1 00:00:08,661 --> 00:00:11,366 How are you feeling this morning, Mrs. P.? 2 00:00:11,366 --> 00:00:13,136 [groans softly] 3 00:00:17,177 --> 00:00:20,351 Would you mind baking some of that banana bread for me? 4 00:00:20,351 --> 00:00:22,355 It's the only thing I feel like. 5 00:00:22,355 --> 00:00:23,390 Of course. 6 00:00:23,390 --> 00:00:25,126 [sighs] Thank you, dear. 7 00:00:44,733 --> 00:00:46,770 [man speaking indistinctly on TV] 8 00:01:07,277 --> 00:01:08,313 [sniffs] 9 00:01:11,152 --> 00:01:13,456 ♪ ♪ 10 00:01:14,659 --> 00:01:16,395 [whimpers] 11 00:01:20,605 --> 00:01:22,375 You said 12 00:01:22,375 --> 00:01:25,715 this kind of chemo wouldn't cause my hair to fall out. 13 00:01:32,862 --> 00:01:34,566 [sighs] 14 00:01:36,637 --> 00:01:38,240 [inhales sharply] You've done well, 15 00:01:38,240 --> 00:01:40,645 keeping me going for a long time. 16 00:01:43,249 --> 00:01:44,753 But would you... 17 00:01:45,622 --> 00:01:50,799 [sighs] Would you keep fighting this room-to-room combat 18 00:01:50,799 --> 00:01:52,201 if it were you? 19 00:01:52,201 --> 00:01:54,138 For everyone it's different. 20 00:01:54,940 --> 00:01:57,679 You have fought long and hard. 21 00:02:04,493 --> 00:02:06,395 [shudders] 22 00:02:07,364 --> 00:02:09,569 How long until it's over? 23 00:02:14,211 --> 00:02:15,882 [Bill] He said six months? 24 00:02:15,882 --> 00:02:17,418 He used that phrase? 25 00:02:17,418 --> 00:02:19,556 "You have six months to live"? 26 00:02:19,556 --> 00:02:21,827 I asked him if I'd make it to Thanksgiving, 27 00:02:21,827 --> 00:02:23,597 and he just... 28 00:02:24,365 --> 00:02:26,402 ...looked down and shook his head. 29 00:02:28,006 --> 00:02:32,248 Why is it, with these doctors, they can't just say it straight? 30 00:02:32,248 --> 00:02:34,586 My father-- surgeon-- 31 00:02:34,586 --> 00:02:36,256 he gave it with both barrels 32 00:02:36,256 --> 00:02:38,694 and everyone respected him for it. 33 00:02:39,896 --> 00:02:41,801 Of course, it was... 34 00:02:41,801 --> 00:02:44,272 Boston and stoic. 35 00:02:44,272 --> 00:02:46,877 Look, there's a new drug. Here's what we do. 36 00:02:46,877 --> 00:02:48,581 I've done some research. 37 00:02:48,581 --> 00:02:49,917 Tamoxifen. 38 00:02:49,917 --> 00:02:52,522 It's just about to get FDA approval. 39 00:02:52,522 --> 00:02:54,660 - I know who to call-- - Yes, yes, you know everyone, Bill. 40 00:02:54,660 --> 00:02:56,396 Yes, we know that. 41 00:02:56,396 --> 00:02:58,232 You know everything. 42 00:02:59,569 --> 00:03:00,939 It's enough. 43 00:03:00,939 --> 00:03:03,410 You keep giving me orders, like I'm the... 44 00:03:03,410 --> 00:03:06,282 vice president of programming. 45 00:03:07,351 --> 00:03:08,988 Which I'm not. 46 00:03:08,988 --> 00:03:10,658 Jesus, please don't smoke. 47 00:03:10,658 --> 00:03:13,396 What can I do to make you stop smoking? 48 00:03:13,396 --> 00:03:16,837 What can you do to make me stop? 49 00:03:16,837 --> 00:03:17,905 [chuckles] 50 00:03:18,941 --> 00:03:19,977 How about 51 00:03:19,977 --> 00:03:23,984 you don't do a fucking thing? 52 00:03:25,420 --> 00:03:26,857 No more jewelry. 53 00:03:26,857 --> 00:03:28,494 No more... 54 00:03:28,494 --> 00:03:29,530 paintings. 55 00:03:29,530 --> 00:03:31,500 No more Lucian Freud or Picabia. 56 00:03:31,500 --> 00:03:34,873 No more purchasing my forgiveness or my affection. 