[elevator bell dings]
[tense music]
♪ ♪
- I don't understand what this is.
It says, "Joey, we need to talk."
This is like my worst nightmare coming true.
♪ ♪
[sniffles]
♪ ♪
[sighs]
♪ ♪
[soft music]
♪ ♪
We're in Tulum.
This week is overnights and potential Fantasy Suites.
It's a big week.
It is beautiful here.
This is the type of place that I'd want to get engaged,
and I have three great women here
that I feel confident about:
Daisy, Kelsey, and Rachel.
I'm in a place that I feel like
I'm falling in love with all of them,
but I've been struggling with the fact
that I don't feel right.
♪ ♪
I know I have the best intentions.
I know I've been honest through all of this.
I know I have a good heart, and I have so much to give.
I just really want someone to want that from me,
and I want it to be reciprocated.
I think that's the hardest part about all of this,
for me to fully let go
while there's still three women here.
I've been in this position on the other side.
I left with zero doubts that I was
ready to get engaged to Charity,
but she didn't choose me, which crushed me.
♪ ♪
I've only let go once in my life fully
and, like, let someone completely in.
♪ ♪
And when it got taken away...
I don't want to feel like that again.
[sniffles]
And I do find myself in this,
like, not fully letting go.
[sighs]
♪ ♪
I want to let go.
Like, I want to fully be in it, and I'm trying.
It's just, there's still so much to figure out
that I'm finding myself hold back in some ways,
because I--I want it to go so well.
But I don't know what to do.
It's just a big week.
There's a lot to think about.
[soft music]
♪ ♪
- It's crazy that Tulum's the place that
I could potentially be engaged at.
Like, the next time I get on a plane,
I could have a ring on my finger.
Going into this week, it's definitely
super, super serious,
because there's only three people left,
and we're on that final stretch.
So I feel like this week, there is some, like, pressure,
it feels like, but I'm trying to not think of it as that.
I'm trying to just be open
and have, like, the conversations I need to
and have a good time with Joey.
I love being around Joey.
Whenever I'm around him, I feel so good,
and I feel so valued, and I feel so cared about,
and I have the best time.
- Hi. - Hi, Joey.
- Last week, meeting my family,
I, like, realized how he makes me feel.
I am falling in love with you,
and I've been falling in love with you.
And I mean that from, like--
with my whole heart.
- I feel the same way.
- So going into this week, I just want to, like,
keep evolving and, like, falling in love.
And I'm really excited to spend that alone time together.
It's scary to want to be the one at the end
and have him choose you and pick you,
and then that not be the case.
It's definitely a scary thing, knowing that--
I mean, there are other people here.
- Oh, my gosh!
[soft music]
♪ ♪
I am excited to see
what this week has in store for Joey and I,
and I think that knowing, like,
how far, like, our relationship has come
is just astonishing.
I felt that connection with Joey right away.
We just mesh really well together,
like, our personalities.
It's easy to have fun with him.
Joey, you're supposed to let me win.
Like, since then, it's just grown and grown and grown.
Like, just to know that, like, those feelings
are just gonna grow stronger and stronger
and stronger and stronger.
I do love Joey, but I haven't yet said it to him.
I'm not falling, you know?
But I'm, like-- I'm, like, tripping.
Like, I'm starting to trip.
- Starting to trip a little bit.
- Yeah, I'm like--you know.
- I can understand that.
- I definitely hope to tell him this week.
It's insane to think that we haven't had
just, like, intimate time together,
but I think that we're just gonna value it that much more.
If everything goes right and it's him and I at the end,
I could see myself definitely saying yes
to a proposal from Joey.
This finger could not be empty anymore,
um, which is insane.
I could literally be engaged.
That is so surreal to think about,
but also, like, it's, like-- it's so exciting.
[light music]
- Oh, my gosh!
♪ ♪
I never thought I could date a guy like Joey.
He checks all my boxes.
He's been amazing with me since day one.
Mm, I need to ask homeboy how--
I mean... - [laughs]
- He just has this ease about him,
where he just kind of reassures me
without having to say much.
♪ ♪
We have a special connection.
[fireworks popping]
But I've been having an inner battle with myself
to push myself to open up to him.
- So nice to meet you.
- Aw. [cheering]
- Definitely, seeing him with my family
was what I needed to just kind of reassure me
that what I'm feeling is right.
I'm definitely falling in love with you,
and I see a future with you.
I--of course, I want it to be us at the end.
♪ ♪
Going into this week, I am definitely terrified
that maybe me opening up, it's too late.
That's just a huge fear of mine.
[tense music]
This date I have this week with Joey
is truly kind of a "make it or break it" for me.
Obviously, I want to make it.
It's do or die week.
I definitely picture a future with him.
I picture everything with him at this point,
so it would be nice to just, I guess,
express how I'm feeling, and I would love
to have someone in my corner.
♪ ♪
Oh, my gosh, Susan. - Hi.
- We're looking for eligible senior gentlemen
to date our first Golden Bachelorette.
Sign up at abc.com/casting today.
[upbeat music]
- Hi. - Hello.
You look amazing.
- I'm so excited. - Literally stunning.
Me too. - Oh, God bless.
- So nice to finally meet you. - I'm so excited to meet you.
I'm back!
It's Susan from "The Golden Bachelor,"
and I am here today to talk with Rachel.
Jesse wanted me to spend this time with you...
- OK. - And make you feel comfortable
and talk to you about this whole journey.
So when Jesse suggested that I do this, I got it,
because how could he sit there and talk about those things?
You need a real woman with experience.
Think of me as your mom, your best friend right now.
- OK, OK.
- I'm in your corner.
- OK.
She's just such a welcoming presence about her,
and she knows, like, you know,
the--what I'm going through, in a sense.
And she knows how stressful it is,
so I'm excited to just talk to her.
It's been a dream come true with him.
I mean, I never thought that I could even meet
a guy as nice as him.
I've had exes where I'd be myself,
and they would-- they would kind of just give--
make comments like, "Oh, you're so goofy."
Like, "You're so awkward. Why are you like that?"
I'm like, I'm sorry.
Just how I am. - It's who you are.
- And one time, Joey and I were talking.
And he was like, "I love how goofy you are.
I just--I just like how you're just all over the place."
And I was like-- - So that's important.
- That's just how I am. - Yeah.
Can you look at a future with him?
- Yeah. - And if so, what do you see?
- [sighs] It's so--
I think admitting it out loud is so scary to say.
- Say it.
- But I am falling in love with him.
I told him that.
Sometimes when I'm alone, I will say, like--
I'm like, "Oh, yeah. I love him."
- You're in love. - I am in love.
- Say it! - It's sc--
- It's OK to say it.
- It's OK, and I think I need to let myself be OK with that.
- It's OK to be in love. - Mm-hmm.
- It's a wonderful feeling to love.
- I know that it is.
I think it just goes back to the fact that
the last guy I truly loved,
it--it just didn't work out.
He cheated, and then I met my second,
like, big relationship. - And?
- And that also ended in cheating.
- Does that kind of put a guard up?
- It does, and I think being here,
like, obviously, I knew when I was coming here
there would be other women involved.
At the end of the day, it's so scary
that he could pick someone else over me,
and I feel like that's kind of been a pattern for me,
is that I don't get picked.
Guys pick other women over me, and--
- That's the past. - I know.
So I have to let that go.
- That's the past.
That's your fear. - And--yes, it's--
- Again. - It's a fear.
- Don't let that get in the way.
- Yeah.
- What I learned about myself from this show was,
I am the prize.
I am what a man needs.
- Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.
- You have to love yourself
before you can love anybody else.
- You're gonna make me cry, Susan.
- You don't ever talk--it's OK. - Stop.
- You're allowed to cry. - [laughs] Stop.
- I'll be right here to hold you.
I'm serious. - Mm-hmm.
- I'm serious. I'm 66 years old,
and trust me, everybody has self-doubt
and self-esteem issues.
We all feel insecure sometimes,
and you don't deserve treatment like that, ever.
- I know.
- No matter who it is.
I think she's a little bit guarded
with her feelings
because of things that she went through.
I just hope she lets her guard down
and speaks to him.
I don't want her to go back to the old habits.
- I don't share much.
I just, like, act like everything's fine.
That's why I laugh.
I'm just like, la, la, la.
- But if you're gonna marry this man...
- I know, that's-- - He needs to know
what's way down in there.
- That's what I'm thinking. I'm like, OK.
I'm like, I really need to allow myself
to feel what I'm feeling.
