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I FEEL THAT
I'M GROWING INTIMATE

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WITH YOUR
OUTGOING MESSAGE.

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ANYWAY, GINA,
IT'S PAUL.

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UM...

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I'M NOT CERTAIN
IF YOU GOT MY LAST--

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WELL, WHY WOULDN'T YOU
HAVE GOTTEN

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MY LAST MESSAGE?

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IN ANY EVENT, I--

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I'VE YET TO HEAR BACK
FROM YOU.

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AND LET'S JUST SAY

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THAT YOU'VE MADE SOME
PRETTY INTERESTING

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CHARACTER CHOICES
IN YOUR NOVEL

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WHICH I--

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I WANTED TO TALK
TO YOU ABOUT.

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SO COULD YOU
CALL ME BACK, PLEASE,

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- SO THAT I--
- ( beeps )

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( sighs )

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( theme music playing )

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( distant traffic noise )

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I...

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THANK YOU
FOR SEEING ME.

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OF COURSE.

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I KNOW THAT I WAS
A BIT...

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DIFFICULT THE LAST TIME.

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A BIT RELUCTANT
TO ENGAGE IN--

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ANYWAY, MY SITUATION
HAS CHANGED.

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MY SON MAX

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IS LIVING WITH ME.

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I ARRIVED HOME FROM
OUR SESSION LAST WEEK

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AND HE WAS SITTING
ON THE DOORSTEP.

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HE'D COME UP
FROM BALTIMORE

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ON THE TRAIN
BY HIMSELF WITH HIS--

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WITH HIS SUITCASE.

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AND HE WAS SAYING

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THAT HE WANTED
TO LIVE WITH ME.

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HE'S 12.

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- THAT IS QUITE A CHANGE.
- MM-HMM.

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OF COURSE MY EX-WIFE
IS FURIOUS WITH ME

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FOR ALLOWING HIM
TO STAY

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AND FOR ENROLLING HIM
IN THE WRONG SCHOOL

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AND WHO KNOWS HOW MANY
OTHER TRANSGRESSIONS.

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HOW HAS IT BEEN
FOR YOU

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TO HAVE MAX LIVING
IN YOUR HOME?

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UH...

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YOU SPOKE LAST TIME

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ABOUT FEELING ALIENATED
FROM YOUR CHILDREN.

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WELL, IT'S BEEN TWO YEARS
SINCE I LIVED WITH THEM.

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AND WHEN I DID,
I'D HAVE TO SAY

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THAT KATE WAS MORE

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PRIMARY IN THEIR LIVES,

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AT LEAST IN THE
DAY-TO-DAY STUFF, YEAH.

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SO THIS IS THE FIRST TIME
YOU'LL BE PLAYING THAT PART.

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MM, A CRITICAL AGE, 12.

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THEY'RE JUST
ON THE EDGE OF...

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EVERYTHING REALLY.

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DOES THAT FEEL LIKE
A LOT OF PRESSURE?

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I DO--
I DO FEEL PRESSURE,

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BUT NOT--

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THE OTHER MORNING I WAS
PASSING THE CEREAL TO MAX

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AND...

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MY HAND STARTED
TO SHAKE.

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HE DIDN'T NOTICE,
BUT...

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AS MUCH AS I WANT
TO HAVE MAX WITH ME,

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AT SOME POINT
VERY SOON

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I'M GONNA HAVE TO TELL
HIM ABOUT MY ILLNESS.

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THAT I--

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THAT I HAVE
PARKINSON'S.

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I JUST OWE IT TO HIM
TO DO IT CORRECTLY,

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TO DISCUSS IT
WITH SOMEBODY

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AND TO DO IT--
TO DO IT RIGHT.

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THAT'S WHY I'M HERE.

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THAT'S WHY
I CAME BACK.

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I'M GLAD YOU DID.

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YOU HAD SAID YOU WERE
SEEING A NEUROLOGIST.

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I ALSO HAVE TO ADMIT

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THAT YOU WERE RIGHT
ABOUT SOMETHING LAST WEEK.

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OKAY.

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YOU ASKED ME IF I HAVE
SOMEONE TO TALK TO,

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WHO I CONFIDE IN.

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WELL, I DON'T REALLY.

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WENDY'S BECOMING
LESS AND LESS THAT PERSON.

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AND NOW THAT MAX
IS LIVING WITH ME,

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I'VE HAD TO BAN HER
FROM STAYING OVER.

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WELL, WHAT I MEAN
IS ASK.

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I'VE HAD TO ASK HER

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NOT TO STAY OVER
AT MY APARTMENT.

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WOULD SHE PREFER
TO STAY WITH YOU?

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SHE'D HAVE HER NAME
ON THE LEASE ON TUESDAY

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IF I'D AGREE TO IT.

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AND A FRIDGE
FULL OF SOY PRODUCTS.

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( chuckles )

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SHE KEEPS ASKING
TO MEET MAX.

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SHE-- SHE SAYS
SHE LOVES KIDS.

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BUT I HAD TO SAY NO.

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YOU KNOW,
I JUST THINK

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THAT HE'S SO
DISTURBED

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FROM LIVING
WITH KATE

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AND HER FIANCГ©

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THAT I JUST
DON'T THINK IT'S FAIR
TO PUT HIM IN THAT POSITION.

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HAS MAX TALKED TO YOU
ABOUT BEING DISTURBED?

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OH, HE'S BEEN
BEGGING ME FOR WEEKS

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TO COME LIVE WITH ME,
SAYING HOW MUCH
HE HATES STEVE.

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THAT'S THE FIANCГ©--
STEVE?

