Previously on
the Real Housewives of Beverly Hills.
Dad and I are both walking in with you?
Yeah, you're gonna walk me down.
That's so crazy.
My daughter.
Our daughter is getting married,
and we're not together.
Okay.
If he doesn't have a child, which I know he really wants,
then what does that mean?
This has to work.
- What the actual [beep]? - I know.
It's----ing everywhere.
I actually thought the whole mediation
is so that this is not, like a huge, loud, public thing.
Like, it's everywhere.
Okay, So I filed for divorce this morning.
[restaurant din] This is just, to me,
a detail in the process.
- Yes. - Of moving forward.
So you're okay?
I'm great. I'm----ing great.
I know Rachel's saying that she's okay and she's fine,
but a part of it, I think, is just putting on a brave face.
What did you think about Dorit?
I started wondering, like,
is her talking to everyone gonna end up affecting
the divorce in some kind of negative way?
Having an opinion from someone who doesn't know me--
Can I be really, really honest?
Zion died three years ago today,
and I'm holding on by a thread.
[tense music] - What?
Amanda, I'm so sorry you're going through this.
Just know-- Okay.
I'd like to be able to have a conversation with you.
I need to be able to go to a dinner party
without being verbally accosted.
[tense music]
Wait, wait. Whoa, whoa.
- Were you-- - That's what I'm learning.
Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa...
No. Accosted. I'm pretty sure
- I used the right word. - Were you verbally
accosted by me?
That is how I experienced it.
Approached and addressed boldly and aggressively.
Oh, my God. I can't even.
Like. I know what accosted means, and this ain't it.
I heard that you had some concerns
about the way I was speaking about
the father of my children.
We can look up the Chat GPT assistant, too.
Who does Amanda think she's schooling?
I don't see a single person here
who has a notepad out
getting ready to write down what she's saying.
Do you think I approached you aggressively?
I do.
We're in, like, another zip code.
You guys are at Beverly Hills.
We're in Calabasas.
I want to know what's going on.
Welcome.
- Hi. - Hello.
I felt hurt and disappointed, that's all.
I thought you were super, super sweet.
It took me by surprise
when I had heard
that you were saying that behind my back.
I didn't say anything behind your back.
You could have just asked me,
but you didn't just ask me. You came at me
with some pretty strong accusation and aggression.
And then when I told you
it was the anniversary of the death of my son,
you didn't stop, you kept going.
You kept going. You kept going.
Amanda, I'm very sorry.
I had no idea. - I told you.
But I said, listen, I'm very sorry.
I just wanted to have this discussion
because I had heard it.
I just agreed with Kyle.
Her talking about how he's parenting and things like that.
That worries me because there's no way
he's not gonna hear about this down the road.
No.
It's gonna spark a bigger fight.
- and he may retaliate-- - Adding fuel to the fire.
- Uh-huh.
Kyle and I have known each other almost a decade.
Her having an opinion is one thing.
But you having the same opinion--
I just agreed with her.
What did you agree with?
If last year,
speaking about your ex's relationship with alcohol
was hard for you guys,
then this year speaking about his parenting style
could also be hard.
Kyle leading with "I don't think she should be doing this,"
is a little peculiar, but that's something with Kyle,
and I'll deal with that separately.
What exactly is Kyle's point
of trying to color Amanda's image of me?
She's not exactly talking to somebody
that has any idea who I am,
no idea of the situation,
yet she's talking to Amanda
about her opinion about what I'm doing.
The fact that you brought up how you feel
I'm behaving with regards to my divorce
and speaking to my friends
made me want to question you.
Why have a judgment about someone you don't know?
Well, you didn't question me. That's not typically how you get
down to people's true thoughts
is by getting really aggressive with them.
I wasn't trying to inquire about your thoughts.
I was trying to inquire about
why you were talking behind my back and judging me.
Especially about something as sensitive as my divorce.
I have never in my entire life
gone to a dinner party and accused people of things
and got aggressive with them.
Like, to me, that was very strong.
Well, I'm sorry you thought it was strong,
but I'm in a place of openness,
a place of transparency.
So when I feel a certain way, I'm gonna be open and honest.
You could have just said, "Amanda, I hear you have
thoughts. Can you tell me more?"
You could have had curiosity--
No, Amanda, I'm not gonna to say,
"I hear you have thoughts. Can you tell me more?"
I just heard that you said it behind my back.
And you're judging.
Can I just say something really quickly?
Going back to Tilly's house, you were really upset.
