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[dramatic music]
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[owl hooting]
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- this week is fantasy suites,
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and I'm really excited
to get to know matt
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in a more intimate setting.
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I actually think I could really
get used to this.
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- You think so?
- Mm-hmm.
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[chuckling]
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♪ ♪
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oh, my god.
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[both laughing]
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[wind whistling]
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- I am in love with matt,
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and he's with another woman
right now.
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♪ ♪
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I'm going insane.
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I can't do this anymore.
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[crying]
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♪ ♪
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- a dramatic new episode
of "the bachelor"
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starts right now.
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[birds chirping]
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[soft music]
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♪ ♪
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- last week was awesome.
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Hometowns went so well.
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I told matt that I was falling
in love with him,
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and as much as it's scary,
it feels 100% right.
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With matt and I,
I feel like we do connect
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on every single level...
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♪ ♪
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and this is the week
of overnights.
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This is a week
where I get to really
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start to talk
about the details with matt
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of what life would look like,
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and I want to know
where his feelings are at.
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I am ready to spend
the rest of my life with matt,
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and I'm ready to tell him
that I'm ready.
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♪ ♪
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- what a journey
matt and I have been on.
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I don't think
I could've predicted
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how quickly and easily
I could...
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♪ ♪
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fall for someone.
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I mean, it's exciting,
because matt's
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such an amazing and incredible
and empathetic person,
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but it's also really hard.
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There are two other women
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that matt has really strong
connections with,
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so fantasy suites
are a really big deal.
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♪ ♪
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[upbeat music]
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- I just can't wait
to get that time with matt
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and tell him
that I'm so sure of this,
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and I'm so sure of him,
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and I just feel it
in every ounce of my being
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that he is who
I'm supposed to be with.
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It's scary, because, you know,
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I still have that chance
of losing him,
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but I do--
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I know I want it more
than anything I've ever wanted.
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♪ ♪
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- in the beginning,
it felt so far away...
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- Yeah.
- Which is kind of crazy,
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considering how close we are.
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Yeah, now it's, like,
envisioning myself
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being engaged
at the end of this.
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- Mm-hmm.
- Like, the hometown dates,
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we just learned so much
about each other in that day,
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and so, like,
at the end of the night,
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I know we all
had a really hard time,
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like, sending matt home
in the car after that,
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so it's kind of nice
that, like,
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those conversations
that happen at dinner
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get to carry into the night
as well.
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- Yeah, it's--it's a big deal.
I'm excited, though.
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- I am too.
- Mm-hmm.
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- Good morning.
- Hi.
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- Hi, chris.
- Good morning.
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- How you doing?
- Good. How are you?
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- Good.
- I'm good. Thanks.
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This is, uh--this
is really amazing and wild.
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The fact that we started
with 38--
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well, we didn't start with 38,
but we got to 38...
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[laughter]
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uh, and here we are,
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and so let's talk
about this week.
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Each of you will have
an amazing, romantic day
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and, yes, overnight dates.
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- Yeah.
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- You will each receive
a fantasy suite card
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where the two of you
will decide as a couple
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what you choose to do.
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You're gonna get
that off-camera time
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to have tough conversations,
to say whatever you wanna say,
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to figure out, really,
what does your life look like?
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Where would we live?
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What do you believe in?
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What--you know, kids.
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All this stuff.
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Use that time wisely,
um, as I know he will,
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'cause I know he's very serious
and very happy.
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So this is the first
overnight...Card right here,
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so I'll leave it with you.
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And I hope to see
all you ladies
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at the next rose ceremony.
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All: Thank you.
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[soft music]
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- date card comes,
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and I'm hoping
that I'm on this first one.
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Like, this is one of the most
important days for us, ever.
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I just can't wait to just have
that uninterrupted time
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to feel even closer to him
than I already do feel now.
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♪ ♪
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- michelle.
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"it's time to get even closer.
Matt."
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- [laughing]
yes.
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Ugh, I was totally
freaking out.
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I'm happy
that I get to go first.
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[clapping]
I'm so excited
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to go on this date.
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I have no idea
what we're doing.
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I'm super excited
that I get to see him today.
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♪ ♪
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when it's saying, like,
it's time to get even closer,
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I hope that's
the mindset he's in,
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'cause that's
the mindset I'm in.
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♪ ♪
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[birds chirping]
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[gentle music]
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- it's a big week,
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and I'm excited about
the overnights.
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I have three women
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that I could see myself
marrying...
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♪ ♪
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but, for me, I'm conflicted,
because one of the things
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that's been hard for me
in past relationships
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is going deep
and sharing who I am,
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what I'm about,
and what I've been through.
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I guard myself.
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When tough conversations
have come up,
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I ran from 'em,
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and there's still a lot of fear
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about what a long-term
commitment looks like,
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based on what I've seen
in my family in the past,
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and that's not healthy.
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[knocking at door]
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it's not fair to me,
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it's not fair to the women
that I'm pursuing,
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and so today's
a big day for me.
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For my relationships to move
forward with these women,
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there's a conversation
I need to have...
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♪ ♪
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and that's with my dad.
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[soft dramatic music]
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- what's going on?
- What's up, bruh?
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[both laughing]
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look at you.
- How you doing?
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- Good, man.
It's good to see you.
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- I think it's important
for me to have
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this conversation
with my dad today
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because I still have
a lot of fear
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about what commitment
looks like
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based on him
and my mom's relationship,
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and that's not something
I want to carry with me.
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- [chuckles]
- what do you think so far?
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- Wow. This is beautiful.
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- Harboring that negativity
in my life
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hasn't progressed
any of my relationships.
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It's hindered my growth,
and for me to move forward,
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I need to address those demons
in my life,
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and, hopefully, today is
the first step in doing that.
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- Well, it's nice to be here.
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- Yeah, it's good to see you.
- It's nice to see you.
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- It's been a minute.
- [laughs] yeah.
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It's been a great minute.
[chuckles]
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wow.
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You're doing well.
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- I'm trying to. It's hard.
- You're doing well.
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You've always done well.
[laughs]
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it's no...
I'm not worried about that.
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[laughing]
both: Yeah.
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- It's, uh...
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When I thought about,
uh, coming out here,
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there was just a lot of stuff
I was nervous about.
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Like, commitment
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and if it's something
I'm ready for.
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- I don't see you
having problems with that.
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- Yeah, no, it's--
- you're gonna--
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you're gonna--
you're gonna be great.
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- Thank you.
- Yeah, you will.
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- Yeah.
- Yeah.
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- It's, uh...
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[sighs]
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for me,
I want to have a family,
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and I want to be a dad,
I want to be a father...
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- Wonderful.
- And what that means to me
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is showing up,
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having tough conversations,
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being there,
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and I'm getting emotional
as I'm talking about it,
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because I'm thinking
about my life
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and--and the things that I
feel like I've missed out on,
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because I guard my heart
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and I guard my feelings
and emotions
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because of what
I've been through with you
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and what I've been through
with our family.
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- You--you can't do that.
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You gotta let that go
and just open up, matt.
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- Well, I think part of that,
for me,
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is having this conversation
with you,
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because it's not something that
we've talked about, you know?
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- Right, in a very long--
yeah, yeah, yeah.
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- And when I needed you,
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you weren't there
to have those conversations.
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You started other families.
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[soft uneasy music]
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that affected me...
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♪ ♪
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and I need to know
where your head was at
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so that I don't make those
same mistakes going forward.
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- I don't wish to make
that same mistake,
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'cause we never had
this conversation before.
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If you had came to me
in the past,
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I would've had
this conversation with you
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before this talk tonight.
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- Yeah, but th--
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- I mean,
I would've talked to you.
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- Yeah, but that's--
that's what--
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that's kind of
what I'm getting at.
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Like...
- Yeah.
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- There was never a time
to have that conversation
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because I needed it
when you weren't there.
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- I hate to stop you, though.
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I didn't have that either.
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♪ ♪
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my father was killed
when I was five, matt.
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♪ ♪
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so, yeah, I'ma take
some of that blame
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of me not showing up
as a father figure much
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as, supposedly,
it's supposed to be,
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but do you know
what I went through?
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You want me to tell you
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the reality
of what I went through?
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Do you know what I went through
with your mom
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when you guys were, like,
two or three?
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You want me to tell you
reality, bruh?
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I came home one day.
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Your mom and d--
your mom was gone, bruh.
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- For good reason.
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Who wants to be with someone
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who's not gonna
be faithful to 'em?
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- Nobody's perfect, son.
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Look around you in this world.
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Who's perfect?
I'm not perfect.
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You're not perfect yourself.
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- [scoffs]
258
00:09:52,359 --> 00:09:54,259
- you know, we make mistakes
in our life.
259
00:09:54,294 --> 00:09:55,760
We're gonna fall.
260
00:09:55,796 --> 00:09:57,195
It's how you get up.
261
00:09:57,230 --> 00:09:58,363
- Would you want your daughter
to be with someone
262
00:09:58,398 --> 00:10:00,765
who disrespected her
and cheated on her?
263
00:10:00,801 --> 00:10:01,433
- Yes--no,
I--I wouldn't want them to,
264
00:10:01,468 --> 00:10:02,600
but if there's--if there's--
265
00:10:02,603 --> 00:10:04,869
- dad, look at me, look at me.
Look at me, look at me.
266
00:10:04,905 --> 00:10:06,237
- Yes, yes, I would--you right.
267
00:10:06,273 --> 00:10:07,906
- You would want them
to be with someone like that?
268
00:10:07,941 --> 00:10:09,341
- It's not good to--yeah,
269
00:10:09,376 --> 00:10:10,508
it wasn't a good thing
that I was cheating.
270
00:10:10,544 --> 00:10:12,110
I'm not proud of it.
271
00:10:12,145 --> 00:10:13,178
- So why are you trying
to, like--I'm--we're--
272
00:10:13,213 --> 00:10:14,312
I'm trying to have
a real conversation with you.
273
00:10:14,348 --> 00:10:16,414
We don't--I'm not--I don't
want you to make excuses.
274
00:10:16,450 --> 00:10:18,817
I just want you to hear
where I'm coming from.
275
00:10:18,852 --> 00:10:21,052
You're talking about
mom leaving you.
276
00:10:21,088 --> 00:10:22,253
- Yes.
277
00:10:22,289 --> 00:10:25,924
- I thank god that
she had the courage
278
00:10:25,959 --> 00:10:27,025
to stand up for herself
and do something
279
00:10:27,060 --> 00:10:29,427
because of the situation
you put her in.
280
00:10:29,463 --> 00:10:32,397
♪ ♪
281
00:10:32,432 --> 00:10:34,799
- I'm not here to discuss me
and your mother's relationship
282
00:10:34,835 --> 00:10:36,167
and stuff like that.
283
00:10:36,203 --> 00:10:37,602
I'm here to celebrate
your success.
284
00:10:37,638 --> 00:10:38,937
- This isn't a celebration.
285
00:10:38,972 --> 00:10:40,772
This is a journey for me
that I'm going on,
286
00:10:40,807 --> 00:10:42,007
and--and for me
to get through it,
287
00:10:42,042 --> 00:10:43,408
I'm having to address
these demons
288
00:10:43,443 --> 00:10:45,910
that we're talking about
right now,
289
00:10:45,946 --> 00:10:47,278
and these are
the hard conversations
290
00:10:47,314 --> 00:10:48,380
that we haven't had
that I'm ready to have.
291
00:10:48,415 --> 00:10:49,981
♪ ♪
292
00:10:50,017 --> 00:10:51,616
that's--that's why
you're here, dad.
293
00:10:51,652 --> 00:10:52,917
If--if we wanted
to go celebrate,
294
00:10:52,953 --> 00:10:53,818
we'd go to chuck e. Cheese.
295
00:10:53,854 --> 00:10:55,687
I--I--I wanted you here
296
00:10:55,722 --> 00:10:58,256
because I want to have
a relationship with you
297
00:10:58,291 --> 00:10:59,758
going forward, and for me
to have that with you,
298
00:10:59,793 --> 00:11:01,192
you have to know where I'm at.
299
00:11:01,228 --> 00:11:07,932
♪ ♪
300
00:11:11,071 --> 00:11:12,103
frankly, I don't know
what I could--
301
00:11:12,139 --> 00:11:13,705
I could take away
from this conversation.
302
00:11:13,740 --> 00:11:16,174
It doesn't seem like
it's hitting home for him.
303
00:11:16,209 --> 00:11:17,942
♪ ♪
304
00:11:17,978 --> 00:11:20,278
I remember, growing up,
305
00:11:20,313 --> 00:11:23,581
he'd come around
every now and then,
306
00:11:23,617 --> 00:11:25,483
drop off some shoes,
307
00:11:25,519 --> 00:11:26,551
buy us pizza.
308
00:11:26,586 --> 00:11:28,486
♪ ♪
309
00:11:28,522 --> 00:11:31,556
[crying]
310
00:11:31,591 --> 00:11:34,426
♪ ♪
311
00:11:34,461 --> 00:11:36,261
[sighs]
312
00:11:36,296 --> 00:11:40,765
♪ ♪
313
00:11:40,801 --> 00:11:43,101
I didn't need shoes, man.
314
00:11:43,136 --> 00:11:44,869
[crying]
315
00:11:44,905 --> 00:11:47,605
I didn't need any shoes.
316
00:11:47,641 --> 00:11:50,308
I didn't need any pizza.
317
00:11:50,343 --> 00:11:52,210
I needed a dad.
318
00:11:52,245 --> 00:11:58,083
♪ ♪
319
00:11:58,118 --> 00:11:59,517
we've all been through a lot,
320
00:11:59,553 --> 00:12:02,320
and I get that
I don't know what it was like
321
00:12:02,355 --> 00:12:04,422
to grow up in africa
without a dad, like you did,
322
00:12:04,458 --> 00:12:07,025
but I know what it's like
to grow up here without a dad
323
00:12:07,060 --> 00:12:09,427
and a bunch of other stuff
324
00:12:09,463 --> 00:12:13,531
that hardens my heart
and closes me off,
325
00:12:13,567 --> 00:12:16,301
and I'm trying to address
all those things now
326
00:12:16,336 --> 00:12:17,535
so that when I get into
these relationships,
327
00:12:17,571 --> 00:12:21,906
it's not something that
rears its head down the road.
328
00:12:35,622 --> 00:12:37,789
- I agree with you, son,
329
00:12:37,824 --> 00:12:39,224
'cause you are...
330
00:12:41,428 --> 00:12:46,297
In a situation right now
where you have to make some...
331
00:12:46,333 --> 00:12:49,000
Life-lasting decisions about...
332
00:12:51,438 --> 00:12:53,538
Things that you never learned
from me.
333
00:12:53,573 --> 00:12:54,973
[exhales shakily]
334
00:12:58,612 --> 00:13:00,879
[cries softly]
335
00:13:04,017 --> 00:13:06,084
I'll try, matt.
I'll try.
336
00:13:11,825 --> 00:13:13,758
I'm sorry I hurt you, son.
337
00:13:13,794 --> 00:13:16,661
[soft music]
338
00:13:16,696 --> 00:13:17,595
♪ ♪
339
00:13:17,631 --> 00:13:19,063
- okay.
340
00:13:19,099 --> 00:13:20,799
♪ ♪
341
00:13:20,834 --> 00:13:24,669
needed to get--had to get
to this point to, uh...
342
00:13:24,704 --> 00:13:31,910
♪ ♪
343
00:13:37,117 --> 00:13:38,683
whatever I can do
to make it better,
344
00:13:38,718 --> 00:13:40,785
I'll work on it,
345
00:13:40,821 --> 00:13:42,554
'cause I want you to be happy,
too, for the rest of your life,
346
00:13:42,589 --> 00:13:43,621
and I want you to have
a relationship
347
00:13:43,657 --> 00:13:48,359
that's healthy and not like
what I went through.
348
00:13:48,395 --> 00:13:51,830
♪ ♪
349
00:13:51,865 --> 00:13:55,200
- [quietly]
thank you.
350
00:13:55,235 --> 00:13:57,769
- Just, I don't--
I don't like this.
351
00:13:57,804 --> 00:13:59,737
♪ ♪
352
00:13:59,773 --> 00:14:01,706
- me neither.
353
00:14:01,741 --> 00:14:05,376
- And I don't like it
that you far away from me.
354
00:14:05,412 --> 00:14:08,213
♪ ♪
355
00:14:08,248 --> 00:14:09,614
- I don't want it
to be like this either,
356
00:14:09,649 --> 00:14:13,418
and I want you to be a part
of any relationship I'm in
357
00:14:13,453 --> 00:14:15,954
going forward, and in my kids'
lives going forward,
358
00:14:15,989 --> 00:14:17,488
because you're my dad,
359
00:14:17,524 --> 00:14:21,693
and as much as I missed out
on our relationship,
360
00:14:21,728 --> 00:14:25,763
there's still a lot of life
for both of us to live, and...
361
00:14:25,799 --> 00:14:28,600
♪ ♪
362
00:14:28,635 --> 00:14:31,569
I forgive you.
363
00:14:31,605 --> 00:14:32,804
I'm not holding grudges
against those things.
364
00:14:32,839 --> 00:14:36,107
I just want us
to move forward and--
365
00:14:38,945 --> 00:14:39,944
- [kisses]
I love you, bruh.
366
00:14:39,980 --> 00:14:41,145
- I love you too.
367
00:14:43,617 --> 00:14:46,484
[gentle music]
368
00:14:46,519 --> 00:14:48,853
♪ ♪
369
00:14:48,889 --> 00:14:52,523
I haven't had a conversation
like that with my dad, ever.
370
00:14:52,559 --> 00:14:53,258
- [kisses]
371
00:14:53,293 --> 00:14:55,226
♪ ♪
372
00:14:55,262 --> 00:14:57,095
- still kick your ass
in soccer.
373
00:14:57,130 --> 00:14:58,997
- I don't think so.
- [laughs]
374
00:14:59,032 --> 00:15:00,331
- I'm still a beast.
375
00:15:00,367 --> 00:15:01,466
[both laughing]
376
00:15:01,501 --> 00:15:04,002
- he finally gets to this
point where he's like,
377
00:15:04,037 --> 00:15:05,069
"you know what? I'm sorry."
378
00:15:05,105 --> 00:15:07,171
but, um, like, it's not
379
00:15:07,207 --> 00:15:08,339
a one-time thing,
and it's fixed.
380
00:15:08,375 --> 00:15:09,641
- I love you.
- Love you too.
381
00:15:09,676 --> 00:15:11,209
- Yeah.
Doing great, man.
382
00:15:11,244 --> 00:15:12,543
I'm proud of you.
- Thank you.
383
00:15:12,579 --> 00:15:13,745
One conversation
isn't gonna change
384
00:15:13,780 --> 00:15:16,614
the way someone thinks
or feels about something.
385
00:15:16,650 --> 00:15:18,583
It's just gonna be
continued conversation,
386
00:15:18,618 --> 00:15:19,751
and that's what I felt like.
387
00:15:19,786 --> 00:15:22,954
This was a great starting
point for my dad and I.
388
00:15:22,989 --> 00:15:24,255
I love you, dad, and I--I--
389
00:15:24,291 --> 00:15:25,023
there's no hard feelings
for me.
390
00:15:25,058 --> 00:15:26,024
I just want you to--
391
00:15:26,059 --> 00:15:28,426
I just wanted you
to hear me out, you know?
392
00:15:28,461 --> 00:15:29,694
- Yeah,
393
00:15:29,729 --> 00:15:32,764
and you right about
everything you said.
394
00:15:32,799 --> 00:15:34,232
You completely right.
395
00:15:34,267 --> 00:15:37,235
- Moving forward,
it just confirms for me
396
00:15:37,270 --> 00:15:39,604
that I'm not the man
that my dad is,
397
00:15:39,639 --> 00:15:40,705
and just because I'm his son
398
00:15:40,740 --> 00:15:43,908
doesn't mean I have to follow
in his footsteps.
399
00:15:43,944 --> 00:15:46,244
I believe my person's here.
400
00:15:46,279 --> 00:15:49,447
I'm absolutely excited,
so right now,
401
00:15:49,482 --> 00:15:51,783
it's one-on-one overnights
this week.
402
00:15:51,818 --> 00:15:54,085
Can't wait.
403
00:15:56,656 --> 00:15:57,922
[thunder rumbling]
404
00:15:57,958 --> 00:16:00,758
[exciting music]
405
00:16:00,794 --> 00:16:04,095
♪ ♪
406
00:16:04,130 --> 00:16:06,130
- today's been a heavy day.
407
00:16:06,166 --> 00:16:08,399
I feel like I grew a lot
408
00:16:08,435 --> 00:16:10,335
after that conversation
with my dad.
409
00:16:10,370 --> 00:16:11,803
It was me
just reassuring myself
410
00:16:11,838 --> 00:16:12,904
that I'm not him,
411
00:16:12,939 --> 00:16:15,039
and I don't have to make
the mistakes he made,
412
00:16:15,075 --> 00:16:17,208
and we're different humans,
413
00:16:17,243 --> 00:16:19,177
and then here I am--
414
00:16:19,212 --> 00:16:20,678
the start
of fantasy suite week.
415
00:16:20,714 --> 00:16:21,746
♪ ♪
416
00:16:21,781 --> 00:16:25,416
this first overnight
hopefully puts to rest
417
00:16:25,452 --> 00:16:26,517
a lot of the insecurities
I had
418
00:16:26,553 --> 00:16:29,153
about what a long-term
commitment looks like.
419
00:16:29,189 --> 00:16:33,591
I am so excited about spending
this time with michelle.
420
00:16:33,626 --> 00:16:35,827
I feel strongly about her
and our relationship,
421
00:16:35,862 --> 00:16:38,963
especially coming off
meeting her family,
422
00:16:38,999 --> 00:16:41,099
and last week,
423
00:16:41,134 --> 00:16:43,034
michelle told me that she was
falling in love with me,
424
00:16:43,069 --> 00:16:44,035
so I'm just looking forward
425
00:16:44,070 --> 00:16:46,704
to picking up
where we left off last week.
426
00:16:46,740 --> 00:16:48,740
- Hello.
- Hi.
427
00:16:48,775 --> 00:16:50,341
You look great.
428
00:16:50,377 --> 00:16:52,343
- Your little rain jacket.
- [laughing]
429
00:16:54,547 --> 00:16:55,980
mm.
430
00:16:56,016 --> 00:16:58,149
- Hi.
- Hi.
431
00:17:00,220 --> 00:17:03,354
So last week, during hometowns,
432
00:17:03,390 --> 00:17:04,522
you introduced me
to your students,
433
00:17:04,557 --> 00:17:06,758
and I had a little glimpse...
- [chuckles]
434
00:17:06,793 --> 00:17:11,796
- at what goes into your life
and being a teacher
435
00:17:11,831 --> 00:17:12,697
and all the stress
436
00:17:12,732 --> 00:17:15,600
and personalities
you have to balance,
437
00:17:15,635 --> 00:17:20,538
and I thought to myself,
"what better way
438
00:17:20,573 --> 00:17:22,974
and who more deserving
of a spa day..."
439
00:17:23,009 --> 00:17:24,075
- [gasps]
- "than..."
440
00:17:24,110 --> 00:17:24,976
- yay.
- "michelle?"
441
00:17:25,011 --> 00:17:30,281
so this is gonna
be a traditional
442
00:17:30,316 --> 00:17:32,717
pennsylvania dutch spa day.
443
00:17:32,752 --> 00:17:34,085
- Okay, that--
- you know what that means?
444
00:17:34,120 --> 00:17:36,020
- No. That made me nervous.
445
00:17:36,056 --> 00:17:37,121
- Gonna be honest with you.
446
00:17:37,157 --> 00:17:38,389
I have no idea...
- All right.
447
00:17:38,425 --> 00:17:39,690
- What a pennsylvania dutch
spa day is,
448
00:17:39,726 --> 00:17:40,958
but I'm excited that
I'ma be doing it with you.
449
00:17:40,994 --> 00:17:44,362
- As long as it's with you,
I think we can handle it.
450
00:17:44,397 --> 00:17:45,396
- I'm optimistic.
- [laughing]
451
00:17:45,432 --> 00:17:47,532
- you know?
- I hope so too.
452
00:17:47,567 --> 00:17:49,500
It does not matter
what I'm doing with matt.
453
00:17:49,536 --> 00:17:52,203
I just want to be with him.
454
00:17:52,238 --> 00:17:53,671
This week is so important.
455
00:17:53,706 --> 00:17:55,006
This is a week
where we're able
456
00:17:55,041 --> 00:17:59,444
to take the next step
in our relationship.
457
00:17:59,479 --> 00:18:00,812
We're getting down
to that engagement,
458
00:18:00,847 --> 00:18:04,649
so this is the biggest date
I've ever been on,
459
00:18:04,684 --> 00:18:07,718
and I'm ready to get
even closer to matt today
460
00:18:07,754 --> 00:18:09,787
with whatever that means
we're doing.
461
00:18:09,823 --> 00:18:11,522
[laughs]
462
00:18:11,558 --> 00:18:12,957
wow.
463
00:18:12,992 --> 00:18:15,426
What is this?
464
00:18:17,097 --> 00:18:18,162
Is that milk?
465
00:18:18,198 --> 00:18:19,964
- I have no idea.
466
00:18:19,999 --> 00:18:21,132
[quirky music]
467
00:18:21,167 --> 00:18:23,334
- are you gonna taste it?
468
00:18:23,369 --> 00:18:24,268
- I'm not tasting it.
- Taste it.
469
00:18:24,304 --> 00:18:25,236
- [laughs]
I'm not tasting it.
470
00:18:25,271 --> 00:18:26,437
I don't know what it is.
471
00:18:26,473 --> 00:18:27,839
- Oh, wait, what is this?
472
00:18:27,874 --> 00:18:29,373
♪ ♪
473
00:18:29,409 --> 00:18:30,508
- I have no idea.
[laughs]
474
00:18:30,543 --> 00:18:32,877
♪ ♪
475
00:18:32,912 --> 00:18:34,112
- [laughing]
476
00:18:34,147 --> 00:18:35,346
- this is weird.
477
00:18:35,381 --> 00:18:36,914
There's a bear in the corner...
478
00:18:36,950 --> 00:18:38,483
[bear roars]
479
00:18:38,518 --> 00:18:40,818
a container--
looks like oatmeal,
480
00:18:40,854 --> 00:18:44,489
a massive tub full of this--
looks like milk.
481
00:18:44,524 --> 00:18:46,657
- Those white swim trunks.
[laughs]
482
00:18:46,693 --> 00:18:48,326
- but it looks relaxing,
you know?
483
00:18:48,361 --> 00:18:49,961
They got the candles lit.
It's warm.
484
00:18:49,996 --> 00:18:50,995
There's fur everywhere.
485
00:18:51,030 --> 00:18:53,831
It looks like michelle and I
are in for a day.
486
00:18:53,867 --> 00:18:55,099
[inhales deeply]
487
00:18:55,135 --> 00:18:57,301
- that's weird.
488
00:18:57,337 --> 00:19:00,371
[oatmeal squelching]
489
00:19:04,144 --> 00:19:05,810
- that sounds terrible.
490
00:19:05,845 --> 00:19:08,479
[both laughing]
491
00:19:09,983 --> 00:19:10,581
- it does smell good, though.
492
00:19:10,617 --> 00:19:11,482
- Doesn't it?
- Yeah.
493
00:19:11,518 --> 00:19:13,017
Do you think it's just oatmeal,
though?
494
00:19:13,052 --> 00:19:14,452
- I think so.
495
00:19:14,487 --> 00:19:15,586
- Thought you were
gonna taste it.
496
00:19:15,622 --> 00:19:16,888
- I am not tasting this.
497
00:19:16,923 --> 00:19:18,122
You won't.
498
00:19:18,158 --> 00:19:20,591
[romantic music]
499
00:19:20,627 --> 00:19:22,293
[laughing]
500
00:19:22,328 --> 00:19:23,761
I'm into it, you know?
501
00:19:23,796 --> 00:19:26,597
The pennsylvania dutch
experience.
502
00:19:26,633 --> 00:19:27,865
We're just enjoying
each other's company.
503
00:19:27,901 --> 00:19:30,101
- [gasps, laughs]
504
00:19:30,136 --> 00:19:30,801
- that's what I love
about michelle.
505
00:19:30,837 --> 00:19:31,869
She can make anything fun,
506
00:19:31,905 --> 00:19:34,639
and she's not afraid
to laugh at herself.
507
00:19:34,674 --> 00:19:36,073
- [laughs]
508
00:19:36,109 --> 00:19:38,543
- this is really good
for your skin.
509
00:19:38,578 --> 00:19:41,345
- I smell like a sugar cookie.
- [laughing]
510
00:19:41,381 --> 00:19:42,246
melt the butter down.
511
00:19:42,282 --> 00:19:44,081
Apply the butter.
512
00:19:44,117 --> 00:19:45,917
Oh, yeah, there it is.
513
00:19:45,952 --> 00:19:47,151
- That's just, like,
the release of the stress.
514
00:19:47,187 --> 00:19:48,352
- [laughing]
515
00:19:48,388 --> 00:19:52,857
- I made sure to cover
all of matt's surfaces.
516
00:19:52,892 --> 00:19:57,562
♪ ♪
517
00:19:57,597 --> 00:19:59,530
how do you not grow closer
518
00:19:59,566 --> 00:20:00,998
after smearing butter
over somebody?
519
00:20:01,034 --> 00:20:02,667
♪ ♪
520
00:20:02,702 --> 00:20:03,901
oh, gosh.
521
00:20:03,937 --> 00:20:06,470
I really feel like
matt is my person.
522
00:20:06,506 --> 00:20:08,339
We can be sitting
in a milk bath
523
00:20:08,374 --> 00:20:10,441
covered in butter,
524
00:20:10,476 --> 00:20:12,910
and it feels comfortable.
525
00:20:12,946 --> 00:20:13,878
♪ ♪
526
00:20:13,913 --> 00:20:15,279
perfect.
527
00:20:15,315 --> 00:20:17,014
Like, it feels like home.
528
00:20:17,050 --> 00:20:24,322
♪ ♪
529
00:20:29,329 --> 00:20:31,195
- what do you think
was the most...
530
00:20:31,231 --> 00:20:33,397
- Relaxing?
- Yeah.
531
00:20:33,433 --> 00:20:36,500
- Either the oatmeal
or the milk bath.
532
00:20:36,536 --> 00:20:37,501
- The milk bath?
- 'cause--yeah.
533
00:20:37,537 --> 00:20:39,637
'cause it--I don't know,
for, like, my muscles.
534
00:20:39,672 --> 00:20:41,572
I was significantly
more relaxed
535
00:20:41,608 --> 00:20:42,640
than I thought
I was going to be.
536
00:20:42,675 --> 00:20:43,708
- Yeah, no,
I enjoyed the oatmeal.
537
00:20:43,743 --> 00:20:44,875
- Yeah, you really liked
the oatmeal.
538
00:20:44,911 --> 00:20:46,143
I could tell.
- I loved the oatmeal.
539
00:20:46,179 --> 00:20:48,379
[both laugh]
540
00:20:48,414 --> 00:20:49,747
- how'd you feel
about last week?
541
00:20:49,782 --> 00:20:52,550
- [sighs]
last week was so special.
542
00:20:52,585 --> 00:20:55,353
I mean,
you being able to, like,
543
00:20:55,388 --> 00:20:56,921
see such a big part of my life
544
00:20:56,956 --> 00:21:01,759
with meeting my mom and my dad,
um...Yeah.
545
00:21:01,794 --> 00:21:03,995
My feelings definitely
grew a lot
546
00:21:04,030 --> 00:21:08,032
just because you were able
to see, like, who I am,
547
00:21:08,067 --> 00:21:10,034
where I came from,
548
00:21:10,069 --> 00:21:11,335
and so I'm really happy
549
00:21:11,371 --> 00:21:13,771
that you were able to meet
everybody that you did.
550
00:21:13,806 --> 00:21:15,740
- Me too.
- How did you feel about it?
551
00:21:15,775 --> 00:21:18,476
- I felt relaxed.
I felt comfortable.
552
00:21:18,511 --> 00:21:21,812
Um, the most comfortable,
probably, of anybody
553
00:21:21,848 --> 00:21:23,114
that I was introduced
to last week.
554
00:21:23,149 --> 00:21:24,181
- Really?
- Yeah.
555
00:21:24,217 --> 00:21:26,651
- Aw, that makes me happy.
- And it's--yeah, no,
556
00:21:26,686 --> 00:21:28,085
it's just a testament
to how you were raised
557
00:21:28,121 --> 00:21:29,220
and your family,
558
00:21:29,255 --> 00:21:32,623
and they just seem to be
so in love with each other...
559
00:21:32,659 --> 00:21:33,924
- Yeah.
- And, like, there's nothing
560
00:21:33,960 --> 00:21:35,426
that I feel like
either one of 'em wouldn't do
561
00:21:35,461 --> 00:21:37,695
for you or each other.
562
00:21:37,730 --> 00:21:40,197
- They really
talk through everything.
563
00:21:40,233 --> 00:21:44,468
Like, when we made decisions,
it was very much like a team...
564
00:21:44,504 --> 00:21:47,038
- Yeah.
- Feeling.
565
00:21:47,073 --> 00:21:48,639
It's so cool to see,
566
00:21:48,675 --> 00:21:51,242
because they will, like,
laugh together.
567
00:21:51,277 --> 00:21:53,778
Like, they get the giggles
and are laughing...
568
00:21:53,813 --> 00:21:56,113
- I saw it. Yeah.
- So hard together.
569
00:21:56,149 --> 00:21:57,181
Like, everyone talks
about, like,
570
00:21:57,216 --> 00:22:00,518
falling in love, falling
in love and being in love,
571
00:22:00,553 --> 00:22:02,753
and I think those are really
important conversations,
572
00:22:02,789 --> 00:22:04,455
but I think
it's also super important
573
00:22:04,490 --> 00:22:05,956
to talk about, like,
staying in love.
574
00:22:05,992 --> 00:22:08,459
Like, how do you plan
to stay in love?
575
00:22:08,494 --> 00:22:09,694
Because it does take work...
- Yeah.
576
00:22:09,729 --> 00:22:13,197
- And the type of love, like,
changes when things get hard
577
00:22:13,232 --> 00:22:17,435
or even when you have a family
or kids are involved in.
578
00:22:17,470 --> 00:22:18,836
You're exhausted, you're tired,
579
00:22:18,871 --> 00:22:20,905
and it might look
a little different,
580
00:22:20,940 --> 00:22:26,110
but, like, how are you
going to intentionally
581
00:22:26,145 --> 00:22:29,547
do small things to, like,
show the other person
582
00:22:29,582 --> 00:22:30,715
that you're still
thinking of 'em
583
00:22:30,750 --> 00:22:31,982
or that you haven't lost
that spark?
584
00:22:32,018 --> 00:22:33,784
And...Yeah.
585
00:22:33,820 --> 00:22:34,719
- I hadn't thought about it
like that.
586
00:22:34,754 --> 00:22:36,287
- Mm-hmm.
- I like that a lot.
587
00:22:36,322 --> 00:22:37,588
- Yeah.
- Staying in love.
588
00:22:37,623 --> 00:22:39,156
- Staying in love. Yeah.
589
00:22:39,192 --> 00:22:40,391
I don't know.
590
00:22:40,426 --> 00:22:41,459
I think, looking at my parents,
591
00:22:41,494 --> 00:22:44,161
like, I think I have
a good idea on how to do it.
592
00:22:44,197 --> 00:22:46,464
[both laughing]
593
00:22:46,499 --> 00:22:48,466
I feel like I do.
- Yeah.
594
00:22:48,501 --> 00:22:52,203
[romantic music]
595
00:22:52,238 --> 00:22:55,706
michelle's parents have been
married for 30-plus years.
596
00:22:55,742 --> 00:22:58,843
That's what I want for myself.
597
00:22:58,878 --> 00:23:00,444
I think about hopes
and dreams I have
598
00:23:00,480 --> 00:23:01,879
for the relationship
599
00:23:01,914 --> 00:23:03,247
I am gonna have
with my wife one day,
600
00:23:03,282 --> 00:23:06,117
and I see that in michelle
and our relationship,
601
00:23:06,152 --> 00:23:09,019
and that's what I'm thinking
about going into tonight.
602
00:23:09,055 --> 00:23:10,955
♪ ♪
603
00:23:10,990 --> 00:23:11,655
we're two people
that could be married,
604
00:23:11,691 --> 00:23:13,157
and we're two people
605
00:23:13,192 --> 00:23:14,492
that could spend
the rest of our life together.
606
00:23:14,527 --> 00:23:15,726
Tonight's huge for us.
607
00:23:15,762 --> 00:23:17,228
Michelle and I's relationship
608
00:23:17,263 --> 00:23:19,163
could change forever.
609
00:23:19,198 --> 00:23:20,898
♪ ♪
610
00:23:25,138 --> 00:23:28,005
[soft music]
611
00:23:28,040 --> 00:23:32,042
♪ ♪
612
00:23:32,078 --> 00:23:33,711
- I had a great day
with michelle.
613
00:23:33,746 --> 00:23:35,613
[sighs]
614
00:23:35,648 --> 00:23:39,650
our connection just took off.
615
00:23:39,685 --> 00:23:42,720
- Hello, there.
- Hi.
616
00:23:42,755 --> 00:23:44,255
How we doing?
- Good. You look nice.
617
00:23:44,290 --> 00:23:45,956
- You look incredible.
618
00:23:45,992 --> 00:23:47,858
♪ ♪
619
00:23:47,894 --> 00:23:48,859
every moment
I've spent with her,
620
00:23:48,895 --> 00:23:50,094
she's showing me
parts of her life,
621
00:23:50,129 --> 00:23:52,196
what life would look like
with her,
622
00:23:52,231 --> 00:23:53,998
and it's all things
that pull me closer.
623
00:23:54,033 --> 00:23:55,332
- Aww.
624
00:23:55,368 --> 00:23:57,435
- Tonight, I'm just gonna
continue to be open,
625
00:23:57,470 --> 00:24:01,105
be vulnerable, and tap into
my emotions and feelings,
626
00:24:01,140 --> 00:24:04,041
and I'm hoping that we touch on
as much as possible,
627
00:24:04,076 --> 00:24:06,477
but it could be scary
to share things with someone
628
00:24:06,512 --> 00:24:08,212
who you see a future with.
629
00:24:08,247 --> 00:24:10,314
[sighs]
630
00:24:10,349 --> 00:24:12,850
♪ ♪
631
00:24:12,885 --> 00:24:14,418
- I wanted to start by saying
632
00:24:14,454 --> 00:24:20,691
I hope that you know you can
talk to me about anything.
633
00:24:20,726 --> 00:24:24,128
It's super important
for me to know
634
00:24:24,163 --> 00:24:26,597
why you are the way you are,
you know?
635
00:24:26,632 --> 00:24:28,065
- How much time do you have?
636
00:24:28,100 --> 00:24:29,767
[both laughing]
637
00:24:29,802 --> 00:24:32,503
- as long as you'd like...
- [laughs]
638
00:24:32,538 --> 00:24:34,438
- for the rest of your life.
639
00:24:34,474 --> 00:24:36,507
- Um, you mean a lot to me,
640
00:24:36,542 --> 00:24:41,011
and if we're gonna be spending
the rest of our life together,
641
00:24:41,047 --> 00:24:42,746
I want you to know
everything about me...
642
00:24:42,782 --> 00:24:44,849
- Mm-hmm.
- And that starts
643
00:24:44,884 --> 00:24:47,084
with my family,
'cause those relationships
644
00:24:47,119 --> 00:24:49,119
form my views and shape me
into who I am...
645
00:24:49,155 --> 00:24:51,522
- Mm-hmm.
- For better or for worse,
646
00:24:51,557 --> 00:24:53,591
and I've been trying
to figure out
647
00:24:53,626 --> 00:24:55,192
why I'm the way I am,
648
00:24:55,228 --> 00:24:57,728
why I'm not
in a serious relationship,
649
00:24:57,763 --> 00:24:59,497
why I don't have a girlfriend.
650
00:24:59,532 --> 00:25:00,931
Like, wh--why--why?
651
00:25:00,967 --> 00:25:03,000
And as I get
to the root of that,
652
00:25:03,035 --> 00:25:05,069
it's a lot
of those insecurities
653
00:25:05,104 --> 00:25:07,338
that are rooted
in everything that happened
654
00:25:07,373 --> 00:25:09,206
with my dad and my mom.
655
00:25:09,242 --> 00:25:10,307
[tender music]
656
00:25:10,343 --> 00:25:11,475
[sighs]
657
00:25:11,511 --> 00:25:14,245
and when I thought about my mom
and dad's relationship,
658
00:25:14,280 --> 00:25:16,113
I think about...
659
00:25:16,148 --> 00:25:21,952
♪ ♪
660
00:25:21,988 --> 00:25:23,521
distrust,
661
00:25:23,556 --> 00:25:25,689
unfaithfulness,
662
00:25:25,725 --> 00:25:27,157
lack of communication,
663
00:25:27,193 --> 00:25:29,727
and it's something I wanted
to talk to him about,
664
00:25:29,762 --> 00:25:31,262
and I had that opportunity.
665
00:25:31,297 --> 00:25:35,766
Um, I just asked him
about his actions, you know?
666
00:25:35,801 --> 00:25:37,968
Like, he hurt my mom.
667
00:25:38,004 --> 00:25:41,639
But my point wasn't
to ream him out.
668
00:25:41,674 --> 00:25:43,173
- Right.
- It was to let him know
669
00:25:43,209 --> 00:25:48,746
that in spite of all
those things, like, here I am.
670
00:25:48,781 --> 00:25:49,914
Like, I'm ready
to make a decision,
671
00:25:49,949 --> 00:25:52,983
and I'm not gonna be...You.
672
00:25:53,019 --> 00:25:55,886
I wanna be the man he wasn't,
673
00:25:55,922 --> 00:25:59,623
and tying it back
to why I'm here
674
00:25:59,659 --> 00:26:02,259
and marriage and being engaged,
675
00:26:02,295 --> 00:26:05,262
I just wanted you to know
where I was coming from
676
00:26:05,298 --> 00:26:08,165
and, like, what I was working
on in my life
677
00:26:08,200 --> 00:26:09,366
so that I was ready
for the type of commitment
678
00:26:09,402 --> 00:26:11,936
that comes at the end of this,
so...
679
00:26:11,971 --> 00:26:13,404
- Well, thank you
for sharing that with me,
680
00:26:13,439 --> 00:26:16,340
and thank you for, like,
sharing that part of your heart
681
00:26:16,375 --> 00:26:19,143
with me even though
it was a painful one,
682
00:26:19,178 --> 00:26:22,947
and even though I grew up
in this, like, situation
683
00:26:22,982 --> 00:26:24,515
where I had a really good
example of love.
684
00:26:24,550 --> 00:26:29,053
I think you still bring
just as much to the table
685
00:26:29,088 --> 00:26:31,789
from having your example
of love that you saw,
686
00:26:31,824 --> 00:26:35,025
and for you to sit down
687
00:26:35,061 --> 00:26:36,493
and have that conversation
with him
688
00:26:36,529 --> 00:26:39,229
is just a huge step.
689
00:26:39,265 --> 00:26:43,400
- And the fact that you asked
and care about that
690
00:26:43,436 --> 00:26:44,735
means a lot.
691
00:26:44,770 --> 00:26:47,304
- Well, I'm here for you.
692
00:26:47,340 --> 00:26:50,174
I know what I feel
in my heart for you...
693
00:26:50,209 --> 00:26:52,042
♪ ♪
694
00:26:52,078 --> 00:26:52,943
[sighs]
695
00:26:52,979 --> 00:26:55,813
and it feels completely right,
696
00:26:55,848 --> 00:26:58,148
and it feels crazy saying that,
697
00:26:58,184 --> 00:27:01,552
but I do look at you
as my person
698
00:27:01,587 --> 00:27:02,586
and as that person
699
00:27:02,622 --> 00:27:05,422
that I want to spend
the rest of my life with,
700
00:27:05,458 --> 00:27:10,594
and so I want you to know
100% where I'm at,
701
00:27:10,630 --> 00:27:12,329
and that's where I'm at.
702
00:27:12,365 --> 00:27:18,969
♪ ♪
703
00:27:26,145 --> 00:27:27,745
[laughing]
704
00:27:27,780 --> 00:27:29,713
what a sneaky spot.
705
00:27:29,749 --> 00:27:31,281
- Can you read this for us?
706
00:27:31,317 --> 00:27:34,652
♪ ♪
707
00:27:34,687 --> 00:27:36,587
"michelle and matt,
708
00:27:36,622 --> 00:27:38,589
"I hope you've enjoyed your
relaxing day here at nemacolin.
709
00:27:38,624 --> 00:27:41,325
"you've had an incredible
journey to get to this point.
710
00:27:41,360 --> 00:27:43,560
"should you choose to forego
your individual rooms,
711
00:27:43,596 --> 00:27:47,665
"please use this key
to stay together as a couple.
712
00:27:47,700 --> 00:27:50,668
Chris harrison."
713
00:27:50,703 --> 00:27:52,936
I would love the opportunity
714
00:27:52,972 --> 00:27:55,105
to truly get to know each other
715
00:27:55,141 --> 00:27:58,275
and hopefully progress
our relationship,
716
00:27:58,310 --> 00:28:01,011
and I see it progressing
our relationship,
717
00:28:01,047 --> 00:28:06,216
and so I would love
to take that time with you.
718
00:28:06,252 --> 00:28:07,618
- What do you say
we get out of here?
719
00:28:07,653 --> 00:28:09,453
- Let's go.
720
00:28:09,488 --> 00:28:13,290
Being able to know
that I'm in love with matt,
721
00:28:13,325 --> 00:28:15,626
it's comforting,
because he is the one
722
00:28:15,661 --> 00:28:18,228
that I'm supposed to spend
the rest of my life with.
723
00:28:18,264 --> 00:28:19,930
♪ ♪
724
00:28:19,965 --> 00:28:21,565
I've known for a while,
anyways,
725
00:28:21,600 --> 00:28:23,867
of the ending that I want
to come out of this,
726
00:28:23,903 --> 00:28:28,505
which is hopefully a proposal,
and it's finally within reach.
727
00:28:28,541 --> 00:28:29,940
Beautiful.
728
00:28:29,975 --> 00:28:31,442
There's no question.
729
00:28:31,477 --> 00:28:32,710
There's no,
"well, maybe I need
730
00:28:32,745 --> 00:28:35,813
to explore this relationship,"
or, "I'm still deciding."
731
00:28:35,848 --> 00:28:37,247
[cork pops, ricochets]
732
00:28:37,283 --> 00:28:38,315
ooh.
[laughs]
733
00:28:38,350 --> 00:28:40,918
and so I want things
to be more intimate.
734
00:28:40,953 --> 00:28:42,086
I'm ready for things
to get serious.
735
00:28:42,121 --> 00:28:46,056
I'm ready to have those, like,
deep conversations.
736
00:28:46,092 --> 00:28:48,158
Tonight,
I want to be vulnerable
737
00:28:48,194 --> 00:28:50,294
and express
how I truly am feeling
738
00:28:50,329 --> 00:28:52,196
and where my feelings
exactly are at.
739
00:28:52,231 --> 00:28:53,197
♪ ♪
740
00:28:53,232 --> 00:28:54,398
I think this process
has really shown me
741
00:28:54,433 --> 00:28:58,469
that, like, if something's
on my heart or on my mind,
742
00:28:58,504 --> 00:29:02,106
to not hold onto that
and to actually say it,
743
00:29:02,141 --> 00:29:04,208
and...
744
00:29:04,243 --> 00:29:06,610
[exhales]
745
00:29:06,645 --> 00:29:08,479
it feels right to say it,
746
00:29:08,514 --> 00:29:10,547
so I'm gonna say it.
747
00:29:10,583 --> 00:29:12,683
[both laugh]
748
00:29:12,718 --> 00:29:14,518
I love you, matt.
749
00:29:14,553 --> 00:29:17,354
[sweeping music]
750
00:29:17,389 --> 00:29:19,356
♪ ♪
751
00:29:19,391 --> 00:29:20,491
wow.
752
00:29:20,526 --> 00:29:23,660
To be able to tell matt
that I'm in love with him
753
00:29:23,696 --> 00:29:25,729
was such a relief.
754
00:29:25,765 --> 00:29:26,697
Like, this is happening.
755
00:29:26,732 --> 00:29:28,565
♪ ♪
756
00:29:28,601 --> 00:29:30,467
[laughs]
757
00:29:30,503 --> 00:29:37,207
♪ ♪
758
00:29:39,345 --> 00:29:41,278
- all of the weeks
put together
759
00:29:41,313 --> 00:29:43,480
don't feel as hard
as this week,
760
00:29:43,516 --> 00:29:46,450
and then the fact that
he is with michelle right now,
761
00:29:46,485 --> 00:29:49,253
like, it's just driving me
absolutely insane.
762
00:29:49,288 --> 00:29:50,521
- Mm-hmm.
- And they're getting ready
763
00:29:50,556 --> 00:29:53,824
to go spend
that night together.
764
00:29:53,859 --> 00:29:55,392
[uneasy music]
765
00:29:55,427 --> 00:29:56,426
- oh, wow.
766
00:29:56,462 --> 00:30:02,833
♪ ♪
767
00:30:02,868 --> 00:30:06,503
- like, it's actually...
[inhales deeply]
768
00:30:06,539 --> 00:30:07,671
like, happening.
769
00:30:07,706 --> 00:30:10,107
- [exhales heavily]
770
00:30:10,142 --> 00:30:14,645
- I am in love with matt,
771
00:30:14,680 --> 00:30:16,780
and he's with another woman
right now.
772
00:30:16,816 --> 00:30:20,450
My heart...
773
00:30:20,486 --> 00:30:21,752
Is gonna explode.
774
00:30:21,787 --> 00:30:24,588
[dramatic music]
775
00:30:24,623 --> 00:30:27,391
♪ ♪
776
00:30:27,426 --> 00:30:29,193
I don't wanna think about it,
777
00:30:29,228 --> 00:30:30,661
but it's all
I can think about.
778
00:30:30,696 --> 00:30:32,696
♪ ♪
779
00:30:32,731 --> 00:30:35,399
I'm going insane.
780
00:30:35,434 --> 00:30:39,069
[sighing]
781
00:30:39,104 --> 00:30:41,471
my worst nightmare is, like,
782
00:30:41,507 --> 00:30:45,475
him spending the night
with someone else.
783
00:30:45,511 --> 00:30:52,216
♪ ♪
784
00:30:54,553 --> 00:30:55,652
[birds chirping]
785
00:30:55,688 --> 00:30:58,488
[soft music]
786
00:30:58,524 --> 00:31:03,360
♪ ♪
787
00:31:03,395 --> 00:31:04,995
- [grunts]
788
00:31:05,030 --> 00:31:06,797
[whispering]
on a scale of one to ten,
789
00:31:06,832 --> 00:31:08,031
how happy are you right now?
790
00:31:08,067 --> 00:31:09,666
- [whispers]
11.
791
00:31:09,702 --> 00:31:12,236
- Yeah?
- Yeah.
792
00:31:12,271 --> 00:31:15,906
- I woke up feeling
incredibly happy.
793
00:31:15,941 --> 00:31:17,274
Matt's laying next to me.
794
00:31:17,309 --> 00:31:19,443
That's...
[breathes deeply]
795
00:31:19,478 --> 00:31:21,311
[sighs]
yeah.
796
00:31:21,347 --> 00:31:25,382
♪ ♪
797
00:31:25,417 --> 00:31:27,551
felt like something
that I could get used to.
798
00:31:27,586 --> 00:31:29,553
I'm really happy
that I got to tell you
799
00:31:29,588 --> 00:31:33,657
what was on my heart yesterday,
and...
800
00:31:33,692 --> 00:31:37,728
I love that I get to tell you
that I'm in love with you.
801
00:31:37,763 --> 00:31:41,331
- And thank you for sharing
that, again, with me.
802
00:31:41,367 --> 00:31:43,667
- Thank you for responding
like you did.
803
00:31:43,702 --> 00:31:46,904
♪ ♪
804
00:31:46,939 --> 00:31:49,273
I am in love with matt,
805
00:31:49,308 --> 00:31:53,644
and thinking about
an engagement with him
806
00:31:53,679 --> 00:31:54,978
does not scare me.
807
00:31:55,014 --> 00:31:58,248
- What do you think?
808
00:31:58,284 --> 00:32:01,151
- I could get used
to mornings like this.
809
00:32:01,186 --> 00:32:03,587
What scares me is the feeling
810
00:32:03,622 --> 00:32:07,925
of knowing that you don't want
to spend the rest of your life
811
00:32:07,960 --> 00:32:10,160
without that person,
812
00:32:10,195 --> 00:32:14,298
and so I'm hoping that matt
813
00:32:14,333 --> 00:32:16,500
feels the same things
that I am.
814
00:32:16,535 --> 00:32:24,508
♪ ♪
815
00:32:24,543 --> 00:32:26,643
I'm happy where we're at.
- Me too.
816
00:32:26,679 --> 00:32:29,579
- I'm happy where we're headed.
- Me too.
817
00:32:29,615 --> 00:32:30,681
- I love you.
818
00:32:30,716 --> 00:32:33,717
♪ ♪
819
00:32:33,752 --> 00:32:36,853
[exhales]
820
00:32:36,889 --> 00:32:39,189
- waking up next to michelle
this morning,
821
00:32:39,224 --> 00:32:42,025
it's not hard
to see a life with her.
822
00:32:42,061 --> 00:32:44,027
It just works.
823
00:32:44,063 --> 00:32:45,629
She's an amazing woman,
824
00:32:45,664 --> 00:32:48,398
and where we went last night
was incredible.
825
00:32:48,434 --> 00:32:52,502
♪ ♪
826
00:32:52,538 --> 00:32:53,670
michelle!
827
00:32:53,706 --> 00:32:56,873
♪ ♪
828
00:32:56,909 --> 00:32:57,941
it's almost unfair
829
00:32:57,977 --> 00:33:02,279
just having this type
of experience off the bat.
830
00:33:02,314 --> 00:33:03,780
It just sets the bar
at a place
831
00:33:03,816 --> 00:33:05,816
that is gonna be tough
to beat, you know?
832
00:33:05,851 --> 00:33:09,586
Because the way that we
interact with one another
833
00:33:09,621 --> 00:33:13,857
and how we connect,
it's special.
834
00:33:13,892 --> 00:33:15,792
She could be my wife.
835
00:33:15,828 --> 00:33:23,000
♪ ♪
836
00:33:29,241 --> 00:33:32,275
- last night,
I got so nauseous.
837
00:33:32,311 --> 00:33:33,477
Just the thought
of literally...
838
00:33:33,512 --> 00:33:34,611
- Mm-hmm.
839
00:33:34,646 --> 00:33:38,548
- Like, him being in bed
with someone else,
840
00:33:38,584 --> 00:33:39,916
that made me
sick to my stomach.
841
00:33:39,952 --> 00:33:42,152
- Oh, my god.
842
00:33:42,187 --> 00:33:43,520
- That's how I felt last night.
843
00:33:44,823 --> 00:33:47,090
And then, of course, yeah,
that was the first thing
844
00:33:47,126 --> 00:33:48,725
I thought about this morning.
845
00:33:48,761 --> 00:33:50,127
- Hi.
- Hello.
846
00:33:51,864 --> 00:33:52,929
- What's up?
847
00:33:52,965 --> 00:33:54,498
- [sighs]
how are you guys doing?
848
00:33:54,533 --> 00:33:56,066
- [laughing]
we're not okay.
849
00:33:56,101 --> 00:33:58,135
- [laughing]
- no?
850
00:33:58,170 --> 00:34:00,737
- No. How are you?
851
00:34:00,773 --> 00:34:03,173
- I'm good.
852
00:34:03,208 --> 00:34:04,508
What'd you guys do?
853
00:34:04,543 --> 00:34:06,276
- [laughs]
we went to the spa...
854
00:34:08,680 --> 00:34:11,748
And it was, like,
a pennsylvania-inspired spa,
855
00:34:11,784 --> 00:34:17,220
so we, um, bathed each other
in sticks of butter...
856
00:34:19,124 --> 00:34:20,390
And took a milk bath.
857
00:34:20,426 --> 00:34:21,591
[laughs]
858
00:34:21,627 --> 00:34:24,327
so it was not
like the normal spa day...
859
00:34:24,363 --> 00:34:25,695
- A regular spa.
- But yeah.
860
00:34:25,731 --> 00:34:29,199
But it was...Memorable.
861
00:34:29,234 --> 00:34:31,001
So...
- Yeah.
862
00:34:31,036 --> 00:34:32,602
- It was good.
- Yeah.
863
00:34:32,638 --> 00:34:33,870
- You guys
are gonna really enjoy
864
00:34:33,906 --> 00:34:35,005
just, like, the time
that you get with matt
865
00:34:35,040 --> 00:34:37,974
and, like, the time
that you get to have, like,
866
00:34:38,010 --> 00:34:42,045
conversations and conversations
and conversations, and so...
867
00:34:42,081 --> 00:34:45,482
Yeah, that's what I wanted
going into the night,
868
00:34:45,517 --> 00:34:47,317
and that's
what I got out of it,
869
00:34:47,352 --> 00:34:48,552
and so I was really happy
about it.
870
00:34:52,825 --> 00:34:55,425
- [sighs]
871
00:34:55,461 --> 00:34:57,127
- how are--
you guys are struggling.
872
00:34:57,162 --> 00:34:59,696
I can see that.
873
00:34:59,731 --> 00:35:00,897
- Yeah.
874
00:35:00,933 --> 00:35:03,133
[uneasy music]
875
00:35:03,168 --> 00:35:05,969
- [breathes deeply]
876
00:35:06,004 --> 00:35:13,810
♪ ♪
877
00:35:13,846 --> 00:35:17,614
- I am having a tug-of-war
with myself
878
00:35:17,649 --> 00:35:20,851
between being really excited
to see matt
879
00:35:20,886 --> 00:35:23,820
and also just being
extremely frustrated...
880
00:35:23,856 --> 00:35:25,088
- [sighs]
881
00:35:25,124 --> 00:35:26,923
- with the situation,
882
00:35:26,959 --> 00:35:28,959
and I don't really know
883
00:35:28,994 --> 00:35:31,995
how to work through
both of those emotions.
884
00:35:32,030 --> 00:35:34,664
[sighs heavily]
885
00:35:34,700 --> 00:35:36,800
♪ ♪
886
00:35:36,835 --> 00:35:38,568
- this is awful.
887
00:35:38,604 --> 00:35:40,637
- Mm-hmm.
888
00:35:40,672 --> 00:35:42,172
- I'm battling
between being jealous,
889
00:35:42,207 --> 00:35:47,177
and I'm battling between being
hurt and excited and happy
890
00:35:47,212 --> 00:35:49,079
and in love and...
891
00:35:49,114 --> 00:35:51,715
♪ ♪
892
00:35:51,750 --> 00:35:55,585
I'm gonna go get ready
for my date.
893
00:35:55,621 --> 00:35:58,788
♪ ♪
894
00:35:58,824 --> 00:36:00,056
- bye, bri.
895
00:36:00,092 --> 00:36:03,994
- I mean, last week,
I was given the last rose,
896
00:36:04,029 --> 00:36:07,831
and so it's hard for me
to not question
897
00:36:07,866 --> 00:36:10,500
if my relationship with him
is enough,
898
00:36:10,536 --> 00:36:12,702
and that's--that's hard.
899
00:36:12,738 --> 00:36:15,972
♪ ♪
900
00:36:16,008 --> 00:36:18,909
I feel like there's
more pressure on this date
901
00:36:18,944 --> 00:36:21,845
than there's ever been
on any date, ever.
902
00:36:21,880 --> 00:36:23,046
♪ ♪
903
00:36:23,081 --> 00:36:27,984
I have no idea how I'm going
to keep my [bleep] together.
904
00:36:28,020 --> 00:36:30,320
[sighs]
905
00:36:33,158 --> 00:36:36,026
[relaxed music]
906
00:36:36,061 --> 00:36:43,033
♪ ♪
907
00:36:43,068 --> 00:36:46,069
- I am very excited
to see matt today.
908
00:36:46,104 --> 00:36:47,871
Obviously,
today is not just any date.
909
00:36:47,906 --> 00:36:50,807
It's our overnight date today.
910
00:36:50,842 --> 00:36:53,577
After getting the third rose
last week,
911
00:36:53,612 --> 00:36:55,545
I definitely was in my head
912
00:36:55,581 --> 00:36:57,881
about where
our relationship stood,
913
00:36:57,916 --> 00:37:00,150
but given how important
this week is,
914
00:37:00,185 --> 00:37:02,752
now is my time
to continue to show matt
915
00:37:02,788 --> 00:37:04,254
that I am falling in love
with him,
916
00:37:04,289 --> 00:37:08,325
and I'm hoping for it to be
917
00:37:08,360 --> 00:37:10,927
a life-changing day today.
918
00:37:10,963 --> 00:37:12,429
♪ ♪
919
00:37:12,464 --> 00:37:13,630
but there is a lot of pressure
on it.
920
00:37:13,665 --> 00:37:14,698
[laughs]
921
00:37:14,733 --> 00:37:16,533
♪ ♪
922
00:37:16,568 --> 00:37:18,768
- mm.
[kisses]
923
00:37:18,804 --> 00:37:19,636
hi.
924
00:37:21,506 --> 00:37:24,107
- What are we gonna do today?
925
00:37:24,142 --> 00:37:24,708
- Not so fast.
926
00:37:24,743 --> 00:37:27,310
[both laughing]
927
00:37:27,346 --> 00:37:28,812
welcome to the outdoors.
928
00:37:28,847 --> 00:37:30,380
- You know I love the outdoors.
929
00:37:30,415 --> 00:37:31,314
- What's the most
amount of time
930
00:37:31,350 --> 00:37:32,515
you've spent in the woods?
931
00:37:32,551 --> 00:37:34,217
- Um, probably
this entire time.
932
00:37:34,253 --> 00:37:34,751
- Really?
- [laughing]
933
00:37:34,786 --> 00:37:35,819
- good.
934
00:37:35,854 --> 00:37:39,155
So we are going to be hiking
through the woods...
935
00:37:39,191 --> 00:37:40,490
- Uh-huh.
936
00:37:40,525 --> 00:37:42,158
- And I've got sleeping bags.
937
00:37:42,194 --> 00:37:45,028
I've got all the different
tools that we'll need
938
00:37:45,063 --> 00:37:47,497
to navigate our trail today.
- [laughing]
939
00:37:47,532 --> 00:37:50,433
okay. A little nervous.
940
00:37:50,469 --> 00:37:52,836
Looks like we're going camping.
941
00:37:52,871 --> 00:37:56,139
- Today, I get to spend
the entire day with bri,
942
00:37:56,174 --> 00:37:57,307
and I'm very excited.
943
00:37:57,342 --> 00:37:58,675
This is your backpack.
944
00:37:58,710 --> 00:38:00,277
- The lightest one?
- Yes.
945
00:38:00,312 --> 00:38:02,445
- Oh!
- [laughs]
946
00:38:02,481 --> 00:38:04,814
today is huge for bri and I.
947
00:38:04,850 --> 00:38:06,383
We're a few days away
from an engagement...
948
00:38:06,418 --> 00:38:08,251
- Hey, these are cute.
949
00:38:08,287 --> 00:38:09,619
- And she's already told me
950
00:38:09,655 --> 00:38:11,588
that she's falling
in love with me.
951
00:38:11,623 --> 00:38:13,490
It's exciting,
but it's also scary.
952
00:38:13,525 --> 00:38:15,458
- Oh, god.
Here we go.
953
00:38:15,494 --> 00:38:16,893
- You look like
dora the explorer.
954
00:38:16,928 --> 00:38:21,131
[both laughing]
955
00:38:21,166 --> 00:38:22,065
- well, what do you look like?
956
00:38:22,100 --> 00:38:25,769
- I look like a park ranger.
- [laughing]
957
00:38:25,804 --> 00:38:27,337
- any time I spend with bri
is incredible.
958
00:38:27,372 --> 00:38:28,705
Watch out for this river.
959
00:38:28,740 --> 00:38:30,273
- [gasps] ooh.
- [laughing]
960
00:38:30,309 --> 00:38:32,175
and what's important to me
right now is our relationship
961
00:38:32,210 --> 00:38:36,513
and how much
these next hours, days, mean
962
00:38:36,548 --> 00:38:38,181
in my life and in bri's life.
963
00:38:38,216 --> 00:38:40,850
And when you're walking,
make sure that you're putting--
964
00:38:40,886 --> 00:38:42,385
because there's snakes
out here,
965
00:38:42,421 --> 00:38:43,987
so you don't wanna step on one.
966
00:38:44,022 --> 00:38:45,388
- I don't know if snakes
live in pennsylvania.
967
00:38:45,424 --> 00:38:46,389
- [laughing]
I promise
968
00:38:46,425 --> 00:38:47,791
there are snakes out here.
969
00:38:47,826 --> 00:38:50,160
- For real?
- Yeah, big ones.
970
00:38:50,195 --> 00:38:51,628
[upbeat music]
971
00:38:51,663 --> 00:38:52,862
- are we going
the right way still?
972
00:38:52,898 --> 00:38:54,097
- Hold on.
973
00:38:54,132 --> 00:38:55,932
- [laughing]
974
00:38:55,967 --> 00:38:57,701
- I'm sure the last thing
that bri wanted to do
975
00:38:57,736 --> 00:38:58,935
was be out in the woods...
976
00:38:58,970 --> 00:39:00,270
All right, we're supposed
to be going this way.
977
00:39:00,305 --> 00:39:01,471
- Mm-hmm.
Okay. Okay.
978
00:39:01,506 --> 00:39:03,039
- But the truth is,
979
00:39:03,075 --> 00:39:05,608
I'm not letting her in
on the secret that
980
00:39:05,644 --> 00:39:07,110
I've never been camping
in the woods.
981
00:39:07,145 --> 00:39:09,245
[sighs]
we've landed.
982
00:39:09,281 --> 00:39:10,714
- [sighs]
983
00:39:10,749 --> 00:39:12,349
- this is base camp...
- Okay.
984
00:39:12,384 --> 00:39:14,918
- And the first thing
we should do is pitch our tent.
985
00:39:14,953 --> 00:39:16,052
- Okay.
986
00:39:16,088 --> 00:39:17,354
- I'll help you.
987
00:39:17,389 --> 00:39:18,488
- Strapped me in
all the way.
988
00:39:20,726 --> 00:39:21,791
And you know
how to pitch a tent?
989
00:39:21,827 --> 00:39:23,493
- Yeah, I know
how to pitch a tent.
990
00:39:23,528 --> 00:39:25,128
I've pitched many tents.
- All right.
991
00:39:25,163 --> 00:39:26,029
- Here we go.
992
00:39:26,064 --> 00:39:27,197
- Okay.
993
00:39:27,232 --> 00:39:28,698
[tapping]
994
00:39:28,734 --> 00:39:30,300
- you gotta go harder.
- [laughing]
995
00:39:30,335 --> 00:39:31,701
♪ ♪
996
00:39:31,737 --> 00:39:34,104
- just let it all out.
- [laughing]
997
00:39:34,139 --> 00:39:38,708
I don't know how I always
end up with my dates outside,
998
00:39:38,744 --> 00:39:41,811
because I am the least
outdoorsy person.
999
00:39:41,847 --> 00:39:42,645
- You gotta get the whole thing
through there.
1000
00:39:42,681 --> 00:39:43,980
- No, no, no, no, no, no.
1001
00:39:44,015 --> 00:39:46,416
We have to tie it up
at the top.
1002
00:39:46,451 --> 00:39:48,718
[laughing]
- you right.
1003
00:39:48,754 --> 00:39:51,554
You right.
- [laughing]
1004
00:39:51,590 --> 00:39:53,623
I did tell matt last week
1005
00:39:53,658 --> 00:39:56,259
that I was falling
in love with him,
1006
00:39:56,294 --> 00:39:58,228
and it was emotional
to tell matt
1007
00:39:58,263 --> 00:39:59,429
and see him leave afterwards,
1008
00:39:59,464 --> 00:40:02,999
but that's why today
is really, really important.
1009
00:40:03,034 --> 00:40:05,635
I think it could help us
take that next step
1010
00:40:05,670 --> 00:40:10,440
and really envision together
what a future looks like.
1011
00:40:10,475 --> 00:40:11,908
[fire crackling]
- you did it.
1012
00:40:11,943 --> 00:40:12,675
- Thanks for helping me
pitch the tent.
1013
00:40:12,711 --> 00:40:14,244
- You're welcome.
1014
00:40:14,279 --> 00:40:15,678
I honestly wouldn't have
been able to get it up.
1015
00:40:17,315 --> 00:40:19,883
[both laughing]
1016
00:40:19,918 --> 00:40:21,751
mm.
1017
00:40:21,787 --> 00:40:23,787
- I want you to be comfortable,
1018
00:40:23,822 --> 00:40:24,954
'cause it's gonna
be a long night.
1019
00:40:24,990 --> 00:40:27,957
- [laughing]
- it's gonna get warmer.
1020
00:40:27,993 --> 00:40:29,058
We'll have pjs on.
- [laughing]
1021
00:40:29,094 --> 00:40:31,194
- why are you laughing?
1022
00:40:31,229 --> 00:40:32,695
♪ ♪
1023
00:40:32,731 --> 00:40:35,965
- I thought matt was joking,
but then I started thinking,
1024
00:40:36,001 --> 00:40:37,233
"oh, [bleep],
I think we're actually
1025
00:40:37,269 --> 00:40:39,636
sleeping in the tent tonight."
1026
00:40:39,671 --> 00:40:41,171
this is our fantasy suite.
1027
00:40:41,206 --> 00:40:42,872
- [sighs]
- is this where we're sleeping?
1028
00:40:42,908 --> 00:40:44,007
- We're not camping
out here tonight.
1029
00:40:44,042 --> 00:40:45,241
- [laughing]
oh.
1030
00:40:45,277 --> 00:40:47,243
- As much as I wanted to have
you out here in the woods...
1031
00:40:47,279 --> 00:40:48,211
- [laughing]
1032
00:40:48,246 --> 00:40:49,512
♪ ♪
1033
00:40:49,548 --> 00:40:51,915
the things you do for love.
1034
00:40:51,950 --> 00:40:54,451
- Well, it's safe to say
that neither one of us
1035
00:40:54,486 --> 00:40:55,418
is men or women of the woods.
1036
00:40:55,454 --> 00:40:58,955
[both laughing]
1037
00:40:58,990 --> 00:41:00,156
- I was like,
"please, don't be camping,
1038
00:41:00,192 --> 00:41:02,492
please, don't be camping,"
and we're having a lot of fun.
1039
00:41:02,527 --> 00:41:04,194
[both laughing]
1040
00:41:04,229 --> 00:41:05,128
- is that hard to admit?
1041
00:41:05,163 --> 00:41:07,030
- [laughing]
1042
00:41:07,065 --> 00:41:08,131
no, it's not,
and I'm having a lot of fun.
1043
00:41:08,166 --> 00:41:13,403
I didn't know what to expect
going into this week.
1044
00:41:13,438 --> 00:41:17,407
Um, we did see michelle
walking in from her date,
1045
00:41:17,442 --> 00:41:21,411
and I didn't really expect it
to hit as hard as it did.
1046
00:41:21,446 --> 00:41:24,080
Um...But it did.
1047
00:41:24,115 --> 00:41:26,382
I think that's
just because I care,
1048
00:41:26,418 --> 00:41:30,220
and there are really strong
feelings involved,
1049
00:41:30,255 --> 00:41:33,690
and it's getting harder
to compartmentalize
1050
00:41:33,725 --> 00:41:34,591
'cause there's a lot of things
1051
00:41:34,626 --> 00:41:37,193
that are not in my control
whatsoever.
1052
00:41:37,229 --> 00:41:39,395
I mean, if it were up to me,
I wanna see you every day.
1053
00:41:39,431 --> 00:41:40,530
[both laugh]
1054
00:41:40,565 --> 00:41:44,167
- what was it like having bri,
your best friend, here
1055
00:41:44,202 --> 00:41:45,568
and your mom here last week?
- Mm-hmm.
1056
00:41:45,604 --> 00:41:48,071
It was--oh, my gosh.
1057
00:41:48,106 --> 00:41:50,406
So overwhelming,
but in the best way.
1058
00:41:50,442 --> 00:41:52,041
- When we walked in
1059
00:41:52,077 --> 00:41:54,043
and, like, everyone
started crying, I was like...
1060
00:41:54,079 --> 00:41:55,044
- [laughs]
1061
00:41:55,080 --> 00:41:56,446
- I didn't know what to expect,
you know?
1062
00:41:56,481 --> 00:41:57,914
- So embarrassing.
- No, it's not embarrassing.
1063
00:41:57,949 --> 00:41:59,148
It's real. Like...
- Mm-hmm.
1064
00:41:59,184 --> 00:42:01,184
- That's how I would want
my family and friends
1065
00:42:01,219 --> 00:42:02,051
to show up for me.
1066
00:42:02,087 --> 00:42:03,253
- So my mom
didn't scare you away?
1067
00:42:03,288 --> 00:42:05,088
- No, she didn't scare me
at all.
1068
00:42:05,123 --> 00:42:07,357
Um, I was just nervous
because...
1069
00:42:07,392 --> 00:42:08,791
[clears throat]
1070
00:42:08,827 --> 00:42:10,426
I know how I feel about you,
1071
00:42:10,462 --> 00:42:11,427
and I know how much
she means to you,
1072
00:42:11,463 --> 00:42:14,197
so going into that
conversation, it was like,
1073
00:42:14,232 --> 00:42:16,332
"god, please don't let me
say anything dumb,"
1074
00:42:16,368 --> 00:42:17,567
and just, like, be myself,
1075
00:42:17,602 --> 00:42:21,938
and, um, just, like, this date,
I was looking forward to it,
1076
00:42:21,973 --> 00:42:23,740
'cause it's like you're someone
1077
00:42:23,775 --> 00:42:25,108
I wanted to spend
this time with
1078
00:42:25,143 --> 00:42:27,810
since the beginning
of this journey,
1079
00:42:27,846 --> 00:42:28,711
and I'm like,
"I've got all this stuff
1080
00:42:28,747 --> 00:42:29,812
"I want to talk to bri about.
1081
00:42:29,848 --> 00:42:31,080
I'm gonna..."
- [laughing]
1082
00:42:31,116 --> 00:42:33,082
- and, like,
it's organically come out
1083
00:42:33,118 --> 00:42:35,718
through our conversations,
just through spending time,
1084
00:42:35,754 --> 00:42:37,887
and it's just a testament
1085
00:42:37,923 --> 00:42:39,155
to how comfortable
I am around you
1086
00:42:39,190 --> 00:42:40,089
and who you are.
1087
00:42:40,125 --> 00:42:46,529
♪ ♪
1088
00:42:46,565 --> 00:42:47,997
- that makes me really happy.
1089
00:42:48,033 --> 00:42:50,600
♪ ♪
1090
00:42:50,635 --> 00:42:53,770
it feels so reassuring
to hear him say today, like,
1091
00:42:53,805 --> 00:42:56,506
"I have these things that
I wanna talk to bri about,"
1092
00:42:56,541 --> 00:43:00,009
so I'm looking forward
to that time tonight,
1093
00:43:00,045 --> 00:43:01,978
and there is an engagement
coming up.
1094
00:43:02,013 --> 00:43:04,681
It's right around the corner,
1095
00:43:04,716 --> 00:43:06,215
so I have to lay it all
out there
1096
00:43:06,251 --> 00:43:09,485
and show matt
what life would be like
1097
00:43:09,521 --> 00:43:12,055
with me being his wife.
1098
00:43:12,090 --> 00:43:14,090
Tonight could
be life-changing.
1099
00:43:14,125 --> 00:43:16,025
♪ ♪
1100
00:43:18,463 --> 00:43:20,496
[crickets chirping]
1101
00:43:20,532 --> 00:43:23,399
[soft music]
1102
00:43:23,435 --> 00:43:29,973
♪ ♪
1103
00:43:32,110 --> 00:43:35,578
- today was everything
I could've hoped for.
1104
00:43:35,614 --> 00:43:38,247
Hi.
- You look incredible.
1105
00:43:38,283 --> 00:43:40,550
- Matt has done
an incredible job
1106
00:43:40,585 --> 00:43:42,318
at giving me reassurance
1107
00:43:42,354 --> 00:43:44,621
that he feels
the same way that I do.
1108
00:43:44,656 --> 00:43:46,489
- Shall we?
- Yes.
1109
00:43:46,524 --> 00:43:50,627
I want to continue to gauge
where his head is at,
1110
00:43:50,662 --> 00:43:54,831
and I need to ask him
if he feels ready to be engaged
1111
00:43:54,866 --> 00:43:56,933
in the next week or so.
1112
00:43:56,968 --> 00:43:58,801
[whispering]
gosh, it's so pretty.
1113
00:43:58,837 --> 00:44:00,570
If matt got down
on one knee tonight,
1114
00:44:00,605 --> 00:44:03,606
I would 1,000% say yes.
1115
00:44:03,642 --> 00:44:05,708
- [clears throat]
1116
00:44:05,744 --> 00:44:08,478
so tell me,
woman of the woods...
1117
00:44:08,513 --> 00:44:09,779
- [laughing]
1118
00:44:09,814 --> 00:44:13,216
- what'd you think
about our--our date today?
1119
00:44:13,251 --> 00:44:15,318
- After every single date...
- Yeah.
1120
00:44:15,353 --> 00:44:17,920
- That I feel like we've had,
I always say,
1121
00:44:17,956 --> 00:44:20,023
"I would never
do something like that."
1122
00:44:20,058 --> 00:44:21,824
- mm-hmm.
- And you're welcome
1123
00:44:21,860 --> 00:44:23,226
for pitching the tent.
- [laughs]
1124
00:44:23,261 --> 00:44:25,128
you're not gonna let that go.
- [laughing]
1125
00:44:25,163 --> 00:44:26,195
- [laughs]
1126
00:44:26,231 --> 00:44:29,565
- but I'm just wanting
to check in on you,
1127
00:44:29,601 --> 00:44:33,269
because it almost also does
just feel like yesterday
1128
00:44:33,304 --> 00:44:34,370
that we had our first
one-on-one date.
1129
00:44:34,406 --> 00:44:36,739
- Doesn't it?
Yeah.
1130
00:44:36,775 --> 00:44:39,942
I'm--I'm--I'm good.
1131
00:44:39,978 --> 00:44:42,011
Like, for everything
to be real for me,
1132
00:44:42,047 --> 00:44:44,847
I have to see what our life
1133
00:44:44,883 --> 00:44:45,448
would be like
outside of here...
1134
00:44:45,483 --> 00:44:46,649
- Mm-hmm.
1135
00:44:46,685 --> 00:44:47,917
- And we did that last week,
you know?
1136
00:44:47,952 --> 00:44:49,419
- Yeah.
- I met your mom,
1137
00:44:49,454 --> 00:44:52,955
and I'm thinking about you
potentially meeting my family.
1138
00:44:52,991 --> 00:44:56,125
Um, my mom,
she sacrificed everything,
1139
00:44:56,161 --> 00:44:58,928
like your mom did, so that you
could have your opportunities,
1140
00:44:58,963 --> 00:45:00,196
and she's just incredible,
you know.
1141
00:45:00,231 --> 00:45:01,564
- Yeah.
1142
00:45:01,599 --> 00:45:03,466
Well, she sounds like
a really amazing woman.
1143
00:45:03,501 --> 00:45:04,634
- She's great.
1144
00:45:04,669 --> 00:45:09,272
- I would be lucky to get
the opportunity to meet her,
1145
00:45:09,307 --> 00:45:12,508
and I did want to backtrack
a little bit, too,
1146
00:45:12,544 --> 00:45:17,580
because I'm just wanting
to know how you feel
1147
00:45:17,615 --> 00:45:23,519
about an engagement coming up
in such a short amount of time,
1148
00:45:23,555 --> 00:45:26,656
and I just want to know
where your head is at
1149
00:45:26,691 --> 00:45:27,623
and see if it's still there.
1150
00:45:27,659 --> 00:45:29,759
- An engagement?
- Mm-hmm.
1151
00:45:29,794 --> 00:45:31,728
- Um...That's a great question,
1152
00:45:31,763 --> 00:45:35,064
because there's things that...
[clears throat]
1153
00:45:35,100 --> 00:45:37,934
in my life that have
held me back from--
1154
00:45:37,969 --> 00:45:39,902
not commitment, but just,
1155
00:45:39,938 --> 00:45:42,371
worrying about
what that would look like.
1156
00:45:42,407 --> 00:45:44,006
- Mm-hmm.
- Like, what does marriage,
1157
00:45:44,042 --> 00:45:46,175
what does engagement,
1158
00:45:46,211 --> 00:45:47,844
what does that long-term
commitment look like?
1159
00:45:47,879 --> 00:45:50,113
- Yeah.
- And one of those things
1160
00:45:50,148 --> 00:45:52,181
that, like,
I just needed to address
1161
00:45:52,217 --> 00:45:54,383
to get over the hump
1162
00:45:54,419 --> 00:45:56,285
was the relationship
with my dad...
1163
00:45:56,321 --> 00:45:58,888
- Mm-hmm.
- And so...
1164
00:45:58,923 --> 00:46:00,389
We had a conversation
1165
00:46:00,425 --> 00:46:02,959
we probably should've had
a long time ago,
1166
00:46:02,994 --> 00:46:04,494
and it got a little bit intense
1167
00:46:04,529 --> 00:46:07,363
because I'm letting him know
how I feel
1168
00:46:07,398 --> 00:46:09,966
and how him not being ready
for marriage
1169
00:46:10,001 --> 00:46:12,668
affected myself,
my brother, my mom,
1170
00:46:12,704 --> 00:46:14,771
and really my dating
relationship--
1171
00:46:14,806 --> 00:46:16,339
my relationship with women,
1172
00:46:16,374 --> 00:46:17,940
and the point
of that conversation
1173
00:46:17,976 --> 00:46:21,410
was to remind myself that
that's not who I am, you know?
1174
00:46:21,446 --> 00:46:22,378
- Mm-hmm.
1175
00:46:22,413 --> 00:46:23,446
- Like, I'm my own man,
1176
00:46:23,481 --> 00:46:26,616
and I think and act
independently of how he does.
1177
00:46:26,651 --> 00:46:28,484
- Yeah.
1178
00:46:28,520 --> 00:46:30,119
- It took me having
that conversation with him
1179
00:46:30,155 --> 00:46:32,355
to have me in that place
where I think I need to be
1180
00:46:32,390 --> 00:46:35,024
to be ready for this
commitment.
1181
00:46:35,059 --> 00:46:36,325
That was, like, a major part
1182
00:46:36,361 --> 00:46:37,727
of--of me moving forward
with this.
1183
00:46:37,762 --> 00:46:40,062
- Yeah. Yeah.
1184
00:46:40,098 --> 00:46:42,265
Well, I appreciate
you telling me that.
1185
00:46:42,300 --> 00:46:45,434
Um, I remember,
on our first night,
1186
00:46:45,470 --> 00:46:48,337
we talked about us having
1187
00:46:48,373 --> 00:46:51,841
somewhat of estranged
relationships with our dad.
1188
00:46:51,876 --> 00:46:53,643
I mean, my dad is around,
1189
00:46:53,678 --> 00:46:56,379
but he's never really
been a part of my life
1190
00:46:56,414 --> 00:46:57,747
in milestone moments
in my life, whatsoever,
1191
00:46:57,782 --> 00:47:03,085
but, you know, I do think
that I would want my dad
1192
00:47:03,121 --> 00:47:07,256
to be a part of this journey.
1193
00:47:07,292 --> 00:47:10,026
♪ ♪
1194
00:47:10,061 --> 00:47:14,564
I think him knowing, um...
1195
00:47:14,599 --> 00:47:16,866
♪ ♪
1196
00:47:16,901 --> 00:47:20,303
who I've become
1197
00:47:20,338 --> 00:47:25,441
and the woman that I've become
without him
1198
00:47:25,476 --> 00:47:28,511
would give him, probably,
a lot of peace of mind
1199
00:47:28,546 --> 00:47:31,681
to know that...
1200
00:47:31,716 --> 00:47:33,716
I'm still, like, okay.
1201
00:47:33,751 --> 00:47:35,785
♪ ♪
1202
00:47:35,820 --> 00:47:38,788
I've always wondered, like,
how my relationship with him
1203
00:47:38,823 --> 00:47:42,725
would manifest in my
relationships down the line...
1204
00:47:42,760 --> 00:47:43,893
- Mm-hmm.
1205
00:47:43,928 --> 00:47:49,165
- I mean, it's, like,
hard to not be authentic, um,
1206
00:47:49,200 --> 00:47:50,967
throughout
this entire experience,
1207
00:47:51,002 --> 00:47:53,669
and I wanna make sure
that, like,
1208
00:47:53,705 --> 00:47:56,405
I'm continuing to remind myself
why I came,
1209
00:47:56,441 --> 00:47:59,175
and if it's
any reassurance to you,
1210
00:47:59,210 --> 00:48:03,279
I still feel...
1211
00:48:03,314 --> 00:48:07,216
100% ready for an engagement
after this,
1212
00:48:07,252 --> 00:48:13,990
and what I'm feeling is that...
1213
00:48:14,025 --> 00:48:17,226
I really am
so in love with you,
1214
00:48:17,262 --> 00:48:19,662
because it means
the world to me
1215
00:48:19,697 --> 00:48:22,732
that you can understand me,
1216
00:48:22,767 --> 00:48:27,837
and it really just goes to show
why I love you
1217
00:48:27,872 --> 00:48:29,672
and the things that I love
about you.
1218
00:48:29,707 --> 00:48:30,873
- [chuckles]
1219
00:48:30,909 --> 00:48:33,509
[sweeping music]
1220
00:48:33,544 --> 00:48:34,610
♪ ♪
1221
00:48:34,646 --> 00:48:36,913
- bri told me that
she was in love with me,
1222
00:48:36,948 --> 00:48:40,116
and it's a great feeling.
1223
00:48:40,151 --> 00:48:43,219
It's that feeling
that you can't explain,
1224
00:48:43,254 --> 00:48:47,290
that feeling
that is undeniable.
1225
00:48:47,325 --> 00:48:48,324
She's someone
I could see myself
1226
00:48:48,359 --> 00:48:49,792
spending the rest
of my life with...
1227
00:48:49,827 --> 00:48:52,428
There's another thing
I wanted to run by you.
1228
00:48:52,463 --> 00:48:56,132
And I know now
what that commitment means.
1229
00:48:56,167 --> 00:48:59,201
Tonight could change my life,
1230
00:48:59,237 --> 00:49:00,603
and it could change bri's life.
1231
00:49:00,638 --> 00:49:01,971
- "bri and matt,
1232
00:49:02,006 --> 00:49:06,742
"should you choose to forego
your individual rooms,
1233
00:49:06,778 --> 00:49:08,477
"please use this key
1234
00:49:08,513 --> 00:49:10,713
"to stay as a couple
in the fantasy suite.
1235
00:49:10,748 --> 00:49:12,915
Chris harrison."
1236
00:49:12,951 --> 00:49:14,617
I mean, I would, personally,
1237
00:49:14,652 --> 00:49:18,587
just love the uninterrupted
and undisturbed time
1238
00:49:18,623 --> 00:49:23,793
to talk to you and be with you
and hang out with you.
1239
00:49:23,828 --> 00:49:26,629
[romantic music]
1240
00:49:26,664 --> 00:49:29,031
♪ ♪
1241
00:49:29,067 --> 00:49:30,833
- should we head out of here?
1242
00:49:30,868 --> 00:49:33,369
- Let's go.
1243
00:49:33,404 --> 00:49:37,006
I feel really good
about telling matt
1244
00:49:37,041 --> 00:49:39,442
that I'm in love with him.
1245
00:49:39,477 --> 00:49:41,577
I continue to impress myself
1246
00:49:41,612 --> 00:49:44,647
at how much I'm able
to open up to matt.
1247
00:49:44,682 --> 00:49:47,616
♪ ♪
1248
00:49:47,652 --> 00:49:49,652
[gasps]
- wow.
1249
00:49:49,687 --> 00:49:53,823
- I feel so happy
and so excited
1250
00:49:53,858 --> 00:49:55,157
to find love with matt.
1251
00:49:55,193 --> 00:49:56,192
[cork pops]
[gasps]
1252
00:49:56,227 --> 00:49:59,829
- hey.
- [chuckles]
1253
00:49:59,864 --> 00:50:01,597
I'm hoping that tonight
1254
00:50:01,632 --> 00:50:04,900
is the first night together
of many to come.
1255
00:50:04,936 --> 00:50:07,103
[kissing]
1256
00:50:07,138 --> 00:50:09,739
[sweeping music]
1257
00:50:09,774 --> 00:50:12,541
I'm so happy
to share this time with you.
1258
00:50:12,577 --> 00:50:13,809
- Me too.
1259
00:50:13,845 --> 00:50:20,583
♪ ♪
1260
00:50:20,618 --> 00:50:22,518
what do you say
we kick them out?
1261
00:50:22,553 --> 00:50:23,919
- Kay.
1262
00:50:23,955 --> 00:50:25,721
♪ ♪
1263
00:50:25,757 --> 00:50:28,624
I want matt to wake up
tomorrow morning
1264
00:50:28,659 --> 00:50:32,828
and think that he is waking up
to his wife.
1265
00:50:32,864 --> 00:50:38,234
♪ ♪
1266
00:50:40,605 --> 00:50:43,272
[birds chirping]
1267
00:50:47,845 --> 00:50:49,812
- oh, my god.
1268
00:50:49,847 --> 00:50:52,715
[soft music]
1269
00:50:52,750 --> 00:50:54,583
♪ ♪
1270
00:50:54,619 --> 00:50:57,119
I actually think I could
really get used to this.
1271
00:50:57,155 --> 00:50:59,088
- You think so?
- Mm-hmm.
1272
00:50:59,123 --> 00:51:00,222
- Was last night
what you expected?
1273
00:51:00,258 --> 00:51:05,194
- It was everything I expected
and a little bit more.
1274
00:51:05,229 --> 00:51:08,764
- Really?
- [laughing]
1275
00:51:08,800 --> 00:51:11,167
♪ ♪
1276
00:51:11,202 --> 00:51:15,471
I am feeling extremely happy.
1277
00:51:15,506 --> 00:51:17,139
[laughs]
1278
00:51:17,175 --> 00:51:24,713
last night just reaffirms
that I am in love with you.
1279
00:51:24,749 --> 00:51:27,783
♪ ♪
1280
00:51:27,819 --> 00:51:30,386
last night
definitely felt like
1281
00:51:30,421 --> 00:51:34,590
it could be life-changing.
1282
00:51:34,625 --> 00:51:37,827
Having the undisturbed time
with matt,
1283
00:51:37,862 --> 00:51:41,964
I got to know really intimate
parts about him.
1284
00:51:41,999 --> 00:51:43,199
[laughing]
oh, my god.
1285
00:51:43,234 --> 00:51:45,534
- Can never be too much butter.
1286
00:51:45,570 --> 00:51:47,103
- You're gonna kill me.
- Never too much butter.
1287
00:51:47,138 --> 00:51:48,938
- Fatten bri up.
1288
00:51:48,973 --> 00:51:50,573
He did share with me
1289
00:51:50,608 --> 00:51:53,109
that he's ready
for an engagement,
1290
00:51:53,144 --> 00:51:55,411
and that puts my mind at ease.
1291
00:51:55,446 --> 00:51:57,513
I just really look forward
1292
00:51:57,548 --> 00:51:59,915
to the next time
that I get to spend with you
1293
00:51:59,951 --> 00:52:03,619
because every time
gets better and better.
1294
00:52:03,654 --> 00:52:05,688
♪ ♪
1295
00:52:05,723 --> 00:52:09,859
I am just in a state
of pure bliss.
1296
00:52:09,894 --> 00:52:15,598
I feel like I'm on cloud nine
and so in love.
1297
00:52:15,633 --> 00:52:16,932
♪ ♪
1298
00:52:16,968 --> 00:52:20,603
I'm really going to miss you.
1299
00:52:20,638 --> 00:52:23,105
♪ ♪
1300
00:52:23,141 --> 00:52:26,575
- I think last night was big
for me and bri.
1301
00:52:26,611 --> 00:52:30,246
We connect
on the deepest of levels.
1302
00:52:30,281 --> 00:52:31,914
She's been open, honest,
1303
00:52:31,949 --> 00:52:33,315
and that's what's gotten us
to this point.
1304
00:52:33,351 --> 00:52:35,384
It's what
I've been looking for
1305
00:52:35,419 --> 00:52:36,952
and what I came here for.
1306
00:52:36,988 --> 00:52:41,490
♪ ♪
1307
00:52:41,526 --> 00:52:43,726
I can see a life with bri
after this,
1308
00:52:43,761 --> 00:52:44,793
and it's hard to see her leave,
because I know
1309
00:52:44,829 --> 00:52:47,630
the next time I'ma see her
is at the rose ceremony.
1310
00:52:47,665 --> 00:52:49,231
♪ ♪
1311
00:52:49,267 --> 00:52:50,866
bri's the second woman
1312
00:52:50,902 --> 00:52:53,335
that's told me
that she's in love with me.
1313
00:52:53,371 --> 00:52:55,871
As incredible
as that is to hear,
1314
00:52:55,907 --> 00:52:59,575
it's not gonna be easy
sending someone home
1315
00:52:59,610 --> 00:53:01,043
after spending
this time together.
1316
00:53:01,078 --> 00:53:03,179
♪ ♪
1317
00:53:03,214 --> 00:53:05,748
these women are putting their
heart out there for me.
1318
00:53:05,783 --> 00:53:07,850
I have such strong feelings
for everybody.
1319
00:53:07,885 --> 00:53:08,951
♪ ♪
1320
00:53:08,986 --> 00:53:11,487
it doesn't make this decision
that I have to make
1321
00:53:11,522 --> 00:53:13,789
at the end of the week
any easier.
1322
00:53:13,824 --> 00:53:20,529
♪ ♪
1323
00:53:22,500 --> 00:53:23,966
- it was just hard
to know that, like,
1324
00:53:24,001 --> 00:53:27,469
you had these really intimate
conversations with him
1325
00:53:27,505 --> 00:53:28,737
just about everything,
and, like,
1326
00:53:28,773 --> 00:53:29,805
I just haven't gotten
that chance.
1327
00:53:29,840 --> 00:53:30,639
- Mm.
1328
00:53:30,675 --> 00:53:34,410
- So I'm worried
that hearing bri,
1329
00:53:34,445 --> 00:53:36,579
you know,
go through the same thing,
1330
00:53:36,614 --> 00:53:40,149
talk about her day
and her time, it's--
1331
00:53:40,184 --> 00:53:40,983
I'm worried about it.
1332
00:53:41,018 --> 00:53:42,184
- Yeah.
1333
00:53:42,220 --> 00:53:43,285
[door creaks open]
1334
00:53:44,355 --> 00:53:46,021
[footsteps approaching]
1335
00:53:46,057 --> 00:53:47,022
- [sighs]
1336
00:53:47,058 --> 00:53:48,691
I don't wanna see her.
1337
00:53:51,062 --> 00:53:52,294
- [quietly]
hi.
1338
00:53:52,330 --> 00:53:53,629
- Hey.
- Hi.
1339
00:53:55,266 --> 00:53:57,066
How are you guys?
1340
00:53:57,101 --> 00:53:59,068
- You know.
1341
00:53:59,103 --> 00:54:00,236
- Same old, same old?
1342
00:54:00,271 --> 00:54:01,737
- Yeah, nothing's changed.
1343
00:54:01,772 --> 00:54:03,405
How are you?
1344
00:54:03,441 --> 00:54:05,174
- Good.
1345
00:54:05,209 --> 00:54:07,209
- What'd you guys do?
1346
00:54:07,245 --> 00:54:08,677
- It was a really good time.
1347
00:54:08,713 --> 00:54:10,646
We went backpacking
and camping.
1348
00:54:10,681 --> 00:54:11,614
[laughing]
1349
00:54:11,649 --> 00:54:14,116
- like, you didn't sleep
out there, did you?
1350
00:54:14,151 --> 00:54:15,417
- No, but I actually,
1351
00:54:15,453 --> 00:54:17,086
for a second,
actually thought that.
1352
00:54:17,121 --> 00:54:18,821
- [breathes deeply]
1353
00:54:18,856 --> 00:54:21,690
- but it ended up being
a fun--fun time anyways,
1354
00:54:21,726 --> 00:54:23,392
so, um...
1355
00:54:23,427 --> 00:54:24,893
It was a good day.
1356
00:54:24,929 --> 00:54:26,462
Yeah. Um...
1357
00:54:27,932 --> 00:54:30,532
The uninterrupted,
undisturbed time--
1358
00:54:30,568 --> 00:54:32,101
I'm not even lying
to you guys.
1359
00:54:32,136 --> 00:54:38,073
Like, worth the wait,
honestly, but, um,
1360
00:54:38,109 --> 00:54:39,642
it was really nice.
1361
00:54:39,677 --> 00:54:40,976
Yeah.
1362
00:54:41,012 --> 00:54:44,280
So...It was good.
1363
00:54:45,583 --> 00:54:48,250
Are you excited
for your date, rach?
1364
00:54:48,286 --> 00:54:50,653
- Yeah, but, of course, like,
1365
00:54:50,688 --> 00:54:54,490
I'm getting in my head about...
1366
00:54:54,525 --> 00:54:56,258
It just feeling different
1367
00:54:56,294 --> 00:54:59,895
'cause he's already
been through so much this week.
1368
00:54:59,930 --> 00:55:00,763
I think that's, like,
1369
00:55:00,798 --> 00:55:03,098
the biggest fear
in my mind right now.
1370
00:55:03,134 --> 00:55:04,700
[tense music]
1371
00:55:04,735 --> 00:55:06,001
- yeah.
1372
00:55:06,037 --> 00:55:08,937
♪ ♪
1373
00:55:08,973 --> 00:55:12,908
- [sighs]
1374
00:55:12,943 --> 00:55:19,982
♪ ♪
1375
00:55:20,017 --> 00:55:21,250
all right, well,
1376
00:55:21,285 --> 00:55:25,287
I guess I'm gonna go
get ready for my day.
1377
00:55:25,323 --> 00:55:27,122
- Bye, rach.
1378
00:55:27,158 --> 00:55:28,991
- [breathes deeply]
1379
00:55:29,026 --> 00:55:33,529
♪ ♪
1380
00:55:33,564 --> 00:55:36,498
[sighs]
1381
00:55:36,534 --> 00:55:38,801
- [whispers]
is she okay?
1382
00:55:38,836 --> 00:55:41,637
- She's having a really hard
time just with everything,
1383
00:55:41,672 --> 00:55:43,172
so I think
that's what's happening.
1384
00:55:43,207 --> 00:55:50,446
♪ ♪
1385
00:55:51,982 --> 00:55:53,382
- [sighs]
1386
00:55:53,417 --> 00:55:55,951
[somber music]
1387
00:55:55,986 --> 00:55:57,286
[sniffs]
1388
00:55:57,321 --> 00:55:59,188
it's just scary.
1389
00:55:59,223 --> 00:56:03,459
I think I'm just really
feeling the pressure
1390
00:56:03,494 --> 00:56:05,594
about our time together.
1391
00:56:05,629 --> 00:56:06,295
[crying]
1392
00:56:06,330 --> 00:56:08,163
it hurts seeing how they feel
1393
00:56:08,199 --> 00:56:10,399
and seeing how they felt
the morning after
1394
00:56:10,434 --> 00:56:13,736
and hearing what they both
had to say.
1395
00:56:13,771 --> 00:56:16,305
I'm worried about
how he feels,
1396
00:56:16,340 --> 00:56:17,973
what he's thinking.
1397
00:56:18,008 --> 00:56:21,710
♪ ♪
1398
00:56:21,746 --> 00:56:25,381
I don't know.
I'm freaking out.
1399
00:56:25,416 --> 00:56:26,582
I know how I feel about him.
1400
00:56:26,617 --> 00:56:27,449
I know that I love him.
1401
00:56:27,485 --> 00:56:28,617
I know that this is love
1402
00:56:28,652 --> 00:56:30,886
because I don't feel like
I can live without him,
1403
00:56:30,921 --> 00:56:33,088
but I really did break
this week.
1404
00:56:33,124 --> 00:56:34,156
At this point,
I just want to be like,
1405
00:56:34,191 --> 00:56:37,192
"just tell me.
Like, do I need to walk away?"
1406
00:56:37,228 --> 00:56:38,861
[sniffles]
1407
00:56:38,896 --> 00:56:41,897
I'm just scared
he's gonna hurt me.
1408
00:56:41,932 --> 00:56:45,167
[crying]
1409
00:56:45,202 --> 00:56:47,569
♪ ♪
1410
00:56:50,174 --> 00:56:53,041
[soft music]
1411
00:56:53,077 --> 00:56:54,410
♪ ♪
1412
00:56:54,445 --> 00:56:57,679
- I went into fantasy suite
week with zero expectations,
1413
00:56:57,715 --> 00:56:59,181
but the conversations
1414
00:56:59,216 --> 00:57:00,115
I had with michelle
that first night,
1415
00:57:00,151 --> 00:57:01,884
what bri and I discussed,
1416
00:57:01,919 --> 00:57:02,785
the questions
that she brought up,
1417
00:57:02,820 --> 00:57:04,686
every fantasy suite this week
1418
00:57:04,722 --> 00:57:05,788
has been huge.
1419
00:57:05,823 --> 00:57:08,323
Knowing how I wake up feeling
the next morning,
1420
00:57:08,359 --> 00:57:10,125
the bar is very high today.
1421
00:57:10,161 --> 00:57:14,029
This time with rachael,
I couldn't be more excited.
1422
00:57:14,064 --> 00:57:15,564
I hope that
she's coming into today
1423
00:57:15,599 --> 00:57:16,532
as fired up as I am
1424
00:57:16,567 --> 00:57:19,435
about where
our conversations go
1425
00:57:19,470 --> 00:57:20,602
and where our time takes us.
1426
00:57:20,638 --> 00:57:22,171
♪ ♪
1427
00:57:22,206 --> 00:57:24,706
[thunder rumbling]
1428
00:57:24,742 --> 00:57:26,475
[birds chirping]
1429
00:57:26,510 --> 00:57:29,878
[solemn music]
1430
00:57:29,914 --> 00:57:31,613
♪ ♪
1431
00:57:31,649 --> 00:57:32,915
- I feel the most nervous
1432
00:57:32,950 --> 00:57:36,151
I've ever felt
before seeing him.
1433
00:57:36,187 --> 00:57:36,985
♪ ♪
1434
00:57:37,021 --> 00:57:38,687
you know,
1435
00:57:38,722 --> 00:57:40,989
I feel like my heart
is in my throat.
1436
00:57:41,025 --> 00:57:42,291
♪ ♪
1437
00:57:42,326 --> 00:57:46,195
[crows cawing]
1438
00:57:46,230 --> 00:57:47,296
I'm just really worried
1439
00:57:47,331 --> 00:57:49,131
his feelings have changed
throughout the week
1440
00:57:49,166 --> 00:57:53,368
and he has a stronger
connection with someone else.
1441
00:57:53,404 --> 00:57:56,004
One of my biggest fears
right now
1442
00:57:56,040 --> 00:57:58,874
is walking up
and just having it feel
1443
00:57:58,909 --> 00:58:00,809
immediately different
between us.
1444
00:58:03,414 --> 00:58:06,548
[wind whistling]
1445
00:58:13,224 --> 00:58:15,257
- been a while.
1446
00:58:15,292 --> 00:58:16,825
- Hi.
- Hi.
1447
00:58:16,861 --> 00:58:18,961
- I missed you.
- I missed you too.
1448
00:58:18,996 --> 00:58:20,529
Mm.
1449
00:58:24,168 --> 00:58:25,601
- Like, a lot.
1450
00:58:25,636 --> 00:58:27,836
It's been, like--
1451
00:58:27,872 --> 00:58:29,505
like, the hardest week
of my life.
1452
00:58:29,540 --> 00:58:31,306
- I'm excited to see you...
1453
00:58:31,342 --> 00:58:33,108
- Mm-hmm.
- And to--
1454
00:58:33,143 --> 00:58:34,343
for what we have planned today.
- Mm-hmm. Okay.
1455
00:58:34,378 --> 00:58:36,879
- So what do you say?
- Yeah, let's do it.
1456
00:58:39,216 --> 00:58:41,149
[sighs softly]
1457
00:58:41,185 --> 00:58:42,518
how've you been?
1458
00:58:42,553 --> 00:58:44,286
- Um, I'm all right.
1459
00:58:44,321 --> 00:58:45,787
[both sigh]
1460
00:58:45,823 --> 00:58:47,689
I've been thinking about you.
1461
00:58:47,725 --> 00:58:49,992
- I've been worried about that.
1462
00:58:50,027 --> 00:58:51,360
[sighs]
1463
00:58:51,395 --> 00:58:53,161
♪ ♪
1464
00:58:53,197 --> 00:58:54,263
- I can see that rachael
1465
00:58:54,298 --> 00:58:56,298
has something on her heart
and on her mind,
1466
00:58:56,333 --> 00:59:01,103
and I'm feeling that
as I'm walking up to our date.
1467
00:59:01,138 --> 00:59:03,005
I have no idea
what she was going through.
1468
00:59:03,040 --> 00:59:06,375
[wheel whirring]
1469
00:59:06,410 --> 00:59:07,943
- hi, guys.
- Hey.
1470
00:59:07,978 --> 00:59:09,378
- Welcome.
My name is lauren,
1471
00:59:09,413 --> 00:59:13,415
and I'm going to be your
ceramics instructor for today.
1472
00:59:13,450 --> 00:59:15,217
- Perfect.
1473
00:59:15,252 --> 00:59:16,451
- This being the last
of the--the overnights,
1474
00:59:16,487 --> 00:59:19,388
it's a big day for me
and rachael's relationship.
1475
00:59:19,423 --> 00:59:22,057
I'm hoping
that she's all right.
1476
00:59:22,092 --> 00:59:23,325
- The first thing
you're gonna do
1477
00:59:23,360 --> 00:59:25,861
is start with
a really strong foundation.
1478
00:59:25,896 --> 00:59:27,095
The thing that's great
about ceramics
1479
00:59:27,131 --> 00:59:30,732
is that it really is like
building a relationship.
1480
00:59:32,937 --> 00:59:36,271
You have an idea in your head
of how it's gonna turn out,
1481
00:59:36,307 --> 00:59:37,339
but things change,
1482
00:59:37,374 --> 00:59:41,209
and so you need to be flexible
and understanding.
1483
00:59:41,245 --> 00:59:43,545
Ooh, ooh, ooh.
1484
00:59:43,581 --> 00:59:45,180
- It got lopsided.
1485
00:59:45,215 --> 00:59:46,248
[wheel whirring]
1486
00:59:46,283 --> 00:59:47,816
dang it.
1487
00:59:47,851 --> 00:59:49,318
Why is yours looking better?
1488
00:59:49,353 --> 00:59:50,452
- [clears throat]
1489
00:59:50,487 --> 00:59:52,154
[whirring]
1490
00:59:52,189 --> 00:59:54,222
[uneasy music]
1491
00:59:54,258 --> 00:59:57,326
- I'm not, like,
completely 100% right now.
1492
00:59:57,361 --> 01:00:02,931
I'm just freaking out about
how today's gonna go.
1493
01:00:02,967 --> 01:00:04,199
He was with two other women
1494
01:00:04,234 --> 01:00:07,536
just in a matter of, like,
hours ago, days ago.
1495
01:00:07,571 --> 01:00:11,640
- But your fingers are going
to go inside the hole,
1496
01:00:11,675 --> 01:00:12,641
and you're going to gently...
1497
01:00:12,676 --> 01:00:13,909
- The thought of him
getting intimate
1498
01:00:13,944 --> 01:00:19,014
with another woman, like,
it is absolutely excruciating.
1499
01:00:19,049 --> 01:00:20,549
I'm beating myself up
about it.
1500
01:00:20,584 --> 01:00:22,150
♪ ♪
1501
01:00:22,186 --> 01:00:23,418
- how are we doing?
- I need...
1502
01:00:23,454 --> 01:00:24,920
♪ ♪
1503
01:00:24,955 --> 01:00:27,222
I feel like I need
to talk to you.
1504
01:00:27,257 --> 01:00:29,024
I don't want it to, like,
ruin our day.
1505
01:00:29,059 --> 01:00:30,626
♪ ♪
1506
01:00:30,661 --> 01:00:34,463
I think I really just have
a lot to get off my chest,
1507
01:00:34,498 --> 01:00:37,232
and I just want to sit him down
and get answers.
1508
01:00:37,267 --> 01:00:39,468
Like, I just don't want
to wait around
1509
01:00:39,503 --> 01:00:41,169
for the heartbreak.
1510
01:00:41,205 --> 01:00:43,438
♪ ♪
1511
01:00:43,474 --> 01:00:45,240
um...
1512
01:00:45,275 --> 01:00:48,243
[inhales deeply]
1513
01:00:48,278 --> 01:00:52,681
this week was, like--
like, unbearable for me.
1514
01:00:54,318 --> 01:00:57,686
Um...
1515
01:00:57,721 --> 01:00:59,655
You know, like, I--
I picture you
1516
01:00:59,690 --> 01:01:01,790
as my future husband.
1517
01:01:01,825 --> 01:01:04,226
I know you know that,
and, you know,
1518
01:01:04,261 --> 01:01:05,827
when I picture you
as that person for me,
1519
01:01:05,863 --> 01:01:11,333
and then knowing that you're
spending really intimate time
1520
01:01:11,368 --> 01:01:14,069
with other people, like,
I really didn't think
1521
01:01:14,104 --> 01:01:16,672
I would get through this week,
honestly.
1522
01:01:18,175 --> 01:01:21,376
Um, like, it was the lowest
that I've felt.
1523
01:01:21,412 --> 01:01:23,445
- Yeah.
1524
01:01:23,480 --> 01:01:27,683
- I do want you to look into
every single relationship
1525
01:01:27,718 --> 01:01:32,187
to where, you know,
when you do make that decision
1526
01:01:32,222 --> 01:01:34,156
at the end of all of this,
you are, like,
1527
01:01:34,191 --> 01:01:35,824
fully confident
in that decision
1528
01:01:35,859 --> 01:01:36,224
and you know
it's the right one,
1529
01:01:36,260 --> 01:01:37,292
so I get it.
1530
01:01:37,327 --> 01:01:39,628
Like, I know you have to do
what you have to do,
1531
01:01:39,663 --> 01:01:41,396
but...
- Yeah.
1532
01:01:41,432 --> 01:01:42,764
- Like, I've been getting
in my mind,
1533
01:01:42,800 --> 01:01:44,433
thinking, like,
if your mind's changed
1534
01:01:44,468 --> 01:01:48,036
about how you feel for me
and everything, you know,
1535
01:01:48,072 --> 01:01:50,939
and if, you know, like, you
don't see a future with me,
1536
01:01:50,974 --> 01:01:54,509
at this point,
and I just don't know how
1537
01:01:54,545 --> 01:01:58,146
I would be able to, like,
handle losing you.
1538
01:01:58,182 --> 01:01:59,047
I didn't really want
to start today like this,
1539
01:01:59,083 --> 01:02:00,215
but I just felt like...
- No.
1540
01:02:00,250 --> 01:02:01,983
- I needed to just
get it all out.
1541
01:02:02,019 --> 01:02:03,251
- I'm glad we're doing it.
1542
01:02:03,287 --> 01:02:05,053
Like--like,
there's not a right time
1543
01:02:05,089 --> 01:02:06,755
to have it, this conversation.
1544
01:02:06,790 --> 01:02:07,322
Like, whenever
you're feeling this,
1545
01:02:07,357 --> 01:02:08,490
I want to talk about it.
1546
01:02:08,525 --> 01:02:12,561
There's no easy way to go
about these next two weeks,
1547
01:02:12,596 --> 01:02:13,795
but it's necessary...
- Mm-hmm.
1548
01:02:13,831 --> 01:02:19,067
- So that, at the end of this,
you can have 100% assurance
1549
01:02:19,103 --> 01:02:22,137
in where I'm at
with you and us, and...
1550
01:02:22,172 --> 01:02:24,740
As respectfully
as I can go about it,
1551
01:02:24,775 --> 01:02:26,108
do the same with everybody.
1552
01:02:28,479 --> 01:02:30,045
- [breathes deeply]
1553
01:02:30,080 --> 01:02:32,914
- um...
[clears throat]
1554
01:02:32,950 --> 01:02:35,016
again, when I'm with you,
1555
01:02:35,052 --> 01:02:36,017
you're all
I'm thinking about...
1556
01:02:36,053 --> 01:02:38,954
- Mm-hmm.
- And today's your day.
1557
01:02:38,989 --> 01:02:42,157
I wanted you
to be in the best place
1558
01:02:42,192 --> 01:02:43,425
for our time this week...
- Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.
1559
01:02:43,460 --> 01:02:47,229
- And, like, rest up
from our parachuting.
1560
01:02:47,264 --> 01:02:49,564
- [laughs]
- no, I'm serious.
1561
01:02:49,600 --> 01:02:50,832
I, uh--that scared me.
1562
01:02:50,868 --> 01:02:57,405
Like, I don't like to take
myself to, like, a dark place,
1563
01:02:57,441 --> 01:03:02,077
but I did when I saw you
hit the ground.
1564
01:03:02,112 --> 01:03:04,146
It freaked me out, you know,
1565
01:03:04,181 --> 01:03:07,582
and when I saw you
laying there,
1566
01:03:07,618 --> 01:03:09,684
I wanted you to be okay.
1567
01:03:09,720 --> 01:03:10,585
- Mm-hmm.
1568
01:03:10,621 --> 01:03:11,753
- That was, like,
really the first time
1569
01:03:11,789 --> 01:03:16,424
I was like, "what would life
be like without rachael?"
1570
01:03:16,460 --> 01:03:18,126
♪ ♪
1571
01:03:18,162 --> 01:03:21,062
and I'm only gonna say things
that I mean
1572
01:03:21,098 --> 01:03:23,965
and do things that I mean
and feel...
1573
01:03:24,001 --> 01:03:26,034
- Mm-hmm.
- And I'm gonna continue
1574
01:03:26,069 --> 01:03:26,968
to show you
how I feel about you
1575
01:03:27,004 --> 01:03:29,237
and where I'm at with you
1576
01:03:29,273 --> 01:03:31,540
as I'm falling in love
with you.
1577
01:03:31,575 --> 01:03:33,241
- I believe you.
1578
01:03:33,277 --> 01:03:36,378
You know, I'm, like,
head over heels for you.
1579
01:03:36,413 --> 01:03:39,614
I'm completely in love
with you.
1580
01:03:39,650 --> 01:03:42,484
[romantic music]
1581
01:03:42,519 --> 01:03:45,220
♪ ♪
1582
01:03:45,255 --> 01:03:48,089
I'm really happy
I was honest with matt.
1583
01:03:48,125 --> 01:03:50,926
He really does
make me feel so good,
1584
01:03:50,961 --> 01:03:56,464
and I just really feel like
I gained that confidence back.
1585
01:03:56,500 --> 01:03:57,933
Okay, that actually
looks really good.
1586
01:03:57,968 --> 01:03:59,134
I really am in love with him,
1587
01:03:59,169 --> 01:04:04,372
and I'm just a happier, better
person when I'm with him.
1588
01:04:04,408 --> 01:04:06,875
♪ ♪
1589
01:04:06,910 --> 01:04:09,344
every part of me wants matt,
1590
01:04:09,379 --> 01:04:12,314
and I'm really excited
for tonight
1591
01:04:12,349 --> 01:04:14,182
to actually have him
all to myself.
1592
01:04:14,218 --> 01:04:16,351
[giggles]
oh, my god.
1593
01:04:16,386 --> 01:04:18,153
Wait.
1594
01:04:18,188 --> 01:04:18,787
[laughing]
that was really impressive.
1595
01:04:18,822 --> 01:04:20,188
- [laughs]
1596
01:04:25,462 --> 01:04:28,330
[soft music]
1597
01:04:28,365 --> 01:04:33,768
♪ ♪
1598
01:04:33,804 --> 01:04:36,104
- hello.
- Hey.
1599
01:04:36,139 --> 01:04:37,873
Are you cold?
- No. I'm great.
1600
01:04:37,908 --> 01:04:38,740
- How are you?
- I'm good.
1601
01:04:38,775 --> 01:04:40,976
♪ ♪
1602
01:04:41,011 --> 01:04:42,077
I'm excited for tonight.
1603
01:04:42,112 --> 01:04:44,379
- You look so cute.
- Thank you.
1604
01:04:44,414 --> 01:04:45,814
- I love what you're wearing.
- You look good.
1605
01:04:45,849 --> 01:04:47,048
- I can't feel my feet.
1606
01:04:47,084 --> 01:04:48,683
- Let's go inside.
- Yeah. [laughs]
1607
01:04:48,719 --> 01:04:52,320
tonight is our potential
fantasy suite
1608
01:04:52,356 --> 01:04:54,155
and probably the most
important night
1609
01:04:54,191 --> 01:04:57,225
that I spent with matt.
1610
01:04:57,261 --> 01:04:59,427
Being intimate's
really important to have
1611
01:04:59,463 --> 01:05:00,795
in a relationship,
especially someone
1612
01:05:00,831 --> 01:05:03,531
that you're gonna spend
the rest of your life with,
1613
01:05:03,567 --> 01:05:06,668
so I'm nervous
going into tonight.
1614
01:05:06,703 --> 01:05:08,603
Oh, this is cute.
1615
01:05:08,639 --> 01:05:09,671
I really do put walls up,
1616
01:05:09,706 --> 01:05:13,975
and I've never
let my guard down like this,
1617
01:05:14,011 --> 01:05:16,311
but I see him as my husband.
1618
01:05:16,346 --> 01:05:17,512
You know,
I want to be his wife,
1619
01:05:17,547 --> 01:05:18,747
and I feel like
there's just, like,
1620
01:05:18,782 --> 01:05:21,850
that really special intimacy
that you share with one another
1621
01:05:21,885 --> 01:05:22,951
that you don't share
with anyone else.
1622
01:05:22,986 --> 01:05:26,755
So that's exactly
what I'm looking for tonight.
1623
01:05:26,790 --> 01:05:28,623
[laughs]
- wow.
1624
01:05:28,659 --> 01:05:30,125
That looks great.
1625
01:05:30,160 --> 01:05:32,360
Is that one of the dresses?
- Yep.
1626
01:05:32,396 --> 01:05:33,161
Mm-hmm.
1627
01:05:33,196 --> 01:05:34,829
- How are you feeling?
1628
01:05:34,865 --> 01:05:37,565
I think, um...
1629
01:05:37,601 --> 01:05:39,935
Yeah, I think I had
a really good day with you.
1630
01:05:39,970 --> 01:05:42,237
I feel like--
1631
01:05:42,272 --> 01:05:43,338
I'm kind of, like,
mad at myself
1632
01:05:43,373 --> 01:05:47,475
for being so worried this week.
1633
01:05:47,511 --> 01:05:49,811
I've really struggled
with, you know,
1634
01:05:49,846 --> 01:05:51,479
putting my guard down
1635
01:05:51,515 --> 01:05:55,450
and being completely open
and honest
1636
01:05:55,485 --> 01:05:56,885
and really communicating
exactly how I feel,
1637
01:05:56,920 --> 01:05:59,921
so, like, I really didn't want
to do that today,
1638
01:05:59,957 --> 01:06:01,489
but I also knew I had to.
1639
01:06:01,525 --> 01:06:04,025
- No, and I want you
to be comfortable
1640
01:06:04,061 --> 01:06:06,494
to have those conversations...
- Yeah.
1641
01:06:06,530 --> 01:06:08,096
- Because I haven't
in the past.
1642
01:06:08,131 --> 01:06:10,432
I'm trying to do all the things
1643
01:06:10,467 --> 01:06:13,168
that I wish I would've done
in the past,
1644
01:06:13,203 --> 01:06:14,235
and one of those
being communication...
1645
01:06:14,271 --> 01:06:15,804
- Yeah.
- And, I mean--
1646
01:06:15,839 --> 01:06:16,938
- I mean, I've told you
the same thing for me.
1647
01:06:16,974 --> 01:06:18,306
Like...
- Yeah.
1648
01:06:18,342 --> 01:06:20,408
- Ever since
that very first night
1649
01:06:20,444 --> 01:06:23,244
and being able
to just let that guard down,
1650
01:06:23,280 --> 01:06:24,479
as scary as it is...
- Mm-hmm.
1651
01:06:24,514 --> 01:06:27,615
- I've already found
a lot of, like, comfort
1652
01:06:27,651 --> 01:06:29,651
in leaning on you,
and I think that, like,
1653
01:06:29,686 --> 01:06:32,687
I've just been so worried
about getting hurt
1654
01:06:32,723 --> 01:06:34,756
and getting heartbroken
that I haven't even
1655
01:06:34,791 --> 01:06:36,791
really thought about
if that's something
1656
01:06:36,827 --> 01:06:38,326
that you're worried about,
1657
01:06:38,362 --> 01:06:39,928
'cause I didn't know
if you have had, like,
1658
01:06:39,963 --> 01:06:44,466
any worries or any insecurities
throughout this whole thing.
1659
01:06:44,501 --> 01:06:46,768
- I felt like...
[clears throat]
1660
01:06:46,803 --> 01:06:49,070
a lot of things
in my past relationships,
1661
01:06:49,106 --> 01:06:51,473
I held back
because of personal things
1662
01:06:51,508 --> 01:06:53,174
that I hadn't addressed,
and being here,
1663
01:06:53,210 --> 01:06:56,077
I'm just like,
"what's holding me back
1664
01:06:56,113 --> 01:06:58,279
from that next step?"
- yeah.
1665
01:06:58,315 --> 01:07:00,982
- And the way that I was raised
and, um,
1666
01:07:01,018 --> 01:07:03,818
like, not having my dad around
and how that affected us,
1667
01:07:03,854 --> 01:07:09,557
like, what I saw as marriage,
a relationship, at a young age,
1668
01:07:09,593 --> 01:07:11,826
maybe things from that
I'm projecting
1669
01:07:11,862 --> 01:07:14,729
or had projected on
relationships I've been in,
1670
01:07:14,765 --> 01:07:16,598
and I just know
I needed to talk to him.
1671
01:07:16,633 --> 01:07:20,402
And having that conversation
helped me
1672
01:07:20,437 --> 01:07:21,836
have clarity about
what I want--
1673
01:07:21,872 --> 01:07:23,705
- I was gonna ask
if you got any clarity.
1674
01:07:23,740 --> 01:07:24,873
- Yeah, 100%.
1675
01:07:24,908 --> 01:07:27,075
That's what I've been trying
to do with you,
1676
01:07:27,110 --> 01:07:30,011
with myself, is just make sure
that my mind's cleared
1677
01:07:30,047 --> 01:07:31,813
of anything that would keep me
1678
01:07:31,848 --> 01:07:34,649
from pursuing you
and love wholeheartedly.
1679
01:07:34,684 --> 01:07:35,984
- Mm-hmm.
1680
01:07:36,019 --> 01:07:37,218
- Because the big conclusion
for me
1681
01:07:37,254 --> 01:07:40,522
at the end of that conversation
was I'm nothing like my dad.
1682
01:07:40,557 --> 01:07:41,489
You know?
1683
01:07:41,525 --> 01:07:43,558
What I view family,
relationship,
1684
01:07:43,593 --> 01:07:44,759
and commitment
is different than him.
1685
01:07:44,795 --> 01:07:49,664
- I mean, I think, like--
I hate to...
1686
01:07:49,699 --> 01:07:51,766
'cause I obviously don't know
exactly, like,
1687
01:07:51,802 --> 01:07:53,268
what you went through,
but I do think
1688
01:07:53,303 --> 01:07:54,602
that you learned
so much from it,
1689
01:07:54,638 --> 01:07:56,304
from what it sounds like.
1690
01:07:56,339 --> 01:07:58,406
Of course, you would've chosen
1691
01:07:58,442 --> 01:07:59,774
to have it differently
growing up,
1692
01:07:59,810 --> 01:08:02,444
but I think that you are
the man that you are today
1693
01:08:02,479 --> 01:08:04,679
because of all
of those things--
1694
01:08:04,714 --> 01:08:06,815
or in spite of not
having him there.
1695
01:08:06,850 --> 01:08:08,450
- Yeah.
1696
01:08:08,485 --> 01:08:09,684
- And I know that
you would never,
1697
01:08:09,719 --> 01:08:13,922
you know,
walk away from a family.
1698
01:08:13,957 --> 01:08:15,090
- I can't tell you how much
I appreciate that.
1699
01:08:15,125 --> 01:08:20,161
- You know, I love the idea
of you always being there
1700
01:08:20,197 --> 01:08:22,931
for me, but also for them.
1701
01:08:22,966 --> 01:08:24,933
You're all I think about,
1702
01:08:24,968 --> 01:08:27,368
and, you know,
when I'm thinking about you,
1703
01:08:27,404 --> 01:08:29,971
it is about our future together
1704
01:08:30,006 --> 01:08:33,141
and you getting down
on one knee at the end of this,
1705
01:08:33,176 --> 01:08:36,544
and...You know,
1706
01:08:36,580 --> 01:08:37,745
I don't know exactly
where you're at.
1707
01:08:37,781 --> 01:08:40,615
If you do feel like
something's holding you back
1708
01:08:40,650 --> 01:08:41,716
because of that relationship
with your dad,
1709
01:08:41,751 --> 01:08:45,320
I'm glad that you, you know,
did get some clarity.
1710
01:08:45,355 --> 01:08:48,957
I wanted to tell you that I am
100% completely ready for that
1711
01:08:48,992 --> 01:08:50,058
if you give us that chance,
1712
01:08:50,093 --> 01:08:54,762
and I am ready to take on
life with you and, like,
1713
01:08:54,798 --> 01:08:55,897
whatever it throws our way.
[laughs]
1714
01:08:55,932 --> 01:08:57,398
- same.
1715
01:08:57,434 --> 01:08:59,000
- I really do think that.
1716
01:08:59,035 --> 01:09:00,101
You're laughing at me.
1717
01:09:00,137 --> 01:09:01,369
- I'm--I'm happy.
1718
01:09:01,404 --> 01:09:02,170
I'm not laughing.
- But I--no.
1719
01:09:02,205 --> 01:09:03,438
I really do think that.
1720
01:09:03,473 --> 01:09:04,239
If you had a ring
in your pocket right now
1721
01:09:04,274 --> 01:09:06,441
and pulled it out,
I would say yes.
1722
01:09:06,476 --> 01:09:07,575
- [laughing]
- I feel like I've been ready
1723
01:09:07,611 --> 01:09:09,544
for, like, weeks
up to this point.
1724
01:09:09,579 --> 01:09:10,211
[laughs]
1725
01:09:10,247 --> 01:09:13,615
[gentle music]
1726
01:09:13,650 --> 01:09:15,483
♪ ♪
1727
01:09:15,519 --> 01:09:16,518
- tonight, I'm just thinking
1728
01:09:16,553 --> 01:09:19,120
about what life
would look like with rachael,
1729
01:09:19,156 --> 01:09:22,423
the man that I want to be
and the family I want to have,
1730
01:09:22,459 --> 01:09:23,825
and she continues
to blow me away.
1731
01:09:23,860 --> 01:09:27,462
Well, there is one more thing.
- Okay.
1732
01:09:27,497 --> 01:09:28,796
- Do you want to read it?
1733
01:09:28,832 --> 01:09:32,834
She's smart, beautiful,
she's articulate, she's sexy,
1734
01:09:32,869 --> 01:09:35,036
and everything
that she embodies...
1735
01:09:35,071 --> 01:09:36,371
♪ ♪
1736
01:09:36,406 --> 01:09:38,139
it's, uh--it's incredible.
1737
01:09:38,175 --> 01:09:42,977
- "should you choose to forego
your individual rooms,
1738
01:09:43,013 --> 01:09:44,145
please use this key..."
1739
01:09:44,181 --> 01:09:45,180
- I'm falling for rachael,
1740
01:09:45,215 --> 01:09:48,316
and I wanna continue
to show rachael
1741
01:09:48,351 --> 01:09:49,284
how much I care about her,
1742
01:09:49,319 --> 01:09:51,219
and I couldn't think
of a better way
1743
01:09:51,254 --> 01:09:52,754
to spend the night.
1744
01:09:52,789 --> 01:09:54,389
- Yeah, I mean,
1745
01:09:54,424 --> 01:09:55,890
I really do want that time
with you.
1746
01:09:55,926 --> 01:09:58,126
I've really been looking
forward to that time with you.
1747
01:09:58,161 --> 01:09:59,994
- [chuckles]
1748
01:10:00,030 --> 01:10:02,630
- let's do it.
[laughs]
1749
01:10:02,666 --> 01:10:05,667
I cannot wait to have
this night with him,
1750
01:10:05,702 --> 01:10:06,968
especially after having
a really hard week,
1751
01:10:07,003 --> 01:10:10,605
but, you know, I would jump
out of that plane again.
1752
01:10:10,640 --> 01:10:12,707
I would go through
this week again.
1753
01:10:12,742 --> 01:10:15,043
I would do everything
100 more times
1754
01:10:15,078 --> 01:10:16,244
to be here right now.
1755
01:10:16,279 --> 01:10:20,682
I've really needed this
uninterrupted time with him.
1756
01:10:20,717 --> 01:10:23,751
- What do you think?
[both laughing]
1757
01:10:23,787 --> 01:10:24,986
- [laughs]
1758
01:10:25,021 --> 01:10:26,654
♪ ♪
1759
01:10:26,690 --> 01:10:28,489
wow.
1760
01:10:28,525 --> 01:10:29,757
This is, like,
actually happening.
1761
01:10:29,793 --> 01:10:32,160
I feel like I couldn't
be any more excited.
1762
01:10:32,195 --> 01:10:35,797
I get to spend the night
with the man that I love,
1763
01:10:35,832 --> 01:10:37,365
and I get to wake up
next to him.
1764
01:10:37,400 --> 01:10:40,635
[fireworks popping]
1765
01:10:40,670 --> 01:10:42,270
what the hell?
Oh, my god!
1766
01:10:42,305 --> 01:10:44,706
Wait.
- [laughing]
1767
01:10:44,741 --> 01:10:46,641
♪ ♪
1768
01:10:46,676 --> 01:10:48,943
- oh, my god.
1769
01:10:48,979 --> 01:10:55,917
♪ ♪
1770
01:10:55,952 --> 01:10:58,653
as if my time
with matt tonight
1771
01:10:58,688 --> 01:10:59,787
couldn't be any more magical
already.
1772
01:10:59,823 --> 01:11:02,924
♪ ♪
1773
01:11:02,959 --> 01:11:07,695
I've never wanted anyone more
in my entire life.
1774
01:11:07,731 --> 01:11:11,199
♪ ♪
1775
01:11:11,234 --> 01:11:12,600
I really do love the man.
1776
01:11:12,636 --> 01:11:14,168
I wanna spend my life with him,
1777
01:11:14,204 --> 01:11:15,303
I wanna be his wife,
1778
01:11:15,338 --> 01:11:16,771
and I am so ready for this.
1779
01:11:16,806 --> 01:11:18,006
♪ ♪
1780
01:11:18,041 --> 01:11:21,209
I hope that he goes and gets
a ring while I'm asleep
1781
01:11:21,244 --> 01:11:24,479
and...
[laughs]
1782
01:11:24,514 --> 01:11:26,047
I wake up
with a ring on my finger.
1783
01:11:26,082 --> 01:11:31,452
♪ ♪
1784
01:11:33,290 --> 01:11:35,523
[wind whistling]
1785
01:11:35,558 --> 01:11:38,126
[soft dramatic music]
1786
01:11:38,161 --> 01:11:43,965
♪ ♪
1787
01:11:44,000 --> 01:11:47,368
- tonight feels
incredibly intense.
1788
01:11:47,404 --> 01:11:49,170
This is the last rose ceremony.
1789
01:11:49,205 --> 01:11:50,838
♪ ♪
1790
01:11:50,874 --> 01:11:52,040
the two women
who get roses tonight
1791
01:11:52,075 --> 01:11:56,010
will be the two women
who meet matt's family,
1792
01:11:56,046 --> 01:11:58,846
and then there's
that next step after that,
1793
01:11:58,882 --> 01:12:00,882
which would hopefully
be a proposal.
1794
01:12:00,917 --> 01:12:06,954
♪ ♪
1795
01:12:06,990 --> 01:12:08,523
going into tonight's
rose ceremony,
1796
01:12:08,558 --> 01:12:12,627
I don't think there's a way
to not be nervous.
1797
01:12:12,662 --> 01:12:15,763
Everything
that I came here for
1798
01:12:15,799 --> 01:12:17,865
was to see
if I could find my person
1799
01:12:17,901 --> 01:12:20,335
that I'm going to spend
the rest of my life with.
1800
01:12:20,370 --> 01:12:21,703
- Hi, michelle.
1801
01:12:21,738 --> 01:12:23,004
- Hi. How are you?
- How you doing?
1802
01:12:23,039 --> 01:12:24,906
Good to see you.
- So nice to see you.
1803
01:12:24,941 --> 01:12:28,009
- [breathes deeply]
how you doing tonight?
1804
01:12:28,044 --> 01:12:31,713
- I mean, this is the love
that I've been looking for,
1805
01:12:31,748 --> 01:12:34,749
so it feels comfortable
and exciting
1806
01:12:34,784 --> 01:12:37,218
and scary in all the best ways.
1807
01:12:37,253 --> 01:12:39,654
- But you're there.
- I'm there.
1808
01:12:39,689 --> 01:12:41,923
- Well, head on inside.
- [exhales]
1809
01:12:41,958 --> 01:12:43,491
♪ ♪
1810
01:12:43,526 --> 01:12:45,293
I'm in love with matt.
1811
01:12:45,328 --> 01:12:46,327
He's the person that I want
1812
01:12:46,363 --> 01:12:47,428
to spend the rest
of my life with.
1813
01:12:47,464 --> 01:12:49,497
Part of me feels like
I'm on top of the world.
1814
01:12:49,532 --> 01:12:52,233
Part of me feels scared
for tonight.
1815
01:12:52,268 --> 01:12:54,669
♪ ♪
1816
01:12:54,704 --> 01:12:55,903
I'm really hoping
to get that rose tonight
1817
01:12:55,939 --> 01:12:58,940
so that I can take
that next step with matt.
1818
01:12:58,975 --> 01:13:00,208
♪ ♪
1819
01:13:00,243 --> 01:13:01,409
- hi, bri.
1820
01:13:01,444 --> 01:13:02,610
- Hi. How are you?
1821
01:13:02,645 --> 01:13:04,145
- It's good to see you.
1822
01:13:04,180 --> 01:13:05,880
- Good to see you.
1823
01:13:05,915 --> 01:13:07,515
- How you feeling?
1824
01:13:07,550 --> 01:13:09,117
- Better than last week.
1825
01:13:09,152 --> 01:13:09,984
[laughs]
- yeah?
1826
01:13:10,019 --> 01:13:13,187
- But after fantasy suites, um,
1827
01:13:13,223 --> 01:13:15,590
I felt like I got to know him
a lot more...
1828
01:13:15,625 --> 01:13:17,225
- Yeah.
- And really got
1829
01:13:17,260 --> 01:13:19,660
the opportunity
to progress our relationship,
1830
01:13:19,696 --> 01:13:21,028
so I feel really good
about that.
1831
01:13:21,064 --> 01:13:23,598
- Well, ready or not,
head on inside.
1832
01:13:23,633 --> 01:13:24,899
- Kay. Thank you.
- All right.
1833
01:13:24,934 --> 01:13:26,367
♪ ♪
1834
01:13:26,403 --> 01:13:30,438
- I am in love with matt.
1835
01:13:30,473 --> 01:13:32,240
I don't think I knew how badly
1836
01:13:32,275 --> 01:13:34,542
I want to wake up to him
every morning,
1837
01:13:34,577 --> 01:13:38,613
and I feel so good
when I'm with him,
1838
01:13:38,648 --> 01:13:41,015
but, obviously,
just very scary.
1839
01:13:41,050 --> 01:13:44,185
All three of us
have extremely high hopes
1840
01:13:44,220 --> 01:13:45,953
going into tonight...
1841
01:13:45,989 --> 01:13:46,821
♪ ♪
1842
01:13:46,856 --> 01:13:49,090
and one of us
1843
01:13:49,125 --> 01:13:51,893
is going to be completely
blindsided.
1844
01:13:51,928 --> 01:13:53,895
♪ ♪
1845
01:13:53,930 --> 01:13:55,029
- rach, it's so good
to see you.
1846
01:13:55,064 --> 01:13:56,431
- Thank you. You too.
1847
01:13:56,466 --> 01:13:58,232
- How you feeling?
1848
01:13:58,268 --> 01:13:59,133
- Nervous, as usual,
1849
01:13:59,169 --> 01:14:02,103
but I--I also feel
really, really good.
1850
01:14:02,138 --> 01:14:04,105
I love him.
1851
01:14:04,140 --> 01:14:05,273
- No doubts.
- Yeah. No doubts.
1852
01:14:05,308 --> 01:14:09,677
I've never been so confident
about anything in my life.
1853
01:14:09,712 --> 01:14:11,412
- Well, you ready?
- Yeah.
1854
01:14:11,448 --> 01:14:13,314
- All right.
Head on inside.
1855
01:14:13,349 --> 01:14:14,248
- All right. Thank you.
1856
01:14:14,284 --> 01:14:16,451
[inhales deeply]
1857
01:14:16,486 --> 01:14:17,919
I love matt james...
[laughs]
1858
01:14:17,954 --> 01:14:19,120
so much.
1859
01:14:19,155 --> 01:14:23,691
My fantasy suite with matt
just solidified
1860
01:14:23,726 --> 01:14:27,795
every single piece
of our relationship
1861
01:14:27,831 --> 01:14:29,030
and the way we feel
about each other.
1862
01:14:29,065 --> 01:14:30,198
♪ ♪
1863
01:14:30,233 --> 01:14:34,335
I believe matt and I's
relationship is different,
1864
01:14:34,370 --> 01:14:36,003
and what we have,
1865
01:14:36,039 --> 01:14:38,573
he can't have that
with two other women.
1866
01:14:38,608 --> 01:14:43,311
I don't think a rose has ever
held more weight to it.
1867
01:14:43,346 --> 01:14:45,880
♪ ♪
1868
01:14:45,915 --> 01:14:47,415
- tonight is gonna be tough.
1869
01:14:47,450 --> 01:14:48,282
[sighs]
1870
01:14:48,318 --> 01:14:50,318
at this point,
every woman here
1871
01:14:50,353 --> 01:14:52,386
has made it clear that they're
falling in love with me,
1872
01:14:52,422 --> 01:14:54,355
and I'm falling in love
with them too.
1873
01:14:54,390 --> 01:14:58,192
Everyone who's here
I could see being my wife,
1874
01:14:58,228 --> 01:15:00,561
but I just know
what I have to do,
1875
01:15:00,597 --> 01:15:04,232
and it just hurts my heart.
1876
01:15:04,267 --> 01:15:08,336
Ultimately, someone's
gonna go home brokenhearted.
1877
01:15:08,371 --> 01:15:11,138
There's nothing any
of these women have done...
1878
01:15:11,174 --> 01:15:13,508
♪ ♪
1879
01:15:13,543 --> 01:15:15,510
to deserve that.
1880
01:15:16,980 --> 01:15:23,784
This week has been monumental.
1881
01:15:23,820 --> 01:15:25,152
I didn't think
that it was possible
1882
01:15:25,188 --> 01:15:31,158
to have these strong feelings
for multiple people,
1883
01:15:31,194 --> 01:15:34,562
but here we are,
our final rose ceremony...
1884
01:15:34,597 --> 01:15:36,197
[soft dramatic music]
1885
01:15:36,232 --> 01:15:38,199
and I just gotta continue
to follow my heart...
1886
01:15:38,234 --> 01:15:39,834
♪ ♪
1887
01:15:39,869 --> 01:15:42,770
and this
is the hardest decision...
1888
01:15:42,805 --> 01:15:45,106
[sighs]
I've had to make.
1889
01:15:45,141 --> 01:15:51,846
♪ ♪
1890
01:16:06,129 --> 01:16:07,995
michelle.
1891
01:16:08,031 --> 01:16:12,166
♪ ♪
1892
01:16:12,201 --> 01:16:13,367
michelle, will you accept
this rose?
1893
01:16:13,403 --> 01:16:15,202
- Yes.
1894
01:16:15,238 --> 01:16:16,370
Thank you.
1895
01:16:16,406 --> 01:16:23,611
♪ ♪
1896
01:16:36,492 --> 01:16:39,927
- my only fear, at this point,
is losing matt
1897
01:16:39,963 --> 01:16:42,863
and having to try
and figure out
1898
01:16:42,899 --> 01:16:44,498
how to live my life
without him.
1899
01:16:44,534 --> 01:16:47,068
I've never felt like this
about anyone else,
1900
01:16:47,103 --> 01:16:49,270
so I really don't know
1901
01:16:49,305 --> 01:16:51,172
how I would be able
to accept that.
1902
01:16:51,207 --> 01:16:53,674
♪ ♪
1903
01:16:53,710 --> 01:16:58,245
- this is all very
uncharted territory for me--
1904
01:16:58,281 --> 01:17:01,248
feelings that I've not felt
about someone.
1905
01:17:01,284 --> 01:17:03,451
I've told him
I'm in love with him,
1906
01:17:03,486 --> 01:17:07,521
and that all could be erased.
1907
01:17:07,557 --> 01:17:14,762
♪ ♪
1908
01:17:22,438 --> 01:17:24,739
- rachael.
1909
01:17:29,746 --> 01:17:30,478
Rachael, will you accept
this rose?
1910
01:17:30,513 --> 01:17:33,080
- Yes.
1911
01:17:33,116 --> 01:17:34,548
Thank you.
1912
01:17:34,584 --> 01:17:38,219
[solemn music]
1913
01:17:38,254 --> 01:17:40,321
- [sighs]
1914
01:17:40,356 --> 01:17:43,457
♪ ♪
1915
01:17:43,493 --> 01:17:44,392
- bri, I'm sorry.
1916
01:17:44,427 --> 01:17:46,394
Take a moment.
Say your goodbyes.
1917
01:17:46,429 --> 01:17:48,496
♪ ♪
1918
01:17:48,531 --> 01:17:51,232
- bye.
- [sighs]
1919
01:17:51,267 --> 01:17:57,972
♪ ♪
1920
01:18:05,615 --> 01:18:08,783
- [exhales]
1921
01:18:14,157 --> 01:18:15,289
- [sighs]
1922
01:18:15,324 --> 01:18:22,029
♪ ♪
1923
01:18:26,602 --> 01:18:28,502
I'm sorry.
1924
01:18:28,538 --> 01:18:30,705
♪ ♪
1925
01:18:30,740 --> 01:18:32,139
not that I was looking
1926
01:18:32,175 --> 01:18:35,443
for some justification
for this,
1927
01:18:35,478 --> 01:18:41,749
but there wasn't something
that came up this week,
1928
01:18:41,784 --> 01:18:42,850
and that's what makes it
so hard.
1929
01:18:42,885 --> 01:18:46,520
It would've been easy
if I could point to one thing
1930
01:18:46,556 --> 01:18:49,390
and say that that's why.
1931
01:18:49,425 --> 01:18:52,626
♪ ♪
1932
01:18:52,662 --> 01:18:55,629
it's just a feeling that you
have when you're with somebody.
1933
01:18:55,665 --> 01:18:56,931
- [softly]
yeah.
1934
01:18:56,966 --> 01:18:58,132
- And it's nothing
to do with you
1935
01:18:58,167 --> 01:19:00,301
and who you are
and how incredible you are...
1936
01:19:00,336 --> 01:19:01,469
♪ ♪
1937
01:19:01,504 --> 01:19:07,708
and everything to do with
where my heart's leading me.
1938
01:19:07,744 --> 01:19:09,243
- Yeah, I just--
1939
01:19:09,278 --> 01:19:11,479
I can't be upset
or I can't be angry,
1940
01:19:11,514 --> 01:19:15,449
but I can be really sad
and disappointed and hurt,
1941
01:19:15,485 --> 01:19:20,187
but...I don't know
that that's at you.
1942
01:19:20,223 --> 01:19:22,556
I don't know what that's at,
so...
1943
01:19:22,592 --> 01:19:28,262
♪ ♪
1944
01:19:28,297 --> 01:19:31,966
obviously, I gave up a lot
to be here.
1945
01:19:32,001 --> 01:19:36,170
It is hard, um,
to think about, like,
1946
01:19:36,205 --> 01:19:40,074
not being able
to, um, see you again,
1947
01:19:40,109 --> 01:19:42,610
but I think that's
just how this goes.
1948
01:19:42,645 --> 01:19:49,216
You are going to be moving on
to someone else,
1949
01:19:49,252 --> 01:19:52,686
and I think that's
what makes it harder.
1950
01:19:52,722 --> 01:19:58,926
♪ ♪
1951
01:19:58,961 --> 01:20:01,228
- I'll walk you to the car.
- Kay.
1952
01:20:01,264 --> 01:20:02,563
- [sighs]
1953
01:20:02,598 --> 01:20:09,537
♪ ♪
1954
01:20:09,572 --> 01:20:11,705
- bye.
- Bye.
1955
01:20:11,741 --> 01:20:14,542
[dramatic music]
1956
01:20:14,577 --> 01:20:21,282
♪ ♪
1957
01:20:25,755 --> 01:20:28,022
- [exhales]
1958
01:20:35,431 --> 01:20:37,565
- [sighs]
1959
01:20:37,600 --> 01:20:44,205
♪ ♪
1960
01:20:45,675 --> 01:20:47,107
[sighs]
1961
01:20:50,379 --> 01:20:52,546
- it's really disappointing
and sad
1962
01:20:52,582 --> 01:20:54,648
that it wasn't me.
1963
01:20:54,684 --> 01:20:58,986
♪ ♪
1964
01:20:59,021 --> 01:21:02,356
it's hard, 'cause...
1965
01:21:02,391 --> 01:21:04,391
What I thought we had
was special,
1966
01:21:04,427 --> 01:21:07,428
but it couldn't have been
all for nothing.
1967
01:21:07,463 --> 01:21:08,462
♪ ♪
1968
01:21:08,497 --> 01:21:09,730
um...
1969
01:21:09,765 --> 01:21:13,133
♪ ♪
1970
01:21:13,169 --> 01:21:16,503
yeah, it really
couldn't have been.
1971
01:21:16,539 --> 01:21:18,639
- [sighs]
1972
01:21:18,674 --> 01:21:21,475
- I mean, I wish I were
standing up there still.
1973
01:21:21,510 --> 01:21:24,745
♪ ♪
1974
01:21:24,780 --> 01:21:27,414
- [chuckles]
1975
01:21:27,450 --> 01:21:34,154
♪ ♪
1976
01:21:37,193 --> 01:21:38,759
- next week
on "the bachelor"...
1977
01:21:38,794 --> 01:21:40,261
[wind whistling]
1978
01:21:40,296 --> 01:21:43,163
it's an emotional
season finale
1979
01:21:43,199 --> 01:21:46,000
when matt's journey comes
to a dramatic conclusion.
1980
01:21:46,035 --> 01:21:47,468
- I'm about to make
1981
01:21:47,503 --> 01:21:49,770
one of the most important
decisions of my life
1982
01:21:49,805 --> 01:21:54,141
to find love, to find a wife,
to leave this thing engaged.
1983
01:21:54,176 --> 01:21:55,442
- Rachael, I'm patty.
- Yes.
1984
01:21:55,478 --> 01:21:56,677
Nice to meet you.
- Nice to meet you.
1985
01:21:56,712 --> 01:21:59,914
- My brother and my mom, they
know me better than anybody.
1986
01:21:59,949 --> 01:22:01,382
She doesn't want me to make
1987
01:22:01,417 --> 01:22:02,449
the same mistake
that my dad made.
1988
01:22:02,485 --> 01:22:05,552
- Every time I see him,
my heart's racing.
1989
01:22:05,588 --> 01:22:07,521
I really do picture this future
with him.
1990
01:22:07,556 --> 01:22:09,356
- Ooh!
1991
01:22:09,392 --> 01:22:10,658
I've been looking
for this type of love
1992
01:22:10,693 --> 01:22:11,892
for such a long time.
1993
01:22:11,928 --> 01:22:13,894
- Thank you so much.
- You're gonna make me cry.
1994
01:22:13,930 --> 01:22:14,728
[both laughing]
1995
01:22:14,764 --> 01:22:17,031
- love is a wonderful thing,
1996
01:22:17,066 --> 01:22:18,499
but it's not gonna be easy.
1997
01:22:18,534 --> 01:22:20,034
Love is not
the end-all, be-all.
1998
01:22:20,069 --> 01:22:22,803
- Hearing everything
that my mom had been through
1999
01:22:22,838 --> 01:22:25,439
just takes me back
to a very dark place.
2000
01:22:25,474 --> 01:22:28,008
[crying]
2001
01:22:28,044 --> 01:22:29,710
- you okay?
- No. [laughs]
2002
01:22:29,745 --> 01:22:31,111
- [sighs]
2003
01:22:31,147 --> 01:22:33,647
- no, I'm not.
- I'm sorry, matt.
2004
01:22:33,683 --> 01:22:34,748
♪ ♪
2005
01:22:34,784 --> 01:22:37,351
- yeah.
2006
01:22:37,386 --> 01:22:39,320
- Do you know
if you can do this anymore?
2007
01:22:39,355 --> 01:22:42,623
- To be honest with you,
I don't know, chris.
2008
01:22:42,658 --> 01:22:44,925
♪ ♪
2009
01:22:44,961 --> 01:22:48,162
everything that I thought
I was working towards
2010
01:22:48,197 --> 01:22:49,463
is starting to crumble.
2011
01:22:49,498 --> 01:22:51,065
- [crying]
2012
01:22:51,100 --> 01:22:53,600
tell me where you're at.
2013
01:22:53,636 --> 01:22:55,703
[crying]
2014
01:22:55,738 --> 01:22:58,372
- he didn't even
want to see me today.
2015
01:22:58,407 --> 01:22:59,707
I feel pretty in the dark
right now.
2016
01:22:59,742 --> 01:23:01,775
[crying]
2017
01:23:01,811 --> 01:23:03,110
- [sighs]
2018
01:23:03,145 --> 01:23:04,878
I don't know what I'ma do.
2019
01:23:04,914 --> 01:23:06,013
- It's all coming up next week
2020
01:23:06,048 --> 01:23:10,084
on the shocking season finale
of "the bachelor."
2021
01:23:10,119 --> 01:23:11,952
- how do you make your s'mores?
2022
01:23:11,988 --> 01:23:14,021
- Uh...
- Have to bake it.
2023
01:23:14,056 --> 01:23:15,756
Ooh.
- [laughs]
2024
01:23:15,791 --> 01:23:17,224
[playful music]
2025
01:23:17,259 --> 01:23:18,425
[both laughing]
yours look nasty.
2026
01:23:18,461 --> 01:23:21,862
- Can you--
the burnt, the better.
2027
01:23:21,897 --> 01:23:22,963
No?
- Yeah, right.
2028
01:23:22,999 --> 01:23:24,365
- Yes. Look at this.
2029
01:23:24,400 --> 01:23:25,899
♪ ♪
2030
01:23:25,935 --> 01:23:26,867
[crackers crunching]
2031
01:23:26,902 --> 01:23:28,469
♪ ♪
2032
01:23:28,504 --> 01:23:30,637
- [laughs]
- whoa, whoa, whoa.
2033
01:23:30,673 --> 01:23:32,072
♪ ♪
2034
01:23:32,108 --> 01:23:32,573
what are you about to do here?
2035
01:23:32,608 --> 01:23:34,908
- Improvise.
2036
01:23:34,944 --> 01:23:36,643
- [laughing]
2037
01:23:36,679 --> 01:23:39,580
- why are you laughing at me?
- I'm--[laughs]
2038
01:23:39,615 --> 01:23:40,748
- we might've just
figured something out here.
2039
01:23:40,783 --> 01:23:43,317
- Okay, but it looks
a little, um, burned.
2040
01:23:43,352 --> 01:23:44,852
- It is smoking.
Oh, shoot.
2041
01:23:44,887 --> 01:23:46,854
Is that the tinfoil
that's on fire?
2042
01:23:46,889 --> 01:23:48,489
- [laughing]
2043
01:23:48,524 --> 01:23:49,490
- ooh.
2044
01:23:51,227 --> 01:23:53,761
How good does that look?
2045
01:23:53,796 --> 01:23:55,496
- Um...
2046
01:23:55,531 --> 01:23:59,066
♪ ♪
2047
01:23:59,101 --> 01:24:00,734
hot?
- [grunting]
2048
01:24:00,770 --> 01:24:02,669
- [laughs]
2049
01:24:02,705 --> 01:24:04,772
- [coughing]
2050
01:24:04,807 --> 01:24:05,906
- are you okay?
2051
01:24:05,941 --> 01:24:08,308
- [coughing]
2052
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that was a horrible idea.