1 00:00:05,506 --> 00:00:06,548 - You know, she says I make her feel some kind of way. 2 00:00:06,548 --> 00:00:11,261 But if that's true, then why... 3 00:00:11,261 --> 00:00:12,638 why can't I feel it? 4 00:00:16,600 --> 00:00:18,810 You know, I need to feel loved. 5 00:00:18,810 --> 00:00:19,978 You know, I just need to feel loved. 6 00:00:19,978 --> 00:00:24,733 And I feel wanted. I don't feel needed. 7 00:00:24,733 --> 00:00:25,734 [ sighs ] I don't feel like I... 8 00:00:25,734 --> 00:00:28,153 I don't feel like I'm the... 9 00:00:28,153 --> 00:00:30,822 the one, you know? 10 00:00:30,822 --> 00:00:31,448 I don't feel like I'm the one. 11 00:00:31,448 --> 00:00:33,158 I feel like I'm one of -- one of. 12 00:00:36,245 --> 00:00:37,412 You can love somebody and they not love you back. 13 00:00:37,412 --> 00:00:39,790 And that's the realization, you know, here. 14 00:00:43,919 --> 00:00:46,672 I can't do it anymore. 15 00:00:49,341 --> 00:00:51,802 This is probably the end for me. 16 00:00:51,802 --> 00:00:53,637 And...[ sighs ] 17 00:00:55,597 --> 00:00:57,015 It scares me to no end. 18 00:00:59,893 --> 00:01:00,310 - Hey! 19 00:01:03,563 --> 00:01:06,400 [ conch blowing ] 20 00:01:07,276 --> 00:01:10,404 ♪♪ 21 00:01:10,404 --> 00:01:13,615 ♪♪ 22 00:01:17,578 --> 00:01:19,329 Aloha! I'm on the island of Hawaii. 23 00:01:23,333 --> 00:01:26,712 The island is absolutely breathtaking. 24 00:01:26,712 --> 00:01:30,257 It's known for its active volcanoes, 25 00:01:30,257 --> 00:01:33,844 its gorgeous waterfalls, its amazing coastline. 26 00:01:34,303 --> 00:01:36,430 And I'm getting engaged here! 27 00:01:36,430 --> 00:01:37,514 Aah! 28 00:01:44,604 --> 00:01:46,565 - Aloha. Welcome to -- - Aloha. Thank you! 29 00:01:46,565 --> 00:01:49,401 This week is Fantasy Suites, 30 00:01:49,401 --> 00:01:52,988 and I'm very excited for individual time with these guys, 31 00:01:52,988 --> 00:01:55,365 away from everybody else, away from the noise. 32 00:01:56,825 --> 00:01:59,661 Intimacy really can mean a whole lot of different things. 33 00:01:59,661 --> 00:02:02,831 That can mean emotional intimacy, physical intimacy, 34 00:02:02,831 --> 00:02:04,291 and that's a really big part of a relationship. 35 00:02:05,917 --> 00:02:09,087 I have three incredible guys here, 36 00:02:09,087 --> 00:02:12,424 Jonathon, Marcus, and Devin. 37 00:02:15,302 --> 00:02:16,345 I've told all three of these guys 38 00:02:16,345 --> 00:02:19,848 that I'm falling for them, 39 00:02:19,848 --> 00:02:21,475 and that's what makes this week so exciting 40 00:02:21,475 --> 00:02:26,897 and also nerve wracking, because the end of the week, 41 00:02:26,897 --> 00:02:27,147 I'm going to have to send someone home that 42 00:02:27,147 --> 00:02:28,106 I am falling for. 43 00:02:28,106 --> 00:02:30,567 - Hi! - Hi! 44 00:02:30,567 --> 00:02:32,778 - I'm so happy to see you. - Oh, my God, me too. 45 00:02:32,778 --> 00:02:35,197 I'm so glad to see Molly because I feel like she can 46 00:02:35,197 --> 00:02:37,699 really help me work through my feelings about this week. 47 00:02:37,699 --> 00:02:39,284 I've never been this close to an engagement before, 48 00:02:39,284 --> 00:02:42,454 and Molly being married for 15 years 49 00:02:42,454 --> 00:02:43,163 and having gone through overnights, 50 00:02:43,163 --> 00:02:46,583 I think she could be really helpful. 51 00:02:46,583 --> 00:02:48,335 What's been happening? What's going on? 52 00:02:48,335 --> 00:02:51,338 So much. There's so much since the radio day. 53 00:02:51,338 --> 00:02:51,463 It's funny, because I really wanted to talk to you 54 00:02:51,463 --> 00:02:54,007 after that day. - I know, we didn't get 55 00:02:54,007 --> 00:02:55,384 a chance to see each other. - No. 56 00:02:55,384 --> 00:02:57,803 So I can't tell you how much I appreciate having you here 57 00:02:57,803 --> 00:02:59,596 and being able to help me through it. 58 00:02:59,596 --> 00:03:04,059 - Well, I think this week is the most important week 59 00:03:04,059 --> 00:03:06,728 of this entire experience 60 00:03:06,728 --> 00:03:10,732 because you get so much dedicated alone time 61 00:03:10,732 --> 00:03:11,775 with fantasy suites. 62 00:03:11,775 --> 00:03:14,611 You know, for Jason and myself, that was our time to, 63 00:03:14,611 --> 00:03:17,739 like, really have those deep, deep, hard conversations. 64 00:03:17,739 --> 00:03:21,493 Do you feel like with the three guys that you have left here, 65 00:03:21,493 --> 00:03:23,662 the one is here and you're ready to get engaged 66 00:03:23,662 --> 00:03:27,207 and you're ready to move on to the next step? 67 00:03:27,207 --> 00:03:30,293 - Yeah, I think I'm as ready as I can be. 68 00:03:30,293 --> 00:03:32,129 I feel so strongly for these three guys. 69 00:03:32,129 --> 00:03:34,714 I know that one of them is going to be my husband 70 00:03:34,714 --> 00:03:36,550 at the end of this. 71 00:03:36,550 --> 00:03:39,261 - So speaking of, who is here? 72 00:03:39,261 --> 00:03:42,722 - This week, we have Devin, Marcus, and Jonathon here. 73 00:03:42,722 --> 00:03:47,310 - Okay, I will tell you Jason and I after our date with 74 00:03:47,310 --> 00:03:49,229 you guys, Jonathon felt like he would look at you 75 00:03:49,229 --> 00:03:52,983 when he was answering questions. 76 00:03:52,983 --> 00:03:54,317 He wasn't trying to impress anyone else in the room. 77 00:03:54,317 --> 00:03:57,487 He was just almost like it was just the two of you in the room. 78 00:03:57,487 --> 00:03:59,948 - I know. 79 00:03:59,948 --> 00:04:02,325 With Jonathon and I, we were a bit of a slower burn. 80 00:04:02,325 --> 00:04:03,743 He's told me it takes him some time 81 00:04:03,743 --> 00:04:05,412 to really open up and fall for somebody. 82 00:04:05,412 --> 00:04:09,541 But in the weeks after our one on one date, 83 00:04:09,541 --> 00:04:12,252 we have had so much exponential growth with each time 84 00:04:12,252 --> 00:04:15,464 that we've seen each other. 85 00:04:15,464 --> 00:04:16,256 And then last week, during hometowns, 86 00:04:16,256 --> 00:04:19,134 he told me that he was falling for me. 87 00:04:19,134 --> 00:04:19,593 - Okay. How'd that make you feel? 88 00:04:19,593 --> 00:04:21,595 - Amazing. I mean, I felt like I was at 89 00:04:21,595 --> 00:04:24,764 the same exact place with him, 90 00:04:24,764 --> 00:04:26,016 too, so I expressed that I was falling for him, as well. 91 00:04:26,016 --> 00:04:29,352 - Is there anything that's missing with Jonathon? 92 00:04:29,352 --> 00:04:30,812 JENN: It does take him a little bit to get vulnerable with me, 93 00:04:30,812 --> 00:04:34,316 and I think that he is in his head a lot, 94 00:04:34,316 --> 00:04:36,651 and I want him to kind of get out of his head a little bit 95 00:04:36,651 --> 00:04:40,572 and be able to just lean into his emotions a lot more. 96 00:04:40,572 --> 00:04:42,324 - My guess with him, maybe when he has a long time with you, 97 00:04:42,324 --> 00:04:43,867 he'll be able to like, relax and let his guard down. 98 00:04:43,867 --> 00:04:46,495 - Yeah, I agree. 99 00:04:46,495 --> 00:04:48,413 On the other spectrum, Marcus is here. 100 00:04:48,413 --> 00:04:50,832 - And I didn't meet him, so I don't know him. 101 00:04:50,832 --> 00:04:53,001 - No. 102 00:04:53,001 --> 00:04:56,880 With Marcus, he's always been someone 103 00:04:56,880 --> 00:04:59,257 that I saw a future with, very early, in the beginning. 104 00:04:59,257 --> 00:05:01,092 And he is very reliable. He's stable. 105 00:05:01,092 --> 00:05:03,386 He's just there for me. 106 00:05:03,386 --> 00:05:06,389 But he has expressed that it takes him a while 107 00:05:06,389 --> 00:05:08,850 to lean into love and to fall in love 108 00:05:08,850 --> 00:05:11,436 because he's been so hurt in the past before. 109 00:05:11,436 --> 00:05:15,732 And so in the past couple of weeks, 110 00:05:15,732 --> 00:05:17,859 I just feel like I've been putting in so much more effort 111 00:05:17,859 --> 00:05:19,903 in the relationship 112 00:05:19,903 --> 00:05:23,198 and investing so much more of my feelings into him. 113 00:05:23,198 --> 00:05:27,327 Going into this week, I need him to be able to 114 00:05:27,327 --> 00:05:29,162 envision us at the end of this together. 115 00:05:29,162 --> 00:05:31,706 - Okay, so let's talk about Devin. 116 00:05:31,706 --> 00:05:31,957 - Devin. 117 00:05:31,957 --> 00:05:33,583 - Oh, yeah. - Oh. 118 00:05:33,583 --> 00:05:35,794 DEVIN: Not bad for the first one. 119 00:05:35,794 --> 00:05:36,211 - Dude, two ricochets off the rocks right? 120 00:05:36,211 --> 00:05:37,629 - Right. Right. - Nice. 121 00:05:37,629 --> 00:05:40,298 - He just gets me. 122 00:05:40,298 --> 00:05:42,842 And I haven't had that in a partner ever before. 123 00:05:42,842 --> 00:05:46,096 And after meeting his family, I feel so much closer to him, 124 00:05:46,096 --> 00:05:48,431 and he told me that he is in love with me. 125 00:05:48,431 --> 00:05:52,060 - Oh, my gosh. Okay. - Yes, and I am not 126 00:05:52,060 --> 00:05:54,813 there yet with him, but I did tell him that 127 00:05:54,813 --> 00:05:57,899 every time that I see him, I do fall a lot harder for him. 128 00:05:57,899 --> 00:05:59,901 - It's hard, right, because, you know, you tell a girl 129 00:05:59,901 --> 00:06:03,238 you love her, and most of the time, you hear it back, 130 00:06:03,238 --> 00:06:05,448 and she's reassured me in a lot of different ways, 131 00:06:05,448 --> 00:06:07,784 you know, indirectly, directly. 132 00:06:07,784 --> 00:06:09,578 But it's bothering me that I haven't heard it yet. 133 00:06:09,578 --> 00:06:11,413 You know? - You want to hear those words, 134 00:06:11,413 --> 00:06:11,746 - obviously. - Yeah, obviously. 135 00:06:11,746 --> 00:06:13,206 I mean, otherwise, how do you propose 136 00:06:13,206 --> 00:06:15,584 to somebody that you don't know? 137 00:06:15,584 --> 00:06:18,962 So, um, yeah. It's tough. 138 00:06:19,754 --> 00:06:20,714 I've been cheated on in the past. 139 00:06:20,714 --> 00:06:22,716 And, you know, the biggest fear that I've expressed 140 00:06:22,716 --> 00:06:24,801 is saying "I love you" to somebody 141 00:06:24,801 --> 00:06:27,345 and then them turning around and saying that to somebody else. 142 00:06:27,345 --> 00:06:29,764 - The only obstacle with Devin is me 143 00:06:29,764 --> 00:06:31,182 and maybe self-sabotaging it because -- 144 00:06:31,182 --> 00:06:34,561 - How so? - Devin just is saying 145 00:06:34,561 --> 00:06:35,937 all the right stuff, doing all the right things, 146 00:06:35,937 --> 00:06:39,232 and that's hard for me to accept, I think. 147 00:06:39,232 --> 00:06:40,025 - Why? Why? - And internally -- I just, 148 00:06:40,025 --> 00:06:43,403 I haven't had it my whole life. 149 00:06:43,403 --> 00:06:46,281 So I think this week for Devin and I, it's more about me trying 150 00:06:46,281 --> 00:06:47,991 to lean into those feelings with him, 151 00:06:47,991 --> 00:06:49,951 because I think it's been so hard for me my entire life 152 00:06:49,951 --> 00:06:52,579 to accept something good when it comes. 153 00:06:52,579 --> 00:06:54,205 So I think that's the internal challenge 154 00:06:54,205 --> 00:06:56,583 that I've been having with Devin, 155 00:06:56,583 --> 00:06:58,293 is that, is it too good to be too good? 156 00:06:58,293 --> 00:07:00,503 - He's too good? - Yeah. 157 00:07:00,503 --> 00:07:03,131 - I mean, Jenn. - I know. 158 00:07:03,131 --> 00:07:05,425 - You deserve someone amazing, someone perfect, 159 00:07:05,425 --> 00:07:06,509 someone who is going to make you a better person 160 00:07:06,509 --> 00:07:08,386 and be with you for the rest of your life. 161 00:07:08,386 --> 00:07:10,764 - Yeah. - You know, like you are 162 00:07:10,764 --> 00:07:11,181 deserving of all of that. Don't question that. 163 00:07:11,181 --> 00:07:12,766 - Yeah. Thank you. - Don't do that. 164 00:07:12,766 --> 00:07:14,976 I think if you lean into how you are feeling, 165 00:07:14,976 --> 00:07:16,561 have those hard conversations about what 166 00:07:16,561 --> 00:07:18,313 the future could look like, 167 00:07:18,313 --> 00:07:21,358 really, really soak in all of the time 168 00:07:21,358 --> 00:07:24,152 that you have with these guys this week, it is so important, 169 00:07:24,152 --> 00:07:24,986 I think you'll be able to figure it out. 170 00:07:24,986 --> 00:07:27,238 JENN: Thanks. 171 00:07:27,238 --> 00:07:29,532 - I hope for Jenn that she has total clarity 172 00:07:29,532 --> 00:07:31,618 after doing these fantasy dates. 173 00:07:31,618 --> 00:07:34,412 You know, like, it's hard. She's got three great guys here. 174 00:07:34,412 --> 00:07:36,915 How do you choose? I don't envy her position at all. 175 00:07:36,915 --> 00:07:39,042 And so I'm hoping when she takes the time 176 00:07:39,042 --> 00:07:42,128 to ask those hard questions, 177 00:07:42,128 --> 00:07:44,756 she's able to come out of it and see a clear path of, 178 00:07:44,756 --> 00:07:46,549 this is my person, or maybe this isn't my person. 179 00:07:46,549 --> 00:07:48,551 You deserve a lifetime of happiness with someone, 180 00:07:48,551 --> 00:07:51,096 and I hope it's someone who is here. 181 00:07:51,096 --> 00:07:52,389 I think that would be so amazing. 182 00:07:52,389 --> 00:07:55,725 - Me too. - [ laughs ] 183 00:07:55,725 --> 00:07:58,395 JENN: This week, is going to be a really big week for me. 184 00:07:58,395 --> 00:08:02,273 I am so incredibly excited, but also nervous. 185 00:08:02,273 --> 00:08:02,982 - Okay, we'll see you at the end of this. 186 00:08:02,982 --> 00:08:05,735 - I'll see you soon. - Okay. 187 00:08:05,735 --> 00:08:06,986 - I haven't ever really been truly in love before, 188 00:08:06,986 --> 00:08:09,781 but I have three guys this week that I'm falling for, 189 00:08:09,781 --> 00:08:12,492 so every conversation that I have with these guys 190 00:08:12,492 --> 00:08:14,035 this week is a make it or break a conversation. 191 00:08:14,035 --> 00:08:15,704 Can I see a future with you? 192 00:08:15,704 --> 00:08:17,956 Are we aligned? 193 00:08:17,956 --> 00:08:21,084 This week is a pivotal week. 194 00:08:21,084 --> 00:08:21,876 It's going to change everything. 195 00:08:37,058 --> 00:08:41,312 DEVIN: Today is my overnight date with Jenn, and I'm there. 196 00:08:41,312 --> 00:08:42,814 I love her, and I told her that. 197 00:08:42,814 --> 00:08:43,982 I've put everything out on the table for her. 198 00:08:43,982 --> 00:08:46,401 She knows where I stand. 199 00:08:46,401 --> 00:08:46,860 But, you know, as much as I want to believe it's me, 200 00:08:46,860 --> 00:08:48,945 I don't know. 201 00:08:48,945 --> 00:08:51,740 And she hasn't told me that by any means. 202 00:08:51,740 --> 00:08:54,367 So that's a big question mark in my head, 203 00:08:54,367 --> 00:08:56,077 just because I haven't had that reassurance. 204 00:08:56,077 --> 00:08:57,662 I know Jenn's falling in love with me, 205 00:08:57,662 --> 00:09:00,999 but I really want to hear that she loves me, too, 206 00:09:00,999 --> 00:09:01,875 and not the day before I get down on a knee 207 00:09:01,875 --> 00:09:05,253 or anything like that. 208 00:09:05,253 --> 00:09:06,838 I want to know so that I can build on that. 209 00:09:06,838 --> 00:09:09,340 I don't really know what Jenn's got in store, 210 00:09:09,340 --> 00:09:09,466 but every date that Jenn and I have been on 211 00:09:09,466 --> 00:09:11,593 has been an absolute blast. 212 00:09:11,593 --> 00:09:14,137 So I know Jenn's excited to see me, 213 00:09:14,137 --> 00:09:14,763 and I'm just as excited to see her. 214 00:09:15,805 --> 00:09:18,725 JENN: Hey you. - What's up, baby girl? 215 00:09:18,725 --> 00:09:21,311 - How are you? - I'm good. How are you? 216 00:09:21,311 --> 00:09:24,314 - Mm. - Oh. 217 00:09:24,314 --> 00:09:28,318 - You look fantastic. - So do you! 218 00:09:28,318 --> 00:09:30,028 - Missed you. - I missed you. 219 00:09:30,028 --> 00:09:33,072 All right, so what do we have in store today? 