1 00:01:56,080 --> 00:01:57,580 That will make you think. 2 00:03:20,946 --> 00:03:23,623 Based on the novel 'Night train to Lisbon' 3 00:03:31,612 --> 00:03:34,320 Bern, Switzerland 4 00:03:44,027 --> 00:03:45,319 Stay there! 5 00:04:15,982 --> 00:04:16,982 Thank you. 6 00:04:26,314 --> 00:04:27,866 May I walk with you? 7 00:04:29,814 --> 00:04:30,772 Right. 8 00:04:39,563 --> 00:04:41,979 Good morning, ladies and gentlemen.|Good morning,sir! 9 00:04:42,646 --> 00:04:45,021 We have a visitor... this morning. 10 00:04:48,520 --> 00:04:49,562 Eh, your coat... 11 00:04:54,895 --> 00:04:56,145 Perhaps... there 12 00:04:58,978 --> 00:05:02,394 I'm afraid there has been a slight mishap on the way here... 13 00:05:03,102 --> 00:05:06,196 I think the corrections will soon be legible. 14 00:05:06,810 --> 00:05:09,018 Max, would you do the honors? 15 00:05:10,268 --> 00:05:12,268 More work required there... 16 00:05:12,851 --> 00:05:17,559 'And no opportunity to honor and respect yourself.' 17 00:05:18,392 --> 00:05:23,517 But Marcus Aurelius was both a philosopher and an emperor. 18 00:05:23,683 --> 00:05:27,141 Which is no coincidence, that was the way with the Romans. 19 00:05:27,308 --> 00:05:30,599 Thought and action were all one. 20 00:05:30,808 --> 00:05:34,557 I think we were in chapter 12, page 42 21 00:05:47,598 --> 00:05:50,931 Er... Natalie, perhaps you begin? 22 00:05:51,764 --> 00:05:55,180 'How can it be that the gods... 23 00:05:56,222 --> 00:05:58,513 overlooked this along at some 24 00:05:58,680 --> 00:06:01,523 amongst men... 25 00:06:02,388 --> 00:06:05,096 ... and those very good men, 26 00:06:05,387 --> 00:06:08,231 ... who have had the most... 27 00:06:08,762 --> 00:06:11,137 intercourse with the divine.' 28 00:06:13,053 --> 00:06:14,772 please, keep on going. 29 00:06:56,090 --> 00:07:00,475 'If it is so that we only live a small part|of the life that is within us, 30 00:07:01,590 --> 00:07:03,923 What happens to the rest?' 31 00:07:15,588 --> 00:07:17,255 Hello, Dr. Gregorious. 32 00:07:17,547 --> 00:07:20,963 I'm afraid, your book on Persian grammar book hasn't yet arrived. 33 00:07:21,379 --> 00:07:24,837 No, that's not why I came...|Do you know that book? 34 00:07:25,504 --> 00:07:28,754 Indeed, I sold it to someone yesterday. 35 00:07:28,920 --> 00:07:30,045 A woman? 36 00:07:30,212 --> 00:07:33,670 Yes, she came in, asked for the Portuguese section 37 00:07:33,837 --> 00:07:36,253 found this book, sat there, 38 00:07:36,420 --> 00:07:39,628 read it for an hour or so, then became rather upset 39 00:07:39,794 --> 00:07:43,377 paid for the book and left.|How did you come by it? 40 00:07:43,711 --> 00:07:45,002 I found it. 41 00:07:45,460 --> 00:07:47,096 Beautiful title... 42 00:07:47,252 --> 00:07:49,627 'A Goldsmith of Words.' 43 00:07:56,792 --> 00:07:58,084 Train tickets... 44 00:07:59,251 --> 00:08:02,834 Where to?|- Lisbon, eventually. 45 00:08:04,458 --> 00:08:06,625 Leaving in 15 minutes. 46 00:08:08,791 --> 00:08:11,124 Thank you.|She was wearing that coat! 47 00:08:21,540 --> 00:08:22,925 Attention please, 48 00:08:23,123 --> 00:08:26,706 Line 10, pier 8 is now leaving 49 00:08:28,997 --> 00:08:30,789 What's all this noise? 50 00:08:33,039 --> 00:08:36,205 Where is mr. Gregorious?|He left, Mr. Kagi. 51 00:08:36,372 --> 00:08:37,413 He left? 52 00:08:38,163 --> 00:08:40,871 There was a woman with him here... 53 00:08:42,329 --> 00:08:43,621 Impossible. 54 00:09:21,867 --> 00:09:23,825 'We live here and now,' 55 00:09:24,200 --> 00:09:27,866 'Everything before and in other places is past ' 56 00:09:28,033 --> 00:09:29,783 'and mostly forgotten.' 57 00:09:39,532 --> 00:09:42,209 This is Mr. Kagi, where are you? 58 00:09:44,323 --> 00:09:46,781 On a train...|A train? 59 00:09:47,698 --> 00:09:50,281 Where to?|Lisbon. 60 00:09:51,406 --> 00:09:54,530 Would you take care of my books?|I left them on my desk. 61 00:10:02,279 --> 00:10:05,123 'What could - what should be done,' 62 00:10:05,279 --> 00:10:07,904 'with all the time that lies ahead of us?' 63 00:10:08,154 --> 00:10:10,154 'Open and unshaped,' 64 00:10:10,362 --> 00:10:12,820 'featherlight in its freedom' 65 00:10:12,987 --> 00:10:16,111 'and lead-heavy in its uncertainty?' 66 00:10:17,111 --> 00:10:18,403 'Is it a wish' 67 00:10:19,486 --> 00:10:22,027 'dreamlike and nostalgic,' 68 00:10:22,194 --> 00:10:26,527 'to stand once again at that point in life,' 69 00:10:27,402 --> 00:10:31,110 'and be able to take a completely different direction' 70 00:10:31,485 --> 00:10:34,359 'to the one which has made us who we are?' 71 00:11:22,188 --> 00:11:23,521 Do you have a room? 72 00:11:25,229 --> 00:11:27,729 Where is your luggage?|I don't have any. 73 00:11:30,687 --> 00:11:32,687 I will trust you and give you a room. 74 00:11:33,728 --> 00:11:35,228 with a view of the sea. 75 00:11:43,352 --> 00:11:44,987 There... the sea. 76 00:11:48,352 --> 00:11:50,393 Anything else, sir?|Yes 77 00:11:51,476 --> 00:11:54,237 I want to find the address of the man who wrote this. 78 00:11:59,434 --> 00:12:00,684 Thank you. 79 00:12:02,142 --> 00:12:04,985 Anything else?|No, thank you. 80 00:12:43,388 --> 00:12:45,762 Good morning, I am looking for Amadeu de Prado. 81 00:12:47,304 --> 00:12:48,637 A moment. 82 00:13:06,302 --> 00:13:08,302 I believe you are looking for my brother? 83 00:13:08,718 --> 00:13:12,718 Yes, is the doctor in?|Are you ill? 84 00:13:13,468 --> 00:13:15,968 No, I'm... I'm reading this book. 85 00:13:16,176 --> 00:13:18,634 I very much like to meet him. 86 00:13:19,259 --> 00:13:22,967 What he writes touches me very deeply. 87 00:13:26,258 --> 00:13:27,977 You should come inside. 88 00:13:30,633 --> 00:13:32,216 You may sit. 89 00:13:33,341 --> 00:13:37,726 Some tea? Red Assam is Amadeu's preference. 90 00:13:42,423 --> 00:13:43,892 Tea, Clotilde. 91 00:13:45,215 --> 00:13:47,381 This is Amadeu's favorite room. 92 00:13:48,464 --> 00:13:49,850 It is beautiful though. 93 00:13:51,631 --> 00:13:53,922 He has read every one of those books. 94 00:13:58,921 --> 00:14:01,546 Does he still practice as a doctor? 95 00:14:02,796 --> 00:14:04,213 Where did you get it? 96 00:14:04,379 --> 00:14:07,504 I came across it in Bern; that's where I live. 97 00:14:08,087 --> 00:14:10,420 Only one hundred were ever printed. 98 00:14:10,879 --> 00:14:12,837 I have six copies left. 99 00:14:16,461 --> 00:14:19,503 Often wondered where the other ninety-four went... 100 00:14:23,211 --> 00:14:25,210 Bern is in Switzerland, is it not? 101 00:14:27,627 --> 00:14:31,418 Then the book has travelled.|That is a good thing. 102 00:14:35,084 --> 00:14:38,959 Has he written anything else?|Nothing that has been published. 103 00:14:40,167 --> 00:14:42,709 He wanted to be a writer, a philosopher... 104 00:14:44,458 --> 00:14:46,542 Then he decided to become a doctor; 105 00:14:46,916 --> 00:14:49,500 he didn't believe people should be in pain. 106 00:14:53,332 --> 00:14:55,666 Is that him?|That is our father 107 00:14:57,624 --> 00:15:00,832 He was a famous judge.|Yes, so I gathered from the book. 108 00:15:01,207 --> 00:15:04,540 He and Amadeu had a rather complicated relationship. 109 00:15:04,706 --> 00:15:09,164 'Considered from the standpoint of eternity,|that rather loses its significance...' 110 00:15:09,997 --> 00:15:11,247 Yes... 111 00:15:12,331 --> 00:15:16,549 He often said that to Amadeu.|Amadeu doesn't believe in eternity. 112 00:15:17,538 --> 00:15:19,205 Unfortunately not. 113 00:15:20,496 --> 00:15:22,746 I don't mean to pry, but ... 114 00:15:24,413 --> 00:15:27,704 may I ask how your father died? 115 00:15:28,079 --> 00:15:30,204 No, no; you may not. 116 00:15:35,786 --> 00:15:37,453 If you want to see Amadeu 117 00:15:38,244 --> 00:15:41,119 you will find him in the Prazeres Cemetery. 118 00:15:48,493 --> 00:15:51,170 'We leave something of ourselves behind' 119 00:15:51,451 --> 00:15:53,326 'only leave a place,' 120 00:15:54,909 --> 00:15:58,534 'we stay there even though we go away.' 121 00:16:00,034 --> 00:16:01,867 'And there are things in us' 122 00:16:02,409 --> 00:16:06,075 'that we can find again only by going back there.' 123 00:16:07,908 --> 00:16:11,199 'We travel to ourselves when we go to a place' 124 00:16:11,783 --> 00:16:14,199 'though we have covered a stretch of our life,' 125 00:16:15,324 --> 00:16:18,365 'no matter how brief it may have been.' 126 00:16:20,407 --> 00:16:25,073 'But by travelling to ourselves|we must confront our own loneliness.' 127 00:16:26,698 --> 00:16:29,073 'And isn't it so everything we do' 128 00:16:29,239 --> 00:16:31,822 'is done out of fear of loneliness?' 