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( clears throat )

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IS THIS NORMAL?

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WHAT?

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FOR IT TO BE SO HARD
TO GET STARTED,

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YOU KNOW,
TO SIT HERE FOR SO LONG
AND NOT SAY ANYTHING?

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IT'S ACTUALLY ONLY BEEN
A MINUTE OR TWO,

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BUT YEAH,
IT'S QUITE COMMON.

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IF I DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING
FOR THE WHOLE HOUR,

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WOULD YOU SAY SOMETHING
EVENTUALLY

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OR WOULD YOU
JUST SIT THERE?

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45 MINUTES LATER--

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"IT'S TIME.
WE'LL PICK UP HERE
NEXT WEEK."

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EVENTUALLY I WOULD
SAY SOMETHING, YEAH,

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BUT THE SILENCES
ARE INSTRUCTIVE.

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HOW LONG
BEFORE YOU INTERVENE?
WHAT'S THE RECORD?

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WHAT'S THE LONGEST
SILENCE BY A PATIENT?

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20-25 MINUTES.

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YEAH?

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- WHO BLINKED FIRST?
- I DID.

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FINALLY I SAID,
"WHAT ARE YOU THINKING ABOUT?"

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AND SHE SAID,
"I'VE JUST BEEN SITTING HERE

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WONDERING WHEN YOU WERE
GONNA SAY SOMETHING."

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SO WHAT ARE YOU
THINKING ABOUT?

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( theme music playing )

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SO LAST WEEK
AS YOU WERE LEAVING

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YOU SAID THAT YOU'D GOTTEN
THE RESULTS OF YOUR TEST,

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BUT YOU HADN'T
LOOKED AT THEM YET.

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I'M NOT READY TO TALK
ABOUT THAT YET.

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HOW COME?

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DID YOU LOOK
AT THE RESULTS?

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IZZY--

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I'M SITTING HERE
THINKING ABOUT IZZY.

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YOU'VE HEARD FROM HER?

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ONLY WHEN
SHE WANTS SOMETHING.

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LAST WEEK I GOT
AN EMAIL, A TEXT,

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THREE MESSAGES
ON MY VOICEMAIL.

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IT'S MORE COMMUNICATION
THAN I'VE HAD FROM HER
IN MONTHS.

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SHE WANTED
TO DOWNLOAD SOME MUSIC
AND NEEDED MY PASSWORD.

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WELL, MAYBE THAT WAS HER WAY
OF BREAKING THE ICE.

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OH, BY WHINING
AND BEGGING,

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ISSUING DEMANDS?

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YOU SOUND LIKE YOU'RE
KIND OF ANGRY WITH HER.

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MAYBE IT'S TIME
FOR YOU TO SEE HER.

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I DID.

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WHEN?

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THIS WEEK.

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I HAD HER SCARF,
REMEMBER?

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OH YES, THE ONE THAT
YOU TOOK FROM TRICIA'S.

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AND SOME OTHER THINGS.
I HAD A T-SHIRT
THAT SHE LOVED

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AND SOME PAPERBACKS.
I STUFFED THEM ALL
IN A BACKPACK

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AND I WENT
DOWN TO HER SCHOOL
AND AMBUSHED HER.

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AMBUSHED HER?

53
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WELL, IF I'D TOLD HER
I WAS COMING,

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SHE NEVER WOULD HAVE
STAYED PUT.

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ANYWAY,
SHE WAS OUT FRONT,

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CHATTING WITH SOME FRIENDS
ON THE STEPS.

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SHE LOOKED
VERY GROWN-UP,

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CHIC,

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FULL OF LIFE.

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I JUST STOOD THERE
AND WATCHED HER
FOR A FEW MINUTES.

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AND WHAT WAS
THAT LIKE?

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IT WAS
SORT OF SURREAL.

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IT WAS LIKE
LOOKING INTO THE FUTURE.

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WHO IS
THIS YOUNG WOMAN?

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I MEAN,
WHERE'D SHE COME FROM?

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I DON'T KNOW.
SHE--

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SHE LOOKED SORT OF CONFUSED
WHEN SHE SAW ME, SURPRISED.

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HER FRIENDS
WERE GAWKING.

