1 00:00:08,878 --> 00:00:10,488 [ Devon Gilfillian's "Icarus" plays ] 2 00:00:10,532 --> 00:00:12,316 ♪♪ 3 00:00:12,360 --> 00:00:14,101 [ Both breathing heavily ] 4 00:00:14,144 --> 00:00:15,841 Meredith: In the last decade, researchers have discovered 5 00:00:15,885 --> 00:00:18,801 that humans have at least six senses. 6 00:00:18,844 --> 00:00:23,893 ♪ Rather play with fire than follow ♪ 7 00:00:23,936 --> 00:00:28,115 ♪♪ 8 00:00:28,158 --> 00:00:33,337 ♪ Ain't got time to wait for tomorrow ♪ 9 00:00:33,381 --> 00:00:35,905 This new sense is called proprioception. 10 00:00:35,948 --> 00:00:37,733 ♪♪ 11 00:00:37,776 --> 00:00:42,085 ♪ Oooo, I wanna live above the weather ♪ 12 00:00:42,129 --> 00:00:47,003 ♪ Oooo, I wanna kiss the sky forever ♪ 13 00:00:47,047 --> 00:00:50,224 ♪ Now I'm crashing through the ceiling... ♪ 14 00:00:50,267 --> 00:00:52,095 It refers to how your brain understands 15 00:00:52,139 --> 00:00:53,923 where your body is in space. 16 00:00:53,966 --> 00:00:56,447 ♪ ...as if the dark has won 17 00:00:56,491 --> 00:01:01,322 ♪ Wax is melting, wings are failing ♪ 18 00:01:01,365 --> 00:01:05,935 ♪ At least I touched the sun ♪ 19 00:01:05,978 --> 00:01:10,679 ♪ At least I touched the sun ♪ 20 00:01:10,722 --> 00:01:12,811 The mind, body connection to people... 21 00:01:12,855 --> 00:01:15,379 [ Sighs ][ Cellphone chimes ] 22 00:01:15,423 --> 00:01:20,428 ♪ No receipts or second chances ♪ 23 00:01:20,471 --> 00:01:22,212 ♪♪ 24 00:01:22,256 --> 00:01:23,779 ♪ No repeats or second dances... ♪ 25 00:01:23,822 --> 00:01:25,955 Hey. Uh, so what do we got? 26 00:01:25,998 --> 00:01:27,565 Um, Dr. Wilson? 27 00:01:27,609 --> 00:01:28,566 Yeah? 28 00:01:28,610 --> 00:01:32,048 ♪♪ 29 00:01:32,092 --> 00:01:33,702 ...and to your environment. 30 00:01:33,745 --> 00:01:38,620 ♪♪ 31 00:01:38,663 --> 00:01:41,666 Mmm. Bye, baby, I'll see you tonight for dinner. 32 00:01:41,710 --> 00:01:43,320 Mmm.What, no breakfast? 33 00:01:43,364 --> 00:01:45,148 Oh, honey, I'm having breakfast with Helen Anderson 34 00:01:45,192 --> 00:01:47,803 at the Medical Accreditation Council. 35 00:01:47,846 --> 00:01:51,154 I gotta try to save your residency program.Mm. 36 00:01:51,198 --> 00:01:53,287 The Grey-Sloan follow-up is not for a few weeks, 37 00:01:53,330 --> 00:01:55,332 and you know I'm not above calling in a favor. 38 00:01:55,376 --> 00:01:57,029 Good luck with that. 39 00:01:57,073 --> 00:01:57,943 [ Smooches ] 40 00:02:01,730 --> 00:02:04,689 [ Mutters ] Don't want that. 41 00:02:04,733 --> 00:02:06,691 Ah. 42 00:02:06,735 --> 00:02:08,128 Mm, voilà. 43 00:02:10,695 --> 00:02:11,914 [ Elevator bell dings ] 44 00:02:11,957 --> 00:02:16,788 And this, baby girl, is the operating floor. 45 00:02:16,832 --> 00:02:19,313 One of my favorite places. 46 00:02:19,356 --> 00:02:20,314 Happy place! 47 00:02:20,357 --> 00:02:22,707 [ Chuckling ] Yes, my happy place! 48 00:02:22,751 --> 00:02:25,057 Let's see what's going on in OR 1. 49 00:02:25,101 --> 00:02:27,234 I did my first surgery in there. 50 00:02:27,277 --> 00:02:28,931 And Ben did his at -- 51 00:02:28,974 --> 00:02:32,064 no, no, no. 52 00:02:32,108 --> 00:02:33,196 Oh, no, no. 53 00:02:33,240 --> 00:02:35,764 Morning, Chief. Who is our new intern? 54 00:02:35,807 --> 00:02:37,809 Hi, my name is Pru. 55 00:02:37,853 --> 00:02:41,509 Hi, Pru. I'm Maggie. It's so nice to meet you. 56 00:02:41,552 --> 00:02:43,075 No, oh, no, have you all seen this board? 57 00:02:43,119 --> 00:02:46,078 Cancelled, postponed, incomplete staff. 58 00:02:46,122 --> 00:02:48,820 No, oh -- okay, you know what? 59 00:02:48,864 --> 00:02:51,910 I took a few days off, found my joy again, 60 00:02:51,954 --> 00:02:54,435 brought my joy to work, was gonna carry my joy all day, 61 00:02:54,478 --> 00:02:56,741 but now I have to leave my joy at daycare 62 00:02:56,785 --> 00:02:58,874 because clearly nothing was done in my absence! 63 00:03:00,136 --> 00:03:03,879 [ Sighs ] Saving this program is a "we" problem, 64 00:03:03,922 --> 00:03:04,967 not a "me" problem. 65 00:03:05,010 --> 00:03:07,665 So weneed to fix this. 66 00:03:07,709 --> 00:03:11,278 Remind everyone why Grey-Sloan is the premier place to work. 67 00:03:11,321 --> 00:03:13,149 And then get me a list of people 68 00:03:13,193 --> 00:03:15,673 whose names belong on this board. 69 00:03:15,717 --> 00:03:17,109 [ Sighs ] 70 00:03:17,153 --> 00:03:18,589 Well? 71 00:03:18,633 --> 00:03:20,243 Uh, uh, I'm sorry? Just us or -- 72 00:03:20,287 --> 00:03:21,766 No, everyone! 73 00:03:21,810 --> 00:03:24,334 Spread the word. Go. Save the program. 74 00:03:24,378 --> 00:03:26,075 Save lives. Educate!Alright, here we go. 75 00:03:26,118 --> 00:03:27,337 And if you need me, 76 00:03:27,381 --> 00:03:29,426 I'll be in the ninth floor conference room 77 00:03:29,470 --> 00:03:31,298 because my office has a smell. 78 00:03:31,341 --> 00:03:33,082 That does not bring me joy. 79 00:03:33,125 --> 00:03:35,215 See that, baby girl? 80 00:03:35,258 --> 00:03:37,478 That is reclaiming your power. 81 00:03:37,521 --> 00:03:39,393 [ Chuckles ] 82 00:03:39,436 --> 00:03:42,396 Feels like my first day of school. 83 00:03:42,439 --> 00:03:43,614 Yeah, and you've already been called 84 00:03:43,658 --> 00:03:45,050 to the principal's office. 85 00:03:45,094 --> 00:03:46,965 Yeah, seriously. Why am I so nervous?[ Chuckles ] 86 00:03:47,009 --> 00:03:48,228 Because Bailey likes it that way. 87 00:03:48,271 --> 00:03:50,099 She thrives on terrifying people. 88 00:03:50,142 --> 00:03:52,014 So you're still mad about what she said? 89 00:03:52,057 --> 00:03:53,537 She hasn't apologized to me, 90 00:03:53,581 --> 00:03:55,931 which means that she'sstill mad. 91 00:03:55,974 --> 00:03:57,411 Which means that I'mstill mad. 92 00:03:57,454 --> 00:03:59,500 Well, then, this meeting's gonna go great. 93 00:04:02,024 --> 00:04:03,895 Oh, hey, Dr. Webber. It's nice to... 94 00:04:06,942 --> 00:04:09,727 Dr. Webber? This is Nick Marsh. 95 00:04:09,771 --> 00:04:12,208 He's going to be here for a couple of months. 96 00:04:12,252 --> 00:04:13,557 It's nice to finally meet you, Dr. Webber. 97 00:04:13,601 --> 00:04:14,776 Uh-huh. 98 00:04:14,819 --> 00:04:15,951 [ Objects clattering ]Here. 99 00:04:20,216 --> 00:04:21,783 What was that about? 100 00:04:21,826 --> 00:04:24,829 There used to be snacks in here. 101 00:04:26,266 --> 00:04:27,571 Richard. 102 00:04:29,051 --> 00:04:30,661 Richard. 103 00:04:30,705 --> 00:04:31,445 Huh? 104 00:04:31,488 --> 00:04:33,273 Are you okay? 105 00:04:33,316 --> 00:04:34,970 When'd youget here? 106 00:04:36,058 --> 00:04:37,494 Come with me. 107 00:04:40,323 --> 00:04:41,759 Come with me, please. 108 00:04:43,239 --> 00:04:45,328 So yesterday we asked Leo 109 00:04:45,372 --> 00:04:46,982 if he wanted us to tell Ms. Patty -- 110 00:04:47,025 --> 00:04:49,680 she runs the daycare -- that he was a girl. 111 00:04:49,724 --> 00:04:50,768 Robin: And? 112 00:04:50,812 --> 00:04:52,640 And he asked for a string cheese. 113 00:04:52,683 --> 00:04:54,032 Well, I mean, but -- 114 00:04:54,076 --> 00:04:56,208 but he nodded before he asked for the cheese. 115 00:04:56,252 --> 00:04:58,820 You said that we could consider disclosing 116 00:04:58,863 --> 00:05:00,735 what's going on to other people if we see signs. 117 00:05:00,778 --> 00:05:03,390 Persistent, consistent, and insistent signs. 118 00:05:03,433 --> 00:05:06,828 Mm. The only insistent thing is the request for snacks, so... 119 00:05:06,871 --> 00:05:08,177 [ Chuckling ] And that's okay. 120 00:05:08,220 --> 00:05:10,092 Let Leo be gender creative right now. 121 00:05:10,135 --> 00:05:11,746 He doesn't need to change his pronoun 122 00:05:11,789 --> 00:05:13,182 or his name or his clothes. 123 00:05:13,225 --> 00:05:14,966 Well, uh, if we're not doing that, 124 00:05:15,010 --> 00:05:16,577 then -- then what are we doing? 125 00:05:16,620 --> 00:05:18,709 Supporting and affirming. 126 00:05:18,753 --> 00:05:20,015 You're following Leo's lead. 127 00:05:20,058 --> 00:05:21,538 Which may be one thing today, 128 00:05:21,582 --> 00:05:23,540 but it might be something completely different tomorrow. 129 00:05:23,584 --> 00:05:24,889 It's hard to know. 130 00:05:24,933 --> 00:05:27,370 [ Chuckles ]What is it? 131 00:05:27,414 --> 00:05:32,375 It's just [clears throat] Teddy loves ambiguity, so... 132 00:05:32,419 --> 00:05:33,985 [ Breathes sharply ] 133 00:05:34,029 --> 00:05:36,858 Take her to trauma one. Thank you. 134 00:05:36,901 --> 00:05:38,773 Bailey's got you covering the pit, too? 135 00:05:38,816 --> 00:05:41,428 Apparently she thinks I'm an actual machine. 