1 00:00:21,188 --> 00:00:22,678 In the 20th century, 2 00:00:23,148 --> 00:00:25,981 if you wanted to know your neighbors, you move to the suburbs. 3 00:00:26,527 --> 00:00:29,895 If you wanted to become an addict, you move to New York. 4 00:00:30,989 --> 00:00:34,607 Now, everything's upside down, the junkies are in the burbs. 5 00:00:34,910 --> 00:00:37,868 And the building next door is a fucking kickball league. 6 00:00:38,664 --> 00:00:41,702 It was an' against commerce and commerce won. 7 00:00:42,626 --> 00:00:45,618 The kids think the only place to find art is in the gallery. 8 00:00:45,796 --> 00:00:49,755 And the only place to find romance is to confessing your love in the rain. 9 00:00:50,217 --> 00:00:51,378 Like in the movies. 10 00:00:51,843 --> 00:00:56,087 But it's messier than that. There's always mess. 11 00:00:57,349 --> 00:01:00,592 It's safe here now, but there's still urban decay. 12 00:01:01,144 --> 00:01:05,229 It's just, migrated to the dinner parties of the upper Westside. 13 00:01:06,191 --> 00:01:09,104 The best lack all conviction while the worst 14 00:01:09,236 --> 00:01:11,603 are filled with passionate intensity. 15 00:01:12,364 --> 00:01:17,279 Yeats said that but so did Lou Reed Quoting him live at the Bottom Line. 16 00:01:18,662 --> 00:01:22,200 Lou Reed's gone and so is the Bottom Line. 17 00:01:22,666 --> 00:01:27,285 It's probably a Soul Cycle, only soul the city has left. 18 00:01:28,880 --> 00:01:32,839 Everyone's pretending it's all okay. But that's a lie. 19 00:01:33,635 --> 00:01:35,626 Something's missing and we all feel it. 20 00:01:36,555 --> 00:01:40,594 Including Thomas Webb, he thought he had the answer. 21 00:01:41,351 --> 00:01:42,933 And her name was Mimi. 22 00:01:45,105 --> 00:01:48,894 Nineteen seventy-six. The city was dirty, crime-ridden, and broke. 23 00:01:50,360 --> 00:01:52,067 It was the center of the creative universe. 24 00:01:53,196 --> 00:01:54,402 New York's lost its soul. 25 00:01:55,073 --> 00:01:57,189 Most favorite neighborhood at the moment is Philadelphia. 26 00:02:00,912 --> 00:02:02,198 - I like that. - Yeah? 27 00:02:02,331 --> 00:02:05,449 - Yeah, where'd you lift that from? - I didn't, it's mine. 28 00:02:06,543 --> 00:02:07,578 Well, it's good. 29 00:02:08,837 --> 00:02:10,828 So, will you come with me tonight? 30 00:02:11,965 --> 00:02:15,333 No, your mum's last dinner party made me feel invisible. 31 00:02:15,469 --> 00:02:17,756 I know, but, we're invisible together. 32 00:02:18,180 --> 00:02:21,389 - If you don't like it, then you don't go. - I have to go. 33 00:02:21,558 --> 00:02:23,674 My mother's unstable, throwing dinner parties 34 00:02:23,769 --> 00:02:26,602 - is how she medicates. - Yeah, what about the lithium and Xanax? 35 00:02:26,938 --> 00:02:29,726 Not to mention, the nicotine and Shiraz. 36 00:02:30,692 --> 00:02:31,682 Semantics. 37 00:02:35,280 --> 00:02:37,487 - I have to tell you something. - Yeah? 38 00:02:37,783 --> 00:02:40,275 Yeah, I... 39 00:02:41,370 --> 00:02:46,115 - Might be going to Zagreb. - Where? 40 00:02:46,750 --> 00:02:48,741 Zagreb, it's in Croatia. 41 00:02:50,045 --> 00:02:52,252 So, Helmut Graph, he runs a workshop there. 42 00:02:52,798 --> 00:02:55,586 And I found out that I can transfer my credits to NYU. 43 00:02:56,885 --> 00:03:02,551 That's... That's... terrible. 44 00:03:04,685 --> 00:03:05,675 Why? 45 00:03:07,145 --> 00:03:08,260 No, why is that terrible? 46 00:03:08,563 --> 00:03:10,520 Because you're the only thing in my life I'm settled on. 47 00:03:11,108 --> 00:03:12,564 Thomas, what do you think is happening? 48 00:03:13,276 --> 00:03:15,483 Between me and you, what do you think this is? 49 00:03:15,612 --> 00:03:19,901 - August 8th, I think August 8th was real. - It was amazing. 50 00:03:21,034 --> 00:03:22,195 But it was just one night. 51 00:03:23,286 --> 00:03:26,824 I mean Nick was playing L.A., I was vulnerable. 52 00:03:27,416 --> 00:03:31,330 We were both on molly, I thought I was a pirate. 53 00:03:35,382 --> 00:03:36,463 It was just one night. 54 00:03:38,719 --> 00:03:39,800 Well, I'm crazy about you. 55 00:03:40,804 --> 00:03:43,592 - And I'm crazy about you but... - But, don't say as friends. 56 00:03:43,724 --> 00:03:47,058 - Why? Why is that so bad? - Because pretty girls like to recruit 57 00:03:47,144 --> 00:03:48,634 their rejections and call them friends. 58 00:03:51,857 --> 00:03:52,938 Wow. 59 00:04:18,175 --> 00:04:21,668 For Mimi, Thomas was like the new New York. 60 00:04:22,679 --> 00:04:25,011 No danger, no deliverance. 61 00:04:25,849 --> 00:04:29,433 It made him nurturing and too boring to fall in love with. 62 00:04:30,437 --> 00:04:33,145 Mimi felt Thomas was a boy without mystery. 63 00:04:34,316 --> 00:04:35,647 Thomas agreed. 64 00:04:36,276 --> 00:04:38,438 But all that was about to change. 65 00:05:02,803 --> 00:05:07,388 - Anything worth opening? - Just bills and junk. 66 00:05:10,644 --> 00:05:16,560 W.F., W.F. Gerald I just moved into 2B. 67 00:05:17,818 --> 00:05:18,853 Thomas Webb. 68 00:05:20,821 --> 00:05:23,233 - Why so troubled, Thomas? - Excuse me. 69 00:05:24,157 --> 00:05:26,148 I know that color of stress. 70 00:05:26,535 --> 00:05:31,325 It's much brighter than job issues, more subdued than possible disease. 71 00:05:33,458 --> 00:05:36,120 - Sorry, I'm being rude. - No, I mean... 72 00:05:38,296 --> 00:05:39,331 I'm having a bad day. 73 00:05:41,341 --> 00:05:42,376 What's her name? 74 00:05:46,137 --> 00:05:48,799 - It's Mimi. - Mimi. 75 00:05:49,391 --> 00:05:53,055 Derived from Wilhelmina, It means resolute protector. 76 00:05:55,438 --> 00:05:56,428 There you go. 77 00:05:57,816 --> 00:06:01,605 What a... what is it you like about this Mimi? 78 00:06:03,071 --> 00:06:04,152 You're a psychiatrist? 79 00:06:05,031 --> 00:06:07,318 - No. - You ask psychiatrist questions. 80 00:06:07,826 --> 00:06:08,941 Maybe I can help. 81 00:06:09,411 --> 00:06:12,449 Maybe I can help you to get Mimi to sleep with you. 82 00:06:15,125 --> 00:06:16,581 How do you know, she hasn't already? 83 00:06:30,432 --> 00:06:31,718 It was nice meeting you. 84 00:06:34,227 --> 00:06:37,219 Well, why don't you let a new neighbor help you out? 85 00:06:40,901 --> 00:06:42,357 What do you like about Mimi? 86 00:06:46,740 --> 00:06:48,322 I'm in 2B. 87 00:07:22,817 --> 00:07:24,023 Where'd you meet her? 88 00:07:24,653 --> 00:07:27,771 There's this book store called The Pale Fire. 89 00:07:28,782 --> 00:07:32,446 - It's named after John Shade... - John Shade's 999 line poem. 90 00:07:33,078 --> 00:07:34,159 Nabokov. 91 00:07:35,121 --> 00:07:36,156 Right, well. 92 00:07:37,082 --> 00:07:38,572 They sold rare, vintage books in there. 93 00:07:38,708 --> 00:07:40,619 And I'm into that. Just reading off the beaten back and... 94 00:07:41,294 --> 00:07:44,252 Mimi works there, she gave me the greatest recommendations. 95 00:07:45,382 --> 00:07:46,417 You know. 96 00:07:46,841 --> 00:07:49,082 She's putting herself through NYU's writing program. 97 00:07:49,344 --> 00:07:52,052 - She reads a book a week. - She's polishing her brain. 98 00:07:54,265 --> 00:07:55,346 Beautiful? 99 00:07:57,060 --> 00:07:58,141 Incredibly beautiful. 100 00:07:59,813 --> 00:08:01,770 Like she's direct from God, you know. 101 00:08:02,232 --> 00:08:04,143 On second generation, if that makes sense. 102 00:08:04,401 --> 00:08:05,732 Don't believe sense. 103 00:08:06,653 --> 00:08:07,859 You know we get each other. 104 00:08:10,281 --> 00:08:11,646 Problem, was... 105 00:08:13,535 --> 00:08:16,243 ls, that she has this boyfriend. 106 00:08:17,414 --> 00:08:18,904 Nick, he's in that... 107 00:08:19,582 --> 00:08:21,448 band, Fahrenheit 185. 108 00:08:21,543 --> 00:08:24,080 The exact temperature it takes to cook heroin. 109 00:08:26,589 --> 00:08:27,670 Properly. 110 00:08:32,429 --> 00:08:33,760 Let's see what we got. 111 00:08:40,562 --> 00:08:41,848 Here we go. 112 00:08:44,232 --> 00:08:46,690 Anyways, so, Nick goes on tour. 113 00:08:47,652 --> 00:08:50,144 Mimi's now available and we're hanging out more. 114 00:08:51,656 --> 00:08:52,862 We end up spending... 115 00:08:54,034 --> 00:08:55,274 a magical night together. 116 00:08:56,453 --> 00:08:59,445 August 8th, and then... 117 00:09:01,583 --> 00:09:04,291 Nothing. All goes platonic. 118 00:09:06,087 --> 00:09:07,327 How old is Mimi? 119 00:09:07,672 --> 00:09:09,913 She's, 22. She just turned 22. 120 00:09:10,592 --> 00:09:11,753 She's young. Well... 121 00:09:12,802 --> 00:09:17,467 she's at an age, where defense mechanisms are very strong. 122 00:09:17,766 --> 00:09:20,804 Despite her outer veneer, she's ruled by fear. 123 00:09:21,519 --> 00:09:25,683 Like so many of us at that time. I know... what you need to do. 124 00:09:26,941 --> 00:09:31,481 Just make her afraid of something more than being with you, in that way. 125 00:09:32,655 --> 00:09:33,645 Which is? 126 00:09:36,326 --> 00:09:37,441 Not being with you. 127 00:09:39,746 --> 00:09:40,781 But how? 128 00:09:41,581 --> 00:09:42,742 How I am supposed to do that? 129 00:09:44,334 --> 00:09:46,291 Let life take over, 130 00:09:48,797 --> 00:09:51,209 find a window and pounce. 