[ Devon Gilfillian's "Icarus" plays ]
♪♪
[ Both breathing heavily ]
Meredith: In the last decade, researchers have discovered
that humans have at least six senses.
♪ Rather play with fire than follow ♪
♪♪
♪ Ain't got time to wait for tomorrow ♪
This new sense is called proprioception.
♪♪
♪ Oooo, I wanna live above the weather ♪
♪ Oooo, I wanna kiss the sky forever ♪
♪ Now I'm crashing through the ceiling... ♪
It refers to how your brain understands
where your body is in space.
♪ ...as if the dark has won
♪ Wax is melting, wings are failing ♪
♪ At least I touched the sun ♪
The mind, body connection to people...
[ Sighs ][ Cellphone chimes ]
♪ No receipts or second chances ♪
♪♪
♪ No repeats or second dances... ♪
Hey. Uh, so what do we got?
Um, Dr. Wilson?
Yeah?
♪♪
...and to your environment.
♪♪
Mmm. Bye, baby, I'll see you tonight for dinner.
Mmm.What, no breakfast?
Oh, honey, I'm having breakfast with Helen Anderson
at the Medical Accreditation Council.
I gotta try to save your residency program.Mm.
The Grey-Sloan follow-up is not for a few weeks,
and you know I'm not above calling in a favor.
Good luck with that.
[ Smooches ]
[ Mutters ] Don't want that.
Ah.
Mm, voilà.
[ Elevator bell dings ]
And this, baby girl, is the operating floor.
One of my favorite places.
Happy place!
[ Chuckling ] Yes, my happy place!
Let's see what's going on in OR 1.
I did my first surgery in there.
And Ben did his at --
no, no, no.
Oh, no, no.
Morning, Chief. Who is our new intern?
Hi, my name is Pru.
Hi, Pru. I'm Maggie. It's so nice to meet you.
No, oh, no, have you all seen this board?
Cancelled, postponed, incomplete staff.
No, oh -- okay, you know what?
I took a few days off, found my joy again,
brought my joy to work, was gonna carry my joy all day,
but now I have to leave my joy at daycare
because clearly nothing was done in my absence!
[ Sighs ] Saving this program is a "we" problem,
not a "me" problem.
So weneed to fix this.
Remind everyone why Grey-Sloan is the premier place to work.
And then get me a list of people
whose names belong on this board.
[ Sighs ]
Well?
Uh, uh, I'm sorry? Just us or --
No, everyone!
Spread the word. Go. Save the program.
Save lives. Educate!Alright, here we go.
And if you need me,
I'll be in the ninth floor conference room
because my office has a smell.
That does not bring me joy.
See that, baby girl?
That is reclaiming your power.
[ Chuckles ]
Feels like my first day of school.
Yeah, and you've already been called
to the principal's office.
Yeah, seriously. Why am I so nervous?[ Chuckles ]
Because Bailey likes it that way.
She thrives on terrifying people.
So you're still mad about what she said?
She hasn't apologized to me,
which means that she'sstill mad.
Which means that I'mstill mad.
Well, then, this meeting's gonna go great.
Oh, hey, Dr. Webber. It's nice to...
Dr. Webber? This is Nick Marsh.
He's going to be here for a couple of months.
It's nice to finally meet you, Dr. Webber.
Uh-huh.
[ Objects clattering ]Here.
What was that about?
There used to be snacks in here.
Richard.
Huh?
Are you okay?
When'd youget here?
Come with me.
Come with me, please.
So yesterday we asked Leo
if he wanted us to tell Ms. Patty --
she runs the daycare -- that he was a girl.
Robin: And?
And he asked for a string cheese.
Well, I mean, but --
but he nodded before he asked for the cheese.
You said that we could consider disclosing
what's going on to other people if we see signs.
Persistent, consistent, and insistent signs.
Mm. The only insistent thing is the request for snacks, so...
[ Chuckling ] And that's okay.
Let Leo be gender creative right now.
He doesn't need to change his pronoun
or his name or his clothes.
Well, uh, if we're not doing that,
then -- then what are we doing?
Supporting and affirming.
You're following Leo's lead.
Which may be one thing today,
but it might be something completely different tomorrow.
It's hard to know.
[ Chuckles ]What is it?
