1 00:00:03,612 --> 00:00:05,483 ♪♪ 2 00:00:05,527 --> 00:00:08,530 Meredith: During our ER rotation in med school, 3 00:00:08,573 --> 00:00:11,707 my roommate fell in love with emergency medicine.[ Sigh echoes ] 4 00:00:11,750 --> 00:00:13,100 Owen: [ Echoing ] Avery. 5 00:00:13,143 --> 00:00:14,536 Care to tell me why you've pulled 6 00:00:14,579 --> 00:00:16,407 all of my residents from the ER? 7 00:00:16,451 --> 00:00:19,236 Yeah, I just wanted to speed up our free COVID testing. 8 00:00:19,280 --> 00:00:21,891 But, I mean, hey, if you want, I guess we could -- 9 00:00:21,934 --> 00:00:23,980 we could start turning them away. [ Scoffs ] 10 00:00:24,024 --> 00:00:26,374 It's a great program. 11 00:00:26,417 --> 00:00:27,984 Forget I asked, okay? 12 00:00:28,028 --> 00:00:30,204 She loved being on the frontline. 13 00:00:30,247 --> 00:00:32,597 She felt that's where she had the most impact. 14 00:00:32,641 --> 00:00:34,208 But I knew, three days in, 15 00:00:34,251 --> 00:00:36,862 emergency medicine was not for me. 16 00:00:36,906 --> 00:00:39,300 Most treatments were meant to just tide patients over 17 00:00:39,343 --> 00:00:41,084 until they could see their own physician, 18 00:00:41,128 --> 00:00:42,738 a specialist, or a surgeon. 19 00:00:42,781 --> 00:00:44,087 Teddy: And how is her base deficit? 20 00:00:44,131 --> 00:00:45,654 Same as I told you five minutes ago. 21 00:00:45,697 --> 00:00:47,482 And her inflammatory markers? 22 00:00:47,525 --> 00:00:50,267 Altman, we would not be here without your tireless effort. 23 00:00:50,311 --> 00:00:52,356 But you still have two days off. 24 00:00:52,400 --> 00:00:53,792 Enjoy them, 25 00:00:53,836 --> 00:00:55,011 because you're gonna miss them when you're back. 26 00:00:55,055 --> 00:00:56,404 Okay. Thanks. Uh, one more thing -- 27 00:00:56,447 --> 00:00:57,970 Goodbye, Altman. 28 00:00:58,014 --> 00:00:59,189 [ Beeps ][ Pen clicks ] 29 00:00:59,233 --> 00:01:01,235 And I thought, "What's the point 30 00:01:01,278 --> 00:01:03,193 of starting something you won't get to finish?" 31 00:01:03,237 --> 00:01:04,847 Jo: ...closer, I saw it didn't have a ball in its mouth, 32 00:01:04,890 --> 00:01:06,805 it had an avocado. 33 00:01:06,849 --> 00:01:09,591 [ Chuckles ] No idea where he got it from. 34 00:01:09,634 --> 00:01:11,593 [ Sighs ] You're gonna love dogs. 35 00:01:11,636 --> 00:01:13,856 Oh, you're gonna love everythingabout the outside. Mm-hmm. 36 00:01:13,899 --> 00:01:17,120 The trees, grass, rainbows. 37 00:01:17,164 --> 00:01:18,339 Isn't that right, Luna? 38 00:01:18,382 --> 00:01:19,557 Wait, wait, wait! Wait, wait. 39 00:01:19,601 --> 00:01:20,950 Say her name again. Why? 40 00:01:20,993 --> 00:01:22,038 Because I think she understood it. 41 00:01:22,082 --> 00:01:23,300 Her face changed. 42 00:01:23,344 --> 00:01:24,606 Yeah, Luna... Luna. 43 00:01:24,649 --> 00:01:26,521 Luuuna... Luna! 44 00:01:26,564 --> 00:01:27,913 For what it's worth, she doesn't respond 45 00:01:27,957 --> 00:01:29,001 when Isay her name, either. 46 00:01:29,045 --> 00:01:31,265 Yes, she does. She's a genius. 47 00:01:31,308 --> 00:01:33,136 All right if I complete my rounds now? 48 00:01:33,180 --> 00:01:35,573 Or is she such a genius that she can look after herself? 49 00:01:35,617 --> 00:01:37,619 No. Go ahead. Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. 50 00:01:37,662 --> 00:01:39,447 Wilson, Chief, 51 00:01:39,490 --> 00:01:42,058 while I think these visits do Luna the world of good, 52 00:01:42,102 --> 00:01:44,582 I have about 15 other patients and their very worried parents 53 00:01:44,626 --> 00:01:46,541 waiting for me, so if you don't mind... 54 00:01:46,584 --> 00:01:48,108 Nyah nyah nyah nyah nyah. Mm-hmm. 55 00:01:48,151 --> 00:01:49,326 Thank you. 56 00:01:49,370 --> 00:01:50,980 ♪♪ 57 00:01:51,023 --> 00:01:53,852 ♪ Used to have a lover that was mine, all mine ♪ 58 00:01:53,896 --> 00:01:56,638 [ Children laughing, speaking indistinctly ] 59 00:01:56,681 --> 00:01:58,857 No. Go back where you came from. 60 00:01:58,901 --> 00:02:01,077 I already have all the clothes in the house. 61 00:02:01,121 --> 00:02:02,905 Ellis thought her laundry went under her bed, 62 00:02:02,948 --> 00:02:04,298 not in the hamper. 63 00:02:04,341 --> 00:02:07,127 [ Scout crying ] 64 00:02:07,170 --> 00:02:08,737 He just ate. 65 00:02:08,780 --> 00:02:10,173 Well, I ate a lot when I was a kid. 66 00:02:10,217 --> 00:02:11,305 Still do. 67 00:02:11,348 --> 00:02:12,915 [ Sighs ] Okay. 68 00:02:12,958 --> 00:02:14,134 Baby or laundry? 69 00:02:14,177 --> 00:02:15,265 Neither. 70 00:02:15,309 --> 00:02:16,614 I -- I just want everything to stop. 71 00:02:16,658 --> 00:02:18,573 The whole planet, it can just stop turning, 72 00:02:18,616 --> 00:02:19,965 and we can all just melt. 73 00:02:20,009 --> 00:02:21,184 Is it for us? 74 00:02:21,228 --> 00:02:22,229 Is it for us? 75 00:02:22,272 --> 00:02:23,621 Is it for us? 76 00:02:23,665 --> 00:02:24,840 Is what for us, buddy? 77 00:02:24,883 --> 00:02:27,190 The camping truck, the camping truck! 78 00:02:27,234 --> 00:02:28,191 [ Crying continues ] 79 00:02:28,235 --> 00:02:30,802 ♪ Over you 80 00:02:30,846 --> 00:02:32,804 ♪ Darling, over you 81 00:02:32,848 --> 00:02:34,502 ♪♪ 82 00:02:34,545 --> 00:02:36,417 Dad? 83 00:02:36,460 --> 00:02:37,809 [ Chuckling ] Hey, kiddos! 84 00:02:37,853 --> 00:02:39,420 [ Laughs ] 85 00:02:39,463 --> 00:02:41,465 Surprise! Huh? 86 00:02:41,509 --> 00:02:42,510 Amelia: Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa! 87 00:02:42,553 --> 00:02:44,207 COVID! And stranger. 88 00:02:44,251 --> 00:02:46,166 Aw, we've talked on the computer screen lots of times. 89 00:02:46,209 --> 00:02:48,124 We're old friends.Where are your masks?! 90 00:02:48,168 --> 00:02:50,779 Where's my grandson? That's what I want to know. 91 00:02:50,822 --> 00:02:53,782 Oh, don't worry, honey, we have been totally safe. 92 00:02:53,825 --> 00:02:55,349 Two-week quarantine from Colorado 93 00:02:55,392 --> 00:02:56,785 while we took in the scenery. 94 00:02:56,828 --> 00:02:59,309 Dad packed for everything. We didn't even have to shop. 95 00:02:59,353 --> 00:03:01,703 Haven't spoken face-to-face with another soul 96 00:03:01,746 --> 00:03:02,704 since we left. 97 00:03:02,747 --> 00:03:04,532 Mm. So romantic. 98 00:03:04,575 --> 00:03:06,186 [ Both laugh ] 99 00:03:06,229 --> 00:03:07,796 ♪♪ 100 00:03:07,839 --> 00:03:09,972 I guess I'll... [sighs] go get Scout? 101 00:03:10,015 --> 00:03:11,974 Okay.Alright, I'll do you one better. 102 00:03:12,017 --> 00:03:13,584 We thought we could take all the kids 103 00:03:13,628 --> 00:03:15,107 to check out Mt. Rainier. 104 00:03:15,151 --> 00:03:17,458 Fun! Can we go, please? 105 00:03:17,501 --> 00:03:19,242 Uh, I'm sorry. 106 00:03:19,286 --> 00:03:21,810 You're say-- you want to take everyone from here? 107 00:03:21,853 --> 00:03:23,986 Those first few months with a newborn -- 108 00:03:24,029 --> 00:03:26,206 impossible without help. 109 00:03:26,249 --> 00:03:28,208 Only if it's okay. 110 00:03:29,992 --> 00:03:31,298 Okay. 111 00:03:31,341 --> 00:03:33,300 Yes!Yay! Come on! 112 00:03:33,343 --> 00:03:35,302 Have I told you two how much I love you? 113 00:03:35,345 --> 00:03:36,955 Because I definitely love you. 114 00:03:36,999 --> 00:03:38,740 [ Laughs ] And we love you, too, hon. 115 00:03:38,783 --> 00:03:40,481 We couldn't have asked for a better daughter-in-law. 116 00:03:40,524 --> 00:03:41,743 [ Gasps ] 117 00:03:41,786 --> 00:03:44,006 She is the mother of my grandson, 118 00:03:44,049 --> 00:03:46,138 and even if you haven't gotten around to proposing, 119 00:03:46,182 --> 00:03:48,880 I am gonna call her what I want to call her. 120 00:03:48,924 --> 00:03:50,839 I don't get why they're not married, either. 121 00:03:50,882 --> 00:03:52,406 Okay.Time to hit the road.Zola. 122 00:03:52,449 --> 00:03:54,059 I'll go get Scout. 123 00:03:54,103 --> 00:03:57,454 Maureen: I can't wait to meet my grandson! 124 00:03:57,498 --> 00:03:59,500 [ Exhales deeply ] 125 00:03:59,543 --> 00:04:01,066 [ Siren wails in distance ] 126 00:04:01,110 --> 00:04:03,199 [ Indistinct conversations ] 127 00:04:03,243 --> 00:04:04,374 That's it? 128 00:04:04,418 --> 00:04:06,028 I can go again if you want. [ Chuckles ] 129 00:04:06,071 --> 00:04:08,509 You'll get a text in 30 minutes with the results. 130 00:04:08,552 --> 00:04:10,119 Thank you. All right. 131 00:04:10,162 --> 00:04:12,252 I've almost used all my kits. I'm so sorry. 132 00:04:12,295 --> 00:04:14,123 It's just that the -- the -- the turnout's so high. 133 00:04:14,166 --> 00:04:16,125 Relax, Schmitt. We have more in the van. 134 00:04:16,168 --> 00:04:17,735 If we run low, we can go over 135 00:04:17,779 --> 00:04:19,302 to the drive-through site at Station 19. 136 00:04:19,346 --> 00:04:20,521 They've got extras. 137 00:04:20,564 --> 00:04:22,523 Oh. [ Chuckles ] Wow. That's amazing. 