57 00:03:34,873 --> 00:03:36,911 You would forgive Truman before me. 58 00:03:36,911 --> 00:03:38,981 The fucking smoking! 59 00:03:38,981 --> 00:03:40,685 Even after they told you you had to stop. 60 00:03:40,685 --> 00:03:42,522 Did you want to die? 61 00:03:42,522 --> 00:03:44,660 Was it so bad with me that you wanted to kill yourself?! 62 00:03:44,660 --> 00:03:46,797 Well, Bill, yes. [chuckles] 63 00:03:46,797 --> 00:03:49,268 [lights cigarette, inhales] 64 00:03:49,268 --> 00:03:51,339 Could have been worse. Could have been Librium. 65 00:03:51,339 --> 00:03:53,644 But, no, it was ciggies and high-end booze. 66 00:03:54,445 --> 00:03:57,618 At least I was a coherent hostess. 67 00:03:59,523 --> 00:04:00,758 [inhales] It's how I... 68 00:04:02,327 --> 00:04:03,965 ...medicated myself. 69 00:04:03,965 --> 00:04:05,568 Medicated yourself from what? 70 00:04:05,568 --> 00:04:06,637 - You. - [chuckles] 71 00:04:06,637 --> 00:04:08,073 [chuckles] 72 00:04:08,073 --> 00:04:11,379 The smoking and the Scotch soda that started 73 00:04:11,379 --> 00:04:14,519 the very first hint of dusk or sooner. 74 00:04:15,721 --> 00:04:17,725 How else could it work? 75 00:04:24,606 --> 00:04:26,476 You know what I want? 76 00:04:26,476 --> 00:04:28,079 Some quiet. 77 00:04:28,079 --> 00:04:30,049 And solitude. 78 00:04:34,793 --> 00:04:36,664 And I want to speak to my... 79 00:04:36,664 --> 00:04:38,534 my children. 80 00:04:39,302 --> 00:04:41,706 I don't know why she won't speak to me. 81 00:04:44,111 --> 00:04:45,748 Because you're cold. 82 00:04:46,750 --> 00:04:48,019 You are. 83 00:04:48,019 --> 00:04:49,890 You are a cold person. 84 00:04:49,890 --> 00:04:52,461 And your daughter feels that she was a minor consideration 85 00:04:52,461 --> 00:04:54,031 in your life 86 00:04:54,031 --> 00:04:56,604 and that she came after all the myriad ways you had 87 00:04:56,604 --> 00:04:59,442 of showing the world your beauty and your perfection. 88 00:04:59,442 --> 00:05:02,481 Shut up, Paley! For God's sake, won't you shut up?! 89 00:05:02,481 --> 00:05:03,851 Were you a model parent, 90 00:05:03,851 --> 00:05:06,422 with your barely disguised contempt 91 00:05:06,422 --> 00:05:08,026 for your son, whatever he did? 92 00:05:08,026 --> 00:05:11,934 No, she won't speak to me because... 93 00:05:11,934 --> 00:05:13,938 because I chose you 94 00:05:13,938 --> 00:05:17,512 instead of her. 95 00:05:17,512 --> 00:05:21,419 No, actually, we both chose each other. 96 00:05:21,419 --> 00:05:23,958 "Paley." 97 00:05:23,958 --> 00:05:27,464 You've been calling me that for a while now. 98 00:05:27,464 --> 00:05:31,072 At first I thought it was some sort of tough, 99 00:05:31,072 --> 00:05:32,876 affectionate affectation. 100 00:05:32,876 --> 00:05:36,784 But then I realized there was ice all around it. 101 00:05:36,784 --> 00:05:40,658 I think people earn how they're addressed, don't you? 102 00:05:43,831 --> 00:05:45,434 You know, it takes a certain skill 103 00:05:45,434 --> 00:05:46,937 to provoke anger in someone 104 00:05:46,937 --> 00:05:49,943 you've just broken the news to that you're dying. 105 00:05:49,943 --> 00:05:51,580 I commend that. 106 00:05:52,782 --> 00:05:55,821 This must be the anger stage. 107 00:05:59,061 --> 00:06:00,698 [sighs] 108 00:06:00,698 --> 00:06:03,937 I'll do my best to get Kate to return to you. 109 00:06:05,574 --> 00:06:08,379 She listens to me sometimes. 