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[narrator] Previously on
Sister Wives...
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[Christine] Oh, my God!
[laughs]
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I've never felt like this
before.
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Never been this much
in love either.
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I never loved Kody
as much as I loved David.
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-We're getting married!
-[all cheering]
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Been like, what?
Two days? Three days maybe?
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I want to start dating guys
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who kind of believe
the same thing
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and have the same, like,
life goal as me.
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They're interested in dating,
you know,
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a guy that is,
has similar beliefs.
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But I'm like,
"Hey, that's not--
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shouldn't be the reason
why you're at a church."
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They don't have
any churches around here
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that will blame
plural marriage.
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I don't have
the same call to it.
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I even hear it now,
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like, you probably would do
one more chance.
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There's a point
where they don't deserve
the chances.
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[Meri] It was a good time
with him.
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It was.
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But now we're done.
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[sighs] Cheers to that.
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[theme music playing]
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It's nice to go on a date
and we're going on one.
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I like to connect
with this woman.
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-Okay. You guys all good?
-[Aurora] Yeah.
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You're good? All right.
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Okay. So, you're always good.
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When you have kids at home,
especially little kids,
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um, it's not always easy
to go out on a date.
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The girls are very busy
with college and,
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you know, it's like,
you got homework,
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you got bedtime,
you got dinner.
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-Bye.
-[Kody] All right, bye.
I love you.
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-Thank you.
-[Robyn] Bye, guys.
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-[Kody] See ya.
-[Robyn] Bye,
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So, when I take her out,
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I hope she doesn't
feel pressure.
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But I'm like, "Oh,
I've finally got her
all to myself.
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There's so much
I wanna talk about."
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Let me get your chair, Robyn.
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[Robyn] Okay.
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Aurora and Breanna came to me
and asked me
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about, like,
trying to help them
find a church.
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They're just ready
for that step in their lives.
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So, I need to
kinda talk to Kody and
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fill him out
to see what he thinks.
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We're gonna have
an engagement party.
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It's just another reason
to all get together
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and have our kids
really mingle with each other.
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I definitely did not have
an engagement party
when I married Kody.
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It's so weird.
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In a church that celebrates
plural marriage,
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they don't celebrate
the weddings of plural wives.
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-[Hunter] Well,
he wants my cup...
-Coochie choochie!
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[Hunter] ...but I'm gonna
trade him for it.
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Then maybe it's because
it's a whole society
in secrecy.
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So, the plural marriages
get swept under, you know...
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[whispers]
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-I didn't tell you
I was coming.
-[Aspyn] Oh, yeah? [laughs]
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-You look amazing, Mama.
-[Janelle] All right.
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Christine is having
so much fun,
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she's doing
all the things right.
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All the things associated
with getting married.
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It's gonna be
a really quick trip.
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I'm going home tomorrow
but I'm gonna be here.
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Janelle, I like your dress.
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-[Ysabel] You look incredible.
-That's awesome, hey.
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[Ysabel] Incredible.
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-Um, I'm trying to,
to branch out.
-I love it, it's so cute.
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Yeah, I didn't have
an engagement party
when I married Kody.
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It wasn't really a big deal.
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Like we,
it just wasn't something
we really did.
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Hey.
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Look at your pink dress.
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[Janelle] I did it. I wore it.
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[Christine] Oh, my God, hi.
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Janelle and Hunter are here.
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That they would come so far
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to just come
to an engagement party
means a lot.
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We have this, you know,
bit of a messed up family
right now.
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So, having things
that we do together
is really important.
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We'll make sure
you guys get food.
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The birria tacos
with the consomme
are where it's at.
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-Okay.
-And the street corn.
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Mom's now engaged.
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We're extremely happy for her.
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She's been engaged
for two seconds,
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she's been dating him
for 10 seconds,
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but we're all very happy
for her.
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-You look
so beautiful in white.
-[Christine] Thanks, sister.
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-Thank you.
I know 'cause I'm the bride.
-Oh, my.
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I've been noticing
Christine's wearing white
more and more.
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But it's tacos,
so I'm not sure how
that's gonna go.
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But you know,
she doesn't have to,
she can be careful.
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I bet--
Nobody's betting me yet.
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Five bucks,
she'll get something
on that dress.
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-All in, five...
-You wanna take that bet?
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[all laughing]
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[Christine]
Why are you betting
against me?
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He's rubbish.
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David just loves
to push buttons.
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Mykelti and David
are so similar.
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I'm basically marrying
my daughter.
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It's awesome.
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Oh, my gosh, I'm so excited.
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I'm not getting
the dipping sauce tonight,
sadly enough.
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I would spill all of my--
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But I brought
a white backup dress.
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Our kids have meshed
really well together.
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They're doing fantastic.
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Mykelti's always like,
"Why are you guys
breaking up into,
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to like different sections?
I don't like this."
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So, she makes sure
everybody gets together.
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And then his daughter Gray
does the same thing.
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David and my kids,
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that relationship is going
really, really well.
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My relationship
with David's kids
is going well.
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He has some amazing children.
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Amazing people.
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Oh, the tacos are so good
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and there's this dipping
consomme sauce.
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And I knew I shouldn't.
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I knew I shouldn't dip it,
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but it's so good
with the dipping sauce.
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Damn it! I did it, [bleep].
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And I dipped it,
and first bite,
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boom shakalaka.
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I'm that person
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even though I wear
very boring colors,
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I always have one of those
stain pens in my purse.
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I'm messy regardless
of what color.
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And so, I know
that I need one of those
all the time with me.
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With you?
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I think so. Hang on.
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-I've been trying to travel
with them.
-If she doesn't, Ysabel might.
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I have a beef broth
on my white dress.
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And David's not here
right now.
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So, I have an opportunity
to get rid of this spot
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before he comes back.
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And I'm like, "Janelle!"
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Before David comes,
he's betting against me.
Ass [bleep].
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-No. Now. No, no.
-[Mykelti] Dav-- David.
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Janelle, rush.
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I start scrubbing it
and Mykelti saw.
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And Mykelti looks over
and she's like, "David,"
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getting him
to come over faster.
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And I'm scrubbing it.
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-No.
-[Janelle] I got you.
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[Janelle laughs]
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I won myself 5 bucks.
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Thank you. Thank you.
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And he wasn't even casual
about it.
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He just basically
was excited to win $5.
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-[Janelle] Oh.
-[David laughs]
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[Janelle] It's not been used,
you might have to kind of...
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-I got 5 bucks.
-[Janelle] ...wake it up.
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I remember telling my brother.
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One time, we were watching
a ridiculous show
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where it was love
at first sight.
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And I just told him,
I said, "It's not like that.
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There's no such thing
as love like that."
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Love happens over time.
It can also be a spark.
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[clicks tongue]
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I mean, I knew I loved Kody,
and I was in love with Kody.
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But how I feel about David
is so astronomically deeper.
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[Hunter] Already?
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-Shut up.
-[Hunter laughs]
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-I had-- Didn't I tell you?
-[Hunter] Oh, I was--
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-Didn't I tell you? 5 bucks?
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That shrimp looks amazing.
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-[Christine] This was
the problem.
-Take the shrimp then.
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Well, I know,
I wanna take the shrimp.
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-That's the best part.
-[Christine] I'm already red.
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-I'm already dirty,
so might as well eat it now.
-Oh, whoa.
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Can I have a bite of it?
Can I try that?
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Thank you.
I'm just gonna come over
and eat all your guys' food.
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[David] No,
this family likes
to share food.
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-Yeah.
-I never share food
in my life
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-till I met you guys.
-[Hunter] Wait, really?
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David, I didn't take you
for a stingy guy,
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but I-- you know...
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-[all laughing]
-[Christine] Oh.
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I love it.
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Like, how can you never
share your food?
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There's so many good flavors
at the table.
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[David] Thank you.
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I got-- I gotta go over here.
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[laughs]
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Look. Did you see the cake?
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[Christine and David laugh]
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Crucial thing
that I've learned with David
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is he really wants
to be involved
with everything.
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I could ask Kody
after the fact.
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But with David, no,
he prefers to be in
on the plan.
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He just really cares
and he's really invested,
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and it's his wedding too.
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Are you gonna--
Are gonna eat that piece?
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-And David...
-Yeah, I'm gonna eat
David's face.
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[David] That's cool,
I like that.
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I'm watching Christine
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and she's having
her own adventure,
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the one she wanted,
it's awesome.
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You have to--
You have to practice.
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-What? [squeals]
-You have to practice
cake cutting.
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-Cutting into our faces?
-[Aspyn] Yes.
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-Well, you can cut the cake.
-[Christine] Yes.
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-[Aspyn] Okay, perfect.
-[Christine laughs]
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-They have to practice.
-Yeah, before the wedding.
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-Thank you, Aspyn.
-[Aspyn] Why can't they do it?
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This is beautiful.
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Okay.
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Wow, she just cut
our heads off.
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-[all laughing]
-[David] Oh. Oh, oh.
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So much work
went into this picture,
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and I just cut into it.
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-Oh, my.
-No, I'll eat--
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You eat mine, I'll eat yours.
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[Aspyn] Yeah. There you go.
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[laughs] You eat her mouth?
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You're eating my mouth?
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I'm also gonna eat your mouth.
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-[Mykelti] Nice.
-[Aspyn] Nice, there you go.
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Look how big her mouth is.
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-[Aspyn] How is it? How is it?
-[Christine] Mmm.
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-[all cheering]
-It's good.
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[Christine] It's delicious.
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-[Aspyn] Okay, good. Good.
-Well done.
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So, David and I
have only known each other
for, like, nine months.
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And so, there's so many things
that we don't really know
about each other
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and we're planning
a wedding together.
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If we're gonna--
It's like a crash course.
