1 00:00:06,423 --> 00:00:08,842 [theme music playing] 2 00:00:28,528 --> 00:00:31,531 [Ryan] Nothing that's worth anything comes without pain. 3 00:00:31,614 --> 00:00:32,991 ["Damaged Goods" playing] 4 00:00:43,543 --> 00:00:46,796 A work of art is only good if it arises from necessity, 5 00:00:47,464 --> 00:00:48,423 from need. 6 00:00:50,008 --> 00:00:53,303 And it can be political need or personal need 7 00:00:54,095 --> 00:00:56,139 or, ideally, both. 8 00:00:57,057 --> 00:00:59,267 ♪ Sometimes I'm thinking That I love you... ♪ 9 00:00:59,350 --> 00:01:03,104 [Ryan] Art should be confrontation. It should shock and scare you. 10 00:01:04,689 --> 00:01:05,607 And Hannah, 11 00:01:06,858 --> 00:01:08,485 she was an artist in need. 12 00:01:10,195 --> 00:01:11,780 And I think that's what happened. 13 00:01:12,989 --> 00:01:14,282 And she freaked people out. 14 00:01:14,532 --> 00:01:16,743 -[Cyrus clears throat] -All right. 15 00:01:17,535 --> 00:01:18,495 [Tyler laughs] 16 00:01:18,578 --> 00:01:24,167 And how does this not make us more likely to be the targets of abuse and ridicule? 17 00:01:24,876 --> 00:01:28,087 Because it's like claiming the word as our own. 18 00:01:28,505 --> 00:01:29,798 Reappropriation. 19 00:01:29,881 --> 00:01:32,967 Like saying we're the assholes, so don't fuck with us. 20 00:01:33,176 --> 00:01:36,387 Okay, yeah, sort of like our superhero outfits, right? 21 00:01:36,471 --> 00:01:40,850 Like, "It's a bird, it's a plane, it's the Assholes. It's us." 22 00:01:41,100 --> 00:01:43,561 Yeah. Just maybe don't say that. 23 00:01:45,855 --> 00:01:47,607 ♪ Your kiss so sweet ♪ 24 00:01:48,817 --> 00:01:50,735 ♪ Your sweat so sour ♪ 25 00:01:51,653 --> 00:01:53,863 ♪ Sometimes I'm thinking That I love you... ♪ 26 00:01:53,947 --> 00:01:56,282 [Ryan] A soul in need needs a way to express it. 27 00:01:57,200 --> 00:01:58,910 Silence is never the answer. 28 00:02:00,161 --> 00:02:02,664 But when there's so much going on inside you... 29 00:02:02,747 --> 00:02:04,124 [keys jingling] 30 00:02:05,208 --> 00:02:07,585 ...society expects us to stay silent. 31 00:02:16,427 --> 00:02:19,931 And it's a dangerous thing when there's so much going on inside you, 32 00:02:20,890 --> 00:02:22,433 but no one to share it with. 33 00:02:22,559 --> 00:02:23,977 [door opens] 34 00:02:24,060 --> 00:02:26,729 Kevin? Honey, you forgot your lunch. 35 00:02:27,313 --> 00:02:29,607 -Thanks. I'll be right there. -Okay. 36 00:02:48,293 --> 00:02:51,212 [Chlöe] Good Lord. These morning practices are killing me. 37 00:02:51,713 --> 00:02:54,340 I'm passing out at exactly 4:30 today. 38 00:02:55,675 --> 00:02:58,511 -Or you could come back to my place. -[sighs] 39 00:02:58,761 --> 00:03:00,680 I don't think I'm gonna have the energy-- 40 00:03:00,763 --> 00:03:02,724 For dinner? My parents wanna meet you. 41 00:03:02,807 --> 00:03:03,683 -They do? -Yeah. 42 00:03:03,933 --> 00:03:06,019 -That's so cool. -[chuckles] 43 00:03:06,102 --> 00:03:08,771 -Oh, my God, that's so terrifying. -No. It's no big deal. 44 00:03:08,855 --> 00:03:10,732 My dad happens to be in town for a bit. 45 00:03:11,900 --> 00:03:13,484 I'm always talking about you. 46 00:03:13,693 --> 00:03:16,654 I'm so excited. Amazing. 47 00:03:16,863 --> 00:03:18,239 -See you in third. -Okay. Bye. 48 00:03:21,993 --> 00:03:23,494 Babe, I wanted to talk to you about-- 49 00:03:23,578 --> 00:03:25,204 Wait. I should buy a dress. 50 00:03:25,413 --> 00:03:27,749 -You don't need to buy a dress. -Or at least go and change. 51 00:03:27,832 --> 00:03:30,668 -I'll need at least an hour, okay? -Yeah, fine. 52 00:03:30,877 --> 00:03:32,629 Hey, uh, how is practice 53 00:03:32,712 --> 00:03:36,090 with all the captain stuff and, you know, Jess? 54 00:03:36,424 --> 00:03:38,301 It's great. It's going really well. 55 00:03:38,551 --> 00:03:40,011 Cool. Awesome. Okay. 56 00:03:40,094 --> 00:03:41,054 -Bye. -Bye. 57 00:03:42,555 --> 00:03:44,599 [Ryan] Hannah needed to reclaim her power. 58 00:03:45,516 --> 00:03:47,185 Are you gonna ask him about the Polaroid? 59 00:03:48,144 --> 00:03:50,188 I don't trust him any more than I did yesterday. 60 00:03:50,271 --> 00:03:53,691 [exhales] How can you not trust that little sleeping angel? 61 00:04:00,990 --> 00:04:02,408 The fuck are you looking at? 62 00:04:04,160 --> 00:04:07,205 Justin, do you think that you can keep your shit together 63 00:04:07,288 --> 00:04:09,958 until someone comes over to look after you later? 64 00:04:10,416 --> 00:04:12,335 I'm running late. I gotta get to school. 65 00:04:12,460 --> 00:04:15,338 I'm fine. I don't need a babysitter. 66 00:04:16,589 --> 00:04:18,466 It's just so fucking cold in here. 67 00:04:18,800 --> 00:04:21,552 -[Hannah] Chills. He has a fever. -It's chills. You have a fever. 68 00:04:21,636 --> 00:04:23,179 Well, get him another blanket. 69 00:04:32,563 --> 00:04:35,024 -Maybe a shower would help. -I'm not that bad. 70 00:04:35,108 --> 00:04:38,444 You smell like dead feet. Just shower, please. 71 00:04:38,945 --> 00:04:39,946 Oh, I'm hungry. 72 00:04:41,239 --> 00:04:43,491 How can you be hungry? You threw everything up. 73 00:04:45,285 --> 00:04:46,536 Maybe that's why I'm hungry. 74 00:04:48,788 --> 00:04:49,706 Take a shower. 75 00:04:52,166 --> 00:04:53,167 Have you seen this? 76 00:04:54,669 --> 00:04:58,756 My God, was there anyone in your class this Hannah wasn't involved with? 77 00:05:00,049 --> 00:05:01,259 What? What do you mean? 78 00:05:01,426 --> 00:05:03,678 Every day, there's another boy in this story. 79 00:05:05,722 --> 00:05:08,141 It's not surprising that she had a reputation. 80 00:05:10,143 --> 00:05:13,563 I will just be glad when this is all over for you tomorrow, 81 00:05:14,022 --> 00:05:17,066 and you are as far removed from this mess as possible. 82 00:05:19,193 --> 00:05:20,069 Yep. 83 00:05:21,446 --> 00:05:23,197 [shower running] 84 00:05:29,454 --> 00:05:30,955 [faint splattering] 85 00:05:31,873 --> 00:05:33,082 [sighs] 86 00:05:33,958 --> 00:05:36,627 Hey. Your mom's starting to think you're avoiding us. 87 00:05:37,045 --> 00:05:40,965 [stammers] Avoiding you? No. No, no. I've just got a lot going on, you know? 88 00:05:41,049 --> 00:05:42,884 You can't take every meal in your room. 89 00:05:44,218 --> 00:05:47,430 I've just got so much work. 90 00:05:47,889 --> 00:05:51,392 How about taking a break with me tonight? Vertigo is at the Crestmont. 91 00:05:51,476 --> 00:05:52,393 Let's go. 92 00:05:53,644 --> 00:05:55,271 Oh, wow. I, um... 93 00:05:56,439 --> 00:05:57,940 Is that the shower? 94 00:05:58,024 --> 00:06:00,026 Yeah. Yeah, that's my, um... 95 00:06:00,485 --> 00:06:02,987 I just figured I'd grab some food while I let it heat up. 96 00:06:03,071 --> 00:06:05,114 The new tankless heater takes a while to warm up. 97 00:06:05,198 --> 00:06:07,241 -Shouldn't take this long. -It's not a big deal. 98 00:06:07,325 --> 00:06:09,952 No, sometimes the valve is on the cold side. 99 00:06:10,036 --> 00:06:11,329 It's all good. Have some coffee. 100 00:06:12,413 --> 00:06:14,165 Yeah, I'll get more. Yeah. Movie tonight? 101 00:06:14,707 --> 00:06:16,959 Exciting. So, yeah, thanks. 102 00:06:25,843 --> 00:06:27,011 What the fuck? 103 00:06:27,095 --> 00:06:30,264 Yeah, Dad. Plenty hot. Water heater's totally working. 104 00:06:34,602 --> 00:06:36,395 -[Justin] Shit. Sorry. -Just quiet. 105 00:06:36,479 --> 00:06:37,563 Okay. 106 00:06:39,190 --> 00:06:40,149 [sighs] 107 00:06:45,238 --> 00:06:46,322 Can you get out now? 108 00:06:46,864 --> 00:06:49,075 It has to look like I'm the one in the shower, idiot. 109 00:06:51,327 --> 00:06:54,455 Well, can you pass me some more shampoo? 110 00:06:55,706 --> 00:06:57,416 These kids need to be sympathetic, Olivia. 