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Male voice:
You have no messages.

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( beeps )

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OH, GOD, PAUL.

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IF YOU'RE NOT COMING,
COULDN'T YOU JUST CALL

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AND TELL ME
YOU'RE NOT COMING?

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( knocks on door )

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( theme music playing )

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PAUL.

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ARE YOU GOING OUT?

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YOU LOOK GREAT.

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THANK YOU.

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WELL, I'D ASK YOU
WHERE YOU WERE GOING,

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BUT I KNOW THAT YOU HAVE

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YOUR BOUNDARIES
AS A THERAPIST.

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LOOK, I HATE TO DO THIS,

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I HATE IT
WHEN MY PATIENTS DO IT,

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BUT I'VE ASKED
MY LAWYER TO CALL ME

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ABOUT THE HEARING.

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AND I'D RATHER BE HERE

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IF IT'S BAD NEWS, OKAY?

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SURE.

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I WAS SO RELIEVED

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THAT YOU DIDN'T ASK
FOR THE LETTER.

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I DECIDED NOT TO SEND IT.

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YEAH, I WAS HAVING LUNCH

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WITH THE KIDS LAST SUNDAY

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AND ROSIE ACTUALLY ASKED ME
ABOUT THE CASE.

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AND I TOLD HER ABOUT
THE SETTLEMENT OFFER,

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AND SHE SAID,
"DAD, YOU CAN'T DO THIS.

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YOU CAN'T CONFESS
TO SOMETHING YOU DIDN'T DO.

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YOU'RE THE GOOD GUY."

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SHE'D BEEN SO RUDE TO ME
ALL NIGHT ABOUT OTHER STUFF.

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I GUESS SHE'S STILL ANGRY
ABOUT THE DIVORCE.

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AND THEN SUDDENLY
IN ONE SENTENCE

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SHE MADE ME FEEL BETTER
THAN I'D FELT ALL WEEK.

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I'M GLAD.

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SO THEN I CALLED
MY LAWYER

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AND I SAID I WASN'T INTERESTED
IN THE SETTLEMENT,

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WHICH MEANT
THEY WENT THROUGH

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WITH THE HEARING
THIS MORNING.

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SO HOW DID THAT GO?

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I DON'T KNOW YET.
I WASN'T THERE.

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THE LAWYER SAID TECHNICALLY
I DIDN'T HAVE TO BE.

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YOU DIDN'T GO?

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I OVERSLEPT.

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AND WHY DO YOU THINK YOU CHOSE
THIS MORNING TO OVERSLEEP?

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OH, YEAH,
THE SUBCONSCIOUS THING.

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PROBABLY BECAUSE
I DIDN'T WANT TO GO.

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AND I JUST DIDN'T FEEL
LIKE BEGGING SOME JUDGE

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TO LET ME KEEP MY JOB.

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YOU FELT SHOWING UP
WOULD BE BEGGING?

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I DON'T KNOW.

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SO WHY ARE YOU
DRESSED UP?

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I WANT TO HEAR
ABOUT YOUR LIFE.

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YOU WANT TO HEAR
ABOUT MY LIFE?

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YOU DON'T WANT TO TALK
ABOUT YOUR OWN LIFE?

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EXACTLY.

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I'D RATHER TALK ABOUT
HOW YOUR LAWYER FELT
THE HEARING WENT.

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DID HE SAY ANYTHING?

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YEAH, HE SAID
NOT TO QUOTE HIM--

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'CAUSE THESE GUYS
HATE TO BE QUOTED--

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BUT HE SAID
THAT HE THOUGHT

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THAT IT WENT WELL.

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DID HE SAY
WHEN YOU'D FIND OUT?

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ANYTIME BETWEEN TODAY
AND GOD-KNOWS-WHEN.

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SO YOU'RE IN LIMBO.

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CAUGHT BETWEEN
HEAVEN AND HELL,

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WAITING FOR MY FATE
TO BE DECIDED, YEAH.

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THAT MUST BE WHAT THIS WHOLE
YEAR HAS FELT LIKE TO YOU.

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YOU'VE BEEN
UNDER ENORMOUS PRESSURE.

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YEAH.

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IS THAT WHY
YOU DRESSED UP?

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THAT BLUE LOOKS
REALLY REALLY GOOD ON YOU.