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It's a crash course
and getting to know somebody,
planning a wedding together.
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Nice to be on a date.
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So, I wanted to talk to you
about something.
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No, I think that
I probably did most
of my crying
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-in the decade
prior to divorce.
-Yeah. Yeah, yeah.
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-It's like, false hope,
false hope, false hope.
-The cheating.
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-I'm just kidding,
all the cheating.
-[all laugh]
242
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So, I am dragging,
243
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kicking and screaming
Jenn down to Las Vegas,
244
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and we are gonna go see
our good friend Brandi.
245
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-So, ready? Are you excited?
-I'm so excited.
246
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[Meri] Listen, you're gonna be
excited, homie.
247
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-You're gonna be happy
you're gonna smile about this.
-So excited. Yes.
248
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[Meri] Yay!
249
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-I'm so excited to go to...
-[Meri] So excited
to go to hell.
250
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Jenn doesn't like Vegas,
251
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because there's
a lot of people and it's hot.
252
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And I think it's hilarious
253
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because she lived there
for so many years of her life.
254
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Jenn and I met
while she and I were both
living in Las Vegas.
255
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[Jenn] Well,
look what I bought.
256
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[Meri laughs]
257
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Jenn does not like the heat.
258
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You know those eye masks
that you freeze
259
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and just use 'em
as chichi chillers?
260
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We should go break
into your old neighborhood.
261
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Oh, it's completely
breaking in.
262
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That's a gated community.
263
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-Well, we wouldn't be
the first person...
-I don't wanna see it.
264
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-...who's ever broken into
that community.
-Wait a second.
265
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Maybe it would be good
for me to see it.
266
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Like, it's closure.
267
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-[Meri] Hello.
-[Brandi laughing] Oh.
268
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[all laughing]
269
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-[Meri] Hi.
-Hi.
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[Meri] Oh.
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So good to see you.
272
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-You're hot.
-[Meri] Look at you,
so are you.
273
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-[Brandi] No, but you're warm.
-[Jenn] Hi.
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We're all hot.
275
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-Are you gonna sit with us?
-We went to a grocery store
on the way over here.
276
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-Sit right there.
-And I was telling Meri
277
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that we should go by
her old house.
278
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-[Brandi] Ooh.
-[Meri] Like, full circle.
279
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The last time
I was in Las Vegas,
it was really painful.
280
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But I'm thinking
hanging out with Brandi
and the three of us,
281
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I think will be really good
282
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to create some new memories
about Las Vegas,
283
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and I think that's what
I really need to do,
284
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'cause I do love Las Vegas.
285
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[Jenn] She really freaked out.
286
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There was one day...
[clears throat]
287
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that I referred to Kody
as her ex,
288
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and she-- and then she, like,
wasn't paying attention.
289
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She said something
about her ex,
290
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and she was like, "Whoa."
291
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That's when it hit you?
292
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-Yeah, I was like, "Oh.
-Did you cry?
293
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-It's an ex." No, I didn't.
-[Jenn] No.
294
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When I referred
to him as my ex,
it was really weird.
295
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It kinda hit me kind of hard.
296
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No, I think that
I probably did
297
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most of my crying
in the decade
298
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-prior to the actual divorce.
-Yeah. Yeah, yeah.
299
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There was
definitely a lot of tears
during those years.
300
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-It's like false hope,
false hope, false hope.
-The cheating.
301
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-I'm just kidding,
all the cheating.
-[all laughing]
302
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She was aware.
303
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No, like the fault like...
304
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'Cause there was, like,
times where he'd tell her,
305
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-"If you do these things...
-[Brandi] Yeah.
306
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...then we can work
on our relationship."
307
00:12:58,900 --> 00:13:04,967
Yeah, no, I, I remember many,
many misleading conversations.
308
00:13:04,967 --> 00:13:09,367
Kody basically had
a list for me to do
309
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before we would start working
on our relationship.
310
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So, I'm excited to be here.
Holy cow.
311
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-I know it's nice, right?
Being here.
-[Kody] Yes.
312
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Nice to be on a date.
313
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[Robyn laughs]
314
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All of our experience
with family who has moved on,
315
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that brings a lot of pain
into our lives,
316
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and we're just,
just removing that
from plate right now
317
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and connecting
with each other.
318
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So, I wanted to talk to you
about something
319
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when we don't have
two little children running
and interrupting us.
320
00:13:52,367 --> 00:13:55,967
Recently, the girls have been
sort of expressing--
321
00:13:55,967 --> 00:13:58,166
Aurora and Breanna
have been expressing
322
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an interest
in going to church.
323
00:14:00,600 --> 00:14:04,667
And, like, we don't have
a church to go to.
324
00:14:04,667 --> 00:14:09,667
The girls are really
just wanting to be able
to attend church,
325
00:14:09,667 --> 00:14:11,100
uh, kind of get a,
326
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a church community
that they can interact with
327
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and then just be able
to learn more
328
00:14:16,967 --> 00:14:20,000
and find their, uh,
their path,
329
00:14:20,000 --> 00:14:22,667
their religious
or spiritual path.
330
00:14:22,667 --> 00:14:24,300
But it's more than just
going to church.
331
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They're, they're sort of
in this place
332
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where they want to look
for a church to be a part of.
333
00:14:30,867 --> 00:14:37,100
-Mmm-hmm.
-They have asked me
to kind of help them,
334
00:14:37,100 --> 00:14:39,967
or facilitate
or sort of be a part
of the situation...
335
00:14:39,967 --> 00:14:43,467
-[Kody] Mmm-hmm.
-...and, like, go with them
to different churches.
336
00:14:43,467 --> 00:14:45,467
Me and you both or just you?
337
00:14:45,467 --> 00:14:47,367
I think Robyn's
the most comfortable person
with--
338
00:14:47,367 --> 00:14:49,467
for any of my children
to speak with.
339
00:14:49,467 --> 00:14:51,900
Like, listen,
I talk about religion
with my children all the time.
340
00:14:51,900 --> 00:14:53,367
We've talked about it
a little bit.
341
00:14:53,367 --> 00:14:54,767
But Robyn specifically,
342
00:14:54,767 --> 00:14:59,266
they're coming to her saying,
"We wanna do this,
what do you think?"
343
00:14:59,266 --> 00:15:00,166
[Robyn] I asked them both,
344
00:15:00,166 --> 00:15:03,567
"Are you interested
in our church?"
345
00:15:03,567 --> 00:15:07,367
And they kind of said,
Aurora said, "No."
346
00:15:07,367 --> 00:15:10,767
-And Breanna said,
"Probably not."
-[Kody] Mmm-hmm.
347
00:15:10,767 --> 00:15:16,066
Our church was literally
kind of an ex-communication
of people
348
00:15:16,066 --> 00:15:18,467
who used to be members
of the LDS Church
349
00:15:18,467 --> 00:15:20,266
or who had affiliation
with that.
350
00:15:20,266 --> 00:15:24,867
However, they, they,
they had this doctrine
of plural marriage
351
00:15:24,867 --> 00:15:27,567
where it is required
by commandment
352
00:15:27,567 --> 00:15:31,467
for any of those who want
to progress through eternity.
353
00:15:31,467 --> 00:15:32,500
I wouldn't really
have a problem
354
00:15:32,500 --> 00:15:34,166
with any of my kids
going into plural marriage,
355
00:15:34,166 --> 00:15:37,166
even though
I would be warning them
of some red flags.
356
00:15:37,166 --> 00:15:39,200
Going back
to our old religion, um,
357
00:15:39,200 --> 00:15:41,767
I don't think I'd be very fond
of them doing that.
358
00:15:41,767 --> 00:15:46,767
[Robyn] Also they are finding
that it's hard to,
359
00:15:46,767 --> 00:15:51,567
like, find guys to date
that have sort of similar
values as them.
360
00:15:51,567 --> 00:15:56,300
I have some, some,
uh, questions.
361
00:15:56,300 --> 00:15:57,600
I got mixed reactions to this.
362
00:15:57,600 --> 00:16:00,700
My first reaction that I know
is the right reaction
is great.
363
00:16:00,700 --> 00:16:02,200
I'm glad
they're gonna do this.
364
00:16:02,200 --> 00:16:06,333
But I have my own
almost phobias
365
00:16:07,700 --> 00:16:10,700
of religion or churches.
366
00:16:10,700 --> 00:16:13,166
So, you have some, like,
apprehension, then?
367
00:16:13,166 --> 00:16:14,600
-Yeah. Okay, here's the thing.
-[Robyn] So, what is--
368
00:16:14,600 --> 00:16:17,166
So, you're worried
about what exactly?
369
00:16:17,166 --> 00:16:21,700
I, uh,
I'm just-- I don't know.
I got some concerns.
370
00:16:21,700 --> 00:16:25,000
I'm really glad that
they wanna go on this journey
that they're going to go on.
371
00:16:25,000 --> 00:16:28,767
And I have all my own
anxieties and fears
and struggles here
372
00:16:28,767 --> 00:16:33,000
that I have to keep
from poisoning in any way
their experience.
373
00:16:33,000 --> 00:16:35,867
As long as I can steer 'em
clear of, uh,
374
00:16:35,867 --> 00:16:38,900
of any culty-like churches,
I'll be okay.
375
00:16:42,066 --> 00:16:44,400
After, like, it was done,
376
00:16:45,200 --> 00:16:46,867
like, it was done, done, done,
377
00:16:46,867 --> 00:16:50,800
and I said, "Kody,
you have no interest
378
00:16:50,800 --> 00:16:53,200
in, like,
having a relationship
with me."
379
00:16:53,200 --> 00:16:55,567
It's like, "No, you said
you didn't wanna be married
to me.
