- You know, she says I make her feel some kind of way.
But if that's true, then why...
why can't I feel it?
You know, I need to feel loved.
You know, I just need to feel loved.
And I feel wanted. I don't feel needed.
[ sighs ] I don't feel like I...
I don't feel like I'm the...
the one, you know?
I don't feel like I'm the one.
I feel like I'm one of -- one of.
You can love somebody and they not love you back.
And that's the realization, you know, here.
I can't do it anymore.
This is probably the end for me.
And...[ sighs ]
It scares me to no end.
- Hey!
[ conch blowing ]
♪♪
Aloha! I'm on the island of Hawaii.
The island is absolutely breathtaking.
It's known for its active volcanoes,
its gorgeous waterfalls, its amazing coastline.
And I'm getting engaged here!
Aah!
- Aloha. Welcome to -- - Aloha. Thank you!
This week is Fantasy Suites,
and I'm very excited for individual time with these guys,
away from everybody else, away from the noise.
Intimacy really can mean a whole lot of different things.
That can mean emotional intimacy, physical intimacy,
and that's a really big part of a relationship.
I have three incredible guys here,
Jonathon, Marcus, and Devin.
I've told all three of these guys
that I'm falling for them,
and that's what makes this week so exciting
and also nerve wracking, because the end of the week,
I'm going to have to send someone home that
I am falling for.
- Hi! - Hi!
- I'm so happy to see you. - Oh, my God, me too.
I'm so glad to see Molly because I feel like she can
really help me work through my feelings about this week.
I've never been this close to an engagement before,
and Molly being married for 15 years
and having gone through overnights,
I think she could be really helpful.
What's been happening? What's going on?
So much. There's so much since the radio day.
It's funny, because I really wanted to talk to you
after that day. - I know, we didn't get
a chance to see each other. - No.
So I can't tell you how much I appreciate having you here
and being able to help me through it.
- Well, I think this week is the most important week
of this entire experience
because you get so much dedicated alone time
with fantasy suites.
You know, for Jason and myself, that was our time to,
like, really have those deep, deep, hard conversations.
Do you feel like with the three guys that you have left here,
the one is here and you're ready to get engaged
and you're ready to move on to the next step?
- Yeah, I think I'm as ready as I can be.
I feel so strongly for these three guys.
I know that one of them is going to be my husband
at the end of this.
- So speaking of, who is here?
- This week, we have Devin, Marcus, and Jonathon here.
- Okay, I will tell you Jason and I after our date with
you guys, Jonathon felt like he would look at you
when he was answering questions.
He wasn't trying to impress anyone else in the room.
He was just almost like it was just the two of you in the room.
- I know.
With Jonathon and I, we were a bit of a slower burn.
He's told me it takes him some time
to really open up and fall for somebody.
But in the weeks after our one on one date,
we have had so much exponential growth with each time
that we've seen each other.
And then last week, during hometowns,
he told me that he was falling for me.
- Okay. How'd that make you feel?
- Amazing. I mean, I felt like I was at
the same exact place with him,
too, so I expressed that I was falling for him, as well.
- Is there anything that's missing with Jonathon?
JENN: It does take him a little bit to get vulnerable with me,
and I think that he is in his head a lot,
and I want him to kind of get out of his head a little bit
and be able to just lean into his emotions a lot more.
- My guess with him, maybe when he has a long time with you,
he'll be able to like, relax and let his guard down.
- Yeah, I agree.
On the other spectrum, Marcus is here.
- And I didn't meet him, so I don't know him.
- No.
With Marcus, he's always been someone
that I saw a future with, very early, in the beginning.
And he is very reliable. He's stable.
He's just there for me.
But he has expressed that it takes him a while
to lean into love and to fall in love
because he's been so hurt in the past before.
And so in the past couple of weeks,
I just feel like I've been putting in so much more effort
in the relationship
and investing so much more of my feelings into him.
Going into this week, I need him to be able to
envision us at the end of this together.
- Okay, so let's talk about Devin.
- Devin.
- Oh, yeah. - Oh.
DEVIN: Not bad for the first one.
- Dude, two ricochets off the rocks right?
- Right. Right. - Nice.
- He just gets me.
And I haven't had that in a partner ever before.
And after meeting his family, I feel so much closer to him,
and he told me that he is in love with me.
- Oh, my gosh. Okay. - Yes, and I am not
there yet with him, but I did tell him that
every time that I see him, I do fall a lot harder for him.
- It's hard, right, because, you know, you tell a girl
you love her, and most of the time, you hear it back,
and she's reassured me in a lot of different ways,
you know, indirectly, directly.
But it's bothering me that I haven't heard it yet.
You know? - You want to hear those words,
- obviously. - Yeah, obviously.
I mean, otherwise, how do you propose
to somebody that you don't know?
So, um, yeah. It's tough.
I've been cheated on in the past.
And, you know, the biggest fear that I've expressed
is saying "I love you" to somebody
and then them turning around and saying that to somebody else.
- The only obstacle with Devin is me
and maybe self-sabotaging it because --
- How so? - Devin just is saying
all the right stuff, doing all the right things,
and that's hard for me to accept, I think.
- Why? Why? - And internally -- I just,
I haven't had it my whole life.
So I think this week for Devin and I, it's more about me trying
to lean into those feelings with him,
because I think it's been so hard for me my entire life
to accept something good when it comes.
So I think that's the internal challenge
that I've been having with Devin,
is that, is it too good to be too good?
- He's too good? - Yeah.
- I mean, Jenn. - I know.
- You deserve someone amazing, someone perfect,
someone who is going to make you a better person
and be with you for the rest of your life.
- Yeah. - You know, like you are
deserving of all of that. Don't question that.
- Yeah. Thank you. - Don't do that.
I think if you lean into how you are feeling,
have those hard conversations about what
the future could look like,
really, really soak in all of the time
that you have with these guys this week, it is so important,
I think you'll be able to figure it out.
JENN: Thanks.
- I hope for Jenn that she has total clarity
after doing these fantasy dates.
You know, like, it's hard. She's got three great guys here.
How do you choose? I don't envy her position at all.
And so I'm hoping when she takes the time
to ask those hard questions,
she's able to come out of it and see a clear path of,
this is my person, or maybe this isn't my person.
You deserve a lifetime of happiness with someone,
and I hope it's someone who is here.
I think that would be so amazing.
- Me too. - [ laughs ]
JENN: This week, is going to be a really big week for me.
I am so incredibly excited, but also nervous.
- Okay, we'll see you at the end of this.
- I'll see you soon. - Okay.
- I haven't ever really been truly in love before,
but I have three guys this week that I'm falling for,
so every conversation that I have with these guys
this week is a make it or break a conversation.
Can I see a future with you?
Are we aligned?
This week is a pivotal week.
It's going to change everything.
DEVIN: Today is my overnight date with Jenn, and I'm there.
I love her, and I told her that.
I've put everything out on the table for her.
She knows where I stand.
But, you know, as much as I want to believe it's me,
I don't know.
And she hasn't told me that by any means.
So that's a big question mark in my head,
just because I haven't had that reassurance.
I know Jenn's falling in love with me,
but I really want to hear that she loves me, too,
and not the day before I get down on a knee
or anything like that.
I want to know so that I can build on that.
I don't really know what Jenn's got in store,
but every date that Jenn and I have been on
has been an absolute blast.
So I know Jenn's excited to see me,
and I'm just as excited to see her.
JENN: Hey you. - What's up, baby girl?
- How are you? - I'm good. How are you?
- Mm. - Oh.
