- Tonight, on "The Bachelor"...
- It's Fantasy Suite week.
- I am excited to have uninterrupted time with Zach.
- Sparks are literally flying.
- This week is viewed as sex week.
What's most important to me
is not having sex.
- You really gonna be able to pull this off?
Because you are gonna be tempted.
- I feel like I let myself down,
and I feel like I let the women down.
I have been intimate this week.
- I don't even feel like I can go back there.
- I really [bleep] it up.
We both wanted to have sex together.
It was a beautiful moment.
It feels robbed.
- Wait, what am I doing?
[sniffling]
I literally just want to go home.
♪
[soft music]
♪
- I'm really excited.
We're in Krabi, Thailand,
and it's Fantasy Suite week.
Never in a million years could I imagine
that I would be getting engaged in Thailand.
[elephant trumpeting]
♪
Everything's beautiful, everything you look at.
It's, like, literally
one of the best places I've ever seen.
♪
We're staying at the Sofitel Krabi Phokeethra.
The vibe feels good here.
Love is in the air.
This week is overnights, and it's probably
the most important time you'll have together.
Having that alone time to focus on, you know,
the difficult questions and tough conversations
is going to be eye-opening, for better or for the worse.
♪
There are three incredible women here:
Gabi,
Ariel,
and Kaity.
I can see a future with all three of these women,
and it's just more reaffirming that this is working.
I'm so excited for that moment of getting on one knee,
leaving here engaged, happy, in love,
ready to start the rest of our future.
Like...
that's pretty damn exciting.
♪
- We are officially in Fantasy Suite week,
and it is absolutely insane
to think that engagement is around the corner.
But it's also so exciting.
I know Zach and I have something special.
My one-on-one date in London was like a little fairy tale.
That's when I first was really excited about our relationship
and, like, the potential with Zach.
Aw! - Oh! Hi.
- Oh, you're so cute. [dog barking]
Like, this is the most special I've ever felt in my life.
It's been, like, very fast,
how our feelings for each other have grown,
But I have been feeling very in my head
and a little bit insecure.
I am falling in love, and so, like,
I need to lean into that.
I think Thailand is the most perfect place
to tell Zach that I am falling in love.
♪
- I'm super excited to see Zach.
The last time I saw Zach was at Hometowns,
and I feel like I was able to express to him
that I'm falling for him.
That was a big moment for us.
He makes me feel so good.
He has never failed to make me feel validated,
to make me feel confident.
There's no better feeling than that.
We did kind of start late in this process.
I had my one-on-one in Estonia.
Turning up the heat.
♪
That's the time we really progressed the most.
I just felt, like, an uninhibited chemistry.
And since then, we've just been building upwards.
I am definitely falling for you.
- Come here.
- I can't wait to have the Fantasy Suite moment.
I'm very, very eager for that.
[thunder rumbling]
♪
- I miss Zach so much. The last time I saw him,
I told him I was falling in love with him.
And it feels so good, like, to be able to open my heart
to such an amazing man.
Like, it feels amazing.
Like, I'm so happy.
I am head-over-heels from, like, that first moment
I sat down with him.
I want to just say how lucky I feel right now.
Being beside you, I honestly feel like
the luckiest girl in the world.
- That's very sweet of you.
- I remember looking into his eyes,
and I knew that I could see myself
falling in love with him.
- A little bit spin and then it's a...
- He's so fun. He's so goofy.
We have a similar sense of humor.
It feels so right with him.
I'm extremely excited to have uninterrupted time with Zach.
This is like a game changer.
- Let's talk about these Fantasy Suites.
I know this is a big week. - Yeah.
- It was at this time with Rachel...
- Yeah. - That everything
turned upside down. - Yeah.
- You got your heart ripped out of your chest.
- Yes. Yeah. - How scared are you that
that could happen again?
- It's obviously terrifying, and something--
that's the last thing I'd ever want to happen.
But you will learn a lot about someone,
regardless, for-- for better or for worse.
And I unfortunately learned for the worst at that time.
And I don't really feel that with these women,
but yeah, it's always in the back of your head
that something can happen.
I didn't expect it with Rachel.
- You knew. - Oh, I knew.
- You knew in that overnight date something was off.
- Something. Trust the gut. Trust the heart.
I mean, that's all you can really lean back on,
and that's kinda how I've been trying
to go about this whole journey
and has gotten me to this point is
just doing what feels right.
And what's most important to me and to express to each
and every single one of the women is, uh...
no sex.
None. No--
no sex of any kind for Fantasy Suites.
- Okay. - Yeah, yeah.
- What brought you to that decision?
- To be honest, speaking with Sean helped a lot.
- Okay. - You know,
he took a very similar approach.
I mean, he just said, you know,
really do what is comfortable for you
and what you think is right for you.
And this is the only thing that feels right
and comfortable for me,
and it can really muddy the situation.
And speaking from experience,
I learned a lot in overnight, and there was no sex,
and that's what I'm looking for.
- I gotta ask you, though, man.
This is just us talking. - Yeah.
- Because you do feel the attraction.
There's the pull. - Yeah.
Yeah. It's hard.
- You really gonna be able to pull this off?
Because... - It'll be tough.
- You are gonna be tempted.
- No, absolutely. That's without a doubt.
It's difficult, and I think
whatever you want to call it,
the animalistic desire or whatever,
like, yeah, it's gonna be really damn hard.
But I want my partner to be sure in us as well
and not to worry about that I'm, you know,
just doing that right before an engagement.
That's how I feel about it.
I know everyone's different,
but it's not how I imagine
a healthy engagement should start.
- Well, man, listen. I'm excited for you, man.
You got a huge week ahead,
starting with a big date today with Ariel.
You ready? - I'm ready.
- Have an amazing, amazing week.
I'm here if you need me, okay. - Thanks, man.
- All right, man.
[dramatic music]
- This week is gonna be a little different.
I think what feels right to me
is not to explore sexual connections
with three different women before falling in love.
Like, when sex is involved, it can cause
so many additional hurdles,
and real feelings are at stake.
It shouldn't be taken lightly.
♪
Now, don't get me wrong.
It's difficult, 'cause I have a physical connection
with all three of these women.
Obviously, I want to.
Like, there's that attraction. There's that pull.
And I think this is gonna be difficult.
There's a lot of pent-up energy.
[monkeys screeching]
But I'm up for the challenge.
It just feels like
the right thing is gonna happen.
[soft music]
♪
- I'm very excited.
I have a date with Zach,
and I have no idea what we're doing.
We're just going to have the best time.
I mean, this place is beautiful.
I don't even care what we do.
I'm just excited to be with him,
to be here in Thailand,
and to have the entire night to spend together.
Tonight is not just a date with Zach.
It's the potential of having the Fantasy Suite night,
and for me, that's really important.
Being physical with someone is a big part
of loving someone and getting to know them.
So I can't wait to keep exploring this relationship.
Hi. - Hello.
- How are you?
- So good to see you.
- Great to see you too. Hi.
- Wow, you look beautiful. Wow.
- You look really good too. Hi.
- How you doing? - I'm freaking out.
I'm so excited to be here. - Have you ever been?
- No. I've never been.
- Okay, 'cause we have quite the evening
planned for us tonight. - Okay.
- So I don't want to spoil it.
You ready? - Yeah, I'm ready.
- All right. Let's go. - Okay.
- I'm ecstatic for today's date.
Really, the last time I spent time with Ariel
was in New York City, meeting her family.
And that was a really exciting and fun day.
- Onward.
