1 00:00:02,379 --> 00:00:04,344 Previously on Sister Wives ... 2 00:00:04,344 --> 00:00:07,827 I have been in the RV full-time for a month. 3 00:00:07,827 --> 00:00:10,689 I'm still hauling my water, which is a booger. 4 00:00:10,689 --> 00:00:13,034 I'm struggling with my solar panels, 5 00:00:13,034 --> 00:00:15,620 and I'm struggling with finding just the right generator. 6 00:00:15,620 --> 00:00:18,241 I've got hot water at Robyn's house, 7 00:00:18,241 --> 00:00:20,551 why am I gonna sit here and suffer with you, 8 00:00:20,551 --> 00:00:21,517 with your choices? 9 00:00:21,517 --> 00:00:23,068 Oh! 10 00:00:23,068 --> 00:00:25,551 I felt like that Christine was more than a sister wife, 11 00:00:25,551 --> 00:00:28,862 I felt like that she was a friend for a lot of years. 12 00:00:28,862 --> 00:00:32,000 It just makes me think was it just all a lie? 13 00:00:32,000 --> 00:00:33,103 All those years. 14 00:00:33,103 --> 00:00:37,344 There's so much investment here in this family. 15 00:00:37,344 --> 00:00:39,793 You don't just let that go. 16 00:00:39,793 --> 00:00:41,482 I just don't want to admit 17 00:00:41,482 --> 00:00:45,000 whatever we had as a family is gone. 18 00:00:46,206 --> 00:00:47,724 Why are you doing this? 19 00:00:47,724 --> 00:00:49,689 How are you breaking up our family? 20 00:00:52,862 --> 00:00:55,000 I'm sad to be leaving Flagstaff and friends 21 00:00:55,000 --> 00:00:57,827 and Dad, I'm really sad to be leaving Dad. 22 00:00:58,689 --> 00:01:00,448 Bye, sweetheart, I love you. 23 00:01:00,448 --> 00:01:03,034 I am sitting here going, "What has happened to us? 24 00:01:03,862 --> 00:01:04,896 What has happened to my life, 25 00:01:04,896 --> 00:01:06,344 what has happened to my purpose?" 26 00:01:06,344 --> 00:01:08,517 'Cause I feel so distant from it. 27 00:01:41,241 --> 00:01:43,965 We drove for six days. 28 00:01:46,551 --> 00:01:48,448 It was absolutely perfect. 29 00:01:49,655 --> 00:01:52,758 We've seen so many wonderful things across the country. 30 00:01:52,758 --> 00:01:54,689 We've stopped in great cities. 31 00:01:56,827 --> 00:01:58,448 I thought the road trip went very well. 32 00:01:58,448 --> 00:02:00,689 I feel like the three of us get along pretty well. 33 00:02:02,517 --> 00:02:06,000 Yizzie's car is the smallest car 34 00:02:06,000 --> 00:02:08,379 you will ever be in your entire life. 35 00:02:08,379 --> 00:02:11,275 She didn't bring any furniture, thank God. 36 00:02:11,275 --> 00:02:12,896 Ysabel, get off your sister. 37 00:02:12,896 --> 00:02:14,551 I know you're gonna miss her, get off! 38 00:02:14,551 --> 00:02:15,896 Ahhh! 39 00:02:15,896 --> 00:02:17,586 They've been cooped up in a car for hours. 40 00:02:18,310 --> 00:02:19,586 Oh, my gosh, 41 00:02:19,586 --> 00:02:21,586 they are so loud in hotels. 42 00:02:21,586 --> 00:02:23,862 Uh, if you hurt her... 43 00:02:23,862 --> 00:02:24,862 Ow, stop! 44 00:02:27,206 --> 00:02:28,965 Ysabel's moving to North Carolina... 45 00:02:30,689 --> 00:02:32,103 ...for an adventure. 46 00:02:32,103 --> 00:02:33,655 She's never wanted to live at home. 47 00:02:33,655 --> 00:02:35,586 Maddie, Janelle's daughter, 48 00:02:35,586 --> 00:02:37,655 lives in North Carolina with her husband, Caleb, 49 00:02:37,655 --> 00:02:39,172 and their two kids, Axel and Evie. 50 00:02:41,965 --> 00:02:44,517 Ysabel has just bonded with Maddie and Caleb. 51 00:02:44,517 --> 00:02:47,413 She's gonna go to college about 15 minutes away 52 00:02:47,413 --> 00:02:48,724 from where they live. 53 00:02:48,724 --> 00:02:51,586 She's just gonna start her new life in North Carolina. 54 00:02:53,655 --> 00:02:55,172 I'm really close with Axel and Evie. 55 00:02:55,172 --> 00:02:56,793 I think that Maddie and Caleb 56 00:02:56,793 --> 00:02:58,068 are really, really great people, 57 00:02:58,068 --> 00:03:00,103 and I think I would love to live next to people 58 00:03:00,103 --> 00:03:01,862 who have such a beautiful relationship. 59 00:03:08,896 --> 00:03:11,310 So, I think this seven out of ten 60 00:03:11,310 --> 00:03:14,310 basically means I'm gonna miss her a lot, 61 00:03:14,310 --> 00:03:17,241 but she's gonna be happy there, so, it's okay. 62 00:03:17,241 --> 00:03:19,586 She just has to visit a lot. 63 00:03:21,275 --> 00:03:24,379 When I told Truely about the divorce, 64 00:03:24,379 --> 00:03:26,896 Ysabel was the first person she talked to. 65 00:03:26,896 --> 00:03:28,965 Ysabel and Truely have gotten a lot closer 66 00:03:28,965 --> 00:03:32,000 'cause Ysabel's been Truely's go-to 67 00:03:32,758 --> 00:03:33,793 with everything. 68 00:03:33,793 --> 00:03:34,896 'Cause it's not just, like, 69 00:03:35,724 --> 00:03:37,551 like a short trip kind of thing, 70 00:03:37,551 --> 00:03:38,758 like, I'll be staying there for... 71 00:03:39,896 --> 00:03:41,758 ...I think four years tops. 72 00:03:41,758 --> 00:03:43,241 Once I decided to leave, 73 00:03:44,068 --> 00:03:46,655 I never hesitated on my steps 74 00:03:46,655 --> 00:03:47,862 and what I needed to do. 75 00:03:48,586 --> 00:03:50,551 And no matter how uncertain 76 00:03:50,551 --> 00:03:52,620 and scary and intimidating 77 00:03:52,620 --> 00:03:54,551 it was to make the steps, 78 00:03:54,551 --> 00:03:57,206 I've never hesitated on making the steps or look back. 79 00:03:57,206 --> 00:03:58,413 ...But sometimes it does 80 00:03:59,413 --> 00:04:01,413 feel harder than I would like it to. 81 00:04:01,413 --> 00:04:03,103 I think I'm also nervous about 82 00:04:03,103 --> 00:04:04,896 how I'm going to live without Mom 83 00:04:04,896 --> 00:04:08,827 because I do depend on her, like, too much. 84 00:04:08,827 --> 00:04:11,517 How are you feeling about moving and everything now? 85 00:04:12,068 --> 00:04:14,068 Ow, no, I don't like it. 86 00:04:14,068 --> 00:04:16,241 I still don't want to. 87 00:04:16,241 --> 00:04:17,137 Yeah. 88 00:04:17,137 --> 00:04:19,275 Both Ysabel and Truely are... 89 00:04:20,896 --> 00:04:23,655 ...really protective of me, 90 00:04:23,655 --> 00:04:25,931 and don't really wanna tell me full-on 91 00:04:25,931 --> 00:04:27,620 how they feel about things sometimes, 92 00:04:27,620 --> 00:04:29,310 and then sometimes I just find out. 93 00:04:29,310 --> 00:04:31,793 I'm just find out from Truely 94 00:04:31,793 --> 00:04:33,689 that she still doesn't want to move. 95 00:04:33,689 --> 00:04:37,655 I've grown up in Flagstaff. 96 00:04:37,655 --> 00:04:40,103 I've gotten used to it by this point, 97 00:04:40,103 --> 00:04:41,862 so, I'm gonna really miss it. 98 00:04:41,862 --> 00:04:43,206 So, we're leaving Flagstaff, 99 00:04:43,206 --> 00:04:45,068 I mean, we're moving away from her dad 100 00:04:45,068 --> 00:04:47,827 and from her other moms and siblings, 101 00:04:47,827 --> 00:04:50,482 but we're moving towards family as well. 102 00:04:50,482 --> 00:04:53,448 'Cause in Utah, we'll be living, 103 00:04:53,448 --> 00:04:56,689 I don't know, right in between Aspyn and Mykelti. 104 00:04:56,689 --> 00:04:58,068 Moving's really difficult. 105 00:04:58,068 --> 00:05:00,689 I'm changing everything in her life. 106 00:05:00,689 --> 00:05:03,655 But I firmly believe I am moving her to better. 107 00:05:06,689 --> 00:05:08,551 I think it's hard for a kid 108 00:05:08,551 --> 00:05:10,896 to not be able to see a functional relationship 109 00:05:10,896 --> 00:05:12,310 between their parents. 110 00:05:15,000 --> 00:05:17,413 As a family, the last time that we gathered 111 00:05:17,413 --> 00:05:18,793 was at my graduation, 112 00:05:18,793 --> 00:05:20,965 and that was two months ago. 113 00:05:23,068 --> 00:05:24,758 You're so pretty! 114 00:05:25,586 --> 00:05:26,482 Ahhh! 115 00:05:27,931 --> 00:05:30,206 ...but Mom and Dad are also separated, 116 00:05:30,206 --> 00:05:31,137 so, that would make sense 117 00:05:31,137 --> 00:05:32,034 that that would be the last time 118 00:05:32,034 --> 00:05:34,517 that we were family-family, 119 00:05:34,517 --> 00:05:36,793 and we pro... that probably will be the last time. 120 00:05:39,206 --> 00:05:40,655 I think it would be good for Truely 121 00:05:40,655 --> 00:05:42,862 to move to Utah where she's able to see 122 00:05:42,862 --> 00:05:45,172 Mykelti and Tony's relationship, 123 00:05:45,172 --> 00:05:46,482 which is extremely healthy, 124 00:05:46,482 --> 00:05:48,517 and Aspyn and Mitchell's relationship, 125 00:05:48,517 --> 00:05:50,379 which is also extremely healthy. 