1 00:00:03,036 --> 00:00:05,800 [Meredith] According to Elisabeth Kübler-Ross, 2 00:00:05,872 --> 00:00:09,706 when we are dying or have suffered a catastrophic loss, 3 00:00:09,776 --> 00:00:12,711 we all move through five distinct stages of grief. 4 00:00:12,746 --> 00:00:14,737 - [Flatline] - We go into denial. 5 00:00:15,415 --> 00:00:16,814 [Richard] Push another amp... 6 00:00:16,850 --> 00:00:21,048 [Meredith] Because the loss is so unthinkable we can't imagine it's true. 7 00:00:21,087 --> 00:00:22,418 [Richard] Clear! 8 00:00:23,089 --> 00:00:25,319 [Meredith] We become angry with everyone, 9 00:00:25,358 --> 00:00:29,522 angry with survivors, angry with ourselves, then we bargain. 10 00:00:29,562 --> 00:00:32,929 [Derek] Damn, O'Malley, come on. Live, just live. 11 00:00:32,966 --> 00:00:33,990 His ICP's 30. 12 00:00:34,034 --> 00:00:35,899 [Owen] Push 70 of Mannitol, start bagging. 13 00:00:35,935 --> 00:00:37,425 [Derek]... his brainstem. 14 00:00:37,537 --> 00:00:42,634 [Meredith] We beg, we plead. We offer everything we have. 15 00:00:42,675 --> 00:00:47,806 We offer up our souls, in exchange forjust one more day. 16 00:00:48,815 --> 00:00:50,680 [Monitor resumes beeping] 17 00:00:50,717 --> 00:00:53,515 [Richard] Stevens! Can you hear me? 18 00:00:55,455 --> 00:00:56,922 Look at me, Stevens. 19 00:00:59,225 --> 00:01:00,715 Damn it. 20 00:01:01,394 --> 00:01:02,554 [Sighs] 21 00:01:03,430 --> 00:01:05,364 [Meredith] When the bargaining has failed, 22 00:01:05,398 --> 00:01:07,866 and the anger is too hard to maintain, 23 00:01:07,934 --> 00:01:11,893 we fall into depression, despair, 24 00:01:11,971 --> 00:01:16,908 until finally we have to accept that we have done everything we can. 25 00:01:16,976 --> 00:01:18,910 We let go. 26 00:01:20,146 --> 00:01:23,513 We let go and move into acceptance. 27 00:01:28,788 --> 00:01:30,756 Anybody know if he's a donor? 28 00:01:32,058 --> 00:01:34,322 [Gasping] 29 00:01:38,298 --> 00:01:39,458 Oh, God! 30 00:01:46,606 --> 00:01:49,040 Whoa, whoa. She wants it out. Can we take it out? 31 00:01:49,109 --> 00:01:52,010 - She's breathing over the vent. - Let's pull out the tube. 32 00:01:54,147 --> 00:01:55,910 [Meredith] Dr. Bailey. 33 00:01:59,119 --> 00:02:02,111 [Gasping] 34 00:02:02,155 --> 00:02:06,148 Slow down. It's OK, slow down. 35 00:02:13,566 --> 00:02:14,624 [Callie shuddering] 36 00:02:18,304 --> 00:02:21,432 [Callie breathes slowly] 37 00:02:21,474 --> 00:02:24,500 His ICP went through the roof. We did everything. 38 00:02:25,411 --> 00:02:26,810 Everything. 39 00:02:26,913 --> 00:02:30,246 Chief, his organs are viable for now, but it won't be long 40 00:02:30,283 --> 00:02:32,911 until he's acidotic and hypothermic. 41 00:02:34,120 --> 00:02:35,382 Is he a donor? 42 00:02:39,626 --> 00:02:42,151 Um... I don't know. 43 00:02:42,695 --> 00:02:44,856 I called his mother. She's on her way. 44 00:02:44,898 --> 00:02:48,527 Let's close him up and get him to the ICU in case she wants to see him. 45 00:02:59,179 --> 00:03:00,976 - Who's George? - What? 46 00:03:01,047 --> 00:03:04,483 John Doe, the guy who threw me out of the way of the bus, saved my life. 47 00:03:04,517 --> 00:03:08,453 Everyone's crying and saying, "John Doe is George." Who's George? 48 00:03:12,859 --> 00:03:14,656 - You can't tell her. - Alex. 49 00:03:14,727 --> 00:03:17,321 She coded in my arms. Out of nowhere, she died. 50 00:03:18,097 --> 00:03:20,725 Just... I'll tell her. 51 00:03:20,767 --> 00:03:22,997 I'll tell her when she gets stronger. 52 00:03:23,937 --> 00:03:25,336 [Lzzie] Alex. 53 00:03:29,609 --> 00:03:31,133 You OK? 54 00:03:32,078 --> 00:03:35,514 I had... a dream. 55 00:03:37,350 --> 00:03:40,751 - He was in his uniform. - What? 56 00:03:40,787 --> 00:03:43,779 George is gonna die in the Army if we don't stop him. 57 00:03:45,258 --> 00:03:47,920 Hand me my phone. I need my phone. 58 00:04:03,810 --> 00:04:06,608 Who said that was George? Why do we think that's George? 59 00:04:06,646 --> 00:04:08,511 Meredith said... 60 00:04:09,983 --> 00:04:11,473 I don't know. 61 00:04:14,754 --> 00:04:16,085 That's not George. 62 00:04:19,359 --> 00:04:22,055 Look at his feet, look how tall he is. 63 00:04:23,096 --> 00:04:24,996 That's not George. 64 00:04:33,606 --> 00:04:35,267 He wrote in my hand. 65 00:04:35,308 --> 00:04:37,833 - What do you mean he wrote? - What did he do? 66 00:04:37,877 --> 00:04:41,745 He grabbed my hand and squeezed it and he wrote with his finger. 67 00:04:41,781 --> 00:04:44,841 - Wrote with his finger? - In my hand, he wrote "Double O Seven." 68 00:04:46,552 --> 00:04:48,076 Well, give... 69 00:04:50,556 --> 00:04:53,457 - OK, what'd I write? - "Joe." 70 00:04:53,493 --> 00:04:56,985 - No! No, I did not write "Joe"! - Are you serious? 71 00:04:57,030 --> 00:04:59,191 - You mean this may not be O'Malley? - This is funny. 72 00:04:59,232 --> 00:05:02,258 [Richard] Did anyone try and call O'Malley? Can we get him on the phone? 73 00:05:02,302 --> 00:05:04,532 I'm telling you, he squeezed my hand. 74 00:05:04,570 --> 00:05:07,801 Shut it. You don't get to talk anymore, you don't get to talk ever again. 75 00:05:07,840 --> 00:05:09,740 - I could've sworn it was George. - I got voicemail. 76 00:05:09,776 --> 00:05:10,902 He's not answering. 77 00:05:10,943 --> 00:05:13,969 He has a freckle in his right hand, it's shaped like Texas. 78 00:05:14,013 --> 00:05:15,844 I used to tease him about it. 79 00:05:16,883 --> 00:05:18,248 I'll check. 80 00:05:53,119 --> 00:05:54,381 [Pager beeps] 81 00:05:56,589 --> 00:05:58,853 [Pager 2 beeps] 82 00:06:00,927 --> 00:06:02,554 You people, answer your pages. 83 00:06:02,595 --> 00:06:05,120 [Pager 3 beeps] 84 00:06:07,400 --> 00:06:10,130 George O'Malley jumped in front of a bus today. 85 00:06:10,169 --> 00:06:13,229 He knew what he was doing and he did it anyway, 86 00:06:13,306 --> 00:06:15,433 and he did it to save a life. 87 00:06:15,508 --> 00:06:18,602 So I'm not gonna allow you doctors to stand here. 88 00:06:18,678 --> 00:06:22,045 There are lives on the line, there are lives we can save. 89 00:06:23,182 --> 00:06:25,946 So if George O'Malley can jump in front of a bus... 90 00:06:26,853 --> 00:06:29,048 ...we can answer our damn pages. 91 00:06:30,123 --> 00:06:31,681 So let's go. 92 00:06:49,442 --> 00:06:52,275 Damn it. Damn it, O'Malley. 93 00:06:57,617 --> 00:06:59,585 [Arizona] How long ago did the pain start? 94 00:06:59,619 --> 00:07:01,143 [Boy] I don't know. A few weeks. 95 00:07:01,754 --> 00:07:03,187 [Woman] Growing pains. 96 00:07:03,222 --> 00:07:06,123 I took him to see our doctor. He's a bad doctor. 97 00:07:06,159 --> 00:07:08,627 He stands there texting while I'm talking to him. 98 00:07:08,661 --> 00:07:11,255 He diagnosed Andy with growing pains. 99 00:07:11,330 --> 00:07:13,264 You know, I grew up, and growing pains 100 00:07:13,299 --> 00:07:15,631 did not cause me to fall down on the soccer field. 101 00:07:15,701 --> 00:07:19,637 - Mom, you're being a little dramatic. - Your pain is dramatic to me, Andy. 102 00:07:19,705 --> 00:07:22,105 Your mom's right. It's a good thing that you came. 103 00:07:22,141 --> 00:07:27,340 OK. Thanks, because it does hurt. Everything hurts, all the time. 104 00:07:27,380 --> 00:07:30,872 OK. I'm gonna give you a quick exam. Let me know if the pain gets worse. 105 00:07:31,684 --> 00:07:33,447 [Sobbing] 106 00:07:36,155 --> 00:07:38,055 [Callie] This doesn't feel real. 107 00:07:38,090 --> 00:07:42,151 - Does this feel real to you? - No. I don't know. 108 00:07:45,231 --> 00:07:46,664 [Callie] Oh, crap. 109 00:07:46,699 --> 00:07:49,600 I don't want... [sighs] I can't. 110 00:07:49,635 --> 00:07:53,366 Uh-uh. Don't look away, now. Come on, you can walk over to her. 111 00:07:55,908 --> 00:07:59,605 - Mrs. O'Malley, I'm so sorry. - You were his wife. 112 00:07:59,645 --> 00:08:01,977 In God's eyes you're still his wife. 113 00:08:02,849 --> 00:08:05,443 You should decide about his organs. You decide. 114 00:08:05,485 --> 00:08:07,851 - But... Uh, um... - [Mrs. O'Malley] I can't do it, Callie. 115 00:08:07,887 --> 00:08:10,822 I can't do it. You understand? 116 00:08:10,890 --> 00:08:14,917 Ronnie and Jerry are off on some fishing expedition in Alaska, 117 00:08:14,961 --> 00:08:18,328 and they're gonna come home and I have to tell them that Georgie... 118 00:08:19,098 --> 00:08:21,862 That's all I can do. It's all I can... 119 00:08:21,901 --> 00:08:23,732 I can't. 120 00:08:23,769 --> 00:08:28,263 I... I can't even see him like this, I can't. 121 00:08:28,307 --> 00:08:33,006 You need to do this for me. Can you do this for me? 122 00:08:39,285 --> 00:08:42,118 [Distant siren blaring] 123 00:08:44,557 --> 00:08:47,355 [Siren blaring louder] 124 00:08:50,763 --> 00:08:52,958 [Man] Speedboat accident, 19-year-old female. 125 00:08:53,032 --> 00:08:55,523 Lost vitals twice, but BP's holding in the low 80s. 126 00:08:55,601 --> 00:08:58,968 Both arms amputated at the scene, right leg's hanging on by a thread. 127 00:08:59,005 --> 00:09:02,099 - You recover either of the arms? - Probably at the bottom of Puget Sound. 128 00:09:02,141 --> 00:09:03,938 She was thrown from the boat and got pulled into the propellers. 129 00:09:04,010 --> 00:09:07,138 She needs more access, bleeding out. Get a central line in her. Let's go! 130 00:09:07,179 --> 00:09:09,579 Type and cross her and get as much O-neg as possible. 131 00:09:09,649 --> 00:09:11,776 Wait! I found them! 132 00:09:11,817 --> 00:09:15,082 - I found them! Her arms! - They were on the boat with her. 133 00:09:15,121 --> 00:09:17,885 I found them in the water. You have to take them. 134 00:09:19,825 --> 00:09:21,725 They were just floating in the water. 135 00:09:21,827 --> 00:09:24,660 - You can sew them back on, right? - We'll do everything we can. 136 00:09:25,464 --> 00:09:27,022 Oh, my God, Jojo. 137 00:09:27,066 --> 00:09:30,627 - That was so gross. - Jasmine, you just saved her life. 138 00:09:30,670 --> 00:09:32,103 You think? 139 00:09:35,041 --> 00:09:39,034 I'm so sorry. I just heard. I don't know what to say. 140 00:09:39,078 --> 00:09:41,444 Go home. You need to go home. 141 00:09:41,514 --> 00:09:44,608 You need to cry and scream and... 142 00:09:44,717 --> 00:09:47,242 When my brother died I ate donuts. 143 00:09:47,286 --> 00:09:49,584 I ate a lot of donuts and that helped some, but... 144 00:09:49,622 --> 00:09:52,716 God, I don't know what to say. 145 00:09:52,758 --> 00:09:55,283 His mom wants me to decide about his organs. 146 00:09:55,328 --> 00:09:57,057 He lost his wallet in the accident. 147 00:09:57,096 --> 00:10:00,554 They don't know if he's a donor. His mom wants me to decide. I can't. 148 00:10:00,633 --> 00:10:03,431 I can't tell her no, but I can't decide. 149 00:10:04,303 --> 00:10:06,328 I mean, we were only married for a few months... 150 00:10:06,372 --> 00:10:09,773 OK, but during those months, 151 00:10:09,842 --> 00:10:12,743 you were the most important person in George's life. 152 00:10:14,880 --> 00:10:16,211 No. 153 00:10:17,583 --> 00:10:18,948 No, I wasn't. 154 00:10:22,254 --> 00:10:24,518 I'm sorry. OK, so let's take a look at the X-rays. 155 00:10:24,557 --> 00:10:26,855 Do I need to take my son to another hospital? 156 00:10:26,892 --> 00:10:28,154 What? 157 00:10:28,194 --> 00:10:32,392 That doctor's hands are shaking as he tries to stick my son with a needle, 158 00:10:32,431 --> 00:10:34,626 and those nurses are crying. 159 00:10:34,667 --> 00:10:37,227 You and your friend... What the hell is going on here? 160 00:10:37,303 --> 00:10:39,703 There was an accident, and one of our people died. 161 00:10:39,739 --> 00:10:40,933 [Steve sniffles] 162 00:10:45,411 --> 00:10:49,814 Andy is my person. He's my only person, 163 00:10:49,915 --> 00:10:52,748 and something is wrong with him. 164 00:10:52,785 --> 00:10:57,188 So what I'm asking you is, do I need to take him somewhere else? 165 00:10:57,289 --> 00:11:00,281 No. No. 166 00:11:01,894 --> 00:11:06,854 I'll make Andy my person, OK? I'll make Andy my person too. 167 00:11:11,003 --> 00:11:12,800 - I didn't tell her, OK? - Karev. 168 00:11:12,838 --> 00:11:14,567 Look, we just ignored her DNR. 169 00:11:14,607 --> 00:11:18,065 Her kidneys quit and she coded. She was freakin' intubated! 170 00:11:18,110 --> 00:11:19,441 She's not strong enough. 171 00:11:19,512 --> 00:11:21,537 - What's her BUN? - Fifteen. 172 00:11:21,614 --> 00:11:24,412 - And her creatinine? - One-point-five. 173 00:11:24,450 --> 00:11:26,645 She's strong enough. You have to tell her. 174 00:11:26,686 --> 00:11:29,052 - Why? It can wait. - No, it can't! 175 00:11:29,155 --> 00:11:32,215 It can't wait because George's organs won't be viable for long. 176 00:11:32,291 --> 00:11:35,385 If they want to use them, they have to do it soon. I have to decide, 177 00:11:35,461 --> 00:11:39,022 and I need lzzie to help me because she's the one who should decide. 178 00:11:39,899 --> 00:11:41,628 She's who should decide. 179 00:11:42,568 --> 00:11:46,436 So that's one reason, and the other reason is, Karev, 180 00:11:46,472 --> 00:11:50,033 if you let them unplug George without giving her a chance to say goodbye... 181 00:11:50,109 --> 00:11:51,974 ...I mean it, she will never forgive you. 182 00:11:52,645 --> 00:11:54,340 You have to tell her. 183 00:12:00,319 --> 00:12:02,719 - [Owen] Her pressure keeps dropping. - [Monitor beeping] 184 00:12:02,755 --> 00:12:04,882 Throw in an IO, get the blood in a rapid infuser. 185 00:12:04,924 --> 00:12:08,087 These are pretty clean amputations. We can reattach these arms. 186 00:12:08,127 --> 00:12:10,288 - Yay! I found them, you know. - [Drill sounds] 187 00:12:10,329 --> 00:12:12,854 I'm looking at omentum. Let's get her to an OR now! 188 00:12:12,898 --> 00:12:16,891 Does your friend have any allergies, medical condition, on any medication? 189 00:12:16,936 --> 00:12:18,403 - She's not our friend. - Jasmine! 190 00:12:18,471 --> 00:12:20,405 We barely know her. We met her on the plane from Sydney. 191 00:12:20,439 --> 00:12:24,432 - We're backpacking, seeing the States. - We're just traveling mates. 192 00:12:24,477 --> 00:12:26,104 - She's really nice, though. - Let's move! 193 00:12:26,212 --> 00:12:27,736 Her name, can you give me that? 194 00:12:27,780 --> 00:12:29,611 - Clara. - Mm-hm. Clara Ferguson, I think. 195 00:12:29,648 --> 00:12:31,878 - Clara Ferguson. - Clara, hang in there. 196 00:12:31,917 --> 00:12:33,145 [Owen] Stay with me. 197 00:12:33,185 --> 00:12:35,949 She lives with her mum in London. I have her backpack in my car. 198 00:12:35,988 --> 00:12:37,387 - OK, get it. - Should we stay? 199 00:12:37,423 --> 00:12:38,947 Yes. In the waiting room. 200 00:12:38,991 --> 00:12:40,720 I'll update you when I can. 201 00:12:41,193 --> 00:12:42,285 Dr. Shepherd. 202 00:12:43,529 --> 00:12:45,326 Mr. Jennings. It's good to see you. 203 00:12:45,364 --> 00:12:47,855 - Derek, right? May I call you Derek? - Of course. 204 00:12:47,900 --> 00:12:51,131 I understand you lost a resident. It's sad. I'm sorry. 205 00:12:51,203 --> 00:12:53,398 But the hospital board is meeting soon. 206 00:12:53,472 --> 00:12:56,964 I need to know if you'd like to be the next chief of surgery at Seattle Grace. 207 00:13:00,012 --> 00:13:03,277 George... [sighs] it's me. 208 00:13:03,349 --> 00:13:07,410 You know, I pretty much died not too long ago. 209 00:13:08,354 --> 00:13:10,914 So I need you to call me back. 210 00:13:11,557 --> 00:13:12,888 Please. 211 00:13:18,497 --> 00:13:23,161 I know. I played the cancer card, I'm gross. Whatever. 212 00:13:24,970 --> 00:13:27,962 I need to tell you something and I need you to not panic. 213 00:13:28,374 --> 00:13:30,308 I need you to keep breathing. 214 00:13:30,342 --> 00:13:33,470 I need you to stay alive 'cause... 215 00:13:34,280 --> 00:13:39,115 I swear to God, I need you to stay alive, all right? 216 00:13:41,220 --> 00:13:42,448 OK. 217 00:13:44,490 --> 00:13:46,253 O'Malley... 218 00:13:46,325 --> 00:13:47,849 ...he got in an accident. 219 00:13:49,829 --> 00:13:51,296 He's brain dead. 220 00:13:54,733 --> 00:13:56,428 I'm sorry, what? 221 00:14:00,606 --> 00:14:02,301 [Callie] What about his heart? 222 00:14:05,945 --> 00:14:07,105 OK. 223 00:14:08,280 --> 00:14:11,010 His eyes. I know. 224 00:14:11,851 --> 00:14:14,581 Don't want to imagine him without his eyes. 225 00:14:23,863 --> 00:14:25,592 George would give everything. 226 00:14:27,566 --> 00:14:30,034 His skin, his eyes, he would give everything. 227 00:14:41,213 --> 00:14:43,204 - [Thundering] - [Sighs] 228 00:14:46,118 --> 00:14:49,713 I have a kid in there. Fifteen years old, previously healthy. 229 00:14:49,788 --> 00:14:52,416 Has back pain bad enough to cause vomiting. 230 00:14:52,458 --> 00:14:55,723 Can you talk it through with me because I can't figure out what it is 231 00:14:55,761 --> 00:14:57,251 and I think best out loud. 232 00:14:57,329 --> 00:15:00,321 Did you not hear about George O'Malley? 233 00:15:02,334 --> 00:15:04,825 I did. It's incredibly sad. 234 00:15:07,840 --> 00:15:12,504 I cannot talk to you right now. I cannot work right now. 235 00:15:16,916 --> 00:15:19,942 Dr. Bailey, I hear that. 236 00:15:21,020 --> 00:15:26,083 And I don't mean to be insensitive, but this kid, this kid's still alive. 237 00:15:26,125 --> 00:15:28,457 And I don't know what's wrong with him, not a clue. 238 00:15:28,494 --> 00:15:32,590 So, I need you to work. 239 00:15:32,631 --> 00:15:36,089 I need you to talk through this living patient with me, Bailey. 240 00:15:36,168 --> 00:15:37,726 Please. 241 00:15:44,810 --> 00:15:46,903 How's his neural exam? 242 00:15:48,981 --> 00:15:50,073 Normal. 243 00:15:51,383 --> 00:15:54,147 Could it be a compression fracture? 244 00:15:54,219 --> 00:15:56,517 Plain films and CT are negative. 245 00:15:56,555 --> 00:15:59,456 - Any congenital problems? - None reported. 246 00:16:02,628 --> 00:16:03,890 Hey. 247 00:16:05,464 --> 00:16:06,658 Hey. 248 00:16:08,100 --> 00:16:10,432 - Need to go home? - No. 249 00:16:10,936 --> 00:16:13,166 - Did you eat? - No. 250 00:16:13,205 --> 00:16:14,502 Can you eat? 251 00:16:14,807 --> 00:16:16,434 [Sighs] No. 252 00:16:18,110 --> 00:16:19,509 - Did you cry? - No. 253 00:16:19,578 --> 00:16:22,138 - Maybe if you cried... - You just... 254 00:16:22,181 --> 00:16:24,672 Just you being here is... 255 00:16:25,617 --> 00:16:28,848 Don't say anything. Just be here, that helps. 256 00:16:30,889 --> 00:16:32,516 [Sighs] 257 00:16:32,558 --> 00:16:33,889 How are you? 258 00:16:33,926 --> 00:16:38,454 - Meredith, we need you. - OK. Excuse me. 259 00:17:02,321 --> 00:17:05,415 Amanda, you have to go. We need the room. 260 00:17:06,792 --> 00:17:09,818 - I'm so sorry. - [Meredith] I know. 261 00:17:10,829 --> 00:17:13,161 I'm sorry. I'm... 262 00:17:14,566 --> 00:17:16,090 I'm so sorry. 263 00:17:46,932 --> 00:17:48,422 [Sobs] 264 00:17:49,835 --> 00:17:51,063 [Lzzie continues sobbing] 265 00:18:08,020 --> 00:18:11,285 You too, huh? Growing pains? You're saying this is growing pains. 266 00:18:11,323 --> 00:18:14,656 No, not just growing pains. He has a mild case of scoliosis, 267 00:18:14,726 --> 00:18:16,694 which, combined with the growth spurt, 268 00:18:16,762 --> 00:18:20,061 could account for the pain and the clumsiness on the soccer field. 269 00:18:20,099 --> 00:18:21,930 We'll see if it settles in a couple of weeks. If not, 270 00:18:21,967 --> 00:18:24,959 - come back for more tests. - Why don't you just run them now? 271 00:18:25,037 --> 00:18:26,527 Because the next set of tests 272 00:18:26,605 --> 00:18:30,371 involve things like sticking large needles into Andy's spine. 273 00:18:30,442 --> 00:18:32,410 All right, then. Heading home. 274 00:18:33,011 --> 00:18:35,809 - You're sure about this? - No. 275 00:18:36,648 --> 00:18:39,139 But I'm gonna write a prescription for muscle relaxants. 276 00:18:39,184 --> 00:18:44,121 You know I'm here if you need me, which I really hope that you won't. 277 00:18:52,197 --> 00:18:55,189 Did Torres decide about O'Malley, about his organs? 278 00:18:55,267 --> 00:18:58,065 - I don't know. - I'm gonna see where they are. 279 00:18:59,905 --> 00:19:04,069 Chief, look, I... I know this is the worst possible moment, 280 00:19:04,143 --> 00:19:08,079 but... we need to talk. 281 00:19:13,952 --> 00:19:15,419 The board is planning a coup. 282 00:19:16,488 --> 00:19:18,581 They're saying that you dropped the ball, 283 00:19:18,624 --> 00:19:20,888 that our ranking isn't coming up. 284 00:19:22,361 --> 00:19:26,422 They wanna oust you. They're asking me to support it. 285 00:19:27,666 --> 00:19:30,499 They're asking me to step up to take the job. 286 00:19:30,536 --> 00:19:32,504 Take my job? 287 00:19:33,872 --> 00:19:36,033 I told them I'd think about it. 288 00:19:36,074 --> 00:19:39,043 I bought you some time, but you need a plan. 289 00:19:39,077 --> 00:19:40,704 [Pager beeps] 290 00:19:42,581 --> 00:19:44,446 Torres has made a decision. 291 00:19:53,725 --> 00:19:56,193 Are you here to give an update on the boating victim? 292 00:19:56,261 --> 00:19:58,388 - Yeah. Where are? - [Lexie] They left. 293 00:19:58,430 --> 00:20:00,489 Her friends left. They said they had a plane to catch, 294 00:20:00,532 --> 00:20:03,933 something about a concert in Vegas they didn't want to miss. Left her pack. 295 00:20:03,969 --> 00:20:07,097 She's got dozens of surgeries ahead of her, if she survives. 296 00:20:07,139 --> 00:20:09,232 When she needs a support system... 297 00:20:09,274 --> 00:20:10,366 [sighs] 298 00:20:10,409 --> 00:20:14,106 OK, until we find her family, you're it. Keep that. 299 00:20:14,146 --> 00:20:18,776 I'm sorry, you want... You're ordering me to be her friend? 300 00:20:18,817 --> 00:20:22,275 She's gonna wake up in a lot of pain, missing one of her legs, 301 00:20:22,321 --> 00:20:24,221 and unable to use either of her arms. 302 00:20:24,256 --> 00:20:26,724 So, yes, I'm ordering you to be her friend 303 00:20:26,758 --> 00:20:29,090 'cause I'm sure as hell not gonna do it. 304 00:20:36,969 --> 00:20:38,493 I'm heading back to surgery. 305 00:20:48,313 --> 00:20:50,440 [Woman] Patient is George O'Malley, 29. 306 00:20:50,482 --> 00:20:53,076 Procedure is organ recovery for donation. 307 00:20:53,151 --> 00:20:55,949 I will call on the receiving surgeons. 308 00:20:56,588 --> 00:20:58,078 Kidneys. 309 00:20:58,123 --> 00:21:00,182 [Woman 2] St. Luke's Children's. Boise. 310 00:21:00,259 --> 00:21:01,817 - Who's it for? - Sorry? 311 00:21:01,860 --> 00:21:06,058 - Who are his kidneys for? - I gave all that to the nurse. 312 00:21:06,098 --> 00:21:07,656 I would like you to tell me. 313 00:21:14,673 --> 00:21:17,107 Molly Kemper, eight years old. 314 00:21:17,476 --> 00:21:19,501 Hypoplastic kidneys. 315 00:21:25,717 --> 00:21:27,082 Thank you. [shudders] 316 00:21:28,687 --> 00:21:30,154 Lungs. 317 00:21:30,255 --> 00:21:32,519 Lungs and heart are going to Portland Medical Center. 318 00:21:32,624 --> 00:21:36,492 Terry Class, age 22. Cystic fibrosis. 319 00:21:37,529 --> 00:21:40,054 [Sniffs] Liver. 320 00:21:41,166 --> 00:21:42,292 [Shudders] 321 00:21:50,842 --> 00:21:53,367 [Moaning] 322 00:21:54,313 --> 00:21:56,110 Whoa. [chuckles] 323 00:21:56,148 --> 00:21:58,912 You are evil. You are the devil. 324 00:21:58,984 --> 00:22:02,044 - I am, I admit it. - Cristina, you know the rules. 325 00:22:02,087 --> 00:22:05,318 - The rules are stupid. - Are you saying my shrink is stupid? 326 00:22:06,325 --> 00:22:08,054 I'm saying she's a prude. 327 00:22:08,093 --> 00:22:10,653 - She's prudey and misguided. - Mm-hmm. 328 00:22:12,431 --> 00:22:14,399 She wants us to get to know each other. 329 00:22:14,433 --> 00:22:16,901 She wants me to keep getting to know myself. 330 00:22:16,935 --> 00:22:20,234 She does not want me burying myself in you. 331 00:22:20,272 --> 00:22:21,967 And if we start to have sex... 332 00:22:22,541 --> 00:22:24,532 [sighs]... l'll bury myself in you. 333 00:22:25,444 --> 00:22:28,641 - Oh, now who's evil? - It's not gonna be too much longer. 334 00:22:30,282 --> 00:22:33,251 You want me to quit therapy? Hmm? 335 00:22:33,285 --> 00:22:34,309 - No. - Mm-hm. 336 00:22:34,353 --> 00:22:35,377 - Crap. - All right. 337 00:22:35,454 --> 00:22:37,319 We have to go to O'Malley's funeral anyway. 338 00:22:37,389 --> 00:22:39,516 No. I hate funerals. Let's skip it. 339 00:22:39,591 --> 00:22:43,083 We can push up Ceviche's débridement. That's a good excuse. 340 00:22:43,128 --> 00:22:45,187 - Ceviche? - Chopped-up fish. 341 00:22:46,131 --> 00:22:49,726 - Propeller accident. Ceviche. Funny. - [Laughs] Right. It's sick. 342 00:22:49,801 --> 00:22:52,929 - That's what makes it funny. - We're going to the funeral. Come on. 343 00:22:52,971 --> 00:22:56,236 "Then all these unicycle boys with wings carried us on a platform 344 00:22:56,308 --> 00:22:58,799 like we were Cleopatra or something. Hilarious." 345 00:22:58,844 --> 00:23:01,745 I can't believe they went to Burning Man. Hags. 346 00:23:01,780 --> 00:23:04,146 They never even heard of Burning Man. 347 00:23:08,987 --> 00:23:10,579 I hate them. 348 00:23:11,423 --> 00:23:12,754 I hate them! 349 00:23:13,825 --> 00:23:16,851 Clara... forget them. 350 00:23:17,396 --> 00:23:21,924 OK? They're morons. They're... Just think about today. 351 00:23:22,000 --> 00:23:24,491 OK, the fact that today you're gonna get 352 00:23:24,536 --> 00:23:26,595 what we believe is your final débridement. 353 00:23:26,671 --> 00:23:30,300 After that we'll get the physical therapist here to get your arm moving. 354 00:23:30,342 --> 00:23:33,243 I'm gonna save this piece for you to do. 355 00:23:34,346 --> 00:23:37,440 - Thanks. - Now I'm gonna ask you one more time. 356 00:23:37,516 --> 00:23:39,746 - No. - Don't you want to call your mom... 357 00:23:39,785 --> 00:23:41,616 - No. ...before your next surgery? 358 00:23:41,653 --> 00:23:43,917 No. Not yet. 359 00:23:43,989 --> 00:23:48,153 But we could write her another e-mail. Will it make you late for your funeral? 360 00:23:48,193 --> 00:23:50,320 No. No. 361 00:23:55,834 --> 00:23:58,894 Hi, Mum. I hope you're well. 362 00:23:58,937 --> 00:24:03,636 Aside from the heat and the smell, Burning Man was amazing. 363 00:24:07,245 --> 00:24:09,577 [Man] There is an appointed time for everything... 364 00:24:10,348 --> 00:24:12,942 ...and a time for every affair under the heavens. 365 00:24:13,652 --> 00:24:15,847 - [Sobs] - [Man] A time to be born, 366 00:24:15,887 --> 00:24:17,320 and a time to die. 367 00:24:18,990 --> 00:24:22,391 A time to plant, and a time to uproot the plant. 368 00:24:22,427 --> 00:24:23,826 [Amanda sniffles] 369 00:24:23,862 --> 00:24:26,456 [Man] A time to kill and a time to heal. 370 00:24:28,166 --> 00:24:30,634 A time to tear down and a time to build. 371 00:24:31,703 --> 00:24:35,161 - A time to weep and a time to laugh. - Are you OK? You want the wheelchair? 372 00:24:35,207 --> 00:24:38,370 [Man] A time to mourn and a time to dance. 373 00:24:38,844 --> 00:24:44,874 A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together. 374 00:24:45,250 --> 00:24:50,210 A time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing. 375 00:24:57,095 --> 00:24:59,063 [Chuckles] I'm sorry. 376 00:25:00,365 --> 00:25:02,629 - You're laughing? - She's laughing. 377 00:25:02,667 --> 00:25:03,964 [Lzzie continues laughing] 378 00:25:04,002 --> 00:25:06,470 George... George is dead. 379 00:25:06,538 --> 00:25:08,938 He's dead. They're about to put him in the ground 380 00:25:08,974 --> 00:25:12,034 and the priest is doing classic rock lyrics, 381 00:25:12,077 --> 00:25:15,410 and that girl, that redhead, is crying harder than his mother. 382 00:25:15,447 --> 00:25:17,415 - And she never even met him. - [Muffled laugh] 383 00:25:17,449 --> 00:25:20,111 You are far more twisted than I ever realized. 384 00:25:20,785 --> 00:25:23,982 And you got married on a Post-lt. 385 00:25:24,022 --> 00:25:26,217 [All laugh] 386 00:25:27,425 --> 00:25:29,552 [Meredith] I got married on a Post-lt. I did. 387 00:25:29,628 --> 00:25:32,654 - And you guys got married for real. - [Lzzie] I know! 388 00:25:35,800 --> 00:25:38,496 And I got cancer! What?! 389 00:25:39,771 --> 00:25:41,739 O'Malley got hit by a bus. 390 00:25:41,773 --> 00:25:44,264 [All guffawing] 391 00:25:46,778 --> 00:25:48,040 [Lzzie yells indistinctly] 392 00:25:52,717 --> 00:25:54,412 [Laughter diminishes] 393 00:25:57,589 --> 00:25:59,056 [Sobbing] 394 00:26:00,025 --> 00:26:02,357 [All guffawing] 395 00:26:07,933 --> 00:26:10,424 She never stops crying. 396 00:26:38,363 --> 00:26:40,160 Not now, please. Not now. 397 00:26:40,198 --> 00:26:42,132 It's been a week. You've been avoiding me. 398 00:26:42,167 --> 00:26:45,102 - Not now. - I am buying you time. 399 00:26:45,203 --> 00:26:49,196 - I am buying you time. - You have no idea what I've given. 400 00:26:49,274 --> 00:26:52,004 You have no idea what I have sacrificed. 401 00:26:52,043 --> 00:26:55,137 For every miscalculation you think you see, 402 00:26:55,180 --> 00:26:58,081 there have been a hundred things that I have gotten right, 403 00:26:58,149 --> 00:27:00,174 and no one knows. 404 00:27:00,986 --> 00:27:03,147 [Derek] Look, I'm on your side, OK? 405 00:27:03,221 --> 00:27:05,849 I'm not the board. I'm not Jennings. 406 00:27:05,924 --> 00:27:07,551 Then back off, then. 407 00:27:07,626 --> 00:27:11,221 Just back off and give me time to think. 408 00:27:12,697 --> 00:27:14,358 Let me have a minute to... 409 00:27:15,400 --> 00:27:17,129 ...O'Malley was my intern. 410 00:27:17,736 --> 00:27:20,466 And I'm trying to just take a minute. 411 00:27:22,774 --> 00:27:24,742 So, Derek, please... 412 00:27:25,977 --> 00:27:27,672 ...back off. 413 00:27:54,773 --> 00:27:56,172 [Sighs] 414 00:27:57,208 --> 00:27:59,073 You want a ride home? 415 00:27:59,110 --> 00:28:01,340 I was gonna clean out his locker. 416 00:28:02,080 --> 00:28:03,843 Give his stuff to his mom, but... 417 00:28:05,550 --> 00:28:09,987 I was a bad friend. To George. 418 00:28:10,655 --> 00:28:13,590 I was about as good a friend to him as Clara's friends, 419 00:28:13,658 --> 00:28:17,754 who keep sending postcards from the trip that she'll never get to take. 420 00:28:17,796 --> 00:28:19,855 I just... I... 421 00:28:19,898 --> 00:28:22,162 I abandoned him completely. 422 00:28:22,200 --> 00:28:26,603 I just moved out and stopped talking to him and... 423 00:28:27,806 --> 00:28:31,970 Why? Because he didn't think I was as hot as I thought he was? 424 00:28:32,010 --> 00:28:35,002 Because he didn't love me back? 425 00:28:38,149 --> 00:28:42,609 This may be bad timing, but I gotta ask. 426 00:28:43,421 --> 00:28:45,821 What did that guy have? 427 00:28:46,458 --> 00:28:48,551 I mean, he wasn't much to look at, 428 00:28:48,593 --> 00:28:53,155 but... you and Stevens and Torres? 429 00:28:54,566 --> 00:28:59,026 Tell the truth. Was he, you know... 430 00:28:59,604 --> 00:29:00,764 ...hung? 431 00:29:04,876 --> 00:29:07,071 - That's... - I know, I said bad timing. 432 00:29:07,178 --> 00:29:09,806 But seriously, he was kind of a dorky little dude. 433 00:29:09,848 --> 00:29:12,442 - Stop! Stop talking! [chuckles] - Sorry, sorry. 434 00:29:14,152 --> 00:29:17,952 [Chuckles] He... He died. I... 435 00:29:19,457 --> 00:29:21,186 George died. 436 00:29:22,794 --> 00:29:24,318 [Mark] Yeah. 437 00:29:38,676 --> 00:29:41,372 OK. Any pain here? 438 00:29:41,412 --> 00:29:42,970 All right, take a deep breath. 439 00:29:43,014 --> 00:29:45,983 Any dizziness when you stood up? Take a deep breath. 440 00:29:46,017 --> 00:29:47,245 [Inhales] 441 00:29:47,285 --> 00:29:49,048 - No. - OK. 442 00:29:49,854 --> 00:29:52,254 You are going home. 443 00:29:52,957 --> 00:29:57,155 You are gonna come back in 12 days for another round of IL-2 444 00:29:57,262 --> 00:30:00,390 and then you have your PET scan two weeks after that, 445 00:30:00,431 --> 00:30:04,663 but there's no need for you to keep living in this bed. 446 00:30:04,702 --> 00:30:06,966 You should take it easy. 447 00:30:07,005 --> 00:30:11,806 You're still a cancer patient, but you're no longer a surgical patient. 448 00:30:14,913 --> 00:30:16,608 Thank you, Dr. Bailey. 449 00:30:21,686 --> 00:30:23,813 I don't know how to... 450 00:30:24,622 --> 00:30:25,748 Thank you. 451 00:30:27,192 --> 00:30:31,288 Don't forget to sign the discharge papers before you leave. 452 00:30:35,733 --> 00:30:36,825 Andy? 453 00:30:36,901 --> 00:30:40,496 He's got serious pain in his inguinal area, down his legs and lower back. 454 00:30:40,572 --> 00:30:43,837 He's got a temp of 101. His mom says he's been throwing up all night. 455 00:30:43,875 --> 00:30:46,867 Please don't tell me this is growing pains, Dr. Robbins. 456 00:30:56,621 --> 00:30:58,088 [Sighs] 457 00:30:59,090 --> 00:31:01,854 - I can't do it. - It's OK. 458 00:31:01,893 --> 00:31:03,258 I can't move it at all. 459 00:31:03,294 --> 00:31:05,524 It's only been three days since your last surgery. 460 00:31:05,597 --> 00:31:09,033 The swelling will come down. We'll keep trying. You're doing great. 461 00:31:09,100 --> 00:31:11,091 Right. Great. 462 00:31:12,337 --> 00:31:14,100 [Clara] So, where did we leave off? 463 00:31:14,138 --> 00:31:17,039 - The Grand Canyon? - [Lexie] Yeah. 464 00:31:17,075 --> 00:31:19,669 Big, gorgeous hole in the ground. 465 00:31:19,744 --> 00:31:22,645 OK. Miss you, Mum. 466 00:31:23,548 --> 00:31:26,244 - Uh, wish you could see it. - Clara... Sorry. 467 00:31:26,284 --> 00:31:29,219 You are doing great, but you got a long road here. 468 00:31:29,254 --> 00:31:32,917 Believe me, your mom, she's gonna want to know. 469 00:31:32,957 --> 00:31:34,925 And she's gonna want to help. 470 00:31:38,663 --> 00:31:40,961 She made me from scratch. 471 00:31:41,766 --> 00:31:44,234 That's what she always says. 472 00:31:44,269 --> 00:31:48,968 Like, when I wanted to go skydiving, you know? 473 00:31:50,808 --> 00:31:54,141 "Don't jump out of a plane, Clara. I made that body from scratch." 474 00:31:55,546 --> 00:31:57,741 Or when I sprained my ankle. 475 00:31:57,782 --> 00:32:01,377 "Be more careful, darling. I made that ankle from scratch." 476 00:32:06,324 --> 00:32:08,451 Miss you, Mum. 477 00:32:10,094 --> 00:32:11,527 I'm doing great. 478 00:32:14,499 --> 00:32:16,797 Love you, Clara. 479 00:32:28,279 --> 00:32:29,576 [Sighs] 480 00:32:30,481 --> 00:32:31,573 [Richard] Come in. 481 00:32:34,585 --> 00:32:36,143 Hello, Dr. Torres. 482 00:32:37,689 --> 00:32:39,486 Chief, I was just... 483 00:32:40,591 --> 00:32:41,990 I was just wondering. 484 00:32:42,026 --> 00:32:47,259 I haven't heard anything about my application for attending, so... 485 00:32:49,233 --> 00:32:52,066 Dr. Torres, Dr. Chang's 401 k took a hit. 486 00:32:52,103 --> 00:32:54,469 He's putting off retirement another year or two. 487 00:32:54,539 --> 00:32:58,373 So... So, what, you're not giving me the job? 488 00:32:59,410 --> 00:33:01,878 There is no job. Not this year. 489 00:33:01,913 --> 00:33:04,780 I'm sorry. I assumed you heard. 490 00:33:06,751 --> 00:33:10,983 OK. Dr. Chang is basically a figurehead. You're clear on that, right? 491 00:33:11,022 --> 00:33:13,047 When people want the best, they page me. 492 00:33:13,091 --> 00:33:16,026 I have basically been running Dr. Chang's department... 493 00:33:16,060 --> 00:33:17,960 [Richard] Dr. Chang has an impeccable record! 494 00:33:17,996 --> 00:33:20,931 - He is a dinosaur! - And so am I! 495 00:33:23,434 --> 00:33:24,867 You're... 496 00:33:25,837 --> 00:33:27,099 This is... 497 00:33:28,373 --> 00:33:31,103 - You're gonna regret this. - Dr. Torres... 498 00:33:31,142 --> 00:33:33,633 No! No, no. I am just... 499 00:33:34,846 --> 00:33:36,609 No, I am excellent! 500 00:33:36,647 --> 00:33:40,481 I am excellent, and any other hospital would be thrilled to have me. 501 00:33:40,518 --> 00:33:44,010 I'm flattered for the offer, Larry, and I'm seriously considering it. 502 00:33:44,055 --> 00:33:46,523 But it's complicated and I need a little more time. 503 00:33:46,557 --> 00:33:48,684 I can't give you more time, Derek. 504 00:33:48,726 --> 00:33:51,388 I can give you more money, better benefits, 505 00:33:51,462 --> 00:33:53,987 and a whole lot of press. That's what I can give you. 506 00:33:54,065 --> 00:33:56,898 - But I can't give you much more time. - [Callie] Yes, I am. 507 00:33:56,934 --> 00:34:00,267 I'm a superstar, a superstar with a scalpel! 508 00:34:00,304 --> 00:34:02,329 - Torres! - No! Don't say my name. 509 00:34:02,373 --> 00:34:06,207 I am too big a star for you to say my name. I build arms out of nothing 510 00:34:06,244 --> 00:34:07,734 and legs like God. 511 00:34:07,779 --> 00:34:11,146 And when I win the Harper Avery and every other prize there is, 512 00:34:11,182 --> 00:34:13,912 you will rue this day, Chief Webber. 513 00:34:13,951 --> 00:34:16,181 That's right. I said "rue." 514 00:34:18,423 --> 00:34:21,187 Tight ship you're running here, Webber. 515 00:34:21,225 --> 00:34:22,954 Real tight ship. 516 00:34:38,843 --> 00:34:41,004 [Sobbing] 517 00:34:56,294 --> 00:34:59,161 [Indistinct chattering] 518 00:34:59,197 --> 00:35:01,665 - Amanda. Hi. - Hi. 519 00:35:01,699 --> 00:35:03,223 What are you doing here? 520 00:35:04,869 --> 00:35:07,565 I... can't sleep. 521 00:35:09,340 --> 00:35:14,505 I can't fall asleep, 'cause I see his face all the time. 522 00:35:17,615 --> 00:35:19,378 I see him at bus stops. 523 00:35:20,384 --> 00:35:24,115 He was sweet, smiling, and then... 524 00:35:24,155 --> 00:35:26,248 And then I see the way that he ended up, 525 00:35:26,324 --> 00:35:30,192 so that even his best friends can't recognize him and I can't sleep. 526 00:35:32,430 --> 00:35:34,625 Can you... Can you sleep? 527 00:35:35,233 --> 00:35:36,700 I... 528 00:35:37,602 --> 00:35:39,900 ...am gonna write you a prescription... 529 00:35:40,938 --> 00:35:43,099 ...for an anti-anxiety medication. 530 00:35:43,174 --> 00:35:46,109 And I want you to take it because the sleep deprivation thing 531 00:35:46,177 --> 00:35:47,644 can be quite harmful. 532 00:35:55,820 --> 00:35:57,344 - Dr. Robbins. - Chief. 533 00:35:57,421 --> 00:36:00,549 Did you order an emergent 3-D MRI for this patient? 534 00:36:00,591 --> 00:36:02,684 OK, you're mad, I see that. 535 00:36:02,727 --> 00:36:04,592 But with the patient's mother's insurance 536 00:36:04,629 --> 00:36:07,598 it could take weeks to get an MRI and a specialty pain referral... 537 00:36:07,665 --> 00:36:10,429 So you expect the hospital to pay with whose money? 538 00:36:11,302 --> 00:36:13,896 - Sir, I only thought... - I don't want to hear it, Dr. Robbins. 539 00:36:13,971 --> 00:36:17,702 Now discharge the patient, refer him back to his physician, and do it now! 540 00:36:25,016 --> 00:36:27,280 Dr. Karev, change of plans. 541 00:36:33,357 --> 00:36:34,790 Open up! 542 00:36:36,961 --> 00:36:39,054 Open the door, Torres. 543 00:36:40,097 --> 00:36:43,066 - [Men chattering indistinctly] - Open the door, or I'll keep knocking 544 00:36:43,134 --> 00:36:46,661 and potentially damage my multi-million dollar hands. 545 00:36:46,704 --> 00:36:50,231 [Sobs] My ex-husband died. 546 00:36:50,274 --> 00:36:53,539 He died. He actually got hit by a bus. 547 00:36:53,578 --> 00:36:57,742 George got hit by a bus, and now I have to get a new job 548 00:36:57,782 --> 00:37:00,182 and I'm never gonna see my friends anymore 549 00:37:00,218 --> 00:37:04,416 and Arizona keeps bringing me donuts! 550 00:37:12,496 --> 00:37:14,123 This place for sale? It's nice. 551 00:37:16,567 --> 00:37:18,797 - What? - Oh, nothing, nothing. 552 00:37:18,836 --> 00:37:20,804 [Shushing] 553 00:37:21,939 --> 00:37:24,271 [Derek and Meredith giggling] 554 00:37:24,775 --> 00:37:26,640 - [Derek moans] - Oh, my God! 555 00:37:26,677 --> 00:37:28,542 - [Meredith] Hey, Derek! - [Derek] Oh, hey, hi! 556 00:37:28,579 --> 00:37:32,310 - Dude, get a room. - On the stairs? Doesn't that hurt? 557 00:37:32,350 --> 00:37:34,250 [Meredith] Leave us alone, we're newlyweds. 558 00:37:34,318 --> 00:37:36,718 A Post-lt wedding does not make you newlyweds. 559 00:37:36,754 --> 00:37:39,245 You know what? You're newlyweds, too. 560 00:37:39,724 --> 00:37:42,454 - You need your own space. - What are these? 561 00:37:42,526 --> 00:37:44,289 Keys to my trailer. Your new home. 562 00:37:46,564 --> 00:37:47,826 Enjoy. 563 00:37:52,870 --> 00:37:54,701 - Dr. Hunt. - Yes? 564 00:37:54,739 --> 00:37:57,708 I'm Louise O'Malley, George's mother. 565 00:37:57,742 --> 00:38:00,836 Of course, I'm sorry. I didn't... I'm sorry. 566 00:38:00,878 --> 00:38:05,110 It's all right. Well, I hope you don't mind me coming here to see you. 567 00:38:05,182 --> 00:38:07,844 I know you surgeons are very busy people. 568 00:38:07,885 --> 00:38:12,413 - My Georgie was always... - That's no problem. It's fine. 569 00:38:12,490 --> 00:38:14,549 I'm... 570 00:38:15,793 --> 00:38:18,261 ...having trouble. I'm... 571 00:38:18,296 --> 00:38:19,923 ...having trouble... 572 00:38:21,732 --> 00:38:23,359 I... 573 00:38:24,235 --> 00:38:28,262 I think it's because I'm having trouble understanding. 574 00:38:28,306 --> 00:38:30,433 There's a piece of the puzzle missing. 575 00:38:30,474 --> 00:38:34,103 I do better when I understand things, how things happen. 576 00:38:35,212 --> 00:38:38,545 And George, my George... 577 00:38:39,283 --> 00:38:40,773 The boy I knew, the boy I raised, 578 00:38:40,851 --> 00:38:43,945 my boy, would never have joined the Army. 579 00:38:43,988 --> 00:38:47,355 So I'm trying to understand. 580 00:38:47,391 --> 00:38:50,519 I'm trying to understand that piece of it. 581 00:38:50,594 --> 00:38:54,086 I'm trying to understand why Georgie wasn't at work that day, 582 00:38:54,131 --> 00:38:56,497 why he was on his way to my house 583 00:38:56,567 --> 00:39:01,231 to tell me he joined the Army in wartime. 584 00:39:02,807 --> 00:39:04,968 I don't understand. 585 00:39:05,710 --> 00:39:08,838 And Dr. Webber said I should talk to you. 586 00:39:12,817 --> 00:39:16,309 Mrs. O'Malley, I didn't know him like you knew him, didn't know him long, 587 00:39:16,354 --> 00:39:19,346 but he had tremendous potential as a trauma surgeon. 588 00:39:19,423 --> 00:39:21,584 He was very fast on his feet. 589 00:39:21,625 --> 00:39:24,856 He could think and act simultaneously under intense pressure. 590 00:39:24,929 --> 00:39:27,022 He had tremendous potential. 591 00:39:27,832 --> 00:39:29,527 And... 592 00:39:31,035 --> 00:39:34,334 He was impatient. He wanted to become better faster. 593 00:39:34,372 --> 00:39:36,431 He wanted to save more lives. 594 00:39:38,042 --> 00:39:39,441 He was good. 595 00:39:41,312 --> 00:39:43,542 And he was thoughtful and generous. 596 00:39:45,049 --> 00:39:47,415 Now, I think in the end, I think... 597 00:39:48,285 --> 00:39:50,719 I think he was heroic and noble, 598 00:39:50,755 --> 00:39:52,950 and I liked him very much. 599 00:39:53,023 --> 00:39:58,051 And I think he gave you a good reason to be very, very proud. 600 00:40:10,074 --> 00:40:12,008 Hey, I'm headed out. 601 00:40:12,076 --> 00:40:14,271 - Just wanted to say good night. - Good night. 602 00:40:15,913 --> 00:40:18,780 Clara, you just moved... You moved your fingers, like you waved. 603 00:40:18,849 --> 00:40:20,942 You waved goodbye. This is huge! 604 00:40:22,920 --> 00:40:26,083 That's huge? That I waved? 605 00:40:27,057 --> 00:40:28,888 That I waved a finger? 606 00:40:28,926 --> 00:40:32,919 That's my life from now on, that's the best I have to hope for? 607 00:40:33,964 --> 00:40:36,455 [Sighs] Clara... 608 00:40:37,701 --> 00:40:40,761 Do you see that woman out there talking to Dr. Hunt? 609 00:40:40,838 --> 00:40:44,399 We buried her son this week. 610 00:40:44,442 --> 00:40:47,570 He had an accident, like you. 611 00:40:47,611 --> 00:40:52,241 He wasn't even as bad off as you were, and he didn't make it. 612 00:40:52,883 --> 00:40:55,784 Clara, I know that it doesn't feel like it, 613 00:40:55,820 --> 00:40:58,152 but it is a miracle that you lived. 614 00:40:58,222 --> 00:41:02,659 It is a miracle. So you should call your mom. 615 00:41:02,693 --> 00:41:04,991 She would want to know the truth. 616 00:41:07,832 --> 00:41:10,528 You stupid little bitch. 617 00:41:11,969 --> 00:41:13,960 You really don't get it, do you? 618 00:41:14,805 --> 00:41:16,568 You should have let me die. 619 00:41:17,007 --> 00:41:19,703 You had no business. 620 00:41:20,344 --> 00:41:24,576 I've got one working hand, I may never walk again. 621 00:41:25,149 --> 00:41:29,882 Do you think you're God? You had no business. 622 00:41:30,654 --> 00:41:34,420 Your friend is better off. His mum is better off. 623 00:41:34,492 --> 00:41:39,191 Do you think this is a miracle? Who wants to live like this? 624 00:41:39,230 --> 00:41:42,666 Just let me die! Just let me die, please! 625 00:41:42,766 --> 00:41:45,200 - Just let me die! - Hey, Clara... 626 00:41:45,236 --> 00:41:48,171 - [monitor beeping] - [Clara] Just let me die! Get off me! 627 00:41:48,205 --> 00:41:49,365 I need some help in here! 628 00:41:49,707 --> 00:41:53,268 - Clara, stop! You have to stop! - [Clara] Get off me! 629 00:41:58,549 --> 00:42:01,040 [Meredith] In medical school, we have a hundred classes 630 00:42:01,085 --> 00:42:03,918 that teach us how to fight off death... 631 00:42:05,856 --> 00:42:09,155 ... and not one lesson in how to go on living.