110 00:06:18,701 --> 00:06:20,738 ♪ ♪ 111 00:06:47,525 --> 00:06:49,562 ♪ ♪ 112 00:07:14,713 --> 00:07:17,017 ♪ ♪ 113 00:07:39,796 --> 00:07:41,833 ♪ ♪ 114 00:08:06,115 --> 00:08:07,552 [Lee] Well, I 115 00:08:07,552 --> 00:08:08,988 but the thing is, he keeps saying 116 00:08:08,988 --> 00:08:10,625 that he wants to do a prenup, 117 00:08:10,625 --> 00:08:11,827 like he doesn't trust me. 118 00:08:11,827 --> 00:08:13,564 Well, I can understand that. 119 00:08:13,564 --> 00:08:15,935 I mean, he's very successful. Even Bill likes him. 120 00:08:15,935 --> 00:08:18,908 [C.Z.] Those San Francisco society folk are 121 00:08:18,908 --> 00:08:20,545 very, very canny. 122 00:08:20,545 --> 00:08:22,014 [Slim] Yep. Known them all my life, 123 00:08:22,014 --> 00:08:23,283 and they're very square. 124 00:08:23,283 --> 00:08:26,222 - [laughter] - I like San Francisco. 125 00:08:26,222 --> 00:08:28,059 It's rather like Boston. 126 00:08:28,059 --> 00:08:32,569 The question is, do I keep the engagement ring? 127 00:08:32,569 --> 00:08:33,904 [laughter] 128 00:08:33,904 --> 00:08:36,075 [Slim] I think a prenup is irrelevant. 129 00:08:36,075 --> 00:08:37,712 Let's just live for today. 130 00:08:37,712 --> 00:08:39,115 - Ah. - Yes. 131 00:08:39,115 --> 00:08:42,689 I like that philosophy a great deal. 132 00:08:42,689 --> 00:08:45,628 Just enjoy your life every day. 133 00:08:45,628 --> 00:08:48,934 Joy. Live in a city of joy. 134 00:08:50,604 --> 00:08:52,307 Mmm. 135 00:08:52,307 --> 00:08:54,545 Speaking of which, C.Z... 136 00:08:55,815 --> 00:08:57,184 ...how's Truman? 137 00:08:57,184 --> 00:08:59,655 - Um... - He's been on my mind. 138 00:09:00,456 --> 00:09:02,796 Well, he's not having the best year, I would say. 139 00:09:02,796 --> 00:09:05,167 I'm glad to hear you mention him. 140 00:09:05,167 --> 00:09:06,703 I'm sure he'd love to hear from you. 141 00:09:06,703 --> 00:09:09,341 I miss that laugh. 142 00:09:09,341 --> 00:09:13,049 I'd hold the friendship in a different... 143 00:09:13,049 --> 00:09:15,922 Well, it wouldn't be the same as it was, of course. 144 00:09:15,922 --> 00:09:17,892 Babe, you know, sometimes I think you don't reach out 145 00:09:17,892 --> 00:09:20,698 because of some rage you have at yourself. 146 00:09:20,698 --> 00:09:24,205 Rage? Hmm. 147 00:09:24,205 --> 00:09:26,844 I wonder. Maybe. Maybe you're right. 148 00:09:26,844 --> 00:09:29,014 [C.Z.] Yes, you think Lee, Slim and your husband 149 00:09:29,014 --> 00:09:30,651 wouldn't abide it. 150 00:09:30,651 --> 00:09:33,022 [Babe] Yes, perhaps I'm angry at myself 151 00:09:33,022 --> 00:09:36,630 that I can't get past worrying about the propriety of it. 152 00:09:36,630 --> 00:09:38,801 How it would be seen in this crowd, 153 00:09:38,801 --> 00:09:43,042 ending this epic falling out. 154 00:09:43,042 --> 00:09:47,184 Because there are so many people invested in it. 155 00:09:47,184 --> 00:09:48,921 I mean, people write about it. 156 00:09:48,921 --> 00:09:51,960 It's become an absurd play. 157 00:09:51,960 --> 00:09:54,098 What would we do without it? 158 00:09:54,098 --> 00:09:56,904 Babe, that's fucking harsh. 159 00:09:56,904 --> 00:09:59,341 Is it? Really? 160 00:09:59,341 --> 00:10:02,916 I mean, Lee, you think. Just admit it, 161 00:10:02,916 --> 00:10:04,385 to be seen with him again, 162 00:10:04,385 --> 00:10:06,122 to even speak with him again 163 00:10:06,122 --> 00:10:07,759 would turn you into a laughingstock 164 00:10:07,759 --> 00:10:09,195 because you've entrenched yourself 165 00:10:09,195 --> 00:10:10,698 in this position. 