126 00:05:50,379 --> 00:05:53,034 'Cause that's what I'm excited for when moving to North Carolina. 127 00:05:53,034 --> 00:05:54,965 I'm excited to see a healthy relationship 128 00:05:54,965 --> 00:05:55,931 between Maddie and Caleb. 129 00:05:58,862 --> 00:06:00,551 I don't know, all right, Ysabel. 130 00:06:01,827 --> 00:06:03,965 Oh, it's a pajama set, did you get me pajamas? 131 00:06:03,965 --> 00:06:05,862 I got you or me pajamas, I don't remember. 132 00:06:05,862 --> 00:06:07,689 They're probably for you then. 133 00:06:07,689 --> 00:06:08,793 So, we're in North Carolina 134 00:06:08,793 --> 00:06:10,172 in Maddie and Caleb's house 135 00:06:10,172 --> 00:06:11,896 in Ysabel's bedroom. 136 00:06:11,896 --> 00:06:13,344 Actually kinda cute. 137 00:06:13,344 --> 00:06:14,517 It actually is. 138 00:06:14,517 --> 00:06:15,586 Super cute. 139 00:06:15,586 --> 00:06:17,931 Maddie and Caleb going out of their way 140 00:06:17,931 --> 00:06:21,172 and, like, moving around their life so I can fit in it 141 00:06:21,172 --> 00:06:22,965 was the kindest thing that I think 142 00:06:22,965 --> 00:06:25,068 anybody has ever done for anybody on this Earth. 143 00:06:25,068 --> 00:06:26,655 Cheese ravioli, 144 00:06:26,655 --> 00:06:28,275 we've got cheese ravioli, we've got... 145 00:06:29,206 --> 00:06:31,413 So, Hunter lives in Baltimore right now. 146 00:06:31,413 --> 00:06:33,655 He never wants us to come visit him. 147 00:06:33,655 --> 00:06:35,344 He always goes, "Just go to Maddie's 148 00:06:35,344 --> 00:06:37,413 and I will come meet you there." 149 00:06:37,413 --> 00:06:40,137 I'm super close to Janelle's older kids. 150 00:06:40,137 --> 00:06:42,413 When Janelle was working all the time, 151 00:06:42,413 --> 00:06:43,517 I just helped raise them. 152 00:06:43,517 --> 00:06:45,517 I've just always been close to Janelle's kids. 153 00:06:45,517 --> 00:06:47,413 We've always really worked as a team. 154 00:06:53,379 --> 00:06:54,344 You got a donut? 155 00:06:54,344 --> 00:06:55,758 I'm so glad we did this 156 00:06:55,758 --> 00:06:57,172 instead of making dinner tonight. 157 00:07:00,758 --> 00:07:03,551 There's nothing that can prepare you to say goodbye, 158 00:07:03,551 --> 00:07:05,137 and I'm not ready to have her go. 159 00:07:25,551 --> 00:07:26,482 Absolutely. 160 00:07:27,586 --> 00:07:29,413 Last year, when we came out here, 161 00:07:29,413 --> 00:07:30,413 and you guys were like... 162 00:07:30,413 --> 00:07:32,034 The last year, like, 163 00:07:32,034 --> 00:07:34,310 I, obviously, have been very emotional. 164 00:07:34,310 --> 00:07:36,482 Everything was changing, and then, like, 165 00:07:36,482 --> 00:07:37,793 Mom and Dad's divorce, 166 00:07:37,793 --> 00:07:40,931 so, I think the past year has been really hard emotionally, 167 00:07:40,931 --> 00:07:43,000 and so she's been going through a hard time, 168 00:07:43,000 --> 00:07:45,827 and I think that, well, I also have, obviously, 169 00:07:45,827 --> 00:07:47,758 how everything... that she depended on me, 170 00:07:47,758 --> 00:07:48,965 not that it's a bad thing, 171 00:07:48,965 --> 00:07:50,310 but I think that she depended on me. 172 00:07:54,758 --> 00:07:56,827 And so, I think it got quite heavy in the house 173 00:07:56,827 --> 00:07:58,586 and it got very emotional. 174 00:08:01,344 --> 00:08:02,896 When she was going through it, 175 00:08:02,896 --> 00:08:05,241 she sought out me. 176 00:08:05,241 --> 00:08:08,620 I think it's hard for a young kid 177 00:08:08,620 --> 00:08:09,793 to see their mom... 178 00:08:10,862 --> 00:08:13,275 ...in such a sad state 179 00:08:13,275 --> 00:08:15,586 because the last year was really hard. 180 00:08:15,586 --> 00:08:17,689 It was really hard living at home the last year. 181 00:08:17,689 --> 00:08:19,275 I don't know when we're gonna see each other. 182 00:08:19,275 --> 00:08:20,413 She was so cute, I said, 183 00:08:20,413 --> 00:08:22,965 "You know, I wanna come out next month and see you," 184 00:08:22,965 --> 00:08:25,931 and she goes, "No," she goes, "We have to wait." 185 00:08:25,931 --> 00:08:27,551 She goes, "If you come next month, 186 00:08:27,551 --> 00:08:28,965 I'm gonna go back with you 187 00:08:28,965 --> 00:08:30,206 and I'm not gonna stay here." 188 00:08:30,827 --> 00:08:31,793 She's like, "The thing is, 189 00:08:31,793 --> 00:08:33,827 I think it's gonna make it harder 190 00:08:33,827 --> 00:08:35,931 if we see each other a lot. 191 00:08:35,931 --> 00:08:38,068 So, I think our best bet is Christmas." 192 00:08:44,896 --> 00:08:47,275 It's good for her to be able to... 193 00:08:48,310 --> 00:08:51,482 ...live with herself instead of... 194 00:08:52,655 --> 00:08:55,034 ...living with herself and needing me, 195 00:08:55,034 --> 00:08:57,448 and also for me to not need her anymore. 196 00:09:00,655 --> 00:09:03,413 Hey, Mom! Put your shoes on... 197 00:09:03,413 --> 00:09:06,344 It's super cool that Maddie, Janelle's daughter, 198 00:09:06,344 --> 00:09:08,482 and Ysabel, my daughter, 199 00:09:08,482 --> 00:09:10,241 um, are super close. 200 00:09:12,206 --> 00:09:14,793 They're raised with this big huge family 201 00:09:14,793 --> 00:09:16,241 and this big huge family picture, 202 00:09:16,241 --> 00:09:17,344 that's what they were raised with... 203 00:09:19,137 --> 00:09:20,793 ...but by leaving Kody 204 00:09:20,793 --> 00:09:23,137 and leaving the family and moving, 205 00:09:23,137 --> 00:09:24,931 I'm really changing the dynamic... 206 00:09:26,103 --> 00:09:29,517 ...and when I tell you that keeps me up at night, 207 00:09:29,517 --> 00:09:30,931 believe me, that keeps me up at night. 208 00:09:31,620 --> 00:09:33,517 I need to tell all the wives 209 00:09:34,482 --> 00:09:37,793 and Kody that I'll be moving next week. 210 00:09:37,793 --> 00:09:39,965 I have no idea how they're going to respond. 211 00:09:39,965 --> 00:09:42,482 I can imagine, "What a shock! What a shock!" 212 00:09:45,379 --> 00:09:47,482 We never made an official agreement. 213 00:09:47,482 --> 00:09:48,862 We never went to our church leaders and said, 214 00:09:48,862 --> 00:09:51,379 "Hey, we're divorced" or, "We want a divorce." 215 00:09:51,379 --> 00:09:52,758 You know, would they even allow us a divorce? 216 00:09:52,758 --> 00:09:54,275 I was sitting their talking with Truely, 217 00:09:54,275 --> 00:09:56,551 and she's like, "Well, you and Mom are divorced." 218 00:09:57,275 --> 00:09:58,827 I'm like, "Okay. 219 00:09:58,827 --> 00:10:01,172 That's a little bit news to me." 220 00:10:01,172 --> 00:10:04,413 Usually our church would say, "You're divorced." 221 00:10:04,413 --> 00:10:06,344 You have to go ask for a divorce. 222 00:10:06,344 --> 00:10:08,620 You know, technically, till Christine is physical 223 00:10:08,620 --> 00:10:10,206 with another man, she's not divorced. 224 00:10:26,068 --> 00:10:27,379 Make sure you're showing your best side. 225 00:10:30,689 --> 00:10:33,379 My best friend, Jenn, 226 00:10:33,379 --> 00:10:34,724 is here with me, 227 00:10:34,724 --> 00:10:38,172 and we decided that we should 228 00:10:38,172 --> 00:10:40,931 film a conversation of us. 229 00:10:40,931 --> 00:10:44,172 chitchatting and being stupid 'cause it's what we do best. 230 00:10:44,172 --> 00:10:48,034 And, honestly, I don't do this a lot with... 231 00:10:49,275 --> 00:10:50,379 ...very many people. 232 00:10:51,241 --> 00:10:52,206 Hold on, Christine, 233 00:10:52,206 --> 00:10:53,689 I'm gonna go look at that one. 234 00:10:53,689 --> 00:10:55,724 I think that one might be a better one. 235 00:10:56,758 --> 00:10:57,758 I will tackle you! 236 00:10:57,758 --> 00:10:59,344 I wanna see that, I wanna see it! 237 00:10:59,344 --> 00:11:01,551 Run, Meri, run! 238 00:11:01,551 --> 00:11:03,413 I've had those kinds of relationships 239 00:11:03,413 --> 00:11:06,275 within my family before. 