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IT'S THE SAME COLOR
AS THE DRESS YOU HAD ON

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THAT NIGHT I SAW
YOU AND DAVID

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COMING OUT
OF THAT COUNTRY CLUB
ON THE EASTERN SHORE.

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IT WAS THE 4th OF JULY.

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I REMEMBER.

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I HAD THIS CRUMMY
SUMMER JOB.

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I WAS PARKING CARS,

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AND I BROUGHT OUT
THE WRONG CAR.

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AND HE ASKED ME TO GO BACK
AND GET HIS CONVERTIBLE.

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AND I LOOKED AT HIM
AND I THOUGHT,

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"OF COURSE.
WHY WOULDN'T SHE BE WITH HIM?"

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YEAH, WE HAD
A WONDERFUL DINNER

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AND WE DANCED.

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AND THEN WE CAME OUTSIDE
AND THERE WAS

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MY MOST DEDICATED
GRADUATE STUDENT.

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WE WERE ALL
SO IN LOVE WITH YOU.

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OH, DON'T BE SILLY.

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HOW COULD WE NOT BE?

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YOU WERE BRILLIANT

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AND WE BELIEVED
EVERYTHING YOU SAID.

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WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?

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YOU ARGUED WITH
EVERYTHING THAT I SAID.

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YEAH, BUT YOU MADE US
DO THAT.

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THAT WAS YOUR TECHNIQUE.

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WE WERE
SO FASCINATED BY YOU.

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WE WANTED TO KNOW
EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU.

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WHAT'S HAPPENING
WITH YOU TODAY, PAUL?

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WHAT IS IT YOU DON'T
WANT TO TALK ABOUT--

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WHAT HAPPENED HERE
BETWEEN US LAST WEEK,

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OR YOUR CASE,

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OR YOUR PATIENTS,
YOUR CHILDREN?

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NO, NONE OF THE ABOVE.

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CAN YOU TELL ME
WHAT IT IS?

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( phone buzzing )

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IT'S MY LAWYER.

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ARE YOU SURE
YOU WANT ME TO STAY?

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PLEASE.

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( phone beeps )

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HELLO, ELLIS.

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I just spoke
with your judge.
I've got news.

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WHAT SORT OF NEWS?

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First off,
he was livid.

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AT ME?

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No, at Mr. Prince,

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for wasting
everybody's time.

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The judge hasn't written
the ruling yet,

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and he said
not to quote him,

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but there are
no triable issues of fact.

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WHAT?

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He said
it's a tragic story,

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but he's going to
dismiss the action.

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He's throwing
the case out.

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ARE YOU SAYING
IT'S OVER, ELLIS?

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I'm glad for you.
I know this thing
was a weight.

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THANK YOU SO MUCH,
YOU KNOW.

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I REALLY APPRECIATE
EVERYTHING THAT YOU'VE DONE.

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AND LOOK, I KNOW

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I HAVEN'T BEEN THE EASIEST
PERSON IN THE WORLD
TO DEAL WITH,

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BUT I JUST WANTED
TO SAY THANK YOU.

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Nobody's nice when
they're being sued.

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The important thing is
justice was served.

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Come see me next week.
We'll go over it.

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But tonight you go out
and celebrate.
You hear me?

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YEAH.
THANKS, ELLIS.

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GOODBYE.

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I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU.

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OH MY GOD,
IT'S AMAZING.

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I'M SO GLAD THIS JUDGE
COULD SEE WHAT THE TRUTH WAS.

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HOW LONG DO YOU
THINK IT'S GONNA BE
BEFORE I REALLY FEEL IT?

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BEFORE YOU
WAKE UP SOME MORNING
NOT THINKING ABOUT IT?

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OR NOT GO TO BED SOME NIGHT
WITHOUT THINKING ABOUT IT.

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THAT'S SO GREAT.

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NOW YOU KNOW YOU CAN
KEEP YOUR PRACTICE.

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WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO?

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YOU WERE IN LIMBO ABOUT THAT
LAST WEEK AS WELL.

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HOW DID YOU DO WITH YOUR
PATIENTS THIS WEEK?

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WAS IT HARD FOR YOU
TO SEE THEM?

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WELL, I DID WHAT YOU SAID.