138 00:04:22,566 --> 00:04:23,915 How did we get more kits? 139 00:04:23,959 --> 00:04:26,222 20 hours of virtual meetings with the Fox Foundation, 140 00:04:26,266 --> 00:04:27,876 convincing them it's the right thing to do -- that's how. 141 00:04:27,919 --> 00:04:30,270 You don't just ask your mom? [ Laughs ] 142 00:04:33,142 --> 00:04:34,448 Ready for you, sir. 143 00:04:34,491 --> 00:04:35,927 Thank you.Why don't you go ahead and have a seat? 144 00:04:35,971 --> 00:04:37,233 How you doing? Good. 145 00:04:37,277 --> 00:04:39,279 One of our cashiers tested positive at the store. 146 00:04:39,322 --> 00:04:41,324 I feel fine, but, you know, I figured I should make sure. 147 00:04:41,368 --> 00:04:43,021 Good. Smart. Okay. 148 00:04:43,065 --> 00:04:45,459 Can you take your mask down a little bit for me? 149 00:04:46,373 --> 00:04:47,504 [ Breathes sharply ] 150 00:04:47,548 --> 00:04:49,854 All right, one more. 151 00:04:49,898 --> 00:04:51,421 Great. All set. Yeah. 152 00:04:51,465 --> 00:04:52,640 How many days till I know? 153 00:04:52,683 --> 00:04:53,771 Uh, well, it's a rapid test, 154 00:04:53,815 --> 00:04:55,251 so about 30 minutes for your results. 155 00:04:55,295 --> 00:04:56,731 Oh, wow. I won't be late for my shift, then. 156 00:04:56,774 --> 00:04:57,732 Thank you so much. 157 00:04:57,775 --> 00:04:59,647 You're very welcome. Thank you. 158 00:04:59,690 --> 00:05:00,996 [ Siren wailing in distance ] 159 00:05:03,215 --> 00:05:05,957 I wouldn't be the surgeon I am without you, Meredith. 160 00:05:06,001 --> 00:05:09,570 You taught me to push myself, to innovate, 161 00:05:09,613 --> 00:05:12,921 to see what's possible, and to trust my instinct. 162 00:05:12,964 --> 00:05:16,751 And right now, that's telling me to change to OB. 163 00:05:18,143 --> 00:05:19,710 Go with God? 164 00:05:19,754 --> 00:05:21,190 [ Sighs ] Meredith wouldn't say that. 165 00:05:21,233 --> 00:05:23,714 I have literally never known what Dr. Grey is gonna say. 166 00:05:23,758 --> 00:05:25,325 Ooh! Why don't you be me and I be her? 167 00:05:25,368 --> 00:05:26,935 Oh, how about you be you andher 168 00:05:26,978 --> 00:05:28,066 so that I can get back to the testing tent? 169 00:05:28,110 --> 00:05:29,807 She's my mentor! 170 00:05:29,851 --> 00:05:31,679 I don't want to disappoint her or Bailey or Dr. Webber.[ Sighs ] 171 00:05:31,722 --> 00:05:32,767 This is stressful.[ Cellphone chimes ] 172 00:05:32,810 --> 00:05:34,159 Well, so is pissing off Dr. Avery. 173 00:05:34,203 --> 00:05:35,160 Oh, crap -- trauma. 174 00:05:35,204 --> 00:05:36,945 I gotta go. 175 00:05:36,988 --> 00:05:39,208 I had to go first! 176 00:05:39,251 --> 00:05:41,384 Woman over P.A.: Dr. Goldberg to the ICU. Dr. Goldberg to the ICU. 177 00:05:41,428 --> 00:05:42,516 Arthur Beaton, 14 months -- 178 00:05:42,559 --> 00:05:43,952 Hold up, Khan. 179 00:05:43,995 --> 00:05:45,954 Chris, did you want to wait for Hollie? 180 00:05:45,997 --> 00:05:48,130 Or I can set you up with a video-chat on a tablet? 181 00:05:48,173 --> 00:05:50,132 No. Thank you. 182 00:05:50,175 --> 00:05:52,874 It's...not a good time. 183 00:05:52,917 --> 00:05:54,441 She has work, so... 184 00:05:54,484 --> 00:05:55,616 go ahead. 185 00:05:55,659 --> 00:05:57,835 Arthur Beaton, 14 months, 186 00:05:57,879 --> 00:05:59,489 diagnosed with multiple VSDs, 187 00:05:59,533 --> 00:06:01,143 cardiomyopathy, and heart failure. 188 00:06:01,186 --> 00:06:03,319 He's currently on day 12 of ECMO, 189 00:06:03,363 --> 00:06:05,713 waiting for a transplant, status 1A. 190 00:06:05,756 --> 00:06:07,932 We thought this would only be for a few days. 191 00:06:07,976 --> 00:06:10,674 Do a lot of kids with his condition stay on it this long? 192 00:06:10,718 --> 00:06:12,415 It's unusual. 193 00:06:12,459 --> 00:06:14,417 It means he's strong. 194 00:06:14,461 --> 00:06:16,550 He's already held his own through several procedures. 195 00:06:16,593 --> 00:06:18,116 None of which have fixed the holes in his heart. 196 00:06:18,160 --> 00:06:19,901 ♪♪ 197 00:06:19,944 --> 00:06:23,078 We're hoping he can hang on a little bit longer, 198 00:06:23,121 --> 00:06:26,124 until a donor heart comes through. 199 00:06:26,168 --> 00:06:28,039 I'll be back to you in a couple of hours, okay? 200 00:06:28,083 --> 00:06:31,782 [ Siren wails ] 201 00:06:33,131 --> 00:06:34,437 Chief. Welcome back. 202 00:06:34,481 --> 00:06:36,134 Mm. 203 00:06:36,178 --> 00:06:37,962 So, uh, this is the car that got stuck in a truck? 204 00:06:38,006 --> 00:06:39,573 Yep, ran right up the loading ramp. 205 00:06:39,616 --> 00:06:40,965 They had to cut openthe side of the van.Mm. 206 00:06:41,009 --> 00:06:42,576 Newlyweds, I heard. 207 00:06:44,012 --> 00:06:45,405 Hell of a honeymoon. 208 00:06:45,448 --> 00:06:46,623 Huh.[ Brakes squeal ] 209 00:06:47,581 --> 00:06:49,191 Shayne Riley, 45. 210 00:06:49,234 --> 00:06:51,149 Unstable pelvis and lower abdominal pains 211 00:06:51,193 --> 00:06:53,238 after sustaining crush injuries in an MVC. 212 00:06:53,282 --> 00:06:55,545 Initially unresponsive, but now alert and oriented 213 00:06:55,589 --> 00:06:57,199 after saline boluses. 214 00:06:57,242 --> 00:06:58,809 Shayne, you are in good hands now, 215 00:06:58,853 --> 00:06:59,941 and I'm not just saying that 216 00:06:59,984 --> 00:07:01,725 because Dr. Bailey here is my wife. 217 00:07:01,769 --> 00:07:04,467 But you are looking really good, Chief. 218 00:07:04,511 --> 00:07:07,035 All right, this is Karissa Skolaski, 42. 219 00:07:07,078 --> 00:07:08,819 Vital signs stable, A and O times three. 220 00:07:08,863 --> 00:07:10,995 Minor lacerations to the face, arms, and legs. 221 00:07:11,039 --> 00:07:11,996 Patient complains of headache. 222 00:07:12,040 --> 00:07:13,737 Let's take her to trauma one. 223 00:07:13,781 --> 00:07:15,522 Shayne?! W-Where's my husband?! 224 00:07:15,565 --> 00:07:17,654 He's right over there, ma'am. He's being taken care of. 225 00:07:17,698 --> 00:07:19,482 Oh, Shayne, I'm sorry, babe! 226 00:07:19,526 --> 00:07:20,788 I didn't mean it! 227 00:07:20,831 --> 00:07:21,919 Wait, can he hear me? 228 00:07:21,963 --> 00:07:23,530 Uh, he's heavily sedated, ma'am. 229 00:07:23,573 --> 00:07:25,880 I can hear her just fine. I'm just not talking to her. 230 00:07:25,923 --> 00:07:27,534 Ever again.[ Groans lightly ] 231 00:07:30,537 --> 00:07:32,277 Improving ground glass opacities, 232 00:07:32,321 --> 00:07:34,671 no pleural effusion or pneumothorax, 233 00:07:34,715 --> 00:07:37,413 and no signs of stroke on head CT. 234 00:07:37,457 --> 00:07:39,023 This is great news. 235 00:07:41,504 --> 00:07:43,245 It's not great news? 236 00:07:43,288 --> 00:07:45,465 Great news doesn't matter 237 00:07:45,508 --> 00:07:47,858 if she's too weak to stay awake. 238 00:08:01,437 --> 00:08:04,005 Karissa, you can't get up. We're waiting on neuro to see you. 239 00:08:04,048 --> 00:08:05,006 Okay? Just squeeze.I'm fine, I'm fine. 240 00:08:05,049 --> 00:08:05,963 But my boyfriend -- husband -- 241 00:08:06,007 --> 00:08:06,660 uh, he -- he hates needles. 242 00:08:06,703 --> 00:08:08,052 He really hates needles. 243 00:08:08,096 --> 00:08:09,227 He's being worked on by excellent doctors. 244 00:08:09,271 --> 00:08:10,359 Can you follow my finger? 245 00:08:10,402 --> 00:08:11,534 But can't you put us in the same room? 246 00:08:11,578 --> 00:08:12,666 I really need to talk to him. 247 00:08:12,709 --> 00:08:13,971 When we were in the accident, 248 00:08:14,015 --> 00:08:15,843 I kinda said a thing, and I feel terrible. 249 00:08:15,886 --> 00:08:17,801 Well, you're in luck. They pay me to help people who feel terrible. 250 00:08:17,845 --> 00:08:19,194 Any loss of consciousness? Dizziness? 251 00:08:19,237 --> 00:08:20,195 I don't think so. 252 00:08:20,238 --> 00:08:22,023 So, what? You cheated on him? 253 00:08:22,066 --> 00:08:24,025 You stole all his money? You ran over grandma? 254 00:08:24,068 --> 00:08:25,809 Okay, CT's calling for her. Do you want to come? 255 00:08:25,853 --> 00:08:27,158 Please and thank you. Squeeze my hands, please. 256 00:08:27,202 --> 00:08:29,552 I told the paramedics to save me first. 257 00:08:29,596 --> 00:08:31,162 Over him, my husband. 258 00:08:31,206 --> 00:08:33,687 Yikes. Well, maybe you can blame that on a brain bleed. 259 00:08:33,730 --> 00:08:35,602 Can you please tell him I'm okay? 260 00:08:35,645 --> 00:08:37,821 Yeah. Let's go. 261 00:08:37,865 --> 00:08:39,562 Shayne: You know what else she said? 262 00:08:39,606 --> 00:08:42,652 That except for her, no one would miss me if I died. 263 00:08:42,696 --> 00:08:45,481 She thinks I'm a loner and no one cares about me. 264 00:08:45,525 --> 00:08:47,265 A lot of people panic on their wedding day. 265 00:08:47,309 --> 00:08:48,615 I know I did. 266 00:08:48,658 --> 00:08:50,094 Dr. Hunt knows that -- 267 00:08:51,966 --> 00:08:52,923 Does this hurt? 268 00:08:52,967 --> 00:08:54,446 Ow! Yeah. 269 00:08:54,490 --> 00:08:57,101 Don't people normally panic beforesaying "I do"? 