- Be vulnerable. - Mm-hmm.
That--I'm not good at that, Susan.
I'm not good at that.
- If you love him, be vulnerable.
Let your guard down.
- Mm-hmm.
Talking to Susan made me realize
that my guard is still up.
I thought it was down,
but maybe it's still kind of up.
Going into Fantasy Suites, I know that this will be
my--not my one chance, but possibly my last chance
to really just give it my all and give him my all.
- Come on. - So much more.
- Bring it in. I love you so much.
- Thank you so much.
- Oh, I wish you nothing but love.
Hold your confidence. - I will. I will.
- And let him know what you feel, OK?
- I will. - Love.
Just love. - Yes.
This date I have is truly kind of
a "make it or break it" for me,
so I definitely need to push myself
and really open up and show him that
there's another side to me
that I haven't shown him before.
♪ ♪
- Hello.
- Hi, there.
You look amazing.
- What do you mean?
- We match a little bit too. - Hi.
- How are you?
- I'm doing great.
- I missed you.
You look nice.
What is that? - Thank you.
- I'm nervous to see what we're doing.
- How are you with, like, wild animals?
- I love animals. - OK, good to know.
And you can hold your breath for, like, a really long time?
- Sure.
- Well, I guess we'll find out.
- OK. - All right, let's go do it.
- OK.
- Rachel does bring a different side out of me.
I think I am different with Rachel
than I am around all of the other women.
I don't even know what that side is.
I think it's more joking.
I think it's more of the banter.
We just have this gel that makes sense.
- I was like, don't-- don't slack on that, now.
- Rachel isn't as emotionally available
as some of these other women at moments,
and I don't mean that as a bad thing.
It's just I can feel that she's held back at some points.
But every time we do get time together, it's special.
I know we're about to do something beautiful.
I know we're gonna have a good time.
Today, Rachel and I will be taking a leap of faith.
It's a big one.
♪ ♪
So this is a cenote.
It is like an underwater-- like a cave situation.
So it's really deep in the middle.
But what we have here is these different types of platforms,
and we're just gonna have fun with it today.
- You said wild animals. - I know.
I was just trying to throw you off,
'cause I didn't want you to-- - Oh, my--yeah, I can tell.
You're so funny. - So funny.
- So cute. - But this will be fun.
We'll work our way up, though. - Yeah, we'll just--
- We can start on the bottom.
We can do each one, see how the water feels.
- My hands are sweating. Yeah, let's do it.
- Are you nervous? - Yeah.
Let's do it. It's fine.
It never matters what Joey has planned.
I just love spending time with him,
and we always have such a great time.
I think this might be my favorite date,
because I like to be outdoors.
- We're gonna do every platform.
That's gonna be the goal of the day.
And this one, we can definitely dive off of,
which sounds nice.
- OK.
- All right, here we go.
- Ready? - Three...
- Yeah.
- Two, one.
[dramatic music]
- I've been scared to push myself to open up to him.
It's just very hard for me to do that.
I'm worried that I might self-sabotage in a way,
that I won't open up,
so I do feel more pressure on myself.
- Kiss for good luck?
- Yeah.
Something more than that?
[laughs]
I'm kidding, I'm kidding. OK, ready?
Kay, ready, kay, ready, kay, ready.
- Ready?
All right, here we go.
Three, two, one.
- I know to be in the healthy relationship
that I'm wanting with him, I have to let him
be there for me emotionally.
I realize how much I care for him
and how much I care about wanting it to be
he and I at the end, is when I realize
I really do love him.
- "Love is a leap of faith."
- Oh, boy.
- We're about to do one.
- I will always leap with you.
- Come on.
- I just have to force myself to open up,
because it'll be worth it in the end.
- You take your time.
- Love is a leap of faith,
and let me tell you, I feel like I'm about to take
the biggest leap.
- Four... - OK.
- Three... - Wait.
- Two...
- Oh, my gosh.
- One.
Good?
- [breathing heavily] - You OK?
- Hit my face. - You hit your face?
Are you OK?
- Yeah, I'm fine.
- Are you sure? - It's fine.
- You sure? - Uh-huh.
- You always say you're fine,
and I feel you touching your face here.
- My face hurts so bad. - OK, let's get out then.
Come on. - [laughs]
- I could tell almost right as soon as
I came up from the water, I looked at Rachel.
Her face just looked a little different.
She seemed like something was wrong.
- [laughing] It hurts so bad.
Like, my jaw hurts so bad.
- Do you need some ice?
- No, it's fine.
- Are you sure?
- Yeah. - Why don't we get some ice?
- [mumbling] I shouldn't look at the water when I jump in it.
- You're not even talking anymore.
- It hurts so bad.
- OK, then we need to go do something about it.
I knew something was wrong, and I just--
I felt worried.
Rachel might have just broken her jaw.
- I'm fine. Hmm?
- Oh, what happened here? Can you open, please?
- Mm. [laughs]
- Open, please.
- You can't open your-- can you not open it?
- Like that. Can you--can you--
- It should be open.
I feel like it's opened.
- This hurts?
- Yeah, a little bit.
Mm-hmm.
It's fine.
It's OK. Good.
- Good. - Good.
- She always tries to put on a brave face and say she's OK.
And I know the reason why
she wants to keep pushing forward
is 'cause she doesn't want to lose time
or take away from what we can have.
But I hope that she's OK.
I'm here.
I'm just checking in to see how you're doing.
- Just bummed.
- Yeah. I get that.
- Mm.
- Even though she said that she's OK,
I can tell that she's not,
so we do need to go to the hospital
and make sure that she is OK.
All right, let's go. - OK.
- I don't know what's going on.
It really is a worst-case scenario.
♪ ♪
[siren wailing]
[tense music]
[indistinct PA announcement]
♪ ♪
- We were jumping off a platform,
and right as soon as I came up from the water,
I knew something was wrong.
- OK. OK, I'm just--
I'm gonna check your jaw.
OK, open your mouth.
- Rachel messed up her jaw, and there's still pain there.
- It hurts this side?
- Uh, both sides. - Both sides.
- Mm-hmm. - OK.
- It is scary.
I didn't expect for the day
to take a turn like this.
- Let's start with the X-ray.
It's gonna be an X-ray of your neck and your jaw, OK?
- OK.
- There's nothing you can do in moments like this.
All I can do is just be with her
and try to make her feel better.
I know it sucks.
I'm sorry.
I just want to make sure you're good.
Even though it's tough for her,
I see today, she is letting me in more.
She is being more honest with how she truthfully feels,
and that's all I can ask.
♪ ♪
It's gotta be tough, 'cause I know
if I was in her position, I would feel so bad.
I would be upset that it took away from the day.
I don't think this could have went any worse in her eyes.
- OK.
I already saw your X-ray,
and it seems to be fine.
- Yeah. - OK?
- OK. Thank you so much.
- You're welcome. - Thank you.
What did I tell you?
It was great news when the doctor came back
and said that everything looked good.
[soft music]
I can always picture Joey by my side
and a future with him.
I think I realized today that it's just me
that's kind of standing in my own way
of that possible future.
♪ ♪
But, you know, thankfully, the date isn't over.
We still have more time to have tonight.
♪ ♪
- It's really nice.
- My past relationships, I've never
really felt that I was allowed to share
or be vulnerable with people.
Joey's the first guy where I feel
emotionally safe with him.
So going into tonight, why not just keep opening up?
And I mean, he's seen me be very vulnerable today.
Ooh.
I think admitting out loud how I'm truly feeling
is a struggle for me, so there's just
definitely very important conversations
to be had tonight.
- How we doing?
- Good.
I feel better.
- How is better?
Where--where are we at with the pain?
Whoa.
- What can I say? - OK.
That's good. I'm glad.
- Got my teeth. - I'm glad.
- Yeah, me too.
I'm still upset about today. - Mm-hmm.
- I think I still feel bad that I ruined the date,
because I know you had, like, the whole day planned,
and I was, like, waiting all week for it.
So I was, like, really excited. - Mm-hmm.
I don't want you to feel bad, though.
That's the thing is, like,
that means that you think you did something wrong
when you say you feel bad. - Yeah.
- You did nothing wrong.
- Well, yes.
But you know, like, the day--
like, the whole day changed because--
- Because of something that was a freak accident
that you didn't try or expect to happen.
And that's life. - Yes.
But I still feel bad. - I know.
- My intentions going into today, I was like OK,
I'm gonna try to open up more.
- Mm-hmm.