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I ACTED AS IF I BELIEVED

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I REALLY WAS HELPING.

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AND DID THAT HELP?

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TO BE HONEST,

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I WAS KIND OF
SKEPTICAL AT FIRST.

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I FELT A BIT LIKE
A HYPOCRITE,

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AND THAT THEY'D SEE THAT.

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OF COURSE
YOU'D FEEL THAT WAY.

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BUT THEN WEIRDLY ENOUGH,
SOMETHING STARTED TO HAPPEN.

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I WAS TALKING
TO OLIVER'S DAD

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ABOUT THE RESPONSIBILITY

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OF WHAT IT MEANS
TO BE A FATHER

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AND KEEPING IN TOUCH
WITH YOUR KID.

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REALLY, I WAS TALKING
FOR BOTH OF US.

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BUT I THINK
I REACHED HIM.

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I MEAN, I WAS STILL
DOUBTING MYSELF,

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BUT I JUST KEPT
AT IT, YOU KNOW?

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I JUST COULDN'T BELIEVE
THAT SOMETHING SO SIMPLE

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COULD ACTUALLY WORK.

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AND IT KEPT WORKING,
YOU KNOW?

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NO.

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YOU'RE A GOOD THERAPIST.

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AND I'M SURE YOU DID A LOT
OF GOOD WORK THIS WEEK,

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DESPITE HOW UNCERTAIN
YOU FELT.

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APRIL LEFT.

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THERAPY?

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WHY?

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IN PART BECAUSE
I TOOK HER TO CHEMO.

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I DON'T REGRET IT,

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BUT IT DID ALTER
OUR RELATIONSHIP.

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OF COURSE.

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BUT ALSO I THINK
SHE JUST NEEDED

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TO STOP THINKING
ABOUT HERSELF.

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SHE WANTED SOME SPACE.

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SHE WANTED TO BREATHE,

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TO LIVE.

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AND DID YOU TRY
TO CONVINCE HER TO STAY?

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OF COURSE I DID.

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I'M WORRIED THAT SHE
DOESN'T HAVE THE TOOLS

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TO SURVIVE ANOTHER CRISIS.

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BUT PART OF ME,
I HAVE TO SAY,

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IS REALLY PROUD OF HER.

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FOR REJECTING YOU?

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FOR REJECTING THERAPY.

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I MEANT, FOR ACTING OUT
AGAINST YOU.

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THAT'S NOT WHAT
SHE WAS DOING, THOUGH.

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SHE WASN'T PUNISHING ME
OR HER PARENTS.

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SHE'S FIGHTING CANCER.

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SHE NEEDS ALL
OF HER ENERGY FOR THAT.

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AND YOU WERE ABLE
TO ACCEPT THAT?

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I WAS SURPRISED
BY MY REACTION.

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( chuckles )

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I KNOW I HAVE
THIS NEED TO RESCUE,

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BUT I REALLY UNDERSTOOD
HER REASONING

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COMPLETELY.

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YOU KNOW,
WALTER AND APRIL--

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THEY BOTH THINK
THAT THE WORLD IS
SUPPOSED TO BE

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ON THEIR SHOULDERS,

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AND THEY'RE BOTH INCAPABLE
OF RECEIVING SUPPORT.

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ONE'S STOPPING THERAPY.

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THE OTHER WANTS
MORE SESSIONS.

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SO YOU'RE GOING
TO CONTINUE.

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YOU KNOW WHAT
I REALIZED THIS WEEK?

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PRACTICING THIS WAY,

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I MAY NEVER KNOW WHETHER
I HELP PEOPLE OR NOT.

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IT'S NOT
LIKE I'M TRYING

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TO GET THEM TO PASS
THEIR DRIVING TEST

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OR DO BETTER
ON THEIR SATs
OR SOMETHING.

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THE ONLY MEASURE I HAVE
OF WHETHER I'M HELPING
SOMEBODY OR NOT

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IS HOW MY PATIENTS
FEEL ABOUT IT

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AND HOW THEIR LIVES
GO ON FROM THERE.

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AND THEY WON'T KNOW THAT

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UNTIL LONG AFTER
WE'VE STOPPED THERAPY.

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WHAT ARE YOU SAYING, PAUL?