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AND THEN THIS CONFIDENT
YOUNG WOMAN

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JUST EVAPORATED
IN FRONT OF MY EYES

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AND SHE WENT BACK
TO BEING THIS SULLEN,
OBNOXIOUS LITTLE--

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WELL, THEY'RE GROWN-UPS
AROUND THEIR FRIENDS.

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BUT THEY'RE-- THEY'RE
STILL CHILDREN WITH US.

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DID YOU SPEAK TO HER?

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SHE ALWAYS
LICKS HER LIPS

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WHEN SHE GETS
NERVOUS, YOU KNOW?
IT'S COMPULSIVE.

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SHE DID IT ALL THE TIME
WHEN SHE WAS A CHILD.

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SHE USED TO HAVE THIS
RED RING OF IRRITATION
AROUND HER MOUTH.

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SHE STARTED
DOING THAT WHEN SHE WAS
TALKING TO ME.

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I SAID,
"HONEY, DON'T DO THAT,"

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AND I OFFERED HER
SOME CHAPSTICK.

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YOU WOULD HAVE THOUGHT
THAT I TRIED

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TO SCALD HER
WITH A HOT POKER.

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I MEAN, SHE JUST FLED.

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AND DID THAT HURT YOU?

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OH NO.

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I'M USED TO
STUFF LIKE THAT.
THAT DIDN'T HURT ME.

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WHAT SHE DID AFTER
HURT ME.

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WHAT DID SHE DO?

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SHE TEXTED ME.

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"THANKS FOR BRINGING
THE SCARF.

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YOU SHOULD CALL TRISH.
SHE'S REALLY SICK NOW.

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SHE LOOKS
LIKE A SKELETON."

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IT'S ALWAYS
ABOUT TRISH.

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YOU KNOW, I HAVEN'T SEEN
MY DAUGHTER FOR MONTHS--

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I MEAN, NOT REALLY,
NOT IN ANY MEANINGFUL WAY.

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SHE'S BEEN SPENDING
EVERY WAKING MINUTE
WITH MY SISTER.

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I FINALLY
REACH OUT TO HER.
I SEE HER ONCE,

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AND WHAT DOES SHE DO?
SHE TEXTS ME ABOUT TRISH.

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HOW DID YOU FEEL
WHEN YOU HEARD

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THAT PATRICIA LOOKED
LIKE A SKELETON?

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WELL, HOW DO YOU THINK
I FELT?

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I DON'T KNOW.
I'M FINDING IT KIND OF HARD
TO READ YOUR REACTION,

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BUT I IMAGINE
THAT IT MUST HAVE BEEN
HARD TO HEAR.

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IT WAS VERY HARD.
I COULDN'T EVEN TAKE IT IN.

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I JUST TEXTED IZZY BACK
AND SAID,

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YOU KNOW, "GREAT
SEEING YOU, DARLING."

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AND "I'LL CALL TRISH
AFTER THE SHOW."

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AND DID YOU?

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WHY?
YOU AGREE WITH IZZY?

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YOU THINK I SHOULD
CALL MY SISTER?

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YES, I DO.

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I THINK THAT YOU SHOULD
CALL YOUR SISTER.

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WELL, I WENT OUT
AND GOT LAID INSTEAD.

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I KNOW, I KNOW
YOU'RE JUDGING ME,

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BUT I DON'T CARE.

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I HAVEN'T BEEN WITH ANYONE
SINCE RUSSELL.

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25 AND VERY HANDSOME.

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NO BODY FAT-- NONE.

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ACTUALLY I WAS
A LITTLE WORRIED.
I THOUGHT,

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"I WONDER IF HE GETS
COLD IN THE WINTER."

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PART OF ME WANTED
TO FUCK HIM,

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PART OF ME WANTED TO TAKE
HIM HOME AND WRAP HIM
IN A BLANKET

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AND GIVE HIM
A GREAT BIG MEAL.

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IT WAS THAT
MATERNAL-EROTIC THING

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YOU WERE
TALKING ABOUT.

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SO THIS MAN THAT YOU--

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OH, HE'S IN THE CAST--
EDDIE, EDUARDO.

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WELL, YOU KNOW
THE SCRIPT, RIGHT?

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HE IS ONE OF MAXINE'S
HOUSEBOYS.

