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( sneezes )

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( theme music playing )

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SO HOW WAS YOUR WEEK?

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KIND OF WEIRD.

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- ARE YOU LOOKING
FOR SOMETHING?
- YEAH.

6
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I GOT A LETTER THIS WEEK--

7
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IN THE MAIL.

8
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THAT HASN'T HAPPENED TO ME
SINCE MY GRANDPARENTS
WERE ALIVE.

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CAN I ASK YOU
WHO IS IT FROM?

10
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MY BIRTH FATHER.

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( sneezes )

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ARE YOU OKAY?

13
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I'M SORRY.

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IT'S-- IT'S AN ALLERGY.

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( chuckles )

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( clears throat )

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I'M SORRY.
SO THIS--

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( sniffles )

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--THIS LETTER.

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- YEAH.
- WHEN DID IT ARRIVE?

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A FEW DAYS AGO.

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WELL, I'D LOVE
TO KNOW WHAT IT SAYS.

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HE SAYS HE MARRIED
MY BIRTH MOTHER.

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THAT'S A BIT OF A SHOCK.

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UH, YEAH,
TELL ME ABOUT IT.

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HE SAYS

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THEY GOT PREGNANT WITH ME
WHEN THEY WERE, LIKE, 17.

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17.

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THEY SPLIT UP
FOR A WHILE

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AND THEN THEY GOT BACK
TOGETHER AFTER COLLEGE

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AND NOW THEY'RE MARRIED.

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WOW.

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UM...

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IT SAYS

35
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HE'S WRITING
ON HER BEHALF--
KAREN'S.

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SAYS SHE DOESN'T
KNOW ABOUT IT.

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HE SAYS SHE'S REALLY
DEPRESSED RIGHT NOW

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BECAUSE I HAVEN'T
RESPONDED TO HER
PHONE CALL

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AND IT'S ALMOST
MY BIRTHDAY

40
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AND SHE ALWAYS GETS
REALLY DEPRESSED
AROUND MY BIRTHDAY.

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BLAH BLAH BLAH.

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ANYWAY, HE WANTS ME
TO WRITE BACK

43
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AND SAY, LIKE, YES,
I'LL BE IN CONTACT
WITH YOU

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OR NO,
GO FUCK YOURSELVES.

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I'M PARAPHRASING.

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HE SAYS HE LOVES ME.

47
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WHAT A FUCKING RETARD.

48
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I THINK THEY MIGHT BE KIND
OF ASSHOLES, THESE PEOPLE.

49
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GUESS WHAT ELSE?

50
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I'M GETTING A "B"
IN ALGEBRA.

51
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A "B"?
THAT'S-- THAT'S GREAT.

52
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A "B" IS
A FUCKING MIRACLE.

53
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WE HAVE TO TAKE THESE
MULTIPLE-CHOICE TESTS

54
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BECAUSE MY TEACHER
MR. NELSON

55
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IS, LIKE, TOO LAZY
TO GRADE A FUCKING--

56
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ANYWAY, IT DOESN'T MATTER.
THE POINT IS,

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HE PUTS THE ANSWER SHEETS
THROUGH THESE MACHINES

58
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AND THEY COME OUT
THE OTHER END.

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USUALLY IF THERE ARE
A LOT OF MISTAKES IT TAKES
A REALLY LONG TIME

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AND THE MACHINE MAKES
ALL THESE BEEPING NOISES.

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MINE JUST KIND OF
ZIPPED OUT THE OTHER END.

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( laughs )

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MR. NELSON LOOKED SHOCKED.

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DID YOU STUDY
FOR THIS TEST?

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YEAH, WHY?

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THEN NOT SUCH
A MIRACLE REALLY.

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ROBERTO HELPED ME.

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OH.

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HE HELPED YOU STUDY?

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SO YOU MUST HAVE TOLD HIM
ABOUT BEING SUSPENDED.

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WHAT?
OH YEAH.

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- AND HOW DID HE TAKE THAT?
- IT WAS NO BIG DEAL.

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HMM.