- Like, obviously, I--
I know I've let you in, like, to an extent,
and I thought I've, like, let you in almost fully,
but I guess I realized, like, I haven't.
I guess, like, a huge fear that I've had
for the past couple weeks is like, am I too late?
Like, I--did I not, like, open up enough, like, early on?
- This can push you outside your comfort zone,
but I never want you to feel like you're not
able to do this or navigate it
however you feel comfortable with.
And I feel like I really have gotten to know
who Rachel is. - Mm-hmm.
- And part of that is the slow burn.
That's you. - Yeah.
- That's OK.
That's how you would operate, so that's--
you can't--you can't look back on it differently.
- Right.
- What's that face?
- Like, well, you're right,
but it's like--sorry.
I don't know, I mean, I get what you're saying,
but it's still, like, gonna be in the back of my mind,
because I've been, like, questioning, like,
am I playing catch-up with time with him?
♪ ♪
So yeah, it's just--mm.
It's just a huge-- like, a fear of mine,
I guess, going into this week,
like, knowing, like, I'm by myself,
and you get to have, like, more time with the other girls,
obviously is the hardest part.
But I think it just, like, stemmed from, you know,
my serious relationships all ended
because they were cheating on me the entire time.
So I think--I know that's not what you're--
that's not what you're doing. - I know.
- But I guess the idea of it is like,
I'm waiting to see you, and I--I can't see you
because I know that you're... - With someone else.
- Having the time with someone else.
- Let me first say that even though it's understood
what this week brings and, like, the fact that
obviously, there's more time with two other women
and it's serious, it doesn't change how it feels.
You've had a lot of difficult past relationships
that were unfair to you, and I understand that,
and I appreciate you so much letting me in
and knowing how you truthfully feel,
because then that allows me to know
not just more of where you're at,
but just gets me more insight on how you think
and how you feel.
- Mm-hmm.
[somber music]
- It's OK.
♪ ♪
[crying]
♪ ♪
- Take a second.
I do understand how hard this week is,
how much emotions come with it.
And it's OK.
Just know that I was so excited to see you today.
There is something real here.
There's something that we've felt
since that time we had in Spain.
And I felt it again when we were at Hometowns.
Like, I know it's there.
- Mm-hmm.
Tonight I'm the most emotional
because the idea that I could lose him is very scary.
And this week just brought up those past emotions.
♪ ♪
Was that an eyelash?
You're supposed to make a wish.
- There you go.
- [blows] - Nice job.
- Mm. - Mm.
[laughter]
- I know, at the end of the day,
that he's gonna support me through everything
and that he truly, truly cares about me.
And I have to also be OK with him
wanting to be there for me.
- I know that today was cut short in a lot of ways--
more than one.
I know tonight was tough for you too.
But I do have something for you.
This is a card for tonight.
- OK.
- I know today was tough.
- Mm-hmm.
- I do want more time.
I want the ability to continue to see where this can go,
because I know that's something that
we haven't been able to have, in a lot of ways.
- Mm-hmm.
[soft music]
"Joey and Rachel, you went through so much today,
"but I know it's only brought you
"closer together as a couple.
"Should you choose to forgo your individual rooms,
"please use this key to stay as a couple in the Fantasy Suite.
Jesse."
Hmm.
Yes, let's do it.
- All right.
Shall we go explore the villa? - Yeah.
- Let's go.
- You lead the way.
- Mm-hmm.
- I think opening up tonight has been amazing.
Joey's the first guy that I've felt this comfortable with,
just fully being myself.
♪ ♪
both: Wow.
- Not bad at all.
- And knowing that we can have this time alone, off camera,
I'm so excited to finally just enjoy my time with him
and share that I love him.
- Cheers to an amazing night to come,
and I'm excited to see every side of you--
the emotional side, the real side.
I just want you to feel comfortable being you.
So cheers to you. - Cheers.
- I think today I saw some of the most real emotions
that I've seen with Rachel.
We have this unspoken connection
that's hard to describe.
I have zero doubts that I'm gonna be so happy.
It's gonna be everything I wanted and more.
Tonight could be the most special night we've had
and change everything.
[soft music]
- Morning.
- Good morning. [kissing]
Last night was good.
- I really appreciated last night
because of how vulnerable you were
and how much more you opened up.
- Yeah. I mean,
I think it was due, I guess, so like--
- I just felt like I saw a different side of you,
and it was good to see.
I know it was hard for that.
- I mean, it was hard, but you made it pretty easy.
♪ ♪
- Last night was perfect,
just, like, spending the night with him,
waking up next to him.
Who would have thought?
I had to poke him to see if he was really there.
- Do you want to go grab breakfast?
- Yes, please.
- OK, let's go. - OK.
It was very comforting and very just refreshing,
again, from this whole journey.
I've never been super vulnerable
with a boyfriend before.
I finally told him that I love him.
I think we definitely got closer.
Yesterday, being able to open up to you
and let you, like, take care of me and be there for me
was very different in the best way possible.
- Mm-hmm. - Last night, I told you
I'm in love with you-- that hasn't changed.
It's growing and getting stronger.
And the idea of us not being at the end
is very scary to me, so yeah.
♪ ♪
- I am falling for Rachel.
I love how much fun we have.
It was nice to wake up next to someone
that you feel so comfortable with.
I knew coming into this whole day yesterday
I needed to see a different side of Rachel.
I needed her to be more open.
And we had a great night last night.
She just was so much more honest and open
and shared so much with me.
And like, that's all you can ask for.
I feel like a life with Rachel would be so beautiful.
I just feel like you really trusted me
and let everything be what it was supposed to be.
So I can't ask for more.
♪ ♪
- Everything with Joey feels so natural.
You know, I love him.
I love being with him.
- See you soon?
- See ya, hun. - Bye.
He's just opened my eyes
to the type of relationship that I want.
Hopefully he's feeling what I'm feeling
and he knows that I really tried
and I opened up to him yesterday.
But I know he has strong connections
with all three of us.
You don't know what happens next.
And now I'm terrified,
because I do picture my life with him.
♪ ♪
[soft music]
♪ ♪
- The big day is here.
I'm just excited to see
what the day holds for Joey and I.
I don't know.
I just--I want it to go well,
and like, just knowing, like,
how far our relationship has come,
it just--it's wild.
But this whole situation is so crazy,
and there's multiple women in it.
Just a lot of emotions, so it's just like, ah.
It feels crazy in my head, 'cause I'm like,
"This is insane. No, it's not.
Yes, it is. No, it's not."
I don't know.
Hopefully Joey continues
to be intentional with his words
and doesn't, you know, lead me astray.
I would just hate for him to not be 100% sure,
if it was any of us that he got down on one knee for,
and it's scary, a little.
[knocking]
- Hi. - Hi.
I'm Kelsey.
- Oh, my goodness, Kelsey.
So good to meet you.
- It's so nice to meet you too.
- Oh, my gosh. You're so beautiful.
- I'm just so excited to meet Leslie.
Leslie went through a similar experience to me,
and hopefully she can really give me some great advice.
- So this is beautiful. - I know.
It's stunning here. It's beautiful.
- It is gorgeous. - Yeah.
- Are you having a good time? - Yeah.
So far, so good. - Good.
- You know, I haven't been able to see Joey yet.
- Right. - But Joey and I's connection
has grown so much since the beginning,
and things just feel, you know, right with him.
- How was your Hometown?
- My Hometown was awesome.
Everybody loved Joey, and my dad was very posi--
positive about it all and really, like, trusted me
and, like, saw how Joey and I were together.
And that gave me a lot of reassurance,
just knowing that, like, you know,
my dad was so supportive,
which I knew that he was going to be,
and like, he kind of--you know, he was at the beginning.
But just for him to see Joey and I together,
then still give that feedback, was awesome.
- That's so good. - Mm-hmm.
- Um, I know we're kind of in the same club.
- Uh-huh. - I lost my mom...
- Yeah. - When I was 24.
- Yeah.
[somber music]
- That really impacted my whole dating life, really.
Like, she's always on my shoulder...
- Uh-huh. - Telling me what to do.
- Totally.
- But sometimes I don't listen to her.
- Yeah, totally. OK, Mom.
- Yeah, get off.
Exactly.
- No, like, butterflies
are kind of like a symbol to me, like, of my mom.
Like, whenever anything, like, really happy
or, like, exciting or even sad happens in my life,
I always somehow, like, will see a butterfly.
- Yeah.
- And then at my Hometown, there was a butterfly
that followed us around the whole day.
- Oh, my God. I got the chills.
- Yeah, like the whole part. Yeah.
