1 00:00:02,244 --> 00:00:03,985 Narrator: This program contains subject 2 00:00:04,005 --> 00:00:05,820 Matter and language that may be disturbing to some viewers. 3 00:00:05,840 --> 00:00:07,631 Viewer discretion is advised. 4 00:00:10,678 --> 00:00:12,402 Eric: It's over there. 5 00:00:12,421 --> 00:00:14,496 Oh, let me load the foil. 6 00:00:14,515 --> 00:00:16,240 Sorry, I was slacking. 7 00:00:16,258 --> 00:00:17,999 My name is sarah. 8 00:00:18,093 --> 00:00:20,853 I'm 29 years old and I'm extremely addicted to opiates. 9 00:00:28,362 --> 00:00:31,822 Cheri: Her drug of choice is fentanyl, which is terrifying. 10 00:00:38,781 --> 00:00:41,373 [music playing] 11 00:00:43,102 --> 00:00:44,877 Using fentanyl and meth at the same time 12 00:00:45,104 --> 00:00:47,271 Really scared me because it could kill her. 13 00:00:47,289 --> 00:00:48,363 How much do you put in? 14 00:00:48,382 --> 00:00:50,198 Just curious. 15 00:00:50,292 --> 00:00:52,700 Uh, this is probably like gram or maybe just a little over a gram 16 00:00:52,720 --> 00:00:54,219 Dang. 17 00:00:54,371 --> 00:00:56,371 Cheri: And most of the friends sarah hangs out 18 00:00:56,390 --> 00:00:58,949 With now are also using drugs. 19 00:00:59,042 --> 00:01:00,225 Do you always shoot your arms? 20 00:01:00,377 --> 00:01:03,211 Yeah, or my hands. 21 00:01:03,230 --> 00:01:05,564 If she doesn't get help, she's going to die. 22 00:01:11,313 --> 00:01:12,813 That hurt a little bit. 23 00:01:12,907 --> 00:01:14,406 It's in. 24 00:01:14,633 --> 00:01:18,635 Laura: She could die today or tomorrow or any time. 25 00:01:18,654 --> 00:01:19,578 Sarah: Balls to the wall. 26 00:01:22,566 --> 00:01:25,158 I know it's extremely dangerous, but I don't know, 27 00:01:25,252 --> 00:01:31,315 I just feel like there's no use in trying to get clean 28 00:01:31,408 --> 00:01:34,668 Anymore because, I don't know, there's 29 00:01:34,762 --> 00:01:36,320 Something just wrong with me. 30 00:01:36,338 --> 00:01:39,723 [music playing] 31 00:02:02,848 --> 00:02:05,365 Laura: My sister sarah was one of the biggest 32 00:02:05,517 --> 00:02:06,750 Models in the bay area. 33 00:02:10,798 --> 00:02:13,540 Billy: She was getting gigs for some of the major stores, 34 00:02:13,692 --> 00:02:16,468 Major makeup companies. 35 00:02:16,620 --> 00:02:19,138 Sarah: I have done everything from benefit cosmetics, 36 00:02:19,365 --> 00:02:22,215 Old navy, the men's wearhouse, charlotte russe, 37 00:02:22,309 --> 00:02:25,218 Amongst many more. 38 00:02:25,371 --> 00:02:27,128 Tonya: She had pictures all over the place. 39 00:02:27,222 --> 00:02:29,055 I was just like, whoa, that's my niece. 40 00:02:29,208 --> 00:02:31,316 Whoa, that's my niece there, too. 41 00:02:31,543 --> 00:02:33,226 Sarah: What I liked the most about modeling 42 00:02:33,320 --> 00:02:37,898 Was how much money you made and like such little time. 43 00:02:38,050 --> 00:02:41,885 Tonya: She was making $10,000 a photo shoot 44 00:02:41,978 --> 00:02:45,813 And she had a rock star boyfriend. 45 00:02:45,833 --> 00:02:47,916 She had the world at her feet. 46 00:02:51,397 --> 00:02:55,007 But right now, my daughter sarah is addicted to fentanyl. 47 00:03:00,756 --> 00:03:03,073 Sarah: I smoke fentanyl laced oxy 30 pills, 48 00:03:03,166 --> 00:03:04,666 Which are also known as blues. 49 00:03:04,760 --> 00:03:06,927 This is a oxycontin 30. 50 00:03:07,021 --> 00:03:08,762 It's not prescription. 51 00:03:08,914 --> 00:03:12,432 It's off the streets, so it's actually a fentanyl press. 52 00:03:12,584 --> 00:03:16,778 Typically, I use between 5 and 15 blues a day. 53 00:03:20,259 --> 00:03:23,851 Cheri: In addition to fentanyl, sarah is also using meth. 54 00:03:23,946 --> 00:03:26,780 Sarah: I'm just going to do a shot. 55 00:03:26,932 --> 00:03:29,266 I'd probably use about half a gram a day, 56 00:03:29,284 --> 00:03:32,544 And I use both to kind of have a balance. 57 00:03:32,771 --> 00:03:35,288 I don't want to be too up and have too much energy, 58 00:03:35,441 --> 00:03:38,959 But I don't also want to be nodding out. 59 00:03:39,111 --> 00:03:41,220 I want to be as normal as possible, but at least be well. 60 00:03:44,633 --> 00:03:47,559 [bleep] that was a lot. 61 00:03:52,900 --> 00:03:56,401 Sarah has never stolen from, I believe, anyone in the family. 62 00:03:56,553 --> 00:03:59,053 She gets her money for drugs, I believe, by lifting 63 00:03:59,073 --> 00:04:01,556 Things from different places. 64 00:04:01,650 --> 00:04:04,726 So I got the perfume that I was trying to help you find, 65 00:04:04,820 --> 00:04:06,653 And this is 35. 66 00:04:06,805 --> 00:04:08,138 That's, like, 120 so far. 67 00:04:08,156 --> 00:04:11,141 So we could get 12 in blues. 68 00:04:11,234 --> 00:04:16,404 Because of her addiction, she has a police record. 69 00:04:16,498 --> 00:04:19,149 Sarah: I've lost count how many times I've been arrested. 70 00:04:19,242 --> 00:04:21,426 Mostly it was because of possessions, 71 00:04:21,653 --> 00:04:24,763 But I also have two id thefts and two theft ones. 72 00:04:28,494 --> 00:04:31,436 Sarah's health has also just deteriorated. 73 00:04:31,588 --> 00:04:33,847 She's so skinny. 74 00:04:33,999 --> 00:04:36,758 She's, like, size double zero pants right now. 75 00:04:36,852 --> 00:04:39,669 Her cheeks are sunken in. 76 00:04:39,688 --> 00:04:43,173 Sarah: Because of my addiction, I've been in the icu 77 00:04:43,191 --> 00:04:45,951 For pneumonia and sepsis of the blood. 78 00:04:46,178 --> 00:04:48,453 And the doctor told me that I was really 79 00:04:48,680 --> 00:04:52,440 Close to my deathbed, and that being this young I 80 00:04:52,534 --> 00:04:53,792 Shouldn't have ever been this sick. 81 00:04:57,947 --> 00:05:00,281 Tonya: Despite everything she has gone through, 82 00:05:00,375 --> 00:05:02,134 She's not able to stop herself. 83 00:05:02,361 --> 00:05:03,877 Hell, yeah. 84 00:05:03,971 --> 00:05:05,595 Tonya: It's just been spiraling out of control. 85 00:05:08,458 --> 00:05:09,883 Ashley: She's at the end of her rope 86 00:05:10,035 --> 00:05:13,645 And I don't know if she's going to survive. 87 00:05:13,872 --> 00:05:16,206 Laura: If something were to happen to sarah, 88 00:05:16,299 --> 00:05:20,377 We would all be completely broken as a family. 89 00:05:20,470 --> 00:05:22,562 We want her to live through this. 90 00:05:22,656 --> 00:05:25,991 [music playing] 91 00:05:37,746 --> 00:05:42,248 Sarah: Did you find anybody with clear or anything? 92 00:05:42,343 --> 00:05:44,417 Sorry, I'm like-- 93 00:05:44,570 --> 00:05:45,844 I don't really function in the morning. 94 00:05:50,759 --> 00:05:52,425 I'm currently homeless. 95 00:05:52,578 --> 00:05:57,314 I often stay with friends or in cars, hotels. 96 00:06:04,031 --> 00:06:11,953 And then what-- what do you want to do today? 