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Woman on radio:
You'’re listening to
FM 93.8,

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member-supported
WPKV.

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Up next,
a special edition
of "Downtown Local"--

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stories
of life in the city
with Isaac Knott.

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THIS IS P.R.N.Y.--

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PUBLIC RADIO
NEW YORK.

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Isaac Knott:
FROM W.P.K.V.
IN NEW YORK

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IT'’S "DOWNTOWN LOCAL."
I'’M ISAAC KNOTT.

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I DON'’T REMEMBER ANY
OF WHAT I'’M ABOUT
TO TELL YOU.

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I ONLY KNOW
WHAT THE POLICE
AND CORONER'’S REPORTS SAY--

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THAT ON THE MORNING
OF APRIL 5th, 1989,

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A HIGH-SPEED
CAR CRASH OCCURRED

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ON A RURAL HIGHWAY
IN UPSTATE NEW YORK.

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THERE WERE
TWO FATALITIES:

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MY MOTHER DIED
ON IMPACT,

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MY FATHER DIED
OF HEMORRHAGING FROM A TORN
PULMONARY VEIN

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AND MASSIVE
INTERNAL INJURIES.

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I'’M LISTED AS
"MALE SURVIVOR,

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APPROXIMATELY
EIGHT YEARS OF AGE."

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[ dogs bark distantly ]

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WE WERE GOING
DOWN A ROAD.

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NOBODY'’D SAID
MUCH OF ANYTHING YET.

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THE ROAD WAS SUPPOSED
TO HAVE BEEN LONGER.

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I DID A STORY
A WHILE BACK
ABOUT A KID WHO THOUGHT

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SOMETHING HIS FATHER
HAD LEFT HIM

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WAS MAGICALLY
MAKING HIM RUN FASTER.

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HE SHOWS ME THE PATCH
AND MY FIRST THOUGHT IS,

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IT DOESN'’T LOOK
LIKE MAGIC.

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IT'’S BLACK.
THE EDGES ARE FRAYED...

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[ overlaps ]
AND I HAVE TO CONFESS,
I THOUGHT I WAS

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A LITTLE CRAZY MYSELF.
BUT THEN I MADE
TWO DISCOVERIES.

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THE FIRST
HAD TO DO WITH THE WAY
PEOPLE LOOKED AT ME.

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I'’D ALWAYS GOTTEN
THE STARES--

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YOU KNOW, THE ONES
PEOPLE GIVE YOU,

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OR AVOID
GIVING YOU?

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BUT ONCE IN A WHILE,

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WHEELING IN AND OUT
OF THE CURRENT
OF PEOPLE,

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I'’D CATCH SOMEONE
LOOKING AT ME

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AND I'’D SEE
SOMETHING ELSE
IN THEIR EYES--

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JEALOUSY.

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THEY WERE
JEALOUS OF ME,

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JEALOUS THAT
I GOT TO SIT DOWN
AND THEY DIDN'’T.

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DOES THAT SOUND
CRAZY TO YOU?

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BECAUSE THE SECOND
THING I FOUND

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WAS A PAIR
OF MAGIC SHOES.

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- [ knocks on door ]
- BUT I'’M AHEAD OF MYSELF.

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P.R.N.Y. IS A SMALL
OPERATION.

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THE WHOLE OFFICE
HAS TO SHARE ONE
PRODUCTION ASSISTANT.

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BUT I GOT AROUND THAT
BY MOVING MY DESK
NEXT TO HERS.

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- Woman: HEY, I GOT
YOU A DATE.
- NO, THANKS.

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LISTEN TO ME,
FORGET RAINE.
RAINE IS OVER.

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CHARLENE KICKS
RAINE'’S ASS.

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IS THIS CHARLENE A.B.?

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IS SHE ABLE-BODIED?

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YEAH.
SHE'’S ALSO H.B.--
HOT-BODIED.

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AND SHE'’S A LAWYER.
SHE'’S H.B.L.--
HOT-BODIED LAWYER.

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HEY, ISAAC...

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DOES CHARLENE KNOW
ABOUT THE WHEELS?

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WHAT, ARE YOU
FRANKENSTEIN?
YOU'’RE HOT.

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TONIGHT.
I'’M CALLING HER
RIGHT NOW.

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LAST WEEK A MAN
APPARENTLY WALKED
INTO BAYSIDE HOSPITAL

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AND BRIBED A DOCTOR
INTO CHOPPING OFF
HIS LEG.

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WHAT WAS WRONG
WITH HIS LEG?

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NOTHING.

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IT'’S WEIRD.
I CAN'’T LOOK AWAY.

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IT'’S THE KIND
OF STORY I LIKE.

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BUT THE CALLER HAS
A SPECIFIC REQUEST.

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WELL, THEY ALWAYS DO.

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SHE WANTS
TO MEET ISAAC.

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LADY, IF THEY'’RE
CHOPPING OFF GOOD LEGS

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FOR MONEY,
THAT'’S HARD NEWS.

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SHE WANTS
TO MEET ISAAC.

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THIS IS MY PURVIEW,
EDIE.

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I'’LL CHECK IT OUT.
IF IT'’S TRUE,

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IF IT REALLY HAPPENED,
I'’LL CALL HER BACK.

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I KNOW A GUY
CAN FIND ANYTHING
ON ANYBODY.

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I ALSO
KNOW SOMEONE

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IN PATHOLOGY
OVER THERE.

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SO CALL HIM,
SEE WHO GETS
THE STORY FIRST.

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[ car horns honking ]

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Isaac'’s voice:
A MAN WALKS INTO
A HOSPITAL

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AND ASKS A DOCTOR
TO CHOP OFF HIS LEG.

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THE CALLER
WHO GAVE US THIS TIP
LEFT HER EMAIL ADDRESS--

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"ANCIENT CHINESE GIRL."

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I KNOW IT ALL
SOUNDED LIKE SOME
ELABORATE JOKE.

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MY CONTACT AT BAYSIDE
WAS ON DUTY
THAT NIGHT

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AND I WAS
HALF HOPING SHE'’D TELL ME
NOTHING HAD HAPPENED.

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THEN THE DOCTOR CAME IN
AND THE GUY GOES TO HIM,

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"I WANT YOU
TO AMPUTATE
MY LEFT LEG."

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AND THE DOCTOR
GOES, "WHY?"

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SOUNDS LIKE
A JOKE, RIGHT?

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SO THE GUY GOES,
"BECAUSE I'’LL GIVE YOU
$250,000 IF YOU DO."

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CANDY, NO ONE WILL KNOW
YOU'’RE MY SOURCE.

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NOTHING HAPPENED,
OKAY?

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WE SAID NO
AND THE GUY RAN OUT--

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LIKE, LITERALLY RAN.

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ARE YOU TELLING ME

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A FIRST-YEAR RESIDENT
TURNED DOWN A QUARTER
MILLION DOLLARS?

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IT'’S NOT EASY
TO CUT OFF A LEG,
YOU KNOW.

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IT TAKES MORE
THAN TWO PEOPLE.

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DOES THIS HAPPEN
A LOT--

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PEOPLE COMING
IN COMPLAINING
THEY'’VE GOT LEGS?

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THIS GUY WAS CREEPY,

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SAID, UH...

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"I WANT A TRANSTIBIAL
AMPUTATION JUST BELOW
MY LEFT KNEE,"

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LIKE HE WAS ORDERING
OFF A MENU OR SOMETHING,

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LIKE HE KNEW EXACTLY
WHAT PART WAS HIM AND
WHAT PART WASN'’T,

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AND THE PART THAT WASN'’T
HE WANTED GONE.

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WELL, IF ANY DOCTOR
EVER DOES TAKE
THE MONEY,

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CALL ME.

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WHOA WHOA, TOMMY.
COME ON.

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- IT'’S OKAY.
- YOU GOTTA WATCH OUT.

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HEY, IT'’S OKAY.

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Isaac'’s voice:
ALL RIGHT, SO THE FIRST TIME
I SAW THESE SHOES

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I THOUGHT
THEY BELONGED
ON FRED ASTAIRE

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STEPPING OUT OF
A 1950 DeSOTO--

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BROWN-ON-BLACK,
WINGTIP, CARTOUCHE.

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THEY USED TO CALL THEM
"SPECTATORS."

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MY EX-GIRLFRIEND
IS A P.W.D.,

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WHICH STANDS
FOR "A PERSON
WITH DISABILITY."

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SHE BROKE UP WITH ME
BECAUSE I WAS TOO.

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BLIND DATES
CAN GET DICEY
BETWEEN A.B.s AND P.W.D.s,

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BUT I WAS ASSURED
THAT THIS BLIND DATE

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DIDN'’T CARE
ABOUT THE CHAIR.

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AND IF YOU'’RE
WONDERING--

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YES, I CAN
HAVE SEX.

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I JUST CAN'’T
CATCH A CAB.

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NEED SOME HELP?

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NO, I'’M FINE.

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DON'’T WORRY, I'LL BE
YOUR GIRLFRIEND.

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- SORRY?
- MY PARENTS USED TO

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HITCHHIKE UPSTATE
BEFORE THEY WERE
MARRIED.

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HE'’D HIDE
IN THE BUSHES

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AND SHE'’D
THUMB THE RIDES.

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SOUNDS LIKE SOMETHING
MY PARENTS WOULD DO.

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DON'’T WORRY ABOUT IT.
I'’D RATHER BE LATE

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THAN GIVE
THESE HACKS A DIME.

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DON'’T RUN ANYBODY OVER.

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[ people conversing
quietly ]

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THANK YOU.
I'’M EXPECTING
ONE MORE.

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HER NAME IS
CHARLENE COKE.

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THANKS.

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HELLO, CHARLENE COKE.

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OH, HERE COMES
THE LOOK...

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FOLLOWED BY
THE TRIPLE-AXEL-

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SOMEDAY-I'’LL-BE-
A-BETTER-PERSON SHRUG.

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VERY NICE.
NOT AN EASY MANEUVER
TO PULL OFF.

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YOU CAN CLEAR THIS.
I'’LL BE DINING
ALONE TONIGHT.

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THANKS.

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[ traffic noise ]

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[ distant siren wailing ]

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[ lift beeping ]

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Brooster:
"IT WAS SUPPOSED TO GO
STRAIGHT TO THE INCINERATOR,

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COMMA, BUT AN ORDERLY
FOUND THE UNMARKED LEG..."

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[ keyboard keys clicking ]

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[ phones ringing softly ]

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I'’LL LET YOU
CATCH UP.

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"...IN THE FREEZER

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AND SENT IT
TO PATHOLOGY INSTEAD."

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SHE LIED TO YOU,
YOUR CONTACT.

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YOU THINK THAT
CAN BE A PROBLEM?

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'’CAUSE I CAN SEE HOW
IT CAN BE A PROBLEM.

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SERIOUSLY, IS IT
HARD TO GET PEOPLE

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TO TAKE YOU SERIOUSLY
WHEN YOU INTERVIEW THEM?

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OH, JANICE, WRITE ME
A DIFFERENT INTRO--

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SOMETHING, UH, ICKY...

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AND SEXY.

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I MEAN,
DON'’T BLAME ME.

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YOU HAD YOUR SHOT.

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HE HAS A CRUSH ON ME.
THAT'’S WHY HE HATES YOU.
HE THINKS I LIKE YOU.

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DO ME A FAVOR,
SET HIM UP WITH CHARLENE.

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DON'’T TO ME ABOUT HER.
I'’M NEVER SPEAKING
TO HER AGAIN.

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YES, IS CANDY REED
WORKING IN THE E.R. TODAY?

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YOU CAN--

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Isaac'’s voice:
SO THIS EMAIL WAS
FROM THE SAME CALLER

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WHO'’D GIVEN ME THE TIP
ON THE AMPUTATION STORY.

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I GOT THERE
AND I REMEMBER THINKING,

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"SOMEWHERE IN
THIS BUILDING
THERE ARE OTHERS--

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NOT ONE,
BUT OTHERS WHO WANT IT
TO BE AMPUTATED."