- You look fantastic. - So do you!
- Missed you. - I missed you.
All right, so what do we have in store today?
- Today, we are going to see the beautiful island of Hawaii
from up above in this little guy right here.
- I love that. I love that. - And we're gonna see it all.
- Oh, yeah. I can't wait.
- Let's do it. Okay. - Come on.
JENN: Devin, he is someone who
just makes me so happy all the time.
And so today is a really big day for us, and I'm excited.
Devin and I are gonna have a once in a lifetime experience
and be able to really see Hawaii for what it is.
I could see Devin not doing this in the future,
coming to a beautiful island like this with our kids.
DEVIN: Look at this view. - So pretty.
I'm close to being in love with Devin,
and I hope that today is a day that can help us get there.
Devin's giving me this feeling of love and support
that I haven't had my entire life or in a relationship,
so the biggest concern is that I could self-sabotage with Devin
because I don't know how to navigate these feelings
of having somebody just be there for me unwaveringly.
- It's crazy how blue the water is.
- It's crazy how blue your eyes are.
- Wow. - They're not blue.
- They're not blue at all. - They're not blue at all.
JENN: Being in this helicopter with Devin
just being yourselves and just being able to joke around,
it just feels right.
Rainbow!
DEVIN: You can see the end of it right here.
- JENN: I'm speechless. - DEVIN: Absolutely stunning.
- Devin makes me feel loved and just supported.
He is someone who's consistent with me and knows what he wants,
and he's not been afraid to express it or show it.
This is a dream. It's so beautiful.
DEVIN: I couldn't have asked for a more beautiful view
with a more beautiful woman.
JENN: Yeah, yeah yeah, yeah.
- Corny, okay? - I love it.
- Oh [bleep]
JENN: Devin is someone who's so fun to be around all the time.
And for him to really break down his walls with me,
it makes me feel like this is something really special.
He is just a good thing
that I've been wanting for a long time,
and it's all about allowing myself to accept that.
- Ah! Oh, wow! - Oh, my God.
- Look at that. Isn't that beautiful?
- Oh! - What the hell?
JENN: I can't believe that.
Beautiful.
I've never felt any type of way about a woman
like I feel about Jenn.
I'd feel it in my bones that I'm the guy for Jenn.
How we interact when we're together,
it just makes us feel
like it's just us two in the world and nobody else.
I know that she's still got probably some figuring things
out to do, but she's a person that I see the end with,
and I told her I love her,
and I'm looking forward to the possibility
to get down on one knee with Jenn.
JENN: Devin and I are just having an amazing day together
and to be able to share these beautiful scenic moments,
it just means so much to me.
It's just making me feel like I'm with Devin for a reason,
and it just feels right with him.
I want to be in love with Devin,
and I think I'm really close to that.
And just having these moments to really get that alone time
and get that validation just proves even more
that he really does understand me and know me and see me.
It's getting easier and easier
to really fall into my feelings for Devin.
I had a really good time meeting your family.
It was so nice to meet your mom finally.
And it was nice to see her validate our relationship.
- I love that. Yeah.
For them to be so open to you and open to me
and open to us was just what I needed.
- Yeah. DEVIN: I am looking forward to
what comes next. - Mm-hmm.
- You know, it's not so much for me about the magic of this.
I don't want that to take away from...
- Us. - ...us working on
each other, you know?
And that's the big thing.
You know, it's the real world that makes me happy.
And I want to bring you into that real world
and do normal things like go to the movies
or go see a concert or go to the park.
You know, it's not so much for me about the big things.
It's always been about acclimating to normal life
and being happy.
We can be extraordinary people in a normal world,
you know what I mean?
You have no idea how much like I want to get back to work
and, like, live my life and eventually buy a house
and raise some kids because I've never had, like,
a normal family life.
So the extraordinary thing for me
is to have a normal family life.
Like, that's just all I want.
JENN: Devin doesn't shy away from talking about an engagement
at the end of this.
He's there, he's ready for it.
And as much as I am ready for engagement,
it is scary to lean into these feelings for Devin,
because I think I just need a little bit of time
for my feelings to catch up to my head.
So I'm really just trying to be cautious with it.
DEVIN: We've done very well, I think you and I,
of having such fantastic moments together
and becoming so close in such a short amount of time.
- Yeah, it's all crazy. It all doesn't make sense to me.
It makes a little bit of sense.
JENN: Does it? - Yeah, that's why I said
I loved you, because it made sense to me.
- You still feel that way? DEVIN: Absolutely. Yeah.
For me, like, I know why I love you.
And it's because you make me feel so secure in my own skin
in a way that I've never been able to feel before.
- I am so excited.
To hear you say all of that means so much to me.
And sometimes it's hard
for me to accept a good thing when I see it.
I know you're a good thing.
And it's, like, scary for me to, like,
lean into that fully
because I know that if I lean into it all the way,
it's going to be real.
- Yeah.
- I want to, and I'm trying.
I want you to know, like, I'm on the way there.
DEVIN: That's fine.
Just know that I'll be there waiting for you
whenever you get there.
- I'm trying every day for you.
- Don't worry.
You're worth the wait.
You know, I sat there and reiterated how much I love Jenn,
and I never heard it back.
You know, it's like she's done a good job
of showing she cares deeply for me.
But I would like to hear the big "L".
You know, I'd like to hear that back.
It's important to me.
JENN: Devin, he's so committed to me,
and I have no question
that he'd make a great partner at the end of this
and that he really is here for me.
But the question is,
am I going to be able to get there with Devin,
and can I allow myself to do that with him?
Maybe I'm hesitant to lean into my feelings for Devin
because I feel like they might be too good to be true.
The fear in all of this is that I won't be able to
accept a good thing for what it is, a good thing.
- Sign up to be on the next season of The Bachelor
or The Bachelorette at ABC.com/casting today.
♪♪
- Cute!
Devin has expressed that he loves me,
which makes me really excited, but scared all at the same time.
Thank you.
I'm not fully in love with Devin yet,
but that feeling that I have when I'm with him
just grows stronger every time that we're together,
and I am hopeful that we will be able to get there.
So tonight, I'm gonna lean into all of my feelings
and see where that takes me.
- This is beautiful. - We're in Hawaii.
- We're in Hawaii.
- And you look fantastic. - So do you.
- Will you make a toast? - I will, I will.
- Okay.
- Here's to a woman who makes me smile like it's the first time
I've ever seen her every single time I see her.
Here's to a woman who makes me happy even when I'm sad.
Cheers. - Cheers.
I like that.
DEVIN: Jenn is a person that I want to spend
the rest of my life with.
You know, this is a level that I've never been with a woman.
I do love her. I've told her that.
But it's so hard to love somebody so much
and not know if she wants me back the way I want her.
I really need to hear it back.
I'm just fighting the urge to
just to tell her, "Come on, say it, like,
come on, just tell me."
- How are you feeling? - This has been a long journey.
Getting back home and seeing my family
and my friends made me miss everything even more.
- Yeah.
- Um, but you've been a good reason to stay
and stick around and see this thing through to the end,
because I am very confident in how I feel about you.
And I love that
because it hasn't always been so clear for me.
- Yeah. - Yeah.
I wanted to ask you,
when you feel like you can't recognize a good thing,
like, what do you mean by that?
- Yeah, the whole self-sabotage thing.
Um, I'm only slowly starting to recognize it now,
and I don't think I've done it in the past,
because in the past, I've just had really bad relationships
- that sabotaged itself. DEVIN: Right.
- Not from me. - I hear you.