136 00:05:41,471 --> 00:05:43,038 I haven't seen you in days. 137 00:05:43,081 --> 00:05:45,910 I know. What are you up to tonight? 138 00:05:45,954 --> 00:05:46,998 I'm hanging out with Todd. 139 00:05:47,042 --> 00:05:48,086 Oh, can you watch Luna tonight? 140 00:05:48,130 --> 00:05:50,437 I meant to text you.Seriously? 141 00:05:50,480 --> 00:05:51,916 It's just that you know her bedtime routine, 142 00:05:51,960 --> 00:05:52,961 and a new sitter would have to learn -- 143 00:05:53,004 --> 00:05:54,005 Did you page me for this? 144 00:05:55,485 --> 00:05:57,618 No. Bed four. 145 00:05:57,661 --> 00:05:59,750 Patient came in with abdominal pain and vomiting. 146 00:05:59,794 --> 00:06:01,883 The wife says he's yourpatient. 147 00:06:01,926 --> 00:06:03,275 Kristen: Dr. Lincoln. 148 00:06:03,319 --> 00:06:05,365 Oh, hey. 149 00:06:07,236 --> 00:06:09,194 Simon Clark, 38, 150 00:06:09,238 --> 00:06:12,067 status post synovial sarcoma resection four years ago, 151 00:06:12,110 --> 00:06:13,416 has been undergoing chemoradiation 152 00:06:13,460 --> 00:06:14,417 for recurrent lung mets. 153 00:06:14,461 --> 00:06:16,506 I got this one, Helm. 154 00:06:16,550 --> 00:06:18,508 [ Sighs ] 155 00:06:18,552 --> 00:06:19,770 Thought I told you to take it easy. 156 00:06:19,814 --> 00:06:22,294 Mm, so no 5k next month? 157 00:06:22,338 --> 00:06:24,906 [ Both chuckle ]Kristen: This morning I found him in the nursery 158 00:06:24,949 --> 00:06:26,429 barely able to breathe. 159 00:06:26,473 --> 00:06:28,170 He's nauseous, can't eat. 160 00:06:28,213 --> 00:06:30,346 I think it's his chemo, but he was adamant 161 00:06:30,390 --> 00:06:32,348 about trying to finish putting together the crib. 162 00:06:32,392 --> 00:06:34,829 Would you let your mother-in-law build your kid's crib? 163 00:06:34,872 --> 00:06:36,396 I'msupposed to build the crib. 164 00:06:36,439 --> 00:06:39,137 [ Chuckles ]It's your job to stay alive, Simon. 165 00:06:39,181 --> 00:06:40,661 That's your job. 166 00:06:40,704 --> 00:06:43,185 Okay, we'll get you some scans, we'll see what's going on, 167 00:06:43,228 --> 00:06:44,882 and we'll make you comfortable while we admit you. 168 00:06:44,926 --> 00:06:48,103 And no one will build any more furniture. 169 00:06:48,146 --> 00:06:50,322 Deal? 170 00:06:50,366 --> 00:06:51,062 Deal. 171 00:06:51,106 --> 00:06:53,935 Deal. 172 00:06:53,978 --> 00:06:55,066 [ Medical device whirring ] 173 00:06:55,110 --> 00:06:57,765 Any heart palpitations or night sweats? 174 00:06:57,808 --> 00:07:00,811 Night sweats.Open your eye. 175 00:07:00,855 --> 00:07:02,247 You've been having night sweats? 176 00:07:02,291 --> 00:07:07,122 Oh, no, no. Just, uh -- it just makes a funny sound. 177 00:07:07,165 --> 00:07:10,995 Night s-s-s-s-sweats. 178 00:07:11,039 --> 00:07:16,131 Ni-i-ght swe-e-e-e-e-ats. 179 00:07:16,174 --> 00:07:17,262 Okay, when's the last time 180 00:07:17,306 --> 00:07:18,916 you had a heavy metal screening? 181 00:07:18,960 --> 00:07:20,265 Mm, heavy metal. 182 00:07:22,006 --> 00:07:24,139 Thank you, Detroit! 183 00:07:24,182 --> 00:07:25,880 [ Chuckles ] 184 00:07:25,923 --> 00:07:28,665 I need you to be very honest with me right now.Okay. 185 00:07:28,709 --> 00:07:31,973 I know you're under an immense amount of pressure.Mm-hmm, mm-hmm. 186 00:07:32,016 --> 00:07:33,235 Have you started drinking again? 187 00:07:33,278 --> 00:07:35,933 [ Laughs ] 188 00:07:35,977 --> 00:07:38,458 Nah. Not in ten years.[ Device beeps ] 189 00:07:38,501 --> 00:07:40,242 Uh, the only thing I had to drink today 190 00:07:40,285 --> 00:07:44,333 was some, uh... some juice. 191 00:07:44,376 --> 00:07:46,596 Though it did have a bit of a kick. 192 00:07:46,640 --> 00:07:49,991 You know, Catherine's been buying this, um, boota stuff. 193 00:07:50,034 --> 00:07:53,429 Kamtucha. Komrumba -- Now that'sa funny sound. 194 00:07:53,473 --> 00:07:54,648 Kombucha? 195 00:07:54,691 --> 00:07:56,519 Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Uh-huh. 196 00:07:56,563 --> 00:07:58,303 Kombucha has alcohol content. 197 00:07:58,347 --> 00:07:59,479 No. 198 00:07:59,522 --> 00:08:00,523 It does. 199 00:08:00,567 --> 00:08:01,959 [ Sighs ] 200 00:08:02,003 --> 00:08:04,658 No, no. No, no, no, no, no. 201 00:08:04,701 --> 00:08:12,056 ♪♪ 202 00:08:12,100 --> 00:08:13,971 Richard. This is not Kombucha. 203 00:08:14,015 --> 00:08:15,059 It's cannabis. 204 00:08:15,103 --> 00:08:16,191 It's what now? 205 00:08:16,234 --> 00:08:18,019 You're stoned. 206 00:08:18,062 --> 00:08:20,021 [ Laughs ] 207 00:08:20,064 --> 00:08:25,548 ♪♪ 208 00:08:25,592 --> 00:08:29,117 Now, that is really very not at all f-funny. 209 00:08:29,160 --> 00:08:29,944 [ Chuckles ] 210 00:08:43,174 --> 00:08:45,873 Maggie: What am I looking at?Margot Talbert, 37, 211 00:08:45,916 --> 00:08:47,701 complains of throbbing abdominal pain 212 00:08:47,744 --> 00:08:48,919 that radiates to the back. 213 00:08:48,963 --> 00:08:50,921 Aah! I feel like someone is inside me 214 00:08:50,965 --> 00:08:52,009 and trying to claw her way out. 215 00:08:52,053 --> 00:08:53,358 Okay, ma'am, when did the pain start? 216 00:08:53,402 --> 00:08:55,622 Uh, this morning. Woke up, took one sip of coffee. 217 00:08:55,665 --> 00:08:57,754 And boom -- doubled over. Agonizing pain. 218 00:08:57,798 --> 00:09:00,931 She's nauseous, sweaty, dizzy, and... 219 00:09:02,890 --> 00:09:04,369 Wow. Yeah. 220 00:09:04,413 --> 00:09:07,155 Alright, well, we'll order a CT scan, get some labs. 221 00:09:07,198 --> 00:09:08,678 Can you take some deep breaths for me? 222 00:09:08,722 --> 00:09:10,158 Is there anyone you want us to call? 223 00:09:10,201 --> 00:09:11,246 No. No one. 224 00:09:12,552 --> 00:09:17,208 Okay. Well, we will see you upstairs soon. 225 00:09:17,252 --> 00:09:19,646 You left early this morning. 226 00:09:19,689 --> 00:09:21,604 Yeah, I went for a jog. 227 00:09:21,648 --> 00:09:23,388 I had breakfast with your brother. 228 00:09:23,432 --> 00:09:26,043 I did not know that he had majored in anthropology. 229 00:09:26,087 --> 00:09:28,437 Wendell didn't go to college, Maggie. 230 00:09:28,480 --> 00:09:31,135 He just talks a good game. 231 00:09:31,179 --> 00:09:33,050 I have rounds, I'll see you in CT. 232 00:09:33,094 --> 00:09:36,227 Ohhh! I can't be stoned, Meredith. 233 00:09:36,271 --> 00:09:40,014 I-I-I don't know if you know this, but... 234 00:09:40,057 --> 00:09:42,625 [whispering] I don't drink. Or do drugs. 235 00:09:42,669 --> 00:09:44,322 I know that. It's okay. 236 00:09:44,366 --> 00:09:45,802 You did not mean to get stoned. Ohh, ohh. 237 00:09:45,846 --> 00:09:47,412 It was an accident. 238 00:09:47,456 --> 00:09:50,590 Why is there even drug juice in my fridge? 239 00:09:50,633 --> 00:09:52,113 Well, that doesn't matter right now. 240 00:09:52,156 --> 00:09:53,593 I have to call Catherine to come and get you 241 00:09:53,636 --> 00:09:55,116 because I have a surgery. 242 00:09:55,159 --> 00:09:56,944 Oh, no, no, no, no. No. No, no, no. No, no, no. 243 00:09:56,987 --> 00:09:58,598 You can't call Catherine, okay? 244 00:09:58,641 --> 00:10:00,164 She has to save the program. 245 00:10:00,208 --> 00:10:02,166 And Ihave to save the prog... 246 00:10:03,298 --> 00:10:05,082 I know, I just -- 247 00:10:05,126 --> 00:10:06,649 Where are you going? No. 248 00:10:06,693 --> 00:10:08,390 Huh?You can't leave. 249 00:10:08,433 --> 00:10:10,522 Let's go sit down, please. 250 00:10:10,566 --> 00:10:12,046 Come on, come on. 251 00:10:13,308 --> 00:10:14,701 I'm going to get you some water. 252 00:10:14,744 --> 00:10:16,572 Okay, okay. Mm-hmm. 253 00:10:17,747 --> 00:10:19,662 [ Exhales sharply ] 254 00:10:19,706 --> 00:10:21,969 [ Groans ] Drink that. 255 00:10:22,012 --> 00:10:24,145 Oh, Bailey's gonna be so mad at me. 256 00:10:24,188 --> 00:10:26,713 [ Knock on door ]And I'm still mad at you. 257 00:10:26,756 --> 00:10:28,366 Get in line.[ Knocking continues ] 258 00:10:31,718 --> 00:10:33,023 What do you need? 259 00:10:33,067 --> 00:10:34,459 I'm on your service. 260 00:10:34,503 --> 00:10:36,679 Uh, Nurse Karen told me that you were in here, so... 261 00:10:36,723 --> 00:10:38,507 Oh, you're not on my service. 262 00:10:38,550 --> 00:10:40,204 You're on Nick Marsh's service. 263 00:10:40,248 --> 00:10:41,771 Who is Nick Marsh? 264 00:10:41,815 --> 00:10:43,381 Nick Marsh is taking my cases. 265 00:10:43,425 --> 00:10:46,558 Page him, and tell him that you are on hisservice. 266 00:10:46,602 --> 00:10:47,647 Okay. Okay. 267 00:10:47,690 --> 00:10:49,692 Oh, Schmitt. 