1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:01,601 Previously on "Awkward"... 2 00:00:01,603 --> 00:00:03,616 I'd come a long way from sophomore year, 3 00:00:03,641 --> 00:00:04,850 from being a random suicide girl 4 00:00:04,875 --> 00:00:07,240 to just a random girl again. 5 00:00:07,265 --> 00:00:10,145 Already I was feeling the core emotional drama of senior year, 6 00:00:10,147 --> 00:00:13,015 the sadness of doing something for the last time ever. 7 00:00:13,017 --> 00:00:15,417 We've been through so much together, 8 00:00:15,419 --> 00:00:17,920 and we should graduate together. 9 00:00:17,922 --> 00:00:19,989 I was thinking about maybe taking a gap year. 10 00:00:19,991 --> 00:00:21,256 All I want to do is love you, 11 00:00:21,281 --> 00:00:23,520 and you fight me every step of the way. 12 00:00:23,545 --> 00:00:25,178 I was class president, Jake. 13 00:00:25,203 --> 00:00:27,437 What if I'm never president of anything else ever? 14 00:00:27,439 --> 00:00:29,305 You have a whole new life ahead of you. 15 00:00:29,307 --> 00:00:31,041 It was so much less complicated 16 00:00:31,043 --> 00:00:32,342 when I didn't know I was in love with you. 17 00:00:32,344 --> 00:00:33,877 Right back at you. 18 00:00:33,879 --> 00:00:35,779 Matty and I still had a lot to figure out. 19 00:00:35,781 --> 00:00:37,203 We'd jumped through too many hoops 20 00:00:37,228 --> 00:00:39,259 to let a little thing like distance come between us, 21 00:00:39,284 --> 00:00:42,118 because deep down, we knew that love would conquer all. 22 00:00:42,120 --> 00:00:44,453 Of course, that's not quite what happened. 23 00:00:46,123 --> 00:00:47,157 [indistinct chatter] 24 00:00:47,159 --> 00:00:50,427 [pensive music] 25 00:00:50,429 --> 00:00:58,268 ♪ 26 00:00:58,859 --> 00:00:59,859 What are you doing here? 27 00:00:59,861 --> 00:01:01,094 You missed the final. 28 00:01:01,096 --> 00:01:02,996 What? I didn't miss the final. 29 00:01:02,999 --> 00:01:05,946 I graduated. Here's my diploma. 30 00:01:08,523 --> 00:01:09,921 Thank God the nightmare of being trapped 31 00:01:09,946 --> 00:01:12,303 in high school forever turned out to be just that... 32 00:01:12,305 --> 00:01:15,265 - [phone ringing] - A nightmare. 33 00:01:15,290 --> 00:01:16,320 Hey. 34 00:01:17,248 --> 00:01:18,976 Yeah, of course I'll pick you up. 35 00:01:19,719 --> 00:01:21,252 Yep, meet you at the curb. 36 00:01:21,254 --> 00:01:23,820 Hey, you want to spend the night? 37 00:01:24,969 --> 00:01:27,135 Yay! Okay, can't wait. 38 00:01:27,137 --> 00:01:29,015 I love you too. 39 00:01:29,540 --> 00:01:31,740 ♪ I just want you to know ♪ 40 00:01:31,742 --> 00:01:34,243 My first year of college had been fantastic. 41 00:01:34,245 --> 00:01:35,978 Even better than expected. 42 00:01:35,980 --> 00:01:38,413 I was becoming the person I was always meant to be, 43 00:01:38,415 --> 00:01:39,881 and I was really liking that person. 44 00:01:39,883 --> 00:01:42,818 Oh, I just miss my little girl so much 45 00:01:42,820 --> 00:01:44,286 when I don't see her. 46 00:01:44,288 --> 00:01:47,055 Well, the wait is over, I'm back! 47 00:01:47,057 --> 00:01:48,234 [baby cries] 48 00:01:48,259 --> 00:01:49,000 Oh. 49 00:01:49,025 --> 00:01:52,471 Oh, it's okay. She's just not used to you. 50 00:01:52,496 --> 00:01:54,763 Uh... Lissa, what are you doing here? 51 00:01:54,765 --> 00:01:56,231 I'm the nanny. Duh. 52 00:01:56,233 --> 00:01:57,966 I didn't know Jenna was coming back today. 53 00:01:57,968 --> 00:01:59,868 Uh, not today. Last night. 54 00:01:59,870 --> 00:02:03,805 Very late, which I guess is why no one waited up. 55 00:02:03,807 --> 00:02:06,441 I'm sorry, sweetie, we've just been so crazed. 56 00:02:06,443 --> 00:02:07,914 And it was so late. 57 00:02:07,939 --> 00:02:09,738 So... what? 58 00:02:10,414 --> 00:02:12,492 So you forgot? 59 00:02:15,460 --> 00:02:18,859 Synced and corrected by Chitorafa www.addic7ed.com 60 00:02:19,869 --> 00:02:21,812 I knew I'd undergone a dramatic transformation 61 00:02:21,837 --> 00:02:23,452 during my year away at college, 62 00:02:23,477 --> 00:02:25,944 but was surprised that everyone else had too. 63 00:02:25,945 --> 00:02:28,693 Suddenly I was a stranger in my own home. 64 00:02:28,718 --> 00:02:31,631 Mom, did you get my hemp milk? I'm non-dairy now. 65 00:02:31,656 --> 00:02:33,517 Really? You weren't joking? 66 00:02:33,750 --> 00:02:35,152 Ugh, sorry to be so rushed, 67 00:02:35,154 --> 00:02:36,764 but I have to register for summer school... I couldn't 68 00:02:36,789 --> 00:02:38,670 carry a full course load last semester. 69 00:02:38,695 --> 00:02:40,625 Are you non-dairy now 'cause it makes you break out? 70 00:02:40,650 --> 00:02:42,626 I think you've got a little blackhead. 