- But our relationship together has made me realize
how much you mean to me.
And I keep saying like, are you real, like, this is crazy?
It's because I've never had anything like this before,
and it almost makes me want to run away from it
because it's starting to feel very real.
It's like it's too good to be true, right?
Like, there's got to -- - You're waiting for the bang.
- There's got to be something wrong here, Devin.
- You're waiting for the bang.
Jenn had mentioned to me that because she has been hurt
in the past, she has a hard time accepting good things,
and I think that makes her move a little bit slower
than I would like.
But I've been there, too, in my life,
and I just never want it to end with her and want her to know
that she shouldn't have any doubts about me.
I know that's not a healthy way to be thinking about things.
I don't want you to feel ashamed of having reservations.
I don't want you to ever feel
like there's that pressure from me to like...
Yeah, no. And I don't feel that.
For you to be someone so consistent,
so reliable to, when I say you,
you speak to my soul, like you really do.
And I've never had anybody like that before.
We have this communication, this ability to be ourselves,
this comfortability and so much more.
It's unreal.
That's why I'm not scared to let you know
how good it is for me.
And with you, I've said things that I don't
ever know if I'll hear back. You know what I mean?
And that's not any knock on you.
But it's just because I feel so strongly about you that
I don't think I could go another day without telling you.
You know, I don't love people.
You don't just toss the word around.
No, no, no, no, no, no, no.
So...
you're in love. - Yeah.
Like, where do you see it all going?
And are you ready for engagement?
I am in love, and I am ready for an engagement.
I am ready because I have never felt a person accept me
the way that you've accepted me in life.
You have been a rock that I didn't realize
that I needed until I had it there.
I would love to call you my fiancée.
And I would love to call you my wife.
Like, those things go hand in hand for me.
And I'm excited about that.
I can feel that from you,
and that's what makes this so real to me
and so scary for me, is that I can feel that.
And I know that it would work,
and I know that we'd figure it out together.
Yes.
I might not always express it in the best way,
but I want you to know how thankful I am
to have someone so unwaveringly here for me.
And I can't tell you how much it means to me.
I know I say that over and over again.
It really is.
You can say it a couple more times.
It'll be okay with me.
No, Devin, like really, I...
can't tell you how much you mean to me.
Devin is checking off every box that I've always wanted.
And it feels amazing to know
that he wants all the same things that I want.
He really just wants to settle down and buy a house.
And he's in it for the engagement
at the end of this all.
I hope to be in love with Devin.
I'm not sure when that's going to be.
I'm not really planning on seeing it.
I'm not playing on not seeing it.
But I think I'll know it when I know it.
- I have something. - Okay.
Do you want to open it?
I'll open it.
"Jenn and Devin, I hope you enjoyed your day
soaring above the island's ancient volcanoes
and creating unforgettable memories together.
Should you choose to forgo your individual rooms,
please use this key to stay as a couple in the fantasy suite.
Jesse."
Hm.
What do you think?
I'm game if you're game.
I'm totally game.
Let's do it. - Let's do it.
It's a magical key.
This does look like a magical key.
For a magical night.
DEVIN: I'm really excited.
Tonight, I'm gonna have a full night
of uninterrupted moments with Jenn.
And this is a huge step for us.
And it's something that I look forward to.
And I'm -- I'm over the moon about it.
This is the first time
we'll be off camera, just talking about life,
and to be able to have that quality time with her
is -- is very meaningful to me.
- [ laughs ]
This is nice. Look at all the candles.
- How romantic.
I only see one goal, and that's Jenn and I
at the finish line together.
And us married, and a nice family with kids.
- Should we pop some champ? - Yeah, absolutely.
- Go for it.
- I'd be crazy if I didn't see that at this point.
You know, she's a girl
that I want to spend the rest of my life with.
To an incredible journey, first of all.
- Mm-hmm. - And to a sneak peek
into what every day could look like with us.
- Mm-hmm. - I am more excited than ever
to spend this moment with you.
- Mm-hmm. - Today, tomorrow.
And for as long as you live.
The whole dynamic of our relationship
could change after tonight.
You know, it could be all the mental assurances
that I need, all those little words that I need to hear.
♪♪
This could be the biggest stepping stone
that there is for us in this journey.
And I'm gonna push with everything I've got.
And I'm not gonna leave anything on the table.
♪♪
[ Jenn laughing ]
- DEVIN: Good morning. - JENN: Good morning.
- How are you feeling? - Great.
How are you feeling? - I feel fantastic.
- Great. - Talk about an amazing night.
Mm-hmm.
I feel like a happy girl. - Yeah?
You look like a happy girl.
JENN: Waking up next to Devin, I feel amazing.
People say Devin looks like Pete Davidson,
but after last night,
I'd say he's better than Pete Davidson in every way.
[ chuckles ]
DEVIN: I couldn't be happier in this moment.
Beautiful sunrise. Beautiful woman.
These are the moments that I want to hold on to.
Because these are the ones that matter the most.
It's the little things like waking up next to you,
those are the ones that I hold on to.
I am finally starting to accept
that sometimes a good thing is just a good thing.
And I deserve that.
And it seems like Devin is that good thing.
- I'd like to make a toast. - Whoa.
Too much needed quality time together.
- Agreed. - To feeling aligned
in our future.
And to -- to us.
- To us. Cheers. - Cheers.
DEVIN: Waking up this morning, sitting next to Jenn,
I feel calm, feel comfortable.
- Mm. - Is it good?
It's a great feeling to have.
I've loved before, but I've never loved this way.
And that's a beautiful thing for me to feel.
JENN: I'm definitely feeling this morning
that, um, I know that I deserve a good thing,
and it's just becoming more and more real for me.
And I think last night was like a pivotal time for that,
to see that, and allows me to have more confidence
in our relationship. - Absolutely.
- And I can see that future there with you.
So I can only hope
that it helps you get out of your head a little bit.
- Absolutely. - Yeah?
- Yeah.
I feel elated and ecstatic about the night,
but I'm nervous because I know
that I can't hold on to this moment forever.
- Bye. JENN: Bye.
- DEVIN: I love you. - JENN: Okay.
- Bye. - Bye.
DEVIN: It's hard to see her walk away in these moments.
And, you know, I don't know.
Who knows when I'll see her again.
Bye!
Told her I loved her again last night.
Didn't hear it back, and it's unfortunate,
but, you know, I know my feelings are true.
For me, there's no more love that I can give
without hearing it back.
You know, I've given everything I can
to this point, and I just -- I want to know that I'm the guy.
I know that there are other guys here still.
And I don't want to say "I love you" to her and her
turn around and say it to someone else.
You know, if that happens, I would be crushed.
♪♪
JONATHON: Today is my overnight date with Jenn.
To say I'm excited is an understatement.
I cannot wait to see her.
After watching her interact with my family, like,
the feelings that were there in the moment
were just so strong.
And, you know, I shared with her that I was falling for her,
and she shared that she was falling for me, too.
I don't think Jenn knows me to the depth of what somebody
who's going to be my fiancée should know.
So today, I think the most exciting part is
really just getting deeper with each other.
Today's just going to be fun.
I'm going to be smiling like I am right now all day,
and it's -- it's going to be a blast.
[ horn honks ]
- Hey! - JONATHON: Hi!
Good.
- How's it going? - Good. How are you doing?
Good.
That was a big hug. Sorry.
JENN: I can't wait to spend the day with Jonathon.
He looks amazing right now.
We started off a bit of a slow burn,
but now I am falling for him.
