1 00:00:04,471 --> 00:00:07,975 >>> I THOUGHT I KNEW WHICH WAY I WANTED IT TO GO, AND I WOKE UP 2 00:00:07,975 --> 00:00:10,844 THIS MORNING WITH A TOTALLY DIFFERENT POINT OF VIEW ON IT. 3 00:00:10,844 --> 00:00:12,045 >> ARE YOU OKAY WITH WHATEVER IS 4 00:00:12,045 --> 00:00:24,625 GOING TO HAPPEN HERE? 5 00:00:24,625 --> 00:00:27,160 >> I CAN'T LET YOU PROPOSE TO 6 00:00:27,160 --> 00:00:42,075 ME. 7 00:00:43,343 --> 00:00:49,383 ♪ 8 00:00:49,383 --> 00:01:01,094 [ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ] 9 00:01:01,094 --> 00:01:05,399 >>> GREAT SEEING YOU GUYS. HI, WELCOME. WELCOME. 10 00:01:05,399 --> 00:01:11,171 GREAT SEEING YOU ALL. THANK YOU. GREAT SEEING YOU. 11 00:01:11,171 --> 00:01:16,376 THANK YOU. GOOD EVENING, BACHELOR NATION. 12 00:01:16,376 --> 00:01:19,346 I'M YOUR HOST JESSE PALMER, AND I'M COMING TO YOU LIVE FROM LOS 13 00:01:19,346 --> 00:01:22,849 ANGELES WITH A DRAMATIC SEASON FINALE OF "THE BACHELORETTE." 14 00:01:22,849 --> 00:01:27,721 [ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ] 15 00:01:27,721 --> 00:01:32,025 AND LOOK AT THIS. WHAT A STAR-STUDDED EVENT. 16 00:01:32,025 --> 00:01:34,361 SO MANY BACHELOR NATION FAVORITES ARE HERE EVEN THE 17 00:01:34,361 --> 00:01:37,598 FIRST GOLDEN BACHELORETTE, JOAN, IS WITH US. 18 00:01:37,598 --> 00:01:39,166 LET'S HEAR IT FOR JOAN. 19 00:01:39,166 --> 00:01:40,167 [ APPLAUSE ] 20 00:01:40,167 --> 00:01:43,170 AND DON'T WORRY, YOU ARE GOING TO GET A SNEAK PEEK AT HER QUEST 21 00:01:43,170 --> 00:01:45,939 FOR A SECOND GREAT LOVE LATER TONIGHT AND TRUST ME, YOU DON'T 22 00:01:45,939 --> 00:01:50,010 WANT TO MISS IT BUT FIRST IT'S THE EMOTIONAL CONCLUSION OF 23 00:01:50,010 --> 00:01:52,279 JENN'S JOURNEY SO HOW IS THIS GOING TO END FOR HER? 24 00:01:52,279 --> 00:01:57,884 WILL SHE END UP ENGAGED TO MARCUS? OR WILL IT BE DEVIN? 25 00:01:57,884 --> 00:02:02,055 [ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ] 26 00:02:02,055 --> 00:02:05,892 OR WILL SOMETHING THAT HAS SIMPLY NEVER HAPPENED ON THE 27 00:02:05,892 --> 00:02:08,261 SHOW HAPPEN TONIGHT. THAT'S RIGHT, I SAID NEVER. 28 00:02:08,261 --> 00:02:11,632 COULD THAT, IN FACT, HAPPEN TONIGHT? 29 00:02:11,632 --> 00:02:13,567 WELL, THERE'S A SPOILER FOR YOU. 30 00:02:13,567 --> 00:02:15,135 [ LAUGHTER ] 31 00:02:15,135 --> 00:02:18,305 IT WILL. SO, GRAB THE TISSUES, TOP OFF 32 00:02:18,305 --> 00:02:25,212 THE WINE AND SAY ALOHA ONCE AGAIN AS WE HEAD BACK TO HAWAII, 33 00:02:25,212 --> 00:02:28,081 THE HISTORIC LIVE "BACHELORETTE" FINALE STARTS RIGHT NOW. 34 00:02:28,081 --> 00:02:30,450 [ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ] 35 00:02:30,450 --> 00:02:37,791 ♪ 36 00:02:44,197 --> 00:02:47,167 ♪ 37 00:02:47,167 --> 00:02:51,905 >> IT IS A NEW WEEK HERE ON THE ISLAND OF HAWAII, AND I'M 38 00:02:51,905 --> 00:02:57,110 FEELING SO LUCKY AND EXCITED. I TRULY AM IN LOVE WITH MARCUS 39 00:02:57,110 --> 00:03:01,248 AND DEVIN AND THIS IS TOTALLY BEYOND MY WILDEST DREAMS. 40 00:03:01,248 --> 00:03:03,717 I DEFINITELY FEEL LIKE A WHOLE NEW PERSON THAT'S ABOUT TO BE 41 00:03:03,717 --> 00:03:10,457 ENGAGED THIS WEEK. TODAY I GET TO SEE MY FAMILY, 42 00:03:10,457 --> 00:03:14,327 AND MY BIGGEST HOPE IS THAT THEY CAN SEE HOW HAPPY THAT I AM AND 43 00:03:14,327 --> 00:03:18,732 THEY CAN SEE HOW HAPPY THESE GUYS MAKE ME. 44 00:03:18,732 --> 00:03:22,369 >> I'M EXCITED TO SEE JENN. ARE YOU NERVOUS? 45 00:03:22,369 --> 00:03:27,074 >> YEAH, I'M NERVOUS BUT I'M SO EXCITED. 46 00:03:27,074 --> 00:03:32,712 TO BRING A MAN HOME, SO I JUST HOPE SHE MAKE THE RIGHT DECISION 47 00:03:32,712 --> 00:03:35,882 AND SHE CAN FIND THE RIGHT MAN. 48 00:03:35,882 --> 00:03:39,953 >> AND THE MOST IMPORTANT THING WE CAN DO IS JUST GUIDE HER AND 49 00:03:39,953 --> 00:03:45,158 GIVE HER OUR OPINIONS. 50 00:03:45,158 --> 00:03:50,697 >> MY DAUGHTER, SHE IS EVERYTHING TO ME, SO I WANT JENN 51 00:03:50,697 --> 00:03:56,770 TO FIND A MAN WHO LOVE HER FOR THE REST OF HER LIFE. 52 00:03:56,770 --> 00:04:01,608 >> HELLO. WHO IS IT? 53 00:04:01,608 --> 00:04:03,110 >> IT'S JENN. 54 00:04:03,110 --> 00:04:03,310 >> HI. 55 00:04:03,310 --> 00:04:04,811 >> HI, JENN. 56 00:04:04,811 --> 00:04:07,180 >> HI. 57 00:04:07,180 --> 00:04:08,715 >> HI. 58 00:04:08,715 --> 00:04:09,382 >> AW. 59 00:04:09,382 --> 00:04:11,218 >> HOW ARE YOU? 60 00:04:11,218 --> 00:04:14,688 >> GOOD. HI. YOU LOOK BEAUTIFUL. 61 00:04:14,688 --> 00:04:17,257 >> WHY ARE YOU CRYING? 62 00:04:17,257 --> 00:04:20,560 >> IT'S LIKE SHE LOVES YOU OR SOMETHING. 63 00:04:20,560 --> 00:04:24,097 >> I KNOW JENN'S HAD A FEW ROUGH RELATIONSHIPS IN THE PAST. 64 00:04:24,097 --> 00:04:26,633 I DON'T WANT HER TO GO DOWN THAT PATH AGAIN. 65 00:04:26,633 --> 00:04:29,035 EVER SINCE HER DAD LEFT, I HAVE TO PROTECT HER. 66 00:04:29,035 --> 00:04:32,072 LIKE, THAT'S MY ROLE SO I WANT TO KIND OF MAKE SURE THAT SHE'S 67 00:04:32,072 --> 00:04:33,440 SEEING CLEARLY. 68 00:04:33,440 --> 00:04:38,278 >> THERE'S TWO GUYS HERE, AND IT'S DEVIN AND MARCUS AND I AM 69 00:04:38,278 --> 00:04:40,280 IN LOVE WITH BOTH OF THEM. 70 00:04:40,280 --> 00:04:41,882 >> HAVE YOU TOLD BOTH OF THEM? 71 00:04:41,882 --> 00:04:45,418 >> YES. I HAVE. 72 00:04:45,418 --> 00:04:52,192 >> DID THEY SAY THEY LOVE YOU? 73 00:04:57,964 --> 00:04:58,632 >> WHICH ONE. 74 00:04:58,632 --> 00:04:59,099 >> MARCUS. 75 00:04:59,099 --> 00:05:00,000 >> NOT YET. 76 00:05:00,000 --> 00:05:01,234 >> BUT HE WANTS TO. 77 00:05:01,234 --> 00:05:03,103 >> BUT TODAY YOU'RE MEETING DEVIN. 78 00:05:03,103 --> 00:05:09,442 >> OKAY. OKAY. 79 00:05:09,442 --> 00:05:11,678 >> HE SAY HE LOVE YOU. 80 00:05:11,678 --> 00:05:12,279 >> YES. 81 00:05:12,279 --> 00:05:14,247 >> WHO YOU HAVE MORE FEEL? 82 00:05:14,247 --> 00:05:15,682 >> EQUAL. I'M PRETTY EQUAL. 83 00:05:15,682 --> 00:05:18,818 >> I'M EXCITED TO TALK TO BOTH OF THEM TO SEE WHERE THEIR HEADS 84 00:05:18,818 --> 00:05:20,854 ARE AT SO IT'S EVERYTHING. WE'RE EXCITED. 85 00:05:20,854 --> 00:05:22,022 >> SO EXCITED. 86 00:05:22,022 --> 00:05:24,691 >> JENN HASN'T HAD VERY GOOD LUCK IN HER PREVIOUS 87 00:05:24,691 --> 00:05:28,361 RELATIONSHIPS SO I WANT HER TO JUST END UP WITH SOMEONE WHO 88 00:05:28,361 --> 00:05:31,231 UNDERSTANDS HOW AMAZING SHE IS AND TREATS HER LIKE THE QUEEN 89 00:05:31,231 --> 00:05:31,932 SHE IS. 90 00:05:31,932 --> 00:05:33,567 >> HELLO. 91 00:05:33,567 --> 00:05:39,105 >> HELLO, YOU. 92 00:05:39,105 --> 00:05:40,440 >> I MISSED YOU. 93 00:05:40,440 --> 00:05:41,274 >> I MISSED YOU. 94 00:05:41,274 --> 00:05:45,145 >> I KNOW THAT I LOVE JENN AND TODAY IS A VERY BIG STEP FOR US. 95 00:05:45,145 --> 00:05:49,316 YOU KNOW, THE PRESSURE IS REALLY ON FOR ME TO PUT THIS IN A FINAL 96 00:05:49,316 --> 00:05:53,220 SPOT FOR HER AND I FOR THE FUTURE. BUT, YOU KNOW, I DO HAVE 97 00:05:53,220 --> 00:05:56,790 INSECURITIES ABOUT MEETING JENN'S FAMILY AND, YOU KNOW, 98 00:05:56,790 --> 00:05:59,926 IT'S DEFINITELY THE FEAR THEY MAY NOT SEE THAT I'M GOOD ENOUGH. 99 00:05:59,926 --> 00:06:01,728 >> THIS IS NICOLE, MY BEST FRIEND. 100 00:06:01,728 --> 00:06:02,662 >> VERY NICE TO MEET YOU. 101 00:06:02,662 --> 00:06:03,930 >> THIS IS JAMES, MY BROTHER. 102 00:06:03,930 --> 00:06:05,966 >> HI, JAMES. VERY NICE TO MEET YOU. 103 00:06:05,966 --> 00:06:07,100 >> THIS IS MY AUNT. 104 00:06:07,100 --> 00:06:08,001 >> NICE TO MEET YOU. 105 00:06:08,001 --> 00:06:09,102 >> AND MY MOM. 106 00:06:09,102 --> 00:06:10,003 >> I'VE HEARD SO MUCH ABOUT YOU. 107 00:06:10,003 --> 00:06:14,808 >> I AM SO -- YOU DON'T WANT TO DISAPPOINT, NOT ONLY HER, THIS 108 00:06:14,808 --> 00:06:17,377 GIRL YOU LOVE SO MUCH BUT THE PEOPLE THAT LOVE HER SO MUCH AS 109 00:06:17,377 --> 00:06:20,680 WELL AND I JUST HOPE THEY LIKE ME SO IT DOESN'T INFLUENCE HER 110 00:06:20,680 --> 00:06:20,981 DECISIONS. 111 00:06:20,981 --> 00:06:22,349 >> SO TELL US EVERYTHING. 112 00:06:22,349 --> 00:06:25,018 >> WHAT'S GOING ON? WHAT DO YOU WANT TO KNOW? 113 00:06:25,018 --> 00:06:27,087 >> LET'S DO IT HERE. CATCH US UP. 114 00:06:27,087 --> 00:06:30,390 >> CATCH US UP? WELL, I'M VERY EXCITED FOR THIS 115 00:06:30,390 --> 00:06:32,659 OPPORTUNITY TO GET YOU MEET TO GUYS. 116 00:06:32,659 --> 00:06:35,395 I KNOW JENN SPEAKS VERY HIGHLY OF EVERY SINGLE PERSON IN THIS 117 00:06:35,395 --> 00:06:37,397 ROOM. WATCHING HER LIGHT UP WHENEVER 118 00:06:37,397 --> 00:06:39,432 SHE TALKS ABOUT FAMILY IS SOMETHING THAT'S VERY IMPORTANT 119 00:06:39,432 --> 00:06:42,702 TO ME, BECAUSE MY FAMILY HAS BEEN THROUGH A LOT, YOU KNOW, I 120 00:06:42,702 --> 00:06:46,406 GREW UP WITH A SINGLE MOM AND I UNDERSTAND WHAT A STRONG WOMAN 121 00:06:46,406 --> 00:06:50,110 CAN DO FOR A FAMILY, AND THAT'S SOMETHING THAT GOES A LONG WAY 122 00:06:50,110 --> 00:06:51,111 WITH ME, YOU KNOW. 123 00:06:51,111 --> 00:06:54,948 >> THAT'S WHERE WE CONNECTED A LOT HAVING UNTRADITIONAL 124 00:06:54,948 --> 00:06:57,851 FAMILIES AND BEING ABLE TO TALK ABOUT IT AND HOW WE'VE LEARNED 125 00:06:57,851 --> 00:07:03,156 FROM IT AND HOW IT SHAPED THE PEOPLE THAT WE'VE BECOME. 126 00:07:03,156 --> 00:07:05,692 IN THE RELATIONSHIP IS BEING EACH OTHER'S ROCK. 127 00:07:05,692 --> 00:07:06,059 >> ABSOLUTELY. 128 00:07:06,059 --> 00:07:08,795 >> YOU HAVE A LOT OF COMMON GROUND WHICH IS ALWAYS GOOD, SO 129 00:07:08,795 --> 00:07:13,867 I'M HAPPY THAT JENN, YOU KNOW, WAS ABLE TO MEET YOU BUT WITH 130 00:07:13,867 --> 00:07:15,535 THAT SAID MY ROLE HERE IS TO BE THE PROTECTIVE BROTHER. 131 00:07:15,535 --> 00:07:19,539 >> GOOD. 132 00:07:19,539 --> 00:07:24,010 >> I CAN SEE JENN VERY HAPPY BUT 133 00:07:24,010 --> 00:07:29,816 FOR ME I DO UNDERSTAND. 134 00:07:29,816 --> 00:07:33,353 HAVE YOU EVER DATED AN ASIAN GIRL BEFORE? 135 00:07:33,353 --> 00:07:35,288 >> NO, MA'AM, I HAVE NOT. 136 00:07:35,288 --> 00:07:37,023 >> WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT ASIAN GIRL? 137 00:07:37,023 --> 00:07:40,627 >> I LOVE IT BUT FOR ME IT'S NOT SO MUCH THE ETHNICITY. 138 00:07:40,627 --> 00:07:44,698 I'M HISPANIC. I'M, YOU KNOW, MY FAMILY IS 139 00:07:44,698 --> 00:07:47,467 HISPANIC, AND MY MOM IS WHITE SO I HAVE A LITTLE MIX OF BOTH BUT 140 00:07:47,467 --> 00:07:49,970 I DO KNOW THAT I LOVE JENN AND -- 141 00:07:49,970 --> 00:07:53,106 >> WHAT IS IT ABOUT JENN THAT YOU LOVE? 142 00:07:53,106 --> 00:07:56,476 >> THE THING I LOVE MOST ABOUT JENN IS SHE MAKES ME FEEL SEEN 143 00:07:56,476 --> 00:07:59,846 IN WAYS THAT I'VE NEVER FELT SEEN BEFORE IN PAST 144 00:07:59,846 --> 00:08:03,116 RELATIONSHIPS AND I'VE NEVER BEEN ABLE TO FEEL LOVED LIKE I 145 00:08:03,116 --> 00:08:07,620 HAVE WITH JENN BEFORE. JENN'S A PERSON THAT MAKES ME 146 00:08:07,620 --> 00:08:11,224 FEEL LIKE I'M 100% WHOLE. 100% MYSELF AND THERE'S NO 147 00:08:11,224 --> 00:08:15,328 QUESTION IN MY MIND THAT JENN IS THE PERSON FOR ME AND SHE'S A 148 00:08:15,328 --> 00:08:17,430 GREAT WOMAN. SHE REALLY IS. 149 00:08:17,430 --> 00:08:21,000 >> THANK YOU FOR THINKING THAT 150 00:08:21,000 --> 00:08:28,608 MUCH OF MY DAUGHTER. I WORRY ABOUT JENN, SEEING THE 151 00:08:28,608 --> 00:08:32,946 FATHER LEFT, YOU KNOW, THAT'S WHY I WANT TO ASK YOU, YOU CAN 152 00:08:32,946 --> 00:08:35,081 MAKE HER ALWAYS FEEL SAFE. 153 00:08:35,081 --> 00:08:35,448 >> ABSOLUTELY. 154 00:08:35,448 --> 00:08:36,683 >> CAN YOU DO THAT FOR HER? 155 00:08:36,683 --> 00:08:38,952 >> ABSOLUTELY. YOU KNOW, I DIDN'T HAVE A FATHER 156 00:08:38,952 --> 00:08:43,089 TO LOVE GROWING UP, AS WELL, YOU KNOW, AND THAT JENN DESERVES A 157 00:08:43,089 --> 00:08:48,762 MAN THAT WILL WAKE UP AND PICK HER AND CHOOSE HER, AND I KNOW 158 00:08:48,762 --> 00:08:51,664 SHE HASN'T ALWAYS HAD THAT IN LIFE AND TO BE THAT PERSON FOR 159 00:08:51,664 --> 00:08:54,601 HER WOULD BE A BLESSING FOR ME, YOU KNOW. 160 00:08:54,601 --> 00:09:00,807 >> DEVIN, HE KIND OF NICE GUY. HE AND JENN HAVE THE SAME 161 00:09:00,807 --> 00:09:06,980 SITUATION. HE MISS LOVE OF FATHER TOO SO IT 162 00:09:06,980 --> 00:09:10,583 CAN TRY TO MAKE IT TOGETHER. 163 00:09:10,583 --> 00:09:15,789 >> HOW DO YOU FEEL IF YOU'RE NOT THE FINAL MAN? 164 00:09:15,789 --> 00:09:24,531 >> AH, THAT'S A GOOD QUESTION. 165 00:09:24,531 --> 00:09:29,969 WOULD IT KILL ME TO NOT BE THE ONE? IT WOULD. 100%. 166 00:09:29,969 --> 00:09:33,139 BECAUSE I BELIEVE SO MUCH IN WHAT WE HAVE. 167 00:09:33,139 --> 00:09:37,110 AND IF HER AND I DO GET TO THAT POINT, I CAN'T PROPOSE TO HER 168 00:09:37,110 --> 00:09:40,914 WITHOUT YOUR BLESSING, AND, YOU KNOW, I KNOW THAT'S EASIER SAID 169 00:09:40,914 --> 00:09:41,581 THAN DONE. 170 00:09:41,581 --> 00:09:48,088 >> BUT YOU KNOW, IN THE CULTURE, WE TALK ABOUT THE MARRIAGE 171 00:09:48,088 --> 00:09:53,626 THAT'S IN SMALL TOWN BECAUSE WE WANT JENN TO HAVE A LONG 172 00:09:53,626 --> 00:09:54,461 RELATIONSHIP. LONG-TERM RELATIONSHIP. 173 00:09:54,461 --> 00:09:55,395 >> ABSOLUTELY, ABSOLUTELY. 174 00:09:55,395 --> 00:09:57,297 >> YEAH. 175 00:09:57,297 --> 00:09:59,999 >> AND I RESPECT THAT. YOU KNOW? 176 00:09:59,999 --> 00:10:02,302 SO, I KNEW THAT I WAS GOING TO HAVE THESE CONVERSATIONS WITH 177 00:10:02,302 --> 00:10:05,238 HER FAMILY, AND THAT SCARES ME THAT THEY MAY NOT SEE IT WITH 178 00:10:05,238 --> 00:10:08,608 JENN AND I AND, YOU KNOW, THIS IS ONE OF THOSE MOMENTS WHERE I 179 00:10:08,608 --> 00:10:13,513 AM DOUBTING MYSELF, BUT I DO KNOW ONE THING FOR SURE AND I 180 00:10:13,513 --> 00:10:15,515 DON'T SEE THIS WORLD WITHOUT JENN IN MY LIFE. 181 00:10:15,515 --> 00:10:16,983 >> ARE YOU HAPPY? 182 00:10:16,983 --> 00:10:19,419 >> YI, I AM VERY HAPPY. 183 00:10:27,160 --> 00:10:33,800 >> I WANT TO KNOW MORE. 184 00:10:38,605 --> 00:10:42,775 >> WITH DEVIN WE CAN REALLY TALK ABOUT MY FEELINGS AND I CAN OPEN 185 00:10:42,775 --> 00:10:47,280 UP ABOUT WHO I AM AND IS WILLING TO MAKE ANYTHING WORK AND 186 00:10:47,280 --> 00:10:52,685 COMPROMISES WITH ME AND LOVES ME. HE WANTS TO UNDERSTAND ME. 187 00:10:52,685 --> 00:10:57,257 HE WANTS TO SEE ALL THESE PARTS OF ME. 188 00:11:05,064 --> 00:11:07,867 >> YEAH, EVERYTHING ABOUT VIETNAMESE CULTURE. 189 00:11:15,508 --> 00:11:19,178 >> WILL LEARN MORE AND WANTS TO, YOU KNOW, HELP ME CELEBRATE THAT 190 00:11:19,178 --> 00:11:22,982 PART OF ME, AND HE WANTS TO HELP ME RAISE OUR KIDS LIKE THAT. 191 00:11:22,982 --> 00:11:25,285 >> UH-HUH. 192 00:11:25,285 --> 00:11:32,525 >> AND HE WANTS YOU TO TEACH OUR KIDS VIETNAMESE. 193 00:11:44,337 --> 00:11:48,541 >> BEFORE YOU CAN MOVE FORWARD. 194 00:12:02,155 --> 00:12:05,792 >> TALKING TO MY MOM, I CAN SEE THAT SHE REALLY IS GOING TO JUST 195 00:12:05,792 --> 00:12:08,361 LET IT ALL OUT THERE AND SPEAK ABOUT THE SKEPTICISM THAT SHE 196 00:12:08,361 --> 00:12:11,230 HAS AND THE CONCERNS THAT SHE HAS. 197 00:12:11,230 --> 00:12:15,101 I AM WORRIED FOR DEVIN BECAUSE I REALIZE THAT MY FAMILY IS NOT 198 00:12:15,101 --> 00:12:17,514 GOING TO TAKE THIS LIGHTLY. 199 00:12:21,986 --> 00:12:22,487 [ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ] 200 00:12:22,487 --> 00:12:30,007 ♪ 201 00:12:30,007 --> 00:12:32,610 >>> WELCOME BACK TO THE FINALE OF "THE BACHELORETTE." 202 00:12:32,610 --> 00:12:35,480 OF COURSE, I'M COMING TO YOU LIVE FROM LOS ANGELES, AND I'M 203 00:12:35,480 --> 00:12:39,951 JOINED BY A FEW FAN FAVORITES FROM JENN'S SEASON. 204 00:12:39,951 --> 00:12:41,352 WELCOME DYLAN, JONATHON AND JEREMY, EVERYBODY. 205 00:12:41,352 --> 00:12:42,821 [ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ] 206 00:12:42,821 --> 00:12:46,925 SO GREAT TO SEE YOU GUYS. SO, JONATHON, WHAT MADE YOU 207 00:12:46,925 --> 00:12:48,226 DECIDE TO SHOW UP IN PERSON? 208 00:12:48,226 --> 00:12:49,360 >> WHAT WAS THAT? 209 00:12:49,360 --> 00:12:51,663 >> WHAT MADE YOU DECIDE TO SHOW UP IN PERSON? 210 00:12:51,663 --> 00:12:55,166 >> I HEARD RUMORS OF HOW TONIGHT MIGHT GO AND REALLY WANTED TO 211 00:12:55,166 --> 00:12:59,070 SHOW MY SUPPORT FOR JENN AND HER JOURNEY AND HOPE FOR THE BEST. 212 00:12:59,070 --> 00:13:01,639 >> OKAY. AND, JEREMY, YOU'RE HERE TOO. 213 00:13:01,639 --> 00:13:02,307 ANY THOUGHTS. 214 00:13:02,307 --> 00:13:05,143 >> I HEARD IT'S AN INTERESTING END. 215 00:13:05,143 --> 00:13:08,413 I'M HERE FOR SUPPORT AS WELL, NOT JUST FOR JENN BUT DEVIN AND 216 00:13:08,413 --> 00:13:09,914 MARCUS. THEY'RE BLOWERS TO ME SO I JUST 217 00:13:09,914 --> 00:13:12,183 WANT TO BE HERE AND BE THERE FOR SUPPORT. 218 00:13:12,183 --> 00:13:16,254 >> OKAY, WELL, CLEARLY THE TWO OF YOU KNOW THAT SOMETHING IS UP. 219 00:13:16,254 --> 00:13:17,388 [ LAUGHTER ] 220 00:13:17,388 --> 00:13:20,125 AND YOU WILL FIND OUT EVERYTHING LATER TONIGHT. 221 00:13:20,125 --> 00:13:24,295 AND THEN JUST A REMINDER, JENN, DEVIN AND MARCUS WILL BE ON 222 00:13:24,295 --> 00:13:27,398 STAGE TO TALK ABOUT THE FINAL DAYS IN HAWAII AND EVERYTHING 223 00:13:27,398 --> 00:13:29,901 THAT'S HAPPENED SINCE. SO THE BIG QUESTION NOW, HOW IS 224 00:13:29,901 --> 00:13:31,135 THIS ALL GOING TO END? 225 00:13:31,135 --> 00:13:39,310 LET'S KEEP WATCHING. 226 00:13:39,310 --> 00:13:44,716 >> SO MY OPINION OF DEVIN RIGHT NOW IS, I'M NOT SURE. 227 00:13:44,716 --> 00:13:49,721 BUT, YOU KNOW, I KNOW GROWING UP DEVIN'S DAD WASN'T IN THE 228 00:13:49,721 --> 00:13:51,623 PICTURE. DO YOU FEEL THAT'S BONDED YOU 229 00:13:51,623 --> 00:13:51,890 TOGETHER. 230 00:13:51,890 --> 00:13:55,260 >> YEAH, A HUGE PART OF IT WAS OUR FAMILY DIE SIGNALIC. 231 00:13:55,260 --> 00:14:01,165 NOT HAVING THIS ROLE MODEL OF LOVE AND WE BOTH KNOW WE WANT A 232 00:14:01,165 --> 00:14:04,669 DIFFERENT KIND OF LOVE, MAKES US WANT TO REWRITE HISTORY. 233 00:14:04,669 --> 00:14:07,405 BECAUSE OF THAT I HAVE SO MUCH MORE FAITH IN OUR FUTURE 234 00:14:07,405 --> 00:14:10,108 TOGETHER BECAUSE WE'RE BOTH WILLING TO FIGHT FOR THAT. 235 00:14:10,108 --> 00:14:13,945 >> TALKING TO JAMES, I KNEW THAT HE WAS GOING TO BE CONCERNED AND 236 00:14:13,945 --> 00:14:16,314 PROTECTIVE BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE A FATHER FIGURE AND HE'S BEEN 237 00:14:16,314 --> 00:14:19,017 THERE MY WHOLE LIFE. HE DOESN'T TAKE THIS LIGHTLY AND 238 00:14:19,017 --> 00:14:21,719 I KNOW THAT HE ONLY WANTS THE BEST FOR ME. 239 00:14:21,719 --> 00:14:24,289 >> HEARING YOU TALK ABOUT HIM, HEARING, YOU KNOW, WHAT 240 00:14:24,289 --> 00:14:28,760 DIFFERENCE HE'S MAKING IN YOUR LIFE AND HOW HAPPY YOU ARE JUST 241 00:14:28,760 --> 00:14:33,097 TALKING ABOUT HIM, I THINK YOU'VE GROWN A LOT WHICH BY THE 242 00:14:33,097 --> 00:14:36,234 WAY I'M SUPER PROUD OF. YOU GUYS ARE A GREAT MATCH AND 243 00:14:36,234 --> 00:14:41,306 BOTH HAVE EXPERIENCED VERY SIMILAR THINGS SO I'M DEFINITELY 244 00:14:41,306 --> 00:14:43,741 EXCITED TO SEE WHERE YOU'RE GOING WITH IT BUT AT THE SAME 245 00:14:43,741 --> 00:14:46,110 TIME THIS IS ANOTHER GUY. I THINK YOU'VE GOTTEN TO THE 246 00:14:46,110 --> 00:14:48,580 POINT WHERE YOU KNOW WHAT YOU WANT, YOU KNOW WHAT YOU DON'T 247 00:14:48,580 --> 00:14:51,983 WANT AND YOU KNOW WHAT YOU DESERVE AND YOU KNOW WHAT YOU 248 00:14:51,983 --> 00:14:54,018 DON'T DESERVE, RIGHT? WHATEVER DECISION THAT YOU 249 00:14:54,018 --> 00:14:57,488 CHOOSE, I'M GOING TO SUPPORT YOU. 250 00:14:57,488 --> 00:14:59,490 >> INTERESTING. 251 00:14:59,490 --> 00:15:02,293 >> I CAN SEE HOW HAPPY SHE WAS TALKING ABOUT DEVIN. 252 00:15:02,293 --> 00:15:06,764 I COULD SEE HOW CLOSE THEY'VE BONDED JUST OVER THE THINGS THAT 253 00:15:06,764 --> 00:15:08,900 THEY'VE EXPERIENCED IN LIFE, AND I THINK THAT'S VERY IMPORTANT, 254 00:15:08,900 --> 00:15:12,770 BUT AT THE SAME TIME, AS A BIG BROTHER, YOU KNOW, MY ROLE HERE 255 00:15:12,770 --> 00:15:16,641 IS TO DEFINITELY GRILL THE GUYS AND SEE IF THERE ARE ANYTHINGS I 256 00:15:16,641 --> 00:15:19,010 SHOULD BE WARNING JENN ABOUT. ALL RIGHT, DEVIN. 257 00:15:19,010 --> 00:15:20,712 >> WHAT'S HAPPENING, JAMES? 