- Like, I've never seen you cry. - Yes, exactly.
Do you know what it's like to see my son asking for my dad?
He's asking for my dad. Not his own father.
For my father.
Do you know what that's like for me?
You had very strong words, that night about PK,
which is understandable. - What strong words did I have?
You know, when you ask, I don't remember all--
But then don't say things like that.
Don't say strong words about him.
I had strong words about what I was going through.
The things that Dorit is saying about PK now
is going to come back to him.
- PK has sent a statement. - Did he?
He did. Dorit has made several mischaracterizations about me,
but the one I must address
is the claim that I am a bad father.
That is deeply hurtful to me
and more importantly, to our children.
It doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure out
that he may not like what you're saying.
Why poke the bear?
- Right, right, so-- - So don't twist things.
I'm not twisting, I'm saying I don't recall exactly.
Well, you are. But then if you don't recall,
then you really shouldn't be positioning it that way.
- Okay, Dorit, Dorit-- - Because the way you
positioned it is not a nice way to position it,
and it's not actually true.
Well, now you're splitting hairs just because--
No, for you, I'm splitting hairs.
For me, it's the difference between
really big deal and nothing at all.
Do you remember I said you would--
- I was talking about-- - Do you remember!
[tense music]
When you and I had dinner and I said to you,
"I don't think it's a good idea
to bash the father of your children?"
Why do you think I said that?
- Do I remember that? - Yes.
You've not only made it a point to say that to me
at least a dozen times,
but you're clearly actually sharing it with a lot of people.
So I can remember.
Clearly!
Let somebody else talk. Okay, calm down.
That's so old, it's boring.
I only had concerns
because I don't want it to be more complicated for you later
because I care about you.
If she really had concern,
she would have told me in private once.
Not gone behind my back
and talked about it over and over and over.
This is not bashing you
or talking bad about you behind your back.
It's literally because
you don't want to create more problems for yourself.
Can I say something?
It's really----ing hard in these moments
to not speak how you feel.
Thank you, Rachel.
- I'm just being really honest. - Please.
I understand that in a perfect world,
we take the----ing high road every minute of our lives
and smile.
I've done that for a really long time.
- And here's the thing. - Same, by the way.
I don't think that anyone has any place to judge.
There are days where we're strong as [beep].
There are days where we want to----ing scream
at the top of our lungs.
And at the end of the day, because of our children,
because of our businesses,
we have to always do the right thing.
You have to smile through - ing everything
and be as strong as hell every minute of the day.
And there are these - ing moments
where you need to just vent.
I think, to then be sort of hear
through other people,
that it's like, this may not be the right thing,
or, like, I don't think you should do that, or whatever.
It's like our friends, even if they feel that way
sometimes, it's like, don't tell us that right now,
because we feel so----ing sh---y right now anyway.
- ing hell! - So that's all I'm saying.
Oh, my God.
If you can't vent and be fully open, honest and vulnerable
and truthful, authentically real
with your friends, with your people,
then I don't know...
I don't know what a friendship is.
By the way, honey, let me tell you something.
What you have kicked off and started
is what's really going to come back and kick me in the ass.
You need to calm down.
Who are you mad at her? You mad at me?
You're mad at your situation? What have I done?
I want to be your friend and I got you.
Really? Oh, so now you're gonna do the same thing
Sutton did last year at your house?
[curious music] You're not angry at me.
You're angry at your life.
My life sucks right now,
and I have zero tolerance for more bullsh--.
I'm allowed to have emotions, especially--
Yeah, I'm allowed to have emotions, too.
And we're also allowed to have opinions about--
So should I be saying to you, "Calm down"
- when you have emotions? - You can if you feel that.
- Okay, but I won't. - But that doesn't mean I will.
Because you know what? It minimizes your feelings
in those moments.
I think you seem so angry and aggressive,
- and I think it's not-- - I think, thank----ing God,
when Rachel actually stepped in and spoke,
which I'm shocked that that didn't land
for you and go, "Oh, sh--, you know what?"
No, it doesn't. It doesn't.
[tense music] Not at all.
- That's my point. - I don't feel that.
That's my point. [chuckles]
Kyle loves to talk about how she has no issues with Mo,
not with finances or communication.
So maybe that's why
she's having such a difficult time
understanding why I'm sharing what I'm going through.
PK is venting to his friends,
Mo, and all of his friends and family.
Is he protecting me? Is he protecting me?
I know what PK's doing. I only care about you.