And to know that he's falling for me makes me so excited.
- I missed you. - I missed you, too.
It's been a little bit. - I know. I know.
I have a really fun day planned for us.
It's all going to be a surprise,
but are you excited for a little adventure?
- Yeah. - Okay.
Let's have some fun.
Okay. Let's go.
Today, we are going to hit up some markets,
try out some foods. - JONATHON: Hit it.
Here we go.
Just see what beautiful Hawaii will do for us.
JONATHON: Wow, this place is beautiful.
All right, so you gonna give me a hint on what we're doing?
Just you wait, Jonathon Johnson.
I always have such a good time when I'm with Jonathon,
but today, I really just want to see him get out of his head
a little bit and be more open with how he's feeling.
Let's go, baby!
Oh, my God!
[ laughs ]
JENN: I'm definitely hoping that Jonathon
and I are going to continue falling for each other.
- Oh, we're ready here. JENN: Yes we are.
I mean, there's no better place to fall in love than Hawaii.
Sorry, baby, time to break the diet.
I am not the biggest sweets guy in the world.
What are these? Maltesers.
They're little doughnuts?
Okay, let's do a coconut one.
A chocolate haupia one, an ube cheesecake.
I also would love a Nutella one, please.
JONATHON: My God. - What?
Let's just make it six.
JONATHON: But I'm not going to waste this day with Jenn.
I'm not gonna be that guy,
so it's definitely worth the cheat day for sure.
You ready?
It's actually really good.
JENN: It's always easy with Jonathon.
Like, we're just so ourselves
and we are able to have so much fun together.
Open wide!
That's something that I want in a relationship
and I need in a relationship.
You are the messiest eater. [ laughs ]
Sorry.
[ muffled ] What's wrong?
JONATHON: It's a little market.
JENN: Yeah!
Mm. That's actually really good.
That is so good.
JENN: Do you want to get matching rocks?
JONATHON: Get all the bad juju out of you.
JENN: Cleansing all my sins.
JONATHON: I'm having so much fun today.
Yeah. Me too.
JONATHON: Spending the day with Jenn has been amazing.
You know, that feeling of, like, potentially falling in love.
You gonna trick me into some more sweets?
It continues to grow and grow,
and I see no reason as to why it wouldn't keep going.
Mm. [ laughs ]
[ laughs ]
JENN: I love being in nature.
JONATHON: Same. Yeah.
JENN: This date with Jonathon feels like something
that we'd be doing in our everyday lives
if we were together.
Right now, I feel like life
would always be an adventure with Jonathon and full of life.
And that's what I want love to feel like.
Oh, my God, look at that.
Oh, my gosh.
Look at this.
JONATHON: Wow.
What?
Okay. You planned a good day.
JENN: Oh, now I planned a good day?
JONATHON: Yeah. This is good.
JENN: You didn't like it before, but now you do.
- Oh, my God. JONATHON: this is beautiful.
Whoo!
I just cannot believe that this is real.
This is exactly what we needed,
this romantic waterfall all to ourselves.
It's like the perfect end to a perfect day together.
This is so pretty.
I just can't believe that it's like we're already here.
- Yeah. - And I'm feeling the strain
of that a little bit, you know?
So that's why every time we're together,
I try to, like, make it as calm and collected as possible.
No pressure. No, like, live in the moment.
- Just being us, just being us. - Literally every time.
I think we do a really good job of that.
And we don't need to -- You don't need to think about
that or feel any pressure about that.
But I do. I care about you,
and I can't not put other people first.
And that especially includes you.
So, like, I want to be that breath of fresh air
when you sit down and you just get to just enjoy.
I always enjoy spending time with you,
and we always have such a good time together,
and that's something that I value so much
in our relationship.
But I also don't want you to be afraid to emote
or be afraid to tell me
how you're really feeling about something or whatever,
because that's what a relationship is about,
like, just like being honest to each other.
However you're feeling,
I would never want you to suppress anything.
I think tonight is a great opportunity to do that.
- Yeah. - Yeah.
JONATHON: Today, I've been trying to open up more.
I think being honest and just letting those feelings come in
as they come is going to be the biggest thing for me.
I don't have time to beat around the bush anymore.
It's now or never.
- Cheers to everything falling into the right place
to get us both here together at the same time,
this beautiful place.
And to us.
- Cheers. - Cheers.
JENN: For right now, I just feel so good.
It's like I'm finally starting
to see Jonathon get out of his head a little bit
and ease those anxieties.
We have a connection, and it's one that continues to grow,
and this is the moment that makes me feel like,
you know, we could get there, you know?
It's the romance, and it's there,
and I want us to get there.
I just feel so happy right now.
♪♪
JONATHON: I look like a scrub compared to.
- No, stop. - Look at those shoes.
- You look great, too.
Today with Jonathon has been amazing.
It's everything that I wanted coming into tonight.
I have very strong feelings for Jonathon.
Like, it's crazy how good he makes me feel.
It's crazy how understanding he is.
Jonathon and I have such great foundation together.
We have so much fun together, and I think going into tonight,
I want him to be able to lean into his emotions
a little bit more for me.
- Oh. - Cute.
And build off of more than just fun,
but also like getting deep and talking about how we grew up,
what do you want in a family,
you know, what his hopes are for the future.
What does this relationship look like outside of this all?
So, how do you feel about today? You have fun?
I have a lot of fun with you. - Yeah?
- Yeah, I mean, it was nice to just be able to get to spend
a lot of time together and to see you again.
Like, I missed you after hometowns.
And I think hometowns was a really big day for us.
And seeing how your family
saw such a change in you being with me
made me feel more confident in our relationship.
- Yeah. - They were all just so
unbelievably open with me, and I...
I loved that. It was very refreshing.
And seeing how much they cared about you
and how close knit of a family you guys are,
it was really endearing to see and be a part of.
- Yeah, you walked into that house like you owned it,
and I mean that in an amazing way.
Like, they have a lot to say.
And the fact that they wanted to listen to you was amazing.
I want a partner with a lot of confidence in themselves
and who they are.
You know, and I think I learned a lot of that about you.
That's crazy.
No, I mean, I never really saw myself
as someone walking into a room with a lot of confidence.
Yes, I am very confident in who I am, but, um...
...growing up, because my parents were immigrants
and because I was fully Vietnamese,
and then going into a very white dominated suburban town
and going to school there was really hard
for me to accept my identity and very hard
for me to fit in and see where I fit into the world.
- Yeah. - For a long time,
I honestly kind of hated who I was and did things
that maybe weren't, um,
true to who I was because I wanted to fit in
and wouldn't bring certain lunches to school
because I felt like people were judging me
because it was so foreign to them.
And there came a point where I didn't even know who I was.
Sorry you had to go through that. It sucks.
Yeah, as a kid, it was hard, and I wanted to just fit in
and be like everybody else.
And so it was really tough having to hide that part of me
because it is a part of me and it is who I am.
- Well, you are pretty great. - Thank you.
You should never have to hide that.
Thanks. Yeah, and I don't now.
It took me so long to celebrate that part of me
and celebrate my family and celebrate my culture,
that I want to make sure that when I have kids,
I'm able to help them through all of that
and help them celebrate themselves and help them learn
and understand that, yes, you are a little bit different,
but that's what makes you unique.
And that's what makes you so special,
is that you have an incredible story,
and you should be proud of where you come from,
because all these other people are so proud of you.
- I love that. - Yeah.
I think if I was a part of that family...
- Yeah. - ...I would probably try to
learn Vietnamese first of all.
