> Previously on The L Word...
>Dana? It's me.
It's Lara.
I was just calling to say I miss you,
and I want to talk to you about coming home.
>So how's she doing?
>She's doing better, I think.
>Yeah? >Yeah.
>I'll tell Dana to call you.
>I would really love that.
[***]
>[WHISPERING]
>Those are her ashes?
>Yeah.
>Hey...
>She told me
she wanted them scattered
at her summer camp.
>You know,
they're putting her in a mausoleum.
>It just sucks.
>It does suck.
They suck.
I mean, look at this.
This isn't Dana.
[SOBBING]
>Why are we sitting all the way back here?
>The front rows are reserved for family
and close friends.
>And we are...?
>Does it really matter, Tina?
>Yes, I think it does, Bette.
It would matter to Dana.
>Maybe can put ourselves aside
for once.
>Guys, we are here for Dana.
>That's what I was saying.
>Hey... >What?
>Al, have you talked to Lara?
>I think she's still in Paris.
I called and left her messages,
but I don't know that she even knows.
[***]
>All rise.
* >Nearer, my God, to Thee
* Nearer to Thee
* E'en though it be a cross
* That raiseth me
* Still all my song shall be
* Nearer, my God, to Thee
* Nearer to Thee *
>She was a champion, that much we all know.
We know that, through deep faith and rigorous discipline
applied to her truly extraordinary
and God-given gifts,
Dana outstripped most of us,
and when He chose her to join Him,
God knew that he was doing so
before this beautiful girl ever got the chance
to fulfill her other great longing,
to find domestic happiness.
Dana longed for companionship,
and she most certainly would have found it.
>She did.
She absolutely found that.
>I know. It's okay.
>If Dana had had more time on this worldly plane,
why, a beautiful girl like Dana,
she would have, could have easily found a love mate...
>She found love.
>We know that, Shane. That's all that matters.
>She would have settled down with a loving partner,
someone to care for her, a strong, devoted man...
a loving husband who could match her strength--
>What are you talking about?
Dana was gay!
Excuse me.
>So were we explicitly not invited
back to the house?
>Well, if you consider "blood relations"
and "family friends for more than 15 years."
>Why don't we just go anyway?
What do you think?
>Why would you want to do that?
>Because, you know, I just feel like
I haven't said goodbye to her, and...
>Well, I'm going to go home
to be with my baby,
especially since her other mother
is taking her off this afternoon
to be with her new man-friend.
>Will you be all right?
>Yeah.
Bye.
>What are we waiting for?
>Alice.
>So, Max, what was the name of the job that you applied for?
>A place called Intechmode.
>Jenny thought it would be cool--
>Oh, wait, but didn't you--
you interviewed for that one or something?
>No, Moira did.
>Oh.
>And they were a bunch of sexist pigs,
so I was going to write an article for it.
>Oh, you think they'll give Max a job
that they refused Moira?
>It's a better job, actually.
It's the senior project manager.
They seemed to really like my resume.
So...
>Good for you, Max.
>Here she comes.
>[WHISPERING]: You guys, look what I got.
>Are those Dana's ashes?
>Oh, no, you didn't.
>Oh, my God...
[LAUGHING]
>You are my hero.
>We're going to have our own memorial
at Camp Imalahkaha.
>This group is working on expanding software development
for the INTECH server chip.
Pavel is the project leader.
Let me introduce you to the guys.
Say hello to Max Sweeney, everyone.
>Hey, Max. >Hi.
>Hey, how's it going?
>Good.
>Here we're looking at a key system strategy
for I.T. managers.
>So that must mean a dual-core mobile chip.
>Yeah.
>Hey.
>Wow, you've sure got the hardware.
Assisted virtualization technology.
You know, Chaldene had a system set up like this
for client platforms.
[CAR DOOR CLOSES]
>What the...?
>Dylan...
>[MAN AND BOY LAUGHING]
>You've got to color in the lines.
>Hey.
>Henry, Mikey, this is, uh...
This is Bette.
This is Angelica's other mother.
>Pleased to meet you.
>Nice to meet you.
>Thanks for letting us hang with Angelica today.
