1 00:00:09,077 --> 00:00:10,978 AH, ALEX. 2 00:00:11,079 --> 00:00:12,746 PAUL. 3 00:00:26,394 --> 00:00:28,629 SO, ARE THERE ANY RULES? 4 00:00:28,729 --> 00:00:32,166 - RULES? - GROUND RULES. 5 00:00:32,266 --> 00:00:34,068 ANYTHING I SHOULD KNOW BEFORE WE START? 6 00:00:34,168 --> 00:00:37,305 OH, NOT REALLY. IT'S MORE OR LESS UP TO YOU. 7 00:00:37,405 --> 00:00:41,475 OH, RIGHT, RIGHT. I'M A CUSTOMER. 8 00:00:41,575 --> 00:00:42,910 YEAH. 9 00:00:43,010 --> 00:00:45,179 THOUGH IN MY PROFESSION, WE SAY 10 00:00:45,279 --> 00:00:47,748 THAT THE CUSTOMER IS ALWAYS WRONG. 11 00:00:49,383 --> 00:00:52,786 THAT'S A THERAPIST'S JOKE. 12 00:00:52,886 --> 00:00:56,190 ( theme music playing ) 13 00:01:26,254 --> 00:01:29,290 SO, DO YOU RECOGNIZE ME? 14 00:01:29,390 --> 00:01:32,293 NO. 15 00:01:33,093 --> 00:01:35,363 I'M SORRY, SHOULD I? 16 00:01:35,463 --> 00:01:37,998 WELL, I WAS TOLD YOU'RE THE BEST-- 17 00:01:38,098 --> 00:01:39,300 A MAN IN TUNE WITH EVERYTHING AROUND HIM, 18 00:01:39,400 --> 00:01:41,435 SO, YES, I GUESS YOU SHOULD. 19 00:01:41,535 --> 00:01:43,904 THANK YOU, BUT I DO THINK THAT IN THIS PROFESSION, 20 00:01:44,004 --> 00:01:46,907 "THE BEST" IS REALLY A MATTER 21 00:01:47,007 --> 00:01:48,676 OF PERSONAL OPINION. 22 00:01:48,776 --> 00:01:51,479 I DON'T KNOW, THE BEST CAN BE ESTABLISHED BY FACTS 23 00:01:51,579 --> 00:01:53,281 AND FIGURES. 24 00:01:53,381 --> 00:01:56,617 YOU'RE THE BEST. I DID MY RESEARCH-- 25 00:01:56,717 --> 00:01:58,051 A COUPLE FORMER PATIENTS, 26 00:01:58,152 --> 00:02:01,255 SOMEONE ELSE WHO KNEW YOU FROM GRADUATE SCHOOL. 27 00:02:01,355 --> 00:02:03,524 DOES THAT PRESSURE YOU? 28 00:02:03,624 --> 00:02:05,092 IS IT IMPORTANT FOR YOU TO KNOW 29 00:02:05,193 --> 00:02:07,895 THAT I AM THE BEST? 30 00:02:07,995 --> 00:02:10,164 YES. IT'S NOTHING PERSONAL. 31 00:02:10,264 --> 00:02:12,500 I ALWAYS GO TO THE BEST-- DENTISTS, MECHANICS. 32 00:02:12,600 --> 00:02:16,337 YOU KNOW WHAT THEY SAY-- "SAVE NOW, PAY LATER." 33 00:02:16,437 --> 00:02:17,805 HMM. 34 00:02:17,905 --> 00:02:20,874 SO WHAT DO YOU THINK 35 00:02:20,974 --> 00:02:23,977 BEING "THE BEST" THERAPIST ENTAILS? 36 00:02:24,077 --> 00:02:25,946 DO YOU RECOGNIZE ME? 37 00:02:26,046 --> 00:02:29,617 NO... I DON'T. 38 00:02:29,717 --> 00:02:31,719 OKAY, LET ME HELP YOU. 39 00:02:31,819 --> 00:02:33,187 "THE MADRASA MURDERER"-- 40 00:02:33,287 --> 00:02:35,088 DOES THAT MEAN ANYTHING TO YOU? 41 00:02:35,189 --> 00:02:39,026 - NO. - WASN'T THAT LONG AGO. 42 00:02:39,126 --> 00:02:41,094 A U.S. NAVY AIRCRAFT HIT A TARGET 43 00:02:41,195 --> 00:02:42,396 ON THE OUTSKIRTS OF BAGHDAD. 44 00:02:42,496 --> 00:02:44,765 NAVAL INTELLIGENCE IDENTIFIED THE STRUCTURE 45 00:02:44,865 --> 00:02:46,567 AS AN INSURGENT SAFEHOUSE-- 46 00:02:46,667 --> 00:02:48,101 A BUNKER. 47 00:02:48,202 --> 00:02:50,170 TURNS OUT IT'S A MADRASA. 48 00:02:50,271 --> 00:02:52,473 LET ME TELL YOU WHAT THAT IS. 49 00:02:52,573 --> 00:02:54,174 IT'S AN ISLAMIC RELIGIOUS SCHOOL. 50 00:02:54,275 --> 00:02:57,010 BOYS, LIKE BEES IN A BEEHIVE, STUDYING THE KORAN. 51 00:02:57,110 --> 00:03:00,314 16 OF THEM DEAD. 52 00:03:03,183 --> 00:03:06,053 - RINGS A BELL? - YES, I REMEMBER THAT. 53 00:03:06,153 --> 00:03:08,055 SO, THAT'S ME. 54 00:03:08,155 --> 00:03:09,323 I FLEW THAT MISSION. 55 00:03:09,423 --> 00:03:12,693 ( chuckles ) THE MADRASA MURDERER. 56 00:03:19,267 --> 00:03:21,935 SO DO YOU SURF THE NET? 57 00:03:24,071 --> 00:03:26,340 WELL, SOMEHOW... 58 00:03:26,440 --> 00:03:28,242 WELL, IT WASN'T REALLY SOMEHOW. 59 00:03:28,342 --> 00:03:30,611 LET'S CALL A SPADE A SPADE. 60 00:03:30,711 --> 00:03:33,781 A LEAK, PROBABLY ANOTHER INTELLIGENCE FUCKUP. 61 00:03:33,881 --> 00:03:36,884 ANYWAY, I WAS IDENTIFIED 62 00:03:36,984 --> 00:03:38,686 AS THE PILOT IN THAT MISSION. 63 00:03:38,786 --> 00:03:41,121 AND MY PHOTO WAS PLACED ON FUNDAMENTALIST WEBSITES. 64 00:03:41,221 --> 00:03:43,123 AND I'M NOT TALKING AL-JAZEERA. 65 00:03:43,223 --> 00:03:44,592 I'M TALKING WEBSITES THAT ARE... 66 00:03:44,692 --> 00:03:46,627 ASKING FOR MY HEAD ON A PLATTER. 67 00:03:46,727 --> 00:03:49,363 OFFERING UP THE HEAVENS AND 40 VIRGINS 68 00:03:49,463 --> 00:03:51,899 TO ANYONE WHO WILL SLIT MY THROAT FROM EAR TO EAR. 69 00:03:51,999 --> 00:03:54,167 HERE. 70 00:03:54,268 --> 00:03:56,370 HERE I AM. NOW, IT'S NOT A RECENT PHOTO. 71 00:03:56,470 --> 00:03:58,171 IT'S A PHOTO TAKEN WHEN I WAS 18 72 00:03:58,272 --> 00:04:00,874 ON A HIGH SCHOOL TRIP TO... 73 00:04:00,974 --> 00:04:04,645 EUROPE-- HOLLAND. THAT CITY WITH THE MINIATURES? 74 00:04:04,745 --> 00:04:06,179 ULTRE-- UTRECHT. 75 00:04:06,280 --> 00:04:09,717 - UTRECHT. - GO AHEAD. 76 00:04:11,785 --> 00:04:13,654 SO WHILE I'M SITTING HERE TALKING TO YOU, 77 00:04:13,754 --> 00:04:16,223 A MILLION FANATICS ARE DOWNLOADING MY PORTRAIT 78 00:04:16,324 --> 00:04:18,392 AND PRINTING IT OUT AS A DARTBOARD. 79 00:04:18,492 --> 00:04:21,395 ( chuckles ) SILLY MOTHERFUCKERS. 