1 00:00:00,801 --> 00:00:03,702 [tense music] 2 00:00:03,771 --> 00:00:10,909 ♪ ♪ 3 00:00:12,413 --> 00:00:14,113 [all cheering] 4 00:00:14,181 --> 00:00:17,216 - It's a boy! 5 00:00:17,284 --> 00:00:19,718 - Lincoln, are you so excited? 6 00:00:19,787 --> 00:00:20,853 [chatter] 7 00:00:20,921 --> 00:00:22,588 - I definitely want to go on a trip 8 00:00:22,656 --> 00:00:26,225 over their spring break to the Bahamas before the baby comes. 9 00:00:26,293 --> 00:00:27,626 I think they're going to be super excited. 10 00:00:27,695 --> 00:00:30,295 It's like the last family of four trip. 11 00:00:30,364 --> 00:00:33,165 - Congratulations, you are now a licensed professional. 12 00:00:33,234 --> 00:00:35,401 [cheers and applause] 13 00:00:35,469 --> 00:00:36,835 - So you're looking to open a salon? 14 00:00:36,904 --> 00:00:38,170 - Yeah, like, have my own walls 15 00:00:38,239 --> 00:00:39,872 so I can do my own thing, basically. 16 00:00:39,940 --> 00:00:42,041 - Okay, this is a standard sized studio. 17 00:00:42,109 --> 00:00:43,542 - I'll take it. 18 00:00:43,611 --> 00:00:46,111 - I feel like I'm doing everything by myself, 19 00:00:46,180 --> 00:00:48,313 and I don't want it to be like that anymore. 20 00:00:48,382 --> 00:00:51,316 - All right, I do want to help out some way, somehow. 21 00:00:51,385 --> 00:00:53,318 - That works, for sure. 22 00:00:53,387 --> 00:00:55,354 - I've just been seeing somebody. 23 00:00:55,423 --> 00:00:59,258 It's not gonna go anywhere. We're just having a good time. 24 00:00:59,326 --> 00:01:01,226 It was supposed to be a secret. 25 00:01:01,295 --> 00:01:03,595 - You're posting [bleep] though. 26 00:01:03,664 --> 00:01:07,132 It's not really a secret. Up to a point it's a secret. 27 00:01:07,201 --> 00:01:09,101 - The person is a secret. - Yes, the person is. 28 00:01:09,170 --> 00:01:11,437 - Is he married, have kids, divorced? 29 00:01:11,505 --> 00:01:13,806 - I'm not giving you no information, sorry. 30 00:01:13,874 --> 00:01:15,107 - How's Frederico? 31 00:01:15,176 --> 00:01:17,176 Are you falling in love with him, Briana? 32 00:01:17,244 --> 00:01:18,677 - I'm not in love with him. 33 00:01:18,746 --> 00:01:23,382 I may be a little infatuated and definitely in lust. 34 00:01:23,451 --> 00:01:25,250 I wonder what's going to happen after this trip 35 00:01:25,319 --> 00:01:26,819 when we come back home. 36 00:01:26,887 --> 00:01:28,287 - Now, how long have you been working on your book? 37 00:01:28,355 --> 00:01:30,456 - Two months. It's an autobiography 38 00:01:30,524 --> 00:01:33,992 and, like, a self-help book. It has become way different 39 00:01:34,061 --> 00:01:35,194 than what I thought it was going to be. 40 00:01:35,262 --> 00:01:38,163 Have you been seeing everything on the news 41 00:01:38,232 --> 00:01:39,698 with this coronavirus? 42 00:01:39,767 --> 00:01:41,834 Ali has a compromised immune system. 43 00:01:41,902 --> 00:01:43,735 She couldn't fight it like you and I could. 44 00:01:43,804 --> 00:01:45,704 Corey was like, you know, keep the girls. 45 00:01:45,773 --> 00:01:47,072 He's still working. 46 00:01:47,141 --> 00:01:49,174 He could be exposed to who knows what. 47 00:01:49,243 --> 00:01:50,375 But they're going to stay with me 48 00:01:50,444 --> 00:01:52,177 so that way they're safe. Ali was lying in bed 49 00:01:52,246 --> 00:01:54,480 the other night and she just was sobbing. 50 00:01:54,548 --> 00:01:56,148 She was just like, "I really miss my dad." 51 00:01:56,217 --> 00:01:58,851 I heard, like, how you were feeling. 52 00:01:58,919 --> 00:02:01,220 And I promise you, 53 00:02:01,288 --> 00:02:04,423 I'm going to get you to see your dads ASAP. 54 00:02:04,492 --> 00:02:07,092 - This is, well, exactly where I wanted to be. 55 00:02:07,161 --> 00:02:10,829 Lori is going to be like a work trip to LA. 56 00:02:10,898 --> 00:02:14,032 Lori is keeping us healthy. 57 00:02:15,836 --> 00:02:17,703 - I mean, I hope not. 58 00:02:17,771 --> 00:02:19,037 - After reading all the news things, 59 00:02:19,106 --> 00:02:21,640 I was like, "Dang, I don't wanna travel." 60 00:02:21,709 --> 00:02:24,610 [upbeat rock music] 61 00:02:24,678 --> 00:02:31,617 ♪ ♪ 62 00:02:39,860 --> 00:02:41,627 - ♪ Look up ♪ 63 00:02:41,695 --> 00:02:46,298 ♪ No more crying, no more hiding ♪ 64 00:02:46,367 --> 00:02:49,401 - You have a Gusher in your hair. 65 00:02:49,470 --> 00:02:51,570 - Ew. - Lux. 66 00:02:51,639 --> 00:02:54,139 - How did you get a Gusher in your hair? 67 00:02:54,208 --> 00:02:57,509 - Come on, I just washed your hair. 68 00:02:57,578 --> 00:02:59,545 How did you get a candy in your hair? 69 00:02:59,613 --> 00:03:04,516 - I don't know. - I don't know, either. 70 00:03:04,585 --> 00:03:06,818 I'm taking the boys to the Bahamas in a few weeks, 71 00:03:06,887 --> 00:03:09,888 so we can do something special before the baby arrives. 72 00:03:09,957 --> 00:03:11,456 I'm not sure if the coronavirus 73 00:03:11,525 --> 00:03:14,092 will affect our plans, but I'm trying to be positive, 74 00:03:14,161 --> 00:03:18,363 and I just had a 20 week checkup for my pregnancy. 75 00:03:18,432 --> 00:03:20,766 Let's start with how hot the doctor was. 76 00:03:20,834 --> 00:03:23,769 - [laughs] 77 00:03:23,837 --> 00:03:25,170 - Oh, thanks. 78 00:03:25,239 --> 00:03:26,972 - I can't believe you're halfway there. 79 00:03:27,041 --> 00:03:28,373 - The first 3 months were hell. 80 00:03:28,442 --> 00:03:31,076 We all know I was alone for my pregnancy with Lux, 81 00:03:31,145 --> 00:03:32,411 and Chris was not great. 82 00:03:32,479 --> 00:03:34,746 Chris didn't come to my last ultrasound 83 00:03:34,815 --> 00:03:38,850 because he slept through his alarm. 84 00:03:38,919 --> 00:03:40,352 - For you to let somebody 85 00:03:40,421 --> 00:03:42,554 continue to pull you down is like, sad, 86 00:03:42,623 --> 00:03:48,060 but you can't continue to be sad when you have me 87 00:03:48,128 --> 00:03:50,262 and, like, everybody. You're not alone. 88 00:03:50,331 --> 00:03:51,830 - And then when I went into this one, I was like, 89 00:03:51,899 --> 00:03:53,298 "I don't want him there. 90 00:03:53,367 --> 00:03:55,634 I don't want him in the delivery room. 91 00:03:55,703 --> 00:03:57,002 I don't want him on the birth certificate. 92 00:03:57,071 --> 00:03:59,004 I don't want anything to do with him." 93 00:03:59,073 --> 00:04:04,142 - Well, maybe by that time, since it's still months out, 94 00:04:04,211 --> 00:04:06,044 the way you feel will lessen. 95 00:04:06,113 --> 00:04:08,480 - But the boys are excited to go on vacation. 96 00:04:08,549 --> 00:04:11,016 If this coronavirus gets in the goddamn way, 97 00:04:11,085 --> 00:04:15,220 I'm suing everyone. I'm pissed. 98 00:04:15,289 --> 00:04:19,391 - We need to leave n - And just stay there until-- 99 00:04:19,460 --> 00:04:22,361 - Stay until the-- That would be horrible. 100 00:04:22,429 --> 00:04:24,930 - They're just, they're making such a [bleep] out of it, 101 00:04:24,999 --> 00:04:27,466 and it's pissing me off. 102 00:04:28,636 --> 00:04:31,770 I'm going to have before I have four [bleep] kids. 103 00:04:31,839 --> 00:04:33,005 You know what I mean? 104 00:04:33,073 --> 00:04:33,939 - Well, if worse comes to worst, 105 00:04:34,008 --> 00:04:35,874 we just get stuck there. 106 00:04:35,943 --> 00:04:37,042 - Well, I don't know-- 107 00:04:37,111 --> 00:04:40,679 in 30 days they could shut travel down. 108 00:04:40,748 --> 00:04:43,715 - That's true, and then what? 109 00:04:43,784 --> 00:04:46,818 - I will take a [bleep] boat. 110 00:04:46,887 --> 00:04:48,820 I'm going to the Bahamas. 111 00:04:48,889 --> 00:04:52,291 ♪ ♪ 112 00:04:52,359 --> 00:04:55,661 - ♪ I played around with her ♪ 113 00:04:55,729 --> 00:04:57,095 - Things have been busy with my clothing line 114 00:04:57,164 --> 00:04:59,097 since LA last week, 115 00:04:59,166 --> 00:05:01,733 but the coronavirus has been spreading in the US, 116 00:05:01,802 --> 00:05:04,236 and I'm starting to worry. 