- No. - No, it was so cool.
It was so special, and I felt like
my mom was there in her own way.
- Yeah, I totally get that, you know?
- Mm-hmm. - And that's how we keep them
in our heart all the time. - Yeah.
- Your mom would be very proud of you.
- Thank you, Leslie.
Leslie told me about her mom passing, you know,
way earlier than she should have,
and how close she was with her mom as well.
And so I think that we really bonded on how it is hard,
like, dating and doing things without having that person
there to talk to about it all.
And she told me how she thinks that--
[crying]
♪ ♪
How she thinks that my mom would be so proud of me
and who I am, and that felt really nice to hear.
Like, I wish that she was here
and she could give me, like, the stamp of approval.
- Yeah.
- But I know that she would love Joey.
Joey is an amazing man. - She would.
Joey is amazing.
- Yeah, and he's so kind, and he's so thoughtful.
- I think that she would completely approve of Joey.
He's amazing. - Yeah.
- Yeah, yeah.
When I look at Kelsey, I see myself in her a lot.
I mean, it only happened not very long ago
that she lost her mother, and you don't
get over that in a year or two.
So I want her to find happiness.
Oh, I just want her to be happy.
So, Kelsey, are you in love with Joey?
- Yes, I am in love with Joey. - Aw.
I love that. - Ah! I feel crazy.
[laughter]
Part of me is like, oh, my gosh.
I feel insane saying this.
But I'm like, but I feel it.
So, like, it's not that insane.
I'm like, I don't know.
It's crazy.
- Have you told him yet?
- I told Joey that I was, like, starting to fall for him.
It didn't sound so confident.
And so whenever I do tell him that I love him,
I want it to just feel like, you know,
I could scream it from the, you know, rooftops.
- Yeah.
- And I'm not saying it to hear it back,
but it would be nice to hear it back, you know?
- Yeah. This is kind of
do-or-die moment, you know? - Yeah.
- You have to be open and honest
and just everything.
When you go into this overnight,
be completely organic, and do not let
anything come in your head.
Be present, and just be focused on each other.
And make use of every second. - Yeah.
- Because it goes like that. - Yeah.
- You know, I went into my last day confident.
- Mm-hmm.
- By the things we talked about
and by the things he said to me.
- Yeah.
- And then I didn't get chosen, and that was hard.
I just want Kelsey to be really careful.
I know what it feels like to be so hopeful
for the future and hopeful that, you know,
you're gonna be the one.
And then I'm scared for her,
because if it doesn't happen that way, it's heartbreaking.
And I can see how much she adores Joey,
and I wouldn't want that for her.
I wish I wouldn't have felt so confident.
- Yeah.
- Because then I was devastated.
- Yeah. - Very, very sad,
because I was really in love with him.
And I would not wish that on my worst enemy,
to be honest, that feeling I had,
where I was confident and then that was it.
And I would say, just always have something
in the back of your head that you might not be it.
And then if you're it, it's amazing.
And if you're not, you--
you have a little bit of protection.
- Yeah.
- Kelsey, you are a beautiful girl.
- Thank you.
- And Joey would be very lucky to have you.
- Thank you, Leslie. - Yeah.
- Coming into this, I was feeling really great,
but after talking to Leslie,
that made me just realize
how much I could have my heart completely broken.
Leslie's been through a lot of the same things that I have.
You know, she had strong feelings for Gerry.
And you know, I'm feeling the same feelings,
you know, like, with Joey.
She was thinking that it was gonna be her,
but she didn't get engaged to Gerry,
so she did get her heart broken.
Putting yourself out there like this
and, like, not knowing
what the outcome is gonna be is scary.
Like, I could lose this all, like, you know,
in a matter of days.
Now I'm, like, totally freaking out and terrified.
[soft music]
♪ ♪
- I am so excited to go on this date with Joey.
I've been waiting patiently, and it has arrived.
I had a conversation with Leslie
from "The Golden Bachelor."
She told me, "Just go into it with an open heart,
but just don't expect the engagement at the end."
And so it's scary.
But I'm excited, and I'm trying to feel
all the feelings and embrace them,
even though sometimes they are scary.
♪ ♪
Oh. I can't run.
[laughs]
- You look great. - You look great.
[laughs] Tulum looks good on you.
- Same to you.
I missed you.
- How are you?
- A lot better now.
It's good to see you.
- It's good to see you.
You look so handsome.
- You look beautiful.
You ready to see what today is gonna be?
- I'm so excited. - All right.
What do you think we're doing?
- Maybe something with a boat? - OK.
That's a good guess. You want to go find out?
- Yeah, let's go find out.
- All right, let's do it.
- [laughs] You look so cute in blue.
- You look better.
- [laughs]
- Are you excited? - [gasps]
- It's a nice boat. - I am so excited.
It's beautiful.
Oh, my gosh!
- The last time I was with Kelsey,
I really didn't want to let her go.
We had such a great day in New Orleans.
I felt so comfortable with her family,
and I know there's a real love that's building
between Kelsey and I, 'cause I feel it.
But I just don't know yet if Kelsey feels the same way
about me as I feel about her.
- Ooh.
- This is sick.
She's never said the L word,
and hopefully today is a day that I get more clarity
that she also feels it too.
♪ ♪
[upbeat music]
- Ah!
This is so pretty.
- The way that Kelsey makes me feel is different.
♪ ♪
She has this light and energy
that I just feel so lucky when I'm around her.
I missed you.
I didn't want to leave you in New Orleans.
- I know. You should have just stayed.
- You look beautiful today, by the way.
- Thank you. You look handsome.
♪ ♪
- I missed you. - My hair's all crazy.
- I like it when it's crazy.
- [laughs]
- I do.
I think it's one of your best qualities,
how crazy your hair is.
- My crazy hair? - Yeah.
- It's huge.
- I think you don't need to tame the mane.
- Shaggy dog.
That's what I feel like right now.
- No, you look-- you look good.
It's the small things with her.
The way she looks at me, the way she smiles,
how joyful I feel around her.
And I think it's because I can picture
so much of a future with Kelsey.
Would you like a house on the water?
- Yeah, I would.
- There's something about being by the beach,
it just makes me a happier person.
- Yeah, totally.
- So how about you?
- I live in New Orleans now, obviously.
- I know. - But--
- And I know you love it there. - And I love New Orleans.
I love all my friends there, and like, my family's close by.
- I was shocked how much I liked it.
I was like, wait.
I get it a little bit. - All right.
That's good to know, huh? - Yeah.
- [laughs]
- That went down.
- Cool. [laughs]
Yeah, but it's like a give and take, for sure.
- Always.
- Like, I think about, like, on your side,
I'm like, you know, how hard this is sometimes,
like, opening up or being, like, fully transparent.
I'm like, he has to do this...
again and again and again.
- Yeah, I know. I know. - And I'm just like, oh, my--
I just couldn't.
I can't imagine. - Yeah.
Well, I appreciate you being aware of it.
- Yeah.
- But with you, I want to tell you everything.
- Eee!
I want to hear everything,
so it's good to hear you say that.
I love Joey.
♪ ♪
What? - What?
- [laughs] You did it. - No.
I did it 'cause you just said it.
- No, I didn't-- - And you just said it.
- I just said it because I knew you were gonna.
- Uh-huh.
- But I am a little scared,
um, like, to say, you know,
that I love Joey to his face.
Um...
- What are you doing? - What do you want?
- [laughs]
Just the thought of the other women
and their relationships with Joey,
it's just a little scary.
And I just get in my head about it.
But at the end of the day, it's an engagement,
so it's like, you kind of have to lay it all out there,
you know.
Oh, my God. Like, it looks clear.
You can see the bottom. - Yeah.
It looks nice. We're in a little cove.
- Is that a stingray? - It actually is.
That is a stingray.
That's a turtle.
That looks a turtle. That's a turtle.
- That's a turtle! That's a turtle!
Oh, my gosh! You can see it's little fins!
- All right, we're gonna be with him in a second.
- Oh, my gosh! He's so cute!
- Have you ever swam with turtles before?
- No, never! - All right.
Today's the day.
- I don't know if I've ever met
someone like Joey.
I love him, and it feels insane.
I don't know, just to, like, feel all those emotions.
And I don't know if I've ever, like, said that
to anybody so fast, so...
it's scary putting yourself out there
and, like, not knowing what the outcome's gonna be.
- Three, two... both: One.
♪ ♪
- You good?
[laughs] Water in your mouth?
♪ ♪
- Oh, my God, there's a stingray right under us.
