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Male voice:
PREVIOUSLY, ON
"IN TREATMENT"...

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I RUINED THEIR FAMILY.

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DARLENE TOLD ME BEFORE
SHE LEFT FOR WISCONSIN

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THAT SHE WAS ONLY GOING
BECAUSE SHE KNEW

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I WOULD BE THERE
TO TAKE CARE OF DANA.

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SHE SAID SHE DIDN'T TRUST
CY BUT SHE TRUSTED ME.

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SHE TRUSTED ME
AND I RUINED IT.

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ONE NIGHT...

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IT HAPPENED.

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WE ALMOST HAD SEX AGAIN BUT
HE SAID THAT WE HAD TO STOP

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HE SAID IT WOULD RUIN BOTH
OF OUR CAREERS IF THIS GOT OUT.

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JUST SAY IT. SHE TRIED
TO KILL HERSELF OR NOT.

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THERE'S A DIFFERENCE
BETWEEN NOT BEING CAREFUL

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AND WANTING
TO COMMIT SUICIDE.

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HELLO.

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CHARMED, I'M SURE.

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( laughs )

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IT'S THE MIDDLE
OF THE NIGHT FOR ME.

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I'M UTTERLY EXHAUSTED.

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I WAS AT THIS AMAZING
PARTY LAST NIGHT.

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IT WENT ON AND ON.

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I STAYED AWAKE ALL NIGHT
AND THEN I WALKED HERE.

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NO FOOD, NO SLEEP,

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I'M RUNNING ON EMPTY.

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I'VE NEVER HAD SO MUCH
TO DRINK IN MY WHOLE LIFE.

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THERE WAS THIS GUY,

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THIS NEW GUY--

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TOTAL EYE CANDY.

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HE KEPT WALKING AROUND
WITH TEQUILA SHOTS.

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HE KEPT MAKING ME
DRINK THEM.

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I MUST'VE HAD...

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( laughs )
I DON'T KNOW.

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I'VE NEVER BEEN SO WRECKED
IN MY WHOLE LIFE.

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( theme music playing )

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I HAVE TO TAKE THEM OFF.
DO YOU MIND?

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SURE.
YOU'VE GROWN HANDS.

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IT'S CRAZY HOW QUICKLY A PERSON
GETS USED TO THINGS.

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WHEN I HAD THE CASTS,
IT WAS LIKE

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THEY'D ALWAYS BEEN
A PART OF ME, YOU KNOW?

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LIKE I'D BEEN
BORN A MONSTER.

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NOW, TWO DAYS
AFTER THEY'RE GONE,

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IT'S LIKE, "CASTS?
WHAT CASTS?"

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UGH, CAN'T BELIEVE
I BOUGHT THEM.

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I BUY SHOES
BASICALLY NEVER,

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AND WHEN I DO...

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THEY MAKE YOU WANT
TO VOMIT, DON'T THEY?

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IT'S YOUR FAULT
I BOUGHT THEM, YOU KNOW.

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WHY?

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MY MOM TOOK ME
SHOPPING LAST WEEK.

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THOUGHT SHE WAS TRYING TO BE,
LIKE, MATERNAL OR SOMETHING.

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TURNS OUT WE WERE ONLY THERE
BECAUSE YOU CALLED HER

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AND TOLD HER I WAS
GONNA OFF MYSELF.

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THAT'S NOT WHAT
I SAID, SOPHIE.

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- YEAH, WHATEVER.
- NO, SOPHIE,

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HONESTLY, I NEVER
SAID THAT.

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I SAID WHATEVER.

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OKAY.

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ANYWAY, I PICKED OUT
THIS JACKET,

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THIS ARMY THING THAT
SHE, OF COURSE, HATED.

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THEN AS PUNISHMENT
SHE SAID

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THAT I HAD TO BUY
SOMETHING FEMININE.

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SHE PICKED OUT THOSE BARBIE
SHOES WHILE I PRETENDED

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TO RETCH ON
THE MAKEUP COUNTER.

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IF I HAD KNOWN
YOU'D CALLED HER,

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I NEVER
WOULD'VE GONE SHOPPING.

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AND THEN SHE WONDERS WHY I RUN
OFF TO THE GYM TO BE WITH HER--

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I MEAN, TO BE WITHOUT HER.

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TO GET THE HELL
AWAY FROM HER.

