1 00:00:08,667 --> 00:00:10,083 (sniffling) 2 00:00:15,958 --> 00:00:17,917 - (bleep). 3 00:00:18,000 --> 00:00:19,417 (lighter flicking) 4 00:00:19,500 --> 00:00:21,208 (sizzling) 5 00:00:24,375 --> 00:00:26,625 (eerie music) 6 00:00:35,708 --> 00:00:37,208 (sniffing) 7 00:00:41,333 --> 00:00:43,417 (exhales) 8 00:00:45,375 --> 00:00:47,208 - Holy (bleep). 9 00:00:50,958 --> 00:00:52,667 (sniffing) 10 00:00:52,750 --> 00:00:54,333 (groans) 11 00:00:54,417 --> 00:00:57,333 Upper, downer, and another upper. 12 00:00:57,417 --> 00:00:58,792 So up, down, up. 13 00:01:11,042 --> 00:01:14,750 Maybe next year. Maybe never. 14 00:01:14,875 --> 00:01:16,875 Eventually I'll get... 15 00:01:16,958 --> 00:01:19,917 - Yeah, maybe, I might (bleep) have a heart attack from it. 16 00:01:20,000 --> 00:01:21,417 You just never know. 17 00:01:22,542 --> 00:01:23,583 I don't know. 18 00:01:40,708 --> 00:01:43,167 (soft music) 19 00:01:48,375 --> 00:01:50,667 - It's nice. It's nice. 20 00:01:50,750 --> 00:01:53,833 - I just remember always being in the outdoors with Josh. 21 00:01:53,833 --> 00:01:55,833 Always. And it was awesome. 22 00:01:55,917 --> 00:01:59,958 Like no one else would take me. - Sean was my guy. 23 00:02:00,042 --> 00:02:02,833 My little bro. Took him fishin' a lot. 24 00:02:02,875 --> 00:02:05,167 Had lots of good times. - Here. 25 00:02:05,250 --> 00:02:07,000 What color do you want, grandpa? 26 00:02:07,042 --> 00:02:08,333 (indistinct) 27 00:02:10,042 --> 00:02:12,333 - It's (bleep) beautiful. 28 00:02:12,375 --> 00:02:14,500 - But he was so much fun to hang out with. 29 00:02:16,375 --> 00:02:19,167 If we had to make a fire with nothing basically, 30 00:02:19,250 --> 00:02:20,417 he would be able to do it. 31 00:02:22,417 --> 00:02:26,792 Would I trust him with my life? Yeah. 100%. 32 00:02:26,875 --> 00:02:28,125 (sniffling) 33 00:02:29,917 --> 00:02:32,458 Josh. - Huh? 34 00:02:32,542 --> 00:02:33,833 Catch any fish? 35 00:02:33,917 --> 00:02:36,708 - Couldn't imagine a world without Josh, you know. 36 00:02:37,792 --> 00:02:40,167 - Not bad, eh? - Well, it sure beats starvin' to death. 37 00:02:40,250 --> 00:02:42,542 I'll tell you that. (laughing) 38 00:02:42,625 --> 00:02:44,667 - I could live off of the land, buddy. 39 00:02:44,708 --> 00:02:46,875 - That life's still available, you know? 40 00:02:46,958 --> 00:02:49,042 - Oh yeah. - Even the way he is. 41 00:02:49,167 --> 00:02:50,583 Even the state that he's in now... 42 00:02:52,875 --> 00:02:54,958 I still couldn't imagine it. 43 00:02:55,042 --> 00:02:56,542 (exhales) 44 00:03:12,042 --> 00:03:16,917 - My name is Josh, and I was first addicted to cocaine, teenager years, 45 00:03:17,000 --> 00:03:21,250 and then after that I started smokin' it, crack cocaine. 46 00:03:25,083 --> 00:03:26,375 - Where did you go? 47 00:03:32,333 --> 00:03:34,167 - Owe you for what? 48 00:03:41,958 --> 00:03:43,833 - The cops are all over the place too. 49 00:03:43,875 --> 00:03:46,750 We just saw them with him. - I just smile and wave. 50 00:03:46,875 --> 00:03:50,708 - The situation he was in 24 hours a day, I would be insane. 51 00:03:54,000 --> 00:03:56,458 - Oh, smell that stuff, buddy. 52 00:03:56,542 --> 00:04:00,333 Your mind made these pathways that it just goes to drugs. 53 00:04:00,375 --> 00:04:01,875 Boom, boom, drugs. 54 00:04:03,125 --> 00:04:05,333 It's, it's (bleep) up. 55 00:04:06,875 --> 00:04:08,333 - Holy (bleep). 56 00:04:09,167 --> 00:04:11,875 (sniffling) 57 00:04:13,833 --> 00:04:15,458 That is (bleep) up. 58 00:04:23,708 --> 00:04:26,417 - People that don't use drugs, they say you're choosing that, 59 00:04:26,500 --> 00:04:30,292 but once you get addicted, you're on autopilot, man. 60 00:04:30,375 --> 00:04:31,750 That's all you can think of. 61 00:04:34,708 --> 00:04:37,667 - Josh is my second oldest son. 62 00:04:37,708 --> 00:04:42,542 With Josh being that mischievous little firefly kinda kid. 63 00:04:42,625 --> 00:04:45,750 Josh would terrorize Corey, his older brother. 64 00:04:45,875 --> 00:04:48,292 I remember one day I was cleaning the tub 65 00:04:48,375 --> 00:04:50,375 and all of a sudden I hear screeching 66 00:04:50,375 --> 00:04:54,375 and I go out there and Josh has Corey up against the screen window 67 00:04:54,458 --> 00:04:56,292 and he's hosing him down with Scrub Free. 68 00:04:56,375 --> 00:04:57,583 Like... whoo, whoo, whoo. 69 00:04:57,708 --> 00:05:00,792 He got into all kinds of trouble. 70 00:05:06,375 --> 00:05:10,500 - His mother was in a relationship with a hotel owner. 71 00:05:10,583 --> 00:05:14,250 - Josh's dad is not a nice person, at all. 72 00:05:14,375 --> 00:05:20,750 Because he is the most psychological abusive person I've ever met. 73 00:05:20,875 --> 00:05:22,542 Narcissistic. 74 00:05:22,542 --> 00:05:24,958 The situation was so bad 75 00:05:25,042 --> 00:05:27,750 I had thought about giving him up for adoption. 76 00:05:27,833 --> 00:05:31,792 - And that is probably not something that Josh knows? 77 00:05:31,875 --> 00:05:33,333 - Nope. 78 00:05:33,417 --> 00:05:37,000 It was joy having my baby boy, 79 00:05:37,083 --> 00:05:39,958 but not joy for the situation that I knew he was coming into. 80 00:05:40,042 --> 00:05:44,375 So I moved out with the boys during the middle of the nigt 81 00:05:44,458 --> 00:05:46,875 while his father was at work, 82 00:05:46,958 --> 00:05:49,667 and then it just sort of escalated from there 83 00:05:49,750 --> 00:05:52,667 with the court battle and all that stuff. 84 00:05:52,708 --> 00:05:57,542 It doesn't happen very oftn where you're denied zero acces 85 00:05:57,625 --> 00:06:01,375 without like, nothing, not even with supervision. 86 00:06:09,542 --> 00:06:14,333 - My mom was laying on the couch watching X-Files and um, 87 00:06:14,417 --> 00:06:17,750 my brother was sitting beside me and she just, 88 00:06:17,875 --> 00:06:19,417 she said, "I don't know how to tell you this, 89 00:06:19,542 --> 00:06:22,583 but Morley's not your dad. You guys have a different dad." 90 00:06:22,708 --> 00:06:25,875 And I was there like, what the (bleep)? 91 00:06:31,750 --> 00:06:34,708 Pretty much turned my (bleep) world upside down, 92 00:06:34,792 --> 00:06:36,583 and then I just wanted my own dad. 93 00:06:36,667 --> 00:06:38,333 Like, where's my dad then? 94 00:06:38,458 --> 00:06:40,667 I want my (bleep) dad. 95 00:06:40,750 --> 00:06:44,500 It (bleep) eatin' me alive. 96 00:06:45,583 --> 00:06:47,708 I missed out on having a dad. When you're a kid, 97 00:06:47,833 --> 00:06:51,000 when you're a boy like me, a little troublemaker, rebel, 98 00:06:51,083 --> 00:06:54,750 you need a dad that's gonna lay down the law, 99 00:06:54,833 --> 00:06:58,458 and stepdads, they don't cut the cake. 100 00:07:03,917 --> 00:07:07,667 - We moved to Grand Rapids. Nice home. 101 00:07:07,750 --> 00:07:10,792 Pool outside. We fished all the time. 102 00:07:10,875 --> 00:07:14,167 - I remember going to the lae a lot with my mom. 103 00:07:14,208 --> 00:07:16,000 She had a nice little speedboa. 