1 00:00:04,874 --> 00:00:06,135 Previously on 2 00:00:06,136 --> 00:00:08,008 the Real Housewives of Beverly Hills. 3 00:00:08,182 --> 00:00:09,835 Dad and I are both walking in with you? 4 00:00:10,010 --> 00:00:11,011 Yeah, you're gonna walk me down. 5 00:00:11,228 --> 00:00:12,534 That's so crazy. 6 00:00:12,751 --> 00:00:13,925 My daughter. 7 00:00:13,926 --> 00:00:15,667 Our daughter is getting married, 8 00:00:15,885 --> 00:00:18,148 and we're not together. 9 00:00:18,366 --> 00:00:20,107 Okay. 10 00:00:23,197 --> 00:00:26,200 If he doesn't have a child, which I know he really wants, 11 00:00:26,417 --> 00:00:27,984 then what does that mean? 12 00:00:29,290 --> 00:00:30,464 This has to work. 13 00:00:30,465 --> 00:00:32,206 - What the actual [beep]? - I know. 14 00:00:32,423 --> 00:00:33,729 It's----ing everywhere. 15 00:00:33,946 --> 00:00:36,122 I actually thought the whole mediation 16 00:00:36,123 --> 00:00:39,039 is so that this is not, like a huge, loud, public thing. 17 00:00:39,256 --> 00:00:40,910 Like, it's everywhere. 18 00:00:41,084 --> 00:00:43,695 Okay, So I filed for divorce this morning. 19 00:00:43,913 --> 00:00:45,393 [restaurant din] This is just, to me, 20 00:00:45,610 --> 00:00:46,916 a detail in the process. 21 00:00:47,090 --> 00:00:48,351 - Yes. - Of moving forward. 22 00:00:48,352 --> 00:00:49,701 So you're okay? 23 00:00:49,919 --> 00:00:52,225 I'm great. I'm----ing great. 24 00:00:52,226 --> 00:00:55,533 I know Rachel's saying that she's okay and she's fine, 25 00:00:55,751 --> 00:00:58,014 but a part of it, I think, is just putting on a brave face. 26 00:00:58,188 --> 00:01:00,060 What did you think about Dorit? 27 00:01:00,234 --> 00:01:01,582 I started wondering, like, 28 00:01:01,583 --> 00:01:03,497 is her talking to everyone gonna end up affecting 29 00:01:03,498 --> 00:01:05,674 the divorce in some kind of negative way? 30 00:01:05,891 --> 00:01:08,590 Having an opinion from someone who doesn't know me-- 31 00:01:08,807 --> 00:01:09,894 Can I be really, really honest? 32 00:01:09,895 --> 00:01:12,115 Zion died three years ago today, 33 00:01:12,333 --> 00:01:13,551 and I'm holding on by a thread. 34 00:01:13,769 --> 00:01:15,858 [tense music] - What? 35 00:01:16,076 --> 00:01:18,295 Amanda, I'm so sorry you're going through this. 36 00:01:18,513 --> 00:01:20,993 Just know-- Okay. 37 00:01:21,168 --> 00:01:23,518 I'd like to be able to have a conversation with you. 38 00:01:23,735 --> 00:01:25,563 I need to be able to go to a dinner party 39 00:01:25,781 --> 00:01:26,825 without being verbally accosted. 40 00:01:27,043 --> 00:01:29,350 [tense music] 41 00:01:33,745 --> 00:01:35,486 Wait, wait. Whoa, whoa. 42 00:01:35,704 --> 00:01:37,097 - Were you-- - That's what I'm learning. 43 00:01:37,271 --> 00:01:38,185 Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa... 44 00:01:38,402 --> 00:01:39,925 No. Accosted. I'm pretty sure 45 00:01:40,100 --> 00:01:41,840 - I used the right word. - Were you verbally 46 00:01:42,058 --> 00:01:43,276 accosted by me? 47 00:01:43,277 --> 00:01:45,235 That is how I experienced it. 48 00:01:47,716 --> 00:01:50,110 Approached and addressed boldly and aggressively. 49 00:01:51,023 --> 00:01:53,025 Oh, my God. I can't even. 50 00:01:53,200 --> 00:01:54,853 Like. I know what accosted means, and this ain't it. 51 00:01:55,071 --> 00:01:58,118 I heard that you had some concerns 52 00:01:58,292 --> 00:02:00,250 about the way I was speaking about 53 00:02:00,468 --> 00:02:01,686 the father of my children. 54 00:02:02,470 --> 00:02:05,125 We can look up the Chat GPT assistant, too. 55 00:02:06,126 --> 00:02:08,170 Who does Amanda think she's schooling? 56 00:02:08,171 --> 00:02:10,695 I don't see a single person here 57 00:02:10,913 --> 00:02:12,305 who has a notepad out 58 00:02:12,306 --> 00:02:13,611 getting ready to write down what she's saying. 59 00:02:15,831 --> 00:02:18,921 Do you think I approached you aggressively? 60 00:02:19,139 --> 00:02:20,182 I do. 61 00:02:20,183 --> 00:02:22,011 We're in, like, another zip code. 62 00:02:22,185 --> 00:02:23,578 You guys are at Beverly Hills. 63 00:02:23,795 --> 00:02:25,580 We're in Calabasas. 64 00:02:25,797 --> 00:02:26,972 I want to know what's going on. 65 00:02:29,105 --> 00:02:30,149 Welcome. 66 00:02:30,150 --> 00:02:31,586 - Hi. - Hello. 67 00:02:31,803 --> 00:02:34,154 I felt hurt and disappointed, that's all. 68 00:02:34,371 --> 00:02:36,373 I thought you were super, super sweet. 69 00:02:37,331 --> 00:02:39,463 It took me by surprise 70 00:02:39,681 --> 00:02:40,985 when I had heard 71 00:02:40,986 --> 00:02:42,466 that you were saying that behind my back. 72 00:02:42,684 --> 00:02:43,814 I didn't say anything behind your back. 73 00:02:43,815 --> 00:02:45,774 You could have just asked me, 74 00:02:45,991 --> 00:02:48,298 but you didn't just ask me. You came at me 75 00:02:48,516 --> 00:02:51,475 with some pretty strong accusation and aggression. 76 00:02:51,693 --> 00:02:52,997 And then when I told you 77 00:02:52,998 --> 00:02:54,652 it was the anniversary of the death of my son, 78 00:02:54,870 --> 00:02:57,002 you didn't stop, you kept going. 79 00:02:57,177 --> 00:03:00,005 You kept going. You kept going. 80 00:03:00,180 --> 00:03:01,180 Amanda, I'm very sorry. 81 00:03:01,181 --> 00:03:02,878 I had no idea. - I told you. 82 00:03:03,095 --> 00:03:05,315 But I said, listen, I'm very sorry. 83 00:03:05,533 --> 00:03:07,491 I just wanted to have this discussion 84 00:03:07,709 --> 00:03:09,188 because I had heard it. 85 00:03:09,189 --> 00:03:11,191 I just agreed with Kyle. 86 00:03:11,408 --> 00:03:15,325 Her talking about how he's parenting and things like that. 87 00:03:15,543 --> 00:03:16,891 That worries me because there's no way 88 00:03:16,892 --> 00:03:18,415 he's not gonna hear about this down the road. 89 00:03:18,633 --> 00:03:19,720 No. 90 00:03:19,721 --> 00:03:21,418 It's gonna spark a bigger fight. 91 00:03:21,636 --> 00:03:23,725 - and he may retaliate-- - Adding fuel to the fire. 92 00:03:23,942 --> 00:03:25,422 - Adding fuel to the fire. - Uh-huh. 93 00:03:25,640 --> 00:03:27,990 Kyle and I have known each other almost a decade. 94 00:03:28,208 --> 00:03:29,948 Her having an opinion is one thing. 95 00:03:30,166 --> 00:03:32,386 But you having the same opinion-- 96 00:03:32,603 --> 00:03:34,126 I just agreed with her. 97 00:03:34,301 --> 00:03:35,389 What did you agree with? 98 00:03:35,606 --> 00:03:37,085 If last year, 99 00:03:37,086 --> 00:03:39,219 speaking about your ex's relationship with alcohol 100 00:03:39,393 --> 00:03:40,958 was hard for you guys, 101 00:03:40,959 --> 00:03:42,961 then this year speaking about his parenting style 102 00:03:43,179 --> 00:03:44,745 could also be hard. 103 00:03:44,746 --> 00:03:47,227 Kyle leading with "I don't think she should be doing this," 104 00:03:47,401 --> 00:03:49,707 is a little peculiar, but that's something with Kyle, 105 00:03:49,925 --> 00:03:52,406 and I'll deal with that separately. 106 00:03:52,623 --> 00:03:54,625 What exactly is Kyle's point 107 00:03:54,843 --> 00:03:57,062 of trying to color Amanda's image of me? 108 00:03:58,499 --> 00:04:00,457 She's not exactly talking to somebody 109 00:04:00,675 --> 00:04:02,416 that has any idea who I am, 110 00:04:02,633 --> 00:04:03,939 no idea of the situation, 111 00:04:04,156 --> 00:04:05,636 yet she's talking to Amanda 112 00:04:05,854 --> 00:04:08,770 about her opinion about what I'm doing. 113 00:04:08,987 --> 00:04:10,815 The fact that you brought up how you feel 114 00:04:11,033 --> 00:04:14,732 I'm behaving with regards to my divorce 115 00:04:14,950 --> 00:04:16,038 and speaking to my friends 116 00:04:16,256 --> 00:04:18,910 made me want to question you. 117 00:04:19,128 --> 00:04:21,043 Why have a judgment about someone you don't know? 118 00:04:21,261 --> 00:04:23,219 Well, you didn't question me. That's not typically how you get 119 00:04:23,393 --> 00:04:24,873 down to people's true thoughts 120 00:04:25,090 --> 00:04:26,570 is by getting really aggressive with them. 121 00:04:26,788 --> 00:04:29,312 I wasn't trying to inquire about your thoughts. 122 00:04:29,530 --> 00:04:31,008 I was trying to inquire about 123 00:04:31,009 --> 00:04:33,751 why you were talking behind my back and judging me. 124 00:04:33,969 --> 00:04:36,450 Especially about something as sensitive as my divorce. 125 00:04:36,667 --> 00:04:39,061 I have never in my entire life 126 00:04:39,279 --> 00:04:41,411 gone to a dinner party and accused people of things 127 00:04:41,629 --> 00:04:43,848 and got aggressive with them. 128 00:04:44,066 --> 00:04:46,024 Like, to me, that was very strong. 129 00:04:46,242 --> 00:04:48,505 Well, I'm sorry you thought it was strong, 130 00:04:48,723 --> 00:04:51,291 but I'm in a place of openness, 131 00:04:51,465 --> 00:04:53,466 a place of transparency. 132 00:04:53,467 --> 00:04:56,165 So when I feel a certain way, I'm gonna be open and honest. 133 00:04:56,339 --> 00:04:58,254 You could have just said, "Amanda, I hear you have 134 00:04:58,428 --> 00:05:00,125 thoughts. Can you tell me more?" 135 00:05:00,300 --> 00:05:01,388 You could have had curiosity-- 136 00:05:01,605 --> 00:05:03,040 No, Amanda, I'm not gonna to say, 137 00:05:03,041 --> 00:05:04,347 "I hear you have thoughts. Can you tell me more?" 138 00:05:04,565 --> 00:05:06,088 I just heard that you said it behind my back. 139 00:05:06,306 --> 00:05:07,436 And you're judging. 