240 00:11:07,137 --> 00:11:08,275 Oh! Oh! 241 00:11:09,655 --> 00:11:10,586 Oh, my... 242 00:11:13,379 --> 00:11:15,931 ...but my family is kind of weird right now... 243 00:11:17,137 --> 00:11:19,000 ...and relationships are weird. 244 00:11:20,551 --> 00:11:22,655 I don't have those kind of relationships 245 00:11:22,655 --> 00:11:24,551 with people in my family right now. 246 00:11:24,551 --> 00:11:27,413 So, um, this is my BFF, Jenn! 247 00:11:28,413 --> 00:11:31,344 She lived in Las Vegas 248 00:11:31,344 --> 00:11:32,758 when we lived there. 249 00:11:32,758 --> 00:11:34,482 - And then I left Las Vegas. - She left. 250 00:11:34,482 --> 00:11:37,379 Jenn basically knows everything about my life. 251 00:11:37,379 --> 00:11:39,000 I mean, she basically knows 252 00:11:39,000 --> 00:11:40,758 everything about my situation with Kody. 253 00:11:41,310 --> 00:11:43,241 She was the one person 254 00:11:43,241 --> 00:11:46,724 that I could 100% trust 255 00:11:46,724 --> 00:11:50,758 during that whole catfishing situation years ago. 256 00:11:50,758 --> 00:11:53,620 She really earned my trust during that time. 257 00:11:54,241 --> 00:11:56,241 Jenn moved from Oregon, 258 00:11:56,241 --> 00:11:57,862 was on her way to Texas... 259 00:11:57,862 --> 00:11:59,034 Stopped here for the summer. 260 00:11:59,034 --> 00:12:00,862 ...needed a place to stay for the summer. 261 00:12:00,862 --> 00:12:03,620 So, yeah, so, we decided that we would stay for the summer 262 00:12:03,620 --> 00:12:05,655 and I would help on the B and B, 263 00:12:05,655 --> 00:12:06,931 and the kids fell in love with it, 264 00:12:06,931 --> 00:12:09,827 and, um, I kinda fell in love with it, too. 265 00:12:09,827 --> 00:12:12,241 So, at this point, I've been driving back and forth a lot 266 00:12:12,241 --> 00:12:13,965 between Flagstaff and Parowan. 267 00:12:13,965 --> 00:12:16,241 My mom passed away a few months ago, 268 00:12:16,241 --> 00:12:17,413 and I've been like, 269 00:12:17,413 --> 00:12:18,965 "I don't know what to do with this place." 270 00:12:18,965 --> 00:12:21,517 Like, her coming and staying 271 00:12:21,517 --> 00:12:22,931 and managing the inn for me, 272 00:12:22,931 --> 00:12:26,413 it's really gonna take a lot off of my plate. 273 00:12:27,103 --> 00:12:29,275 I will probably be actually... 274 00:12:30,655 --> 00:12:32,379 ...still traveling back and forth quite a bit 275 00:12:32,379 --> 00:12:33,931 just because I want to be around her. 276 00:12:35,344 --> 00:12:37,793 And she's really nice to the guests, too. 277 00:12:37,793 --> 00:12:39,000 Most of 'em, yeah. 278 00:12:41,310 --> 00:12:42,344 I do know Jenn. 279 00:12:43,344 --> 00:12:46,793 Yeah, she's just very, very loyal to Meri. 280 00:12:46,793 --> 00:12:48,965 I don't know if she's giving her good advice or not... 281 00:12:48,965 --> 00:12:51,413 ...'cause I don't know. 282 00:12:51,413 --> 00:12:53,103 I'm sure that it's very helpful 283 00:12:53,103 --> 00:12:55,379 for Meri to have a close friend outside the family. 284 00:12:55,379 --> 00:12:58,931 Meri's relationship with the family is a strained one. 285 00:12:58,931 --> 00:13:01,655 There's a whole history of struggle, 286 00:13:01,655 --> 00:13:03,310 you know, from the very beginnings, 287 00:13:03,310 --> 00:13:06,137 and so she needs a relationship 288 00:13:06,137 --> 00:13:08,448 outside of their sister wives for sure. 289 00:13:09,896 --> 00:13:12,965 So, if you know Fridays With Friends, 290 00:13:12,965 --> 00:13:14,931 you're totally gonna appreciate 291 00:13:14,931 --> 00:13:16,482 Sundays with Sister Wives. 292 00:13:17,310 --> 00:13:18,896 She is not my sister. 293 00:13:18,896 --> 00:13:21,275 She needs to remain my BFF. 294 00:13:21,275 --> 00:13:23,758 Wait, does that mean you can't be a sister wife 295 00:13:23,758 --> 00:13:25,000 - and BFF? - And be a BFF? 296 00:13:25,000 --> 00:13:26,275 Sorry, Robyn! 297 00:13:26,275 --> 00:13:28,068 It's not what I meant. 298 00:13:28,068 --> 00:13:29,965 You know, the sister wife relationship 299 00:13:29,965 --> 00:13:31,724 is pretty complicated. 300 00:13:31,724 --> 00:13:33,724 You have to work really hard at it 301 00:13:33,724 --> 00:13:35,517 for it to be a good one. 302 00:13:35,517 --> 00:13:37,586 You know, they're fewer, but there are a few 303 00:13:37,586 --> 00:13:39,482 that kinda seem like they're best buddies, 304 00:13:39,482 --> 00:13:40,482 they're best friends, 305 00:13:41,241 --> 00:13:44,034 and it, it's always this thing 306 00:13:44,034 --> 00:13:45,275 that the rest of us look at like, 307 00:13:45,275 --> 00:13:47,413 "Oh, I want that" kind of a thing. 308 00:13:47,413 --> 00:13:49,034 We've been sister wives. 309 00:13:49,034 --> 00:13:50,413 We have, we've been sister wives through... 310 00:13:50,413 --> 00:13:51,931 ...thick and thin. 311 00:13:51,931 --> 00:13:53,482 Yep, through the thick and thin. 312 00:13:54,689 --> 00:13:56,551 So, after Kody and Janelle got married, 313 00:13:56,551 --> 00:13:58,862 Kody's dad married Janelle's mom. 314 00:13:58,862 --> 00:14:00,275 They tell stories about 315 00:14:00,275 --> 00:14:02,413 how it was kinda difficult and hard at first, 316 00:14:02,413 --> 00:14:04,931 but through the years they figured their stuff out. 317 00:14:04,931 --> 00:14:06,551 That's the ultimate goal. 318 00:14:06,551 --> 00:14:10,172 If you're not in a decent sister wife relationship... 319 00:14:10,172 --> 00:14:13,896 ...then, you know, hopefully, you can kinda work through whatever 320 00:14:13,896 --> 00:14:16,758 and then when you're older kind of a thing. 321 00:14:16,758 --> 00:14:18,620 Like, literally, when Mom died, 322 00:14:18,620 --> 00:14:20,724 she dropped everything and she's like, "'Kay, I'll be there." 323 00:14:21,689 --> 00:14:23,482 Like, no question, she just came. 324 00:14:23,482 --> 00:14:25,689 I was there to be there for her, 325 00:14:25,689 --> 00:14:27,965 so that she could focus what she needed to focus on 326 00:14:27,965 --> 00:14:30,068 and I could handle whatever needed to be handled. 327 00:14:30,068 --> 00:14:30,931 And she did. 328 00:14:30,931 --> 00:14:32,275 She... 329 00:14:33,482 --> 00:14:36,172 ...took some days off from her job... 330 00:14:36,172 --> 00:14:38,413 you know, she had her husband take care of the kids, 331 00:14:39,137 --> 00:14:41,034 she just left, like, 332 00:14:41,034 --> 00:14:42,551 she got on a plane and she came down. 333 00:14:43,931 --> 00:14:46,103 It didn't matter that there was COVID. 334 00:14:46,103 --> 00:14:48,793 It didn't matter that I was, like, 335 00:14:48,793 --> 00:14:50,206 hundreds of miles away 336 00:14:50,206 --> 00:14:53,206 from Northern Oregon to Utah. 337 00:14:53,206 --> 00:14:54,551 It did not matter. 338 00:14:55,758 --> 00:14:56,586 I mattered. 339 00:14:59,758 --> 00:15:02,034 And it feels good to matter to somebody. 340 00:15:05,931 --> 00:15:08,689 But no, yeah, so, we just haven't seen each other a lot, 341 00:15:08,689 --> 00:15:10,310 so this, I like. 342 00:15:11,310 --> 00:15:12,862 For multiple reasons. 343 00:15:12,862 --> 00:15:14,793 - It works for me. - It works for me. 344 00:15:14,793 --> 00:15:16,275 - Good. - Parowan's fun. 345 00:15:16,275 --> 00:15:17,379 - I like it. - It works. 346 00:15:17,379 --> 00:15:18,137 Yeah. 347 00:15:19,068 --> 00:15:21,551 So, Christine has let us all know 348 00:15:21,551 --> 00:15:23,344 that she wants to get together 349 00:15:23,344 --> 00:15:25,827 and have a little chat with us. 350 00:15:25,827 --> 00:15:30,379 So, I'm gonna be heading back down to Flagstaff. 351 00:15:30,379 --> 00:15:33,965 So I can get in on that little family discussion. 352 00:15:37,827 --> 00:15:39,379 We're under contract. You ready? 353 00:15:40,862 --> 00:15:43,241 So, everything that I have been working towards 354 00:15:43,241 --> 00:15:44,896 is, like, happening now. 355 00:15:44,896 --> 00:15:47,551 Yeah, I can't imagine how scary this is gonna be 356 00:15:47,551 --> 00:15:49,965 because it's not just like leaving 357 00:15:49,965 --> 00:15:52,689 this part of your life, but, you know, 358 00:15:52,689 --> 00:15:54,724 - Janelle and Robyn and... - I know. 359 00:15:55,586 --> 00:15:57,103 I just hope they don't hate me. 360 00:16:05,068 --> 00:16:06,551 I got an offer on my house. 