You know exactly what PK's doing, Kyle,
because you speak to Mo, and Mo speaks to PK.
You know exactly what PK is saying.
So don't pretend that you don't.
- No, no, no, no. - Is he protecting me?
Don't put words in my mouth.
What did I put in your mouth?
If you let people-- You keep saying it's old
to keep saying let people talk, then let people----ing talk.
[tense music]
You know exactly what PK is saying.
So don't pretend that you don't.
You keep saying it's old to keep saying let people talk,
well, then let people - ing talk.
[tense music]
I only know Mo is saying that PK is saying
completely opposite things from what you're saying.
Okay? I didn't say speak up in that night at Tilly's
purposely, because I didn't want to be like,
"Well, that's not what PK saying."
I kept my mouth shut and... what?
I didn't say anything. I didn't say anything.
I came to you later privately, and I said,
"Listen, I just don't want you
to create more problems for yourself."
[chuckling]
[upbeat music]
Grow up, Dorit.
- Is it okay? - Grow up.
No, 'cause I just wanna make sure
I'm giving you a chance to speak, but is it okay?
Kyle talking to Mauricio about Dorit and PK
is 100% keeping Kyle in the middle.
Hey, if I didn't care about you, if I didn't like you,
I'd let you----ing bury yourself. I don't care.
The best thing Kyle could do for she and Dorit's friendship
is still stay out of their divorce.
I promise you, Kyle, the more you talk to Mauricio
about Dorit and PK, the worse it's gonna be for you and Dorit.
I believe that Kyle has your best interest at heart.
What you are saying,
is you are willing to assume the risk
of speaking publicly about what is happening.
And everybody has to accept that.
This is a good birthday party.
- Oh, the best. - This is a very good birthday.
But, Dorit, no one here at this table
wants anything bad to happen to you.
- Exactly. - I don't believe. Listen.
You don't think that my saying that
is because I cared about you? Do you remember your
- house that day when I said-- - Kyle, listen to me!
Now, you shut up.
I understand that you're angry.
You shut up for two seconds.
[tense music]
- Dorit. Come on. - Okay?
Erika, stop it. I mean it.
- No, I'm not gonna stop it. - No, I mean it.
You guys are friends, you guys are on a way to repair.
- I know you're upset. - No!
- Come on. You got it. - I don't want either of you
telling me what I should or shouldn't do.
I'd love for Erika to chime in and say,
"Kyle. That's not cool.
Kyle, that's not cool. That's not cool."
When things are happening in my life and I'm with my friends,
just like I showed up to Tilly's, very broken.
Do you want me to show up and pretend like everything is fine?
- No. - Because I can't do that.
It is clear to me, based on some of the dynamics tonight,
that this is a communication style I am very not used to.
I mean, even had it not been the anniversary of Zion's death,
I still would have not liked being approached that way.
But here's the thing, Amanda.
You can't be in charge of how people want to respond.
So that's an adult thing to understand.
You don't ever set boundaries with people
around how they can and can't speak to you?
Well, how am I going to enforce that? That sounds crazy.
You can't walk around the planet,
thinking that everybody's gonna agree with you.
In my 40 years of life,
I have never left a dinner party crying.
I thought you ran away from a cult.
[tense music]
I did.
- Dorit. Dorit. - Okay, okay.
- That's not nice. - No, I'm just curious.
- I did leave a cult. - I mean, it just
- doesn't sound right. - What does the cult
have to do with anything?
This woman disrespected me and my son
on the anniversary of his death,
and now she wants to bring up that I'm in a cult?
She's just scraping the bottom of the barrel
for anything she thinks will make me look bad.
A cult? What kind?
That's a whole different story.
[restaurant din]
We can absolutely get to that any time.
I mean, I'm an open book, any time.
I knew that. I googled Amanda
just like I googled everybody in the group.
I know all the history of Amanda.
It's all out there. It's on Reddit.
It's everywhere.
Even the people in the group that are saying,
"Oh, I never Google anybody." We all Google everybody.
It's like Meghan Markle saying,
"I never googled Prince Harry before I dated him."
It's like, Meghan, please.
You sort of maintain that you've lived a life where--
You're saying if you were in a cult--
Like, intense interactions
- would be happening. - Well, I would imagine
there's far worse that you've experienced than what--
than what happened the other night.
Far, far worse.
Yes, I'm not saying it's the worst
thing that ever happened to me. I woke up--
Let me finish, please. Let me finish.
I woke up about every 30 minutes all night long with my heart
being very fast, beating very fast.