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IT NEVER
OCCURRED TO ME

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THAT "OTHERS" COULD MEAN
SOMETHING ELSE ENTIRELY.

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[ indistinct voices ]

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Man:
LAST WEEK YOU WERE
TALKING ABOUT

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HURTING YOURSELF.

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I CAME OUT
TO MY THERAPIST.

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Man:
WELL, THAT'’S--

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IT MIGHT HAVE BEEN
A MISTAKE.

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SHE TOLD ME
WHEN I USE MY CHAIR

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I STAY THE SAME HEIGHT
AS A CHILD.

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Man #2:
YOU DON'’T NEED A THERAPIST
TO TELL YOU THAT.

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WHAT I NEED IS
GINGER JAKE.

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THEN I WOULDN'’T
NEED THERAPY.
I'’D BE PERFECT.

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Man #2:
GINGER JAKE
WILL KILL YOU.

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Man #1:
YOU THINK BECAUSE YOU
CAME OUT TO YOUR THERAPIST

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- YOU'’RE READY
FOR GINGER JAKE?
- [ chair rattles ]

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HAVE YOU FOUND US?

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I HOPE SO.

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[ ventilator hisses ]
ASK HIM HOW HE FOUND US.

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UH, I GOT AN EMAIL--

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- "ANCIENT CHINESE GIRL."
- THAT'’S HER.

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THAT'’S HER EMAIL.

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SHE IS NOT HERE,

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BUT SINCE YOU ARE,

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WHY DON'’T YOU TELL US
HOW YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF,

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YOUR RELATIONSHIP
WITH YOUR CHAIR?

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[ ventilator hissing ]

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WELL, I HAVE

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A PARAPLEGIC INJURY

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SO I GUESS
YOU COULD SAY

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MY CHAIR AND I
ARE PRETTY TIGHT.

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IT'’S ALL RIGHT.

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IT'’S OKAY.

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YOU KNOW
WE'’RE WANNABES?

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I DON'’T KNOW
WHAT THAT IS.

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WE WANT TO BE
LIKE YOU.

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I'’M NOT COMFORTABLE
USING AROUND HIM...

219
00:13:56,628 --> 00:13:59,631
NOT UNTIL I FIND OUT
WHY SHE SENT HIM.

220
00:14:03,221 --> 00:14:05,637
TELL US WHAT
YOU THINK OF US.

221
00:14:05,637 --> 00:14:08,054
Man #2: WHAT'’S IT LIKE
TO SPEND ALL YOUR TIME
IN A CHAIR?

222
00:14:08,054 --> 00:14:10,539
THEY DON'’T SAY
"IN A CHAIR."

223
00:14:10,539 --> 00:14:13,714
SIT "ON A CHAIR."

224
00:14:13,714 --> 00:14:15,647
WE JUST WANT PEOPLE
TO ACCEPT US,

225
00:14:15,647 --> 00:14:17,891
ESPECIALLY PEOPLE
LIKE YOU.

226
00:14:20,238 --> 00:14:23,621
I'’M HAPPY TO ANSWER
ANY QUESTIONS
THAT YOU HAVE.

227
00:14:27,936 --> 00:14:31,077
TELL US WHAT
IT FEELS LIKE

228
00:14:31,077 --> 00:14:33,631
NOT TO FEEL.

229
00:14:33,631 --> 00:14:38,532
WELL, I HAVE
PRETTY GOOD SENSATION,
ACTUALLY,

230
00:14:38,532 --> 00:14:41,259
NOT TOO MUCH ATROPHY.

231
00:14:41,259 --> 00:14:44,745
MY LAST RUNNING DREAM
WAS 1992.

232
00:14:44,745 --> 00:14:46,747
I DON'’T BELIEVE
IN HOPE

233
00:14:46,747 --> 00:14:49,474
BUT I HOPE
TO WALK AGAIN
SOMEDAY,

234
00:14:49,474 --> 00:14:51,718
IF THAT MAKES
ANY SENSE.

235
00:14:51,718 --> 00:14:53,720
I WORK OUT
EVERY DAY--

236
00:14:53,720 --> 00:14:56,550
ORTHOTRON,
STIM MACHINE.

237
00:14:56,550 --> 00:14:59,001
I SWIM.

238
00:14:59,001 --> 00:15:01,141
I STAY STRONG

239
00:15:01,141 --> 00:15:03,903
SO I KNOW
WHEN THE DAY COMES
MY LEGS WILL BE THERE.

240
00:15:06,043 --> 00:15:09,253
YOU ARE PERFECT.

241
00:15:11,807 --> 00:15:15,259
I HAVE TO SAY, UH...

242
00:15:15,259 --> 00:15:17,640
MY NAME IS
ISAAC KNOTT

243
00:15:17,640 --> 00:15:19,159
AND I WORK FOR...

244
00:15:19,159 --> 00:15:21,713
...PUBLIC RADIO
NEW YORK.

245
00:15:21,713 --> 00:15:25,959
- Woman: WHAT?
- ISAAC KNOTT.

246
00:15:25,959 --> 00:15:28,410
HE TELLS STORIES
ON THE RADIO.

247
00:15:30,757 --> 00:15:33,001
YES, IT'’S TRUE.

248
00:15:33,001 --> 00:15:35,003
I WANT TO TELL
YOUR STORIES,

249
00:15:35,003 --> 00:15:37,281
ALL OF YOU.

250
00:15:43,459 --> 00:15:45,634
NO, PLEASE...

251
00:15:46,980 --> 00:15:49,914
PLEASE.

252
00:15:49,914 --> 00:15:52,986
JUST PLEASE--

253
00:16:02,237 --> 00:16:04,239
YOU SAID YOU WANT
ACCEPTANCE,

254
00:16:04,239 --> 00:16:06,896
RIGHT?
LET ME PUT YOU
ON THE RADIO.

255
00:16:06,896 --> 00:16:08,657
YOU CAN MAKE
YOUR CASE.

256
00:16:26,399 --> 00:16:28,918
Isaac'’s voice:
THIS IS WHAT
I REMEMBER:

257
00:16:28,918 --> 00:16:30,920
WE ARE
ON OUR WAY HOME,

258
00:16:30,920 --> 00:16:32,957
RETURNING FROM
A LITTLE LEAGUE GAME.

259
00:16:32,957 --> 00:16:35,960
MY TEAM LOST.

260
00:16:35,960 --> 00:16:38,342
WE'’RE GOING
BY THE TULIP FARMS

261
00:16:38,342 --> 00:16:41,621
BECAUSE MY DAD HOPES
THE DRIVE WILL
CHEER ME UP.

262
00:16:41,621 --> 00:16:43,657
THE WEATHER CONDITIONS
ARE NORMAL

263
00:16:43,657 --> 00:16:45,866
FOR A SPRING DAY
IN UPSTATE NEW YORK--

264
00:16:45,866 --> 00:16:48,766
CLOUDY WITH SHOWERS
ON THE WAY.

265
00:16:48,766 --> 00:16:50,768
MY MOTHER'’S EATING
HARD CANDY

266
00:16:50,768 --> 00:16:53,805
SHE KEEPS IN A BAG
IN A GLOVE COMPARTMENT.

267
00:16:53,805 --> 00:16:56,981
SHE KISSES MY FATHER.
SHE TURNS TO ME.

268
00:16:56,981 --> 00:17:00,364
SHE THROWS ME
A PIECE OF CANDY.

269
00:17:00,364 --> 00:17:02,883
THIS IS WHERE
I STOP REMEMBERING.

270
00:17:02,883 --> 00:17:04,885
[ birds crowing ]

271
00:17:04,885 --> 00:17:06,922
Child'’s voice:
WAKE UP.

272
00:17:06,922 --> 00:17:09,166
[ people arguing
in distance ]

273
00:17:26,459 --> 00:17:29,462
DID I TELL YOU
I'’M HAVING MY
HOUSEWARMING PARTY

274
00:17:29,462 --> 00:17:31,809
- AND THAT
YOU'’RE INVITED?
- [ phone ringing ]

275
00:17:31,809 --> 00:17:34,708
IF YOU PITY ME,
MUSSLEWHITE,
I WILL KILL YOU.

276
00:17:34,708 --> 00:17:36,745
[ chuckles ]
OKAY.

277
00:17:36,745 --> 00:17:39,196
[ phone continues
ringing ]

278
00:17:41,991 --> 00:17:44,408
ISAAC KNOTT'’S DESK.

279
00:17:44,408 --> 00:17:46,341
ONE MOMENT, PLEASE.

280
00:17:49,930 --> 00:17:52,899
- THIS IS ISAAC.
- Woman: Isaac Knott?

281
00:17:52,899 --> 00:17:56,005
RIGHT.

282
00:17:56,005 --> 00:17:57,283
HELLO?

283
00:17:57,283 --> 00:17:59,595
Hi. It'’s
Ancient Chinese Girl.

284
00:17:59,595 --> 00:18:01,666
You never
called me back.

285
00:18:01,666 --> 00:18:04,600
UH, SORRY
ABOUT THAT.

286
00:18:04,600 --> 00:18:06,637
I-- WE GET A LOT
OF ANONYMOUS CALLS

287
00:18:06,637 --> 00:18:10,330
AROUND HERE.
I GOT YOUR EMAIL.

288
00:18:10,330 --> 00:18:12,436
I'’ve been
studying these people
for a long time.

289
00:18:12,436 --> 00:18:15,335
- Anonymity is
everything to them.
- ARE YOU A PSYCHOLOGIST?

290
00:18:15,335 --> 00:18:18,166
No, I study them
because, uh,

291
00:18:18,166 --> 00:18:20,168
I want
to understand why.

292
00:18:20,168 --> 00:18:23,378
WHY?
WHY WHAT?

293
00:18:23,378 --> 00:18:27,244
Why they want
to be paralyzed.

294
00:18:28,659 --> 00:18:31,248
Do you want
to understand why, Isaac?

295
00:18:31,248 --> 00:18:33,560
LISTEN, CAN WE--
CAN WE MEET SOMETIME--

296
00:18:33,560 --> 00:18:35,976
LIKE SAY, NOW?

297
00:18:48,782 --> 00:18:51,440
- HI.
- HI.

298
00:18:51,440 --> 00:18:54,409
I'’VE NEVER
ACTUALLY SEEN
ONE OF THESE UP CLOSE.

299
00:18:54,409 --> 00:18:56,411
IS IT HARD
TO GET A CAB
AROUND HERE?

300
00:18:56,411 --> 00:18:58,861
FOR ME IT IS.

301
00:18:58,861 --> 00:19:00,277
HOP IN.

302
00:19:09,803 --> 00:19:11,840
I'’M FIONA.

303
00:19:11,840 --> 00:19:15,395
- [ beeps ]
- ISAAC.
MIND IF I RECORD?

304
00:19:15,395 --> 00:19:18,329
WHY RECORD ME?

305
00:19:22,816 --> 00:19:24,818
- [ beeps ]
- HAVE YOU EATEN LUNCH?

306
00:19:24,818 --> 00:19:27,235
THERE'’S A GREAT PLACE
NEARBY.

307
00:19:27,235 --> 00:19:31,446
REALLY?
UM, WELL,

308
00:19:31,446 --> 00:19:33,896
WHY DON'’T WE GO
SOMEPLACE NEITHER OF US
HAS EVER BEEN?

309
00:19:41,421 --> 00:19:43,320
[ recorder beeps ]

310
00:19:47,876 --> 00:19:49,947
[ speaking Chinese ]

311
00:19:52,777 --> 00:19:54,710
[ waitress speaks Chinese ]

312
00:19:57,989 --> 00:20:00,026
I THOUGHT YOU SAID
YOU'’D NEVER BEEN HERE.

313
00:20:00,026 --> 00:20:02,062
I HAVEN'’T.