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YES YES.
I'D ACTUALLY EXPECTED

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MY DAUGHTER ROSIE

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TO HAVE A HARDER TIME
LIVING WITH HIM AND KATE,

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BUT SHE HASN'T.

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WHY DID YOU EXPECT ROSIE
TO HAVE A HARDER TIME?

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'CAUSE WE USED TO BE

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CLOSE.

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WELL, CERTAINLY CLOSER
THAN WE ARE NOW, YEAH.

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ARE YOU EQUALLY WORRIED
TO TALK WITH HER ABOUT
YOUR MEDICAL--?

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YOU WERE ALSO RIGHT ABOUT
SOMETHING ELSE LAST WEEK.

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OH, WHAT'S THAT?

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ABOUT GINA TOLL.

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YOU QUESTIONED
HER PROFESSIONAL JUDGMENT
LAST WEEK.

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I DEFENDED HER.

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NOW THAT I'VE BEEN
READING HER NEW BOOK,

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I HAVE TO SAY
THAT YOU WERE RIGHT.

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YOU'RE NOT ENJOYING
THE BOOK?

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SHE'S REVEALED
HERSELF TO BE

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COMPLETELY INDISCREET,
UTTERLY SELFISH.

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IN MY OPINION,
SHE SHOULD HAVE HER
LICENSE REVOKED.

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SO YOU WERE RIGHT.

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IS IT EASIER FOR YOU
TO JUSTIFY COMING HERE

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IF YOU THINK
OF GINA AS SELFISH
AND ME AS RIGHT?

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EXCUSE ME?

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LAST WEEK YOU HAD
REAL DOUBTS ABOUT ME,

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AND THIS WEEK
YOU'RE TELLING ME I'M RIGHT
ABOUT QUITE A LOT.

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JESUS CHRIST,
SOME PEOPLE

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REALLY HAVE A HARD TIME
TAKING A COMPLIMENT.

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LOOK, YOU WERE RIGHT
ABOUT HER.

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I DON'T KNOW
HOW ELSE TO SAY IT.

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IT TOOK YOU 30 MINUTES
TO DISCERN SOMETHING
ABOUT GINA

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THAT I APPARENTLY
WAS BLIND TO

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FOR 25 YEARS.

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WHILE I WAS CHATTING AWAY
ABOUT MY PROBLEMS,

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SHE WAS CONTRIVING
THE BASIS

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OF ONE OF THE MOST
MISERABLE CHARACTERS

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THAT I HAVE EVER
ENCOUNTERED IN A NOVEL.

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LIKE THE DEMON SPAWN
OF BARTLEBY AND SHYLOCK--

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THIS DEPRESSIVE,
GROVELING OUTCAST.

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IT'S JUST DESPICABLE.

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SHE'S DESPICABLE.

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AND NOW SHE'S AVOIDING
MY PHONE CALLS.

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SHE WON'T RETURN
MY MESSAGES.

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YOU SEEM
QUITE CONVINCED--

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AND IF YOU READ THE BOOK,
IT'S PERFECTLY OBVIOUS.

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THE GUY IS
AN ASSOCIATE PROFESSOR

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AT AN EAST COAST
COLLEGE,

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REPEATEDLY DENIED TENURE
BY THE CHAIRWOMAN
OF THE DEPARTMENT.

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GINA TOLL FAMOUSLY
DENIED ME THE OPPORTUNITY

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TO HEAD UP
THE PSYCHOANALYTIC INSTITUTE.

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IN THE NOVEL
SHE DESCRIBES THIS GUY

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AS OBSESSED
WITH HIS STUDENTS--

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THEIR ACADEMIC WORK,
WITH THEIR PERSONAL LIVES.

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SO MUCH SO THAT HE IGNORES
HIS REAL RELATIONSHIP--

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THE LOVELY WIFE
AND THE TWO KIDS.

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IN ONE BIT SHE SAYS
THAT THIS GUY IS

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SELF-SABOTAGING,
SELF-DEFEATING,

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THAT HE'S IN A PRISON
OF HIS OWN MAKING.

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SHE EVEN
CALLS THE GUY JOHN,

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AS IF SHE NEEDED
TO BE MORE OVERT ABOUT
WHO SHE'S ATTACKING.

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JOHN WAS
MY FATHER'S NAME.

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- JOHN?
- YEAH.

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YOU'RE READING THIS
AS A PERSONAL ATTACK.

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YOU DON'T BELIEVE ME?

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I DON'T KNOW WHAT GINA'S
DOING OR NOT DOING.

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I AM MUCH MORE INTERESTED IN
HOW CERTAIN YOU SEEM TO BE

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THAT SHE'S BASED ONE OF HER
MAIN CHARACTERS ON YOU.

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DO YOU THINK
I'M MAKING THIS UP?

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CAN YOU TELL ME WHICH PART
OF WHAT SHE WROTE
IS MOST UPSETTING?

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ALL OF IT.
THE WHOLE LOT OF IT.

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EVERYTHING.

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THERE AREN'T
SPECIFIC PASSAGES IN IT
THAT STAND OUT FOR YOU?

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YOU MENTIONED
IN PARTICULAR THE PHRASES

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"SELF-DEFEATING,"
"SELF SABOTAGING."
CAN YOU TELL ME ABOUT--?

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NO, I CAN'T.
LISTEN, LET'S JUST--

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LET'S JUST MOVE ON
FROM THAT.

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THERE'S NOTHING
TO BE DONE.

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IT'S NOT A QUESTION OF
WHETHER THERE'S SOMETHING
TO BE DONE OR NOT.

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LOOK, I JUST DON'T WANT TO
TALK ABOUT GINA TOLL ANYMORE.