129 00:16:33,989 --> 00:16:35,905 'Isn't that why we renounce' 130 00:16:36,072 --> 00:16:39,655 'All the things we will regret at the end of our lives?' 131 00:16:46,112 --> 00:16:49,779 Excuse me, I am looking for Amadeu de Almeida Prado. 132 00:17:04,152 --> 00:17:06,610 ' When dictatorship is a fact, 133 00:17:07,569 --> 00:17:10,527 revolution is a duty.' 134 00:17:29,400 --> 00:17:30,816 Bloody idiot! 135 00:17:48,106 --> 00:17:51,397 'Is it ultimately a question of self-image' 136 00:17:51,731 --> 00:17:54,605 ' that determining idea one has made for oneselve of' 137 00:17:54,772 --> 00:17:57,730 'of what has to be accomplished and experienced' 138 00:17:57,938 --> 00:18:01,188 'so that one can approve the life one has lived?' 139 00:18:02,521 --> 00:18:04,240 ' If this is the case,' 140 00:18:04,563 --> 00:18:06,896 'the fear of death might be described' 141 00:18:07,062 --> 00:18:11,562 ' as the fear of not been able to become whom one planned to be.' 142 00:18:13,562 --> 00:18:15,811 'If the certainty befalls us' 143 00:18:15,978 --> 00:18:18,769 'that it will never be achieved... this homeness,' 144 00:18:18,936 --> 00:18:22,561 'you suddenly don't know how to live the time,' 145 00:18:22,727 --> 00:18:26,060 'that can no longer be part of a whole life.' 146 00:18:37,143 --> 00:18:38,267 Better? 147 00:18:40,309 --> 00:18:41,809 Or worse? 148 00:18:42,975 --> 00:18:44,225 Better. 149 00:18:44,392 --> 00:18:48,058 You feel as if you wrote the book yourself.|I would have liked it have done. 150 00:18:48,225 --> 00:18:52,224 He talks about everything that has preoccupied me for years. 151 00:18:52,849 --> 00:18:54,641 Better? Or worse? 152 00:18:55,849 --> 00:18:57,015 Worse. 153 00:18:58,307 --> 00:19:01,015 Tell me one of these beautiful sentences you read. 154 00:19:01,307 --> 00:19:05,525 'The real director of life is accident,' 155 00:19:06,056 --> 00:19:08,181 'a director full of cruelty' 156 00:19:08,348 --> 00:19:11,274 'compassion and bewitching charm.' 157 00:19:11,431 --> 00:19:13,097 By accident he means fate? 158 00:19:13,264 --> 00:19:16,555 No, I think he means chance, randomness chance. 159 00:19:17,305 --> 00:19:20,471 Let's take a break; rest your eyes for a moment. 160 00:19:21,680 --> 00:19:23,638 You're a man who doesn't sleep well... 161 00:19:23,804 --> 00:19:26,596 You can tell?|The eyes reveal everything. 162 00:19:28,804 --> 00:19:30,439 Look at these eyes. 163 00:19:31,554 --> 00:19:33,637 Tell me what they reveal. 164 00:19:34,345 --> 00:19:36,678 They melancholic, but hopeful 165 00:19:36,845 --> 00:19:40,219 tired, but persistent... contradictory. 166 00:19:40,469 --> 00:19:44,136 Why would his sister pretend that he is still alive? 167 00:19:44,386 --> 00:19:46,844 I have no idea... Shall we resume? 168 00:19:56,468 --> 00:19:59,394 So you met a woman in a red coat who disappeared, 169 00:19:59,551 --> 00:20:02,342 and you just dropped everything?|And then I read the book. 170 00:20:03,384 --> 00:20:06,394 I would love to be able to do that: drop everything... 171 00:20:06,717 --> 00:20:09,883 You do that often?|No, I haven't done anything like that before. 172 00:20:10,466 --> 00:20:12,341 Better? Or worse? 173 00:20:12,591 --> 00:20:14,091 Er... better. 174 00:20:15,674 --> 00:20:17,674 How does that feel? 175 00:20:18,549 --> 00:20:20,798 You talk about seeing as feeling... 176 00:20:20,965 --> 00:20:22,840 Well, isn't it?|Suppose it is... 177 00:20:23,340 --> 00:20:26,100 How clear is it, the image?|Very clear. 178 00:20:27,714 --> 00:20:29,048 And how about this? 179 00:20:32,714 --> 00:20:34,380 Everything is in focus. 180 00:20:42,005 --> 00:20:44,463 Sir, we have this new one... 181 00:20:48,296 --> 00:20:50,379 'The decisive moments of life,' 182 00:20:50,545 --> 00:20:53,087 'when its direction changes forever,' 183 00:20:53,712 --> 00:20:56,555 'are not always marked by large and shown dramatics.' 184 00:20:57,711 --> 00:21:02,711 'In truth, the dramatic moments of a life determining experience,' 185 00:21:02,877 --> 00:21:05,752 'are often unbelieveable low key.' 186 00:21:06,960 --> 00:21:10,418 'When it unfolds its revolutionary effects' 187 00:21:10,585 --> 00:21:14,751 ' and insures that a life is revealed in a brand new light,' 188 00:21:14,918 --> 00:21:17,209 'it does that silently.' 189 00:21:18,542 --> 00:21:23,500 'And is this wonderful silence resides its special nobility.' 190 00:21:24,792 --> 00:21:27,208 Now you wonder if your pair were better... 191 00:21:27,416 --> 00:21:29,166 Yes...|But they're not, are they? 192 00:21:31,999 --> 00:21:34,166 No..., they feel very light. 193 00:21:34,416 --> 00:21:36,624 Getting used to them will take some time. 194 00:21:37,249 --> 00:21:41,498 Do you take Credit Cards?|Can can sort all that out with my receptionist. 195 00:21:42,582 --> 00:21:45,508 Before you go... I have an uncle. 196 00:21:46,248 --> 00:21:48,925 He lives in a nursing home across the barrio. 197 00:21:49,081 --> 00:21:52,039 I called him last night and told him about you and the book; 198 00:21:52,539 --> 00:21:54,580 He knew Amadeu de Prado well. 199 00:21:54,747 --> 00:21:58,705 I told him you want to know about Amadeu|and he said he talk to you. 200 00:21:59,330 --> 00:22:01,288 He was in the Resistance. 201 00:22:02,621 --> 00:22:05,912 I must warn you, my uncle can be difficult. 202 00:22:06,287 --> 00:22:07,756 In what way? 203 00:22:08,662 --> 00:22:11,995 The generation that lived under the dictator Salazar 204 00:22:12,162 --> 00:22:15,495 is still battling to come to terms with what happened. 205 00:22:16,203 --> 00:22:19,744 When the resistance began the Secret Police were extremely brutal; 206 00:22:19,911 --> 00:22:23,036 to this day people don't like talking about it, 207 00:22:23,411 --> 00:22:26,337 the perpetrators as well as their victims. 208 00:22:34,493 --> 00:22:36,128 Uncle João, how are you? 209 00:22:36,784 --> 00:22:38,253 What are you doing here? 210 00:22:38,701 --> 00:22:41,742 This is the man I was telling you about,|Raimund Gregorious, I brought him. 211 00:22:41,909 --> 00:22:44,117 I said he talked to him, not you 212 00:22:44,283 --> 00:22:47,616 You can wait in reception.|We get to the launch. 213 00:22:56,116 --> 00:22:59,407 So, you are interested in de Amadeu Prado? 214 00:23:02,073 --> 00:23:04,656 Mariana tells me you have a book he wrote? 215 00:23:04,823 --> 00:23:05,948 Want you like to see it? 216 00:23:06,115 --> 00:23:10,739 I can imigine what it is like, the godless priest. 217 00:23:12,114 --> 00:23:13,989 It's a good description... 218 00:23:15,239 --> 00:23:18,165 He was the only visit they allowed me in prison. 219 00:23:19,571 --> 00:23:21,446 Every week he visit, 220 00:23:21,696 --> 00:23:25,113 with books, medicines and cigarettes... 221 00:23:26,112 --> 00:23:29,779 which, of course, they take away the moment he leave. 222 00:23:31,112 --> 00:23:33,789 Yeah, he had privileges... 223 00:23:35,278 --> 00:23:38,819 What sort of privileges?|The kind you do not want in life. 224 00:23:41,153 --> 00:23:44,319 Do you have cigarette?|No sorry, I don't smoke. 225 00:23:44,486 --> 00:23:45,485 Pity! 226 00:23:49,610 --> 00:23:54,568 Mariana tells me that you and Amadeu were in the Resistance. 227 00:23:54,859 --> 00:23:58,192 And Jorge, his best friend.|Yes, he writes a lot about Jorge. 228 00:23:58,442 --> 00:24:00,651 They were joined, in the heart and the soul. 229 00:24:01,359 --> 00:24:02,692 For a time... 230 00:24:03,067 --> 00:24:07,400 But Amadeu... he was too soft for the Resistance. 231 00:24:08,150 --> 00:24:11,691 He only joined because he felt guilty. 232 00:24:13,399 --> 00:24:16,649 Mariana tells me that you are from Switzerland? 233 00:24:16,816 --> 00:24:18,232 Yes, Bern. 234 00:24:19,482 --> 00:24:22,107 There was never a revolution in Switzerland, was there? 235 00:24:22,398 --> 00:24:26,939 No, somehow they always managed to avoid such things... 236 00:24:27,564 --> 00:24:30,408 They wouldn't know what is life to live without trusting 237 00:24:30,647 --> 00:24:34,439 never to trust your friends or family. 238 00:24:35,939 --> 00:24:38,865 I met his sister... Adriana? 239 00:24:39,022 --> 00:24:42,230 she acts as if he's still alive. 240 00:24:43,021 --> 00:24:45,146 But she wears black, as if in mourning. 241 00:24:58,978 --> 00:25:01,988 You can only fill my cup halfway. 242 00:25:16,351 --> 00:25:19,226 No one has ever done that for me before. 243 00:25:37,099 --> 00:25:41,182 A gift from PIDE,|the Portuguese Secret Police. 244 00:25:43,348 --> 00:25:46,848 Rui Luís Mendez, was his name. 245 00:25:51,139 --> 00:25:52,556 in the springtime... 