1 00:00:02,132 --> 00:00:04,047 [ Seagulls crying ] 2 00:00:04,091 --> 00:00:06,571 [ Rhythmic clapping, humming ] 3 00:00:06,615 --> 00:00:08,965 Meredith: Until pretty recently, 4 00:00:09,009 --> 00:00:10,749 doctors would slap a newborn on the back 5 00:00:10,793 --> 00:00:12,055 immediately after birth. 6 00:00:12,099 --> 00:00:13,491 ♪ Trouble, trouble 7 00:00:13,535 --> 00:00:16,146 ♪ Trouble, don't you come my way ♪ 8 00:00:16,190 --> 00:00:19,062 ♪ Been tryin' to change my ways ♪ 9 00:00:19,106 --> 00:00:20,542 ♪ Trouble, don't you come my way ♪ 10 00:00:20,585 --> 00:00:21,891 It's not that they wanted to make the baby cry. 11 00:00:21,934 --> 00:00:23,588 Theyneeded the baby to cry. 12 00:00:23,632 --> 00:00:25,242 ♪ Trouble, trouble 13 00:00:25,286 --> 00:00:27,853 ♪ Trouble, don't you come my way ♪ 14 00:00:27,897 --> 00:00:31,161 ♪ Oh, Lord, don't let me stray ♪ 15 00:00:31,205 --> 00:00:32,815 ♪ Trouble, don't you come my way ♪ 16 00:00:32,858 --> 00:00:35,035 ♪ Don't you come my way 17 00:00:35,078 --> 00:00:37,037 ♪ Don't come my way 18 00:00:37,080 --> 00:00:39,691 ♪ Trouble, don't you come my way ♪ 19 00:00:39,735 --> 00:00:42,172 ♪ Oh, no, not today 20 00:00:42,216 --> 00:00:43,608 Thank you. 21 00:00:43,652 --> 00:00:45,784 ♪ Trouble, don't you come my way ♪ 22 00:00:45,828 --> 00:00:48,091 ♪ Trouble, trouble 23 00:00:48,135 --> 00:00:49,440 Lexie! 24 00:00:49,484 --> 00:00:51,094 [ Laughs ] 25 00:00:51,138 --> 00:00:54,271 ♪ Oh, please, don't tempt my fate ♪ 26 00:00:54,315 --> 00:00:57,318 ♪ Trouble, don't you come my way, oh, oh, oh, oh ♪ 27 00:00:57,361 --> 00:00:58,710 It meant the baby could breathe on her own. 28 00:00:58,754 --> 00:01:00,016 ♪ Oooh, oooh 29 00:01:00,060 --> 00:01:02,845 Thankfully, we don't do that anymore. 30 00:01:02,888 --> 00:01:03,846 ♪ Whoa, oh, oh, oh 31 00:01:03,889 --> 00:01:05,500 ♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh 32 00:01:05,543 --> 00:01:06,762 ♪ Whoa, oh 33 00:01:06,805 --> 00:01:08,938 ♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh 34 00:01:08,981 --> 00:01:11,723 ♪ Trouble, trouble 35 00:01:11,767 --> 00:01:13,377 ♪ Trouble, don't you come my way ♪ 36 00:01:13,421 --> 00:01:15,771 But we still hold our own breath until we hear that cry. 37 00:01:15,814 --> 00:01:17,773 ♪ Have a little mercy on me 38 00:01:17,816 --> 00:01:19,949 ♪ Trouble, don't you come my way ♪ 39 00:01:19,992 --> 00:01:21,864 ♪ Don't you come my way 40 00:01:21,907 --> 00:01:23,822 ♪ Don't come my way 41 00:01:23,866 --> 00:01:26,608 ♪ Trouble, don't you come my way ♪ 42 00:01:26,651 --> 00:01:29,611 ♪ Oh, no, not today 43 00:01:29,654 --> 00:01:31,613 ♪ Trouble, don't you come my way ♪ 44 00:01:31,656 --> 00:01:33,789 ♪ Whoa, oh, oh, oh 45 00:01:33,832 --> 00:01:35,182 ♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh 46 00:01:35,225 --> 00:01:36,139 ♪ Whoa, oh 47 00:01:36,183 --> 00:01:37,401 ♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh 48 00:01:37,445 --> 00:01:40,056 ♪ Whoa, oh, oh, oh 49 00:01:40,100 --> 00:01:43,190 And it doesn't matter if you're the baby's doctor or mother... 50 00:01:43,233 --> 00:01:46,454 ♪ Whoa, oh, oh, oh 51 00:01:46,497 --> 00:01:48,282 ♪ Whoa, oh 52 00:01:48,325 --> 00:01:49,761 ♪ Don't come my way 53 00:01:49,805 --> 00:01:52,460 ...it's the most beautiful sound in the world. 54 00:01:52,503 --> 00:01:53,461 ♪ Whoa, oh 55 00:01:53,504 --> 00:01:55,941 ♪ Don't come my way 56 00:01:55,985 --> 00:01:59,815 ♪ Oh, no, not today 57 00:01:59,858 --> 00:02:02,296 The first time, anyway. 58 00:02:02,339 --> 00:02:04,950 ♪ Don't come my way 59 00:02:04,994 --> 00:02:07,605 ♪ Trouble, don't you come my way ♪ 60 00:02:07,649 --> 00:02:13,785 ♪ Trouble, trouble, don't you come my way ♪♪ 61 00:02:13,829 --> 00:02:15,526 [ Lianne La Havas' "Paper Thin" plays softly] 62 00:02:15,570 --> 00:02:18,790 [ Door closes ] 63 00:02:18,834 --> 00:02:20,792 ♪ Paper thin♪ 64 00:02:20,836 --> 00:02:22,490 ♪ God only knows the pain you're in♪ 65 00:02:22,533 --> 00:02:26,668 [ Sighs ] 66 00:02:26,711 --> 00:02:30,237 Boston doesn't need you as much as I do. 67 00:02:30,280 --> 00:02:33,457 You know I'd stay if I could. 68 00:02:33,501 --> 00:02:35,633 ♪ Love yourself♪ 69 00:02:35,677 --> 00:02:37,244 Morning playlist. 70 00:02:37,287 --> 00:02:40,638 ♪ Or else you can't love no one else♪ 71 00:02:40,682 --> 00:02:42,553 It's better than coffee. 72 00:02:42,597 --> 00:02:45,817 ♪ I know your pain is real♪ 73 00:02:45,861 --> 00:02:49,169 ♪ But you won't let it heal♪[ Cellphone vibrating ] 74 00:02:49,212 --> 00:02:51,214 ♪ Paper thin♪ 75 00:02:51,258 --> 00:02:56,524 ♪ If you're trying to lose, you'll never win♪ 76 00:02:56,567 --> 00:02:57,351 ♪ It's your life♪ 77 00:02:57,394 --> 00:02:59,179 Yeah. 78 00:02:59,222 --> 00:03:03,183 ♪ But you're not the only one suffering♪ 79 00:03:03,226 --> 00:03:04,314 ♪♪ 80 00:03:04,358 --> 00:03:06,577 ♪ That's enough, I know --♪ 81 00:03:06,621 --> 00:03:08,623 Intern Sara: Marcella Diaz, 62...[ Breathing heavily ] 82 00:03:08,666 --> 00:03:11,843 ...recently admitted to ICU after sats dropped below 87%. 83 00:03:11,887 --> 00:03:13,845 She was in a lot of discomfort last night. 84 00:03:13,889 --> 00:03:15,412 Ah, this one worries too much. 85 00:03:15,456 --> 00:03:17,240 He needs more patients. 86 00:03:17,284 --> 00:03:19,068 Or a hobby.[ Chuckles ] 87 00:03:19,111 --> 00:03:21,592 Well, when are you gonna start my singing lessons? 88 00:03:21,636 --> 00:03:24,595 Marcella taught music in high school for 35 years. 89 00:03:24,639 --> 00:03:25,770 Maggie: Recent chest films? 90 00:03:25,814 --> 00:03:27,381 Opacities in both lungs. 91 00:03:27,424 --> 00:03:28,773 [ Gasps ] Veronica -- 92 00:03:28,817 --> 00:03:30,384 Of course. 93 00:03:30,427 --> 00:03:31,602 And -- And -- 94 00:03:31,646 --> 00:03:34,126 Yes, I will call my mother, too. 95 00:03:34,170 --> 00:03:35,737 Maggie: Veronica's her daughter. 96 00:03:35,780 --> 00:03:37,478 She's positive, too, but her symptoms are mild. 97 00:03:37,521 --> 00:03:39,306 [ Tablet beeping ] 98 00:03:39,349 --> 00:03:40,698 Mama! 99 00:03:40,742 --> 00:03:42,265 How are you feeling? 100 00:03:42,309 --> 00:03:43,440 Okay. 101 00:03:43,484 --> 00:03:46,095 [ Coughing] 102 00:03:46,138 --> 00:03:48,315 It's -- It's just a cough, Mom. 103 00:03:48,358 --> 00:03:50,099 Don't worry. 104 00:03:50,142 --> 00:03:52,928 You focus on you, alright? 105 00:03:52,971 --> 00:03:55,713 And do everything that Dr. Pierce says, alright?Okay. 106 00:03:55,757 --> 00:03:57,889 Okay, I love you. 107 00:03:57,933 --> 00:03:59,239 [ Coughing] 108 00:03:59,282 --> 00:04:00,718 [ Sighs ] 109 00:04:00,762 --> 00:04:02,764 [ Coughing continues] 110 00:04:02,807 --> 00:04:04,940 And when did you first start to feel the pain? 111 00:04:04,983 --> 00:04:06,550 Uh, a few nights ago. 112 00:04:06,594 --> 00:04:09,249 [ Chuckling ] I was watching these cat videos online when -- 113 00:04:09,292 --> 00:04:10,859 For God's sake, what happened? 114 00:04:10,902 --> 00:04:12,382 The boys are fine.[ Door closes ] 115 00:04:12,426 --> 00:04:13,818 A little worried. 116 00:04:13,862 --> 00:04:15,516 I told them you'd call.They called me. 117 00:04:15,559 --> 00:04:16,604 They thought I might be interested to know 118 00:04:16,647 --> 00:04:18,170 that their aunt left in an ambulance. 119 00:04:18,214 --> 00:04:19,998 She has a history of acid reflux and lives with MS. 120 00:04:20,042 --> 00:04:21,478 Right, yes. She told me. 121 00:04:21,522 --> 00:04:24,612 Irene, are you on any medications other than steroids? 122 00:04:24,655 --> 00:04:26,266 And those damn teas. 123 00:04:26,309 --> 00:04:28,093 She has an infantile resistance to Western medicine. 124 00:04:28,137 --> 00:04:30,618 She's had a catastrophic family experience 125 00:04:30,661 --> 00:04:32,620 with Western medicine. 126 00:04:32,663 --> 00:04:35,231 Okay, it -- it -- it looks to me like it's kidney stones, 127 00:04:35,275 --> 00:04:36,754 but I'd like to get a CT just to -- 128 00:04:36,798 --> 00:04:38,278 Then what are you waiting for? Let's go. 129 00:04:38,321 --> 00:04:39,931 I'm waiting for you to let me finish a single sentence, 130 00:04:39,975 --> 00:04:42,151 but I'll give up on that now. 131 00:04:42,194 --> 00:04:43,761 Life of the party, isn't he? [ Sighs ] 132 00:04:45,110 --> 00:04:46,373 [ Sighs ] 133 00:04:46,416 --> 00:04:48,766 I appreciate everyone pulling extra shifts. 134 00:04:48,810 --> 00:04:50,594 Bailey does, too. 135 00:04:50,638 --> 00:04:52,379 Uh, she'll be back in a few days. 136 00:04:52,422 --> 00:04:55,033 Thank you, Dr. Ndugu, for pitching in where needed. 137 00:04:55,077 --> 00:04:57,819 Boston's hit another surge, so we need to let him get back. 138 00:04:57,862 --> 00:04:59,603 How's Meredith?Her vital signs are stable. 139 00:04:59,647 --> 00:05:00,865 Her morning labs were good. 140 00:05:00,909 --> 00:05:02,824 Oxygen requirements are decreasing. 141 00:05:02,867 --> 00:05:04,216 Enough to take her off the vent? 142 00:05:04,260 --> 00:05:05,827 Let's see if the trend continues. 143 00:05:05,870 --> 00:05:07,655 Richard: Well, let's hope it does, and not just for her sake. 144 00:05:07,698 --> 00:05:09,570 As of 5:00 this morning, 145 00:05:09,613 --> 00:05:12,703 we are down to our last four available ventilators. 146 00:05:12,747 --> 00:05:16,054 So, until relief arrives, I need us all to think creatively. 147 00:05:16,098 --> 00:05:18,318 Ventilators are our last resort. 148 00:05:18,361 --> 00:05:21,886 Put them on BiPAP, the hyperbaric chamber, uh, proning. 149 00:05:21,930 --> 00:05:24,672 Let's exhaust all options first. 150 00:05:24,715 --> 00:05:26,064 So, if you extubate Meredith 151 00:05:26,108 --> 00:05:27,849 and she starts to trend downward again, 152 00:05:27,892 --> 00:05:30,242 we may not have another one available. 153 00:05:30,286 --> 00:05:31,809 So let's not make the call to pull her off 154 00:05:31,853 --> 00:05:33,855 until we are 100% certain. 155 00:05:47,521 --> 00:05:50,437 ♪ It's just a matter of time It's so beautiful. 156 00:05:50,480 --> 00:05:51,829 I love it here. 157 00:05:51,873 --> 00:05:52,874 Me, too. 158 00:05:52,917 --> 00:05:54,049 ♪ We'll find a way 159 00:05:54,092 --> 00:05:55,398 Are you gonna stay? 160 00:05:55,442 --> 00:05:56,791 I don't know. 161 00:05:56,834 --> 00:05:58,619 I don't know the rules. 162 00:05:58,662 --> 00:06:00,229 I don't think there are rules, 163 00:06:00,272 --> 00:06:02,318 which is, um... 164 00:06:02,362 --> 00:06:04,668 well, it takes some getting used to. 165 00:06:04,712 --> 00:06:06,453 I was big on rules. 166 00:06:06,496 --> 00:06:08,280 I actually, like... 167 00:06:08,324 --> 00:06:10,848 I think I lovedrules.[ Chuckles ] 168 00:06:10,892 --> 00:06:12,720 Man: You totally did. 169 00:06:12,763 --> 00:06:15,287 ♪ I'm gonna sing till the sun comes out ♪ 170 00:06:15,331 --> 00:06:16,463 ♪ I'm gonna sing till the sun comes out ♪ 171 00:06:16,506 --> 00:06:18,726 Mark! 172 00:06:18,769 --> 00:06:21,468 ♪ There's no rain that's gonna bring me down ♪ 173 00:06:21,511 --> 00:06:22,817 You're early, killer. 174 00:06:22,860 --> 00:06:24,079 ♪ I'm gonna sing till the sun comes out ♪ 175 00:06:24,122 --> 00:06:25,123 What? 176 00:06:25,167 --> 00:06:26,124 Too early. 177 00:06:26,168 --> 00:06:27,125 ♪ Come what may come my way 178 00:06:27,169 --> 00:06:29,519 Your oldest is Sofia's age? 179 00:06:29,563 --> 00:06:31,521 I promise you, it's too early. 180 00:06:31,565 --> 00:06:33,349 I don't know how to get back. 181 00:06:33,393 --> 00:06:35,699 I keep seeing Derek, and he won't help me get back 182 00:06:35,743 --> 00:06:37,092 or come close enough to touch. 183 00:06:37,135 --> 00:06:39,442 It's not up to him. It's up to you. 184 00:06:39,486 --> 00:06:41,052 What do you mean? 185 00:06:41,096 --> 00:06:44,099 The sand isn't real, Meredith. 186 00:06:44,142 --> 00:06:46,580 I wish everybody would stop saying that to me. 187 00:06:46,623 --> 00:06:49,496 ♪ The sun is gonna shine after the rain ♪ 188 00:06:49,539 --> 00:06:51,802 ♪ I'm gonna sing till the sun comes out ♪♪ Rain, rain, go away 189 00:06:51,846 --> 00:06:54,805 ♪ I'm gonna sing till the sun comes out ♪♪ Come again another day 190 00:06:54,849 --> 00:06:56,807 So, you two are together? 191 00:06:56,851 --> 00:06:57,939 ♪ I'm gonna sing till the sun comes out ♪♪ Rain, rain, go away 192 00:06:57,982 --> 00:06:59,680 On your beach? Looks like we are. 193 00:06:59,723 --> 00:07:00,681 [ Chuckles ] 194 00:07:00,724 --> 00:07:02,073 ♪ Oh, I'm gonna sing 195 00:07:02,117 --> 00:07:03,640 ♪ Come what may come my way 196 00:07:03,684 --> 00:07:05,120 ♪ Oh, I'm gonna sing 197 00:07:05,163 --> 00:07:07,165 ♪ The sun is gonna shine after the rain ♪ 198 00:07:07,209 --> 00:07:08,471 Ah! 199 00:07:08,515 --> 00:07:11,039 ♪ Come what may come my way [ Laughter ] 200 00:07:11,082 --> 00:07:11,866 ♪ The sun is gonna shine after the rain ♪ 201 00:07:11,909 --> 00:07:13,476 [ Laughs ] Stop it! 202 00:07:13,520 --> 00:07:14,782 ♪ Come what may come my way 203 00:07:14,825 --> 00:07:16,697 Get away! Run away! Quick, quick!Whoo! 204 00:07:16,740 --> 00:07:17,785 Yes! 205 00:07:17,828 --> 00:07:20,048 [ Laughs ] Yes! 206 00:07:20,091 --> 00:07:21,266 I like it here. 207 00:07:21,310 --> 00:07:22,877 ♪ The sun is gonna shine after the rain ♪ 208 00:07:22,920 --> 00:07:24,400 [ Waves crashing ] 209 00:07:24,444 --> 00:07:25,836 [ Sighs ] 210 00:07:25,880 --> 00:07:29,579 ♪ Come what may come my way 211 00:07:30,537 --> 00:07:32,408 Alive and well. Sorry to disappoint. 212 00:07:32,452 --> 00:07:34,192 [ Sighs ] 213 00:07:34,236 --> 00:07:35,367 You heard about the vents? I did. 214 00:07:35,411 --> 00:07:36,804 So you know if we pull Grey's tube 215 00:07:36,847 --> 00:07:37,848 too soon, we don't have -- 216 00:07:37,892 --> 00:07:39,241 I heard about the vents, Tom. 217 00:07:39,284 --> 00:07:40,503 Woman on P.A.: ...to Nuclear Medicine. 218 00:07:40,547 --> 00:07:43,201 Dr. Sellers to Nuclear Medicine. 219 00:07:43,245 --> 00:07:44,638 [ Siren wailing, horns honking in distance ] 220 00:07:44,681 --> 00:07:45,769 [ Door opens ] 221 00:07:45,813 --> 00:07:48,206 [ Gasps ] Hi! Hey. 222 00:07:48,250 --> 00:07:49,773 Leo threw up on the way over here.Oh, no! 223 00:07:49,817 --> 00:07:50,948 Do you have a shirt that I can borrow? 224 00:07:50,992 --> 00:07:52,384 Yeah, come on in.Thank you. 225 00:07:52,428 --> 00:07:54,952 Okay. Okay. [ Sighs ] 226 00:07:54,996 --> 00:07:57,041 Hey, Leo, come this way with me. 227 00:07:57,085 --> 00:07:58,869 Here, let me take off this jacket. 228 00:07:58,913 --> 00:08:00,784 Let me just sit down for a sec. 229 00:08:00,828 --> 00:08:02,525 Yeah, he gets carsick.Okay. 230 00:08:02,569 --> 00:08:06,094 He once puked on my op notesfor a glioblastoma. 231 00:08:06,137 --> 00:08:08,096 You know, Ellis reallywants to show you 232 00:08:08,139 --> 00:08:09,706 what she's working onin the playroom. 233 00:08:09,750 --> 00:08:11,882 Do you want to go see her?She's right there. Look. 234 00:08:11,926 --> 00:08:14,319 Go say hi. Okay, bye-bye. 235 00:08:14,363 --> 00:08:15,712 If you had told me two years ago 236 00:08:15,756 --> 00:08:17,540 that you and I would be excited 237 00:08:17,584 --> 00:08:20,325 to spend the afternoon togetherwith six small children... 238 00:08:20,369 --> 00:08:22,937 I know that Owen asked you to babysit me. 239 00:08:22,980 --> 00:08:25,505 You don't have to put on a show. 240 00:08:25,548 --> 00:08:27,507 Both things can be true. 241 00:08:27,550 --> 00:08:28,943 I need company. 242 00:08:28,986 --> 00:08:31,467 We can have tea and discusslife pre-pandemic, 243 00:08:31,511 --> 00:08:34,296 and we don't have to be coveredin puke alone for an afternoon. 244 00:08:34,339 --> 00:08:35,558 It's great. 245 00:08:35,602 --> 00:08:37,517 [ Children laughing ] 246 00:08:38,256 --> 00:08:40,171 I just told Liam and Austin not to worry. 247 00:08:40,215 --> 00:08:41,999 Please tell me I wasn't lying. 248 00:08:42,043 --> 00:08:43,653 You know it's probably minor, right? 249 00:08:43,697 --> 00:08:45,176 It's not that. 250 00:08:45,220 --> 00:08:46,874 I mean, it isthat, but... 251 00:08:46,917 --> 00:08:48,963 Irene insisted on moving down here when the pandemic started, 252 00:08:49,006 --> 00:08:50,007 and we drive each other mad. 253 00:08:50,051 --> 00:08:51,618 We do. 254 00:08:51,661 --> 00:08:53,358 But I'd be lost without her. 255 00:08:53,402 --> 00:08:56,013 You're trying to make me cry. 256 00:08:56,057 --> 00:08:58,015 Don't go getting a big headin there, now. 257 00:08:58,059 --> 00:08:59,016 Hm. 258 00:08:59,060 --> 00:09:02,063 [ Beeping ] 259 00:09:02,106 --> 00:09:04,021 Jo: Kidney stone, like I thought. 260 00:09:04,065 --> 00:09:05,849 In the right ureter. 261 00:09:05,893 --> 00:09:09,244 It's big, so we should get urology to weigh in. 262 00:09:09,287 --> 00:09:10,593 Is Catherine Fox here today? 263 00:09:10,637 --> 00:09:11,942 For a kidney stone? 264 00:09:11,986 --> 00:09:13,378 My boys already lost their mother. 265 00:09:13,422 --> 00:09:15,467 Irene's her sister and the onlyfamily they have left. 266 00:09:15,511 --> 00:09:17,905 So, yes, I want the best. 267 00:09:17,948 --> 00:09:19,689 [ Siren wailing in distance ] 268 00:09:19,733 --> 00:09:21,778 Woman on P.A.: Nurse Hydren to the OR. Nurse Hydren to the OR. 269 00:09:21,822 --> 00:09:23,214 Well, there he is. 270 00:09:23,258 --> 00:09:24,607 This is happening? 271 00:09:24,651 --> 00:09:25,782 It is definitely happening. 272 00:09:25,826 --> 00:09:27,262 I hope this wasn't a bad time. 273 00:09:27,305 --> 00:09:29,046 I abandoned a play date, and I need a calendar 274 00:09:29,090 --> 00:09:30,613 to remember the last time I operated. 275 00:09:30,657 --> 00:09:32,615 [ Chuckles ] So, definitely not a bad time. 276 00:09:32,659 --> 00:09:34,617 How severe is it? 277 00:09:34,661 --> 00:09:36,837 See for yourself. 278 00:09:36,880 --> 00:09:38,490 Crosswalks, am I right? 279 00:09:40,188 --> 00:09:41,885 Okay, folks, let's get the OR ready 280 00:09:41,929 --> 00:09:43,583 with the ex-fix set and the C-arm. 281 00:09:43,626 --> 00:09:45,585 Let's fix this bad boy. Mm. 282 00:09:45,628 --> 00:09:46,716 And, Dr. Webber? 283 00:09:46,760 --> 00:09:48,544 Thank you so much. 284 00:09:48,588 --> 00:09:52,156 ♪♪ 285 00:09:52,200 --> 00:09:53,767 Sorry to keep paging you, Dr. Pierce, 286 00:09:53,810 --> 00:09:55,986 but her breathing is becoming more labored by the hour. 287 00:09:56,030 --> 00:10:00,208 Let's consider BiPAP if she continues to decompensate. 288 00:10:00,251 --> 00:10:01,557 But it may be time to consider next steps. 289 00:10:01,601 --> 00:10:03,385 There's no directive. 290 00:10:03,428 --> 00:10:05,735 Marcella says that her daughter 291 00:10:05,779 --> 00:10:06,867 will be making all decisions for her. 292 00:10:08,172 --> 00:10:09,913 Then... 293 00:10:09,957 --> 00:10:12,568 it's time to call her. 294 00:10:12,612 --> 00:10:14,396 [ Sighs ] 295 00:10:14,439 --> 00:10:16,224 [ Line ringing ] 296 00:10:18,226 --> 00:10:20,576 Man: Hi. Who's calling? 297 00:10:20,620 --> 00:10:21,795 Jackson? 298 00:10:23,231 --> 00:10:25,189 Jackson: Maggie, over here. 299 00:10:25,233 --> 00:10:27,104 Rig brought her in about half an hour ago. 300 00:10:27,148 --> 00:10:28,105 Hey, Dr. Pierce. 301 00:10:28,149 --> 00:10:29,672 [ Coughing ] 302 00:10:29,716 --> 00:10:32,501 ♪♪ 303 00:10:38,115 --> 00:10:40,509 Dr. Fox, thank you for coming in. 304 00:10:40,552 --> 00:10:42,424 I know how busy you must be, so I appreciate you being here. 305 00:10:42,467 --> 00:10:44,774 Irene: I told you not to give me special treatment. 306 00:10:44,818 --> 00:10:46,428 Did you pull strings? 307 00:10:46,471 --> 00:10:47,647 He pulled the biggest one. 308 00:10:47,690 --> 00:10:48,778 I sign his checks.[ Chuckling ] 309 00:10:48,822 --> 00:10:50,432 Dr. Wilson? 310 00:10:50,475 --> 00:10:54,001 Irene Davis, 35, nephrolithiasis with a history of MS. 311 00:10:54,044 --> 00:10:57,613 These are her scans and a CT. Mm. Mm-hmm. 312 00:10:57,657 --> 00:10:59,615 They say it's kidney stones. 313 00:10:59,659 --> 00:11:01,182 Which is apparently my fault. 314 00:11:01,225 --> 00:11:02,879 I did not say that. 315 00:11:02,923 --> 00:11:05,273 She gets some very strong teas from her acupuncturist 316 00:11:05,316 --> 00:11:06,883 to help manage her MS pain. 317 00:11:06,927 --> 00:11:08,972 You got to drink a lot of water to flush those out. 318 00:11:09,016 --> 00:11:10,452 Which she knows.Which she usually does. 319 00:11:10,495 --> 00:11:13,455 So, this stone is apparently lodged in your ureter. 320 00:11:13,498 --> 00:11:15,675 That's the tube between your kidney and your bladder. 321 00:11:15,718 --> 00:11:17,851 I'm going to have to perform a lithotripsy -- 322 00:11:17,894 --> 00:11:20,244 that's a procedure with a tiny, tiny laser 323 00:11:20,288 --> 00:11:22,507 that breaks it down into smaller pieces. 324 00:11:22,551 --> 00:11:24,074 Broken into pieces? 325 00:11:24,118 --> 00:11:25,685 That's what killed my sister. 326 00:11:25,728 --> 00:11:28,078 No, this is nothing like the morcellator, Irene. 327 00:11:28,122 --> 00:11:30,080 If it was, I wouldn't let it anywhere near you. 328 00:11:30,124 --> 00:11:32,517 So it's safe?Completely routine. 329 00:11:32,561 --> 00:11:34,737 Takes about 45 minutes, in typical cases. 330 00:11:34,781 --> 00:11:37,087 I have MS. Am I still a typical case? 331 00:11:37,131 --> 00:11:38,306 No. 332 00:11:38,349 --> 00:11:41,309 Because you have me for your doctor. 333 00:11:41,352 --> 00:11:44,660 See you in the OR. 334 00:11:44,704 --> 00:11:46,270 Link: Another screw, please. 335 00:11:46,314 --> 00:11:47,881 Everything okay? 336 00:11:47,924 --> 00:11:49,273 [ Sighs ] Yes. Mm-hmm. 337 00:11:49,317 --> 00:11:52,450 I just wanted to enjoy the moment. Mm-hmm. 338 00:11:52,494 --> 00:11:54,104 Lord knows when it'll happen again. 339 00:11:54,148 --> 00:11:55,627 After this, we'll secure the frame. 340 00:11:55,671 --> 00:11:57,455 You'd never know you didn't do three of these this morning. 341 00:11:57,499 --> 00:11:59,066 Well, I didn't. 342 00:11:59,109 --> 00:12:00,894 But I did change three diapers. 343 00:12:00,937 --> 00:12:04,549 One was what Amelia has dubbedthe "poo-tastrophe."[ Laughs ] 344 00:12:04,593 --> 00:12:06,943 That's when the poo actually kind of explodes 345 00:12:06,987 --> 00:12:08,423 out of the diaper and hits the wall. 346 00:12:08,466 --> 00:12:10,730 [ Chuckles lightly ] 347 00:12:10,773 --> 00:12:13,689 Got it. That is impolite adult conversation. 348 00:12:13,733 --> 00:12:15,778 Sorry, I rarely get to talk to adults. Mm. 349 00:12:15,822 --> 00:12:18,172 [ Monitor beeping rapidly ]Wait. What happened? 350 00:12:18,215 --> 00:12:20,261 Heart rate's in the 120s and his sats are dropping. 351 00:12:20,304 --> 00:12:21,828 He could have throwna fat embolism. Oh, come on! 352 00:12:21,871 --> 00:12:23,003 A-Alright, push fluids, 353 00:12:23,046 --> 00:12:24,656 and let's get him packed up for a CTA. 354 00:12:24,700 --> 00:12:26,789 [ Beeping continues ] 355 00:12:26,833 --> 00:12:29,618 Did you call your mom? 356 00:12:29,661 --> 00:12:33,013 I did, and she was at a grocery store, 357 00:12:33,056 --> 00:12:34,231 which I have asked her not to go to 358 00:12:34,275 --> 00:12:35,667 at least a hundred times. 359 00:12:35,711 --> 00:12:36,843 She's stubborn, like you. 360 00:12:36,886 --> 00:12:37,844 [ Breathing heavily ] 361 00:12:37,887 --> 00:12:39,367 Marcella? 362 00:12:39,410 --> 00:12:41,761 [ Breathing heavily ] 363 00:12:41,804 --> 00:12:44,502 Marcella, Veronica's just been admitted to the hospital. 364 00:12:44,546 --> 00:12:46,678 No. No. 365 00:12:46,722 --> 00:12:48,071 She was mild. 366 00:12:48,115 --> 00:12:49,725 I know. 367 00:12:49,769 --> 00:12:52,510 But her symptoms became more pronounced. 368 00:12:52,554 --> 00:12:55,992 Use your time with her, not me. 369 00:12:57,994 --> 00:12:59,648 Marcella, you need care, too. 370 00:12:59,691 --> 00:13:01,824 I don't care about me! 371 00:13:01,868 --> 00:13:03,304 Save my baby girl! 372 00:13:03,347 --> 00:13:04,871 [ Gasping ] 373 00:13:04,914 --> 00:13:07,438 ♪♪ 374 00:13:07,482 --> 00:13:09,005 Okay. Come on. 375 00:13:09,049 --> 00:13:10,615 [ Breathes sharply ] 376 00:13:10,659 --> 00:13:12,313 ♪♪ 377 00:13:12,356 --> 00:13:15,185 But my mom's still alive. 378 00:13:15,229 --> 00:13:17,709 She is, but she isn't improving. 379 00:13:17,753 --> 00:13:20,234 Veronica, we need to know whether your mom would want 380 00:13:20,277 --> 00:13:22,192 a machine to breathe for her if she --No, no. She wants to live. 381 00:13:22,236 --> 00:13:23,977 So instead of scaring the hell out of me, 382 00:13:24,020 --> 00:13:25,979 can you go and concentrate on that? 383 00:13:26,022 --> 00:13:28,808 Do whatever you can to save her. 384 00:13:28,851 --> 00:13:30,679 Maybe now's not the best time, Maggie. 385 00:13:30,722 --> 00:13:32,681 It may be the only time. 386 00:13:32,724 --> 00:13:34,465 This is my fault. 