80 00:04:23,664 --> 00:04:26,300 SO WHY HAVE YOU COME TO SEE ME? 81 00:04:26,400 --> 00:04:29,337 WHOA-WHOA-WHOA. WE'LL GET TO THAT. 82 00:04:29,437 --> 00:04:31,071 NOW, SO YOU'RE PROBABLY THINKING, 83 00:04:31,171 --> 00:04:33,741 "WHAT'S IT LIKE? 84 00:04:33,841 --> 00:04:36,009 HE FLEW HIS MISSION, 85 00:04:36,109 --> 00:04:37,578 AND HE FLEW BACK, 86 00:04:37,678 --> 00:04:40,981 AND HE SAW THE BODIES OF THOSE CHILDREN ON CNN." 87 00:04:42,816 --> 00:04:44,385 YOU'RE PROBABLY TRYING TO FIGURE OUT, 88 00:04:44,485 --> 00:04:46,587 "WHAT WENT THROUGH HIS HEAD?" 89 00:04:47,788 --> 00:04:48,922 LET ME TELL YOU. 90 00:04:49,022 --> 00:04:51,959 AFTER THAT KIND OF MISSION, I DON'T WATCH CNN. 91 00:04:52,059 --> 00:04:54,562 I GO TO SLEEP. 92 00:04:55,195 --> 00:04:57,631 I'M DEAD TIRED. 93 00:04:58,932 --> 00:05:01,869 YOU'RE PROBABLY DYING TO ASK HOW I CAN SLEEP NIGHTS. 94 00:05:01,969 --> 00:05:04,338 ( chuckles ) OKAY. 95 00:05:04,438 --> 00:05:06,407 HOW DO YOU SLEEP? 96 00:05:06,507 --> 00:05:08,576 I SLEEP VERY WELL, THANK YOU VERY MUCH, 97 00:05:08,676 --> 00:05:10,844 KNOWING IT WAS "MISSION ACCOMPLISHED." 98 00:05:10,944 --> 00:05:12,413 AND WITH GREAT PRECISION, LET ME TELL YOU. 99 00:05:12,513 --> 00:05:13,914 SEE, I FOLLOWED MY ORDERS, 100 00:05:14,014 --> 00:05:16,350 WHICH WERE-- HIT MY TARGET AND HIT IT ON TIME. 101 00:05:16,450 --> 00:05:17,751 TIME AND TARGET. 102 00:05:17,851 --> 00:05:19,753 DO YOU KNOW, WE HAVE TO HIT OUR TARGETS 103 00:05:19,853 --> 00:05:22,423 WITHIN TWO SECONDS OF THE ESTIMATED TIME? 104 00:05:22,523 --> 00:05:24,124 IT'S SURGICAL. 105 00:05:24,224 --> 00:05:26,293 THAT'S ONE SMALL WINDOW, 106 00:05:26,394 --> 00:05:28,228 AND I HAVE NEVER MISSED IT. 107 00:05:28,328 --> 00:05:30,498 IF I HAD FAILED THAT TASK, 108 00:05:30,598 --> 00:05:32,099 I'D BE IN TROUBLE WITH MY SUPERIORS, 109 00:05:32,199 --> 00:05:33,801 WITH MY CONSCIENCE, 110 00:05:33,901 --> 00:05:36,336 AND WITH THE SYSTEM. 111 00:05:36,437 --> 00:05:38,872 BUT I HIT MY TARGET. 112 00:05:39,707 --> 00:05:42,543 SO I SLEEP LIKE A BABY. 113 00:05:45,178 --> 00:05:49,049 HOW MANY CHILDREN 114 00:05:49,149 --> 00:05:52,319 DIED IN THIS MISSION? 115 00:05:52,420 --> 00:05:55,088 THE MEDIA PUTS IT AT 16. 116 00:05:55,188 --> 00:05:59,560 - AND THE AIR FORCE? - THE NAVY, DOCTOR. LISTEN. 117 00:05:59,660 --> 00:06:01,562 THE NAVY SAYS NOTHING AND WHY SHOULD IT? 118 00:06:01,662 --> 00:06:02,996 WE'RE NOT IN THE BUSINESS OF BODY COUNTS, 119 00:06:03,096 --> 00:06:04,732 WE'RE IN THE BUSINESS OF HITTING OUR TARGETS. 120 00:06:04,832 --> 00:06:06,534 WE DON'T LOOK BACK OVER OUR SHOULDER, BELIEVE ME. 121 00:06:06,634 --> 00:06:08,235 WE'RE OUT THERE DOING OUR THING 122 00:06:08,335 --> 00:06:09,537 SO YOU CAN SIT HERE IN PEACE 123 00:06:09,637 --> 00:06:11,572 TALKING TO PEOPLE FOR A LIVING. 124 00:06:16,577 --> 00:06:18,579 SO WHEN DID YOU HEAR 125 00:06:18,679 --> 00:06:21,048 THE CHILDREN HAD BEEN KILLED? 126 00:06:22,249 --> 00:06:24,017 THE FOLLOWING AFTERNOON. 127 00:06:24,117 --> 00:06:25,285 I HEARD IT ON THE INTERNET. 128 00:06:25,385 --> 00:06:28,388 AND WHAT EXACTLY DID YOU HEAR? 129 00:06:28,489 --> 00:06:32,125 ANYTHING SPECIFICALLY THAT YOU REMEMBER? 130 00:06:33,126 --> 00:06:34,995 LIKE WHAT? LISTEN, 131 00:06:35,095 --> 00:06:37,064 IT'S NOT LIKE THERE'S TIME IN THE DAY TO BE SURFING THE NET. 132 00:06:37,164 --> 00:06:38,566 THIS WAS A MOMENT. I GOT AWAY. 133 00:06:38,666 --> 00:06:41,034 THERE'S A LOT OF STUFF TO KEEP ME BUSY. 134 00:06:41,134 --> 00:06:43,537 WHAT KIND OF STUFF? 135 00:06:43,637 --> 00:06:47,107 MISSION REVIEW, AERIAL PHOTOS, VIDEO-- 136 00:06:47,207 --> 00:06:48,809 JUST DATA, STUFF. 137 00:06:48,909 --> 00:06:50,644 PREPARATION VERSUS EXECUTION. 138 00:06:50,744 --> 00:06:53,380 EVERY TINY TECHNICAL ASPECT OF OUR FLIGHT 139 00:06:53,481 --> 00:06:55,949 IS RECORDED AND ANALYZED BY THE MAN. 140 00:06:56,049 --> 00:06:57,417 THERE'S NOWHERE TO HIDE. 141 00:06:57,518 --> 00:06:58,719 AND THAT'S THE WAY IT SHOULD BE. 142 00:06:58,819 --> 00:07:00,754 IT'S JUST STUFF AND MORE STUFF. 143 00:07:00,854 --> 00:07:02,990 IT'S LIKE WHEN MY MOTHER DIED. 144 00:07:03,090 --> 00:07:05,358 MY FATHER HAD A YEAR'S WORTH OF STUFF TO DEAL WITH-- 145 00:07:05,459 --> 00:07:08,328 LAST WILL AND TESTAMENT, HER OFFICE, GARDEN, 146 00:07:08,428 --> 00:07:11,298 A LIFETIME OF PHOTO ALBUMS. 147 00:07:11,398 --> 00:07:12,633 AND EVERY TIME I'D TALK TO HIM, 148 00:07:12,733 --> 00:07:16,336 I'D ASK HOW HE WAS, EXPECTING, UH, 149 00:07:16,436 --> 00:07:20,073 YOU KNOW, THAT HE'D BREAK DOWN... 150 00:07:21,041 --> 00:07:22,843 FINALLY. 151 00:07:25,012 --> 00:07:27,548 "IT NEVER ENDS, ALEX. IT NEVER ENDS. 152 00:07:27,648 --> 00:07:29,517 YOUR MOTHER LEFT SUCH A MESS. 153 00:07:29,617 --> 00:07:32,820 SHE DIDN'T KNOW SHE WAS GONNA DIE." 154 00:07:38,291 --> 00:07:41,194 AND THAT'S ALL HE'D SAY. 155 00:07:41,294 --> 00:07:43,430 AND AFTER LESS THAN A YEAR, HE MET ANOTHER WOMAN 156 00:07:43,531 --> 00:07:45,398 AND GOT MARRIED JUST LIKE THAT. 157 00:07:45,499 --> 00:07:47,501 SO, HOW DID THAT MAKE YOU FEEL? 158 00:07:48,902 --> 00:07:50,003 I WAS SURPRISED. 