- [ laughs ] Well, I can -- - And I'm sure it'd be --
- I could see that. - Your mom would be
on speed dial.
I'd be like, "All right, how do I make that?"
I love cooking. - Yeah.
So I would learn how to make everything.
I think when it comes to, like, a family,
I would love for a mixed household.
You know, the fact that my white mom could instill the confidence
of being half black and just living life as me,
I've never felt pressure to be anything other than what I am.
And it's something that I feel I deserve to pass down.
And whether my kids are half Vietnamese,
quarter black, quarter white,
I want them to just go through life confident as hell,
knowing that who they are is so amazing.
And I never want them to question,
and I never want you to have to question that.
- No, no. - And I wish that you always
had that confidence because you're so freaking incredible.
And, like, we have so much fun together.
And there's a thousand amazing things
that I can just say about you and us.
I came into this whole process with an open mind
and an open heart.
- Yeah. - But did I know for a fact
at the end of it, I'd be sitting here across from you,
telling you that I'm falling for you
and potentially getting on one knee?
[bleep] No.
Sorry. - [ laughs ]
No, and now I'm here, and it's all so real, and I can see it.
It would be naive of me to say that I couldn't see it.
You know I mean?
Yeah?
- I have something for you.
Do you want to open that?
- [ chuckles ]
"Jenn and Jonathon, I hope you've discovered
that love, much like your date today,
is about the journey as much as the destination.
Should you choose to forgo your individual rooms,
use this key to stay as a couple in the fantasy suite.
Jesse."
- What do you think?
- I would love to spend the night with you.
- I would, too.
JONATHON: Everything feels good right now.
The energy and the feelings and the emotions are just there.
You know, watching somebody that just wants to see
the good in the world and gives it out,
like, those are special kinds of people,
and Jenn is one of those. I'm falling for her,
and the feelings are so far ahead of
where I thought they would even get from night one.
- Should we go? - Yeah, let's get out of here.
Tonight will be some time away from the world
to just breathe together for a second.
I have no doubt in my mind that tomorrow I could wake up
and say, "Hey, this is my person. I'm so in love."
Oh-ho. Some champagne. - Look how cute.
This is so romantic.
I feel incredible.
Today has been such a dream.
Jonathon was able to really finally let those walls down
and fall into his feelings.
It makes me feel really excited
for our relationship to really take that next stop.
Being with him is just easy.
I've always felt like I could be myself.
And having the conversation that we did at dinner,
I felt a lot closer to him.
I felt like I could spend the rest of my life with this guy.
I just know that there's so much more potential to grow.
This is exactly what I've been looking for,
this feeling.
♪♪
JONATHON: Good morning. JENN: Good morning.
- Feels amazing to wake up next to you.
- Yeah. You, too.
And it felt really nice.
- Agreed. - Yeah.
- It felt natural. Like, everything just flowed.
- It's always natural with us.
- Waking up next to Jenn feels incredible.
We went to bed smiling.
We woke up smiling.
Like...
the vibes, the energy,
the -- the happiness is so through the roof
that, like, we can't contain it.
I can't believe we're here.
- Me either.
Can't believe I'm in bed with mummy man from night one.
[ both chuckle ]
- We had conversations with no words being held back.
Like, it was just, like, letting loose
and enjoying the person that we're choosing to pursue.
JENN: Oh, wow.
- Like, I see the picture of me getting down on one knee.
I see the confidence that I have in what we have,
and I could see this being something absolutely incredible.
You know, I think going into last night,
we had a lot of clarity on who we are, what we wanted,
and what we have together. - Mm-hmm.
- And I just wanted to toast to finding confidence
and feeling as if we're on the right path.
- Cheers. - Cheers. ♪♪
- Waking up this morning, I'm feeling anxious.
My fantasy suite was great, you know,
and that's the hard part about all this,
is that it was so great,
but I left Jenn with feeling less of myself
than I did walking into it,
and that's -- that's the tough part.
You know, I'm giving out a love that I don't feel
like I'm getting in return, and I've been an option before.
You know, I've been the -- the safe bet in past relationships.
For me to be that second, third option before,
you know, I don't want to be that second, third option here.
I mean, Marcus and Jonathon are solid dudes,
but, um, you know, I want to be prioritized.
I want to feel like I'm number one,
and I don't feel like I'm number one.
I just feel like I'm "one of."
- See you soon. - Okay.
DEVIN: I want to be made whole here.
You know, I don't want to feel like I'm giving pieces away
that I can't get back.
I told her I loved her, and I meant that,
but I didn't get it back.
And if she turns around and says,
"I love you," to somebody else, that would kill me inside.
- Ouf. JESSE: It's heating up.
So, dude, how are you --
how are you feeling about this week?
- [ sighs ] You know, I think, uh, this is definitely
the most important week so far. - Yeah.
- Um, I think I have a lot on my heart, though,
I think I have a lot on my mind, and there's a lot of answers
that I still need or a lot of things
that I need to figure out. - Sure.
- She's definitely said that she's -- she's falling.
- Yeah. - I think she's a bit
- Yeah. - Okay.
ahead of me right now. - Really?
- Yeah. - Okay.
- Um, I think I spent years just kind of, like, running
from love and avoiding it. JESSE: Mm-hmm.
- And my biggest thing is, like, I don't want to miss
someone incredible sitting right in front of me.
I'm, like, beyond excited to be here in Hawaii,
and I'm excited to connect with Jenn.
All the time that I've spent with her is wonderful
and everything about her I enjoy.
But as well as things are going with Jenn and I, like,
I'm not to the point of being in love yet.
JESSE: Oh, there it is. MARCUS: Okay, there we go.
I just haven't had that, I guess,
epiphany yet or that feeling yet.
And there's no reason why I shouldn't be feeling that way.
So I'm doing everything that I can do to -- to get there.
I think it would be wrong for me to get down on a knee
right now with how much uncertainty I have
I think that's why this -- this kind of date coming up
is going to be super important.
- Yeah, yeah, I think it's big, too.
Like, what do you need to -- to hear or see from Jenn
that you think will help you?
- [ sighs ] Yeah.
I mean, I think it's just kind of, um --
I want to see what it is that she sees in me and,
like, maybe kind of peel back the reasons of, you know,
why she's chosen me throughout this -- this journey.
- You know how much of an inspiration you are, right?
- I know that I'm trying.
- Seriously.
You've been through so much.
You deserve to be happy.
- Yeah, we're -- we're trying, yeah.
Um...
You know, I have no idea how this is going to -- to play out,
but I know that one lesson
that I've kind of learned throughout my life is,
when you're the most afraid... - Yeah.
- ...that's -- that's when it's time to lean in
and kind of show what you're made of,
so I'm treating this the -- the same way.
- Well, it sounds like there's some things you need to hear
and things you need to see
before you know for sure that she's the one,
but I hope you're going to get some answers
that you're looking for. - Yeah. Thank you.
I realize how lucky I am, but the conversations that
I want to have with Jenn are -- are definitely necessary.
You know, I'm trying to figure out if,
like, I am in love with her,
but I'm, like, lying to myself about it,
um, or if I'm trying to find feelings that just aren't there.
This date's, like, so important.
I need to figure out if she's my person,
or is it time for me to -- to go home?
[ horn honks ]
♪♪
- Today is my overnight date with Marcus.
I'm very excited to see Marcus.
He's been one of my strongest connections since the beginning.
Marcus and I started off really, really great.
Since our second one-on-one date together,
my feelings have really grown and grown.
And Marcus and I told each other
we were falling for each other at hometowns.