111 00:06:57,500 --> 00:07:00,837 I worry about calling Ryan Shaver. His deposition was practically smug. 112 00:07:00,920 --> 00:07:03,923 We're putting pieces together. We have to get Hannah's poem into evidence, 113 00:07:04,006 --> 00:07:05,258 and he's the one who... 114 00:07:06,717 --> 00:07:07,552 printed it. 115 00:07:10,805 --> 00:07:11,639 Morning. 116 00:07:12,723 --> 00:07:14,892 -Hi. I'm Andy. -Oh, of course, I remember. 117 00:07:15,685 --> 00:07:17,645 -Will you be joining us today? -No, he won't. 118 00:07:20,106 --> 00:07:22,066 Well, I'll give you two a minute. 119 00:07:27,447 --> 00:07:29,198 I wanna be here with you. 120 00:07:29,782 --> 00:07:33,035 I need to be here. I'm sorry I haven't been. 121 00:07:33,786 --> 00:07:35,580 The things they've been saying in there, 122 00:07:36,456 --> 00:07:40,293 things that you'll hear, you have no idea. 123 00:07:41,711 --> 00:07:42,545 I'll learn. 124 00:07:47,216 --> 00:07:51,053 [Justin] I don't know. It's definitely not the pool house. 125 00:07:52,638 --> 00:07:54,182 [Clay] So, where is it, then? 126 00:07:54,682 --> 00:07:57,810 I could ask one of the guys and maybe figure out-- 127 00:07:57,894 --> 00:08:02,773 No. You stay here until you're clean. For Jessica. 128 00:08:04,317 --> 00:08:06,068 I could just show this around. It's-- 129 00:08:06,652 --> 00:08:07,904 No, I got it. Thanks. 130 00:08:08,488 --> 00:08:09,989 [Tony] Fuck me. Fuck. 131 00:08:12,492 --> 00:08:13,534 Wait... 132 00:08:14,327 --> 00:08:16,579 He's my babysitter? What happened to Sheri? 133 00:08:16,871 --> 00:08:20,625 Sheri couldn't skip twice in a row. She's taking the evening shift. 134 00:08:21,250 --> 00:08:23,127 I thought he wanted nothing to do with me. 135 00:08:23,419 --> 00:08:24,337 No, I don't. 136 00:08:24,712 --> 00:08:27,131 So keep your mouth shut and don't piss me off. 137 00:08:27,215 --> 00:08:29,008 Don't piss me off. 138 00:08:29,091 --> 00:08:32,053 And if you puke on this leather, I'm gonna have to kick your ass. 139 00:08:32,303 --> 00:08:33,137 Great. 140 00:08:33,721 --> 00:08:38,601 So, WebMD detox info and contingency plans are on the desk. 141 00:08:38,684 --> 00:08:42,355 Don't let anyone see you. And I gotta go. 142 00:08:42,438 --> 00:08:45,816 Um, have fun. Don't kill each other. Thanks. 143 00:08:46,651 --> 00:08:47,610 [Clay] Bye. 144 00:08:49,529 --> 00:08:51,572 [Ryan] But, as is almost always the case in high school, 145 00:08:51,656 --> 00:08:53,491 we mock what we don't understand. 146 00:08:53,574 --> 00:08:55,326 That's what kids at Liberty did to Hannah. 147 00:08:55,409 --> 00:08:56,494 [Dennis] What about faculty? 148 00:08:56,619 --> 00:09:00,748 I mean, didn't they express concern over the poem's suicidal contents? 149 00:09:00,873 --> 00:09:04,293 The poem was read aloud in Mrs. Cusick's class. That's about it. 150 00:09:04,585 --> 00:09:06,212 So no one addressed 151 00:09:06,295 --> 00:09:09,757 the anonymous author's obvious cry for help 152 00:09:09,840 --> 00:09:12,426 or asked you who wrote it? 153 00:09:12,718 --> 00:09:14,303 Nope. No one took it seriously. 154 00:09:15,846 --> 00:09:17,473 But then again, they rarely do. 155 00:09:22,061 --> 00:09:23,437 ["Maniac" playing] 156 00:09:23,729 --> 00:09:28,109 ♪ We hit the big time Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah ♪ 157 00:09:28,192 --> 00:09:30,820 ♪ I'm such a maniac You're such a maniac ♪ 158 00:09:30,903 --> 00:09:33,739 ♪ We're fuckin' maniacs We're fuckin' maniacs ♪ 159 00:09:33,823 --> 00:09:35,825 ♪ Ooh ♪ 160 00:09:36,867 --> 00:09:37,868 [Mr. Porter] Mr. Down? 161 00:09:37,952 --> 00:09:40,746 ♪ The city of night Is the city of fools... ♪ 162 00:09:42,748 --> 00:09:44,709 My office, now. 163 00:09:59,307 --> 00:10:00,766 I think you know why you're here. 164 00:10:01,434 --> 00:10:02,268 Yeah, I'm aware. 165 00:10:09,150 --> 00:10:10,610 You wanna tell me about these? 166 00:10:12,403 --> 00:10:14,071 Wait, that's what this is about? 167 00:10:14,655 --> 00:10:16,198 You took the pictures. 168 00:10:17,116 --> 00:10:19,118 Yeah, last year. 169 00:10:20,286 --> 00:10:22,455 How'd they end up saying, "drunk slut"? 170 00:10:23,122 --> 00:10:24,707 Mr. Porter, I didn't do that. 171 00:10:25,041 --> 00:10:27,084 I went into the photography classroom, 172 00:10:27,168 --> 00:10:30,087 and the printer history in the lab said that you were signed in. 173 00:10:30,296 --> 00:10:33,549 Someone must've used it while I was developing in the darkroom then. 174 00:10:33,633 --> 00:10:34,467 Okay. 175 00:10:34,925 --> 00:10:35,760 [scoffs] 176 00:10:35,843 --> 00:10:38,929 So do we know who might be doing this to Jessica, then? 177 00:10:39,847 --> 00:10:43,017 Same person who smashed my camera. Did anyone ever find them? 178 00:10:43,976 --> 00:10:45,728 But Jessica and I get messed with? 179 00:10:46,020 --> 00:10:48,230 And the people that deserve to get messed with never do. 180 00:10:48,606 --> 00:10:49,857 I think that can change. 181 00:10:50,024 --> 00:10:51,567 I'll believe it when I see it. 182 00:10:52,026 --> 00:10:54,153 [indistinct chattering] 183 00:11:06,165 --> 00:11:09,460 Isn't this, like, your special resources period? 184 00:11:09,835 --> 00:11:13,422 Yeah, I hate that shit. I just-- I gotta listen to these again. 185 00:11:15,925 --> 00:11:16,967 Alex, uh... 186 00:11:20,262 --> 00:11:22,640 last time, you listened, I think, multiple times. 187 00:11:22,723 --> 00:11:24,183 Yeah, I know. I just... 188 00:11:25,059 --> 00:11:28,270 I keep listening to mine over and over because it doesn't make sense. 189 00:11:29,271 --> 00:11:30,731 It's like I'm missing something. 190 00:11:33,192 --> 00:11:34,068 Do you... 191 00:11:35,069 --> 00:11:36,195 Do you wanna talk about it? 192 00:11:36,862 --> 00:11:39,407 -Aren't we talking about it? -I guess so. 193 00:11:46,372 --> 00:11:47,998 [Clay] Hey, what is that guy doing? 194 00:11:48,374 --> 00:11:50,042 [Alex] Uh, chalking the field. 195 00:11:51,168 --> 00:11:52,044 What is that machine? 196 00:11:52,503 --> 00:11:55,506 [Alex] I don't know. Like... I guess it's a chalk machine? 197 00:11:56,966 --> 00:11:57,800 I gotta go. 198 00:11:58,050 --> 00:12:00,010 I don't know if it's called a chalk machine. 199 00:12:00,094 --> 00:12:01,178 No, I just... 200 00:12:02,471 --> 00:12:05,933 -Look, don't listen too hard, okay? -Yeah. 201 00:12:25,453 --> 00:12:28,330 [Hannah] It seems like nothing until the hurricane hits. 202 00:12:29,123 --> 00:12:30,374 Is that why you did it, Alex? 203 00:12:36,672 --> 00:12:39,383 [Ryan] I can't pretend to know what goes on in someone else's head. 204 00:12:39,800 --> 00:12:41,010 It's poetry. 205 00:12:41,093 --> 00:12:44,013 Most of the poets in our group write about dark and messed-up things. 206 00:12:44,096 --> 00:12:48,601 So you had no idea that Hannah was crying out for help in her work, 207 00:12:48,684 --> 00:12:50,686 or so the prosecution would have us believe, 208 00:12:50,769 --> 00:12:53,898 but you expect the school to draw that conclusion? 209 00:12:53,981 --> 00:12:55,566 [Ryan] It's their job, isn't it? 210 00:12:56,400 --> 00:12:58,861 I mean, I'm sorry, but I'm not a licensed therapist, 211 00:12:58,944 --> 00:12:59,862 or a teacher. 212 00:13:00,279 --> 00:13:03,324 Ryan, isn't it true that you worked with Hannah 213 00:13:03,407 --> 00:13:05,117 on many of her other poems? 214 00:13:05,659 --> 00:13:07,328 Some, yes. 215 00:13:08,287 --> 00:13:10,831 And do you recognize these? 216 00:13:16,921 --> 00:13:19,465 Yes, they're other poems from Hannah's journals. 217 00:13:19,757 --> 00:13:21,592 Defense Exhibit F, Your Honor. 218 00:13:21,675 --> 00:13:24,637 Uh, Ryan, did you work with Hannah on this poem? 219 00:13:25,137 --> 00:13:26,305 Yes, I did. 220 00:13:27,181 --> 00:13:29,225 Would you read this poem for the court, please? 