387 00:13:34,509 --> 00:13:36,250 [ Crying ] I'm so sorry. 388 00:13:36,293 --> 00:13:37,686 I'm so, so sorry. 389 00:13:37,729 --> 00:13:39,079 [ Monitor beeps ] 390 00:13:39,122 --> 00:13:40,471 [ Coughing ] 391 00:13:40,515 --> 00:13:41,951 Her sats are in the 80s. I'm gonna increase the O2. 392 00:13:41,995 --> 00:13:43,561 This is my fault. 393 00:13:43,605 --> 00:13:44,954 All of this. 394 00:13:44,998 --> 00:13:46,390 [ Wheezes ] 395 00:13:46,434 --> 00:13:49,437 I-It was her birthday, and... 396 00:13:49,480 --> 00:13:51,004 and she'd -- 397 00:13:51,047 --> 00:13:53,876 she'd been alone so long, 398 00:13:53,920 --> 00:13:58,054 so I went over to her house to -- to cook for her. 399 00:13:58,098 --> 00:14:00,578 We wore masks and we ate outside 400 00:14:00,622 --> 00:14:04,452 and w-we -- we tried to stay distanced, 401 00:14:04,495 --> 00:14:07,020 but it was her birthday, and she's my mom, 402 00:14:07,063 --> 00:14:09,022 so I gave her a hug. 403 00:14:09,065 --> 00:14:11,589 I just gave her one hug. 404 00:14:11,633 --> 00:14:14,854 [ Sobs ] And I might have killed her. 405 00:14:15,985 --> 00:14:18,640 I killed my mom. [ Sniffles ] 406 00:14:18,683 --> 00:14:19,815 No, no, no, no. Listen to me. 407 00:14:19,859 --> 00:14:21,861 Listen to me. 408 00:14:21,904 --> 00:14:24,472 This is not your fault, okay? 409 00:14:24,515 --> 00:14:27,649 And I promise you, your mom will never regret that hug. 410 00:14:27,692 --> 00:14:29,129 Never. [ Sniffles ] 411 00:14:29,172 --> 00:14:31,218 Okay? 412 00:14:31,261 --> 00:14:33,481 And, listen, my daughter's a doctor here, too. 413 00:14:33,524 --> 00:14:34,917 And she's with your mom right now, 414 00:14:34,961 --> 00:14:37,398 and she's taking care of her, okay? 415 00:14:37,441 --> 00:14:39,313 It's okay. 416 00:14:39,356 --> 00:14:40,401 [ Crying ] 417 00:14:40,444 --> 00:14:42,272 It's okay. 418 00:14:42,316 --> 00:14:45,275 Down that hallway is PACU. 419 00:14:45,319 --> 00:14:47,495 That's recovery. 420 00:14:47,538 --> 00:14:49,323 This is a supply closet. 421 00:14:49,366 --> 00:14:52,108 Nice.Here we have someone's office. 422 00:14:52,152 --> 00:14:54,328 You're an incredible tour guide. 423 00:14:54,371 --> 00:14:56,547 Well, not much to see in a pandemic. 424 00:14:56,591 --> 00:14:58,941 Is she here today, or are you keeping me from her? 425 00:14:58,985 --> 00:15:00,987 She? Who's she? Come on, Mac. 426 00:15:01,030 --> 00:15:02,510 The boys tell me everything. 427 00:15:02,553 --> 00:15:04,642 Said you've been talking about somebody that you work with, 428 00:15:04,686 --> 00:15:06,035 a general surgeon? 429 00:15:06,079 --> 00:15:07,907 I work with several general surgeons. 430 00:15:07,950 --> 00:15:09,169 Oh, okay. 431 00:15:09,212 --> 00:15:11,301 Do you smile when you talk about all of them? 432 00:15:11,345 --> 00:15:12,302 [ Chuckles ] 433 00:15:12,346 --> 00:15:13,825 I'd like to meet her. 434 00:15:16,350 --> 00:15:17,917 Yeah, well, you can't. 435 00:15:17,960 --> 00:15:19,744 Why? 436 00:15:19,788 --> 00:15:23,096 'Cause she's on a breathing tube in the ICU. 437 00:15:23,139 --> 00:15:24,619 Mac... 438 00:15:24,662 --> 00:15:25,881 again? 439 00:15:29,189 --> 00:15:30,973 I'll, uh... 440 00:15:31,017 --> 00:15:32,540 check in on you after the procedure. 441 00:15:32,583 --> 00:15:34,455 Yeah, okay. 442 00:15:34,498 --> 00:15:36,457 [ Breathes deeply ] 443 00:15:36,500 --> 00:15:43,464 ♪♪ 444 00:15:43,507 --> 00:15:46,293 Well, he's stable, 445 00:15:46,336 --> 00:15:48,121 but with that large of an embolism, 446 00:15:48,164 --> 00:15:49,252 he's gonna have to stay on the vent 447 00:15:49,296 --> 00:15:51,254 for at least a few days. 448 00:15:51,298 --> 00:15:53,474 This never should have happened! 449 00:15:54,736 --> 00:15:56,085 I know I'm a little rusty, 450 00:15:56,129 --> 00:15:57,478 and I probably shouldn't have been talking 451 00:15:57,521 --> 00:15:58,696 about exploding diapers, but -- 452 00:15:58,740 --> 00:16:01,482 No, I am not angry at you, Lincoln. 453 00:16:01,525 --> 00:16:03,571 This was a -- a complication. 454 00:16:03,614 --> 00:16:05,007 I mean, there's nothing 455 00:16:05,051 --> 00:16:06,226 you could or should have done better. 456 00:16:06,269 --> 00:16:09,838 I'm just angry with this whole situation! 457 00:16:09,881 --> 00:16:11,187 I mean, saving this young man's life 458 00:16:11,231 --> 00:16:13,537 means we're down to one available vent! 459 00:16:13,581 --> 00:16:16,323 Which now means I have to close the doors to our trauma! 460 00:16:16,366 --> 00:16:19,413 Which means people will die unnecessarily! 461 00:16:20,588 --> 00:16:22,459 Even more people will die. 462 00:16:22,503 --> 00:16:26,463 ♪♪ 463 00:16:26,507 --> 00:16:28,639 We're closing to trauma? 464 00:16:28,683 --> 00:16:30,163 Looks like it. 465 00:16:30,206 --> 00:16:31,033 ♪♪ 466 00:16:36,908 --> 00:16:40,042 [ Sighs, grunts lightly ] 467 00:16:40,086 --> 00:16:41,826 [ Cellphone vibrates ] 468 00:16:41,870 --> 00:16:43,176 [ Cellphone chimes ] 469 00:16:43,219 --> 00:16:45,395 [ Sighs ] 470 00:16:45,439 --> 00:16:47,658 ♪♪ 471 00:16:47,702 --> 00:16:48,572 [ Cellphone chimes ] 472 00:16:48,616 --> 00:16:50,487 ♪♪ 473 00:16:50,531 --> 00:16:52,533 Okay. 474 00:16:52,576 --> 00:16:53,925 Cristina. 475 00:16:53,969 --> 00:16:56,667 ♪♪ 476 00:16:56,711 --> 00:16:58,495 [ Cellphone swishes ] 477 00:16:58,539 --> 00:16:59,888 [ Cellphone chimes ] 478 00:16:59,931 --> 00:17:01,324 ♪♪ 479 00:17:01,368 --> 00:17:02,891 [ Chuckles ] 480 00:17:02,934 --> 00:17:06,677 ♪♪ 481 00:17:06,721 --> 00:17:09,463 [ Camera shutter clicks ] 482 00:17:09,506 --> 00:17:10,855 [ Cellphone swishes ] 483 00:17:10,899 --> 00:17:13,075 ♪♪ 484 00:17:13,119 --> 00:17:14,424 [ Waves crashing ] 485 00:17:14,468 --> 00:17:15,730 [ Seagulls crying ] 486 00:17:15,773 --> 00:17:18,428 ♪♪ 487 00:17:18,472 --> 00:17:20,909 This is nice... 488 00:17:20,952 --> 00:17:23,216 just being able to talk to you. 489 00:17:23,259 --> 00:17:24,869 What do you mean? 490 00:17:24,913 --> 00:17:27,785 Well, I spend a fair amount of time 491 00:17:27,829 --> 00:17:29,570 trying to talk to people. 492 00:17:29,613 --> 00:17:32,355 Sofia, Callie, Arizona. 493 00:17:32,399 --> 00:17:34,575 I try to warn them sometimes. 494 00:17:34,618 --> 00:17:35,967 Warn them about what? 495 00:17:36,011 --> 00:17:38,970 I can't let go. 496 00:17:39,014 --> 00:17:41,538 When you have a little kid like that... 497 00:17:41,582 --> 00:17:44,802 hard to let go. 498 00:17:44,846 --> 00:17:48,763 So I hang out, watch her grow up. 499 00:17:48,806 --> 00:17:50,591 Sometimes I see something coming. 500 00:17:50,634 --> 00:17:53,333 Like the divorce? Yep. 501 00:17:53,376 --> 00:17:55,248 I stand beside them. I yell in their ears, "Wake up!" 502 00:17:55,291 --> 00:17:56,379 [ Chuckles ] 503 00:17:56,423 --> 00:17:59,469 "Wake up! You're missing it! 504 00:17:59,513 --> 00:18:01,906 You're missingthe best part of life!"[ Laughs ] 505 00:18:01,950 --> 00:18:03,995 When you love someone, you tell them. 506 00:18:06,824 --> 00:18:09,871 And then w-what do they do when you yell in their ears? 507 00:18:09,914 --> 00:18:12,003 Well, sometimes they listen. Sometimes they hear me. 508 00:18:12,047 --> 00:18:14,136 [ Metal creaks ]I never get the credit, though. 509 00:18:14,180 --> 00:18:16,138 They think it's their own idea. 510 00:18:16,182 --> 00:18:17,966 [ Laughs ] 511 00:18:18,009 --> 00:18:26,148 ♪♪ 512 00:18:26,192 --> 00:18:28,107 [ Laughter ] 513 00:18:28,150 --> 00:18:29,891 [ Laughs ] 514 00:18:29,934 --> 00:18:32,546 She looks so much like you. 515 00:18:32,589 --> 00:18:34,025 Ellis? 516 00:18:34,069 --> 00:18:35,766 Everybody says she looks like Meredith. 517 00:18:35,810 --> 00:18:39,509 Yeah, she does, but also weirdly just like you. 518 00:18:39,553 --> 00:18:41,381 You really are sisters. 519 00:18:43,774 --> 00:18:45,167 I'm not gonna ask. 520 00:18:45,211 --> 00:18:47,343 You can. I just -- I don't know anything. 521 00:18:47,387 --> 00:18:49,563 And Richard won't even let me near the hospital 522 00:18:49,606 --> 00:18:50,694 or any of the charts. 523 00:18:50,738 --> 00:18:52,914 Well, that's because you need a break, 524 00:18:52,957 --> 00:18:54,872 not because you did anything wrong. 525 00:18:54,916 --> 00:18:56,874 DeLuca was not your fault. 