258 00:15:20,712 --> 00:15:22,380 >> NOT UP. GREAT TO FINALLY MEET YOU. 259 00:15:22,380 --> 00:15:23,715 >> GREAT TO MEET YOU, AS WELL. 260 00:15:23,715 --> 00:15:27,285 >> SO, ALL I WANT FOR JENN IS HER TO BE HAPPY. 261 00:15:27,285 --> 00:15:32,123 YOU KNOW, SHE'S VERY SPECIAL TO ME. YOU KNOW, I'M THE PROTECTIVE 262 00:15:32,123 --> 00:15:36,427 BROTHER AND I WANT WHAT'S BEST FOR HER. 263 00:15:36,427 --> 00:15:38,696 >> ABSOLUTELY. I ANTICIPATED TOUGH QUESTIONS 264 00:15:38,696 --> 00:15:40,932 FROM JAMES. THAT SCARED ME BECAUSE JENN'S 265 00:15:40,932 --> 00:15:44,102 MOM COULDN'T EVEN COMMIT THE IDEA OF MARRIAGE YET. 266 00:15:44,102 --> 00:15:48,706 IT'S NOT ENOUGH TIME SO I'M HOPING THINGS GO WELL SO I CAN 267 00:15:48,706 --> 00:15:49,540 STAY STRONG FOR JENN. 268 00:15:49,540 --> 00:15:51,376 >> HOW DO YOU KNOW SHE'S THE PERSON? 269 00:15:51,376 --> 00:15:54,279 >> I'M CONFIDENT IN US. I'M CONFIDENT IN THE WAY THAT WE 270 00:15:54,279 --> 00:15:57,649 OPERATE AND THE WAY THAT WE SMILE AT EACH OTHER AND THE WAY 271 00:15:57,649 --> 00:16:01,519 WE MAKE EACH OTHER FEEL. WITH JENN I'VE NEVER HAD NO 272 00:16:01,519 --> 00:16:04,822 SACRIFICE ANY SHRED OF MYSELF TO BE HAPPY WITH HER AND THAT'S 273 00:16:04,822 --> 00:16:08,326 SOMETHING I'VE NEVER HAD IN MY LIFE SO JENN KEEPS ME GROUNDED. 274 00:16:08,326 --> 00:16:09,460 >> HOW ARE YOU GROUNDING HER? 275 00:16:09,460 --> 00:16:13,031 >> JENN AND I WE'VE BEEN VERY COMMUNICATIVE ABOUT THE THINGS 276 00:16:13,031 --> 00:16:16,634 WE FEEL AND THINGS WE FEAR AND I THINK I'D LIKE TO SAY I'VE GIVEN 277 00:16:16,634 --> 00:16:18,870 HER A LITTLE BIT OF GROWTH ABOUT LOVE. 278 00:16:18,870 --> 00:16:19,404 >> AW. 279 00:16:19,404 --> 00:16:22,840 >> AND WE'VE GROWN UP SIMILARLY. WE'VE BEEN THROUGH A LOT OF 280 00:16:22,840 --> 00:16:25,710 THINGS SIMILARLY WITH OUR RELATIONSHIPS AND, YOU KNOW, WE 281 00:16:25,710 --> 00:16:27,578 HOLD FAMILY THE SAME WAY. 282 00:16:27,578 --> 00:16:28,379 >> THIS TIME NEXT WEEK. 283 00:16:28,379 --> 00:16:29,781 >> YEAH. 284 00:16:29,781 --> 00:16:31,449 >> YOU MIGHT BE ENGAGED. 285 00:16:31,449 --> 00:16:31,949 >> YES. 286 00:16:31,949 --> 00:16:33,351 >> HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT THAT. 287 00:16:33,351 --> 00:16:36,587 >> DOES WORRY ME THAT THERE IS STILL ANOTHER GUY INVOLVED. 288 00:16:36,587 --> 00:16:42,160 DOES IT SCARE ME? ABSOLUTELY. I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW HOW SHE FELT 289 00:16:42,160 --> 00:16:43,294 ABOUT ME UNTIL A FEW DAYS AGO. 290 00:16:43,294 --> 00:16:48,132 >> AT THAT POINT DO YOU FEEL SHE WAS NOT 1RU8VULNERABLE WITH YOU. 291 00:16:48,132 --> 00:16:51,536 >> I THINK SHE WAS PLAYING IT SAFE AND SHE WAS THINKING OF US 292 00:16:51,536 --> 00:16:56,174 AS A COLLECTIVE GROUP AND FOR ME WHAT I NEEDED IN THAT MOMENT WAS 293 00:16:56,174 --> 00:17:01,112 TO BE SEPARATED FRY THE GROUP AND TREATED LIKE I WAS A 294 00:17:01,112 --> 00:17:07,051 SINGULAR PERSON, AND SHE ACKNOWLEDGED TO ME IN THAT 295 00:17:07,051 --> 00:17:11,155 MOMENT, YOU KNOW, YOU KNOW, SHE TOLD ME SHE LOVED ME AND THAT 296 00:17:11,155 --> 00:17:15,927 WAS A MONUMENTAL MOMENT FOR ME. YOU KNOW, I ONLY WANT TO DO THIS 297 00:17:15,927 --> 00:17:19,263 ONCE AND I WANT TO DO IT WITH THE WOMAN THAT MAKES ME THE 298 00:17:19,263 --> 00:17:22,533 HAPPIEST AND SHE MAKES ME SO HAPPY AND I LOVE HER AS A PERSON 299 00:17:22,533 --> 00:17:26,771 AND LIKE YOU SAID, AN ENGAGEMENT IS AROUND THE CORNER. 300 00:17:26,771 --> 00:17:31,909 YOU KNOW, I WOULD REALLY LOVE TO HAVE YOUR BLESSING IF WE GET TO 301 00:17:31,909 --> 00:17:34,812 THAT POINT, JENN AND I, TO PROPOSE TO HER AND MAKE HER 302 00:17:34,812 --> 00:17:42,053 HAPPY FOR THE REST OF HER LIFE IF THAT'S OKAY WITH YOU. 303 00:17:42,053 --> 00:17:46,090 >> I'M DEFINITELY NOT GOING TO GIVE THE BLISSING NOW. 304 00:17:46,090 --> 00:17:47,959 IT'S NOT BECAUSE I'M NOT SURE ABOUT YOU. 305 00:17:47,959 --> 00:17:52,330 IT'S BECAUSE I HAVEN'T TALKED TO THE SECOND GUY YET. 306 00:17:52,330 --> 00:17:52,864 >> YEAH. UNDERSTAND. 307 00:17:52,864 --> 00:17:56,968 >> BUT I GO RESPECT THE FACT THAT YOU ASKED AND I LOVE THAT 308 00:17:56,968 --> 00:17:57,869 ACTUALLY, SO, THANK YOU. 309 00:17:57,869 --> 00:18:03,975 >> NO PROBLEM, MAN, AND, AGAIN, I APPRECIATE YOUR HONESTY AND I 310 00:18:03,975 --> 00:18:07,345 APPRECIATE THE FACT THAT YOU HOLD YOUR SISTER IN SUCH HIGH 311 00:18:07,345 --> 00:18:10,748 REGARDS, BECAUSE SHE IS A VERY IMPORTANT PERSON FOR YOU AND I 312 00:18:10,748 --> 00:18:12,784 CAN SEE THAT AND THE CONVERSATION WITH HER BROTHER 313 00:18:12,784 --> 00:18:16,387 SCARED ME EVEN MORE. YOU KNOW, HE FLAT OUT TELLS ME 314 00:18:16,387 --> 00:18:19,891 HE CAN'T GIVE ME HIS BLESSING. S THAT'S HARD TO HEAR. 315 00:18:19,891 --> 00:18:22,593 YOU WALK IN THERE WITH SO MUCH CONFIDENCE AND YOU WANT TO HEAR 316 00:18:22,593 --> 00:18:25,663 THAT THEY SUPPORT YOU. 317 00:18:25,663 --> 00:18:27,832 >> VERY NICE TO MEET YOU. SEE YOU SOON. 318 00:18:27,832 --> 00:18:33,938 >> BUT TO HEAR HER FAMILY BE SO WARY ABOUT THE WHOLE THING, I AM 319 00:18:33,938 --> 00:18:38,209 WRESTLING WITH MY OWN SANITY IN THIS MOMENT. OH. 320 00:18:38,209 --> 00:18:41,746 >> ALL RIGHT. HOW MUCH DID THEY TORTURE YOU? 321 00:18:41,746 --> 00:18:43,781 >> UM -- 322 00:18:43,781 --> 00:18:44,115 >> I'M SORRY. 323 00:18:44,115 --> 00:18:45,716 >> THEY WERE VERY -- 324 00:18:45,716 --> 00:18:46,551 >> HMM. 325 00:18:46,551 --> 00:18:49,420 >> -- VERY ASSERTIVE WITH HOW THEY FEEL ABOUT YOU AND WHAT 326 00:18:49,420 --> 00:18:54,192 THAT MEANS TO THEM AND, YES. 327 00:18:54,192 --> 00:18:59,263 WOULD I HAVE LOVED IT TO BE ROSES AND DAISIES WITH YOUR 328 00:18:59,263 --> 00:19:02,533 FAMILY, BUT I THINK THEY ARE THE GROUNDING ELEMENTS TO WHAT THIS 329 00:19:02,533 --> 00:19:05,303 IS FOR US AND WHAT THIS MEANS TO YOU AND WHAT IT MEANS FOR YOU 330 00:19:05,303 --> 00:19:09,473 AND THERE WAS NO QUESTION THAT I HADN'T THOUGHT ABOUT IN MY HEAD 331 00:19:09,473 --> 00:19:10,942 ALREADY AND IT'S SCARY. 332 00:19:10,942 --> 00:19:14,846 >> I KNOW IT'S HARD TO NOT GET INTO YOUR HEAD BUT I WANT YOU TO 333 00:19:14,846 --> 00:19:17,682 REALLY HEAR THE WORDS I'M SAYING IN THAT I NEVER FELT LIKE THIS 334 00:19:17,682 --> 00:19:22,119 BEFORE. AND I LOVE YOU. 335 00:19:22,119 --> 00:19:28,259 >> I LOVE YOU. 336 00:19:28,259 --> 00:19:34,332 >> THE WAY I FEEL ABOUT JENN, IT'S HARD FOR ME TO ACCEPT HER 337 00:19:34,332 --> 00:19:37,034 FAMILY MAY NOT SEE IT THE WAY I SEE IT. 338 00:19:37,034 --> 00:19:40,938 THAT KIND OF SCREWED WITH MY HEAD AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT THAT 339 00:19:40,938 --> 00:19:41,639 MEANS FOR US AS A COUPLE. 340 00:19:41,639 --> 00:19:47,245 >> I LOVE YOU. DON'T GET IN YOUR HEAD, OKAY? 341 00:19:47,245 --> 00:19:50,147 >> YOU KNOW, THIS IS ONE OF THOSE MOMENTS WHERE I AM 342 00:19:50,147 --> 00:19:57,421 DOUBTING MYSELF AND THE FACT THAT MARCUS IS GOING TO MEET HER 343 00:19:57,421 --> 00:20:00,892 FAMILY, YOU KNOW, MAYBE I'M NOT THE ONE FOR JENN. 344 00:20:00,892 --> 00:20:04,362 IT'S, LIKE, TOUGH TO ACCEPT. 345 00:20:04,362 --> 00:20:11,402 [ APPLAUSE ] 346 00:20:18,809 --> 00:20:24,181 [ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ] 347 00:20:24,181 --> 00:20:28,986 >>> WELCOME BACK TO THE LIVE "BACHELORETTE" FINALE. 348 00:20:28,986 --> 00:20:31,389 HOW HAD WE FEELING, EVERYBODY? DOING OKAY? 349 00:20:31,389 --> 00:20:32,490 [ CHEERS ] 350 00:20:32,490 --> 00:20:35,459 ALL RIGHT. WELL, I WOULD BE REMISS IF I 351 00:20:35,459 --> 00:20:40,131 DIDN'T POINT OUT TWO WOMEN IN THE AUDIENCE FROM THE UPCOMING 352 00:20:40,131 --> 00:20:44,068 HULU REALITY SERIES "THE SECRET LIVES OF MORMON WIVES," JEN AND 353 00:20:44,068 --> 00:20:46,938 DEMI WITH US. GREAT TO SEE YOU TOO. 354 00:20:46,938 --> 00:20:49,407 THEIR NEW SHOW STREAMS THIS FRIDAY AND ONE PERSON IN 355 00:20:49,407 --> 00:20:53,477 PARTICULAR WHO WILL DEFINITELY BE WATCHING, THEIR NUMBER ONE 356 00:20:53,477 --> 00:20:56,681 FAN AND ALSO A BACHELOR NATION FAVORITE HAKEEM IS WITH US. 357 00:20:56,681 --> 00:20:56,914 HAKEEM. 358 00:20:56,914 --> 00:21:00,051 [ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ] 359 00:21:00,051 --> 00:21:02,753 HAKEEM, IT'S GREAT SEEING YOU, MAN. 360 00:21:02,753 --> 00:21:06,991 EARLIER WE HEARD FROM SOME OF YOUR FRIENDS, AND IT JUST FELT 361 00:21:06,991 --> 00:21:09,860 LIKE THE ENERGY WAS A BIT OFF. HOW ARE YOU FEELING ABOUT 362 00:21:09,860 --> 00:21:10,194 EVERYTHING? 363 00:21:10,194 --> 00:21:13,497 >> I'M SUPER NERVOUS. I'M VERY, VERY ANXIOUS ABOUT 364 00:21:13,497 --> 00:21:16,267 WHAT'S GOING TO BE SHOWN TO US SO I'M JUST TRYING TO SUPPORT 365 00:21:16,267 --> 00:21:19,270 THEM AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE BUT I'M SUPER NERVOUS. 366 00:21:19,270 --> 00:21:22,773 >> WELL, HAKEEM, YOU MIGHT BE AFRAID OF SPIDERS, BUT YOU ARE 367 00:21:22,773 --> 00:21:27,378 NOT AFRAID TO SPEAK THE TRUTH, OKAY. 368 00:21:27,378 --> 00:21:31,615 DEVIN'S MET JENN'S FAMILY AND NOW IT'S MARCUS' TURN, SO HOW IS 369 00:21:31,615 --> 00:21:33,150 THIS ALL GOING TO END? YOU WILL HAVE TO SEE IT TO 370 00:21:33,150 --> 00:21:44,762 BELIEVE IT. 371 00:21:44,762 --> 00:21:50,501 ♪ 372 00:21:50,501 --> 00:21:53,804 >> I WANT TO SEE THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN THE TWO MEN. 373 00:21:53,804 --> 00:21:56,707 >> WHAT WE SAW FROM DEVIN EARLIER IN THE DAY WAS 374 00:21:56,707 --> 00:21:59,443 DEFINITELY GOOD AND HE DEFINITELY SET A BAR. 375 00:21:59,443 --> 00:22:02,346 WE WILL SEE IF MARCUS CAN COME IN AND KIND OF RAISE THAT BAR A 376 00:22:02,346 --> 00:22:02,747 LITTLE HIGHER. 377 00:22:02,747 --> 00:22:06,651 >> IF IT IS MARCUS AT THE END, YOU KNOW, HE NEEDS TO TELL HER 378 00:22:06,651 --> 00:22:06,984 HE LOVES HER. 379 00:22:06,984 --> 00:22:09,920 >> BUT ON THE OTHER HAND HE'S GOTTEN THIS FAR IN THE PROCESS. 380 00:22:09,920 --> 00:22:13,024 JENN HAS KEPT HIM AROUND. THERE HAS TO BE A REASON FOR IT. 381 00:22:13,024 --> 00:22:15,326 I'M EXCITED TO MEET MARCUS. 382 00:22:15,326 --> 00:22:20,231 >> MARCUS HASN'T SAID I LOVE YOU YET. CONCERNING JENN, SHE HAS A 383 00:22:20,231 --> 00:22:23,067 HISTORY WITH EMOTIONALLY UNAVAILABLE MEN BUT I'M GOING 384 00:22:23,067 --> 00:22:26,771 INTO THIS WITH AN OPEN MIND AND SO WE'LL SEE WHEN I TALK TO 385 00:22:26,771 --> 00:22:28,105 MARCUS. 386 00:22:28,105 --> 00:22:30,241 >> HEY YOU. 387 00:22:30,241 --> 00:22:32,810 >> HELLO. YOU LOOK BEAUTIFUL TODAY. 388 00:22:32,810 --> 00:22:34,211 >> THANK YOU. 389 00:22:34,211 --> 00:22:35,379 >> EVERY DAY BUT -- 390 00:22:35,379 --> 00:22:36,547 >> AW, THAT'S SWEET. 391 00:22:36,547 --> 00:22:38,516 >> I MISSED YOU. 392 00:22:38,516 --> 00:22:41,519 >> I AM VERY NERVOUS FOR MARCUS TODAY. 393 00:22:41,519 --> 00:22:45,289 I DON'T KNOW IF MY FAMILY IS GOING TO BUY INTO OUR 394 00:22:45,289 --> 00:22:46,991 RELATIONSHIP. I TOLD MARCUS LAST WEEK THAT I 395 00:22:46,991 --> 00:22:50,461 AM IN LOVE WITH HIM BUT HE SAID THAT HE ISN'T THERE YET BUT 396 00:22:50,461 --> 00:22:54,765 WANTS TO GET THERE AND SO HOPEFULLY MARCUS HAS HAD SOME 397 00:22:54,765 --> 00:23:00,838 TIME TO THINK AND IF I GET AN I LOVE YOU FROM MARCUS TODAY, IT 398 00:23:00,838 --> 00:23:02,239 WILL CHANGE EVERYTHING. 399 00:23:02,239 --> 00:23:04,709 >> THIS IS MARCUS. THIS IS NICOLE. 400 00:23:04,709 --> 00:23:05,342 >> NICE TO MEET YOU. 401 00:23:05,342 --> 00:23:07,645 >> NICE TO MEET YOU. 402 00:23:07,645 --> 00:23:09,213 >> MY BROTHER JAMES. 403 00:23:09,213 --> 00:23:09,980 >> NICE TO MEET YOU. 404 00:23:09,980 --> 00:23:10,781 >> HI. 405 00:23:10,781 --> 00:23:12,983 >> MY AUNT. 406 00:23:12,983 --> 00:23:15,653 >> HELLO, I'M MARCUS. 407 00:23:15,653 --> 00:23:16,353 >> NICE TO MEET YOU. 408 00:23:16,353 --> 00:23:19,723 >> AND YOU MUST BE TRINH. 409 00:23:19,723 --> 00:23:22,526 >> MAKING JENN'S FAMILY MAKES ME NERVOUS. 410 00:23:22,526 --> 00:23:25,930 I'M NOT IN LOVE WITH HER NOW BUT I DO HAVE STRONG FEELINGS WITH 411 00:23:25,930 --> 00:23:29,667 HER AND DO SEE THE FUTURE WITH US BUT I ALSO HAVE UNCERTAINTY 412 00:23:29,667 --> 00:23:33,404 AND RESERVATIONS AND I THINK TRYING TO EXPLAIN THAT TO THEM 413 00:23:33,404 --> 00:23:38,709 SO CLOSE TO A POTENTIAL PROPOSAL IS GOING TO BE A DIFFICULT 414 00:23:38,709 --> 00:23:38,943 THING. 415 00:23:38,943 --> 00:23:40,511 >> VERY EXCITED TO MEET YOU. 416 00:23:40,511 --> 00:23:44,181 >> I'M VERY EXCITED. I'M A LITTLE NERVOUS BUT VERY, 417 00:23:44,181 --> 00:23:44,515 VERY EXCITED. 418 00:23:44,515 --> 00:23:50,788 >> SO CAN YOU TELL US A LITTLE BIT ABOUT YOU AND -- 419 00:23:50,788 --> 00:23:51,455 >> RIGHT. COME ON. 420 00:23:51,455 --> 00:23:54,158 >> GETTING RIGHT INTO IT. 421 00:23:54,158 --> 00:23:55,793 >> CAN'T WAIT TO HEAR. 422 00:23:55,793 --> 00:24:02,500 >> SO I HAD A VERY UNTRADITIONAL UPBRINGING. 423 00:24:02,500 --> 00:24:05,736 MY BIOLOGICAL PARENTS HAVE NEVER BEEN A PART OF MY LIFE. 424 00:24:05,736 --> 00:24:13,377 WHEN WE WERE KIDS, WE WERE ABOUT 2 AT DAY CARE AND THEY JUST LIKE 425 00:24:13,377 --> 00:24:20,785 NEVER CAME BACK TO US AND WE WERE ORPHANS FOR AWHILE AND TWO 426 00:24:20,785 --> 00:24:26,090 OF MY SISTERS WERE ADOPTED, AND I WAS ADOPTED WITH, YOU KNOW, MY 427 00:24:26,090 --> 00:24:28,793 SISTER THAT'S A YEAR YOUNGER THAN ME INTO A DIFFERENT FAMILY. 428 00:24:28,793 --> 00:24:32,496 I SHARE THAT TO SAY YOU HAVE TO TAKE LIFE AS IT IS AND NOT, YOU 429 00:24:32,496 --> 00:24:34,098 KNOW, HOW YOU WANT IT TO BE. 430 00:24:34,098 --> 00:24:36,901 >> UH-HUH. 431 00:24:36,901 --> 00:24:39,837 >> I'M LIKE 32 NOW AND HAVE LIVED A LITTLE BIT OF LIFE. 432 00:24:39,837 --> 00:24:46,844 I SPENT EIGHT YEARS IN COMBAT, AND I HAD AN EXPERIENCE WHERE I 433 00:24:46,844 --> 00:24:50,414 WAS ALMOST CERTAIN THAT I WAS GOING TO DIE, AND THEN WALKING 434 00:24:50,414 --> 00:24:56,821 AWAY FROM IT, IT KIND OF CHANGED WHAT I GAVE VALUE TO IN MY LIFE. 435 00:24:56,821 --> 00:25:00,324 I REALIZE HOW FAR I'M WILLING TO GO AND HOW HARD I'M WILLING TO 436 00:25:00,324 --> 00:25:03,794 FIGHT FOR LOVE, AND I WANT TO SEE THIS ALL THE WAY THROUGH 437 00:25:03,794 --> 00:25:06,764 WITH JENN. 438 00:25:06,764 --> 00:25:07,331 >> YEAH. 439 00:25:07,331 --> 00:25:10,401 >> I APPRECIATE MARCUS BEING HONEST AND OPEN ABOUT ALL THIS, 440 00:25:10,401 --> 00:25:14,104 I CAN TELL HE CARES A LOT ABOUT JENN AND THAT HE'S TRYING FOR 441 00:25:14,104 --> 00:25:15,839 HER. BUT AT THE SAME TIME, YOU KNOW, 442 00:25:15,839 --> 00:25:19,510 AS THE PROTECTIVE BROTHER, I WAS LOOKING FOR MORE HIM OPENING UP 443 00:25:19,510 --> 00:25:22,379 ABOUT HIS RELATIONSHIP WITH JENN, HOW FAR THEY'VE GONE, YOU 444 00:25:22,379 --> 00:25:29,220 KNOW, WHERE THEY'RE AT. MARCUS, I HAVE TO ASK THESE 445 00:25:29,220 --> 00:25:32,156 QUESTIONS TO TRY TO UNDERSTAND WHAT'S BEST FOR JENN SO 446 00:25:32,156 --> 00:25:33,657 HOPEFULLY MARCUS CAN KIND OF CLEAR THAT UP. 447 00:25:33,657 --> 00:25:34,625 >> HOW ARE YOU, MAN? 448 00:25:34,625 --> 00:25:37,561 >> IT'S BEEN A TOUGH JOURNEY. 449 00:25:37,561 --> 00:25:39,163 >> GOOD. 450 00:25:39,163 --> 00:25:42,600 >> DO YOU WANT TO SAY, YOU KNOW, THE STUFF THAT YOU'VE BEEN 451 00:25:42,600 --> 00:25:47,705 THROUGH, I CAN'T EVEN IMAGINE AND KNOW THAT IT'S TOUGH TO EVEN 452 00:25:47,705 --> 00:25:54,078 TALK ABOUT IT TO OPEN YOURSELF UP TO SOMEONE YOU JUST MET SO I 453 00:25:54,078 --> 00:25:54,478 APPRECIATE THAT. 454 00:25:54,478 --> 00:25:57,348 >> THE REASON I'M WILL TOOK HAVE THOSE CONVERSATIONS IS BECAUSE I 455 00:25:57,348 --> 00:26:00,885 DO CARE ABOUT JENN AND IT'S LIKE I WANT YOU GUYS TO KNOW 456 00:26:00,885 --> 00:26:03,153 EVERYTHING THAT -- LIKE WHERE I'M AT, WHERE I'M COMING FROM 457 00:26:03,153 --> 00:26:06,523 AND I THINK WE'RE ALL PRODUCTS OF OUR CIRCUMSTANCES, SO THOSE 458 00:26:06,523 --> 00:26:12,730 KIND OF EXPERIENCES CAN KIND OF GIVE YOU A HEART OF STONE WHEN 459 00:26:12,730 --> 00:26:15,766 YOU'RE IN THE MILITARY, YOU'RE NOT MAKING DECISIONS BASED ON 460 00:26:15,766 --> 00:26:19,637 EMOTION, YOU'RE MAKING DECISIONS BASED ON LOGIC SO I'VE BEEN KIND 461 00:26:19,637 --> 00:26:22,206 OF UNDERESTIMATING HOW MUCH EMOTION PLAYS IN A RELATIONSHIP 462 00:26:22,206 --> 00:26:23,274 AND -- 463 00:26:23,274 --> 00:26:26,477 >> FEEL LIKE THAT'S HOLDING YOU BACK FROM, YOU KNOW, GETTING TO 464 00:26:26,477 --> 00:26:33,117 A POINT WHERE YOU ARE IN LOVE WITH JENN? 465 00:26:33,117 --> 00:26:36,854 BECAUSE WITH JENN, SHE'S ALWAYS BEEN WITH EMOTIONALLY 466 00:26:36,854 --> 00:26:38,489 UNAVAILABLE GUYS AND IT'S SOMETHING THAT SHE WANTS TO 467 00:26:38,489 --> 00:26:39,356 STRAY AWAY FROM. 468 00:26:39,356 --> 00:26:40,524 >> YEAH, OF COURSE. 469 00:26:40,524 --> 00:26:42,760 >> HEARING YOU SAY THAT NOW IT'S LIKE A CONCERN OF MINE. 470 00:26:42,760 --> 00:26:43,060 >> YEAH. 471 00:26:43,060 --> 00:26:45,929 >> DO YOU FEEL IT'S SOMETHING YOU'VE MADE DRASTIC PROGRESS 472 00:26:45,929 --> 00:26:48,732 OVER THE YEARS, SOMETHING YOU'RE CURRENTLY WORKING ON? 473 00:26:48,732 --> 00:26:52,970 >> YEAH, I THINK THAT WAS PROBABLY THE BIGGEST AREA OF 474 00:26:52,970 --> 00:26:55,939 GROWTH THAT I HAD GETTING OUT OF THE MILITARY. 475 00:26:55,939 --> 00:26:59,943 I'M HAPPY OF THE YEARS THAT I SPENT ON MY OWN AND INTRO 476 00:26:59,943 --> 00:27:03,247 SPECKING AND GROWING AND REALLY DEFINING WHAT KIND OF, YOU KNOW, 477 00:27:03,247 --> 00:27:06,817 PARTNER THAT I WANT TO BE AND I THINK THAT, YOU KNOW, WHAT JENN 478 00:27:06,817 --> 00:27:12,790 HAS BEEN ABLE TO SEE IN ME IS ALL THOSE BEST PARTS THAT I 479 00:27:12,790 --> 00:27:16,393 STRUGGLE TO SEE IN MYSELF AND I THINK THAT SHE'S MADE ME REALIZE 480 00:27:16,393 --> 00:27:21,699 THAT I'M WELL ON MY WAY TO FIND TRUE LOVE AND I HONESTLY THINK 481 00:27:21,699 --> 00:27:23,133 THAT'S WHY WE'RE HERE. 482 00:27:23,133 --> 00:27:23,667 >> THAT'S BEAUTIFUL. 483 00:27:23,667 --> 00:27:24,768 >> YEAH. 484 00:27:24,768 --> 00:27:30,074 >> DO YOU FEEL CONFIDENT YOU ARE READY TO TAKE THAT NEXT STEP? 485 00:27:30,074 --> 00:27:34,845 >> I GUESS I'M AT A POINT WHERE SHE MAKES ME BELIEVE THAT IS 486 00:27:34,845 --> 00:27:35,612 POSSIBLE. 487 00:27:35,612 --> 00:27:39,883 >> MARCUS DEFINITELY, YOU KNOW, PLAYED RING AROUND THE ROSIE A 488 00:27:39,883 --> 00:27:42,820 LOT WITH MY QUESTIONS AND THAT'S CONCERNING ESPECIALLY GIVEN THAT 489 00:27:42,820 --> 00:27:47,057 HE'S NOT THERE YET, AND SO IT'S MORE A QUESTION OF IS JENN 490 00:27:47,057 --> 00:27:48,759 WILLING TO WAIT? THAT'S KIND OF THE BIG QUESTION 491 00:27:48,759 --> 00:27:52,162 OF THE DAY. 492 00:27:52,162 --> 00:27:54,765 >> HELLO. 493 00:27:54,765 --> 00:27:55,332 >> HI. 494 00:27:55,332 --> 00:28:00,804 >> THE QUESTION I WANTED TO ASK YOU, ARE YOU REALLY FALL IN LOVE 495 00:28:00,804 --> 00:28:08,846 WITH JENN YET OR NOT? 496 00:28:08,846 --> 00:28:13,150 >> I BELIEVE THAT I CAN GET THERE. 497 00:28:13,150 --> 00:28:18,021 I KNOW THAT I'M NOT RIGHT NOW. THE LAST FEW WEEKS I'VE BEEN 498 00:28:18,021 --> 00:28:21,792 BEATING MYSELF UP BECAUSE IT'S, LIKE, WHY AM I NOT FEELING LIKE 499 00:28:21,792 --> 00:28:26,830 WHAT I WANT TO FEEL? I'VE BEEN MISSING THIS, LIKE, 500 00:28:26,830 --> 00:28:30,300 FEELING OF CERTAINTY, AND I 501 00:28:30,300 --> 00:28:40,744 THINK THAT KIND OF MAKES ME 502 00:28:40,744 --> 00:28:43,947 UNSURE. I WANT TO GET THERE FOR HER. 503 00:28:43,947 --> 00:28:46,850 THE ONLY REASON I'M STRUGGLING WITH IT IS BECAUSE OF HOW MUCH 504 00:28:46,850 --> 00:28:51,789 PRESSURE I PUT ON MYSELF TO BE A GOOD HUSBAND AND A GOOD FATHER 505 00:28:51,789 --> 00:28:55,926 AND TO BE ABLE TO PROVIDE THE THINGS THAT I, LIKE, DIDN'T HAVE 506 00:28:55,926 --> 00:28:59,163 WHEN I WAS GROWING UP AND BE ABLE TO PROVIDE THE THINGS JENN 507 00:28:59,163 --> 00:29:01,732 DIDN'T HAVE WHEN SHE WAS GROWING UP AND I WANT YOU TO KNOW THE 508 00:29:01,732 --> 00:29:05,402 FEELINGS I HAVE FOR YOUR DAUGHTER ARE REAL, AND THAT I DO 509 00:29:05,402 --> 00:29:08,739 BELIEVE THAT WE CAN GET THERE. 