131 00:09:54,302 --> 00:09:57,135 That's it? That's you sage-ably advice? 132 00:09:58,932 --> 00:10:00,843 - Can I have my money back, please? - Thomas. 133 00:10:01,392 --> 00:10:03,554 - Is it Thomas or Tom? - It's Thomas. 134 00:10:03,978 --> 00:10:05,889 - Not Tommy? - No, never. 135 00:10:06,397 --> 00:10:09,480 Thomas, you're not giving life enough credit. 136 00:10:09,609 --> 00:10:11,771 The unpredictable forces of humanity... 137 00:10:12,153 --> 00:10:15,942 My life is not unpredictable, my life is conventional my life is boring. 138 00:10:16,366 --> 00:10:19,529 No, it's as random as it is deliberate. 139 00:10:22,413 --> 00:10:24,074 It's funny as it is tragic. 140 00:10:26,334 --> 00:10:28,951 Yours is no exception. I gotta piss. 141 00:10:36,553 --> 00:10:38,965 Dinner parties were Judith's safety blanket. 142 00:10:39,055 --> 00:10:42,138 A table full of artists took her mind of her herself. 143 00:10:42,433 --> 00:10:46,768 The swirl of distractions, seating plans, gossip, food, 144 00:10:47,063 --> 00:10:48,929 anything to keep away the dread. 145 00:10:49,858 --> 00:10:52,725 They were the perfect antidote to her childhood dinners. 146 00:10:53,111 --> 00:10:55,398 The silences, the drunken outbursts. 147 00:10:55,864 --> 00:10:59,107 Artists came to New York from all over, and she always took them in. 148 00:10:59,325 --> 00:11:02,693 Clinging to the illusion of an open happy family. 149 00:11:03,079 --> 00:11:05,696 Do you miss getting mugged on Central Park West... 150 00:11:05,790 --> 00:11:08,407 - Exactly, exactly. - No, but I do miss, 151 00:11:08,751 --> 00:11:11,869 the second avenue deli, I miss the Lenox Lounge. 152 00:11:12,005 --> 00:11:15,248 I mean do you know, what are in those iconic places now. 153 00:11:15,550 --> 00:11:17,541 Urban Outfitters, a Starbucks. 154 00:11:17,719 --> 00:11:20,461 There's a John Varvatos where CBGB's use to be. 155 00:11:21,139 --> 00:11:22,925 - New York's lost its soul. - Exactly! 156 00:11:24,475 --> 00:11:25,556 What was that Thomas? 157 00:11:26,978 --> 00:11:30,767 Well, I was just agreeing with David that New York has lost its soul. 158 00:11:31,316 --> 00:11:34,775 Since he returned from 3 months in Peru, he's decided to hate where he's from. 159 00:11:34,903 --> 00:11:35,938 No, it's true. 160 00:11:36,279 --> 00:11:38,896 New York's most vibrant neighborhood at the moment is Philadelphia. 161 00:11:42,285 --> 00:11:43,696 That's very funny, Thomas. 162 00:11:44,495 --> 00:11:47,283 So, Ethan. I heard you've commissioned Nick Bilton 163 00:11:47,415 --> 00:11:49,031 to write the biography on Evan Dereif. 164 00:11:49,250 --> 00:11:53,164 Our mandate, it came to us very simple. Bios on any haircut under 40, 165 00:11:53,296 --> 00:11:55,458 as long as they're still within their fifteen minutes. 166 00:11:55,882 --> 00:11:57,543 Self-help, political rants. 167 00:11:58,009 --> 00:12:00,626 - Nobody reads fiction anymore. - Anyone's a writer... 168 00:12:01,346 --> 00:12:03,758 - so cynical, Ethan Webb. - I know... 169 00:12:04,140 --> 00:12:05,972 If I were a writer, 170 00:12:06,059 --> 00:12:08,767 we'd be having this conversation in a two bedroom in Bushwick. 171 00:12:09,062 --> 00:12:10,848 Bushwick is expensive now. 172 00:12:11,856 --> 00:12:14,814 I'm serious, I'm really serious, I mean, most novelists these days, 173 00:12:15,568 --> 00:12:17,559 they don't own enough money to support themselves. 174 00:12:17,820 --> 00:12:19,356 No matter how talented they are. 175 00:12:19,656 --> 00:12:22,318 That's why if Thomas came to me with a desire to be writer. 176 00:12:24,744 --> 00:12:25,779 I'd talk him out of it. 177 00:12:27,747 --> 00:12:30,114 So, you're still tutoring, right? 178 00:12:31,084 --> 00:12:32,666 Yeah, just for some extra cash. 179 00:12:32,835 --> 00:12:34,792 - He could be a Spanish teacher. - Yes, he actually could. 180 00:12:35,004 --> 00:12:37,962 - I don't know if I could be a Spanish... - If you went back to collage for a year. 181 00:12:38,216 --> 00:12:39,877 For some reason he refuses to do it. 182 00:12:40,260 --> 00:12:42,422 He lives on the lower east side without any direction. 183 00:12:43,346 --> 00:12:45,087 Only thing missing is an opium habit. 184 00:12:45,974 --> 00:12:47,885 What about doing a smartphone application? 185 00:13:29,058 --> 00:13:30,890 This man moved in across the hall from me. 186 00:13:31,144 --> 00:13:32,930 I don't what he does, or who he is but, 187 00:13:33,813 --> 00:13:35,178 Seems familiar to me. 188 00:13:35,606 --> 00:13:36,641 He's my new friend. 189 00:13:36,941 --> 00:13:38,022 Yeah. 190 00:13:38,860 --> 00:13:41,727 - He asked about you. - Me? He knows me. 191 00:13:49,787 --> 00:13:50,902 What's my father doing here? 192 00:13:55,585 --> 00:13:56,700 Who's he with? 193 00:13:58,588 --> 00:13:59,703 I don't know. 194 00:14:01,716 --> 00:14:02,831 She's beautiful. 195 00:14:32,830 --> 00:14:34,992 Do you have any idea what this is gonna do to my mother? 196 00:14:37,627 --> 00:14:40,210 This doesn't mean your father loves you any less. 197 00:14:43,841 --> 00:14:45,457 I'm sorry, that was bad enough. 198 00:14:46,386 --> 00:14:49,048 I know like dispensing therapy from an after-school specialist... 199 00:14:49,180 --> 00:14:51,467 He doesn't care about me to begin with I know that. 200 00:14:53,059 --> 00:14:56,222 This... this is about my mother. 201 00:14:57,063 --> 00:14:59,100 Yeah, but, it's their problem. 202 00:14:59,440 --> 00:15:01,181 - You have your own problems. - Like what? 203 00:15:02,276 --> 00:15:05,439 Actually don't, don't answer that. Not now. 204 00:15:08,032 --> 00:15:11,024 Thomas, look at me. 205 00:15:12,662 --> 00:15:14,653 Look, your parents, 206 00:15:15,456 --> 00:15:16,491 their world, 207 00:15:17,250 --> 00:15:18,866 is nothing like ours. 208 00:15:21,712 --> 00:15:23,623 I mean maybe it's their generation or... 209 00:15:25,758 --> 00:15:27,294 I don't know this island. 210 00:15:30,304 --> 00:15:31,419 But you're kind. 211 00:15:32,849 --> 00:15:34,135 And you're real. 212 00:15:50,283 --> 00:15:51,398 Don't do that. 213 00:15:59,876 --> 00:16:02,368 Mimi, look, you're young, 214 00:16:03,129 --> 00:16:05,791 and your defense mechanism is strong, but I think that you want this. 215 00:16:07,133 --> 00:16:10,967 - I think that you're confused right now. - No Mimi, I'm angry right now. 216 00:16:12,180 --> 00:16:13,170 I'm angry. 217 00:16:14,640 --> 00:16:16,847 Did you see that woman? Did you see how beautiful she was? 218 00:16:18,478 --> 00:16:19,889 I could never get a woman like that. 219 00:16:20,646 --> 00:16:25,231 My father with his publishing house, his good looks, and it's cheating... 220 00:16:26,152 --> 00:16:27,187 fucking hair. 221 00:16:27,737 --> 00:16:29,068 So what, you're gonna use 222 00:16:30,156 --> 00:16:33,490 your father's affairs as a confirmation of your own inadequacies? 223 00:16:36,704 --> 00:16:37,785 No, I mean. 224 00:16:40,416 --> 00:16:41,497 I have you for that. 225 00:16:45,421 --> 00:16:47,412 So, you call my office, 226 00:16:47,798 --> 00:16:50,130 you say you wanna have lunch, you never wanna have lunch. 227 00:16:51,344 --> 00:16:52,834 I figured you had a big surprise. 228 00:16:53,304 --> 00:16:55,215 - Maybe you figured out your life. - No. 229 00:16:55,765 --> 00:16:57,130 Definitely haven't figured out my life. 230 00:16:58,476 --> 00:17:00,467 - I wanted to speak to you about... - Ethan. 231 00:17:00,728 --> 00:17:02,560 - Good to see you. - Of course anytime. 232 00:17:02,730 --> 00:17:04,641 - I actually enjoyed the show. - It was good, wasn't it? 233 00:17:04,732 --> 00:17:06,314 - It was great. - Great, say hi to Judith. 234 00:17:06,484 --> 00:17:07,974 I will indeed. 235 00:17:10,154 --> 00:17:12,020 I want you to move from the lower east side. 236 00:17:13,115 --> 00:17:16,824 Why do you insist on living in the farthest corner of Manhattan away from us? 237 00:17:17,245 --> 00:17:18,326 I think it's intentional. 238 00:17:19,455 --> 00:17:22,072 I think it's almost hurtful. 239 00:17:24,043 --> 00:17:25,033 Look. 240 00:17:26,337 --> 00:17:29,125 I'm not asking for me, I'm asking for your mother. 241 00:17:30,591 --> 00:17:31,877 She wants you closer to home. 242 00:17:33,261 --> 00:17:34,296 How is mom? 243 00:17:36,013 --> 00:17:37,003 Better. 244 00:17:38,891 --> 00:17:39,881 I guess. 245 00:17:43,229 --> 00:17:45,345 - Can't get her to quit smoking. - She is fragile. 246 00:17:46,232 --> 00:17:49,395 Anything, even the smallest thing could, create another, 247 00:17:50,570 --> 00:17:51,605 incident. 248 00:17:59,161 --> 00:18:00,492 I'll pay the difference in rent. 249 00:18:05,960 --> 00:18:07,075 Will you think about it? 250 00:18:07,962 --> 00:18:09,498 - Dad. - Also, I setup an appointment 251 00:18:09,630 --> 00:18:12,748 with a career counselor for you. My office will email you the info. 252 00:18:13,009 --> 00:18:15,467 Dad, I know you, I know... 253 00:18:15,970 --> 00:18:17,426 You know I'm what, Thomas? 