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I'LL FINISH
READING THE BOOK.

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AND THEN IF YOU LIKE

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WE COULD GET BACK TO IT
NEXT WEEK.

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CAN YOU EXPLAIN ONE--?

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PLEASE, YOU KNOW WHAT?
I--

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IS YOUR HAND
BOTHERING YOU?

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NO.

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EARLIER YOU SAID
YOU'RE CONCERNED ABOUT

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HOW BEST TO TELL MAX
YOU HAVE PARKINSON'S.

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MM-HMM.

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YOU MENTIONED LAST WEEK
YOU'RE SEEING A NEUROLOGIST.

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YES.

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DID YOU SEE
A NEUROLOGIST?

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MM-HMM.

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YOU SEEM
RELUCTANT TO TELL ME
WHAT THE DOCTOR SAID.

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00:10:01,268 --> 00:10:04,972
OH, I MEAN, YOU GO
TO A TOP SPECIALIST,

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00:10:05,072 --> 00:10:08,308
CORNELL'S FANCY
NEW WING,

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00:10:08,408 --> 00:10:10,343
STATE-OF-THE-ART--

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00:10:10,443 --> 00:10:12,345
YOU'D THINK
HE'D AT LEAST ORDER

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00:10:12,445 --> 00:10:14,748
A C.A.T. SCAN
OR AN M.R.I.

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00:10:14,848 --> 00:10:16,383
HE DIDN'T DO THAT?

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00:10:16,483 --> 00:10:18,085
HE ASKED ME
TO TOUCH MY NOSE,

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00:10:18,185 --> 00:10:21,488
WALK DOWN THE HALL,
HOP ON ONE FOOT.

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00:10:21,588 --> 00:10:23,023
AND?
HOW WAS THAT?

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00:10:23,123 --> 00:10:24,992
I TOUCHED MY NOSE.
I WALKED. I HOPPED.

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00:10:25,092 --> 00:10:26,994
THEN HE TOLD ME
THAT PARKINSON'S

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00:10:27,094 --> 00:10:29,763
IS A HARD DISEASE
TO DIAGNOSE.

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00:10:29,863 --> 00:10:32,833
THAT THEY MISDIAGNOSE
30% OF THE TIME.

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00:10:32,933 --> 00:10:35,402
HE SAID THE SCANS CAN'T
REALLY TELL YOU ANYTHING

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00:10:35,502 --> 00:10:37,537
UNTIL THE LATER STAGES.

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00:10:37,637 --> 00:10:39,707
BUT FOR YOU AT THIS POINT
HE THOUGHT--?

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HE THOUGHT, AFTER OUR
LOW-TECH ENCOUNTER,

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00:10:42,876 --> 00:10:46,914
THAT I'M NOT EXHIBITING
ENOUGH SYMPTOMS

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00:10:47,014 --> 00:10:50,684
FOR A POSITIVE DIAGNOSIS.

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00:10:53,220 --> 00:10:56,656
HE SAID WE'D HAVE TO
WAIT AND SEE.

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YOU DON'T SEEM
TERRIBLY RELIEVED.

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I WAS SO FUCKING RELIEVED
I ACTUALLY CALLED UP WENDY

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00:11:01,729 --> 00:11:03,596
AND ASKED HER OUT
FOR SUSHI.

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00:11:03,697 --> 00:11:05,532
SHE SEEMED SHOCKED.

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00:11:05,632 --> 00:11:08,869
SHE KEPT REMARKING ABOUT
HOW UP I SEEMED.

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00:11:08,969 --> 00:11:10,871
SO WE SAT DOWN
TO LUNCH

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00:11:10,971 --> 00:11:13,506
AND I THOUGHT
TO MYSELF,

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00:11:13,606 --> 00:11:15,475
"WOW, HERE I AM

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00:11:15,575 --> 00:11:19,813
OPPOSITE THIS BEAUTIFUL,
FUN WOMAN."

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00:11:21,248 --> 00:11:24,284
I FOUND MYSELF WONDERING
WHY I EVER DOUBTED HER.

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00:11:24,384 --> 00:11:27,855
SOUNDS AS IF
THE DOCTOR'S VISIT HAD
A SIGNIFICANT EFFECT.

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00:11:27,955 --> 00:11:29,757
YEAH, IT DID
FOR ABOUT 20 MINUTES.

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AND THEN
THE FOOD ARRIVED.

231
00:11:32,325 --> 00:11:34,327
IF YOU'RE WORRIED ABOUT
YOUR HAND SHAKING,

232
00:11:34,427 --> 00:11:36,529
DON'T HOLD
A PIECE OF FISH

233
00:11:36,629 --> 00:11:39,767
BETWEEN TWO 10"
STICKS OF WOOD.

234
00:11:41,969 --> 00:11:44,972
I HAVE AN APPOINTMENT
IN TWO WEEKS.

235
00:11:45,072 --> 00:11:47,174
I'M GONNA GET
A SECOND OPINION.

236
00:11:47,274 --> 00:11:49,376
YOU'RE SEEING
ANOTHER NEUROLOGIST?

237
00:11:49,476 --> 00:11:51,178
YES.

238
00:11:51,278 --> 00:11:53,413
WELL, I'VE HAD THESE
SYMPTOMS FOR FOUR MONTHS

239
00:11:53,513 --> 00:11:55,182
AND THEY'RE NOT
GETTING ANY BETTER.

240
00:11:55,282 --> 00:11:57,851
IT RUNS IN MY FAMILY.
I THINK I OWE MYSELF

241
00:11:57,951 --> 00:12:00,220
A SECOND OPINION.