380
00:16:55,567 --> 00:16:56,767
So, why do--
381
00:16:56,767 --> 00:16:59,834
Why should I
stick around for another
10 years, dumbass?"
382
00:17:09,200 --> 00:17:10,533
-Did I tell you?
-[Brandi] What?
383
00:17:12,266 --> 00:17:14,667
After, like, it was done...
384
00:17:14,667 --> 00:17:18,667
Not long after
I had been up in Utah
385
00:17:18,667 --> 00:17:23,467
and actually had
that spiritual release
from the church leaders.
386
00:17:23,467 --> 00:17:26,166
...like within the week,
he goes,
387
00:17:26,166 --> 00:17:27,800
"Why'd you do it so fast?"
388
00:17:27,800 --> 00:17:29,667
-[chuckles softly]
-[Meri laughs]
389
00:17:29,667 --> 00:17:31,000
-He said that?
-[Meri] Yeah.
390
00:17:31,000 --> 00:17:32,567
He's like, "I don't understand
why you did it so fast.
391
00:17:32,567 --> 00:17:34,667
Do you have a guy
on the side waiting?"
392
00:17:34,667 --> 00:17:37,266
What was the context?
Like, I mean, how...
393
00:17:37,266 --> 00:17:38,867
-He didn't understand why I--
-[Brandi] That doesn't--
394
00:17:38,867 --> 00:17:41,000
That question does not
even make sense.
395
00:17:41,000 --> 00:17:44,166
I said, "Really?
You think that
that was really fast?
396
00:17:44,166 --> 00:17:46,266
And no, how insulting."
397
00:17:46,266 --> 00:17:51,567
I said, "Kody,
you have no interest in
398
00:17:51,567 --> 00:17:54,066
me-- like, having
a relationship with me,
399
00:17:54,066 --> 00:17:56,166
-having a husband-wife
relationship with me."
-Yeah.
400
00:17:56,166 --> 00:17:57,400
What else
are we supposed to do?
401
00:17:57,400 --> 00:17:59,667
-This is
the only other option.
-[Brandi] Yeah.
402
00:17:59,667 --> 00:18:02,700
It's like, "No, you said
you didn't wanna be married
to me. So, why do--
403
00:18:02,700 --> 00:18:06,667
Why should I
stick around for another
10 years, dumbass?"
404
00:18:06,667 --> 00:18:07,967
I texted him after.
405
00:18:07,967 --> 00:18:09,700
-Like, when I was on my way
home from Utah.
-[Brandi] Mmm-hmm?
406
00:18:09,700 --> 00:18:10,934
-I texted him.
-[Brandi] Mmm-hmm?
407
00:18:11,567 --> 00:18:15,000
And he called me
within 20 minutes.
408
00:18:15,000 --> 00:18:16,767
-Oh, my gosh.
-[Meri] It was a good text.
409
00:18:16,767 --> 00:18:18,667
-I read it to you.
-Yeah.
410
00:18:18,667 --> 00:18:19,500
-It was a good text.
-It was.
411
00:18:19,500 --> 00:18:21,667
-It was like...
-Do you wanna hear it?
412
00:18:21,667 --> 00:18:23,100
-Yeah, I do.
-Okay.
413
00:18:23,100 --> 00:18:26,767
I don't know why
I go out of my way
to be nice
414
00:18:26,767 --> 00:18:31,400
when he's so flippantly
and comfortably talk [bleep]
about me.
415
00:18:31,400 --> 00:18:33,567
I said this on my way back.
416
00:18:33,567 --> 00:18:35,100
"Hi, Kody,
just wanted to follow up
417
00:18:35,100 --> 00:18:37,600
from the text I sent
a couple weeks ago.
418
00:18:37,600 --> 00:18:39,700
Just wanted to let you know
that I had a conversation
419
00:18:39,700 --> 00:18:41,800
with the leadership
in Utah today,
420
00:18:41,800 --> 00:18:44,900
and the official release
was granted."
421
00:18:44,900 --> 00:18:47,900
When Kody and I got married,
422
00:18:47,900 --> 00:18:49,300
it was like one ceremony
423
00:18:49,300 --> 00:18:54,266
that covered the legal
and the spiritual marriage.
424
00:18:54,266 --> 00:18:57,266
And so,
now doing the legal divorce,
425
00:18:57,266 --> 00:19:00,867
it, like, it was really
a mind game on me
426
00:19:00,867 --> 00:19:03,467
because I felt
like emotionally,
427
00:19:03,467 --> 00:19:06,667
that I was signing away
the marriage.
428
00:19:06,667 --> 00:19:07,667
I know you want a big hug.
429
00:19:07,667 --> 00:19:09,367
[Meri] No, I'm sorry.
430
00:19:09,367 --> 00:19:10,967
I'm just holding on to you.
431
00:19:10,967 --> 00:19:13,934
"Co-petitioners
are incompatible in marriage."
432
00:19:15,567 --> 00:19:18,700
That's why
it was so crazy for me,
433
00:19:18,700 --> 00:19:19,900
because it was like...
434
00:19:19,900 --> 00:19:22,000
But I know
it's only the legal part.
435
00:19:22,000 --> 00:19:24,567
The spiritual part
is still intact.
436
00:19:24,567 --> 00:19:26,667
"I'm brokenhearted
that our life came to this.
437
00:19:26,667 --> 00:19:28,166
I will always love
and respect you.
438
00:19:28,166 --> 00:19:30,000
Thank you
for many years of joy.
439
00:19:30,000 --> 00:19:32,667
I hope you truly
will have peace now,
440
00:19:32,667 --> 00:19:35,767
and I release you
from any responsibility
or worry about me.
441
00:19:35,767 --> 00:19:37,300
I got this."
442
00:19:37,300 --> 00:19:38,867
You're like, "Thank you
for your service.
443
00:19:38,867 --> 00:19:42,233
-We're do--"
-[all laughing]
444
00:19:43,567 --> 00:19:45,700
[Brandi] I'm so sorry. Whoops.
445
00:19:46,667 --> 00:19:51,000
-And... And a lot of service.
-[all laughing]
446
00:19:51,000 --> 00:19:54,166
It is what it is with Brandi
and she's just gonna say.
447
00:19:54,166 --> 00:19:57,300
I love that about her, I do.
[laughs]
448
00:20:03,800 --> 00:20:06,066
Religion comes
with a lot of pressure,
449
00:20:06,066 --> 00:20:08,266
and I've been spending a lot
of time losing my religion,
450
00:20:08,266 --> 00:20:10,100
while I've been finding
my faith.
451
00:20:10,100 --> 00:20:11,567
When I met Kody,
452
00:20:11,567 --> 00:20:14,300
he was very much
involved in our church,
453
00:20:14,300 --> 00:20:16,767
and from my understanding,
he was happy in our church.
454
00:20:16,767 --> 00:20:20,266
Um, I mean,
I wouldn't have probably
considered marrying him
455
00:20:20,266 --> 00:20:22,200
if I didn't think he was.
456
00:20:22,200 --> 00:20:25,266
Us going public,
I think, really...
457
00:20:25,266 --> 00:20:27,400
uh, the way that our church
reacted to that
458
00:20:27,400 --> 00:20:29,066
really kind of threw him off,
459
00:20:29,066 --> 00:20:31,567
and it made him feel
just like, "Wait,
what the heck?"
460
00:20:31,567 --> 00:20:36,166
Our church leaders
were mad when we went public.
461
00:20:36,166 --> 00:20:38,567
They didn't get it.
Family didn't get it.
Friends didn't get it.
462
00:20:38,567 --> 00:20:39,700
No one got it. And we're like,
463
00:20:39,700 --> 00:20:42,667
"We're done living in fear.
We're done living like...
464
00:20:42,667 --> 00:20:44,266
having other people
think the worst of us
465
00:20:44,266 --> 00:20:45,667
just because
we're a polygamist family.
466
00:20:45,667 --> 00:20:47,767
They think all these things
about us that aren't true."
467
00:20:47,767 --> 00:20:50,133
We thought everybody
would be on board.
468
00:20:51,867 --> 00:20:53,433
Yeah, they weren't. [chuckles]
469
00:20:53,900 --> 00:20:55,967
Some of them were like,
470
00:20:55,967 --> 00:20:58,867
"Gonna be the demise
of your family," [chuckles]
471
00:20:58,867 --> 00:21:01,300
which is kind of funny.
Like...
472
00:21:01,300 --> 00:21:03,166
It's not funny
at all, actually.
473
00:21:03,166 --> 00:21:06,500
I found that my faith
started to contradict
474
00:21:06,500 --> 00:21:09,300
the religionists attitudes,
sort of, the...
475
00:21:09,300 --> 00:21:11,300
the... the gatekeepers.
476
00:21:11,300 --> 00:21:13,166
My church was trying
to put me in, uh,
477
00:21:13,166 --> 00:21:15,567
kind of a teaching
leadership position.
478
00:21:15,567 --> 00:21:17,567
They saw my hair
as rebellious.
479
00:21:17,567 --> 00:21:19,567
"So, Kody, you need
to cut your hair."
480
00:21:19,567 --> 00:21:22,967
Don't tell me to do things
that aren't required
by the law or by God.
481
00:21:22,967 --> 00:21:24,400
I don't wanna 'em getting
into something
482
00:21:24,400 --> 00:21:26,567
that turns out
to be kind of culty.
483
00:21:26,567 --> 00:21:29,867
So you can lose your children
to a bad marriage.
484
00:21:29,867 --> 00:21:31,367
You can lose your children
485
00:21:31,367 --> 00:21:33,900
to just huge disagreements
between the two of you.
486
00:21:33,900 --> 00:21:36,567
You can lose
your children in a divorce.