71 00:02:43,000 --> 00:02:45,629 What? No, that's my nose piercing. 72 00:02:45,631 --> 00:02:46,897 Are you always here this early? 73 00:02:46,899 --> 00:02:48,842 Oh, no, usually I just stay the night. 74 00:02:48,867 --> 00:02:50,367 Uh, Liss, Morgan needs to go down soon, 75 00:02:50,369 --> 00:02:52,202 and, Kev, I'll be back for dinner. 76 00:02:52,204 --> 00:02:53,704 - Not sure I will. - Okay. 77 00:02:53,706 --> 00:02:55,272 Oh, uh, let me know if you want me to order something in. 78 00:02:55,297 --> 00:02:57,664 - Okay. - Bye. 79 00:02:58,828 --> 00:03:00,377 I don't like to cook. 80 00:03:00,379 --> 00:03:03,280 So my triumphant return hadn't been as triumphant 81 00:03:03,282 --> 00:03:04,882 as I had hoped. 82 00:03:04,884 --> 00:03:06,889 But the best part of the day was yet to come. 83 00:03:06,914 --> 00:03:08,586 I could unload to the one person who knew 84 00:03:08,588 --> 00:03:11,921 better than anyone how to cheer me up. 85 00:03:12,725 --> 00:03:14,367 Oh, God, Matty, 86 00:03:14,392 --> 00:03:17,560 the one person I hoped I'd never have to see ever again. 87 00:03:17,730 --> 00:03:20,664 And after what happened, I didn't think I would. 88 00:03:20,666 --> 00:03:23,233 - How are you? - You look good, I'm good. 89 00:03:23,235 --> 00:03:25,469 Loudspeaker:... is for immediate loading and unloading 90 00:03:25,471 --> 00:03:27,738 of passengers only. 91 00:03:30,835 --> 00:03:33,217 Oh, my God, T! You look amazing! 92 00:03:33,242 --> 00:03:35,543 Hey, Babe. It's so good to see you. 93 00:03:35,546 --> 00:03:38,046 Ugh, the flight from NYC was brute. 94 00:03:38,048 --> 00:03:40,515 I cannot fly coach anymore. So not chic. 95 00:03:40,517 --> 00:03:43,485 So I'm just waiting for one more bag. 96 00:03:43,510 --> 00:03:44,631 This ho-bag! 97 00:03:44,656 --> 00:03:47,223 Who are you calling a ho, you slore? 98 00:03:47,656 --> 00:03:50,260 Aww, is Jenna an Uber driver for the summer? 99 00:03:50,261 --> 00:03:51,661 How traj. 100 00:03:51,664 --> 00:03:53,397 Careful when you're loading my bags. 101 00:03:53,398 --> 00:03:54,464 They're heavy. 102 00:03:54,466 --> 00:03:56,342 Uh, so not loading your bags. 103 00:03:56,367 --> 00:03:58,602 Don't give my attitude, Hamiltrench, 104 00:03:58,627 --> 00:04:00,193 I know what you did to Matty. 105 00:04:00,218 --> 00:04:03,163 Okay, I cannot stand not knowing... WTF happened? 106 00:04:03,188 --> 00:04:05,588 - It's complicated. - Sades, what's the big ish? 107 00:04:05,590 --> 00:04:07,679 Matty swore me to secrecy 108 00:04:07,704 --> 00:04:11,840 because it's disgusting and humiliating. 109 00:04:11,997 --> 00:04:15,065 Okay, then can we please stop talking about it? 110 00:04:15,067 --> 00:04:17,701 My best friend had befriended my worst enemy? 111 00:04:17,703 --> 00:04:19,402 How did that even happen? 112 00:04:19,404 --> 00:04:21,404 But I needed to stop worrying about my old friends 113 00:04:21,406 --> 00:04:23,446 and look to my future. 114 00:04:24,710 --> 00:04:27,043 My new job at Idea Bin, the website where I'd scored 115 00:04:27,045 --> 00:04:29,079 a competitive summer fellowship. 116 00:04:29,081 --> 00:04:31,314 Idea Bin blended journalism and personal essays 117 00:04:31,316 --> 00:04:33,350 with listicles and quizzes, and had quickly 118 00:04:33,352 --> 00:04:35,885 gotten both a lot of traffic and a reputation 119 00:04:35,887 --> 00:04:38,021 as an incubator for hot young writers. 120 00:04:38,023 --> 00:04:40,256 Welcome, summer fellow. 121 00:04:40,258 --> 00:04:41,179 Which one are you? 122 00:04:41,204 --> 00:04:43,070 - Jenna Hamilton. - Hi, I'm Ethan. 123 00:04:43,095 --> 00:04:44,561 I'm the Associate Editor here, 124 00:04:44,563 --> 00:04:46,329 and I supervise you fellowship peeps. 125 00:04:46,331 --> 00:04:48,064 Hi, Jenna? I'm Max. 126 00:04:48,066 --> 00:04:49,566 Max here, clearly a glutton for punishment, 127 00:04:49,568 --> 00:04:52,131 is back for his second summer as an unpaid fellow, 128 00:04:52,156 --> 00:04:53,287 as is Mia! 129 00:04:53,312 --> 00:04:53,914 Hi. 130 00:04:53,939 --> 00:04:56,139 Last summer, Mia got a piece up her second week here. 131 00:04:56,141 --> 00:04:57,741 She'll probably get a book deal by the time the summer's over. 132 00:04:57,743 --> 00:04:59,959 Bitch! JK. 133 00:04:59,984 --> 00:05:02,445 This is a safe, nurturing space where we encourage 134 00:05:02,447 --> 00:05:03,780 both types of LOLing: 135 00:05:03,782 --> 00:05:06,983 laughing out loud and living out loud. 136 00:05:08,786 --> 00:05:11,788 Hey, I'm Ophelia, also a first-timer. 137 00:05:11,790 --> 00:05:13,428 This is intimidating, right? 138 00:05:13,453 --> 00:05:14,824 No, hon, don't be intimidated. 139 00:05:14,826 --> 00:05:16,156 Jenna, what's your Twitter handle? 