314
00:20:02,062 --> 00:20:05,411
I LOVE THE CULTURE.
I SPECIALIZE IN
CHINESE ART

315
00:20:05,411 --> 00:20:07,654
AND CHINESE ICE CREAM.
OH, MAN,

316
00:20:07,654 --> 00:20:10,761
I RECOMMEND GINGER.
IT'’S VERY GOOD.

317
00:20:10,761 --> 00:20:12,763
NOW LAST NIGHT
THEY WERE TALKING

318
00:20:12,763 --> 00:20:15,766
ABOUT SOMEONE
NAMED GINGER JAKE.
IS SHE CHINESE?

319
00:20:15,766 --> 00:20:19,183
UH, JAMAICAN,
I THINK.

320
00:20:21,185 --> 00:20:23,843
WHAT'’S THE DEAL?
PEOPLE GO TO HER

321
00:20:23,843 --> 00:20:26,673
TO GET PARALYZED?

322
00:20:26,673 --> 00:20:28,710
AS I UNDERSTAND IT,
YES.

323
00:20:28,710 --> 00:20:30,677
WHAT DOES SHE DO
TO THEM?

324
00:20:33,266 --> 00:20:35,924
YOU KNOW WHAT, PAL?

325
00:20:35,924 --> 00:20:38,789
I'’M NOT
THE CASE STUDY HERE.

326
00:20:38,789 --> 00:20:41,826
OKAY?
YOU TALK FIRST.

327
00:20:45,105 --> 00:20:47,522
WHAT DO YOU WANT
TO KNOW?

328
00:20:47,522 --> 00:20:50,110
TELL ME HOW YOU BECAME
PARALYZED.

329
00:20:53,907 --> 00:20:57,014
I WAS EIGHT.
MY PARENTS WERE DRIVING.

330
00:20:57,014 --> 00:20:59,188
THEY DIED.
I LIVED.

331
00:20:59,188 --> 00:21:02,502
THE OTHER DRIVER
WAS UNDERAGE,

332
00:21:02,502 --> 00:21:05,574
SO THE RECORDS
WERE SEALED.

333
00:21:05,574 --> 00:21:07,576
I CALL HER
"THE POMPOM GIRL"

334
00:21:07,576 --> 00:21:10,372
BECAUSE I REMEMBER
SEEING THESE POMPOMS.

335
00:21:13,582 --> 00:21:16,205
PARALYZED
BY A CHEERLEADER.

336
00:21:17,759 --> 00:21:19,623
YOUR TURN.

337
00:21:21,590 --> 00:21:23,592
SO TALK ABOUT
YOUR FRIEND.

338
00:21:23,592 --> 00:21:27,009
WHAT MAKES HIM
WANT TO BE LIKE ME?

339
00:21:29,564 --> 00:21:32,291
YOU KNOW, I'’VE NEVER
TALKED ABOUT THIS
TO ANYONE.

340
00:21:35,501 --> 00:21:38,642
SO WHY DO YOU THINK
SOMEONE WOULD WANT
TO BE PARALYZED

341
00:21:38,642 --> 00:21:41,230
WHO ISN'’T?
GIVE ME YOUR
WORKING THEORY.

342
00:21:41,230 --> 00:21:43,854
[ chuckles ]

343
00:21:43,854 --> 00:21:46,270
I CAN'’T BELIEVE
I'’M TALKING TO YOU.

344
00:21:46,270 --> 00:21:49,204
- ABOUT THIS?
- YES. NO. YES.

345
00:21:49,204 --> 00:21:51,482
NO NO NO NO, I MEAN,
IT'’S YOU, YOU KNOW?

346
00:21:51,482 --> 00:21:53,484
I MEAN, YOU'’RE, LIKE,
THE RADIO GUY.

347
00:21:53,484 --> 00:21:56,763
SAY WHATEVER YOU WANT.
WHOEVER YOUR FRIEND IS,

348
00:21:56,763 --> 00:21:59,076
THEY'’LL NEVER KNOW
I'’M QUOTING YOU.

349
00:21:59,076 --> 00:22:02,666
OKAY OKAY, UM...

350
00:22:05,876 --> 00:22:08,327
IT'’S JUST--
IT'’S HARDER THAN
I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE.

351
00:22:08,327 --> 00:22:10,329
- WHY?
- OKAY, ALL RIGHT,
ALL RIGHT.

352
00:22:10,329 --> 00:22:13,159
HERE'’S THE DEAL,
ALL RIGHT?

353
00:22:13,159 --> 00:22:17,301
I WANT TO KNOW
WHY MY FRIEND WANTS
TO BE A PARAPLEGIC, OKAY?

354
00:22:17,301 --> 00:22:21,305
SO THIS
FOR ME IS ALL ABOUT
UNDERSTANDING YOU.

355
00:22:21,305 --> 00:22:25,309
AND, YOU KNOW,
THEN I'’LL TELL YOU
WHATEVER YOU WANT.

356
00:22:25,309 --> 00:22:27,932
SO, QUID PRO QUO.

357
00:22:27,932 --> 00:22:29,969
I WANT YOUR LIFE, PAL,

358
00:22:29,969 --> 00:22:33,904
AS A PARAPLEGIC,
IN DETAIL.

359
00:22:33,904 --> 00:22:37,045
YOU WANT MY LIFE?

360
00:22:37,045 --> 00:22:38,978
ALL RIGHT.

361
00:22:41,325 --> 00:22:44,570
AT MY WORK
I HAVE THIS GUY

362
00:22:44,570 --> 00:22:47,676
WHO HATES ME.

363
00:22:47,676 --> 00:22:50,610
BECAUSE YOU'’RE
PARAPLEGIC?

364
00:22:50,610 --> 00:22:53,510
NO, BECAUSE
HE'’S A DICK.

365
00:22:53,510 --> 00:22:57,514
I HAVE ONE OF THOSE
AT MY JOB.

366
00:22:57,514 --> 00:22:59,999
WHERE DO YOU WORK?

367
00:22:59,999 --> 00:23:02,035
UM...

368
00:23:02,035 --> 00:23:05,211
I'’M A CONSERVATOR.
I FREELANCE.

369
00:23:05,211 --> 00:23:07,386
RIGHT NOW I'’M DOING
THE NEW COLLECTION

370
00:23:07,386 --> 00:23:10,354
- AT THE VAN PLATT MUSEUM.
- THERE YOU GO.

371
00:23:10,354 --> 00:23:12,391
I'’M SURE AL QAEDA
HAS SOMEONE

372
00:23:12,391 --> 00:23:14,876
WHO COMES TO
THE CAVE EVERY MORNING
AND SOMEBODY WHISPERS,

373
00:23:14,876 --> 00:23:17,188
"THAT GUY HAS
NO SELF-AWARENESS
WHATSOEVER."

374
00:23:17,188 --> 00:23:19,087
WELL, MAYBE HE THINKS
YOU'’REA DICK.

375
00:23:19,087 --> 00:23:21,503
NO, HE THINKS
I'’M A GIMP.

376
00:23:21,503 --> 00:23:24,541
WHAT IS THAT?
IS THAT, LIKE,
A REPORTER THING

377
00:23:24,541 --> 00:23:27,406
WHERE LATER
YOU'’LL SAY,

378
00:23:27,406 --> 00:23:29,477
"MENTIONED THE WORD '’GIMP'
AND SHE LAUGHS."

379
00:23:29,477 --> 00:23:31,824
- YES.
- YES?

380
00:23:31,824 --> 00:23:36,415
I'’M PAINFULLY
AWARE, OKAY?
I'’M TOO AWARE.

381
00:23:37,485 --> 00:23:39,348
WELL, THEN YOU KNOW
I LIKE YOU.

382
00:23:39,348 --> 00:23:41,523
UH-OH, THAT MEANS
YOU ARE WEIRD.

383
00:23:41,523 --> 00:23:43,663
NO, I'’M EASY.
I LIKE ANYBODY
WHO LIKES ME, SO...

384
00:23:49,462 --> 00:23:52,534
OKAY.

385
00:23:52,534 --> 00:23:57,470
WHAT IF
I INTRODUCED YOU
TO MY FRIEND?

386
00:23:59,161 --> 00:24:01,198
THEN I'’D LIKE THAT.

387
00:24:01,198 --> 00:24:04,857
THEN THE QUESTION IS,
WHAT WILL YOU
DO FOR ME?

388
00:24:04,857 --> 00:24:07,894
OH, RIGHT.
IT'’S ALWAYS QUID PRO QUO
WITH THIS GIRL.

389
00:24:10,000 --> 00:24:11,726
[ lock rattles ]

390
00:24:19,803 --> 00:24:22,081
[ clock ticking softly ]

391
00:25:12,959 --> 00:25:15,203
[ soft squeaks ]

392
00:25:32,738 --> 00:25:34,256
DON'’T TOUCH
THAT VASE.

393
00:25:34,256 --> 00:25:36,155
IT'’S WORTH MORE
THAN THIS BUILDING.

394
00:25:40,677 --> 00:25:42,679
OFFENDED?

395
00:25:42,679 --> 00:25:44,922
I WANT
TO KNOW MORE.

396
00:25:46,199 --> 00:25:49,099
YOU KNOW HOW YOU HAVE
APARTMENT FANTASIES

397
00:25:49,099 --> 00:25:52,171
WHEN YOU'’RE
A TEENAGER?

398
00:25:52,171 --> 00:25:54,173
MINE WAS
TO GET A PLACE

399
00:25:54,173 --> 00:25:56,175
SO I COULD SHUT
THE CURTAINS ALL DAY

400
00:25:56,175 --> 00:25:59,419
AND WALK AROUND
IN MY MILWAUKEE BRACE.

401
00:25:59,419 --> 00:26:01,421
AND YOU KNOW WHAT?

402
00:26:01,421 --> 00:26:05,529
IT'’S BETTER THAN
I EVER IMAGINED.

403
00:26:05,529 --> 00:26:09,637
SO THIS IS
A SEXUAL THING
FOR YOU MAINLY.

404
00:26:11,949 --> 00:26:14,573
PEOPLE WHO GET OFF
ON BRACES AND WHEELCHAIRS

405
00:26:14,573 --> 00:26:16,954
ARE CALLED DEVOTEES.

406
00:26:16,954 --> 00:26:19,508
THEY'’RE A JOKE.
THEY'’RE THE BOTTOM RUNG.

407
00:26:19,508 --> 00:26:21,925
ABOVE THEM ARE
THE PRETENDERS.

408
00:26:21,925 --> 00:26:24,306
THEY WEAR THE BRACES,
THEY PUSH THE WHEELS,

409
00:26:24,306 --> 00:26:26,964
BUT THEY DON'’T BELONG
TO THEIR CHAIRS.

410
00:26:26,964 --> 00:26:28,966
STILL, IF THEY WANT
TO FANTASIZE,

411
00:26:28,966 --> 00:26:31,106
THAT'’S THEIR CHOICE.

412
00:26:31,106 --> 00:26:34,972
THEN THERE ARE
THE WANNABES.

413
00:26:34,972 --> 00:26:38,286
YOU SAW HOW CRAZY
THEY ARE.

414
00:26:38,286 --> 00:26:40,288
WHAT MAKESYOU
DIFFERENT

415
00:26:40,288 --> 00:26:43,740
THAN A WANNABE
OR A PRETENDER?

416
00:26:43,740 --> 00:26:45,742
I'’M A UNIQUE CASE.

417
00:26:45,742 --> 00:26:48,814
I DON'’T WANT TO BE
PARALYZED.

418
00:26:48,814 --> 00:26:50,988
YOU DON'’T?

419
00:26:50,988 --> 00:26:53,750
I ALREADY AM
PARALYZED.

420
00:26:53,750 --> 00:26:56,338
I'’M JUST TRAPPED
IN A WALKING PERSON'’S
BODY.

421
00:27:00,342 --> 00:27:03,000
[ sighs deeply ]

422
00:27:08,488 --> 00:27:10,732
YOU MAKE ME
SO NERVOUS.