361 00:16:07,206 --> 00:16:08,689 Kody knows. 362 00:16:08,689 --> 00:16:10,241 I haven't told my sister wives yet. 363 00:16:10,241 --> 00:16:12,000 I wanna tell them in person. 364 00:16:13,172 --> 00:16:14,448 So, let's start... 365 00:16:15,482 --> 00:16:17,793 ...moving into Gwen's room. 366 00:16:19,275 --> 00:16:20,965 I sold my bedroom set, 367 00:16:21,724 --> 00:16:23,413 like, a month ago, 368 00:16:23,413 --> 00:16:24,689 and it was just... 369 00:16:25,862 --> 00:16:27,000 ...too much. 370 00:16:27,000 --> 00:16:29,517 Too much baggage, too many hard memories 371 00:16:29,517 --> 00:16:32,517 in my room with him, 372 00:16:32,517 --> 00:16:34,448 and I just needed to let it go. 373 00:16:34,448 --> 00:16:37,000 So, I sold my bedroom furniture set, 374 00:16:37,000 --> 00:16:39,172 and then I slept on the couch for two weeks 375 00:16:39,172 --> 00:16:40,827 until we moved Ysabel, 376 00:16:40,827 --> 00:16:43,310 and now that Ysabel's gone, I'm just gonna move 377 00:16:43,310 --> 00:16:46,551 her bed into Gwen's old room and sleep there instead. 378 00:16:46,551 --> 00:16:49,000 So, we're gonna primarily just stay on this level. 379 00:16:50,931 --> 00:16:52,034 I wanna have the house available 380 00:16:52,034 --> 00:16:53,241 for people to come look at, 381 00:16:53,241 --> 00:16:56,379 so, I want the upstairs to just stay clean as can be. 382 00:17:00,310 --> 00:17:01,379 Put it against this wall. 383 00:17:01,379 --> 00:17:03,551 Put your hands up here. 384 00:17:03,551 --> 00:17:05,413 ...and we're gonna help bring it down. 385 00:17:05,413 --> 00:17:07,241 Truely's mind's wrapped around moving 386 00:17:07,241 --> 00:17:09,275 and everything that she needs to do to move. 387 00:17:10,655 --> 00:17:11,620 ...and move it back into place. 388 00:17:12,379 --> 00:17:13,448 Right here, obviously. 389 00:17:14,586 --> 00:17:16,551 Is she still sad we're moving? 390 00:17:16,551 --> 00:17:17,620 Yeah. 391 00:17:17,620 --> 00:17:19,000 But she also knows there's really 392 00:17:19,000 --> 00:17:20,551 nothing she can do about it except... 393 00:17:21,689 --> 00:17:22,758 ...accept it. 394 00:17:22,758 --> 00:17:25,137 And we're going to do, so, she has the best... 395 00:17:26,482 --> 00:17:27,482 ...outlook she can have. 396 00:17:27,482 --> 00:17:29,137 She's just chosen to... 397 00:17:30,655 --> 00:17:33,310 ...accept it and be okay with it, 398 00:17:33,310 --> 00:17:34,551 but that's all. 399 00:17:34,551 --> 00:17:35,758 She's just okay with it. 400 00:17:37,310 --> 00:17:39,620 Wait, you struggle with sheets? 401 00:17:39,620 --> 00:17:40,862 - Yeah. - Putting on sheets? 402 00:17:40,862 --> 00:17:41,862 Putting on sheets. 403 00:17:43,896 --> 00:17:45,034 You don't... 404 00:17:45,034 --> 00:17:46,482 'Kay, ten-year-old. 405 00:17:46,482 --> 00:17:48,448 - Hey! I'm 11! - This... 406 00:17:48,448 --> 00:17:49,931 Okay, put your finger here, 407 00:17:49,931 --> 00:17:51,172 and you take it to the edge... 408 00:17:51,172 --> 00:17:52,793 Did you forget my age? 409 00:17:53,413 --> 00:17:54,206 Mother! 410 00:17:54,931 --> 00:17:56,827 I don't know how Kody feels. 411 00:17:57,758 --> 00:17:58,620 'Kay. 412 00:18:01,689 --> 00:18:02,965 He can live his own life 413 00:18:02,965 --> 00:18:04,689 and I'm not gonna question him on his choices. 414 00:18:05,896 --> 00:18:07,793 So, he doesn't have the right to question me on mine. 415 00:18:07,793 --> 00:18:10,068 Yeah, you look like you're struggling! 416 00:18:10,068 --> 00:18:11,344 Yes, I'm taking Truely, 417 00:18:11,344 --> 00:18:13,413 and that's really the only thing he has a say in. 418 00:18:13,413 --> 00:18:16,413 But I'll bring her back, he can also come visit her. 419 00:18:16,413 --> 00:18:17,793 Every time I come into town, 420 00:18:17,793 --> 00:18:21,068 he can have her come over and spend time with him, 421 00:18:21,068 --> 00:18:22,103 but I don't know. 422 00:18:22,103 --> 00:18:24,137 We haven't seen him since we got back. 423 00:18:24,137 --> 00:18:25,413 He hasn't been over since we got back. 424 00:18:25,413 --> 00:18:26,862 We've been back for three days. 425 00:18:29,517 --> 00:18:30,931 So, I don't know and I don't care. 426 00:18:32,206 --> 00:18:33,206 He hasn't seen Truely for... 427 00:18:34,724 --> 00:18:36,724 ...two-and-a-half weeks, we moved Gwendlyn without him, 428 00:18:36,724 --> 00:18:38,586 all of it, and I'm like, "Dude... 429 00:18:40,586 --> 00:18:43,655 ...life is passing you by, and we're leaving." 430 00:18:43,655 --> 00:18:45,758 I don't wanna go over to Christine's house, 431 00:18:45,758 --> 00:18:49,137 but I don't have a place for Truely. 432 00:18:49,137 --> 00:18:50,827 I don't, my bedrooms are full, 433 00:18:50,827 --> 00:18:52,379 we gotta make some kind of arrangement. 434 00:18:52,379 --> 00:18:53,758 It's doesn't have anything to do 435 00:18:53,758 --> 00:18:55,137 with me not wanting to see Truely. 436 00:18:55,137 --> 00:18:56,482 It's really more about just struggling 437 00:18:56,482 --> 00:18:57,965 to be around Christine. 438 00:19:08,551 --> 00:19:10,413 My real estate agent is coming over. 439 00:19:10,413 --> 00:19:13,551 We have some very, very, very, very exciting things to talk about. 440 00:19:14,275 --> 00:19:15,275 Very. 441 00:19:15,275 --> 00:19:18,620 Terri is a real estate agent in Flagstaff, 442 00:19:18,620 --> 00:19:20,689 and she's actually a friend of Janelle's. 443 00:19:21,482 --> 00:19:23,827 - Hi! - Hey, cutie. 444 00:19:23,827 --> 00:19:25,241 How are you? 445 00:19:25,241 --> 00:19:27,000 - How are you? - I'm great. 446 00:19:27,000 --> 00:19:28,827 - Good, thank you for coming out. - Well... 447 00:19:28,827 --> 00:19:29,793 Yes, what? 448 00:19:29,793 --> 00:19:31,344 We're under contract. You ready? 449 00:19:33,620 --> 00:19:34,689 Yes. 450 00:19:34,689 --> 00:19:36,137 Time to start packing. 451 00:19:36,137 --> 00:19:39,206 Earlier this week, I told, um, all the adults 452 00:19:39,206 --> 00:19:40,724 I needed to talk to them, 453 00:19:40,724 --> 00:19:42,586 and I was going to tell them 454 00:19:42,586 --> 00:19:44,620 that, you know, my house is on the market now, 455 00:19:44,620 --> 00:19:46,931 but it's actually under contract, 456 00:19:46,931 --> 00:19:48,517 and I will be moving next week. 457 00:19:49,379 --> 00:19:52,206 And it's going to be... 458 00:19:53,551 --> 00:19:55,620 ...a hard conversation. 459 00:19:55,620 --> 00:19:57,724 It's hard to leave, this place is so beautiful. 460 00:19:57,724 --> 00:19:59,551 - Your area is gorgeous. - Yeah. 461 00:19:59,551 --> 00:20:02,655 This home is beautiful and the area's gorgeous, 462 00:20:02,655 --> 00:20:05,310 - but it's scenery versus family... - I know. 463 00:20:05,310 --> 00:20:07,931 ...and the older I get, the more important family is. 464 00:20:07,931 --> 00:20:08,758 That's all it is. 465 00:20:08,758 --> 00:20:10,620 So, I mean, I wanna move to Utah. 466 00:20:10,620 --> 00:20:12,724 Mykelti's been looking for a place 467 00:20:12,724 --> 00:20:14,896 for Truely and I to move to. 468 00:20:14,896 --> 00:20:17,172 So, everything that I have been working towards 469 00:20:17,172 --> 00:20:19,000 is, like, happening now. 470 00:20:19,000 --> 00:20:20,482 Like, now, now, now, now! 471 00:20:20,482 --> 00:20:22,827 Yeah, I can't imagine how scary this is gonna be 472 00:20:22,827 --> 00:20:24,896 because it's not just like leaving 473 00:20:25,551 --> 00:20:26,620 this part of your life. 474 00:20:26,620 --> 00:20:30,275 - But, you know, Janelle and Robyn and... - I know. 475 00:20:31,103 --> 00:20:33,103 I mean, you just have a lot. 476 00:20:33,103 --> 00:20:34,655 I know, it was a hard decision. 477 00:20:34,655 --> 00:20:37,034 It was... Yeah! It's complicated. 478 00:20:37,034 --> 00:20:39,137 - It's not just... you know. - No. 479 00:20:39,137 --> 00:20:42,137 - No, there's no cut and dry, like there's just none. - Uh-uh. 480 00:20:42,137 --> 00:20:44,206 I've been raising my kids with these people 481 00:20:44,206 --> 00:20:46,241 for the rest of their lives, you know? 482 00:20:46,241 --> 00:20:49,275 And I'm super, super close to Janelle and her kids. 483 00:20:49,275 --> 00:20:51,344 So it's not... it's not a clean break. 