510 00:29:08,739 --> 00:29:12,743 >> SO, YOU -- SO YOU'RE NOT READY FOR ENGAGED, RIGHT? 511 00:29:12,743 --> 00:29:15,879 >> ENGAGEMENT IS A VERY BIG DEAL. 512 00:29:15,879 --> 00:29:17,014 THAT'S A VERY BIG LIFE DECISION. 513 00:29:17,014 --> 00:29:17,281 >> OKAY. 514 00:29:17,281 --> 00:29:19,716 >> I WANT TO GET THERE AND THAT'S WHY I'M STILL HERE 515 00:29:19,716 --> 00:29:23,153 BECAUSE I STILL THINK IT'S POSSIBLE. 516 00:29:23,153 --> 00:29:30,761 >> THAT WOULD BE VERY IMPORTANT. IT LOOK LIKE HE NOT READY YET 517 00:29:30,761 --> 00:29:34,698 SSO WITH JENN, WHERE IS HE? 518 00:29:34,698 --> 00:29:36,567 >> WHAT ARE YOUR THOUGHTS SO FAR? 519 00:29:36,567 --> 00:29:40,604 >> I'M NOT SURE TO BE HONEST. WHEN I SPOKE TO YOU EARLIER IN 520 00:29:40,604 --> 00:29:43,407 THE DAY WITH DEVIN, ONE OF THE THINGS YOU FOUND COMFORTING WITH 521 00:29:43,407 --> 00:29:46,643 HIM IS THE FACT THAT HE IS VULNERABLE WITH YOU, LIKE, HE IS 522 00:29:46,643 --> 00:29:49,246 SHARING ALL THESE EMOTIONS AND ALL THESE FEELINGS AND IT'S 523 00:29:49,246 --> 00:29:51,381 SOMETHING THAT YOU'RE LOOKING FOR IN A GUY. 524 00:29:51,381 --> 00:29:56,687 DO YOU FEEL MARCUS IS GIVING YOU THE LOVE THAT YOU NEED RIGHT 525 00:29:56,687 --> 00:29:56,854 NOW? 526 00:29:56,854 --> 00:30:00,224 >> HE DEFINITELY COULD BE GIVING MORE, BUT DO I FEEL LIKE HE'S 527 00:30:00,224 --> 00:30:02,092 REALLY CLOSE TO GETTING THERE, YES. 528 00:30:02,092 --> 00:30:05,829 BUT I ALSO THINK THAT IT HAS A LITTLE BIT TO DO WITH THE TRAUMA 529 00:30:05,829 --> 00:30:09,600 OF HOW HE WAS RAISED. IT DEFINITELY PLAYS INTO WHY 530 00:30:09,600 --> 00:30:12,302 HE'S A LITTLE BIT SLOWER TO GET THERE WITH ME AND I THINK THAT'S 531 00:30:12,302 --> 00:30:13,937 OKAY AS LONG AS WE GET THERE. 532 00:30:13,937 --> 00:30:18,509 >> I'M NOT IN A POSITION TO KIND OF JUDGE THAT BECAUSE I DON'T 533 00:30:18,509 --> 00:30:21,478 KNOW HOW TRAUMA AFFECTS PEOPLE. IT AFFECTS PEOPLE VERY 534 00:30:21,478 --> 00:30:21,812 DIFFERENTLY. 535 00:30:21,812 --> 00:30:22,079 >> YEAH. 536 00:30:22,079 --> 00:30:26,817 >> BUT YOUR HISTORY WITH PEOPLE WHO ARE EMOTIONALLY UNAVAILABLE, 537 00:30:26,817 --> 00:30:30,787 MARCUS KIND OF SEEMS TO FIT THAT MOLD. 538 00:30:30,787 --> 00:30:32,689 >> YOU REALLY FEEL LIKE THAT. 539 00:30:32,689 --> 00:30:35,826 >> YEAH. DO YOU THINK THEY'RE SIMILAR? 540 00:30:35,826 --> 00:30:37,494 WHAT ARE YOUR THOUGHTS ON THAT? 541 00:30:37,494 --> 00:30:39,363 >> I THINK WITH MARCUS HE'S VERY DIFFERENT. 542 00:30:39,363 --> 00:30:45,435 HE IS A REALLY GOOD MAN, AND HE HAS GREAT INTENTIONS, BUT, YEAH, 543 00:30:45,435 --> 00:30:50,774 IT IS A LITTLE CONCERNING THAT HE IS HESITANT AND DOES REMIND 544 00:30:50,774 --> 00:30:55,212 ME OF PREVIOUS RELATIONSHIPS BUT I ALSO KNOW WHERE HIS HEART IS 545 00:30:55,212 --> 00:30:58,615 AT AND HIS INTENTIONS AND HOW GENUINE AND SINCERE HE IS AND 546 00:30:58,615 --> 00:31:01,218 FIGHTS FOR THE PEOPLE HE LOVES AND FIGHTS TO BE HERE FOR ME. 547 00:31:01,218 --> 00:31:05,556 >> JENN IS CLEARLY OKAY WITH HIM NOT BEING IN LOVE JUST YET, BUT 548 00:31:05,556 --> 00:31:09,259 IS THAT HER FALLING BACK INTO HER PATTERN WITH TOXIC 549 00:31:09,259 --> 00:31:11,628 RELATIONSHIPS? SO I FEEL LIKE I NEED TO BE THE 550 00:31:11,628 --> 00:31:15,265 ONE FROM AN OUTSIDE PERSPECTIVE TO BE, LIKE, HEY, THESE ARE SOME 551 00:31:15,265 --> 00:31:18,001 THINGS YOU MAY NOT BE SEEING. IF YOU'RE GOING TO MAKE A 552 00:31:18,001 --> 00:31:20,504 DECISION NOW DO YOU FEEL LIKE YOU'VE DONE EVERYTHING YOU CAN 553 00:31:20,504 --> 00:31:21,438 WITH MARCUS? 554 00:31:21,438 --> 00:31:24,975 >> I'VE GIVEN A LOT. SO -- 555 00:31:24,975 --> 00:31:26,009 >> YEAH. 556 00:31:26,009 --> 00:31:27,778 >> YEAH, GIVEN A LOT. 557 00:31:27,778 --> 00:31:31,615 >> I KNOW THAT IT SUCKS TO NOT HAVE THAT RECIPROCATED. 558 00:31:31,615 --> 00:31:32,516 >> UH-HUH. 559 00:31:32,516 --> 00:31:36,653 >> BUT HOW LONG ARE YOU WILLING TO WAIT? 560 00:31:36,653 --> 00:31:42,759 >> YEAH, THAT, I DON'T KNOW. I THINK THAT'S A TOUGH ONE TO 561 00:31:42,759 --> 00:31:50,400 ANSWER. I THINK THAT, UM, I'M NOT SURE. 562 00:31:50,400 --> 00:31:52,069 >> MY BROTHER MEANS EVERYTHING TO ME. 563 00:31:52,069 --> 00:31:55,305 WE'VE BEEN THROUGH IT ALL, AND HE'S REALLY THE ONLY PERSON IN 564 00:31:55,305 --> 00:31:57,207 THIS WORLD THAT CAN TRULY UNDERSTAND ME. 565 00:31:57,207 --> 00:32:01,378 HE REALLY KNOWS WHERE MY HEART IS AT AND THAT I AM TORN. 566 00:32:01,378 --> 00:32:04,581 >> REGARDS TO WHAT HAPPENS I'M EXTREMELY, EXTREMELY PROUD OF 567 00:32:04,581 --> 00:32:06,617 HOW FAR YOU'VE COME. 568 00:32:06,617 --> 00:32:06,950 >> THANK YOU. 569 00:32:06,950 --> 00:32:08,518 >> YOU KNOW I ONLY WANT THE BEST FOR YOU. 570 00:32:08,518 --> 00:32:12,055 >> I KNOW YOU DO AND THAT'S WHY IT'S SO IMPORTANT FOR ME THAT 571 00:32:12,055 --> 00:32:14,825 YOU'RE HERE TODAY. I KNOW HOW MUCH YOU CARE AND HOW 572 00:32:14,825 --> 00:32:19,796 MUCH YOU WANT TO PROTECT ME AND HOW MUCH YOU WANT MY HAPPINESS 573 00:32:19,796 --> 00:32:23,467 AND YOUR OPINION MATTERS TO ME MORE SO THAN ANYBODY ELSE'S 574 00:32:23,467 --> 00:32:31,108 BECAUSE YOU KNOW ME BETTER THAN ANYBODY ELSE. 575 00:32:31,108 --> 00:32:34,778 JAMES, AW. 576 00:32:34,778 --> 00:32:42,719 SO SWEET. 577 00:32:42,719 --> 00:32:43,487 THAT'S SO NICE. 578 00:32:43,487 --> 00:32:47,357 >> EVERYTHING I WANT IN THE WORLD IS FOR JENN TO BE HAPPY. 579 00:32:47,357 --> 00:32:49,293 SHE'S MY LITTLE SISTER. I LOVE HER A LOT. 580 00:32:49,293 --> 00:32:51,795 IF SHE STRUGGLES WITH SOMETHING I'M ALSO STRUGGLING WITH THE 581 00:32:51,795 --> 00:32:54,765 SAME THING. I KNOW SHE'S GOT A HARD DECISION 582 00:32:54,765 --> 00:32:59,002 TO MAKE AHEAD OF HER SO I WANT TO MAKE SURE THAT SHE'S SEEING 583 00:32:59,002 --> 00:33:01,538 CLEARLY. I DO NOT ENVY YOUR POSITION. 584 00:33:01,538 --> 00:33:02,272 THIS IS TOUGH. 585 00:33:02,272 --> 00:33:03,373 >> OH. 586 00:33:03,373 --> 00:33:06,143 >> BUT I'M SUPER PROUD. 587 00:33:06,143 --> 00:33:09,146 >> THANK YOU. COME HERE. 588 00:33:09,146 --> 00:33:12,349 >> MY BROTHER IS REALLY EMPATHETIC TO THE POSITION I'M 589 00:33:12,349 --> 00:33:16,353 IN. HE IS SOMEONE WHO I GENUINELY KNOW WILL ALWAYS HAVE MY BEST 590 00:33:16,353 --> 00:33:21,925 INTERESTS AT HEART, SO TALKING TO JAMES, IT DEFINITELY GOT ME 591 00:33:21,925 --> 00:33:25,228 THINKING AND I DO HAVE HOPE FOR MARCUS AND I BUT AT THE SAME 592 00:33:25,228 --> 00:33:28,632 TIME, I DON'T WANT TO REPEAT HISTORY. 593 00:33:28,632 --> 00:33:30,200 >> TRINH, SO GOOD MEETING YOU. 594 00:33:30,200 --> 00:33:34,938 >> I LOVE MARCUS. I REALLY COULD SEE A FUTURE FOR 595 00:33:34,938 --> 00:33:39,976 US, BUT ENGAGEMENT IS COMING UP AND THERE'S TOO MUCH UNKNOWN FOR 596 00:33:39,976 --> 00:33:42,779 ME. I NEED TO ASK HIM FOR MYSELF AND 597 00:33:42,779 --> 00:33:49,786 SEE WHERE HE REALLY IS AT, BECAUSE IT'S THIS WEEK. 598 00:33:49,786 --> 00:33:52,389 >> THEY'RE NOT EASY. THEY SAID THINGS THAT WERE HARD 599 00:33:52,389 --> 00:33:56,393 TO HEAR AND WASN'T LIKE THE EASIEST DAY FOR ME, BUT I KNOW 600 00:33:56,393 --> 00:33:59,763 THAT IT'S ALL COMING FROM A PLACE OF LOVE AND IT'S ALL 601 00:33:59,763 --> 00:34:02,766 COMING FROM THE FACT THEY LOVE ME SO MUCH AND TRULY WANT THE 602 00:34:02,766 --> 00:34:05,902 BEST FOR ME. MY QUESTION IS, HOW DO YOU SEE 603 00:34:05,902 --> 00:34:14,111 THIS ENDING FOR US? 604 00:34:14,111 --> 00:34:18,949 >> I MEAN, IT WAS DIFFICULT BUT I DEFINITELY THINK THAT, LIKE, 605 00:34:18,949 --> 00:34:22,919 TODAY WAS PROGRESS. I THINK THAT TODAY HELPED. 606 00:34:22,919 --> 00:34:25,088 >> IT'S THIS WEEK, IT'S COMING UP. 607 00:34:25,088 --> 00:34:25,922 >> OH, YEAH. 608 00:34:25,922 --> 00:34:28,525 >> I THINK I WANT TO KNOW WHERE ARE YOU AT WITH YOUR FEELINGS? 609 00:34:28,525 --> 00:34:35,732 >> SO, I THINK THAT, YOU KNOW, 610 00:34:35,732 --> 00:34:38,135 I'VE BEEN -- THE THING I'VE BEEN STRUGGLING WITH -- 611 00:34:38,135 --> 00:34:39,136 >> ARE YOU NOT CERTAIN ABOUT ME? 612 00:34:39,136 --> 00:34:43,240 >> NO. I THINK IT'S THE PRESSURE THAT 613 00:34:43,240 --> 00:34:46,576 I'M PUTTING ON MYSELF TO, LIKE HAVE AND BUILD THAT FAMILY THAT 614 00:34:46,576 --> 00:34:52,048 I NEVER HAD. AND TO BE ABLE TO BE THERE, LIKE 615 00:34:52,048 --> 00:34:55,919 PROVIDE FOR YOU IN WAYS THAT YOU 616 00:34:55,919 --> 00:35:13,703 HAVEN'T HAD AND, UM, I'M TRYING 617 00:35:13,703 --> 00:35:16,706 BECAUSE IT'S POSSIBLE. 618 00:35:16,706 --> 00:35:19,342 >> I'M LEAVING ANOTHER CONVERSATION ABOUT THE FUTURE 619 00:35:19,342 --> 00:35:22,813 WITH MARCUS CONFUSED. I MEANING, OUR CONNECTION IS SO 620 00:35:22,813 --> 00:35:30,020 STRONG, BUT I WANT ANSWERS, AND I'M JUST NOT GETTING THEM. 621 00:35:30,020 --> 00:35:34,791 >> IT IS THE LAST WEEK THAT WE'RE HERE, AND I SHOULDN'T FEEL 622 00:35:34,791 --> 00:35:38,762 CONFUSED WITH SOMEBODY. MY FAMILY BROUGHT UP A LOT OF 623 00:35:38,762 --> 00:35:42,399 CONCERNS THAT I KNEW THAT THEY WERE GOING TO HAVE WITH THESE 624 00:35:42,399 --> 00:35:45,902 GUYS, SO I HAVE A LOT TO THINK ABOUT AND A REALLY BIG DECISION 625 00:35:45,902 --> 00:35:47,604 TO MAKE. 626 00:35:55,245 --> 00:35:56,613 [ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ] 627 00:35:56,613 --> 00:36:00,283 >>> WE ARE BACK WITH A LIVE FINALE OF "THE BACHELORETTE." 628 00:36:00,283 --> 00:36:04,521 DEVIN AND MARCUS HAVE BOTH MET JENN'S FAMILY AND WHILE SHE WAS 629 00:36:04,521 --> 00:36:06,723 HOPING TO GET CLARITY INTEREST THOSE VISIT, JENN NOW SEEMS TO 630 00:36:06,723 --> 00:36:09,459 BE LEFT WITH MORE QUESTIONS THAN ANSWERS. 631 00:36:09,459 --> 00:36:15,165 IS SHE AS HER FAMILY SUGGESTED CHASING EXCLUSIVELY UNAVAILABLE 632 00:36:15,165 --> 00:36:19,202 MEN. WELL, JENN'S FAMILY IS HERE TONIGHT INCLUDING HER OLDER 633 00:36:19,202 --> 00:36:20,470 BROTHER, JAMES. GREAT TO SEE YOU. 634 00:36:20,470 --> 00:36:23,306 I WAS LOOKING OVER A MOMENT AGO. YOU REALLY WERE GETTING 635 00:36:23,306 --> 00:36:25,141 EMOTIONAL AS YOU WERE WATCHING THAT BACK. 636 00:36:25,141 --> 00:36:27,911 YOU CAN CLEARLY SEE HOW MUCH YOU CARE ABOUT YOUR LITTLE SISTER. 637 00:36:27,911 --> 00:36:31,982 HOW ARE YOU FEELING ABOUT EVERYTHING AT THIS POINT. 638 00:36:31,982 --> 00:36:36,920 >> AT THE MOMENT I'M NOT TOO HAPPY SO -- 639 00:36:36,920 --> 00:36:39,389 >> OKAY. WELL, AS YOU CAN TELL BY NOW, 640 00:36:39,389 --> 00:36:41,691 SOMETHING'S DEFINITELY GOING ON HERE. WHAT IS IT? 641 00:36:41,691 --> 00:36:43,026 YOU'RE GOING TO FIND OUT. 642 00:36:43,026 --> 00:36:59,209 LET'S KEEP WATCHING. 643 00:36:59,209 --> 00:37:03,213 >> MY FAMILIAR HAS NOW MET BOTH DEVIN AND MARCUS AND THEY 644 00:37:03,213 --> 00:37:06,883 DEFINITELY HAVE CONCERNS. I HAVE A HISTORY OF BEING WITH 645 00:37:06,883 --> 00:37:09,719 MEN WHO AREN'T GIVING ME EVERYTHING THAT I NEED AND 646 00:37:09,719 --> 00:37:13,123 DESERVE, SO IT'S A BIG CONCERN FOR MY FAMILY BEING THAT I MIGHT 647 00:37:13,123 --> 00:37:17,394 BE REPEATING HISTORY. GOING INTO THESE LAST DATES 648 00:37:17,394 --> 00:37:25,135 BEFORE AN ENGAGEMENT, I'M LOOK FOR A PARTNER WHO'S GOING TO BE 649 00:37:25,135 --> 00:37:29,139 THERE FOR ME. 650 00:37:29,139 --> 00:37:31,207 ♪ 651 00:37:31,207 --> 00:37:34,678 TODAY IS MY DATE WITH DEVIN AND I'M SO EXCITED TO SEE HIM. 652 00:37:34,678 --> 00:37:38,348 IT IS OUR FINAL DATE BARACK A PROPOSAL, BEFORE AN ENGAGEMENT, 653 00:37:38,348 --> 00:37:41,484 SO, YOU KNOW, THERE IS A LOT OF WEIGHT ON TODAY. 654 00:37:41,484 --> 00:37:42,252 >> HI, YOU. 655 00:37:42,252 --> 00:37:48,792 >> HELLO, HELLO. HI, BABY. 656 00:37:48,792 --> 00:37:49,626 >> HOW ARE YOU? 657 00:37:49,626 --> 00:37:51,461 >> HOW ARE YOU? 658 00:37:51,461 --> 00:37:51,761 >> I'M GOOD. 659 00:37:51,761 --> 00:37:55,665 >> MY BIGGEST CONCERN WITH DEVIN IS SOMETIMES HE CAN GET IN HIS 660 00:37:55,665 --> 00:37:59,169 HEAD AND SELF-SABOTAGE AND THAT'S ALWAYS A POSSIBILITY AND 661 00:37:59,169 --> 00:38:01,071 DEFINITELY SCARES ME. 662 00:38:01,071 --> 00:38:02,372 >> ARE YOU EXCITED FOR TODAY. 663 00:38:02,372 --> 00:38:04,874 >> I AM. WHAT DO YOU HAVE IN STORE FOR ME? 664 00:38:04,874 --> 00:38:08,144 >> SOMETHING REALLY FUN. IT WILL GIVE US A LOT OF INSIGHT 665 00:38:08,144 --> 00:38:11,181 INTO EACH OTHER EVEN MORE SO THAN WE HAVE. 666 00:38:11,181 --> 00:38:12,882 >> I'M EXCITED. I'M READY. 667 00:38:12,882 --> 00:38:13,483 >> LET'S GO. 668 00:38:13,483 --> 00:38:15,352 >> SEEING JENN, THAT'S A GREAT FEELING. 669 00:38:15,352 --> 00:38:19,222 I LOVE THAT MOMENT EVERY TIME I GET IT. YOU KNOW, I DO LOVE JENN. 670 00:38:19,222 --> 00:38:21,992 THERE'S NO DOUBTS ABOUT THAT BUT A LOT OF TIMES I'LL CREATE A BAD 671 00:38:21,992 --> 00:38:26,129 THING IN MY MIND BECAUSE MEETING HER FAMILY, IT WASN'T PERFECT. 672 00:38:26,129 --> 00:38:29,566 THAT SCARES ME. I WANT TO MAKE SURE THAT MY 673 00:38:29,566 --> 00:38:33,703 HEART AND MY HEAD ARE BOTH IN THE RIGHT PLACE HERE AND MAYBE 674 00:38:33,703 --> 00:38:36,773 TODAY HOPEFULLY SHED SOME LIGHT ON THAT. 675 00:38:36,773 --> 00:38:40,143 >> ALOHA. WELCOME, WELCOME. 676 00:38:40,143 --> 00:38:42,545 >> HI. 677 00:38:42,545 --> 00:38:44,881 >> IS THIS FOR ME? 678 00:38:44,881 --> 00:38:47,183 >> THANK YOU. 679 00:38:47,183 --> 00:38:52,989 >> THIS IS A LEI FOR A SACRED CEREMONY. 680 00:38:52,989 --> 00:38:56,393 >> YOU ARE GOING TO DO A HAWAIIAN SPIRITUAL CEREMONY. 681 00:38:56,393 --> 00:39:02,966 ♪ 682 00:39:02,966 --> 00:39:06,703 THIS CEREMONY HAPPENS BEFORE ANY BIG LIFE EVENT AND THE CEREMONY 683 00:39:06,703 --> 00:39:09,105 IS REALLY ABOUT LETTING GO OF THE PAST AND EMBRACING YOUR 684 00:39:09,105 --> 00:39:09,339 FUTURE. 685 00:39:09,339 --> 00:39:12,342 ♪ 686 00:39:12,342 --> 00:39:16,780 THIS DAY IS KIND OF A PERFECT THING FOR US TO BOTH BE ABLE TO 687 00:39:16,780 --> 00:39:20,483 REVEAL OUR FEARS GOING INTO THE FUTURE AND JUST PUT PAST ALL THE 688 00:39:20,483 --> 00:39:23,186 CONCERNS THAT WE'VE BEEN HAVING. 689 00:39:23,186 --> 00:39:29,159 >> SOMETIMES IN-BAD THINGS 690 00:39:29,159 --> 00:39:33,596 HAPPEN. AN A STONE GOES INTO YOUR BOWL 691 00:39:33,596 --> 00:39:41,304 AND THEN TWO PEOPLE MEET. IF THERE ARE STONES IN YOUR 692 00:39:41,304 --> 00:39:46,142 BOWL, THEN THEY WON'T GO TOGETHER. 693 00:39:46,142 --> 00:39:49,145 >> AS I'M DOING THE CEREMONY WITH JENN, I REALIZE THAT IT 694 00:39:49,145 --> 00:39:52,816 SCARES ME THAT I OVERTHINK A LOT OF SITUATIONS, YOU KNOW, I NEVER 695 00:39:52,816 --> 00:39:56,920 HAD SOMETHING GOOD LIKE THIS BEFORE AND SO FOR ME I'M 696 00:39:56,920 --> 00:40:04,561 THINKING HOW COULD IT BE 697 00:40:04,561 --> 00:40:06,629 POSSIBLE? I DON'T WANT HER TO FEEL THE 698 00:40:06,629 --> 00:40:09,966 WEIGHT OF WHAT'S SCARING ME AND DOUBT IN MY HEAD, YOU KNOW. 699 00:40:09,966 --> 00:40:16,406 >> WE WANT FOR YOU TO EACH FIND THE LAVA ROCK THAT REPRESENTS 700 00:40:16,406 --> 00:40:19,175 THE FEAR. THE -- 701 00:40:19,175 --> 00:40:23,813 [ SPEAKING NON-ENGLISH ] 702 00:40:23,813 --> 00:40:27,350 >> THIS IS A VERY BIG ROCK. SOMETHING THAT SCARES ME ABOUT 703 00:40:27,350 --> 00:40:30,253 THE FUTURE IS THAT FEAR OF ABANDONMENT. 704 00:40:30,253 --> 00:40:32,589 I HAVE BEEN STRUGGLING WITH THAT MY WHOLE LIFE AND JUST FEELING 705 00:40:32,589 --> 00:40:35,892 LIKE PEOPLE ARE GOING TO LEAVE ME, SO I REALLY WANT TO BE ABLE 706 00:40:35,892 --> 00:40:40,630 TO PUT THAT FEAR BEHIND ME. 707 00:40:40,630 --> 00:40:42,732 >> WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO WITH THAT ONE? 708 00:40:42,732 --> 00:40:44,300 >> FOR GETTING RID OF -- 709 00:40:44,300 --> 00:40:46,002 >> IT'S A HEAVY PATH. 710 00:40:46,002 --> 00:40:46,636 >> YES. 711 00:40:46,636 --> 00:40:48,138 >> WHAT CAME UP FOR YOU GUYS? 712 00:40:48,138 --> 00:40:52,842 >> YEAH, I'M JUST WORRIED THAT, YOU KNOW, I -- WHEN I HAVE A 713 00:40:52,842 --> 00:40:56,379 GOOD THING, YOU KNOW, I CAN'T LET GO OF THE BAD IN MY LIFE 714 00:40:56,379 --> 00:41:00,216 AND, YOU KNOW, JUST WANT TO TAKE THE GOOD FOR THE GOOD AND EASIER 715 00:41:00,216 --> 00:41:01,851 SAID THAN DONE. 716 00:41:01,851 --> 00:41:04,154 >> HOW ABOUT YOU? 717 00:41:04,154 --> 00:41:08,324 >> IT WAS FEAR OF ABANDONMENT. 718 00:41:08,324 --> 00:41:15,398 YOU KNOW, I'M JUST AFRAID THAT 719 00:41:15,398 --> 00:41:19,836 MY DAD NOT BEING PRESENT AND OTHER FAMILY MEMBERS WHEN THINGS 720 00:41:19,836 --> 00:41:23,940 ARE TOUGH, I'VE BEEN ALONE AND KIND OF FIGURED IT OUT AND IT'S 721 00:41:23,940 --> 00:41:28,278 SOMETHING THAT I DON'T WANT TO BE AFRAID OF ANYMORE IN THE 722 00:41:28,278 --> 00:41:28,711 FUTURE. 723 00:41:28,711 --> 00:41:32,115 >> WHEN JENN SAID FEAR OF ABANDONMENT, AT THE BARE ESSENCE 724 00:41:32,115 --> 00:41:35,051 OF IT THAT'S ALL I'VE EVER WANTED IS SOMEBODY TO STAY AND 725 00:41:35,051 --> 00:41:40,623 BE THERE FOR ME AND SO, YOU KNOW, IT MADE ME WANT TO BE 726 00:41:40,623 --> 00:41:42,559 THERE FOR HER IN THIS MOMENT. THAT'S NOT JUST ABOUT ME ANYMORE. 727 00:41:42,559 --> 00:41:47,797 IT'S ABOUT US AND JENN IS THAT G GOOD THING IN MY LIFE. 728 00:41:47,797 --> 00:41:50,800 >> WITH GREAT INTENTION YOU ARE RELEASING THE FEAR. 729 00:41:50,800 --> 00:41:56,606 >> YOU PUT ALL THIS WEIGHT INTO THE NEGATIVE AND YOU TRY AS HARD 730 00:41:56,606 --> 00:42:01,177 AS YOU CAN. 731 00:42:01,177 --> 00:42:05,148 >> BYE! 732 00:42:05,148 --> 00:42:12,589 THAT FELT GOOD. I DO FEEL A LITTLE LIGHTER AND 733 00:42:12,589 --> 00:42:15,124 BEING AGE TO TALK ABOUT MY PAST. 734 00:42:15,124 --> 00:42:18,428 >> NOW WE WILL FULLY SUBMERGE INTO THE OCEAN. 735 00:42:18,428 --> 00:42:22,065 >> IT'S BEEN A HEAVY PART OF ME THAT'S BEEN WEIGHING ME DOWN FOR 736 00:42:22,065 --> 00:42:26,169 SO LONG. I DON'T WANT IT TO KEEP HOLDING 737 00:42:26,169 --> 00:42:31,574 ME BACK FROM HIM BEING THE TRUE LOVE THAT I NEED. 738 00:42:31,574 --> 00:42:37,780 NOW THAT WE'VE RELEASED OUR FEARS INTO THE OCEAN, IT TRULY 739 00:42:37,780 --> 00:42:41,150 FEELS LIKE THIS NEW REBIRTH OF MYSELF. 740 00:42:41,150 --> 00:42:43,720 >> WE'RE ALWAYS DOING SPIRITUAL STUFF TOGETHER. 741 00:42:43,720 --> 00:42:45,655 >> I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE GOOD FOR THIS WEEK. 742 00:42:45,655 --> 00:42:49,092 >> YEAH, IT WAS. 743 00:42:49,092 --> 00:42:51,194 >> LETTING GO OF SOME THINGS, RIGHT? 744 00:42:51,194 --> 00:42:57,133 >> OBVIOUSLY I'D BE LYING IF I SAID I WAS, YOU KNOW, SCARRED BY 745 00:42:57,133 --> 00:43:00,870 THINGS THAT HAVE HAPPENED TO ME IN MY PAST AND I KNOW THAT 746 00:43:00,870 --> 00:43:05,842 THAT'S KIND OF HINDERED ME FROM SEEING GOOD THINGS IN MY FUTURE 747 00:43:05,842 --> 00:43:08,678 AND THAT DOES SCARE ME A LITTLE BIT THAT, YOU KNOW, I CAN WAKE 748 00:43:08,678 --> 00:43:12,482 UP SO CONFIDENT ONE DAY AND THE NEXT DAY I CAN WAKE UP DOUBTING 749 00:43:12,482 --> 00:43:12,715 THINGS. 750 00:43:12,715 --> 00:43:15,785 >> I KNOW. I KNOW IT'S NOT EASY. 751 00:43:15,785 --> 00:43:17,587 >> I KNOW YOU KNOW IT'S NOT EASY. 752 00:43:17,587 --> 00:43:21,491 >> I KNOW IT'S NOT EASY. I REALLY WANT HIM TO KNOW THAT. 753 00:43:21,491 --> 00:43:26,062 >> I DO NOT THAT. 754 00:43:26,062 --> 00:43:28,298 >> I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE FUTURE HOLDS FOR US. 755 00:43:28,298 --> 00:43:31,634 I KNOW THAT A LOT OF MY PROBLEMS ARE SELF-CREATED AND I KNOW HOW 756 00:43:31,634 --> 00:43:35,204 MY HEAD GETS AND HOW MY MIND GETS WHENEVER I TRY TO FIGURE 757 00:43:35,204 --> 00:43:39,342 OUT A LOT OF MY PROBLEMS ALONE AND ONE THING I LEARNED ABOUT 758 00:43:39,342 --> 00:43:43,179 JENN IS THEY NOW WANT TO FIGURE IT OUT WITH HER. 759 00:43:43,179 --> 00:43:47,150 TONIGHT IS MY LAST CONVERSATION WITH JENN AND I WANT IT TO BE 760 00:43:47,150 --> 00:43:49,218 MEANINGFUL. MARCUS IS STILL HERE. 761 00:43:49,218 --> 00:43:51,421 I WISH I COULD SAY IT WAS ME BUT I DON'T. 762 00:43:59,329 --> 00:44:04,767 ♪ 763 00:44:04,767 --> 00:44:07,937 >>> JENN SAID EARLIER TODAY ABANDONMENT WAS SOMETHING SHE 764 00:44:07,937 --> 00:44:11,140 WAS LOOKING TO LET GO OF. YOU KNOW, I'VE NEVER HEARD HER 765 00:44:11,140 --> 00:44:14,377 TALK ABOUT THAT THE WAY SHE DID TODAY AND IT MADE ME WANT TO BE 766 00:44:14,377 --> 00:44:17,313 THERE FOR HER. 767 00:44:17,313 --> 00:44:17,580 >> OH. 768 00:44:17,580 --> 00:44:18,381 >> HELLO, BEAUTIFUL. 