246 00:26:04,846 --> 00:26:06,096 I'm home! 247 00:26:15,886 --> 00:26:17,136 Who are you? 248 00:26:18,220 --> 00:26:19,344 Where is my wife? 249 00:26:19,761 --> 00:26:22,605 She kindly took her children for a walk. 250 00:26:25,052 --> 00:26:28,968 This woman that knows all the names... where do I find her? 251 00:26:29,760 --> 00:26:31,312 I do not know... 252 00:26:33,093 --> 00:26:35,426 I do not know who you are talking about. 253 00:26:38,801 --> 00:26:41,644 Your wife tells me you are an excellent pianist. 254 00:26:42,884 --> 00:26:46,717 Will you play for me... and my friends? 255 00:26:48,508 --> 00:26:49,758 Please?! 256 00:27:02,173 --> 00:27:03,725 Can I see your hands? Please? 257 00:27:30,295 --> 00:27:33,587 What should I play?|Play as you favour it. 258 00:27:49,293 --> 00:27:51,918 They say she has a photographic memory. 259 00:27:53,376 --> 00:27:54,845 Is that true? 260 00:28:13,124 --> 00:28:16,707 I'll ask you once more:|where is she? 261 00:28:37,872 --> 00:28:40,205 What make it all the more terrible 262 00:28:40,955 --> 00:28:42,871 was that some months earlier, 263 00:28:43,746 --> 00:28:47,746 Amadeu... he saved Mendes' life. 264 00:28:52,579 --> 00:28:57,120 Dinnertime... they serve us|early here, like in prison. 265 00:28:57,745 --> 00:29:01,286 Not for the inmates, you understand,|but for the staff. 266 00:29:03,202 --> 00:29:07,077 I'm glad he's finally been able to tell someone about it. 267 00:29:08,452 --> 00:29:10,618 I just wished it had been me. 268 00:29:11,452 --> 00:29:14,378 It is sometimes easier to speak with strangers. 269 00:29:15,618 --> 00:29:17,951 With my family it is a bit different. 270 00:29:18,159 --> 00:29:22,159 Pain is something we pretend happens to other people. 271 00:29:23,492 --> 00:29:25,408 When Uncle João disappeared, 272 00:29:25,575 --> 00:29:29,116 our parents told us he'd gone to Brazil to work. 273 00:29:29,491 --> 00:29:32,033 Then, after the Revolution, when he was released 274 00:29:32,199 --> 00:29:35,657 they told us he had an accident with his hands. 275 00:29:37,407 --> 00:29:40,084 He is very fond of you.|He is? 276 00:29:41,407 --> 00:29:43,990 Said you're the only one from the family that ever visits. 277 00:29:44,156 --> 00:29:46,833 He is always so grumpy, I don't blame the others. 278 00:29:47,781 --> 00:29:50,625 What else did he say?|He said he wished you were married. 279 00:29:51,864 --> 00:29:53,333 I hate him! 280 00:29:55,155 --> 00:29:57,572 Then, when you visited,|there be children. 281 00:29:58,947 --> 00:30:01,707 He actually said that? That he is fond of me? 282 00:30:07,446 --> 00:30:08,696 Do you have children? 283 00:30:10,737 --> 00:30:12,206 I have my students... 284 00:30:13,070 --> 00:30:16,278 But the faces change every year,|so I try not to get too fond of them. 285 00:30:37,443 --> 00:30:39,526 I think you are going to stay another day?! 286 00:30:41,442 --> 00:30:43,077 Yes, I might have to. 287 00:30:43,400 --> 00:30:44,786 Nice glasses. 288 00:31:37,811 --> 00:31:39,363 Father Bartholomeo? 289 00:31:41,728 --> 00:31:46,560 João Eça told me that you buried Amadeu de Prado. 290 00:31:48,102 --> 00:31:50,018 I would prefer to be remembered as the man 291 00:31:50,185 --> 00:31:52,685 who taught Amadeu 292 00:31:53,143 --> 00:31:55,101 not the one who buried him. 293 00:31:57,601 --> 00:32:00,007 Amadeu was twelve years old when he first came to this school. 294 00:32:01,517 --> 00:32:04,277 He came with no bags, no books 295 00:32:04,809 --> 00:32:06,683 He had read them all, you see. 296 00:32:07,058 --> 00:32:09,016 Everything was in his head. 297 00:32:10,683 --> 00:32:14,641 What does he say about this school in his book? 298 00:32:23,098 --> 00:32:25,431 'For 1922 days' 299 00:32:25,598 --> 00:32:29,389 'I attended Balissio where my Father sent me,' 300 00:32:29,598 --> 00:32:32,222 'the strictest school in the whole country.' 301 00:32:32,639 --> 00:32:35,264 'By the third day I realized that I had to count the days' 302 00:32:35,430 --> 00:32:37,430 'so as not to be crushed by them.' 303 00:32:39,722 --> 00:32:41,253 He... hated it that much? 304 00:32:44,763 --> 00:32:47,804 Were George and Amadeu in the same class? 305 00:32:48,221 --> 00:32:49,939 Er no, not at first, 306 00:32:50,095 --> 00:32:54,553 But Amadeu skipped two grades; 307 00:32:55,803 --> 00:32:57,803 he was that bright, you see, 308 00:32:58,178 --> 00:33:00,803 and for two years they were in the same class. 309 00:33:00,969 --> 00:33:01,876 Or I should say: they were in a class of their own. 310 00:33:04,844 --> 00:33:06,510 Amadeu, the aristocrat, 311 00:33:07,094 --> 00:33:09,094 and George, the working class boy. 312 00:33:09,552 --> 00:33:12,843 They had a very naughty curiosity,|those two... 313 00:33:13,760 --> 00:33:15,478 They would lie to their mothers, 314 00:33:15,634 --> 00:33:18,759 that they were going to spend the night in a friends house, 315 00:33:19,259 --> 00:33:21,342 and instead they came here. 316 00:33:30,883 --> 00:33:32,435 How did you find them, George? 317 00:33:32,591 --> 00:33:35,601 I was sleeping here, then I found that the floor was loose. 318 00:33:38,715 --> 00:33:41,090 Jean-Paul Sartre...|Karl Marx... 319 00:33:41,632 --> 00:33:42,496 Henry Miller... 320 00:33:43,798 --> 00:33:45,715 My god, if they found these books... 321 00:33:45,881 --> 00:33:49,089 We will end up in Tarrafal,|along with all the other political prisoners. 322 00:33:50,631 --> 00:33:52,214 But your father would never allowed that, would he, Amadeu? 323 00:33:53,589 --> 00:33:55,922 He would get prime minister Salazar to personally intervene 324 00:33:56,089 --> 00:33:57,838 and have the case thrown out of court. 325 00:33:58,963 --> 00:34:01,046 You think it's a joke that my father is a judge... 326 00:34:01,421 --> 00:34:03,119 I think it's a joke that the son of a greengrocer|is friends with the son of a judge. 327 00:34:05,588 --> 00:34:06,973 That is funny. 328 00:34:09,129 --> 00:34:10,462 You have to admit! 329 00:34:14,337 --> 00:34:18,795 Amadeu would have been unhappy wherever he was. 330 00:34:20,586 --> 00:34:22,919 He never played games with the other boys, 331 00:34:24,419 --> 00:34:26,335 he never let himself go... 332 00:34:27,877 --> 00:34:29,960 Except one time. 333 00:34:33,293 --> 00:34:35,970 Nobody forgot that time. 334 00:34:39,459 --> 00:34:41,094 Make room there, boys. Make room. 335 00:35:01,582 --> 00:35:04,425 My father is here.|Of course he is here. What did you expect? 336 00:35:04,581 --> 00:35:04,988 You should read thou this,|wrote most of... 337 00:35:04,998 --> 00:35:06,467 You should read this George,|you wrote most of it anyway. 338 00:35:06,623 --> 00:35:09,248 They are your words,|I only helped to choose them. 339 00:35:10,789 --> 00:35:14,164 Amadeu, what is our religion?|Loyalty. 340 00:35:14,372 --> 00:35:15,789 What are our values? 341 00:35:16,497 --> 00:35:18,538 Truth above all us. 342 00:35:18,872 --> 00:35:21,330 Exactly, just keep your eyes on me and you'll be fine. 343 00:35:24,454 --> 00:35:25,611 As is traditional 344 00:35:26,038 --> 00:35:30,089 we end our ceremony with a grade 12 graduation speech 345 00:35:30,412 --> 00:35:33,089 In this year, that honor will be bestowed to 346 00:35:33,620 --> 00:35:36,870 Amadeu de Almeida Prado. 347 00:36:05,617 --> 00:36:08,033 I would not like to live in a world without cathedrals. 348 00:36:09,325 --> 00:36:10,741 I need their beauty and grandeur 349 00:36:10,908 --> 00:36:13,283 against the dirty color of military uniforms. 350 00:36:16,407 --> 00:36:18,615 I love the powerful words of the Bible. 351 00:36:20,115 --> 00:36:22,198 I need the force of its poetry. 352 00:36:23,407 --> 00:36:26,250 I need it against the decay of language 353 00:36:26,406 --> 00:36:29,448 and the dictatorship of worthless slogans. 354 00:36:32,947 --> 00:36:35,155 But there is another world I do not wish to live in, 355 00:36:37,322 --> 00:36:40,113 a world in which independent thinking is despised 356 00:36:40,738 --> 00:36:43,904 and the finest things we can experience denounced as sin. 357 00:36:44,696 --> 00:36:46,446 A world in which our love 358 00:36:46,779 --> 00:36:50,779 Is demanded by tyrants, oppressors and assassins. 359 00:36:52,029 --> 00:36:55,278 And most absurdly: people are exhorted from the pulpit 360 00:36:55,695 --> 00:36:59,528 to forgive these creatures and even to love them. 361 00:37:01,278 --> 00:37:04,486 It is for this reason we cannot just put the bible aside. 362 00:37:05,152 --> 00:37:07,110 We have to throw it away completely: 363 00:37:07,277 --> 00:37:10,870 there it speaks only of a void,|hollower than our god. 364 00:37:12,776 --> 00:37:16,026 In his omnipresence the Lord observes us day and night. 