484 00:20:51,344 --> 00:20:54,344 You can't have a clean break when you have kids anyway. 485 00:20:54,344 --> 00:20:58,413 I have kids, these kids have four moms. 486 00:20:58,413 --> 00:21:01,827 And then all the other kids have four moms, too. 487 00:21:01,827 --> 00:21:03,482 It's just messy. 488 00:21:03,482 --> 00:21:06,034 It's just gonna keep being messy for awhile. 489 00:21:07,655 --> 00:21:10,758 So that's the important thing, is remaining friends. 490 00:21:10,758 --> 00:21:11,965 But, of course, everything's different. 491 00:21:11,965 --> 00:21:13,620 And it is scary, it's unknown. 492 00:21:13,620 --> 00:21:17,793 And so it's scary and exciting and intimidating and... 493 00:21:19,689 --> 00:21:20,827 ...so soon. 494 00:21:22,206 --> 00:21:23,793 I've been married for 20... gosh. 495 00:21:24,482 --> 00:21:25,413 What, 27 years? 496 00:21:26,379 --> 00:21:28,344 I mean, I was 21 when we got married. 497 00:21:30,000 --> 00:21:31,655 I'm 49. 498 00:21:31,655 --> 00:21:33,000 I'm starting over again. 499 00:21:34,068 --> 00:21:35,931 All I know is that... 500 00:21:35,931 --> 00:21:39,275 ...I'm moving forward and I'm moving to something better. 501 00:21:39,275 --> 00:21:42,103 I do know I'm moving towards something better. 502 00:21:42,103 --> 00:21:45,000 And that's enough, most of the time. 503 00:21:45,586 --> 00:21:48,103 Thanks so... 504 00:21:48,103 --> 00:21:49,137 - Thank you! - Mmm. 505 00:21:49,137 --> 00:21:50,000 It's been super awesome. 506 00:21:50,965 --> 00:21:52,034 I hope that... 507 00:21:53,586 --> 00:21:56,000 I hope that Meri, Robyn, and Janelle 508 00:21:56,000 --> 00:21:59,620 can understand why. 509 00:21:59,620 --> 00:22:02,482 Maybe not even understand, that's probably asking way too much. 510 00:22:03,344 --> 00:22:04,413 But maybe just listen. 511 00:22:04,413 --> 00:22:07,379 I am leaving in a week. And... 512 00:22:10,931 --> 00:22:12,517 ...I just hope they don't hate me. 513 00:22:18,793 --> 00:22:21,137 Kody, Meri, Janelle, and Robyn are all coming over, 514 00:22:21,137 --> 00:22:24,000 'cause I need to tell them that my house is now under contract. 515 00:22:25,172 --> 00:22:27,068 I'm angry about Christine leaving the family. 516 00:22:28,172 --> 00:22:31,586 Usually our church would say you're divorced. 517 00:22:31,586 --> 00:22:32,896 You have to go ask for a divorce. 518 00:22:32,896 --> 00:22:33,862 Yeah, yeah. 519 00:22:34,896 --> 00:22:36,862 Congratulations, you're leaving the family. 520 00:22:36,862 --> 00:22:38,931 Like, I don't know what I'm supposed to say to this. 521 00:22:49,551 --> 00:22:51,896 Kody, Meri, Janelle, and Robyn are all coming over 522 00:22:51,896 --> 00:22:55,344 'cause I need to tell them that my house is now under contract. 523 00:22:58,344 --> 00:23:00,793 I've told Kody, so he knows already. 524 00:23:00,793 --> 00:23:02,655 Um, no one else knows. 525 00:23:05,965 --> 00:23:07,724 Look, this conversation is not gonna be easy. 526 00:23:07,724 --> 00:23:10,517 It's not only that my house is under contract, 527 00:23:10,517 --> 00:23:11,931 it's that I'm leaving. 528 00:23:11,931 --> 00:23:15,586 This is a pulling-the-rug out-from-under-them kind of a thing. 529 00:23:19,137 --> 00:23:20,896 Christine has asked us all to come over. 530 00:23:20,896 --> 00:23:22,551 She has something she wants to say to us. 531 00:23:23,379 --> 00:23:25,310 And I have my suspicions. 532 00:23:25,310 --> 00:23:28,793 I, I know that people have been coming through to see the house. 533 00:23:28,793 --> 00:23:33,137 I, I think that it means she finally has a buyer, but I don't know. 534 00:23:34,862 --> 00:23:36,965 I'm really in my head. 535 00:23:36,965 --> 00:23:39,275 I'm stressed out, I don't know... 536 00:23:40,413 --> 00:23:41,724 ...what's gonna hit us right now. 537 00:23:42,310 --> 00:23:43,103 Hello! 538 00:23:46,034 --> 00:23:49,655 I still have a lot of emotions 539 00:23:49,655 --> 00:23:51,034 about this whole situation. 540 00:23:51,724 --> 00:23:53,827 Um, I feel angry. 541 00:23:53,827 --> 00:23:56,827 And I feel a little betrayed, 542 00:23:56,827 --> 00:24:01,206 and I feel like I understand where she's coming from. 543 00:24:01,206 --> 00:24:04,689 And I also know that anger is a secondary emotion. 544 00:24:04,689 --> 00:24:06,344 I'm, I'm hurt. 545 00:24:06,344 --> 00:24:09,103 You know, I'm hurt that she doesn't see value 546 00:24:09,103 --> 00:24:11,000 enough in our family. 547 00:24:12,275 --> 00:24:14,655 I'm angry about Christine leaving the family. 548 00:24:14,655 --> 00:24:17,448 I'm angry that she's moving to Utah. 549 00:24:17,448 --> 00:24:19,517 I'm angry that she's trying to sell the house. 550 00:24:19,517 --> 00:24:21,862 I'm angry that she moved my stuff out. 551 00:24:21,862 --> 00:24:25,310 I'm angry that she, uh, asked me to leave. 552 00:24:25,310 --> 00:24:26,655 I'm angry about a lotta things. 553 00:24:27,758 --> 00:24:31,620 Um, so you guys can tell by the yard sign outside, 554 00:24:31,620 --> 00:24:33,000 that I've put the house on the market. 555 00:24:34,034 --> 00:24:36,931 And it is now on contract. 556 00:24:36,931 --> 00:24:39,068 - Yay, that's good! - I accepted the offer. 557 00:24:39,068 --> 00:24:41,344 - It's... It's a good offer. - I was a little worried about... 558 00:24:41,344 --> 00:24:43,586 - Yeah. -'Cause the market it... it slows down in the fall. 559 00:24:44,413 --> 00:24:46,413 Why is Janelle saying "Yay"? 560 00:24:48,206 --> 00:24:50,758 I don't... I don't get her thinking. 561 00:24:50,758 --> 00:24:53,241 So I started looking for a house in Utah immediately. 562 00:24:54,482 --> 00:24:55,482 Found a house. 563 00:24:56,931 --> 00:25:00,413 And I am moving next week. 564 00:25:05,862 --> 00:25:06,827 I don't know, it felt like... 565 00:25:09,344 --> 00:25:11,482 ...like I just got pushed out of an airplane. 566 00:25:13,034 --> 00:25:14,034 And I wasn't ready. 567 00:25:16,689 --> 00:25:18,965 I know it's all fast, it all happened yesterday. 568 00:25:18,965 --> 00:25:22,103 We've been looking for about three days. 569 00:25:23,413 --> 00:25:25,034 It's one of those things where I'm just, like, 570 00:25:25,034 --> 00:25:28,068 I... there's nothing I can do here. You know? 571 00:25:28,068 --> 00:25:31,068 I'm not gonna express my undying love for her. "Please come back", 572 00:25:31,068 --> 00:25:33,724 because I don't even like her right now. 573 00:25:35,689 --> 00:25:37,965 Like, there's really nothing for me to say. 574 00:25:37,965 --> 00:25:39,034 What am I supposed to say, 575 00:25:39,034 --> 00:25:41,068 "Congratulations, you're leaving the family"? 576 00:25:44,931 --> 00:25:47,137 Congratulations, you're leaving the family. 577 00:25:47,137 --> 00:25:48,965 Like, I don't know what I'm supposed to say to this. 578 00:25:51,586 --> 00:25:53,793 I don't feel... 579 00:25:53,793 --> 00:25:57,137 ...jealous of Christine, that she's leaving, and I can't, 580 00:25:57,137 --> 00:25:59,827 because I can, I can do whatever I want. 581 00:25:59,827 --> 00:26:03,172 My strength is sticking around, 582 00:26:03,172 --> 00:26:06,379 and seeing if Kody would be willing 583 00:26:06,379 --> 00:26:08,793 to work on a relationship. 584 00:26:08,793 --> 00:26:11,137 So I leave that door open... 585 00:26:12,034 --> 00:26:14,344 ...but I'm not pining away for it. 586 00:26:18,103 --> 00:26:20,413 How is Truely thinking? I mean, like... 587 00:26:20,413 --> 00:26:21,965 When she first found out, she was 588 00:26:21,965 --> 00:26:24,103 really frustrated that we were moving. 589 00:26:24,103 --> 00:26:26,379 Really upset that we were moving, and then... 590 00:26:26,379 --> 00:26:28,586 She was more upset about moving 591 00:26:28,586 --> 00:26:32,068 than about Christine and I being divorced. 592 00:26:32,068 --> 00:26:34,413 When Christine first told Truely we weren't getting divorced, 593 00:26:34,413 --> 00:26:36,068 Truely was very upset. 