221 00:13:36,565 --> 00:13:39,276 "Oh, fruit forbidden, so sour, so sweet..." 222 00:13:39,568 --> 00:13:41,487 [Hannah] "I have been banished from the garden, 223 00:13:41,570 --> 00:13:42,863 and I don't think I miss it. 224 00:13:43,656 --> 00:13:45,574 And yet I want another bite." 225 00:13:45,658 --> 00:13:47,660 [pop music playing softly over speakers] 226 00:13:48,577 --> 00:13:50,746 I like how you subverted the ode. That's good. 227 00:13:52,039 --> 00:13:53,916 Some obvious metaphors there, 228 00:13:55,334 --> 00:13:57,211 but there's a universality to it. 229 00:13:58,671 --> 00:13:59,922 -I'm just-- -[cell phone pings] 230 00:14:01,507 --> 00:14:02,675 Sorry, uh, keep going. 231 00:14:03,384 --> 00:14:07,012 I was going to say, I'm just wondering if you shouldn't delve a little deeper. 232 00:14:07,388 --> 00:14:08,806 You had another you wanted to read? 233 00:14:08,889 --> 00:14:09,765 -Uh... -[phone pings] 234 00:14:09,848 --> 00:14:11,016 -Yeah. -Okay. 235 00:14:11,100 --> 00:14:14,979 Look, I know it seems silly, but the no-phone rule is for a very good-- 236 00:14:19,817 --> 00:14:21,235 Justin Foley? 237 00:14:23,237 --> 00:14:24,446 Shut up. Are--? 238 00:14:26,991 --> 00:14:27,908 Hang on. 239 00:14:28,742 --> 00:14:30,536 Holy shit. 240 00:14:30,619 --> 00:14:32,746 -He's your forbidden fruit? -No, he's not. 241 00:14:32,830 --> 00:14:34,999 -We just text sometimes. -Oh, you text? 242 00:14:35,374 --> 00:14:37,376 And talk on the phone a little. 243 00:14:37,543 --> 00:14:39,295 -Since when? -I don't know. 244 00:14:39,378 --> 00:14:41,672 He texted me that day saying he was sorry, 245 00:14:41,755 --> 00:14:44,800 and then, again, the next day. Eventually, I stopped ignoring him. 246 00:14:45,301 --> 00:14:48,053 And it felt good to know that things didn't end up the way 247 00:14:48,137 --> 00:14:50,014 -that people think they did. -What--? 248 00:14:50,639 --> 00:14:53,475 -You just told me to delve deeper. -Not into him. 249 00:14:53,642 --> 00:14:55,853 -You said yourself he ruined you. -I know. 250 00:14:56,645 --> 00:14:59,106 -I know, I just... -Okay. I get it. 251 00:14:59,773 --> 00:15:01,066 He makes all our panties drop. 252 00:15:01,567 --> 00:15:03,277 Wait, you think Justin's hot? 253 00:15:03,360 --> 00:15:06,488 Of course I do. I'm not blind, or, like, chemically castrated. 254 00:15:06,822 --> 00:15:08,532 You said, and I'm quoting, 255 00:15:08,616 --> 00:15:11,952 that he was "the exemplar of athleticus douchebaggerus." 256 00:15:12,036 --> 00:15:13,579 Which only makes him hotter. 257 00:15:13,829 --> 00:15:16,832 -I know, right? How is that even fair? -All right, enough. 258 00:15:17,374 --> 00:15:20,210 You put your hand on the hot stove. Owie! You've learned your lesson. 259 00:15:21,378 --> 00:15:23,047 -Yes? -Yes. 260 00:15:25,382 --> 00:15:26,258 [chuckles] 261 00:15:26,342 --> 00:15:28,469 You are going to delete him from your phone... 262 00:15:28,552 --> 00:15:30,679 -Ugh. -...and cleanse him from your heart. 263 00:15:30,763 --> 00:15:33,265 Well, we should probably skip my next three poems. 264 00:15:33,933 --> 00:15:35,267 -[chuckling] -Why? 265 00:15:36,310 --> 00:15:37,144 [sighs] 266 00:15:39,939 --> 00:15:41,357 "It was the smile that did it first. 267 00:15:41,440 --> 00:15:44,485 The way it seemed so easy for you to be so happy. 268 00:15:45,986 --> 00:15:48,280 That smile I wish I'd never seen." 269 00:15:48,364 --> 00:15:49,698 -Stop it. -[chuckles] 270 00:15:52,826 --> 00:15:55,329 And do you know who this poem is about, Ryan? 271 00:15:55,955 --> 00:15:58,624 -Objection. Hearsay. -Declarant unavailable, Your Honor. 272 00:15:59,124 --> 00:16:01,961 -[judge] I'll allow it. -And who is this poem about, Ryan? 273 00:16:07,174 --> 00:16:08,092 I don't know. 274 00:16:09,259 --> 00:16:10,177 Hmm. 275 00:16:10,761 --> 00:16:12,930 Ryan, why don't you read another poem for us? 276 00:16:14,473 --> 00:16:16,976 [Tyler] Fucking Ryan Shaver. 277 00:16:17,643 --> 00:16:21,021 Every single kid who's gone to court has completely skated. 278 00:16:22,523 --> 00:16:25,818 No one has admitted what they did. It's just me. I'm the only one. 279 00:16:27,111 --> 00:16:30,781 -Yeah, that Ryan's a fucking tool. -Worst kind of gay. 280 00:16:34,368 --> 00:16:36,912 I mean, I didn't mean that because he's gay. 281 00:16:36,996 --> 00:16:37,871 Oh, I did. 282 00:16:37,955 --> 00:16:41,959 He's fucking shallow and pretentious, and he fucking dresses gay every day. 283 00:16:43,043 --> 00:16:44,378 [exhales] Classic homo. 284 00:16:45,045 --> 00:16:48,132 Chad's also gay, FYI. 285 00:16:48,215 --> 00:16:50,134 Hence, he can say shit the rest of us can't. 286 00:16:52,344 --> 00:16:54,638 And if you ever want to fuck with him, 287 00:16:55,848 --> 00:16:56,974 there's an app for that. 288 00:17:05,107 --> 00:17:07,151 I raised you three rectangular ones. 289 00:17:10,946 --> 00:17:13,824 If I win, we get to go outside. 290 00:17:13,907 --> 00:17:15,409 -No. -Come on, just for a walk. 291 00:17:15,492 --> 00:17:17,661 No. I'm sorry. 292 00:17:18,162 --> 00:17:19,329 You heard the bossman. 293 00:17:19,788 --> 00:17:22,624 Besides, you got people looking for you on both sides of the law. 294 00:17:24,168 --> 00:17:27,046 Since when is Tony Padilla afraid of shit like that? 295 00:17:33,177 --> 00:17:34,136 Holy shit. 296 00:17:36,096 --> 00:17:37,097 You are scared. 297 00:17:38,515 --> 00:17:39,475 Why? 298 00:17:55,574 --> 00:17:57,576 My brothers and I, we beat this guy up. 299 00:17:58,118 --> 00:18:01,080 He ended up pressing charges a few weeks later. 300 00:18:01,663 --> 00:18:04,083 That was my second strike, now I'm on probation. 301 00:18:05,793 --> 00:18:08,670 If I get seen with you, we get busted, 302 00:18:10,130 --> 00:18:12,966 that means number three, that means I do time. 303 00:18:16,136 --> 00:18:17,179 Shit. 304 00:18:19,973 --> 00:18:20,808 [Justin sniffing] 305 00:18:23,519 --> 00:18:25,145 What the fuck happened to you? 306 00:18:26,563 --> 00:18:28,816 -You don't gotta tell me. -No, no, no. It's... 307 00:18:31,735 --> 00:18:32,820 It's cool. It's... 308 00:18:34,530 --> 00:18:38,367 I just basically blew through most of my money 309 00:18:38,450 --> 00:18:40,452 the first few weeks I was out, 310 00:18:40,869 --> 00:18:42,663 living in, like, motels and shit. 311 00:18:44,164 --> 00:18:47,292 Yeah, oxy was like taking the edge off, but... 312 00:18:48,460 --> 00:18:50,337 all these pills are so pricey, and... 313 00:18:51,922 --> 00:18:53,090 heroin's cheap. 314 00:18:55,717 --> 00:18:56,844 So you know, here I am. 315 00:19:00,222 --> 00:19:02,683 Shitting myself in Clay Jensen's bathroom. 316 00:19:10,816 --> 00:19:12,151 Put your fucking shoes on. 317 00:19:17,364 --> 00:19:19,867 So your parents weren't pissed about yesterday? 318 00:19:20,701 --> 00:19:23,120 No. They were disappointed. 319 00:19:23,203 --> 00:19:26,248 Oh, disappointed. I hate that shit. 320 00:19:27,332 --> 00:19:30,794 Plus, they want me to go to group therapy, talk to someone. 321 00:19:32,212 --> 00:19:34,798 -You can always talk to me. -That's what I said. 322 00:19:35,716 --> 00:19:41,138 Yeah, I won't, um, try to kiss you every time or anything. [scoffs] 323 00:19:41,722 --> 00:19:42,681 Yeah. 324 00:19:44,266 --> 00:19:45,392 About that, I, uh... 325 00:19:45,475 --> 00:19:48,270 [stammers] No, I mean, we don't have to... 326 00:19:49,188 --> 00:19:52,316 We don't have to be about that, you know, ever again, so... 327 00:19:53,650 --> 00:19:54,568 Okay. 328 00:19:55,777 --> 00:19:56,820 Thanks. 329 00:19:59,531 --> 00:20:00,908 I listened to the tapes. 330 00:20:01,825 --> 00:20:03,327 Clay finally gave them to me. 331 00:20:05,579 --> 00:20:06,455 Jesus. 332 00:20:09,541 --> 00:20:10,542 Are you... 333 00:20:10,918 --> 00:20:13,086 -Are you okay? -Yeah. 334 00:20:14,046 --> 00:20:15,005 Are you? 335 00:20:16,423 --> 00:20:18,717 You never told me the whole story about Bryce. 