97 00:06:16,451 --> 00:06:18,118 Me and my friend erick, we're going to go up 98 00:06:18,212 --> 00:06:20,212 The street to grab some clear. 99 00:06:20,439 --> 00:06:22,214 And then I'm going to go to my mom's apartment. 100 00:06:28,947 --> 00:06:31,890 I don't have a car, so we're just going to walk to my mom's. 101 00:06:37,398 --> 00:06:39,881 Cheri: I definitely wrestle with allowing 102 00:06:39,975 --> 00:06:42,292 Sarah to stay at my house. 103 00:06:42,310 --> 00:06:45,904 But if I don't, know where she goes, 104 00:06:46,055 --> 00:06:49,408 I don't know when I'll see her, and that's just even scarier. 105 00:06:58,143 --> 00:06:58,992 Mom. 106 00:06:59,086 --> 00:06:59,751 Hi, honey. 107 00:06:59,978 --> 00:07:02,979 [inaudible] 108 00:07:02,998 --> 00:07:04,089 - Can I have a hug? - Yeah. 109 00:07:04,316 --> 00:07:04,923 I love you. 110 00:07:05,150 --> 00:07:05,999 I love you so much. 111 00:07:06,093 --> 00:07:07,408 I missed you. 112 00:07:07,428 --> 00:07:10,320 Joshua is my 11-year-old son. 113 00:07:10,413 --> 00:07:11,838 I'm so excited you're finally here. 114 00:07:11,990 --> 00:07:12,747 I know. 115 00:07:12,766 --> 00:07:14,507 I missed you. 116 00:07:14,601 --> 00:07:17,160 Cheri: When sarah was 17, she met a boy she really loved. 117 00:07:17,179 --> 00:07:19,771 And about five months into the relationship, 118 00:07:19,998 --> 00:07:21,231 Sarah found out she was pregnant. 119 00:07:24,853 --> 00:07:27,504 [music playing] 120 00:07:27,522 --> 00:07:31,691 Sarah: Holding joshua for the first time was complete bliss. 121 00:07:31,785 --> 00:07:36,437 It was like nothing I've ever experienced. 122 00:07:36,457 --> 00:07:38,682 Cheri: Sarah took to motherhood right away. 123 00:07:38,775 --> 00:07:43,462 She was very protective, very loving. 124 00:07:43,689 --> 00:07:45,297 But because of sarah's addiction, 125 00:07:45,524 --> 00:07:50,026 Right now I have temporary custody of joshua. 126 00:07:50,119 --> 00:07:52,879 That's been almost two years. 127 00:07:53,031 --> 00:07:55,474 I really wanted to be here before you woke up. 128 00:07:55,701 --> 00:07:58,034 It's ok. 129 00:07:58,053 --> 00:08:02,296 Right now, me, my two kids and nephew 130 00:08:02,390 --> 00:08:04,131 All live in my mom's apartment. 131 00:08:04,151 --> 00:08:05,800 What do you want to do today? 132 00:08:05,894 --> 00:08:07,227 I want to play a board game. 133 00:08:07,379 --> 00:08:08,803 Ooh. 134 00:08:08,822 --> 00:08:09,821 Well, let's give it a try, then. You want to? 135 00:08:10,048 --> 00:08:11,731 Yeah. 136 00:08:11,883 --> 00:08:15,476 We could see if auntie laura or nana wants to play, too. 137 00:08:15,570 --> 00:08:16,995 Since her addiction, 138 00:08:17,146 --> 00:08:20,406 Laura: Sarah has sometimes gone without seeing 139 00:08:20,501 --> 00:08:24,652 Joshua for, like, two months, sometimes longer. 140 00:08:24,746 --> 00:08:26,246 Did you have lunch, booby? 141 00:08:26,340 --> 00:08:27,839 Oh, yeah, I had, like, cheeseburgers [inaudible].. 142 00:08:27,991 --> 00:08:29,232 Ok, honey. 143 00:08:29,325 --> 00:08:30,750 It's important for me to see my son 144 00:08:30,902 --> 00:08:32,418 Because, although I'm struggling, 145 00:08:32,513 --> 00:08:35,071 I still wanted him to know that I love him 146 00:08:35,164 --> 00:08:37,498 And I want to be there for him as much as I can. 147 00:08:37,592 --> 00:08:38,833 Is this your favorite game? 148 00:08:38,852 --> 00:08:39,759 Yeah. 149 00:08:39,853 --> 00:08:41,761 Laura: Ok, mine's funny. 150 00:08:41,855 --> 00:08:45,006 So I'm the judge. 151 00:08:45,025 --> 00:08:46,525 I like [inaudible] more. 152 00:08:46,752 --> 00:08:47,359 I win. 153 00:08:47,510 --> 00:08:49,085 Good job, laura. 154 00:08:49,178 --> 00:08:50,603 Of course, I love spending as much time 155 00:08:50,697 --> 00:08:52,197 With my son as possible. 156 00:08:52,424 --> 00:08:53,681 Mama's going to get changed really quick, honey. 157 00:08:53,700 --> 00:08:55,441 Ok? - Ok. 158 00:08:55,536 --> 00:08:58,203 Sarah: But unfortunately, the fentanyl has a half life, 159 00:08:58,430 --> 00:09:01,498 So a lot of my time is spent getting well. 160 00:09:04,694 --> 00:09:07,771 So I'm just taking a shot of clear, 161 00:09:07,864 --> 00:09:10,715 And hopefully this will help. 162 00:09:15,781 --> 00:09:17,204 Joshua: Mom? 163 00:09:17,299 --> 00:09:19,540 Sarah: Just a second, joshy. 164 00:09:19,634 --> 00:09:20,892 Cheri: Oh, she's in the bathroom. 165 00:09:21,119 --> 00:09:21,876 Come on. 166 00:09:21,895 --> 00:09:22,877 No, come here. 167 00:09:22,896 --> 00:09:24,145 No, come here. 168 00:09:30,312 --> 00:09:31,978 We're going to sit down and wait for mommy. 169 00:09:32,130 --> 00:09:34,406 [inaudible] 170 00:09:35,892 --> 00:09:37,742 She'll be out. 171 00:09:37,969 --> 00:09:41,487 She takes around, like, an hour or two hours 172 00:09:41,582 --> 00:09:44,974 In the bathroom, but it's still really fun 173 00:09:45,068 --> 00:09:46,334 To spend time with my mom. 174 00:09:50,165 --> 00:09:53,741 Sarah: It fills me with so much joy that my son and my nephews 175 00:09:53,760 --> 00:09:56,928 Really love spending time with me. 176 00:09:57,080 --> 00:09:59,489 Laura: Since there is three kids in the home, 177 00:09:59,582 --> 00:10:02,267 It does worry me a little bit because, you know, I 178 00:10:02,494 --> 00:10:04,677 Have a toddler and they do get into stuff. 179 00:10:04,771 --> 00:10:08,440 And it does freak me out to think that she could leave 180 00:10:08,591 --> 00:10:09,899 Her drugs in the bathroom. 181 00:10:14,931 --> 00:10:17,240 It's definitely a scary situation. 182 00:10:20,603 --> 00:10:21,694 - Hey, hold on. - What are you doing? 183 00:10:21,788 --> 00:10:22,528 Sarah: Close the door. 184 00:10:22,623 --> 00:10:23,622 Stop. 185 00:10:27,944 --> 00:10:28,685 - What are you doing? - Close the door, please. 186 00:10:28,703 --> 00:10:29,294 I'm going to the potty. 187 00:10:29,521 --> 00:10:30,128 Oh. 188 00:10:30,279 --> 00:10:30,962 Sarah: Ok? 189 00:10:31,189 --> 00:10:31,463 Oh, damn. 190 00:10:36,878 --> 00:10:40,639 Cheri: I know I have to stop enabling, 191 00:10:40,866 --> 00:10:46,311 But if I don't let sarah use in the back, she will leave. 192 00:10:46,462 --> 00:10:51,816 And I just won't know where she goes or when she's coming back 193 00:10:52,043 --> 00:10:53,485 Or if she'll be ok. 194 00:10:53,636 --> 00:10:57,213 So I just wanted to check in with you and see if-- 195 00:10:57,306 --> 00:10:58,639 What you wanted to do for us tonight 196 00:10:58,659 --> 00:11:00,641 And what you're ok with. 197 00:11:00,661 --> 00:11:02,643 You can stay here if you want. 198 00:11:02,737 --> 00:11:03,978 - Thank you. - You're welcome. 199 00:11:04,072 --> 00:11:05,330 I really appreciate it. 200 00:11:05,557 --> 00:11:06,480 I'm having a really good day with joshy. 201 00:11:06,500 --> 00:11:08,667 Yeah. 202 00:11:08,818 --> 00:11:10,894 Tonya: I think my sister allows her to stay in the house 203 00:11:10,912 --> 00:11:14,063 To help heal her guilt. 204 00:11:14,157 --> 00:11:15,732 What did you want to do for dinner? 205 00:11:15,825 --> 00:11:17,901 I don't know, whatever you guys want. 206 00:11:17,919 --> 00:11:22,088 Tonya: But I think that it's too risky to allow her to stay. 207 00:11:22,182 --> 00:11:23,998 I don't think it's safe. 208 00:11:24,017 --> 00:11:26,518 It doesn't take very much for a child to get a hold of it 209 00:11:26,745 --> 00:11:29,095 And die. 210 00:11:29,189 --> 00:11:30,413 Ok, thank you. 211 00:11:30,432 --> 00:11:31,523 I'm going to give you a hug. 212 00:11:31,750 --> 00:11:32,190 I love you. 213 00:11:32,417 --> 00:11:33,766 I love you. 214 00:11:33,860 --> 00:11:37,696 [music playing] 215 00:11:47,933 --> 00:11:49,599 Leticia murphy: My name is leticia murphy. 216 00:11:49,617 --> 00:11:51,192 I'm a licensed marriage and family therapist 217 00:11:51,286 --> 00:11:53,286 And a licensed interventionist. 218 00:11:53,380 --> 00:11:55,772 My passion is not only to help the individual, 219 00:11:55,865 --> 00:11:58,608 But also the families because addictions always 220 00:11:58,626 --> 00:12:01,035 Impact the families as well. 221 00:12:01,054 --> 00:12:03,446 So I'm meeting with sarah's mom and sister 222 00:12:03,465 --> 00:12:05,114 Today so that I can get some background 223 00:12:05,208 --> 00:12:07,133 Information to help us understand 224 00:12:07,285 --> 00:12:10,228 How sarah got to this point. 225 00:12:10,379 --> 00:12:11,788 Cheri: Hi. Leticia murphy: Hi. 226 00:12:11,881 --> 00:12:13,289 I'm leticia. Cheri: Nice to meet you. 227 00:12:13,382 --> 00:12:14,791 Leticia murphy: Nice to meet you. 228 00:12:14,809 --> 00:12:15,883 So what we're going to do today is I'm going 229 00:12:15,977 --> 00:12:17,460 To ask you guys questions. 230 00:12:17,479 --> 00:12:19,479 I want to get background information on sarah. 231 00:12:19,631 --> 00:12:20,721 Ok? 232 00:12:20,741 --> 00:12:22,407 Yeah. 233 00:12:22,558 --> 00:12:23,967 Leticia murphy: And so what was your childhood like? 234 00:12:23,985 --> 00:12:28,896 Her childhood was, well, it was a little chaotic. 235 00:12:28,915 --> 00:12:30,898 We grew up with a single mom. 236 00:12:30,917 --> 00:12:34,068 Our dad wasn't in the picture. 237 00:12:34,162 --> 00:12:36,237 Cheri: Sarah was my second child. 238 00:12:36,331 --> 00:12:38,757 Ashley's two years older. 239 00:12:38,908 --> 00:12:43,928 And when sarah was two, I had my third child, billy. 240 00:12:44,155 --> 00:12:47,599 Ashley: Even though my dad wasn't around, we had my mom. 241 00:12:47,826 --> 00:12:51,418 She always was there for us, and my grandma and grandpa. 242 00:12:51,438 --> 00:12:55,665 So we always had that love and support that we needed. 243 00:12:55,683 --> 00:12:59,502 And so, miss cheri, how was it being a single mom with kids 244 00:12:59,595 --> 00:13:00,837 And taking care of them and trying 245 00:13:00,855 --> 00:13:02,522 To take care of yourself? 246 00:13:02,616 --> 00:13:04,449 It was a lot. 247 00:13:04,600 --> 00:13:08,194 But in the beginning, we were doing really good. 248 00:13:08,346 --> 00:13:10,696 We had everything we ever wanted. 249 00:13:10,791 --> 00:13:13,124 We were really happy. 250 00:13:13,351 --> 00:13:15,943 And I think before you guys, like, turned eight 251 00:13:16,037 --> 00:13:18,871 And stuff, that I did have-- 252 00:13:19,024 --> 00:13:21,357 I kept the home really organized. 253 00:13:21,376 --> 00:13:24,527 You said, prior to them being eight. 254 00:13:24,620 --> 00:13:28,956 What changed when they became eight? 255 00:13:29,050 --> 00:13:31,217 And it was just really bad. 256 00:13:31,369 --> 00:13:34,813 When sarah was eight, I had met someone. 257 00:13:35,040 --> 00:13:38,891 We were living together for about a year, 258 00:13:39,044 --> 00:13:42,469 And that's when I had my daughter laura. 259 00:13:42,564 --> 00:13:46,716 Sarah and I were super excited to have a little sister. 260 00:13:46,809 --> 00:13:51,054 But laura's dad was an addict, so that 261 00:13:51,072 --> 00:13:54,148 Was not a healthy relationship and he 262 00:13:54,242 --> 00:13:56,483 Wasn't a healthy figure for us. 263 00:13:56,503 --> 00:13:58,744 Cheri: My relationship with laura's father 264 00:13:58,897 --> 00:14:01,155 Was very turbulent. 265 00:14:01,174 --> 00:14:03,916 I did start suffering with some depression 266 00:14:04,010 --> 00:14:11,015 Because he was abusive and he would threaten to kill me 267 00:14:11,242 --> 00:14:14,093 In front of my kids if I ever tried to leave 268 00:14:14,187 --> 00:14:18,915 And just horrible, traumatic stuff going on. 269 00:14:18,933 --> 00:14:20,933 How bad was it? 270 00:14:21,086 --> 00:14:23,194 Laura's dad was a dealer. 271 00:14:23,346 --> 00:14:24,028 He was a dealer. 272 00:14:24,255 --> 00:14:24,821 Mm-hmm. 273 00:14:29,761 --> 00:14:33,096 As soon as I smoked it, I felt better 274 00:14:33,189 --> 00:14:36,616 And I got addicted to meth that quick. 275 00:14:36,710 --> 00:14:39,435 It just went bad fast. 276 00:14:39,454 --> 00:14:41,528 Sarah: There was no structure, rarely 277 00:14:41,623 --> 00:14:43,864 Any groceries in the house. 278 00:14:43,958 --> 00:14:46,776 And I was made fun of a lot at school because my clothes 279 00:14:46,794 --> 00:14:48,219 Would be dirty. 280 00:14:48,446 --> 00:14:50,463 Laura: One time, she had to go on her knees 281 00:14:50,615 --> 00:14:53,224 And pretend to be a dog and beg people for food 282 00:14:53,451 --> 00:14:54,967 Because she was extremely hungry. 283 00:14:55,120 --> 00:14:59,230 It was just, yeah, completely embarrassing. 284 00:15:07,482 --> 00:15:09,815 And then you guys were with your grandparents 285 00:15:09,968 --> 00:15:10,742 While mom was in rehab. 286 00:15:10,969 --> 00:15:11,634 Yeah. 287 00:15:11,653 --> 00:15:13,411 Ok. 288 00:15:13,638 --> 00:15:17,156 And cheri, when you got out of the rehab, what happened? 289 00:15:17,250 --> 00:15:20,084 Cheri: I didn't have a lot of family support at that time, 290 00:15:20,311 --> 00:15:23,904 So we ended up at a family homeless shelter 291 00:15:23,998 --> 00:15:25,164 For a little bit. 292 00:15:25,258 --> 00:15:26,925 Oh, wow. 293 00:15:27,152 --> 00:15:29,669 That definitely had to have been a culture shock. 294 00:15:29,763 --> 00:15:32,989 It was a little scary. 295 00:15:33,082 --> 00:15:34,674 Leticia murphy: It was just dirty, 296 00:15:34,768 --> 00:15:37,343 And I remember, like, maggots coming out of the carpet. 297 00:15:37,495 --> 00:15:39,011 And there was, like, feet of just 298 00:15:39,105 --> 00:15:40,680 "bleep" piled up on the floor. 299 00:15:40,832 --> 00:15:43,182 It was always a disaster. 300 00:15:43,276 --> 00:15:46,335 Ashley: But we were all happy to be reunited with our mom, 301 00:15:46,429 --> 00:15:50,006 And we had a mentor that got us into 302 00:15:50,024 --> 00:15:51,674 A private christian school. 303 00:15:51,767 --> 00:15:55,344 And that was a really cool opportunity. 304 00:15:55,438 --> 00:15:58,105 Sarah was very focused on her education. 305 00:15:58,199 --> 00:15:59,365 She loved to learn. 306 00:15:59,459 --> 00:16:01,367 She was very studious. 307 00:16:01,461 --> 00:16:02,776 Cheri: She was thriving. 308 00:16:02,870 --> 00:16:05,037 She had a lot of friends. 309 00:16:05,190 --> 00:16:09,692 And when sarah was 13, she had gotten a scholarship to go 310 00:16:09,711 --> 00:16:12,303 Into a private high school. 311 00:16:12,530 --> 00:16:14,197 Billy: When sarah was in high school, 312 00:16:14,215 --> 00:16:18,142 She was still super focused on excelling in school. 313 00:16:18,369 --> 00:16:21,704 Sarah: I see now how I used school as a means 314 00:16:21,723 --> 00:16:24,983 To escape my home life, but I'm grateful that I did 315 00:16:25,210 --> 00:16:28,394 That because it really set me up for success 316 00:16:28,488 --> 00:16:31,881 And allotted me opportunities that I wouldn't have had, 317 00:16:31,974 --> 00:16:35,326 Had I not been as educated as I was. 318 00:16:35,478 --> 00:16:38,571 Tonya: As she was getting older, she had two jobs. 319 00:16:38,665 --> 00:16:42,667 She was really together. 320 00:16:42,818 --> 00:16:45,061 Laura: Then when sarah was 18, she 321 00:16:45,079 --> 00:16:49,415 Submitted her modeling picture and she ended up getting 322 00:16:49,509 --> 00:16:51,634 Signed by ford modeling. 323 00:16:55,682 --> 00:16:58,074 Sarah had one of the biggest blow-ups of all time. 324 00:16:58,167 --> 00:17:01,594 She went from being bullied and teased 325 00:17:01,688 --> 00:17:05,356 To becoming one of the biggest models in the bay area. 326 00:17:05,508 --> 00:17:06,858 Ashley: She was very successful and she 327 00:17:07,009 --> 00:17:08,526 Was making a lot of money. 328 00:17:08,677 --> 00:17:10,511 Sarah: There was, like, a life-size poster board 329 00:17:10,605 --> 00:17:12,196 Of me and like every macy's. 330 00:17:12,423 --> 00:17:15,091 And it was funny, my cousin sent me a picture 331 00:17:15,109 --> 00:17:17,443 Of her posing next to it. 332 00:17:17,595 --> 00:17:20,763 Tonya: It felt like she was on top of the world 333 00:17:20,856 --> 00:17:25,209 And there was no stopping her. 334 00:17:25,361 --> 00:17:27,453 Sarah: And then when I was 19, I went 335 00:17:27,605 --> 00:17:29,455 To on my chemical romance concert 336 00:17:29,549 --> 00:17:30,840 And met my favorite band member. 337 00:17:34,220 --> 00:17:36,637 I literally felt like I was struck by lightning that day. 338 00:17:40,134 --> 00:17:41,542 Over the course of a year, we kind of 339 00:17:41,561 --> 00:17:43,452 Just became inseparable. 340 00:17:43,471 --> 00:17:46,713 It wasn't long after that we got engaged. 341 00:17:46,733 --> 00:17:48,974 Billy: And then sarah moved to la to be with him. 342 00:17:49,069 --> 00:17:50,551 They were in love. 343 00:17:50,645 --> 00:17:52,737 They were planning a future together. 344 00:17:52,888 --> 00:17:55,131 Sarah: I signed with an agency in los angeles. 345 00:17:55,224 --> 00:17:56,741 But they were like, if you really 346 00:17:56,968 --> 00:17:58,892 Want to be taken seriously, you need to lose 347 00:17:58,912 --> 00:18:01,637 Weight around your hips. 348 00:18:01,730 --> 00:18:03,581 I tried exercising and stuff like that, 349 00:18:03,808 --> 00:18:06,709 But it just wasn't able to do it. 350 00:18:13,334 --> 00:18:14,817 They felt good. 351 00:18:14,836 --> 00:18:16,669 They suppressed my appetite, and I didn't 352 00:18:16,821 --> 00:18:19,430 Really see it as a problem. 353 00:18:19,582 --> 00:18:22,174 Billy: But looking back on it, sarah and her boyfriend 354 00:18:22,268 --> 00:18:24,435 Had addiction issues. 355 00:18:24,662 --> 00:18:26,996 They would go out and drink and hang out 356 00:18:27,089 --> 00:18:29,923 More than the average person. 357 00:18:29,943 --> 00:18:32,276 Sarah: And then it started to really impact my modeling 358 00:18:32,503 --> 00:18:35,354 Career because I started showing up late, 359 00:18:35,506 --> 00:18:39,508 Was unresponsive to texts, and really started 360 00:18:39,527 --> 00:18:40,952 Losing out on a lot of gigs. 361 00:18:45,016 --> 00:18:46,682 Billy: Then when sarah was 20, our family 362 00:18:46,775 --> 00:18:48,351 Had moved up to bend, oregon. 363 00:18:48,444 --> 00:18:50,686 My brother-in-law had gotten a really good job, 364 00:18:50,779 --> 00:18:52,046 And we just kind of all followed suit. 365 00:18:58,138 --> 00:19:01,973 Both of them seemed a little unhappy living in oregon. 366 00:19:02,124 --> 00:19:04,200 Sarah: Oregon was such a culture shock. 367 00:19:04,218 --> 00:19:07,536 Like, there wasn't any amusement parks, malls, things 368 00:19:07,630 --> 00:19:10,539 That we were used to doing together. 369 00:19:10,558 --> 00:19:12,725 Cheri: And sarah's fiance's fans weren't 370 00:19:12,819 --> 00:19:15,319 Happy with their relationship. 371 00:19:15,546 --> 00:19:17,062 Laura: On social media, a lot of people 372 00:19:17,157 --> 00:19:20,232 Were bullying her and telling her to kill herself. 373 00:19:20,385 --> 00:19:21,826 Sarah: It was pretty scary. 374 00:19:22,053 --> 00:19:25,221 And it was hard to not hate being in my own skin. 375 00:19:25,239 --> 00:19:28,741 So one day, we went to a car dealership 376 00:19:28,893 --> 00:19:32,228 And the guy who sold us our toyota ended 377 00:19:32,321 --> 00:19:33,796 Up selling us our drugs, too. 378 00:19:39,070 --> 00:19:41,662 I noticed sarah was sleeping a lot. 379 00:19:41,756 --> 00:19:43,306 Her fiance was missing flights. 380 00:19:54,194 --> 00:19:57,177 Tonya: She gave it all up for her addiction 381 00:19:57,271 --> 00:20:00,198 And seemed to not look back. 382 00:20:00,425 --> 00:20:02,775 Cheri: I think it helped her to escape 383 00:20:02,927 --> 00:20:05,703 Her past childhood traumas. 384 00:20:05,854 --> 00:20:08,039 Sarah: I started going into hospitals 385 00:20:08,266 --> 00:20:10,357 To get prescriptions because I couldn't find 386 00:20:10,451 --> 00:20:12,710 Them to buy off the street. 387 00:20:12,937 --> 00:20:16,714 And when I was 23, I was blacklisted from hospitals 388 00:20:16,865 --> 00:20:19,458 For faking injuries, and so that's 389 00:20:19,552 --> 00:20:23,036 When I turned to heroin because that was easier to find. 390 00:20:23,130 --> 00:20:25,965 I found out that sarah was using heroin 391 00:20:26,059 --> 00:20:29,468 When she came over to my house and started nodding 392 00:20:29,562 --> 00:20:31,545 Off while we're talking. 393 00:20:31,639 --> 00:20:35,233 And that was pretty disturbing. 394 00:20:35,460 --> 00:20:36,901 Sarah: It wasn't long until I found 395 00:20:37,128 --> 00:20:39,386 Comfort in my drug of choice, and I 396 00:20:39,480 --> 00:20:42,907 Ended up moving on to fentanyl. 397 00:20:43,134 --> 00:20:44,891 [inaudible] 398 00:20:44,911 --> 00:20:49,580 Ever since then, everything has been downhill for her. 399 00:20:49,732 --> 00:20:53,668 Ashley: Right now, sarah's addiction consumes her life. 400 00:20:58,483 --> 00:21:02,760 Tonya: And sarah has lost a modeling career. 401 00:21:02,987 --> 00:21:04,670 She's lost her car. 402 00:21:04,764 --> 00:21:06,747 Her apartment. 403 00:21:06,766 --> 00:21:09,350 Sarah: I'm losing my sense of, like, common decency. 404 00:21:14,774 --> 00:21:17,924 Cheri: I've had a lot of sleepless nights 405 00:21:18,019 --> 00:21:20,336 Because I'm so worried. 406 00:21:20,354 --> 00:21:22,688 Tonya: She's not able to stop herself, 407 00:21:22,840 --> 00:21:26,859 And we need her to be alive. 408 00:21:27,011 --> 00:21:28,861 So it sounds like you guys have been through a lot, 409 00:21:28,955 --> 00:21:31,530 Just as much as she has. 410 00:21:31,624 --> 00:21:34,625 All we want for her is for her to really have a chance 411 00:21:34,777 --> 00:21:36,368 And the support she needs. 412 00:21:36,521 --> 00:21:39,279 In order for this to work, you've got to be strong. 413 00:21:39,299 --> 00:21:41,190 Yeah. 414 00:21:41,208 --> 00:21:42,633 Leticia murphy: Sarah had a very difficult childhood, 415 00:21:42,860 --> 00:21:45,786 And her mom may be currently enabling her because 416 00:21:45,880 --> 00:21:47,638 Of guilt about the past trauma. 417 00:21:47,865 --> 00:21:50,549 But if they cannot come together and stand 418 00:21:50,701 --> 00:21:53,311 Firm and maybe not enable her, this could 419 00:21:53,462 --> 00:21:55,813 End very poorly for sarah. 420 00:21:55,964 --> 00:21:57,373 We have to stick together. 421 00:21:57,391 --> 00:21:58,482 We have to do this for her. 422 00:22:14,392 --> 00:22:17,651 I just really need a break. 423 00:22:17,670 --> 00:22:19,395 Cheri: This morning she wasn't well. 424 00:22:19,413 --> 00:22:22,006 It sounded like she was crying, but I could 425 00:22:22,157 --> 00:22:25,492 Tell that she's just sick. 426 00:22:25,586 --> 00:22:27,160 Sarah: Like, it's so hard to breathe. 427 00:22:27,254 --> 00:22:28,679 I know. I can hear it in your voice. 428 00:22:28,831 --> 00:22:30,756 I could hear it when you were talking yesterday. 429 00:22:30,908 --> 00:22:31,665 Yeah. 430 00:22:31,684 --> 00:22:33,425 It's clogged. 431 00:22:33,578 --> 00:22:38,931 Yeah, the doctor said that you get it from smoking drugs. 432 00:22:39,083 --> 00:22:40,583 Laura: Yeah. 433 00:22:40,601 --> 00:22:43,586 I woke up feeling really "bleep", um just restless. 434 00:22:43,604 --> 00:22:46,697 Anxiety is just off the charts. 435 00:22:46,924 --> 00:22:47,681 Hi. 436 00:22:47,700 --> 00:22:49,592 Hi, sweetheart. 437 00:22:49,610 --> 00:22:51,777 Sarah: So my mom's going to take me to my friend erick's house. 438 00:22:51,871 --> 00:22:54,205 He's a friend that I've known for about a year or so. 439 00:22:54,356 --> 00:22:56,432 He said that he's going to help me feel better 440 00:22:56,450 --> 00:22:58,042 And smoke me out some blues because I'm out. 441 00:23:01,029 --> 00:23:02,380 Cheri: Where are we going, right here? 442 00:23:02,531 --> 00:23:04,215 Sarah: Yeah. 443 00:23:04,366 --> 00:23:05,774 Ok, so I'm going to go inside, and I'll call you and let 444 00:23:05,793 --> 00:23:06,959 You know what the plan is. 445 00:23:07,111 --> 00:23:07,718 Ok. 446 00:23:13,284 --> 00:23:15,284 It's a difficult situation. 447 00:23:15,377 --> 00:23:19,455 It's very confusing for me. 448 00:23:19,548 --> 00:23:22,791 I love her and I don't want to see her hurting 449 00:23:22,885 --> 00:23:25,127 And I don't want to see her desperate. 450 00:23:25,146 --> 00:23:28,631 I just-- I feel helpless. 451 00:23:28,649 --> 00:23:31,467 Ashley: My mom's support is good and bad. 452 00:23:31,485 --> 00:23:37,063 I wouldn't want sarah out on the streets in the cold, 453 00:23:37,158 --> 00:23:39,475 But I also feel like she's enabling. 454 00:23:39,493 --> 00:23:42,311 And that's not good for sarah either. 455 00:23:42,329 --> 00:23:43,170 [phone ringing] 456 00:23:45,425 --> 00:23:46,331 Sarah (on phone): Hello? 457 00:23:46,484 --> 00:23:48,484 Sarah? 458 00:23:48,502 --> 00:23:50,243 What's happening? 459 00:23:50,263 --> 00:23:52,671 Sarah (on phone): I was going to see if I drop you off 460 00:23:52,823 --> 00:23:55,266 At the apartment and my friend here came with me, 461 00:23:55,417 --> 00:23:57,493 And then we just smoked in the car. 462 00:23:57,511 --> 00:23:58,844 What do you think of that? 463 00:23:58,938 --> 00:24:01,180 Why don't you just do that here, right now 464 00:24:01,332 --> 00:24:03,499 While I'm here with the car? 465 00:24:03,517 --> 00:24:05,851 Sarah (on phone): Where would you go? 466 00:24:06,003 --> 00:24:08,687 I can go for a walk. 467 00:24:08,781 --> 00:24:11,449 Sarah (on phone): Ok, and then we'll come out. 468 00:24:11,676 --> 00:24:13,342 Ok. 469 00:24:13,435 --> 00:24:14,952 Erick's family's here right now, 470 00:24:15,103 --> 00:24:19,290 And they don't really know what's been going on. 471 00:24:19,517 --> 00:24:21,033 Are you cool with sitting in the back seat? 472 00:24:21,185 --> 00:24:22,534 Ok. 473 00:24:22,628 --> 00:24:24,353 So don't really want them to find out today. 474 00:24:24,371 --> 00:24:26,446 So we're going to just hang out and smoke in the car. 475 00:24:26,540 --> 00:24:29,758 [music playing] 476 00:24:37,960 --> 00:24:38,601 Thank you. 477 00:24:44,225 --> 00:24:47,818 I'm going to do my shot really quick. 478 00:24:47,970 --> 00:24:51,213 Normally I can hit, but if I have a hard time, 479 00:24:51,306 --> 00:24:52,472 I'll probably ask you, eric. 480 00:24:52,566 --> 00:24:53,324 Yeah, for sure. 481 00:24:56,996 --> 00:24:57,828 Boom. 482 00:25:00,558 --> 00:25:01,290 Yeah, buddy. 483 00:25:07,248 --> 00:25:07,922 It's pretty good. 484 00:25:12,236 --> 00:25:13,994 I think we smoked three altogether. 485 00:25:14,088 --> 00:25:18,182 And I did a shot of clear, so I'm ready to take on the day. 486 00:25:21,428 --> 00:25:23,837 Yeah, and at the light, you'll make a left. 487 00:25:23,931 --> 00:25:25,581 And then we just go to the hotel. 488 00:25:25,599 --> 00:25:27,916 It's right up the street. 489 00:25:27,935 --> 00:25:32,363 We're just pulling up to this motel to meet, 490 00:25:32,514 --> 00:25:37,017 And I guess just pick up some, to be blunt, clear. 491 00:25:37,036 --> 00:25:39,019 I don't really like saying the words 492 00:25:39,038 --> 00:25:40,112 And stuff in front of my mom. 493 00:25:40,206 --> 00:25:40,871 It makes me-- 494 00:25:46,453 --> 00:25:47,211 Cheri: Sweetheart. 495 00:25:47,438 --> 00:25:50,196 It'll be ok, sarah. 496 00:25:50,291 --> 00:25:55,886 It's just been kind of like a wake up call, I guess, 497 00:25:56,113 --> 00:25:58,797 Because I've just been like acting like that side of me 498 00:25:58,891 --> 00:26:00,391 Doesn't exist to my mom. 499 00:26:00,618 --> 00:26:05,137 So having it be, like, more real, it has just 500 00:26:05,289 --> 00:26:11,551 Been hard for me to process. 501 00:26:11,571 --> 00:26:14,071 I'm so over living like this. 502 00:26:14,298 --> 00:26:21,486 I'm just over how much this robs me and my son. 503 00:26:21,581 --> 00:26:23,914 How do I allow this to be more important? 504 00:26:24,066 --> 00:26:26,325 It's hard to process sometimes. 505 00:26:26,419 --> 00:26:28,160 It's easier to escape. 506 00:26:28,254 --> 00:26:33,498 Problem is, you're not escaping the traumas and stuff. 507 00:26:33,651 --> 00:26:35,742 You can't process it on your own. 508 00:26:35,836 --> 00:26:38,670 Because mine affected my whole life. 509 00:26:38,764 --> 00:26:43,342 And when you were younger, I made a lot of bad choices. 510 00:26:43,494 --> 00:26:45,102 I just never should have done the things 511 00:26:45,253 --> 00:26:51,350 I did to escape whatever it is that was hitting me. 512 00:26:51,502 --> 00:26:54,353 But I guess what I'm saying is I want to be supportive. 513 00:26:54,447 --> 00:26:56,113 Sarah: And I appreciate that. 514 00:26:56,340 --> 00:26:59,099 I know a lot of moms are out there using with their kids, 515 00:26:59,118 --> 00:27:03,537 Not trying to help them and make sure they're safe. 516 00:27:10,463 --> 00:27:12,796 It's just sad. 517 00:27:12,948 --> 00:27:13,964 No, come here, sweetheart. 518 00:27:14,191 --> 00:27:17,134 [inaudible] 519 00:27:18,712 --> 00:27:21,530 All my son wants is me there with him, 520 00:27:21,548 --> 00:27:24,124 But I'm just, like, doing a lot of the things 521 00:27:24,143 --> 00:27:27,202 My mom did to me and my siblings. 522 00:27:27,221 --> 00:27:28,646 Cheri: We all love you so much. 523 00:27:41,068 --> 00:27:43,886 Sarah: I would say it is a pretty successful day. 524 00:27:43,979 --> 00:27:46,722 You look pregnant [inaudible] right now. 525 00:27:46,815 --> 00:27:48,907 Nice save. 526 00:27:49,001 --> 00:27:50,058 Good job. 527 00:27:50,077 --> 00:27:51,317 How did you pull that off? 528 00:27:51,412 --> 00:27:55,898 Like, how did you put it in your coat? 529 00:27:55,916 --> 00:27:58,901 Cheri: I know sarah is making money for drugs 530 00:27:58,994 --> 00:28:02,738 By going into stores and lifting items. 531 00:28:02,831 --> 00:28:06,258 One time, sarah brought christmas gifts for us 532 00:28:06,410 --> 00:28:10,020 And some of them still had the security tag on it, which 533 00:28:10,247 --> 00:28:14,174 Was shocking because it just made me realize just 534 00:28:14,193 --> 00:28:21,440 How desensitized she is to what she's doing 535 00:28:21,534 --> 00:28:22,199 And how she's living. 536 00:28:29,542 --> 00:28:32,601 Tonya: Everything has been out of control. 537 00:28:32,694 --> 00:28:34,786 No one knows if we're going to see her again. 538 00:28:34,939 --> 00:28:37,439 I mean, we used to worry about her getting arrested 539 00:28:37,532 --> 00:28:39,458 And now we're just praying she will so 540 00:28:39,552 --> 00:28:42,961 That we know she'll be alive. 541 00:28:43,113 --> 00:28:45,889 [inaudible] 542 00:28:48,285 --> 00:28:50,376 Leticia murphy: So I just want to thank you guys for having 543 00:28:50,396 --> 00:28:51,729 Me be a part of this. 544 00:28:51,956 --> 00:28:53,638 Hopefully this will be super successful. 545 00:28:53,733 --> 00:28:54,973 Yeah. 546 00:28:55,125 --> 00:28:58,551 And I just value all of your input. 547 00:28:58,571 --> 00:29:01,630 Now let's get into some tough stuff. 548 00:29:01,648 --> 00:29:04,724 Do we have guilt and shame about where sarah's 549 00:29:04,744 --> 00:29:06,577 At currently in her addiction? 550 00:29:06,804 --> 00:29:10,489 I feel like as a mom I let her down. 551 00:29:10,583 --> 00:29:13,825 I feel like I could have done things so different 552 00:29:13,978 --> 00:29:17,162 And maybe things would have been a different outcome for her. 553 00:29:17,314 --> 00:29:25,337 When she was younger and she asked me to help, I'm sorry. 554 00:29:25,431 --> 00:29:26,671 I should have helped you more. 555 00:29:26,766 --> 00:29:28,657 I should have helped her more. 556 00:29:28,750 --> 00:29:30,100 Thank you. 557 00:29:30,252 --> 00:29:33,662 You don't have to apologize to me. 558 00:29:33,680 --> 00:29:34,846 No, I do. 559 00:29:34,940 --> 00:29:35,831 And I'm sorry. 560 00:29:35,849 --> 00:29:37,441 I let both of you down. 561 00:29:37,668 --> 00:29:39,259 Leticia murphy: You're living in what if. 562 00:29:39,278 --> 00:29:40,593 What if I had done this? 563 00:29:40,613 --> 00:29:42,354 What if I had said that? 564 00:29:42,506 --> 00:29:45,023 It's not serving you today. 565 00:29:45,175 --> 00:29:49,119 So I need you all to let go of the guilt and shame, 566 00:29:49,271 --> 00:29:52,848 And let's focus on the present and getting her 567 00:29:52,866 --> 00:29:56,852 To a place where she's healthy. 568 00:29:56,870 --> 00:29:58,796 Sarah's family is so riddled by guilt 569 00:29:59,023 --> 00:30:01,356 From the past that, if they continue 570 00:30:01,375 --> 00:30:04,526 To live in what if, they're not going to be able to push her 571 00:30:04,545 --> 00:30:07,137 Into having a healthy recovery. 572 00:30:07,364 --> 00:30:09,881 So one of the things that's always concerning when we're 573 00:30:10,034 --> 00:30:12,625 Looking at addictions and we're looking at family 574 00:30:12,645 --> 00:30:15,053 Is enabling behaviors. 575 00:30:15,147 --> 00:30:17,147 Anybody ever given her money? 576 00:30:17,299 --> 00:30:19,149 Yes, I have. 577 00:30:19,376 --> 00:30:23,136 Leticia murphy: Ok, so almost everybody. 578 00:30:23,155 --> 00:30:26,064 Anybody ever given her rides? 579 00:30:26,216 --> 00:30:27,825 Yes. 580 00:30:27,976 --> 00:30:32,237 Paid for a hotel room or let her stay with them? 581 00:30:32,389 --> 00:30:33,831 Yes, I have. 582 00:30:33,982 --> 00:30:35,481 Leticia murphy: Today's the last day for that. 583 00:30:35,576 --> 00:30:37,576 We are going to have to say no. 584 00:30:37,728 --> 00:30:39,485 I want to be there for her. 585 00:30:39,505 --> 00:30:41,229 I don't want her hurting or-- 586 00:30:41,248 --> 00:30:43,507 Leticia murphy: I know change is hard, 587 00:30:43,734 --> 00:30:48,846 But losing somebody that you love would hurt a lot worse. 588 00:30:49,073 --> 00:30:51,740 So we have to develop some bottom lines, 589 00:30:51,833 --> 00:30:53,241 And the bottom lines are only going 590 00:30:53,335 --> 00:30:55,093 To be read if she says no. 591 00:30:55,245 --> 00:30:57,170 It's a consequence. 592 00:30:57,264 --> 00:30:59,931 So what do you guys feel that could 593 00:31:00,084 --> 00:31:03,193 Be some of the bottom lines? 594 00:31:03,345 --> 00:31:05,253 It's hard to think about, but, yeah, she wouldn't 595 00:31:05,347 --> 00:31:06,864 Be able to be my kids' life. 596 00:31:07,091 --> 00:31:07,680 Ok. 597 00:31:07,700 --> 00:31:09,515 Cheri? 598 00:31:09,610 --> 00:31:11,017 Cheri: Well, for me, it's like, what if she overdoses 599 00:31:11,036 --> 00:31:12,777 And the last thing she heard from me 600 00:31:12,872 --> 00:31:14,613 Is, I'm not going to help you. 601 00:31:14,765 --> 00:31:17,207 You guys have to stand together. 602 00:31:17,359 --> 00:31:19,359 If one of you doesn't stand together, 603 00:31:19,453 --> 00:31:22,120 It's not going to work. 604 00:31:22,272 --> 00:31:23,529 Tonya: I'm worried about my sisters 605 00:31:23,549 --> 00:31:25,531 Sticking to the bottom lines. 606 00:31:25,626 --> 00:31:28,368 Well, it's hard for all of us, but it's really hard for her. 607 00:31:28,387 --> 00:31:30,703 She doesn't want any of her kids, especially sarah, 608 00:31:30,723 --> 00:31:33,706 To feel that she's not loved. 609 00:31:33,726 --> 00:31:36,709 Questions, concerns, anything else 610 00:31:36,803 --> 00:31:38,729 I need to know before tomorrow? 611 00:31:38,956 --> 00:31:42,715 I'm worried that she might say she needs 612 00:31:42,809 --> 00:31:44,976 To go say goodbye to joshua. 613 00:31:45,129 --> 00:31:47,312 It's been kind of a tactic to delay going. 614 00:31:47,406 --> 00:31:49,222 Cheri: It's too hard for her. 615 00:31:49,241 --> 00:31:51,316 When she has to say goodbye, she doesn't want to leave him. 616 00:31:51,468 --> 00:31:53,318 Leticia murphy: Ok. 617 00:31:53,470 --> 00:31:55,561 And so the bottom line is, we want to be respectful of him 618 00:31:55,581 --> 00:31:57,414 And what's good for his treatment, 619 00:31:57,641 --> 00:31:59,565 So she's not going to have the opportunity. 620 00:31:59,660 --> 00:32:01,919 She may facetime him from the airport. 621 00:32:02,146 --> 00:32:02,994 Ok? 622 00:32:03,147 --> 00:32:04,829 It's going to be hard. 623 00:32:04,982 --> 00:32:06,831 I'm just, like, scared she's not going to snap out of it. 624 00:32:06,984 --> 00:32:08,150 So here's the thing. 625 00:32:08,243 --> 00:32:10,910 I can't take away any of your fears. 626 00:32:10,930 --> 00:32:13,321 But just know that we're all going to be here 627 00:32:13,340 --> 00:32:15,490 And we're going to do the best that we can. 628 00:32:15,509 --> 00:32:18,677 And hopefully tomorrow she will receive that gift of treatment 629 00:32:18,771 --> 00:32:20,187 And get help. 630 00:32:27,780 --> 00:32:28,687 Good morning, everybody. 631 00:32:28,781 --> 00:32:29,688 How's everybody feeling? 632 00:32:29,840 --> 00:32:30,505 Anxious. 633 00:32:30,524 --> 00:32:32,115 Stressed. 634 00:32:32,342 --> 00:32:34,600 Leticia murphy: Nervous, anxious, stressed. 635 00:32:34,620 --> 00:32:37,696 It's normal, because this is a really, really big day. 636 00:32:37,848 --> 00:32:39,289 Has she made it to the car yet? 637 00:32:44,129 --> 00:32:44,920 Ok, thank you. 638 00:32:49,635 --> 00:32:52,285 Sarah: I just drooled everywhere. 639 00:32:52,304 --> 00:32:53,220 Ok, I'm ready. 640 00:32:59,703 --> 00:33:00,268 Yay. 641 00:33:06,893 --> 00:33:10,061 Laura, would you be available to meet her at the front door, 642 00:33:10,214 --> 00:33:11,062 Please? - Yeah. 643 00:33:11,215 --> 00:33:12,230 Ok. 644 00:33:12,382 --> 00:33:14,157 I have a knot in my throat. 645 00:33:14,384 --> 00:33:15,492 My stomach is like-- 646 00:33:23,485 --> 00:33:25,168 This anticipation is brutal. 647 00:33:31,010 --> 00:33:31,842 Laura, can you go? 648 00:33:44,414 --> 00:33:46,023 - What are you doing here? - How are you? 649 00:33:46,174 --> 00:33:46,765 How are you? 650 00:33:46,917 --> 00:33:48,750 Oh my gosh. 651 00:33:48,843 --> 00:33:50,152 I need to smoke a cigarette. 652 00:33:55,776 --> 00:33:58,443 You ok? 653 00:33:58,537 --> 00:33:59,277 Good morning. 654 00:33:59,429 --> 00:34:00,853 My name is leticia. 655 00:34:00,947 --> 00:34:04,023 Nice to meet you. 656 00:34:04,043 --> 00:34:06,451 Soon as you finish smoking, can he come in 657 00:34:06,603 --> 00:34:08,211 And greet everybody, please? 658 00:34:08,438 --> 00:34:09,120 Yep. 659 00:34:09,273 --> 00:34:10,605 Ok, thanks. 660 00:34:10,698 --> 00:34:11,623 Can you stay here with her? 661 00:34:11,775 --> 00:34:12,382 Yeah. 662 00:34:12,609 --> 00:34:14,626 Ok. 663 00:34:14,720 --> 00:34:15,552 Is joshy here? 664 00:34:15,703 --> 00:34:17,946 Laura: No. 665 00:34:17,964 --> 00:34:20,465 Is this really an intervention? 666 00:34:20,559 --> 00:34:21,725 It would have been nice to know. 667 00:34:25,455 --> 00:34:26,063 Ok. 668 00:34:37,058 --> 00:34:39,076 Hey, sarah. 669 00:34:39,303 --> 00:34:40,911 Oh my gosh. 670 00:34:41,138 --> 00:34:43,138 Hi, baby. 671 00:34:43,231 --> 00:34:44,414 Ashley: We all love you, ok? 672 00:34:44,641 --> 00:34:48,234 You don't have to have an anxiety attack. 673 00:34:48,253 --> 00:34:48,993 Good to see you. 674 00:34:49,088 --> 00:34:50,087 Good to see you. 675 00:34:50,238 --> 00:34:50,921 Are you ok? 676 00:34:54,576 --> 00:34:56,242 I'm going to have you sit between your sister 677 00:34:56,261 --> 00:34:57,094 And your aunt, please. 678 00:35:01,174 --> 00:35:02,507 It's so nice to meet you. 679 00:35:02,659 --> 00:35:04,417 I've been working with your family, 680 00:35:04,436 --> 00:35:09,848 And everybody here has such tremendous love for you. 681 00:35:10,000 --> 00:35:12,500 So what I'm asking for you to do is just 682 00:35:12,519 --> 00:35:15,186 To have an open heart and an open mind 683 00:35:15,339 --> 00:35:18,006 As they read their letters. 684 00:35:18,099 --> 00:35:22,177 So miss ashley, can you start, please? 685 00:35:22,195 --> 00:35:26,123 Sarah, I want you to know how much I love you. 686 00:35:26,350 --> 00:35:28,792 You are my sister, my best friend, 687 00:35:28,943 --> 00:35:33,188 And such an amazing and loving aunt to my kids. 688 00:35:33,206 --> 00:35:39,043 They would love nothing more than to have their auntie back. 689 00:35:39,138 --> 00:35:41,805 We don't want to miss out on any more time with you. 690 00:35:41,956 --> 00:35:45,124 You are more than just beautiful on the outside. 691 00:35:45,218 --> 00:35:48,052 Your heart is full of love. 692 00:35:48,147 --> 00:35:51,039 You are so important to me, but watching you 693 00:35:51,057 --> 00:35:53,375 Hurt yourself is too hard. 694 00:35:53,393 --> 00:35:56,711 We all make mistakes, and your addiction doesn't define you. 695 00:35:56,730 --> 00:36:00,048 It's never too late to turn your life around. 696 00:36:00,141 --> 00:36:01,741 I love you forever and always, no matter what. 697 00:36:05,389 --> 00:36:05,996 Leticia murphy: Ok. 698 00:36:06,223 --> 00:36:08,556 Miss cheri? 699 00:36:08,650 --> 00:36:11,576 Dear sarah, I love you so much, 700 00:36:11,728 --> 00:36:16,231 Your sweet disposition, your generous heart, and kind soul. 701 00:36:16,249 --> 00:36:19,176 You have so much to offer this world. 702 00:36:19,327 --> 00:36:23,162 Your bond and love for your son and his with you 703 00:36:23,182 --> 00:36:28,000 Is something that is beautiful to witness. 704 00:36:28,020 --> 00:36:31,671 This is one reason my heart aches for the two of you. 705 00:36:31,690 --> 00:36:33,598 I've been a witness to you slowly 706 00:36:33,750 --> 00:36:37,419 Killing yourself, all the beautiful pieces of you 707 00:36:37,437 --> 00:36:41,105 Numbing to non-existence. 708 00:36:41,258 --> 00:36:43,942 Please put yourself in recovery, sarah. 709 00:36:44,036 --> 00:36:48,112 I don't want to think about how I will ever tell your son 710 00:36:48,265 --> 00:36:52,024 He will never see you again or hear his mom say, I love you 711 00:36:52,044 --> 00:36:56,104 And I'm so proud of you. 712 00:36:56,122 --> 00:36:58,289 Please don't let these drugs steal that 713 00:36:58,442 --> 00:36:59,883 From him and from yourself. 714 00:37:04,056 --> 00:37:05,964 Leticia murphy: Tonya. 715 00:37:06,058 --> 00:37:09,801 Tonya: Sarah, you and I have always shared a special bond. 716 00:37:09,953 --> 00:37:13,897 We understand each other in a way that no one else does. 717 00:37:14,048 --> 00:37:18,476 Since your addiction has begun, our relationship has changed. 718 00:37:18,570 --> 00:37:20,628 We don't talk like we used to. 719 00:37:20,722 --> 00:37:23,055 You don't call me anymore. 720 00:37:23,075 --> 00:37:25,483 You stopped answering my calls. 721 00:37:25,635 --> 00:37:26,634 I miss you. 722 00:37:26,728 --> 00:37:27,410 I miss us. 723 00:37:30,807 --> 00:37:32,999 I never wanted you to feel disappointed. 724 00:37:36,480 --> 00:37:39,163 I just want you well and healthy. 725 00:37:39,258 --> 00:37:44,002 You have your entire life to live for you and joshy, 726 00:37:44,154 --> 00:37:48,323 And now is the time for you to start living it. 727 00:37:48,341 --> 00:37:50,267 Will you take this gift of treatment today? 728 00:37:54,106 --> 00:37:56,180 Leticia murphy: So sarah, are you going to treatment 729 00:37:56,333 --> 00:37:56,940 To try to get well? 730 00:38:01,429 --> 00:38:03,338 Will I get to say bye to joshy? 731 00:38:03,356 --> 00:38:06,741 [music playing] 732 00:38:17,945 --> 00:38:19,687 Leticia murphy: I know you love him. 733 00:38:19,781 --> 00:38:22,540 But ultimately I always want to make sure that we protect him. 734 00:38:22,634 --> 00:38:23,783 Really? 735 00:38:23,802 --> 00:38:25,193 Do you think you'd be ok when-- 736 00:38:25,286 --> 00:38:29,380 Can we facetime him and you could talk to him? 737 00:38:29,533 --> 00:38:34,385 Would it just be, like, a normal 30-day-- 738 00:38:34,479 --> 00:38:37,555 Leticia murphy: It is called kemah palms recovery. 739 00:38:37,649 --> 00:38:39,707 It's a 90 day-treatment. 740 00:38:39,726 --> 00:38:42,802 They have a medical detox facility, 741 00:38:42,821 --> 00:38:45,380 And your family will be doing family therapy because this 742 00:38:45,398 --> 00:38:47,231 Isn't just affecting you. 743 00:38:47,326 --> 00:38:49,567 It affects everybody. 744 00:38:49,661 --> 00:38:53,888 So will you accept this gift? 745 00:38:53,907 --> 00:38:59,744 Um, yeah. 746 00:38:59,838 --> 00:39:01,062 Leticia murphy: Awesome. 747 00:39:01,155 --> 00:39:01,838 Thank god. 748 00:39:05,585 --> 00:39:07,844 Oh my gosh, I love you. 749 00:39:07,995 --> 00:39:09,763 [inaudible] 750 00:39:11,091 --> 00:39:13,091 I'm feeling so relieved knowing 751 00:39:13,243 --> 00:39:15,000 That sarah is going to be-- 752 00:39:15,020 --> 00:39:16,686 She's going to be herself again. 753 00:39:16,838 --> 00:39:18,429 [inaudible] 754 00:39:18,582 --> 00:39:22,433 It's just such a weight off of my whole family. 755 00:39:22,586 --> 00:39:25,253 I am super proud of sarah because she's 756 00:39:25,271 --> 00:39:27,255 Going to have a good life for her and her son. 757 00:39:27,273 --> 00:39:30,516 I'm just excited for her. 758 00:39:30,535 --> 00:39:31,776 Ok, thank you. 759 00:39:31,928 --> 00:39:32,944 - Love you. - Love you. 760 00:39:33,038 --> 00:39:33,703 Love you guys. 761 00:39:33,930 --> 00:39:36,114 Give joshy my love. 762 00:39:36,266 --> 00:39:36,948 Bye. 763 00:39:37,042 --> 00:39:37,857 Tonya: Love you. 764 00:39:37,876 --> 00:39:39,542 Cheri: Love you. 765 00:39:39,769 --> 00:39:42,770 We got [inaudible]. 766 00:39:42,789 --> 00:39:45,623 Leticia murphy: Awesome job, family. 767 00:39:45,775 --> 00:39:48,534 Sarah: I wish I would have spent last night with my son. 768 00:39:48,553 --> 00:39:55,116 But I want to be healthy and present for him, 769 00:39:55,135 --> 00:39:58,878 And I can't do that by continuing to live like this. 770 00:39:58,897 --> 00:40:02,732 [music playing] 771 00:40:20,419 --> 00:40:21,826 Hello, sarah. 772 00:40:21,920 --> 00:40:23,753 Oh my goodness, I'm so glad you made it here. 773 00:40:23,905 --> 00:40:26,405 Thank you. 774 00:40:26,499 --> 00:40:27,982 Sarah, this is mallory. 775 00:40:28,001 --> 00:40:30,075 She came to us through intervention a little 776 00:40:30,095 --> 00:40:31,744 Over three years ago. 777 00:40:31,763 --> 00:40:33,504 Sarah: That's amazing. 778 00:40:33,598 --> 00:40:35,173 So she came down to share with us and give you hope. 779 00:40:35,267 --> 00:40:37,492 And she's a superstar, and you can connect 780 00:40:37,585 --> 00:40:38,435 With her while you're here. 781 00:40:42,256 --> 00:40:44,107 [inaudible] 782 00:40:44,334 --> 00:40:45,925 Kimberly beatty: At kemah palm recovery, 783 00:40:45,944 --> 00:40:50,171 We do recognize it as a family illness, and so every client 784 00:40:50,190 --> 00:40:52,431 Here has individual family therapy. 785 00:40:52,525 --> 00:40:54,099 Thank you so much. 786 00:40:54,119 --> 00:40:55,935 Kimberly beatty: It's about educating, understanding 787 00:40:55,954 --> 00:40:57,862 What support looks like, and so we 788 00:40:58,014 --> 00:41:00,457 Will involve sarah and her family 789 00:41:00,684 --> 00:41:02,125 As part of her ongoing treatment. 790 00:41:02,276 --> 00:41:03,943 Joshua (on facetime): I really miss you 791 00:41:03,962 --> 00:41:08,614 And I'm really happy that you're doing the treatment. 792 00:41:08,633 --> 00:41:10,800 So I love you. 793 00:41:11,027 --> 00:41:13,361 Bye. 794 00:41:13,454 --> 00:41:16,364 My son deserves a healthy and present mom. 795 00:41:16,457 --> 00:41:18,216 And I know, in order to be that, I 796 00:41:18,310 --> 00:41:20,810 Have to just give this my all. 797 00:41:20,962 --> 00:41:24,205 So hopefully this is the last time 798 00:41:24,224 --> 00:41:26,040 That he has to go through that. 799 00:41:26,059 --> 00:41:29,611 [music playing]