166 00:10:10,698 --> 00:10:12,201 [Slim] No, this isn't 167 00:10:12,201 --> 00:10:15,775 about whose appearances, it's about the morality of-- 168 00:10:15,775 --> 00:10:17,177 Of what? 169 00:10:17,177 --> 00:10:20,785 [scoffs] We've all done some awful things, 170 00:10:20,785 --> 00:10:23,690 and some not so awful, and sometimes to each other. 171 00:10:24,592 --> 00:10:26,864 And we've been capable of moving beyond them, 172 00:10:26,864 --> 00:10:30,337 but when it comes to Truman, no, and why? 173 00:10:30,337 --> 00:10:35,313 Sometimes I just wish I'd laughed it off when it came out, 174 00:10:35,313 --> 00:10:37,417 and he'd be sitting here right now with us. 175 00:10:37,417 --> 00:10:38,954 And wouldn't that be nice? 176 00:10:38,954 --> 00:10:41,459 Instead of rotting away like the prisoner 177 00:10:41,459 --> 00:10:44,365 - of U.N. Plaza. - What are you saying, Babe? 178 00:10:44,365 --> 00:10:47,972 That we are not truly affronted and hurt? 179 00:10:47,972 --> 00:10:49,910 I mean, doesn't that matter? 180 00:10:49,910 --> 00:10:51,411 Well, does it? 181 00:10:52,380 --> 00:10:56,222 What if we accepted how little it matters in the end? 182 00:10:56,222 --> 00:10:59,395 Which we will have to, by the way. 183 00:10:59,395 --> 00:11:04,338 But no, to accept his apology would be to surrender. 184 00:11:04,338 --> 00:11:06,810 Maybe we should change the topic. 185 00:11:06,810 --> 00:11:09,883 Yes, I think that's a great idea, C.Z. 186 00:11:09,883 --> 00:11:13,456 Now, I think we need 187 00:11:13,456 --> 00:11:16,228 a great party. 188 00:11:16,228 --> 00:11:20,470 It's been a long while since we've had a great party. 189 00:11:20,470 --> 00:11:22,040 [chuckles] 190 00:11:22,040 --> 00:11:24,746 And I know just how to do it perfectly. 191 00:11:24,746 --> 00:11:26,950 A bright, sunny day at Kiluna. 192 00:11:26,950 --> 00:11:30,524 Black irises in one room, ranunculus in the next. 193 00:11:30,524 --> 00:11:34,766 There'll be those wonderful black cherries 194 00:11:34,766 --> 00:11:36,302 from Michigan we get, 195 00:11:36,302 --> 00:11:40,176 but in Limoges bowls on every table. 196 00:11:40,176 --> 00:11:42,515 And the buffet will have great big platters 197 00:11:42,515 --> 00:11:47,457 of poulet a l'estragon and salmon en croûte. 198 00:11:47,457 --> 00:11:50,765 And the napkins will be perfectly folded 199 00:11:50,765 --> 00:11:54,371 like perfect, perfect flowers, with the flatware 200 00:11:54,371 --> 00:11:57,912 just nestled secretly inside them. 201 00:11:57,912 --> 00:12:01,252 And in addition to you ladies, I will make 202 00:12:01,252 --> 00:12:06,028 a very, very special guest list. 203 00:12:06,028 --> 00:12:10,003 Walter Cronkite, Katharine Graham, 204 00:12:10,003 --> 00:12:14,011 George Plimpton, Gloria Vanderbilt, 205 00:12:14,011 --> 00:12:17,351 Nancy Kissinger, Jo... 206 00:12:17,351 --> 00:12:19,321 No, maybe not Joanne Carson. 207 00:12:19,321 --> 00:12:21,459 She's been a little nutty since the divorce. 208 00:12:21,459 --> 00:12:24,933 This is sounding very delicious. 209 00:12:24,933 --> 00:12:27,905 When would this party take place? 210 00:12:27,905 --> 00:12:30,844 Summer, when I die. 211 00:12:31,780 --> 00:12:35,821 You see, this is what I want for the memorial service 212 00:12:35,821 --> 00:12:37,190 after the funeral. 