336 00:20:19,259 --> 00:20:22,012 If I wanted to talk about that, I'd go to stupid group therapy. 337 00:20:23,096 --> 00:20:23,972 Okay. 338 00:20:25,182 --> 00:20:26,099 Yeah, I get it. 339 00:20:26,516 --> 00:20:28,560 I don't even know the whole story myself. 340 00:20:29,645 --> 00:20:33,899 -I don't remember all of it. -Yeah, me neither. 341 00:20:37,819 --> 00:20:38,862 [Clay] Here we go. 342 00:20:40,489 --> 00:20:43,742 I think I saw one of those chalk machine things in here somewhere. 343 00:20:44,284 --> 00:20:45,160 Which would mean? 344 00:20:47,204 --> 00:20:48,622 The pictures were taken at school. 345 00:20:49,539 --> 00:20:50,374 And? 346 00:20:51,500 --> 00:20:53,085 It would be huge for your case. 347 00:20:56,505 --> 00:20:57,589 And? 348 00:21:02,261 --> 00:21:04,179 And holy shit, there it is. 349 00:21:18,110 --> 00:21:19,403 We gotta find that room. 350 00:21:19,778 --> 00:21:22,155 [Ryan] "Do I put that target on my back again and again? 351 00:21:22,531 --> 00:21:25,951 Or do I face a lifetime of wanting the thing I should not have?" 352 00:21:26,827 --> 00:21:29,454 [Sonya] You've read three poems now, so I'll ask you again, 353 00:21:30,414 --> 00:21:31,873 who were these poems about? 354 00:21:31,957 --> 00:21:33,875 [Dennis] Objection. Asked and answered. 355 00:21:33,959 --> 00:21:36,420 -[Sonya] Your Honor? -[judge] I'll allow it. 356 00:21:43,343 --> 00:21:44,761 Who's the poem about, Ryan? 357 00:21:47,973 --> 00:21:48,807 Justin Foley. 358 00:21:51,143 --> 00:21:55,230 So, after Justin Foley, in her own words, 359 00:21:55,564 --> 00:21:58,066 "ruined her and destroyed her reputation," 360 00:21:58,150 --> 00:22:00,027 she maintained contact with him? 361 00:22:00,819 --> 00:22:01,737 Yes. 362 00:22:02,029 --> 00:22:04,990 -And kept writing poetry about him? -Yes. 363 00:22:05,866 --> 00:22:08,952 [Sonya] Nearly a half-dozen poems. Any further mention of depression 364 00:22:09,036 --> 00:22:10,495 or cries for help? 365 00:22:13,123 --> 00:22:13,957 No. 366 00:22:14,708 --> 00:22:15,834 And to your knowledge, 367 00:22:16,668 --> 00:22:20,339 did she maintain personal contact with Justin Foley? 368 00:22:20,756 --> 00:22:21,590 I... 369 00:22:23,175 --> 00:22:24,134 I don't know. 370 00:22:25,385 --> 00:22:27,512 [rock music plays softly over speakers] 371 00:22:39,983 --> 00:22:41,610 Uh... hey. 372 00:22:41,693 --> 00:22:42,861 [chuckles] 373 00:22:42,944 --> 00:22:45,030 [stammers] You texted me you were here. 374 00:22:45,113 --> 00:22:47,699 Never thinking you would, like, come visit. 375 00:22:47,991 --> 00:22:49,743 Yeah, well... 376 00:22:51,578 --> 00:22:53,872 -Did you just feel like a latte? -[chuckles] 377 00:22:54,831 --> 00:22:57,042 Actually, do you think they have Gatorade here? 378 00:22:57,125 --> 00:22:58,251 I'm guessing no. 379 00:23:00,087 --> 00:23:02,089 Yeah, I've actually never been in here. 380 00:23:02,506 --> 00:23:05,509 Well, neither have any of your friends, so it's safe. 381 00:23:06,134 --> 00:23:07,052 That's not-- 382 00:23:07,344 --> 00:23:08,178 I just... 383 00:23:11,640 --> 00:23:13,725 We haven't really talked in a while, so I... 384 00:23:14,601 --> 00:23:17,229 I thought maybe I wanted to see you, that's all. 385 00:23:17,312 --> 00:23:18,480 Well, you see me at school. 386 00:23:18,855 --> 00:23:20,690 Yeah, but you know how that is. 387 00:23:21,525 --> 00:23:23,026 I don't, really. How is it? 388 00:23:23,944 --> 00:23:25,529 Look, I don't fucking like it, either. 389 00:23:26,404 --> 00:23:29,741 But once you get tagged at Liberty, that's what you've got. 390 00:23:30,075 --> 00:23:32,702 Your tag seems a little easier to live with than mine. 391 00:23:32,786 --> 00:23:34,663 Look, I said I was sorry. 392 00:23:35,831 --> 00:23:37,457 I've been saying it for months. 393 00:23:38,083 --> 00:23:40,460 -Texting it, mostly. -Well... 394 00:23:41,086 --> 00:23:42,546 -I am. -[footsteps approaching] 395 00:23:44,381 --> 00:23:45,215 Sorry I'm late. 396 00:23:46,091 --> 00:23:48,677 -Why, hello, Justin. -Uh, hey, hey. Wha... 397 00:23:49,469 --> 00:23:50,387 What's up? 398 00:23:51,847 --> 00:23:55,350 [Justin] Yeah, we were just finishing up some homework stuff, so... 399 00:23:56,059 --> 00:23:58,937 -Yeah, I'll see you at school. -Sure. Talk to you at school. 400 00:24:03,733 --> 00:24:06,153 Look, he just showed up. 401 00:24:06,236 --> 00:24:08,697 -Hmm. -I didn't ask him to. 402 00:24:11,658 --> 00:24:12,534 I know. 403 00:24:13,451 --> 00:24:16,746 -Okay, I know. Leave me alone. -Cleanse him, Hannah, cleanse. 404 00:24:17,330 --> 00:24:18,373 Cleanse. 405 00:24:19,082 --> 00:24:22,627 I mean, she wrote about longing, about love and the lack of love. 406 00:24:22,919 --> 00:24:24,754 Why didn't you publish any of those poems? 407 00:24:24,838 --> 00:24:26,464 Because they weren't any good. 408 00:24:26,548 --> 00:24:27,841 [Sonya] Ryan, be honest. 409 00:24:27,924 --> 00:24:30,552 You published the poem you did not because it was her truth, 410 00:24:30,635 --> 00:24:33,972 but because you thought it would shock the most, didn't you? 411 00:24:39,561 --> 00:24:40,395 No. 412 00:24:41,938 --> 00:24:45,609 She wasn't happy. She was extremely upset and hurting. 413 00:24:45,984 --> 00:24:49,279 She wrote about Justin and-- and other boys because she was lonely. 414 00:24:51,364 --> 00:24:54,618 It's not about them, it's about what they represented. 415 00:24:55,785 --> 00:24:57,954 What they did to her and what you're doing right-- 416 00:24:58,038 --> 00:25:00,373 No further questions, Your Honor. Thank you, Ryan. 417 00:25:00,457 --> 00:25:01,625 Redirect, Your Honor? 418 00:25:02,584 --> 00:25:06,546 Ryan, why do you think Hannah continued texting with Justin? 419 00:25:08,173 --> 00:25:09,966 Justin Foley was a bad decision. 420 00:25:10,800 --> 00:25:12,469 And we all make bad decisions. 421 00:25:13,762 --> 00:25:15,680 Especially when we're desperately alone. 422 00:25:17,349 --> 00:25:19,684 -Yeah, I think we should head back now. -No. 423 00:25:20,518 --> 00:25:21,770 It's so nice out. 424 00:25:22,312 --> 00:25:25,899 Some fresh air, some vitamin D. 425 00:25:25,982 --> 00:25:27,275 -Yeah. -Some... some... 426 00:25:28,735 --> 00:25:30,028 -Oh, shit. -Oh, come on. 427 00:25:30,111 --> 00:25:31,988 [retches] 428 00:25:32,072 --> 00:25:32,906 Shit. 429 00:25:35,700 --> 00:25:37,452 -Sorry. -Jesus Christ, man. 430 00:25:37,535 --> 00:25:38,912 Don't fucking talk to people. 431 00:25:39,537 --> 00:25:42,874 I was just apologizing to the purple tracksuit lady. It's... 432 00:25:43,541 --> 00:25:44,417 Ugh. 433 00:25:44,501 --> 00:25:47,337 I don't get this whole secret agent routine. 434 00:25:47,420 --> 00:25:48,672 Oh, really, you don't get 435 00:25:48,755 --> 00:25:51,508 that there are some people who might not be happy to have you back? 436 00:25:55,095 --> 00:25:56,596 Jessica wants me back. 437 00:25:57,764 --> 00:25:59,099 That's all that fucking matters. 438 00:26:00,308 --> 00:26:01,935 Yeah. Yeah. 439 00:26:02,936 --> 00:26:06,314 -Right? That's what she said, right? -I didn't talk to her, Clay did. 440 00:26:07,857 --> 00:26:09,359 He said she wants me here. 441 00:26:09,442 --> 00:26:11,194 [rock music blaring over speakers] 442 00:26:11,903 --> 00:26:12,904 [Tony] I don't think... 443 00:26:13,530 --> 00:26:14,781 I don't think it's that simple. 444 00:26:16,283 --> 00:26:17,951 -I think she... -What? What is it? 445 00:26:18,368 --> 00:26:19,661 Does that car look familiar? 