It would have been a bummer
to go to the aquarium without her.
>Yeah, well, I've heard it's a great aquarium.
>Oh, you haven't been?
>Henry took the day off work
so He could go after Dana's funeral.
>I thought it would be a good antidote.
>Yeah.
>Do you want to join us?
>I have a...
I have a meeting.
I'm being head-hunted by Art College L.A.
>They want you to teach?
>They're searching for a dean.
[CHUCKLES AWKWARDLY]
>Congratulations.
Sounds exciting.
>We should go.
>Yeah.
>Come on, buddy.
>Wait-- I want to take a picture
with my special camera.
>Why don't we wait
till we get to the aquarium
to take a picture?
>Can you take it?
>You want me to take a picture?
>A family picture.
>Thank you.
>Okay, come on.
[DOOR CLOSES]
[SNIFFLING]
>I'm-- I'm giving you my footage,
which...
you can throw away.
You can burn it if you want.
I hope instead
that you use your passion
and your resources
to put this story forward.
I believe in it.
It's one of the few things
I still believe in.
>I'm so sorry, Helena.
I don't know what it was like for you,
coming out of the closet.
I mean, we hardly know one another.
I never told you how I grew up
or what Danny did for me,
how he--
Thing is, I don't even...
I don't even want to face myself.
Even now, I...
I just-- I can't face the things about myself
that I've been running away from.
They just...
They just caught up with me when I met you.
I really don't know how to face the fact
that I love--
>Wow, is that a 260 Stinger?
>Are you a powerboat enthusiast, Max?
>I just love engines,
and that's got the most beautiful twin SBCs.
>Well, maybe I'll take you out for a spin
after you get settled
and get your project group up to speed.
>Does that mean...
Have I got the job?
>Welcome aboard, Max.
Welcome to Intechmode.
>Wow.
Thanks, man.
[LAUGHS]
Whoa, that's exciting.
>Would you marry me?
>I know that you're...
probably surprised that I would come to you.
>No.
No, not at all.
If I were in your position, I'd come to me, too.
>What position is that?
>The non-birth mother
in a lesbian relationship that's breaking up.
>How did you know that Tina and I are breaking up?
>I'm a lesbian in Los Angeles.
>Well, did you also know
that she has a boyfriend?
[LAUGHS]
>Of course she does.
[SIGHS]
>Well, the good news is,
is that the law is on your side.
Did you know that?
>No.
California law actually recognizes you as--
What's the kid's name?
>Angelica.
You were Angelica's intended parent
from conception.
You've actively co-parented her,
and you and Tina filed the adoption petition
at the time of her birth.
A California court
would almost certainly grant the adoption
and award you 50/50 joint custody.
>That's not what I want.
I don't want 50/50 joint custody.
>Oh, please, don't tell me
you're trying to get out of child support.
Because even if Tina
has to raise this baby alone,
you still have a financial obligation--
>I want sole custody.
>How do you figure that?
>Tina may have given birth to her,
but, really, Angelica is the mirror of me.
I mean, I know what she's going to experience
as a biracial girl growing up in a divisive world.
I mean, let's face it,
when Tina goes out in public with Angelica,
people automatically assume that she's been adopted,
but when they see me with Angelica,
they see a mother and a daughter.
I'm the one who's going to be able to give her
a sense of belonging.
>Wow.
Okay, um...
How do you think Tina will react to this?
>Look, you know what?
All I know is that
when I saw Angelica about to go out the door today
with Tina and Henry and little fair-haired Mikey,
I just...
I just wanted to fucking scream, you know?
Because I do not want my daughter
growing up in a house where she feels like an outsider
because everyone else is white
and when she looks around
she doesn't see another familiar face
that looks like her own.
You know, she's going to get that enough as it is
in the world at large,
and I know-- I know what that feels like.
Angelica...
belongs with me.
>And what did the guy say when you told him
that they passed on Moira for a lesser job
with the exact same resume and the same qualifications?
>Do you know how much
they're offering to pay me, Jenny?
>What did he say?
>Six figures.
I mean, that means we can get our own place,
and between the book and this,
it's like we're practically rolling in it.