117 00:05:06,774 --> 00:05:08,106 Let's go. 118 00:05:08,175 --> 00:05:09,508 Feeling okay? 119 00:05:09,576 --> 00:05:11,243 - Yeah. - We have to stop at Target 120 00:05:11,312 --> 00:05:14,246 'cause I did an online order of cleaning supplies. 121 00:05:14,315 --> 00:05:19,117 Like at first, I didn't think this whole coronavirus thing 122 00:05:19,186 --> 00:05:20,319 was actually a big deal, 123 00:05:20,387 --> 00:05:21,787 but I'm starting to get a little-- 124 00:05:21,855 --> 00:05:23,021 - It's a huge deal. 125 00:05:23,090 --> 00:05:26,091 - Well, I'm getting scared now. 126 00:05:26,160 --> 00:05:30,128 - I heard a bunch of people have died here. 127 00:05:30,197 --> 00:05:31,963 - No, that's not true. 128 00:05:34,101 --> 00:05:35,534 - No deaths. - People have it, though. 129 00:05:35,602 --> 00:05:37,369 I know people who have it. - Yes, that's true. 130 00:05:37,438 --> 00:05:41,340 Cole and I cleaned today. - Okay. 131 00:05:41,408 --> 00:05:44,476 - And we're going to clean some more. 132 00:05:44,545 --> 00:05:46,078 Like, even if we didn't film at the house 133 00:05:46,146 --> 00:05:47,212 because I'm being a psychopath-- 134 00:05:47,281 --> 00:05:49,648 because the crew travels a lot, 135 00:05:49,717 --> 00:05:51,950 and that makes me nervous, 136 00:05:52,019 --> 00:05:53,885 you know, having them in the house. 137 00:05:53,954 --> 00:05:55,954 - Yeah. - I'm sorry, I feel so bad 138 00:05:56,023 --> 00:05:57,856 saying that. I just-- 139 00:05:57,925 --> 00:06:02,060 I'm panicky, obviously. But so anyways, 140 00:06:02,129 --> 00:06:06,331 plan on hanging with me this weekend at home. 141 00:06:09,336 --> 00:06:11,269 - The girls and I are still filming ourselves, 142 00:06:11,338 --> 00:06:13,739 and we've been self-quarantining for 3 weeks 143 00:06:13,807 --> 00:06:15,407 now because of Ali's condition. 144 00:06:15,476 --> 00:06:17,342 The twins haven't seen their dad, 145 00:06:17,411 --> 00:06:20,078 but Corey and I spoke and came up with a plan. 146 00:06:20,147 --> 00:06:23,415 - We haven't had Ali and Aleeah here at our house 147 00:06:23,484 --> 00:06:28,320 for probably right at a month. We miss them very bad. 148 00:06:28,389 --> 00:06:31,390 Leah reached out to me the other day 149 00:06:31,458 --> 00:06:35,627 and said that the girls were having a very hard time 150 00:06:35,696 --> 00:06:37,028 with it mentally, 151 00:06:37,097 --> 00:06:39,030 and that they missed us all here. 152 00:06:39,099 --> 00:06:42,234 She said that if we took the appropriate precautions, 153 00:06:42,302 --> 00:06:45,537 that she felt and I agreed that it would be fine for them 154 00:06:45,606 --> 00:06:50,041 to come here for a day or two this weekend. 155 00:06:50,110 --> 00:06:51,510 - You guys ready to go see your daddy? 156 00:06:51,578 --> 00:06:52,944 - Yes, we are. 157 00:06:53,013 --> 00:06:56,047 - Yes, you are. - I'm taking a nap. 158 00:06:56,116 --> 00:06:57,749 - Take a nap, honey. - Okay, you need it. 159 00:06:57,818 --> 00:07:00,619 - I'm sure your dad is very exhausted, too. 160 00:07:00,687 --> 00:07:02,187 - Yeah, cause he works. 161 00:07:02,256 --> 00:07:04,222 - You guys ready? - Yup. 162 00:07:04,291 --> 00:07:06,057 - Kay. - Here's my phone. 163 00:07:06,126 --> 00:07:08,960 [indistinct chatter] 164 00:07:09,029 --> 00:07:10,595 - I dropped the girls off at Corey's 165 00:07:10,664 --> 00:07:13,098 so they can be there when he gets off of work. 166 00:07:13,167 --> 00:07:17,002 - Hey girls. - Hi, Daddy. 167 00:07:18,906 --> 00:07:21,239 - Missed y'all. - Missed you, too. 168 00:07:21,308 --> 00:07:23,475 - Like, what are you, like 20 foot taller? 169 00:07:23,544 --> 00:07:24,843 Oh you, too? 170 00:07:24,912 --> 00:07:28,079 - She's 5 foot... [overlapping chatter] 171 00:07:28,148 --> 00:07:31,783 - It's very scary that Ali could be exposed 172 00:07:31,852 --> 00:07:33,218 to the coronavirus. 173 00:07:33,287 --> 00:07:34,986 - Does it look different here? - Yeah? 174 00:07:35,055 --> 00:07:36,321 - No. 175 00:07:36,390 --> 00:07:37,889 - Because she does have muscular dystrophy, 176 00:07:37,958 --> 00:07:41,793 which makes her a part of that vulnerable population. 177 00:07:41,862 --> 00:07:42,961 - Feeling weird being here? 178 00:07:43,030 --> 00:07:45,030 Does it feel like you got, like-- 179 00:07:45,098 --> 00:07:47,199 does it feel weird being somewhere else? 180 00:07:47,267 --> 00:07:50,402 - No. - But I trust Corey. 181 00:07:50,471 --> 00:07:52,437 We're raising kids in a split home. 182 00:07:52,506 --> 00:07:55,207 They need both units always, even during the pandemic. 183 00:07:55,275 --> 00:07:57,142 - I love you. I missed you. 184 00:07:57,211 --> 00:07:58,543 - I mean, who knows how long this will go? 185 00:07:58,612 --> 00:08:01,379 We can't go a year and them not see their dad. 186 00:08:01,448 --> 00:08:05,550 Whatever we have to do, even during a flipping pandemic, 187 00:08:05,619 --> 00:08:07,519 that's what we'll do. 188 00:08:07,588 --> 00:08:11,456 ♪ ♪ 189 00:08:15,629 --> 00:08:19,164 - ♪ I like you ♪ 190 00:08:19,233 --> 00:08:23,902 ♪ Do you like me too? ♪ 191 00:08:23,971 --> 00:08:25,570 - Sean's sister got home safely, 192 00:08:25,639 --> 00:08:28,507 but Indiana is shutting down, and the crew can't come out, 193 00:08:28,575 --> 00:08:31,276 so I'm self-shooting. Are you hungry? 194 00:08:31,345 --> 00:08:33,144 - Yeah. - Yeah. 195 00:08:33,213 --> 00:08:34,379 You want to make breakfast? 196 00:08:34,448 --> 00:08:37,415 Oh, you want waffles and some syrup? 197 00:08:37,484 --> 00:08:40,018 - Yeah. - Yeah, open it over the bowl. 198 00:08:41,655 --> 00:08:44,389 Oh, oh, oh, oh, okay. 199 00:08:44,458 --> 00:08:46,157 I've been trying to be safe at work, 200 00:08:46,226 --> 00:08:48,493 but today I got some bad news about the salon. 201 00:08:48,562 --> 00:08:50,161 [line rings] 202 00:08:50,230 --> 00:08:52,364 - Hello? - Hey, it's Jade. 203 00:08:52,432 --> 00:08:53,865 I just wanted to call and let you know 204 00:08:53,934 --> 00:08:56,234 that our governor has shut down our county 205 00:08:56,303 --> 00:08:59,170 for any salon appointments. 206 00:08:59,239 --> 00:09:01,506 So all I'm doing right now is just sending back 207 00:09:01,575 --> 00:09:03,975 anyone that's been booked for the next like month, 208 00:09:04,044 --> 00:09:06,411 sending back their deposits. 209 00:09:06,480 --> 00:09:07,913 - Okay, and is there a time 210 00:09:07,981 --> 00:09:10,949 I can reschedule my appointment? 211 00:09:11,018 --> 00:09:12,417 - Probably not right now 212 00:09:12,486 --> 00:09:14,185 because they haven't really given us a day of 213 00:09:14,254 --> 00:09:16,254 when we can open up, so when I know something, 214 00:09:16,323 --> 00:09:18,623 I'll make sure to message all of my clients 215 00:09:18,692 --> 00:09:21,726 with any information that I'm getting. 216 00:09:21,795 --> 00:09:24,329 - Okay, sounds good. - Okay, thank you, bye-bye. 217 00:09:24,398 --> 00:09:26,164 - Thank you, bye. 218 00:09:26,233 --> 00:09:27,699 - So our governor's actually 219 00:09:27,768 --> 00:09:29,534 closing our county, 220 00:09:29,603 --> 00:09:31,369 so I'm not going to be able to go into work, 221 00:09:31,438 --> 00:09:34,406 and they don't have a reopen date set yet. 222 00:09:34,474 --> 00:09:38,043 But I know that I'm not going to be able to go into work. 223 00:09:38,111 --> 00:09:39,477 I'm not going to be able to take clients. 224 00:09:39,546 --> 00:09:41,079 And right now, I'm just, like, freaking out. 225 00:09:41,148 --> 00:09:42,948 Like, my whole world is, like, falling apart, 226 00:09:43,016 --> 00:09:45,784 'cause I'm scared I'm going to, like, 227 00:09:45,852 --> 00:09:47,352 go behind on all of my bills. 