- Literally onwards. - [laughs]
♪
I've actually been dying to come here
for a really long time.
- I'm definitely open to a life with Ariel.
She's stunning.
She's intelligent, well-traveled,
and adventurous.
Oh, my God. It's gonna be wild.
It can only happen at night.
It's gonna be fun. - I like going in blind.
I think it's better that way.
- What makes Ariel such an exciting and special
surprise is how late it hit.
She was like a mystery at first, and then bam.
It hits you right in the face.
It's awesome, and it's fun.
And you're like, wow.
Oh, I think we're here.
I don't know.
She's so different from everyone else.
And I'm not gonna hold off myself
from possibly falling in love with someone
that is maybe not who I imagined.
[horn honking]
So I know you might have been wondering
why we're having our date so late in the evening.
Well, this market right here only happens at night, and--
- I'm so excited.
- We're gonna just roam this, you and I,
trying all the food, so it's like a...
- This is a perfect date.
- Perfect date.
- Let's try something, like, really...
- Crazy. - Crazy at first.
Yeah, like scorpion. - Let's try all the crazy.
- Okay, where should we go first?
Okay. - Oh, I mean...
- That looks pretty good.
- Let's go eat some bugs.
- I think they have, like, a...
- I have grasshopper and snail,
and...[speaking indistinctly] Like a cricket.
- What is that one? - Cricket.
- Chicken. - Cricket.
- Oh, cricket.
- [laughs] - Sorry. Hearing is bad.
- Oh, he's giving us a lot.
- The grossest one.
What we got ourselves into?
- I regret this.
- Boy, oh, boy. Hello.
- Thank you.
- Okay.
I'll get you a hot one.
Oh, God. - [laughs]
- Okay?
- We'll do it at the same time to, like,
quell all the anxiety.
- Oh, God. That one's juicy. - [laughs]
- Okay. - Okay.
Let's just not think about it.
- Cheers. - To new experiences.
Tastes amazing.
- Wow.
Did it explode?
- Mm-hmm. - Good.
- I think the sauce was good. - Very good.
- Thank you so much. - Wow.
I don't know what that was.
- I actually like it. Should we have more?
- Oh, intestines? - Let's try it.
- One of everything.
It's always a blast with Ariel.
She is so fun and witty.
I could absolutely see myself falling in love with her.
- Spicy. - That's spicy.
- Very spicy. - Very spicy.
- The chemistry is a bit spicier.
- Should we just do it with our hands?
There's no rules here.
- Are you gonna get it in one bite?
- Should we do, like, a sushi make-out?
- Yeah.
When I kiss Ariel, my body just gets hot.
Oh, my God. Turn on the AC, please.
I'm just so in the moment with her.
She's got this stare,
when you, like, just stare in her eyes
and everything kind of going around us just fades off.
Oh, oh, mm-mm...
oh!
I came into this week not wanting to involve sex.
Sounds easy, right?
Super easy.
- Whoo.
- Oh, hey. Hi.
- Cool. Hey. How are you?
- Hey, um...
- Okay. What should we try next?
- You're an excellent kisser.
- Yeah? - I'm just like, yeah.
- So are you.
I was saying this before, but I don't like,
like, super romantic dates.
Like, I do. Don't get me wrong.
But I like being, like, something more gritty
and actually having, like, an authentic experience
with someone where you're testing yourselves, you know?
- Yeah.
- You're testing what you can handle.
We're gonna test limits. [laughs]
- Yeah.
- [laughs] I hope so.
- Oh! - Holy [bleep]!
[crowd exclaims, cheering]
♪
- Today was the perfect date.
I have never felt more connected to Zach.
There's always been that chemistry,
so definitely carrying this energy into the dinner portion
and potentially the Fantasy Suite
will be nice.
Sparks are literally flying. [laughs]
[crowd cheering]
[tense music]
♪
- It is so hard to sit here for hours and hours,
just waiting and waiting and waiting.
I was feeling so excited,
and like, now I just feel stressed and nervous.
It's really hard to not see someone for, like, ten days
and then feel like this.
[tense music]
[indistinct conversation]
♪
It sucks.
It, like, literally sucks.
Like, I know he's with someone else,
and I'm not trying to act like I'm the only person here.
I know I'm not, but like,
this is really bothering me.
Right now, I'm feeling a lot of insecurity and...
doubt...
♪
Which is probably more self-doubt.
♪
I shouldn't be freaking out like this.
If I can't get out of my own head,
then it's not gonna be good.
- Mm. - [laughing]
- Very nice. - Oh, wow.
♪
- I mean, this is perfect light in here.
- Wow.
Thank you.
Going to tonight, my feelings are stronger
than they've ever been,
especially after how everything
has gone the entire day.
I want to share that with him because
tonight is not just a dinner with Zach.
It's the Fantasy Suite night.
Cheers. - Cheers.
- I cannot wait to be alone with Zach.
We'll probably stay up all night, so I'm very excited.
I had such a fun day today with you.
I feel like we always have so much fun
doing the most random things,
and I feel like you actually match my energy
in a lot of ways. - Yeah.
- It's hard to find someone that's equally as adventurous
and just wants to have fun, no matter what we're doing.
- Thank you. I feel the same way with you.
It's like when we are spending time together,
we're kind of in our own little world, to be honest.
- Yeah, always.
- Like, and we could be doing the silliest thing,
and it's like, yeah.
This is fun. I like this. - Yeah.
It feels very effortless. - Yeah.
- I feel like you've just made this whole thing easy,
but I do have a hard time sometimes.
I feel like since Hometowns,
I feel like I was a little bit holding back still.
I'm very, like, particular with my words.
And I find when I progress with someone,
when I start to really care about them,
I have this moment where I retreat.
- Yeah. - And I don't wanna do that
here, I don't wanna do that to you.
I actually accidentally told my mom
that I'm falling for you because--
- You weren't gonna tell her?
- I wasn't gonna tell anyone, including you.
But I definitely am falling for you.
I definitely am falling in love with you.
So dumb. Sorry.
- I'm, like, trying to--
I'm, like, getting all giddy, like, hearing you say that.
It's very special.
Like, it means so much to me 'cause it's like I feel that.
I think that's what's the important thing.
- Yeah.
- So for me, like, I take love very seriously.
And you know, there's only one person to love
at the end of this, but I want you to know at this point,
and I wanna make it abundantly clear,
I can absolutely see a future with you.
I know it's a huge leap of faith, and...
I can't thank you enough.
[sweeping music]
♪
- It felt like such a weight off my shoulders.
I'm really happy I was able to say that to him,
that I'm falling in love with him.
I definitely want him to know how I feel
because I really wanna be in the Fantasy Suite
and want to keep exploring this relationship.
- Oh, where'd that come from?
- [laughs]
"Zach and Ariel, welcome to Thailand.
"I hope your evening at the night market
"gave you a taste of what your future together
"would look like.
"Should you choose to forgo your individual rooms,
"please use this key to stay as a couple in the Fantasy Suite.
Jesse."
- I have something actually,
like, I do wanna talk to you about.
- Okay. - Um, and actually,
over the--like, the past week or so,
I, you know, came to a decision that felt right
for I guess what I...
envision what would be
a happy engagement and a happy marriage,
that this week, in particular, um...
sex being off the table.
[soft music]
For me, it's inevitable.
Like, I feel a physical connection with you.
Like, that's there. That's no joke.
But I think, you know,
like, loving one person at the end of this
and sharing that intimate moment
should be saved for that moment of engagement
and, like, when you have that one person.