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AFTER THE PREVIEW
I WENT OUT FOR A QUICK
DRINK WITH THE CAST.

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AND I WAS GONNA CALL
TRICIA AFTERWARDS,
WHEN I GOT HOME.

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I KNEW SHE'D BE UP.
SHE SLEEPS DURING THE DAY

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AND THEN SHE'S UP AT NIGHT--
YOU KNOW, THE MORPHINE.

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YOU HAVEN'T DONE THAT BEFORE,
HAVE YOU-- GONE OUT
WITH THE CAST?

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WELL, THEY'VE BEEN
BUGGING ME.

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I'VE JUST BEEN
AVOIDING IT.

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( sighs )

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HE KEPT BUYING ME
MARTINIS.

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I'M A LIGHTWEIGHT.
I ONLY NEED ONE DRINK.

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BUT HALFWAY
THROUGH THE THIRD
I ASKED HIM TO SHOW ME

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WHERE HE LIVED,
JUST LIKE THAT.

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WASN'T THAT
BOLD OF ME?

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DO YOU THINK
IT WAS THE ALCOHOL
THAT MADE YOU BOLD?

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DIDN'T HURT.

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TWO YEARS.

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I KEPT TELLING MYSELF,
"DON'T WORRY, FRANCES,

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IT'S LIKE RIDING
A BICYCLE."

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AND WAS IT?

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HE TOOK OFF MY SHIRT
AND TOUCHED ME,

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AND I THOUGHT I WAS
GONNA LOSE IT.

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I MEAN,
HE LOVED MY BREASTS.

153
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YOU SOUND SURPRISED.

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I'M NOT 25 OR SYNTHETIC,
IF YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN.

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AND HE JUST KEPT
KISSING THEM

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AND TOUCHING THEM.

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WELL, I FORGOT
HOW SENSITIVE THEY ARE.

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ARE YOU SHOCKED?

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NO.

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OH PLEASE.

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ARE YOU TRYING
TO SHOCK ME?

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NO, I JUST KNOW
HOW SQUEAMISH YOU ARE.

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WHAT ABOUT MY BEHAVIOR
WOULD MAKE YOU THINK
I'M SQUEAMISH?

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WELL, YOUR WHOLE LIFE
SEEMS SQUEAMISH TO ME.

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I MEAN, NO WONDER
TRISH LOVED YOU SO MUCH.

166
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SHE ALWAYS HAD A THING
FOR REPRESSED MEN.

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I'M-- I'M STRUCK
BY THE FACT

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THAT YOU WENT OUT

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AND THAT YOU HAD SEX

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FOR THE FIRST TIME
IN TWO YEARS

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WHEN YOU WERE CONFRONTED
BY THE VERY REAL IMAGE

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OF YOUR SISTER
BEING SICK--

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VERY SICK.

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WHAT'S THE CONNECTION
BETWEEN THE TWO EVENTS?

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I WANTED TO FEEL GOOD
INSTEAD OF BAD.

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DO YOU THINK THERE
MIGHT BE ANYTHING ELSE?

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NO, BUT CLEARLY
YOU DO.

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SO WHY DON'T YOU JUST
TELL ME WHAT IT IS?

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WELL, LET ME
ASK YOU SOMETHING:

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HAD YOU OPENED
YOUR TEST RESULTS
BY THAT NIGHT?

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NO.

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HAVE YOU
OPENED THEM SINCE?

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THE FIRST THING
THAT YOU MENTIONED

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ABOUT HAVING SEX
WITH THIS MAN

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WAS HOW GOOD HE MADE
YOUR BREASTS FEEL.

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I KNOW THAT
YOU'VE TALKED ABOUT

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NOT BEING ABLE TO IMAGINE
HAVING MASTECTOMIES

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IF THE TEST
PROVED POSITIVE.

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DO YOU THINK YOU MIGHT
HAVE BEEN LOOKING

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TO SHIELD YOURSELF,
TO ARM YOURSELF

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WITH REASONS
NOT TO HAVE THE OPERATION,

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TO BE REMINDED
THAT YOUR BREASTS

193
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ARE SENSUAL

194
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AND THAT
YOU CANNOT IMAGINE

195
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EVER LOSING THEM?

196
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I THOUGHT ABOUT
READING THE RESULTS

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AFTER SLEEPING
WITH EDDIE.

