- Never know where the night will take you.
It just makes me (bleep) feel normal.
People think I'm (bleep) up when I'm sober.
My ex-boyfriend offered me a needle.
I was drunk one night and it's, like: "Yeah, sure, I'll try it."
And my life's (bleep) now.
I've become a drug addict.
I call myself a healer that can't heal myself.
- You feel like you're gonna die.
- I just want her to get better and I don't want her to die on us.
- Once you start, you don't stop.
- I would do anything for my daughter to save her life.
I cannot go through life with a dead daughter.
- It's like a sick joke.
Not-funny-at-all joke,
that the more that I look for stuff, the sicker that I start to get.
- Tickle, tickle, tickle... (child laughing)
Oh, she wants to be tickled. (laughing)
- I don't do drugs with her hee but I'm gonna cook some crack so I don't (bleep) kill myself.
- When I look in my daughter's eyes, I see a lost soul,
just doing things that she never used to do.
Stealing, drugs,
feeding the habit that she's in,
and throwing everything else aside.
- I don't care about anything right now.
In a matter of (bleep) 10 hours of not doin' a pill, I wanna (bleep) die.
I want to hurt a lot of (bleep) people that have hurt me,
and I (bleep) just...
Good thing I don't have a (bleep) gun right now.
- It's just a really bad time for her.
- She's really breaking down right now,
and I think everything that's going on is just really gettin' to her.
(sobbing)
- You want a hug, Shanni? - No.
(Bleep) is that gonna do?
- It's kind of a... double-edged sword,
that I'm gonna try to help Shannon...
get through her stuff while getting the baby away from Shannon.
(exclamations)
- Like, I'm sorry. Don't take it personally.
I just wanna (bleep) shoot myself right now.
(Bleep) wanna hit myself!
Like, I just... I gotta take this off,
and I gotta go lay down, and I'm gonna drink this (bleep) alcohol.
I just wanna get (bleep) wasted until I'm gone.
Your good days (bleep) suck.
Like, the best day I've had in the last two years still (bleep) sucks.
I can tack her up for you if you want.
- I have been friends with Shannon for 15 years now.
We met through horseback ridin.
Shannon has been quite passionate about horses.
- We've just always been close since I was about seven.
I'm super excited to get on him.
It's been so long.
- I think Shannon's love for horses...
is her way of having control on her own life.
- Oh, my gosh.
(laughing) It feels so cool.
- I think the only time I really see Shannon, her true self,
is when she is around horses.
(Shannon laughing)
- I love horses a lot. They don't ever lie to you.
It's just kinda like the whole rest of the world's not here,
and it's just me and that horse.
I just kind of don't think about everything that is negative in my life,
like fines and charges and losing my daughter and being a drug addict.
Whoa...
- I would always ask Shannon to hang out.
I would invite her over to hang out with the horses,
I would invite her just to see her.
I did not realize it was this bad. I thought Shannon,
over the years, was blowing me off to do better things.
Then I realized that Shannon wasn't coming for a reason.
- And I didn't want to portray that (bleep)-upness to you,
because I didn't... like,
someday I hope that I'm not (bleep) up.
- Like, I feel awful that you didn't...
(indistinct chatter) ...come to me, though. - It's not your fault.
It's 'cause I care about you so much that I didn't want to bring that...
- Knowing that she... could not come to me... for help,
because she didn't think that I would help.
I-I can't imagine being embarrassed to come to somebody
who would accept you for who you are no matter what.
(sniffling) - I really don't know.
I'm currently addicted to...
opiates, meaning Dilaudid and hydromorphone;
crack, cocaine,
injecting cocaine.
You're not gonna like what you see. Hmm.
Okay.
I'm ready to roll.
I'll get up in the morning and I'll do a pill to not be sick.
And then if I do end up smoking some crack or doing some coke,
well then when that's gone, I need to do another pill or I feel like...
a whole different level of sickness.
Let's just do this. I'm just (bleep) happy to have this.
But then as soon as I do a pil, I don't care if I do any more coke and crack.
And then a day or two will go by,
then I want to do coke and crack again.
And meanwhile, I'm doing pills every day, all day.
I'm a crackhead and a pill-head and a (bleep) cokehead.
And I'm just going more and more downhill.