487
00:21:36,567 --> 00:21:39,467
Or you can lose your children
to a cult. [chuckles softly]
488
00:21:39,467 --> 00:21:42,000
-I'm safe for them, right?
-[Robyn] Absolutely.
489
00:21:42,000 --> 00:21:43,567
Okay, the reason
I'm asking that
490
00:21:43,567 --> 00:21:45,567
is 'cause we're not
having those discussions.
491
00:21:45,567 --> 00:21:47,300
I don't know for sure,
492
00:21:47,900 --> 00:21:50,300
But I think, um,
493
00:21:50,300 --> 00:21:52,700
religion is a really
intense...
494
00:21:53,300 --> 00:21:55,000
-topic for you.
-[Kody laughing]
495
00:21:55,000 --> 00:21:56,300
You get a little intense.
496
00:21:56,300 --> 00:21:57,634
Okay!
497
00:21:58,000 --> 00:21:59,467
He's intimidating.
498
00:21:59,467 --> 00:22:02,166
I don't think
he realizes it, though.
499
00:22:02,166 --> 00:22:04,000
[chuckling] I don't know.
500
00:22:04,000 --> 00:22:06,667
I did talk to my dad
about religion beforehand.
501
00:22:06,667 --> 00:22:09,400
Just asking questions
generally and stuff like that.
502
00:22:09,400 --> 00:22:10,567
Between my mom and my dad,
503
00:22:10,567 --> 00:22:11,800
they have different strengths
504
00:22:11,800 --> 00:22:14,266
and the way that
they process things
and communicate things.
505
00:22:14,266 --> 00:22:16,166
He's gonna give,
like, an unfiltered response,
506
00:22:16,166 --> 00:22:18,000
which I really appreciate
about him.
507
00:22:18,000 --> 00:22:19,500
I could be wrong...
508
00:22:19,500 --> 00:22:21,166
that... if I had to guess...
509
00:22:21,166 --> 00:22:22,433
So they brought it up with you
510
00:22:22,433 --> 00:22:24,600
-so that I wouldn't go,
going off on...
-[Robyn] I don't know.
511
00:22:24,600 --> 00:22:26,500
Teeing off
on some lecture about.
512
00:22:26,500 --> 00:22:27,533
I don't know.
513
00:22:27,533 --> 00:22:31,467
You cannot just be conforming
to everybody else
514
00:22:31,467 --> 00:22:34,066
'cause then you're really
not developing real faith.
515
00:22:34,066 --> 00:22:35,667
Find some Buddhism,
find some...
516
00:22:35,667 --> 00:22:37,200
find some Jesus. Either way,
517
00:22:37,200 --> 00:22:40,100
I want them
to have experience...
518
00:22:40,100 --> 00:22:43,266
that helps love grow in them.
519
00:22:43,266 --> 00:22:46,300
-They need to go experience
this for themselves.
-[Kody] Right.
520
00:22:46,300 --> 00:22:48,767
The idea of trying to, like,
encourage them
521
00:22:48,767 --> 00:22:51,000
or pressure them
into to our church,
522
00:22:51,000 --> 00:22:54,200
I just didn't see that
as something that was
important or...
523
00:22:54,200 --> 00:22:56,367
When I saw parents doing that
with their kids,
524
00:22:56,367 --> 00:22:57,967
I was like, "Okay,
this is messed up."
525
00:22:57,967 --> 00:22:59,767
They need to find
their own way.
526
00:22:59,767 --> 00:23:03,066
And you would be
the type to go...
527
00:23:03,066 --> 00:23:05,000
-like--
-[Kody] I already know.
528
00:23:05,000 --> 00:23:06,700
When I'm holding
my scriptures on my lap,
529
00:23:06,700 --> 00:23:09,266
and that preacher
is gonna be saying something,
I'm gonna be in...
530
00:23:09,266 --> 00:23:11,000
-I'm going to be looking...
-[Robyn] And you're at--
531
00:23:11,000 --> 00:23:12,166
...for whether he's right
or if he's wrong...
532
00:23:12,166 --> 00:23:13,800
-in the scriptures.
-[Robyn] And everybody
in the room
533
00:23:13,800 --> 00:23:16,166
is going to know
whether or not you agree.
534
00:23:16,166 --> 00:23:19,600
When I was conflicted
in my religion, I loved it
535
00:23:19,600 --> 00:23:23,100
'cause it drove me to my knees
in prayer for understanding.
536
00:23:23,100 --> 00:23:24,900
And I don't know
where that got me.
537
00:23:24,900 --> 00:23:26,500
But you know
what it did get me,
538
00:23:26,500 --> 00:23:29,400
is a relationship
in my prayers with God.
539
00:23:29,400 --> 00:23:31,967
So if my children
come to me confused,
540
00:23:31,967 --> 00:23:34,500
about religion or the things
that are being taught,
541
00:23:34,500 --> 00:23:37,500
I believe, from my experience,
542
00:23:37,500 --> 00:23:39,600
I will be happy
that they're having
543
00:23:39,600 --> 00:23:41,867
any kind
of challenging experience
544
00:23:41,867 --> 00:23:43,233
'cause...
545
00:23:44,100 --> 00:23:46,166
they'll learn to talk to God,
546
00:23:46,166 --> 00:23:49,667
I think, I hope.
That's my prayer.
547
00:23:49,667 --> 00:23:52,667
Something I need to do
is figure out how to,
548
00:23:52,667 --> 00:23:55,400
sort of, ride
in the back seat
on this experience,
549
00:23:55,400 --> 00:23:57,266
-and let them
find their way, I think.
-[Robyn] Yeah.
550
00:23:57,266 --> 00:23:59,166
One of the things
I did tease 'em about,
551
00:23:59,166 --> 00:24:03,467
and I said, "I don't want you
to choose
552
00:24:03,467 --> 00:24:05,467
a church or a community
553
00:24:05,467 --> 00:24:07,667
based on good-looking guys."
554
00:24:07,667 --> 00:24:10,066
But it was just kind of like,
"I want you to...
555
00:24:10,066 --> 00:24:12,200
like, really take it seriously
based on..."
556
00:24:12,200 --> 00:24:14,767
Well, I'd be perfectly fine
with one of my daughters
557
00:24:14,767 --> 00:24:18,567
going to church
at The Church of Jesus Christ
of Latter-day Saints
558
00:24:18,567 --> 00:24:19,700
for a cute boy.
559
00:24:20,567 --> 00:24:22,100
I wouldn't.
560
00:24:22,100 --> 00:24:23,867
I don't want our children
to do it
561
00:24:23,867 --> 00:24:26,667
just based on a cute kid,
562
00:24:26,667 --> 00:24:27,700
a cute boy there.
563
00:24:27,700 --> 00:24:30,300
If you get a boy that's
very devout to his church,
564
00:24:30,300 --> 00:24:32,500
and she's just there for him,
565
00:24:32,500 --> 00:24:34,066
that's for the wrong reasons.
566
00:24:34,066 --> 00:24:36,000
They might find a community
567
00:24:36,000 --> 00:24:38,000
that gives them
a social outlet...
568
00:24:39,266 --> 00:24:41,900
people to actually
associate with, even date.
569
00:24:41,900 --> 00:24:43,900
All I am is a knight...
570
00:24:44,600 --> 00:24:45,467
with a sword.
571
00:24:45,467 --> 00:24:47,567
I mean, like, I'm here
to protect you,
572
00:24:47,567 --> 00:24:49,400
but because I played king
573
00:24:49,400 --> 00:24:51,266
with some of my
other daughters,
574
00:24:51,266 --> 00:24:54,066
I got... put aside.
575
00:24:54,066 --> 00:24:56,500
My close-mindedness
caused me a lot of...
576
00:24:57,300 --> 00:24:58,800
uh, heartache.
577
00:25:00,600 --> 00:25:03,166
I mean, I did love him.
578
00:25:03,166 --> 00:25:04,200
I do love him.
579
00:25:04,200 --> 00:25:06,233
I just... I just can't...
580
00:25:07,467 --> 00:25:11,066
I'm not, you know,
I just wasn't willing
to do that anymore.
581
00:25:11,066 --> 00:25:13,567
The reason why
I stayed so long was
582
00:25:13,567 --> 00:25:16,233
purely because of me
and my commitment.
583
00:25:17,000 --> 00:25:18,500
There's a lot of men
interested in Robyn,
584
00:25:18,500 --> 00:25:21,700
and they were, sort of,
trying to get around me
585
00:25:21,700 --> 00:25:22,767
and to her.
586
00:25:22,767 --> 00:25:25,900
I want to know that God
has been my wingman with you
587
00:25:25,900 --> 00:25:27,800
and that nobody
can take you away.
588
00:25:38,467 --> 00:25:41,000
Oh, what did he say
when he called you?
589
00:25:41,000 --> 00:25:43,200
He was kind of upset
590
00:25:43,200 --> 00:25:45,567
um, during that phone call.
591
00:25:45,567 --> 00:25:48,467
Like, he started getting
really defensive,
like, a few times.
592
00:25:48,467 --> 00:25:50,667
-And I said, "Kody,
I'm not gonna do this."
-[Brandi] Uh-huh.
593
00:25:50,667 --> 00:25:52,266
Like, "We're where we are.
594
00:25:52,266 --> 00:25:53,667
-It's done."
-[Brandi] Mmm-hmm.
595
00:25:53,667 --> 00:25:55,700
"There's no reason
to get defensive."
596
00:25:55,700 --> 00:25:58,200
I think that Kody
was expecting me...
597
00:25:58,867 --> 00:26:01,900
to be different
than what I was.
598
00:26:01,900 --> 00:26:05,567
He probably expected me
to be snarky,
599
00:26:05,567 --> 00:26:09,100
and mean or crying
or whatever.