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FOR MY LAST BIRTHDAY
SHE GAVE ME A BRA.

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A BRA FOR MY BIRTHDAY?

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IT'S LIKE GETTING COAL.

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IT'S WORSE
THAN GETTING COAL.

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AT LEAST YOU CAN BURN COAL.

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( laughs )

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IT WAS ONE OF THOSE
PUSHY-UPPY WONDER THINGS

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WITH THE CLICKY WHEEL.

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YOU KNOW?

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HALF-BRA, HALF-MACHINE.

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SHE WANTS ME TO BE SOME SORT
OF A FUCKING CHEERLEADER.

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YOU WANT TO KNOW WHY SHE REALLY
HATES THAT I'M A GYMNAST?

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- WHY?
- BECAUSE OF MY BOOBS.

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- OH?
- SHE THINKS IT WILL
STUNT MY DEVELOPMENT.

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"YOUR BOOBS WON'T GROW.
YOU'LL HATE YOUR BODY.

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YOU'LL BE DEFORMED."

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THAT'S ALL SHE CARES ABOUT,

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WHETHER OR NOT
I GROW A RACK.

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SO I WON'T HAVE BIG BOOBS,
WHO GIVES A FLYING FUCK?

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MUST BE PRETTY
HARD FOR YOU,

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TRYING TO AVOID
YOUR MOM ALL THE TIME.

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JUST THE OPPOSITE.

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I ENJOY IT.

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OH, REALLY? WHY?

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A FEW MINUTES AGO
YOU SAID YOU HAD TO
RUN OFF TO THE GYM

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IN ORDER
TO BE WITH HER.

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HOW EXTRAORDINARY,
DR. FREUD.

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WHATEVER DO YOU
THINK I MEANT?

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MAYBE IT MEANS THAT...

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NO MATTER WHAT I DO,
I CAN'T GET RID OF HER.

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HMM.

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MAYBE IT MEANS THAT, UM...

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IN ORDER TO KEEP HER
INTERESTED IN YOU...

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YOU FEEL YOU HAVE TO

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RUN AWAY.

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THAT DOESN'T
EVEN MAKE SENSE.

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YOU SOUND LIKE
A FORTUNE COOKIE.

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HAVE YOU EVER WORN SHOES
LIKE THAT BEFORE?

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OH YEAH, ALL THE TIME.

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I MEAN, DON'T YOU?

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THIS TYPE OF HEEL
RAISES YOUR BUTT

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AND SHAPES YOUR CALF.

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AND THAT'S ESSENTIAL.

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I HIGHLY RECOMMEND
YOU PICK UP A PAIR, PAUL.

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MUST REMEMBER TO DO THAT.

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SO WHY DID YOU
WEAR THEM LAST NIGHT?

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- I DON'T KNOW.
- REALLY?

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NO IDEA?

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NO?

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HMM.

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THEY REMIND ME
OF DOROTHY'S SHOES.

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- WHO'S DOROTHY?
- FROM "THE WIZARD OF OZ."

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OH, YOU SAID DOROTHY LIKE
SHE WAS A FRIEND OF YOURS.

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OH.

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THEY'RE NOTHING
LIKE DOROTHY'S SHOES.

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DOROTHY WAS COOL.
HER SHOES WERE RETRO.

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HMM.

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- OH NO.
- WHAT?

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PLEASE DON'T SAY,
"THERE'S NO PLACE LIKE HOME."

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'CAUSE IF YOU DO,
I MIGHT HAVE TO PUKE

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ALL OVER YOUR SOFA.

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NO, AT THE END,
WHAT I WAS GOING TO SAY

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WAS THAT DOROTHY DISCOVERS
THAT SHE CAN GO HOME

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ANYTIME SHE WANTS
WITH OR WITHOUT HER SHOES.

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WHY ARE YOU
INFANTILIZING ME?

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I APOLOGIZE IF--

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IF THAT'S HOW
IT SOUNDED, SOPHIE.

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I REALLY DIDN'T
INTEND THAT.

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SO, HAVE YOU TAKEN
YOUR SATs YET?

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NOT YET.

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I HAVE A FEELING THAT YOU'RE
GOING TO DO REALLY WELL.

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I EXPECT TO.

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SO YOUR MOTHER
BOUGHT YOU THESE SHOES,

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YOU HATE THEM
AND YOU STILL WORE THEM.

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WHY?