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I THOUGHT, YOU KNOW,
TIME TO FACE REALITY.

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I LEFT THERE
AT 3:00 A.M.

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I JUST-- I COULDN'T
STAY ANY LONGER.

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WHY NOT?

202
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I WAS JUST LYING AWAKE,
STARING AT HIM.

203
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HE WAS TANGLED
IN THE SHEETS.

204
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HE LOOKED
SO IMPOSSIBLY YOUNG.

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SO HOW DID YOU FEEL
WHEN YOU WENT HOME?

206
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YOU TOLD ME BEFORE

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THAT YOUR HOUSE
FELT EMPTY.

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NO, I WAS RELIEVED.

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IT WAS GOOD TO BE ALONE
AFTER ALL THAT INTIMACY.

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I GOT HOME.
I PUT ON SOME
LUCINDA WILLIAMS.

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THAT SEEMED APPROPRIATE,
YOU KNOW.

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SHE'S ALL ABOUT
HEARTBREAK AND LONGING.

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AND I SMOKED
A LITTLE POT.

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AND I SAT THERE
STARING AT THE ENVELOPE.

215
00:10:02,335 --> 00:10:04,137
SO DID YOU OPEN IT?

216
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I COULDN'T.
I MEAN,

217
00:10:06,573 --> 00:10:08,809
"I'LL OPEN THIS ENVELOPE,"
I THOUGHT,

218
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"AND I'LL FIND OUT
I'M GONNA BE DEAD
IN FIVE YEARS,

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AND THEN WHAT?
WHO AM I GONNA CALL

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TO HELP ME
THROUGH THIS?"

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SO I JUST SAT THERE
STARING AT IT.

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AND THEN THE POT
EVENTUALLY MADE ME SLEEPY.

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I WENT TO BED.

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SO WHO DO YOU THINK OF
WHEN YOU SAY

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THAT YOU WANT SOMEBODY
TO GET YOU THROUGH THIS?

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I DON'T KNOW.
I MEAN, TRICIA'S GOT

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00:10:30,831 --> 00:10:32,666
ALL THESE PEOPLE
GETTING HER THROUGH IT.

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00:10:32,766 --> 00:10:34,702
I MEAN, SHE'S GOT
MY DAUGHTER, RIGHT?

229
00:10:34,802 --> 00:10:36,737
SHE'S GOT
AN ARMY OF GIRLFRIENDS
ON TOP OF THAT.

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00:10:36,837 --> 00:10:38,538
SHE'S PROBABLY GOT
RUSSELL, YOU KNOW,

231
00:10:38,638 --> 00:10:40,874
DELIVERING MEALS
OR SOMETHING.

232
00:10:40,974 --> 00:10:43,076
HE ALWAYS WISHED
THAT I COULD BE
MORE LIKE HER.

233
00:10:43,176 --> 00:10:45,245
WHY DO YOU SAY THAT?

234
00:10:45,345 --> 00:10:47,781
OH, JUST THE WAY
THEY'D LOOK AT EACH OTHER

235
00:10:47,881 --> 00:10:50,583
WHEN SHE'D COME OVER
FOR DINNER-- I KNEW.

236
00:10:50,684 --> 00:10:52,419
ARE YOU SAYING THAT
THEY LOOKED AT EACH OTHER

237
00:10:52,519 --> 00:10:54,621
IN, WHAT, A SEXUAL WAY?

238
00:10:54,722 --> 00:10:56,423
NO, RUSSELL WOULD NEVER
HAVE SLEPT WITH HER.

239
00:10:56,523 --> 00:10:58,391
SHE WASN'T
BEAUTIFUL ENOUGH.

240
00:10:58,491 --> 00:11:01,561
SHE SET US UP
BECAUSE SHE WANTED
TO KEEP HIM IN HER LIFE.

241
00:11:01,661 --> 00:11:05,065
ARE YOU SUGGESTING
THAT TRICIA USED YOU
TO STAY CLOSE TO RUSSELL

242
00:11:05,165 --> 00:11:07,835
FOR SOME KIND OF
EMOTIONAL AFFAIR?

243
00:11:07,935 --> 00:11:09,602
YOU THINK SHE'S
SO PERFECT, YOU KNOW.