140 00:05:07,437 --> 00:05:08,872 Can I just say something really quickly? 141 00:05:08,873 --> 00:05:11,311 Going back to Tilly's house, you were really upset. 142 00:05:11,485 --> 00:05:13,181 - Like, I've never seen you cry. - Yes, exactly. 143 00:05:13,182 --> 00:05:16,577 Do you know what it's like to see my son asking for my dad? 144 00:05:16,794 --> 00:05:18,360 He's asking for my dad. Not his own father. 145 00:05:18,361 --> 00:05:19,841 For my father. 146 00:05:20,058 --> 00:05:21,669 Do you know what that's like for me? 147 00:05:23,323 --> 00:05:26,500 You had very strong words, that night about PK, 148 00:05:26,717 --> 00:05:29,416 which is understandable. - What strong words did I have? 149 00:05:29,633 --> 00:05:31,287 You know, when you ask, I don't remember all-- 150 00:05:31,461 --> 00:05:32,548 But then don't say things like that. 151 00:05:32,549 --> 00:05:34,245 Don't say strong words about him. 152 00:05:34,246 --> 00:05:37,380 I had strong words about what I was going through. 153 00:05:37,598 --> 00:05:40,165 The things that Dorit is saying about PK now 154 00:05:40,340 --> 00:05:41,689 is going to come back to him. 155 00:05:41,906 --> 00:05:43,517 - PK has sent a statement. - Did he? 156 00:05:43,734 --> 00:05:47,564 He did. Dorit has made several mischaracterizations about me, 157 00:05:47,782 --> 00:05:49,349 but the one I must address 158 00:05:49,566 --> 00:05:51,263 is the claim that I am a bad father. 159 00:05:51,438 --> 00:05:52,700 That is deeply hurtful to me 160 00:05:52,917 --> 00:05:54,571 and more importantly, to our children. 161 00:05:54,789 --> 00:05:56,660 It doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure out 162 00:05:56,878 --> 00:05:59,141 that he may not like what you're saying. 163 00:05:59,359 --> 00:06:01,883 Why poke the bear? 164 00:06:02,100 --> 00:06:03,841 - Right, right, so-- - So don't twist things. 165 00:06:04,059 --> 00:06:05,582 I'm not twisting, I'm saying I don't recall exactly. 166 00:06:05,800 --> 00:06:07,410 Well, you are. But then if you don't recall, 167 00:06:07,628 --> 00:06:09,325 then you really shouldn't be positioning it that way. 168 00:06:09,499 --> 00:06:10,892 - Okay, Dorit, Dorit-- - Because the way you 169 00:06:11,109 --> 00:06:13,503 positioned it is not a nice way to position it, 170 00:06:13,721 --> 00:06:15,112 and it's not actually true. 171 00:06:15,113 --> 00:06:16,376 Well, now you're splitting hairs just because-- 172 00:06:16,593 --> 00:06:17,812 No, for you, I'm splitting hairs. 173 00:06:18,029 --> 00:06:19,509 For me, it's the difference between 174 00:06:19,727 --> 00:06:21,642 really big deal and nothing at all. 175 00:06:21,859 --> 00:06:23,557 Do you remember I said you would-- 176 00:06:23,774 --> 00:06:25,776 - I was talking about-- - Do you remember! 177 00:06:25,994 --> 00:06:27,996 [tense music] 178 00:06:28,213 --> 00:06:31,391 When you and I had dinner and I said to you, 179 00:06:31,608 --> 00:06:33,001 "I don't think it's a good idea 180 00:06:33,218 --> 00:06:34,568 to bash the father of your children?" 181 00:06:34,785 --> 00:06:35,785 Why do you think I said that? 182 00:06:35,786 --> 00:06:37,135 - Do I remember that? - Yes. 183 00:06:37,353 --> 00:06:40,182 You've not only made it a point to say that to me 184 00:06:40,400 --> 00:06:42,009 at least a dozen times, 185 00:06:42,010 --> 00:06:44,578 but you're clearly actually sharing it with a lot of people. 186 00:06:44,795 --> 00:06:46,493 So I can remember. 187 00:06:48,930 --> 00:06:50,235 Clearly! 188 00:06:50,410 --> 00:06:52,455 Let somebody else talk. Okay, calm down. 189 00:06:52,673 --> 00:06:54,457 That's so old, it's boring. 190 00:06:54,675 --> 00:06:56,371 I only had concerns 191 00:06:56,372 --> 00:06:58,418 because I don't want it to be more complicated for you later 192 00:06:58,592 --> 00:07:00,550 because I care about you. 193 00:07:00,768 --> 00:07:02,160 If she really had concern, 194 00:07:02,378 --> 00:07:05,293 she would have told me in private once. 195 00:07:05,294 --> 00:07:06,948 Not gone behind my back 196 00:07:07,165 --> 00:07:09,080 and talked about it over and over and over. 197 00:07:09,298 --> 00:07:11,256 This is not bashing you 198 00:07:11,431 --> 00:07:13,171 or talking bad about you behind your back. 199 00:07:13,389 --> 00:07:14,912 It's literally because 200 00:07:15,130 --> 00:07:16,653 you don't want to create more problems for yourself. 201 00:07:16,871 --> 00:07:18,263 Can I say something? 202 00:07:18,438 --> 00:07:20,918 It's really----ing hard in these moments 203 00:07:21,136 --> 00:07:23,181 to not speak how you feel. 204 00:07:23,399 --> 00:07:24,617 Thank you, Rachel. 205 00:07:24,618 --> 00:07:26,184 - I'm just being really honest. - Please. 206 00:07:26,402 --> 00:07:28,143 I understand that in a perfect world, 207 00:07:28,360 --> 00:07:32,060 we take the----ing high road every minute of our lives 208 00:07:32,277 --> 00:07:33,583 and smile. 209 00:07:33,801 --> 00:07:36,412 I've done that for a really long time. 210 00:07:36,586 --> 00:07:39,240 - And here's the thing. - Same, by the way. 211 00:07:39,241 --> 00:07:44,725 I don't think that anyone has any place to judge. 212 00:07:46,335 --> 00:07:49,469 There are days where we're strong as [beep]. 213 00:07:49,643 --> 00:07:51,471 There are days where we want to----ing scream 214 00:07:51,645 --> 00:07:53,123 at the top of our lungs. 215 00:07:53,124 --> 00:07:56,083 And at the end of the day, because of our children, 216 00:07:56,084 --> 00:07:57,780 because of our businesses, 217 00:07:57,781 --> 00:07:59,348 we have to always do the right thing. 218 00:07:59,522 --> 00:08:01,001 You have to smile through - ing everything 219 00:08:01,002 --> 00:08:03,570 and be as strong as hell every minute of the day. 220 00:08:03,787 --> 00:08:05,006 And there are these - ing moments 221 00:08:05,223 --> 00:08:06,964 where you need to just vent. 222 00:08:07,182 --> 00:08:09,706 I think, to then be sort of hear 223 00:08:09,924 --> 00:08:11,491 through other people, 224 00:08:11,708 --> 00:08:13,317 that it's like, this may not be the right thing, 225 00:08:13,318 --> 00:08:15,364 or, like, I don't think you should do that, or whatever. 226 00:08:15,538 --> 00:08:18,106 It's like our friends, even if they feel that way 227 00:08:18,323 --> 00:08:20,543 sometimes, it's like, don't tell us that right now, 228 00:08:20,761 --> 00:08:23,720 because we feel so----ing sh---y right now anyway. 229 00:08:23,938 --> 00:08:26,027 - ing hell! - So that's all I'm saying. 230 00:08:26,244 --> 00:08:27,897 Oh, my God. 231 00:08:27,898 --> 00:08:31,162 If you can't vent and be fully open, honest and vulnerable 232 00:08:31,380 --> 00:08:34,557 and truthful, authentically real 233 00:08:34,775 --> 00:08:37,168 with your friends, with your people, 234 00:08:37,386 --> 00:08:39,040 then I don't know... 235 00:08:39,257 --> 00:08:40,606 I don't know what a friendship is. 236 00:08:40,607 --> 00:08:42,304 By the way, honey, let me tell you something. 237 00:08:42,522 --> 00:08:45,437 What you have kicked off and started 238 00:08:45,612 --> 00:08:49,049 is what's really going to come back and kick me in the ass. 239 00:08:49,050 --> 00:08:50,573 You need to calm down. 240 00:08:50,791 --> 00:08:52,836 Who are you mad at her? You mad at me? 241 00:08:53,054 --> 00:08:54,882 You're mad at your situation? What have I done? 242 00:08:55,099 --> 00:08:57,232 I want to be your friend and I got you. 243 00:08:57,449 --> 00:08:59,539 Really? Oh, so now you're gonna do the same thing 244 00:08:59,713 --> 00:09:02,367 Sutton did last year at your house? 245 00:09:02,542 --> 00:09:04,239 [curious music] You're not angry at me. 246 00:09:04,456 --> 00:09:05,545 You're angry at your life. 247 00:09:05,762 --> 00:09:07,459 My life sucks right now, 248 00:09:07,634 --> 00:09:11,420 and I have zero tolerance for more bullsh--. 249 00:09:11,594 --> 00:09:15,119 I'm allowed to have emotions, especially-- 250 00:09:15,337 --> 00:09:17,295 Yeah, I'm allowed to have emotions, too. 251 00:09:17,513 --> 00:09:18,732 And we're also allowed to have opinions about-- 252 00:09:18,949 --> 00:09:20,560 So should I be saying to you, "Calm down" 253 00:09:20,734 --> 00:09:23,127 - when you have emotions? - You can if you feel that. 254 00:09:23,345 --> 00:09:25,173 - Okay, but I won't. - But that doesn't mean I will. 255 00:09:25,390 --> 00:09:26,957 Because you know what? It minimizes your feelings 256 00:09:27,175 --> 00:09:28,436 in those moments. 257 00:09:28,437 --> 00:09:29,916 I think you seem so angry and aggressive, 258 00:09:29,917 --> 00:09:32,876 - and I think it's not-- - I think, thank----ing God, 259 00:09:33,094 --> 00:09:35,357 when Rachel actually stepped in and spoke, 260 00:09:35,575 --> 00:09:38,012 which I'm shocked that that didn't land 261 00:09:38,229 --> 00:09:39,622 for you and go, "Oh, sh--, you know what?" 262 00:09:39,840 --> 00:09:41,406 No, it doesn't. It doesn't. 263 00:09:41,581 --> 00:09:43,278 [tense music] Not at all. 264 00:09:43,495 --> 00:09:45,193 - That's my point. - I don't feel that. 265 00:09:45,410 --> 00:09:47,282 That's my point. [chuckles] 266 00:09:47,499 --> 00:09:50,459 Kyle loves to talk about how she has no issues with Mo, 267 00:09:50,633 --> 00:09:52,504 not with finances or communication. 