It's just [clears throat] Teddy loves ambiguity, so...
[ Breathes sharply ]
Take her to trauma one. Thank you.
Bailey's got you covering the pit, too?
Apparently she thinks I'm an actual machine.
I haven't seen you in days.
I know. What are you up to tonight?
I'm hanging out with Todd.
Oh, can you watch Luna tonight?
I meant to text you.Seriously?
It's just that you know her bedtime routine,
and a new sitter would have to learn --
Did you page me for this?
No. Bed four.
Patient came in with abdominal pain and vomiting.
The wife says he's yourpatient.
Kristen: Dr. Lincoln.
Oh, hey.
Simon Clark, 38,
status post synovial sarcoma resection four years ago,
has been undergoing chemoradiation
for recurrent lung mets.
I got this one, Helm.
[ Sighs ]
Thought I told you to take it easy.
Mm, so no 5k next month?
[ Both chuckle ]Kristen: This morning I found him in the nursery
barely able to breathe.
He's nauseous, can't eat.
I think it's his chemo, but he was adamant
about trying to finish putting together the crib.
Would you let your mother-in-law build your kid's crib?
I'msupposed to build the crib.
[ Chuckles ]It's your job to stay alive, Simon.
That's your job.
Okay, we'll get you some scans, we'll see what's going on,
and we'll make you comfortable while we admit you.
And no one will build any more furniture.
Deal?
Deal.
[ Medical device whirring ]
Any heart palpitations or night sweats?
Night sweats.Open your eye.
You've been having night sweats?
Oh, no, no. Just, uh -- it just makes a funny sound.
Night s-s-s-s-sweats.
Ni-i-ght swe-e-e-e-e-ats.
Okay, when's the last time
you had a heavy metal screening?
Mm, heavy metal.
Thank you, Detroit!
[ Chuckles ]
I need you to be very honest with me right now.Okay.
I know you're under an immense amount of pressure.Mm-hmm, mm-hmm.
Have you started drinking again?
[ Laughs ]
Nah. Not in ten years.[ Device beeps ]
Uh, the only thing I had to drink today
was some, uh... some juice.
Though it did have a bit of a kick.
You know, Catherine's been buying this, um, boota stuff.
Kamtucha. Komrumba -- Now that'sa funny sound.
Kombucha?
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Uh-huh.
Kombucha has alcohol content.
No.
It does.
[ Sighs ]
No, no. No, no, no, no, no.
♪♪
Richard. This is not Kombucha.
It's cannabis.
It's what now?
You're stoned.
[ Laughs ]
♪♪
Now, that is really very not at all f-funny.
[ Chuckles ]
Maggie: What am I looking at?Margot Talbert, 37,
complains of throbbing abdominal pain
that radiates to the back.
Aah! I feel like someone is inside me
and trying to claw her way out.
Okay, ma'am, when did the pain start?
Uh, this morning. Woke up, took one sip of coffee.
And boom -- doubled over. Agonizing pain.
She's nauseous, sweaty, dizzy, and...
Wow. Yeah.
Alright, well, we'll order a CT scan, get some labs.
Can you take some deep breaths for me?
Is there anyone you want us to call?
No. No one.
Okay. Well, we will see you upstairs soon.
You left early this morning.
Yeah, I went for a jog.
I had breakfast with your brother.
I did not know that he had majored in anthropology.
Wendell didn't go to college, Maggie.
He just talks a good game.
I have rounds, I'll see you in CT.
Ohhh! I can't be stoned, Meredith.
I-I-I don't know if you know this, but...
[whispering] I don't drink. Or do drugs.
I know that. It's okay.
You did not mean to get stoned. Ohh, ohh.
It was an accident.
Why is there even drug juice in my fridge?
Well, that doesn't matter right now.
I have to call Catherine to come and get you
because I have a surgery.
Oh, no, no, no, no. No. No, no, no. No, no, no.
You can't call Catherine, okay?
She has to save the program.
And Ihave to save the prog...
I know, I just --
Where are you going? No.
Huh?You can't leave.
Let's go sit down, please.
Come on, come on.
I'm going to get you some water.
Okay, okay. Mm-hmm.
[ Exhales sharply ]
[ Groans ] Drink that.