526 00:18:56,918 --> 00:18:58,920 We all lost him. 527 00:18:58,963 --> 00:19:00,095 That grief belongs to all of us, 528 00:19:00,139 --> 00:19:03,011 and it might... 529 00:19:03,054 --> 00:19:05,970 be easier if you learn to share that. 530 00:19:06,014 --> 00:19:09,757 [ Children laughing, shouting ] 531 00:19:09,800 --> 00:19:12,760 Is there a recovery program for people who trash their lives 532 00:19:12,803 --> 00:19:15,110 and can't blame drugs, so that I can get some of that 533 00:19:15,154 --> 00:19:17,330 sweet program zen master stuff you have? 534 00:19:17,373 --> 00:19:19,593 [ Laughs ] 535 00:19:19,636 --> 00:19:20,768 You don't have to be an addict -- 536 00:19:20,811 --> 00:19:23,205 it's called therapy. 537 00:19:23,249 --> 00:19:24,641 Hmm. 538 00:19:24,685 --> 00:19:26,426 How many sessions until Owen feels safe 539 00:19:26,469 --> 00:19:29,037 to leave me alone with the kids? 540 00:19:29,080 --> 00:19:31,909 I tried therapy. It makes me uncomfortable. 541 00:19:31,953 --> 00:19:33,520 Mammograms make us uncomfortable, 542 00:19:33,563 --> 00:19:35,913 but we still get them. 543 00:19:35,957 --> 00:19:38,916 Yeah, the man stared at me and nodded 544 00:19:38,960 --> 00:19:40,701 and grunted on every fourth word. 545 00:19:40,744 --> 00:19:42,529 I counted the grunts. 546 00:19:42,572 --> 00:19:45,184 It was an -- an expensive kind of torture. 547 00:19:45,227 --> 00:19:47,534 So, when the first therapist you tried 548 00:19:47,577 --> 00:19:50,667 was clearly the wrong fit, did you... 549 00:19:50,711 --> 00:19:52,713 try another one? 550 00:19:52,756 --> 00:19:53,888 You know I was just being nice 551 00:19:53,931 --> 00:19:55,455 when I said Ellis looked like you. 552 00:19:55,498 --> 00:19:57,239 Boy: Now we're both right side up. 553 00:19:57,283 --> 00:19:58,762 [ Children laughing ] 554 00:19:59,850 --> 00:20:01,809 How'd the mom take it? 555 00:20:01,852 --> 00:20:04,072 How do you think? [ Sighs ] 556 00:20:04,115 --> 00:20:06,074 Is it just me, or did this job used to be fun? 557 00:20:06,117 --> 00:20:09,208 Like, not even 10 years ago. Like, very recently, fun. 558 00:20:09,251 --> 00:20:11,949 This used to be the greatest job in the world. 559 00:20:13,212 --> 00:20:15,388 Please tell me Veronica's okay. 560 00:20:15,431 --> 00:20:17,738 Well, I'd hoped with oxygen therapy and antivirals, 561 00:20:17,781 --> 00:20:19,261 we'd see a better response, but... 562 00:20:19,305 --> 00:20:20,436 [ Cellphone vibrating ] 563 00:20:20,480 --> 00:20:22,264 ...that hasn't been the case. 564 00:20:22,308 --> 00:20:24,005 Crap. 565 00:20:24,048 --> 00:20:25,267 I need you to get back in bed.Take me back. Take me back. 566 00:20:25,311 --> 00:20:26,225 I know, baby. I know.Ortiz, what the hell? 567 00:20:26,268 --> 00:20:27,835 Sweetheart.No, no, no, no. 568 00:20:27,878 --> 00:20:29,097 I found her halfway tothe elevator, almost collapsed.No. 569 00:20:29,140 --> 00:20:30,272 Let's get you back in bed.I need to -- 570 00:20:30,316 --> 00:20:31,273 Alright.I need to see my mom, please. 571 00:20:31,317 --> 00:20:32,448 Shh, shh, shh, shh, shh.Okay. 572 00:20:32,492 --> 00:20:33,623 Please, I need to see my mom.Okay. 573 00:20:33,667 --> 00:20:35,016 We want to get you feeling better first, 574 00:20:35,059 --> 00:20:36,583 then we can talk aboutvisitation, okay?No, no. 575 00:20:36,626 --> 00:20:39,368 [ Gasping ] Everyone here is dying, 576 00:20:39,412 --> 00:20:41,979 and you guys have no clue how to save us, 577 00:20:42,023 --> 00:20:44,982 so at least let me see my mom. 578 00:20:45,026 --> 00:20:46,462 Let me say goodbye. 579 00:20:46,506 --> 00:20:48,029 Before... 580 00:20:48,072 --> 00:20:49,204 [ Monitors beeping rapidly ]Veronica. 581 00:20:49,248 --> 00:20:50,292 Veronica? Hey! 582 00:20:50,336 --> 00:20:51,772 Blood pressure's tanking.Veronica? 583 00:20:51,815 --> 00:20:53,252 I've got no pulse. 584 00:20:53,295 --> 00:20:54,427 Alright, get me epi and a crash cart in here, now! 585 00:20:54,470 --> 00:20:55,819 Okay. 586 00:20:55,863 --> 00:20:56,994 I want to start compressions right away. 587 00:20:57,038 --> 00:20:58,561 Okay, go, go, go. 588 00:20:58,605 --> 00:21:00,998 [ Beeping continues ] 589 00:21:01,042 --> 00:21:02,130 Come on, Veronica. 590 00:21:02,173 --> 00:21:03,784 Come on, Veronica. Here we go. 591 00:21:06,177 --> 00:21:07,918 Levi: You're doing great, Marcella. 592 00:21:07,962 --> 00:21:09,572 Stay positive. 593 00:21:12,009 --> 00:21:16,100 If you can make it to Friday without needing a vent... 594 00:21:16,144 --> 00:21:18,102 you're on your way. 595 00:21:18,146 --> 00:21:20,322 You know, we're, um -- 596 00:21:20,366 --> 00:21:23,412 we're almost there, because it's -- 597 00:21:23,456 --> 00:21:25,545 ♪ Hump Day 598 00:21:25,588 --> 00:21:27,373 ♪ What do you say? 599 00:21:27,416 --> 00:21:30,376 ♪ You look at the week and you say, "Half way!" ♪ 600 00:21:30,419 --> 00:21:32,203 ♪ Half what? Half way 601 00:21:32,247 --> 00:21:34,423 ♪ That's 'cause it's Hump Day ♪ 602 00:21:34,467 --> 00:21:37,208 ♪ The next thing you know, it's gonna be Friday ♪ 603 00:21:37,252 --> 00:21:38,601 [ Chuckles ] 604 00:21:38,645 --> 00:21:39,950 My mom gives me that exact same look 605 00:21:39,994 --> 00:21:41,212 every time I do that rap. 606 00:21:41,256 --> 00:21:44,346 Mnh-mnh. No, no, that is not rap. 607 00:21:44,390 --> 00:21:45,608 [ Chuckles ] 608 00:21:45,652 --> 00:21:46,870 [ Monitor beeping rapidly ] 609 00:21:46,914 --> 00:21:48,045 Oh, God. She's decompensating. 610 00:21:48,089 --> 00:21:49,873 I need a crash cart in here, now! 611 00:21:49,917 --> 00:21:51,440 And someone page Dr. Pierce! 612 00:21:51,484 --> 00:21:53,312 What? Are you sure you don't want to wait until the -- 613 00:21:53,355 --> 00:21:55,183 No! Her saturation levels are plummeting and... 614 00:21:55,226 --> 00:21:57,272 Female voice: Code Blue. Code Blue. 615 00:21:57,316 --> 00:21:59,274 Oxygenate patient. 616 00:21:59,318 --> 00:22:02,843 Uh, prep induction and paralytic agent. 617 00:22:02,886 --> 00:22:05,454 Uh, ch-check, uh, pa-- patent cuff. 618 00:22:05,498 --> 00:22:06,716 Tube ready? 619 00:22:06,760 --> 00:22:08,501 Code Blue. Code Blue. 620 00:22:08,544 --> 00:22:17,031 ♪♪ 621 00:22:17,074 --> 00:22:18,989 [ Beeping continues ] 622 00:22:19,033 --> 00:22:27,955 ♪♪ 623 00:22:27,998 --> 00:22:30,218 You're in. [ Sighs ] 624 00:22:30,261 --> 00:22:31,262 [ Beeping continues ] 625 00:22:31,306 --> 00:22:32,263 No. No! 626 00:22:32,307 --> 00:22:34,309 ♪♪ 627 00:22:34,353 --> 00:22:35,702 Schmitt, what did you do? 628 00:22:35,745 --> 00:22:37,399 Levi: She was desaturating. I had no choice. 629 00:22:37,443 --> 00:22:39,923 Now, can we please get a ventilator in here? 630 00:22:39,967 --> 00:22:41,403 [ Beeping continues ] 631 00:22:41,447 --> 00:22:44,014 Oh, my God. 632 00:22:44,058 --> 00:22:46,060 There isn't one. 633 00:22:51,892 --> 00:22:55,025 Removing the last few pieces of stone. 634 00:22:55,069 --> 00:22:56,549 Stent? 635 00:22:56,592 --> 00:22:59,900 Stent's gonna stay in place to ensure proper drainage. 636 00:22:59,943 --> 00:23:02,119 You know, you have a really good touch, Wilson. 637 00:23:02,163 --> 00:23:04,774 We don't have nearly enough women in urology. 638 00:23:04,818 --> 00:23:07,951 Have you ever considered changing specialties? 639 00:23:07,995 --> 00:23:10,780 [ Laughing ] Change specialties? 640 00:23:10,824 --> 00:23:12,956 That would be just -- [ Laughs ] No. 641 00:23:13,000 --> 00:23:14,393 I -- No. 642 00:23:14,436 --> 00:23:17,178 Uh, n-no. No. 643 00:23:17,221 --> 00:23:19,528 Mm. 644 00:23:19,572 --> 00:23:22,401 Okay, all done here. Removing the scope. 645 00:23:24,141 --> 00:23:26,709 Oh, my God. Is that...? 646 00:23:26,753 --> 00:23:28,929 I have never seen this before, 647 00:23:28,972 --> 00:23:30,713 only read about it in a textbook. 648 00:23:30,757 --> 00:23:32,585 This is the patient's ureter. 649 00:23:32,628 --> 00:23:34,325 Her tissues are so friable, 650 00:23:34,369 --> 00:23:35,892 the scope pulled the whole damn thing out. 651 00:23:35,936 --> 00:23:37,459 We're gonna have to open her up. 652 00:23:37,503 --> 00:23:39,026 Prepare an ex lap! 653 00:23:39,069 --> 00:23:44,074 ♪♪ 654 00:23:44,118 --> 00:23:46,642 Jackson: Veronica's X-rays show worsening consolidations. 