268 00:09:52,679 --> 00:09:54,506 So maybe that's why 269 00:09:54,681 --> 00:09:56,203 she's having such a difficult time 270 00:09:56,204 --> 00:09:59,381 understanding why I'm sharing what I'm going through. 271 00:09:59,599 --> 00:10:01,513 PK is venting to his friends, 272 00:10:01,688 --> 00:10:03,298 Mo, and all of his friends and family. 273 00:10:03,515 --> 00:10:05,866 Is he protecting me? Is he protecting me? 274 00:10:06,083 --> 00:10:07,694 I know what PK's doing. I only care about you. 275 00:10:07,911 --> 00:10:09,434 You know exactly what PK's doing, Kyle, 276 00:10:09,609 --> 00:10:11,349 because you speak to Mo, and Mo speaks to PK. 277 00:10:11,567 --> 00:10:13,046 You know exactly what PK is saying. 278 00:10:13,047 --> 00:10:14,570 So don't pretend that you don't. 279 00:10:14,744 --> 00:10:16,572 - No, no, no, no. - Is he protecting me? 280 00:10:16,746 --> 00:10:17,920 Don't put words in my mouth. 281 00:10:17,921 --> 00:10:19,400 What did I put in your mouth? 282 00:10:19,401 --> 00:10:21,142 If you let people-- You keep saying it's old 283 00:10:21,359 --> 00:10:22,970 to keep saying let people talk, then let people----ing talk. 284 00:10:23,187 --> 00:10:25,494 [tense music] 285 00:10:33,067 --> 00:10:35,504 [tense music] 286 00:10:35,678 --> 00:10:38,420 You know exactly what PK is saying. 287 00:10:38,638 --> 00:10:40,203 So don't pretend that you don't. 288 00:10:40,204 --> 00:10:41,728 You keep saying it's old to keep saying let people talk, 289 00:10:41,945 --> 00:10:42,729 well, then let people - ing talk. 290 00:10:42,946 --> 00:10:45,775 [tense music] 291 00:10:45,993 --> 00:10:48,996 I only know Mo is saying that PK is saying 292 00:10:49,213 --> 00:10:50,736 completely opposite things from what you're saying. 293 00:10:50,737 --> 00:10:53,087 Okay? I didn't say speak up in that night at Tilly's 294 00:10:53,304 --> 00:10:54,784 purposely, because I didn't want to be like, 295 00:10:55,002 --> 00:10:56,046 "Well, that's not what PK saying." 296 00:10:56,264 --> 00:10:59,615 I kept my mouth shut and... what? 297 00:10:59,789 --> 00:11:01,138 I didn't say anything. I didn't say anything. 298 00:11:01,356 --> 00:11:03,184 I came to you later privately, and I said, 299 00:11:03,401 --> 00:11:05,273 "Listen, I just don't want you 300 00:11:05,490 --> 00:11:07,492 to create more problems for yourself." 301 00:11:09,451 --> 00:11:11,279 [chuckling] 302 00:11:11,496 --> 00:11:12,672 [upbeat music] 303 00:11:12,889 --> 00:11:14,064 Grow up, Dorit. 304 00:11:14,282 --> 00:11:15,543 - Is it okay? - Grow up. 305 00:11:15,544 --> 00:11:16,936 No, 'cause I just wanna make sure 306 00:11:16,937 --> 00:11:18,939 I'm giving you a chance to speak, but is it okay? 307 00:11:19,156 --> 00:11:23,421 Kyle talking to Mauricio about Dorit and PK 308 00:11:23,639 --> 00:11:26,816 is 100% keeping Kyle in the middle. 309 00:11:27,034 --> 00:11:29,079 Hey, if I didn't care about you, if I didn't like you, 310 00:11:29,297 --> 00:11:30,907 I'd let you----ing bury yourself. I don't care. 311 00:11:31,125 --> 00:11:34,823 The best thing Kyle could do for she and Dorit's friendship 312 00:11:34,824 --> 00:11:36,303 is still stay out of their divorce. 313 00:11:36,304 --> 00:11:39,873 I promise you, Kyle, the more you talk to Mauricio 314 00:11:40,090 --> 00:11:42,875 about Dorit and PK, the worse it's gonna be for you and Dorit. 315 00:11:42,876 --> 00:11:47,010 I believe that Kyle has your best interest at heart. 316 00:11:47,228 --> 00:11:48,359 What you are saying, 317 00:11:48,577 --> 00:11:50,144 is you are willing to assume the risk 318 00:11:50,361 --> 00:11:53,234 of speaking publicly about what is happening. 319 00:11:53,451 --> 00:11:55,366 And everybody has to accept that. 320 00:11:55,584 --> 00:11:56,933 This is a good birthday party. 321 00:11:57,151 --> 00:11:59,109 - Oh, the best. - This is a very good birthday. 322 00:11:59,327 --> 00:12:02,417 But, Dorit, no one here at this table 323 00:12:02,634 --> 00:12:04,114 wants anything bad to happen to you. 324 00:12:04,332 --> 00:12:05,811 - Exactly. - I don't believe. Listen. 325 00:12:05,812 --> 00:12:07,422 You don't think that my saying that 326 00:12:07,639 --> 00:12:09,118 is because I cared about you? Do you remember your 327 00:12:09,119 --> 00:12:11,034 - house that day when I said-- - Kyle, listen to me! 328 00:12:11,252 --> 00:12:12,339 Now, you shut up. 329 00:12:12,340 --> 00:12:13,558 I understand that you're angry. 330 00:12:13,733 --> 00:12:15,603 You shut up for two seconds. 331 00:12:15,604 --> 00:12:17,562 [tense music] 332 00:12:17,737 --> 00:12:19,173 - Dorit. Come on. - Okay? 333 00:12:19,390 --> 00:12:20,740 Erika, stop it. I mean it. 334 00:12:20,914 --> 00:12:22,742 - No, I'm not gonna stop it. - No, I mean it. 335 00:12:22,959 --> 00:12:25,048 You guys are friends, you guys are on a way to repair. 336 00:12:25,266 --> 00:12:26,963 - I know you're upset. - No! 337 00:12:27,181 --> 00:12:29,313 - Come on. You got it. - I don't want either of you 338 00:12:29,531 --> 00:12:30,793 telling me what I should or shouldn't do. 339 00:12:31,011 --> 00:12:32,839 I'd love for Erika to chime in and say, 340 00:12:33,056 --> 00:12:35,623 "Kyle. That's not cool. 341 00:12:35,624 --> 00:12:39,323 Kyle, that's not cool. That's not cool." 342 00:12:39,541 --> 00:12:42,849 When things are happening in my life and I'm with my friends, 343 00:12:43,066 --> 00:12:46,373 just like I showed up to Tilly's, very broken. 344 00:12:46,374 --> 00:12:49,333 Do you want me to show up and pretend like everything is fine? 345 00:12:49,551 --> 00:12:51,118 - No. - Because I can't do that. 346 00:12:51,335 --> 00:12:54,121 It is clear to me, based on some of the dynamics tonight, 347 00:12:54,338 --> 00:12:58,212 that this is a communication style I am very not used to. 348 00:12:58,429 --> 00:13:02,042 I mean, even had it not been the anniversary of Zion's death, 349 00:13:02,259 --> 00:13:04,653 I still would have not liked being approached that way. 350 00:13:04,827 --> 00:13:06,611 But here's the thing, Amanda. 351 00:13:06,786 --> 00:13:09,614 You can't be in charge of how people want to respond. 352 00:13:09,789 --> 00:13:12,226 So that's an adult thing to understand. 353 00:13:12,443 --> 00:13:14,271 You don't ever set boundaries with people 354 00:13:14,489 --> 00:13:15,969 around how they can and can't speak to you? 355 00:13:16,186 --> 00:13:18,885 Well, how am I going to enforce that? That sounds crazy. 356 00:13:19,102 --> 00:13:20,495 You can't walk around the planet, 357 00:13:20,712 --> 00:13:22,323 thinking that everybody's gonna agree with you. 358 00:13:22,540 --> 00:13:24,454 In my 40 years of life, 359 00:13:24,455 --> 00:13:25,717 I have never left a dinner party crying. 360 00:13:25,892 --> 00:13:28,372 I thought you ran away from a cult. 361 00:13:28,590 --> 00:13:31,027 [tense music] 362 00:13:32,159 --> 00:13:33,595 I did. 363 00:13:35,205 --> 00:13:36,946 - Dorit. Dorit. - Okay, okay. 364 00:13:37,164 --> 00:13:38,600 - That's not nice. - No, I'm just curious. 365 00:13:38,818 --> 00:13:40,732 - I did leave a cult. - I mean, it just 366 00:13:40,907 --> 00:13:42,647 - doesn't sound right. - What does the cult 367 00:13:42,822 --> 00:13:43,996 have to do with anything? 368 00:13:43,997 --> 00:13:46,826 This woman disrespected me and my son 369 00:13:47,043 --> 00:13:48,522 on the anniversary of his death, 370 00:13:48,523 --> 00:13:50,699 and now she wants to bring up that I'm in a cult? 371 00:13:50,873 --> 00:13:52,396 She's just scraping the bottom of the barrel 372 00:13:52,614 --> 00:13:54,659 for anything she thinks will make me look bad. 373 00:13:54,834 --> 00:13:57,010 A cult? What kind? 374 00:13:57,227 --> 00:13:59,403 That's a whole different story. 375 00:13:59,621 --> 00:14:01,666 [restaurant din] 376 00:14:01,841 --> 00:14:03,451 We can absolutely get to that any time. 377 00:14:03,668 --> 00:14:06,019 I mean, I'm an open book, any time. 378 00:14:06,236 --> 00:14:08,456 I knew that. I googled Amanda 379 00:14:08,673 --> 00:14:10,458 just like I googled everybody in the group. 380 00:14:10,675 --> 00:14:12,155 I know all the history of Amanda. 381 00:14:12,373 --> 00:14:13,765 It's all out there. It's on Reddit. 382 00:14:13,940 --> 00:14:15,463 It's everywhere. 383 00:14:15,680 --> 00:14:17,595 Even the people in the group that are saying, 384 00:14:17,813 --> 00:14:20,555 "Oh, I never Google anybody." We all Google everybody. 385 00:14:20,772 --> 00:14:22,208 It's like Meghan Markle saying, 386 00:14:22,209 --> 00:14:24,515 "I never googled Prince Harry before I dated him." 387 00:14:24,733 --> 00:14:26,168 It's like, Meghan, please. 388 00:14:26,169 --> 00:14:28,955 You sort of maintain that you've lived a life where-- 389 00:14:31,479 --> 00:14:33,394 You're saying if you were in a cult-- 390 00:14:33,611 --> 00:14:34,960 Like, intense interactions 391 00:14:34,961 --> 00:14:36,396 - would be happening. - Well, I would imagine 392 00:14:36,397 --> 00:14:38,007 there's far worse that you've experienced than what-- 393 00:14:38,225 --> 00:14:40,662 than what happened the other night. 394 00:14:40,880 --> 00:14:41,967 Far, far worse. 395 00:14:41,968 --> 00:14:43,447 Yes, I'm not saying it's the worst 396 00:14:43,665 --> 00:14:44,884 thing that ever happened to me. I woke up-- 397 00:14:45,058 --> 00:14:47,190 Let me finish, please. Let me finish. 