365 00:37:16,818 --> 00:37:19,109 He takes note of our acts and thoughts 366 00:37:19,651 --> 00:37:22,192 But what is a man without secrets? 367 00:37:23,067 --> 00:37:26,025 Without thoughts and wishes that he and he alone knows? 368 00:37:27,567 --> 00:37:29,400 Does the Lord our God not consider 369 00:37:29,566 --> 00:37:32,149 he's stealing our soul with His unbridled curiosity? 370 00:37:32,441 --> 00:37:34,858 A soul that should be immortal? 371 00:37:36,524 --> 00:37:39,315 But who would in all seriouness want to be immortal? 372 00:37:40,065 --> 00:37:42,232 How boring to know that what happens today, 373 00:37:42,440 --> 00:37:44,815 this month, this year, does not matter? 374 00:37:45,648 --> 00:37:47,148 Nothing would count. 375 00:37:48,439 --> 00:37:51,481 No one here knows what it would be like to live eternally. 376 00:37:51,939 --> 00:37:54,022 And it is a blessing we never will. 377 00:37:55,397 --> 00:37:57,230 One thing I can assure you: 378 00:37:57,855 --> 00:38:01,907 It would be hell, this endless paradise of immortality. 379 00:38:02,896 --> 00:38:04,813 It is death, and only death, 380 00:38:05,313 --> 00:38:08,562 That gives each moment beauty and horror. 381 00:38:09,146 --> 00:38:11,697 Only through death is time a living thing. 382 00:38:12,604 --> 00:38:14,322 Why does the Lord does not know this? 383 00:38:14,895 --> 00:38:17,311 why does He threaten us with an endlessness 384 00:38:17,478 --> 00:38:20,019 that can only be unbearably desolate? 385 00:38:25,769 --> 00:38:28,144 I don't want to live in a world without cathedrals... 386 00:38:28,977 --> 00:38:30,695 I need the lustre of their windows, 387 00:38:31,852 --> 00:38:35,560 their cool stillness, their imperious silence. 388 00:38:36,809 --> 00:38:41,028 I need the holiness of words, the grandeur of the great poetry. 389 00:38:41,767 --> 00:38:46,152 But just as much I need the freedom to rebel 390 00:38:46,308 --> 00:38:48,600 against everything that is cruel in this world. 391 00:38:49,350 --> 00:38:51,683 For the one is nothing without the other. 392 00:38:52,266 --> 00:38:54,266 And no one forcing me to choose. 393 00:39:39,678 --> 00:39:40,886 What did you think? 394 00:39:42,761 --> 00:39:46,552 I thought you would deliver a speech in Latin. 395 00:39:48,427 --> 00:39:51,010 Then only a very few would have understood it. 396 00:40:01,676 --> 00:40:03,425 Are you friends with that boy? 397 00:40:04,509 --> 00:40:06,342 We are the best of friends. 398 00:40:12,383 --> 00:40:14,216 All of those faces, and more 399 00:40:16,216 --> 00:40:18,299 came to his funeral. 400 00:40:18,715 --> 00:40:21,340 He died on the day of the Revolution 401 00:40:22,382 --> 00:40:25,715 and so they brought all red carnations. 402 00:40:27,298 --> 00:40:30,756 I dared not speak any words about God 403 00:40:31,006 --> 00:40:35,349 as what Amadeu called: 'His empty promises.' 404 00:40:36,339 --> 00:40:38,130 But I did allow myself 405 00:40:39,047 --> 00:40:41,463 one religious word. 406 00:40:43,880 --> 00:40:45,171 Amen. 407 00:41:00,669 --> 00:41:02,794 I was very proud of him... 408 00:41:04,127 --> 00:41:06,627 So why did you never tell him, papa? 409 00:41:50,831 --> 00:41:55,497 To this day I never found out what secret bound those two together, 410 00:41:56,914 --> 00:41:59,674 and what it had to do with Amadeu. 411 00:42:09,204 --> 00:42:11,745 My brother is not here.|I know. 412 00:42:13,245 --> 00:42:14,412 Go away. 413 00:42:14,578 --> 00:42:16,193 I know what happened,|had an aneurysm. 414 00:42:16,203 --> 00:42:17,161 I know what happened,|he had an aneurysm. 415 00:42:18,870 --> 00:42:20,338 It's in the book. 416 00:42:22,244 --> 00:42:26,910 How do you live with that: knowing that at any time|a bloodvessel could burst, 417 00:42:27,452 --> 00:42:29,993 flooding your brain with blood? 418 00:42:31,285 --> 00:42:34,451 I only found out after, once I discovered his writings. 419 00:42:36,701 --> 00:42:38,545 He never told anyone. 420 00:42:39,742 --> 00:42:41,378 Not even me. 421 00:42:41,534 --> 00:42:44,992 I'm sorry, I didn't mean to upset you. 422 00:42:46,200 --> 00:42:47,533 No, wait. 423 00:42:50,158 --> 00:42:52,033 Let me show you where we worked. 424 00:43:02,282 --> 00:43:04,157 People came day and night 425 00:43:05,490 --> 00:43:06,906 to see him. 426 00:43:08,198 --> 00:43:09,583 To be healed. 427 00:43:11,656 --> 00:43:14,614 No one should be in pain, he always used to say. 428 00:43:15,780 --> 00:43:17,905 The door was always open. 429 00:43:21,571 --> 00:43:23,321 I met João Eça. 430 00:43:25,613 --> 00:43:29,446 He mentioned me that Amadeu was in the Resistance. 431 00:43:31,029 --> 00:43:32,779 Resistance... 432 00:43:36,112 --> 00:43:39,653 And that he saved Mendes' life. 433 00:43:47,444 --> 00:43:50,485 It was late in the evening. 434 00:43:54,151 --> 00:43:56,110 There were terrible shouts, 435 00:43:57,609 --> 00:43:59,276 across the square. 436 00:44:00,776 --> 00:44:02,026 Murderer! 437 00:44:12,774 --> 00:44:13,983 The Police! 438 00:44:24,398 --> 00:44:25,784 We need help! 439 00:44:31,981 --> 00:44:33,533 Get the doctor. 440 00:44:35,855 --> 00:44:37,189 In there. 441 00:44:45,271 --> 00:44:47,729 Amadeu, you need to come. Now! 442 00:44:58,853 --> 00:45:00,020 Is this...? 443 00:45:08,435 --> 00:45:10,810 Out. Out! 444 00:45:28,725 --> 00:45:29,891 Adrenaline. 445 00:46:23,094 --> 00:46:25,344 He is a traitor. Traitor! 446 00:46:29,969 --> 00:46:31,760 You're a traitor!|I'm a doctor. 447 00:46:34,093 --> 00:46:35,760 You hear me? A doctor! 448 00:46:36,343 --> 00:46:38,551 You are a traitor! 449 00:47:07,131 --> 00:47:10,964 sat him down in this fluid chair|and washed his face, 450 00:47:12,089 --> 00:47:13,839 His beautiful face. 451 00:47:15,630 --> 00:47:19,338 After that, people stopped coming; even Jorge. 452 00:47:19,713 --> 00:47:21,297 That really hurt him. 453 00:47:23,880 --> 00:47:27,056 Do you know of Jorge?|I know they were great friends. 454 00:47:29,254 --> 00:47:32,504 Why is the world so cruel?|I often ask myself that. 455 00:47:32,670 --> 00:47:36,170 It is if it doesn't care.|God doesn't carer. 456 00:47:37,961 --> 00:47:40,003 Amadeu was right about that. 457 00:47:43,794 --> 00:47:45,752 I would like to be alone now. 458 00:47:48,169 --> 00:47:50,929 May I call on you again?|Why? 459 00:47:53,335 --> 00:47:56,262 His life, his world, was... 460 00:47:58,168 --> 00:48:01,626 extraordinary.|Makes mine seem so insignificant. 461 00:48:08,000 --> 00:48:09,876 Do you have cigarettes?|Which brand? 462 00:48:32,392 --> 00:48:33,517 You brought them? 463 00:48:34,101 --> 00:48:38,521 No, no wait, every one here is a spy,|worse than the damned fascists. 464 00:48:38,854 --> 00:48:40,241 We go outside. 465 00:48:43,191 --> 00:48:45,484 You didn't telephone me just to get cigarettes? 466 00:48:45,651 --> 00:48:49,747 I called because talking to you made me sleep better last night. 467 00:48:54,823 --> 00:48:58,326 Amadeu, he never smoked, he was the only one who didn't. 468 00:48:59,118 --> 00:49:01,370 Jorge, he smoked like a chimney. 469 00:49:15,296 --> 00:49:18,881 Jorge..., is he still alive?|I do not know. 470 00:49:20,966 --> 00:49:25,761 I never talked to him after what happened with Stephania. 471 00:49:31,807 --> 00:49:33,443 Who is Stephania? 472 00:49:34,642 --> 00:49:37,060 A woman who remembers everything. 473 00:49:37,686 --> 00:49:41,188 That's why they picked me up.|To get to her. 474 00:49:43,982 --> 00:49:46,358 Lieutenant Nicholas Ribeiro. 475 00:49:48,402 --> 00:49:52,154 Benfica, Decemberstreet 28. 476 00:49:52,905 --> 00:49:57,741 Phone, 8572463. 477 00:49:59,492 --> 00:50:01,494 7th Army Division. 478 00:50:05,455 --> 00:50:07,665 Captain Charles Fish. 479 00:50:09,708 --> 00:50:12,585 Sintra, 47 street... 480 00:50:30,013 --> 00:50:31,222 It is Amadeu Prado. 481 00:50:33,307 --> 00:50:36,069 Jorge, are you in there?|Let him in. 482 00:50:48,317 --> 00:50:49,985 Why have you been avoiding me? 483 00:50:50,444 --> 00:50:52,695 Every one else I can understand, but you? 484 00:50:53,112 --> 00:50:54,363 I am not avoiding you. 485 00:50:55,113 --> 00:50:57,959 You're lying, Jorge. And we do not lie to each other! 486 00:51:11,625 --> 00:51:13,418 I want to join the Resistance. 487 00:51:14,377 --> 00:51:16,044 Because of guilt? 488 00:51:18,004 --> 00:51:20,047 As a doctor, I had no choice. 489 00:51:20,214 --> 00:51:23,549 As a doctor you should have had injected poison into the heart, 490 00:51:24,175 --> 00:51:25,728 not adrenaline. 491 00:51:31,805 --> 00:51:33,098 Sit, Amadeu. 492 00:51:43,772 --> 00:51:45,773 Aren't you going to introduce me your friends? 