[Matt Roloff] Previously on Little People, Big World...
So I know you were anxious to get back down
and see your mom.
-Are you thinking this week or next week? -Yeah,
I'm thinking... I... Yeah.
I'm concerned about my mother a lot
with dad passing.
She lost her lifelong partner.
I know that it's still a very difficult, tough road for her.
-Surprise! -Surprise!
This was a huge surprise.
I really had no idea.
Gonna be a hard act to follow.
-[laughs] -No, no, no, no.
Look at that little Josiah!
I'm feeling reflective
on my dad passing away.
That's why with, um, all the kids,
I'm redoubling my efforts
to check in on them all as often as possible.
She's cute in her little dress.
-She's a fine girl when she has a little dress on. -[Tori Roloff] Oh, yeah.
[Zach Roloff] When we see my dad,
we talk about what the kids are doing
and just, you know, what's going on.
Sometimes it's better just to, you know,
just keep the peace.
[Amy Roloff] Oh, is that from me?
[Chris Marek] Nice card, hon.
I tell you, it really is.
Happy, happy post-birthday!
-Thank you. [laughs] -Whoops.
[laughs]
Party was a big hit.
Everybody seemed to have a good time.
I had a great time.
It started off as totally unexpected,
but it was just a fun event, you know,
we had good music, good food, good friends.
-Surprise! -Surprise!
[all cheering]
It was a perfect evening.
'Cause it was all about you, babe.
No, that's not why it was perfect.
-It was... -Oh, I know. But for me,
-it was nice to do something just for you. -[Chris] Aw.
Yeah.
-I'm glad you liked it. -Good job.
Babe, I can't believe we're almost in one year of being married.
[Chris] I know.
Maybe we can, um, go to The Reserve...
-[Chris] Hogwash. -...and have dinner there.
[Chris] Yeah.
-Is that a date? -That's a date.
-Okay. -Yeah.
[Amy] Our one year anniversary is coming up,
and that's pretty significant.
I've come away from divorce
liking who I am.
The one thing I do realize about myself,
I think I will always have some sort of guard up.
Life was moving so fast with Matt,
I think I always had it up.
It was almost, like, reactionary.
I think Chris brings out in me,
you know, a little more confidence,
a little more strength.
Even though my guard may be up,
I don't need it to be up
as often as much as with Matt.
And I'm content.
Oh, did I tell you, I texted Matt this morning?
Oh, no. What for?
I'm just kinda curious about his house,
you know, where he's at.
You know, last time we talked,
um, they had trenched out for the foundation.
I'm curious if they've actually poured the foundation yet.
Mmm-hmm. Mmm-hmm.
So I'm gonna go over and talk to them about that,
and he's been wanting to talk to us
-about pumpkin season. -Oh, yeah.
Anyway, I'd like to go check that out,
-and see what's going down. -Okay, you can go do that.
And give me the lowdown on what pumpkin season
-may look like. -[Chris] You don't want to go?
-No. -Okay.
-You don't mind if I go, right? -No, I don't care.
Okay.
Are you up for doing what you usually do?
I have to
get my head around it?
Why?
'Cause I think the farm for me,
-now everything's changed. -[Chris] Mmm.
[Amy] I think because the farm is up for sale,
I think it just changes pumpkin season for me
on that personal level.
I think what makes, you know,
pumpkin season a little more unique
is when there's some of the family members involved.
I don't think all of the kids
will really be a part of pumpkin season this year.
So, you know, you're asking people to come
to something that was our home.
Um, I think when it's just another pumpkin place,
people will still come, which is very, very good,
but I just wonder, will it have its same...
...family type of personal perspective
compared to something else.
I'm debating whether to be there or not,
or how do I want to be there.
If he's going to pare it down
to, you know, just a couple wagon tours,
he really probably doesn't even need my help.
But I'd like to know from him though.
Just get the lowdown, and, you know, we'll see.
Okay.
[Tori] What's up, dude? How was school today?
You had chapel today? What did you guys do in chapel?
They had to carry their own chairs.
[gasps] Did you carry your own chair? Are you that strong?
Did the teacher carry your classmate's chairs?
Why didn't you carry your chair?
[Tori] Oh, I hope you weren't being lazy.
[Zach] It's been a really good summer,
and now there's a lot of changes happening.
Jackson started kindergarten this fall,
and he's loving it.
He's making a lot of friends,
and he, his school is kinda cool.
He has, like, computer class...
-Art. -...art class...
-PE. -...music, PE.
So his favorite is, uh, art class
and computer class.
[mumbling indistinctly]
[Tori laughs]
She's an actual wrecking ball.
Lilah's loving her situation right now.
She's loving
having the extra alone time with Zach and I
while Jackson's at school.
And she's loving being able to, like, be the big sister and
just have the attention on her for once
'cause that hasn't happened a lot in her life.
Josiah's awake.