My body interpreted it that evening
as a physiological threat.
Girl...
Why are you shaking your head at that?
I mean, your expectations
of not having confrontation in the way that you don't like
- is unrealistic. - That's true.
So you need to understand that and also accept that.
But can there be disagreements without conflict?
- No. - You disagree, you sit,
you speak. You have the intention to really hear
each other, and there's not a huge conflict.
[tense music]
Girl, what are you talking about?
No.
How? In this human experience?
What fantasy world is Amanda living in?
Because in this reality,
we've gotta have real conversations that push edges,
that address conflict,
that make us uncomfortable.
Because I don't know any world
in which Amanda thinks that she's the sole power
to be able to control how people feel.
We cannot control how people speak to us
or how people react to us. We can only control
how we react to other things. And trust me,
if I could control how people - ing speak to me.
- Girl, every day. - Life would be a lot
- ing different.
Hallelujah.
Listen, I'm in a----ing vulnerable state today.
I'm on----ing fire.
I just. Sorry.
I mean, today's been an emotional day.
The media spiraling about my divorce,
and I was completely blindsided by that.
It's not like, "Oh, my God, I'm so sad.
I wish I was still married.
It's like. It's none of that.
It's just all a lot.
Guys, I feel like a ticking time bomb
about to explode right now.
But I try to really stay in,
you know, gratitude and strength all the time.
And sometimes, it just causes a crack.
[sniffling]
[restaurant din]
Are you. Wait, let me see your eyes.
Oh, no.
Exactly. - Mm-hmm.
Wait, what's going on with Rachel?
For all of the stoicism, for all of the professionalism,
for all the fabulosity, she is human.
And so this divorce is gonna cut really deep.
[sobbing]: I'm sick of - ing holding together.
- Okay, okay. - All the time.
Okay, you don't have to hold anything.
Honey? You don't. Honey.
It's like, we've been listening to----ing Amanda.
It's like, is anything I said in honesty,
is that----ing gonna, like,
blow up in my face, like crap?
And I'm like, you know what?
It's not okay.
It's not like I can't.
I can't think of----ing Tyrone every minute of my life.
You don't have to.
And it's like, sometimes you just----ing need to break.
- Yeah. - And I break in my closet,
and I break in my bathroom,
and I break to my sister.
And, like...
I make, like, 100 decisions a day,
you know, between my life,
my kids life, my work life.
At some point, you just are paralyzed
with exhaustion and just feeling overwhelmed.
And sometimes you just gotta break in your closet.
At least surround yourself with Chanel, for God's sake.
You know, that'll always make me smile.
And it's like, are people gonna--
- And then you get judged. - And then you get judged!
You shouldn't be breaking because,
"Oh, my God, it's gonna come back to bite you in the ass."
- But [bleep] you! - Yeah [beep] you!
Then why are we worried about the judgment?
God forbid you actually don't hold it together
every----ing two seconds.
You don't even have to tell me. I know that.
And I live it. It's hard enough to go through a separation,
divorce, grief, and hold it together.
I had to put on a brave face for my daughter
while I grieved her father.
And for me, a lot of the outlet was having my friends
who would not judge me,
who would allow me to cry,
who would allow me to scream,
and also give me the grace
to be able to do it in a way that was comfortable for me.
It's like one step forward, two steps back.
But that's... Right now, I just can't deal.
It was a bad night. We need to just leave it alone.
I can't feel like my friend thinks that
every time I'm trying to help her
that I'm actually trying to hurt her.
And she's in such a negative place right now
that if we're going to be able to work on our friendship,
I can't do this with her like this.
I need to see her change a little bit.
Oh, wait, wait, wait! Put it back in the kitchen.
Back in the kitchen, back in the kitchen.
- No, I want to leave. - Okay, Come on.
I'll go get her. I'll go get her.
Hold on, hold on, hold on.
[all singing]: Happy birthday to you.
Thank you.
I hated this night, to be honest.
It was annoying. I was looking cute.
[girls]: Happy birthday to you.
Thank you. One, two, three.
Ooh. This is probably the wrong time,
but Kyle brought out the cakes,
and she wants you to come blow out your cake.
I love everyone at that table. I can't go in right now.
That's fine.
I'm tired.
- And she's tired. I get it. - Boz, I'm----ing tired.
Girl, I'm telling you.
And I wanted a hot girl summer
and I'm not having one at all.
[tense music] I'm having the opposite.
Coming up.
