[Kody] Previously on Sister Wives...
So Janelle's coming into town and we're going to Idaho
to see my brothers.
I'm sitting here because my finances are all so
mush-mashed right now with everybody's.
I really feel strongly that women should all be empowered
in plural marriage
with financial choices, with claim on their husband's estates.
That would level the playing field like... [exhales]
You guys haven't seen your dad for a while, right?
Nope.
-Have you heard from him? -Nope, nope.
Kody's relationship with his older children,
a lot of them were really, really good.
Christine left, and all that changed.
And you know what, Robyn?
Have him, because we don't care anymore.
I think every kid needs a dad, always.
[Meri] He actually said to me, "I have no desire,
Meri, to have a relationship with you."
He said, "Don't you understand, Meri?
This is never going to happen."
He said, I just have so much criticism.
I don't want to be open and vocal about it.
Let's just keep this between us.
This is my story, too.
[dramatic music playing]
And I have the right to tell my story.
[opening theme music playing]
[music playing]
All right, it is October.
There's been a lot of stuff going on.
So April was mine and Kody's 32nd anniversary.
And our anniversaries...
...have been interesting for the past few years. [chuckles]
Our very first anniversary in Flagstaff, he called me.
He's like, "Hey, let's go out on a drive."
Let's go to the Grand Canyon. We went to dinner afterwards.
Even though we had not been living together
for quite a few years, he said things to me
on that date that
completely led me to believe that he was...
wanting to start a relationship with me again.
He literally said, "Sheers to a new beginning."
So this year for our anniversary, number 32,
while we were out to dinner, I was just like,
I'm staying around.
I'm, you know, I see value in the family
and my commitment and in our relationship.
And...
He's like, "Meri, that's not happening."
Like, that's never gonna happen.
We're not ever going to have a relationship again.
We're not going to be a married couple ever.
So for the past six months, since he had that
conversation with me,
I've had to really take a lot of time to figure out
what I need.
And the fact that there really is...
No commitment or covenant. He's already broken it.
I really feel like I was emotionally abandoned
by him many, many years ago.
Well before the catfishing.
It's really no secret that Meri and Kody have had problems
for a very, very, very long time.
Above all, Meri is very loyal, and she's very much a person
of her word, and she feels like she gave a commitment.
But I wonder,
At what point, if it's not very healthy for her?
So then, about a month ago, I saw where he actually said,
"No, I don't consider myself married to Meri anymore."
Usually, our church would say you're divorced.
-You have to go ask for a divorce. -Yeah, yeah.
You have to get paperwork. You have to get approval.
You have to prove that the marriage is broken.
[Kody] I don't really consider myself married to Meri.
If she wanted to move on and marry another,
she wouldn't get in an argument with me.
[Meri] That was pretty insulting and pretty vulgar,
for him to just be open to that.
I think it's disgusting how Kody's been dragging Meri
along for years.
And I think it's equally as disgusting that Robyn's like,
"Stay with the family, stay with the family."
Let that girl go.
[Meri] Okay, what do I do next?
Like, do I have a conversation with Robyn and just say,
"Hey, Kody and I have talked
and this is not going anywhere?"
Because she's gonna care.
She's probably the only person who's gonna care.
Kody and I are gonna need to have some conversations.
And then, like, really, do I even bother
staying in Flagstaff at this point?
[upbeat music playing]
So we've been in Burley, Idaho, visiting Christine's brothers.
-Good morning. -[Janelle] Hey, this is beautiful.
How you guys doing?
[Janelle] Today we decided we were going to go on a hike at
the City of Rocks National Preserve.
It's supposedly this really cool area
with a lot of rocks and good hiking.
[Christine] Steve is from my bio mom, and then Levi is from my other mom.
We also have Jacey, Levi's wife.
Jacey's mom Kerina's coming, and one of their sons
doesn't have school today. And we're just going to go hang out
and go for a little hike.
-Janelle, we need a picture here. -I know, wow.
A couple years ago, I left Kody.
Janelle's separated from Kody right now.
But we are sister wives, and we're just going to keep on
being sister wives and really good friends for the rest of our lives
and keep raising our kids together
and just represent the plural part of our family.