But there is a lingering fear
that I might be emotionally further along than he is.
But I am confident in how I feel, and I know how I feel.
I'm in love with Marcus.
I've been feeling it for a couple weeks now,
and my hope is that we pick up right where we left off.
Hey, stranger. MARCUS: Aloha.
JENN: [ chuckles ] How are ya?
- Good. You look great. - Thanks. So do you.
- Oh, my gosh. - How are you?
- Ooh, hi. - Mm.
- You look like you, uh, belong on this island.
- Ah, yeah, yeah, yeah. - You look good.
Mm.
- Missed you. - It's been a while, huh?
- Mm-hmm. - I missed you, too.
- I was starting to get --
to wonder if you were even in Hawaii.
- If I was still here? - Yeah.
- I'm still here. Don't worry. - I was like, "Did he go home?"
- Ooh. Any guesses?
- What do you have planned for us today?
- Ooh. Any guesses?
- Does it involve a -- a boat?
- Potentially. - Yeah?
- Yeah, no, I have a really, really special day
planned for us... - Okay.
- ...and it requires the sun to go down,
and I'm really excited for it. - Okay.
- Okay, let's go. - Come on.
- Are you ready to go? - Yeah.
- Okay, let's go. - Come on.
- [ chuckles ] I have a really special date
planned for Marcus and I.
It's a once in-a-lifetime opportunity, truly,
and I can't wait.
Marcus and I just had this connection
and this natural comfortability to us.
We have that physical chemistry, that banter.
- I don't even know why you put that stuff on.
- So I can look presentable. Then you just take it all off.
- For 15 seconds and then... Okay.
- This is your fault.
You should start wearing lipstick.
- Just borrow it from me? Yeah? - Yeah.
I think that's the way to do it. - Alright.
- Start wearing lipstick. - We can work something out.
I'm sure. - Mm-hmm.
When I'm with him, I feel fun and flirty.
[ both chuckle ]
It's so easy to be myself with him
and to have fun and laugh about anything and everything.
And I'm just excited to be back in his arms.
You know, I was here when I was 3 years old.
Well, not here. I was in Honolulu.
- What? Just by yourself. - By myself.
- Just wandering the island?
- Wandering the island all by myself.
My dad won a free trip to Hawaii on an internet ad
when I was 3 years old. - [ chuckling ] Oh, my God.
- And the whole thing -- - When I get the e-mail that's
like, "You've won a free trip to Hawaii," I'm, like --
never click on it. yeah. - Yeah, no, delete.
Spam. Forever. - Immediately deleted.
Really? Wow. - Back in the day -- those
those things were real, back in the day.
- That's how they get us. Welcome back.
- Thank you. I'm very excited to be here.
- The way that Jenn makes me feel is incredible.
After hometowns, I was kind of on a high,
and I was feeling really good about Jenn and I,
but I kind of get in my head and I start to doubt a little bit.
So I just don't want any of my, like, inner conflict
to get in the way of just having an amazing day with her.
- Are you an ocean or a -- or a land boy?
- If I can pick one... - Yeah,
- ...probably the land. - Oh.
- I don't know how long I can tread water for.
- I want to be a mermaid.
- You kind of look like one today.
- Thank you. - Yeah.
Every time I'm not with her, I think I have
all these conflictions between my mind and my heart.
And then when we kind of get into our dates,
like, all that stuff goes out the window,
and I'm just in the moment, having fun with Jenn,
and I feel good when I'm around her.
Hometowns went better than I expected.
It's been pretty hard for me to kind of picture...
- Mm-hmm. - ...how our lives
can, like, fit together... - Yeah.
- ...and I think that, coming away from hometowns,
like, it was a little -- little sneak peak for -- for me,
and, um -- - Yeah. Me, too.
- Everyone was so fun and nice and so, like -- I don't know.
I felt, like, really, really comfortable
with them all... - Yeah.
- ...which I really appreciated. - No, good.
- And I -- I mean, I had a blast.
I think I was scared that it was going to go so well,
which is why I was so nervous.
- What do you mean? - Well, I don't know.
I think when you bring family into it all,
like, I knew it was going to feel really real.
- Mm. - Um, and, yeah,
I just feel like my feelings for you grew a lot that day,
and I was scared of that. - Yeah.
- Um, but it was a good thing. - Yeah, I mean,
I feel closer now than... - Mm-hmm.
- ...I have in a really long time.
- Mm-hmm. - Um,
but, yeah, it's also a bit, uh --
- Scary? - It can be terrifying.
- Yeah, absolutely. I'm right there with you.
- Yeah. - Yeah.
I'm excited for today, though.
So since the sun is setting,
we're going to jump in and go snorkeling
with some of the manta rays,
and they light up at night.
- They do not. - They do.
It's going to be really cool.
Yeah. - What?
- Isn't that crazy? - That's insane.
They're down there right now? - I think so.
I've never done anything like this before.
- Oh, my gosh. - I've always wanted to, though.
- This is going to be, I think, incredible.
- It's going to be beautiful. - Yeah.
JENN: Getting to have this beautiful experience with Marcus
just -- I don't know. It just feels so romantic.
♪♪
When we're together, it just feels right,
and we have this unspoken connection almost.
There's, like, a certain depth to our relationship.
♪♪
Whoo!
♪♪
I feel so much closer with Marcus.
He has this comforting, calm energy.
He is just there for me. He's stable. He's grounded.
He makes me feel at peace.
♪♪
To have Marcus here and be someone
that I feel so strongly about and confident about
makes me feel really reassured.
I just hope that tonight our relationship continues
to grow even more.
- Oh, a shooting star. - [ gasps ]
- See that? - I can't believe it.
- That was so bright. - That's crazy.
JESSE: Are you ready to dive deep into love?
Apply to be on the next season of The Bachelor or Bachelorette
at ABC.com/casting.
♪♪
- Kona.
-Oh, we're right here. Oh, a little outside picnic.
JENN: Oh. Oh, cute. MARCUS: Lucky us.
JENN: Today was an amazing day.
With Marcus, we've had so many special moments.
I mean, our connection is so strong,
so I am in love with him,
and to not tell him at this point
would be a disservice to our relationship.
Thank you.
So, tonight, I really need for him to let his walls down
and to not shy away from expressing
exactly how he feels about me.
I want to be able to fully explore this relationship,
and I see him there at the end of this all,
so I can only hope that he feels the same way.
- I think red's your color, by the way.
- Thanks. - It's giving, like,
Ferrari right now. Very sexy. Yeah.
- Thank you. Thank you.
Do you want to do a little toast?
- Little toast? Yeah. - [ sighs ]
- So I think this date's been a long time coming.
- Yes. - Um...
I did miss you a lot while we were away, but,
yeah, I think every time that we get together,
we create another memory, and we have another --
I feel like it's always another once-in-a-lifetime opportunity,
every date we go on. - [ chuckles ]
- So, yeah, I'm happy today.
So I think to -- to being happy. Yeah.
- Cheers. I love that.
How are you feeling?
- Um, I think, uh, a bit nervous.
- Why? - Well... [ sighs ]
The last time I saw you was at the rose ceremony.
- Yeah.
- And that wasn't an easy one for me.
- Mm-hmm. - You know,
my name hadn't been called yet,
and I think that that was really hard for me
because I think, this entire experience,
I've been confidently standing on our connection
and, like, not really... - Mm-hmm.
- ...you know, worrying too much.
But I think, for the first time in this crazy experience,
I realized that it's not a given
that I'm going to have another week
and that I can be in the middle of trying and still go home.