398 00:14:47,408 --> 00:14:50,150 I woke up about every 30 minutes all night long with my heart 399 00:14:50,367 --> 00:14:52,282 being very fast, beating very fast. 400 00:14:52,500 --> 00:14:55,068 My body interpreted it that evening 401 00:14:55,285 --> 00:14:57,157 as a physiological threat. 402 00:14:57,374 --> 00:14:58,592 Girl... 403 00:14:58,593 --> 00:15:00,029 Why are you shaking your head at that? 404 00:15:00,247 --> 00:15:02,292 I mean, your expectations 405 00:15:02,510 --> 00:15:05,556 of not having confrontation in the way that you don't like 406 00:15:05,774 --> 00:15:07,253 - is unrealistic. - That's true. 407 00:15:07,254 --> 00:15:10,953 So you need to understand that and also accept that. 408 00:15:11,171 --> 00:15:12,955 But can there be disagreements without conflict? 409 00:15:13,173 --> 00:15:15,305 - No. - You disagree, you sit, 410 00:15:15,523 --> 00:15:17,003 you speak. You have the intention to really hear 411 00:15:17,220 --> 00:15:19,570 each other, and there's not a huge conflict. 412 00:15:19,788 --> 00:15:21,616 [tense music] 413 00:15:21,833 --> 00:15:23,270 Girl, what are you talking about? 414 00:15:23,487 --> 00:15:24,531 No. 415 00:15:24,532 --> 00:15:26,621 How? In this human experience? 416 00:15:27,970 --> 00:15:30,233 What fantasy world is Amanda living in? 417 00:15:30,451 --> 00:15:32,670 Because in this reality, 418 00:15:32,888 --> 00:15:36,152 we've gotta have real conversations that push edges, 419 00:15:36,370 --> 00:15:37,979 that address conflict, 420 00:15:37,980 --> 00:15:39,329 that make us uncomfortable. 421 00:15:39,547 --> 00:15:40,983 Because I don't know any world 422 00:15:41,201 --> 00:15:43,768 in which Amanda thinks that she's the sole power 423 00:15:43,943 --> 00:15:45,857 to be able to control how people feel. 424 00:15:46,032 --> 00:15:48,251 We cannot control how people speak to us 425 00:15:48,469 --> 00:15:49,861 or how people react to us. We can only control 426 00:15:50,036 --> 00:15:52,690 how we react to other things. And trust me, 427 00:15:52,908 --> 00:15:54,344 if I could control how people - ing speak to me. 428 00:15:54,562 --> 00:15:56,216 - Girl, every day. - Life would be a lot 429 00:15:56,433 --> 00:15:57,217 - ing different. 430 00:15:57,434 --> 00:15:58,392 Hallelujah. 431 00:16:05,486 --> 00:16:08,054 Listen, I'm in a----ing vulnerable state today. 432 00:16:08,271 --> 00:16:09,925 I'm on----ing fire. 433 00:16:10,099 --> 00:16:12,188 I just. Sorry. 434 00:16:12,406 --> 00:16:13,973 I mean, today's been an emotional day. 435 00:16:14,190 --> 00:16:16,540 The media spiraling about my divorce, 436 00:16:16,758 --> 00:16:19,326 and I was completely blindsided by that. 437 00:16:19,543 --> 00:16:21,197 It's not like, "Oh, my God, I'm so sad. 438 00:16:21,415 --> 00:16:22,459 I wish I was still married. 439 00:16:22,677 --> 00:16:23,983 It's like. It's none of that. 440 00:16:24,200 --> 00:16:25,375 It's just all a lot. 441 00:16:25,593 --> 00:16:28,030 Guys, I feel like a ticking time bomb 442 00:16:28,248 --> 00:16:29,858 about to explode right now. 443 00:16:30,032 --> 00:16:32,469 But I try to really stay in, 444 00:16:32,687 --> 00:16:36,212 you know, gratitude and strength all the time. 445 00:16:36,430 --> 00:16:39,302 And sometimes, it just causes a crack. 446 00:16:39,520 --> 00:16:42,566 [sniffling] 447 00:16:42,784 --> 00:16:43,914 [restaurant din] 448 00:16:43,915 --> 00:16:46,222 Are you. Wait, let me see your eyes. 449 00:16:46,440 --> 00:16:47,397 Oh, no. 450 00:16:47,615 --> 00:16:49,225 Exactly. - Mm-hmm. 451 00:16:49,443 --> 00:16:51,140 Wait, what's going on with Rachel? 452 00:16:54,013 --> 00:16:56,928 For all of the stoicism, for all of the professionalism, 453 00:16:57,103 --> 00:17:00,019 for all the fabulosity, she is human. 454 00:17:00,236 --> 00:17:03,326 And so this divorce is gonna cut really deep. 455 00:17:03,544 --> 00:17:06,025 [sobbing]: I'm sick of - ing holding together. 456 00:17:06,242 --> 00:17:07,852 - Okay, okay. - All the time. 457 00:17:08,027 --> 00:17:09,593 Okay, you don't have to hold anything. 458 00:17:09,811 --> 00:17:12,814 Honey? You don't. Honey. 459 00:17:13,032 --> 00:17:15,338 It's like, we've been listening to----ing Amanda. 460 00:17:15,556 --> 00:17:17,906 It's like, is anything I said in honesty, 461 00:17:18,080 --> 00:17:19,603 is that----ing gonna, like, 462 00:17:19,821 --> 00:17:21,388 blow up in my face, like crap? 463 00:17:21,605 --> 00:17:22,911 And I'm like, you know what? 464 00:17:23,085 --> 00:17:24,652 It's not okay. 465 00:17:24,869 --> 00:17:26,392 It's not like I can't. 466 00:17:26,393 --> 00:17:29,831 I can't think of----ing Tyrone every minute of my life. 467 00:17:30,049 --> 00:17:31,615 You don't have to. 468 00:17:31,833 --> 00:17:34,705 And it's like, sometimes you just----ing need to break. 469 00:17:34,923 --> 00:17:36,316 - Yeah. - And I break in my closet, 470 00:17:36,533 --> 00:17:38,622 and I break in my bathroom, 471 00:17:38,840 --> 00:17:40,233 and I break to my sister. 472 00:17:40,450 --> 00:17:41,538 And, like... 473 00:17:43,497 --> 00:17:46,151 I make, like, 100 decisions a day, 474 00:17:46,152 --> 00:17:47,196 you know, between my life, 475 00:17:47,414 --> 00:17:48,588 my kids life, my work life. 476 00:17:48,589 --> 00:17:51,766 At some point, you just are paralyzed 477 00:17:51,983 --> 00:17:53,681 with exhaustion and just feeling overwhelmed. 478 00:17:53,898 --> 00:17:56,422 And sometimes you just gotta break in your closet. 479 00:17:56,423 --> 00:17:58,729 At least surround yourself with Chanel, for God's sake. 480 00:17:58,947 --> 00:18:01,471 You know, that'll always make me smile. 481 00:18:01,689 --> 00:18:03,952 And it's like, are people gonna-- 482 00:18:04,126 --> 00:18:06,259 - And then you get judged. - And then you get judged! 483 00:18:06,476 --> 00:18:08,391 You shouldn't be breaking because, 484 00:18:08,609 --> 00:18:10,480 "Oh, my God, it's gonna come back to bite you in the ass." 485 00:18:10,698 --> 00:18:12,569 - But [bleep] you! - Yeah [beep] you! 486 00:18:12,787 --> 00:18:14,441 Then why are we worried about the judgment? 487 00:18:14,658 --> 00:18:16,530 God forbid you actually don't hold it together 488 00:18:16,747 --> 00:18:18,052 every----ing two seconds. 489 00:18:18,053 --> 00:18:20,011 You don't even have to tell me. I know that. 490 00:18:20,186 --> 00:18:23,102 And I live it. It's hard enough to go through a separation, 491 00:18:23,319 --> 00:18:26,191 divorce, grief, and hold it together. 492 00:18:26,192 --> 00:18:28,803 I had to put on a brave face for my daughter 493 00:18:29,020 --> 00:18:30,674 while I grieved her father. 494 00:18:30,892 --> 00:18:34,504 And for me, a lot of the outlet was having my friends 495 00:18:34,722 --> 00:18:35,984 who would not judge me, 496 00:18:36,158 --> 00:18:37,116 who would allow me to cry, 497 00:18:37,333 --> 00:18:38,552 who would allow me to scream, 498 00:18:38,769 --> 00:18:40,293 and also give me the grace 499 00:18:40,510 --> 00:18:43,731 to be able to do it in a way that was comfortable for me. 500 00:18:44,645 --> 00:18:46,864 It's like one step forward, two steps back. 501 00:18:47,082 --> 00:18:48,779 But that's... Right now, I just can't deal. 502 00:18:48,997 --> 00:18:51,739 It was a bad night. We need to just leave it alone. 503 00:18:51,956 --> 00:18:53,132 I can't feel like my friend thinks that 504 00:18:53,349 --> 00:18:54,655 every time I'm trying to help her 505 00:18:54,872 --> 00:18:56,177 that I'm actually trying to hurt her. 506 00:18:56,178 --> 00:18:58,354 And she's in such a negative place right now 507 00:18:58,572 --> 00:19:01,531 that if we're going to be able to work on our friendship, 508 00:19:01,749 --> 00:19:03,620 I can't do this with her like this. 509 00:19:03,838 --> 00:19:05,622 I need to see her change a little bit. 510 00:19:06,362 --> 00:19:09,931 Oh, wait, wait, wait! Put it back in the kitchen. 511 00:19:10,149 --> 00:19:12,107 Back in the kitchen, back in the kitchen. 512 00:19:12,281 --> 00:19:15,458 - No, I want to leave. - Okay, Come on. 513 00:19:15,676 --> 00:19:17,417 I'll go get her. I'll go get her. 514 00:19:17,634 --> 00:19:19,419 Hold on, hold on, hold on. 515 00:19:19,636 --> 00:19:21,856 [all singing]: Happy birthday to you. 516 00:19:22,073 --> 00:19:23,117 Thank you. 517 00:19:23,118 --> 00:19:25,773 I hated this night, to be honest. 518 00:19:25,990 --> 00:19:27,862 It was annoying. I was looking cute. 519 00:19:28,079 --> 00:19:31,605 [girls]: Happy birthday to you. 520 00:19:31,822 --> 00:19:33,259 Thank you. One, two, three. 521 00:19:33,476 --> 00:19:35,826 Ooh. This is probably the wrong time, 522 00:19:36,044 --> 00:19:37,524 but Kyle brought out the cakes, 523 00:19:37,741 --> 00:19:39,961 and she wants you to come blow out your cake. 524 00:19:42,529 --> 00:19:45,836 I love everyone at that table. I can't go in right now. 525 00:19:46,054 --> 00:19:47,055 That's fine. 526 00:19:47,229 --> 00:19:48,795 I'm tired. 527 00:19:48,796 --> 00:19:50,972 - And she's tired. I get it. - Boz, I'm----ing tired. 528 00:19:51,190 --> 00:19:52,321 Girl, I'm telling you. 529 00:19:57,108 --> 00:19:58,632 And I wanted a hot girl summer 530 00:19:58,849 --> 00:20:00,938 and I'm not having one at all. 531 00:20:01,156 --> 00:20:02,897 [tense music] I'm having the opposite. 