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I'M AT A TOTAL LOSS.

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BUT, HEY, WHY DON'T YOU
CALL UP MY MOTHER

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AND SAY,
"HI, SOPHIE'S MOM,

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SOPHIE WORE THOSE BARBIE
SHOES THAT YOU BOUGHT HER,

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WENT OUT TO A BAR,
SCREWED HALF THE U.S.
OLYMPIC GYMNASTIC TEAM

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AND NOW SHE'S
GONNA KILL HERSELF"?

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WHY'D YOU DO IT ANYWAY?

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WHY'D YOU CALL HER?

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BECAUSE I WAS
WORRIED ABOUT YOU.

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SUDDENLY EVERYONE'S
SO WORRIED ABOUT ME.

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DID YOU CALL CY TOO?

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HE'S TURNED
INTO MY GRANDMOTHER.
HE WON'T LET ME TRAIN.

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HE'S MAKING ME DO CLASSES
WITH THE 10-YEAR-OLDS.

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IT'S RIDICULOUS.

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NOW I REMEMBER WHAT
I WANTED TO TELL YOU.

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THE MOST AMAZING THING HAPPENED
AT THE GYM THE OTHER DAY.

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EVEN THOUGH I HAVEN'T
BEEN TRAINING,

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I'VE BEEN ABSORBING STUFF
JUST BY WATCHING.

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'CAUSE I HAVE
THIS CHRONIC PROBLEM

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WITH MY TOES GOING OFF
THE EDGE OF THE BEAM

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WHEN I LAND A HARD ELEMENT.

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IT'S BECAUSE I'M
NATURALLY KNOCK-KNEED.

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MY KNEES,
THEY FACE INWARDS.

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SO IN ORDER TO GET THEM
FACING STRAIGHT

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MY FEET HAVE TO POINT OUT,

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WHICH IS GOOD FOR BALLET
BUT BAD FOR GYMNASTICS.

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JUST A TOE
IN THE WRONG POSITION

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CAN LOSE YOU THE EVENT.

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I'M TALKING
ABOUT MEDALS HERE.

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SO ANYWAY,

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I'M ON THE BEAM, RIGHT?

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AND I'VE BEEN TRAINING
AT NIGHTTIME,

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EVEN THOUGH MY BODY
DOESN'T WANT TO YET.

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IT WAS LIKE...

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WHEN I WAS LITTLE
AND I USED TO STARVE MYSELF

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AND THERE WOULD BE
THIS PERIOD,

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USUALLY IN THE MORNING,

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WHERE I WAS REALLY
REALLY HUNGRY.

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YOU KNOW, SO HUNGRY THAT
I THOUGHT THAT MY STOMACH

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MIGHT JUST START EATING
THE REST OF ME.

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AND THEN IT WOULD GO AWAY--

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SUDDENLY-- LIKE TURNING
OFF A LIGHT SWITCH.

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AND I FELT LIKE I WAS
FLOATING ON CLOUDS.

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IT WAS THE SAME
WITH THE PAIN THIS TIME.

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I PUSHED THROUGH IT
UNTIL IT JUST LET UP

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ALL OF A SUDDEN.

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AND THEN I FELT LIKE
I DIDN'T HAVE A BODY AT ALL,

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LIKE I WAS JUST A PAIR
OF SOMERSAULTING EYES.

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SO YESTERDAY I MARCHED
INTO THE GYM

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AND I GOT UP ON THE BEAM.

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EVERYONE WAS IN SHOCK AND I FELT
THIS SILENCE ALL AROUND ME.

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- SOPHIE, BE CAREFUL, PLEASE.
- THEN SOMETHING INSIDE OF ME,

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SOME LITTLE VOICE SAID,

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"PROVE IT."

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SO I STARTED
THE FIRST ELEMENT.

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- HERE, I'LL SHOW YOU.
- NO, SOPHIE,

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PLEASE BE CAREFUL.
THIS IS DANGEROUS.

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DON'T HAVE A COW, PAUL.
I'M FINE.

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SO ANYWAY, I BEGIN
THE FIRST ELEMENT.

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AND WHEN I LOOK
BACK AT MY FEET,

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THEY WERE RIGHT
ON THE BEAM.

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IT'S NOTHING MAJOR, BUT
I TOOK IT AS A SORT OF SIGN.