And I think that got to me.
- Mm.
You didn't have confidence in us in that moment
because of, like, our relationship and --
or because of how you felt?
- That night was, like, the first time
that I think I kind of got in my head and, like, it was --
it was kind of hard for me to recover from that.
You know, I think, uh, when we were in Seattle,
I shared a little bit about what it was like
for me growing up. - Mm-hmm.
- And I think with, like, an engagement
and getting on a knee and, like, proposing is something
that I only want to do once.
- Mm-hmm.
- You know, I know what it was like for me growing up,
and I have a good idea of --
you know, you shared a little bit about what it was like
for you growing up. And I think
one of the most important things in the world,
to me, is being a good husband and a -- and a good father
and being present as a -- as a husband
and being present as a father. - Mm-hmm.
- And, you know, that's something
that I want to feel certain about...
- Mm-hmm. MARCUS: ...and, uh...
like, have that confidence in myself
and how I feel and confidence in my partner.
And I think...
I think that there's so much potential right now.
And, like, there's been a lot of things that have,
like, aligned with us
that I've, like, really never experienced with anyone.
Jenn, you're driven, you're ambitious,
you've pulled yourself up just as many times as I have,
if not more.
I've really -- I've never met anyone like you.
And I think...
[ sighs ] Sorry. Um...
JENN: It's okay.
MARCUS: When I'm with Jenn, things are great, things are fine.
but I feel like I've had all this kind of,
like, uncertainty and, like, doubt.
I come from, you know, a broken family,
and the one thing that I want to get right in my life
is be in a relationship with someone
and raise a family with someone where there is not --
there's no doubt.
I'm not in love with Jenn right now.
I think it's just scary to tell someone something
that they probably, like, don't want to hear.
Yeah, I think -- I think, at the end of the day,
like, I think what -- why I'm worried is
because I have -- like, I feel, like, unsure.
And you deserve someone that is sure about you.
Yeah. And I think it's just, uh...
I don't know if I'm, like, putting pressure on myself
because of, uh...
...you know, like, how fast this process has been
or, you know, like, how quickly, you know,
the -- the end of this process is approaching, but...
♪♪
...it's been hard for me to get to a point
where I feel, like, comfortable
saying that I'm, like, in love.
♪♪
JENN: Um...
♪♪
[ sighs ]
♪♪
- It's been hard for me to get to a point
where I feel, like, comfortable
saying that I'm, like, in love.
♪♪
JENN: Um...
♪♪
[ sighs ]
♪♪
- And I'm sorry that...
- Don't have to apologize.
You're not doing anything wrong.
You're being you,
and you're following your heart
and whatever that means to you, and I get that.
♪♪
I think there's many layers to being in love,
and there's...
...a lot...
...of...
There's a lot of different phases of love, and...
I would be lying if I didn't tell you
that I am in love with you.
And the way that you make me feel,
and the way that we have had so many moments
in which I can't even explain it
but felt so comfortable with you
and felt so close to you.
Felt like I needed to say that to get it off my chest,
and not necessarily for you to say anything,
but because I would be doing myself at disservice
in not saying how I truly feel.
So...yeah.
- [ breathes shakily ]
♪♪
[ sniffles ]
♪♪
There's, like, a part of me that still wants to, like,
guard myself 'cause, like, we're not at the end yet.
[ sniffling ]
But, uh...
[ sniffles ]
...you know, try as hard as I can,
and I'm going to keep doing that even...
[ sniffles ]
...you know, when I am feeling,
like, a bit afraid [ sniffles ] or uncertain.
[ sniffles ]
But I am trying. - I know you are.
And I see that every time that we're together.
And I know that it's hard for you.
And I want to do everything
that I can to -- to be able to continue to be there for you
and to help make this easier for you.
And I want you to be confident in us.
- Yeah. - And I want you to feel,
like...
...there's something that is unique and special
and makes you want to jump in.
Um...
Yeah.
- You make me feel amazing.
You really do.
That means the world to me that you just said that.
♪♪
I guess, like, the biggest thing
even though I'm not there yet,
that I want you to know is, like,
even though I'm not there yet,
I would not be sitting in front of you right now
if I didn't think that it was possible.
So I want to...
just continue to be,
like, hopeful.
You -- You deserve all the love in the world,
and I'm trying to get there.
I'm, like, hopeful.
I -- I feel so grateful to still be here.
Jenn says that she is in love with me.
And that was, like, one thing
that I didn't know I needed to hear until I heard it.
And it does make me realize
how important our connection is to her.
[ sighs ]
- I have something for you. Do you want to read it?
- [ chuckles ] Yeah, I do.
Says, "Jenn and Marcus..." - Mm-hmm.
MARCUS: "...I hope seeing the manta rays tonight reminds you that wonder,
much like love, can be found unexpectedly.
Should you choose to forgo your individual rooms,
please use this key to stay as a couple in the fantasy suite."
What do you think?
- What do you think?
- Yeah, to spend the night with you,
I think, would be, um, hugely beneficial.
- I think it'll be a really good time for growth
for the two of us.
- Alright, let's do it.
- I agree.
- Alright, let's do it.
- Shall we? - Yeah.
MARCUS: Having that alone time with Jenn is massively important.
Jenn knows how she feels,
and I'm looking forward to getting to a point
where I feel as certain about her as she does about me.
Best case scenario, like, I do find
that clarity, that confidence that I'm looking for,
and there is a love story at the end of this.
That's why I'm still here.
That's why I'm still trying.
Is this us?
JENN: I think this is us.
- [ chuckling ] Okay. - [ chuckles ]
- If Jenn and I make it through this,
I would feel like the struggle to find love
was worth all the discomfort to -- to get there.
I'm happy that I was honest with you,
and I do believe in us.
I want to be here unless I don't believe in us, so...
...just thank you for tonight.
- Cheers.
- [ speaks indistinctly ]
♪♪
JENN: I am in love with Marcus.
My biggest hope is that he is in love with me
by the end of the week and he does want to propose.
I could see myself living a very happy life with Marcus.
I feel so hopeful for our future.
♪♪
MARCUS: Good morning. [ Marcus and Jenn chuckle ]
- How are you feeling this morning?
- Um, feeling really good. - Yeah?
- Really grateful. - Mm-hmm.
-I feel like our date yesterday was awesome, and I feel like...
- Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. - ...we needed last night and --
talk about a lot of the things that were weighing on me.
And I appreciate, you know, how well you took everything.
- Mm-hmm.
- Waking up next to Jenn this morning feels magical.
The, uh -- We had the ocean out in front of us,
the sun shining, the birds chirping.
- Mm. - MARCUS: Last night was,
I think, hugely beneficial to the both of us.
Hearing that Jenn is in love with me
means the world to me.
I've been falling for Jenn,
and every time that I get to spend with her,
I feel, you know, a little more strongly about her.
- Oh, my goodness.
- I just have to meet her where she's at,
and I think that, like, the sky's the limit with us.
So I definitely feel a little bit more hopeful.
So I know that this is going to be the last time
I see you before, uh, the next rose ceremony.
- Mm-hmm.
- And I just want you to know
that last night and this morning
was extremely special to me.
And it definitely, uh -- it helps me
with some of the doubts that I was having.
- Okay. Makes me feel better.
[ chuckles ] What do you think?
Honesty is always, like, the best thing,
and I would never want you to lie to me
and not tell me how you're feeling.
And think it's always good to just talk about it, so...
- Yeah, I think it was, um -- it was a good step for us.
-Yeah.