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I GUESS WHAT I'M TRYING TO SAY
IS THAT THESE PEOPLE COME TO ME

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AND THEY WANT ME
TO FIX THEIR PROBLEMS,

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AND THE TRUTH IS,
I THINK ALL I CAN DO

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IS JUST WALK
WITH THEM FOR A WHILE,

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KEEP THEM COMPANY
DURING A ROUGH PATCH.

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I DON'T THINK ANYBODY'S LIFE
CAN BE FIGURED OUT,

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BUT IT IS IN OUR NATURE

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TO KEEP TRYING
TO MAKE SENSE OF IT.

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AND SOMETIMES
WE CAN USE HELP.

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THAT'S WHEN, IF WE'RE LUCKY,
THERE'S SOMEBODY IN THE ROOM

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WHO CAN LISTEN.

237
00:12:45,799 --> 00:12:47,700
IT DOESN'T HAVE TO BE
SOMEBODY PERFECT--

238
00:12:47,801 --> 00:12:51,004
SOMEBODY SUFFICIENTLY
SCREWED UP

239
00:12:51,104 --> 00:12:53,773
TO ACTUALLY GET WHAT
WE MIGHT BE GOING THROUGH.

240
00:12:53,874 --> 00:12:56,776
- SOMEONE LIKE YOU.
- ON OCCASION.

241
00:12:56,877 --> 00:12:59,146
AND NOT SOMEONE LIKE ME.

242
00:13:01,448 --> 00:13:03,383
NO, GINA.

243
00:13:03,483 --> 00:13:06,286
NOT FOR ME.

244
00:13:06,386 --> 00:13:08,221
NOT ANYMORE.

245
00:13:10,257 --> 00:13:11,825
OH.

246
00:13:13,060 --> 00:13:15,595
WHEN DID YOU COME
TO THIS CONCLUSION?

247
00:13:15,695 --> 00:13:17,364
I DON'T KNOW.

248
00:13:18,665 --> 00:13:20,500
PLEASE DON'T TAKE
THIS PERSONALLY, GINA.

249
00:13:20,600 --> 00:13:22,602
NO NO NO.

250
00:13:22,702 --> 00:13:24,872
I'M NOT--
I'M NOT--

251
00:13:27,307 --> 00:13:31,444
NO, I'M NOT TAKING IT
PERSONALLY.

252
00:13:31,544 --> 00:13:33,981
I'M JUST--

253
00:13:35,582 --> 00:13:38,151
I'M JUST DISAPPOINTED
THAT WE'RE HERE AGAIN.

254
00:13:38,919 --> 00:13:40,487
I KNOW.

255
00:13:42,389 --> 00:13:43,924
I KNOW.

256
00:13:45,926 --> 00:13:49,529
BUT IT IS DIFFERENT
THIS TIME.

257
00:13:49,629 --> 00:13:53,566
- I'M NOT DOING THIS
IN ANGER.
- MM-HMM.

258
00:13:53,666 --> 00:13:55,702
AND I APPRECIATE

259
00:13:55,802 --> 00:13:57,437
EVERYTHING THAT
YOU'VE DONE FOR ME.

260
00:13:57,537 --> 00:14:00,007
- I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT.
- THANK YOU.

261
00:14:00,107 --> 00:14:03,010
LET'S NOT DRAG IT OUT,
YOU KNOW.

262
00:14:03,110 --> 00:14:05,845
AFTER LAST WEEK, REALLY,
WHAT IS THERE TO SAY?

263
00:14:05,946 --> 00:14:07,847
I UNDERSTAND.

264
00:14:07,948 --> 00:14:10,117
I JUST WANT TO BE SURE
YOU'RE AWARE

265
00:14:10,217 --> 00:14:13,220
OF WHY YOU'RE DOING
WHAT YOU'RE DOING.

266
00:14:13,320 --> 00:14:15,956
WHAT IS IT YOU THINK
I'M NOT AWARE OF?

267
00:14:16,056 --> 00:14:17,891
WELL, OBVIOUSLY,
LAST WEEK TOOK A TOLL--

268
00:14:17,991 --> 00:14:21,094
A BIG TOLL
ON BOTH OF US,

269
00:14:24,932 --> 00:14:29,302
I KNOW THAT
I CROSSED A LINE,

270
00:14:29,402 --> 00:14:33,240
BUT YOU ALSO LOST
TWO PATIENTS THIS WEEK.