423
00:27:12,492 --> 00:27:14,563
THE OTHER DAY
I DECIDED

424
00:27:14,563 --> 00:27:16,565
THAT NERVOUSNESS
IS SHAME

425
00:27:16,565 --> 00:27:19,016
SOMEONE CATCHES YOU
FEELING.

426
00:27:19,016 --> 00:27:21,847
AND I ASK MYSELF,
WHY AM I ASHAMED?

427
00:27:21,847 --> 00:27:23,849
AND IF YOU ARE,
WHY DO YOU CONTINUE

428
00:27:23,849 --> 00:27:25,747
TO DO THIS?

429
00:28:03,612 --> 00:28:05,511
I CAN'’T.
I CAN'’T.

430
00:28:05,511 --> 00:28:10,343
I GUESSED YOU WERE
A T12 OR A T11
INCOMPLETE.

431
00:28:10,343 --> 00:28:12,449
- WHAT WAS IT,
A LUMBAR LESION?
- NOT THAT.

432
00:28:12,449 --> 00:28:14,416
LISTEN, THAT'’S NOT
THE PROBLEM.

433
00:28:14,416 --> 00:28:16,453
I CAN HAVE SEX.

434
00:28:16,453 --> 00:28:18,766
THE PROBLEM IS,
THERE'’S SOMEONE ELSE.

435
00:28:18,766 --> 00:28:20,768
WHO?

436
00:28:20,768 --> 00:28:23,287
SHE'’S PARAPLEGIC.

437
00:28:26,118 --> 00:28:28,120
I DON'’T KNOW
WHY I JUST SAID THAT.

438
00:28:28,120 --> 00:28:30,191
I DON'’T DESCRIBE PEOPLE
BY THEIR INJURIES.

439
00:28:30,191 --> 00:28:32,193
SHE'’S--
HER NAME IS RAINE.

440
00:28:36,266 --> 00:28:37,992
IS SHE
YOUR GIRLFRIEND?

441
00:28:37,992 --> 00:28:40,304
SORT OF.
I ASKED HER
TO MARRY ME.

442
00:28:40,304 --> 00:28:42,755
I DON'’T KNOW
IF THAT COUNTS.

443
00:28:44,515 --> 00:28:47,311
SHE SAID NO.
SHE HAS THIS IDEA

444
00:28:47,311 --> 00:28:49,279
THAT ONE PERSON
IN EVERY MARRIAGE

445
00:28:49,279 --> 00:28:51,695
SHOULD BE ABLE
TO WALK.

446
00:28:51,695 --> 00:28:53,697
SO THAT DOESN'’T
REALLY--

447
00:28:53,697 --> 00:28:56,010
THAT DOESN'’T
REALLY COUNT.

448
00:28:57,218 --> 00:28:59,151
THIS IS GOOD NEWS.

449
00:29:02,292 --> 00:29:04,846
I'’M SURE SHE'LL
CHANGE HER MIND.

450
00:29:07,159 --> 00:29:09,402
I HOPE SO.

451
00:29:09,402 --> 00:29:11,508
AND IF SHE DOESN'’T,
SHE'’S CRAZIER
THAN I AM,

452
00:29:11,508 --> 00:29:14,442
AND HOW CRAZY IS THAT?
[ laughs ]

453
00:29:14,442 --> 00:29:16,444
IT'’S NOT YOU, FIONA.

454
00:29:29,595 --> 00:29:32,184
YOU PROBABLY THINK
I'’D JUMP ANYTHING
IN A WHEELCHAIR.

455
00:29:32,184 --> 00:29:34,807
NO, I DON'’T.
I'’M JUST TRYING
TO UNDERSTAND.

456
00:29:40,192 --> 00:29:42,194
I'’VE NEVER SHOWN
ANY OF THIS

457
00:29:42,194 --> 00:29:44,817
TO ANY LIVING SOUL,
EVER.

458
00:29:51,651 --> 00:29:54,447
THERE ARE
SOME THINGS YOU'’RE NOT
SUPPOSED TO SHOW.

459
00:29:59,521 --> 00:30:01,558
OH, WELL.

460
00:30:01,558 --> 00:30:05,838
I DON'’T HAVE TO GO.
YOU CAN TALK TO ME.

461
00:30:05,838 --> 00:30:08,358
I NEED TO USE
MY CHAIR RIGHT NOW

462
00:30:08,358 --> 00:30:10,153
AND I CAN'’T DO THAT
IN FRONT OF YOU.

463
00:30:10,153 --> 00:30:11,982
YOU CAN TRUST ME.

464
00:30:11,982 --> 00:30:14,364
I'’VE BEEN COMPLETELY
HONEST WITH YOU.

465
00:30:22,268 --> 00:30:24,857
TOMORROW I'’M GONNA USE
MY CHAIR IN PUBLIC

466
00:30:24,857 --> 00:30:26,859
FOR THE FIRST TIME

467
00:30:26,859 --> 00:30:31,070
AND YOU, PAL,
ARE CORDIALLY INVITED.

468
00:30:31,070 --> 00:30:33,107
AND NOW I WANT
TO THANK YOU

469
00:30:33,107 --> 00:30:37,628
FOR A WONDERFUL,
SO WONDERFUL DAY.

470
00:31:11,352 --> 00:31:13,941
Isaac'’s voice:
THERE ARE NOT HUNDREDS
BUT THOUSANDS,

471
00:31:13,941 --> 00:31:16,391
ALL OF THEM INVISIBLE,
UNLIKE THE PRETENDERS,

472
00:31:16,391 --> 00:31:18,877
THE FETISHISTS,
THE PERVERTS.

473
00:31:18,877 --> 00:31:21,017
EVEN THE AMPUTEE WANNABES
GET A NAME--

474
00:31:21,017 --> 00:31:23,157
"BODY INTEGRITY
IDENTITY DISORDER,"

475
00:31:23,157 --> 00:31:24,986
BUT FOR
PARALYSIS WANNABES

476
00:31:24,986 --> 00:31:27,644
THERE IS NO
KNOWN PATHOLOGY.

477
00:31:27,644 --> 00:31:30,129
THE DISORDER
IS ORDER.

478
00:31:32,373 --> 00:31:36,515
THIS IS A STRANGE
NEW AMERICAN DREAM--

479
00:31:38,344 --> 00:31:41,451
A WAY TO IMPROVE YOURSELF
A FEW DEAD LIMBS
AT A TIME.

480
00:31:41,451 --> 00:31:43,384
BUT WHY?

481
00:31:43,384 --> 00:31:46,352
WHAT MAKES SOMEONE
WANT TO BE PARALYZED
WHO ISN'’T?

482
00:31:46,352 --> 00:31:48,009
OH, GOOD SHOT.

483
00:31:52,565 --> 00:31:55,741
MY FRIEND DAVE AND I
MET AT A JESUIT SEMINARY

484
00:31:55,741 --> 00:31:59,158
WHERE I LANDED
AFTER A LONG SERIES
OF FOSTER HOMES.

485
00:31:59,158 --> 00:32:01,160
I THINK WE NEVER
REALLY FIGURED OUT

486
00:32:01,160 --> 00:32:02,990
IF HE WAS A BROTHER
OR A FATHER FIGURE,

487
00:32:02,990 --> 00:32:05,061
BUT HE'’S
THE ONLY FAMILY
THAT I REALLY HAVE.

488
00:32:10,204 --> 00:32:12,344
DAVE FELL ASLEEP
AT THE WHEEL OF HIS CAR

489
00:32:12,344 --> 00:32:14,104
WHEN HE WAS 17.

490
00:32:15,554 --> 00:32:18,143
YOU HAVEN'’T
MENTIONED RAINE.

491
00:32:18,143 --> 00:32:21,077
I HAVEN'’T SEEN HER
IN SIX WEEKS.

492
00:32:21,077 --> 00:32:25,046
MM-HMM.
DID YOU TWO
HAVE A FIGHT?

493
00:32:25,046 --> 00:32:26,875
SORT OF.

494
00:32:26,875 --> 00:32:29,395
I ASKED HER
TO MARRY ME.

495
00:32:29,395 --> 00:32:32,536
- WHAT DID SHE SAY?
- SHE BROKE UP WITH ME.

496
00:32:32,536 --> 00:32:35,746
APPARENTLY, I'’M NOT
HUSBAND MATERIAL.

497
00:32:35,746 --> 00:32:38,818
YOU'’LL NEVER GUESS WHY.

498
00:32:41,235 --> 00:32:44,203
YOU EVER HAVE
ANYONE CONFESS

499
00:32:44,203 --> 00:32:46,240
THEY WANTED TO BE
AN AMPUTEE

500
00:32:46,240 --> 00:32:48,173
OR PARALYZED?

501
00:32:53,972 --> 00:32:55,974
YOU'’D BE SURPRISED
WHAT SOME PEOPLE

502
00:32:55,974 --> 00:32:58,666
WANT TO DO
TO THEMSELVES.

503
00:33:00,530 --> 00:33:03,567
I'’M DOING
THIS STORY...

504
00:33:05,017 --> 00:33:07,502
I CAN'’T DISCUSS
WHAT I HEAR IN CONFESSION,

505
00:33:07,502 --> 00:33:09,988
NOT EVEN WITH YOU.

506
00:33:09,988 --> 00:33:11,990
NO, I WOULDN'’T
PRESUME--

507
00:33:11,990 --> 00:33:13,922
UH-HUH.

508
00:33:20,032 --> 00:33:23,380
THERE'’S A LOT
OF MIXED-UP PEOPLE
IN THIS WORLD.

509
00:33:23,380 --> 00:33:25,693
RAINE IS ONLY
ONE OF THEM.

510
00:33:25,693 --> 00:33:28,627
UM... YES,
THERE HE IS.

511
00:33:28,627 --> 00:33:30,560
OKAY, THANK YOU.

512
00:33:38,947 --> 00:33:40,880
THANK YOU.

513
00:33:42,848 --> 00:33:44,091
HI.

514
00:33:46,334 --> 00:33:48,785
WHOO.
ARE PEOPLE STARING?

515
00:33:48,785 --> 00:33:50,683
I CAN'’T TELL
IF IT'’S JUST ME.

516
00:33:50,683 --> 00:33:52,720
PROBABLY
A LITTLE OF BOTH.

517
00:33:52,720 --> 00:33:57,725
YEAH, WELL, THIS WAS
A GOOD SUGGESTION.

518
00:33:57,725 --> 00:34:00,659
THANK YOU.

519
00:34:04,628 --> 00:34:07,873
OH MY GOD,
THAT WOMAN IS
STARING AT ME.

520
00:34:09,978 --> 00:34:12,360
THIS IS
AN INCREDIBLE FEELING.

521
00:34:12,360 --> 00:34:15,950
OH, GOD.
THIS IS SO INCREDIBLE.

522
00:34:15,950 --> 00:34:17,952
YOU KNOW,
I HAVE DREAMED

523
00:34:17,952 --> 00:34:19,919
ABOUT THIS MOMENT
FOR SO LONG.

524
00:34:19,919 --> 00:34:24,062
IT FELT LIKE 20 YEARS
JUST TO GET A CAB.

525
00:34:24,062 --> 00:34:27,410
WELCOME TO HELL.
I'’LL INTRODUCE YOU
TO THE STAFF.

526
00:34:27,410 --> 00:34:30,171
I WANT YOU TO STOP ME
IF I'’M DOING ANYTHING
WRONG, OKAY?

527
00:34:30,171 --> 00:34:31,862
- YOU'’RE DOING FINE.
- NO, SERIOUSLY,

528
00:34:31,862 --> 00:34:33,623
I WANT YOU TO TELL ME
IF THERE'’S ANYTHING

529
00:34:33,623 --> 00:34:36,453
I SHOULD BE
DOING DIFFERENTLY OR
SHOULDN'’T BE DOING AT ALL.

530
00:34:36,453 --> 00:34:38,455
- HI.
- HI.

531
00:34:38,455 --> 00:34:40,664
FIONA, THIS IS--
THIS IS RAINE.

532
00:34:40,664 --> 00:34:43,460
- WHO?
- RAINE.