159 00:07:50,103 --> 00:07:53,073 A WHOLE LIFE TOGETHER AND NOT A SINGLE TEAR? 160 00:07:53,173 --> 00:07:54,775 MMM. 161 00:07:54,875 --> 00:07:57,511 IT'S INTERESTING THAT YOU COMPARE 162 00:07:57,611 --> 00:08:00,047 THE DEATH OF YOUR MOTHER WITH THIS MISSION 163 00:08:00,147 --> 00:08:02,249 THAT YOU'VE JUST FLOWN. 164 00:08:02,349 --> 00:08:05,418 THAT'S VERY CLEVER OF YOU. 165 00:08:05,519 --> 00:08:07,755 BUT THERE'S NO RELATION WHATSOEVER. 166 00:08:07,855 --> 00:08:10,190 MY MOTHER'S DEATH WAS THE MOST TRAUMATIC EVENT 167 00:08:10,290 --> 00:08:11,992 IN MY LIFE SO FAR. 168 00:08:12,092 --> 00:08:14,562 THAT MISSION WAS JUST ANOTHER MISSION FOR ALEX. 169 00:08:14,662 --> 00:08:16,263 THERE IS NO COMPARISON. 170 00:08:16,363 --> 00:08:18,465 ANYWAY, LOOK, THAT'S OVER. 171 00:08:18,566 --> 00:08:21,501 AND I'M BACK NOW. I'M BACK AT MY HOME BASE 172 00:08:21,602 --> 00:08:23,604 AND NOW I'M ON R&R. 173 00:08:23,704 --> 00:08:26,339 WHAT KIND OF THINGS DO YOU DO FOR R&R? 174 00:08:26,439 --> 00:08:28,876 DON'T TRY TO GET AHEAD OF ME. 175 00:08:28,976 --> 00:08:30,343 I'M A RUNNER. 176 00:08:30,443 --> 00:08:31,812 I WAS A HELL OF A RUNNER IN HIGH SCHOOL 177 00:08:31,912 --> 00:08:33,981 AND I'M STILL A PRETTY GOOD ONE FOR AN OLD MAN. 178 00:08:34,081 --> 00:08:35,282 SO I RUN 179 00:08:35,382 --> 00:08:37,117 WITH MY FAIRY FRIEND, 180 00:08:37,217 --> 00:08:38,919 THIS GAY GUY WHO COULD KICK YOUR ASS AT ANY SPORT. 181 00:08:39,019 --> 00:08:42,122 AND DOES HE HAVE A NAME, THIS FRIEND? 182 00:08:43,156 --> 00:08:44,658 - DANIEL. - DANIEL. 183 00:08:44,758 --> 00:08:46,560 WE'VE BEEN RUNNING TOGETHER FOR A LONG TIME, 184 00:08:46,660 --> 00:08:48,862 BETWEEN SIX AND 10 MILES-- 185 00:08:48,962 --> 00:08:51,832 DEPENDING ON WHETHER ONE OF US IS ON HIS PERIOD. 186 00:08:51,932 --> 00:08:53,667 ONLY THIS TIME I CHALLENGED HIM A LITTLE. 187 00:08:53,767 --> 00:08:55,669 SEE, THERE'S NO REAL GOOD RUNNING IN THE MIDDLE EAST. 188 00:08:55,769 --> 00:08:57,805 NOT FOR THE U.S. MILITARY, 189 00:08:57,905 --> 00:08:59,640 UNLESS YOU WANT A ROADSIDE BOMB TO BLOW YOUR BALLS OFF. 190 00:08:59,740 --> 00:09:01,374 SO I WANTED TO DO SOME SERIOUS RUNNING. 191 00:09:01,474 --> 00:09:04,411 I SAID, "LET'S GO FOR 15." 192 00:09:04,511 --> 00:09:06,446 THEN AFTER 15 MILES, I SAID, "20." 193 00:09:06,546 --> 00:09:08,048 NOW HE DIDN'T WANT IT, 194 00:09:08,148 --> 00:09:10,117 BUT I SAID, "OKAY, I'LL GO ON MY OWN." 195 00:09:10,217 --> 00:09:11,919 SO HE FOLLOWED. 196 00:09:12,019 --> 00:09:13,854 I SAID, "YOU KNOW, ONLY SIX MORE 197 00:09:13,954 --> 00:09:17,290 AND IT'S A MARATHON. LET'S DO IT." 198 00:09:17,390 --> 00:09:21,161 HE WANTED TO STOP. LITTLE BITCH. 199 00:09:22,529 --> 00:09:25,265 BUT I WASN'T GONNA STOP. 200 00:09:26,433 --> 00:09:29,402 IT WAS TOUGH. 201 00:09:29,502 --> 00:09:33,040 WE WERE OUT OF WATER-- WE'RE ON FUMES. 202 00:09:35,075 --> 00:09:37,277 AT 22 MILES, 203 00:09:37,377 --> 00:09:39,947 I HAD A HEART ATTACK AND DIED. 204 00:09:40,781 --> 00:09:42,616 A TEXTBOOK CASE-- 205 00:09:42,716 --> 00:09:44,952 STRAIGHT OUTTA MED SCHOOL-- 206 00:09:45,052 --> 00:09:46,920 ENLARGEMENT OF THE LEFT VENTRICLE. 207 00:09:47,020 --> 00:09:51,024 IN ACCORDANCE WITH THE FAMILY HISTORY ON BOTH SIDES, FATAL. 208 00:09:51,124 --> 00:09:53,260 ACCORDING TO THE EKG AND ACCORDING TO STATISTICS, 209 00:09:53,360 --> 00:09:56,664 I HAD A 97.3% CHANCE OF DYING, 210 00:09:56,764 --> 00:09:59,132 OR 2.7% CHANCE OF LIVING. 211 00:09:59,232 --> 00:10:02,102 ANYWAY, DEAD. 212 00:10:02,202 --> 00:10:05,773 YOU ACTUALLY DIED? 213 00:10:05,873 --> 00:10:08,475 IN THE CLINICAL SENSE. NO PULSE, NO BRAIN ACTIVITY. 214 00:10:08,575 --> 00:10:10,744 TOTAL CLINICAL DEATH. 215 00:10:12,145 --> 00:10:13,413 BUT HERE I AM. 216 00:10:13,513 --> 00:10:16,283 - ( sighs ) - AND NOW I'M GONNA 217 00:10:16,383 --> 00:10:18,351 DISAPPOINT YOU, DOCTOR. 218 00:10:22,089 --> 00:10:24,491 DON'T YOU WANNA KNOW WHY I'M GONNA DISAPPOINT YOU? 219 00:10:24,591 --> 00:10:26,126 LET ME HELP YOU OUT. THE LIGHT, THE TUNNEL, 220 00:10:26,226 --> 00:10:28,195 THE WHOLE LIFE- FLASHING-BEFORE-MY-EYES, 221 00:10:28,295 --> 00:10:30,630 THAT'S WHAT YOU'RE INTERESTED IN, RIGHT? 222 00:10:30,731 --> 00:10:33,266 NO, I WASN'T-- 223 00:10:33,366 --> 00:10:35,002 I WASN'T ACTUALLY THINKING OF THAT AT ALL. 224 00:10:35,102 --> 00:10:36,704 BUT I AM INTERESTED. PLEASE, TELL ME. 225 00:10:36,804 --> 00:10:39,106 HEY, I COULDN'T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT IT EITHER. 226 00:10:39,206 --> 00:10:41,341 BUT THAT'S ALL EVERYONE WANTED TO KNOW ABOUT-- 227 00:10:41,441 --> 00:10:44,712 MY FATHER, MY WIFE-- EVERYONE. 228 00:10:44,812 --> 00:10:46,780 THEY JUST WANTED TO HEAR ABOUT THE GODDAMN TUNNEL. 