Because inevitably, there's only gonna be one.
So that's how I'm looking into this week for everyone.
I don't know if you were expecting that.
- No. I actually wasn't. - Yeah.
- I don't know what I was expecting.
- Yeah.
- For me, personally, I don't like
to plan anything in advance.
I don't like to go into any of our dates
with, like, such a plan
or such an idea. - Yeah.
- I feel like if you set a standard before,
I feel like I'm definitely not gonna sleep with you, like,
probably will by saying no. [laughs]
So I understand where you're coming from.
I understand your position, and I appreciate that.
But I wanna use this time to just spend time with you.
- Yeah.
- So are you excited?
- Yeah. - Me too.
Can you imagine if you're, like, no sex on the table,
I'm gonna go straight to sleep.
[both chuckling]
I was a little disappointed.
I think it's important to keep it sexy,
so I definitely want to have
those physical moments as well.
But I always want him to feel supported, to feel cared for.
- Come here.
♪
- I mean, it's definitely gonna be hot and steamy.
It always is.
I feel like we've always had physical chemistry.
I think that will definitely, like, permeate
into the Fantasy Suite.
- You wanna hit the road? - Yeah, let's do it.
- Let's go.
- And I don't wanna think about
what he can and cannot do.
I definitely wanna keep that romance alive,
and who knows what's going to happen?
♪
- Oh, my God, the door is here.
After you.
- I mean, actually, it's super cool.
- This is our place.
- Wow.
This is insane.
- Isn't it? - Yeah.
- After you.
- Look at the flowers.
- Very nice.
Bed!
- [laughs] It's literally...
- Ariel and I walk around our suite.
It's a beautiful suite.
We have our own personal pool.
And I'm thinking to myself, boy, oh, boy.
This is gonna be difficult.
Oh, hello there.
- Should we jump in in our suits?
- Should we go? - Yeah, let's do it.
♪
- I don't know.
Every time we're together, it's just...
there's this pull.
Like, I get giddy with her.
♪
Ariel gives me, like, this natural energy.
Like, I'm feeling it. I'm embracing it.
I'm acknowledging it.
And now I just wanna share it with her.
- Now that we're all dry, should we make out more?
♪
- She's just looking absolutely beautiful,
and I'm thinking, what did I set myself up for?
[birds chirping]
- Good morning.
- Oh, my God.
You look very well rested.
- You're a good liar. - Thanks.
[soft music]
♪
Waking up next to Zach this morning,
I'm feeling really good.
Today feels like
light years ahead of where we were before.
- This was-- - We could do like
three different positions. - Yeah.
- It was like, the side. - Sleeping positions.
- Oh, gosh. - Definitely.
- Oh, my God. I didn't even think of that.
Today feels like the first day
I feel like I can honestly, like,
open myself up to love again.
It definitely feels like much more of a real possibility
to get engaged after last night.
- Wanna go grab some breakfast?
- Yeah.
- Okay. - Cool.
- My relationship with Ariel is so much stronger,
and I have so much more clarity.
Yeah, this was a very important night for us.
Are you ready? - Yeah.
- Okay.
- It's actually really good.
- I came into this week not wanting to involve sex.
And with Ariel, uh,
it was more difficult than I could have ever imagined.
But, you know, we both agreed on it,
and it was very important to just have conversations
and not have sex involved.
All right.
I'll see you.
I think it was the right decision.
And I know that in the end, it'll be all worth it.
♪
[soft music]
♪
- I am feeling excited.
A little bit nervous.
Last night, I mean, like, I was, like, freaking out.
And so honestly, I need to just get out of my own head.
I wanna tell Zach
how much my feelings have grown for him,
but I think it was a bit of a reality check,
knowing that other girls are feeling probably
the same way I'm feeling.
I know once I see Zach,
it's gonna feel like no time has passed,
and we're gonna pick up right where we left off,
I hope.
♪
Hello.
- Hello.
- I'm so excited.
I can't wait to see Zach and squeeze him.
I'm gonna smell terrible.
My self-tanner might melt off because it is hot out here.
But you know what?
He should love me regardless.
How are you?
- Good to see you.
- It's good to see you too.
I haven't seen you in so long.
- I know. So good to see you.
Welcome to Thailand.
- You look hot. - You look hotter.
- No, I'm, like, literally sweating.
- You're not sweating at all.
- I'm like, please.
Yeah, no. I'm just really sweating, so...
- Um, real quick, so today's date,
we're just going to our own
private island today. - [gasps]
Oh, my God, that's hot. - And we're gonna take--
see that little boat through there?
- No way, the pirate ship? - The big boat.
We're taking the pirate ship to our own private island.
- That's fun. I love it.
- Wanna go? - Mm-hmm.
- Let's go.
With Gabi, like, I feel so comfortable,
and, yeah, I'm so excited for my date today with Gabi.
This is our ride.
- Oh, okay. - Help you in.
Last time I saw her was at the Hometowns.
Her family was so sweet, so kind.
- I'm excited.
- I think both of us felt really strong
about what could be and what could be in our future.
[sweeping music]
That's pretty--pretty sweet.
- That's very, very sweet.
♪
- With Gabi, I'd love to hear how she's feeling,
and if she's falling in love.
I mean, I definitely feel like
Gabi does know where my heart's coming from,
and I think she's on board.
- Perfect. That's pretty smooth.
- Not too shabby. - Yeah, not too shabby.
- I mean, Gabi-- every time I see Gabi,
she's always so excited
and, like, ready to just have fun.
- Oh, yes. This is perfect!
Perfect, perfect, perfect.
We're flying! - [laughs]
♪
I'm a lucky guy.
And being out in the water with Gabi,
I don't know, she just makes me feel--
she makes me feel good.
♪
Oh, my God. We're here.
This is our private beach.
We're gonna jump in, okay?
- I'm having an amazing time.
Obviously, I recognize how strong
my feelings are for Zach.
My palms are sweaty.
Like, literally feel my palms. - They are.
They're a little sweaty.
- But it's scary to think about opening up to Zach
when I have these feelings
that are, like, haunting me a little bit.
- Three, two, one. Let's go.
- I swallowed so much water.
- I got you.
- How do you not let worry and anxieties
creep into your mind?
I'm just in my head a little bit.
♪
- You look so beautiful.
- I don't. I look really crusty.
You're really getting, like, every side of me.
- [laughs]
Ah, this is awesome. I missed you...
- This is very beautiful. - From Hometowns.
- Me too.
- It was a long time ago.
- It was a really long time.
- Was that week, like, okay afterwards?
Because I know it's a lot, like,
when families are involved,
and then it's, like, a whole week.
- I was confident and excited and, like, honest to God,
in my head a little bit this week.
But... - Yeah?
Just like-- just because of time?
- Yeah, I think.
I think that was, like, part of it.
It's also--I don't know.
I was gonna tell you this a little later,
but, like, since we're on the subject,
it's more like in previous relationships,
I was, like, kind of chosen second.
And so, like, not seeing you for so long
and then being the second Fantasy Suite,
I was like, oh, I feel very second again.
[tense music]
And it's like an order.
It doesn't even matter.
It just, like, stressed me out for no reason.
But I think sometimes when you feel so strongly
about someone, and you're so excited,
like, you wanna find something that's not right.
So my mind just runs to, like,
you're not good enough, and you're second.
- I mean, like, I thank you for opening up
about, like, feeling second.
But to be honest, like, it's not a mind game.
It's literally trying to figure this out day by day.
Like, I don't know how to do this the right way.