254 00:18:20,349 --> 00:18:21,464 I know you're just trying to help. 255 00:18:22,643 --> 00:18:23,849 Don't blow it up, okay? 256 00:18:24,312 --> 00:18:26,223 I had to call in a favor for her to see you, 257 00:18:26,355 --> 00:18:27,470 she actually has a waiting list. 258 00:18:30,484 --> 00:18:34,569 - Are you gonna confront your father? - No, trouble talking to him. 259 00:18:35,573 --> 00:18:36,563 Why? 260 00:18:37,617 --> 00:18:38,948 I don't think, he likes me that much. 261 00:18:41,162 --> 00:18:42,197 What the... 262 00:18:44,248 --> 00:18:46,285 What exactly is wrong with your mother? 263 00:18:48,002 --> 00:18:50,334 I don't know, she's depressed. Bipolar. 264 00:18:50,880 --> 00:18:52,291 She's depressive bipolar. 265 00:18:54,050 --> 00:18:55,836 She came from a broken home, so. 266 00:18:57,219 --> 00:18:59,335 Whenever anything threatens our perfect family, 267 00:18:59,472 --> 00:19:01,338 she, completely unravels. 268 00:19:04,852 --> 00:19:06,889 Can't tell her, she'd be destroyed. 269 00:19:09,982 --> 00:19:11,222 Why don't you furnished this place? 270 00:19:12,360 --> 00:19:13,771 I live in Brooklyn. 271 00:19:16,989 --> 00:19:19,105 - You have two apartments? - I'm rich. 272 00:19:20,159 --> 00:19:21,445 I'm a fucking duke. 273 00:19:30,419 --> 00:19:33,377 Maybe he's, been faithful all these years. 274 00:19:34,423 --> 00:19:36,664 Maybe she came on to him, I've seen her, she's irresistible. 275 00:19:36,842 --> 00:19:38,128 - I mean... - Alright, stop. 276 00:19:41,055 --> 00:19:43,888 - What do you want? - Well, my father stop seeing this woman. 277 00:19:44,183 --> 00:19:46,015 No, no, no, in life? 278 00:19:47,687 --> 00:19:48,802 You know, in your life. 279 00:19:51,190 --> 00:19:53,477 You want more money? You want more respect? 280 00:19:56,404 --> 00:19:57,735 What is that you want? 281 00:19:59,782 --> 00:20:02,319 Think about it, really think about it. 282 00:20:04,829 --> 00:20:06,866 - I wanna be better. - Better? 283 00:20:08,332 --> 00:20:09,322 In what? 284 00:20:16,006 --> 00:20:16,996 I don't know. 285 00:20:19,427 --> 00:20:23,261 In the 80's, Ethan was intoxicated by literary New York. 286 00:20:23,931 --> 00:20:27,925 But when he accepted that he lacked the talent to create a fictional family, 287 00:20:28,018 --> 00:20:30,680 he thought, at least he could create a real one. 288 00:20:31,063 --> 00:20:32,804 Young Thomas loved to write. 289 00:20:33,149 --> 00:20:34,514 Ethan ignored this. 290 00:20:35,067 --> 00:20:39,061 Wary of nurturing a life of rejections and evictions. 291 00:20:39,363 --> 00:20:41,946 And Thomas learned to keep his stories to himself. 292 00:20:42,783 --> 00:20:45,320 The intensity of Judith's bond with her son, 293 00:20:45,411 --> 00:20:48,324 left Ethan feeling like a stranger in his own home. 294 00:20:49,623 --> 00:20:54,038 He sought refuge in work, until publishing began its slow decline. 295 00:20:55,087 --> 00:20:57,419 Then came Johanna. 296 00:20:58,799 --> 00:21:00,961 You know, private detectives get paid by the hour. 297 00:21:02,011 --> 00:21:03,467 To just, just wait. 298 00:21:04,263 --> 00:21:07,255 To do exactly what we're doing right now. What is the difficulty in a stakeout? 299 00:21:11,479 --> 00:21:12,514 I really gotta go to class. 300 00:21:12,772 --> 00:21:14,809 No, just wait, all right? He's gonna be out in a minute. 301 00:21:16,984 --> 00:21:18,600 I have to see if he's gonna meet her again. 302 00:21:19,487 --> 00:21:20,568 Please. 303 00:21:21,489 --> 00:21:22,524 Just wait. 304 00:21:25,117 --> 00:21:26,198 Okay. 305 00:21:31,332 --> 00:21:32,367 My God, that's her. 306 00:21:33,417 --> 00:21:34,452 The other woman. 307 00:21:36,754 --> 00:21:37,835 I'll call you later. 308 00:21:37,963 --> 00:21:40,204 - Wait, aren't we waiting for your dad. - I'll call you later. 309 00:23:23,319 --> 00:23:26,778 What is it exactly that you wanna accomplish? 310 00:23:28,282 --> 00:23:29,397 I wanna meet her. 311 00:23:30,284 --> 00:23:31,774 I wanna tell her to stop seeing my father. 312 00:23:32,870 --> 00:23:35,362 - She could kill my mother. - So, do it. 313 00:23:38,417 --> 00:23:39,703 I haven't built up the courage yet. 314 00:23:42,880 --> 00:23:45,872 - So you stalk her. - I shouldn't be dealing with this at all. 315 00:23:46,967 --> 00:23:48,378 I should be on a beach, 316 00:23:49,428 --> 00:23:50,418 With Mimi. 317 00:23:51,972 --> 00:23:53,087 Naked. 318 00:23:54,934 --> 00:23:55,924 In Croatia. 319 00:23:58,395 --> 00:23:59,681 We should be together, together. 320 00:23:59,980 --> 00:24:01,596 Should is a dangerous word. 321 00:24:01,732 --> 00:24:03,188 I'm serious, man. 322 00:24:03,817 --> 00:24:05,728 If it wasn't for my mother, I wouldn't be here. 323 00:24:08,906 --> 00:24:09,987 I don't buy it. 324 00:24:12,284 --> 00:24:13,399 You don't buy what? 325 00:24:15,037 --> 00:24:17,825 I don't buy that this is just about your mother's health. 326 00:24:19,583 --> 00:24:20,994 You have something more here. 327 00:24:22,503 --> 00:24:23,493 Something more what? 328 00:24:25,214 --> 00:24:26,295 Provocative. 329 00:24:39,520 --> 00:24:40,510 Excuse me. 330 00:24:41,188 --> 00:24:42,724 - Excuse me. - Yes. 331 00:24:44,108 --> 00:24:45,974 - You don't know who I am. - Yes, I do. 332 00:24:47,736 --> 00:24:49,898 - You do? - You're the boy who follows me. 333 00:24:50,364 --> 00:24:52,776 - Yeah, well, I have a good reason. - You're also Ethan's son. 334 00:24:54,618 --> 00:24:56,359 He keeps a picture of you on his desk. 335 00:24:59,456 --> 00:25:00,491 Are you hungry, Thomas? 336 00:25:11,010 --> 00:25:12,921 Following someone in this city got to be very difficult. 337 00:25:14,763 --> 00:25:16,470 It's so easy to be anonymous here. 338 00:25:17,391 --> 00:25:19,098 Why didn't you say anything when I was following you? 339 00:25:19,852 --> 00:25:20,842 Why didn't you say anything? 340 00:25:21,186 --> 00:25:22,597 Because I didn't know what I was gonna do. 341 00:25:23,439 --> 00:25:24,554 - And do you now? - Yes. 342 00:25:26,442 --> 00:25:27,477 Is it good? 343 00:25:32,322 --> 00:25:34,108 - Johanna. - Johanna? 344 00:25:34,908 --> 00:25:36,819 - I'm Johanna. - Okay, Johanna. 345 00:25:37,369 --> 00:25:38,780 How long have you been fucking my father? 346 00:25:38,871 --> 00:25:40,703 Okay, is that kind of vulgarity entirely necessary? 347 00:25:40,956 --> 00:25:42,367 What kind of vulgarity would you prefer? 348 00:25:46,045 --> 00:25:47,251 A little bit over a year. 349 00:25:47,921 --> 00:25:49,628 Why are you even seeing him? He's married. 350 00:25:51,133 --> 00:25:52,214 He is married. 351 00:25:54,470 --> 00:25:56,211 - Do you work with him? - Sometimes. 352 00:25:56,972 --> 00:25:58,929 I'm a freelance editor, so, 353 00:25:59,600 --> 00:26:00,761 I work for all the houses. 354 00:26:03,353 --> 00:26:04,434 Do you love him? 355 00:26:07,232 --> 00:26:08,222 Define love, Thomas. 356 00:26:08,567 --> 00:26:10,183 Do you think you're gonna marry him? 357 00:26:10,652 --> 00:26:13,360 Is that the plan, you think you're gonna steal him away from my mother? 358 00:26:14,907 --> 00:26:16,864 How do you know your mother isn't giving him to me? 359 00:26:18,619 --> 00:26:21,862 - What's that supposed to mean? - I mean, people do things all the time 360 00:26:22,122 --> 00:26:23,112 without realizing. 361 00:26:23,874 --> 00:26:25,865 Your mother may be giving me Ethan without comprehending it. 362 00:26:28,545 --> 00:26:30,957 You're doing something right now, without realizing it. 363 00:26:32,382 --> 00:26:33,497 Yeah, what I'm doing? 364 00:26:34,843 --> 00:26:37,210 - You're trying to make love to me. - I'm trying to make love to... 365 00:26:39,014 --> 00:26:40,220 I'm trying to make love to you? 366 00:26:42,768 --> 00:26:43,883 You just don't realize it. 367 00:26:47,481 --> 00:26:51,600 Andy Warhol was a close personal friend and he gave us that piece as a gift. 368 00:26:52,486 --> 00:26:54,898 And now this God damn committee. 369 00:26:55,155 --> 00:26:57,738 - Is going to take all that away. - Mom, it doesn't really matter. 370 00:26:57,908 --> 00:27:00,900 These people, these nonentities in Chelsea their trying to steal my past, 371 00:27:00,994 --> 00:27:02,780 - they're trying to erase my memories. - Mom! 372 00:27:04,873 --> 00:27:05,988 We're gonna find the photo. 373 00:27:09,086 --> 00:27:10,167 Look at this mess. 374 00:27:12,631 --> 00:27:13,621 I need a cigarette. 375 00:27:15,759 --> 00:27:17,796 But your father has declared 376 00:27:17,886 --> 00:27:19,923 I'm no longer allowed to smoke in the house, so... 377 00:27:20,722 --> 00:27:22,679 I'll stay here and keep searching. 378 00:27:26,687 --> 00:27:29,224 Thomas, I wanna smoke and talk to you at the same time. 379 00:27:30,816 --> 00:27:32,181 - It makes the cigarette better. - Okay. 380 00:27:33,443 --> 00:27:34,433 Thank you. 381 00:27:37,781 --> 00:27:41,991 It's just this perpetual cycle of expectations and disappointments. 382 00:27:44,997 --> 00:27:48,080 You know, the farthest distance in the world, 383 00:27:49,209 --> 00:27:52,497 is between how it is and how you thought it was gonna be. 384 00:27:54,006 --> 00:27:54,996 Don't forget that. 385 00:27:56,842 --> 00:27:57,832 I won't. 386 00:28:01,430 --> 00:28:02,795 You're my light, Thomas. 