242
00:12:02,823 --> 00:12:05,225
DON'T TELL ME
YOU DISAGREE.

243
00:12:05,325 --> 00:12:08,228
IF IT WILL
MAKE YOU MORE COMFORTABLE
TO GET A SECOND OPINION,

244
00:12:08,328 --> 00:12:10,730
THAT'S PROBABLY
SOMETHING YOU SHOULD DO.

245
00:12:16,804 --> 00:12:20,874
YOU'RE GENUINELY FRIGHTENED
ABOUT BEING SICK.

246
00:12:24,544 --> 00:12:27,547
HOW HAS YOUR SLEEP BEEN
THIS WEEK?

247
00:12:27,647 --> 00:12:29,616
DO YOU WAKE UP
THINKING ABOUT ALL THIS?

248
00:12:29,716 --> 00:12:33,921
I TAKE A PILL AND--

249
00:12:35,088 --> 00:12:37,490
ARE YOU STILL WAKING UP
AFTER SEVERAL HOURS?

250
00:12:37,590 --> 00:12:39,559
MM-HMM.

251
00:12:39,659 --> 00:12:41,161
ARE YOU STILL HAVING
THE SAME DREAM?

252
00:12:41,261 --> 00:12:42,529
YES.

253
00:12:44,064 --> 00:12:46,699
WHAT, ARE YOU HOPING
FOR ANOTHER COMPLIMENT?

254
00:12:46,800 --> 00:12:48,135
I'M SORRY?

255
00:12:48,235 --> 00:12:50,737
ANOTHER COMPLIMENT
TO REJECT?

256
00:12:50,838 --> 00:12:52,272
I'M NOT SURE I--

257
00:12:52,372 --> 00:12:54,574
ARE YOU HOPING I'LL TELL YOU
THAT YOUR THEORY WAS RIGHT?

258
00:12:54,674 --> 00:12:57,444
THAT MY DREAM
CONTAINS IMAGES

259
00:12:57,544 --> 00:13:01,815
OF ENTRAPMENT
AND PARALYSIS?

260
00:13:01,915 --> 00:13:05,585
THAT'S WHAT YOU ASKED ME
AT THE END OF LAST WEEK.

261
00:13:05,685 --> 00:13:07,254
DOES IT?

262
00:13:07,354 --> 00:13:10,290
NOT THAT IT WAS
SUCH A TERRIBLY DIFFICULT
GUESS TO MAKE,

263
00:13:10,390 --> 00:13:12,092
BUT YEAH.

264
00:13:12,192 --> 00:13:14,027
SO GO AHEAD,

265
00:13:14,127 --> 00:13:16,729
MAKE A NOTE
IN YOUR BOOK--

266
00:13:16,830 --> 00:13:19,632
"PATIENT CONTINUES
TO LIONIZE THERAPIST

267
00:13:19,732 --> 00:13:23,636
TO JUSTIFY REPLACEMENT
OF LONG-TERM ANALYST."

268
00:13:23,736 --> 00:13:25,839
I'LL MAKE
A MENTAL NOTE.

269
00:13:25,939 --> 00:13:29,776
SOUNDS GOOD.

270
00:13:29,877 --> 00:13:33,480
WILL YOU TELL ME
WHAT YOU'VE BEEN DREAMING?

271
00:13:40,720 --> 00:13:43,823
I'M--

272
00:13:43,924 --> 00:13:45,959
I'M RUNNING

273
00:13:46,059 --> 00:13:48,862
ALONG THE OUTSIDE
OF THIS

274
00:13:48,962 --> 00:13:52,599
TALL WROUGHT-IRON
FENCE.

275
00:13:54,234 --> 00:13:57,070
I'M OUTSIDE.
IT'S A FIELD,

276
00:13:57,170 --> 00:14:00,073
DAYTIME,
REALLY BRIGHT.

277
00:14:00,173 --> 00:14:03,877
THE FENCE STARTS
TO CURVE

278
00:14:03,977 --> 00:14:06,046
AND I CAN SENSE

279
00:14:06,146 --> 00:14:09,349
THIS OPENING
UP AHEAD--

280
00:14:09,449 --> 00:14:10,550
GATES.

281
00:14:10,650 --> 00:14:14,154
AND I HAVE THIS TREMENDOUS
FEELING OF EXCITEMENT.

282
00:14:14,254 --> 00:14:18,158
MY HEART IS THUMPING.
I HAVE THIS ANTICIPATION.

283
00:14:18,258 --> 00:14:19,960
AND THEN

284
00:14:20,060 --> 00:14:21,929
MY LEGS JUST--

285
00:14:22,029 --> 00:14:24,664
THEY GET--
THEY GET HEAVY

286
00:14:24,764 --> 00:14:26,633
AND I'M SLOWING DOWN

287
00:14:26,733 --> 00:14:31,038
AS IF I'M STUCK
IN QUICKSAND.

288
00:14:31,905 --> 00:14:34,975
AND I CAN'T MOVE.

289
00:14:36,176 --> 00:14:40,847
I SENSE SOMETHING
BEHIND ME.

290
00:14:40,948 --> 00:14:44,484
AND I TURN MY HEAD.

291
00:14:44,584 --> 00:14:47,887
AND...

292
00:14:49,389 --> 00:14:51,124
IT'S MY FATHER.

293
00:14:51,224 --> 00:14:54,261
HE'S WALKING TOWARDS ME.

294
00:14:54,361 --> 00:14:56,964
I'M PARALYZED.
HE'S COMING CLOSER.

295
00:14:57,064 --> 00:15:00,833
AND HE'S LURCHING

296
00:15:00,934 --> 00:15:03,803
TOWARDS ME.

