Come on, we'll give you a ride. - Yeah.
There'll be two guys out front, Charlie.
You need anything, call me.
I appreciate it.
Adrian, I have some really good news for you.
I called a colleague of mine earlier tonight.
Dr. Jonah Sorenson. He's a great doctor.
Very famous.
He usually doesn't take new patients.
But he's heard about you, so he's gonna fit you in.
Maybe I'll call him.
Actually, um, you have an appointment.
Tomorrow. 5:00.
Adrian Monk for Dr. Sorenson.
Fill this out.
- It says "List any phobias. " - That's right.
There are only five spaces.
You can use the back.
I might need another sheet.
- Mr. Monk? - That's right.
Jonah Sorenson.
Why don't you fill that out later.
I hate all that paperwork, don't you?
Yes, sir.
Come on in.
Are you ready?
So. What do I call you?
How about Adrian?
Adrian. Good.
Dr. Kroger sent me over your file.
Seems like you've made excellent progress in the last year and a half.
No, really? Is that what it says?
Well, I've only taken a glance at it.
Yeah, well, keep reading. Near the end, he's not quite so optimistic.
Dr. Kroger is a good man. I'm gonna miss him.
Yes, he's a-he's a good man.
- He's very symmetrical. - Symmetrical.
You mean, like, well balanced.
That's a nice way of putting it.
- Are-are you okay? - Yes, I'm fine.
It's just...
Just some dust.
I understand that you spend a lot of time talking about your late wife.
Tell me about her.
Yeah, Trudy.
She was a very beautiful...
Very...
very symmetrical woman.
- Anything else? - No.
Just beautiful and symmetrical.
And you have a brother, Ambrose, and an assistant...
Natalie Teeger? Tell me about her.
In a lot of ways she reminds me of Trudy.
She is also quite...
Quite...
- Symmetrical? - Yeah.
Adrian, I get the feeling you're not very comfortable about my right arm.
No. Oh, no, no, no, no.
No. Not at all.
Where is it?
I lost it in a boating accident two years ago.
But I look upon it now as a positive experience.
I've learned a lot about trauma and loss.
The things that you're going through.
- Can you handle it? - I'm sorry.
I'm just used to the way things were.
- Change is difficult. - Change is impossible.
Well, I wouldn't exactly say impossible.
Look, it's not just you.
It's everything.
It's this office.
I spent nine years in Dr. Kroger's office.
I knew every book on every shelf.
Every leaf on every plant.
Every rock-
- Are you okay? - I have to go.
Now?
Yeah, yeah.
Let's remember where we were and we'll pick it up later.
I mean I'll pick it up.
Or you could pick it up. We'll both pick it up.
We'll each take one end.
I don't wanna talk about picking it up anymore.
- Doctor? - Oh, no.
Dr. Kroger. Thank God.
I figured I might find you here-listen.
Adrian, you have got to respect my decision.
No, no, no, no, I'm not stalking you.
At least not for the moment.
All right, just give me a minute.
The captain said that I could come in and pack up some things.
How did your session with Dr. Sorenson go?
Okay, I guess.
I don't know, I just felt like there was something missing.
When was the last time you saw him?
Four or five years ago.
How's he doing? I heard-
I heard he lost some weight.
Yes, he lost a little weight.
I think I have big news about the case.
I remembered where I saw that rock.
That rock? Rock from last night.
It's been driving me crazy. Then all of sudden, pow!
It was right there.
But it's amazing.
You remember one particular rock?
Well, I've been staring at it for nine years. You know, gift/curse.
Who else has access to this courtyard?
Just me. And Francis Merrigan.
Do you see anything?
I see a lot of powdered milk.
Eight or nine cartons.
He was carrying a carton with him yesterday too.
So?
So I don't see a coffeemaker, do you?
No.
Powered milk is made from lactose. Drug dealers use it to cut heroin.
You think that Francis Merrigan is dealing drugs?
And I think he murdered your cleaning lady.
Adrian, I don't think you should talk about Francis Merrigan anymore.
Why not?
Is he here?
- Is who here? - Mr. Monk.
No.
What's up?
How are you doing?
I'm scared to death. What do we do?
Okay.
First thing.
We have to move. I'm gonna need you...
to come over here.
Okay.
Now what?
What do you mean?
- What's the plan? - I don't have a plan.
Why did you have me switch places?