532 00:20:06,379 --> 00:20:07,336 Coming up. 533 00:20:07,554 --> 00:20:08,771 Hi, Dr. Duke. 534 00:20:08,772 --> 00:20:10,165 - Hey, Dr. Duke. - Hi guys. How are you? 535 00:20:10,339 --> 00:20:13,516 Well, guys, we have updates on the embryos. 536 00:20:13,734 --> 00:20:15,736 I know that they're embryos 537 00:20:15,953 --> 00:20:17,607 who could become children. 538 00:20:17,825 --> 00:20:19,087 Oh, man. 539 00:20:19,261 --> 00:20:20,523 Okay. 540 00:20:25,224 --> 00:20:28,052 [upbeat music] 541 00:20:30,403 --> 00:20:32,666 I've got a lot of things to say. 542 00:20:32,883 --> 00:20:35,146 I've been through a lot of challenges 543 00:20:35,321 --> 00:20:38,062 from when I was young up until now. 544 00:20:38,237 --> 00:20:40,804 I've fallen, I've picked myself up, 545 00:20:41,022 --> 00:20:47,202 and I feel like it's the right time to write this book. 546 00:20:50,640 --> 00:20:52,251 Oh. 547 00:20:52,468 --> 00:20:53,643 [squealing] How do you like it? 548 00:20:53,861 --> 00:20:55,515 You also get a T-shirt. 549 00:20:55,732 --> 00:20:57,256 Yay! 550 00:20:57,473 --> 00:21:00,084 You're getting a Maserati! 551 00:21:00,259 --> 00:21:02,957 [cheering and clapping] 552 00:21:06,047 --> 00:21:07,788 - Thank you. - Oh, I love you. 553 00:21:08,005 --> 00:21:09,442 You deserve it. 554 00:21:09,659 --> 00:21:13,446 [upbeat music continues] 555 00:21:13,663 --> 00:21:14,838 [birds chirping] 556 00:21:15,056 --> 00:21:17,885 [exhales] 557 00:21:18,929 --> 00:21:20,540 Hi, sweet boy. 558 00:21:20,757 --> 00:21:22,977 Hi, Delila. 559 00:21:23,194 --> 00:21:25,022 [grunting] 560 00:21:25,240 --> 00:21:27,764 Little Pilates moment. 561 00:21:27,982 --> 00:21:29,592 [laughing] Pilates? 562 00:21:29,810 --> 00:21:31,377 Pilates. 563 00:21:31,594 --> 00:21:33,640 Pilates... 564 00:21:33,857 --> 00:21:37,905 [upbeat music] 565 00:21:41,604 --> 00:21:43,084 Okay. 566 00:21:49,873 --> 00:21:51,875 [crickets chirping] 567 00:21:52,093 --> 00:21:53,877 This is super rustic. 568 00:21:54,095 --> 00:21:55,923 [chickens clucking] 569 00:21:58,229 --> 00:22:00,406 [curious music] 570 00:22:00,623 --> 00:22:01,581 It is. 571 00:22:01,798 --> 00:22:04,801 [animals grunting] 572 00:22:05,933 --> 00:22:07,761 I can already see the first issue. 573 00:22:07,978 --> 00:22:09,153 Is there an elevator? 574 00:22:10,067 --> 00:22:12,374 [laughing] Wait, no. For real, though. 575 00:22:12,592 --> 00:22:15,029 Hi, nice to meet you. I'm Jenn. 576 00:22:15,246 --> 00:22:17,074 - Hi, I'm Chloe. - Hi, nice to meet you. 577 00:22:17,292 --> 00:22:20,643 - Hi, Chloe. - Kyle. Nice to meet you. 578 00:22:20,861 --> 00:22:22,602 Welcome. It's a special place. 579 00:22:22,819 --> 00:22:25,387 We were just saying, you don't feel like you're in LA at all. 580 00:22:26,432 --> 00:22:28,651 Right. Well, that's what she loves about it. 581 00:22:28,869 --> 00:22:30,784 The wedding is a month away, 582 00:22:31,001 --> 00:22:32,829 so today we're doing the final walkthrough 583 00:22:33,047 --> 00:22:34,962 so we can officially lock it in. 584 00:22:35,179 --> 00:22:37,704 Cause we, uh, well, she 585 00:22:37,921 --> 00:22:39,749 was going to get married in Aspen, 586 00:22:39,967 --> 00:22:41,664 and it proved to be too complicated 587 00:22:41,882 --> 00:22:43,710 for a multitude of reasons, 588 00:22:43,927 --> 00:22:45,712 so she wanted something with this vibe. 589 00:22:45,929 --> 00:22:48,410 You know, rustic and ranch vibes. 590 00:22:48,628 --> 00:22:49,758 We have alpacas, so. 591 00:22:49,759 --> 00:22:52,545 [alpaca vocalizing] - Oh, my gosh. 592 00:22:52,762 --> 00:22:55,112 As much as I would love to just change the date, maybe? 593 00:22:55,330 --> 00:22:57,376 The invitations already went out. 594 00:22:57,550 --> 00:22:59,377 That would be bad juju. There she is! 595 00:22:59,378 --> 00:23:00,770 What are you freaking out about? 596 00:23:00,988 --> 00:23:02,381 No, I was talking about how you liked 597 00:23:02,598 --> 00:23:05,035 the moped with the tin can invitation. 598 00:23:05,253 --> 00:23:07,560 Oh, please. It was cute. 599 00:23:07,777 --> 00:23:09,082 [laughing] 600 00:23:09,083 --> 00:23:10,737 - I've never seen that one? - It was cute! 601 00:23:10,954 --> 00:23:12,391 - Hi. - You little cutie pie. 602 00:23:12,608 --> 00:23:15,350 I have invitations. So, it's a paperless post. 603 00:23:16,656 --> 00:23:20,398 I went very classic and texted it to most people. 604 00:23:20,399 --> 00:23:22,401 [laughing] 605 00:23:22,618 --> 00:23:24,272 I'm worried about my sister Kathy 606 00:23:24,446 --> 00:23:26,492 even seeing this text message. 607 00:23:26,709 --> 00:23:29,495 I mean, unless she gets a big envelope delivered to her house. 608 00:23:29,712 --> 00:23:31,410 Is she even going to know what's going on? 609 00:23:31,584 --> 00:23:33,237 Hello. 610 00:23:33,412 --> 00:23:35,108 - Hello. - Hi. 611 00:23:35,109 --> 00:23:37,285 Oh, did you miss the link for the mood board, Kathy? Shocker. 612 00:23:37,459 --> 00:23:42,333 What if she shows up in like, I don't know, an orange dress? 613 00:23:42,508 --> 00:23:44,423 - How are you? - Good. How are you? 614 00:23:44,597 --> 00:23:46,729 I'm good. The bride. 615 00:23:46,947 --> 00:23:48,469 Okay. [grunting] 616 00:23:48,470 --> 00:23:50,254 [laughing] 617 00:23:50,429 --> 00:23:52,213 Oh, my God. This is amazing. I love it. 618 00:23:52,431 --> 00:23:54,345 We're gonna be partying all night long in this room. 619 00:23:54,520 --> 00:23:56,043 Yeah, this room is really cool. 620 00:23:56,260 --> 00:23:57,479 100%. 621 00:23:57,697 --> 00:23:59,307 We've got a really great sound system, 622 00:23:59,481 --> 00:24:01,440 which is set up for vinyl, which is really fun. 623 00:24:01,657 --> 00:24:03,746 Well, now Dad's taking DJ lessons. 624 00:24:03,964 --> 00:24:05,444 Let him do the party. 625 00:24:07,402 --> 00:24:09,099 Is he really? - You have a big 626 00:24:09,317 --> 00:24:11,711 - vinyl collection? - Don't get me started. 627 00:24:11,928 --> 00:24:13,669 That's a hard no for me 628 00:24:13,887 --> 00:24:15,758 and a hard no for Alexia. 629 00:24:15,976 --> 00:24:17,499 Are you doing this so you can have a big 630 00:24:17,717 --> 00:24:19,239 debut at the wedding? 631 00:24:19,240 --> 00:24:22,678 No, I love music and I, like, I have time on my hands. 632 00:24:22,896 --> 00:24:24,463 So, like, why not take on a new hobby? 633 00:24:26,900 --> 00:24:28,510 We already have enough rumors about 634 00:24:28,728 --> 00:24:29,946 you going through a midlife crisis. 635 00:24:30,164 --> 00:24:32,471 Do you have to add fuel to the fire? 636 00:24:32,645 --> 00:24:35,952 His DJ name was going to be Mo-mentum. 637 00:24:36,170 --> 00:24:38,259 [laughing] 638 00:24:39,695 --> 00:24:41,523 - Okay. Next. - Okay, let's go. 639 00:24:41,741 --> 00:24:45,222 Okay, so up next is where we do the ceremony. 640 00:24:45,440 --> 00:24:47,789 [upbeat music] 641 00:24:47,790 --> 00:24:50,271 I'm visualizing all the trees 642 00:24:50,489 --> 00:24:53,100 and I'm seeing myself in the middle of all of them. 643 00:24:53,317 --> 00:24:55,624 I like that. Wait, where are we doing cocktails? 644 00:24:55,842 --> 00:24:57,583 - Over there, right? - Right, yeah. 645 00:24:57,800 --> 00:24:59,279 Should it be here as well? 646 00:24:59,280 --> 00:25:01,282 We would have to do a build out on that for sure. 647 00:25:01,500 --> 00:25:03,066 We cannot accommodate 200. 648 00:25:03,284 --> 00:25:04,807 That'll increase the budget, too. 649 00:25:05,852 --> 00:25:08,158 [curious music] 650 00:25:08,376 --> 00:25:09,638 Alexia doesn't like the B-word. 651 00:25:09,856 --> 00:25:10,857 No, that's a bad word. 652 00:25:11,074 --> 00:25:12,335 She said that the B-word 653 00:25:12,336 --> 00:25:13,860 wakes her up in the middle of the night. 654 00:25:14,077 --> 00:25:15,252 So please refrain from using the B-word 655 00:25:15,470 --> 00:25:16,818 with our child. 656 00:25:16,819 --> 00:25:20,693 Well, originally, Alexia wanted like 150 people. 657 00:25:20,910 --> 00:25:22,869 And that number has grown a lot. 658 00:25:23,086 --> 00:25:25,306 Of course, there is a ceiling to the budget. 659 00:25:25,524 --> 00:25:29,615 Obviously in the six figures would be ideal. 660 00:25:29,832 --> 00:25:32,705 She is our first child getting married. 661 00:25:32,922 --> 00:25:34,924 - I gotta take care of... - Yeah. 662 00:25:35,142 --> 00:25:37,187 Three of them. 663 00:25:37,405 --> 00:25:40,147 You know, it's his first daughter getting married. 664 00:25:40,364 --> 00:25:42,279 We're gonna exceed our unlimited budget. 665 00:25:42,497 --> 00:25:44,543 Just pay for this. 666 00:25:45,065 --> 00:25:47,458 What do we need to do to lock it all down 667 00:25:47,633 --> 00:25:50,287 and finalize everything so we can get the show on the road? 668 00:25:50,505 --> 00:25:52,289 Because I'm getting stressed with a little-- 669 00:25:52,507 --> 00:25:53,855 [laughing] There we go. 670 00:25:53,856 --> 00:25:57,207 You guys are ready to sign and send a deposit? 671 00:25:57,425 --> 00:25:59,819 - Let's go. - I mean, I think it's perfect. 672 00:26:02,909 --> 00:26:04,432 Coming up. 673 00:26:04,606 --> 00:26:06,433 I was worried about you the other night. 674 00:26:06,434 --> 00:26:08,479 This was not myself to begin with. 675 00:26:08,654 --> 00:26:10,960 And then Dorit's getting judged for breaking. 