446 00:26:20,453 --> 00:26:22,414 -[Justin] Whose is it? -I don't know. Obviously, 447 00:26:22,497 --> 00:26:25,083 they go to our school. So you got your wish. 448 00:26:25,166 --> 00:26:26,793 Everybody's gonna know you're back. 449 00:26:28,712 --> 00:26:30,463 -[car honking] -[indistinct chattering] 450 00:26:33,258 --> 00:26:35,593 -I'm glad you came. -[Andy] Me, too. 451 00:26:36,511 --> 00:26:39,264 -That was a lot to take. -Oh, today was a good day. 452 00:26:40,181 --> 00:26:42,100 It can get much worse, believe me. 453 00:26:42,934 --> 00:26:43,852 I believe you. 454 00:26:44,769 --> 00:26:45,645 See you tomorrow. 455 00:26:50,525 --> 00:26:52,777 It's nice seeing you two together. 456 00:26:54,279 --> 00:26:57,073 -Nice for the jury, too, right? -That's not what I'm thinking. 457 00:26:57,157 --> 00:27:00,452 -Well, I am. -Okay, I understand. 458 00:27:01,786 --> 00:27:03,330 I'm worried about you, though. 459 00:27:04,914 --> 00:27:07,167 It's easy to fall into old patterns, 460 00:27:07,917 --> 00:27:11,087 to rely on someone who has proven unreliable. 461 00:27:13,798 --> 00:27:14,758 Don't worry. 462 00:27:16,176 --> 00:27:17,260 I've moved on. 463 00:27:18,845 --> 00:27:21,806 [Ryan] A lot of us keep holding on even when we should let go. 464 00:27:31,649 --> 00:27:33,860 -Shit. -[Hannah] Floors don't match. 465 00:27:35,236 --> 00:27:36,696 [sighs] No couch. 466 00:27:37,781 --> 00:27:38,615 Damn it. 467 00:27:39,157 --> 00:27:41,910 There has to be some athletics room somewhere. 468 00:27:42,786 --> 00:27:43,912 Maybe Justin could help. 469 00:27:47,207 --> 00:27:48,041 You would say that. 470 00:27:49,209 --> 00:27:50,335 What does that mean? 471 00:27:52,545 --> 00:27:55,840 -How are you so quick to forgive him? -I didn't say I forgave him. 472 00:27:55,924 --> 00:27:59,260 Why do girls even like guys like Justin? I mean, why did you? 473 00:27:59,761 --> 00:28:02,555 He's always been an asshole. His best friend is a rapist. 474 00:28:02,639 --> 00:28:04,057 I didn't know that then. 475 00:28:05,266 --> 00:28:06,267 You were warned. 476 00:28:06,810 --> 00:28:08,812 -Kat warned you. -Oh, so it's my fault? 477 00:28:10,855 --> 00:28:13,691 -I'm not saying that. -What are you saying, then? 478 00:28:15,318 --> 00:28:16,152 I just... 479 00:28:19,364 --> 00:28:22,492 I don't understand why people love people who aren't good for them. 480 00:28:23,034 --> 00:28:24,244 I don't know what to tell you. 481 00:28:25,453 --> 00:28:27,455 We don't choose who we fall for. 482 00:28:30,458 --> 00:28:31,292 Yeah. 483 00:28:33,711 --> 00:28:34,712 Tell me about it. 484 00:28:59,988 --> 00:29:01,239 You sure it was Justin? 485 00:29:01,322 --> 00:29:03,074 [scoffs] That's what I heard. 486 00:29:03,158 --> 00:29:05,535 Why would he be with Tony? Think he came back to testify? 487 00:29:05,785 --> 00:29:08,997 -Fuck if I know, or care. -[coach] All right, listen up. 488 00:29:11,958 --> 00:29:14,419 State guy's coming down tomorrow to do the screens. 489 00:29:15,211 --> 00:29:17,297 So if that is a concern for you, 490 00:29:17,756 --> 00:29:19,007 see me in my office. 491 00:29:19,883 --> 00:29:20,717 Hey. 492 00:29:21,801 --> 00:29:24,596 You all set for tomorrow? For court? You want me to come with you? 493 00:29:24,679 --> 00:29:26,973 That's all right, Coach. But thanks. 494 00:29:29,350 --> 00:29:31,102 [Montgomery] Think that's why he came back? 495 00:29:31,186 --> 00:29:32,645 [Bryce] I don't know. Drop it. 496 00:29:33,062 --> 00:29:33,938 [Montgomery scoffs] 497 00:29:34,022 --> 00:29:35,732 Go. Everything's fine. 498 00:29:36,483 --> 00:29:37,859 Yeah, you keep saying that. 499 00:29:38,276 --> 00:29:40,779 You tell me you've got shit taken care of, but I don't see it. 500 00:29:41,738 --> 00:29:44,741 -And why the fuck do you care, exactly? -[scoffs] 501 00:29:45,241 --> 00:29:47,827 You, man. Us. State. 502 00:29:49,120 --> 00:29:50,288 All taken care of. 503 00:29:51,039 --> 00:29:53,041 Go. Get your synthetic pee. 504 00:29:56,169 --> 00:29:57,128 Zachy, you coming? 505 00:29:57,337 --> 00:29:59,172 No, I'm good, brother. Don't need it. 506 00:29:59,255 --> 00:30:00,673 Not gonna tell on us, are you? 507 00:30:01,716 --> 00:30:03,134 Why, you think I'm a rat? 508 00:30:04,219 --> 00:30:08,056 No, of course not. I just wish I had your genes, man. 509 00:30:09,432 --> 00:30:11,142 -You did all right. -[laughs] 510 00:30:11,226 --> 00:30:12,227 You flatter me. 511 00:30:13,144 --> 00:30:14,354 [Zach] Got your back, brother. 512 00:30:17,857 --> 00:30:19,067 -Thanks, buddy. -Yeah. 513 00:30:24,239 --> 00:30:25,114 Thanks, ladies. 514 00:30:25,824 --> 00:30:26,991 I'm probably overthinking it, 515 00:30:27,075 --> 00:30:30,036 but not every girl gets to meet the parents, right? 516 00:30:30,119 --> 00:30:31,955 -True. Later, girl. -Bye. 517 00:30:32,664 --> 00:30:33,706 Hey, Jess. 518 00:30:34,791 --> 00:30:37,043 -Great work today. -Thanks. 519 00:30:37,126 --> 00:30:38,211 Sorry we had to end early. 520 00:30:38,419 --> 00:30:40,922 I have to go home and change for dinner with Bryce's parents. 521 00:30:41,756 --> 00:30:44,509 -I have no idea what I'm gonna wear. -[chuckles] Yeah. 522 00:30:45,844 --> 00:30:48,680 I'm sure you could wear anything, Chlöe, and they'll still love you. 523 00:30:49,806 --> 00:30:50,640 Hey, Jess. 524 00:30:51,391 --> 00:30:54,352 We'll find you a man, okay? You just have to let me help you. 525 00:30:54,686 --> 00:30:57,605 I mean it. I kinda pride myself on my matchmaking-- 526 00:30:57,689 --> 00:31:00,358 Look, Chlöe, I don't want a fucking boyfriend. 527 00:31:00,441 --> 00:31:01,276 Okay? 528 00:31:02,485 --> 00:31:07,240 The last thing I need in my life right now is some fucking guy. 529 00:31:07,907 --> 00:31:11,119 And you, the fact that you keep, like, offering that... 530 00:31:12,704 --> 00:31:15,206 means you're just as fucking clueless as I thought. 531 00:31:22,046 --> 00:31:22,881 [doorbell rings] 532 00:31:24,716 --> 00:31:26,467 [Ryan] I was trying to be Hannah's friend. 533 00:31:27,552 --> 00:31:29,888 I needed a friend as much as she did. 534 00:31:33,057 --> 00:31:35,059 Um. Hi. 535 00:31:37,228 --> 00:31:38,062 Hi. 536 00:31:38,146 --> 00:31:38,980 I, um... 537 00:31:40,064 --> 00:31:43,151 I was friends with Hannah, and I let her down, and I'm sorry. 538 00:31:43,735 --> 00:31:46,696 I just wanted to come by and say what they're doing to her is bullshit. 539 00:31:49,282 --> 00:31:50,116 Thank you. 540 00:31:52,160 --> 00:31:53,161 Can I...? 541 00:31:55,872 --> 00:31:58,291 Can I ask you some questions about Hannah's journals? 542 00:32:00,084 --> 00:32:00,919 Oh, um... 543 00:32:03,671 --> 00:32:05,214 Yes, of course. 544 00:32:14,432 --> 00:32:17,936 [Olivia] She mentions "the clubhouse" in three different poems. 545 00:32:19,646 --> 00:32:22,315 "Something changed after the clubhouse. 546 00:32:23,775 --> 00:32:25,860 I imagined myself for a moment one of the elite, 547 00:32:25,944 --> 00:32:28,363 but I never should have gone to the clubhouse." 548 00:32:28,571 --> 00:32:30,365 "...in his lucky letter jacket." 549 00:32:30,448 --> 00:32:33,910 -That's gotta be Justin, right? -It could be. 550 00:32:34,661 --> 00:32:35,495 I don't know. 551 00:32:36,913 --> 00:32:38,748 I don't remember anything about a clubhouse. 552 00:32:38,831 --> 00:32:39,666 Damn it. 553 00:32:40,583 --> 00:32:44,128 Okay. What about "the intruder"? 554 00:32:45,213 --> 00:32:49,008 He comes up several times, too. There's a whole poem about him. 555 00:32:49,425 --> 00:32:52,261 "Sometimes the intruder doesn't need to break a window. 556 00:32:52,637 --> 00:32:54,597 Sometimes they already have the key." 557 00:32:55,431 --> 00:32:56,516 Do you know this one? 558 00:32:57,433 --> 00:32:58,267 No. 559 00:32:59,978 --> 00:33:01,938 I think it's about the bullying at the school. 