244
00:11:09,703 --> 00:11:12,272
TRICIA HAS EVERYBODY
CONVINCED SHE'S SOME KIND
OF A SAINT.

245
00:11:12,372 --> 00:11:13,941
EXCEPT YOU?

246
00:11:14,975 --> 00:11:17,044
YOU DON'T SEE HER
LIKE THAT?

247
00:11:21,681 --> 00:11:24,251
GUESS WHO ELSE
HAD SEX THIS WEEKEND.

248
00:11:24,351 --> 00:11:25,986
IZZY AND MILLER.

249
00:11:27,855 --> 00:11:29,022
HOW DO YOU KNOW THAT?

250
00:11:29,122 --> 00:11:31,558
IZZY EMAILED TRISH.
YEAH, SHE WROTE,

251
00:11:31,658 --> 00:11:33,426
"I'M GLAD WE GOT THAT
OVER WITH.

252
00:11:33,526 --> 00:11:35,763
IT WASN'T AS BAD
AS I IMAGINED
IT WOULD BE."

253
00:11:37,197 --> 00:11:39,733
WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN
TO THAT GIRL?

254
00:11:41,001 --> 00:11:42,903
FIRST HER GRANDMOTHER,
THEN HER AUNT,

255
00:11:43,003 --> 00:11:45,605
QUITE POSSIBLY HER MOM.

256
00:11:45,705 --> 00:11:47,741
SHE'S GONNA FEEL DOOMED.

257
00:11:47,841 --> 00:11:50,010
DOOMED TO LOSE
HER MOTHER?

258
00:11:50,110 --> 00:11:52,379
TRICIA'S FAVORITE
STATISTIC--

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00:11:52,479 --> 00:11:55,816
87% CHANCE THAT
YOU'LL GET BREAST CANCER

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00:11:55,916 --> 00:11:58,718
IF YOU TEST POSITIVE
FOR THE GENE.

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00:11:58,819 --> 00:12:00,220
THAT'S MY FATE.

262
00:12:00,320 --> 00:12:02,923
BUT THAT DOESN'T HAVE
TO BE YOUR FATE.

263
00:12:03,023 --> 00:12:06,293
IZZY DOESN'T HAVE TO BE
DOOMED TO LOSE HER MOTHER.

264
00:12:10,163 --> 00:12:13,834
SO YOU STILL FEEL,
IF THE TEST IS POSITIVE,

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00:12:13,934 --> 00:12:16,103
THAT YOU'D RATHER
DEVELOP CANCER

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00:12:16,203 --> 00:12:19,006
THAN HAVE YOUR
BREASTS REMOVED?

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00:12:19,106 --> 00:12:20,073
YES.

268
00:12:20,173 --> 00:12:22,109
AND WHAT IF YOU DO
DEVELOP CANCER?

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00:12:22,209 --> 00:12:23,877
WHAT THEN?

270
00:12:26,546 --> 00:12:27,848
TRISH WAS A FOOL--

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00:12:27,948 --> 00:12:30,283
A DOUBLE MASTECTOMY
FOR WHAT?

272
00:12:30,383 --> 00:12:32,920
I'M GUESSING SHE THOUGHT
IT MIGHT SAVE HER LIFE.

273
00:12:33,020 --> 00:12:34,421
YEAH WELL, IT DIDN'T.

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00:12:34,521 --> 00:12:37,524
SHE SPENT THE LAST YEAR
OF HER LIFE LOOKING LIKE--

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00:12:37,624 --> 00:12:39,526
MY MOTHER KNEW BETTER.

276
00:12:39,626 --> 00:12:41,995
SHE REFUSED, YOU KNOW.

277
00:12:42,095 --> 00:12:45,032
WHEN THEY FOUND
THE TUMOR, SHE HAD
A LUMPECTOMY FINALLY,

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00:12:45,132 --> 00:12:47,100
BUT SHE DID NOT
LET THE DOCTORS
TAKE HER BREASTS.

279
00:12:47,200 --> 00:12:49,002
AND YOU UNDERSTOOD
HER DECISION.

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00:12:49,102 --> 00:12:50,203
I DID.