It's a vicious cycle.
Just like that, you feel better. It's (bleep) sick.
- The last few years has been really terrible.
She's pushin' us and pushin' us and pushin' us away.
- Shannon was the cutest little girl that you could ever imagine.
(Yvonne): She was a lively baby.
She learned everything early.
The talking, the crawling, the walking.
She has a huge connection to animals.
When she first became in love with animals and she looked up in the field,
there was a riding ring and there's horses in it, and she was, I think, four.
And she goes, "Daddy, what's that?"
And he said, "Those are horses."
They get out looked and they watched the girls ridin' around the ring.
- And she wasn't intimidated at all.
She reached right in there and pet them, like a natural.
- And that's where she met a lot of her friends.
- It was just all about our passion for the horses.
- She felt awesome about the fact she's so small,
and had control of this big horse.
She's runnin' around with a 400-pound friend. Like, yeah.
- She wanted to help every animal, she was out to save the world.
- I was driving from the workhouse,
and, um... I seen a cow.
(reporter): In a part of Nova Scotia
where cow-crossing signs are common,
what isn't common is what Shannon came upon last Thursday.
- I had seen a construction worker
runnin' over to the truck to flag me down.
He said, "You're in a truck. What do we do with this?!" I said, "Get him in the truck."
(reporter): Then had to find milk to feed the calf.
Once she got that, she began the hunt for its owners.
- She had named the cow Boobah,
and fed it and kept it alive until she found a home for it.
- Everybody has a passion. That's what she loved to do.
There's a barn on Darrell's property
where she used to have anywhere from one to four horses,
holding them for people or rescuing them,
and that was her devotion before all this.
It wasn't just a girl and her horse.
It wasn't.
- My husband Darrell did have a drinking problem.
Shannon was probably three or four...
when he stopped, because there was an incident one night with me.
He basically blackened my eye in front of Shannon...
...and she tried to protect me.
- And I remember I... laid overtop of my mom.
I remember the look on his face and how bad he felt.
- I had some jealousy issues and they would come out when I would drink.
I just knew I had to stop or I'm gonna lose all my family and everything.
I wish I could take all that back, but I can't.
- It was that one episode that... it really changed him.
Never, ever even barely seen him drink a beer after that.
- Darrell and Yvonne had so much going on,
just like every other parent in the world,
they weren't taking a look
at exactly what was going on trauma-wise in Shannon's mind.
(Shannon): I was... about seven years old.
A family member snuck into my room.
He molested me. I kind of suppressed the memories.
Didn't tell my parents that it happened...
until when I was about 17 or 18.
- We didn't find out until about 2018.
We don't know the details. She won't talk about it.
But I know it must've been bad, because that's when she started kind of going really downhill.
- I was a 12-year-old pothead.
I was really stoned every single day. When I was about...
probably 16 or 17, my dad would smoke it with me.
He didn't really like me smoking weed, but I was gonna do it anyways.
- Someone mentioned maybe you should try just having a joint with her.
You might get closer instead of everything being sneaky and hidin'.
- She would be partying,
she'd be hanging out with the wrong people.
And then... we would get around the horses,
and there's the old Shannon from when she was nine years od in love with horses.
- She always got good grades.
She did so well...
that she graduated six months before any of her peers.
- When I had graduated high school,
I got a job at a barn in Stewiacke.
I learned a lot about horses there.
- This barn had high-end horses, some of them $20,000, $30,000 horses.
At that point, she was living her dream.
- She was proud and happy.
She would keep everything together.
We're talking 70-horse barn, like, just horses...
That's a lot of work for anybody.
(Shannon): It felt, like, really good.
Like I was depended on and trusted.
I left there... because I wasn't getting paid very good,
and then I started being overworked, underappreciated,
taken for granted after the third year.
And I would sleep, like, one day a week, maybe two and..
I burnt out.
- That's when she went and got a job as a security officer
at a gold mine that had opened up.
And then she met...
her ex-boyfriend.
- I kinda had a flag up, 'cause he liked to drink all the time.
I think everything kinda went downhill from there for her.
So next thing you know, she's moving up to his house,
she's pregnant, she gives up her job.
- She was a beautiful baby. I felt like I had it all.
(Yvonne): She'd come and visit us and she was like a normal mom.