220 00:09:33,072 --> 00:09:35,742 - Today, we are going to see the beautiful island of Hawaii 221 00:09:35,742 --> 00:09:39,913 from up above in this little guy right here. 222 00:09:39,913 --> 00:09:40,663 - I love that. I love that. - And we're gonna see it all. 223 00:09:40,663 --> 00:09:42,665 - Oh, yeah. I can't wait. 224 00:09:42,665 --> 00:09:44,209 - Let's do it. Okay. - Come on. 225 00:09:44,209 --> 00:09:46,044 JENN: Devin, he is someone who 226 00:09:46,044 --> 00:09:48,046 just makes me so happy all the time. 227 00:09:48,046 --> 00:09:51,049 And so today is a really big day for us, and I'm excited. 228 00:09:56,888 --> 00:09:58,014 Devin and I are gonna have a once in a lifetime experience 229 00:09:58,014 --> 00:10:00,892 and be able to really see Hawaii for what it is. 230 00:10:00,892 --> 00:10:02,894 I could see Devin not doing this in the future, 231 00:10:02,894 --> 00:10:06,314 coming to a beautiful island like this with our kids. 232 00:10:06,314 --> 00:10:10,443 DEVIN: Look at this view. - So pretty. 233 00:10:10,443 --> 00:10:12,529 I'm close to being in love with Devin, 234 00:10:12,529 --> 00:10:16,658 and I hope that today is a day that can help us get there. 235 00:10:16,658 --> 00:10:18,868 Devin's giving me this feeling of love and support 236 00:10:18,868 --> 00:10:22,705 that I haven't had my entire life or in a relationship, 237 00:10:22,705 --> 00:10:25,959 so the biggest concern is that I could self-sabotage with Devin 238 00:10:25,959 --> 00:10:27,877 because I don't know how to navigate these feelings 239 00:10:27,877 --> 00:10:32,465 of having somebody just be there for me unwaveringly. 240 00:10:32,465 --> 00:10:33,967 - It's crazy how blue the water is. 241 00:10:33,967 --> 00:10:37,011 - It's crazy how blue your eyes are. 242 00:10:37,011 --> 00:10:38,680 - Wow. - They're not blue. 243 00:10:38,680 --> 00:10:43,059 - They're not blue at all. - They're not blue at all. 244 00:10:43,059 --> 00:10:45,144 JENN: Being in this helicopter with Devin 245 00:10:45,144 --> 00:10:47,981 just being yourselves and just being able to joke around, 246 00:10:47,981 --> 00:10:48,815 it just feels right. 247 00:10:48,815 --> 00:10:50,859 Rainbow! 248 00:10:50,859 --> 00:10:53,695 DEVIN: You can see the end of it right here. 249 00:10:53,695 --> 00:10:55,822 - JENN: I'm speechless. - DEVIN: Absolutely stunning. 250 00:10:55,822 --> 00:11:00,702 - Devin makes me feel loved and just supported. 251 00:11:00,702 --> 00:11:03,663 He is someone who's consistent with me and knows what he wants, 252 00:11:03,663 --> 00:11:05,164 and he's not been afraid to express it or show it. 253 00:11:05,164 --> 00:11:08,751 This is a dream. It's so beautiful. 254 00:11:09,961 --> 00:11:10,920 DEVIN: I couldn't have asked for a more beautiful view 255 00:11:10,920 --> 00:11:14,299 with a more beautiful woman. 256 00:11:14,299 --> 00:11:15,884 JENN: Yeah, yeah yeah, yeah. 257 00:11:15,884 --> 00:11:17,594 - Corny, okay? - I love it. 258 00:11:25,018 --> 00:11:26,227 - Oh [bleep] 259 00:11:26,686 --> 00:11:29,772 JENN: Devin is someone who's so fun to be around all the time. 260 00:11:29,772 --> 00:11:32,567 And for him to really break down his walls with me, 261 00:11:32,567 --> 00:11:35,028 it makes me feel like this is something really special. 262 00:11:35,028 --> 00:11:37,030 He is just a good thing 263 00:11:37,030 --> 00:11:38,698 that I've been wanting for a long time, 264 00:11:38,698 --> 00:11:41,117 and it's all about allowing myself to accept that. 265 00:11:45,914 --> 00:11:48,791 - Ah! Oh, wow! - Oh, my God. 266 00:11:48,791 --> 00:11:53,004 - Look at that. Isn't that beautiful? 267 00:11:53,004 --> 00:11:55,465 - Oh! - What the hell? 268 00:11:55,465 --> 00:11:57,675 JENN: I can't believe that. 269 00:11:57,675 --> 00:11:58,593 Beautiful. 270 00:12:02,013 --> 00:12:04,974 I've never felt any type of way about a woman 271 00:12:04,974 --> 00:12:07,769 like I feel about Jenn. 272 00:12:07,769 --> 00:12:12,315 I'd feel it in my bones that I'm the guy for Jenn. 273 00:12:12,315 --> 00:12:13,191 How we interact when we're together, 274 00:12:13,191 --> 00:12:14,859 it just makes us feel 275 00:12:14,859 --> 00:12:16,945 like it's just us two in the world and nobody else. 276 00:12:16,945 --> 00:12:18,947 I know that she's still got probably some figuring things 277 00:12:18,947 --> 00:12:20,990 out to do, but she's a person that I see the end with, 278 00:12:20,990 --> 00:12:23,576 and I told her I love her, 279 00:12:23,576 --> 00:12:26,496 and I'm looking forward to the possibility 280 00:12:26,496 --> 00:12:27,246 to get down on one knee with Jenn. 281 00:12:32,543 --> 00:12:35,463 JENN: Devin and I are just having an amazing day together 282 00:12:35,463 --> 00:12:38,174 and to be able to share these beautiful scenic moments, 283 00:12:38,174 --> 00:12:41,260 it just means so much to me. 284 00:12:41,260 --> 00:12:44,013 It's just making me feel like I'm with Devin for a reason, 285 00:12:44,013 --> 00:12:47,266 and it just feels right with him. 286 00:12:47,266 --> 00:12:48,017 I want to be in love with Devin, 287 00:12:48,017 --> 00:12:50,853 and I think I'm really close to that. 288 00:12:50,853 --> 00:12:52,397 And just having these moments to really get that alone time 289 00:12:52,397 --> 00:12:54,691 and get that validation just proves even more 290 00:12:54,691 --> 00:12:57,568 that he really does understand me and know me and see me. 291 00:12:57,568 --> 00:12:59,153 It's getting easier and easier 292 00:12:59,153 --> 00:13:03,241 to really fall into my feelings for Devin. 293 00:13:03,241 --> 00:13:05,910 I had a really good time meeting your family. 294 00:13:05,910 --> 00:13:08,788 It was so nice to meet your mom finally. 295 00:13:08,788 --> 00:13:12,709 And it was nice to see her validate our relationship. 296 00:13:12,709 --> 00:13:14,669 - I love that. Yeah. 297 00:13:14,669 --> 00:13:18,631 For them to be so open to you and open to me 298 00:13:18,631 --> 00:13:21,926 and open to us was just what I needed. 299 00:13:21,926 --> 00:13:24,137 - Yeah. DEVIN: I am looking forward to 300 00:13:24,137 --> 00:13:26,139 what comes next. - Mm-hmm. 301 00:13:26,139 --> 00:13:30,518 - You know, it's not so much for me about the magic of this. 302 00:13:30,518 --> 00:13:32,729 I don't want that to take away from... 303 00:13:32,729 --> 00:13:33,354 - Us. - ...us working on 304 00:13:33,354 --> 00:13:35,648 each other, you know? 305 00:13:35,648 --> 00:13:36,733 And that's the big thing. 306 00:13:36,733 --> 00:13:39,777 You know, it's the real world that makes me happy. 307 00:13:39,777 --> 00:13:41,237 And I want to bring you into that real world 308 00:13:41,237 --> 00:13:42,905 and do normal things like go to the movies 309 00:13:42,905 --> 00:13:46,617 or go see a concert or go to the park. 310 00:13:46,617 --> 00:13:48,786 You know, it's not so much for me about the big things. 311 00:13:48,786 --> 00:13:52,623 It's always been about acclimating to normal life 312 00:13:52,623 --> 00:13:54,417 and being happy. 313 00:13:54,417 --> 00:13:56,711 We can be extraordinary people in a normal world, 314 00:13:56,711 --> 00:13:58,588 you know what I mean? 315 00:13:58,588 --> 00:14:00,757 You have no idea how much like I want to get back to work 316 00:14:00,757 --> 00:14:05,094 and, like, live my life and eventually buy a house 317 00:14:05,094 --> 00:14:09,766 and raise some kids because I've never had, like, 318 00:14:09,766 --> 00:14:10,516 a normal family life. 319 00:14:10,516 --> 00:14:13,728 So the extraordinary thing for me 320 00:14:13,728 --> 00:14:16,189 is to have a normal family life. 321 00:14:16,189 --> 00:14:19,358 Like, that's just all I want. 322 00:14:19,358 --> 00:14:20,860 JENN: Devin doesn't shy away from talking about an engagement 323 00:14:20,860 --> 00:14:21,944 at the end of this. 324 00:14:21,944 --> 00:14:23,863 He's there, he's ready for it. 325 00:14:23,863 --> 00:14:27,283 And as much as I am ready for engagement, 326 00:14:27,283 --> 00:14:29,535 it is scary to lean into these feelings for Devin, 327 00:14:29,535 --> 00:14:33,122 because I think I just need a little bit of time 328 00:14:33,122 --> 00:14:34,957 for my feelings to catch up to my head. 329 00:14:34,957 --> 00:14:38,127 So I'm really just trying to be cautious with it. 330 00:14:38,127 --> 00:14:41,297 DEVIN: We've done very well, I think you and I, 331 00:14:41,297 --> 00:14:44,926 of having such fantastic moments together 332 00:14:44,926 --> 00:14:47,512 and becoming so close in such a short amount of time. 333 00:14:47,512 --> 00:14:49,764 - Yeah, it's all crazy. It all doesn't make sense to me. 334 00:14:49,764 --> 00:14:50,306 It makes a little bit of sense. 335 00:14:50,306 --> 00:14:52,350 JENN: Does it? - Yeah, that's why I said 336 00:14:52,350 --> 00:14:53,434 I loved you, because it made sense to me. 337 00:14:57,855 --> 00:14:59,816 - You still feel that way? DEVIN: Absolutely. Yeah. 338 00:14:59,816 --> 00:15:04,278 For me, like, I know why I love you. 339 00:15:04,278 --> 00:15:07,657 And it's because you make me feel so secure in my own skin 340 00:15:07,657 --> 00:15:09,992 in a way that I've never been able to feel before. 341 00:15:09,992 --> 00:15:14,664 - I am so excited. 342 00:15:14,664 --> 00:15:18,334 To hear you say all of that means so much to me. 343 00:15:21,170 --> 00:15:24,674 And sometimes it's hard 344 00:15:24,674 --> 00:15:25,883 for me to accept a good thing when I see it. 345 00:15:28,511 --> 00:15:31,848 I know you're a good thing. 346 00:15:31,848 --> 00:15:33,057 And it's, like, scary for me to, like, 347 00:15:33,057 --> 00:15:36,269 lean into that fully 348 00:15:36,269 --> 00:15:37,061 because I know that if I lean into it all the way, 349 00:15:37,061 --> 00:15:38,271 it's going to be real. 350 00:15:38,271 --> 00:15:40,773 - Yeah. 351 00:15:40,773 --> 00:15:42,900 - I want to, and I'm trying. 352 00:15:45,903 --> 00:15:48,156 I want you to know, like, I'm on the way there. 353 00:15:48,156 --> 00:15:50,158 DEVIN: That's fine. 354 00:15:50,158 --> 00:15:51,659 Just know that I'll be there waiting for you 355 00:15:51,659 --> 00:15:52,827 whenever you get there. 356 00:15:52,827 --> 00:15:53,786 - I'm trying every day for you. 357 00:15:53,786 --> 00:15:56,414 - Don't worry. 358 00:15:56,414 --> 00:15:58,332 You're worth the wait. 359 00:16:00,877 --> 00:16:01,752 You know, I sat there and reiterated how much I love Jenn, 360 00:16:01,752 --> 00:16:03,880 and I never heard it back. 361 00:16:03,880 --> 00:16:04,755 You know, it's like she's done a good job 362 00:16:04,755 --> 00:16:07,425 of showing she cares deeply for me. 363 00:16:07,425 --> 00:16:11,762 But I would like to hear the big "L". 364 00:16:11,762 --> 00:16:12,930 You know, I'd like to hear that back. 365 00:16:12,930 --> 00:16:16,893 It's important to me. 366 00:16:16,893 --> 00:16:18,352 JENN: Devin, he's so committed to me, 367 00:16:18,352 --> 00:16:20,897 and I have no question 368 00:16:20,897 --> 00:16:21,606 that he'd make a great partner at the end of this 369 00:16:21,606 --> 00:16:23,107 and that he really is here for me. 370 00:16:23,107 --> 00:16:25,276 But the question is, 371 00:16:25,276 --> 00:16:26,819 am I going to be able to get there with Devin, 372 00:16:26,819 --> 00:16:29,197 and can I allow myself to do that with him? 373 00:16:29,197 --> 00:16:32,617 Maybe I'm hesitant to lean into my feelings for Devin 374 00:16:32,617 --> 00:16:34,785 because I feel like they might be too good to be true. 375 00:16:34,785 --> 00:16:38,331 The fear in all of this is that I won't be able to 376 00:16:38,331 --> 00:16:39,498 accept a good thing for what it is, a good thing. 377 00:16:47,673 --> 00:16:49,300 - Sign up to be on the next season of The Bachelor 378 00:16:49,300 --> 00:16:52,011 or The Bachelorette at ABC.com/casting today. 379 00:16:53,346 --> 00:16:57,433 ♪♪ 380 00:16:57,433 --> 00:17:02,271 ♪♪ 381 00:17:02,271 --> 00:17:06,943 ♪♪ 382 00:17:06,943 --> 00:17:10,696 - Cute! 383 00:17:10,696 --> 00:17:12,573 Devin has expressed that he loves me, 384 00:17:12,573 --> 00:17:15,785 which makes me really excited, but scared all at the same time. 385 00:17:15,785 --> 00:17:18,246 Thank you. 386 00:17:18,246 --> 00:17:20,039 I'm not fully in love with Devin yet, 387 00:17:20,039 --> 00:17:23,584 but that feeling that I have when I'm with him 388 00:17:23,584 --> 00:17:24,794 just grows stronger every time that we're together, 389 00:17:24,794 --> 00:17:28,506 and I am hopeful that we will be able to get there. 390 00:17:28,506 --> 00:17:32,802 So tonight, I'm gonna lean into all of my feelings 391 00:17:32,802 --> 00:17:36,055 and see where that takes me. 392 00:17:36,055 --> 00:17:36,806 - This is beautiful. - We're in Hawaii. 393 00:17:36,806 --> 00:17:38,933 - We're in Hawaii. - We're in Hawaii. 394 00:17:38,933 --> 00:17:42,061 - And you look fantastic. - So do you. 395 00:17:42,061 --> 00:17:43,646 - Will you make a toast? - I will, I will. 396 00:17:43,646 --> 00:17:46,732 - Okay. 397 00:17:46,732 --> 00:17:49,860 - Here's to a woman who makes me smile like it's the first time 398 00:17:49,860 --> 00:17:52,738 I've ever seen her every single time I see her. 399 00:17:52,738 --> 00:17:56,367 Here's to a woman who makes me happy even when I'm sad. 400 00:17:56,367 --> 00:17:56,784 Cheers. - Cheers. 401 00:17:56,784 --> 00:17:59,370 I like that. 402 00:17:59,370 --> 00:18:00,121 DEVIN: Jenn is a person that I want to spend 403 00:18:00,121 --> 00:18:03,457 the rest of my life with. 404 00:18:03,457 --> 00:18:05,293 You know, this is a level that I've never been with a woman. 405 00:18:05,293 --> 00:18:07,545 I do love her. I've told her that. 406 00:18:07,545 --> 00:18:10,214 But it's so hard to love somebody so much 407 00:18:10,214 --> 00:18:12,967 and not know if she wants me back the way I want her. 408 00:18:12,967 --> 00:18:15,303 I really need to hear it back. 409 00:18:15,303 --> 00:18:18,306 I'm just fighting the urge to 410 00:18:18,306 --> 00:18:20,683 just to tell her, "Come on, say it, like, 411 00:18:20,683 --> 00:18:22,560 come on, just tell me." 412 00:18:22,560 --> 00:18:27,023 - How are you feeling? - This has been a long journey. 413 00:18:27,023 --> 00:18:30,985 Getting back home and seeing my family 414 00:18:30,985 --> 00:18:32,278 and my friends made me miss everything even more. 415 00:18:32,278 --> 00:18:34,614 - Yeah. 416 00:18:34,614 --> 00:18:36,949 - Um, but you've been a good reason to stay 417 00:18:36,949 --> 00:18:38,993 and stick around and see this thing through to the end, 418 00:18:38,993 --> 00:18:44,040 because I am very confident in how I feel about you. 419 00:18:44,040 --> 00:18:47,001 And I love that 420 00:18:47,001 --> 00:18:48,961 because it hasn't always been so clear for me. 421 00:18:48,961 --> 00:18:53,132 - Yeah. - Yeah. 422 00:18:53,132 --> 00:18:54,675 I wanted to ask you, 423 00:18:54,675 --> 00:18:56,052 when you feel like you can't recognize a good thing, 424 00:18:56,052 --> 00:18:58,512 like, what do you mean by that? 425 00:18:58,512 --> 00:19:01,766 - Yeah, the whole self-sabotage thing. 426 00:19:01,766 --> 00:19:05,728 Um, I'm only slowly starting to recognize it now, 427 00:19:05,728 --> 00:19:07,772 and I don't think I've done it in the past, 428 00:19:07,772 --> 00:19:11,150 because in the past, I've just had really bad relationships 429 00:19:11,150 --> 00:19:12,902 - that sabotaged itself. DEVIN: Right. 430 00:19:12,902 --> 00:19:14,070 - Not from me. - I hear you. 431 00:19:14,070 --> 00:19:17,073 - But our relationship together has made me realize 432 00:19:17,073 --> 00:19:22,161 how much you mean to me. 433 00:19:22,161 --> 00:19:24,747 And I keep saying like, are you real, like, this is crazy? 