533
00:34:43,460 --> 00:34:46,394
OH. OH!

534
00:34:46,394 --> 00:34:48,293
- HELLO.
- HI!

535
00:34:48,293 --> 00:34:49,949
ISAAC HAS TOLD ME
SO MUCH ABOUT YOU.

536
00:34:49,949 --> 00:34:52,400
HE TALKS ABOUT YOU
ALL THE TIME.

537
00:34:52,400 --> 00:34:55,023
THIS IS MY FRIEND FIONA.

538
00:34:55,023 --> 00:34:56,508
HI.
I'’M THE EX.

539
00:34:56,508 --> 00:34:58,372
- HI.
- APPARENTLY,
WE HAVEN'’T DECIDED

540
00:34:58,372 --> 00:35:00,684
WHO GETS TO KEEP
THE RESTAURANT YET.

541
00:35:00,684 --> 00:35:02,721
- Fiona: RIGHT.
- NICE CHAIR.

542
00:35:02,721 --> 00:35:05,689
THANK YOU.
IT'’S A GOOD RIDE, EH?

543
00:35:06,759 --> 00:35:09,417
WE WERE JUST LEAVING.

544
00:35:09,417 --> 00:35:12,075
- WHO WAS LEAVING?
- OH, SCOTT AND I.

545
00:35:12,075 --> 00:35:14,077
WHO'’S SCOTT?

546
00:35:14,077 --> 00:35:16,148
Raine:
YEAH, HE'’S JUST
FINISHING.

547
00:35:19,255 --> 00:35:21,602
[ quietly ]
HI, SCOTT.

548
00:35:25,640 --> 00:35:27,642
RAINE, YOU HAVE
TO HELP ME.

549
00:35:27,642 --> 00:35:30,783
ISAAC AND I
WERE JUST TALKING
ABOUT FLYING TO NEVIS.

550
00:35:30,783 --> 00:35:32,992
IT'’S A WONDERFUL ISLAND.
HAVE YOU BEEN?

551
00:35:32,992 --> 00:35:36,306
- NO, I HAVEN'’T.
- OH, WELL, HE WON'’T BUDGE.

552
00:35:36,306 --> 00:35:39,033
I REALLY WANT
TO GET OUT OF THE CITY,
BUT HE JUST WON'’T DO IT.

553
00:35:39,033 --> 00:35:41,069
ENCOURAGE HIM.

554
00:35:41,069 --> 00:35:43,210
- WHAT THE HELL,
YOU SHOULD DO IT.
- HE SHOULD.

555
00:35:43,210 --> 00:35:46,109
- YEAH, WE'’LL SEE.
- YEAH, HE WON'’T BUDGE.

556
00:35:49,630 --> 00:35:51,563
RAINE, IT'’S A REAL
PLEASURE TO MEET YOU

557
00:35:51,563 --> 00:35:54,152
FINALLY.

558
00:35:55,463 --> 00:35:57,465
GOOD TO MEET YOU,
FIONA.

559
00:35:57,465 --> 00:35:59,226
IT WAS GOOD
TO SEE YOU.

560
00:36:09,822 --> 00:36:12,170
OH MY GOD.

561
00:36:12,170 --> 00:36:14,172
WAS I OKAY?

562
00:36:14,172 --> 00:36:17,175
WHAT?
I SAID SOMETHING WRONG,
DIDN'’T I?

563
00:36:17,175 --> 00:36:19,453
YOU DIDN'’T
FEEL ME KICKING YOU
UNDER THE TABLE?

564
00:36:21,351 --> 00:36:23,353
NO.

565
00:36:23,353 --> 00:36:25,735
JUST HOLD ON
ONE SECOND.

566
00:36:31,189 --> 00:36:32,983
RAINE!

567
00:38:05,559 --> 00:38:08,389
[ thunder rumbles,
rain pattering ]

568
00:38:28,133 --> 00:38:30,238
[ knocks on door ]

569
00:38:42,112 --> 00:38:44,460
HI.
YOU FORGOT THIS.

570
00:38:44,460 --> 00:38:47,359
- I'’M SO SORRY.
- DON'’T BE.

571
00:38:47,359 --> 00:38:51,639
I'’VE HAD THE MOST
INCREDIBLE DAY.

572
00:38:51,639 --> 00:38:54,124
SAME HERE.
UNBELIEVABLE.

573
00:38:54,124 --> 00:38:57,507
ISAAC, I FINALLY
STOPPED WORRYING
AND JUST STARTED BEING.

574
00:38:57,507 --> 00:39:02,063
AND I FOUND OUT
THAT I CAN DO ANYTHING.

575
00:39:02,063 --> 00:39:04,065
OOPS. OOPS.

576
00:39:04,065 --> 00:39:06,067
[ chuckles ]
YOU KNOW WHAT?

577
00:39:06,067 --> 00:39:08,104
I GOT STUCK
IN A BUILDING

578
00:39:08,104 --> 00:39:11,763
THAT HAD
THE POWER DOOR IN FRONT
BUT NO RAMP

579
00:39:11,763 --> 00:39:14,144
AND THEN A RAMP IN BACK
WITH NO POWER DOOR

580
00:39:14,144 --> 00:39:16,215
AND IT PISSED ME OFF.
I YELLED AT SOME CITY GUY

581
00:39:16,215 --> 00:39:18,217
FOR MORE CURB CUTS.

582
00:39:18,217 --> 00:39:20,979
YOU KNOW WHAT?
I WAS JUST HEADING OUT.

583
00:39:22,739 --> 00:39:24,707
WHERE ARE YOU GOING?

584
00:39:24,707 --> 00:39:27,295
UH...

585
00:39:27,295 --> 00:39:29,159
I WAS GONNA GO TALK

586
00:39:29,159 --> 00:39:31,196
TO THE DOOR GUY
OR BROOSTER.

587
00:39:31,196 --> 00:39:33,854
YOU WERE GONNA GO
TALK TO THE DOOR GUY
OR BROOSTER?

588
00:39:33,854 --> 00:39:35,787
ABOUT WHAT?

589
00:39:37,375 --> 00:39:39,618
I JUST DIDN'’T
WANT TO BE ALONE.

590
00:42:35,449 --> 00:42:37,382
Child'’s voice:
WAKE UP.

591
00:43:25,361 --> 00:43:27,466
Isaac'’s voice:
MY FIRST THOUGHT IS,

592
00:43:27,466 --> 00:43:30,124
"THERE'’S
SOMETHING IN MY SHOE
BESIDES MY FOOT."

593
00:43:38,167 --> 00:43:40,169
THEN I FEEL
A PIN DART,

594
00:43:40,169 --> 00:43:42,171
THEN WAVES
OF HOT PINS

595
00:43:42,171 --> 00:43:44,691
TRAVELING
UP MY LEGS.

596
00:43:47,694 --> 00:43:51,111
THE URGE TO STAND
IS OVERWHELMING.

597
00:44:07,955 --> 00:44:09,957
SHOULD I CALL 911?

598
00:44:09,957 --> 00:44:11,856
BUT WHAT WOULD I SAY?

599
00:44:11,856 --> 00:44:14,513
"COME QUICKLY,
I'’M BEING HEALED"?

600
00:44:14,513 --> 00:44:17,137
AND THEN IT HITS ME--
MAYBE I'’M NOT.

601
00:44:31,185 --> 00:44:33,222
WHEN I TAKE
THE SHOES OFF

602
00:44:33,222 --> 00:44:36,743
THE HOT PINS
TURN TO ICE
AND THEN DISAPPEAR.

603
00:44:36,743 --> 00:44:39,124
I MIGHT AS WELL
BE TRYING TO MOVE
MOUNTAINS.

604
00:44:42,024 --> 00:44:44,129
[ grunts ]

605
00:44:55,865 --> 00:44:57,764
THIS IS FUCKED UP.

606
00:45:55,822 --> 00:45:57,893
[ traffic noise ]

607
00:46:01,344 --> 00:46:03,588
HOLY SHIT.

608
00:46:23,711 --> 00:46:26,404
YOU HAVE TO
TRUST YOURSELF.

609
00:46:26,404 --> 00:46:28,337
DON'’T WORRY
ABOUT IT.

610
00:46:42,454 --> 00:46:44,905
WHERE CAN I FIND
FIONA ANKANY?

611
00:46:44,905 --> 00:46:47,666
IT'’S A SURPRISE.

612
00:47:00,024 --> 00:47:02,060
HEY.

613
00:47:02,060 --> 00:47:04,683
OH, GOD.

614
00:47:04,683 --> 00:47:07,272
HELLO.

615
00:47:10,517 --> 00:47:12,553
I HAVE
THE COOLEST NEWS.

616
00:47:12,553 --> 00:47:15,487
I HAVE SOME
PRETTY COOL NEWS MYSELF.

617
00:47:15,487 --> 00:47:18,352
UM... I DON'’T KNOW
IF I SHOULD TELL YOU.

618
00:47:18,352 --> 00:47:21,079
- WHAT?
- OKAY, YOU FIRST.

619
00:47:21,079 --> 00:47:24,220
YOU SCRATCH MINE,
I SCRATCH YOURS.

620
00:47:24,220 --> 00:47:26,222
OKAY.
WELL...

621
00:47:26,222 --> 00:47:28,569
I HAVE DECIDED

622
00:47:28,569 --> 00:47:31,124
TO COME OUT

623
00:47:31,124 --> 00:47:33,574
ABOUT MY WHEELCHAIR.

624
00:47:33,574 --> 00:47:36,060
I'’M GOING TO TELL
MY MOTHER.

625
00:47:36,060 --> 00:47:38,062
YEAH, I'’M GOING
TO TELL HER

626
00:47:38,062 --> 00:47:39,787
AND THEN I'’M GOING
TO TELL EVERYBODY.

627
00:47:39,787 --> 00:47:43,274
I'’M GOING TO BE
IN MY WHEELCHAIR
24/7.

628
00:47:43,274 --> 00:47:45,863
OH, GOD,
THAT WOULD BE HEAVEN.

629
00:47:45,863 --> 00:47:47,899
THAT WOULD BE
SO HEAVEN,

630
00:47:47,899 --> 00:47:51,385
BUT I'’M SO NERVOUS
AND YOU HAVE TO
COME WITH ME.

631
00:47:51,385 --> 00:47:53,422
I WOULDN'’T MISS IT.

632
00:47:53,422 --> 00:47:55,873
YOU WOULDN'’T?

633
00:47:59,566 --> 00:48:02,776
- DO YOU WANT
TO HEAR MINE?
- YES.

634
00:48:02,776 --> 00:48:06,193
OKAY, BUT IT'’S
KIND OF... VISUAL.

635
00:48:06,193 --> 00:48:08,230
REALLY?

636
00:48:08,230 --> 00:48:10,888
UH-HUH.
SHOULD I BE SCARED?

637
00:48:17,860 --> 00:48:19,897
NO.
OH, GOD.

638
00:48:19,897 --> 00:48:22,554
[ laughs ]
I'’M SO SORRY.
I'’M SORRY. I'M SORRY.

639
00:48:22,554 --> 00:48:24,556
I SHOULDN'’T HAVE
SURPRISED YOU LIKE THAT.

640
00:48:24,556 --> 00:48:27,007
- I JUST COULDN'’T RESIST.
- OH MY GOD, NO.

641
00:48:27,007 --> 00:48:28,802
WAIT WAIT
WAIT WAIT WAIT.
WHAT? HOW?

642
00:48:28,802 --> 00:48:30,838
- IT WAS OUR SEX
LAST NIGHT.
- SHUT UP.

643
00:48:30,838 --> 00:48:33,669
I DON'’T KNOW
HOW IT HAPPENED.
THE POINT IS, I CAN WALK.

644
00:48:33,669 --> 00:48:35,671
OH MY GOD, OH MY GOD.
I'’M SHAKING.

645
00:48:35,671 --> 00:48:38,018
LOOK, YOU'’RE MAKING
ME SHAKE. LOOK WHAT
YOU'’RE DOING TO ME.