I always sit on this side.
I've been thinking a lot about my brother lately-
No, no, Adrian. This is not a session.
I'm really frightened. I don't know what's going on.
Okay.
Okay, do you see those figurines?
Check the label.
They're from Turkey.
That one in the corner-
it's cracked.
Obviously ruined.
Why didn't he throw it out?
Drugs?
But what does that have to do with Teresa?
I think Teresa broke that figurine.
I remember, after we found the body,
I asked Lieutenant Disher if he'd checked the vacuum cleaner.
He said the bag was completely empty.
But think about it.
The bag couldn't have been empty if she had been vacuuming rugs all night.
I'm- I'm not following you.
On Thursday night, Teresa was cleaning Merrigan's office.
She must have knocked over that figurine.
It broke open.
It was filled with powder.
Heroin? She had no idea.
She just vacuumed it up and moved on to the next office-
your office.
Meanwhile, Merrigan comes back.
He sees the broken figurine.
He figured out what happened.
He knewsome where in that building
was a vacuum cleaner bag filled with heroin.
He went looking for Teresa, and caught up with her in your office.
Merrigan must have checked the bag to make sure the heroin was still there.
Once he found it, he couldn't just let her go.
She had seen too much.
Then, he rifled through your files threw a rock at your house,
so everybody would think it was one of your patients.
Everyone did.
Everybody except you.
Adrian.
I hope someday I'm as good at my job as you are at yours.
So you're not quitting?
Right now, I don't know if it really matters.
We're in big trouble here, aren't we?
Yeah.
I'm never going to see my family again.
My son...
I'm sorry.
Do you think anyone will ever find us?
I don't see how.
Nobody in the world has any idea where we are.
Don't worry, Dr. K, I'm coming.
I got your back.
No sign of a struggle.
Okay, well, that's a good sign, right?
Somebody say "right. "?
That's right, right. That's good.
Disher.
Yeah, no, do it now.
Captain, they're patching somebody through.
He says he knows where Monk is.
This is Stottlemeyer.
Wait-hang on, sir. Just slow down.
Harold?
All right. Okay.
Wait. Wait, wait, wait.
Could you...
Could you put meover there?
- Pardon me? - Please. I can't be on this side.
Please, I'm begging you. Just look into your hearts.
He has a problem with "situational disorder. "
Okay?
Believe me, he's got a lot bigger problems than that.
So what do you want to do with them?
I figure we'll let Frankie decide.
He's not gonna like that.
Especially after what happened with that cleaning lady.
What choice did I have, huh?
What is all this?
Dust bunnies?
Yeah, it's from the vacuum cleaner. Just-just clean it out.
Here.
Pick it out.
It's everywhere.
Just make it look good.
Careful, don't lose any. This is pure stuff.
Look, I know what I'm doing, all right?
Sift through it. Just make sure there's no more of that stuff.
Be carreful.
It'd be easier if we had tweezers.
I left them in the car.
You should have that stuff in your arsenal, you know?
This is your mess.
There's some on the table.
Some mess for a cleaning lady, huh?
Be careful. Watch it.
Police officer! Drop that gun!
- No shot! - Me neither.
No!
Drop that gun! Get down!
Get down on the ground. Show me your hands.
Show me your hands!
Relax Harold. Just take it easy.
You'll be okay. We're gonna get a doctor.
- We'll get a doctor. - How's he doing?
He's gonna be okay.
Did you see what he did?
He took a bullet for me, Adrian.
Monk... Monk...
Come here.
Closer...
Beat that.
I wanna ask you something.
When we were here investigating, my file
happened to fall open and a couple pages fell out.
And you read your file?
I couldn't help it.
I happened to glance down.
And I saw something.
Two words.
"No hope. "
"No hope"?
Is that what you think?
Adrian, I would never say that about anyone,
especially about you.
Wait. I... I remember. I remember.
It wasn't "no hope. "
It was "N. Hope. "
An abbreviation for "New Hope. "
We were talking about your father,
and you said he was born in New Hope, Pennsylvania.
New Hope, Pennsylvania.
Yeah. You feel better?
I knew it was something.
Natalie was... worried. Yeah, I'm sure.
Isn't this great?
Yeah.
It's pretty great.
I'm having troubles leeping.
I think I'm developing a fear of blankets.
Is there a name for that?
I- I don't think so.