140 00:05:16,181 --> 00:05:18,528 Oh, I haven't really been tweeting that much. 141 00:05:18,530 --> 00:05:20,693 Is this you? IAmJennaHam? 142 00:05:20,718 --> 00:05:22,279 It's very Theodore Geisel. I like it. 143 00:05:22,304 --> 00:05:24,534 Dr. Seuss's real name! Genius, Jenna! 144 00:05:24,536 --> 00:05:26,703 Wait, 40 followers? 145 00:05:26,705 --> 00:05:29,115 IAmJennaHam last tweeted in October. 146 00:05:29,140 --> 00:05:31,482 I kind of backed off social media when I was in Maine. 147 00:05:31,507 --> 00:05:33,998 "My boo is coming to visit?" My boo? 148 00:05:34,023 --> 00:05:38,093 Jenna, go to jail. That was retired in 2005. 149 00:05:38,109 --> 00:05:41,010 Oaf here has 11,000 Twitter followers. 150 00:05:41,012 --> 00:05:43,479 I totally respect your social media boycott. 151 00:05:43,481 --> 00:05:46,282 I wish I could wean myself, but I just suck at weaning. 152 00:05:46,284 --> 00:05:49,719 I was breastfed till I was six. Before it was chic. 153 00:05:49,721 --> 00:05:52,188 Chickens, to be a writer you need a brand. 154 00:05:52,190 --> 00:05:54,457 And we establish and cultivate that brand how? 155 00:05:54,459 --> 00:05:56,626 On social media, that is how the clickbait gets clicked. 156 00:05:56,628 --> 00:05:58,576 That is how your sickness is gonna go viral. 157 00:05:58,601 --> 00:05:59,562 I'm happy to help you. 158 00:05:59,587 --> 00:06:01,953 I spend way too much time frittering with my twittering. 159 00:06:01,978 --> 00:06:04,545 - Thanks. - Don't worry, hon. 160 00:06:04,563 --> 00:06:05,696 You'll catch up. 161 00:06:05,721 --> 00:06:08,989 [jolly music] 162 00:06:09,014 --> 00:06:13,225 ♪ 163 00:06:13,250 --> 00:06:16,803 Palos Hills Country Club is a fun work environment, 164 00:06:16,828 --> 00:06:20,130 but we do demand a commitment to the highest level 165 00:06:20,132 --> 00:06:22,734 of service and professionalism. 166 00:06:22,759 --> 00:06:24,259 Oh, of course, Jakey. 167 00:06:24,273 --> 00:06:27,107 You are, like, so serious now. 168 00:06:27,109 --> 00:06:28,608 - This is my job. - Yeah, dude. 169 00:06:28,610 --> 00:06:29,929 I got your back. 170 00:06:30,462 --> 00:06:32,295 This is gonna be a blast. 171 00:06:32,414 --> 00:06:34,815 I wasn't too excited about coming back home for the summer, 172 00:06:34,817 --> 00:06:38,326 but now, you know, I am. 173 00:06:38,351 --> 00:06:40,585 So are you gonna tell me what went down with Jenna? 174 00:06:41,023 --> 00:06:42,723 [clears throat] Jenna... 175 00:06:42,725 --> 00:06:43,945 Jenna who? 176 00:06:44,760 --> 00:06:48,895 Okay, I have everyone's assignment except... 177 00:06:48,897 --> 00:06:50,397 Jenna's. 178 00:06:50,399 --> 00:06:51,598 Here it is. 179 00:06:51,600 --> 00:06:52,718 Paper? 180 00:06:52,743 --> 00:06:54,712 What, did you write it with a quill by candlelight? 181 00:06:54,737 --> 00:06:56,470 Why don't you just fax it to me while you're at it, huh? 182 00:06:56,472 --> 00:06:58,654 Maybe the fax will make a comeback. 183 00:06:58,679 --> 00:07:00,607 - Yeah, and pagers. - Tiddlywinks. 184 00:07:00,609 --> 00:07:02,553 I can see your first byline now, Jenna. 185 00:07:02,578 --> 00:07:06,313 "Making Backwards Forwards." It's so... Etsy. 186 00:07:06,315 --> 00:07:08,545 Just to be clear, hon, that is a joke. 187 00:07:08,570 --> 00:07:10,317 Don't... don't actually do that. 188 00:07:10,319 --> 00:07:11,852 How had I already managed to become 189 00:07:11,854 --> 00:07:13,387 the office laughing stock. 190 00:07:13,389 --> 00:07:15,722 No, I wasn't gonna get down on myself. 191 00:07:15,724 --> 00:07:17,958 I wasn't gonna let anything shake my confidence. 192 00:07:17,960 --> 00:07:19,926 Hey, what'd I miss? 193 00:07:19,928 --> 00:07:21,007 [bleep]. 194 00:07:21,032 --> 00:07:24,030 Guys, this is Luke, also a second-year fellow. 195 00:07:24,032 --> 00:07:25,866 Jenna. Good to see you. 196 00:07:25,868 --> 00:07:27,382 Luke, the perfect guy, 197 00:07:27,407 --> 00:07:28,578 the one who got away, 198 00:07:28,603 --> 00:07:30,647 the one who reminded me of what an immature mess 199 00:07:30,672 --> 00:07:32,046 I'd been in high school. 200 00:07:32,071 --> 00:07:34,941 Yup, cool, confident Jenna had just left the building. 201 00:07:36,947 --> 00:07:38,282 Oh... incoming! 202 00:07:38,822 --> 00:07:40,989 Lizzy Raines, the Editor-in-Chief of Idea Bin, 203 00:07:40,990 --> 00:07:42,390 was one of my idols. 204 00:07:42,392 --> 00:07:43,991 Her work was smart and incisive, 205 00:07:43,993 --> 00:07:45,693 yet emotional and textured. 206 00:07:45,718 --> 00:07:46,391 Hi. 207 00:07:46,416 --> 00:07:48,473 I am way too angry to be mad right now. 208 00:07:48,498 --> 00:07:50,932 Treacherous publisher thinks that "Perishables" 209 00:07:50,934 --> 00:07:52,233 is a bad title for a novel. 