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Meredith: In 2023, a team of
scientists studying hepatitis C
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made a fascinating discovery... Complications include
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blood clots, bleeding,
leaking from or blockage of
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the ureter tract and...
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Still studying for
the kidney transplant.
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- I want to be ready.
- You've been studying
all night.
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You're probably
over prepped.
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No such thing.
Going in early again?
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This doesn't have anything to do
with that mystery woman
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who stayed in your bed
and followed you
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around the hospital,
does it?
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Nope. Just trying
to stay ahead.
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♪ If life is what we make it,
then why's it always breaking? ♪
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Whoever's ready
can ride it with me.
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- I'll come.
- We'll catch up.
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♪ So I'm giving up
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They found that the virus
creates a "cellular mask"
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to hide from our immune system
in plain sight.
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[ Breathlessly ] When you said
you wanted to...
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do something
with just the two of us...
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I, um, I was expecting
something else.
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Like what?
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- We've gone four blocks.
- I know, I just-- I...
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I need oxygen.
I need...
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♪ So I'm giving up
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♪ Trying to make you happy
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Yeah, that.
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Yeah, I needed that.
Shall we keep going?
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Camouflaged in molecules
already known to our bodies,
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the virus copies itself
over and over.
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Uh, you're not hitting
the gym this morning?
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I thought I'd help you
out of the clinic
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before my interview
with Heron.
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Oh, I, um...
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I've got some business
at the hospital this morning.
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Hey, wanna meet for lunch?
[ Chuckles ]
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It's taco day
at the cafeteria.
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I don't feel like tacos.
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- You love tacos.
- Too damn busy for tacos.
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It sneaks in like a Trojan
horse past our immune system.
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And by the time the body
realizes what's happened,
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the infection
has already taken hold.
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- Why don't you just ask him?
- Nick: Because
Webber doesn't want to
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assist on
a kidney transplant.
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He doesn't want to assist
on anything.
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But you said
it'll be interesting.
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For the interns.
Not for Webber.
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What's this actually about?
Hmm?
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I just thought
it would be nice
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if the two of you
worked together.
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Mer, come on. What's up?
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I'm doing a liver biopsy
on Catherine today.
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Her cancer may have spread.
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And, uh...
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he doesn't know,
does he?
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I tried to
get her to tell him.
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She doesn't want to.
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I can't believe
you're doing this.
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Breaking HIPAA?No, making me
an accomplice.
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Oh, what could go wrong?[ Chuckles ]
What could go wrong?
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I love you.
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[ Birds chirping ]
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James: You know, some people
think you'll go to hell
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if you swipe left
on a chaplain.
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Oh, I, um... Hey.
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- I-- I'm sorry.
- I was kidding.
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I was just trying to get
to the-- the news on there,
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and then my finger accidentally
opened up that app, so...
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- Jacob: Morning.
- Oops.
[ Chuckles nervously ]
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Thanks, Jacob.
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- Someone's a little hungry.
- Oh, I like to
have extra treats
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- to hand out to the nurses.
- That's really kind.
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Yeah, well,
don't want to go to hell.
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Again, kidding.
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- Okay.
- Jo:
...in the morning,
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so then I switched that
to Saturday at 2:00 p.m.,
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and there was something else.
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Oh, I, uh, I scheduled
our OB appointment
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- at Seattle Presbyterian.
- Sure.
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Why take
an elevator upstairs
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when you can cross town
in traffic?
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The minute people here
find out that I'm pregnant,
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- they'll treat me differently.
- Like letting you sit down?
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- Giving you time to sleep?
- No, like... not giving me
the good cases
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or thinking I'm
not committed to the job.
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It's your call... Okay.
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...but if I had a vagina, I'd
want Carina DeLuca all over it.
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Came out way worse
than it sounded in my--Yeah.
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Yeah.
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Hi. Oh. I'm sorry.
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This is the best
that I could do.
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But, hey, look,
you got a new microscope.
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I've been using it
to look for the bright side,
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but so far no luck.
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Well, I have put your name
on a wait list for another lab.
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I don't know what
I'll be doing there anyway.
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Meredith hasn't exactly
filled me in
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on the next steps
for our research.
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I have an idea
to keep you busy today.
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A hemangioblastoma
on the thoracic spine.
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I can see that.
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The patient's upstairs.
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If you want her case,
it's yours.
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Were you hoping
that I wouldn't notice
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she's 20 weeks pregnant?
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I mean, she needs to
terminate that pregnancy
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before I can operate
- on that tumor.
- She wants to keep it,
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and four other neurosurgeons
have turned her down.
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Will you
just meet with her?
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Uh... Unless you're too busy?
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Yeah, right.
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- Dr. Heron? I'm Ben Warren.
- Oh, Dr. Warren--
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the firefighting
- anesthesiologist, yes?
- I guess.
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Uh, I know I'm a couple minutes
early for my interview...
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Yeah, you're four hours early,
and I have two lap choles,
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so I know that
your Dr. Bailey's husband,
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but I-- No, I cannot shuffle
my schedule around for you.
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- I say no-no to nepo, right?
- I--
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- So 1:00, coffee cart. Yeah?
- Okay. See you there.
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Good morning! Who is ready
to see what today holds?
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[ Perky ]
That's why we're waiting here.
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[ Chuckles ]
Oh, great! Okay.
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Oh. Kwan.
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I'm afraid I have
some traumatic news.
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You are with Hunt
in the ER.
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[ Giggles ]
Get it? Trauma?
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I-I'm just happy
for the work.
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Oh, and, Millin, any guesses
where "I'll see you"?
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- Please don't.
- That's right, the ICU.
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[ Giggles ]
Okay, okay.
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Griffith,
you're with Webber,
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and Adams is on Marsh's
kidney transplant.
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- Oh, I think I'm with Marsh.
- Actually, Dr. Marsh
requested Adams.
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And, Yasuda,
you're with Shepherd.
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Unless you want to
keep playing telephone.
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Shepherd? Got it.
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Then let's get out there
and...?
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Together: [ Unenthusiastically ]
Heal with love.
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Yes!
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You okay?
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Yeah. I'm fine.
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Can you pass me my tablet?
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I need to watch
the weather report.
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Donna Mae, you know
you can't go outside.
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I know, but I just
want to see Victor Suarez.
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He's so handsome,
and he's always accurate.
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If he says it's gonna rain,
- it rains.
- I'm so sorry I'm late.
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I had to stop at the peds floor
for your pudding.
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- You are forgiven.
- Donna Mae Clarkson, 82.
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Status post-CABG
two months ago. History of TIA.
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Congestive heart failure
with EF of 25%.
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On levophed, an insulin drip,
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dialysis three
times a week, and you...
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don't have
an advanced directive.
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No, dear, but thank you.
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If you can't make your
own medical decisions
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with no advanced directive,
we'd have to assume
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that if you got sicker
than you already are,
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you'd want us to use all
available life-saving measures.
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- It could be very uncomfortable.
- I understand,
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but if it means staying alive,
I choose quantity over quality.
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Now, pass me that tablet
and the puddings.
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Here.
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[ Indistinct announcement
over PA system ]
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Meredith,
what brings you here?
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A patient consultation.
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Oh, well, I was hoping
you were here to see Catherine.
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She hasn't been acting
like herself lately.
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She won't say it, but I think
your rift is eating away at her.
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- I don't know what to say.
- Oh, I know there are
bad feelings,
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but if you could reach
out to her, I'd be grateful.[ Elevator bell dings ]
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♪
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I think about it.
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♪
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Nice of you to show up.
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Nice of you
to tell your husband.
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You know--Uh, both of you play nice.
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The only enemy in here today
is cancer.
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♪
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- BP is 110 over 60.
- Okay.
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Do you have any tingling
or numbness in your legs?
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Rhiannon: No numbness.
They just get we.
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Ms. Fletcher,
this is Dr. Shepherd.
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She is chief
of our neurosurgery,
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and she's looked over
- your scans.
- Rhiannon.
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This is my brother Julian
and his husband, Carl.
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They...
have a vested interest.
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This is their baby.
I'm their surrogate.
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We have a vested interest
because you're my sister.
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He's lovable,
but annoyingly smothering.
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So you can just ignore him.
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Please say you're here to tell
me you can do the surgery
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without affecting the baby.
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Rhiannon, your pregnancy
hormones have caused
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the tumor
to grow more rapidly.
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Removing it would
already be a challenge,
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but pregnant at 20 weeks, the
risk is exponentially higher.
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Access to the tumor
is limited,
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and there's a higher risk
of bleeding and clots.
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What about waiting a few weeks
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until my OB can deliver
the baby safely?
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It's possible,
but it's not guaranteed.
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If you don't
remove the tumor now,
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the pressure on your spinal cord
could paralyze you
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or the tumor could rupture,
causing catastrophic bleeding.