268 00:10:49,736 --> 00:10:51,172 You didn't see me in here, okay? 269 00:10:51,215 --> 00:10:52,652 Okay. 270 00:10:57,395 --> 00:11:01,922 Is this a really big fish 271 00:11:01,965 --> 00:11:06,796 or a re-e-ally little bear? 272 00:11:09,016 --> 00:11:11,714 Four years ago, he came in as a newlywed 273 00:11:11,758 --> 00:11:13,803 with stage two synovial sarcoma of the knee. 274 00:11:13,847 --> 00:11:15,936 And we tried every treatment possible 275 00:11:15,979 --> 00:11:17,677 while they tried to start a family. 276 00:11:17,720 --> 00:11:21,245 But between the chemo, radiation, and surgery, 277 00:11:21,289 --> 00:11:24,292 it took them until eight months ago to conceive. 278 00:11:24,335 --> 00:11:26,120 He made me promise 279 00:11:26,163 --> 00:11:29,210 he'd be here long enough to meet his kid. 280 00:11:29,253 --> 00:11:32,474 Okay, well, do you think the, uh -- 281 00:11:32,517 --> 00:11:34,258 the symptoms are chemo-related? 282 00:11:34,302 --> 00:11:35,912 I hope so.[ Beeps ] 283 00:11:37,522 --> 00:11:40,482 Link, if you don't want to watch Luna anymore, I get it. 284 00:11:40,525 --> 00:11:42,092 I didn't say that. 285 00:11:42,136 --> 00:11:46,140 Okay, well, earlier, when I asked, you kind of snapped. 286 00:11:46,183 --> 00:11:48,795 Because I was asking you if you wanted to hang out with me 287 00:11:48,838 --> 00:11:50,971 and you asked me to babysit. 288 00:11:51,014 --> 00:11:54,104 Oh God. Okay, I -- [ Sighs ] I'm sorry. 289 00:11:54,148 --> 00:11:55,062 I didn't realize that that's -- that's what you -- 290 00:11:55,105 --> 00:11:56,628 It's fine, Jo.Oh. 291 00:11:56,672 --> 00:11:58,021 It's -- It's fine. 292 00:11:59,849 --> 00:12:02,112 [ Sighs ] 293 00:12:02,156 --> 00:12:02,896 Crap. 294 00:12:02,939 --> 00:12:04,636 Mass in the ileum. 295 00:12:04,680 --> 00:12:05,855 Wow. It's almost -- 296 00:12:05,899 --> 00:12:08,423 Obstructing his small bowel. 297 00:12:08,466 --> 00:12:09,946 I'm so sorry. 298 00:12:09,990 --> 00:12:12,383 God. [ Sighs ] 299 00:12:12,427 --> 00:12:14,646 How am I gonna tell him it's progressing even faster? 300 00:12:14,690 --> 00:12:17,693 We just do it. Or I do it. 301 00:12:17,737 --> 00:12:18,781 He's my patient. 302 00:12:18,825 --> 00:12:21,436 Um, not today. 303 00:12:21,479 --> 00:12:23,351 Small intestine. General surgery. 304 00:12:24,831 --> 00:12:27,616 Let me try to resect the tumor at the bowel segment, 305 00:12:27,659 --> 00:12:29,226 buy him some more time. 306 00:12:29,270 --> 00:12:32,360 And you can scrub in, 307 00:12:32,403 --> 00:12:34,797 be an extra pair of hands if there's heavy bleeding. 308 00:12:36,233 --> 00:12:38,192 Come on. It'll be like we're hanging out. 309 00:12:39,454 --> 00:12:40,455 [ Both chuckle ] 310 00:12:40,498 --> 00:12:42,631 [ Knock on door ] 311 00:12:42,674 --> 00:12:43,632 Hello? 312 00:12:45,155 --> 00:12:46,940 [ Clears throat ] 313 00:12:51,553 --> 00:12:53,598 [ Clears throat ] 314 00:12:56,166 --> 00:12:58,865 [ Exhales deeply ] Okay, I know you blame me -- 315 00:12:58,908 --> 00:13:01,606 I do not blame you, I do not know you. 316 00:13:01,650 --> 00:13:03,304 Y-You think I'm taking Meredith away, 317 00:13:03,347 --> 00:13:05,088 which i-it's perfectly understandable. 318 00:13:05,132 --> 00:13:07,699 Meredith is an adult woman, 319 00:13:07,743 --> 00:13:09,832 no one can take her away, 320 00:13:09,876 --> 00:13:12,008 it would be ridiculous of me to think that. 321 00:13:12,052 --> 00:13:14,706 So then why are you being so hostile to me right now? 322 00:13:14,750 --> 00:13:15,664 Oh, you think I'm being hostile? 323 00:13:15,707 --> 00:13:16,796 Frankly, yes. 324 00:13:16,839 --> 00:13:19,276 I'm so sorry, Dr. Marsh. 325 00:13:19,320 --> 00:13:21,757 Uh, welcome to Grey-Sloan. 326 00:13:21,801 --> 00:13:25,326 I am so grateful to you for taking pity on me 327 00:13:25,369 --> 00:13:28,198 and offering to help us out for the next few months 328 00:13:28,242 --> 00:13:29,504 before leaving again. 329 00:13:29,547 --> 00:13:31,114 Okay. 330 00:13:31,158 --> 00:13:32,855 [ Breathes deeply ] 331 00:13:32,899 --> 00:13:36,119 I know you've told your staff you're hiring locum tenens. 332 00:13:36,163 --> 00:13:38,513 I'm locum tenens. I'm what you need. 333 00:13:38,556 --> 00:13:39,601 I'm a transplant guy. 334 00:13:39,644 --> 00:13:41,168 I'm also a general surgeon, 335 00:13:41,211 --> 00:13:43,692 so I can help bring others in and help with your caseload. 336 00:13:43,735 --> 00:13:46,521 I need more than just surgeons, I need surgeons who can teach. 337 00:13:46,564 --> 00:13:49,654 Hello! Jordan Wright was my student, and you stole him. 338 00:13:49,698 --> 00:13:52,483 Well, you can have him back, I put in the transfer papers. 339 00:13:52,527 --> 00:13:55,138 I know, because your residency program is failing. 340 00:13:57,053 --> 00:13:58,663 I want to help. I do. 341 00:13:58,707 --> 00:14:00,752 I want to help you. I want to help this program. 342 00:14:00,796 --> 00:14:03,407 Even though, funny thing, Grey-Sloan rejected me 343 00:14:03,451 --> 00:14:05,322 back in the day, and now so are you. 344 00:14:05,366 --> 00:14:07,847 Look, I-I'm gonna be in Seattle for the next few months anyway, 345 00:14:07,890 --> 00:14:10,937 so if you say no, I'm just gonna spend my days hiking and fishing 346 00:14:10,980 --> 00:14:12,721 instead of helping you with your never-ending list 347 00:14:12,764 --> 00:14:14,636 of appys and choles. 348 00:14:16,856 --> 00:14:21,164 I hope he has your smile. 349 00:14:22,426 --> 00:14:24,254 And your laugh. 350 00:14:24,298 --> 00:14:26,953 [ Chuckles ] 351 00:14:26,996 --> 00:14:28,868 And your snaggletooth. 352 00:14:28,911 --> 00:14:30,913 [ Gasps ] I don't have a snaggletooth. 353 00:14:30,957 --> 00:14:32,262 Ah, don't you? 354 00:14:32,306 --> 00:14:34,525 [ Laughs ] 355 00:14:34,569 --> 00:14:35,918 Mm. 356 00:14:35,962 --> 00:14:38,268 [ Monitor beeping ] 357 00:14:40,836 --> 00:14:42,272 Hit us, Link. 358 00:14:42,316 --> 00:14:43,839 Don't sugar coat it. 359 00:14:45,232 --> 00:14:46,798 We found a new met. 360 00:14:46,842 --> 00:14:48,975 No. 361 00:14:49,018 --> 00:14:50,802 Sweetheart, let him finish. No. 362 00:14:50,846 --> 00:14:52,456 It's in the small intestine. 363 00:14:52,500 --> 00:14:53,893 It's causing a blockage, 364 00:14:53,936 --> 00:14:56,808 which explains your nausea and pain. 365 00:14:56,852 --> 00:14:58,810 We recommend resecting the tumor 366 00:14:58,854 --> 00:15:00,638 to relieve the obstruction. 367 00:15:00,682 --> 00:15:03,815 I'm only 32 weeks. That's two more months. 368 00:15:03,859 --> 00:15:07,254 He has to meet his son. I need that, Dr. Lincoln. 369 00:15:07,297 --> 00:15:09,865 I need that.Kristen, I know it's been a long road. 370 00:15:09,909 --> 00:15:11,606 But the road is not ending. 371 00:15:11,649 --> 00:15:13,956 We're going to take care of this met today, 372 00:15:14,000 --> 00:15:16,437 [ Sniffles ]...and we'll go from there. 373 00:15:16,480 --> 00:15:19,309 Hey, I'm here, Kris.[ Crying ] 374 00:15:19,353 --> 00:15:22,878 Look. Kris, I'm here. 375 00:15:22,922 --> 00:15:25,750 I'm here right now. Okay? 376 00:15:25,794 --> 00:15:28,753 Hello forever. 377 00:15:29,972 --> 00:15:31,974 Hello forever? 378 00:15:32,018 --> 00:15:34,368 It's a thing we say to each other. 379 00:15:34,411 --> 00:15:35,499 I remember. 380 00:15:35,543 --> 00:15:37,458 Hello forever. 381 00:15:37,501 --> 00:15:39,155 Hello forever. 382 00:15:39,199 --> 00:15:40,896 Hello forever. 383 00:15:43,029 --> 00:15:44,334 Hello forever. 384 00:15:44,378 --> 00:15:46,162 Hello forever. 385 00:15:46,206 --> 00:15:47,772 [ Sighs ] 386 00:15:55,780 --> 00:15:58,479 Woman on PA: Dr. Hidari to cardiology. Dr. Hidari to cardiology. 387 00:15:58,522 --> 00:16:00,568 Dr. Marsh? Yeah? 388 00:16:00,611 --> 00:16:02,962 Uh, Schmitt, right? 389 00:16:03,005 --> 00:16:04,441 Dr. Grey sent me. I'm on your service. 390 00:16:04,485 --> 00:16:05,790 I-I don't have a service. 391 00:16:05,834 --> 00:16:07,444 Bailey literally just granted me privileges. 392 00:16:07,488 --> 00:16:08,924 Begrudgingly. 393 00:16:08,968 --> 00:16:12,014 Well, Dr. Grey needs you to take over her caseload, so... 394 00:16:12,058 --> 00:16:13,276 Why? Where is she? 395 00:16:13,320 --> 00:16:15,017 Um... [ Sighs ] 396 00:16:15,061 --> 00:16:17,106 What is this? Is this s-some sort of hazing thing? 397 00:16:17,150 --> 00:16:19,282 What's the deal?I-I... 398 00:16:19,326 --> 00:16:20,805 I'm not supposed to tell you, 399 00:16:20,849 --> 00:16:22,155 you just need to take her surgeries. 400 00:16:22,198 --> 00:16:23,939 Schmitt. Where's Meredith? 