560 00:33:03,314 --> 00:33:04,732 The house is on fire, 561 00:33:05,566 --> 00:33:07,276 her lungs are filling up with smoke, 562 00:33:07,360 --> 00:33:08,778 and the intruder, 563 00:33:09,112 --> 00:33:12,448 it's this other Hannah that everyone thought they knew. 564 00:33:12,532 --> 00:33:13,908 Oh, no, that makes sense. 565 00:33:22,166 --> 00:33:23,418 [Hannah groans] 566 00:33:23,501 --> 00:33:24,961 It's fucking useless, Ryan. 567 00:33:25,294 --> 00:33:29,173 We write and write about shit, and nothing ever changes. I'm done. 568 00:33:29,590 --> 00:33:32,343 Hannah, you have a gift. Not gonna let you throw that away. 569 00:33:32,844 --> 00:33:33,678 A gift? 570 00:33:34,262 --> 00:33:37,098 -You say that so easily like you know. -I do. 571 00:33:37,181 --> 00:33:38,516 Yeah, well, I wish I did. 572 00:33:39,267 --> 00:33:41,227 I wish I didn't need people to tell me I'm good, 573 00:33:41,310 --> 00:33:43,771 or that they like me, but I do. 574 00:33:44,272 --> 00:33:47,233 That-- That's great stuff. That's what you should write about. 575 00:33:47,316 --> 00:33:48,151 No. 576 00:33:48,234 --> 00:33:50,945 Enough writing about my emotions. Can we just eat them? 577 00:33:51,029 --> 00:33:53,531 [chuckles] Yeah, we can totally eat them. 578 00:33:55,616 --> 00:33:57,827 [exhales] Vanilla or mint chocolate chip? 579 00:33:58,369 --> 00:34:01,330 Please. Vanilla is not a flavor. It's an admission of defeat. 580 00:34:01,414 --> 00:34:03,499 -["Tinseltown Swimming in Blood" playing] -[chuckles] 581 00:34:03,583 --> 00:34:05,084 ♪ I was blind ♪ 582 00:34:06,252 --> 00:34:08,296 ♪ Off in the corner doing poet's work... ♪ 583 00:34:08,379 --> 00:34:11,674 [Ryan] Hannah was so talented, but she didn't know it. 584 00:34:11,841 --> 00:34:13,593 ♪ It was just a dream... ♪ 585 00:34:13,718 --> 00:34:15,845 [Ryan] She wrote out of love, out of need. 586 00:34:18,347 --> 00:34:19,891 ♪ I couldn't see... ♪ 587 00:34:20,850 --> 00:34:23,770 [Ryan] And I wanted to show her that the rush of people loving your work 588 00:34:23,853 --> 00:34:25,271 is just as good as love. 589 00:34:25,646 --> 00:34:28,399 ♪ Doing poet's work That's all right for now ♪ 590 00:34:28,524 --> 00:34:31,360 -[Ryan] So I stole her poem. -♪ It was just a dream ♪ 591 00:34:31,444 --> 00:34:33,696 ♪ Of your blue eyes ♪ 592 00:34:37,033 --> 00:34:38,868 ♪ Tinseltown dripping in blood ♪ 593 00:34:38,951 --> 00:34:40,536 [Ryan] It was just one poem. 594 00:34:41,579 --> 00:34:43,831 [song echoes, fading] 595 00:34:48,878 --> 00:34:49,712 But I was wrong. 596 00:34:50,546 --> 00:34:52,548 I'm sorry I can't be more helpful. 597 00:34:54,717 --> 00:35:01,182 Sometimes I fantasize that all the answers are in these torn-out pages. 598 00:35:01,641 --> 00:35:04,435 Oh, I-- I don't think so, I... [chuckles] 599 00:35:06,521 --> 00:35:08,689 I imagine those are just false starts or... 600 00:35:09,816 --> 00:35:13,402 things she was ashamed to even admit to herself. 601 00:35:14,320 --> 00:35:16,572 Why did she keep in contact with Justin? 602 00:35:17,406 --> 00:35:18,324 Loneliness. 603 00:35:20,409 --> 00:35:21,994 It can be intense at our age. 604 00:35:23,037 --> 00:35:24,413 It's not just at your age. 605 00:35:30,962 --> 00:35:32,839 [Ryan] What she needed most was love. 606 00:35:33,881 --> 00:35:34,882 Human connection. 607 00:35:40,096 --> 00:35:40,930 [chimes] 608 00:36:02,785 --> 00:36:07,206 You didn't quit cheerleading because Justin's back? 609 00:36:10,459 --> 00:36:12,545 I know, news travels fast in these halls. 610 00:36:13,379 --> 00:36:14,255 Don't care. 611 00:36:14,463 --> 00:36:16,507 -You don't care that he's back? -No. 612 00:36:16,799 --> 00:36:17,884 Know where he's staying? 613 00:36:21,304 --> 00:36:22,597 Justin needs help, too. 614 00:36:24,265 --> 00:36:26,017 He should be enrolled in school. 615 00:36:26,392 --> 00:36:30,146 The only address I have of him is his dad in Sacramento. 616 00:36:32,982 --> 00:36:33,816 Oh, well. 617 00:36:34,483 --> 00:36:36,903 Jess, I'll be honest. 618 00:36:38,779 --> 00:36:42,325 I know what it's like to try to be strong 619 00:36:43,075 --> 00:36:44,827 and keep your problems all to you. 620 00:36:45,786 --> 00:36:46,871 But it does not work. 621 00:36:49,582 --> 00:36:51,000 You don't have to talk to me. 622 00:36:53,461 --> 00:36:55,004 But talk to someone. 623 00:36:56,088 --> 00:36:58,090 If I don't have to talk to you, can I go? 624 00:37:07,141 --> 00:37:08,517 Justin's never met his dad. 625 00:37:10,144 --> 00:37:12,605 His mom lives with some drug dealer named Seth. 626 00:37:28,120 --> 00:37:30,081 -Do you think she likes her? -Your mother? 627 00:37:30,164 --> 00:37:31,540 -Yeah. -Uh, sure. 628 00:37:35,002 --> 00:37:36,921 Chlöe's a great girl. Very pretty. 629 00:37:37,338 --> 00:37:40,466 Yeah, she's got a brain, too. Her grades are better than mine. 630 00:37:40,716 --> 00:37:41,926 [chuckles] 631 00:37:42,218 --> 00:37:43,094 And she's loyal? 632 00:37:44,804 --> 00:37:45,721 Yeah. 633 00:37:47,098 --> 00:37:48,182 That's important. 634 00:37:48,557 --> 00:37:51,060 -You did good. -Thanks, Dad. 635 00:37:52,687 --> 00:37:53,604 Here we go. 636 00:37:55,356 --> 00:37:56,274 Wow. 637 00:37:57,566 --> 00:37:59,819 You seem quite happy, the two of you. 638 00:37:59,902 --> 00:38:03,948 Oh, yeah, absolutely. He's so sweet to me, like, all the time. 639 00:38:04,031 --> 00:38:05,199 -Sweet? -Yeah. 640 00:38:05,908 --> 00:38:07,827 -That's good to hear. -[chuckles] 641 00:38:17,003 --> 00:38:19,463 Oh. Cheerleading. Full-contact sport. 642 00:38:20,881 --> 00:38:21,882 I see. 643 00:38:23,759 --> 00:38:25,928 [soft laughter] 644 00:38:26,012 --> 00:38:27,221 How do you know about Justin? 645 00:38:27,847 --> 00:38:30,558 Because Jessica told me when we ditched with your car yesterday. 646 00:38:31,475 --> 00:38:32,935 Said that Clay went and found him. 647 00:38:33,769 --> 00:38:34,937 -Clay? -Yeah. 648 00:38:36,230 --> 00:38:39,650 Okay, do you know anything about where he's living or why he's back? 649 00:38:39,734 --> 00:38:42,361 No, Zach, and I really don't fucking care. 650 00:38:42,445 --> 00:38:44,613 Why is everything always about fucking Justin? 651 00:38:44,697 --> 00:38:47,658 -Whoa. Relax, dude. It's not. -[sighs] 652 00:38:49,535 --> 00:38:52,955 -Hey, are you okay? -Yeah. 653 00:38:53,414 --> 00:38:55,082 Jessica and I kissed yesterday. 654 00:38:56,584 --> 00:38:57,501 Seriously? 655 00:38:57,960 --> 00:38:59,712 Dude, that's... that's great. 656 00:39:01,213 --> 00:39:02,048 Is that great? 657 00:39:02,965 --> 00:39:05,217 Yeah, well, but then she freaked out on me. 658 00:39:06,385 --> 00:39:08,637 And now it's just... It's totally weird. I... 659 00:39:10,389 --> 00:39:12,808 Yeah, that makes sense that she would freak out. 660 00:39:13,601 --> 00:39:17,188 Yeah. But I just... I still think it has something to do with Justin. 661 00:39:18,230 --> 00:39:20,149 And you know what's the most fucked up? 662 00:39:21,442 --> 00:39:23,819 When we kissed, I couldn't even feel anything. 663 00:39:25,613 --> 00:39:29,200 -You mean, like, emotionally, or...? -No, like, down there. 664 00:39:29,909 --> 00:39:30,951 I was just numb. 665 00:39:32,995 --> 00:39:35,664 I haven't really felt anything, like, post-coma. 666 00:39:36,874 --> 00:39:39,668 -Have you tried porn? -Yeah, of course I've tried porn. 667 00:39:39,752 --> 00:39:42,296 But I thought with a real person, maybe it would, you know. 668 00:39:43,547 --> 00:39:48,219 Yeah. Well, dude, honestly, it'll happen. You just gotta find the right girl. 669 00:39:48,803 --> 00:39:49,804 -Yeah? -Yeah. 670 00:39:50,304 --> 00:39:52,515 All right, well, let me know when you find yours. 671 00:39:53,557 --> 00:39:56,435 Maybe she's got a friend who's into scrawny and broken. 672 00:39:57,603 --> 00:39:59,063 Well, not broken forever. 673 00:40:00,272 --> 00:40:01,232 Let's go. Come on. 674 00:40:02,400 --> 00:40:03,484 [sighs] 675 00:40:07,029 --> 00:40:08,406 [Lainie] I'm sorry, Sheri. 