387 00:28:04,349 --> 00:28:05,339 You know. 388 00:28:06,810 --> 00:28:08,141 I don't know what I'd do without you. 389 00:28:12,983 --> 00:28:14,439 It's this Klonopin. 390 00:28:15,027 --> 00:28:17,109 - It makes me so fucking emotional. - You're fine. 391 00:28:25,037 --> 00:28:26,368 Why don't you stop seeing my father? 392 00:28:26,872 --> 00:28:28,112 Hello, Thomas. 393 00:28:28,207 --> 00:28:30,915 You're a very beautiful woman, you can get any man you want in this city. 394 00:28:31,710 --> 00:28:32,825 Can I get you? 395 00:28:34,046 --> 00:28:35,036 What? 396 00:28:35,631 --> 00:28:38,123 You said I can get any man in this city, so I'm asking. 397 00:28:38,884 --> 00:28:39,919 Can I get you? 398 00:28:41,011 --> 00:28:42,547 Which actually begs another question really. 399 00:28:43,555 --> 00:28:44,716 Are you a man? 400 00:28:45,432 --> 00:28:46,843 My mother's in a fragile state. 401 00:28:47,392 --> 00:28:49,633 - This affair could put her over the top. - How am I responsible for your mother... 402 00:28:49,770 --> 00:28:52,478 - Because you're fucking my father. - crudeness doesn't make one a man. 403 00:28:52,606 --> 00:28:54,563 - Stop seeing him. - Nor do demands. 404 00:28:54,858 --> 00:28:55,973 I'm not trying to be a man. 405 00:28:56,360 --> 00:28:58,601 I'm not trying to make love to you, I'm trying to save my mother. 406 00:29:00,280 --> 00:29:01,315 You're getting closer. 407 00:29:10,207 --> 00:29:12,323 Johanna wasn't raised by writers. 408 00:29:12,626 --> 00:29:14,242 She was raised by bankers. 409 00:29:15,504 --> 00:29:18,041 But the lingua franca both is fiction. 410 00:29:19,007 --> 00:29:21,624 When Ethan floated the idea of leaving his wife, 411 00:29:21,760 --> 00:29:23,296 she assumed it was just talk. 412 00:29:24,721 --> 00:29:28,589 But to her surprise, his suggestion unbalanced her. 413 00:29:30,602 --> 00:29:34,345 Instead of feeling flattered she felt suddenly, needy. 414 00:29:35,148 --> 00:29:39,733 Thomas's attention was the perfect remedy to her rattled confidence. 415 00:29:40,070 --> 00:29:42,357 The visions of Johanna. 416 00:29:43,865 --> 00:29:45,981 She's not like anyone I've ever met. 417 00:29:48,203 --> 00:29:49,819 She said I was trying to make love to her. 418 00:29:50,664 --> 00:29:51,904 Well, were you? 419 00:29:54,001 --> 00:29:55,583 No, I wanted her to stop seeing my father. 420 00:29:57,963 --> 00:29:59,954 Isn't that between you and your father. 421 00:30:00,465 --> 00:30:02,797 Why would you wanna make contact with her? 422 00:30:04,428 --> 00:30:08,171 She's an outsider to what seems to me to be a family issue. 423 00:30:08,473 --> 00:30:09,508 Eat that. 424 00:30:12,978 --> 00:30:14,013 It's good. 425 00:30:15,188 --> 00:30:17,145 - What was it? - You don't wanna know. 426 00:30:18,191 --> 00:30:19,397 So what are you saying? 427 00:30:21,320 --> 00:30:24,187 - I like dealing with her? - That's precisely what I'm saying. 428 00:30:24,406 --> 00:30:25,737 And that I wanna make love to her? 429 00:30:26,366 --> 00:30:28,357 - Would you like to make love to her? - No! 430 00:30:31,371 --> 00:30:33,078 What kind of question is that? Sick! 431 00:30:33,790 --> 00:30:35,246 - How is that sick? - It's sick. 432 00:30:35,751 --> 00:30:36,991 She's a beautiful woman. 433 00:30:37,586 --> 00:30:39,372 - So? - Her name is Johanna. 434 00:30:39,546 --> 00:30:41,002 She's sleeping with my father. 435 00:30:42,632 --> 00:30:45,670 - Would you like to make love to Johanna? - Would you give me some credit, please? 436 00:30:46,303 --> 00:30:48,214 - This conversation's perverse. - Answer the question. 437 00:30:48,430 --> 00:30:49,420 Give me some credit. 438 00:30:49,556 --> 00:30:51,718 Stop drowning yourself in what you think is moral. 439 00:30:52,267 --> 00:30:53,757 Do you wanna fuck Johanna? 440 00:31:01,318 --> 00:31:02,308 Yes. 441 00:31:04,154 --> 00:31:06,612 - I would. - You said your life was boring. 442 00:31:33,392 --> 00:31:34,848 I couldn't have handled today without you. 443 00:31:35,227 --> 00:31:37,639 You know, I got hit on three times coming from the bathroom. 444 00:31:37,896 --> 00:31:39,102 I'm pretty sure they're all married. 445 00:31:40,148 --> 00:31:41,604 It's a good thing my father isn't here. 446 00:31:41,733 --> 00:31:42,768 That's not funny. 447 00:31:43,068 --> 00:31:44,058 No. 448 00:31:44,403 --> 00:31:46,019 - The groom is coming. - It's my ninja. 449 00:31:46,530 --> 00:31:49,022 It's my motherfucking ninja. 450 00:31:49,199 --> 00:31:50,815 - Congratulation, man! - Thanks, man! 451 00:31:51,076 --> 00:31:52,191 This is Mimi. Howard. 452 00:31:52,327 --> 00:31:53,283 - Nice to meet you. - Congrats. 453 00:31:53,370 --> 00:31:55,577 Listen! I've been running through Riverside Park, every day. 454 00:31:55,831 --> 00:31:57,947 Nine miles, murdering sobriety. 455 00:31:58,208 --> 00:31:59,869 I've seen a lot your mother, lately actually. 456 00:32:00,794 --> 00:32:02,125 - My mother? - Yeah, yeah. I don't know, 457 00:32:02,254 --> 00:32:04,666 she's always on the same bench reading a book. 458 00:32:05,424 --> 00:32:06,710 It's Irwin, Irwin. 459 00:32:07,092 --> 00:32:09,675 You guys gotta meet Irwin Sanders, he's buying the Knicks. 460 00:32:09,970 --> 00:32:12,428 Howard, hoes does it feel being married? 461 00:32:12,556 --> 00:32:13,671 Sex already sucks. 462 00:32:14,599 --> 00:32:15,634 Kidding, kind of. 463 00:32:16,226 --> 00:32:19,059 Condé Nast, took me back actually, so... 464 00:32:19,229 --> 00:32:20,845 Maybe anyway, I can get an interview at some point. 465 00:32:20,981 --> 00:32:22,062 Maybe. 466 00:32:22,691 --> 00:32:25,649 Howard, this is my friend Johanna. 467 00:32:25,819 --> 00:32:27,651 - Hello, congratulations. - Thank you. 468 00:32:28,155 --> 00:32:29,190 This is Thomas. 469 00:32:29,781 --> 00:32:31,363 - Johanna. - Mimi. 470 00:32:31,575 --> 00:32:32,565 Hi. 471 00:32:43,211 --> 00:32:44,326 You're being really obvious. 472 00:33:02,731 --> 00:33:04,017 I'm not dating Irwin. 473 00:33:05,817 --> 00:33:06,807 It's none of your business. 474 00:33:07,235 --> 00:33:09,818 I don't have to explain myself to you, but none the less. 475 00:33:11,448 --> 00:33:12,609 He's a very good friend. 476 00:33:16,661 --> 00:33:18,117 - Where's your girlfriend? - She's not. 477 00:33:20,415 --> 00:33:21,450 She's just a friend. 478 00:33:22,751 --> 00:33:24,207 You shouldn't let her do that to you. 479 00:33:30,383 --> 00:33:33,125 He's 30 years older than you, he's a billionaire. 480 00:33:34,387 --> 00:33:36,845 - I'm not stupid. - You are quite stupid, Thomas. 481 00:33:38,099 --> 00:33:40,261 And you've got no idea how the world works. 482 00:33:41,895 --> 00:33:43,477 And actually he's not a billionaire anymore. 483 00:33:43,605 --> 00:33:45,642 - You cannot see the path of everything. - Doesn't really matter. 484 00:33:46,066 --> 00:33:47,181 No, it doesn't. 485 00:33:49,903 --> 00:33:50,893 You look nice. 486 00:33:52,906 --> 00:33:53,987 You look very nice. 487 00:33:54,741 --> 00:33:55,776 In a suit. 488 00:33:58,036 --> 00:33:59,276 I don't really think you're stupid. 489 00:34:00,121 --> 00:34:01,202 Just 490 00:34:01,790 --> 00:34:02,825 confused. 491 00:34:03,875 --> 00:34:04,910 Young. 492 00:34:07,712 --> 00:34:08,918 Irwin's probably looking for you. 493 00:34:10,340 --> 00:34:13,253 - I'm sure he paid for the whole night. - Fuck you, really. 494 00:34:19,683 --> 00:34:20,718 Hey. 495 00:34:21,309 --> 00:34:23,095 - So, first of all, hooker comments. - I know, I'm sorry. 496 00:34:23,353 --> 00:34:25,390 - You actually resorted to hooker comments? - I'm sorry. 497 00:34:25,855 --> 00:34:26,970 - I apologize. - Okay. 498 00:34:27,274 --> 00:34:29,561 Second of all, Irwin's gay. 499 00:34:30,110 --> 00:34:31,145 Okay, he loves men. 500 00:34:31,695 --> 00:34:33,231 In fact he loves one man in particular. 501 00:34:33,405 --> 00:34:35,772 A man named Billy Analdi, who happens to be an incredible art dealer 502 00:34:35,907 --> 00:34:37,272 and one of my closes friends. 503 00:34:38,159 --> 00:34:40,150 So, Irwin doesn't want to come out for business reasons, 504 00:34:40,287 --> 00:34:42,870 which is his prerogative, and I come to events like this with him. 505 00:34:43,373 --> 00:34:46,331 I'm not a glorified hooker, he's not a sugar daddy, I'm his beard. 506 00:34:47,252 --> 00:34:48,959 You really don't know how the world works. 507 00:34:49,462 --> 00:34:51,624 You're innocent, Thomas, you're a child. 508 00:34:53,842 --> 00:34:55,549 - I know somethings. - Yeah? 509 00:34:56,094 --> 00:34:57,129 Like what? 510 00:35:00,432 --> 00:35:01,467 How it went down. 511 00:35:03,226 --> 00:35:05,638 - You, my dad, I know. - Do you? 512 00:35:07,939 --> 00:35:12,399 Okay Thomas, Mr. Ace Sleuth, I wanna hear it. 513 00:35:16,656 --> 00:35:18,818 You noticed that he liked to come in early. 514 00:35:20,285 --> 00:35:22,117 Really early like, what? 515 00:35:22,954 --> 00:35:24,069 Seven in the morning? 516 00:35:24,873 --> 00:35:27,911 So, you started coming in then, too, isolate and contain. 517 00:35:28,627 --> 00:35:30,334 Told him it was because you don't sleep well, 518 00:35:30,670 --> 00:35:33,332 with the bad dreams, they shake you awake before daylight. 519 00:35:33,757 --> 00:35:35,623 In the mornings, you put on music in your office. 520 00:35:35,884 --> 00:35:37,716 Browns one day, Biggie Smalls the next, 521 00:35:37,886 --> 00:35:39,718 because, you know, you can't be put into a box. 522 00:35:39,888 --> 00:35:41,049 You attack all the senses. 523 00:35:41,973 --> 00:35:44,180 You went a little aggressive on your signature scent. 524 00:35:44,934 --> 00:35:46,049 Strong on the vanilla. 525 00:35:47,520 --> 00:35:49,431 You mention a boyfriend, then complain of a bad date, 526 00:35:49,648 --> 00:35:51,138 you confuse him, you make him wonder. 527 00:35:51,900 --> 00:35:53,061 The sex. 528 00:35:54,861 --> 00:35:56,852 The sex, the sex surprise you both. 529 00:35:58,156 --> 00:35:59,942 And he was just walking you home after dinner. 530 00:36:00,533 --> 00:36:03,525 Well, Jesus, you're not the other woman. He's not a cheating husband. 531 00:36:03,620 --> 00:36:06,328 No, this isn't something we did, this is something that happened to us. 532 00:36:07,082 --> 00:36:08,823 But what? Could it be love? 533 00:36:09,793 --> 00:36:12,205 No. Nobody wants to acknowledge that, so soon in the game, 534 00:36:12,295 --> 00:36:14,912 but stars are crossed and people are gonna get hurt, and, 535 00:36:15,757 --> 00:36:18,215 we've done a bad, bad thing, Ethan, so fuck, it must be right. 536 00:36:19,594 --> 00:36:22,552 And all of it was just bullshit, calculated and manipulated 537 00:36:22,847 --> 00:36:25,305 from that first lie about your bad dreams. 'Cause I'm... 538 00:36:26,601 --> 00:36:30,139 I'm pretty sure that you sleep like a baby. 539 00:36:35,402 --> 00:36:37,188 You are quite a story teller. 540 00:37:12,188 --> 00:37:14,646 - Where have you been? - Bathroom, drank too much. 541 00:37:19,195 --> 00:37:21,027 I have to interrupt now because, 542 00:37:22,407 --> 00:37:23,488 I have to go home. 543 00:37:26,786 --> 00:37:28,072 I'm Uncle Buster. 544 00:37:29,164 --> 00:37:30,370 Let's get out of here. 545 00:37:31,374 --> 00:37:34,457 - They haven't even cut the cake. - Fuck the cake. Let's go. 546 00:37:34,627 --> 00:37:35,617 What? 547 00:37:35,837 --> 00:37:36,827 - Why? - Come on. 548 00:37:36,963 --> 00:37:38,203 Walter's not here because. 549 00:37:38,631 --> 00:37:40,747 - You smell like vanilla. - He's doing two to five. 550 00:37:42,093 --> 00:37:43,128 It's no secret. 551 00:37:43,511 --> 00:37:45,297 'Cause, you all know, two to five, 552 00:37:45,680 --> 00:37:47,091 for doing the right thing. 553 00:37:47,599 --> 00:37:50,307 For believing in the poetry of the constitution. 554 00:37:55,273 --> 00:37:56,638 I have only a few thoughts. 555 00:37:58,318 --> 00:37:59,308 Drama. 556 00:38:01,237 --> 00:38:03,274 Dramatics of marital romance. 557 00:38:05,116 --> 00:38:06,197 Staying together. 558 00:38:08,912 --> 00:38:10,073 Like the gypsy... 559 00:38:10,747 --> 00:38:12,112 told me the poems, 560 00:38:12,749 --> 00:38:15,286 written in life lines are never guaranteed. 561 00:38:17,545 --> 00:38:18,910 They get busted up. 562 00:38:20,340 --> 00:38:22,126 Its moral begins new poetry. 563 00:38:24,010 --> 00:38:26,968 Another romance that will explode 564 00:38:27,222 --> 00:38:28,428 from time to time. 565 00:38:30,099 --> 00:38:32,261 Poetry of married people, like, 566 00:38:33,061 --> 00:38:34,722 the Aurora Borealis. 567 00:38:37,065 --> 00:38:40,183 Strewn like stars in the sky 568 00:38:40,902 --> 00:38:43,360 and the drama of your lives begins. 569 00:38:44,906 --> 00:38:46,522 Chapter after chapter. 570 00:38:48,034 --> 00:38:49,240 Stories. 571 00:38:49,577 --> 00:38:50,612 Books. 572 00:38:52,163 --> 00:38:53,198 Revolutions, 573 00:38:53,540 --> 00:38:55,122 as I know, will come. 574 00:38:56,417 --> 00:38:58,749 I've seen many, lived through them. 575 00:39:00,296 --> 00:39:03,630 They play in the least expected places. So get ready. 576 00:39:06,302 --> 00:39:08,509 Casey understands Howard. Howard, 577 00:39:09,222 --> 00:39:10,508 knows Casey. 578 00:39:11,391 --> 00:39:14,179 No. No, not yet. 579 00:39:15,645 --> 00:39:17,227 There's always mystery. 580 00:39:17,605 --> 00:39:18,845 You both know that. 581 00:39:19,232 --> 00:39:20,893 You both know it isn't perfect. 582 00:39:22,068 --> 00:39:23,149 Excitement. 583 00:39:23,611 --> 00:39:24,646 Trust. 584 00:39:25,280 --> 00:39:26,270 And struggle. 585 00:39:27,365 --> 00:39:30,073 And the unknown privacies. 586 00:39:30,952 --> 00:39:32,283 That keep us together. 587 00:39:33,204 --> 00:39:34,444 Glue of struggle. 588 00:39:37,375 --> 00:39:38,456 I raise my glass. 589 00:39:40,545 --> 00:39:43,162 Fragile glass who was stumped on and shattered. 590 00:39:44,424 --> 00:39:47,007 And we'll forever be putting back together. 591 00:39:48,052 --> 00:39:49,042 Like the puzzles, 592 00:39:49,387 --> 00:39:50,877 we first worked as children. 593 00:39:52,724 --> 00:39:53,930 Learning to be patient. 594 00:39:55,518 --> 00:39:56,849 Searching for what fits. 595 00:40:01,733 --> 00:40:02,768 So many puzzles. 596 00:40:05,403 --> 00:40:07,394 So many books in this room. 597 00:40:12,285 --> 00:40:13,366 I talk too much. 598 00:40:14,621 --> 00:40:15,782 Let's dance. 599 00:40:27,967 --> 00:40:30,459 So I have to, go to this career counselor. 600 00:40:31,054 --> 00:40:32,670 My father setup the appointment. 601 00:40:36,017 --> 00:40:38,429 Why don't you go into journalism? You were in the high school newspaper. 602 00:40:38,770 --> 00:40:40,101 It doesn't interest me anymore. 603 00:40:40,605 --> 00:40:43,017 And you won the advertising prize in college, you could do that. 604 00:40:43,816 --> 00:40:45,102 How do you this about me? 605 00:40:45,318 --> 00:40:46,900 - How do you know all this? - I know everything. 606 00:40:47,236 --> 00:40:48,226 Everything about you. 607 00:40:48,780 --> 00:40:50,737 Okay, yeah, but can we see? 608 00:40:50,907 --> 00:40:52,489 - President of the debate club. - Yeah. 609 00:40:52,617 --> 00:40:54,528 Arts editor of the high school newspaper. 610 00:40:54,827 --> 00:40:56,568 Second single on the tennis team. 611 00:40:56,871 --> 00:40:57,986 Very impressive, Thomas. 612 00:41:00,458 --> 00:41:02,415 Your father has all your awards on his desk. 613 00:41:03,628 --> 00:41:05,790 - So awful. - That's awkward. 614 00:41:06,714 --> 00:41:07,954 For the career counselor. 615 00:41:10,927 --> 00:41:12,338 Alright, here's something you don't know. 616 00:41:13,012 --> 00:41:14,093 And nobody knows. 617 00:41:14,681 --> 00:41:15,796 Okay. 618 00:41:18,935 --> 00:41:20,221 I wanted to write. 619 00:41:24,482 --> 00:41:26,268 I used to write all these things when I was younger. 620 00:41:27,193 --> 00:41:28,900 A bunch of letters from my dog to like 621 00:41:29,320 --> 00:41:30,355 the mail man. 622 00:41:31,155 --> 00:41:33,522 The vet. Eventually I... 623 00:41:34,617 --> 00:41:36,949 came up with a collection of essays called, 624 00:41:37,453 --> 00:41:38,909 "Mary Jane Versus Everything". 625 00:41:40,498 --> 00:41:41,909 Which I was incredibly proud of. 626 00:41:42,458 --> 00:41:45,291 And, you know, I show them to my dad. 627 00:41:46,629 --> 00:41:47,869 What did Ethan say? 628 00:41:49,048 --> 00:41:50,083 Serviceable. 629 00:41:51,634 --> 00:41:52,965 - Ouch. - Yeah. 630 00:41:53,386 --> 00:41:55,878 Serviceable, that was his exact word. 631 00:41:57,098 --> 00:41:58,930 Nothing special, just serviceable. 632 00:42:00,184 --> 00:42:01,845 He seemed pretty angry after reading them though. 633 00:42:02,061 --> 00:42:03,722 - Well, I wanna read them. - You do? 634 00:42:04,063 --> 00:42:05,269 - Yeah. - You can't. 635 00:42:05,356 --> 00:42:06,846 - Why not? - Because I threw them out. 636 00:42:07,233 --> 00:42:08,598 That's so sad. 637 00:42:11,279 --> 00:42:12,440 That's so sad of an ending. 638 00:42:16,534 --> 00:42:17,740 That's good. 639 00:42:19,454 --> 00:42:20,489 Really? 640 00:42:22,040 --> 00:42:23,656 What word did your father use? 641 00:42:25,460 --> 00:42:27,622 - Serviceable. - I disagree. 642 00:42:28,796 --> 00:42:30,252 I think you've got talent. 643 00:42:35,762 --> 00:42:38,174 But, your father is a publisher and I'm just some, 644 00:42:39,265 --> 00:42:42,257 strange neighbor, so you're gonna go with serviceable. 645 00:42:46,481 --> 00:42:48,722 - Johanna wanted to read them. - Right. 646 00:42:48,858 --> 00:42:51,816 - I don't know if I could... - Those visions of Johanna. 647 00:42:53,321 --> 00:42:54,436 I think about her... 648 00:42:57,742 --> 00:42:58,732 all the time. 649 00:43:03,331 --> 00:43:04,321 Maybe it's love. 650 00:43:08,544 --> 00:43:09,579 I don't know. 651 00:43:10,588 --> 00:43:12,249 Love is hard to determine. 652 00:43:12,507 --> 00:43:15,841 People think they're in love and it's something completely different. 653 00:43:16,844 --> 00:43:18,334 Infatuation. 654 00:43:19,722 --> 00:43:21,633 The righting of childhood wrongs. 655 00:43:22,100 --> 00:43:23,340 No companionship. 656 00:43:26,104 --> 00:43:27,139 Have you ever been in love? 657 00:43:27,855 --> 00:43:29,016 Yeah, once. 658 00:43:31,359 --> 00:43:32,440 Who was she? 659 00:43:35,404 --> 00:43:37,020 She was this woman I knew. 660 00:43:38,783 --> 00:43:41,195 She was taken by someone else, a dear friend. 661 00:43:44,205 --> 00:43:46,867 We had a profound connection, but she was his girl. 662 00:43:47,208 --> 00:43:48,198 It was a mess. 663 00:43:49,377 --> 00:43:50,412 So what did you do? 664 00:43:50,920 --> 00:43:52,877 I left the scene of the crime. 665 00:43:54,340 --> 00:43:55,421 You ran away? 666 00:43:56,384 --> 00:43:59,752 Well, at the time I called it an adventure. 667 00:44:00,513 --> 00:44:02,800 But hindsight turned it into something else 668 00:44:02,932 --> 00:44:05,344 which is what hindsight inevitably does. 669 00:44:06,310 --> 00:44:08,722 Yeah, I ran away. I'm gonna take this. 670 00:44:09,647 --> 00:44:11,888 - Leave you with your heart on. - My hard on. 671 00:44:13,025 --> 00:44:14,936 Heart, your heart on. 672 00:44:15,778 --> 00:44:16,893 You know what, maybe, 673 00:44:17,029 --> 00:44:20,021 in hindsight I'll feel guilty about Johanna, but right now I don't. 674 00:44:24,287 --> 00:44:25,322 It's not cut or dry. 675 00:44:26,247 --> 00:44:27,863 Congratulations, Thomas. 676 00:44:29,167 --> 00:44:31,204 Your world's becoming contextual. 677 00:44:36,883 --> 00:44:38,339 Who the fuck are you? 678 00:44:50,062 --> 00:44:51,143 Hey dad. 679 00:44:52,315 --> 00:44:53,350 What's up? 680 00:44:54,233 --> 00:44:55,268 Sit down. 681 00:45:00,448 --> 00:45:01,438 Is everything alright? 682 00:45:02,241 --> 00:45:03,322 Is mom okay? 683 00:45:04,285 --> 00:45:05,446 Sit down, Thomas. 684 00:45:19,425 --> 00:45:20,915 Is there anything you want to tell me? 685 00:45:25,389 --> 00:45:26,424 No. 686 00:45:26,974 --> 00:45:28,009 No, nothing. 687 00:45:29,435 --> 00:45:30,550 Anything I should know? 688 00:45:35,441 --> 00:45:36,431 No. 689 00:45:38,611 --> 00:45:39,601 Thomas... 690 00:45:41,072 --> 00:45:43,359 You blew off the career counselor. 691 00:45:45,785 --> 00:45:48,026 I told you how hard it was to get that appointment 692 00:45:48,120 --> 00:45:49,736 and then you just don't show up. 693 00:45:49,830 --> 00:45:51,036 - Gone! - Right, I'm... 694 00:45:54,335 --> 00:45:56,918 - I should have called. Sorry. - You should have called. I'm sorry. 695 00:45:57,129 --> 00:45:58,210 I'm sorry, too. 696 00:46:02,969 --> 00:46:04,084 Come work here. 697 00:46:05,012 --> 00:46:07,253 Work here. You like to read. 698 00:46:07,640 --> 00:46:09,631 I've been conflicted about giving you a job here, 699 00:46:09,767 --> 00:46:11,758 nepotism and all that bullshit, but screw it. 700 00:46:12,812 --> 00:46:15,930 You can start under the junior editors. You know, learn something. 701 00:46:16,190 --> 00:46:17,271 - No, thank you. - Why not? 702 00:46:17,692 --> 00:46:19,774 I mean what's wrong with learning the publishing business? 703 00:46:19,860 --> 00:46:21,601 Nothing. It's fine. It's just it's... 704 00:46:23,823 --> 00:46:24,813 Serviceable. 705 00:46:35,668 --> 00:46:36,703 W.F.? 706 00:46:38,921 --> 00:46:40,207 I just wanna get my essays back. 707 00:46:41,549 --> 00:46:42,630 Hey. 708 00:47:44,278 --> 00:47:45,313 Thomas. 709 00:47:45,780 --> 00:47:46,941 I was in your apartment. 710 00:47:51,118 --> 00:47:52,199 You're Julian Stellars. 711 00:47:54,789 --> 00:47:56,029 A nom de plume. 712 00:47:56,874 --> 00:47:58,285 You've had twelve books published. 713 00:47:59,794 --> 00:48:02,286 You don't have much mass appeal, but you don't seem to mind. 714 00:48:03,506 --> 00:48:05,247 Hard to find a picture of you anywhere. 715 00:48:06,592 --> 00:48:09,175 You're an alcoholic who spends most afternoons drinking 716 00:48:09,345 --> 00:48:10,460 in Brooklyn Inn. 717 00:48:10,888 --> 00:48:13,300 And you're probably the only person I've met that's actually, 718 00:48:14,016 --> 00:48:15,723 actually been to an opium den. 719 00:48:17,812 --> 00:48:19,143 Have I been googled? 720 00:48:25,444 --> 00:48:26,525 I didn't read it. 721 00:48:28,572 --> 00:48:29,607 The new manuscript. 722 00:48:33,369 --> 00:48:35,485 Well, Thomas, I appreciate that. 723 00:48:42,628 --> 00:48:43,663 So... 724 00:48:46,757 --> 00:48:47,872 You said I had talent. 725 00:48:49,552 --> 00:48:51,463 It was a professional's opinion. 726 00:48:55,307 --> 00:48:57,173 I don't know, man. I... 727 00:48:58,686 --> 00:49:01,428 You've experienced the world. I just live here in New York. 728 00:49:02,398 --> 00:49:03,809 New York is the world. 729 00:49:04,024 --> 00:49:05,480 I haven't done much with my life. 730 00:49:09,572 --> 00:49:12,109 You've had sex with your father's mistress? 731 00:49:14,076 --> 00:49:15,441 I'd say that's something. 732 00:49:18,289 --> 00:49:19,871 Am I the only living boy in New York? 733 00:49:26,130 --> 00:49:27,165 You are. 734 00:49:46,317 --> 00:49:47,978 Hey. I was outside your apartment. 735 00:49:48,611 --> 00:49:52,275 You're not there, I brought the essays. I wanted to show you. 736 00:50:32,780 --> 00:50:33,861 Did you sleep with her? 737 00:50:38,994 --> 00:50:39,984 With who? 738 00:50:44,291 --> 00:50:45,497 Johanna? 739 00:50:47,086 --> 00:50:48,201 Why would you ask that? 740 00:50:49,922 --> 00:50:51,708 They left the wedding as quickly as we did. 741 00:50:53,884 --> 00:50:55,625 I may be oblivious but I am not stupid. 742 00:50:56,428 --> 00:50:57,884 - Why do you care? - I just do. 743 00:50:58,013 --> 00:50:59,174 - Why? - Thomas. 744 00:51:00,474 --> 00:51:01,930 - You jealous? - No. 745 00:51:02,393 --> 00:51:03,508 - You sure? - Thomas. 746 00:51:04,186 --> 00:51:05,176 I think you are jealous. 747 00:51:05,271 --> 00:51:07,353 - Did you sleep with her? - She's my father's mistress. 748 00:51:09,275 --> 00:51:10,436 You think that I would do that? 749 00:51:13,487 --> 00:51:14,568 No. 750 00:51:16,073 --> 00:51:17,108 Thank you. 751 00:51:19,159 --> 00:51:20,194 You're sweet. 752 00:51:21,328 --> 00:51:22,443 You're not like them. 753 00:51:23,289 --> 00:51:25,121 - Like who? - The city. 754 00:51:34,383 --> 00:51:35,748 I want you to stop seeing him. 755 00:51:38,304 --> 00:51:39,544 No, I'm putting my foot down. 756 00:51:40,222 --> 00:51:41,929 You don't get to tell me what to do, Thomas. 757 00:51:42,057 --> 00:51:44,924 - I don't care if your foot's down or up. - Why, cause you don't care about anything? 758 00:51:45,227 --> 00:51:46,433 - What? - You obviously don't 759 00:51:46,604 --> 00:51:47,810 care about anything at all. 760 00:51:48,564 --> 00:51:50,100 So, I'm a nihilist now, am I? 761 00:51:54,653 --> 00:51:55,768 I don't know anything about you. 762 00:51:58,574 --> 00:51:59,564 Where did you grow up? 763 00:52:00,451 --> 00:52:02,362 Brooklyn, Thomas. That's why I have this accent. 764 00:52:05,331 --> 00:52:06,446 Did you play sports? 765 00:52:07,291 --> 00:52:08,281 No. 766 00:52:10,794 --> 00:52:12,034 When did you first have sex? 767 00:52:12,921 --> 00:52:15,504 My God, are we gonna talk about my childhood now? 768 00:52:15,841 --> 00:52:17,127 Yeah, I wanna know you. 769 00:52:18,886 --> 00:52:20,047 Where did you grow up? 770 00:52:21,972 --> 00:52:23,633 I grew up in London. 771 00:52:24,391 --> 00:52:25,472 Which part? 772 00:52:26,477 --> 00:52:27,558 Belsize Park. 773 00:52:29,355 --> 00:52:31,096 Then, Kilburn. 774 00:52:31,398 --> 00:52:32,479 Why the move? 775 00:52:33,609 --> 00:52:36,021 Because Kilburn is so much more real. 776 00:52:37,363 --> 00:52:38,398 What your dad do? 777 00:52:42,076 --> 00:52:43,237 What does your dad do? 778 00:52:43,494 --> 00:52:47,032 He put a gun in his mouth and pulled the trigger. 779 00:52:57,966 --> 00:52:59,047 I'm sorry. 780 00:53:04,932 --> 00:53:05,967 I didn't know. 781 00:53:11,021 --> 00:53:12,136 Why do you sleep with me? 782 00:53:13,774 --> 00:53:16,357 - Because I like you. - What do you like about me? 783 00:53:18,904 --> 00:53:19,985 Your innocence. 784 00:53:21,115 --> 00:53:22,196 Were you ever innocent? 785 00:53:24,201 --> 00:53:25,191 I forgot. 786 00:53:25,703 --> 00:53:26,784 Come on? Tell me. 787 00:53:28,706 --> 00:53:30,367 I wanna know about when you were innocent. 788 00:53:30,624 --> 00:53:32,456 - Why? - Because I like the idea of it. 789 00:53:33,544 --> 00:53:35,535 If you want someone so pure, why are you with me? 790 00:53:36,130 --> 00:53:37,211 Because I care about you. 791 00:53:42,219 --> 00:53:43,334 You care about me? 792 00:53:46,056 --> 00:53:47,672 I don't care for anyone, remember? 793 00:53:50,769 --> 00:53:53,978 But the truth was, she cared about them both. 794 00:53:55,315 --> 00:53:58,433 And that's when she knew, this mess would only get worse. 795 00:53:59,486 --> 00:54:02,478 She had to make a clean break, starting with Ethan. 796 00:54:03,991 --> 00:54:08,531 What she didn't anticipate was, he'd surrendered too much of his past 797 00:54:08,996 --> 00:54:10,532 to give up on his future. 798 00:54:20,591 --> 00:54:22,207 You think he's in love with her? 799 00:54:23,469 --> 00:54:24,584 He just has to stop. 800 00:54:25,345 --> 00:54:26,506 You and your father... 801 00:54:27,347 --> 00:54:29,554 You suffer from the same disease. 802 00:54:30,225 --> 00:54:31,260 Johanna. 