1 00:00:07,875 --> 00:00:09,625 (♪) 2 00:00:13,542 --> 00:00:15,125 - Joel? 3 00:00:20,000 --> 00:00:21,458 Joel? 4 00:00:23,083 --> 00:00:26,583 - My name is Kim, and I'm the mother of Brooks, Taryn and Joel. 5 00:00:27,500 --> 00:00:30,250 I've seen my house turned into a house of horrors. 6 00:00:31,583 --> 00:00:34,333 Having my sons living with me at this point, 7 00:00:34,417 --> 00:00:36,125 it's disastrous. 8 00:00:43,375 --> 00:00:44,583 Brooks? 9 00:00:46,708 --> 00:00:48,208 Brooks? 10 00:01:11,542 --> 00:01:12,833 Brooks? 11 00:01:12,958 --> 00:01:14,542 You okay? 12 00:01:15,708 --> 00:01:16,667 - Mom? 13 00:01:17,625 --> 00:01:19,333 My name is Brooks, 14 00:01:19,375 --> 00:01:22,250 and I'm addicted to fentanyl and methamphetamines. 15 00:01:23,000 --> 00:01:24,292 - Brooks? 16 00:01:26,208 --> 00:01:27,667 - I don't see him. 17 00:01:31,500 --> 00:01:35,333 - My name is Joel, and... I enjoy smoking crack. 18 00:01:37,042 --> 00:01:40,333 I enjoyed it in the first place, but I'm just addicted to it now. 19 00:01:40,417 --> 00:01:43,042 - I'll try to find Joel for ya, Brooks. 20 00:01:45,750 --> 00:01:48,625 - I have to use drugs to be a normal person. 21 00:01:48,708 --> 00:01:53,458 We wouldn't be talking right now if I wasn't on... using these drugs. 22 00:01:57,583 --> 00:02:00,500 I did live with two brothers at the same time, 23 00:02:00,542 --> 00:02:04,167 recently, and it was just hard, 'cause they were both doing fentanyl. 24 00:02:05,083 --> 00:02:06,833 I've had to be the checker on them, 25 00:02:06,917 --> 00:02:10,042 make sure they're okay, like, every hour or two hours. 26 00:02:10,167 --> 00:02:12,625 It's just hard to do, because they do a lot. 27 00:02:14,042 --> 00:02:16,083 That hole is from Taryn and Brooks fighting. 28 00:02:16,167 --> 00:02:19,292 - You're even (bleep) ruder! - They were going off really bad. 29 00:02:19,375 --> 00:02:21,667 - Dumb (bleep)! - Taryn, between now... 30 00:02:21,750 --> 00:02:24,083 he was even worse than I am right now. 31 00:02:31,208 --> 00:02:33,125 (phone ringing) (Kim): Hello? 32 00:02:35,625 --> 00:02:38,875 - I have... Joel handy-dandy. - Yeah. 33 00:02:45,125 --> 00:02:46,667 - Yeah, I know. 34 00:02:48,875 --> 00:02:51,000 - Yeah. See you soon. - Okay. 35 00:02:51,083 --> 00:02:54,458 - Bye. - Crystal's at a breaking poin. She's... 36 00:02:54,542 --> 00:02:57,500 leading this charge and... 37 00:02:58,875 --> 00:03:01,292 ...she's almost broken herself. 38 00:03:16,375 --> 00:03:19,208 - I've never OD'd, but I know my brothers - 39 00:03:19,292 --> 00:03:21,125 five, six times, at least - they have. 40 00:03:21,208 --> 00:03:25,375 And I've been there most of the time to get them back up. 41 00:03:26,958 --> 00:03:28,542 It kinda sucks. 42 00:03:38,125 --> 00:03:40,292 - Hello? - How's it goin'? 43 00:03:40,375 --> 00:03:42,917 - I haven't had a lot of conversations with him, 44 00:03:43,042 --> 00:03:44,708 but doesn't sound like Taryn's sober. 45 00:03:44,792 --> 00:03:48,333 - Can I have a hug? - I wonder if he's actually using. 46 00:03:49,167 --> 00:03:52,833 (Crystal): Taryn is very recently in sobriety, 47 00:03:52,833 --> 00:03:57,208 and that sobriety is... hanging on a thread. 48 00:04:03,667 --> 00:04:07,208 - If Taryn relapses, it's gonna be bad. Like, 'cause he's, like: 49 00:04:07,333 --> 00:04:08,875 Go hard or go home, you know? 50 00:04:11,875 --> 00:04:14,458 Oh, my gosh, I'm breaking my phone. (scoffing) 51 00:04:14,542 --> 00:04:16,833 (Crystal): Joel is the worst I've ever seen him. 52 00:04:17,583 --> 00:04:21,500 He's now using meth, fentanyl and crack. 53 00:04:21,625 --> 00:04:24,833 - I gotta go right now. - Are you running away? - No, I just gotta go. 54 00:04:24,875 --> 00:04:27,167 - Joel has escalated to... 55 00:04:27,208 --> 00:04:30,792 being erratic, going in and out of psychosis, 56 00:04:30,875 --> 00:04:32,583 driving around high. 57 00:04:33,333 --> 00:04:35,625 Hey, Brooks? - Yeah. 58 00:04:36,708 --> 00:04:38,875 (Crystal): Brooks is... overusing. 59 00:04:40,167 --> 00:04:42,833 This family's in destruction. 60 00:04:43,875 --> 00:04:48,500 I don't think my mother-in-law even knows how affected she has become. 61 00:04:48,542 --> 00:04:50,500 - I hate it down here. 62 00:04:59,875 --> 00:05:04,500 I always go back to when they were children, 'cause I have good memories. 63 00:05:06,125 --> 00:05:08,167 I just loved having little kids. 64 00:05:08,958 --> 00:05:11,708 I was happy to have every one of them. 65 00:05:12,208 --> 00:05:14,792 I remember being pregnant with Brooks. 66 00:05:16,083 --> 00:05:19,042 Just being so proud, just so happy. 67 00:05:20,083 --> 00:05:22,500 It was all gonna be okay now. 68 00:05:22,625 --> 00:05:24,875 Like, now I know exactly how to do this right. 69 00:05:25,000 --> 00:05:27,917 Because I was a Christian. Oh! 70 00:05:28,917 --> 00:05:30,542 I had Khori already, 71 00:05:30,625 --> 00:05:32,875 but Khori was from a different father. 72 00:05:32,958 --> 00:05:35,375 Brooks was always on the go. 73 00:05:35,458 --> 00:05:38,875 Always learning, like, with his hands, 74 00:05:39,000 --> 00:05:42,583 building things and trying to figure out how things worked. 75 00:05:44,417 --> 00:05:47,458 Taryn's personality was angelic. 76 00:05:48,500 --> 00:05:52,250 Taryn was Joel's best friend. His, uh, protector. 77 00:05:52,333 --> 00:05:54,542 They did everything together. 78 00:05:56,208 --> 00:06:00,375 - Brooks, Taryn and Joel... are my sons. 79 00:06:00,458 --> 00:06:05,583 The best memories of being with any one of my boys is our camping times. 