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‐ Tonight on "The Bachelor"...
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[dramatic music]
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It's an emotional
season finale
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as Matt's journey comes
to a shocking conclusion.
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‐ I'm about to make
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one of the most important
decisions of my life‐‐
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to find love,
to find a wife,
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to leave this thing engaged.
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♪ ♪
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I don't‐‐I don't know
what I'ma do.
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‐ Two women have captured
his heart,
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Rachael and Michelle.
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‐ I am very much in love
with your son.
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[both laugh]
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‐ Every time I see him,
I can't breathe.
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I really love him.
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‐ But is Matt really ready
to commit to love?
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‐ I don't like to sound
negative or anything, but...
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‐ Whoo!
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‐ It's gonna be tough
for Matt.
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‐ You can't just say
it's all love.
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Love is not
the end‐all, be‐all.
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‐ [crying]
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‐ It's not gonna be easy.
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‐ [sighs]
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‐ Can he overcome
his biggest fear?
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‐ I feel like everything
that I was working towards
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is starting to crumble.
‐ [sniffs]
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‐ Or will he close his heart
to love forever?
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‐ He didn't even wanna
see me today.
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‐ Tell me where you're at.
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‐ I don't know how to go on.
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‐ [sniffles]
‐ And I'm scared.
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‐ [crying]
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‐ Is love enough?
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[sighs, sniffs]
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‐ And later tonight...
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‐ My name is Emmanuel Acho.
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I'm sitting in
for Chris Harrison tonight,
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which already makes this
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the most shocking
"After the Final Rose" ever.
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‐ Unpack Matt's traumatic
journey to find love.
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‐ It felt like an extended
honeymoon period.
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‐ Are y'all still together?
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‐ [laughs]
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‐ And dive into
all the controversy.
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‐ Photos recently emerged
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of you at a Antebellum
plantation‐themed party.
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‐ [sniffs]
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‐ Matt,
how hard is this on you?
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♪ ♪
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‐ [sighs]
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‐ Plus a shocking reveal
that changes everything.
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‐ We're gonna meet
our new Bachelorette.
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And if you think
you know who it is,
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get ready for a curveball,
Bachelor Nation.
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‐ It's all happening tonight
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on the stunning season finale
of "The Bachelor."
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[wind whistling]
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[soft music]
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♪ ♪
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‐ It's the final week.
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Getting to this point,
it's been such a long journey.
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It's down to two women,
Michelle and Rachael,
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and I'm all‐in
with the both of them.
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Like, Michelle,
when you have a checklist
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of everything you're
looking for in a wife‐‐
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someone who's loyal,
someone who's smart,
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understanding, patient, kind‐‐
that's Michelle.
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Rachael is someone that
I'm obviously attracted to,
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but the thing that I'm most
attracted to about Rachael
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is she's someone
who pushes me to be open,
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pushes me to be vulnerable
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and tap into those sides
of my emotions and feelings
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that I've ran from
in the past.
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Last week, that conversation
with my dad,
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it was very intense.
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I know that the insecurities
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that I've always had
in relationships
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are rooted in what I saw
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in his relationship
with my mom.
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But, you know, I'm not my dad.
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I know what I want.
I want a family.
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I want to be a husband.
I want to have kids.
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‐ [laughing]
‐ What's up? Oh.
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‐ Hey, babe.
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[laughs]
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‐ Today, my mom and brother
are up here,
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and I'm very excited
for them to meet
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the two women that I've
been falling in love with.
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Love you too.
‐ You look great.
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‐ What's up, money?
‐ What up, fool?
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With the decisions I have
coming up, I need counsel.
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‐ You got the waves going?
‐ Got the waves going.
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‐ Okay.
[laughter]
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‐ Knowing how important
family is to me,
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there's a lot riding
on these conversations.
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[sighs]
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‐ Matt, we've been in suspense
sitting here.
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‐ For real?
‐ Yes.
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‐ Um, I don't even know
where to start.
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Like, there's so much stuff
that's happened,
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and, um, you all know.
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I'm‐‐I'm very closed off
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when it comes to relationships
in the past
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and not sharing my emotions
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and how I'm feeling
about stuff,
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and that's not why I came here,
you know?
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I came here to‐‐to find a wife
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and have an engagement
at the end of this,
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and I'm on my way,
but this is a important week,
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because I care deeply
about what y'all think.
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‐ Do you feel confident
in the decisions you've made
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up until this point?
‐ I do.
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So there's two women left:
Michelle and Rachael.
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Michelle,
you're gonna meet today,
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and she was a late addition
to the process,
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but I‐‐I don't tell her
that she was late.
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I‐‐I tell her
that she was right on time.
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‐ Mm‐hmm.
‐ Just because of
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how she uses her time,
what we talk about,
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what she's into,
how our lives‐‐
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pretty parallel, in terms
of what she's experienced.
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‐ It's exciting to see you
so animated...
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‐ Yeah.
‐ And happy and expressive,
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and I can't wait
to meet the girls, Matt.
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There's nothing I want more
for Matt
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to find love from a woman
that truly cares about him.
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‐ I think Michelle's
pulling up,
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so I'ma go check on Michelle,
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and I'll be back shortly.
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‐ All right, babe.
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I think it's a long shot
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that Matt would be engaged
at the end of this,
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but I am gonna give him
my opinion,
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and I'll trust him
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to make the right decision,
given that.
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‐ Mm!
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It's snowing.
‐ It's snowing.
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‐ [laughs]
‐ Are we in Minnesota?
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‐ I know.
I brought the weather to you.
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[romantic music]
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I feel really good.
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It was really exciting
to wake up this morning
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knowing that I get to meet
Matt's family.
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‐ Hey.
‐ Hi.
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‐ Hey.
‐ [laughs]
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How are you doing?
‐ Good.
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‐ It's so nice
to finally meet you.
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‐ You, too, Michelle.
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‐ Hi, John.
How are you doing?
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‐ Hi, Michelle.
I'm good.
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Nice to finally meet you.
‐ Nice to meet you as well.
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Today I get to meet Matt's mom.
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I know what she means to Matt,
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how incredibly important
she is.
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I want his mom and his brother
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to know that
I am in love with Matt.
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‐ [laughs]
‐ So we're here.
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I want to make sure
that they see that today.
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[sighs]
‐ Well, you look so nice.
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‐ Thank you.
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Literally, from one
of our first conversations,
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we had about you.
[laughs]
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All good things, I promise.
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‐ I need a hanky,
'cause I know I'm gonna cry.
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‐ The fact that I'm sitting
in front of you guys,
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I'm so excited.
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‐ Tell me a little bit
about yourself.
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‐ Well, I'm
an elementary school teacher,
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and when I was thinking about
taking this opportunity,
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it was really scary for me
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to put everything on hold
back home,
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but what I knew about Matt
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and just kind of felt this pull
and I'm like,
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"I have to figure out
what this is."
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Like, he's a world‐changer,
and that's...
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‐ Mm.
‐ Exactly what I'm looking for.
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‐ Michelle,
would you like to chat?
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‐ Yes.
‐ Okay.
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What I'ma be looking for
when it comes to Michelle
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is not necessarily
something that's spoken.
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It's gonna be a vibe
that I'll be able to pick up.
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‐ How you feeling?
‐ I'm feeling good.
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I don't like to sound
negative or anything,
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but I'ma just keep it real.
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What type of qualities
do you see in my brother
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that make you feel as if, like,
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he could be a possible
long‐term partner in your life?
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‐ I mean, the biggest thing
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is that I know
that I can trust him.
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I know that he's a man
of his word,
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and so when he's
saying something to me,
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I know that he means it,
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and that's, like, the biggest
thing that's important to me.
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‐ So trust.
‐ Yeah.
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‐ How long ago
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was the last serious
relationship you were in?
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‐ Yeah.
So that ended in January.
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It was something that should've
ended before‐‐well before that,
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just because
it became unhealthy.
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‐ Okay.
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‐ Have you seen him
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in, like,
past relationships before?
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‐ No, no, and that's why
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this is, like,
a new experience to me,
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because he's
kind of been, like,
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sheltered with his feelings
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and his personal relationships
with women in the past, so...
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‐ Mm‐hmm.
‐ This is new for me.
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I was just observing
the body language,
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and just looking at my brother
and looking at you.
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Like, my brother
legitimately is happy.
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That's really all I care about,
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and he seems like he's in
a good place right now, so...
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It seems like Matt
has found somebody
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that's, uh,
a good match for him
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just based off of, uh,
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what I've experienced
being around her.
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♪ ♪
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As long as my mom
likes Michelle and it's like,
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"Yeah, this is somebody
I can see with my son"...
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‐ All right.
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‐ It's really
the ultimate testament
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whether this will end up
being long‐term or not.
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‐ It's nice to meet you.
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‐ It's so nice to meet you too.
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‐ I mean, I knew Matt
was going on this experience
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to meet somebody that
he could fall in love with,
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and it's really neat‐‐
you saw me crying up there.
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‐ I know, I know.
I can‐‐I can only imagine.
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‐ When your family met Matt,
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um, were you‐‐did you have
a peace about that?
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‐ Oh, I was so excited
to introduce my family to him.
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My mom was able to take
one look at me.
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She kind of choked up and said,
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"Do you think
that Matt's the one?"
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and my answer was yes.
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‐ Sounds like you had
a very cohesive family life...
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‐ Yeah.
‐ Which is a blessing,
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because Matt, growing up,
tended to choose friends
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that had very strong families,
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and I would always just...
[sniffs]
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[voice breaking]
It was just a blessing,
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'cause I felt like
I couldn't offer him that.
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[gentle music]
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But to see that he's grown up
253
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to be who he is...
254
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♪ ♪
255
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Makes me feel so proud,
256
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because he has overcome a lot.
257
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‐ For me, when I'm looking
at Matt and how he grew up,
258
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it's not seen as, like,
this disadvantage.
259
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I appreciate that about him,
260
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because it makes him
also grateful for other things
261
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that, you know, people
might tend to look past...
262
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‐ Mm.
263
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‐ And I am very much
in love with your son,
264
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and for me to feel this deeply
about somebody so quick
265
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is something that surprised me,
266
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but it also doesn't scare me,
267
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because I'm very confident
in what I feel for him.
268
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‐ For you to be open
and honest with me
269
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and tell me how you feel
about my son...
270
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‐ Mm‐hmm.
‐ It's an honor.
271
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♪ ♪
272
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[sniffs]
273
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It's all I can say.
274
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♪ ♪
275
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I mean, I...
276
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I have no control, really,
over who Matt loves or who...
277
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‐ Yeah.
‐ Who loves him.
278
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I can only hope it's, you know,
279
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someone that's gonna
nurture him and love him,
280
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and so...
281
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and‐‐and, you know,
talking to you, Michelle,
282
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I see you're a sweetheart
in how you are.
283
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‐ You're gonna make me cry.
284
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[both laughing]
285
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The conversation
with Matt's mom,
286
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I feel like that‐‐
287
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her opinion
carries so much weight.
288
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I really hope that I was able
to leave his mom
289
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with that feeling of,
she knows he would be okay
290
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if he chose me
at the end of this.
291
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‐ I can see how she made it
to your final two.
292
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‐ Yeah.
293
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‐ Couldn't have been sweeter
and easier to be around.
294
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‐ Yeah. Yeah.
295
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I, uh‐‐I‐‐I like her, you know?
‐ Mm.
296
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‐ I told her‐‐uh, she knows
that I'm falling for her...
297
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‐ Mm‐hmm.
‐ And hopefully,
298
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I can get to that point
299
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where I'm ready to be engaged
at the end of this.
300
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‐ You're feeling comfortable
in making those decisions,
301
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and‐‐and that‐‐
that brings me joy.
302
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I mean, that's what you want
to raise your sons to do.
303
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‐ It's because of what
I've learned from you, though.
304
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You know, I've seen
how you've handled yourself
305
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and how you've handled
John and I,
306
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and I'm always
gonna lean on you
307
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for that advice and counsel,
308
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because you're someone
I love and respect
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and have gone through
everything imaginable,
310
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and it would be foolish
not to‐‐to lean on you
311
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for that counsel.
312
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‐ I love seeing you happy...
‐ [chuckles]
313
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‐ Because these are hard days,
and there's a lot of things
314
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that you could
be sad about right now.
315
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So much uncertainty,
316
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and I come here,
and you're happy,
317
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and you might've found
your wife.
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I mean, what more could I want?
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‐ I love you.
‐ I love you, babe.
320
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I wouldn't have missed it
for anything.
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Excited.
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‐ All right.
323
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‐ Mm.
324
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After Michelle
and getting to know her
325
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and spending time with her,
326
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if things work out
with Matt and Michelle,
327
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I could totally see her
being a part of the family.
328
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‐ John put me in the hot seat.
329
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‐ I knew that
he was gonna grill you.
330
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[laughter]
331
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Today was a celebration.
332
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Like, I see this day
as a celebration,
333
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celebrating where I'm at
334
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in my relationship
with Michelle,
335
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and celebrating Michelle
meeting my family.
336
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I knew Michelle and my mom
would hit it off.
337
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This is how I wanted this time
to go with my family,
338
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and that's how it went.
339
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Seeing how my conversation went
with your mom and dad,
340
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being a part of your family,
341
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like, I wanted you to leave
with that same feeling,
342
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and it's not something
that I can, like, reproduce.
343
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It's just something
that you've gotta feel,
344
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and, um...
‐ Mm‐hmm.
345
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I definitely feel that.
346
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[romantic music]
347
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♪ ♪
348
00:13:36,649 --> 00:13:39,085
‐ Michelle continues
to set the bar high
349
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for what I'm looking for,
350
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for what I expect
in a relationship,
351
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for what I'm looking for
in a wife,
352
00:13:43,022 --> 00:13:45,224
and I'm continuously
pinching myself
353
00:13:45,224 --> 00:13:46,492
that someone like Michelle
is here.
354
00:13:46,492 --> 00:13:48,828
Like, how has she not
been swooped up?
355
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‐ [exhales]
356
00:13:50,530 --> 00:13:53,032
Oh, wait.
Forgot something.
357
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♪ ♪
358
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[laughing]
359
00:13:57,503 --> 00:13:59,138
Dang it.
360
00:13:59,138 --> 00:14:01,207
[laughing]
‐ That was a head shot.
361
00:14:01,207 --> 00:14:02,742
I'm extremely excited
362
00:14:02,742 --> 00:14:04,477
about where we're at
in our relationship,
363
00:14:04,477 --> 00:14:06,846
and you never know
how something's gonna go.
364
00:14:06,846 --> 00:14:08,548
You just cross your fingers
and pray...
365
00:14:08,548 --> 00:14:10,616
♪ ♪
366
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‐ Ahh!
367
00:14:11,651 --> 00:14:14,087
[both laughing]
368
00:14:14,087 --> 00:14:16,322
‐ And today couldn't have gone
any better.
369
00:14:16,322 --> 00:14:23,363
♪ ♪
370
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[soft music]
371
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♪ ♪
372
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‐ Coming into today,
I'm excited.
373
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I had a great time
with my family yesterday.
374
00:14:47,653 --> 00:14:50,790
Having them meet Michelle
was incredible,
375
00:14:50,790 --> 00:14:53,326
and today,
they get to meet Rachael,
376
00:14:53,326 --> 00:14:56,529
which I'm also extremely
excited about.
377
00:14:56,529 --> 00:15:00,366
Rachael is someone who just
brings out the best in me,
378
00:15:00,366 --> 00:15:03,269
and it's evident‐‐just the way
we spend our time together.
379
00:15:03,269 --> 00:15:04,971
‐ Whoo! Hi.
[laughs]
380
00:15:04,971 --> 00:15:07,140
‐ Mm. Good to see you.
381
00:15:07,140 --> 00:15:08,741
‐ Good to see you.
I missed you.
382
00:15:08,741 --> 00:15:10,543
‐ I missed you.
‐ How've you been?
383
00:15:10,543 --> 00:15:11,744
‐ Good.
‐ Good?
384
00:15:11,744 --> 00:15:13,980
‐ All right.
‐ Mm‐hmm.
385
00:15:13,980 --> 00:15:15,681
‐ Today's about sharing
the things
386
00:15:15,681 --> 00:15:17,750
that I love about Rachael
with my family
387
00:15:17,750 --> 00:15:19,519
and hopefully
get their approval on it...
388
00:15:19,519 --> 00:15:20,720
‐ Yeah, of course.
389
00:15:20,720 --> 00:15:22,255
‐ And if that can't
take place,
390
00:15:22,255 --> 00:15:24,590
then we can't move forward.
391
00:15:24,590 --> 00:15:26,893
Hopefully, uh,
392
00:15:26,893 --> 00:15:29,629
you know, it goes
as well as I hope it does.
393
00:15:29,629 --> 00:15:31,898
You're gonna be meeting Mom,
Patty...
394
00:15:31,898 --> 00:15:33,166
‐ Okay.
‐ Or Ms. James,
395
00:15:33,166 --> 00:15:34,400
whichever one
you're more comfortable with.
396
00:15:34,400 --> 00:15:36,369
‐ Mm‐hmm.
‐ And then John,
397
00:15:36,369 --> 00:15:37,403
my older brother.
398
00:15:37,403 --> 00:15:38,905
He might grill you...
‐ Okay.
399
00:15:38,905 --> 00:15:40,473
‐ But give it back to him.
400
00:15:40,473 --> 00:15:41,474
‐ Okay.
‐ Like, be yourself.
401
00:15:41,474 --> 00:15:42,575
You're incredible,
402
00:15:42,575 --> 00:15:44,177
and I want them to see
who you are
403
00:15:44,177 --> 00:15:45,745
and who
I've fallen in love with.
404
00:15:45,745 --> 00:15:47,280
‐ All right.
Easier said than done.
405
00:15:47,280 --> 00:15:50,683
‐ Right, exactly.
‐ [laughs]
406
00:15:50,683 --> 00:15:52,385
I'm so nervous.
407
00:15:52,385 --> 00:15:54,020
Today is the day
408
00:15:54,020 --> 00:15:56,889
that I finally get to meet
Matt's family,
409
00:15:56,889 --> 00:15:58,891
and this is the last
410
00:15:58,891 --> 00:16:01,961
really big step
in our relationship
411
00:16:01,961 --> 00:16:02,962
before that engagement.
412
00:16:02,962 --> 00:16:04,897
Hi.
‐ Hi.
413
00:16:04,897 --> 00:16:06,399
‐ Hey.
‐ How are you?
414
00:16:06,399 --> 00:16:07,767
‐ Good.
‐ I'm Rachael.
415
00:16:07,767 --> 00:16:08,835
‐ Rachael, I'm Patty.
‐ Yes.