803 00:54:32,060 --> 00:54:35,143 Visions of Johanna. Conquered my mind. 804 00:54:37,357 --> 00:54:38,438 Why are you writing about me? 805 00:54:42,029 --> 00:54:43,064 That's what I do. 806 00:54:43,530 --> 00:54:46,864 I write about people I know and then give them a thin veil. 807 00:54:47,743 --> 00:54:48,778 Why me? 808 00:54:51,663 --> 00:54:52,653 Look, I... 809 00:54:53,874 --> 00:54:55,740 I got the apartment to get out of the house 810 00:54:55,918 --> 00:54:57,955 and write a completely different story. 811 00:54:58,796 --> 00:55:01,083 - It didn't come across. - Mine did. 812 00:55:02,716 --> 00:55:04,047 But like everything good, 813 00:55:04,468 --> 00:55:08,086 it happened by accident. I met you, now I got 118 pages. 814 00:55:11,266 --> 00:55:14,258 My father's publishing house, they're throwing an anniversary party tomorrow. 815 00:55:15,229 --> 00:55:16,219 You should come. 816 00:55:18,273 --> 00:55:19,388 No. 817 00:55:20,526 --> 00:55:22,437 You've heard all about these people but you never met them. 818 00:55:24,071 --> 00:55:25,106 Good for the book. 819 00:55:28,283 --> 00:55:29,318 Find a window. 820 00:55:30,452 --> 00:55:31,442 Pounce. 821 00:55:32,371 --> 00:55:33,361 And pounce. 822 00:55:53,475 --> 00:55:54,590 I broke up with Nick. 823 00:55:57,354 --> 00:55:58,435 Did you? 824 00:56:04,194 --> 00:56:06,060 You are supposed to be more excited than that. 825 00:56:48,906 --> 00:56:49,896 Hey. 826 00:56:50,824 --> 00:56:51,905 Thanks for coming. 827 00:56:53,410 --> 00:56:54,400 It's a great party. 828 00:56:54,536 --> 00:56:56,243 Yeah, always is. 829 00:56:57,331 --> 00:56:58,992 That's my mother, Mimi. 830 00:57:04,171 --> 00:57:05,252 She's beautiful. 831 00:57:06,798 --> 00:57:07,959 I told you she was. 832 00:57:08,550 --> 00:57:10,132 I was talking about your mother. 833 00:57:31,782 --> 00:57:33,398 It is amazing. But I can keep... 834 00:57:33,575 --> 00:57:35,612 Sorry. I want you to come meet somebody. 835 00:57:35,744 --> 00:57:38,111 Oh, who are we meeting? 836 00:57:38,288 --> 00:57:40,450 - Meeting my new friend. - Your new friend? 837 00:57:40,749 --> 00:57:42,080 - Sorry, sorry. - All right. I will be back. 838 00:57:48,006 --> 00:57:49,041 He was just here. 839 00:57:49,383 --> 00:57:50,589 He was? 840 00:57:50,926 --> 00:57:52,587 Well, maybe meet him later. 841 00:57:53,261 --> 00:57:54,342 There's Dan. 842 00:58:08,235 --> 00:58:11,944 "I look down upon the city from high windows. 843 00:58:14,366 --> 00:58:16,607 It was then that the great buildings... 844 00:58:17,786 --> 00:58:21,825 lose reality and take on their magical powers. 845 00:58:25,252 --> 00:58:30,668 Squares and squares of flame, set and cut into the ether. 846 00:58:30,799 --> 00:58:32,210 Here's our poetry..." 847 00:58:33,969 --> 00:58:36,381 "For we have pulled down the stars to our will." 848 00:58:37,347 --> 00:58:39,338 - "To our will..." - Ezra Pound. 849 00:58:42,728 --> 00:58:44,139 Johanna, I'm assuming. 850 00:58:45,605 --> 00:58:46,766 We haven't met, have we? 851 00:58:47,024 --> 00:58:49,482 No, but I know you very well. 852 00:58:51,194 --> 00:58:54,061 And I know that you're having your fun. 853 00:58:55,365 --> 00:58:57,231 And that he's young and easy. 854 00:58:57,868 --> 00:59:00,701 But you'll have me to deal with if he scars. 855 00:59:05,375 --> 00:59:07,082 I don't like strange conversations. 856 00:59:09,671 --> 00:59:10,832 So, I'm gonna walk away. 857 00:59:41,078 --> 00:59:42,284 I'll be back in a second. 858 00:59:54,508 --> 00:59:55,498 What? 859 00:59:56,384 --> 00:59:58,170 I really think we should stop seeing each other. 860 01:00:00,639 --> 01:00:01,674 Thomas. 861 01:00:01,890 --> 01:00:03,927 - Why? - Looks bad, now come on. 862 01:00:06,019 --> 01:00:07,805 I was ending it with your father as well. 863 01:00:09,314 --> 01:00:12,352 And not because I didn't care for him, I actually really do. 864 01:00:12,567 --> 01:00:13,728 I care for him very much but... 865 01:00:14,611 --> 01:00:16,397 Now, Thomas, the thing is you... he proposed. 866 01:00:17,781 --> 01:00:19,863 - What? - And I said, "Yes." 867 01:00:22,744 --> 01:00:25,736 - No, no, no, no, no... - Please, I don't want us to be disruptive. 868 01:00:25,956 --> 01:00:27,788 - So, stop... - Dad is not gonna leave her. 869 01:00:29,292 --> 01:00:30,623 I'm not gonna let that happen. 870 01:00:30,794 --> 01:00:32,501 No, this is the best thing for everybody. 871 01:00:32,712 --> 01:00:34,168 - For who? - For everybody. 872 01:00:34,464 --> 01:00:35,829 Judith's going to be so much better off. 873 01:00:35,966 --> 01:00:38,333 She won't be suffering anymore under the weight of a dead marriage. 874 01:00:38,593 --> 01:00:41,176 He's going through a crisis... he's just going through a fucking crisis. 875 01:00:41,304 --> 01:00:42,339 - That's all this is. - Come on. 876 01:00:42,514 --> 01:00:45,131 This doesn't have to be this difficult. Please, everybody can win here. 877 01:00:46,643 --> 01:00:48,509 God made a mistake when he made you beautiful. 878 01:00:48,895 --> 01:00:50,306 Well, God's mistake is marrying your father. 879 01:00:50,438 --> 01:00:51,553 Not yet, she isn't. 880 01:00:52,566 --> 01:00:54,056 Look, can I just ask you one thing? 881 01:00:54,693 --> 01:00:56,934 If any of this comes out, who do you think is gonna get hurt? 882 01:00:57,946 --> 01:00:59,107 It's not me. 883 01:00:59,364 --> 01:01:00,479 It's not Ethan. 884 01:01:00,949 --> 01:01:02,940 We both know how to land on our feet and it's not you. 885 01:01:03,410 --> 01:01:04,400 You're so young. 886 01:01:05,495 --> 01:01:06,485 This one person... 887 01:01:07,497 --> 01:01:10,080 One person will be destroyed and we both know who that is. 888 01:01:10,417 --> 01:01:11,578 What do you think is gonna happen? 889 01:01:11,793 --> 01:01:12,954 You think that you can get married, 890 01:01:13,044 --> 01:01:14,705 you think you can have the obligatory second family 891 01:01:14,880 --> 01:01:17,292 and live happily ever after in your dream world? 892 01:01:17,549 --> 01:01:19,335 - You thin... - Well, obviously that can't happen. 893 01:01:20,218 --> 01:01:21,583 What's that supposed to mean? 894 01:01:24,139 --> 01:01:26,255 What's that supposed to mean? What is it supposed to mean? 895 01:01:27,434 --> 01:01:28,424 Stop it. 896 01:01:33,023 --> 01:01:35,310 - Stop it, Thomas, come on. - I'm gonna tell him everything. 897 01:01:36,109 --> 01:01:37,144 Thomas. 898 01:02:29,579 --> 01:02:30,614 Thomas? 899 01:02:32,832 --> 01:02:34,288 Thomas, what are you doing? 900 01:02:36,002 --> 01:02:36,992 It's raining. 901 01:02:44,052 --> 01:02:45,087 Okay. 902 01:02:47,555 --> 01:02:48,590 I... 903 01:02:49,349 --> 01:02:50,430 I broke up with Nick... 904 01:02:52,185 --> 01:02:54,722 Because I got into Croatia... 905 01:02:56,648 --> 01:02:58,389 And I want you to come with me. 906 01:03:09,661 --> 01:03:10,867 I slept with Johanna. 907 01:03:14,291 --> 01:03:15,326 No. 908 01:03:16,084 --> 01:03:17,199 You're not like that. 909 01:03:19,129 --> 01:03:20,870 And I thought that I was in love with her. 910 01:03:24,384 --> 01:03:25,419 You're good? 911 01:03:30,682 --> 01:03:32,138 No, Mimi, I'm not good. 912 01:03:38,732 --> 01:03:39,813 Mimi? 913 01:03:41,401 --> 01:03:42,391 Mimi? 914 01:03:50,035 --> 01:03:51,070 I'm sorry. 915 01:03:53,371 --> 01:03:54,702 You're just like them. 916 01:03:55,749 --> 01:03:56,910 They won, Thomas. 917 01:03:57,667 --> 01:03:59,283 God, they fucking bankrupted you. 918 01:05:19,541 --> 01:05:21,828 - Hey. - Thomas, did you spend last night here? 919 01:05:22,127 --> 01:05:23,162 Yeah. 920 01:05:23,837 --> 01:05:27,501 Well, that, was the best party that Kenta has thrown in years. 921 01:05:27,674 --> 01:05:30,507 Everybody was drunk and not just our alcoholic friends 922 01:05:30,635 --> 01:05:31,750 but everybody. 923 01:05:32,595 --> 01:05:33,756 Why did you spend the night? 924 01:05:35,890 --> 01:05:37,005 I don't know. I just... 925 01:05:38,268 --> 01:05:39,429 wanted to come home. 926 01:05:41,104 --> 01:05:42,139 Are you upset? 927 01:05:45,108 --> 01:05:46,189 Tell me about it. 928 01:05:49,487 --> 01:05:50,522 What? 929 01:05:51,239 --> 01:05:52,320 Is it about a girl? 930 01:05:53,450 --> 01:05:55,191 And I am your mother, so? 931 01:05:57,162 --> 01:05:58,823 Things have gotten messy and... 932 01:05:59,914 --> 01:06:00,904 I wanna bail. 933 01:06:04,002 --> 01:06:04,992 But I can't. 934 01:06:06,629 --> 01:06:07,619 Then you know. 935 01:06:11,134 --> 01:06:12,590 The only way out... 936 01:06:13,511 --> 01:06:14,546 is through. 937 01:06:16,181 --> 01:06:17,216 Right? 938 01:06:19,934 --> 01:06:20,969 Where's dad? 939 01:06:21,769 --> 01:06:22,759 He left early. 940 01:06:23,646 --> 01:06:26,183 He said he had to go to the office and get some files. 941 01:06:27,025 --> 01:06:28,982 He seems to have gotten over, what it... 942 01:06:48,171 --> 01:06:49,286 Thomas? 943 01:06:57,972 --> 01:06:59,804 - Dad? - Thomas. 944 01:07:01,100 --> 01:07:02,465 We need to talk. 945 01:07:02,727 --> 01:07:05,219 - There are somethings that you don't know. - Thomas, don't. 946 01:07:05,605 --> 01:07:07,061 - Don't. - That you need to know. 947 01:07:09,901 --> 01:07:10,982 Johanna. 