600
00:26:09,100 --> 00:26:10,767
I've seen
the last couple of years.
601
00:26:10,767 --> 00:26:12,800
I've seen him,
602
00:26:12,800 --> 00:26:14,600
and a couple of exes
603
00:26:14,600 --> 00:26:18,467
not necessarily being
on their best behavior.
604
00:26:18,467 --> 00:26:21,266
All three of them,
I have watched them.
605
00:26:21,266 --> 00:26:22,600
And...
606
00:26:23,266 --> 00:26:25,000
I haven't been impressed.
607
00:26:25,000 --> 00:26:26,667
We can all do
a little bit better.
608
00:26:26,667 --> 00:26:27,967
I mean, you know,
609
00:26:27,967 --> 00:26:29,467
it'd be nice
if we didn't all know
610
00:26:29,467 --> 00:26:31,166
what we thought
about the other person.
611
00:26:31,166 --> 00:26:33,400
When you've got three wives
612
00:26:33,400 --> 00:26:35,266
that leave one guy,
613
00:26:35,266 --> 00:26:37,266
it is gonna be a mess.
614
00:26:37,266 --> 00:26:38,900
You know, during
the split with Kody,
615
00:26:38,900 --> 00:26:40,667
I tried to always be
616
00:26:40,667 --> 00:26:42,266
very practical, very logical,
617
00:26:42,266 --> 00:26:43,867
but definitely stand up
for myself.
618
00:26:43,867 --> 00:26:45,367
And I'm sorry
if some people thought that
619
00:26:45,367 --> 00:26:47,166
that was rude or wrong,
620
00:26:47,166 --> 00:26:48,400
but I'm just standing up
for myself.
621
00:26:48,400 --> 00:26:50,367
I'm not trying
to be vindictive.
622
00:26:50,367 --> 00:26:53,000
I'm just standing up
for myself and for my kids.
623
00:26:53,000 --> 00:26:55,000
I don't know why he cares.
He doesn't even...
624
00:26:55,000 --> 00:26:56,867
-[Meri] I don't either.
-...participate in that...
625
00:26:56,867 --> 00:26:58,967
-anyway.
-[Jenn] It was... it was
a control thing, I think.
626
00:26:58,967 --> 00:27:01,066
-Yeah. You're right.
-Like, he had no control...
627
00:27:01,066 --> 00:27:02,767
-Yeah.
-...over her finally
ending it.
628
00:27:02,767 --> 00:27:04,667
I really feel like that
was a big part of it.
629
00:27:04,667 --> 00:27:06,166
[Brandi] You're totally right.
I'm sure.
630
00:27:06,166 --> 00:27:08,266
There was a couple of times
in that conversation
631
00:27:08,266 --> 00:27:09,467
that I shut him down.
632
00:27:09,467 --> 00:27:11,767
I'm like, "I'm not gonna
listen to you talk to me
that way.
633
00:27:11,767 --> 00:27:14,000
I'm not talking
to you that way.
634
00:27:14,000 --> 00:27:15,767
And I don't deserve it back
from you."
635
00:27:15,767 --> 00:27:19,600
You were, like
Stockholm syndrome.
636
00:27:20,300 --> 00:27:21,767
-Mmm.
-[Brandi] You know?
637
00:27:21,767 --> 00:27:23,600
-Yeah.
-You were, like,
stuck with your...
638
00:27:24,600 --> 00:27:26,000
falling in love
with your captor
639
00:27:26,000 --> 00:27:27,266
that won't let you...
640
00:27:27,266 --> 00:27:29,467
-[all chuckling]
-...have a life.
641
00:27:29,467 --> 00:27:31,667
Brandi doesn't even know
who I am.
642
00:27:31,667 --> 00:27:33,200
I went to dinner
with her a couple times,
643
00:27:33,200 --> 00:27:35,000
helped her and her husband
move once.
644
00:27:35,000 --> 00:27:36,567
Do they know me?
645
00:27:36,567 --> 00:27:39,100
Meri doesn't need to
trash-talk me anymore.
646
00:27:39,100 --> 00:27:41,467
She's got her friends doing it
for her.
647
00:27:41,467 --> 00:27:43,100
Friends that don't know me.
648
00:27:43,500 --> 00:27:45,500
Brandi and her husband, Tim,
649
00:27:45,500 --> 00:27:47,867
and Kody and I used to go out
650
00:27:47,867 --> 00:27:50,200
on double dates together
quite often.
651
00:27:50,200 --> 00:27:53,100
Jenn's been around
since we lived in the rentals.
652
00:27:53,100 --> 00:27:55,000
That's when we met her.
653
00:27:55,000 --> 00:27:57,567
So the narrative
that they don't know him
654
00:27:57,567 --> 00:27:59,667
or he doesn't know them or,
655
00:27:59,667 --> 00:28:02,467
you know, like,
is really inaccurate.
656
00:28:02,467 --> 00:28:04,900
I mean, I did love him.
657
00:28:04,900 --> 00:28:05,867
I do love him.
658
00:28:05,867 --> 00:28:08,033
-[Brandi] Of course.
-I just... I just can't.
659
00:28:09,266 --> 00:28:10,367
I'm not...
660
00:28:10,367 --> 00:28:12,800
You know, I just wasn't
willing to do that anymore.
661
00:28:12,800 --> 00:28:15,266
It definitely wasn't
Stockholm syndrome.
662
00:28:15,266 --> 00:28:17,567
I mean, it's kind of funny
to laugh about it.
663
00:28:17,567 --> 00:28:20,200
Like, I committed that...
664
00:28:20,867 --> 00:28:22,166
you know, we were gonna
work it out,
665
00:28:22,166 --> 00:28:23,700
like, good times,
bad times, whatever.
666
00:28:23,700 --> 00:28:24,700
We were gonna make it work.
667
00:28:24,700 --> 00:28:26,300
The reason why
I stayed so long
668
00:28:26,300 --> 00:28:28,367
was purely because of me
669
00:28:28,367 --> 00:28:29,900
and my commitment.
670
00:28:36,767 --> 00:28:39,667
So, do we need to do any
cleanup on our relationship,
671
00:28:39,667 --> 00:28:42,266
-or are we just talking
religion for our girls?
-[Robyn] Well...
672
00:28:42,266 --> 00:28:44,467
Well, I wanted to make sure
that, like...
673
00:28:44,467 --> 00:28:47,767
that you're cool with...
674
00:28:47,767 --> 00:28:50,467
Like, I want to go to church.
675
00:28:50,467 --> 00:28:53,000
-[Kody] Yeah.
-I just need it. I mean...
676
00:28:53,000 --> 00:28:55,266
We don't have
our church nearby,
677
00:28:55,266 --> 00:28:57,667
but I don't think
678
00:28:57,667 --> 00:29:00,600
that that's even something
you would ever...
[chuckles softly]
679
00:29:00,600 --> 00:29:03,900
-Okay, so...
-For me,
that's not a safe place.
680
00:29:03,900 --> 00:29:07,300
Most religion says you've got
to stick to this doctrine,
681
00:29:07,300 --> 00:29:10,400
and if you don't,
then you're an apostate,
682
00:29:10,400 --> 00:29:13,000
you're evil, you're...
God can't accept you.
683
00:29:13,000 --> 00:29:14,467
Tell me that I have
to cut my hair.
684
00:29:14,467 --> 00:29:16,567
I mean, give me a break.
685
00:29:16,567 --> 00:29:18,600
I mean, you're all disciples
of Brigham Young,
686
00:29:18,600 --> 00:29:20,400
and he had long hair
and a long beard.
687
00:29:20,400 --> 00:29:21,800
Please!
688
00:29:21,800 --> 00:29:24,767
I know that Kody has, uh...
689
00:29:24,767 --> 00:29:28,100
not very positive, um,
690
00:29:28,100 --> 00:29:31,000
attitudes and opinions
about our church.
691
00:29:31,000 --> 00:29:33,500
So I was just kind of like,
"Yeah, I know you don't..."
692
00:29:33,500 --> 00:29:36,000
[chuckles] "I know. I know!"
693
00:29:36,000 --> 00:29:38,967
[chuckling] I've heard a lot.
694
00:29:38,967 --> 00:29:41,900
Are you okay with them
going to church, then?
695
00:29:41,900 --> 00:29:43,166
Yeah. Absolutely.
696
00:29:43,166 --> 00:29:44,767
[Robyn] And you're okay
with me going to church?
697
00:29:44,767 --> 00:29:46,567
Like, you're not gonna have
some sort of problem
with them?
698
00:29:46,567 --> 00:29:48,066
-Yeah, as long as you guys
aren't...
-[Robyn] I made a choice--
699
00:29:48,066 --> 00:29:49,867
...blocking me out.
Like, I wanna come,
700
00:29:49,867 --> 00:29:50,900
sooner or later.
701
00:29:50,900 --> 00:29:51,834
Mmm... okay.
702
00:29:51,834 --> 00:29:53,667
-That's why I wasn't sure...
-[Kody] Yeah.
703
00:29:53,667 --> 00:29:56,567
...if you were interested
in that or not.
704
00:29:56,567 --> 00:29:58,000
Well, you don't wanna go
too long without me
705
00:29:58,000 --> 00:30:01,066
'cause I don't want some guy
thinking you're a single mom.
706
00:30:01,066 --> 00:30:02,567
There's a lot of men
interested in Robyn,
707
00:30:02,567 --> 00:30:04,467
and they were, sort of, trying
708
00:30:04,467 --> 00:30:06,867
to get around me and to her.
709
00:30:06,867 --> 00:30:09,467
-Yeah, 'cause the first time
I saw you in our church...
-Yeah.
710
00:30:09,467 --> 00:30:10,967
Okay. Yeah.