228 00:09:47,421 --> 00:09:48,687 And there's no one that's going to, like, 229 00:09:48,755 --> 00:09:50,188 be able to help me or, like, be there for me 230 00:09:50,257 --> 00:09:51,623 or help me financially if I needed it 231 00:09:51,692 --> 00:09:54,059 'cause everyone in my family, like, 232 00:09:54,127 --> 00:09:55,727 has it hard financially already. 233 00:09:55,796 --> 00:09:59,130 I contacted the place where I lease my salon. 234 00:09:59,199 --> 00:10:01,066 They said that they weren't going to charge 235 00:10:01,134 --> 00:10:02,601 people late fees, 236 00:10:02,669 --> 00:10:04,736 but you still have to pay rent, 237 00:10:04,805 --> 00:10:07,238 so everything still has to be paid. 238 00:10:07,307 --> 00:10:09,207 It's, like, scary 'cause it's kind of out of my control 239 00:10:09,276 --> 00:10:10,809 and there's nothing I can do about it 240 00:10:10,877 --> 00:10:12,577 but, like, sit around my house 241 00:10:12,646 --> 00:10:14,045 and just wait for someone to tell me 242 00:10:14,114 --> 00:10:18,083 I'm allowed to go back to work. 243 00:10:18,151 --> 00:10:19,684 So I'm basically going to get everything, 244 00:10:19,753 --> 00:10:23,221 like, draped up and cleaned and disinfected 245 00:10:23,290 --> 00:10:27,258 for the next time that I come in. 246 00:10:27,327 --> 00:10:29,494 Then everything will be clean and I basically just have 247 00:10:29,563 --> 00:10:35,300 to put everything back up where it goes. 248 00:10:35,369 --> 00:10:39,237 Okay, I think everything's all done and disinfected. 249 00:10:43,510 --> 00:10:46,211 - ♪ See you later alligator ♪ 250 00:10:46,279 --> 00:10:47,812 - After I got back from Puerto Rico, 251 00:10:47,881 --> 00:10:50,448 the coronavirus got a lot month serious. 252 00:10:50,517 --> 00:10:51,850 The crew isn't allowed to travel right now, 253 00:10:51,918 --> 00:10:55,520 so the producer sent us some gear to film ourselves. 254 00:10:55,589 --> 00:10:58,323 We've got an extra phone, extra camera, 255 00:10:58,392 --> 00:11:00,258 you know, tripods. 256 00:11:00,327 --> 00:11:03,361 And we're excited to start filming, right? 257 00:11:03,430 --> 00:11:06,831 - Yeah. - Our story. 258 00:11:06,900 --> 00:11:10,969 Just try to do this and down, down, down, down. 259 00:11:11,038 --> 00:11:13,171 We'll figure it out. I don't know how this works, 260 00:11:13,240 --> 00:11:17,308 but I'll figure it out. - Somehow. 261 00:11:17,377 --> 00:11:19,110 - Mine! Mine! 262 00:11:19,946 --> 00:11:22,414 - Luis and Devoin had agreed to give me 250 a month 263 00:11:22,482 --> 00:11:24,382 for the girls starting this week. 264 00:11:24,451 --> 00:11:27,786 Luis was able to, but Devoin hasn't yet. 265 00:11:30,757 --> 00:11:33,458 - Hi. - Hi. 266 00:11:33,527 --> 00:11:36,728 - Is that Stella? - Say hi. 267 00:11:36,797 --> 00:11:39,164 We made cupcakes, right? 268 00:11:39,232 --> 00:11:43,568 - Yes...and you missed these cupcakes. 269 00:11:45,138 --> 00:11:46,304 - Yeah, we all been home. 270 00:11:46,373 --> 00:11:48,640 My job told me I'm laid off for 30 days. 271 00:11:48,709 --> 00:11:52,477 My mom's job told her she's laid off for 30 days. 272 00:11:52,546 --> 00:11:55,547 - So what is the latest with Devoin? 273 00:11:55,615 --> 00:11:57,449 - Nothing. He told me that his job 274 00:11:57,517 --> 00:12:00,218 laid him off, so he's not doing anything right now. 275 00:12:00,287 --> 00:12:04,789 And Luis, Luis came over to say bye to Stella, 276 00:12:04,858 --> 00:12:09,294 because Luis got laid off from his construction job, 277 00:12:09,362 --> 00:12:10,895 and he went back to trucking. 278 00:12:10,964 --> 00:12:13,198 And I texted them both in the group chat, 279 00:12:13,266 --> 00:12:14,332 and I was like, "Listen, my job 280 00:12:14,401 --> 00:12:17,802 just laid me off, so help me out." 281 00:12:17,871 --> 00:12:19,904 Like, I'm not expecting anything really right now 282 00:12:19,973 --> 00:12:22,307 because I know they're struggling just as much, 283 00:12:22,375 --> 00:12:24,576 but like, I need them to know 284 00:12:24,644 --> 00:12:27,011 that I'm not working right now. 285 00:12:27,080 --> 00:12:28,613 - Oh, 100 percent. 286 00:12:30,684 --> 00:12:32,317 So you just got back from Puerto Rico 287 00:12:32,385 --> 00:12:33,918 with your secret bae. 288 00:12:33,987 --> 00:12:36,020 How's that been going? 289 00:12:36,089 --> 00:12:39,691 - To be honest, once I put Stella to sleep... 290 00:12:44,397 --> 00:12:45,930 We're under quarantine right now, 291 00:12:45,999 --> 00:12:49,400 so it's kind of hard. I don't know if 292 00:12:49,469 --> 00:12:53,304 it's serious enough to introduce people to him. 293 00:12:53,373 --> 00:12:55,607 I don't know where it's going to go. 294 00:12:55,675 --> 00:12:57,709 But right now I need to mentally figure it out 295 00:12:57,778 --> 00:13:02,213 before people know about what's going on. 296 00:13:02,282 --> 00:13:03,515 This whole coronavirus is crazy 297 00:13:03,583 --> 00:13:06,851 because it's finally made its way down to Florida. 298 00:13:06,920 --> 00:13:10,522 - Have you explained to the kids what's going on? 299 00:13:10,590 --> 00:13:12,223 - Nova has an idea of what's going on 300 00:13:12,292 --> 00:13:14,926 because, I don't know, she just knows. 301 00:13:14,995 --> 00:13:16,828 Like, I didn't even tell her about the coronavirus. 302 00:13:16,897 --> 00:13:18,396 I was just like, yeah, we're staying home 303 00:13:18,465 --> 00:13:19,998 because of the coronavirus. 304 00:13:20,066 --> 00:13:21,966 I'm like, "Oh, okay." 305 00:13:22,035 --> 00:13:23,401 I don't know what I would do 306 00:13:23,470 --> 00:13:25,670 if any of my family members got sick from this. 307 00:13:35,215 --> 00:13:38,249 - ♪ Come on up to the place you're feeling ♪ 308 00:13:38,318 --> 00:13:41,452 ♪ Come on up to the place you're needing ♪ 309 00:13:41,521 --> 00:13:43,755 - At first, I didn't realize what big deal this virus is, 310 00:13:43,824 --> 00:13:46,324 but it's starting to affect everything. 311 00:13:46,393 --> 00:13:47,992 Delaware issued a stay-at-home order, 312 00:13:48,061 --> 00:13:52,297 so the boys are doing distance learning. With the quarantine, 313 00:13:52,365 --> 00:13:54,532 the boys still have to do their schoolwork. 314 00:13:54,601 --> 00:13:57,802 Okay, so how do you feel about the quarantine? 315 00:13:57,871 --> 00:14:01,940 - I think I'm kind of happy because we get to sleep in, 316 00:14:02,008 --> 00:14:05,243 and we don't have to, like, wake up so early, 317 00:14:05,312 --> 00:14:06,878 and we don't have to rush a lot. 318 00:14:06,947 --> 00:14:09,414 - It's more fun at the house because why? 319 00:14:09,482 --> 00:14:11,883 - Because we do funner work. 320 00:14:11,952 --> 00:14:14,719 - You do stuff that you like to do? So-- 321 00:14:14,788 --> 00:14:19,457 - And that work, all we do is do papers and cut out stuff. 322 00:14:19,526 --> 00:14:24,095 - Well, that's because they're preparing you for life. 323 00:14:24,164 --> 00:14:25,663 - With the coronavirus spreading, 324 00:14:25,732 --> 00:14:28,299 I had to tell the boys some bad news. 325 00:14:28,368 --> 00:14:30,001 - So before we start your schoolwork, 326 00:14:30,070 --> 00:14:32,837 I want to tell you that we're out of school for how long? 327 00:14:32,906 --> 00:14:35,173 - Two months. - Okay. And-- 328 00:14:35,242 --> 00:14:36,741 - Until May 15th. 329 00:14:36,810 --> 00:14:40,044 - And Isaac asked an important question in the car, 330 00:14:40,113 --> 00:14:42,847 which was what? 331 00:14:42,916 --> 00:14:45,783 - Will we still be able to go to the Bahamas? 