655 00:23:46,686 --> 00:23:47,730 I put her on BiPAP. 656 00:23:47,774 --> 00:23:48,949 Her oxygen levels keep decreasing. 657 00:23:48,992 --> 00:23:50,646 She needs this vent. She needs to be in ICU. 658 00:23:50,690 --> 00:23:52,256 Marcella is already intubated. 659 00:23:52,300 --> 00:23:53,562 Schmitt can't bag her forever. 660 00:23:53,606 --> 00:23:54,824 Well... 661 00:23:54,868 --> 00:23:56,086 Mama Ortiz: Save the daughter. 662 00:23:56,130 --> 00:23:57,827 Protocols say you have to save the patient 663 00:23:57,871 --> 00:23:59,481 most likely to recover. 664 00:23:59,525 --> 00:24:02,049 We know.Yeah, we know. 665 00:24:02,092 --> 00:24:04,312 If she wakes up and finds out we chose her over her mother, 666 00:24:04,355 --> 00:24:06,706 she's not gonna be able to forgive herself. 667 00:24:06,749 --> 00:24:09,970 Marcella's last words to me were, "Save my baby girl." 668 00:24:10,884 --> 00:24:12,276 [ Sighs ] 669 00:24:12,320 --> 00:24:13,887 Put Veronica on the vent. 670 00:24:13,930 --> 00:24:15,497 Before somebody else takes it. 671 00:24:19,370 --> 00:24:21,895 How in the hell does her ureter come out with a kidney stone? 672 00:24:21,938 --> 00:24:24,201 We will try to reattach it to her bladder 673 00:24:24,245 --> 00:24:26,290 without having to remove the kidney. 674 00:24:26,334 --> 00:24:29,293 Irene is everything to my boys, Wilson. 675 00:24:29,337 --> 00:24:30,904 I mean, everything. 676 00:24:30,947 --> 00:24:32,906 She's always been their aunt, but now she's their teacher, 677 00:24:32,949 --> 00:24:35,082 their football coach, their -- their therapist, 678 00:24:35,125 --> 00:24:37,127 their best bloody friend. 679 00:24:42,176 --> 00:24:43,873 [ Voice breaking ] I-I can't believe this. 680 00:24:43,917 --> 00:24:46,049 I can't. I can't. I can't. 681 00:24:46,093 --> 00:24:49,096 I cannot do this again. 682 00:24:49,139 --> 00:24:52,186 I cannot look at my boys, who've already lost everything, 683 00:24:52,229 --> 00:24:53,796 and tell them that they've lost her, too. 684 00:24:53,840 --> 00:24:55,450 I cannot -- I cannot do that. Okay, okay. Stop. Stop. 685 00:24:55,494 --> 00:24:57,234 This is -- [ Sighs ] 686 00:24:57,278 --> 00:25:00,673 This is not a catastrophe, this is a complication. 687 00:25:02,413 --> 00:25:04,024 [ Sniffles ] 688 00:25:04,067 --> 00:25:07,201 Then what in the hell are you still doing here? 689 00:25:07,244 --> 00:25:09,159 Get in there and bloody fix her.[ Sighs ] 690 00:25:12,162 --> 00:25:14,904 Maggie: We've reached out to every hospital in Washington. 691 00:25:14,948 --> 00:25:16,297 I never imagined -- 692 00:25:16,340 --> 00:25:17,646 I know. 693 00:25:17,690 --> 00:25:19,561 ♪♪ 694 00:25:19,605 --> 00:25:21,737 Schmitt, you did the right thing. 695 00:25:21,781 --> 00:25:23,783 Another vent will come. 696 00:25:26,089 --> 00:25:27,308 [ Voice breaking ] It has to, right? 697 00:25:27,351 --> 00:25:35,795 ♪♪ 698 00:25:35,838 --> 00:25:44,325 ♪♪ 699 00:25:44,368 --> 00:25:46,762 [ Monitor beeping ] 700 00:25:49,591 --> 00:25:51,332 Have a nice lunch? 701 00:25:51,375 --> 00:25:52,942 I was updating Dr. Hayes. 702 00:25:54,335 --> 00:25:56,206 You had to take the kidney? 703 00:25:56,250 --> 00:25:57,773 The remaining piece of the ureter wasn't long enough 704 00:25:57,817 --> 00:25:59,427 to do a simple reattachment. 705 00:25:59,470 --> 00:26:01,037 But Irene has MS. 706 00:26:01,081 --> 00:26:02,648 She could have bladder issues in the future, 707 00:26:02,691 --> 00:26:03,866 which would be much more complicated 708 00:26:03,910 --> 00:26:05,868 with just one kidney. 709 00:26:05,912 --> 00:26:08,131 Why would she only have one kidney? 710 00:26:08,175 --> 00:26:10,743 What?I'm putting it back, Wilson! 711 00:26:10,786 --> 00:26:12,353 You're doing an auto-transplant? 712 00:26:12,396 --> 00:26:13,746 I am trying to![ Sighs ] 713 00:26:13,789 --> 00:26:16,923 It'd be a lot easier if I had a second pair of hands. 714 00:26:16,966 --> 00:26:19,142 Are you coming or not?Yes. Yes. 715 00:26:19,186 --> 00:26:20,709 Irrigation. 716 00:26:20,753 --> 00:26:22,450 [ Beeping continues ] 717 00:26:22,493 --> 00:26:25,018 Child, who throws away a kidney? 718 00:26:25,061 --> 00:26:26,236 Lord. 719 00:26:26,280 --> 00:26:28,630 [ Suction gurgling, respirator hissing ] 720 00:26:28,674 --> 00:26:31,546 Woman on P.A.: Dr. Sikes to Recovery. 721 00:26:31,590 --> 00:26:33,635 Dr. Sikes to Recovery.Thanks. 722 00:26:33,679 --> 00:26:35,202 [ Monitor beeping ] 723 00:26:36,420 --> 00:26:38,640 If she keeps breathing over the vent consistently, 724 00:26:38,684 --> 00:26:40,207 we should be able to take her off it soon. 725 00:26:40,250 --> 00:26:41,774 That's good to hear. 726 00:26:43,253 --> 00:26:44,907 Be a shame if someone like me got to walk away 727 00:26:44,951 --> 00:26:46,387 while someone like her... 728 00:26:47,606 --> 00:26:49,303 [ Chuckles, sniffles ] 729 00:26:49,346 --> 00:26:50,870 I'll, uh -- I'll get out of your way. 730 00:26:52,175 --> 00:26:53,829 Hey, Tom? 731 00:26:55,396 --> 00:26:57,964 When I got back from Iraq, I, uh... 732 00:26:58,007 --> 00:26:59,835 [ Sighs ] I remember thinking, 733 00:26:59,879 --> 00:27:02,969 "Why do I get to keep working? 734 00:27:03,012 --> 00:27:06,755 Why do I get to cook dinner? 735 00:27:06,799 --> 00:27:08,365 Swim in a lake? [ Chuckles ] 736 00:27:08,409 --> 00:27:09,802 Fall in love?" 737 00:27:09,845 --> 00:27:11,586 ♪♪ 738 00:27:11,630 --> 00:27:13,980 It's a terrible feeling. 739 00:27:14,023 --> 00:27:16,591 I wouldn't wish it on anyone. 740 00:27:16,635 --> 00:27:18,375 Even me? 741 00:27:18,419 --> 00:27:19,986 [ Both chuckle ] 742 00:27:20,029 --> 00:27:25,252 ♪♪ 743 00:27:25,295 --> 00:27:26,645 [ Waves crashing ] 744 00:27:26,688 --> 00:27:27,907 [ Seagulls crying ] 745 00:27:27,950 --> 00:27:30,039 Lexie: Tell me your favorite thing. 746 00:27:30,083 --> 00:27:31,040 Meredith: About what? 747 00:27:31,084 --> 00:27:33,260 About life. Life right now. 748 00:27:33,303 --> 00:27:35,218 There's a global pandemic. 749 00:27:35,262 --> 00:27:37,003 [ Chuckling ] That is your favorite thing? 750 00:27:37,046 --> 00:27:39,440 No. I just meant that I don't -- 751 00:27:39,483 --> 00:27:40,833 Oh, okay. 752 00:27:40,876 --> 00:27:42,617 You're saying that the pandemic -- 753 00:27:42,661 --> 00:27:44,706 No, it just feels very shallow 754 00:27:44,750 --> 00:27:46,229 to talk about my favorite things 755 00:27:46,273 --> 00:27:48,449 when there's people dying in record numbers. 756 00:27:48,492 --> 00:27:49,842 Oh, yeah. Okay. Alright. 757 00:27:49,885 --> 00:27:52,279 Well, that's -- that's stupid. 758 00:27:52,322 --> 00:27:54,324 Excuse me? 759 00:27:54,368 --> 00:27:57,066 You're saying that you're not allowed to enjoy your life 760 00:27:57,110 --> 00:27:59,503 because people are dying in record numbers? 761 00:27:59,547 --> 00:28:02,768 That makes exactly zero sense. 762 00:28:02,811 --> 00:28:06,554 If the having of a life and a body 763 00:28:06,597 --> 00:28:08,556 isn't cause for celebration, 764 00:28:08,599 --> 00:28:11,515 then what's the point of avoiding death? 765 00:28:11,559 --> 00:28:13,735 I mean, just -- if you're not gonna enjoy it, 766 00:28:13,779 --> 00:28:15,737 then you might as well join them. 767 00:28:19,610 --> 00:28:22,962 Bailey just had a birthday and I asked him what he wanted, 768 00:28:23,005 --> 00:28:25,921 and he said a whole cake, all to himself. 769 00:28:25,965 --> 00:28:27,923 He did not want to share. 770 00:28:27,967 --> 00:28:30,752 So, of course, I got him the cake. 771 00:28:30,796 --> 00:28:33,494 And so, do you know what he did as soon as he got that cake? 772 00:28:33,537 --> 00:28:34,538 What? 773 00:28:34,582 --> 00:28:35,975 Faceplant. [ Laughs ] 774 00:28:36,018 --> 00:28:39,021 Just planted his face smack in the middle of the cake. 775 00:28:41,241 --> 00:28:46,202 And we laughed and laughed and laughed. 776 00:28:46,246 --> 00:28:48,944 It was me and Zola and Ellis 777 00:28:48,988 --> 00:28:51,991 and Maggie and Amelia and Link. 778 00:28:52,034 --> 00:28:55,516 Zola laughed so hard, she peed her pants, 779 00:28:55,559 --> 00:28:57,431 so then we had a laugh at that. 780 00:28:57,474 --> 00:28:58,345 [ Chuckles ] 781 00:28:58,388 --> 00:29:00,216 And then as we were laughing, 782 00:29:00,260 --> 00:29:03,002 Bailey started licking the frosting off each finger 783 00:29:03,045 --> 00:29:06,048 really slow and making a whole production out of it. 784 00:29:06,092 --> 00:29:08,224 And I looked at him watching us laugh, 785 00:29:08,268 --> 00:29:10,487 and I realized that that was the point. 