- Me and my daughter's dad were...
not getting along for a while.
I'd had a couple of drinks, because at that point,
I drank every day.
I put her in the vehicle, not thinking, like:
Hey, I'm pretty much drunk.
- That's when she ended up getting into a... drinking-and-driving accident
with my granddaughter in the truck.
She got charged with drinking and driving.
- She was okay, luckily.
- She met this guy, seemed really clean-cut.
Turns out that he gave her here first needle.
- I keep envisioning her,
just my beautiful girl again.
I want my beautiful girl back.
- Shannon can't be the mom she needs to be,
because Shannon...
can't be who she is right now,
because of the drugs.
- How she used to be, always smiling,
so confident, so mouthy and energetic...
...to this shell of a person that thought so little of herself.
- Ever since that first time doing it,
it's just been...
a road of needles...
...and crack pipes and...
broken promises and empty dreams,
and losing everything.
(child babbling) I don't really want her to see me go out the door.
It's really hard to leave her.
Like, I know she doesn't want me to go,
and sometimes I wonder, in my mind...
...if I'm gonna end up making it back.
It's not fair to her.
My head's (bleep).
It's been like this all (bleep) day.
I leave for a night and where I go and do cocaine and crack.
- Hey. - Hey, what up? (indistinct chatter)
My buddy goes around hotel-hopping. So he just goes in the hotels,
and finds doors that are (bleep) open and treats the room like it's his.
This guy's crazy. He's one of the craziest people I know,
but he's got a very big heart, as long as you don't (bleep) with him.
Does (bleep) hurt when it goes in your veins?
What is this... stuff?
- Cocaine.
You gotta do it. It's hard as hell with (bleep).
(Darrell): It's a dark road for her.
It's dark for us to watch it. And I know right now,
she's in her darkest place I've ever seen her.
- I just really wish that I would've... followed my dreams.
But I'm just going more and more downhill.
I just don't care anymore.
It just feels like it's too late.
We're gonna have a good day.
Dilaudid 8s and I have about...
probably about a. 3 or. 4 of crack.
I've given up,
traded and lost everything that I've worked for my whole life for drugs.
Once I ran outta things to sell,
I started selling naked pictures of myself.
Um, that's something that, like, if I'm really pill-sick,
I will still do to this day.
Um, I'm just gonna run over to my friend.
I forgot those in the cup holder.
- I know she feels super guilty,
and she feels humiliated with everything that's gone on.
- Like a nurse. I probably should've went to school.
I wish I would've been a nurse instead of a junkie.
- The drugs have really done a number on her,
in regards to her thought, her body, her mind,
all of it.
- Hey. How you doing?
- Good, good. (indistinct chatter)
- Oh, not too much. Just going to the trap house.
(laughter)
(indistinct chatter)
- Yeah, I lost my phone, but now you can take it.
I gave it to you. I'm not gonna...
I was so (bleep) pill-sick when I left my parents', I left wearing no makeup.
But I was so pill-sick, I didn't care.
I knew there was a pill and I was going for it.
- Those ones are hydromorphs, and some (indistinct) and some sleepers.
- Uh, just one or two.
But I've sniffed coke at least every weekend since I was 12 years old.
And when I was 15-16, I started selling it,
and then I started daily use.
(producer): What was that, Chris? - That was, uh...
a point... 1.5.
(Shannon): Oh, okay. - The green fetty, green fentanyl.
Now I'm startin' to feel it now. It's kinda...
you feel it in your throat, in your teeth, in your head.
Like a nice warm feeling.
It's... Yeah, it's... it's good.
It's beautiful.
Beautiful. (indistinct chatter)
- Cheers. (bleep)
(woman): Chris.
Chris.
Come on. Come on, babe.
(mumbling) Can someone get another person just in case?
- What? - Shannon, come in here.
- Hey, Chris. (bleep)
We're gonna make sure his face doesn't get smothered.
I need you to move your hand, your face, Chris. Just a little bit, okay?
It's alright. Okay? I need you to keep moving your hand.
(Chris groaning) Keep moving your finger.
Can somebody find me a (bleep) lighter?! Thank you.
- Hey, Chris.