271
00:14:33,340 --> 00:14:35,008
I KNOW.

272
00:14:35,108 --> 00:14:37,144
WELL, HAS IT
OCCURRED TO YOU

273
00:14:37,244 --> 00:14:39,446
THAT YOU'RE ANGRY AT THEM
FOR ABANDONING YOU,

274
00:14:39,546 --> 00:14:42,315
AND THAT MAY BE WHY YOU'VE
DECIDED TO ABANDON ME?

275
00:14:42,415 --> 00:14:45,585
THAT'S A LITTLE REDUCTIVE,
ISN'T IT?

276
00:14:45,685 --> 00:14:47,720
NO, BUT THIS IS:

277
00:14:47,820 --> 00:14:50,857
YOU BEGAN THE WEEK
QUESTIONING YOUR VALUE
AS A THERAPIST,

278
00:14:50,958 --> 00:14:52,725
AND YOU'RE ENDING IT
QUESTIONING MINE.

279
00:14:52,825 --> 00:14:54,594
I'M NOT QUESTIONING YOU.

280
00:14:54,694 --> 00:14:57,497
I'M QUESTIONING THE WAY
WE INTERACT, YOU AND I.

281
00:14:57,597 --> 00:15:00,800
I DON'T THINK IT'S HEALTHY
FOR EITHER OF US.

282
00:15:00,900 --> 00:15:02,569
YOU'RE ALWAYS
QUESTIONING ME,

283
00:15:02,669 --> 00:15:04,671
BLAMING ME.

284
00:15:04,771 --> 00:15:06,206
I THINK I'VE COME
TO REPRESENT

285
00:15:06,306 --> 00:15:09,209
EVERYTHING YOU STRUGGLE WITH
IN YOUR WORK--

286
00:15:09,309 --> 00:15:12,412
EMOTIONAL RESTRAINT,
DELAYED GRATIFICATION,

287
00:15:12,512 --> 00:15:15,682
NOT INDULGING YOUR LOVE OR
YOUR DESIRE FOR A PATIENT.

288
00:15:15,782 --> 00:15:18,751
YOU'VE MADE ME
YOUR BOUNDARY COP--

289
00:15:18,851 --> 00:15:21,221
THE MENTOR
WHO'S PREVENTED YOU

290
00:15:21,321 --> 00:15:23,656
FROM HAVING ANYTHING
YOU EVER WANTED.

291
00:15:23,756 --> 00:15:25,658
AND I BEAT YOU UP
FOR THAT.

292
00:15:25,758 --> 00:15:27,860
IT MUST HAVE BEEN
EXHAUSTING

293
00:15:27,961 --> 00:15:31,999
TO HAVE TO PLAY MY MOTHER
ALL THESE YEARS.

294
00:15:32,099 --> 00:15:34,134
IF I CAME RUNNING TO YOU,

295
00:15:34,234 --> 00:15:36,436
IT WAS BECAUSE
I NEEDED MY MOTHER.

296
00:15:36,536 --> 00:15:39,372
IF WAS ANGRY AT YOU,
IT WAS BECAUSE I WAS
ANGRY AT MY MOTHER.

297
00:15:39,472 --> 00:15:41,908
HONESTLY, I DON'T KNOW
HOW YOU PUT UP WITH IT.

298
00:15:42,009 --> 00:15:44,177
BUT YOU DID,
AND YOU GOT ME THROUGH IT.

299
00:15:44,277 --> 00:15:48,015
ALL I'M SAYING IS, YOU DON'T
HAVE TO DO IT ANYMORE.

300
00:15:48,115 --> 00:15:50,217
YOU'RE RELEASING ME NOW.

301
00:15:50,317 --> 00:15:51,451
YES.

302
00:15:51,551 --> 00:15:53,153
YES, I AM.

303
00:15:57,124 --> 00:15:59,592
YOU KNOW, PAUL,

304
00:15:59,692 --> 00:16:03,363
IF YOU NEED TO GO, YOU GO.

305
00:16:03,463 --> 00:16:06,166
BUT I'M CONCERNED THAT
YOU MAY BE PUNISHING ME

306
00:16:06,266 --> 00:16:09,169
BECAUSE I FAILED
TO PROTECT YOU.