-[Lilah Roloff exclaims] -[Tori] Like, awake awake?
-Or like... -[Zach] Eh, just whining.
Josiah's getting to be four months,
and, um, we've been sleep training him.
Last night was probably rougher for me.
[Tori] Yesterday, I have never,
I, like, literally can't remember a time in my life
I've been that emotionally, physically drained in my life.
I'm very sleep deprived.
Literally my only complaint about Josiah,
he's such an easy baby,
he just doesn't sleep at night.
Like, he's just
on the struggle bus,
which is, like, it's killing everyone.
We're struggling, like, it's just, it's not fun to be honest.
It's hard.
My niche in life, I truly believe,
is being a mom. I love being a mom.
So when I have days like yesterday,
where I just didn't have patience for my kids,
like, I just, when I get upset at them
because of something that's, like, affecting me,
I hate that.
Like, I just went to bed last night
with, like, the worst mom guilt.
[Zach] When I get mad at the kids,
it's because I'm mad at the kids.
I don't feel dad guilt.
That's not true.
-[Zach] But I got-- -There's been times
that you've gotten mad that you've felt guilty after.
[Zach] Okay, every now and then maybe.
But it's not, like, the same guilt.
-We're talking about different types. -[Tori] It's not
the same guilt, my guilt is like,
"Did I spend enough time with them?"
"Did I, like, listen to them?"
-"Did I..." -[Zach] Yeah, my guilt is probably like,
"I probably shouldn't have done that." [laughs]
[both laugh]
[Tori] We can joke,
but when you have a lack of sleep,
and you feel like you're sinking and failing
as a mother, it can be like...
...frustrating.
Well, and, like, just when I, like, yell,
just 'cause I don't feel like I yell a lot ever...
-[Zach laughs] -I literally... I... Can you leave?
You don't yell that much,
-but you yell. -I don't yell ever.
Oh, I wouldn't say ever,
but, yeah, you're right.
You don't, compared to a lot of parents,
you do not yell.
This is what's frustrating about you though,
this is why I get overwhelmed.
Honestly, Zach, this is why
because you don't give me any credit
-for anything. -[Zach] No, Tori,
I'm giving you credit, I'm just saying...
[Tori] You do not though. You don't.
...ever is strong.
You know what hurt my feelings the other day?
What hurt your feelings?
You don't even care.
-Give me what hurt your feelings. -[Tori] You literally,
I'm making Jackson's lunch...
-[Zach] Yeah. -...and you go, "Oh, it's just,
you're just trying to make it look good."
I said cute, okay?
Look cute, whatever. It's even worse.
Instead of, like,
"Tori, thank you for making our children lunch."
I would say Zach takes care of the outside of the house,
and I take care of the inside of the house.
I do breakfast, feed the kids,
get Jackson ready for school,
take him to school,
and then come home when Josiah goes down for his first nap.
Then it's just me and Lilah, and we play,
and then he wakes up, we do lunch.
It's, like, exhausting.
-[Zach] Yeah. -I just wish you would give me a little more credit
-at being a mom. -[Zach] I do give you credit,
-but I also hold-- -You don't.
-You don't -I hold you accountable too.
But that's why I have days like yesterday though, Zachary,
that's why I get burnt out
because I can't always, like, be like that.
No, I get it.
[Tori] No, you don't.
-I do. -[Jackson Roloff exclaiming]
[sighs]
[Zach] So you're sleeping upstairs tonight?
I'm sleeping upstairs tonight.
I'm gonna sleep down the road tonight.
[laughs]
[Tori] I feel underappreciated all the time.
This is also an issue in our marriage currently
because I'm exhausted.
-[Zach] Sleep is very important. -I'm, like, literally
pouring from an empty cup,
and everybody wants something from me.
And so, like, if I don't have anything to give,
it's, the whole, everything just, like,
freaks out.
Also, we have lost our babysitter roster up here,
so that's been hard.
I definitely need a break.
Um, okay, so yeah, you're upstairs,
Lilah's with me, Jackson's in his room,
and Josiah's in Lilah's room.
Musical beds.
[Zach] When we bought this house,
we knew only having two bedrooms for the kids downstairs could be an issue.
But, uh, you know, at the time, we didn't think about that.
Right now, Josiah's been sleeping in Lilah's room.
And the challenge is he'll wake up in the middle of the night,
uh, and we don't want him to wake up Lilah.
So we have to go in there.
Instead of letting him just cry, we give him the binkie.
And we don't want him sleeping in Jackson's room.
He has school, so we wanna make sure
he's getting a good night's sleep.
And we don't want Josiah in our room because we want our own space.
Accurate.
And so we're just trying to figure out what to do.
[Zach] We'll get through this.
I do just wish you would appreciate me more.
I do appreciate you, Tori.
-I just... -You don't say it.
I keep you sharp.
On your toes.
Men look it in and they keep it sharp.