It's interesting that Christine and Janelle
have a newfound relationship, because I think it was
more antagonistic before.
I wish it wasn't so, but it seems to me that
they are united in a common enemy
against me and Robyn, because they've got
nothing good to say about us.
[Christine] Just so you guys know, in Janelle's mind,
she's naming all of these plants.
She's like, that's blah, blah, blah.
-That's blah, blah, blah. -She is.
-You are, aren't you? -[Janelle] Oh, yeah.
When Christine and I started, you know, getting to know each other,
I got to know her brothers a little bit.
I've known them since they were teenagers.
You know, prior to Christine and I breaking up,
I would have called them my friends.
So my brothers and I haven't really talked about
my divorce at all with Kody.
So I know they have a lot of questions.
I don't know when it's going to happen,
you know, on the hike or later today.
I'm not sure.
But I know that they've got some things they want to talk to me about.
So you just went back to school.
Do you do a lot of it online or do you go in person?
It's actually all online.
This is Levi's mother-in-law, Kerina.
And I had no idea she was going back to school.
I think it's great.
So Janelle did, too, when the kids were...
Well, when my kids were little, though.
No, when your kids were little,
you, like, you went back to school.
It was amazing. It was super cool.
-Your kids were so... -I was desperate.
Your kids were proud of you.
When Gabe was a baby, I decided that I needed
to complete my college degree.
So back then, online universities were just becoming a thing.
I would work full-time.
Kody was only there, like, every third day or whatever.
And I had all these kids, so I'd put them to bed
and I'd work at night.
I was 33 when I graduated.
Now I think about it, I'm like, oh my word,
-I don't know how I did that. -I don't know how you did it either.
It's a lot of work with not having to deal with kids, too.
Yeah.
I admire Janelle for going back to school with kids.
It was a lot of work.
I mean, I helped her out.
I babysat the kids for her and helped her when I could.
It's amazing still.
When I was younger, oh my gosh,
our group was teaching that the world was going to end.
-So don't get your college education. -Yeah.
-Yeah... -All women need to do is get married.
The world's going to end.
There were different classes and church meetings
we went to where some of the people would teach
that the world was going to end.
And I remember talking to my dad about it, and he was like,
"Oh, Chris, that's not true. That's crazy.
You got to go to college." I'm like, "Oh, all right."
So I went to college.
-Yeah, any time anything happened -Yes.
-in the world at all, like any sort of crisis, -Yes. Yes.
it was like, the world is ending right now.
[Steve] But it's funny, because there's this paradox, too,
where they want to be super prepared.
They want to be, you know, we give you food storage.
You have to know, I grew up, no, look,
I grew up in the mainstream LDS church.
That was a big deal.
So that was the same thing in LDS church, too?
Food storage, yeah.
But hey, during COVID, who had toilet paper?
-[all laughing] -This girl.
Our church was always encouraging us to have food storage.
And I'm not talking about small amounts.
I'm talking about like, yeah, like enough for a very long time
for a large family kind of a thing.
[Kody] So when we buy meat, we buy it in bulk,
and we buy a whole cow, and they send it to the butcher,
and they package it, and we bring it here frozen,
and then we stuff it into our freezers.
-600 pounds of meat. -That's a lot of meat.
Yeah, we got a little bit of food storage.
When Christine left, we were storing it all in Christine's garage.
When she left, she didn't want any of it,
so we got our food storage put away.
It's in storage, but it's costing us money
every month to store it. It's taking up space
that I don't feel like I can spare.
I see the wisdom in it, because you just never know
what's gonna happen, but it's not really something
that I've completely embraced.
That was something that Janelle and Christine always did,
and I just left it up to them.
You guys can check out, like, from right here.
You guys can see clear back over there.
[Janelle] Wow!
We could do a family reunion here, because Christine and I
have talked about doing a reunion with our kids.
Like, all the kids, to get them all in the same space again,
I think that would be a feat.
You know, it just, for some reason,
feels like there's this huge gulf between Robyn's children
and the rest of the children.
And I hear from my children and Christine's children,
whenever I'm with them, that they miss Robyn's children.
They miss Dayton. My boys especially really do miss Dayton.