(indistinct)
- Yeah, Jess, he's okay. (indistinct chatter)
(screaming)
- C'mere. (indistinct chatter)
- Just sip it. No, don't. Just little sips, alright?
Little sips and I got a few pills comin' for ya with some fetty in them.
Okay, let's switch positions. You rub his back, someone hold his (bleep) leg.
- Watch his head. (indistinct chatter)
(bleep)
- Okay, I need you to stay still now. (coughing)
- Turn your head this way, dude.
(retching) (indistinct chatter)
(crying out and coughing)
- Stay still, Chris.
- There. Stay still. I got it.
(indistinct chatter) - She got it. (bleep)
And... it's in.
(screaming) It's in, it's in, it's in. (coughing)
- Good job, man.
- You okay? (bleep)
They wanna just kinda mingle with that line. You know what I mean?
Like, they wanna get that high that they almost die but they don't die.
- Ready to go back? - You're back, bro.
(indistinct chatter)
- (Bleep) that. I need a drink, man. I'm (bleep) dying here.
- He's mad at us right now. Like he's (bleep) pissed the (bleep) off,
because we Narcaned him and made him sober.
- This is just a Monday night in the trap house.
- Like...
this is not... this is... (chuckling)
(sniffling) - None of us want to be this way,
even the ones that think they do.
It hurts so bad.
(♪)
- I'm gonna see if Shannon texted me.
Nope, nothing yet.
- She left last night. Don't know who she left with.
I don't know where she went.
I just know that she was going for a fix. 100% know that.
- She'll say, you know, "I'll be home at 10,"
then we don't see her for two days.
- It drives me crazy. With the drugs,
I think she'd almost do anything.
So I don't know.
I don't really know the answers.
(Yvonne): Mama's home. - It just has to stop.
These people are not her friends.
They don't care about her. They just care about what she does for them.
- She's gonna sleep for... a little while. - Yeah.
- I gotta start getting ready for dinner.
Tonight we're having our first family gathering
since my parents passed away in 2018.
It's gonna be nice to have the family back together again,
even just for an evening.
Earlier she told me to get out of her room,
so I just got outta there, because sometimes it's easier,
especially when she's coming down,
if she is coming down off something,
'cause the last thing I want to do is fight with her.
- Hey, bud. Shannon here?
- Uh, she is. I don't know if she's up yet. She's struggling.
- Yeah.
(Bleep) I hate my life. (Bleep) hate my life.
I need to find something, or I'm gonna...
I have about three hours until I... feel like I'm (bleep) dying.
Because I already am starting to now.
(child babbling) - It's so good to see you. - Mm.
(indistinct chatter) - When I saw Shannon, my heart broke.
Not just for her, but for her family.
She's frail...
and she's lost, and that's not the Shannon that I know.
The Shannon that I know is very strong.
An absolute fighter.
- I love you. - She's in such a deep hole...
that she doesn't recognize...
...what getting out of that hole will look like.
(indistinct chatter) - Yeah, me too.
(background chatter)
- I'm full.
- She lost her... light.
When I watched her on the couc, passed out, what she was...
with everyone around her...
...I felt scared for her; not just for her, but for her family,
for her friends, but most of all for her daughter.
- And it wouldn't be a family function if we weren't smoking somethin'.
- No. - Remember Nanny and Grandpa,
remember that last day with Grandpa?
That was a down spiral in my life.
- It was a very hard day for all of us. - Right?
Shannon, I hope you, uh, I hope you do get better in the end, man.
- Me too. - I don't wanna... I don't wanna have to bury you.
- I had a dream and I couldn't let it all go.
- You let it go for now. But you're gonna get it back, though,
'cause the dream's still here and it's still alive.
- I can't do it. Just... no.
Like, I don't know what to do.
So I use 'cause I don't have (bleep). I don't know what to do.
- She has had a lot of battles. She's fallen off the horse a lot in her life.
But addiction is the one battle that she's hit the ground, having a hard time gettin' up.
(child crying) (laughter)
(Shannon): All these people are gonna watch me do this. Call someone who cares.
At this point, I've hit such a rock bottom.
Being an addict, it's hard.
And sometimes you feel alone,
like nobody understands.
And I just feel like it's my choice
to either get better,
or I'm just gonna end up dead or in jail.
That was a horrible cook. Ah, (bleep).