210 00:07:52,235 --> 00:07:55,524 Lizzy, the new fellows are all here. 211 00:07:56,372 --> 00:07:59,307 Hello. Welcome. 212 00:07:59,309 --> 00:08:00,875 I'd like you all to think of Idea Bin 213 00:08:00,877 --> 00:08:03,811 as a creative space, where you can develop your craft 214 00:08:03,813 --> 00:08:04,979 and find your voices. 215 00:08:04,981 --> 00:08:06,547 I'm always available to you, 216 00:08:06,549 --> 00:08:08,516 except when I'm in my office with the door closed, 217 00:08:08,518 --> 00:08:10,157 which is where I'm headed now. 218 00:08:11,988 --> 00:08:14,722 Once you get to know her, she's a total pushover. 219 00:08:14,724 --> 00:08:17,291 So crazy that we're both working here. 220 00:08:17,293 --> 00:08:18,492 Not that crazy. 221 00:08:18,494 --> 00:08:19,813 Remember, we both discovered Idea Bin 222 00:08:19,838 --> 00:08:23,095 when we saw that Shira Munroe piece on shy exhibitionists? 223 00:08:24,100 --> 00:08:25,391 You look great. 224 00:08:26,169 --> 00:08:27,563 How have you been? 225 00:08:27,971 --> 00:08:29,024 Great. 226 00:08:30,373 --> 00:08:32,506 Spill... how was your first day at work. 227 00:08:32,508 --> 00:08:34,709 Unbelievable... I actually ran into... 228 00:08:34,711 --> 00:08:36,844 [gasps] OMG! 229 00:08:36,846 --> 00:08:38,879 I thought I left this at some after-hours party 230 00:08:38,881 --> 00:08:40,079 in the West Village. 231 00:08:40,104 --> 00:08:43,294 I have to tell Sadie; she will freak that I found this. 232 00:08:43,319 --> 00:08:45,186 I thought I was out two hundy! 233 00:08:45,188 --> 00:08:47,688 Wow, you spend a lot of money on clothes. 234 00:08:47,690 --> 00:08:50,424 - You: Maine. - Me: New York. 235 00:08:50,426 --> 00:08:52,360 Dress for success, or wail and fail. 236 00:08:52,362 --> 00:08:54,528 I guess, but the thing about being in a small town 237 00:08:54,530 --> 00:08:56,964 is that you get less attached to, you know, things, 238 00:08:56,966 --> 00:08:59,148 and more into, just, being. 239 00:08:59,173 --> 00:09:01,635 Well, I'm glad you've been peace-ing out in the woods, 240 00:09:01,637 --> 00:09:04,572 if that's all you've been doing since you went dark. 241 00:09:04,574 --> 00:09:05,477 What? 242 00:09:05,502 --> 00:09:07,986 Your social media blackout did not go unnoticed, Jenna. 243 00:09:08,011 --> 00:09:10,845 It was aggressive, like you hung up on the world. 244 00:09:10,847 --> 00:09:13,147 I had to, after what happened with Matty, I just... 245 00:09:13,149 --> 00:09:15,950 Okay, so what did happen with Matty? 246 00:09:15,952 --> 00:09:19,165 I am dying to know. Everyone is dying to know. 247 00:09:19,821 --> 00:09:22,556 - It's hard to explain. - That is a cop-out. 248 00:09:22,558 --> 00:09:24,291 If you asked me about my breakup with Adam, 249 00:09:24,293 --> 00:09:26,688 I would tell you anything you want to know. 250 00:09:27,030 --> 00:09:28,295 Was it friendly? 251 00:09:28,297 --> 00:09:29,864 It was hard. 252 00:09:29,866 --> 00:09:32,382 TBH, if you hadn't gone all M.I.A. "Paper Planes" 253 00:09:32,407 --> 00:09:34,268 on social media, you would already know that. 254 00:09:34,270 --> 00:09:35,470 You feel me? 255 00:09:36,239 --> 00:09:38,305 Yeah, I feel you. 256 00:09:38,307 --> 00:09:41,375 [electronic music] 257 00:09:41,377 --> 00:09:43,644 ♪ 258 00:09:43,646 --> 00:09:46,247 Hey, Sadita, college girl back in town. 259 00:09:46,249 --> 00:09:48,082 Good to see you. Next? 260 00:09:48,084 --> 00:09:50,217 So how are you? 261 00:09:50,219 --> 00:09:51,685 Super busy right now, 262 00:09:51,687 --> 00:09:53,788 but let's catch up soon, okay? 263 00:09:53,790 --> 00:09:55,462 Soon sounds good. 264 00:09:55,487 --> 00:09:56,595 Lates. 265 00:09:58,728 --> 00:10:02,163 Sadie says Sergio's food truck is out of control. 266 00:10:02,165 --> 00:10:04,432 Jump on it, bay-bay! 267 00:10:04,434 --> 00:10:06,567 "Oh, he is dying to jump on me, but he's too busy 268 00:10:06,569 --> 00:10:08,769 "with his stupid food truck right now. 269 00:10:08,771 --> 00:10:11,672 Courtney Roy is throwing a party in the Palisades." 270 00:10:11,674 --> 00:10:13,474 Shut up! 271 00:10:13,476 --> 00:10:14,720 Who's Courtney Roy? 272 00:10:14,745 --> 00:10:18,289 Oh, some boring trustafarian Sadie and I met in New York. 273 00:10:18,314 --> 00:10:20,848 I hear her house is sick, so I should go. 274 00:10:20,850 --> 00:10:22,016 Can we rain check? 275 00:10:22,018 --> 00:10:23,584 So... no sleepover? 