>>> I THOUGHT I KNEW WHICH WAY I WANTED IT TO GO, AND I WOKE UP
THIS MORNING WITH A TOTALLY DIFFERENT POINT OF VIEW ON IT.
>> ARE YOU OKAY WITH WHATEVER IS
GOING TO HAPPEN HERE?
>> I CAN'T LET YOU PROPOSE TO
ME.
♪
[ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ]
>>> GREAT SEEING YOU GUYS. HI, WELCOME. WELCOME.
GREAT SEEING YOU ALL. THANK YOU. GREAT SEEING YOU.
THANK YOU. GOOD EVENING, BACHELOR NATION.
I'M YOUR HOST JESSE PALMER, AND I'M COMING TO YOU LIVE FROM LOS
ANGELES WITH A DRAMATIC SEASON FINALE OF "THE BACHELORETTE."
[ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ]
AND LOOK AT THIS. WHAT A STAR-STUDDED EVENT.
SO MANY BACHELOR NATION FAVORITES ARE HERE EVEN THE
FIRST GOLDEN BACHELORETTE, JOAN, IS WITH US.
LET'S HEAR IT FOR JOAN.
[ APPLAUSE ]
AND DON'T WORRY, YOU ARE GOING TO GET A SNEAK PEEK AT HER QUEST
FOR A SECOND GREAT LOVE LATER TONIGHT AND TRUST ME, YOU DON'T
WANT TO MISS IT BUT FIRST IT'S THE EMOTIONAL CONCLUSION OF
JENN'S JOURNEY SO HOW IS THIS GOING TO END FOR HER?
WILL SHE END UP ENGAGED TO MARCUS? OR WILL IT BE DEVIN?
[ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ]
OR WILL SOMETHING THAT HAS SIMPLY NEVER HAPPENED ON THE
SHOW HAPPEN TONIGHT. THAT'S RIGHT, I SAID NEVER.
COULD THAT, IN FACT, HAPPEN TONIGHT?
WELL, THERE'S A SPOILER FOR YOU.
[ LAUGHTER ]
IT WILL. SO, GRAB THE TISSUES, TOP OFF
THE WINE AND SAY ALOHA ONCE AGAIN AS WE HEAD BACK TO HAWAII,
THE HISTORIC LIVE "BACHELORETTE" FINALE STARTS RIGHT NOW.
[ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ]
♪
>> IT IS A NEW WEEK HERE ON THE ISLAND OF HAWAII, AND I'M
FEELING SO LUCKY AND EXCITED. I TRULY AM IN LOVE WITH MARCUS
AND DEVIN AND THIS IS TOTALLY BEYOND MY WILDEST DREAMS.
I DEFINITELY FEEL LIKE A WHOLE NEW PERSON THAT'S ABOUT TO BE
ENGAGED THIS WEEK. TODAY I GET TO SEE MY FAMILY,
AND MY BIGGEST HOPE IS THAT THEY CAN SEE HOW HAPPY THAT I AM AND
THEY CAN SEE HOW HAPPY THESE GUYS MAKE ME.
>> I'M EXCITED TO SEE JENN. ARE YOU NERVOUS?
>> YEAH, I'M NERVOUS BUT I'M SO EXCITED.
TO BRING A MAN HOME, SO I JUST HOPE SHE MAKE THE RIGHT DECISION
AND SHE CAN FIND THE RIGHT MAN.
>> AND THE MOST IMPORTANT THING WE CAN DO IS JUST GUIDE HER AND
GIVE HER OUR OPINIONS.
>> MY DAUGHTER, SHE IS EVERYTHING TO ME, SO I WANT JENN
TO FIND A MAN WHO LOVE HER FOR THE REST OF HER LIFE.
>> HELLO. WHO IS IT?
>> IT'S JENN.
>> HI.
>> HI, JENN.
>> HI.
>> AW.
>> HOW ARE YOU?
>> GOOD. HI. YOU LOOK BEAUTIFUL.
>> WHY ARE YOU CRYING?
>> IT'S LIKE SHE LOVES YOU OR SOMETHING.
>> I KNOW JENN'S HAD A FEW ROUGH RELATIONSHIPS IN THE PAST.
I DON'T WANT HER TO GO DOWN THAT PATH AGAIN.
EVER SINCE HER DAD LEFT, I HAVE TO PROTECT HER.
LIKE, THAT'S MY ROLE SO I WANT TO KIND OF MAKE SURE THAT SHE'S
SEEING CLEARLY.
>> THERE'S TWO GUYS HERE, AND IT'S DEVIN AND MARCUS AND I AM
IN LOVE WITH BOTH OF THEM.
>> HAVE YOU TOLD BOTH OF THEM?
>> YES. I HAVE.
>> DID THEY SAY THEY LOVE YOU?
>> WHICH ONE.
>> MARCUS.
>> NOT YET.
>> BUT HE WANTS TO.
>> BUT TODAY YOU'RE MEETING DEVIN.
>> OKAY. OKAY.
>> HE SAY HE LOVE YOU.
>> YES.
>> WHO YOU HAVE MORE FEEL?
>> EQUAL. I'M PRETTY EQUAL.
>> I'M EXCITED TO TALK TO BOTH OF THEM TO SEE WHERE THEIR HEADS
ARE AT SO IT'S EVERYTHING. WE'RE EXCITED.
>> SO EXCITED.
>> JENN HASN'T HAD VERY GOOD LUCK IN HER PREVIOUS
RELATIONSHIPS SO I WANT HER TO JUST END UP WITH SOMEONE WHO
UNDERSTANDS HOW AMAZING SHE IS AND TREATS HER LIKE THE QUEEN
SHE IS.
>> HELLO.
>> HELLO, YOU.
>> I MISSED YOU.
>> I KNOW THAT I LOVE JENN AND TODAY IS A VERY BIG STEP FOR US.
YOU KNOW, THE PRESSURE IS REALLY ON FOR ME TO PUT THIS IN A FINAL
SPOT FOR HER AND I FOR THE FUTURE. BUT, YOU KNOW, I DO HAVE
INSECURITIES ABOUT MEETING JENN'S FAMILY AND, YOU KNOW,
IT'S DEFINITELY THE FEAR THEY MAY NOT SEE THAT I'M GOOD ENOUGH.
>> THIS IS NICOLE, MY BEST FRIEND.
>> VERY NICE TO MEET YOU.
>> THIS IS JAMES, MY BROTHER.
>> HI, JAMES. VERY NICE TO MEET YOU.
>> THIS IS MY AUNT.
>> NICE TO MEET YOU.
>> AND MY MOM.
>> I'VE HEARD SO MUCH ABOUT YOU.
>> I AM SO -- YOU DON'T WANT TO DISAPPOINT, NOT ONLY HER, THIS
GIRL YOU LOVE SO MUCH BUT THE PEOPLE THAT LOVE HER SO MUCH AS
WELL AND I JUST HOPE THEY LIKE ME SO IT DOESN'T INFLUENCE HER
DECISIONS.
>> SO TELL US EVERYTHING.
>> WHAT'S GOING ON? WHAT DO YOU WANT TO KNOW?
>> LET'S DO IT HERE. CATCH US UP.
>> CATCH US UP? WELL, I'M VERY EXCITED FOR THIS
OPPORTUNITY TO GET YOU MEET TO GUYS.
I KNOW JENN SPEAKS VERY HIGHLY OF EVERY SINGLE PERSON IN THIS
ROOM. WATCHING HER LIGHT UP WHENEVER
SHE TALKS ABOUT FAMILY IS SOMETHING THAT'S VERY IMPORTANT
TO ME, BECAUSE MY FAMILY HAS BEEN THROUGH A LOT, YOU KNOW, I
GREW UP WITH A SINGLE MOM AND I UNDERSTAND WHAT A STRONG WOMAN
CAN DO FOR A FAMILY, AND THAT'S SOMETHING THAT GOES A LONG WAY
WITH ME, YOU KNOW.
>> THAT'S WHERE WE CONNECTED A LOT HAVING UNTRADITIONAL
FAMILIES AND BEING ABLE TO TALK ABOUT IT AND HOW WE'VE LEARNED
FROM IT AND HOW IT SHAPED THE PEOPLE THAT WE'VE BECOME.
IN THE RELATIONSHIP IS BEING EACH OTHER'S ROCK.
>> ABSOLUTELY.
>> YOU HAVE A LOT OF COMMON GROUND WHICH IS ALWAYS GOOD, SO
I'M HAPPY THAT JENN, YOU KNOW, WAS ABLE TO MEET YOU BUT WITH
THAT SAID MY ROLE HERE IS TO BE THE PROTECTIVE BROTHER.
>> GOOD.
>> I CAN SEE JENN VERY HAPPY BUT
FOR ME I DO UNDERSTAND.
HAVE YOU EVER DATED AN ASIAN GIRL BEFORE?
>> NO, MA'AM, I HAVE NOT.
>> WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT ASIAN GIRL?
>> I LOVE IT BUT FOR ME IT'S NOT SO MUCH THE ETHNICITY.
I'M HISPANIC. I'M, YOU KNOW, MY FAMILY IS
HISPANIC, AND MY MOM IS WHITE SO I HAVE A LITTLE MIX OF BOTH BUT
I DO KNOW THAT I LOVE JENN AND --
>> WHAT IS IT ABOUT JENN THAT YOU LOVE?
>> THE THING I LOVE MOST ABOUT JENN IS SHE MAKES ME FEEL SEEN
IN WAYS THAT I'VE NEVER FELT SEEN BEFORE IN PAST
RELATIONSHIPS AND I'VE NEVER BEEN ABLE TO FEEL LOVED LIKE I
HAVE WITH JENN BEFORE. JENN'S A PERSON THAT MAKES ME
FEEL LIKE I'M 100% WHOLE. 100% MYSELF AND THERE'S NO
QUESTION IN MY MIND THAT JENN IS THE PERSON FOR ME AND SHE'S A
GREAT WOMAN. SHE REALLY IS.
>> THANK YOU FOR THINKING THAT
MUCH OF MY DAUGHTER. I WORRY ABOUT JENN, SEEING THE
FATHER LEFT, YOU KNOW, THAT'S WHY I WANT TO ASK YOU, YOU CAN
MAKE HER ALWAYS FEEL SAFE.
>> ABSOLUTELY.
>> CAN YOU DO THAT FOR HER?
>> ABSOLUTELY. YOU KNOW, I DIDN'T HAVE A FATHER
TO LOVE GROWING UP, AS WELL, YOU KNOW, AND THAT JENN DESERVES A
MAN THAT WILL WAKE UP AND PICK HER AND CHOOSE HER, AND I KNOW
SHE HASN'T ALWAYS HAD THAT IN LIFE AND TO BE THAT PERSON FOR
HER WOULD BE A BLESSING FOR ME, YOU KNOW.
>> DEVIN, HE KIND OF NICE GUY. HE AND JENN HAVE THE SAME
SITUATION. HE MISS LOVE OF FATHER TOO SO IT
CAN TRY TO MAKE IT TOGETHER.
>> HOW DO YOU FEEL IF YOU'RE NOT THE FINAL MAN?
>> AH, THAT'S A GOOD QUESTION.
WOULD IT KILL ME TO NOT BE THE ONE? IT WOULD. 100%.
BECAUSE I BELIEVE SO MUCH IN WHAT WE HAVE.
AND IF HER AND I DO GET TO THAT POINT, I CAN'T PROPOSE TO HER
WITHOUT YOUR BLESSING, AND, YOU KNOW, I KNOW THAT'S EASIER SAID
THAN DONE.
>> BUT YOU KNOW, IN THE CULTURE, WE TALK ABOUT THE MARRIAGE
THAT'S IN SMALL TOWN BECAUSE WE WANT JENN TO HAVE A LONG
RELATIONSHIP. LONG-TERM RELATIONSHIP.
>> ABSOLUTELY, ABSOLUTELY.
>> YEAH.
>> AND I RESPECT THAT. YOU KNOW?
SO, I KNEW THAT I WAS GOING TO HAVE THESE CONVERSATIONS WITH
HER FAMILY, AND THAT SCARES ME THAT THEY MAY NOT SEE IT WITH
JENN AND I AND, YOU KNOW, THIS IS ONE OF THOSE MOMENTS WHERE I
AM DOUBTING MYSELF, BUT I DO KNOW ONE THING FOR SURE AND I
DON'T SEE THIS WORLD WITHOUT JENN IN MY LIFE.
>> ARE YOU HAPPY?
>> YI, I AM VERY HAPPY.
>> I WANT TO KNOW MORE.
>> WITH DEVIN WE CAN REALLY TALK ABOUT MY FEELINGS AND I CAN OPEN
UP ABOUT WHO I AM AND IS WILLING TO MAKE ANYTHING WORK AND
COMPROMISES WITH ME AND LOVES ME. HE WANTS TO UNDERSTAND ME.
HE WANTS TO SEE ALL THESE PARTS OF ME.
>> YEAH, EVERYTHING ABOUT VIETNAMESE CULTURE.
>> WILL LEARN MORE AND WANTS TO, YOU KNOW, HELP ME CELEBRATE THAT
PART OF ME, AND HE WANTS TO HELP ME RAISE OUR KIDS LIKE THAT.
>> UH-HUH.
>> AND HE WANTS YOU TO TEACH OUR KIDS VIETNAMESE.
>> BEFORE YOU CAN MOVE FORWARD.
>> TALKING TO MY MOM, I CAN SEE THAT SHE REALLY IS GOING TO JUST
LET IT ALL OUT THERE AND SPEAK ABOUT THE SKEPTICISM THAT SHE
HAS AND THE CONCERNS THAT SHE HAS.
I AM WORRIED FOR DEVIN BECAUSE I REALIZE THAT MY FAMILY IS NOT
GOING TO TAKE THIS LIGHTLY.
[ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ]
♪
>>> WELCOME BACK TO THE FINALE OF "THE BACHELORETTE."
OF COURSE, I'M COMING TO YOU LIVE FROM LOS ANGELES, AND I'M
JOINED BY A FEW FAN FAVORITES FROM JENN'S SEASON.
WELCOME DYLAN, JONATHON AND JEREMY, EVERYBODY.
[ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ]
SO GREAT TO SEE YOU GUYS. SO, JONATHON, WHAT MADE YOU
DECIDE TO SHOW UP IN PERSON?
>> WHAT WAS THAT?
>> WHAT MADE YOU DECIDE TO SHOW UP IN PERSON?
>> I HEARD RUMORS OF HOW TONIGHT MIGHT GO AND REALLY WANTED TO
SHOW MY SUPPORT FOR JENN AND HER JOURNEY AND HOPE FOR THE BEST.
>> OKAY. AND, JEREMY, YOU'RE HERE TOO.
ANY THOUGHTS.
>> I HEARD IT'S AN INTERESTING END.
I'M HERE FOR SUPPORT AS WELL, NOT JUST FOR JENN BUT DEVIN AND
MARCUS. THEY'RE BLOWERS TO ME SO I JUST
WANT TO BE HERE AND BE THERE FOR SUPPORT.
>> OKAY, WELL, CLEARLY THE TWO OF YOU KNOW THAT SOMETHING IS UP.
[ LAUGHTER ]
AND YOU WILL FIND OUT EVERYTHING LATER TONIGHT.
AND THEN JUST A REMINDER, JENN, DEVIN AND MARCUS WILL BE ON
STAGE TO TALK ABOUT THE FINAL DAYS IN HAWAII AND EVERYTHING
THAT'S HAPPENED SINCE. SO THE BIG QUESTION NOW, HOW IS
THIS ALL GOING TO END?
LET'S KEEP WATCHING.
>> SO MY OPINION OF DEVIN RIGHT NOW IS, I'M NOT SURE.
BUT, YOU KNOW, I KNOW GROWING UP DEVIN'S DAD WASN'T IN THE
PICTURE. DO YOU FEEL THAT'S BONDED YOU
TOGETHER.
>> YEAH, A HUGE PART OF IT WAS OUR FAMILY DIE SIGNALIC.
NOT HAVING THIS ROLE MODEL OF LOVE AND WE BOTH KNOW WE WANT A
DIFFERENT KIND OF LOVE, MAKES US WANT TO REWRITE HISTORY.
BECAUSE OF THAT I HAVE SO MUCH MORE FAITH IN OUR FUTURE
TOGETHER BECAUSE WE'RE BOTH WILLING TO FIGHT FOR THAT.
>> TALKING TO JAMES, I KNEW THAT HE WAS GOING TO BE CONCERNED AND
PROTECTIVE BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE A FATHER FIGURE AND HE'S BEEN
THERE MY WHOLE LIFE. HE DOESN'T TAKE THIS LIGHTLY AND
I KNOW THAT HE ONLY WANTS THE BEST FOR ME.
>> HEARING YOU TALK ABOUT HIM, HEARING, YOU KNOW, WHAT
DIFFERENCE HE'S MAKING IN YOUR LIFE AND HOW HAPPY YOU ARE JUST
TALKING ABOUT HIM, I THINK YOU'VE GROWN A LOT WHICH BY THE
WAY I'M SUPER PROUD OF. YOU GUYS ARE A GREAT MATCH AND
BOTH HAVE EXPERIENCED VERY SIMILAR THINGS SO I'M DEFINITELY
EXCITED TO SEE WHERE YOU'RE GOING WITH IT BUT AT THE SAME
TIME THIS IS ANOTHER GUY. I THINK YOU'VE GOTTEN TO THE
POINT WHERE YOU KNOW WHAT YOU WANT, YOU KNOW WHAT YOU DON'T
WANT AND YOU KNOW WHAT YOU DESERVE AND YOU KNOW WHAT YOU
DON'T DESERVE, RIGHT? WHATEVER DECISION THAT YOU
CHOOSE, I'M GOING TO SUPPORT YOU.
>> INTERESTING.
>> I CAN SEE HOW HAPPY SHE WAS TALKING ABOUT DEVIN.
I COULD SEE HOW CLOSE THEY'VE BONDED JUST OVER THE THINGS THAT
THEY'VE EXPERIENCED IN LIFE, AND I THINK THAT'S VERY IMPORTANT,
BUT AT THE SAME TIME, AS A BIG BROTHER, YOU KNOW, MY ROLE HERE
IS TO DEFINITELY GRILL THE GUYS AND SEE IF THERE ARE ANYTHINGS I
SHOULD BE WARNING JENN ABOUT. ALL RIGHT, DEVIN.
>> WHAT'S HAPPENING, JAMES?
>> NOT UP. GREAT TO FINALLY MEET YOU.
>> GREAT TO MEET YOU, AS WELL.