769 00:44:18,381 --> 00:44:23,152 >> HI. 770 00:44:23,152 --> 00:44:28,191 >> TONIGHT I WANT HER TO FEEL THE WEIGHT OF MY SOUL, I WANT TO 771 00:44:28,191 --> 00:44:33,062 MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS I'M HERE TO FIGHT FOR HER EVERY DAY. 772 00:44:33,062 --> 00:44:35,865 NOT BEING CHOSEN, NOT BEING THE ONE AT THE END OF ALL THIS, I 773 00:44:35,865 --> 00:44:39,635 WOULD BE CRUSHED. YOU LOOK ABSOLUTELY STUNNING. 774 00:44:39,635 --> 00:44:42,372 >> THANK YOU, SO DO YOU. YOU LOOK GOOD IS THERE THANK 775 00:44:42,372 --> 00:44:49,011 YOU. 776 00:44:49,011 --> 00:44:50,680 >> DID YOU HAVE A GOOD DAY TODAY. 777 00:44:50,680 --> 00:44:51,381 >> I DID. DID YOU? 778 00:44:51,381 --> 00:44:53,916 >> I ACTUALLY HAD A FANTASTIC DAY. 779 00:44:53,916 --> 00:44:54,350 >> YOU DID. 780 00:44:54,350 --> 00:44:57,887 >> I ALWAYS HAVE GOOD DAYS WITH YOU. 781 00:44:57,887 --> 00:44:59,622 >> SO DO I. I TOOK THE STONES AND THREW THEM 782 00:44:59,622 --> 00:45:00,123 IN THE OCEAN. 783 00:45:00,123 --> 00:45:02,825 >> I HAD A LOT OF STONES IN MY CUP. 784 00:45:02,825 --> 00:45:03,459 >> SO DO I. 785 00:45:03,459 --> 00:45:06,996 >> AS SCARED AS I AM ABOUT THE FUTURE, I'M NOT SCARED OF IT AS 786 00:45:06,996 --> 00:45:11,334 MUCH WITH YOU AND IT'S A GOOD FEELING TO HAVE. 787 00:45:11,334 --> 00:45:14,871 YOU ARE THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IN MY LIFE AND I LOVE THE 788 00:45:14,871 --> 00:45:21,811 THOUGHT OF FOREVER WITH YOU. 789 00:45:21,811 --> 00:45:25,815 I COULD LEAVE HERE CRYING BUT I JUST YOUR JUDGMENT. 790 00:45:25,815 --> 00:45:30,186 I KNOW I'VE SAID IT BEFORE BUT I'M GOING TO CONTINUE TO TRUST 791 00:45:30,186 --> 00:45:30,420 THAT. 792 00:45:30,420 --> 00:45:33,423 >> WHEN YOU SAY YOU TRUST ME, IT MEANS MORE THAN YOU KNOW. 793 00:45:33,423 --> 00:45:34,357 >> I DO TRUST YOU. 794 00:45:34,357 --> 00:45:37,260 >> I KNOW. AND IT MEANS THAT YOU SEE ME AND 795 00:45:37,260 --> 00:45:39,862 YOU UNDERSTAND ME AND YOU GET WHERE I'M COMING FROM AND THAT'S 796 00:45:39,862 --> 00:45:41,864 NOT SOMETHING THAT I'VE EVER REALLY HAD. 797 00:45:41,864 --> 00:45:47,003 IT'S LIKE MORE OF THAT THE FACT THAT YOU SEE ME COMPLETELY. 798 00:45:47,003 --> 00:45:54,377 >> I DO SEE YOU COMPLETELY. I DO CONTINUE TO TRUST YOU, IT'S 799 00:45:54,377 --> 00:45:58,381 ALMOST OVER. I HAVE A GIFT FOR YOU THAT I 800 00:45:58,381 --> 00:46:01,818 THINK REFLECTS ON OUR ENTIRE JOURNEY AND I HID IT UNDER THE 801 00:46:01,818 --> 00:46:04,387 COUCH SO YOU COULDN'T FIND IT. 802 00:46:04,387 --> 00:46:06,355 >> OOH. FOR ME? 803 00:46:06,355 --> 00:46:13,196 >> YES. SO, THIS WAS A GIFT THAT I GOT 804 00:46:13,196 --> 00:46:18,334 FROM THE SHAMAN ON OUR VERY FIRST DATE. 805 00:46:18,334 --> 00:46:23,739 >> THIS IS THE RIPPLES. THEY TELL DIFFERENT STORIES. 806 00:46:23,739 --> 00:46:27,176 HOW WOULD YOU GIVE THAT MORE MEANING? 807 00:46:27,176 --> 00:46:29,846 >> IT'S ALMOST LIKE A FLUID MOTION. 808 00:46:29,846 --> 00:46:33,282 EVERYTHING COMES TOGETHER AND IT ALL FLOWS AND IT INTERTWINES BUT 809 00:46:33,282 --> 00:46:33,883 COMES BACK TOGETHER. 810 00:46:33,883 --> 00:46:35,451 >> WOULD YOU ACCEPT THIS GIFT. 811 00:46:35,451 --> 00:46:36,052 >> ABSOLUTELY. 812 00:46:36,052 --> 00:46:40,223 >> FROM US? AND THE HOPE THAT YOU'LL BE 813 00:46:40,223 --> 00:46:42,558 GIFTING IT TO SOMEONE THAT DESERVES THAT STORY. 814 00:46:42,558 --> 00:46:43,826 >> YES. 815 00:46:43,826 --> 00:46:48,831 >> THE SHAM MAN TOLD ME NOT TO GIVE IT OUT UNTIL I KNEW WHO I 816 00:46:48,831 --> 00:46:53,002 WANTED TO GIVE IT TO FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE AND I CAN'T BE 817 00:46:53,002 --> 00:46:56,472 MORE PROUD TO SAY I WANT TO GIVE IT TO YOU AND FOR GOOD OR BAD 818 00:46:56,472 --> 00:47:00,042 SOMETHING I ALWAYS WANT YOU TO HAVE AND A PIECE OF ME I CAN 819 00:47:00,042 --> 00:47:00,610 NEVER TAKE BACK. 820 00:47:00,610 --> 00:47:02,812 >> THIS MEANS A LOT TO ME. IT REALLY DOES. 821 00:47:02,812 --> 00:47:06,382 IT SHOWS THE COMMITMENT AND I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU'VE BEEN 822 00:47:06,382 --> 00:47:07,617 HOLDING ON TO THIS. 823 00:47:07,617 --> 00:47:08,584 >> I KNOW. I KNOW. 824 00:47:08,584 --> 00:47:12,421 >> IT'S CRAZY. I HAD NO IDEA THAT YOU EVEN HAD 825 00:47:12,421 --> 00:47:12,622 THIS. 826 00:47:12,622 --> 00:47:18,895 >> I KNOW. 827 00:47:22,965 --> 00:47:26,602 >> DEVIN JUST KEEPS BLOWING ME AWAY AND I DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW 828 00:47:26,602 --> 00:47:30,907 HE'S DOING IT BUT HE DAVE ME SOMETHING THAT IS IMPORTANT TO 829 00:47:30,907 --> 00:47:36,445 HIM AND TO OUR JOURNEY. HE COULD HAVE GIVEN THIS TO ME 830 00:47:36,445 --> 00:47:38,848 AT A LOT OF DIFFERENT POINTS IN TIME BUT THE FACT THAT HE WAITED 831 00:47:38,848 --> 00:47:41,951 THIS LONG TO GIVE IT TO ME TONIGHT MEANS THAT HE'S FULLY 832 00:47:41,951 --> 00:47:46,355 READY TO MAKE THAT COMMITMENT AND I DON'T TAKE THAT LIGHTLY AT 833 00:47:46,355 --> 00:47:50,159 ALL. 834 00:47:50,159 --> 00:47:53,062 >> WHY ARE YOU SMILING LIKE THAT? 835 00:47:53,062 --> 00:47:55,097 >> YOU SILLY. 836 00:47:55,097 --> 00:48:01,337 >> ME SILLY? YOU SILLY. YOU WILL CONTINUED TO BE LOVED 837 00:48:01,337 --> 00:48:06,842 LIKE THAT. YOU HAVE TO JUST LOVE ME BACK. 838 00:48:06,842 --> 00:48:12,448 >> I LOVE YOU. 839 00:48:12,448 --> 00:48:17,320 >> AFTER SPENDING THE DAY WITH DEVIN AND REPLAYING OUR ENTIRE 840 00:48:17,320 --> 00:48:19,589 RELATIONSHIP AND HOW MUCH IT'S GROWN AND HOW MUCH IT'S PROVIDED 841 00:48:19,589 --> 00:48:24,393 ME AND HOW MUCH MEANING THERE IS BEHIND IT, I'VE JUST COME TO 842 00:48:24,393 --> 00:48:29,665 REALIZE HOW IMPORTANT DEVIN IS TO ME. I CAME INTO THIS NOT 843 00:48:29,665 --> 00:48:33,502 UNDERSTANDING EXACTLY WHAT AN UNCONDITIONAL LOVE COULD FEEL 844 00:48:33,502 --> 00:48:36,639 LIKE OR LOOK LIKE FROM A PARTNER AND I THINK DEVIN REALLY SHOWS 845 00:48:36,639 --> 00:48:40,810 ME THAT. THERE'S LIKE NO HOLDING BACK 846 00:48:40,810 --> 00:48:41,077 WITH HIM. 847 00:48:41,077 --> 00:48:48,217 >> GOOD NIGHT. 848 00:48:48,217 --> 00:48:51,187 >> MY HEAD IS KIND OF ALL OVER THE PLACE RIGHT NOW. 849 00:48:51,187 --> 00:48:56,859 TOMORROW IS A BIG DAY. I HAVE A DATE WITH MARCUS. 850 00:48:56,859 --> 00:49:01,097 I LOVE HIM TOO BUT I DON'T KNOW IF MARCUS IS REALLY ABLE TO 851 00:49:01,097 --> 00:49:07,870 EXPRESS HIS FEELINGS FOR ME. AND IT'S SCARY TO THINK ABOUT 852 00:49:07,870 --> 00:49:15,611 THAT BECAUSE WE NEED TO KNOW THAT I'M NOT GOING TO GET HURT. 853 00:49:15,611 --> 00:49:19,749 >> SO HOW WILL JENN MAKE HER DECISION WITH THE DRAMATIC 854 00:49:19,749 --> 00:49:23,252 PROPOSAL RIGHT AROUND THE CORNER? MARCUS HAS ONE MORE DAY WITH 855 00:49:23,252 --> 00:49:25,521 JENN. WILL HE FINALLY ADMIT THAT HE IS 856 00:49:25,521 --> 00:49:29,558 IN LOVE WITH HER AND SPEAKING OF DRAMATIC, ABC HAS A NEW DRAMA 857 00:49:29,558 --> 00:49:33,663 THAT WILL GET YOUR HEART PUMPING FROM EXECUTIVE PRODUCER RYAN 858 00:49:33,663 --> 00:49:36,065 MURPHY, "DOCTOR ODYSSEY" STARS JOSHUA JACKSON AS A DOCTOR ON 859 00:49:36,065 --> 00:49:39,702 BOARD A LUXURY CRUISE SHIP. WE ARE TALKING HIGH SEAS, HIGH 860 00:49:39,702 --> 00:49:42,872 STAKES, AND EVEN HIGHER ROMANCE. TAKE A LOOK. 861 00:49:42,872 --> 00:49:50,212 ♪ 862 00:49:50,212 --> 00:49:53,382 >> DOCTOR, WELCOME ABOARD "THE ODYSSEY." 863 00:49:53,382 --> 00:49:55,117 ♪ WOULDN'T IT BE NICE 864 00:49:55,117 --> 00:49:58,354 >> THIS SHIP IS HEAVEN. 865 00:49:58,354 --> 00:49:58,821 ♪ TO LIVE TOGETHER 866 00:49:58,821 --> 00:50:00,690 >> OUR MISSION IS TO PRESERVE THE DREAM. 867 00:50:00,690 --> 00:50:01,390 ♪ IN THE KIND OF WORLD THAT WE 868 00:50:01,390 --> 00:50:03,092 BELONG ♪ 869 00:50:03,092 --> 00:50:04,126 >> AND THAT'S WHY YOU'RE HERE. 870 00:50:04,126 --> 00:50:08,364 >> I'M IN. 871 00:50:08,364 --> 00:50:10,966 ♪ THAT MUCH BETTER 872 00:50:10,966 --> 00:50:13,102 >> KEEP THEM SAFE. YOU'LL BE OKAY. 873 00:50:13,102 --> 00:50:16,439 ♪ WOULDN'T IT BE NICE IF WE 874 00:50:16,439 --> 00:50:20,009 COULD WAKE UP IN THE MORNING WHEN THE DAY IS THROUGH ♪ 875 00:50:20,009 --> 00:50:21,744 ♪ AND AFTER THAT 876 00:50:21,744 --> 00:50:25,114 >> NOT A QUESTION OF WHEN YOU ENCOUNTER WAVES. 877 00:50:25,114 --> 00:50:27,483 ♪ THE WHOLE NIGHT THROUGH 878 00:50:27,483 --> 00:50:28,150 >> BRACE FOR IMPACT. 879 00:50:28,150 --> 00:50:35,491 >> BUT WHAT YOU DO WHEN THEY COME UP. 880 00:50:35,491 --> 00:50:38,494 >> KEEP BREATHING. 881 00:50:38,494 --> 00:50:41,030 ♪ WOULDN'T IT BE NICE 882 00:50:52,274 --> 00:50:56,078 >>> WAKING UP THIS MORNING, THERE'S SO MANY THINGS RUNNING 883 00:50:56,078 --> 00:51:02,685 THROUGH MY MIND AND I JUST -- I'M JUST FRUSTRATED AND NOW I'M 884 00:51:02,685 --> 00:51:04,687 CONFUSED. YESTERDAY I HAD AN AMAZING DATE 885 00:51:04,687 --> 00:51:09,792 WITH DEVIN, AND, YOU KNOW, THERE WAS SO MUCH LOVE BETWEEN THE TWO 886 00:51:09,792 --> 00:51:14,497 OF US AND SO MUCH RESPECT AND UNDERSTANDING AND SOMEONE THAT 887 00:51:14,497 --> 00:51:18,634 KNOWS THAT THEY WANT A FUTURE WITH ME AND KNOWS WHAT THAT 888 00:51:18,634 --> 00:51:24,874 LOOKS LIKE. TODAY IS MY LAST DATE WITH 889 00:51:24,874 --> 00:51:29,678 MARCUS, BUT I STILL DON'T REALLY KNOW WHERE HIS HEAD IS AT. 890 00:51:29,678 --> 00:51:32,681 HIS UNCERTAINTY IS MAKING ME UNCERTAIN. 891 00:51:32,681 --> 00:51:35,017 I'VE GIVEN MARCUS EVERY OPPORTUNITY TO TELL ME THAT HE 892 00:51:35,017 --> 00:51:41,357 LOVES ME. I HAVE LOVED HIM HARD. I'VE GIVEN MYSELF AND I'VE 893 00:51:41,357 --> 00:51:46,095 OPENED MYSELF UP TO HIM SO MUCH, BUT AT THIS POINT I CAN'T HELP 894 00:51:46,095 --> 00:51:50,633 BUT BE IN MY HEAD AND WORRY IF I'M MAKING PAST MISTAKES AND 895 00:51:50,633 --> 00:51:55,771 REPEATING HISTORY, AND SO I HAVE A LOT TO THINK ABOUT. 896 00:51:55,771 --> 00:51:58,040 >> WHAT'S UP, MAN? 897 00:51:58,040 --> 00:51:59,275 >> JESSE, GOOD TO SEE YOU. 898 00:51:59,275 --> 00:52:00,309 >> YOU DOING ALL RIGHT? 899 00:52:00,309 --> 00:52:01,043 >> YEAH. 900 00:52:01,043 --> 00:52:03,746 >> GOOD SEEING YOU TOO. EXCITED TO CATCH UP WITH YOU. 901 00:52:03,746 --> 00:52:06,382 I WANTED TO GET BROUGHT UP ON EVERYTHING. 902 00:52:06,382 --> 00:52:09,552 >> YEAH, NO, A LOT HAS HAPPENED SINCE WE CHATTED LAST. 903 00:52:09,552 --> 00:52:11,754 >> YEAH. HOW DID IT GO WITH MEETING 904 00:52:11,754 --> 00:52:12,788 JENN'S FAMILY? 905 00:52:12,788 --> 00:52:16,792 >> I THINK THAT, YOU KNOW, WHEN I WENT INTO IT I WAS A LITTLE 906 00:52:16,792 --> 00:52:20,463 BIT NERVOUS BECAUSE EVEN THOUGH I WANTED TO GO IN THERE AND, YOU 907 00:52:20,463 --> 00:52:22,631 KNOW, I LOVE YOUR DAUGHTER AND EVERYTHING IS GREAT AND I HAVE 908 00:52:22,631 --> 00:52:27,536 NO DOUBTS AND, YOU KNOW, DON'T WORRY ABOUT US, I KIND OF LED 909 00:52:27,536 --> 00:52:31,841 WITH THE TRUTH AND KIND OF LET THEM KNOW THAT, YOU KNOW, I'VE 910 00:52:31,841 --> 00:52:37,079 BEEN FEELING A BIT CONFLICTED AND, UM, AND STRUGGLING WITH, 911 00:52:37,079 --> 00:52:42,284 YOU KNOW, THIS DOUBT OF WHETHER OR NOT JENN AND I ARE MEANT FOR 912 00:52:42,284 --> 00:52:46,222 EACH OTHER. 913 00:52:46,222 --> 00:52:48,891 >> I KNOW THE LAST TIME WE TALKED YOU WERE SAYING YOU 914 00:52:48,891 --> 00:52:52,761 WEREN'T SURE YOU COULD GET THERE BUT THAT WAS BEFORE OVERNIGHTS 915 00:52:52,761 --> 00:52:56,098 AND BEFORE YOU MET HER FAMILY. HOW HAVE FEELINGS CHANGED? 916 00:52:56,098 --> 00:53:04,006 >> YEAH, I THINK, I THINK EVERY TIME THAT I GET TO BE WITH JENN, 917 00:53:04,006 --> 00:53:10,079 EVERY TIME WE GET TO SPEND TIME TOGETHER, WE ARE MAKING 918 00:53:10,079 --> 00:53:15,284 PROGRESS, AND THAT CONNECTION GETS A LITTLE STRONGER, SO 919 00:53:15,284 --> 00:53:19,488 CROSSING MY FINGERS THAT OUR DATE GOES WELL. 920 00:53:19,488 --> 00:53:23,592 ONE THING I PROMISED JENN WAS THAT IF I PROPOSE TO HER AT THE 921 00:53:23,592 --> 00:53:29,431 END OF THIS, IT'S BECAUSE, YOU KNOW, MY HEAD AND MY HEART WERE 922 00:53:29,431 --> 00:53:33,802 IN THE RIGHT PLACES. I JUST WANT JENN TO BE HAPPY. 923 00:53:33,802 --> 00:53:38,173 I WANT WHAT'S BEST FOR HER, AND THAT'S ONE OF THE THINGS THAT I 924 00:53:38,173 --> 00:53:41,644 KNOW FOR SURE IS THAT I CARE 925 00:53:41,644 --> 00:53:49,351 ABOUT HER DEEPLY, YOU KNOW. 926 00:53:49,351 --> 00:53:53,756 >> SO, I MEAN, LIKE, AT THIS POINT IS IT MORE THAT YOU'RE IN 927 00:53:53,756 --> 00:53:57,626 LOVE WITH JENN, YOU'RE JUST AFRAID TO HELD HER OR YOU'RE 928 00:53:57,626 --> 00:53:59,962 JUST NOT SURE IF YOU'RE STILL IN LOVE WITH HER? 929 00:53:59,962 --> 00:54:07,436 >> YOU KNOW, PART OF ME REALLY DOES LOVE JENN, YOU KNOW. 930 00:54:07,436 --> 00:54:10,639 IT'S ABOUT GETTING TO A POINT WHERE YOU CAN LOVE SOMEONE AND 931 00:54:10,639 --> 00:54:14,677 BE, YOU KNOW, UNAFRAID. I THINK IT'S ABOUT LOVING 932 00:54:14,677 --> 00:54:18,480 SOMEONE FULLY AND LOVING SOMEONE WITH, YOU KNOW, CERTAINTY AND 933 00:54:18,480 --> 00:54:25,321 THAT'S KIND OF WHERE I'M TORN RIGHT NOW. 934 00:54:25,321 --> 00:54:33,662 I'VE NEVER BEEN SO TORN. 935 00:54:33,662 --> 00:54:38,067 >> I KNOW THIS LAST DATE IS A BIG OPPORTUNITY TOO, AND, 936 00:54:38,067 --> 00:54:42,638 LISTEN, I'M NOT TELLING YOU HOW YOU SHOULD FEEL OR HOW YOU'RE 937 00:54:42,638 --> 00:54:45,240 SUPPOSED TO FEEL ABOUT HER, BUT I DO THINK IT'S REALLY IMPORTANT 938 00:54:45,240 --> 00:54:51,313 THAT IF DEEP DOWN INSIDE AS SCARY AS IT IS TO ADMIT IT, IF, 939 00:54:51,313 --> 00:54:56,185 IN FACT, YOU DO LOVE THIS WOMAN, I THINK YOU GOT TO TELL HER, 940 00:54:56,185 --> 00:55:02,691 BECAUSE I'M AFRAID YOU'RE GOING TO LOSE HER IF YOU DON'T. 941 00:55:02,691 --> 00:55:06,829 I JUST WISH YOU THE BEST. ALL RIGHT, BROTHER. 942 00:55:06,829 --> 00:55:20,175 GOOD LUCK. 943 00:55:20,175 --> 00:55:24,246 >> TALKING WITH JESSE, IT WAS DEFINITELY A WAKE-UP CALL 944 00:55:24,246 --> 00:55:30,386 KNOWING THAT I ONLY HAD ONE MORE DATE WITH JENN, BEST CASE 945 00:55:30,386 --> 00:55:37,359 SCENARIO IS THAT I CAN SAY FOR CERTAIN THAT I LOVE HER AND I'M 946 00:55:37,359 --> 00:55:39,561 STARTING TO REALIZE NOW MORE THAN EVER THAT THERE IS GOING TO 947 00:55:39,561 --> 00:55:44,833 BE A LEAP OF FAITH THAT YOU HAVE TO TAKE IN THE END. 948 00:55:44,833 --> 00:55:48,937 >> BEFORE I EVEN DO THIS DATE WITH MARCUS, I HAVE SO MANY 949 00:55:48,937 --> 00:55:53,942 QUESTIONS THAT I NEED ANSWERS TO. I DON'T WANT TO PUT ON A FAKE 950 00:55:53,942 --> 00:55:57,146 SMILE ALL DAY. I WANT TO BE ABLE TO TALK TO 951 00:55:57,146 --> 00:56:04,787 HIM, AND I WANT TO BE ABLE TO UNDERSTAND WHERE HE'S AT. 952 00:56:04,787 --> 00:56:08,090 THE LAST TIME I SAW MARCUS WAS WHEN HE MET MY FAMILY, AND I 953 00:56:08,090 --> 00:56:14,596 SAID I LOVE YOU AND HE SAID NOTHING BACK AND HE CAN SAY HE'S 954 00:56:14,596 --> 00:56:21,970 HOPEFUL FOR LOVE AND AN ENGAGEMENT BUT IS IT WITH ME? 955 00:56:21,970 --> 00:56:25,507 I NEED ANSWERS FROM MARCUS, AND I'M NOT GOING TO WAIT ANY LONGER. 956 00:56:35,017 --> 00:56:41,023 [ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ] 957 00:56:41,023 --> 00:56:44,460 >>> WELCOME BACK TO THE LIVE "BACHELORETTE" FINALE. 958 00:56:44,460 --> 00:56:46,695 OKAY, SO HOW IS THIS WHOLE THING GOING TO END? 959 00:56:46,695 --> 00:56:51,066 JENN IS ON THE WAY TO MARCUS' DOOR, AND SHE WANTS ANSWERS. 960 00:56:51,066 --> 00:56:52,267 BUT IS SHE GOING TO GET THEM? 961 00:56:52,267 --> 00:57:00,909 LET'S FIND OUT. 962 00:57:41,517 --> 00:57:42,050 >> HI. 963 00:57:42,050 --> 00:57:42,951 >> HELLO. 964 00:57:42,951 --> 00:57:43,318 >> HOW ARE YOU? 965 00:57:43,318 --> 00:57:43,886 >> GOOD. HOW ARE YOU? 966 00:57:43,886 --> 00:57:49,591 >> GOOD. 967 00:57:49,591 --> 00:57:51,059 >> I WASN'T EXPECTING YOU. 968 00:57:51,059 --> 00:57:51,426 >> WANT TO TALK? 969 00:57:51,426 --> 00:58:03,438 >> YEAH. 970 00:58:03,438 --> 00:58:08,710 >> HOW ARE YOU? 971 00:58:08,710 --> 00:58:10,879 >> A LITTLE NERVOUS, BUT GOOD. 972 00:58:10,879 --> 00:58:18,053 >> I WANTED TO COME AND, LIKE, TALK TO YOU AND SEE YOU AND, YOU 973 00:58:18,053 --> 00:58:21,723 KNOW, THERE'S AN ENGAGEMENT TOMORROW AND WHATEVER THAT MEANS 974 00:58:21,723 --> 00:58:25,194 TO YOU, IT'S, LIKE, I DON'T KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS TO YOU. 975 00:58:25,194 --> 00:58:29,765 I DON'T KNOW WHERE YOUR HEAD IS AT AND I THINK YOU KEEP SAYING 976 00:58:29,765 --> 00:58:33,168 YOU'RE HOPEFUL FOR IT AND WANT TO GET THERE WITH YOUR FEELINGS, 977 00:58:33,168 --> 00:58:36,171 BUT IT'S LIKE RUNNING OUT OF TIME. 978 00:58:36,171 --> 00:58:39,942 >> I KNOW. 979 00:58:39,942 --> 00:58:43,545 >> ARE WE GOING TO GO ON A DATE AND YOU'RE GOING TO GET THERE 980 00:58:43,545 --> 00:58:46,648 AND YOU'RE GOING TO PROPOSE AND THEN IT'S YOU'RE GOING TO GET 981 00:58:46,648 --> 00:58:49,218 THERE AND THEN WE'RE GOING TO DATE BECAUSE YOU WANT THAT OR 982 00:58:49,218 --> 00:58:52,855 BECAUSE YOU SEE ME IN YOUR FUTURE OR YOU DON'T OR YOU -- I 983 00:58:52,855 --> 00:58:58,694 DON'T -- I DON'T KNOW AND THEN ON YOUR OWVERNIGHTS WE WERE 984 00:58:58,694 --> 00:59:01,296 TALKING ABOUT THE FUTURE, AT LEAST I WAS TRYING TO AND I 985 00:59:01,296 --> 00:59:04,800 DON'T KNOW IF YOU WERE EXCITED ABOUT THAT OR SAW ME IN ANY OF 986 00:59:04,800 --> 00:59:05,934 THAT AND I DON'T KNOW IF YOU SEE 987 00:59:05,934 --> 00:59:16,011 ME IN YOUR FUTURE. 988 00:59:16,011 --> 00:59:20,782 >> UM, YEAH, I MEAN I THINK I 989 00:59:20,782 --> 00:59:25,487 REGRET, LIKE, NOT DIVING DEEPER, 990 00:59:25,487 --> 00:59:33,262 WHAT THE FUTURE LOOKS LIKE. 991 00:59:33,262 --> 00:59:35,964 >> I FEEL LIKE I TRIED AND YOU 992 00:59:35,964 --> 00:59:43,171 JUST DIDN'T WANT TO. 993 00:59:43,171 --> 00:59:48,010 LIKE, I DON'T KNOW HOW I'M SUPPOSED TO TAKE THAT. 994 00:59:48,010 --> 00:59:51,980 YOU DON'T KNOW. I FELT LIKE YOU WEREN'T EXCITED 995 00:59:51,980 --> 00:59:58,320 FOR THE FUTURE. 996 00:59:58,320 --> 01:00:02,491 >> I DON'T THINK THAT IT'S NOT THAT I CAN'T PICTURE IT, OR THAT 997 01:00:02,491 --> 01:00:04,960 IT'S NOT EXCITING, I THINK IT'S 998 01:00:04,960 --> 01:00:12,901 JUST THAT IT'S SCARY TO ME. YEAH, I MEAN LIKE I'M 999 01:00:12,901 --> 01:00:14,603 STRUGGLING. 1000 01:00:14,603 --> 01:00:31,353 FOR SURE. 1001 01:00:31,353 --> 01:00:35,891 >> I DON'T KNOW HOW I'M SUPPOSED TO PROCESS ALL THIS. 1002 01:00:35,891 --> 01:00:42,965 I MEAN, IT'S LIKE, WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO TELL ME? 1003 01:00:42,965 --> 01:00:48,737 >> I MEAN, I THINK THAT I'VE BEEN HONEST ABOUT STRUGGLING AND 1004 01:00:48,737 --> 01:00:51,073 I'M NOT KEEPING ANYTHING FROM YOU. 1005 01:00:51,073 --> 01:00:52,040 I'M NOT KEEPING ANY ANSWERS FROM 1006 01:00:52,040 --> 01:01:00,816 YOU. 1007 01:01:00,816 --> 01:01:07,222 I DON'T KNOW, LIKE, I THINK I HAVE MY OWN CERTAINTIES BUT LIKE 1008 01:01:07,222 --> 01:01:12,995 YOU MAKE ME WANT TO KEEP TRYING AND I WANT TO KEEP TRYING. 1009 01:01:12,995 --> 01:01:17,132 MY HIGHEST ASPIRATION IN LIFE IS TO FIND LOVE, TO FIND MY PERSON 1010 01:01:17,132 --> 01:01:23,171 AND TO START A FAMILY. AND I THINK THAT THAT'S WHAT'S 1011 01:01:23,171 --> 01:01:24,539 BEEN THERE. 