I don't even have my (bleep) thing.
(crying)
(sniffling and crying)
(Bleep) everything in my life doesn't (bleep) work.
(bleep)
(Dawn): Shannon has... such a huge heart.
I think that Shannon gave all that she was to people,
and I think she was let down a lot.
- God. (bleep) Pipe is gone now.
If I (bleep) lost that, I can't (bleep)... I can't do this.
Like, if I lost another (bleep) probably $200 pipe, I (bleep), I give up.
- And over time, it broke her piece by piece.
- I need to find my pipe.
It's gotta be in the car. And I don't...
really help myself or allow myself to be helped.
When I just need somebody to (bleep) save me,
but I won't burden people's problems and be, like: Hey,
I (bleep) don't know what I'm doing with my life at all.
I've lost everything. People take all my (bleep). It's all gone.
(Dawn): I think that it destroyed what she had left.
A belief in love. And I think without the belief in love...
...Shannon can't function.
- Guess what. We all (bleep) got touched.
We all got (bleep) left.
- And we need to get her back.
- Yeah, just come in.
- Hi, everybody. How are you today?
- We're doing okay. Thank you. - Good to have you here for Shannon.
My name's Ian Rabb. I'm a certified interventionist.
And today we're gonna do a lot of work,
walking through how we can help Shannon
and allow her the opportunity to get well.
What happens in an intervention I think that's really important,
it's your love and you coming together.
It's no one's fault in this room.
I know that's so hard for parents.
So why don't we start with Mom?
- Okay, Shannon and I are close, but we're also very far apart.
The reason being I think I've been too...
trying to control things, trying to... I guess mould her.
Maybe overbearing, yes. But always out of love.
- She'd be at a party and no matter what party she was at,
she would find out where she was.
And she would get there and try--
- Helicopter mom. - Yeah, she was. Yeah, 100%.
- I think that's a huge part of the problem. - Yeah.
- You have an addiction to Shannon. - I was obsessed with--
- You're obsessed with where she is, what she's doing, how.
Every day you're letting her in that house,
she's harming not only you, but the three-year-old.
Who's gonna grow up just like her. I need you to process that.
- Just imagine how (bleep) feels,
seeing Shannon bounce around but still not havin' her mother there.
- And gone for two weeks at a time.
- And then it's just all okay 'cause Nanny is gonna take care of it?
It's what it's time for.
'Cause it's... it's not gonna get better.
Love yourself. (Yvonne chuckling wryly)
- We're like loving our children to death.
- Yeah. - We're no longer helping them.
Is there any traumas you can recall?
- Yeah, there's some traumas, for sure.
I believe, you know, she was molested.
- She was about 18 when we found out.
- You feeling like you should've protected her. - 100%.
In the younger years, I... I drank quite a bit.
You know, did things that I shouldn't have done, you know, outta anger.
There's no question in my mind that's definitely a part of it.
- Like, what kind of stuff? - Uh, picking on her mom. Jealous issues.
- I want to talk about something that's very interesting to me in your family,
and that's all of your relationship with pot or with marijuana.
I just think it needs to be addressed,
even sharing a joint with her to try and learn how to communicate with her.
- That was me. - And when was that? - She was about 16.
She said, "Mom, that's one of my biggest issues,
is you pretend that you don't smoke pot,
but then I can smell it coming up from the basement."
That was a huge barrier for her, that I'm saying,
"No, you be good and don't smoke pot,"
then she could smell a waft of it coming up from stairs.
- That's a little bit of a... like, hypocritical. - Yeah.
I shouldn't... I shouldn't even really be smoking it, to tell you the truth.
- For an addict, often the booze bone's connected to the pot bone,
connected to the coke bone, connected to the Dilaudid bone.
- Yeah. - Connected to the next... You know? We cross lines.
I really want you to be cognizant of your own... addictions.
When did she start abusing alcohol or marijuana or drugs?
- I think she's 12. I'd say around 12.
- There's gonna be a lot of stuff she's gonna need you to say -
you - to say, "I'm sorry.
I contributed to your addiction by smoking marijuana with you.
I contributed to your addiction by not knowing about your abuse."
And you've been obviously around...
- I've been around Shannon since day one.
For a long time, we were a happy family.