711
00:30:10,967 --> 00:30:12,467
-...we made that gaze...
-[chuckles]
712
00:30:12,467 --> 00:30:13,900
-[Kody] ...that connection.
-No.
713
00:30:13,900 --> 00:30:15,567
I made that... [chuckles]
714
00:30:15,567 --> 00:30:16,500
[Kody] Oh, no, no, no, no.
715
00:30:16,500 --> 00:30:18,467
I looked longer.
By the time you looked away,
716
00:30:18,467 --> 00:30:20,800
I actually said,
"That was
probably inappropriate.
717
00:30:20,800 --> 00:30:22,700
She is most likely married."
718
00:30:22,700 --> 00:30:24,000
First time I saw Robyn,
719
00:30:24,000 --> 00:30:26,433
the first time I ever
laid eyes on her,
720
00:30:26,600 --> 00:30:28,000
uh, I was...
721
00:30:29,100 --> 00:30:30,967
leaning over the back
of a chair,
722
00:30:30,967 --> 00:30:33,900
talking to a...
a neighbor behind me,
723
00:30:33,900 --> 00:30:35,767
and we locked eyes.
724
00:30:35,767 --> 00:30:37,300
And I...
725
00:30:39,066 --> 00:30:40,533
couldn't break away.
726
00:30:41,667 --> 00:30:43,100
And what happened to you,
727
00:30:43,100 --> 00:30:44,867
uh, at that time?
I just want to know.
728
00:30:44,867 --> 00:30:46,467
[chuckling]
You want to hear it.
729
00:30:46,467 --> 00:30:47,533
You like hearing this,
don't you?
730
00:30:47,533 --> 00:30:50,667
I want to know that God
has been my wingman with you
731
00:30:50,667 --> 00:30:52,467
and that nobody
can take you away.
732
00:30:52,467 --> 00:30:54,000
I was sitting there
with my cousin.
733
00:30:54,000 --> 00:30:55,767
I was looking around.
734
00:30:55,767 --> 00:30:56,967
I looked at you for a while,
735
00:30:56,967 --> 00:30:59,500
and the thing
that caught my eye,
as far as seeing you,
736
00:30:59,500 --> 00:31:02,467
was your laugh lines
'cause I love laugh lines.
737
00:31:02,467 --> 00:31:05,367
And then, um, you looked at me
738
00:31:05,367 --> 00:31:07,800
and a bolt of lightning
shot through my body.
739
00:31:07,800 --> 00:31:10,000
-[chuckling]
-[mouthing]
740
00:31:11,100 --> 00:31:14,100
I saw Kody for the first time
at church,
741
00:31:14,100 --> 00:31:16,100
and then I got
my lightning bolt.
742
00:31:16,100 --> 00:31:18,900
And a month later, randomly,
743
00:31:18,900 --> 00:31:22,567
I met Kody and Meri
on my cousin's lawn.
744
00:31:22,567 --> 00:31:23,600
I don't want some guy
doing that,
745
00:31:23,600 --> 00:31:24,800
looking at you and going...
746
00:31:25,400 --> 00:31:26,834
holding your gaze,
747
00:31:27,467 --> 00:31:29,100
Like, yeah,
I'm mate guarding now.
748
00:31:29,100 --> 00:31:30,266
I am protecting...
749
00:31:30,266 --> 00:31:32,066
-...the pride.
-I just have to say,
750
00:31:32,066 --> 00:31:33,266
I'm married.
751
00:31:33,266 --> 00:31:34,300
Let me see that rock.
752
00:31:34,300 --> 00:31:36,000
-[Robyn chuckling]
-I wanna see it.
753
00:31:36,000 --> 00:31:37,266
I wanna see it.
754
00:31:37,266 --> 00:31:40,367
[Robyn] I'll wear it.
You don't need to worry.
755
00:31:40,367 --> 00:31:42,300
I just wanted to make sure
that bling was big enough.
756
00:31:42,300 --> 00:31:44,367
-The guys would stay away
from you.
-[Robyn chuckling]
757
00:31:44,367 --> 00:31:46,100
[chuckling] Oh, my gosh.
758
00:31:46,100 --> 00:31:48,066
Even though I've got
some anxieties about it,
759
00:31:48,066 --> 00:31:50,266
I feel like I'm pretty
open-minded.
760
00:31:50,266 --> 00:31:51,600
We don't know
what's gonna happen.
761
00:31:51,600 --> 00:31:53,500
It's part of the adventure
of life.
762
00:31:53,500 --> 00:31:55,333
I trust God enough to...
763
00:31:55,867 --> 00:31:57,133
sort of...
764
00:31:58,100 --> 00:31:59,600
lead us where we should go.
765
00:32:02,767 --> 00:32:05,100
Okay, I can't. I just...
You're gonna have to just
tell her
766
00:32:05,100 --> 00:32:07,300
-because I'm gonna throw
my damn cup through the wall.
-[chuckles]
767
00:32:07,300 --> 00:32:09,367
Like... I get so frustrated...
768
00:32:09,367 --> 00:32:11,200
-with like...
-About, like, our
breakup conversation?
769
00:32:11,200 --> 00:32:13,767
[Jenn] About...
770
00:32:13,767 --> 00:32:16,700
-about what he said in front
of Nathan and Rebecca.
-Flagstaff property?
771
00:32:26,100 --> 00:32:28,867
I don't know. I used to, um,
defend him...
772
00:32:28,867 --> 00:32:30,266
-when people would say...
-[Meri] Mmm.
773
00:32:30,266 --> 00:32:32,166
..."Oh, he's such a..."
774
00:32:32,166 --> 00:32:34,166
I'm like, "No, he's nice."
775
00:32:34,166 --> 00:32:35,400
[Meri] "He's cool."
776
00:32:35,700 --> 00:32:37,133
He helped...
777
00:32:37,567 --> 00:32:38,934
move me up here.
778
00:32:38,934 --> 00:32:42,300
-It was on what would have
been our 33rd anniversary.
-That's right.
779
00:32:42,300 --> 00:32:43,867
Like, it was cool. It was fun.
780
00:32:43,867 --> 00:32:45,600
I mean, it was a good day.
781
00:32:45,600 --> 00:32:46,667
It was so emotional.
782
00:32:46,667 --> 00:32:49,767
He was, like,
full-on breakdown.
783
00:32:49,767 --> 00:32:53,567
Like, it was very...
and it felt very strong.
784
00:32:53,567 --> 00:32:55,333
We have permission to move on.
785
00:33:04,367 --> 00:33:06,000
[sniffles]
786
00:33:06,000 --> 00:33:08,100
At the time, I was like,
"How is this possible?"
787
00:33:08,100 --> 00:33:10,500
Because of all the hard things
that he said.
788
00:33:10,500 --> 00:33:12,767
[Meri] That's how
I feel about it.
I still feel about it.
789
00:33:12,767 --> 00:33:15,400
I still question like...
he walked out the door,
790
00:33:15,400 --> 00:33:17,266
and I looked at her
and I'm like,
791
00:33:17,266 --> 00:33:19,467
"Did I do
the wrong thing here?"
792
00:33:19,467 --> 00:33:21,767
You were so much more
forgiving and patient
793
00:33:21,767 --> 00:33:23,467
than I think
most people could see.
794
00:33:23,467 --> 00:33:25,900
-And I kept telling myself,
and telling her...
-[Brandi] Mmm-hmm.
795
00:33:25,900 --> 00:33:27,000
...I would say,
"As a monogamist,
796
00:33:27,000 --> 00:33:29,000
I feel like you should
tell him to get the hell out,
797
00:33:29,000 --> 00:33:31,266
and of your life completely.
798
00:33:31,266 --> 00:33:33,100
But I understand that
that's not where you're at.
799
00:33:33,100 --> 00:33:34,767
I've always thought this,
800
00:33:34,767 --> 00:33:37,800
and you always...
801
00:33:37,800 --> 00:33:40,166
said, "No, that's not true.
He's not..."
802
00:33:40,166 --> 00:33:43,867
I always saw him
favor her, Robyn.
803
00:33:43,867 --> 00:33:47,467
I don't believe
that Robyn entered the family
804
00:33:47,467 --> 00:33:50,166
with the intention of kicking
805
00:33:50,166 --> 00:33:52,100
me and Janelle
and Christine out.
806
00:33:52,100 --> 00:33:54,266
I think that she...
807
00:33:54,266 --> 00:33:57,166
saw what we had
at that time
808
00:33:57,166 --> 00:33:58,467
and wanted that.
809
00:33:58,467 --> 00:33:59,867
I really believe that.
810
00:33:59,867 --> 00:34:01,634
I don't understand...
811
00:34:02,367 --> 00:34:05,667
how... COVID became...
812
00:34:05,667 --> 00:34:08,100
he has to stay at her house
all the time.
813
00:34:08,100 --> 00:34:11,100
His reasoning with it
814
00:34:11,100 --> 00:34:13,133
was that he wanted to keep
815
00:34:13,600 --> 00:34:14,767
his family safe.
816
00:34:14,767 --> 00:34:17,266
He wanted to keep
his little kids safe.
817
00:34:17,266 --> 00:34:19,767
I just...
None of this makes sense.
I'm sorry. It's...
818
00:34:19,767 --> 00:34:22,567
It's... It was favoritism,
and that's it.
819
00:34:22,567 --> 00:34:25,000
So for two years,
she did every single thing
820
00:34:25,000 --> 00:34:26,467
-he asked her to do.
-Mmm-hmm.
821
00:34:26,467 --> 00:34:28,100
"Well, we can't favor you."
822
00:34:28,100 --> 00:34:29,767
Okay, but she's
following the protocols.
823
00:34:29,767 --> 00:34:30,967
So what does it matter?