104 00:07:16,042 --> 00:07:17,792 We had a lot of fun in that. 105 00:07:17,875 --> 00:07:20,000 - Josh was a good big brother. 106 00:07:20,042 --> 00:07:23,125 He liked playing lots with Carly and Sean. 107 00:07:23,208 --> 00:07:26,458 - I was 9 and 10 when they were little babies. 108 00:07:26,542 --> 00:07:29,333 And I, I remember they meant a lot. 109 00:07:29,458 --> 00:07:32,042 I was always in there like a dirty shirt 110 00:07:32,125 --> 00:07:36,500 trying to help like, raise them and do whatever I could. 111 00:07:36,583 --> 00:07:39,250 - Family's first. He's always been that way. 112 00:07:39,375 --> 00:07:41,792 Anytime I call him, anytime he goes to hang up the phone, 113 00:07:41,875 --> 00:07:43,958 he'll always say, "You know I love you." 114 00:07:45,583 --> 00:07:47,792 That hits pretty hard. 115 00:07:47,875 --> 00:07:50,917 - Going to school was the biggest shocker. 116 00:07:51,000 --> 00:07:55,167 Getting thrown on a reserve when I was 10 years old. 117 00:07:55,250 --> 00:07:57,042 I was the only white kid. 118 00:07:57,125 --> 00:07:59,708 I was always gettin' beaten up when I got there. 119 00:07:59,792 --> 00:08:02,917 Two hours into school then getting out on the playground 120 00:08:03,000 --> 00:08:05,583 and I got beaten up by six other kids. 121 00:08:05,667 --> 00:08:07,833 Pinned on the ground and kicked in the face. 122 00:08:07,917 --> 00:08:11,125 It (bleep) with your self-esteem, self-worth. 123 00:08:11,208 --> 00:08:13,750 - So he got stirred up with kids at school 124 00:08:13,833 --> 00:08:16,458 and not all those people are necessarily good. 125 00:08:16,542 --> 00:08:18,958 And he was exposed to a lot. Lots of drugs. 126 00:08:19,042 --> 00:08:21,375 I know crack for sure he was exposed to. 127 00:08:21,458 --> 00:08:23,417 - And I was like 15. 128 00:08:23,542 --> 00:08:25,750 I don't know. I say I'm a drug addict 129 00:08:25,833 --> 00:08:28,875 because a mixture of not having my dad when I was growing up, 130 00:08:29,000 --> 00:08:35,000 and then getting thrown on a reserve when I was 10 years old. 131 00:08:40,917 --> 00:08:43,000 - Soon after we moved to Thompson, 132 00:08:43,083 --> 00:08:46,333 he, in high school, immediately got an auto body job. 133 00:08:46,375 --> 00:08:51,958 - Dude, honest to God, you are so talented at bodywork, painting. 134 00:08:52,042 --> 00:08:55,083 You could have your own shop. - Josh would give 'em a demo. 135 00:08:55,167 --> 00:08:58,875 They'd be like, "Holy (bleep. This is sweet." 136 00:09:00,042 --> 00:09:03,833 - I'd go to work three days in a row doing it all day at work. 137 00:09:03,917 --> 00:09:07,292 And they had no idea what I was doing. 138 00:09:07,375 --> 00:09:11,500 - I think he had been fired and rehired there like 10, 11 times. 139 00:09:11,542 --> 00:09:13,542 And that blows my mind. 140 00:09:13,625 --> 00:09:16,167 So he had to have been doin' somethin' right. 141 00:09:21,208 --> 00:09:24,667 - I met the mother of my children on a dating app. 142 00:09:24,750 --> 00:09:28,333 - He started a relationship with a really nice lady. 143 00:09:28,417 --> 00:09:30,250 That was fine. 144 00:09:30,333 --> 00:09:33,667 - And he managed to sort of have his act together 145 00:09:33,792 --> 00:09:35,667 for a little bit of time. 146 00:09:35,667 --> 00:09:39,083 - And they soon had their first child. 147 00:09:39,208 --> 00:09:45,208 - The pictures of Josh looking, holding his baby boy... 148 00:09:47,167 --> 00:09:53,000 ...made me feel very proud and hoping that that little guy 149 00:09:53,042 --> 00:09:54,958 could save Josh. 150 00:09:56,125 --> 00:10:00,542 - I love them more than life itself. 151 00:10:00,708 --> 00:10:03,625 Way more than I love myself. It's a good feeling. 152 00:10:03,708 --> 00:10:05,750 When my daughter was born, she came out 153 00:10:05,833 --> 00:10:08,750 and she like, opened one eye and looked right at me, and then closed it. 154 00:10:08,750 --> 00:10:11,292 I felt like I had a meaning. 155 00:10:11,375 --> 00:10:14,792 - I didn't know he was continuing to use like he was using. 156 00:10:15,917 --> 00:10:18,583 - I still kept a full-time job. 157 00:10:18,667 --> 00:10:20,583 I'd get home, usually cook supper, 158 00:10:20,667 --> 00:10:24,417 and then most times, I'd take off. 159 00:10:24,500 --> 00:10:25,667 - So he was having a hard time. 160 00:10:25,750 --> 00:10:27,708 Pretty much partying everywher. 161 00:10:27,792 --> 00:10:30,167 He spent every last penny he owned. 162 00:10:30,292 --> 00:10:33,000 - I lost my kids pretty much 'cause of drugs. 163 00:10:33,042 --> 00:10:35,167 Keepin' my kids away from me, it just, 164 00:10:35,250 --> 00:10:37,000 the worst pain that I've ever felt in my life. 165 00:10:37,125 --> 00:10:40,167 - After everything that's gone on 166 00:10:40,250 --> 00:10:42,042 and it's just got worse, and got worse. 167 00:10:42,125 --> 00:10:45,667 And he's been like that for a few years now and that's sad. 168 00:10:45,708 --> 00:10:49,333 - Josh is in a terribly dangerous situation. 169 00:10:49,417 --> 00:10:53,833 His chances of living out this year are very small. 170 00:10:53,875 --> 00:10:56,708 - He's already had a beating by four druggies. 171 00:10:56,708 --> 00:10:58,375 I don't know, the story sounds so crazy. 172 00:10:58,458 --> 00:11:03,375 All because the one leader asking if he was a fed or a cop. 173 00:11:03,500 --> 00:11:08,292 And then, they just beat the living (bleep) out of him. 174 00:11:08,375 --> 00:11:11,167 They could have like, so easily killed him. 175 00:11:15,917 --> 00:11:17,208 - I was wonderin' where you were. 176 00:11:17,333 --> 00:11:18,875 I thought you were on holidays. 177 00:11:19,000 --> 00:11:23,833 - I don't even know the last time we've all been together. 178 00:11:23,875 --> 00:11:27,417 It's nice that everyone's there with Josh. 179 00:11:28,542 --> 00:11:30,125 - When's it gonna end, eh? 180 00:11:30,208 --> 00:11:32,292 - That's what I'm wonderin'. - Yeah, I know you are. 181 00:11:33,292 --> 00:11:35,833 - How's it gonna end is what I'm more concerned about. 182 00:11:35,875 --> 00:11:38,583 - Yep. Well, I just want my kids, man. 183 00:11:38,708 --> 00:11:40,625 - Yeah, but you know how you're gonna get 'em. 184 00:11:40,708 --> 00:11:42,375 - I just want to see them or talk to them. 185 00:11:42,458 --> 00:11:45,042 I don't deserve to be cut right out of their lives. 186 00:11:45,167 --> 00:11:47,833 - Can't do anything about that. - They (bleep) love me, man. 187 00:11:47,917 --> 00:11:50,625 Especially (beep). He'll probably still remember me. 188 00:11:50,708 --> 00:11:52,333 Dad. - Of course. 189 00:11:54,000 --> 00:11:57,958 As he is right now, he is a total mess. 190 00:11:58,042 --> 00:12:00,500 You've been hittin' it pretty heavy the last little while? 191 00:12:00,583 --> 00:12:02,750 - Ah, like every day. - Every day. 192 00:12:03,667 --> 00:12:05,000 (sighing) 193 00:12:05,083 --> 00:12:08,125 - He makes me very anxious 194 00:12:08,208 --> 00:12:11,708 because you never know what he's gonna do. 195 00:12:11,792 --> 00:12:14,333 - Nah, I'm gonna do it. I'm gonna go it. 196 00:12:14,375 --> 00:12:16,000 Just gonna grab my sweater. 197 00:12:16,042 --> 00:12:18,042 - Get some more food in you. 198 00:12:18,167 --> 00:12:21,833 - Because it's always something insane. 199 00:12:23,667 --> 00:12:25,208 - I'd really like to kick his ass. 200 00:12:25,292 --> 00:12:27,458 I'm just so mad at what he could become 201 00:12:27,542 --> 00:12:29,083 and what he's doing right now. 202 00:12:30,875 --> 00:12:33,667 - Do you guys know that he frickin' left? 203 00:12:33,708 --> 00:12:36,250 Just left. Said he was going to get a coat. 204 00:12:36,333 --> 00:12:38,917 - While his entire family is here. 205 00:12:40,042 --> 00:12:42,667 - I see pain for his siblings. 206 00:12:42,750 --> 00:12:45,042 I see pain for me. 207 00:12:45,042 --> 00:12:46,833 - I don't think he'll come back. 208 00:12:47,458 --> 00:12:50,125 - There's no hope. 209 00:12:52,208 --> 00:12:55,833 (bleep) we texted you and you just, "Oh yeah, coming, coming." 210 00:12:55,917 --> 00:12:58,875 What are you doing? - Smokin' some weed. 211 00:12:58,958 --> 00:13:02,250 - That doesn't look like weed. 212 00:13:12,042 --> 00:13:14,000 - Once you start, you can't stop. 213 00:13:15,000 --> 00:13:18,208 - He's just lost. There's no sparkle. 214 00:13:18,208 --> 00:13:21,917 Just sort of flat. I see death. I see pain. 215 00:13:22,000 --> 00:13:25,167 It's not good. There's no life. 216 00:13:25,875 --> 00:13:28,208 There's no happiness. 217 00:13:29,708 --> 00:13:33,375 There's nothing but pain. 218 00:13:34,708 --> 00:13:38,458 - It's either gonna kill me or I'm gonna (bleep) come out on top. 219 00:13:47,958 --> 00:13:51,208 - Probably over half the population here is doing drugs. 220 00:13:52,000 --> 00:13:55,333 Josh is living in my grandma's Jeep 221 00:13:55,417 --> 00:13:58,083 that she gave him when she passed away. 222 00:13:59,417 --> 00:14:01,083 - Well, he is homeless. 223 00:14:01,208 --> 00:14:07,208 He, however, has met this young woman that's a drug dealer. 224 00:14:10,375 --> 00:14:12,208 (laughing) 225 00:14:13,875 --> 00:14:15,167 - Hello, hey. 226 00:14:15,208 --> 00:14:17,292 So how much money do you have for me? 227 00:14:17,375 --> 00:14:18,875 How much money? 228 00:14:18,875 --> 00:14:20,250 2000? 229 00:14:25,333 --> 00:14:28,333 - So he's up all night then sleeps all day. 230 00:14:28,417 --> 00:14:32,250 Smokes crack continually. Does coke. 231 00:14:34,333 --> 00:14:36,375 - I'm not choosing it right no. 232 00:14:36,458 --> 00:14:39,333 People think it's a choice. It's a choice at the start. 233 00:14:39,375 --> 00:14:44,500 I agree on that. But once you get addicted, 234 00:14:44,625 --> 00:14:49,292 it's full fledged (bleep), your life depends on it, kinda. 235 00:15:03,250 --> 00:15:07,167 - Josh has no income, no legal income. 236 00:15:09,375 --> 00:15:11,708 - These places are ghetto, buddy. 237 00:15:11,792 --> 00:15:15,125 All the windows, smashed. 238 00:15:15,208 --> 00:15:17,958 You can tell which doors got kicked in by the cops. 239 00:15:18,042 --> 00:15:19,708 That one did. 240 00:15:19,792 --> 00:15:22,583 (knocking on door) 241 00:15:26,875 --> 00:15:29,125 (indistinct) 242 00:15:29,208 --> 00:15:30,375 Hey. 243 00:15:31,208 --> 00:15:32,875 - He helps deliver drugs for her. 244 00:15:33,000 --> 00:15:35,833 I get the feeling that he's a bit of her goon. 245 00:15:35,958 --> 00:15:37,667 - (bleep). 246 00:15:37,750 --> 00:15:39,333 - I like it, that's why I'm... 247 00:15:39,458 --> 00:15:40,833 pretty much, that's why I'm with her. 248 00:15:40,958 --> 00:15:44,458 Chaos, buddy. I'm addicted to chaos. 249 00:15:46,375 --> 00:15:49,667 - Runs around threatening people, picking up money, delivering drugs. 250 00:15:49,750 --> 00:15:52,542 It's insanity. 251 00:15:52,625 --> 00:15:56,292 - I was more worried about you than knocking the guy out. 252 00:15:56,375 --> 00:16:00,542 - If she needs somebody beat up or threatened or whatever, 253 00:16:00,667 --> 00:16:04,083 Josh will do that because then, in turn, she supplies him with crack. 254 00:16:05,083 --> 00:16:07,417 - Okay, go left. Go slow here. 255 00:16:07,500 --> 00:16:10,708 - Yo, this is (bleep). She just got (bleep) 5 grand. 256 00:16:10,875 --> 00:16:12,292 Which house? - I told you. 257 00:16:12,375 --> 00:16:13,792 - Which house? 258 00:16:14,333 --> 00:16:15,792 - Is that her though? 259 00:16:15,875 --> 00:16:18,042 (indistinct) I think it's that one 260 00:16:18,167 --> 00:16:19,958 with the lights on over there. 261 00:16:28,625 --> 00:16:30,125 - Hey, (bleep)! 262 00:16:31,542 --> 00:16:32,750 (indistinct chatter) 263 00:16:34,167 --> 00:16:35,500 When, just now? 264 00:16:39,875 --> 00:16:41,750 Don't (bleep) look at me like that, 265 00:16:41,875 --> 00:16:44,000 unless you wanna get smoked up. 266 00:16:44,083 --> 00:16:46,292 - I ain't runnin', you dumb bitch. 267 00:16:46,375 --> 00:16:48,083 There's cops all over the place. 268 00:16:48,167 --> 00:16:50,167 Smartin' up. (smack) 269 00:16:50,208 --> 00:16:53,208 Ehh, what (bleep) bitch! 270 00:16:53,292 --> 00:16:56,167 - Whoa! - Don't go accosting (bleep)! 271 00:16:56,208 --> 00:16:58,958 - So long, suckers. I just grabbed her. 272 00:16:59,042 --> 00:17:01,583 I won't hit 'em for you, but I'll get 'em of yuh. 273 00:17:01,667 --> 00:17:03,250 - You should've knocked 'em out, man. 274 00:17:03,333 --> 00:17:05,125 - He didn't (bleep) hit you, though. 275 00:17:05,208 --> 00:17:07,542 - I don't give a (bleep), man. I told you to. 276 00:17:08,417 --> 00:17:10,667 - If he did something to you, I'd do it. 277 00:17:10,708 --> 00:17:13,583 I grabber her... - You should've let me do it myself. 278 00:17:13,667 --> 00:17:15,958 - You were (bleep) on the ground, man. 279 00:17:16,042 --> 00:17:17,625 - So, I could've got back up and (bleep)... 280 00:17:17,708 --> 00:17:19,500 - Well, I'm gonna let her (bleep) hit you. 281 00:17:19,583 --> 00:17:21,750 - Nah man, well (bleep) you man. I could've did it myself. 282 00:17:22,375 --> 00:17:25,000 - Ehh! What the (bleep)! Ehh man! 283 00:17:25,083 --> 00:17:26,750 Hey everybody! - Oh yeah! 284 00:17:26,833 --> 00:17:28,667 - See? What the (bleep)! 285 00:17:28,750 --> 00:17:30,292 - He's an intelligent (bleep), 286 00:17:30,375 --> 00:17:32,708 but he's usin' that on the wrong side of the law. 287 00:17:32,833 --> 00:17:34,500 As simply as that. 288 00:17:34,583 --> 00:17:38,083 I hope he realizes like, that's not a (bleep) career. 