80 00:06:05,708 --> 00:06:08,333 We all had lots of fun fishing, 81 00:06:08,417 --> 00:06:10,208 hunting and... 82 00:06:10,292 --> 00:06:11,875 stuff along that line. 83 00:06:15,958 --> 00:06:20,167 - Both Kim and I had our issues, but when I became a Christian, 84 00:06:20,250 --> 00:06:22,333 I've never drank, I've never smoked, 85 00:06:22,458 --> 00:06:24,458 and I've never done drugs since. 86 00:06:27,333 --> 00:06:30,083 - Each one of the kids went to Christian school, 87 00:06:30,167 --> 00:06:32,667 and I was a maintenance man... 88 00:06:32,750 --> 00:06:34,125 at the school. 89 00:06:35,583 --> 00:06:37,417 (Mom): Brooks is dyslexic, 90 00:06:37,542 --> 00:06:40,333 and it took him a very long time to learn to read. 91 00:06:40,375 --> 00:06:41,875 I think that was huge. 92 00:06:42,958 --> 00:06:44,500 - School was a joke. 93 00:06:45,375 --> 00:06:48,750 There's no alternative learning, there's none of that kind of thing. 94 00:06:49,875 --> 00:06:51,667 - My husband, 95 00:06:51,750 --> 00:06:54,375 in our 14th year of marriage, 96 00:06:54,458 --> 00:06:57,583 I found out that he had relapsed 97 00:06:57,667 --> 00:07:00,167 and was smoking crack cocaine. 98 00:07:00,500 --> 00:07:02,042 - I was fired. 99 00:07:02,125 --> 00:07:04,917 The boys, we ended up having to pull them out, 100 00:07:05,000 --> 00:07:08,833 and put them in the city schools here in Calgary. 101 00:07:10,042 --> 00:07:11,708 - I went to public school. 102 00:07:12,500 --> 00:07:14,875 It was just a lot easier to get in trouble. 103 00:07:17,583 --> 00:07:19,750 - My dad came and woke me up, 104 00:07:19,833 --> 00:07:23,875 and he basically told me that I was the man of the house now, 105 00:07:23,958 --> 00:07:28,708 and that I needed to take care of my brothers and help my mom. 106 00:07:28,708 --> 00:07:31,875 (Mom): Brooks was the oldest of the youngest boys. 107 00:07:32,000 --> 00:07:33,875 Even though he was 10, 108 00:07:33,958 --> 00:07:35,625 he really helped me. 109 00:07:35,708 --> 00:07:37,917 - She did the best that she could. 110 00:07:38,958 --> 00:07:40,542 I coped. 111 00:07:42,333 --> 00:07:46,875 - Khori left pretty young, when he was 16. He wasn't living with us. 112 00:07:46,958 --> 00:07:51,000 - My brothers didn't have a... father, or a father figure, 113 00:07:51,042 --> 00:07:54,083 for a very critical part of their childhood. 114 00:07:59,708 --> 00:08:03,250 - Yeah, there was some sexual... abuse going on. 115 00:08:03,375 --> 00:08:05,917 It affected all the boys. 116 00:08:07,167 --> 00:08:10,458 - I was eight years old when I was started to be molested. 117 00:08:11,333 --> 00:08:15,333 I honestly thought I was the only one that was ever... 118 00:08:15,417 --> 00:08:17,083 abused by him. 119 00:08:17,958 --> 00:08:21,792 And then I found out that my little brothers all had been abused. 120 00:08:25,333 --> 00:08:28,917 I feel like I failed my little brothers, to be honest. 121 00:08:34,083 --> 00:08:37,042 - I've had a lot of bad stuff happen to me. Like... 122 00:08:38,042 --> 00:08:40,333 ...been molested by people and had bad things happen. 123 00:08:40,375 --> 00:08:44,083 I just don't like talking about it, 'cause it's not... that relevant to drug use. 124 00:08:50,875 --> 00:08:53,417 - There was a lot of things happening as a child. 125 00:08:53,500 --> 00:08:56,583 We haven't really ever addressed any of it. 126 00:08:58,792 --> 00:09:02,375 I was 11 when I started using, just smoking weed back then. 127 00:09:02,375 --> 00:09:05,583 Around when I was 15, I picked up cocaine and crack. 128 00:09:06,333 --> 00:09:09,167 Brooks didn't use until after that, way after that. 129 00:09:10,583 --> 00:09:12,792 - Getting high was supposed to be fun. 130 00:09:13,708 --> 00:09:15,500 Well, I'm gonna take some opiates, 131 00:09:15,583 --> 00:09:18,292 Percocets, smoke some weed. 132 00:09:19,417 --> 00:09:22,167 I was... 16. 133 00:09:40,708 --> 00:09:43,042 (Brooks): We definitely missed our dad as a kid too, 134 00:09:43,167 --> 00:09:44,958 so that would've been quite a big issue. 135 00:09:47,208 --> 00:09:48,667 Goddammit! 136 00:09:50,375 --> 00:09:51,833 Dammit! 137 00:09:55,208 --> 00:09:58,000 - It hurts to see the boys the way they are now. 138 00:09:58,042 --> 00:10:00,708 (voice breaking): I beat myself up about it. 139 00:10:05,125 --> 00:10:08,000 In the Bible, it says that the sins of the fathers 140 00:10:08,042 --> 00:10:10,917 are passed down from generation to generation, 141 00:10:11,000 --> 00:10:13,583 and that is the... sad thing. 142 00:10:18,667 --> 00:10:21,250 - You're gonna say hi to Brooks, right? 143 00:10:22,375 --> 00:10:25,958 - He's all good, he's all happy when you're not getting high. 144 00:10:47,625 --> 00:10:49,542 (Crystal): Every inch of that house... 145 00:10:49,667 --> 00:10:51,292 holds a bad memory. 146 00:10:52,417 --> 00:10:54,333 A house of horror is that house. 147 00:10:56,833 --> 00:11:00,667 The brothers avoid each other to avoid the trauma, 148 00:11:00,667 --> 00:11:03,500 to avoid what room they were assaulted in. 149 00:11:03,583 --> 00:11:04,875 Brooks? 150 00:11:05,000 --> 00:11:07,625 - Yeah. - Are you good? - Oh, yeah. 151 00:11:07,708 --> 00:11:09,583 - Brooks's biggest loss... 152 00:11:10,083 --> 00:11:12,292 ...is the loss of his children, 153 00:11:12,375 --> 00:11:15,542 and that's something that has broken Brooks down to the core. 154 00:11:15,625 --> 00:11:17,708 - You can come in if you want. 155 00:11:25,083 --> 00:11:28,667 - Uh, yeah... - I truly believe we are going to lose... 156 00:11:28,750 --> 00:11:30,458 the brothers. 