229 00:10:48,481 --> 00:10:51,218 JUST-- SUCH BULLSHIT. 230 00:10:56,089 --> 00:10:57,825 DO YOU FEEL THAT MAYBE YOU... 231 00:10:57,925 --> 00:11:00,928 DISAPPOINTED PEOPLE BY NOT HAVING THAT EXPERIENCE? 232 00:11:01,028 --> 00:11:04,497 THAT MAYBE IN SOME WAY, 233 00:11:04,597 --> 00:11:06,333 YOU FAILED TO DELIVER THE GOODS? 234 00:11:08,969 --> 00:11:11,604 NOBODY REALLY KNOWS WHAT WAS GOING THROUGH MY MIND 235 00:11:11,705 --> 00:11:13,540 DURING THOSE LAST FEW MOMENTS. 236 00:11:13,640 --> 00:11:17,677 SOON AS THERE WAS NO MORE TUNNEL, NO ONE WAS INTERESTED. 237 00:11:17,778 --> 00:11:19,579 AND WHAT WAS GOING THROUGH YOUR MIND? 238 00:11:19,679 --> 00:11:22,415 OH, I KNEW WHAT WAS HAPPENING. YOU CAN TELL. 239 00:11:22,515 --> 00:11:24,684 AND YOU'RE AFRAID IT'S THE END. 240 00:11:25,886 --> 00:11:29,256 IN ALL THAT TIME UNTIL I LOST CONSCIOUSNESS, 241 00:11:30,891 --> 00:11:34,027 ALL THAT TIME-- I DON'T KNOW HOW LONG IT WAS, 242 00:11:34,127 --> 00:11:36,063 MAYBE SECONDS, MAYBE HALF A MINUTE-- 243 00:11:36,163 --> 00:11:38,899 ALL THAT TIME, I KEPT TRYING TO FIGURE OUT IF I HAD A HARD-ON. 244 00:11:38,999 --> 00:11:41,735 SEE, I DON'T KNOW HOW I REMEMBER THIS-- 245 00:11:41,835 --> 00:11:43,036 SOMETHING MY GRANDMOTHER TOLD ME 246 00:11:43,136 --> 00:11:45,172 WHEN I WAS IN HIGH SCHOOL. 247 00:11:45,272 --> 00:11:47,274 AND SHE SAID, "WHEN GRANDPA DIED, 248 00:11:47,374 --> 00:11:51,244 SHE FOUND HIM LYING NAKED IN THE BATHTUB 249 00:11:51,344 --> 00:11:53,013 WITH A HUGE ERECTION. 250 00:11:53,113 --> 00:11:56,049 NOW HE WAS 92 YEARS OLD. 251 00:11:56,149 --> 00:11:59,887 SHE HADN'T SEEN AN ERECTION LIKE THAT IN 20 YEARS. 252 00:11:59,987 --> 00:12:01,855 ( chuckles ) SHE LIKED IT. 253 00:12:01,955 --> 00:12:05,425 SHE SAID THAT WAS "GOD'S FINAL GIFT TO A MAN-- 254 00:12:05,525 --> 00:12:06,927 A DEAD MAN'S BONER." 255 00:12:07,027 --> 00:12:09,329 THEY CALL IT "ANGEL LUST." 256 00:12:09,429 --> 00:12:12,099 ANYWAY, SO I'M LYING THERE AND I'M THINKING ABOUT THAT STORY. 257 00:12:12,199 --> 00:12:14,868 I KNOW WHAT'S HAPPENING TO ME AND I SAID TO MYSELF, 258 00:12:14,968 --> 00:12:18,538 "GOD ALMIGHTY, JUST DON'T LET ME HAVE AN ERECTION RIGHT NOW, 259 00:12:18,638 --> 00:12:20,240 NOT A HARD-ON." 260 00:12:20,340 --> 00:12:23,576 BECAUSE IF YOU HAD AN ERECTION, IT WOULD MEAN... 261 00:12:23,676 --> 00:12:26,413 THAT WOULD MEAN THAT I WAS DEAD. 262 00:12:26,513 --> 00:12:27,915 OH. 263 00:12:28,015 --> 00:12:30,884 AND YOUR FRIEND DANIEL WAS WITH YOU THROUGHOUT THIS? 264 00:12:30,984 --> 00:12:33,086 YEAH, RESUSCITATION, CPR-- 265 00:12:33,186 --> 00:12:35,422 DANIEL'S A DOCTOR, I FORGOT TO SAY THAT. 266 00:12:35,522 --> 00:12:36,990 FOR A MINUTE THERE, I THOUGHT 267 00:12:37,090 --> 00:12:38,859 YOU WERE GOING TO SAY SOMETHING ELSE, THAT PERHAPS 268 00:12:38,959 --> 00:12:41,829 YOUR FEAR OF AN ERECTION WAS ASSOCIATED 269 00:12:41,929 --> 00:12:44,431 WITH THE PRESENCE OF YOUR FRIEND, DANIEL. 270 00:12:44,531 --> 00:12:48,001 ( laughs ) EXCUSE ME? 271 00:12:48,101 --> 00:12:49,970 DON'T YOU THINK YOU'RE EXAGGERATING A LITTLE? 272 00:12:50,070 --> 00:12:53,173 LOOK, I EXPLAINED SOMETHING SIMPLE-- A DEAD MAN'S ERECTION. 273 00:12:53,273 --> 00:12:55,042 WHAT'S THAT GOTTA DO WITH DANIEL? 274 00:12:55,142 --> 00:12:58,711 WELL, MAYBE I DIDN'T MAKE MYSELF CLEAR EARLIER ON 275 00:12:58,812 --> 00:13:02,149 WHEN I WAS TALKING ABOUT THE CUSTOMER ALWAYS BEING WRONG. 276 00:13:02,249 --> 00:13:06,286 WHAT I MEANT WAS THAT SOMETIMES 277 00:13:06,386 --> 00:13:08,388 THE PATIENT HIDES THINGS FROM HIS THERAPIST-- 278 00:13:08,488 --> 00:13:10,858 FROM HIMSELF. 279 00:13:10,958 --> 00:13:12,792 AND SO PART OF OUR JOB IS TO 280 00:13:12,893 --> 00:13:16,196 UNCOVER THE THINGS THAT WE HIDE. 281 00:13:16,296 --> 00:13:19,166 ( laughs ) 282 00:13:19,266 --> 00:13:22,369 SO MY SECRET IS I'M AFRAID OF HOMOSEXUALS? 283 00:13:22,469 --> 00:13:24,604 NO, NOT NECESSARILY. 284 00:13:24,704 --> 00:13:29,309 BUT I JUST WANTED TO CLARIFY THAT. 285 00:13:29,409 --> 00:13:31,278 YEAH, OKAY. THAT'S NEITHER HERE NOR THERE. I WANNA GET TO MY POINT. 286 00:13:31,378 --> 00:13:34,614 - GO AHEAD. - I DIDN'T HAVE THE ERECTION SO YOU CAN RELAX. 287 00:13:34,714 --> 00:13:37,617 BUT I TELL YOU I REMEMBER VERY VIVIDLY 288 00:13:37,717 --> 00:13:39,086 THAT MOMENT JUST BEFORE PASSING OUT-- 289 00:13:39,186 --> 00:13:41,889 BEFORE LOSING CONSCIOUSNESS. 290 00:13:45,025 --> 00:13:48,028 "LOSING CONSCIOUSNESS"-- THAT'S A FUNNY EXPRESSION. 291 00:13:48,128 --> 00:13:50,330 WHY DO YOU THINK THAT'S A FUNNY EXPRESSION? 292 00:13:50,430 --> 00:13:52,099 "LOSING" CONSCIOUSNESS-- 293 00:13:52,199 --> 00:13:53,800 IT'S AN EXPRESSION MY FATHER WOULD USE-- 294 00:13:53,901 --> 00:13:55,802 EVERYTHING IN TERMS 295 00:13:55,903 --> 00:13:58,338 OF PROFITS AND LOSS. 296 00:13:59,039 --> 00:14:02,675 FITS HIM LIKE A GLOVE. 