332 00:14:45,852 --> 00:14:51,422 - So unfortunately, we're not going to go. 333 00:14:51,491 --> 00:14:54,592 - Until the corona is done? 334 00:14:54,661 --> 00:14:59,497 - Well, so after the coronavirus quarantine, 335 00:14:59,566 --> 00:15:04,736 I can't travel anymore because of the baby. 336 00:15:04,804 --> 00:15:06,971 - So we're not going to the Bahamas? 337 00:15:07,040 --> 00:15:08,373 - No. - At all? 338 00:15:08,441 --> 00:15:10,308 - Mm-hmm. 339 00:15:12,612 --> 00:15:16,281 - We can't travel at all, never? 340 00:15:16,349 --> 00:15:17,749 - Well-- 341 00:15:17,817 --> 00:15:20,885 - Well, once the baby comes, then we can travel. 342 00:15:20,954 --> 00:15:24,255 - What, the baby in your belly? - Yeah, once he's born. 343 00:15:24,324 --> 00:15:26,391 - We can travel? - Mm-hmm. 344 00:15:26,459 --> 00:15:28,393 - We have to wait until July? 345 00:15:28,461 --> 00:15:30,929 - Mm-hmm. - Mm-hmm. 346 00:15:30,997 --> 00:15:33,965 - [groans] - You guys have any questions? 347 00:15:35,402 --> 00:15:37,735 - Why did this have to happen? 348 00:15:37,804 --> 00:15:39,570 - Because the baby's in the belly? 349 00:15:39,639 --> 00:15:42,640 - No, no, no. - No. Stop it. 350 00:15:47,180 --> 00:15:49,047 - I think the kids were really looking forward to this trip 351 00:15:49,115 --> 00:15:51,382 just because we do one big trip every year, 352 00:15:51,451 --> 00:15:52,684 and that was our trip. 353 00:15:52,752 --> 00:15:55,753 So it sucks because, I don't know, 354 00:15:55,822 --> 00:15:57,755 I feel like that would have been a really cool way to, 355 00:15:57,824 --> 00:16:00,992 like, end the chapter of having three kids 356 00:16:01,061 --> 00:16:04,929 and get ready for the new chapter of having four kids. 357 00:16:04,998 --> 00:16:06,230 To be perfectly honest, 358 00:16:06,299 --> 00:16:08,099 I don't think that I took corona seriously 359 00:16:08,168 --> 00:16:11,069 when I first heard about it. It was just, like, 360 00:16:11,137 --> 00:16:15,039 I never anticipated it being what it is today. 361 00:16:15,108 --> 00:16:17,542 COVID could have affected us a lot more negatively 362 00:16:17,610 --> 00:16:19,344 than a few canceled trips. 363 00:16:19,412 --> 00:16:20,712 I'm thankful that we have each other 364 00:16:20,780 --> 00:16:22,747 and our health right now. 365 00:16:24,284 --> 00:16:25,717 - West Virginia is now officially 366 00:16:25,785 --> 00:16:27,418 under a stay-at-home order. 367 00:16:27,487 --> 00:16:30,355 But earlier this week, I took Addie to Jeremy's, 368 00:16:30,423 --> 00:16:31,990 and the twins are still with Corey. 369 00:16:32,058 --> 00:16:37,128 - So, it's day 4,000 of quarantine. 370 00:16:37,197 --> 00:16:39,364 What do y'all think? 371 00:16:42,602 --> 00:16:43,735 - Mm-hmm. - Huh? 372 00:16:43,803 --> 00:16:44,802 - Yeah. 373 00:16:44,871 --> 00:16:46,671 - Aleeah, what do you think? - Yeah. 374 00:16:46,740 --> 00:16:49,207 - You don't like it? - Yeah. 375 00:16:49,275 --> 00:16:50,875 - I don't like it, either. 376 00:16:52,278 --> 00:16:53,878 - My book releases tomorrow, 377 00:16:53,947 --> 00:16:56,781 and I'm just taking the emotions as they come. 378 00:16:56,850 --> 00:16:59,250 I never imagined that writing 379 00:16:59,319 --> 00:17:02,086 a book would be so cathartic. 380 00:17:02,155 --> 00:17:06,457 I'm just excited that all of my hard work is completed 381 00:17:06,526 --> 00:17:08,793 and ready to be released. 382 00:17:08,862 --> 00:17:13,364 But I'm a little anxious because a lot of the stuff 383 00:17:13,433 --> 00:17:14,932 that's covered in the book happened 384 00:17:15,001 --> 00:17:16,701 while I was with Jeremy. 385 00:17:16,770 --> 00:17:18,636 There are things in my book 386 00:17:18,705 --> 00:17:22,473 that Jeremy and I have discussed privately, 387 00:17:22,542 --> 00:17:27,612 but he is extremely, you know, nervous about it 388 00:17:27,680 --> 00:17:29,247 being released publicly. 389 00:17:29,315 --> 00:17:33,785 It was hard enough putting all of me out on paper 390 00:17:33,853 --> 00:17:37,388 and reliving that, and now when my book releases, 391 00:17:37,457 --> 00:17:39,023 I'm going to be reliving it again. 392 00:17:39,092 --> 00:17:43,461 But it's all like a healing process for me. 393 00:17:48,101 --> 00:17:49,467 - Leah, I am now recording, okay? 394 00:17:49,536 --> 00:17:50,902 - Okay. 395 00:17:50,970 --> 00:17:54,806 My book released today, "Hope, Grace, & Faith." 396 00:17:54,874 --> 00:17:58,076 And it is the number one new release on Amazon, 397 00:17:58,144 --> 00:17:59,043 just saying. 398 00:17:59,112 --> 00:18:01,546 I'm going to go live and connect 399 00:18:01,614 --> 00:18:04,482 with every single person that has purchased my book 400 00:18:04,551 --> 00:18:08,419 and supported me along this journey. 401 00:18:08,488 --> 00:18:10,521 - You can't promote your book in the conventional way 402 00:18:10,590 --> 00:18:11,856 that we're used to seeing 403 00:18:11,925 --> 00:18:15,827 people, you know, go on the road and sign books. 404 00:18:15,895 --> 00:18:18,863 How are you going to promote and publicize your book? 405 00:18:18,932 --> 00:18:20,331 - Initially, I hired an entire team 406 00:18:20,400 --> 00:18:23,367 to kind of help support me with the book launch. 407 00:18:23,436 --> 00:18:24,969 But being quarantined, 408 00:18:25,038 --> 00:18:27,538 and not being able to travel and do book signings 409 00:18:27,607 --> 00:18:29,774 and speaking engagements and things like that, 410 00:18:29,843 --> 00:18:34,445 kind of shifted everything to being virtual. 411 00:18:34,514 --> 00:18:37,415 And what I'm most excited about 412 00:18:37,484 --> 00:18:41,486 is others sharing their journeys as well 413 00:18:41,554 --> 00:18:46,357 and knowing that, by reading my book, they're not alone. 414 00:18:46,426 --> 00:18:47,792 - Well, without further ado, 415 00:18:47,861 --> 00:18:49,193 I don't want to make you late for it-- 416 00:18:49,262 --> 00:18:51,362 so if you want to set up those two camera shots. 417 00:18:51,431 --> 00:18:55,766 So Leah, if you could put one tripod in the dining room, 418 00:18:55,835 --> 00:18:57,702 so I can get an over the shoulder shot 419 00:18:57,770 --> 00:18:59,070 of your Instagram video. 420 00:18:59,139 --> 00:19:03,708 - I work better under pressure than I do-- 421 00:19:03,776 --> 00:19:05,543 - Now Leah, can you bring that one over to me, now? 422 00:19:05,612 --> 00:19:06,944 That tripod? 423 00:19:07,013 --> 00:19:09,647 I want to position that where this laptop is. 424 00:19:09,716 --> 00:19:11,082 - Do you want it up high? 425 00:19:11,151 --> 00:19:12,550 - You can come down a little bit 426 00:19:12,619 --> 00:19:13,885 because it's up pretty high right now. 427 00:19:13,953 --> 00:19:16,420 Okay, nice job on the setup. 428 00:19:16,489 --> 00:19:18,022 - Teamwork to make the dream work. 429 00:19:18,091 --> 00:19:19,824 - Amen. 430 00:19:19,893 --> 00:19:24,095 - Best-selling author. 431 00:19:24,164 --> 00:19:26,531 Y'all don't make me cry on this live, okay? 432 00:19:26,599 --> 00:19:27,965 Don't make me cry. 433 00:19:28,034 --> 00:19:30,968 I fought with anxiety, depression, addiction, 434 00:19:31,037 --> 00:19:34,071 low self-esteem, and I just want to say, 435 00:19:34,140 --> 00:19:39,877 it was the hardest battle that I've ever fought in my life. 436 00:19:39,946 --> 00:19:43,447 And to know that someone else may be fighting that battle 437 00:19:43,516 --> 00:19:48,719 and feel alone or feel like they're not worthy enough, 438 00:19:48,788 --> 00:19:50,054 I couldn't live with myself. 439 00:19:50,123 --> 00:19:51,789 That was the reason why I wrote my book. 440 00:19:51,858 --> 00:19:54,392 Anyways, I love you guys so much. 441 00:19:54,460 --> 00:19:56,093 Thanks for hopping on here. 442 00:19:56,162 --> 00:19:59,297 Don't forget to order "Hope, Grace, & Faith" 443 00:19:59,365 --> 00:20:00,998 on Amazon, anywhere. 