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AFTERWARDS, EVERYONE TOLD ME
CY WAS SO SHOCKED THAT
HE COULDN'T BREATHE.

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WELL, I BET HE WAS.

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I DID A BACKFLIP.

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- I LANDED PERFECTLY.
- THAT WAS INCREDIBLE.

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I JUST WALKED
BACK TO THE BENCH

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LIKE IT WAS NO BIG DEAL.

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I COULD FEEL EVERYBODY'S
EYES ON MY BACK

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AND I WANTED TO
TURN AROUND AND JUST...

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AND WHAT?

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NOTHING.

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NO, COME ON, TELL ME.

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I WANTED TO FLIP THEM
THE BIRD WITH BOTH HANDS

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LIKE, "FUCK ALL OF YOU
AND THE FISH YOU SWAM IN ON."

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00:11:06,099 --> 00:11:07,768
( laughs )

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I THOUGHT IT WAS THE, UM...

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THE HORSE THAT
YOU RODE IN ON.

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NOT IN MY BOOK.

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IN MY BOOK IT'S A FISH.

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WHAT IS IT, SOPHIE?

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WHAT'S WRONG?

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I DON'T FEEL WELL.

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00:11:32,926 --> 00:11:35,462
DO YOU WANT SOME WATER?

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DO YOU FEEL A PAIN?

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WAIT A SECOND.

230
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JUST WAIT, IT'LL GO AWAY.

231
00:11:55,482 --> 00:11:58,418
( quietly )
STOP IT, SOPHIE.

232
00:11:59,619 --> 00:12:02,089
- STOP IT.
- WHAT IS IT?

233
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SOPHIE, LOOK AT ME.

234
00:12:09,729 --> 00:12:11,364
PLEASE.

235
00:12:17,537 --> 00:12:19,206
WHAT IS IT?

236
00:12:22,776 --> 00:12:25,178
WHAT GOES ON IN THERE?

237
00:12:26,613 --> 00:12:28,748
TELL ME.

238
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AROUND 2:00 A.M.,
HE TOOK ME TO HIS ROOM.

239
00:12:36,790 --> 00:12:38,358
WHO DID?

240
00:12:38,458 --> 00:12:40,861
THE NEW GUY
WITH THE TEQUILA.

241
00:12:40,961 --> 00:12:44,397
HE'S FROM MINNESOTA
OR MICHIGAN OR SOMEWHERE,

242
00:12:44,497 --> 00:12:46,466
AND HE'S A BRILLIANT GYMNAST.

243
00:12:48,001 --> 00:12:49,669
HE WANTED TO HAVE SEX,

244
00:12:49,769 --> 00:12:52,572
BUT HE COULDN'T
GET IT UP.

245
00:12:52,672 --> 00:12:55,943
HE WAS PRETTY WASTED TOO.

246
00:12:56,043 --> 00:12:58,145
AND THEN HE DID
AND THEN WE HAD SEX

247
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AND I DIDN'T
FEEL ANYTHING.

248
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AS USUAL.

249
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ABSOLUTELY NOTHING.

250
00:13:11,258 --> 00:13:13,060
AFTERWARDS HE SAID
THAT I FUCKED

251
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LIKE SOMEONE WHO'S BEEN
SEXUALLY ABUSED.

252
00:13:20,300 --> 00:13:22,435
PRICK.

253
00:13:24,905 --> 00:13:26,106
I'M SORRY, GO ON.

254
00:13:26,206 --> 00:13:28,641
WE WENT
TO THE GIRLS' HOUSE,

255
00:13:28,741 --> 00:13:31,744
TO THE ROOM THAT
I SOMETIMES STAY IN.

256
00:13:31,845 --> 00:13:34,948
I TRIED TO GO TO SLEEP
BUT I COULDN'T STOP THINKING
ABOUT WHAT HE'D SAID.

257
00:13:36,716 --> 00:13:38,285
I WAS AFRAID THAT
IF I FELL ASLEEP

258
00:13:38,385 --> 00:13:41,188
I WOULDN'T GET UP
IN TIME TO COME
HERE SO...

259
00:13:41,288 --> 00:13:44,691
AND WHEN I CLOSED MY EYES
I SAW THESE HORRIBLE IMAGES.

260
00:13:44,791 --> 00:13:46,393
WHAT?