297 00:14:02,775 --> 00:14:06,113 SO SOMETHING ABOUT HOW YOU DESCRIBE YOUR LAST MOMENTS 298 00:14:06,213 --> 00:14:08,481 IS EQUATED WITH YOUR FATHER'S SEEING THINGS 299 00:14:08,581 --> 00:14:09,950 IN TERMS OF PROFIT AND LOSS? 300 00:14:10,050 --> 00:14:12,352 - IS THAT-- - OKAY, WITH ALL DUE RESPECT, 301 00:14:12,452 --> 00:14:14,888 I THINK WE'VE COME TO THIS WAY TOO EARLY. 302 00:14:14,988 --> 00:14:16,756 ALL THIS STUFF ABOUT THE FATHER-SON RELATIONSHIP, 303 00:14:16,856 --> 00:14:18,058 I DON'T THINK IT SHOULD COME UP SO SOON. 304 00:14:18,158 --> 00:14:19,893 YOU THINK IT'S TOO SOON? 305 00:14:19,993 --> 00:14:21,461 NO, FORGET WHAT I FEEL. 306 00:14:21,561 --> 00:14:24,331 I KNOW IT'S TOO SOON. I WANNA KNOW WHAT YOU THINK. 307 00:14:24,431 --> 00:14:26,699 SO YOU'RE TESTING ME? 308 00:14:26,799 --> 00:14:28,835 I THINK I'M ENTITLED TO SOME TESTING. I'M PAYING FOR IT. 309 00:14:28,936 --> 00:14:30,971 ACTUALLY, ALEX, I THINK YOU'VE BEEN TESTING ME 310 00:14:31,071 --> 00:14:32,439 SINCE YOU WALKED THROUGH THE DOOR. 311 00:14:32,539 --> 00:14:34,841 YOU'VE ASKED ABOUT ME AND MY REPUTATION. 312 00:14:34,942 --> 00:14:37,577 YOU ASK-- WELL YOU PRACTICALLY DEMAND 313 00:14:37,677 --> 00:14:39,079 THAT I ASK YOU CERTAIN QUESTIONS 314 00:14:39,179 --> 00:14:41,148 THAT YOU THINK I'M DYING TO ASK. 315 00:14:41,248 --> 00:14:42,916 IT'S REALLY IMPORTANT TO YOU, I THINK, 316 00:14:43,016 --> 00:14:45,618 THAT I ADHERE TO CERTAIN STANDARDS THAT YOU SET 317 00:14:45,718 --> 00:14:47,054 BEFORE YOU WALKED THROUGH THE DOOR. 318 00:14:47,154 --> 00:14:48,755 AND WHAT'S WRONG WITH THAT? 319 00:14:48,855 --> 00:14:51,391 LOOK, I DID MY RESEARCH. 320 00:14:51,491 --> 00:14:53,726 IT'S A ONE-AND-A-HALF-HOUR DRIVE TO GET HERE 321 00:14:53,826 --> 00:14:55,495 AND I'M PAYING YOU GOOD MONEY. 322 00:14:55,595 --> 00:14:58,331 AND I'M EXPECTED TO TELL YOU, A PERFECT STRANGER, 323 00:14:58,431 --> 00:15:00,900 THE MOST INTIMATE THINGS ABOUT MY LIFE. 324 00:15:01,001 --> 00:15:03,503 PLUS, THERE ARE RISKS HERE. 325 00:15:03,603 --> 00:15:05,638 IT'S NOT LIKE THE NAVY'S GONNA GIVE ME A MEDAL 326 00:15:05,738 --> 00:15:07,174 FOR SPILLING MY GUTS IN HERE. 327 00:15:07,274 --> 00:15:08,841 I'M NOT GONNA OPEN UP TO YOU JUST LIKE THAT 328 00:15:08,942 --> 00:15:10,343 WITHOUT KNOWING WHAT YOU ARE. 329 00:15:10,443 --> 00:15:13,513 AND WHAT DO YOU EXPECT TO FIND, ALEX? 330 00:15:13,613 --> 00:15:15,915 HOW ARE WE GOING TO KNOW 331 00:15:16,016 --> 00:15:18,618 THAT I'M A GOOD ENOUGH THERAPIST FOR YOU? 332 00:15:18,718 --> 00:15:21,121 I'LL KNOW... 333 00:15:21,221 --> 00:15:23,090 ACCORDING TO YOUR OPINION. 334 00:15:23,190 --> 00:15:24,691 MY OPINION OF WHAT? 335 00:15:24,791 --> 00:15:27,060 OF THE ISSUE I CAME HERE TO TALK ABOUT. 336 00:15:27,160 --> 00:15:29,296 BUT I'LL COME TO THAT IN A MINUTE. 337 00:15:29,396 --> 00:15:31,764 IT HAS TO DO WITH WHAT HAPPENED TO ME 338 00:15:31,864 --> 00:15:33,033 AFTER TAKING ME OUT OF THE FREEZER. 339 00:15:33,133 --> 00:15:35,335 THE FREEZER? 340 00:15:35,435 --> 00:15:38,505 OH, YOU MEAN THAT YOU WERE GROUNDED? 341 00:15:38,605 --> 00:15:40,540 NO, LITERALLY FROZEN. 342 00:15:40,640 --> 00:15:42,009 THEY FROZE ME. 343 00:15:42,109 --> 00:15:44,111 THE MOBILE INTENSIVE CARE UNIT ARRIVED 344 00:15:44,211 --> 00:15:46,179 AND THEY PUT ME IN A SUIT THAT FREEZES YOU. 345 00:15:46,279 --> 00:15:47,714 THEY'VE GOT ONE OUT OF PRESBYTERIAN, 346 00:15:47,814 --> 00:15:50,517 WHICH IS NO MORE THAN 3/4 OF A MILE FROM WHERE I COLLAPSED 347 00:15:50,617 --> 00:15:52,519 AND THEIR E.R. IS TOPS. 348 00:15:52,619 --> 00:15:54,554 LET'S GO BACK TO THIS-- 349 00:15:54,654 --> 00:15:58,125 YEAH, WE'RE GETTING THERE. YOU HAVE NO PATIENCE. 350 00:16:00,093 --> 00:16:02,662 I WAS TOLD YOU WERE A GOOD LISTENER. 351 00:16:04,097 --> 00:16:06,299 NOW LOOK... 352 00:16:06,399 --> 00:16:08,468 IT WORKS ON A VERY SIMPLE PRINCIPLE. 353 00:16:08,568 --> 00:16:10,270 IT REDUCES THE SHOCK TO THE BODY'S SYSTEMS 354 00:16:10,370 --> 00:16:11,904 BY DROPPING THE BODY TEMPERATURE. 355 00:16:12,005 --> 00:16:14,807 OH. SO HOW LONG WERE YOU-- 356 00:16:14,907 --> 00:16:17,444 IN MY CASE, 48 HOURS. IT'S A RECORD. 357 00:16:17,544 --> 00:16:19,946 THERE'S NO HISTORY OF ANYONE WHO'S BEEN IN THAT SUIT 358 00:16:20,047 --> 00:16:22,115 FOR SUCH A LONG PERIOD OF TIME. 359 00:16:22,215 --> 00:16:24,217 I GUESS I WENT A LONG WAY UP THAT TUNNEL, HUH? 360 00:16:24,317 --> 00:16:27,120 THE TUNNEL THAT WASN'T THERE. 361 00:16:28,121 --> 00:16:30,290 NO, UNFORTUNATELY NOT. 362 00:16:32,192 --> 00:16:34,661 SO TELL ME WHAT YOU REMEMBER 363 00:16:34,761 --> 00:16:37,097 ABOUT THIS 48 HOURS. 364 00:16:37,197 --> 00:16:39,766 MOSTLY I REMEMBER... 365 00:16:39,866 --> 00:16:42,135 A TERRIBLE FATIGUE. 366 00:16:42,235 --> 00:16:44,504 I GUESS THAT'S WHY THEY CALL IT "DEAD TIRED." 367 00:16:44,604 --> 00:16:46,906 IT'S PHYSICAL BUT MAINLY MENTAL-- 368 00:16:47,006 --> 00:16:49,942 EXHAUSTION. 369 00:16:50,043 --> 00:16:52,445 AND I REMEMBER VERY CLEARLY 370 00:16:52,545 --> 00:16:54,381 THE RELIEF I FELT 371 00:16:54,481 --> 00:16:57,217 WHEN I SUCCEEDED IN COMING BACK OVER INTO THE WORLD. 