493 00:51:46,649 --> 00:51:47,899 This is João. 494 00:51:51,485 --> 00:51:54,112 And this is Stephania. 495 00:51:57,031 --> 00:51:58,750 I was going to introduce you sooner, but... 496 00:51:58,907 --> 00:52:01,409 But the Resistance keeps us busy. 497 00:52:02,618 --> 00:52:04,171 Isn't she beautiful? 498 00:52:13,959 --> 00:52:17,211 What if your first asset was to kill your father? 499 00:52:27,093 --> 00:52:29,344 Why?|Because he is a judge. 500 00:52:31,220 --> 00:52:33,263 Part of the fascist regime. 501 00:52:45,772 --> 00:52:49,910 Don't be upset, Amadeu..., I was just testing you. 502 00:52:52,902 --> 00:52:56,821 You knew it strangely why,|-even Jorge could see it- 503 00:52:57,905 --> 00:53:02,127 that Stefania was completely drawn to him. 504 00:53:05,285 --> 00:53:07,078 And the names and addresses? 505 00:53:07,245 --> 00:53:11,331 Members of the armed forces|sympathetic to our cause. 506 00:53:11,498 --> 00:53:14,125 She had them stockpiled in her head 507 00:53:14,583 --> 00:53:16,626 more than two hundred names, 508 00:53:17,168 --> 00:53:22,464 waiting for the day we call them|to ride up against the fascists. 509 00:53:43,186 --> 00:53:44,770 Can I have my key, please? 510 00:54:11,413 --> 00:54:13,050 Is mrs. Prado at home? 511 00:54:13,206 --> 00:54:15,791 She askes for you to wait, if I could. 512 00:54:27,383 --> 00:54:29,342 Why you bring back the past? 513 00:54:30,718 --> 00:54:33,845 I want to know how it felt to be Amadeu. 514 00:54:35,722 --> 00:54:36,889 Did you know him? 515 00:54:46,020 --> 00:54:47,897 Amadeu, you must eat. 516 00:54:48,856 --> 00:54:52,149 You need to be strong for your final exams. 517 00:55:12,872 --> 00:55:13,914 Stand up. 518 00:55:21,169 --> 00:55:22,253 Sit down. 519 00:55:22,503 --> 00:55:23,838 Mama, come help me. 520 00:55:28,549 --> 00:55:30,467 I have to do this, otherwise you will die. 521 00:55:31,426 --> 00:55:32,719 Take your hands away. 522 00:55:34,678 --> 00:55:36,430 Adriana, trust me. 523 00:56:08,034 --> 00:56:09,911 Clotilde! Call an ambulance. 524 00:56:11,870 --> 00:56:14,372 The ambulance and the doctor came. 525 00:56:14,914 --> 00:56:16,999 and Adriana was rushed to the hospital. 526 00:56:24,379 --> 00:56:26,297 You can leave us now, Clotilde. 527 00:56:37,221 --> 00:56:39,097 The doctor said I did the right thing. 528 00:56:45,935 --> 00:56:47,572 Why do you say nothing? 529 00:56:49,646 --> 00:56:51,522 Why do you judge me so? 530 00:56:58,652 --> 00:57:00,737 The intervention is called tracheotomy. 531 00:57:01,362 --> 00:57:04,291 If I had not done you've would have carried her out in a coffin. 532 00:57:11,202 --> 00:57:13,495 I too shall have a cup of tea, Clotilde. 533 00:57:16,914 --> 00:57:18,384 So, now you know... 534 00:57:20,292 --> 00:57:23,252 From then on I was indebted to him. 535 00:57:24,461 --> 00:57:27,005 Just as Joaqui Mendes. was indebted to him 536 00:57:29,381 --> 00:57:31,049 The police knew very well 537 00:57:31,216 --> 00:57:32,936 that the clinic was used as a cover for the resistance, 538 00:57:33,092 --> 00:57:35,427 but they never came and searched. 539 00:57:35,886 --> 00:57:38,179 People would drop off envelopes with money 540 00:57:38,638 --> 00:57:41,098 names, addresses, maps... 541 00:57:44,225 --> 00:57:46,101 And then she would come. 542 00:57:49,061 --> 00:57:50,448 Next. 543 00:57:53,356 --> 00:57:56,035 Why have you not called me?|I left messages. 544 00:57:57,859 --> 00:57:59,777 I have something for João. 545 00:58:05,948 --> 00:58:09,325 I have to talk to you,|I cannot go on with Jorge. 546 00:58:11,660 --> 00:58:12,911 Leave us. 547 00:58:16,455 --> 00:58:17,925 Adriana, leave us. 548 00:58:21,834 --> 00:58:23,960 Then one night, it all ended. 549 00:58:25,127 --> 00:58:26,212 How? 550 00:58:26,628 --> 00:58:28,130 Something had happened... 551 00:58:28,296 --> 00:58:32,685 I don't know what, but it was the last time I ever saw her. 552 00:58:42,181 --> 00:58:45,026 There are patients waiting for you.|Send them away. 553 00:58:45,183 --> 00:58:46,903 You do not send patients away! 554 00:58:47,059 --> 00:58:49,988 Do it now! And if someone comes to the door do not answer it. 555 00:58:50,812 --> 00:58:52,688 Switch off the lights, we're not here. 556 00:59:32,632 --> 00:59:34,466 João Eça is at the door. 557 00:59:36,426 --> 00:59:37,552 I'll be back. 558 00:59:49,351 --> 00:59:50,560 Come, come in. 559 00:59:55,022 --> 00:59:56,356 Where is she? 560 00:59:58,316 --> 00:59:59,650 Stefania? 561 00:59:59,817 --> 01:00:02,318 I don't know, she went one way or went another. 562 01:00:03,736 --> 01:00:07,322 Jorge came to me; the problem is Stephania. 563 01:00:08,656 --> 01:00:10,126 What do you mean? 564 01:00:11,116 --> 01:00:14,129 He wants... wants to eliminate her. 565 01:00:15,786 --> 01:00:16,912 What? 566 01:00:18,621 --> 01:00:21,873 He says if they get to her, they all get the names. 567 01:00:23,166 --> 01:00:24,834 It will be the end of it. 568 01:00:25,584 --> 01:00:27,586 Jorge wants to kill Stephania? 569 01:00:28,336 --> 01:00:31,672 If she or Jorge comes here,|call me. 570 01:00:32,839 --> 01:00:35,549 You understand?|I understand. 571 01:00:42,304 --> 01:00:43,597 What a mess... 572 01:00:57,231 --> 01:00:58,815 What are you going to do? 573 01:01:01,859 --> 01:01:04,652 Pack a bag and some food;|I am taking the car. 574 01:01:04,861 --> 01:01:07,363 To where?|Away from here. 575 01:01:09,906 --> 01:01:12,835 With her?|Of course with her. 576 01:01:14,159 --> 01:01:16,410 No, please, no Amadeu! 577 01:01:17,119 --> 01:01:19,079 I beg you, don't do this thing! 578 01:01:19,913 --> 01:01:21,549 Tell them she's here, 579 01:01:21,956 --> 01:01:25,083 don't go away with her, I beg you! 580 01:01:25,625 --> 01:01:27,710 Please don't go! 581 01:01:32,046 --> 01:01:33,547 Do as I say. 582 01:01:36,174 --> 01:01:38,509 Don't do this thing, it is wrong! 583 01:01:39,593 --> 01:01:43,012 Something terrible will happen, I know it will! 584 01:01:48,349 --> 01:01:52,268 He stepped over me.|I will never forget that. 585 01:01:53,769 --> 01:01:55,520 He stepped me over, 586 01:01:56,980 --> 01:01:59,825 like I was... nothing. 587 01:02:47,180 --> 01:02:48,932 Could I have a coffee, please? 588 01:02:51,767 --> 01:02:53,768 Mr. Kagi, It's me. 589 01:02:54,394 --> 01:02:56,979 I'm sorry I missed your call yesterday. 590 01:02:57,229 --> 01:02:59,105 Don't tell you're still in Lisbon? 591 01:03:00,023 --> 01:03:01,940 Yes, I am.|Where are you staying? 592 01:03:02,149 --> 01:03:04,911 In Hotel Silva.|You wouldn't have heard of it. 593 01:03:05,068 --> 01:03:06,621 Is it raining in Bern? 594 01:03:06,777 --> 01:03:09,029 I can't keep teaching your class;|you'll have to come back. 595 01:03:09,821 --> 01:03:12,698 If you don't come back I'm going to have to|find a replacement for you. 596 01:03:12,865 --> 01:03:14,199 You want me to do that? 597 01:03:14,783 --> 01:03:17,910 Perhaps...|I need a yes or no, Raimund. 598 01:03:18,368 --> 01:03:20,453 Mr. Kagi, I have to go. I'm sorry. 599 01:04:39,548 --> 01:04:41,466 Why are you following me? 600 01:04:53,058 --> 01:04:54,694 Where does this come from? 601 01:04:54,892 --> 01:04:57,571 His sister, Adriana, came across his notes 602 01:04:58,186 --> 01:05:01,730 And she put them together in a book;|I came across that in Bern, Switzerland. 603 01:05:05,441 --> 01:05:07,651 I want to know what happened to Stephania. 604 01:05:07,818 --> 01:05:09,902 Why?|Amadeu is dead. 605 01:05:10,903 --> 01:05:13,405 Adriana doesn't know;|you're the only one who does. 606 01:05:13,863 --> 01:05:15,823 Get the hell out of here! 607 01:05:16,365 --> 01:05:17,616 Get out! 608 01:05:23,120 --> 01:05:25,746 Why has my uncle started smoking again? 609 01:05:27,664 --> 01:05:29,624 The doctor from the nursing home called me 610 01:05:29,791 --> 01:05:33,085 a stranger had visited him and brought him some cigarettes. 611 01:05:33,335 --> 01:05:35,920 Well, he asked me for some...|Are you trying to kill him? 612 01:05:36,671 --> 01:05:38,390 He already has emphysema! 613 01:05:38,547 --> 01:05:40,882 Yeah, but he enjoys smoking;|why deny him that pleasure? 614 01:05:41,049 --> 01:05:42,518 Because it's bad for him. 615 01:05:42,675 --> 01:05:46,552 So is living in that nursing home. It reminds him of being in prison. 616 01:05:50,889 --> 01:05:53,901 How are your new glasses?|I'm getting used to them... 617 01:05:55,683 --> 01:05:57,351 Would you have dinner with me? 618 01:06:02,021 --> 01:06:03,658 I thought you never ask... 619 01:06:05,315 --> 01:06:08,275 If Jesus had been put to deatb with a guillotine 620 01:06:08,442 --> 01:06:11,236 we all be praying for a big, shiny blade. 