-[chuckles] -[Zach laughs]
[Matt reading]
So back to pumpkin season,
you know, if you're cutting it in half, you probably don't even need my help.
Well, no, we do. We always want a family member to do it.
You know, I don't know if Amy's really 100% committed.
And it would definitely be weird for me to do it without her.
We wanna talk to you about more hours, not less.
[both laughing]
[Matt reading]
Are you, uh, doing anything with pumpkin season this year?
-No. -[Chris] No?
I will not regret if this is the last year of pumpkin season
and we did not, like, participate.
The farm is not a place of joy for me anymore.
-Knock, knock. Hey, man. -How are ya?
-How you doing? -Good to see you.
-Long time. -Yeah, it's been a little while.
-A couple of weeks, yeah. -I think, uh, probably haven't seen you since the, uh,
-the OPA. -Take a seat.
Yeah, right, OPA, that was a good time, wasn't it?
-It was, yeah. -Did you have as much fun as we did?
[Chris] I did, we had a good time.
[Matt] It was fun, yeah. Um...
[Chris] Yeah.
So I haven't seen a pending sign over here yet.
-What's happening? -[chuckles] Yeah, we got close
-a couple times. -Oh, is that right?
-Yeah. Got real close a couple of times. -Did you get an offer?
No, in the end, it just wasn't... I don't think the right fit.
Chris is always interested in the latest sort of update on the house sale
because, I mean, he's in the real estate business.
So, naturally, he's curious about what's going on.
I'm okay when Chris asks questions.
I don't think he's just asking me 'cause it's family gossip or anything.
I think he's asking 'cause he has a sincere interest in it.
You ready to do a price reduction yet?
-Nah, I don't think so. -No?
I mean, I'm not ready for that yet.
-Okay. -I'm gonna let the whole cycle play out.
-At least until after pumpkin season. -Yeah.
[both chuckle]
[Matt] We're in the middle of it right now.
We already kind of kicked it into high gear.
We're gonna go forward with pumpkin season.
Um, it's gonna be an interesting year
because once again, we're kind of trying to set our expectations
and figure out, you know, the economy's kind of crazy right now.
So I'm predicting just a little bit softer year, you know.
But I think that's kind of, um, what the world calls for right now.
We were debating about whether to do the tours
or not and then I came to this conclusion
that maybe we'll cut back on the tours.
-Mmm-hmm. -You know, we're trying to simplify.
But you're not sure yet whether it's gonna be the same route...
The route will be the same.
Hard to believe that just a little less than a year ago, I got married right there.
[both laugh]
So are we ready to see you do the, uh, you know...
-No. [mutters] I don't think so. -No?
You know there's a setback on my house?
-Did you hear about that? -No.
Well, now it's all ready for the foundation,
but then we found out that the county
-is 16 to 20 weeks out. -Oh, man. That's a long time.
That's like four months. So I'm like, well, if I can't start in January,
-I don't wanna be building in the rain. -Right.
-Let's go check it out. I'll show it to you. -Yeah.
[Matt] I'm way behind on pumpkin season setup.
Last year it was all about getting Amy and Chris' wedding.
The flowers, getting the place ready for that
right in the middle of pumpkin season and, um,
this year, you know, it's different life challenges.
-Sorry about your dad. -Yeah.
-That was a tough, uh, tough one. -Yeah.
-It kind of came up out of the blue. -Yeah.
-Well, sorry to hear that. -Yeah, that was...
Unfortunately, it's inevitable, but it still leaves a big hole.
It's been a couple of weeks, uh, since my dad passed.
So I'm headed to Arizona soon to check on my mother.
I was just there, but I'm trying to get down there
as often as I possibly can right now.
My mom is doing well. Much better than I expected.
I mean, she relied on my dad and my dad told me,
you know, on his death bed, he said, "Oh, I think I spoiled your mother.
You know, can you take over?"
Um, and, um, you know,
I promised him I would keep an eye on her and watch after her.
And which is what I'm doing, why I'm going back and forth as often as I am.
I'm gonna check on my mother and then, um...
[sighs] Yeah, I'm kind of trying to be very...
-Getting her squared away. -Yeah.
Usually Caryn would go with me to Arizona,
but she's gonna be taking care of her grandson this weekend,
so I'm gonna go on my own.
[Chris] So this is a huge packed pad.
The perimeter of your house isn't gonna be this big, is it?
[Matt] No, basically, you have to kind of have the packed soil
about, I think it's like five feet beyond
-the furthest perimeter. -Okay.
All right, so the foundation's gonna sit right on top of this.
[Matt] Yes.
Even though the ground is ready, I mean,
I may not lay a foundation until next year.
The fact that the permits are gummed up does
put a wrench in a lot of things including my plan to marry Caryn.
I think... We don't have a house.
If we got married, we'd wanna naturally live together
and have a, you know, landing place.