948 01:07:13,404 --> 01:07:14,565 You two know each other? 949 01:07:14,822 --> 01:07:15,857 Yeah. 950 01:07:18,368 --> 01:07:19,358 What? 951 01:07:19,911 --> 01:07:21,072 Well Ethan the thing is, is that... 952 01:07:22,288 --> 01:07:23,278 He followed me. 953 01:07:24,415 --> 01:07:25,496 You followed her? 954 01:07:27,752 --> 01:07:28,742 That's not all I did. 955 01:07:36,386 --> 01:07:37,376 I'm sorry, I... 956 01:07:38,471 --> 01:07:39,506 I don't understand. 957 01:07:45,645 --> 01:07:46,680 We slept together. 958 01:07:48,398 --> 01:07:49,479 And not just once. 959 01:07:51,568 --> 01:07:52,603 What? 960 01:08:13,298 --> 01:08:16,882 You slick little shit. You have... I did right by you. 961 01:08:17,427 --> 01:08:19,759 You have no idea. You have no idea. 962 01:08:52,587 --> 01:08:53,622 I deserve you. 963 01:09:25,578 --> 01:09:26,613 I'm sorry. 964 01:09:28,581 --> 01:09:30,163 We're all sorry, Thomas. 965 01:09:33,336 --> 01:09:34,701 I really do love him. 966 01:09:43,888 --> 01:09:45,049 And he did right by you. 967 01:09:47,975 --> 01:09:49,056 More than you know. 968 01:09:55,942 --> 01:09:56,932 Good bye, Thomas. 969 01:11:11,976 --> 01:11:13,011 Did you finish it? 970 01:11:17,231 --> 01:11:18,266 I did. 971 01:11:19,984 --> 01:11:20,974 Tell me about it. 972 01:11:25,531 --> 01:11:27,442 Tell me about the only living boy in New York. 973 01:11:34,040 --> 01:11:35,201 Aah, well... 974 01:11:42,173 --> 01:11:44,631 It's about great people, artists. 975 01:11:46,177 --> 01:11:47,258 Great friends. 976 01:11:50,056 --> 01:11:52,093 One of them is a beautiful... 977 01:11:52,809 --> 01:11:54,595 young girl. The other two, 978 01:11:55,186 --> 01:11:58,019 one artist has talent, the other doesn't. 979 01:11:58,898 --> 01:12:00,855 No, no matter how hard he tries, 980 01:12:01,275 --> 01:12:03,516 no matter how badly he wants it, he just... 981 01:12:05,321 --> 01:12:08,905 - I wasn't kissed by God in that way. - But he has the girl. 982 01:12:09,909 --> 01:12:12,742 Yes. And they're married. 983 01:12:13,246 --> 01:12:16,034 And they plan to start a family. 984 01:12:17,208 --> 01:12:19,950 Only, they have a little problem. 985 01:12:20,127 --> 01:12:21,117 He's infertile. 986 01:12:23,422 --> 01:12:25,163 And he asked a talented friend for help. 987 01:12:27,552 --> 01:12:29,793 Yeah, you have a knack for a story, Thomas. 988 01:12:31,806 --> 01:12:33,137 I get it from my father. 989 01:12:45,069 --> 01:12:46,150 So... 990 01:12:48,489 --> 01:12:52,198 they're artists and they don't want to use in vitro. 991 01:12:52,493 --> 01:12:54,825 So, they go to a cheap bottle of Cabernet... 992 01:12:56,038 --> 01:12:59,326 Some Quaaludes and Simon and Garfunkel record. 993 01:12:59,667 --> 01:13:03,126 - The pair of them decide... - And... and... the husband's okay with that? 994 01:13:03,296 --> 01:13:06,084 Well, look... they wanna use somebody that they know, 995 01:13:06,340 --> 01:13:07,671 somebody that they love. 996 01:13:09,051 --> 01:13:15,093 And of course, the artist with the talent, he's flattered, 997 01:13:15,182 --> 01:13:17,344 and of course he agrees. 998 01:13:19,353 --> 01:13:21,264 And he and... 999 01:13:22,607 --> 01:13:24,268 the beautiful girl... 1000 01:13:28,946 --> 01:13:29,981 they... 1001 01:13:31,782 --> 01:13:36,071 they walk the city streets that night... for hours. 1002 01:13:36,203 --> 01:13:37,819 They're both so damn nervous. 1003 01:13:39,373 --> 01:13:42,582 And they end up at Washington Square Park, 1004 01:13:45,087 --> 01:13:46,703 where they dance... 1005 01:13:50,760 --> 01:13:51,795 to no music. 1006 01:13:55,306 --> 01:13:56,796 And the rest comes easy. 1007 01:14:01,228 --> 01:14:02,309 And does he love her? 1008 01:14:03,773 --> 01:14:04,763 He does. 1009 01:14:06,734 --> 01:14:09,192 In that moment he realizes he does... 1010 01:14:16,869 --> 01:14:18,610 And so it turns out that... 1011 01:14:19,664 --> 01:14:23,123 that the beautiful girl... 1012 01:14:24,085 --> 01:14:29,501 she gives birth to a wonderful son and... her husband, gives up art, 1013 01:14:30,049 --> 01:14:32,461 becomes a very successful art dealer. 1014 01:14:34,053 --> 01:14:35,088 And the other artist? 1015 01:14:39,642 --> 01:14:43,055 He watches the boy grow from afar. You know? 1016 01:14:44,689 --> 01:14:47,397 Sees his own talent alive in this child. 1017 01:14:52,154 --> 01:14:54,691 So desperately wants to connect with his son. 1018 01:14:56,993 --> 01:14:58,358 And tell him everything. 1019 01:15:03,749 --> 01:15:05,615 And future his talent, you know. 1020 01:15:14,677 --> 01:15:17,135 But of course he never does make contact. 1021 01:15:20,725 --> 01:15:21,840 Until? 1022 01:15:23,436 --> 01:15:25,723 Until he decides to make it all his next book. 1023 01:15:42,955 --> 01:15:44,036 It's okay. 1024 01:16:03,434 --> 01:16:04,469 Mom? 1025 01:16:12,943 --> 01:16:13,978 Thomas. 1026 01:16:17,406 --> 01:16:18,396 What did he tell you? 1027 01:16:19,700 --> 01:16:20,781 Everything. 1028 01:16:23,788 --> 01:16:25,028 You here looking for razors? 1029 01:16:26,373 --> 01:16:27,363 Empty pill bottles? 1030 01:16:30,711 --> 01:16:31,746 Sit down. 1031 01:16:39,887 --> 01:16:41,218 What do you know, Thomas? 1032 01:16:43,224 --> 01:16:44,214 I know... 1033 01:16:46,185 --> 01:16:47,550 I know why you carry so much guilt. 1034 01:16:51,524 --> 01:16:52,559 I know that I... 1035 01:16:53,818 --> 01:16:54,853 already forgive you. 1036 01:16:55,861 --> 01:16:58,569 I know you are in love with someone you haven't seen in over twenty-five years. 1037 01:16:59,448 --> 01:17:01,735 And you go to Riverside Park everyday to read his books. 1038 01:17:02,118 --> 01:17:04,075 I know. I know and it's okay. 1039 01:17:09,250 --> 01:17:10,490 - Who told you? - He did. 1040 01:17:11,293 --> 01:17:12,374 Julian, W.F. 1041 01:17:13,212 --> 01:17:14,373 Whatever you wanna call him. 1042 01:17:16,340 --> 01:17:17,501 Is he dying? 1043 01:17:18,592 --> 01:17:19,707 He's not dying. 1044 01:17:20,177 --> 01:17:21,588 - No? - No, he's not dying. 1045 01:17:23,180 --> 01:17:24,466 He's fine. He's just... 1046 01:17:25,307 --> 01:17:26,388 I don't know, he's tired. 1047 01:17:27,017 --> 01:17:28,052 Think he's lonely. 1048 01:17:30,437 --> 01:17:32,895 It was my idea not to tell you, not Ethan's. 1049 01:17:33,691 --> 01:17:34,852 - You have to know that. - Okay. 1050 01:17:35,693 --> 01:17:36,774 You were trying to protect me. 1051 01:17:38,529 --> 01:17:39,564 Yes and... 1052 01:17:41,448 --> 01:17:43,564 and I knew that if you found out, 1053 01:17:43,826 --> 01:17:46,989 he would come back into my life and then everything would go to shit. 1054 01:17:47,288 --> 01:17:48,949 Well, everything went to shit on its own, so... 1055 01:17:52,668 --> 01:17:53,658 Yeah, I guess. 1056 01:18:05,055 --> 01:18:06,045 Is he old? 1057 01:18:09,351 --> 01:18:10,386 He's messy. 1058 01:18:11,687 --> 01:18:12,802 Yeah, he always was. 1059 01:18:14,523 --> 01:18:16,059 An unmade bed of a man. 1060 01:18:17,985 --> 01:18:19,350 An unmade bed of a man. 1061 01:18:21,197 --> 01:18:22,187 I like that. 1062 01:18:22,656 --> 01:18:23,691 You should. 1063 01:18:25,910 --> 01:18:27,025 Your father wrote it. 1064 01:19:02,529 --> 01:19:03,610 We're closed. 1065 01:19:06,450 --> 01:19:07,986 I'm sorry, I thought I locked the door. 1066 01:19:15,209 --> 01:19:16,699 - Hey. - Hey. 1067 01:19:18,212 --> 01:19:19,247 I'll be quick. 1068 01:19:20,464 --> 01:19:22,205 - I know what book I want. - Sure. 1069 01:19:29,181 --> 01:19:30,216 What did you think? 1070 01:19:32,184 --> 01:19:33,174 Serviceable? 1071 01:19:35,854 --> 01:19:37,640 You lie to make me feel good. 1072 01:19:39,775 --> 01:19:41,982 The character that surprised me the most was the father. 1073 01:19:47,283 --> 01:19:48,273 Which one? 1074 01:19:50,786 --> 01:19:51,992 The one who didn't run away. 1075 01:19:58,961 --> 01:20:00,167 Whatever happened to Mimi? 1076 01:20:00,379 --> 01:20:01,540 She's still in Croatia. 1077 01:20:02,131 --> 01:20:03,246 She got a fellowship. 1078 01:20:03,507 --> 01:20:04,668 I don't think she's coming back. 1079 01:20:08,554 --> 01:20:09,794 Did you hear back from Viking? 1080 01:20:10,306 --> 01:20:11,546 Yeah, it was a pass. 1081 01:20:11,932 --> 01:20:13,047 I'm sorry. 1082 01:20:14,268 --> 01:20:15,884 You want me to make a few phone calls? 1083 01:20:18,147 --> 01:20:19,182 No. 1084 01:20:20,858 --> 01:20:22,223 I wanna start something new. I have... 1085 01:20:22,693 --> 01:20:23,808 I have an idea. 1086 01:20:24,194 --> 01:20:25,275 Well, that's good. 1087 01:20:27,239 --> 01:20:28,479 Are you still speaking to Johanna? 1088 01:20:29,283 --> 01:20:30,318 No. 1089 01:20:33,078 --> 01:20:34,364 - You lying to me? - Yeah. 1090 01:20:37,416 --> 01:20:38,998 - How's your mother? - She's good. 1091 01:20:39,460 --> 01:20:40,495 She quit smoking. 1092 01:20:41,420 --> 01:20:43,582 Started writing for ARTnews again. 1093 01:20:43,964 --> 01:20:45,045 - Well, that's good. - Yeah. 1094 01:20:45,632 --> 01:20:46,667 She has a date tonight. 1095 01:20:47,426 --> 01:20:48,541 Good for her. 1096 01:20:50,763 --> 01:20:51,753 Truly.