621 01:06:11,653 --> 01:06:15,707 Or if he'd been electrocuted|we've bent effectually in front of a chair. 622 01:06:19,533 --> 01:06:21,201 But can you really do that 623 01:06:21,368 --> 01:06:25,506 nobody is like to be another person, without being the other person? 624 01:06:25,662 --> 01:06:29,456 Well, you can imagine|what it is like to be that other person. 625 01:06:30,165 --> 01:06:33,793 'Imagination is our last sanctuary,'|that's one of his lines. 626 01:06:34,210 --> 01:06:37,837 Where he also said: 'Intimacy is our last sanctuary.' 627 01:06:39,046 --> 01:06:40,964 You remember the lines from bottom? 628 01:06:41,214 --> 01:06:43,841 That's because they mean something to me. 629 01:06:44,383 --> 01:06:47,479 Poor Stephania, she remembered everything, 630 01:06:47,635 --> 01:06:49,887 even trivial things, I menan numbers, names, 631 01:06:50,054 --> 01:06:52,347 phone numbers, addresses... 632 01:06:52,806 --> 01:06:55,141 To have a memory like that|must driving mad. 633 01:06:57,350 --> 01:06:58,903 Sorry, I'm going on. 634 01:07:00,728 --> 01:07:02,604 I haven't talk as much as this for years. 635 01:07:02,979 --> 01:07:05,606 No, I'm fascinated... 636 01:07:08,608 --> 01:07:11,985 May I ask you how long youhave been alone? 637 01:07:13,028 --> 01:07:14,664 Five and a half years. 638 01:07:15,071 --> 01:07:17,531 But before that,|you spoke to your wife? 639 01:07:17,739 --> 01:07:19,126 Yes... 640 01:07:21,533 --> 01:07:23,618 For the usual landed me in trouble. 641 01:07:23,910 --> 01:07:25,244 What kind of trouble? 642 01:07:25,536 --> 01:07:28,038 Well, we throw a party for our colleagues... 643 01:07:28,705 --> 01:07:30,289 Our friends. 644 01:07:31,082 --> 01:07:34,094 And she found this quote, from Pessoa: 645 01:07:36,002 --> 01:07:39,796 'Fields are greener in their description 646 01:07:40,129 --> 01:07:42,339 than in their actual greenness'. 647 01:07:42,923 --> 01:07:45,091 And somebody said: oh, that's a beautiful sentence; and I said: 648 01:07:45,258 --> 01:07:48,635 Yes, only a very few people will ever understand it. 649 01:07:50,095 --> 01:07:55,098 There was a terrible silence,|and then she said, my wife, 650 01:07:56,182 --> 01:08:00,685 She said: and I suppose you are one of the chosen few? 651 01:08:03,729 --> 01:08:06,105 So, that was the end of that party... 652 01:08:08,065 --> 01:08:09,535 But you were right. 653 01:08:09,691 --> 01:08:14,278 Yeah, but it was arrogant.|Stupid and arrogant. 654 01:08:14,903 --> 01:08:17,999 And is that why she left you,|because of your arrogance? 655 01:08:18,155 --> 01:08:22,658 No, I think she left me, because she found me... 656 01:08:25,243 --> 01:08:26,494 boring. 657 01:08:31,790 --> 01:08:35,083 Funny we still in touch,|she called the other day, 658 01:08:35,667 --> 01:08:37,919 she wanted me to move my books out of the garage, 659 01:08:38,085 --> 01:08:40,796 because her new boyfriend wanted somewhere to park his car... 660 01:08:43,798 --> 01:08:45,882 Don't know why I'm telling you all this. 661 01:08:53,554 --> 01:08:56,848 Would you like to dance?|No, I can't, I can't dance. 662 01:09:00,059 --> 01:09:01,184 You see? 663 01:09:02,685 --> 01:09:03,895 Boring. 664 01:09:11,983 --> 01:09:13,193 Thank you. 665 01:09:14,652 --> 01:09:16,038 I enjoyed that. 666 01:09:16,195 --> 01:09:19,572 Raimund, you are not boring. 667 01:09:22,491 --> 01:09:24,784 My uncle would like to see you again. 668 01:09:25,534 --> 01:09:27,452 Would you take him some cigarettes? 669 01:09:49,467 --> 01:09:51,844 Jorge is still alive.|You may see him? 670 01:09:52,261 --> 01:09:54,179 Still running the same pharmacy. 671 01:09:54,346 --> 01:09:56,764 Smoking cigarettes while he serves his customers. 672 01:09:57,806 --> 01:10:00,266 You brought some?|Yes, I did. 673 01:10:03,352 --> 01:10:06,448 Stefania was in the house when I was there? 674 01:10:06,604 --> 01:10:08,814 She found them together in his study. 675 01:10:10,482 --> 01:10:12,650 No wonder he lied to me. 676 01:10:12,816 --> 01:10:17,945 Because, you know, he never lied,|he couldn't tolerate dishonesty. 677 01:10:18,529 --> 01:10:21,114 What had happened earlier that night? 678 01:10:21,531 --> 01:10:24,491 Jorges place become too small, 679 01:10:24,658 --> 01:10:29,703 so we hired a room in an old warehouse where|our meetings. 680 01:10:30,120 --> 01:10:36,082 We pretend it was a literacy class; Stefanias idea. 681 01:10:37,959 --> 01:10:39,512 We were so naive... 682 01:10:39,876 --> 01:10:42,086 Nuno, you be in charge of the railways. 683 01:10:42,253 --> 01:10:43,838 The numbers you will call: 684 01:10:44,004 --> 01:10:49,174 Lisbon, 6423518, 685 01:10:49,550 --> 01:10:51,218 contact name: Leonardo; 686 01:10:51,509 --> 01:10:57,222 Port, 355900,|contact name: Julius. 687 01:10:58,014 --> 01:11:01,850 The sign for take over will come from Radio Renaissance; 688 01:11:02,017 --> 01:11:05,144 It will be the song that was banned; the song by... 689 01:11:12,524 --> 01:11:16,360 Excuse me, are you lost?|This is the literacy class? 690 01:11:17,235 --> 01:11:20,863 Yes, we were just finishing;|please, take a seat. 691 01:11:24,949 --> 01:11:31,453 Most letters have more than one pronunciation|except the letter: X. 692 01:11:32,120 --> 01:11:34,966 But I will explain that meaning what it tells next week. 693 01:11:35,414 --> 01:11:36,999 Thank you all. 694 01:11:42,502 --> 01:11:45,296 What is a professor of music doing here? 695 01:11:47,172 --> 01:11:49,966 I met someone who cannot read. 696 01:11:50,800 --> 01:11:54,135 and wanted to see for myself what kind of course it was, 697 01:11:54,302 --> 01:11:56,554 before recommending it. 698 01:11:58,430 --> 01:12:00,723 And what is this persons name? 699 01:12:03,767 --> 01:12:04,893 Carlos Pinto. 700 01:12:06,394 --> 01:12:08,186 How original... 701 01:12:09,229 --> 01:12:12,523 Sit down, all of you!|Nobody leaves this room! 702 01:12:27,908 --> 01:12:29,326 Out, out! 703 01:13:05,142 --> 01:13:06,351 João, give me your gun. 704 01:13:07,185 --> 01:13:08,352 What for? 705 01:13:08,728 --> 01:13:11,229 We have to do what is right for the Resistance. 706 01:13:12,397 --> 01:13:15,440 What happened to the others?|Stafania and Amadeu they got away. 707 01:13:15,983 --> 01:13:18,484 But they gonna find her, and then she will talk. 708 01:13:19,944 --> 01:13:23,738 The others they don't know much,|but Stephania, she knows everything. 709 01:13:25,989 --> 01:13:27,866 Jorge, what are you talking about? 710 01:13:29,158 --> 01:13:31,034 You want to kill Stephania? 711 01:13:33,453 --> 01:13:35,871 No, no, I do not want, but I have to. 712 01:13:36,747 --> 01:13:40,082 One life for many lives.|Give it to me. 713 01:13:41,792 --> 01:13:43,376 João, give it to me. 714 01:13:46,086 --> 01:13:49,047 I never found out what really happened... 715 01:13:49,839 --> 01:13:51,131 He tell you? 716 01:13:51,298 --> 01:13:55,259 No, when I asked him,|he told me to get lost. 717 01:13:58,136 --> 01:14:02,525 I need to know, I can't tell you how many times I wish 718 01:14:02,681 --> 01:14:05,266 I never give him that gun. 719 01:14:09,394 --> 01:14:13,271 Three days later, Mendes, he picked me up. 720 01:14:15,189 --> 01:14:18,733 He broke my hands and my spirit, 721 01:14:19,734 --> 01:14:23,278 but I never give him one single name. 722 01:14:24,904 --> 01:14:29,407 You tell that to Jorge,|that he owes me. 723 01:14:34,869 --> 01:14:38,205 'In youth, we live as if we were immortal. 724 01:14:39,039 --> 01:14:41,885 'Knowledge of mortality dances around us' 725 01:14:42,041 --> 01:14:45,752 'like a brittle paper ribbon that barely touches our skin.' 726 01:14:47,420 --> 01:14:50,630 'When, in life does that change?' 727 01:14:52,340 --> 01:14:54,341 'When does the ribbon tighten, 728 01:14:54,966 --> 01:14:57,927 'until finally it strangles us?' 729 01:15:07,642 --> 01:15:08,934 Mr. Kagi? 730 01:15:09,435 --> 01:15:11,311 Have you made a decision yet? 731 01:15:14,480 --> 01:15:15,564 No. 732 01:15:15,939 --> 01:15:20,567 A woman came asking for you...|She said she met you on a bridge or something? 733 01:15:21,776 --> 01:15:23,361 A Portuguese woman? 734 01:15:23,778 --> 01:15:25,946 I told her where you were and she left. 735 01:15:26,655 --> 01:15:29,073 If you decide not to come back|I need your keys; 736 01:15:29,740 --> 01:15:32,325 will you post them to me?|No, this woman... 737 01:15:33,159 --> 01:15:34,712 did she leave her name? 738 01:15:35,202 --> 01:15:36,286 No. 739 01:15:37,037 --> 01:15:38,506 Goodbye, Mr. Kagi. 740 01:16:14,979 --> 01:16:17,397 João Eça wants to know what happened to Stephania. 