So that is highly disappointing
that the house isn't where we were hoping it would be.
So back to pumpkin season.
What are your thoughts on Amy? Just the usual meet and greet?
Well, see, that's what I wanted to talk to you guys about.
I like her doing that and I wanted to ask you about, um, the tours.
You know, as far as helping out pumpkin season,
you know, we're expecting Amy and Chris, of course,
Jacob and Isabel are also helping out.
Amy is really the face of the family during pumpkin season.
So she has a very important role.
Last year, if I remember, you did like two hours a day, right?
Uh, yeah, it was two or three hours, um.
You know, if you're cutting it in half, you probably don't even need my help.
Well, no, we do. We always want a family member to do it.
We wanna talk to you about more hours.
-Oh. [laughs] -It's not less. [laughs]
When Matt first asked if I wanted to do, uh, pumpkin season,
my first response was yes, I had a good time last year.
Um, but, uh, then, I, you know, got to thinking I,
you know, I don't know if Amy's 100% committed.
And it would definitely be weird,
it wouldn't be nearly as much fun for me to do it without her.
So I really need to make sure that she's 100% committed
before I tell Matt that I'm 100% committed.
So I'm supposed to, you know, bring back some info to Amy,
but maybe when we get closer,
we'll come back and have a happy hour drink and discuss details.
[Matt] Yeah, that sounds like a good time.
My mother lives in an apartment in a senior home.
Just a few miles away from my house in Arizona that I have with Caryn.
My folks weren't there very long
before my dad passed, but my dad made sure
that they were set up and my mother was very comfortable,
but she still has some health challenges.
You know, my mom messed up her hip.
You know, created a challenge for her physically to get around.
And then, you know, she has some high blood pressure,
and some other medical issues that come with aging.
The thing that concerns me the absolute most
about her being alone is that she would fall.
And if she falls,
that could impact her mobility even more significantly.
Where do you wanna eat at?
Oh, I've got down at the garden cafe I think is the best.
-I'm dying for a cup of coffee. -We could go down there.
I think my mother, all of us, are still kind of in a state of shock
over losing my dad.
And, um, you know, I think she just hasn't
completely entered into the grieving space.
You know, and that's yet to come.
I think that might be true for all of us.
We haven't really fully processed
the fact that my dad is gone.
You're gonna be able to get in here by yourself?
Yeah, Dad was teaching me this just before he left.
Is how to transfer. Okay. Here I go.
-One, two, three. -Yep, stand up first.
-Yeah, there you go. -How do you like that?
-Okay. -Yeah.
Yeah, I think.
Good. That's a good transfer.
Super good transfer.
-[server] Good morning. -Hi.
[server] You know we do coffee, right?
-Regular? Okay. -Yes.
My dad, you know, super social guy.
And, you know, my mom is not quite as, uh, outgoing as Dad.
So we just wanna make sure, you know,
that my mother is not retreating into her room,
but continuing to meet more and more people.
Yeah.
Yeah, come on over.
You always sit with us.
Deloris is a really good friend of my mother's.
She's been a great companion since my dad's passing.
How have you been?
I'm doing good. Thank you.
-Good, good. You look great. -Oh, thank you.
My mom just really enjoys Deloris' company.
So, Mom, how do you see this going?
The event going down for Dad?
-I think everybody's getting excited to get that. -Yeah.
One thing is we definitely want to have is a military color guard,
-which means, uh... -[Matt] Oh, oh, right.
They... Dad used to really love that
-when he'd go to, like, different friends' memorials. -[Matt] Right, right. Yeah.
And then I would do a slideshow.
Oh, yeah.
[Matt] And we immediately delayed the idea of a memorial
until later in the year.
When the bulk of the family was available and gave us time to grieve,
and then put that together.
So now it's set for the first week of November.
This is not gonna be a traditional funeral,
you know, where you go to the gravesite and it's sad.
I mean, this is... You know, you...
A lot of people call it a celebration of life,
but it's really a memorial where we memorialize, uh,
you know, Papa, and we show, you know,
happy pictures and play upbeat music,
and, uh, that's sort of what the plan is.
[Peggy] Someone said I need a yellow flag.
-[Matt] Yeah. -[Peggy chuckling]
And I'm only going half speed.
[Matt] Yeah, I thought we were gonna have a race.
[Peggy] Yeah.
-[Matt chuckling] You're getting that down, huh? -Yeah.
[Matt] To go in the room after he was no...
you know, no longer with us, and, uh, looking at all the photos,
and kind of realizing this is gonna be my mother's room
and Dad's not gonna be here anymore.
You know, it's... it's a sad thought to think
that such a radical change can happen so quickly.
[Peggy] Matt, you wanted one of Dad's Bibles right?
Oh, yeah, yeah. But while... you know, I mean...
I don't want to take it away while you're using it, but yeah.
[Peggy] No, no. I've got about six Bibles, so this is, uh...