157 00:11:30,542 --> 00:11:32,167 Brooks has given up. 158 00:11:33,292 --> 00:11:35,417 He promised me he won't die. 159 00:11:36,458 --> 00:11:41,250 It's a very empty promise when he's using drugs that are gonna kill him. 160 00:11:41,333 --> 00:11:42,917 (unintelligible) 161 00:11:44,042 --> 00:11:45,292 Sorry. 162 00:11:50,208 --> 00:11:55,375 (♪) 163 00:11:55,917 --> 00:11:59,667 Brooks's go-to way to make money is binning. 164 00:12:00,750 --> 00:12:03,083 Brooks will go out all night, 165 00:12:03,208 --> 00:12:06,667 and I always wonder how; he can hardly stand up sometimes. 166 00:12:08,875 --> 00:12:11,792 He finds copper and aluminum to recycle, 167 00:12:11,875 --> 00:12:13,708 and he gets paid for that. 168 00:12:14,792 --> 00:12:18,833 - I'm trying to get money to get my drugs... 169 00:12:18,917 --> 00:12:20,958 legally as much as possible. 170 00:12:37,833 --> 00:12:40,042 - Ow! (bleep) 171 00:12:40,125 --> 00:12:43,250 Five, six years ago, all of the brothers were doing drugs. 172 00:12:43,333 --> 00:12:45,833 And I was always just a follower. 173 00:12:45,875 --> 00:12:48,000 I was being a bad boy. 174 00:12:48,125 --> 00:12:50,958 - Okay, so how much am I asking her for? - Twenty-two. 175 00:12:50,958 --> 00:12:52,667 - Twenty-two? - Yeah. 176 00:12:52,750 --> 00:12:54,875 My typical day is driving around, 177 00:12:54,958 --> 00:12:57,167 dropping people off at their jobs, 178 00:12:57,208 --> 00:12:59,292 or giving them rides to do stuff. 179 00:12:59,375 --> 00:13:02,167 And I'm usually doing a lot of drugs in between that. 180 00:13:02,958 --> 00:13:05,958 Kyla, she's my cousin. She goes to work for, like, 181 00:13:06,042 --> 00:13:08,167 10 hours outta the day. 182 00:13:08,250 --> 00:13:09,417 (bleep) 183 00:13:11,625 --> 00:13:13,708 Kyla enables me, but... 184 00:13:13,833 --> 00:13:16,000 I also enable her. 185 00:13:17,167 --> 00:13:18,292 - Whoa. 186 00:13:20,042 --> 00:13:21,875 - I'm sorry. - That's okay. 187 00:13:22,875 --> 00:13:24,875 - It's just like a catch 22. 188 00:13:29,708 --> 00:13:31,292 (phone ringing) 189 00:13:32,375 --> 00:13:34,417 - Hello. - It's Brooks. 190 00:13:35,250 --> 00:13:39,042 You, um, still good to swing by with that, uh, ball? 191 00:13:44,875 --> 00:13:49,333 - Um... I can possibly get a couple of bucks. Okay? - Okay. Bye. 192 00:13:49,458 --> 00:13:50,792 - Bye. 193 00:13:59,042 --> 00:14:01,458 - The enabling in this family isn't right. 194 00:14:01,542 --> 00:14:05,208 - Don't lose it. - But it's the hardest part to navigate. 195 00:14:05,292 --> 00:14:09,083 I would rather give you 20 bucks and have you go on your way 196 00:14:09,167 --> 00:14:13,792 than argue for five hours on why I won't give you the 20 bucks. 197 00:14:16,292 --> 00:14:17,333 (phone ringing) 198 00:14:18,583 --> 00:14:20,208 - Okay, see you in a sec. 199 00:14:28,375 --> 00:14:29,458 - Yeah. 200 00:14:33,667 --> 00:14:34,958 - $23? 201 00:14:37,167 --> 00:14:39,250 - That was the gas. The gas was 23. 202 00:14:41,042 --> 00:14:42,833 - Um, I don't think so. 203 00:14:52,583 --> 00:14:54,500 - I'm sorry. I misunderstood you. 204 00:14:58,542 --> 00:15:00,083 - No. No, no, no. 205 00:15:10,917 --> 00:15:14,958 - Brooks has gotten himself integrated with... 206 00:15:15,042 --> 00:15:17,500 some very heavy-duty drug dealers. 207 00:15:18,458 --> 00:15:22,875 If he doesn't pay, Brooks will get beat up or potentially shot. 208 00:15:34,292 --> 00:15:35,875 (phone ringing) 209 00:15:36,917 --> 00:15:38,417 - Hi, baby. 210 00:15:39,042 --> 00:15:40,667 - Hi. - How you doing? 211 00:15:40,708 --> 00:15:42,667 - I'm Justice, 212 00:15:42,750 --> 00:15:45,250 and I'm Joel's ex-girlfriend. 213 00:15:45,375 --> 00:15:48,583 The thing that keeps Joel and I apart is his drug use. 214 00:15:51,958 --> 00:15:54,792 - When he's using, he's not himself, 215 00:15:54,875 --> 00:15:57,250 and he'll say things to manipulate me. 216 00:15:57,333 --> 00:15:59,542 Okay, call me after. I love you. - Okay. I love you. 217 00:15:59,625 --> 00:16:01,042 - Bye. 218 00:16:02,417 --> 00:16:06,208 He's stolen my money, and just a lot of lying. 219 00:16:09,292 --> 00:16:12,000 - I've learned to just joke about my emotions, 220 00:16:12,083 --> 00:16:14,667 like being, like, molested, 221 00:16:14,750 --> 00:16:16,583 or anything that I've been through. 222 00:16:17,792 --> 00:16:19,667 I just repress it, I think. 223 00:16:20,875 --> 00:16:24,167 It's why I use, and I know it is, because when I'm not high, 224 00:16:24,250 --> 00:16:26,958 it's a lot easier to remember. 225 00:16:40,000 --> 00:16:42,500 - Like, even going in the house is a thing, right? 226 00:16:45,125 --> 00:16:46,625 My ex-fiancée... 227 00:16:56,750 --> 00:16:58,625 ...she took the baby away from me. 228 00:17:02,667 --> 00:17:06,625 Can we put this in the truck so it stops getting destroyed from the weather? 229 00:17:13,375 --> 00:17:14,542 (bleep) 230 00:17:20,542 --> 00:17:22,750 - You guys got this from the ultrasound, right? 231 00:17:26,458 --> 00:17:29,625 Why would I use if I wanna be in my daughter's life? It's kind of stupid. 232 00:17:29,708 --> 00:17:32,125 So I decided to stop. 233 00:17:32,208 --> 00:17:36,917 - Taryn has been telling people that he's been clean off of drugs for two months. 234 00:17:37,042 --> 00:17:38,750 And that's not the truth. 235 00:17:38,833 --> 00:17:41,125 - Okay, I love you. Bye. - Love you. 236 00:17:41,125 --> 00:17:44,667 He's relapsed and used methamphetamine two weeks ago. 237 00:17:44,750 --> 00:17:47,333 He thinks it was just a slip, 238 00:17:47,375 --> 00:17:49,542 not a relapse, and it doesn't count. 239 00:17:59,083 --> 00:18:01,292 But I can't see them when I'm using. 