I went through my own rough times,
and developed a... addiction to crack cocaine.
And that kind of destroyed
some of the family relationships that I had.
It's a battle.
- Are you alright, Michael? What's goin' on?
- I will be. Um-- - So you've grown up with her?
- Yeah, she was my best friend when we were little.
I wanna grow to come back to being best friends like we used to, right?
- So you're more like a brother, it sounds like.
- Me and Shannon have a daily communication. "I love ya. Keep your head up."
But I think that she's gonna listen to me.
- That's really an important person to have in an intervention.
- Yeah. - Where your word means something right now to her.
No addict really wants to quit ever.
It's the most difficult thing to do in the world,
or we would all just quit.
- She said that to me the other day. We were close--
- You mean a lot to her. - --until a year ago.
And over time, I watched her... slip away.
I see her now as... lost.
- I was thinking a bottom line might be something:
"If you don't stop drugs,
I will not be able to have you come over the house unsupervised," for example.
- Not at all. - No, that's too weak. That is weak.
- If she doesn't stop drugs, she's going to die!
- There's no strength there.
- "We're on a life-or-death mission, so get on it with us.
You're not welcome in my home."
- In my life. You are gone. - Not just say it, you need to believe it.
Because if you don't believe it, she's not gonna believe it.
- If you don't get on the same page with us, she's done, she'll walk out.
You need to come to terms with the fact
that the way you're going, you're burying her alive.
We want to give her the opportunity to learn how to quit,
and ultimately find that...
that spirit, her soul.
Her freedom comes in the truth.
I feel it a tiny bit.
- Good morning. How's everybody doing this morning?
- This is the day that my daughter is gonna be saved.
- Yeah. - I feel it in my bones.
- I'm gonna have some more juice.
But I (bleep) hate rushing. I hate it.
- I feel very hopeful.
I believe that she is surrounded by love.
And she's gonna see that.
- I'm sorry. It's not you. I just (bleep)...
I can't stop contemplating suicide right now.
I (bleep) hate rushing out doors. I hate it so much!
Don't have anything that I (bleep) need, but let's go.
- So I wanted to welcome you, Devon. Thanks for coming today.
- Just excited to have my friend back.
- It's been a long time. - It has been.
Okay, everybody, they're here.
- Everybody ready? - Yes.
(Yvonne, Dawn and Darrell): We're ready.
- This way?
- Hi, Shannon. - Hey. - How are you? I'm Ian.
Have a seat for the conversations with your family.
(all): Hi.
- So, Shannon, we all came together today in love,
as a family, to give you the support you need to be able to get well.
We're gonna read some letters to you and offer you some gifts today.
So, Yvonne, do you wanna start?
- "To my beautiful daughter Shannon,
the love I have for you is immense.
That is why I want to help save your life.
I've become very scared.
Addiction has taken your daughter from you,
and your self-respect,
but it's not too late to regain either.
I know at times I was overbearing. And for that, I am sorry.
If you don't accept this amazing offer of help,
our relationship will need to be strictly through phone calls or Messenger.
I can no longer watch you die before my eyes."
- Michael John?
- "Shannon, I love you with my whole heart."
(sniffling)
"We always talk about getting the kiddos together,
but, Shannon, if you do not accept the treatment today,
the chances of us getting those kids together is gone.
The hospital trips and whenever you need help is over.
I won't do it anymore. That's not because I don't love you.
It's because I'm scared to lose you."
(Shannon sniffling) - I know.
- "Dear Shannon, I have loved you..." Sorry.
"...since the first day we met at the barn 18 years ago.
We shared the exact same outrageous obsession over horses.
Our friendship has grown into so much more since that day.
If you don't decide to receive help,
we will not be able to spend time
making new memories with our children, what we had growing up."
(whispering): I love you. (Ian): Phil?
- "Dear Shannon, I love you as much today as I did the day you were born.
I'm very worried that this addiction is gonna...
take you away from us.
Shannon, you asked me about comin' to my house the other day,
and I told you anytime.
However, you will need to accept the help that is offered to you today
before I could bring you into my home.
We need you to get clean." (Ian): Dawn?
- "Since the moment I met you,
I saw your light and your true empathy.
I can't... watch...
...as you kill your spirit.
But unless you take this gift,
I will cut all communication until you choose you.