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LAST WEEK YOU SEEMED REALLY
NERVOUS ABOUT TELLING HIM.

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YOU WERE AFRAID THAT HE
MIGHT BECOME VIOLENT.

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THAT WAS A JOKE.
JESUS, WHY AM I
THE ONLY ONE

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WITH A SENSE OF HUMOR
AROUND HERE?

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OKAY, BUT I STILL THINK
THAT YOU WERE NERVOUS ABOUT
HOW HE WOULD REACT.

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FINE.
I WAS, I GUESS.

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BUT HE WAS COOL.

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HE CAN BE COOL.

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( distant siren wailing )

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HMM.

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DID YOU TALK TO HIM ABOUT
WHAT HAPPENED AT THE WHITNEY?

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- YUP.
- AND ABOUT NATE?

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I TOLD HIM THAT NATE
KICKED THE SHIT
OUT OF ME, YES.

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- AND DID YOU TELL HIM WHY?
- 'CAUSE I'M GAY.

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DID YOU TELL HIM
THAT YOU AND NATE WERE--

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THAT NATE WAS, UM--

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DID YOU TELL HIM THAT
NATE WAS FELLATING YOU?

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WHAT?
UM...

92
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DO YOU HAVE
A MERRIAM-WEBSTER
DICTIONARY AROUND HERE?

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I'M SORRY, I JUST--
I DON'T KNOW WHAT
THAT WORD MEANS.

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OH, COME ON, JESSE.
YOU KNOW VERY WELL
WHAT THE WORD MEANS.

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NO, PAUL, I DID NOT
TELL MY FATHER THAT NATE
WAS SUCKING MY DICK.

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- WHY NOT?
- WHY WOULD I?

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DO YOU THINK
HE WANTS TO KNOW?

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I MEAN, WOULD YOU WANT
TO KNOW IF YOUR KID--

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YOU HAD NO PROBLEM
TELLING YOUR MOTHER.

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- THAT'S DIFFERENT.
- AND WHY IS THAT?

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CAN'T YOU
JUST LEAVE IT ALONE?

102
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CAN'T IT JUST BE
A NICE THING

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THAT MY DAD HELPED ME
STUDY AND I GOT
A "B"?

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IT IS A NICE THING, JESSE.
YES.

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HE'S REALLY GOOD
AT MATH, MY DAD.

106
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HE MUST HAVE BEEN
PROUD OF THAT "B."

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YEAH. I MEAN, HE WOULD
HAVE RATHER IT WAS AN "A,"

108
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BUT SURE.

109
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SO CAN WE GO BACK

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TO YOUR BIRTH FATHER'S
LETTER FOR A MOMENT?

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IF YOU WANT.

112
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SO-- SO WHAT'S HIS NAME?

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UM, KEVIN.

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( chuckles )

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KEVIN AND KAREN.

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GOD, THAT'S PATHETIC,
RIGHT?

117
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LAST WEEK YOU TOLD MARISA
THAT YOU WERE GONNA
LIVE WITH KAREN.

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THIS WEEK YOUR ATTITUDE
TOWARDS HER SEEMS
TO HAVE CHANGED.

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UH...

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I JUST THINK
IT'S REALLY INAPPROPRIATE
OF HIM TO CONTACT ME.

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- INAPPROPRIATE?
- YEAH. I MEAN,
WHAT THE FUCK?

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I'M A MINOR,
FOR CHRIST'S SAKE.

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WHAT THEY'RE DOING
IS ILLEGAL.

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I MEAN, THEY GAVE ME UP.

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THEY DIDN'T WANT ME.

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AND, LIKE, NOW THAT
SOMEBODY ELSE HAS RAISED ME

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FOR 17 YEARS AND, LIKE,
FED ME AND CLOTHED ME

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AND KEPT ME ALIVE
AND EVERYTHING--

129
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NOW SUDDENLY
THEY WANT BACK IN?

130
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NO, SORRY.
THAT IS NOT HOW IT WORKS.

131
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AND HOW DO YOU
THINK IT WORKS?