Hi, Dr. Duke.
- Hey, Dr. Duke. - Hi guys. How are you?
Well, guys, we have updates on the embryos.
I know that they're embryos
who could become children.
Oh, man.
Okay.
[upbeat music]
I've got a lot of things to say.
I've been through a lot of challenges
from when I was young up until now.
I've fallen, I've picked myself up,
and I feel like it's the right time to write this book.
Oh.
[squealing] How do you like it?
You also get a T-shirt.
Yay!
You're getting a Maserati!
[cheering and clapping]
- Thank you. - Oh, I love you.
You deserve it.
[upbeat music continues]
[birds chirping]
[exhales]
Hi, sweet boy.
Hi, Delila.
[grunting]
Little Pilates moment.
[laughing] Pilates?
Pilates.
Pilates...
[upbeat music]
Okay.
[crickets chirping]
This is super rustic.
[chickens clucking]
[curious music]
It is.
[animals grunting]
I can already see the first issue.
Is there an elevator?
[laughing] Wait, no. For real, though.
Hi, nice to meet you. I'm Jenn.
- Hi, I'm Chloe. - Hi, nice to meet you.
- Hi, Chloe. - Kyle. Nice to meet you.
Welcome. It's a special place.
We were just saying, you don't feel like you're in LA at all.
Right. Well, that's what she loves about it.
The wedding is a month away,
so today we're doing the final walkthrough
so we can officially lock it in.
Cause we, uh, well, she
was going to get married in Aspen,
and it proved to be too complicated
for a multitude of reasons,
so she wanted something with this vibe.
You know, rustic and ranch vibes.
We have alpacas, so.
[alpaca vocalizing] - Oh, my gosh.
As much as I would love to just change the date, maybe?
The invitations already went out.
That would be bad juju. There she is!
What are you freaking out about?
No, I was talking about how you liked
the moped with the tin can invitation.
Oh, please. It was cute.
[laughing]
- I've never seen that one? - It was cute!
- Hi. - You little cutie pie.
I have invitations. So, it's a paperless post.
I went very classic and texted it to most people.
[laughing]
I'm worried about my sister Kathy
even seeing this text message.
I mean, unless she gets a big envelope delivered to her house.
Is she even going to know what's going on?
Hello.
- Hello. - Hi.
Oh, did you miss the link for the mood board, Kathy? Shocker.
What if she shows up in like, I don't know, an orange dress?
- How are you? - Good. How are you?
I'm good. The bride.
Okay. [grunting]
[laughing]
Oh, my God. This is amazing. I love it.
We're gonna be partying all night long in this room.
Yeah, this room is really cool.
100%.
We've got a really great sound system,
which is set up for vinyl, which is really fun.
Well, now Dad's taking DJ lessons.
Let him do the party.
Is he really? - You have a big
- vinyl collection? - Don't get me started.
That's a hard no for me
and a hard no for Alexia.
Are you doing this so you can have a big
debut at the wedding?
No, I love music and I, like, I have time on my hands.
So, like, why not take on a new hobby?
We already have enough rumors about
you going through a midlife crisis.
Do you have to add fuel to the fire?
His DJ name was going to be Mo-mentum.
[laughing]
- Okay. Next. - Okay, let's go.
Okay, so up next is where we do the ceremony.
[upbeat music]
I'm visualizing all the trees
and I'm seeing myself in the middle of all of them.
I like that. Wait, where are we doing cocktails?
- Over there, right? - Right, yeah.
Should it be here as well?
We would have to do a build out on that for sure.
We cannot accommodate 200.
That'll increase the budget, too.
[curious music]
Alexia doesn't like the B-word.
No, that's a bad word.
She said that the B-word
wakes her up in the middle of the night.
So please refrain from using the B-word
with our child.
Well, originally, Alexia wanted like 150 people.
And that number has grown a lot.
Of course, there is a ceiling to the budget.
Obviously in the six figures would be ideal.
She is our first child getting married.
- I gotta take care of... - Yeah.
Three of them.
You know, it's his first daughter getting married.
We're gonna exceed our unlimited budget.
Just pay for this.
What do we need to do to lock it all down
and finalize everything so we can get the show on the road?
Because I'm getting stressed with a little--
[laughing] There we go.
You guys are ready to sign and send a deposit?
- Let's go. - I mean, I think it's perfect.
Coming up.
I was worried about you the other night.
This was not myself to begin with.
And then Dorit's getting judged for breaking.
I need to know that I'm not being judged.