297
00:15:03,903 --> 00:15:07,007
AND...

298
00:15:07,107 --> 00:15:09,442
AND THEN I WAKE UP
WITH A START.

299
00:15:09,542 --> 00:15:12,645
I JUST STARTLE AWAKE.

300
00:15:15,415 --> 00:15:18,751
I'VE BEEN HAVING
THAT DREAM FOR MONTHS,

301
00:15:18,851 --> 00:15:22,189
SINCE JUST AFTER
THE SYMPTOMS STARTED.

302
00:15:30,563 --> 00:15:35,235
I...

303
00:15:35,335 --> 00:15:38,605
THINK I'M BECOMING
MY FATHER.

304
00:15:51,351 --> 00:15:53,586
I'M BEING
OVERTAKEN BY HIM.

305
00:15:55,955 --> 00:15:58,358
I'VE TRIED MY BEST
TO IGNORE IT--

306
00:15:58,458 --> 00:16:00,460
THE SYMPTOMS
OF THE DISEASE,

307
00:16:00,560 --> 00:16:03,863
THE COMING PARALYSIS.

308
00:16:03,963 --> 00:16:06,299
THEN I HAVE
THE DREAM AGAIN

309
00:16:06,399 --> 00:16:10,837
AND IT'S--
IT'S CLEAR TO ME

310
00:16:10,937 --> 00:16:14,941
WHAT IT'S
COMMUNICATING.

311
00:16:15,042 --> 00:16:18,378
I JUST CAN'T--

312
00:16:22,182 --> 00:16:25,552
I CAN'T IGNORE IT
ANYMORE.

313
00:16:43,536 --> 00:16:47,607
I WOKE UP THE OTHER NIGHT,
I WENT TO CHECK ON MAX.

314
00:16:49,242 --> 00:16:52,945
I WATCHED HIM SLEEP.

315
00:16:53,046 --> 00:16:55,348
I JUST CAN'T BEAR
THE THOUGHT

316
00:16:55,448 --> 00:16:59,219
OF WHAT I MIGHT BE
PASSING ON TO HIM.

317
00:16:59,319 --> 00:17:01,921
BESIDES THE PHYSICAL
ISSUES,

318
00:17:02,021 --> 00:17:03,923
ARE THERE
PERSONAL TRAITS

319
00:17:04,023 --> 00:17:06,193
YOU WORRY ABOUT PASSING ON
TO YOUR CHILDREN?

320
00:17:06,293 --> 00:17:09,396
( chuckles )
WHAT, PARKINSON'S
ISN'T ENOUGH?

321
00:17:09,496 --> 00:17:14,434
I ASKED YOU BEFORE,
BUT YOU DIDN'T ANSWER--

322
00:17:14,534 --> 00:17:17,904
HOW HAS YOUR
RELATIONSHIP BEEN WITH MAX
SINCE HE ARRIVED?

323
00:17:18,004 --> 00:17:21,007
IT'S BEEN A FULL WEEK.

324
00:17:21,108 --> 00:17:23,943
HONESTLY,

325
00:17:24,043 --> 00:17:28,848
I'VE BEEN WORRIED
ABOUT HIM.

326
00:17:28,948 --> 00:17:31,451
HE JUST HAS HIS HEAD
IN HIS SKETCHBOOK
EIGHT HOURS A DAY.

327
00:17:31,551 --> 00:17:33,520
HE'S GOT THIS
LEATHER-GRADE CALLUS

328
00:17:33,620 --> 00:17:36,723
ON HIS FINGERS FROM
WHERE HE GRIPS THE PEN.

329
00:17:36,823 --> 00:17:38,425
WHAT ARE
HIS DRAWINGS LIKE?

330
00:17:38,525 --> 00:17:42,295
GLOOMY, ABSTRACT,
VAGUELY VIOLENT.

331
00:17:42,395 --> 00:17:47,300
MY TEENAGE PATIENT JESSE

332
00:17:47,400 --> 00:17:49,536
HAPPENED TO SEE HIM
IN THE HALLWAY

333
00:17:49,636 --> 00:17:51,538
OUTSIDE MY APARTMENT.

334
00:17:51,638 --> 00:17:54,874
HE SAID HE SEEMED SAD,

335
00:17:54,974 --> 00:17:57,644
HEADED FOR
A WORLD OF PAIN.

336
00:17:57,744 --> 00:18:01,814
IT'S HARD TO HEAR HIM
DESCRIBE MAX LIKE THAT?

337
00:18:01,914 --> 00:18:05,252
YES, IT WAS.

338
00:18:08,421 --> 00:18:11,358
JESSE'S BEEN TRYING
TO GET ME

339
00:18:11,458 --> 00:18:14,994
TO ASK HIS SOCIAL WORKER
OUT ON A DATE.

340
00:18:15,094 --> 00:18:16,963
HE SAYS

341
00:18:17,063 --> 00:18:19,866
SHE'S SAD
JUST LIKE ME.

342
00:18:19,966 --> 00:18:21,734
IS THAT HOW YOU SEE
YOURSELF?

343
00:18:21,834 --> 00:18:23,370
AS SAD?
WHY DO YOU ASK?

344
00:18:23,470 --> 00:18:26,473
WHAT, DO YOU THINK OF ME
AS CHIPPER?

345
00:18:27,674 --> 00:18:29,576
( chuckles )

346
00:18:29,676 --> 00:18:32,579
COULD THAT BE
WHAT YOU'RE WORRIED
ABOUT PASSING ON TO MAX?

347
00:18:32,679 --> 00:18:36,549
WELL, I HOPE THAT
HE'S HAPPIER THAN I AM,

348
00:18:38,117 --> 00:18:40,887
AND HEALTHIER.