276 00:10:23,586 --> 00:10:27,254 I know, I suck, but this party is going to be mayj. 277 00:10:27,256 --> 00:10:29,757 But, you're more than welcome to come 278 00:10:29,759 --> 00:10:30,970 if you want. 279 00:10:31,149 --> 00:10:33,734 Why was it when people said I was "more than welcome," 280 00:10:33,759 --> 00:10:35,362 I always felt less than? 281 00:10:35,364 --> 00:10:37,998 Gee, T, you make it sound so appealing, 282 00:10:38,000 --> 00:10:39,667 but I think I'll pass. 283 00:10:39,669 --> 00:10:41,802 I may not have been cool enough for Tamara anymore, 284 00:10:41,804 --> 00:10:43,804 but at least I could go home to my parents. 285 00:10:43,806 --> 00:10:46,140 Shockingly, I actually wanted to hang out with them. 286 00:10:46,142 --> 00:10:47,975 I'd missed them a lot more than I expected. 287 00:10:47,977 --> 00:10:51,491 Oh, hey, Jenna, we didn't know you'd be home for dinner. 288 00:10:51,516 --> 00:10:53,070 Change of plans. 289 00:10:53,095 --> 00:10:55,449 Well, we're going out for a date night, 290 00:10:55,451 --> 00:10:58,859 but, um... you're more than welcome to join. 291 00:10:58,884 --> 00:10:59,626 Yeah. 292 00:10:59,651 --> 00:11:01,624 The dreaded "more than welcome" again. 293 00:11:01,649 --> 00:11:03,124 That's okay, you guys should go. 294 00:11:03,126 --> 00:11:05,790 - Okay, bye. - Bye-bye. 295 00:11:06,368 --> 00:11:09,964 You don't have to stay. I am happy to take care of her. 296 00:11:09,966 --> 00:11:12,032 - All right. - [baby cries] 297 00:11:12,034 --> 00:11:13,259 Oh. 298 00:11:14,303 --> 00:11:16,537 - Maybe you should stay. - Oh. 299 00:11:16,539 --> 00:11:18,472 Hmm, must've been you, Jenna. 300 00:11:18,474 --> 00:11:19,940 Weird. 301 00:11:19,942 --> 00:11:21,342 Even my baby sister didn't want to have 302 00:11:21,344 --> 00:11:22,877 anything to do with me. 303 00:11:22,879 --> 00:11:24,345 Well, she wasn't the only crabby baby 304 00:11:24,347 --> 00:11:25,579 who felt like crying. 305 00:11:25,581 --> 00:11:26,712 It was time to go to bed 306 00:11:26,737 --> 00:11:28,926 and put this day out of its misery 307 00:11:28,951 --> 00:11:31,352 so I could start all over again the next day 308 00:11:31,354 --> 00:11:33,487 with a clear head and a good attitude. 309 00:11:33,489 --> 00:11:35,374 - Good morning. - Hey. 310 00:11:35,399 --> 00:11:36,593 Guess we're gonna have to get used to 311 00:11:36,618 --> 00:11:37,851 seeing each other every day. 312 00:11:37,876 --> 00:11:40,127 Yeah, still can't get over the coincidence. 313 00:11:40,129 --> 00:11:42,429 Okay, to be perfectly honest, 314 00:11:42,431 --> 00:11:44,131 maybe not all that coincidental. 315 00:11:44,133 --> 00:11:46,167 I might have seen your application on the pile 316 00:11:46,169 --> 00:11:49,305 and given it an extra push. 317 00:11:50,173 --> 00:11:50,938 Oh. 318 00:11:50,940 --> 00:11:53,307 So it wasn't a fluke; it was Luke? 319 00:11:53,309 --> 00:11:54,642 I thought I had gotten this internship 320 00:11:54,644 --> 00:11:56,510 on my own merit, but it was just 321 00:11:56,512 --> 00:11:59,532 the helping hand of someone from my past. 322 00:12:00,449 --> 00:12:01,866 And it seemed like the more I wanted 323 00:12:01,891 --> 00:12:03,050 to put my past behind me, 324 00:12:03,052 --> 00:12:04,885 the more it wanted to get all up in my face. 325 00:12:04,887 --> 00:12:07,888 I just got an invite to a little high school gathering. 326 00:12:07,890 --> 00:12:09,156 Same old Palos Hills. 327 00:12:09,158 --> 00:12:10,827 Still a little Matty drama, huh? 328 00:12:10,852 --> 00:12:13,984 Oh, no, I'm not that girl anymore. 329 00:12:14,009 --> 00:12:17,064 College has given me a whole new perspective. 330 00:12:17,066 --> 00:12:18,212 Good. 331 00:12:19,135 --> 00:12:20,907 Looks like we're starting up. 332 00:12:22,338 --> 00:12:23,871 I ask our new fellows to write about 333 00:12:23,873 --> 00:12:25,806 their worst experience ever because I am a fan 334 00:12:25,808 --> 00:12:27,608 of ritual humiliation. 335 00:12:27,610 --> 00:12:28,776 JK! 336 00:12:28,778 --> 00:12:31,343 I ask because it is hard to be both confessional 337 00:12:31,368 --> 00:12:32,680 and engaging. 338 00:12:32,682 --> 00:12:35,132 So, Jenna, tell me, 339 00:12:35,157 --> 00:12:36,757 why do you think your essay is interesting? 340 00:12:36,782 --> 00:12:39,882 Well, it's about how profoundly we can be affected 341 00:12:39,907 --> 00:12:42,375 by others' misperceptions of us. 342 00:12:42,400 --> 00:12:44,500 I broke my arm in a freak accident, 343 00:12:44,502 --> 00:12:47,169 but the story... the accepted truth... was that 344 00:12:47,171 --> 00:12:48,471 I tried to kill myself. 345 00:12:48,473 --> 00:12:49,972 Right, but if you didn't actually 346 00:12:49,974 --> 00:12:52,808 try to kill yourself, then what are the stakes? 347 00:12:52,810 --> 00:12:54,009 I just... 348 00:12:54,011 --> 00:12:55,711 Let me put it into context for you, okay? 349 00:12:55,713 --> 00:12:59,849 Ophelia wrote about how she did commit suicide. 