786 00:29:10,531 --> 00:29:13,316 That was his plan -- he wanted to make us all laugh, 787 00:29:13,360 --> 00:29:16,145 because the baby had been keeping us up all night 788 00:29:16,189 --> 00:29:17,799 and the pandemic was all over the news, 789 00:29:17,843 --> 00:29:19,583 and none of us were having any fun at all, 790 00:29:19,627 --> 00:29:23,544 and nobody was laughing, and he wanted to make us laugh. 791 00:29:23,587 --> 00:29:25,154 Yeah. 792 00:29:25,198 --> 00:29:27,940 And that's what he wanted for his birthday. 793 00:29:29,898 --> 00:29:32,248 And when I looked at him and I saw that light in his eyes, 794 00:29:32,292 --> 00:29:34,033 he looked just like his dad. 795 00:29:35,469 --> 00:29:37,645 That same sparkle. 796 00:29:37,688 --> 00:29:40,039 That same delight. 797 00:29:40,082 --> 00:29:42,824 That's a pretty good favorite thing. 798 00:29:42,868 --> 00:29:46,959 [ Seagulls crying ] 799 00:29:51,485 --> 00:29:53,835 [ Metal creaks ] 800 00:29:53,879 --> 00:29:55,794 [ Siren wailing in distance ] 801 00:29:59,362 --> 00:30:01,147 If I'd known I was going to have to choose 802 00:30:01,190 --> 00:30:03,497 whether to vent a mother or her daughter, 803 00:30:03,540 --> 00:30:05,325 I would have quit med school. 804 00:30:07,588 --> 00:30:12,071 If I'd seen a tenth of what I've seen these past few months, 805 00:30:12,114 --> 00:30:13,768 I would have quit, too. 806 00:30:16,902 --> 00:30:19,469 We shouldn't even be here. 807 00:30:19,513 --> 00:30:21,471 How did we get here? 808 00:30:21,515 --> 00:30:22,864 Let's quit. 809 00:30:22,908 --> 00:30:24,474 Don't go back to Boston. 810 00:30:24,518 --> 00:30:26,476 We've got each other. We've got our earbuds. 811 00:30:26,520 --> 00:30:29,436 Let's just live while we can. 812 00:30:30,916 --> 00:30:33,048 I'll go where you go. 813 00:30:33,092 --> 00:30:36,922 But we both know you won't let yourself quit. 814 00:30:38,532 --> 00:30:40,316 Take a break, okay? 815 00:30:42,928 --> 00:30:45,626 I'll check on your patients. 816 00:30:45,669 --> 00:30:47,628 [ Wailing continues ] 817 00:30:47,671 --> 00:30:51,675 ♪♪ 818 00:30:51,719 --> 00:30:53,286 We can share earbuds. 819 00:30:55,679 --> 00:30:57,072 And...? 820 00:30:59,031 --> 00:31:00,946 What if they can share a vent? 821 00:31:00,989 --> 00:31:06,473 ♪♪ 822 00:31:06,516 --> 00:31:08,867 Tell Schmitt to keep bagging! 823 00:31:14,742 --> 00:31:16,483 [ Monitors beeping ] 824 00:31:16,526 --> 00:31:17,876 Maggie: The machines are capable of delivering 825 00:31:17,919 --> 00:31:20,052 much stronger pressure than any one patient needs. 826 00:31:20,095 --> 00:31:21,314 And we just need to adapt the vents 827 00:31:21,357 --> 00:31:22,924 to serve two patients at once 828 00:31:22,968 --> 00:31:25,709 by using a T- or a Y-shaped splitter on the airflow tube. 829 00:31:25,753 --> 00:31:28,060 And we're using viral filters to prevent cross-contamination 830 00:31:28,103 --> 00:31:29,496 of particles between patients. 831 00:31:29,539 --> 00:31:31,106 [ Chuckling ] All of this was Pierce's idea. 832 00:31:31,150 --> 00:31:32,891 It's not ideal, but it buys us some time 833 00:31:32,934 --> 00:31:34,457 until we get some reinforcements. 834 00:31:34,501 --> 00:31:36,068 Yes! [ Laughing ] 835 00:31:36,111 --> 00:31:38,070 Hey! Hey, hey! 836 00:31:38,113 --> 00:31:39,245 Uh-huh. 837 00:31:39,288 --> 00:31:40,942 Uh-uh-uh. 838 00:31:40,986 --> 00:31:42,335 [ Laughing ] Richard, you okay? 839 00:31:42,378 --> 00:31:44,380 I am so good. I just have to dance 840 00:31:44,424 --> 00:31:46,600 because you all doubled the amount of vents 841 00:31:46,643 --> 00:31:48,167 we have in the hospital. 842 00:31:48,210 --> 00:31:50,734 I have to dance because we can now open the doors to trauma, 843 00:31:50,778 --> 00:31:54,695 and you have to dance because you just got a raise. 844 00:31:54,738 --> 00:31:56,479 Oh, hey![ Laughter ] 845 00:31:56,523 --> 00:31:58,699 Oh! I'll dance to that. 846 00:31:58,742 --> 00:32:00,527 [ Laughter continues ] 847 00:32:02,790 --> 00:32:05,575 [ Respirator hissing ] 848 00:32:05,619 --> 00:32:08,578 Keep an eye on their vitals and get labs every hour. 849 00:32:08,622 --> 00:32:11,364 Page me for any change, no matter how small. 850 00:32:11,407 --> 00:32:19,328 ♪♪ 851 00:32:19,372 --> 00:32:21,113 Intern Sara: Mom... 852 00:32:21,156 --> 00:32:22,288 [ Crying ] 853 00:32:22,331 --> 00:32:23,898 Come here, mamita. 854 00:32:23,942 --> 00:32:25,682 I know. 855 00:32:25,726 --> 00:32:27,510 It's okay. 856 00:32:27,554 --> 00:32:29,904 It's alright, baby.[ Crying ] 857 00:32:29,948 --> 00:32:31,558 I know. 858 00:32:34,691 --> 00:32:38,652 Your vitals look good, and you are making urine. 859 00:32:38,695 --> 00:32:40,654 One of my party tricks.[ Both laugh ] 860 00:32:40,697 --> 00:32:42,221 You'll be able to go home in three days 861 00:32:42,264 --> 00:32:44,397 if your pain's under control.[ Trash can lid thumps ] 862 00:32:44,440 --> 00:32:46,007 Hayes: Wilson? 863 00:32:46,051 --> 00:32:47,835 Thank you. 864 00:32:47,878 --> 00:32:49,837 For, um... 865 00:32:52,057 --> 00:32:53,972 Just thank you. 866 00:32:54,015 --> 00:32:54,798 Okay. 867 00:32:59,194 --> 00:33:01,022 She single? 868 00:33:01,066 --> 00:33:03,068 Who -- Wilson?Yeah. 869 00:33:03,111 --> 00:33:05,113 I don't know. Why? You trying to set me up? 870 00:33:05,157 --> 00:33:06,680 I was hoping you could set meup. 871 00:33:06,723 --> 00:33:08,290 Mm-hmm. [ Chuckles ] 872 00:33:08,334 --> 00:33:10,118 I mean, she did have my kidney in her hands. 873 00:33:10,162 --> 00:33:12,120 It doesn't get more intimate than that. 874 00:33:12,164 --> 00:33:13,730 Uh-huh.Have you checked on the boys? 875 00:33:13,774 --> 00:33:15,297 Austin's supposed to be reading "Animal Farm," 876 00:33:15,341 --> 00:33:17,299 and I'm worried he hasn't made it past page 50. 877 00:33:17,343 --> 00:33:18,561 Page 50? 878 00:33:18,605 --> 00:33:20,085 We'll be lucky if he's even opened the book. 879 00:33:20,128 --> 00:33:21,260 [ Laughs ] 880 00:33:21,303 --> 00:33:25,525 ♪♪ 881 00:33:25,568 --> 00:33:27,440 Her lungs are clear. 882 00:33:27,483 --> 00:33:29,181 Owen: Her ABGs are showing improved oxygenation, 883 00:33:29,224 --> 00:33:31,009 and she's passed her SBTs. 884 00:33:31,052 --> 00:33:34,186 Her vitals are normalized. 885 00:33:34,229 --> 00:33:35,230 Okay. 886 00:33:35,274 --> 00:33:37,276 [ Monitor beeping ] 887 00:33:37,319 --> 00:33:40,018 ♪♪ 888 00:33:40,061 --> 00:33:41,584 Prepare to extubate. 889 00:33:41,628 --> 00:33:46,720 ♪♪ 890 00:33:46,763 --> 00:33:48,374 Suction, please. 891 00:33:50,767 --> 00:33:52,508 Okay, here we go. 892 00:33:52,552 --> 00:33:58,471 ♪♪ 893 00:33:58,514 --> 00:34:00,951 [ Waves crashing ] 894 00:34:00,995 --> 00:34:03,476 [ Seagulls crying ] 895 00:34:03,519 --> 00:34:07,871 ♪ When your heart's burning like a forest fire ♪ 896 00:34:07,915 --> 00:34:10,222 Meredith: So, life is pain, right? 897 00:34:10,265 --> 00:34:12,659 Life is pain, and somehow that's the point? 898 00:34:12,702 --> 00:34:14,661 No. No. 899 00:34:14,704 --> 00:34:17,272 I lost you both. 900 00:34:17,316 --> 00:34:18,926 I lost George. 901 00:34:18,969 --> 00:34:22,234 I lost my parents, and even before my parents died... 902 00:34:22,277 --> 00:34:24,323 They caused you a lot of pain. 903 00:34:24,366 --> 00:34:27,108 So much grief. So much loss. 904 00:34:27,152 --> 00:34:28,327 So much pain. 905 00:34:28,370 --> 00:34:29,937 Yes. 906 00:34:29,980 --> 00:34:32,331 Yeah, but what's the thing that caused the pain? 907 00:34:32,374 --> 00:34:35,073 ♪ Your thoughts are getting too deep ♪ 908 00:34:35,116 --> 00:34:36,944 I hate this. 909 00:34:36,987 --> 00:34:39,947 ♪ And when the summer nights are getting colder ♪Hate what? 910 00:34:39,990 --> 00:34:42,558 You knowing things that I don't. 911 00:34:42,602 --> 00:34:45,300 [ Breathes deeply ] What's the thing that caused the pain? 912 00:34:45,344 --> 00:34:47,911 I know it, I just don't want to say it. 913 00:34:47,955 --> 00:34:50,958 Stubborn as you ever were. 914 00:34:51,001 --> 00:34:55,136 The depth of grief that you felt with all the losses -- 915 00:34:55,180 --> 00:34:57,530 it's because of the depth of love. 916 00:34:57,573 --> 00:35:01,142 As long as you're alive, you get to feel it 917 00:35:01,186 --> 00:35:04,058 and you get to do something about it. 918 00:35:04,102 --> 00:35:07,017 Everything changes all the time when you're alive, 919 00:35:07,061 --> 00:35:09,803 and all the time, you fight the change. 