444 00:20:01,067 --> 00:20:04,902 I love you guys so much and I will be live again. 445 00:20:05,939 --> 00:20:08,206 I'm not--yeah. Love you guys. 446 00:20:09,342 --> 00:20:12,743 - ♪ Blown around with the wind ♪ 447 00:20:12,812 --> 00:20:14,345 - South Dakota doesn't have an official 448 00:20:14,414 --> 00:20:15,580 stay-at-home order, 449 00:20:15,648 --> 00:20:17,415 but my family has been quarantining. 450 00:20:17,483 --> 00:20:21,652 [indistinct chatter] 451 00:20:21,721 --> 00:20:25,990 - 17, 17, 18, 17! 452 00:20:26,059 --> 00:20:27,792 Here come! 453 00:20:27,860 --> 00:20:30,761 Where's Daddy? Dad! 454 00:20:32,832 --> 00:20:34,131 - The family is playing hide-and-seek, 455 00:20:34,200 --> 00:20:37,268 and Aubree is doing her first day 456 00:20:37,337 --> 00:20:40,304 of homeschooling, right? 457 00:20:40,373 --> 00:20:42,540 Show me your laptop. 458 00:20:42,609 --> 00:20:43,941 Working hard, or hardly working? 459 00:20:44,010 --> 00:20:46,811 - I have to read this and then do a quiz. 460 00:20:46,879 --> 00:20:48,212 - Okay. We haven't had 461 00:20:48,281 --> 00:20:50,381 a lot of coronavirus cases in South Dakota, 462 00:20:50,450 --> 00:20:52,483 so the contractors were able to continue to work 463 00:20:52,552 --> 00:20:54,652 on our house safely. 464 00:20:54,721 --> 00:20:55,953 They put out some stakes 465 00:20:56,022 --> 00:20:58,122 where exactly the house is going to go. 466 00:20:58,191 --> 00:21:00,157 We just want to make sure we get the perfect spot. 467 00:21:00,226 --> 00:21:07,265 It is a muddy mess, but it's looking so good. 468 00:21:09,202 --> 00:21:11,168 A few days ago, I started feeling sick, 469 00:21:11,237 --> 00:21:13,137 and I'm not sure what's going on. 470 00:21:13,206 --> 00:21:17,041 Yesterday I was in bed all day, 471 00:21:17,110 --> 00:21:20,144 and so this morning I messaged my doctor 472 00:21:20,213 --> 00:21:22,146 'cause I had a bit of a fever, 473 00:21:22,215 --> 00:21:25,950 and I was just like, "I think I have a stomach bug." 474 00:21:28,454 --> 00:21:30,254 Like, "Should I come in, or is it not worth it?" 475 00:21:30,323 --> 00:21:33,658 And I explained my symptoms, and she was like, 476 00:21:33,726 --> 00:21:35,426 "I think you need to go in." 477 00:21:35,495 --> 00:21:39,030 That's where I'm going now. I'm going to the COVID swab, 478 00:21:39,098 --> 00:21:40,798 like a test, I guess. 479 00:21:40,867 --> 00:21:43,267 Rather be safe than sorry. 480 00:21:43,336 --> 00:21:44,368 Hi. 481 00:21:46,172 --> 00:21:47,338 - Chelsea DeBoer. 482 00:21:48,775 --> 00:21:49,974 - Yes. 483 00:21:51,411 --> 00:21:52,343 - Okay. 484 00:21:56,349 --> 00:21:58,482 - Okay, thank you. - All right, thanks. 485 00:21:59,686 --> 00:22:01,886 - [bleep] I'm scared. 486 00:22:01,954 --> 00:22:04,255 I'm scared. I'm scared. I'm scared. I'm scared. 487 00:22:06,392 --> 00:22:08,225 - Okay. Okay. 488 00:22:20,707 --> 00:22:23,007 - Oh! 489 00:22:23,076 --> 00:22:24,742 Thank you. - Yeah. 490 00:22:27,647 --> 00:22:31,248 - [coughing] 491 00:22:33,319 --> 00:22:35,953 Holy [bleep], I've never had anything 492 00:22:36,022 --> 00:22:38,956 so far up my nose. 493 00:22:39,025 --> 00:22:42,159 [tense music] 494 00:22:42,228 --> 00:22:49,200 ♪ ♪ 495 00:22:54,540 --> 00:22:58,743 ♪ ♪ 496 00:22:58,811 --> 00:23:00,678 - So I'm out at the grocery store 497 00:23:00,747 --> 00:23:06,650 and there's literally nothing on this side, nothing. 498 00:23:06,719 --> 00:23:09,120 Now there's nothing on the aisles, 499 00:23:09,188 --> 00:23:12,957 no toilet paper, no Lysol wipes. 500 00:23:13,025 --> 00:23:16,360 There's literally nothing in these aisles, you see? 501 00:23:16,429 --> 00:23:18,129 Absolutely nothing. 502 00:23:26,806 --> 00:23:30,307 Right now, I'm not working. Devoin is also not working. 503 00:23:30,376 --> 00:23:34,044 And the only person that is working right now is Luis. 504 00:23:34,113 --> 00:23:37,915 Devoin has been coming over some days. 505 00:23:37,984 --> 00:23:39,950 He's been trying to do his best. 506 00:23:40,019 --> 00:23:44,021 Let me see, Stella. What's that , bubbles? Whoo! 507 00:23:44,090 --> 00:23:46,457 - Good job, you did it. - Right now, 508 00:23:46,526 --> 00:23:49,627 I'm not asking Devoin to pay for anything, 509 00:23:49,695 --> 00:23:52,563 the 250, nothing, because his restaurant closed down, 510 00:23:52,632 --> 00:23:54,265 so he's not making any money. 511 00:23:54,333 --> 00:23:56,834 And I don't know when I will start asking Devoin for money 512 00:23:56,903 --> 00:24:00,004 because I don't know how long we will all be out of the job. 513 00:24:00,072 --> 00:24:02,072 And you know, I also have to take care of the kids, 514 00:24:02,141 --> 00:24:04,008 so it's just a really tricky situation. 515 00:24:04,076 --> 00:24:06,610 I put all of my money into this house, 516 00:24:06,679 --> 00:24:08,245 so I don't have any savings. 517 00:24:08,314 --> 00:24:10,080 Like, I don't have any money to spare. 518 00:24:10,149 --> 00:24:15,152 So to not know--like, the uncertainty of, like, 519 00:24:15,221 --> 00:24:18,956 what's going to happen next in our future is really scary. 520 00:24:24,096 --> 00:24:25,396 - It's really hard not working, 521 00:24:25,465 --> 00:24:27,164 and Sean doesn't have a job right now, either. 522 00:24:27,233 --> 00:24:29,300 So I'm worried about how we'll make money. 523 00:24:34,140 --> 00:24:35,840 - Wanna make a puzzle? 524 00:24:35,908 --> 00:24:38,542 - No, don't wanna make a puzzle. 525 00:24:38,611 --> 00:24:39,877 I'm going to say that, 526 00:24:39,946 --> 00:24:41,345 I hate that there's no, like, definite answer of 527 00:24:41,414 --> 00:24:43,481 when things are going to get back to normal. 528 00:24:43,549 --> 00:24:44,815 And I hate seeing the news 529 00:24:44,884 --> 00:24:46,283 and seeing all of the stuff online. 530 00:24:46,352 --> 00:24:49,887 - Yeah. - I'm just, like, depressed. 531 00:24:49,956 --> 00:24:51,822 - Yeah. - We don't have any money, 532 00:24:51,891 --> 00:24:54,358 like, coming in like it was 533 00:24:54,427 --> 00:24:56,327 with, like, me working at the salon. 534 00:24:56,395 --> 00:24:59,230 But I have, like, a little money put back in our savings, 535 00:24:59,298 --> 00:25:00,598 and that's basically what I'm going to have to use 536 00:25:00,666 --> 00:25:02,032 to pay the bills here. 537 00:25:02,101 --> 00:25:04,735 The people that I rent my salon from, like, 538 00:25:04,804 --> 00:25:06,136 right, my salon space, 539 00:25:06,205 --> 00:25:07,538 they're still making us pay rent. 540 00:25:07,607 --> 00:25:10,040 And you know, I would have at least thought 541 00:25:10,109 --> 00:25:11,675 that they would have paused, like, on our rent 542 00:25:11,744 --> 00:25:13,611 or something, but they're not. 543 00:25:13,679 --> 00:25:15,045 So I'm like, what the [bleep]? 544 00:25:15,114 --> 00:25:16,981 There's so many places, like, 545 00:25:17,049 --> 00:25:18,415 that are going out of business. 546 00:25:18,484 --> 00:25:20,384 Like, there's so many companies, restaurants 547 00:25:20,453 --> 00:25:21,886 and places that are, like, done. 548 00:25:21,954 --> 00:25:23,087 Like, they're going because they can't 549 00:25:23,155 --> 00:25:24,889 afford to stay knowing 550 00:25:24,957 --> 00:25:26,223 - And don't reopen. - Yeah, or to reopen. 551 00:25:26,292 --> 00:25:28,192 I mean, they can't afford to. 552 00:25:28,261 --> 00:25:30,094 So I mean, I feel like it's scary for me 553 00:25:30,162 --> 00:25:32,029 because, I mean, I own my own business. 554 00:25:32,098 --> 00:25:33,464 So it's not like I work for a company 555 00:25:33,533 --> 00:25:36,066 where I can just collect unemployment and whatever. 556 00:25:36,135 --> 00:25:38,269 I mean, I can't do that. It's not even an option. 