307
00:16:09,269 --> 00:16:12,272
BUT YOU DIDN'T
FAIL ME, GINA.

308
00:16:12,372 --> 00:16:16,609
THIS HAS BEEN
MY SANCTUARY.

309
00:16:16,709 --> 00:16:19,679
ALL THE PARTS OF MYSELF
THAT I DON'T LIKE,
THAT I'M ASHAMED OF--

310
00:16:19,779 --> 00:16:23,716
I COULD BRING THEM HERE,
AND IT WAS ALWAYS OKAY.

311
00:16:23,816 --> 00:16:25,718
DO YOU THINK
THERE'S A CONNECTION

312
00:16:25,818 --> 00:16:28,455
BETWEEN THE LAWSUIT ENDING
AND YOUR STOPPING THERAPY?

313
00:16:28,555 --> 00:16:30,923
NO NO.

314
00:16:31,024 --> 00:16:33,360
IT'S JUST TIME.

315
00:16:33,460 --> 00:16:37,130
THE THINGS I NEEDED
FOR SO LONG HAVE CHANGED.

316
00:16:37,230 --> 00:16:40,933
I CAN'T KEEP
COMING TO YOU

317
00:16:41,034 --> 00:16:44,104
FOR THE MOTHERING
I DIDN'T GET,

318
00:16:44,204 --> 00:16:46,406
AND YOU SHOULDN'T
HAVE TO PROVIDE IT.

319
00:16:46,506 --> 00:16:48,408
SO YOU'RE NOT
RUNNING AWAY FROM HOME?

320
00:16:48,508 --> 00:16:51,211
I'D RATHER THINK OF IT
AS MOVING OUT.

321
00:16:51,311 --> 00:16:53,946
I'M GOING TO MAKE
MY WAY IN THE WORLD.

322
00:16:54,047 --> 00:16:55,148
WHERE WILL YOU GO?

323
00:16:55,248 --> 00:16:57,417
I'M NOT GOING ANYWHERE.

324
00:16:57,517 --> 00:16:59,352
I'M STILL GOING TO KEEP
BEING A THERAPIST--

325
00:16:59,452 --> 00:17:04,224
MAYBE NOT ALL
PRIVATE SESSIONS.

326
00:17:04,324 --> 00:17:07,194
SOME DAYS I JUST SIT THERE
IN THE ROOM WITH A PATIENT

327
00:17:07,294 --> 00:17:10,663
AND I FEEL LIKE--
I DON'T KNOW--

328
00:17:10,763 --> 00:17:12,465
I FEEL LIKE
WE'RE TWO MICE

329
00:17:12,565 --> 00:17:16,002
WITH OUR LEGS CAUGHT
IN A GLUE TRAP.

330
00:17:16,103 --> 00:17:17,937
OH, GOD.

331
00:17:18,037 --> 00:17:20,039
IT'S A HORRIBLE FEELING.

332
00:17:20,140 --> 00:17:22,442
MAYBE IT'S THE CHAIR.

333
00:17:22,542 --> 00:17:26,513
I HATE THAT FUCKING CHAIR.

334
00:17:26,613 --> 00:17:28,448
YOU COULD GET A NEW ONE.

335
00:17:28,548 --> 00:17:30,483
I DID.
IT FELT GOOD IN THE STORE.

336
00:17:30,583 --> 00:17:32,685
BUT HERE'S THE THING
ABOUT A CHAIR--

337
00:17:32,785 --> 00:17:34,487
YOU NEVER
REALLY REALLY KNOW

338
00:17:34,587 --> 00:17:37,324
UNTIL YOU'VE SAT IN IT
FOR 40 HOURS A WEEK

339
00:17:37,424 --> 00:17:39,992
FOR A MONTH--
MONTH IN, MONTH OUT.

340
00:17:40,093 --> 00:17:41,528
BY THEN IT'S TOO LATE.

341
00:17:41,628 --> 00:17:43,263
DO YOU WANT TO PRACTICE
STANDING UP?

342
00:17:43,363 --> 00:17:46,166
( laughs )
MAYBE.