741 01:16:19,065 --> 01:16:20,566 He says you owe him. 742 01:16:20,733 --> 01:16:23,193 I owe no one anything. 743 01:16:28,071 --> 01:16:30,031 You know what they did to his hands? 744 01:16:32,324 --> 01:16:35,952 Those hands that used to play Mozart?|He didn't give them one name. 745 01:16:36,619 --> 01:16:38,995 If he had, you would not be standing here. 746 01:16:39,162 --> 01:16:42,498 You think, you can blackmail me with guilt? 747 01:16:42,665 --> 01:16:45,125 You don't know who you're dealing with! 748 01:16:48,252 --> 01:16:52,254 Could I have killed her?|That is the question! 749 01:16:56,382 --> 01:17:00,385 Don't you know we don't talk about the Resistance here? 750 01:17:00,593 --> 01:17:04,012 We bury our history and move on! 751 01:17:08,682 --> 01:17:10,183 You want a drink? 752 01:17:16,271 --> 01:17:19,033 we're sitting where Amadeu used to sit. 753 01:17:19,189 --> 01:17:22,118 Until the thing with Mendes happened, then we... 754 01:17:25,819 --> 01:17:28,029 we had a list of reasons for loyalty: 755 01:17:28,571 --> 01:17:30,989 guilt towards others 756 01:17:32,198 --> 01:17:35,450 shared suffering, common struggle, common strenght, 757 01:17:35,659 --> 01:17:38,786 weaknesss, need for closeness, 758 01:17:40,412 --> 01:17:43,091 common hatred, shared humor, and so on... 759 01:17:46,166 --> 01:17:48,845 What about love?|He didn't believe in it. 760 01:17:49,001 --> 01:17:51,503 avoided the word as too sentimental. 761 01:17:51,753 --> 01:17:53,796 There were only three things that were important to him: 762 01:17:55,047 --> 01:17:57,893 desire, pleasure and security. 763 01:17:59,675 --> 01:18:01,093 Desire... 764 01:18:04,512 --> 01:18:07,014 I don't trust people who don't drink. 765 01:18:15,769 --> 01:18:17,187 Have a cigarette. 766 01:18:34,574 --> 01:18:35,783 you're okay? 767 01:18:39,285 --> 01:18:42,162 João still loves to smoke.|He would. 768 01:18:48,708 --> 01:18:52,378 The night we graduated from the University of Coimbra 769 01:18:52,544 --> 01:18:55,672 Me as a pharmacist,|Amadeu as a doctor... 770 01:19:03,177 --> 01:19:06,304 What?|Come, I have something to show you. 771 01:19:23,232 --> 01:19:24,483 What do you think? 772 01:19:27,360 --> 01:19:29,403 So? It is a pharmacy... 773 01:19:29,570 --> 01:19:31,821 Yes... It's yours. 774 01:19:37,992 --> 01:19:39,159 Come in. 775 01:19:47,749 --> 01:19:50,917 I need a pharmacist I can trust|if I'm going to be writing prescriptions. 776 01:19:52,377 --> 01:19:53,544 Here. 777 01:20:00,340 --> 01:20:03,509 I could not believe what he had given me. 778 01:20:06,053 --> 01:20:09,972 After that I never thought we could loose our friendship. 779 01:20:12,807 --> 01:20:14,934 I never thought it possible. 780 01:20:18,061 --> 01:20:21,157 I am not much to look at,|I know I'm an ugly bastard. 781 01:20:21,355 --> 01:20:23,940 So..., when she came along 782 01:20:26,233 --> 01:20:28,109 God, she was beautiful. 783 01:20:29,318 --> 01:20:33,373 I thought some of her would somehow rub of on me. 784 01:20:35,406 --> 01:20:37,783 At least that is what I think have thought. 785 01:20:42,035 --> 01:20:45,288 And this is Stephania. 786 01:20:47,414 --> 01:20:49,374 I was going to introduce you, but... 787 01:20:49,624 --> 01:20:51,792 Resistance keeps us busy. 788 01:20:54,502 --> 01:20:56,003 Isn't she beautiful? 789 01:21:03,633 --> 01:21:07,094 It was the way she took my hand and removed it from her neck 790 01:21:08,512 --> 01:21:10,972 her eyes penetrating him... 791 01:21:11,139 --> 01:21:14,391 We'll think about it, Amadeu, and get back to you. 792 01:21:22,688 --> 01:21:25,023 Perhaps we can use your clinic as a drop off. 793 01:21:31,444 --> 01:21:33,570 Why did you take my hand of your neck? 794 01:21:34,946 --> 01:21:36,416 Did I? 795 01:21:44,953 --> 01:21:47,080 Have you ever been in love 796 01:21:48,039 --> 01:21:51,249 so that not even food matters, not even words? 797 01:21:52,959 --> 01:21:56,461 I am not sure.|You would be sure. You would know. 798 01:21:58,713 --> 01:22:00,266 You always know. 799 01:22:01,881 --> 01:22:04,466 You're thinking of him?|What? 800 01:22:20,477 --> 01:22:22,354 You wish I was Amadeu. 801 01:22:28,233 --> 01:22:30,192 Does he mention me in the book? 802 01:22:32,611 --> 01:22:33,861 A lot. 803 01:22:34,737 --> 01:22:38,364 Then I am surprised she published it, Adriana hated me, 804 01:22:38,531 --> 01:22:42,325 wanted him all for herself, did not even want to share him with her father. 805 01:22:42,868 --> 01:22:44,619 You know what happened to him? 806 01:22:46,245 --> 01:22:47,965 A few months before the Revolution 807 01:22:48,121 --> 01:22:52,040 he went to Amadeu and asked for stronger painkillers for his back. 808 01:22:53,166 --> 01:22:56,179 Adriana came every week to the pharmacy for the pills, 809 01:22:56,335 --> 01:22:58,962 but he never took them; he ordered them. 810 01:23:00,088 --> 01:23:03,840 A week after Amadeu died he swallowed over one hundred. 811 01:23:04,966 --> 01:23:08,718 The newspapers said he died after a long illness... 812 01:23:09,761 --> 01:23:12,388 Catholics don't appreciate suicide. 813 01:23:17,099 --> 01:23:18,225 Everyone out! 814 01:23:26,147 --> 01:23:27,565 Stephania, come with me. 815 01:24:34,944 --> 01:24:38,196 If I had had the gun then|I might have shot her. 816 01:24:46,535 --> 01:24:48,005 And when you got the gun? 817 01:24:49,537 --> 01:24:51,997 I went straight to Amadeu's clinic. 818 01:24:54,040 --> 01:24:55,916 I knew they would be there. 819 01:25:00,419 --> 01:25:02,504 Where are they?|They have gone. 820 01:25:03,171 --> 01:25:05,423 Don't lie to me...|They have gone, Jorge. 821 01:25:48,619 --> 01:25:50,005 Give me the gun. 822 01:26:44,782 --> 01:26:48,785 Stephania is she... is she still alive? 823 01:26:52,204 --> 01:26:55,873 I bumped into her, two years ago, she was here. 824 01:26:56,206 --> 01:27:00,167 Attending some seminar or other. 825 01:27:02,586 --> 01:27:04,712 I asked her how she was. 826 01:27:07,381 --> 01:27:09,590 She told me she was teaching history... 827 01:27:10,216 --> 01:27:11,342 Where? 828 01:27:11,633 --> 01:27:14,594 At the University of Salamanca, Spain. 829 01:27:17,763 --> 01:27:19,764 And your pharmacy... 830 01:27:21,724 --> 01:27:25,268 Why do you leave the lights on at night? 831 01:27:30,438 --> 01:27:32,648 To remind me of Amadeu. 832 01:28:28,310 --> 01:28:30,270 Mr. da Silva, can I have my bill, please? 833 01:28:30,770 --> 01:28:34,189 Are you going back to Switzerland?|Yes, via Spain. 834 01:28:35,065 --> 01:28:37,911 They say right now in Switzerland is terrible, 835 01:28:38,067 --> 01:28:40,611 with rain, snow, wind... 836 01:28:40,777 --> 01:28:42,695 I have to go; could I have my bill? 837 01:28:43,196 --> 01:28:44,446 Excuse me... 838 01:28:49,700 --> 01:28:50,826 Hello! 839 01:28:53,703 --> 01:28:56,997 I want to thank you|for what happened on the bridge. 840 01:28:58,998 --> 01:29:02,250 I've been reading your book...|I don't want it. 841 01:29:04,752 --> 01:29:07,337 I just want to thank you for what you did. 842 01:29:11,840 --> 01:29:13,508 I got your coat. 843 01:29:18,011 --> 01:29:19,647 You left it behind. 844 01:29:25,766 --> 01:29:27,059 Tell me your name? 845 01:29:32,146 --> 01:29:33,813 Catarina Mendez. 846 01:29:36,190 --> 01:29:37,399 Yes .. 847 01:29:38,942 --> 01:29:40,578 That Mendez. 848 01:29:43,320 --> 01:29:46,363 I am the granddaughter of the Butcher of Lisbon. 849 01:29:49,240 --> 01:29:52,701 I didn't know who he was until I read the book. 850 01:29:55,036 --> 01:29:57,454 But you can't blame yourself for what your grandfather did... 851 01:29:57,621 --> 01:29:58,872 You don't understand. 852 01:30:03,125 --> 01:30:04,876 I loved him. 853 01:30:06,544 --> 01:30:08,712 I cried at his funeral. 854 01:30:08,920 --> 01:30:13,007 and I did not understand why so many other people were not crying. 855 01:30:18,427 --> 01:30:19,980 Anyway... 856 01:30:21,554 --> 01:30:25,859 It will take some time, but I learn to live with this. 857 01:30:38,607 --> 01:30:41,109 This would be the same road they took. 858 01:30:41,734 --> 01:30:45,070 But at night, and in great danger. 859 01:30:45,987 --> 01:30:47,374 And in love. 860 01:30:52,242 --> 01:30:54,785 I was moved to see my uncle cry like that. 861 01:30:55,244 --> 01:30:58,788 I don't know what pleased him more:|the news Stephania was alive 862 01:30:58,954 --> 01:31:01,331 or the cards of cigarettes|we gave him. 863 01:31:06,751 --> 01:31:09,597 So, you return to your school and continue teaching? 864 01:31:11,963 --> 01:31:13,381 If they'll have me... 865 01:31:16,300 --> 01:31:18,343 But I'm sure I come back and visit. 