Oh, Bailey's gonna be so mad at me.
[ Knock on door ]And I'm still mad at you.
Get in line.[ Knocking continues ]
What do you need?
I'm on your service.
Uh, Nurse Karen told me that you were in here, so...
Oh, you're not on my service.
You're on Nick Marsh's service.
Who is Nick Marsh?
Nick Marsh is taking my cases.
Page him, and tell him that you are on hisservice.
Okay. Okay.
Oh, Schmitt.
You didn't see me in here, okay?
Okay.
Is this a really big fish
or a re-e-ally little bear?
Four years ago, he came in as a newlywed
with stage two synovial sarcoma of the knee.
And we tried every treatment possible
while they tried to start a family.
But between the chemo, radiation, and surgery,
it took them until eight months ago to conceive.
He made me promise
he'd be here long enough to meet his kid.
Okay, well, do you think the, uh --
the symptoms are chemo-related?
I hope so.[ Beeps ]
Link, if you don't want to watch Luna anymore, I get it.
I didn't say that.
Okay, well, earlier, when I asked, you kind of snapped.
Because I was asking you if you wanted to hang out with me
and you asked me to babysit.
Oh God. Okay, I -- [ Sighs ] I'm sorry.
I didn't realize that that's -- that's what you --
It's fine, Jo.Oh.
It's -- It's fine.
[ Sighs ]
Crap.
Mass in the ileum.
Wow. It's almost --
Obstructing his small bowel.
I'm so sorry.
God. [ Sighs ]
How am I gonna tell him it's progressing even faster?
We just do it. Or I do it.
He's my patient.
Um, not today.
Small intestine. General surgery.
Let me try to resect the tumor at the bowel segment,
buy him some more time.
And you can scrub in,
be an extra pair of hands if there's heavy bleeding.
Come on. It'll be like we're hanging out.
[ Both chuckle ]
[ Knock on door ]
Hello?
[ Clears throat ]
[ Exhales deeply ] Okay, I know you blame me --
I do not blame you, I do not know you.
Y-You think I'm taking Meredith away,
which i-it's perfectly understandable.
Meredith is an adult woman,
no one can take her away,
it would be ridiculous of me to think that.
So then why are you being so hostile to me right now?
Oh, you think I'm being hostile?
Frankly, yes.
I'm so sorry, Dr. Marsh.
Uh, welcome to Grey-Sloan.
I am so grateful to you for taking pity on me
and offering to help us out for the next few months
before leaving again.
Okay.
[ Breathes deeply ]
I know you've told your staff you're hiring locum tenens.
I'm locum tenens. I'm what you need.
I'm a transplant guy.
I'm also a general surgeon,
so I can help bring others in and help with your caseload.
I need more than just surgeons, I need surgeons who can teach.
Hello! Jordan Wright was my student, and you stole him.
Well, you can have him back, I put in the transfer papers.
I know, because your residency program is failing.
I want to help. I do.
I want to help you. I want to help this program.
Even though, funny thing, Grey-Sloan rejected me
back in the day, and now so are you.
Look, I-I'm gonna be in Seattle for the next few months anyway,
so if you say no, I'm just gonna spend my days hiking and fishing
instead of helping you with your never-ending list
of appys and choles.
I hope he has your smile.
And your laugh.
[ Chuckles ]
And your snaggletooth.
[ Gasps ] I don't have a snaggletooth.
Ah, don't you?
[ Laughs ]
Mm.
[ Monitor beeping ]
Hit us, Link.
Don't sugar coat it.
We found a new met.
No.
Sweetheart, let him finish. No.
It's in the small intestine.
It's causing a blockage,
which explains your nausea and pain.
We recommend resecting the tumor
to relieve the obstruction.
I'm only 32 weeks. That's two more months.
He has to meet his son. I need that, Dr. Lincoln.
I need that.Kristen, I know it's been a long road.
But the road is not ending.
We're going to take care of this met today,
[ Sniffles ]...and we'll go from there.
Hey, I'm here, Kris.[ Crying ]
Look. Kris, I'm here.
I'm here right now. Okay?
Hello forever.
Hello forever?
It's a thing we say to each other.
I remember.
Hello forever.
[ Sighs ]
Woman on PA: Dr. Hidari to cardiology. Dr. Hidari to cardiology.