>Yeah, but you have to go back.
You've got to go...
>Come on.
>You've got to go back.
You've got to go confront
their fucking hypocrisy,
that equal-opportunity bullshit.
You know, I spoke to my agent about it,
and she was going to talk to the New Yorker
about writing a piece.
>That's so uncool.
I mean, I told you, I don't want to do that.
>So, what are you going to do now?
Are you going to sell out?
Start sleeping with the enemy?
>If you think men are the enemy, then you and I have a problem.
[TINA AND HENRY LAUGHING]
>[HENRY]: Yeah.
[DOORBELL RINGS]
>What the fuck?
No, I'll get it.
[BETTE, SIGHING]: >I'm so lonely, Kit.
I don't think I've ever been this lonely in my life.
[SIGHS]
I just, I can't...
I can't...
I can't bear it.
And I just-- I never even got to say goodbye to her and...
>You'll get to say goodbye to her tomorrow.
Dana knows.
She's waiting for us
before she takes off on the big trip.
>Go on.
You two sleep in there.
>I'm fine, I'll be fine--
>Please.
>Please? Come on.
>Angus?
>Could you watch Angelica tomorrow
while we scatter Dana's ashes?
>Of course.
Tina already called me.
>Hey...
I'm your guy.
Know that.
You've got family here.
>Thanks.
>Go on.
You two get some rest.
>Thanks, babe.
>Mm-hmm.
[***]
>[MAX]: Her brother was saying
it's a bit of a hike to the waterfall.
>[ALICE]: Okay, I think there's two falls.
I think she's talking about that one.
>I think we take the Algonquin trail,
through the Passamaquoddy...
But do we take Arapaho, or...
>You guys, I've got it.
We'll just take the Algonquin
through the Passamaquoddy Pass.
Take a right at the Micmac Valley,
and that third nature trail,
the Naragansett,
we'll take it to the fork in the road.
That flows into the Ikwe River.
>Great. Okay.
>We'll cross the bridge.
>All right, let's go.
>Okay.
>[ALICE]: Guys, first, we have to find her cabin, though,
because it was really important to her.
She talked about it in our first meeting.
[***]
>All right, guys, here's the cabins.
>Which one did Dana stay in?
>It was called Hinaata.
I'm pretty sure.
Here it is. Hinaata.
I can't believe it's still here. Got to go in.
>[Carmen]: This is the first place Dana got it on with a girl?
>[bette]: And why do you know this?
>[ALICE]: I was writing for this girls' sports magazine,
if you can believe that, me writing for sports,
but I was given an assignment to interview this tennis player.
>Okay.
Dana...
[LAUGHS]
I'm excited about this interview.
>Oh, good.
Um...
Did you have a special person, like a mentor,
you know, someone who inspired you?
>Yeah.
Um, well, um...
I was a senior camper
at Camp Imalahkaha,
and I was in Hinaata,
and "Hinaata" means "leader," and there was this...
I had a bunkmate who was just sort of like,
the leader of all of us leaders,
and she was--
Oh.
She was, um, she was really mature and together
and strong.
She was really funny...
and she always knew
that she was...
gonna be a professional tennis player.
>Oh.
>So, um...
[CLEARS THROAT]
So I guess, yeah.
She was sort of the first person
I really looked up to in that way.
>Right, right.
>But she was always an amazing athlete,
you know,
and she was beautiful, too.
I mean, she had long blonde hair,
and, um...
really incredible muscles,
and she was always really tanned.
She was just...
>Wow...
>Yeah.
>So it's kind of like...
I mean, if...
Is it fair to say maybe you were...
infatuated, or, um...
like, you had in-love feelings for her?
>No.
No.
>But, I mean, you must have...
you know, had, like, a crush, or...
You know, not to say
that she was a dyke or that you are,
but that--
>What are you talking about?
>Well...
Girl athlete, long blonde hair, big muscles--
>You know, I'm sorry.
I just-- I can't do this interview.
I've heard about this kind of thing
happening before,
I just never really expected it
from a reputable publication like yours.
I-I'm...
I have to go.