866 01:31:41,108 --> 01:31:42,745 Are you sure she'll be in? 867 01:31:44,360 --> 01:31:47,123 She said she'll be here... Do you come in? 868 01:31:47,863 --> 01:31:49,416 No, I wait in the car. 869 01:31:55,284 --> 01:31:57,869 Go, Raimund, I'll be fine here,|take your time. 870 01:32:01,956 --> 01:32:03,373 Welcome, Raimund 871 01:32:06,000 --> 01:32:08,846 I'm Stephania.|Thank you so much for meeting me. 872 01:32:10,878 --> 01:32:12,296 You have the book? 873 01:32:13,505 --> 01:32:14,839 I do. 874 01:32:22,261 --> 01:32:24,513 He looks just as I remember him. 875 01:32:25,346 --> 01:32:28,109 So long ago and still so... 876 01:32:29,266 --> 01:32:31,893 Would you like some tea?|Thank you. 877 01:32:32,977 --> 01:32:34,446 What about your friend? 878 01:32:34,603 --> 01:32:37,282 She's happy in the car. 879 01:32:37,772 --> 01:32:43,734 I joined the resistance after my father was arrested in 1971, for sabotage. 880 01:32:45,610 --> 01:32:49,665 They sent him to Tarrafal...|You have heard of it? 881 01:32:53,115 --> 01:32:56,993 It was also known as 'Campo da Morte Lenta': Camp of the Slow Death. 882 01:33:01,579 --> 01:33:04,123 It took them two years to kill him. 883 01:33:05,499 --> 01:33:07,500 And that is how I met Jorge. 884 01:33:08,668 --> 01:33:12,754 I needed someone strong, some one to protect me... 885 01:33:14,380 --> 01:33:16,465 I thought that I was in love. 886 01:33:19,675 --> 01:33:21,228 But then I met Amadeu... 887 01:33:30,474 --> 01:33:32,934 A new light fell on everything. 888 01:33:34,477 --> 01:33:37,937 My whole life... 889 01:33:40,106 --> 01:33:42,107 I could not sleep anymore. 890 01:33:43,858 --> 01:33:46,568 I went to the clinic as often as I could, 891 01:33:47,903 --> 01:33:50,321 despite Adriana's thoughts. 892 01:33:52,781 --> 01:33:56,950 He wanted to take me in his arms, but he kept rejecting me. 893 01:33:57,117 --> 01:34:01,422 Jorge, he would say, what about Jorge?|I began to hate Jorge... 894 01:34:03,205 --> 01:34:05,540 Do you mind if I smoke?|No, please. 895 01:34:07,541 --> 01:34:09,709 Jealousy is a terrible emotion. 896 01:34:46,692 --> 01:34:50,528 I could tell from his shoulders, he had seen us. 897 01:34:51,321 --> 01:34:52,707 Awful... 898 01:34:56,574 --> 01:35:00,285 But in a way I was relieved; it was done. 899 01:35:02,620 --> 01:35:04,788 Are you sure your friend is alright? 900 01:35:04,955 --> 01:35:07,206 Oh yes, she is fine in the car. 901 01:35:08,791 --> 01:35:10,584 We drove through the night. 902 01:35:12,585 --> 01:35:15,087 Amadeu kept questioning me. 903 01:35:15,754 --> 01:35:18,547 Was he searching for me or for life? 904 01:35:19,465 --> 01:35:22,425 He wanted to know everything, my whole life, 905 01:35:23,676 --> 01:35:25,552 my memories, 906 01:35:26,511 --> 01:35:30,305 thoughts, fantasies, dreams...|He was relentless. 907 01:35:30,847 --> 01:35:34,517 It was almost a relief when 5 kms from the border 908 01:35:34,683 --> 01:35:37,060 stopped and hid me in the trunk. 909 01:35:51,570 --> 01:35:52,737 Passport. 910 01:36:13,460 --> 01:36:17,129 Why are you travelling to Spain?|I'm going to visit relatives. 911 01:36:19,172 --> 01:36:20,642 Get out of the car, please. 912 01:36:50,026 --> 01:36:51,110 Keys. 913 01:36:55,488 --> 01:36:57,823 Do you know Major Rui Luís Mendez,|of the PIDE? 914 01:36:58,574 --> 01:36:59,825 What about him? 915 01:37:01,993 --> 01:37:05,089 I want you to call him, have his home number. 916 01:37:06,746 --> 01:37:09,331 I want you to tell him you're treating me like a criminal. 917 01:37:26,343 --> 01:37:28,062 He wants to talk to you. 918 01:37:35,891 --> 01:37:37,934 This is Dr. Amadeu de Prado. 919 01:37:38,684 --> 01:37:40,686 You are asking too much of me... 920 01:37:41,228 --> 01:37:44,855 You took my life away from me and I want it back now. 921 01:37:47,815 --> 01:37:49,900 Give the phone back to my man. 922 01:37:57,072 --> 01:38:00,168 Ironic, that I should ultimately be saved 923 01:38:00,449 --> 01:38:03,295 by the Butcher of Lisbon... 924 01:38:11,873 --> 01:38:13,124 That night 925 01:38:15,334 --> 01:38:18,430 we drove to Finisterra and slept in the car. 926 01:38:58,697 --> 01:39:00,250 We'll go away. 927 01:39:02,450 --> 01:39:04,284 We take a ship to the Amazon 928 01:39:04,743 --> 01:39:07,370 to a new world where only you and I exist. 929 01:39:11,497 --> 01:39:12,832 I write books... 930 01:39:13,999 --> 01:39:18,221 we invent a new language that only you and I understand. 931 01:39:22,755 --> 01:39:25,257 We go up the river as far as it will take us. 932 01:39:28,676 --> 01:39:30,760 Back in time and into the future, 933 01:39:32,095 --> 01:39:33,929 The very beginning of the end. 934 01:39:35,347 --> 01:39:37,098 What will I do? 935 01:39:38,516 --> 01:39:40,559 You'll share it with me. 936 01:39:43,227 --> 01:39:47,616 The same air, the same feelings, same tastes... 937 01:39:51,941 --> 01:39:53,661 These things you want... 938 01:39:54,735 --> 01:39:57,195 You want them for yourself, not for me. 939 01:39:57,820 --> 01:39:59,613 I want them for both of us. 940 01:40:00,739 --> 01:40:03,449 He was hungry for me, for life. 941 01:40:05,993 --> 01:40:09,537 But the journey he wanted to take was|into his own soul, 942 01:40:09,704 --> 01:40:10,996 not into mine. 943 01:40:23,880 --> 01:40:25,965 I can not do it, Amadeu... 944 01:40:29,509 --> 01:40:30,926 What do you mean? 945 01:40:32,177 --> 01:40:35,190 You want more than I can ever give you. 946 01:40:37,472 --> 01:40:39,109 And I'm not ready. 947 01:40:45,061 --> 01:40:46,562 I'm so sorry... 948 01:41:09,244 --> 01:41:10,964 I have friends in Salamanca. 949 01:41:12,955 --> 01:41:14,873 Will you take me to them? 950 01:41:20,919 --> 01:41:22,962 He drove me to Salamanca... 951 01:41:25,964 --> 01:41:27,757 he shook my hand, 952 01:41:29,258 --> 01:41:32,385 he wished me well and left. 953 01:41:38,305 --> 01:41:40,640 The next I heard he was dead. 954 01:41:44,184 --> 01:41:46,603 I always thought I killed him. 955 01:41:48,979 --> 01:41:52,273 He had an aneurysm.|An aneurysm? 956 01:41:52,982 --> 01:41:55,776 A blood vessel burst in his brain. 957 01:41:56,193 --> 01:41:58,277 He's had it for a long time. 958 01:42:06,616 --> 01:42:09,493 Did you go to his funeral? 959 01:42:25,421 --> 01:42:28,881 You did not really think I would do it, did you? 960 01:42:31,633 --> 01:42:33,551 It is no longer important. 961 01:42:58,151 --> 01:42:59,152 So what happened to 962 01:43:00,153 --> 01:43:03,905 the names and telephone numbers|you had in your head? 963 01:43:05,323 --> 01:43:06,490 Lisbon 964 01:43:07,074 --> 01:43:11,129 3314518,|contact name: Carlos; 965 01:43:12,202 --> 01:43:17,373 Sintra, 245102,|contact name: Nuno... 966 01:43:18,415 --> 01:43:21,792 I wrote them all down and passed them on to someone save. 967 01:43:23,293 --> 01:43:26,879 A few months later they were used to initiate the revolution. 968 01:43:29,673 --> 01:43:32,602 Your friend must be very tired of waiting... 969 01:43:38,053 --> 01:43:40,847 You can keep the book if you like.|Thank you. 970 01:43:41,597 --> 01:43:45,183 I probably more ready for him now then I was back then. 971 01:43:46,768 --> 01:43:49,394 Goodbye, Raymund.|Goodbye, Stephania. 972 01:44:09,283 --> 01:44:13,869 'We leave something of ourselves behind|when we leave a place,' 973 01:44:15,370 --> 01:44:18,998 'We stay there, even though we go away.' 974 01:44:20,499 --> 01:44:23,918 'And there are things in us that we can find again,' 975 01:44:24,960 --> 01:44:26,628 'only by going back there.' 976 01:44:28,129 --> 01:44:31,173 'We travel to ourselves when we go to a place,' 977 01:44:31,882 --> 01:44:34,175 "Now we have covered the stretch of our life, 978 01:44:34,425 --> 01:44:36,927 'no matter how brief it may have been.' 979 01:44:45,516 --> 01:44:46,683 Is is me. 980 01:44:50,603 --> 01:44:52,437 Well, we still... 981 01:44:54,730 --> 01:44:56,284 got five minutes. 982 01:44:58,233 --> 01:44:59,953 Thank you for... 983 01:45:02,694 --> 01:45:05,071 telling me I wasn't boring. 984 01:45:11,033 --> 01:45:13,035 For when I think of their lives, 985 01:45:14,869 --> 01:45:17,121 Amadeu, Stefania,|the others, 986 01:45:17,287 --> 01:45:21,749 their lives full of such vitality, 987 01:45:22,124 --> 01:45:25,376 intensity...|So much so it broke them apart in the end. 988 01:45:25,543 --> 01:45:26,929 But they lived. 989 01:45:31,339 --> 01:45:32,923 Where is my life... 990 01:45:38,093 --> 01:45:40,220 apart from these last days... 991 01:45:45,682 --> 01:45:48,308 and now you're going back to it. 992 01:46:01,151 --> 01:46:03,194 Why don't you just stay? 993 01:46:05,070 --> 01:46:06,321 What? 994 01:46:07,822 --> 01:46:10,240 Why don't you just stay?