434 00:19:24,747 --> 00:19:28,918 It's because I've never had anything like this before, 435 00:19:28,918 --> 00:19:32,922 and it almost makes me want to run away from it 436 00:19:32,922 --> 00:19:37,968 because it's starting to feel very real. 437 00:19:37,968 --> 00:19:39,887 It's like it's too good to be true, right? 438 00:19:39,887 --> 00:19:40,846 Like, there's got to -- - You're waiting for the bang. 439 00:19:40,846 --> 00:19:42,848 - There's got to be something wrong here, Devin. 440 00:19:42,848 --> 00:19:45,476 - You're waiting for the bang. 441 00:19:45,476 --> 00:19:48,187 Jenn had mentioned to me that because she has been hurt 442 00:19:48,187 --> 00:19:49,772 in the past, she has a hard time accepting good things, 443 00:19:49,772 --> 00:19:51,774 and I think that makes her move a little bit slower 444 00:19:51,774 --> 00:19:54,610 than I would like. 445 00:19:54,610 --> 00:19:56,320 But I've been there, too, in my life, 446 00:19:56,320 --> 00:19:58,864 and I just never want it to end with her and want her to know 447 00:19:58,864 --> 00:20:01,492 that she shouldn't have any doubts about me. 448 00:20:01,492 --> 00:20:04,704 I know that's not a healthy way to be thinking about things. 449 00:20:04,704 --> 00:20:09,917 I don't want you to feel ashamed of having reservations. 450 00:20:09,917 --> 00:20:11,669 I don't want you to ever feel 451 00:20:11,669 --> 00:20:12,837 like there's that pressure from me to like... 452 00:20:12,837 --> 00:20:16,382 Yeah, no. And I don't feel that. 453 00:20:16,382 --> 00:20:18,175 For you to be someone so consistent, 454 00:20:18,175 --> 00:20:19,510 so reliable to, when I say you, 455 00:20:19,510 --> 00:20:22,388 you speak to my soul, like you really do. 456 00:20:22,388 --> 00:20:24,056 And I've never had anybody like that before. 457 00:20:24,056 --> 00:20:27,518 We have this communication, this ability to be ourselves, 458 00:20:27,518 --> 00:20:30,855 this comfortability and so much more. 459 00:20:33,399 --> 00:20:34,483 It's unreal. 460 00:20:34,483 --> 00:20:37,153 That's why I'm not scared to let you know 461 00:20:37,153 --> 00:20:40,197 how good it is for me. 462 00:20:40,197 --> 00:20:41,782 And with you, I've said things that I don't 463 00:20:41,782 --> 00:20:44,326 ever know if I'll hear back. You know what I mean? 464 00:20:44,326 --> 00:20:46,412 And that's not any knock on you. 465 00:20:46,412 --> 00:20:47,872 But it's just because I feel so strongly about you that 466 00:20:47,872 --> 00:20:50,458 I don't think I could go another day without telling you. 467 00:20:52,960 --> 00:20:54,920 You know, I don't love people. 468 00:20:57,590 --> 00:20:58,966 You don't just toss the word around. 469 00:20:58,966 --> 00:21:00,634 No, no, no, no, no, no, no. 470 00:21:00,634 --> 00:21:04,889 So... 471 00:21:04,889 --> 00:21:08,684 you're in love. - Yeah. 472 00:21:08,684 --> 00:21:09,852 Like, where do you see it all going? 473 00:21:09,852 --> 00:21:11,937 And are you ready for engagement? 474 00:21:11,937 --> 00:21:15,107 I am in love, and I am ready for an engagement. 475 00:21:15,107 --> 00:21:19,904 I am ready because I have never felt a person accept me 476 00:21:19,904 --> 00:21:23,157 the way that you've accepted me in life. 477 00:21:23,157 --> 00:21:24,617 You have been a rock that I didn't realize 478 00:21:24,617 --> 00:21:27,453 that I needed until I had it there. 479 00:21:27,453 --> 00:21:28,204 I would love to call you my fiancée. 480 00:21:28,204 --> 00:21:31,582 And I would love to call you my wife. 481 00:21:31,582 --> 00:21:33,334 Like, those things go hand in hand for me. 482 00:21:33,334 --> 00:21:34,627 And I'm excited about that. 483 00:21:34,627 --> 00:21:35,878 I can feel that from you, 484 00:21:35,878 --> 00:21:39,673 and that's what makes this so real to me 485 00:21:39,673 --> 00:21:41,050 and so scary for me, is that I can feel that. 486 00:21:41,050 --> 00:21:43,511 And I know that it would work, 487 00:21:43,511 --> 00:21:44,678 and I know that we'd figure it out together. 488 00:21:44,678 --> 00:21:46,889 Yes. 489 00:21:46,889 --> 00:21:50,059 I might not always express it in the best way, 490 00:21:50,059 --> 00:21:52,269 but I want you to know how thankful I am 491 00:21:52,269 --> 00:21:56,023 to have someone so unwaveringly here for me. 492 00:21:58,943 --> 00:22:02,780 And I can't tell you how much it means to me. 493 00:22:02,780 --> 00:22:03,614 I know I say that over and over again. 494 00:22:03,614 --> 00:22:06,617 It really is. 495 00:22:06,617 --> 00:22:07,660 You can say it a couple more times. 496 00:22:07,660 --> 00:22:09,411 It'll be okay with me. 497 00:22:09,411 --> 00:22:13,916 No, Devin, like really, I... 498 00:22:13,916 --> 00:22:16,669 can't tell you how much you mean to me. 499 00:22:20,464 --> 00:22:22,925 Devin is checking off every box that I've always wanted. 500 00:22:22,925 --> 00:22:25,427 And it feels amazing to know 501 00:22:25,427 --> 00:22:29,306 that he wants all the same things that I want. 502 00:22:29,306 --> 00:22:32,059 He really just wants to settle down and buy a house. 503 00:22:32,059 --> 00:22:34,687 And he's in it for the engagement 504 00:22:34,687 --> 00:22:35,354 at the end of this all. 505 00:22:35,354 --> 00:22:37,690 I hope to be in love with Devin. 506 00:22:37,690 --> 00:22:39,608 I'm not sure when that's going to be. 507 00:22:39,608 --> 00:22:42,528 I'm not really planning on seeing it. 508 00:22:42,528 --> 00:22:43,487 I'm not playing on not seeing it. 509 00:22:43,487 --> 00:22:47,199 But I think I'll know it when I know it. 510 00:22:47,199 --> 00:22:48,868 - I have something. - Okay. 511 00:22:51,996 --> 00:22:54,623 Do you want to open it? 512 00:22:54,623 --> 00:22:55,416 I'll open it. 513 00:22:58,878 --> 00:23:01,255 "Jenn and Devin, I hope you enjoyed your day 514 00:23:01,255 --> 00:23:04,008 soaring above the island's ancient volcanoes 515 00:23:04,008 --> 00:23:07,386 and creating unforgettable memories together. 516 00:23:07,386 --> 00:23:10,472 Should you choose to forgo your individual rooms, 517 00:23:10,472 --> 00:23:13,017 please use this key to stay as a couple in the fantasy suite. 518 00:23:13,017 --> 00:23:14,560 Jesse." 519 00:23:14,560 --> 00:23:14,727 Hm. 520 00:23:16,937 --> 00:23:17,896 What do you think? 521 00:23:17,896 --> 00:23:20,900 I'm game if you're game. 522 00:23:20,900 --> 00:23:22,359 I'm totally game. 523 00:23:23,193 --> 00:23:24,278 Let's do it. - Let's do it. 524 00:23:26,196 --> 00:23:28,991 It's a magical key. 525 00:23:28,991 --> 00:23:30,576 This does look like a magical key. 526 00:23:30,576 --> 00:23:32,202 For a magical night. 527 00:23:39,627 --> 00:23:40,586 DEVIN: I'm really excited. 528 00:23:40,586 --> 00:23:42,379 Tonight, I'm gonna have a full night 529 00:23:42,379 --> 00:23:45,174 of uninterrupted moments with Jenn. 530 00:23:45,174 --> 00:23:46,926 And this is a huge step for us. 531 00:23:46,926 --> 00:23:48,302 And it's something that I look forward to. 532 00:23:48,302 --> 00:23:51,513 And I'm -- I'm over the moon about it. 533 00:23:51,513 --> 00:23:53,307 This is the first time 534 00:23:53,307 --> 00:23:56,393 we'll be off camera, just talking about life, 535 00:23:56,393 --> 00:23:57,186 and to be able to have that quality time with her 536 00:23:57,186 --> 00:23:58,103 is -- is very meaningful to me. 537 00:24:01,482 --> 00:24:03,275 - [ laughs ] 538 00:24:03,567 --> 00:24:05,736 This is nice. Look at all the candles. 539 00:24:05,736 --> 00:24:08,405 - How romantic. 540 00:24:08,405 --> 00:24:10,324 I only see one goal, and that's Jenn and I 541 00:24:10,324 --> 00:24:12,201 at the finish line together. 542 00:24:12,201 --> 00:24:15,496 And us married, and a nice family with kids. 543 00:24:15,496 --> 00:24:17,623 - Should we pop some champ? - Yeah, absolutely. 544 00:24:17,623 --> 00:24:19,833 - Go for it. 545 00:24:19,833 --> 00:24:20,125 - I'd be crazy if I didn't see that at this point. 546 00:24:20,125 --> 00:24:22,503 You know, she's a girl 547 00:24:22,503 --> 00:24:23,337 that I want to spend the rest of my life with. 548 00:24:23,337 --> 00:24:26,548 To an incredible journey, first of all. 549 00:24:26,548 --> 00:24:30,761 - Mm-hmm. - And to a sneak peek 550 00:24:30,761 --> 00:24:32,346 into what every day could look like with us. 551 00:24:32,346 --> 00:24:34,807 - Mm-hmm. - I am more excited than ever 552 00:24:34,807 --> 00:24:37,309 to spend this moment with you. 553 00:24:37,309 --> 00:24:39,353 - Mm-hmm. - Today, tomorrow. 554 00:24:39,353 --> 00:24:43,023 And for as long as you live. 555 00:24:43,023 --> 00:24:43,982 The whole dynamic of our relationship 556 00:24:43,982 --> 00:24:47,027 could change after tonight. 557 00:24:47,027 --> 00:24:48,946 You know, it could be all the mental assurances 558 00:24:48,946 --> 00:24:51,073 that I need, all those little words that I need to hear. 559 00:24:51,073 --> 00:24:55,994 ♪♪ 560 00:24:55,994 --> 00:25:00,332 ♪♪ 561 00:25:00,332 --> 00:25:02,042 This could be the biggest stepping stone 562 00:25:02,042 --> 00:25:04,920 that there is for us in this journey. 563 00:25:04,920 --> 00:25:06,505 And I'm gonna push with everything I've got. 564 00:25:06,505 --> 00:25:08,716 And I'm not gonna leave anything on the table. 565 00:25:09,049 --> 00:25:12,469 ♪♪ 566 00:25:20,144 --> 00:25:24,732 ♪♪ 567 00:25:24,732 --> 00:25:28,360 ♪♪ 568 00:25:28,360 --> 00:25:30,738 [ Jenn laughing ] 569 00:25:30,738 --> 00:25:32,489 - DEVIN: Good morning. - JENN: Good morning. 570 00:25:32,489 --> 00:25:33,449 - How are you feeling? - Great. 571 00:25:33,449 --> 00:25:35,325 How are you feeling? - I feel fantastic. 572 00:25:35,325 --> 00:25:37,119 - Great. - Talk about an amazing night. 573 00:25:37,119 --> 00:25:39,371 Mm-hmm. 574 00:25:39,371 --> 00:25:40,914 I feel like a happy girl. - Yeah? 575 00:25:40,914 --> 00:25:44,501 You look like a happy girl. 576 00:25:44,501 --> 00:25:47,004 JENN: Waking up next to Devin, I feel amazing. 577 00:25:49,673 --> 00:25:51,967 People say Devin looks like Pete Davidson, 578 00:25:51,967 --> 00:25:53,761 but after last night, 579 00:25:53,761 --> 00:25:57,765 I'd say he's better than Pete Davidson in every way. 580 00:25:58,265 --> 00:26:00,976 [ chuckles ] 581 00:26:00,976 --> 00:26:02,728 DEVIN: I couldn't be happier in this moment. 582 00:26:02,728 --> 00:26:05,898 Beautiful sunrise. Beautiful woman. 583 00:26:05,898 --> 00:26:07,941 These are the moments that I want to hold on to. 584 00:26:07,941 --> 00:26:11,070 Because these are the ones that matter the most. 585 00:26:11,070 --> 00:26:14,698 It's the little things like waking up next to you, 586 00:26:14,698 --> 00:26:14,823 those are the ones that I hold on to. 587 00:26:21,121 --> 00:26:23,332 I am finally starting to accept 588 00:26:23,332 --> 00:26:24,875 that sometimes a good thing is just a good thing. 589 00:26:24,875 --> 00:26:28,253 And I deserve that. 590 00:26:28,253 --> 00:26:30,464 And it seems like Devin is that good thing. 591 00:26:30,464 --> 00:26:34,593 - I'd like to make a toast. - Whoa. 592 00:26:34,593 --> 00:26:38,305 Too much needed quality time together. 593 00:26:38,305 --> 00:26:40,516 - Agreed. - To feeling aligned 594 00:26:40,516 --> 00:26:40,641 in our future. 595 00:26:40,641 --> 00:26:44,895 And to -- to us. 596 00:26:44,895 --> 00:26:47,648 - To us. Cheers. - Cheers. 597 00:26:47,648 --> 00:26:49,733 DEVIN: Waking up this morning, sitting next to Jenn, 598 00:26:49,733 --> 00:26:53,654 I feel calm, feel comfortable. 599 00:26:53,654 --> 00:26:55,447 - Mm. - Is it good? 600 00:26:55,447 --> 00:26:58,116 It's a great feeling to have. 601 00:26:58,116 --> 00:27:01,036 I've loved before, but I've never loved this way. 602 00:27:01,036 --> 00:27:05,541 And that's a beautiful thing for me to feel. 603 00:27:05,541 --> 00:27:06,834 JENN: I'm definitely feeling this morning 604 00:27:06,834 --> 00:27:10,045 that, um, I know that I deserve a good thing, 605 00:27:10,045 --> 00:27:13,590 and it's just becoming more and more real for me. 606 00:27:13,590 --> 00:27:16,260 And I think last night was like a pivotal time for that, 607 00:27:16,260 --> 00:27:19,888 to see that, and allows me to have more confidence 608 00:27:19,888 --> 00:27:21,598 in our relationship. - Absolutely. 609 00:27:21,598 --> 00:27:24,101 - And I can see that future there with you. 610 00:27:24,101 --> 00:27:26,311 So I can only hope 611 00:27:26,311 --> 00:27:28,856 that it helps you get out of your head a little bit. 612 00:27:28,856 --> 00:27:30,440 - Absolutely. - Yeah? 613 00:27:30,440 --> 00:27:30,691 - Yeah. 614 00:27:33,986 --> 00:27:36,822 I feel elated and ecstatic about the night, 615 00:27:36,822 --> 00:27:38,407 but I'm nervous because I know 616 00:27:38,407 --> 00:27:40,617 that I can't hold on to this moment forever. 617 00:27:50,586 --> 00:27:52,254 - Bye. JENN: Bye. 618 00:27:52,254 --> 00:27:55,257 - DEVIN: I love you. - JENN: Okay. 619 00:27:55,257 --> 00:27:57,175 - Bye. - Bye. 620 00:27:57,175 --> 00:28:00,596 DEVIN: It's hard to see her walk away in these moments. 621 00:28:00,596 --> 00:28:02,431 And, you know, I don't know. 622 00:28:02,431 --> 00:28:02,556 Who knows when I'll see her again. 623 00:28:02,556 --> 00:28:04,725 Bye! 624 00:28:04,725 --> 00:28:07,603 Told her I loved her again last night. 625 00:28:07,603 --> 00:28:10,397 Didn't hear it back, and it's unfortunate, 626 00:28:10,397 --> 00:28:12,024 but, you know, I know my feelings are true. 627 00:28:13,358 --> 00:28:15,110 For me, there's no more love that I can give 628 00:28:15,110 --> 00:28:17,362 without hearing it back. 629 00:28:17,362 --> 00:28:19,448 You know, I've given everything I can 630 00:28:19,448 --> 00:28:22,159 to this point, and I just -- I want to know that I'm the guy. 631 00:28:25,203 --> 00:28:27,372 I know that there are other guys here still. 632 00:28:27,372 --> 00:28:30,459 And I don't want to say "I love you" to her and her 633 00:28:30,459 --> 00:28:32,544 turn around and say it to someone else. 634 00:28:32,544 --> 00:28:34,546 You know, if that happens, I would be crushed. 635 00:28:36,340 --> 00:28:38,884 ♪♪ 636 00:28:38,884 --> 00:28:42,679 ♪♪ 637 00:28:42,679 --> 00:28:47,559 ♪♪ 638 00:28:47,559 --> 00:28:53,690 ♪♪ 639 00:28:53,690 --> 00:28:55,442 JONATHON: Today is my overnight date with Jenn. 640 00:28:55,442 --> 00:28:57,611 To say I'm excited is an understatement. 641 00:28:57,611 --> 00:29:00,572 I cannot wait to see her. 642 00:29:00,572 --> 00:29:03,033 After watching her interact with my family, like, 643 00:29:03,033 --> 00:29:04,701 the feelings that were there in the moment 644 00:29:04,701 --> 00:29:07,663 were just so strong. 645 00:29:07,663 --> 00:29:09,748 And, you know, I shared with her that I was falling for her, 646 00:29:09,748 --> 00:29:13,001 and she shared that she was falling for me, too. 647 00:29:13,001 --> 00:29:15,963 I don't think Jenn knows me to the depth of what somebody 648 00:29:15,963 --> 00:29:18,966 who's going to be my fiancée should know. 649 00:29:18,966 --> 00:29:21,927 So today, I think the most exciting part is 650 00:29:21,927 --> 00:29:24,721 really just getting deeper with each other. 651 00:29:24,721 --> 00:29:26,306 Today's just going to be fun. 652 00:29:26,306 --> 00:29:28,392 I'm going to be smiling like I am right now all day, 653 00:29:28,392 --> 00:29:29,935 and it's -- it's going to be a blast. 654 00:29:29,935 --> 00:29:31,979 [ horn honks ] 655 00:29:36,608 --> 00:29:38,527 - Hey! - JONATHON: Hi! 656 00:29:38,527 --> 00:29:38,819 - Hey! - JONATHON: Hi! Good. 657 00:29:38,819 --> 00:29:38,919 Good. - How's it going? - Good. How are you doing? 658 00:29:38,919 --> 00:29:41,613 Good. 659 00:29:41,613 --> 00:29:44,908 That was a big hug. Sorry. 660 00:29:44,908 --> 00:29:46,410 JENN: I can't wait to spend the day with Jonathon. 661 00:29:46,410 --> 00:29:48,161 He looks amazing right now. 662 00:29:48,161 --> 00:29:51,248 We started off a bit of a slow burn, 663 00:29:51,248 --> 00:29:53,625 but now I am falling for him. 664 00:29:53,625 --> 00:29:57,546 And to know that he's falling for me makes me so excited. 