270 00:08:57,145 --> 00:08:58,929 We'd already been married four hours. 271 00:08:58,973 --> 00:09:01,192 I'm not sure, but your scan does show 272 00:09:01,236 --> 00:09:02,759 that you have an open-book pelvic fracture. 273 00:09:02,803 --> 00:09:04,369 We're gonna have to do a CT to make sure 274 00:09:04,413 --> 00:09:05,980 there's no other abdominal injuries, 275 00:09:06,023 --> 00:09:07,677 but you willneeda surgery, okay?[ Sighs ] 276 00:09:07,721 --> 00:09:09,853 Shayne, we're takingKarissa to CT, 277 00:09:09,897 --> 00:09:11,942 but she is stableand she's feeling okay. 278 00:09:11,986 --> 00:09:14,249 Let me guess -- she asked to go first. 279 00:09:14,292 --> 00:09:16,251 No, she's very worriedabout you. 280 00:09:16,294 --> 00:09:18,035 Good. Don't tell her how I am. 281 00:09:18,079 --> 00:09:19,297 She doesn't get to know anything. 282 00:09:19,341 --> 00:09:20,385 Owen: Let's go. 283 00:09:22,039 --> 00:09:24,172 I'm just gonna not tell her anything? 284 00:09:24,215 --> 00:09:25,390 She's terrified. 285 00:09:25,434 --> 00:09:26,435 You know the rules. 286 00:09:28,916 --> 00:09:31,309 [ Scoffs ] 287 00:09:31,353 --> 00:09:33,050 It's not just me, right? 288 00:09:33,094 --> 00:09:34,530 This is weird. 289 00:09:34,574 --> 00:09:36,358 Amelia: Super weird. 290 00:09:36,401 --> 00:09:39,579 It's like we won the lottery of silence. 291 00:09:39,622 --> 00:09:41,232 Where do we even start? 292 00:09:42,756 --> 00:09:44,322 By getting naked? 293 00:09:44,366 --> 00:09:45,933 Okay. 294 00:09:45,976 --> 00:09:47,717 Loving that. 295 00:09:50,590 --> 00:09:52,069 Whoa, Amelia. 296 00:09:52,113 --> 00:09:53,636 I don't think you're grasping 297 00:09:53,680 --> 00:09:55,507 the extentof our freedom here. 298 00:09:55,551 --> 00:09:57,335 There are no baby monitors. 299 00:09:57,379 --> 00:09:58,685 There are nohomework assignments, 300 00:09:58,728 --> 00:10:00,338 no one's -- no one's hungry. 301 00:10:00,382 --> 00:10:01,731 I'm a little hungry. 302 00:10:01,775 --> 00:10:03,820 Then let's have sex in the kitchen. 303 00:10:03,864 --> 00:10:06,214 We can do whatever we want. 304 00:10:06,257 --> 00:10:07,432 You realize that? 305 00:10:07,476 --> 00:10:08,999 We can -- We can be loud. 306 00:10:09,043 --> 00:10:11,480 Oh, do you rememberbeing able to be loud? 307 00:10:12,394 --> 00:10:14,048 [ Crying softly ] 308 00:10:14,091 --> 00:10:15,266 What's wrong? 309 00:10:15,310 --> 00:10:18,052 [ Crying, sniffling ] 310 00:10:18,095 --> 00:10:22,665 ♪♪ 311 00:10:22,709 --> 00:10:24,449 Okay. [ Sighs ] 312 00:10:24,493 --> 00:10:27,278 All right. Amelia... 313 00:10:27,322 --> 00:10:28,453 look at me. 314 00:10:29,716 --> 00:10:31,500 Oh, my, God. No, no! 315 00:10:31,543 --> 00:10:34,111 No? Get up, get up! 316 00:10:34,155 --> 00:10:36,679 I-I-I thought you were cryingbecause my mom and Zola -- 317 00:10:36,723 --> 00:10:37,680 No, I'm not! 318 00:10:37,724 --> 00:10:39,029 I'm -- I'm not, just... 319 00:10:39,073 --> 00:10:42,076 I just really need to be crying right now! 320 00:10:42,119 --> 00:10:44,165 [ Crying ] 321 00:10:44,208 --> 00:10:47,211 ♪♪ 322 00:10:47,255 --> 00:10:48,256 Okay. 323 00:10:48,299 --> 00:10:49,953 [ Crying ] 324 00:10:49,997 --> 00:10:51,128 [ Siren wailing ] 325 00:10:51,172 --> 00:10:52,652 [ Sighs ] 326 00:10:54,392 --> 00:10:55,567 Marcel tested positive. 327 00:10:55,611 --> 00:10:57,134 He needs to be home, isolating. 328 00:10:57,178 --> 00:10:59,049 I told him that, but apparently,he lives with his family -- 329 00:10:59,093 --> 00:11:01,138 six people ina two-bedroom apartment, 330 00:11:01,182 --> 00:11:02,749 including his grandpa. 331 00:11:02,792 --> 00:11:04,533 He doesn't want to get them sick. 332 00:11:04,576 --> 00:11:05,926 Can't we just admit him? 333 00:11:05,969 --> 00:11:06,840 Get him some care and a place -- 334 00:11:06,883 --> 00:11:08,015 This is not a hotel, Schmitt. 335 00:11:08,058 --> 00:11:10,800 He can't afford to stay anywhere else. 336 00:11:13,020 --> 00:11:14,804 Okay. Book him a hotel room. 337 00:11:16,806 --> 00:11:19,200 On you? Are you sure? 338 00:11:19,243 --> 00:11:21,245 It's a matter of public health, okay? 339 00:11:21,289 --> 00:11:23,770 Anybody needs a room... just book them a hotel. 340 00:11:23,813 --> 00:11:25,989 No questions.[ Breathes sharply ] 341 00:11:26,033 --> 00:11:27,599 We got you a hotel. 342 00:11:27,643 --> 00:11:35,390 ♪♪ 343 00:11:35,433 --> 00:11:37,261 Woman over P.A.: Dr. Feldman to the Step Down Unit. 344 00:11:37,305 --> 00:11:40,177 Dr. Feldman to the Step Down Unit. 345 00:11:40,221 --> 00:11:41,570 Chris? 346 00:11:41,613 --> 00:11:43,137 [ Sighs ] I had to get out of there for a minute. 347 00:11:43,180 --> 00:11:44,573 I understand. 348 00:11:44,616 --> 00:11:46,140 You want to get outside, get some fresh air? 349 00:11:46,183 --> 00:11:47,576 Or there's a chapel. 350 00:11:47,619 --> 00:11:49,447 So I can pray for someone else's kid to die? 351 00:11:54,888 --> 00:11:57,064 I lied earlier. 352 00:11:57,107 --> 00:11:59,501 Hollie wasn't on a work call. 353 00:11:59,544 --> 00:12:01,982 She hasn't signed on to work in weeks. 354 00:12:02,025 --> 00:12:04,767 I don't know if it's postpartum depression 355 00:12:04,811 --> 00:12:08,162 or Arthur or the world... 356 00:12:08,205 --> 00:12:09,946 Listen, it's -- 357 00:12:09,990 --> 00:12:12,166 it's been a terrible ordealfor the pair of you. 358 00:12:12,209 --> 00:12:14,516 She's so depressed, she can't get out of bed. 359 00:12:14,559 --> 00:12:16,692 When COVID hit, 360 00:12:16,736 --> 00:12:21,044 seeing people lose whole families in a week... 361 00:12:21,088 --> 00:12:22,698 we knew we had to be careful 362 00:12:22,742 --> 00:12:25,048 'cause of Arthur's heart condition. 363 00:12:25,092 --> 00:12:26,876 And we were. 364 00:12:26,920 --> 00:12:29,270 And in the end, it didn't matter. 365 00:12:29,313 --> 00:12:31,359 I'm still losing them. 366 00:12:31,402 --> 00:12:34,057 The only thing keeping me goingright now 367 00:12:34,101 --> 00:12:37,452 is the hope for a miracle. 368 00:12:37,495 --> 00:12:39,715 Arthur gets a heart, 369 00:12:39,759 --> 00:12:41,673 Hollie comes back to life... 370 00:12:41,717 --> 00:12:43,763 and we a family again. 371 00:12:43,806 --> 00:12:45,982 And I know we can't have our miracle 372 00:12:46,026 --> 00:12:48,028 unless someone else loses theirs. 373 00:12:48,071 --> 00:12:49,986 Lives what I'm living right now. 374 00:12:50,030 --> 00:12:51,118 Gets shattered. 375 00:12:51,161 --> 00:12:53,163 ♪♪ 376 00:12:53,207 --> 00:12:54,730 And I pray for it anyway. 377 00:12:55,775 --> 00:12:58,342 'Cause Arthur... [ Sniffling ] 378 00:12:58,386 --> 00:13:00,605 He's your son. 379 00:13:00,649 --> 00:13:01,781 I can't lose him, Dr. Hayes. 380 00:13:03,521 --> 00:13:06,046 We can't lose him. 381 00:13:06,089 --> 00:13:07,264 Please. 382 00:13:07,308 --> 00:13:08,875 [ Crying ] 383 00:13:08,918 --> 00:13:12,530 ♪♪ 384 00:13:18,232 --> 00:13:19,320 How's she looking? 385 00:13:19,363 --> 00:13:20,495 Squirmy. 386 00:13:20,538 --> 00:13:22,453 Karissa --Did I hear Dr. Wilson? 387 00:13:22,497 --> 00:13:23,672 Is Shayne okay? 388 00:13:23,715 --> 00:13:25,239 Uh -- [ Clears throat ] 389 00:13:25,282 --> 00:13:29,025 Sorry, Karissa. Um, patient confidentiality. 390 00:13:29,069 --> 00:13:30,635 [ Chuckling ] Confidentiality? 391 00:13:30,679 --> 00:13:32,637 From his wife? 392 00:13:32,681 --> 00:13:34,422 Wait. 393 00:13:34,465 --> 00:13:36,206 Did he ask you not to tell me? 394 00:13:36,250 --> 00:13:38,600 That is also confidential. 395 00:13:38,643 --> 00:13:40,384 He's still mad. 396 00:13:40,428 --> 00:13:43,823 My sisters said we were crazy for moving so quickly. 397 00:13:43,866 --> 00:13:46,390 They said three months is not enough time to get to know 398 00:13:46,434 --> 00:13:48,784 someone you're gonna spend the rest of your life with. 399 00:13:48,828 --> 00:13:50,525 Well, neither issix years.[ Beeping ] 400 00:13:50,568 --> 00:13:52,135 Scans are up. 401 00:13:52,179 --> 00:13:55,312 Karissa, you have a very small contusion on your brain. 402 00:13:55,356 --> 00:13:57,924 It's benign with a very minor bleed, 403 00:13:57,967 --> 00:13:59,795 so minor I don't think we can blame it for anything. 404 00:13:59,839 --> 00:14:01,492 Sorry. 405 00:14:01,536 --> 00:14:03,668 But we do have to keep you overnight for observation. 406 00:14:03,712 --> 00:14:05,496 I was wrong. 407 00:14:05,540 --> 00:14:07,672 I was wrong that no one would miss him. 408 00:14:07,716 --> 00:14:09,718 [ Crying ] 409 00:14:09,761 --> 00:14:11,894 Because it's only been a few hours, 410 00:14:11,938 --> 00:14:14,854 and I miss him so much I could burst. 