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00:12:50,303 --> 00:12:52,239
I THINK TRICIA HAD
THOSE OPERATIONS

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00:12:52,339 --> 00:12:54,607
JUST TO SPITE MAMA,

283
00:12:54,707 --> 00:12:56,977
YOU KNOW, TO REJECT
HER VANITY.

284
00:12:57,077 --> 00:13:00,147
AND BY EXTENSION
REJECT YOURS,

285
00:13:00,247 --> 00:13:02,382
JUST LIKE IZZY
REJECTS YOU...

286
00:13:03,350 --> 00:13:04,484
YES.

287
00:13:04,584 --> 00:13:07,254
...SHAVING HER HEAD
IN SOLIDARITY WITH
YOUR SISTER.

288
00:13:09,622 --> 00:13:11,324
YOU TALKED
ABOUT HAVING NO ONE

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00:13:11,424 --> 00:13:16,063
TO GET YOU THROUGH
OPENING YOUR TEST RESULTS.

290
00:13:16,163 --> 00:13:18,866
DO YOU REALLY FEEL
THAT IF YOU ASKED IZZY

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00:13:18,966 --> 00:13:20,567
THAT SHE WOULD SAY NO?

292
00:13:33,113 --> 00:13:35,916
WOULD YOU PLEASE
READ THIS?

293
00:13:39,586 --> 00:13:41,421
THESE ARE
YOUR TEST RESULTS?

294
00:13:42,589 --> 00:13:44,591
YES.

295
00:13:44,691 --> 00:13:47,127
- ARE YOU SURE THAT YOU--?
- YES.

296
00:13:52,832 --> 00:13:55,969
YOU KNOW, I'M HAPPY
TO BE HERE FOR YOU.

297
00:13:56,069 --> 00:13:58,205
I'M HAPPY TO DO THIS
WITH YOU.

298
00:13:58,305 --> 00:14:02,009
BUT I THINK THAT YOU
SHOULD OPEN THE LETTER.

299
00:14:02,109 --> 00:14:03,176
NO.

300
00:14:03,276 --> 00:14:05,045
YOU DON'T HAVE TO TELL ME
WHAT IT SAYS.

301
00:14:05,145 --> 00:14:06,980
- JUST OPEN IT, OKAY?
- MAYBE WE SHOULD JUST--

302
00:14:07,080 --> 00:14:09,249
WHAT, TALK ABOUT WHY I
WANT YOU TO DO THIS, PAUL?

303
00:14:09,349 --> 00:14:12,619
JUST DO IT, PLEASE.
WE CAN TALK ABOUT IT
AFTERWARDS.

304
00:14:57,998 --> 00:15:00,000
WHAT DOES IT SAY?

305
00:15:04,437 --> 00:15:06,039
READ IT, FRANCES.

306
00:15:06,739 --> 00:15:08,241
PLEASE.

307
00:15:22,589 --> 00:15:24,257
IT'S NEGATIVE.

308
00:15:25,392 --> 00:15:26,659
IS IT NEGATIVE?

309
00:15:26,759 --> 00:15:28,528
AM I READING IT RIGHT, PAUL?
IS THIS--?

310
00:15:29,562 --> 00:15:30,897
THAT'S WHAT IT SAYS.

311
00:15:30,998 --> 00:15:32,532
OH MY GOD.

312
00:15:32,632 --> 00:15:35,969
I'M VERY RELIEVED.

313
00:15:36,069 --> 00:15:37,304
THANK YOU.
THANK YOU.

314
00:15:37,404 --> 00:15:40,940
YES, IT MUST BE
A HUGE WEIGHT LIFTED.

315
00:15:42,275 --> 00:15:44,244
- THIS MEANS IZZY TOO.
- DOES IT?

316
00:15:44,344 --> 00:15:47,580
THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN
HER INHERITANCE-- CANCER.

317
00:15:51,751 --> 00:15:55,055
IT'S UNBELIEVABLE REALLY.
ISN'T THIS UNBELIEVABLE?

318
00:15:55,155 --> 00:15:58,758
YES, IT'S--
IT'S GREAT NEWS, YES.

319
00:15:58,858 --> 00:16:01,194
AND NOT ONLY
ARE YOU NOW FREED

320
00:16:01,294 --> 00:16:03,030
FROM THIS AWFUL WORRY
ABOUT IZZY,

321
00:16:03,130 --> 00:16:05,365
ABOUT YOUR OWN HEALTH,

322
00:16:05,465 --> 00:16:08,568
BUT YOU CAN NOW
GO SEE YOUR SISTER.