349
00:18:40,987 --> 00:18:43,556
BUT, YOU SEE,
YOU HAVE TO UNDERSTAND,

350
00:18:43,656 --> 00:18:46,793
THAT'S A MAJOR PART OF IT--
BEING SICK--

351
00:18:46,893 --> 00:18:50,930
THE BURDEN I'LL BE
PLACING ON THEM.

352
00:18:51,030 --> 00:18:54,501
NOT SO EASY TO BE HAPPY
WHEN YOU GOT THAT
DRAGGING YOU DOWN.

353
00:18:54,601 --> 00:18:56,636
"DRAGGING ME DOWN"--
THAT'S VERY SIMILAR

354
00:18:56,736 --> 00:18:59,839
TO HOW YOU DESCRIBED
YOURSELF IN THE DREAM.

355
00:19:03,276 --> 00:19:06,045
YOU FEEL THIS WEIGHT
IN YOUR DREAM

356
00:19:06,145 --> 00:19:07,380
IS CONNECTED
TO THE PARKINSON'S.

357
00:19:07,480 --> 00:19:10,183
I'M BEING PURSUED
BY MY FATHER,

358
00:19:10,283 --> 00:19:13,119
OVERTAKEN BY HIS
ILLNESS.

359
00:19:13,220 --> 00:19:15,154
THAT'S ONE
INTERPRETATION.

360
00:19:15,255 --> 00:19:17,324
YOU DESCRIBED YOURSELF

361
00:19:17,424 --> 00:19:20,827
AS RUNNING ALONG
A WROUGHT-IRON FENCE

362
00:19:20,927 --> 00:19:22,629
IN A FIELD.

363
00:19:22,729 --> 00:19:25,798
DO YOU HAVE
ANY ASSOCIATIONS
WITH THAT PLACE,

364
00:19:25,898 --> 00:19:27,300
WHERE YOU MIGHT BE?

365
00:19:27,400 --> 00:19:28,968
THE FEELING
YOU DESCRIBE--

366
00:19:29,068 --> 00:19:30,803
I'M JUST--
I'M JUST RUNNING.

367
00:19:30,903 --> 00:19:32,439
I-I-I--

368
00:19:32,539 --> 00:19:34,841
AS I SAID,
I FEEL EXCITED.

369
00:19:34,941 --> 00:19:37,244
THERE'S THIS FEELING OF,

370
00:19:37,344 --> 00:19:40,613
I DON'T KNOW,
POSSIBILITY.

371
00:19:40,713 --> 00:19:43,149
AND MY FATHER STOPS ME

372
00:19:43,250 --> 00:19:45,285
JUST LIKE HE DID
IN LIFE.

373
00:19:45,385 --> 00:19:48,855
AS HE'S DOING NOW
WITH MY GENETIC INHERITANCE.

374
00:19:48,955 --> 00:19:51,891
I'M STRUCK BY THE FACT
THAT YOU

375
00:19:51,991 --> 00:19:56,396
BECOME STUCK,
BEGIN TO SLOW

376
00:19:56,496 --> 00:19:59,165
BEFORE YOU TURN AND SEE
YOUR FATHER APPROACHING.

377
00:19:59,266 --> 00:20:00,833
WHAT DO YOU MEAN,
BEFORE?

378
00:20:00,933 --> 00:20:02,635
WELL, THAT'S WHAT
YOU SAID.

379
00:20:02,735 --> 00:20:05,438
I'M WONDERING
IF YOU HAVE SOME AGENCY

380
00:20:05,538 --> 00:20:07,574
IN STOPPING YOURSELF
FROM MOVING FORWARD.

381
00:20:07,674 --> 00:20:10,310
I'M SLOWING DOWN.
I'M DRAGGED DOWN.

382
00:20:10,410 --> 00:20:12,479
THEN I TURN AND I SEE

383
00:20:12,579 --> 00:20:15,582
IT'S MY FATHER
WHO'S DOING IT.

384
00:20:17,784 --> 00:20:20,687
IT ANGERS YOU WHEN I ASK YOU
ABOUT YOUR ROLE IN THIS.

385
00:20:20,787 --> 00:20:23,690
YOU WERE ALSO DISTURBED
BY WHAT YOU TAKE TO BE

386
00:20:23,790 --> 00:20:25,458
GINA'S ACCOUNT OF YOU

387
00:20:25,558 --> 00:20:28,227
AS SELF-DEFEATING
OR SELF SABOTAGING.

388
00:20:28,328 --> 00:20:30,697
LOOK, ANY SHRINK
WILL TELL YOU

389
00:20:30,797 --> 00:20:33,232
THAT A PATIENT IS
THE AUTHOR OF HIS OWN LIFE.

390
00:20:33,333 --> 00:20:36,135
OF COURSE.
OF COURSE THAT'S TRUE.

391
00:20:36,235 --> 00:20:39,339
YOU MAY NOW PROCEED

392
00:20:39,439 --> 00:20:41,841
TO SECOND-YEAR
GRADUATE STUDIES

393
00:20:41,941 --> 00:20:43,343
IN HUMAN PSYCHOLOGY.

394
00:20:43,443 --> 00:20:45,545
BUT IF YOU'LL
ALSO RECALL

395
00:20:45,645 --> 00:20:48,281
SOME OF YOUR COURSEWORK
IN MEDICAL SCHOOL,

396
00:20:48,381 --> 00:20:51,584
YOU'LL REMEMBER THAT YOU
CAN'T DENY THE FACT

397
00:20:51,684 --> 00:20:54,354
THAT CERTAIN DISEASES
ARE INHERITED.