Dr. Marsh? Yeah?
Uh, Schmitt, right?
Dr. Grey sent me. I'm on your service.
I-I don't have a service.
Bailey literally just granted me privileges.
Begrudgingly.
Well, Dr. Grey needs you to take over her caseload, so...
Why? Where is she?
Um... [ Sighs ]
What is this? Is this s-some sort of hazing thing?
What's the deal?I-I...
I'm not supposed to tell you,
you just need to take her surgeries.
Schmitt. Where's Meredith?
I am not at liberty to say.
[ Breathes sharply ]
Okay. Fine, let's go.
[ Machinery whirring ]
Maggie: So, have you had a chance to, uh,
test the new batch of heart patches?
Are they viable enough for Wendell to --
[ Door opens ]To get off our couch?
Winston, I don't have a problem
with Wendell staying with us.
Margot: Just to double check,
you're not calling anyone, right?
No, not unless you want us to.
No! No, my wife will freak out.
Margot, you should call your wife.
Y-You might -- I said no!
Please, do not call her.
[ Monitor beeps ]
Scans are up.
[ Monitor beeping ][ Sighs ] Yep.
Abdominal aortic aneurysm.
Helm, book an OR.
Margot, we're going to have to take you up to surgery.
Surgery? Are you sure?
Yes. Very sure.
Which means we definitely need to call your wife.
I said no! Please.
She thinks I already took care of this.
I've been having abdominal pain the last couple months
and she kept nagging me to get it looked at,
but my work had been crazy, so a few weeks ago
I told her I went to urgent care and they said it was just IBS.
Margot, you told us this pain started today.
I know, I lied.
So if I tell her now that I lied,
and it's way worse, she's gonna be so pissed.
One, two, three.[ Grunts ]
What if you die?
Winston.
Well, then she'll be really mad.
But Iwon't have to tell her.
Youwill.
♪♪
♪ It had to be you, pretty baby ♪
♪ It had to be you
That's not the words.
♪ Had to be you-u-u-u-u
[ Chuckles ]
It's that Nick character.
That's why you're leaving.
Maybe he could fall in love with the city.
I mean, we have trees, and we have an ocean.
We have ferryboats.
Whoo-whoo.
The ferryboats might be one of the reasons
why I need to, you know...
Seattle's just...
Haunted.
Because everywhere you look there's a memory.
A memory of people who aren't here anymore.
I get it.
That's how I felt when Ellis died.
You mean Adele.
No.
♪♪
We need to start teaching.
They said they'd shut down the program if we didn't teach.
That's what we're gonna do. Okay.
Okay, but, no, no, no, no.
They will shut down your career
if you go out there like that.
[ Breathes deeply ]
Let's sit down.
What about if I go get you some snacks?
I'll be back.
[ Door opens ]Had to be you.
[ Door closes ]
[ Cellphone keyboard clicking ]
[ Line ringing]
♪♪
Hey. Sorry, I was finishing up...Hey.
...a laminectomy when you paged.
Okay, so, motorcycle versus pedestrian.
Several fractured ribs, a scalp lac,
depressed skull fracture,
sluggish light reflex on the left.
They're taking him up to ICU now.
Yeah.
Yeah, that looks like a small subdural hematoma.
Alright, so burr holes or craniotomy?
Mm, neither. Least not yet.
Let's just watch him with q 1 hour neurochecks.
Y-You just want to wait and see? Yeah.
I mean, even though there's something that you can do
to address the situation?
I mean, even though there's actual steps that you could take
to understand a-and make yourself feel better
about the situation
and -- and the person involved?
Y-You just want to stay in limbo?
How's family therapy going?
Well, we're... [ Sighs ]
We're supposed to follow Leo's lead.
But he's -- he's four. He could lead us to Candyland.
You know what I mean.
I just -- we're -- we're his parents,
and this huge thing happened,
and we're reading the books and the blogs
and educating ourselves.
And I feel like I'm -- I'm ready to take the next step
to help him on his journey.
And I-I know, I know that -- thank you --
it's Leo'sjourney, but I --
I like direction and answers and -- and knowing what to say.
I-I met someone in Minnesota.
And this story about me does have a point.
Um, their name is Kai.