261
00:13:46,493 --> 00:13:48,828
LIKE EVERYTHING AROUND ME
WAS FALLING APART,

262
00:13:48,929 --> 00:13:50,663
YOU KNOW, DISINTEGRATING,

263
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TURNING INTO ASH
RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME.

264
00:13:54,801 --> 00:13:57,905
AND I FORCED MYSELF TO THINK
OF SOMETHING PRETTY AND NICE

265
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LIKE A PASTURE IN THE SUNLIGHT
AND TO HOLD IT THERE--

266
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THAT IMAGE.

267
00:14:03,977 --> 00:14:05,946
BUT AS SOON AS I STARTED
TO FALL ASLEEP

268
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THE PASTURE WOULD
TURN TO ROT.

269
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IT WAS TERRIBLE.

270
00:14:10,683 --> 00:14:13,420
AND THAT REMINDED ME
OF THE ACCIDENT
FOR SOME REASON.

271
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I DON'T KNOW WHY.

272
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I WAS SCARED THAT
IF I SLEPT

273
00:14:19,259 --> 00:14:20,593
I'D DREAM ABOUT
THE ACCIDENT.

274
00:14:20,693 --> 00:14:23,030
SO I GOT UP
AND I WALKED

275
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TO THE BUS STOP
VERY SLOWLY,

276
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BACKWARDS ACTUALLY,

277
00:14:28,268 --> 00:14:31,538
JUST TO SLOW MYSELF DOWN.

278
00:14:31,638 --> 00:14:34,041
THE BUSES WEREN'T
RUNNING YET,

279
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SO I SAT ON THE BENCH.

280
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YEAH? AND WHAT?

281
00:14:41,581 --> 00:14:44,551
WHAT WERE YOU THINKING ABOUT
WHEN YOU SAT ON THE BENCH?

282
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I WAS THINKING ABOUT DANA.

283
00:14:54,928 --> 00:14:57,130
I COULDN'T BREATHE.

284
00:14:57,230 --> 00:14:58,865
THE NIGHT OF THE ACCIDENT,

285
00:14:58,966 --> 00:15:01,368
WHEN I LEFT DARLENE'S HOUSE
AND GOT ON THE BIKE,

286
00:15:01,468 --> 00:15:04,604
ALL OF A SUDDEN
I COULDN'T BREATHE.

287
00:15:04,704 --> 00:15:07,074
MY THROAT CLOSED UP.

288
00:15:08,441 --> 00:15:10,710
THERE'S THIS BLIND TURN
AT THE END OF THEIR HILL,

289
00:15:10,810 --> 00:15:12,679
AND WHEN I WENT AROUND IT

290
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A WHITE CAR,
IT ALMOST HIT ME.

291
00:15:15,983 --> 00:15:18,385
- I DON'T REMEMBER.
- GO ON, SOPHIE.

292
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- WHAT HAPPENED
WITH THE WHITE CAR?
- I DON'T REMEMBER.

293
00:15:21,221 --> 00:15:23,323
GO ON, SOPHIE, PLEASE.
IT'S REALLY IMPORTANT.

294
00:15:23,423 --> 00:15:24,924
I TOLD YOU I DON'T
REMEMBER ANYTHING ELSE.

295
00:15:25,025 --> 00:15:26,459
YOU DON'T HAVE
TO DO THIS ALONE.

296
00:15:26,559 --> 00:15:28,195
I DON'T WANT TO.

297
00:15:38,871 --> 00:15:40,507
GO ON.

298
00:15:45,012 --> 00:15:46,646
THE SEAT WAS HURTING ME.

299
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IT WAS CY'S BIKE,
A MAN'S BIKE,

300
00:15:51,584 --> 00:15:52,919
SO IT HAD A NARROW SEAT.

301
00:15:53,020 --> 00:15:55,488
THAT'S WHY
IT WAS HURTING ME.

302
00:16:00,060 --> 00:16:02,362
WHEN I REACHED
THE BLIND TURN

303
00:16:02,462 --> 00:16:05,865
A WHITE CAR CAME AROUND
AND ALMOST HIT ME.

304
00:16:05,965 --> 00:16:08,968
IT HAD THE BRIGHTS ON
SO IT BLINDED ME.

305
00:16:09,069 --> 00:16:11,471
IT SWERVED AWAY FROM ME
AND THEN HONKED AND--

306
00:16:11,571 --> 00:16:13,540
IT WAS SO WEIRD.