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PEOPLE HAVE
ONE SET OF PARENTS.
ONE.

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NOT TWO.
AND I'VE ALREADY GOT MINE.

134
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BUT DO YOU THINK KAREN
AND KEVIN REALLY WANT
TO BE YOUR PARENTS?

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ISN'T IT POSSIBLE THAT
THEY MIGHT BE LOOKING

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FOR SOME OTHER KIND
OF RELATIONSHIP?

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- LIKE WHAT?
- LIKE FRIENDSHIP.

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MAYBE THEY JUST WANT
TO GET TO KNOW YOU.

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( thunder rumbles )

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DO YOUR PARENTS KNOW THAT YOU
GOT A LETTER FROM KEVIN?

141
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I WROTE A RESPONSE.

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- DO YOU WANT TO HEAR IT?
- SURE.

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"DEAR KEVIN,

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THANK YOU FOR CONTACTING ME
REGARDING MY ORIGINS.

145
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I APOLOGIZE FOR
CAUSING KAREN PAIN

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AND I UNDERSTAND
YOUR REQUEST.

147
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HOWEVER, I THINK
YOU SHOULD KNOW

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THAT KAREN'S CALL CAUSED
SIGNIFICANT DISTRESS

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TO MY ADOPTIVE PARENTS

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WHO HAVE TAKEN
THE TROUBLE TO CARE FOR ME

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FOR THE LAST 17 YEARS.

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I HOPE THEREFORE
THAT YOU UNDERSTAND THAT
AT THE PRESENT TIME

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I DO NOT WISH TO BE
IN CONTACT WITH YOU.

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I RESPECTFULLY REQUEST
THAT YOU DO NOT
REINITIATE CONTACT

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WITH MY CURRENT PLACE
OF RESIDENCE OUT OF RESPECT
FOR ITS INHABITANTS.

156
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SINCERELY,
JESSE SAUL D'AMATO."

157
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I TOOK AN ADDERALL
TO WRITE IT.

158
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I THINK IT CAME OUT
PRETTY WELL.

159
00:09:02,943 --> 00:09:05,212
THANK YOU
FOR READING IT TO ME.

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IT'S, UM...
( clears throat )

161
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IT'S PRETTY FORMAL.

162
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YEAH, BUT I MEAN,
WHY NOT, RIGHT?

163
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I'M SMART AND THEY
SHOULD KNOW THAT.

164
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- DO YOU WANT
THEM TO KNOW THAT?
- IT'S A FACT, RIGHT?

165
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WHAT, YOU DON'T
THINK I'M SMART?

166
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- I DIDN'T SAY THAT, JESSE.
- LOOK, I DON'T REALLY CARE.
I JUST...

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SO YOU DON'T LIKE
THE LETTER?

168
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( thunder rumbles )

169
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WHEN YOU CAME IN TODAY,

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I ASKED YOU HOW
THE PAST WEEK HAD BEEN

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AND YOU SAID
IT WAS WEIRD.

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YEAH, SO?

173
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SO APART FROM
THIS LETTER ARRIVING,

174
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DID ANYTHING ELSE
HAPPEN DURING THE WEEK

175
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THAT WAS WEIRD?

176
00:10:02,302 --> 00:10:03,904
I DON'T KNOW, MAN.

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00:10:04,571 --> 00:10:06,173
MARISA.

178
00:10:07,340 --> 00:10:09,109
MARISA WAS FUCKING WEIRD.

179
00:10:09,209 --> 00:10:11,645
- WHAT DO YOU MEAN?
- WHAT DO YOU THINK I MEAN?

180
00:10:11,745 --> 00:10:14,314
WHAT, SHE TURNED GREEN?
SHE WAS SPEAKING IN TONGUES?

181
00:10:14,414 --> 00:10:15,916
NO, SHE WON'T GET
OUT OF BED, OKAY?

182
00:10:16,016 --> 00:10:17,785
IS THAT WEIRD ENOUGH
FOR YOU?