240 00:18:02,667 --> 00:18:04,458 It's just a simple fact. 241 00:18:22,125 --> 00:18:26,333 - The thought of the generational addiction reaching my children, 242 00:18:26,417 --> 00:18:28,208 Brooks's children, Taryn's daughter, 243 00:18:28,292 --> 00:18:31,125 is the purpose of me... 244 00:18:31,208 --> 00:18:32,750 not giving up. 245 00:18:32,833 --> 00:18:36,208 They are the entire reason why I keep fighting. 246 00:18:42,542 --> 00:18:46,250 - What'd you order? - I ordered, um... 50 and 50. 247 00:18:46,875 --> 00:18:48,625 - Yeah, we could do 40 and 40. 248 00:18:49,042 --> 00:18:50,333 And then the smokes. 249 00:18:50,458 --> 00:18:52,375 - Okay. - Sounds good. 250 00:18:57,708 --> 00:19:00,250 What's up? How you doin'? (Bleep) new person? 251 00:19:01,708 --> 00:19:03,917 Yeah? 180 for 3.5? 252 00:19:04,042 --> 00:19:07,375 Alright, you have a good night, okay? (indistinct chatter) 253 00:19:08,792 --> 00:19:11,125 - Only in the last few months, 254 00:19:11,208 --> 00:19:12,958 Joel is quite different. 255 00:19:13,042 --> 00:19:17,375 We're starting to question now all the things that he's doing. 256 00:19:20,000 --> 00:19:21,500 He's not hanging around home. 257 00:19:27,583 --> 00:19:30,875 Okay, so you're in... any state you go downtown? 258 00:19:34,125 --> 00:19:36,333 I don't mind driving him downtown. 259 00:19:36,417 --> 00:19:38,250 I worry about him gettin' back. 260 00:19:39,375 --> 00:19:42,667 - Kim has quite an awkward spot in the family. 261 00:19:43,208 --> 00:19:46,125 Because of his choices and his drug use, 262 00:19:46,208 --> 00:19:48,250 the boys throw it in his face. 263 00:19:48,375 --> 00:19:50,292 "Look who we learnt it from." 264 00:19:51,000 --> 00:19:53,625 - Brooks... we're here, buddy. 265 00:19:53,708 --> 00:19:55,917 - I know... - So what do you wanna do? 266 00:19:57,458 --> 00:19:59,583 Eh? We love our boys. 267 00:20:00,417 --> 00:20:03,750 We don't want to see them on the road, on the street. 268 00:20:03,833 --> 00:20:05,417 I love you, son. 269 00:20:06,458 --> 00:20:08,708 I'd rather see you go home, okay? 270 00:20:10,708 --> 00:20:12,250 - It's time to get up. 271 00:20:12,917 --> 00:20:15,125 - She doesn't want to see them out there, 272 00:20:15,208 --> 00:20:18,167 so she has an opportunity to house them, 273 00:20:18,208 --> 00:20:19,833 to have them close to her. 274 00:20:21,125 --> 00:20:23,333 They're still using, but... 275 00:20:24,167 --> 00:20:26,292 ...she has an opportunity to be there. 276 00:20:26,375 --> 00:20:28,917 Okay, Brooks, I'll see ya at noon tomorrow, okay? 277 00:20:29,042 --> 00:20:30,667 - Yeah. Dad, love you. 278 00:20:31,208 --> 00:20:32,833 - I love you, buddy. 279 00:20:32,958 --> 00:20:35,458 The thing that I've been saying recently is... 280 00:20:36,250 --> 00:20:38,417 ..."Heavenly Father, let your will be done." 281 00:20:45,667 --> 00:20:48,542 (♪) 282 00:20:48,750 --> 00:20:51,792 (Crystal): Recently, the city was at Kim's house... 283 00:20:52,875 --> 00:20:56,333 ...and gave her a time period to clean up that yard. 284 00:20:59,875 --> 00:21:02,958 - Hi! - Girl, I'm so stoked to see you. 285 00:21:03,042 --> 00:21:05,833 (Justice squealing) - Long time no see. - Oh... 286 00:21:06,500 --> 00:21:08,167 My mother-in-law, 287 00:21:08,292 --> 00:21:11,667 I want to see her be able to go outside, 288 00:21:11,708 --> 00:21:13,708 and not look around and see junk. 289 00:21:13,792 --> 00:21:16,667 I'm gonna gather everybody, bring 'em all in the back. 290 00:21:16,750 --> 00:21:19,958 - The worst thing to me is seeing my mom go through what she goes through. 291 00:21:20,042 --> 00:21:23,792 We choose this on our own, and we don't need to bring my mom down. 292 00:21:23,875 --> 00:21:26,375 - Gas cans can go back in that vehicle, 293 00:21:26,458 --> 00:21:29,333 tarps can get folded up, that kind of stuff. 294 00:21:32,708 --> 00:21:35,625 - Joel, we're gonna do the cleanup now if you care to join us. 295 00:21:35,708 --> 00:21:38,458 - Do what? - Just a cleanup of the backyard. 296 00:21:38,542 --> 00:21:40,625 If you want to join, that'd be awesome. 297 00:21:46,708 --> 00:21:48,750 - Nice to see you. You look better. 298 00:21:52,208 --> 00:21:54,250 But she also, I think, enables Joel in the end. 299 00:21:54,333 --> 00:21:56,375 - Why you sleeping so late? 300 00:21:56,458 --> 00:21:58,500 - I'm tired. - Why you so tired? 301 00:21:58,583 --> 00:22:00,958 Joel looks like a shell of himself to me. 302 00:22:01,708 --> 00:22:03,667 What have you been doin' lately? 303 00:22:05,958 --> 00:22:07,542 - Fent and stuff too? 304 00:22:08,208 --> 00:22:09,667 - Little bit? 305 00:22:10,417 --> 00:22:12,375 - Joel's addiction has only... 306 00:22:12,458 --> 00:22:16,833 gotten really, really bad since Taryn and Brooks ended up back at my mom's house. 307 00:22:17,667 --> 00:22:20,500 - Brooks said he doesn't care about that minibike. 308 00:22:22,250 --> 00:22:24,000 - Even though Joel's only a crackhead, 309 00:22:24,083 --> 00:22:26,417 less scary than fentanyl or heroin, 310 00:22:26,500 --> 00:22:31,417 he's very likely to get a bad batch and overdose... and just die. 311 00:22:31,542 --> 00:22:34,958 Five years ago, in addiction, none of my brothers looked like this. 312 00:22:35,917 --> 00:22:37,750 Brooks? - Do you see him? 313 00:22:37,833 --> 00:22:39,417 - Yeah, he's here. 314 00:22:39,500 --> 00:22:41,583 Brooks looks really, really ba. 315 00:22:41,708 --> 00:22:44,542 (Crystal): Brooks has a substantial amount of drugs. 316 00:22:45,292 --> 00:22:46,917 - Are you alive? 317 00:22:47,000 --> 00:22:48,667 - He has picked up... 318 00:22:48,750 --> 00:22:50,083 over 30 grams... 