594 00:26:36,068 --> 00:26:38,000 Whatever happened, 595 00:26:38,000 --> 00:26:41,137 she felt different about it by the time I talked to her about it. 596 00:26:41,137 --> 00:26:43,620 What did Christine do that made Truely go, 597 00:26:43,620 --> 00:26:46,241 "Oh, this divorce is okay." 598 00:26:46,241 --> 00:26:49,586 Like what kid is okay with their parents getting a divorce? 599 00:26:49,586 --> 00:26:52,275 After I told Truely that we were divorced, 600 00:26:52,275 --> 00:26:54,206 I called Kody immediately. 601 00:26:54,206 --> 00:26:56,344 And I said, "You might wanna come over and talk to her." 602 00:26:56,344 --> 00:26:58,344 Truely actually talked mostly 603 00:26:58,344 --> 00:27:00,965 to Ysabel and Aspyn 604 00:27:00,965 --> 00:27:02,931 about me getting divorced. 605 00:27:02,931 --> 00:27:05,620 She really didn't talk to me that much about it for the rest of the day, 606 00:27:05,620 --> 00:27:07,689 until Kody talked to her. 607 00:27:07,689 --> 00:27:09,172 I was sitting there talking with Truely 608 00:27:09,172 --> 00:27:11,344 and she's like, "Well, you and mom are divorced." 609 00:27:12,206 --> 00:27:13,379 I'm like, "Okay." 610 00:27:13,379 --> 00:27:14,655 I didn't realize... 611 00:27:16,068 --> 00:27:18,482 ...it was a little bit news to me. 612 00:27:18,482 --> 00:27:21,137 - How is it news to you? - That we're just divorced? 613 00:27:21,137 --> 00:27:22,137 Oh. 614 00:27:24,206 --> 00:27:26,206 We never made an official agreement. 615 00:27:26,206 --> 00:27:28,482 We never signed a paper. We never agreed. 616 00:27:28,482 --> 00:27:29,862 We never went to our church leaders 617 00:27:29,862 --> 00:27:32,448 and said, "Hey, we're divorced", or, "we want a divorce". 618 00:27:32,448 --> 00:27:34,517 You know, would they even allow us a divorce? 619 00:27:34,517 --> 00:27:36,275 All of a sudden it just sank into me 620 00:27:36,275 --> 00:27:39,758 that she's just, like, "Ah, I'm leaving, so we're divorced." 621 00:27:39,758 --> 00:27:43,482 Usually our church would say you're divorced, 622 00:27:43,482 --> 00:27:44,862 you have to go ask for a divorce. 623 00:27:44,862 --> 00:27:46,241 Yeah, yeah. 624 00:27:46,241 --> 00:27:48,689 You have to get paperwork, you have to get approval. 625 00:27:48,689 --> 00:27:51,172 You have to prove that marriage is broken. 626 00:27:51,172 --> 00:27:53,931 Christine just saying "I'm divorced" is sort of... 627 00:27:54,724 --> 00:27:55,758 ...invalidating... 628 00:27:57,172 --> 00:27:58,517 ...our beliefs. 629 00:27:58,517 --> 00:28:02,068 We're spiritually married to Kody by our church. 630 00:28:02,068 --> 00:28:04,344 If we want a divorce... 631 00:28:05,448 --> 00:28:09,103 ...um, then we have to go get their approval. 632 00:28:09,103 --> 00:28:11,241 Usually they require counseling. 633 00:28:11,241 --> 00:28:14,655 Usually they require lots and lots of meetings. 634 00:28:14,655 --> 00:28:17,172 You know, technically from my understanding, 635 00:28:17,172 --> 00:28:20,103 until Christine is physical with another man, she's not divorced. 636 00:28:21,862 --> 00:28:23,758 But I don't... I mean, I don't know. 637 00:28:24,517 --> 00:28:27,379 You know, as far as I know... 638 00:28:27,379 --> 00:28:30,000 ...it's just that your divorce has to be recognized. 639 00:28:30,000 --> 00:28:31,896 But Christine has left the faith. 640 00:28:31,896 --> 00:28:36,068 So she says it'll be between her and God, and I'm like, okay, 641 00:28:36,068 --> 00:28:40,551 'cause the rules don't apply to her anymore if she's not in the faith. 642 00:28:40,551 --> 00:28:44,241 I was 19 when my mom left my dad and left the plural family. 643 00:28:44,241 --> 00:28:46,379 She, um, got a legal divorce, 644 00:28:46,379 --> 00:28:48,689 'cause she was legally married to my dad. 645 00:28:49,551 --> 00:28:51,172 And then she just left our church. 646 00:28:51,172 --> 00:28:54,827 So, since I don't have any legal contract 647 00:28:54,827 --> 00:28:56,965 that binds me with Kody, 648 00:28:56,965 --> 00:29:01,310 there was no legal process that we've had to go through. 649 00:29:01,310 --> 00:29:04,172 Neither of us are part of that religion anymore. 650 00:29:04,172 --> 00:29:06,586 So me just saying, "I'm divorced"... 651 00:29:07,655 --> 00:29:08,931 ...I don't see the problem in that at all. 652 00:29:10,000 --> 00:29:12,275 So this is a little different. 653 00:29:13,931 --> 00:29:16,034 - I guess, because... - Yeah. 654 00:29:16,034 --> 00:29:19,586 You don't consider yourself to be a part of that church anymore. 655 00:29:19,586 --> 00:29:20,758 - No, I do not. - Okay. 656 00:29:24,827 --> 00:29:28,862 Well, the closure that she's saying that she gets is that she just decides. 657 00:29:28,862 --> 00:29:31,000 And he just kind of goes along with it. 658 00:29:32,068 --> 00:29:33,689 So, I... 659 00:29:34,689 --> 00:29:35,896 I don't know. 660 00:29:35,896 --> 00:29:38,206 Like, Kody and I are in this situation. 661 00:29:39,000 --> 00:29:40,413 We're not legally married. 662 00:29:41,896 --> 00:29:43,655 I want to work on the relationship, 663 00:29:43,655 --> 00:29:45,517 but Kody has basically said that he doesn't. 664 00:29:45,517 --> 00:29:48,000 Does that mean that we're just not married anymore? 665 00:29:48,000 --> 00:29:49,965 That's not how I consider it. 666 00:29:51,620 --> 00:29:53,000 I feel like we're still married. 667 00:29:55,034 --> 00:29:57,206 I don't really consider myself married to Meri. 668 00:29:58,586 --> 00:30:00,620 I just, if she wanted to... 669 00:30:00,620 --> 00:30:02,758 If she wanted to move on and marry another, 670 00:30:02,758 --> 00:30:04,862 she wouldn't get an argument with me. 671 00:30:04,862 --> 00:30:07,758 I don't believe that we can ever be functional. 672 00:30:08,931 --> 00:30:10,620 And I don't believe that I will ever 673 00:30:10,620 --> 00:30:13,241 be emotionally safe with her. 674 00:30:13,241 --> 00:30:16,517 The difference between me and Christine, and me and Meri, 675 00:30:16,517 --> 00:30:20,724 is that Meri and I have been unravelling our relationship for years. 676 00:30:20,724 --> 00:30:24,172 Christine found out that she would never be happy married to me, 677 00:30:24,172 --> 00:30:26,862 but her leaving was so sudden... 678 00:30:28,172 --> 00:30:29,137 ...that I... 679 00:30:30,586 --> 00:30:32,103 ...it was unraveled for me. 680 00:30:32,103 --> 00:30:35,689 It... It was like I was being kicked to the curb. 681 00:30:35,689 --> 00:30:37,068 And... And that was the difference. 682 00:30:37,068 --> 00:30:39,206 It was like, "Wait a second, you can't do this to me!" 683 00:30:41,655 --> 00:30:44,793 I guess in some ways I'm just sorry we dragged it out so long. 684 00:30:45,517 --> 00:30:47,931 - I'm not. - Really? 685 00:30:47,931 --> 00:30:51,172 I feel like everything you guys did proved... 686 00:30:51,172 --> 00:30:54,206 ...whatever, that you really did put everything into it that you could. 687 00:30:54,206 --> 00:30:56,517 And I think it was really important, 688 00:30:56,517 --> 00:30:58,172 'cause the biggest thing that we have all produced 689 00:30:58,172 --> 00:31:00,310 is this cohesive group of kids. 690 00:31:00,310 --> 00:31:02,000 They're not cohesive! 691 00:31:03,103 --> 00:31:06,241 Mariah is not fitting in well with the family. 692 00:31:06,241 --> 00:31:09,103 Paedon is not fitting in well with the family. 693 00:31:09,103 --> 00:31:12,000 Dayton, Aurora, Breanna, they don't fit in well 694 00:31:12,000 --> 00:31:13,551 with the rest of the family. 695 00:31:13,551 --> 00:31:16,275 Three of Janelle's kids are close to three of Christine's. 696 00:31:16,275 --> 00:31:18,275 And that's really it. 697 00:31:18,275 --> 00:31:19,896 I think there's a lot of potential, 698 00:31:19,896 --> 00:31:21,068 that they will be through their whole lives. 699 00:31:22,137 --> 00:31:23,793 I think those years were valuable, 700 00:31:23,793 --> 00:31:27,379 to have those kids be home, and have a nuclear family. 701 00:31:27,379 --> 00:31:29,413 So Kody is a little bit myopic. 702 00:31:29,413 --> 00:31:33,068 He sees everything from this perspective of Robyn and her kids. 703 00:31:33,068 --> 00:31:34,965 And they have this really weird perception 704 00:31:34,965 --> 00:31:37,206 that her kids have been so slighted. 