350 00:12:59,851 --> 00:13:02,451 I was dead for two minutes before they revived me. 351 00:13:02,453 --> 00:13:05,851 So you see? Ophelia was dead. 352 00:13:05,876 --> 00:13:06,930 That's interesting. 353 00:13:06,955 --> 00:13:09,191 I don't want to die again, though, I'll tell you that much. 354 00:13:09,516 --> 00:13:11,868 You know, heaven seemed really middle-of-the-road. 355 00:13:11,893 --> 00:13:15,641 [indie rock music] 356 00:13:15,666 --> 00:13:17,032 Are you sure you don't want to come? 357 00:13:17,034 --> 00:13:17,735 More than. 358 00:13:17,760 --> 00:13:20,146 Hamilslag, there's a 30-foot no-slunt zone 359 00:13:20,171 --> 00:13:21,504 around Matty, 'Kay? 360 00:13:21,506 --> 00:13:23,205 Sadie, really, didn't you grow up at all 361 00:13:23,207 --> 00:13:24,673 your entire year of college? 362 00:13:24,675 --> 00:13:26,642 You guys, I'm really trying to swing this 363 00:13:26,644 --> 00:13:28,577 and be bi-friendsual, but your girl-fighting 364 00:13:28,579 --> 00:13:29,945 is making it muy hard. 365 00:13:29,947 --> 00:13:32,114 Go have fun with the high school crowd, TK. 366 00:13:32,116 --> 00:13:34,416 I'm in the mood for some good Mexican, 367 00:13:34,418 --> 00:13:35,885 and you can't get that in the city. 368 00:13:35,887 --> 00:13:37,353 Get on it, you slut. 369 00:13:37,355 --> 00:13:38,621 Both: Muah. Muah. 370 00:13:38,623 --> 00:13:40,222 ♪ Hot day, summer nights ♪ 371 00:13:40,224 --> 00:13:41,290 ♪ Workin' till the weekend strikes ♪ 372 00:13:41,292 --> 00:13:43,225 - You see Matty? - No. 373 00:13:43,227 --> 00:13:44,994 Are you really okay? Can you deal? 374 00:13:44,996 --> 00:13:47,930 Of course. We're all adults now. 375 00:13:47,932 --> 00:13:51,267 God knows we've all had our fill of Matty and Jenna drama. 376 00:13:51,269 --> 00:13:53,569 Yes, but, from another POV, 377 00:13:53,571 --> 00:13:55,899 it's the gift that keeps on giving. 378 00:13:56,774 --> 00:13:58,474 I thought this was just supposed to be 379 00:13:58,476 --> 00:13:59,742 Palos Hills peeps. 380 00:13:59,744 --> 00:14:02,044 Who's that sloppy rando? 381 00:14:02,046 --> 00:14:03,884 My girlfriend. 382 00:14:04,548 --> 00:14:07,977 Matty, I love your friends. I really like them. 383 00:14:12,958 --> 00:14:14,893 I'd been back from college less than a week, 384 00:14:14,895 --> 00:14:16,728 but all my illusions about being a new, 385 00:14:16,730 --> 00:14:19,531 powerful, confident person were crumbling. 386 00:14:19,533 --> 00:14:21,900 I can't believe that's Matty's girlfriend. 387 00:14:21,902 --> 00:14:23,902 She does seem kind of gauche atrosh. 388 00:14:23,904 --> 00:14:26,871 And Matty seems like such a frat boy. 389 00:14:26,873 --> 00:14:29,207 Thank God boys aren't all fratted-out in the city. 390 00:14:29,209 --> 00:14:31,609 Hey, babe, will you make me a dirty martini? 391 00:14:31,611 --> 00:14:33,978 Babe, we got beer... in red cups. 392 00:14:33,980 --> 00:14:36,332 Welcome back to Palos Hills. 393 00:14:36,357 --> 00:14:40,051 [funky dance music] 394 00:14:40,053 --> 00:14:43,922 ♪ 395 00:14:43,924 --> 00:14:45,857 Hey, Sadita, what are you doing here? 396 00:14:45,859 --> 00:14:48,020 Last night you said you wanted to see me soon. 397 00:14:48,045 --> 00:14:50,672 Well, now's soon. 398 00:14:50,697 --> 00:14:52,630 Oh, man, I didn't say tonight, did I? 399 00:14:52,632 --> 00:14:54,643 Been so crazy busy I can't keep track. 400 00:14:54,668 --> 00:14:57,168 Yeah, and I can see what you've been busy with. 401 00:14:57,170 --> 00:14:59,904 I bet that whore puts in a lot of overtime! 402 00:14:59,906 --> 00:15:02,386 Sadie! That's my mom! Respect! 403 00:15:02,411 --> 00:15:04,142 Uh-huh, now I know why you don't want me 404 00:15:04,144 --> 00:15:06,010 to meet this Sadie girl. 405 00:15:06,012 --> 00:15:07,312 Maldita. 406 00:15:07,314 --> 00:15:09,781 I am so sorry, Mrs. Espinoza, 407 00:15:09,783 --> 00:15:12,150 Sergio told me how young and beautiful you are, 408 00:15:12,152 --> 00:15:13,832 but I'm sorry... 409 00:15:14,487 --> 00:15:16,301 Okay, she can get over it. 410 00:15:16,326 --> 00:15:18,733 So where do you want to go? 411 00:15:18,758 --> 00:15:20,725 Sadie, I didn't know you were coming. 412 00:15:20,727 --> 00:15:21,645 I have plans. 413 00:15:21,670 --> 00:15:22,973 With your mama? 414 00:15:22,998 --> 00:15:26,411 No, with his girlfriend. 415 00:15:27,379 --> 00:15:28,786 Hi, I'm Julia. 416 00:15:30,637 --> 00:15:32,670 Oh, hi. 417 00:15:32,672 --> 00:15:34,439 We'll just have to do it another time. 418 00:15:34,441 --> 00:15:35,598 'Kay? 419 00:15:35,623 --> 00:15:36,723 Pal? 420 00:15:40,446 --> 00:15:44,182 ♪ 421 00:15:44,184 --> 00:15:45,934 I'm out! 422 00:15:45,959 --> 00:15:48,098 - Hey. - Hi. 423 00:15:48,855 --> 00:15:50,609 What are you guys doing? 424 00:15:51,258 --> 00:15:52,624 Making out with tongue. 