343
00:17:46,266 --> 00:17:48,901
MAYBE I NEED TO BE
IN A GROUP PRACTICE,

344
00:17:49,001 --> 00:17:50,803
SO AT LEAST
WHEN A PATIENT LEAVES

345
00:17:50,903 --> 00:17:53,306
I COULD GO INTO THE LOUNGE
AND RUN INTO SOME OTHER PEOPLE

346
00:17:53,406 --> 00:17:55,308
AND TALK
ABOUT POLITICS OR BOOKS

347
00:17:55,408 --> 00:17:57,244
OR ANYTHING,
FOR CHRIST'S SAKE.

348
00:17:57,344 --> 00:17:59,712
HAVE YOU THOUGHT
ABOUT SUPERVISING?

349
00:17:59,812 --> 00:18:01,748
I DON'T THINK

350
00:18:01,848 --> 00:18:04,884
I'M AT A ROLE-MODEL PLACE
IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW, GINA.

351
00:18:04,984 --> 00:18:07,220
I THINK YOU'D BE
A GOOD SUPERVISOR.

352
00:18:07,320 --> 00:18:10,390
I MEAN, YOU'D HAVE COMPASSION
FOR YOUR STUDENTS.

353
00:18:10,490 --> 00:18:12,192
AND THE MORE
A SUPERVISOR HAS SEEN,

354
00:18:12,292 --> 00:18:14,060
THE MORE VALUABLE
HE CAN BE.

355
00:18:14,161 --> 00:18:16,129
I'M FAIRLY CERTAIN
AT THIS POINT

356
00:18:16,229 --> 00:18:19,466
THAT NO CASE WOULD
SHOCK OR SURPRISE YOU.

357
00:18:19,566 --> 00:18:22,735
THAT WOULD MAKE A YOUNG
THERAPIST FEEL VERY SAFE.

358
00:18:22,835 --> 00:18:24,504
MAYBE YOU'RE RIGHT.

359
00:18:24,604 --> 00:18:26,573
THE ONE THING
I HAVE FIGURED OUT--

360
00:18:26,673 --> 00:18:30,643
I JUST NEED TO BE
WITH MORE PEOPLE.

361
00:18:30,743 --> 00:18:35,182
I DON'T NEED A BREAK
FROM BEING A THERAPIST.

362
00:18:35,282 --> 00:18:38,718
I NEED A BREAK FROM--

363
00:18:38,818 --> 00:18:41,087
JUST FROM THIS,

364
00:18:41,188 --> 00:18:42,889
YOU KNOW?

365
00:18:42,989 --> 00:18:46,859
I NEED TO STOP
ANALYZING MY LIFE.

366
00:18:46,959 --> 00:18:49,128
I NEED TO START LIVING IT.

367
00:18:50,163 --> 00:18:52,499
I NEED YOU TO LET ME GO.

368
00:18:54,066 --> 00:18:56,336
WELL, PART OF ME
WOULD LOVE TO.

369
00:18:57,304 --> 00:18:59,439
I JUST WORRY
ABOUT THE TIMING.

370
00:18:59,539 --> 00:19:02,041
YOU'RE STILL IN MOURNING.
YOU'RE ALONE.

371
00:19:02,141 --> 00:19:03,843
YOU'RE ISOLATED.

372
00:19:03,943 --> 00:19:07,113
YOU DON'T HAVE A LIFE
OUTSIDE OF YOUR PRACTICE.

373
00:19:07,214 --> 00:19:09,482
ARE YOU TALKING
ABOUT ME OR YOU, GINA?

374
00:19:10,983 --> 00:19:12,785
I'M TALKING ABOUT YOU.

375
00:19:14,254 --> 00:19:16,623
DID SOMETHING ELSE
HAPPEN THIS WEEK?

376
00:19:18,891 --> 00:19:19,859
WHAT DO YOU MEAN?

377
00:19:19,959 --> 00:19:21,794
DID YOU MEET SOMEONE?

378
00:19:23,396 --> 00:19:24,897
WHY DO YOU THINK THAT?

379
00:19:24,997 --> 00:19:26,466
I DON'T KNOW.

380
00:19:29,969 --> 00:19:32,205
I DID HAVE A CONVERSATION
THIS WEEK

381
00:19:32,305 --> 00:19:35,775
WHILE I WAS WAITING
FOR A COFFEE.

382
00:19:35,875 --> 00:19:38,978
I WAS ON MY WAY
TO THE SUBWAY

383
00:19:39,078 --> 00:19:43,950
AND SHE WAS
ON HER WAY TO THE GYM.