- Look at that. - Right there.
♪ ♪
[laughter]
♪ ♪
I'm really happy right now, and I feel like
the guard is down, for the most part.
So tonight, I possibly, potentially
could tell Joey that I love him.
And I think it is just very exciting,
but it is a little nerve-racking.
Leslie told me it could, you know, not be me.
So that is always gonna be a thought in my mind,
but I don't want this to end, because it feels so great.
♪ ♪
It's so magical.
[soft music]
♪ ♪
- Today was just so good.
I just was so happy to be there with Joey.
And whenever I'm with him, it's just so easy.
And I don't know, I'm just so happy.
Thank you.
- Mm-hmm.
- I really would like to share with Joey
how I'm feeling about him and that I love him.
But like, it is, like, scary, you know,
to think about my conversation with Leslie
and the fact that, like, I'm not guaranteed this.
If it's not me, then I would definitely be heartbroken.
I'm not gonna lie.
That is, like, a little terrifying.
I'm trying my best to just continue to be hopeful.
But you know, it is hard.
- I've been looking forward to tonight,
just to continue furthering our relationship,
having more conversations,
and just getting on the same page.
So cheers.
- Cheers.
Today went perfect to me.
Um, I had such a good time with you.
I don't know, when we hang out,
I'm just--I can't stop smiling.
I'm always having just the time of my life,
so thanks for that.
- Yeah. The conversations flow.
Everything just seems easy.
And since Ronda, and especially after Montreal,
I just think, like, the level of comfort has just--
it's been noticeable, yeah. - Yeah.
- And I feel it from how you are,
but just how I feel like I can be too.
- Mm-hmm. - And today, I just--
it was a day I didn't want to end,
and that's how it always is with you.
I just don't want it to end.
- Yeah, I agree.
I actually talked with Leslie.
- Oh, did you?
- She was on "The Golden"-- yeah.
- How was that?
- Um, she told me that after overnights,
she, like, literally thought
she had it in the bag, like, with Gerry.
And so she told me kind of, like, not to expect,
you know, and just always kind of be hopeful.
And I feel like that's how I've been going
into every Rose Ceremony.
I've never expected anything, but I've always been hopeful,
because I know how I feel about you,
and I just hope that, you know, you reciprocate
those feelings to me.
- It's a good thing to talk through,
though, 'cause it's hard. - Yeah. Yeah.
- 'Cause like you said, you want to expect,
or you want to, like, be so confident,
but you have to stay hopeful. - Mm-hmm.
- And I'll speak from my position with Charity.
Like, I thought it was me.
Like, I was 100% sure.
But--and just, I do feel like sometimes
that I struggle to be open
because I still have that fear
that it can be taken away. - Mm-hmm.
- Because the idea of how strong it feels,
and then it possibly being taken away
scares the [bleep] out of me.
And it makes me close down sometimes,
because I don't want to feel that feeling again,
of like, you fully choosing someone
and someone not choosing you.
♪ ♪
- I'm really sorry, you know,
that is, like, a thought in your mind.
- Mm-hmm.
- But I think that you're so amazing,
and I think that you deserve the world.
And I hope that you can, like, just continue
to, like, put yourself out there and, you know,
try your best to, you know,
just be vulnerable and open yourself up to it.
Because I think that at the end,
if it is, you know, meant to be,
like, it's gonna be the most amazing thing in the world,
so... - Yeah.
- I appreciate his honesty and that, like, vulnerability
of, you know, telling me the way that he felt
going through this on my side.
So I'm excited to be able to open up a little bit more,
like, to share how positive I am
in my feelings towards Joey.
He really makes me feel seen,
and like, I know that I want him to feel the same way.
Oh, I'm gonna get emotional.
Um...it's funny.
Like, I feel like it's so easy to open up
to my dad about these things, and he, I don't know,
just gave me, like, all the reassurance I needed
and told me how, like, happy he was to see us together.
And he told me about, like,
how it was whenever he met my mom,
and how he knew, like, pretty much immediately.
And he asked me, you know, like, how I felt about you,
and I told him that I loved you.
♪ ♪
But I want to tell you, like, I do.
I do love you, Joey. [laughs]
- Now you're just blurting that out, out of nowhere.
- I know, and it's crazy, like, just, like, talking to my dad
and, like, feeling all of that.
But it's like, I feel confident in saying it,
because that's how I feel.
And I'm just gonna be honest, like, with, you know,
all of this process and my emotions.
And it's honestly so exciting to say it.
I can't stop smiling.
♪ ♪
- It just feels amazing.
Like, my expectations for tonight was just hoping
that I would hear something about the word love.
And to know that she's not just falling,
but she knows she's in love--
I've been waiting for this forever.
I feel all the emotions,
and I want to be able to express them.
But it's just scary,
because I know with my first love,
as soon as I got to that point where I was so ready,
it was taken away.
I know it's gonna take a special type of person
to let me open up again,
and I'm feeling it with Kelsey,
which is why I'm trying to talk through it.
I have wanted to express to you where my feelings are at,
but like, I can be closed off sometimes.
I can hold back,
because they're scary feelings to share.
But I haven't had a doubt about how I've felt about you
for a very long time.
Like, I'm falling in love with you fully.
I've felt it for a while,
and I'm so excited about what can be
and what can happen between us.
And I don't want to hold it back anymore,
'cause it's hard in this position.
Sometimes you feel like you need to,
but I've wanted to say it to you for a while.
And to hear it now, I'm not waiting any longer.
I want to let you know that I am falling in love with you,
and I know how real it is.
♪ ♪
- Ah!
[laughs] Oh, my gosh.
I feel like I'm on top of the world right now.
I'm, like, all emotional, but I'm just so happy.
- It makes me happy to see you so happy.
- [laughing] Oh, my God.
I feel like my smile is just taking over.
I can't even say words.
Yeah, I'm just--I feel like I'm on top of the world
right now.
[sweeping music]
♪ ♪
It feels so great hearing those words from him,
and it's so magical.
And I was not expecting any of this,
but I'm so happy that all of this has been happening.
- I do have something...
- Oh, my God. - For you.
- It's hidden.
[laughs]
- I want you to read it.
♪ ♪
- Oh, my God. [laughs]
"Joey and Kelsey, may your day spent
"on the serene Caribbean Sea
"have etched a lasting memory of unity and happiness
"in your hearts.
"Should you choose to forgo your individual rooms,
"please use this key to stay together
in the Fantasy Suite."
I accept.
[laughs]
I am so happy.
That is an easy, easy yes.
I think maybe the easiest yes in my life.
♪ ♪
- Want to get out of here?
- Let's get out of here. - Let's go.
- I'm just excited to get time with him, you know?
Without everybody around, so...
And I'm feeling like I just can't wait
to just hang out with my boyfriend.
This is so beautiful. - Mm.
- I'm just so excited of what the night could bring us
and, like, how we can open up and, you know,
just really dive deeper into our relationship.
♪ ♪
Oh, my gosh.
It's crazy, like, to think that, you know--
how soon that engagement is.
But I can see me and him at the end of this,
and I think that life could be really great with him.
♪ ♪
- It feels really, really good to say
"I'm falling in love with you" to Kelsey,
because it's just been building,
and I've been waiting for this moment for a very long time,
to have this alone time with Kelsey.
♪ ♪
When I look into Kelsey's eyes, I feel like
I can truly see what my future is.
I can picture it.
It's really exciting.
[soft music]
♪ ♪
- All right.
What are we cooking first, bacon?
- Crispy, extra crispy.
- How hot do you make it for bacon?
- I just kinda wing it.
- Yeah, me too. Good answer.
- Waking up with Joey this morning
feels so natural and so right.
It feels like something that I could do
maybe for the rest of my life.
- There's nothing better than fresh bacon.
- No, you can literally move these.
- Stop it. - No, wait.
No, just look.
You could move it and make space.
Last night was the first time I was able to spend the night
and just have undivided time with Joey.
And it was nice to just see, like,
all the different sides of him
and just dive a little bit deeper into them all.
That one's perfect.
- OK.
Honestly, it doesn't look bad.
- I feel like everything just feels
so, like, pure and right with us.
I'm genuinely just, like, so happy right now.
Oh, my God, I'm gonna cry.
I don't know.
I'm just so happy.
- Oh, no. - You got it.
- Oh, no. - Commit, commit, commit.
JOEY: Oh, no.
It was horrible.
It was as bad as it could be.
- [laughs] What do--
- That's mine.
I'm eating that.
There's shells in there.