>> SO, ALL I WANT FOR JENN IS HER TO BE HAPPY.
YOU KNOW, SHE'S VERY SPECIAL TO ME. YOU KNOW, I'M THE PROTECTIVE
BROTHER AND I WANT WHAT'S BEST FOR HER.
>> ABSOLUTELY. I ANTICIPATED TOUGH QUESTIONS
FROM JAMES. THAT SCARED ME BECAUSE JENN'S
MOM COULDN'T EVEN COMMIT THE IDEA OF MARRIAGE YET.
IT'S NOT ENOUGH TIME SO I'M HOPING THINGS GO WELL SO I CAN
STAY STRONG FOR JENN.
>> HOW DO YOU KNOW SHE'S THE PERSON?
>> I'M CONFIDENT IN US. I'M CONFIDENT IN THE WAY THAT WE
OPERATE AND THE WAY THAT WE SMILE AT EACH OTHER AND THE WAY
WE MAKE EACH OTHER FEEL. WITH JENN I'VE NEVER HAD NO
SACRIFICE ANY SHRED OF MYSELF TO BE HAPPY WITH HER AND THAT'S
SOMETHING I'VE NEVER HAD IN MY LIFE SO JENN KEEPS ME GROUNDED.
>> HOW ARE YOU GROUNDING HER?
>> JENN AND I WE'VE BEEN VERY COMMUNICATIVE ABOUT THE THINGS
WE FEEL AND THINGS WE FEAR AND I THINK I'D LIKE TO SAY I'VE GIVEN
HER A LITTLE BIT OF GROWTH ABOUT LOVE.
>> AW.
>> AND WE'VE GROWN UP SIMILARLY. WE'VE BEEN THROUGH A LOT OF
THINGS SIMILARLY WITH OUR RELATIONSHIPS AND, YOU KNOW, WE
HOLD FAMILY THE SAME WAY.
>> THIS TIME NEXT WEEK.
>> YEAH.
>> YOU MIGHT BE ENGAGED.
>> YES.
>> HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT THAT.
>> DOES WORRY ME THAT THERE IS STILL ANOTHER GUY INVOLVED.
DOES IT SCARE ME? ABSOLUTELY. I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW HOW SHE FELT
ABOUT ME UNTIL A FEW DAYS AGO.
>> AT THAT POINT DO YOU FEEL SHE WAS NOT 1RU8VULNERABLE WITH YOU.
>> I THINK SHE WAS PLAYING IT SAFE AND SHE WAS THINKING OF US
AS A COLLECTIVE GROUP AND FOR ME WHAT I NEEDED IN THAT MOMENT WAS
TO BE SEPARATED FRY THE GROUP AND TREATED LIKE I WAS A
SINGULAR PERSON, AND SHE ACKNOWLEDGED TO ME IN THAT
MOMENT, YOU KNOW, YOU KNOW, SHE TOLD ME SHE LOVED ME AND THAT
WAS A MONUMENTAL MOMENT FOR ME. YOU KNOW, I ONLY WANT TO DO THIS
ONCE AND I WANT TO DO IT WITH THE WOMAN THAT MAKES ME THE
HAPPIEST AND SHE MAKES ME SO HAPPY AND I LOVE HER AS A PERSON
AND LIKE YOU SAID, AN ENGAGEMENT IS AROUND THE CORNER.
YOU KNOW, I WOULD REALLY LOVE TO HAVE YOUR BLESSING IF WE GET TO
THAT POINT, JENN AND I, TO PROPOSE TO HER AND MAKE HER
HAPPY FOR THE REST OF HER LIFE IF THAT'S OKAY WITH YOU.
>> I'M DEFINITELY NOT GOING TO GIVE THE BLISSING NOW.
IT'S NOT BECAUSE I'M NOT SURE ABOUT YOU.
IT'S BECAUSE I HAVEN'T TALKED TO THE SECOND GUY YET.
>> YEAH. UNDERSTAND.
>> BUT I GO RESPECT THE FACT THAT YOU ASKED AND I LOVE THAT
ACTUALLY, SO, THANK YOU.
>> NO PROBLEM, MAN, AND, AGAIN, I APPRECIATE YOUR HONESTY AND I
APPRECIATE THE FACT THAT YOU HOLD YOUR SISTER IN SUCH HIGH
REGARDS, BECAUSE SHE IS A VERY IMPORTANT PERSON FOR YOU AND I
CAN SEE THAT AND THE CONVERSATION WITH HER BROTHER
SCARED ME EVEN MORE. YOU KNOW, HE FLAT OUT TELLS ME
HE CAN'T GIVE ME HIS BLESSING. S THAT'S HARD TO HEAR.
YOU WALK IN THERE WITH SO MUCH CONFIDENCE AND YOU WANT TO HEAR
THAT THEY SUPPORT YOU.
>> VERY NICE TO MEET YOU. SEE YOU SOON.
>> BUT TO HEAR HER FAMILY BE SO WARY ABOUT THE WHOLE THING, I AM
WRESTLING WITH MY OWN SANITY IN THIS MOMENT. OH.
>> ALL RIGHT. HOW MUCH DID THEY TORTURE YOU?
>> UM --
>> I'M SORRY.
>> THEY WERE VERY --
>> HMM.
>> -- VERY ASSERTIVE WITH HOW THEY FEEL ABOUT YOU AND WHAT
THAT MEANS TO THEM AND, YES.
WOULD I HAVE LOVED IT TO BE ROSES AND DAISIES WITH YOUR
FAMILY, BUT I THINK THEY ARE THE GROUNDING ELEMENTS TO WHAT THIS
IS FOR US AND WHAT THIS MEANS TO YOU AND WHAT IT MEANS FOR YOU
AND THERE WAS NO QUESTION THAT I HADN'T THOUGHT ABOUT IN MY HEAD
ALREADY AND IT'S SCARY.
>> I KNOW IT'S HARD TO NOT GET INTO YOUR HEAD BUT I WANT YOU TO
REALLY HEAR THE WORDS I'M SAYING IN THAT I NEVER FELT LIKE THIS
BEFORE. AND I LOVE YOU.
>> I LOVE YOU.
>> THE WAY I FEEL ABOUT JENN, IT'S HARD FOR ME TO ACCEPT HER
FAMILY MAY NOT SEE IT THE WAY I SEE IT.
THAT KIND OF SCREWED WITH MY HEAD AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT THAT
MEANS FOR US AS A COUPLE.
>> I LOVE YOU. DON'T GET IN YOUR HEAD, OKAY?
>> YOU KNOW, THIS IS ONE OF THOSE MOMENTS WHERE I AM
DOUBTING MYSELF AND THE FACT THAT MARCUS IS GOING TO MEET HER
FAMILY, YOU KNOW, MAYBE I'M NOT THE ONE FOR JENN.
IT'S, LIKE, TOUGH TO ACCEPT.
[ APPLAUSE ]
[ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ]
>>> WELCOME BACK TO THE LIVE "BACHELORETTE" FINALE.
HOW HAD WE FEELING, EVERYBODY? DOING OKAY?
[ CHEERS ]
ALL RIGHT. WELL, I WOULD BE REMISS IF I
DIDN'T POINT OUT TWO WOMEN IN THE AUDIENCE FROM THE UPCOMING
HULU REALITY SERIES "THE SECRET LIVES OF MORMON WIVES," JEN AND
DEMI WITH US. GREAT TO SEE YOU TOO.
THEIR NEW SHOW STREAMS THIS FRIDAY AND ONE PERSON IN
PARTICULAR WHO WILL DEFINITELY BE WATCHING, THEIR NUMBER ONE
FAN AND ALSO A BACHELOR NATION FAVORITE HAKEEM IS WITH US.
HAKEEM.
[ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ]
HAKEEM, IT'S GREAT SEEING YOU, MAN.
EARLIER WE HEARD FROM SOME OF YOUR FRIENDS, AND IT JUST FELT
LIKE THE ENERGY WAS A BIT OFF. HOW ARE YOU FEELING ABOUT
EVERYTHING?
>> I'M SUPER NERVOUS. I'M VERY, VERY ANXIOUS ABOUT
WHAT'S GOING TO BE SHOWN TO US SO I'M JUST TRYING TO SUPPORT
THEM AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE BUT I'M SUPER NERVOUS.
>> WELL, HAKEEM, YOU MIGHT BE AFRAID OF SPIDERS, BUT YOU ARE
NOT AFRAID TO SPEAK THE TRUTH, OKAY.
DEVIN'S MET JENN'S FAMILY AND NOW IT'S MARCUS' TURN, SO HOW IS
THIS ALL GOING TO END? YOU WILL HAVE TO SEE IT TO
BELIEVE IT.
♪
>> I WANT TO SEE THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN THE TWO MEN.
>> WHAT WE SAW FROM DEVIN EARLIER IN THE DAY WAS
DEFINITELY GOOD AND HE DEFINITELY SET A BAR.
WE WILL SEE IF MARCUS CAN COME IN AND KIND OF RAISE THAT BAR A
LITTLE HIGHER.
>> IF IT IS MARCUS AT THE END, YOU KNOW, HE NEEDS TO TELL HER
HE LOVES HER.
>> BUT ON THE OTHER HAND HE'S GOTTEN THIS FAR IN THE PROCESS.
JENN HAS KEPT HIM AROUND. THERE HAS TO BE A REASON FOR IT.
I'M EXCITED TO MEET MARCUS.
>> MARCUS HASN'T SAID I LOVE YOU YET. CONCERNING JENN, SHE HAS A
HISTORY WITH EMOTIONALLY UNAVAILABLE MEN BUT I'M GOING
INTO THIS WITH AN OPEN MIND AND SO WE'LL SEE WHEN I TALK TO
MARCUS.
>> HEY YOU.
>> HELLO. YOU LOOK BEAUTIFUL TODAY.
>> THANK YOU.
>> EVERY DAY BUT --
>> AW, THAT'S SWEET.
>> I MISSED YOU.
>> I AM VERY NERVOUS FOR MARCUS TODAY.
I DON'T KNOW IF MY FAMILY IS GOING TO BUY INTO OUR
RELATIONSHIP. I TOLD MARCUS LAST WEEK THAT I
AM IN LOVE WITH HIM BUT HE SAID THAT HE ISN'T THERE YET BUT
WANTS TO GET THERE AND SO HOPEFULLY MARCUS HAS HAD SOME
TIME TO THINK AND IF I GET AN I LOVE YOU FROM MARCUS TODAY, IT
WILL CHANGE EVERYTHING.
>> THIS IS MARCUS. THIS IS NICOLE.
>> NICE TO MEET YOU.
>> MY BROTHER JAMES.
>> NICE TO MEET YOU.
>> HI.
>> MY AUNT.
>> HELLO, I'M MARCUS.
>> NICE TO MEET YOU.
>> AND YOU MUST BE TRINH.
>> MAKING JENN'S FAMILY MAKES ME NERVOUS.
I'M NOT IN LOVE WITH HER NOW BUT I DO HAVE STRONG FEELINGS WITH
HER AND DO SEE THE FUTURE WITH US BUT I ALSO HAVE UNCERTAINTY
AND RESERVATIONS AND I THINK TRYING TO EXPLAIN THAT TO THEM
SO CLOSE TO A POTENTIAL PROPOSAL IS GOING TO BE A DIFFICULT
THING.
>> VERY EXCITED TO MEET YOU.
>> I'M VERY EXCITED. I'M A LITTLE NERVOUS BUT VERY,
VERY EXCITED.
>> SO CAN YOU TELL US A LITTLE BIT ABOUT YOU AND --
>> RIGHT. COME ON.
>> GETTING RIGHT INTO IT.
>> CAN'T WAIT TO HEAR.
>> SO I HAD A VERY UNTRADITIONAL UPBRINGING.
MY BIOLOGICAL PARENTS HAVE NEVER BEEN A PART OF MY LIFE.
WHEN WE WERE KIDS, WE WERE ABOUT 2 AT DAY CARE AND THEY JUST LIKE
NEVER CAME BACK TO US AND WE WERE ORPHANS FOR AWHILE AND TWO
OF MY SISTERS WERE ADOPTED, AND I WAS ADOPTED WITH, YOU KNOW, MY
SISTER THAT'S A YEAR YOUNGER THAN ME INTO A DIFFERENT FAMILY.
I SHARE THAT TO SAY YOU HAVE TO TAKE LIFE AS IT IS AND NOT, YOU
KNOW, HOW YOU WANT IT TO BE.
>> UH-HUH.
>> I'M LIKE 32 NOW AND HAVE LIVED A LITTLE BIT OF LIFE.
I SPENT EIGHT YEARS IN COMBAT, AND I HAD AN EXPERIENCE WHERE I
WAS ALMOST CERTAIN THAT I WAS GOING TO DIE, AND THEN WALKING
AWAY FROM IT, IT KIND OF CHANGED WHAT I GAVE VALUE TO IN MY LIFE.
I REALIZE HOW FAR I'M WILLING TO GO AND HOW HARD I'M WILLING TO
FIGHT FOR LOVE, AND I WANT TO SEE THIS ALL THE WAY THROUGH
WITH JENN.
>> YEAH.
>> I APPRECIATE MARCUS BEING HONEST AND OPEN ABOUT ALL THIS,
I CAN TELL HE CARES A LOT ABOUT JENN AND THAT HE'S TRYING FOR
HER. BUT AT THE SAME TIME, YOU KNOW,
AS THE PROTECTIVE BROTHER, I WAS LOOKING FOR MORE HIM OPENING UP
ABOUT HIS RELATIONSHIP WITH JENN, HOW FAR THEY'VE GONE, YOU
KNOW, WHERE THEY'RE AT. MARCUS, I HAVE TO ASK THESE
QUESTIONS TO TRY TO UNDERSTAND WHAT'S BEST FOR JENN SO
HOPEFULLY MARCUS CAN KIND OF CLEAR THAT UP.
>> HOW ARE YOU, MAN?
>> IT'S BEEN A TOUGH JOURNEY.
>> GOOD.
>> DO YOU WANT TO SAY, YOU KNOW, THE STUFF THAT YOU'VE BEEN
THROUGH, I CAN'T EVEN IMAGINE AND KNOW THAT IT'S TOUGH TO EVEN
TALK ABOUT IT TO OPEN YOURSELF UP TO SOMEONE YOU JUST MET SO I
APPRECIATE THAT.
>> THE REASON I'M WILL TOOK HAVE THOSE CONVERSATIONS IS BECAUSE I
DO CARE ABOUT JENN AND IT'S LIKE I WANT YOU GUYS TO KNOW
EVERYTHING THAT -- LIKE WHERE I'M AT, WHERE I'M COMING FROM
AND I THINK WE'RE ALL PRODUCTS OF OUR CIRCUMSTANCES, SO THOSE
KIND OF EXPERIENCES CAN KIND OF GIVE YOU A HEART OF STONE WHEN
YOU'RE IN THE MILITARY, YOU'RE NOT MAKING DECISIONS BASED ON
EMOTION, YOU'RE MAKING DECISIONS BASED ON LOGIC SO I'VE BEEN KIND
OF UNDERESTIMATING HOW MUCH EMOTION PLAYS IN A RELATIONSHIP
AND --
>> FEEL LIKE THAT'S HOLDING YOU BACK FROM, YOU KNOW, GETTING TO
A POINT WHERE YOU ARE IN LOVE WITH JENN?
BECAUSE WITH JENN, SHE'S ALWAYS BEEN WITH EMOTIONALLY
UNAVAILABLE GUYS AND IT'S SOMETHING THAT SHE WANTS TO
STRAY AWAY FROM.
>> YEAH, OF COURSE.
>> HEARING YOU SAY THAT NOW IT'S LIKE A CONCERN OF MINE.
>> YEAH.
>> DO YOU FEEL IT'S SOMETHING YOU'VE MADE DRASTIC PROGRESS
OVER THE YEARS, SOMETHING YOU'RE CURRENTLY WORKING ON?
>> YEAH, I THINK THAT WAS PROBABLY THE BIGGEST AREA OF
GROWTH THAT I HAD GETTING OUT OF THE MILITARY.
I'M HAPPY OF THE YEARS THAT I SPENT ON MY OWN AND INTRO
SPECKING AND GROWING AND REALLY DEFINING WHAT KIND OF, YOU KNOW,
PARTNER THAT I WANT TO BE AND I THINK THAT, YOU KNOW, WHAT JENN
HAS BEEN ABLE TO SEE IN ME IS ALL THOSE BEST PARTS THAT I
STRUGGLE TO SEE IN MYSELF AND I THINK THAT SHE'S MADE ME REALIZE
THAT I'M WELL ON MY WAY TO FIND TRUE LOVE AND I HONESTLY THINK
THAT'S WHY WE'RE HERE.
>> THAT'S BEAUTIFUL.
>> YEAH.
>> DO YOU FEEL CONFIDENT YOU ARE READY TO TAKE THAT NEXT STEP?
>> I GUESS I'M AT A POINT WHERE SHE MAKES ME BELIEVE THAT IS
POSSIBLE.
>> MARCUS DEFINITELY, YOU KNOW, PLAYED RING AROUND THE ROSIE A
LOT WITH MY QUESTIONS AND THAT'S CONCERNING ESPECIALLY GIVEN THAT
HE'S NOT THERE YET, AND SO IT'S MORE A QUESTION OF IS JENN
WILLING TO WAIT? THAT'S KIND OF THE BIG QUESTION
OF THE DAY.
>> HELLO.
>> HI.
>> THE QUESTION I WANTED TO ASK YOU, ARE YOU REALLY FALL IN LOVE
WITH JENN YET OR NOT?
>> I BELIEVE THAT I CAN GET THERE.
I KNOW THAT I'M NOT RIGHT NOW. THE LAST FEW WEEKS I'VE BEEN
BEATING MYSELF UP BECAUSE IT'S, LIKE, WHY AM I NOT FEELING LIKE
WHAT I WANT TO FEEL? I'VE BEEN MISSING THIS, LIKE,
FEELING OF CERTAINTY, AND I
THINK THAT KIND OF MAKES ME
UNSURE. I WANT TO GET THERE FOR HER.
THE ONLY REASON I'M STRUGGLING WITH IT IS BECAUSE OF HOW MUCH
PRESSURE I PUT ON MYSELF TO BE A GOOD HUSBAND AND A GOOD FATHER
AND TO BE ABLE TO PROVIDE THE THINGS THAT I, LIKE, DIDN'T HAVE
WHEN I WAS GROWING UP AND BE ABLE TO PROVIDE THE THINGS JENN
DIDN'T HAVE WHEN SHE WAS GROWING UP AND I WANT YOU TO KNOW THE
FEELINGS I HAVE FOR YOUR DAUGHTER ARE REAL, AND THAT I DO
BELIEVE THAT WE CAN GET THERE.