372 00:16:57,317 --> 00:16:59,286 YOU SAY THAT YOU "SUCCEEDED" 373 00:16:59,386 --> 00:17:01,888 IN COMING BACK TO THIS WORLD. 374 00:17:01,988 --> 00:17:04,757 DID YOU FEEL IT WAS UNDER YOUR CONTROL? 375 00:17:04,857 --> 00:17:06,259 WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO GET AT? 376 00:17:06,359 --> 00:17:08,628 I'M NOT TRYING TO GET AT ANYTHING. 377 00:17:08,728 --> 00:17:10,630 BUT WHAT YOU'RE DESCRIBING 378 00:17:10,730 --> 00:17:12,832 IS A STRONG WILL TO LIVE. 379 00:17:12,932 --> 00:17:14,401 I MEAN, DURING THIS EXPERIENCE, 380 00:17:14,501 --> 00:17:16,269 THERE WAS A DECISION TO GO ON LIVING. 381 00:17:16,369 --> 00:17:19,172 YEAH, I GUESS YOU'RE RIGHT. 382 00:17:19,272 --> 00:17:22,475 YET, DESPITE HAVING MADE THIS EFFORT TO LIVE... 383 00:17:23,776 --> 00:17:25,578 EVERYBODY'S DISAPPOINTED. 384 00:17:25,678 --> 00:17:27,447 LISTEN, IT'S NOT EVERY DAY PEOPLE MEET SOMEONE 385 00:17:27,547 --> 00:17:29,249 WHO'S COME BACK FROM THE DEAD. 386 00:17:29,349 --> 00:17:30,617 IT'S A ONE- IN-A-MILLION THING. 387 00:17:30,717 --> 00:17:33,686 AND IF YOU DON'T SUPPLY THE GOODS, THEN... 388 00:17:34,754 --> 00:17:36,423 LISTEN, I HAVE NEVER 389 00:17:36,523 --> 00:17:39,592 SPENT A DAY IN MY LIFE IN A HOSPITAL. 390 00:17:39,692 --> 00:17:42,262 YOU GET IT? NEVER. 391 00:17:42,362 --> 00:17:44,030 PERHAPS YOUR ANGER ISN'T DIRECTED 392 00:17:44,131 --> 00:17:45,998 AT THOSE PEOPLE WHO WERE INTERESTED IN THE TUNNEL. 393 00:17:46,099 --> 00:17:48,268 BUT YOU'RE ANGRY AT YOURSELF, ALEX-- 394 00:17:48,368 --> 00:17:50,137 HOW YOUR BODY BETRAYED YOU. 395 00:17:50,237 --> 00:17:51,838 I MEAN, THIS IS A SYSTEMS FAILURE 396 00:17:51,938 --> 00:17:54,674 THAT WAS NOT SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN TO SOMEBODY LIKE YOU. 397 00:17:54,774 --> 00:17:56,143 HMM. 398 00:17:56,243 --> 00:17:58,778 LISTEN, I HAVE A BROTHER WHO'S NOT TOO BRIGHT. 399 00:17:58,878 --> 00:18:00,213 HE'S A REAL ESTATE AGENT. WHATEVER. 400 00:18:00,313 --> 00:18:02,081 ANYWAY, HE'S A GREAT ATHLETE. 401 00:18:02,182 --> 00:18:04,117 AND HE ONCE PROVED TO ME-- 402 00:18:04,217 --> 00:18:06,052 AND HE DOES HIS RESEARCH, BELIEVE ME-- 403 00:18:06,153 --> 00:18:09,156 THAT ALL THE GREAT QUARTERBACKS 404 00:18:09,256 --> 00:18:10,857 IN THE HISTORY OF FOOTBALL 405 00:18:10,957 --> 00:18:12,992 WERE ALSO THE BEST-LOOKING. 406 00:18:13,092 --> 00:18:15,428 NAMATH, STAUBACH, CUNNINGHAM-- 407 00:18:15,528 --> 00:18:17,029 THEY'RE ALL REALLY GOOD-LOOKING PEOPLE. 408 00:18:17,130 --> 00:18:19,199 SEE, THE BEST-LOOKING STUDENTS IN THE CLASS 409 00:18:19,299 --> 00:18:20,567 ARE OFTEN GREAT ATHLETES. 410 00:18:20,667 --> 00:18:23,436 - YOU KNOW WHY THAT IS? - I HAVE NO IDEA. 411 00:18:23,536 --> 00:18:25,505 IT'S GOT NOTHING TO DO WITH SPORTS, REALLY. 412 00:18:25,605 --> 00:18:29,509 WHEN THEY GOT THEIR GIFT FROM GOD THE FATHER, 413 00:18:29,609 --> 00:18:31,211 OR WHOEVER THE HELL DOLES OUT THE TALENT, 414 00:18:31,311 --> 00:18:32,912 THEY GOT THE WHOLE PACKAGE-- 415 00:18:33,012 --> 00:18:36,082 BEAUTY, TALENT, CHARACTER. 416 00:18:36,183 --> 00:18:40,052 THAT'S HOW IT IS. IT'S AN EVOLUTIONARY THING. 417 00:18:40,153 --> 00:18:42,589 SO, HOW'S YOUR FOOTBALL? 418 00:18:42,689 --> 00:18:44,557 FOOTBALL'S NOT MY GAME. 419 00:18:44,657 --> 00:18:46,393 RUNNING, OF COURSE, 420 00:18:46,493 --> 00:18:48,561 WRESTLING, POLE VAULT ONCE UPON A TIME. 421 00:18:48,661 --> 00:18:52,131 BUT NOW I AM PART OF A MILITARY ELITE. 422 00:18:52,232 --> 00:18:53,900 ATHLETES MAY BE POPULAR 423 00:18:54,000 --> 00:18:55,602 BUT WE ARE THE CREME DE LA CREME. 424 00:18:55,702 --> 00:18:57,404 SEE, WHAT YOU HAVE TO UNDERSTAND IS YOU'RE TALKING TO A PERSON HERE 425 00:18:57,504 --> 00:18:59,839 WHOSE WHOLE LIFE WAS PERFECT. 426 00:18:59,939 --> 00:19:04,444 PEOPLE IN MY LINE OF WORK ARE BORN TO EXCEL, TO BE PERFECT. 427 00:19:06,179 --> 00:19:07,547 IT WASN'T OUR CHOICE. 428 00:19:07,647 --> 00:19:10,383 IT WAS LIFE THAT CHOSE US TO BE THE BEST. 429 00:19:10,483 --> 00:19:14,120 AND WHAT DOES THAT MEAN, "LIFE CHOSE US?" 430 00:19:14,221 --> 00:19:16,256 YEAH, YOU DON'T BECOME A FIGHTER PILOT 431 00:19:16,356 --> 00:19:17,757 SUDDENLY AT AGE 20. 432 00:19:17,857 --> 00:19:21,127 AT AGE SEVEN OR EIGHT WHEN YOU'RE IN THE THIRD GRADE, 433 00:19:21,228 --> 00:19:23,230 YOU KNOW YOU'RE TALENTED. 434 00:19:23,330 --> 00:19:25,432 YOU KNOW YOU'RE HEADED SOMEWHERE SPECIAL. 435 00:19:25,532 --> 00:19:27,133 YOU ARE GOING TO BE THE BEST. 436 00:19:27,234 --> 00:19:29,502 AND IT ALL LAYS OUT RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU-- 437 00:19:29,602 --> 00:19:33,039 TOP GRADES, VARSITY LETTERS, YOU NAME IT. 438 00:19:33,139 --> 00:19:35,375 I'M A TOPGUN GRAD, YOU UNDERSTAND THAT? 439 00:19:35,475 --> 00:19:37,410 THAT TRAINING IS NOT FOR PUSSIES. 440 00:19:37,510 --> 00:19:40,447 SO, IF YOU DON'T ACHIEVE YOUR PERSONAL BEST... 441 00:19:41,481 --> 00:19:42,849 ARE YOU DISAPPOINTED IN YOURSELF? 442 00:19:42,949 --> 00:19:45,618 NO, NO, THAT'S NOT... 443 00:19:46,653 --> 00:19:49,389 ( sighs ) 444 00:19:54,060 --> 00:19:56,963 - HOW MUCH LONGER DO WE HAVE? - WE'VE GOT TIME. 445 00:19:57,063 --> 00:20:00,099 I'LL TELL YOU WHEN IT'S TIME. 446 00:20:00,199 --> 00:20:03,370 OKAY, SO HERE'S MY POINT-- FINALLY. 447 00:20:03,470 --> 00:20:05,171 I CAME HERE TO GET YOUR ADVICE ON SOMETHING. 448 00:20:05,272 --> 00:20:07,307 SURE. 449 00:20:08,508 --> 00:20:11,444 I DECIDED TO GO THERE-- TO THE TARGET. 450 00:20:11,544 --> 00:20:13,813 YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT HERE? 451 00:20:15,348 --> 00:20:18,184 YOU MEAN TO THE SITE WHERE YOU DROPPED THE BOMB? 452 00:20:18,285 --> 00:20:20,953 - TO THE SCHOOL? - MADRASA. 453 00:20:21,053 --> 00:20:22,489 I WANNA GO BACK THERE. I WANNA TAKE A LOOK AROUND. 454 00:20:22,589 --> 00:20:24,223 TO THE PLACE WHERE THE CHILDREN WERE KILLED? 455 00:20:24,324 --> 00:20:26,293 CORRECT. AND, LISTEN, I KNOW WHAT YOU'RE THINKING, 456 00:20:26,393 --> 00:20:27,960 SO LET ME STRAIGHTEN THIS OUT FOR YOU. 457 00:20:28,060 --> 00:20:30,162 I DON'T HAVE A GUILTY CONSCIENCE. I ALREADY TOLD YOU THAT. 458 00:20:30,263 --> 00:20:32,399 I SLEEP WELL AT NIGHT. VERY WELL. 459 00:20:32,499 --> 00:20:34,100 WHY WOULD YOU WANT TO GO BACK? 460 00:20:34,200 --> 00:20:35,535 I'M INTERESTED. 461 00:20:35,635 --> 00:20:38,037 FROM THE MOMENT I CAME OUT OF THAT FREEZER, 462 00:20:38,137 --> 00:20:40,573 I KNEW I WANTED TO GO BACK. 463 00:20:40,673 --> 00:20:42,342 AND IT CAME UP IN A CONVERSATION I HAD WITH DANIEL 464 00:20:42,442 --> 00:20:43,876 WHEN HE CAME TO VISIT ME AT THE HOSPITAL. 465 00:20:43,976 --> 00:20:45,978 AND HE THINKS, 466 00:20:46,078 --> 00:20:48,247 WHO KNOWS-- I'M GONNA FREAK OUT OR SOMETHING. 467 00:20:48,348 --> 00:20:50,350 HE THINKS IT'S A CRAZY THING TO DO. 468 00:20:50,450 --> 00:20:52,319 AND HE SAID I NEED TO SEE SOMEONE FIRST-- 469 00:20:52,419 --> 00:20:55,488 PSYCHOLOGIST, PSYCHIATRIST. 470 00:20:55,588 --> 00:20:57,724 DON'T YOU THINK IT'S DANGEROUS? 471 00:20:57,824 --> 00:20:59,292 NOT AT ALL. 472 00:20:59,392 --> 00:21:01,227 I DON'T REALLY THINK ANYONE WILL RECOGNIZE ME. 473 00:21:01,328 --> 00:21:02,629 BUT YOUR PICTURE'S ON THE INTERNET. 474 00:21:02,729 --> 00:21:04,964 NO WAY. YOU SAW THE PICTURE. 475 00:21:05,064 --> 00:21:06,666 IT'S TOTALLY RIDICULOUS. 476 00:21:06,766 --> 00:21:08,468 MY MOTHER WOULDN'T RECOGNIZE ME FROM THAT PICTURE. 477 00:21:08,568 --> 00:21:11,771 - NOT EVEN MICHAELA. - WHO'S MICHAELA? 478 00:21:11,871 --> 00:21:13,506 MY WIFE. 479 00:21:13,606 --> 00:21:15,207 AND WHAT DOES SHE THINK OF ALL THIS? 480 00:21:15,308 --> 00:21:17,477 WHAT'S SHE GOT TO DO WITH IT? 481 00:21:17,577 --> 00:21:19,479 DON'T YOU TALK THINGS OVER WITH YOUR WIFE? 482 00:21:19,579 --> 00:21:20,880 LISTEN, YOU KNOW WHAT? THIS IS NOT FOR ME. 483 00:21:20,980 --> 00:21:22,849 ALL THIS "WHAT DO YOU FEEL, WHAT DO YOU THINK?" 484 00:21:22,949 --> 00:21:25,284 I ASKED YOU SOMETHING. I CAME TO YOU TO CONSULT 485 00:21:25,385 --> 00:21:27,019 ABOUT SOMETHING VERY CLEAR AND SPECIFIC. 486 00:21:27,119 --> 00:21:29,789 SO YOU WANT ME TO TELL YOU THAT THIS DESIRE OF YOURS 487 00:21:29,889 --> 00:21:32,525 TO GO BACK TO WHERE THE BOMBING TOOK PLACE 488 00:21:32,625 --> 00:21:36,162 - IS A GOOD THING? - OKAY, YEAH, YES. 489 00:21:36,262 --> 00:21:39,532 DO YOU WANT ME TO TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR THIS VISIT? 490 00:21:39,632 --> 00:21:42,301 OKAY, DO ME A FAVOR, DON'T MAKE ME INTO AN IDIOT. 491 00:21:42,402 --> 00:21:44,737 WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO TELL ME? I'M NOT TAKING RESPONSIBILITY? 492 00:21:44,837 --> 00:21:46,806 NO, I'M JUST GOING BACK TO SOMETHING THAT YOU SAID 493 00:21:46,906 --> 00:21:48,375 EARLIER ON. 494 00:21:48,475 --> 00:21:51,978 REMEMBER YOU SAID THAT LIFE CHOSE YOU 495 00:21:52,078 --> 00:21:53,646 TO BE A MEMBER OF AN ELITE? 496 00:21:53,746 --> 00:21:55,415 THAT IT WASN'T YOUR DECISION? 497 00:21:55,515 --> 00:21:58,184 MAYBE THAT'S AN ATTITUDE YOU'RE COMFORTABLE WITH. 498 00:21:58,284 --> 00:21:59,619 YOU'RE COMFORTABLE WITH IT BECAUSE 499 00:21:59,719 --> 00:22:02,389 YOU DON'T HAVE TO MAKE ANY DECISIONS. 500 00:22:02,489 --> 00:22:04,657 IT RELIEVES YOU OF RESPONSIBILITY. 501 00:22:04,757 --> 00:22:07,427 YOUR COMMANDING OFFICER, HE MAKES THE DECISIONS, 502 00:22:07,527 --> 00:22:11,297 CONVEYS THEM TO YOU, AND YOU EXECUTE THEM. 503 00:22:11,398 --> 00:22:13,733 WAIT, ARE YOU TRYING TO TELL ME 504 00:22:13,833 --> 00:22:16,936 THAT I'M ASKING YOU TO BE MY COMMANDING OFFICER? 505 00:22:17,036 --> 00:22:19,271 OKAY, I'LL BUY IT. 506 00:22:19,372 --> 00:22:21,340 SO, ARE YOU WILLING TO, UH, 507 00:22:21,441 --> 00:22:25,111 TO BE MY C.O. FOR $150 AN HOUR? 508 00:22:25,211 --> 00:22:27,447 WELL, I DON'T THINK I'M... 509 00:22:27,547 --> 00:22:30,483 I DON'T THINK I'M QUALIFIED FOR THAT. 510 00:22:30,583 --> 00:22:33,953 BUT WOULD YOU AGREE TO BE YOUR OWN COMMANDING OFFICER? 511 00:22:34,053 --> 00:22:37,657 OH, LISTEN, YOU KNOW WHAT, JUST LEAVE IT ALONE. 512 00:22:37,757 --> 00:22:39,959 I CAN SEE I'M NOT GONNA GET ANYTHING USEFUL OUT OF YOU. 513 00:22:40,059 --> 00:22:43,095 - AND YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE THE BEST? - BUT I'M NOT THE BEST, ALEX. 514 00:22:43,195 --> 00:22:44,897 MAYBE YOU'RE THE BEST, 515 00:22:44,997 --> 00:22:46,766 BUT I'M NOT. 516 00:22:46,866 --> 00:22:49,636 THINK ABOUT THE RAMIFICATIONS 517 00:22:49,736 --> 00:22:51,738 OF WHAT YOU'RE ABOUT TO DO. 518 00:22:51,838 --> 00:22:54,240 YOU'RE GOING BACK TO A PLACE WHERE YOU DROPPED A BOMB. 519 00:22:54,340 --> 00:22:56,242 16 CHILDREN WERE KILLED. 520 00:22:56,342 --> 00:22:57,677 YOUR FACE IS ON THE INTERNET 521 00:22:57,777 --> 00:23:00,713 AND THERE'S A PRICE ON YOUR HEAD. 522 00:23:00,813 --> 00:23:03,883 SO, WAIT, WAIT. NOW YOU'RE SAYING THAT YOU AGREE WITH DANIEL, 523 00:23:03,983 --> 00:23:05,618 THAT I'VE GONE CRAZY OR SOMETHING? 524 00:23:05,718 --> 00:23:07,587 WELL, HOW WOULD YOU FEEL IF I DID AGREE WITH DANIEL? 525 00:23:07,687 --> 00:23:10,457 HOW HARD IS A STRAIGHT ANSWER? I'VE GOT A PLANE TO CATCH. 526 00:23:11,390 --> 00:23:13,460 WHY? WHERE ARE YOU GOING? 527 00:23:13,560 --> 00:23:16,563 ARE YOU NOT LISTENING TO ME? I AM GOING BACK THERE-- 528 00:23:16,663 --> 00:23:19,131 NONSTOP, DC TO FRANKFURT, 529 00:23:19,231 --> 00:23:20,700 THEN FRANKFURT-AMMAN, 530 00:23:20,800 --> 00:23:23,102 THURSDAY MORNING, BY CHARTER, TO BAGHDAD. 531 00:23:23,202 --> 00:23:25,438 YOU'RE LEAVING TONIGHT? 532 00:23:25,538 --> 00:23:28,541 GOOD MORNING, DOCTOR. 533 00:23:28,641 --> 00:23:30,376 I'M GOING BACK AS PART OF A CHURCH GROUP, 534 00:23:30,477 --> 00:23:31,811 A CHARITY. 535 00:23:31,911 --> 00:23:34,481 I'M GONNA BE VISITING THOSE NEIGHBORHOODS. 536 00:23:34,581 --> 00:23:37,149 NO, NO, THIS IS NOT PART OF NAVY PROTOCOL. 537 00:23:37,249 --> 00:23:38,818 LET ME ASK YOU SOMETHING. 538 00:23:38,918 --> 00:23:41,253 WHEN YOU WERE RUNNING WITH DANIEL-- WAS IT 22 MILES? 539 00:23:41,353 --> 00:23:42,689 MMM. 540 00:23:42,789 --> 00:23:44,457 HOW LONG DID THAT TAKE? 541 00:23:44,557 --> 00:23:47,026 I DON'T KNOW, ALMOST THREE HOURS. 542 00:23:47,126 --> 00:23:50,563 DANIEL WANTED TO QUIT. HE'S ALWAYS GOING ON ABOUT 543 00:23:50,663 --> 00:23:52,599 YOUR OPTIMUM PULSE DURING EXERCISE 544 00:23:52,699 --> 00:23:54,366 AND HE THOUGHT WE SHOULDN'T GO OVER 85% PERCENT. 545 00:23:54,467 --> 00:23:56,435 YOU KNOW WHAT I FIND INTERESTING? 546 00:23:56,536 --> 00:23:58,905 THAT SHORTLY AFTER YOU COMPLETE THIS MISSION, 547 00:23:59,005 --> 00:24:01,508 YOU GO ON LEAVE, 548 00:24:01,608 --> 00:24:03,710 AND AGAINST THE ADVICE OF YOUR BEST FRIEND, 549 00:24:03,810 --> 00:24:06,045 WHO ALSO HAPPENS TO BE A MEDICAL DOCTOR, 550 00:24:06,145 --> 00:24:07,680 YOU WORK YOURSELF UP 551 00:24:07,780 --> 00:24:10,149 INTO A STATE OF EXTREME EXERTION. 552 00:24:10,249 --> 00:24:12,451 IT'S AS IF YOU WERE 553 00:24:12,552 --> 00:24:14,587 AVOIDING GOING BACK TO ACTIVE DUTY. 554 00:24:14,687 --> 00:24:16,422 NO, I HAVE NO PROBLEM FLYING AGAIN. 555 00:24:16,523 --> 00:24:18,691 IN FACT, I'M DYING TO GET BACK INTO ACTION. 556 00:24:18,791 --> 00:24:21,460 UH-HUH. DO YOU NOT SEE A CONNECTION 557 00:24:21,561 --> 00:24:25,264 BETWEEN YOUR COLLAPSE AND WHAT WENT BEFORE? 558 00:24:25,364 --> 00:24:26,966 NO, I KNOW YOU SAY 559 00:24:27,066 --> 00:24:30,703 YOU DON'T HAVE ANY GUILT FEELINGS, 560 00:24:30,803 --> 00:24:34,073 BUT DON'T YOU THINK THERE'S A STRONG DESIRE THERE 561 00:24:34,173 --> 00:24:38,144 TO ATONE FOR YOUR ACTIONS? 562 00:24:39,245 --> 00:24:40,847 ( huffs ) 563 00:24:49,088 --> 00:24:51,758 DO THEY HAVE ANY COFFEE AROUND HERE? 564 00:24:52,925 --> 00:24:55,027 I COULD USE A GOOD CUP OF COFFEE. 565 00:24:56,428 --> 00:24:58,931 UM, OUR TIME IS UP, I'M AFRAID. 566 00:25:01,167 --> 00:25:03,335 COME ON, I STILL GOT A COUPLE THINGS I WANT TO TALK ABOUT. 567 00:25:03,435 --> 00:25:05,705 OH, I'M HAPPY TO SEE YOU AGAIN. 568 00:25:09,175 --> 00:25:11,510 ( sighs ) 569 00:25:16,783 --> 00:25:18,450 YOU KNOW, I THINK IT'S IMPORTANT 570 00:25:18,551 --> 00:25:20,486 THAT YOU KEEP TALKING ABOUT ALL THIS. 571 00:25:20,587 --> 00:25:22,922 OKAY, I'LL KEEP THAT IN MIND. 572 00:25:25,357 --> 00:25:26,726 I BETTER PAY YOU NOW. 573 00:25:26,826 --> 00:25:28,895 WHO KNOWS HOW THIS LITTLE TRIP WILL TURN OUT? 574 00:25:28,995 --> 00:25:30,830 YOU'RE SERIOUS ABOUT TRAVELING TODAY? 575 00:25:36,135 --> 00:25:38,237 OH, IT'S THIS WAY. 576 00:25:39,572 --> 00:25:41,207 I'LL WRITE YOU AN INVOICE FOR THE-- 577 00:25:41,307 --> 00:25:43,275 DON'T WORRY ABOUT IT. 578 00:25:46,545 --> 00:25:47,947 AREN'T YOU GONNA WISH ME LUCK? 579 00:25:48,047 --> 00:25:50,216 YES. 580 00:25:50,316 --> 00:25:52,652 GOOD LUCK, ALEX. 581 00:26:03,796 --> 00:26:05,865 ( music plays )