646
00:48:38,018 --> 00:48:41,056
- LOOK AT YOUR HANDS.
- NO. OKAY, YOU ARE
WEIRDING ME OUT.

647
00:48:41,056 --> 00:48:43,058
AND THAT IS NOT
EASY TO DO.

648
00:48:43,058 --> 00:48:45,060
IT'’S LIKE,
DID YOU EVER SNEEZE

649
00:48:45,060 --> 00:48:47,614
AND FEEL LIKE IT WAS
A SECOND CHANCE?

650
00:48:47,614 --> 00:48:49,650
YOU KNOW,
I'’M WALKING,

651
00:48:49,650 --> 00:48:51,652
I'’M SEEING A DRUNK
PUKE HIS ASS

652
00:48:51,652 --> 00:48:55,139
AND THEN THREE STEPS LATER
I'’M STANDING IN FRONT
OF A VAN GOGH,

653
00:48:55,139 --> 00:48:57,935
AND I DON'’T KNOW
WHICH ONE IS MORE
BEAUTIFUL.

654
00:49:06,081 --> 00:49:07,979
WHAT?

655
00:49:09,153 --> 00:49:11,707
I'’VE NEVER USED
MY CHAIR AT WORK.

656
00:49:11,707 --> 00:49:14,330
OH, THAT'’S FANTASTIC.

657
00:49:16,056 --> 00:49:18,024
Isaac'’s voice:
IT WAS A SCENE

658
00:49:18,024 --> 00:49:20,923
OF PERFECT
SYMMETRIC INSANITY--

659
00:49:20,923 --> 00:49:22,925
THE WALKING PARAPLEGIC

660
00:49:22,925 --> 00:49:26,101
PUSHING THE PARALYZED
PEDESTRIAN.

661
00:49:26,101 --> 00:49:29,104
IT WAS ALSO
ONE OF THE HAPPIEST
MOMENTS OF MY LIFE.

662
00:49:44,636 --> 00:49:46,742
I CAN'’T MOVE.

663
00:49:48,778 --> 00:49:50,884
I CAN'’T MOVE.

664
00:50:20,672 --> 00:50:23,296
Isaac'’s voice:
HER MOTHER'’S HOUSE WAS
ON LONG ISLAND.

665
00:50:23,296 --> 00:50:26,437
THE PLAN WAS
TO GET THE CHAIR OUT
AS SOON AS WE ARRIVED.

666
00:50:26,437 --> 00:50:29,164
HI!

667
00:50:29,164 --> 00:50:31,545
NO, NOT YET,
NOT YET.

668
00:50:31,545 --> 00:50:33,547
HI, MAMA.

669
00:50:33,547 --> 00:50:35,480
HI, FIONA.

670
00:50:37,896 --> 00:50:39,760
I'’VE JUST FILLED
THE BARBEQUE.

671
00:50:39,760 --> 00:50:41,797
Isaac'’s voice:
I NEEDED TO SEE
HER FACE

672
00:50:41,797 --> 00:50:43,523
WHEN SHE FOUND OUT
WHY WE WERE THERE.

673
00:50:43,523 --> 00:50:46,250
LET'’S SLIDE IN.

674
00:50:46,250 --> 00:50:48,942
SO ISAAC IS
DOING A PIECE ON ME
FOR PUBLIC RADIO.

675
00:50:48,942 --> 00:50:51,565
I DON'’T KNOW
WHAT MADE ME THINK
OF A BARBEQUE.

676
00:50:55,983 --> 00:50:59,953
I'’M GLAD.
I ALMOST STOPPED
TO BUY SOME BEER.

677
00:50:59,953 --> 00:51:03,508
NO, ISAAC,
I'’VE BEEN SOBER
FOR ALMOST 16 YEARS.

678
00:51:03,508 --> 00:51:06,028
CONGRATULATIONS.

679
00:51:11,171 --> 00:51:13,173
FIONA,
HOW'’S WORK?

680
00:51:13,173 --> 00:51:15,210
OH, I AM CONSERVING

681
00:51:15,210 --> 00:51:17,971
THE MOST BEAUTIFUL
PORCELAIN ELEPHANT,
MAMA.

682
00:51:17,971 --> 00:51:21,837
IT IS TURNING OUT
BEAUTIFULLY,
SO BEAUTIFUL.

683
00:51:21,837 --> 00:51:24,150
YOU KNOW WHAT?
I SHOULD DO MORE
SCULPTING.

684
00:51:26,876 --> 00:51:29,672
- I DIDN'’T KNOW
YOU SCULPT.
- OH, YEAH.

685
00:51:29,672 --> 00:51:32,089
I'’VE BEEN
THINKING OF MAKING
A PORCELAIN ELEPHANT

686
00:51:32,089 --> 00:51:33,987
LIKE THE ONE
I'’M WORKING ON.

687
00:51:33,987 --> 00:51:36,369
YOU DON'’T
REALLY SCULPT.

688
00:51:36,369 --> 00:51:38,681
I COULD BE THAT GOOD
IF I HAD THE TIME.

689
00:51:38,681 --> 00:51:41,167
YOU'’RE COMPARING YOURSELF
TO THE MASTER SCULPTORS?

690
00:51:41,167 --> 00:51:44,135
WHY NOT?
THERE ARE STEPS
TO EVERYTHING.

691
00:51:44,135 --> 00:51:46,379
I CAN JUST
FOLLOW THE STEPS
AND IN, LIKE, 10 YEARS

692
00:51:46,379 --> 00:51:48,933
I CAN BE THAT GOOD.
IT'’S EASY.
ANYBODY COULD.

693
00:51:48,933 --> 00:51:51,004
IT'’S ONE THING
TO SCRAPE THE DIRT

694
00:51:51,004 --> 00:51:53,006
OFF SOMEONE
ELSE'’S WORK.
I WOULD THINK

695
00:51:53,006 --> 00:51:57,114
YOU WOULD
AT LEAST NEED TO TAKE
A DRAWING CLASS.

696
00:51:57,114 --> 00:52:00,220
OKAY, I WILL.
AND THEN I'’LL TAKE
A SCULPTURE CLASS.

697
00:52:00,220 --> 00:52:02,567
AND THEN I'’LL TAKE
WHATEVER CLASS
IS NECESSARY

698
00:52:02,567 --> 00:52:04,569
AND EVENTUALLY I WILL BE
AT LEAST THAT GOOD.

699
00:52:04,569 --> 00:52:07,193
YOU CAN BE
WHATEVER YOU WANT
TO BE.

700
00:52:07,193 --> 00:52:10,127
BUT...
[ laughing ]

701
00:52:10,127 --> 00:52:11,887
BUT WHAT?

702
00:52:11,887 --> 00:52:13,716
WHY ARE WE EVEN
ARGUING ABOUT THIS?

703
00:52:25,038 --> 00:52:27,592
YOU KNOW WHAT, MOTHER?

704
00:52:27,592 --> 00:52:29,525
WHO ARE YOU
TO TELL ME

705
00:52:29,525 --> 00:52:32,287
THAT I CAN'’T MAKE
A BEAUTIFUL PORCELAIN
ELEPHANT,

706
00:52:32,287 --> 00:52:35,152
AS BEAUTIFUL
OR EVEN MORE BEAUTIFUL

707
00:52:35,152 --> 00:52:38,155
THAN ANYONE ELSE
CAN MAKE A PORCELAIN
ELEPHANT, HMM?

708
00:52:38,155 --> 00:52:41,054
WHO DIED AND MADE YOU
FINAL ARBITER OF WHO CAN
AND CANNOT BE

709
00:52:41,054 --> 00:52:43,470
A FINE SCULPTOR
OF BEAUTIFUL PORCELAIN
ELEPHANTS?

710
00:52:43,470 --> 00:52:46,301
- NOT ONE SINGLE
DRAWING CLASS.
- THAT'’S NOT FAIR.

711
00:52:46,301 --> 00:52:49,096
FIONA, YOU NEVER SAID
YOU WANTED TO BE
A FINE ARTIST,

712
00:52:49,096 --> 00:52:50,891
- NOT ONCE.
- SO?

713
00:52:50,891 --> 00:52:54,930
I MEAN, WH--
WHY DO I HAVE
TO SAY IT?

714
00:52:54,930 --> 00:52:57,691
WHAT IF I'’M
SAYING IT NOW?
IS IT TOO LATE?

715
00:52:57,691 --> 00:52:59,521
DID I MISS THE CUTOFF?
I DON'’T UNDERSTAND.

716
00:52:59,521 --> 00:53:01,350
IT'’S BETTER TO LIST
YOUR ACCOMPLISHMENTS

717
00:53:01,350 --> 00:53:03,283
AFTER YOU'’VE DONE THEM.
DON'’T YOU AGREE, ISAAC?

718
00:53:03,283 --> 00:53:06,873
- DON'’T BRING HIM INTO THIS.
- I'’M JUST STATING
THE OBVI--

719
00:53:06,873 --> 00:53:10,221
[ shouts ]
WELL, IT'’S NOT FAIR!

720
00:53:12,810 --> 00:53:14,777
IF YOU WANT TO WALK,
PEOPLE EXPECT YOU
TO HURRY.

721
00:53:14,777 --> 00:53:16,710
I'’M DOING MY BEST.

722
00:53:18,816 --> 00:53:21,474
I DON'’T FEEL
LIKE DRIVING.

723
00:53:21,474 --> 00:53:23,752
I'’VE NEVER USED
A FOOT BREAK.

724
00:53:23,752 --> 00:53:26,686
YOU REALLY WANT
TO CAP THIS DAY OFF
WITH A CAR ACCIDENT?

725
00:53:26,686 --> 00:53:28,619
JUST GIVE IT.

726
00:53:33,486 --> 00:53:35,384
[ engine starts ]

727
00:53:37,628 --> 00:53:39,457
[ car horn honks ]

728
00:53:44,048 --> 00:53:46,671
YOU KNOW WHAT?

729
00:53:46,671 --> 00:53:48,673
I'’M A JOKE.
I'’M A WANNABE

730
00:53:48,673 --> 00:53:50,917
JUST LIKE EVERYONE ELSE
IN THAT PATHETIC GROUP,

731
00:53:50,917 --> 00:53:53,471
SO PATHETIC.

732
00:53:54,714 --> 00:53:56,543
WHY DON'’T YOU DO
A STORY ON YOURSELF?

733
00:53:56,543 --> 00:53:58,890
I'’M NOT THE STORY.

734
00:53:58,890 --> 00:54:01,410
OH, YOU'’RE NOT
THE STORY?

735
00:54:01,410 --> 00:54:02,929
OH, THAT'’S RIGHT.
THAT'’S RIGHT--

736
00:54:02,929 --> 00:54:04,931
"WHY FIONAWANTS
TO BE PARALYZED"

737
00:54:04,931 --> 00:54:08,072
BY ISAAC KNOTT.

738
00:54:10,626 --> 00:54:12,525
IS THAT FUNNY?

739
00:54:12,525 --> 00:54:14,527
[ continues laughing ]
NO.

740
00:54:14,527 --> 00:54:17,530
NO, IT'’S NOT.

741
00:54:17,530 --> 00:54:19,532
YOU JUST SAID
"WANTS TO BE PARALYZED,"

742
00:54:19,532 --> 00:54:22,120
BUT YOU USED TO SAY
THAT YOU THOUGHT
YOU ALREADY WERE.

743
00:54:22,120 --> 00:54:26,366
OH, COME ON, ISAAC,
DO I LOOK PARALYZED
TO YOU?

744
00:54:26,366 --> 00:54:28,782
WHY DO YOU CARE SO MUCH
WHAT YOUR MOTHER THINKS
ABOUT YOU?

745
00:54:34,823 --> 00:54:36,618
FIONA.

746
00:54:41,899 --> 00:54:43,901
I'’M JUST THINKING
HOW EASY IT IS

747
00:54:43,901 --> 00:54:47,629
TO GET USED TO
A MIRACLE.