I just know what, like, feels right to me.
♪
- This is putting me in my head.
There are other women here.
And so when you think about it too hard,
you just get in your own mind.
I'll be right back, Zach.
Can you hold that thought?
♪
Today was, like, really fun, and like,
I just feel like it's kind of been, like,
turned upside down because of me.
I feel very stupid and foolish, and I hate this.
I feel disgusting. I feel ugly.
I feel all sorts of things.
Why can't I be happy?
I don't even feel like I can go back there.
I was, like, so emotional, so happy.
Now I'm so emotional again.
Right now, I'm like, what is wrong with you?
Like, get a grip.
- Are you okay? - Oh, I'm fine, I'm fine.
- Wanna sit here? - Yeah, we can sit here.
I'm fine. - I believe you,
but are you okay? - Yeah, I'm fine.
- I wanna know what, like-- - I was very--
- You look upset. - I was very activated
last night, and very in my head
because I was feeling like I was chosen second.
And I was never--
I was never good enough in my previous relationship,
and we'll just air it all out right now.
I was not enough, and I was cheated on.
I was chosen second.
And so feeling second was a lot of emotion,
and I was feeling a lot of that last night.
And it has nothing to do with you
because that's not the case,
and you made me feel very reassured today.
And I was so overtired and, like, so emotional.
And like, I'm just a human.
And like, it's just like--
- Yeah, this is hard. - It's hard.
- This is the hardest [bleep] thing.
And like, obviously, I feel secure in you.
Like, I hope there's no doubt how I feel for you.
It's special with you.
Like, it hurt that, like, you felt the pain
of, like, feeling second.
And the order, to me, like, I really don't look at it
in any way as, like, a priority or anything.
Like, I hope you know that.
Like, it's really not about that.
And it's okay, like, to feel like, oh, [bleep],
It's like, the second. Like, that must mean something.
Everyone gets in their head.
I get, like, insecure and in my own head
about things all the time.
Like, oh, my God, did I say that weird to Gabi?
Like, I--oh, my God.
I do it all the time.
- Mm-hmm. - I'm just trying to
figure this out with you.
And it's a lot, and we're figuring this out,
but I have your back. - Thank you.
- I have your back.
[soft music]
- You're really seeing all different sides of me today.
- Well, that's important.
- It's scary.
- I know, that's scary.
[whispering] It's okay.
I'm an emotional guy.
If something is bothering me,
like, I want it to be known and shared
so we can work together on it.
And like, that was really important,
like, for us to get through that and for her
to open up about it to me.
Like, yeah, we rode this incredible, like,
pirate-looking ship and have our own private beach.
But, like, the important stuff--
I mean, for the end of this, engagement
and everything that comes after,
you need to have these tough conversations
and, like, feel things together.
Wanna go walk the beach?
- Yes, I do.
I feel better.
Zach cared enough to make sure that I was okay.
♪
He put me right back where I needed to be,
which is excited and hopeful for the future
and falling in love.
Going into tonight, I'm just so excited.
[soft music]
♪
- This is pretty!
- It is cool. - This is freaking cool.
Going into tonight, I feel really excited.
Today was a lot.
I wasn't my best, like, crying, just looking gross.
My hair being disgusting,
in a knot.
And saltwater,
all my makeup coming off.
He still looked at me and said,
"You look beautiful.
You could never look ugly."
So I feel safe to tell him I am falling in love with him,
and I know that he'll want the Fantasy Suite.
We have both been waiting for this for so long,
so I don't anticipate any hiccups tonight.
Oh, my God. It's so pretty.
- Isn't it? - Aw. These are fun.
- Well, you know, going into tonight,
I do want and need to share with Gabi
my thoughts for how I'd like to proceed with Fantasy Suites.
- Beautiful. - Doesn't this look good?
I think the priority should be the tough conversations
that need to be covered in this short period of time
with an engagement around the corner and not having sex.
- You look hot.
I love this outfit.
- You look hotter. But, you know, I'll take that.
- We look hot.
Well, I would like to toast to you
for meeting me with nothing but compassion,
support, and love,
and making me feel like I was chosen first.
So thank you.
- How are you doing after today?
Because it was a blast, like, everything.
And then you opened up and--
- Well, I felt bad for, like, taking away
from how much fun we were having,
'cause I was having so much fun.
- Yeah. - But there is a lot I lost
about myself in my last relationship.
And I found out that I was cheated on.
And although I knew it was happening...
- Hmm. - I chose to, like,
look the other way.
And I didn't know my value
and what I was worthy of in a relationship.
- Mm-hmm. - And I have done a lot
to, like, figure out what does worthwhile love
look like to me.
You truly show me all of the characteristics
that I've wanted.
You've always made me feel like I'm a priority to you.
I also know you have my best interests at heart.
- Like, I always want you to know
like you do deserve to be number one.
Like, that's ridiculous, you know?
But you know where-- - I know.
- Like, I had, like, such, like,
the worst self-confidence issue.
Like, I look at myself in the mirror,
and I'm like, who could--who would
wanna be with this guy, who could love this guy?
But with you, I don't feel that.
- Samesies.
Like, you are so different,
and that's what I love so much about you
is that you are so special and so genuine and kind
that I am falling in love with you.
So thank you.
- I mean...
- Yay. - [laughs]
I wanna kiss you.
- Well, I'm right here. - All right.
Meet in the middle?
♪
Hearing her say those words, I mean, it was just...
I don't know. It's just all like...
it's like a puzzle that's just coming together,
and it just feels damn good.
Would you do the honors?
- Oh, my God. I'd love to. [gasps]
Okay. "Zach and Gabi,
"from sailing on the turquoise-colored sea
"to exploring your own private island,
"I hope that today you created memories
"that will last a lifetime.
"Should you choose to forgo your individual rooms,
"please use this key to stay as a couple in the Fantasy Suite.
Jesse."
Cute.
- There's the key.
I mean, obviously, this card, the Fantasy Suite,
means an opportunity for us to spend more time together
and further grow our relationship
and explore our relationship.
But this is typically the week where,
for lack of a better term, [bleep] can hit the fan.
And I think to a lot of people, this week is viewed as
it's like, okay, it's like sex week.
I think in this experience,
it can cause more issues and more problems than help.
And I think what feels right to me
is approaching this entire week
not having sex with Fantasy Suites.
♪
I know it's not conventional, but I want this to work.
And to me, it's probably
the healthiest way to go about it.
'Cause an engagement is literally, like, a week away.
- I wasn't expecting him to make that decision.
I wouldn't say that it brought me relief,
to be honest with you.
Like, obviously, like, sex is important in a relationship.
And, you know, you want that side of it as well.
Did I think I was gonna get engaged to somebody
that I've never had sex with? Probably not, but, um...
- I know. It's crazy.
- We're gonna work on that later.
- We're gonna--
but like, obviously, I wanted to--
- I won't try to seduce you.
- [laughs]
- But thank you for sharing that.
- Oh, of course.
It's important.
And I can't wait.
- I can't wait, either.
At first, I was like bummed out,
but I think I'll be great.
I can't wait for him to see my skincare routine.
Are we doing this?
Are you down? - I think we should do it.
- Hell yeah. - Hell yeah.
- Zach is not having physical intimacy with anyone.
He's saving it for the right person,
which means he's not test driving anything.
He knows he wants a Porsche.
- You ready? - Oh.
Oh, my gosh! - Whoo!
- [laughing] Oh, my gosh. - Got it.
- Oh-- - Smooth!