411 00:14:14,897 --> 00:14:16,899 [ Crying ] 412 00:14:16,943 --> 00:14:19,728 ♪♪ 413 00:14:19,771 --> 00:14:21,208 [ Indistinct conversations ] 414 00:14:21,251 --> 00:14:22,296 [ Telephone rings in distance ] 415 00:14:22,339 --> 00:14:23,775 Hi. 416 00:14:23,819 --> 00:14:25,125 Got your page. What's up? 417 00:14:25,168 --> 00:14:26,996 Can you think of a salvage procedure we can do 418 00:14:27,040 --> 00:14:28,955 on a 14-month-old with multiple VSDs? 419 00:14:28,998 --> 00:14:30,391 Another one? 420 00:14:30,434 --> 00:14:32,175 We just did one two weeks ago. 421 00:14:32,219 --> 00:14:34,395 It's the same boy. Arthur Beaton. 422 00:14:34,438 --> 00:14:36,397 The one we put on ECMO? 423 00:14:36,440 --> 00:14:37,789 He's hanging on. 424 00:14:37,833 --> 00:14:39,835 What about a double pump EXCOR? 425 00:14:39,879 --> 00:14:41,054 You know, an artificial heart 426 00:14:41,097 --> 00:14:42,185 that can take over for the ventricles -- 427 00:14:42,229 --> 00:14:44,840 No, I know what it is. Uh... 428 00:14:44,884 --> 00:14:47,147 Arthur's chest cavity is too small. 429 00:14:47,190 --> 00:14:49,540 The cannulas would push up against his vital organs. 430 00:14:49,584 --> 00:14:50,933 We'd have to leave him open 431 00:14:50,977 --> 00:14:53,370 andleave him on a vent. 432 00:14:53,414 --> 00:14:55,764 He's been on ECMO for 12 days. 433 00:14:55,807 --> 00:14:57,548 I don't think he has the strength 434 00:14:57,592 --> 00:14:58,941 to withstand a transplant, 435 00:14:58,985 --> 00:15:00,812 and that's even if we could find a donor. 436 00:15:00,856 --> 00:15:03,032 So, then, what do you suggest? 437 00:15:03,076 --> 00:15:05,730 I think you should have a very difficult conversation 438 00:15:05,774 --> 00:15:07,776 with his parents. It's time. 439 00:15:07,819 --> 00:15:09,952 Aren't you supposed to be some sort of genius or something? 440 00:15:09,996 --> 00:15:11,780 Youngest cardio chief in the country? 441 00:15:11,823 --> 00:15:13,956 More innovative and published than any of her peers? 442 00:15:14,000 --> 00:15:16,437 So what? You're just gonna give up? 443 00:15:16,480 --> 00:15:19,266 We have been at this for months. 444 00:15:19,309 --> 00:15:21,442 We have done everything we canfor that boy. [ Sighs ] 445 00:15:21,485 --> 00:15:23,444 At this point, we're just prolonging his pain, 446 00:15:23,487 --> 00:15:25,228 and his family's. 447 00:15:25,272 --> 00:15:26,838 It's not giving up. 448 00:15:26,882 --> 00:15:28,623 It's letting them go on. 449 00:15:28,666 --> 00:15:31,974 ♪♪ 450 00:15:32,018 --> 00:15:35,586 [ Tea kettle whistling ] 451 00:15:35,630 --> 00:15:37,632 [ Dog barking in distance ] 452 00:15:39,503 --> 00:15:40,722 [ Water pours ] 453 00:15:40,765 --> 00:15:41,853 [ Tea kettle thumps lightly ] 454 00:15:43,507 --> 00:15:45,901 [ Breathes deeply, clears throat ] 455 00:15:45,945 --> 00:15:48,817 I think it just hit me that it's been months 456 00:15:48,860 --> 00:15:50,384 since I've been able to feel whatever I want 457 00:15:50,427 --> 00:15:54,170 without worrying that I will permanently scar a child. 458 00:15:54,214 --> 00:15:55,998 I mean, the constant pressure 459 00:15:56,042 --> 00:15:58,609 of not ruining a life is exhausting. 460 00:16:00,481 --> 00:16:02,265 Are you mad 461 00:16:02,309 --> 00:16:03,875 that I shouted no and made you get up? 462 00:16:03,919 --> 00:16:06,487 [ Chuckles ] No, I'm not mad at you. 463 00:16:06,530 --> 00:16:08,489 I'm mad at my mom for bringing it up. 464 00:16:08,532 --> 00:16:11,187 Are you...wanting to get married? 465 00:16:11,231 --> 00:16:13,320 After you shouted no and made me get up? 466 00:16:13,363 --> 00:16:15,148 No, not so much. 467 00:16:15,191 --> 00:16:18,412 I meant, "No, you're misreading the moment," 468 00:16:18,455 --> 00:16:21,371 not, "No, I don't want to marry you." 469 00:16:21,415 --> 00:16:23,025 So you do want to marry me? 470 00:16:23,069 --> 00:16:24,809 I wasn't saying I want to marry you, or -- 471 00:16:24,853 --> 00:16:26,072 or I don't want to marry you. 472 00:16:26,115 --> 00:16:29,292 I, um...haven't thought about it. 473 00:16:29,336 --> 00:16:30,902 I haven't had time. Yeah. 474 00:16:30,946 --> 00:16:32,513 I haven't had time either, 475 00:16:32,556 --> 00:16:34,689 but I've still thought about it. 476 00:16:34,732 --> 00:16:37,083 What have you thought? 477 00:16:37,126 --> 00:16:39,737 [ Exhales deeply ] 478 00:16:39,781 --> 00:16:42,523 I love you, and I love Scout, 479 00:16:42,566 --> 00:16:45,091 and I love us together, and... 480 00:16:45,134 --> 00:16:48,964 you know, marriage is, uh, I guess 481 00:16:49,008 --> 00:16:51,184 kinda how society locks it all in -- 482 00:16:51,227 --> 00:16:52,707 Eh, but it doesn't lock it in. 483 00:16:52,750 --> 00:16:53,925 It doesn't lock it in! Mnh. 484 00:16:53,969 --> 00:16:55,231 And your parents' divorce was hell. 485 00:16:55,275 --> 00:16:56,841 It was hell! 486 00:16:56,885 --> 00:16:58,408 And I-I swore that I'd never put a kid through that. 487 00:16:58,452 --> 00:16:59,409 Mm-hmm. 488 00:16:59,453 --> 00:17:01,890 So... 489 00:17:01,933 --> 00:17:04,762 I know that your mom has big ideas, 490 00:17:04,806 --> 00:17:09,071 and Zola has big wedding-dress dreams, 491 00:17:09,115 --> 00:17:11,378 but, um... 492 00:17:11,421 --> 00:17:13,641 have you really changed your mind? 493 00:17:15,817 --> 00:17:16,992 [ Sighs ] 494 00:17:17,036 --> 00:17:19,125 I was a terrible wife. 495 00:17:19,168 --> 00:17:21,127 You had a brain tumor. I did. 496 00:17:21,170 --> 00:17:22,563 But I'm not sure that 497 00:17:22,606 --> 00:17:24,304 the sexy brain tumor can take all the credit. 498 00:17:24,347 --> 00:17:27,698 I still think I'm wired for self-destruction. 499 00:17:28,525 --> 00:17:30,049 Why do you think that? 500 00:17:30,092 --> 00:17:31,485 [ Breathes sharply ] 501 00:17:31,528 --> 00:17:34,314 Because, every day, 502 00:17:34,357 --> 00:17:35,924 for a lot of days now, 503 00:17:35,967 --> 00:17:39,536 I go to sleep thinking about getting high, 504 00:17:39,580 --> 00:17:43,497 and I wake up thinking about getting high, 505 00:17:43,540 --> 00:17:46,848 and sometimes, in the middle of feeding Scout, 506 00:17:46,891 --> 00:17:49,068 I zone out... 507 00:17:49,111 --> 00:17:51,157 and think about getting high. 508 00:17:51,200 --> 00:18:00,557 ♪♪ 509 00:18:00,601 --> 00:18:03,865 ...and he won't let me tell his wife anything. 510 00:18:03,908 --> 00:18:06,824 It's their wedding day, and he's already over her, 511 00:18:06,868 --> 00:18:10,611 which is just -- it's just sad and messy and... 512 00:18:10,654 --> 00:18:14,397 And it's not that I am sick of adults. 513 00:18:14,441 --> 00:18:17,226 Okay, I'm a little -- I'm a little sick of adults. 514 00:18:17,270 --> 00:18:19,794 Adults are always here on the worst day of their lives, 515 00:18:19,837 --> 00:18:23,189 and I am so sick of worst days. 516 00:18:23,232 --> 00:18:27,149 And people being terrified of me because I'm cutting them open. 517 00:18:27,193 --> 00:18:30,718 But with moms, they want you here, 518 00:18:30,761 --> 00:18:32,502 even though it's scary sometimes, 519 00:18:32,546 --> 00:18:35,157 because you being there 520 00:18:35,201 --> 00:18:37,333 means that they're getting to meet their baby, 521 00:18:37,377 --> 00:18:38,726 their dream, 522 00:18:38,769 --> 00:18:41,381 and they can't do it without my help. 523 00:18:43,992 --> 00:18:46,342 And since, uh... [ Clears throat ] 524 00:18:46,386 --> 00:18:48,953 Since Alex left, um... 525 00:18:48,997 --> 00:18:52,740 my house hasn't been my happiest place. 526 00:18:52,783 --> 00:18:55,438 So... 527 00:18:55,482 --> 00:18:57,919 I want work to be. 528 00:18:57,962 --> 00:18:59,877 And I think that you get that. 529 00:18:59,921 --> 00:19:01,792 And I am so grateful to you, 530 00:19:01,836 --> 00:19:07,755 because you believed in me before I believed in myself. 531 00:19:07,798 --> 00:19:10,149 And I will tell you all of this again 532 00:19:10,192 --> 00:19:11,802 when you're awake. 533 00:19:11,846 --> 00:19:13,935 [ Monitor beeping ] 534 00:19:13,978 --> 00:19:18,331 Please, please be awake soon. 535 00:19:18,374 --> 00:19:21,769 Please be well soon. 536 00:19:21,812 --> 00:19:24,728 We can't take any more worst days around here. 537 00:19:24,772 --> 00:19:29,342 ♪♪ 538 00:19:29,385 --> 00:19:30,952 I've booked 18 hotel rooms. 539 00:19:30,995 --> 00:19:32,823 The manager wondered if you'd rather book a whole floor. 540 00:19:32,867 --> 00:19:34,390 Well, we got a lot of positives. 541 00:19:34,434 --> 00:19:36,175 Tell him we'll take all the rooms we can get.Thank you. 542 00:19:36,218 --> 00:19:38,002 I think I've memorized your credit-card number. 543 00:19:38,046 --> 00:19:40,135 When did hotel stays become part of the plan? 544 00:19:40,179 --> 00:19:41,919 Well, people need more than a test, 545 00:19:41,963 --> 00:19:43,878 and quarantining isn't easy for everybody. 546 00:19:43,921 --> 00:19:45,575 [ Scoffs ] And you realized that today? 547 00:19:45,619 --> 00:19:47,577 Excuse me?You know he's your boss, right? 548 00:19:47,621 --> 00:19:48,926 I'm sorry.And, technically, so am I. 549 00:19:48,970 --> 00:19:50,232 I'm sorry. Schmitt, give us a minute. 