398
00:20:54,454 --> 00:20:57,790
I'VE INHERITED THIS ILLNESS
FROM MY FATHER.

399
00:20:57,890 --> 00:21:01,828
IT'S BEEN FORCED ON ME.
I DIDN'T ASK TO HAVE
PARKINSON'S.

400
00:21:01,928 --> 00:21:04,631
I DIDN'T ASK
TO BE SICK.

401
00:21:04,731 --> 00:21:06,966
DO YOU THINK ABOUT
WHAT YOUR LIFE MIGHT BECOME

402
00:21:07,066 --> 00:21:09,135
IF YOU DO HAVE
PARKINSON'S?

403
00:21:09,235 --> 00:21:11,203
OF COURSE I DO.

404
00:21:11,304 --> 00:21:13,205
EVERY DAY.

405
00:21:13,306 --> 00:21:15,308
WHAT DO YOU ENVISION?

406
00:21:15,408 --> 00:21:18,311
WHAT WOULD YOUR
DAY-TO-DAY LIFE BE LIKE?

407
00:21:18,411 --> 00:21:21,147
I DON'T KNOW.
PROBABLY SOMETHING
VERY SIMILAR

408
00:21:21,247 --> 00:21:24,451
TO WHAT IT HELD
FOR MY FATHER.

409
00:21:24,551 --> 00:21:28,621
I'D BE LESS AND LESS ABLE
TO LEAVE THE HOUSE,

410
00:21:28,721 --> 00:21:33,526
LESS AND LESS ABLE
TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF.

411
00:21:33,626 --> 00:21:35,728
EVENTUALLY I'D NEED CARE

412
00:21:35,828 --> 00:21:39,065
IN MY OWN HOME.

413
00:21:39,165 --> 00:21:41,067
THEN, IN THE FINAL STAGES,

414
00:21:41,167 --> 00:21:43,035
I'D BE LIFTED UP

415
00:21:43,135 --> 00:21:45,605
AND CARRIED OFF
TO A NURSING HOME

416
00:21:45,705 --> 00:21:50,042
STILL IN MY FUCKING CHAIR,
GIVEN ROUND-THE-CLOCK CARE

417
00:21:50,142 --> 00:21:54,581
LIKE AN INFANT
IN DIAPERS AND A BIB.

418
00:21:54,681 --> 00:21:57,083
IS THERE ANYTHING THAT
FEELS COMFORTING TO YOU

419
00:21:57,183 --> 00:21:58,951
IN THAT FANTASY?

420
00:22:00,620 --> 00:22:03,756
FANTASY?
IS THAT A JOKE?

421
00:22:03,856 --> 00:22:05,758
DOES IT SEEM
SIGNIFICANT TO YOU

422
00:22:05,858 --> 00:22:10,062
THAT YOU CHOSE
THE IMAGE OF AN INFANT
BEING CARED FOR

423
00:22:10,162 --> 00:22:12,331
AS YOUR NOTION OF
WHAT IT WOULD BE LIKE
TO BE SICK?

424
00:22:12,432 --> 00:22:15,868
NO, BUT IT CLEARLY DOES
TO YOU.

425
00:22:15,968 --> 00:22:18,405
I AM A GROWN MAN.

426
00:22:18,505 --> 00:22:21,340
THE IDEA OF BEING SWADDLED
AND WIPED AND BURPED

427
00:22:21,441 --> 00:22:23,610
DOESN'T FALL UNDER THE MOST
ATTRACTIVE SCENARIOS

428
00:22:23,710 --> 00:22:25,778
FOR THE MAJORITY
OF ADULT MEN.

429
00:22:25,878 --> 00:22:28,781
WE'RE NOT TALKING ABOUT
THE MAJORITY OF ADULT MEN.
WE'RE TALKING ABOUT YOU.

430
00:22:28,881 --> 00:22:32,284
PRECISELY.
WHY THE FUCK WOULD I WANT
TO HAVE PARKINSON'S DISEASE?

431
00:22:32,385 --> 00:22:36,222
WHY ON EARTH WOULD I
FIND THAT COMFORTING?

432
00:22:36,322 --> 00:22:39,392
( sighs )

433
00:22:39,492 --> 00:22:41,394
THIS IS WHY I SHOULD
HAVE BEEN MORE DILIGENT

434
00:22:41,494 --> 00:22:45,532
IN FINDING A THERAPIST WITH
A BIT OF LIFE EXPERIENCE.

435
00:22:45,632 --> 00:22:48,568
YOU FEEL FREE TO PROPOSE
THESE ABSURD THEORIES

436
00:22:48,668 --> 00:22:52,071
BECAUSE YOU REALLY
DON'T HAVE ANY IDEA

437
00:22:52,171 --> 00:22:54,507
ABOUT WHAT AGING
FEELS LIKE--

438
00:22:54,607 --> 00:22:57,777
WATCHING YOUR BODY
FALL APART.

439
00:22:57,877 --> 00:23:01,280
YOU HAVE NO IDEA

440
00:23:01,380 --> 00:23:03,516
WHAT THAT IS.

441
00:23:03,616 --> 00:23:06,519
AND YOU HAVE NO IDEA THAT
JUST AROUND THE NEXT CORNER

442
00:23:06,619 --> 00:23:09,889
MIGHT BE COMPLETE
DISABILITY,

443
00:23:09,989 --> 00:23:11,658
MIGHT BE THE BEGINNING

444
00:23:11,758 --> 00:23:16,829
OF A VERY SHORT ROAD
TO DEATH.

445
00:23:19,432 --> 00:23:23,002
YOU'RE 57 YEARS OLD,
NOT 80.