319 00:22:50,167 --> 00:22:51,875 of fentanyl. 320 00:22:52,625 --> 00:22:55,500 It's scary, because it's a dangerous amoun. 321 00:22:55,500 --> 00:22:57,750 - It's Khori. - Yeah, you gotta go slow. 322 00:23:02,958 --> 00:23:04,500 (Khori sighing) 323 00:23:04,583 --> 00:23:07,375 - Taryn tends to be selfish, self-absorbed. 324 00:23:07,458 --> 00:23:09,125 It's all about him. 325 00:23:09,208 --> 00:23:10,958 He should be rewarded. 326 00:23:16,250 --> 00:23:18,875 (Dad): Garbage is what it is, in my opinion. 327 00:23:19,000 --> 00:23:21,667 (Taryn): My relationship with my dad is not the best. 328 00:23:21,750 --> 00:23:23,708 We get into a lot of physical fights. 329 00:23:24,958 --> 00:23:26,500 (groaning) 330 00:23:26,583 --> 00:23:28,500 - Taryn's a little different. 331 00:23:28,667 --> 00:23:33,333 I was trying to be a father and tell him what was right and the way he should be, 332 00:23:33,375 --> 00:23:36,125 and I ended up getting in a fistfight with him. 333 00:23:39,125 --> 00:23:43,875 I thought each one of the bos would look at the situations that I'd went through, 334 00:23:43,958 --> 00:23:47,375 and I thought they'd say, "I don't want to be there." 335 00:23:47,500 --> 00:23:49,500 - Maybe it wasn't you, 336 00:23:49,583 --> 00:23:52,167 it was something that happened in their life? 337 00:23:52,208 --> 00:23:55,708 - Yeah, I'm not sure. - Brooks shared it with us, 338 00:23:55,833 --> 00:23:58,792 about sexual abuse in their childhood. 339 00:24:00,250 --> 00:24:02,125 - Yeah, I do. It's, uh... 340 00:24:02,208 --> 00:24:05,292 - Do you think maybe that could've impacted them? 341 00:24:05,417 --> 00:24:08,792 - Well, it probably... totally did. 342 00:24:17,208 --> 00:24:18,833 - Brooks. 343 00:24:18,917 --> 00:24:20,417 Oh, (bleep). Jeez. 344 00:24:21,458 --> 00:24:25,292 Pull your body back. You're under your bed. (indistinct chatter) 345 00:24:25,375 --> 00:24:27,333 Brooks is beyond sadness. 346 00:24:27,375 --> 00:24:30,333 He is broken, because he can't protect, 347 00:24:30,375 --> 00:24:31,958 he can't help. 348 00:24:32,042 --> 00:24:33,500 You're okay. 349 00:24:34,500 --> 00:24:36,292 (Brooks moaning) 350 00:24:36,375 --> 00:24:37,750 You're okay. 351 00:24:37,833 --> 00:24:40,083 - He did lose his kids, right? - Yeah. 352 00:24:40,958 --> 00:24:42,583 Today it was finalized. 353 00:24:50,375 --> 00:24:55,083 But what kind of man can't get sober for his kids, is how he sees it. 354 00:24:56,292 --> 00:24:57,958 And he can't do it. 355 00:24:58,875 --> 00:25:02,500 Nobody in this family has the tools to cope, or the knowledge, 356 00:25:02,583 --> 00:25:05,833 so it's just a bunch of broken people breaking each other more. 357 00:25:06,625 --> 00:25:08,250 - Look at me. (Brooks mumbling) 358 00:25:10,625 --> 00:25:12,833 (unintelligible) 359 00:25:16,833 --> 00:25:18,958 It's just giving us a place to die. 360 00:25:24,125 --> 00:25:25,708 - It's so good to see you all, family. 361 00:25:25,833 --> 00:25:27,333 Yeah, come on in. You are welcome here. 362 00:25:27,458 --> 00:25:28,875 My name's Maureen Brine, 363 00:25:28,958 --> 00:25:31,750 and I'm going to be your interventionist. 364 00:25:31,833 --> 00:25:34,667 I think it's not a moment too soon that you're here. 365 00:25:34,792 --> 00:25:36,917 I want to talk about your recovery, 366 00:25:37,000 --> 00:25:39,583 because this isn't just their problem. 367 00:25:41,125 --> 00:25:43,292 - I was an alcoholic. 368 00:25:43,375 --> 00:25:45,250 - You were an alcoholic? - Yeah. 369 00:25:46,542 --> 00:25:49,125 - I'm an ex-hardcore addict myself. 370 00:25:49,708 --> 00:25:52,333 - How long were you in active addiction when the boys were little? 371 00:25:52,417 --> 00:25:54,542 - The whole... their whole life. 372 00:25:54,625 --> 00:25:56,833 - So do you feel guilty about that? 373 00:25:56,875 --> 00:25:58,042 - Oh, major. 374 00:25:59,292 --> 00:26:00,917 - Mom, I'm here for you. 375 00:26:02,292 --> 00:26:03,667 - Thank you. 376 00:26:04,042 --> 00:26:07,167 - We've never been able to help them through all the trauma, 377 00:26:07,250 --> 00:26:09,958 and the root problems that are causing this. 378 00:26:10,625 --> 00:26:14,542 Because of my own recovery, I... understand what they're going through. 379 00:26:14,625 --> 00:26:17,500 - Mm-hmm. - If we just keep doing it the way we've been doing it, 380 00:26:17,583 --> 00:26:20,125 it's just gonna be a never-ending cycle or-- 381 00:26:20,208 --> 00:26:23,167 - Yeah. - --one of them's gonna die soon if... 382 00:26:23,292 --> 00:26:25,542 - One of them will die soon. Yes. - Yeah. 383 00:26:27,417 --> 00:26:29,125 - I'm also in recovery. 384 00:26:29,208 --> 00:26:30,625 - You get it. 385 00:26:30,708 --> 00:26:32,833 - In their younger years, there was... 386 00:26:32,875 --> 00:26:35,667 sexual abuse and assault... 387 00:26:36,292 --> 00:26:38,667 ...to all three brothers. 388 00:26:38,708 --> 00:26:43,167 - Yeah. - And there's a heavy resentment and anger... 389 00:26:43,167 --> 00:26:45,000 within all three of them. 390 00:26:45,708 --> 00:26:50,000 - That just breaks my heart. I just feel, like: How could I not know? 391 00:26:50,042 --> 00:26:54,125 - Right? Oftentimes, it happens with trusted people. (both): Yeah. 392 00:26:56,375 --> 00:26:58,708 - I'm here... 'cause... 393 00:26:59,708 --> 00:27:01,333 ...in a way, I've... 394 00:27:01,417 --> 00:27:04,000 enabled... and lost myself... 395 00:27:04,083 --> 00:27:07,083 (sniffling) ...and lost my best friend. 396 00:27:09,375 --> 00:27:12,500 I miss the boys, too. They're all like brothers to me. 397 00:27:12,625 --> 00:27:14,667 - So you're hoping they see the light tomorrow? 