920 00:35:09,846 --> 00:35:12,632 You cling onto what you have and what you know 921 00:35:12,675 --> 00:35:15,417 like that's how it should always be. 922 00:35:15,461 --> 00:35:16,940 It's such a waste of life. 923 00:35:16,984 --> 00:35:18,159 Right? 924 00:35:18,203 --> 00:35:19,552 What's a waste? 925 00:35:19,595 --> 00:35:20,727 Fighting change. 926 00:35:20,770 --> 00:35:22,381 Resisting pain. 927 00:35:22,424 --> 00:35:26,515 ♪ Oh, you gotta get up and just keep on going ♪ 928 00:35:26,559 --> 00:35:28,952 I miss you both so much. 929 00:35:28,996 --> 00:35:31,129 That's kind of a waste of time, too. 930 00:35:31,172 --> 00:35:32,130 Why? 931 00:35:32,173 --> 00:35:35,307 Because we never left you. 932 00:35:35,350 --> 00:35:37,961 Sometimes we're right next to you, yelling in your ear. 933 00:35:38,005 --> 00:35:39,354 [ Laughs ] 934 00:35:39,398 --> 00:35:40,964 Don't waste it, Meredith. 935 00:35:41,008 --> 00:35:42,357 Waste what? 936 00:35:42,401 --> 00:35:44,185 Don't waste one single minute. 937 00:35:44,229 --> 00:35:45,752 ♪ Run, run like a river 938 00:35:45,795 --> 00:35:48,972 ♪ Like a river that runs to the sea ♪ 939 00:35:49,016 --> 00:35:53,107 Meredith: The first minute in a baby's life is the most terrifying. 940 00:35:53,151 --> 00:35:56,458 In that minute, a million tiny air sacs 941 00:35:56,502 --> 00:35:58,765 have to perfectly open and fill with air. 942 00:35:58,808 --> 00:36:01,028 ♪ A river that runs to the sea 943 00:36:01,071 --> 00:36:03,509 ♪ You gotta run 944 00:36:03,552 --> 00:36:06,076 ♪ Run, run, like a river [ Richard laughs ] 945 00:36:06,120 --> 00:36:08,078 ♪ Run, run, like a river 946 00:36:08,122 --> 00:36:09,079 [ Laughter ] 947 00:36:09,123 --> 00:36:11,517 ♪ Run, run, like a river, run 948 00:36:11,560 --> 00:36:14,346 [ Laughter ] 949 00:36:14,389 --> 00:36:16,565 ♪ Run, run like a river 950 00:36:16,609 --> 00:36:19,829 ♪ Like a river that runs to the sea ♪ 951 00:36:19,873 --> 00:36:21,179 Woman: Whoo!♪ You gotta run to me 952 00:36:21,222 --> 00:36:22,223 [ Grunts ] 953 00:36:22,267 --> 00:36:24,182 [ Laughs ] Whoo! 954 00:36:24,225 --> 00:36:27,489 It's a pretty traumatizing way of entering the real world.Yes! 955 00:36:27,533 --> 00:36:31,885 ♪ Like a river that runs to the sea ♪ 956 00:36:31,928 --> 00:36:35,149 ♪ You gotta run to me 957 00:36:35,193 --> 00:36:37,891 [ Siren wailing ] 958 00:36:37,934 --> 00:36:40,067 This is the first day in I don't know how long...[ Sighs ] 959 00:36:40,110 --> 00:36:41,851 ...that I actually liked my job again. 960 00:36:41,895 --> 00:36:43,418 [ Both chuckle ] 961 00:36:43,462 --> 00:36:45,246 I felt inspired. 962 00:36:45,290 --> 00:36:47,422 You wereinspired. 963 00:36:47,466 --> 00:36:48,597 By you. 964 00:36:48,641 --> 00:36:50,425 Well, by my earbuds. 965 00:36:50,469 --> 00:36:53,254 No, by us. 966 00:36:54,299 --> 00:36:56,910 By these moments of -- of joy and connection 967 00:36:56,953 --> 00:36:59,304 that we've managed to carve out. 968 00:36:59,347 --> 00:37:01,654 [ Sighs ] 969 00:37:01,697 --> 00:37:06,180 I would not have had that idea without you, Winston. 970 00:37:06,224 --> 00:37:09,705 That life-saving idea, it came from us. 971 00:37:09,749 --> 00:37:12,186 [ Breathes sharply ] 972 00:37:12,230 --> 00:37:14,928 And I know that Boston needs you, 973 00:37:14,971 --> 00:37:16,625 and I know that I'm being selfish 974 00:37:16,669 --> 00:37:20,629 when I say how miserable I'm going to be if you go. 975 00:37:20,673 --> 00:37:22,631 What are you doing? 976 00:37:22,675 --> 00:37:23,893 Um... [ Clears throat ] 977 00:37:23,937 --> 00:37:26,200 I thought... 978 00:37:26,244 --> 00:37:29,421 we could listen to something before I leave. 979 00:37:29,464 --> 00:37:32,511 I'm trying to tell you I don't want you to leave. 980 00:37:32,554 --> 00:37:35,949 I know, but I-I think you might really like this song. 981 00:37:36,776 --> 00:37:39,082 [ TRVSTFALL's "Sing Louder" plays ] 982 00:37:39,126 --> 00:37:40,649 Oh, my God. Oh, my God. 983 00:37:40,693 --> 00:37:43,435 ♪ Take my voice [ Gasps ] Winston. 984 00:37:43,478 --> 00:37:45,741 I still have my loose ends to tie up back home. 985 00:37:45,785 --> 00:37:47,743 ♪ And make it louder [ Sighs ] 986 00:37:47,787 --> 00:37:51,573 So you have an out, if you want one. 987 00:37:51,617 --> 00:37:54,707 ♪ Make it wilder, set it free But I hope to God you don't. 988 00:37:54,750 --> 00:37:56,317 I hope you say yes... 989 00:37:56,361 --> 00:37:57,666 ♪ And take my words 990 00:37:57,710 --> 00:38:03,063 ...because I can't imagine life without you anymore. 991 00:38:03,106 --> 00:38:05,326 ♪ Give me something 992 00:38:05,370 --> 00:38:08,373 ♪ To believe in And I don't ever want to try. 993 00:38:08,416 --> 00:38:13,160 ♪ And if all I can do is sing Margaret Pierce... 994 00:38:14,509 --> 00:38:16,685 ♪ I'm gonna sing louder ...will you marry me? 995 00:38:16,729 --> 00:38:20,907 In that minute, your whole world stops. 996 00:38:20,950 --> 00:38:24,040 ♪ I'm gonna sing louder Is that a yes? [ Chuckles ] 997 00:38:24,084 --> 00:38:25,564 Yes. It's a yes. 998 00:38:25,607 --> 00:38:27,217 [ Cheers and applause ] 999 00:38:27,261 --> 00:38:28,784 [ Laughing ]♪ Let it out 1000 00:38:28,828 --> 00:38:34,790 ♪♪ 1001 00:38:34,834 --> 00:38:36,749 [ Cheers and applause continue ] 1002 00:38:36,792 --> 00:38:38,316 Whoo! 1003 00:38:38,359 --> 00:38:39,926 [ Laughing ] 1004 00:38:39,969 --> 00:38:42,320 It's as if time stands still. 1005 00:38:42,363 --> 00:38:44,365 ♪♪ 1006 00:38:44,409 --> 00:38:46,236 [ Both sigh ] 1007 00:38:46,280 --> 00:38:48,413 Well, today ended a lot better than it started. 1008 00:38:48,456 --> 00:38:49,675 [ Sighs ] 1009 00:38:49,718 --> 00:38:50,980 ♪ Oh, but it's not that easy 1010 00:38:51,024 --> 00:38:53,026 Your mom is so scary. 1011 00:38:53,069 --> 00:38:55,158 What? Why would you bring up my mom 1012 00:38:55,202 --> 00:38:56,551 while we're laying here naked? 1013 00:38:56,595 --> 00:38:58,771 What's wrong with you?[ Both laughing ] 1014 00:38:58,814 --> 00:39:01,034 Come here. [ Laughs ] 1015 00:39:01,077 --> 00:39:04,342 And if I'm being honest, that minute is pure hell. 1016 00:39:04,385 --> 00:39:06,169 Owen: Ahh! Look what I caught in the laundry room 1017 00:39:06,213 --> 00:39:07,388 when I was scrubbing down. 1018 00:39:07,432 --> 00:39:10,435 I caught myself a Leofish![ Leo laughing ] 1019 00:39:10,478 --> 00:39:13,960 ♪ That all I want is a little peace ♪ 1020 00:39:14,003 --> 00:39:15,353 Hey, Zola. 1021 00:39:15,396 --> 00:39:17,180 We, um... 1022 00:39:17,224 --> 00:39:19,357 We took your mom off the ventilator today, 1023 00:39:19,400 --> 00:39:22,185 and she's breathing on her own. 1024 00:39:22,229 --> 00:39:24,492 Yes! Thank God![ Chuckles ] 1025 00:39:24,536 --> 00:39:27,060 Bailey! Ellis! Scout! 1026 00:39:27,103 --> 00:39:28,061 Hope that was alright. 1027 00:39:28,104 --> 00:39:30,063 That's fine. This is amazing. 1028 00:39:30,106 --> 00:39:31,934 Oh, my God. Thank you! 1029 00:39:31,978 --> 00:39:34,154 But fortunately, most of the time, 1030 00:39:34,197 --> 00:39:36,504 the crying starts, the baby's okay... 1031 00:39:36,548 --> 00:39:38,332 Don't thank me. Thank -- 1032 00:39:38,376 --> 00:39:39,768 Thank Teddy. 1033 00:39:39,812 --> 00:39:41,379 She, uh -- She's the one who never gave up. 1034 00:39:41,422 --> 00:39:44,164 She stayed with her night after night. 1035 00:39:44,207 --> 00:39:48,690 I just -- I just did what the numbers told me. 1036 00:39:48,734 --> 00:39:50,300 ...and the rest of us in the room 1037 00:39:50,344 --> 00:39:51,693 can finally breathe again. 1038 00:39:51,737 --> 00:39:53,913 ♪ Oh, let it out 1039 00:39:53,956 --> 00:39:57,307 ♪♪ 1040 00:40:02,791 --> 00:40:05,490 --Captions by VITAC-- 1041 00:40:05,533 --> 00:40:13,846 ♪♪ 1042 00:40:13,889 --> 00:40:22,202 ♪♪ 1043 00:40:22,245 --> 00:40:30,384 ♪♪