401 00:16:23,983 --> 00:16:25,506 I am not at liberty to say. 402 00:16:25,549 --> 00:16:26,420 [ Breathes sharply ] 403 00:16:26,463 --> 00:16:28,291 Okay. Fine, let's go. 404 00:16:30,728 --> 00:16:32,426 [ Machinery whirring ] 405 00:16:34,776 --> 00:16:36,082 Maggie: So, have you had a chance to, uh, 406 00:16:36,125 --> 00:16:38,084 test the new batch of heart patches? 407 00:16:38,127 --> 00:16:39,737 Are they viable enough for Wendell to -- 408 00:16:39,781 --> 00:16:41,826 [ Door opens ]To get off our couch? 409 00:16:41,870 --> 00:16:43,698 Winston, I don't have a problem 410 00:16:43,741 --> 00:16:45,221 with Wendell staying with us. 411 00:16:45,265 --> 00:16:46,570 Margot: Just to double check, 412 00:16:46,614 --> 00:16:48,442 you're not calling anyone, right? 413 00:16:48,485 --> 00:16:50,052 No, not unless you want us to. 414 00:16:50,096 --> 00:16:52,881 No! No, my wife will freak out. 415 00:16:52,924 --> 00:16:55,101 Margot, you should call your wife. 416 00:16:55,144 --> 00:16:55,927 Y-You might -- I said no! 417 00:16:55,971 --> 00:16:58,060 Please, do not call her. 418 00:16:58,104 --> 00:16:59,453 [ Monitor beeps ] 419 00:16:59,496 --> 00:17:00,758 Scans are up. 420 00:17:00,802 --> 00:17:02,847 [ Monitor beeping ][ Sighs ] Yep. 421 00:17:02,891 --> 00:17:04,632 Abdominal aortic aneurysm. 422 00:17:04,675 --> 00:17:05,807 Helm, book an OR. 423 00:17:10,203 --> 00:17:13,641 Margot, we're going to have to take you up to surgery. 424 00:17:13,684 --> 00:17:15,773 Surgery? Are you sure? 425 00:17:15,817 --> 00:17:17,471 Yes. Very sure. 426 00:17:17,514 --> 00:17:18,907 Which means we definitely need to call your wife. 427 00:17:18,950 --> 00:17:21,779 I said no! Please. 428 00:17:21,823 --> 00:17:23,651 She thinks I already took care of this. 429 00:17:23,694 --> 00:17:25,957 I've been having abdominal pain the last couple months 430 00:17:26,001 --> 00:17:27,698 and she kept nagging me to get it looked at, 431 00:17:27,742 --> 00:17:30,310 but my work had been crazy, so a few weeks ago 432 00:17:30,353 --> 00:17:33,182 I told her I went to urgent care and they said it was just IBS. 433 00:17:33,226 --> 00:17:35,358 Margot, you told us this pain started today. 434 00:17:35,402 --> 00:17:37,230 I know, I lied. 435 00:17:37,273 --> 00:17:38,883 So if I tell her now that I lied, 436 00:17:38,927 --> 00:17:41,060 and it's way worse, she's gonna be so pissed. 437 00:17:41,103 --> 00:17:43,453 One, two, three.[ Grunts ] 438 00:17:43,497 --> 00:17:44,976 What if you die? 439 00:17:45,020 --> 00:17:45,977 Winston. 440 00:17:46,021 --> 00:17:48,676 Well, then she'll be really mad. 441 00:17:48,719 --> 00:17:49,894 But Iwon't have to tell her. 442 00:17:49,938 --> 00:17:50,808 Youwill. 443 00:17:50,852 --> 00:17:56,423 ♪♪ 444 00:17:56,466 --> 00:17:59,600 ♪ It had to be you, pretty baby ♪ 445 00:17:59,643 --> 00:18:02,342 ♪ It had to be you 446 00:18:02,385 --> 00:18:03,343 That's not the words. 447 00:18:03,386 --> 00:18:06,694 ♪ Had to be you-u-u-u-u 448 00:18:06,737 --> 00:18:08,783 [ Chuckles ] 449 00:18:11,786 --> 00:18:14,919 It's that Nick character. 450 00:18:14,963 --> 00:18:16,182 That's why you're leaving. 451 00:18:17,966 --> 00:18:20,882 Maybe he could fall in love with the city. 452 00:18:20,925 --> 00:18:25,147 I mean, we have trees, and we have an ocean. 453 00:18:25,191 --> 00:18:28,150 We have ferryboats. 454 00:18:28,194 --> 00:18:28,846 Whoo-whoo. 455 00:18:31,197 --> 00:18:33,851 The ferryboats might be one of the reasons 456 00:18:33,895 --> 00:18:36,245 why I need to, you know... 457 00:18:37,333 --> 00:18:39,379 Seattle's just... 458 00:18:39,422 --> 00:18:40,815 Haunted. 459 00:18:42,208 --> 00:18:46,386 Because everywhere you look there's a memory. 460 00:18:46,429 --> 00:18:49,998 A memory of people who aren't here anymore. 461 00:18:50,041 --> 00:18:51,086 I get it. 462 00:18:51,130 --> 00:18:54,089 That's how I felt when Ellis died. 463 00:18:54,133 --> 00:18:55,308 You mean Adele. 464 00:18:55,351 --> 00:18:57,005 No. 465 00:18:57,048 --> 00:19:02,228 ♪♪ 466 00:19:02,271 --> 00:19:03,838 We need to start teaching. 467 00:19:03,881 --> 00:19:06,101 They said they'd shut down the program if we didn't teach. 468 00:19:06,145 --> 00:19:07,972 That's what we're gonna do. Okay. 469 00:19:08,016 --> 00:19:09,017 Okay, but, no, no, no, no. 470 00:19:09,060 --> 00:19:10,801 They will shut down your career 471 00:19:10,845 --> 00:19:12,499 if you go out there like that. 472 00:19:12,542 --> 00:19:13,456 [ Breathes deeply ] 473 00:19:13,500 --> 00:19:15,154 Let's sit down. 474 00:19:16,720 --> 00:19:19,070 What about if I go get you some snacks? 475 00:19:19,114 --> 00:19:19,767 I'll be back. 476 00:19:22,204 --> 00:19:23,727 [ Door opens ]Had to be you. 477 00:19:23,771 --> 00:19:25,425 [ Door closes ] 478 00:19:25,468 --> 00:19:27,253 [ Cellphone keyboard clicking ] 479 00:19:30,560 --> 00:19:32,997 [ Line ringing] 480 00:19:33,041 --> 00:19:36,871 ♪♪ 481 00:19:42,964 --> 00:19:44,879 Hey. Sorry, I was finishing up...Hey. 482 00:19:44,922 --> 00:19:46,010 ...a laminectomy when you paged. 483 00:19:46,054 --> 00:19:47,925 Okay, so, motorcycle versus pedestrian. 484 00:19:47,969 --> 00:19:50,537 Several fractured ribs, a scalp lac, 485 00:19:50,580 --> 00:19:51,886 depressed skull fracture, 486 00:19:51,929 --> 00:19:53,801 sluggish light reflex on the left. 487 00:19:53,844 --> 00:19:56,151 They're taking him up to ICU now. 488 00:19:56,195 --> 00:19:57,805 Yeah. 489 00:19:57,848 --> 00:19:59,981 Yeah, that looks like a small subdural hematoma. 490 00:20:00,024 --> 00:20:01,765 Alright, so burr holes or craniotomy? 491 00:20:01,809 --> 00:20:04,203 Mm, neither. Least not yet. 492 00:20:04,246 --> 00:20:08,468 Let's just watch him with q 1 hour neurochecks. 493 00:20:08,511 --> 00:20:11,645 Y-You just want to wait and see? Yeah. 494 00:20:11,688 --> 00:20:12,689 I mean, even though there's something that you can do 495 00:20:12,733 --> 00:20:14,430 to address the situation? 496 00:20:14,474 --> 00:20:16,563 I mean, even though there's actual steps that you could take 497 00:20:16,606 --> 00:20:18,695 to understand a-and make yourself feel better 498 00:20:18,739 --> 00:20:19,914 about the situation 499 00:20:19,957 --> 00:20:20,958 and -- and the person involved? 500 00:20:21,002 --> 00:20:23,222 Y-You just want to stay in limbo? 501 00:20:24,440 --> 00:20:25,789 How's family therapy going? 502 00:20:25,833 --> 00:20:28,923 Well, we're... [ Sighs ] 503 00:20:28,966 --> 00:20:31,317 We're supposed to follow Leo's lead. 504 00:20:31,360 --> 00:20:34,624 But he's -- he's four. He could lead us to Candyland. 505 00:20:34,668 --> 00:20:35,799 You know what I mean. 506 00:20:35,843 --> 00:20:37,018 I just -- we're -- we're his parents, 507 00:20:37,061 --> 00:20:38,802 and this huge thing happened, 508 00:20:38,846 --> 00:20:40,935 and we're reading the books and the blogs 509 00:20:40,978 --> 00:20:42,502 and educating ourselves. 510 00:20:42,545 --> 00:20:45,940 And I feel like I'm -- I'm ready to take the next step 511 00:20:45,983 --> 00:20:47,898 to help him on his journey. 512 00:20:47,942 --> 00:20:50,031 And I-I know, I know that -- thank you -- 513 00:20:50,074 --> 00:20:52,512 it's Leo'sjourney, but I -- 514 00:20:52,555 --> 00:20:55,863 I like direction and answers and -- and knowing what to say. 515 00:20:58,779 --> 00:21:01,085 I-I met someone in Minnesota. 516 00:21:01,129 --> 00:21:03,349 And this story about me does have a point. 517 00:21:03,392 --> 00:21:06,352 Um, their name is Kai. 518 00:21:06,395 --> 00:21:09,659 And they are non-binary, and since I've been with them, 519 00:21:09,703 --> 00:21:12,488 I have felt opened up in a way I never imagined. 520 00:21:12,532 --> 00:21:17,406 Things and people don't need to be constantly defined 521 00:21:17,450 --> 00:21:20,191 in order to be loved unconditionally. 522 00:21:20,235 --> 00:21:23,934 And since I started viewing the world that way, 523 00:21:23,978 --> 00:21:25,849 I've never felt more like myself. 524 00:21:25,893 --> 00:21:29,113 I'm really happy for you. 525 00:21:29,157 --> 00:21:37,992 ♪♪ 526 00:21:38,035 --> 00:21:39,820 [ Sighs ] 527 00:21:39,863 --> 00:21:41,430 [ Siren wails in distance ] 528 00:21:41,474 --> 00:21:45,216 [ Monitor beeping ] 529 00:21:45,260 --> 00:21:47,436 Dr. Marsh, I just gave you privileges. 530 00:21:47,480 --> 00:21:49,090 I did not say you could take over 531 00:21:49,133 --> 00:21:50,396 your girlfriend's caseload. 532 00:21:50,439 --> 00:21:52,833 Do you mean Chief of General Surgery, Dr. Grey? 533 00:21:52,876 --> 00:21:54,530 Yes, and I doubt this patient came here -- 534 00:21:54,574 --> 00:21:56,358 This patient came here for care. I'm giving him care. 535 00:21:56,402 --> 00:21:58,752 Would you like to revoke my privileges? 536 00:21:58,795 --> 00:22:00,057 Blood in the field. 537 00:22:00,101 --> 00:22:01,232 Bailey: Dr. Marsh.Nick: I see it. 538 00:22:01,276 --> 00:22:02,930 [ Sighs ] God. The liver is bleeding. 539 00:22:02,973 --> 00:22:05,106 It's okay. Just cauterize the area and breathe, Schmitt. 540 00:22:05,149 --> 00:22:06,890 Do not just breathe. Fix it. 541 00:22:06,934 --> 00:22:08,327 Come on. Suction. 542 00:22:08,370 --> 00:22:10,546 Last time this happened, my patient died. 543 00:22:10,590 --> 00:22:12,200 Well, don't think about the last time. That's an old story. 544 00:22:12,243 --> 00:22:13,636 Only think about what's right in front of you. 545 00:22:13,680 --> 00:22:14,855 Schmitt, write a new story. 546 00:22:14,898 --> 00:22:16,422 Breathe.Schmitt, you need to -- 547 00:22:16,465 --> 00:22:19,076 Shut up. Chief Bailey, respectfully, please, quiet. 548 00:22:19,120 --> 00:22:22,341 Schmitt, I want you to control the bleeding. 549 00:22:22,384 --> 00:22:25,953 ♪♪ 550 00:22:25,996 --> 00:22:26,910 [ Sighs ] Turn up the Bovie. 551 00:22:26,954 --> 00:22:28,042 Good. 552 00:22:28,085 --> 00:22:29,043 [ Sighs ] 553 00:22:31,567 --> 00:22:32,394 Good. 554 00:22:33,830 --> 00:22:35,484 Good. Let's check hemostasis. 555 00:22:36,746 --> 00:22:37,747 Looks good. You're doing great. 556 00:22:37,791 --> 00:22:39,096 Anything else you'd like to do? 557 00:22:39,140 --> 00:22:41,316 I think an omental patch on top to just be sure. 558 00:22:41,360 --> 00:22:42,622 I think that sounds like a great idea. 559 00:22:43,753 --> 00:22:45,929 Okay. Now you've stopped the bleeding. 560 00:22:45,973 --> 00:22:47,888 I wrote a new story. 561 00:22:47,931 --> 00:22:48,976 [ Suction gurgling ] 562 00:22:49,019 --> 00:22:49,977 Yes, you did. 563 00:22:50,020 --> 00:22:51,457 Richard: You wrote a new story. 564 00:22:52,719 --> 00:22:54,024 Dr. Webber. 565 00:22:54,068 --> 00:22:55,678 Richard, what are you doing up here? 566 00:22:55,722 --> 00:22:57,550 I figured it out, Meredith. 567 00:22:57,593 --> 00:22:59,769 We have to rewrite the story. 568 00:22:59,813 --> 00:23:01,467 That sounds amazing. Yeah. 569 00:23:01,510 --> 00:23:02,685 Let's go. Oh. 570 00:23:02,729 --> 00:23:03,469 Uh.You didn't see us. 571 00:23:05,862 --> 00:23:07,429 [ Chuckling ] Okay. 572 00:23:07,473 --> 00:23:08,517 Pickups. 573 00:23:08,561 --> 00:23:09,605 Thank you. 574 00:23:11,868 --> 00:23:13,304 [ Breathes sharply ] 575 00:23:13,348 --> 00:23:14,610 If I don't make it -- 576 00:23:14,654 --> 00:23:16,569 Uh, not gonna happen, Simon. Okay? 577 00:23:16,612 --> 00:23:18,222 I believe you, man. 578 00:23:18,266 --> 00:23:20,660 I believe you and I believe inyou, 579 00:23:20,703 --> 00:23:23,793 but also, you are not God. 580 00:23:23,837 --> 00:23:27,144 I know you have a Roman god-like profile... 581 00:23:27,188 --> 00:23:29,930 [ Laughs ]...but you are not God. 582 00:23:29,973 --> 00:23:31,845 And sometimes bad things happen. 583 00:23:31,888 --> 00:23:34,848 And if I don't make it, I need you to tell Kristen 584 00:23:34,891 --> 00:23:36,850 she's not allowed to name him after me. 585 00:23:36,893 --> 00:23:39,026 Simon cannot be his first name 586 00:23:39,069 --> 00:23:40,810 and it cannot be his middle name 587 00:23:40,854 --> 00:23:42,899 and I need you to convince her. 588 00:23:42,943 --> 00:23:45,859 I want my kid's life to be joyful. 589 00:23:45,902 --> 00:23:48,688 And if she names him after me, his life will not be joyful 590 00:23:48,731 --> 00:23:52,256 because every time she calls his name, she's gonna get sad. 591 00:23:52,300 --> 00:23:55,738 And I need you to convince her that I'm right. 592 00:23:55,782 --> 00:23:58,045 I'll do what I have to do, Simon, okay? 593 00:23:58,088 --> 00:24:01,222 But my strong preference is that you survive this surgery. 594 00:24:01,265 --> 00:24:02,528 So I'm gonna need you to get your head in the game. 595 00:24:02,571 --> 00:24:04,443 [ Both chuckle ]Okay? 596 00:24:04,486 --> 00:24:05,705 You got it. Yeah.I'm serious. 597 00:24:05,748 --> 00:24:06,793 Now, lay back. Okay. 598 00:24:06,836 --> 00:24:08,577 You close your eyes, 599 00:24:08,621 --> 00:24:11,058 and you think about waking up and meeting your kid, okay? 600 00:24:12,276 --> 00:24:17,499 ♪♪ 601 00:24:17,543 --> 00:24:19,501 Maggie: Okay, so we're going to put this mask on you, 602 00:24:19,545 --> 00:24:21,634 and you're going to count backward from ten. 603 00:24:21,677 --> 00:24:23,810 Just so you know, we are obligated to call an emergency contact. 604 00:24:23,853 --> 00:24:25,289 So we will be calling your wife. 605 00:24:25,333 --> 00:24:27,422 What? No.That is not entirely true. 606 00:24:27,466 --> 00:24:29,163 We cannot discharge her by herself. 607 00:24:29,206 --> 00:24:30,860 Why don't we just repair the aneurysm first? 608 00:24:30,904 --> 00:24:32,253 If my wife finds out I lied -- 609 00:24:32,296 --> 00:24:33,341 Then maybe you shouldn't have lied. 610 00:24:33,384 --> 00:24:35,343 Dr. Ndugu, why don't you go scrub? 611 00:24:35,386 --> 00:24:36,866 I've got this. 612 00:24:38,738 --> 00:24:40,261 [ Monitor beeping rapidly ] 613 00:24:40,304 --> 00:24:41,349 Her pressure's bottomed out. 614 00:24:41,392 --> 00:24:43,525 Call her.Intubate now! Gown me. 615 00:24:43,569 --> 00:24:44,787 Her aneurysm might have ruptured. 616 00:24:44,831 --> 00:24:46,659 We need to open her up now! 617 00:24:46,702 --> 00:24:48,356 Prep the abdomen fast! 618 00:24:48,399 --> 00:24:50,445 [ Beeping continues ] 619 00:24:50,489 --> 00:24:51,794 ♪♪ 620 00:24:58,497 --> 00:25:02,283 [ Sighs ] Well, at least my eyes aren't dry anymore. 621 00:25:02,326 --> 00:25:04,590 That stuff was awful. 622 00:25:04,633 --> 00:25:07,593 I think I used to like it back in the day. 623 00:25:07,636 --> 00:25:10,073 Yeah, well, the weed is a lot stronger now 624 00:25:10,117 --> 00:25:11,684 than it was back in the day. 625 00:25:11,727 --> 00:25:13,773 I can't tell you the amount of kids I see come in the ER 626 00:25:13,816 --> 00:25:16,079 with full psychotic breaks just from smoking weed. 627 00:25:16,123 --> 00:25:17,298 [ Knock on door ]Mm. 628 00:25:17,341 --> 00:25:18,908 [ Door opens ] 629 00:25:19,648 --> 00:25:21,215 What took you so long? 630 00:25:21,258 --> 00:25:24,261 I was listening to Bailey rant about our collective failure 631 00:25:24,305 --> 00:25:26,089 and "your boyfriend getting to go rogue 632 00:25:26,133 --> 00:25:27,438 because he's with Meredith Grey." 633 00:25:27,482 --> 00:25:28,788 Her words, not mine. 634 00:25:28,831 --> 00:25:30,746 Okay, well, I'll go take care of that. 635 00:25:30,790 --> 00:25:32,095 Just keep an eye on him. 636 00:25:32,139 --> 00:25:34,924 I can hear you.You stay hydrated. 637 00:25:34,968 --> 00:25:36,404 [ Door opens ][ Sighs ] 638 00:25:37,448 --> 00:25:40,277 [ Door closes ]How are you feeling? 639 00:25:40,321 --> 00:25:44,673 Like I just threw a decade of sobriety in the garbage. 640 00:25:44,717 --> 00:25:46,283 You know, I didn't even know 641 00:25:46,327 --> 00:25:48,329 that marijuana came in a liquid form. 642 00:25:48,372 --> 00:25:51,637 And I still don't know why it was in my home. 643 00:25:51,680 --> 00:25:53,116 I mean, Catherine likes her martinis 644 00:25:53,160 --> 00:25:54,683 but she's not a pothead. 645 00:25:54,727 --> 00:25:57,425 She wouldn't do that to me. Tempt me like that. 646 00:25:57,468 --> 00:25:59,558 Make me lose ten years. 647 00:25:59,601 --> 00:26:02,125 If you can honestly say that you did not intend to get high, 648 00:26:02,169 --> 00:26:03,474 and you don't intend to do it again, 649 00:26:03,518 --> 00:26:04,780 you shouldn't -- 650 00:26:04,824 --> 00:26:06,652 you shouldn't change your sobriety date. 651 00:26:06,695 --> 00:26:07,827 I mean, you earned those ten years, 652 00:26:07,870 --> 00:26:10,090 and accidents happen. 653 00:26:10,133 --> 00:26:11,657 [ Crunching ] 654 00:26:11,700 --> 00:26:14,790 Yeah, I guess so. 655 00:26:14,834 --> 00:26:16,444 Well, on a positive note, 656 00:26:16,487 --> 00:26:19,621 I think I had an epiphany on how to reinvent the program. 657 00:26:19,665 --> 00:26:21,449 [ Chuckles ]Or at least improve it. 658 00:26:23,059 --> 00:26:24,800 Addison said something to me. 659 00:26:26,541 --> 00:26:29,675 Medicine has always been about the data, 660 00:26:29,718 --> 00:26:32,634 okay, the wins versus the losses 661 00:26:32,678 --> 00:26:34,723 instead of the people. 662 00:26:34,767 --> 00:26:35,855 Yeah, and it worked. 663 00:26:35,898 --> 00:26:37,944 Hell, it worked well, 664 00:26:37,987 --> 00:26:42,209 but it wiped out the -- the humanity. 665 00:26:42,252 --> 00:26:44,341 Our residents forget they're people 666 00:26:44,385 --> 00:26:46,779 and that they're helping other people. 667 00:26:46,822 --> 00:26:49,520 So we have to rewrite that story. 668 00:26:49,564 --> 00:26:53,350 Make sure that they don't lose or forget the -- 669 00:26:53,394 --> 00:26:55,526 the best part of themselves.Mm. 670 00:26:55,570 --> 00:26:58,573 That they can be whole individuals 671 00:26:58,617 --> 00:27:02,185 that blossom and -- and grow with -- 672 00:27:02,229 --> 00:27:04,710 with empathy and -- and -- and knowledge. 673 00:27:04,753 --> 00:27:07,843 Look, now, I know we can't improve the program overnight. 674 00:27:07,887 --> 00:27:11,934 But it's like planting a tree, okay? 675 00:27:11,978 --> 00:27:13,675 I mean, you prepare the ground 676 00:27:13,719 --> 00:27:16,765 and you -- you nurture the seed, 677 00:27:16,809 --> 00:27:20,116 but the tree that grows will outlive you, 678 00:27:20,160 --> 00:27:22,858 whether or not you're there to see it at all. 679 00:27:25,469 --> 00:27:26,514 [ Groans ] 680 00:27:26,557 --> 00:27:27,515 [ Breathes deeply ] 681 00:27:27,558 --> 00:27:29,996 Are you still high? 682 00:27:30,039 --> 00:27:32,346 Little bit. 683 00:27:32,389 --> 00:27:34,565 [ Both laugh ] 684 00:27:34,609 --> 00:27:37,525 [ Monitor beeping ] 685 00:27:37,568 --> 00:27:39,483 [ Suction gurgling ] 686 00:27:39,527 --> 00:27:41,442 Oh, no. 687 00:27:41,485 --> 00:27:44,314 It's wrapped around the vascular structures. 688 00:27:44,358 --> 00:27:45,576 I see it. 689 00:27:48,710 --> 00:27:51,452 [ Sighs ] Okay, everyone, change of plan. 690 00:27:51,495 --> 00:27:54,977 We're gonna divert the bowel, buy him a little more time, 691 00:27:55,021 --> 00:27:56,283 make him more comfortable.No, no. 692 00:27:56,326 --> 00:27:57,588 Hold on, you're not gonna resect any of it? 693 00:27:57,632 --> 00:27:59,155 It's too dangerous. He could bleed out. 694 00:27:59,199 --> 00:28:00,809 So -- So he's just supposed to live with this in his bowel? 695 00:28:00,853 --> 00:28:02,506 I didn't put the tumor in there, Link. 696 00:28:02,550 --> 00:28:04,944 So you're just gonna close him up with a stool bag and that's it? 697 00:28:04,987 --> 00:28:07,381 The other option is I close him without doing anything. 698 00:28:07,424 --> 00:28:08,904 He's dying, Link. 699 00:28:10,166 --> 00:28:11,515 This will help him with his pain. 700 00:28:11,559 --> 00:28:12,647 He'll live a better life, 701 00:28:12,691 --> 00:28:14,780 even if it's just for a few weeks. 702 00:28:14,823 --> 00:28:16,912 He wants to meet his son. 703 00:28:19,480 --> 00:28:21,787 Okay. Let's prep for an ileostomy. 704 00:28:21,830 --> 00:28:23,789 [ Medical equipment whirring ] 705 00:28:23,832 --> 00:28:25,747 [ Beeping continues ] 706 00:28:25,791 --> 00:28:28,576 Almost done with the distal anastomosis. 707 00:28:28,619 --> 00:28:29,882 Pledgets. 708 00:28:29,925 --> 00:28:31,492 [ Suction gurgling ] 709 00:28:31,535 --> 00:28:33,755 [ Monitor beeping ] 710 00:28:33,799 --> 00:28:36,192 You can't talk to patients like that, 711 00:28:36,236 --> 00:28:38,151 no matter how ridiculous they're being. 712 00:28:38,194 --> 00:28:39,935 I know. 713 00:28:39,979 --> 00:28:41,894 It's not enough that you know. You ruptured her and -- 714 00:28:41,937 --> 00:28:44,679 I did not rupture it. It ruptured. 715 00:28:44,723 --> 00:28:46,768 You picked a fight, and you delayed -- 716 00:28:46,812 --> 00:28:48,988 I didn't rupture it. She waited for weeks. 717 00:28:49,031 --> 00:28:50,729 She lied about her pain for weeks. 718 00:28:50,772 --> 00:28:52,731 And it ruptured. That is not my fault. 719 00:28:54,645 --> 00:28:56,169 Helm, why don't you get ready to close? 720 00:28:56,212 --> 00:28:57,648 Dr. Ndugu, you can go. 721 00:28:57,692 --> 00:28:59,302 Maggie.You can go. 722 00:28:59,346 --> 00:29:03,524 ♪♪ 723 00:29:03,567 --> 00:29:05,352 [ Tools clanging ] 724 00:29:05,395 --> 00:29:11,445 ♪♪ 725 00:29:13,708 --> 00:29:15,797 I stayed. 726 00:29:15,841 --> 00:29:18,800 I said yes to helping, yes to working, 727 00:29:18,844 --> 00:29:20,497 and you still can't be happy. 728 00:29:20,541 --> 00:29:22,021 You have to torture a doctor 729 00:29:22,064 --> 00:29:24,458 who volunteered to be here to help. 730 00:29:24,501 --> 00:29:26,286 Why did I stay? 731 00:29:26,329 --> 00:29:28,331 What do you want? 732 00:29:28,375 --> 00:29:29,245 I don't know. 733 00:29:29,289 --> 00:29:30,464 I don't know. 734 00:29:30,507 --> 00:29:32,292 I don't know. 735 00:29:32,335 --> 00:29:33,684 I don't know. 736 00:29:33,728 --> 00:29:35,774 This program is failing. 737 00:29:35,817 --> 00:29:38,167 I feel like I'm failing. 738 00:29:38,211 --> 00:29:40,691 The first female chief, and it's on her. 739 00:29:40,735 --> 00:29:42,302 You know, it's always on her. 740 00:29:42,345 --> 00:29:46,219 The woman who was given a chance after a string of messy men. 741 00:29:46,262 --> 00:29:47,220 [ Breathes deeply ] 742 00:29:47,263 --> 00:29:48,961 I don't know what I want. 743 00:29:49,004 --> 00:29:50,658 I just feel helpless. 744 00:29:50,701 --> 00:29:55,010 Because it is all out of my control. 745 00:29:55,054 --> 00:29:58,535 A devastating pandemic wiped out millions of people's lives. 746 00:29:58,579 --> 00:30:03,105 I-It -- It wiped out generations of doctors and nurses, 747 00:30:03,149 --> 00:30:05,499 physically, emotionally. 748 00:30:05,542 --> 00:30:08,415 And how -- how was I supposed to handle that? 749 00:30:08,458 --> 00:30:09,720 [ Breathes sharply ] 750 00:30:11,113 --> 00:30:12,114 I do need help. 751 00:30:12,158 --> 00:30:16,379 And I am thankful to you for staying. 752 00:30:16,423 --> 00:30:18,294 And t-to Nick for coming. 753 00:30:18,338 --> 00:30:19,905 But I just -- 754 00:30:19,948 --> 00:30:23,169 I'm not sure if that's enough. 755 00:30:23,212 --> 00:30:25,911 We can figure all of this out.Mnh-mnh. 756 00:30:25,954 --> 00:30:28,087 And I'm sorry for the way you found out. 757 00:30:28,130 --> 00:30:30,176 Hamilton should not have told Richard anything. 758 00:30:30,219 --> 00:30:31,655 The reason why I didn't say anything 759 00:30:31,699 --> 00:30:34,745 is because I hadn't made any decision. 760 00:30:34,789 --> 00:30:36,747 Well, thank you. 761 00:30:36,791 --> 00:30:38,445 And I'm sorry 762 00:30:38,488 --> 00:30:42,318 for calling you "that girl." 763 00:30:42,362 --> 00:30:43,754 [ Breathes sharply ] I... 764 00:30:43,798 --> 00:30:45,060 Mnh. 765 00:30:45,104 --> 00:30:46,583 [ Breathes deeply ] 766 00:30:48,020 --> 00:30:51,023 If Marsh has taken over your surgeries, 767 00:30:51,066 --> 00:30:52,807 w-where have you been all day? 768 00:30:54,156 --> 00:30:55,375 With Richard. 769 00:30:58,769 --> 00:31:01,729 He got stoned, accidentally. 770 00:31:03,470 --> 00:31:05,559 I know. My God. 771 00:31:05,602 --> 00:31:08,562 Just when I think this place can't top itself. 772 00:31:08,605 --> 00:31:10,869 [ Sighs ] 773 00:31:12,609 --> 00:31:14,350 Thank you, Grey. 774 00:31:14,394 --> 00:31:18,572 And Marsh seems like a... 775 00:31:18,615 --> 00:31:21,270 wonderful...teacher. 776 00:31:22,968 --> 00:31:24,186 He is. 777 00:31:24,230 --> 00:31:25,100 Oh. 778 00:31:25,144 --> 00:31:26,362 [ Laughs ] 779 00:31:26,406 --> 00:31:27,755 [ Door opens ] 780 00:31:31,977 --> 00:31:33,761 How long? 781 00:31:36,416 --> 00:31:39,549 Please tell me how long my husband has to live. 782 00:31:39,593 --> 00:31:41,943 We still have to do staging, 783 00:31:41,987 --> 00:31:44,598 but from the information that we have, 784 00:31:44,641 --> 00:31:47,514 maybe a month at most. 785 00:31:50,038 --> 00:31:51,866 [ Exhales sharply ] 786 00:31:54,521 --> 00:31:56,827 [ Voice breaking ] His whole life, 787 00:31:56,871 --> 00:32:00,962 Simon always wanted to be a dad. 788 00:32:01,006 --> 00:32:03,965 He wanted to be the best dad. 789 00:32:04,009 --> 00:32:05,749 And I wanted to give him that. 790 00:32:08,056 --> 00:32:09,884 We need to take the baby out now. 791 00:32:09,928 --> 00:32:11,494 I need a C-section. 792 00:32:11,538 --> 00:32:12,931 It's too early. 793 00:32:12,974 --> 00:32:13,888 Simon needs to meet his son. 794 00:32:13,932 --> 00:32:15,150 Kristen, I think -- 795 00:32:15,194 --> 00:32:16,891 I need to talk to an OB, please. 796 00:32:16,935 --> 00:32:19,154 Um, I am an OB. 797 00:32:19,198 --> 00:32:20,982 I am a general surgeon. But I'm also an OB. 798 00:32:21,026 --> 00:32:22,853 It is too early. No. 799 00:32:22,897 --> 00:32:23,898 Kristen, we cannot risk taking -- 800 00:32:23,942 --> 00:32:25,682 I'll talk to Dr. DeLuca. 801 00:32:25,726 --> 00:32:27,206 Okay, Kristen? 802 00:32:27,249 --> 00:32:29,512 Dr. Wilson is an OB resident. She's a student. 803 00:32:29,556 --> 00:32:31,036 Dr. DeLuca's her teacher. 804 00:32:31,079 --> 00:32:32,602 I'll check with her, okay? 805 00:32:32,646 --> 00:32:33,908 Thank you. 806 00:32:35,301 --> 00:32:36,650 Excuse me. 807 00:32:38,782 --> 00:32:41,133 [ Pen clicks ] 808 00:32:41,176 --> 00:32:42,612 [ Sighs ]I know you're hurting right now 809 00:32:42,656 --> 00:32:44,875 so I'm keeping my voice quiet, but that was really not -- 810 00:32:44,919 --> 00:32:48,096 That was the truth, Jo. I told her the truth. 811 00:32:48,140 --> 00:32:50,359 You're a first year resident. 812 00:32:50,403 --> 00:32:52,840 You have to stick to the rules. Maybe Carina DeLuca won't. 813 00:32:52,883 --> 00:32:54,189 Page me when DeLuca gets that. 814 00:32:54,233 --> 00:32:55,886 You're too angry to do anything right now, 815 00:32:55,930 --> 00:32:57,279 to talk to anybody right now. 816 00:32:57,323 --> 00:32:59,107 You need to go smash some tires with a bat 817 00:32:59,151 --> 00:33:00,195 or a bowl or something. 818 00:33:00,239 --> 00:33:02,067 Just get it all out of your body. 819 00:33:02,110 --> 00:33:03,720 I don't need your advice.You really do. I know you best. 820 00:33:03,764 --> 00:33:05,244 You're in no shape for --You're a user, Jo. 821 00:33:05,287 --> 00:33:07,768 You used me. So I don't need your advice. 822 00:33:11,946 --> 00:33:13,513 You're angry and you're hurting 823 00:33:13,556 --> 00:33:15,210 and you lash out when you're hurting and I can take it. 824 00:33:15,254 --> 00:33:16,995 But if you want to fight someone, fight me. 825 00:33:17,038 --> 00:33:19,432 Don't go to my boss and ask for a medically unsound C-section 826 00:33:19,475 --> 00:33:22,957 because you're feeling emotional.You used me for sex. 827 00:33:23,001 --> 00:33:25,090 Which was fun so I could roll with it. 828 00:33:25,133 --> 00:33:27,179 But then you kicked me out which was less fun. 829 00:33:27,222 --> 00:33:29,137 And now you have Todd 830 00:33:29,181 --> 00:33:31,487 so you want me to sleep over with Luna 831 00:33:31,531 --> 00:33:33,968 any time you have a date. 832 00:33:34,012 --> 00:33:35,709 Which -- Yeah, which might be okay 833 00:33:35,752 --> 00:33:37,319 if you ever wanted to just hang with me, 834 00:33:37,363 --> 00:33:38,277 but you don't. 835 00:33:38,320 --> 00:33:40,757 Which means I'm being used. 836 00:33:40,801 --> 00:33:43,499 You know, and I could roll with that because you and I, 837 00:33:43,543 --> 00:33:45,501 we go way back and everybody's awful sometimes. 838 00:33:45,545 --> 00:33:48,069 But now you want to talk to me like we're besties. 839 00:33:48,113 --> 00:33:49,766 Like we hang out all the time 840 00:33:49,810 --> 00:33:51,464 and you know me better than anybody else 841 00:33:51,507 --> 00:33:53,509 so I should listen to you instead of doing 842 00:33:53,553 --> 00:33:56,556 everything I possibly can to help my patient. 843 00:33:56,599 --> 00:33:58,079 That I cannot roll with! 844 00:33:58,123 --> 00:33:59,776 I cannot make an exception for that. 845 00:33:59,820 --> 00:34:01,474 So please get out of my way 846 00:34:01,517 --> 00:34:02,953 so I can do my damn job. 847 00:34:02,997 --> 00:34:04,738 I fell in love with you. 848 00:34:06,435 --> 00:34:08,002 [ Scoffs ] 849 00:34:08,046 --> 00:34:10,265 [ Sighs ] I wasn't using you. 850 00:34:10,309 --> 00:34:12,398 I had feelings. 851 00:34:12,441 --> 00:34:14,617 I developed feelings. 852 00:34:14,661 --> 00:34:16,010 And I thought that you might, too. 853 00:34:16,054 --> 00:34:17,011 But you didn't. 854 00:34:17,055 --> 00:34:18,360 So I asked you to move out 855 00:34:18,404 --> 00:34:20,971 because I wanted to protect our friendship. 856 00:34:23,757 --> 00:34:25,106 And you didn't think that... 857 00:34:25,150 --> 00:34:26,847 [ Sighs ] 858 00:34:26,890 --> 00:34:28,066 ...mentioning this to me -- 859 00:34:28,109 --> 00:34:29,371 You're right. It was wrong of me not to. 860 00:34:29,415 --> 00:34:30,590 But in case you haven't realized, 861 00:34:30,633 --> 00:34:32,244 I'm not a perfect person. 862 00:34:32,287 --> 00:34:34,768 I'm a person who is doing the best I can. 863 00:34:34,811 --> 00:34:37,901 But I'm also a person who cannot lose you. 864 00:34:37,945 --> 00:34:41,079 And I am a person with enough education in obstetrics 865 00:34:41,122 --> 00:34:43,081 to know that at 32 weeks, 866 00:34:43,124 --> 00:34:45,474 a baby's lungs are not fully formed. 867 00:34:45,518 --> 00:34:47,563 And if we take him out prematurely 868 00:34:47,607 --> 00:34:48,825 then Kristen runs the risk 869 00:34:48,869 --> 00:34:50,958 of losing both her husband and her baby. 870 00:34:51,001 --> 00:34:53,091 And I know you well enough to know 871 00:34:53,134 --> 00:34:54,483 that you can't live with that. 872 00:34:56,355 --> 00:34:57,965 [ Sighs ] 873 00:34:58,008 --> 00:35:06,104 ♪♪ 874 00:35:06,147 --> 00:35:07,192 [ Sighs ] 875 00:35:13,067 --> 00:35:15,461 Maggie: So, we were able to repair the aneurysm. 876 00:35:15,504 --> 00:35:19,595 Looks like she was in pain for quite some time. 877 00:35:19,639 --> 00:35:22,032 I kept telling her to go to the doctor. 878 00:35:22,076 --> 00:35:23,295 Well, it's not easy 879 00:35:23,338 --> 00:35:24,600 for some people to take care of themselves. 880 00:35:24,644 --> 00:35:26,167 [ Monitor beeping ] 881 00:35:26,211 --> 00:35:29,475 Thank you for calling me. 882 00:35:29,518 --> 00:35:31,216 She really didn't want us to. 883 00:35:31,259 --> 00:35:33,435 Well, she obviously doesn't know what's good for her. 884 00:35:35,089 --> 00:35:38,832 [ Indistinct conversations in distance ] 885 00:35:48,668 --> 00:35:51,192 Speaking to you as your boss andyour wife in this moment, 886 00:35:51,236 --> 00:35:52,802 there's no compartmentalizing, 887 00:35:52,846 --> 00:35:54,935 so you need to tell me what the hell is going on! 888 00:35:59,113 --> 00:36:01,159 [ Lowered voice ] I feel like I don't know who I married. 889 00:36:01,202 --> 00:36:03,509 Winston, ever since your brother got here... 890 00:36:03,552 --> 00:36:04,597 you don't talk to me. 891 00:36:04,640 --> 00:36:06,120 And now you're not talking to him. 892 00:36:06,164 --> 00:36:09,732 The tension in our home is raising my blood pressure. 893 00:36:09,776 --> 00:36:12,518 And then today, you seriously messed with one of my patients. 894 00:36:13,823 --> 00:36:15,782 You're not yourself and I need to know why. 895 00:36:17,175 --> 00:36:17,958 Come with me. 896 00:36:24,051 --> 00:36:26,488 [ Sighs ] 897 00:36:26,532 --> 00:36:30,013 When -- When I was 16, we were going out with friends 898 00:36:30,057 --> 00:36:33,365 and Wendell asked me to pick him up at the mall with his buddy. 899 00:36:33,408 --> 00:36:35,193 And so I'm sitting in the car waiting for him 900 00:36:35,236 --> 00:36:36,716 and they both jump in the back seat 901 00:36:36,759 --> 00:36:38,631 and tell me to drive off as fast as I can. 902 00:36:38,674 --> 00:36:40,981 And I did it because he's my brother. 903 00:36:41,024 --> 00:36:42,678 And so I did what he said. 904 00:36:42,722 --> 00:36:44,114 Then the cops pull us over. 905 00:36:44,158 --> 00:36:45,725 And there's stolen goods in the car 906 00:36:45,768 --> 00:36:46,726 and I'm behind the wheel. 907 00:36:46,769 --> 00:36:47,944 I'm the getaway driver. 908 00:36:47,988 --> 00:36:50,643 I got arrested. 909 00:36:50,686 --> 00:36:53,123 I had to see a probation officer for four months. 910 00:36:53,167 --> 00:36:56,997 But Wendell talked his way out of it. 911 00:36:57,040 --> 00:36:58,912 He let me take the whole rap. 912 00:36:58,955 --> 00:37:01,088 Everything is like this with him. 913 00:37:01,131 --> 00:37:03,264 And he comes around and I'm just -- 914 00:37:03,308 --> 00:37:04,700 I'm -- I'm, like -- I'm right back there. 915 00:37:04,744 --> 00:37:06,224 I'm right back to grade school 916 00:37:06,267 --> 00:37:08,661 when he would trick kids into giving him lunch money. 917 00:37:08,704 --> 00:37:09,792 And our dad would find out about it 918 00:37:09,836 --> 00:37:11,794 and he would take a belt to both of us 919 00:37:11,838 --> 00:37:13,013 and keep the money. 920 00:37:14,971 --> 00:37:17,626 His patches don't work. Just another one of his scams. 921 00:37:17,670 --> 00:37:19,367 Which he spent ten grand on. 922 00:37:19,411 --> 00:37:22,109 And now he wants me to lie and say that they're amazing. 923 00:37:22,152 --> 00:37:24,938 And -- And try to get Bailey to place an order. 924 00:37:24,981 --> 00:37:26,940 Yeah, well, you can't do that.I know. But that's what he does. 925 00:37:26,983 --> 00:37:29,247 He gets in my head and he confuses me 926 00:37:29,290 --> 00:37:30,857 and the next thing I know I'm yelling at patients. 927 00:37:30,900 --> 00:37:32,815 And I'm lying to my wife. 928 00:37:32,859 --> 00:37:35,688 I told you when he got here. I told you he would ruin us. 929 00:37:35,731 --> 00:37:37,080 I told you he would just take 930 00:37:37,124 --> 00:37:39,169 any good thing that I got going 931 00:37:39,213 --> 00:37:41,215 because that's all he ever does. 932 00:37:41,259 --> 00:37:44,305 I'm the sucker who just convinces myself over and over 933 00:37:44,349 --> 00:37:46,133 that somehow it's gonna be better this time. 934 00:37:48,309 --> 00:37:50,311 That's who you married. 935 00:37:50,355 --> 00:37:52,400 I know I should have told you about the patches, 936 00:37:52,444 --> 00:37:54,054 but he just... 937 00:37:54,097 --> 00:37:56,622 like, he makes me a liar like him. 938 00:37:57,884 --> 00:38:00,408 And I just need a night to -- 939 00:38:00,452 --> 00:38:03,498 I need thisnight, Maggie, to talk to him. 940 00:38:03,542 --> 00:38:07,110 You know, just loudly and alone. 941 00:38:07,154 --> 00:38:08,329 ♪ They wanted you to stay where you are ♪ 942 00:38:08,373 --> 00:38:09,678 Could you give me that? 943 00:38:09,722 --> 00:38:13,203 And I will... 944 00:38:13,247 --> 00:38:14,509 Wewill be okay. 945 00:38:14,553 --> 00:38:15,858 ♪ All the time 946 00:38:15,902 --> 00:38:17,338 Because I love you. 947 00:38:17,382 --> 00:38:18,339 ♪ Every... 948 00:38:18,383 --> 00:38:20,254 So I will make sure of it. 949 00:38:20,298 --> 00:38:21,821 ♪ ...night 950 00:38:21,864 --> 00:38:22,822 ♪ You say another prayer... 951 00:38:22,865 --> 00:38:24,737 I'll stay with my sisters. 952 00:38:24,780 --> 00:38:26,260 ♪ ...there's a heaven 953 00:38:26,304 --> 00:38:30,351 ♪ I say it's anywhere you're forgiven ♪ 954 00:38:30,395 --> 00:38:34,660 ♪ All the time 955 00:38:34,703 --> 00:38:38,446 ♪ I think it's time 956 00:38:38,490 --> 00:38:40,100 ♪ To let it go 957 00:38:40,143 --> 00:38:42,058 [ Simon whispering indistinctly ] 958 00:38:42,102 --> 00:38:44,887 ♪♪ 959 00:38:44,931 --> 00:38:46,715 Hello forever. 960 00:38:46,759 --> 00:38:48,891 Hello forever. 961 00:38:48,935 --> 00:38:50,893 ♪ Now all your second chances feel like thirds ♪ 962 00:38:50,937 --> 00:38:53,592 ♪ You wonder what you wanted 963 00:38:53,635 --> 00:38:54,854 Did they tell you? 964 00:38:54,897 --> 00:38:56,377 Tell me what? 965 00:38:56,421 --> 00:38:59,380 You have to live long enough to meet your son. 966 00:38:59,424 --> 00:39:01,643 And they won't take him out for a few more weeks. 967 00:39:01,687 --> 00:39:04,298 ♪ All the time Okay. 968 00:39:04,342 --> 00:39:06,648 Swear to God, Simon, if you don't meet your son, 969 00:39:06,692 --> 00:39:08,389 I'm gonna name him Simon Simon. 970 00:39:08,433 --> 00:39:10,957 [ Chuckles ] 971 00:39:11,000 --> 00:39:14,439 ♪ I think it's time 972 00:39:14,482 --> 00:39:16,005 ♪ To let it go 973 00:39:16,049 --> 00:39:19,444 Feces in the ceiling? 974 00:39:19,487 --> 00:39:20,923 What?What happened? 975 00:39:20,967 --> 00:39:22,969 Feces in the ceiling. 976 00:39:23,012 --> 00:39:25,537 That's the smell, in case you were wondering. 977 00:39:25,580 --> 00:39:30,063 Some creature with fangs and a tail and fur 978 00:39:30,106 --> 00:39:32,065 crawled up into the ceiling. 979 00:39:32,108 --> 00:39:34,676 I'm not working back in that office again, no. Unh-unh. 980 00:39:34,720 --> 00:39:35,590 You don't have to say anymore. 981 00:39:35,634 --> 00:39:37,157 Typical of this place. 982 00:39:37,200 --> 00:39:38,506 Um, Chief. What? 983 00:39:39,464 --> 00:39:40,726 Oh, what? 984 00:39:40,769 --> 00:39:42,989 [ Sighs ] 985 00:39:43,032 --> 00:39:44,556 I just wanted to say thank you. 986 00:39:44,599 --> 00:39:46,862 For letting me come back. 987 00:39:46,906 --> 00:39:50,692 Today was difficult. But it made me remember 988 00:39:50,736 --> 00:39:52,520 why I wanted to be a surgeon in the first place. 989 00:39:52,564 --> 00:39:56,959 So just...thank you. 990 00:39:57,003 --> 00:39:58,613 Thank you,Schmitt. 991 00:39:58,657 --> 00:40:01,355 [ Chuckles ]Bye. 992 00:40:01,399 --> 00:40:03,444 Meredith: Some will argue that it's experience 993 00:40:03,488 --> 00:40:05,577 that helps a parent see that their child's stomach ache 994 00:40:05,620 --> 00:40:06,969 is more than the flu. 995 00:40:07,013 --> 00:40:09,885 Let's get out of here. Come on, sweetie, come on. 996 00:40:09,929 --> 00:40:12,105 Or that it's experience when a surgeon knows 997 00:40:12,148 --> 00:40:14,063 to look further during a routine lap appy 998 00:40:14,107 --> 00:40:15,935 to diagnose a larger problem. 999 00:40:15,978 --> 00:40:17,545 Hey, hey, little buddies. 1000 00:40:17,589 --> 00:40:18,459 Who wants ice cream? 1001 00:40:18,503 --> 00:40:19,895 Me! 1002 00:40:19,939 --> 00:40:21,244 Okay, do you want, uh, mint chocolate chip 1003 00:40:21,288 --> 00:40:23,464 or cookies and cream or a combo? 1004 00:40:23,508 --> 00:40:25,510 Um... 1005 00:40:25,553 --> 00:40:27,337 You don't have to decide right now, honey. 1006 00:40:27,381 --> 00:40:29,296 [ Elevator bell dings ] 1007 00:40:29,339 --> 00:40:30,863 Okay. 1008 00:40:30,906 --> 00:40:33,648 ♪ Coming home with your song in my heart ♪ 1009 00:40:33,692 --> 00:40:36,434 Hey, hey. I, uh... 1010 00:40:36,477 --> 00:40:38,784 I know it's your night with Scout, but I -- 1011 00:40:38,827 --> 00:40:40,438 I could really use some Scout time right now. 1012 00:40:40,481 --> 00:40:43,049 Um, you guys go ahead. 1013 00:40:43,092 --> 00:40:44,790 Okay. Bye.Yeah. 1014 00:40:44,833 --> 00:40:46,008 Is everything okay? 1015 00:40:46,052 --> 00:40:47,662 Not really. 1016 00:40:47,706 --> 00:40:49,795 Okay, yeah.Ah. 1017 00:40:49,838 --> 00:40:51,710 ♪ Restless wolves cry out in the cold ♪ 1018 00:40:51,753 --> 00:40:53,886 Hey, buddy. 1019 00:40:53,929 --> 00:40:56,932 Oh, yes, yes, yes. 1020 00:40:56,976 --> 00:40:59,065 Did you have the best day ever? 1021 00:40:59,108 --> 00:41:00,196 Huh? 1022 00:41:00,240 --> 00:41:01,850 [ Mouthing words ] 1023 00:41:01,894 --> 00:41:05,767 It's not an experience. It's a feeling. Instinct. 1024 00:41:05,811 --> 00:41:09,292 It's our brains being innately connected to our bodies. 1025 00:41:09,336 --> 00:41:11,077 [ Sighs ] Hey. 1026 00:41:11,120 --> 00:41:12,774 Hey, can I crash at your place tonight? 1027 00:41:12,818 --> 00:41:15,168 Yeah, of course. 1028 00:41:15,211 --> 00:41:16,212 Is everything okay? 1029 00:41:16,256 --> 00:41:17,866 Not really. 1030 00:41:17,910 --> 00:41:19,520 [ Elevator bell dings ] 1031 00:41:19,564 --> 00:41:22,610 ♪♪ 1032 00:41:22,654 --> 00:41:24,264 ♪ Da da da dum 1033 00:41:24,307 --> 00:41:26,875 The hard part is trusting what our bodies are saying. 1034 00:41:26,919 --> 00:41:28,442 Thank you both. 1035 00:41:28,486 --> 00:41:30,183 You saved my ass today. 1036 00:41:30,226 --> 00:41:32,272 In more ways than one.[ Chuckles ] 1037 00:41:32,315 --> 00:41:33,882 Well, based on what I've heard about this place, 1038 00:41:33,926 --> 00:41:35,231 it was a very fitting first day. 1039 00:41:35,275 --> 00:41:37,146 [ Chuckles ] 1040 00:41:37,190 --> 00:41:39,627 I'm sorry, but I had to. 1041 00:41:39,671 --> 00:41:40,498 ♪ Coming home with your song in my heart ♪ 1042 00:41:40,541 --> 00:41:42,151 Good night. 1043 00:41:42,195 --> 00:41:43,501 Catherine. 1044 00:41:43,544 --> 00:41:45,851 ♪ Coming home with your song in my heart ♪ 1045 00:41:45,894 --> 00:41:49,115 Richard, I am so sorry. 1046 00:41:49,158 --> 00:41:50,203 Catherine, what the hell were you thinking 1047 00:41:50,246 --> 00:41:51,726 bringing that into our house? 1048 00:41:51,770 --> 00:41:54,120 You know how important my sobriety is. 1049 00:41:54,163 --> 00:41:56,426 And since when do you get stoned? 1050 00:41:56,470 --> 00:41:58,472 ♪♪ 1051 00:41:58,516 --> 00:42:00,082 It's for my pain. 1052 00:42:00,126 --> 00:42:01,997 ♪ Coming home with your song in my heart ♪ 1053 00:42:02,041 --> 00:42:05,305 My cancer has progressed, baby. 1054 00:42:05,348 --> 00:42:07,437 What? 1055 00:42:07,481 --> 00:42:08,526 ♪♪ 1056 00:42:08,569 --> 00:42:11,267 ♪ Da da da dum 1057 00:42:11,311 --> 00:42:13,487 And hoping like hell we get it right. 1058 00:42:13,531 --> 00:42:20,712 ♪♪ 1059 00:42:33,768 --> 00:42:42,168 ♪♪ 1060 00:42:42,211 --> 00:42:50,306 ♪♪ 1061 00:42:50,350 --> 00:42:58,750 ♪♪