676 00:26:11,178 --> 00:26:14,703 I need to know that I'm not being judged. 677 00:26:18,838 --> 00:26:21,710 [upbeat music] 678 00:26:23,712 --> 00:26:25,801 Okay. Hi, Nabs, how are you? 679 00:26:26,019 --> 00:26:27,455 Hi. I'm good. 680 00:26:27,629 --> 00:26:29,370 - Are you behaving? - Always. 681 00:26:29,588 --> 00:26:31,111 - Honey, I'm home. - Come on in. 682 00:26:31,328 --> 00:26:32,852 Oh, my goodness. Hi. 683 00:26:33,069 --> 00:26:34,593 Are you gonna get a drip or a shot or... 684 00:26:34,810 --> 00:26:36,725 Uh, I'll do a shot. 685 00:26:36,943 --> 00:26:38,858 - Okay, great. - I don't do drips. 686 00:26:39,075 --> 00:26:41,600 I don't have good veins. Hi, wait. Is it in you? 687 00:26:41,774 --> 00:26:43,645 Kathy's a very unique person. 688 00:26:43,863 --> 00:26:45,604 In some ways, she reminds me of my mother. 689 00:26:45,778 --> 00:26:48,041 Just so sweet and so supportive. 690 00:26:48,258 --> 00:26:50,391 Do you want something? Do you want wine? 691 00:26:50,609 --> 00:26:52,132 - I’ll have a little wine. - Is white okay? 692 00:26:52,349 --> 00:26:54,787 White? White? That's great. Thank you so much. 693 00:26:55,004 --> 00:26:59,095 [chuckling] Like... I can't. 694 00:26:59,313 --> 00:27:01,620 I remember at my dinner party 695 00:27:01,837 --> 00:27:03,360 being like, where's Kathy? 696 00:27:03,578 --> 00:27:05,232 She was on the table. 697 00:27:05,449 --> 00:27:08,017 One of the girls was like, she's at the caviar table. 698 00:27:08,235 --> 00:27:09,715 What do we have over here? 699 00:27:09,932 --> 00:27:11,934 - Caviar. - Of course we do. 700 00:27:12,152 --> 00:27:14,458 - Oh, no. - But what? 701 00:27:14,633 --> 00:27:16,330 - Little more caviar. - Have a little more caviar-- 702 00:27:16,547 --> 00:27:18,027 And leave it all over the place. 703 00:27:18,245 --> 00:27:19,811 And by the time she sat down, she's like, 704 00:27:19,812 --> 00:27:21,857 "I just ate so much caviar, I'm just not even hungry." 705 00:27:22,075 --> 00:27:23,946 And I was like, that is what my mother would do. 706 00:27:24,643 --> 00:27:25,947 You know Paola. 707 00:27:25,948 --> 00:27:28,255 - How are you? Nice to see you. - The lady. 708 00:27:28,472 --> 00:27:29,647 I just die. 709 00:27:29,648 --> 00:27:32,085 I was worried about you the other night. 710 00:27:32,912 --> 00:27:34,434 It was interesting. 711 00:27:34,435 --> 00:27:37,873 Okay, so basically, I saw Page Six, I saw Us Weekly. 712 00:27:38,091 --> 00:27:40,354 I'm like, what is happening? 713 00:27:40,571 --> 00:27:43,313 In my mind, Kathy, I'm doing this as a mediation, 714 00:27:43,531 --> 00:27:46,882 intentionally, quietly, so that this doesn't happen 715 00:27:47,100 --> 00:27:49,232 and that my kids don't have to hear it-- 716 00:27:49,450 --> 00:27:50,885 And that doesn't affect the children. 717 00:27:50,886 --> 00:27:52,845 - I just don't want my kids-- - Being stressed. 718 00:27:53,062 --> 00:27:55,674 Dealing with any of this and-and rightfully so, right? 719 00:27:55,891 --> 00:27:57,893 Like, hi, how are you? 720 00:27:58,111 --> 00:27:59,808 - How are you? - I'm good, thank you. 721 00:28:00,026 --> 00:28:01,941 I'm gonna be doing a Niagen IV today 722 00:28:02,158 --> 00:28:03,682 and a Niagen shot. 723 00:28:03,856 --> 00:28:05,248 We're doing magnesium. 724 00:28:05,466 --> 00:28:06,901 Right? No, no, it's better for you. 725 00:28:06,902 --> 00:28:09,252 - We're doing a bunch of-- - This is way better. 726 00:28:09,470 --> 00:28:11,907 I just have, like, bad veins, so I just don't. I know. 727 00:28:13,126 --> 00:28:14,822 Thank you so much. 728 00:28:14,823 --> 00:28:17,565 Honestly, Kathy, like, I just was not myself to begin with, 729 00:28:17,739 --> 00:28:21,308 and then I was like, down at the end of the table. 730 00:28:21,525 --> 00:28:24,615 Dorit's getting judged for breaking in this group. 731 00:28:24,790 --> 00:28:26,268 Right. 732 00:28:26,269 --> 00:28:28,532 And I think it was just the breaking point for me 733 00:28:28,707 --> 00:28:31,492 because I need to know that I'm not being judged, 734 00:28:31,710 --> 00:28:34,364 because being judged really----ing sucks. 735 00:28:34,582 --> 00:28:36,279 - You want support. - You want support. 736 00:28:36,497 --> 00:28:37,932 So what I was saying is, 737 00:28:37,933 --> 00:28:40,501 "Guys, are you judging what I'm saying right now? 738 00:28:40,719 --> 00:28:43,591 Am I not safe to speak freely here?" 739 00:28:43,765 --> 00:28:46,725 I don't think it's that we don't want or value 740 00:28:46,942 --> 00:28:48,422 other people's opinions. 741 00:28:48,639 --> 00:28:51,077 I just think everyone in this group, 742 00:28:51,294 --> 00:28:53,993 whether they agree or not with how she's handling it, 743 00:28:54,210 --> 00:28:57,213 they need to just be here to hold her and cheer for her. 744 00:28:57,431 --> 00:28:58,737 That's it. It's grace. 745 00:28:58,911 --> 00:29:00,128 There needs to be grace. 746 00:29:00,129 --> 00:29:02,262 I just honestly miss my family so much. 747 00:29:02,479 --> 00:29:03,916 - Right. - I really-- 748 00:29:04,133 --> 00:29:06,657 - You need them now. - I do. I also need to go out. 749 00:29:06,832 --> 00:29:08,616 You know, I'm always in the Hamptons all summer 750 00:29:08,790 --> 00:29:11,140 and in Europe and obviously working all summer 751 00:29:11,358 --> 00:29:13,055 now in LA, which is new for me. 752 00:29:13,273 --> 00:29:15,710 And I think it's, like, starting to affect my whole... 753 00:29:15,884 --> 00:29:18,539 - Mental health? - It is like I actually. 754 00:29:18,757 --> 00:29:20,280 Like, I need to go out, I need to laugh-- 755 00:29:20,497 --> 00:29:22,064 Right. And have a hot girl summer. 756 00:29:22,282 --> 00:29:23,674 I mean, listen, it's not the south of France, 757 00:29:23,849 --> 00:29:25,589 but it's as close as we're gonna get right now. 758 00:29:25,764 --> 00:29:27,417 That's right. Just be careful. 759 00:29:27,635 --> 00:29:28,984 Are you scared I'm gonna make out with 760 00:29:29,202 --> 00:29:30,507 - a cute boy or something? - Mmh... 761 00:29:30,725 --> 00:29:33,119 What's bad about that? [laughing] 762 00:29:33,336 --> 00:29:36,775 [upbeat music] 763 00:29:42,955 --> 00:29:44,260 - Hey. - Hi. 764 00:29:45,305 --> 00:29:47,916 Okay, let's get in here. 765 00:29:48,134 --> 00:29:50,049 - Hi, Dr. Duke. - Hey, Dr. Duke. 766 00:29:50,266 --> 00:29:51,615 - Hi, guys. How are you? - Good, good, good. 767 00:29:51,790 --> 00:29:53,052 How are you? 768 00:29:53,269 --> 00:29:55,184 I'm good. I'm good. Happy Thursday. 769 00:29:55,402 --> 00:29:57,665 - Happy Thursday. - Yeah, happy Thursday. 770 00:29:59,319 --> 00:30:02,975 Well, guys, we have updates on the embryos. 771 00:30:04,237 --> 00:30:06,021 Okay. 772 00:30:06,239 --> 00:30:08,589 I have even more intense feelings today 773 00:30:08,807 --> 00:30:11,200 than I did when the eggs were retrieved. 774 00:30:11,418 --> 00:30:13,812 [machine beeping] 775 00:30:14,508 --> 00:30:16,292 You did great. 776 00:30:16,510 --> 00:30:19,687 Two eggs, one from each ovary, actually. 777 00:30:19,861 --> 00:30:21,689 [pensive music] I am more anxious, 778 00:30:21,863 --> 00:30:24,126 I am more excited, I am more nervous, 779 00:30:24,344 --> 00:30:27,216 I am more fearful, I'm more joyful. 780 00:30:27,434 --> 00:30:29,958 All of those feelings have intensified 781 00:30:30,176 --> 00:30:32,395 because I know that they're embryos 782 00:30:32,613 --> 00:30:33,744 who could become children. 783 00:30:33,919 --> 00:30:35,224 Oh, man. 784 00:30:35,442 --> 00:30:37,183 All of my emotions are on high. 785 00:30:37,400 --> 00:30:39,098 We had two eggs. 786 00:30:39,315 --> 00:30:43,014 Both were successfully fertilized with sperm. 787 00:30:43,015 --> 00:30:44,581 Ideally, the sixth day, 788 00:30:44,799 --> 00:30:47,976 we would want to see what's called a blastocyst. 789 00:30:48,194 --> 00:30:50,413 It's like a tiny planet that's capable 790 00:30:50,631 --> 00:30:52,807 of implanting in the womb. 791 00:30:52,981 --> 00:30:56,376 Unfortunately, neither has made it to the blastocyst stage. 792 00:30:56,593 --> 00:30:58,552 [somber music] 793 00:30:58,769 --> 00:31:01,555 Is this entirely unexpected? 794 00:31:01,772 --> 00:31:06,081 No. Is it sad and disappointing? Yes. 795 00:31:07,561 --> 00:31:09,128 I feel really overwhelmed. 796 00:31:09,345 --> 00:31:11,739 Right now, I can barely hear anything else 797 00:31:11,913 --> 00:31:17,005 beyond the roar in my ears that this hasn't worked. 798 00:31:17,223 --> 00:31:19,181 The biggest factor, unfortunately, 799 00:31:19,399 --> 00:31:20,660 is the age of the egg. 800 00:31:20,661 --> 00:31:22,924 What we can do is try to support them, 801 00:31:23,142 --> 00:31:26,885 but there's nothing we can do to restructure eggs. 802 00:31:27,059 --> 00:31:29,888 The big question now is any openness to the idea 803 00:31:30,105 --> 00:31:32,107 of using eggs from someone younger. 804 00:31:32,325 --> 00:31:34,414 But we only have a finite window. 805 00:31:34,631 --> 00:31:36,895 We certainly don't have another year in this process. 806 00:31:37,112 --> 00:31:39,375 - Excuse me. - I'm so sorry, Boz. 807 00:31:39,593 --> 00:31:41,203 Sorry, baby. [Boz weeping softly] 808 00:31:41,421 --> 00:31:43,162 So this is where this helps... 