1012 01:01:24,539 --> 01:01:31,980 >> I KNOW THAT, BUT IS THAT WITH 1013 01:01:31,980 --> 01:01:33,382 ME? 1014 01:01:33,382 --> 01:01:38,520 >> I KNOW THAT MY FEELINGS FOR YOU ARE REAL AND THAT I CAN 1015 01:01:38,520 --> 01:01:44,659 PICTURE IT WITH YOU. I DON'T KNOW, LIKE, MAYBE I'M 1016 01:01:44,659 --> 01:01:51,500 PUTTING TOO MUCH PRESSURE ON MYSELF OR, I DON'T KNOW, I JUST 1017 01:01:51,500 --> 01:01:55,303 DIDN'T THINK THAT IT WOULD BE THIS HARD AND I THINK IT'S BEEN 1018 01:01:55,303 --> 01:01:57,906 CONFUSING FOR ME BECAUSE I DON'T 1019 01:01:57,906 --> 01:02:04,279 UNDERSTAND WHY IT'S SO, LIKE, 1020 01:02:04,279 --> 01:02:10,519 SCARY FOR ME TO MOVE FORWARD OR THINK ABOUT THAT WITH SOMEONE I 1021 01:02:10,519 --> 01:02:31,973 CARE SO MUCH ABOUT, SO -- 1022 01:02:31,973 --> 01:02:36,111 >> I'VE BEEN INVESTING SO MUCH INTO US, MARCUS, SINCE THE 1023 01:02:36,111 --> 01:02:54,129 BEGINNING. 1024 01:02:54,129 --> 01:02:57,532 I DIDN'T KNOW THAT I WOULD BE INVESTING SO MUCH INTO SOMEBODY 1025 01:02:57,532 --> 01:03:00,535 AND SO MANY FEELINGS AND SO MANY EMOTIONS AND SO MUCH TIME AND 1026 01:03:00,535 --> 01:03:07,409 EFFORT AND ENERGY AND SO MUCH OF ME INTO SOMEBODY AND IT HURTS ME 1027 01:03:07,409 --> 01:03:14,249 BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH IT NOW. 1028 01:03:14,249 --> 01:03:20,555 WHERE AM I SUPPOSED TO GO FROM HERE? 1029 01:03:20,555 --> 01:03:23,959 I FEEL LIKE MY WHOLE LIFE WHAT I'VE BEEN DOING IS INVESTING AND 1030 01:03:23,959 --> 01:03:28,697 GIVING PIECES OF ME TO PEOPLE AND I DON'T KNOW WHY BUT IT'S 1031 01:03:28,697 --> 01:03:32,601 NOT BEING HANDLED WITH CARE. IT'S NOT BEING -- IT'S GETTING 1032 01:03:32,601 --> 01:03:36,872 TAKEN FOR GRANTED AND AT SOME POINT I AM JUST TIRED OF IT AND 1033 01:03:36,872 --> 01:03:48,617 I DON'T WANT TO FEEL THIS WAY. 1034 01:03:48,617 --> 01:03:52,420 >> I'M SORRY, I JUST, LIKE, AT 1035 01:03:52,420 --> 01:03:59,561 THE END OF THE DAY, LIKE, I KNOW 1036 01:03:59,561 --> 01:04:08,970 THAT I LOVE YOU. 1037 01:04:08,970 --> 01:04:13,742 I WANT TO BE THE TYPE OF PERSON THAT FIGHTS FOR IT. 1038 01:04:13,742 --> 01:04:18,113 LIKE, I WANT TO DO THIS WITH YOU. 1039 01:04:18,113 --> 01:04:23,952 I WANT TO GIVE IT A TRY. 1040 01:04:23,952 --> 01:04:28,823 YOU KNOW, I DON'T WANT TO GIVE 1041 01:04:28,823 --> 01:04:34,029 UP ON US. 1042 01:04:34,029 --> 01:04:38,300 >> I JUST NEED A SECOND. 1043 01:04:52,480 --> 01:04:57,352 >> I NEED TO FIGURE OUT WHAT TO DO WITH MARCUS AND I. 1044 01:04:57,352 --> 01:05:01,189 I'M JUST, I THINK, CONFLICTED AND CONFUSED. 1045 01:05:01,189 --> 01:05:09,097 MARCUS SAYS THAT HE LOVES ME, AND I THINK I'M JUST 1046 01:05:09,097 --> 01:05:12,934 OVERWHELMED. A LOT TO BE PROCESSING. 1047 01:05:12,934 --> 01:05:16,738 I HAVE BEEN WAITING TO HEAR THOSE WORDS, BUT I HAVE A PIT IN 1048 01:05:16,738 --> 01:05:17,906 MY STOMACH AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT 1049 01:05:17,906 --> 01:05:25,013 TO DO WITH IT. 1050 01:05:35,123 --> 01:05:37,759 >> OKAY. SO MARCUS IS IN LOVE WITH JENN, 1051 01:05:37,759 --> 01:05:40,929 AND HE TOLD HER THAT. WILL THAT SINGLE ADMISSION 1052 01:05:40,929 --> 01:05:44,599 CHANGE EVERYTHING? WE'RE GOING TO FIND OUT RIGHT 1053 01:05:44,599 --> 01:05:46,668 AFTER THE BREAK. 1054 01:06:09,124 --> 01:06:11,793 >>> I'M VERY FRUSTRATED WITH MARCUS. 1055 01:06:11,793 --> 01:06:15,930 LIKE, HE SAYS THAT HE LOVES ME, BUT I INVESTED SO MUCH OF MY 1056 01:06:15,930 --> 01:06:21,069 FEELINGS AND TIME AND ALSO JUST HOPE INTO THE RELATIONSHIP AND I 1057 01:06:21,069 --> 01:06:23,905 THINK THE CERTAINTY IN OUR RELATIONSHIP IS JUST DWINDLING 1058 01:06:23,905 --> 01:06:28,043 DOWN. 1059 01:06:28,043 --> 01:06:31,946 AND I'M SICK AND TIRED OF 1060 01:06:31,946 --> 01:06:38,353 INVESTING SO MUCH TIME AND ENERGY TO SOMEONE WHO DOESN'T 1061 01:06:38,353 --> 01:06:54,636 FEEL THE SAME WAY. 1062 01:06:54,636 --> 01:06:59,574 >> ARE YOU OKAY? 1063 01:06:59,574 --> 01:07:04,179 >> YEAH. ARE YOU? 1064 01:07:04,179 --> 01:07:07,048 >> YEAH, I JUST FEEL LIKE A LITTLE OFF RIGHT NOW. 1065 01:07:07,048 --> 01:07:14,456 ACTUALLY. 1066 01:07:14,456 --> 01:07:22,697 I'M AFRAID OF LOSING YOU. 1067 01:07:22,697 --> 01:07:26,835 I DID FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU, AND 1068 01:07:26,835 --> 01:07:32,474 I WAS AFRAID TO TELL YOU BECAUSE IT'S CLEAR TO ME THAT YOU KNOW 1069 01:07:32,474 --> 01:07:39,314 WHAT YOU WANT AND I THINK THAT THAT'S WHAT I'VE REALLY BEEN, 1070 01:07:39,314 --> 01:07:43,952 YOU KNOW, ASKING MYSELF SOME PRETTY HARD QUESTIONS, AND 1071 01:07:43,952 --> 01:07:51,159 REALLY BEING HONEST WITH MYSELF ALTHOUGH CAN I LIVE UP TO WHAT 1072 01:07:51,159 --> 01:07:55,397 IT IS THAT YOU KNOW JENN IS SAYING, THAT YOU'RE SAYING THAT 1073 01:07:55,397 --> 01:08:07,942 YOU NEED, AND I'M, LIKE, NOT 1074 01:08:07,942 --> 01:08:20,855 GIVING YOU WHAT YOU NEED. 1075 01:08:20,855 --> 01:08:25,226 >> I OPENED MY HEART TO YOU EVERY SECOND THAT I GOT. 1076 01:08:25,226 --> 01:08:29,030 >> I KNOW. 1077 01:08:29,030 --> 01:08:33,067 >> AND I THINK I GOT LOST IN IT AND MAYBE GAVE TOO MUCH ALONG 1078 01:08:33,067 --> 01:08:39,641 THE WAY AND I'M AT A PLACE WHERE I FEEL LIKE I'VE BEEN AT MY 1079 01:08:39,641 --> 01:08:42,977 ENTIRE LIFE, GIVING AND GIVING AND TRYING TO PROVE MYSELF TO 1080 01:08:42,977 --> 01:08:48,383 SOMEBODY AND TRYING TO PROVE THAT I'M WORTH IT AND TRYING TO 1081 01:08:48,383 --> 01:08:50,985 PROVE THAT I'M SOMEONE WORTH IT 1082 01:08:50,985 --> 01:09:01,129 AND I KNOW THAT I'M WORTH IT. 1083 01:09:01,129 --> 01:09:05,066 I'M DONE HINGING MY FUTURE ON SOMEBODY BEING AFRAID TO LOSE ME. 1084 01:09:05,066 --> 01:09:08,269 I'M DONE WAITING AROUND FOR 1085 01:09:08,269 --> 01:09:19,481 SOMEBODY TO GET THERE. 1086 01:09:19,481 --> 01:09:26,354 I'M JUST DONE. I GENUINELY HAD SO MUCH HOPE FOR 1087 01:09:26,354 --> 01:09:30,725 US. 1088 01:09:30,725 --> 01:09:35,897 >> I'M AFRAID THAT, LIKE, I'M NOT GOING TO FIND SOMEONE LIKE 1089 01:09:35,897 --> 01:09:40,001 YOU AGAIN. 1090 01:09:40,001 --> 01:09:44,005 >> I KNOW WHAT AN AMAZING GUY YOU ARE AND THAT'S WHY I HAVE 1091 01:09:44,005 --> 01:09:49,544 WAITED FOR SO LONG, BUT I KNOW THAT I DESERVE A PARTNER THAT 1092 01:09:49,544 --> 01:09:54,082 GIVES AS MUCH AS I GIVE AND I KNOW WHAT I WANT FOR MY FUTURE, 1093 01:09:54,082 --> 01:09:59,287 AND I KNOW IT'S NOT THIS FEELING ANYMORE. 1094 01:09:59,287 --> 01:10:02,323 THANK YOU FOR BEING HONEST WITH ME. 1095 01:10:02,323 --> 01:10:07,862 I THINK YOUR UNCERTAINTY IN THIS ALLOWED ME TO GIVE MYSELF 1096 01:10:07,862 --> 01:10:09,497 ANSWERS AND GIVE MYSELF THE LOVE 1097 01:10:09,497 --> 01:10:20,208 BACK TO ME THAT I NEEDED. 1098 01:10:20,208 --> 01:10:23,378 >> I NEVER THOUGHT THAT MARCUS AND I WOULD BE AT THIS POINT. 1099 01:10:23,378 --> 01:10:26,648 IT HURTS BECAUSE I HAVE TO SAY GOOD-BYE TO SOMEONE THAT I 1100 01:10:26,648 --> 01:10:33,121 REALLY CARED ABOUT. MY ENTIRE LIFE HAS BEEN POURING 1101 01:10:33,121 --> 01:10:36,057 INTO PEOPLE AND WISHING THAT THEY WOULD GET THERE WITH ME. 1102 01:10:36,057 --> 01:10:41,095 WISHING THAT THEY WOULD GIVE ME THE LOVE THAT I WANTED SO BADLY, 1103 01:10:41,095 --> 01:10:46,134 AND I'M FINALLY LETTING GO A PART OF ME THAT I'VE JUST BEEN 1104 01:10:46,134 --> 01:10:52,907 HOLDING ON TO FOR SO LONG. 1105 01:10:52,907 --> 01:10:56,044 THINKING ABOUT, YOU KNOW, THE GOOD TIMES THAT WE HAD, IT WAS 1106 01:10:56,044 --> 01:11:03,518 HARD FOR ME TO DO ALL THAT. 1107 01:11:03,518 --> 01:11:06,688 BUT I DON'T WANT TO FEEL LIKE IT'S GETTING TAKEN FOR GRANTED 1108 01:11:06,688 --> 01:11:16,898 ANYMORE. 1109 01:11:16,898 --> 01:11:19,000 >> I RESPECT THAT. I THOUGHT THAT I WAS GOING TO 1110 01:11:19,000 --> 01:11:22,203 HAVE A WHOLE DAY WITH HER. I DIDN'T THINK THAT THAT 1111 01:11:22,203 --> 01:11:29,611 CONVERSATION WAS GOING TO GO THE WAY THAT IT WENT. 1112 01:11:29,611 --> 01:11:36,617 I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY RIGHT NOW. 1113 01:11:36,617 --> 01:11:40,188 I JUST THINK A PART OF ME THAT WORRIES THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG 1114 01:11:40,188 --> 01:11:43,992 WITH ME. 1115 01:11:43,992 --> 01:11:51,899 I JUST DON'T FKNOW WHY. 1116 01:11:51,899 --> 01:11:59,907 BUT I THINK THAT THAT'S WHAT I'M 1117 01:11:59,907 --> 01:12:12,086 JUST STRUGGLING WITH RIGHT NOW. 1118 01:12:38,046 --> 01:12:40,348 >> ALL RIGHT. THAT WAS A REALLY TOUGH ONE. 1119 01:12:40,348 --> 01:12:43,685 WEEKS AFTER FIGHTING HIS OWN EMOTIONS MARCUS FINALLY SAID THE 1120 01:12:43,685 --> 01:12:47,922 WORDS, "I LOVE YOU" TO JENN, BUT IT WAS SIMPLY TOO LITTLE AND TOO 1121 01:12:47,922 --> 01:12:50,024 LATE. MARCUS JOINS ME NOW. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR BEING WITH 1122 01:12:50,024 --> 01:12:50,658 US TONIGHT, MAN. 1123 01:12:50,658 --> 01:12:52,627 >> YEAH, GOOD TO SEE YOU AGAIN, JESSE. 1124 01:12:52,627 --> 01:12:56,030 >> FIRST AND FOREMOST, HOW ARE YOU FEELING? 1125 01:12:56,030 --> 01:12:59,967 >> IT'S TOUGH TO WATCH BACK. I MEAN, THAT WAS OBVIOUSLY A 1126 01:12:59,967 --> 01:13:06,474 HARD DAY FOR BOTH OF US, AND, YOU KNOW, YOU CAN TELL THAT 1127 01:13:06,474 --> 01:13:09,744 THERE WAS A LOT OF LOVE, A LOT OF FEELINGS THERE AND, YOU KNOW, 1128 01:13:09,744 --> 01:13:15,450 SOMETIMES THINGS DON'T END UP THE WAY THAT YOU WANT AND IT WAS 1129 01:13:15,450 --> 01:13:16,284 A HARD DAY. 1130 01:13:16,284 --> 01:13:19,153 >> WHAT WERE THOSE FINAL DAYS IN HAWAII LIKE FOR YOU? 1131 01:13:19,153 --> 01:13:23,758 >> I THINK I HAD A LOT OF TIME TO KIND OF REFLECT AND TO, YOU 1132 01:13:23,758 --> 01:13:28,429 KNOW, DO A LITTLE INTROSPECTION AND REALLY BE HONEST WITH MYSELF 1133 01:13:28,429 --> 01:13:32,934 ABOUT WHERE MY FEELINGS WERE AT WITH JENN AND, YOU KNOW, WHETHER 1134 01:13:32,934 --> 01:13:37,772 OR NOT I WAS LIVING UP TO, YOU KNOW, HER EXPECTATIONS AND WHAT 1135 01:13:37,772 --> 01:13:42,443 IT WAS THAT SHE WAS CLEAR ABOUT, YOU KNOW, NEEDING FROM A PARTNER 1136 01:13:42,443 --> 01:13:48,583 AND FROM AN ENGAGEMENT, AND, YEAH, THERE WAS SOME PAINFUL 1137 01:13:48,583 --> 01:13:53,588 TRUTHS THAT I THINK I STUMBLED UPON DURING THAT TIME IN HAWAII 1138 01:13:53,588 --> 01:13:57,091 AND, YEAH, I THINK IF ANYTHING, I JUST WANTED TO BE HONEST WITH 1139 01:13:57,091 --> 01:13:57,291 HER. 1140 01:13:57,291 --> 01:13:57,558 >> YEAH. 1141 01:13:57,558 --> 01:13:58,326 >> GOOD OR BAD. 1142 01:13:58,326 --> 01:13:59,026 >> YEAH. 1143 01:13:59,026 --> 01:13:59,927 >> SHE DESERVED IT. 1144 01:13:59,927 --> 01:14:02,563 >> I COULD TELL, I GOT A SMALL GLIMPSE OF HOW DIFFICULT THAT 1145 01:14:02,563 --> 01:14:09,537 WAS FOR YOU IN THE LAST FINAL DAYS D DAYS. 1146 01:14:09,537 --> 01:14:10,671 WHEN YOU GOT HOME AFTER WHAT WAS IT LIKE? 1147 01:14:10,671 --> 01:14:13,374 DID YOU HAVE ANY REGRETS. 1148 01:14:13,374 --> 01:14:19,814 >> YOU KNOW, WHEN I GOT BACK HOME I HAD NO IDEA IF I MADE THE 1149 01:14:19,814 --> 01:14:22,583 RIGHT DECISION OR NOT. IT TOOK -- I THINK IT TOOK SOME 1150 01:14:22,583 --> 01:14:26,354 TIME TO REALIZE IF WE MADE THE RIGHT CHOICE. 1151 01:14:26,354 --> 01:14:30,591 >> I THINK BACK TO THAT LAST DAY, IT WAS SO EMOTIONAL FOR YOU. 1152 01:14:30,591 --> 01:14:34,595 HOW HARD WAS IT FOR YOU TO SEE JENN AS CONFLICTED AS SHE WAS IN 1153 01:14:34,595 --> 01:14:35,830 THAT MOMENT? 1154 01:14:35,830 --> 01:14:41,702 >> YEAH, NO, IT WAS VERY DIFFICULT. YOU KNOW, I CARED. 1155 01:14:41,702 --> 01:14:46,407 I STILL CARE ABOUT JENN DEEPLY AND I THINK WHAT I FOUND THE 1156 01:14:46,407 --> 01:14:50,144 MOST DIFFICULT WAS AFTER SPENDING A COUPLE OF MONTHS WITH 1157 01:14:50,144 --> 01:14:53,948 HER AND REALLY LIFTING HER UP AND TRYING TO REMIND HER OF WHO 1158 01:14:53,948 --> 01:14:59,120 SHE IS, I THINK THE HARDEST PART FOR ME WAS FEELING LIKE I LET 1159 01:14:59,120 --> 01:15:02,723 HER DOWN OR THAT I WAS A PART OF THE REASON WHY SHE MAYBE DIDN'T 1160 01:15:02,723 --> 01:15:05,493 FEEL WORTHY OF THE LOVE THAT SHE DESERVES, SO -- 1161 01:15:05,493 --> 01:15:07,895 >> YOU MENTIONED HAD YOU TO BE HONEST WITH YOURSELF AND THAT 1162 01:15:07,895 --> 01:15:11,299 YOU HAD COME TO THE CONCLUSION THAT THERE WERE SOME PAINFUL 1163 01:15:11,299 --> 01:15:17,505 TRUTHS. WHAT DID YOU REALIZE? 1164 01:15:17,505 --> 01:15:23,344 >> YEAH, I MEAN I THINK THAT THERE WAS HOW I WANTED 1165 01:15:23,344 --> 01:15:25,713 EVERYTHING TO GO AND THEN I THINK THAT THERE WAS HOW THINGS 1166 01:15:25,713 --> 01:15:31,953 NEEDED TO GO AND, YOU KNOW, I THINK THAT I WANTED IT TO BE ME, 1167 01:15:31,953 --> 01:15:38,226 AND I WANTED IT TO BE HER AND I THINK THE PAINFUL TRUTH WAS THAT 1168 01:15:38,226 --> 01:15:43,831 I WASN'T LIVING UP TO WHAT SHE SAID THAT SHE NEEDED, YOU KNOW, 1169 01:15:43,831 --> 01:15:46,968 SHE, YOU KNOW, BEFORE EACH ROSE CEREMONY SHE WOULD KIND OF 1170 01:15:46,968 --> 01:15:51,572 REMIND ALL OF US WHAT IT IS THAT SHE'S LOOKING FOR AND, YOU KNOW, 1171 01:15:51,572 --> 01:15:56,043 AS MUCH AS I CARED ABOUT HER, 1172 01:15:56,043 --> 01:16:05,119 YOU KNOW, I THINK IT'S -- 1173 01:16:05,119 --> 01:16:09,857 IT'S TOUGH TO LET SOMEONE GO LIKE THAT, YOU KNOW. 1174 01:16:09,857 --> 01:16:13,661 IT WAS -- SHE'S ONE OF THE BEST WOMEN I EVER MET IN MY LIFE AND 1175 01:16:13,661 --> 01:16:16,964 I THINK THAT SELFISH PART OF ME WANTED TO HOLD ON TO THAT FOR 1176 01:16:16,964 --> 01:16:21,669 BETTER OR WORSE AND IT WAS, YOU KNOW, THE DIFFICULT TRUTH THERE 1177 01:16:21,669 --> 01:16:23,571 WAS THAT I NEEDED TO GET OUT OF HER WAY. 1178 01:16:23,571 --> 01:16:25,439 >> WELL, YOU KNOW JENN IS HERE TONIGHT. 1179 01:16:25,439 --> 01:16:25,706 >> RIGHT. 1180 01:16:25,706 --> 01:16:28,075 >> WHEN WE COME BACK JENN AND MARCUS WILL TALK FOR THE FIRST 1181 01:16:28,075 --> 01:16:32,079 TIME SINCE THEY BROKE UP IN HAWAII. DECENT GO ANYWHERE. 1182 01:16:50,865 --> 01:16:54,735 [ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ] 1183 01:16:54,735 --> 01:16:58,439 >>> WELCOME BACK TO THE LIVE "BACHELORETTE" FINALE. 1184 01:16:58,439 --> 01:17:02,877 I'M HERE WITH MARCUS WHO HASN'T SEEN JENN SINCE THE DAY SHE SENT 1185 01:17:02,877 --> 01:17:05,579 HIM HOME FROM HAWAII. ARE YOU READY TO SIGH HER? 1186 01:17:05,579 --> 01:17:07,048 >> I'M READY. LET'S DO IT. 1187 01:17:07,048 --> 01:17:10,151 >> LADIES AND GENTLEMEN, WITHOUT FURTHER ADO, PLEASE WELCOME YOUR 1188 01:17:10,151 --> 01:17:10,685 BACHELORETTE, JENN. 1189 01:17:10,685 --> 01:17:28,969 [ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ] 1190 01:17:28,969 --> 01:17:33,975 >> YOU LOOK AMAZING. 1191 01:17:33,975 --> 01:17:37,211 >> G HAVE A SEAT. WELL, JENN, IT'S SO GREAT SEEING 1192 01:17:37,211 --> 01:17:37,411 YOU. 1193 01:17:37,411 --> 01:17:38,346 >> IT'S GREAT TO SEE YOU TOO. 1194 01:17:38,346 --> 01:17:42,416 >> AND I KNOW THE TWO OF YOU HAVE NOT SPOKEN OR SEEN EACH 1195 01:17:42,416 --> 01:17:44,819 OTHER FOR QUITE SOME TIME. WHAT WOULD YOU LIKE TO SAY TO 1196 01:17:44,819 --> 01:17:45,052 MARCUS? 1197 01:17:45,052 --> 01:17:50,925 >> YEAH, I MEAN, IT'S BEEN SO LONG AND I HOPE YOU'RE DOING SO 1198 01:17:50,925 --> 01:17:52,193 WELL. OUR RELATIONSHIP MEANT SO MUCH 1199 01:17:52,193 --> 01:17:56,130 TO ME, AND I THINK AT THE END OF THE DAY, LIKE, I WAS SO HAPPY TO 1200 01:17:56,130 --> 01:17:59,600 BE ABLE TO GO ON THIS JOURNEY WITH YOU AND HAVE YOU BE A PART 1201 01:17:59,600 --> 01:18:02,870 OF THAT BECAUSE YOU ARE SUCH A SPECIAL PERSON AND I CARE SO 1202 01:18:02,870 --> 01:18:04,538 DEEPLY FOR YOU. 1203 01:18:04,538 --> 01:18:10,044 >> YEAH, THANK YOU. I THINK I FEEL VERY SIMILARLY, 1204 01:18:10,044 --> 01:18:14,515 YOU KNOW, I WENT HOME AFTER HAWAII AND I THINK THE MAIN 1205 01:18:14,515 --> 01:18:17,818 THING THAT WAS ON MY HEART AND MY MIND WAS WONDERING HOW YOU 1206 01:18:17,818 --> 01:18:23,657 WERE DOING AND IF YOU WERE OKAY AND, YEAH, I STILL CARE FOR YOU 1207 01:18:23,657 --> 01:18:27,528 DEEPLY AND IT'S BEEN AN HONOR AND A PRIVILEGE TO HAVE BEEN, 1208 01:18:27,528 --> 01:18:32,700 YOU KNOW, SEEN BY YOU AND TO SEE YOU AND TO BE A PART OF THIS 1209 01:18:32,700 --> 01:18:36,270 JOURNEY AND, YEAH, LIKE, I WOULD NOT -- I WOULDN'T HAVE CHANGED A 1210 01:18:36,270 --> 01:18:37,972 THING AND WOULDN'T TRADE IT FOR THE WORLD. 1211 01:18:37,972 --> 01:18:38,639 YEAH, THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING. 1212 01:18:38,639 --> 01:18:43,744 >> YEAH. LIKEWISE. I MEAN, I APPRECIATE SO MUCH HOW 1213 01:18:43,744 --> 01:18:47,348 VULNERABLE YOU WERE WITH ME AS MUCH AS YOU COULD BE AND I FEEL 1214 01:18:47,348 --> 01:18:50,918 LIKE WE BOTH LEARNED SO MUCH WITH EACH OTHER, YOU KNOW, LIKE 1215 01:18:50,918 --> 01:18:54,388 WE WERE BOTH GOING THROUGH OUR OWN OBSTACLES BUT WE'RE KIND OF 1216 01:18:54,388 --> 01:18:56,857 ALSO ABLE TO LEAN ON EACH OTHER IN THE SAME WAY. 1217 01:18:56,857 --> 01:19:01,429 >> JENN, WHEN DID YOU KNOW THAT IT WAS OVER WITH MARCUS? 1218 01:19:01,429 --> 01:19:05,566 >> YEAH, I THINK -- I THINK THERE WAS ALWAYS SOMETHING DEEP 1219 01:19:05,566 --> 01:19:11,872 DOWN THAT I KNEW WAS NOT RIGHT, BUT I THINK I WAS CONFUSED 1220 01:19:11,872 --> 01:19:15,810 BECAUSE I CARED SO MUCH ABOUT YOU THAT I JUST NEEDED TO KIND 1221 01:19:15,810 --> 01:19:20,147 OF WORK THROUGH ALL THE FEELINGS AS THEY WERE COMING, BUT I MEAN 1222 01:19:20,147 --> 01:19:25,219 I THINK MAYBE LIKE A MOMENT FOR ME WAS HONESTLY WHEN DEVIN CAME 1223 01:19:25,219 --> 01:19:29,390 AND KNOCKED ON MY DOOR AND I FELT LIKE I WAS LOSING HIM AND I 1224 01:19:29,390 --> 01:19:32,359 WAS SCARED OF THAT. I HAD REALIZED THAT THE FEELING 1225 01:19:32,359 --> 01:19:36,597 THAT I HAD HAD WITH DEVIN WAS DIFFERENT THAN OUR RELATIONSHIP 1226 01:19:36,597 --> 01:19:40,000 AND IT WAS A FEELING THAT I WANTED TO RUN TOWARDS RATHER 1227 01:19:40,000 --> 01:19:44,105 THAN AWAY FROM, AND SO IT WAS THOSE MOMENTS THAT KIND OF MADE 1228 01:19:44,105 --> 01:19:47,374 ME COME TO REALIZE THAT, LIKE, MY HEART WAS JUST IN A DIFFERENT 1229 01:19:47,374 --> 01:19:52,313 PLACE ALL ALONG, BUT, YEAH, I MEAN, EVEN AFTER FANTASY SUITES, 1230 01:19:52,313 --> 01:19:55,916 I THINK WE JUST WEREN'T REALLY ALIGNED ON CERTAIN THINGS AND 1231 01:19:55,916 --> 01:20:00,254 THEN SLOWLY THE PIECES CAME TOGETHER FOR ME, AND IT WAS, YOU 1232 01:20:00,254 --> 01:20:04,792 KNOW, WHEN I WENT TO KNOCK ON YOUR DOOR FOR THAT LAST CHANCE 1233 01:20:04,792 --> 01:20:07,928 DATE I KIND OF ALREADY KNEW WHERE MY HEART WAS GOING BUT I 1234 01:20:07,928 --> 01:20:11,799 OUT OF RESPECT FOR YOU AND OUR RELATIONSHIP STILL NEEDED THAT 1235 01:20:11,799 --> 01:20:14,869 CONVERSATION TO HAVE THAT CLOSURE FOR US, BECAUSE WE DID 1236 01:20:14,869 --> 01:20:18,305 MEAN SO MUCH TO EACH OTHER, YEAH. 1237 01:20:18,305 --> 01:20:23,244 >> YEAH, I MEAN, I THINK, YOU KNOW, I THINK EVERYTHING 1238 01:20:23,244 --> 01:20:26,881 HAPPENED THE WAY THAT IT WAS SUPPOSED TO AND, YOU KNOW, I WAS 1239 01:20:26,881 --> 01:20:31,452 OBVIOUSLY NOT EXPECTING YOU TO COME SWING BY AND TO HAVE THAT 1240 01:20:31,452 --> 01:20:36,957 CONVERSATION WHEN WE HAD IT AND I THINK WHAT MADE THAT DIFFICULT 1241 01:20:36,957 --> 01:20:42,296 FOR ME WAS, YOU KNOW, I HAD BEEN -- I GUESS IN MY OWN WAY 1242 01:20:42,296 --> 01:20:46,867 FIGHTING TO GET THERE FOR YOU AND I THINK THAT WAS THE FIRST 1243 01:20:46,867 --> 01:20:50,905 TIME THAT -- YEAH, IT WAS DIFFICULT FOR ME BECAUSE I 1244 01:20:50,905 --> 01:20:54,141 REALIZED THAT, YOU KNOW, LIKE I LOVED YOU ENOUGH TO GET OUT OF 1245 01:20:54,141 --> 01:20:57,678 YOUR WAY AND, YOU KNOW, I THINK IT'S JUST INSTINCT WALL FOR ME 1246 01:20:57,678 --> 01:21:02,082 TO FIGHT FOR THE PEOPLE THAT I CARE ABOUT AND, YEAH, IT WAS 1247 01:21:02,082 --> 01:21:05,386 HARD TO SIT THERE IN FRONT OF YOU AND KIND OF LIKE LET 1248 01:21:05,386 --> 01:21:10,090 EVERYTHING FALL APART. THAT WAS SO AGAINST ANYTHING I 1249 01:21:10,090 --> 01:21:14,395 HAD EVER DONE BEFORE AND, BUT I DO THINK THAT THAT WAS THE 1250 01:21:14,395 --> 01:21:16,363 APPROPRIATE THING TO DO. I THINK THAT WAS THE CORRECT 1251 01:21:16,363 --> 01:21:21,969 THING TO DO, BECAUSE, YOU KNOW, I FEEL LIKE WE KIND OF REALIZED 1252 01:21:21,969 --> 01:21:27,141 AT THE SAME TIME THAT, YOU KNOW, LIKE I JUST WASN'T GIVING YOU 1253 01:21:27,141 --> 01:21:31,245 WHAT YOU SAID THAT YOU NEEDED AND, YOU KNOW, I THINK I WAS 1254 01:21:31,245 --> 01:21:37,084 LYING TO MYSELF A LITTLE BIT THERE AND, BUT I'M HAPPY THAT WE 1255 01:21:37,084 --> 01:21:41,021 KIND OF CAME TOGETHER AND REALIZED WHAT NEEDED TO HAPPEN 1256 01:21:41,021 --> 01:21:44,992 AND, YEAH, I'M SUPER PROUD OF YOU FOR CHOOSING TO DO SO AND 1257 01:21:44,992 --> 01:21:47,695 I'M HAPPY THAT I GOT TO BE A PART OF THAT IN A SMALL WAY 1258 01:21:47,695 --> 01:21:50,998 BECAUSE YOU REALLY DID END UP CHOOSING YOURSELF AND YOUR OWN 1259 01:21:50,998 --> 01:21:54,034 HAPPINESS AND YOUR OWN NEEDS AND IT DIDN'T MATTER WHAT I WANTED 1260 01:21:54,034 --> 01:21:57,972 OR YOU WANTED AT THE END OF THE DAY, I THINK, YOU KNOW, YOU 1261 01:21:57,972 --> 01:22:00,441 MOVED TOWARDS WHAT YOU NEEDED AND THAT WAS A BEAUTIFUL THING. 