...Dad's. You can see how worn out it is.
[Matt] Yeah. Oh, yeah.
[Peggy] He's got lots of scripture in there that's all...
Does it have his name in it?
We've been... We've married 64 years,
and he loved me unconditionally.
We had a terrific marriage, and he was a good man.
Oh, now I miss him more, now.
That's the way it's supposed to be.
-You're supposed to miss him, yeah. -Yeah, yeah.
[Matt] Wow, you've got quite a few wonderful cards.
Ever... Are all your old friends finding you?
Yeah, they are, surprisingly.
I still don't really realize that Ron's gone.
I get up and I think, "Oh, I better be quiet."
-You know? But, and it's just these pillows... -You don't wanna wake him up.
Don't wanna wake him up. Yeah, wish I could.
-Mmm-hmm. -Um...
It's just a strange feeling.
But it's not... it's not sad.
So that's what's... that's what's really surprised me.
-Maybe that day will come. -Yeah.
I hope not.
[Matt] Coming up...
[Zach] Go!
[Amy laughing]
There's your brother!
[Jackson speaking]
[Tori] Okay, now Lilah, if you squirt him, he can squirt you.
-Whoa! -[Tori laughing]
Lilah, put your sunglasses on.
-[Chris] Hey, guys! Welcome! -[Tori] Hello!
Hey, Jackson. Hi, Lilah.
-[Zach] Hey. -[Tori] Good to see you.
[Chris] I like your sunglasses, Lilah.
[Tori] What do you say?
Say thank you?
Yeah, take your shoes off. Stay a while.
-[Zach] Hey. -[Amy] Hi!
[Zach] We have not been to Mimi and Chris's in a while,
so we're here for a pool party in their backyard.
Jackson likes kiddie pools.
[both] So does Lilah.
-They both love water. -Yeah.
Little kiddie pool action.
-[gasping] What? -[Jackson] Gotcha.
-[Zach laughing] -You can't do that.
[Zach] Wait, Jackson, get her! She's getting you!
Go!
[Amy laughing]
Here, let me load you up.
There's your brother!
[Jackson laughing and speaking]
[Tori] Okay, now Lilah, though, if you squirt him,
he can squirt you.
-Whoa! -[Tori laughing]
[Chris] Somebody told me that she's starting to say some words?
-She's starting to speak a little bit? Yeah? -[Zach] Oh, yeah.
She's speaking a lot better now.
Wow.
Lilah's speech has gotten...
-...a lot better. -Yeah, it has gotten a lot better.
-Her vocabulary has gotten... -We counted to ten this morning.
-Yeah, she's starting... She says thank you... -She's doing really good.
And I feel like it's helped her confidence a lot, too.
[Zach] There will be times when I still don't know what she's saying,
and she'll say it to me in such a sass.
Like, "I can... like, why wouldn't you...
-...understand me?" -"Why can't you understand me?"
How are you doing?
Hmm?
-[Tori] Yeah! -[Zach] Whoa!
Can you put your whole body underwater?
You can do it! Put your whole head underwater.
[Chris] Amy and I are having our one year anniversary coming up.
-Nice. When is your anniversary? -[Chris] So...
-[Amy] The 28th. -[Tori] 28th!
-28th. -Oh wow, okay. It's been a year? Wow.
[Zach] It's crazy. A lot happened in one year.
Yeah, my mom's wedding was around the time
the farm deal kind of went bad.
And, uh, the move was hard.
Moving's hard.
And also still processing the farm deal and the fallout and everything.
So, a lot happened in a year.
We'll do our, uh, um, our yearly celebration
at, uh, the reserve.
-Where we had our first date. -[Zach] Oh.
Oh, nice.
[Chris] So you guys didn't live together before you got married, then?
[Zach] No.
I wanted to act like we were married to get all that stuff,
-to see if it was gonna turn into anything big. -[Zach] Yeah.
[Chris] I mean, if it was going to be a deal killer,
I wanted to know ahead of time.
[laughing]
I've definitely had to, uh, make adjustments on
not having as much control over the environment I live in every day.
And, uh, that's taken a lot of compromising,
and, um, still working on that.
[Zach] Yeah, are we eating out here, or...
Yeah, dinner's ready if you guys want.
I can dish up.
I think adjustments in a relationship
will always be ongoing.
But I think for me, adjustments would be paying a little more attention
to what works for Chris, or what makes him happy,
which is basically one word... neatness.
And so I continue to try and get better at that.
But other than that, you know, it's been great!
Mmm.
Is that good food?
[Tori] This is really good.
I was worried that the sausage wouldn't quite work.
-[Tori] I told you, I've told you. -[Zach] No, it's super good.
[Tori] Her new thing is rice.
-And so, life is okay? Going good? -[Zach] Yeah.
-[Amy] Um... -[Zach] I'm thinking we might
move Jackson upstairs pretty soon, though.