425 00:15:52,626 --> 00:15:54,893 So are you guys dating again? 426 00:15:54,895 --> 00:15:56,895 Yeah, for six months. 427 00:15:56,897 --> 00:15:58,161 Another thing you would have known 428 00:15:58,186 --> 00:16:00,041 if you were on social media. 429 00:16:00,066 --> 00:16:01,762 Yay, Sadie, you're here! 430 00:16:01,787 --> 00:16:03,293 Hey, cutie. 431 00:16:03,770 --> 00:16:06,337 So good to see you too. You look amaze. 432 00:16:06,339 --> 00:16:09,392 Let's chat lates, 'kay? I need to tell T something. 433 00:16:10,466 --> 00:16:13,160 OMG, Sades, WTF? Tell me everything. 434 00:16:13,185 --> 00:16:14,401 I mean... 435 00:16:14,426 --> 00:16:16,537 Was it weird when you got home? 436 00:16:16,539 --> 00:16:18,238 No, it's been super fun. 437 00:16:18,240 --> 00:16:20,262 I have a baby, which is perfect, since I've always wanted 438 00:16:20,270 --> 00:16:21,670 to be a Palos Hills mom. 439 00:16:21,672 --> 00:16:23,004 And your parents are super cool and let Jake 440 00:16:23,006 --> 00:16:24,606 spend the night whenever I want. 441 00:16:24,608 --> 00:16:26,608 I mean, was he trying to humiliate me? 442 00:16:26,610 --> 00:16:28,643 Poor communication skills are inexcusable. 443 00:16:28,645 --> 00:16:30,478 Me choir, keep preaching. 444 00:16:30,480 --> 00:16:31,913 Jake and I work well as a couple. 445 00:16:31,915 --> 00:16:33,848 Plus, between nannying and Atonercising, 446 00:16:33,873 --> 00:16:36,261 I don't even have time to look for a different boyfriend. 447 00:16:36,286 --> 00:16:38,129 - That's romantic. - I know. 448 00:16:38,723 --> 00:16:40,557 The thing is, don't ambush me! 449 00:16:40,582 --> 00:16:42,262 If you want to dip your little chip 450 00:16:42,270 --> 00:16:44,337 into some nasty guac while I'm away, 451 00:16:44,339 --> 00:16:46,472 that's fine, but just tell me. 452 00:16:46,475 --> 00:16:49,476 It's not always easy to communicate long distance. 453 00:16:49,478 --> 00:16:51,504 Not for emotionally constipated slunts 454 00:16:51,529 --> 00:16:52,862 like you, maybe. 455 00:16:52,895 --> 00:16:54,932 Sades, Jenna is still my friend too. 456 00:16:54,957 --> 00:16:57,063 Thanks, T, but it's actually reassuring to see 457 00:16:57,065 --> 00:16:59,637 that someone hasn't changed around here. 458 00:17:00,836 --> 00:17:03,470 Hey, dude, ball, please. 459 00:17:03,472 --> 00:17:05,405 This deep freeze is burning my ass. 460 00:17:05,407 --> 00:17:07,434 Can you at least be civ to each other? 461 00:17:08,143 --> 00:17:09,176 Fine. 462 00:17:10,212 --> 00:17:12,434 Here's your girlfriend's ball, Matty. 463 00:17:12,938 --> 00:17:14,147 Thank you, uh, 464 00:17:14,149 --> 00:17:15,782 can you take some of the stink off of it? 465 00:17:15,784 --> 00:17:18,485 Oh, it came with that on it. Dude. 466 00:17:18,487 --> 00:17:19,753 Sully's just playing. 467 00:17:19,755 --> 00:17:21,688 Playing... is that what you call it? 468 00:17:21,690 --> 00:17:23,623 Yeah, I do. What do you call it? 469 00:17:23,625 --> 00:17:24,528 Rudeness. 470 00:17:24,553 --> 00:17:26,693 But, whatever, Matty, this is just so 471 00:17:26,695 --> 00:17:28,581 not what I expected out of you. 472 00:17:28,606 --> 00:17:30,864 Yeah, well, this pretentious bull[bleep] you're putting on 473 00:17:30,866 --> 00:17:32,854 is exactly what I expected of you. 474 00:17:33,535 --> 00:17:34,804 Pretentious? 475 00:17:35,304 --> 00:17:37,837 Why, because I don't like throwing balls at people's heads 476 00:17:37,839 --> 00:17:39,806 and playing stupid drinking games? 477 00:17:39,808 --> 00:17:41,474 Pretentious because you've turned into some 478 00:17:41,476 --> 00:17:43,343 self-righteous hippie chick thinking you're 479 00:17:43,345 --> 00:17:44,903 better than everyone while standing there 480 00:17:44,928 --> 00:17:47,347 with some stupid thing stuck in your nose. 481 00:17:50,351 --> 00:17:53,746 And this is why we can't just be civ with each other. 482 00:17:56,896 --> 00:17:59,027 I was mad at myself for being stupid enough 483 00:17:59,052 --> 00:18:01,183 to think Matty and I could ever be okay again. 484 00:18:01,208 --> 00:18:03,410 But I was even madder at Matty for all those hurtful things 485 00:18:03,435 --> 00:18:05,449 he said that made me want to scream... 486 00:18:05,474 --> 00:18:08,409 [baby cries] 487 00:18:14,880 --> 00:18:16,464 Just rock her a little. 488 00:18:16,489 --> 00:18:18,382 She needs to get used to her big sister. 489 00:18:18,384 --> 00:18:20,284 Yeah, she wasn't prepared... 490 00:18:20,286 --> 00:18:22,186 I know you've had a little bit of a rough landing, 491 00:18:22,188 --> 00:18:23,454 and I'm really sorry. 492 00:18:23,456 --> 00:18:24,122 How would you know? 493 00:18:24,147 --> 00:18:26,481 It's not like you've been paying attention. 