[upbeat music]
Okay. Hi, Nabs, how are you?
Hi. I'm good.
- Are you behaving? - Always.
- Honey, I'm home. - Come on in.
Oh, my goodness. Hi.
Are you gonna get a drip or a shot or...
Uh, I'll do a shot.
- Okay, great. - I don't do drips.
I don't have good veins. Hi, wait. Is it in you?
Kathy's a very unique person.
In some ways, she reminds me of my mother.
Just so sweet and so supportive.
Do you want something? Do you want wine?
- I’ll have a little wine. - Is white okay?
White? White? That's great. Thank you so much.
[chuckling] Like... I can't.
I remember at my dinner party
being like, where's Kathy?
She was on the table.
One of the girls was like, she's at the caviar table.
What do we have over here?
- Caviar. - Of course we do.
- Oh, no. - But what?
- Little more caviar. - Have a little more caviar--
And leave it all over the place.
And by the time she sat down, she's like,
"I just ate so much caviar, I'm just not even hungry."
And I was like, that is what my mother would do.
You know Paola.
- How are you? Nice to see you. - The lady.
I just die.
I was worried about you the other night.
It was interesting.
Okay, so basically, I saw Page Six, I saw Us Weekly.
I'm like, what is happening?
In my mind, Kathy, I'm doing this as a mediation,
intentionally, quietly, so that this doesn't happen
and that my kids don't have to hear it--
And that doesn't affect the children.
- I just don't want my kids-- - Being stressed.
Dealing with any of this and-and rightfully so, right?
Like, hi, how are you?
- How are you? - I'm good, thank you.
I'm gonna be doing a Niagen IV today
and a Niagen shot.
We're doing magnesium.
Right? No, no, it's better for you.
- We're doing a bunch of-- - This is way better.
I just have, like, bad veins, so I just don't. I know.
Thank you so much.
Honestly, Kathy, like, I just was not myself to begin with,
and then I was like, down at the end of the table.
Dorit's getting judged for breaking in this group.
Right.
And I think it was just the breaking point for me
because I need to know that I'm not being judged,
because being judged really----ing sucks.
- You want support. - You want support.
So what I was saying is,
"Guys, are you judging what I'm saying right now?
Am I not safe to speak freely here?"
I don't think it's that we don't want or value
other people's opinions.
I just think everyone in this group,
whether they agree or not with how she's handling it,
they need to just be here to hold her and cheer for her.
That's it. It's grace.
There needs to be grace.
I just honestly miss my family so much.
- Right. - I really--
- You need them now. - I do. I also need to go out.
You know, I'm always in the Hamptons all summer
and in Europe and obviously working all summer
now in LA, which is new for me.
And I think it's, like, starting to affect my whole...
- Mental health? - It is like I actually.
Like, I need to go out, I need to laugh--
Right. And have a hot girl summer.
I mean, listen, it's not the south of France,
but it's as close as we're gonna get right now.
That's right. Just be careful.
Are you scared I'm gonna make out with
- a cute boy or something? - Mmh...
What's bad about that? [laughing]
[upbeat music]
- Hey. - Hi.
Okay, let's get in here.
- Hi, Dr. Duke. - Hey, Dr. Duke.
- Hi, guys. How are you? - Good, good, good.
How are you?
I'm good. I'm good. Happy Thursday.
- Happy Thursday. - Yeah, happy Thursday.
Well, guys, we have updates on the embryos.
Okay.
I have even more intense feelings today
than I did when the eggs were retrieved.
[machine beeping]
You did great.
Two eggs, one from each ovary, actually.
[pensive music] I am more anxious,
I am more excited, I am more nervous,
I am more fearful, I'm more joyful.
All of those feelings have intensified
because I know that they're embryos
who could become children.
Oh, man.
All of my emotions are on high.
We had two eggs.
Both were successfully fertilized with sperm.
Ideally, the sixth day,
we would want to see what's called a blastocyst.
It's like a tiny planet that's capable
of implanting in the womb.
Unfortunately, neither has made it to the blastocyst stage.
[somber music]
Is this entirely unexpected?
No. Is it sad and disappointing? Yes.
I feel really overwhelmed.
Right now, I can barely hear anything else
beyond the roar in my ears that this hasn't worked.
The biggest factor, unfortunately,
is the age of the egg.
What we can do is try to support them,
but there's nothing we can do to restructure eggs.
The big question now is any openness to the idea
of using eggs from someone younger.
But we only have a finite window.
We certainly don't have another year in this process.