You know, I don't know. Like, it's become so estranged
and so bitter, and there's things
being said now, and I just don't know
if it'll ever happen.
I am willing to fake being in love with Meri.
I don't want to, but if you're going to insist.
[voice breaking] I wanted to sit on a porch with my sister wives.
[sobs] I don't understand.
[dramatic music playing]
[Kody] Me, Meri, and Robyn are going to sit down
and talk about the property.
Whose property is what? You know, just reaffirming
sort of the division and stuff like that.
You know, after Kody and I talked on our anniversaries
about six months ago, we haven't seen each other much.
I think that he basically said what he needed to say.
Every time I'm out here on the property, it makes me ache,
ache, ache, ache to just get out here.
Well, Meri, since you want to build on the property,
we should go walk it.
You're skipping a conversation.
There's quite a few conversations
-that are being skipped here. -[laughing]
One, the property has to be paid off.
Two, the property has to be divided.
After Christine left, I guess she signed over
her property to Kody and Robyn.
And I don't know what's happening with that.
I haven't been involved in the decision-making process of it.
So when Christine got her house,
when she left, she said, well, I'll trade that
with you for my share in Coyote Pass.
So here's the deal.
-We're still doing five lots, okay? -[Meri] Okay.
Christine's just out.
-And who gets the other one? -So-- Me.
Lot one is the lot that I kind of always figured
would sort of be the family lot.
And Christine left.
She's gone.
So I'll own lot number three, which was going to be her lot.
Because of things that have gone on in the past with
the family, I'm not going to give the family lot to any wife.
Okay, so you get four. Robyn gets four.
-So you guys get eight together. -No.
-It's two acre lots. -[Meri] Yeah.
-Two acre lots. -[Meri] Yeah, so.
And then four acre lots.
Right, so if you're getting two and two, that's four.
It seems like he's already made the decision,
and I don't think that's fair.
Because regardless of the fact that he and I haven't had
a relationship for, you know, eight or 10 years
or however long it's been, I'm still part of the family,
and I still financially put into it.
And so I deserve to have some of the property
and not just what he decides I'm worthy of.
This is just weird to me.
You two get eight together, four and four.
Janelle gets four, and I get two.
You know, I have said to Kody several times, well,
I'm not really quite sure how come
we're not dividing this equally.
You know what I mean? "Well, he's like, well,
you're going to still get your four acres."
And I'm like, "Okay, but there's 14 acres."
Like, I think it's time that we have a real appraisal
and decide what the value is and what's fair
for all four of us.
Meri has one child, and I have 18 children.
And I wanted to keep the lot with the pond
to be for the whole family.
Because the whole family kind of understands
that Meri doesn't want to really, you know, this is from living with her.
She doesn't really want to share resources.
The other thing is that you never know if Kody and I
are gonna stay together.
-I mean... -You never know.
It's gonna happen.
[Meri] Another 22 years down the road.
[Robyn] That was a bad joke, Kody.
Sorry. Sorry.
What do you think of a comeback?
[Robyn] No, I'm just saying, like, here's the thing.
-No, this is... -10 years in, 12 years in,
I wouldn't have thought either.
That was a bad joke. Sorry, sweetheart.
I'm sorry. I apologize.
We have no idea what the future holds.
I'm not saying that Kody and I are gonna really split up,
but, I mean, it's just like, I deserve my fourth two,
is what my point is, not to be counted with Kody.
I actually get tired of that, to constantly
always be counted with Kody,
and, like, everybody always thinks that if Kody has it,
Robyn has it. Kody says it, Robyn says it.
Kody thinks it and feels it, Robyn thinks and feels it.
That is not true.
No, my point is that my lot
will eventually be passed down
to my children.
Well, that's for you. Right.
-I get it. -His lots will be more about
the more of the children.
That's how I see it. Is that how you see it?
-Not really, but... -Really?
No.
How do you see it?
-I see... -No, no, no, no.
You don't answer right now because you're in a headspace
-that's not cool. -Yeah, I know.
-You're in a bad place right now. No. -Oh, I know, I just--
I don't see... I'm not making any plans.
[Robyn] Well, that's how I see it.