That'll be a big thing.
[Zach] Slide Lilah over, and then get Josiah where Lilah is.
[Tori] They go back and forth daily.
-[Zach] Yeah, I know. -[Tori] It's like, it's a good choice or not.
Yeah.
[Zach] Sleep training has been kind of rough, um...
Tori's slept upstairs in our bonus room a couple times,
I've slept upstairs...
We've...
[chuckling]
Lilah has slept in our room, I've slept in Jackson's room,
Jackson has slept in our room.
Josiah has slept everywhere.
We slept outside in the tent.
-I've slept outside on the bench. -Yeah!
-We have many different... -Many different.
We've had many different combinations to make this work.
But we need something more permanent.
We need a better solution.
Are you, uh, doing anything with pumpkin season this year?
-No. -[Chris] No?
No interest, no... whatever.
[Amy] I know, I was debating...
...since so much has changed.
I know that Chris and Matt talked,
and Matt let Chris know what pumpkin season may look like,
what in general may be happening.
But with everything going on with the property and the house,
I don't anticipate all of the kids really "participating"
in pumpkin season this year.
And sometimes I think it's best just to...
...end it while you still have a good thought,
a good memory about it.
And so, until I talk to Matt,
I'm just not... I'm really not sure how I feel,
and what I want to do.
It's gonna be interesting to see who does come,
-because they're probably gonna wonder, like... -[Zach] None of them go.
...what is pumpkin season over there?
[Chris] People are gonna wanna see something.
I don't think it's gonna be all that much different than last year.
-I think it's gonna be super well attended, though. -[Chris] Yeah.
Time does change how you feel about things.
I will not regret if this is the last true pumpkin season...
...and we did not, like, participate or anything.
Like... the glory days when we met,
-and it was all of our friends... -Yeah.
-...working. It's just... -It's just not that at all anymore.
-That was 12 years ago. -Yeah.
-It... Those are over. -The farm is not...
...like, a place of joy for me anymore.
-[Amy chuckling] Oh, God. -[Tori] Not particularly.
Yeah!
[Lilah speaking]
[Amy] "Dada?" And who's this?
[Lilah] Uh...
[whispering] Chris.
[Lilah] Huh?
-[Amy] Chris. -Say "Chris."
-[Lilah mumbling] -You can say it.
-No? -"No." [chuckling]
[Matt] Tonight, I'm gonna take my mother to dinner.
I'm pretty encouraged my mother is really stepping up
to... to be as independent as possible.
I am my own physical limitation.
Caryn helped me with stuff, so...
...um, it's, it's a little bit of a double... double challenge,
helping my mom out where I can.
Can you go ahead and climb in,
-and I'll put the walker in there. -I will.
-Do you know how to fold these things? -I don't.
But we have this van that has suspension that goes up and down,
so I'm able to get my mom into the van pretty easily.
[Peggy] Yeah.
Okay.
There we go.
Now we've jinxed it and you're gonna splat on the ground.
Oh, my... thanks. I hope not.
[Peggy] Hi, there.
She likes to, you know, have a reason to kind of
get herself dressed up a little bit.
So, even though it's a little bit more work,
it's really nice to, you know, go eat something different,
you know, than the same... the same thing every single day.
And how would you like your filet cooked on that?
-Raw. -[waiter laughs] Raw, okay. Awesome.
-I meant rare. -[Matt] Okay, rare.
And I don't really see that changing.
I see more trips down there, not, you know, definitely not less.
Dad would love to come to a place like this.
-He loves Vietnamese food. -[Matt] Yeah.
Dad and I would love to go out once in a while,
-you know, this was nice. -Yeah.
-[waiter] Waters here for you. -[Peggy] Thank you.
[waiter] Of course.
And he loved to, um, meet people.
So I kinda got used to the idea of him going out.
Otherwise, we were with each other 24/7, which was wonderful.
Yeah.
In fact, the reason he had our chairs close together there
-in front of the TV, -Yeah.
was he wanted to hold hands.
-He loved me dearly. -Oh.
-Everybody just told me that. It was very humbling. -Yeah. Oh, yeah.
[Matt] My mother and father had
a long and very loving relationship.
Um, and having dinner with my mom
sort of reinforces how important
that Caryn is in my life.
[Peggy] We had a lot of experiences in our life.
Dad was really good.
-He took you on camping trips with your classrooms, -Yeah. Yeah.
and Yosemite, I think he went?
Oh, I remember crossing a river, he scared us to death.
-[laughs] -This rushing river,
and he walked across the rocks.
-Oh, yeah. -He was very sure-footed.
[Matt] My childhood was very fun.
You know, we did a lot of family trips,
you know, around the country.
We went camping a lot.
Um, you know, I always loved my folks
for the way they raised us, um,
you know, my folks never had any history of dwarfism in their family.
You know, all of a sudden, poof, you know,
they have a baby that's a dwarf.
You know, they had my sister first. Zero physical ailments,
and then, uh, you know, my brother and I both had dwarfism.
So I can only imagine
the absolute shock
that my parents would've felt.
Despite all that, I always felt completely loved,
and my folks felt like they were proud of me.
That's a special, special parent
to be able to provide that kind of upbringing.
And certainly a lot of that has rubbed off on me.
And I, you know, try to do some of those things with my kids.
How's yours? Does it have any flavor to it?
Yeah, it's good.
-Our life is gonna be different. -Mmm-hmm.
-Dad made a big impact on a lot of people. -Yeah.
You know, he knew who he was, and where he was going,
-and, yeah. -Yeah.
[Matt] I think my mother's putting on a very brave face.
My parents were married for virtually
their entire adult life.
So it's only natural for my mom
to struggle a little bit with my dad's absence.
Well, I'm glad we got to try this place.
Yeah, I am, too. Dad would love to have been here.
-He loved Vietnamese food. He loved everything. -Yeah. Mmm-hmm.
-Are you, um, ready to make the journey? -Yup.
[announcer] Coming up...
I couldn't believe when you proposed to me.
You were so nervous, weren't you?
-Were you nervous? -No, no.
Yeah, you were.
You got so, like, emotional or teary-eyed.
-Oh, please, I didn't get teary-eyed. -[laughs]
I was a rock.
[Chris] Would you like me to pull your chair out?
-[Amy] If you want. -Do you like that?
[Amy] Oh, sure.
-Yeah. -I mean, I don't know
-if it's better for you to adjust your own-- -I just...
I don't know, I just figure it's...
-[Chris] Do you want, do you want closer? -Yeah.
[Amy] It's our first year wedding anniversary,
and we made a decision
after he proposed to me,
that why don't we make this a yearly event?
To celebrate getting engaged,
first date, being married?
So we chose The Reserve,
because that's where, gosh,
-life-changing moments happened. -Yeah.
Six years ago was our first date.
And three years ago was when I proposed.
And then because of COVID, we couldn't come.
Oh, yeah, yeah. Yeah, that's right.
So this will be our first real dinner here
-since, uh, I proposed. -Yeah.
-Still good memories? -Yeah.
I'm just so happy I was able to trick you into saying yes.
[laughs] That you did.
It's on this hand.
Still looking pretty.
-The ring looks good, too. -[laughs]
-Yeah. -[Amy laughs] Yeah.
I couldn't believe when you proposed to me.
You were so nervous, weren't you?
-Were you nervous? -No, no.
Yeah, you were.
What?
Nothing.
You were nervous, you were...
I had it all figured out.
And then you were like... Oh, you got so,
like, emotional or teary-eyed.
-Oh, please, I didn't get teary-eyed. -[laughs]
[Chris] I was a rock.
[laughs]
[laughing] What?
[Chris sniffles]
[voice shaking] It's been an amazing journey.
And you're the one I want to finish it with.
[Amy] Chris doesn't show emotions.
Uh, often, even to this day,
that I've been married and with him for so long.
But when he did,
because I wasn't used to him doing that,
I, I didn't know what to do.
-Will you marry me? -Oh, my God!
[Amy laughs]
Yes!
I wasn't crying.
[chuckling] You just got a little watery.
-Oh, it was smoky out there. -[laughs]
Happy one-year anniversary.
-Happy one-year anniversary, babe. -Mmm.
-Here's the salad for you. -Oh, okay, thank you.
-Mmm, thank you. -Enjoy.
So what are the most favorite things that you did this year?
Oh, the motorcycle ride
-Yeah. -was the most adventurous.
[Amy] I, I would, I would say so, too.
Can I handle it? Can I handle three more days
before our final destination?
Before we turn around and come home? Oof.
[whispering] I don't know.
[in normal voice] Can we handle it, babe?
[Chris speaking]
[Amy] Oh, you're in it for the long haul? [laughs]
[Chris] We're both on the same page,
that our future is really gonna be...
I know we wanna do a lot of traveling in our future.
And I'm hoping to keep up with the new adventures, you know?
Now that we're married, I don't wanna become
too sedentary and think, you know,
the wooing stage is over,
I wanna keep going, I wanna, you know, explore--
-Oh, you wanna keep wooing me? -That, too.
-Yeah. -Oh, okay.
And my way of doing that is new experiences.
You know, getting out and exploring and doing fun stuff.
-Okay. -Keep moving.
Oh, I'm looking forward to the balloon ride
-that you got me for my birthday. -Yeah.
That'll be our first thing.
-And then we're gonna go back to Michigan. -Yeah, I wanna do that.
Lord willing, my father will still be okay.
I hope so.
Do you ever see him flying out here again,
or was the wedding his last plane trip?
-I think the wedding was his last plane trip. -Yeah.
-I'm just really glad he did it. -Yeah.
And I'm so happy we got married on the farm, too.
-I think that worked out really well. -Yeah, I did too.
That was a wonderful moment.
I'm glad it came to me again.
I never thought it would.
-No? -I never expected that.
[Amy] Having a second opportunity,
you know, at having a wonderful relationship with Chris,
is being reminded.
It's not only the mechanics of a relationship,
but also the joy and giving
in a relationship as well.
[Chris] I feel like we're still continuing to learn
-[Amy] Mmm-hmm. -about each other,
and how to happily live with each other.
But for me, there's never been a single moment
or instance where I've had any doubt or regret.
-That you wanted to run? -Yeah.
Neither have I.
Here's to the continuation
of the sweetness of life together.
Here's to the next six months.
-I love you. -I love you, too.
[Amy] Mmm.
What are they gonna do in the dunk tank?
Where is that dunking table?
-I think it's outside on the back patio. -Oh.
Today's my last day, uh, here in Arizona visiting my mother,
and there's a kind of a country fair, carnival,
uh, themed party going on
at her center today.
Keeps everybody, you know, active and entertained.
Drench 'em, Caroline.
[laughing]
[woman] Here we go.
[people shouting] Ohhh!
[people cheering]
[Matt] My mother is doing surprisingly well,
and she's taking care of herself.
She's figuring out how to be independent again, um,
and I'm very, very proud of her.
She's sort of stepped up.
Can you throw that far?
-Oh, to that little flag? -You gotta hit that bucket.
[people cheering]
-[Peggy] Okay, can I get a little closer? -[woman speaking]
-Aw. Oh! -[woman speaking]
Okay, I'm gonna go a little closer.
Right on your nose, huh? [laughs]
Hey, that's too close!
-[Peggy] Oh! -[people cheering]
[laughing] Sorry.
Oh, I did good. Yeah.
Finally!
-Could you have gotten any closer? -[both laugh]
-No, I started to walk up on them. -Yeah.
-You could've hit them with your hand. -Yup.
I'm very, very happy for what I've seen so far.
Um, just, if she doesn't fall
and break a bone, or her hip,
or some catastrophe,
she could, um, stay independent, you know, indefinitely.
-Um, okay, well, that was a lot of fun. -It was.
Okay. Keep, um, you know, up with your meds.
-Come back soon. -Come back soon, keep up with your meds.
I'm really glad I get to be able to spend this time
with my mom, and, um,
you know, I'm hoping if I make it into my 80s,
then I get to be as, you know,
get to be as close to the family as she is.
You're in good hands here.
-I'm in very good hands here. -And I'm very proud of you, you're doing super good.
-Dad would be so pleased. -He'd be very pleased.
My dad, he was a solid human being. Solid character.
Set a great example for all of his grandkids
and great-grandkids, you know, so.
He, he has a, it's a high bar, and, uh,
he would've put out a big effort to make sure that
other relationships heal and that people got along,
and everybody loved each other,
and that the family stuck together through thick and thin.
-See you. -Anyway, I'll see you in a couple weeks, okay?
-All right, love you. -See you. Okay, bye, love you too, sweetheart.
And, um, I'm gonna do my best to, you know,
follow in his footsteps
and, you know, I'm gonna do my best to honor his memory.
Family's important, and I'm, you know,
always gonna love my kids.
And I get it. I'm a dominant force,
you know, in everything that I do.
I apologize, but that's just the way that I am.
So there's no doubt I look back and think,
"Oh, I could've done this better."
You know, but I think it's time to look towards the future
and not towards the past.
[announcer] Next on Little People, Big World...
[Zach] Last night was rough.
Last night was R-U-F-F, rough.
Sleep training is just, it's been impossible.
[wailing]
I haven't slept since I gave birth to him.
-[Amy] Hey, hey, hey. -[Tori] How are ya?
[Matt] Chris and Amy are gonna talk about
their involvement in pumpkin season.
So let's get down to business.
What are you guys, um, are you still on board?
[Amy] Everything that's going on,
how this whole farm thing went down,
I think, you know, we're all trying to figure out
this is still family,
but how do we interact with that family now?
Okay, so you're doing pumpkin season this year?
Are you?
Things have changed, you know, the place is up for sale.
And then of course, you know,
-the whole thing between Matt and Chris. -Their little bromance.
-Yeah. -Are you okay with that?
[Tori] I don't know, we, like, worry about you.
-Just, like, we wanna make sure that you're, like... -Aw, my kids.
[Amy] I think I came away from divorce
knowing that I've got four kids to still be here for,
so they gave me a purpose.
And they will always be, till...
[Caryn] So, you said you had a big plan B.
Occasionally even Matt Roloff's thick skull,
you know, you feel like you get hit in the head
with a hammer and it wakes you up.
Are you gonna tell everybody?
It's time to listen, [laughs]
to the hammer hitting the side of my skull
and do something different with the farm.