416
00:16:08,835 --> 00:16:10,369
Nice to meet you.
‐ Nice to meet you.
417
00:16:10,369 --> 00:16:13,272
‐ Of course, I‐‐I want
Matt's mom and Matt's brother
418
00:16:13,272 --> 00:16:18,711
to like me and to, you know,
accept me into their family.
419
00:16:18,711 --> 00:16:20,480
If they didn't approve
of our relationship,
420
00:16:20,480 --> 00:16:22,715
that probably would be
a deal‐breaker for him,
421
00:16:22,715 --> 00:16:25,918
so it's so important
to explain to them
422
00:16:25,918 --> 00:16:28,321
how much I love Matt
423
00:16:28,321 --> 00:16:31,757
and how much, you know,
I really see a future with him
424
00:16:31,757 --> 00:16:33,593
and how serious I am
about the two of us.
425
00:16:33,593 --> 00:16:36,095
‐ So how's your time been here?
‐ It's been really good.
426
00:16:36,095 --> 00:16:39,398
I mean, Matt's made it
so much easier than,
427
00:16:39,398 --> 00:16:42,401
you know, um, it could've been,
428
00:16:42,401 --> 00:16:45,304
but I just told myself,
for this to really work,
429
00:16:45,304 --> 00:16:46,973
I really do need
to wear my heart on my sleeve,
430
00:16:46,973 --> 00:16:50,076
and, I mean, it's gotten us
to where we are today,
431
00:16:50,076 --> 00:16:51,677
so I think it's worked.
432
00:16:51,677 --> 00:16:53,446
‐ Rachael, how were you able
to do that?
433
00:16:53,446 --> 00:16:55,214
Is that your natural go‐to?
‐ No.
434
00:16:55,214 --> 00:16:57,617
So that's what, I mean,
being completely honest,
435
00:16:57,617 --> 00:17:00,386
like, I've had trouble with
that as well, in the past,
436
00:17:00,386 --> 00:17:03,122
but I think, through it all,
like, I've always trusted Matt,
437
00:17:03,122 --> 00:17:04,524
and, like,
the very first night,
438
00:17:04,524 --> 00:17:06,692
he said the only way that
this is really gonna work
439
00:17:06,692 --> 00:17:09,595
is if we are completely open
and honest with each other
440
00:17:09,595 --> 00:17:12,732
through everything, even things
that we don't necessarily
441
00:17:12,732 --> 00:17:14,767
want to talk about, so...
‐ Mm‐hmm.
442
00:17:14,767 --> 00:17:17,937
‐ It's like that conversation
we had before our overnight,
443
00:17:17,937 --> 00:17:20,506
and like, how you're like,
"Look, this week was hard."
444
00:17:20,506 --> 00:17:22,608
‐ Mm‐hmm.
‐ Like, seeing everybody
445
00:17:22,608 --> 00:17:24,410
after they had gotten back,
and, like,
446
00:17:24,410 --> 00:17:25,745
I just wanted you to know
where we're at
447
00:17:25,745 --> 00:17:27,213
so that you don't ask, like,
448
00:17:27,213 --> 00:17:28,347
"What's off
with Rachael today?"
449
00:17:28,347 --> 00:17:30,216
‐ Mm‐hmm.
‐ And honestly, I loved that,
450
00:17:30,216 --> 00:17:33,185
because it's something that
I've never been able to do,
451
00:17:33,185 --> 00:17:34,887
and it's something
that I wouldn't have done,
452
00:17:34,887 --> 00:17:36,455
because I'm like,
"Ah, like, that's‐‐that's‐‐
453
00:17:36,455 --> 00:17:37,757
I'm not gonna worry about it."
‐ Mm‐hmm.
454
00:17:37,757 --> 00:17:39,125
‐ And then it becomes an issue,
and it's like,
455
00:17:39,125 --> 00:17:40,359
if we would've just
addressed it,
456
00:17:40,359 --> 00:17:42,328
then we could've nipped it
in the bud.
457
00:17:42,328 --> 00:17:43,663
‐ Yeah.
458
00:17:43,663 --> 00:17:47,300
‐ I definitely am seeing
a new side to my brother
459
00:17:47,300 --> 00:17:48,734
that I haven't seen before,
460
00:17:48,734 --> 00:17:50,770
and I'm happy that he's
reached a point in his life
461
00:17:50,770 --> 00:17:52,872
where he feels
comfortable enough
462
00:17:52,872 --> 00:17:54,340
to, um,
463
00:17:54,340 --> 00:17:56,709
put his feelings and emotions
on the table.
464
00:17:56,709 --> 00:17:57,944
Would you like to chat,
Rachael?
465
00:17:57,944 --> 00:18:00,012
‐ Of course.
‐ Okay.
466
00:18:00,012 --> 00:18:02,248
I definitely see a connection
467
00:18:02,248 --> 00:18:04,183
between my brother
and Rachael,
468
00:18:04,183 --> 00:18:07,453
and, um, I'm just looking
forward to getting to know her
469
00:18:07,453 --> 00:18:10,456
and getting to hear a little
bit about her background.
470
00:18:10,456 --> 00:18:13,059
How many serious relationships
would you say
471
00:18:13,059 --> 00:18:15,227
that you've been in
throughout your life?
472
00:18:15,227 --> 00:18:18,431
‐ I really haven't
been in a lot.
473
00:18:18,431 --> 00:18:21,701
Um, I had one serious boyfriend
in high school,
474
00:18:21,701 --> 00:18:24,170
and then I had one
serious boyfriend
475
00:18:24,170 --> 00:18:25,571
towards the end of college,
and that's it.
476
00:18:25,571 --> 00:18:28,007
‐ Have you ever experienced
true love before?
477
00:18:28,007 --> 00:18:31,210
‐ I've loved people,
and I've cared for people,
478
00:18:31,210 --> 00:18:33,879
but I don't think I've ever
been truly, like,
479
00:18:33,879 --> 00:18:35,147
in love with someone
480
00:18:35,147 --> 00:18:37,183
and to where I can see
my future with him,
481
00:18:37,183 --> 00:18:40,219
and this probably sounds crazy,
482
00:18:40,219 --> 00:18:42,021
but I just feel like he is
483
00:18:42,021 --> 00:18:44,690
the other half of me
that I've needed.
484
00:18:44,690 --> 00:18:46,726
‐ What qualities
do you see in Matt...
485
00:18:46,726 --> 00:18:47,860
[clears throat]
486
00:18:47,860 --> 00:18:51,063
That you could possibly
see in a husband
487
00:18:51,063 --> 00:18:53,199
or a long‐term partner?
488
00:18:53,199 --> 00:18:55,401
‐ He makes me feel really safe.
489
00:18:55,401 --> 00:18:56,869
He makes me feel comfortable.
490
00:18:56,869 --> 00:19:01,273
He is so funny and goofy,
491
00:19:01,273 --> 00:19:03,309
but then,
at the other side of things,
492
00:19:03,309 --> 00:19:05,144
he's really understanding.
493
00:19:05,144 --> 00:19:06,712
He's a great listener.
494
00:19:06,712 --> 00:19:09,382
You know, every time I see him,
I can't breathe,
495
00:19:09,382 --> 00:19:11,884
and my heart's racing,
and I get butterflies,
496
00:19:11,884 --> 00:19:14,920
and I really do picture
this future with him.
497
00:19:14,920 --> 00:19:17,256
‐ So what do you think so far?
498
00:19:17,256 --> 00:19:19,492
‐ She's cute,
and I like that she feels free
499
00:19:19,492 --> 00:19:22,094
to be herself around you,
500
00:19:22,094 --> 00:19:23,996
and I think you feel like you
can be yourself around her.
501
00:19:23,996 --> 00:19:25,264
‐ I do, yeah,
502
00:19:25,264 --> 00:19:27,733
and it's something I've felt
for a long time.
503
00:19:27,733 --> 00:19:30,336
You know, like, it just flows
when I'm with Rachael.
504
00:19:30,336 --> 00:19:32,772
Like, the time flies,
and we have fun together...
505
00:19:32,772 --> 00:19:34,874
‐ Mm.
‐ And I know that there's
506
00:19:34,874 --> 00:19:36,375
a lot more to a relationship
than that,
507
00:19:36,375 --> 00:19:38,344
but we've talked about
a lot of other things
508
00:19:38,344 --> 00:19:40,546
that factor into what you're
looking for in a mate,
509
00:19:40,546 --> 00:19:43,315
and just in the little things
and how she carries herself.
510
00:19:43,315 --> 00:19:45,551
It's‐‐it's gotta
be foreshadowing
511
00:19:45,551 --> 00:19:47,720
of how she's gonna handle
more important things
512
00:19:47,720 --> 00:19:48,854
as they come up.
513
00:19:48,854 --> 00:19:51,390
‐ And that, you know‐‐
that's important.
514
00:19:51,390 --> 00:19:52,525
‐ Yeah.
515
00:19:52,525 --> 00:19:54,093
‐ I know it's important
for Matt
516
00:19:54,093 --> 00:19:55,628
to have our approval‐‐
517
00:19:55,628 --> 00:19:58,330
the family's approval,
my approval and his brother‐‐
518
00:19:58,330 --> 00:20:02,234
and, for me,
engagement is something
519
00:20:02,234 --> 00:20:03,569
not to just take a gamble at.
520
00:20:03,569 --> 00:20:06,439
You wanna know,
is it enduring love,
521
00:20:06,439 --> 00:20:09,809
because feelings come and go,
and so I am very curious
522
00:20:09,809 --> 00:20:12,344
what Rachael
has to say and thinks
523
00:20:12,344 --> 00:20:15,081
and get to know her.
524
00:20:15,081 --> 00:20:17,416
So you feel like you're
at a point in your life
525
00:20:17,416 --> 00:20:21,587
where you could
become engaged...
526
00:20:21,587 --> 00:20:22,722
‐ Yeah. Mm‐hmm.
527
00:20:22,722 --> 00:20:24,356
‐ Or see a future
with somebody?
528
00:20:24,356 --> 00:20:25,458
‐ Mm‐hmm.
529
00:20:25,458 --> 00:20:27,259
So I think,
as I've gotten older,
530
00:20:27,259 --> 00:20:30,196
I've realized, like, the thing
that's gonna fulfill my life
531
00:20:30,196 --> 00:20:32,898
and the thing that's gonna
really put meaning into it
532
00:20:32,898 --> 00:20:34,100
is love,
533
00:20:34,100 --> 00:20:36,569
and throughout
this entire experience,
534
00:20:36,569 --> 00:20:38,571
I told Matt, you know,
535
00:20:38,571 --> 00:20:41,640
I think we were just blessed
to be given this opportunity.
536
00:20:41,640 --> 00:20:44,210
‐ So was there a time
that it became apparent
537
00:20:44,210 --> 00:20:46,512
that you were falling
in love with Matt, Rachael?
538
00:20:46,512 --> 00:20:47,847
‐ I think it was just
little things,
539
00:20:47,847 --> 00:20:49,582
you know,
throughout the process
540
00:20:49,582 --> 00:20:54,620
that I was just, like,
in awe of him with everything,
541
00:20:54,620 --> 00:20:57,123
and, um, I think, um,
542
00:20:57,123 --> 00:21:00,726
we finally had that first
one‐on‐one date together,
543
00:21:00,726 --> 00:21:04,063
and just that feeling
that we were sharing together
544
00:21:04,063 --> 00:21:06,832
and the way that he made me
feel throughout the entire day.
545
00:21:06,832 --> 00:21:09,135
‐ Right.
‐ And, um...
546
00:21:09,135 --> 00:21:11,570
I think I had just known
before that.
547
00:21:11,570 --> 00:21:12,772
I mean, truly,
from the first night,
548
00:21:12,772 --> 00:21:14,106
I was like,
549
00:21:14,106 --> 00:21:16,041
"I'm going to really
fall in love with this man."
550
00:21:16,041 --> 00:21:17,209
I already‐‐I just knew it,
551
00:21:17,209 --> 00:21:18,844
because my faith with God
552
00:21:18,844 --> 00:21:21,180
is, like, a very personal,
important thing,
553
00:21:21,180 --> 00:21:23,315
and he came in,
and the first thing that he did
554
00:21:23,315 --> 00:21:25,184
was pray over us.
555
00:21:25,184 --> 00:21:28,020
I just...
I'm gonna get emotional.
556
00:21:28,020 --> 00:21:29,188
‐ [whispering]
I know. Me too.
557
00:21:29,188 --> 00:21:31,991
‐ Sorry.
[both laughing]
558
00:21:31,991 --> 00:21:34,493
I, um...
559
00:21:34,493 --> 00:21:36,428
like, truly felt it in my soul,
560
00:21:36,428 --> 00:21:38,998
that, um,
561
00:21:38,998 --> 00:21:40,900
you know, this is where
I was supposed to be,
562
00:21:40,900 --> 00:21:43,669
and I really thought
that Matt‐‐
563
00:21:43,669 --> 00:21:45,171
you know, I was supposed
to be here for Matt
564
00:21:45,171 --> 00:21:47,039
and that this was God's way
565
00:21:47,039 --> 00:21:49,675
of, you know,
putting us together,
566
00:21:49,675 --> 00:21:51,277
because...
[sniffs]
567
00:21:51,277 --> 00:21:53,679
You know, I don't know how
I would've met him
568
00:21:53,679 --> 00:21:56,248
outside of this, you know?
‐ Right. Right.
569
00:21:56,248 --> 00:21:58,450
Rachael, my heart resonates,
570
00:21:58,450 --> 00:22:01,287
because I hear you.
571
00:22:01,287 --> 00:22:02,822
‐ Mm.
‐ [sniffs]
572
00:22:02,822 --> 00:22:04,323
[gentle music]
573
00:22:04,323 --> 00:22:05,324
Um...
574
00:22:05,324 --> 00:22:06,325
[sniffs]
575
00:22:06,325 --> 00:22:10,796
♪ ♪
576
00:22:10,796 --> 00:22:15,634
And your feelings
and where they come from...
577
00:22:15,634 --> 00:22:17,002
‐ Mm‐hmm.
578
00:22:17,002 --> 00:22:19,572
‐ It means a lot to me.
579
00:22:19,572 --> 00:22:21,073
‐ I mean,
I just wanna let you know
580
00:22:21,073 --> 00:22:26,412
that I really, really truly
do love your son.
581
00:22:26,412 --> 00:22:28,981
I think Matt is the most
incredible man
582
00:22:28,981 --> 00:22:32,284
that I've ever met
in my entire life.
583
00:22:32,284 --> 00:22:33,619
[sniffs]
584
00:22:33,619 --> 00:22:35,654
Matt is so perfect in my eyes.
585
00:22:35,654 --> 00:22:39,091
Like, he's everything that I...
586
00:22:39,091 --> 00:22:40,459
[sighs]
587
00:22:40,459 --> 00:22:44,830
Have hoped for, prayed for,
dreamt about‐‐everything.
588
00:22:44,830 --> 00:22:45,931
But really, it was...
‐ Rachael.
589
00:22:45,931 --> 00:22:46,999
‐ So nice getting
to meet you...
590
00:22:46,999 --> 00:22:48,334
‐ Thank you.
‐ And talk to you.
591
00:22:48,334 --> 00:22:51,704
I really hope that
Matt's brother and Matt's mom
592
00:22:51,704 --> 00:22:54,840
did see where my heart
is at today.
593
00:22:54,840 --> 00:22:57,776
♪ ♪
594
00:22:57,776 --> 00:22:59,645
I really feel like
I can, like,
595
00:22:59,645 --> 00:23:02,181
begin my‐‐my life now.
596
00:23:02,181 --> 00:23:03,182
[laughs softly]
597
00:23:03,182 --> 00:23:05,551
God, I love him,
598
00:23:05,551 --> 00:23:07,720
too‐‐too much, obviously.
599
00:23:07,720 --> 00:23:09,788
[laughing, crying]
600
00:23:09,788 --> 00:23:11,257
‐ Did my brother grill you?
601
00:23:11,257 --> 00:23:12,458
‐ Totally.
‐ [laughing]
602
00:23:12,458 --> 00:23:13,459
‐ No, I'm just kidding.
603
00:23:13,459 --> 00:23:15,160
It wasn't bad.
‐ It wasn't bad?
604
00:23:15,160 --> 00:23:17,329
‐ No. Um...
‐ Okay, good.
605
00:23:17,329 --> 00:23:19,064
‐ [sighs]
606
00:23:19,064 --> 00:23:22,668
[sweeping music]
607
00:23:22,668 --> 00:23:24,370
‐ I feel great
608
00:23:24,370 --> 00:23:26,906
knowing that my family
liked Rachael a lot.
609
00:23:26,906 --> 00:23:28,374
I feel like today's been
610
00:23:28,374 --> 00:23:31,010
everything I would've thought
it would be and more.
611
00:23:31,010 --> 00:23:34,813
♪ ♪
612
00:23:34,813 --> 00:23:36,148
‐ I'll miss you.
‐ Yes.
613
00:23:36,148 --> 00:23:38,450
I'm ready for an engagement
and a marriage,
614
00:23:38,450 --> 00:23:41,120
and it's those things
where I'm just
615
00:23:41,120 --> 00:23:44,156
feeling grateful
and just humbled
616
00:23:44,156 --> 00:23:45,624
that my family's here
617
00:23:45,624 --> 00:23:47,960
so that I can make
the right decision.
618
00:23:47,960 --> 00:23:51,997
♪ ♪
619
00:23:54,099 --> 00:23:57,069
[soft music]
620
00:23:57,069 --> 00:24:00,239
♪ ♪
621
00:24:00,239 --> 00:24:02,074
‐ These last two days
were incredible,
622
00:24:02,074 --> 00:24:05,577
and I'm so stoked
that my family was out here
623
00:24:05,577 --> 00:24:07,947
to meet Michelle and Rachael,
624
00:24:07,947 --> 00:24:11,684
two women I'm falling for
that I think could be my wife,
625
00:24:11,684 --> 00:24:13,652
and I think it went great.
626
00:24:13,652 --> 00:24:15,587
My brother and my mom,
627
00:24:15,587 --> 00:24:17,323
they know me better
than anybody,
628
00:24:17,323 --> 00:24:19,591
and they know that I think
that marriage
629
00:24:19,591 --> 00:24:22,061
is the most important
commitment
630
00:24:22,061 --> 00:24:23,362
you could make to somebody.
631
00:24:23,362 --> 00:24:24,930
♪ ♪
632
00:24:24,930 --> 00:24:26,398
What up?
‐ Hey.
633
00:24:26,398 --> 00:24:28,000
Catching up on our opinions.