665 00:29:57,546 --> 00:29:59,006 - I missed you. - I missed you, too. 666 00:29:59,006 --> 00:30:01,550 It's been a little bit. - I know. I know. 667 00:30:01,550 --> 00:30:01,925 I have a really fun day planned for us. 668 00:30:01,925 --> 00:30:04,594 It's all going to be a surprise, 669 00:30:04,594 --> 00:30:06,054 but are you excited for a little adventure? 670 00:30:06,054 --> 00:30:09,141 - Yeah. - Okay. 671 00:30:09,141 --> 00:30:10,726 Let's have some fun. 672 00:30:10,726 --> 00:30:11,768 Okay. Let's go. 673 00:30:11,768 --> 00:30:14,354 Today, we are going to hit up some markets, 674 00:30:14,354 --> 00:30:17,065 try out some foods. - JONATHON: Hit it. 675 00:30:17,065 --> 00:30:18,025 Here we go. 676 00:30:18,025 --> 00:30:20,902 Just see what beautiful Hawaii will do for us. 677 00:30:23,196 --> 00:30:27,034 JONATHON: Wow, this place is beautiful. 678 00:30:27,034 --> 00:30:29,745 All right, so you gonna give me a hint on what we're doing? 679 00:30:29,745 --> 00:30:31,788 Just you wait, Jonathon Johnson. 680 00:30:31,788 --> 00:30:34,833 I always have such a good time when I'm with Jonathon, 681 00:30:34,833 --> 00:30:37,294 but today, I really just want to see him get out of his head 682 00:30:37,294 --> 00:30:41,006 a little bit and be more open with how he's feeling. 683 00:30:41,006 --> 00:30:41,631 Let's go, baby! 684 00:30:41,631 --> 00:30:43,675 Oh, my God! 685 00:30:43,675 --> 00:30:44,926 [ laughs ] 686 00:30:47,095 --> 00:30:49,806 JENN: I'm definitely hoping that Jonathon 687 00:30:49,806 --> 00:30:52,559 and I are going to continue falling for each other. 688 00:30:52,559 --> 00:30:54,394 - Oh, we're ready here. JENN: Yes we are. 689 00:30:54,394 --> 00:30:57,022 I mean, there's no better place to fall in love than Hawaii. 690 00:31:00,275 --> 00:31:03,612 Sorry, baby, time to break the diet. 691 00:31:03,612 --> 00:31:04,863 I am not the biggest sweets guy in the world. 692 00:31:04,863 --> 00:31:07,115 What are these? Maltesers. 693 00:31:07,115 --> 00:31:08,075 They're little doughnuts? 694 00:31:08,075 --> 00:31:10,744 Okay, let's do a coconut one. 695 00:31:10,744 --> 00:31:12,746 A chocolate haupia one, an ube cheesecake. 696 00:31:12,746 --> 00:31:16,583 I also would love a Nutella one, please. 697 00:31:16,583 --> 00:31:17,834 JONATHON: My God. - What? 698 00:31:17,834 --> 00:31:20,796 Let's just make it six. 699 00:31:20,796 --> 00:31:21,004 JONATHON: But I'm not going to waste this day with Jenn. 700 00:31:21,004 --> 00:31:23,256 I'm not gonna be that guy, 701 00:31:23,256 --> 00:31:24,674 so it's definitely worth the cheat day for sure. 702 00:31:24,674 --> 00:31:27,219 You ready? 703 00:31:27,219 --> 00:31:29,888 It's actually really good. 704 00:31:29,888 --> 00:31:30,722 JENN: It's always easy with Jonathon. 705 00:31:30,722 --> 00:31:33,809 Like, we're just so ourselves 706 00:31:33,809 --> 00:31:34,893 and we are able to have so much fun together. 707 00:31:34,893 --> 00:31:36,478 Open wide! 708 00:31:36,478 --> 00:31:38,396 That's something that I want in a relationship 709 00:31:38,396 --> 00:31:39,981 and I need in a relationship. 710 00:31:39,981 --> 00:31:42,943 You are the messiest eater. [ laughs ] 711 00:31:42,943 --> 00:31:45,737 Sorry. 712 00:31:45,737 --> 00:31:46,905 [ muffled ] What's wrong? 713 00:31:51,201 --> 00:31:51,326 JONATHON: It's a little market. 714 00:31:51,326 --> 00:31:54,621 JENN: Yeah! 715 00:31:54,621 --> 00:31:54,830 Mm. That's actually really good. 716 00:31:54,830 --> 00:31:57,582 That is so good. 717 00:31:57,582 --> 00:31:58,333 JENN: Do you want to get matching rocks? 718 00:31:58,333 --> 00:32:01,294 JONATHON: Get all the bad juju out of you. 719 00:32:01,294 --> 00:32:02,879 JENN: Cleansing all my sins. 720 00:32:02,879 --> 00:32:04,297 JONATHON: I'm having so much fun today. 721 00:32:04,297 --> 00:32:06,883 Yeah. Me too. 722 00:32:06,883 --> 00:32:09,928 JONATHON: Spending the day with Jenn has been amazing. 723 00:32:09,928 --> 00:32:12,556 You know, that feeling of, like, potentially falling in love. 724 00:32:12,556 --> 00:32:12,973 You gonna trick me into some more sweets? 725 00:32:12,973 --> 00:32:16,977 It continues to grow and grow, 726 00:32:16,977 --> 00:32:19,104 and I see no reason as to why it wouldn't keep going. 727 00:32:19,104 --> 00:32:19,896 Mm. [ laughs ] 728 00:32:22,023 --> 00:32:23,859 [ laughs ] 729 00:32:29,906 --> 00:32:31,616 JENN: I love being in nature. 730 00:32:31,616 --> 00:32:34,661 JONATHON: Same. Yeah. 731 00:32:34,661 --> 00:32:36,246 JENN: This date with Jonathon feels like something 732 00:32:36,246 --> 00:32:38,039 that we'd be doing in our everyday lives 733 00:32:38,039 --> 00:32:40,167 if we were together. 734 00:32:40,167 --> 00:32:42,752 Right now, I feel like life 735 00:32:42,752 --> 00:32:45,672 would always be an adventure with Jonathon and full of life. 736 00:32:45,672 --> 00:32:47,090 And that's what I want love to feel like. 737 00:32:47,090 --> 00:32:48,550 Oh, my God, look at that. 738 00:32:48,550 --> 00:32:50,594 Oh, my gosh. 739 00:32:57,893 --> 00:32:59,227 Look at this. 740 00:32:59,227 --> 00:33:00,061 JONATHON: Wow. 741 00:33:00,061 --> 00:33:02,439 What? 742 00:33:02,439 --> 00:33:04,274 Okay. You planned a good day. 743 00:33:04,274 --> 00:33:05,358 JENN: Oh, now I planned a good day? 744 00:33:05,358 --> 00:33:05,901 JONATHON: Yeah. This is good. 745 00:33:05,901 --> 00:33:09,070 JENN: You didn't like it before, but now you do. 746 00:33:09,070 --> 00:33:10,614 - Oh, my God. JONATHON: this is beautiful. 747 00:33:10,614 --> 00:33:13,825 Whoo! 748 00:33:13,825 --> 00:33:15,410 I just cannot believe that this is real. 749 00:33:15,410 --> 00:33:17,871 This is exactly what we needed, 750 00:33:17,871 --> 00:33:20,290 this romantic waterfall all to ourselves. 751 00:33:20,290 --> 00:33:23,585 It's like the perfect end to a perfect day together. 752 00:33:23,585 --> 00:33:25,420 This is so pretty. 753 00:33:32,761 --> 00:33:37,807 I just can't believe that it's like we're already here. 754 00:33:37,807 --> 00:33:39,434 - Yeah. - And I'm feeling the strain 755 00:33:39,434 --> 00:33:41,645 of that a little bit, you know? 756 00:33:41,645 --> 00:33:45,106 So that's why every time we're together, 757 00:33:45,106 --> 00:33:47,275 I try to, like, make it as calm and collected as possible. 758 00:33:47,275 --> 00:33:49,945 No pressure. No, like, live in the moment. 759 00:33:49,945 --> 00:33:52,113 - Just being us, just being us. - Literally every time. 760 00:33:52,113 --> 00:33:53,198 I think we do a really good job of that. 761 00:33:53,198 --> 00:33:55,825 And we don't need to -- You don't need to think about 762 00:33:55,825 --> 00:33:58,203 that or feel any pressure about that. 763 00:33:58,203 --> 00:33:59,412 But I do. I care about you, 764 00:33:59,412 --> 00:34:04,376 and I can't not put other people first. 765 00:34:04,376 --> 00:34:07,671 And that especially includes you. 766 00:34:07,671 --> 00:34:09,798 So, like, I want to be that breath of fresh air 767 00:34:09,798 --> 00:34:12,801 when you sit down and you just get to just enjoy. 768 00:34:12,801 --> 00:34:15,011 I always enjoy spending time with you, 769 00:34:15,011 --> 00:34:17,639 and we always have such a good time together, 770 00:34:17,639 --> 00:34:19,766 and that's something that I value so much 771 00:34:19,766 --> 00:34:21,351 in our relationship. 772 00:34:21,351 --> 00:34:22,852 But I also don't want you to be afraid to emote 773 00:34:22,852 --> 00:34:25,063 or be afraid to tell me 774 00:34:25,063 --> 00:34:28,483 how you're really feeling about something or whatever, 775 00:34:28,483 --> 00:34:31,278 because that's what a relationship is about, 776 00:34:31,278 --> 00:34:32,112 like, just like being honest to each other. 777 00:34:32,112 --> 00:34:35,407 However you're feeling, 778 00:34:35,407 --> 00:34:36,866 I would never want you to suppress anything. 779 00:34:36,866 --> 00:34:38,994 I think tonight is a great opportunity to do that. 780 00:34:38,994 --> 00:34:40,370 - Yeah. - Yeah. 781 00:34:42,163 --> 00:34:45,208 JONATHON: Today, I've been trying to open up more. 782 00:34:45,208 --> 00:34:48,878 I think being honest and just letting those feelings come in 783 00:34:48,878 --> 00:34:51,589 as they come is going to be the biggest thing for me. 784 00:34:51,589 --> 00:34:53,717 I don't have time to beat around the bush anymore. 785 00:34:53,717 --> 00:34:56,386 It's now or never. 786 00:34:56,386 --> 00:34:59,472 - Cheers to everything falling into the right place 787 00:34:59,472 --> 00:35:00,307 to get us both here together at the same time, 788 00:35:00,307 --> 00:35:02,600 this beautiful place. 789 00:35:02,600 --> 00:35:03,518 And to us. 790 00:35:04,352 --> 00:35:06,938 - Cheers. - Cheers. 791 00:35:10,608 --> 00:35:12,485 JENN: For right now, I just feel so good. 792 00:35:12,485 --> 00:35:15,572 It's like I'm finally starting 793 00:35:15,572 --> 00:35:16,740 to see Jonathon get out of his head a little bit 794 00:35:16,740 --> 00:35:19,409 and ease those anxieties. 795 00:35:19,409 --> 00:35:24,164 We have a connection, and it's one that continues to grow, 796 00:35:24,164 --> 00:35:26,374 and this is the moment that makes me feel like, 797 00:35:26,374 --> 00:35:26,916 you know, we could get there, you know? 798 00:35:26,916 --> 00:35:29,377 It's the romance, and it's there, 799 00:35:29,377 --> 00:35:31,046 and I want us to get there. 800 00:35:31,046 --> 00:35:33,548 I just feel so happy right now. 801 00:35:35,800 --> 00:35:38,887 ♪♪ 802 00:35:38,887 --> 00:35:42,724 ♪♪ 803 00:35:42,724 --> 00:35:48,188 ♪♪ 804 00:35:56,821 --> 00:36:00,742 ♪♪ 805 00:36:00,742 --> 00:36:06,331 ♪♪ 806 00:36:06,331 --> 00:36:08,917 JONATHON: I look like a scrub compared to. 807 00:36:08,917 --> 00:36:10,168 - No, stop. - Look at those shoes. 808 00:36:10,168 --> 00:36:13,129 - You look great, too. 809 00:36:13,129 --> 00:36:15,256 Today with Jonathon has been amazing. 810 00:36:15,256 --> 00:36:18,551 It's everything that I wanted coming into tonight. 811 00:36:18,551 --> 00:36:21,054 I have very strong feelings for Jonathon. 812 00:36:21,054 --> 00:36:24,057 Like, it's crazy how good he makes me feel. 813 00:36:24,057 --> 00:36:27,310 It's crazy how understanding he is. 814 00:36:27,310 --> 00:36:28,895 Jonathon and I have such great foundation together. 815 00:36:28,895 --> 00:36:32,232 We have so much fun together, and I think going into tonight, 816 00:36:32,232 --> 00:36:33,149 I want him to be able to lean into his emotions 817 00:36:33,149 --> 00:36:34,943 a little bit more for me. 818 00:36:34,943 --> 00:36:37,487 - Oh. - Cute. 819 00:36:37,487 --> 00:36:40,615 And build off of more than just fun, 820 00:36:40,615 --> 00:36:42,534 but also like getting deep and talking about how we grew up, 821 00:36:42,534 --> 00:36:44,327 what do you want in a family, 822 00:36:44,327 --> 00:36:47,163 you know, what his hopes are for the future. 823 00:36:47,163 --> 00:36:51,668 What does this relationship look like outside of this all? 824 00:36:51,668 --> 00:36:52,710 So, how do you feel about today? You have fun? 825 00:36:52,710 --> 00:36:56,464 I have a lot of fun with you. - Yeah? 826 00:36:56,464 --> 00:36:58,550 - Yeah, I mean, it was nice to just be able to get to spend 827 00:36:58,550 --> 00:37:00,510 a lot of time together and to see you again. 828 00:37:00,510 --> 00:37:02,804 Like, I missed you after hometowns. 829 00:37:02,804 --> 00:37:07,267 And I think hometowns was a really big day for us. 830 00:37:07,267 --> 00:37:10,311 And seeing how your family 831 00:37:10,311 --> 00:37:14,315 saw such a change in you being with me 832 00:37:14,315 --> 00:37:16,276 made me feel more confident in our relationship. 833 00:37:16,276 --> 00:37:18,236 - Yeah. - They were all just so 834 00:37:18,236 --> 00:37:20,947 unbelievably open with me, and I... 835 00:37:20,947 --> 00:37:23,074 I loved that. It was very refreshing. 836 00:37:23,074 --> 00:37:26,077 And seeing how much they cared about you 837 00:37:26,077 --> 00:37:27,746 and how close knit of a family you guys are, 838 00:37:27,746 --> 00:37:31,916 it was really endearing to see and be a part of. 839 00:37:31,916 --> 00:37:34,335 - Yeah, you walked into that house like you owned it, 840 00:37:34,335 --> 00:37:36,212 and I mean that in an amazing way. 841 00:37:36,212 --> 00:37:38,423 Like, they have a lot to say. 842 00:37:38,423 --> 00:37:41,634 And the fact that they wanted to listen to you was amazing. 843 00:37:41,634 --> 00:37:43,636 I want a partner with a lot of confidence in themselves 844 00:37:43,636 --> 00:37:45,638 and who they are. 845 00:37:45,638 --> 00:37:46,598 You know, and I think I learned a lot of that about you. 846 00:37:46,598 --> 00:37:49,684 That's crazy. 847 00:37:49,684 --> 00:37:51,853 No, I mean, I never really saw myself 848 00:37:51,853 --> 00:37:53,480 as someone walking into a room with a lot of confidence. 849 00:37:53,480 --> 00:37:56,316 Yes, I am very confident in who I am, but, um... 850 00:38:01,446 --> 00:38:04,324 ...growing up, because my parents were immigrants 851 00:38:04,324 --> 00:38:05,575 and because I was fully Vietnamese, 852 00:38:05,575 --> 00:38:09,829 and then going into a very white dominated suburban town 853 00:38:09,829 --> 00:38:11,623 and going to school there was really hard 854 00:38:11,623 --> 00:38:13,708 for me to accept my identity and very hard 855 00:38:13,708 --> 00:38:17,462 for me to fit in and see where I fit into the world. 856 00:38:17,462 --> 00:38:18,630 - Yeah. - For a long time, 857 00:38:18,630 --> 00:38:22,592 I honestly kind of hated who I was and did things 858 00:38:22,592 --> 00:38:23,968 that maybe weren't, um, 859 00:38:23,968 --> 00:38:26,679 true to who I was because I wanted to fit in 860 00:38:26,679 --> 00:38:28,640 and wouldn't bring certain lunches to school 861 00:38:28,640 --> 00:38:33,311 because I felt like people were judging me 862 00:38:33,311 --> 00:38:36,105 because it was so foreign to them. 863 00:38:36,105 --> 00:38:38,525 And there came a point where I didn't even know who I was. 864 00:38:38,525 --> 00:38:40,485 Sorry you had to go through that. It sucks. 865 00:38:40,485 --> 00:38:43,238 Yeah, as a kid, it was hard, and I wanted to just fit in 866 00:38:43,238 --> 00:38:45,865 and be like everybody else. 867 00:38:45,865 --> 00:38:51,246 And so it was really tough having to hide that part of me 868 00:38:51,246 --> 00:38:55,667 because it is a part of me and it is who I am. 869 00:38:55,667 --> 00:38:57,794 - Well, you are pretty great. - Thank you. 870 00:38:57,794 --> 00:38:57,919 You should never have to hide that. 871 00:38:57,919 --> 00:39:01,381 Thanks. Yeah, and I don't now. 872 00:39:01,381 --> 00:39:04,759 It took me so long to celebrate that part of me 873 00:39:04,759 --> 00:39:06,719 and celebrate my family and celebrate my culture, 874 00:39:06,719 --> 00:39:12,183 that I want to make sure that when I have kids, 875 00:39:12,183 --> 00:39:14,644 I'm able to help them through all of that 876 00:39:14,644 --> 00:39:17,188 and help them celebrate themselves and help them learn 877 00:39:17,188 --> 00:39:21,025 and understand that, yes, you are a little bit different, 878 00:39:21,025 --> 00:39:21,860 but that's what makes you unique. 879 00:39:21,860 --> 00:39:23,319 And that's what makes you so special, 880 00:39:23,319 --> 00:39:27,824 is that you have an incredible story, 881 00:39:27,824 --> 00:39:29,492 and you should be proud of where you come from, 882 00:39:29,492 --> 00:39:31,786 because all these other people are so proud of you. 883 00:39:31,786 --> 00:39:32,537 - I love that. - Yeah. 884 00:39:32,537 --> 00:39:35,373 I think if I was a part of that family... 