824
00:34:30,967 --> 00:34:32,967
That is gaslighting.
825
00:34:32,967 --> 00:34:35,166
-There you go.
That was gaslighting.
-That's gaslighting.
826
00:34:35,166 --> 00:34:38,433
With Robyn, I feel like
I've put in a lot,
827
00:34:38,867 --> 00:34:42,000
and, especially over COVID,
828
00:34:42,000 --> 00:34:44,500
it's like, I was the one
who was always calling.
829
00:34:44,500 --> 00:34:46,567
It wasn't being reciprocated
and I...
830
00:34:46,567 --> 00:34:49,767
I really believe
that a relationship
has to be reciprocal.
831
00:34:49,767 --> 00:34:51,300
And it wasn't reciprocal.
832
00:34:51,300 --> 00:34:54,300
A perfect example
is at your mom's funeral.
833
00:34:56,800 --> 00:34:58,600
[sighs] Yeah, that was hard.
834
00:34:58,600 --> 00:35:01,700
The fact that Robyn didn't
come to my mom's funeral
835
00:35:01,700 --> 00:35:04,100
and support me in that way
at that time
836
00:35:04,100 --> 00:35:06,066
was very hurtful to me.
837
00:35:06,066 --> 00:35:08,233
You know, they were following
the COVID rules.
838
00:35:08,567 --> 00:35:09,767
And, you know,
839
00:35:09,767 --> 00:35:12,000
I felt really bad about that.
840
00:35:12,000 --> 00:35:14,367
And I kind of understood.
841
00:35:14,367 --> 00:35:16,967
But also, Kody ended up
going, too, you know...
842
00:35:16,967 --> 00:35:19,667
So I just... The whole thing
was really confusing to me.
843
00:35:19,667 --> 00:35:22,100
That... that she wouldn't go
because Janelle went.
844
00:35:22,100 --> 00:35:25,567
Kody went because we couldn't
both quarantine away
845
00:35:25,567 --> 00:35:26,867
from the kids for that long.
846
00:35:26,867 --> 00:35:27,900
I didn't have...
847
00:35:27,900 --> 00:35:29,500
You know, I didn't have
that option.
848
00:35:29,500 --> 00:35:32,367
During this time,
I was missing
all kinds of things,
849
00:35:32,367 --> 00:35:33,700
Avalon's birth,
850
00:35:33,700 --> 00:35:36,000
my dad was super sick
and in the hospital.
851
00:35:36,000 --> 00:35:37,400
I wish I could have.
852
00:35:37,400 --> 00:35:39,166
I love Bonnie.
853
00:35:39,166 --> 00:35:41,667
And I wanted to be supportive
to Meri,
854
00:35:41,667 --> 00:35:43,300
and I would have been there
in a heartbeat
855
00:35:43,300 --> 00:35:45,100
if it hadn't have been
the situation
856
00:35:45,100 --> 00:35:47,166
that we were dealing with
with COVID.
857
00:35:47,166 --> 00:35:49,467
It's always been,
"I'm there for you.
858
00:35:49,467 --> 00:35:51,266
I'm always gonna be there
for you."
859
00:35:51,266 --> 00:35:53,667
And then there's been
multiple times
860
00:35:53,667 --> 00:35:55,567
where she hasn't been there,
861
00:35:55,567 --> 00:35:57,100
but Meri's then
been there for her.
862
00:35:57,100 --> 00:35:59,467
I quit calling her
and texting her
863
00:35:59,467 --> 00:36:02,266
because I...
I was the only one doing it.
864
00:36:02,266 --> 00:36:04,767
It wasn't meant to be mean.
865
00:36:04,767 --> 00:36:06,367
It was just...
866
00:36:06,367 --> 00:36:07,867
I need this to be reciprocal
867
00:36:07,867 --> 00:36:10,900
if it's going to be
a relationship and it wasn't.
868
00:36:10,900 --> 00:36:12,467
But I don't know.
I don't know what happened.
869
00:36:12,467 --> 00:36:14,266
I don't know what happened
behind the scenes.
870
00:36:14,266 --> 00:36:15,433
I don't either.
871
00:36:15,433 --> 00:36:17,900
-I don't either.
-I think everybody
contributed, honestly.
872
00:36:17,900 --> 00:36:19,667
Like, knowing
every single thing I know.
873
00:36:19,667 --> 00:36:21,567
I think Robyn did. I think
there was lots of things...
874
00:36:21,567 --> 00:36:23,400
Like, for the downfall
of the family.?
875
00:36:23,400 --> 00:36:24,634
-[Jenn] Yeah.
-Right. I think...
876
00:36:24,634 --> 00:36:26,400
-it was every one of us.
-But also the downfall
of your own...
877
00:36:26,400 --> 00:36:28,367
like, your own marriage.
878
00:36:28,367 --> 00:36:29,867
You have done
a really good job
879
00:36:29,867 --> 00:36:32,200
of staying out
of everyone else's marriage.
880
00:36:32,200 --> 00:36:33,467
[Brandi] Mmm-hmm.
881
00:36:33,467 --> 00:36:36,066
And not everyone else
did a good job
of staying out of yours.
882
00:36:36,066 --> 00:36:39,166
Yeah, I know.
There was a lot of stuff
said about me.
883
00:36:39,166 --> 00:36:40,967
Okay, so they were
on the property
884
00:36:40,967 --> 00:36:42,500
having this conversation...
885
00:36:42,500 --> 00:36:43,767
Okay, I can't. I just--
886
00:36:43,767 --> 00:36:45,100
You're gonna
have to just tell her
887
00:36:45,100 --> 00:36:47,066
-because I'm gonna throw
my damn cup through the wall.
-[chuckles]
888
00:36:47,066 --> 00:36:49,166
Like, I'm...
I get so frustrated...
889
00:36:49,166 --> 00:36:51,000
-with like--
-About, like,
our breakup conversation?
890
00:36:51,000 --> 00:36:53,500
[Jenn] About...
891
00:36:53,500 --> 00:36:56,567
-Flagstaff property?
-...what he said in front
of Nathan and Rebecca.
892
00:36:56,567 --> 00:36:59,367
So basically, Kody and I
893
00:36:59,367 --> 00:37:01,467
had our breakup conversation.
894
00:37:01,467 --> 00:37:04,567
We were out on the property
and we were talking about it.
895
00:37:04,567 --> 00:37:06,300
Like, it just kind of
started coming up.
896
00:37:06,300 --> 00:37:08,467
And we're like,
"All right, well, we're here.
We're talking about it.
897
00:37:08,467 --> 00:37:09,467
Let's talk about it."
898
00:37:09,467 --> 00:37:11,400
Well, Robyn was there, too.
899
00:37:11,400 --> 00:37:15,834
You want something that...
we can't have together.
900
00:37:18,300 --> 00:37:19,600
[sniffles]
901
00:37:20,867 --> 00:37:24,066
[sobbing] I'm sorry.
I... just need to move away.
902
00:37:24,066 --> 00:37:25,133
I'm sorry.
903
00:37:25,133 --> 00:37:27,700
I'm sorry. I just want to be
supportive of you two,
904
00:37:27,700 --> 00:37:29,667
but I just need to move away.
905
00:37:29,667 --> 00:37:33,066
And so she was upset by it,
you know,
906
00:37:33,066 --> 00:37:35,000
and so she stood up
and she walked away.
907
00:37:35,000 --> 00:37:37,100
So later... Kody goes...
908
00:37:39,166 --> 00:37:40,367
[chuckling softly]
909
00:37:41,066 --> 00:37:43,367
[chuckling] I don't
understand him, Brandi.
910
00:37:43,367 --> 00:37:45,867
I don't understand him at all.
[laughing]
911
00:37:45,867 --> 00:37:47,133
[exhales]
912
00:37:48,266 --> 00:37:49,900
[all laughing]
913
00:37:49,900 --> 00:37:51,467
I don't even know
what I'm gonna say.
914
00:37:51,467 --> 00:37:52,467
-I can't!
-I try not to look at you.
915
00:37:52,467 --> 00:37:54,767
-I can't.
-It frustrates
the hell out of me.
916
00:37:54,767 --> 00:37:56,634
-Sorry.
-I'm so sorry. He goes...
917
00:37:57,400 --> 00:38:00,066
"That was so hard on Robyn."
918
00:38:00,066 --> 00:38:01,367
I thought it was fair
for you and I
919
00:38:01,367 --> 00:38:03,066
to have a conversation
without Robyn
920
00:38:03,066 --> 00:38:04,400
being involved in it.
921
00:38:04,400 --> 00:38:06,266
Hundred percent.
922
00:38:06,266 --> 00:38:07,467
I agree with you.
923
00:38:07,467 --> 00:38:10,000
Poor girl. That whole talk
just wrecked her.
924
00:38:10,467 --> 00:38:11,767
Okay.
925
00:38:11,767 --> 00:38:14,100
-What? [laughing]
-No, wait...
926
00:38:14,100 --> 00:38:17,166
-Wait, there's more.
-No, no, there can't be more.
927
00:38:17,166 --> 00:38:18,367
[Meri] "Poor girl." [chuckles]
928
00:38:18,367 --> 00:38:20,000
Stop!
929
00:38:20,000 --> 00:38:22,367
It was hard on Robyn,
and I looked at him,
930
00:38:22,367 --> 00:38:23,800
and I'm like, "Yeah, it was...
931
00:38:24,166 --> 00:38:26,066
kind of hard on me, too."
932
00:38:26,066 --> 00:38:28,900
-[Jenn] "I had a tough go
of it, too, there, buddy."
-You think?
933
00:38:28,900 --> 00:38:32,400
I'm not discounting how hard
it was on Robyn?
934
00:38:32,400 --> 00:38:35,467
It's like he's completely
discounting me.