323
00:16:10,337 --> 00:16:12,205
WHAT IS THAT
SUPPOSED TO MEAN?

324
00:16:12,305 --> 00:16:14,407
YOU NO LONGER
HAVE TO FEAR

325
00:16:14,507 --> 00:16:17,677
THAT SHE'LL TORMENT YOU
ABOUT HAVING THAT PROCEDURE.

326
00:16:17,777 --> 00:16:20,480
NO NO, I CAN'T SEE
MY SISTER.

327
00:16:20,580 --> 00:16:21,781
WHY NOT?

328
00:16:21,881 --> 00:16:23,383
I'M NOT GOING
TO SEE MY SISTER

329
00:16:23,483 --> 00:16:25,218
BECAUSE SHE'LL ASK
ABOUT THIS.

330
00:16:25,318 --> 00:16:27,187
SHE'LL ASK
ABOUT THE RESULTS.

331
00:16:27,287 --> 00:16:29,322
AND I'LL HAVE TO
TELL HER THE TRUTH.
I CAN'T LIE TO TRICIA.

332
00:16:29,422 --> 00:16:31,658
WHY WOULD YOU NOT WANT TO
TELL HER ABOUT THE RESULTS?
THEY'RE GOOD.

333
00:16:31,758 --> 00:16:34,427
THEY'RE THE BEST
POSSIBLE OUTCOME.
THEY COULDN'T BE BETTER.

334
00:16:34,527 --> 00:16:36,596
SHE'S DYING, OKAY?
HOW WOULD YOU LIKE IT

335
00:16:36,696 --> 00:16:39,199
IF YOU WERE DYING
AND I CAME TO YOU AND SAID,

336
00:16:39,299 --> 00:16:41,534
"HEY, GUESS WHAT.
I GET TO LIVE."

337
00:16:41,634 --> 00:16:44,837
IF THAT PERSON WERE MY SISTER,
I WOULD BE VERY VERY GLAD.

338
00:16:44,937 --> 00:16:46,473
PATRICIA WILL BE
RELIEVED

339
00:16:46,573 --> 00:16:48,108
KNOWING THAT IZZY
WILL HAVE A MOTHER,

340
00:16:48,208 --> 00:16:49,809
KNOWING,
IN ALL LIKELIHOOD,

341
00:16:49,909 --> 00:16:52,011
THAT YOU'LL LIVE
AN AVERAGE LIFESPAN.

342
00:16:52,112 --> 00:16:54,481
HOW DO YOU KNOW
WHAT HER REACTION WILL BE?

343
00:16:54,581 --> 00:16:56,883
I DON'T REALLY KNOW.
I'M JUST PREDICTING,

344
00:16:56,983 --> 00:16:58,985
KNOWING WHAT I KNOW
ABOUT PATRICIA.

345
00:16:59,086 --> 00:17:00,853
THAT WOULD BE
A NORMAL RESPONSE.

346
00:17:00,953 --> 00:17:04,991
OH, I THOUGHT
YOU'RE NOT SUPPOSED TO
USE WORDS LIKE "NORMAL."

347
00:17:05,092 --> 00:17:08,261
OKAY, LET ME
PUT THIS AS PLAINLY
AS I POSSIBLY CAN.

348
00:17:10,029 --> 00:17:14,301
YOU NEED TO SEE YOUR SISTER
BEFORE SHE DIES.

349
00:17:14,401 --> 00:17:16,703
YOU DON'T HAVE
ANY REASON NOT TO.

350
00:17:16,803 --> 00:17:19,306
THE REASON
YOU THOUGHT YOU HAD
NO LONGER EXISTS.

351
00:17:19,406 --> 00:17:21,208
WELL, I DON'T WANT
TO HURT HER.

352
00:17:21,308 --> 00:17:23,310
SHE WON'T BE HURT.
SHE'LL BE PLEASED.

353
00:17:23,410 --> 00:17:25,812
YOU KNOW, I HOPE
SHE'S MORE PLEASED
THAN YOU ARE.

354
00:17:25,912 --> 00:17:28,615
I MEAN, DON'T YOU THINK
YOU COULD BE A LITTLE
HAPPIER FOR ME?

355
00:17:28,715 --> 00:17:31,218
I KNOW THAT
YOU'VE BEEN EXPECTING
THE WORST POSSIBLE OUTCOME.

356
00:17:31,318 --> 00:17:34,821
YOU'VE BEEN PREPARING
YOURSELF FOR BAD NEWS,
UNDERSTANDABLY.

357
00:17:34,921 --> 00:17:37,824
BUT YOU CANNOT LET
YOUR CONFUSION

358
00:17:37,924 --> 00:17:40,227
OR THE MIXED FEELINGS
THAT YOU HAVE

359
00:17:40,327 --> 00:17:42,929
ABOUT THIS GENUINELY
GOOD NEWS

360
00:17:43,029 --> 00:17:46,399
STAND IN THE WAY OF DEALING
WITH YOUR SISTER.

361
00:17:49,669 --> 00:17:52,472
YOU NEED TO SEE YOUR SISTER
BEFORE SHE DIES.

362
00:17:52,572 --> 00:17:56,042
OH, YOU KNOW,
WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED

363
00:17:56,143 --> 00:17:58,445
BETWEEN THE TWO OF YOU
ANYWAY?

364
00:17:58,545 --> 00:18:00,012
SORRY?

365
00:18:00,113 --> 00:18:02,081
NO, THE WAY YOU TALK
ABOUT HER--

366
00:18:02,182 --> 00:18:04,117
IT'S LIKE YOU'RE STILL
IN LOVE WITH HER.

367
00:18:04,217 --> 00:18:06,786
STILL?
WHY DO YOU SAY THAT?

368
00:18:06,886 --> 00:18:08,988
WELL, THAT'S WHAT
SHE TOLD ME--

369
00:18:09,088 --> 00:18:11,358
THAT YOU WERE
IN LOVE WITH HER

370
00:18:11,458 --> 00:18:12,859
BACK THEN.

371
00:18:13,860 --> 00:18:15,262
WERE YOU?

372
00:18:17,997 --> 00:18:19,466
NO.

373
00:18:21,334 --> 00:18:24,103
WELL, SHE THINKS
YOU WERE.

374
00:18:24,204 --> 00:18:26,105
SO CLEARLY
SHE'S DELUDED.

375
00:18:26,206 --> 00:18:28,241
SHE WAS IN LOVE
WITH YOU.

376
00:18:30,177 --> 00:18:33,446
YOU ARE SO ANGRY
WITH YOUR SISTER.

377
00:18:34,947 --> 00:18:36,916
IS IT BECAUSE
SHE'S DYING

378
00:18:37,016 --> 00:18:38,585
AND SHE NEEDS YOU

379
00:18:38,685 --> 00:18:42,355
AND YOU'RE SCARED
THAT YOU WON'T BE ABLE
TO HELP HER,

380
00:18:42,455 --> 00:18:46,293
THAT YOU WON'T
EVEN BE ABLE TO STAY
IN THE ROOM WITH HER,

381
00:18:46,393 --> 00:18:48,695
THAT HER ILLNESS WILL BE
TOO MUCH FOR YOU TO BEAR

382
00:18:48,795 --> 00:18:51,831
AND YOU'LL RUN AWAY FROM HER
JUST AS YOU RAN AWAY
FROM YOUR MOTHER?

383
00:18:51,931 --> 00:18:53,900
IT'LL KILL ME.

384
00:18:54,000 --> 00:18:55,235
IT WON'T KILL YOU.

385
00:18:55,335 --> 00:18:58,104
IT'S ALL GONE, PAUL--
HER EYELASHES, HER HAIR,

386
00:18:58,205 --> 00:19:01,073
HER BREASTS-- GONE.
IT'LL KILL ME.

387
00:19:01,174 --> 00:19:04,311
SHE'S THE ONE
WHO'S DYING, NOT YOU.

388
00:19:05,412 --> 00:19:07,414
IT IS NOT GONNA
KILL YOU.

389
00:19:10,583 --> 00:19:14,421
IF YOU DON'T DO IT NOW,
YOU'LL ALWAYS REGRET IT.

390
00:19:26,299 --> 00:19:29,302
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