557 00:25:38,337 --> 00:25:39,770 But I mean, it's so early and so hard to tell. 558 00:25:39,839 --> 00:25:42,106 We could have a whole nother wave of this epidemic 559 00:25:42,174 --> 00:25:44,675 where people are [bleep] they're getting sick. 560 00:25:44,744 --> 00:25:46,443 So I mean, we don't know. 561 00:25:50,917 --> 00:25:52,583 - I hope so. 562 00:26:01,561 --> 00:26:04,795 - ♪ I've been wondering if we should get together ♪ 563 00:26:04,864 --> 00:26:07,765 - The boys were so bummed about canceling our family vacation, 564 00:26:07,833 --> 00:26:09,300 but the weather's been really nice, 565 00:26:09,368 --> 00:26:12,036 so I thought I'd give them a surprise. 566 00:26:12,104 --> 00:26:14,004 - What are you doing? 567 00:26:14,073 --> 00:26:15,606 - I have a little surprise for you. 568 00:26:15,675 --> 00:26:20,978 - I wonder what it is. - How much do you love me? 569 00:26:21,047 --> 00:26:23,480 - A lot. - 2,100. 570 00:26:23,549 --> 00:26:28,619 - Do you love me? Okay. - [whines] 571 00:26:28,688 --> 00:26:33,123 - I hope this cheers up your quarantine week. 572 00:26:33,192 --> 00:26:36,961 [kids cheering] 573 00:26:39,732 --> 00:26:41,966 - Thank you! 574 00:26:42,034 --> 00:26:43,801 - It's gotta shock for a couple of hours, 575 00:26:43,869 --> 00:26:46,437 so we should be able to get into it later today. 576 00:26:46,505 --> 00:26:49,506 - ♪ You spent a lifetime out on the sidelines ♪ 577 00:26:49,575 --> 00:26:51,275 - I'm glad the kids are excited about the pool, 578 00:26:51,344 --> 00:26:53,777 but I've still got a lot going on. 579 00:26:53,846 --> 00:26:59,083 So despite this quarantine and having to social distance, 580 00:26:59,151 --> 00:27:02,019 I do have to keep up with my OBGYN appointments, 581 00:27:02,088 --> 00:27:04,955 and I had an ultrasound. 582 00:27:05,024 --> 00:27:08,926 So I want to show you the pictures 583 00:27:08,995 --> 00:27:10,260 of the last ultrasound. 584 00:27:10,329 --> 00:27:14,365 So here we have a foot, 585 00:27:14,433 --> 00:27:18,335 and a face, another face right here. 586 00:27:18,404 --> 00:27:21,238 I was the first person to not think that this whole thing 587 00:27:21,307 --> 00:27:25,275 was as serious as it is in the very beginning, 588 00:27:25,344 --> 00:27:29,113 when we learned about everything that was going on. 589 00:27:29,181 --> 00:27:32,182 Now it is--it's concerning because giving birth 590 00:27:32,251 --> 00:27:34,218 in a hospital is scary. 591 00:27:34,286 --> 00:27:36,820 Even if the coronavirus is, you know, 592 00:27:36,889 --> 00:27:40,157 more under control in July, I mean, that doesn't mean 593 00:27:40,226 --> 00:27:43,961 that the entire hospitals are completely sanitized. 594 00:27:44,030 --> 00:27:45,663 And the pregnant are vulnerable. 595 00:27:45,731 --> 00:27:48,866 Newborns are vulnerable. That's terrifying. 596 00:27:48,934 --> 00:27:52,236 - It feels great that my story is helping people, 597 00:27:52,304 --> 00:27:53,771 but my struggle with addiction 598 00:27:53,839 --> 00:27:57,107 wasn't the only secret that came out in my book. 599 00:27:57,176 --> 00:27:59,510 I also revealed the truth about a miscarriage 600 00:27:59,578 --> 00:28:02,646 that was documented on this show. 601 00:28:02,715 --> 00:28:05,683 - Even though it was only 8 weeks pregnant, 602 00:28:05,751 --> 00:28:08,719 it was still my baby, and I still loved 603 00:28:08,788 --> 00:28:12,122 that baby more than anything else in this world. 604 00:28:12,191 --> 00:28:14,224 - All right, so let's get a clap sink. 605 00:28:14,293 --> 00:28:17,161 - One, two, three. 606 00:28:17,229 --> 00:28:21,298 I totally expected it to blow up 607 00:28:21,367 --> 00:28:26,203 because there's a lot of raw, vulnerable information 608 00:28:26,272 --> 00:28:28,372 that I released in my book. It was like, 609 00:28:28,441 --> 00:28:32,543 the miscarriage that played out on TV was an abortion. 610 00:28:32,611 --> 00:28:36,313 I was not married to Jeremy. We were dating. 611 00:28:36,382 --> 00:28:38,882 But still, Corey was kind of really, 612 00:28:38,951 --> 00:28:40,984 really in my head around that time. 613 00:28:41,053 --> 00:28:42,920 - What's the rumor about you being pregnant? 614 00:28:42,988 --> 00:28:44,088 - Maybe. 615 00:28:44,156 --> 00:28:46,156 - You can answer with a Y or an N. 616 00:28:48,661 --> 00:28:51,462 - Oh, jeez, uh... 617 00:28:51,530 --> 00:28:54,698 You've obviously moved on pretty serious. 618 00:28:54,767 --> 00:28:59,703 I mean, any cracked doors are now shut. 619 00:28:59,772 --> 00:29:03,273 - Both of us had mixed feelings about our relationship, 620 00:29:03,342 --> 00:29:06,343 and I felt like I had [bleep] up 621 00:29:06,412 --> 00:29:07,711 by getting pregnant. 622 00:29:07,780 --> 00:29:09,713 And I had a rep at that time that was like, 623 00:29:09,782 --> 00:29:12,349 "Leah, this is going to look so bad on you. 624 00:29:12,418 --> 00:29:13,951 "There's this pill that you can go take, 625 00:29:14,019 --> 00:29:17,788 and it will--like, it's just like a miscarriage." 626 00:29:17,857 --> 00:29:19,590 And I was like, "Okay," 'cause you had to do it 627 00:29:19,658 --> 00:29:21,992 before you were 8 weeks pregnant. 628 00:29:22,061 --> 00:29:24,528 - Why did you make up the story about a miscarriage 629 00:29:24,597 --> 00:29:27,865 and not just come right out and say you had an abortion? 630 00:29:27,933 --> 00:29:29,867 - Because I was ashamed. 631 00:29:29,935 --> 00:29:34,338 I was ashamed of the choice that I'd made, 632 00:29:34,406 --> 00:29:37,007 and that I allowed others to influence 633 00:29:37,076 --> 00:29:39,543 my decision-making at that time. 634 00:29:39,612 --> 00:29:43,614 In West Virginia, abortion is a very controversial topic. 635 00:29:43,682 --> 00:29:44,815 So to me, it was like, 636 00:29:44,884 --> 00:29:46,650 "I don't want anyone to know I did this." 637 00:29:46,719 --> 00:29:49,486 - Did you tell Jeremy it was a miscarriage, also? 638 00:29:49,555 --> 00:29:50,788 - At first, yeah. 639 00:29:50,856 --> 00:29:54,158 At first, I told Jeremy it was a miscarriage. 640 00:29:54,226 --> 00:29:56,493 I don't think anyone understands the guilt. 641 00:29:56,562 --> 00:29:58,562 Like, I thought I was going to hell. 642 00:29:58,631 --> 00:29:59,930 And you know, I thought I was, like, burning to death 643 00:29:59,999 --> 00:30:01,131 for the rest of my life, 644 00:30:01,200 --> 00:30:03,167 that I would never be forgiven. 645 00:30:03,235 --> 00:30:04,935 I was also afraid that he would be like, 646 00:30:05,004 --> 00:30:07,671 "You're a murderer." 647 00:30:07,740 --> 00:30:12,075 [crying] 648 00:30:12,144 --> 00:30:13,477 What I've learned 649 00:30:13,546 --> 00:30:15,846 is that I get to love myself no matter what. 650 00:30:15,915 --> 00:30:18,615 Like, I get to love myself even beyond the mistakes 651 00:30:18,684 --> 00:30:20,384 that I've made in my life, you know? 652 00:30:20,452 --> 00:30:21,785 And I get to forgive myself 653 00:30:21,854 --> 00:30:26,857 because we're all perfectly imperfect. 654 00:30:26,926 --> 00:30:28,692 - When did you tell Jeremy? 655 00:30:28,761 --> 00:30:30,127 - Jeremy and I did, like, this release, 656 00:30:30,196 --> 00:30:33,330 like, tell-all when we were going through our divorce. 657 00:30:33,399 --> 00:30:35,165 I'm so grateful for him 658 00:30:35,234 --> 00:30:37,968 because he never held my kids over-- 659 00:30:38,037 --> 00:30:40,337 like Addie, over my head. 660 00:30:40,406 --> 00:30:45,776 I will, like, forever be grateful of him for that. 661 00:30:45,845 --> 00:30:48,412 ♪ ♪ 662 00:30:52,985 --> 00:30:57,721 [tense music] 663 00:30:57,790 --> 00:31:01,525 - I feel like I miss work and want to go back to work. 664 00:31:01,594 --> 00:31:03,760 I feel like it's something that's super terrifying, 665 00:31:03,829 --> 00:31:05,596 and I live with a lot of anxiety. 