Oh, my gosh.
But like, imagine this is, like, your elevator.
Okay, so-- - This is so cool.
This is such a magical moment.
It's so private, and taking full advantage
of uninterrupted time.
And I really never want it to end.
Oh! - [grunts]
- Look at that.
Teamwork makes the dream work. - Boom.
- Oh, my goodness. - Look at this.
- Oh! Fun.
- I think--I wanna go check out our spot, though.
- Oh. Oh!
- Oh, wow. - This is a big bed.
Lots of room for activities.
- Wow.
- Beautiful tub. - Tub.
Wow. - With lots of flowers.
- Oh. How's the bed?
- Oh, nice.
We love it.
♪
I feel no hesitation having this night with Zach
because I do want that mutual connection,
that physical intimacy.
It's hitting me that, like, this is actually happening.
I think Zach and I are just very excited.
♪
Zach says he's not having sex,
but I don't know.
Maybe he will.
♪
Good night.
[birds chirping]
- This room is so nice.
- It is so nice. Very Zen.
- There's gotta be a crocodile somewhere.
- [laughs]
Is it a crocodile or an alligator?
I have no idea.
- Growing up, my nickname was Mowgli.
- Hmm.
- Do you know "The Jungle Book"?
- Mm-hmm.
- The kid with, like, the underwear.
- Mm-hmm. - That's Mowgli.
And I would walk around in my whitey tighties
and just, like, run around. - Stop.
That's so cute.
[soft music]
How are you feeling?
- I'm feeling great.
- Me too.
Waking up this morning next to Zach,
I'm feeling really good,
really confident about where we are in our relationship.
- You got a little scratch here.
It's so cute.
I love it. - So cute.
That was so cute.
It was such a special night for both of us.
I'm definitely falling in love with Zach.
He opened up about his own insecurities,
and I think we feel the same about each other.
When we're together, like, I can feel where he's at.
It doesn't have to be spoken in words.
I can feel it in the little private moments
we shared cuddling together at the end of the night.
Great cuddle sesh. We love a good cuddle sesh.
I'm gonna miss you.
- I'm gonna miss you too.
- I'm gonna miss you more.
Okay. Don't have too much fun.
It's hard to say goodbye to him.
And I'll miss him, but like,
I'm also just really excited for the next time I'll see him.
Bye.
- Waking up this morning, I am feeling
a lot of, like, incredible feelings.
Last night was really important for us.
Having that special time to be alone together
was huge for our relationship.
And the whole night was a very passionate night
for Gabi and I, and it was really special.
But my whole perspective
on how I thought the week was gonna go
changed because something really special
happened between us in the Fantasy Suite,
and now I feel like I'm holding in a secret.
- Hey.
Good to see you. - Good to see you too, bro.
- You doing okay? - Well, kind of, yeah.
- What's up? - A lot going on.
- What's been happening?
- I feel really great with Gabi, and, uh...
I don't know, it was just an unreal night, unreal day.
Every time I see her, like, it's just like,
more and more of, like, yeah.
Seeing a life with you is not so hard.
It's pretty damn easy.
- Dude, that's awesome.
Right? - Yeah.
- That's beautiful. That's why you're here.
- Yeah, but remember our conversation
going into the week, um... - Yeah.
- You know, taking sex off the table.
- Yeah.
- Um, like, it--
it changed...
um, with Gabi in our overnight.
Um...
We both agreed and wanted to have sex together,
and it was very special.
It was important, and it was what we both wanted
and needed for the relationship.
And I feel terrible because
I've essentially, like, gone against my word.
And I have fears with, like, how Kaity would feel,
how would Ariel feel, how would all the women feel?
And I just feel like a guilt about the whole week now
because it's--not with Gabi, but like a guilt of, you know,
I said one thing, and I did another.
- But it came from a good place.
- Yeah.
- But to some of these women,
intimacy might be a really important thing
before knowing they can say yes if there is a proposal
at the end of all this too.
- Yeah. I hope the women understand where
I'm coming from with this and understand, like,
where my heart was coming from
and like I was hoping to achieve by,
like, not making this messy.
But I want them to know that...
and I'm gonna be fully honest that, like, things changed.
Things evolved in Fantasy Suite,
and I have, you know, zero regret what I shared with Gabi.
Like, that was special.
We needed that, and that was, like, perfect for us.
But I think everyone needs to be at least aware of
what actually happened this week because I don't want there
to ever be any secrets or to feel like
I'm telling one person one thing
but doing another with someone else.
Like, honesty is the best way I can go about this.
- So you feel like you want to tell the other women
about what happened?
- I...like, without a doubt.
Like, I still have a Fantasy Suite with Kaity,
and she needs to know. - Mm-hmm.
- And with Ariel, like, you know, we didn't
share that intimate moment.
And being open and honest with her is very important.
So I think everyone needs to be at least aware.
This is an act of love, not lust.
And I want to talk to Gabi soon and let her know,
like I would never want to start a relationship off
or a marriage off of, like, a foundation of, like, a secret
or just not the whole truth.
- The week was a lot harder than you thought
it was gonna be.
- Oh, my God, so much harder.
You know, I went into this week thinking,
take the physical intimacy off the table for the week
and make things less muddy.
But in reality, it's gotten a lot worse.
[sniffling] Sorry, this is like--
take a breather for a sec.
I'm going to have to be honest with everyone,
and I hope Gabi understands that I'm doing this because I,
like, it's like a thousand things going on at once,
and I'm just trying to process it, trying to figure it out.
And don't want to hurt any of these women.
That's the last thing I want, like,
I can't live with that. I can't.
- I know you've got some tough
conversations coming up. - Yeah.
- Holler at me if you need anything.
- Sharing that beautiful, intimate moment with Gabi
was, like, everything we wanted and needed.
But, you know, now there are repercussions for that.
[tearfully] It was a beautiful moment.
It feels robbed.
[dramatic music]
Feels robbed.
[birds chirping]
[soft music]
♪
- I'm super excited to see Zach.
I think we're gonna have a great day together,
and it's gonna be so amazing.
Seeing his face, like, I'm so excited,
and I'm so happy.
But like, this week certainly has been
more difficult because there has been other ladies.
that he is spending the night with.
But I wanna keep the weight off my shoulders
and just lean into today and forget about, you know,
my worries and fears.
This is gonna be a really special day
and night for the two of us.
[knocking on door]
Oh, my God. What are you doing here?
- Hello. - Hi.
- Come give me a hug. - Hello.
- Hello, beautiful. - Oh, my God.
How are you? - Good to see you.
- I'm glad I wore a cute outfit today.
- Beautiful outfit.
- Thank you. - You look so great.
- Thank you.
Aren't you supposed to be on a date right now?
- Yeah. Yeah, there you go.
We don't have to talk about that.
[laughter]
Before seeing Kaity, I needed to talk to Gabi about
what was, you know, shared between us
in the Fantasy Suite,
especially because we were both
physically intimate last night.
That means that things have changed, things have evolved,
and now that needs to be shared with others.
And I hope she understands that I'm doing this
with the utmost care for her and for us.
So I had the best, best time with you.
Last night was so huge for us.
I mean, like more magical than I could have imagined.
And I just want you to be fully aware, you know.
When I, you know, walked away, I was really in my head
and nervous about, you know,
the declaration I kind of went in with the week
about the intimacy and like,
just kinda how it changed and how it evolved,
like, with you.
You made, like, me feel so special, and, uh, like,
I wouldn't be able to go about this week, like,
just having, like, secrets and, like, telling someone
one thing and doing another and that, and like--
like, I just wanna be fully transparent
with everyone involved about the whole, like--
you know.