494 00:18:27,434 --> 00:18:28,759 Well, am I right? 495 00:18:28,761 --> 00:18:31,028 Yes. Everyone's changed. 496 00:18:31,030 --> 00:18:32,196 Lissa has taken over our house, 497 00:18:32,198 --> 00:18:34,432 Tamara and Sadie are best friends, 498 00:18:34,434 --> 00:18:36,501 Luke got me my job without telling me, 499 00:18:36,503 --> 00:18:38,302 and Matty has turned into a complete jerk. 500 00:18:38,304 --> 00:18:41,305 Okay, okay. Let's put her back in her crib. 501 00:18:41,307 --> 00:18:44,108 When everyone stops trying so hard to be adults, 502 00:18:44,110 --> 00:18:45,948 they'll stop acting like such children. 503 00:18:45,973 --> 00:18:48,456 Trust me, they're still the same people. 504 00:18:48,481 --> 00:18:49,891 But I've changed. 505 00:18:49,916 --> 00:18:54,519 Mm-hmm, you're more confident; you're even smarter... 506 00:18:54,521 --> 00:18:56,721 but don't stop being that sweet, sensitive girl 507 00:18:56,723 --> 00:18:58,356 I know and love, okay? 508 00:18:58,358 --> 00:19:02,727 Hey, I got you some santizing wipes for your... 509 00:19:02,729 --> 00:19:04,028 Thanks, but... 510 00:19:04,030 --> 00:19:05,396 I think I'm actually going to take it out. 511 00:19:05,398 --> 00:19:07,698 It's getting a little infected. 512 00:19:07,700 --> 00:19:09,116 I noticed. 513 00:19:11,059 --> 00:19:12,730 I'm sorry Morgan's in your room, 514 00:19:12,755 --> 00:19:16,031 and you don't have space to do your writing... 515 00:19:16,643 --> 00:19:19,443 You know, I actually do have some space... 516 00:19:19,445 --> 00:19:21,913 I was caught in a perfect storm of emotions: 517 00:19:21,915 --> 00:19:24,415 angry, happy, defeated, hopeful. 518 00:19:24,417 --> 00:19:26,984 I knew I had to seize the moment and work... 519 00:19:26,986 --> 00:19:28,619 So I went to Idea Bin. 520 00:19:28,621 --> 00:19:30,955 ♪ I'm gonna see you, see you ♪ 521 00:19:30,957 --> 00:19:32,890 ♪ And now it's happened ♪ 522 00:19:32,892 --> 00:19:36,027 ♪ And that's... we're never, ever going ♪ 523 00:19:36,029 --> 00:19:37,995 ♪ When you look into my heart 524 00:19:37,997 --> 00:19:40,276 "I'm The Kind of Person Who Found Her Voice In College." 525 00:19:40,301 --> 00:19:41,691 I thought this piece could say a lot 526 00:19:41,716 --> 00:19:42,900 about heartbreak and growth... 527 00:19:42,902 --> 00:19:45,339 sort of like a care-frontation letter to myself. 528 00:19:45,364 --> 00:19:48,272 I'd post it and tweet it everywhere and anywhere. 529 00:19:48,274 --> 00:19:49,364 Hey. 530 00:19:50,143 --> 00:19:51,509 What are you doing here so early? 531 00:19:51,511 --> 00:19:52,966 I've actually been here all night, 532 00:19:52,991 --> 00:19:54,989 trying to write something Ethan won't hate. 533 00:19:55,014 --> 00:19:57,222 Listen, if he pushes you, it's because he sees potential. 534 00:19:57,247 --> 00:20:00,618 Or he sees a girl whose ex-boyfriend got her the job. 535 00:20:00,620 --> 00:20:02,667 Jenna, I wouldn't have pushed your name on the top of the pile 536 00:20:02,692 --> 00:20:04,418 if I didn't think you were really talented. 537 00:20:04,443 --> 00:20:06,209 Then, why didn't you just tell me up front 538 00:20:06,211 --> 00:20:07,801 before I started here? 539 00:20:08,880 --> 00:20:09,879 I'm sorry, Jenna. 540 00:20:09,881 --> 00:20:12,782 It didn't even occur to me that you might be insecure about it. 541 00:20:12,784 --> 00:20:14,581 Because I wasn't at all. 542 00:20:14,606 --> 00:20:16,252 I mean, you're gonna make me look good. 543 00:20:16,254 --> 00:20:18,432 Well, I'm no Ophelia. 544 00:20:19,291 --> 00:20:21,524 I didn't like her essay all that much. 545 00:20:21,526 --> 00:20:24,527 And, FYI, Ophelia got the internship 546 00:20:24,529 --> 00:20:26,763 because her dad's tight with Lizzy. 547 00:20:26,765 --> 00:20:28,409 - Really? - Yes. 548 00:20:28,434 --> 00:20:30,605 And I got the job because I was in Lizzy's class, 549 00:20:30,630 --> 00:20:32,003 and she likes me. 550 00:20:32,028 --> 00:20:34,537 There's not too much happens that's completely blind. 551 00:20:34,539 --> 00:20:36,639 Knowing someone helps. 552 00:20:36,879 --> 00:20:38,112 I feel so naive. 553 00:20:38,137 --> 00:20:39,809 Well, I don't want to disillusion you... 554 00:20:40,192 --> 00:20:41,344 You can't. 555 00:20:41,346 --> 00:20:44,113 You are not the same girl you were last year. 556 00:20:44,115 --> 00:20:45,849 Sorry to disappoint you. 557 00:20:45,851 --> 00:20:47,337 I'm not disappointed. 558 00:20:48,286 --> 00:20:51,178 You keep getting better and better... 559 00:20:52,457 --> 00:20:54,190 ♪ We're never, ever going back ♪ 560 00:20:54,192 --> 00:20:57,531 ♪ 561 00:20:57,556 --> 00:20:58,874 ♪ It's finally alive ♪ 562 00:20:58,899 --> 00:21:00,267 Synced and corrected by Chitorafa www.addic7ed.com