666 00:31:05,664 --> 00:31:08,832 So I feel like this is just something else that's, like, 667 00:31:08,901 --> 00:31:10,801 piling onto my worries. 668 00:31:10,870 --> 00:31:13,971 It's super sad having to shut down something 669 00:31:14,039 --> 00:31:16,540 that's a huge part of your life, 670 00:31:16,609 --> 00:31:19,509 and I feel like me and Sean and Kloie 671 00:31:19,578 --> 00:31:21,445 haven't really been doing anything 672 00:31:21,513 --> 00:31:23,447 because, I mean, we're just stuck in the house. 673 00:31:23,515 --> 00:31:26,350 We're not going anywhere. So we thought that 674 00:31:26,418 --> 00:31:30,354 it would be a good idea to get a little puppy. 675 00:31:30,422 --> 00:31:32,422 - Yeah. - You ready? 676 00:31:32,491 --> 00:31:34,725 - Yeah, I'm ready. - You want to meet the puppy? 677 00:31:34,793 --> 00:31:36,727 - It's a good puppy. 678 00:31:36,795 --> 00:31:38,862 - I found our dog online. 679 00:31:38,931 --> 00:31:40,664 Are you excited, Sissy? 680 00:31:40,733 --> 00:31:41,665 - Yeah! 681 00:31:41,734 --> 00:31:44,801 [laughter] - Go get her! 682 00:31:44,870 --> 00:31:49,139 - Her name is Keetah, and she has a really good personality. 683 00:31:49,208 --> 00:31:50,340 Go give her love, go touch her. 684 00:31:50,409 --> 00:31:51,408 Say, "Love you." 685 00:31:51,477 --> 00:31:53,911 - Love you. - Aw. 686 00:31:53,979 --> 00:31:58,215 - She's an awesome, fun addition to our family. 687 00:31:58,284 --> 00:32:00,484 - Good girl. 688 00:32:07,359 --> 00:32:09,192 - What're you guys eatin'? 689 00:32:09,261 --> 00:32:11,261 - Raspberries. - [laughs] 690 00:32:11,330 --> 00:32:12,963 You got raspberries? 691 00:32:13,032 --> 00:32:14,331 - Mm-hmm. 692 00:32:17,169 --> 00:32:20,103 - In South Dakota, we don't get hit with all these things. 693 00:32:20,172 --> 00:32:21,705 And sometimes we're just, like, 694 00:32:21,774 --> 00:32:26,043 in our own little bubble, and so going there and seeing 695 00:32:26,111 --> 00:32:28,445 how serious everything really is, 696 00:32:28,514 --> 00:32:31,315 that definitely was scary. 697 00:32:31,383 --> 00:32:33,216 To go and, like, see other cars, 698 00:32:33,285 --> 00:32:34,718 like, going through to get tested 699 00:32:34,787 --> 00:32:37,220 and, like, that was really the first place that I went into. 700 00:32:37,289 --> 00:32:38,555 And they were, like, waiting at the door 701 00:32:38,624 --> 00:32:40,123 to check your temperature. 702 00:32:40,192 --> 00:32:42,626 You're wearing a mask, like-- it was like, "Oh dang. 703 00:32:42,695 --> 00:32:45,195 Like, this is a different world right now. 704 00:32:45,264 --> 00:32:47,531 And that made it really sink in. 705 00:32:47,599 --> 00:32:52,903 But I do not have COVID, which is great. 706 00:32:52,972 --> 00:32:56,206 It was a relief to find out, like, I'm good. 707 00:32:56,275 --> 00:32:58,608 But then, you still have that feeling for other people. 708 00:32:58,677 --> 00:33:00,210 Like, there's people actually going through, 709 00:33:00,279 --> 00:33:02,512 and being tested, and positive, 710 00:33:02,581 --> 00:33:04,748 and so sick and losing family members. 711 00:33:04,817 --> 00:33:08,385 Like, it is so sad and so scary. 712 00:33:21,200 --> 00:33:22,833 [phone ringing] 713 00:33:26,138 --> 00:33:27,804 - My sister got home from visiting her boyfriend 714 00:33:27,873 --> 00:33:30,307 a few days ago, and she's not feeling well. 715 00:33:30,376 --> 00:33:33,543 But it's hard to actually get tested for COVID-19, 716 00:33:33,612 --> 00:33:36,713 so we have to call the doctor. 717 00:33:36,782 --> 00:33:40,450 [line ringing] 718 00:33:40,519 --> 00:33:42,119 - Hi, I have my sister here 719 00:33:42,187 --> 00:33:45,122 who thinks she has the virus, and we were wondering 720 00:33:45,190 --> 00:33:48,692 if we can make an appointment to get tested for her. 721 00:33:49,895 --> 00:33:51,261 - She's not feeling good, 722 00:33:51,330 --> 00:33:54,865 and she has, like, a really bad cough. 723 00:34:00,105 --> 00:34:01,204 - Okay. 724 00:34:03,709 --> 00:34:05,375 - Okay. Thank you so much. 725 00:34:06,812 --> 00:34:07,778 - Bye. 726 00:34:07,846 --> 00:34:09,679 - [coughing] 727 00:34:09,748 --> 00:34:12,416 - Her doctor said Brittany qualifies for a COVID test, 728 00:34:12,484 --> 00:34:13,717 so my mom's watching the girls 729 00:34:13,786 --> 00:34:15,819 and we're heading to a drive-through center. 730 00:34:15,888 --> 00:34:17,387 - Out of everybody in my family, 731 00:34:17,456 --> 00:34:19,423 it'd have to be me, though. 732 00:34:19,491 --> 00:34:22,025 - She'll be okay, right? You'll be okay? 733 00:34:22,094 --> 00:34:23,660 You'll be okay. 734 00:34:23,729 --> 00:34:27,931 This is like, intense. Look at that. 735 00:34:28,000 --> 00:34:29,666 It's [bleep] crazy. 736 00:34:29,735 --> 00:34:32,035 Can I record this, by any chance? 737 00:34:32,104 --> 00:34:33,236 Okay. 738 00:34:57,830 --> 00:34:58,762 - You okay? 739 00:35:06,405 --> 00:35:09,005 - Okay, thank you. Have a good day. 740 00:35:09,074 --> 00:35:11,241 - Oh my God, I'm so sorry. - Oh my God. 741 00:35:11,310 --> 00:35:17,080 - I'm so sorry. - [coughing] 742 00:35:17,149 --> 00:35:19,583 [bleep] My nose hurts. 743 00:35:19,651 --> 00:35:23,753 That was not cute at all. 744 00:35:23,822 --> 00:35:26,423 - If she is positive, we have to come up with a game plan 745 00:35:26,492 --> 00:35:28,024 on what we're going to do 746 00:35:28,093 --> 00:35:32,295 because I don't think she can stay here in this house. 747 00:35:34,066 --> 00:35:36,566 No idea. 748 00:35:36,635 --> 00:35:39,536 This is, like, so crazy. 749 00:35:39,605 --> 00:35:43,940 Let's just see what the [bleep] happens. 750 00:35:44,009 --> 00:35:47,644 I'm stressed. I'm really, really stressed. 751 00:35:51,416 --> 00:35:53,350 - I'm really appreciative of Jeremy, 752 00:35:53,418 --> 00:35:55,285 and I want to talk to him about my book 753 00:35:55,354 --> 00:35:56,520 when I pick up Addie 754 00:35:56,588 --> 00:35:58,421 because I know some of the content 755 00:35:58,490 --> 00:36:01,558 hasn't been easy for him now that it's public. 756 00:36:01,627 --> 00:36:04,694 - Yes. - Was that in both cameras? 757 00:36:04,763 --> 00:36:06,062 - Yeah. You can see both of my-- 758 00:36:06,131 --> 00:36:07,864 You can see my hand on both clap, yeah. 759 00:36:07,933 --> 00:36:12,435 - Alright, that's awesome. - So did she do good? 760 00:36:12,504 --> 00:36:14,171 - Yeah, she's good. 761 00:36:14,239 --> 00:36:16,840 - Was she excited to see you? - I think so. 762 00:36:16,909 --> 00:36:19,276 - I know the girls were excited to see Corey. 763 00:36:19,344 --> 00:36:20,410 You quarantined your ass 764 00:36:20,479 --> 00:36:21,811 before I let Addie come over here. 765 00:36:21,880 --> 00:36:25,282 - Well, yeah, but still. - Just because you don't know. 766 00:36:25,350 --> 00:36:26,783 - You never know. 767 00:36:26,852 --> 00:36:29,452 - And then I switched everything with my book around 768 00:36:29,521 --> 00:36:32,656 to being virtually. 769 00:36:32,724 --> 00:36:35,025 Remember the last conversation we had about my book? 770 00:36:40,899 --> 00:36:43,800 - I still wanted to have a face to face conversation with you, 771 00:36:43,869 --> 00:36:45,835 kind of see where you're at with things. 772 00:36:45,904 --> 00:36:47,537 - I mean, you already told me about the abortion 773 00:36:47,606 --> 00:36:48,638 possibly going to be in the book, 774 00:36:48,707 --> 00:36:50,607 so I really wasn't surprised. 775 00:36:50,676 --> 00:36:51,808 I've been dreading that since you told me 776 00:36:51,877 --> 00:36:53,843 about that [bleep] a year ago. 777 00:36:53,912 --> 00:36:55,679 - Well, I mean, it's something 778 00:36:55,747 --> 00:36:56,980 that no one should be ashamed of, 779 00:36:57,049 --> 00:36:58,715 no one should be afraid to speak about. 