398 00:27:14,750 --> 00:27:17,458 - Oh, yes. - Every time... 399 00:27:17,542 --> 00:27:20,000 we see one of them getting sober, 400 00:27:20,083 --> 00:27:22,458 they're faced with something that they're, like: Ooh. 401 00:27:22,542 --> 00:27:26,000 And shortly after, it's a relapse again. 402 00:27:26,083 --> 00:27:28,292 - And that's where, you know, treatment is so important. 403 00:27:28,375 --> 00:27:31,417 - Yeah. - Taryn's a really good example of all this right now. 404 00:27:31,542 --> 00:27:35,583 He's, like: "I don't need help. I'm good. Look at me. I'm great." 405 00:27:35,708 --> 00:27:38,750 - Two weeks of sobriety is not gonna cut it. 406 00:27:40,083 --> 00:27:42,750 - I need a stopping point. - You do. 407 00:27:42,875 --> 00:27:46,500 - I need to be able to say you're either gonna take this help today, 408 00:27:46,583 --> 00:27:48,250 or I am done. 409 00:27:48,333 --> 00:27:51,083 - That's tough. It's gonna be tough. - Yeah. 410 00:27:51,167 --> 00:27:53,750 - You're going to be writing a letter, 411 00:27:53,833 --> 00:27:55,667 urging them to accept help. 412 00:27:56,375 --> 00:28:00,125 At the bottom of each letter is something that's known as a bottom line, 413 00:28:00,208 --> 00:28:02,125 where they're asked to make a choice... 414 00:28:03,250 --> 00:28:06,000 ...between their drugs and the people that love them. 415 00:28:06,500 --> 00:28:08,875 - If-if things all went south, uh... 416 00:28:09,708 --> 00:28:11,958 ...only because I've been there... 417 00:28:12,042 --> 00:28:13,875 I'm gonna be there for 'em. 418 00:28:13,958 --> 00:28:15,833 - I know that by doing it that way, 419 00:28:15,875 --> 00:28:18,250 we're gonna go through 20 more years of this, 420 00:28:18,333 --> 00:28:21,125 or you're not gonna have a family to be around. 421 00:28:21,250 --> 00:28:24,167 - It's so hard for me to step away from. 422 00:28:25,375 --> 00:28:28,167 - The intervention is only as strong as the weakest link. 423 00:28:29,042 --> 00:28:32,417 (both): Okay. - I'm ready to do what I have to do. 424 00:28:32,542 --> 00:28:34,333 - That's what it's gonna take, right? 425 00:28:44,667 --> 00:28:47,167 (Khori): We've given them all the help we can. 426 00:28:48,417 --> 00:28:52,042 Brooks is just scared that he's gonna kill himself any day now. 427 00:28:52,125 --> 00:28:55,958 Joel, I think, will jump at the opportunity to go to treatment. 428 00:28:57,167 --> 00:28:59,708 But they all have excuses that they've made. 429 00:29:00,375 --> 00:29:03,583 - I'm glad to be here to help. - I'm so glad you're here with me. 430 00:29:03,667 --> 00:29:05,583 - Three brothers. - Three brothers. 431 00:29:05,667 --> 00:29:07,833 - Big deal. - It's not been done before. 432 00:29:10,208 --> 00:29:13,125 - I really don't care about this interview. Yeah, I know. 433 00:29:20,917 --> 00:29:23,000 - So how's everyone doing? - Freaking out. 434 00:29:23,042 --> 00:29:25,542 (laughter) - Gonna be stressful. 435 00:29:25,625 --> 00:29:29,000 - I'm just trying to have that positive hope. - Let's hope they say yes. 436 00:29:34,333 --> 00:29:36,417 All you need to do is follow my lead. 437 00:29:52,667 --> 00:29:54,083 Hey, good morning, Taryn. - Good morning. 438 00:29:54,167 --> 00:29:56,417 - Come on in. Nice to meet you. - Nice to meet you. 439 00:29:56,500 --> 00:29:59,333 - Just have a seat there, okay? - How's it goin'? 440 00:29:59,375 --> 00:30:02,417 - So, Taryn, how long have you been clean? 441 00:30:02,500 --> 00:30:05,667 - For about two months now. - How's it feelin'? - Pretty good. 442 00:30:05,750 --> 00:30:08,000 - You've been totally clean from everything? 443 00:30:08,083 --> 00:30:10,000 - Well, no. I smoke weed, but... 444 00:30:10,083 --> 00:30:11,917 - Think that doesn't count? 445 00:30:12,000 --> 00:30:13,917 - I guess it does a little bit. 446 00:30:15,292 --> 00:30:16,917 Come on in. 447 00:30:27,583 --> 00:30:31,042 - Hi, guys. (Brooks mumbling) Joel, would you sit over here? 448 00:30:32,708 --> 00:30:35,042 - Brooks, you sit over here, okay? Thank you. 449 00:30:38,375 --> 00:30:41,750 My name is Maureen Brine, and I'm an interventionist. 450 00:30:42,208 --> 00:30:45,417 I'm here with your... very loving family... 451 00:30:45,917 --> 00:30:48,000 ...to offer you some help today. 452 00:30:49,375 --> 00:30:53,667 Um... and Taryn, I still think it would be good for you to get some help too. 453 00:30:53,750 --> 00:30:55,417 - Mm. 454 00:30:55,542 --> 00:30:59,167 - What I want you to do is just listen for a while. 455 00:30:59,250 --> 00:31:00,458 Crystal? 456 00:31:03,750 --> 00:31:05,292 - "Dear Brooks, Taryn and Joel, 457 00:31:05,375 --> 00:31:08,917 this past year has been some of the scariest experiences 458 00:31:09,000 --> 00:31:10,708 within this family. 459 00:31:11,625 --> 00:31:14,458 I have spent 10 years loving all of you like my brothers, 460 00:31:14,542 --> 00:31:19,083 and the fear I carry of losing any of you is a heavy pain." 461 00:31:20,625 --> 00:31:23,458 (Maureen): Brooks, can you hold off on that? (whispering) 462 00:31:26,875 --> 00:31:30,500 - I'm sorry, but, Brooks, I want you to hold off if you can. Okay? 463 00:31:30,625 --> 00:31:33,625 Can you do that? - No. - Please do that for your mom. 464 00:31:37,000 --> 00:31:39,833 - "Joel, Brooks, and Taryn..." (sniffling) 465 00:31:39,917 --> 00:31:44,458 "...if you choose to not accept this help today, I can no longer support or enable. 