550 00:19:50,276 --> 00:19:52,060 Well, don't fire her.Schmitt! 551 00:19:52,103 --> 00:19:54,193 [ Siren wailing in distance ] 552 00:19:54,236 --> 00:19:56,020 [ Sighs ] Come here, please. 553 00:19:56,064 --> 00:19:57,805 I assume that wasn't your real question. 554 00:19:57,848 --> 00:19:59,981 So would you like to tell me what is going on? 555 00:20:00,024 --> 00:20:02,375 You're booking up hotel rooms. 556 00:20:02,418 --> 00:20:04,377 So is Seattle Partners. 557 00:20:04,420 --> 00:20:05,987 Okay. I've heard of them. 558 00:20:06,030 --> 00:20:08,119 A group of, uh, community organizations, right? 559 00:20:08,163 --> 00:20:11,122 Longstanding community organizations 560 00:20:11,166 --> 00:20:14,300 that have been providing housing and wrap-around services 561 00:20:14,343 --> 00:20:16,737 for people who test positive for COVID 562 00:20:16,780 --> 00:20:18,304 in low-income neighborhoods. 563 00:20:18,347 --> 00:20:20,523 Okay. So, the more the better, so what's the -- 564 00:20:20,567 --> 00:20:23,309 Yeah, maybe in theory, but they can't book their hotel rooms 565 00:20:23,352 --> 00:20:24,962 at their discounted rates 566 00:20:25,006 --> 00:20:27,530 because a local doctor is booking them at full price! 567 00:20:27,574 --> 00:20:29,315 And hotels are kicking people out 568 00:20:29,358 --> 00:20:31,882 to make room for your new arrivals. 569 00:20:31,926 --> 00:20:33,710 I got it. 570 00:20:33,754 --> 00:20:35,451 I apologize. I didn't -- I didn't know that. 571 00:20:35,495 --> 00:20:37,148 [ Sighs ] Great. 572 00:20:37,192 --> 00:20:39,281 We'll just tell everyone it wasn't on purpose. 573 00:20:39,325 --> 00:20:41,457 That should keep them real warm tonight. 574 00:20:41,501 --> 00:20:46,506 ♪♪ 575 00:20:54,427 --> 00:20:56,385 [ Chuckles ] 576 00:20:56,429 --> 00:20:58,866 Oh, I fell asleep? 577 00:20:58,909 --> 00:21:00,389 I think it's a defense mechanism. 578 00:21:00,433 --> 00:21:02,217 [ Sighs ] Noticed you do that. 579 00:21:02,261 --> 00:21:03,610 Do what? 580 00:21:03,653 --> 00:21:06,787 Fall asleep when you are emotionally overwhelmed. 581 00:21:06,830 --> 00:21:09,224 Some people cry. Some people talk. 582 00:21:09,268 --> 00:21:10,573 Some people yell. 583 00:21:10,617 --> 00:21:13,010 You...fall asleep. 584 00:21:13,054 --> 00:21:15,317 All right, well, I'm not avoiding my feelings, 585 00:21:15,361 --> 00:21:16,710 if that's what you're implying. 586 00:21:16,753 --> 00:21:19,321 I just -- I-I process them better 587 00:21:19,365 --> 00:21:21,410 while I'm unconscious. Mm. 588 00:21:21,454 --> 00:21:22,672 [ Breathes sharply ] 589 00:21:22,716 --> 00:21:25,719 Okay. Let's figure this out. 590 00:21:25,762 --> 00:21:28,330 There's not much to figure out. 591 00:21:28,374 --> 00:21:29,897 I'm an addict. 592 00:21:29,940 --> 00:21:31,725 You're an addict in recovery. 593 00:21:31,768 --> 00:21:33,727 So, what? You need to hit up a meeting? 594 00:21:33,770 --> 00:21:36,164 I've talked about it in meetings. 595 00:21:36,207 --> 00:21:37,774 A lot of us have. 596 00:21:37,818 --> 00:21:40,908 This pandemic feels like Satan has designed 597 00:21:40,951 --> 00:21:42,344 the perfect set of circumstances 598 00:21:42,388 --> 00:21:44,955 to make sobriety seem impossible. 599 00:21:44,999 --> 00:21:47,958 Isolation, fear, futility, 600 00:21:48,002 --> 00:21:49,351 anger, hopelessness. 601 00:21:49,395 --> 00:21:51,092 [ Chuckling ] I mean, name a trigger, 602 00:21:51,135 --> 00:21:53,964 it is stronger. 603 00:21:54,008 --> 00:21:55,531 For the record, I don't believe in Satan. 604 00:21:55,575 --> 00:21:57,141 I'm just saying it feels like that. 605 00:21:57,185 --> 00:22:00,144 Also, what's weird is I'm not even craving pills. 606 00:22:00,188 --> 00:22:01,407 I'm just -- 607 00:22:01,450 --> 00:22:03,017 I just want to, like, drive to a dispensary 608 00:22:03,060 --> 00:22:04,584 and buy some weed and smoke it. 609 00:22:04,627 --> 00:22:06,020 Well, is that allowed? 610 00:22:06,063 --> 00:22:07,456 To, um -- To smoke weed 611 00:22:07,500 --> 00:22:09,458 if that wasn't the thing that you were addicted to? 612 00:22:09,502 --> 00:22:12,592 Well, there's no such thing as "allowed" in my program. 613 00:22:12,635 --> 00:22:14,376 There are just suggestions. 614 00:22:14,420 --> 00:22:18,772 And, no, it is not suggested. 615 00:22:18,815 --> 00:22:21,209 Why not? Because... 616 00:22:21,252 --> 00:22:23,820 if I smoked weed, 617 00:22:23,864 --> 00:22:27,650 it is very likely that I would forget to not do heroin. 618 00:22:29,609 --> 00:22:31,654 Well... 619 00:22:31,698 --> 00:22:34,918 for the record... 620 00:22:34,962 --> 00:22:37,617 I would marry you in a hot minute. 621 00:22:37,660 --> 00:22:39,096 Why? 622 00:22:39,140 --> 00:22:41,272 Because most drug addicts who crave drugs 623 00:22:41,316 --> 00:22:43,231 just do drugs. 624 00:22:43,274 --> 00:22:45,886 But you don't. 625 00:22:45,929 --> 00:22:48,671 That makes you stronger than most people. 626 00:22:48,715 --> 00:22:50,891 And cooler. [ Sniffles ] 627 00:22:50,934 --> 00:22:55,069 And the opposite of self-destructive. 628 00:22:55,112 --> 00:22:56,462 So... 629 00:22:56,505 --> 00:22:58,333 [ Clears throat ] 630 00:22:58,377 --> 00:23:00,248 All right, Amelia... 631 00:23:00,291 --> 00:23:01,728 ♪♪ 632 00:23:01,771 --> 00:23:02,729 Oh, my God. No, no. 633 00:23:02,772 --> 00:23:03,730 Oh, my God! Get up! 634 00:23:03,773 --> 00:23:06,167 Got it. 635 00:23:06,210 --> 00:23:09,083 Like, not ever or not today? 636 00:23:09,126 --> 00:23:10,432 Just... [ Chuckling ] 637 00:23:10,476 --> 00:23:12,303 not when I'm confessing my darkest secrets 638 00:23:12,347 --> 00:23:14,305 and I have snot rolling down my face. 639 00:23:14,349 --> 00:23:16,264 [ Sniffles ] 640 00:23:16,307 --> 00:23:18,440 Okay. 641 00:23:18,484 --> 00:23:19,963 Is Luna okay? 642 00:23:20,007 --> 00:23:21,356 Yeah, she's fine. 643 00:23:21,400 --> 00:23:24,054 I just needed to see a friendly face. [ Sighs ] 644 00:23:24,098 --> 00:23:25,882 I'm about to ask a father 645 00:23:25,926 --> 00:23:28,058 about taking his baby off life support. 646 00:23:28,102 --> 00:23:30,278 Oh, my God. 647 00:23:30,321 --> 00:23:31,453 She's the best. 648 00:23:31,497 --> 00:23:32,846 Doesn't judge. 649 00:23:32,889 --> 00:23:34,674 Isn't selfish. 650 00:23:34,717 --> 00:23:37,633 Isn't bitter or resentful about the cards she's been dealt. 651 00:23:37,677 --> 00:23:40,462 Oh, I hope she doesn't. 652 00:23:40,506 --> 00:23:43,683 Become bitter or resentful. 653 00:23:43,726 --> 00:23:47,469 I mean, I wouldn't blame her if she did. 654 00:23:47,513 --> 00:23:49,863 I spent a lot of my life being angry 655 00:23:49,906 --> 00:23:52,256 about the way that I came into the world. 656 00:23:52,300 --> 00:23:54,258 Took me a long time to realize 657 00:23:54,302 --> 00:23:56,086 that that anger didn't serve me. 658 00:23:56,130 --> 00:23:59,438 And the more I let it go, the better off I'd be. 659 00:23:59,481 --> 00:24:02,353 Letting it go was like... 660 00:24:02,397 --> 00:24:05,487 breaking off the crusty black pieces of my heart. 661 00:24:05,531 --> 00:24:08,838 It hurt at first, but with time, it just -- 662 00:24:08,882 --> 00:24:10,013 Oh, wow. Wilson... 663 00:24:10,057 --> 00:24:11,275 What? 664 00:24:11,319 --> 00:24:12,625 Thank you! 665 00:24:12,668 --> 00:24:14,061 [ Chuckles ] 666 00:24:14,104 --> 00:24:15,671 ♪♪ 667 00:24:15,715 --> 00:24:17,543 [ Monitor beeping ] 668 00:24:17,586 --> 00:24:20,110 The Cooper ligament is completely destroyed. 669 00:24:20,154 --> 00:24:22,678 Yeah, I think Stoppa technique'sour best bet. Agreed. 670 00:24:22,722 --> 00:24:24,506 Uh, pick-ups? 671 00:24:24,550 --> 00:24:26,247 What a wedding day. 672 00:24:26,290 --> 00:24:28,641 Started with his bride calling him a loser. 673 00:24:28,684 --> 00:24:31,339 [ Laughing ] Can't imagine much worse. 674 00:24:31,382 --> 00:24:32,906 Not...that I... 675 00:24:35,212 --> 00:24:36,736 How are the kids?[ Suction gurgling ] 676 00:24:36,779 --> 00:24:38,128 [ Sighs ] If you ask me, he's lucky. 677 00:24:38,172 --> 00:24:39,521 How so? 678 00:24:39,565 --> 00:24:40,696 Well, he found out the truth on day one 679 00:24:40,740 --> 00:24:42,524 instead of 20 years from now. 680 00:24:42,568 --> 00:24:44,918 No house, no kids. Lucky. 681 00:24:44,961 --> 00:24:46,354 Mayo scissors, please. 682 00:24:46,397 --> 00:24:48,138 And how is Altman? 683 00:24:48,182 --> 00:24:49,531 She'll be back in a couple days. 684 00:24:49,575 --> 00:24:51,141 That's not why I'm asking. 685 00:24:51,185 --> 00:24:53,361 Respectfully, Chief, 686 00:24:53,404 --> 00:24:55,798 the OR has heard enough about my personal life, okay? 687 00:24:55,842 --> 00:24:57,191 Mesh. 688 00:24:57,234 --> 00:24:58,453 Thank you. 689 00:24:58,497 --> 00:25:00,237 Maggie: Hayes, you paged again? 690 00:25:00,281 --> 00:25:01,717 You said there's not enough space 691 00:25:01,761 --> 00:25:03,545 for a total artificial heart. 