1 00:00:05,773 --> 00:00:08,309 Man: PREVIOUSLY ON "IN TREATMENT"... 2 00:00:08,409 --> 00:00:10,778 I FEEL SORRY FOR THE BOOKS UP THERE. 3 00:00:13,547 --> 00:00:16,117 I'M GOING BACK TO TRAINING NEXT WEEK FOR THE OLYMPICS, 4 00:00:16,217 --> 00:00:19,120 AND IF YOU TRY TO STOP ME, YOU WILL NEVER SEE ME AGAIN. 5 00:00:19,220 --> 00:00:21,522 RIGHT, YOU'LL GO TO YOUR FATHER'S. 6 00:00:21,622 --> 00:00:24,358 ONLY HE'S IN MIAMI PHOTOGRAPHING SUPERMODELS 7 00:00:24,458 --> 00:00:26,194 AND NO ONE CAN GET AHOLD OF HIM. 8 00:00:26,294 --> 00:00:27,761 HE DOESN'T EVEN KNOW THAT SHE WAS IN THE HOSPITAL. 9 00:00:27,861 --> 00:00:30,398 - SHUT UP. - Olivia: SEE, HE HASN'T EVEN CALLED HER 10 00:00:30,498 --> 00:00:31,865 IN OVER A MONTH. 11 00:00:31,965 --> 00:00:33,367 WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME THAT YOUR FATHER 12 00:00:33,467 --> 00:00:35,436 DIDN'T KNOW YOU TRIED TO KILL YOURSELF? 13 00:00:36,970 --> 00:00:39,340 I HAVE TO GO. 14 00:00:39,440 --> 00:00:41,809 WHAT ABOUT OUR AGREEMENT? 15 00:00:41,909 --> 00:00:43,211 LET'S TALK ABOUT IT NEXT WEEK, OKAY? 16 00:00:43,311 --> 00:00:44,645 NO, WE WON'T TALK ABOUT IT NEXT WEEK. 17 00:00:44,745 --> 00:00:46,147 WHAT ABOUT OUR AGREEMENT? 18 00:00:46,247 --> 00:00:49,550 I WON'T TRY AND KILL MYSELF AS LONG AS I'M IN THERAPY. 19 00:00:49,650 --> 00:00:51,085 OKAY. 20 00:01:01,329 --> 00:01:02,963 - YES? - AFTERNOON. 21 00:01:03,063 --> 00:01:05,799 $12 PLEASE. 22 00:01:05,899 --> 00:01:08,336 - FOR WHAT? - PIZZA. 23 00:01:08,436 --> 00:01:11,004 A PIZZA? I DIDN'T ORDER A PIZZA. 24 00:01:11,105 --> 00:01:13,374 OH, IS THERE ANOTHER ENTRANCE TO THE HOUSE? 25 00:01:13,474 --> 00:01:15,509 YEAH, BUT I'M SURE NOBODY ORDERED A PIZZA. 26 00:01:15,609 --> 00:01:17,611 OKAY, BUDDY. JUST GIVE ME A SECOND. 27 00:01:17,711 --> 00:01:21,415 UH, CANDY? CAN YOU CHECK THE STREET NUMBER ON THE ROBINSON STREET ORDER? 28 00:01:21,515 --> 00:01:24,285 Candy: Yeah, it's, uh-- 848 Robinson. 29 00:01:24,385 --> 00:01:26,420 YEAH, BUT THE JOHN CLAIMS HE DIDN'T ORDER A PIE. 30 00:01:26,520 --> 00:01:29,056 YOU KNOW WHAT? LET ME TAKE IT. 31 00:01:29,157 --> 00:01:31,325 I THINK I KNOW WHO IT'S FOR. 32 00:01:31,425 --> 00:01:33,161 YOU KNOW WHAT? HE'S GONNA TAKE THE PIE. 33 00:01:33,261 --> 00:01:35,296 What do you mean? Suddenly he did order it? 34 00:01:35,396 --> 00:01:38,666 - Ask him what's on it. - YOU GOTTA TELL ME WHAT'S ON THE PIE FIRST. 35 00:01:38,766 --> 00:01:41,335 I CAN'T JUST BE HANDING OVER ANOTHER MAN'S PIZZA. 36 00:01:43,671 --> 00:01:46,006 IT'S... 37 00:01:46,106 --> 00:01:48,509 - CHEESE. - AND...? 38 00:01:48,609 --> 00:01:52,513 - AND... - AND IT'S DEEP-DISH. 39 00:01:52,613 --> 00:01:55,283 - YEAH, IT'S DEEP-DISH, YEAH. - OH, YEAH. 40 00:01:55,383 --> 00:01:57,785 - HOW MUCH IS THAT? - IT'S $12. 41 00:01:57,885 --> 00:01:59,487 THANKS. 42 00:01:59,587 --> 00:02:02,623 - AND... HERE YOU GO. - OH, THANK YOU. 43 00:02:02,723 --> 00:02:05,493 - IT'S FOR YOU. - THANKS A LOT. TAKE CARE. BYE. 44 00:02:06,960 --> 00:02:09,797 ( theme music playing ) 45 00:02:25,613 --> 00:02:27,348 WANT SOME? 46 00:02:27,448 --> 00:02:29,617 NO, I'M OKAY, THANKS. 47 00:02:31,452 --> 00:02:34,555 I WAS ON THE BUS AND I REALIZED I HAVEN'T HAD ANYTHING TO EAT. 48 00:02:34,655 --> 00:02:37,825 SO I SENT A TEXT MESSAGE TO GOOGLE FROM MY PHONE, 49 00:02:37,925 --> 00:02:40,761 THEY SENT ME BACK THE NUMBER OF THIS PLACE NEAR YOU. 50 00:02:40,861 --> 00:02:42,430 GOOGLE CAN DO THAT? 51 00:02:42,530 --> 00:02:44,565 GOOGLE CAN DO ANYTHING. 