935
00:38:35,467 --> 00:38:39,166
The fact that he and I
started this family together.
936
00:38:39,166 --> 00:38:42,066
If you would have cried,
he would have
taken it seriously.
937
00:38:42,066 --> 00:38:44,100
It was so weird. Like--
938
00:38:44,100 --> 00:38:45,367
Why is he so stupid?
939
00:38:45,367 --> 00:38:46,634
[laughs]
940
00:38:46,634 --> 00:38:48,600
-He got what--
-So she'd be really threatened
if he met a girl
941
00:38:48,600 --> 00:38:50,400
that cries, like,
all the time.
942
00:38:50,400 --> 00:38:52,500
-[all chuckling]
-[Brandi] And just need to--
943
00:38:52,500 --> 00:38:54,667
I mean, it was kind of hard
on me, too, Kody.
944
00:38:54,667 --> 00:38:57,367
There was already
a lot of tears shed,
945
00:38:57,367 --> 00:38:59,100
and he didn't care about it.
946
00:38:59,100 --> 00:39:00,200
My legs are hurting, you guys.
947
00:39:00,200 --> 00:39:01,467
-I know. Mine are--
-Can we now get in the car?
948
00:39:01,467 --> 00:39:02,300
-My foot's asleep.
-Let's...
949
00:39:02,300 --> 00:39:03,834
-Let's go.
-Yeah.
950
00:39:03,834 --> 00:39:04,734
-'Cause I don't wanna
go over there in the dark.
-What do you wanna look at?
951
00:39:04,734 --> 00:39:06,033
We're gonna go
look at the house.
952
00:39:06,033 --> 00:39:07,567
-We're gonna look sketchy.
-We're gonna go have closure.
953
00:39:07,567 --> 00:39:08,433
Okay.
954
00:39:09,567 --> 00:39:11,967
You have one red tomato.
955
00:39:11,967 --> 00:39:13,967
Okay, don't make fun of me
if I don't know how to drive.
956
00:39:13,967 --> 00:39:16,667
-[Meri] No. It's rude.
-[all chuckling]
957
00:39:16,667 --> 00:39:19,834
-[indistinct conversation]
-[Jenn] Oh, Yeah,
they did put fences up.
958
00:39:21,100 --> 00:39:22,433
Well, ladies...
959
00:39:23,166 --> 00:39:24,967
-here we are.
-[Jenn] It looks so different.
960
00:39:24,967 --> 00:39:27,467
-It's so weird.
-[Jenn] Like, everything grew.
961
00:39:27,467 --> 00:39:30,066
We had such a dream
when we moved here,
962
00:39:30,066 --> 00:39:33,166
and it was really sad
when we left.
963
00:39:33,166 --> 00:39:36,000
I've been back
to the cul-de-sac
a few times.
964
00:39:36,000 --> 00:39:38,066
I wonder a lot if we would
have stayed together,
965
00:39:38,066 --> 00:39:39,700
we would have stayed
in Las Vegas.
966
00:39:39,700 --> 00:39:43,767
Well, I've been back
to the cul-de-sac
one... time.
967
00:39:43,767 --> 00:39:46,333
It was hard to...
it was really difficult.
968
00:39:46,900 --> 00:39:48,700
You know,
I have never gone back
969
00:39:48,700 --> 00:39:50,100
to see the cul-de-sac
in Vegas.
970
00:39:50,100 --> 00:39:53,667
I just haven't really had
any interest or inclination.
971
00:39:53,667 --> 00:39:56,800
To me, that's like
the chapter is closed.
972
00:39:56,800 --> 00:39:59,300
I don't need to go back
and see the location,
973
00:39:59,300 --> 00:40:01,266
but I know that some people
in our family
974
00:40:01,266 --> 00:40:03,467
have felt like
that was healing
975
00:40:03,467 --> 00:40:06,000
or... beneficial
976
00:40:06,000 --> 00:40:08,767
There was a lot of cool things
that happened here,
977
00:40:08,767 --> 00:40:11,634
but now it's somebody else's
cool stuff.
978
00:40:12,567 --> 00:40:15,567
I'm feeling
a little bit anxious.
979
00:40:15,567 --> 00:40:18,100
Um, it's very awkward.
It's weird.
980
00:40:18,100 --> 00:40:20,000
Very much feeling
981
00:40:20,000 --> 00:40:22,233
I... I don't need
to be here very long.
982
00:40:22,667 --> 00:40:24,100
All right!
983
00:40:24,100 --> 00:40:26,567
-Let's go. I'm done.
-[Brandi] That's...
Recommitment ceremony. Sorry.
984
00:40:26,567 --> 00:40:28,500
I'm not! I'm not!
985
00:40:28,500 --> 00:40:30,567
-She doesn't want to go there.
-Like, y'all, it's cool.
986
00:40:30,567 --> 00:40:31,867
It's awesome. It's weird.
987
00:40:31,867 --> 00:40:33,400
But I'm like beyond it.
988
00:40:33,400 --> 00:40:35,667
-I'm so glad you're beyond it.
-I am.
989
00:40:35,667 --> 00:40:38,567
-[all chuckling]
-[Brandi] It's not helping!
990
00:40:38,567 --> 00:40:40,767
[all continue laughing]
991
00:40:40,767 --> 00:40:43,100
-[Jenn] You don't want...
-[Brandi] Trust me.
992
00:40:43,100 --> 00:40:46,000
Do you guys want ice cream
after pizza?
993
00:40:46,000 --> 00:40:47,367
-Yeah.
-And chicken?
994
00:40:47,367 --> 00:40:49,100
I brought ice cream.
Just kidding.
995
00:40:49,100 --> 00:40:50,800
-Mmm.
-Your mom brought ice cream.
996
00:40:50,800 --> 00:40:52,467
I just brought the toppings.
997
00:40:52,467 --> 00:40:55,433
-Meri said if...
-[chuckles]
998
00:40:55,967 --> 00:40:58,000
...If she was given a choice
999
00:40:58,000 --> 00:40:59,767
to join our family
1000
00:40:59,767 --> 00:41:01,967
versus Jenn's family...
1001
00:41:01,967 --> 00:41:03,667
she chose our family.
1002
00:41:03,667 --> 00:41:05,400
-Aw!
-[Jenn] But I mean, obviously,
1003
00:41:05,400 --> 00:41:06,567
you have more robots.
1004
00:41:06,567 --> 00:41:09,100
-[chuckles]
-Only because of you,
1005
00:41:09,100 --> 00:41:10,967
and in spite of me.
1006
00:41:10,967 --> 00:41:12,767
[Meri] I did say...
1007
00:41:12,767 --> 00:41:15,200
-You'd be a very difficult--
-...you're pretty
dang awesome,
1008
00:41:15,200 --> 00:41:17,467
and she'd be
a rough sister wife.
1009
00:41:17,467 --> 00:41:19,367
-[Tim] She would.
-Oh, absolutely.
1010
00:41:19,367 --> 00:41:20,900
-I'd be the worse.
-[Jenn] Sean's gonna hear this
1011
00:41:20,900 --> 00:41:22,266
and get his feelings hurt,
by the way.
1012
00:41:22,266 --> 00:41:23,800
Listen, I love Sean, too.
1013
00:41:23,800 --> 00:41:25,400
Yeah, you're gonna
have to prove it.
1014
00:41:25,400 --> 00:41:28,000
-[Brandi] But he's no Tim.
-[all laughing]
1015
00:41:28,000 --> 00:41:31,166
I got married once,
and I've been divorced twice.
1016
00:41:31,166 --> 00:41:33,166
[chuckling]
1017
00:41:33,166 --> 00:41:35,500
How many people
can say that?
1018
00:41:35,500 --> 00:41:37,033
[indistinct conversation]
1019
00:41:38,266 --> 00:41:40,600
Wow. I'm an anomaly.
1020
00:41:40,600 --> 00:41:42,800
Married once, divorced twice.
1021
00:41:42,800 --> 00:41:44,300
[chuckles]
1022
00:41:45,266 --> 00:41:47,400
[narrator] Next time
on Sister Wives...
1023
00:41:47,400 --> 00:41:49,100
-[Christine chuckling]
-[woman] Who is this?
1024
00:41:49,100 --> 00:41:51,500
Today is the first day
I'm going to see
my wedding dress.
1025
00:41:51,500 --> 00:41:52,800
I want to try it on. Yes.
1026
00:41:52,800 --> 00:41:55,367
I had no idea how incredible
it would feel
1027
00:41:55,367 --> 00:41:57,700
to look at wedding dresses
with my daughters.
1028
00:41:57,700 --> 00:41:59,300
-You guys ready?
-[all] Yes.
1029
00:41:59,300 --> 00:42:02,133
-Oh, my goodness.
-[laughs]
1030
00:42:03,500 --> 00:42:05,600
I'm not just throwing this
in the garbage.
1031
00:42:05,600 --> 00:42:08,300
I'm going to, on purpose,
ruin it.
1032
00:42:09,700 --> 00:42:12,166
-[cheering]
-And... he's out.
1033
00:42:12,166 --> 00:42:13,667
Hey, let's go. Come on.
1034
00:42:13,667 --> 00:42:16,266
I was hearing some feedback
from family
1035
00:42:16,266 --> 00:42:19,166
about the accusations
being made against me.
1036
00:42:19,166 --> 00:42:21,500
There's a jealousy and dislike
that they've had
1037
00:42:21,500 --> 00:42:22,667
toward Robyn,
1038
00:42:22,667 --> 00:42:24,700
especially Christine
and Janelle.
1039
00:42:24,700 --> 00:42:26,667
We were supposed to be
a team working together.
1040
00:42:26,667 --> 00:42:30,000
I feel like I've been gaslit,
like crazy.