And they are non-binary, and since I've been with them,
I have felt opened up in a way I never imagined.
Things and people don't need to be constantly defined
in order to be loved unconditionally.
And since I started viewing the world that way,
I've never felt more like myself.
I'm really happy for you.
♪♪
[ Sighs ]
[ Siren wails in distance ]
[ Monitor beeping ]
Dr. Marsh, I just gave you privileges.
I did not say you could take over
your girlfriend's caseload.
Do you mean Chief of General Surgery, Dr. Grey?
Yes, and I doubt this patient came here --
This patient came here for care. I'm giving him care.
Would you like to revoke my privileges?
Blood in the field.
Bailey: Dr. Marsh.Nick: I see it.
[ Sighs ] God. The liver is bleeding.
It's okay. Just cauterize the area and breathe, Schmitt.
Do not just breathe. Fix it.
Come on. Suction.
Last time this happened, my patient died.
Well, don't think about the last time. That's an old story.
Only think about what's right in front of you.
Schmitt, write a new story.
Breathe.Schmitt, you need to --
Shut up. Chief Bailey, respectfully, please, quiet.
Schmitt, I want you to control the bleeding.
♪♪
[ Sighs ] Turn up the Bovie.
Good.
[ Sighs ]
Good.
Let's check hemostasis.
Looks good. You're doing great.
Anything else you'd like to do?
I think an omental patch on top to just be sure.
I think that sounds like a great idea.
Okay. Now you've stopped the bleeding.
I wrote a new story.
[ Suction gurgling ]
Yes, you did.
Richard: You wrote a new story.
Dr. Webber.
Richard, what are you doing up here?
I figured it out, Meredith.
We have to rewrite the story.
That sounds amazing. Yeah.
Let's go. Oh.
Uh.You didn't see us.
[ Chuckling ] Okay.
Pickups.
Thank you.
[ Breathes sharply ]
If I don't make it --
Uh, not gonna happen, Simon. Okay?
I believe you, man.
I believe you and I believe inyou,
but also, you are not God.
I know you have a Roman god-like profile...
[ Laughs ]...but you are not God.
And sometimes bad things happen.
And if I don't make it, I need you to tell Kristen
she's not allowed to name him after me.
Simon cannot be his first name
and it cannot be his middle name
and I need you to convince her.
I want my kid's life to be joyful.
And if she names him after me, his life will not be joyful
because every time she calls his name, she's gonna get sad.
And I need you to convince her that I'm right.
I'll do what I have to do, Simon, okay?
But my strong preference is that you survive this surgery.
So I'm gonna need you to get your head in the game.
[ Both chuckle ]Okay?
You got it. Yeah.I'm serious.
Now, lay back. Okay.
You close your eyes,
and you think about waking up and meeting your kid, okay?
♪♪
Maggie: Okay, so we're going to put this mask on you,
and you're going to count backward from ten.
Just so you know, we are obligated to call an emergency contact.
So we will be calling your wife.
What? No.That is not entirely true.
We cannot discharge her by herself.
Why don't we just repair the aneurysm first?
If my wife finds out I lied --
Then maybe you shouldn't have lied.
Dr. Ndugu, why don't you go scrub?
I've got this.
[ Monitor beeping rapidly ]
Her pressure's bottomed out.
Call her.Intubate now! Gown me.
Her aneurysm might have ruptured.
We need to open her up now!
Prep the abdomen fast!
[ Beeping continues ]
♪♪
[ Sighs ] Well, at least my eyes aren't dry anymore.
That stuff was awful.
I think I used to like it back in the day.
Yeah, well, the weed is a lot stronger now
than it was back in the day.
I can't tell you the amount of kids I see come in the ER
with full psychotic breaks just from smoking weed.
[ Knock on door ]Mm.
[ Door opens ]
What took you so long?
I was listening to Bailey rant about our collective failure
and "your boyfriend getting to go rogue
because he's with Meredith Grey."
Her words, not mine.
Okay, well, I'll go take care of that.
Just keep an eye on him.
I can hear you.You stay hydrated.
[ Door opens ][ Sighs ]
[ Door closes ]How are you feeling?
Like I just threw a decade of sobriety in the garbage.
You know, I didn't even know
that marijuana came in a liquid form.