52 00:02:44,665 --> 00:02:47,968 - ( chuckles ) - ARE YOU SURE YOU DON'T WANT SOME? 53 00:02:48,068 --> 00:02:49,603 I THINK THIS PLACE IS TOTALLY ORGANIC. 54 00:02:49,703 --> 00:02:52,906 NO NO NO. HONESTLY, I'M SURE. I HAD LUNCH ALREADY. 55 00:02:53,006 --> 00:02:55,008 - HOW IS IT? - IT'S ALL RIGHT. 56 00:02:55,108 --> 00:02:57,177 NOT THE BEST, BUT I HAVE TO EAT. 57 00:02:57,278 --> 00:02:59,413 I NEED THE CALORIES. 58 00:03:05,286 --> 00:03:07,054 HOW WAS YOUR WEEK? 59 00:03:07,154 --> 00:03:09,323 GOOD, THANKS. 60 00:03:09,423 --> 00:03:11,525 SO YOU'RE IN A GOOD MOOD? 61 00:03:11,625 --> 00:03:13,494 I THINK SO. 62 00:03:14,895 --> 00:03:17,231 DO MY MOODS WORRY YOU? 63 00:03:17,331 --> 00:03:19,767 YOU WERE A LITTLE GRUMPY LAST WEEK. 64 00:03:20,968 --> 00:03:23,871 YOU SORTA ATE ME ALIVE. 65 00:03:23,971 --> 00:03:26,940 WELL, THERE WERE A COUPLE OF POINTS THAT I REALLY WANTED TO MAKE CLEAR 66 00:03:27,040 --> 00:03:31,111 AND IF I CAME ACROSS AS IMPATIENT OR ABRUPT, I-- 67 00:03:31,211 --> 00:03:34,382 I APOLOGIZE. 68 00:03:35,849 --> 00:03:37,318 APOLOGY ACCEPTED. 69 00:03:37,418 --> 00:03:38,719 WERE YOU HAVING A BAD WEEK? 70 00:03:38,819 --> 00:03:41,355 YEAH. 71 00:03:41,455 --> 00:03:45,192 AND... MAYBE SOME OF THAT SPILLED OVER 72 00:03:45,293 --> 00:03:48,095 INTO THIS-- INTO THIS ROOM. 73 00:03:48,195 --> 00:03:49,797 IT HAPPENS SOMETIMES. I WISH IT DIDN'T. 74 00:03:49,897 --> 00:03:52,500 RELAX, I CAN TAKE IT. 75 00:03:52,600 --> 00:03:55,369 - OKAY. - PLUS I LIKE THAT SIDE OF YOU. 76 00:03:55,469 --> 00:03:57,971 - WHICH SIDE? - THE NO-BULLSHIT SIDE. 77 00:03:58,071 --> 00:03:59,973 MMM. 78 00:04:00,073 --> 00:04:02,042 WHAT DID YOU MEAN WHEN YOU SAID 79 00:04:02,142 --> 00:04:04,912 "I NEED THE CALORIES"? 80 00:04:06,314 --> 00:04:08,048 I'VE LOST SOME WEIGHT. 81 00:04:08,148 --> 00:04:10,718 WHEN YOU GO BACK INTO TRAINING WITH WEIGHTS AND STUFF, 82 00:04:10,818 --> 00:04:13,321 AS YOU BUILD UP MUSCLE, YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO GAIN WEIGHT 83 00:04:13,421 --> 00:04:15,222 BECAUSE MUSCLE WEIGHS MORE THAN FAT. 84 00:04:15,323 --> 00:04:17,190 OH. NEVER KNEW THAT. 85 00:04:17,291 --> 00:04:20,561 WHEN I'M NOT HERE, DO YOU JUST BURY YOUR HEAD UNDER A ROCK OR SOMETHING? 86 00:04:20,661 --> 00:04:23,864 SO THESE POUNDS THAT I'VE PUT ON, 87 00:04:23,964 --> 00:04:25,466 THEY COULD BE-- THEY COULD BE MUSCLE, REALLY. 88 00:04:25,566 --> 00:04:27,701 DO YOU GO TO THE GYM? 89 00:04:27,801 --> 00:04:29,870 OCCASIONALLY. 90 00:04:29,970 --> 00:04:33,206 YOU HAVE TO DO IT CONSISTENTLY IF YOU WANNA SEE RESULTS. 91 00:04:33,307 --> 00:04:35,108 EVERY DAY. WEIGHTS AND CARDIO. 92 00:04:35,208 --> 00:04:36,209 NO PAIN, NO GAIN, GUY. 93 00:04:36,310 --> 00:04:38,812 YOU'RE RIGHT. 94 00:04:38,912 --> 00:04:40,748 AND YOU CAN'T SEE MUSCLE IF IT'S BURIED UNDER FAT, 95 00:04:40,848 --> 00:04:43,751 SO YOU HAVE TO CUT BACK ON YOUR SUGAR AND CARB INTAKE. 96 00:04:43,851 --> 00:04:45,486 OKAY, COACH. 97 00:04:45,586 --> 00:04:47,821 - SORRY. - NO, I APPRECIATE THE TIP, THANKS. 98 00:04:47,921 --> 00:04:49,823 ANYWAY, 99 00:04:49,923 --> 00:04:51,925 IF YOU BUILD MUSCLE, YOU'LL GAIN WEIGHT, 100 00:04:52,025 --> 00:04:54,728 UNLESS OF COURSE YOU'RE A PHYSIOLOGICAL FREAK LIKE ME. 101 00:04:54,828 --> 00:04:57,465 SINCE I'VE STARTED LIFTING WEIGHTS I'VE LOST TWO POUNDS, 102 00:04:57,565 --> 00:05:00,734 WHICH IS LIKE ANATOMICALLY IMPOSSIBLE. 103 00:05:00,834 --> 00:05:04,071 NOW CY WON'T LET ME LIFT UNTIL I GAIN IT BACK. 104 00:05:05,005 --> 00:05:06,607 IT'S BULLSHIT, REALLY. 105 00:05:06,707 --> 00:05:09,443 HE WAS LIKE, "YOU HAVE TO MAKE SURE THAT YOU EAT PROTEIN 106 00:05:09,543 --> 00:05:13,714 AFTER EVERY SESSION, AND YOU HAVE TO MAKE SURE THAT YOUR FAT-CARB RATIO-- 107 00:05:13,814 --> 00:05:15,282 BLAH BLAH BLAH..." 108 00:05:15,383 --> 00:05:17,451 HE WEIGHED ME TWO DAYS AGO. 109 00:05:17,551 --> 00:05:19,953 I DON'T KNOW HOW, BUT I LOST ANOTHER POUND. 110 00:05:27,160 --> 00:05:30,864 - CAN I EAT HERE? - SORRY? 111 00:05:30,964 --> 00:05:32,900 I NEVER ASKED IF IT WAS OKAY FOR ME TO EAT HERE. 112 00:05:33,000 --> 00:05:36,203 SURE, OF COURSE IT IS. 113 00:05:36,303 --> 00:05:37,838 'CAUSE I KNOW YOU HAVE ALL THESE RULES, 114 00:05:37,938 --> 00:05:40,073 AND I WASN'T SURE IF THERE WAS A RULE ABOUT FOOD. 115 00:05:41,809 --> 00:05:43,411 WHAT ARE MY RULES? 116 00:05:44,945 --> 00:05:46,380 WELL... 117 00:05:46,480 --> 00:05:48,315 THERE WAS A NO-SUICIDE RULE THAT WE MADE LAST WEEK. 118 00:05:48,416 --> 00:05:50,350 I THINK THAT WAS MORE OF A PACT, BUT-- 119 00:05:50,451 --> 00:05:53,921 IF IT WAS A PACT, WE'D BE DRINKING POISONED KOOL-AID TOGETHER. 120 00:05:57,825 --> 00:06:01,328 AND WHEN I HAD THE CAST, YOU HAD THAT RULE ABOUT NOT UNDRESSING ME. 121 00:06:01,429 --> 00:06:03,831 WELL, I DON'T KNOW THAT'S SO MUCH A RULE. 122 00:06:03,931 --> 00:06:06,934 I-- I FELT THAT THAT WAS INAPPROPRIATE. 123 00:06:08,201 --> 00:06:10,370 SO THERE ARE NO RULES. 124 00:06:11,171 --> 00:06:12,973 I CAN DO WHATEVER I WANT? 125 00:06:13,073 --> 00:06:15,409 NO, THAT'S NOT WHAT I SAID, 126 00:06:15,509 --> 00:06:18,145 BUT YOU CAN DEFINITELY EAT. 127 00:06:18,245 --> 00:06:20,681 IT MAKES ME HAPPY TO SEE YOU EAT... 128 00:06:21,348 --> 00:06:23,417 WITH GUSTO. 129 00:06:24,552 --> 00:06:26,987 A LOT OF GUSTO, ACTUALLY. 130 00:06:40,133 --> 00:06:42,470 - WHAT HAPPENED? - I'M DONE. 131 00:06:43,704 --> 00:06:45,606 I DON'T WANT ANYMORE. IT'S A LITTLE DISGUSTING. 132 00:06:45,706 --> 00:06:47,608 BUT I THOUGHT YOU SAID IT WAS GOOD. 133 00:06:47,708 --> 00:06:50,277 I SAID IT WAS OKAY. 134 00:06:50,377 --> 00:06:52,813 - MMM. - I'M NOT HUNGRY ANYMORE. 135 00:06:52,913 --> 00:06:54,047 OKAY. 136 00:06:54,147 --> 00:06:56,917 I HAD HALF A SLICE. WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO? 137 00:06:57,017 --> 00:06:59,753 FINISH THE WHOLE THING? WHO COULD FINISH A WHOLE SLICE OF PIZZA? 138 00:06:59,853 --> 00:07:02,055 I THINK THERE'S A LOT OF PEOPLE WHO COULD FINISH. 139 00:07:02,155 --> 00:07:03,757 FAT PEOPLE. 140 00:07:09,897 --> 00:07:11,665 DO YOU KNOW WHAT "GUSTO" MEANS? 141 00:07:11,765 --> 00:07:14,301 OF COURSE, IT MEANS-- 142 00:07:14,401 --> 00:07:16,737 IT MEANS IT'S HOW FAT PEOPLE EAT. 143 00:07:17,605 --> 00:07:19,907 WITH GUSTO. 144 00:07:20,007 --> 00:07:21,141 DID YOU KNOW 145 00:07:21,241 --> 00:07:25,579 A FAT PERSON WHO ATE WITH GUSTO? 146 00:07:27,447 --> 00:07:29,049 NOT EXACTLY. 147 00:07:30,183 --> 00:07:33,286 WHAT-- WHY ARE YOU SMILING? 148 00:07:33,386 --> 00:07:35,756 MY FATHER HAD THIS GIRLFRIEND... 149 00:07:35,856 --> 00:07:39,660 A MODEL. SHE HARDLY SPOKE ENGLISH 150 00:07:39,760 --> 00:07:42,362 AND HE DIDN'T SPEAK ITALIAN. IT WAS RIDICULOUS. 151 00:07:42,462 --> 00:07:45,766 SHE USED TO TURN UP AT HIS APARTMENT WITH BAGS OF CHOCOLATE. 152 00:07:45,866 --> 00:07:47,400 SHE KEPT TRYING TO FORCE-FEED ME. 153 00:07:47,501 --> 00:07:49,402 WHEN I WOULDN'T DO IT, 154 00:07:49,503 --> 00:07:52,372 SHE TOLD MY DAD I WAS ANOREXIC. 155 00:07:52,472 --> 00:07:54,141 SHE WENT AROUND THE HOUSE 156 00:07:54,241 --> 00:07:55,909 POINTING TO ME AND SAYING, 157 00:07:56,009 --> 00:07:59,479 ( mock-Italian accent ) "I AM SO WORRIED FOR HER. 158 00:07:59,580 --> 00:08:01,549 SHE HAS NO GUSTO FOR EATING." 159 00:08:01,649 --> 00:08:04,818 MEANWHILE SHE'S STUFFING HER BONY ASS LIKE A PIG 160 00:08:04,918 --> 00:08:06,854 AND NEVER GAINING ANY WEIGHT. 161 00:08:06,954 --> 00:08:10,190 SHE WAS A TOTAL MIA. MY DAD NEVER SAW IT. 162 00:08:11,124 --> 00:08:12,760 HMM. 163 00:08:15,295 --> 00:08:16,797 WHAT? 164 00:08:18,465 --> 00:08:20,601 YOU CAN SAY IT. 165 00:08:20,701 --> 00:08:23,003 I'VE HEARD IT A THOUSAND TIMES BEFORE. 166 00:08:26,306 --> 00:08:28,308 YOU THINK I HAVE AN EATING DISORDER. 167 00:08:28,408 --> 00:08:30,310 WHY CAN'T ANYBODY UNDERSTAND? 168 00:08:30,410 --> 00:08:32,279 THIS IS JUST THE WAY I'M BUILT. 169 00:08:32,379 --> 00:08:34,381 I DON'T GET HUNGRY. 170 00:08:34,481 --> 00:08:36,817 I CAN GO A WHOLE DAY AND NEVER GET HUNGRY. 171 00:08:36,917 --> 00:08:39,286 IT DOESN'T MEAN I'M ANOREXIC. 172 00:08:39,386 --> 00:08:40,854 I'M AN OLYMPIC HOPEFUL, FOR GOD'S SAKES. 173 00:08:40,954 --> 00:08:43,456 I KNOW WHAT MY BODY IS AND ISN'T CAPABLE OF. 174 00:08:43,557 --> 00:08:46,126 I KNOW MY BODY BETTER AT 16 175 00:08:46,226 --> 00:08:48,195 THAN REGULAR PEOPLE EVER WILL. 176 00:08:54,267 --> 00:08:55,903 NEVER SAW HER AGAIN. 177 00:08:57,705 --> 00:09:00,874 SHE STARVED TO DEATH HOPEFULLY. 178 00:09:00,974 --> 00:09:02,710 I DON'T KNOW. 179 00:09:02,810 --> 00:09:06,714 HE NEVER STAYED WITH ANY OF THEM FOR VERY LONG. 180 00:09:06,814 --> 00:09:09,817 AND WHEN SHE TOLD HIM THAT SHE THOUGHT THAT YOU HAD 181 00:09:09,917 --> 00:09:12,653 AN EATING DISORDER, DID HE TAKE HER SERIOUSLY? 182 00:09:12,753 --> 00:09:14,487 I DON'T KNOW. 183 00:09:14,588 --> 00:09:17,290 - DID HE TRY TO GET YOU TO EAT MORE? - NO. 184 00:09:17,390 --> 00:09:20,227 HE LIKES ME FOR MYSELF, 185 00:09:20,327 --> 00:09:21,929 AND HE LOVES HOW I LOOK. 186 00:09:22,029 --> 00:09:24,732 HE SAID IF THE WHOLE GYMNASTICS THING DOESN'T WORK OUT, 187 00:09:24,832 --> 00:09:27,067 HE CAN GET ME A JOB AS A MODEL... 188 00:09:27,167 --> 00:09:28,636 LIKE THAT. 189 00:09:32,706 --> 00:09:35,042 SO HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT YOUR WEIGHT? 190 00:09:35,142 --> 00:09:37,344 I LOVE IT. 191 00:09:37,444 --> 00:09:39,680 I LIKE BEING LIGHT AND THIN. 192 00:09:39,780 --> 00:09:41,749 I LIKE FEELING THAT I COULD JUST SLIP AWAY 193 00:09:41,849 --> 00:09:44,084 THROUGH A CRACK IN THE DOOR IF I HAD TO. 194 00:09:44,184 --> 00:09:45,518 MMM. 195 00:09:45,619 --> 00:09:48,756 CAN YOU THINK OF A TIME WHEN YOU USED YOUR... 196 00:09:48,856 --> 00:09:52,693 LIGHTNESS, AS YOU CALL IT, TO SLIP AWAY? 197 00:09:52,793 --> 00:09:56,129 I'M DESCRIBING A FEELING, PAUL. DON'T BE SO LITERAL. 198 00:09:56,229 --> 00:09:57,698 OKAY. FAIR ENOUGH. 199 00:09:57,798 --> 00:09:59,833 WELL, CAN YOU THINK OF A TIME THEN 200 00:09:59,933 --> 00:10:04,071 WHEN YOU THOUGHT, "I WISH I COULD JUST SLIP AWAY"? 201 00:10:04,171 --> 00:10:06,239 HOW ABOUT RIGHT NOW? 202 00:10:08,075 --> 00:10:11,712 THAT PARTY-- WHERE THE BOY TOOK YOU INTO THE-- 203 00:10:11,812 --> 00:10:15,649 INTO THE BEDROOM. DIDN'T YOU WANT TO SLIP AWAY THEN? 204 00:10:16,616 --> 00:10:18,686 I WAS TRASHED. 205 00:10:22,155 --> 00:10:24,357 - YOU DON'T GET IT. - WHAT DON'T I GET? 206 00:10:24,457 --> 00:10:27,127 THE SLIPPING AWAY THING. 207 00:10:27,227 --> 00:10:29,262 IT'S-- 208 00:10:29,362 --> 00:10:30,798 IT'S A GIRL THING, 209 00:10:30,898 --> 00:10:33,834 THE WANTING TO BE LIKED. 210 00:10:33,934 --> 00:10:35,903 TO BE THERE, BUT NOT TO BE THERE. 211 00:10:36,003 --> 00:10:38,806 IT'S LIKE-- CAN WE TALK ABOUT SOMETHING ELSE? 212 00:10:38,906 --> 00:10:40,407 FINISH THE THOUGHT, SOPHIE. 213 00:10:40,507 --> 00:10:44,144 NO. I WANNA TALK ABOUT SOMETHING ELSE. 214 00:10:44,244 --> 00:10:46,546 OKAY. 215 00:10:46,646 --> 00:10:48,916 WHAT WOULD YOU LIKE TO TALK ABOUT THEN? 216 00:10:52,519 --> 00:10:54,121 HOW'S YOUR DAUGHTER? 217 00:10:54,221 --> 00:10:56,757 ROSIE? SHE'S-- 218 00:10:56,857 --> 00:10:58,726 SHE'S FINE, THANK YOU. 219 00:10:58,826 --> 00:11:01,061 IS SHE STILL WITH THAT FUCKED-UP GUY? 220 00:11:01,161 --> 00:11:03,196 DO YOU REALLY WANT TO TALK ABOUT MY DAUGHTER 221 00:11:03,296 --> 00:11:05,866 OR ARE YOU JUST TRYING TO MAKE ME UNCOMFORTABLE? 222 00:11:09,269 --> 00:11:11,571 I DON'T WANNA TALK ABOUT HER IF YOU DON'T. 223 00:11:11,671 --> 00:11:13,273 WELL, WHY WOULDN'T I WANNA TALK ABOUT HER? 224 00:11:13,373 --> 00:11:15,408 YOU NEVER MENTION HER. 225 00:11:22,182 --> 00:11:23,884 YOU KNOW, AFTER YOU LEFT LAST WEEK, 226 00:11:23,984 --> 00:11:26,754 I COULDN'T HELP THINKING ABOUT HOW YOU DIDN'T TELL ME 227 00:11:26,854 --> 00:11:28,621 THAT YOUR DAD WAS IN MIAMI. 228 00:11:28,722 --> 00:11:30,758 WE'RE BACK TO THAT? 229 00:11:30,858 --> 00:11:33,693 SO HE STILL DOESN'T KNOW ABOUT YOUR ATTEMPTED SUICIDE? 230 00:11:33,794 --> 00:11:35,729 I DON'T WANNA TALK ABOUT THIS. 231 00:11:35,829 --> 00:11:37,965 IS IT SOMETHING YOU WANNA KEEP A SECRET FROM HIM? 232 00:11:38,065 --> 00:11:39,767 IT'S NOT A FUCKING SECRET. 233 00:11:39,867 --> 00:11:42,702 HOW CAN IT BE A SECRET IF THAT'S ALL YOU AND MY MOM 234 00:11:42,803 --> 00:11:45,072 AND EVERYONE ELSE CAN TALK ABOUT? 235 00:11:56,917 --> 00:11:58,351 WHAT ARE YOU THINKING ABOUT? 236 00:11:58,451 --> 00:12:01,154 NOTHING. 237 00:12:01,254 --> 00:12:04,524 I HAVE A TEST TOMORROW THAT I HAVE TO STUDY FOR 238 00:12:04,624 --> 00:12:07,127 AND I MISSED MY DENTIST APPOINTMENT TODAY, SO I HAVE TO RESCHEDULE THAT. 239 00:12:07,227 --> 00:12:09,662 I THINK YOU'RE RUNNING AWAY. 240 00:12:09,763 --> 00:12:11,865 - WHAT? - MM-HMM. IN YOUR MIND, 241 00:12:11,965 --> 00:12:13,566 YOU'RE PLANNING YOUR SCHEDULE. 242 00:12:13,666 --> 00:12:15,869 WE GET CLOSE TO SOMETHING 243 00:12:15,969 --> 00:12:18,371 THAT FEELS DANGEROUS TO YOU, 244 00:12:18,471 --> 00:12:20,640 AND WHAT DO YOU DO? YOU RETREAT. 245 00:12:20,740 --> 00:12:22,843 I'M NOT RETREATING. 246 00:12:22,943 --> 00:12:25,745 I'M STRESSED ABOUT THE EXAM, I THINK I HAVE A CAVITY 247 00:12:25,846 --> 00:12:28,248 AND I HAVE A STOMACHACHE FROM THAT FUCKING PIZZA. 248 00:12:28,348 --> 00:12:29,582 WHAT A MISTAKE THAT WAS. 249 00:12:29,682 --> 00:12:31,551 WELL... 250 00:12:31,651 --> 00:12:33,653 I HAVE A THEORY ABOUT THAT PIZZA. 251 00:12:33,753 --> 00:12:35,688 SURPRISE SURPRISE. 252 00:12:35,789 --> 00:12:37,324 WOULD YOU LIKE TO HEAR IT? 253 00:12:38,458 --> 00:12:39,827 DO I HAVE A CHOICE? 254 00:12:39,927 --> 00:12:41,862 YEAH. YOU ALWAYS HAVE A CHOICE. 255 00:12:43,696 --> 00:12:45,332 WHAT'S YOUR THEORY? 256 00:12:46,766 --> 00:12:48,701 I THINK THAT YOU WERE ENJOYING THAT PIZZA 257 00:12:48,802 --> 00:12:51,604 UNTIL I SAID SOMETHING THAT REMINDED YOU 258 00:12:51,704 --> 00:12:55,442 OF SOMETHING YOUR FATHER'S GIRLFRIEND USED TO SAY TO YOU. 259 00:12:56,776 --> 00:12:59,179 I USED THE WORD "GUSTO." 260 00:12:59,279 --> 00:13:01,448 ARE YOU SAYING I'M FUCKED UP ABOUT FOOD 261 00:13:01,548 --> 00:13:03,650 BECAUSE OF SOMETHING MY FATHER'S GIRLFRIEND SAID? 262 00:13:03,750 --> 00:13:06,219 ARE YOU FUCKED UP ABOUT FOOD? 263 00:13:06,319 --> 00:13:07,821 ISN'T EVERYBODY? 264 00:13:09,789 --> 00:13:12,292 WHAT DOES FOOD MEAN TO YOU? 265 00:13:12,392 --> 00:13:14,127 WHAT DO YOU MEAN? 266 00:13:14,227 --> 00:13:16,096 WELL, IS IT NUTRITION, IS IT ENJOYMENT, 267 00:13:16,196 --> 00:13:18,598 IS IT-- IS IT-- WHAT? 268 00:13:18,698 --> 00:13:20,533 IT'S THE ENEMY. 269 00:13:20,633 --> 00:13:23,103 MMM. 270 00:13:23,203 --> 00:13:26,339 IT'S JUST WHAT HAPPENS TO GYMNASTS. 271 00:13:28,241 --> 00:13:30,477 WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME YOUR FATHER WAS IN MIAMI? 272 00:13:30,577 --> 00:13:31,578 WHY WAS IT A SECRET? 273 00:13:31,678 --> 00:13:33,914 IT'S NOT A FUCKING SECRET. 274 00:13:34,014 --> 00:13:36,583 I JUST DON'T THINK THAT I NEED TO BOTHER HIM 275 00:13:36,683 --> 00:13:37,951 WITH EVERY BORING DETAIL OF MY LIFE. 276 00:13:38,051 --> 00:13:40,420 YOUR ATTEMPTED SUICIDE IS A BORING DETAIL? 277 00:13:40,520 --> 00:13:42,089 IT'S NOT A SUICIDE ATTEMPT. 278 00:13:42,189 --> 00:13:44,157 I WAS JUST TESTING. REMEMBER? 279 00:13:44,257 --> 00:13:46,994 SOMEBODY AROUND HERE HAD THAT THEORY, I THINK. 280 00:13:47,094 --> 00:13:49,229 YEAH, THAT RINGS A BELL. 281 00:13:53,833 --> 00:13:56,870 HE'D PUT IT TOGETHER AND DECIDE THAT IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT. 282 00:13:56,970 --> 00:14:00,373 HE ALREADY THINKS YOU'RE A QUACK, REMEMBER? 283 00:14:00,473 --> 00:14:01,975 IT'S BETTER FOR YOU IF HE DOESN'T FIND OUT. 284 00:14:02,075 --> 00:14:03,576 HE'LL NEVER LET ME COME BACK HERE. 285 00:14:03,676 --> 00:14:05,245 IS IT BETTER FOR YOU OR BETTER FOR ME? 286 00:14:05,345 --> 00:14:08,281 WHICH OF US WOULD HAVE TO STAY AWAY FROM THERAPY, DO YOU THINK? 287 00:14:08,381 --> 00:14:11,718 IF HE KNEW, HE'D BE DEVASTATED. 288 00:14:11,818 --> 00:14:15,155 HE IS THE MOST IMPORTANT PERSON TO ME IN THIS WHOLE WORLD. 289 00:14:15,255 --> 00:14:18,091 I DON'T EVER WANNA HURT HIM. 290 00:14:18,191 --> 00:14:20,493 WHY CAN'T YOU JUST LET IT GO? 291 00:14:22,862 --> 00:14:24,597 FORGET IT. 292 00:14:24,697 --> 00:14:26,199 THIS IS SUCH A WASTE OF TIME. 293 00:14:26,299 --> 00:14:28,101 YOU TRIED TO KILL YOURSELF, SOPHIE, 294 00:14:28,201 --> 00:14:31,972 AND YOU DON'T WANT TO TELL THE MOST IMPORTANT PERSON IN YOUR WORLD? 295 00:14:32,072 --> 00:14:33,873 HE HAS A LIFE! 296 00:14:33,974 --> 00:14:35,542 SOMEBODY HAS TO. 297 00:14:35,642 --> 00:14:37,945 WE CAN'T ALL GO AROUND LIKE WALKING CORPSES. 298 00:14:38,045 --> 00:14:39,913 IT'S NOT HIS FAULT THAT I TOOK THOSE PILLS! 299 00:14:40,013 --> 00:14:41,949 I'M NOT SAYING IT IS HIS FAULT, 300 00:14:42,049 --> 00:14:43,550 I'M JUST TRYING TO FIGURE OUT 301 00:14:43,650 --> 00:14:45,919 WHY YOU WERE SO READY TO LEAVE THE PLANET AND NOT TELL HIM. 302 00:14:46,019 --> 00:14:47,387 WHAT'S UP YOUR ASS? 303 00:14:47,487 --> 00:14:48,922 ARE YOU ANGRY AT HIM FOR SOMETHING? 304 00:14:49,022 --> 00:14:50,390 I'M NOT ANGRY AT HIM. 305 00:14:50,490 --> 00:14:52,259 IS THERE SOMETHING YOU'RE NOT TELLING ME? 306 00:14:52,359 --> 00:14:54,394 GET OFF MY BACK! 307 00:14:56,496 --> 00:14:58,031 OKAY. 308 00:15:02,970 --> 00:15:04,504 ARE WE DONE? 309 00:15:05,805 --> 00:15:07,574 WE HAVE A LITTLE TIME LEFT. 310 00:15:16,483 --> 00:15:17,484 WHAT? 311 00:15:17,584 --> 00:15:20,053 WELL, YOU-- 312 00:15:20,153 --> 00:15:22,689 YOU'VE NEVER WANTED TO END A SESSION EARLY BEFORE. 313 00:16:01,794 --> 00:16:03,296 IN OUR FIRST SESSION 314 00:16:03,396 --> 00:16:05,898 YOU MENTIONED THOSE BOOKS UP THERE. 315 00:16:05,999 --> 00:16:09,102 I THOUGHT IT WAS BECAUSE YOU IDENTIFIED WITH THEM. 316 00:16:09,202 --> 00:16:10,670 YOU SAID THEY WERE 317 00:16:10,770 --> 00:16:14,407 COLD AND LONELY ON THE TOP SHELF. 318 00:16:14,507 --> 00:16:17,110 AND THEN I LOOKED AT THEM MORE CLOSELY AND I REALIZED 319 00:16:17,210 --> 00:16:18,878 THAT ONE OF THEM HAS... 320 00:16:18,978 --> 00:16:21,348 SOME OF YOUR FATHER'S PHOTOGRAPHS IN IT. 321 00:16:22,849 --> 00:16:24,951 YOU SAID THAT YOUR DAD 322 00:16:25,052 --> 00:16:28,421 LOVES THE WAY THAT YOU LOOK, 323 00:16:28,521 --> 00:16:30,990 AND THAT... 324 00:16:31,091 --> 00:16:34,727 IF YOU WEREN'T A GYMNAST THAT YOU COULD BE A MODEL. 325 00:16:37,264 --> 00:16:40,400 I GUESS MODELS ARE THE PEOPLE THAT HE-- 326 00:16:40,500 --> 00:16:42,802 THAT HE CHOOSES TO SURROUND HIMSELF WITH. 327 00:16:42,902 --> 00:16:45,438 THE PEOPLE HE-- HE LIKES. 328 00:16:55,014 --> 00:16:58,351 THEY'RE THE PEOPLE HE FUCKS. I WOULDN'T SAY HE LIKES THEM. 329 00:17:01,721 --> 00:17:04,891 I KNOW THAT IN OUR CULTURE THIN MODELS ARE-- 330 00:17:04,991 --> 00:17:09,262 ARE SEXUALIZED, BUT I'VE ALWAYS FOUND THAT REALLY STRANGE, 331 00:17:09,362 --> 00:17:11,664 BECAUSE IN CLASSICAL ART AND LITERATURE, 332 00:17:11,764 --> 00:17:15,001 EATING IS OFTEN USED AS A METAPHOR FOR SEX. 333 00:17:15,102 --> 00:17:17,003 THEY BOTH CONJURE UP 334 00:17:17,104 --> 00:17:19,172 DESIRE, HUNGER... 335 00:17:19,272 --> 00:17:22,109 CRAVINGS INSIDE US. 336 00:17:24,211 --> 00:17:26,313 WHERE ARE YOU GOING, SOPHIE? 337 00:17:26,413 --> 00:17:28,748 SOPHIE, TRY TO STAY HERE, PLEASE. 338 00:17:28,848 --> 00:17:31,351 TRY NOT TO DISAPPEAR. 339 00:17:32,119 --> 00:17:34,087 EAT SHIT, PAUL. 340 00:17:36,989 --> 00:17:38,591 WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS? 341 00:17:40,026 --> 00:17:41,894 I THOUGHT THAT YOU WERE TRYING TO HELP. 342 00:17:41,994 --> 00:17:43,863 WHY DOES THE BOOK PROVOKE 343 00:17:43,963 --> 00:17:45,898 SUCH A STRONG REACTION IN YOU? 344 00:17:45,998 --> 00:17:48,401 WHAT YOU'RE DOING IS SICK. 345 00:17:48,501 --> 00:17:51,371 IT'S FUCKING SICK. IT'S PERVERTED. 346 00:17:51,471 --> 00:17:53,373 I'LL NEVER FORGIVE YOU FOR THIS. 347 00:17:53,473 --> 00:17:57,076 WHY? BECAUSE I'M MAKING YOU UNCOMFORTABLE? 348 00:17:57,177 --> 00:17:58,978 I'M ASKING YOU TO THINK ABOUT THINGS 349 00:17:59,078 --> 00:18:00,647 THAT YOU DON'T REALLY WANT TO TALK ABOUT. 350 00:18:00,747 --> 00:18:03,216 IF I WANTED TO TALK ABOUT MY FATHER'S BOOK, 351 00:18:03,316 --> 00:18:05,518 I WOULD HAVE TOLD YOU IT WAS RIGHT THERE. 352 00:18:05,618 --> 00:18:08,555 WHAT ABOUT ALL THAT CRAP ABOUT A PATIENT DECIDING WHAT WE TALK ABOUT? 353 00:18:08,655 --> 00:18:10,923 THAT YOU TAKE THINGS AT MY SPEED, 354 00:18:11,023 --> 00:18:13,760 AND I CONTROL THE WHEELS AND ALL THAT? YOU'RE SO FULL OF SHIT. 355 00:18:13,860 --> 00:18:16,563 BUT YOU HAVE BEEN DRIVING WHAT WE TALK ABOUT HERE. 356 00:18:16,663 --> 00:18:18,898 YOU MAY NOT REALIZE IT, BUT YOU HAVE. 357 00:18:18,998 --> 00:18:22,569 THE VERY FIRST THING THAT YOU WANTED TO TALK ABOUT WERE THOSE BOOKS UP THERE. 358 00:18:22,669 --> 00:18:24,070 WHAT ARE YOU SAYING? 359 00:18:24,171 --> 00:18:26,539 THAT YOU JERK OFF TO MY FATHER'S PHOTOGRAPHS? 360 00:18:26,639 --> 00:18:30,310 THAT YOU OPEN UP THAT BOOK AND JERK OFF ALL OVER THOSE SLUTS? 361 00:18:30,410 --> 00:18:33,045 YOU KEEP SUGGESTING SOMEBODY IS ABUSING ME. 362 00:18:33,146 --> 00:18:34,847 YOU'RE ABUSING ME. 363 00:18:34,947 --> 00:18:37,016 THAT'S WHAT YOU PEOPLE LOVE MOST OF ALL, ISN'T IT? 364 00:18:37,116 --> 00:18:38,785 A GOOD MINDFUCK. 365 00:18:38,885 --> 00:18:41,321 TO TAKE THE ONE GOOD THING IN SOMEBODY'S LIFE 366 00:18:41,421 --> 00:18:42,889 AND SOMEHOW FUCK IT UP. 367 00:18:42,989 --> 00:18:44,791 JUST LIKE MY FATHER SAID. 368 00:18:49,796 --> 00:18:52,165 SHUT THE FUCK UP ABOUT HIM! 369 00:18:58,238 --> 00:19:00,273 HOW COULD YOU?! 370 00:19:00,373 --> 00:19:03,476 HOW COULD YOU?! YOU'RE JUST LIKE EVERYBODY ELSE! 371 00:19:04,177 --> 00:19:05,912 LIKE WHO, SOPHIE? 372 00:19:08,181 --> 00:19:09,782 SOPHIE. 373 00:19:11,050 --> 00:19:14,387 PLEASE, DON'T GO. PLEASE. 374 00:19:48,421 --> 00:19:50,557 WHY DID YOU DO THAT? 375 00:19:53,293 --> 00:19:55,828 YOU MEAN WHY DID I TAKE THE BOOK DOWN? 376 00:19:58,365 --> 00:19:59,799 BECAUSE I HAD TO. 377 00:20:01,167 --> 00:20:03,736 I HAD TO PUT THE BOOK ON THE TABLE... 378 00:20:03,836 --> 00:20:07,640 AND THERE WAS REALLY NO GRACEFUL WAY OF DOING IT, SOPHIE. 379 00:20:10,510 --> 00:20:13,680 I THINK THIS BOOK IS CONNECTED TO YOUR WOUND. 380 00:20:15,181 --> 00:20:18,285 AND OPENING A WOUND, SOPHIE, IS-- 381 00:20:18,385 --> 00:20:21,053 IS FRIGHTENING, 382 00:20:21,153 --> 00:20:23,890 IT'S-- IT'S PAINFUL 383 00:20:23,990 --> 00:20:26,659 AND IT'S-- AND IT'S UGLY. 384 00:20:33,400 --> 00:20:36,002 YOU IMPLIED THAT I'D BEEN SEXUALLY ABUSED. 385 00:20:36,102 --> 00:20:38,571 IS THAT WHAT YOU HEARD? 386 00:20:38,671 --> 00:20:41,541 I NEVER SAID ANYTHING LIKE THAT. 387 00:20:44,444 --> 00:20:46,813 THIS BOOK WITH THE-- 388 00:20:46,913 --> 00:20:49,316 WITH THE NAKED MODELS... 389 00:20:50,683 --> 00:20:52,885 YOU WANTED ME TO SEE THAT. 390 00:20:57,990 --> 00:20:59,859 YOU KNOW WHAT I THINK? 391 00:21:02,562 --> 00:21:04,631 I THINK YOU'RE ANGRY. 392 00:21:06,032 --> 00:21:09,302 I THINK YOU'VE GOT GREAT ANGER TOWARDS YOUR FATHER. 393 00:21:11,871 --> 00:21:13,740 YOU SAID EARLIER ON THAT YOU WISHED 394 00:21:13,840 --> 00:21:16,943 THAT YOU COULD SLIP THROUGH THE CRACKS WHEN YOU WANTED TO, 395 00:21:17,043 --> 00:21:20,313 BUT YOU DON'T DO THAT WHEN YOU'RE IN TROUBLE, SOPHIE. NOT REALLY. 396 00:21:20,413 --> 00:21:23,015 YOUR MIND TRIES TO, BUT YOUR BODY-- 397 00:21:23,115 --> 00:21:25,552 YOUR BODY STAYS HERE. 398 00:21:25,652 --> 00:21:28,254 YOU LET OTHERS DO THINGS TO YOU, 399 00:21:28,355 --> 00:21:30,657 BECAUSE YOU'VE CONVINCED YOURSELF THAT-- 400 00:21:32,291 --> 00:21:34,427 THAT YOU'RE NOT REALLY THERE... 401 00:21:36,363 --> 00:21:38,831 THAT IT'S NOT HAPPENING TO YOU. 402 00:21:38,931 --> 00:21:41,233 THAT IT'S NOT-- 403 00:21:41,334 --> 00:21:42,902 THAT IT'S NOT HURTING YOU. 404 00:21:44,437 --> 00:21:46,806 I'M SURE THIS WEEK YOU'RE GONNA EXERCISE LIKE A FIEND. 405 00:21:46,906 --> 00:21:49,041 AND NOT BECAUSE YOU'RE AN OLYMPIC HOPEFUL... 406 00:21:51,611 --> 00:21:53,880 BUT BECAUSE I KNOW THAT AFTER THIS SESSION, 407 00:21:53,980 --> 00:21:55,548 YOU'RE GONNA WANT... 408 00:21:56,349 --> 00:21:58,751 TO REGAIN CONTROL. 409 00:22:00,487 --> 00:22:03,790 BUT I WANT YOU TO REMEMBER SOMETHING, SOPHIE. 410 00:22:03,890 --> 00:22:06,258 WHEN YOU GO UP ONTO THAT BEAM, 411 00:22:06,359 --> 00:22:09,596 THAT'S THE PLACE WHERE YOU DETACH. 412 00:22:09,696 --> 00:22:12,599 THAT'S WHERE YOU GO TO FEEL SAFE. 413 00:22:14,767 --> 00:22:17,437 ALL I WANT YOU TO KNOW IS YOU DON'T HAVE TO GO THERE. 414 00:22:18,705 --> 00:22:21,674 THERE ARE OTHER PLACES WHERE YOU CAN FEEL SAFE. 415 00:22:23,009 --> 00:22:25,044 AND HERE, IN THIS ROOM... 416 00:22:26,613 --> 00:22:28,715 IS ONE OF THOSE PLACES. 417 00:23:46,325 --> 00:23:49,862 ( theme music playing )