705 00:31:37,206 --> 00:31:39,310 You know, I... I don't know why. 706 00:31:39,310 --> 00:31:41,000 I don't know why. 707 00:31:41,000 --> 00:31:44,793 'Cause I see the kids interact at holidays, everything seems fine. 708 00:31:44,793 --> 00:31:47,655 So I'm not quite sure why they perceive that there's this 709 00:31:47,655 --> 00:31:50,655 shunning or something, it's really weird. 710 00:31:50,655 --> 00:31:52,620 Robyn, me, and my children, 711 00:31:52,620 --> 00:31:55,793 are all connecting constantly. 712 00:31:55,793 --> 00:31:59,517 It's a, It's a, It's an energy of connection, perpetually. 713 00:31:59,517 --> 00:32:01,103 With Janelle and Christine, 714 00:32:01,103 --> 00:32:04,965 I'm only getting feedback from them about what's going on with the kids. 715 00:32:04,965 --> 00:32:08,551 The kids themselves are not bringing this to me. 716 00:32:08,551 --> 00:32:12,724 It's much more nuanced than just to say, "Kody favors Robyn". 717 00:32:12,724 --> 00:32:15,482 That's not even a cool statement. 718 00:32:15,482 --> 00:32:18,827 It's that she communicates, and her children communicate. 719 00:32:18,827 --> 00:32:20,758 They involve me. 720 00:32:22,724 --> 00:32:25,068 When you first told us, I kept thinking, "What about the kids?" 721 00:32:25,068 --> 00:32:26,931 But I have hope that... 722 00:32:28,137 --> 00:32:31,000 ...in time, like, we'll all eventually learn how to... 723 00:32:32,034 --> 00:32:33,655 ...cohesively coparent. 724 00:32:33,655 --> 00:32:36,862 Like, be together, possibly, even for holidays. I don't know. 725 00:32:38,206 --> 00:32:39,793 Do you know what I mean? I actually had a really good chance 726 00:32:39,793 --> 00:32:43,000 this summer to love on Avalon a little bit. 727 00:32:43,000 --> 00:32:44,655 She's so cute. 728 00:32:44,655 --> 00:32:49,793 And I'm like, "Okay. I can, I can see this. I can see this." 729 00:32:49,793 --> 00:32:54,000 Yeah, I can see being grandma to all of these babies, still. 730 00:32:54,000 --> 00:32:57,275 Regardless, if they're my biological grandkids. 731 00:32:57,275 --> 00:32:59,827 To me, they're still my grandbabies. 732 00:33:02,034 --> 00:33:05,551 I really don't know what life is gonna bring. 733 00:33:05,551 --> 00:33:08,517 Because we're not functioning as a family anymore, 734 00:33:08,517 --> 00:33:11,793 we haven't for a really, really long time. 735 00:33:11,793 --> 00:33:15,689 It's not just Kody and Christine's relationship 736 00:33:15,689 --> 00:33:17,034 that has been an issue. 737 00:33:17,034 --> 00:33:18,620 Like, there's a lot of fractures, 738 00:33:18,620 --> 00:33:21,482 and if people, you know, aren't gonna work on it, 739 00:33:21,482 --> 00:33:22,758 then, like, this is... 740 00:33:22,758 --> 00:33:25,862 this is the way of our family. 741 00:33:33,379 --> 00:33:36,689 We've been 12 years public, 742 00:33:36,689 --> 00:33:41,896 trying to convince the world that we have something legitimate. 743 00:33:41,896 --> 00:33:46,206 It feels like it delegitimizes everything I've worked for. 744 00:33:46,206 --> 00:33:47,862 I couldn't, with a clear conscience, 745 00:33:47,862 --> 00:33:51,413 ...stay married to someone who had favorites 746 00:33:51,413 --> 00:33:53,310 and made it very known. 747 00:33:54,413 --> 00:33:55,413 God. 748 00:34:10,517 --> 00:34:12,379 I... 749 00:34:14,275 --> 00:34:16,896 I cannot figure out why I'm so angry. 750 00:34:19,793 --> 00:34:23,620 You've been in this place for a very, very long time, 751 00:34:23,620 --> 00:34:25,620 and I'm just gradually getting clued in. 752 00:34:25,620 --> 00:34:27,206 I actually had to find out 753 00:34:27,206 --> 00:34:30,103 from Madison, that you had been saying... 754 00:34:31,310 --> 00:34:32,965 ...that you were thinking about leaving. 755 00:34:34,586 --> 00:34:36,689 Madison's my daughter with Janelle. 756 00:34:36,689 --> 00:34:39,896 And, you know, because I'd heard this rumor mill going on, 757 00:34:39,896 --> 00:34:41,551 I asked her, I questioned her. 758 00:34:41,551 --> 00:34:42,965 And she told me, 759 00:34:42,965 --> 00:34:46,000 "Yeah, Christine's been thinkin' about leaving for a long time." 760 00:34:46,000 --> 00:34:49,689 Okay, what you need to know is when you hear things through the grapevine, 761 00:34:49,689 --> 00:34:52,689 there's a whole other conversation that you don't get. 762 00:34:52,689 --> 00:34:54,172 When you hear things through the grapevine, 763 00:34:54,172 --> 00:34:56,034 you should maybe address the source. 764 00:34:56,034 --> 00:34:58,241 'Cause they asked me, 765 00:34:58,241 --> 00:35:01,275 "Why are you staying? Why don't you just leave?" 766 00:35:02,034 --> 00:35:03,482 They asked me. 767 00:35:04,724 --> 00:35:07,655 Christine has been talking about leaving me for longer 768 00:35:07,655 --> 00:35:09,586 than I have known, much longer. 769 00:35:09,586 --> 00:35:13,620 COVID may have changed things, but I was always here, 770 00:35:13,620 --> 00:35:15,241 I was always involved. 771 00:35:15,241 --> 00:35:18,586 Why would my children be trying to talk her into leaving me, 772 00:35:18,586 --> 00:35:20,551 unless she was telling them... 773 00:35:21,862 --> 00:35:23,896 ...that she was in a loveless marriage? 774 00:35:23,896 --> 00:35:25,689 - That and I-- - Who said to you "Why are you"-- 775 00:35:25,689 --> 00:35:26,931 It doesn't matter. 776 00:35:26,931 --> 00:35:28,551 It does matter! 777 00:35:28,551 --> 00:35:31,103 Okay, well I don't want to throw them under the bus. 778 00:35:31,103 --> 00:35:32,551 But they asked me, "Why stay? Why stay?" 779 00:35:32,551 --> 00:35:33,620 No, but we're talking about the, the-- 780 00:35:33,620 --> 00:35:35,413 Kody, I don't know if it matters. 781 00:35:35,413 --> 00:35:38,241 Kody, your kids. Like, several of your kids. Is that what you want to hear? 782 00:35:39,034 --> 00:35:40,068 Several of your kids. 783 00:35:40,068 --> 00:35:42,275 Why are they asking? Why were they asking that? 784 00:35:42,275 --> 00:35:44,206 They asked. They saw how things were in our family. 785 00:35:44,206 --> 00:35:45,896 They saw how separate we've been in Flagstaff. 786 00:35:45,896 --> 00:35:48,241 But that's... that's the family group, 787 00:35:48,241 --> 00:35:52,000 that's the culture, not the individual relationships. 788 00:35:52,000 --> 00:35:56,068 They also saw that Kody and I have been struggling for a long... for a long time. 789 00:35:56,068 --> 00:35:58,724 The kids were like, "It looked like in Vegas 790 00:35:58,724 --> 00:36:00,758 that you and Dad weren't really close anymore." 791 00:36:01,586 --> 00:36:02,862 - And-- - In Vegas? 792 00:36:02,862 --> 00:36:05,620 - Uh huh. - 'Kay. That's a lie. 793 00:36:05,620 --> 00:36:06,655 Okay, well... 794 00:36:08,379 --> 00:36:09,379 Hmm. 795 00:36:11,206 --> 00:36:12,931 'Cause I remember the conversations. 796 00:36:12,931 --> 00:36:14,758 I remember what was going on. 797 00:36:14,758 --> 00:36:18,344 I remember Janelle and Kody... 798 00:36:18,344 --> 00:36:21,034 ...making their relationship better than it ever had been. 799 00:36:22,137 --> 00:36:23,517 I remember him talking with you. 800 00:36:23,517 --> 00:36:26,206 I remember you guys having fun dates, 801 00:36:26,206 --> 00:36:29,103 and hearing about them, and seeing your guys' relationship. 802 00:36:29,103 --> 00:36:31,827 So either you guys were faking it in front of me... 803 00:36:34,551 --> 00:36:36,068 I don't know. 804 00:36:37,965 --> 00:36:41,655 You know, I don't know exactly why she's saying that I'm lying. 805 00:36:41,655 --> 00:36:43,241 Kody and I did struggle in Vegas. 