466 00:31:44,542 --> 00:31:47,583 There will be no money and no more coming to our home." 467 00:31:47,667 --> 00:31:49,208 (Maureen): Yeah. 468 00:31:49,958 --> 00:31:52,542 - "Dear Brooks, Taryn and Joel..." 469 00:31:54,208 --> 00:31:56,208 (sniffling) "...this past year, 470 00:31:56,292 --> 00:31:59,125 watching your addictions consume you, has been scary. 471 00:32:00,208 --> 00:32:02,625 Brooks and Taryn..." (sniffling) 472 00:32:02,708 --> 00:32:05,167 "...the big brothers I never had. 473 00:32:06,292 --> 00:32:09,167 I learned to look up to you guys and confide in you. 474 00:32:10,542 --> 00:32:12,167 Joel..." (sniffling) 475 00:32:12,167 --> 00:32:14,583 "...my best friend, 476 00:32:14,667 --> 00:32:16,542 love of my life, 477 00:32:16,667 --> 00:32:20,917 you and I are connected on a level I've never felt before. 478 00:32:22,208 --> 00:32:24,000 Joel... 479 00:32:24,083 --> 00:32:26,708 if you do not accept this help today, 480 00:32:26,792 --> 00:32:28,458 I will have to cut all ties." 481 00:32:31,833 --> 00:32:34,542 (Khori): "Dear Brooks, Taryn and Joel, 482 00:32:34,667 --> 00:32:37,833 I'm here to help try and break the cycle of addiction. 483 00:32:37,875 --> 00:32:40,667 I'm here for Mom. But most of all, 484 00:32:40,750 --> 00:32:44,875 I'm here because I love you and I want my brothers back. 485 00:32:45,542 --> 00:32:48,333 Brooks, I'm scared for you the most." 486 00:32:49,833 --> 00:32:51,333 (Maureen): Take your time. 487 00:32:52,542 --> 00:32:54,167 (Khori): I'm sorry. 488 00:32:56,333 --> 00:33:00,042 - Okay, no, you can't do that. Okay? Give me that lighter. Sorry. You'll just have to wait. 489 00:33:08,208 --> 00:33:10,500 (Maureen): Okay. - "Dear Brooks, 490 00:33:10,542 --> 00:33:12,167 Taryn and Joel... 491 00:33:13,083 --> 00:33:16,875 ...I love you all very, very much and always will. 492 00:33:17,583 --> 00:33:20,667 Taryn, I know the dreams you have of being clean, 493 00:33:20,750 --> 00:33:24,208 but I am concerned you are headed in the wrong direction--" 494 00:33:25,583 --> 00:33:28,625 - "--to move forward." - Don't-- - Shut up and listen. 495 00:33:35,208 --> 00:33:37,500 - Yeah, you gonna get knocked out right now? - Okay, guys-- 496 00:33:37,583 --> 00:33:40,125 - So stop it. - You are being an ignorant piece of (bleep). 497 00:33:42,708 --> 00:33:46,667 - You can't even let him talk-- - Talk. I'm not. - You're still doing your same-- 498 00:33:46,708 --> 00:33:50,500 - Shut the (bleep) up, you (bleep) clown. - Okay. No. No, no, no. 499 00:33:52,375 --> 00:33:54,792 No! (bleep) Sit down, Brooks. 500 00:33:54,875 --> 00:33:58,000 - Taryn! - No. Taryn. Taryn, let's go. (crosstalk) 501 00:33:59,208 --> 00:34:01,542 (bleep) - Shut up, Taryn! 502 00:34:05,042 --> 00:34:06,542 (shouting) - No. 503 00:34:06,625 --> 00:34:08,958 No. Brooks! Stop. 504 00:34:09,042 --> 00:34:11,000 (bleep) Brooks. Guys! 505 00:34:13,542 --> 00:34:17,000 - What you gonna do about it?! - Get the (bleep) off me. 506 00:34:17,083 --> 00:34:18,583 - Let go. - Okay, guys. 507 00:34:18,667 --> 00:34:20,125 (shouting) 508 00:34:21,375 --> 00:34:24,792 - Taryn, go outside. - It's me, it's me! It's me. 509 00:34:24,875 --> 00:34:27,542 - Piece of (bleep). - Hey. - Get out of my face! 510 00:34:30,750 --> 00:34:33,333 - I'm done now. - Shhh. - I'm actually done. 511 00:34:33,375 --> 00:34:35,542 - Sit down. - I don't accept your (bleep). 512 00:34:35,625 --> 00:34:37,833 Have some (bleep) respect, you moron! 513 00:34:37,958 --> 00:34:41,042 - Yeah? - He wants to (bleep) leave, let him (bleep) leave. 514 00:34:49,292 --> 00:34:51,042 (Crystal): Please don't run. 515 00:34:52,875 --> 00:34:55,333 - I'm not asking you to go anywhere! Just stand still. 516 00:34:56,625 --> 00:34:58,125 (Maureen): No, no. 517 00:34:58,708 --> 00:35:01,250 No. (bleep) Brooks, knock it off. 518 00:35:01,375 --> 00:35:06,375 - I'll break everything here! - I'm gonna keep following you, because I'm not gonna give up! 519 00:35:06,458 --> 00:35:09,542 I lied to save your life because I care! 520 00:35:09,625 --> 00:35:12,542 - Brooks. - Get off of me! - Let him go, Crystal. 521 00:35:12,667 --> 00:35:14,083 - (Bleep) off! 522 00:35:14,208 --> 00:35:15,625 You dumb bitch. 523 00:35:28,375 --> 00:35:30,750 (♪) 524 00:35:31,167 --> 00:35:33,458 Crystal, you tried your best. 525 00:35:33,833 --> 00:35:37,000 I'm sorry. - I'm really confused about Brooks. 526 00:35:37,042 --> 00:35:39,250 - He's scared. He's scared. 527 00:35:39,875 --> 00:35:42,625 - Okay if I sit here? - Yeah. - Okay, thanks, man. 528 00:35:51,167 --> 00:35:53,958 - You can speak to Joel directly. Are you ready for that, Joel? 529 00:35:54,042 --> 00:35:55,792 - Yeah, let's just go. - Okay. 530 00:35:58,208 --> 00:36:01,583 - "Dear Joel, you can't see it yourself, 531 00:36:01,667 --> 00:36:04,958 but you have become a ghost of your former self. 532 00:36:05,042 --> 00:36:06,875 I'm so worried for your life. 533 00:36:06,958 --> 00:36:11,125 I urge you to accept the help that will be offered today." 534 00:36:11,208 --> 00:36:13,458 - What kind of help? (chuckling) 535 00:36:13,542 --> 00:36:17,417 - To be admitted to a treatment centre today. - Like, today? 536 00:36:18,708 --> 00:36:19,875 (sighing) 537 00:36:42,250 --> 00:36:43,833 - Do you have a decision for me, Joel? 538 00:36:47,750 --> 00:36:50,167 - Yeah, sure, I'll go to treatment. 539 00:36:50,292 --> 00:36:53,583 - Good choice. Good choice. 540 00:36:53,708 --> 00:36:55,000 - Thank you. 541 00:36:55,083 --> 00:36:56,667 (indistinct chatter) 542 00:37:01,958 --> 00:37:06,083 - So I just want you guys to follow my lead and see what he has to say. 543 00:37:06,167 --> 00:37:07,667 (door opening) 544 00:37:15,208 --> 00:37:17,667 Brooks, are you willing to accept help today? 