676 00:40:08,572 --> 00:40:10,741 He went to the movies with his dad. 677 00:40:11,492 --> 00:40:15,746 -He must have forgotten to text you. -Yeah, he must have. 678 00:40:16,831 --> 00:40:21,544 I'm happy that you two are friends again. I know you've been through a great deal. 679 00:40:21,919 --> 00:40:23,379 Yeah, we have. 680 00:40:23,921 --> 00:40:26,382 I think Clay's still working on trying to forgive me. 681 00:40:26,924 --> 00:40:30,177 -Well, if he asked you to come study... -Yeah. 682 00:40:30,761 --> 00:40:33,139 Actually, why don't you stay? Wait for him. 683 00:40:33,973 --> 00:40:34,807 Sure. 684 00:40:40,187 --> 00:40:42,898 Can I ask you a question for a case that I'm working on? 685 00:40:44,900 --> 00:40:49,196 Let's say a boy and a girl, uh, have been texting a lot, 686 00:40:49,780 --> 00:40:53,617 and then all of a sudden, it stops, what would that mean? 687 00:40:54,410 --> 00:40:57,496 Well, they were probably dating, right? Then they broke up. 688 00:40:57,580 --> 00:40:58,873 What if they never dated? 689 00:40:59,206 --> 00:41:02,042 Oh. That's probably just a hookup. 690 00:41:04,003 --> 00:41:06,630 [Ryan] Hannah was desperate for human connection, 691 00:41:06,922 --> 00:41:08,507 and I betrayed her. 692 00:41:08,591 --> 00:41:10,593 ["Will You Be By Me" playing] 693 00:41:12,011 --> 00:41:14,763 I guess I left her even more lonely than she was before. 694 00:41:19,643 --> 00:41:21,437 And I guess I know how she feels. 695 00:41:21,520 --> 00:41:23,814 ♪ When the diction starts ♪ 696 00:41:23,898 --> 00:41:25,191 [chuckles] 697 00:41:25,274 --> 00:41:27,818 ♪ And it breaks my heart ♪ 698 00:41:29,403 --> 00:41:32,281 ♪ Will you be by me ♪ 699 00:41:37,244 --> 00:41:40,122 ♪ If my heart would fail... ♪ 700 00:41:41,749 --> 00:41:42,791 How'd it go today? 701 00:41:42,917 --> 00:41:45,920 Um. Not great, actually. 702 00:41:46,420 --> 00:41:48,589 You're fine. I didn't say anything, if you're worried. 703 00:41:48,672 --> 00:41:52,593 I wasn't. I... just wanted to know how you were doing. 704 00:41:53,969 --> 00:41:54,887 Are you here alone? 705 00:41:56,764 --> 00:41:58,891 -You wanna join us? -"Us"? 706 00:42:00,267 --> 00:42:03,103 Caleb, Ryan. Ryan, Caleb. 707 00:42:03,521 --> 00:42:05,439 -Nice to meet you. -Nice... 708 00:42:06,607 --> 00:42:08,317 handshake, wow. [chuckles] 709 00:42:08,984 --> 00:42:10,945 [chuckles] Sure you don't wanna join us? 710 00:42:12,279 --> 00:42:14,907 Yeah, actually, no, I was just leaving. I got stood up. 711 00:42:15,032 --> 00:42:18,577 Apparently, my date joined the app today. He's a noob, so you know. Just... 712 00:42:18,911 --> 00:42:19,745 Um... 713 00:42:19,954 --> 00:42:23,457 Forget him. Stay. Plus I want some dirt on Mr. Perfect here. 714 00:42:23,749 --> 00:42:26,710 -Oh, he knows about our past, that's-- -Barely any of it. 715 00:42:27,294 --> 00:42:29,421 [Tony] You're not interested in high school bullshit. 716 00:42:29,505 --> 00:42:31,757 [Caleb] If it's about you, I am. 717 00:42:32,800 --> 00:42:35,844 Come on, Ryan. Seriously. Stay. 718 00:42:38,889 --> 00:42:42,476 [Ryan] What Hannah needed was a friend, and I wasn't that. 719 00:42:44,853 --> 00:42:48,274 [woman] For the longest time, nothing was the same. 720 00:42:49,233 --> 00:42:52,778 How long I slept, what I ate, what I wore. 721 00:42:55,114 --> 00:42:57,283 I mean, my clothes didn't feel like me anymore. 722 00:42:57,783 --> 00:42:59,535 Bright colors made me feel like a fraud 723 00:42:59,618 --> 00:43:01,954 and my black clothes didn't seem dark enough, and... 724 00:43:02,204 --> 00:43:05,791 Just nothing seemed to fit. Just literally everything felt like a lie. 725 00:43:07,126 --> 00:43:10,754 And nothing I did seemed to help. No drink, no drug. 726 00:43:12,381 --> 00:43:15,467 Well, I didn't actually try every drug, 727 00:43:15,551 --> 00:43:18,887 but let me tell you, weed just had me crying and all in my feelings. 728 00:43:19,972 --> 00:43:22,933 You know, but the one thing that did seem to help was all of you. 729 00:43:24,268 --> 00:43:25,853 And I'm thankful today that just... 730 00:43:27,062 --> 00:43:28,397 coming here and talking to you 731 00:43:28,480 --> 00:43:30,941 has been the thing that's brought me back to who I am. 732 00:43:32,318 --> 00:43:34,987 You know, a loud, pushy, pain in the ass. 733 00:43:35,070 --> 00:43:36,530 [laughter] 734 00:43:37,740 --> 00:43:40,409 But you know you love me, and I love you. 735 00:43:42,620 --> 00:43:43,579 Thank you. 736 00:43:50,210 --> 00:43:51,253 Took you long enough. 737 00:43:55,007 --> 00:43:56,008 How did you know? 738 00:43:57,259 --> 00:43:58,260 About me. 739 00:43:58,636 --> 00:44:01,055 Um, I didn't. 740 00:44:01,639 --> 00:44:03,891 I just figured in case those rumors were bullshit, 741 00:44:03,974 --> 00:44:06,268 which they obviously were, that I'd be a friendly face. 742 00:44:07,436 --> 00:44:11,065 Friendly and slightly stalkerish? [chuckles] 743 00:44:11,482 --> 00:44:13,359 I don't stalk. I lurk. 744 00:44:13,442 --> 00:44:15,778 -Oh, okay. -And it worked, didn't it? 745 00:44:18,656 --> 00:44:20,199 Yeah. [laughs] 746 00:44:20,908 --> 00:44:22,660 -[metal music blaring] -♪ Wild and free ♪ 747 00:44:23,285 --> 00:44:24,578 -♪ Wild and free ♪ -[Mrs. Down] Ty? 748 00:44:24,662 --> 00:44:26,622 -[knocking on door] -♪ Wild and free ♪ 749 00:44:26,705 --> 00:44:28,290 -Honey? -[knocking continues] 750 00:44:28,374 --> 00:44:29,500 ♪ Wild and free ♪ 751 00:44:30,417 --> 00:44:31,877 -Ty. -♪ In the heat of the summer ♪ 752 00:44:31,960 --> 00:44:33,962 -♪ Better call out a plumber... ♪ -Ty. 753 00:44:34,546 --> 00:44:35,714 Turn it down. 754 00:44:36,340 --> 00:44:38,175 -What? -Turn the music down. 755 00:44:40,219 --> 00:44:41,220 [music fades] 756 00:44:41,804 --> 00:44:43,055 Hey, sorry, what? 757 00:44:43,472 --> 00:44:44,848 That's, um... 758 00:44:46,433 --> 00:44:47,935 some music. 759 00:44:48,811 --> 00:44:50,521 -It's punk. -Oh. 760 00:44:52,856 --> 00:44:54,775 They sound angry. 761 00:44:54,942 --> 00:44:56,402 -They are. -Oh. 762 00:44:57,569 --> 00:44:59,530 Okay. Uh... 763 00:45:01,365 --> 00:45:02,950 What are they so angry about? 764 00:45:04,451 --> 00:45:05,452 Everything. 765 00:45:06,995 --> 00:45:08,247 -I see. -Yeah. 766 00:45:12,376 --> 00:45:15,421 Mr. Barbour called today. From up the street. 767 00:45:16,296 --> 00:45:20,676 He said he saw you and your friend, Cyrus, shooting guns on his property. 768 00:45:21,260 --> 00:45:24,221 What? Shooting guns? 769 00:45:25,722 --> 00:45:28,684 That wasn't me. I don't know, I-- 770 00:45:28,767 --> 00:45:30,686 -That old guy's crazy, I guess. -No. 771 00:45:31,061 --> 00:45:34,356 He said it was you. That's why he called me and not the police. 772 00:45:37,943 --> 00:45:41,738 Oh, wait, does he mean... does he mean Cyrus' BB gun? 773 00:45:42,448 --> 00:45:45,242 -Is that what he's talking about? -A BB gun? 774 00:45:45,325 --> 00:45:48,579 It's like this old thing Cyrus has. It's like a toy. 775 00:45:49,079 --> 00:45:50,205 You know, it's not real. 776 00:45:50,664 --> 00:45:53,250 -Maybe that's what he saw. -Oh. Okay. 777 00:45:54,168 --> 00:45:55,043 Hmm. 778 00:45:55,127 --> 00:45:57,671 Still, you know how I feel about guns of any kind. 779 00:45:57,754 --> 00:46:00,757 Yeah. No, I do, I do. And I even... I told Cyrus that. 780 00:46:00,841 --> 00:46:03,802 Which is why we went to Mr. Barbour's field to be extra careful. 781 00:46:04,261 --> 00:46:06,430 And did Cyrus give you that music? 782 00:46:07,139 --> 00:46:08,182 And that shirt? 783 00:46:09,850 --> 00:46:13,228 We made the shirts ourselves, you know. 784 00:46:13,520 --> 00:46:14,897 They're quite bold. 785 00:46:15,397 --> 00:46:17,900 I hope you save them for the appropriate audience, 786 00:46:18,400 --> 00:46:19,485 and not school. 