You're looking at me funny.
- I didn't realize you were so bothered.
- Yeah.
Not about us, though, in the slightest.
- I don't want you to think I felt that way at all.
- Okay. - Because I didn't.
I just, you know, took it as it was between us,
and that's just where it was.
- Right.
- Zach just came into my room
and told me that he doesn't wanna keep secrets.
I'm feeling a little bit blindsided
because everything that's meant to be, like, private
and between us is now, like, not any longer.
- Are you okay?
- Yeah. I'm just a little caught off guard.
That's all. - Yeah.
- I do feel like my trust was broken
because I felt like it was between us.
Now it's between us plus everyone else.
- I was, like, really in my head
because like, having a secret is not, like, how
I'd like to start, like,
possibly the rest of our lives together.
And you're so important to me.
I wanted to see you, and I couldn't wait
to let you know that, you know, this was on my mind
and bothering me, but more importantly,
just wanting you to know, like, how I feel about you,
and how special that night was, and...
Like, I--I'm definitely, like--
I'm falling in love with you.
And like, I want you to know that.
And like, I don't want, like, anything to, like,
get in that way.
And I can see a future with you, and I...
♪
You're [bleep] special,
and I'm falling in love with you.
And I c--you're someone
that would be awesome to go through life with too.
♪
- Thank you for sharing that. - Yeah.
- And coming to talk to me.
♪
- Telling Gabi that I'm falling in love with her,
my heart skipped a beat when I said it out loud.
And then I was like, maybe-- maybe she didn't hear it.
Maybe I didn't even say it. Maybe I thought I said it.
I want to say it again.
- Don't have too much fun on your date.
- [laughing]
Like, I felt bad that I really bombarded her
with so much today,
but it feels like a weight off my shoulders.
And it's not lost on me that I have my final Fantasy Suite
and overnight with Kaity later today.
- Bye-bye. - Bye.
And I still need to tell her the full truth about
what happened last night.
[soft music]
♪
- I literally haven't seen Zach in over a week,
so I'm so excited to see him.
I'm head over heels about this man,
and I haven't felt so safe and so happy
with somebody in so long.
I am falling in love with him.
He's extremely loyal, committed,
trusting, everything.
I have no doubt in my mind
that the day's gonna go really well.
I can't wait.
- Hello. - How are you?
- I missed you.
- I missed you too.
- You look beautiful.
- Thank you. So do you.
- Oh, thank you. [both laugh]
How are you doing?
- I'm doing good.
I'm excited to explore Thailand with you, so...
- We're gonna have a great day.
I've got quite the date planned for us.
- Do you? - Yeah.
We're gonna go explore some Thai mangrove forest.
- Okay. - But there's a cool way
we're gonna explore it. - Okay.
- But I don't want to spoil it yet.
- Okay. - Let's go check it out.
- Cool.
- I'm really excited just to see Kaity again
and just enjoy our day.
But there is something important
I do need to share with her.
- I've always wanted to do this.
- Right now, like, Kaity doesn't know
how this week has transpired with Ariel and Gabi
and how it's gotten me to the point of now.
And I think it's really important
that Kaity knows all of this.
She deserves full transparency.
And so I'm going to speak with Kaity about it.
I mean, how pretty is this, though, honestly?
- I know. It's so pretty.
I love it.
I love the water.
[soft tense music]
- I mean, it's been so long since I've seen her,
and she is someone, since the very beginning,
where we've had that feeling of, like,
there could be something really big and special here.
- [gasps] Oh, my goodness.
- This relationship that we've formed
has grown stronger and stronger week over week,
and I feel like we're at,
you know, this really strong point.
- Have you seen anything at the bottom yet?
- Um, a couple fish.
Honesty is always gonna be
what I will bring to the table.
Like, I can't do it any other way.
Like, the feelings of guilt
and just feelings of, like, secrets,
like, I just can't.
- Oh, my God. I love the rain.
- I don't think it'll be an easy conversation.
[thunder rumbling]
We're gonna get off right here and take this little path.
- Okay.
- But I have all the faith in the world
that she is someone that can handle this conversation,
and we'll have a discussion about it.
[thunder rumbling]
This is cool. - This is really cool.
I literally had no idea this was
what was in store for today, and it's so cool.
[thunder rumbling]
- I missed you. - I missed you too.
- It's been a long time. - Way too long.
- It's been a lot...
- Mm-hmm. - To be honest.
Like, and I, like,
want to, like, talk to you about, like, kind of--
I don't know, like, what's been going on,
and like, what's been on my--
my brain and stuff.
Like...
you can look at me. - Sorry.
- You look so, like, nervous, like I'm about to drop--
- No, no, no. It's all right.
- I was like, "Uh-oh. She thinks it's terrible."
- No.
No.
- But to be fully transparent,
like, I went into this week
kind of setting a parameter
that I wanted to take--
or I wanted to not have, like,
sex and physical intimacy be involved.
And I shared that with the other women
going into the week.
And...
like, a lot has changed and evolved.
Like, I would never lie to you,
and I've always asked for honesty
from the beginning.
And I will always give you that.
I have been intimate this week.
You know, it was a decision between us that made sense
to further a relationship,
and, you know,
I kind of felt like this entire journey,
like, I've been doing what feels right.
And, like, this week, I tried to set parameters
on, like, how to love
or how to go about this week, and then I had this,
like, really rough time yesterday.
And I just hit this moment, and I wanted to talk to you.
That's kind of, you know, where I'm at now.
- Yeah. - And I--and obviously, like,
it is important to talk to you about.
And I want to know, like, how your feelings are with this.
It's a lot. - Yeah.
Well, obviously, like--sorry.
My heart is, like, racing right now.
- It's okay.
[thunder rumbling]
It's all right.
- Like, I knew--
give me a second.
[laughs] - No, it's okay.
- I knew, like, going into this, like, that is,
you know, something that could potentially happen.
And, like...
it sucks, obviously, to, like, think about it.
- Yeah.
I know. And I just--yeah.
I just don't, like, ever want you to be, like, guessing,
and I want you to know.
[insect buzzing]
- Um, yeah.
Like, I just think--
yeah.
I just figured that was the case,
but, like, you just telling me it,
like, confirming...
Honestly, just, like--
I get that you wanted to tell me,
and I know, like, you're saying that because you respect me.
But like, I honestly just, like,
could've went without hearing that.
- I'm sorry.
- You don't need to be sorry.
I know you're not sorry for doing that.
You don't need to apologize. I get it.
It's--it's part of this journey.
I knew that, like, coming into this,
this is, like, something that,
you know, was gonna happen.
So it's just, like, [bleep] to just, like,
hear it confirmed, to be honest.
But...
[dramatic music]
♪
[inhales sharply]
I'm just not happy, obviously,
so I'm not gonna pretend like I'm happy.
[laughs] It's weird. Like--
- It is weird.
- Like, we're just--yeah, it's gonna take me a minute.
Well, I'm crushed.
[thunder rumbling]
The first thing I basically hear come out of his mouth,
he's like, "I set boundaries and parameters
"about coming into this and not being sexual with other girls.
But hey, I want to let you know, I was."
- He says sorry.
Like, why are you-- why are you sorry?
You're not sorry you did it.
Like, what are you sorry for?
You're sorry the way I'm feeling?
Well, you know I would feel this way.
You know I wouldn't be like,
"Hey, give me a high five, pal."
Like...