806 00:36:44,310 --> 00:36:45,620 And my kids did see it. 807 00:36:46,827 --> 00:36:48,206 And, you know, she's sitting here saying 808 00:36:48,206 --> 00:36:51,724 that everybody's relationships were struggling in Las Vegas, 809 00:36:51,724 --> 00:36:53,172 and we didn't have what we had. 810 00:36:53,172 --> 00:36:57,068 And that Kody and I were the only ones that were okay. 811 00:36:57,068 --> 00:36:59,172 You know, that's not true. 812 00:37:01,172 --> 00:37:03,689 So, you can't say that this is just, like, 813 00:37:03,689 --> 00:37:05,206 it was all a big fat lie. 814 00:37:05,206 --> 00:37:07,206 Let's just be honest about where it was at, 815 00:37:07,206 --> 00:37:10,379 and that it wasn't just Kody and I. 816 00:37:10,379 --> 00:37:14,862 I'm pretty sure Robyn maybe misunderstood something that Christine said. 817 00:37:15,551 --> 00:37:17,689 It sounded to me, like, 818 00:37:17,689 --> 00:37:21,000 she was quoting questions that she had been asked. 819 00:37:22,000 --> 00:37:25,137 And I think Robyn took it that it was just about 820 00:37:25,896 --> 00:37:27,206 her and Kody. 821 00:37:27,206 --> 00:37:29,758 We were trying to make it work in Vegas. 822 00:37:29,758 --> 00:37:31,206 We were really trying. 823 00:37:31,206 --> 00:37:33,379 I've, I've been aware that there has been problems for a long time. 824 00:37:33,379 --> 00:37:35,620 - For a long time. - Well, I had no idea. 825 00:37:35,620 --> 00:37:37,724 I did not know. 826 00:37:37,724 --> 00:37:40,137 Do you know what? This is the weirdest interchange, 827 00:37:40,137 --> 00:37:41,931 'cause I've seen that Christine and Kody 828 00:37:41,931 --> 00:37:44,448 have been in a really bad spot for a long time. 829 00:37:44,448 --> 00:37:47,965 But it almost feels, like, they're trying to invalidate Christine. 830 00:37:47,965 --> 00:37:52,241 Just tell her that she's being crazy and that she's doing this on a whim. 831 00:37:52,241 --> 00:37:55,724 And it's the weirdest thing to me to watch this. 832 00:37:55,724 --> 00:37:58,206 And then we've had so many... 833 00:37:58,206 --> 00:38:02,137 ...more realistic conversations that happened last year between Kody and I. 834 00:38:02,137 --> 00:38:03,586 But you guys don't talk though, 835 00:38:03,586 --> 00:38:05,000 you guys don't communicate. 836 00:38:07,379 --> 00:38:10,620 You guys don't... You guys don't communicate very well at all, though. 837 00:38:10,620 --> 00:38:12,931 So I don't even see how that could be even... 838 00:38:14,965 --> 00:38:16,551 ...legitimate. 839 00:38:16,551 --> 00:38:20,896 - We've communicated better the last six months. -'Cause there's no, like... 840 00:38:20,896 --> 00:38:22,206 - Really? - Don't you think so? 841 00:38:22,206 --> 00:38:24,172 - No, not at all. - Oh. 842 00:38:24,172 --> 00:38:26,586 Uh, "Please stop staying here. 843 00:38:26,586 --> 00:38:31,068 Your stuff is out. I'm leaving. We're breaking up." 844 00:38:31,068 --> 00:38:35,241 It's all been in her court, she has just had control over everything over that. 845 00:38:35,241 --> 00:38:38,724 It's made her feel powerful, so she feels that she's communicating. 846 00:38:38,724 --> 00:38:41,379 I think we tried, it's not that we didn't try. 847 00:38:41,379 --> 00:38:43,965 Well, that fine, okay. Whatever, that's your guys' relationship. 848 00:38:43,965 --> 00:38:46,344 But don't lump all the other relationships in with it. 849 00:38:46,344 --> 00:38:48,413 I'm not trying to, I don't understand why you think I'm trying to. 850 00:38:48,413 --> 00:38:50,137 'Cause you're saying the only people, 851 00:38:50,137 --> 00:38:52,206 that the only relationship that was going okay 852 00:38:52,206 --> 00:38:54,862 - was, was mine and Kody's, and that's not true. - I never said that. 853 00:38:54,862 --> 00:38:56,310 You did say that. 854 00:38:56,310 --> 00:38:58,793 You said in Vegas, the only people that were close 855 00:38:58,793 --> 00:39:00,482 was, was, was us. 856 00:39:00,482 --> 00:39:02,689 - I didn't say that. - Then what did you say? 857 00:39:02,689 --> 00:39:04,413 I don't know. 858 00:39:04,413 --> 00:39:08,896 But I did not say that the only relationship in Vegas that was good was you guys. 859 00:39:08,896 --> 00:39:10,551 - Okay, well that's what I heard. - I didn't say that. 860 00:39:10,551 --> 00:39:12,379 - That's why I'm getting frustrated. - That's why you 861 00:39:12,379 --> 00:39:14,344 - were saying about Janelle and I having-- - Oh, oh. 862 00:39:14,344 --> 00:39:17,931 No, I know at least a little, I don't know everything, of course. 863 00:39:17,931 --> 00:39:21,000 But I know what the relationship was between you and Meri. 864 00:39:21,000 --> 00:39:24,965 I know that you and Kody were in such a good place in Vegas. 865 00:39:24,965 --> 00:39:27,551 Yeah, I don't really like being pulled into this, 866 00:39:27,551 --> 00:39:30,000 and using my relationship as an example 867 00:39:30,000 --> 00:39:31,896 as ammunition against Christine. 868 00:39:31,896 --> 00:39:33,655 And I'm like, "Whoa, whoa," 869 00:39:33,655 --> 00:39:37,103 and I'm sitting here wanting to say something, but I don't know what to say. 870 00:39:37,103 --> 00:39:40,310 Okay, and I'm sorry if that was ever... 871 00:39:40,310 --> 00:39:42,586 - Okay. - I never meant that in Vegas. 872 00:39:42,586 --> 00:39:44,103 Kody and I were struggling in Vegas. 873 00:39:45,620 --> 00:39:47,000 I must've gotten confused, 'cause... 874 00:39:48,172 --> 00:39:51,517 ...I do not know how I got that out of what she said. 875 00:39:59,517 --> 00:40:02,793 We've been 12 years public, 876 00:40:02,793 --> 00:40:06,620 11 years public, trying to convince the world 877 00:40:06,620 --> 00:40:08,241 that we have something legitimate. 878 00:40:10,172 --> 00:40:12,206 We've worked so hard. 879 00:40:13,793 --> 00:40:17,172 Begging the public, to accept our... 880 00:40:18,827 --> 00:40:20,862 ...marriage, our family. 881 00:40:20,862 --> 00:40:24,793 And in a moment, she decides we're divorced 882 00:40:24,793 --> 00:40:27,551 and it feels like it delegitimizes 883 00:40:27,551 --> 00:40:30,689 everything I've worked for, for so long. 884 00:40:35,931 --> 00:40:39,206 When I chose to leave Kody, 885 00:40:39,206 --> 00:40:42,103 I knew I would be open, publicly, about it. 886 00:40:42,103 --> 00:40:44,275 And this was a decision that I was making 887 00:40:44,275 --> 00:40:46,034 that other people would know. 888 00:40:46,034 --> 00:40:48,413 And it wasn't a private decision. 889 00:40:48,413 --> 00:40:51,482 And one of the things that I was concerned about 890 00:40:51,482 --> 00:40:53,517 was would I be considered a fraud? 891 00:40:53,517 --> 00:40:56,034 Would I be considered a liar? 892 00:40:56,034 --> 00:40:58,896 I know without a doubt, I have tried, 893 00:40:58,896 --> 00:41:00,655 for years, to make this work. 894 00:41:00,655 --> 00:41:03,517 I have a clear conscience, knowing that 895 00:41:03,517 --> 00:41:05,896 I gave it my best. 896 00:41:05,896 --> 00:41:08,896 If people wanna look at me and think otherwise... 897 00:41:10,034 --> 00:41:11,000 ...okay. 898 00:41:12,275 --> 00:41:14,586 Like, I can't do anything about that. 899 00:41:15,758 --> 00:41:19,206 Being a mom is my most important thing. 900 00:41:20,379 --> 00:41:22,172 But I couldn't, with a clear conscience, 901 00:41:22,172 --> 00:41:24,793 stay married to someone who... 902 00:41:25,827 --> 00:41:29,482 ...had favorites, and made it very known. 903 00:41:29,482 --> 00:41:31,758 And someone who was breaking my kids' hearts. 904 00:41:31,758 --> 00:41:33,689 I needed to stand with them instead. 905 00:41:35,103 --> 00:41:36,758 And I wanted to do it... 906 00:41:39,793 --> 00:41:40,793 ...for them. 907 00:41:42,206 --> 00:41:43,172 God. 908 00:41:49,689 --> 00:41:52,310 Next time on Sister Wives... 909 00:41:52,310 --> 00:41:55,517 I have seen her non-acceptance of Robyn 910 00:41:55,517 --> 00:41:57,827 and disdain for me through the years. 911 00:41:57,827 --> 00:42:00,310 She's treated you like dirt from the very beginning. 912 00:42:00,310 --> 00:42:02,896 That's the reason I'm pissed off. 913 00:42:02,896 --> 00:42:06,241 It's kind of that last little bit of hope sort of dying. 914 00:42:06,241 --> 00:42:09,206 Man, just a knife in the kidneys, 915 00:42:09,206 --> 00:42:11,862 over all these years! 916 00:42:11,862 --> 00:42:15,758 And the sacrifices that I made to love you! 917 00:42:16,931 --> 00:42:18,758 Wasted! 918 00:42:24,000 --> 00:42:25,310 I'm glad he said it. 919 00:42:26,724 --> 00:42:27,620 I'm tired. 920 00:42:28,827 --> 00:42:31,137 I'm tired. It's over.