183
00:10:17,885 --> 00:10:20,788
OKAY, I CAN SEE WHY YOU
WOULD THINK THAT WAS WEIRD.

184
00:10:20,888 --> 00:10:23,256
AND THEN WHEN I ASKED HER
IF EVERYTHING WAS OKAY

185
00:10:23,356 --> 00:10:25,726
SHE JUST TOLD ME
SHE WAS SICK

186
00:10:25,826 --> 00:10:28,762
AND ASKED ME
TO CLOSE THE DOOR.

187
00:10:28,862 --> 00:10:31,264
YOU DON'T THINK
SHE'S SICK THOUGH.

188
00:10:31,364 --> 00:10:33,867
I DON'T KNOW.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S
THE MATTER WITH HER.

189
00:10:35,836 --> 00:10:38,371
AND YOU HAVEN'T SPOKEN AT ALL
ABOUT KAREN'S PHONE CALL?

190
00:10:38,471 --> 00:10:42,209
NO. IT'S LIKE THE WHOLE
CONVERSATION NEVER HAPPENED.

191
00:10:45,278 --> 00:10:47,915
YOU SAID IN THE LETTER
THAT KAREN'S PHONE CALL

192
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CAUSED
"SIGNIFICANT DISTRESS"
TO YOUR PARENTS.

193
00:10:51,618 --> 00:10:54,121
- YUP.
- YOUR PARENTS.

194
00:10:56,790 --> 00:10:58,926
MARISA TOLD ROBERTO.

195
00:11:00,360 --> 00:11:03,797
( huffs )
HE BLEW A GASKET.

196
00:11:03,897 --> 00:11:07,067
HE SAID IT WAS TOTALLY
INAPPROPRIATE

197
00:11:07,167 --> 00:11:08,969
OF THEM TO DO
SOMETHING LIKE THAT.

198
00:11:09,069 --> 00:11:11,138
HE SAID IT WAS
PROBABLY ILLEGAL.

199
00:11:11,238 --> 00:11:13,306
I MEAN, HE SAID HE WAS
GONNA CALL THE COPS.

200
00:11:13,406 --> 00:11:15,175
HE DIDN'T, BUT...

201
00:11:15,275 --> 00:11:18,345
GOD, I HAVE NEVER
SEEN HIM THAT MAD.

202
00:11:18,445 --> 00:11:21,114
HE'S REALLY NOT
AN ANGRY GUY.

203
00:11:21,214 --> 00:11:24,517
I WAS KIDDING ABOUT ALL
THAT STUFF I SAID LAST WEEK.

204
00:11:24,617 --> 00:11:27,020
I MEAN, HE'S ITALIAN,
YOU KNOW,

205
00:11:27,120 --> 00:11:28,889
SO HE OBVIOUSLY
HAS A TEMPER.

206
00:11:28,989 --> 00:11:32,793
BUT IT TAKES A LOT
TO SET HIM OFF.

207
00:11:34,795 --> 00:11:37,130
- I USED TO TRY
WHEN I WAS A KID.
- WHY?

208
00:11:37,230 --> 00:11:40,734
I DON'T KNOW.
JUST TO, LIKE, SEE WHERE
HIS BREAKING POINT WAS.

209
00:11:42,669 --> 00:11:45,806
YOU SAID EARLIER ON
THAT YOU WERE A LOT CLOSER
TO YOUR FATHER

210
00:11:45,906 --> 00:11:47,574
- WHEN YOU WERE YOUNGER.
- YEAH.

211
00:11:47,674 --> 00:11:51,011
AND THAT SOMETHING CHANGED;
THAT HE BECAME MORE DISTANT.

212
00:11:51,111 --> 00:11:52,780
YEAH, BUT I MEAN,
I UNDERSTAND.

213
00:11:52,880 --> 00:11:55,048
HE WAS BUILDING
HIS BUSINESS.

214
00:11:55,148 --> 00:11:57,851
I MEAN, MY GRANDFATHER
WAS DYING.