446
00:23:23,102 --> 00:23:25,371
YOU WERE TOLD THIS WEEK
BY A QUALIFIED NEUROLOGIST

447
00:23:25,472 --> 00:23:28,274
THAT YOU PROBABLY
DON'T HAVE PARKINSON'S...

448
00:23:28,374 --> 00:23:30,977
HE SAID THAT WE WOULD
HAVE TO WAIT AND SEE.

449
00:23:31,077 --> 00:23:33,379
...AND YET YOU CONTINUE
TO BE INVESTED

450
00:23:33,480 --> 00:23:35,615
IN THIS POSSIBILITY
THAT YOU DO.

451
00:23:35,715 --> 00:23:39,018
I'M TRYING
TO UNDERSTAND WHY.

452
00:23:39,118 --> 00:23:41,621
YOU'VE BEEN TO SEE
TWO DOCTORS THIS WEEK,
INCLUDING ME.

453
00:23:41,721 --> 00:23:44,924
YOU HAVE PLANS
TO SEE A THIRD.

454
00:23:45,024 --> 00:23:47,527
DO YOU FIND IT
COMFORTING

455
00:23:47,627 --> 00:23:52,031
TO BE CARED FOR,
PROTECTED IN THIS WAY?

456
00:23:54,601 --> 00:23:56,435
CAN YOU TELL ME
WHAT IT IS YOU FEEL

457
00:23:56,536 --> 00:23:58,304
THESE DOCTORS ARE
PROTECTING YOU FROM?

458
00:23:58,404 --> 00:24:00,406
I'M SICK.
THERE ARE DOCTORS OUT THERE

459
00:24:00,507 --> 00:24:02,475
WHO HELP YOU
WHEN YOU'RE SICK.

460
00:24:02,575 --> 00:24:04,777
I UNDERSTAND.

461
00:24:04,877 --> 00:24:07,013
IF IT TURNS OUT
YOU ARE ILL,

462
00:24:07,113 --> 00:24:08,781
I'LL BE HERE FOR YOU

463
00:24:08,881 --> 00:24:11,484
AS LONG AS YOU WANT
TO TALK WITH ME.

464
00:24:21,928 --> 00:24:23,563
OKAY.

465
00:24:25,798 --> 00:24:27,299
I THINK

466
00:24:27,399 --> 00:24:29,769
WE'RE OUT OF TIME.

467
00:24:29,869 --> 00:24:33,640
WILL YOU TELL ME SOMETHING
BEFORE WE FINISH?

468
00:24:35,341 --> 00:24:37,243
IN THE BEGINNING
OF YOUR DREAM--

469
00:24:37,343 --> 00:24:39,378
YOU DESCRIBED IT
QUITE VIVIDLY--

470
00:24:39,478 --> 00:24:41,548
THAT EXCITEMENT,

471
00:24:41,648 --> 00:24:44,617
THE FEELING OF OPENNESS,
POSSIBILITY.

472
00:24:44,717 --> 00:24:47,620
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME
YOU FELT THAT?

473
00:24:49,589 --> 00:24:51,558
CAN YOU REMEMBER?

474
00:24:53,593 --> 00:24:57,029
TRUTHFULLY,

475
00:24:57,129 --> 00:24:59,899
NO IDEA.

476
00:25:05,938 --> 00:25:07,740
WILL YOU TELL ME
SOMETHING?

477
00:25:07,840 --> 00:25:09,508
SURE.

478
00:25:09,609 --> 00:25:12,779
WHEN I WAS TALKING ABOUT
GINA'S BOOK EARLIER ON,

479
00:25:12,879 --> 00:25:15,214
YOU SEEMED TO KNOW
THE REFERENCE I WAS MAKING

480
00:25:15,314 --> 00:25:18,150
WHEN I SAID THAT

481
00:25:18,250 --> 00:25:20,987
THE CHARACTER WAS
LIKE BARTLEBY.

482
00:25:22,622 --> 00:25:23,956
DID YOU?

483
00:25:24,056 --> 00:25:25,858
WHY IS IT IMPORTANT
TO YOU TO KNOW?

484
00:25:25,958 --> 00:25:27,794
BECAUSE I LIKE
TO BE UNDERSTOOD.

485
00:25:27,894 --> 00:25:30,462
I NEED TO KNOW
THAT WHEN--

486
00:25:30,563 --> 00:25:32,531
WHEN I'M TALKING
TO SOMEBODY,

487
00:25:32,632 --> 00:25:36,335
THAT THEY
UNDERSTAND ME.

488
00:25:36,435 --> 00:25:39,038
THEY UNDERSTAND
WHAT I'M SAYING.

489
00:25:42,008 --> 00:25:44,543
DO YOU KNOW WHO I WAS
TALKING ABOUT?

490
00:25:49,015 --> 00:25:51,217
THE SCRIVENER.

491
00:26:10,369 --> 00:26:12,304
I GAVE WENDY THIS BOOK

492
00:26:12,404 --> 00:26:14,741
THE FIRST WEEK
THAT WE MET.

493
00:26:14,841 --> 00:26:17,644
IT'S CALLED
"THE MEMORY OF RUNNING."

494
00:26:17,744 --> 00:26:19,979
SHE HASN'T
READ IT YET,

495
00:26:20,079 --> 00:26:24,851
BUT SHE STILL THINKS
IT'S ABOUT RUNNING.

496
00:26:24,951 --> 00:26:27,954
IT'S NOT?

497
00:26:31,390 --> 00:26:33,325
HAVE A GOOD WEEK.

498
00:26:45,537 --> 00:26:48,374
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