- [laughs] That was so--
- Stop laughing at me.
Waking up this morning, I feel like I can't stop smiling.
That was the most amount of time
I've ever gotten with Kelsey, and I just feel like
that alone time with Kelsey
was everything and more.
It's not hard to see what a future would be like,
because it seems so clear right now.
It's just indescribable.
♪ ♪
It just feels good to wake up this morning and look at you
and say confidently that I am falling in love with you.
And I know it's going to continue to build,
and I'm leaving very confident in everything
that we had from yesterday and last night.
And I'll hold onto what can be there until I say it 100%,
because that's what you deserve.
- I had those feelings of love,
and I didn't want to say it unless, like,
it felt natural, so I don't know.
Saying it just felt so great, and it felt like--
I don't know, a weight kind of lifted off of me,
because I feel like I've been holding it back.
But sometimes, I look at you and I just
want to say, you know, that I love you.
♪ ♪
It makes me so happy.
- It makes me so happy.
There was multiple moments where she just looked at me
and said, "I love you."
And like, I knew it was real.
She just expressed that she is in love with me,
not just falling in love with me,
and it was so great to hear.
It feels so right with Kelsey.
Everything fits.
I hope you feel as good as I feel leaving here today.
And I'm gonna miss you.
- I'm gonna miss you too.
I'm just gonna try and hold on to all the moments
that we had together
and keep those close to my heart.
- Good. - But I'll miss you.
I think that Joey is the man of my dreams.
I'm just so happy when I'm with him.
I can't stop smiling.
My cheeks hurt.
- See you soon. - See you soon.
♪ ♪
But Leslie told me I could literally,
you know, get my heart broken through all of this.
And I think that would be very devastating,
because I love him, and like, I don't want
to think about him with somebody else.
That's just a huge fear of mine,
and it is, like, a huge possibility at the same time.
There's still two other women, so I don't know.
It's scary to think about the comparison.
♪ ♪
[light music]
♪ ♪
- Later today is my Fantasy Suite with Joey.
This just means, like, everything's getting
really, really serious.
Obviously, I'm excited to spend time with Joey,
but right now, like, where my head space is,
I just feel like I'm, like--
I feel like it's not gonna be, like, the best me today,
because I'm really emotional today.
I keep feeling so deeply for him,
and it's just hard for me, being away this long.
It's weird.
It's different.
It's uncomfortable.
And I could really use some guidance right now
from someone who's been through, like,
love and heartbreak.
You know, that mom energy.
Hello. - Hello, Daisy.
- Hi, Sandra.
- Aren't you the cutest thing?
- I am talking to Sandra today from "The Golden Bachelor,"
and hopefully she can, like, give me a woman's perspective
about how to go into today.
- How are you feeling right now?
- I'm honestly really excited.
- OK.
- Obviously, like, I'm a bit nervous too.
But my date's today with Joey,
and then potentially going into Fantasy Suites.
- OK.
- I'll be really happy to be--
like, have that alone time with him.
- Yes. - And see, like, how it is
when it's, like, just us.
- Just the two of you. - Yeah.
- Where are your feelings for him right now?
- I told him I'm falling in love with him.
- Falling in love. - And I definitely am.
- OK.
- It's hard for me when I'm, like, away from him.
Then I think I get kind of in my head and confused,
'cause there are two other girls still.
But like, like, when I'm with him, I'm like, oh, my gosh.
Like, I'm--like, I'm, like, so in love with him.
- Right.
Has he expressed any particular feelings toward you?
- When I told him I was falling in love with him,
he told me that he feels the same way.
- "Feels the same way." - Yeah.
- OK.
- And then I, like, I didn't really know
what to expect coming into this,
because I lost my hearing,
so I hear with a cochlear implant.
- Uh-huh. - And for, like, the last
like, couple years, I was like,
who would want to be with me, like, with all of this?
- Aw. - It was always in the back
of my mind, and like,
I, like, opened up to him about all of it,
and he was so, like, understanding
and, like, receptive of it and, like, uplifting.
I don't know. It's honestly--
it's completely changed my life,
and I look at myself completely different because of it.
- Excellent, excellent.
- And then when I say that, I'm like, OK,
I'm so in love with him. - Yeah.
Keep those positive thoughts. - Yeah.
- You know?
Don't--just my advice.
Don't worry about the others. - Yeah.
- Because it's not even competition with them.
- OK. - It's the relationships
you develop with him, and him alone.
- With him. - They don't count.
- So just focus on that. - Yeah.
Be open. - OK.
- Be open and be--
and for the most part,
don't be afraid to talk with Joey.
Talk about your expectations, what's in your head,
how you feel. - Yeah.
- Have you expressed most of that to him?
- Mm-hmm. - Good.
- I probably could do better, like I said,
or I know I could do better.
But I've been really, like, trying to.
- Good. Good.
- So...
- But don't just talk with Joey.
Give it some oomph.
- Give it some oomph. - Right.
- OK.
- Maybe even make it, you know,
sexual oomph. - [laughing] Yeah.
- "I can't wait for us to start practicing making babies,"
or something like that.
I'm telling you, men like that kind of thing.
- OK. - OK? They really do.
Intimacy for men is different than it is for women.
- Yeah, OK.
- I'm just giving you an old lady advice.
- Yeah. - No, no. Excuse me.
Not old lady. Golden Lady.
- I love it. I need it. - OK, good.
- I do feel better. - Oh, good.
OK, well, at least you're laughing and smiling.
- Yeah.
- So why don't we toast to that?
- OK. - OK, let's do it.
- Let's do it.
- Daisy's falling in love.
Bless her heart, I think she's excited about that.
But then the little devil on her shoulder
creeped in and said, "Yes, but there are two other women."
And so the message I wanted to impart to her
was that she should talk about it,
because whatever happens between her and Joey,
I want Daisy to do it
from an intelligent, levelheaded perspective.
And maybe Joey will be impressed.
I hope that works.
You have such a beautiful smile and spirit.
- Thank you. - Yeah.
- That means a lot.
- Yeah.
- Sorry.
- Don't cry.
You look like you're about to tear up.
- I am.
- I feel like I'm talking to one of my daughters.
- [laughs] - Aw.
All right. I want a big hug.
- Thank you so much. - You're so welcome.
- Going into the talk with Sandra,
I was honestly, like, really emotional, very in my head.
And Sandra kind of flipped my perspective.
Literally, like, it changed my whole day
before I even see Joey.
- See you soon. - Sounds good.
Safe travels. - Thank you.
- Sandra brought me back to, like, OK,
this is what I'm feeling.
I am in love.
I just have to, like, be
super open about how I'm feeling
and just be present in the whole thing.
I'm still gonna be nervous, but I feel so much more ready,
and I can't wait to see what the rest of the day
has in store for us.
♪ ♪
I just want to, like, grab him.
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What are you waiting for?
Sign up to be on the next season
of "The Bachelorette" at abc.com/casting today.
[soft music]
♪ ♪
- Today is my Fantasy Suite date with Joey.
Obviously, it's been serious.
But now it's, like, super serious.
I'm definitely falling in love with him,
and I feel like that's why it's, like, scary
and why I'm probably being more emotional than normal.
So it's probably the biggest date of my life
I've probably ever been on.
- Hello.
- Today, I know I need to, like, be open and be myself.
- Hi.
And try to express myself to him.
Out in the wilderness.
So that's what I'm gonna try to do today.
Ah! [laughs]
And I'm feeling excited.
Hi.
♪ ♪
Good to see you.
- Great to see you. How are you doing?
- Good. How are you?
- Good. Are you excited?
- Yeah, I'm really excited. - Mm-hmm.
- You look good.
- You look great.
Mwah. All right.
Well, welcome to Tulum.
I've got a really fun day planned.
Do you got any idea what we're doing?
- OK, zip-lining?
- OK.
- Um, something in the water.
- OK. These are all guesses. - Yeah.
- Are you ready to figure out what we're doing?
- Yes. - OK, let's go.
- Wait. Actually, I have one more thing.
- What do you got?
♪ ♪
- Now I'm ready.
- OK.
Daisy always looks beautiful,
and she always brings something real.
The last thing she chose to tell me at Hometowns
was that she was falling in love with me,
and I pretty much word-vomited back,
saying I feel the same way.
But I wasn't able to say the words back.
We got a whole quad set up today.
- Oh! [laughs]
- Daisy always brings a fun side that I would
hope to find in my partner.
She has a sense of adventure, and that excites me.
You look good.
I don't even think we can kiss in these things.