213 00:12:39,027 --> 00:12:43,102 Babe, after the funeral? No. 214 00:12:43,102 --> 00:12:47,444 I have a few months left, and so this... 215 00:12:47,444 --> 00:12:50,216 this is what's been on my mind. 216 00:12:50,216 --> 00:12:53,857 What to do when you're at the end. 217 00:12:53,857 --> 00:12:56,162 Well, Babe, I thought we had more time. 218 00:12:56,162 --> 00:12:58,298 No, C.Z., no tears. 219 00:12:59,301 --> 00:13:01,873 No regrets. 220 00:13:01,873 --> 00:13:04,077 I've done it. 221 00:13:05,046 --> 00:13:07,852 I've had a life, a little 222 00:13:07,852 --> 00:13:10,390 too public in retrospect, 223 00:13:10,390 --> 00:13:13,295 but a life. 224 00:13:17,170 --> 00:13:22,147 Now, let's have some of that lemon sorbet. 225 00:13:22,147 --> 00:13:27,124 Yes, some lemon sorbet and shortbread. 226 00:13:27,124 --> 00:13:28,861 Thank you. 227 00:13:28,861 --> 00:13:31,532 And some Dom Perignon. [chuckles] 228 00:13:36,976 --> 00:13:39,013 [Bill] Kate, please. 229 00:13:40,450 --> 00:13:43,188 Kate, she really wants to see you, I mean... 230 00:13:44,124 --> 00:13:47,130 I know, I know, but now is the time to put away 231 00:13:47,130 --> 00:13:50,036 all of that anger and resentment. 232 00:13:52,942 --> 00:13:54,310 Kate, listen to me, honey. 233 00:13:58,052 --> 00:13:59,556 [Kate] All the times I needed her, 234 00:13:59,556 --> 00:14:01,593 and the total, utter lack of interest 235 00:14:01,593 --> 00:14:03,229 for me and my life. 236 00:14:03,229 --> 00:14:04,933 You can't expect me to come running 237 00:14:04,933 --> 00:14:06,402 when she finally beckons me 238 00:14:06,402 --> 00:14:08,439 as if I were one of the dogs. 239 00:14:08,439 --> 00:14:10,343 No, I won't do it. 240 00:14:10,343 --> 00:14:12,314 I'm not sentimental about it. 241 00:14:12,314 --> 00:14:14,986 [Bill] But now's not the time to hold onto that. 242 00:14:14,986 --> 00:14:17,324 It's the time to let it go. You have to understand 243 00:14:17,324 --> 00:14:18,527 how she was raised. 244 00:14:18,527 --> 00:14:20,430 She wasn't built to be a mother. 245 00:14:20,430 --> 00:14:22,100 [Kate] No! I'm sorry. 246 00:14:22,100 --> 00:14:24,906 The Sphinx doesn't need anything from me. 247 00:14:24,906 --> 00:14:26,442 Maybe when you can hear her death rattle. 248 00:14:26,442 --> 00:14:28,045 Only then. 249 00:14:28,045 --> 00:14:29,916 - [Bill] Kate, ple-- - [hangs up] 250 00:14:29,916 --> 00:14:32,086 [dial tone] 251 00:15:13,168 --> 00:15:15,206 Thank you, dear. 252 00:15:15,206 --> 00:15:16,342 [sighs] 253 00:15:16,342 --> 00:15:18,680 [Jerome] Mrs. Paley, welcome home. 254 00:15:18,680 --> 00:15:20,283 Hello, Jerome. 255 00:15:20,283 --> 00:15:22,989 Will Mr. Paley be joining us this weekend? 256 00:15:22,989 --> 00:15:24,692 It's only me this weekend. 257 00:15:24,692 --> 00:15:27,264 We've made it very cozy. 258 00:15:27,264 --> 00:15:28,332 Let's get you inside. 259 00:15:28,332 --> 00:15:30,671 Oh, not just yet. 260 00:15:30,671 --> 00:15:34,477 I-I want to see everything. 261 00:15:55,587 --> 00:15:57,692 I saw a moth yesterday. 262 00:15:57,692 --> 00:16:00,630 It was trapped inside of a lampshade. 263 00:16:05,707 --> 00:16:07,678 It was throwing itself at the light, 264 00:16:07,678 --> 00:16:09,682 desperate to get free... 265 00:16:12,420 --> 00:16:16,028 ...unaware that the way out was right there, 266 00:16:16,028 --> 00:16:19,568 and all it had to do was look down. 267 00:16:34,230 --> 00:16:38,574 These pages are a chronicle of everything I've done wrong. 