692 00:25:05,155 --> 00:25:08,898 You paged me 911 after I told you it was impossible? 693 00:25:08,942 --> 00:25:11,074 His chest cavity is too small. I know. 694 00:25:11,118 --> 00:25:14,077 Too small because his heart's taking up space. 695 00:25:14,121 --> 00:25:15,688 But what if we made space? 696 00:25:15,731 --> 00:25:17,472 Sure, let's just take out his heart. 697 00:25:17,516 --> 00:25:19,518 Don't be ridiculous. 698 00:25:19,561 --> 00:25:21,302 We'll leave some of it behind. 699 00:25:21,345 --> 00:25:26,742 ♪♪ 700 00:25:32,008 --> 00:25:34,010 You want to cut out part of his heart? 701 00:25:34,054 --> 00:25:35,446 The lower part, the ventricles, 702 00:25:35,490 --> 00:25:37,013 which are not functioning properly. 703 00:25:37,057 --> 00:25:38,232 So the answer is yes -- 704 00:25:38,275 --> 00:25:40,582 you want to cut out part of his heart. 705 00:25:40,626 --> 00:25:42,845 To create space for a total artificial heart pump 706 00:25:42,889 --> 00:25:44,412 to act in place of what we removed. 707 00:25:44,455 --> 00:25:46,066 [ Monitor beeping ] 708 00:25:46,109 --> 00:25:48,024 Have you done this before? 709 00:25:48,068 --> 00:25:50,636 'Cause it sounds like you haven't done it before. 710 00:25:50,679 --> 00:25:53,029 We have used the device on older children. 711 00:25:53,073 --> 00:25:54,465 But in those cases, 712 00:25:54,509 --> 00:25:56,642 we did not have to remove both ventricles. 713 00:25:56,685 --> 00:25:59,688 So you could do this and it doesn't...work? 714 00:26:01,124 --> 00:26:02,604 Why would you even suggest -- 715 00:26:02,648 --> 00:26:04,650 'Cause Arthur's chances of survival are exactly the same 716 00:26:04,693 --> 00:26:06,739 as if we did absolutely nothing. 717 00:26:06,782 --> 00:26:08,871 I know this sounds insane. 718 00:26:08,915 --> 00:26:10,264 But we are running out of options, 719 00:26:10,307 --> 00:26:12,658 and Arthur is almost out of time. 720 00:26:12,701 --> 00:26:14,660 You asked me to save your son, yes? 721 00:26:14,703 --> 00:26:17,010 I am telling you, this is his best chance. 722 00:26:18,054 --> 00:26:20,535 [ Sighing ] I need to call Hollie. 723 00:26:20,579 --> 00:26:24,104 She'll want to see him before... 724 00:26:24,147 --> 00:26:25,671 Just in case. 725 00:26:25,714 --> 00:26:27,063 Of course. 726 00:26:27,107 --> 00:26:35,768 ♪♪ 727 00:26:37,160 --> 00:26:38,945 Your surgery went better than we could have hoped. 728 00:26:38,988 --> 00:26:40,207 Yep. 729 00:26:40,250 --> 00:26:41,425 You may have a couple months' rehab, 730 00:26:41,469 --> 00:26:43,602 but everything looks good. 731 00:26:43,645 --> 00:26:45,865 Months of rehab, alone in an apartment 732 00:26:45,908 --> 00:26:48,302 during a pandemic. [ Sighs ] 733 00:26:48,345 --> 00:26:49,869 Oh, so that's it? 734 00:26:49,912 --> 00:26:52,480 [ Chuckles ] It's been, what, 12 hours, 735 00:26:52,523 --> 00:26:53,873 and you're jumping ship? 736 00:26:53,916 --> 00:26:55,309 Bailey, maybe we should just let them -- 737 00:26:55,352 --> 00:26:58,660 Shayne, my parents were together for over 60 years. 738 00:26:58,704 --> 00:27:00,531 Look, after my mom passed, 739 00:27:00,575 --> 00:27:03,056 my dad and I were going through their old photos, 740 00:27:03,099 --> 00:27:05,493 l-looking for something that we could post 741 00:27:05,536 --> 00:27:07,495 with her obituary. 742 00:27:07,538 --> 00:27:09,932 60 years... 743 00:27:09,976 --> 00:27:13,719 is a lot of hairstyles and fashion trends. 744 00:27:13,762 --> 00:27:16,678 And finally, my dad told me that I should just pick, 745 00:27:16,722 --> 00:27:19,202 because when he looked at them, 746 00:27:19,246 --> 00:27:22,815 all he saw was the woman he fell in love with. 747 00:27:22,858 --> 00:27:26,079 She was still the same caring, nurturing, 748 00:27:26,122 --> 00:27:29,648 kind-hearted person she was the day they met. 749 00:27:29,691 --> 00:27:32,302 Look, people are who they are. 750 00:27:32,346 --> 00:27:35,131 Karissa said some things 751 00:27:35,175 --> 00:27:39,701 while you were trapped in a car and she was terrified. 752 00:27:39,745 --> 00:27:42,530 My guess is... 753 00:27:42,573 --> 00:27:45,751 she's still the same person she was when you met. 754 00:27:45,794 --> 00:27:49,406 You might want to give her a chance to prove that 755 00:27:49,450 --> 00:27:51,670 before you just throw it all away. 756 00:27:54,237 --> 00:27:56,109 Is there any way I can see her? 757 00:27:58,415 --> 00:28:00,243 I'll get you a tablet. 758 00:28:00,287 --> 00:28:05,640 ♪♪ 759 00:28:05,684 --> 00:28:06,989 I just got off with Kelly Bernard, 760 00:28:07,033 --> 00:28:08,512 who runs Seattle Partners. 761 00:28:08,556 --> 00:28:11,037 No one is losing their bed, nobody's losing a room. 762 00:28:11,080 --> 00:28:12,821 She's gonna point me in the direction of hotels 763 00:28:12,865 --> 00:28:15,041 so I can sponsor patient rooms 764 00:28:15,084 --> 00:28:16,825 without getting in anybody's way. 765 00:28:16,869 --> 00:28:18,653 [ Siren wails in distance ] 766 00:28:20,873 --> 00:28:22,701 Oh, come on. 767 00:28:22,744 --> 00:28:24,877 Do you have a problem with all your attendings or just me? 768 00:28:24,920 --> 00:28:25,834 'Cause I'm trying to make this right. 769 00:28:25,878 --> 00:28:27,183 I know you are. 770 00:28:27,227 --> 00:28:30,143 It's just, this whole situation pisses me off. 771 00:28:30,186 --> 00:28:31,753 And, what, that's my fault? No. 772 00:28:31,797 --> 00:28:33,755 No. It's the whole system. 773 00:28:33,799 --> 00:28:36,584 It's not designed to help the people that actually need it. 774 00:28:36,627 --> 00:28:38,151 Especially when they look like us. 775 00:28:38,194 --> 00:28:40,762 Right. That's why I'm trying to help. 776 00:28:40,806 --> 00:28:44,157 When I was a social worker, I saw a lot of temporary fixes 777 00:28:44,200 --> 00:28:45,985 that came from a good place. 778 00:28:46,028 --> 00:28:48,770 But they never get to the root of the problems. 779 00:28:48,814 --> 00:28:50,946 Hotel rooms are great for quarantine. 780 00:28:50,990 --> 00:28:52,774 But then people have to go back 781 00:28:52,818 --> 00:28:56,125 to risky jobs and overcrowded homes. 782 00:28:56,169 --> 00:28:58,127 I know you're trying to help. 783 00:28:58,171 --> 00:28:59,433 [ Voice breaking ] It's just that all this 784 00:28:59,476 --> 00:29:02,610 is just -- is -- is too much. 785 00:29:02,653 --> 00:29:05,439 And I'm just really over it, you know? 786 00:29:05,482 --> 00:29:08,442 [ Trash can lid thumps lightly ]Just over it. 787 00:29:08,485 --> 00:29:12,054 ♪♪ 788 00:29:12,098 --> 00:29:14,143 [ Thunder rumbles ] 789 00:29:14,187 --> 00:29:18,365 ♪ In my younger days, I was a fighter ♪ 790 00:29:18,408 --> 00:29:20,367 [ Sniffling ] I want to teach you to swim. 791 00:29:20,410 --> 00:29:22,586 ♪ In my younger days, I felt the fire ♪ 792 00:29:22,630 --> 00:29:24,327 I want to take you to hockey games. 793 00:29:24,371 --> 00:29:25,938 [ Monitor beeping ] 794 00:29:25,981 --> 00:29:28,375 ♪ Things didn't go my way 795 00:29:28,418 --> 00:29:30,377 ♪ I'd strike a match, turn my back ♪[ Crying ] 796 00:29:30,420 --> 00:29:32,727 But if we don't... 797 00:29:32,771 --> 00:29:35,556 get to do those things... 798 00:29:35,599 --> 00:29:38,733 I want you to know how much I love you. 799 00:29:38,777 --> 00:29:41,170 How much your mom and I love you. 800 00:29:41,214 --> 00:29:43,782 ♪ In my younger days, I'd love 'em and leave 'em ♪ 801 00:29:43,825 --> 00:29:47,568 You've already given us a lifetime of joy. 802 00:29:47,611 --> 00:29:51,137 I'm so sorry, Chris, but we really need to go. 803 00:29:51,180 --> 00:29:54,488 ♪ I'd trade my freedom for a steady hand now ♪ 804 00:29:54,531 --> 00:29:56,795 ♪♪ 805 00:29:56,838 --> 00:30:00,015 ♪ But I wouldn't trade the lessons I learned ♪ 806 00:30:00,059 --> 00:30:01,800 [ Crying ] 807 00:30:01,843 --> 00:30:05,325 ♪ No, I wouldn't change a thing ♪ 808 00:30:05,368 --> 00:30:07,153 ♪♪ 809 00:30:07,196 --> 00:30:08,937 ♪ About my younger days 810 00:30:08,981 --> 00:30:10,765 What would our wedding even look like? 811 00:30:10,809 --> 00:30:13,159 Mm, rooftop, French Quarter, New Orleans, 812 00:30:13,202 --> 00:30:14,638 April or early May. 813 00:30:14,682 --> 00:30:15,944 ♪ Looking back, I'm glad to see ♪ 814 00:30:15,988 --> 00:30:17,163 For someone who doesn't want to get married, 815 00:30:17,206 --> 00:30:18,904 you answered that really fast. 816 00:30:18,947 --> 00:30:21,341 It's a magical place. 817 00:30:21,384 --> 00:30:23,125 Just don't go in June. 818 00:30:23,169 --> 00:30:24,997 It's hot and smells bad by then. 819 00:30:25,040 --> 00:30:26,825 Mmmm. Magic. 820 00:30:26,868 --> 00:30:27,869 [ Chuckles ] 821 00:30:27,913 --> 00:30:29,697 It'd be fun. 822 00:30:29,740 --> 00:30:31,699 The kids would love it. 823 00:30:31,742 --> 00:30:34,093 And, Link, I love you so much, 824 00:30:34,136 --> 00:30:37,531 sometimes I feel like I'm gonna have a panic attack. 