545 00:37:19,000 --> 00:37:20,417 - Yeah. 546 00:37:24,958 --> 00:37:26,667 Yeah, I guess I'll go. 547 00:37:26,750 --> 00:37:28,333 - Oh! - Yeah... 548 00:37:35,042 --> 00:37:37,458 - This is your chance to say goodbye to your family, okay? 549 00:37:37,542 --> 00:37:39,875 - It's great. - I love you. - Good luck, bro. 550 00:37:39,958 --> 00:37:43,083 - I love you. - Love you. Hold onto that (indistinct). 551 00:37:43,208 --> 00:37:44,500 - I will, baby. 552 00:37:47,333 --> 00:37:49,500 - I love you. - (Indistinct)... even more. 553 00:37:51,083 --> 00:37:52,708 (indistinct chatter) 554 00:37:59,625 --> 00:38:03,500 - It's so hard. Got lots of people on your side, though. 555 00:38:05,125 --> 00:38:06,667 - Yeah, I know. Come on. 556 00:38:06,708 --> 00:38:09,375 - We'll see you soon, buddy. (sniffling) 557 00:38:09,458 --> 00:38:12,292 - See ya in months. - We love you, Brooks! 558 00:38:12,375 --> 00:38:13,917 - Yeah, love you too. 559 00:38:14,917 --> 00:38:16,500 - I'm very proud of you. 560 00:38:17,375 --> 00:38:19,250 (crying) I know. 561 00:38:20,333 --> 00:38:21,917 I know, I know. 562 00:38:50,417 --> 00:38:53,042 - Lots has changed. I feel really healthy. 563 00:38:53,667 --> 00:38:56,125 No pain. I have such a clear mind. 564 00:38:56,208 --> 00:38:58,333 The difference is night and day. 565 00:38:58,750 --> 00:39:03,250 The biggest change in my mental state is just... acceptance of life. 566 00:39:03,333 --> 00:39:06,583 I don't really think there's anything I can truly not deal with anymore. 567 00:39:06,667 --> 00:39:08,542 Like, it's amazing. Hi, everybody. 568 00:39:08,625 --> 00:39:10,875 (laughter) What's goin' on in here? 569 00:39:10,958 --> 00:39:14,167 - I was here at the centre when Brooks first arrived. 570 00:39:14,167 --> 00:39:16,292 He was in pretty rough shape. 571 00:39:17,042 --> 00:39:20,250 Mentally, physically, emotionally, you could see it. 572 00:39:20,333 --> 00:39:22,542 With detox, it was touch-and-go, 573 00:39:22,667 --> 00:39:25,208 if was really gonna stay at the centre. 574 00:39:25,292 --> 00:39:27,917 Once Brooks moved up into program, 575 00:39:28,000 --> 00:39:30,917 he exceeded everyone's expectations. 576 00:39:31,708 --> 00:39:34,375 - Addiction can really dull a person's sparkle. 577 00:39:34,458 --> 00:39:37,083 And I think Brooks was dimmed for a very long time. 578 00:39:38,500 --> 00:39:41,500 What we decided to do was to get him into some poetr. 579 00:39:41,625 --> 00:39:44,458 - It seemed like a bad thing to try. 580 00:39:44,458 --> 00:39:47,000 What if I don't like it? What if I die? 581 00:39:47,042 --> 00:39:51,042 - He has taken a real liking to sharing his feelings, his thoughts through poetry. 582 00:39:51,125 --> 00:39:54,000 - Just facing everyday life is exciting for me. 583 00:39:54,083 --> 00:39:57,625 I don't have to worry about the shadow of my past. 584 00:39:58,042 --> 00:39:59,667 - Just seeing the transformation, 585 00:39:59,750 --> 00:40:02,375 even physically, he looks like a different person. 586 00:40:02,458 --> 00:40:06,042 Emotionally, spiritually, and just his zest for life right now. 587 00:40:07,708 --> 00:40:11,917 - Tonight is my first official call with my kids, and it's gonna be awesome. 588 00:40:12,708 --> 00:40:15,042 I have dreams now, goals, 589 00:40:15,125 --> 00:40:18,042 and I'm happy with myself now. 590 00:40:28,542 --> 00:40:32,167 - Coming here was pretty awesome, 'cause they teach you the skils 591 00:40:32,250 --> 00:40:34,000 to actually deal with the wound. 592 00:40:34,042 --> 00:40:35,708 It was pretty eye-opening. 593 00:40:36,458 --> 00:40:38,667 - Taryn's openness... 594 00:40:38,750 --> 00:40:40,667 has been a total night-and-day difference. 595 00:40:40,792 --> 00:40:43,750 He was having a very difficult time sitting in his own skin. 596 00:40:44,542 --> 00:40:47,208 - I shared my life story with the group and we got to talk about it. 597 00:40:47,833 --> 00:40:51,542 - It's a harrowing life stor, but the other guys, 598 00:40:51,625 --> 00:40:54,458 the way they embraced him, was tremendous. 599 00:40:54,542 --> 00:40:58,208 How was church? - It was very good, actually. - Moving forward, 600 00:40:58,292 --> 00:41:01,208 it's gonna be very important for Taryn to continue to lead with his heart, 601 00:41:01,292 --> 00:41:04,500 and with the courage that he's shown to live a fulfilling life. 602 00:41:04,583 --> 00:41:06,333 - I feel blessed. 603 00:41:06,417 --> 00:41:08,542 I'm starting to love myself, which is awesome. 604 00:41:17,375 --> 00:41:19,333 - I feel really good. 605 00:41:19,375 --> 00:41:21,750 It's kinda crazy, to be honest. 606 00:41:21,833 --> 00:41:24,708 I'm like a totally different person. (laughing) 607 00:41:24,833 --> 00:41:29,000 - Since the time Joel got here, there's been massive change. 608 00:41:29,083 --> 00:41:31,542 - It's beautiful by the ocea. I love it. 609 00:41:31,667 --> 00:41:34,500 Been able to go on walks and actually be there. 610 00:41:34,542 --> 00:41:36,667 Be present is, I think, the best thing. 611 00:41:36,792 --> 00:41:39,292 We still have bad days, but I'm really happy. 612 00:41:39,833 --> 00:41:41,917 - Even though he's only 24, 613 00:41:42,042 --> 00:41:45,708 I could see him doing big things in his life, provided that he stays sober. 614 00:41:45,792 --> 00:41:47,500 We're all rootin' for him. 615 00:41:48,375 --> 00:41:52,000 - I just wanna move forward. My brother Brooks, he's doing great. 616 00:41:52,083 --> 00:41:53,792 And I just wish the best for Taryn too. 617 00:41:53,875 --> 00:41:55,958 And I've been praying for them every day. 618 00:42:22,625 --> 00:42:24,708 Subtitling: difuze