307
00:16:13,640 --> 00:16:16,243
THE ROAD JUST SORT OF
STARTED COMING AT ME,

308
00:16:16,343 --> 00:16:19,479
SORT OF ATTACKING ME
REALLY FAST,

309
00:16:19,579 --> 00:16:22,582
LIKE I WAS FALLING FROM
SOMEWHERE VERY HIGH.

310
00:16:26,986 --> 00:16:29,422
AND I WANTED IT.

311
00:16:31,724 --> 00:16:33,726
I WANTED TO HEAR
A HUGE BOOM

312
00:16:33,826 --> 00:16:35,495
AND THEN I WANTED
TO HEAR NOTHING.

313
00:16:46,339 --> 00:16:48,541
I'M TRYING
TO KILL MYSELF.

314
00:16:55,748 --> 00:16:58,051
I'M A FUCKING FREAK.

315
00:17:06,826 --> 00:17:08,495
YOU'RE NOT A FREAK.

316
00:17:20,107 --> 00:17:21,741
WHAT HAPPENED THEN?

317
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IT WAS AS IF
IT HAD ALREADY HAPPENED.

318
00:17:31,851 --> 00:17:33,353
AS SOON AS
THE WHITE CAR PASSED

319
00:17:33,453 --> 00:17:36,656
I KNEW I WAS GOING TO
HAVE AN ACCIDENT.

320
00:17:36,756 --> 00:17:40,026
AND I JUST FELT CALM.

321
00:17:40,127 --> 00:17:43,996
I TURNED THE HANDLEBARS
JUST THE SMALLEST LITTLE
BIT TO THE LEFT.

322
00:17:44,097 --> 00:17:46,166
I REMEMBER THINKING,

323
00:17:46,266 --> 00:17:48,568
"JUST THIS TINY LITTLE
MOVEMENT IS ENOUGH."

324
00:17:51,371 --> 00:17:53,606
THEN I RODE INTO THE STREET.

325
00:17:55,308 --> 00:17:57,677
IT WAS IMPOSSIBLE FOR ANOTHER
CAR NOT TO HIT ME.

326
00:17:57,777 --> 00:18:00,079
AND I FELT JUST FREE--

327
00:18:00,180 --> 00:18:03,616
FREE AND STRONG.

328
00:18:03,716 --> 00:18:06,686
I HAD THIS ADRENALINE RUSH
LIKE NOTHING COULD TOUCH ME.

329
00:18:08,721 --> 00:18:11,324
WHAT IS THAT ABOUT?

330
00:18:11,424 --> 00:18:13,893
MAYBE YOU FELT LIKE
YOU WERE IN CONTROL.

331
00:18:13,993 --> 00:18:15,462
- YES.
- YEAH?

332
00:18:26,339 --> 00:18:28,408
AND THEN I WAS IN
THE MIDDLE OF THE ROAD

333
00:18:28,508 --> 00:18:30,843
AND THERE WAS THIS
TERRIBLE SCREECHING SOUND

334
00:18:30,943 --> 00:18:32,111
AND THEN A BOOM.

335
00:18:32,212 --> 00:18:34,181
AND I REMEMBER
I SAID TO MYSELF,

336
00:18:34,281 --> 00:18:37,617
"OH."
JUST "OH."

337
00:18:38,718 --> 00:18:40,820
AND I FLEW INTO THE AIR.

338
00:18:40,920 --> 00:18:42,322
I COULD SUDDENLY
BREATHE AGAIN.

339
00:18:42,422 --> 00:18:44,491
I HAD ALL THIS AIR
IN MY LUNGS.

340
00:18:47,927 --> 00:18:49,762
AND THEN YOU WERE
ON THE GROUND

341
00:18:49,862 --> 00:18:53,266
AND YOU WERE LYING THERE.
DO YOU REMEMBER WHAT--

342
00:18:53,366 --> 00:18:57,337
WHAT WAS GOING
THROUGH YOUR HEAD?

343
00:19:02,074 --> 00:19:04,444
THAT I FINALLY KILLED HER.

344
00:19:05,912 --> 00:19:07,580
KILLED WHO, SOPHIE?

345
00:19:07,680 --> 00:19:11,284
THAT'S WHAT I THOUGHT
WHEN I LANDED.

346
00:19:13,186 --> 00:19:14,621
WHO DID YOU KILL, SOPHIE?