384
00:19:44,050 --> 00:19:46,619
AND WHAT DID YOU
TALK ABOUT?

385
00:19:46,719 --> 00:19:48,655
I TOLD HER SHE LOOKED
LIKE A RUNNER.

386
00:19:48,755 --> 00:19:52,592
SHE SAID THAT WAS
THE BEST PART ABOUT RUNNING.

387
00:19:52,692 --> 00:19:54,594
AND I SAID--

388
00:19:54,694 --> 00:19:57,230
DO YOU KNOW THIS BOOK,
"THE MEMORY OF RUNNING"?

389
00:19:57,330 --> 00:20:00,333
- I DON'T KNOW IT.
- NEITHER DID SHE,

390
00:20:00,433 --> 00:20:04,070
BUT IT WAS JUST GREAT

391
00:20:04,170 --> 00:20:06,839
TO STAND THERE
AND JUST TALK TO HER

392
00:20:06,939 --> 00:20:09,509
ABOUT A BOOK, YOU KNOW?

393
00:20:11,478 --> 00:20:14,481
I GOT SO EXCITED,
I RUINED IT FOR HER.

394
00:20:14,581 --> 00:20:16,115
I TOLD HER
THE WHOLE STORY.

395
00:20:16,215 --> 00:20:17,216
WHAT'S THE BOOK ABOUT?

396
00:20:17,317 --> 00:20:18,651
IT'S ABOUT REDEMPTION,

397
00:20:18,751 --> 00:20:21,921
I SUPPOSE.

398
00:20:22,021 --> 00:20:24,891
AND DID YOU MAKE A PLAN
TO SEE THIS WOMAN AGAIN?

399
00:20:24,991 --> 00:20:27,660
HER NAME IS WENDY.

400
00:20:27,760 --> 00:20:30,196
WE LIVE
ON THE SAME BLOCK.

401
00:20:30,297 --> 00:20:33,866
I'M SURE WE'LL "RUN" INTO
EACH OTHER AGAIN.

402
00:20:33,966 --> 00:20:36,569
( chuckles )

403
00:20:39,739 --> 00:20:41,641
AND YOU?

404
00:20:41,741 --> 00:20:43,075
ME WHAT?

405
00:20:43,175 --> 00:20:45,612
DO YOU HAVE
A DATE TONIGHT?

406
00:20:45,712 --> 00:20:48,247
IS THAT WHY YOU'RE
WEARING THAT DRESS?

407
00:20:49,316 --> 00:20:50,216
I DO.

408
00:20:50,317 --> 00:20:52,419
I KNEW IT.

409
00:20:52,519 --> 00:20:55,622
SO WHO'S THE LUCKY GUY?

410
00:20:58,291 --> 00:21:00,259
RIGHT.

411
00:21:00,360 --> 00:21:02,261
BOUNDARIES

412
00:21:02,362 --> 00:21:04,664
UNTIL THE BITTER END.

413
00:21:04,764 --> 00:21:08,501
YOU'RE AN EXCELLENT
THERAPIST, GINA.

414
00:21:08,601 --> 00:21:11,604
I NEVER WOULD HAVE
SURVIVED WITHOUT YOU.

415
00:21:13,773 --> 00:21:15,408
THANK YOU.

416
00:21:23,282 --> 00:21:25,985
( sighs ) UM...

417
00:21:26,085 --> 00:21:27,454
YEAH?

418
00:21:27,554 --> 00:21:30,590
PAUL, THIS IS THE POINT
WHERE, YOU KNOW,

419
00:21:30,690 --> 00:21:34,561
I'M SUPPOSED TO SAY
"MY DOOR IS ALWAYS OPEN,"

420
00:21:34,661 --> 00:21:36,929
BUT I'M NOT GOING
TO SAY THAT.

421
00:21:39,466 --> 00:21:41,368
I UNDERSTAND.

422
00:21:49,442 --> 00:21:54,080
SO OUR TIME IS UP.

423
00:21:55,281 --> 00:21:56,716
GOOD LUCK.

424
00:22:08,027 --> 00:22:11,564
( door opens, closes )

425
00:22:22,308 --> 00:22:25,545
( music playing )