- Excuse me. - I'm so sorry, Boz.
Sorry, baby. [Boz weeping softly]
So this is where this helps...
All of the hopes and dreams and aspirations
that I had for these two little embryos
that I had already started to picture
who they were going to become... are gone.
Are we still scheduled for the second round?
[Boz sniffling] Yes. It's up to you guys,
ultimately, but I want her continuing the daily shot,
the supplements, the vitamins.
It feels like grief.
It feels like losing a baby,
because that's how I envisioned them.
And so these aren't just inanimate objects
out in the world.
These are Keely and I's babies.
- Okay, she's coming back. - I'm back.
- Okay. She's back. - All right.
Just need to get some tissue. That's all right.
- Yeah. - All right.
- Thank you. - Thank you, Dr. Duke.
I think knowing that
doing all of that again
may not result in great eggs again,
you know, is what is disappointing to me.
We'll cross that bridge when we get there, okay?
Right now, let's just focus on being as healthy as we can.
Right? For this next round.
I need some breakfast. I need something to eat.
All right. Same, same, same.
- Okay. - Give me a hug.
Oh, of course.
- Love you. - Love you, too, baby.
Coming up.
Isn't a cult like something
you don't want to actually say that you're a part of?
It's not a good thing.
There's something amiss.
Let's see who the [beep] she is.
[upbeat music]
- Hi. - This necklace is so pretty.
Hi, honey.
- Hi, honey. - Hi.
- This color's so pretty on you. - Thank you.
I'm not getting up because I'm lazy.
[indistinct chatter]
Can I get drinks started or any appetizers?
Yes, please.
Is the Pino Grigio dryer or the Sancerre?
- The Sancerre. - I would love a glass of that.
I'm just gonna order a few appetizers.
- Just order anything. - Okay.
A spicy tuna crisp. They have a vegan roll,
you guys. Let's do that.
I mean, a salad's fine.
- Baby green salad? - No dressing, yeah.
Perfect, thank you so much.
You guys, do I look like I slept one hour?
- No. - No, you don't.
First of all, where did you go?
[tense music] Where did I go?
I've just heard that you said it behind my back.
And you're judging me.
Sutton's the one who told me
that Amanda was talking behind my back.
She's the one who started this sh-- show.
Let me tell you what she said about you.
- Oh? - Oh, God.
She's concerned that you're talking too much
about the divorce and that it might come back to bite you.
But instead of calling Amanda out for lying,
she was radio silent.
You are very strong.
You fight your own battles really well.
Yes, yes.
No. I didn't want you to feel--
- Okay, good. - No, not at all.
Amanda, she basically is echoing how Kyle feels.
Here's the thing, though. She made it out that at Kathy's,
she was asked, what did you and Kyle talk about
- when you got together? - Right, right.
No, she had an opinion.
She did say, "Oh, he's a raging alcoholic,"
- and he didn't like that. - But if it's true.
Well, still.
[laughing] Maybe you shouldn't say it
about the father of your children.
I'm sorry. I thought that that was clear
that she had an opinion.
Was it a loud and strong opinion?
She's basically playing this down like,
"Dorit, you're taking this too far.
This was a nothing thought."
She had her own opinion about it.
But I have to say, it was pretty----ing ballsy
to punt it to Kyle last night.
When you do not own something,
all it does is enrage the other person.
What I'm doing in that situation is,
"I'm sorry, I barely know you.
I gave my opinion. I was probably out of line.
I apologize.
And going forward, I will keep my thoughts to myself."
If someone owns it and apologizes,
you can't keep it going. "Okay, but, but, but."
It's like, no, they took it on the chin. They said it.
I mean, this isn't hard.
It's called being an adult.
I was waiting for Kyle to be like,
"Amanda, stop----ing putting this on me
because this has nothing to do with me.
This is your opinion."
This weather's so perfect.
It's so good. It's such a nice day.
You did a really beautiful job on the house, by the way.
- Thank you. - So beautiful.
My life is so peaceful. Like with my family.
These friendships are the only things
not really feeling peaceful.
I genuinely believed that Dorit and I
could easily clear the air around this.
But now I don't know what the [beep] to think.
I have to get something out of my shoe.
Can you sit up here for one second?
She doesn't want to resolve.
She doesn't want to understand.
She doesn't want to see where each other is coming from.
And she didn't even apologize.
It was so stressful
and like that whole dinner from the beginning,
and it's like, I just was so annoyed.