748
00:54:51,426 --> 00:54:53,428
Fiona:
I SHOULDN'’T HAVE
COME UP.

749
00:54:53,428 --> 00:54:56,189
YOU CAN USE
MY CHAIR.

750
00:55:05,232 --> 00:55:07,096
WE BOTH KNOW
HOW THIS IS
GOING TO END.

751
00:55:07,096 --> 00:55:10,099
- WE DON'’T KNOW
WHAT'’S GOING TO HAP--
- OH, HERE IT COMES.

752
00:55:10,099 --> 00:55:13,206
LISTEN, PAL,
YOU CAN FEEL
SORRY FOR ME.

753
00:55:13,206 --> 00:55:15,001
LET'’S NOT PRETEND
THAT'’S CARING.

754
00:55:15,001 --> 00:55:16,692
I DON'’T FEEL
SORRY FOR YOU.

755
00:55:16,692 --> 00:55:20,247
NO, I KNOW
HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT ME--
"SHE'’S NOT NORMAL."

756
00:55:20,247 --> 00:55:23,561
WHAT'’S NORMAL?
"NORMAL" IS A SETTING
ON A WASHING MACHINE.

757
00:55:23,561 --> 00:55:26,115
NO, I DON'’T THINK
IT'’S A SETTING ON
A WASHING MACHINE.

758
00:55:26,115 --> 00:55:28,946
I THINK WE ALL KNOW
HOW TO POINT AND SAY,

759
00:55:28,946 --> 00:55:32,674
"SEE? THAT'’S NORMAL."

760
00:55:32,674 --> 00:55:35,228
AND I DON'’T WANT
ANYONE POINTING AT ME
BECAUSE I'’M NORMAL.

761
00:55:36,298 --> 00:55:39,336
I MEAN, I--
I MEAN, I DO.

762
00:55:43,063 --> 00:55:45,859
FIONA, I THINK
YOU HAVE THE RIGHT

763
00:55:45,859 --> 00:55:48,379
TO BE WHATEVER
YOU WANT TO BE.

764
00:55:49,622 --> 00:55:52,487
I DON'’T WANT TO BE
A WANNABE ANYMORE.

765
00:55:54,454 --> 00:55:56,698
YOU THINK I DON'’T KNOW
WHAT IT'’S LIKE
TO PRETEND?

766
00:55:56,698 --> 00:55:58,907
I'’M PRETENDING
RIGHT NOW.

767
00:56:03,152 --> 00:56:07,985
LOOK, I COULD
SIT DOWN RIGHT NOW,

768
00:56:07,985 --> 00:56:10,090
TAKE OFF MY SHOES

769
00:56:10,090 --> 00:56:12,023
AND MY LEGS
WOULD BE GONE.

770
00:56:14,060 --> 00:56:15,717
WHAT?

771
00:56:15,717 --> 00:56:19,583
THESE SHOES
ARE MAKING ME WALK

772
00:56:19,583 --> 00:56:21,308
EVEN THOUGH
I KNOW THEY CAN'’T

773
00:56:21,308 --> 00:56:23,483
ANY MORE
THAN A PATCH

774
00:56:23,483 --> 00:56:25,485
CAN MAKE A KID
RUN FASTER.

775
00:56:43,779 --> 00:56:46,403
SHUT UP.

776
00:56:47,680 --> 00:56:50,130
WHAT DOES IT FEEL LIKE
WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?

777
00:56:53,996 --> 00:56:56,654
LIKE YOU'’VE
JUST TAKEN
A DEEP BREATH,

778
00:56:56,654 --> 00:57:00,486
BUT BEFORE
YOU CAN EXHALE

779
00:57:00,486 --> 00:57:02,729
SOMEBODY
STEALS IT AWAY.

780
00:57:13,119 --> 00:57:15,673
OH, ISAAC.

781
00:57:23,336 --> 00:57:24,751
PLEASE DON'’T.

782
00:57:24,751 --> 00:57:27,133
SHH, IT'’S OKAY.

783
00:57:33,380 --> 00:57:35,866
- I WONDER WHAT
THEY'’LL DO TO ME.
- I ASKED YOU, PLEASE DON'’T--

784
00:57:35,866 --> 00:57:37,764
SHH, IT'’S OKAY.

785
00:57:46,635 --> 00:57:49,707
ARE YOU MAKING
THIS UP?

786
00:57:49,707 --> 00:57:51,709
OR DO YOU HAVE TO
WEAR THEM BOTH?

787
00:58:01,719 --> 00:58:03,721
- NOTHIN'’.
- PLEASE TAKE
THEM OFF NOW.

788
00:58:20,945 --> 00:58:22,947
DO YOU THINK
MAYBE THEY

789
00:58:22,947 --> 00:58:24,949
PINCH A NERVE
IN YOUR FOOT

790
00:58:24,949 --> 00:58:27,262
OR STIMULATE
SOMETHING?

791
00:58:28,919 --> 00:58:30,886
NOW YOU KNOW.

792
00:58:35,788 --> 00:58:37,306
WHAT?

793
00:59:09,476 --> 00:59:11,824
IF YOU CAN JUST
TOSS ME MY SHOES,
I CAN DRY OFF HERE.

794
00:59:15,966 --> 00:59:17,968
IT'’S THE WORST--

795
00:59:17,968 --> 00:59:21,212
HANDLING MY OWN
WET LEGS.

796
00:59:21,212 --> 00:59:24,319
IT'’S LIKE TRYING
TO NAIL JELL-O
TO THE CEILING.

797
00:59:33,604 --> 00:59:35,606
HEY.

798
00:59:35,606 --> 00:59:37,539
COME ON.

799
00:59:44,615 --> 00:59:47,031
ARE YOU GONNA
MAKE ME CRAWL?

800
00:59:59,665 --> 01:00:02,495
I THOUGHT
IT WOULD GO AWAY
WHEN I MET YOU,

801
01:00:02,495 --> 01:00:05,774
BUT IT DIDN'’T.

802
01:00:05,774 --> 01:00:08,674
AND THEN WHEN I SAW
THAT YOU WEREN'’T
PARALYZED

803
01:00:08,674 --> 01:00:12,712
AND YOU WERE SO HAPPY

804
01:00:12,712 --> 01:00:16,889
IT MADE ME WANT
TO BE HAPPY WALKING.

805
01:00:16,889 --> 01:00:20,306
AND I ALMOST WAS.

806
01:00:20,306 --> 01:00:23,654
YOU KNOW, I MEAN,
I TRIED.

807
01:00:23,654 --> 01:00:26,933
- I REALLY DID, I TRIED.
- CAN YOU JUST TOSS ME
MY SHOES?

808
01:00:28,866 --> 01:00:30,765
I WILL...

809
01:00:32,214 --> 01:00:35,217
AFTER YOU
HELP ME BECOME
A T12 PARAPLEGIC.

810
01:00:40,050 --> 01:00:43,329
LIKE YOU'’RE ORDERING
OFF A MENU.

811
01:00:43,329 --> 01:00:46,608
IT'’S IMPORTANT TO BE
AN AUTHENTIC PERSON

812
01:00:46,608 --> 01:00:48,368
IF AT ALL POSSIBLE.

813
01:00:49,438 --> 01:00:51,613
PARALYZE YOURSELF.

814
01:00:51,613 --> 01:00:53,304
NO, IT HAS TO BE YOU.

815
01:00:53,304 --> 01:00:55,203
WHY DOES IT
HAVE TO BE ME?

816
01:00:58,931 --> 01:01:03,798
"WHY FIONA
WANTS TO BE PARALYZED
BY ISAAC KNOTT."

817
01:01:07,318 --> 01:01:09,769
OKAY?

818
01:01:09,769 --> 01:01:12,427
- WAIT.
- SO DO WE HAVE
A DEAL?

819
01:01:14,532 --> 01:01:17,915
[ grunting ]

820
01:01:17,915 --> 01:01:19,848
[ door slams ]

821
01:01:36,762 --> 01:01:40,800
Isaac:
WHY WOULD SOMEONE WANT
TO BE PARALYZED WHO ISN'’T?

822
01:02:13,246 --> 01:02:15,732
I CAN'’T ANSWER THAT.

823
01:02:16,836 --> 01:02:19,390
YOU THINK I CHOOSE
TO BE THIS WAY?

824
01:02:19,390 --> 01:02:21,565
DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA
HOW MANY PEOPLE
IN MY LIFE

825
01:02:21,565 --> 01:02:24,637
I'’VE LOST BECAUSE
I REVEALED MYSELF
TO THEM?

826
01:02:24,637 --> 01:02:27,364
I'’LL TELL YOU WHY

827
01:02:27,364 --> 01:02:29,884
AS SOON AS YOU TELL ME
WHERE THOSE PEOPLE WENT.

828
01:02:37,823 --> 01:02:40,101
I NEED TO FIND
GINGER JAKE.

829
01:02:40,101 --> 01:02:42,586
WHY WOULDYOU NEED
GINGER JAKE?

830
01:02:46,245 --> 01:02:49,593
MAKING ARRANGEMENTS
FOR A FRIEND.

831
01:02:49,593 --> 01:02:53,562
GINGER JAKE'’S
EFFECTIVENESS
IS VARIABLE.

832
01:02:53,562 --> 01:02:55,599
LOOK,
IT'’S NOT ME ASKING,

833
01:02:55,599 --> 01:02:57,843
SO LET'’S SAY
IT'’S NOT YOU TELLING.

834
01:02:57,843 --> 01:02:59,810
I JUST NEED TO KNOW
WHERE TO FIND HER.

835
01:02:59,810 --> 01:03:02,917
[ laughs ]

836
01:03:04,642 --> 01:03:07,231
"I CAN'’T EAT.

837
01:03:07,231 --> 01:03:09,716
I CAN'’T TALK.

838
01:03:09,716 --> 01:03:14,583
BEEN DRINKING
MEAN JAKE, LORD,
NOW I CAN'’T WALK.

839
01:03:14,583 --> 01:03:18,449
AIN'’T GOT NOTHING
LEFT TO LOSE,

840
01:03:18,449 --> 01:03:21,211
A JAKE-WALKING PAPA
WITH THE JAKE WALK BLUES."

841
01:03:21,211 --> 01:03:23,800
♪ ...I CAN'’T EAT,
I CAN'’T TALK ♪

842
01:03:23,800 --> 01:03:26,561
♪ BEEN DRINKING
MEAN JAKE, LORD,
NOW I CAN'’T WALK ♪

843
01:03:26,561 --> 01:03:29,046
♪ AIN'’T GOT
NOTHING NOW TO LOSE ♪

844
01:03:29,046 --> 01:03:32,084
♪ '’CAUSE I'M
A JAKE-WALKING PAPA
WITH THE JAKE WALK BLUES... ♪

845
01:03:40,851 --> 01:03:43,474
Isaac'’s voice:
A TRUE WANNABE KNOWS
EVERY POSSIBLE WAY

846
01:03:43,474 --> 01:03:45,166
TO BECOME PARALYZED.

847
01:03:45,166 --> 01:03:47,754
AUTO ACCIDENTS
ARE THOUGHT TO BE
TOO UNPREDICTABLE.

848
01:03:47,754 --> 01:03:50,033
THERE ARE DRUGS
TO RENDER YOUR BONES
SO BRITTLE

849
01:03:50,033 --> 01:03:53,312
THAT A WRONG TWIST
GETTING OUT OF YOUR CHAIR
WILL DO THE TRICK.

850
01:03:53,312 --> 01:03:55,072
OR YOU CAN PUNCTURE
YOUR VERTEBRAE

851
01:03:55,072 --> 01:03:57,488
WITH A FOUR-INCH
SPINAL NEEDLE.

852
01:03:57,488 --> 01:03:59,490
BUT THERE'’S ONE PATH
TO PARALYSIS

853
01:03:59,490 --> 01:04:02,528
THAT EXCITES
A WANNABE'’S IMAGINATION
ABOVE ALL OTHERS.