Love yourself, love your daughter,
and the many animals that are going to need you."
(Ian): Dad?
- "Shannon, I have loved you since I seen you come into this world.
I've been proud to call you my daughter and still am very proud.
I want to apologize...
...for the hurt I have caused you, like my drinking,
for fighting with Mom in front of you.
I must admit that I have toked with you when you were younger..."
(sniffling) "...and I regret it.
And I can't enable you no more,
so please accept this help.
I don't want to turn my back on you ever. Love, Dad."
I love you. - I love you.
- So, Shannon, we're hoping that you're gonna say yes today.
And as a team and a family, we've chosen some places for you to go to get well,
to the Neworld Detox in Ontario.
And from there, we're gonna go right to Trafalgar Residence.
Trafalgar is a place that really does really good work
around trauma and mental-health issues.
We're leaving today. - Right now? - Yeah.
- You're one step closer already, Shan.
- I'm so (bleep) tired. - I know, baby. I know you are.
- I'm gonna get better.
I really didn't think it was gonna be like this.
I thought I was just down a path
where I was just gonna lose everyone and everything.
- Shannon, you'll take the help we're offering you today?
- Thank you, baby. Thank you so much.
- Good job, honey. (sniffling)
(Dawn): We love you.
You have no idea how much we love you.
- We're a couple of OGs here.
(Yvonne): Good luck. - I'm so excited for you.
(Darrell): Love you, honey.
- I love you guys. (Michael): Love you.
- This is the beginning of the rest of your life. Okay? - Mm-hmm.
I'm petrified, but I'm more scared to keep living the way that I have been.
- Bye! - Love you, honey!
- Love you.
- The best journey.
Really proud of you. (laughter)
- Hey. - Hey.
(both): Thank you. - Oh, my gosh, of course. Welcome.
In Shannon's case, for her level of substance use,
it's really important that she starts her recovery journey with us at Neworld,
which is a medically supervised detox site.
Let's go in here.
Thirteen years of substance us,
and especially at the early ages...
is gonna be tricky.
I think there are gonna be some hard days
that we're gonna be here to support her.
It's very exciting.
I think there's a great opportunity
for her to discover just that, who she is.
- So happy to be here.
- When Shannon first arrived at iRecover,
she was completely broken.
She was suffering from opiate withdrawal.
- What led me to come back was just, I think,
the self-shame and the regret that I had of messing it up.
- Offering individuals a more relaxed approach, and laid-back approach,
allows them to be able to feel less stigmatized.
- There. How does that look?
I was nervous about doing this, but I think I did awesome.
- Really good.
- They're workin' on themselves all day and they're doin' it collectively.
So they get to know people at a level...
you would never get to know people in other facilities.
- What up? (all): Hey, Shannon. (laughter)
- When I got through these doors,
I didn't love myself,
and they just... bombarded me with love
until I learned how to love myself.
You guys ready to do some drawing and stuff? (indistinct chatter)
- iRecover is very holistic program.
It looks at people both emotionally, spiritually, physically and mentally.
- I wanna get a thing of... of a needle and, like, thread.
- Oh, yeah. - Through that scar there. - Yeah.
- To just remind me of...
...to never go back.
I really feel like I was rebor.
When I first got here, I thought that I was gonna be..
doing it just for my daughter and for my family.
In the last few weeks...
...I finally hit a point...
that I actually want to be sober for me.
I felt like I finally forgave myself.
And I finally forgave me being molested.
And I felt free.
- We have a lot of interesting things that we do here.
We do burning ceremonies,
we have our rock garden.
(drumming)
- When new people come in the door and they see those rocks,
it can just give them little glimmers of hope.
Where I was at 10 years ago was what I thought was a functional addict,
but there is no such thing as a functional addict.
And where I'm at now is that I'm finally where I wanna be.
- Shannon's biggest obstacle, when she leaves here,
is going to be getting back into the daily routine.
I know we've been working closely with her, her family,
to see how we can best transition Shannon from treatment,
um, back home.
- When I come outta here, I certainly plan to get back to working with horses again,
build the trust back of my family to be there for my daughter.
I was always a healer who couldn't heal myself,
but I have finally found those skills
to heal myself.
(cheering and applause) (laughter)
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