885 00:39:35,373 --> 00:39:37,083 - Yeah. - ...I would probably try to 886 00:39:37,083 --> 00:39:38,751 learn Vietnamese first of all. 887 00:39:38,751 --> 00:39:39,502 - [ laughs ] Well, I can -- - And I'm sure it'd be -- 888 00:39:39,502 --> 00:39:40,503 - I could see that. - Your mom would be 889 00:39:40,503 --> 00:39:42,547 on speed dial. 890 00:39:42,547 --> 00:39:43,965 I'd be like, "All right, how do I make that?" 891 00:39:43,965 --> 00:39:44,382 I love cooking. - Yeah. 892 00:39:44,382 --> 00:39:47,176 So I would learn how to make everything. 893 00:39:47,176 --> 00:39:48,303 I think when it comes to, like, a family, 894 00:39:48,303 --> 00:39:52,890 I would love for a mixed household. 895 00:39:52,890 --> 00:39:56,686 You know, the fact that my white mom could instill the confidence 896 00:39:56,686 --> 00:40:00,023 of being half black and just living life as me, 897 00:40:00,023 --> 00:40:03,484 I've never felt pressure to be anything other than what I am. 898 00:40:03,484 --> 00:40:07,488 And it's something that I feel I deserve to pass down. 899 00:40:07,488 --> 00:40:08,323 And whether my kids are half Vietnamese, 900 00:40:08,323 --> 00:40:11,367 quarter black, quarter white, 901 00:40:11,367 --> 00:40:14,996 I want them to just go through life confident as hell, 902 00:40:14,996 --> 00:40:17,999 knowing that who they are is so amazing. 903 00:40:17,999 --> 00:40:19,751 And I never want them to question, 904 00:40:19,751 --> 00:40:22,128 and I never want you to have to question that. 905 00:40:22,128 --> 00:40:23,922 - No, no. - And I wish that you always 906 00:40:23,922 --> 00:40:27,467 had that confidence because you're so freaking incredible. 907 00:40:27,467 --> 00:40:29,177 And, like, we have so much fun together. 908 00:40:29,177 --> 00:40:31,304 And there's a thousand amazing things 909 00:40:31,304 --> 00:40:35,016 that I can just say about you and us. 910 00:40:35,016 --> 00:40:38,811 I came into this whole process with an open mind 911 00:40:38,811 --> 00:40:41,522 and an open heart. 912 00:40:41,522 --> 00:40:43,232 - Yeah. - But did I know for a fact 913 00:40:43,232 --> 00:40:44,233 at the end of it, I'd be sitting here across from you, 914 00:40:44,233 --> 00:40:46,653 telling you that I'm falling for you 915 00:40:46,653 --> 00:40:46,986 and potentially getting on one knee? 916 00:40:46,986 --> 00:40:49,864 [bleep] No. 917 00:40:49,864 --> 00:40:51,574 Sorry. - [ laughs ] 918 00:40:51,574 --> 00:40:55,828 No, and now I'm here, and it's all so real, and I can see it. 919 00:40:55,828 --> 00:40:57,872 It would be naive of me to say that I couldn't see it. 920 00:40:57,872 --> 00:41:00,166 You know I mean? 921 00:41:00,166 --> 00:41:01,501 Yeah? 922 00:41:07,966 --> 00:41:10,051 - I have something for you. 923 00:41:11,344 --> 00:41:12,887 Do you want to open that? 924 00:41:12,887 --> 00:41:16,474 - [ chuckles ] 925 00:41:16,474 --> 00:41:18,768 "Jenn and Jonathon, I hope you've discovered 926 00:41:18,768 --> 00:41:21,771 that love, much like your date today, 927 00:41:21,771 --> 00:41:25,358 is about the journey as much as the destination. 928 00:41:25,358 --> 00:41:28,194 Should you choose to forgo your individual rooms, 929 00:41:28,194 --> 00:41:31,197 use this key to stay as a couple in the fantasy suite. 930 00:41:31,197 --> 00:41:32,365 Jesse." 931 00:41:32,365 --> 00:41:35,576 - What do you think? 932 00:41:35,576 --> 00:41:36,369 - I would love to spend the night with you. 933 00:41:36,369 --> 00:41:38,454 - I would, too. 934 00:41:41,749 --> 00:41:43,292 JONATHON: Everything feels good right now. 935 00:41:43,292 --> 00:41:47,296 The energy and the feelings and the emotions are just there. 936 00:41:48,965 --> 00:41:51,092 You know, watching somebody that just wants to see 937 00:41:51,092 --> 00:41:53,094 the good in the world and gives it out, 938 00:41:53,094 --> 00:41:55,972 like, those are special kinds of people, 939 00:41:55,972 --> 00:41:59,142 and Jenn is one of those. I'm falling for her, 940 00:41:59,142 --> 00:42:03,604 and the feelings are so far ahead of 941 00:42:03,604 --> 00:42:05,356 where I thought they would even get from night one. 942 00:42:08,401 --> 00:42:09,026 - Should we go? - Yeah, let's get out of here. 943 00:42:13,781 --> 00:42:15,950 Tonight will be some time away from the world 944 00:42:15,950 --> 00:42:20,830 to just breathe together for a second. 945 00:42:20,830 --> 00:42:23,791 I have no doubt in my mind that tomorrow I could wake up 946 00:42:23,791 --> 00:42:28,379 and say, "Hey, this is my person. I'm so in love." 947 00:42:28,379 --> 00:42:30,757 Oh-ho. Some champagne. - Look how cute. 948 00:42:30,757 --> 00:42:32,550 This is so romantic. 949 00:42:32,550 --> 00:42:34,469 I feel incredible. 950 00:42:34,469 --> 00:42:36,971 Today has been such a dream. 951 00:42:36,971 --> 00:42:38,514 Jonathon was able to really finally let those walls down 952 00:42:38,514 --> 00:42:41,184 and fall into his feelings. 953 00:42:41,184 --> 00:42:42,685 It makes me feel really excited 954 00:42:42,685 --> 00:42:46,022 for our relationship to really take that next stop. 955 00:42:47,774 --> 00:42:49,484 Being with him is just easy. 956 00:42:49,484 --> 00:42:51,027 I've always felt like I could be myself. 957 00:42:54,614 --> 00:42:56,282 And having the conversation that we did at dinner, 958 00:42:56,282 --> 00:42:57,950 I felt a lot closer to him. 959 00:42:57,950 --> 00:42:59,869 I felt like I could spend the rest of my life with this guy. 960 00:43:02,747 --> 00:43:08,544 I just know that there's so much more potential to grow. 961 00:43:08,544 --> 00:43:09,837 This is exactly what I've been looking for, 962 00:43:09,837 --> 00:43:10,922 this feeling. 963 00:43:10,922 --> 00:43:13,257 ♪♪ 964 00:43:19,388 --> 00:43:24,644 ♪♪ 965 00:43:24,644 --> 00:43:30,525 ♪♪ 966 00:43:30,525 --> 00:43:34,487 JONATHON: Good morning. JENN: Good morning. 967 00:43:34,487 --> 00:43:35,947 - Feels amazing to wake up next to you. 968 00:43:35,947 --> 00:43:37,740 - Yeah. You, too. 969 00:43:37,740 --> 00:43:38,282 And it felt really nice. 970 00:43:38,282 --> 00:43:40,743 - Agreed. - Yeah. 971 00:43:40,743 --> 00:43:42,703 - It felt natural. Like, everything just flowed. 972 00:43:42,703 --> 00:43:45,915 - It's always natural with us. 973 00:43:45,915 --> 00:43:48,876 - Waking up next to Jenn feels incredible. 974 00:43:48,876 --> 00:43:51,838 We went to bed smiling. 975 00:43:51,838 --> 00:43:53,506 We woke up smiling. 976 00:43:53,506 --> 00:43:55,216 Like... 977 00:43:55,216 --> 00:43:57,343 the vibes, the energy, 978 00:43:57,343 --> 00:43:59,929 the -- the happiness is so through the roof 979 00:43:59,929 --> 00:44:02,056 that, like, we can't contain it. 980 00:44:02,056 --> 00:44:03,182 I can't believe we're here. 981 00:44:03,182 --> 00:44:06,727 - Me either. 982 00:44:06,727 --> 00:44:09,105 Can't believe I'm in bed with mummy man from night one. 983 00:44:09,105 --> 00:44:11,148 [ both chuckle ] 984 00:44:13,234 --> 00:44:16,279 - We had conversations with no words being held back. 985 00:44:16,279 --> 00:44:19,073 Like, it was just, like, letting loose 986 00:44:19,073 --> 00:44:21,158 and enjoying the person that we're choosing to pursue. 987 00:44:23,828 --> 00:44:25,204 JENN: Oh, wow. 988 00:44:25,204 --> 00:44:29,667 - Like, I see the picture of me getting down on one knee. 989 00:44:29,667 --> 00:44:32,587 I see the confidence that I have in what we have, 990 00:44:32,587 --> 00:44:37,717 and I could see this being something absolutely incredible. 991 00:44:37,717 --> 00:44:38,801 You know, I think going into last night, 992 00:44:38,801 --> 00:44:42,346 we had a lot of clarity on who we are, what we wanted, 993 00:44:42,346 --> 00:44:45,308 and what we have together. - Mm-hmm. 994 00:44:45,308 --> 00:44:49,729 - And I just wanted to toast to finding confidence 995 00:44:49,729 --> 00:44:52,648 and feeling as if we're on the right path. 996 00:44:52,648 --> 00:44:52,748 - Cheers. - Cheers. ♪♪ 997 00:44:52,748 --> 00:44:57,111 ♪♪ 998 00:44:57,111 --> 00:45:01,741 ♪♪ 999 00:45:01,741 --> 00:45:06,078 - Waking up this morning, I'm feeling anxious. 1000 00:45:06,078 --> 00:45:07,663 My fantasy suite was great, you know, 1001 00:45:07,663 --> 00:45:09,373 and that's the hard part about all this, 1002 00:45:09,373 --> 00:45:10,416 is that it was so great, 1003 00:45:10,416 --> 00:45:13,294 but I left Jenn with feeling less of myself 1004 00:45:13,294 --> 00:45:15,129 than I did walking into it, 1005 00:45:15,129 --> 00:45:16,005 and that's -- that's the tough part. 1006 00:45:19,467 --> 00:45:23,012 You know, I'm giving out a love that I don't feel 1007 00:45:23,012 --> 00:45:26,724 like I'm getting in return, and I've been an option before. 1008 00:45:26,724 --> 00:45:32,438 You know, I've been the -- the safe bet in past relationships. 1009 00:45:36,234 --> 00:45:37,818 For me to be that second, third option before, 1010 00:45:37,818 --> 00:45:41,447 you know, I don't want to be that second, third option here. 1011 00:45:41,447 --> 00:45:44,242 I mean, Marcus and Jonathon are solid dudes, 1012 00:45:44,242 --> 00:45:47,036 but, um, you know, I want to be prioritized. 1013 00:45:47,036 --> 00:45:49,956 I want to feel like I'm number one, 1014 00:45:49,956 --> 00:45:52,792 and I don't feel like I'm number one. 1015 00:45:52,792 --> 00:45:54,377 I just feel like I'm "one of." 1016 00:45:55,086 --> 00:45:56,087 - See you soon. - Okay. 1017 00:46:01,050 --> 00:46:02,718 DEVIN: I want to be made whole here. 1018 00:46:02,718 --> 00:46:04,345 You know, I don't want to feel like I'm giving pieces away 1019 00:46:04,345 --> 00:46:06,013 that I can't get back. 1020 00:46:07,598 --> 00:46:08,849 I told her I loved her, and I meant that, 1021 00:46:08,849 --> 00:46:12,561 but I didn't get it back. 1022 00:46:12,561 --> 00:46:14,605 And if she turns around and says, 1023 00:46:14,605 --> 00:46:16,732 "I love you," to somebody else, that would kill me inside. 1024 00:46:21,612 --> 00:46:24,615 - Ouf. JESSE: It's heating up. 1025 00:46:24,615 --> 00:46:26,450 So, dude, how are you -- 1026 00:46:26,450 --> 00:46:28,035 how are you feeling about this week? 1027 00:46:28,035 --> 00:46:32,206 - [ sighs ] You know, I think, uh, this is definitely 1028 00:46:32,206 --> 00:46:35,334 the most important week so far. - Yeah. 1029 00:46:35,334 --> 00:46:37,420 - Um, I think I have a lot on my heart, though, 1030 00:46:37,420 --> 00:46:39,714 I think I have a lot on my mind, and there's a lot of answers 1031 00:46:39,714 --> 00:46:41,424 that I still need or a lot of things 1032 00:46:41,424 --> 00:46:42,383 that I need to figure out. - Sure. 1033 00:46:42,383 --> 00:46:44,510 - She's definitely said that she's -- she's falling. 1034 00:46:44,510 --> 00:46:45,928 - Yeah. - I think she's a bit 1035 00:46:45,928 --> 00:46:46,137 - Yeah. - I think she's a bit - Yeah. - Okay. 1036 00:46:46,137 --> 00:46:46,237 - Yeah. - Okay. ahead of me right now. - Really? 1037 00:46:46,237 --> 00:46:48,806 - Yeah. - Okay. 1038 00:46:48,806 --> 00:46:51,559 - Um, I think I spent years just kind of, like, running 1039 00:46:51,559 --> 00:46:53,436 from love and avoiding it. JESSE: Mm-hmm. 1040 00:46:53,436 --> 00:46:55,938 - And my biggest thing is, like, I don't want to miss 1041 00:46:55,938 --> 00:46:57,481 someone incredible sitting right in front of me. 1042 00:46:59,233 --> 00:47:02,361 I'm, like, beyond excited to be here in Hawaii, 1043 00:47:02,361 --> 00:47:06,115 and I'm excited to connect with Jenn. 1044 00:47:06,115 --> 00:47:07,742 All the time that I've spent with her is wonderful 1045 00:47:07,742 --> 00:47:09,744 and everything about her I enjoy. 1046 00:47:09,744 --> 00:47:14,123 But as well as things are going with Jenn and I, like, 1047 00:47:14,123 --> 00:47:16,584 I'm not to the point of being in love yet. 1048 00:47:18,544 --> 00:47:20,671 JESSE: Oh, there it is. MARCUS: Okay, there we go. 1049 00:47:20,671 --> 00:47:22,465 I just haven't had that, I guess, 1050 00:47:22,465 --> 00:47:25,176 epiphany yet or that feeling yet. 1051 00:47:25,176 --> 00:47:28,929 And there's no reason why I shouldn't be feeling that way. 1052 00:47:28,929 --> 00:47:32,058 So I'm doing everything that I can do to -- to get there. 1053 00:47:32,058 --> 00:47:34,769 I think it would be wrong for me to get down on a knee 1054 00:47:34,769 --> 00:47:38,397 right now with how much uncertainty I have 1055 00:47:38,397 --> 00:47:40,274 I think that's why this -- this kind of date coming up 1056 00:47:40,274 --> 00:47:42,568 is going to be super important. 1057 00:47:42,568 --> 00:47:45,321 - Yeah, yeah, I think it's big, too. 1058 00:47:45,321 --> 00:47:47,907 Like, what do you need to -- to hear or see from Jenn 1059 00:47:47,907 --> 00:47:49,241 that you think will help you? 1060 00:47:49,241 --> 00:47:52,203 - [ sighs ] Yeah. 1061 00:47:52,203 --> 00:47:53,704 I mean, I think it's just kind of, um -- 1062 00:47:53,704 --> 00:47:56,707 I want to see what it is that she sees in me and, 1063 00:47:56,707 --> 00:48:00,503 like, maybe kind of peel back the reasons of, you know, 1064 00:48:00,503 --> 00:48:05,132 why she's chosen me throughout this -- this journey. 1065 00:48:05,132 --> 00:48:06,592 - You know how much of an inspiration you are, right? 1066 00:48:09,720 --> 00:48:10,554 - I know that I'm trying. 1067 00:48:10,554 --> 00:48:11,472 - Seriously. 1068 00:48:14,058 --> 00:48:16,227 You've been through so much. 1069 00:48:16,227 --> 00:48:17,686 You deserve to be happy. 1070 00:48:17,686 --> 00:48:20,106 - Yeah, we're -- we're trying, yeah. 1071 00:48:20,106 --> 00:48:21,565 Um... 1072 00:48:24,485 --> 00:48:27,530 You know, I have no idea how this is going to -- to play out, 1073 00:48:27,530 --> 00:48:30,574 but I know that one lesson 1074 00:48:30,574 --> 00:48:31,700 that I've kind of learned throughout my life is, 1075 00:48:31,700 --> 00:48:35,871 when you're the most afraid... - Yeah. 1076 00:48:35,871 --> 00:48:37,873 - ...that's -- that's when it's time to lean in 1077 00:48:37,873 --> 00:48:38,416 and kind of show what you're made of, 1078 00:48:38,416 --> 00:48:42,211 so I'm treating this the -- the same way. 1079 00:48:42,211 --> 00:48:43,170 - Well, it sounds like there's some things you need to hear 1080 00:48:43,170 --> 00:48:46,465 and things you need to see 1081 00:48:46,465 --> 00:48:47,424 before you know for sure that she's the one, 1082 00:48:47,424 --> 00:48:49,927 but I hope you're going to get some answers 1083 00:48:49,927 --> 00:48:50,052 that you're looking for. - Yeah. Thank you. 1084 00:48:53,889 --> 00:48:58,102 I realize how lucky I am, but the conversations that 1085 00:48:58,102 --> 00:49:01,730 I want to have with Jenn are -- are definitely necessary. 1086 00:49:01,730 --> 00:49:03,274 You know, I'm trying to figure out if, 1087 00:49:03,274 --> 00:49:03,899 like, I am in love with her, 1088 00:49:03,899 --> 00:49:06,402 but I'm, like, lying to myself about it, 1089 00:49:06,402 --> 00:49:11,240 um, or if I'm trying to find feelings that just aren't there. 1090 00:49:12,158 --> 00:49:15,202 This date's, like, so important. 1091 00:49:15,202 --> 00:49:18,205 I need to figure out if she's my person, 1092 00:49:18,205 --> 00:49:20,791 or is it time for me to -- to go home? 1093 00:49:26,881 --> 00:49:27,506 [ horn honks ] 1094 00:49:27,506 --> 00:49:31,635 ♪♪ 1095 00:49:31,635 --> 00:49:35,806 ♪♪ 1096 00:49:35,806 --> 00:49:38,225 - Today is my overnight date with Marcus. 1097 00:49:41,812 --> 00:49:44,773 I'm very excited to see Marcus. 1098 00:49:44,773 --> 00:49:46,734 He's been one of my strongest connections since the beginning. 1099 00:49:48,652 --> 00:49:50,905 Marcus and I started off really, really great. 1100 00:49:50,905 --> 00:49:53,115 Since our second one-on-one date together, 1101 00:49:53,115 --> 00:49:54,825 my feelings have really grown and grown. 1102 00:49:54,825 --> 00:49:55,659 And Marcus and I told each other 1103 00:49:55,659 --> 00:49:58,913 we were falling for each other at hometowns. 1104 00:49:58,913 --> 00:50:01,248 But there is a lingering fear 1105 00:50:01,248 --> 00:50:04,418 that I might be emotionally further along than he is. 1106 00:50:05,961 --> 00:50:09,798 But I am confident in how I feel, and I know how I feel. 1107 00:50:09,798 --> 00:50:13,636 I'm in love with Marcus. 1108 00:50:13,636 --> 00:50:16,222 I've been feeling it for a couple weeks now, 1109 00:50:16,222 --> 00:50:18,140 and my hope is that we pick up right where we left off. 1110 00:50:22,061 --> 00:50:24,104 Hey, stranger. MARCUS: Aloha. 1111 00:50:24,104 --> 00:50:25,481 JENN: [ chuckles ] How are ya? 1112 00:50:25,481 --> 00:50:27,274 - Good. You look great. - Thanks. So do you. 1113 00:50:29,276 --> 00:50:31,237 - Oh, my gosh. - How are you? 1114 00:50:31,237 --> 00:50:34,657 - Ooh, hi. - Mm. 1115 00:50:34,657 --> 00:50:36,325 - You look like you, uh, belong on this island. 1116 00:50:36,325 --> 00:50:38,953 - Ah, yeah, yeah, yeah. - You look good. 1117 00:50:38,953 --> 00:50:41,372 Mm. 1118 00:50:41,372 --> 00:50:44,416 - Missed you. - It's been a while, huh? 1119 00:50:44,416 --> 00:50:45,209 - Mm-hmm. - I missed you, too. 1120 00:50:45,209 --> 00:50:47,169 - I was starting to get -- 1121 00:50:47,169 --> 00:50:48,462 to wonder if you were even in Hawaii. 1122 00:50:48,462 --> 00:50:49,964 - If I was still here? - Yeah. 1123 00:50:49,964 --> 00:50:51,715 - I'm still here. Don't worry. - I was like, "Did he go home?" 1124 00:50:51,715 --> 00:50:52,007 - I'm still here. Don't worry. - I was like, "Did he go home?" - Ooh. Any guesses? 1125 00:50:52,007 --> 00:50:52,107 - Ooh. Any guesses? - What do you have planned for us today? 1126 00:50:52,107 --> 00:50:55,177 - Ooh. Any guesses? 1127 00:50:55,177 --> 00:50:57,304 - Does it involve a -- a boat? 1128 00:50:57,304 --> 00:50:58,264 - Potentially. - Yeah? 1129 00:50:58,264 --> 00:50:59,848 - Yeah, no, I have a really, really special day 1130 00:50:59,848 --> 00:51:01,892 planned for us... - Okay. 1131 00:51:01,892 --> 00:51:03,727 - ...and it requires the sun to go down, 1132 00:51:03,727 --> 00:51:07,231 and I'm really excited for it. - Okay. 1133 00:51:07,231 --> 00:51:07,314 and I'm really excited for it. - Okay. - Okay, let's go. - Come on. 1134 00:51:07,314 --> 00:51:07,414 - Okay, let's go. - Come on. - Are you ready to go? - Yeah. 1135 00:51:07,414 --> 00:51:09,400 - Okay, let's go. - Come on. 1136 00:51:09,400 --> 00:51:13,195 - [ chuckles ] I have a really special date 1137 00:51:13,195 --> 00:51:15,406 planned for Marcus and I. 1138 00:51:15,406 --> 00:51:17,658 It's a once in-a-lifetime opportunity, truly, 1139 00:51:17,658 --> 00:51:22,871 and I can't wait. 1140 00:51:22,871 --> 00:51:24,540 Marcus and I just had this connection 1141 00:51:24,540 --> 00:51:29,169 and this natural comfortability to us. 1142 00:51:31,422 --> 00:51:35,259 We have that physical chemistry, that banter. 1143 00:51:35,259 --> 00:51:37,636 - I don't even know why you put that stuff on. 1144 00:51:37,636 --> 00:51:40,639 - So I can look presentable. Then you just take it all off. 1145 00:51:40,639 --> 00:51:42,641 - For 15 seconds and then... Okay. 1146 00:51:42,641 --> 00:51:44,184 - This is your fault. 1147 00:51:44,184 --> 00:51:44,310 You should start wearing lipstick. 1148 00:51:44,310 --> 00:51:46,854 - Just borrow it from me? Yeah? - Yeah. 1149 00:51:46,854 --> 00:51:48,188 I think that's the way to do it. - Alright. 1150 00:51:48,188 --> 00:51:49,273 - Start wearing lipstick. - We can work something out. 1151 00:51:49,273 --> 00:51:51,442 I'm sure. - Mm-hmm. 1152 00:51:51,442 --> 00:51:54,528 When I'm with him, I feel fun and flirty. 1153 00:51:54,528 --> 00:51:56,405 [ both chuckle ] 1154 00:51:56,405 --> 00:52:00,826 It's so easy to be myself with him 1155 00:52:00,826 --> 00:52:02,703 and to have fun and laugh about anything and everything. 1156 00:52:02,703 --> 00:52:04,997 And I'm just excited to be back in his arms. 1157 00:52:08,584 --> 00:52:09,543 You know, I was here when I was 3 years old. 1158 00:52:09,543 --> 00:52:11,503 Well, not here. I was in Honolulu. 1159 00:52:11,503 --> 00:52:12,588 - What? Just by yourself. - By myself. 1160 00:52:12,588 --> 00:52:14,423 - Just wandering the island? 1161 00:52:14,423 --> 00:52:15,299 - Wandering the island all by myself. 1162 00:52:15,299 --> 00:52:19,553 My dad won a free trip to Hawaii on an internet ad 1163 00:52:19,553 --> 00:52:21,305 when I was 3 years old. - [ chuckling ] Oh, my God. 1164 00:52:21,305 --> 00:52:23,098 - And the whole thing -- - When I get the e-mail that's 1165 00:52:23,098 --> 00:52:26,018 like, "You've won a free trip to Hawaii," I'm, like -- 1166 00:52:26,018 --> 00:52:26,769 never click on it. yeah. - Yeah, no, delete. 1167 00:52:26,769 --> 00:52:28,937 Spam. Forever. - Immediately deleted. 1168 00:52:28,937 --> 00:52:29,188 Really? Wow. - Back in the day -- those 1169 00:52:29,188 --> 00:52:31,732 those things were real, back in the day. 1170 00:52:31,732 --> 00:52:34,151 - That's how they get us. Welcome back. 1171 00:52:34,151 --> 00:52:37,154 - Thank you. I'm very excited to be here. 1172 00:52:39,948 --> 00:52:42,951 - The way that Jenn makes me feel is incredible. 1173 00:52:42,951 --> 00:52:45,537 After hometowns, I was kind of on a high, 1174 00:52:45,537 --> 00:52:47,915 and I was feeling really good about Jenn and I, 1175 00:52:47,915 --> 00:52:51,668 but I kind of get in my head and I start to doubt a little bit. 1176 00:52:51,668 --> 00:52:55,964 So I just don't want any of my, like, inner conflict 1177 00:52:55,964 --> 00:52:57,800 to get in the way of just having an amazing day with her. 1178 00:52:57,800 --> 00:52:59,760 - Are you an ocean or a -- or a land boy? 1179 00:52:59,760 --> 00:53:02,429 - If I can pick one... - Yeah, 1180 00:53:02,429 --> 00:53:03,889 - ...probably the land. - Oh. 1181 00:53:03,889 --> 00:53:04,640 - I don't know how long I can tread water for. 1182 00:53:04,640 --> 00:53:06,308 - I want to be a mermaid. 1183 00:53:07,267 --> 00:53:08,519 - You kind of look like one today. 1184 00:53:08,519 --> 00:53:10,771 - Thank you. - Yeah. 1185 00:53:10,771 --> 00:53:13,649 Every time I'm not with her, I think I have 1186 00:53:13,649 --> 00:53:16,235 all these conflictions between my mind and my heart. 1187 00:53:16,235 --> 00:53:18,779 And then when we kind of get into our dates, 1188 00:53:18,779 --> 00:53:20,155 like, all that stuff goes out the window, 1189 00:53:20,155 --> 00:53:22,866 and I'm just in the moment, having fun with Jenn, 1190 00:53:22,866 --> 00:53:24,535 and I feel good when I'm around her. 1191 00:53:24,535 --> 00:53:28,372 Hometowns went better than I expected. 1192 00:53:28,372 --> 00:53:30,749 It's been pretty hard for me to kind of picture... 1193 00:53:30,749 --> 00:53:33,127 - Mm-hmm. - ...how our lives 1194 00:53:33,127 --> 00:53:35,921 can, like, fit together... - Yeah. 1195 00:53:35,921 --> 00:53:37,881 - ...and I think that, coming away from hometowns, 1196 00:53:37,881 --> 00:53:40,092 like, it was a little -- little sneak peak for -- for me, 1197 00:53:40,092 --> 00:53:41,760 and, um -- - Yeah. Me, too. 1198 00:53:41,760 --> 00:53:45,764 - Everyone was so fun and nice and so, like -- I don't know. 1199 00:53:45,764 --> 00:53:47,099 I felt, like, really, really comfortable 1200 00:53:47,099 --> 00:53:49,143 with them all... - Yeah. 1201 00:53:49,143 --> 00:53:50,894 - ...which I really appreciated. - No, good. 1202 00:53:50,894 --> 00:53:53,188 - And I -- I mean, I had a blast. 1203 00:53:53,188 --> 00:53:55,315 I think I was scared that it was going to go so well, 1204 00:53:55,315 --> 00:53:56,483 which is why I was so nervous. 1205 00:53:56,483 --> 00:53:59,194 - What do you mean? - Well, I don't know. 1206 00:53:59,194 --> 00:54:01,822 I think when you bring family into it all, 1207 00:54:01,822 --> 00:54:03,115 like, I knew it was going to feel really real. 1208 00:54:03,115 --> 00:54:06,285 - Mm. - Um, and, yeah, 1209 00:54:06,285 --> 00:54:08,662 I just feel like my feelings for you grew a lot that day, 1210 00:54:08,662 --> 00:54:09,496 and I was scared of that. - Yeah. 1211 00:54:09,496 --> 00:54:12,958 - Um, but it was a good thing. - Yeah, I mean, 1212 00:54:12,958 --> 00:54:14,877 I feel closer now than... - Mm-hmm. 1213 00:54:14,877 --> 00:54:17,087 - ...I have in a really long time. 1214 00:54:17,087 --> 00:54:18,714 - Mm-hmm. - Um, 1215 00:54:18,714 --> 00:54:21,258 but, yeah, it's also a bit, uh -- 1216 00:54:21,258 --> 00:54:23,635 - Scary? - It can be terrifying. 1217 00:54:23,635 --> 00:54:23,969 - Yeah, absolutely. I'm right there with you. 1218 00:54:23,969 --> 00:54:27,306 - Yeah. - Yeah. 1219 00:54:27,306 --> 00:54:29,516 I'm excited for today, though. 1220 00:54:29,516 --> 00:54:31,685 So since the sun is setting, 1221 00:54:31,685 --> 00:54:35,898 we're going to jump in and go snorkeling 1222 00:54:35,898 --> 00:54:36,315 with some of the manta rays, 1223 00:54:36,315 --> 00:54:38,484 and they light up at night. 1224 00:54:38,484 --> 00:54:40,152 - They do not. - They do. 1225 00:54:40,152 --> 00:54:40,819 It's going to be really cool. 1226 00:54:40,819 --> 00:54:42,446 Yeah. - What? 1227 00:54:42,446 --> 00:54:44,698 - Isn't that crazy? - That's insane. 1228 00:54:44,698 --> 00:54:46,283 They're down there right now? - I think so. 1229 00:54:46,283 --> 00:54:46,909 I've never done anything like this before. 1230 00:54:46,909 --> 00:54:49,161 - Oh, my gosh. - I've always wanted to, though. 1231 00:54:49,161 --> 00:54:49,411 - This is going to be, I think, incredible. 1232 00:54:49,411 --> 00:54:52,164 - It's going to be beautiful. - Yeah. 1233 00:54:52,164 --> 00:54:54,666 JENN: Getting to have this beautiful experience with Marcus 1234 00:54:54,666 --> 00:54:56,960 just -- I don't know. It just feels so romantic. 1235 00:54:56,960 --> 00:55:02,674 ♪♪ 1236 00:55:02,674 --> 00:55:06,637 When we're together, it just feels right, 1237 00:55:06,637 --> 00:55:10,098 and we have this unspoken connection almost. 1238 00:55:10,098 --> 00:55:12,476 There's, like, a certain depth to our relationship. 1239 00:55:12,476 --> 00:55:16,813 ♪♪ 1240 00:55:16,813 --> 00:55:21,109 ♪♪ 1241 00:55:21,109 --> 00:55:26,907 ♪♪ 1242 00:55:26,907 --> 00:55:31,203 ♪♪ 1243 00:55:31,203 --> 00:55:31,828 Whoo! 1244 00:55:31,828 --> 00:55:37,876 ♪♪ 1245 00:55:37,876 --> 00:55:44,007 ♪♪ 1246 00:55:44,007 --> 00:55:45,842 I feel so much closer with Marcus. 1247 00:55:45,842 --> 00:55:48,845 He has this comforting, calm energy. 1248 00:55:48,845 --> 00:55:52,849 He is just there for me. He's stable. He's grounded. 1249 00:55:52,849 --> 00:55:54,017 He makes me feel at peace. 1250 00:55:54,017 --> 00:55:57,813 ♪♪ 1251 00:55:57,813 --> 00:56:01,650 ♪♪ 1252 00:56:01,650 --> 00:56:03,360 To have Marcus here and be someone 1253 00:56:03,360 --> 00:56:05,612 that I feel so strongly about and confident about 1254 00:56:05,612 --> 00:56:08,448 makes me feel really reassured. 1255 00:56:08,448 --> 00:56:10,117 I just hope that tonight our relationship continues 1256 00:56:10,117 --> 00:56:11,618 to grow even more. 1257 00:56:13,328 --> 00:56:16,456 - Oh, a shooting star. - [ gasps ] 1258 00:56:16,456 --> 00:56:18,375 - See that? - I can't believe it. 1259 00:56:18,375 --> 00:56:19,751 - That was so bright. - That's crazy. 1260 00:56:23,463 --> 00:56:27,342 JESSE: Are you ready to dive deep into love? 1261 00:56:27,342 --> 00:56:27,759 Apply to be on the next season of The Bachelor or Bachelorette 1262 00:56:27,759 --> 00:56:29,928 at ABC.com/casting. 1263 00:56:29,928 --> 00:56:34,808 ♪♪ 1264 00:56:34,808 --> 00:56:39,313 ♪♪ 1265 00:56:39,313 --> 00:56:41,898 - Kona. 1266 00:56:41,898 --> 00:56:43,775 -Oh, we're right here. Oh, a little outside picnic. 1267 00:56:43,775 --> 00:56:46,445 JENN: Oh. Oh, cute. MARCUS: Lucky us. 1268 00:56:46,445 --> 00:56:48,864 JENN: Today was an amazing day. 1269 00:56:48,864 --> 00:56:50,741 With Marcus, we've had so many special moments. 1270 00:56:50,741 --> 00:56:52,993 I mean, our connection is so strong, 1271 00:56:52,993 --> 00:56:55,662 so I am in love with him, 1272 00:56:55,662 --> 00:56:57,539 and to not tell him at this point 1273 00:56:57,539 --> 00:57:01,543 would be a disservice to our relationship. 1274 00:57:01,543 --> 00:57:03,295 Thank you. 1275 00:57:03,295 --> 00:57:06,131 So, tonight, I really need for him to let his walls down 1276 00:57:06,131 --> 00:57:09,885 and to not shy away from expressing 1277 00:57:09,885 --> 00:57:12,387 exactly how he feels about me. 1278 00:57:12,387 --> 00:57:14,473 I want to be able to fully explore this relationship, 1279 00:57:14,473 --> 00:57:17,100 and I see him there at the end of this all, 1280 00:57:17,100 --> 00:57:21,396 so I can only hope that he feels the same way. 1281 00:57:21,396 --> 00:57:23,315 - I think red's your color, by the way. 1282 00:57:23,315 --> 00:57:25,692 - Thanks. - It's giving, like, 1283 00:57:25,692 --> 00:57:27,069 Ferrari right now. Very sexy. Yeah. 1284 00:57:27,069 --> 00:57:31,156 - Thank you. Thank you. 1285 00:57:31,156 --> 00:57:31,698 Do you want to do a little toast? 1286 00:57:31,698 --> 00:57:35,452 - Little toast? Yeah. - [ sighs ] 1287 00:57:35,452 --> 00:57:36,495 - So I think this date's been a long time coming. 1288 00:57:36,495 --> 00:57:38,789 - Yes. - Um... 1289 00:57:38,789 --> 00:57:44,753 I did miss you a lot while we were away, but, 1290 00:57:44,753 --> 00:57:47,756 yeah, I think every time that we get together, 1291 00:57:47,756 --> 00:57:50,342 we create another memory, and we have another -- 1292 00:57:50,342 --> 00:57:52,302 I feel like it's always another once-in-a-lifetime opportunity, 1293 00:57:52,302 --> 00:57:54,971 every date we go on. - [ chuckles ] 1294 00:57:54,971 --> 00:57:56,348 - So, yeah, I'm happy today. 1295 00:57:56,348 --> 00:57:59,351 So I think to -- to being happy. Yeah. 1296 00:57:59,351 --> 00:58:01,770 - Cheers. I love that. 1297 00:58:07,109 --> 00:58:07,901 How are you feeling? 1298 00:58:10,362 --> 00:58:13,782 - Um, I think, uh, a bit nervous. 1299 00:58:13,782 --> 00:58:17,285 - Why? - Well... [ sighs ] 1300 00:58:17,285 --> 00:58:20,122 The last time I saw you was at the rose ceremony. 1301 00:58:20,122 --> 00:58:22,999 - Yeah. 1302 00:58:22,999 --> 00:58:25,752 - And that wasn't an easy one for me. 1303 00:58:25,752 --> 00:58:26,211 - Mm-hmm. - You know, 1304 00:58:26,211 --> 00:58:28,255 my name hadn't been called yet, 1305 00:58:28,255 --> 00:58:31,216 and I think that that was really hard for me 1306 00:58:31,216 --> 00:58:33,719 because I think, this entire experience, 1307 00:58:33,719 --> 00:58:39,266 I've been confidently standing on our connection 1308 00:58:39,266 --> 00:58:41,393 and, like, not really... - Mm-hmm. 1309 00:58:41,393 --> 00:58:42,686 - ...you know, worrying too much. 1310 00:58:42,686 --> 00:58:46,481 But I think, for the first time in this crazy experience, 1311 00:58:46,481 --> 00:58:49,568 I realized that it's not a given 1312 00:58:49,568 --> 00:58:52,070 that I'm going to have another week 1313 00:58:52,070 --> 00:58:55,031 and that I can be in the middle of trying and still go home. 1314 00:58:57,451 --> 00:58:59,369 And I think that got to me. 1315 00:58:59,369 --> 00:59:01,496 - Mm. 1316 00:59:01,496 --> 00:59:04,291 You didn't have confidence in us in that moment 1317 00:59:04,291 --> 00:59:07,002 because of, like, our relationship and -- 1318 00:59:07,002 --> 00:59:09,713 or because of how you felt? 1319 00:59:09,713 --> 00:59:12,674 - That night was, like, the first time 1320 00:59:12,674 --> 00:59:17,262 that I think I kind of got in my head and, like, it was -- 1321 00:59:17,262 --> 00:59:19,681 it was kind of hard for me to recover from that. 1322 00:59:21,475 --> 00:59:26,062 You know, I think, uh, when we were in Seattle, 1323 00:59:26,062 --> 00:59:28,106 I shared a little bit about what it was like 1324 00:59:28,106 --> 00:59:30,609 for me growing up. - Mm-hmm. 1325 00:59:30,609 --> 00:59:34,696 - And I think with, like, an engagement 1326 00:59:34,696 --> 00:59:38,366 and getting on a knee and, like, proposing is something 1327 00:59:38,366 --> 00:59:40,952 that I only want to do once. 1328 00:59:40,952 --> 00:59:44,122 - Mm-hmm. 1329 00:59:44,122 --> 00:59:47,834 - You know, I know what it was like for me growing up, 1330 00:59:47,834 --> 00:59:49,503 and I have a good idea of -- 1331 00:59:49,503 --> 00:59:52,047 you know, you shared a little bit about what it was like 1332 00:59:52,047 --> 00:59:54,007 for you growing up. And I think 1333 00:59:54,007 --> 00:59:57,344 one of the most important things in the world, 1334 00:59:57,344 --> 01:00:01,598 to me, is being a good husband and a -- and a good father 1335 01:00:01,598 --> 01:00:04,100 and being present as a -- as a husband 1336 01:00:04,100 --> 01:00:06,436 and being present as a father. - Mm-hmm. 1337 01:00:06,436 --> 01:00:09,606 - And, you know, that's something 1338 01:00:09,606 --> 01:00:14,653 that I want to feel certain about... 1339 01:00:14,653 --> 01:00:15,612 - Mm-hmm. MARCUS: ...and, uh... 1340 01:00:15,612 --> 01:00:18,865 like, have that confidence in myself 1341 01:00:18,865 --> 01:00:20,033 and how I feel and confidence in my partner. 1342 01:00:23,745 --> 01:00:28,959 And I think... 1343 01:00:28,959 --> 01:00:33,505 I think that there's so much potential right now. 1344 01:00:33,505 --> 01:00:36,800 And, like, there's been a lot of things that have, 1345 01:00:36,800 --> 01:00:39,219 like, aligned with us 1346 01:00:39,219 --> 01:00:44,224 that I've, like, really never experienced with anyone. 1347 01:00:47,602 --> 01:00:51,147 Jenn, you're driven, you're ambitious, 1348 01:00:51,147 --> 01:00:54,317 you've pulled yourself up just as many times as I have, 1349 01:00:54,317 --> 01:00:56,152 if not more. 1350 01:00:57,445 --> 01:00:59,197 I've really -- I've never met anyone like you. 1351 01:01:02,242 --> 01:01:04,828 And I think... 1352 01:01:04,828 --> 01:01:07,455 [ sighs ] Sorry. Um... 1353 01:01:07,455 --> 01:01:08,456 JENN: It's okay. 1354 01:01:13,879 --> 01:01:15,755 MARCUS: When I'm with Jenn, things are great, things are fine. 1355 01:01:15,755 --> 01:01:19,426 but I feel like I've had all this kind of, 1356 01:01:19,426 --> 01:01:21,678 like, uncertainty and, like, doubt. 1357 01:01:21,678 --> 01:01:24,681 I come from, you know, a broken family, 1358 01:01:24,681 --> 01:01:28,101 and the one thing that I want to get right in my life 1359 01:01:28,101 --> 01:01:30,854 is be in a relationship with someone 1360 01:01:30,854 --> 01:01:34,107 and raise a family with someone where there is not -- 1361 01:01:34,107 --> 01:01:35,108 there's no doubt. 1362 01:01:36,610 --> 01:01:39,529 I'm not in love with Jenn right now. 1363 01:01:39,529 --> 01:01:41,406 I think it's just scary to tell someone something 1364 01:01:41,406 --> 01:01:43,366 that they probably, like, don't want to hear. 1365 01:01:47,078 --> 01:01:49,706 Yeah, I think -- I think, at the end of the day, 1366 01:01:49,706 --> 01:01:52,083 like, I think what -- why I'm worried is 1367 01:01:52,083 --> 01:01:54,419 because I have -- like, I feel, like, unsure. 1368 01:01:54,419 --> 01:01:59,841 And you deserve someone that is sure about you. 1369 01:02:04,179 --> 01:02:06,973 Yeah. And I think it's just, uh... 1370 01:02:08,934 --> 01:02:10,393 I don't know if I'm, like, putting pressure on myself 1371 01:02:10,393 --> 01:02:12,062 because of, uh... 1372 01:02:14,272 --> 01:02:18,777 ...you know, like, how fast this process has been 1373 01:02:18,777 --> 01:02:23,657 or, you know, like, how quickly, you know, 1374 01:02:23,657 --> 01:02:28,745 the -- the end of this process is approaching, but... 1375 01:02:28,745 --> 01:02:32,791 ♪♪ 1376 01:02:32,791 --> 01:02:36,753 ♪♪ 1377 01:02:36,753 --> 01:02:40,966 ...it's been hard for me to get to a point 1378 01:02:40,966 --> 01:02:44,135 where I feel, like, comfortable 1379 01:02:44,135 --> 01:02:47,430 saying that I'm, like, in love. 1380 01:02:47,430 --> 01:02:49,683 ♪♪ 1381 01:02:49,683 --> 01:02:53,395 ♪♪ 1382 01:02:53,395 --> 01:02:54,938 JENN: Um... 1383 01:02:54,938 --> 01:02:59,901 ♪♪ 1384 01:02:59,901 --> 01:03:03,488 ♪♪ 1385 01:03:03,488 --> 01:03:04,280 [ sighs ] 1386 01:03:09,369 --> 01:03:13,498 ♪♪ 1387 01:03:13,498 --> 01:03:17,919 - It's been hard for me to get to a point 1388 01:03:17,919 --> 01:03:20,296 where I feel, like, comfortable 1389 01:03:20,296 --> 01:03:23,383 saying that I'm, like, in love. 1390 01:03:23,383 --> 01:03:25,885 ♪♪ 1391 01:03:25,885 --> 01:03:29,889 ♪♪ 1392 01:03:29,889 --> 01:03:31,599 JENN: Um... 1393 01:03:31,599 --> 01:03:36,521 ♪♪ 1394 01:03:36,521 --> 01:03:42,944 ♪♪ 1395 01:03:42,944 --> 01:03:44,946 [ sighs ] 1396 01:03:44,946 --> 01:03:48,867 ♪♪ 1397 01:03:48,867 --> 01:03:51,077 - And I'm sorry that... 1398 01:03:51,077 --> 01:03:52,579 - Don't have to apologize. 1399 01:03:52,579 --> 01:03:54,831 You're not doing anything wrong. 1400 01:03:54,831 --> 01:03:56,332 You're being you, 1401 01:03:56,332 --> 01:03:58,334 and you're following your heart 1402 01:03:58,334 --> 01:04:00,920 and whatever that means to you, and I get that. 1403 01:04:00,920 --> 01:04:05,467 ♪♪ 1404 01:04:05,467 --> 01:04:12,891 ♪♪ 1405 01:04:12,891 --> 01:04:14,642 I think there's many layers to being in love, 1406 01:04:14,642 --> 01:04:16,394 and there's... 1407 01:04:17,562 --> 01:04:17,854 ...a lot... 1408 01:04:18,813 --> 01:04:21,024 ...of... 1409 01:04:23,943 --> 01:04:24,652 There's a lot of different phases of love, and... 1410 01:04:28,656 --> 01:04:30,742 I would be lying if I didn't tell you 1411 01:04:30,742 --> 01:04:31,659 that I am in love with you. 1412 01:04:33,745 --> 01:04:35,914 And the way that you make me feel, 1413 01:04:35,914 --> 01:04:39,000 and the way that we have had so many moments 1414 01:04:39,000 --> 01:04:42,253 in which I can't even explain it 1415 01:04:42,253 --> 01:04:44,380 but felt so comfortable with you 1416 01:04:44,380 --> 01:04:49,302 and felt so close to you. 1417 01:04:49,302 --> 01:04:51,137 Felt like I needed to say that to get it off my chest, 1418 01:04:51,137 --> 01:04:54,140 and not necessarily for you to say anything, 1419 01:04:54,140 --> 01:04:58,895 but because I would be doing myself at disservice 1420 01:04:58,895 --> 01:05:00,980 in not saying how I truly feel. 1421 01:05:00,980 --> 01:05:03,024 So...yeah. 1422 01:05:07,237 --> 01:05:09,239 - [ breathes shakily ] 1423 01:05:09,239 --> 01:05:14,410 ♪♪ 1424 01:05:14,410 --> 01:05:19,624 ♪♪ 1425 01:05:19,624 --> 01:05:24,254 ♪♪ 1426 01:05:24,254 --> 01:05:28,883 ♪♪ 1427 01:05:28,883 --> 01:05:30,885 [ sniffles ] 1428 01:05:30,885 --> 01:05:36,808 ♪♪ 1429 01:05:36,808 --> 01:05:40,979 There's, like, a part of me that still wants to, like, 1430 01:05:40,979 --> 01:05:43,106 guard myself 'cause, like, we're not at the end yet. 1431 01:05:43,106 --> 01:05:44,524 [ sniffling ] 1432 01:05:44,524 --> 01:05:45,817 But, uh... 1433 01:05:45,817 --> 01:05:47,819 [ sniffles ] 1434 01:05:47,819 --> 01:05:49,404 ...you know, try as hard as I can, 1435 01:05:49,404 --> 01:05:53,950 and I'm going to keep doing that even... 1436 01:05:53,950 --> 01:05:55,368 [ sniffles ] 1437 01:05:55,368 --> 01:05:57,495 ...you know, when I am feeling, 1438 01:05:57,495 --> 01:05:59,497 like, a bit afraid [ sniffles ] or uncertain. 1439 01:06:02,208 --> 01:06:04,210 [ sniffles ] 1440 01:06:05,003 --> 01:06:09,007 [ sniffles ] 1441 01:06:09,007 --> 01:06:11,259 But I am trying. - I know you are. 1442 01:06:11,259 --> 01:06:13,553 And I see that every time that we're together. 1443 01:06:13,553 --> 01:06:16,014 And I know that it's hard for you. 1444 01:06:16,014 --> 01:06:19,100 And I want to do everything 1445 01:06:19,100 --> 01:06:20,977 that I can to -- to be able to continue to be there for you 1446 01:06:20,977 --> 01:06:22,437 and to help make this easier for you. 1447 01:06:22,437 --> 01:06:25,273 And I want you to be confident in us. 1448 01:06:25,273 --> 01:06:26,524 - Yeah. - And I want you to feel, 1449 01:06:26,524 --> 01:06:29,068 like... 1450 01:06:29,068 --> 01:06:33,198 ...there's something that is unique and special 1451 01:06:33,198 --> 01:06:34,532 and makes you want to jump in. 1452 01:06:34,532 --> 01:06:35,575 Um... 1453 01:06:39,537 --> 01:06:41,080 Yeah. 1454 01:06:42,040 --> 01:06:44,834 - You make me feel amazing. 1455 01:06:44,834 --> 01:06:48,296 You really do. 1456 01:06:48,296 --> 01:06:49,964 That means the world to me that you just said that. 1457 01:06:49,964 --> 01:06:55,887 ♪♪ 1458 01:06:55,887 --> 01:06:57,555 I guess, like, the biggest thing 1459 01:06:57,555 --> 01:06:57,639 I guess, like, the biggest thing even though I'm not there yet, 1460 01:06:57,639 --> 01:06:57,739 even though I'm not there yet, that I want you to know is, like, 1461 01:06:57,739 --> 01:07:02,227 even though I'm not there yet, 1462 01:07:02,227 --> 01:07:04,854 I would not be sitting in front of you right now 1463 01:07:04,854 --> 01:07:06,314 if I didn't think that it was possible. 1464 01:07:07,649 --> 01:07:10,652 So I want to... 1465 01:07:10,652 --> 01:07:12,820 just continue to be, 1466 01:07:12,820 --> 01:07:13,655 like, hopeful. 1467 01:07:17,367 --> 01:07:18,743 You -- You deserve all the love in the world, 1468 01:07:18,743 --> 01:07:20,411 and I'm trying to get there. 1469 01:07:22,830 --> 01:07:24,791 I'm, like, hopeful. 1470 01:07:24,791 --> 01:07:27,252 I -- I feel so grateful to still be here. 1471 01:07:27,252 --> 01:07:29,712 Jenn says that she is in love with me. 1472 01:07:29,712 --> 01:07:32,632 And that was, like, one thing 1473 01:07:32,632 --> 01:07:36,135 that I didn't know I needed to hear until I heard it. 1474 01:07:36,135 --> 01:07:38,304 And it does make me realize 1475 01:07:38,304 --> 01:07:41,557 how important our connection is to her. 1476 01:07:41,557 --> 01:07:42,517 [ sighs ] 1477 01:07:45,853 --> 01:07:48,606 - I have something for you. Do you want to read it? 1478 01:07:48,606 --> 01:07:50,900 - [ chuckles ] Yeah, I do. 1479 01:07:55,613 --> 01:07:58,825 Says, "Jenn and Marcus..." - Mm-hmm. 1480 01:07:58,825 --> 01:08:03,955 MARCUS: "...I hope seeing the manta rays tonight reminds you that wonder, 1481 01:08:03,955 --> 01:08:07,333 much like love, can be found unexpectedly. 1482 01:08:07,333 --> 01:08:11,379 Should you choose to forgo your individual rooms, 1483 01:08:11,379 --> 01:08:15,550 please use this key to stay as a couple in the fantasy suite." 1484 01:08:15,550 --> 01:08:16,926 What do you think? 1485 01:08:16,926 --> 01:08:17,260 - What do you think? 1486 01:08:20,138 --> 01:08:20,680 - Yeah, to spend the night with you, 1487 01:08:20,680 --> 01:08:24,934 I think, would be, um, hugely beneficial. 1488 01:08:24,934 --> 01:08:28,563 - I think it'll be a really good time for growth 1489 01:08:28,563 --> 01:08:29,772 for the two of us. 1490 01:08:31,899 --> 01:08:31,983 - Alright, let's do it. 1491 01:08:31,983 --> 01:08:32,083 - Alright, let's do it. - I agree. 1492 01:08:32,083 --> 01:08:33,526 - Alright, let's do it. 1493 01:08:33,526 --> 01:08:37,071 - Shall we? - Yeah. 1494 01:08:37,071 --> 01:08:40,491 MARCUS: Having that alone time with Jenn is massively important. 1495 01:08:40,491 --> 01:08:44,454 Jenn knows how she feels, 1496 01:08:44,454 --> 01:08:47,373 and I'm looking forward to getting to a point 1497 01:08:47,373 --> 01:08:51,377 where I feel as certain about her as she does about me. 1498 01:08:53,880 --> 01:08:56,549 Best case scenario, like, I do find 1499 01:08:56,549 --> 01:08:58,801 that clarity, that confidence that I'm looking for, 1500 01:08:58,801 --> 01:09:01,304 and there is a love story at the end of this. 1501 01:09:01,304 --> 01:09:03,681 That's why I'm still here. 1502 01:09:03,681 --> 01:09:04,057 That's why I'm still trying. 1503 01:09:08,353 --> 01:09:09,896 Is this us? 1504 01:09:09,896 --> 01:09:10,355 JENN: I think this is us. 1505 01:09:10,355 --> 01:09:13,608 - [ chuckling ] Okay. - [ chuckles ] 1506 01:09:13,608 --> 01:09:16,402 - If Jenn and I make it through this, 1507 01:09:16,402 --> 01:09:18,696 I would feel like the struggle to find love 1508 01:09:18,696 --> 01:09:21,532 was worth all the discomfort to -- to get there. 1509 01:09:21,532 --> 01:09:24,077 I'm happy that I was honest with you, 1510 01:09:24,077 --> 01:09:26,204 and I do believe in us. 1511 01:09:29,332 --> 01:09:30,958 I want to be here unless I don't believe in us, so... 1512 01:09:32,085 --> 01:09:33,294 ...just thank you for tonight. 1513 01:09:35,963 --> 01:09:41,094 - Cheers. 1514 01:09:41,094 --> 01:09:41,594 - [ speaks indistinctly ] 1515 01:09:41,594 --> 01:09:47,975 ♪♪ 1516 01:09:47,975 --> 01:09:50,061 JENN: I am in love with Marcus. 1517 01:09:50,061 --> 01:09:52,563 My biggest hope is that he is in love with me 1518 01:09:52,563 --> 01:09:57,026 by the end of the week and he does want to propose. 1519 01:09:57,026 --> 01:10:01,406 I could see myself living a very happy life with Marcus. 1520 01:10:01,406 --> 01:10:02,949 I feel so hopeful for our future. 1521 01:10:09,580 --> 01:10:15,545 ♪♪ 1522 01:10:15,545 --> 01:10:18,506 MARCUS: Good morning. [ Marcus and Jenn chuckle ] 1523 01:10:18,506 --> 01:10:18,840 - How are you feeling this morning? 1524 01:10:18,840 --> 01:10:20,633 - Um, feeling really good. - Yeah? 1525 01:10:20,633 --> 01:10:23,594 - Really grateful. - Mm-hmm. 1526 01:10:23,594 --> 01:10:27,306 -I feel like our date yesterday was awesome, and I feel like... 1527 01:10:27,306 --> 01:10:28,933 - Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. - ...we needed last night and -- 1528 01:10:28,933 --> 01:10:31,769 talk about a lot of the things that were weighing on me. 1529 01:10:31,769 --> 01:10:35,940 And I appreciate, you know, how well you took everything. 1530 01:10:35,940 --> 01:10:37,108 - Mm-hmm. 1531 01:10:37,108 --> 01:10:40,736 - Waking up next to Jenn this morning feels magical. 1532 01:10:40,736 --> 01:10:41,946 The, uh -- We had the ocean out in front of us, 1533 01:10:41,946 --> 01:10:45,074 the sun shining, the birds chirping. 1534 01:10:45,074 --> 01:10:46,451 - Mm. - MARCUS: Last night was, 1535 01:10:46,451 --> 01:10:49,495 I think, hugely beneficial to the both of us. 1536 01:10:49,495 --> 01:10:52,123 Hearing that Jenn is in love with me 1537 01:10:52,123 --> 01:10:54,125 means the world to me. 1538 01:10:54,125 --> 01:10:55,460 I've been falling for Jenn, 1539 01:10:55,460 --> 01:10:58,504 and every time that I get to spend with her, 1540 01:10:58,504 --> 01:11:00,548 I feel, you know, a little more strongly about her. 1541 01:11:00,548 --> 01:11:01,466 - Oh, my goodness. 1542 01:11:01,466 --> 01:11:04,760 - I just have to meet her where she's at, 1543 01:11:04,760 --> 01:11:07,513 and I think that, like, the sky's the limit with us. 1544 01:11:07,513 --> 01:11:10,475 So I definitely feel a little bit more hopeful. 1545 01:11:10,475 --> 01:11:15,271 So I know that this is going to be the last time 1546 01:11:15,271 --> 01:11:17,523 I see you before, uh, the next rose ceremony. 1547 01:11:17,523 --> 01:11:18,733 - Mm-hmm. 1548 01:11:18,733 --> 01:11:21,360 - And I just want you to know 1549 01:11:21,360 --> 01:11:22,403 that last night and this morning 1550 01:11:22,403 --> 01:11:26,240 was extremely special to me. 1551 01:11:26,240 --> 01:11:29,368 And it definitely, uh -- it helps me 1552 01:11:29,368 --> 01:11:31,120 with some of the doubts that I was having. 1553 01:11:31,120 --> 01:11:34,332 - Okay. Makes me feel better. 1554 01:11:34,332 --> 01:11:36,501 [ chuckles ] What do you think? 1555 01:11:36,501 --> 01:11:38,002 Honesty is always, like, the best thing, 1556 01:11:38,002 --> 01:11:39,629 and I would never want you to lie to me 1557 01:11:39,629 --> 01:11:40,880 and not tell me how you're feeling. 1558 01:11:40,880 --> 01:11:45,426 And think it's always good to just talk about it, so... 1559 01:11:45,426 --> 01:11:49,430 - Yeah, I think it was, um -- it was a good step for us. 1560 01:11:49,430 --> 01:11:50,806 -Yeah. 1561 01:11:50,806 --> 01:11:53,267 - There's something on your lip. - Mm-hmm. 1562 01:11:57,104 --> 01:11:58,898 Feels so good waking up next to him. 1563 01:11:58,898 --> 01:12:02,235 And I could really see Marcus as someone being 1564 01:12:02,235 --> 01:12:04,570 at the end of this all, and I want that for us. 1565 01:12:04,570 --> 01:12:05,780 - [ chuckles ] 1566 01:12:05,780 --> 01:12:07,448 JENN: Like, I am in love with him 1567 01:12:07,448 --> 01:12:10,034 and I told him last night 1568 01:12:10,034 --> 01:12:12,662 and I think we just had a really good night together. 1569 01:12:12,662 --> 01:12:14,789 [ both chuckle ] Come here. 1570 01:12:14,789 --> 01:12:18,167 - I'm gonna miss you. - I'll miss you, too. 1571 01:12:18,167 --> 01:12:19,585 I'll see you soon. - Mm-hmm. 1572 01:12:21,838 --> 01:12:24,215 Don't start thinking too much. 1573 01:12:27,426 --> 01:12:30,888 But it's terrifying to be in love with someone 1574 01:12:30,888 --> 01:12:31,931 who isn't there yet. 1575 01:12:31,931 --> 01:12:33,850 Bye. - Bye. 1576 01:12:33,850 --> 01:12:36,310 JENN: I do have hope for Marcus and I, 1577 01:12:36,310 --> 01:12:37,812 but I need him to get there, 1578 01:12:37,812 --> 01:12:39,522 because meeting the family is next week, 1579 01:12:39,522 --> 01:12:41,023 uh, proposal is next week, 1580 01:12:41,023 --> 01:12:44,068 and I want to be able to be confident 1581 01:12:44,068 --> 01:12:45,361 in the person standing across from me. 1582 01:12:48,447 --> 01:12:51,659 Bye. - Goodbye, Jenn. I'll miss you. 1583 01:12:51,659 --> 01:12:53,077 JENN: It's getting harder every day that I'm here 1584 01:12:53,077 --> 01:12:57,290 because I do have such strong feelings for all three of them. 1585 01:12:57,290 --> 01:13:01,210 There's just so much that I have to handle emotionally. 1586 01:13:01,210 --> 01:13:03,337 I just want to be able to really keep it together, 1587 01:13:03,337 --> 01:13:06,257 because things can change daily 1588 01:13:06,257 --> 01:13:09,343 and it'll be sad to lose somebody that I do love. 1589 01:13:09,343 --> 01:13:13,639 ♪♪ 1590 01:13:13,639 --> 01:13:19,353 ♪♪ 1591 01:13:19,353 --> 01:13:26,611 ♪♪ 1592 01:13:26,611 --> 01:13:29,030 DEVIN: This whole thing has been a roller coaster for me. 1593 01:13:29,030 --> 01:13:31,449 Since leaving my fantasy suite, I've felt... 1594 01:13:32,950 --> 01:13:35,244 [ sighs ] 1595 01:13:35,244 --> 01:13:38,247 ...jaded in a way that, like, I don't know how to feel anymore 1596 01:13:38,247 --> 01:13:41,417 and it's all consumed me. 1597 01:13:41,417 --> 01:13:45,463 You know, I-I-I do love Jenn, but I-I -- 1598 01:13:45,463 --> 01:13:48,382 you know, you can only love somebody like that for so long 1599 01:13:48,382 --> 01:13:50,134 without getting it back before it just... 1600 01:13:52,595 --> 01:13:54,555 And that scares me because I'm waiting for something 1601 01:13:54,555 --> 01:13:57,058 that I don't know is coming. 1602 01:13:57,058 --> 01:13:59,185 So I really don't know what to do here. 1603 01:13:59,185 --> 01:14:02,021 And I really do need some guidance on this. 1604 01:14:02,021 --> 01:14:04,982 And, you know, just somebody to talk to 1605 01:14:04,982 --> 01:14:07,276 and let it all out. 1606 01:14:08,819 --> 01:14:09,570 - Devin, what's up man? 1607 01:14:09,570 --> 01:14:11,197 - Hey. 1608 01:14:11,197 --> 01:14:13,658 - How are we doing? - Doing alright. 1609 01:14:13,658 --> 01:14:14,950 - It's good to see you again. - Good to see you. 1610 01:14:14,950 --> 01:14:15,284 How you been? - Been thinking about you. 1611 01:14:15,284 --> 01:14:18,204 - Yeah? - Yeah. 1612 01:14:18,204 --> 01:14:20,247 I heard you been, uh -- 1613 01:14:20,247 --> 01:14:21,123 heard you been struggling a little bit. 1614 01:14:21,123 --> 01:14:23,584 - Yeah, man, just a tad. 1615 01:14:23,584 --> 01:14:27,797 Um, I'm having a lot of tough, tough thoughts, 1616 01:14:27,797 --> 01:14:27,922 you know, back and forth in my head 1617 01:14:27,922 --> 01:14:31,759 about a lot of different things. 1618 01:14:31,759 --> 01:14:33,344 And I was really, really excited for my overnight date. 1619 01:14:33,344 --> 01:14:37,348 I was like -- - Oh, I felt that. I saw it. 1620 01:14:37,348 --> 01:14:37,890 - You have no idea. - No, no, I got it. 1621 01:14:37,890 --> 01:14:40,851 - I needed it because this was the week 1622 01:14:40,851 --> 01:14:42,687 that I needed to feel the love back that I've been giving. 1623 01:14:42,687 --> 01:14:44,772 - Wanted that reciprocation. 1624 01:14:44,772 --> 01:14:45,815 - You know, I've been waiting for this time 1625 01:14:45,815 --> 01:14:48,651 to hear something that'll get me 1626 01:14:48,651 --> 01:14:50,319 through this process. - Yeah. 1627 01:14:50,319 --> 01:14:52,613 - But the one big question that I wanted to ask her, 1628 01:14:52,613 --> 01:14:55,449 and that's just, you know, 1629 01:14:55,449 --> 01:14:56,701 "Do you love me as much as I love you?" 1630 01:14:56,701 --> 01:15:00,204 And, uh, I never got to ask her that. 1631 01:15:00,204 --> 01:15:02,373 Because I didn't want to put that pressure on her 1632 01:15:02,373 --> 01:15:03,124 during our overnight date. 1633 01:15:03,124 --> 01:15:06,502 You know, I didn't want to -- 1634 01:15:06,502 --> 01:15:10,047 didn't want to scare her with my true feelings about 1635 01:15:10,047 --> 01:15:13,384 how bad it is inside for me. 1636 01:15:13,384 --> 01:15:16,512 - Did you get any kind of reassurance from her at all? 1637 01:15:16,512 --> 01:15:16,846 - I tell her I love her, and she says, 1638 01:15:16,846 --> 01:15:18,639 "Well, I can see a future with us," 1639 01:15:18,639 --> 01:15:21,517 you know, and that's -- that's great, you know? 1640 01:15:21,517 --> 01:15:24,395 But that's not what I'm feeling in this moment. 1641 01:15:24,395 --> 01:15:28,149 But leaving that moment, leaving that room, I didn't feel whole, 1642 01:15:28,149 --> 01:15:30,151 and I, again, told her I loved her on the way out 1643 01:15:30,151 --> 01:15:33,320 and...nothing. 1644 01:15:35,406 --> 01:15:36,866 And it hurts me because I keep giving 1645 01:15:36,866 --> 01:15:40,327 and giving and giving, and -- and she's growing from that, 1646 01:15:40,327 --> 01:15:41,537 but I'm -- I'm withering away. 1647 01:15:46,584 --> 01:15:48,044 JESSE: It's okay. - I don't know what to do. 1648 01:15:48,044 --> 01:15:49,503 JENN: It's okay, man. It's okay. - I don't know what to do. 1649 01:15:49,503 --> 01:15:52,506 I've watched you. 1650 01:15:52,506 --> 01:15:52,882 You've given over and over and over. 1651 01:15:52,882 --> 01:15:54,341 You always have. 1652 01:15:57,136 --> 01:15:58,471 - Oh [bleep] 1653 01:16:00,306 --> 01:16:01,766 You know, I don't sleep here. 1654 01:16:01,766 --> 01:16:02,892 I just... 1655 01:16:06,228 --> 01:16:07,897 - It's okay. 1656 01:16:07,897 --> 01:16:09,732 DEVIN: You know, she says I make her feel some kind of way, 1657 01:16:09,732 --> 01:16:11,650 but if -- if that's true, then why... 1658 01:16:14,403 --> 01:16:16,822 Why can't I feel it? 1659 01:16:16,822 --> 01:16:20,242 ♪♪ 1660 01:16:20,242 --> 01:16:25,164 ♪♪ 1661 01:16:25,164 --> 01:16:25,915 - It's been hard. 1662 01:16:25,915 --> 01:16:26,415 DEVIN: Ah [bleep] 1663 01:16:29,752 --> 01:16:30,920 [ voice breaking ] You know, I need to feel loved. 1664 01:16:30,920 --> 01:16:32,004 You know, I just need to feel loved. 1665 01:16:32,004 --> 01:16:33,881 And I feel wanted. I don't feel needed. 1666 01:16:33,881 --> 01:16:38,052 I don't feel like I... 1667 01:16:38,052 --> 01:16:39,303 [ sighs ] I don't feel like I'm the... 1668 01:16:41,847 --> 01:16:43,140 ...the one, you know? 1669 01:16:43,140 --> 01:16:43,474 I don't feel like I'm the one 1670 01:16:43,474 --> 01:16:45,726 I feel like I'm "one of." "One of." 1671 01:16:47,895 --> 01:16:52,316 And that hurts 'cause I've been "one of" before, you know, 1672 01:16:52,316 --> 01:16:53,442 and I have been through a lot of [bleep] 1673 01:16:53,442 --> 01:16:57,780 So I need more from Jenn, you know? 1674 01:16:57,780 --> 01:16:59,657 I need that extra, and I don't -- I don't get it. 1675 01:17:02,701 --> 01:17:03,661 And I feel selfish because I'm -- 1676 01:17:03,661 --> 01:17:06,872 I'm letting that stuff get to -- get to me. 1677 01:17:06,872 --> 01:17:09,458 But it is true, you know, it is a part of who I am. 1678 01:17:09,458 --> 01:17:13,379 It's -- you know, the person that walked in here is... 1679 01:17:13,379 --> 01:17:15,464 derived from the person that got hurt in the past, 1680 01:17:15,464 --> 01:17:17,049 you know, and this was the first time 1681 01:17:17,049 --> 01:17:18,843 I didn't speak from the heart. 1682 01:17:18,843 --> 01:17:21,053 I spoke what I thought I should say and... 1683 01:17:26,433 --> 01:17:27,059 But, for me, that's what I needed 1684 01:17:27,059 --> 01:17:29,019 to be sane and to feel whole, 1685 01:17:29,019 --> 01:17:31,522 and I didn't get to do that. 1686 01:17:31,522 --> 01:17:34,650 And I'm -- Now I got to wait. 1687 01:17:34,650 --> 01:17:35,651 You know? 1688 01:17:35,651 --> 01:17:37,069 - Sounds like you regret it. 1689 01:17:37,069 --> 01:17:40,030 - Yeah, I-I wish I could've said the things I wanted to say. 1690 01:17:40,030 --> 01:17:46,453 ♪♪ 1691 01:17:46,453 --> 01:17:48,622 I withheld what had been bothering me. 1692 01:17:48,622 --> 01:17:49,999 You know, I regret that. 1693 01:17:49,999 --> 01:17:53,085 Even though I would have never given her an ultimatum. 1694 01:17:53,085 --> 01:17:56,005 I just needed to know that she loves me back. 1695 01:17:56,005 --> 01:17:58,382 - I'm really sorry you feel this way, man. 1696 01:17:58,382 --> 01:18:01,427 W-When you're giving that much, you just want a little bit back. 1697 01:18:01,427 --> 01:18:03,512 I get it. I totally get it. - [ sighs ] 1698 01:18:03,512 --> 01:18:06,599 - You just have to hang on. 1699 01:18:06,599 --> 01:18:11,061 Jenn's someone that you want to fight for every day. 1700 01:18:11,061 --> 01:18:13,147 I mean, could you really -- could you really stop now? 1701 01:18:17,484 --> 01:18:18,819 - [ sighs ] 1702 01:18:18,819 --> 01:18:20,946 It's not that I want to leave her 1703 01:18:20,946 --> 01:18:25,701 'cause I would be distraught leaving her, but it's, 1704 01:18:25,701 --> 01:18:27,870 is she willing to make those feelings real? 1705 01:18:27,870 --> 01:18:31,206 And, you know, if you feel a certain way about a person, 1706 01:18:31,206 --> 01:18:32,166 then you should express it. - Thanks, man. 1707 01:18:32,166 --> 01:18:34,043 - Thank you for listening. - Hang in there, okay? 1708 01:18:34,043 --> 01:18:35,044 - Yeah. - You're going to be alright. 1709 01:18:35,044 --> 01:18:35,753 - I got you. - Okay. 1710 01:18:37,713 --> 01:18:39,340 - [ exhales sharply ] 1711 01:18:39,340 --> 01:18:41,800 Because it could be too late for me. 1712 01:18:41,800 --> 01:18:46,972 You know, I-I don't want to have to feel like I feel right now. 1713 01:18:46,972 --> 01:18:48,599 I don't think I should. You know? 1714 01:18:48,599 --> 01:18:53,646 ♪♪ 1715 01:18:53,646 --> 01:18:57,232 ♪♪ 1716 01:18:57,232 --> 01:19:00,861 I do feel myself slipping away here, 1717 01:19:00,861 --> 01:19:03,739 and my gut... 1718 01:19:03,739 --> 01:19:04,698 ♪♪ 1719 01:19:04,698 --> 01:19:07,368 ...is strongly disagreeing with my heart, and... 1720 01:19:07,368 --> 01:19:12,498 ♪♪ 1721 01:19:12,498 --> 01:19:14,375 ...you can love somebody and they not love you back. 1722 01:19:14,375 --> 01:19:18,545 And that's the realization, you know, here. 1723 01:19:18,545 --> 01:19:23,425 Um, I just feel lost completely about it. 1724 01:19:25,219 --> 01:19:27,554 I can't keep moving forward. 1725 01:19:27,554 --> 01:19:28,847 Can't do it anymore. 1726 01:19:28,847 --> 01:19:32,685 ♪♪ 1727 01:19:32,685 --> 01:19:37,564 ♪♪ 1728 01:19:37,564 --> 01:19:43,821 ♪♪ 1729 01:19:43,821 --> 01:19:46,532 I know what I need to do today. 1730 01:19:46,532 --> 01:19:47,950 I -- I need to talk to Jenn. 1731 01:19:50,244 --> 01:19:51,537 You know, I'm scared. 1732 01:19:51,537 --> 01:19:54,957 This is one time that I'm going to be brutally honest, 1733 01:19:54,957 --> 01:19:55,708 and -- and I hope that she can accept that. 1734 01:19:58,711 --> 01:19:59,086 Uh... 1735 01:20:03,507 --> 01:20:07,428 Now I am doubting myself. 1736 01:20:07,428 --> 01:20:08,387 This is probably the end for me, and... 1737 01:20:10,597 --> 01:20:13,017 [ sighs ] 1738 01:20:13,017 --> 01:20:14,810 It scares me to no end. 1739 01:20:14,810 --> 01:20:18,564 ♪♪ 1740 01:20:18,564 --> 01:20:20,649 - Hey. 1741 01:20:22,609 --> 01:20:26,155 JESSE: Tomorrow night on The Bachelorette... 1742 01:20:26,155 --> 01:20:27,740 - I've risked everything for you. 1743 01:20:27,740 --> 01:20:32,619 - I don't know how to be maybe what you need me to be. 1744 01:20:32,619 --> 01:20:34,204 JESSE: ...is it over between Devin and Jenn? 1745 01:20:34,204 --> 01:20:36,957 - [ sniffling ] 1746 01:20:36,957 --> 01:20:39,793 [ cheers and applause ] JESSE: Plus... 1747 01:20:39,793 --> 01:20:41,962 Welcome to The Bachelorette: The Men Tell All. 1748 01:20:41,962 --> 01:20:45,340 - I feel very, very sorry for whoever you end up with. 1749 01:20:45,340 --> 01:20:46,592 This delusion that you're living in 1750 01:20:46,592 --> 01:20:47,509 is not going to work for anybody. 1751 01:20:47,509 --> 01:20:51,597 JESSE: ...all your favorite men are back... 1752 01:20:51,597 --> 01:20:53,974 Your next Bachelor, Grant Ellis. 1753 01:20:53,974 --> 01:20:55,601 - I'm so excited. 1754 01:20:55,601 --> 01:20:57,144 Can't wait to embark on this journey. 1755 01:20:57,144 --> 01:21:00,773 JESSE: ...and it's the moment of truth for everyone. 1756 01:21:00,773 --> 01:21:01,565 - What you're doing is bullying. 1757 01:21:01,565 --> 01:21:04,026 - That's not what happened. - Yes, it is. 1758 01:21:04,026 --> 01:21:05,152 - Spencer, just didn't feel like you're fully healed 1759 01:21:05,152 --> 01:21:06,779 or you're ready. - HAKEEM: What?! 1760 01:21:06,779 --> 01:21:07,905 - You don't know [bleep] - Come on, bro. 1761 01:21:07,905 --> 01:21:09,156 - Are you a psychologist? 1762 01:21:09,156 --> 01:21:11,950 - He put his hands on me. - That is not what happened. 1763 01:21:11,950 --> 01:21:13,327 - You said, "[Bleep] you. I make more money than you." 1764 01:21:13,327 --> 01:21:13,744 - Thomas, that is -- no, no, we're not going to do this live. 1765 01:21:13,744 --> 01:21:15,037 JESSE: That's all tomorrow night. 1766 01:21:15,037 --> 01:21:19,917 And then next Tuesday... 1767 01:21:19,917 --> 01:21:21,502 - I just hope she make the right decision. 1768 01:21:21,502 --> 01:21:24,546 - You know, your history with people 1769 01:21:24,546 --> 01:21:25,714 who are emotionally unavailable. 1770 01:21:25,714 --> 01:21:28,300 How long are you willing to wait? 1771 01:21:30,386 --> 01:21:30,636 - Nobody should have to wait around 1772 01:21:30,636 --> 01:21:33,013 for somebody to love them. 1773 01:21:33,013 --> 01:21:37,309 JESSE: ...it's the ending everyone is talking about. 1774 01:21:37,309 --> 01:21:37,935 - I can't let you propose to me. 1775 01:21:41,146 --> 01:21:45,025 JESSE: Jenn's journey to find love comes to a dramatic finish. 1776 01:21:45,025 --> 01:21:45,567 JENN: Going into today, 1777 01:21:45,567 --> 01:21:47,903 I thought I knew which way I wanted it to go, 1778 01:21:47,903 --> 01:21:50,072 and I woke up this morning 1779 01:21:50,072 --> 01:21:53,075 with a totally different point of view on it. 1780 01:21:55,953 --> 01:21:56,578 - Are you okay with whatever's going to happen here? 1781 01:22:00,499 --> 01:22:03,460 JENN: I know what I want and I know what I need, 1782 01:22:03,460 --> 01:22:05,254 and I want to be able to dictate my own life. 1783 01:22:05,254 --> 01:22:08,882 JESSE: No Bachelorette has ever ended her journey like this. 1784 01:22:10,884 --> 01:22:14,596 It's all coming up on The Bachelorette.