215
00:11:57,951 --> 00:12:01,554
HE HAD TO START TAKING
MORE JOBS OUT OF TOWN.

216
00:12:01,654 --> 00:12:04,858
SOUNDS LIKE
YOU'VE MISSED HIM.

217
00:12:04,958 --> 00:12:07,094
THIS SUDDEN
DISPLAY OF EMOTION,
HIM GETTING ANGRY

218
00:12:07,194 --> 00:12:08,996
WHEN HE HEARD
ABOUT KAREN'S CALL--

219
00:12:09,096 --> 00:12:11,364
- I MEAN,
THAT MUST HAVE FELT--
- WHAT?

220
00:12:12,465 --> 00:12:15,268
WELL, WHY DON'T YOU
TELL ME?

221
00:12:17,037 --> 00:12:19,472
( thunder rumbling )

222
00:12:25,512 --> 00:12:29,149
IT FELT...
FUCKING AWESOME.

223
00:12:30,450 --> 00:12:31,885
WHY?

224
00:12:31,985 --> 00:12:35,022
BECAUSE HE GAVE
A FUCKING SHIT.

225
00:12:35,122 --> 00:12:37,657
DO YOU THINK IT'S POSSIBLE
THEN THAT HIS REACTION

226
00:12:37,757 --> 00:12:40,193
HAS INFLUENCED YOUR RESPONSE
TO KEVIN'S LETTER?

227
00:12:40,293 --> 00:12:41,694
- NO.
- NO?

228
00:12:41,795 --> 00:12:43,864
WHAT PART OF THAT WORD
DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND?

229
00:12:43,964 --> 00:12:46,133
LOOK, JESSE, YOU REALIZED
THAT KAREN'S PHONE CALL

230
00:12:46,233 --> 00:12:48,101
WAS CAUSING YOUR MOTHER
AND YOUR FATHER PAIN.

231
00:12:48,201 --> 00:12:50,270
SO IT'S UNDERSTANDABLE
IF YOU FELT RESPONSIBLE--

232
00:12:50,370 --> 00:12:51,571
- I DON'T.
- OKAY.

233
00:12:51,671 --> 00:12:54,241
LOOK, THEY RAISED ME.

234
00:12:54,341 --> 00:12:58,078
THEY WIPED MY ASS.
THEY TAUGHT ME TO READ.

235
00:12:58,178 --> 00:13:01,048
I MEAN, THEY CHANGED
MY SHEETS EVERY TIME
I WET THE BED,

236
00:13:01,148 --> 00:13:03,316
WHICH I DID UNTIL
I WAS 10, BY THE WAY.

237
00:13:03,416 --> 00:13:06,253
SO IT IS COMPLETELY
RIDICULOUS FOR THESE PEOPLE--

238
00:13:06,353 --> 00:13:09,456
STRANGERS-- TO THINK
THAT THEY CAN JUST WALTZ
BACK INTO MY LIFE

239
00:13:09,556 --> 00:13:12,059
AFTER THEY GAVE ME UP
FOR DEAD AND HAVE
A RELATIONSHIP WITH ME.

240
00:13:12,159 --> 00:13:14,727
RELATIONSHIPS
HAVE TO BE EARNED.

241
00:13:14,828 --> 00:13:16,830
- THAT IS TRUE.
- I KNOW.

242
00:13:20,233 --> 00:13:22,903
- GAVE YOU UP FOR DEAD?
- ( scoffs )

243
00:13:23,003 --> 00:13:24,972
IT'S A FIGURE
OF FUCKING SPEECH.

244
00:13:25,072 --> 00:13:27,040
IS IT YOUR
FIGURE OF SPEECH?

245
00:13:29,209 --> 00:13:33,146
DO YOU FEEL THAT YOU
WERE DIFFICULT TO RAISE?

246
00:13:33,246 --> 00:13:35,849
- ( laughs )
COME ON, MAN.
- IS THAT A YES?

247
00:13:35,949 --> 00:13:37,918
I HAVE A.D.D.
AND I'M A SLUT.

248
00:13:38,018 --> 00:13:40,320
WOULD YOU HAVE WANTED
A KID LIKE ME?

249
00:13:40,854 --> 00:13:42,255
YES.

250
00:13:49,562 --> 00:13:51,965
WELL...

251
00:13:52,065 --> 00:13:53,901
GIVE YOUR SON
ANOTHER YEAR OR TWO

252
00:13:54,001 --> 00:13:55,903
AND MAYBE
YOU'LL GET YOUR WISH.

253
00:14:02,442 --> 00:14:06,146
SO HOW DID YOUR FATHER
REACT TO KEVIN'S LETTER?

254
00:14:08,781 --> 00:14:10,517
JESSE?

255
00:14:12,920 --> 00:14:14,254
HE DIDN'T.

256
00:14:14,354 --> 00:14:17,590
- HE DIDN'T HAVE ANY REACTION?
- NO. I DIDN'T TELL HIM.

257
00:14:17,690 --> 00:14:21,094
- WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL HIM?
- I JUST DIDN'T FEEL LIKE IT.

258
00:14:21,194 --> 00:14:24,297
I MEAN, HE GOT SO ANGRY
ABOUT KAREN'S PHONE CALL.

259
00:14:28,201 --> 00:14:31,304
I MEAN, IT'S NOT REALLY
ANY OF HIS BUSINESS ANYWAY.

260
00:14:38,011 --> 00:14:39,846
WHAT IS IT, JESSE?

261
00:14:39,947 --> 00:14:41,481
NOTHING.

262
00:14:49,056 --> 00:14:50,823
WHY ARE YOU
SHAKING YOUR HEAD?

263
00:14:50,924 --> 00:14:52,392
I DON'T KNOW.

264
00:14:52,492 --> 00:14:55,228
YOU MUST BE FEELING

265
00:14:55,328 --> 00:14:58,631
AN INCREDIBLE AMOUNT
OF PRESSURE RIGHT NOW.

266
00:15:01,634 --> 00:15:03,170
HOW IS THE STATIC?

267
00:15:03,270 --> 00:15:06,006
IT'S FUCKING LOUD, MAN.

268
00:15:18,251 --> 00:15:21,154
I THINK HE'S
LEFT-HANDED LIKE ME.

269
00:15:21,621 --> 00:15:23,056
KEVIN?

270
00:15:24,657 --> 00:15:26,059
YEAH.

271
00:15:27,995 --> 00:15:30,930
THERE'S SMUDGE MARKS
ON HIS LETTER,

272
00:15:31,031 --> 00:15:33,500
LIKE WHAT HAPPENS TO ME
WHEN I WRITE.

273
00:15:37,971 --> 00:15:39,506
LOOK.

274
00:15:47,280 --> 00:15:49,016
AND, UM...

275
00:15:51,484 --> 00:15:52,986
HERE'S MINE.

276
00:16:01,461 --> 00:16:02,962
FUCK.

277
00:16:08,768 --> 00:16:10,537
THEY DO--

278
00:16:10,637 --> 00:16:13,140
THEY DO KIND OF
LOOK ALIKE.

279
00:16:14,341 --> 00:16:16,309
FUCK!

280
00:16:18,711 --> 00:16:21,481
WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO
WITH THAT INFORMATION?

281
00:16:24,617 --> 00:16:26,419
OH, LET ME GUESS.
YOU WANT ME TO TELL YOU.

282
00:16:26,519 --> 00:16:29,356
YES, I WOULD.
IT'S A UNIQUE
EXPERIENCE, JESSE.

283
00:16:29,456 --> 00:16:31,624
NOT MANY PEOPLE HAVE
GONE THROUGH THIS.

284
00:16:31,724 --> 00:16:33,093
I WANT TO KNOW
HOW IT FEELS.

285
00:16:33,193 --> 00:16:35,362
SO YES, I WOULD LIKE
YOU TO TELL ME.

286
00:16:51,278 --> 00:16:54,647
DO YOU THINK HE LOOKS,
LIKE, EXACTLY LIKE ME?

287
00:16:54,747 --> 00:16:57,117
NO.

288
00:16:57,217 --> 00:16:59,619
BUT HE'S PROBABLY PRETTY
SIMILAR LOOKING, RIGHT?

289
00:16:59,719 --> 00:17:02,655
MAYBE YOU LOOK
MORE LIKE KAREN.

290
00:17:03,623 --> 00:17:05,092
KAREN.

291
00:17:07,427 --> 00:17:08,761
JESUS.

292
00:17:13,133 --> 00:17:15,568
I THINK THERE'S A PART OF YOU
THAT'S STILL INTERESTED

293
00:17:15,668 --> 00:17:18,771
IN A PRIVATE RELATIONSHIP
WITH KEVIN AND KAREN

294
00:17:18,871 --> 00:17:20,540
INDEPENDENT
OF YOUR PARENTS.

295
00:17:20,640 --> 00:17:23,343
- I THINK THAT WORRIES YOU.
- WHY WOULD IT WORRY ME?

296
00:17:23,443 --> 00:17:25,878
BECAUSE I JUST THINK
THAT EVER SINCE YOUR FATHER

297
00:17:25,978 --> 00:17:28,181
FOUND OUT ABOUT KAREN'S
PHONE CALL HE'S BEEN

298
00:17:28,281 --> 00:17:30,783
PAYING MUCH MORE ATTENTION
TO YOU.

299
00:17:30,883 --> 00:17:32,885
HE GOT ANGRY,

300
00:17:32,985 --> 00:17:35,955
BUT HIS ANGER SEEMS
TO HAVE COMFORTED YOU.

301
00:17:36,055 --> 00:17:39,292
IT SEEMS THAT THIS REACTION
IS WHAT YOU'VE BEEN LOOKING
FOR SINCE YOU WERE A KID.

302
00:17:39,392 --> 00:17:42,162
BECAUSE TO YOU
IT'S A SIGN THAT HE CARES.

303
00:17:42,262 --> 00:17:45,565
AND IT MIGHT SEEM RIGHT NOW
THAT THE WAY TO GAIN

304
00:17:45,665 --> 00:17:49,336
AND KEEP HIS LOVE IS TO JUST
REJECT KEVIN AND KAREN.

305
00:17:49,436 --> 00:17:52,038
AND THE WAY TO LOSE
HIS LOVE PERHAPS

306
00:17:52,139 --> 00:17:54,707
IS TO REACH OUT TO THEM.

307
00:17:56,843 --> 00:17:59,246
YOU KNOW THAT LITTLE
THEORY YOU HAD LAST WEEK?

308
00:17:59,346 --> 00:18:01,748
THE ONE WHERE MARISA
GAVE UP ON CATHOLICISM

309
00:18:01,848 --> 00:18:04,884
BECAUSE THE CHURCH DIDN'T
SUPPORT MY SEXUAL IDENTITY?

310
00:18:04,984 --> 00:18:06,553
- MM-HMM.
- IT'S HORSESHIT.

311
00:18:06,653 --> 00:18:09,822
YEAH, I WENT
INTO HER ROOM TODAY

312
00:18:09,922 --> 00:18:11,958
TO SEE IF SHE
NEEDED ANYTHING

313
00:18:12,058 --> 00:18:14,861
BECAUSE SHE HASN'T
LEFT THE BED IN A WEEK.

314
00:18:14,961 --> 00:18:19,031
SHE WASN'T IN THERE
BUT THE CLOSET DOOR
WAS A LITTLE OPEN.

315
00:18:19,132 --> 00:18:22,101
AND SHE WAS IN THERE

316
00:18:22,202 --> 00:18:25,972
ON HER KNEES PRAYING.

317
00:18:26,072 --> 00:18:27,674
( chuckles )
GOD.

318
00:18:27,774 --> 00:18:30,042
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?

319
00:18:30,143 --> 00:18:32,612
IN THE FUCKING CLOSET.

320
00:18:33,946 --> 00:18:36,115
I COME OUT
AND SHE GOES IN.

321
00:18:36,216 --> 00:18:37,717
WHY DO YOU THINK
SHE'S DOING THAT?

322
00:18:37,817 --> 00:18:39,886
I GUESS SHE DOESN'T
WANT ME TO INTERRUPT

323
00:18:39,986 --> 00:18:41,721
HER LITTLE TETE-A-TETE
WITH JESUS.

324
00:18:41,821 --> 00:18:43,756
I THINK YOUR MOTHER IS
REALLY SCARED RIGHT NOW.

325
00:18:43,856 --> 00:18:47,327
- WHAT THE HELL DOES SHE
HAVE TO BE SCARED OF?
- LOSING YOU.

326
00:18:47,427 --> 00:18:49,529
MAYBE SHE FEELS
YOU'RE SLIPPING AWAY FROM HER.

327
00:18:49,629 --> 00:18:52,899
AND IT'S POSSIBLE
THAT SHE MIGHT BE
TURNING TO RELIGION,

328
00:18:52,999 --> 00:18:56,236
TO HER RELATIONSHIP
WITH GOD,

329
00:18:56,336 --> 00:18:58,905
BECAUSE THAT PROVIDES HER
WITH SOME KIND OF COMFORT

330
00:18:59,005 --> 00:19:00,473
AND A SENSE OF CONTROL.

331
00:19:00,573 --> 00:19:02,809
SHE DOESN'T WANT YOU
TO SEE HER PRAYING

332
00:19:02,909 --> 00:19:06,179
BECAUSE SHE'S AFRAID
YOU'LL THINK SHE'S CHOOSING

333
00:19:06,279 --> 00:19:08,681
THE CHURCH OVER YOU.

334
00:19:08,781 --> 00:19:11,384
( thunder rumbles )

335
00:19:14,854 --> 00:19:17,657
I CAN'T BELIEVE
THEY MARRIED EACH OTHER.

336
00:19:19,692 --> 00:19:21,127
YEAH.

337
00:19:21,228 --> 00:19:24,264
I CAN'T BELIEVE I HAVE
A WHOLE OTHER SET

338
00:19:24,364 --> 00:19:26,499
OF PARENTS OUT THERE
SOMEWHERE.

339
00:19:28,167 --> 00:19:30,637
WHAT DO YOU THINK
THEIR HOUSE IS LIKE?

340
00:19:30,737 --> 00:19:32,472
I DON'T KNOW.

341
00:19:35,242 --> 00:19:37,277
ANYWAY, I THINK
THAT WE SHOULD--

342
00:19:37,377 --> 00:19:39,312
WE SHOULD TALK ABOUT IT
NEXT WEEK.

343
00:19:39,412 --> 00:19:43,516
LET'S BOTH THINK ABOUT
HOW YOU WANT TO RESPOND

344
00:19:43,616 --> 00:19:46,052
TO YOUR
BIRTH PARENT'S LETTER,

345
00:19:46,152 --> 00:19:48,688
IF THAT'S WHAT
YOU DECIDE TO DO.

346
00:19:50,089 --> 00:19:51,824
OKAY.

347
00:20:02,302 --> 00:20:04,571
YOU KNOW,

348
00:20:04,671 --> 00:20:07,740
I KIND OF FEEL LIKE IT'S ALL
GONNA BE OKAY FOR SOME REASON.

349
00:20:08,841 --> 00:20:10,577
I DON'T KNOW WHY.

350
00:20:10,677 --> 00:20:11,944
GOOD.

351
00:20:16,483 --> 00:20:19,919
OH WAIT--
YOUR LETTERS.

352
00:20:20,019 --> 00:20:22,655
UM, WILL YOU KEEP
THEM FOR ME?

353
00:20:25,592 --> 00:20:28,895
SOMETIMES MARISA
GOES THROUGH MY BAG.

354
00:20:31,097 --> 00:20:32,532
OKAY.

355
00:20:32,965 --> 00:20:34,734
THANKS.

356
00:20:55,021 --> 00:20:57,857
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