289 00:17:38,167 --> 00:17:39,667 That's the end. 290 00:17:39,708 --> 00:17:42,167 - (bleep), hook you up. 291 00:17:43,625 --> 00:17:45,333 - Oh, here we go. 292 00:17:47,458 --> 00:17:49,125 - Get him, man. 293 00:17:49,208 --> 00:17:52,833 - Oh, he's gonna grab a weapon. - (bleep) up, man. 294 00:17:52,958 --> 00:17:54,667 Come here. 295 00:17:54,708 --> 00:17:57,208 (bleep). Runnin' away? 296 00:17:57,292 --> 00:17:58,583 You're the (bleep). 297 00:17:59,375 --> 00:18:02,458 - I don't think it's very... 298 00:18:02,458 --> 00:18:04,875 a very good thing to be doing. 299 00:18:05,042 --> 00:18:07,250 - He has a gun. - Is that him? 300 00:18:07,375 --> 00:18:09,042 - Yeah. It's him. - No, no, no, he's gonna... 301 00:18:09,167 --> 00:18:11,417 He's got a brick, dude. - Go, go, go, go, go, go. 302 00:18:11,500 --> 00:18:13,958 Back all the way the (bleep) up. Or run him over. 303 00:18:14,042 --> 00:18:17,000 Run him over! - Oh, he missed. 304 00:18:17,083 --> 00:18:18,917 He missed. - Let's get him. 305 00:18:19,042 --> 00:18:20,917 - He missed. - Enough of this (bleep), guys, we're done. 306 00:18:21,042 --> 00:18:22,917 - Ah, it wasn't a gun, buddy. - Yo, man. 307 00:18:23,000 --> 00:18:24,417 Cops just drove by. 308 00:18:24,542 --> 00:18:27,208 - He considers himself to be a macho man. 309 00:18:27,292 --> 00:18:29,708 But he doesn't know a thing about street fighting. 310 00:18:29,792 --> 00:18:34,375 He will be dealt with rather severely by the users 311 00:18:34,458 --> 00:18:38,667 and the gangs in this town and he'll lose. 312 00:18:38,708 --> 00:18:40,625 I don't think he'll make the year. 313 00:18:47,042 --> 00:18:49,667 (soft music) 314 00:18:49,750 --> 00:18:51,917 (line ringing) 315 00:18:52,042 --> 00:18:55,417 - Hey, Josh, it would be decent if you'd actually call back. 316 00:18:55,500 --> 00:18:58,333 It's been like four hours since you said you'd come over here. 317 00:18:58,417 --> 00:19:00,333 - Yeah, it sounds like he's not comin'. 318 00:19:00,375 --> 00:19:02,458 - Oh, he can never show up when he's supposed to. 319 00:19:02,542 --> 00:19:05,375 I don't know half the stories anymore. 320 00:19:05,500 --> 00:19:09,417 - We're having a family barbecue which, it'll be interesting. 321 00:19:09,542 --> 00:19:12,000 - The neighbors called the cops on him like (bleep)... 322 00:19:12,083 --> 00:19:13,458 - Oh, did they? - Oh yeah. 323 00:19:13,542 --> 00:19:15,792 They seen him walking around when he was all beat up. 324 00:19:15,875 --> 00:19:19,833 - Uh-huh. 'Cause if he gets beat up again like he did, he's gonna end up dead. 325 00:19:21,208 --> 00:19:23,333 He needs to get out of there then. 326 00:19:23,417 --> 00:19:25,708 - What are you gonna do? You're all talk. 327 00:19:29,375 --> 00:19:31,500 - So what's our plan with him? 328 00:19:31,583 --> 00:19:34,167 Just to try to get him to chill out? 329 00:19:34,250 --> 00:19:35,833 - It's probably best to get him out of that house. 330 00:19:44,792 --> 00:19:46,083 - Josh is three hours late. 331 00:19:46,083 --> 00:19:48,833 - Josh is three hours late, yeah. 332 00:19:48,958 --> 00:19:52,750 - Yeah, well, he'll be late to his own funeral that guy, so. 333 00:19:52,833 --> 00:19:55,667 Stuff's gonna go sideways for all this (bleep) crap. 334 00:19:55,708 --> 00:19:58,333 I mean, people are gonna start dying, and then what? 335 00:20:01,208 --> 00:20:02,500 - He would've just went to bed. 336 00:20:02,583 --> 00:20:04,667 He usually sleeps for (bleep) 12 hours. 337 00:20:04,750 --> 00:20:07,333 - Chelsea! - Don't worry about it. 338 00:20:08,542 --> 00:20:10,542 - What's up? - What's goin' on, man? 339 00:20:10,542 --> 00:20:13,208 - Well, come on. - I'm (bleep) tryin' to sleep. 340 00:20:13,292 --> 00:20:15,333 You guys, man! - We've been waiting for you. 341 00:20:15,417 --> 00:20:18,500 - Relax eh. Calm down. What time'd you go to bed at? 342 00:20:18,542 --> 00:20:22,125 - What time is it? - Uh, it's 4 o'clock. 343 00:20:22,208 --> 00:20:24,208 - You guys can't come here like this, man. 344 00:20:24,333 --> 00:20:26,375 - I'd like to hang out with you. 345 00:20:26,458 --> 00:20:28,292 - Yeah, well, you can't force him. 346 00:20:28,375 --> 00:20:31,583 - I feel tryin' to haul him out of that drug house 347 00:20:31,667 --> 00:20:34,583 is like throwing him a buoy. 348 00:20:34,708 --> 00:20:37,750 Grab onto it and I will save you. 349 00:20:39,375 --> 00:20:41,500 - Let's go home. (bleep). - Yeah. 350 00:20:41,583 --> 00:20:44,375 Hopefully he comes... soon. 351 00:20:44,458 --> 00:20:47,792 (seatbelt alert beeping) 352 00:20:56,292 --> 00:20:59,250 - There they are. - Is that just Sean? 353 00:20:59,375 --> 00:21:01,167 Or is it both? - Josh is in the back. 354 00:21:01,250 --> 00:21:02,458 (sighing) 355 00:21:02,542 --> 00:21:05,083 - Sean just has the face of disappointment. 356 00:21:05,167 --> 00:21:06,667 - What's he doing? 357 00:21:07,667 --> 00:21:09,292 - Hey. - He's trying to get a rise 358 00:21:09,375 --> 00:21:11,167 out of you now. 359 00:21:11,250 --> 00:21:13,500 - Pull up your pants there, boy. 360 00:21:13,583 --> 00:21:15,833 - Yeah, they're up. - Not really. 361 00:21:15,958 --> 00:21:18,917 (indistinct chatter) 362 00:21:24,583 --> 00:21:26,542 - What? - He just called me a slut. 363 00:21:35,833 --> 00:21:37,917 (indistinct chatter) 364 00:21:39,042 --> 00:21:41,292 - He just showed up here and he was all drunk 365 00:21:41,375 --> 00:21:45,500 and high and... irate, like distraught. 366 00:21:45,583 --> 00:21:47,708 Just goin' (bleep) bonkers. 367 00:21:47,833 --> 00:21:49,292 - Grasshopper. 368 00:21:50,583 --> 00:21:52,708 (indistinct chatter) 369 00:21:52,792 --> 00:21:55,167 - I'm gettin' sober. Trying to find my dad. 370 00:21:55,250 --> 00:21:57,042 My dad, my dad. 371 00:21:57,167 --> 00:21:59,042 (indistinct) Give me a hug? 372 00:21:59,125 --> 00:22:00,583 - Yeah? You want one? 373 00:22:00,667 --> 00:22:03,000 - I wonder if we should get him to go to bed. 374 00:22:03,042 --> 00:22:05,792 - It was hard to watch. Like he was crying. Comin' up, huggin' me. 375 00:22:05,792 --> 00:22:07,833 (grunting) 376 00:22:08,917 --> 00:22:11,042 (muttering) 377 00:22:11,125 --> 00:22:13,083 (exclaiming) 378 00:22:13,167 --> 00:22:17,333 Trying to explain and like, not normal crying either. 379 00:22:17,375 --> 00:22:19,625 (sobbing) (indistinct chatter) 380 00:22:19,708 --> 00:22:22,292 - It's never too late. You know when it's too late? 381 00:22:22,375 --> 00:22:24,042 - When you're dead. - When you're dead. 382 00:22:24,167 --> 00:22:25,333 - Right. - And you know what? 383 00:22:25,375 --> 00:22:27,125 - (bleep). - You know what? 384 00:22:27,208 --> 00:22:28,500 - Yeah? - You keep doin' 385 00:22:28,542 --> 00:22:30,250 what you're doin', you're gonna be dead. 386 00:22:30,333 --> 00:22:33,583 - Well, help me then, because I can't do it. 387 00:22:33,708 --> 00:22:35,625 - We're tryin'. We're here. 388 00:22:35,708 --> 00:22:40,167 - Just... Let's go. I wanna go find him. 389 00:22:40,208 --> 00:22:42,333 Boom. - That's your... 390 00:22:42,417 --> 00:22:44,833 That's your... That's your responsibility. 391 00:22:44,917 --> 00:22:47,375 - I've tried. I've tried. - That's my responsibility. 392 00:22:47,458 --> 00:22:48,792 Now when I'm (bleep)... 393 00:22:49,750 --> 00:22:52,125 - Josh has a lot of resentmet towards Mom. 394 00:22:52,208 --> 00:22:54,833 Pretty much the only thing that he blames her for 395 00:22:54,875 --> 00:22:58,292 would be not being able to see his dad. 396 00:22:58,375 --> 00:23:00,667 And anything that she has tried to tell him, 397 00:23:00,708 --> 00:23:02,375 he's just called her a liar. 398 00:23:02,500 --> 00:23:04,500 - I've never got the reason why. 399 00:23:04,542 --> 00:23:06,958 I'm pretty sure I know why, what happened. 400 00:23:07,042 --> 00:23:09,958 Do you know what I mean? But I've never gotten it out of her. 401 00:23:10,042 --> 00:23:12,208 She won't say it. - I can fill you in on it. 402 00:23:12,292 --> 00:23:13,625 But not when you're in this condition. 403 00:23:13,708 --> 00:23:15,042 You wouldn't remember it. 404 00:23:15,042 --> 00:23:16,417 But I can fill you in when you're sober. 405 00:23:16,542 --> 00:23:18,375 - Yeah. - I'll do that. 406 00:23:18,458 --> 00:23:21,000 - But all I want is my dad. 407 00:23:21,083 --> 00:23:22,792 That's it. 408 00:23:22,875 --> 00:23:24,167 Boom. Done. 409 00:23:24,250 --> 00:23:25,792 - You've tried to contact him 410 00:23:25,875 --> 00:23:27,792 and he won't have nothin' to do with you. 411 00:23:31,000 --> 00:23:33,500 (grunting) 412 00:23:33,625 --> 00:23:35,583 - It was hard to stay uh... 413 00:23:35,708 --> 00:23:37,667 It was hard to stay cool. 414 00:23:37,750 --> 00:23:40,000 - You wanna know something? - What? Here. 415 00:23:40,125 --> 00:23:41,500 Can I give you a hug? 416 00:23:42,875 --> 00:23:44,958 (sobbing) 417 00:23:48,167 --> 00:23:49,958 What are you doing? 418 00:23:50,042 --> 00:23:51,375 (sobbing) 419 00:23:51,500 --> 00:23:54,000 Well, you're... Do you know what you need to do? 420 00:23:54,083 --> 00:23:56,417 - What? - Get sober. 421 00:23:56,500 --> 00:23:59,000 Do you like living like this? - No. 422 00:23:59,083 --> 00:24:01,083 I just want my kids. 423 00:24:05,917 --> 00:24:08,333 I just want my kids. 424 00:24:08,458 --> 00:24:12,208 You know that? - I want my kid back. 425 00:24:13,708 --> 00:24:15,583 Your kids are always your kids. 426 00:24:15,667 --> 00:24:18,167 It doesn't matter how old they are. 427 00:24:18,208 --> 00:24:19,542 They're still your babies. 428 00:24:19,667 --> 00:24:21,958 - Oh... It's like... 429 00:24:22,042 --> 00:24:26,000 My world... upside (bleep) down, man. 430 00:24:32,750 --> 00:24:35,042 - You climb out of the depths of hell. 431 00:24:35,125 --> 00:24:37,458 One inch at a (bleep) time. 432 00:24:38,458 --> 00:24:40,625 - It's a (bleep) show. 433 00:24:54,708 --> 00:24:57,458 - Oh (bleep) yeah. Check this out, buddy. 434 00:24:57,542 --> 00:24:59,125 20 bucks. 435 00:25:00,250 --> 00:25:01,833 Not bad, eh? 436 00:25:02,833 --> 00:25:05,042 You know that's, that's lots of drugs right there. 437 00:25:06,833 --> 00:25:09,167 I'm gonna cash it out at 460. 438 00:25:10,542 --> 00:25:15,417 - 40, 60, 80, 1... 3... 439 00:25:15,500 --> 00:25:18,375 - Look at that. Lots, lots of drugs. 440 00:25:18,458 --> 00:25:20,750 I've done it many times. 441 00:25:20,833 --> 00:25:24,667 $20, 900, 400, 900. Like lots. 442 00:25:24,750 --> 00:25:29,208 - I don't know what those types of drugs 443 00:25:29,292 --> 00:25:30,542 do to your brain. 444 00:25:30,625 --> 00:25:33,833 I know it chemically imbalances it 445 00:25:33,917 --> 00:25:35,917 and you're not even remotely 446 00:25:36,000 --> 00:25:37,542 the same person that you used to be. 447 00:25:37,625 --> 00:25:41,000 So I don't know if he knows how hurtful 448 00:25:41,083 --> 00:25:42,500 his actions are. 449 00:25:42,583 --> 00:25:44,833 - I have a lot of anger, (bleep) built up, man. 450 00:25:44,875 --> 00:25:47,167 And I like to take it out once in a while, 451 00:25:47,250 --> 00:25:49,708 when someone wants to do that, (bleep) let it rip, buddy. 452 00:25:49,792 --> 00:25:54,833 - The hardest part is watchig my family go through 453 00:25:54,917 --> 00:25:59,625 him almost die from drugs, being homeless from drugs, 454 00:25:59,708 --> 00:26:02,542 and not being able to really help him. 455 00:26:06,625 --> 00:26:08,667 - Well, good morning. 456 00:26:08,708 --> 00:26:10,833 My name is Maureen Brine. 457 00:26:10,875 --> 00:26:15,042 And I am an interventionist and an addictions counselor and a psychotherapist. 458 00:26:15,167 --> 00:26:18,167 So I'm really pleased to be here today with you. 459 00:26:18,292 --> 00:26:20,250 You know, it takes great courage to be here. 460 00:26:20,375 --> 00:26:22,125 And I want you to know you're doing the right thing. 461 00:26:22,208 --> 00:26:25,167 I believe that interventions are a gift of love. 462 00:26:25,208 --> 00:26:27,375 It's a harsh thing to do. 463 00:26:27,500 --> 00:26:31,708 But his addiction is strong and it needs a strong response. 464 00:26:31,833 --> 00:26:36,000 As you know, Josh's addiction has impacted all of you. 465 00:26:36,042 --> 00:26:40,000 So I'd like to hear why you're here and what your concerns are. 466 00:26:40,083 --> 00:26:45,667 - I have emotionally struggled 467 00:26:45,708 --> 00:26:49,833 with trying to deal with Josh for years. 468 00:26:49,875 --> 00:26:53,000 Watching him destroy his life. - Mm-hmm. 469 00:26:53,875 --> 00:26:55,500 It's like a form of suicide, really. 470 00:26:55,625 --> 00:26:58,917 - Yep. Slow, very slow... suicide. 471 00:26:59,000 --> 00:27:01,167 - Very hard for a mother to watch. 472 00:27:01,333 --> 00:27:02,708 - Yep. - So you blame yourself 473 00:27:02,792 --> 00:27:04,000 for his addiction? 474 00:27:06,583 --> 00:27:08,042 - He does. 475 00:27:08,208 --> 00:27:09,208 - He blames you. 476 00:27:09,292 --> 00:27:10,583 Mm-hmm. 477 00:27:10,708 --> 00:27:12,167 It's not your fault. 478 00:27:12,250 --> 00:27:13,833 And you know what? 479 00:27:14,000 --> 00:27:17,292 Every person with an addiction needs someone to blame. 480 00:27:17,375 --> 00:27:20,042 - I kinda shut down on him. 481 00:27:20,125 --> 00:27:22,375 - You've shut down on him? - Yeah. 482 00:27:22,458 --> 00:27:24,083 Just so I can support my life. 483 00:27:24,167 --> 00:27:28,625 Because if I didn't, if I showed too much emotion, 484 00:27:28,708 --> 00:27:31,792 she would not be sitting in that chair right now. 485 00:27:31,875 --> 00:27:34,167 It's not that I don't care... 486 00:27:34,208 --> 00:27:37,583 - You're holding your emotions in to protect Susan. 487 00:27:37,667 --> 00:27:39,542 - Mm-hmm. - 'Cause if you let them out, 488 00:27:39,625 --> 00:27:40,917 what would you be saying to him? 489 00:27:41,000 --> 00:27:43,000 - Probably not a lot of good stuff. 490 00:27:43,125 --> 00:27:45,000 I'm not givin' up. I want to see him get better. 491 00:27:45,083 --> 00:27:48,125 I want to see him succeed. - Like we're all very caring 492 00:27:48,208 --> 00:27:53,042 and he just abuses it. It's been very hard to watch him 493 00:27:53,167 --> 00:27:55,167 do all that stuff to himself, but I think it's been harder 494 00:27:55,208 --> 00:27:58,208 to watch what he's been doing to the whole family. 495 00:27:58,333 --> 00:28:00,417 - What's the age difference between the two of you? 496 00:28:00,500 --> 00:28:02,000 - 9 years. - 9 years. 497 00:28:02,042 --> 00:28:03,875 - 9 years. - You feel like his older brother. 498 00:28:03,958 --> 00:28:06,125 - 100%. I wish it really wasn't like that. 499 00:28:06,125 --> 00:28:08,208 I wish it was the other way around. 500 00:28:08,292 --> 00:28:10,000 - Yeah. - Maybe one day. 501 00:28:10,000 --> 00:28:13,333 - And I'm Josh's only sister. 502 00:28:13,375 --> 00:28:17,833 I'm here because I just want to see him get on the right path 503 00:28:17,917 --> 00:28:21,250 and maybe have a good relationship with his children again. 504 00:28:21,375 --> 00:28:24,292 - You want him to come back into the family fold, including his kids. 505 00:28:24,375 --> 00:28:28,208 - Very much. - They had two small children 506 00:28:28,292 --> 00:28:34,458 and I seen him just slowly, you know, get worse and worse and worse. 507 00:28:34,542 --> 00:28:38,833 Numerous times having to try to go into his place 508 00:28:38,958 --> 00:28:40,875 and wondering if there's going to be a body 509 00:28:40,958 --> 00:28:44,000 or him that we found and... - Yeah. 510 00:28:44,083 --> 00:28:50,125 - He just, he just spiraled down and down and down, and so, uh... 511 00:28:50,208 --> 00:28:53,167 I hope tomorrow he goes to this place 512 00:28:53,208 --> 00:28:57,542 because he's... he won't live the year if he doesn't, so. 513 00:28:57,625 --> 00:29:01,667 - That's pretty painful when you can't help your grandchild, right? 514 00:29:01,708 --> 00:29:03,500 - Yeah. 515 00:29:05,542 --> 00:29:06,875 It's okay. 516 00:29:09,042 --> 00:29:10,667 Yeah, let it out. It's alright. 517 00:29:10,750 --> 00:29:12,292 - Give grandpa a Kleenex. 518 00:29:12,375 --> 00:29:13,625 - Here you go, grandpa. 519 00:29:13,708 --> 00:29:15,250 - Need a minute here. 520 00:29:19,292 --> 00:29:21,333 - It's okay. Yeah. 521 00:29:21,375 --> 00:29:23,000 Thank you for sharing. 522 00:29:23,125 --> 00:29:27,292 - I really don't know how much more our family can go through. 523 00:29:27,292 --> 00:29:29,667 It's been really hard. 524 00:29:29,750 --> 00:29:31,625 (crying) 525 00:29:31,708 --> 00:29:33,833 - You know, my hunch is that once you do 526 00:29:33,917 --> 00:29:35,625 this intervention tomorrow, 527 00:29:35,708 --> 00:29:38,250 you will have done everything 528 00:29:38,375 --> 00:29:41,000 that you know how to do in order to help. 529 00:29:41,083 --> 00:29:42,750 And really, the rest is up to him. 530 00:29:42,875 --> 00:29:46,000 Josh is on the Titanic. 531 00:29:46,042 --> 00:29:48,917 And you gotta make the decision to get on the lifeboat. 532 00:30:00,583 --> 00:30:03,042 - Morning, team Josh. 533 00:30:03,125 --> 00:30:04,667 How are you all doing this morning? 534 00:30:04,708 --> 00:30:07,167 - Good. - It's the day. 535 00:30:07,292 --> 00:30:09,500 - Today is the day that you've been waiting for. 536 00:30:10,708 --> 00:30:14,208 This part right here while we're waiting for him is probably the worst. 537 00:30:14,292 --> 00:30:16,667 - Feeling anxious. - Yeah. 538 00:30:16,792 --> 00:30:17,917 We've got what it takes. 539 00:30:18,000 --> 00:30:19,958 The rest is going to be up to him. 540 00:30:22,375 --> 00:30:24,833 - All right, let's do it. Let's get over there. 541 00:30:26,958 --> 00:30:29,542 No traffic jams around here. 542 00:30:29,625 --> 00:30:31,375 - We're about 5 minutes out. 543 00:30:33,500 --> 00:30:36,458 - Here we go. Here we go. 544 00:30:37,875 --> 00:30:39,833 - My heart. - It's okay. Breathe. 545 00:30:39,875 --> 00:30:42,250 Keep breathing. Okay. 546 00:30:44,000 --> 00:30:46,083 (indistinct chatter) 547 00:30:51,542 --> 00:30:53,208 Hey, Josh, hi. - Hello. 548 00:30:55,750 --> 00:30:57,167 - Come on in. You haven't met me. 549 00:30:57,208 --> 00:30:59,042 - Nope. - My name is Maureen. 550 00:30:59,125 --> 00:31:01,000 - Hello. How's it goin'? - So, come on in. 551 00:31:01,083 --> 00:31:02,583 You're amongst people who love you. 552 00:31:02,708 --> 00:31:04,750 - Morning. - Come have a seat, buddy. 553 00:31:04,833 --> 00:31:06,333 - You guys... Where's the food? 554 00:31:06,375 --> 00:31:07,875 (chuckling) - We'll give you some food. 555 00:31:07,875 --> 00:31:09,500 - Got lied to right there. 556 00:31:09,542 --> 00:31:11,667 - Yeah, interventions are usually a surprise, right? 557 00:31:11,750 --> 00:31:14,292 - Yeah. - This is a gift of love 558 00:31:14,375 --> 00:31:18,083 and caring concern from your family to you. 559 00:31:18,208 --> 00:31:20,000 They're all pretty worn down with your addiction. 560 00:31:20,083 --> 00:31:22,292 - Yeah. - Each person here 561 00:31:22,375 --> 00:31:24,667 has written you a letter of love. 562 00:31:24,708 --> 00:31:26,250 I'm going to call upon your brother. 563 00:31:26,333 --> 00:31:29,000 - Yeah. - To my great older brother Josh. 564 00:31:29,083 --> 00:31:32,042 You're an awesome person to be around when sober. 565 00:31:33,083 --> 00:31:36,708 And every moment we have spent together I cherish deeply. 566 00:31:36,833 --> 00:31:39,333 I want to stop worrying that the ambulance 567 00:31:39,375 --> 00:31:43,042 I see ripping by me with lights and sirens is for you. 568 00:31:44,542 --> 00:31:47,458 I want you to live the life that you deserve. 569 00:31:47,542 --> 00:31:49,667 It's time to get help. 570 00:31:49,750 --> 00:31:53,792 Your little baby boy and baby girl 571 00:31:53,875 --> 00:31:56,708 will thank you very much for that decision. 572 00:31:56,792 --> 00:31:58,875 I love you, buddy. 573 00:31:59,500 --> 00:32:02,417 - So Josh, each letter has a bottom line attached to it. 574 00:32:02,500 --> 00:32:05,083 I am going to offer you help today. 575 00:32:05,208 --> 00:32:08,167 - Yeah. - Should you not say yes to me, 576 00:32:08,292 --> 00:32:11,333 then these bottom lines will come into effect immediately. 577 00:32:11,375 --> 00:32:13,417 Okay? - The fact that you have 578 00:32:13,542 --> 00:32:16,250 a choice to get better and some of us don't, it kills me. 579 00:32:16,333 --> 00:32:20,208 If you choose against getting help, you're... 580 00:32:20,292 --> 00:32:22,583 you are no longer my brother. - Yeah. 581 00:32:24,375 --> 00:32:26,792 - I will have zero contact with you 582 00:32:26,875 --> 00:32:28,708 for the remainder of my life. 583 00:32:29,833 --> 00:32:33,250 I will make sure your son and daughter are well taken care of 584 00:32:33,375 --> 00:32:35,458 to the best of my ability. 585 00:32:36,625 --> 00:32:38,208 - So I'm going to call on Don. 586 00:32:40,208 --> 00:32:43,833 - Dear Joshua, I love you. We all love you. 587 00:32:43,875 --> 00:32:46,750 You have so much talent. 588 00:32:46,833 --> 00:32:49,042 You could be anything you want to be, 589 00:32:49,125 --> 00:32:50,625 when you put your mind to it. 590 00:32:53,042 --> 00:32:54,833 But you need serious help. 591 00:32:55,542 --> 00:33:00,208 It is killing you and tearing up the rest of us watching it. 592 00:33:00,208 --> 00:33:04,167 If you decide not to take the help offered, 593 00:33:04,208 --> 00:33:08,500 this will be the last time I see you or talk to you. 594 00:33:09,458 --> 00:33:10,750 - Thank you. 595 00:33:12,542 --> 00:33:15,500 Okay, I'm gonna call on your little sister, Carly. 596 00:33:16,292 --> 00:33:19,083 - Dear my big brother Josh, 597 00:33:19,208 --> 00:33:21,750 I love you with every ounce of my being. 598 00:33:21,833 --> 00:33:26,375 I'm beyond worried about the path you've chosen to go down. 599 00:33:26,458 --> 00:33:29,708 You have the choice to have a long, healthy life 600 00:33:29,833 --> 00:33:33,333 and it hurts me deeply for you to continue to use drugs. 601 00:33:33,417 --> 00:33:36,708 If you choose not to accept the help we have offered, 602 00:33:36,833 --> 00:33:38,667 I will cut all contact with you 603 00:33:38,792 --> 00:33:42,000 because of the pain your addiction has caused this family. 604 00:33:42,083 --> 00:33:44,042 (sighing) - Thank you. Thank you. 605 00:33:44,167 --> 00:33:46,625 So I'm gonna call on your grandfather. 606 00:33:46,708 --> 00:33:50,000 - To my grandson Josh, 607 00:33:50,083 --> 00:33:53,708 your severe addiction have put you into a position 608 00:33:53,792 --> 00:33:57,625 where if left untreated will result in your death very, very soon. 609 00:33:57,708 --> 00:34:01,583 I lost a son... early. 610 00:34:01,667 --> 00:34:04,708 I don't want to lose a grandson. (crying) 611 00:34:08,167 --> 00:34:11,083 Should you choose not to accept this life-saving offer 612 00:34:11,167 --> 00:34:14,208 of assistance, I solemnly swear 613 00:34:14,292 --> 00:34:16,083 that these consequences will apply. 614 00:34:16,167 --> 00:34:19,042 I will in my mind declare you already deceased 615 00:34:19,167 --> 00:34:20,542 as far as I'm concerned. 616 00:34:20,625 --> 00:34:23,625 I will discontinue putting in good words for you 617 00:34:23,708 --> 00:34:27,958 to your children. Which I do at every opportunity. 618 00:34:28,042 --> 00:34:29,917 That's all. - Yeah. 619 00:34:30,000 --> 00:34:34,833 - Yeah, it's gotta be a hopeless helpless feeling for you. 620 00:34:34,917 --> 00:34:38,208 You're doing great, Josh. I'm gonna call on your mom now. 621 00:34:40,375 --> 00:34:45,333 - My boy Josh, I know you know how much I love you. 622 00:34:45,458 --> 00:34:48,000 I've said it many many times. 623 00:34:48,042 --> 00:34:51,083 You are a very special piece of me. 624 00:34:51,167 --> 00:34:54,333 I would do absolutely anything for you. 625 00:34:55,208 --> 00:34:57,875 I have tried to tell you numerous times before 626 00:34:58,000 --> 00:35:02,333 that your biological father is and was not a nice man. 627 00:35:02,417 --> 00:35:07,125 I was young. He took full and complete advantage of that fact. 628 00:35:07,208 --> 00:35:09,250 I was abused. 629 00:35:10,750 --> 00:35:12,167 There was a point during-- 630 00:35:12,208 --> 00:35:13,833 - It's not about my dad right here, okay. 631 00:35:13,917 --> 00:35:15,667 So don't even talk about him please. 632 00:35:15,750 --> 00:35:17,875 - Okay. We'll just skip over that part. 633 00:35:17,875 --> 00:35:22,208 - I want and need you to accept the help being offered to you today. 634 00:35:22,292 --> 00:35:25,167 This is your final lifeline. 635 00:35:25,250 --> 00:35:28,000 If you choose not to accept the help offered to you, 636 00:35:28,167 --> 00:35:31,250 I will permanently turn my back on you. 637 00:35:31,333 --> 00:35:33,625 I do not want to hear from you again. 638 00:35:33,708 --> 00:35:36,000 You will no longer have a vehicle. 639 00:35:36,042 --> 00:35:37,917 The contents of your storage locker 640 00:35:38,000 --> 00:35:42,042 that your grandfather and I continue to pay for will be sold. 641 00:35:42,125 --> 00:35:44,167 - (bleep) you, man. I'll (bleep)... 642 00:35:44,208 --> 00:35:46,625 - Stay. Sit down. Sit down. Josh. 643 00:35:46,708 --> 00:35:49,250 - We're not done yet. - Tryin' to (bleep). No, man. 644 00:35:49,333 --> 00:35:51,500 Don't (bleep) push me into... - We're not pushin'. 645 00:35:51,583 --> 00:35:54,667 You're (bleep) trying to... hold me in this (bleep) room, man. 646 00:35:54,750 --> 00:35:56,500 - Come on, Josh. How about a cigarette? 647 00:35:56,583 --> 00:35:58,208 - Takin' a break. I need a (bleep) smoke. 648 00:35:58,333 --> 00:35:59,583 Tryin' to (bleep) sell my (bleep). 649 00:35:59,667 --> 00:36:01,500 That's my (bleep). - Come on. 650 00:36:01,583 --> 00:36:03,292 - Josh, just come and listen. 651 00:36:03,375 --> 00:36:05,375 - Sell your stuff... that's (bleep). 652 00:36:09,250 --> 00:36:10,875 That's (bleep), man. 653 00:36:10,875 --> 00:36:13,375 - Do you have any smokes? - You don't own any of it. 654 00:36:13,458 --> 00:36:15,208 - So (bleep) what? Grandma gave me that (bleep) vehicle. 655 00:36:15,292 --> 00:36:17,833 - No, she didn't. - I'd go just if they say they needed help, 656 00:36:17,875 --> 00:36:20,583 not trying to (bleep) take everything away from me. 657 00:36:20,667 --> 00:36:23,042 (bleep). Just go ahead. Take it all away. 658 00:36:23,125 --> 00:36:25,000 - Well, he'll just say that to get out. 659 00:36:25,042 --> 00:36:26,667 I expected this. 660 00:36:26,708 --> 00:36:29,042 - As I said, it's only gonna happen if you say no. 661 00:36:29,125 --> 00:36:31,917 - It's gonna happen. - Yeah. It is. 662 00:36:32,000 --> 00:36:33,250 - It's the end of the line. 663 00:36:33,333 --> 00:36:34,750 - You can't sell my (bleep). 664 00:36:34,833 --> 00:36:36,083 - That's only if you say no. 665 00:36:36,083 --> 00:36:37,583 - Listen, you know what they will do? 666 00:36:37,667 --> 00:36:39,958 Is not pay for the locker. All right? 667 00:36:40,042 --> 00:36:41,500 - Yeah. 668 00:36:41,625 --> 00:36:42,875 - Thank you. 669 00:36:44,208 --> 00:36:45,583 - What's up, bud? 670 00:36:48,833 --> 00:36:51,000 (sighing) - Okay. 671 00:36:51,125 --> 00:36:52,667 (coughs) 672 00:36:52,708 --> 00:36:55,917 So I did say to Josh that you wouldn't sell 673 00:36:56,000 --> 00:36:58,208 the contents of the locker, but you would no longer 674 00:36:58,292 --> 00:36:59,833 pay for the locker. - Okay. 675 00:36:59,875 --> 00:37:01,958 - Okay, so do you have more bottom lines, Susan? 676 00:37:03,208 --> 00:37:05,500 - I will permanently turn my back on you. 677 00:37:05,583 --> 00:37:07,792 I do not want to hear from you again. 678 00:37:07,875 --> 00:37:12,000 No texts. No phone calls, absolutely zero. 679 00:37:12,083 --> 00:37:15,375 That will then allow me to be present 680 00:37:15,458 --> 00:37:18,500 as our family tries to rebuild themselves. 681 00:37:19,625 --> 00:37:21,792 - And again, these bottom lines 682 00:37:21,792 --> 00:37:24,333 only come into play if you say no. 683 00:37:24,375 --> 00:37:26,458 - Yeah. - Okay? 684 00:37:26,542 --> 00:37:29,333 - I was thinkin' about my kids, and just... 685 00:37:29,417 --> 00:37:31,708 - Well, they deserve a healthy dad, right? 686 00:37:31,708 --> 00:37:33,958 Because right now, you're missing in action with your kids. 687 00:37:34,042 --> 00:37:36,667 And this may give you an opportunity to get them back. 688 00:37:36,708 --> 00:37:39,542 Well, they deserve a healthy dad, right? 689 00:37:39,667 --> 00:37:42,917 It's my job to ask you. Are you willing to accept help today? 690 00:37:45,792 --> 00:37:48,250 (dramatic music) 691 00:37:50,208 --> 00:37:52,375 - It's gonna be a fantastic offer. 692 00:37:52,500 --> 00:37:54,208 You have to consider it. 693 00:37:54,208 --> 00:37:55,625 - You say, "Yes, I'm gonna do it." 694 00:37:55,708 --> 00:37:58,000 - Yes, I'm gonna go. - Yes, I'm gonna go. 695 00:37:58,083 --> 00:37:59,583 - 100%. - Yay! 696 00:37:59,708 --> 00:38:01,375 - All right. It's time, right? 697 00:38:01,458 --> 00:38:03,167 - It's time. 698 00:38:03,208 --> 00:38:06,000 We're going to fly you out today. 699 00:38:06,083 --> 00:38:08,042 You're going to a treatment center called Greenstone. 700 00:38:08,125 --> 00:38:11,458 Knowing you the way we do, it's in a great environment 701 00:38:11,542 --> 00:38:14,375 with a great treatment team. They have equine therapy there. 702 00:38:14,458 --> 00:38:17,167 - Cool. - Horse therapy. 703 00:38:17,250 --> 00:38:19,500 We knew you'd like that. You're gonna do it. 704 00:38:19,542 --> 00:38:21,333 - Yeah. - All right, 705 00:38:21,417 --> 00:38:22,542 it's a good decision that you're making today. 706 00:38:23,083 --> 00:38:24,833 - Mum! 707 00:38:27,125 --> 00:38:29,292 - Give me a hug, bud. 708 00:38:29,292 --> 00:38:31,500 - Stay safe. You've got this. 709 00:38:31,542 --> 00:38:34,083 (dog whining) - Best of luck, bud. 710 00:38:34,167 --> 00:38:37,083 (dog whining) 711 00:38:37,167 --> 00:38:39,292 - Bye! We love you. 712 00:38:40,417 --> 00:38:42,000 - Get better soon. 713 00:38:42,083 --> 00:38:44,750 - That was very emotional. 714 00:38:44,875 --> 00:38:46,875 You made the best decision for yourself today. 715 00:38:46,958 --> 00:38:49,458 - Yeah. I want my kids. 716 00:38:57,375 --> 00:39:00,458 (soft music) 717 00:39:09,583 --> 00:39:12,167 - Hi, I'm Maureen Brine. - I'm Judith. 718 00:39:12,250 --> 00:39:13,625 - Hi, Judith. Nice to meet you. 719 00:39:13,708 --> 00:39:15,500 - It's so nice to meet you. - I'm the interventionist. 720 00:39:15,583 --> 00:39:17,417 And this is Josh. - Hi, Josh. Welcome. 721 00:39:17,500 --> 00:39:20,625 For the first time since he was a teenager, 722 00:39:20,708 --> 00:39:22,750 Josh is going to be feeling feelings 723 00:39:22,875 --> 00:39:24,833 that he's been covering up with drugs and alcohol. 724 00:39:24,833 --> 00:39:27,917 - So you look tired. Was it a long travel? 725 00:39:28,000 --> 00:39:30,958 - No, it's just the lack of drugs in my system 726 00:39:31,042 --> 00:39:32,875 is wearing me out. 727 00:39:32,958 --> 00:39:36,833 - He's medicating an underlying pain and anger. 728 00:39:36,917 --> 00:39:40,708 He's going to be invited to talk about those feelings 729 00:39:40,833 --> 00:39:45,542 and to learn how to live them and feel them 730 00:39:45,625 --> 00:39:49,042 in ways that are healthy and productive 731 00:39:49,125 --> 00:39:51,667 and that he can grow from. 732 00:40:00,708 --> 00:40:03,708 - When I went to Greenstone, I was completely drained 733 00:40:03,792 --> 00:40:07,542 from the life that I was puttig myself through. 734 00:40:07,625 --> 00:40:09,833 Talons were in pretty deep. 735 00:40:09,958 --> 00:40:12,083 Some people's rock bottom is death. 736 00:40:13,000 --> 00:40:15,083 I wasn't able to do it on my own. 737 00:40:15,167 --> 00:40:16,583 I needed help. 738 00:40:17,708 --> 00:40:20,625 - So Josh was in Greenstone for 60 days, 739 00:40:20,708 --> 00:40:23,208 and after an evaluation and discussion with teams, 740 00:40:23,333 --> 00:40:27,542 we did think that 1000 Islands' amenities and treatment modalities 741 00:40:27,667 --> 00:40:30,458 were better to meet Josh's needs at that time. 742 00:40:33,250 --> 00:40:37,583 - Josh first came to us at 1000 Islands from Greenstone. 743 00:40:37,708 --> 00:40:42,333 He came to us stable. He was really mentally sound. 744 00:40:42,375 --> 00:40:43,875 He was physically sound. 745 00:40:43,958 --> 00:40:46,333 - What's that? - Are you ready to do the work? 746 00:40:46,458 --> 00:40:48,292 - Oh yeah. Yeah. I gotta. 747 00:40:48,375 --> 00:40:50,500 I need those kids in my life. 748 00:40:50,583 --> 00:40:54,042 - And I think that this was a good spot for him 749 00:40:54,125 --> 00:40:55,917 to sort of resettle himself, 750 00:40:56,000 --> 00:40:59,333 and hopefully reignite his passion for recovery. 751 00:40:59,417 --> 00:41:02,500 This was the change of sceney that Josh needed... 752 00:41:02,583 --> 00:41:04,125 (birds squawking) 753 00:41:04,208 --> 00:41:06,667 ...to propel him through to the end of this. 754 00:41:06,750 --> 00:41:09,125 - He was quite excited to see that there was 755 00:41:09,208 --> 00:41:11,125 a beautiful river there that he could access. 756 00:41:11,208 --> 00:41:14,208 He spent a lot of his time really finding himself out there. 757 00:41:14,292 --> 00:41:16,583 - What's the goals? What are you going to do? 758 00:41:16,667 --> 00:41:19,125 - I don't know, I'm gonna go to meetings 759 00:41:19,208 --> 00:41:20,833 and continue on with my sponsor. 760 00:41:20,958 --> 00:41:24,042 - For Josh, fishing was his form of meditation. 761 00:41:26,083 --> 00:41:29,000 - I got in contact with my biological father. 762 00:41:29,125 --> 00:41:30,833 I just had to figure out who he is for myself. 763 00:41:30,917 --> 00:41:33,375 Whether he's good or bad. I just needed to know. 764 00:41:33,500 --> 00:41:34,833 As it stands right now, 765 00:41:34,875 --> 00:41:36,667 he's not answering my phone calls so... 766 00:41:38,500 --> 00:41:41,667 It's okay. That's okay with me. 767 00:41:41,750 --> 00:41:45,917 - A sense of purpose, a sense of identity is huge for Josh. 768 00:41:46,833 --> 00:41:49,458 - I feel like a new man, 769 00:41:49,542 --> 00:41:52,000 knowing where I want to go and what I got to do to get there. 770 00:41:52,125 --> 00:41:55,667 I'm 100% sure if I stay clean and sober 771 00:41:55,750 --> 00:41:58,583 that I'll be a good father figure for them. 772 00:41:58,667 --> 00:42:01,833 - He has all of the ingredients for success. 773 00:42:01,917 --> 00:42:04,208 I see a very strong, bright future for Josh. 774 00:42:05,292 --> 00:42:07,000 - You gotta want it, man. 775 00:42:07,083 --> 00:42:09,542 You gotta want it like you want to breathe. 776 00:42:11,542 --> 00:42:14,208 (♪) 777 00:42:32,125 --> 00:42:33,958 Subtitling: difuze