347
00:19:14,721 --> 00:19:16,356
I DON'T KNOW.

348
00:19:37,977 --> 00:19:40,413
( coughing )

349
00:20:19,986 --> 00:20:21,921
( doorknob rattles )

350
00:20:24,257 --> 00:20:27,460
( flushes )

351
00:20:53,119 --> 00:20:54,787
SOPHIE?

352
00:20:59,826 --> 00:21:01,260
SOPHIE, ARE YOU OKAY?

353
00:21:01,361 --> 00:21:03,630
UH-HUH.
I'LL BE RIGHT OUT.

354
00:21:42,034 --> 00:21:43,970
YOU FEEL BETTER?

355
00:21:44,070 --> 00:21:47,173
I THINK I'LL GO HOME.

356
00:21:47,273 --> 00:21:50,009
WE HAVE A LITTLE
TIME LEFT.

357
00:21:50,109 --> 00:21:52,445
YEAH, BUT I'M REALLY TIRED.

358
00:21:52,545 --> 00:21:54,814
YOU CAN STAY FOR A LITTLE
BIT LONGER IF YOU'D LIKE.

359
00:21:54,914 --> 00:21:56,849
I THINK I'LL GO HOME.

360
00:21:57,917 --> 00:22:01,388
BUT WAIT, I HAVE
THE MAGIC SLIPPERS

361
00:22:01,488 --> 00:22:03,890
THAT CLEARLY I CAN
CLICK THREE TIMES

362
00:22:03,990 --> 00:22:06,759
AND SUDDENLY EVERYBODY I LOVE
WILL BE RIGHT BY MY SIDE.

363
00:22:08,828 --> 00:22:11,130
AND YOU'RE LIKE
THE WIZARD OF OZ.

364
00:22:11,230 --> 00:22:14,033
YOU THINK YOU KNOW EVERYTHING
BUT YOU DON'T KNOW SHIT.

365
00:22:16,603 --> 00:22:18,938
PLUS, YOU'RE ALWAYS
BEHIND THAT CURTAIN.

366
00:22:19,038 --> 00:22:20,473
WHAT CURTAIN?

367
00:22:20,573 --> 00:22:24,076
LET'S SEE YOU
DO SOME MAGIC.

368
00:22:24,176 --> 00:22:27,380
WHAT AM I
THINKING RIGHT NOW?

369
00:22:27,480 --> 00:22:28,815
I DON'T KNOW.

370
00:22:28,915 --> 00:22:32,184
SOPHIE, I CAN'T
READ YOUR MIND.

371
00:22:32,284 --> 00:22:34,621
TRY.

372
00:22:37,223 --> 00:22:39,692
PLEASE TRY,
MR. MAGIC MAN.

373
00:22:41,461 --> 00:22:44,296
ARE YOU ANGRY THAT I MADE
YOU REMEMBER THE ACCIDENT?

374
00:22:44,397 --> 00:22:46,198
IS THAT IT?

375
00:22:46,298 --> 00:22:47,834
THAT'S NOT
WHAT I WAS THINKING.

376
00:22:47,934 --> 00:22:50,970
- YOU LOSE.
- SOPHIE, ARE YOU OKAY?

377
00:22:51,070 --> 00:22:53,806
- YOU MUST HAVE SOMEONE
ELSE COMING HERE, RIGHT?
- I DON'T HAVE ANYBODY--

378
00:22:53,906 --> 00:22:55,842
I DON'T FEEL LIKE SEEING
ANYONE LIKE THIS.

379
00:22:55,942 --> 00:22:58,645
I'M A LITTLE
WORRIED ABOUT YOU, PLEASE.
SOPHIE, PLEASE.

380
00:22:58,745 --> 00:23:01,380
I THOUGHT THAT THE SHOOTING
TIMES WERE ALWAYS FIXED.

381
00:23:01,481 --> 00:23:02,882
WHAT SHOOTING?
WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?

382
00:23:02,982 --> 00:23:04,984
I THOUGHT THAT THEY ALWAYS
CAME AT THE SAME--

383
00:23:05,084 --> 00:23:07,954
- WHO?
- THE MODELS.

384
00:23:08,054 --> 00:23:09,756
SOPHIE.

385
00:23:09,856 --> 00:23:11,991
OH, GOD.

386
00:23:28,174 --> 00:23:32,945
( theme music playing )