825 00:30:37,574 --> 00:30:42,710 So marriage seems so obvious. 826 00:30:42,753 --> 00:30:44,320 But... 827 00:30:44,364 --> 00:30:46,496 But you're not sure. 828 00:30:46,540 --> 00:30:48,324 And you're not sure. 829 00:30:48,368 --> 00:30:50,892 ♪ Taking life as it comes ain't working out too bad ♪ 830 00:30:50,936 --> 00:30:54,200 I need you to not get high. I mean it. 831 00:30:54,243 --> 00:30:58,073 I need you to do whatever you need to do to stay sober. 832 00:30:58,117 --> 00:30:59,988 Because I'm not -- I'm not Owen. 833 00:31:00,032 --> 00:31:01,033 I'm not equipped for... 834 00:31:01,076 --> 00:31:02,904 Drama? 835 00:31:02,948 --> 00:31:05,951 I'll just end up sleeping my life away. 836 00:31:05,994 --> 00:31:08,170 Okay. [ Crunches ] 837 00:31:08,214 --> 00:31:10,216 I won't get high, 838 00:31:10,259 --> 00:31:12,522 and you don't propose to me in a semi-compulsory manner. 839 00:31:12,566 --> 00:31:13,959 For how long? 840 00:31:14,002 --> 00:31:15,525 [ Inhales deeply ] A day at a time. 841 00:31:15,569 --> 00:31:17,484 [ Laughs ] 842 00:31:17,527 --> 00:31:20,226 About all I can manage. 843 00:31:20,269 --> 00:31:21,880 Okay, deal. 844 00:31:24,926 --> 00:31:26,406 What's that face? 845 00:31:26,449 --> 00:31:29,583 Well, that's the one that says... 846 00:31:29,626 --> 00:31:31,324 this house is still empty. 847 00:31:31,367 --> 00:31:33,326 And, um... 848 00:31:33,369 --> 00:31:37,721 you look incredible by this fire. 849 00:31:37,765 --> 00:31:39,680 And I'm pretty sure 850 00:31:39,723 --> 00:31:41,900 these clothes still come off. 851 00:31:41,943 --> 00:31:45,512 ♪♪ 852 00:31:45,555 --> 00:31:47,470 ♪ No, I wouldn't change a thing ♪[ Vehicle approaching ] 853 00:31:47,514 --> 00:31:49,255 Oh, my God. 854 00:31:49,298 --> 00:31:51,170 [ Sighs ] Get up.[ Gearshift clicks ] 855 00:31:51,213 --> 00:31:52,823 Get up. 856 00:31:52,867 --> 00:31:55,914 ♪ About my younger days 857 00:31:55,957 --> 00:31:57,872 ♪♪ 858 00:31:57,916 --> 00:32:00,483 ♪ Looking back, I'm glad to see ♪ 859 00:32:00,527 --> 00:32:03,530 Hey, sleepyhead. 860 00:32:03,573 --> 00:32:06,533 ♪ I didn't get my way 861 00:32:06,576 --> 00:32:09,536 ♪ In my younger days Mmph. 862 00:32:09,579 --> 00:32:12,278 I'm sorry. [ Coughs ] 863 00:32:12,321 --> 00:32:14,323 For what? 864 00:32:14,367 --> 00:32:17,761 You had to put me on a vent. 865 00:32:17,805 --> 00:32:19,894 You had to make that call. 866 00:32:19,938 --> 00:32:22,679 I'd do it again if I had to. 867 00:32:22,723 --> 00:32:24,246 But I hope I don't. 868 00:32:24,290 --> 00:32:26,292 [ Both chuckle ] 869 00:32:26,335 --> 00:32:28,424 I'm glad I chose you. 870 00:32:28,468 --> 00:32:30,818 ♪ The person I became 871 00:32:30,861 --> 00:32:34,213 ♪♪ 872 00:32:34,256 --> 00:32:36,215 ♪ In my younger days 873 00:32:36,258 --> 00:32:38,217 We need to talk about Wilson. 874 00:32:38,260 --> 00:32:40,741 ♪♪ 875 00:32:47,443 --> 00:32:49,880 [ Peter Groenwald's "We Carry On" plays ] 876 00:32:49,924 --> 00:32:57,149 ♪♪ 877 00:32:57,192 --> 00:33:04,547 ♪♪ 878 00:33:04,591 --> 00:33:08,769 ♪ We are raindrops in a river 879 00:33:11,206 --> 00:33:15,645 ♪ One day, we'll all be memories ♪ 880 00:33:17,996 --> 00:33:21,738 ♪ To be lost is to be looking 881 00:33:21,782 --> 00:33:27,788 ♪♪ 882 00:33:27,831 --> 00:33:31,835 ♪ The heart, it is a lighthouse ♪ 883 00:33:34,838 --> 00:33:39,756 ♪ Our minds are rocks along the shore ♪ 884 00:33:42,194 --> 00:33:46,111 ♪ I will not follow my mind anymore ♪ 885 00:33:46,154 --> 00:33:48,287 Maggie: That's it. 886 00:33:48,330 --> 00:33:50,767 It's in. 887 00:33:50,811 --> 00:33:53,118 All that's left is to take him off bypass. 888 00:33:53,161 --> 00:33:54,945 And pray that he maintains his blood pressure 889 00:33:54,989 --> 00:33:56,121 with this new pump. 890 00:33:56,164 --> 00:34:00,603 ♪ You're a giant who walks among us ♪ 891 00:34:00,647 --> 00:34:02,388 [ Flatline ] 892 00:34:02,431 --> 00:34:05,391 ♪ You have carried me this far 893 00:34:05,434 --> 00:34:06,740 Nothing's happening. 894 00:34:06,783 --> 00:34:07,871 Give him another second. 895 00:34:09,351 --> 00:34:11,745 ♪ Teach me to step over mountains ♪ 896 00:34:11,788 --> 00:34:14,400 Come on, Arthur. Come on, come on, come on. 897 00:34:15,836 --> 00:34:17,490 ♪ Love is deeper than the scars ♪[ Monitor beeping ] 898 00:34:17,533 --> 00:34:18,708 It's working. 899 00:34:18,752 --> 00:34:20,493 Ah! We did it! 900 00:34:20,536 --> 00:34:22,234 [ Laughs ] We did it! 901 00:34:22,277 --> 00:34:23,235 [ Applause ] 902 00:34:23,278 --> 00:34:24,366 Whoo! 903 00:34:24,410 --> 00:34:25,759 [ Cheers and applause ] 904 00:34:25,802 --> 00:34:26,977 ♪♪ 905 00:34:27,021 --> 00:34:28,240 [ Cheers and applause continue ] 906 00:34:28,283 --> 00:34:30,024 We did it. 907 00:34:30,068 --> 00:34:31,460 [ Cheers and applause continue ] 908 00:34:31,504 --> 00:34:33,984 ♪ Carry on 909 00:34:34,028 --> 00:34:36,944 ♪ On, on, on Whoo-hoo! Whoo! 910 00:34:36,987 --> 00:34:41,514 ♪ No, you're never gone 911 00:34:41,557 --> 00:34:43,951 ♪ Never gone 912 00:34:43,994 --> 00:34:45,605 ♪♪ 913 00:34:46,780 --> 00:34:49,304 [ Knock on door ] 914 00:34:49,348 --> 00:34:50,958 You paged? 915 00:34:51,001 --> 00:34:52,394 Have a seat. 916 00:34:55,571 --> 00:34:57,138 [ Door closes ] 917 00:34:57,182 --> 00:35:00,794 Um, look, Dr. Avery, I'm really sorry about earlier. 918 00:35:00,837 --> 00:35:05,407 I -- I just have a huge problem keeping my opinions to myself, 919 00:35:05,451 --> 00:35:09,585 especially when it comes to underserved communities, so... 920 00:35:09,629 --> 00:35:12,110 Well, sounds like that makes two of us. 921 00:35:12,153 --> 00:35:14,851 I want to help people... 922 00:35:14,895 --> 00:35:17,115 especially those who've been ignored 923 00:35:17,158 --> 00:35:19,073 and shut out of the system for far too long. 924 00:35:19,117 --> 00:35:22,076 It sounds like you have some ideas from your last career. 925 00:35:22,120 --> 00:35:25,253 I'd like to hear them. All of them. 926 00:35:25,297 --> 00:35:26,472 Really? 927 00:35:26,515 --> 00:35:28,474 You have a deep understanding. 928 00:35:28,517 --> 00:35:31,868 I have deep pockets and a desire to help. 929 00:35:31,912 --> 00:35:33,696 So, Dr. Ortiz, 930 00:35:33,740 --> 00:35:35,698 if you had the power to effect real change... 931 00:35:35,742 --> 00:35:38,658 ♪♪ 932 00:35:38,701 --> 00:35:40,181 ...where would you start? 933 00:35:40,225 --> 00:35:42,227 ♪♪ 934 00:35:42,270 --> 00:35:43,924 Okay. 935 00:35:43,967 --> 00:35:47,232 Well, access to affordable healthy food 936 00:35:47,275 --> 00:35:49,973 is a huge problem in low-income neighborhoods. 937 00:35:50,017 --> 00:35:51,584 Okay. 938 00:35:51,627 --> 00:35:53,412 The car was closing in. 939 00:35:53,455 --> 00:35:55,414 I had no idea what I was saying. 940 00:35:55,457 --> 00:35:56,937 I just -- I, uh -- 941 00:35:56,980 --> 00:35:58,417 I was so worried about you the whole way here 942 00:35:58,460 --> 00:36:00,070 and then once we got here. 943 00:36:00,114 --> 00:36:01,855 Do you know what that was like for me? 944 00:36:01,898 --> 00:36:03,335 I'm sure it was, um -- 945 00:36:03,378 --> 00:36:05,206 They wouldn't even tell me if you were dead or alive. 946 00:36:05,250 --> 00:36:06,642 Please, promise me 947 00:36:06,686 --> 00:36:07,948 you will never put me through that again. 948 00:36:07,991 --> 00:36:09,732 I won't. [ Sighs] 949 00:36:09,776 --> 00:36:12,561 Thank God, because that was hell. 950 00:36:12,605 --> 00:36:14,781 I want an annulment. 951 00:36:14,824 --> 00:36:17,131 I'm sorry. What's happening? What? 952 00:36:17,175 --> 00:36:18,437 You were right. 953 00:36:18,480 --> 00:36:20,134 I-I didn't say anything about an annulment. 954 00:36:20,178 --> 00:36:21,744 Karissa: Shayne, what the hell? 955 00:36:21,788 --> 00:36:23,920 You said people don't change, and you were right. 956 00:36:23,964 --> 00:36:25,313 She hasn't changed. 957 00:36:25,357 --> 00:36:27,968 Today wasn't any different than any other day. 958 00:36:28,011 --> 00:36:30,884 I just found her self-absorption charming on every other day, 959 00:36:30,927 --> 00:36:32,668 like I was drunk on her sense of humor. 960 00:36:32,712 --> 00:36:34,104 'Cause she's funny, too. 961 00:36:34,148 --> 00:36:35,497 And I was lonely. 962 00:36:35,541 --> 00:36:37,717 And then I was laughing, and I wasn't lonely, 963 00:36:37,760 --> 00:36:39,675 and so I thought I could overlook, basically, 964 00:36:39,719 --> 00:36:41,286 the rest of her personality. 965 00:36:41,329 --> 00:36:43,462 Okay, then maybe we should do this later. The -- 966 00:36:43,505 --> 00:36:45,072 No, I want to do it now, 967 00:36:45,115 --> 00:36:46,813 and then I want to be done with it. 968 00:36:46,856 --> 00:36:48,380 You're selfish, Karissa. 969 00:36:48,423 --> 00:36:50,033 And you were the same person today 970 00:36:50,077 --> 00:36:52,384 that you were the day we met, the same person who ate 971 00:36:52,427 --> 00:36:54,473 all the trail mix I'd packed for our hike 972 00:36:54,516 --> 00:36:56,344 without offering me so much as a peanut. 