1262 01:22:00,441 --> 01:22:02,910 >> SORRY TO INTERRUPT. THE THING I'VE ALWAYS ASKED 1263 01:22:02,910 --> 01:22:06,413 MYSELF ABOUT THE TWO OF YOU, JENN, IS IF MARCUS HAD TOLD YOU 1264 01:22:06,413 --> 01:22:13,253 HE LOVED YOU SOONER, WOULD THINGS HAVE ENDED DIFFERENTLY? 1265 01:22:13,253 --> 01:22:18,892 >> YEAH, UNFORTUNATELY, I KNOW THAT IT WOULDN'T HAVE ENDED 1266 01:22:18,892 --> 01:22:23,797 DIFFERENTLY JUST BECAUSE IT JUST WASN'T THE RIGHT RELATIONSHIP, 1267 01:22:23,797 --> 01:22:27,601 AND I THINK WITH US, WE WERE LEANING ON EACH OTHER AND WE 1268 01:22:27,601 --> 01:22:31,005 WERE JUST SO SIMILAR IN A LOT OF WAYS AND FIGHTING OUR OWN 1269 01:22:31,005 --> 01:22:33,273 OBSTACLES THAT IT FELT SO COMFORTABLE AND SO SAFE AND I 1270 01:22:33,273 --> 01:22:37,244 WAS SO HAPPY THAT WE WERE BOTH ABLE TO DO THAT, BUT AT THE END 1271 01:22:37,244 --> 01:22:42,116 OF THE DAY I THINK MY HEART WAS JUST IN A DIFFERENT PLACE AND 1272 01:22:42,116 --> 01:22:45,252 WANTED SOMETHING DIFFERENT, BUT, YOU KNOW, IT IS CONFUSING TO 1273 01:22:45,252 --> 01:22:48,355 KIND OF JUST NAVIGATE IT ALL, YOU KNOW, LIKE FEELINGS OF 1274 01:22:48,355 --> 01:22:52,059 CARING FOR SOMEBODY VERSUS LIKE ARE YOU IN LOVE WITH THEM AND DO 1275 01:22:52,059 --> 01:22:54,161 YOU WANT TO SPEND THE REST OF YOUR LIFE WITH THEM AND I THINK 1276 01:22:54,161 --> 01:22:56,363 IT TOOK ME A LITTLE BIT TO FIGURE OUT THE DIFFERENCE 1277 01:22:56,363 --> 01:22:59,533 BETWEEN THE TWO, BUT, YEAH, I DON'T THINK THAT IT NECESSARILY 1278 01:22:59,533 --> 01:23:05,606 WOULD HAVE CHANGED ANYTHING, BUT, YOU KNOW, I AM SO, SO 1279 01:23:05,606 --> 01:23:09,476 GRATEFUL FOR OUR RELATIONSHIP AND SO HAPPY THAT WE WERE ABLE 1280 01:23:09,476 --> 01:23:11,712 TO HAVE THAT RELATIONSHIP WITH EACH OTHER, BECAUSE YOU'VE 1281 01:23:11,712 --> 01:23:15,449 LEARNED SO MUCH AND I'VE LEARNED SO MUCH AND WE BOTH STILL HAVE 1282 01:23:15,449 --> 01:23:16,650 THIS DEEP RESPECT FOR EACH OTHER. 1283 01:23:16,650 --> 01:23:19,820 >> I WANT TO THANK YOU BOTH SO MUCH FOR BEING HERE AND SPEAKING 1284 01:23:19,820 --> 01:23:21,455 SO HONESTLY AND OPENLY ABOUT YOUR RELATIONSHIP. 1285 01:23:21,455 --> 01:23:23,957 I REALLY APPRECIATE YOU BOTH. LET'S HEAR IT FOR JENN AND 1286 01:23:23,957 --> 01:23:24,358 MARCUS, EVERYBODY. 1287 01:23:24,358 --> 01:23:26,894 [ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ] 1288 01:23:26,894 --> 01:23:30,030 ALL RIGHT. I TOLD YOU THAT SOMETHING 1289 01:23:30,030 --> 01:23:33,067 HAPPENS TONIGHT THAT HAS NEVER HAPPENED BEFORE ON THIS SHOW. 1290 01:23:33,067 --> 01:23:36,370 WHAT IS IT? YOU'LL FIND OUT WHEN WE RETURN. 1291 01:23:54,288 --> 01:23:58,092 >>> WELCOME BACK TO THE EMOTIONAL FINALE OF "THE 1292 01:23:58,092 --> 01:24:00,427 BACHELORETTE." WE JUST WATCHED AS JENN SENT 1293 01:24:00,427 --> 01:24:04,365 MARCUS HOME IN A HEART-WRENCHING GOOD-BYE WHICH MEANS THERE'S 1294 01:24:04,365 --> 01:24:06,934 ONLY ONE MAN LEFT, DEVIN. THE LAST TIME WE SAW DEVIN, HE 1295 01:24:06,934 --> 01:24:11,572 WAS ALL IN. SO IS HE STILL READY TO GET 1296 01:24:11,572 --> 01:24:14,475 ENGAGED? IS JENN READY TO GET ENGAGED? 1297 01:24:14,475 --> 01:24:18,278 IT'S FINALLY THE MOMENT OF 1298 01:24:18,278 --> 01:24:34,261 TRUTH. 1299 01:24:34,261 --> 01:24:37,197 ♪ 1300 01:24:37,197 --> 01:24:42,403 >>> WAKING UP TODAY, I DON'T KNOW HOW I'M FEELING. 1301 01:24:42,403 --> 01:24:47,741 YESTERDAY I HAD TO SEND MARCUS HOME. 1302 01:24:47,741 --> 01:24:51,445 SAYING GOOD-BYE TO MARCUS REALLY HURT ME, BUT IT WAS WHAT I 1303 01:24:51,445 --> 01:24:55,549 NEEDED TO DO AND ULTIMATELY THE RELATIONSHIP JUST WASN'T RIGHT 1304 01:24:55,549 --> 01:25:00,854 FOR ME. I WASN'T BEING FULFILLED. YOU KNOW, WHEN I STARTED THIS 1305 01:25:00,854 --> 01:25:06,660 JOURNEY, I ONLY HAD ONE GOAL AT THE END OF THIS ALL, AND I HAVE 1306 01:25:06,660 --> 01:25:12,866 ONE MAN LEFT HERE. DEVIN HAS BEEN CHOOSING ME EVERY 1307 01:25:12,866 --> 01:25:18,972 SINGLE DAY SINCE THE BEGINNING, AND I DO LOVE DEVIN, BUT AFTER 1308 01:25:18,972 --> 01:25:23,177 YESTERDAY THERE'S SO MUCH GOING ON IN MY HEAD, IT'S ALL ABOUT 1309 01:25:23,177 --> 01:25:27,815 FIGURING OUT WHAT'S BEST FOR ME SO WHAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN TODAY 1310 01:25:27,815 --> 01:25:30,317 IS I DON'T -- I DON'T KNOW WHAT 1311 01:25:30,317 --> 01:25:42,629 TO DO. 1312 01:25:42,629 --> 01:25:43,797 >> HOW IS IT GOING? 1313 01:25:43,797 --> 01:25:45,532 >> GOING WELL. 1314 01:25:45,532 --> 01:25:46,233 >> DEVIN. 1315 01:25:46,233 --> 01:25:48,368 >> I'M NEIL LANE. 1316 01:25:48,368 --> 01:25:49,169 >> LET'S DO IT. 1317 01:25:49,169 --> 01:25:51,138 >> LET'S DO IT. 1318 01:25:51,138 --> 01:25:53,240 >> I'M EXCITED BECAUSE PROPOSAL IS ON THE LINE. 1319 01:25:53,240 --> 01:25:56,176 ENGAGEMENT IS ON THE LINE AND JENN IS THE GIRL I WANT TO SPEND 1320 01:25:56,176 --> 01:25:57,778 THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH. 1321 01:25:57,778 --> 01:25:59,079 >> A CUSHION CUT. 1322 01:25:59,079 --> 01:26:02,282 >> OH, WOW, LOOKING AT THESE RINGS IS THE CULMINATION OF 1323 01:26:02,282 --> 01:26:06,286 EVERYTHING I FEEL WITH JENN. I'VE NEVER BEEN SO EXCITED. 1324 01:26:06,286 --> 01:26:10,157 IT'S A GOOD FEELING HAVING THESE AND KNOWING WHAT COULD BECOME OF 1325 01:26:10,157 --> 01:26:12,893 THIS. LOOKING AT THE RING MAKES THESE 1326 01:26:12,893 --> 01:26:14,495 FEELINGS ALL THE MORE REAL FOR ME. 1327 01:26:14,495 --> 01:26:16,730 I'M SWEATING A LITTLE MORE THAN NORMAL. 1328 01:26:16,730 --> 01:26:19,233 BUT I KNOW JENN IS EVERYTHING I'VE BEEN LOOKING FOR IN A 1329 01:26:19,233 --> 01:26:23,670 RELATIONSHIP AND A PARTNER. OH, WOW. OH, WOW. 1330 01:26:23,670 --> 01:26:26,640 >> THAT'S AN OVAL CUT DIAMOND IN GOLD. 1331 01:26:26,640 --> 01:26:27,708 >> SHE DOES LOVE THE GOLD. 1332 01:26:27,708 --> 01:26:29,910 >> THE DETAIL IS ON THE BOTTOM. 1333 01:26:29,910 --> 01:26:31,478 >> THE INDICTMENT IS AT THE BOTTOM. 1334 01:26:31,478 --> 01:26:32,646 >> BECAUSE THAT'S YOUR LOVE. 1335 01:26:32,646 --> 01:26:37,084 >> YOU KNOW, AS SHINY AS IT IS AT THE TOP WITH JENN IT'S ALWAYS 1336 01:26:37,084 --> 01:26:39,353 BEEN OUR FOUNDATION THAT HAS CARRIED US. 1337 01:26:39,353 --> 01:26:43,357 TAKES A LOT OF HARD WORK TO BUILD A SOLID FOUNDATION, AND 1338 01:26:43,357 --> 01:26:46,260 JENN AND I HAVE DONE THAT AND I'M PROUD OF WHAT WE'VE BUILT 1339 01:26:46,260 --> 01:26:49,162 HERE AND PROUD OF WHAT WE'VE DONE NOT JUST AS INDIVIDUALS BUT 1340 01:26:49,162 --> 01:26:50,097 AS A COUPLE. 1341 01:26:50,097 --> 01:26:50,464 >> WOW. 1342 01:26:50,464 --> 01:26:55,402 >> I FEEL CONFIDENT IN US. DEVIN AND JENN. 1343 01:26:55,402 --> 01:26:56,770 HAS A NICE RING TO IT. 1344 01:26:56,770 --> 01:26:58,038 >> QUITE LITERALLY. 1345 01:26:58,038 --> 01:27:00,807 >> I SEE A LOT OF JOY IN YOUR FACE WHEN YOU'RE HOLDING THIS. 1346 01:27:00,807 --> 01:27:04,144 >> I LOVE THIS ONE. I THINK THIS IS THE ONE, NEIL. 1347 01:27:04,144 --> 01:27:06,747 THIS IS THE ONE. WITH THIS RING I'M GOING INTO 1348 01:27:06,747 --> 01:27:10,617 THIS PROPOSAL OBVIOUSLY NERVOUS, BUT I CAN'T WAIT TO GET DOWN ON 1349 01:27:10,617 --> 01:27:16,790 A KNEE FOR HER AND I HOPE JENN FEELS THE SAME WAY AS I DO. 1350 01:27:16,790 --> 01:27:18,825 SEE HOW IT GOES. 1351 01:27:18,825 --> 01:27:22,029 >> IT'S BEEN A WILD RIDE. HOW ARE YOU FEELING? 1352 01:27:22,029 --> 01:27:24,898 >> I REALLY NEED TO FOLLOW MY HEART TODAY. 1353 01:27:24,898 --> 01:27:25,632 >> HOW SO? 1354 01:27:25,632 --> 01:27:28,001 >> YOU KNOW, YESTERDAY WITH MARCUS WAS A BIG MOMENT FOR ME 1355 01:27:28,001 --> 01:27:32,239 TO CLOSE THE DOOR ON MY PAST BY NOT LETTING SOMEBODY ELSE'S 1356 01:27:32,239 --> 01:27:34,575 EMOTIONS DICTATE ME AND MY LIFE. 1357 01:27:34,575 --> 01:27:37,644 >> YEAH, LOOKING BACK ON IT YOU FEELING GOOD ABOUT THAT DECISION? 1358 01:27:37,644 --> 01:27:40,547 >> YEAH, I FEEL 100% ABOUT THAT, FOR SURE. 1359 01:27:40,547 --> 01:27:44,017 I'VE ALWAYS IN THE PAST HAVE LET THE GUYS DICTATE THE TERMS OF 1360 01:27:44,017 --> 01:27:47,955 THE RELATIONSHIP AND DICTATE MY EMOTIONS AND MY FEELINGS AND MY 1361 01:27:47,955 --> 01:27:52,526 CHOICES AND I'M DONE DOING THAT, SO GOING INTO TODAY, I THOUGHT I 1362 01:27:52,526 --> 01:27:56,630 KNEW WHICH WAY I WANTED IT TO GO AND I WOKE UP THIS MORNING WITH 1363 01:27:56,630 --> 01:27:59,866 A TOTALLY DIFFERENT POINT OF VIEW ON IT. 1364 01:27:59,866 --> 01:28:02,636 >> WHAT WERE YOU THINKING WHEN YOU WOKE UP THIS MORNING? 1365 01:28:02,636 --> 01:28:05,772 >> YOU KNOW, I THOUGHT WHAT WAS GOING TO MAKE ME HAPPIEST? 1366 01:28:05,772 --> 01:28:08,408 WHAT WAS GOING TO BRING OUT THE BEST VERSION OF ME? 1367 01:28:08,408 --> 01:28:12,245 WHAT WAS GOING TO BRING ME EVERYTHING THAT I'VE BEEN 1368 01:28:12,245 --> 01:28:18,085 WANTING MY WHOLE LIFE, AND IN ORDER TO DO THAT AND FULFILL 1369 01:28:18,085 --> 01:28:20,454 MYSELF I HAD TO CHOOSE MYSELF. 1370 01:28:20,454 --> 01:28:22,889 >> WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DO? 1371 01:28:22,889 --> 01:28:28,495 >> I'M NOT GOING TO LET DEVIN PROPOSE TO ME TODAY. 1372 01:28:28,495 --> 01:28:29,730 I'M GOING TO PROPOSE TO DEVIN. 1373 01:28:29,730 --> 01:28:32,966 [ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ] 1374 01:28:32,966 --> 01:28:35,102 >> SO WHAT MADE YOU COME TO THIS DECISION? 1375 01:28:35,102 --> 01:28:38,639 >> I JUST WANT TO MAKE A BIG GESTURE SO THAT HE CAN REALLY 1376 01:28:38,639 --> 01:28:41,408 KNOW WHERE MY LOVE IS. I WANT HIM TO KNOW THAT I'M 1377 01:28:41,408 --> 01:28:43,643 GOING TO FIGHT FOR HIM EVERY DAY AND I'M GOING TO CHOOSE HIM 1378 01:28:43,643 --> 01:28:46,146 EVERY DAY. 1379 01:28:46,146 --> 01:28:48,181 >> HE'S NEVER GOING TO SEE THIS COMING. 1380 01:28:48,181 --> 01:28:50,651 THIS IS GOING TO TOTALLY THROW HIM FOR A LOOP. 1381 01:28:50,651 --> 01:28:55,355 >> HE WILL BE CAUGHT OFF GUARD. I HAD NO IDEA THIS WAS WHAT I 1382 01:28:55,355 --> 01:28:56,156 WAS GOING TO DO. 1383 01:28:56,156 --> 01:28:57,290 >> ARE YOU OKAY WITH WHATEVER IS 1384 01:28:57,290 --> 01:29:10,237 GOING TO HAPPEN HERE? 1385 01:29:10,237 --> 01:29:15,742 [ APPLAUSE ] 1386 01:29:15,742 --> 01:29:20,280 >> OKAY. I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT YOU'RE 1387 01:29:20,280 --> 01:29:22,749 THINKING RIGHT NOW. WHY IS JESSE INTERRUPTING THIS 1388 01:29:22,749 --> 01:29:24,384 BEAUTIFUL MOMENT? 1389 01:29:24,384 --> 01:29:24,685 [ LAUGHTER ] 1390 01:29:24,685 --> 01:29:28,221 BECAUSE HONESTLY THIS IS NORMALLY WHEN YOU'D WATCH A 1391 01:29:28,221 --> 01:29:30,424 ROMANTIC PROPOSAL. TWO PEOPLE VERY MUCH IN LOVE 1392 01:29:30,424 --> 01:29:34,161 COMMITTING THEMSELVES TO EACH OTHER, AND INSTEAD HERE I AM. 1393 01:29:34,161 --> 01:29:38,231 [ LAUGHTER ] 1394 01:29:38,231 --> 01:29:44,471 WELL, THAT'S BECAUSE YOU WON'T BE SEEING THAT PROPOSAL. 1395 01:29:44,471 --> 01:29:48,075 THAT'S RIGHT. BECAUSE OF WHAT TRANSPIRED SINCE 1396 01:29:48,075 --> 01:29:50,777 THAT DAY IN HAWAII WE'VE DECIDED IT WOULDN'T BE APPROPRIATE FOR 1397 01:29:50,777 --> 01:29:56,950 ANYONE TO SEE IT UNTIL WE HEARD FROM JENN, SO WHAT DID HAPPEN? 1398 01:29:56,950 --> 01:30:00,487 YOU'RE GOING TO FIND OUT WHEN WE RETURN. 1399 01:30:21,775 --> 01:30:26,747 >>> WELCOME BACK TO A REALLY TOUGH "BACHELORETTE" FINALE AND 1400 01:30:26,747 --> 01:30:29,916 AS YOU CAN SEE JENN HAS JOINED ME AGAIN AND WAS REALLY 1401 01:30:29,916 --> 01:30:31,685 EMOTIONAL BACKSTAGE. OF COURSE, WE DIDN'T SHOW YOU 1402 01:30:31,685 --> 01:30:34,921 THE BEAUTIFUL PROPOSAL BETWEEN DEVIN AND JENN AND IT REALLY WAS 1403 01:30:34,921 --> 01:30:38,158 BEAUTIFUL, I MUST SAY, BECAUSE WE WANTED TO YOU HEAR JENN 1404 01:30:38,158 --> 01:30:56,243 FIRST. 1405 01:30:56,243 --> 01:31:02,182 JENN, I'M SO SORRY. I DON'T REALLY EVEN KNOW HOW TO 1406 01:31:02,182 --> 01:31:06,286 GET INTO THIS. 1407 01:31:06,286 --> 01:31:09,689 >> I'M SORRY. IT'S BEEN A REALLY HARD COUPLE 1408 01:31:09,689 --> 01:31:17,831 OF MONTHS. 1409 01:31:17,831 --> 01:31:21,168 WE HAD LEFT HAWAII ENGAGED LIKE VERY HAPPY. 1410 01:31:21,168 --> 01:31:23,336 IT WAS THE HAPPIEST DAY OF MY LIFE. 1411 01:31:23,336 --> 01:31:28,542 I HAD THOUGHT THAT I HAD FOUND THE PERSON I WANTED TO SPEND THE 1412 01:31:28,542 --> 01:31:47,194 REST OF MY LIFE WITH. 1413 01:31:47,194 --> 01:31:51,865 AND THEN I MEAN ESSENTIALLY LIKE AS SOON AS WE HAD LEFT HAWAII, 1414 01:31:51,865 --> 01:31:59,005 THINGS WERE JUST DIFFERENT. IT KIND OF JUST FELT LIKE HE WAS 1415 01:31:59,005 --> 01:32:03,677 PULLING AWAY, ALL THE PROMISES THAT HE HAD MADE TO ME OF, LIKE, 1416 01:32:03,677 --> 01:32:07,414 WANTING TO MOVE SOMEWHERE TOGETHER AND WANTING TO HAVE 1417 01:32:07,414 --> 01:32:10,650 THIS FUTURE PLANNED OUT AND WANTING TO SEE EACH OTHER ALL 1418 01:32:10,650 --> 01:32:14,721 THE TIME AND IT JUST SLOWLY HE WAS PULLING AWAY AND THE EFFORTS 1419 01:32:14,721 --> 01:32:18,325 WERE JUST INCONSISTENT AND HE WASN'T CALLING AS MUCH, TEXTING 1420 01:32:18,325 --> 01:32:25,098 AS MUCH AND IT JUST -- I FELT LIKE HE -- I JUST -- I DIDN'T -- 1421 01:32:25,098 --> 01:32:27,267 I WAS CONFUSED. I DIDN'T UNDERSTAND IT BECAUSE 1422 01:32:27,267 --> 01:32:31,838 WE HAD JUST LEFT SO HAPPY, SO I PROMISED MY LIFE TO SOMEBODY 1423 01:32:31,838 --> 01:32:35,742 THAT I THOUGHT WAS GOING TO PUT EVERY EFFORT INTO THE 1424 01:32:35,742 --> 01:32:37,143 RELATIONSHIP AND I JUST DIDN'T FEEL THAT. 1425 01:32:37,143 --> 01:32:42,315 I FELT LIKE I WAS SECONDARY TO EVERYTHING IN HIS LIFE. 1426 01:32:42,315 --> 01:32:45,318 HE WASN'T INTRODUCING ME TO HIS FAMILY ANYMORE. 1427 01:32:45,318 --> 01:32:49,556 LIKE IT WAS JUST LIKE EVERY LITTLE THING MADE ME FEEL 1428 01:32:49,556 --> 01:32:56,296 SECONDARY TO HIS LIFE AND I DIDN'T UNDERSTAND WHY. 1429 01:32:56,296 --> 01:33:02,602 AND WE HAD A HAPPY COUPLE PLANNED SOMETIME LIKE LAST MONTH 1430 01:33:02,602 --> 01:33:06,139 EARLY AND THE NIGHT BEFORE I HAD GOTTEN A PHONE CALL AND HE 1431 01:33:06,139 --> 01:33:10,176 CALLED ME AND BASICALLY BROKE 1432 01:33:10,176 --> 01:33:18,184 OFF THE ENGAGEMENT. 1433 01:33:18,184 --> 01:33:32,098 AND -- 1434 01:33:32,098 --> 01:33:32,732 >> HERE YOU GO. 1435 01:33:32,732 --> 01:33:37,237 >> THANK YOU. HE HAD BASICALLY SAID THAT HE 1436 01:33:37,237 --> 01:33:40,807 DIDN'T LOVE ME ANYMORE AND DIDN'T FEEL THE SAME WAY AND 1437 01:33:40,807 --> 01:33:43,977 FELT LIKE SOMETHING HAD BEEN OFF SINCE THE SECOND THAT HE 1438 01:33:43,977 --> 01:33:50,984 PROPOSED, HE REGRETTED GETTING ENGAGED, AND I DIDN'T KNOW AND I 1439 01:33:50,984 --> 01:33:54,054 KNEW ALL ALONG IT WAS JUST, LIKE, DIFFERENT, BUT I JUST 1440 01:33:54,054 --> 01:33:58,892 DIDN'T KNOW, AND FOR THE PAST MONTH I'VE BEEN TRYING TO 1441 01:33:58,892 --> 01:34:03,530 EMPATHIZE WITH THE WAY THAT HE HAD BEEN FEELING TRYING TO WRAP 1442 01:34:03,530 --> 01:34:06,533 MY HEAD AROUND WHY HE COULD -- HOW HE COULD SWITCH UP LIKE 1443 01:34:06,533 --> 01:34:11,304 THAT, LIKE, YOU KNOW, HE WAS MAKING BOLD PROCLAMATIONS OF 1444 01:34:11,304 --> 01:34:14,140 LOVE AND JUST BASICALLY TELLING ME THAT HE WOULD DO ANYTHING, 1445 01:34:14,140 --> 01:34:17,310 THAT HE COULDN'T LIVE WITHOUT ME AND SUDDENLY THE NEXT DAY IT WAS 1446 01:34:17,310 --> 01:34:21,214 LIKE NOTHING AND THAT HE DENIED EVER BEING IN LOVE AND I JUST -- 1447 01:34:21,214 --> 01:34:23,516 I DON'T KNOW. I WAS TRYING TO SYMPATHIZE. 1448 01:34:23,516 --> 01:34:25,819 OKAY, MAYBE IT'S THE PRESSURE OF THE ENGAGEMENT. 1449 01:34:25,819 --> 01:34:29,089 I KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO BE ON THE SHOW AND THEN GET OFF. 1450 01:34:29,089 --> 01:34:31,891 LIKE IT'S A LOT. IT'S DIFFERENT. IT'S NOT REAL LIFE. 1451 01:34:31,891 --> 01:34:35,095 IT WASN'T -- LIKE, IT WAS BUT WHEN YOU'RE COMING OFF A SHOW, 1452 01:34:35,095 --> 01:34:39,132 IT'S HARD, SO I WAS, LIKE, OKAY, LET'S TAKE THE PRESSURE OFF THE 1453 01:34:39,132 --> 01:34:41,634 ENGAGEMENT. WE CAN JUST DATE. WE CAN JUST BE TOGETHER. 1454 01:34:41,634 --> 01:34:44,738 WE DON'T HAVE TO BE ENGAGED. LIKE I WANT A LIFE WITH YOU, I 1455 01:34:44,738 --> 01:34:52,679 DON'T NEED A RING ON MY FINGER, AND IT WAS JUST -- HE -- HE WAS 1456 01:34:52,679 --> 01:34:54,981 CHECKED OUT. IT WASN'T WHAT HE WANTED ANYMORE 1457 01:34:54,981 --> 01:34:58,251 AND I'VE BEEN FIGHTING FOR THE RELATIONSHIP, TRYING TO DO 1458 01:34:58,251 --> 01:35:04,290 EVERYTHING I CAN TO -- I DON'T KNOW -- JUST EMPATHIZE WITH HIM 1459 01:35:04,290 --> 01:35:07,093 AND TRY TO MAKE THINGS WORK ESSENTIALLY AND DIDN'T WANT TO 1460 01:35:07,093 --> 01:35:10,697 GO TO COUPLES COUNSELING. HE DIDN'T WANT TO FIGHT FOR THE 1461 01:35:10,697 --> 01:35:13,433 RELATIONSHIP ANYMORE. HE WAS JUST DONE. 1462 01:35:13,433 --> 01:35:16,269 >> I'M SO SAD TO HEAR YOU SAY THAT, JENN. 1463 01:35:16,269 --> 01:35:20,240 IF I'M BEING HONEST I'M ALSO SHOCKED BECAUSE DEVIN ALWAYS 1464 01:35:20,240 --> 01:35:24,844 SPOKE SO PASSIONATELY ABOUT HOW MUCH HE LOVED YOU AND HE SAID HE 1465 01:35:24,844 --> 01:35:27,914 WOULD NEVER ABANDON YOU. HE SAID YOU WERE THE MOST 1466 01:35:27,914 --> 01:35:31,384 IMPORTANT THING IN HIS LIFE SO DO YOU FEEL LIKE HE HELD HIMSELF 1467 01:35:31,384 --> 01:35:32,786 TO ALL THAT? 1468 01:35:32,786 --> 01:35:38,158 >> I DON'T KNOW. WHEN HE HAD SAID HE FELT 1469 01:35:38,158 --> 01:35:41,594 PRESSURED TO GET ENGAGED AND THAT HE DIDN'T WANT IT, I ALMOST 1470 01:35:41,594 --> 01:35:44,764 BELIEVED HIM FOR A SECOND AND I TRIED TO EMPATHIZE AND THEN 1471 01:35:44,764 --> 01:35:47,634 WATCHING THIS ALL BACK IT'S LIKE NOBODY FORCED HIM TO SAY THE 1472 01:35:47,634 --> 01:35:51,237 THINGS THAT HE DID, AND HE WAS SITTING HERE TELLING HIS MOM 1473 01:35:51,237 --> 01:35:55,608 THAT I WAS THE ONE AND THAT HE HAD NEVER FELT THIS WAY ABOUT 1474 01:35:55,608 --> 01:35:56,876 ANYBODY BEFORE. 1475 01:35:56,876 --> 01:35:57,811 >> RIGHT. 1476 01:35:57,811 --> 01:36:00,079 >> HE SAT IN FRONT OF MY MOM AND SAID I WAS THE ONE. 1477 01:36:00,079 --> 01:36:00,947 >> YEAH. 1478 01:36:00,947 --> 01:36:07,420 >> AND HE KNEW WHO IT WAS LIKE TO BE ABANDONED AND WANTED TO BE 1479 01:36:07,420 --> 01:36:10,957 THE ONE TO PICK ME AND CHOOSE ME AND FELT HE WAS THE MAN TO DO 1480 01:36:10,957 --> 01:36:11,157 THAT. 1481 01:36:11,157 --> 01:36:11,524 >> RIGHT. 1482 01:36:11,524 --> 01:36:14,527 >> SO I DON'T KNOW UNDERSTAND WHAT HAPPENED. 1483 01:36:14,527 --> 01:36:19,532 I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT CHANGED. I DON'T KNOW -- I DON'T KNOW 1484 01:36:19,532 --> 01:36:21,101 WHAT WAS HAPPENING THROUGH HIS HEAD. 1485 01:36:21,101 --> 01:36:25,105 ALL THESE PROMISES THAT HE HAD MADE TO ME ALL OF THE LOVE THAT 1486 01:36:25,105 --> 01:36:28,041 HE HAD WANTED TO GIVE TO ME WASN'T THERE ANYMORE. 