The energy she was directing at me,
she switched it to you and then switched it back to me.
My frustration with Dorit is
Boz could say the exact same thing that I said
and she would have a completely different reaction
than she does if I say it.
If he wants to go to Florida in a hotel, let them do that.
And then he'll go with your parents--
I don't think you understand, Kyle.
You need to let him be the bearer of the bad news.
Exactly.
You told me you experienced him as a good father,
so I see how you could be conflicted.
Regardless of what I know or don't know and all that,
I still stand by the fact that it's smarter
just to not put this stuff out there,
which I think she's so angry, she doesn't care.
Dorit is completely blinded to any help or advice
that I want to offer as her friend right now.
And I don't know if there's a way to get back on track
until she's in a better place.
I don't think she's open to that.
I think she's too angry right now with everything.
It's so crazy to me how everything switched.
I had such a good time.
I was getting to know Boz,
talking about entrepreneurship.
Really, it was kind of like a self-empowerment
girlfriend pep talk.
And Dorit seemed really into it and receptive.
I have no idea when we flipped.
[tense music]
All I've heard is about her business.
I've not heard anything about her past, her upbringing.
Like, I want to know more about the cult.
That was insane. I just want you to know.
- I was not armed for that. - The cult part?
- I just wasn't armed for it. - It's okay to talk about it
'cause it's on her website.
You guys, am I an idiot?
Like, isn't a cult like something
you don't want to actually say that you're a part of?
- Maybe she survived it. - She claims to be
very open and transparent.
- But the term cult. - It's not a good thing.
There's something amiss.
And I would like to know and understand Amanda.
It's not what you see is what you get.
At the end of the day, this is a process of
it's gonna roll out who she actually really is.
And I think we have the right to ask those questions.
Let's see who the [beep] she is.
[curious music] [dog barking]
There's something amiss.
It's not what you see is what you get.
Let's see who the [beep] she is.
What do you think that we can do to make her feel more open
to tell us stuff like, "How'd you end up in a cult
- and how did you escape?" - I can do that.
- How can we-- - I can tell her.
Make her feel more included.
Amanda is an enigma to me.
It seems very quiet.
But what's going on in there?
I do want to know the story of your business.
That's exciting to me. You're a self-made.
You're a self-made entrepreneur. You're killing it.
That's----ing awesome.
But that could be a deflection
because she identifies herself as her business.
Do you understand? 'cause a lot of people do that.
When you have a successful business,
some people are trying to hide and they go,
the work is their identity.
All I can do is share my truth, right?
I thought it was vulnerable and authentic for me to say
that I have never left a dinner party crying before,
that I woke up through the night
with my heart beating out of my chest.
I was just sharing what was real for me.
And she brought up the most random, irrelevant.
It was like she's trying to dig up dirt,
but there was no dirt there.
- I'm not hiding the cult story. - Right.
I'm not hiding anything about my life.
At some point, I'm gonna have to hear more about this cult.
Anytime.
I'm actually a wealth of information about cults.
I mean, yeah, sure.
Looking at Amanda, she doesn't exactly scream cult member.
But by doing this deep dive on Amanda,
Dorit was trying to get information to embarrass her.
What is she gaining from this?
I don't really understand, except that she's
in a bad place right now
and not her best version of herself.
But to her, this isn't a bad version of herself.
This is open and honest.
I need to be able to be open and honest.
I need support from my friends right now.
I'm in a place where I don't want to hold it inside,
and then I have to go through this without support.
It's poisonous.
I came into this year and truly believed
that Kyle and I were gonna rebuild our friendship.
But her actions and her words
are telling me something totally different.
And until she starts showing up as an actual friend
who supports me...
I can't continue to play this game
of fake----ing friend.
I have protected Kyle for years.
I have protected Kyle, at all costs.
Even when I felt the most betrayed, the most hurt,
where her and I had no friendship whatsoever,
I still protected her.
I don't think you think she wants the best for you.
You just don't trust her.
You just don't. Like you just don't trust her.
Next on
the Real housewives of Beverly Hills.
With regards to the kids,
I would like for PK and I not to be on opposite sides.
I'm hearing different stories.
I was going to invite Dorit to the Hamptons.
I'm a little annoyed with her.
You guys cannot fight all weekend.
I talked to my sweetheart today.
Let's talk about the sweetheart, Oh, my God!
Why do I like dating John? He's just not shakable.
I really believe in life that intention matters.
You can't be such a wimp!
You're in my home. Don't call me a wimp.
[tense music]