634
00:24:28,000 --> 00:24:30,903
‐ But having these feelings
and falling in love,
635
00:24:30,903 --> 00:24:32,504
this is all new to me,
636
00:24:32,504 --> 00:24:37,109
so I'm looking for clarity
or any validation from them,
637
00:24:37,109 --> 00:24:41,313
because I've got
the best two women for me
638
00:24:41,313 --> 00:24:42,548
in front of me.
639
00:24:42,548 --> 00:24:44,249
‐ It's fun to come
into your world
640
00:24:44,249 --> 00:24:46,885
and‐‐and meet your prospects.
641
00:24:46,885 --> 00:24:48,520
[laughter]
642
00:24:48,520 --> 00:24:49,888
My future daughter‐in‐law.
643
00:24:49,888 --> 00:24:51,490
‐ Future daughter‐in‐law.
‐ [laughs]
644
00:24:51,490 --> 00:24:53,892
They are both amazing.
645
00:24:53,892 --> 00:24:56,195
I mean, I loved talking to 'em.
‐ Mm‐hmm.
646
00:24:56,195 --> 00:24:58,163
‐ I have nothing
but warmth in my heart
647
00:24:58,163 --> 00:24:59,832
for those two girls.
‐ Yeah.
648
00:24:59,832 --> 00:25:02,501
Going into these next few days,
649
00:25:02,501 --> 00:25:05,771
I am gonna be in prayer,
you know,
650
00:25:05,771 --> 00:25:07,072
'cause that's the only thing
that gives me peace
651
00:25:07,072 --> 00:25:09,208
in this process,
and it's the only time
652
00:25:09,208 --> 00:25:11,510
that I feel like
I'm in control.
653
00:25:11,510 --> 00:25:13,312
‐ So with that being said...
‐ Mm‐hmm.
654
00:25:13,312 --> 00:25:15,247
‐ We're approaching
the end here...
655
00:25:15,247 --> 00:25:18,083
‐ Mm‐hmm.
‐ And so you've got
656
00:25:18,083 --> 00:25:19,685
one more date with each
of the girls, right?
657
00:25:19,685 --> 00:25:20,686
‐ Mm‐hmm.
658
00:25:20,686 --> 00:25:21,954
‐ Could you see yourself
659
00:25:21,954 --> 00:25:23,689
getting there
with one of these girls?
660
00:25:23,689 --> 00:25:25,457
‐ Yeah, that's why I came here,
you know?
661
00:25:25,457 --> 00:25:28,961
I've been open‐minded
this entire journey, you know?
662
00:25:28,961 --> 00:25:30,829
I've gotten to this point
where there's two women
663
00:25:30,829 --> 00:25:32,765
that I have
these strong feelings for
664
00:25:32,765 --> 00:25:34,800
and who I'm falling
in love with, s‐‐you know,
665
00:25:34,800 --> 00:25:38,070
and it's like,
I have no idea what I'ma do,
666
00:25:38,070 --> 00:25:40,406
but I've gotta make a...
667
00:25:40,406 --> 00:25:43,542
[scoffs]
A life‐changing decision.
668
00:25:43,542 --> 00:25:47,312
‐ Going into these
last final days,
669
00:25:47,312 --> 00:25:49,848
are there any concerns
you have?
670
00:25:49,848 --> 00:25:51,884
‐ Um, yeah.
671
00:25:51,884 --> 00:25:53,419
I've been in relationships
672
00:25:53,419 --> 00:25:55,554
where I told women
that I loved them before,
673
00:25:55,554 --> 00:25:56,989
in high school and college,
674
00:25:56,989 --> 00:26:00,192
and I thought I meant it,
you know, until I got here
675
00:26:00,192 --> 00:26:01,660
and I started
having conversations
676
00:26:01,660 --> 00:26:04,096
and sharing different parts
of my life with these women
677
00:26:04,096 --> 00:26:05,798
that I never shared
with anybody, you know,
678
00:26:05,798 --> 00:26:07,599
and love changed for me.
679
00:26:07,599 --> 00:26:09,168
Like, what I think love is now
680
00:26:09,168 --> 00:26:10,402
is different than
what I thought it was,
681
00:26:10,402 --> 00:26:12,738
and‐‐and not having
ever experienced
682
00:26:12,738 --> 00:26:14,339
what I'm experiencing,
you know,
683
00:26:14,339 --> 00:26:16,408
this decision's
gonna be so hard,
684
00:26:16,408 --> 00:26:18,811
because I‐‐I have things
about Michelle
685
00:26:18,811 --> 00:26:20,879
that I could see her
being an incredible wife,
686
00:26:20,879 --> 00:26:23,615
and then the same with Rachael.
687
00:26:23,615 --> 00:26:25,250
‐ Now I feel like
we are really talking
688
00:26:25,250 --> 00:26:26,552
about some important things,
689
00:26:26,552 --> 00:26:29,588
and, you know, when you say
you love somebody,
690
00:26:29,588 --> 00:26:31,857
does that mean,
"Oh, automatically,
691
00:26:31,857 --> 00:26:34,893
I'm gonna become engaged,"
or does that mean,
692
00:26:34,893 --> 00:26:37,863
"I feel comfortable enough
to see where this is gonna go
693
00:26:37,863 --> 00:26:39,498
down the road"?
694
00:26:39,498 --> 00:26:40,699
[tense music]
695
00:26:40,699 --> 00:26:42,668
You know, I know
you don't take love lightly
696
00:26:42,668 --> 00:26:45,404
and saying things lightly,
because what do you want?
697
00:26:45,404 --> 00:26:48,107
Good communication.
Trust.
698
00:26:48,107 --> 00:26:51,210
I mean,
I know they both love you,
699
00:26:51,210 --> 00:26:53,979
but feelings come and go,
700
00:26:53,979 --> 00:26:58,917
and to tell somebody
you love them is big,
701
00:26:58,917 --> 00:27:00,419
because that opens
their hearts up.
702
00:27:00,419 --> 00:27:02,354
♪ ♪
703
00:27:02,354 --> 00:27:05,023
And just speaking
from experience,
704
00:27:05,023 --> 00:27:08,260
there's nothing like
being in love.
705
00:27:08,260 --> 00:27:11,263
It makes life wonderful.
706
00:27:11,263 --> 00:27:13,398
But...
707
00:27:13,398 --> 00:27:15,334
you know,
people fall in and out of love,
708
00:27:15,334 --> 00:27:16,969
and love is not
the end‐all, be‐all.
709
00:27:16,969 --> 00:27:21,440
♪ ♪
710
00:27:21,440 --> 00:27:23,509
‐ Matt, you already know
711
00:27:23,509 --> 00:27:26,345
I support you
in everything that you do,
712
00:27:26,345 --> 00:27:29,948
so whatever you decide to do,
I'm on board,
713
00:27:29,948 --> 00:27:31,550
but don't feel like
714
00:27:31,550 --> 00:27:34,820
you have to jump into
making a decision
715
00:27:34,820 --> 00:27:37,055
where you're not ready.
716
00:27:37,055 --> 00:27:40,325
[somber music]
717
00:27:40,325 --> 00:27:43,128
♪ ♪
718
00:27:43,128 --> 00:27:44,129
‐ [quietly]
Yeah.
719
00:27:44,129 --> 00:27:47,132
♪ ♪
720
00:27:47,132 --> 00:27:50,602
‐ My mom, she's reiterating
721
00:27:50,602 --> 00:27:52,271
that, you know,
love isn't something
722
00:27:52,271 --> 00:27:54,806
that's gonna carry you through
a marriage or an engagement,
723
00:27:54,806 --> 00:27:59,144
and it just takes me back
to a very dark place,
724
00:27:59,144 --> 00:28:03,015
and I think about my dad
not being ready,
725
00:28:03,015 --> 00:28:04,950
and I think about
how that hurt my mom
726
00:28:04,950 --> 00:28:07,152
and destroyed our family.
727
00:28:07,152 --> 00:28:10,689
Now I'm having
this realization
728
00:28:10,689 --> 00:28:12,157
for the first time,
729
00:28:12,157 --> 00:28:14,092
and I'm just thinking
to myself, "Am I ready?"
730
00:28:14,092 --> 00:28:16,328
Am I ready to make that
731
00:28:16,328 --> 00:28:18,530
everlasting oath
and commitment,
732
00:28:18,530 --> 00:28:20,399
or just doing something
that...
733
00:28:20,399 --> 00:28:22,301
♪ ♪
734
00:28:22,301 --> 00:28:24,102
I'm not ready for?
735
00:28:24,102 --> 00:28:25,938
‐ Matt, what you've got
ahead of you,
736
00:28:25,938 --> 00:28:27,306
it's not gonna be easy,
737
00:28:27,306 --> 00:28:30,042
because you've got
people's emotions at stake.
738
00:28:30,042 --> 00:28:31,376
It's not gonna be easy,
739
00:28:31,376 --> 00:28:32,844
but I‐‐I know you're gonna
do it well,
740
00:28:32,844 --> 00:28:36,548
do the right things,
and I love you so much,
741
00:28:36,548 --> 00:28:39,351
and I want the best for you,
and, um,
742
00:28:39,351 --> 00:28:41,253
I'll be praying for you too.
743
00:28:41,253 --> 00:28:42,821
‐ I'm about to make
one of the most
744
00:28:42,821 --> 00:28:44,423
important decisions
of my life,
745
00:28:44,423 --> 00:28:48,493
and the assurance I was looking
for in those conversations
746
00:28:48,493 --> 00:28:51,296
was replaced with some doubt.
747
00:28:51,296 --> 00:28:53,532
‐ Love you, Mom.
‐ Love you too.
748
00:28:53,532 --> 00:28:57,369
‐ This is the final week,
and here I am,
749
00:28:57,369 --> 00:29:00,472
just questioning, am I ready?
750
00:29:00,472 --> 00:29:04,142
Because rushing into something
that I'm not ready for
751
00:29:04,142 --> 00:29:08,714
is not something that
I'm willing to be a part of,
752
00:29:08,714 --> 00:29:13,151
and now I don't know
what I'ma do.
753
00:29:13,151 --> 00:29:15,220
[sighs]
I don't know.
754
00:29:15,220 --> 00:29:20,292
♪ ♪
755
00:29:23,595 --> 00:29:25,597
[tense music]
756
00:29:25,597 --> 00:29:27,466
[bird calling]
757
00:29:27,466 --> 00:29:30,202
♪ ♪
758
00:29:30,202 --> 00:29:31,503
‐ The way that I thought
about this week
759
00:29:31,503 --> 00:29:33,038
and how I envisioned it going
760
00:29:33,038 --> 00:29:36,108
was me sharing
a special part of my life
761
00:29:36,108 --> 00:29:38,543
with my mom and my brother,
762
00:29:38,543 --> 00:29:40,912
being able to tell them
where I was at with Michelle,
763
00:29:40,912 --> 00:29:42,447
where I was at with Rachael,
764
00:29:42,447 --> 00:29:44,683
and why I could see
a life with them...
765
00:29:44,683 --> 00:29:46,685
♪ ♪
766
00:29:46,685 --> 00:29:49,154
But I'm flashing back
to the conversation I had
767
00:29:49,154 --> 00:29:52,557
with my mom and my brother,
and she's just like,
768
00:29:52,557 --> 00:29:55,861
"I just want you
to be careful...
769
00:29:55,861 --> 00:29:58,163
because feelings can fade."
770
00:29:58,163 --> 00:29:59,798
♪ ♪
771
00:29:59,798 --> 00:30:01,466
It's just having me
take a step back,
772
00:30:01,466 --> 00:30:03,935
and I'm just thinking
to myself, "Am I ready?"
773
00:30:03,935 --> 00:30:06,638
Like, what am I
looking for in this?
774
00:30:06,638 --> 00:30:08,907
[knock on door]
775
00:30:08,907 --> 00:30:10,442
So I need to talk to somebody
776
00:30:10,442 --> 00:30:13,111
who's seen this process
play out,
777
00:30:13,111 --> 00:30:14,112
for better or for worse.
778
00:30:14,112 --> 00:30:15,614
♪ ♪
779
00:30:15,614 --> 00:30:17,449
‐ Hey, man.
‐ What's up?
780
00:30:17,449 --> 00:30:19,418
‐ How you doing?
‐ Doing well.
781
00:30:19,418 --> 00:30:20,786
♪ ♪
782
00:30:20,786 --> 00:30:22,054
I'm about to make
783
00:30:22,054 --> 00:30:23,889
one of the most important
decisions of my life.
784
00:30:23,889 --> 00:30:25,023
‐ [sighs]
785
00:30:25,023 --> 00:30:26,858
So I hear you wanted to chat.
786
00:30:26,858 --> 00:30:29,194
‐ Yeah.
‐ What is going on?
787
00:30:29,194 --> 00:30:30,495
‐ [sighs]
788
00:30:30,495 --> 00:30:33,231
Um...
789
00:30:33,231 --> 00:30:36,802
I'm just thinking
about where I'm at.
790
00:30:36,802 --> 00:30:39,304
It's the last week,
791
00:30:39,304 --> 00:30:42,474
and I'm just leaving
that conversation
792
00:30:42,474 --> 00:30:46,111
with my mom and my brother.
793
00:30:46,111 --> 00:30:48,714
Uh...
794
00:30:48,714 --> 00:30:51,283
Introducing them
to Michelle and Rachael,
795
00:30:51,283 --> 00:30:53,685
I was so excited, you know?
796
00:30:53,685 --> 00:30:56,188
It's not something I've done
in any relationship
797
00:30:56,188 --> 00:30:59,224
since, like, high school
is bring someone back home,
798
00:30:59,224 --> 00:31:01,893
because it's been something
that I've guarded myself from,
799
00:31:01,893 --> 00:31:06,198
and after Michelle's left,
after Rachael's left,
800
00:31:06,198 --> 00:31:08,100
my mom kind of starts
grilling me a little bit.
801
00:31:08,100 --> 00:31:10,535
She's like, you know, like,
802
00:31:10,535 --> 00:31:13,105
"Are you sure this is, like,
something you're ready for?"
803
00:31:13,105 --> 00:31:15,107
Um...
804
00:31:15,107 --> 00:31:18,110
"You know that feelings
come and go, Matt,"
805
00:31:18,110 --> 00:31:22,280
and then I think about
the look on my mom's face
806
00:31:22,280 --> 00:31:23,782
when she was saying that,
you know?
807
00:31:23,782 --> 00:31:26,017
I could almost see her
tearing up a little bit
808
00:31:26,017 --> 00:31:30,088
thinking about how feelings
faded with her and my dad.
809
00:31:30,088 --> 00:31:31,456
‐ Yeah.
810
00:31:31,456 --> 00:31:33,125
‐ And I'm just, like,
thinking about where I'm at
811
00:31:33,125 --> 00:31:34,693
with Michelle and Rachael
812
00:31:34,693 --> 00:31:39,064
and how serious of a commitment
I know that this is.
813
00:31:39,064 --> 00:31:41,900
That commitment, to me,
is everlasting...
814
00:31:41,900 --> 00:31:42,868
[sighs]
815
00:31:42,868 --> 00:31:46,838
And the more information
816
00:31:46,838 --> 00:31:48,840
that I'm learning about myself
and my family
817
00:31:48,840 --> 00:31:52,144
and my mom
and‐‐and what it takes
818
00:31:52,144 --> 00:31:53,445
to have a healthy relationship,
819
00:31:53,445 --> 00:31:58,784
the more I'm starting
to pump the brakes on,
820
00:31:58,784 --> 00:32:02,454
is it something that I'm ready
to commit to right now?
821
00:32:02,454 --> 00:32:03,655
[sighs]
822
00:32:08,693 --> 00:32:09,828
‐ That's a lot.
823
00:32:09,828 --> 00:32:13,131
That is a lot to unpack.
824
00:32:17,135 --> 00:32:20,839
This is not the guy
I‐‐I was talking to a week ago.
825
00:32:20,839 --> 00:32:23,341
Two weeks ago.
826
00:32:23,341 --> 00:32:25,010
There was a time
when you believed in
827
00:32:25,010 --> 00:32:27,145
what you were saying about,
"My wife's in this room,"
828
00:32:27,145 --> 00:32:29,915
and, "I'm‐‐yeah, I plan on‐‐
yeah, I wanna get engaged,"
829
00:32:29,915 --> 00:32:31,850
and, "That's how I want this
to end."
830
00:32:31,850 --> 00:32:33,218
Like...
‐ Yes.
831
00:32:33,218 --> 00:32:35,020
That's how I felt,
and that's still how I feel,
832
00:32:35,020 --> 00:32:36,321
because they have
833
00:32:36,321 --> 00:32:39,257
all the qualities
that I'm looking for, you know?
834
00:32:39,257 --> 00:32:41,326
But it‐‐you're silly
835
00:32:41,326 --> 00:32:43,328
if, when you don't get
new information
836
00:32:43,328 --> 00:32:46,798
and you have a new view
and perspective on something,
837
00:32:46,798 --> 00:32:48,333
if you don't have
a change of heart, and‐‐
838
00:32:48,333 --> 00:32:51,169
‐ And that‐‐and that
perspective is Mom says,
839
00:32:51,169 --> 00:32:53,939
"Love changes. Love wilts.
Feelings change."
840
00:32:53,939 --> 00:32:57,642
Like, "Don't worry, love ends"?
841
00:32:57,642 --> 00:32:58,977
I mean, what kind
of greeting card is that?
842
00:32:58,977 --> 00:33:00,645
‐ [laughs]
843
00:33:00,645 --> 00:33:02,447
‐ I mean...
‐ Not a top seller.
844
00:33:02,447 --> 00:33:03,682
‐ Yeah.
845
00:33:04,216 --> 00:33:06,084
‐ But she knows
that I'm taking this serious,
846
00:33:06,084 --> 00:33:07,586
and she cares about me,
847
00:33:07,586 --> 00:33:09,454
and the only reason she would
bring that to my attention
848
00:33:09,454 --> 00:33:11,790
is because she doesn't want me
to make the same mistake.
849
00:33:11,790 --> 00:33:13,258
‐ Mm‐hmm.
‐ And no other reason,
850
00:33:13,258 --> 00:33:14,860
because she loved Rachael,
and she loved Michelle.
851
00:33:14,860 --> 00:33:16,228
‐ Yeah.
‐ Like, those are two women
852
00:33:16,228 --> 00:33:19,164
that I'd be lucky to be with,
and she knows that,
853
00:33:19,164 --> 00:33:20,966
and I realize that,
and I'm like,
854
00:33:20,966 --> 00:33:23,068
"I'm not gonna mess this up
on account of
855
00:33:23,068 --> 00:33:24,836
doing something
to make them happy"
856
00:33:24,836 --> 00:33:26,705
when everything I've done
up until this point
857
00:33:26,705 --> 00:33:28,540
is to do something that's right
858
00:33:28,540 --> 00:33:30,375
and that I have
a strong conviction for.
859
00:33:30,375 --> 00:33:33,645
‐ What are you
scared of the most?
860
00:33:33,645 --> 00:33:37,082
‐ Um...
861
00:33:37,082 --> 00:33:38,850
I just wanna make
the right decision...
862
00:33:40,285 --> 00:33:44,289
And the right decision for me
is taking my time
863
00:33:44,289 --> 00:33:48,560
and not doing something because
that's what I should do.
864
00:33:48,560 --> 00:33:51,263
It's because it's
what I need to do, you know?
865
00:33:51,263 --> 00:33:53,131
‐ So what you're saying is,
866
00:33:53,131 --> 00:33:56,201
you don't wanna get engaged.
867
00:33:56,201 --> 00:33:59,004
You don't wanna propose
to anybody at the end of this.
868
00:34:07,045 --> 00:34:09,648
‐ I know that the easy thing
for me to do
869
00:34:09,648 --> 00:34:11,483
would be to tell
Rachael or Michelle
870
00:34:11,483 --> 00:34:12,951
what they wanna hear,
and it's, "I'm ready,"
871
00:34:12,951 --> 00:34:15,687
and, you know, go through
with this whole process
872
00:34:15,687 --> 00:34:17,155
and get down on one knee
873
00:34:17,155 --> 00:34:18,590
and do something
that I'm not ready for,
874
00:34:18,590 --> 00:34:20,325
and then what happens?
875
00:34:20,325 --> 00:34:23,194
It sets our relationship course
876
00:34:23,194 --> 00:34:26,197
for something that neither one
of us are ready for, and...
877
00:34:33,505 --> 00:34:35,407
I don't know.
878
00:34:35,407 --> 00:34:37,309
I've never been
in a relationship like this
879
00:34:37,309 --> 00:34:38,743
where I've been this honest.
880
00:34:38,743 --> 00:34:40,946
If I want what's best for
my relationship with Michelle
881
00:34:40,946 --> 00:34:42,113
or my relationship
with Rachael,
882
00:34:42,113 --> 00:34:44,015
then it's to do
exactly what I'm doing
883
00:34:44,015 --> 00:34:45,350
and have this conversation
with you
884
00:34:45,350 --> 00:34:47,852
and‐‐and dig deep into myself
and make sure that
885
00:34:47,852 --> 00:34:50,622
I'm the man that I wanna
be for them in our relationship
886
00:34:50,622 --> 00:34:52,757
regardless of if that's
887
00:34:52,757 --> 00:34:54,159
three days from now
or three years from now.
888
00:34:54,159 --> 00:34:55,994
‐ So we have a few days left.
889
00:34:55,994 --> 00:34:58,697
I'm curious; in your mind now,
where do we go from here?
890
00:34:58,697 --> 00:35:00,765
How does this play out for you?
891
00:35:02,434 --> 00:35:05,403
‐ I've been nothing but real
with Rachael and Michelle,
892
00:35:05,403 --> 00:35:07,772
and I owe it to them
to continue to do that,
893
00:35:07,772 --> 00:35:10,008
so I just wanna move forward
this week
894
00:35:10,008 --> 00:35:11,910
and continue
to stay open‐minded
895
00:35:11,910 --> 00:35:14,980
about everything, you know?
896
00:35:14,980 --> 00:35:17,949
‐ Okay.
We'll go from there.
897
00:35:17,949 --> 00:35:20,385
‐ It was good for me
to talk it out with Chris.
898
00:35:20,385 --> 00:35:21,586
Thank you.
899
00:35:21,586 --> 00:35:23,355
‐ All right, man,
I'll get out of your hair.
900
00:35:23,355 --> 00:35:25,423
[soft music]
901
00:35:25,423 --> 00:35:27,125
‐ Michelle is incredible,
902
00:35:27,125 --> 00:35:28,493
Rachael's incredible,
903
00:35:28,493 --> 00:35:31,162
but knowing that
we're three days away
904
00:35:31,162 --> 00:35:33,932
from an engagement,
I don't want there to be
905
00:35:33,932 --> 00:35:36,434
any doubt in my mind
going into that.
906
00:35:36,434 --> 00:35:39,437
[dramatic music]
907
00:35:39,437 --> 00:35:41,439
Am I ready?
908
00:35:41,439 --> 00:35:43,441
Can I get there?
909
00:35:43,441 --> 00:35:44,909
I'm about to make
910
00:35:44,909 --> 00:35:46,845
one of the most important
decisions of my life,
911
00:35:46,845 --> 00:35:50,715
and I really hope
I can figure it out.
912
00:35:50,715 --> 00:35:54,753
I'm just going over in my head,
"What's the right thing to do?"
913
00:35:54,753 --> 00:35:57,022
What's the right thing to do?
914
00:35:57,022 --> 00:36:02,527
♪ ♪
915
00:36:02,527 --> 00:36:04,763
‐ It's about
to get uncomfortable.
916
00:36:04,763 --> 00:36:07,198
‐ Later tonight,
Emmanuel Acho dives into
917
00:36:07,198 --> 00:36:09,601
the shocking conclusion
to Matt's journey.
918
00:36:09,601 --> 00:36:11,136
‐ Where do things stand now?
919
00:36:11,136 --> 00:36:12,537
‐ There's a lot of things
watching back
920
00:36:12,537 --> 00:36:14,139
I wish I could've done
differently.
921
00:36:15,974 --> 00:36:18,143
[soft music]
922
00:36:18,143 --> 00:36:23,782
♪ ♪
923
00:36:23,782 --> 00:36:27,352
[bird calling]
924
00:36:27,352 --> 00:36:30,522
‐ Knowing that we're two days
away from an engagement,
925
00:36:30,522 --> 00:36:32,057
it's all that's
been consuming my mind.
926
00:36:32,057 --> 00:36:34,926
I've thought about it
day and night,
927
00:36:34,926 --> 00:36:36,261
what that moment
will look like
928
00:36:36,261 --> 00:36:38,830
and who it will be with,
929
00:36:38,830 --> 00:36:40,699
and, you know, I'm not certain.
930
00:36:40,699 --> 00:36:43,668
I'm not certain if that's
something that I'm ready for.
931
00:36:43,668 --> 00:36:45,003
♪ ♪
932
00:36:45,003 --> 00:36:46,504
Regardless of how
I'm feeling right now,
933
00:36:46,504 --> 00:36:47,972
I still have time,
934
00:36:47,972 --> 00:36:50,508
and I get to spend that time
today with Michelle,
935
00:36:50,508 --> 00:36:52,911
and hopefully it puts to rest
936
00:36:52,911 --> 00:36:54,679
anything that I may
have doubts about.
937
00:36:54,679 --> 00:36:56,481
‐ How are you?
938
00:36:56,481 --> 00:36:58,450
‐ I'm doing well.
Good to see you.
939
00:36:58,450 --> 00:37:00,418
♪ ♪
940
00:37:00,418 --> 00:37:02,487
both: Mm.
941
00:37:02,487 --> 00:37:05,490
[gentle music]
942
00:37:05,490 --> 00:37:09,060
♪ ♪
943
00:37:09,060 --> 00:37:10,562
‐ How are you doing?
‐ Good.
944
00:37:10,562 --> 00:37:11,896
It was nice waking up
945
00:37:11,896 --> 00:37:13,932
knowing that I get to see
one of my favorite people.
946
00:37:13,932 --> 00:37:15,900
‐ Do you have any idea
what we're gonna do today?
947
00:37:15,900 --> 00:37:17,235
‐ No.
[laughs]
948
00:37:17,235 --> 00:37:18,603
‐ I think that you're
gonna like this.
949
00:37:18,603 --> 00:37:21,773
Um, I'm a little nervous,
but in a good way.
950
00:37:21,773 --> 00:37:22,874
‐ Okay.
951
00:37:22,874 --> 00:37:24,476
‐ You ready?
‐ Yeah, I'm ready.
952
00:37:24,476 --> 00:37:25,643
‐ All right, let's go.
‐ [laughs]
953
00:37:25,643 --> 00:37:27,846
♪ ♪
954
00:37:27,846 --> 00:37:30,915
Today is the last day
that I get to spend with Matt
955
00:37:30,915 --> 00:37:33,518
before the proposal,
956
00:37:33,518 --> 00:37:37,122
when I finally get that answer
of if he's that person
957
00:37:37,122 --> 00:37:39,057
I'm gonna spend
the rest of my life with.
958
00:37:39,057 --> 00:37:41,326
I'm ready to do the real world
with Matt.
959
00:37:41,326 --> 00:37:43,995
and that's what, like,
makes me warm and fuzzy inside.
960
00:37:43,995 --> 00:37:46,131
‐ You have to close your eyes.
961
00:37:46,131 --> 00:37:48,733
‐ Okay.
‐ Big step.
962
00:37:48,733 --> 00:37:49,868
All right, you have to keep‐‐
963
00:37:49,868 --> 00:37:51,069
‐ Are you gonna tell me
where to walk?
964
00:37:51,069 --> 00:37:52,070
‐ Yeah, I'm gonna tell you
where to walk.
965
00:37:52,070 --> 00:37:53,204
Keep your eyes closed.
966
00:37:53,204 --> 00:37:54,339
It's paramount.
967
00:37:54,339 --> 00:37:55,673
‐ [laughs]
968
00:37:55,673 --> 00:37:58,042
I really do feel like
Matt's my person,
969
00:37:58,042 --> 00:38:00,245
and so the fact that I get
to spend time with him
970
00:38:00,245 --> 00:38:02,180
and talk with him
and laugh with him
971
00:38:02,180 --> 00:38:05,483
is exactly how I wanna spend
today and every day.
972
00:38:05,483 --> 00:38:06,684
Am I close to something?
973
00:38:06,684 --> 00:38:08,419
‐ One more step.
974
00:38:08,419 --> 00:38:10,121
All right.
You can open your eyes.
975
00:38:11,990 --> 00:38:13,424
That's where we're headed.
976
00:38:13,424 --> 00:38:14,659
‐ Is that a heart?
977
00:38:14,659 --> 00:38:15,727
‐ Yeah, it's a heart.
978
00:38:15,727 --> 00:38:16,828
‐ Oh, that's so cute!
979
00:38:16,828 --> 00:38:17,962
‐ How dope is that?
980
00:38:17,962 --> 00:38:19,297
But the only way to get there
is, uh...
981
00:38:19,297 --> 00:38:21,332
‐ Oh, my God.
982
00:38:21,332 --> 00:38:23,701
‐ Um...is down
the side of the building.
983
00:38:23,701 --> 00:38:25,603
[dramatic music]
984
00:38:25,603 --> 00:38:28,072
We're gonna rappel
down the side of the building.
985
00:38:28,072 --> 00:38:29,507
‐ [laughing]
Dang it.
986
00:38:29,507 --> 00:38:31,776
‐ [laughing]
987
00:38:31,776 --> 00:38:34,512
♪ ♪
988
00:38:34,512 --> 00:38:35,580
Nervous?
989
00:38:35,580 --> 00:38:37,282
‐ Yes.
‐ [laughs]
990
00:38:37,282 --> 00:38:38,550
‐ Yes. For sure.
991
00:38:38,550 --> 00:38:40,785
As nerve‐racking
as this can be,
992
00:38:40,785 --> 00:38:42,821
love does require
a leap of faith‐‐
993
00:38:42,821 --> 00:38:44,589
as long as this leap of faith
994
00:38:44,589 --> 00:38:48,126
is connected to a rope
and a harness,
995
00:38:48,126 --> 00:38:51,996
a safe rope and harness
that's gonna hold me.
996
00:38:51,996 --> 00:38:54,065
Oh, my gosh.
997
00:38:54,065 --> 00:38:57,368
I'm scared.
[laughs]
998
00:38:57,368 --> 00:38:58,903
‐ So go ahead and step up.
999
00:38:58,903 --> 00:39:00,805
Come to this side.
It's close to the edge.
1000
00:39:00,805 --> 00:39:01,973
Be careful, watch it.
Sorta press down on...
1001
00:39:01,973 --> 00:39:03,441
‐ Oh‐ho‐ho‐ho...
‐ [laughs]
1002
00:39:03,441 --> 00:39:05,076
‐ Don't look.
You just can't look at it.
1003
00:39:05,076 --> 00:39:06,778
‐ Yeah.
‐ Where am I supposed to look?
1004
00:39:06,778 --> 00:39:07,846
‐ At me.
‐ Okay.
1005
00:39:07,846 --> 00:39:09,280
‐ Yeah. There you go.
1006
00:39:09,280 --> 00:39:10,415
‐ I'm a little nervous
right now.
1007
00:39:10,415 --> 00:39:11,616
I'm not gonna lie.
1008
00:39:11,616 --> 00:39:13,952
A lot of what makes
a relationship work
1009
00:39:13,952 --> 00:39:16,154
is being able to take that
leap of faith with somebody,
1010
00:39:16,154 --> 00:39:17,589
and I'm just praying
1011
00:39:17,589 --> 00:39:19,457
that we make it to the bottom
all right.
1012
00:39:19,457 --> 00:39:20,625
All right.
You ready?
1013
00:39:20,625 --> 00:39:22,660
‐ Okay.
1014
00:39:22,660 --> 00:39:24,529
‐ All right.
I'm going for it.
1015
00:39:24,529 --> 00:39:25,563
♪ ♪
1016
00:39:25,563 --> 00:39:27,832
‐ No, no, no, no.
‐ Oh, God!
1017
00:39:27,832 --> 00:39:29,667
♪ ♪
1018
00:39:29,667 --> 00:39:30,869
‐ Don't pull the lever.
1019
00:39:30,869 --> 00:39:32,503
Bring your head up
towards me...
1020
00:39:32,503 --> 00:39:33,638
‐ Yep.
1021
00:39:33,638 --> 00:39:35,707
‐ And get your feet
down below you.
1022
00:39:35,707 --> 00:39:38,376
‐ Feet down below me.
1023
00:39:38,376 --> 00:39:39,744
There we go.
1024
00:39:39,744 --> 00:39:41,412
‐ Did you literally
just lean back?
1025
00:39:41,412 --> 00:39:43,715
‐ I just leaned back,
and I didn't look down,
1026
00:39:43,715 --> 00:39:45,350
'cause if I looked down,
I probably would've puked.
1027
00:39:45,350 --> 00:39:47,118
‐ Yep, that's where I'm at.
1028
00:39:47,118 --> 00:39:49,520
‐ [laughs] I'll help you.
‐ Okay.
1029
00:39:49,520 --> 00:39:50,722
[exhaling]
1030
00:39:50,722 --> 00:39:52,257
Okay.
1031
00:39:52,257 --> 00:39:53,258
‐ You got it.
You got it.
1032
00:39:53,258 --> 00:39:54,959
You're good.
‐ There you go.
1033
00:39:54,959 --> 00:39:57,362
Oh, [bleep]!
1034
00:39:57,362 --> 00:39:58,563
‐ [laughs]
1035
00:39:58,563 --> 00:40:01,399
‐ I tried to help!
‐ Ooh!
1036
00:40:01,399 --> 00:40:04,335
Rappelling down this building
kind of symbolizes
1037
00:40:04,335 --> 00:40:06,437
the risk that I've taken
to be here,
1038
00:40:06,437 --> 00:40:08,206
but I'm already
in love with Matt,
1039
00:40:08,206 --> 00:40:10,708
so I don't need to fall
to become more in love.
1040
00:40:10,708 --> 00:40:12,610
Okay.
[exhales]
1041
00:40:12,610 --> 00:40:14,212
‐ Straighten your legs out,
1042
00:40:14,212 --> 00:40:15,980
and we'll take
a little step by step.
1043
00:40:15,980 --> 00:40:18,049
So like this. Look.
1044
00:40:18,049 --> 00:40:19,484
See?
1045
00:40:19,484 --> 00:40:20,985
You gotta really pull on it.
1046
00:40:20,985 --> 00:40:22,520
There you go.
‐ Oh.
1047
00:40:22,520 --> 00:40:24,222
Okay.
‐ Yeah.
1048
00:40:24,222 --> 00:40:25,623
‐ All right.
Let's do this.
1049
00:40:25,623 --> 00:40:26,658
‐ There you go.
1050
00:40:26,658 --> 00:40:28,660
‐ Ooh!
‐ Whoo.
1051
00:40:28,660 --> 00:40:30,628
Michelle and I
are coaching each other up,
1052
00:40:30,628 --> 00:40:32,864
and she's taking that fear
1053
00:40:32,864 --> 00:40:34,933
and she's turning it
into that courage
1054
00:40:34,933 --> 00:40:36,567
that I always see in her.
1055
00:40:36,567 --> 00:40:38,002
♪ ♪
1056
00:40:38,002 --> 00:40:39,070
‐ Whew!
1057
00:40:39,070 --> 00:40:40,438
[both laughing]
1058
00:40:40,438 --> 00:40:42,373
‐ Oh! We're good.
1059
00:40:42,373 --> 00:40:44,175
Let me get a kiss.
1060
00:40:44,175 --> 00:40:45,977
♪ ♪
1061
00:40:45,977 --> 00:40:47,845
‐ Rappelling
off of this building
1062
00:40:47,845 --> 00:40:51,115
is scary, terrifying‐‐
everything.
1063
00:40:51,115 --> 00:40:52,784
‐ Okay, focus.
‐ Okay.
1064
00:40:52,784 --> 00:40:54,786
But if I were to panic,
1065
00:40:54,786 --> 00:40:56,421
I know Matt
would be right there
1066
00:40:56,421 --> 00:40:57,822
to kind of help me through it.
1067
00:40:57,822 --> 00:40:59,724
‐ One foot on
and then one foot off.
1068
00:40:59,724 --> 00:41:02,226
‐ And so there's, like,
this level of comfort
1069
00:41:02,226 --> 00:41:03,828
that's helping me
get to the bottom.
1070
00:41:03,828 --> 00:41:04,996
‐ There you go.
1071
00:41:04,996 --> 00:41:06,397
And then put that other‐‐
there you go.
1072
00:41:06,397 --> 00:41:07,832
‐ Okay.
‐ Good job.
1073
00:41:07,832 --> 00:41:09,701
Like, I'm just watching
Michelle just, like,
1074
00:41:09,701 --> 00:41:13,037
gracefully just prance down
the side of the building...
1075
00:41:13,037 --> 00:41:14,639
Jump into it.
1076
00:41:14,639 --> 00:41:16,607
Ey!
‐ [exhales sharply]
1077
00:41:16,607 --> 00:41:18,109
‐ And in this moment,
I'm just like...
1078
00:41:18,109 --> 00:41:19,110
[whistles]
1079
00:41:19,110 --> 00:41:20,778
‐ Ready?
‐ Yep. [exhales]
1080
00:41:20,778 --> 00:41:22,747
[soft music]
1081
00:41:22,747 --> 00:41:25,149
‐ Whoo!
1082
00:41:25,149 --> 00:41:26,617
‐ You're a pro now.
1083
00:41:26,617 --> 00:41:27,852
♪ ♪
1084
00:41:27,852 --> 00:41:28,853
‐ Whoo!
1085
00:41:28,853 --> 00:41:30,188
‐ You crushed it.
1086
00:41:30,188 --> 00:41:32,023
You know, I‐‐I've had
a lot on my mind.
1087
00:41:32,023 --> 00:41:33,558
I'm still processing
1088
00:41:33,558 --> 00:41:35,293
the conversations I had
with my family,
1089
00:41:35,293 --> 00:41:37,729
and I'm honestly still
evaluating where I'm at,
1090
00:41:37,729 --> 00:41:40,231
but what better way
to spend time with someone
1091
00:41:40,231 --> 00:41:41,899
than to fully put
your trust in them,
1092
00:41:41,899 --> 00:41:43,334
them fully put
their trust in you,
1093
00:41:43,334 --> 00:41:45,069
and take on something
1094
00:41:45,069 --> 00:41:47,238
that neither one of us
has ever done.
1095
00:41:47,238 --> 00:41:48,940
It was unreal.
1096
00:41:48,940 --> 00:41:50,174
We made it.
1097
00:41:50,174 --> 00:41:51,676
‐ We did it.
1098
00:41:51,676 --> 00:41:53,611
It did not seem this windy
up there.
1099
00:41:53,611 --> 00:41:55,046
‐ [stammers]
For who?
1100
00:41:55,046 --> 00:41:57,749
I was frickin' blowing against
the side of the building.
1101
00:41:57,749 --> 00:41:59,684
‐ [laughs]
‐ I was worried for a second.
1102
00:41:59,684 --> 00:42:01,552
‐ The wind was blowing you?
‐ Yes.
1103
00:42:01,552 --> 00:42:03,388
‐ The 6'5" man?
[both laugh]
1104
00:42:03,388 --> 00:42:04,689
‐ It's strong.
1105
00:42:04,689 --> 00:42:06,691
‐ It is very tall, though.
1106
00:42:06,691 --> 00:42:09,927
‐ How did your conversations go
with my fam?
1107
00:42:09,927 --> 00:42:12,430
‐ I feel really good about it.
1108
00:42:12,430 --> 00:42:14,065
‐ How'd it go with Mom?
1109
00:42:14,065 --> 00:42:15,767
‐ Your mom is just amazing.
1110
00:42:15,767 --> 00:42:22,273
I mean, I love how she
wants you to find a person
1111
00:42:22,273 --> 00:42:23,708
who is gonna stick
by your side,
1112
00:42:23,708 --> 00:42:25,309
because that's not something
that she had...
1113
00:42:25,309 --> 00:42:26,444
‐ Yeah.
1114
00:42:26,444 --> 00:42:27,779
‐ And she was very open
about that,
1115
00:42:27,779 --> 00:42:29,047
and not everyone's
good at talking
1116
00:42:29,047 --> 00:42:30,748
about their feelings
and those things,
1117
00:42:30,748 --> 00:42:32,116
and so, like,
for her to come in
1118
00:42:32,116 --> 00:42:34,552
and be so, like, vulnerable
about what she felt
1119
00:42:34,552 --> 00:42:36,788
was really important
for me to hear,
1120
00:42:36,788 --> 00:42:40,191
and, yeah, I love‐‐
I loved every second of it.
1121
00:42:40,191 --> 00:42:41,325
‐ [chuckles]
1122
00:42:41,325 --> 00:42:43,327
They had nothing
but good things to say,
1123
00:42:43,327 --> 00:42:45,763
and I knew they would,
so I wasn't worried at all.
1124
00:42:45,763 --> 00:42:47,065
‐ Mm‐hmm.
‐ It's like, for me,
1125
00:42:47,065 --> 00:42:49,534
it was more so
just wanting them
1126
00:42:49,534 --> 00:42:50,802
to see what I've been up to,
1127
00:42:50,802 --> 00:42:52,370
and who I've met...
‐ Yeah.
1128
00:42:52,370 --> 00:42:55,373
‐ And who could potentially be
a part of our family, you know?
1129
00:42:55,373 --> 00:42:56,607
‐ It's been such a fun‐‐
1130
00:42:56,607 --> 00:42:58,843
like, this has been
absolutely amazing.
1131
00:42:58,843 --> 00:43:02,313
I had no idea that,
1132
00:43:02,313 --> 00:43:04,248
like, we would be sitting here
at the end of this.
1133
00:43:04,248 --> 00:43:05,750
That's what I wanted,
1134
00:43:05,750 --> 00:43:07,752
and that's what I felt
could potentially happen,
1135
00:43:07,752 --> 00:43:10,521
but to, like, actually have‐‐
1136
00:43:10,521 --> 00:43:12,356
like, me living in the moment
of it happening now
1137
00:43:12,356 --> 00:43:14,959
is kind of surreal, but...
1138
00:43:14,959 --> 00:43:17,061
[soft music]
1139
00:43:17,061 --> 00:43:21,199
It just feels like the right
place to be right now.
1140
00:43:21,199 --> 00:43:22,467
♪ ♪
1141
00:43:22,467 --> 00:43:26,237
Do you feel like‐‐I mean,
1142
00:43:26,237 --> 00:43:29,740
do you feel like you are able
to get to a spot emotionally
1143
00:43:29,740 --> 00:43:31,242
where you need to be?
1144
00:43:31,242 --> 00:43:32,376
‐ That's‐‐that's a lot
1145
00:43:32,376 --> 00:43:33,878
of what I've been
thinking about lately.
1146
00:43:33,878 --> 00:43:36,147
You know,
it's something that, uh,
1147
00:43:36,147 --> 00:43:37,715
I talked to my family about,
1148
00:43:37,715 --> 00:43:40,451
and that's why I wanted
to talk to my dad, you know?
1149
00:43:40,451 --> 00:43:42,253
‐ Yeah.
‐ Uh, having him here
1150
00:43:42,253 --> 00:43:43,421
and just addressing things
1151
00:43:43,421 --> 00:43:45,490
that have held me back
in the past...
1152
00:43:45,490 --> 00:43:46,491
‐ Yeah.
1153
00:43:46,491 --> 00:43:49,026
‐ And, um, it was...
1154
00:43:49,026 --> 00:43:50,261
it was not easy‐‐
1155
00:43:50,261 --> 00:43:52,230
that conversation
or my mom's conversation,
1156
00:43:52,230 --> 00:43:55,299
because they've both
experienced a bunch of pain,
1157
00:43:55,299 --> 00:43:57,568
and it's definitely
having me
1158
00:43:57,568 --> 00:44:00,404
thinking about everything
that I need to consider
1159
00:44:00,404 --> 00:44:02,807
so that I can make the best
decision for us, you know?
1160
00:44:02,807 --> 00:44:03,941
‐ Yeah.
‐ You know.
1161
00:44:03,941 --> 00:44:05,243
Today was great,
1162
00:44:05,243 --> 00:44:06,677
but everything's sinking in,
1163
00:44:06,677 --> 00:44:09,580
the gravity of what's coming up
1164
00:44:09,580 --> 00:44:12,016
and how I'm really feeling
in this moment.
1165
00:44:12,016 --> 00:44:13,484
♪ ♪
1166
00:44:13,484 --> 00:44:15,920
It just hurts my chest
to even talk about it,
1167
00:44:15,920 --> 00:44:18,156
because Michelle's pouring
her heart out to me
1168
00:44:18,156 --> 00:44:20,191
and telling me
how assured she is,
1169
00:44:20,191 --> 00:44:22,593
and I don't know where I'm at.
1170
00:44:22,593 --> 00:44:24,162
What do you say
we get out of here?
1171
00:44:24,162 --> 00:44:25,329
‐ Yeah. Let's go.
1172
00:44:25,329 --> 00:44:26,964
♪ ♪
1173
00:44:26,964 --> 00:44:29,200
Tonight's gonna be
the last time I see Michelle
1174
00:44:29,200 --> 00:44:32,136
until the Final Rose,
and I plan on using that time
1175
00:44:32,136 --> 00:44:34,605
to get to the bottom of where
this emotion's coming from
1176
00:44:34,605 --> 00:44:37,008
and if this
is the right thing for me.
1177
00:44:37,008 --> 00:44:41,179
♪ ♪
1178
00:44:42,980 --> 00:44:45,983
[soft music]
1179
00:44:45,983 --> 00:44:49,921
♪ ♪
1180
00:44:49,921 --> 00:44:51,622
‐ I've kind of been
in my head all day.
1181
00:44:51,622 --> 00:44:53,257
Tried to block it out
as much as I could
1182
00:44:53,257 --> 00:44:55,459
during my time
with Michelle today,
1183
00:44:55,459 --> 00:44:56,794
but I'm two days away
1184
00:44:56,794 --> 00:44:59,864
from making the biggest
decision of my life.
1185
00:44:59,864 --> 00:45:01,766
You know, I wish I could
sit here and say that,
1186
00:45:01,766 --> 00:45:04,202
"All right, it's done.
I've got it figured out."
1187
00:45:04,202 --> 00:45:06,003
♪ ♪
1188
00:45:06,003 --> 00:45:07,238
I don't.
1189
00:45:07,238 --> 00:45:09,540
♪ ♪
1190
00:45:09,540 --> 00:45:11,642
I wanna make sure
that I can get there,
1191
00:45:11,642 --> 00:45:14,045
'cause I don't know if I can
at this point.
1192
00:45:14,045 --> 00:45:16,547
I don't know how this
conversation's gonna go,
1193
00:45:16,547 --> 00:45:18,015
but I just wanna
lay everything out there
1194
00:45:18,015 --> 00:45:19,116
tonight with Michelle,
1195
00:45:19,116 --> 00:45:21,085
just put all the cards
on the table
1196
00:45:21,085 --> 00:45:23,087
and see where they fall.
1197
00:45:23,087 --> 00:45:24,555
[gentle music]
1198
00:45:24,555 --> 00:45:27,525
‐ My feelings for Matt
are incredibly strong.
1199
00:45:27,525 --> 00:45:29,460
Like, I think about, like,
the roots of our relationship,
1200
00:45:29,460 --> 00:45:31,829
like, how deep they would grow
1201
00:45:31,829 --> 00:45:34,165
with unlimited access
to Matt James.
1202
00:45:34,165 --> 00:45:35,833
[laughs]
1203
00:45:35,833 --> 00:45:38,269
I am genuinely happy.
1204
00:45:38,269 --> 00:45:39,737
Matt is my person,
1205
00:45:39,737 --> 00:45:41,872
and we are gonna spend
a life together.
1206
00:45:41,872 --> 00:45:42,873
‐ [sighs]
1207
00:45:42,873 --> 00:45:44,642
‐ That's what I truly want.
1208
00:45:44,642 --> 00:45:46,510
[knock at door]
1209
00:45:46,510 --> 00:45:49,580
This evening is the last time
I get to spend with Matt
1210
00:45:49,580 --> 00:45:52,783
before the proposal.
1211
00:45:52,783 --> 00:45:54,452
Hey, there.
1212
00:45:54,452 --> 00:45:56,020
♪ ♪
1213
00:45:56,020 --> 00:45:57,321
Nice to see you.
1214
00:45:57,321 --> 00:45:59,223
‐ Good to see you too.
‐ [laughs]
1215
00:45:59,223 --> 00:46:01,692
And so to be here right now,
I feel like
1216
00:46:01,692 --> 00:46:06,063
it's so close to happening.
1217
00:46:06,063 --> 00:46:08,199
Today was amazing.
‐ Yeah.
1218
00:46:08,199 --> 00:46:10,001
‐ I had no idea
when I woke up in the morning
1219
00:46:10,001 --> 00:46:11,569
that I'd be rappelling
down a building.
1220
00:46:11,569 --> 00:46:13,170
‐ I was nervous for us,
'cause I had never done it.
1221
00:46:13,170 --> 00:46:14,338
‐ Yeah.
1222
00:46:14,338 --> 00:46:15,339
‐ But I was trying
to keep it together.
1223
00:46:15,339 --> 00:46:16,574
‐ You did.
1224
00:46:16,574 --> 00:46:18,042
You don't really show
when you're nervous.
1225
00:46:18,042 --> 00:46:20,778
‐ No, I was‐‐I was just glad
we made it to the bottom.
1226
00:46:20,778 --> 00:46:23,114
‐ I would do it again.
‐ You would do it again?
1227
00:46:23,114 --> 00:46:24,348
‐ Yeah, I would do it again.
1228
00:46:24,348 --> 00:46:26,717
‐ I'm glad that you enjoyed it.
‐ I did.
1229
00:46:26,717 --> 00:46:29,353
I wouldn't mind
more adventures like that,
1230
00:46:29,353 --> 00:46:34,625
but, um, I came into
this whole experience
1231
00:46:34,625 --> 00:46:36,661
looking for a teammate,
1232
00:46:36,661 --> 00:46:39,597
and I was surprised
with almost how, like,
1233
00:46:39,597 --> 00:46:42,600
quick my emotions for you
started to grow.
1234
00:46:42,600 --> 00:46:45,269
The fact that
now I'm sitting here
1235
00:46:45,269 --> 00:46:48,606
and I am in love with you,
1236
00:46:48,606 --> 00:46:52,076
and I cannot imagine
1237
00:46:52,076 --> 00:46:54,612
having anyone else
as my teammate at this point.
1238
00:46:54,612 --> 00:46:57,114
Like, it's you.
1239
00:46:57,114 --> 00:46:58,916
It's you that I want,
1240
00:46:58,916 --> 00:47:03,120
and it's really hard
to honestly picture
1241
00:47:03,120 --> 00:47:05,589
leaving here without you,
1242
00:47:05,589 --> 00:47:08,893
and so I do have
a little something for you.
1243
00:47:08,893 --> 00:47:10,161
‐ [laughs]
1244
00:47:10,161 --> 00:47:11,829
Uh‐oh.
Okay.
1245
00:47:11,829 --> 00:47:13,798
[both laughing]
1246
00:47:13,798 --> 00:47:15,299
I don't know what that means.
1247
00:47:15,299 --> 00:47:16,400
Not at all.
‐ So...
1248
00:47:16,400 --> 00:47:17,368
Okay.
1249
00:47:17,368 --> 00:47:19,170
[soft music]
1250
00:47:19,170 --> 00:47:20,905
You can open your eyes,
because it's wrapped.
1251
00:47:20,905 --> 00:47:22,406
‐ Oh.
‐ Here.
1252
00:47:22,406 --> 00:47:24,208
‐ Okay.
1253
00:47:24,208 --> 00:47:31,248
♪ ♪
1254
00:47:33,384 --> 00:47:35,319
‐ When I came here,
1255
00:47:35,319 --> 00:47:37,488
why I put on hold
changing the world
1256
00:47:37,488 --> 00:47:40,191
was because I wanted a partner
in crime to do that with me,
1257
00:47:40,191 --> 00:47:44,528
and you are somebody
who I see fit for that,
1258
00:47:44,528 --> 00:47:48,799
and so what better way
to give us a team name...
1259
00:47:48,799 --> 00:47:50,101
‐ World‐Changing Warriors.
1260
00:47:50,101 --> 00:47:51,369
‐ Of "World‐Changing Warriors"?
1261
00:47:51,369 --> 00:47:52,703
♪ ♪
1262
00:47:52,703 --> 00:47:54,305
That brings us
to gift number two.
1263
00:47:54,305 --> 00:47:55,639
‐ [chuckles]
1264
00:47:55,639 --> 00:47:59,777
♪ ♪
1265
00:47:59,777 --> 00:48:05,583
‐ So it wouldn't be fair
to give you a jersey
1266
00:48:05,583 --> 00:48:07,852
and not also have a teammate,
1267
00:48:07,852 --> 00:48:10,755
so I decided to, um,
1268
00:48:10,755 --> 00:48:14,024
look into the future
a little bit
1269
00:48:14,024 --> 00:48:16,026
‐ Michelle's telling me
how much she loves me
1270
00:48:16,026 --> 00:48:18,863
and how she sees
a life with me,
1271
00:48:18,863 --> 00:48:22,299
and I'm holding up our jerseys,
you know, Mr. and Mrs. James,
1272
00:48:22,299 --> 00:48:25,102
and right now, in this moment,
1273
00:48:25,102 --> 00:48:28,272
I have doubt about
our relationship.
1274
00:48:28,272 --> 00:48:30,074
I feel terrible.
1275
00:48:30,074 --> 00:48:33,611
I didn't know
this is how it'd feel.
1276
00:48:33,611 --> 00:48:34,979
I don't wanna
tell her anything
1277
00:48:34,979 --> 00:48:37,248
that's gonna break her heart,
1278
00:48:37,248 --> 00:48:38,516
but when you care
about somebody,
1279
00:48:38,516 --> 00:48:39,784
you're honest with them,
1280
00:48:39,784 --> 00:48:42,720
and I've just gotta
let her know.
1281
00:48:42,720 --> 00:48:44,355
♪ ♪
1282
00:48:44,355 --> 00:48:47,425
I never thought that I would
have feelings like I do
1283
00:48:47,425 --> 00:48:51,362
at this point
and through this journey,
1284
00:48:51,362 --> 00:48:56,100
and...it's a lot, you know?
1285
00:48:56,100 --> 00:48:58,536
[laughs softly]
‐ That it is.
1286
00:49:02,440 --> 00:49:05,443
[soft tense music]
1287
00:49:05,443 --> 00:49:08,179
♪ ♪
1288
00:49:08,179 --> 00:49:09,647
What are you thinking about?
1289
00:49:09,647 --> 00:49:12,616
♪ ♪
1290
00:49:12,616 --> 00:49:16,520
‐ Um, I don't know.
1291
00:49:16,520 --> 00:49:20,024
‐ Talk to me.
I see those wheels turning.
1292
00:49:20,024 --> 00:49:23,027
‐ Uh, I was just‐‐
was thinking about‐‐
1293
00:49:23,027 --> 00:49:27,298
I had‐‐I didn't sleep at all
last night, just knowing
1294
00:49:27,298 --> 00:49:30,434
what's gotta happen
in the next two days, you know?
1295
00:49:30,434 --> 00:49:32,069
It's like everything's
becoming real for me...
1296
00:49:32,069 --> 00:49:33,504
‐ Yeah.
1297
00:49:33,504 --> 00:49:35,940
‐ And I'm sitting there
at home last night
1298
00:49:35,940 --> 00:49:37,741
just thinking about
these next steps,
1299
00:49:37,741 --> 00:49:41,278
and I'm just, like...
1300
00:49:41,278 --> 00:49:43,647
having‐‐having doubts...
1301
00:49:43,647 --> 00:49:44,915
♪ ♪
1302
00:49:44,915 --> 00:49:48,285
And I shouldn't be having
any doubts about that.
1303
00:49:48,285 --> 00:49:50,154
We're like a day or two away,
you know?
1304
00:49:50,154 --> 00:49:56,827
♪ ♪
1305
00:49:56,827 --> 00:49:58,229
This is the first time
1306
00:49:58,229 --> 00:50:02,032
that I've felt
any type of thing
1307
00:50:02,032 --> 00:50:07,505
outside of wanting
to be with you forever...
1308
00:50:07,505 --> 00:50:08,606
♪ ♪
1309
00:50:08,606 --> 00:50:10,908
And having‐‐
1310
00:50:10,908 --> 00:50:12,543
just having any doubt
in my mind
1311
00:50:12,543 --> 00:50:15,946
at this point, for me,
is just like...
1312
00:50:15,946 --> 00:50:17,248
scary.
1313
00:50:17,248 --> 00:50:18,916
♪ ♪
1314
00:50:18,916 --> 00:50:24,355
I've been pushing through
that feeling today
1315
00:50:24,355 --> 00:50:28,759
and trying to get there
because of how I feel about you
1316
00:50:28,759 --> 00:50:31,695
and what I know life
could look like with you...
1317
00:50:31,695 --> 00:50:33,697
♪ ♪
1318
00:50:33,697 --> 00:50:35,933
And...
1319
00:50:35,933 --> 00:50:39,103
I think the easy thing
for me to do
1320
00:50:39,103 --> 00:50:41,672
would be to tell you
what you wanna hear.
1321
00:50:41,672 --> 00:50:44,475
‐ No, I'm‐‐that's not
what I'm looking for.
1322
00:50:44,475 --> 00:50:51,515
♪ ♪
1323
00:50:54,852 --> 00:50:57,888
[sighs]
1324
00:50:59,423 --> 00:51:01,892
[sniffs]
1325
00:51:01,892 --> 00:51:03,627
I just want, like, clarity
1326
00:51:03,627 --> 00:51:05,629
on what this, like,
actually is.
1327
00:51:05,629 --> 00:51:07,965
Like, it...
1328
00:51:07,965 --> 00:51:10,301
Or, like, how you're
actually feeling.
1329
00:51:10,301 --> 00:51:11,902
Am I supposed to fight for you?
1330
00:51:11,902 --> 00:51:14,872
Am I not supposed to fight
for you?
1331
00:51:14,872 --> 00:51:18,876
Tell me where you're at,
actually.
1332
00:51:23,747 --> 00:51:27,151
‐ I don't think
I can get there with you.
1333
00:51:29,753 --> 00:51:32,122
[somber music]
1334
00:51:32,122 --> 00:51:33,791
‐ [sniffles, sighs]
1335
00:51:33,791 --> 00:51:36,627
♪ ♪
1336
00:51:36,627 --> 00:51:38,062
[sniffs]
1337
00:51:38,062 --> 00:51:40,564
It's hard to feel like
you're on‐‐
1338
00:51:40,564 --> 00:51:43,334
like you have this, like,
connection with somebody,
1339
00:51:43,334 --> 00:51:45,869
and then...
1340
00:51:45,869 --> 00:51:48,105
with a flip of a switch...
1341
00:51:48,105 --> 00:51:49,106
[sniffs]
1342
00:51:49,106 --> 00:51:51,108
It's, like, gone.
1343
00:51:51,108 --> 00:51:55,846
♪ ♪
1344
00:51:55,846 --> 00:51:58,415
‐ [whispers]
Michelle...
1345
00:51:58,415 --> 00:52:00,250
♪ ♪
1346
00:52:00,250 --> 00:52:04,054
I don't want you to think
it was a flip of a switch.
1347
00:52:04,054 --> 00:52:05,856
‐ [sniffs]
1348
00:52:05,856 --> 00:52:09,693
I put it all out on the table.
That's all I can do.
1349
00:52:09,693 --> 00:52:16,734
♪ ♪
1350
00:52:18,035 --> 00:52:19,203
[sniffs]
1351
00:52:19,203 --> 00:52:22,206
[dramatic music]
1352
00:52:22,206 --> 00:52:25,042
♪ ♪
1353
00:52:25,042 --> 00:52:28,045
[crying]
1354
00:52:28,045 --> 00:52:35,119
♪ ♪
1355
00:52:36,820 --> 00:52:39,056
‐ I'm sorry.
1356
00:52:39,056 --> 00:52:41,959
♪ ♪
1357
00:52:41,959 --> 00:52:43,927
[sighs]
1358
00:52:43,927 --> 00:52:50,934
♪ ♪
1359
00:53:01,311 --> 00:53:03,113
‐ [sighs]
1360
00:53:05,249 --> 00:53:07,084
‐ [sniffles]
1361
00:53:09,586 --> 00:53:12,589
‐ [crying]
1362
00:53:12,589 --> 00:53:16,527
♪ ♪
1363
00:53:16,527 --> 00:53:19,296
[sighs]
1364
00:53:19,296 --> 00:53:26,303
♪ ♪
1365
00:53:30,407 --> 00:53:33,444
[crickets chirping]
1366
00:53:34,878 --> 00:53:37,848
‐ [crying]
1367
00:53:37,848 --> 00:53:40,884
[soft music]
1368
00:53:40,884 --> 00:53:45,155
♪ ♪
1369
00:53:45,155 --> 00:53:48,158
[somber music]
1370
00:53:48,158 --> 00:53:50,160
[sighs, sniffs]
1371
00:53:50,160 --> 00:53:57,167
♪ ♪
1372
00:54:09,546 --> 00:54:13,484
My objective tonight
wasn't to hurt Michelle.
1373
00:54:13,484 --> 00:54:15,719
♪ ♪
1374
00:54:15,719 --> 00:54:20,224
It's to be honest with her,
and I owe her that...
1375
00:54:20,224 --> 00:54:21,992
[crying]
1376
00:54:21,992 --> 00:54:25,129
‐ [crying]
1377
00:54:25,129 --> 00:54:28,098
‐ But it's not a good feeling.
1378
00:54:28,098 --> 00:54:29,333
It's not a good feeling
1379
00:54:29,333 --> 00:54:32,903
to put somebody
through that heartache,
1380
00:54:32,903 --> 00:54:36,440
especially for somebody
that you really care about,
1381
00:54:36,440 --> 00:54:39,910
and I really care
about Michelle...
1382
00:54:39,910 --> 00:54:43,814
♪ ♪
1383
00:54:43,814 --> 00:54:45,182
[sighs]
1384
00:54:45,182 --> 00:54:48,619
But here I am,
just questioning,
1385
00:54:48,619 --> 00:54:51,488
was saying goodbye
to her tonight
1386
00:54:51,488 --> 00:54:53,957
the right thing to do?
1387
00:54:53,957 --> 00:54:55,893
I don't know.
1388
00:54:55,893 --> 00:55:00,364
Now I feel like...
1389
00:55:00,364 --> 00:55:02,666
I'm just trying to stay afloat.
1390
00:55:02,666 --> 00:55:09,673
♪ ♪
1391
00:55:14,778 --> 00:55:16,046
‐ Hey, dude.
1392
00:55:16,046 --> 00:55:17,915
♪ ♪
1393
00:55:17,915 --> 00:55:19,449
You can keep a seat.
I'll sit with you.
1394
00:55:19,449 --> 00:55:21,852
We can chill.
1395
00:55:21,852 --> 00:55:23,387
[groans]
Ooh.
1396
00:55:25,255 --> 00:55:28,025
You okay?
‐ No.
1397
00:55:28,025 --> 00:55:29,159
[laughs]
‐ [sighs]
1398
00:55:29,159 --> 00:55:31,428
‐ [sniffs]
No, I'm not.
1399
00:55:31,428 --> 00:55:32,963
‐ That was brutal.
1400
00:55:33,964 --> 00:55:35,299
I'm sorry, Matt.
1401
00:55:35,299 --> 00:55:37,167
I'm very sorry.
1402
00:55:40,671 --> 00:55:42,606
‐ [sighs]
1403
00:55:42,606 --> 00:55:45,642
[crickets chirping]
1404
00:55:48,078 --> 00:55:52,516
‐ Tough to let a incredible
woman like that walk away.
1405
00:55:52,516 --> 00:55:54,017
‐ Yeah.
1406
00:55:58,388 --> 00:56:00,824
It's‐‐it's‐‐that's
the hardest part, you know?
1407
00:56:00,824 --> 00:56:02,025
It's like you know
it's something
1408
00:56:02,025 --> 00:56:03,493
that you have to do...
‐ Yeah.
1409
00:56:03,493 --> 00:56:07,097
‐ And I've never felt this way
about anybody,
1410
00:56:07,097 --> 00:56:10,033
and it's been a long time
since I've cried.
1411
00:56:10,033 --> 00:56:12,102
‐ Yeah.
‐ [sighs]
1412
00:56:14,571 --> 00:56:16,340
‐ Part of you loved her.
1413
00:56:17,507 --> 00:56:18,542
‐ Yeah.
1414
00:56:19,843 --> 00:56:22,946
But I wasn't in love with her.
1415
00:56:22,946 --> 00:56:25,048
[sighs]
1416
00:56:27,484 --> 00:56:29,419
‐ I know this had to do
with Michelle,
1417
00:56:29,419 --> 00:56:30,921
but a lot of this is about you
1418
00:56:30,921 --> 00:56:33,557
and what you're going through
and things you've realized.
1419
00:56:33,557 --> 00:56:35,125
‐ Yeah.
1420
00:56:35,125 --> 00:56:37,327
[breathes deeply]
1421
00:56:37,327 --> 00:56:42,699
‐ This is about not knowing
where this is going.
1422
00:56:42,699 --> 00:56:44,434
‐ Yeah.
1423
00:56:47,905 --> 00:56:50,173
The look I can't take
out of my brain
1424
00:56:50,173 --> 00:56:51,408
that I saw on my mom's face
1425
00:56:51,408 --> 00:56:55,012
when she said
that feelings fade
1426
00:56:55,012 --> 00:57:00,284
and what that meant to me
and what it means to my mom
1427
00:57:00,284 --> 00:57:01,919
and what it's meant for her
in her life
1428
00:57:01,919 --> 00:57:03,754
and my brother's life
and my life, you know?
1429
00:57:03,754 --> 00:57:07,124
It's like, that scares me.
1430
00:57:14,197 --> 00:57:19,603
‐ What your mom said
shook you to the core.
1431
00:57:20,404 --> 00:57:21,672
‐ Yeah.
1432
00:57:23,473 --> 00:57:25,175
Seeing that in my dad
and mom's relationship,
1433
00:57:25,175 --> 00:57:28,412
you know, it's like,
they loved each other,
1434
00:57:28,412 --> 00:57:29,813
and it faded for them,
1435
00:57:29,813 --> 00:57:31,782
and I saw how it affected
my mom, you know?
1436
00:57:31,782 --> 00:57:33,650
‐ Yeah.
‐ And I saw how my dad
1437
00:57:33,650 --> 00:57:35,285
still hasn't taken
accountability for it.
1438
00:57:35,285 --> 00:57:36,420
You know, it's like,
he's someone
1439
00:57:36,420 --> 00:57:38,522
who's never gonna
be ready for marriage,
1440
00:57:38,522 --> 00:57:39,723
it looks like...
1441
00:57:41,925 --> 00:57:44,828
And I can't speak for Rachael,
1442
00:57:44,828 --> 00:57:48,098
but I refuse
to‐‐to put her through
1443
00:57:48,098 --> 00:57:50,233
what my mom went through,
you know?
1444
00:57:53,971 --> 00:57:56,473
The last thing I wanna do is...
1445
00:57:58,241 --> 00:58:00,344
Bring someone in‐‐
into a situation
1446
00:58:00,344 --> 00:58:03,547
that I'm not ready for.
1447
00:58:04,982 --> 00:58:07,351
[sighs]
1448
00:58:14,324 --> 00:58:17,661
Yeah.
1449
00:58:17,661 --> 00:58:19,429
[sighs]
1450
00:58:19,429 --> 00:58:22,432
[solemn music]
1451
00:58:22,432 --> 00:58:27,637
♪ ♪
1452
00:58:27,637 --> 00:58:29,906
Now what?
What am I gonna tell Rachael?
1453
00:58:29,906 --> 00:58:32,609
"Hey, I‐‐I sent Michelle home.
1454
00:58:32,609 --> 00:58:36,179
I'm ready to‐‐to be engaged
and propose to you."
1455
00:58:36,179 --> 00:58:40,617
That‐‐that's not where I'm at,
and we're a day out.
1456
00:58:40,617 --> 00:58:42,519
I mean, one day away
from that...
1457
00:58:42,519 --> 00:58:44,988
♪ ♪
1458
00:58:44,988 --> 00:58:46,256
And I don't have the clarity
1459
00:58:46,256 --> 00:58:48,125
that I thought
I would have right now
1460
00:58:48,125 --> 00:58:51,294
and that I need
to make that decision.
1461
00:58:51,294 --> 00:58:52,596
[sighs]
1462
00:58:52,596 --> 00:58:59,569
♪ ♪
1463
00:59:00,270 --> 00:59:03,807
And rushing into something
that I'm not ready for
1464
00:59:03,807 --> 00:59:05,642
is not something
that I'm willing to‐‐
1465
00:59:05,642 --> 00:59:08,612
to make the same mistake
as my‐‐my dad did.
1466
00:59:08,612 --> 00:59:14,084
♪ ♪
1467
00:59:14,084 --> 00:59:17,587
I didn't know
this is how it'd feel.
1468
00:59:17,587 --> 00:59:19,356
It's scary...
1469
00:59:19,356 --> 00:59:20,624
♪ ♪
1470
00:59:20,624 --> 00:59:24,961
And at this point...
1471
00:59:24,961 --> 00:59:27,064
I don't know how to go on.
1472
00:59:27,064 --> 00:59:29,966
How do you go on from there?
1473
00:59:29,966 --> 00:59:32,235
♪ ♪
1474
00:59:32,235 --> 00:59:33,804
[sighs]
1475
00:59:36,073 --> 00:59:38,442
To be honest with you, Chris...
1476
00:59:38,442 --> 00:59:40,243
[sighs]
1477
00:59:40,243 --> 00:59:43,113
I just need some time.
1478
00:59:43,113 --> 00:59:46,083
‐ Well, I understand.
1479
00:59:46,083 --> 00:59:47,617
‐ [sighs]
1480
00:59:47,617 --> 00:59:50,620
[dramatic music]
1481
00:59:50,620 --> 00:59:55,225
♪ ♪
1482
00:59:55,225 --> 00:59:57,094
I feel like everything
1483
00:59:57,094 --> 00:59:59,096
that I thought
I was working towards
1484
00:59:59,096 --> 01:00:00,831
is starting to crumble,
1485
01:00:00,831 --> 01:00:03,867
and I don't‐‐
I don't know what I'ma do.
1486
01:00:03,867 --> 01:00:05,102
[breathes shakily]
1487
01:00:05,102 --> 01:00:10,774
♪ ♪
1488
01:00:10,774 --> 01:00:13,176
‐ He didn't wanna see me today.
1489
01:00:13,176 --> 01:00:15,412
I was so not expecting that.
1490
01:00:15,412 --> 01:00:16,947
‐ And later,
1491
01:00:16,947 --> 01:00:18,748
all of your questions
will be answered
1492
01:00:18,748 --> 01:00:20,317
on "After the Final Rose."
1493
01:00:20,317 --> 01:00:21,985
‐ How hard is this on you?
1494
01:00:23,553 --> 01:00:24,754
‐ [sighs]
1495
01:00:26,623 --> 01:00:29,259
[gentle music]
1496
01:00:29,259 --> 01:00:31,928
♪ ♪
1497
01:00:31,928 --> 01:00:33,864
[birds chirping]
1498
01:00:33,864 --> 01:00:39,803
♪ ♪
1499
01:00:39,803 --> 01:00:42,572
‐ Today's my last date
with Matt.
1500
01:00:42,572 --> 01:00:43,807
I'm so excited.
1501
01:00:43,807 --> 01:00:45,375
I'm very excited.
1502
01:00:45,375 --> 01:00:47,477
I do feel confident
going into today,
1503
01:00:47,477 --> 01:00:48,979
and I just feel really good,
1504
01:00:48,979 --> 01:00:52,616
because I do feel like
he's my person.
1505
01:00:52,616 --> 01:00:57,621
I'm, like, overwhelmingly,
madly in love with him.
1506
01:00:57,621 --> 01:00:58,788
Like, wow.
1507
01:00:58,788 --> 01:01:03,860
Like...seriously overwhelming.
1508
01:01:03,860 --> 01:01:07,998
I really see every single day
of my life with him.
1509
01:01:07,998 --> 01:01:09,299
I'm just like,
1510
01:01:09,299 --> 01:01:11,935
"Can we just start
our life together already?"
1511
01:01:11,935 --> 01:01:14,371
[knocking at door]
1512
01:01:14,371 --> 01:01:15,906
Whatever we're doing,
I just can't wait to see him.
1513
01:01:15,906 --> 01:01:17,340
[laughs]
1514
01:01:17,340 --> 01:01:22,946
♪ ♪
1515
01:01:22,946 --> 01:01:24,114
Hi!
‐ Hi.
1516
01:01:24,114 --> 01:01:25,248
‐ What's up?
1517
01:01:25,248 --> 01:01:27,417
‐ Um, sorry to barge in
unannounced.
1518
01:01:27,417 --> 01:01:29,920
I know you are getting ready
for your date.
1519
01:01:29,920 --> 01:01:31,855
‐ Okay. Yeah. That's okay.
‐ Um...
1520
01:01:31,855 --> 01:01:34,858
[tense music]
1521
01:01:34,858 --> 01:01:36,860
‐ You have me nervous.
1522
01:01:36,860 --> 01:01:40,997
‐ Well, um...
1523
01:01:40,997 --> 01:01:43,400
I'll just be honest.
I was with Matt last night.
1524
01:01:43,400 --> 01:01:44,734
♪ ♪
1525
01:01:44,734 --> 01:01:46,570
He was emotional
1526
01:01:46,570 --> 01:01:49,606
and, to be honest, lost,
1527
01:01:49,606 --> 01:01:52,642
and the last thing
he said to me
1528
01:01:52,642 --> 01:01:56,313
was, "I need some time."
1529
01:01:56,313 --> 01:01:57,681
♪ ♪
1530
01:01:57,681 --> 01:02:01,218
And I'm sorry I'm the one
to tell you this,
1531
01:02:01,218 --> 01:02:03,820
but, unfortunately, there's not
gonna be a date today.
1532
01:02:03,820 --> 01:02:09,125
♪ ♪
1533
01:02:09,125 --> 01:02:10,227
We're gonna
have to respect that
1534
01:02:10,227 --> 01:02:12,295
and just give him some time.
‐ Mm‐hmm.
1535
01:02:14,064 --> 01:02:16,600
‐ We will let you know
as soon as possible
1536
01:02:16,600 --> 01:02:18,602
what's up next.
1537
01:02:18,602 --> 01:02:20,003
All right.
I'll talk to you soon.
1538
01:02:20,003 --> 01:02:21,571
‐ Okay. Bye.
1539
01:02:24,374 --> 01:02:26,243
[sighs]
1540
01:02:29,579 --> 01:02:32,549
[somber music]
1541
01:02:32,549 --> 01:02:34,417
♪ ♪
1542
01:02:34,417 --> 01:02:36,253
[sighs]
1543
01:02:36,253 --> 01:02:43,293
♪ ♪
1544
01:02:45,695 --> 01:02:49,366
I just feel hurt and confused.
1545
01:02:49,366 --> 01:02:50,800
♪ ♪
1546
01:02:50,800 --> 01:02:53,870
Like, I was so
not expecting that,
1547
01:02:53,870 --> 01:02:57,507
to where he didn't even
wanna see me today.
1548
01:02:57,507 --> 01:02:58,908
♪ ♪
1549
01:02:58,908 --> 01:03:01,211
I feel pretty in the dark
right now.
1550
01:03:01,211 --> 01:03:03,346
♪ ♪
1551
01:03:03,346 --> 01:03:06,616
He's never expressed
any kind of worry
1552
01:03:06,616 --> 01:03:11,221
or concern or confusion,
not once.
1553
01:03:11,221 --> 01:03:13,590
[sniffs]
1554
01:03:13,590 --> 01:03:15,859
It's, like, very blindsiding.
1555
01:03:15,859 --> 01:03:18,028
♪ ♪
1556
01:03:18,028 --> 01:03:21,031
Like, what happened
to just bail on me like that?
1557
01:03:21,031 --> 01:03:22,365
[sniffs]
1558
01:03:22,365 --> 01:03:25,168
♪ ♪
1559
01:03:25,168 --> 01:03:28,204
Loving Matt's
been pretty easy.
1560
01:03:28,204 --> 01:03:30,940
Maybe that's why
I feel so hurt right now,
1561
01:03:30,940 --> 01:03:33,610
'cause this is the only time
he's made it harder.
1562
01:03:33,610 --> 01:03:35,478
♪ ♪
1563
01:03:35,478 --> 01:03:38,348
Like, obviously,
he's having doubts.
1564
01:03:38,348 --> 01:03:39,849
♪ ♪
1565
01:03:39,849 --> 01:03:44,487
I don't even know what
I would say to him tomorrow.
1566
01:03:44,487 --> 01:03:46,756
It just hurts.
1567
01:03:46,756 --> 01:03:49,759
[crying]
1568
01:03:49,759 --> 01:03:52,729
[sighs]
1569
01:03:52,729 --> 01:03:55,098
[birds chirping]
1570
01:03:55,098 --> 01:03:58,802
[solemn music]
1571
01:03:58,802 --> 01:04:00,103
‐ [sighs]
1572
01:04:00,103 --> 01:04:01,538
This morning,
I'm just coming to terms
1573
01:04:01,538 --> 01:04:03,740
with the uncertainty
that I have
1574
01:04:03,740 --> 01:04:06,109
around a proposal right now.
1575
01:04:06,109 --> 01:04:07,844
We're a day away.
1576
01:04:07,844 --> 01:04:08,845
[sighs]
1577
01:04:08,845 --> 01:04:10,780
At the beginning
of this journey,
1578
01:04:10,780 --> 01:04:16,720
I envisioned and imagined
1579
01:04:16,720 --> 01:04:19,889
my spirits being different
in this moment, you know?
1580
01:04:19,889 --> 01:04:21,458
♪ ♪
1581
01:04:21,458 --> 01:04:22,659
I need time to really think
1582
01:04:22,659 --> 01:04:25,729
about where I'm at
with Rachael.
1583
01:04:25,729 --> 01:04:28,531
What is our relationship
built on?
1584
01:04:28,531 --> 01:04:31,835
Is love enough
to sustain a relationship?
1585
01:04:31,835 --> 01:04:33,770
♪ ♪
1586
01:04:33,770 --> 01:04:35,438
I don't know,
1587
01:04:35,438 --> 01:04:38,241
and that's what
I'm battling with right now,
1588
01:04:38,241 --> 01:04:42,045
and I'm thinking about
what it means to be a man
1589
01:04:42,045 --> 01:04:43,079
and what marriage means
1590
01:04:43,079 --> 01:04:44,214
and what it means
to be a husband
1591
01:04:44,214 --> 01:04:45,815
and take accountability
for things...
1592
01:04:45,815 --> 01:04:47,283
[sighs]
1593
01:04:47,283 --> 01:04:50,854
And now I'm questioning
if I'm there.
1594
01:04:50,854 --> 01:04:54,023
I don't know what to think
or what to do.
1595
01:04:54,023 --> 01:04:55,358
Hi.
‐ [chuckles]
1596
01:04:55,358 --> 01:04:57,427
‐ How you doing?
‐ I'm Neil Lane.
1597
01:04:57,427 --> 01:04:59,829
‐ And I'm giving it time,
and my head's still jacked up.
1598
01:04:59,829 --> 01:05:02,499
‐ Oh, I'm sitting there?
‐ Yes, sir.
1599
01:05:02,499 --> 01:05:04,000
‐ Ah.
[sniffs]
1600
01:05:04,000 --> 01:05:05,735
Well, Matt...
1601
01:05:05,735 --> 01:05:08,037
‐ Maybe I need to hold
that ring in my hand.
1602
01:05:08,037 --> 01:05:09,406
♪ ♪
1603
01:05:09,406 --> 01:05:10,707
‐ How we feeling?
1604
01:05:10,707 --> 01:05:12,675
‐ I'm all over the place,
to be honest with you.
1605
01:05:12,675 --> 01:05:14,911
I just know how big
of a commitment this is,
1606
01:05:14,911 --> 01:05:17,447
and I know what that commitment
means to somebody.
1607
01:05:17,447 --> 01:05:19,616
‐ It is a commitment.
‐ Right.
1608
01:05:19,616 --> 01:05:21,184
‐ It is a commitment.
1609
01:05:21,184 --> 01:05:22,585
How many people
really understand that?
1610
01:05:22,585 --> 01:05:24,721
They get blinded by love,
1611
01:05:24,721 --> 01:05:28,024
and they get into something
they're really not ready for.
1612
01:05:28,024 --> 01:05:29,526
The work...
‐ Yeah.
1613
01:05:29,526 --> 01:05:31,027
‐ Love is not easy.
1614
01:05:31,027 --> 01:05:33,062
Commitment's not easy.
‐ Yeah.
1615
01:05:33,062 --> 01:05:34,964
‐ There's one girl left?
‐ Yes.
1616
01:05:34,964 --> 01:05:36,433
‐ And that's...
both: Rachael.
1617
01:05:36,433 --> 01:05:38,735
‐ Well, let me ask you
something.
1618
01:05:38,735 --> 01:05:42,205
Is Rachael expecting
a proposal?
1619
01:05:42,205 --> 01:05:45,074
‐ What she's expecting out
of me at this point is honesty,
1620
01:05:45,074 --> 01:05:48,178
and that's all I've given her
through this process
1621
01:05:48,178 --> 01:05:54,818
is my word,
and in doing something that...
1622
01:05:54,818 --> 01:05:56,419
I honestly don't know
if I'm ready for
1623
01:05:56,419 --> 01:06:01,257
would be...a lie.
1624
01:06:01,257 --> 01:06:03,660
‐ It's extraordinary
that you have the clarity
1625
01:06:03,660 --> 01:06:05,628
to think about
what you're doing.
1626
01:06:05,628 --> 01:06:08,131
For me, that's everything.
1627
01:06:08,131 --> 01:06:11,868
Whatever you decide
and whatever you feel
1628
01:06:11,868 --> 01:06:13,803
is the right feeling.
1629
01:06:13,803 --> 01:06:16,673
I'm not here
to make you get a ring.
1630
01:06:16,673 --> 01:06:18,875
I‐‐I never want to make someone
get any ring,
1631
01:06:18,875 --> 01:06:21,578
but we can look at rings
if you want to,
1632
01:06:21,578 --> 01:06:22,846
and we'll take it from there.
1633
01:06:22,846 --> 01:06:24,314
‐ Yeah.
1634
01:06:24,314 --> 01:06:27,283
[soft music]
1635
01:06:27,283 --> 01:06:34,224
♪ ♪
1636
01:06:34,991 --> 01:06:37,560
Wow.
1637
01:06:37,560 --> 01:06:39,429
I've never looked at actual...
1638
01:06:39,429 --> 01:06:40,864
‐ You've never had
a ring in your...
1639
01:06:40,864 --> 01:06:42,665
‐ Never‐‐no.
Can I touch it?
1640
01:06:42,665 --> 01:06:45,835
‐ Yeah, it's‐‐
it's not gonna break.
1641
01:06:45,835 --> 01:06:50,840
This little jewel
represents this, your heart.
1642
01:06:50,840 --> 01:06:52,208
It connects two people.
1643
01:06:52,208 --> 01:06:53,877
♪ ♪
1644
01:06:53,877 --> 01:06:57,046
‐ The reason I came out here
was to find my wife.
1645
01:06:57,046 --> 01:07:00,316
‐ That is a radiant cut.
1646
01:07:00,316 --> 01:07:01,885
♪ ♪
1647
01:07:01,885 --> 01:07:04,921
‐ I'm just envisioning
what that day looks like,
1648
01:07:04,921 --> 01:07:08,324
that day that you commit
your life to theirs,
1649
01:07:08,324 --> 01:07:10,193
and they commit their life
to yours,
1650
01:07:10,193 --> 01:07:11,928
and that promise
that you're making,
1651
01:07:11,928 --> 01:07:13,129
and I'm thinking about
1652
01:07:13,129 --> 01:07:15,498
what that day looks like
for Rachael.
1653
01:07:15,498 --> 01:07:16,900
‐ This is a pear shape.
1654
01:07:16,900 --> 01:07:18,501
Pear shapes are my favorite.
1655
01:07:18,501 --> 01:07:21,771
When I was a little kid,
my mom had a pear shape.
1656
01:07:21,771 --> 01:07:23,640
A very romantic stone.
1657
01:07:23,640 --> 01:07:24,874
‐ It is incredible.
1658
01:07:24,874 --> 01:07:27,544
♪ ♪
1659
01:07:27,544 --> 01:07:29,412
This might be my favorite
so far.
1660
01:07:29,412 --> 01:07:30,613
‐ I love the ring.
1661
01:07:30,613 --> 01:07:35,885
♪ ♪
1662
01:07:35,885 --> 01:07:37,921
‐ Yeah.
This is the one.
1663
01:07:37,921 --> 01:07:40,557
♪ ♪
1664
01:07:40,557 --> 01:07:42,425
I wanna hold onto this.
1665
01:07:42,425 --> 01:07:44,694
‐ Yeah, I think that's a good‐‐
you're gonna hold onto it.
1666
01:07:44,694 --> 01:07:46,229
‐ I'm gonna hold onto this.
‐ You're gonna hold onto it.
1667
01:07:46,229 --> 01:07:48,698
[solemn music]
1668
01:07:48,698 --> 01:07:51,467
You know, I‐‐I did
pick out a ring.
1669
01:07:51,467 --> 01:07:52,735
‐ All the best.
‐ Thank you, Neil.
1670
01:07:52,735 --> 01:07:54,504
‐ Bye.
‐ Bye.
1671
01:07:54,504 --> 01:07:55,972
♪ ♪
1672
01:07:55,972 --> 01:07:58,575
There's a lot of weight
in this.
1673
01:07:58,575 --> 01:08:05,615
♪ ♪
1674
01:08:05,615 --> 01:08:09,752
This is more than just a ring.
1675
01:08:09,752 --> 01:08:12,889
To me, it represents...
1676
01:08:12,889 --> 01:08:16,492
what my father
couldn't give to my mother‐‐
1677
01:08:16,492 --> 01:08:21,931
represents a lot
of broken promises.
1678
01:08:21,931 --> 01:08:25,435
And if I put this ring
on Rachael's finger,
1679
01:08:25,435 --> 01:08:28,538
I would never want it
to come off.
1680
01:08:28,538 --> 01:08:30,239
Tomorrow's a big day,
1681
01:08:30,239 --> 01:08:32,542
and I'm just thinking
to myself, "Am I ready?"
1682
01:08:32,542 --> 01:08:36,379
♪ ♪
1683
01:08:36,379 --> 01:08:37,814
I don't know.
1684
01:08:37,814 --> 01:08:44,754
♪ ♪
1685
01:08:44,754 --> 01:08:46,155
[dramatic music]
1686
01:08:46,155 --> 01:08:48,191
‐ Later tonight on
"After the Final Rose"...
1687
01:08:48,191 --> 01:08:49,926
‐ We're gonna meet
our new Bachelorette,
1688
01:08:49,926 --> 01:08:51,427
and if you think
you know who it is,
1689
01:08:51,427 --> 01:08:54,063
get ready for a curveball,
Bachelor Nation.
1690
01:08:54,063 --> 01:08:55,865
♪ ♪
1691
01:08:57,867 --> 01:09:00,903
[soft music]
1692
01:09:00,903 --> 01:09:07,944
♪ ♪
1693
01:09:12,682 --> 01:09:15,218
‐ Waking up this morning,
I feel...
1694
01:09:15,218 --> 01:09:19,255
very scared and very confused
and upset.
1695
01:09:19,255 --> 01:09:20,657
♪ ♪
1696
01:09:20,657 --> 01:09:22,492
[sniffs]
1697
01:09:22,492 --> 01:09:25,695
I don't know what else
I can take at this point.
1698
01:09:25,695 --> 01:09:30,733
Yesterday was the hardest day
that I can remember.
1699
01:09:30,733 --> 01:09:33,569
♪ ♪
1700
01:09:33,569 --> 01:09:36,806
I was, you know, really
looking forward to the day
1701
01:09:36,806 --> 01:09:39,075
and looking forward to...
[sniffs]
1702
01:09:39,075 --> 01:09:40,576
Getting to see Matt,
1703
01:09:40,576 --> 01:09:44,013
and then having that
ripped out from underneath me,
1704
01:09:44,013 --> 01:09:45,915
that was just hard by itself,
1705
01:09:45,915 --> 01:09:49,752
but I think the hardest part
was hearing Chris say, like,
1706
01:09:49,752 --> 01:09:51,854
"He's very confused.
1707
01:09:51,854 --> 01:09:54,490
He needs some time
to think about things."
1708
01:09:54,490 --> 01:09:57,060
I think just hearing that,
I can't help but think,
1709
01:09:57,060 --> 01:09:59,729
like, the things that
have been on his mind
1710
01:09:59,729 --> 01:10:03,700
have been about us, so...
1711
01:10:03,700 --> 01:10:06,402
it's very scary
to think about, you know,
1712
01:10:06,402 --> 01:10:11,340
him telling me that he doesn't
see me as his wife someday
1713
01:10:11,340 --> 01:10:17,346
and that he's made his mind up,
and it's just not me.
1714
01:10:17,346 --> 01:10:18,981
[knock at door]
1715
01:10:18,981 --> 01:10:26,055
♪ ♪
1716
01:10:28,257 --> 01:10:30,293
[sighs heavily]
1717
01:10:48,444 --> 01:10:52,048
"Rachael, I'm so sorry
for making you wait.
1718
01:10:52,048 --> 01:10:54,917
"I've had a lot on my mind
these last few days.
1719
01:10:54,917 --> 01:10:56,686
"You deserve answers.
1720
01:10:56,686 --> 01:11:00,757
Meet me at the lake.
Matt."
1721
01:11:00,757 --> 01:11:04,794
[breathes deeply]
1722
01:11:10,333 --> 01:11:13,302
[soft suspenseful music]
1723
01:11:13,302 --> 01:11:16,973
♪ ♪
1724
01:11:16,973 --> 01:11:19,976
[ducks quacking]
1725
01:11:19,976 --> 01:11:27,016
♪ ♪
1726
01:11:46,269 --> 01:11:47,904
‐ [sighs]
1727
01:11:47,904 --> 01:11:54,944
♪ ♪
1728
01:11:56,445 --> 01:11:58,247
[sighs]
1729
01:12:12,829 --> 01:12:14,063
Hey.
‐ How you doing, man?
1730
01:12:14,063 --> 01:12:15,464
‐ Good.
‐ Good to see you.
1731
01:12:15,464 --> 01:12:16,499
‐ Good to see you too.
1732
01:12:17,533 --> 01:12:18,935
[sighs]
1733
01:12:18,935 --> 01:12:21,070
‐ Feelin' okay?
1734
01:12:21,070 --> 01:12:23,940
‐ [sighs]
1735
01:12:23,940 --> 01:12:26,142
Nervous.
‐ Yeah.
1736
01:12:26,142 --> 01:12:27,510
‐ Really nervous.
1737
01:12:29,011 --> 01:12:32,949
You know, I thought that
these few days would help
1738
01:12:32,949 --> 01:12:36,853
in‐‐in giving me clarity,
and...
1739
01:12:36,853 --> 01:12:39,055
I still have some uncertainty
stepping into today.
1740
01:12:39,055 --> 01:12:41,557
I didn't think
I'd feel like this
1741
01:12:41,557 --> 01:12:43,492
in this moment, you know?
1742
01:12:43,492 --> 01:12:45,595
‐ And what are you feeling?
Can you explain it?
1743
01:12:45,595 --> 01:12:48,064
‐ [sighs]
It's heavy, Chris.
1744
01:12:48,064 --> 01:12:51,968
I just have in my head
how I visualized things going
1745
01:12:51,968 --> 01:12:54,670
and what comes
with this commitment
1746
01:12:54,670 --> 01:12:56,639
and what comes
with this proposal,
1747
01:12:56,639 --> 01:12:58,207
and I've been in my head
about that.
1748
01:12:58,207 --> 01:13:00,743
I've been thinking about it
nonstop.
1749
01:13:00,743 --> 01:13:02,979
What I feel now,
I've never felt before,
1750
01:13:02,979 --> 01:13:05,348
and that's what I came here
looking for,
1751
01:13:05,348 --> 01:13:06,616
and that's what
I'm holding onto
1752
01:13:06,616 --> 01:13:08,184
going into this conversation
with Rachael.
1753
01:13:08,184 --> 01:13:13,389
You know, I‐‐I love Rachael,
and the more I say it,
1754
01:13:13,389 --> 01:13:15,925
the more assured I am
in that feeling.
1755
01:13:15,925 --> 01:13:18,394
‐ Do you know how this
is gonna end today?
1756
01:13:18,394 --> 01:13:22,198
‐ I think it's all gonna
come to me when I see her.
1757
01:13:22,198 --> 01:13:24,100
‐ Well, this is gonna be, uh,
1758
01:13:24,100 --> 01:13:26,469
the most important talk
of your life...
1759
01:13:26,469 --> 01:13:28,037
[soft music]
1760
01:13:28,037 --> 01:13:29,872
So why don't you take this in
1761
01:13:29,872 --> 01:13:32,842
and say a little prayer
and get your thoughts together?
1762
01:13:32,842 --> 01:13:34,810
‐ [sighing] Okay.
‐ Good luck, my friend.
1763
01:13:34,810 --> 01:13:36,012
‐ Thank you.
‐ All right, bud.
1764
01:13:36,012 --> 01:13:38,514
♪ ♪
1765
01:13:38,514 --> 01:13:40,583
‐ [sighs]
1766
01:13:40,583 --> 01:13:46,255
♪ ♪
1767
01:13:46,255 --> 01:13:50,760
I'm about to walk into
the biggest moment of my life.
1768
01:13:50,760 --> 01:13:54,096
♪ ♪
1769
01:13:54,096 --> 01:13:55,865
It's gonna be
1770
01:13:55,865 --> 01:13:58,334
the most difficult decision
I've ever made.
1771
01:13:58,334 --> 01:14:00,636
♪ ♪
1772
01:14:00,636 --> 01:14:01,971
I don't know what I'ma do.
1773
01:14:01,971 --> 01:14:03,940
I don't know
what I'ma say to her.
1774
01:14:03,940 --> 01:14:07,043
I've got this beautiful
diamond ring in my pocket,
1775
01:14:07,043 --> 01:14:10,680
and I know what that
commitment means to me
1776
01:14:10,680 --> 01:14:12,381
and how much
Rachael means to me...
1777
01:14:12,381 --> 01:14:15,284
♪ ♪
1778
01:14:15,284 --> 01:14:16,686
[sighs]
1779
01:14:16,686 --> 01:14:19,789
But is that something
that we're ready for?
1780
01:14:19,789 --> 01:14:21,223
I don't know.
1781
01:14:21,223 --> 01:14:22,858
♪ ♪
1782
01:14:22,858 --> 01:14:24,126
Is love enough?
1783
01:14:24,126 --> 01:14:27,630
[dramatic music]
1784
01:14:27,630 --> 01:14:33,269
♪ ♪
1785
01:14:33,269 --> 01:14:34,770
[gate creaks]
1786
01:14:34,770 --> 01:14:41,811
♪ ♪
1787
01:14:52,154 --> 01:14:53,990
[sighs]
1788
01:14:53,990 --> 01:15:01,097
♪ ♪
1789
01:15:01,998 --> 01:15:03,733
‐ [exhales]
1790
01:15:07,036 --> 01:15:08,204
‐ [sighs]
1791
01:15:08,204 --> 01:15:15,244
♪ ♪
1792
01:15:21,083 --> 01:15:24,120
[soft somber music]
1793
01:15:24,120 --> 01:15:25,454
‐ [sighs]
1794
01:15:25,454 --> 01:15:32,495
♪ ♪
1795
01:15:36,232 --> 01:15:37,333
[gear cranks]
1796
01:15:42,271 --> 01:15:43,439
‐ [sighs]
1797
01:15:43,439 --> 01:15:48,677
♪ ♪
1798
01:15:48,677 --> 01:15:50,312
[sighs]
1799
01:15:50,312 --> 01:15:51,714
‐ Hey, Rach.
1800
01:15:51,714 --> 01:15:53,449
‐ How are you?
1801
01:15:53,449 --> 01:15:57,186
♪ ♪
1802
01:15:57,186 --> 01:15:59,021
‐ How ya feelin'?
1803
01:15:59,021 --> 01:16:00,189
‐ I'm really nervous.
1804
01:16:00,189 --> 01:16:02,324
‐ Yeah, I can see it
in your eyes.
1805
01:16:02,324 --> 01:16:04,827
‐ Yeah, I'm very nervous.
Mm.
1806
01:16:04,827 --> 01:16:07,263
I just‐‐I don't know
where his head's at, so...
1807
01:16:07,263 --> 01:16:09,298
‐ Yeah.
You still in love?
1808
01:16:09,298 --> 01:16:10,633
‐ Very much.
1809
01:16:10,633 --> 01:16:12,134
‐ All right.
You ready to go?
1810
01:16:12,134 --> 01:16:13,936
‐ I'm ready.
‐ All right.
1811
01:16:13,936 --> 01:16:15,504
He's waiting
right through there.
1812
01:16:15,504 --> 01:16:16,572
‐ Okay.
‐ Good luck.
1813
01:16:16,572 --> 01:16:17,807
‐ Thank you.
1814
01:16:17,807 --> 01:16:19,275
♪ ♪
1815
01:16:19,275 --> 01:16:25,948
This is definitely the most
scared that I've ever been.
1816
01:16:25,948 --> 01:16:27,049
♪ ♪
1817
01:16:27,049 --> 01:16:29,118
To think
that this could either
1818
01:16:29,118 --> 01:16:31,554
be one of the best
conversations of my life
1819
01:16:31,554 --> 01:16:33,055
or one of the worst...
1820
01:16:33,055 --> 01:16:34,390
‐ [sighs]
1821
01:16:35,357 --> 01:16:37,960
‐ [sighs]
1822
01:16:37,960 --> 01:16:42,898
I've never wanted anything
more in my life.
1823
01:16:42,898 --> 01:16:45,434
♪ ♪
1824
01:16:45,434 --> 01:16:49,305
I'm really scared that
I'm gonna walk up there
1825
01:16:49,305 --> 01:16:53,109
and pour my absolute
heart out to him
1826
01:16:53,109 --> 01:16:56,011
one last time,
1827
01:16:56,011 --> 01:16:59,615
and that's gonna be it.
1828
01:16:59,615 --> 01:17:01,884
He's gonna break my heart.
1829
01:17:01,884 --> 01:17:04,620
So yeah, I'm scared.
1830
01:17:04,620 --> 01:17:07,323
♪ ♪
1831
01:17:07,323 --> 01:17:09,024
‐ Let me hug you first.
1832
01:17:16,298 --> 01:17:17,500
‐ [sighs]
1833
01:17:20,703 --> 01:17:22,238
[sighs]
1834
01:17:22,238 --> 01:17:23,706
Um...
1835
01:17:25,941 --> 01:17:29,578
You know, I pictured this
going a certain way...
1836
01:17:31,247 --> 01:17:34,350
And I, um...
[breathing shakily]
1837
01:17:34,350 --> 01:17:38,387
I imagined how it would feel,
1838
01:17:38,387 --> 01:17:40,489
standing here before you
like this...
1839
01:17:42,458 --> 01:17:45,361
And then yesterday happened...
1840
01:17:45,361 --> 01:17:47,463
[somber music]
1841
01:17:47,463 --> 01:17:50,933
And it changed everything.
1842
01:17:50,933 --> 01:17:53,936
♪ ♪
1843
01:17:53,936 --> 01:17:55,604
[sighs]
1844
01:17:55,604 --> 01:17:59,275
I hated going into today
on that note...
1845
01:17:59,275 --> 01:18:02,278
♪ ♪
1846
01:18:02,278 --> 01:18:06,148
But I hated...
1847
01:18:06,148 --> 01:18:09,652
hated, more than anything,
1848
01:18:09,652 --> 01:18:15,791
the thought of you hurting
and you being confused...
1849
01:18:15,791 --> 01:18:17,426
♪ ♪
1850
01:18:17,426 --> 01:18:21,664
And you not wanting to see me,
because, you know,
1851
01:18:21,664 --> 01:18:25,701
I want to be there for you
when you're hurting,
1852
01:18:25,701 --> 01:18:29,872
and when you're hurting,
I'm hurting,
1853
01:18:29,872 --> 01:18:34,276
and I don't know
what happened yesterday,
1854
01:18:34,276 --> 01:18:36,478
but I do know, you know,
1855
01:18:36,478 --> 01:18:39,682
I'm not gonna run
just when it gets tough.
1856
01:18:39,682 --> 01:18:41,283
♪ ♪
1857
01:18:41,283 --> 01:18:46,655
You know, I don't know
if you still want this,
1858
01:18:46,655 --> 01:18:51,193
but, regardless, I...
1859
01:18:51,193 --> 01:18:52,361
[sighs]
1860
01:18:52,361 --> 01:18:55,030
Feel so unbelievably lucky
1861
01:18:55,030 --> 01:18:59,235
just to have felt
what I have felt for you.
1862
01:18:59,235 --> 01:19:03,606
You know, I‐‐I've never
felt a love like this
1863
01:19:03,606 --> 01:19:06,242
in my entire life...
[sighs]
1864
01:19:06,242 --> 01:19:07,810
And at the end of the day,
1865
01:19:07,810 --> 01:19:10,412
I‐‐I just want you
to be happy...
1866
01:19:10,412 --> 01:19:13,148
♪ ♪
1867
01:19:13,148 --> 01:19:14,316
[sighs]
1868
01:19:14,316 --> 01:19:17,553
But I just know
with all my heart
1869
01:19:17,553 --> 01:19:19,321
that I love you,
1870
01:19:19,321 --> 01:19:24,760
and I will choose you every day
from here on out
1871
01:19:24,760 --> 01:19:27,596
if you'll let me.
1872
01:19:27,596 --> 01:19:29,632
♪ ♪
1873
01:19:29,632 --> 01:19:31,634
[sighs]
1874
01:19:31,634 --> 01:19:32,935
‐ [sighs]
1875
01:19:32,935 --> 01:19:34,136
[clears throat]
1876
01:19:36,505 --> 01:19:39,575
I came to this journey...
‐ Mm‐hmm.
1877
01:19:39,575 --> 01:19:41,443
‐ To find love,
1878
01:19:41,443 --> 01:19:43,979
and I didn't know
what it looked like,
1879
01:19:43,979 --> 01:19:46,215
I didn't know what to expect,
1880
01:19:46,215 --> 01:19:49,184
because it's not something
I've experienced,
1881
01:19:49,184 --> 01:19:52,988
and everything that I came here
looking for, I found with you.
1882
01:19:54,790 --> 01:19:57,826
It's scary to think about
because...
1883
01:19:57,826 --> 01:20:00,396
I wanna be everything to you.
1884
01:20:00,396 --> 01:20:06,335
I wanna be everything for you
that my dad wasn't to my mom...
1885
01:20:06,335 --> 01:20:08,103
[sighs]
1886
01:20:10,973 --> 01:20:12,608
[sighs]
1887
01:20:12,608 --> 01:20:15,377
And...
1888
01:20:15,377 --> 01:20:17,212
[sighs]
1889
01:20:17,212 --> 01:20:23,419
As I'm wrestling with
what I'm gonna do today,
1890
01:20:23,419 --> 01:20:26,889
the easy thing for me to do
1891
01:20:26,889 --> 01:20:30,726
would be to brush those
feelings and emotions off
1892
01:20:30,726 --> 01:20:33,162
and make you happy,
1893
01:20:33,162 --> 01:20:35,531
and that's to propose
to you today...
1894
01:20:35,531 --> 01:20:38,133
‐ Mm‐hmm.
1895
01:20:38,133 --> 01:20:41,737
‐ [sighs]
1896
01:20:41,737 --> 01:20:44,740
But I couldn't live
with myself if
1897
01:20:44,740 --> 01:20:47,776
I put you through
what my mom's been through.
1898
01:20:47,776 --> 01:20:53,382
I've seen what rushing
into a proposal,
1899
01:20:53,382 --> 01:20:55,918
a marriage,
can do in my family...
1900
01:20:55,918 --> 01:20:57,386
‐ Mm‐hmm.
‐ And it's ugly,
1901
01:20:57,386 --> 01:20:59,955
and it's not something that
I want for you or for us...
1902
01:20:59,955 --> 01:21:02,391
♪ ♪
1903
01:21:02,391 --> 01:21:04,193
[sighs]
1904
01:21:04,193 --> 01:21:08,664
♪ ♪
1905
01:21:08,664 --> 01:21:09,898
[sighs]
1906
01:21:12,668 --> 01:21:15,170
And that's why I can't propose
to you today.
1907
01:21:15,170 --> 01:21:22,177
♪ ♪
1908
01:21:22,177 --> 01:21:23,512
‐ Mm‐hmm.
1909
01:21:28,684 --> 01:21:32,721
‐ But that doesn't mean
I wanna lose you.
1910
01:21:32,721 --> 01:21:38,293
When I think about the life
I wanna live,
1911
01:21:38,293 --> 01:21:41,430
I think about living
that life with you.
1912
01:21:41,430 --> 01:21:45,701
And I wanna leave here
with you,
1913
01:21:45,701 --> 01:21:47,669
and I wanna commit to you
1914
01:21:47,669 --> 01:21:51,407
and to every day building on
what we started here...
1915
01:21:51,407 --> 01:21:53,041
‐ Mm.
1916
01:21:53,041 --> 01:21:55,310
‐ And the truth
is that I love you.
1917
01:21:55,310 --> 01:21:56,812
‐ I love you too.
1918
01:21:56,812 --> 01:21:57,813
[laughs]
1919
01:21:57,813 --> 01:22:00,783
[sweeping music]
1920
01:22:00,783 --> 01:22:03,652
[both laughing]
1921
01:22:03,652 --> 01:22:05,020
‐ I'm in love with you,
1922
01:22:05,020 --> 01:22:08,290
and I do see you as my wife.
1923
01:22:08,290 --> 01:22:10,492
I see you
as the mother of my kids.
1924
01:22:10,492 --> 01:22:11,860
I see those kids being crazy.
1925
01:22:11,860 --> 01:22:13,028
[both laugh]
1926
01:22:13,028 --> 01:22:14,930
‐ Me too.
‐ [laughs]
1927
01:22:14,930 --> 01:22:16,632
♪ ♪
1928
01:22:16,632 --> 01:22:20,836
I just wanna make sure
my love is enough for you.
1929
01:22:20,836 --> 01:22:22,871
♪ ♪
1930
01:22:22,871 --> 01:22:25,741
‐ [quietly]
Of course it is.
1931
01:22:25,741 --> 01:22:28,310
Like, of course it is.
‐ [laughs]
1932
01:22:28,310 --> 01:22:31,947
‐ You are the most
amazing person
1933
01:22:31,947 --> 01:22:35,184
that I've ever met
in my entire life.
1934
01:22:35,184 --> 01:22:40,889
Like, I really do picture
our life together after this.
1935
01:22:40,889 --> 01:22:43,892
I picture it all with you.
‐ [laughs]
1936
01:22:43,892 --> 01:22:46,895
[uplifting music]
1937
01:22:46,895 --> 01:22:53,902
♪ ♪
1938
01:22:56,805 --> 01:22:59,174
‐ Oh, my God.
1939
01:22:59,174 --> 01:23:01,143
‐ You look incredible.
1940
01:23:01,143 --> 01:23:02,444
‐ [laughs]
Thank you.
1941
01:23:02,444 --> 01:23:04,246
‐ There is one more thing.
‐ Okay.
1942
01:23:04,246 --> 01:23:05,747
♪ ♪
1943
01:23:05,747 --> 01:23:10,385
[laughs]
Oh, God.
1944
01:23:10,385 --> 01:23:11,587
[laughs]
1945
01:23:11,587 --> 01:23:13,555
♪ ♪
1946
01:23:13,555 --> 01:23:16,391
‐ Rachael, will you accept
this rose?
1947
01:23:16,391 --> 01:23:17,659
‐ Yes.
1948
01:23:17,659 --> 01:23:19,495
[both laughing]
1949
01:23:19,495 --> 01:23:25,968
♪ ♪
1950
01:23:25,968 --> 01:23:29,471
I am so, so happy.
1951
01:23:29,471 --> 01:23:31,139
I found the love of my life.
1952
01:23:31,139 --> 01:23:33,308
All the ups and downs,
even yesterday...
1953
01:23:33,308 --> 01:23:34,309
[slapping knee]
1954
01:23:34,309 --> 01:23:35,477
‐ Sorry.
‐ It was worth it.
1955
01:23:35,477 --> 01:23:36,478
[sweeping music]
1956
01:23:36,478 --> 01:23:38,714
[laughing]
1957
01:23:38,714 --> 01:23:41,316
♪ ♪
1958
01:23:41,316 --> 01:23:43,452
[gasps, exclaims]
1959
01:23:43,452 --> 01:23:44,987
Wait, what?
1960
01:23:44,987 --> 01:23:46,889
‐ It's nice to tell somebody
that you love 'em,
1961
01:23:46,889 --> 01:23:49,291
and every time I say it,
it feels more real.
1962
01:23:49,291 --> 01:23:50,492
‐ Mm‐hmm.
1963
01:23:50,492 --> 01:23:52,094
‐ And it doesn't get
more real than this.
1964
01:23:52,094 --> 01:23:53,428
‐ [giggles]
1965
01:23:53,428 --> 01:24:00,502
♪ ♪
1966
01:24:03,438 --> 01:24:04,773
I love you.
1967
01:24:04,773 --> 01:24:06,174
‐ I love you too.
‐ [laughs]
1968
01:24:06,174 --> 01:24:10,078
♪ ♪
1969
01:24:10,078 --> 01:24:11,880
Love you.
‐ Love you.
1970
01:24:11,880 --> 01:24:13,382
‐ Love you.
‐ Love you too.
1971
01:24:13,382 --> 01:24:14,616
‐ [laughing]
1972
01:24:14,616 --> 01:24:16,218
[horse neighs]
1973
01:24:16,218 --> 01:24:18,487
♪ ♪
1974
01:24:18,487 --> 01:24:19,755
‐ Stay tuned for
1975
01:24:19,755 --> 01:24:21,723
"The Bachelor:
After the Final Rose"
1976
01:24:21,723 --> 01:24:23,458
starting right now.