>> SO, YOU -- SO YOU'RE NOT READY FOR ENGAGED, RIGHT?
>> ENGAGEMENT IS A VERY BIG DEAL.
THAT'S A VERY BIG LIFE DECISION.
>> OKAY.
>> I WANT TO GET THERE AND THAT'S WHY I'M STILL HERE
BECAUSE I STILL THINK IT'S POSSIBLE.
>> THAT WOULD BE VERY IMPORTANT. IT LOOK LIKE HE NOT READY YET
SSO WITH JENN, WHERE IS HE?
>> WHAT ARE YOUR THOUGHTS SO FAR?
>> I'M NOT SURE TO BE HONEST. WHEN I SPOKE TO YOU EARLIER IN
THE DAY WITH DEVIN, ONE OF THE THINGS YOU FOUND COMFORTING WITH
HIM IS THE FACT THAT HE IS VULNERABLE WITH YOU, LIKE, HE IS
SHARING ALL THESE EMOTIONS AND ALL THESE FEELINGS AND IT'S
SOMETHING THAT YOU'RE LOOKING FOR IN A GUY.
DO YOU FEEL MARCUS IS GIVING YOU THE LOVE THAT YOU NEED RIGHT
NOW?
>> HE DEFINITELY COULD BE GIVING MORE, BUT DO I FEEL LIKE HE'S
REALLY CLOSE TO GETTING THERE, YES.
BUT I ALSO THINK THAT IT HAS A LITTLE BIT TO DO WITH THE TRAUMA
OF HOW HE WAS RAISED. IT DEFINITELY PLAYS INTO WHY
HE'S A LITTLE BIT SLOWER TO GET THERE WITH ME AND I THINK THAT'S
OKAY AS LONG AS WE GET THERE.
>> I'M NOT IN A POSITION TO KIND OF JUDGE THAT BECAUSE I DON'T
KNOW HOW TRAUMA AFFECTS PEOPLE. IT AFFECTS PEOPLE VERY
DIFFERENTLY.
>> YEAH.
>> BUT YOUR HISTORY WITH PEOPLE WHO ARE EMOTIONALLY UNAVAILABLE,
MARCUS KIND OF SEEMS TO FIT THAT MOLD.
>> YOU REALLY FEEL LIKE THAT.
>> YEAH. DO YOU THINK THEY'RE SIMILAR?
WHAT ARE YOUR THOUGHTS ON THAT?
>> I THINK WITH MARCUS HE'S VERY DIFFERENT.
HE IS A REALLY GOOD MAN, AND HE HAS GREAT INTENTIONS, BUT, YEAH,
IT IS A LITTLE CONCERNING THAT HE IS HESITANT AND DOES REMIND
ME OF PREVIOUS RELATIONSHIPS BUT I ALSO KNOW WHERE HIS HEART IS
AT AND HIS INTENTIONS AND HOW GENUINE AND SINCERE HE IS AND
FIGHTS FOR THE PEOPLE HE LOVES AND FIGHTS TO BE HERE FOR ME.
>> JENN IS CLEARLY OKAY WITH HIM NOT BEING IN LOVE JUST YET, BUT
IS THAT HER FALLING BACK INTO HER PATTERN WITH TOXIC
RELATIONSHIPS? SO I FEEL LIKE I NEED TO BE THE
ONE FROM AN OUTSIDE PERSPECTIVE TO BE, LIKE, HEY, THESE ARE SOME
THINGS YOU MAY NOT BE SEEING. IF YOU'RE GOING TO MAKE A
DECISION NOW DO YOU FEEL LIKE YOU'VE DONE EVERYTHING YOU CAN
WITH MARCUS?
>> I'VE GIVEN A LOT. SO --
>> YEAH.
>> YEAH, GIVEN A LOT.
>> I KNOW THAT IT SUCKS TO NOT HAVE THAT RECIPROCATED.
>> UH-HUH.
>> BUT HOW LONG ARE YOU WILLING TO WAIT?
>> YEAH, THAT, I DON'T KNOW. I THINK THAT'S A TOUGH ONE TO
ANSWER. I THINK THAT, UM, I'M NOT SURE.
>> MY BROTHER MEANS EVERYTHING TO ME.
WE'VE BEEN THROUGH IT ALL, AND HE'S REALLY THE ONLY PERSON IN
THIS WORLD THAT CAN TRULY UNDERSTAND ME.
HE REALLY KNOWS WHERE MY HEART IS AT AND THAT I AM TORN.
>> REGARDS TO WHAT HAPPENS I'M EXTREMELY, EXTREMELY PROUD OF
HOW FAR YOU'VE COME.
>> THANK YOU.
>> YOU KNOW I ONLY WANT THE BEST FOR YOU.
>> I KNOW YOU DO AND THAT'S WHY IT'S SO IMPORTANT FOR ME THAT
YOU'RE HERE TODAY. I KNOW HOW MUCH YOU CARE AND HOW
MUCH YOU WANT TO PROTECT ME AND HOW MUCH YOU WANT MY HAPPINESS
AND YOUR OPINION MATTERS TO ME MORE SO THAN ANYBODY ELSE'S
BECAUSE YOU KNOW ME BETTER THAN ANYBODY ELSE.
JAMES, AW.
SO SWEET.
THAT'S SO NICE.
>> EVERYTHING I WANT IN THE WORLD IS FOR JENN TO BE HAPPY.
SHE'S MY LITTLE SISTER. I LOVE HER A LOT.
IF SHE STRUGGLES WITH SOMETHING I'M ALSO STRUGGLING WITH THE
SAME THING. I KNOW SHE'S GOT A HARD DECISION
TO MAKE AHEAD OF HER SO I WANT TO MAKE SURE THAT SHE'S SEEING
CLEARLY. I DO NOT ENVY YOUR POSITION.
THIS IS TOUGH.
>> OH.
>> BUT I'M SUPER PROUD.
>> THANK YOU. COME HERE.
>> MY BROTHER IS REALLY EMPATHETIC TO THE POSITION I'M
IN. HE IS SOMEONE WHO I GENUINELY KNOW WILL ALWAYS HAVE MY BEST
INTERESTS AT HEART, SO TALKING TO JAMES, IT DEFINITELY GOT ME
THINKING AND I DO HAVE HOPE FOR MARCUS AND I BUT AT THE SAME
TIME, I DON'T WANT TO REPEAT HISTORY.
>> TRINH, SO GOOD MEETING YOU.
>> I LOVE MARCUS. I REALLY COULD SEE A FUTURE FOR
US, BUT ENGAGEMENT IS COMING UP AND THERE'S TOO MUCH UNKNOWN FOR
ME. I NEED TO ASK HIM FOR MYSELF AND
SEE WHERE HE REALLY IS AT, BECAUSE IT'S THIS WEEK.
>> THEY'RE NOT EASY. THEY SAID THINGS THAT WERE HARD
TO HEAR AND WASN'T LIKE THE EASIEST DAY FOR ME, BUT I KNOW
THAT IT'S ALL COMING FROM A PLACE OF LOVE AND IT'S ALL
COMING FROM THE FACT THEY LOVE ME SO MUCH AND TRULY WANT THE
BEST FOR ME. MY QUESTION IS, HOW DO YOU SEE
THIS ENDING FOR US?
>> I MEAN, IT WAS DIFFICULT BUT I DEFINITELY THINK THAT, LIKE,
TODAY WAS PROGRESS. I THINK THAT TODAY HELPED.
>> IT'S THIS WEEK, IT'S COMING UP.
>> OH, YEAH.
>> I THINK I WANT TO KNOW WHERE ARE YOU AT WITH YOUR FEELINGS?
>> SO, I THINK THAT, YOU KNOW,
I'VE BEEN -- THE THING I'VE BEEN STRUGGLING WITH --
>> ARE YOU NOT CERTAIN ABOUT ME?
>> NO. I THINK IT'S THE PRESSURE THAT
I'M PUTTING ON MYSELF TO, LIKE HAVE AND BUILD THAT FAMILY THAT
I NEVER HAD. AND TO BE ABLE TO BE THERE, LIKE
PROVIDE FOR YOU IN WAYS THAT YOU
HAVEN'T HAD AND, UM, I'M TRYING
BECAUSE IT'S POSSIBLE.
>> I'M LEAVING ANOTHER CONVERSATION ABOUT THE FUTURE
WITH MARCUS CONFUSED. I MEANING, OUR CONNECTION IS SO
STRONG, BUT I WANT ANSWERS, AND I'M JUST NOT GETTING THEM.
>> IT IS THE LAST WEEK THAT WE'RE HERE, AND I SHOULDN'T FEEL
CONFUSED WITH SOMEBODY. MY FAMILY BROUGHT UP A LOT OF
CONCERNS THAT I KNEW THAT THEY WERE GOING TO HAVE WITH THESE
GUYS, SO I HAVE A LOT TO THINK ABOUT AND A REALLY BIG DECISION
TO MAKE.
[ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ]
>>> WE ARE BACK WITH A LIVE FINALE OF "THE BACHELORETTE."
DEVIN AND MARCUS HAVE BOTH MET JENN'S FAMILY AND WHILE SHE WAS
HOPING TO GET CLARITY INTEREST THOSE VISIT, JENN NOW SEEMS TO
BE LEFT WITH MORE QUESTIONS THAN ANSWERS.
IS SHE AS HER FAMILY SUGGESTED CHASING EXCLUSIVELY UNAVAILABLE
MEN. WELL, JENN'S FAMILY IS HERE TONIGHT INCLUDING HER OLDER
BROTHER, JAMES. GREAT TO SEE YOU.
I WAS LOOKING OVER A MOMENT AGO. YOU REALLY WERE GETTING
EMOTIONAL AS YOU WERE WATCHING THAT BACK.
YOU CAN CLEARLY SEE HOW MUCH YOU CARE ABOUT YOUR LITTLE SISTER.
HOW ARE YOU FEELING ABOUT EVERYTHING AT THIS POINT.
>> AT THE MOMENT I'M NOT TOO HAPPY SO --
>> OKAY. WELL, AS YOU CAN TELL BY NOW,
SOMETHING'S DEFINITELY GOING ON HERE. WHAT IS IT?
YOU'RE GOING TO FIND OUT.
LET'S KEEP WATCHING.
>> MY FAMILIAR HAS NOW MET BOTH DEVIN AND MARCUS AND THEY
DEFINITELY HAVE CONCERNS. I HAVE A HISTORY OF BEING WITH
MEN WHO AREN'T GIVING ME EVERYTHING THAT I NEED AND
DESERVE, SO IT'S A BIG CONCERN FOR MY FAMILY BEING THAT I MIGHT
BE REPEATING HISTORY. GOING INTO THESE LAST DATES
BEFORE AN ENGAGEMENT, I'M LOOK FOR A PARTNER WHO'S GOING TO BE
THERE FOR ME.
♪
TODAY IS MY DATE WITH DEVIN AND I'M SO EXCITED TO SEE HIM.
IT IS OUR FINAL DATE BARACK A PROPOSAL, BEFORE AN ENGAGEMENT,
SO, YOU KNOW, THERE IS A LOT OF WEIGHT ON TODAY.
>> HI, YOU.
>> HELLO, HELLO. HI, BABY.
>> HOW ARE YOU?
>> I'M GOOD.
>> MY BIGGEST CONCERN WITH DEVIN IS SOMETIMES HE CAN GET IN HIS
HEAD AND SELF-SABOTAGE AND THAT'S ALWAYS A POSSIBILITY AND
DEFINITELY SCARES ME.
>> ARE YOU EXCITED FOR TODAY.
>> I AM. WHAT DO YOU HAVE IN STORE FOR ME?
>> SOMETHING REALLY FUN. IT WILL GIVE US A LOT OF INSIGHT
INTO EACH OTHER EVEN MORE SO THAN WE HAVE.
>> I'M EXCITED. I'M READY.
>> LET'S GO.
>> SEEING JENN, THAT'S A GREAT FEELING.
I LOVE THAT MOMENT EVERY TIME I GET IT. YOU KNOW, I DO LOVE JENN.
THERE'S NO DOUBTS ABOUT THAT BUT A LOT OF TIMES I'LL CREATE A BAD
THING IN MY MIND BECAUSE MEETING HER FAMILY, IT WASN'T PERFECT.
THAT SCARES ME. I WANT TO MAKE SURE THAT MY
HEART AND MY HEAD ARE BOTH IN THE RIGHT PLACE HERE AND MAYBE
TODAY HOPEFULLY SHED SOME LIGHT ON THAT.
>> ALOHA. WELCOME, WELCOME.
>> HI.
>> IS THIS FOR ME?
>> THANK YOU.
>> THIS IS A LEI FOR A SACRED CEREMONY.
>> YOU ARE GOING TO DO A HAWAIIAN SPIRITUAL CEREMONY.
♪
THIS CEREMONY HAPPENS BEFORE ANY BIG LIFE EVENT AND THE CEREMONY
IS REALLY ABOUT LETTING GO OF THE PAST AND EMBRACING YOUR
FUTURE.
♪
THIS DAY IS KIND OF A PERFECT THING FOR US TO BOTH BE ABLE TO
REVEAL OUR FEARS GOING INTO THE FUTURE AND JUST PUT PAST ALL THE
CONCERNS THAT WE'VE BEEN HAVING.
>> SOMETIMES IN-BAD THINGS
HAPPEN. AN A STONE GOES INTO YOUR BOWL
AND THEN TWO PEOPLE MEET. IF THERE ARE STONES IN YOUR
BOWL, THEN THEY WON'T GO TOGETHER.
>> AS I'M DOING THE CEREMONY WITH JENN, I REALIZE THAT IT
SCARES ME THAT I OVERTHINK A LOT OF SITUATIONS, YOU KNOW, I NEVER
HAD SOMETHING GOOD LIKE THIS BEFORE AND SO FOR ME I'M
THINKING HOW COULD IT BE
POSSIBLE? I DON'T WANT HER TO FEEL THE
WEIGHT OF WHAT'S SCARING ME AND DOUBT IN MY HEAD, YOU KNOW.
>> WE WANT FOR YOU TO EACH FIND THE LAVA ROCK THAT REPRESENTS
THE FEAR. THE --
[ SPEAKING NON-ENGLISH ]
>> THIS IS A VERY BIG ROCK. SOMETHING THAT SCARES ME ABOUT
THE FUTURE IS THAT FEAR OF ABANDONMENT.
I HAVE BEEN STRUGGLING WITH THAT MY WHOLE LIFE AND JUST FEELING
LIKE PEOPLE ARE GOING TO LEAVE ME, SO I REALLY WANT TO BE ABLE
TO PUT THAT FEAR BEHIND ME.
>> WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO WITH THAT ONE?
>> FOR GETTING RID OF --
>> IT'S A HEAVY PATH.
>> YES.
>> WHAT CAME UP FOR YOU GUYS?
>> YEAH, I'M JUST WORRIED THAT, YOU KNOW, I -- WHEN I HAVE A
GOOD THING, YOU KNOW, I CAN'T LET GO OF THE BAD IN MY LIFE
AND, YOU KNOW, JUST WANT TO TAKE THE GOOD FOR THE GOOD AND EASIER
SAID THAN DONE.
>> HOW ABOUT YOU?
>> IT WAS FEAR OF ABANDONMENT.
YOU KNOW, I'M JUST AFRAID THAT
MY DAD NOT BEING PRESENT AND OTHER FAMILY MEMBERS WHEN THINGS
ARE TOUGH, I'VE BEEN ALONE AND KIND OF FIGURED IT OUT AND IT'S
SOMETHING THAT I DON'T WANT TO BE AFRAID OF ANYMORE IN THE
FUTURE.
>> WHEN JENN SAID FEAR OF ABANDONMENT, AT THE BARE ESSENCE
OF IT THAT'S ALL I'VE EVER WANTED IS SOMEBODY TO STAY AND
BE THERE FOR ME AND SO, YOU KNOW, IT MADE ME WANT TO BE
THERE FOR HER IN THIS MOMENT. THAT'S NOT JUST ABOUT ME ANYMORE.
IT'S ABOUT US AND JENN IS THAT G GOOD THING IN MY LIFE.
>> WITH GREAT INTENTION YOU ARE RELEASING THE FEAR.
>> YOU PUT ALL THIS WEIGHT INTO THE NEGATIVE AND YOU TRY AS HARD
AS YOU CAN.
>> BYE!
THAT FELT GOOD. I DO FEEL A LITTLE LIGHTER AND
BEING AGE TO TALK ABOUT MY PAST.
>> NOW WE WILL FULLY SUBMERGE INTO THE OCEAN.
>> IT'S BEEN A HEAVY PART OF ME THAT'S BEEN WEIGHING ME DOWN FOR
SO LONG. I DON'T WANT IT TO KEEP HOLDING
ME BACK FROM HIM BEING THE TRUE LOVE THAT I NEED.
NOW THAT WE'VE RELEASED OUR FEARS INTO THE OCEAN, IT TRULY
FEELS LIKE THIS NEW REBIRTH OF MYSELF.
>> WE'RE ALWAYS DOING SPIRITUAL STUFF TOGETHER.
>> I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE GOOD FOR THIS WEEK.
>> YEAH, IT WAS.
>> LETTING GO OF SOME THINGS, RIGHT?
>> OBVIOUSLY I'D BE LYING IF I SAID I WAS, YOU KNOW, SCARRED BY
THINGS THAT HAVE HAPPENED TO ME IN MY PAST AND I KNOW THAT
THAT'S KIND OF HINDERED ME FROM SEEING GOOD THINGS IN MY FUTURE
AND THAT DOES SCARE ME A LITTLE BIT THAT, YOU KNOW, I CAN WAKE
UP SO CONFIDENT ONE DAY AND THE NEXT DAY I CAN WAKE UP DOUBTING
THINGS.
>> I KNOW. I KNOW IT'S NOT EASY.
>> I KNOW YOU KNOW IT'S NOT EASY.
>> I KNOW IT'S NOT EASY. I REALLY WANT HIM TO KNOW THAT.
>> I DO NOT THAT.
>> I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE FUTURE HOLDS FOR US.
I KNOW THAT A LOT OF MY PROBLEMS ARE SELF-CREATED AND I KNOW HOW
MY HEAD GETS AND HOW MY MIND GETS WHENEVER I TRY TO FIGURE
OUT A LOT OF MY PROBLEMS ALONE AND ONE THING I LEARNED ABOUT
JENN IS THEY NOW WANT TO FIGURE IT OUT WITH HER.
TONIGHT IS MY LAST CONVERSATION WITH JENN AND I WANT IT TO BE
MEANINGFUL. MARCUS IS STILL HERE.
I WISH I COULD SAY IT WAS ME BUT I DON'T.
♪
>>> JENN SAID EARLIER TODAY ABANDONMENT WAS SOMETHING SHE
WAS LOOKING TO LET GO OF. YOU KNOW, I'VE NEVER HEARD HER
TALK ABOUT THAT THE WAY SHE DID TODAY AND IT MADE ME WANT TO BE
THERE FOR HER.
>> OH.
>> HELLO, BEAUTIFUL.
>> HI.
>> TONIGHT I WANT HER TO FEEL THE WEIGHT OF MY SOUL, I WANT TO
MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS I'M HERE TO FIGHT FOR HER EVERY DAY.
NOT BEING CHOSEN, NOT BEING THE ONE AT THE END OF ALL THIS, I
WOULD BE CRUSHED. YOU LOOK ABSOLUTELY STUNNING.
>> THANK YOU, SO DO YOU. YOU LOOK GOOD IS THERE THANK
YOU.
>> DID YOU HAVE A GOOD DAY TODAY.
>> I DID. DID YOU?
>> I ACTUALLY HAD A FANTASTIC DAY.
>> YOU DID.
>> I ALWAYS HAVE GOOD DAYS WITH YOU.
>> SO DO I. I TOOK THE STONES AND THREW THEM
IN THE OCEAN.
>> I HAD A LOT OF STONES IN MY CUP.
>> SO DO I.
>> AS SCARED AS I AM ABOUT THE FUTURE, I'M NOT SCARED OF IT AS
MUCH WITH YOU AND IT'S A GOOD FEELING TO HAVE.
YOU ARE THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IN MY LIFE AND I LOVE THE
THOUGHT OF FOREVER WITH YOU.
I COULD LEAVE HERE CRYING BUT I JUST YOUR JUDGMENT.
I KNOW I'VE SAID IT BEFORE BUT I'M GOING TO CONTINUE TO TRUST
THAT.
>> WHEN YOU SAY YOU TRUST ME, IT MEANS MORE THAN YOU KNOW.
>> I DO TRUST YOU.
>> I KNOW. AND IT MEANS THAT YOU SEE ME AND
YOU UNDERSTAND ME AND YOU GET WHERE I'M COMING FROM AND THAT'S
NOT SOMETHING THAT I'VE EVER REALLY HAD.
IT'S LIKE MORE OF THAT THE FACT THAT YOU SEE ME COMPLETELY.
>> I DO SEE YOU COMPLETELY. I DO CONTINUE TO TRUST YOU, IT'S
ALMOST OVER. I HAVE A GIFT FOR YOU THAT I
THINK REFLECTS ON OUR ENTIRE JOURNEY AND I HID IT UNDER THE
COUCH SO YOU COULDN'T FIND IT.
>> OOH. FOR ME?
>> YES. SO, THIS WAS A GIFT THAT I GOT
FROM THE SHAMAN ON OUR VERY FIRST DATE.
>> THIS IS THE RIPPLES. THEY TELL DIFFERENT STORIES.
HOW WOULD YOU GIVE THAT MORE MEANING?
>> IT'S ALMOST LIKE A FLUID MOTION.
EVERYTHING COMES TOGETHER AND IT ALL FLOWS AND IT INTERTWINES BUT
COMES BACK TOGETHER.
>> WOULD YOU ACCEPT THIS GIFT.
>> ABSOLUTELY.
>> FROM US? AND THE HOPE THAT YOU'LL BE
GIFTING IT TO SOMEONE THAT DESERVES THAT STORY.
>> YES.
>> THE SHAM MAN TOLD ME NOT TO GIVE IT OUT UNTIL I KNEW WHO I
WANTED TO GIVE IT TO FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE AND I CAN'T BE
MORE PROUD TO SAY I WANT TO GIVE IT TO YOU AND FOR GOOD OR BAD
SOMETHING I ALWAYS WANT YOU TO HAVE AND A PIECE OF ME I CAN
NEVER TAKE BACK.
>> THIS MEANS A LOT TO ME. IT REALLY DOES.
IT SHOWS THE COMMITMENT AND I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU'VE BEEN
HOLDING ON TO THIS.
>> I KNOW. I KNOW.
>> IT'S CRAZY. I HAD NO IDEA THAT YOU EVEN HAD
THIS.
>> I KNOW.
>> DEVIN JUST KEEPS BLOWING ME AWAY AND I DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW
HE'S DOING IT BUT HE DAVE ME SOMETHING THAT IS IMPORTANT TO
HIM AND TO OUR JOURNEY. HE COULD HAVE GIVEN THIS TO ME
AT A LOT OF DIFFERENT POINTS IN TIME BUT THE FACT THAT HE WAITED
THIS LONG TO GIVE IT TO ME TONIGHT MEANS THAT HE'S FULLY
READY TO MAKE THAT COMMITMENT AND I DON'T TAKE THAT LIGHTLY AT
ALL.
>> WHY ARE YOU SMILING LIKE THAT?
>> YOU SILLY.
>> ME SILLY? YOU SILLY. YOU WILL CONTINUED TO BE LOVED
LIKE THAT. YOU HAVE TO JUST LOVE ME BACK.
>> I LOVE YOU.
>> AFTER SPENDING THE DAY WITH DEVIN AND REPLAYING OUR ENTIRE
RELATIONSHIP AND HOW MUCH IT'S GROWN AND HOW MUCH IT'S PROVIDED
ME AND HOW MUCH MEANING THERE IS BEHIND IT, I'VE JUST COME TO
REALIZE HOW IMPORTANT DEVIN IS TO ME. I CAME INTO THIS NOT
UNDERSTANDING EXACTLY WHAT AN UNCONDITIONAL LOVE COULD FEEL
LIKE OR LOOK LIKE FROM A PARTNER AND I THINK DEVIN REALLY SHOWS
ME THAT. THERE'S LIKE NO HOLDING BACK
WITH HIM.
>> GOOD NIGHT.
>> MY HEAD IS KIND OF ALL OVER THE PLACE RIGHT NOW.
TOMORROW IS A BIG DAY. I HAVE A DATE WITH MARCUS.
I LOVE HIM TOO BUT I DON'T KNOW IF MARCUS IS REALLY ABLE TO
EXPRESS HIS FEELINGS FOR ME. AND IT'S SCARY TO THINK ABOUT
THAT BECAUSE WE NEED TO KNOW THAT I'M NOT GOING TO GET HURT.
>> SO HOW WILL JENN MAKE HER DECISION WITH THE DRAMATIC
PROPOSAL RIGHT AROUND THE CORNER? MARCUS HAS ONE MORE DAY WITH
JENN. WILL HE FINALLY ADMIT THAT HE IS
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♪
>> DOCTOR, WELCOME ABOARD "THE ODYSSEY."
♪ WOULDN'T IT BE NICE
>> THIS SHIP IS HEAVEN.
♪ TO LIVE TOGETHER
>> OUR MISSION IS TO PRESERVE THE DREAM.
♪ IN THE KIND OF WORLD THAT WE
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>> AND THAT'S WHY YOU'RE HERE.
>> I'M IN.
♪ THAT MUCH BETTER
>> KEEP THEM SAFE. YOU'LL BE OKAY.
♪ WOULDN'T IT BE NICE IF WE
COULD WAKE UP IN THE MORNING WHEN THE DAY IS THROUGH ♪
♪ AND AFTER THAT
>> NOT A QUESTION OF WHEN YOU ENCOUNTER WAVES.
♪ THE WHOLE NIGHT THROUGH
>> BRACE FOR IMPACT.
>> BUT WHAT YOU DO WHEN THEY COME UP.
>> KEEP BREATHING.
♪ WOULDN'T IT BE NICE
>>> WAKING UP THIS MORNING, THERE'S SO MANY THINGS RUNNING
THROUGH MY MIND AND I JUST -- I'M JUST FRUSTRATED AND NOW I'M
CONFUSED. YESTERDAY I HAD AN AMAZING DATE
WITH DEVIN, AND, YOU KNOW, THERE WAS SO MUCH LOVE BETWEEN THE TWO
OF US AND SO MUCH RESPECT AND UNDERSTANDING AND SOMEONE THAT
KNOWS THAT THEY WANT A FUTURE WITH ME AND KNOWS WHAT THAT
LOOKS LIKE. TODAY IS MY LAST DATE WITH
MARCUS, BUT I STILL DON'T REALLY KNOW WHERE HIS HEAD IS AT.
HIS UNCERTAINTY IS MAKING ME UNCERTAIN.
I'VE GIVEN MARCUS EVERY OPPORTUNITY TO TELL ME THAT HE
LOVES ME. I HAVE LOVED HIM HARD. I'VE GIVEN MYSELF AND I'VE
OPENED MYSELF UP TO HIM SO MUCH, BUT AT THIS POINT I CAN'T HELP
BUT BE IN MY HEAD AND WORRY IF I'M MAKING PAST MISTAKES AND
REPEATING HISTORY, AND SO I HAVE A LOT TO THINK ABOUT.
>> WHAT'S UP, MAN?
>> JESSE, GOOD TO SEE YOU.
>> YOU DOING ALL RIGHT?
>> YEAH.
>> GOOD SEEING YOU TOO. EXCITED TO CATCH UP WITH YOU.
I WANTED TO GET BROUGHT UP ON EVERYTHING.
>> YEAH, NO, A LOT HAS HAPPENED SINCE WE CHATTED LAST.
>> YEAH. HOW DID IT GO WITH MEETING
JENN'S FAMILY?
>> I THINK THAT, YOU KNOW, WHEN I WENT INTO IT I WAS A LITTLE
BIT NERVOUS BECAUSE EVEN THOUGH I WANTED TO GO IN THERE AND, YOU
KNOW, I LOVE YOUR DAUGHTER AND EVERYTHING IS GREAT AND I HAVE
NO DOUBTS AND, YOU KNOW, DON'T WORRY ABOUT US, I KIND OF LED
WITH THE TRUTH AND KIND OF LET THEM KNOW THAT, YOU KNOW, I'VE
BEEN FEELING A BIT CONFLICTED AND, UM, AND STRUGGLING WITH,
YOU KNOW, THIS DOUBT OF WHETHER OR NOT JENN AND I ARE MEANT FOR
EACH OTHER.
>> I KNOW THE LAST TIME WE TALKED YOU WERE SAYING YOU
WEREN'T SURE YOU COULD GET THERE BUT THAT WAS BEFORE OVERNIGHTS
AND BEFORE YOU MET HER FAMILY. HOW HAVE FEELINGS CHANGED?
>> YEAH, I THINK, I THINK EVERY TIME THAT I GET TO BE WITH JENN,
EVERY TIME WE GET TO SPEND TIME TOGETHER, WE ARE MAKING
PROGRESS, AND THAT CONNECTION GETS A LITTLE STRONGER, SO
CROSSING MY FINGERS THAT OUR DATE GOES WELL.
ONE THING I PROMISED JENN WAS THAT IF I PROPOSE TO HER AT THE
END OF THIS, IT'S BECAUSE, YOU KNOW, MY HEAD AND MY HEART WERE
IN THE RIGHT PLACES. I JUST WANT JENN TO BE HAPPY.
I WANT WHAT'S BEST FOR HER, AND THAT'S ONE OF THE THINGS THAT I
KNOW FOR SURE IS THAT I CARE
ABOUT HER DEEPLY, YOU KNOW.
>> SO, I MEAN, LIKE, AT THIS POINT IS IT MORE THAT YOU'RE IN
LOVE WITH JENN, YOU'RE JUST AFRAID TO HELD HER OR YOU'RE
JUST NOT SURE IF YOU'RE STILL IN LOVE WITH HER?
>> YOU KNOW, PART OF ME REALLY DOES LOVE JENN, YOU KNOW.
IT'S ABOUT GETTING TO A POINT WHERE YOU CAN LOVE SOMEONE AND
BE, YOU KNOW, UNAFRAID. I THINK IT'S ABOUT LOVING
SOMEONE FULLY AND LOVING SOMEONE WITH, YOU KNOW, CERTAINTY AND
THAT'S KIND OF WHERE I'M TORN RIGHT NOW.
I'VE NEVER BEEN SO TORN.
>> I KNOW THIS LAST DATE IS A BIG OPPORTUNITY TOO, AND,
LISTEN, I'M NOT TELLING YOU HOW YOU SHOULD FEEL OR HOW YOU'RE
SUPPOSED TO FEEL ABOUT HER, BUT I DO THINK IT'S REALLY IMPORTANT
THAT IF DEEP DOWN INSIDE AS SCARY AS IT IS TO ADMIT IT, IF,
IN FACT, YOU DO LOVE THIS WOMAN, I THINK YOU GOT TO TELL HER,
BECAUSE I'M AFRAID YOU'RE GOING TO LOSE HER IF YOU DON'T.
I JUST WISH YOU THE BEST. ALL RIGHT, BROTHER.
GOOD LUCK.
>> TALKING WITH JESSE, IT WAS DEFINITELY A WAKE-UP CALL
KNOWING THAT I ONLY HAD ONE MORE DATE WITH JENN, BEST CASE
SCENARIO IS THAT I CAN SAY FOR CERTAIN THAT I LOVE HER AND I'M
STARTING TO REALIZE NOW MORE THAN EVER THAT THERE IS GOING TO
BE A LEAP OF FAITH THAT YOU HAVE TO TAKE IN THE END.
>> BEFORE I EVEN DO THIS DATE WITH MARCUS, I HAVE SO MANY
QUESTIONS THAT I NEED ANSWERS TO. I DON'T WANT TO PUT ON A FAKE
SMILE ALL DAY. I WANT TO BE ABLE TO TALK TO
HIM, AND I WANT TO BE ABLE TO UNDERSTAND WHERE HE'S AT.
THE LAST TIME I SAW MARCUS WAS WHEN HE MET MY FAMILY, AND I
SAID I LOVE YOU AND HE SAID NOTHING BACK AND HE CAN SAY HE'S
HOPEFUL FOR LOVE AND AN ENGAGEMENT BUT IS IT WITH ME?
I NEED ANSWERS FROM MARCUS, AND I'M NOT GOING TO WAIT ANY LONGER.
[ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ]
>>> WELCOME BACK TO THE LIVE "BACHELORETTE" FINALE.
OKAY, SO HOW IS THIS WHOLE THING GOING TO END?
JENN IS ON THE WAY TO MARCUS' DOOR, AND SHE WANTS ANSWERS.
BUT IS SHE GOING TO GET THEM?
LET'S FIND OUT.
>> HI.
>> HELLO.
>> HOW ARE YOU?
>> GOOD. HOW ARE YOU?
>> GOOD.
>> I WASN'T EXPECTING YOU.
>> WANT TO TALK?
>> YEAH.
>> HOW ARE YOU?
>> A LITTLE NERVOUS, BUT GOOD.
>> I WANTED TO COME AND, LIKE, TALK TO YOU AND SEE YOU AND, YOU
KNOW, THERE'S AN ENGAGEMENT TOMORROW AND WHATEVER THAT MEANS
TO YOU, IT'S, LIKE, I DON'T KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS TO YOU.
I DON'T KNOW WHERE YOUR HEAD IS AT AND I THINK YOU KEEP SAYING
YOU'RE HOPEFUL FOR IT AND WANT TO GET THERE WITH YOUR FEELINGS,
BUT IT'S LIKE RUNNING OUT OF TIME.
>> I KNOW.
>> ARE WE GOING TO GO ON A DATE AND YOU'RE GOING TO GET THERE
AND YOU'RE GOING TO PROPOSE AND THEN IT'S YOU'RE GOING TO GET
THERE AND THEN WE'RE GOING TO DATE BECAUSE YOU WANT THAT OR
BECAUSE YOU SEE ME IN YOUR FUTURE OR YOU DON'T OR YOU -- I
DON'T -- I DON'T KNOW AND THEN ON YOUR OWVERNIGHTS WE WERE
TALKING ABOUT THE FUTURE, AT LEAST I WAS TRYING TO AND I
DON'T KNOW IF YOU WERE EXCITED ABOUT THAT OR SAW ME IN ANY OF
THAT AND I DON'T KNOW IF YOU SEE
ME IN YOUR FUTURE.
>> UM, YEAH, I MEAN I THINK I
REGRET, LIKE, NOT DIVING DEEPER,
WHAT THE FUTURE LOOKS LIKE.
>> I FEEL LIKE I TRIED AND YOU
JUST DIDN'T WANT TO.
LIKE, I DON'T KNOW HOW I'M SUPPOSED TO TAKE THAT.
YOU DON'T KNOW. I FELT LIKE YOU WEREN'T EXCITED
FOR THE FUTURE.
>> I DON'T THINK THAT IT'S NOT THAT I CAN'T PICTURE IT, OR THAT
IT'S NOT EXCITING, I THINK IT'S
JUST THAT IT'S SCARY TO ME. YEAH, I MEAN LIKE I'M
STRUGGLING.
FOR SURE.
>> I DON'T KNOW HOW I'M SUPPOSED TO PROCESS ALL THIS.
I MEAN, IT'S LIKE, WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO TELL ME?
>> I MEAN, I THINK THAT I'VE BEEN HONEST ABOUT STRUGGLING AND
I'M NOT KEEPING ANYTHING FROM YOU.
I'M NOT KEEPING ANY ANSWERS FROM
YOU.
I DON'T KNOW, LIKE, I THINK I HAVE MY OWN CERTAINTIES BUT LIKE
YOU MAKE ME WANT TO KEEP TRYING AND I WANT TO KEEP TRYING.
MY HIGHEST ASPIRATION IN LIFE IS TO FIND LOVE, TO FIND MY PERSON
AND TO START A FAMILY. AND I THINK THAT THAT'S WHAT'S
BEEN THERE.
>> I KNOW THAT, BUT IS THAT WITH
ME?
>> I KNOW THAT MY FEELINGS FOR YOU ARE REAL AND THAT I CAN
PICTURE IT WITH YOU. I DON'T KNOW, LIKE, MAYBE I'M
PUTTING TOO MUCH PRESSURE ON MYSELF OR, I DON'T KNOW, I JUST
DIDN'T THINK THAT IT WOULD BE THIS HARD AND I THINK IT'S BEEN
CONFUSING FOR ME BECAUSE I DON'T
UNDERSTAND WHY IT'S SO, LIKE,
SCARY FOR ME TO MOVE FORWARD OR THINK ABOUT THAT WITH SOMEONE I
CARE SO MUCH ABOUT, SO --
>> I'VE BEEN INVESTING SO MUCH INTO US, MARCUS, SINCE THE
BEGINNING.
I DIDN'T KNOW THAT I WOULD BE INVESTING SO MUCH INTO SOMEBODY
AND SO MANY FEELINGS AND SO MANY EMOTIONS AND SO MUCH TIME AND
EFFORT AND ENERGY AND SO MUCH OF ME INTO SOMEBODY AND IT HURTS ME
BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH IT NOW.
WHERE AM I SUPPOSED TO GO FROM HERE?
I FEEL LIKE MY WHOLE LIFE WHAT I'VE BEEN DOING IS INVESTING AND
GIVING PIECES OF ME TO PEOPLE AND I DON'T KNOW WHY BUT IT'S
NOT BEING HANDLED WITH CARE. IT'S NOT BEING -- IT'S GETTING
TAKEN FOR GRANTED AND AT SOME POINT I AM JUST TIRED OF IT AND
I DON'T WANT TO FEEL THIS WAY.
>> I'M SORRY, I JUST, LIKE, AT
THE END OF THE DAY, LIKE, I KNOW
THAT I LOVE YOU.
I WANT TO BE THE TYPE OF PERSON THAT FIGHTS FOR IT.
LIKE, I WANT TO DO THIS WITH YOU.
I WANT TO GIVE IT A TRY.
YOU KNOW, I DON'T WANT TO GIVE
UP ON US.
>> I JUST NEED A SECOND.
>> I NEED TO FIGURE OUT WHAT TO DO WITH MARCUS AND I.
I'M JUST, I THINK, CONFLICTED AND CONFUSED.
MARCUS SAYS THAT HE LOVES ME, AND I THINK I'M JUST
OVERWHELMED. A LOT TO BE PROCESSING.
I HAVE BEEN WAITING TO HEAR THOSE WORDS, BUT I HAVE A PIT IN
MY STOMACH AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT
TO DO WITH IT.
>> OKAY. SO MARCUS IS IN LOVE WITH JENN,
AND HE TOLD HER THAT. WILL THAT SINGLE ADMISSION
CHANGE EVERYTHING? WE'RE GOING TO FIND OUT RIGHT
AFTER THE BREAK.
>>> I'M VERY FRUSTRATED WITH MARCUS.
LIKE, HE SAYS THAT HE LOVES ME, BUT I INVESTED SO MUCH OF MY
FEELINGS AND TIME AND ALSO JUST HOPE INTO THE RELATIONSHIP AND I
THINK THE CERTAINTY IN OUR RELATIONSHIP IS JUST DWINDLING
DOWN.
AND I'M SICK AND TIRED OF
INVESTING SO MUCH TIME AND ENERGY TO SOMEONE WHO DOESN'T
FEEL THE SAME WAY.
>> ARE YOU OKAY?
>> YEAH. ARE YOU?
>> YEAH, I JUST FEEL LIKE A LITTLE OFF RIGHT NOW.
ACTUALLY.
I'M AFRAID OF LOSING YOU.
I DID FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU, AND
I WAS AFRAID TO TELL YOU BECAUSE IT'S CLEAR TO ME THAT YOU KNOW
WHAT YOU WANT AND I THINK THAT THAT'S WHAT I'VE REALLY BEEN,
YOU KNOW, ASKING MYSELF SOME PRETTY HARD QUESTIONS, AND
REALLY BEING HONEST WITH MYSELF ALTHOUGH CAN I LIVE UP TO WHAT
IT IS THAT YOU KNOW JENN IS SAYING, THAT YOU'RE SAYING THAT
YOU NEED, AND I'M, LIKE, NOT
GIVING YOU WHAT YOU NEED.
>> I OPENED MY HEART TO YOU EVERY SECOND THAT I GOT.
>> I KNOW.
>> AND I THINK I GOT LOST IN IT AND MAYBE GAVE TOO MUCH ALONG
THE WAY AND I'M AT A PLACE WHERE I FEEL LIKE I'VE BEEN AT MY
ENTIRE LIFE, GIVING AND GIVING AND TRYING TO PROVE MYSELF TO
SOMEBODY AND TRYING TO PROVE THAT I'M WORTH IT AND TRYING TO
PROVE THAT I'M SOMEONE WORTH IT
AND I KNOW THAT I'M WORTH IT.
I'M DONE HINGING MY FUTURE ON SOMEBODY BEING AFRAID TO LOSE ME.
I'M DONE WAITING AROUND FOR
SOMEBODY TO GET THERE.
I'M JUST DONE. I GENUINELY HAD SO MUCH HOPE FOR
US.
>> I'M AFRAID THAT, LIKE, I'M NOT GOING TO FIND SOMEONE LIKE
YOU AGAIN.
>> I KNOW WHAT AN AMAZING GUY YOU ARE AND THAT'S WHY I HAVE
WAITED FOR SO LONG, BUT I KNOW THAT I DESERVE A PARTNER THAT
GIVES AS MUCH AS I GIVE AND I KNOW WHAT I WANT FOR MY FUTURE,
AND I KNOW IT'S NOT THIS FEELING ANYMORE.
THANK YOU FOR BEING HONEST WITH ME.
I THINK YOUR UNCERTAINTY IN THIS ALLOWED ME TO GIVE MYSELF
ANSWERS AND GIVE MYSELF THE LOVE
BACK TO ME THAT I NEEDED.
>> I NEVER THOUGHT THAT MARCUS AND I WOULD BE AT THIS POINT.
IT HURTS BECAUSE I HAVE TO SAY GOOD-BYE TO SOMEONE THAT I
REALLY CARED ABOUT. MY ENTIRE LIFE HAS BEEN POURING
INTO PEOPLE AND WISHING THAT THEY WOULD GET THERE WITH ME.
WISHING THAT THEY WOULD GIVE ME THE LOVE THAT I WANTED SO BADLY,
AND I'M FINALLY LETTING GO A PART OF ME THAT I'VE JUST BEEN
HOLDING ON TO FOR SO LONG.
THINKING ABOUT, YOU KNOW, THE GOOD TIMES THAT WE HAD, IT WAS
HARD FOR ME TO DO ALL THAT.
BUT I DON'T WANT TO FEEL LIKE IT'S GETTING TAKEN FOR GRANTED
ANYMORE.
>> I RESPECT THAT. I THOUGHT THAT I WAS GOING TO
HAVE A WHOLE DAY WITH HER. I DIDN'T THINK THAT THAT
CONVERSATION WAS GOING TO GO THE WAY THAT IT WENT.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY RIGHT NOW.
I JUST THINK A PART OF ME THAT WORRIES THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG
WITH ME.
I JUST DON'T FKNOW WHY.
BUT I THINK THAT THAT'S WHAT I'M
JUST STRUGGLING WITH RIGHT NOW.
>> ALL RIGHT. THAT WAS A REALLY TOUGH ONE.
WEEKS AFTER FIGHTING HIS OWN EMOTIONS MARCUS FINALLY SAID THE
WORDS, "I LOVE YOU" TO JENN, BUT IT WAS SIMPLY TOO LITTLE AND TOO
LATE. MARCUS JOINS ME NOW. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR BEING WITH
US TONIGHT, MAN.
>> YEAH, GOOD TO SEE YOU AGAIN, JESSE.
>> FIRST AND FOREMOST, HOW ARE YOU FEELING?
>> IT'S TOUGH TO WATCH BACK. I MEAN, THAT WAS OBVIOUSLY A
HARD DAY FOR BOTH OF US, AND, YOU KNOW, YOU CAN TELL THAT
THERE WAS A LOT OF LOVE, A LOT OF FEELINGS THERE AND, YOU KNOW,
SOMETIMES THINGS DON'T END UP THE WAY THAT YOU WANT AND IT WAS
A HARD DAY.
>> WHAT WERE THOSE FINAL DAYS IN HAWAII LIKE FOR YOU?
>> I THINK I HAD A LOT OF TIME TO KIND OF REFLECT AND TO, YOU
KNOW, DO A LITTLE INTROSPECTION AND REALLY BE HONEST WITH MYSELF
ABOUT WHERE MY FEELINGS WERE AT WITH JENN AND, YOU KNOW, WHETHER
OR NOT I WAS LIVING UP TO, YOU KNOW, HER EXPECTATIONS AND WHAT
IT WAS THAT SHE WAS CLEAR ABOUT, YOU KNOW, NEEDING FROM A PARTNER
AND FROM AN ENGAGEMENT, AND, YEAH, THERE WAS SOME PAINFUL
TRUTHS THAT I THINK I STUMBLED UPON DURING THAT TIME IN HAWAII
AND, YEAH, I THINK IF ANYTHING, I JUST WANTED TO BE HONEST WITH
HER.
>> YEAH.
>> GOOD OR BAD.
>> YEAH.
>> SHE DESERVED IT.
>> I COULD TELL, I GOT A SMALL GLIMPSE OF HOW DIFFICULT THAT
WAS FOR YOU IN THE LAST FINAL DAYS D DAYS.
WHEN YOU GOT HOME AFTER WHAT WAS IT LIKE?
DID YOU HAVE ANY REGRETS.
>> YOU KNOW, WHEN I GOT BACK HOME I HAD NO IDEA IF I MADE THE
RIGHT DECISION OR NOT. IT TOOK -- I THINK IT TOOK SOME
TIME TO REALIZE IF WE MADE THE RIGHT CHOICE.
>> I THINK BACK TO THAT LAST DAY, IT WAS SO EMOTIONAL FOR YOU.
HOW HARD WAS IT FOR YOU TO SEE JENN AS CONFLICTED AS SHE WAS IN
THAT MOMENT?
>> YEAH, NO, IT WAS VERY DIFFICULT. YOU KNOW, I CARED.
I STILL CARE ABOUT JENN DEEPLY AND I THINK WHAT I FOUND THE
MOST DIFFICULT WAS AFTER SPENDING A COUPLE OF MONTHS WITH
HER AND REALLY LIFTING HER UP AND TRYING TO REMIND HER OF WHO
SHE IS, I THINK THE HARDEST PART FOR ME WAS FEELING LIKE I LET
HER DOWN OR THAT I WAS A PART OF THE REASON WHY SHE MAYBE DIDN'T
FEEL WORTHY OF THE LOVE THAT SHE DESERVES, SO --
>> YOU MENTIONED HAD YOU TO BE HONEST WITH YOURSELF AND THAT
YOU HAD COME TO THE CONCLUSION THAT THERE WERE SOME PAINFUL
TRUTHS. WHAT DID YOU REALIZE?
>> YEAH, I MEAN I THINK THAT THERE WAS HOW I WANTED
EVERYTHING TO GO AND THEN I THINK THAT THERE WAS HOW THINGS
NEEDED TO GO AND, YOU KNOW, I THINK THAT I WANTED IT TO BE ME,
AND I WANTED IT TO BE HER AND I THINK THE PAINFUL TRUTH WAS THAT
I WASN'T LIVING UP TO WHAT SHE SAID THAT SHE NEEDED, YOU KNOW,
SHE, YOU KNOW, BEFORE EACH ROSE CEREMONY SHE WOULD KIND OF
REMIND ALL OF US WHAT IT IS THAT SHE'S LOOKING FOR AND, YOU KNOW,
AS MUCH AS I CARED ABOUT HER,
YOU KNOW, I THINK IT'S --
IT'S TOUGH TO LET SOMEONE GO LIKE THAT, YOU KNOW.
IT WAS -- SHE'S ONE OF THE BEST WOMEN I EVER MET IN MY LIFE AND
I THINK THAT SELFISH PART OF ME WANTED TO HOLD ON TO THAT FOR
BETTER OR WORSE AND IT WAS, YOU KNOW, THE DIFFICULT TRUTH THERE
WAS THAT I NEEDED TO GET OUT OF HER WAY.
>> WELL, YOU KNOW JENN IS HERE TONIGHT.
>> RIGHT.
>> WHEN WE COME BACK JENN AND MARCUS WILL TALK FOR THE FIRST
TIME SINCE THEY BROKE UP IN HAWAII. DECENT GO ANYWHERE.
[ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ]
>>> WELCOME BACK TO THE LIVE "BACHELORETTE" FINALE.
I'M HERE WITH MARCUS WHO HASN'T SEEN JENN SINCE THE DAY SHE SENT
HIM HOME FROM HAWAII. ARE YOU READY TO SIGH HER?
>> I'M READY. LET'S DO IT.
>> LADIES AND GENTLEMEN, WITHOUT FURTHER ADO, PLEASE WELCOME YOUR
BACHELORETTE, JENN.
[ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ]
>> YOU LOOK AMAZING.
>> G HAVE A SEAT. WELL, JENN, IT'S SO GREAT SEEING
YOU.
>> IT'S GREAT TO SEE YOU TOO.
>> AND I KNOW THE TWO OF YOU HAVE NOT SPOKEN OR SEEN EACH
OTHER FOR QUITE SOME TIME. WHAT WOULD YOU LIKE TO SAY TO
MARCUS?
>> YEAH, I MEAN, IT'S BEEN SO LONG AND I HOPE YOU'RE DOING SO
WELL. OUR RELATIONSHIP MEANT SO MUCH
TO ME, AND I THINK AT THE END OF THE DAY, LIKE, I WAS SO HAPPY TO
BE ABLE TO GO ON THIS JOURNEY WITH YOU AND HAVE YOU BE A PART
OF THAT BECAUSE YOU ARE SUCH A SPECIAL PERSON AND I CARE SO
DEEPLY FOR YOU.
>> YEAH, THANK YOU. I THINK I FEEL VERY SIMILARLY,
YOU KNOW, I WENT HOME AFTER HAWAII AND I THINK THE MAIN
THING THAT WAS ON MY HEART AND MY MIND WAS WONDERING HOW YOU
WERE DOING AND IF YOU WERE OKAY AND, YEAH, I STILL CARE FOR YOU
DEEPLY AND IT'S BEEN AN HONOR AND A PRIVILEGE TO HAVE BEEN,
YOU KNOW, SEEN BY YOU AND TO SEE YOU AND TO BE A PART OF THIS
JOURNEY AND, YEAH, LIKE, I WOULD NOT -- I WOULDN'T HAVE CHANGED A
THING AND WOULDN'T TRADE IT FOR THE WORLD.
YEAH, THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING.
>> YEAH. LIKEWISE. I MEAN, I APPRECIATE SO MUCH HOW
VULNERABLE YOU WERE WITH ME AS MUCH AS YOU COULD BE AND I FEEL
LIKE WE BOTH LEARNED SO MUCH WITH EACH OTHER, YOU KNOW, LIKE
WE WERE BOTH GOING THROUGH OUR OWN OBSTACLES BUT WE'RE KIND OF
ALSO ABLE TO LEAN ON EACH OTHER IN THE SAME WAY.
>> JENN, WHEN DID YOU KNOW THAT IT WAS OVER WITH MARCUS?
>> YEAH, I THINK -- I THINK THERE WAS ALWAYS SOMETHING DEEP
DOWN THAT I KNEW WAS NOT RIGHT, BUT I THINK I WAS CONFUSED
BECAUSE I CARED SO MUCH ABOUT YOU THAT I JUST NEEDED TO KIND
OF WORK THROUGH ALL THE FEELINGS AS THEY WERE COMING, BUT I MEAN
I THINK MAYBE LIKE A MOMENT FOR ME WAS HONESTLY WHEN DEVIN CAME
AND KNOCKED ON MY DOOR AND I FELT LIKE I WAS LOSING HIM AND I
WAS SCARED OF THAT. I HAD REALIZED THAT THE FEELING
THAT I HAD HAD WITH DEVIN WAS DIFFERENT THAN OUR RELATIONSHIP
AND IT WAS A FEELING THAT I WANTED TO RUN TOWARDS RATHER
THAN AWAY FROM, AND SO IT WAS THOSE MOMENTS THAT KIND OF MADE
ME COME TO REALIZE THAT, LIKE, MY HEART WAS JUST IN A DIFFERENT
PLACE ALL ALONG, BUT, YEAH, I MEAN, EVEN AFTER FANTASY SUITES,
I THINK WE JUST WEREN'T REALLY ALIGNED ON CERTAIN THINGS AND
THEN SLOWLY THE PIECES CAME TOGETHER FOR ME, AND IT WAS, YOU
KNOW, WHEN I WENT TO KNOCK ON YOUR DOOR FOR THAT LAST CHANCE
DATE I KIND OF ALREADY KNEW WHERE MY HEART WAS GOING BUT I
OUT OF RESPECT FOR YOU AND OUR RELATIONSHIP STILL NEEDED THAT
CONVERSATION TO HAVE THAT CLOSURE FOR US, BECAUSE WE DID
MEAN SO MUCH TO EACH OTHER, YEAH.
>> YEAH, I MEAN, I THINK, YOU KNOW, I THINK EVERYTHING
HAPPENED THE WAY THAT IT WAS SUPPOSED TO AND, YOU KNOW, I WAS
OBVIOUSLY NOT EXPECTING YOU TO COME SWING BY AND TO HAVE THAT
CONVERSATION WHEN WE HAD IT AND I THINK WHAT MADE THAT DIFFICULT
FOR ME WAS, YOU KNOW, I HAD BEEN -- I GUESS IN MY OWN WAY
FIGHTING TO GET THERE FOR YOU AND I THINK THAT WAS THE FIRST
TIME THAT -- YEAH, IT WAS DIFFICULT FOR ME BECAUSE I
REALIZED THAT, YOU KNOW, LIKE I LOVED YOU ENOUGH TO GET OUT OF
YOUR WAY AND, YOU KNOW, I THINK IT'S JUST INSTINCT WALL FOR ME
TO FIGHT FOR THE PEOPLE THAT I CARE ABOUT AND, YEAH, IT WAS
HARD TO SIT THERE IN FRONT OF YOU AND KIND OF LIKE LET
EVERYTHING FALL APART. THAT WAS SO AGAINST ANYTHING I
HAD EVER DONE BEFORE AND, BUT I DO THINK THAT THAT WAS THE
APPROPRIATE THING TO DO. I THINK THAT WAS THE CORRECT
THING TO DO, BECAUSE, YOU KNOW, I FEEL LIKE WE KIND OF REALIZED
AT THE SAME TIME THAT, YOU KNOW, LIKE I JUST WASN'T GIVING YOU
WHAT YOU SAID THAT YOU NEEDED AND, YOU KNOW, I THINK I WAS
LYING TO MYSELF A LITTLE BIT THERE AND, BUT I'M HAPPY THAT WE
KIND OF CAME TOGETHER AND REALIZED WHAT NEEDED TO HAPPEN
AND, YEAH, I'M SUPER PROUD OF YOU FOR CHOOSING TO DO SO AND
I'M HAPPY THAT I GOT TO BE A PART OF THAT IN A SMALL WAY
BECAUSE YOU REALLY DID END UP CHOOSING YOURSELF AND YOUR OWN
HAPPINESS AND YOUR OWN NEEDS AND IT DIDN'T MATTER WHAT I WANTED
OR YOU WANTED AT THE END OF THE DAY, I THINK, YOU KNOW, YOU
MOVED TOWARDS WHAT YOU NEEDED AND THAT WAS A BEAUTIFUL THING.
>> SORRY TO INTERRUPT. THE THING I'VE ALWAYS ASKED
MYSELF ABOUT THE TWO OF YOU, JENN, IS IF MARCUS HAD TOLD YOU
HE LOVED YOU SOONER, WOULD THINGS HAVE ENDED DIFFERENTLY?
>> YEAH, UNFORTUNATELY, I KNOW THAT IT WOULDN'T HAVE ENDED
DIFFERENTLY JUST BECAUSE IT JUST WASN'T THE RIGHT RELATIONSHIP,
AND I THINK WITH US, WE WERE LEANING ON EACH OTHER AND WE
WERE JUST SO SIMILAR IN A LOT OF WAYS AND FIGHTING OUR OWN
OBSTACLES THAT IT FELT SO COMFORTABLE AND SO SAFE AND I
WAS SO HAPPY THAT WE WERE BOTH ABLE TO DO THAT, BUT AT THE END
OF THE DAY I THINK MY HEART WAS JUST IN A DIFFERENT PLACE AND
WANTED SOMETHING DIFFERENT, BUT, YOU KNOW, IT IS CONFUSING TO
KIND OF JUST NAVIGATE IT ALL, YOU KNOW, LIKE FEELINGS OF
CARING FOR SOMEBODY VERSUS LIKE ARE YOU IN LOVE WITH THEM AND DO
YOU WANT TO SPEND THE REST OF YOUR LIFE WITH THEM AND I THINK
IT TOOK ME A LITTLE BIT TO FIGURE OUT THE DIFFERENCE
BETWEEN THE TWO, BUT, YEAH, I DON'T THINK THAT IT NECESSARILY
WOULD HAVE CHANGED ANYTHING, BUT, YOU KNOW, I AM SO, SO
GRATEFUL FOR OUR RELATIONSHIP AND SO HAPPY THAT WE WERE ABLE
TO HAVE THAT RELATIONSHIP WITH EACH OTHER, BECAUSE YOU'VE
LEARNED SO MUCH AND I'VE LEARNED SO MUCH AND WE BOTH STILL HAVE
THIS DEEP RESPECT FOR EACH OTHER.
>> I WANT TO THANK YOU BOTH SO MUCH FOR BEING HERE AND SPEAKING
SO HONESTLY AND OPENLY ABOUT YOUR RELATIONSHIP.
I REALLY APPRECIATE YOU BOTH. LET'S HEAR IT FOR JENN AND
MARCUS, EVERYBODY.
[ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ]
ALL RIGHT. I TOLD YOU THAT SOMETHING
HAPPENS TONIGHT THAT HAS NEVER HAPPENED BEFORE ON THIS SHOW.
WHAT IS IT? YOU'LL FIND OUT WHEN WE RETURN.
>>> WELCOME BACK TO THE EMOTIONAL FINALE OF "THE
BACHELORETTE." WE JUST WATCHED AS JENN SENT
MARCUS HOME IN A HEART-WRENCHING GOOD-BYE WHICH MEANS THERE'S
ONLY ONE MAN LEFT, DEVIN. THE LAST TIME WE SAW DEVIN, HE
WAS ALL IN. SO IS HE STILL READY TO GET
ENGAGED? IS JENN READY TO GET ENGAGED?
IT'S FINALLY THE MOMENT OF
TRUTH.
♪
>>> WAKING UP TODAY, I DON'T KNOW HOW I'M FEELING.
YESTERDAY I HAD TO SEND MARCUS HOME.
SAYING GOOD-BYE TO MARCUS REALLY HURT ME, BUT IT WAS WHAT I
NEEDED TO DO AND ULTIMATELY THE RELATIONSHIP JUST WASN'T RIGHT
FOR ME. I WASN'T BEING FULFILLED. YOU KNOW, WHEN I STARTED THIS
JOURNEY, I ONLY HAD ONE GOAL AT THE END OF THIS ALL, AND I HAVE
ONE MAN LEFT HERE. DEVIN HAS BEEN CHOOSING ME EVERY
SINGLE DAY SINCE THE BEGINNING, AND I DO LOVE DEVIN, BUT AFTER
YESTERDAY THERE'S SO MUCH GOING ON IN MY HEAD, IT'S ALL ABOUT
FIGURING OUT WHAT'S BEST FOR ME SO WHAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN TODAY
IS I DON'T -- I DON'T KNOW WHAT
TO DO.
>> HOW IS IT GOING?
>> GOING WELL.
>> DEVIN.
>> I'M NEIL LANE.
>> LET'S DO IT.
>> I'M EXCITED BECAUSE PROPOSAL IS ON THE LINE.
ENGAGEMENT IS ON THE LINE AND JENN IS THE GIRL I WANT TO SPEND
THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH.
>> A CUSHION CUT.
>> OH, WOW, LOOKING AT THESE RINGS IS THE CULMINATION OF
EVERYTHING I FEEL WITH JENN. I'VE NEVER BEEN SO EXCITED.
IT'S A GOOD FEELING HAVING THESE AND KNOWING WHAT COULD BECOME OF
THIS. LOOKING AT THE RING MAKES THESE
FEELINGS ALL THE MORE REAL FOR ME.
I'M SWEATING A LITTLE MORE THAN NORMAL.
BUT I KNOW JENN IS EVERYTHING I'VE BEEN LOOKING FOR IN A
RELATIONSHIP AND A PARTNER. OH, WOW. OH, WOW.
>> THAT'S AN OVAL CUT DIAMOND IN GOLD.
>> SHE DOES LOVE THE GOLD.
>> THE DETAIL IS ON THE BOTTOM.
>> THE INDICTMENT IS AT THE BOTTOM.
>> BECAUSE THAT'S YOUR LOVE.
>> YOU KNOW, AS SHINY AS IT IS AT THE TOP WITH JENN IT'S ALWAYS
BEEN OUR FOUNDATION THAT HAS CARRIED US.
TAKES A LOT OF HARD WORK TO BUILD A SOLID FOUNDATION, AND
JENN AND I HAVE DONE THAT AND I'M PROUD OF WHAT WE'VE BUILT
HERE AND PROUD OF WHAT WE'VE DONE NOT JUST AS INDIVIDUALS BUT
AS A COUPLE.
>> WOW.
>> I FEEL CONFIDENT IN US. DEVIN AND JENN.
HAS A NICE RING TO IT.
>> QUITE LITERALLY.
>> I SEE A LOT OF JOY IN YOUR FACE WHEN YOU'RE HOLDING THIS.
>> I LOVE THIS ONE. I THINK THIS IS THE ONE, NEIL.
THIS IS THE ONE. WITH THIS RING I'M GOING INTO
THIS PROPOSAL OBVIOUSLY NERVOUS, BUT I CAN'T WAIT TO GET DOWN ON
A KNEE FOR HER AND I HOPE JENN FEELS THE SAME WAY AS I DO.
SEE HOW IT GOES.
>> IT'S BEEN A WILD RIDE. HOW ARE YOU FEELING?
>> I REALLY NEED TO FOLLOW MY HEART TODAY.
>> HOW SO?
>> YOU KNOW, YESTERDAY WITH MARCUS WAS A BIG MOMENT FOR ME
TO CLOSE THE DOOR ON MY PAST BY NOT LETTING SOMEBODY ELSE'S
EMOTIONS DICTATE ME AND MY LIFE.
>> YEAH, LOOKING BACK ON IT YOU FEELING GOOD ABOUT THAT DECISION?
>> YEAH, I FEEL 100% ABOUT THAT, FOR SURE.
I'VE ALWAYS IN THE PAST HAVE LET THE GUYS DICTATE THE TERMS OF
THE RELATIONSHIP AND DICTATE MY EMOTIONS AND MY FEELINGS AND MY
CHOICES AND I'M DONE DOING THAT, SO GOING INTO TODAY, I THOUGHT I
KNEW WHICH WAY I WANTED IT TO GO AND I WOKE UP THIS MORNING WITH
A TOTALLY DIFFERENT POINT OF VIEW ON IT.
>> WHAT WERE YOU THINKING WHEN YOU WOKE UP THIS MORNING?
>> YOU KNOW, I THOUGHT WHAT WAS GOING TO MAKE ME HAPPIEST?
WHAT WAS GOING TO BRING OUT THE BEST VERSION OF ME?
WHAT WAS GOING TO BRING ME EVERYTHING THAT I'VE BEEN
WANTING MY WHOLE LIFE, AND IN ORDER TO DO THAT AND FULFILL
MYSELF I HAD TO CHOOSE MYSELF.
>> WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DO?
>> I'M NOT GOING TO LET DEVIN PROPOSE TO ME TODAY.
I'M GOING TO PROPOSE TO DEVIN.
[ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ]
>> SO WHAT MADE YOU COME TO THIS DECISION?
>> I JUST WANT TO MAKE A BIG GESTURE SO THAT HE CAN REALLY
KNOW WHERE MY LOVE IS. I WANT HIM TO KNOW THAT I'M
GOING TO FIGHT FOR HIM EVERY DAY AND I'M GOING TO CHOOSE HIM
EVERY DAY.
>> HE'S NEVER GOING TO SEE THIS COMING.
THIS IS GOING TO TOTALLY THROW HIM FOR A LOOP.
>> HE WILL BE CAUGHT OFF GUARD. I HAD NO IDEA THIS WAS WHAT I
WAS GOING TO DO.
>> ARE YOU OKAY WITH WHATEVER IS
GOING TO HAPPEN HERE?
[ APPLAUSE ]
>> OKAY. I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT YOU'RE
THINKING RIGHT NOW. WHY IS JESSE INTERRUPTING THIS
BEAUTIFUL MOMENT?
[ LAUGHTER ]
BECAUSE HONESTLY THIS IS NORMALLY WHEN YOU'D WATCH A
ROMANTIC PROPOSAL. TWO PEOPLE VERY MUCH IN LOVE
COMMITTING THEMSELVES TO EACH OTHER, AND INSTEAD HERE I AM.
[ LAUGHTER ]
WELL, THAT'S BECAUSE YOU WON'T BE SEEING THAT PROPOSAL.
THAT'S RIGHT. BECAUSE OF WHAT TRANSPIRED SINCE
THAT DAY IN HAWAII WE'VE DECIDED IT WOULDN'T BE APPROPRIATE FOR
ANYONE TO SEE IT UNTIL WE HEARD FROM JENN, SO WHAT DID HAPPEN?
YOU'RE GOING TO FIND OUT WHEN WE RETURN.
>>> WELCOME BACK TO A REALLY TOUGH "BACHELORETTE" FINALE AND
AS YOU CAN SEE JENN HAS JOINED ME AGAIN AND WAS REALLY
EMOTIONAL BACKSTAGE. OF COURSE, WE DIDN'T SHOW YOU
THE BEAUTIFUL PROPOSAL BETWEEN DEVIN AND JENN AND IT REALLY WAS
BEAUTIFUL, I MUST SAY, BECAUSE WE WANTED TO YOU HEAR JENN
FIRST.
JENN, I'M SO SORRY. I DON'T REALLY EVEN KNOW HOW TO
GET INTO THIS.
>> I'M SORRY. IT'S BEEN A REALLY HARD COUPLE
OF MONTHS.
WE HAD LEFT HAWAII ENGAGED LIKE VERY HAPPY.
IT WAS THE HAPPIEST DAY OF MY LIFE.
I HAD THOUGHT THAT I HAD FOUND THE PERSON I WANTED TO SPEND THE
REST OF MY LIFE WITH.
AND THEN I MEAN ESSENTIALLY LIKE AS SOON AS WE HAD LEFT HAWAII,
THINGS WERE JUST DIFFERENT. IT KIND OF JUST FELT LIKE HE WAS
PULLING AWAY, ALL THE PROMISES THAT HE HAD MADE TO ME OF, LIKE,
WANTING TO MOVE SOMEWHERE TOGETHER AND WANTING TO HAVE
THIS FUTURE PLANNED OUT AND WANTING TO SEE EACH OTHER ALL
THE TIME AND IT JUST SLOWLY HE WAS PULLING AWAY AND THE EFFORTS
WERE JUST INCONSISTENT AND HE WASN'T CALLING AS MUCH, TEXTING
AS MUCH AND IT JUST -- I FELT LIKE HE -- I JUST -- I DIDN'T --
I WAS CONFUSED. I DIDN'T UNDERSTAND IT BECAUSE
WE HAD JUST LEFT SO HAPPY, SO I PROMISED MY LIFE TO SOMEBODY
THAT I THOUGHT WAS GOING TO PUT EVERY EFFORT INTO THE
RELATIONSHIP AND I JUST DIDN'T FEEL THAT.
I FELT LIKE I WAS SECONDARY TO EVERYTHING IN HIS LIFE.
HE WASN'T INTRODUCING ME TO HIS FAMILY ANYMORE.
LIKE IT WAS JUST LIKE EVERY LITTLE THING MADE ME FEEL
SECONDARY TO HIS LIFE AND I DIDN'T UNDERSTAND WHY.
AND WE HAD A HAPPY COUPLE PLANNED SOMETIME LIKE LAST MONTH
EARLY AND THE NIGHT BEFORE I HAD GOTTEN A PHONE CALL AND HE
CALLED ME AND BASICALLY BROKE
OFF THE ENGAGEMENT.
AND --
>> HERE YOU GO.
>> THANK YOU. HE HAD BASICALLY SAID THAT HE
DIDN'T LOVE ME ANYMORE AND DIDN'T FEEL THE SAME WAY AND
FELT LIKE SOMETHING HAD BEEN OFF SINCE THE SECOND THAT HE
PROPOSED, HE REGRETTED GETTING ENGAGED, AND I DIDN'T KNOW AND I
KNEW ALL ALONG IT WAS JUST, LIKE, DIFFERENT, BUT I JUST
DIDN'T KNOW, AND FOR THE PAST MONTH I'VE BEEN TRYING TO
EMPATHIZE WITH THE WAY THAT HE HAD BEEN FEELING TRYING TO WRAP
MY HEAD AROUND WHY HE COULD -- HOW HE COULD SWITCH UP LIKE
THAT, LIKE, YOU KNOW, HE WAS MAKING BOLD PROCLAMATIONS OF
LOVE AND JUST BASICALLY TELLING ME THAT HE WOULD DO ANYTHING,
THAT HE COULDN'T LIVE WITHOUT ME AND SUDDENLY THE NEXT DAY IT WAS
LIKE NOTHING AND THAT HE DENIED EVER BEING IN LOVE AND I JUST --
I DON'T KNOW. I WAS TRYING TO SYMPATHIZE.
OKAY, MAYBE IT'S THE PRESSURE OF THE ENGAGEMENT.
I KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO BE ON THE SHOW AND THEN GET OFF.
LIKE IT'S A LOT. IT'S DIFFERENT. IT'S NOT REAL LIFE.
IT WASN'T -- LIKE, IT WAS BUT WHEN YOU'RE COMING OFF A SHOW,
IT'S HARD, SO I WAS, LIKE, OKAY, LET'S TAKE THE PRESSURE OFF THE
ENGAGEMENT. WE CAN JUST DATE. WE CAN JUST BE TOGETHER.
WE DON'T HAVE TO BE ENGAGED. LIKE I WANT A LIFE WITH YOU, I
DON'T NEED A RING ON MY FINGER, AND IT WAS JUST -- HE -- HE WAS
CHECKED OUT. IT WASN'T WHAT HE WANTED ANYMORE
AND I'VE BEEN FIGHTING FOR THE RELATIONSHIP, TRYING TO DO
EVERYTHING I CAN TO -- I DON'T KNOW -- JUST EMPATHIZE WITH HIM
AND TRY TO MAKE THINGS WORK ESSENTIALLY AND DIDN'T WANT TO
GO TO COUPLES COUNSELING. HE DIDN'T WANT TO FIGHT FOR THE
RELATIONSHIP ANYMORE. HE WAS JUST DONE.
>> I'M SO SAD TO HEAR YOU SAY THAT, JENN.
IF I'M BEING HONEST I'M ALSO SHOCKED BECAUSE DEVIN ALWAYS
SPOKE SO PASSIONATELY ABOUT HOW MUCH HE LOVED YOU AND HE SAID HE
WOULD NEVER ABANDON YOU. HE SAID YOU WERE THE MOST
IMPORTANT THING IN HIS LIFE SO DO YOU FEEL LIKE HE HELD HIMSELF
TO ALL THAT?
>> I DON'T KNOW. WHEN HE HAD SAID HE FELT
PRESSURED TO GET ENGAGED AND THAT HE DIDN'T WANT IT, I ALMOST
BELIEVED HIM FOR A SECOND AND I TRIED TO EMPATHIZE AND THEN
WATCHING THIS ALL BACK IT'S LIKE NOBODY FORCED HIM TO SAY THE
THINGS THAT HE DID, AND HE WAS SITTING HERE TELLING HIS MOM
THAT I WAS THE ONE AND THAT HE HAD NEVER FELT THIS WAY ABOUT
ANYBODY BEFORE.
>> RIGHT.
>> HE SAT IN FRONT OF MY MOM AND SAID I WAS THE ONE.
>> YEAH.
>> AND HE KNEW WHO IT WAS LIKE TO BE ABANDONED AND WANTED TO BE
THE ONE TO PICK ME AND CHOOSE ME AND FELT HE WAS THE MAN TO DO
THAT.
>> RIGHT.
>> SO I DON'T KNOW UNDERSTAND WHAT HAPPENED.
I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT CHANGED. I DON'T KNOW -- I DON'T KNOW
WHAT WAS HAPPENING THROUGH HIS HEAD.
ALL THESE PROMISES THAT HE HAD MADE TO ME ALL OF THE LOVE THAT
HE HAD WANTED TO GIVE TO ME WASN'T THERE ANYMORE.
>> WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU TWO SAW EACH OTHER?
>> THE LAST TIME WE SAW EACH OTHER WAS OVER A MONTH AGO AT
OUR LAST HAPPY COUPLE LIKE BACK IN JULY.
>> ARE YOU READY TO SEE HIM NOW?
>> I DON'T KNOW. I MEAN, I'VE BEEN TRYING TO SEE
HIM AND JUST, LIKE, HAVE A CONVERSATION WITH HIM AND, LIKE,
I THOUGHT WE WERE ON THE SAME PAGE, LIKE, NO MATTER HOW THIS
ENDS, WE BOTH OWE EACH OTHER A CONVERSATION AND HE HAS JUST
BEEN AVOIDANT EVER SINCE AND JUST LIKE ALMOST LIKE LEADING ME
ON HERE AND THERE, YES, WE'RE ON THE SAME PAGE AND LET'S HAVE A
CONVERSATION AND GHOSTING ME THE NEXT WEEKEND.
WE WERE FULL BLOWN IN LOVE AND NOW YOU'RE IGNORING MY TEXTS, I
MEAN FOG TO YOU.
>> I KNOW THIS MAY BE VERY HARD TO YOU BUT WE ARE GOING TO BRING
DEVIN OUT. WE'RE GOING TO DO THAT WHEN WE
COME BACK.
>>> WELCOME BACK, BACHELOR NATION.
WELL, TONIGHT HASN'T BEEN THE HAPPY ENDING THAT WE HAD ALL
HOPED FOR, AND, JENN, I KNOW IT'S BEEN A WHILE SINCE YOU
SPOKE WITH DEVIN AND YOU'VE SEEN DEVIN. HE'S BACKSTAGE NOW.
ARE YOU READY TO BRING HIM OUT? OKAY.
LADIES AND GENTLEMEN, PLEASE WELCOME TO THE STAGE, DEVIN.
♪
ALL RIGHT, DEVIN, THANKS SO MUCH FOR JOINING US.
OBVIOUSLY WE DECIDED NOT TO SHOW YOUR ENGAGEMENT, BECAUSE WE FELT
LIKE IT WAS MORE IMPORTANT THAT THE TWO OF YOU GOT A CHANCE TO
SPEAK FIRST, AND, JENN, I KNOW THERE'S A LOT THAT YOU'D LIKE TO
SAY TO DEVIN, SO I'LL OPEN UP
THE FLOOR TO YOU.
>> I MEAN, I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHERE TO START.
I JUST THINK, LIKE, THIS CONVERSATION RIGHT NOW BETWEEN
THE TWO OF US IS NOT WHAT I HAD
WANTED AND IS NOT SOMETHING THAT IS GOING TO BE MEANINGFUL TO ME,
BECAUSE WE HAD TALKED ABOUT THIS, AND WE HAD SAID THAT OUR
RELATIONSHIP IS OUR RELATIONSHIP, AND NO MATTER
WHERE YOU FELT, NO MATTER HOW I FELT, WE HAD BOTH WANTED A
CONVERSATION OFF CAMERA, BECAUSE THAT'S THE RESPECT THAT WE OWE
EACH OTHER.
I CAN UNDERSTAND -- I CAN TRY TO UNDERSTAND SOMEBODY CHANGING
THEIR MIND ABOUT THE WAY THEY FEEL ABOUT SOMEBODY.
I CAN TRY TO UNDERSTAND THAT, AS HEARTBROKEN AS I WAS.
WHAT I CAN'T UNDERSTAND IS EVERYTHING THAT YOU DID AFTER WE
HAD BROKEN OUR ENGAGEMENT. ENDING THE ENGAGEMENT ON A PHONE
CALL.
THE NEXT DAY I WAKE UP TO YOU FOLLOWING GIRLS ON INSTAGRAM,
AND NOT JUST ANY GIRL, BUT MARIA.
[ AUDIENCE REACTS ]
NOT ONLY IS THAT SO DISRESPECTFUL TO EVERYTHING THAT
WE HAD SHARED TOGETHER, I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND IT, WHY YOU
WOULD DO SOMETHING LIKE THAT. BECAUSE IT COMPLETELY
INVALIDATED OUR ENTIRE RELATIONSHIP, EVERYTHING THAT
I HAD FELT FOR YOU, EVERYTHING THAT WE HAD FELT FOR EACH OTHER.
DID THAT EVEN MEAN ANYTHING TO YOU?
>> UM, YEAH, ABSOLUTELY. I MEAN, IT'S REALLY HARD TO --
>> IT WAS SO HARD, YOU WENT AND FOLLOWED MARIA ON INSTAGRAM.
SO HARD. YOU WERE GOING THROUGH SUCH A
TOUGH TIME.
>> I THINK --
[ APPLAUSE ]
UM, YEAH, I CAN'T -- I CAN'T EXCUSE THE INSTAGRAM FOLLOW.
I KNOW HOW MUCH THAT HURT YOU AND --
>> SO YOU DID IT TO BE CRUEL?
>> NO, I DID NOT, AND, AGAIN, I'M NOT HERE TO TELL YOU YOU
CAN'T FEEL THE WAY YOU FEEL. OBVIOUSLY I FAILED YOU, AND
THERE'S NOTHING I CAN SAY OTHER THAN THAT, YOU KNOW, BUT
EVERYTHING I FELT FOR YOU WAS REAL.
>> WAS IT?
>> ABSOLUTELY.
>> BECAUSE YOU SAID, OH, I WAS HAVING SUCH A HARD TIME WITH
THIS BREAKUP. NEXT THING I KNOW, YOU'RE IN NEW
YORK CLUBBING WITH JEREMY.
[ LAUGHTER ]
YOU SAID, OH, I NEED TIME AND SPACE TO PROCESS MY EMOTIONS,
THIS MAKES ME SAD.
>> I THINK THIS IS -- I THINK THIS IS A LITTLE DIFFERENT THAN
THE CONVERSATION THAT I WAS HOPING TO HAVE WITH YOU.
I WENT THERE FOR A WORK TRIP. I MET A CLIENT.
>> IN THE CLUB.
>> NO, I DID SEE JEREMY. I DID.
>> I HOPE YOU HAD FUN AT THE CLUB.
>> AM I NOT ALLOWED TO LIVE A LIFE?
>> NO, YOU CAN LIVE A LIFE. YOU CAN GO CLUBBING AS MUCH AS
YOU WANT.
>> YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT --
>> WHAT WAS HARD ABOUT IT?
>> DEVIN, YOU ALWAYS SPOKE SO CONFIDENTLY ABOUT YOUR LOVE FOR
JENN.
>> YEAH.
>> AND IT SEEMED LIKE THE ONLY THING YOU NEEDED BACK FROM HER
WAS ASSURANCE, AND SHE GAVE THAT TO YOU, SO WHAT HAPPENED?
>> UM, I MEAN, I THINK IT'S LIKE HOW WE TALKED.
I TOLD YOU, YOU KNOW, WHEN WE LEFT THE SHOW, I HAD A LOT OF
DOUBTS, AND REGRETFULLY AND SADLY, I SUPPRESSED THOSE
FEELINGS, AND I DID COME CLEAN TO YOU ABOUT THAT.
I WAS VERY HONEST, AND I THINK ONE THING THAT YOU CAN SAY HERE,
AND I HOPE YOU CAN, IS THAT I HAVE BEEN HONEST WITH YOU
THROUGHOUT --
>> TWO MONTHS AFTER YOU HAD FELT ALL THOSE DOUBTS, I WAS IN A
RELATIONSHIP WITH YOU TWO MONTHS AFTER THE SHOW WHERE YOU HAD ONE
FOOT OUT THE DOOR INSTEAD OF COMMUNICATING WITH ME HOW YOU
HAD ACTUALLY FELT ABOUT ME, AND YOU SAID YOU WERE HAVING DOUBTS
ON THE SHOW, THAT YOU NEVER WANTED TO GET ENGAGED, AND YOU
HID ALL OF THIS FROM ME.
>> I DID. I DID.
>> AND WE WERE IN A RELATIONSHIP.
FOR TWO MONTHS I WAS POURING EVERYTHING INTO YOU WHILE YOU
HID ALL THESE FEELINGS OF DOUBT AND MADE ME FALL EVEN MORE IN
LOVE WITH YOU AND MADE ME TRY TO BE IN A FIGHT FOR A RELATIONSHIP
THAT WAS OUT THE DOOR HALF THE TIME.
>> AS WE SAID, AS WE TALKED, YOU
KNOW, IT'S HARD TO, LIKE, SIT HERE AND DENY WHAT YOU'RE
ACCUSING ME OF, AND IT'S HARD TO SIT HERE AND KIND OF PUT IT INTO
THOSE WORDS, YOU KNOW. I TOLD YOU WAY BACK WHEN THAT I
WAS TRYING TO SCOUR MY BRAIN TO FIND SOME EXTERNAL REASON TO WHY
THIS WAS HAPPENING TO ME. I WAS VERY HONEST WITH YOU AT
EVERY STEP AND EVERY DOUBT.
>> NO, YOU WEREN'T UNTIL LAST MONTH.
>> I WAS REGRETFULLY LATE ON LETTING YOU KNOW, YOU ARE 100%
RIGHT.
[ AUDIENCE REACTS ]
YEAH, YOU KNOW, I CAN ONLY SIT HERE AND TAKE ACCOUNTABILITY FOR
MY SHORTCOMINGS, AND I HAVE NO DOUBTS THAT I HAVE MANY MORE IN
YOUR MIND THAN THERE SEEMS TO BE IN MINE, AND I'M NOT DENYING
THAT FOR YOU. YOU KNOW, I KNOW HOW BAD THIS
HURTS. I KNOW HOW BAD THIS --
>> NO, YOU DON'T BECAUSE --
>> ABSOLUTELY.
>> BECAUSE YOU WERE NEVER FULLY IN THE ENGAGEMENT, WHEREAS I WAS.
I WANTED TO SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH YOU.
I WANTED TO HAVE A FAMILY WITH YOU, AND YOU DIDN'T SEE THOSE
THINGS.
[ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ]
SO, DON'T SIT HERE AND TRY TO TELL ME YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL,
BECAUSE YOU DON'T. YOU HAD ONE FOOT OUT THE DOOR
THE ENTIRE TIME, AND FOR YOU TO SIT HERE AND BE LIKE, OH, I WAS
SAD, I WAS GOING THROUGH THIS AND THAT.
YOU'RE OUT HERE PROMOTING THE SHOW ON INSTAGRAM POSTING MEMES
ABOUT ALL THIS STUFF. IT'S LIKE YOU DON'T EVEN FEEL
ANYTHING. WHEN I -- THIS PAST MONTH EVERY
MONDAY NIGHT MY HEART IS BROKEN OVER AND OVER AGAIN, WHEREAS YOU
DON'T GIVE A CRAP. YOU'RE POSTING -- ABOUT THE
SHOW, HAVING A GREAT OLD TIME,
AND I AM HEARTBROKEN EVERY MONDAY NIGHT WATCHING THE LIES
YOU SAID TO ME ON TV.
>> THEY -- UH, YOU CAN SAY THEY'RE LIES. I CAN'T FIGHT --
>> ARE THEY NOT? YOU SAID YOU WANTED TO LOVE ME
FOREVER. YOU SAID YOU WANTED TO WAKE UP EVERY DAY AND CHOOSE ME,
PICK ME. YOU SAID TO MY MOM YOU KNEW WHAT
IT WAS LIKE TO BE ABANDONED AND WOULD NEVER WANT TO DO THAT TO
ME.
>> TO THE VERY END I WANTED THAT.
HOW CAN I SAY -- HOW CAN I SAY THAT I'M SORRY MORE THAN I'VE
TRIED TO BE.
>> THIS IS WHAT YOU KEPT SAYING. OH, I SAID SORRY.
I CAN'T SAY SORRY ANYMORE. THAT'S WHAT YOU SAID IN A
15-MINUTE PHONE CALL. I CAN'T BE SORRY ANYMORE.
I GOT TO GO. YOU KNOW WHAT, YOU KNOW WHAT, I
CAN'T SIT HERE AND JUST LISTEN TO YOU.
EVERYTHING YOU SAID ON THAT TV SHOW, EVERY TIME YOU SAID, I
LOVE YOU SO MUCH, YOU'RE THE ONE, I WANT TO WAKE UP EVERY DAY
AND FIGHT FOR YOU, WHERE WAS THE FIGHT?
WHEN DID YOU TRY TO FIGHT FOR OUR RELATIONSHIP?
>> I FOUGHT. I FOUGHT.
[ APPLAUSE ]
>> OKAY, LISTEN, I'M SORRY TO CUT IN HERE.
WE DO HAVE TO TAKE A QUICK BREAK.
CLEARLY WE'VE ONLY SCRATCHED THE SURFACE.
WE'VE GOT MORE WITH DEVIN AND JENN WHEN WE COME BACK.
>> WHAT IS GOING ON HERE?
♪
>>> WELCOME BACK, BACHELOR NATION.
JENN AND DEVIN, THEY'RE HERE AND THEY'RE DISCUSSING EVERYTHING
THAT'S HAPPENED SINCE THAT LAST DAY IN HAWAII WHEN THEY GOT
ENGAGED AND OBVIOUSLY THERE'S BEEN A PARTING OF WAYS.
DEVIN, WE OBVIOUSLY HEARD FROM JENN.
I DO WANT TO GIVE YOU A CHANCE TO RESPOND.
>> YEAH, I'M NOT HERE TO TALK ABOUT POST BREAKUP.
I WANT TO TALK ABOUT THE BREAKUP THAT WE TALKED ABOUT WHEN IT
HAPPENED. YOU KNOW, AND I'M NOT HERE TO
DEVALUE ANYTHING THAT -- YOU'RE AN AMAZING WOMAN AND I FELL
SHORT OF THAT. THERE'S NOTHING I CAN SAY WHEN
IT COMES TO ME LACKING THE ABILITY TO MAKE YOU A PRIORITY
IN EVERYDAY LIFE. THAT WAS HARD FOR ME.
THAT WAS HARD FOR ME TO ACCEPT. YOU'RE SITTING HERE AND
ATTRIBUTING IT TO SEEING A FRIEND IN NEW YORK.
CAN WE JUST --
>> I'M NOT. I'M SAYING THAT WAS INSENSITIVE
TO THE BREAKUP.
>> I UNDERSTAND THAT BUT, AGAIN, AT WHAT POINT, AT WHAT POINT CAN
WE JUST FOCUS ON WHAT HAPPENED AND WHAT HURT YOU, YOU KNOW, I'M
HURT, YOU'RE HURT. WE'RE BOTH HURT.
CAN WE FOCUS ON THAT, PLEASE, YOU KNOW, AND I'M NOT HERE TO
SAVE FACE. I HAVE NOTHING TO GAIN BY BEING
HERE OTHER THAN MAKING SURE YOU'RE OKAY WHICH IS WHAT I CAME
OUT HERE TO DO.
>> DEVIN, LISTEN, IT IS ALSO AN OPPORTUNITY BECAUSE WE HAVE YOU
HERE TOGETHER, I KNOW IT'S BEEN VERY HARD FOR YOU TO GET THIS
OPPORTUNITY TO HAVE THIS CONVERSATION, SO I WANT TO ASK
YOU, IS THERE ANYTHING THAT YOU FEEL LIKE YOU HAVE TO SAY TO
JENN THAT SHE DOESN'T KNOW BECAUSE NOW IS THE TIME.
>> I MEAN THE ONLY THING THAT I CAN THINK OF IS, YOU KNOW, THE
TRUTH, YOU KNOW, AND MY HONEST OPINIONS AND MY HONEST FEELINGS
AND, YOU KNOW, I WATCHED THIS BEAUTIFUL GIRL GROW AND FLOURISH
INTO THIS AMAZING WOMAN ON HER OWN, LIKE IT TOOK NONE OF US ON
THE SHOW TO MAKE YOU THAT PERSON. IT WAS AMAZING TO WATCH YOU
FLOURISH INTO WHO YOU WERE AND I FOUND MYSELF FALLING SHORT OF
THOSE EXPECTATIONS IN THE REAL WORLD AND I FOUND MYSELF NOT
BEING ABLE TO LIVE UP TO THE THINGS THAT YOU NEED AND YOU
DESERVE, OKAY, THIS ISN'T -- THIS ISN'T SOME I'M TRYING TO
GET BACK AT YOU OR TRYING TO MAKE YOU FEEL BAD OR ANY OF THE
SORT. I REALLY, REALLY DO CARE ABOUT
YOU. I KNOW I CAN'T CHANGE YOUR MIND
ON THAT. I KNOW I CAN'T FIX THAT PERCEPTION IN YOUR MIND, BUT,
YOU KNOW, I WATCHED, LIKE I SAID, I WATCHED YOU GROW AND
THEN I WATCHED MYSELF CONTRIBUTE TO YOUR REGRESSION AND THAT
HURT. THAT HURT ME. YOU KNOW, YOU DON'T DESERVE TO
COMPROMISE YOUR STANDARDS TO BE HAPPY AND WE TALKED ABOUT THAT.
I FELT MYSELF FORCING YOU TO COMPROMISE TO BE HAPPY, YOU
KNOW, AND I SAW THE HURT THAT THAT WAS ON YOUR FACE.
IT WAS APPARENT EVERY SINGLE DAY BUT I WASN'T GOING TO COME OUT
HERE AND TRY TO PUT ANYTHING ON YOU. YOU'VE DONE NOTHING WRONG.
YOU KNOW THIS. WE'VE HAD THIS CONVERSATION.
>> LISTEN, IT'S BEEN A REALLY TOUGH NIGHT FOR YOU AND I KNOW
IT HAS. BUT THERE'S SOMETHING THAT I
WANT TO SAY TO YOU ON BEHALF OF MYSELF AND BEHALF OF EVERYBODY
HERE ON THE SHOW. I KNOW THAT YOUR LOVE STORY DID
NOT UNFOLD THE WAY YOU HOPED IT WOULD OR EXPECTED IT TO AND FOR
THAT, JENN, I AM ACTUALLY, TRULY
SORRY BUT I CAN ALSO CONFIDENTLY SAY THAT EVEN THOUGH YOU MAY NOT
HAVE FOUND THE LOVE AND THAT GREAT LOVE YOU WERE LOOKING FOR
YET, YOU ALSO SHOWED ALL OF US WHAT A STRONG AND POWERFUL WOMAN
IS.
[ APPLAUSE ]
JENN, YOU WEREN'T AFRAID TO SPEAK YOUR MIND, AND YOU ALSO
WEREN'T AFRAID TO GO AFTER WHAT IT IS WANT.
YOU DID THAT ALL THROUGHOUT THIS ENTIRE JOURNEY, INCLUDING MAKING
HISTORY, THE BEAUTIFUL PROPOSAL, THE LIKES OF WHICH WE HAVE NEVER
SEEN AND, JENN, NOBODY CAN EVER TAKE THAT AWAY FROM YOU.
I KNOW YOU HAVEN'T SEEN IT YET. WHAT DO YOU THINK, SHOULD WE ALL
WATCH IT TOGETHER? OKAY.
HERE IT IS.
>> DO I HAVE A CHOICE?
♪
>>> TODAY FEELS ABSOLUTELY SURREAL.
I ALWAYS THOUGHT THAT THIS DAY WOULD COME BUT NEVER REALLY
TRULY COULD ENVISION IT, AND NOW THAT IT'S HERE, I FEEL
OVERWHELMED WITH EMOTIONS.
ALSO, LIKE, A LITTLE NERVOUS. IT'S CRAZY TO THINK OF HOW I GOT
HERE. I HAVEN'T ALWAYS FELT LIKE I HAD
CONTROL IN MY RELATIONSHIPS.
I'VE ALWAYS CHOSEN THE MEN
BEFORE MYSELF. IT TOOK A LITTLE BIT FOR ME TO
REALIZE THAT I AM IN LOVE WITH DEVIN, AND IT'S BECAUSE OF THE
WAY HE MAKES ME FEEL, AND IT'S BECAUSE OF WHO HE IS.
I'VE GROWN SO MUCH IN THIS JOURNEY.
I FEEL LIKE I HAVE A LOT OF CLARITY, AND I FEEL EMPOWERED.
A PROPOSAL IS A HUGE THING, AND NO MATTER WHAT THE OUTCOME IS
GOING TO BE, I OWE THIS TO
MYSELF TO MAKE THAT DECISION.
>> HEY, YOU.
>> HI, SWEETHEART.
>> HOW ARE YOU?
>> I'M SO MUCH BETTER NOW.
>> GOOD TO SEE YOU.
>> IT'S BETTER TO SEE YOU.
>> YOU LOOK AMAZING.
>> YOU LOOK FANTASTIC.
JENNIFER TRAN, WHAT I LOVE ABOUT
US THE MOST IS OUR FOUNDATION STARTED WITH BANTER, HUMOR,
LIGHTHEARTEDNESS, BUT THE BIGGEST THING ABOUT ME AND THE
BIGGEST THING ABOUT YOU IS THAT WE'VE NEVER CHANGED WHO WE ARE
IN THIS WHOLE EXPERIENCE, AND I THINK THAT'S WHAT MAKES ME FALL
IN LOVE WITH YOU EVERY SINGLE TIME I SEE YOU IS THAT YOU ARE
WHO YOU ARE, THIS FIERY WOMAN IN MY LIFE THAT HAS CONTINUED TO
INSPIRE ME TO BE A BETTER MAN EVERY SINGLE DAY.
I'VE ONLY EVER BEEN ABLE TO FIND A LOVE LIKE THAT WITH YOU.
I'VE NEVER SEEN THAT BEFORE, AND HONESTLY, IT SCARED ME WHEN I
SAW IT FOR THE FIRST TIME, AND, JENN, I DO LOVE YOU WITH ALL OF
MY HEART, AND IT'S A FEELING I
DON'T EVER WANT TO GO AWAY.
>> DEVIN, YOU WERE THE FIRST PERSON TO REALLY SEE ME AND TO
TAKE THE TIME TO UNDERSTAND ME.
YOU WERE ALWAYS A CONSTANT. YOUR LOVE WAS ALWAYS THERE, AND
I NEVER DOUBTED FOR A SECOND HOW MUCH YOU LOVED ME, AND I'M SORRY
IF YOU EVER DOUBTED HOW I LOVED YOU.
I'VE SPENT MY ENTIRE LIFE TRYING TO WORK FOR LOVE AND TRYING TO
EARN IT AND ASKING FOR IT FROM THE WRONG PEOPLE AND FOR THE
WRONG REASONS, AND THAT'S WHY WHEN YOU TOLD ME THAT YOU LOVED
ME, I COULDN'T UNDERSTAND IT.
IT DIDN'T MAKE SENSE TO ME, AND I WANTED TO SELF-SABOTAGE THE
GOOD IN EVERYTHING, BECAUSE I
DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO ACCEPT IT.
I LOVE YOU SO DEEPLY, DEVIN, BUT I CAN'T LET YOU PROPOSE TO
ME.
I'VE DECIDED TO CHOOSE MYSELF IN THIS JOURNEY, AND THE BEST
VERSION OF MYSELF IS WHEN I'M WITH YOU.
I'M STRONG ON MY OWN, BUT I KNOW THAT WE'RE STRONGER TOGETHER,
AND, DEVIN, I WANT TO FIGHT FOR YOU EVERY DAY.
I WANT TO HELP CARRY YOUR BURDENS.
I WANT TO PUT A SMILE ON YOUR FACE, AND, HONESTLY, I JUST
DON'T WANT TO LIVE WITHOUT YOU. YOU ARE EVERYTHING THAT I'VE
EVER DREAMED OF BUT DIDN'T KNOW
THAT I COULD HAVE.
I DIDN'T KNOW. I WANT TO WAKE UP AND CHOOSE YOU
EVERY DAY FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE, TODAY AND EVERY DAY, AND,
BABY, I WANT TO GROW OLD WITH
YOU.
SO, DEVIN STRADER, WILL YOU PLEASE MAKE ME THE HAPPIEST GIRL
IN THE WORLD AND MARRY ME?
[ LAUGHTER ]
>> YOU TURNED THE TABLES ON ME.
♪
ABSOLUTELY, ABSOLUTELY, I WILL, A HUNDRED TIMES OVER AND THEN A
HUNDRED MORE.
>> PUT IT ON, BABY. PUT IT ON.
IT'S PERFECT.
>> IT IS PERFECT, BUT I MEAN I DO HAVE SOMETHING FOR YOU, AS
WELL.
>> YOU HAVE SOMETHING FOR ME?
>> I DO.
>> DO YOU?
>> AND WHETHER YOU WANT ME TO PROPOSE OR NOT, I'M GOING TO
PROPOSE TO YOU.
JENNIFER TRAN, WILL YOU MAKE ME
THE HAPPIEST MAN AND MARRY ME?
>> ABSOLUTELY.
>> I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.
>> I LOVE YOU.
>> GIVE ME YOUR HAND, GIRL. LET ME PUT THIS ON YOUR FINGER.
>> OH, MY GOD. HOW DOES THIS WORK?
>> JUST LIKE THIS.
♪
>> OBVIOUSLY IN LIGHT OF EVERYTHING THAT'S HAPPENED,
SINCE THAT DAY IN HAWAII, I
CAN'T IMAGINE HOW HARD IT IS TO WATCH THAT BACK AND TO RELIVE
IT, BUT, JENN, MY BIGGEST HOPE IS THAT WHEN YOU DO SEE THAT
BACK, A SMALL PART OF YOU FEELS EMPOWERED, BECAUSE YOU REALLY
DID DO THINGS YOUR WAY.
[ APPLAUSE ]
>> I MEAN, THAT WAS WHAT I THOUGHT WAS THE HAPPIEST DAY OF
MY LIFE. I AM VERY PROUD OF THAT WOMAN
THERE WHO CHOSE A MAN AT THE TIME WHO WAS GIVING HER
EVERYTHING THAT SHE EVER WANTED, SWUNG WHO TREATED HER WELL,
SOMEONE WHO PROMISED HER THE WORLD.
I DO NOT REGRET PROPOSING TO THAT MAN ON THERE, BUT WHAT
HAPPENED WAS THAT MAN DOESN'T EXIST ANYMORE.
AND THE TRUTH OF THE MATTER IS, I'M STILL THAT SAME WOMAN I AM.
[ APPLAUSE ]
THE WOMAN THAT STOOD THERE WAS READY TO FIGHT FOR LOVE, WAS
READY TO GIVE EVERYTHING TO A PERSON, WAS READY TO START A
FAMILY, WAS READY TO LOVE AND UNDERSTOOD WHAT IT MEANT TO
FULLY LOVE SOMEBODY TO GO THROUGH THE HARD TIMES, TO GO
THROUGH THE HAPPY TIMES, TO GO THROUGH EVERY SINGLE OBSTACLE
WITH SOMEBODY UNWAVERINGLY NO MATTER WHAT AND I'M STILL THAT
SAME PERSON BECAUSE I HAVE FOUGHT FOR THIS EVERY SECOND
THAT I COULD TO A POINT WHERE I STARTED DOING THINGS THAT
DISRESPECTED MYSELF BUT AT THIS POINT, LIKE, I DO KNOW WHAT I
DESERVE, AND I KNOW THAT THAT MAN, SOMEBODY ELSE WILL BE THAT
MAN FOR ME AND I CAN FIND THAT PERSON WHO WILL FILL OUT -- WHO
WILL FULFILL ALL THE PROMPTS HE MADE ME INSTEAD OF LEAVING ME
WITH NOTHING.
[ APPLAUSE ]
>> DEVIN, I GOT TO ASK YOU WHAT GOES THROUGH YOUR MIND WHEN YOU
WATCH THAT BACK.
>> I MEAN, OBVIOUSLY LIKE SHE SAID, IT'S HARD.
YOU KNOW, I DID MAKE A LOT OF PRO PROMISES, I BELIEVED THEM AND
STILL DO AND IT'S A ONE-SIDED STORY WHEN IT'S SO DIFFERENT
THAN WHERE WE'RE SITTING AT RIGHT NOW.
I CAN'T DENY THAT FROM YOU AND I WON'T TRY TO, YOU KNOW, THAT MAN
LOVED YOU. HE DID. AND I'M SORRY --
>> IT DOESN'T JUST GO AWAY THE NEXT DAY.
>> I NEVER SAID IT DID AND IT DIDN'T. IT DIDN'T.
YOU'RE TRYING TO CONDENSE THIS, PLEASE DON'T.
I UNDERSTAND THAT I COULDN'T KEEP PROMISES THAT I MADE TO YOU.
I UNDERSTAND THAT. I TOLD YOU THAT.
I UNDERSTAND THAT FEELING, MAYBE NOT FROM MY PERSPECTIVE BUT I'VE
BEEN ON THE OPPOSITE END. I UNDERSTAND WHAT THAT FEELS
LIKE, I REALLY DO, MORE THAN YOU KNOW AND I KNOW THAT I FELL
SHORT OF A LOT OF YOUR EXPECTATIONS TO THE POINT WHERE
LIKE YOU SAID YOU WERE DOING THINGS THAT WERE DIMINISHING WHO
YOU WERE AND YOU CAN SIT HERE AND SAY, YOU KNOW, I'M A LIAR,
THIS OR THAT. I'M NOT GOING TO FIGHT YOU ON
ANY OF THOSE THINGS.
>> JENN, JUST REAL QUICKLY, I WANT TO GIVE YOU THE LAST WORD,
WHAT DO YOU HOPE DEVIN LEARNS FROM THIS?
SUPPLY HOPE THAW LEARN THAT THE WEIGHT OF YOUR WORDS MATTER AND
THAT IF YOU'RE GOING TO PROMISE SOMETHING YOU SHOULD BE ABLE TO
FULFILL THOSE PROMISES. I JUST -- I SIMPLY COULDN'T HAVE
DONE WHAT YOU HAVE DONE IN THAT POSITION, AND WHEN I LOVE
SOMETHING, I NURTURE IT AND I VALUE IT AND I DON'T THROW IT
AWAY THE NEXT DAY AND I HOPE THAT YOU FIND WHATEVER IT IS,
WHEREVER IT IS IN YOURSELF, I HOPE YOU GET THERE ONE DAY, I
DON'T KNOW.
>> OKAY, DEVIN, APPRECIATE YOU BEING HERE AND FOR FACING THE
MUSIC. I KNOW IT'S NOT EASY. AND, JENN, THERE IS NO DOUBT IN
MY MIND THAT THE GREAT LOVE YOU DESERVE, IT IS OUT THERE.
IT IS WAITING FOR YOU AND I KNOW YOU ARE GOING TO FIND IT.
I KNOW YOU ARE. LET'S HEAR IT FOR JENN,
EVERYBODY.
[ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ]
ALL RIGHT. COMING UP NEXT, IT'S THE SNEAK
PEEK EVERYBODY HAS BEEN WAITING FOR, YOUR VERY FIRST LOOK AT
JOAN'S JOURNEY AS THE GOLDEN BACHELORETTE, SO DOES JOAN FALL
IN LOVE? DOES SHE GET ENGAGED? MAYBE TO THAT HANDSOME DEVIL
RIGHT OVER THERE. WE'LL TAKE A LOOK RIGHT AFTER
THE BREAK.
[ APPLAUSE ]
>>> WELCOME BACK, BACHELOR NATION.
IT HAS BEEN QUITE A NIGHT, HASN'T IT?
I PROMISED YOU A SNEAK PEEK AT JOAN'S JOURNEY AS THE FIRST EVER
GOLDEN BACHELORETTE AND I MAKE GOOD ON MY PROMISES.
SO LET'S ROLL IT.
♪
>> HI. HOW ARE YOU, JOAN?
>> HI.
>> IT'S SO GOOD TO SEE YOU. YOU LOOK BEAUTIFUL.
>> WHAT A SIGHT FOR SORE EYES. OH, MY GOSH.
YOU LOOK SO INCREDIBLE. IT WASN'T THAT LONG AGO, YOU
KNOW, THAT I WAS COMING OUT OF THIS LIMO WALKING UP TO JOEY, SO
SURREAL TO BE HERE.
>> I KNOW.
>> I DON'T THINK THAT I WOULD REALLY KNOW WHAT TRUE LOVE WAS
IF IT WASN'T FOR MY PARENTS. YOU KNOW, MY DAD, HE'S BEEN BY
HIMSELF FOR A COUPLE OF YEARS NOW, AND I THINK THAT, YOU KNOW,
Y'ALL WOULD MAYBE GET ALONG, SO I HAVE SOMEONE THAT I WOULD LIKE
TO INTRODUCE YOU TO.
>> I AM SO EXCITED.
>> LOOKIE HERE.
>> I DID SAY THAT. HI.
>> WELL, HELLO, JOAN.
>> THIS IS MY DAD.
>> I'M MARK. IT'S NICE TO MEET YOU.
>> HOW ARE YOU?
>> KELSEY, THANK YOU FOR BRINGING YOUR DAD FOR ME.
>> OF COURSE. I LOVE YOU, DAD.
>> I LOVE YOU.
>> HAVE THE BEST TIME. YOU'LL DO GREAT.
>> I LOVE THAT. AW.
>> SO I WILL WARM YOUR HANDS UP A LITTLE BIT.
>> WHAT A GENTLEMAN.
>> YOU LOOK GORGEOUS.
>> THANK YOU.
>> SO, YOU KNOW, AS A FATHER, I RAISED MY CHILDREN, AND I WANTED
THEM TO EXPERIENCE LIFE, NOT TO SAY NO BECAUSE THEY'RE AFRAID OF
TAKING A CHANCE.
>> YEAH.
>> AND NOW HERE I AM TAKING AN OPPORTUNITY.
>> YEAH.
>> TO TAKE A CHANCE FOR ME TO FIND LOVE AGAIN.
>> I LOVE THAT.
>> AND I AM HONORED TO BE ABLE TO BE A PART OF YOUR JOURNEY.
>> THANK YOU. I'M SO GLAD YOU'RE HERE.
>> YEAH.
>> IT'S FANTASTIC. I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU TONIGHT.
>> ME TOO. LET'S GET TO KNOW EACH OTHER
TONIGHT. BYE. THANK YOU. BYE-BYE. SEE YOU SOON.
♪
HE'S CUTE. THANK YOU. YOU CAN JUST CALL ME MOM.
[ LAUGHTER ]
[ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ]
>> WOW! I MEAN, REALLY HAD --
[ APPLAUSE ]
WHAT A HANDSOME DEVIL OVER THERE.
I MEAN, YOU HAD REALLY QUITE THE ADVENTURE, DIDN'T YOU?
>> WE DID. IT'S CRAZY.
>> I GOT TO SAY I KNOW ALL OF BACHELOR NATION ARE SO EXCITED
TO WATCH YOUR SEASON. WHAT SHOULD PEOPLE AT HOME BE
EXPECTING?
>> OH, GOSH. WE GOT TO GO TO AMAZING PLACES.
WE DID DATES THAT BACHELOR NATION HAS NEVER SEEN.
BUT IT WAS REALLY ABOUT FINDING LOVE AND THAT THE JOURNEY FOR US
GOLDEN BACHELOR AND BACHELORETTES IS A LITTLE
DIFFERENT AND THERE'S A LOT OF EMOTION THAT WEABLY INTO THIS
BECAUSE WE HAVE A LOT OF LIFE EXPERIENCES, SO I THINK THAT
YOU'RE GOING TO SEE A REALLY EMOTIONAL JOURNEY.
>> IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL, BEAUTIFUL JOURNEY, MAGICAL TOO.
I AM SO EXCITED FOR EVERYBODY AT HOME TO WATCH THIS.
MAKE SURE YOU TUNE IN SEPTEMBER 18th WHEN THE INAUGURAL SEASON
OF "THE GOLDEN BACHELORETTE" COMMENCES.
ALL RIGHT, LET'S GIVE IT UP ONE MORE TIME FOR OUR BACHELORETTE,
JENN.
[ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ]
AND THANKS ALSO TO MARCUS AND DEVIN AND TO ALL OF OUR BACHELOR
FAMILY WHO SHOWED UP HERE TONIGHT, YOU'RE ALL INCREDIBLE.
IT'S ALSO OUR AMAZING STUDIO AUDIENCE.
TO THOSE OF YOU WATCHING FROM HOME AND TO ALL OF YOU FROM
BACHELOR NATION, OH, STAY TUNED BY THE WAY FOR "JIMMY KIMMEL
LIVE." JIMMY IS BACK WITH BILLIE EILISH
TONIGHT SO YOU DON'T WANT TO MISS THAT. I'M JESSE PALMER.
GOOD NIGHT, EVERYBODY.
♪
[ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ]