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♪ These rivers are frozen ♪

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♪ It's hard to say
if it will be alright ♪

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Meredith: Medical schools
often ask applicants

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for an essay describing a time
they faced adversity...

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♪ ...has broken ♪

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...and how they overcame it.

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♪ Everything
that I have built inside ♪

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They want to know
how people will cope

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with the challenges
they'll face as a doctor.

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♪ I'm chasing my shadow ♪

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[ Thunder crashes ]

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♪ Lately he's been
the only friend of mine ♪

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♪♪

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Some students worry they have
nothing to write about.

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♪ And I don't know
which way to go ♪

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♪♪

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♪ Lost my mind to the unknown ♪
They haven't faced difficulty.

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[ Ventilator hissing,
monitor beeping ]

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♪ Even if I stay here always ♪

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♪ I'll keep holding on ♪

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♪ For you ♪

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♪ You ♪

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♪ I'll be waiting ♪

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I didn't have that problem.

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♪ Till we meet again,
till we meet again ♪

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Morning, Meredith.

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[ Thunder rumbling ]

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Uh, let's start
with regional updates.

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Uh, Hunt?

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Shouldn't we start with
an update on Meredith Grey?

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Yeah. I mean,
has her I. S. improved?

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Yeah. Is she on
a proning schedule?

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People, people.
I know we're all concerned,

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but Meredith
is getting excellent care

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from Altman and DeLuca.

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She's stable
and she's resting.

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In the meantime,
we have a hospital

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full of patients
who need us.

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Hunt?

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Yesterday Seattle reported
345 more cases, 29 deaths.

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Test positivity rate
has increased to 4.7%,

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so we should prepare
for more patients.

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COVID ICU?

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Beds are at
68% capacity.

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We'll likely need more
by the end of the month.

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53 of the 72 ventilators
are currently in use.

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Are there any cases
that warrant discussion?

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Koracick: Hi. Hello.

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I've got one. Me.
K‐Koracick? How did you ‐‐

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I‐I've got connections.
I'm emeritus chief of chiefs.

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That is not a thing.

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As I'm sure Hunt
gleefully told you,

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I tested positive for COVID.

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But I think the test was a dud.

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Breathing's normal,
good heart rate,

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singing voice unaffected ‐‐

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That does not change the rules.

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A negative COVID test
or a 14‐day quarantine.

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You're not even close.
Then send me a new test.

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And can you adjust
my camera angle?

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As lovely as
the ceiling is, I ‐‐

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[ Light laughter ]

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♪♪

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[ Indistinct talking on PA ]

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[ Door opens ]

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Did you know that there are
murder hornets now?

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What?
Yeah.

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As if the COVID outbreak
right after my husband dumped me

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wasn't bad enough.
[ Chuckles ]

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I'm gonna go home, crawl into
bed before my next shift.

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Yeah, I'm done, too. Look,
if you don't want to be alone,

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you can come hang out
at my place.

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Um, let me think about the
last time I went to your place

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and...no.

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At least I don't have a resident
living on my couch, okay?

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I got fancy beer
and a negative COVID test.

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I guess also April switched
Harriett's days on me, but...

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Oh, so you're lonely.

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Will you just come over,
alright?

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We can watch TV and, I don't
know, order pizza. Or sushi.

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Start over.

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Friendship reboot.

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We're getting both
and you're paying.

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Fine.
And no Kenny G!

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[ Door closes ]

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[ Thunder rumbling, baby coos ]

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Hey, buddy.

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Yeah.

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Just me and you.

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[ Sighs ]

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This is called a "C" chord.

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[ Guitar playing ]
I'll teach you one day.

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[ Door opens ]

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Why can't I find gauze
in a house

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with so many surgeons
living in it?

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Uh, who's bleeding
this time?

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Bailey lost a tooth.

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The one that's been loose
for two weeks?

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That's supposed to happen.

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Well, not when your mom
is in the hospital with COVID.

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Mer's gonna get better.

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[ Sighs ]
You don't know that's true.

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You don't know
that it's not.

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Alright, look, um,

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let's ‐‐ let's look at
the bright side of things, okay?

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We get to introduce Bailey
to the Tooth Fairy.

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Kids love
the Tooth Fairy.

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I'll, uh ‐‐
I'll check on him.

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The bright side?

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[ Monitor beeping ]

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Dr. Kuo at the Catherine Fox
Medical Center in Manhattan

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is doing a trial with
monoclonal antibodies for COVID.

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She's got room for
two more patients, but
we got to jump on it.

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I read that study.
Didn't three patients die?

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Well, there's a strong chance
that they got the drug too late.

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Dr. Webber,
her lungs are flooded,

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a‐and she's sleeping
almost around the clock.

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Richard, I would never
give this recommendation

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if I didn't think that the good
outweighed the bad.

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Thank you.
I'll ‐‐ I'll think about it.

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Okay.

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Dr. Webber ‐‐

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I said
I'd think about it.

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♪♪

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Bailey:
Mom, I can't come see you.

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Because of the pandemic,
remember?

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There's a bad virus
and no vaccine yet.

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But I can call you later,
though, okay?

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I ‐‐ Mnh.

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How you feeling, Chief?
[ Sighs ]

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I moved my parents here
from across the country

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into an assisted‐living facility
just in time to never see them.

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I meant your ankle.
But sorry to hear that.

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It's fine.
Thank you.

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Soccer mom: Hello?
Can someone help me?

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Hi. I'm Dr. Kim.

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Where are you from?

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Orthopedics. And it looks like
you just have a cut here,

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so let's find you
another doctor

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who can help
take care of this, okay?

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Orthopedics?

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You know that's not
what she was asking.

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‐I know.
‐It doesn't bother you?

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Her assuming
you're not from here?

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Happens to all of us
at some point, right?

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[ Siren wailing ]

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Bailey: What do we have?
Paramedic:
Dave Oyadomari, 37,

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head lac
and right shoulder pain

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after falling off
of a step ladder.

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He also complains of abdominal
pain, nausea, and vomiting

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with a 102 fever.

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He was recently treated here
by Dr. Hunt for appendicitis

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then sent home
on oral antibiotics.

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Dave: Yeah. I'll be okay.

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Can ‐‐ Can you just give me
some more antibiotics

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and ‐‐ and a sling
or something?

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You were in so much pain
that you fell off a ladder.

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I had to call an ambulance!

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Meet my wife, Tammi.

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Okay. We'll check him out,
Tammi.

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Uh, he's tachycardic
and slightly hypotensive.

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Kim. Here.

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Let's get him to trauma one
and do a COVID test,

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STAT X‐rays, labs,
and a FAST exam.

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Nico: Got it.

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[ Monitor beeping ]

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You trying to will her
into joining the trial?

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No.

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I'm hoping she suddenly
gets better and doesn't need it.

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♪♪

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[ Seagulls crying ]

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♪♪

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Excuse me!

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♪♪

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Meredith: Hello?!

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♪♪

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Mer?

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George?!

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What are you doing here?

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♪♪

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♪♪

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[ Knock on door ]

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♪♪

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Did you ask the humans
to take you to their leader?

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Because it's no longer me.

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It's Dr. Helm. I'm here
to do your COVID test.

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No, you're here
to deliver it.

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I don't allow residents
in my house or up my nose.

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Uh, just put it down.
Right here.

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Back up.

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Back, back, back, back, back,
back, back, back, back, back.

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Bup, bup, bup, bup, bup.

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[ Siren wailing in distance ]

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Taryn: Did you know
that I had COVID?

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It was mild, but scary.

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I learned
how to make sourdough.

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I couldn't taste it or smell it,
but the texture seemed right.

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I also, uh, binged a docuseries
about house ‐‐

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You can stop your "What I did
over COVID vacation" report.

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I have no interest
in baking, bingeing,

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or doing anything you did
or will ever do or ‐‐

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[ Sniffles ] What?

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Are you plotting
something...evil?

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No. I'm stopping
the pandemic.

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[ Test kit thuds ]

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♪♪

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Winston: Chopped chicken salad
with homemade sweet pickles

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on toasted bread.

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That's a Nana Ante special
right there.

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Ooh! Jealous!

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I had stale cashews.

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Well, mine's nothing compared
to hers, but it's not bad.

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And I just can't wait
for you two to meet.

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I hope to, someday.

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Tonight too soon?
It's her birthday.

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And, uh, we're doing a ‐‐
a virtual dinner.

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Or if it's too soon,
no rush.

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No, no, I just, uh...

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It's Meredith.

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I‐I know there's nothing
I can do, but...

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[ Chuckles ] Anything I do
that isn't trying to help

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just feels selfish
and wrong.

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Joy is in short supply
these days.

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Especially our joy.

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It sure as hell is.

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That's why I'm grabbing it
when I can.

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You know, it might be
a text from you.

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It might be
the fancy pencils

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I bought for
my crossword puzzles.

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It might be just
taking a few minutes

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to sit outside with
my chicken‐salad sandwich

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and look at the daffodils.

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I don't mean
to tell you how to be.

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Uh...are you mad?

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‐No, no.
‐Ignore me. Ignore me.

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I'm not mad. I'm not mad.
I'm...a little hurt maybe.

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You got fancy pencils
and you didn't tell me?

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Wait. Are you
a pencil nerd, too?

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Oh, I special ordered a vintage
pencil sharpener from Paris.

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[ Laughs ]
[ Cellphone chimes ]

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Oh, oh.
That's my resident.

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And...joy's over.

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[ Sighs ]
Until dinner tonight.

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Until dinner tonight.

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♪♪

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Dave: My great‐grandpa
was an accountant,

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but no one would hire him
after he came back from camp.

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So he got a job
as a line cook in a diner

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and eventually
started Toyo.

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‐Where was he interned?
‐Tule Lake.

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My great‐grandparents
were sent to Jerome.

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I'm Gosei
on my mom's side.

253
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Scans up yet?

254
00:10:42,308 --> 00:10:44,519
[ Beep ]
Yep, just came up.

255
00:10:44,519 --> 00:10:46,479
[ Keys clacking ]
Dr. Hunt, I read

256
00:10:46,479 --> 00:10:48,648
that you initially
diagnosed appendicitis,

257
00:10:48,648 --> 00:10:50,608
but these scans show
pelvic free fluid

258
00:10:50,608 --> 00:10:52,360
and a paracolonic abscess.

259
00:10:52,360 --> 00:10:54,737
I think he might have
right‐sided diverticulitis.

260
00:10:54,737 --> 00:10:56,322
[ Sighs ] Yep.

261
00:10:56,322 --> 00:10:58,283
And it looks like
it's perforated.

262
00:10:58,283 --> 00:10:59,993
Plus, his X‐rays show
a broken collarbone.

263
00:10:59,993 --> 00:11:01,911
Okay, book an OR,
and I'll meet you up there.

264
00:11:01,911 --> 00:11:03,454
We need to get him up there
right now.

265
00:11:03,454 --> 00:11:05,623
Really?
We ‐‐ We as in me?

266
00:11:05,623 --> 00:11:07,542
Yeah,
it's your diagnosis.

267
00:11:07,542 --> 00:11:09,294
[ Exhales sharply ]
Good catch, Tseng.

268
00:11:12,672 --> 00:11:14,632
[ Keys clacking ]

269
00:11:14,632 --> 00:11:16,426
Congratulations.

270
00:11:16,426 --> 00:11:19,846
You just ordered Nathan Ramos
a pregnancy test.

271
00:11:19,846 --> 00:11:22,015
Intern Sara:
What? How?!

272
00:11:23,725 --> 00:11:27,103
Hey.
Hey.

273
00:11:27,103 --> 00:11:28,062
Hey.

274
00:11:29,939 --> 00:11:32,275
You already said that.

275
00:11:32,275 --> 00:11:34,277
Woman on P. A.: Portable X‐ray
to the third floor.

276
00:11:34,277 --> 00:11:36,196
Portable X‐ray
to the third floor.

277
00:11:36,196 --> 00:11:38,114
Intern Sara: Ooh! He cute.
[ Giggles ]

278
00:11:38,114 --> 00:11:40,491
No one asked you.
Okay.

279
00:11:40,491 --> 00:11:42,660
Jackson: Wait. No, no, no. Wait.
She kicked you out of bed,

280
00:11:42,660 --> 00:11:45,705
so you were,
like, what, naked?
I'm naked. Naked.

281
00:11:45,705 --> 00:11:48,124
I was naked in bed with
my boyfriend, and she just ‐‐

282
00:11:48,124 --> 00:11:50,251
And it wasn't
just one time either.

283
00:11:50,251 --> 00:11:52,754
I mean, it kind of says
less about him than her.

284
00:11:52,754 --> 00:11:54,255
Really, though?
Does it?

285
00:11:54,255 --> 00:11:56,049
Yeah. Mer's like
a force of nature.

286
00:11:56,049 --> 00:11:57,217
[ Both chuckle ]

287
00:11:57,217 --> 00:11:59,802
Yeah. That's right.

288
00:11:59,802 --> 00:12:02,055
She's a force of nature.
She, um...

289
00:12:04,849 --> 00:12:07,769
She's gonna beat this thing.
Right?

290
00:12:08,853 --> 00:12:10,605
Right.

291
00:12:10,605 --> 00:12:13,858
Right. Yeah.

292
00:12:13,858 --> 00:12:16,361
[ Waves crashing ]

293
00:12:16,361 --> 00:12:18,613
[ Seagulls crying ]

294
00:12:20,949 --> 00:12:23,034
Derek said
the sand isn't real.

295
00:12:23,034 --> 00:12:25,245
Yeah, no.
Neither is the ocean.

296
00:12:25,245 --> 00:12:28,665
It is nice, though.

297
00:12:28,665 --> 00:12:31,334
I wouldn't want
to leave either.

298
00:12:31,334 --> 00:12:32,585
The beach?

299
00:12:32,585 --> 00:12:34,671
Your kids.
[ Chuckles ]

300
00:12:36,673 --> 00:12:38,383
Got great kids.

301
00:12:38,383 --> 00:12:41,678
They're the best.
You didn't meet them.

302
00:12:41,678 --> 00:12:44,597
I check in sometimes.

303
00:12:44,597 --> 00:12:47,183
How did you get older?

304
00:12:47,183 --> 00:12:49,852
Sand isn't real,
the ocean isn't real.

305
00:12:49,852 --> 00:12:52,480
The body...
it's not real.

306
00:12:54,274 --> 00:12:58,319
Maybe it's just more peaceful
for you to imagine me older?

307
00:12:58,319 --> 00:13:01,072
You sound like
a fortune cookie.

308
00:13:01,072 --> 00:13:03,074
[ Both laughing ]

309
00:13:08,913 --> 00:13:10,039
[ Sighs ]

310
00:13:12,166 --> 00:13:14,168
Do I choose?

311
00:13:14,168 --> 00:13:17,380
Do I get to decide
if I go back?

312
00:13:17,380 --> 00:13:19,882
I don't know.
I didn't.

313
00:13:22,302 --> 00:13:26,389
I would have stayed
if I could have.

314
00:13:26,389 --> 00:13:28,599
It's different
for everyone, though.

315
00:13:28,599 --> 00:13:37,400
♪♪

316
00:13:37,400 --> 00:13:39,444
[ Monitor beeping ]

317
00:13:39,444 --> 00:13:40,695
[ Door opens ]

318
00:13:40,695 --> 00:13:42,030
She's still asleep?

319
00:13:42,030 --> 00:13:43,656
Richard:
She needs her rest.

320
00:13:43,656 --> 00:13:45,783
You want to wake her
and ask her about the trial?

321
00:13:45,783 --> 00:13:48,077
I tried.
How hard?

322
00:13:49,454 --> 00:13:51,080
She needs her rest,
Bailey.

323
00:13:51,080 --> 00:13:53,249
If you think I'm struggling
with the decision,

324
00:13:53,249 --> 00:13:55,043
how do you think
she's gonna do?

325
00:13:57,378 --> 00:14:00,465
You want to talk
pros and cons?

326
00:14:00,465 --> 00:14:02,633
We don't know anything
about the virus,

327
00:14:02,633 --> 00:14:05,261
so we don't know anything
about the treatment,

328
00:14:05,261 --> 00:14:09,182
so we don't know any of the pros
or any of the cons.

329
00:14:09,182 --> 00:14:11,893
Let's just see
if the proning helps.

330
00:14:14,062 --> 00:14:15,396
[ Door opens ]

331
00:14:21,069 --> 00:14:25,323
Nana Ante: The boy refused
to wear anything with buttons.

332
00:14:25,323 --> 00:14:28,242
Collared shirts, slacks,
even jeans.

333
00:14:28,242 --> 00:14:30,453
Look.
Buttons confine, okay?

334
00:14:30,453 --> 00:14:33,581
Now, elastic waistbands
give you freedom.

335
00:14:33,581 --> 00:14:35,458
You better not be wearing
elastic waistbands

336
00:14:35,458 --> 00:14:36,709
when you take Maggie out.

337
00:14:36,709 --> 00:14:38,211
I promise you he doesn't.

338
00:14:38,211 --> 00:14:40,338
[ Computer ringing ]
Oh, is this your brother?

339
00:14:40,338 --> 00:14:41,589
He said he had to work.

340
00:14:41,589 --> 00:14:42,757
Happy Birthday, Momma!

341
00:14:42,757 --> 00:14:44,008
Nana Ante: Thanks, baby.

342
00:14:44,008 --> 00:14:45,259
We're actually
in the middle of dinner.

343
00:14:45,259 --> 00:14:47,428
Winston,
I invited your dad.

344
00:14:47,428 --> 00:14:49,806
And you have to get along
because it's my birthday.

345
00:14:49,806 --> 00:14:52,350
Clifford:
So, who is this young lady?

346
00:14:52,350 --> 00:14:54,727
Um, I'm Maggie Pierce.
I'm a friend of Winston's.

347
00:14:54,727 --> 00:14:56,270
Friend? Ha.

348
00:14:56,270 --> 00:14:58,856
Maggie's a genius doctor
like Winston.

349
00:14:58,856 --> 00:15:00,316
She used to be his teacher.

350
00:15:00,316 --> 00:15:02,151
Winston? A genius?

351
00:15:02,151 --> 00:15:04,028
Oh, stop playin'.

352
00:15:04,028 --> 00:15:06,948
[ Chuckling ] You know that boy
almost failed sixth grade.

353
00:15:06,948 --> 00:15:08,533
Such a pain.

354
00:15:08,533 --> 00:15:10,284
Maybe I wouldn't have
missed so much class

355
00:15:10,284 --> 00:15:13,162
if I wasn't helping Mom while
you gambled away our savings.

356
00:15:13,162 --> 00:15:15,498
Winston!
Sorry, Nana.
No disrespect.

357
00:15:15,498 --> 00:15:19,085
Listen, man, I never pretended
to be a perfect man.

358
00:15:19,085 --> 00:15:22,171
But I love you,
and I love my momma.

359
00:15:22,171 --> 00:15:27,218
So, please, for her sake,
let's try to be civil.

360
00:15:27,218 --> 00:15:28,427
Civil, huh?

361
00:15:30,346 --> 00:15:31,514
Okay.

362
00:15:34,142 --> 00:15:36,519
Happy birthday, Nana.
I love you.

363
00:15:37,436 --> 00:15:38,688
Uh...

364
00:15:42,024 --> 00:15:44,652
So, is there cake?

365
00:15:44,652 --> 00:15:46,779
[ Siren wailing ]

366
00:15:46,779 --> 00:15:48,072
[ Birds chirping ]

367
00:15:48,072 --> 00:15:50,283
Why are you up so early?

368
00:15:50,283 --> 00:15:52,660
[ Sighs ] Front desk.
I got some breakfast delivered.

369
00:15:52,660 --> 00:15:53,995
Oh, you know what?

370
00:15:53,995 --> 00:15:55,621
If I was hungry, I would have
just eaten the cold pizza.

371
00:15:55,621 --> 00:15:57,832
Who said I got you any?

372
00:15:57,832 --> 00:16:00,001
Can't believe
I fell asleep.

373
00:16:00,001 --> 00:16:02,837
Never should've started
a movie with two sequels.

374
00:16:02,837 --> 00:16:04,255
Prequels.
They were prequels.

375
00:16:04,255 --> 00:16:06,966
And I said that,
but you called me a wuss.

376
00:16:06,966 --> 00:16:08,426
[ Clears throat ]
Why is your couch

377
00:16:08,426 --> 00:16:09,886
more comfortable
than my bed?

378
00:16:09,886 --> 00:16:13,598
Well, you're welcome to it
whenever you want.

379
00:16:13,598 --> 00:16:18,311
[ Clears throat ] Thank you
for the friendship reboot.

380
00:16:18,311 --> 00:16:21,189
It almost made up for the last
time that I woke up here.

381
00:16:21,189 --> 00:16:22,732
Tried to rip the Band‐Aid off
too soon.

382
00:16:22,732 --> 00:16:24,025
It's behind us.
We're good.

383
00:16:24,025 --> 00:16:25,651
Uh, but you can take
the pizza with you.

384
00:16:25,651 --> 00:16:26,736
I'll grab it for you.

385
00:16:28,571 --> 00:16:29,989
Jo: Wait.

386
00:16:32,909 --> 00:16:34,285
Mnh, mnh, mnh.

387
00:16:34,285 --> 00:16:35,828
I'm ripping off
the Band‐Aid.

388
00:16:35,828 --> 00:16:42,001
♪♪

389
00:16:42,001 --> 00:16:48,466
♪♪

390
00:16:48,466 --> 00:16:52,428
It's just a basic algorithm that
simulates the spread of COVID.

391
00:16:52,428 --> 00:16:55,389
Here's what it would look like
if everyone social‐distanced.

392
00:16:55,389 --> 00:16:56,432
[ Key clacks ]

393
00:16:56,432 --> 00:16:59,101
[ Chuckling ]

394
00:16:59,101 --> 00:17:01,854
Here...if everyone
wore face masks.

395
00:17:01,854 --> 00:17:03,147
[ Key clacks, beeping ]

396
00:17:03,147 --> 00:17:04,440
[ Chuckles ]

397
00:17:04,440 --> 00:17:06,817
It's just a little
stochastic S‐I‐R model

398
00:17:06,817 --> 00:17:08,986
that allows for
multivariable inputs...

399
00:17:08,986 --> 00:17:10,655
[ Growling ]

400
00:17:10,655 --> 00:17:13,449
...w‐which I built by converting
a "Zombie Apocalypse" game.

401
00:17:13,449 --> 00:17:15,534
I love that game!
How does yours end?

402
00:17:15,534 --> 00:17:16,786
I‐I don't know yet.

403
00:17:16,786 --> 00:17:19,163
Same. I never got past
level eight, so...

404
00:17:19,163 --> 00:17:20,790
Yeah, Helm,
I appreciate your interest,

405
00:17:20,790 --> 00:17:22,458
but, uh, no one's gonna know
my test is negative

406
00:17:22,458 --> 00:17:24,126
if it never leaves
my porch, hmm?

407
00:17:24,126 --> 00:17:25,920
Show's over.

408
00:17:25,920 --> 00:17:27,004
Bye‐ee!

409
00:17:31,968 --> 00:17:34,512
Meredith: I was devastated
when you died.

410
00:17:34,512 --> 00:17:37,056
You were all cracking up
at my funeral.

411
00:17:39,350 --> 00:17:40,685
Well, we were ‐‐

412
00:17:40,685 --> 00:17:41,769
No. What?

413
00:17:41,769 --> 00:17:44,146
What? No.

414
00:17:44,146 --> 00:17:47,149
It ‐‐
That made me happy.

415
00:17:49,986 --> 00:17:52,446
I was devastated.

416
00:17:52,446 --> 00:17:56,492
And then I was okay.

417
00:17:56,492 --> 00:17:58,786
And even with Derek...

418
00:17:58,786 --> 00:18:02,707
eventually you go on.

419
00:18:02,707 --> 00:18:05,835
And the kids
would go on.

420
00:18:05,835 --> 00:18:08,170
They would, but...

421
00:18:08,170 --> 00:18:11,757
I think maybe with them
it's different.

422
00:18:11,757 --> 00:18:13,426
My mom didn't go on.

423
00:18:13,426 --> 00:18:14,844
No?

424
00:18:14,844 --> 00:18:18,014
Not really,
not like she used to.

425
00:18:18,014 --> 00:18:21,183
Some grief is ‐‐

426
00:18:21,183 --> 00:18:23,519
is heavier
than other grief.

427
00:18:23,519 --> 00:18:25,438
Sometimes it moves
through you,

428
00:18:25,438 --> 00:18:28,941
and sometimes it ‐‐
it just gets stuck.

429
00:18:28,941 --> 00:18:32,278
And you carry it.
Like my mom.

430
00:18:32,278 --> 00:18:34,113
My mom carries it.

431
00:18:36,032 --> 00:18:39,744
Sometimes I try
to shake it out of her.

432
00:18:39,744 --> 00:18:41,746
What?!

433
00:18:41,746 --> 00:18:43,247
Like, you know...

434
00:18:43,247 --> 00:18:44,874
Like you haunt her?

435
00:18:44,874 --> 00:18:46,667
Well, I mean, if you want
to call it that, I...

436
00:18:46,667 --> 00:18:49,170
[ Laughs ]

437
00:18:49,170 --> 00:18:52,923
I just want her to...
let it go.

438
00:18:52,923 --> 00:18:54,675
I want her to know
I'm still me

439
00:18:54,675 --> 00:18:57,887
even though she can't touch me
and she can't see me,

440
00:18:57,887 --> 00:19:00,222
but I am still me.

441
00:19:00,222 --> 00:19:01,891
It's not the same.

442
00:19:01,891 --> 00:19:03,351
No, I know.

443
00:19:03,351 --> 00:19:10,232
♪♪

444
00:19:10,232 --> 00:19:12,193
[ Monitor beeping ]

445
00:19:12,193 --> 00:19:13,778
[ Indistinct conversations ]

446
00:19:13,778 --> 00:19:15,196
You know,
her sats were steady,

447
00:19:15,196 --> 00:19:16,572
but now they're
just getting worse.

448
00:19:16,572 --> 00:19:18,532
I made some calls,
and there's another spot open

449
00:19:18,532 --> 00:19:20,868
in Dr. Kuo's trial,
but we have to act fast.

450
00:19:20,868 --> 00:19:23,913
Is there another spot
because another patient died?

451
00:19:27,792 --> 00:19:29,710
Have you seen the opacities
in her lungs?

452
00:19:29,710 --> 00:19:31,170
Dr. Webber,
at this point,

453
00:19:31,170 --> 00:19:33,214
you can either hope
that she wakes up again

454
00:19:33,214 --> 00:19:36,634
or you can make the decisions
that she chose you to make!

455
00:19:36,634 --> 00:19:38,386
I beg your pardon?

456
00:19:38,386 --> 00:19:42,098
The choice is between doing
nothing and doing something.

457
00:19:44,558 --> 00:19:46,560
Do something.

458
00:19:46,560 --> 00:19:52,441
♪♪

459
00:19:58,030 --> 00:20:00,366
Nico: You had to
leave him open?
Owen: Yes.

460
00:20:00,366 --> 00:20:01,659
Once we got in,
his colon was a mess.

461
00:20:01,659 --> 00:20:03,202
So we had to bring up
an ileostomy

462
00:20:03,202 --> 00:20:05,121
and place an ABTHERA
for the swelling.

463
00:20:05,121 --> 00:20:06,914
His clavicle's
non‐displaced.

464
00:20:06,914 --> 00:20:08,374
Fracture should heal
quite nicely.

465
00:20:08,374 --> 00:20:09,959
How soon?
Till he can work again?

466
00:20:09,959 --> 00:20:11,168
Maybe a month.

467
00:20:11,168 --> 00:20:12,878
Tseng, let's
diurese him overnight

468
00:20:12,878 --> 00:20:14,672
and let's put him on
the stand‐by list for the OR

469
00:20:14,672 --> 00:20:16,924
in case we need to do
a washout tomorrow.

470
00:20:16,924 --> 00:20:18,467
You did well today.

471
00:20:22,847 --> 00:20:24,390
Can I ask you something?

472
00:20:24,390 --> 00:20:26,517
Am I literally the only person
that can answer it?

473
00:20:26,517 --> 00:20:28,978
Kind of.

474
00:20:28,978 --> 00:20:31,689
Our patient's
Asian‐American.

475
00:20:31,689 --> 00:20:34,817
So right‐side diverticulitis
was a greater possibility.

476
00:20:34,817 --> 00:20:37,611
But Dr. Hunt didn't scan him
when he first came in.

477
00:20:37,611 --> 00:20:39,530
So, what's your question?

478
00:20:39,530 --> 00:20:42,074
I think he should know so he
doesn't make this mistake again.

479
00:20:42,074 --> 00:20:43,826
But I don't know how to
talk to him about it.

480
00:20:43,826 --> 00:20:45,911
You don't know how to
accuse your attending
of being a racist?

481
00:20:45,911 --> 00:20:48,122
That's not what I meant.
Well, that's what
he's gonna hear.

482
00:20:48,122 --> 00:20:50,958
So your advice is...
do nothing?

483
00:20:53,127 --> 00:20:55,212
You're a resident.
He's an attending.

484
00:20:55,212 --> 00:20:57,798
My advice to you is, if you're
gonna have a conversation

485
00:20:57,798 --> 00:21:00,217
with him,
at least know what to expect.

486
00:21:00,217 --> 00:21:04,930
♪♪

487
00:21:07,600 --> 00:21:09,685
Hello! Dr. Koracick?

488
00:21:16,984 --> 00:21:19,028
No test kit?
They wouldn't
give me another one

489
00:21:19,028 --> 00:21:20,404
because you keep
testing positive.

490
00:21:20,404 --> 00:21:23,407
But I got to level nine
on "Zombie Apocalypse."

491
00:21:23,407 --> 00:21:25,242
I didn't stop the virus,
but it's a start.

492
00:21:25,242 --> 00:21:26,869
Oh, yeah,
I‐I stopped that.

493
00:21:26,869 --> 00:21:29,163
You found a cure?
Or a vaccine?

494
00:21:29,163 --> 00:21:33,042
Wait. Did you reach
herd immunity?

495
00:21:33,042 --> 00:21:35,377
Tell me.

496
00:21:35,377 --> 00:21:36,670
I blew up the world.

497
00:21:36,670 --> 00:21:37,880
You killed everyone?

498
00:21:37,880 --> 00:21:39,757
Oh, we're all
gonna die anyway.

499
00:21:39,757 --> 00:21:41,550
Well, yeah, eventually.

500
00:21:41,550 --> 00:21:43,552
Well, if by "eventually"
you mean before the
year's out, then, yeah.

501
00:21:43,552 --> 00:21:46,472
[ Chuckles ]
I figured I'd cut to the chase.

502
00:21:46,472 --> 00:21:53,145
♪♪

503
00:21:53,145 --> 00:21:56,232
That was not a bridge.

504
00:21:56,232 --> 00:21:59,735
That was ‐‐
What's bigger than a bridge?

505
00:21:59,735 --> 00:22:02,571
Mm, whatever that was,
I guess.

506
00:22:02,571 --> 00:22:04,990
Okay.
But we can't do it again.

507
00:22:04,990 --> 00:22:06,200
No?
No. Definitely not.

508
00:22:06,200 --> 00:22:07,701
Because then ‐‐
then we're a thing.

509
00:22:07,701 --> 00:22:08,953
We're definitely
not a thing.

510
00:22:08,953 --> 00:22:10,412
Yeah, definitely
not a thing.

511
00:22:10,412 --> 00:22:11,622
Agreed.
Not a thing.

512
00:22:11,622 --> 00:22:13,916
It's just ‐‐ However...
Yeah?

513
00:22:13,916 --> 00:22:16,836
...if we were
to not get dressed

514
00:22:16,836 --> 00:22:19,839
between the first
and the ‐‐ goes after...

515
00:22:19,839 --> 00:22:22,383
Yep. Yeah, mm‐hmm.
You know what I'm saying?

516
00:22:22,383 --> 00:22:25,219
Then it's all really
just one experience.
It's just one experience.

517
00:22:25,219 --> 00:22:26,971
So it's not a thing.
It's just...
It's one whole experience.

518
00:22:26,971 --> 00:22:30,641
♪♪

519
00:22:30,641 --> 00:22:33,394
So...he just bailed?

520
00:22:33,394 --> 00:22:36,438
Yeah. I knew that he
had problems with his dad,

521
00:22:36,438 --> 00:22:38,899
but I did not know
they were that bad.

522
00:22:38,899 --> 00:22:40,484
Couldn't even be
in a virtual room with him.

523
00:22:40,484 --> 00:22:42,319
And I haven't
heard from him since.

524
00:22:42,319 --> 00:22:44,280
You seem exceedingly calm
about that.

525
00:22:44,280 --> 00:22:46,448
You know, I'm ‐‐
I'm paying it forward.

526
00:22:46,448 --> 00:22:48,200
Or...backward.

527
00:22:48,200 --> 00:22:50,411
When we first reconnected
in L. A.,

528
00:22:50,411 --> 00:22:54,081
I told him that I needed some
time, and he totally heard me.

529
00:22:54,081 --> 00:22:58,335
Plus, our sister's in the
hospital with COVID alone.

530
00:22:58,335 --> 00:23:00,546
It really puts things
in perspective.

531
00:23:03,048 --> 00:23:04,550
I hate that we can't
be with her.

532
00:23:04,550 --> 00:23:05,801
Me too.

533
00:23:07,469 --> 00:23:10,306
[ Man whistling ]

534
00:23:10,306 --> 00:23:12,349
Is that whistling?

535
00:23:12,349 --> 00:23:14,018
That's Link.

536
00:23:14,018 --> 00:23:17,563
He is a one‐man
pep rally.

537
00:23:17,563 --> 00:23:19,148
And I hate that, too.

538
00:23:22,109 --> 00:23:24,737
Oh! Dr. Altman.

539
00:23:24,737 --> 00:23:26,447
Bad time?

540
00:23:26,447 --> 00:23:28,324
This virus is like
a‐a drunk uncle at a wedding.

541
00:23:28,324 --> 00:23:29,992
Y‐You've got no idea
what it's gonna do

542
00:23:29,992 --> 00:23:31,577
or when
it's gonna turn on you.

543
00:23:31,577 --> 00:23:33,412
I am reading
everything on COVID

544
00:23:33,412 --> 00:23:35,623
because every 24 hours
there's something new.

545
00:23:35,623 --> 00:23:37,583
And I have to keep up
because there could be one drug,

546
00:23:37,583 --> 00:23:39,335
one procedure ‐‐
it could help.

547
00:23:39,335 --> 00:23:40,669
It could help everyone.
It could help Meredith Grey.

548
00:23:40,669 --> 00:23:42,546
So, yes, it's a ‐‐ it's a ‐‐
it's a bad time.

549
00:23:45,799 --> 00:23:46,842
What do you need?

550
00:23:46,842 --> 00:23:48,344
Um, I was gonna tell you

551
00:23:48,344 --> 00:23:51,430
that Dr. Koracick
is in a really dark place

552
00:23:51,430 --> 00:23:53,432
and seems like
he could use a friend.

553
00:23:53,432 --> 00:23:57,811
But, um, Dr. Grey is kinda
my whole world, so...

554
00:23:57,811 --> 00:23:59,813
Never mind.
Proceed.

555
00:23:59,813 --> 00:24:03,943
♪♪

556
00:24:03,943 --> 00:24:06,570
Owen: Dave's abdominal swelling
is coming down,

557
00:24:06,570 --> 00:24:09,239
so we should be able to
close him in just a few days.

558
00:24:09,239 --> 00:24:11,325
Tammi: Oh, that's great news.
Thank you.

559
00:24:11,325 --> 00:24:13,452
Yeah. Just doing my job.
How are things there?

560
00:24:13,452 --> 00:24:14,787
Oh, hanging on
by a thread.

561
00:24:14,787 --> 00:24:16,538
Dave's the one who keeps
this place running.

562
00:24:16,538 --> 00:24:18,123
Well, we are doing
everything we can here

563
00:24:18,123 --> 00:24:19,375
to get him back to you,
okay?

564
00:24:19,375 --> 00:24:20,584
Can I see him
one more time?

565
00:24:20,584 --> 00:24:21,794
Of course.

566
00:24:21,794 --> 00:24:23,462
Rest up and come home soon,
okay?

567
00:24:23,462 --> 00:24:26,298
I wish I could be there.
I love you.

568
00:24:26,298 --> 00:24:29,343
[ Sighs heavily ]
It's awful that she can't visit.

569
00:24:29,343 --> 00:24:31,095
It's awful this happened
in the first place.

570
00:24:33,222 --> 00:24:34,640
Tseng,
you need to step out.

571
00:24:36,100 --> 00:24:38,560
[ Sighs ]
Now.

572
00:24:38,560 --> 00:24:45,192
♪♪

573
00:24:45,192 --> 00:24:47,277
You don't have to
be so hard on her.

574
00:24:47,277 --> 00:24:49,071
She's very attached
to this patient.

575
00:24:49,071 --> 00:24:50,656
She's upset
that a misdiagnosis

576
00:24:50,656 --> 00:24:53,158
cost this patient the next
four weeks of his livelihood.

577
00:24:53,158 --> 00:24:55,536
Me too. Sometimes you
have to weigh the risks
and make a decision.

578
00:24:55,536 --> 00:24:57,830
Right‐sided diverticulitis
is extremely rare.

579
00:24:57,830 --> 00:25:00,207
But not as rare for Dave.
It's 10 times more likely

580
00:25:00,207 --> 00:25:02,501
in patients of Asian descent
than white patients.

581
00:25:02,501 --> 00:25:04,878
Which you clearly didn't know or
didn't take into consideration.

582
00:25:04,878 --> 00:25:06,672
But either way
it's on you,

583
00:25:06,672 --> 00:25:09,049
'cause all this could've been
avoided with a simple scan.

584
00:25:09,049 --> 00:25:10,718
[ Monitor beeping ]

585
00:25:10,718 --> 00:25:17,599
♪♪

586
00:25:23,230 --> 00:25:25,149
You're just getting here?
[ Car door closes ]

587
00:25:25,149 --> 00:25:27,192
Is that a problem?

588
00:25:27,192 --> 00:25:29,903
No. Just didn't see you
when I got up.

589
00:25:29,903 --> 00:25:31,739
I figured
you came in early.

590
00:25:31,739 --> 00:25:33,824
I was exercising.

591
00:25:35,492 --> 00:25:36,452
Morning.

592
00:25:38,203 --> 00:25:40,497
Oh, my God!
You're back together.

593
00:25:40,497 --> 00:25:41,707
Kind of.
Ugh!

594
00:25:41,707 --> 00:25:43,500
Taryn said
the Netherlands

595
00:25:43,500 --> 00:25:46,295
suggested people find
a designated sex partner

596
00:25:46,295 --> 00:25:47,504
for the pandemic.

597
00:25:47,504 --> 00:25:49,214
You're having sex
with Nico

598
00:25:49,214 --> 00:25:51,300
because the Dutch government
recommends it?

599
00:25:51,300 --> 00:25:54,053
Their country ranks very high
on the World Happiness Index.

600
00:25:54,053 --> 00:25:56,138
He lied, dumped you.

601
00:25:56,138 --> 00:25:58,098
He barely gives you
the time of day.
Okay, stop judging.

602
00:25:58,098 --> 00:26:00,559
It's wartime,
but I still have needs.

603
00:26:00,559 --> 00:26:03,228
It's not like I'm just
gonna find someone new.

604
00:26:03,228 --> 00:26:05,272
So you're with your
emotionally unavailable ex?

605
00:26:05,272 --> 00:26:06,482
Wartime!

606
00:26:06,482 --> 00:26:08,192
[ Sighs ]

607
00:26:08,192 --> 00:26:12,446
Link: Ah, the sun is out,
and Scout's down.

608
00:26:12,446 --> 00:26:17,534
And everyone else is watching
a PBS show about penguins.

609
00:26:17,534 --> 00:26:20,704
Meredith's not improving.
Uh, they can't wake her.

610
00:26:20,704 --> 00:26:22,748
Well, she's getting her rest.
It's good.

611
00:26:22,748 --> 00:26:25,250
No, it is not good.
None of this is good, okay?

612
00:26:25,250 --> 00:26:27,503
Do you not see that?
I am terrified for Meredith.

613
00:26:27,503 --> 00:26:31,090
I am sad. I am enraged
that this is happening.

614
00:26:31,090 --> 00:26:33,550
So, please,
stop dismissing me

615
00:26:33,550 --> 00:26:36,011
with your bright sides
and your pep talks, okay?

616
00:26:36,011 --> 00:26:38,680
Let me have my fear
and my grief

617
00:26:38,680 --> 00:26:40,432
and my anger.

618
00:26:40,432 --> 00:26:44,561
Because if I don't,
if I keep shoving it down,

619
00:26:44,561 --> 00:26:47,189
you will have
a very hard time

620
00:26:47,189 --> 00:26:49,399
finding the bright side
to the consequences.

621
00:27:06,667 --> 00:27:08,001
What are you doing?

622
00:27:12,548 --> 00:27:16,260
I'm making some space
for us to sit

623
00:27:16,260 --> 00:27:20,764
while you have
all your feelings.

624
00:27:20,764 --> 00:27:24,142
[ Celeste's "I'm Here" plays ]

625
00:27:24,142 --> 00:27:26,478
[ Monitor beeping ]

626
00:27:26,478 --> 00:27:35,487
♪♪

627
00:27:35,487 --> 00:27:39,199
♪ How do we still remember ♪

628
00:27:41,994 --> 00:27:45,706
♪ My mind and memories young ♪

629
00:27:48,250 --> 00:27:51,628
♪ I want you
January to December ♪

630
00:27:51,628 --> 00:27:54,339
[ Waves crashing ]

631
00:27:54,339 --> 00:27:56,174
George:
Do you still dance?
♪ Another trip around the sun ♪

632
00:27:56,174 --> 00:27:57,342
Meredith: Hmm?

633
00:27:57,342 --> 00:27:58,969
When you're sad
or you're stressed,

634
00:27:58,969 --> 00:28:02,180
do you still...
dance it out?

635
00:28:02,180 --> 00:28:07,394
No, not so much anymore,
not since Cristina left.

636
00:28:07,394 --> 00:28:10,022
Cristina didn't die.

637
00:28:10,022 --> 00:28:11,648
I know.

638
00:28:13,317 --> 00:28:16,612
That's what I miss
about being alive.

639
00:28:16,612 --> 00:28:20,365
Dancing till you drop.

640
00:28:20,365 --> 00:28:23,744
Laughing till you cry.

641
00:28:23,744 --> 00:28:26,580
Food. Textures.

642
00:28:26,580 --> 00:28:28,957
The crunch of cereal
as you eat it from the box.

643
00:28:28,957 --> 00:28:31,251
[ Laughs ]

644
00:28:31,251 --> 00:28:33,837
The feel of clean sheets
and a good pillow

645
00:28:33,837 --> 00:28:35,464
at the end
of a long day.

646
00:28:35,464 --> 00:28:37,507
♪♪

647
00:28:37,507 --> 00:28:40,052
♪ These fears ♪
[ Monitor beeping faintly ]

648
00:28:40,052 --> 00:28:43,138
Richard: I've got the consent
forms for that clinical trial...

649
00:28:43,138 --> 00:28:44,640
...for that clinical trial...

650
00:28:44,640 --> 00:28:48,352
♪ These tears are just tears ♪

651
00:28:48,352 --> 00:28:51,229
And there's one more space,
and...

652
00:28:51,229 --> 00:28:53,774
I have to decide, and...

653
00:28:53,774 --> 00:28:57,569
it could be the best
or worst decision of my life.

654
00:28:57,569 --> 00:29:01,406
Richard: Your doctors,
your friends, your family.

655
00:29:01,406 --> 00:29:03,075
They're worried about you.

656
00:29:03,075 --> 00:29:04,910
I'm trying
to be strong for them,

657
00:29:04,910 --> 00:29:08,038
but I'll admit...
I'm struggling.

658
00:29:09,498 --> 00:29:11,500
Seeing you there
like this...

659
00:29:11,500 --> 00:29:13,710
and not knowing
what to do.

660
00:29:13,710 --> 00:29:16,213
[ Monitor beeping ]

661
00:29:16,213 --> 00:29:19,424
I'm sorry, Richard.

662
00:29:19,424 --> 00:29:22,511
And choices. Ahh.

663
00:29:22,511 --> 00:29:24,554
So many choices.

664
00:29:24,554 --> 00:29:27,975
So many ways
to live a life.

665
00:29:27,975 --> 00:29:29,351
Meredith?

666
00:29:29,351 --> 00:29:32,396
Meredith, what is it?
I'm here.

667
00:29:32,396 --> 00:29:34,189
I'm right here.

668
00:29:34,189 --> 00:29:38,527
♪ Enough time to know
that you're... ♪

669
00:29:38,527 --> 00:29:41,113
If you stay here,
it might break him.

670
00:29:41,113 --> 00:29:45,409
♪ Ohh, keeping
your eyes on me ♪

671
00:29:45,409 --> 00:29:47,035
I know.

672
00:29:47,035 --> 00:29:50,080
♪ I know you'll be here
when I look 'round ♪

673
00:29:51,373 --> 00:29:53,917
[ Weakly ]
I know, George.

674
00:29:53,917 --> 00:29:57,796
♪ These fears ♪

675
00:29:57,796 --> 00:30:00,757
♪ No longer weapons ♪

676
00:30:00,757 --> 00:30:07,305
♪ These tears are just tears ♪

677
00:30:07,305 --> 00:30:09,641
♪ Not longing ♪

678
00:30:09,641 --> 00:30:10,642
Get her in.

679
00:30:10,642 --> 00:30:13,603
♪ For direction ♪

680
00:30:13,603 --> 00:30:19,192
♪ I belong here ♪

681
00:30:25,949 --> 00:30:27,701
[ Siren wailing in distance ]

682
00:30:27,701 --> 00:30:30,203
Oh, God, I hate...

683
00:30:32,080 --> 00:30:33,290
Me?

684
00:30:33,290 --> 00:30:35,167
Every single thing
except you.

685
00:30:42,007 --> 00:30:43,800
I live
with Jo Wilson now.

686
00:30:43,800 --> 00:30:45,594
But she, uh...

687
00:30:45,594 --> 00:30:48,930
has not been sleeping
at home.

688
00:30:48,930 --> 00:30:51,475
I want
to invite you over.

689
00:30:51,475 --> 00:30:56,521
But I guess we have not
been great to each other.

690
00:30:56,521 --> 00:31:00,650
And I don't know
what's really changed.

691
00:31:00,650 --> 00:31:03,361
Levi.

692
00:31:03,361 --> 00:31:06,615
There's a worldwide
pandemic.

693
00:31:06,615 --> 00:31:09,743
We literally don't know if we're
gonna live to see tomorrow.

694
00:31:09,743 --> 00:31:11,787
A lot has changed.

695
00:31:16,750 --> 00:31:17,876
Yeah, okay, let's go.

696
00:31:24,549 --> 00:31:25,967
[ Horns honking ]

697
00:31:25,967 --> 00:31:27,135
[ Knock on door ]

698
00:31:29,763 --> 00:31:31,431
Hey.
Hey.

699
00:31:31,431 --> 00:31:32,808
Um...
[ Clears throat ]

700
00:31:32,808 --> 00:31:35,060
Our plan went to crap,

701
00:31:35,060 --> 00:31:37,145
and now we can't pretend
it didn't happen ‐‐

702
00:31:37,145 --> 00:31:38,647
I can't be in a relationship
right now.

703
00:31:38,647 --> 00:31:40,524
What?
Sorry.

704
00:31:40,524 --> 00:31:42,734
Let me start over.
That sounded rude.

705
00:31:42,734 --> 00:31:46,696
When I'm saying is, I‐I jumped
right into something with Vic...

706
00:31:46,696 --> 00:31:48,740
Mm‐hmm.
...you know, after
breaking up with Maggie,

707
00:31:48,740 --> 00:31:52,160
who I started dating
pretty soon after April.

708
00:31:52,160 --> 00:31:55,580
So I just probably should take
some time to sort things out.

709
00:31:55,580 --> 00:31:59,960
I don't want to do anything
to hurt you or our friendship.

710
00:31:59,960 --> 00:32:05,924
Jackson, my husband left me the
same year that we got married,

711
00:32:05,924 --> 00:32:07,759
for a second time.

712
00:32:07,759 --> 00:32:09,261
I am super broken.

713
00:32:09,261 --> 00:32:12,222
Like "virtual therapy
three times a week" broken.

714
00:32:12,222 --> 00:32:14,558
And now I have to
put myself back together

715
00:32:14,558 --> 00:32:16,977
in a world
that I no longer recognize,

716
00:32:16,977 --> 00:32:20,397
one that is sad and lonely
and depressing.

717
00:32:20,397 --> 00:32:24,693
So what I need
is friendship and sex.

718
00:32:24,693 --> 00:32:30,157
I am not, like really not,
looking for a relationship.

719
00:32:30,157 --> 00:32:32,409
Especially with
someone like you.

720
00:32:32,409 --> 00:32:34,828
Someone like me? Okay.
Mm‐hmm.

721
00:32:34,828 --> 00:32:37,330
Yeah, you know,
Mr., um, Can't Be Alone

722
00:32:37,330 --> 00:32:40,542
But Sometimes Skips Town
To Go On Nature Journeys.

723
00:32:40,542 --> 00:32:41,793
No thanks. No.
Oh, okay.

724
00:32:41,793 --> 00:32:43,336
But you can be friends with

725
00:32:43,336 --> 00:32:45,922
and have sex with
Mr. Can't Be Alone?

726
00:32:45,922 --> 00:32:47,966
Got it.
Yes.

727
00:32:47,966 --> 00:32:51,011
The Netherlands
has recommended

728
00:32:51,011 --> 00:32:54,931
that its residents
find a regular sex buddy

729
00:32:54,931 --> 00:32:57,684
during the pandemic
for safety.

730
00:32:57,684 --> 00:32:58,894
Sounds wise.
Doesn't it?

731
00:33:00,896 --> 00:33:03,398
[ Laughing ] You thought
I wanted to date you?!

732
00:33:03,398 --> 00:33:05,567
Well, how is that ‐‐
Why is that so funny?

733
00:33:13,283 --> 00:33:14,618
Hey. Uh...

734
00:33:14,618 --> 00:33:17,621
You mind if I, uh...

735
00:33:17,621 --> 00:33:20,123
Okay, well,
sit over there.

736
00:33:26,838 --> 00:33:29,007
Okay. Hypothetical.

737
00:33:29,007 --> 00:33:31,635
Asian‐American male
presents with fever,

738
00:33:31,635 --> 00:33:34,721
high white blood cell count,
and right lower quadrant pain.

739
00:33:34,721 --> 00:33:36,765
Oh, is this
the restaurant guy?

740
00:33:36,765 --> 00:33:38,225
I caught him in the ER.

741
00:33:38,225 --> 00:33:40,602
Bailey, I see a dozen
presentations like that a month.

742
00:33:40,602 --> 00:33:42,437
All appendicitis.

743
00:33:42,437 --> 00:33:44,731
But if I'm honest,
in that moment,

744
00:33:44,731 --> 00:33:46,399
I‐I didn't give it
much thought.

745
00:33:46,399 --> 00:33:49,069
I just ‐‐ He was ‐‐
He was any patient.

746
00:33:49,069 --> 00:33:51,363
Any non‐Asian patient.

747
00:33:51,363 --> 00:33:53,406
I defaulted
to a standard of care.

748
00:33:53,406 --> 00:33:55,992
That's centered around
white patients.

749
00:33:59,204 --> 00:34:02,165
I never want to make
that mistake again.

750
00:34:02,165 --> 00:34:03,500
There is no excuse.

751
00:34:03,500 --> 00:34:05,835
You know, when you're dealing
with a high patient count,

752
00:34:05,835 --> 00:34:08,296
you have to make judgment calls,
you know?

753
00:34:08,296 --> 00:34:11,508
You ‐‐ You have to ask, what is
the most likely problem, right?

754
00:34:11,508 --> 00:34:13,260
So there's no excuses,

755
00:34:13,260 --> 00:34:15,262
other than the excuses
you just listed off?

756
00:34:15,262 --> 00:34:16,721
[ Chuckles ]
That's not what I meant.

757
00:34:16,721 --> 00:34:18,014
Ha!

758
00:34:18,014 --> 00:34:20,892
I just want to treat
everyone equally.

759
00:34:20,892 --> 00:34:24,145
Equal doesn't work
for everybody, Hunt.

760
00:34:24,145 --> 00:34:27,440
I‐It's about equity ‐‐
patients getting what they need,

761
00:34:27,440 --> 00:34:29,901
whether it fits
into a protocol or not.

762
00:34:29,901 --> 00:34:33,822
Look, I just put my parents
in assisted living,

763
00:34:33,822 --> 00:34:37,575
and I can't stop worrying
that they won't get enough care

764
00:34:37,575 --> 00:34:41,621
because...there are
so few Black folks there.

765
00:34:41,621 --> 00:34:44,207
Meanwhile,
my dad's freaked out

766
00:34:44,207 --> 00:34:47,544
because on his floor
the nurses are male.

767
00:34:47,544 --> 00:34:51,172
In his mind, good nurses
are female, period.

768
00:34:51,172 --> 00:34:55,260
So we all have biases, Hunt,
including you.

769
00:34:55,260 --> 00:34:58,471
What matters now
is what you do about it.

770
00:34:58,471 --> 00:35:00,140
You're the chief
of trauma.

771
00:35:00,140 --> 00:35:01,975
If the protocols
don't work,

772
00:35:01,975 --> 00:35:05,729
then read, learn...

773
00:35:05,729 --> 00:35:08,732
question...
and change them.

774
00:35:08,732 --> 00:35:11,192
♪♪

775
00:35:11,192 --> 00:35:13,194
[ Guitar playing blues riff ]

776
00:35:17,991 --> 00:35:19,576
Kids are asleep.

777
00:35:19,576 --> 00:35:27,083
♪♪

778
00:35:27,083 --> 00:35:31,630
And...
it's your turn to talk.

779
00:35:31,630 --> 00:35:32,756
I'm good.

780
00:35:35,342 --> 00:35:38,762
Link, everything sucks right
now. You can talk about it.

781
00:35:38,762 --> 00:35:40,305
Yeah. Yeah.
I could do that.

782
00:35:40,305 --> 00:35:43,767
If you want me to be...
miserable and resentful.

783
00:35:43,767 --> 00:35:45,852
Resentful of me?

784
00:35:45,852 --> 00:35:47,687
For trying to listen?

785
00:35:47,687 --> 00:35:49,230
No, of making me talk

786
00:35:49,230 --> 00:35:52,651
when clearly all I want to do
is play my damn guitar.

787
00:35:52,651 --> 00:35:54,235
[ Guitar playing ]

788
00:35:54,235 --> 00:35:55,904
You can't keep everything
bottled up.

789
00:35:55,904 --> 00:35:57,405
No, no,
you can't, Amelia.

790
00:35:57,405 --> 00:35:59,074
That's how you
process feelings.

791
00:35:59,074 --> 00:36:01,409
That's how you cope.
And I'm okay with that.

792
00:36:01,409 --> 00:36:05,914
But...I've been through
"everything sucks."

793
00:36:05,914 --> 00:36:09,292
Illness and isolation.

794
00:36:09,292 --> 00:36:11,670
When I had cancer.
When ‐‐ When my parents split.

795
00:36:11,670 --> 00:36:13,546
I was so depressed
that I could ‐‐

796
00:36:13,546 --> 00:36:15,799
I could barely get out of bed
for the better part of a year.

797
00:36:15,799 --> 00:36:19,260
And I was 11.

798
00:36:19,260 --> 00:36:21,638
Then I met a kid
at cancer camp.

799
00:36:21,638 --> 00:36:23,682
Morrow Willis.

800
00:36:23,682 --> 00:36:25,350
Kid was probably sicker
than I was,

801
00:36:25,350 --> 00:36:27,727
but he didn't want to talk
about treatments or symptoms.

802
00:36:27,727 --> 00:36:30,313
Just sports
and "Mario Kart."

803
00:36:30,313 --> 00:36:34,609
So I said to myself, "What if
I just focus on the good stuff?"

804
00:36:34,609 --> 00:36:36,111
And I tried it.

805
00:36:36,111 --> 00:36:40,073
And it turns out
that's what works for me.

806
00:36:40,073 --> 00:36:42,242
That's what I need.

807
00:36:42,242 --> 00:36:44,077
And if you're okay
with that, great,

808
00:36:44,077 --> 00:36:46,705
but if you need a partner
in misery, I'm not your guy.

809
00:36:46,705 --> 00:36:48,748
[ Guitar playing ]

810
00:36:48,748 --> 00:36:54,838
♪♪

811
00:36:54,838 --> 00:36:57,882
Whatcha playing?

812
00:36:57,882 --> 00:36:59,342
Just a little something
I made up.

813
00:36:59,342 --> 00:37:03,263
It's called, uh,
"If the Virus Doesn't End Us,

814
00:37:03,263 --> 00:37:05,724
Then Climate Change
Probably Will Blues."

815
00:37:05,724 --> 00:37:07,892
[ Guitar playing ]

816
00:37:07,892 --> 00:37:11,646
♪♪

817
00:37:11,646 --> 00:37:15,692
[ Computer ringing ]

818
00:37:18,194 --> 00:37:19,946
Hey.

819
00:37:19,946 --> 00:37:22,615
Hey. Wasn't sure
you'd answer.

820
00:37:22,615 --> 00:37:24,868
Please. The woman who all
but ghosted you for a month

821
00:37:24,868 --> 00:37:26,327
does not get to judge.

822
00:37:27,787 --> 00:37:30,415
It's just, uh...my dad.

823
00:37:30,415 --> 00:37:32,292
We don't have to
talk about it

824
00:37:32,292 --> 00:37:35,295
if you're not ready to
or if you don't want to.

825
00:37:35,295 --> 00:37:39,257
It makes me crazy because he ‐‐
he seems like he's all charm,

826
00:37:39,257 --> 00:37:42,427
but he has got
this temper that...

827
00:37:42,427 --> 00:37:46,556
Well, if you're serious about
not talking about it right now,

828
00:37:46,556 --> 00:37:48,224
that can wait...

829
00:37:48,224 --> 00:37:50,727
because the things I want
to do with you tonight...

830
00:37:50,727 --> 00:37:52,562
they can't.

831
00:37:52,562 --> 00:37:57,192
Oh, well, I'm going to need you
to say more about that.

832
00:37:57,192 --> 00:37:58,526
Alright, alright. Hold on.
Let me, uh ‐‐

833
00:37:58,526 --> 00:38:00,069
Let me try
to share my screen.

834
00:38:00,069 --> 00:38:02,322
Oh, my God.
What?

835
00:38:03,907 --> 00:38:05,325
Are we gonna watch porn?

836
00:38:05,325 --> 00:38:07,160
[ Chuckles ] No.

837
00:38:07,160 --> 00:38:09,037
"Coming to America."

838
00:38:09,037 --> 00:38:10,288
[ Gasps ]

839
00:38:10,288 --> 00:38:11,831
Mm‐hmm.

840
00:38:11,831 --> 00:38:15,251
Yes! Please!
Ahh! [ Chuckles ]

841
00:38:15,251 --> 00:38:17,003
[ Thunder rumbling ]
Ugh!

842
00:38:17,003 --> 00:38:18,129
Okay.

843
00:38:20,924 --> 00:38:23,092
Hey, Tom?!

844
00:38:23,092 --> 00:38:24,969
Tom, it's me!

845
00:38:28,807 --> 00:38:32,060
I brought you soup
and I know that you're home!

846
00:38:32,060 --> 00:38:35,522
It's that really excellent soup
from that little Polish place.

847
00:38:39,067 --> 00:38:41,277
Tom...

848
00:38:41,277 --> 00:38:43,738
I know ‐‐ I know
that I am the last person

849
00:38:43,738 --> 00:38:44,739
that you want to see.

850
00:38:44,739 --> 00:38:46,366
I just ‐‐ I don't know.

851
00:38:46,366 --> 00:38:48,618
I thought maybe we could talk
through the door.

852
00:38:48,618 --> 00:38:53,581
I just feel like you need some
semblance of human contact.

853
00:38:53,581 --> 00:38:57,335
I don't blame you for ‐‐ for
wanting to keep your distance,

854
00:38:57,335 --> 00:38:58,878
I mean, pandemic or not.

855
00:39:05,760 --> 00:39:08,054
I just want you to know
that you're not alone.

856
00:39:10,223 --> 00:39:12,559
[ Kevin Garrett's "Refuse"
plays ]

857
00:39:12,559 --> 00:39:18,398
♪♪

858
00:39:18,398 --> 00:39:20,650
[ Shivers ]

859
00:39:20,650 --> 00:39:23,403
Meredith: Experts say
the more resilient we are,

860
00:39:23,403 --> 00:39:25,738
the better we can face
life's challenges.

861
00:39:25,738 --> 00:39:26,990
[ Thunder crashes ]

862
00:39:26,990 --> 00:39:30,326
♪ I'm okay alone ♪

863
00:39:30,326 --> 00:39:32,912
[ Seagulls crying ]

864
00:39:32,912 --> 00:39:35,373
♪ It makes my soul stir ♪

865
00:39:35,373 --> 00:39:37,584
I was so mad at you.

866
00:39:37,584 --> 00:39:40,128
What, for leaving you?

867
00:39:40,128 --> 00:39:42,589
For choosing someone
over yourself.

868
00:39:42,589 --> 00:39:44,799
I didn't know
I was gonna die.

869
00:39:44,799 --> 00:39:46,926
Do you regret it?

870
00:39:46,926 --> 00:39:49,762
♪ Keep my head in the dirt ♪

871
00:39:49,762 --> 00:39:52,223
Does that matter?

872
00:39:52,223 --> 00:39:54,851
You'd have done the same thing.
Isn't that why you're here?

873
00:39:54,851 --> 00:39:56,603
♪ Slow crash ♪

874
00:39:56,603 --> 00:39:59,564
♪ Stumble over nothing
on my own path ♪
Yeah. I guess.

875
00:39:59,564 --> 00:40:00,857
So it's your fault.

876
00:40:00,857 --> 00:40:02,817
[ Both laugh ]

877
00:40:02,817 --> 00:40:04,652
How do you figure?

878
00:40:04,652 --> 00:40:06,571
♪ No one ever wanted me
to go back ♪

879
00:40:06,571 --> 00:40:09,324
Because you...

880
00:40:09,324 --> 00:40:12,452
went all‐in
for everybody.

881
00:40:12,452 --> 00:40:16,372
Your friends, your family,
a woman at the bus stop.

882
00:40:16,372 --> 00:40:18,166
You think that didn't
somehow affect me?

883
00:40:18,166 --> 00:40:19,918
♪ But I refuse ♪

884
00:40:19,918 --> 00:40:23,046
You changed my life,
George.

885
00:40:23,046 --> 00:40:25,506
I didn't say it then,
but it's true.

886
00:40:25,506 --> 00:40:28,426
And the single biggest factor
for cultivating resilience?

887
00:40:28,426 --> 00:40:31,095
♪ Far away from home ♪

888
00:40:31,095 --> 00:40:33,556
Positive relationships.

889
00:40:33,556 --> 00:40:36,851
♪ Forgot my address ♪

890
00:40:36,851 --> 00:40:38,895
[ Monitor beeping ]

891
00:40:41,189 --> 00:40:45,193
♪ Mind is still on loan ♪

892
00:40:45,193 --> 00:40:48,696
For what it's worth, I think
you made the right call,

893
00:40:48,696 --> 00:40:51,282
putting her
in the trial.

894
00:40:51,282 --> 00:40:55,662
I've known Meredith
since she was a child.

895
00:40:55,662 --> 00:41:00,625
I watched her operate
on her dolls in the OR gallery.

896
00:41:00,625 --> 00:41:05,171
I took her for milk and cookies
in the cafeteria.

897
00:41:05,171 --> 00:41:08,299
I helped her get over her fear
of the film review room

898
00:41:08,299 --> 00:41:10,760
because that's where she thought
we kept the skeletons.

899
00:41:10,760 --> 00:41:14,180
♪ I know I am anything
but uncouth ♪

900
00:41:14,180 --> 00:41:19,352
And then I watched her
become a surgeon, a wife...

901
00:41:19,352 --> 00:41:22,981
a mother, and a chief.

902
00:41:25,191 --> 00:41:30,029
You know, I knew COVID patients
had to suffer in isolation.

903
00:41:30,029 --> 00:41:33,992
But I never gave any thought
to how helpless

904
00:41:33,992 --> 00:41:36,869
and alone it feels

905
00:41:36,869 --> 00:41:38,955
for the people
who care about them.

906
00:41:41,541 --> 00:41:47,714
♪ I ref‐u‐u‐use ♪

907
00:41:49,590 --> 00:41:56,097
♪ Yes, I ref‐u‐u‐use ♪

908
00:41:56,097 --> 00:42:00,727
♪ No, no, no, no, no ♪

909
00:42:00,727 --> 00:42:01,853
[ Thunder crashes ]

910
00:42:01,853 --> 00:42:04,647
♪ Yes, I refuse ♪

911
00:42:04,647 --> 00:42:07,900
[ Thunder rumbling ]

912
00:42:07,900 --> 00:42:11,946
♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh ♪

913
00:42:11,946 --> 00:42:14,240
So find your people...

914
00:42:14,240 --> 00:42:15,533
♪ Ooh, ooh ♪

915
00:42:15,533 --> 00:42:16,617
...and keep them close.

916
00:42:16,617 --> 00:42:21,247
♪ Ooh, ooh, yes, I refuse ♪

917
00:42:21,247 --> 00:42:23,332
Because when
you're at your lowest...

918
00:42:28,254 --> 00:42:30,965
...those people
get you through.

919
00:42:41,517 --> 00:42:48,399
♪♪

920
00:42:48,399 --> 00:42:55,490
♪♪

921
00:42:55,490 --> 00:43:02,705
♪♪

922
00:43:02,705 --> 00:43:09,712
♪♪