That's how I see it and you just need to wait
until you've got your headspace clear and clean
and calm before you say anything else.
There's just... There's way more
to the picture that... Why discuss?
It's all speculation at this point.
It's constantly changing.
And we are constantly changing.
And who's to say that I don't just get fed up with
all of this myself and just go,
"I want to move out of Flagstaff."
I don't think I will, but anybody, any one of us
could do that, just like Christine did.
What would you think would be different?
What were you imagining would be different?
No, I just wasn't really imagining anything.
I just knew that there was now two more acres.
And so does that mean, like, I get them
because Robyn and Janelle each have four?
-I'm not thinking that. -Okay. [laughs]
I understand.
Oh, I understand what he's saying.
[chuckles]
It's just the same thing that's always... been.
I only have one child.
And now it's, but I'm not really a wife.
You know what I mean?
And so it's just this, you're less than.
And that's not true.
I'm just as important as anybody else.
So yeah, I understand.
Also, is now a good time to drop a bomb?
What's the bomb?
[Robyn sighs]
My heart just started pounding hard.
[dramatic music playing]
[upbeat music playing]
We have a barbecue at Levi's house now.
This is the last thing we're gonna do with him.
And, oh, my gosh, it's just been a fun couple of days.
That's how I would throw.
We're playing Ultimate Frisbee.
Now, what I want to do is lay it up right over the top,
and you're just gonna be right behind it
like a backboard and dunk it down.
-Okay. -That's three points.
It'll be me and Chris against Matthew and Janelle.
Oh, no, no, I promise.
-He doesn't want to be on my team. -We'll help each other.
-Doesn't matter. -You're gonna be just fine.
Between Meri and Robyn and Janelle,
I am definitely the most competitive.
That is why I left first, is because I wanted to win. [laughs]
-[Levi] Yeah! That's how you do it. -Nice.
Nice!
Oh.
[Janelle] I have thrown a frisbee, like, four times in my life.
Like, it would just go wherever it wanted to.
Oh, gosh! Can I please do it again?
Please, please, please, please.
Think if we split Janelle and I, we'd split the difference,
we might actually make it super close
to one of the goals.
Okay, I have got to get this, damn it.
Okay.
I was asking for divine intervention.
Oh, see, that was the wind.
But I did not get it.
-Oh, that's game. Nice hit. -I hit it.
-That's two points, right? -Yeah.
-See, I told you, but I won it for you. -Oh, my gosh.
Yeah, thank goodness for Matt, because it wasn't me who won this game.
It was really him.
[upbeat music playing]
I was really glad that we came up here,
'cause Christine has always told me stories about her family.
But this was a really good chance to get to know them.
And they're awesome.
[Levi] I have so many more questions we'll have to discuss.
You said in the last few years you kind of had your moment
realizing that maybe you did need to move away.
-What happened in the last few years? -Um...
No, we're direct people.
We're very, very, very direct.
Levi was raised by the same parents I was,
and I think we both just have a tendency to go in for the conversation.
-Well, Kody and I had... -[Steve] We're gonna hit you with
the hard questions, sweetie. I'm sorry.
Well, this is kind of life, Steve.
So he just said that, um, he wasn't attracted to me,
and there was no real chemistry,
and it wasn't gonna be, and I wasn't nice enough
to my sister wives.
Christine and I both know that that's a code word
for, you weren't nice to Robyn.
-You were nice to me. -I was nice to you.
[laughs]
I used to hear all these crazy stories, like, Kody
really believed that Christine was being so mean.
And I don't think Christine really was.
I mean, like, he's basically accused me that my boys,
especially, have been so mean to this one person
who's given everything to this family.
I think that's a pretty one-sided view of this situation.
And then it came out that he never was really attracted to me
-or anything like that. -I don't believe that.
Look, she and I have discussed this, but it feels like such
a public venue to be talking about
this in front of all of us.
So I'm just feeling a little awkward. [laughs]
But before all of that, anyway, he told me
he wanted me to get his name off of the house.
He wanted to just finance a house with Robyn
and he didn't want to be part of my house on paperwork.
So that kind of was like, it was hard.
That hurt so bad because we were on a house together.
Finally, we had something in our name
that was combined and we'd never really had that before,
and I thought it was super, super special.