- Can we?
- When I talk about her, I light up,
because I really get excited to see her
and to get more time with her.
She has made me feel that
something can continue to grow,
and we're both in the driver's seat today,
because we're both in a position where...
Are you ready? - I'm ready.
- We're trying to figure out
if this is gonna be right for us.
You good?
- So far, so good.
- Trust me a little bit?
- Yeah.
- You ready? - Oh, yeah.
[upbeat music]
♪ ♪
- First turn. We did it.
- Let's go!
Whoo! - You good?
- Yeah.
- All right, now we get to see how fast this thing is.
- Oh, that feels good, the breeze.
♪ ♪
- Yes!
- Having my arms wrapped around Joey,
ripping through the jungles of Tulum...
- Here we go. - Here we go. Whoo! Ah!
Got me feeling some type of way.
[laughs]
- Good? - Yeah.
- I love four-wheeling.
I love being outdoors,
and I like a little bit of adrenaline.
- I want it to be muddy.
- Oh, yeah. Let's get dirty.
- Right?
Oh, here we go.
Little bit of a splash.
♪ ♪
- Ah! - [laughs]
Found it.
- I feel like we're a lot alike, which is terrifying,
because I know that I'm crazy.
- You get a little dirt on you?
I tried my best.
- I'm having so much fun.
- Good.
[tense music]
- There's so much going on in my head.
♪ ♪
It's hard to think about the situation
that we're in, fully, sometimes,
especially after talking with Leslie this week.
She wishes that she would have had a little bit more
of a guard up at the end,
because she was thinking that it was gonna be her,
and then she did get her heart broken.
That's just a huge fear of mine.
There's still two other women, so it's scary,
the thought of it all ending.
It's not something that I would be able to handle.
[soft music]
- Joey's definitely someone that I'm so, like, sure of.
I've, like, never been so sure of someone in my life.
It's like, whenever I'm around him,
I feel like the only girl in the world.
I'm so intrigued by him too.
I'm so in love with him, and I just need
to let him know how I'm feeling.
- Want a little drink? - Yes.
- OK.
- I don't know exactly how he's feeling about us,
so I feel like it'll be really good for us to talk.
And hopefully, he can just open up some more.
- How have you been?
- I've been good. - Good.
- Like, I was so happy after my Hometown.
I feel like it honestly couldn't
have gone more perfect.
How do you feel about it?
- I felt great.
I felt like it was a day that we needed, and I don't know.
Your family's amazing.
I felt so invited. - Good.
- It just felt like I was part of the family,
which is a really good feeling to have.
- Yeah. Mm-hmm.
They, like, loved you. [laughs]
- Good.
- Yeah.
That makes me happy.
I don't know. I missed you.
- I missed you too. - I'm just getting used to,
like, the space in between.
- Yeah.
- I, like, get in my head about things.
All my feelings and all my emotions
are catching up to me, and so it's
kind of been a lot to take in.
Especially now, like, when I'm away from you,
I miss you so much.
And then I'm literally like-- I was, like, doing things
all week, and I was like, oh, I'm like, I wish Joey was here.
Like, this would be so fun.
And like, I want to tell you about things,
when I'm, like, doing it in the moment.
You know what I mean?
- Well, the good news is, we have all of today.
- Mm-hmm.
- A lot more tonight,
and I'm hopeful and excited.
- Yeah.
Me too.
♪ ♪
- Don't look at me like that. - Huh?
- I said, don't look at me like that.
- Like what? - Mm-hmm.
- [laughs]
Can you read my mind? - Mm-hmm.
- I honestly feel like you can--
- I can read your mind?
- Yeah.
- I feel like I do.
Daisy just has this way about her
that makes me feel understood.
She has this way that she looks at me.
It's like she looks through me.
When I'm with Daisy, there's nothing I can think about.
The way I feel when I kiss her, like,
she just makes me feel whole.
- And I miss the kisses too. - Mm-hmm.
I know I need to express that to her.
I still hold back on that, because it's
definitely scary to say.
But I can picture a future.
I don't know how I could think about anyone else but Daisy
in this moment.
You are a little sweaty, and we're definitely
a little dirty. - Mm-hmm.
- So I have one more little surprise,
if you're ready to get cleaned up.
- OK, let's do it.
Today has been so incredible.
And tonight, I definitely need to, like,
bring it to the next level
and be completely open with each other.
♪ ♪
Every time we're together, I feel like
we take another step.
And it's, like, continuously growing
and moving in the right way.
♪ ♪
And like, getting to just, like, spend all night together
could, like, move us forward in, like, a really good place.
♪ ♪
I'm, like, falling so in love with him, deeper and deeper.
And I--like, I don't want it to end, ever.
I always want him to be a part of my life.
♪ ♪
[thunder rumbling]
[soft music]
♪ ♪
- Today was so much fun.
I'm honestly hoping that tonight,
opening up and talking more and just being, like,
completely vulnerable about where I am and how I'm feeling
could, like, potentially help him open up
about kind of why he is the way he is
and what he's feeling.
Oh, my gosh. It's so pretty.
He has everything I would want in someone
that I'm going to spend forever with.
So I think for me, it's obvious I am in love.
I would love to know he's feeling the same way.
I'm trying not to get that nervous about tonight.
But of course, there's always gonna be nerves.
- Hi. - Hey.
- You look beautiful. - Thank you.
You look very handsome.
- Thank you.
So how are we feeling after today?
Any soreness?
Any--any--
- No, I feel--
- Any tiredness from the ATV?
- No, I feel good. - I feel good too.
- How about you? - No, I feel great.
I was just looking forward to seeing you again.
- Yeah, me too.
Honestly, it was one of my favorite days
of my life, ever. [laughs]
- I love to hear that.
- I feel like it's like there's never enough time,
I feel like. - Yeah.
It always feels like it kind of flies by.
- Yeah.
- What are you thinking about right now?
- I don't know.
I just get, like--
I get frustrated with myself.
- Why?
- Because I'm definitely a very emotional person.
- That's good to know, and I-- - Yeah.
- I don't think it's a bad thing.
- Yeah.
And I think at the beginning of this,
I was kind of like-- well, first of all,
I didn't know how this is gonna go.
- Yeah. You came in being like,
I don't even know if I'm gonna like this guy.
- [laughs]
- I hope he likes me.
There's so many things you were trying to figure out.
- So many things.
But--I forgot what I was saying.
- That's OK.
I cut you off like a jerk.
- But yeah, I just think even this morning...
[laughing] I was, like, crying to--
like, I kept, like, on and off crying to Sandra,
the "Golden Bachelor" lady, who I'd never met before.
And I was, like, crying to her, and I'm like--
honestly, when I'm with you, like, it feels, like, so good.
And then I think I start, like, overthinking it.
And I don't know if that's from, like,
my, like, past and everything,
and I'm trying to poke holes in it
and be like, what is, like...
- Wrong with it, or what can be wrong?
- Yeah, like, is there--
which, I'm like, why am I doing that?
Um...
- 'Cause it's hard.
'Cause it takes a level of trust.
It takes time.
- Yeah, definitely.
So I think with my last relationship,
it was great in some aspects, but it wasn't someone
that's emotionally, like, available to me.
And so I would get shut down if I would express myself.
Kind of like if I was feeling a way and I expressed it,
or if I was upset about something and I expressed it,
it was like, "You're overreacting."
- Mm.
- And I think you being so emotionally available,
I feel so, like, seen,
and like, I feel like I'm, like,
safe to open up and say how I'm feeling.
Um, but I've never really had that before,
so I'm trying to trust it,
'cause I've been shut down in the past, you know.
- Yeah. - It was always--
- You didn't feel like-- when you talked about it,
you felt, like, judged.
- Yeah.
- For me, that's taken time for me to, like,
accept and understand that all feelings are valid.
If you're feeling a certain type of way,
you shouldn't just, like, just handle it or deal with it.
I think it's important to, like, talk through it.
A relationship does have its up and downs,
and I sometimes worry if it can be as real
as it should be if we don't talk about
some of those insecurities.
And it took me meeting someone when
I was in Hawaii to teach me that
and kind of question a lot about myself.
- Mm-hmm.
- And that relationship, for me,
it was like the first time I questioned if I was really
a good person, because I didn't make her feel
as special as she wanted to feel.
And I got lost in it and lost my confidence
in being a good person, a good boyfriend.
And for me, I took a lot of steps back.
And I started to question if, like, I was ever enough,
um, if someone would ever choose me.
I have this, like, feeling deep down inside,
once I show, like, fully myself or every part of myself,
people don't fall in love with me,
or don't see something as great.
I always think, like, sometimes people fall in love
with the idea of me, because I'm very chill
from time to time, but there's, like,
a lot more to me,
and that takes time to uncover and see.
So I have insecurities, especially through
something like this, because I'm afraid
someone falls in love with the idea
of Joey as the Bachelor,
and not Joey as the person. - Yeah.
That's definitely a very valid fear,
someone not choosing you.
That always hurts.
- Yeah.
- And it never feels good.
Honestly, nothing hurts worse, I think, if you love somebody
and they don't choose you back.
- Yeah.
- That's a different kind of pain.
And I know that.
- It's true heartbreak.
- Yeah.
Mm-hmm.
♪ ♪
- You OK?
- Mm-hmm.
♪ ♪
- What?
- I don't know.
I'm just really thankful for you.
♪ ♪
I relate to Joey a lot.
We both want to be chosen, but we're both, like, scared.
He's shown me that it's OK to be vulnerable and sad,
and he's opening up parts of me that I forgot existed.
Falling in love with you is fun.
And I'm really excited to see where this is going to go.
And you've honestly changed my life
and how I look at myself,
and I will forever be so grateful for that.
♪ ♪
- I hope you understand how happy I am to hear that.
You're special, and I feel lucky
to have received what I have so far.
And I know there's so much more to uncover,
and you shared that you had real feelings
and that you were falling in love with me.
And I couldn't tell you how great it was to hear it.
I think I said that I feel the same way.
Um, regurgitated it, just like word vomit type thing,
because I have been holding back, 'cause I am scared.
And I'm hopeful that this will work out.
And I want to make sure when I say it,
it holds the correct amount of meaning,
and I say it correctly.
- Yeah.
- And...
I am falling in love with you,
and it has been building for a while.
It's not a doubt that it's there.
It's just how far it will grow,
and I felt all of this for a while.
It's just been some time coming
to be able to express correctly
and not saying stupid-- like, something like,
"I feel the same way."
- [laughs]
- So I apologize for that.
I want to make sure I do it correctly tonight.
♪ ♪
- I'm falling in love with Daisy.
It feels really, really good to say.
To hear that Daisy feels like I've changed her life,
that makes me feel so good.
For her to feel that way lets me know that
I'm doing something right.
It's real, and we just fit.
That's hard to ignore.
We've taken our biggest leaps when we let go of the fear.
There's less worry.
There's more trust.
- "Joey and Daisy, I hope your adventure
"in Tulum's lush jungle has brought you
"even closer together.
"Should you choose to forgo your individual rooms,
"please use this key to stay as a couple
in the Fantasy Suite."
♪ ♪
- So what do you think?
- I feel good.
Do you feel good?
- I feel great.
- Good.
- Well, should we get out of here?
- Yeah. - OK.
We can grab that, and we can go.
- Joey's falling in love with me,
and that makes me feel incredible.
This day has been full of emotions,
but really positive and really so beautiful.
It blows my mind.
- Oh, not bad.
- Not bad at all.
Joey and I are falling in love with each other,
and it makes me feel like...
[cork pops]
Ooh, that was good.
Everything that, like, we've gone through has been worth it,
and that this is all happening for a reason,
and everything fits together perfectly.
♪ ♪
I just can't wait to see what our future might hold.
♪ ♪
I feel like the happiest girl alive.
He's changing my life.
This alone time could be everything we need
to bring our relationship to the next level.
♪ ♪
[light music]
♪ ♪
- Feels good to wake up next to you.
- Yeah, it's really good waking up next to you.
- I'm really happy after last night.
- Me too.
♪ ♪
Waking up this morning, I feel great.
I feel happy.
I feel like nothing--
nothing will bring me down.
[laughs]
- It feels good to say that I'm falling in love with you.
It feels good to, like, be in that moment
and not overthink it.
- It does feel good.
I'm falling in love with you too.
- Mm-hmm.
What did you say last night?
- It does feel really good.
- That falling in love with you is fun.
- Yeah.
- I like that.
- We're in such a good spot.
And every time we're together,
like, both of our feelings just, like, grow and grow.
I mean, we're falling in love with each other.
And I am feeling super confident
and reassured and ready.
- Cheers to taking steps forward and not looking back
and staying confident on how we feel right now.
- Mm-hmm.
I like that.
♪ ♪
- This is all so difficult.
It's all so hard.
It's hard to think about the situation that we're in.
[tense music]
I left my overnights with Joey
so confident that it is me.
Now I think the thing is like,
I don't know how the other relationships compare to mine.
I don't know.
I can never, I guess, be certain
that it is gonna be me.
♪ ♪
I don't know.
I keep going back to what Leslie said.
I think that I just get in my head about it.
She, you know, had strong feelings for Gerry.
And obviously, that didn't happen for her,
and she was completely crushed and heartbroken.
♪ ♪
If it's not me, it's something I don't think
I could get over.
I would be devastated.
- I'll see you soon.
- See you soon.
♪ ♪
- After last night, with how everything went,
I think that if I would get down on one knee,
Daisy would say yes to me.
Bye. - Bye.
- I came in with fears that I would be able
to even have women fall in love with me,
and now I have three women here that
can't imagine a life without me.
I have zero doubts that one of these women
is going to make me the happiest man in the world.
So all my fears, my concerns, just kind of disappeared.
[ominous music]
- I don't know. Just, like,
my brain is just going all over the place.
I'm just, like, a lot right now.
There's something that I need to talk about with Joey.
[elevator bell dings]
♪ ♪
[knocking]
♪ ♪
I stopped by Joey's room,
and he wasn't there, so I left.
I think it's important,
because I made a promise to myself,
and also to him, that, you know, whenever there is
something that comes up in my mind,
that I need to share it with him.
♪ ♪
It's, like, a conversation that needs to be had
before going into the Rose Ceremony.
♪ ♪
[elevator bell dings]
♪ ♪
But it is, like, more pressing now than later.
[knocking]
♪ ♪
I don't want to blindside Joey, ever.
I just want to be honest, and I want to be able
to tell him everything that's on my mind.
I would rather leave now
than have my heart completely broken.
♪ ♪
[dramatic music]
- A card was put on my door from Kelsey.
It says, "We need to talk."
I don't understand what this is.
Don't--I just don't-- I don't understand it.
I'm confused.
I didn't expect to see a note on my door.
I don't know what's going on.
It could be bad things, could be good.
I don't know.
But usually, when someone writes, "We need to talk,"
it's scary, and you think it could be something went wrong.
And I don't understand what could have went wrong,
because I haven't said anything to her.
This would derail everything, if something's wrong,
if she needs to leave, or something happened.
I don't know.
[sighing] Oh, my God.
[sniffles]
♪ ♪
I don't want her to leave.
I want her to be here.
I want her to want to be here.
This is like my worst nightmare coming true.
I'm over giving everything I can
and feeling like they're not choosing me.
♪ ♪
- Next week on "The Bachelor"...
[cheers and applause]
Welcome to "The Women Tell All."
[cheers and applause]
All your favorite women
from the season return.
- You're really annoying.
No, no, no, don't roll your eyes, missy.
- I can't talk to her.
- Grow the [bleep] up, bitch!
- And they're ready to tell it like it is.
Does Lexi regret leaving Joey?
- I am just on a different timeline.
- That's...
- Did I make the right decision?
- [sniffles]
- Is Jenn still heartbroken?
- I just hope that I find someone
as special as him one day.
- And then there's Maria.
- "Bully" is a big word, OK?
- I said I-- - I also felt bullied as well.
- Just--you, I don't want to hear from.
- And what will Sydney have to say?
- I cannot sit there and let a mean girl
be a mean girl.
- How we doing, ladies?
- This is tough for me. - OK.
♪ ♪
- She's a vampire.
- Plus, that note from Kelsey.
- Do you wanna go talk?
- Yeah.
- What happens next?
- Kelsey...
- Joey. You OK?
- No.
- And then...
Joey's journey comes to an emotional conclusion.
- The way she looks at you is different.
- The reason why I doubt if someone's gonna say yes
has to do with what I still feel about myself.
There is still just a little glimmer of doubt,
because the last time I did this,
someone said no,
and I was heartbroken.
- How will it all end?
♪ ♪
- I didn't expect that at all.
♪ ♪
I can't think that's happened before.
[sighing] Oh, God.
- You think you know what happens?
Guess again.
♪ ♪
It's all coming up on "The Bachelor."