1487 01:36:28,041 --> 01:36:31,311 >> WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU TWO SAW EACH OTHER? 1488 01:36:31,311 --> 01:36:39,219 >> THE LAST TIME WE SAW EACH OTHER WAS OVER A MONTH AGO AT 1489 01:36:39,219 --> 01:36:41,287 OUR LAST HAPPY COUPLE LIKE BACK IN JULY. 1490 01:36:41,287 --> 01:36:44,257 >> ARE YOU READY TO SEE HIM NOW? 1491 01:36:44,257 --> 01:36:49,095 >> I DON'T KNOW. I MEAN, I'VE BEEN TRYING TO SEE 1492 01:36:49,095 --> 01:36:53,266 HIM AND JUST, LIKE, HAVE A CONVERSATION WITH HIM AND, LIKE, 1493 01:36:53,266 --> 01:36:56,736 I THOUGHT WE WERE ON THE SAME PAGE, LIKE, NO MATTER HOW THIS 1494 01:36:56,736 --> 01:37:01,174 ENDS, WE BOTH OWE EACH OTHER A CONVERSATION AND HE HAS JUST 1495 01:37:01,174 --> 01:37:06,045 BEEN AVOIDANT EVER SINCE AND JUST LIKE ALMOST LIKE LEADING ME 1496 01:37:06,045 --> 01:37:10,583 ON HERE AND THERE, YES, WE'RE ON THE SAME PAGE AND LET'S HAVE A 1497 01:37:10,583 --> 01:37:12,318 CONVERSATION AND GHOSTING ME THE NEXT WEEKEND. 1498 01:37:12,318 --> 01:37:15,455 WE WERE FULL BLOWN IN LOVE AND NOW YOU'RE IGNORING MY TEXTS, I 1499 01:37:15,455 --> 01:37:16,155 MEAN FOG TO YOU. 1500 01:37:16,155 --> 01:37:19,092 >> I KNOW THIS MAY BE VERY HARD TO YOU BUT WE ARE GOING TO BRING 1501 01:37:19,092 --> 01:37:21,661 DEVIN OUT. WE'RE GOING TO DO THAT WHEN WE 1502 01:37:21,661 --> 01:37:23,563 COME BACK. 1503 01:37:50,390 --> 01:37:51,824 >>> WELCOME BACK, BACHELOR NATION. 1504 01:37:51,824 --> 01:37:54,427 WELL, TONIGHT HASN'T BEEN THE HAPPY ENDING THAT WE HAD ALL 1505 01:37:54,427 --> 01:37:58,798 HOPED FOR, AND, JENN, I KNOW IT'S BEEN A WHILE SINCE YOU 1506 01:37:58,798 --> 01:38:03,102 SPOKE WITH DEVIN AND YOU'VE SEEN DEVIN. HE'S BACKSTAGE NOW. 1507 01:38:03,102 --> 01:38:08,141 ARE YOU READY TO BRING HIM OUT? OKAY. 1508 01:38:08,141 --> 01:38:14,847 LADIES AND GENTLEMEN, PLEASE WELCOME TO THE STAGE, DEVIN. 1509 01:38:14,847 --> 01:38:23,356 ♪ 1510 01:38:23,356 --> 01:38:27,160 ALL RIGHT, DEVIN, THANKS SO MUCH FOR JOINING US. 1511 01:38:27,160 --> 01:38:30,597 OBVIOUSLY WE DECIDED NOT TO SHOW YOUR ENGAGEMENT, BECAUSE WE FELT 1512 01:38:30,597 --> 01:38:32,131 LIKE IT WAS MORE IMPORTANT THAT THE TWO OF YOU GOT A CHANCE TO 1513 01:38:32,131 --> 01:38:38,705 SPEAK FIRST, AND, JENN, I KNOW THERE'S A LOT THAT YOU'D LIKE TO 1514 01:38:38,705 --> 01:38:40,907 SAY TO DEVIN, SO I'LL OPEN UP 1515 01:38:40,907 --> 01:38:46,846 THE FLOOR TO YOU. 1516 01:38:46,846 --> 01:38:48,982 >> I MEAN, I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHERE TO START. 1517 01:38:48,982 --> 01:38:53,987 I JUST THINK, LIKE, THIS CONVERSATION RIGHT NOW BETWEEN 1518 01:38:53,987 --> 01:38:58,858 THE TWO OF US IS NOT WHAT I HAD 1519 01:38:58,858 --> 01:39:05,665 WANTED AND IS NOT SOMETHING THAT IS GOING TO BE MEANINGFUL TO ME, 1520 01:39:05,665 --> 01:39:09,869 BECAUSE WE HAD TALKED ABOUT THIS, AND WE HAD SAID THAT OUR 1521 01:39:09,869 --> 01:39:13,106 RELATIONSHIP IS OUR RELATIONSHIP, AND NO MATTER 1522 01:39:13,106 --> 01:39:16,943 WHERE YOU FELT, NO MATTER HOW I FELT, WE HAD BOTH WANTED A 1523 01:39:16,943 --> 01:39:18,211 CONVERSATION OFF CAMERA, BECAUSE THAT'S THE RESPECT THAT WE OWE 1524 01:39:18,211 --> 01:39:28,321 EACH OTHER. 1525 01:39:28,321 --> 01:39:29,555 I CAN UNDERSTAND -- I CAN TRY TO UNDERSTAND SOMEBODY CHANGING 1526 01:39:29,555 --> 01:39:36,195 THEIR MIND ABOUT THE WAY THEY FEEL ABOUT SOMEBODY. 1527 01:39:36,195 --> 01:39:37,997 I CAN TRY TO UNDERSTAND THAT, AS HEARTBROKEN AS I WAS. 1528 01:39:37,997 --> 01:39:42,502 WHAT I CAN'T UNDERSTAND IS EVERYTHING THAT YOU DID AFTER WE 1529 01:39:42,502 --> 01:39:45,672 HAD BROKEN OUR ENGAGEMENT. ENDING THE ENGAGEMENT ON A PHONE 1530 01:39:45,672 --> 01:39:50,843 CALL. 1531 01:39:50,843 --> 01:39:56,115 THE NEXT DAY I WAKE UP TO YOU FOLLOWING GIRLS ON INSTAGRAM, 1532 01:39:56,115 --> 01:39:57,216 AND NOT JUST ANY GIRL, BUT MARIA. 1533 01:39:57,216 --> 01:39:59,519 [ AUDIENCE REACTS ] 1534 01:39:59,519 --> 01:40:05,358 NOT ONLY IS THAT SO DISRESPECTFUL TO EVERYTHING THAT 1535 01:40:05,358 --> 01:40:11,097 WE HAD SHARED TOGETHER, I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND IT, WHY YOU 1536 01:40:11,097 --> 01:40:16,335 WOULD DO SOMETHING LIKE THAT. BECAUSE IT COMPLETELY 1537 01:40:16,335 --> 01:40:20,606 INVALIDATED OUR ENTIRE RELATIONSHIP, EVERYTHING THAT 1538 01:40:20,606 --> 01:40:25,712 I HAD FELT FOR YOU, EVERYTHING THAT WE HAD FELT FOR EACH OTHER. 1539 01:40:25,712 --> 01:40:29,182 DID THAT EVEN MEAN ANYTHING TO YOU? 1540 01:40:29,182 --> 01:40:35,655 >> UM, YEAH, ABSOLUTELY. I MEAN, IT'S REALLY HARD TO -- 1541 01:40:35,655 --> 01:40:36,856 >> IT WAS SO HARD, YOU WENT AND FOLLOWED MARIA ON INSTAGRAM. 1542 01:40:36,856 --> 01:40:38,424 SO HARD. YOU WERE GOING THROUGH SUCH A 1543 01:40:38,424 --> 01:40:38,725 TOUGH TIME. 1544 01:40:38,725 --> 01:40:40,893 >> I THINK -- 1545 01:40:40,893 --> 01:40:56,375 [ APPLAUSE ] 1546 01:40:56,375 --> 01:40:58,144 UM, YEAH, I CAN'T -- I CAN'T EXCUSE THE INSTAGRAM FOLLOW. 1547 01:40:58,144 --> 01:40:58,978 I KNOW HOW MUCH THAT HURT YOU AND -- 1548 01:40:58,978 --> 01:41:01,881 >> SO YOU DID IT TO BE CRUEL? 1549 01:41:01,881 --> 01:41:05,218 >> NO, I DID NOT, AND, AGAIN, I'M NOT HERE TO TELL YOU YOU 1550 01:41:05,218 --> 01:41:10,890 CAN'T FEEL THE WAY YOU FEEL. OBVIOUSLY I FAILED YOU, AND 1551 01:41:10,890 --> 01:41:14,360 THERE'S NOTHING I CAN SAY OTHER THAN THAT, YOU KNOW, BUT 1552 01:41:14,360 --> 01:41:17,797 EVERYTHING I FELT FOR YOU WAS REAL. 1553 01:41:17,797 --> 01:41:19,432 >> WAS IT? 1554 01:41:19,432 --> 01:41:20,032 >> ABSOLUTELY. 1555 01:41:20,032 --> 01:41:26,839 >> BECAUSE YOU SAID, OH, I WAS HAVING SUCH A HARD TIME WITH 1556 01:41:26,839 --> 01:41:28,040 THIS BREAKUP. NEXT THING I KNOW, YOU'RE IN NEW 1557 01:41:28,040 --> 01:41:28,908 YORK CLUBBING WITH JEREMY. 1558 01:41:28,908 --> 01:41:29,375 [ LAUGHTER ] 1559 01:41:29,375 --> 01:41:31,444 YOU SAID, OH, I NEED TIME AND SPACE TO PROCESS MY EMOTIONS, 1560 01:41:31,444 --> 01:41:34,881 THIS MAKES ME SAD. 1561 01:41:34,881 --> 01:41:40,920 >> I THINK THIS IS -- I THINK THIS IS A LITTLE DIFFERENT THAN 1562 01:41:40,920 --> 01:41:48,661 THE CONVERSATION THAT I WAS HOPING TO HAVE WITH YOU. 1563 01:41:48,661 --> 01:41:49,862 I WENT THERE FOR A WORK TRIP. I MET A CLIENT. 1564 01:41:49,862 --> 01:41:50,463 >> IN THE CLUB. 1565 01:41:50,463 --> 01:41:51,597 >> NO, I DID SEE JEREMY. I DID. 1566 01:41:51,597 --> 01:41:52,899 >> I HOPE YOU HAD FUN AT THE CLUB. 1567 01:41:52,899 --> 01:41:53,699 >> AM I NOT ALLOWED TO LIVE A LIFE? 1568 01:41:53,699 --> 01:41:56,068 >> NO, YOU CAN LIVE A LIFE. YOU CAN GO CLUBBING AS MUCH AS 1569 01:41:56,068 --> 01:41:58,805 YOU WANT. 1570 01:41:58,805 --> 01:42:00,039 >> YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT -- 1571 01:42:00,039 --> 01:42:02,842 >> WHAT WAS HARD ABOUT IT? 1572 01:42:02,842 --> 01:42:04,177 >> DEVIN, YOU ALWAYS SPOKE SO CONFIDENTLY ABOUT YOUR LOVE FOR 1573 01:42:04,177 --> 01:42:04,877 JENN. 1574 01:42:04,877 --> 01:42:05,144 >> YEAH. 1575 01:42:05,144 --> 01:42:09,515 >> AND IT SEEMED LIKE THE ONLY THING YOU NEEDED BACK FROM HER 1576 01:42:09,515 --> 01:42:12,051 WAS ASSURANCE, AND SHE GAVE THAT TO YOU, SO WHAT HAPPENED? 1577 01:42:12,051 --> 01:42:14,854 >> UM, I MEAN, I THINK IT'S LIKE HOW WE TALKED. 1578 01:42:14,854 --> 01:42:17,890 I TOLD YOU, YOU KNOW, WHEN WE LEFT THE SHOW, I HAD A LOT OF 1579 01:42:17,890 --> 01:42:21,494 DOUBTS, AND REGRETFULLY AND SADLY, I SUPPRESSED THOSE 1580 01:42:21,494 --> 01:42:23,529 FEELINGS, AND I DID COME CLEAN TO YOU ABOUT THAT. 1581 01:42:23,529 --> 01:42:30,002 I WAS VERY HONEST, AND I THINK ONE THING THAT YOU CAN SAY HERE, 1582 01:42:30,002 --> 01:42:31,170 AND I HOPE YOU CAN, IS THAT I HAVE BEEN HONEST WITH YOU 1583 01:42:31,170 --> 01:42:31,504 THROUGHOUT -- 1584 01:42:31,504 --> 01:42:33,272 >> TWO MONTHS AFTER YOU HAD FELT ALL THOSE DOUBTS, I WAS IN A 1585 01:42:33,272 --> 01:42:35,374 RELATIONSHIP WITH YOU TWO MONTHS AFTER THE SHOW WHERE YOU HAD ONE 1586 01:42:35,374 --> 01:42:39,445 FOOT OUT THE DOOR INSTEAD OF COMMUNICATING WITH ME HOW YOU 1587 01:42:39,445 --> 01:42:42,849 HAD ACTUALLY FELT ABOUT ME, AND YOU SAID YOU WERE HAVING DOUBTS 1588 01:42:42,849 --> 01:42:44,483 ON THE SHOW, THAT YOU NEVER WANTED TO GET ENGAGED, AND YOU 1589 01:42:44,483 --> 01:42:45,017 HID ALL OF THIS FROM ME. 1590 01:42:45,017 --> 01:42:51,891 >> I DID. I DID. 1591 01:42:51,891 --> 01:42:53,259 >> AND WE WERE IN A RELATIONSHIP. 1592 01:42:53,259 --> 01:42:55,928 FOR TWO MONTHS I WAS POURING EVERYTHING INTO YOU WHILE YOU 1593 01:42:55,928 --> 01:42:57,663 HID ALL THESE FEELINGS OF DOUBT AND MADE ME FALL EVEN MORE IN 1594 01:42:57,663 --> 01:42:58,931 LOVE WITH YOU AND MADE ME TRY TO BE IN A FIGHT FOR A RELATIONSHIP 1595 01:42:58,931 --> 01:43:01,701 THAT WAS OUT THE DOOR HALF THE TIME. 1596 01:43:01,701 --> 01:43:07,740 >> AS WE SAID, AS WE TALKED, YOU 1597 01:43:07,740 --> 01:43:12,812 KNOW, IT'S HARD TO, LIKE, SIT HERE AND DENY WHAT YOU'RE 1598 01:43:12,812 --> 01:43:18,851 ACCUSING ME OF, AND IT'S HARD TO SIT HERE AND KIND OF PUT IT INTO 1599 01:43:18,851 --> 01:43:22,788 THOSE WORDS, YOU KNOW. I TOLD YOU WAY BACK WHEN THAT I 1600 01:43:22,788 --> 01:43:26,292 WAS TRYING TO SCOUR MY BRAIN TO FIND SOME EXTERNAL REASON TO WHY 1601 01:43:26,292 --> 01:43:27,793 THIS WAS HAPPENING TO ME. I WAS VERY HONEST WITH YOU AT 1602 01:43:27,793 --> 01:43:29,161 EVERY STEP AND EVERY DOUBT. 1603 01:43:29,161 --> 01:43:31,497 >> NO, YOU WEREN'T UNTIL LAST MONTH. 1604 01:43:31,497 --> 01:43:34,133 >> I WAS REGRETFULLY LATE ON LETTING YOU KNOW, YOU ARE 100% 1605 01:43:34,133 --> 01:43:35,001 RIGHT. 1606 01:43:35,001 --> 01:43:40,907 [ AUDIENCE REACTS ] 1607 01:43:40,907 --> 01:43:44,644 YEAH, YOU KNOW, I CAN ONLY SIT HERE AND TAKE ACCOUNTABILITY FOR 1608 01:43:44,644 --> 01:43:48,347 MY SHORTCOMINGS, AND I HAVE NO DOUBTS THAT I HAVE MANY MORE IN 1609 01:43:48,347 --> 01:43:52,652 YOUR MIND THAN THERE SEEMS TO BE IN MINE, AND I'M NOT DENYING 1610 01:43:52,652 --> 01:43:53,586 THAT FOR YOU. YOU KNOW, I KNOW HOW BAD THIS 1611 01:43:53,586 --> 01:43:56,055 HURTS. I KNOW HOW BAD THIS -- 1612 01:43:56,055 --> 01:43:58,257 >> NO, YOU DON'T BECAUSE -- 1613 01:43:58,257 --> 01:43:59,058 >> ABSOLUTELY. 1614 01:43:59,058 --> 01:44:01,460 >> BECAUSE YOU WERE NEVER FULLY IN THE ENGAGEMENT, WHEREAS I WAS. 1615 01:44:01,460 --> 01:44:05,965 I WANTED TO SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH YOU. 1616 01:44:05,965 --> 01:44:10,236 I WANTED TO HAVE A FAMILY WITH YOU, AND YOU DIDN'T SEE THOSE 1617 01:44:10,236 --> 01:44:10,803 THINGS. 1618 01:44:10,803 --> 01:44:15,541 [ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ] 1619 01:44:15,541 --> 01:44:19,845 SO, DON'T SIT HERE AND TRY TO TELL ME YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL, 1620 01:44:19,845 --> 01:44:22,848 BECAUSE YOU DON'T. YOU HAD ONE FOOT OUT THE DOOR 1621 01:44:22,848 --> 01:44:27,320 THE ENTIRE TIME, AND FOR YOU TO SIT HERE AND BE LIKE, OH, I WAS 1622 01:44:27,320 --> 01:44:28,955 SAD, I WAS GOING THROUGH THIS AND THAT. 1623 01:44:28,955 --> 01:44:31,490 YOU'RE OUT HERE PROMOTING THE SHOW ON INSTAGRAM POSTING MEMES 1624 01:44:31,490 --> 01:44:32,558 ABOUT ALL THIS STUFF. IT'S LIKE YOU DON'T EVEN FEEL 1625 01:44:32,558 --> 01:44:35,061 ANYTHING. WHEN I -- THIS PAST MONTH EVERY 1626 01:44:35,061 --> 01:44:37,430 MONDAY NIGHT MY HEART IS BROKEN OVER AND OVER AGAIN, WHEREAS YOU 1627 01:44:37,430 --> 01:44:42,168 DON'T GIVE A CRAP. YOU'RE POSTING -- ABOUT THE 1628 01:44:42,168 --> 01:44:44,603 SHOW, HAVING A GREAT OLD TIME, 1629 01:44:44,603 --> 01:44:52,511 AND I AM HEARTBROKEN EVERY MONDAY NIGHT WATCHING THE LIES 1630 01:44:52,511 --> 01:44:52,979 YOU SAID TO ME ON TV. 1631 01:44:52,979 --> 01:44:55,081 >> THEY -- UH, YOU CAN SAY THEY'RE LIES. I CAN'T FIGHT -- 1632 01:44:55,081 --> 01:44:58,017 >> ARE THEY NOT? YOU SAID YOU WANTED TO LOVE ME 1633 01:44:58,017 --> 01:45:02,621 FOREVER. YOU SAID YOU WANTED TO WAKE UP EVERY DAY AND CHOOSE ME, 1634 01:45:02,621 --> 01:45:04,790 PICK ME. YOU SAID TO MY MOM YOU KNEW WHAT 1635 01:45:04,790 --> 01:45:06,058 IT WAS LIKE TO BE ABANDONED AND WOULD NEVER WANT TO DO THAT TO 1636 01:45:06,058 --> 01:45:06,225 ME. 1637 01:45:06,225 --> 01:45:10,696 >> TO THE VERY END I WANTED THAT. 1638 01:45:10,696 --> 01:45:11,931 HOW CAN I SAY -- HOW CAN I SAY THAT I'M SORRY MORE THAN I'VE 1639 01:45:11,931 --> 01:45:12,965 TRIED TO BE. 1640 01:45:12,965 --> 01:45:17,069 >> THIS IS WHAT YOU KEPT SAYING. OH, I SAID SORRY. 1641 01:45:17,069 --> 01:45:18,938 I CAN'T SAY SORRY ANYMORE. THAT'S WHAT YOU SAID IN A 1642 01:45:18,938 --> 01:45:22,842 15-MINUTE PHONE CALL. I CAN'T BE SORRY ANYMORE. 1643 01:45:22,842 --> 01:45:26,445 I GOT TO GO. YOU KNOW WHAT, YOU KNOW WHAT, I 1644 01:45:26,445 --> 01:45:30,850 CAN'T SIT HERE AND JUST LISTEN TO YOU. 1645 01:45:30,850 --> 01:45:32,318 EVERYTHING YOU SAID ON THAT TV SHOW, EVERY TIME YOU SAID, I 1646 01:45:32,318 --> 01:45:33,552 LOVE YOU SO MUCH, YOU'RE THE ONE, I WANT TO WAKE UP EVERY DAY 1647 01:45:33,552 --> 01:45:34,387 AND FIGHT FOR YOU, WHERE WAS THE FIGHT? 1648 01:45:34,387 --> 01:45:36,889 WHEN DID YOU TRY TO FIGHT FOR OUR RELATIONSHIP? 1649 01:45:36,889 --> 01:45:38,858 >> I FOUGHT. I FOUGHT. 1650 01:45:38,858 --> 01:45:41,961 [ APPLAUSE ] 1651 01:45:41,961 --> 01:45:46,899 >> OKAY, LISTEN, I'M SORRY TO CUT IN HERE. 1652 01:45:46,899 --> 01:45:48,334 WE DO HAVE TO TAKE A QUICK BREAK. 1653 01:45:48,334 --> 01:45:49,435 CLEARLY WE'VE ONLY SCRATCHED THE SURFACE. 1654 01:45:49,435 --> 01:45:51,137 WE'VE GOT MORE WITH DEVIN AND JENN WHEN WE COME BACK. 1655 01:45:51,137 --> 01:45:52,438 >> WHAT IS GOING ON HERE? 1656 01:46:05,685 --> 01:46:06,218 ♪ 1657 01:46:06,218 --> 01:46:07,920 >>> WELCOME BACK, BACHELOR NATION. 1658 01:46:07,920 --> 01:46:10,489 JENN AND DEVIN, THEY'RE HERE AND THEY'RE DISCUSSING EVERYTHING 1659 01:46:10,489 --> 01:46:14,727 THAT'S HAPPENED SINCE THAT LAST DAY IN HAWAII WHEN THEY GOT 1660 01:46:14,727 --> 01:46:17,730 ENGAGED AND OBVIOUSLY THERE'S BEEN A PARTING OF WAYS. 1661 01:46:17,730 --> 01:46:19,765 DEVIN, WE OBVIOUSLY HEARD FROM JENN. 1662 01:46:19,765 --> 01:46:21,600 I DO WANT TO GIVE YOU A CHANCE TO RESPOND. 1663 01:46:21,600 --> 01:46:24,470 >> YEAH, I'M NOT HERE TO TALK ABOUT POST BREAKUP. 1664 01:46:24,470 --> 01:46:27,807 I WANT TO TALK ABOUT THE BREAKUP THAT WE TALKED ABOUT WHEN IT 1665 01:46:27,807 --> 01:46:32,511 HAPPENED. YOU KNOW, AND I'M NOT HERE TO 1666 01:46:32,511 --> 01:46:35,448 DEVALUE ANYTHING THAT -- YOU'RE AN AMAZING WOMAN AND I FELL 1667 01:46:35,448 --> 01:46:37,283 SHORT OF THAT. THERE'S NOTHING I CAN SAY WHEN 1668 01:46:37,283 --> 01:46:42,054 IT COMES TO ME LACKING THE ABILITY TO MAKE YOU A PRIORITY 1669 01:46:42,054 --> 01:46:44,423 IN EVERYDAY LIFE. THAT WAS HARD FOR ME. 1670 01:46:44,423 --> 01:46:47,460 THAT WAS HARD FOR ME TO ACCEPT. YOU'RE SITTING HERE AND 1671 01:46:47,460 --> 01:46:50,396 ATTRIBUTING IT TO SEEING A FRIEND IN NEW YORK. 1672 01:46:50,396 --> 01:46:51,697 CAN WE JUST -- 1673 01:46:51,697 --> 01:46:53,733 >> I'M NOT. I'M SAYING THAT WAS INSENSITIVE 1674 01:46:53,733 --> 01:46:54,633 TO THE BREAKUP. 1675 01:46:54,633 --> 01:46:58,604 >> I UNDERSTAND THAT BUT, AGAIN, AT WHAT POINT, AT WHAT POINT CAN 1676 01:46:58,604 --> 01:47:02,608 WE JUST FOCUS ON WHAT HAPPENED AND WHAT HURT YOU, YOU KNOW, I'M 1677 01:47:02,608 --> 01:47:04,677 HURT, YOU'RE HURT. WE'RE BOTH HURT. 1678 01:47:04,677 --> 01:47:10,683 CAN WE FOCUS ON THAT, PLEASE, YOU KNOW, AND I'M NOT HERE TO 1679 01:47:10,683 --> 01:47:12,618 SAVE FACE. I HAVE NOTHING TO GAIN BY BEING 1680 01:47:12,618 --> 01:47:16,522 HERE OTHER THAN MAKING SURE YOU'RE OKAY WHICH IS WHAT I CAME 1681 01:47:16,522 --> 01:47:16,889 OUT HERE TO DO. 1682 01:47:16,889 --> 01:47:20,159 >> DEVIN, LISTEN, IT IS ALSO AN OPPORTUNITY BECAUSE WE HAVE YOU 1683 01:47:20,159 --> 01:47:23,462 HERE TOGETHER, I KNOW IT'S BEEN VERY HARD FOR YOU TO GET THIS 1684 01:47:23,462 --> 01:47:26,532 OPPORTUNITY TO HAVE THIS CONVERSATION, SO I WANT TO ASK 1685 01:47:26,532 --> 01:47:30,636 YOU, IS THERE ANYTHING THAT YOU FEEL LIKE YOU HAVE TO SAY TO 1686 01:47:30,636 --> 01:47:34,473 JENN THAT SHE DOESN'T KNOW BECAUSE NOW IS THE TIME. 1687 01:47:34,473 --> 01:47:39,178 >> I MEAN THE ONLY THING THAT I CAN THINK OF IS, YOU KNOW, THE 1688 01:47:39,178 --> 01:47:42,448 TRUTH, YOU KNOW, AND MY HONEST OPINIONS AND MY HONEST FEELINGS 1689 01:47:42,448 --> 01:47:46,152 AND, YOU KNOW, I WATCHED THIS BEAUTIFUL GIRL GROW AND FLOURISH 1690 01:47:46,152 --> 01:47:50,689 INTO THIS AMAZING WOMAN ON HER OWN, LIKE IT TOOK NONE OF US ON 1691 01:47:50,689 --> 01:47:54,693 THE SHOW TO MAKE YOU THAT PERSON. IT WAS AMAZING TO WATCH YOU 1692 01:47:54,693 --> 01:47:57,563 FLOURISH INTO WHO YOU WERE AND I FOUND MYSELF FALLING SHORT OF 1693 01:47:57,563 --> 01:48:00,833 THOSE EXPECTATIONS IN THE REAL WORLD AND I FOUND MYSELF NOT 1694 01:48:00,833 --> 01:48:04,069 BEING ABLE TO LIVE UP TO THE THINGS THAT YOU NEED AND YOU 1695 01:48:04,069 --> 01:48:08,607 DESERVE, OKAY, THIS ISN'T -- THIS ISN'T SOME I'M TRYING TO 1696 01:48:08,607 --> 01:48:12,077 GET BACK AT YOU OR TRYING TO MAKE YOU FEEL BAD OR ANY OF THE 1697 01:48:12,077 --> 01:48:14,480 SORT. I REALLY, REALLY DO CARE ABOUT 1698 01:48:14,480 --> 01:48:15,981 YOU. I KNOW I CAN'T CHANGE YOUR MIND 1699 01:48:15,981 --> 01:48:20,519 ON THAT. I KNOW I CAN'T FIX THAT PERCEPTION IN YOUR MIND, BUT, 1700 01:48:20,519 --> 01:48:25,825 YOU KNOW, I WATCHED, LIKE I SAID, I WATCHED YOU GROW AND 1701 01:48:25,825 --> 01:48:30,829 THEN I WATCHED MYSELF CONTRIBUTE TO YOUR REGRESSION AND THAT 1702 01:48:30,829 --> 01:48:34,533 HURT. THAT HURT ME. YOU KNOW, YOU DON'T DESERVE TO 1703 01:48:34,533 --> 01:48:38,304 COMPROMISE YOUR STANDARDS TO BE HAPPY AND WE TALKED ABOUT THAT. 1704 01:48:38,304 --> 01:48:43,776 I FELT MYSELF FORCING YOU TO COMPROMISE TO BE HAPPY, YOU 1705 01:48:43,776 --> 01:48:47,079 KNOW, AND I SAW THE HURT THAT THAT WAS ON YOUR FACE. 1706 01:48:47,079 --> 01:48:51,884 IT WAS APPARENT EVERY SINGLE DAY BUT I WASN'T GOING TO COME OUT 1707 01:48:51,884 --> 01:48:54,954 HERE AND TRY TO PUT ANYTHING ON YOU. YOU'VE DONE NOTHING WRONG. 1708 01:48:54,954 --> 01:48:56,522 YOU KNOW THIS. WE'VE HAD THIS CONVERSATION. 1709 01:48:56,522 --> 01:49:04,463 >> LISTEN, IT'S BEEN A REALLY TOUGH NIGHT FOR YOU AND I KNOW 1710 01:49:04,463 --> 01:49:06,465 IT HAS. BUT THERE'S SOMETHING THAT I 1711 01:49:06,465 --> 01:49:10,236 WANT TO SAY TO YOU ON BEHALF OF MYSELF AND BEHALF OF EVERYBODY 1712 01:49:10,236 --> 01:49:13,606 HERE ON THE SHOW. I KNOW THAT YOUR LOVE STORY DID 1713 01:49:13,606 --> 01:49:17,009 NOT UNFOLD THE WAY YOU HOPED IT WOULD OR EXPECTED IT TO AND FOR 1714 01:49:17,009 --> 01:49:22,548 THAT, JENN, I AM ACTUALLY, TRULY 1715 01:49:22,548 --> 01:49:26,919 SORRY BUT I CAN ALSO CONFIDENTLY SAY THAT EVEN THOUGH YOU MAY NOT 1716 01:49:26,919 --> 01:49:31,323 HAVE FOUND THE LOVE AND THAT GREAT LOVE YOU WERE LOOKING FOR 1717 01:49:31,323 --> 01:49:36,595 YET, YOU ALSO SHOWED ALL OF US WHAT A STRONG AND POWERFUL WOMAN 1718 01:49:36,595 --> 01:49:40,499 IS. 1719 01:49:40,499 --> 01:49:46,038 [ APPLAUSE ] 1720 01:49:46,038 --> 01:49:49,341 JENN, YOU WEREN'T AFRAID TO SPEAK YOUR MIND, AND YOU ALSO 1721 01:49:49,341 --> 01:49:53,746 WEREN'T AFRAID TO GO AFTER WHAT IT IS WANT. 1722 01:49:53,746 --> 01:49:59,051 YOU DID THAT ALL THROUGHOUT THIS ENTIRE JOURNEY, INCLUDING MAKING 1723 01:49:59,051 --> 01:50:01,420 HISTORY, THE BEAUTIFUL PROPOSAL, THE LIKES OF WHICH WE HAVE NEVER 1724 01:50:01,420 --> 01:50:06,225 SEEN AND, JENN, NOBODY CAN EVER TAKE THAT AWAY FROM YOU. 1725 01:50:06,225 --> 01:50:10,629 I KNOW YOU HAVEN'T SEEN IT YET. WHAT DO YOU THINK, SHOULD WE ALL 1726 01:50:10,629 --> 01:50:18,037 WATCH IT TOGETHER? OKAY. 1727 01:50:18,037 --> 01:50:19,772 HERE IT IS. 1728 01:50:19,772 --> 01:50:30,816 >> DO I HAVE A CHOICE? 