854
01:04:02,528 --> 01:04:05,117
IT'’S CALLED
TRIORTHOCRESYL
PHOSPHATE.

855
01:04:05,117 --> 01:04:06,877
THEY USE IT
TO SOFTEN PLASTIC.

856
01:04:12,538 --> 01:04:15,748
THIS IS
GINGER JAKE.

857
01:04:15,748 --> 01:04:19,131
IT'’LL PARALYZE
YOUR LEGS, YOUR ARMS.

858
01:04:19,131 --> 01:04:21,581
IF YOU WANNA
FUCK YOURSELF UP,
YOU BE MY GUEST.

859
01:04:26,207 --> 01:04:28,519
OKAY, I'’M NOT
BEING A BITCH,

860
01:04:28,519 --> 01:04:30,521
BUT I WILL GIVE YOU
BACK YOUR SHOES

861
01:04:30,521 --> 01:04:33,041
IN LITTLE CUT-UP
PIECES OF LEATHER
IF YOU DON'’T HELP ME.

862
01:04:33,041 --> 01:04:36,113
- I'’M NOT HELPING YOU.
- YOU WILL.

863
01:04:38,288 --> 01:04:40,738
COME TO MY APARTMENT.
WE'’LL DO IT THERE
TOGETHER.

864
01:04:40,738 --> 01:04:43,707
FIONA, WHATEVER
FUCKED-UP THING
HAPPENED TO YOU,

865
01:04:43,707 --> 01:04:45,709
YOU DON'’T DESERVE
TO BE PARALYZED.

866
01:04:45,709 --> 01:04:48,746
OH, BUT YOU DO?

867
01:05:03,520 --> 01:05:05,971
YOU STILL HAVE
NO IDEA, DO YOU?

868
01:05:26,923 --> 01:05:28,925
Fiona on tape:
I never talked
about this.

869
01:05:28,925 --> 01:05:30,927
[ fast forwarding ]

870
01:05:30,927 --> 01:05:32,929
Isaac:
So why do you think

871
01:05:32,929 --> 01:05:34,931
someone would want
to be paralyzed?

872
01:05:34,931 --> 01:05:36,967
Give me your
working theory.

873
01:05:36,967 --> 01:05:39,314
- Fiona: I can'’t believe
I'’m talking to you.
- About this?

874
01:05:39,314 --> 01:05:41,730
Fiona: No. Yes.
No, it'’s you.

875
01:05:41,730 --> 01:05:45,907
[ rewinds ]

876
01:05:45,907 --> 01:05:49,048
No. Yes. No.
You know, it'’s you.

877
01:05:50,153 --> 01:05:51,740
[ rewinds ]

878
01:05:51,740 --> 01:05:54,122
...it'’s you, right?
I mean--

879
01:05:54,122 --> 01:05:56,538
[ turns off recorder ]

880
01:05:58,609 --> 01:06:01,958
Isaac'’s voice:
DRIVING BY THE TULIP FARMS.

881
01:06:01,958 --> 01:06:04,650
THE FLOWERS ARE RED.
THE POMPOMS ARE...

882
01:06:04,650 --> 01:06:07,101
RED AND WHITE.

883
01:06:07,101 --> 01:06:09,137
WAKE UP.

884
01:06:09,137 --> 01:06:12,347
- [ overlapping conversations ]
- [ phones ringing quietly ]

885
01:06:20,528 --> 01:06:22,875
[ mouths ]

886
01:06:27,121 --> 01:06:29,123
YOU SAID
YOU KNEW A GUY

887
01:06:29,123 --> 01:06:31,125
WHO COULD GET ANYTHING
ON ANYBODY, RIGHT?

888
01:06:31,125 --> 01:06:34,473
YEAH. ME.

889
01:06:34,473 --> 01:06:37,579
LOOK, I NEED TO KNOW
IF FIONA ANKANY

890
01:06:37,579 --> 01:06:39,616
IS THE GIRL WHO CRASHED
INTO MY PARENTS'’ CAR

891
01:06:39,616 --> 01:06:42,619
18 YEARS AGO.

892
01:06:42,619 --> 01:06:44,621
THE RECORDS
WERE SEALED.

893
01:06:44,621 --> 01:06:46,485
WELL, DID YOU
ASK HER?

894
01:06:46,485 --> 01:06:48,487
I DON'’T THINK
SHE'’D TELL ME.

895
01:06:48,487 --> 01:06:52,525
- WHAT DID SHE TELL YOU?
- I DIDN'’T ASK HER
ANYTHING ABOUT THAT.

896
01:06:54,527 --> 01:06:57,461
WELL, YOU KNOW,
I DON'’T WANT TO
LECTURE HERE,

897
01:06:57,461 --> 01:06:59,739
BUT IT'’S KIND OF
QUESTION-AND-ANSWER.

898
01:07:01,465 --> 01:07:03,467
YOU KNOW,
YOU HAVE TO
ASK THE QUESTIONS,

899
01:07:03,467 --> 01:07:06,988
UNLESS YOU REALLY
DON'’T WANT TO KNOW
THE ANSWER.

900
01:07:10,267 --> 01:07:12,166
ARE YOU OKAY?

901
01:08:01,905 --> 01:08:04,390
YOU THINK
I'’M FUCKED
IN THE HEAD.

902
01:08:04,390 --> 01:08:07,497
NO, I THINK
YOU'’RE GANGBANGED
IN THE HEAD.

903
01:08:07,497 --> 01:08:10,120
OKAY, YOU ARE WIGGING.

904
01:08:13,089 --> 01:08:16,471
YOU HURT ME

905
01:08:16,471 --> 01:08:20,682
AND I HURT YOU--
THAT'’S WHAT THIS
IS ABOUT.

906
01:08:43,153 --> 01:08:46,743
I'’VE TRIED TO IMAGINE
WHAT IT MUST HAVE
LOOKED LIKE

907
01:08:46,743 --> 01:08:49,608
TO YOU
IN THE BACK SEAT.

908
01:08:57,133 --> 01:09:00,377
AT THE POLICE STATION
MY MOTHER TOLD ME
YOU HAD SURVIVED.

909
01:09:00,377 --> 01:09:02,483
SHE SAID THAT
YOU'’D BE STUCK
IN A WHEELCHAIR

910
01:09:02,483 --> 01:09:05,555
THE REST
OF YOUR LIFE.

911
01:09:05,555 --> 01:09:08,282
BUT I WAS GLAD,
BECAUSE WHEN I LEFT YOU,

912
01:09:08,282 --> 01:09:12,113
YOU WERE
LYING ON THE ROAD
AND I THOUGHT YOU WERE DEAD.

913
01:09:21,743 --> 01:09:23,883
YOU KEEP THE SHOES.

914
01:09:25,989 --> 01:09:28,957
- YOU'’RE HYSTERICAL.
- I'’M ABOUT TO BE
HILARIOUS.

915
01:09:28,957 --> 01:09:30,925
HYSTERICAL BLINDNESS,
HYSTERICAL PREGNANCY--

916
01:09:30,925 --> 01:09:34,066
YOU HAVE HYSTERICAL
PARALYSIS.

917
01:09:34,066 --> 01:09:37,207
ISAAC, HOW MANY DOCTORS
HAVE YOU LET EXAMINE YOU
IN YOUR LIFE?

918
01:09:52,843 --> 01:09:55,398
WHAT MAKES A PERSON
WANT TO BE PARALYZED

919
01:09:55,398 --> 01:09:57,848
WHO ISN'’T?

920
01:10:05,062 --> 01:10:07,306
[ rain pattering ]

921
01:10:47,622 --> 01:10:49,935
[ panting ]

922
01:11:13,199 --> 01:11:15,305
I USED TO THINK
IF ALIENS LANDED

923
01:11:15,305 --> 01:11:19,585
AND THEY SAW ALL
THE ABLE-BODIED PEOPLE

924
01:11:19,585 --> 01:11:22,830
AND THEN THEY
SAW THE PEOPLE
ON THEIR WHEELCHAIRS,

925
01:11:22,830 --> 01:11:26,005
THEY WOULD SAY
THAT THOSE MUST BE

926
01:11:26,005 --> 01:11:29,871
THE KINGS AND QUEENS

927
01:11:29,871 --> 01:11:32,460
BECAUSE THEY HAVE
SPECIAL RAMPS

928
01:11:32,460 --> 01:11:35,049
AND THEY NEVER
HAVE TO GET UP.

929
01:11:38,328 --> 01:11:42,263
I HAVE THIS FANTASY
THAT MAYBE SOMEDAY

930
01:11:42,263 --> 01:11:45,404
AFTER WE HAVEN'’T
SEEN EACH OTHER
IN SOME TIME...

931
01:11:47,510 --> 01:11:50,720
I'’LL HEAR YOU SAY
THAT YOU FORGIVE ME...

932
01:11:50,720 --> 01:11:53,447
- [ grunts ]
- ...LIKE,

933
01:11:53,447 --> 01:11:55,449
ON THE RADIO--

934
01:11:55,449 --> 01:11:57,623
YOU KNOW,
SAY MY NAME

935
01:11:57,623 --> 01:11:59,556
MAYBE.

936
01:12:35,143 --> 01:12:37,076
[ inhales ]

937
01:12:39,872 --> 01:12:43,082
[ exhales ]

938
01:13:21,362 --> 01:13:23,847
THAT WAS
THE LAST TIME
I SAW HER.

939
01:13:23,847 --> 01:13:25,849
I WENT BACK
TO HER APARTMENT,

940
01:13:25,849 --> 01:13:28,334
BUT SHE'’D MOVED OUT
ALMOST OVERNIGHT.

941
01:13:30,164 --> 01:13:32,511
THERE WAS
NO FORWARDING ADDRESS.

942
01:13:35,341 --> 01:13:38,828
I KNOW A GUY
WHO CAN FIND
ANYTHING ON ANYBODY,

943
01:13:38,828 --> 01:13:41,762
AND EVEN HE
DOESN'’T KNOW
WHERE SHE WENT.

944
01:13:41,762 --> 01:13:43,764
HER MOTHER
DOESN'’T KNOW EITHER.

945
01:13:43,764 --> 01:13:46,767
I WENT TO SEE HER
AND WE TALKED ABOUT
THAT DAY,

946
01:13:46,767 --> 01:13:49,770
THE MORNING
IT HAPPENED.

947
01:13:49,770 --> 01:13:54,050
"DO YOU FEEL
ANY RESPONSIBILITY
FOR THE CRASH?"

948
01:13:54,050 --> 01:13:57,191
SHE JUST
STARES OFF,

949
01:13:57,191 --> 01:14:00,401
CONTEMPLATING
THE FAIRNESS
OF A QUESTION

950
01:14:00,401 --> 01:14:03,439
SHE WILL
NEVER ANSWER.

951
01:14:15,796 --> 01:14:19,869
NOW IT'’S NOVEMBER,
TWO MONTHS SINCE
I'’VE SEEN HER.

952
01:14:19,869 --> 01:14:21,871
THIS IS
THE SECOND TIME
IN MY LIFE

953
01:14:21,871 --> 01:14:26,496
SHE'’S CRASHED INTO ME
AND THEN VANISHED.

954
01:14:26,496 --> 01:14:30,466
I FIND MYSELF
GOING BACK TO PLACES
WE'’D BEEN TOGETHER--

955
01:14:30,466 --> 01:14:33,607
NOT IN THE WAY
YOU DO WHEN YOU CAN'’T
GET OVER SOMEONE,

956
01:14:33,607 --> 01:14:36,333
I JUST GO
TO THINK ABOUT HER

957
01:14:36,333 --> 01:14:39,923
AND TO FEEL...

958
01:14:39,923 --> 01:14:42,823
RESTORED.

959
01:14:47,206 --> 01:14:49,208
ISAAC KNOTT,

960
01:14:49,208 --> 01:14:51,590
PUBLIC RADIO
NEW YORK.

961
01:15:01,013 --> 01:15:04,223
[ instrumental music
playing ]