973 00:36:56,388 --> 00:36:58,303 You're dumping me over a peanut? 974 00:36:58,346 --> 00:37:00,522 It's an example. One of many. 975 00:37:00,566 --> 00:37:02,829 You're the center of your own universe, 976 00:37:02,872 --> 00:37:05,179 and I'd rather be alone than with someone 977 00:37:05,223 --> 00:37:08,574 who isn't capable of considering anyone but herself. 978 00:37:08,617 --> 00:37:10,489 Well, now I feel terrible. 979 00:37:10,532 --> 00:37:12,273 I'm sure it won't last long. 980 00:37:12,317 --> 00:37:13,622 [ Beeps ] 981 00:37:13,666 --> 00:37:15,885 Thank you. Mnh. 982 00:37:15,929 --> 00:37:17,496 Meredith: One way or the other, 983 00:37:17,539 --> 00:37:19,846 surgeons get closure with their patients. 984 00:37:19,889 --> 00:37:22,065 You've got yourselves a feisty one here. 985 00:37:22,109 --> 00:37:23,806 He sailed through every hour of it. 986 00:37:23,850 --> 00:37:25,373 Never showed any signs of giving up. 987 00:37:25,417 --> 00:37:27,245 My man. 988 00:37:27,288 --> 00:37:30,291 You're here. You're still here. 989 00:37:30,335 --> 00:37:31,684 I gotta call Hollie! 990 00:37:31,727 --> 00:37:33,120 Of course.[ Tablet beeping ] 991 00:37:33,163 --> 00:37:35,296 Honey, he's okay! 992 00:37:35,340 --> 00:37:37,472 He's okay.[ Both chuckle ] 993 00:37:37,516 --> 00:37:39,953 And he's...bionic. 994 00:37:39,996 --> 00:37:42,129 [ Chuckles ] Just for a little while, Hollie. 995 00:37:42,172 --> 00:37:44,436 Soon as a donor heart comes up, we'll remove the machine. 996 00:37:44,479 --> 00:37:48,048 Until then, Arthur's got hisvery own little battery pack. 997 00:37:48,091 --> 00:37:51,617 [ Crying] Hi, sweetheart. 998 00:37:51,660 --> 00:37:53,836 Oh, my beautiful boy. 999 00:37:53,880 --> 00:37:57,013 We're so proud of you. Hi, hi. 1000 00:37:57,057 --> 00:37:59,059 You're our strong little guy. 1001 00:37:59,102 --> 00:38:01,540 Mommy loves you. We love you so much. 1002 00:38:01,583 --> 00:38:04,412 Sometimes we fix you, sometimes we can't. 1003 00:38:04,456 --> 00:38:07,633 Hey, thanks for driving me. I'm too tired to ride my bike. 1004 00:38:07,676 --> 00:38:09,417 Well, if I'm driving, you're cooking. 1005 00:38:09,461 --> 00:38:11,767 Ugh, who knew sticking things up people's noses 1006 00:38:11,811 --> 00:38:12,986 would be so exhausting? 1007 00:38:13,029 --> 00:38:14,988 Wilson, you got a minute? 1008 00:38:15,031 --> 00:38:17,207 Sure, yeah. What's -- What's up? 1009 00:38:17,251 --> 00:38:19,558 Oh, I was hoping you could tell me. 1010 00:38:19,601 --> 00:38:21,124 About...? 1011 00:38:21,168 --> 00:38:23,126 Quitting surgery. 1012 00:38:23,170 --> 00:38:24,606 I'm just gonna... 1013 00:38:26,391 --> 00:38:29,176 If you're serious about changing specialties, 1014 00:38:29,219 --> 00:38:31,004 I -- I want to support you. 1015 00:38:31,047 --> 00:38:33,746 But I -- I can't do that if I'm in the dark. 1016 00:38:33,789 --> 00:38:35,530 ♪♪ 1017 00:38:35,574 --> 00:38:40,753 But our intention is to find a long-term solution. 1018 00:38:40,796 --> 00:38:43,146 Link: Zola's reading for 20 minutes. 1019 00:38:43,190 --> 00:38:46,149 And the others fell asleep 1020 00:38:46,193 --> 00:38:49,501 before the animals saw Toad's bathing suit. Mm. 1021 00:38:49,544 --> 00:38:51,503 And this guy's down. 1022 00:38:51,546 --> 00:38:53,069 [ Inhales sharply ] 1023 00:38:53,113 --> 00:38:55,637 How long can your parents live in the driveway? 1024 00:38:55,681 --> 00:38:57,335 [ Sighs ] 1025 00:38:57,378 --> 00:38:59,162 So my mom can keep "accidentally" referring to you 1026 00:38:59,206 --> 00:39:00,642 as my wife? 1027 00:39:00,686 --> 00:39:02,296 [ Laughs ] 1028 00:39:02,340 --> 00:39:04,864 ♪ When the earth shakes 1029 00:39:04,907 --> 00:39:09,303 What if we just... do a check-in? 1030 00:39:09,347 --> 00:39:10,435 Every few weeks. 1031 00:39:10,478 --> 00:39:12,480 No judgment. 1032 00:39:12,524 --> 00:39:15,483 To just make sure we're still good with our decision. 1033 00:39:15,527 --> 00:39:18,051 ♪ Good or bad, nothing lasts 1034 00:39:18,094 --> 00:39:20,445 Are we super broken? 1035 00:39:20,488 --> 00:39:23,622 Or are we super evolved? 1036 00:39:23,665 --> 00:39:25,058 Oh, definitely evolved. 1037 00:39:25,101 --> 00:39:26,886 Mm. Yeah. 1038 00:39:26,929 --> 00:39:30,106 ♪ Even when it feels like the day will never come ♪ 1039 00:39:30,150 --> 00:39:33,893 Which isn't to say emergency medicine isn't important, 1040 00:39:33,936 --> 00:39:36,069 especially when something's gone neglected too long. 1041 00:39:36,112 --> 00:39:39,638 ♪ Seems like the light is gone 1042 00:39:39,681 --> 00:39:41,074 Teddy: Owen. 1043 00:39:41,117 --> 00:39:43,468 I just -- I mean, I-I just put the kids down. 1044 00:39:43,511 --> 00:39:44,686 I-I didn't know that you were -- 1045 00:39:44,730 --> 00:39:46,253 Actually, I came to see you. 1046 00:39:46,296 --> 00:39:47,210 ♪ I will see the sun 1047 00:39:47,254 --> 00:39:48,908 [ Sighs ] 1048 00:39:48,951 --> 00:39:51,084 You tried to tell me the truth about your relationship 1049 00:39:51,127 --> 00:39:54,479 with Allison, and I... 1050 00:39:54,522 --> 00:39:55,871 I was awful to you. 1051 00:39:55,915 --> 00:39:57,438 ♪ But a heartbeat 1052 00:39:57,482 --> 00:39:59,701 And I am sorry. 1053 00:39:59,745 --> 00:40:02,704 I-I -- I should have told you years ago. 1054 00:40:02,748 --> 00:40:04,097 You told me when you could, 1055 00:40:04,140 --> 00:40:06,360 and I should have been there for you. 1056 00:40:06,404 --> 00:40:08,884 Because since the day we met, Teddy, and every day since, 1057 00:40:08,928 --> 00:40:10,799 you've been there for me. 1058 00:40:10,843 --> 00:40:14,412 You've listened to me. You've fought for me. 1059 00:40:14,455 --> 00:40:16,414 So that thing that you did on our... 1060 00:40:16,457 --> 00:40:18,024 [breathes deeply] 1061 00:40:18,067 --> 00:40:19,460 ...wedding day, it was... 1062 00:40:19,504 --> 00:40:20,592 I-I'm -- I'm sorry. 1063 00:40:20,635 --> 00:40:23,464 I know. I know you are. 1064 00:40:23,508 --> 00:40:25,466 We were friends first. 1065 00:40:25,510 --> 00:40:27,468 We've been friends for years. 1066 00:40:27,512 --> 00:40:30,036 And you've never been anything but there for me, 1067 00:40:30,079 --> 00:40:32,604 so when you -- so when you did this thing 1068 00:40:32,647 --> 00:40:34,736 that was so out of character, I should have known 1069 00:40:34,780 --> 00:40:37,478 that you were going through something bigger than me. 1070 00:40:37,522 --> 00:40:38,740 ♪ Seems like the light is gone 1071 00:40:38,784 --> 00:40:41,482 And that you just needed a friend. 1072 00:40:41,526 --> 00:40:42,918 Owen... 1073 00:40:42,962 --> 00:40:44,703 I can be your friend. 1074 00:40:44,746 --> 00:40:46,531 I want to be your friend. 1075 00:40:46,574 --> 00:40:50,752 And I don't know if I have more than that in me. 1076 00:40:50,796 --> 00:40:53,494 But I can be your friend, if you'll let me, Teddy. 1077 00:40:53,538 --> 00:40:55,017 ♪ I will see the sun 1078 00:40:55,061 --> 00:40:57,367 And I'd like to hear about Allison, if you'll tell me. 1079 00:40:57,411 --> 00:40:59,935 ♪ Ooh, I know 1080 00:40:59,979 --> 00:41:02,372 ♪ Ooh, I know You want some tea? 1081 00:41:02,416 --> 00:41:04,331 ♪ I will see the sun 1082 00:41:04,374 --> 00:41:06,159 Yeah. 1083 00:41:06,202 --> 00:41:08,553 ♪ Even when it feels like Tea would be good. 1084 00:41:08,596 --> 00:41:12,165 ♪ The day will never come 1085 00:41:12,208 --> 00:41:14,559 ♪ When everything is broken 1086 00:41:14,602 --> 00:41:18,911 ♪ Seems like the light is gone 1087 00:41:18,954 --> 00:41:20,739 But try as we might, 1088 00:41:20,782 --> 00:41:22,784 some solutions can only be temporary... 1089 00:41:22,828 --> 00:41:24,220 How'd she do today? 1090 00:41:24,264 --> 00:41:25,613 Her energy's low. 1091 00:41:25,657 --> 00:41:28,355 She's still mostly sleeping. 1092 00:41:28,398 --> 00:41:29,922 She's listening. 1093 00:41:29,965 --> 00:41:31,227 ♪ I will see the sun 1094 00:41:31,271 --> 00:41:34,709 Even when you think maybe she's not, she's... 1095 00:41:34,753 --> 00:41:36,319 Extraordinary. 1096 00:41:36,363 --> 00:41:37,712 Unstoppable. 1097 00:41:37,756 --> 00:41:41,542 Always has been, always will be. 1098 00:41:41,586 --> 00:41:43,718 I pray to God you're both right. 1099 00:41:43,762 --> 00:41:45,546 We evaluate you. 1100 00:41:45,590 --> 00:41:47,156 We think in the moment. 1101 00:41:47,200 --> 00:41:48,636 We do our best. 1102 00:41:48,680 --> 00:41:51,117 ♪ I will see the sun 1103 00:41:51,160 --> 00:41:52,684 And we hope like hell we've done enough 1104 00:41:52,727 --> 00:41:53,989 to carry you through. 1105 00:41:54,033 --> 00:41:58,124 ♪♪ 1106 00:41:58,167 --> 00:41:59,517 ♪ I will see the sun 1107 00:42:04,783 --> 00:42:07,742 --Captions by VITAC-- 1108 00:42:07,786 --> 00:42:16,142 ♪♪ 1109 00:42:16,185 --> 00:42:24,324 ♪♪ 1110 00:42:24,367 --> 00:42:32,767 ♪♪