And I still don't know why it was in my home.
I mean, Catherine likes her martinis
but she's not a pothead.
She wouldn't do that to me. Tempt me like that.
Make me lose ten years.
If you can honestly say that you did not intend to get high,
and you don't intend to do it again,
you shouldn't --
you shouldn't change your sobriety date.
I mean, you earned those ten years,
and accidents happen.
[ Crunching ]
Yeah, I guess so.
Well, on a positive note,
I think I had an epiphany on how to reinvent the program.
[ Chuckles ]Or at least improve it.
Addison said something to me.
Medicine has always been about the data,
okay, the wins versus the losses
instead of the people.
Yeah, and it worked.
Hell, it worked well,
but it wiped out the -- the humanity.
Our residents forget they're people
and that they're helping other people.
So we have to rewrite that story.
Make sure that they don't lose or forget the --
the best part of themselves.Mm.
That they can be whole individuals
that blossom and -- and grow with --
with empathy and -- and -- and knowledge.
Look, now, I know we can't improve the program overnight.
But it's like planting a tree, okay?
I mean, you prepare the ground
and you -- you nurture the seed,
but the tree that grows will outlive you,
whether or not you're there to see it at all.
[ Groans ]
[ Breathes deeply ]
Are you still high?
Little bit.
[ Both laugh ]
[ Monitor beeping ]
[ Suction gurgling ]
Oh, no.
It's wrapped around the vascular structures.
I see it.
[ Sighs ] Okay, everyone, change of plan.
We're gonna divert the bowel, buy him a little more time,
make him more comfortable.No, no.
Hold on, you're not gonna resect any of it?
It's too dangerous. He could bleed out.
So -- So he's just supposed to live with this in his bowel?
I didn't put the tumor in there, Link.
So you're just gonna close him up with a stool bag and that's it?
The other option is I close him without doing anything.
He's dying, Link.
This will help him with his pain.
He'll live a better life,
even if it's just for a few weeks.
He wants to meet his son.
Okay. Let's prep for an ileostomy.
[ Medical equipment whirring ]
[ Beeping continues ]
Almost done with the distal anastomosis.
Pledgets.
[ Suction gurgling ]
[ Monitor beeping ]
You can't talk to patients like that,
no matter how ridiculous they're being.
I know.
It's not enough that you know. You ruptured her and --
I did not rupture it. It ruptured.
You picked a fight, and you delayed --
I didn't rupture it. She waited for weeks.
She lied about her pain for weeks.
And it ruptured. That is not my fault.
Helm, why don't you get ready to close?
Dr. Ndugu, you can go.
Maggie.You can go.
♪♪
[ Tools clanging ]
♪♪
I stayed.
I said yes to helping, yes to working,
and you still can't be happy.
You have to torture a doctor
who volunteered to be here to help.
Why did I stay?
What do you want?
I don't know.
This program is failing.
I feel like I'm failing.
The first female chief, and it's on her.
You know, it's always on her.
The woman who was given a chance after a string of messy men.
[ Breathes deeply ]
I don't know what I want.
I just feel helpless.
Because it is all out of my control.
A devastating pandemic wiped out millions of people's lives.
I-It -- It wiped out generations of doctors and nurses,
physically, emotionally.
And how -- how was I supposed to handle that?
[ Breathes sharply ]
I do need help.
And I am thankful to you for staying.
And t-to Nick for coming.
But I just --
I'm not sure if that's enough.
We can figure all of this out.Mnh-mnh.
And I'm sorry for the way you found out.
Hamilton should not have told Richard anything.
The reason why I didn't say anything
is because I hadn't made any decision.
Well, thank you.
And I'm sorry
for calling you "that girl."
[ Breathes sharply ] I...
Mnh.
[ Breathes deeply ]
If Marsh has taken over your surgeries,
w-where have you been all day?
With Richard.
He got stoned, accidentally.
I know. My God.
Just when I think this place can't top itself.
[ Sighs ]
Thank you, Grey.
And Marsh seems like a...
wonderful...teacher.
He is.
Oh.
[ Laughs ]
[ Door opens ]
How long?
Please tell me how long my husband has to live.
We still have to do staging,
but from the information that we have,
maybe a month at most.