809 00:31:43,379 --> 00:31:46,556 All of the hopes and dreams and aspirations 810 00:31:46,774 --> 00:31:49,690 that I had for these two little embryos 811 00:31:49,908 --> 00:31:52,040 that I had already started to picture 812 00:31:52,258 --> 00:31:55,043 who they were going to become... are gone. 813 00:31:55,261 --> 00:31:57,872 Are we still scheduled for the second round? 814 00:31:58,046 --> 00:32:00,005 [Boz sniffling] Yes. It's up to you guys, 815 00:32:00,222 --> 00:32:03,269 ultimately, but I want her continuing the daily shot, 816 00:32:03,486 --> 00:32:05,401 the supplements, the vitamins. 817 00:32:05,619 --> 00:32:08,317 It feels like grief. 818 00:32:08,535 --> 00:32:11,103 It feels like losing a baby, 819 00:32:11,320 --> 00:32:13,975 because that's how I envisioned them. 820 00:32:14,193 --> 00:32:17,805 And so these aren't just inanimate objects 821 00:32:17,979 --> 00:32:19,111 out in the world. 822 00:32:19,328 --> 00:32:21,852 These are Keely and I's babies. 823 00:32:22,027 --> 00:32:23,811 - Okay, she's coming back. - I'm back. 824 00:32:23,985 --> 00:32:26,205 - Okay. She's back. - All right. 825 00:32:26,422 --> 00:32:28,990 Just need to get some tissue. That's all right. 826 00:32:29,208 --> 00:32:30,861 - Yeah. - All right. 827 00:32:31,036 --> 00:32:33,995 - Thank you. - Thank you, Dr. Duke. 828 00:32:34,213 --> 00:32:39,044 I think knowing that 829 00:32:39,261 --> 00:32:41,960 doing all of that again 830 00:32:42,177 --> 00:32:46,573 may not result in great eggs again, 831 00:32:46,790 --> 00:32:49,141 you know, is what is disappointing to me. 832 00:32:49,358 --> 00:32:52,100 We'll cross that bridge when we get there, okay? 833 00:32:52,318 --> 00:32:55,408 Right now, let's just focus on being as healthy as we can. 834 00:32:55,625 --> 00:32:56,974 Right? For this next round. 835 00:32:56,975 --> 00:32:59,238 I need some breakfast. I need something to eat. 836 00:32:59,455 --> 00:33:01,675 All right. Same, same, same. 837 00:33:01,892 --> 00:33:02,893 - Okay. - Give me a hug. 838 00:33:03,068 --> 00:33:05,635 Oh, of course. 839 00:33:07,986 --> 00:33:10,162 - Love you. - Love you, too, baby. 840 00:33:11,206 --> 00:33:12,642 Coming up. 841 00:33:12,860 --> 00:33:14,296 Isn't a cult like something 842 00:33:14,514 --> 00:33:16,472 you don't want to actually say that you're a part of? 843 00:33:16,690 --> 00:33:18,735 It's not a good thing. 844 00:33:18,953 --> 00:33:20,259 There's something amiss. 845 00:33:20,476 --> 00:33:22,217 Let's see who the [beep] she is. 846 00:33:26,569 --> 00:33:29,485 [upbeat music] 847 00:33:40,931 --> 00:33:43,238 - Hi. - This necklace is so pretty. 848 00:33:43,456 --> 00:33:45,675 Hi, honey. 849 00:33:47,329 --> 00:33:50,202 - Hi, honey. - Hi. 850 00:33:50,419 --> 00:33:53,205 - This color's so pretty on you. - Thank you. 851 00:33:53,422 --> 00:33:55,511 I'm not getting up because I'm lazy. 852 00:33:55,729 --> 00:33:57,035 [indistinct chatter] 853 00:33:57,252 --> 00:33:59,820 Can I get drinks started or any appetizers? 854 00:34:00,038 --> 00:34:01,256 Yes, please. 855 00:34:01,474 --> 00:34:02,822 Is the Pino Grigio dryer or the Sancerre? 856 00:34:02,823 --> 00:34:04,825 - The Sancerre. - I would love a glass of that. 857 00:34:05,043 --> 00:34:06,783 I'm just gonna order a few appetizers. 858 00:34:07,001 --> 00:34:08,220 - Just order anything. - Okay. 859 00:34:08,437 --> 00:34:10,091 A spicy tuna crisp. They have a vegan roll, 860 00:34:10,309 --> 00:34:12,006 you guys. Let's do that. 861 00:34:12,180 --> 00:34:13,441 I mean, a salad's fine. 862 00:34:13,442 --> 00:34:15,140 - Baby green salad? - No dressing, yeah. 863 00:34:15,357 --> 00:34:16,793 Perfect, thank you so much. 864 00:34:17,011 --> 00:34:19,057 You guys, do I look like I slept one hour? 865 00:34:19,274 --> 00:34:20,710 - No. - No, you don't. 866 00:34:22,277 --> 00:34:23,887 First of all, where did you go? 867 00:34:24,062 --> 00:34:25,498 [tense music] Where did I go? 868 00:34:25,715 --> 00:34:27,543 I've just heard that you said it behind my back. 869 00:34:27,761 --> 00:34:28,849 And you're judging me. 870 00:34:29,067 --> 00:34:30,807 Sutton's the one who told me 871 00:34:31,025 --> 00:34:32,722 that Amanda was talking behind my back. 872 00:34:32,940 --> 00:34:34,681 She's the one who started this sh-- show. 873 00:34:34,898 --> 00:34:36,813 Let me tell you what she said about you. 874 00:34:37,031 --> 00:34:38,292 - Oh? - Oh, God. 875 00:34:38,293 --> 00:34:40,078 She's concerned that you're talking too much 876 00:34:40,295 --> 00:34:42,950 about the divorce and that it might come back to bite you. 877 00:34:43,124 --> 00:34:45,561 But instead of calling Amanda out for lying, 878 00:34:45,779 --> 00:34:47,998 she was radio silent. 879 00:34:48,173 --> 00:34:50,000 You are very strong. 880 00:34:50,175 --> 00:34:52,481 You fight your own battles really well. 881 00:34:52,699 --> 00:34:53,742 Yes, yes. 882 00:34:53,743 --> 00:34:55,267 No. I didn't want you to feel-- 883 00:34:55,484 --> 00:34:56,920 - Okay, good. - No, not at all. 884 00:34:57,095 --> 00:34:59,314 Amanda, she basically is echoing how Kyle feels. 885 00:34:59,532 --> 00:35:02,839 Here's the thing, though. She made it out that at Kathy's, 886 00:35:03,057 --> 00:35:07,583 she was asked, what did you and Kyle talk about 887 00:35:07,801 --> 00:35:09,150 - when you got together? - Right, right. 888 00:35:09,368 --> 00:35:10,629 No, she had an opinion. 889 00:35:10,630 --> 00:35:13,894 She did say, "Oh, he's a raging alcoholic," 890 00:35:14,112 --> 00:35:16,070 - and he didn't like that. - But if it's true. 891 00:35:16,244 --> 00:35:17,811 Well, still. 892 00:35:18,028 --> 00:35:19,552 [laughing] Maybe you shouldn't say it 893 00:35:19,769 --> 00:35:21,031 about the father of your children. 894 00:35:22,120 --> 00:35:25,123 I'm sorry. I thought that that was clear 895 00:35:25,297 --> 00:35:26,427 that she had an opinion. 896 00:35:26,428 --> 00:35:28,648 Was it a loud and strong opinion? 897 00:35:30,258 --> 00:35:32,478 She's basically playing this down like, 898 00:35:32,695 --> 00:35:35,568 "Dorit, you're taking this too far. 899 00:35:35,785 --> 00:35:36,872 This was a nothing thought." 900 00:35:36,873 --> 00:35:38,788 She had her own opinion about it. 901 00:35:39,006 --> 00:35:41,008 But I have to say, it was pretty----ing ballsy 902 00:35:41,182 --> 00:35:43,315 to punt it to Kyle last night. 903 00:35:43,532 --> 00:35:45,273 When you do not own something, 904 00:35:45,491 --> 00:35:49,277 all it does is enrage the other person. 905 00:35:49,495 --> 00:35:52,193 What I'm doing in that situation is, 906 00:35:52,411 --> 00:35:54,369 "I'm sorry, I barely know you. 907 00:35:54,587 --> 00:35:56,937 I gave my opinion. I was probably out of line. 908 00:35:57,155 --> 00:35:59,026 I apologize. 909 00:35:59,200 --> 00:36:02,551 And going forward, I will keep my thoughts to myself." 910 00:36:02,769 --> 00:36:05,075 If someone owns it and apologizes, 911 00:36:05,250 --> 00:36:07,687 you can't keep it going. "Okay, but, but, but." 912 00:36:07,904 --> 00:36:10,777 It's like, no, they took it on the chin. They said it. 913 00:36:10,994 --> 00:36:12,648 I mean, this isn't hard. 914 00:36:13,910 --> 00:36:15,434 It's called being an adult. 915 00:36:15,651 --> 00:36:18,306 I was waiting for Kyle to be like, 916 00:36:18,524 --> 00:36:21,657 "Amanda, stop----ing putting this on me 917 00:36:21,875 --> 00:36:23,877 because this has nothing to do with me. 918 00:36:24,094 --> 00:36:26,140 This is your opinion." 919 00:36:28,098 --> 00:36:29,970 This weather's so perfect. 920 00:36:30,188 --> 00:36:31,753 It's so good. It's such a nice day. 921 00:36:31,754 --> 00:36:34,192 You did a really beautiful job on the house, by the way. 922 00:36:34,409 --> 00:36:35,802 - Thank you. - So beautiful. 923 00:36:36,019 --> 00:36:38,935 My life is so peaceful. Like with my family. 924 00:36:39,153 --> 00:36:40,720 These friendships are the only things 925 00:36:40,937 --> 00:36:42,156 not really feeling peaceful. 926 00:36:42,330 --> 00:36:44,767 I genuinely believed that Dorit and I 927 00:36:44,985 --> 00:36:46,421 could easily clear the air around this. 928 00:36:46,639 --> 00:36:48,293 But now I don't know what the [beep] to think. 929 00:36:48,510 --> 00:36:49,859 I have to get something out of my shoe. 930 00:36:50,077 --> 00:36:51,383 Can you sit up here for one second? 931 00:36:51,600 --> 00:36:52,645 She doesn't want to resolve. 932 00:36:52,862 --> 00:36:54,690 She doesn't want to understand. 933 00:36:54,908 --> 00:36:56,866 She doesn't want to see where each other is coming from. 934 00:36:57,084 --> 00:36:59,565 And she didn't even apologize. 935 00:36:59,782 --> 00:37:03,438 It was so stressful 936 00:37:03,656 --> 00:37:05,658 and like that whole dinner from the beginning, 937 00:37:05,875 --> 00:37:07,355 and it's like, I just was so annoyed. 938 00:37:07,573 --> 00:37:09,270 The energy she was directing at me, 939 00:37:09,488 --> 00:37:11,620 she switched it to you and then switched it back to me. 940 00:37:11,838 --> 00:37:13,230 My frustration with Dorit is 941 00:37:13,231 --> 00:37:16,016 Boz could say the exact same thing that I said 942 00:37:16,234 --> 00:37:17,409 and she would have a completely different reaction 943 00:37:17,626 --> 00:37:19,279 than she does if I say it. 944 00:37:19,280 --> 00:37:21,717 If he wants to go to Florida in a hotel, let them do that. 945 00:37:21,935 --> 00:37:23,066 And then he'll go with your parents-- 946 00:37:23,241 --> 00:37:25,112 I don't think you understand, Kyle. 947 00:37:25,286 --> 00:37:27,767 You need to let him be the bearer of the bad news. 948 00:37:27,984 --> 00:37:29,377 Exactly. 949 00:37:30,422 --> 00:37:32,989 You told me you experienced him as a good father, 950 00:37:33,207 --> 00:37:34,948 so I see how you could be conflicted. 951 00:37:35,165 --> 00:37:37,690 Regardless of what I know or don't know and all that, 952 00:37:37,907 --> 00:37:39,909 I still stand by the fact that it's smarter 953 00:37:40,127 --> 00:37:42,912 just to not put this stuff out there, 954 00:37:43,130 --> 00:37:44,914 which I think she's so angry, she doesn't care. 955 00:37:45,132 --> 00:37:47,961 Dorit is completely blinded to any help or advice 956 00:37:48,178 --> 00:37:49,701 that I want to offer as her friend right now. 957 00:37:49,702 --> 00:37:53,096 And I don't know if there's a way to get back on track 958 00:37:53,271 --> 00:37:54,924 until she's in a better place. 959 00:37:55,142 --> 00:37:56,665 I don't think she's open to that. 960 00:37:56,883 --> 00:37:59,799 I think she's too angry right now with everything. 961 00:38:00,016 --> 00:38:02,454 It's so crazy to me how everything switched. 962 00:38:02,671 --> 00:38:04,499 I had such a good time. 963 00:38:04,717 --> 00:38:05,892 I was getting to know Boz, 964 00:38:06,109 --> 00:38:07,501 talking about entrepreneurship. 965 00:38:07,502 --> 00:38:09,591 Really, it was kind of like a self-empowerment 966 00:38:09,809 --> 00:38:11,898 girlfriend pep talk. 967 00:38:12,115 --> 00:38:15,380 And Dorit seemed really into it and receptive. 968 00:38:15,597 --> 00:38:19,209 I have no idea when we flipped. 969 00:38:19,384 --> 00:38:21,386 [tense music] 970 00:38:21,603 --> 00:38:23,212 All I've heard is about her business. 971 00:38:23,213 --> 00:38:28,044 I've not heard anything about her past, her upbringing. 972 00:38:28,262 --> 00:38:29,959 Like, I want to know more about the cult. 973 00:38:30,177 --> 00:38:31,396 That was insane. I just want you to know. 974 00:38:31,613 --> 00:38:33,354 - I was not armed for that. - The cult part? 975 00:38:33,572 --> 00:38:35,791 - I just wasn't armed for it. - It's okay to talk about it 976 00:38:36,009 --> 00:38:36,791 'cause it's on her website. 977 00:38:36,792 --> 00:38:38,098 You guys, am I an idiot? 978 00:38:38,316 --> 00:38:40,361 Like, isn't a cult like something 979 00:38:40,579 --> 00:38:42,711 you don't want to actually say that you're a part of? 980 00:38:42,929 --> 00:38:44,409 - Maybe she survived it. - She claims to be 981 00:38:44,626 --> 00:38:46,280 very open and transparent. 982 00:38:46,454 --> 00:38:49,283 - But the term cult. - It's not a good thing. 983 00:38:49,457 --> 00:38:50,805 There's something amiss. 984 00:38:50,806 --> 00:38:53,679 And I would like to know and understand Amanda. 985 00:38:54,462 --> 00:38:56,203 It's not what you see is what you get. 986 00:38:56,377 --> 00:39:00,120 At the end of the day, this is a process of 987 00:39:00,338 --> 00:39:02,470 it's gonna roll out who she actually really is. 988 00:39:02,688 --> 00:39:05,604 And I think we have the right to ask those questions. 989 00:39:07,606 --> 00:39:10,260 Let's see who the [beep] she is. 990 00:39:17,833 --> 00:39:20,096 [curious music] [dog barking] 991 00:39:20,314 --> 00:39:22,272 There's something amiss. 992 00:39:23,404 --> 00:39:25,275 It's not what you see is what you get. 993 00:39:25,798 --> 00:39:27,408 Let's see who the [beep] she is. 994 00:39:30,019 --> 00:39:32,805 What do you think that we can do to make her feel more open 995 00:39:33,022 --> 00:39:35,851 to tell us stuff like, "How'd you end up in a cult 996 00:39:36,069 --> 00:39:37,897 - and how did you escape?" - I can do that. 997 00:39:38,114 --> 00:39:39,551 - How can we-- - I can tell her. 998 00:39:39,768 --> 00:39:42,336 Make her feel more included. 999 00:39:42,945 --> 00:39:45,383 Amanda is an enigma to me. 1000 00:39:45,557 --> 00:39:48,603 It seems very quiet. 1001 00:39:49,909 --> 00:39:52,781 But what's going on in there? 1002 00:39:53,826 --> 00:39:57,699 I do want to know the story of your business. 1003 00:39:57,917 --> 00:40:00,572 That's exciting to me. You're a self-made. 1004 00:40:00,789 --> 00:40:03,052 You're a self-made entrepreneur. You're killing it. 1005 00:40:03,270 --> 00:40:04,619 That's----ing awesome. 1006 00:40:04,837 --> 00:40:06,273 But that could be a deflection 1007 00:40:06,447 --> 00:40:08,928 because she identifies herself as her business. 1008 00:40:10,146 --> 00:40:12,366 Do you understand? 'cause a lot of people do that. 1009 00:40:12,540 --> 00:40:13,845 When you have a successful business, 1010 00:40:13,846 --> 00:40:16,414 some people are trying to hide and they go, 1011 00:40:16,631 --> 00:40:19,460 the work is their identity. 1012 00:40:19,678 --> 00:40:22,594 All I can do is share my truth, right? 1013 00:40:22,811 --> 00:40:24,987 I thought it was vulnerable and authentic for me to say 1014 00:40:25,205 --> 00:40:28,774 that I have never left a dinner party crying before, 1015 00:40:28,991 --> 00:40:30,428 that I woke up through the night 1016 00:40:30,645 --> 00:40:32,081 with my heart beating out of my chest. 1017 00:40:32,299 --> 00:40:34,562 I was just sharing what was real for me. 1018 00:40:34,780 --> 00:40:38,131 And she brought up the most random, irrelevant. 1019 00:40:38,348 --> 00:40:39,785 It was like she's trying to dig up dirt, 1020 00:40:40,002 --> 00:40:41,308 but there was no dirt there. 1021 00:40:41,482 --> 00:40:43,658 - I'm not hiding the cult story. - Right. 1022 00:40:43,876 --> 00:40:45,660 I'm not hiding anything about my life. 1023 00:40:45,878 --> 00:40:48,271 At some point, I'm gonna have to hear more about this cult. 1024 00:40:48,446 --> 00:40:49,751 Anytime. 1025 00:40:49,969 --> 00:40:52,058 I'm actually a wealth of information about cults. 1026 00:40:52,275 --> 00:40:53,928 I mean, yeah, sure. 1027 00:40:53,929 --> 00:40:56,715 Looking at Amanda, she doesn't exactly scream cult member. 1028 00:40:56,932 --> 00:41:00,501 But by doing this deep dive on Amanda, 1029 00:41:00,719 --> 00:41:04,200 Dorit was trying to get information to embarrass her. 1030 00:41:04,418 --> 00:41:05,723 What is she gaining from this? 1031 00:41:05,724 --> 00:41:07,726 I don't really understand, except that she's 1032 00:41:07,943 --> 00:41:09,510 in a bad place right now 1033 00:41:09,728 --> 00:41:11,120 and not her best version of herself. 1034 00:41:11,338 --> 00:41:13,601 But to her, this isn't a bad version of herself. 1035 00:41:13,819 --> 00:41:15,473 This is open and honest. 1036 00:41:15,647 --> 00:41:17,779 I need to be able to be open and honest. 1037 00:41:17,997 --> 00:41:19,607 I need support from my friends right now. 1038 00:41:19,825 --> 00:41:22,088 I'm in a place where I don't want to hold it inside, 1039 00:41:22,305 --> 00:41:24,090 and then I have to go through this without support. 1040 00:41:24,307 --> 00:41:25,569 It's poisonous. 1041 00:41:25,570 --> 00:41:27,180 I came into this year and truly believed 1042 00:41:27,397 --> 00:41:29,487 that Kyle and I were gonna rebuild our friendship. 1043 00:41:29,704 --> 00:41:31,010 But her actions and her words 1044 00:41:31,227 --> 00:41:33,491 are telling me something totally different. 1045 00:41:33,708 --> 00:41:37,669 And until she starts showing up as an actual friend 1046 00:41:37,886 --> 00:41:41,063 who supports me... 1047 00:41:41,281 --> 00:41:44,327 I can't continue to play this game 1048 00:41:44,502 --> 00:41:47,243 of fake----ing friend. 1049 00:41:47,461 --> 00:41:50,029 I have protected Kyle for years. 1050 00:41:50,246 --> 00:41:54,424 I have protected Kyle, at all costs. 1051 00:41:54,599 --> 00:41:59,081 Even when I felt the most betrayed, the most hurt, 1052 00:41:59,299 --> 00:42:01,475 where her and I had no friendship whatsoever, 1053 00:42:01,649 --> 00:42:03,128 I still protected her. 1054 00:42:03,129 --> 00:42:05,392 I don't think you think she wants the best for you. 1055 00:42:05,566 --> 00:42:06,872 You just don't trust her. 1056 00:42:07,089 --> 00:42:09,352 You just don't. Like you just don't trust her. 1057 00:42:13,139 --> 00:42:14,401 Next on 1058 00:42:14,575 --> 00:42:16,316 the Real housewives of Beverly Hills. 1059 00:42:16,534 --> 00:42:18,012 With regards to the kids, 1060 00:42:18,013 --> 00:42:20,363 I would like for PK and I not to be on opposite sides. 1061 00:42:20,538 --> 00:42:21,842 I'm hearing different stories. 1062 00:42:21,843 --> 00:42:24,063 I was going to invite Dorit to the Hamptons. 1063 00:42:24,280 --> 00:42:25,368 I'm a little annoyed with her. 1064 00:42:25,543 --> 00:42:26,979 You guys cannot fight all weekend. 1065 00:42:27,196 --> 00:42:28,807 I talked to my sweetheart today. 1066 00:42:29,024 --> 00:42:30,678 Let's talk about the sweetheart, Oh, my God! 1067 00:42:30,896 --> 00:42:34,508 Why do I like dating John? He's just not shakable. 1068 00:42:34,682 --> 00:42:36,902 I really believe in life that intention matters. 1069 00:42:37,119 --> 00:42:38,512 You can't be such a wimp! 1070 00:42:38,686 --> 00:42:40,906 You're in my home. Don't call me a wimp. 1071 00:42:41,123 --> 00:42:42,908 [tense music]