You'll be hearing from my lawyer.
>[HELENA]: So how did you two end up being friends
after she got you fired?
>Oh, she didn't get me fired.
I mean, they canned the story, and they never hired me again.
So, um, one day I'm hanging out at Fred Segal, right,
and I look up, and I see there she is,
Dana Fairbanks with her mother.
>So I was sitting at this table
with a bunch of people.
Gabby Deveaux was with me.
>Ugh.
>And she kept staring at me,
and she really couldn't take her eyes off me, right?
>So afterwards, I went to the florist.
I was buying Gabby tulips,
and she was cheating on me already.
Anyway, I bought her tulips,
and I came out, and I just went up to her car
to talk to her.
>Nice wheels.
>Oh, hi!
>Hey...
>Hi. >Hi.
>Thanks.
>Where'd your friend go?
>Oh, that's my mother.
>Oh...
>Yeah.
>Did you guys eat here?
>Yeah.
>Like, you know,
Fred Segal Cafe is the biggest lezzie hangout
in West Hollywood?
>No, I didn't know that.
Yeah. Huh.
Hey, maybe sometime you and I can go for lunch or...?
>Really?
>Yeah. Yeah, sure.
>Really?
>Sure.
>Oh, cool.
Great.
>Okay.
Maybe Wednesday?
>Yeah, okay.
>Great.
Cool.
Maybe we'll go to Fred Segal Cafe.
>Maybe Fred Segal Cafe.
>Really?
>Yeah.
>Hey, um,
off the record.
Swear.
>Okay.
>Camp, Hinaata?
>Yeah?
>You and that girl,
you got it on, right?
>Off the record?
>Yeah.
>I'll see you Wednesday.
>So this is where it happened.
With the tennis player.
I mean, it could have been on this bed.
>And it took her years to tell me.
>She was really deep
in that closet.
>And then right after you met her,
you brought her to our millennium Y2K party.
Remember that?
Where we partied like it was 1999?
>Oh, my God, that party of yours.
I mean, that party was just...
fucking insane.
Do you remember that girl in the box?
>Yeah, that performance artist.
>Oh, right.
>She would write on the glass.
>You do weights?
>Freeweights,
and then I do a little cardio.
>You lift weights?
>Yeah.
>What do you bench?
>I don't bench. I use freeweights--
>Hey, Kit.
This is Dana Fairbanks.
>Hey.
>She's a pro tennis player.
>Get out! No shit?
>That's totally...
>Kit Porter.
She's a sister of one of the hostesses.
>Oh, cool.
It's nice to meet you.
>This is my boyfriend, Harrison.
>Hey, how you doing?
>Whassup, beau? >Ow.
>That's your boyfriend?
>Yep.
>Mm-hmm.
>Isn't he cute?
>Yeah, he's cute, all right.
>How long have you guys been dating?
>[HARRISON]: Uh, well, it's been a little while.
I'm not sure of the date, exactly.
Dates... I mean, who knows dates, really?
Dates...
I never keep track of 'em.
Probably-- It's been a couple of months.
>Oh.
>I can't remember exactly.
Uh, do you know, honey?
>So it's a new, fresh romance.
>Yeah, it's new.
Yeah, it's pretty good.
[***]
>Good.
>Y'all couldn't wait
to out her out of that closet.
>Yeah, like you were so innocent about that.
>Well, she was suffocating in there.
You had to bring her out.
She couldn't breathe.
She needed to live.
>What?
Am I wrong?
>Kit, you were shitfaced.
>Not too shitfaced to know
that that boy was gay as the day is long.
>I don't get it.
It's a man, right?
>Definitely.
>Well, then, where's the...
>I think he has it,
like, tucked between his legs.
>Harrison...
>Oh, my God, who are they kidding?
>Yeah, like they're going to be doing
the funky monkey tonight--
yeah, right.
>Do you know what? I've got to go.
>But--
[SNICKERING]
>Hey, Dana...
>Come here.
>Come on.
>Hi.
Hi...
>Do you guys know
that Dana and I fooled around once?
>Excuse me?
>You and Dana?
>Yes.
>Are you kidding me?