[ Exhales sharply ]
[ Voice breaking ] His whole life,
Simon always wanted to be a dad.
He wanted to be the best dad.
And I wanted to give him that.
We need to take the baby out now.
I need a C-section.
It's too early.
Simon needs to meet his son.
Kristen, I think --
I need to talk to an OB, please.
Um, I am an OB.
I am a general surgeon. But I'm also an OB.
It is too early. No.
Kristen, we cannot risk taking --
I'll talk to Dr. DeLuca.
Okay, Kristen?
Dr. Wilson is an OB resident. She's a student.
Dr. DeLuca's her teacher.
I'll check with her, okay?
Thank you.
Excuse me.
[ Pen clicks ]
[ Sighs ]I know you're hurting right now
so I'm keeping my voice quiet, but that was really not --
That was the truth, Jo. I told her the truth.
You're a first year resident.
You have to stick to the rules. Maybe Carina DeLuca won't.
Page me when DeLuca gets that.
You're too angry to do anything right now,
to talk to anybody right now.
You need to go smash some tires with a bat
or a bowl or something.
Just get it all out of your body.
I don't need your advice.You really do. I know you best.
You're in no shape for --You're a user, Jo.
You used me. So I don't need your advice.
You're angry and you're hurting
and you lash out when you're hurting and I can take it.
But if you want to fight someone, fight me.
Don't go to my boss and ask for a medically unsound C-section
because you're feeling emotional.You used me for sex.
Which was fun so I could roll with it.
But then you kicked me out which was less fun.
And now you have Todd
so you want me to sleep over with Luna
any time you have a date.
Which -- Yeah, which might be okay
if you ever wanted to just hang with me,
but you don't.
Which means I'm being used.
You know, and I could roll with that because you and I,
we go way back and everybody's awful sometimes.
But now you want to talk to me like we're besties.
Like we hang out all the time
and you know me better than anybody else
so I should listen to you instead of doing
everything I possibly can to help my patient.
That I cannot roll with!
I cannot make an exception for that.
So please get out of my way
so I can do my damn job.
I fell in love with you.
[ Scoffs ]
[ Sighs ] I wasn't using you.
I had feelings.
I developed feelings.
And I thought that you might, too.
But you didn't.
So I asked you to move out
because I wanted to protect our friendship.
And you didn't think that...
[ Sighs ]
...mentioning this to me --
You're right. It was wrong of me not to.
But in case you haven't realized,
I'm not a perfect person.
I'm a person who is doing the best I can.
But I'm also a person who cannot lose you.
And I am a person with enough education in obstetrics
to know that at 32 weeks,
a baby's lungs are not fully formed.
And if we take him out prematurely
then Kristen runs the risk
of losing both her husband and her baby.
And I know you well enough to know
that you can't live with that.
[ Sighs ]
♪♪
[ Sighs ]
Maggie: So, we were able to repair the aneurysm.
Looks like she was in pain for quite some time.
I kept telling her to go to the doctor.
Well, it's not easy
for some people to take care of themselves.
[ Monitor beeping ]
Thank you for calling me.
She really didn't want us to.
Well, she obviously doesn't know what's good for her.
[ Indistinct conversations in distance ]
Speaking to you as your boss andyour wife in this moment,
there's no compartmentalizing,
so you need to tell me what the hell is going on!
[ Lowered voice ] I feel like I don't know who I married.
Winston, ever since your brother got here...
you don't talk to me.
And now you're not talking to him.
The tension in our home is raising my blood pressure.
And then today, you seriously messed with one of my patients.
You're not yourself and I need to know why.
Come with me.
[ Sighs ]
When -- When I was 16, we were going out with friends
and Wendell asked me to pick him up at the mall with his buddy.
And so I'm sitting in the car waiting for him
and they both jump in the back seat
and tell me to drive off as fast as I can.
And I did it because he's my brother.
And so I did what he said.
Then the cops pull us over.
And there's stolen goods in the car
and I'm behind the wheel.
I'm the getaway driver.
I got arrested.
I had to see a probation officer for four months.
But Wendell talked his way out of it.
He let me take the whole rap.
Everything is like this with him.
And he comes around and I'm just --
I'm -- I'm, like -- I'm right back there.
I'm right back to grade school
when he would trick kids into giving him lunch money.
And our dad would find out about it
and he would take a belt to both of us
and keep the money.
His patches don't work. Just another one of his scams.
Which he spent ten grand on.
And now he wants me to lie and say that they're amazing.
And -- And try to get Bailey to place an order.
Yeah, well, you can't do that.I know. But that's what he does.
He gets in my head and he confuses me
and the next thing I know I'm yelling at patients.
And I'm lying to my wife.
I told you when he got here. I told you he would ruin us.
I told you he would just take
any good thing that I got going
because that's all he ever does.
I'm the sucker who just convinces myself over and over
that somehow it's gonna be better this time.
That's who you married.
I know I should have told you about the patches,
but he just...
like, he makes me a liar like him.
And I just need a night to --
I need thisnight, Maggie, to talk to him.
You know, just loudly and alone.
♪ They wanted you to stay where you are ♪
Could you give me that?
And I will...
Wewill be okay.
♪ All the time
Because I love you.
♪ Every...
So I will make sure of it.
♪ ...night
♪ You say another prayer...
I'll stay with my sisters.
♪ ...there's a heaven
♪ I say it's anywhere you're forgiven ♪
♪ All the time
♪ I think it's time
♪ To let it go
[ Simon whispering indistinctly ]
♪♪
Hello forever.
♪ Now all your second chances feel like thirds ♪
♪ You wonder what you wanted
Did they tell you?
Tell me what?
You have to live long enough to meet your son.
And they won't take him out for a few more weeks.
♪ All the time Okay.
Swear to God, Simon, if you don't meet your son,
I'm gonna name him Simon Simon.
[ Chuckles ]
♪ I think it's time
♪ To let it go
Feces in the ceiling?
What?What happened?
Feces in the ceiling.
That's the smell, in case you were wondering.
Some creature with fangs and a tail and fur
crawled up into the ceiling.
I'm not working back in that office again, no. Unh-unh.
You don't have to say anymore.
Typical of this place.
Um, Chief. What?
Oh, what?
[ Sighs ]
I just wanted to say thank you.
For letting me come back.
Today was difficult. But it made me remember
why I wanted to be a surgeon in the first place.
So just...thank you.
Thank you,Schmitt.
[ Chuckles ]Bye.
Meredith: Some will argue that it's experience
that helps a parent see that their child's stomach ache
is more than the flu.
Let's get out of here. Come on, sweetie, come on.
Or that it's experience when a surgeon knows
to look further during a routine lap appy
to diagnose a larger problem.
Hey, hey, little buddies.
Who wants ice cream?
Me!
Okay, do you want, uh, mint chocolate chip
or cookies and cream or a combo?
Um...
You don't have to decide right now, honey.
[ Elevator bell dings ]
Okay.
♪ Coming home with your song in my heart ♪
Hey, hey. I, uh...
I know it's your night with Scout, but I --
I could really use some Scout time right now.
Um, you guys go ahead.
Okay. Bye.Yeah.
Is everything okay?
Not really.
Okay, yeah.Ah.
♪ Restless wolves cry out in the cold ♪
Hey, buddy.
Oh, yes, yes, yes.
Did you have the best day ever?
Huh?
[ Mouthing words ]
It's not an experience. It's a feeling. Instinct.
It's our brains being innately connected to our bodies.
[ Sighs ] Hey.
Hey, can I crash at your place tonight?
Yeah, of course.
Is everything okay?
Not really.
[ Elevator bell dings ]
♪♪
♪ Da da da dum
The hard part is trusting what our bodies are saying.
Thank you both.
You saved my ass today.
In more ways than one.[ Chuckles ]
Well, based on what I've heard about this place,
it was a very fitting first day.
[ Chuckles ]
I'm sorry, but I had to.
♪ Coming home with your song in my heart ♪
Good night.
Catherine.
♪ Coming home with your song in my heart ♪
Richard, I am so sorry.
Catherine, what the hell were you thinking
bringing that into our house?
You know how important my sobriety is.
And since when do you get stoned?
♪♪
It's for my pain.
♪ Coming home with your song in my heart ♪
My cancer has progressed, baby.
What?
♪♪
♪ Da da da dum
And hoping like hell we get it right.
♪♪