780 00:36:58,784 --> 00:37:01,284 - I ain't talking about that [bleep], we're done. 781 00:37:01,353 --> 00:37:02,519 - No, we can talk about it, it's-- 782 00:37:02,588 --> 00:37:03,620 - I don't want to talk about it. 783 00:37:03,689 --> 00:37:04,955 - It's nothing like-- 784 00:37:05,023 --> 00:37:06,089 - I just don't want to talk about it. 785 00:37:06,158 --> 00:37:07,958 - But it is-- That is what happened. 786 00:37:08,026 --> 00:37:10,093 So if I would have left that out of my book, 787 00:37:10,162 --> 00:37:11,728 I would have been lying. 788 00:37:11,797 --> 00:37:12,829 - I just feel like there's certain things 789 00:37:12,898 --> 00:37:14,064 you could probably [bleep] like, 790 00:37:14,132 --> 00:37:16,333 left out, sugar-coated a little bit better. 791 00:37:16,401 --> 00:37:17,567 I don't know. 792 00:37:17,636 --> 00:37:19,803 - No, that's not owning my [bleep]. 793 00:37:19,871 --> 00:37:23,406 It's sad that I felt ashamed or fearful 794 00:37:23,475 --> 00:37:26,042 to talk about that decision. 795 00:37:26,111 --> 00:37:28,311 - Well, you had plenty of people in your [bleep] head 796 00:37:28,380 --> 00:37:29,779 telling you all kinds of [bleep], 797 00:37:29,848 --> 00:37:31,748 if I remember correctly, and you told me one night, 798 00:37:31,817 --> 00:37:33,416 driving up I-79, right about there-- 799 00:37:33,485 --> 00:37:36,620 - No, I told you right in front of your mom and dad's house. 800 00:37:36,688 --> 00:37:38,288 - I remember a lot of this time in my life, 801 00:37:38,357 --> 00:37:39,689 almost to the second and place-- 802 00:37:39,758 --> 00:37:41,224 - I'm going to give it to you. 803 00:37:41,293 --> 00:37:42,993 I'm going to give it to you, I was very blacked out. 804 00:37:43,061 --> 00:37:45,228 - And then, like, I just never brought it back up to you. 805 00:37:45,297 --> 00:37:46,529 I never talked about it. 806 00:37:46,598 --> 00:37:47,697 And we got back together, and I was kind 807 00:37:47,766 --> 00:37:49,699 and just left it alone. 808 00:37:49,768 --> 00:37:50,967 I mean, it was [bleep] up. 809 00:37:51,036 --> 00:37:52,869 Like, I was not happy with you that night. 810 00:37:52,938 --> 00:37:55,138 Like, that night, man, it was just like something flipped. 811 00:37:55,207 --> 00:37:57,207 And you just started, just like, you had had enough 812 00:37:57,276 --> 00:37:58,475 of trying to hide [bleep]. 813 00:37:58,543 --> 00:37:59,976 - And we had the conversation. 814 00:38:00,045 --> 00:38:01,645 - You told me about the abortion. 815 00:38:01,713 --> 00:38:04,447 We stayed together for another five months 816 00:38:04,516 --> 00:38:06,149 after the cheating [bleep]. 817 00:38:06,218 --> 00:38:08,118 I was kind of, like, not wanting to, like, 818 00:38:08,186 --> 00:38:09,819 not believe you 100 percent. 819 00:38:09,888 --> 00:38:11,721 But then I didn't know to believe these other people, 820 00:38:11,790 --> 00:38:13,156 is kind of what I mean. - But I'm owning my mistake. 821 00:38:13,225 --> 00:38:14,524 - But it's proof of [bleep] happening. 822 00:38:14,593 --> 00:38:16,126 - That's what I've been saying. 823 00:38:16,194 --> 00:38:18,028 Mind you, I'm on pain medication pretty hardcore. 824 00:38:18,096 --> 00:38:20,263 That's also in my book, me talking about being an addict. 825 00:38:20,332 --> 00:38:22,699 And even the Suboxone, I had to pull myself off 826 00:38:22,768 --> 00:38:24,334 that [bleep]. - I was there, Leah. 827 00:38:24,403 --> 00:38:25,635 I remember all of that [bleep]. 828 00:38:25,704 --> 00:38:26,736 - You would hold the medication 829 00:38:26,805 --> 00:38:28,104 and give it to me as it was prescribed. 830 00:38:28,173 --> 00:38:29,673 - Because you started going nuts. 831 00:38:29,741 --> 00:38:30,940 - But still, that's not a good idea because it's still-- 832 00:38:31,009 --> 00:38:32,075 - What else was I supposed to do? 833 00:38:32,144 --> 00:38:33,743 - It's-- 834 00:38:33,812 --> 00:38:35,478 I'm not saying you're guilty, but I'm saying-- 835 00:38:35,547 --> 00:38:37,113 - I shouldn't let you drive off and get it from Billy Bob 836 00:38:37,182 --> 00:38:38,982 that might not be giving you the correct [bleep]. 837 00:38:39,051 --> 00:38:40,350 At least I knew what is in our [bleep] house at the time. 838 00:38:40,419 --> 00:38:41,718 Everybody in the world acts like I left you 839 00:38:41,787 --> 00:38:43,420 because you had anxiety and depression. 840 00:38:43,488 --> 00:38:45,155 I got to deal with [bleep] about a year and a half long. 841 00:38:45,223 --> 00:38:46,289 - You did, but it doesn't matter 842 00:38:46,358 --> 00:38:47,691 what other people think. 843 00:38:47,759 --> 00:38:49,659 - I left you mostly because-- - It was toxic. 844 00:38:49,728 --> 00:38:50,660 - It was horrible. - It was toxic. 845 00:38:50,729 --> 00:38:52,128 Just admit it, it was toxic. 846 00:38:54,166 --> 00:38:55,932 - Well, you literally made one statement to me 847 00:38:56,001 --> 00:38:57,934 at the park-and-ride. You said, Leah, 848 00:38:58,003 --> 00:38:59,602 if you can't love yourself, you can't love anyone else. 849 00:38:59,671 --> 00:39:00,737 - Yeah, and I meant it. 850 00:39:00,806 --> 00:39:01,805 You can't love me 851 00:39:01,873 --> 00:39:04,574 if you don't love yourself. 852 00:39:09,114 --> 00:39:13,283 - Sorry, I don't want to cry, I just want to do better. 853 00:39:13,352 --> 00:39:15,118 I was like, damn. - Yeah well, you couldn't. 854 00:39:15,187 --> 00:39:16,219 - Like, for it to be coming from Jeremy, 855 00:39:16,288 --> 00:39:18,221 that was some good words to hold onto. 856 00:39:18,290 --> 00:39:19,522 And it doesn't matter how things are going, 857 00:39:19,591 --> 00:39:20,890 we always communicate well. 858 00:39:20,959 --> 00:39:23,126 - We're always good. - Yeah, always. 859 00:39:23,195 --> 00:39:25,528 - I love you. - I love you, Jer. 860 00:39:27,432 --> 00:39:28,965 - What? 861 00:39:30,302 --> 00:39:32,035 - All right, I gotta go. - We're about to leave. 862 00:39:32,104 --> 00:39:33,536 All right. 863 00:39:33,605 --> 00:39:34,838 ♪ ♪ 864 00:39:34,906 --> 00:39:39,709 - ♪ Home, growing like a flower ♪ 865 00:39:39,778 --> 00:39:42,278 ♪ Got me missing you ♪ 866 00:39:42,347 --> 00:39:46,583 ♪ I need the sun to see me through ♪ 867 00:39:46,651 --> 00:39:49,986 ♪ Illuminate the skies ♪ 868 00:39:50,055 --> 00:39:53,456 ♪ Like neon fireflies ♪ 869 00:39:53,525 --> 00:39:55,558 ♪ Light up, light up ♪ 870 00:39:55,627 --> 00:39:59,162 ♪ For the dreamers and for the lovers ♪ 871 00:39:59,231 --> 00:40:02,832 ♪ Hear the thunder, undercover ♪ 872 00:40:02,901 --> 00:40:06,302 ♪ For the reckless and the believers ♪ 873 00:40:06,371 --> 00:40:08,104 ♪ For the lovers ♪ 874 00:40:08,173 --> 00:40:11,541 ♪ Hear the thunder, undercover ♪ 875 00:40:11,610 --> 00:40:14,978 ♪ For the reckless and the believers ♪ 876 00:40:15,046 --> 00:40:16,713 ♪ For the heartless ♪ 877 00:40:16,782 --> 00:40:18,681 ♪ This is for the dreamers ♪ 878 00:40:18,750 --> 00:40:23,753 ♪ ♪ 879 00:40:23,822 --> 00:40:25,655 ♪ This is for the dreamers ♪ 880 00:40:25,724 --> 00:40:30,093 ♪ ♪ 881 00:40:32,597 --> 00:40:34,264 - It's legit. 882 00:40:36,401 --> 00:40:39,502 - She was running a fever yesterday of 103.6. 883 00:40:39,571 --> 00:40:42,038 - Things are going to be very different this school year. 884 00:40:45,677 --> 00:40:47,110 - I've decided to do home birth. 885 00:40:47,179 --> 00:40:50,280 I'm gonna make the full switch from the OB to the midwife. 886 00:40:50,348 --> 00:40:51,781 - I want you to have, like, more drive 887 00:40:51,850 --> 00:40:53,049 and more aspirations. - I have drive. 888 00:40:53,118 --> 00:40:55,118 - No one's just gonna hand you an opportunity.