Me refinancing the house and giving it to Christine
had nothing to do with us breaking up.
Our breakup wasn't even on the horizon.
I never even saw it coming.
I'd paid every payment on the house anyway.
It's not like he ever did anything.
But it was one of those final steps that was
so hard, so hard.
Um...
But it made it easily financially in the end.
You know, Kody and I talked about what to do with the property
and my house before I left.
So I was like, why don't I keep all of the money
from the proceeds of the sale of my house,
and then I'll turn the property back over to the family.
So financial-wise, it was very easy for me to walk away.
I mean, I believe that's the biggest reason why
Janelle is staying with Kody, is because
she has nothing in her name.
And the property, Kody's name is on every piece of property.
I don't know if Robyn's is on every piece,
but Robyn's name was also on my piece of property.
So I'm stuck here with really nothing that's free and clear
in my name. I'm jointly titled on these pieces
with other members of the family.
We all have the same problem that Janelle has,
is that our assets are all combined.
From the day that I asked him to not stay there anymore,
I took my life back, and I got it back.
And I became stronger that day.
This conversation just isn't for my brothers.
It's for Janelle, too.
I'm not saying that Janelle has to follow the same path.
She has a way different situation than mine.
But she needs to know it is okay on the other side.
I don't know, like, life is too, life is short.
Yeah.
You know, and I mean, I raised, you know, we were raised in
a culture where divorce or marriage is forever, right?
So that's, it's been a harder thing to like reconcile,
but like, I think, I mean, we're 50.
That's, we still have a long time.
Because I still...
have my faith.
Like, I'm still spiritually married to Kody.
Like, I don't know how to get a divorce that way.
So I'm still technically married to him,
but I don't want to live with him.
I don't want to get back together with him.
Some of the kids have wondered if I really have left their dad
because I'm not out dating or, you know, moving on.
And it's just because I don't really know how
to reconcile my faith with where I am now in my life.
So I'm not in any hurry.
Just going to wait and see how it works out.
This is the agreement you required of me
in order to get married.
Our sacred covenant.
In so many ways, this moment is just about what we each want.
And those aren't the same things.
[upbeat music playing]
I wasn't even planning on talking about this,
but I guess here we are. Um...
I was up at the bed and breakfast this past weekend,
and...
it needs me.
I don't know if it's because mom is gone,
but there's an empty feeling, and I'm feeling very,
very drawn to being there.
What does that mean, Meri?
So it means, and it's all coupled with everything else
that's been going on and the statements
that Kody has made to me this year,
that I probably won't be renewing my lease here.
I'm not saying anything about this property
because my intention has always been to build here.
And then just, it's like a temporary sort of situation.
I don't know.
Okay.
[sighs]
[sniffles]
Meri is saying that she needs to move.
Despite the fact that I just feel like my world
is crumbling down,
I can't...
fight it,
because it's not fair to Meri.
[scoffs]
What I really want to do is yell.
What I really want to do is scream.
What I really wanna do is just say,
"No, please don't do this."
I'm not gonna apologize for what I know in my heart
is what I need to do.
If it's gonna hurt Robyn's feelings,
if Kody's gonna be jumping for joy,
whatever the emotion that somebody else
has about it is irrelevant.
Do you even want to look at the lot, Meri?
Or is it just off your radar temporarily?
It's not off my radar.
It's not off my radar at all. It's just so different.
How do you mean?
Like, just so that I understand.
Things that you've said to me and about me this year.
-It changes things. -You're making about what I said.
Why can't we get on the page where we're making about
where we are instead about what I say?
So a couple of days ago, Kody and I had had
this discussion about where our marriage was
and that it really was not going to move forward.
But the thing is, every conversation that
he and I have had about it has been private.
It's just been between me and him
and he actually has said that he did not want it to be public.
And I don't think that's fair, because I think
it's important that it's public.
And I think it's important that Robyn hears it.
No, I feel like Kody and I are in a good place.
He was over the other day. We had a good conversation.
But I feel like he's not as in a good of a place.
And I don't know if it's me or if it's something else going on.
It's blame.
I'm not meaning to blame you, Kody.