>Are you fucking kidding?
>No!
>You're just saying this
to get attention again.
>No, I'm not saying it to get atten--
Shane, say it. It's true. >It's true. She did.
>Okay, Jenny, details.
>I was at The Palms,
and she came, and we bumped into each other,
and we started talking, and whatever,
and then she came back to the shed,
and we proceeded to have
the worst sex ever in history.
>How did you recover after that?
>Um, well, we said that we should just stop
before it just got totally out of hand
and just like two crazy people,
and then, I don't know,
she asked me if I wanted to learn how to dance.
>Because she was a really good dancer,
wasn't she?
>Yes.
[***]
>You don't bring it together. It's sort of like this.
There it is, yeah.
[GIGGLING]
>Want me to teach you?
[LAUGHING]
>Ooh, I like this.
>Back, one, two.
Back, one, two.
>I'm doing the Charleston.
>Okay, wait, now I can't remember.
Let's see.
>One, two.
[GIGGLING]
>[SHANE]: Remember when her and Lara broke up?
>Mm-hmm.
>I don't think I'd seen her
that devastated in a long time,
so I took her
to the Tegan and Sara concert.
>You fucker.
You were supposed to take me--
>I know, I'm sorry.
I wanted to do something to cheer her up.
I mean,
she was in the worst place,
but, anyways, I...
I don't know why, but I brought acid.
[LAUGHTER]
>And I think Dana had an epiphany that night.
>You know, you don't have to
if you don't want to.
>No, I want to.
Just-- What's it going to do to me?
>Well, it depends.
Well, I don't know.
I find that it makes me floaty,
and I see trails and colors sometimes.
It's...
Expect that.
>But is that fun?
>I think it's a blast.
>I don't know.
Will it set me free?
[CHUCKLES]
>You know what?
It'll give you the illusion
that it sets you free,
and that's... just as good.
[***]
[TEGAN AND SARA PERFORM "LOVE TYPE THING"]
>* My shirt tucked out And your hands tucked in *
* When dark things come calling They want you to hear... *
>How do you feel?
>I don't feel anything.
>You will.
>* A love type thing A sure type thing... *
>Do you know who's a lesbian?
>Dana Fairbanks.
>I am not!
>What?
>Huh?
* If they want you They'll take you *
* And that is for sure
* Sweet humming underground Sleepless and sore *
>Come on, Dana, come out of that closet.
* A love type thing A sure type thing *
* Oh, it's a love type thing A sure type thing *
[LAUGHTER]
>[shane]: She danced her ass off, too.
[ALL LAUGHING]
>A crazy dancer.
>Yeah.
>And she was the best kisser.
>And an incredible lover.
>Yeah, and a trusting,
trustworthy friend.
>All that and so much more.
>Yup.
>Absolutely.
>We love you, Dana.
>Dana...
>We love you, love you,
love you, Dana.
>Okay, who's going to drink mine?
>We will.
[***]
>I asked Carmen to marry me.
>Losing someone you love
as much as you love Dana
can really make you think about the rest of your life,
you know?
>The worst part is
is that we're estranged from her family.
I'd love to repair that.
I'd love to ask for their...blessing.
She hasn't even said yes yet.
>[MAX]: I can hear the waterfall, so we must be getting close.
[KIT]: >Dana, we are not all athletes like you!
>[MAX]: Come on, Kit.
You can make it.
>[breathing heavily]
>Hey, you guys!
Look at the waterfall.
>Dana...
you don't know how much we're going to miss you.
>But we know that everything is fine...
and you're in a peaceful place,
and everything is okay.
>No, it's not.
>Of course it's not.
It's not for us,
but Dana is in a peaceful place.
She is.
>No. No, I don't buy
that fucking spiritual bullshit,
and I can't sit here
and pretend that it's okay,
because it's not!
And she didn't die peacefully.
She died alone,
and I'm not going to sit here
and put this in a box with a ribbon
just to make everyone feel better,
because it's not the truth.
It's not.
>Shane?
Shane!
[CRYING]
[***]
>Yes.
Yes.
>I do love you.
>[SOBBING]
[***]