- There's something on your lip. - Mm-hmm.
Feels so good waking up next to him.
And I could really see Marcus as someone being
at the end of this all, and I want that for us.
- [ chuckles ]
JENN: Like, I am in love with him
and I told him last night
and I think we just had a really good night together.
[ both chuckle ] Come here.
- I'm gonna miss you. - I'll miss you, too.
I'll see you soon. - Mm-hmm.
Don't start thinking too much.
But it's terrifying to be in love with someone
who isn't there yet.
Bye. - Bye.
JENN: I do have hope for Marcus and I,
but I need him to get there,
because meeting the family is next week,
uh, proposal is next week,
and I want to be able to be confident
in the person standing across from me.
Bye. - Goodbye, Jenn. I'll miss you.
JENN: It's getting harder every day that I'm here
because I do have such strong feelings for all three of them.
There's just so much that I have to handle emotionally.
I just want to be able to really keep it together,
because things can change daily
and it'll be sad to lose somebody that I do love.
♪♪
DEVIN: This whole thing has been a roller coaster for me.
Since leaving my fantasy suite, I've felt...
[ sighs ]
...jaded in a way that, like, I don't know how to feel anymore
and it's all consumed me.
You know, I-I-I do love Jenn, but I-I --
you know, you can only love somebody like that for so long
without getting it back before it just...
And that scares me because I'm waiting for something
that I don't know is coming.
So I really don't know what to do here.
And I really do need some guidance on this.
And, you know, just somebody to talk to
and let it all out.
- Devin, what's up man?
- Hey.
- How are we doing? - Doing alright.
- It's good to see you again. - Good to see you.
How you been? - Been thinking about you.
- Yeah? - Yeah.
I heard you been, uh --
heard you been struggling a little bit.
- Yeah, man, just a tad.
Um, I'm having a lot of tough, tough thoughts,
you know, back and forth in my head
about a lot of different things.
And I was really, really excited for my overnight date.
I was like -- - Oh, I felt that. I saw it.
- You have no idea. - No, no, I got it.
- I needed it because this was the week
that I needed to feel the love back that I've been giving.
- Wanted that reciprocation.
- You know, I've been waiting for this time
to hear something that'll get me
through this process. - Yeah.
- But the one big question that I wanted to ask her,
and that's just, you know,
"Do you love me as much as I love you?"
And, uh, I never got to ask her that.
Because I didn't want to put that pressure on her
during our overnight date.
You know, I didn't want to --
didn't want to scare her with my true feelings about
how bad it is inside for me.
- Did you get any kind of reassurance from her at all?
- I tell her I love her, and she says,
"Well, I can see a future with us,"
you know, and that's -- that's great, you know?
But that's not what I'm feeling in this moment.
But leaving that moment, leaving that room, I didn't feel whole,
and I, again, told her I loved her on the way out
and...nothing.
And it hurts me because I keep giving
and giving and giving, and -- and she's growing from that,
but I'm -- I'm withering away.
JESSE: It's okay. - I don't know what to do.
JENN: It's okay, man. It's okay. - I don't know what to do.
I've watched you.
You've given over and over and over.
You always have.
- Oh [bleep]
You know, I don't sleep here.
I just...
- It's okay.
DEVIN: You know, she says I make her feel some kind of way,
but if -- if that's true, then why...
Why can't I feel it?
♪♪
- It's been hard.
DEVIN: Ah [bleep]
[ voice breaking ] You know, I need to feel loved.
You know, I just need to feel loved.
And I feel wanted. I don't feel needed.
I don't feel like I...
[ sighs ] I don't feel like I'm the...
...the one, you know?
I don't feel like I'm the one
I feel like I'm "one of." "One of."
And that hurts 'cause I've been "one of" before, you know,
and I have been through a lot of [bleep]
So I need more from Jenn, you know?
I need that extra, and I don't -- I don't get it.
And I feel selfish because I'm --
I'm letting that stuff get to -- get to me.
But it is true, you know, it is a part of who I am.
It's -- you know, the person that walked in here is...
derived from the person that got hurt in the past,
you know, and this was the first time
I didn't speak from the heart.
I spoke what I thought I should say and...
But, for me, that's what I needed
to be sane and to feel whole,
and I didn't get to do that.
And I'm -- Now I got to wait.
You know?
- Sounds like you regret it.
- Yeah, I-I wish I could've said the things I wanted to say.
♪♪
I withheld what had been bothering me.
You know, I regret that.
Even though I would have never given her an ultimatum.
I just needed to know that she loves me back.
- I'm really sorry you feel this way, man.
W-When you're giving that much, you just want a little bit back.
I get it. I totally get it. - [ sighs ]
- You just have to hang on.
Jenn's someone that you want to fight for every day.
I mean, could you really -- could you really stop now?
- [ sighs ]
It's not that I want to leave her
'cause I would be distraught leaving her, but it's,
is she willing to make those feelings real?
And, you know, if you feel a certain way about a person,
then you should express it. - Thanks, man.
- Thank you for listening. - Hang in there, okay?
- Yeah. - You're going to be alright.
- I got you. - Okay.
- [ exhales sharply ]
Because it could be too late for me.
You know, I-I don't want to have to feel like I feel right now.
I don't think I should. You know?
♪♪
I do feel myself slipping away here,
and my gut...
♪♪
...is strongly disagreeing with my heart, and...
♪♪
...you can love somebody and they not love you back.
And that's the realization, you know, here.
Um, I just feel lost completely about it.
I can't keep moving forward.
Can't do it anymore.
♪♪
I know what I need to do today.
I -- I need to talk to Jenn.
You know, I'm scared.
This is one time that I'm going to be brutally honest,
and -- and I hope that she can accept that.
Uh...
Now I am doubting myself.
This is probably the end for me, and...
[ sighs ]
It scares me to no end.
♪♪
- Hey.
JESSE: Tomorrow night on The Bachelorette...
- I've risked everything for you.
- I don't know how to be maybe what you need me to be.
JESSE: ...is it over between Devin and Jenn?
- [ sniffling ]
[ cheers and applause ] JESSE: Plus...
Welcome to The Bachelorette: The Men Tell All.
- I feel very, very sorry for whoever you end up with.
This delusion that you're living in
is not going to work for anybody.
JESSE: ...all your favorite men are back...
Your next Bachelor, Grant Ellis.
- I'm so excited.
Can't wait to embark on this journey.
JESSE: ...and it's the moment of truth for everyone.
- What you're doing is bullying.
- That's not what happened. - Yes, it is.
- Spencer, just didn't feel like you're fully healed
or you're ready. - HAKEEM: What?!
- You don't know [bleep] - Come on, bro.
- Are you a psychologist?
- He put his hands on me. - That is not what happened.
- You said, "[Bleep] you. I make more money than you."
- Thomas, that is -- no, no, we're not going to do this live.
JESSE: That's all tomorrow night.
And then next Tuesday...
- I just hope she make the right decision.
- You know, your history with people
who are emotionally unavailable.
How long are you willing to wait?
- Nobody should have to wait around
for somebody to love them.
JESSE: ...it's the ending everyone is talking about.
- I can't let you propose to me.
JESSE: Jenn's journey to find love comes to a dramatic finish.
JENN: Going into today,
I thought I knew which way I wanted it to go,
and I woke up this morning
with a totally different point of view on it.
- Are you okay with whatever's going to happen here?
JENN: I know what I want and I know what I need,
and I want to be able to dictate my own life.
JESSE: No Bachelorette has ever ended her journey like this.
It's all coming up on The Bachelorette.