I'm really not okay right now.
[thunder rumbling]
- Should we walk over?
Let's go walk.
After you.
- Um-- - No, it's okay.
- Well--yeah.
Yeah, it's weird, Zach.
I'm not gonna lie, I just feel, like,
very distant right now from you,
if I can be honest.
Yeah.
Yeah. I just feel weird.
I feel, like, distant from you.
It's just tough 'cause, like, I was, like--
[laughs tearfully]
Oh, [bleep].
I was, like, so excited
to, like, have this day together.
And I'm like...
I feel like it's a little...
I don't know. I don't know. I don't--I don't know.
- This is, like, the last thing I wanted--
like, I only wanted to share with you
because, like, I felt like,
you know, if it is us at the end of this,
like, I would not want you to have any, like, doubt.
Because yeah, this is a [bleep] up week,
and that's why, like--and--
- Yeah. I know. I know.
Like, I will reiterate a million times over,
I totally understand, like, what you were doing
in trying to tell me.
But, like, I know the gist of this week.
I know what this is.
Like, it's like--I know that you're gonna follow your heart.
I know that you're trying to fall in love.
I get that. I don't need to know.
- I know. I know.
But, like, you know where--like,
I had set this whole, like, thing for the week,
like I told the other two women.
- But you don't need to do that.
I get that. - And that was a mistake.
- Like, I've done the same thing myself.
Like, I've put up, like, walls and parameters myself.
But, like, you don't owe me--
like, that's your relationship with the other women.
Keep it there.
Do you know what I mean? - Yeah.
- Like, I don't--I don't care to hear it, to be honest.
- Yeah, and I understand that.
And, like, it might have been completely my fault
for doing that, but I felt like--
- No, it's not-- it's not your fault.
I understand, like, completely, like, why you told me.
And, like, thank you. - No, no, no.
- Like, I like--
I honestly, like-- it just kind of was like
rubbing salt in the wound a little bit.
Like, there's no easy way to hear that.
Like, think about it from my point of view.
Like, put yourself in my shoes.
Like, I don't--I don't know.
Like, I don't know. - No, it's okay.
Like, you have every right to feel this.
And it's so messed up because, like, this is, like,
the last thing I wanted you to feel.
Like, to me, like, you are someone
that means so much to me, and this is like--
I--like, it felt like I needed to tell you this,
and now I'm kicking myself.
- I don't know, I just feel like
I'm just not happy.
And, like, I want to be happy when I'm with you.
But, like, there's no sugarcoating this.
[laughing] Like, that's [bleep] to hear.
And I'm laughing because it's a coping mechanism.
It's not funny to me at all.
Like, that's just how I cope with things.
- Mm-hmm.
- [sobs]
- Kaity, like, but seriously...
I can really see it being us at the end of this.
And I--
- Yeah. - I just--
You're so special to me, like, from the beginning.
- Mm-hmm.
Thank you for telling me, but also, like--
- No, seeing you, like, upset like this is like--
- Well, what did you expect, Zach?
You think I'm gonna be like, "yay"?
- No. - Like, what did you--
like, what did you-- - To be honest--
- Like, honestly, what would you have liked my reply to be?
- No, like, whatever you're feeling
is what I'd like your reply to be.
It's just, like, I didn't know--
- It's okay. - I just didn't know, and I--
I didn't mean to make you feel this way.
- [sighs]
[soft dramatic music]
All right. - Okay.
- I think, um--
yeah.
Should we just go? - Yeah.
- We'll walk.
Seeing Kaity's reaction was hard.
Her whole tone changed,
and it just felt off between us.
But we'll see how tonight goes.
Honestly, like, anything can happen.
Did I [bleep] up?
Like, all she's feeling
is distant from me,
and that's the hardest part about it.
And I hope she knows where I'm coming from,
but I don't know, like, how she feels about us after that.
- Oh, my God.
I feel so distant from him. Like...
I'm so [bleep] confused.
I don't know.
- Just take a breath.
- Like, what am I doing?
How am I supposed spend the rest of the night with him
when I'm not happy
and all that I'm gonna think about is that?
Like--
I've been away from my family for months.
I've left everything behind.
So excited to see him, and then--
[sobbing]
Heartbreak doesn't feel good,
but this doesn't feel good either.
[sighs]
I literally just want to go home.
[thunder rumbling]
[tense music]
♪
- I didn't see the day going the way that it did.
All I really wanted was to spend that time with Zach.
And then he told me that he was intimate
with one of the other girls here.
It honestly crushed me.
It is the worst feeling in the world.
I can't hide the way that I feel,
and, like, I am not in a good headspace.
I'm not happy.
I don't know if I'm ready to move past this.
♪
- I'm anxious. I'm worried.
I'm nervous to death because I have no idea
how tonight's gonna go.
Kaity and I did not leave great,
and there's absolutely a fear
that she might not want to continue this relationship.
She is someone that is so special to me,
where it's like, I want to just be with her.
I want to see her.
That's all I want.
♪
- Hello. - Hello.
It's so good to see you.
- Good to see you.
- You look beautiful. I love your dress.
Want to go check out the inside?
- Mm-hmm.
Okay.
♪
- Try to beat the rain. - I know.
It seems to be our thing, though, with the rain today.
- After you. - Thank you.
Oh, wow.
I'll go on the far side.
- I want to know how you're doing.
I'm not gonna lie, like, leaving that date,
like, I was, like, really worried.
And more than anything, I care about you,
and I care about this.
And I want to figure, you know, this out.
- Yeah.
Honestly, like,
when I, like, first got back to the hotel room,
I was like, I don't know if I'm gonna, like--
like, show up tonight.
Like, I just needed more time to process.
I feel like this week
was super challenging in a few ways.
Like, this is the longest I've been without seeing you.
And, like, literally the last time I saw you,
I told you I was starting to fall in love with you.
And, like, that's huge for me to say.
Those words mean a lot.
And, like, for me to even, like, say that
and express that was a lot for me.
- Mm-hmm.
- And like, I just wanted to, like, go in today
and just keep strengthening our relationship.
And then I felt like the opposite happened.
- I didn't, like, enjoy, like, telling you that.
And it was, like, not what I, like,
really, like, wanted to do.
But I needed to tell you, like,
at least for me, like, the truth.
Because, like, I know that there's a proposal next week.
And that's why it's, like, so important to me,
like, where there is no secrets.
I would never want, like,
you to ever feel like I had any secrets,
like, before an engagement.
Because, like, I take this, like, lifelong.
Like, an engagement is, like, marriage.
It's a family.
It's starting a life. - Mm-hmm.
- And I'm a guy that, like, for better or for worse,
like, wears my heart on my sleeve.
- Mm-hmm. - And I can't hold a secret.
It'll literally make me sick to my stomach.
- Yeah, yeah, I don't want you to hold secrets, by any means.
- Well, thank you, because I won't.
I don't know how to.
Like, it's literally against my DNA.
I used to rat on myself as a kid.
My parents were like, "You were the easiest kid
"to raise because if you did anything wrong
in school or anything, you told us by the night."
- [laughs] - Catholic guilt had me.
[laughs]
And, like, if anything, I just want you to know, like--
like, what I feel for you, like, what I care for you.
And I'm sorry.
- Well, thank you for sharing that.
And, like, obviously, a relationship isn't always
rainbows and butterflies.
You know, it's gonna have its highs and lows.
I can see, like, you're obviously upset
by, like, me being upset, and this is something
I feel like we can get through.
We can keep moving forward.