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Your best option
is to terminate.
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- No.
- Rhi, we said
we could adopt.
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You and I are adopted.
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I want to do this.
I'll do anything.
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- I'll sign a waiver.
- No, you won't.
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End of discussion.
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Three different egg donors,
six retrievals,
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eight transfers
between different surrogates
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and the last embryo,
the one that worked for you,
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is this one.
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So before immediately deciding
what my "best" option would be,
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take another look.
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♪
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Let's get some more scans.
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No promises,
but I will take another look.
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- Thank you.
- Alright.
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♪
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[ Sighs ]
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- Dr. Hunt.
- Hmm?
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I am on your service
and ready for anything.
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GSWs, 20-car pileups.
Whatever you need.
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Just keep me busy and elbows
deep and whatever you got.
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Music to my ears.
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Ronald Meinero,
this is Dr. Kwan.
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Ronald broke two ribs
- this morning.
- Were you attacked?
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Yeah, by my own ass
and gravity.
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I'm recovering
from hemorrhoid surgery.
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Slipped gettin'
out of the sitz bath.
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Ronald needs incentive
spirometer exercises,
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10 times every hour, okay?
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Watch him,
and let me know the results.
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Hey, boss.
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Hello, Marsh.
You're here with Meredith?
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No, I'm here to do
a kidney transplant.
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I thought you might
want to assist.
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Well, I think I'll pass.
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But maybe one of our interns
might get a kick out of it.
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Well, listen,
there's actually
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a groundbreaking angle
to this one.
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Yeah, it's only been done
one time before in the US.
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Come on. I'll walk you
through the case.
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See if you
change your mind.
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I'm all ears. [ Chuckles ]
Let's go.
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Catherine:
What is taking so long?
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Uh, we don't exactly do a lot
of liver biopsies in the clinic.
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Oh, well... thank you
for protecting my privacy.
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Richard is distracted
for at least an hour.
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I had Nick invite him
onto his kidney transplant.
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He knows to text me
when they're done.
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God... You told Marsh?
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Do you want to risk
Richard walking in here?
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A lied about tacos.
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I don't know what that means,
but gallbladder looks good.
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No fluid around the liver.
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There's a lesion here
- on the periphery.
- Mm-hmm.
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Looks like a good target
for the biopsy.
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Okay, now, Catherine,
before we drape and prep you,
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you sure you don't want
to reconsider telling Richard?
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I think I want to reconsider
my surgical team.
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It's a biopsy, ladies.
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I tell Richard when
there's something to tell.
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Will y'all just get
the damn thing started?
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Come on.
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- He requested me.
- I know.
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What'd you want me to do? Say,
"No, my girlfriend wants that"?
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You know I stayed up half the
night studying for that surgery.
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Maybe you shouldn't have.
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Says the Shepherd.
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- What?
- I need to finish up
Webber's notes.
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If it were you, you would
have taken it in a heartbeat.
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Griffith, change of plans.
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You and I are scrubbing in on
a transplant with Dr. Marsh.
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Meet me in OR 1.
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Chop, chop.
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♪
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Teddy: Is there
another surgical option?
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- I don't see one.
- Is that her diaphragm?
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Jo: Yeah. The pregnancy shifted
her internal organs up.
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Makes the tumor harder
to access.
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What if you embolize
the feeders to the tumor
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to stop it from growing?
287
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Amelia: It's too late.
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Even though it's benign,
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the tumor is big enough
to be a risk.
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There's no good alternative.
291
00:12:18,945 --> 00:12:20,774
Well, anyone who's gone to
four different surgeons
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isn't looking for
a second opinion.
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If we say no, she's just gonna
try to go to someone else.
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♪
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Tom. Big day.
How are you feeling?
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Mm [chuckles nervously]
anxious.
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I'm much happier serving
the OR table than being on it.
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I'm a scrub nurse
at Hope General.
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Are you not gonna intubate
him first?
300
00:12:41,588 --> 00:12:44,522
No. Not today.
Uh, let me present--
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Tom Costello, 33,
here for a kidney transplant
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without
general anesthesia.
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- An awake surgery?
- It was in the pre-op file.
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Under "Awake Surgery."
305
00:12:52,495 --> 00:12:55,119
He's been given a mild sedative
and a spinal anesthesia.
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00:12:55,119 --> 00:12:57,397
Okay, so what are the benefits
of an awake surgery?
307
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Uh... Forgoing
traditional anesthesia
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can expedite recovery
as well as reduce
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one's hospital stay,
which ultimately could
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save the healthcare system
- billions.
- Nice, Griffith.
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And I can keep an eye
on my surgical team.
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Is he prepared?
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[ Chuckles ] Um, Dr. Adams
is-- is new to the case,
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but I assure you,
he's a quick study.
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- Mm.
- Okay. You ready?
316
00:13:19,626 --> 00:13:21,662
Uh, how many Raytecs
have you opened up?
317
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- 10.
- Uh, go ahead.
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- Okay. 10-blade.
- Wait, wait, wait, wait.
319
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Are you sure everything
has been sterilized well enough?
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We got you. You can relax.
321
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Alright, here we go.
10-blade.
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♪
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Thank you.[ Exhales sharply ]
324
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[ Indistinct announcement
over PA system ]
325
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- Still no advance directive?
- Nope.
326
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And the more I go in there,
327
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I feel like a restaurant host
just trying to free up a table.
328
00:13:54,488 --> 00:13:57,388
I don't want her thinking we're
trying to push a DNR on her.
329
00:13:57,388 --> 00:13:59,010
Well, we're not.
330
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You just need to
make sure
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she clearly understands
what she's facing.
332
00:14:02,358 --> 00:14:05,085
Did you explain that life-saving
measures can be invasive?
333
00:14:05,085 --> 00:14:08,986
I use the word "violent."That's an understatement.
334
00:14:08,986 --> 00:14:11,540
Well, no matter
how old you are,
335
00:14:11,540 --> 00:14:13,611
no one likes to think about
their own death.
336
00:14:13,611 --> 00:14:15,889
So... give her a minute.
337
00:14:15,889 --> 00:14:17,235
Some patients just take
a little longer
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to listen to their doctors.
339
00:14:18,892 --> 00:14:22,102
I wonder if she
would listen to someone else.
340
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♪
341
00:14:27,211 --> 00:14:29,696
Knock, knock.
342
00:14:29,696 --> 00:14:31,456
I don't know
why I said "knock, knock"
343
00:14:31,456 --> 00:14:33,596
as opposed to
just knocking.
344
00:14:33,596 --> 00:14:35,460
That's okay.
345
00:14:35,460 --> 00:14:38,084
[ Clears throat ]
It's a great office.
346
00:14:38,084 --> 00:14:39,292
Uh, it's the chapel.
347
00:14:39,292 --> 00:14:40,776
Right.
[ Clears throat ]
348
00:14:42,778 --> 00:14:45,298
- It's got good light.
- Windows will do that, so...
349
00:14:45,298 --> 00:14:49,095
Uh, we're here, um,
about a patient.
350
00:14:49,095 --> 00:14:50,613
It's an elderly woman.
351
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She has multiple comorbidities,
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and she's refusing
to sign a DNR.
353
00:14:57,482 --> 00:14:59,760
Okay, she has had
multiple surgical
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00:14:59,760 --> 00:15:01,901
and medical interventions,
355
00:15:01,901 --> 00:15:05,801
and another intervention would
probably do more harm than good.
356
00:15:05,801 --> 00:15:09,909
So you're asking me to talk
her into signing the DNR?
357
00:15:09,909 --> 00:15:13,843
I...no. No.
Absolutely not. Um...
358
00:15:16,708 --> 00:15:19,677
But chest compressions
on an octogenarian
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00:15:19,677 --> 00:15:23,025
with bones like toothpicks...
it could kill her.
360
00:15:25,821 --> 00:15:27,685
At the very least,
uh, her ribs would snap
361
00:15:27,685 --> 00:15:29,273
and one could puncture lung,
and then we would
362
00:15:29,273 --> 00:15:30,757
- have to intubate her.
- Yeah, really,
363
00:15:30,757 --> 00:15:33,001
this is not what I do.
364
00:15:33,001 --> 00:15:36,521
Um, my comfort zone is
a little more,
365
00:15:36,521 --> 00:15:38,627
you know, "Am I gonna
see my dog when I die?"
366
00:15:40,042 --> 00:15:42,803
I-- I think
that she's struggling
367
00:15:42,803 --> 00:15:47,084
with her own mortality,
and I thought that
368
00:15:47,084 --> 00:15:49,569
you might be able to help
her understand her options.
369
00:15:51,709 --> 00:15:53,607
[ Siren wails in distance ]
370
00:15:53,607 --> 00:15:55,126
- Dr. Hunt?
- Owen: Yeah?
371
00:15:55,126 --> 00:15:56,610
I just finished
another session
372
00:15:56,610 --> 00:15:58,164
of spirometer exercises
with Ronald
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- and discharged bed 2.
- Great.
374
00:15:59,993 --> 00:16:03,376
If you need me anywhere else,
I can handle multiple cases.
375
00:16:03,376 --> 00:16:05,343
Well, we have
a scalp lac in bed 1.
376
00:16:05,343 --> 00:16:07,483
Yeah, I'll take a look.
Um...
377
00:16:07,483 --> 00:16:11,694
I am interested in exploring
trauma as a specialty,
378
00:16:11,694 --> 00:16:15,043
and I would love to work
on... bigger traumas.
379
00:16:15,043 --> 00:16:16,561
Ah.
380
00:16:16,561 --> 00:16:18,287
Kwan, traumas are traumas.
381
00:16:18,287 --> 00:16:19,909
It doesn't matter
if they're caused by gunshots
382
00:16:19,909 --> 00:16:22,464
or wildfires
or falls in the bathtub.
383
00:16:22,464 --> 00:16:24,914
Ronald babysits
his granddaughter every Tuesday,
384
00:16:24,914 --> 00:16:27,503
and he is a ping pong legend
in Washington state
385
00:16:27,503 --> 00:16:29,712
and he wants to get back
to both of those things
as soon as possible.
386
00:16:29,712 --> 00:16:32,992
Carla, in bed 1, she
split her head open
sliding in to home plate,
387
00:16:32,992 --> 00:16:36,202
but she's excited to play in
the state semifinals next week.
388
00:16:36,202 --> 00:16:38,411
They're all counting on you
to help them.
389
00:16:38,411 --> 00:16:40,206
But if they're
not exciting enough for you,
390
00:16:40,206 --> 00:16:41,759
then... I'll go check on them.
391
00:16:41,759 --> 00:16:44,658
I think that's a good idea.
392
00:16:44,658 --> 00:16:47,178
No one can accuse you
of having a dull career.
393
00:16:47,178 --> 00:16:49,525
Well, I've tried to
- follow my heart.
- Aww. Isn't that sweet?
394
00:16:49,525 --> 00:16:52,908
You know, I'm more of
a "dance with the one
that brung ya" kind of gal.
395
00:16:52,908 --> 00:16:54,392
You know,
jack of all trades is great
396
00:16:54,392 --> 00:16:56,877
if you want a job
at TaskRabbit,
397
00:16:56,877 --> 00:16:58,707
but-- but for a surgeon?
398
00:16:58,707 --> 00:17:01,261
I think you'll find
that I'm a very good surgeon.
399
00:17:01,261 --> 00:17:03,056
Oh. Okay.
400
00:17:03,056 --> 00:17:06,059
"Enthusiastically
recommends... himself."
401
00:17:06,059 --> 00:17:08,406
In addition to my four years
as a general surgery resident,
402
00:17:08,406 --> 00:17:11,858
I was a firefighter for five and
- an anesthesiologist for seven.
- Mm-hmm.
403
00:17:11,858 --> 00:17:14,343
When I set my mind
- to something, I master it.
- Right.
404
00:17:14,343 --> 00:17:16,863
But what happens when the next
- shiny object comes along?
- I--
405
00:17:16,863 --> 00:17:19,072
You gonna leave me
- high and dry?
- No. I wo--
406
00:17:19,072 --> 00:17:21,592
Surgery, it's a calling.
407
00:17:21,592 --> 00:17:25,734
It requires patience,
commitment, stick-to-itiveness.
408
00:17:25,734 --> 00:17:27,770
If I may be frank, I...
409
00:17:27,770 --> 00:17:29,358
I'm not sure you have
what it takes.
410
00:17:29,358 --> 00:17:31,257
♪
411
00:17:31,257 --> 00:17:33,535
[ Chuckles ]
412
00:17:33,535 --> 00:17:35,192
You want commitment?
413
00:17:35,192 --> 00:17:37,090
I've carried people
down 10 flights of stairs
414
00:17:37,090 --> 00:17:39,368
wearing
75 pounds of gear.
415
00:17:39,368 --> 00:17:40,576
You want patience?
416
00:17:40,576 --> 00:17:42,095
I convinced a hopeless teen
417
00:17:42,095 --> 00:17:43,717
to step away from the ledge.
418
00:17:43,717 --> 00:17:45,202
Stick-to-itiveness?
[ Chuckles ]
419
00:17:45,202 --> 00:17:47,618
I've been happily married
for 12 years,
420
00:17:47,618 --> 00:17:50,552
and I have three children that
I love more than any career.
421
00:17:50,552 --> 00:17:53,486
So if you don't want to bring
me back, I'll be fine.
422
00:17:53,486 --> 00:17:55,074
Thank you for your time.
423
00:17:55,074 --> 00:18:02,943
♪
424
00:18:02,943 --> 00:18:04,738
You're saying
you can do it?
425
00:18:04,738 --> 00:18:06,223
I'm saying I'll try.
426
00:18:06,223 --> 00:18:08,259
Because I think you are someone
427
00:18:08,259 --> 00:18:10,296
who doesn't like
to hear no for an answer.
428
00:18:10,296 --> 00:18:11,814
And so am I.
429
00:18:11,814 --> 00:18:13,678
I told you.
You wanted to give up.
430
00:18:13,678 --> 00:18:15,853
- I told you it was possible.
- Now, I didn't say that.
431
00:18:15,853 --> 00:18:17,855
I don't know if it is.
432
00:18:17,855 --> 00:18:19,960
This surgery will increase
the risk to yourself.
433
00:18:19,960 --> 00:18:21,445
And we don't know
that we can save the pregnancy.
434
00:18:21,445 --> 00:18:23,861
If there are
any complications,
435
00:18:23,861 --> 00:18:25,863
I will put
your life and health first.
436
00:18:25,863 --> 00:18:27,520
I still don't feel good
about this.
437
00:18:27,520 --> 00:18:28,831
I don't either.
438
00:18:28,831 --> 00:18:30,971
I want to do this.
439
00:18:30,971 --> 00:18:34,113
Okay. Dr. Yasuda will admit
and prep you,
440
00:18:34,113 --> 00:18:36,011
and we will see you
in the OR.
441
00:18:36,011 --> 00:18:38,255
♪
442
00:18:38,255 --> 00:18:41,637
Okay, Catherine, I'm going in,
so you may feel some pressure.
443
00:18:41,637 --> 00:18:44,019
I'm good under pressure.
444
00:18:44,019 --> 00:18:45,434
And you better be, too.
445
00:18:45,434 --> 00:18:46,815
[ Chuckles ]
446
00:18:52,476 --> 00:18:53,994
Good hemostasis.
447
00:18:53,994 --> 00:18:56,065
Put a rush on that,
and, uh, be discreet.
448
00:18:56,065 --> 00:18:57,964
[ Monitors beeping wildly,
Catherine groans ]
Oh! Damn it!
449
00:18:57,964 --> 00:18:59,655
- She's hemorrhaging.
- Okay.
450
00:18:59,655 --> 00:19:01,278
She's bleeding
from her esophagus.
451
00:19:01,278 --> 00:19:03,280
Let's get her on her side.
Suction!
452
00:19:03,280 --> 00:19:04,729
Hold on, Catherine.
453
00:19:04,729 --> 00:19:06,179
Nurse Linda,
let's hang a unit of blood.
454
00:19:06,179 --> 00:19:07,491
I'm gonna get
the intubation tray.
455
00:19:07,491 --> 00:19:09,044
You're gonna set up
an EGD
456
00:19:09,044 --> 00:19:10,735
and let the IR suite know
we are on our way.
457
00:19:10,735 --> 00:19:13,048
- On it.
- Alright.
We need to put in a shunt.
458
00:19:13,048 --> 00:19:14,739
Okay.
459
00:19:14,739 --> 00:19:16,327
This is more than a biopsy.
460
00:19:16,327 --> 00:19:17,880
And what are you saying?
461
00:19:17,880 --> 00:19:19,227
I'm saying that even
if we stop the bleeding,
462
00:19:19,227 --> 00:19:21,021
she could go into
liver failure.
463
00:19:21,021 --> 00:19:22,575
She might never wake up
from this.
464
00:19:22,575 --> 00:19:24,301
Richard needs to know.
465
00:19:24,301 --> 00:19:25,302
♪
466
00:19:25,302 --> 00:19:26,510
Okay.
467
00:19:26,510 --> 00:19:29,237
♪
468
00:19:29,237 --> 00:19:30,652
Okay.
469
00:19:30,652 --> 00:19:32,412
[ Monitor beeping steadily ]
470
00:19:36,623 --> 00:19:38,522
Okay, it's in.
471
00:19:38,522 --> 00:19:40,869
Adams.
Let's see what you got.
472
00:19:40,869 --> 00:19:43,734
Uh, can we pause for
a needle and sponge count?
473
00:19:43,734 --> 00:19:45,425
Okay, we already did one.
474
00:19:45,425 --> 00:19:46,875
We'll do another one
before we're close.
475
00:19:46,875 --> 00:19:48,325
Okay.
Can't be too careful.
476
00:19:48,325 --> 00:19:50,189
Last month,
a patient went septic
477
00:19:50,189 --> 00:19:52,881
after the surgeons left
a lap pad in her abdomen.
478
00:19:52,881 --> 00:19:55,677
Okay. Bokhee,
can you count, please?
479
00:19:55,677 --> 00:19:59,370
One, two, three, four, five,
six, seven, eight, nine--
480
00:19:59,370 --> 00:20:00,509
10. We're good.
481
00:20:00,509 --> 00:20:02,442
Nick: Great.
482
00:20:02,442 --> 00:20:04,686
[ Cellphone buzzes ]
Oh, shoot.
Griffith, can you--
483
00:20:04,686 --> 00:20:07,758
Check the phone
- while Adams sutures? Sure.
- Yeah.
484
00:20:11,071 --> 00:20:13,902
It's Dr. Grey
paging Dr. Webber.
485
00:20:13,902 --> 00:20:15,938
Well, she doesn't know
I got pulled into a surgery.
486
00:20:15,938 --> 00:20:17,906
I'll check in with her later.
487
00:20:17,906 --> 00:20:20,702
It says 911.
488
00:20:20,702 --> 00:20:22,531
You should go.
489
00:20:22,531 --> 00:20:24,878
No, no, no, no,
no one should leave.
490
00:20:24,878 --> 00:20:26,155
Now, look,
I'm sure it can wait.
491
00:20:26,155 --> 00:20:27,640
How many cc's of blood
have I lost?
492
00:20:27,640 --> 00:20:29,918
Richard, you need to go.
It's your wife.
493
00:20:29,918 --> 00:20:31,264
Meredith is doing
a procedure on her.
494
00:20:31,264 --> 00:20:32,438
You need to go.
495
00:20:32,438 --> 00:20:35,958
♪
496
00:20:35,958 --> 00:20:37,477
- Where is she?
- Simone: IR suite.
497
00:20:37,477 --> 00:20:40,929
♪
498
00:20:46,314 --> 00:20:49,489
Make sure to stay upright.
Very good. Good job.
499
00:20:49,489 --> 00:20:51,111
[ Siren wails in distance ]
Owen: What have we got?
500
00:20:51,111 --> 00:20:52,492
Ronald: I'd be better at this
if I played the tuba
501
00:20:52,492 --> 00:20:55,254
- instead of ping pong.
- Let's get him inside. Let's go.
502
00:20:55,254 --> 00:20:57,152
Okay. Car flipped over
the median, GCS 7.
503
00:20:57,152 --> 00:20:59,465
He was intubated in the field.
Vitals are unstable.
504
00:20:59,465 --> 00:21:01,674
We might have to take
him directly up to the OR.
505
00:21:01,674 --> 00:21:06,403
- Kwan. Trauma one.
- Okay. Keep going, Ronald.
I'll be right back.
506
00:21:06,403 --> 00:21:09,095
- Julian: Dr. Yasuda.
- Orderlies are on their way
507
00:21:09,095 --> 00:21:10,924
to bring your sister
to the OR.
508
00:21:10,924 --> 00:21:13,168
Thanks, but that's
not what I...
509
00:21:13,168 --> 00:21:15,481
- Do you have siblings?
- Yeah, I have eight.
510
00:21:15,481 --> 00:21:17,828
I just have Rhi.
511
00:21:17,828 --> 00:21:20,279
When Carl and I first started
looking for a surrogate,
512
00:21:20,279 --> 00:21:22,419
she insisted that
no one would take better care
513
00:21:22,419 --> 00:21:24,144
of the baby
than Auntie Rhi.
514
00:21:24,144 --> 00:21:26,595
I said no, but after
all the failed attempts,
515
00:21:26,595 --> 00:21:28,425
she offered again
516
00:21:28,425 --> 00:21:30,530
and she was so determined
that I didn't fight it.
517
00:21:30,530 --> 00:21:32,360
Then they found the tumor.
518
00:21:32,360 --> 00:21:35,777
Am I gonna regret
not fighting it now?
519
00:21:35,777 --> 00:21:37,813
I don't really know,
but, um...
520
00:21:37,813 --> 00:21:40,057
Dr. Shepherd and Dr. Altman
are both excellent.
521
00:21:40,057 --> 00:21:41,817
Aren't you a doctor?
522
00:21:41,817 --> 00:21:44,372
You must have an opinion.
523
00:21:44,372 --> 00:21:47,720
I...I wish I could tell you
it'll be fine,
524
00:21:47,720 --> 00:21:49,377
but I just, I don't know.
525
00:21:49,377 --> 00:21:50,999
I'm sorry.
526
00:21:50,999 --> 00:22:01,561
♪
527
00:22:01,561 --> 00:22:04,875
Meredith: We have 500 cc's of
blood in the NG canister.
528
00:22:04,875 --> 00:22:06,808
Bailey:
Advancing the guidewire
529
00:22:06,808 --> 00:22:09,258
I'm in
the right hepatic vein.
530
00:22:09,258 --> 00:22:10,846
Aim anteriorly.
531
00:22:10,846 --> 00:22:12,848
What happened?
532
00:22:12,848 --> 00:22:14,540
We were doing
a liver biopsy.
533
00:22:14,540 --> 00:22:18,026
- She started bleeding.
- So you do a TIPS procedure?
534
00:22:18,026 --> 00:22:20,097
I'm about to
put in the shunt.
535
00:22:20,097 --> 00:22:21,581
- Is she in liver failure?
- Meredith: Not yet.
536
00:22:21,581 --> 00:22:23,238
We're trying
to prevent that.
537
00:22:23,238 --> 00:22:24,550
She wanted to get
the results of the biopsy
538
00:22:24,550 --> 00:22:26,068
before she told you.
539
00:22:26,068 --> 00:22:44,397
♪
540
00:22:44,397 --> 00:22:45,709
Take care of her.
541
00:22:47,918 --> 00:22:49,609
I'll be waiting outside.
542
00:22:49,609 --> 00:22:58,135
♪
543
00:22:58,135 --> 00:22:59,757
Okay, Tom,
we're almost done here.
544
00:22:59,757 --> 00:23:03,761
Uh, can we do
a final count?
545
00:23:03,761 --> 00:23:06,005
Yep. You got it.
Go ahead, Bokhee.
546
00:23:07,834 --> 00:23:10,250
- I don't hear counting.
- It's 'cause
it's in our heads.
547
00:23:10,250 --> 00:23:12,460
Are you sure
that the kidney is pink?
548
00:23:12,460 --> 00:23:14,600
Tom, how many kidney transplants
have you done?
549
00:23:14,600 --> 00:23:17,568
None! But I have seen so m--Well, I've done more than 600,
550
00:23:17,568 --> 00:23:19,743
and I've had one done myself,
so I get it's unnerving
551
00:23:19,743 --> 00:23:22,953
being on the table,
but everything is under control.
552
00:23:22,953 --> 00:23:25,473
- Okay? We got you.
- Okay.
553
00:23:25,473 --> 00:23:27,751
Okay. Looks good.[ Whispering indistinctly ]
554
00:23:27,751 --> 00:23:29,718
♪
555
00:23:29,718 --> 00:23:31,133
What?
556
00:23:31,133 --> 00:23:33,998
We're missing a Raytec.[ Sighs ]
557
00:23:33,998 --> 00:23:35,483
Let's count one more time.
558
00:23:35,483 --> 00:23:37,243
Okay.
559
00:23:37,243 --> 00:23:39,832
Well, my faith
is based on a belief
560
00:23:39,832 --> 00:23:42,110
that God doesn't
abandon me in death,
561
00:23:42,110 --> 00:23:43,352
w-which I personally find
comforting.
562
00:23:43,352 --> 00:23:45,458
Good for you. O-Of course, you know,
563
00:23:45,458 --> 00:23:48,081
everyone has their own
relationship with death.
564
00:23:48,081 --> 00:23:50,739
It's okay and
perfectly natural to fear it.
565
00:23:50,739 --> 00:23:52,431
[ Scoffs ] Not me.
566
00:23:52,431 --> 00:23:54,950
I'm not afraid of death
or-- or hell
567
00:23:54,950 --> 00:23:57,159
or coming back as a bird.
[ Chuckles ]
568
00:23:57,159 --> 00:23:59,438
Well, we're not encouraging you
to sign the DNR.
569
00:23:59,438 --> 00:24:01,612
We just want to make sure
that you understand
570
00:24:01,612 --> 00:24:04,477
what not signing it
would mean for you when--
571
00:24:04,477 --> 00:24:07,169
For the last time,
I know what it means.
572
00:24:07,169 --> 00:24:09,448
And I know
why I'm not signing it.
573
00:24:09,448 --> 00:24:13,003
I refuse to die before
my bastard ex-husband.
574
00:24:13,003 --> 00:24:15,177
I'm gonna outlive that SOB
575
00:24:15,177 --> 00:24:17,663
if it's literally
the last thing I do.
576
00:24:18,629 --> 00:24:23,358
Uh, it seems like
you could use some closure.
577
00:24:23,358 --> 00:24:24,635
Hell, yes!
578
00:24:24,635 --> 00:24:26,499
Closure on his casket
579
00:24:26,499 --> 00:24:28,605
before it clicks shut
so I can dance on it.
580
00:24:28,605 --> 00:24:33,541
♪
581
00:24:33,541 --> 00:24:36,785
I did not
- see this coming.
- Not a chance.
582
00:24:36,785 --> 00:24:39,305
Things they don't teach you
- in divinity school.
- Well, they don't really
583
00:24:39,305 --> 00:24:40,409
teach it in medical school, either.
584
00:24:40,409 --> 00:24:43,654
Oh! Victor Suarez.
[ Chuckles ]
585
00:24:43,654 --> 00:24:45,863
Margins look good.
586
00:24:45,863 --> 00:24:47,624
I've got
proximal control.
587
00:24:47,624 --> 00:24:48,970
Yasuda, suction.
588
00:24:48,970 --> 00:24:50,074
Amelia:
I've got distal control.
589
00:24:50,074 --> 00:24:52,249
[ Monitor alarm beeping ]
590
00:24:52,249 --> 00:24:53,802
We've lost neuro signal
to the legs.
591
00:24:53,802 --> 00:24:56,218
We need to get more
blood flow to her spinal cord.
592
00:24:56,218 --> 00:24:59,187
Bolus her with 500 cc's of LR.Man: On it.
593
00:24:59,187 --> 00:25:01,051
- Jo: Anything?
- No, and
we don't have time
594
00:25:01,051 --> 00:25:02,328
to wait for it to kick in.
595
00:25:02,328 --> 00:25:04,537
Start her on pressors.[ Beeping ]
596
00:25:04,537 --> 00:25:07,333
Late decels. The pressors
are decreasing blood
flow to the baby.
597
00:25:07,333 --> 00:25:09,542
Still no signal.
Go up on the pressors.
598
00:25:09,542 --> 00:25:11,889
Give the fluids
- a chance to work.
- Mom's life and health first.
599
00:25:11,889 --> 00:25:13,650
I know it may take
a few seconds.
600
00:25:13,650 --> 00:25:15,548
Rhiannon's spinal cord
may not have a few seconds.
601
00:25:15,548 --> 00:25:17,170
Doctors... Hold off. If you don't stop,
the baby will die.
602
00:25:17,170 --> 00:25:19,034
Go up on the pressors. I am
the primary surgeon on th--
603
00:25:19,034 --> 00:25:21,174
Just stop!
604
00:25:21,174 --> 00:25:22,590
This is a human being
on the table.
605
00:25:22,590 --> 00:25:24,350
She is someone's daughter,
someone's sister.
606
00:25:24,350 --> 00:25:26,248
She's counting on us
to save her
607
00:25:26,248 --> 00:25:28,527
and ideally the baby,
to stop arguing
608
00:25:28,527 --> 00:25:30,183
like she's some kind of
science experiment!
609
00:25:30,183 --> 00:25:32,013
Just figure out what you do
and do it!
610
00:25:32,013 --> 00:25:35,672
♪
611
00:25:35,672 --> 00:25:37,605
[ Steady beeping ]
612
00:25:37,605 --> 00:25:39,572
Teddy: We've got blood flow
to the spinal cord.
613
00:25:39,572 --> 00:25:42,437
Decels stopped.
Sinus rhythm's back to normal.
614
00:25:42,437 --> 00:25:44,370
Thank God.
615
00:25:44,370 --> 00:25:48,547
But, Yasuda... Yep. I'll see myself out.
616
00:25:48,547 --> 00:25:55,070
♪
617
00:26:00,420 --> 00:26:04,632
[ Whispering ] Do you see it?[ Whispering ]
No, I don't see it.
618
00:26:04,632 --> 00:26:06,047
It doesn't mean
- it's not still in him.
- Are you whispering?
619
00:26:06,047 --> 00:26:07,324
[ Clears throat ]
No. Sorry, Tom.
620
00:26:07,324 --> 00:26:09,568
It's just a bit of a frog
in my throat.
621
00:26:09,568 --> 00:26:11,121
[ Whispering ] Search
everywhere. Search the
field, search the floor.
622
00:26:11,121 --> 00:26:11,984
We cannot close
until we find it.
623
00:26:11,984 --> 00:26:13,917
[ Whispering ] Back table.
624
00:26:13,917 --> 00:26:19,992
[ High-pitched squealing ]
625
00:26:19,992 --> 00:26:22,891
- Sir? You okay?
- I'm really not.
626
00:26:22,891 --> 00:26:25,238
I am trying to trust you,
but I know the sounds
627
00:26:25,238 --> 00:26:26,515
of the instruments
when they hit the tray.
628
00:26:26,515 --> 00:26:27,965
I listen for them
so I can count.
629
00:26:27,965 --> 00:26:29,622
Yeah.[ Tool clatters ]
630
00:26:29,622 --> 00:26:31,624
Easy. That was a hemostat.
But the sponges--
631
00:26:31,624 --> 00:26:33,626
the sponges
don't make any sounds.
632
00:26:33,626 --> 00:26:35,801
You're doing great. We're
almost there. Hang in there.
633
00:26:35,801 --> 00:26:37,630
That's septic patient that
- I was telling you about.
- Mm-hmm?
634
00:26:37,630 --> 00:26:40,184
I was the one
who miscounted the lap pads.
635
00:26:40,184 --> 00:26:42,635
And I am always so careful.
636
00:26:42,635 --> 00:26:44,775
So if it could happen to me... It-- It happens.
637
00:26:44,775 --> 00:26:48,641
Nobody's perfect.
Deep breaths. Okay?
638
00:26:48,641 --> 00:26:50,988
- Why are you staring at me?
- I'm not. Dr. Marsh.
639
00:26:50,988 --> 00:26:52,472
- What?
- Find the damn thing.
640
00:26:52,472 --> 00:26:55,510
Dr. Marsh. It's--
It's stuck to your shoe.
641
00:26:55,510 --> 00:26:58,202
♪
642
00:26:58,202 --> 00:26:59,997
[ Exhales sharply ][ Laughs softly ]
643
00:27:01,585 --> 00:27:04,312
Thank you. Okay.
644
00:27:04,312 --> 00:27:06,659
The, uh, the anastomosis
is complete.
645
00:27:06,659 --> 00:27:08,834
We have 10 Raytecs accounted
for. We're ready to close.
646
00:27:08,834 --> 00:27:11,699
Dr. Griffith, why don't you
- take the lead?
- Absolutely.
647
00:27:11,699 --> 00:27:12,803
Tom: Are you sure you
don't want to do it yourself?
648
00:27:12,803 --> 00:27:14,149
- Tom.
- Sorry.
649
00:27:14,149 --> 00:27:15,495
Donna Mae: Reese and I met
650
00:27:15,495 --> 00:27:17,670
working in his father's
furniture store.
651
00:27:17,670 --> 00:27:20,984
On slow days, we'd sit
on the showroom couches,
652
00:27:20,984 --> 00:27:22,502
laughing and talking.
653
00:27:22,502 --> 00:27:24,677
- Oh, that sounds nice.
- Oh, it was.
654
00:27:24,677 --> 00:27:27,818
Then we got married,
and everything went to hell.
655
00:27:27,818 --> 00:27:31,891
Our first fight was during the
wedding, and it never stopped.
656
00:27:31,891 --> 00:27:34,860
The only good thing that
came out of that relationship
657
00:27:34,860 --> 00:27:36,516
was my sleeper sofa.
658
00:27:36,516 --> 00:27:39,209
Mrs. Clarkson,
we have some news.
659
00:27:39,209 --> 00:27:40,831
We found your ex-husband.
660
00:27:41,694 --> 00:27:43,489
Is he living
with that rat Sheila?
661
00:27:43,489 --> 00:27:45,664
He was living at
662
00:27:45,664 --> 00:27:47,735
the Oceanfront
Assisted Living Facility.
663
00:27:47,735 --> 00:27:51,221
- Oh.
- But a couple of months ago,
he passed away.
664
00:27:54,224 --> 00:27:55,466
Donna Mae,
how are you feeling?
665
00:27:57,745 --> 00:28:01,921
[ Laughs ]
666
00:28:01,921 --> 00:28:04,717
Oh! [ Chuckles ]
667
00:28:04,717 --> 00:28:08,583
♪
668
00:28:08,583 --> 00:28:10,585
[ Crying ]
669
00:28:10,585 --> 00:28:14,382
♪
670
00:28:14,382 --> 00:28:16,729
I know it sounds crazy,
671
00:28:16,729 --> 00:28:20,733
but I'm gonna miss
that... horse's ass.
672
00:28:20,733 --> 00:28:22,045
[ Chuckles softly ]
673
00:28:22,045 --> 00:28:25,911
♪
674
00:28:25,911 --> 00:28:27,498
[ Exhales sharply ]
675
00:28:28,879 --> 00:28:30,639
I'll sign that DNR now.
676
00:28:30,639 --> 00:28:35,783
♪
677
00:28:37,267 --> 00:28:39,579
How are you holding up?
678
00:28:39,579 --> 00:28:40,788
Bailey send you?
679
00:28:40,788 --> 00:28:42,651
[ Exhales sharply ]
680
00:28:42,651 --> 00:28:45,758
Uh, yeah.
681
00:28:53,248 --> 00:28:54,318
You know,
at the fire academy,
682
00:28:54,318 --> 00:28:56,769
there was a, uh,
a "burn building"
683
00:28:56,769 --> 00:28:58,598
where they would simulate
structure fires.
684
00:28:58,598 --> 00:29:01,118
It's, uh, it's our first time
dealing with the heat,
685
00:29:01,118 --> 00:29:03,120
Smoke, the gear.
686
00:29:03,120 --> 00:29:06,434
It's intense.
Pretty scary.
687
00:29:06,434 --> 00:29:08,436
And it wasn't even
the real thing.
688
00:29:08,436 --> 00:29:12,060
But the scariest part
wasn't the fire.
689
00:29:12,060 --> 00:29:15,477
It was... It was not
being able to see my team
690
00:29:15,477 --> 00:29:18,687
through the smoke and chaos,
and somehow...
691
00:29:20,689 --> 00:29:23,934
...there was nothing
more terrifying than...
692
00:29:23,934 --> 00:29:25,833
just that...
693
00:29:25,833 --> 00:29:28,180
that feeling
of being alone.
694
00:29:28,180 --> 00:29:31,010
♪
695
00:29:31,010 --> 00:29:33,806
Is there a point
to this story?
696
00:29:33,806 --> 00:29:34,911
Not really.
697
00:29:34,911 --> 00:29:43,540
♪ Shaking hands
698
00:29:43,540 --> 00:29:46,508
Did the biopsy
go smoothly?
699
00:29:48,165 --> 00:29:52,135
Um, if by smoothly
you mean
700
00:29:52,135 --> 00:29:56,380
having to convert to an EGD
and TIPS procedure,
701
00:29:56,380 --> 00:29:59,625
then, yes,
it went very smoothly.
702
00:29:59,625 --> 00:30:02,524
♪
703
00:30:02,524 --> 00:30:04,664
Did you hear
from pathology yet?
704
00:30:04,664 --> 00:30:06,666
Not yet.♪ ...when I close my eyes?
705
00:30:06,666 --> 00:30:09,980
But for now, you're alive.[ Scoffs weakly ]
706
00:30:09,980 --> 00:30:14,398
And also your... husband is
outside waiting to see you.
707
00:30:14,398 --> 00:30:15,952
You told him?
708
00:30:15,952 --> 00:30:20,197
It... became more than
just a biopsy.
709
00:30:20,197 --> 00:30:21,854
I understand.
710
00:30:21,854 --> 00:30:25,306
♪ Feels like I'm falling
711
00:30:25,306 --> 00:30:27,342
Thank you.♪ Feels like I'm crashing
712
00:30:27,342 --> 00:30:30,173
I'm sorry, what?
713
00:30:30,173 --> 00:30:32,037
Thank you, Dr. Bailey.
714
00:30:32,037 --> 00:30:36,627
I know I've been stubborn
and very difficult, and...
715
00:30:37,905 --> 00:30:41,667
But you are a big part of
what makes this hospital great,
716
00:30:41,667 --> 00:30:44,187
and you-- you
should always be here.
717
00:30:45,774 --> 00:30:48,363
[ Snorts softly ]
Is that you give me my job back?
718
00:30:48,363 --> 00:30:50,193
Don't make me
say it twice.
719
00:30:50,952 --> 00:30:52,229
[ Gasps ]
720
00:30:53,575 --> 00:30:55,715
Oh! [ Laughs ]
721
00:30:55,715 --> 00:30:56,889
[ Laughs ] Ohh.
722
00:30:56,889 --> 00:30:58,857
Oh, I'm sorry.[ Groans ]
723
00:30:58,857 --> 00:31:01,687
Oh, yes. Okay.
724
00:31:01,687 --> 00:31:07,417
♪ Mm, ooh
725
00:31:07,417 --> 00:31:08,625
So she's gonna be okay?
726
00:31:08,625 --> 00:31:09,902
She had some blood loss,
727
00:31:09,902 --> 00:31:12,180
but I was able to
remove the tumor,
728
00:31:12,180 --> 00:31:15,528
and she and the baby
are both okay.
729
00:31:15,528 --> 00:31:19,015
Oh, my God, she was right.
She said you could do it.
730
00:31:19,015 --> 00:31:21,362
- And she was right.
- Thank you.
731
00:31:21,362 --> 00:31:23,743
I can't tell you how
much this means to all of us.
732
00:31:23,743 --> 00:31:26,229
Well, we'll check on her
in the morning.
733
00:31:26,229 --> 00:31:28,231
♪ Before this darkness
takes me ♪
734
00:31:28,231 --> 00:31:32,304
I'm sorry if I seemed
mistrustful earlier, I just...
735
00:31:32,304 --> 00:31:34,133
I'm her older brother.
736
00:31:34,133 --> 00:31:37,619
I've always watched out for her,
and I felt helpless.
737
00:31:37,619 --> 00:31:39,828
I get it.
738
00:31:39,828 --> 00:31:41,071
My brother...
739
00:31:41,071 --> 00:31:42,486
♪ Hold me steady
740
00:31:42,486 --> 00:31:44,523
...he watched out for me, too.
741
00:31:45,973 --> 00:31:52,255
♪ Whoa, oh
742
00:31:52,255 --> 00:31:56,155
♪ Hold me steady
743
00:31:56,155 --> 00:32:02,575
♪ Oh
744
00:32:02,575 --> 00:32:05,164
♪ Hold me steady
745
00:32:05,164 --> 00:32:07,408
♪ Hold me, hold me
746
00:32:07,408 --> 00:32:10,273
Meredith, you looked me
in the eye
747
00:32:10,273 --> 00:32:13,138
and you lied.
748
00:32:13,138 --> 00:32:16,865
♪ Hold me steady
749
00:32:16,865 --> 00:32:18,833
I'm sorry.
750
00:32:18,833 --> 00:32:22,181
It was hard enough to get
her to agree to do the biopsy.
751
00:32:22,181 --> 00:32:23,527
I'm sure you can relate.
752
00:32:23,527 --> 00:32:24,977
How long have you known?
753
00:32:24,977 --> 00:32:26,634
What does that have
to do with anything?
754
00:32:26,634 --> 00:32:31,432
Do you know how many times
I've stood up for you?
755
00:32:31,432 --> 00:32:33,813
How many times
I've defended you, Meredith?
756
00:32:33,813 --> 00:32:35,539
I tried to
get her to tell you.
757
00:32:35,539 --> 00:32:37,472
And you don't think I would've
been able to handle it?
758
00:32:37,472 --> 00:32:40,165
♪
759
00:32:40,165 --> 00:32:42,029
- I think she was scared.
- That's exactly
760
00:32:42,029 --> 00:32:43,375
why you should have
told me.
761
00:32:43,375 --> 00:32:47,344
♪
762
00:32:47,344 --> 00:32:48,380
Shame on you.
763
00:32:48,380 --> 00:32:55,525
♪ Hold [ Sighs ]
764
00:32:55,525 --> 00:32:56,560
♪ Hold me steady
765
00:33:02,359 --> 00:33:05,293
Dictate the operative
report, and then check his
H and H before you go.
766
00:33:05,293 --> 00:33:07,019
- You got it.
- Good work today.
767
00:33:07,019 --> 00:33:09,297
So, are you still thinking
about going into trauma?
768
00:33:09,297 --> 00:33:11,886
Yeah. I like
the variety of patients.
769
00:33:11,886 --> 00:33:14,578
Listen, some days are
slower than others,
770
00:33:14,578 --> 00:33:16,995
but most days there is
something interesting.
771
00:33:16,995 --> 00:33:18,479
I don't know if I want to be
the guy waiting
772
00:33:18,479 --> 00:33:20,895
around hoping for
a car wreck.
773
00:33:20,895 --> 00:33:25,072
A man was in a medically
induced coma from a brain bleed.
774
00:33:25,072 --> 00:33:28,247
His life will never
be the same.
775
00:33:28,247 --> 00:33:29,697
His loved ones will
never be the same.
776
00:33:29,697 --> 00:33:33,494
♪ I'm keeping warm
777
00:33:33,494 --> 00:33:36,324
Oh, and, uh, Robertson is gonna
take over the post-op care.
778
00:33:36,324 --> 00:33:39,051
But if there are signs of early
graft rejection, I want to know.
779
00:33:39,051 --> 00:33:40,673
- Okay.
- Okay?
780
00:33:40,673 --> 00:33:43,262
♪ They say I lost a piece
along the way ♪
781
00:33:43,262 --> 00:33:45,264
Excellent work today.
782
00:33:45,264 --> 00:33:47,404
[ Exhales sharply ]
Thanks.
783
00:33:47,404 --> 00:33:50,683
I heard you're
repeating intern year.
784
00:33:50,683 --> 00:33:52,271
Yep. Yeah.
785
00:33:52,271 --> 00:33:54,722
12 more months
of following orders
786
00:33:54,722 --> 00:33:57,035
and barely
getting to operate.
787
00:33:57,035 --> 00:33:58,898
Well, I don't-- I don't think
that's such a bad thing.
788
00:33:58,898 --> 00:34:02,040
Internships should be two years,
18 months minimum.
789
00:34:02,040 --> 00:34:04,111
We expect you to learn
too much, too fast.
790
00:34:04,111 --> 00:34:05,905
- You're gonna be more prepared.
- You don't think
I'll lose ground?
791
00:34:05,905 --> 00:34:07,528
If you wanna
keep leveling up,
792
00:34:07,528 --> 00:34:09,219
you work with people
that make you better.
793
00:34:09,219 --> 00:34:11,187
Like Griffith.
794
00:34:11,187 --> 00:34:13,741
She's good. You stick
with her, you'll be fine.
795
00:34:13,741 --> 00:34:16,709
♪
796
00:34:16,709 --> 00:34:18,884
Congrats on Rhiannon.
Such a victory.
797
00:34:18,884 --> 00:34:20,920
- Well, it's a team effort.
- You took the lead.
798
00:34:20,920 --> 00:34:22,922
- Just say thanks.
- Thanks.
799
00:34:22,922 --> 00:34:25,304
So I was catching up
on some admin work,
800
00:34:25,304 --> 00:34:29,377
and these are charts of
15 patients similar to Rhiannon,
801
00:34:29,377 --> 00:34:32,656
and they all asked
to see you.
802
00:34:32,656 --> 00:34:35,970
15 pregnant women
with spinal tumors?
803
00:34:35,970 --> 00:34:38,973
Patients with seemingly
impossible cases
804
00:34:38,973 --> 00:34:41,631
who have been turned down
at hospitals across the country.
805
00:34:41,631 --> 00:34:44,772
People who have
only been told no.
806
00:34:44,772 --> 00:34:46,429
And they wanna see me?
807
00:34:46,429 --> 00:34:48,086
Well, they all
say the same thing.
808
00:34:48,086 --> 00:34:50,674
They want the neurosurgeon
who is working on the cure
809
00:34:50,674 --> 00:34:52,469
for Alzheimer's
to take them on.
810
00:34:52,469 --> 00:34:56,128
♪
811
00:34:56,128 --> 00:34:57,681
Impossible cases.
812
00:34:57,681 --> 00:34:59,131
Well, until you
get your hands on them.
813
00:34:59,131 --> 00:35:01,651
So think about it.
814
00:35:02,376 --> 00:35:03,998
Hi.
815
00:35:03,998 --> 00:35:06,276
I was, um, completely
out of line in the OR,
816
00:35:06,276 --> 00:35:09,003
but I'm glad Rhiannon
and the baby are okay,
817
00:35:09,003 --> 00:35:10,763
and I'm really sorry.
818
00:35:10,763 --> 00:35:13,801
Your outburst
was inappropriate,
819
00:35:13,801 --> 00:35:15,665
but you weren't wrong.
820
00:35:15,665 --> 00:35:19,462
Uh, Dr. Altman,
do you have a minute?
821
00:35:19,462 --> 00:35:20,842
Sure.
822
00:35:20,842 --> 00:35:25,364
♪
823
00:35:25,364 --> 00:35:27,366
Miranda!
824
00:35:27,366 --> 00:35:28,643
Here to walk me
to the curb,
825
00:35:28,643 --> 00:35:30,162
to which
I have just been kicked?
826
00:35:30,162 --> 00:35:33,959
I came to say sorr--
Goodbye. Thanks.
827
00:35:33,959 --> 00:35:36,824
Oh, no. I don't hold
anything against you.
828
00:35:36,824 --> 00:35:38,170
No.
829
00:35:38,170 --> 00:35:40,276
No, you, uh,
took care of the boss.
830
00:35:40,276 --> 00:35:41,967
Can't compete
with that, right?
831
00:35:41,967 --> 00:35:43,658
Plus, I take it as a sign
that I am--
832
00:35:43,658 --> 00:35:45,453
I am needed elsewhere.
833
00:35:45,453 --> 00:35:47,524
That's a nice way
- of looking at it.
- Well...
834
00:35:47,524 --> 00:35:49,354
Okay.[ Chuckles ]
835
00:35:49,354 --> 00:35:50,907
I hired Ben Warren.
836
00:35:52,322 --> 00:35:54,359
- I'm s-- You what?
- Well, I just--
837
00:35:54,359 --> 00:35:56,844
I forgot how hard
this job is.
838
00:35:56,844 --> 00:36:00,054
I never seem to be able
to do it as well as you.
839
00:36:00,054 --> 00:36:01,883
The interns don't
want to listen.
840
00:36:01,883 --> 00:36:03,713
Sure don't want to laugh.
841
00:36:03,713 --> 00:36:05,093
Sometimes they don't
even wanna do the work.
842
00:36:05,093 --> 00:36:08,925
But Ben Warren does,
and he has.
843
00:36:08,925 --> 00:36:10,927
Plus, I thought that
with all your recent troubles
844
00:36:10,927 --> 00:36:13,067
that you didn't need
the whispers of nepotism
845
00:36:13,067 --> 00:36:14,689
following you around.
846
00:36:14,689 --> 00:36:17,416
No, no, no.
Ben Warren is a keeper.
847
00:36:17,416 --> 00:36:21,075
Thank you. I really...
848
00:36:21,075 --> 00:36:22,110
Thank you.
849
00:36:22,110 --> 00:36:24,734
♪
850
00:36:24,734 --> 00:36:26,563
Yep!
[ Chuckles softly ]
851
00:36:28,151 --> 00:36:29,739
- I'm sor-- No. Oh.
- Oh! Oh, oop!
852
00:36:29,739 --> 00:36:31,672
Beep-beep-boop.
[ Chuckles ]
853
00:36:31,672 --> 00:36:33,605
Oh, and by the way...
854
00:36:33,605 --> 00:36:35,917
I promised the interns
a retreat.
855
00:36:35,917 --> 00:36:38,334
[ Laughs ]
Sounds fun, yeah?
856
00:36:38,334 --> 00:36:40,715
[ Giggles ]
857
00:36:40,715 --> 00:36:42,959
♪
858
00:36:42,959 --> 00:36:45,720
I saw the OB appointment
on our shared calendar.
859
00:36:45,720 --> 00:36:49,241
- Oh, yeah. Forget that.
- What?
860
00:36:49,241 --> 00:36:51,899
I rescheduled a knee replacement
so I could drive you.
861
00:36:51,899 --> 00:36:54,902
Well, A, I can still drive,
862
00:36:54,902 --> 00:36:58,146
and, B, I decided to
see someone here.
863
00:37:00,839 --> 00:37:02,461
I had a patient today
864
00:37:02,461 --> 00:37:05,292
who was willing
to risk her ability to walk,
865
00:37:05,292 --> 00:37:08,467
maybe even risk her life,
to save her pregnancy,
866
00:37:08,467 --> 00:37:12,713
so I figured that I can
sacrifice a little privacy
867
00:37:12,713 --> 00:37:15,094
if it means giving
our kid the best care.
868
00:37:16,855 --> 00:37:18,581
- Okay.
- Okay.
869
00:37:18,581 --> 00:37:20,721
This isn't because of
the thing I said about DeLuca?
870
00:37:20,721 --> 00:37:22,861
Well...[ Laughter ]
871
00:37:25,450 --> 00:37:27,521
[ Sighs ]
872
00:37:29,039 --> 00:37:34,010
[ Clears throat ]
Decaf and biscotti.
873
00:37:34,010 --> 00:37:36,254
To thank you
for your help today.
874
00:37:36,254 --> 00:37:37,979
You know they pay me, right?[ Chuckles ]
875
00:37:37,979 --> 00:37:39,843
Well... How's Donna Mae?
876
00:37:39,843 --> 00:37:43,019
Alive and kicking.
877
00:37:43,019 --> 00:37:44,986
One of the orderlies,
to be exact.
878
00:37:44,986 --> 00:37:46,402
[ Laughs ]
879
00:37:46,402 --> 00:37:48,611
I bet you don't see a lot
of patients like her, huh?
880
00:37:48,611 --> 00:37:50,958
You'd be surprised.
881
00:37:50,958 --> 00:37:53,995
Humanity is lovely, but, uh,
882
00:37:53,995 --> 00:37:55,652
a lot of people
are nightmares.
883
00:37:58,034 --> 00:38:00,450
What?
- Too-- Too judgy?
- No!
884
00:38:00,450 --> 00:38:02,176
I like it.
885
00:38:02,176 --> 00:38:04,420
Makes you feel
a little less saintly.
886
00:38:04,420 --> 00:38:06,214
Mm.
887
00:38:06,214 --> 00:38:09,010
I mean, you give pastries
to nurses.
888
00:38:09,010 --> 00:38:10,874
The barista comps me.
889
00:38:10,874 --> 00:38:13,808
We-- We hooked up
last year, so...
890
00:38:13,808 --> 00:38:16,294
Kidding.
It was two years ago.
891
00:38:16,294 --> 00:38:18,882
Also kidding. No.[ Both chuckle ]
892
00:38:18,882 --> 00:38:21,229
I actually, uh...
893
00:38:21,229 --> 00:38:24,474
I don't get many matches
on the apps.
894
00:38:24,474 --> 00:38:26,649
Maybe it's 'cause I'm too
forthcoming about my job,
895
00:38:26,649 --> 00:38:30,342
but, uh, I don't want to
spring it on people either.
896
00:38:30,342 --> 00:38:31,723
Mm.
897
00:38:35,520 --> 00:38:37,107
[ Exhales sharply ]
898
00:38:40,490 --> 00:38:41,836
- Oh, wow.
- Oh!
899
00:38:41,836 --> 00:38:44,356
- Yeah.
- That's good.
900
00:38:44,356 --> 00:38:48,360
♪
901
00:38:48,360 --> 00:38:50,638
I'm-- I'm sitting right
here. You could just ask me.
902
00:38:50,638 --> 00:38:53,641
Like viruses,
we also wear masks.
903
00:38:53,641 --> 00:38:55,678
We disguise ourselves
to hide the parts
904
00:38:55,678 --> 00:38:57,058
we don't want to be seen.
905
00:38:57,058 --> 00:38:59,578
♪ Take me to the earth
906
00:38:59,578 --> 00:39:02,512
♪ I wanna run wild
907
00:39:02,512 --> 00:39:05,066
We project confidence
when we're insecure,
908
00:39:05,066 --> 00:39:06,689
toughness when
we're vulnerable,
909
00:39:06,689 --> 00:39:09,277
and calm when our lives
are spinning out of control.
910
00:39:09,277 --> 00:39:12,557
Bringing up your family name
was out of line.
911
00:39:12,557 --> 00:39:16,388
It was not your fault.
He requested you.
912
00:39:16,388 --> 00:39:20,185
I could have said something...
but I didn't.
913
00:39:20,185 --> 00:39:22,429
And that competition
is gonna make us better.
914
00:39:23,464 --> 00:39:25,397
And we're pretty
great together, right?
915
00:39:25,397 --> 00:39:26,950
Mm.
916
00:39:28,262 --> 00:39:33,198
♪ Falling fast
I feel it all breaking ♪
917
00:39:33,198 --> 00:39:36,512
You said "girlfriend"
earlier.
918
00:39:36,512 --> 00:39:38,065
I did?
919
00:39:38,065 --> 00:39:39,894
♪ ...will heal, heal me
920
00:39:39,894 --> 00:39:42,552
- Oh, yeah, I did.
- Okay.
921
00:39:42,552 --> 00:39:46,556
♪ Feel the water clearing
softer now, healing ♪
922
00:39:46,556 --> 00:39:49,214
I'm cold.
923
00:39:49,214 --> 00:39:52,148
♪ Everything is crashing down
924
00:39:52,148 --> 00:39:54,219
♪ Time will heal me
925
00:39:54,219 --> 00:39:56,083
The difference is
those defense mechanisms
926
00:39:56,083 --> 00:39:58,085
don't always serve us.
927
00:39:58,085 --> 00:40:01,157
I'm not going to ask if you're
okay because I know you're not.
928
00:40:01,157 --> 00:40:02,883
♪
929
00:40:02,883 --> 00:40:04,643
Did I do something?
930
00:40:04,643 --> 00:40:06,300
♪ Tell me something real
931
00:40:06,300 --> 00:40:09,407
My sister Chloe
called this morning.
932
00:40:09,407 --> 00:40:12,271
She was diagnosed
with colorectal cancer.
933
00:40:12,271 --> 00:40:16,448
- She's only 22.
- I'm so sorry.
934
00:40:16,448 --> 00:40:18,312
Altman's gonna see someone
here will take her case.
935
00:40:18,312 --> 00:40:22,730
Is-- Is there
anything I can do?
936
00:40:22,730 --> 00:40:25,353
Be my friend.
937
00:40:25,353 --> 00:40:28,564
As great as whatever
this thing between us
938
00:40:28,564 --> 00:40:30,462
was beginning to be,
I...
939
00:40:30,462 --> 00:40:34,190
I don't think I can start
anything new right now.
940
00:40:34,190 --> 00:40:41,231
♪ Falling fast
I feel it all breaking ♪
941
00:40:41,335 --> 00:40:43,820
♪ I think time will heal
942
00:40:43,820 --> 00:40:45,857
Yeah. Of course.
943
00:40:45,857 --> 00:40:48,204
- Really?
- Yeah.
944
00:40:48,204 --> 00:40:51,172
♪ Feel the water clearing
softer now, healing ♪
945
00:40:51,172 --> 00:40:53,623
The things we do
to protect ourselves
946
00:40:53,623 --> 00:40:56,695
make it harder
to let other people get close.
947
00:40:56,695 --> 00:40:59,353
As terrifying as it might be
to let your guard down,
948
00:40:59,353 --> 00:41:01,942
the rewards speak
for themselves.
949
00:41:01,942 --> 00:41:04,185
She looks so peaceful
when she's sleeping.
950
00:41:04,185 --> 00:41:05,393
[ Chuckles ]
951
00:41:05,393 --> 00:41:08,362
- Enjoy it while it lasts.
- Yeah.
952
00:41:08,362 --> 00:41:10,813
How'd she take it when
she found out Richard knows?
953
00:41:10,813 --> 00:41:12,642
- Better than he did.
- Yeah, I don't think
he's gonna speak to me
954
00:41:12,642 --> 00:41:16,681
- for a very long time.
- I'm sorry.
Are you mad at me, too?
955
00:41:16,681 --> 00:41:18,821
I mean, for letting me in
after I asked to be let in?
956
00:41:18,821 --> 00:41:20,616
- No, I'm not mad.
- I did that, didn't I?
957
00:41:20,616 --> 00:41:21,893
Yeah.
958
00:41:21,893 --> 00:41:23,411
I mean, I am a little mad.
959
00:41:23,411 --> 00:41:25,068
You haven't asked about
my groundbreaking
960
00:41:25,068 --> 00:41:28,071
- kidney transplant, though.
- I'm sorry.
961
00:41:28,071 --> 00:41:29,866
- How was it?
- It was great. It was.
962
00:41:29,866 --> 00:41:33,491
I mean, it was a little
irritating, but mostly great.
963
00:41:33,491 --> 00:41:35,700
I think it might be the future
of kidney transplants.
964
00:41:35,700 --> 00:41:37,633
- Really?
- Yeah.
965
00:41:37,633 --> 00:41:39,531
I want to hear all about it
on the plane.
966
00:41:39,531 --> 00:41:42,016
Okay.
967
00:41:42,016 --> 00:41:43,535
- Let's go.
- Okay.
968
00:41:43,535 --> 00:41:48,506
♪ Oh, oh
969
00:41:48,506 --> 00:41:56,375
♪ Falling fast
I feel it all breaking ♪
970
00:41:56,375 --> 00:41:59,240
Because at the end of the day,
971
00:41:59,240 --> 00:42:02,416
the only person worth being...
972
00:42:02,416 --> 00:42:09,078
is yourself.♪ Feel the water clearing
softer now, healing ♪
973
00:42:09,078 --> 00:42:12,737
♪ Everything is crashing down
974
00:42:12,737 --> 00:42:16,119
♪ Time will heal me
975
00:42:24,300 --> 00:42:50,809
♪