Then just don't.
Her and I, a day or two ago, just had a discussion.
And it was kind of one of these things, are we going
to work this out, is what Meri's kind of always asking.
I'm like, Meri, romance for you and I
is not in this picture.
Felt like we had decided that we're just going to have to go on
being friends because we're not going to be in a marriage.
That's what I thought we had literally agreed to.
Kody, I loved the conversation when you stopped by my house
-the other day and we talked for like an hour. -Okay.
Like, it was a good conversation.
Thank you.
-And that's all I wanted to be, Meri. -So that's--
-It's just safe and easy. -[Robyn] Stay on that vein.
Okay, well, I want to be.
And not lump people into those things.
I didn't feel like I was lumping.
What did I say that made you feel like I was blaming you?
Just you you brought up things I've said
and things that I've done.
-Right. She's saying-- -That feels like blame.
-She's saying-- -I said...
-Let me-- Can I, can I... -Yeah, yeah, go ahead.
Sorry. I was trying to help. I'll shut up.
I understand. Thank you.
I am just defensive a little bit for because of
what's gone on with Janelle and with Christine
and with the kids.
I'm more defensive actually just because of
my relationship with Meri.
'Cause I've been managing it carefully,
very carefully, for seven years.
Listen, you break up, you have a divorce,
you both whip out your victim cards.
And I don't want that to happen here.
I'm trying to be as honest as I possibly can without being...
A jackass.
[laughs] Thank you for not being a jackass.
I appreciate that.
Well, Robyn, how do you feel right now? [laughs]
[Kody] Well, you know, maybe it's fair that Robyn's here,
and she's been your advocate for seven years.
Robyn was always, you have no business,
you have no right to leave her.
She's always advised me that I seek healing in
this relationship, and she's still doing it.
In a way against my wishes.
It's like, stop.
I have to determine if this is right for me or not.
I know you're a part of this.
And I know you have a covenant inside of this
that includes them.
But we have to be in a place where I can love her
the way she wants to be loved,
or she is going to move on anyway.
I think she's been my advocate for longer than that.
According to our religion, sister wives are supposed
to advocate for each other.
I have always advocated for Kody's relationships
with his wives.
And I feel like it's very important in order
to live plural marriage successfully.
You want something that we can't have together.
And we can always have something else.
But not that.
[sniffles]
[sighs]
I can see where they're going with this.
And they're both really calm.
And that's scaring me.
[exhales]
And I just don't know how I'm supposed to sit here
and watch them decide.
If this is what they're gonna do, I just...
I don't know if I can sit here with them.
[sobs]
[soft music playing]
[music playing]
I sit here feeling like it's ridiculous to stay
in a duty-bound marriage.
And I don't think it's fair to either of us.
In so many ways, this moment is just about what
we each want, and those aren't the same things.
The hardest thing is accepting that it's not going to go back
to a place that works for what you're looking for.
I don't like that he's putting all this on me.
And he's also not owning that he just doesn't have the interest.
He said it to me in private, but he's still not
saying it here.
Doesn't mean I'm not mad at you for...
[chuckles softly]
...not giving me what we promised each other.
I walked away because I just couldn't handle
the conversation and the direction it was going.
Maybe if I'm there, I can stop him
from finalizing it.
And maybe if I'm there, then I can sort of say, well,
let's not make any decisions today.
You didn't have to be sorry you left.
It's... Really painful, I know.
And I want to be supportive, so.
I don't know, I feel like we just had a breakup conversation.
I'm glad we've gone this long so that we can be friends
in the departure.
[Kody] I do know--
[laughing]
What else am I supposed to do with it, Robyn?
You've been doing a certain thing for a long time.
-I know I have. -Okay.
I'm not going to force somebody to be with me
who doesn't want to be with me.
I'm not going to make somebody act
how they don't want to act.
Yeah, I get that.
-I do. -And that's not fair.
[Kody] Oh, the act is easy.
The act is easy.
The act is obvious.
-Is it really that obvious? -Yes.
The act is easy? What's the act?
What are you saying?
Just performing my duty as a husband.
And I am not going to be a duty.
And it wasn't an act, it was performance.
It was performance.
It was doing what I was supposed to.