It was a step back,
but like, I feel so confident in you,
and I feel really good about where we are.
It is all worth it, sitting here next to you.
Literally from day one,
I remember the first time we talked,
I said I feel like the luckiest girl
in the world, and I know I always say it,
and I still do, Zach.
I think you're amazing, so all smiles from here.
- You're--I mean, you make, like, this worth it.
Like, from the beginning, like, I can wholeheartedly tell you,
like, you just--
I don't know, you make me feel, like, some real special way
that, like--
- Well, good.
- I mean, I can't even put it to words, to be honest.
- Give me a kiss.
[sweet music]
♪
I feel a lot better.
In relationships,
things aren't gonna be easy all the time.
Obviously, this is a very strange circumstance.
But, like, I got the clarity I needed and wanted from him,
and it feels good.
- Would you do the honors?
- Absolutely.
"Zach and Kaity, should you choose
"to forgo your individual rooms,
"please use this key to stay as a couple
"in the Fantasy Suite.
Jesse."
- Should we go?
- Absolutely.
- Funny, it's right here.
- Whoo-hoo!
I'm extremely happy I stayed.
All I want is to keep strengthening
our relationship.
This is so beautiful.
- It's so unreal.
- But I'm cautious.
I really want to feel comforted by him,
and I hope that we can gain that closeness
with this intimate time that we haven't had yet.
- You are someone that I would never take for granted,
and I can't wait for what the future is to come.
Cheers. - Cheers.
That was beautiful.
- I'm feeling a sense of relief.
I care about her so much,
and I think that we can get past this.
The night went so much better than I could have imagined.
Like, I could have lost Kaity.
I don't know where to go from here,
but we'll see how it goes.
[tense music]
♪
- Today is the last Rose Ceremony,
and this week felt like
the best dates we have ever had.
Right now, I'm feeling really good about him.
I'm feeling really good about us.
And it felt amazing telling Zach
that I'm falling in love with him.
Like, I don't know how his other dates went,
so I can't say how he's feeling about all the relationships,
but my heart is pounding out of my chest.
I usually don't get this nervous.
- This week has been definitely, like,
an emotional roller coaster for me.
Our overnight date was really great.
It's great to hear he's falling in love with me.
But in a way, it feels like
he's cleared his conscience
at the expense of my heart.
I can't, like, deny the fact that I am feeling
blindsided by it,
and my trust was broken.
I don't know.
Like, I don't know if I want this rose right now.
♪
- I'm feeling anxious.
I don't know how this is gonna go.
I don't think anybody wants to hear somebody that they're,
you know, falling in love with
has been intimate with another woman.
On the other hand, we really did
grow together through that.
And like, yes, like, he can tell me
that we have a really strong relationship,
and I can feel that too.
But, like, is it strong enough?
Is our relationship stronger than the other women?
This could be the end of my journey.
It's obviously, like, crushing to think about.
- Good to see you, brother. - Great seeing you too.
How are you holding up?
- Good, man.
It's been a hell of a week.
- Yeah. - To say the least.
Right now, you know, with how crazy this week has gone,
like, I don't know.
Like, I feel like this can go a lot of wrong ways,
and that just shatters my heart.
Like, maybe, like, I really [bleep] it up, like, for good.
- Look, I know this has been an incredibly tumultuous week
for you, and I know you feel like you made some mistakes.
But guess what, nobody doesn't make mistakes
in this experience, trust me.
- Yeah. - I know that firsthand.
- Yeah. - You were truthful.
You were honest.
It's going to bring you closer
to finding the love that you want and why you came here.
- Yeah.
- All right, it's that time. - All right.
- The women are waiting for you.
As always, I wish you all the best.
♪
- Ladies, you all look stunning right now.
I came into this week setting parameters on myself,
parameters on ways to find love
or how to think I can navigate finding love.
And that was the biggest mistake I could have done.
This week, at times, I felt like a failure.
I've caused pain, and I've made mistakes.
And I'm so sorry for that.
This decision has been weighing on me.
Like, it shatters my heart
knowing that I have to send one of you women home.
♪
- Kaity.
Kaity, will you accept this rose?
- Yes, I will.
♪
- Gabi.
Gabi, will you accept this rose?
- Yes, of course.
[somber music]
♪
- Ariel, I'm so sorry.
Please take a moment and say your goodbyes.
- Bye. - You'll be okay.
- Love you. - I love you too.
[indistinct whispering]
♪
- [sighs]
- I just want to say, like, this was
easily the hardest thing I've had to do.
And I want you to know that I appreciate you
more than you know.
And you are one of the most interesting,
intriguing, beautiful, respectful, mature,
intelligent women I've ever met,
and I'm blessed to know you
and how you opened up your heart to me.
I mean that.
- Thank you for being you.
Like, you.
[car engine starts]
♪
Ariel. - Good luck with everything.
- Thank you for everything. - Yeah.
- Bye. - Bye.
♪
- It hurts a lot.
I'm hurt because I know, like, how great of a person he is.
And I know that I felt this way for the first time
in a while for a reason.
It's like that future and that life
that you envision is just, like, gone in a cloud,
in a way.
I just wonder, like, when it'll finally click,
and I'll finally find that, like, person
that wants me above, like, anyone else
and everyone else and all else.
It's crazy to think that I'm one of the two women
that are here.
I'm extremely grateful for that.
[tense music]
I'm falling in love with this man,
but there's still a few more things
and steps that, you know, we need to get through
before I can be 100% confident in,
like, having a ring on my finger.
- Hi, ladies. Ah.
- [laughs] - Oh, gosh.
- I thought I would be in a much different state of mind.
I thought I'd be a lot happier.
And right now, I feel like I am,
like I said, wearing a big A my chest.
Like...
- Cheers to a new week with new memories
and getting the privilege to meet your family.
both: Cheers.
- It's, like, a very uncomfortable feeling.
And he's, like, only making eye contact with Kaity
when I feel like I've just been
kind of put through the wringer here.
I have questions that are running through my mind
that I need answered before I can
confidently move forward with an engagement.
- We're meeting the family next week.
- It's crazy.
- Like, this is [bleep] special.
- Next week...
[dramatic music]
It's the incredibly emotional season finale
of "The Bachelor."
- Last week with the overnights,
I tried to do something
that was trying to help everyone out,
and honestly bit me in the ass.
Both Kaity and Gabi are still feeling upset with me.
- Do you regret the decision that you made with me?
- No.
I want to try to fix
and alleviate loss of trust.
I know it's scary and it's hard.
- In the back of my head it's like,
what is he saying to Gabi?
- I know this is not what you wanna hear,
but it's like, I'm so torn.
Like, it's the biggest decision of my life.
- Well, make the [bleep] decision.
I'm sick of self-doubt.
I'm sick of feeling like I don't know if I'm enough.
- Are you prepared for, like, if it does go,
like, the other way?
- [breathes deeply]
Somebody at the end of this is gonna get hurt.
- I've caused pain and I've made mistakes.
But standing here with the ring,
I just hope that it's all worth it.
- It's all coming up next week
on the stunning season finale of "The Bachelor."
[monkey chitters]
[monkey chirps]
[monkey grunts]
[monkeys chittering]
[chittering] - [groans]
Oh, my God. [screams]
No! Stay. What the [bleep]?
[laughing] What the [bleep]?
[chittering]
Maybe they don't like the color purple.
[quirky music]
[monkey grunting] Oh, my God.
They hate me. [laughs]
Oh, my--
[monkeys chittering]
[laughing] I'm not doing that again.