787 00:46:21,487 --> 00:46:22,988 -Yeah. -Mm-hmm. 788 00:46:25,782 --> 00:46:26,617 Okay. 789 00:46:28,535 --> 00:46:29,411 Well... 790 00:46:34,333 --> 00:46:36,418 -Don't stay up too late. -I won't. 791 00:46:38,545 --> 00:46:39,796 -G'night. Love you. -Good night. 792 00:46:50,349 --> 00:46:51,892 [slow music playing] 793 00:46:51,975 --> 00:46:53,685 Hey, there. 794 00:46:53,936 --> 00:46:54,811 Hi. 795 00:46:55,979 --> 00:46:58,857 [woman] I think there's something wrong with your camera. 796 00:46:59,900 --> 00:47:02,069 Oh, yeah, it's broken, so... 797 00:47:02,819 --> 00:47:05,030 What's your name, cutie? 798 00:47:05,364 --> 00:47:06,198 Um... 799 00:47:07,241 --> 00:47:09,159 My name is Zach. 800 00:47:10,285 --> 00:47:13,330 Well, hi, Zach. 801 00:47:15,123 --> 00:47:19,419 If I can't see you, how will I know how big and hard you are? 802 00:47:21,088 --> 00:47:22,172 Um... 803 00:47:22,256 --> 00:47:24,049 Well, I could describe myself. 804 00:47:24,967 --> 00:47:26,718 Yeah, I'm 6'3". 805 00:47:27,094 --> 00:47:29,429 I'm jacked 'cause I work out a lot. 806 00:47:30,013 --> 00:47:32,266 Sounds like a hot bod. 807 00:47:33,392 --> 00:47:34,851 You like this? 808 00:47:37,104 --> 00:47:40,691 -Yeah, I do like that. -[woman] Mm-hmm. 809 00:47:42,484 --> 00:47:45,320 -Yeah, that's good. -Oh. Oh, yeah. 810 00:47:48,740 --> 00:47:49,908 Mmm. 811 00:47:54,121 --> 00:47:55,872 Oh, God. [panting] 812 00:47:56,665 --> 00:48:00,335 Fuck! God damn it. 813 00:48:02,045 --> 00:48:04,506 What's wrong? You don't like? 814 00:48:04,882 --> 00:48:08,010 No. I mean, yes, I do, I... [sighs] 815 00:48:08,510 --> 00:48:11,680 No, I do like it. It's not you, it's me. I just... 816 00:48:13,974 --> 00:48:15,142 I don't work. 817 00:48:17,394 --> 00:48:18,228 And I'm not... 818 00:48:18,937 --> 00:48:21,189 I'm not 6'3", I'm not jacked, I'm... 819 00:48:22,691 --> 00:48:26,903 I'm really skinny and funny-looking, and my dick's broken. 820 00:48:28,155 --> 00:48:29,448 Okay. Um... 821 00:48:30,115 --> 00:48:32,826 Honey, how old are you? 822 00:48:34,286 --> 00:48:36,079 -Twenty-five. -Uh-huh. 823 00:48:37,539 --> 00:48:39,374 Look, it's 18 or older. 824 00:48:40,208 --> 00:48:41,627 Sorry, kiddo. 825 00:48:49,259 --> 00:48:50,135 [sighs] 826 00:48:51,178 --> 00:48:53,305 I'm sorry. I didn't get your text message. 827 00:48:53,388 --> 00:48:56,224 The procedure is if you see the car, you go through the window. 828 00:48:56,308 --> 00:48:57,976 Your whole family has the same car. 829 00:48:58,060 --> 00:48:59,895 -I thought it was you. -Mine is smaller. 830 00:48:59,978 --> 00:49:00,937 Okay, anyways, 831 00:49:01,146 --> 00:49:03,690 I made an excuse to go to your room and use your bathroom, 832 00:49:03,774 --> 00:49:06,693 so that Tony could leave, and Justin's been asleep ever since. 833 00:49:07,444 --> 00:49:10,739 Well, at least he didn't get discovered. 834 00:49:11,782 --> 00:49:14,326 Yeah, um, about that... 835 00:49:17,162 --> 00:49:18,038 [door opens] 836 00:49:22,250 --> 00:49:24,002 When were you gonna tell me someone saw you? 837 00:49:24,878 --> 00:49:26,838 When were you gonna tell me about Jess? 838 00:49:28,423 --> 00:49:29,675 I talked to Tony. 839 00:49:30,092 --> 00:49:33,053 -She doesn't want me here, does she? -It's complicated. 840 00:49:33,136 --> 00:49:35,305 -You lied to me. -No, I-- It's the truth. 841 00:49:35,389 --> 00:49:38,225 Jessica just... doesn't realize it yet. 842 00:49:38,308 --> 00:49:39,935 -[scoffs] -She'll change her mind. 843 00:49:40,018 --> 00:49:42,062 You have to get sober, and she'll see. 844 00:49:42,145 --> 00:49:43,230 Fuck that. 845 00:49:45,315 --> 00:49:46,608 I'm wasting my time. 846 00:49:48,694 --> 00:49:50,070 She kept your postcard. 847 00:49:53,198 --> 00:49:54,449 It's how we found you. 848 00:49:56,118 --> 00:49:57,953 She kept it, Justin. 849 00:49:58,036 --> 00:50:00,247 "Nancy, I'll always love you. Sid." 850 00:50:01,832 --> 00:50:02,958 Why would she keep that? 851 00:50:07,921 --> 00:50:09,339 I really did love her. 852 00:50:09,423 --> 00:50:11,425 [soft pop song playing] 853 00:50:13,844 --> 00:50:14,678 So, stay. 854 00:50:22,769 --> 00:50:25,022 [Ryan] Do you wanna know why Hannah wrote these poems? 855 00:50:26,773 --> 00:50:27,858 She was reaching out. 856 00:50:28,275 --> 00:50:31,069 She was desperate to be heard, to connect. 857 00:50:34,197 --> 00:50:36,491 And people took that lifeline and they twisted it. 858 00:50:38,994 --> 00:50:39,828 Hey, kiddo. 859 00:50:41,788 --> 00:50:43,415 -You okay? -Yeah. 860 00:50:45,459 --> 00:50:46,877 Uh, I was... 861 00:50:48,420 --> 00:50:50,714 I was thinking maybe I'd try to sleep in here tonight. 862 00:50:51,673 --> 00:50:52,507 Really? 863 00:50:55,844 --> 00:50:58,972 -That's wonderful. -Yeah, well, it's fine. 864 00:51:01,892 --> 00:51:04,811 Do you want me to tuck you in, or is that silly? 865 00:51:06,813 --> 00:51:07,814 Silly. 866 00:51:10,150 --> 00:51:11,109 [Jessica chuckles] 867 00:51:11,193 --> 00:51:13,278 [Ryan] They took her own story away from her. 868 00:51:15,113 --> 00:51:16,198 [doorbell rings] 869 00:51:17,783 --> 00:51:19,367 And she fought to get it back. 870 00:51:26,124 --> 00:51:28,126 -Who are you? -Kevin Porter. 871 00:51:28,460 --> 00:51:31,421 Guidance counselor at Liberty High. 872 00:51:31,588 --> 00:51:32,714 I'm looking for your son. 873 00:51:32,798 --> 00:51:34,800 Look, what can I tell you? He ran away. 874 00:51:35,175 --> 00:51:38,053 You don't wanna know how he's doing, or is he alive, or--? 875 00:51:38,136 --> 00:51:41,056 He can take care of himself, okay? Always has. 876 00:51:41,139 --> 00:51:43,600 -Ma'am, he's 17 years old. -[car door slams] 877 00:51:44,226 --> 00:51:45,393 [Seth] Who the fuck are you? 878 00:51:48,230 --> 00:51:52,692 I'm Justin's guidance counselor, Kevin Porter. And you are? 879 00:51:53,068 --> 00:51:55,904 I'm the one that punk stole a thousand dollars from. 880 00:51:56,404 --> 00:51:57,989 So you gonna get me my money back? 881 00:51:58,448 --> 00:52:00,450 Well, I'm not really here for that. 882 00:52:00,534 --> 00:52:03,328 Then I suggest you get the fuck off my property. 883 00:52:04,538 --> 00:52:06,957 Listen. Justin, he needs a home. 884 00:52:07,624 --> 00:52:11,127 Well, he had a home, and he fucked it up. Case closed. 885 00:52:11,211 --> 00:52:13,547 -Goodbye. -Okay, I wish you would back off. 886 00:52:13,839 --> 00:52:14,923 [chuckles] 887 00:52:15,006 --> 00:52:16,675 -Or what? -Don't do that, man. 888 00:52:17,509 --> 00:52:19,177 You gonna give me detention, huh? 889 00:52:20,846 --> 00:52:21,680 [grunts] 890 00:52:22,722 --> 00:52:24,140 Ah! Come on! 891 00:52:26,017 --> 00:52:27,811 [grunts] 892 00:52:31,731 --> 00:52:32,858 [Ryan] But in the end, 893 00:52:32,941 --> 00:52:35,944 the story they told was so loud that it's all that she could hear... 894 00:52:37,237 --> 00:52:40,574 and she started to believe it and forgot who she was. 895 00:52:45,412 --> 00:52:46,371 Fuck. 896 00:52:48,248 --> 00:52:51,585 [Ryan] It's easy to let that happen, to lose yourself. 897 00:52:54,671 --> 00:52:57,007 To believe that no one could ever know you, 898 00:52:57,924 --> 00:52:58,758 or love you. 899 00:53:00,844 --> 00:53:03,180 -[indistinct police radio chatter] -[sirens wailing] 900 00:53:08,977 --> 00:53:12,063 [Ryan] And that you're the only person that knows what you're going through. 901 00:53:19,029 --> 00:53:21,364 And you convince yourself it's going to get better. 902 00:53:24,034 --> 00:53:25,035 And then, it doesn't. 903 00:53:44,804 --> 00:53:46,848 [Katherine Langford] For help finding crisis resources, 904 00:53:46,932 --> 00:53:49,184 visit 13reasonswhy.info. 905 00:56:13,244 --> 00:56:15,246 [man] Well done, Ed. Well done.