1729 01:50:30,816 --> 01:50:38,757 ♪ 1730 01:50:40,492 --> 01:50:49,969 ♪ 1731 01:50:49,969 --> 01:50:51,003 >>> TODAY FEELS ABSOLUTELY SURREAL. 1732 01:50:51,003 --> 01:50:54,039 I ALWAYS THOUGHT THAT THIS DAY WOULD COME BUT NEVER REALLY 1733 01:50:54,039 --> 01:50:56,975 TRULY COULD ENVISION IT, AND NOW THAT IT'S HERE, I FEEL 1734 01:50:56,975 --> 01:51:06,585 OVERWHELMED WITH EMOTIONS. 1735 01:51:06,585 --> 01:51:08,253 ALSO, LIKE, A LITTLE NERVOUS. IT'S CRAZY TO THINK OF HOW I GOT 1736 01:51:08,253 --> 01:51:10,122 HERE. I HAVEN'T ALWAYS FELT LIKE I HAD 1737 01:51:10,122 --> 01:51:10,689 CONTROL IN MY RELATIONSHIPS. 1738 01:51:10,689 --> 01:51:19,631 I'VE ALWAYS CHOSEN THE MEN 1739 01:51:19,631 --> 01:51:22,634 BEFORE MYSELF. IT TOOK A LITTLE BIT FOR ME TO 1740 01:51:22,634 --> 01:51:26,839 REALIZE THAT I AM IN LOVE WITH DEVIN, AND IT'S BECAUSE OF THE 1741 01:51:26,839 --> 01:51:27,940 WAY HE MAKES ME FEEL, AND IT'S BECAUSE OF WHO HE IS. 1742 01:51:27,940 --> 01:51:30,776 I'VE GROWN SO MUCH IN THIS JOURNEY. 1743 01:51:30,776 --> 01:51:35,547 I FEEL LIKE I HAVE A LOT OF CLARITY, AND I FEEL EMPOWERED. 1744 01:51:35,547 --> 01:51:40,519 A PROPOSAL IS A HUGE THING, AND NO MATTER WHAT THE OUTCOME IS 1745 01:51:40,519 --> 01:51:44,523 GOING TO BE, I OWE THIS TO 1746 01:51:44,523 --> 01:51:49,528 MYSELF TO MAKE THAT DECISION. 1747 01:51:49,528 --> 01:51:50,062 >> HEY, YOU. 1748 01:51:50,062 --> 01:51:55,033 >> HI, SWEETHEART. 1749 01:51:55,033 --> 01:51:55,401 >> HOW ARE YOU? 1750 01:51:55,401 --> 01:51:58,637 >> I'M SO MUCH BETTER NOW. 1751 01:51:58,637 --> 01:51:59,705 >> GOOD TO SEE YOU. 1752 01:51:59,705 --> 01:52:01,106 >> IT'S BETTER TO SEE YOU. 1753 01:52:01,106 --> 01:52:01,707 >> YOU LOOK AMAZING. 1754 01:52:01,707 --> 01:52:10,049 >> YOU LOOK FANTASTIC. 1755 01:52:10,049 --> 01:52:12,518 JENNIFER TRAN, WHAT I LOVE ABOUT 1756 01:52:12,518 --> 01:52:19,958 US THE MOST IS OUR FOUNDATION STARTED WITH BANTER, HUMOR, 1757 01:52:19,958 --> 01:52:21,093 LIGHTHEARTEDNESS, BUT THE BIGGEST THING ABOUT ME AND THE 1758 01:52:21,093 --> 01:52:25,364 BIGGEST THING ABOUT YOU IS THAT WE'VE NEVER CHANGED WHO WE ARE 1759 01:52:25,364 --> 01:52:28,467 IN THIS WHOLE EXPERIENCE, AND I THINK THAT'S WHAT MAKES ME FALL 1760 01:52:28,467 --> 01:52:33,105 IN LOVE WITH YOU EVERY SINGLE TIME I SEE YOU IS THAT YOU ARE 1761 01:52:33,105 --> 01:52:38,110 WHO YOU ARE, THIS FIERY WOMAN IN MY LIFE THAT HAS CONTINUED TO 1762 01:52:38,110 --> 01:52:44,283 INSPIRE ME TO BE A BETTER MAN EVERY SINGLE DAY. 1763 01:52:44,283 --> 01:52:46,452 I'VE ONLY EVER BEEN ABLE TO FIND A LOVE LIKE THAT WITH YOU. 1764 01:52:46,452 --> 01:52:53,959 I'VE NEVER SEEN THAT BEFORE, AND HONESTLY, IT SCARED ME WHEN I 1765 01:52:53,959 --> 01:53:00,099 SAW IT FOR THE FIRST TIME, AND, JENN, I DO LOVE YOU WITH ALL OF 1766 01:53:00,099 --> 01:53:04,470 MY HEART, AND IT'S A FEELING I 1767 01:53:04,470 --> 01:53:08,474 DON'T EVER WANT TO GO AWAY. 1768 01:53:08,474 --> 01:53:10,676 >> DEVIN, YOU WERE THE FIRST PERSON TO REALLY SEE ME AND TO 1769 01:53:10,676 --> 01:53:20,152 TAKE THE TIME TO UNDERSTAND ME. 1770 01:53:20,152 --> 01:53:22,955 YOU WERE ALWAYS A CONSTANT. YOUR LOVE WAS ALWAYS THERE, AND 1771 01:53:22,955 --> 01:53:28,260 I NEVER DOUBTED FOR A SECOND HOW MUCH YOU LOVED ME, AND I'M SORRY 1772 01:53:28,260 --> 01:53:34,666 IF YOU EVER DOUBTED HOW I LOVED YOU. 1773 01:53:34,666 --> 01:53:37,536 I'VE SPENT MY ENTIRE LIFE TRYING TO WORK FOR LOVE AND TRYING TO 1774 01:53:37,536 --> 01:53:44,710 EARN IT AND ASKING FOR IT FROM THE WRONG PEOPLE AND FOR THE 1775 01:53:44,710 --> 01:53:48,213 WRONG REASONS, AND THAT'S WHY WHEN YOU TOLD ME THAT YOU LOVED 1776 01:53:48,213 --> 01:53:52,518 ME, I COULDN'T UNDERSTAND IT. 1777 01:53:52,518 --> 01:53:57,389 IT DIDN'T MAKE SENSE TO ME, AND I WANTED TO SELF-SABOTAGE THE 1778 01:53:57,389 --> 01:54:00,526 GOOD IN EVERYTHING, BECAUSE I 1779 01:54:00,526 --> 01:54:06,465 DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO ACCEPT IT. 1780 01:54:06,465 --> 01:54:12,971 I LOVE YOU SO DEEPLY, DEVIN, BUT I CAN'T LET YOU PROPOSE TO 1781 01:54:12,971 --> 01:54:20,512 ME. 1782 01:54:20,512 --> 01:54:27,819 I'VE DECIDED TO CHOOSE MYSELF IN THIS JOURNEY, AND THE BEST 1783 01:54:27,819 --> 01:54:32,558 VERSION OF MYSELF IS WHEN I'M WITH YOU. 1784 01:54:32,558 --> 01:54:38,931 I'M STRONG ON MY OWN, BUT I KNOW THAT WE'RE STRONGER TOGETHER, 1785 01:54:38,931 --> 01:54:42,034 AND, DEVIN, I WANT TO FIGHT FOR YOU EVERY DAY. 1786 01:54:42,034 --> 01:54:44,736 I WANT TO HELP CARRY YOUR BURDENS. 1787 01:54:44,736 --> 01:54:49,508 I WANT TO PUT A SMILE ON YOUR FACE, AND, HONESTLY, I JUST 1788 01:54:49,508 --> 01:54:54,012 DON'T WANT TO LIVE WITHOUT YOU. YOU ARE EVERYTHING THAT I'VE 1789 01:54:54,012 --> 01:54:54,846 EVER DREAMED OF BUT DIDN'T KNOW 1790 01:54:54,846 --> 01:55:07,259 THAT I COULD HAVE. 1791 01:55:07,259 --> 01:55:08,860 I DIDN'T KNOW. I WANT TO WAKE UP AND CHOOSE YOU 1792 01:55:08,860 --> 01:55:14,666 EVERY DAY FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE, TODAY AND EVERY DAY, AND, 1793 01:55:14,666 --> 01:55:15,434 BABY, I WANT TO GROW OLD WITH 1794 01:55:15,434 --> 01:55:28,513 YOU. 1795 01:55:28,513 --> 01:55:30,315 SO, DEVIN STRADER, WILL YOU PLEASE MAKE ME THE HAPPIEST GIRL 1796 01:55:30,315 --> 01:55:34,720 IN THE WORLD AND MARRY ME? 1797 01:55:34,720 --> 01:55:40,525 [ LAUGHTER ] 1798 01:55:40,525 --> 01:55:41,126 >> YOU TURNED THE TABLES ON ME. 1799 01:55:41,126 --> 01:55:51,436 ♪ 1800 01:55:51,436 --> 01:55:52,704 ABSOLUTELY, ABSOLUTELY, I WILL, A HUNDRED TIMES OVER AND THEN A 1801 01:55:52,704 --> 01:55:55,674 HUNDRED MORE. 1802 01:55:55,674 --> 01:56:02,381 >> PUT IT ON, BABY. PUT IT ON. 1803 01:56:02,381 --> 01:56:05,951 IT'S PERFECT. 1804 01:56:05,951 --> 01:56:08,520 >> IT IS PERFECT, BUT I MEAN I DO HAVE SOMETHING FOR YOU, AS 1805 01:56:08,520 --> 01:56:08,787 WELL. 1806 01:56:08,787 --> 01:56:09,388 >> YOU HAVE SOMETHING FOR ME? 1807 01:56:09,388 --> 01:56:10,756 >> I DO. 1808 01:56:10,756 --> 01:56:11,023 >> DO YOU? 1809 01:56:11,023 --> 01:56:15,327 >> AND WHETHER YOU WANT ME TO PROPOSE OR NOT, I'M GOING TO 1810 01:56:15,327 --> 01:56:15,694 PROPOSE TO YOU. 1811 01:56:15,694 --> 01:56:29,441 JENNIFER TRAN, WILL YOU MAKE ME 1812 01:56:29,441 --> 01:56:34,746 THE HAPPIEST MAN AND MARRY ME? 1813 01:56:34,746 --> 01:56:44,423 >> ABSOLUTELY. 1814 01:56:44,423 --> 01:56:48,493 >> I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. 1815 01:56:48,493 --> 01:56:54,333 >> I LOVE YOU. 1816 01:56:54,333 --> 01:56:58,003 >> GIVE ME YOUR HAND, GIRL. LET ME PUT THIS ON YOUR FINGER. 1817 01:56:58,003 --> 01:57:01,840 >> OH, MY GOD. HOW DOES THIS WORK? 1818 01:57:01,840 --> 01:57:04,509 >> JUST LIKE THIS. 1819 01:57:04,509 --> 01:57:23,161 ♪ 1820 01:57:32,904 --> 01:57:35,674 >> OBVIOUSLY IN LIGHT OF EVERYTHING THAT'S HAPPENED, 1821 01:57:35,674 --> 01:57:39,644 SINCE THAT DAY IN HAWAII, I 1822 01:57:39,644 --> 01:57:45,517 CAN'T IMAGINE HOW HARD IT IS TO WATCH THAT BACK AND TO RELIVE 1823 01:57:45,517 --> 01:57:51,790 IT, BUT, JENN, MY BIGGEST HOPE IS THAT WHEN YOU DO SEE THAT 1824 01:57:51,790 --> 01:57:55,894 BACK, A SMALL PART OF YOU FEELS EMPOWERED, BECAUSE YOU REALLY 1825 01:57:55,894 --> 01:57:57,496 DID DO THINGS YOUR WAY. 1826 01:57:57,496 --> 01:58:13,945 [ APPLAUSE ] 1827 01:58:13,945 --> 01:58:17,315 >> I MEAN, THAT WAS WHAT I THOUGHT WAS THE HAPPIEST DAY OF 1828 01:58:17,315 --> 01:58:20,485 MY LIFE. I AM VERY PROUD OF THAT WOMAN 1829 01:58:20,485 --> 01:58:23,922 THERE WHO CHOSE A MAN AT THE TIME WHO WAS GIVING HER 1830 01:58:23,922 --> 01:58:27,225 EVERYTHING THAT SHE EVER WANTED, SWUNG WHO TREATED HER WELL, 1831 01:58:27,225 --> 01:58:28,527 SOMEONE WHO PROMISED HER THE WORLD. 1832 01:58:28,527 --> 01:58:36,401 I DO NOT REGRET PROPOSING TO THAT MAN ON THERE, BUT WHAT 1833 01:58:36,401 --> 01:58:41,940 HAPPENED WAS THAT MAN DOESN'T EXIST ANYMORE. 1834 01:58:41,940 --> 01:58:46,845 AND THE TRUTH OF THE MATTER IS, I'M STILL THAT SAME WOMAN I AM. 1835 01:58:46,845 --> 01:58:56,888 [ APPLAUSE ] 1836 01:58:56,888 --> 01:59:00,225 THE WOMAN THAT STOOD THERE WAS READY TO FIGHT FOR LOVE, WAS 1837 01:59:00,225 --> 01:59:04,529 READY TO GIVE EVERYTHING TO A PERSON, WAS READY TO START A 1838 01:59:04,529 --> 01:59:08,233 FAMILY, WAS READY TO LOVE AND UNDERSTOOD WHAT IT MEANT TO 1839 01:59:08,233 --> 01:59:11,403 FULLY LOVE SOMEBODY TO GO THROUGH THE HARD TIMES, TO GO 1840 01:59:11,403 --> 01:59:15,307 THROUGH THE HAPPY TIMES, TO GO THROUGH EVERY SINGLE OBSTACLE 1841 01:59:15,307 --> 01:59:18,877 WITH SOMEBODY UNWAVERINGLY NO MATTER WHAT AND I'M STILL THAT 1842 01:59:18,877 --> 01:59:21,379 SAME PERSON BECAUSE I HAVE FOUGHT FOR THIS EVERY SECOND 1843 01:59:21,379 --> 01:59:26,785 THAT I COULD TO A POINT WHERE I STARTED DOING THINGS THAT 1844 01:59:26,785 --> 01:59:32,524 DISRESPECTED MYSELF BUT AT THIS POINT, LIKE, I DO KNOW WHAT I 1845 01:59:32,524 --> 01:59:38,897 DESERVE, AND I KNOW THAT THAT MAN, SOMEBODY ELSE WILL BE THAT 1846 01:59:38,897 --> 01:59:44,436 MAN FOR ME AND I CAN FIND THAT PERSON WHO WILL FILL OUT -- WHO 1847 01:59:44,436 --> 01:59:46,438 WILL FULFILL ALL THE PROMPTS HE MADE ME INSTEAD OF LEAVING ME 1848 01:59:46,438 --> 01:59:48,473 WITH NOTHING. 1849 01:59:48,473 --> 01:59:58,316 [ APPLAUSE ] 1850 01:59:58,316 --> 02:00:01,486 >> DEVIN, I GOT TO ASK YOU WHAT GOES THROUGH YOUR MIND WHEN YOU 1851 02:00:01,486 --> 02:00:02,020 WATCH THAT BACK. 1852 02:00:02,020 --> 02:00:05,690 >> I MEAN, OBVIOUSLY LIKE SHE SAID, IT'S HARD. 1853 02:00:05,690 --> 02:00:13,331 YOU KNOW, I DID MAKE A LOT OF PRO PROMISES, I BELIEVED THEM AND 1854 02:00:13,331 --> 02:00:16,101 STILL DO AND IT'S A ONE-SIDED STORY WHEN IT'S SO DIFFERENT 1855 02:00:16,101 --> 02:00:18,236 THAN WHERE WE'RE SITTING AT RIGHT NOW. 1856 02:00:18,236 --> 02:00:23,875 I CAN'T DENY THAT FROM YOU AND I WON'T TRY TO, YOU KNOW, THAT MAN 1857 02:00:23,875 --> 02:00:28,280 LOVED YOU. HE DID. AND I'M SORRY -- 1858 02:00:28,280 --> 02:00:30,348 >> IT DOESN'T JUST GO AWAY THE NEXT DAY. 1859 02:00:30,348 --> 02:00:32,918 >> I NEVER SAID IT DID AND IT DIDN'T. IT DIDN'T. 1860 02:00:32,918 --> 02:00:36,521 YOU'RE TRYING TO CONDENSE THIS, PLEASE DON'T. 1861 02:00:36,521 --> 02:00:40,525 I UNDERSTAND THAT I COULDN'T KEEP PROMISES THAT I MADE TO YOU. 1862 02:00:40,525 --> 02:00:42,794 I UNDERSTAND THAT. I TOLD YOU THAT. 1863 02:00:42,794 --> 02:00:47,465 I UNDERSTAND THAT FEELING, MAYBE NOT FROM MY PERSPECTIVE BUT I'VE 1864 02:00:47,465 --> 02:00:49,734 BEEN ON THE OPPOSITE END. I UNDERSTAND WHAT THAT FEELS 1865 02:00:49,734 --> 02:00:53,772 LIKE, I REALLY DO, MORE THAN YOU KNOW AND I KNOW THAT I FELL 1866 02:00:53,772 --> 02:00:56,908 SHORT OF A LOT OF YOUR EXPECTATIONS TO THE POINT WHERE 1867 02:00:56,908 --> 02:01:00,679 LIKE YOU SAID YOU WERE DOING THINGS THAT WERE DIMINISHING WHO 1868 02:01:00,679 --> 02:01:04,115 YOU WERE AND YOU CAN SIT HERE AND SAY, YOU KNOW, I'M A LIAR, 1869 02:01:04,115 --> 02:01:06,284 THIS OR THAT. I'M NOT GOING TO FIGHT YOU ON 1870 02:01:06,284 --> 02:01:07,352 ANY OF THOSE THINGS. 1871 02:01:07,352 --> 02:01:10,355 >> JENN, JUST REAL QUICKLY, I WANT TO GIVE YOU THE LAST WORD, 1872 02:01:10,355 --> 02:01:14,259 WHAT DO YOU HOPE DEVIN LEARNS FROM THIS? 1873 02:01:14,259 --> 02:01:18,363 SUPPLY HOPE THAW LEARN THAT THE WEIGHT OF YOUR WORDS MATTER AND 1874 02:01:18,363 --> 02:01:21,333 THAT IF YOU'RE GOING TO PROMISE SOMETHING YOU SHOULD BE ABLE TO 1875 02:01:21,333 --> 02:01:27,038 FULFILL THOSE PROMISES. I JUST -- I SIMPLY COULDN'T HAVE 1876 02:01:27,038 --> 02:01:31,710 DONE WHAT YOU HAVE DONE IN THAT POSITION, AND WHEN I LOVE 1877 02:01:31,710 --> 02:01:34,613 SOMETHING, I NURTURE IT AND I VALUE IT AND I DON'T THROW IT 1878 02:01:34,613 --> 02:01:42,020 AWAY THE NEXT DAY AND I HOPE THAT YOU FIND WHATEVER IT IS, 1879 02:01:42,020 --> 02:01:46,024 WHEREVER IT IS IN YOURSELF, I HOPE YOU GET THERE ONE DAY, I 1880 02:01:46,024 --> 02:01:46,324 DON'T KNOW. 1881 02:01:46,324 --> 02:01:50,161 >> OKAY, DEVIN, APPRECIATE YOU BEING HERE AND FOR FACING THE 1882 02:01:50,161 --> 02:01:56,468 MUSIC. I KNOW IT'S NOT EASY. AND, JENN, THERE IS NO DOUBT IN 1883 02:01:56,468 --> 02:01:59,904 MY MIND THAT THE GREAT LOVE YOU DESERVE, IT IS OUT THERE. 1884 02:01:59,904 --> 02:02:02,807 IT IS WAITING FOR YOU AND I KNOW YOU ARE GOING TO FIND IT. 1885 02:02:02,807 --> 02:02:06,911 I KNOW YOU ARE. LET'S HEAR IT FOR JENN, 1886 02:02:06,911 --> 02:02:08,513 EVERYBODY. 1887 02:02:08,513 --> 02:02:13,118 [ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ] 1888 02:02:13,118 --> 02:02:15,353 ALL RIGHT. COMING UP NEXT, IT'S THE SNEAK 1889 02:02:15,353 --> 02:02:18,623 PEEK EVERYBODY HAS BEEN WAITING FOR, YOUR VERY FIRST LOOK AT 1890 02:02:18,623 --> 02:02:23,561 JOAN'S JOURNEY AS THE GOLDEN BACHELORETTE, SO DOES JOAN FALL 1891 02:02:23,561 --> 02:02:27,766 IN LOVE? DOES SHE GET ENGAGED? MAYBE TO THAT HANDSOME DEVIL 1892 02:02:27,766 --> 02:02:31,236 RIGHT OVER THERE. WE'LL TAKE A LOOK RIGHT AFTER 1893 02:02:31,236 --> 02:02:33,238 THE BREAK. 1894 02:02:33,238 --> 02:02:35,340 [ APPLAUSE ] 1895 02:02:47,585 --> 02:02:48,987 >>> WELCOME BACK, BACHELOR NATION. 1896 02:02:48,987 --> 02:02:50,689 IT HAS BEEN QUITE A NIGHT, HASN'T IT? 1897 02:02:50,689 --> 02:02:55,960 I PROMISED YOU A SNEAK PEEK AT JOAN'S JOURNEY AS THE FIRST EVER 1898 02:02:55,960 --> 02:02:59,464 GOLDEN BACHELORETTE AND I MAKE GOOD ON MY PROMISES. 1899 02:02:59,464 --> 02:03:13,978 SO LET'S ROLL IT. 1900 02:03:13,978 --> 02:03:27,292 ♪ 1901 02:03:27,292 --> 02:03:29,961 >> HI. HOW ARE YOU, JOAN? 1902 02:03:29,961 --> 02:03:31,563 >> HI. 1903 02:03:31,563 --> 02:03:33,298 >> IT'S SO GOOD TO SEE YOU. YOU LOOK BEAUTIFUL. 1904 02:03:33,298 --> 02:03:36,234 >> WHAT A SIGHT FOR SORE EYES. OH, MY GOSH. 1905 02:03:36,234 --> 02:03:38,903 YOU LOOK SO INCREDIBLE. IT WASN'T THAT LONG AGO, YOU 1906 02:03:38,903 --> 02:03:41,806 KNOW, THAT I WAS COMING OUT OF THIS LIMO WALKING UP TO JOEY, SO 1907 02:03:41,806 --> 02:03:42,240 SURREAL TO BE HERE. 1908 02:03:42,240 --> 02:03:44,175 >> I KNOW. 1909 02:03:44,175 --> 02:03:48,346 >> I DON'T THINK THAT I WOULD REALLY KNOW WHAT TRUE LOVE WAS 1910 02:03:48,346 --> 02:03:49,581 IF IT WASN'T FOR MY PARENTS. YOU KNOW, MY DAD, HE'S BEEN BY 1911 02:03:49,581 --> 02:03:56,221 HIMSELF FOR A COUPLE OF YEARS NOW, AND I THINK THAT, YOU KNOW, 1912 02:03:56,221 --> 02:03:57,822 Y'ALL WOULD MAYBE GET ALONG, SO I HAVE SOMEONE THAT I WOULD LIKE 1913 02:03:57,822 --> 02:03:58,289 TO INTRODUCE YOU TO. 1914 02:03:58,289 --> 02:04:04,362 >> I AM SO EXCITED. 1915 02:04:04,362 --> 02:04:05,964 >> LOOKIE HERE. 1916 02:04:05,964 --> 02:04:10,001 >> I DID SAY THAT. HI. 1917 02:04:10,001 --> 02:04:10,468 >> WELL, HELLO, JOAN. 1918 02:04:10,468 --> 02:04:13,938 >> THIS IS MY DAD. 1919 02:04:13,938 --> 02:04:15,273 >> I'M MARK. IT'S NICE TO MEET YOU. 1920 02:04:15,273 --> 02:04:15,640 >> HOW ARE YOU? 1921 02:04:15,640 --> 02:04:17,976 >> KELSEY, THANK YOU FOR BRINGING YOUR DAD FOR ME. 1922 02:04:17,976 --> 02:04:20,278 >> OF COURSE. I LOVE YOU, DAD. 1923 02:04:20,278 --> 02:04:20,979 >> I LOVE YOU. 1924 02:04:20,979 --> 02:04:21,913 >> HAVE THE BEST TIME. YOU'LL DO GREAT. 1925 02:04:21,913 --> 02:04:26,017 >> I LOVE THAT. AW. 1926 02:04:26,017 --> 02:04:27,919 >> SO I WILL WARM YOUR HANDS UP A LITTLE BIT. 1927 02:04:27,919 --> 02:04:28,620 >> WHAT A GENTLEMAN. 1928 02:04:28,620 --> 02:04:29,087 >> YOU LOOK GORGEOUS. 1929 02:04:29,087 --> 02:04:31,756 >> THANK YOU. 1930 02:04:31,756 --> 02:04:37,095 >> SO, YOU KNOW, AS A FATHER, I RAISED MY CHILDREN, AND I WANTED 1931 02:04:37,095 --> 02:04:40,265 THEM TO EXPERIENCE LIFE, NOT TO SAY NO BECAUSE THEY'RE AFRAID OF 1932 02:04:40,265 --> 02:04:41,933 TAKING A CHANCE. 1933 02:04:41,933 --> 02:04:44,135 >> YEAH. 1934 02:04:44,135 --> 02:04:46,104 >> AND NOW HERE I AM TAKING AN OPPORTUNITY. 1935 02:04:46,104 --> 02:04:49,807 >> YEAH. 1936 02:04:49,807 --> 02:04:53,978 >> TO TAKE A CHANCE FOR ME TO FIND LOVE AGAIN. 1937 02:04:53,978 --> 02:04:54,979 >> I LOVE THAT. 1938 02:04:54,979 --> 02:04:58,583 >> AND I AM HONORED TO BE ABLE TO BE A PART OF YOUR JOURNEY. 1939 02:04:58,583 --> 02:05:02,520 >> THANK YOU. I'M SO GLAD YOU'RE HERE. 1940 02:05:02,520 --> 02:05:02,754 >> YEAH. 1941 02:05:02,754 --> 02:05:05,089 >> YEAH. 1942 02:05:05,089 --> 02:05:06,124 >> IT'S FANTASTIC. I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU TONIGHT. 1943 02:05:06,124 --> 02:05:06,991 >> ME TOO. LET'S GET TO KNOW EACH OTHER 1944 02:05:06,991 --> 02:05:12,230 TONIGHT. BYE. THANK YOU. BYE-BYE. SEE YOU SOON. 1945 02:05:12,230 --> 02:05:15,066 SEE YOU SOON. 1946 02:05:15,066 --> 02:05:16,668 ♪ 1947 02:05:16,668 --> 02:05:18,403 HE'S CUTE. THANK YOU. YOU CAN JUST CALL ME MOM. 1948 02:05:18,403 --> 02:05:21,339 [ LAUGHTER ] 1949 02:05:21,339 --> 02:05:28,012 [ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ] 1950 02:05:28,012 --> 02:05:32,450 >> WOW! I MEAN, REALLY HAD -- 1951 02:05:32,450 --> 02:05:35,954 [ APPLAUSE ] 1952 02:05:35,954 --> 02:05:37,989 WHAT A HANDSOME DEVIL OVER THERE. 1953 02:05:37,989 --> 02:05:41,292 I MEAN, YOU HAD REALLY QUITE THE ADVENTURE, DIDN'T YOU? 1954 02:05:41,292 --> 02:05:42,594 >> WE DID. IT'S CRAZY. 1955 02:05:42,594 --> 02:05:45,663 >> I GOT TO SAY I KNOW ALL OF BACHELOR NATION ARE SO EXCITED 1956 02:05:45,663 --> 02:05:49,634 TO WATCH YOUR SEASON. WHAT SHOULD PEOPLE AT HOME BE 1957 02:05:49,634 --> 02:05:49,901 EXPECTING? 1958 02:05:49,901 --> 02:05:52,503 >> OH, GOSH. WE GOT TO GO TO AMAZING PLACES. 1959 02:05:52,503 --> 02:05:55,707 WE DID DATES THAT BACHELOR NATION HAS NEVER SEEN. 1960 02:05:55,707 --> 02:05:59,711 BUT IT WAS REALLY ABOUT FINDING LOVE AND THAT THE JOURNEY FOR US 1961 02:05:59,711 --> 02:06:01,946 GOLDEN BACHELOR AND BACHELORETTES IS A LITTLE 1962 02:06:01,946 --> 02:06:04,549 DIFFERENT AND THERE'S A LOT OF EMOTION THAT WEABLY INTO THIS 1963 02:06:04,549 --> 02:06:08,386 BECAUSE WE HAVE A LOT OF LIFE EXPERIENCES, SO I THINK THAT 1964 02:06:08,386 --> 02:06:11,189 YOU'RE GOING TO SEE A REALLY EMOTIONAL JOURNEY. 1965 02:06:11,189 --> 02:06:13,625 >> IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL, BEAUTIFUL JOURNEY, MAGICAL TOO. 1966 02:06:13,625 --> 02:06:16,361 I AM SO EXCITED FOR EVERYBODY AT HOME TO WATCH THIS. 1967 02:06:16,361 --> 02:06:21,933 MAKE SURE YOU TUNE IN SEPTEMBER 18th WHEN THE INAUGURAL SEASON 1968 02:06:21,933 --> 02:06:24,168 OF "THE GOLDEN BACHELORETTE" COMMENCES. 1969 02:06:24,168 --> 02:06:26,804 ALL RIGHT, LET'S GIVE IT UP ONE MORE TIME FOR OUR BACHELORETTE, 1970 02:06:26,804 --> 02:06:29,941 JENN. 1971 02:06:29,941 --> 02:06:30,742 [ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ] 1972 02:06:30,742 --> 02:06:35,013 AND THANKS ALSO TO MARCUS AND DEVIN AND TO ALL OF OUR BACHELOR 1973 02:06:35,013 --> 02:06:37,982 FAMILY WHO SHOWED UP HERE TONIGHT, YOU'RE ALL INCREDIBLE. 1974 02:06:37,982 --> 02:06:40,451 IT'S ALSO OUR AMAZING STUDIO AUDIENCE. 1975 02:06:40,451 --> 02:06:44,088 TO THOSE OF YOU WATCHING FROM HOME AND TO ALL OF YOU FROM 1976 02:06:44,088 --> 02:06:47,992 BACHELOR NATION, OH, STAY TUNED BY THE WAY FOR "JIMMY KIMMEL 1977 02:06:47,992 --> 02:06:49,961 LIVE." JIMMY IS BACK WITH BILLIE EILISH 1978 02:06:49,961 --> 02:06:53,798 TONIGHT SO YOU DON'T WANT TO MISS THAT. I'M JESSE PALMER. 1979 02:06:53,798 --> 02:06:54,365 GOOD NIGHT, EVERYBODY. 1980 02:06:54,365 --> 02:06:55,099 ♪ 1981 02:06:55,099 --> 02:06:56,567 [ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ]