1 00:00:05,773 --> 00:00:08,076 Male voice: PREVIOUSLY ON "IN TREATMENT"... 2 00:00:08,176 --> 00:00:12,146 IF THERE'S SOMEONE WHO DOES NOT KNOW THE MEANING OF GUILT, IT'S MY FATHER. 3 00:00:12,246 --> 00:00:14,815 MID-'50s, RIGHT? JIM CROW, OKLAHOMA. 4 00:00:14,915 --> 00:00:17,685 THIS MOB WITH HOODS ATTACKED HIS HOUSE. 5 00:00:17,785 --> 00:00:20,154 SO MY FATHER TAKES THE FAMILY, THEY RUN DOWNSTAIRS 6 00:00:20,254 --> 00:00:22,690 TO THE-- THE BOILER ROOM, TO THE BASEMENT. 7 00:00:22,790 --> 00:00:24,425 MY GRANDFATHER, HIS FATHER, 8 00:00:24,525 --> 00:00:27,561 WAS VERY SICK, DYING OF LUNG CANCER. 9 00:00:27,661 --> 00:00:29,297 HE HAD THIS HACKING COUGH. 10 00:00:29,397 --> 00:00:32,233 MY FATHER PUTS HIS HAND OVER HIS FATHER'S MOUTH AND NOSE 11 00:00:32,333 --> 00:00:34,868 AND HE KEPT IT THERE WHILE THEY SEARCHED THE BASEMENT. 12 00:00:34,968 --> 00:00:36,904 KEPT IT CLAMPED TIGHT. 13 00:00:37,004 --> 00:00:38,972 AND THEN WHEN THEY FINALLY CLEARED OUT... 14 00:00:39,073 --> 00:00:40,374 MY GRANDFATHER WAS DEAD. 15 00:00:40,474 --> 00:00:42,476 MAN, I'D LOVE TO SEE HIM ON THIS COUCH. 16 00:00:42,576 --> 00:00:45,045 DOC, YOU'D HAVE A FIELD DAY WITH HIM. 17 00:00:52,086 --> 00:00:54,122 I'M PAUL WESTON. I WAS A FRIEND OF ALEX'S. 18 00:00:54,222 --> 00:00:56,090 MY DEEPEST DEEPEST CONDOLENCES. 19 00:00:56,190 --> 00:00:58,392 THANK YOU. I-- I DON'T REMEMBER-- 20 00:00:58,492 --> 00:01:00,628 YOU PLAYED RACQUETBALL WITH HIM. 21 00:01:14,275 --> 00:01:16,744 ( thunder rumbling ) 22 00:01:19,913 --> 00:01:22,116 HELLO, EXCUSE ME. 23 00:01:23,384 --> 00:01:25,018 - HI. - I'M SORRY. 24 00:01:25,119 --> 00:01:27,321 I DIDN'T KNOW WHICH ONE OF THESE DOORS WAS THE RIGHT ONE. 25 00:01:27,421 --> 00:01:30,724 THAT'S OKAY. IT'S A TERRIBLE DAY. 26 00:01:32,059 --> 00:01:33,694 DIDN'T WANT TO KNOCK ON YOUR RESIDENCE. 27 00:01:33,794 --> 00:01:36,330 NO PROBLEM. THIS DOOR IS USUALLY FOR PEOPLE WHO COME IN. 28 00:01:36,430 --> 00:01:38,098 AND THAT'S USUALLY THE EXIT DOOR. 29 00:01:38,199 --> 00:01:40,468 BUT IT DOESN'T-- IT DOESN'T REALLY MATTER. 30 00:01:40,568 --> 00:01:42,903 YOU HAVE AN ENTRY DOOR AND AN EXIT DOOR? 31 00:01:43,003 --> 00:01:45,072 IT'S FOR PEOPLE'S PRIVACY. 32 00:01:45,173 --> 00:01:47,074 SOME PEOPLE DON'T LIKE TO-- 33 00:01:47,175 --> 00:01:48,942 THEY DON'T LIKE TO RUN INTO EACH OTHER. 34 00:01:49,042 --> 00:01:51,812 ARE THEY ASHAMED? 35 00:01:51,912 --> 00:01:53,247 OH, NO. NO NO NO. 36 00:01:53,347 --> 00:01:56,417 IT'S JUST-- IT'S PROTOCOL REALLY. 37 00:01:58,352 --> 00:02:00,621 - WOULD YOU LIKE SOME COFFEE? - NO, I'M A TEA MAN. 38 00:02:00,721 --> 00:02:02,523 - AH! - BUT NO, NOTHING, THANK YOU. 39 00:02:02,623 --> 00:02:05,125 - I'M FINE. - PLEASE, SIT DOWN. 40 00:02:07,995 --> 00:02:10,964 I GOT A LOT OF QUESTIONS. 41 00:02:11,064 --> 00:02:14,402 UH, I'M SURE YOU HAVE. AND I HOPE THAT I CAN ANSWER SOME OF THEM. 42 00:02:14,502 --> 00:02:16,504 ONE THING I DO HAVE TO STRESS FROM THE OUTSET 43 00:02:16,604 --> 00:02:19,340 IS THAT ANYTHING THAT IS SAID 44 00:02:19,440 --> 00:02:22,410 BETWEEN MYSELF AND A PATIENT IN THIS ROOM... 45 00:02:23,577 --> 00:02:24,745 IS PRIVATE. 46 00:02:24,845 --> 00:02:28,316 - EVEN IF THE PATIENT IS DEAD? - YES, EVEN THEN. 47 00:02:30,584 --> 00:02:33,954 WELL, I'M SURE WE'LL FIND SOMETHING TO TALK ABOUT... 48 00:02:34,054 --> 00:02:38,459 SOMETHING TO HELP ME UNDERSTAND WHAT HAPPENED TO MY SON. 49 00:02:42,763 --> 00:02:45,165 ( theme music playing ) 50 00:03:01,582 --> 00:03:05,018 YOU WEREN'T VERY FORTHCOMING ABOUT WHO YOU WERE 51 00:03:05,118 --> 00:03:06,754 WHEN WE MET AT THE SERVICES. 52 00:03:06,854 --> 00:03:10,190 A FRIEND, YOU SAID? THAT'S HARDLY THE CASE. 53 00:03:10,291 --> 00:03:13,394 WELL, I DIDN'T WANT TO BETRAY ALEX'S CONFIDENCE. 54 00:03:13,494 --> 00:03:16,129 DANIEL DIDN'T HESITATE IN EXPLAINING 55 00:03:16,230 --> 00:03:19,400 EXACTLY WHAT YOUR RELATIONSHIP TO ALEX WAS. 56 00:03:20,401 --> 00:03:22,470 HE'S VERY DIRECT-- DANIEL. 57 00:03:22,570 --> 00:03:24,838 - I LIKE THAT ABOUT HIM. - WERE YOU SURPRISED TO HEAR 58 00:03:24,938 --> 00:03:26,674 THAT ALEX WAS IN THERAPY? 59 00:03:26,774 --> 00:03:30,444 THAT HE DIDN'T TELL ME SURPRISED ME. 60 00:03:30,544 --> 00:03:33,314 - I MEAN, WHAT'S THE BIG DEAL? - WHY DO YOU THINK HE DIDN'T? 61 00:03:33,414 --> 00:03:35,516 WE'LL NEVER KNOW THE ANSWER TO THAT, WILL WE? 62 00:03:37,084 --> 00:03:39,320 OR I WON'T. 63 00:03:39,420 --> 00:03:41,622 MAYBE THAT'S SOMETHING YOU DISCUSSED HERE. 64 00:03:46,494 --> 00:03:50,097 YOU KNOW, IT ALWAYS PUZZLED ME, 65 00:03:50,197 --> 00:03:53,634 THE WHOLE PROCESS HERE, YOU KNOW? 66 00:03:53,734 --> 00:03:57,070 I MEAN, THAT-- THAT A PERSON IS IN THERAPY AT ALL 67 00:03:57,170 --> 00:04:00,007 OFTEN IS NEVER DISCUSSED-- 68 00:04:00,107 --> 00:04:02,776 WHO THE DOCTOR IS, 69 00:04:02,876 --> 00:04:04,144 WHAT HE'S THERE FOR, 70 00:04:04,244 --> 00:04:06,680 HOW MUCH IT COST. 71 00:04:06,780 --> 00:04:08,749 FUNNY THING IS THAT IT'S SECRECY 72 00:04:08,849 --> 00:04:10,183 OR MISUNDERSTANDINGS, 73 00:04:10,284 --> 00:04:12,019 THINGS NEVER SPOKEN 74 00:04:12,119 --> 00:04:14,422 THAT USUALLY LAND PEOPLE IN THERAPY IN THE FIRST PLACE. 75 00:04:14,522 --> 00:04:17,124 - ISN'T THAT IRONIC? - I DON'T THINK IT'S ABOUT SECRECY. 76 00:04:17,224 --> 00:04:19,460 I THINK IT'S ABOUT CREATING AN ENVIRONMENT 77 00:04:19,560 --> 00:04:21,995 WHERE PEOPLE CAN COME AND FEEL SAFE 78 00:04:22,095 --> 00:04:24,565 TO TALK ABOUT ANYTHING. 79 00:04:24,665 --> 00:04:27,501 SAFER THAN WITH THEIR LOVED ONES? 80 00:04:27,601 --> 00:04:31,104 SOMETIMES IT'S EASIER TO TALK TO SOMEBODY WHO'S TOTALLY UNINVOLVED 81 00:04:31,204 --> 00:04:32,406 IN YOUR LIFE-- SOMEBODY OBJECTIVE. 82 00:04:32,506 --> 00:04:33,741 SOMEBODY WHO HAS NO STAKE IN IT. 83 00:04:33,841 --> 00:04:37,711 YOU MEAN LIKE A PROSTITUTE, HMM? 84 00:04:37,811 --> 00:04:41,515 SOMEONE WHO'S PAID FOR THEIR INTIMACY AND THEIR DISCRETION. 85 00:04:43,384 --> 00:04:46,186 A MAN SHOULD HAVE SOMEONE TO TALK TO 86 00:04:46,286 --> 00:04:48,188 WHO CARES ABOUT HIM, 87 00:04:48,288 --> 00:04:51,091 NOT SOMEONE WHO CHARGES BY THE HOUR. 88 00:04:51,191 --> 00:04:53,827 I REALLY DID CARE FOR ALEX. 89 00:04:54,862 --> 00:04:56,630 AND IF I HADN'T, 90 00:04:56,730 --> 00:04:58,999 I'D ACTUALLY BE A PRETTY POOR THERAPIST. 91 00:05:07,741 --> 00:05:09,743 DO YOU THINK ALEX SPOKE ABOUT THINGS IN THIS ROOM 92 00:05:09,843 --> 00:05:11,945 THAT HE NEVER... 93 00:05:12,045 --> 00:05:14,314 SPOKE TO ANYONE ELSE ABOUT? 94 00:05:14,415 --> 00:05:16,817 THAT IS USUALLY THE CASE WITH PATIENTS. 95 00:05:16,917 --> 00:05:19,553 SO YOU PROBABLY KNOW AS MUCH ABOUT HIM AS ANYONE DID. 96 00:05:19,653 --> 00:05:22,790 DO YOU FEEL THAT YOU KNEW YOUR SON WELL? 97 00:05:23,957 --> 00:05:25,659 I KNEW ALEX WHEN HE WAS... 98 00:05:25,759 --> 00:05:27,060 A LITTLE BOY. 99 00:05:27,160 --> 00:05:28,662 AND WHAT WAS HE LIKE THEN? 100 00:05:28,762 --> 00:05:30,564 WELL, HE WAS... 101 00:05:30,664 --> 00:05:32,232 QUIET. 102 00:05:32,332 --> 00:05:33,767 INTROSPECTIVE. 103 00:05:33,867 --> 00:05:35,703 DAYDREAMER. 104 00:05:37,204 --> 00:05:38,372 INVENTOR. 105 00:05:38,472 --> 00:05:40,040 DID HE EVER MENTION THAT TO YOU? 106 00:05:40,140 --> 00:05:42,943 ( laughs ) HE NEVER DID, NO. 107 00:05:43,511 --> 00:05:45,546 REALLY? HE-- 108 00:05:45,646 --> 00:05:49,817 HE INVENTED THIS THING FOR HIS MOTHER-- 109 00:05:49,917 --> 00:05:53,220 A PAN THAT MADE FLIPPING AN OMELET OVER VERY EASY. 110 00:05:53,320 --> 00:05:54,955 HE WORKED VERY HARD ON THAT THING. 111 00:05:55,055 --> 00:05:57,324 IT WAS REALLY GOOD. 112 00:05:57,425 --> 00:05:58,826 SO WHERE DID HE GET THAT FROM? 113 00:05:58,926 --> 00:06:01,128 - WERE YOU AN INVENTOR? - OH, NO. 114 00:06:01,228 --> 00:06:03,464 NO, MAN. I WAS A KNUCKLEHEAD. 115 00:06:03,564 --> 00:06:05,232 MY FATHER WAS AN INVENTOR. 116 00:06:05,332 --> 00:06:08,536 HE INVENTED THIS KNIFE-SHARPENING MACHINE. 117 00:06:08,636 --> 00:06:12,039 IT DIDN'T MAKE VERY MUCH MONEY. HE WAS PROUD OF IT. 118 00:06:14,775 --> 00:06:17,911 - ALEX REMINDED ME OF HIM. - IN WHAT WAY? 119 00:06:19,312 --> 00:06:20,914 YOU TRYING TO SHRINK ME, DOCTOR? 120 00:06:21,014 --> 00:06:24,418 - I'M JUST CURIOUS. - OR PERHAPS YOU CAN'T HELP YOURSELF. 121 00:06:24,518 --> 00:06:27,521 ( chuckles ) THAT'S PROBABLY TRUE TOO. 122 00:06:30,424 --> 00:06:33,927 MY FATHER AND ALEX 123 00:06:34,027 --> 00:06:36,864 HAD THE SAME MANNERISMS, THE SAME SENSE OF HUMOR. 124 00:06:36,964 --> 00:06:38,632 IT WAS UNSETTLING. 125 00:06:38,732 --> 00:06:41,034 WHEN ALEX WAS A LITTLE BOY 126 00:06:41,134 --> 00:06:44,672 AND MY FATHER HAD BEEN DEAD ALMOST 20 YEARS... 127 00:06:48,141 --> 00:06:50,911 THERE HE WAS... 128 00:06:51,011 --> 00:06:53,814 SITTING ACROSS THE DINNER TABLE LOOKING AT ME-- 129 00:06:53,914 --> 00:06:56,484 THROUGH ME WITH THOSE EYES OF HIS 130 00:06:56,584 --> 00:06:58,886 ON ALEX'S FACE. 131 00:07:02,923 --> 00:07:05,358 IS YOUR FATHER STILL LIVING, MR. WESTON? 132 00:07:05,459 --> 00:07:07,094 YES. 133 00:07:08,562 --> 00:07:11,765 YES, HIS BODY IS IN GOOD HEALTH, 134 00:07:11,865 --> 00:07:13,767 BUT HIS-- 135 00:07:15,969 --> 00:07:17,337 HIS MIND IS GONE. 136 00:07:17,437 --> 00:07:19,406 WERE YOU CLOSE? 137 00:07:19,507 --> 00:07:22,610 WE HAD OUR DIFFERENCES, OF COURSE. 138 00:07:23,611 --> 00:07:25,513 BUT WE WERE CLOSE. 139 00:07:25,613 --> 00:07:27,414 WE ARE CLOSE, I MEAN. 140 00:07:27,515 --> 00:07:29,016 HOW OFTEN DO YOU SEE HIM? 141 00:07:29,116 --> 00:07:30,718 ABOUT ONCE A MONTH. 142 00:07:30,818 --> 00:07:32,720 DOES HE KNOW YOU'RE THERE? 143 00:07:34,121 --> 00:07:37,525 NO. I DON'T THINK SO. 144 00:07:37,625 --> 00:07:41,294 BUT THE VISIT IS MORE FOR MY SAKE. 145 00:07:41,394 --> 00:07:43,764 WHAT DO YOU GET OUT OF IT? 146 00:07:46,299 --> 00:07:48,569 CONNECTION, 147 00:07:48,669 --> 00:07:50,904 A SENSE OF... 148 00:07:52,005 --> 00:07:54,575 BELONGING. 149 00:07:54,675 --> 00:07:56,810 DO YOU EVER HAVE CONVERSATIONS WITH HIM 150 00:07:56,910 --> 00:07:58,612 IN YOUR HEAD? 151 00:07:58,712 --> 00:08:00,413 BOTH SIDES OF THE CONVERSATION? 152 00:08:00,514 --> 00:08:03,617 ( laughs ) YES. 153 00:08:03,717 --> 00:08:08,188 WHEN I WAS YOUNGER EVERYTHING HE SAID WENT IN ONE EAR, OUT THE OTHER. 154 00:08:08,288 --> 00:08:10,057 NOW I HEAR HIS VOICE IN MY HEAD 155 00:08:10,157 --> 00:08:12,125 LOUD AND CLEAR EVERY DAY. 156 00:08:12,225 --> 00:08:14,528 SEE, THAT'S THE SENSE OF CONNECTION THAT YOU MENTIONED. 157 00:08:14,628 --> 00:08:17,831 THAT'S-- THAT'S WHAT I FEEL SLIPPING AWAY 158 00:08:17,931 --> 00:08:21,501 WITH EACH PASSING DAY SINCE ALEX'S DEATH. 159 00:08:21,602 --> 00:08:23,503 THAT SENSE OF... 160 00:08:25,405 --> 00:08:27,374 I'M TRYING TO FIND HIS VOICE, 161 00:08:27,474 --> 00:08:29,242 YOU KNOW, BUT... 162 00:08:32,379 --> 00:08:34,114 HE WON'T TALK TO ME. 163 00:08:37,050 --> 00:08:39,620 IF YOU DON'T MIND ME SAYING SO, MR. PRINCE, I THINK 164 00:08:39,720 --> 00:08:44,091 THAT IT'S STILL TOO SOON. 165 00:08:44,191 --> 00:08:47,561 YOU'RE PROBABLY STILL IN A STATE OF SHOCK. 166 00:08:49,630 --> 00:08:51,732 BUT HIS VOICE... 167 00:08:51,832 --> 00:08:54,034 WILL COME BACK TO YOU. 168 00:09:03,577 --> 00:09:06,079 I APOLOGIZE FOR COMPARING WHAT YOU DO 169 00:09:06,179 --> 00:09:10,383 TO, UH, PROSTITUTION. 170 00:09:10,483 --> 00:09:12,452 I DON'T BELIEVE THEY'RE THE SAME AT ALL. 171 00:09:12,552 --> 00:09:14,655 APOLOGY ACCEPTED. 172 00:09:22,596 --> 00:09:24,598 HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE 173 00:09:24,698 --> 00:09:27,534 MY SON ALEX? 174 00:09:27,635 --> 00:09:30,671 I'M NOT ASKING YOU FOR A DIAGNOSIS. 175 00:09:30,771 --> 00:09:32,505 YOU DON'T HAVE TO TELL ME WHAT HE THOUGHT, 176 00:09:32,606 --> 00:09:35,809 JUST WHAT YOU THOUGHT OF HIM PERSONALLY. 177 00:09:43,617 --> 00:09:45,118 ( clears throat ) 178 00:09:45,218 --> 00:09:47,187 I THOUGHT THAT ALEX WAS 179 00:09:47,287 --> 00:09:49,923 AN EXTREMELY 180 00:09:50,023 --> 00:09:52,626 CAPABLE MAN. 181 00:09:52,726 --> 00:09:55,228 STRONG SENSE OF MISSION. 182 00:09:55,328 --> 00:09:59,599 A VERY STRONG SENSE OF WHAT WAS EXPECTED OF HIM. 183 00:09:59,700 --> 00:10:01,334 UH, MISSION OR PURPOSE? 184 00:10:01,434 --> 00:10:04,171 - WHAT DO YOU MEAN? - WELL, ALEX WAS A MILITARY MAN. 185 00:10:04,271 --> 00:10:06,874 ( clears throat ) MILITARY MEN HAVE MISSIONS. 186 00:10:06,974 --> 00:10:08,876 UH... 187 00:10:08,976 --> 00:10:11,011 TO HAVE A PURPOSE, A SENSE OF PURPOSE, 188 00:10:11,111 --> 00:10:13,914 THAT'S SOMETHING-- 189 00:10:14,014 --> 00:10:15,415 SOMETHING YOU DO ON YOUR OWN, 190 00:10:15,515 --> 00:10:17,317 SOMETHING YOU WANT FOR YOURSELF. 191 00:10:18,218 --> 00:10:19,920 DID HE HAVE THAT? 192 00:10:20,020 --> 00:10:23,223 I THINK THAT ALEX WAS STRUGGLING TO FIND OUT 193 00:10:23,323 --> 00:10:24,858 WHAT HE WANTED FOR HIMSELF. 194 00:10:24,958 --> 00:10:27,427 - DID HE SAY THAT? - NO, SIR, HE DIDN'T. 195 00:10:27,527 --> 00:10:30,764 I'M JUST GIVING YOU SOME OF MY IMPRESSIONS 196 00:10:30,864 --> 00:10:34,735 WITHOUT BETRAYING WHAT HE CONFIDED IN ME. 197 00:10:34,835 --> 00:10:37,404 FRANKLY, IT'S MORE THAN I'M ALLOWED TO DO. 198 00:10:40,841 --> 00:10:43,844 WERE YOU IN THE SERVICE YOURSELF, MR. PRINCE? 199 00:10:45,045 --> 00:10:46,313 UM... 200 00:10:46,413 --> 00:10:50,317 EIGHT MONTHS, YOU KNOW, AFTER THEY DRAFTED ME. 201 00:10:50,417 --> 00:10:52,720 HAD AN ASTHMA ATTACK AND THEY DISCHARGED ME. 202 00:10:52,820 --> 00:10:54,654 PROBABLY SAVED MY LIFE. 203 00:10:54,755 --> 00:10:57,157 FUNNY, A BREATHING PROBLEM WAS-- 204 00:10:57,257 --> 00:10:59,092 WAS MY SALVATION, 205 00:11:00,060 --> 00:11:02,195 AND MY FATHER'S DEATH KNELL. 206 00:11:05,432 --> 00:11:09,436 ALEX TOLD YOU ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED TO MY FATHER? 207 00:11:14,808 --> 00:11:17,244 THESE ARE FACTS ABOUT MY LIFE, 208 00:11:17,344 --> 00:11:20,247 NOT ALEX'S TREATMENT. 209 00:11:22,382 --> 00:11:26,286 DO YOU HAPPEN TO KNOW HOW MY FATHER DIED? 210 00:11:26,386 --> 00:11:29,322 YES OR NO? SIMPLE QUESTION. 211 00:11:31,624 --> 00:11:33,827 YES. YES, I DO. 212 00:11:38,732 --> 00:11:40,901 ( sighs ) 213 00:11:41,001 --> 00:11:44,237 ANYWAY, I WASN'T A WAR HERO 214 00:11:44,337 --> 00:11:47,107 LIKE MY SON, IF THAT'S WHAT YOU WERE WONDERING. 215 00:11:51,111 --> 00:11:53,747 HOW DID YOU FEEL ABOUT ALEX'S 216 00:11:53,847 --> 00:11:55,615 SERVICE IN THE NAVY? 217 00:11:55,715 --> 00:11:57,417 I WAS PROUD OF IT, OF COURSE, 218 00:11:57,517 --> 00:12:00,487 LIKE ANY FATHER WOULD BE. 219 00:12:00,587 --> 00:12:03,256 - WAS HE, DO YOU THINK? - DO YOU SUSPECT THAT HE WASN'T? 220 00:12:03,356 --> 00:12:07,327 I WANT TO UNDERSTAND MY SON, MR. WESTON. 221 00:12:07,427 --> 00:12:08,929 AND INSTEAD OF HELPING ME, 222 00:12:09,029 --> 00:12:11,398 YOU ANSWER QUESTIONS WITH QUESTIONS. 223 00:12:15,535 --> 00:12:18,005 I THINK YOUR SON FOUND IT 224 00:12:18,105 --> 00:12:21,541 INCREASINGLY DIFFICULT TO 225 00:12:21,641 --> 00:12:24,744 COMPARTMENTALIZE, 226 00:12:24,845 --> 00:12:26,847 TO KEEP HIS FEELINGS 227 00:12:26,947 --> 00:12:29,817 APART FROM HIS OBLIGATIONS 228 00:12:29,917 --> 00:12:33,320 AND TO LIVE UP TO THE EXPECTATIONS OF OTHERS. 229 00:12:33,420 --> 00:12:34,955 THE EXPECTATIONS OF THE NAVY? 230 00:12:35,055 --> 00:12:38,859 EXPECTATIONS TO EXCEL LIKE HE HAD ALWAYS EXCELLED. 231 00:12:40,060 --> 00:12:41,728 AND AT THE EXPENSE OF HIS OWN NEEDS 232 00:12:41,829 --> 00:12:46,033 AND HIS REAL DESIRES. 233 00:12:46,133 --> 00:12:49,002 ARE YOU SAYING THAT ALEX WAS ILL-EQUIPPED EMOTIONALLY 234 00:12:49,102 --> 00:12:51,138 TO HANDLE THE PRESSURE? 235 00:12:51,238 --> 00:12:54,407 - MR. PRINCE, YOU'RE ASKING ME TO SH-- - I'M ASKING YOUR OPINION. 236 00:12:54,507 --> 00:12:57,444 ALEX'S EMOTIONAL STATE IS-- IS NOT SOMETHING-- 237 00:12:57,544 --> 00:13:00,280 YOU'RE PLAYING A LITTLE FAST AND LOOSE HERE, AREN'T YOU, MR. WESTON? 238 00:13:00,380 --> 00:13:02,816 I CAN KNOW MY SON WAS TROUBLED, JUST NOT HOW TROUBLED? 239 00:13:02,916 --> 00:13:05,652 I WANT TO KNOW WHAT HIS THERAPIST BELIEVED 240 00:13:05,752 --> 00:13:08,621 HE WAS CAPABLE OF, HOW FAR HE WOULD GO. 241 00:13:08,721 --> 00:13:12,459 HOW FAR HE'D GO TO WHAT, MR. PRINCE? 242 00:13:13,226 --> 00:13:14,794 ( stammers ) 243 00:13:19,532 --> 00:13:21,001 ( sighs ) 244 00:13:21,101 --> 00:13:23,470 I'VE SPOKEN TO A COUPLE OF ALEX'S FELLOW PILOTS. 245 00:13:26,139 --> 00:13:28,241 IT WAS A TRAINING FLIGHT. 246 00:13:30,077 --> 00:13:33,246 THEY SIMULATE A BATTLE, ONE PLANE AGAINST ANOTHER. 247 00:13:39,052 --> 00:13:42,155 THE OTHER PILOT MADE A SNAP DECISION, 248 00:13:42,255 --> 00:13:45,825 TRIED TO GET AWAY, APPARENTLY FLYING LOW. 249 00:13:45,926 --> 00:13:48,929 THEY SAY ALEX DIDN'T HAVE TIME TO STRAIGHTEN OUT. 250 00:13:49,997 --> 00:13:51,899 THERE'S ALSO A RUMOR GOING AROUND 251 00:13:51,999 --> 00:13:54,001 THAT ALEX KILLED HIMSELF. 252 00:13:57,737 --> 00:14:02,409 HE WAS A SUPERB PILOT. IT WASN'T COMBAT, IT WAS A TRAINING EXERCISE. 253 00:14:03,710 --> 00:14:05,445 IT WAS A TRAINING EXERCISE. 254 00:14:08,882 --> 00:14:10,918 THERE HASN'T BEEN ANY... ( clears throat ) 255 00:14:11,018 --> 00:14:13,420 OFFICIAL... 256 00:14:13,520 --> 00:14:15,055 FINDING, 257 00:14:15,155 --> 00:14:17,057 MR. PRINCE. YOU SAID THAT YOURSELF. 258 00:14:17,157 --> 00:14:19,526 THERE'S AN EJECTION SEAT. 259 00:14:21,728 --> 00:14:23,463 WHY DIDN'T HE JUMP? 260 00:14:26,299 --> 00:14:28,635 MAYBE HE 261 00:14:28,735 --> 00:14:31,972 DIDN'T THINK HE NEEDED TO USE IT. 262 00:14:35,808 --> 00:14:37,344 WELL... 263 00:14:42,916 --> 00:14:46,119 MICHAELA'S BEEN IN CHURCH, 264 00:14:46,219 --> 00:14:49,089 YOU KNOW, ON HER KNEES 265 00:14:49,189 --> 00:14:51,925 PRAYING, LOOKING FOR ANSWERS. MY WIFE ALSO. 266 00:14:52,025 --> 00:14:53,526 AND I TOLD 'EM, YOU KNOW... 267 00:14:53,626 --> 00:14:54,962 ( laughs ) 268 00:14:55,062 --> 00:14:58,198 THAT'S THE WRONG PLACE TO LOOK. 269 00:14:58,298 --> 00:15:02,735 UH, GOD AND ME, WE'VE BEEN OVER FOR A WHILE. 270 00:15:02,835 --> 00:15:04,804 MY FAITH DIED 271 00:15:04,904 --> 00:15:06,906 WHEN MY FATHER DIED. 272 00:15:12,545 --> 00:15:16,916 A BOY ONCE BEAT ALEX UP. 273 00:15:18,151 --> 00:15:19,819 HE WAS ABOUT 10 OR 11. 274 00:15:19,919 --> 00:15:21,921 HE TOOK HIS SHOES. 275 00:15:23,890 --> 00:15:25,993 LITTLE SHIT PUNK, YOU KNOW? 276 00:15:26,960 --> 00:15:28,328 ALEX DID NOTHING TO FIGHT BACK. 277 00:15:28,428 --> 00:15:30,663 HE DIDN'T DEFEND HIMSELF. HE WASN'T A FIGHTER. 278 00:15:30,763 --> 00:15:32,732 HE WAS A-- 279 00:15:32,832 --> 00:15:34,934 HE WAS A FRAIL KID. 280 00:15:35,035 --> 00:15:37,504 YOU KNOW? THIN-SKINNED. 281 00:15:38,905 --> 00:15:40,573 AND THAT SCARED THE HELL OUT OF ME. 282 00:15:40,673 --> 00:15:44,144 WHERE I COME FROM, THIN BLACK SKIN COULD GET YOU KILLED. 283 00:15:44,244 --> 00:15:46,846 AND THAT WAS THE KIND OF WORLD THAT-- 284 00:15:46,946 --> 00:15:48,181 THAT ALEX WAS BORN INTO? 285 00:15:48,281 --> 00:15:50,050 WHAT ARE YOU IMPLYING? 286 00:15:50,150 --> 00:15:51,718 I'M SIMPLY ASKING IF HE-- 287 00:15:51,818 --> 00:15:53,886 NO NO NO. LET ME TELL YOU SOMETHING. 288 00:15:53,987 --> 00:15:56,789 I SAW MORE INJUSTICES 289 00:15:56,889 --> 00:15:58,758 AS A CHILD. 290 00:15:58,858 --> 00:16:00,693 HORRORS. 291 00:16:01,828 --> 00:16:03,530 DID THEY-- 292 00:16:04,998 --> 00:16:08,035 DID THEY AFFECT MY VIEW OF THE WORLD? 293 00:16:08,868 --> 00:16:11,638 OF COURSE. 294 00:16:11,738 --> 00:16:15,508 DID THEY SHAPE THE MANNER IN WHICH I RAISED MY BOY? 295 00:16:15,608 --> 00:16:17,410 HOW COULD THEY NOT? 296 00:16:17,510 --> 00:16:19,612 STRENGTH. 297 00:16:21,214 --> 00:16:26,053 STRENGTH WAS ESSENTIAL TO SURVIVAL. 298 00:16:27,487 --> 00:16:29,089 VULNERABILITY 299 00:16:29,189 --> 00:16:31,724 WAS OFTEN A DEATH SENTENCE. 300 00:16:31,824 --> 00:16:33,693 I WANTED HIM TO BE SAFE. 301 00:16:51,344 --> 00:16:54,814 I ENVY THE TIME YOU SPENT TALKING WITH HIM. 302 00:16:54,914 --> 00:16:56,483 I ADMIT... 303 00:16:56,583 --> 00:16:59,386 THOSE KIND OF TALKS EMBARRASS THE HELL OUT OF ME. 304 00:17:01,621 --> 00:17:03,356 THIS WHERE HE SAT? 305 00:17:03,456 --> 00:17:05,058 YES. 306 00:17:27,547 --> 00:17:29,416 ALEX COULD TALK. 307 00:17:29,516 --> 00:17:30,850 OH, YEAH. 308 00:17:30,950 --> 00:17:33,653 HE AND HIS BOY, THEY'D TALK FOR HOURS. 309 00:17:36,323 --> 00:17:39,359 HE EVEN ONCE TOLD ROY THAT HE LOVED HIM. 310 00:17:39,459 --> 00:17:41,794 BOY, I TELL YOU... ( laughs ) 311 00:17:41,894 --> 00:17:44,864 DID I GIVE HIM HELL FOR THAT. 312 00:17:44,964 --> 00:17:47,900 "WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO DO? MAKE THE KID SOME KIND OF SISSY OR SOMETHING?" 313 00:17:48,000 --> 00:17:52,004 IT WAS BAD ENOUGH THAT HE DIDN'T WANT TO BEST ALEX AT ANYTHING. 314 00:17:52,105 --> 00:17:54,241 HE'D RATHER THROW A CHESS GAME 315 00:17:54,341 --> 00:17:57,244 JUST SO'S HE WOULDN'T HAVE TO BEAT HIS FATHER. 316 00:17:57,344 --> 00:18:00,580 OH NOW, COME ON. THAT'S NO WAY TO RAISE A BOY TO BE A MAN. 317 00:18:00,680 --> 00:18:03,183 I MEAN, YOU HAVE TO CHALLENGE HIM, MAKE HIM COMPETE, 318 00:18:03,283 --> 00:18:05,118 TEACH HIM HOW TO FIGHT, TAKE CARE OF HIMSELF. 319 00:18:05,218 --> 00:18:08,355 IT'S INTERESTING THAT YOU REGRET NOT BEING 320 00:18:08,455 --> 00:18:10,690 MORE GENTLE YOURSELF WITH ALEX, 321 00:18:10,790 --> 00:18:12,292 AND YET AT THE SAME TIME, 322 00:18:12,392 --> 00:18:14,927 YOU SEEM TO JUSTIFY BEING-- BEING HARSH. 323 00:18:15,027 --> 00:18:18,598 I HEAR YOU SAYING THAT YOU'RE A LITTLE CONFLICTED ABOUT THE NOTION-- 324 00:18:18,698 --> 00:18:21,868 MISTER, I'M NOT IN CONFLICT ABOUT ANYTHING. 325 00:18:27,674 --> 00:18:30,477 IS THAT HOW YOU TRIED TO HELP ALEX? 326 00:18:30,577 --> 00:18:33,546 SECOND-GUESSING EVERY WORD THAT COMES OUT OF HIS MOUTH? 327 00:18:33,646 --> 00:18:35,482 A STRANGER, 328 00:18:35,582 --> 00:18:39,619 COMPLETELY UNFAMILIAR WITH HIS BACKGROUND. 329 00:18:39,719 --> 00:18:42,021 YOU GO EXPLAINING HIS WORLD TO HIM. 330 00:18:42,121 --> 00:18:44,557 ACTUALLY, OUR SESSIONS WERE MOSTLY 331 00:18:44,657 --> 00:18:48,395 ABOUT ME LISTENING TO WHAT-- TO WHAT HE HAD TO SAY. 332 00:18:48,495 --> 00:18:51,164 YEAH, WELL, THERE WE GO AGAIN WITH THE LISTENING, HUH? 333 00:18:51,264 --> 00:18:53,933 HE HAS HIS OWN PERSONAL PROFESSIONAL LISTENER. 334 00:18:54,033 --> 00:18:56,603 LISTEN, WHEN I SMOTHERED MY FATHER 335 00:18:56,703 --> 00:19:00,273 DO YOU THINK I PAID SOMEONE TO LISTEN TO ME, HMM? 336 00:19:00,373 --> 00:19:03,343 YOU CAN'T STOP AND DWELL ON EVERY ACHE AND PAIN. 337 00:19:03,443 --> 00:19:05,178 MAYBE IT'S BECAUSE OF WHAT MY DAD DID 338 00:19:05,278 --> 00:19:07,113 OR MAYBE IT'S BECAUSE OF WHAT MY MOTHER DID. 339 00:19:07,214 --> 00:19:09,382 COME ON, YOU'VE GOT TO KEEP MOVING, MAN. 340 00:19:09,482 --> 00:19:12,519 YOU KNOW? WHAT GOOD DOES ALL THE TALK DO? 341 00:19:12,619 --> 00:19:15,455 IT'S NOT GONNA BRING MY FATHER BACK. YOU KNOW WHAT? 342 00:19:15,555 --> 00:19:17,990 PEOPLE LIKE YOU-- YOU NEVER STOP TO THINK 343 00:19:18,090 --> 00:19:20,059 THAT WE HAVE A SUBCONSCIOUS 344 00:19:20,159 --> 00:19:21,728 FOR A REASON. 345 00:19:21,828 --> 00:19:24,331 BECAUSE THERE ARE THINGS ABOUT OURSELVES 346 00:19:24,431 --> 00:19:27,634 THAT WE CANNOT FACE. THAT WE SHOULD NOT FACE. 347 00:19:27,734 --> 00:19:32,505 OR ELSE HOW IN THE WORLD DO WE GET UP OUT OF BED IN THE MORNING? 348 00:19:32,605 --> 00:19:35,141 I'LL TELL YOU, WORLD WAR III COMES... 349 00:19:35,242 --> 00:19:38,144 ( sighs ) ALL THOSE PEOPLE WHO'VE BEEN THROUGH 350 00:19:38,245 --> 00:19:41,013 ALL OF THIS PSYCHOANALYSIS, 351 00:19:41,113 --> 00:19:43,350 SPEND HUNDREDS-- THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS, 352 00:19:43,450 --> 00:19:45,452 ARE GONNA BE THE FIRST ONES TO LOSE THEIR HEADS. 353 00:19:45,552 --> 00:19:48,120 MM-HMM. DARWIN HAD A THEORY. 354 00:19:48,221 --> 00:19:50,690 HE CALLED IT SURVIVAL OF THE FITTEST. 355 00:19:50,790 --> 00:19:53,926 THE FITTEST, NOT THE MOST SELF-REFLECTIVE. 356 00:19:54,026 --> 00:19:55,262 WITH ALL DUE RESPECT, 357 00:19:55,362 --> 00:19:58,465 I THINK THAT ALEX STARTED COMING HERE 358 00:19:58,565 --> 00:20:00,833 BECAUSE HE FELT THAT HE NEEDED TO. 359 00:20:00,933 --> 00:20:03,670 AND YOU HAD TO TAKE HIM APART, DIDN'T YOU? 360 00:20:03,770 --> 00:20:05,238 HMM? 361 00:20:05,338 --> 00:20:08,140 YOU HAD TO PICK AT THE SCAB. HMM? 362 00:20:08,241 --> 00:20:11,177 DO YOU THINK THAT ALEX'S THERAPY HERE 363 00:20:11,278 --> 00:20:14,847 HAD SOMETHING TO DO WITH HIS DEATH? 364 00:20:14,947 --> 00:20:17,950 YOU'RE THE ONE WHO TOLD HIM 365 00:20:18,050 --> 00:20:20,920 HE HAD TO GO LOOK INSIDE. 366 00:20:22,255 --> 00:20:24,056 TO REFLECT, 367 00:20:24,156 --> 00:20:26,893 EXAMINE, FEEL. 368 00:20:26,993 --> 00:20:28,928 OH YEAH, HE FELT. 369 00:20:29,028 --> 00:20:31,030 YEAH. AND WHAT DID THAT GET HIM? 370 00:20:31,130 --> 00:20:34,066 NOW HE'S A HUMAN PANCAKE. 371 00:20:34,166 --> 00:20:36,603 YOU'RE A HELL OF A MIRACLE WORKER, DOCTOR. 372 00:20:45,678 --> 00:20:46,979 ( sighs ) 373 00:21:03,029 --> 00:21:05,164 YOU HAVE A SON, MR. WESTON? 374 00:21:05,264 --> 00:21:07,066 YES, I DO. 375 00:21:07,166 --> 00:21:09,168 AND IF ANOTHER MAN, 376 00:21:09,268 --> 00:21:11,971 SOMEONE FROM A DIFFERENT CULTURE, 377 00:21:12,071 --> 00:21:15,642 STARTED GIVING HIM ADVICE 378 00:21:15,742 --> 00:21:17,577 EVERY WEEK... 379 00:21:18,711 --> 00:21:22,449 ADVICE THAT YOU WERE PRETTY SURE 380 00:21:22,549 --> 00:21:25,552 WOULD BE HARMFUL TO YOUR SON... 381 00:21:27,086 --> 00:21:28,220 WHAT WOULD YOU DO? 382 00:21:28,321 --> 00:21:30,357 YOUR SON WAS A MATURE MAN 383 00:21:30,457 --> 00:21:33,192 WHO DECIDED TO COME HERE OF HIS OWN-- 384 00:21:33,292 --> 00:21:35,795 WHAT WOULD YOU DO? 385 00:21:40,166 --> 00:21:41,834 WHAT WOULD YOU DO? 386 00:21:48,107 --> 00:21:49,776 I WOULD TRY TO STOP HIM 387 00:21:51,411 --> 00:21:53,012 IF I COULD. 388 00:22:08,595 --> 00:22:10,863 I CAN'T GET OVER THE FEELING... 389 00:22:14,867 --> 00:22:17,570 THAT I WAS TORN APART IN THIS ROOM. 390 00:22:19,639 --> 00:22:23,209 PEOPLE HAVE A MISUNDERSTANDING 391 00:22:23,309 --> 00:22:26,846 ABOUT WHAT HAPPENS IN-- IN ROOMS LIKE THIS. 392 00:22:29,115 --> 00:22:31,851 IT REALLY ISN'T ABOUT 393 00:22:31,951 --> 00:22:35,488 BLAMING OR LOOKING FOR SCAPEGOATS. 394 00:22:47,366 --> 00:22:49,502 HE WAS AN OUTSTANDING PERSON. 395 00:22:51,971 --> 00:22:53,740 HE WAS KIND, 396 00:22:53,840 --> 00:22:56,108 DEVOTED, 397 00:22:56,208 --> 00:22:58,077 LOYAL... 398 00:23:00,780 --> 00:23:02,482 TOO LOYAL. 399 00:23:04,050 --> 00:23:06,152 OFTEN, I WISHED THAT HE 400 00:23:06,252 --> 00:23:08,888 WOULD'VE JUST PLEASED HIMSELF, NOT ME. 401 00:23:08,988 --> 00:23:11,958 BUT WE WANT TO PLEASE, 402 00:23:12,058 --> 00:23:14,060 DON'T WE, MR. WESTON? 403 00:23:15,995 --> 00:23:18,431 HE DID A LIFETIME OF TRYING TO PLEASE ME. 404 00:23:18,531 --> 00:23:20,767 ALL THAT-- 405 00:23:23,903 --> 00:23:25,605 THAT TOUGH-- 406 00:23:28,307 --> 00:23:30,042 THAT TOUGH SCHOOLING... 407 00:23:32,745 --> 00:23:35,047 AND THE TRAINING AND... 408 00:23:36,983 --> 00:23:38,751 THE ACHIEVEMENTS-- 409 00:23:42,288 --> 00:23:44,023 THAT WAS FOR ME. 410 00:23:44,123 --> 00:23:45,892 I'M THE ONE WHO NEEDED IT. 411 00:23:49,862 --> 00:23:52,098 TO FEEL... 412 00:23:52,198 --> 00:23:54,501 THAT HE WAS SAFE. 413 00:23:56,335 --> 00:23:57,970 YOU KNOW? 414 00:24:02,074 --> 00:24:04,477 YOU SON LOVED YOU. 415 00:24:05,845 --> 00:24:08,548 AND HE HAD HUGE ADMIRATION FOR YOU. 416 00:24:10,382 --> 00:24:12,451 HE TOLD ME THAT. 417 00:24:16,422 --> 00:24:18,491 DON'T TELL ME THAT, MAN. 418 00:24:21,460 --> 00:24:22,895 YOU THINK THAT COMFORT-- 419 00:24:22,995 --> 00:24:25,698 ( sniffles ) YOU THINK THAT COMFORTS ME? 420 00:24:29,268 --> 00:24:32,304 NO. I WOULD HAVE RATHERED 421 00:24:32,404 --> 00:24:35,642 THAT HE HATED ME. 422 00:24:40,446 --> 00:24:42,849 I WOULD HAVE RATHERED 423 00:24:42,949 --> 00:24:47,954 THAT THIS WAS HIS "FUCK YOU" TO ME. 424 00:24:53,092 --> 00:24:55,161 WHY DO YOU SAY THAT? 425 00:24:56,796 --> 00:24:59,566 FOR PUSHING HIM SO HARD... 426 00:25:02,201 --> 00:25:06,105 TO BE TOUGHER... 427 00:25:08,474 --> 00:25:10,577 THAN THE REST OF THE WORLD. 428 00:25:10,677 --> 00:25:12,679 I WAS SO STUPID. 429 00:25:27,426 --> 00:25:29,629 DID I KILL MY SON? 430 00:25:35,501 --> 00:25:38,237 I KILLED MY FATHER WITH MY OWN TWO HANDS. 431 00:25:41,373 --> 00:25:43,109 DID I KILL MY SON TOO? 432 00:25:43,209 --> 00:25:47,013 NO, WHATEVER HAPPENED UP THERE WAS NOT YOUR FAULT. 433 00:25:47,113 --> 00:25:49,682 YOU'RE NOT RESPONSIBLE. 434 00:26:01,661 --> 00:26:03,562 WE'LL NEVER KNOW, WILL WE? 435 00:26:11,771 --> 00:26:14,040 WELL, THANK YOU. THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIME. 436 00:26:18,310 --> 00:26:21,313 I'D APPRECIATE IT VERY MUCH IF YOU'D CALL ME A TAXI, PLEASE. 437 00:26:22,915 --> 00:26:24,316 SURE. 438 00:26:55,614 --> 00:26:57,850 ( theme music playing )