I'm sorry to call it an act.
Nobody wants to be that.
And I've experienced it and it's not fun.
So one of the reasons why I fell in love with him...
is because he loved Meri and he loved his wives.
It's not an act.
I know he's bitter now, I know he's struggling.
So he's going into these weird, dark places,
but it just...
I'm so tired of him...
[sighs] talking like this.
I'm not deciding that this is over.
This is me saying, Meri, what you want...
-Is never gonna happen. -Doesn't work.
Christine just said, I'm gone. I'm done.
And she might not have been wrong, but I was upset
because there was no negotiation.
It was just all one-sided.
I'm not trying to do that, Meri.
I'm trying to be fair.
I am willing to fake being in love with Meri,
doing my duties as a husband, sort of putting up with things
that frustrate me so deeply that I struggle
to be around her.
I...
If I need to,
for the sake of whatever,
I don't know, I can fake through this.
I don't want to, but if you're gonna insist, then we will.
And she's like, "I don't want that."
Why is he saying that he's willing to keep acting
when he clearly hasn't been for eight or ten years?
And also, I wouldn't want him to do that.
I've wanted to...
heal our relationship and even create a new relationship,
but I've never insisted on it.
I know that you don't feel
or consider yourself married to me.
[laughs]
Kody and I disagree on this, but I don't think that he has.
This is the agreement you required of me
in order to get married.
This agreement that I gave you,
our sacred covenant,
was if I'm ever not in love
with you, I won't just sit there
and be in a pathetic place with you.
You made me promise you that.
That doesn't mean the marriage is over.
Listen, it's not gonna change what our relationship,
ours, ours, ours, has been for years.
-Nothing's gonna change. -Do you promise?
[Kody] Hmm.
-My intention-- -[Robyn] I was...
...hanging on with you.
And I think now you need to let go.
It's not fair to either of us.
[sighs]
-I know. -It's not fair for me to be alone
like I have been for years.
-And it's not fair for him... -I know. I know.
-I know. -...to feel like he has to do a duty.
[Robyn sobs]
This isn't what I want.
[Meri] It's not what I want either, Robyn.
It's not what I want.
[Kody] It's not what I wanted either.
[exhales]
Robyn came into our family specifically
because she intended to live plural marriage.
This appears to be the end of our plural marriage.
[music playing]
[Meri] I don't think that mine and Robyn's relationship
will be too much different than what it's been.
And also, I need to figure out how to be friends with
my ex-husband's wife.
[Kody] This is goodbye.
It was a negotiation that was long overdue.
I mean, it's been maybe a wasted seven years for Meri.
I have no idea.
But we've agreed now.
And I hope she finds peace.
'Cause I will.
[music playing]
[Robyn] I always wanted to live plural marriage.
I will just continue to spend time on my knees,
looking for peace and answers.
'Cause there really is no other choice for me.
[sniffles]
I'm looking at that mountain and I'm thinking about
when we came here.
[all screaming]
Oh, my God.
[all screaming]
-[all laughing] -[whooping]
[whooping]
-[all whooping] -[girl] Mom, it's not--
And we chose, all of us chose, we were so in love with
this property and being together out here.
[exhales]
I wanted to sit on a porch
with my sister wives
here on this property
with our kids and our grandkids.
And Kody running around like he does,
and just looking at that mountain together.
I mean, a family, I don't understand.
[sighs]
[sniffles]
[Kody reading]
I was thinking to myself, I don't ever want to talk to Janelle again.
You have six kids.
That's worth fighting for.
Were you in love with Meri when you married her?
I told her I loved her, and I chose to love her.
He would ask me to do things and ask me to be a certain way,
but it's not good enough.
I don't know how to let this go.
And this isn't me just being dramatic.
Thank you, Christine.
Meri did ask her to be there.
Because Robyn says that she can speak Kody, and I'm like, bull [bleep]
Sorry, I'm gonna be nice. No, I'm not.
Well, Kody can speak for himself.
He's a grown-ass man.
They're trash-talking me because I'm guilty of not loving them.
-Have you met David? -Yes, I think he's great.
Hey, David, come on out.
-You're gonna meet the love of my life. -Hi, David.