268 00:16:38,574 --> 00:16:41,478 Perfection was, for me, a kind of eternity 269 00:16:41,478 --> 00:16:44,351 I thought I could own. 270 00:16:44,351 --> 00:16:46,155 If every detail was in its place, 271 00:16:46,155 --> 00:16:49,094 I thought the world might just come to a stop 272 00:16:49,094 --> 00:16:52,334 and stay that way forever. 273 00:16:52,334 --> 00:16:55,507 But you cannot have eternity, 274 00:16:55,507 --> 00:16:57,612 nor can you own perfection. 275 00:16:57,612 --> 00:17:01,084 You merely borrow it with interest. 276 00:17:03,657 --> 00:17:06,328 I'm packing now for a trip. 277 00:17:07,598 --> 00:17:10,370 Laid out on the bed are all these items 278 00:17:10,370 --> 00:17:13,342 that make up my life. 279 00:17:13,342 --> 00:17:17,250 I can see how useless many of them are. 280 00:17:17,250 --> 00:17:20,591 Status, gloves, scarves, cashmere. 281 00:17:20,591 --> 00:17:23,362 Perfection all piled up. 282 00:17:28,773 --> 00:17:31,478 But what I do have more than anything else 283 00:17:31,478 --> 00:17:33,516 is beauty. 284 00:17:37,591 --> 00:17:41,398 Not beauty for the sake of prestige or for stature, 285 00:17:41,398 --> 00:17:45,239 but beauty for the sake of beauty. 286 00:17:45,239 --> 00:17:49,281 My world is suffused with beauty. 287 00:17:49,281 --> 00:17:50,684 I only wish I'd been able to see 288 00:17:50,684 --> 00:17:53,121 how much of it there was. 289 00:17:55,393 --> 00:17:58,633 Late lessons, part 50: 290 00:17:58,633 --> 00:18:02,575 we cannot possess the light, 291 00:18:02,575 --> 00:18:05,279 but we can touch it. 292 00:18:06,549 --> 00:18:09,154 Steal it in fragments, 293 00:18:09,154 --> 00:18:11,526 small pieces. 294 00:18:11,526 --> 00:18:15,901 A few moments that are almost perfect. 295 00:18:15,901 --> 00:18:19,676 Hardly enough to fill a thimble with. 296 00:18:19,676 --> 00:18:22,413 [tapping] 297 00:18:28,893 --> 00:18:31,666 ♪ ♪ 298 00:18:36,642 --> 00:18:39,648 [laughter echoing] 299 00:18:41,619 --> 00:18:43,590 No! 300 00:18:43,590 --> 00:18:46,830 "But isn't a thimbleful of almost-perfect moments 301 00:18:46,830 --> 00:18:49,736 just a nickel shy of the price of eternity?" 302 00:18:49,736 --> 00:18:51,305 [fireworks exploding nearby] 303 00:18:51,305 --> 00:18:52,875 You found my diary. 304 00:18:52,875 --> 00:18:56,883 I did. And I added that last bit about the thimble, 305 00:18:56,883 --> 00:18:58,587 but I won't tell. 306 00:18:58,587 --> 00:19:00,223 [Babe sighs] 307 00:19:00,223 --> 00:19:01,860 [fireworks continue] 308 00:19:01,860 --> 00:19:03,764 What's happening? 309 00:19:03,764 --> 00:19:05,366 Fireworks? 310 00:19:05,366 --> 00:19:08,774 Yes, dear. On the East River. 311 00:19:08,774 --> 00:19:10,744 They're for you. 312 00:19:10,744 --> 00:19:13,517 We'll go down there ourselves and see them up close, 313 00:19:13,517 --> 00:19:16,656 but first, dinner. 314 00:19:16,656 --> 00:19:18,459 Can't be late now. 315 00:19:18,459 --> 00:19:21,566 I got us the best table at 21. Chop-chop. 316 00:19:21,566 --> 00:19:23,235 [gasps, laughs] 317 00:19:23,235 --> 00:19:26,341 I'm so glad you're here, Truman. 318 00:19:26,341 --> 00:19:29,849 I'm so relieved that you had the courage to come 319 00:19:29,849 --> 00:19:31,786 after everything that's happened. 320 00:19:31,786 --> 00:19:33,857 Oh, I've given up on holding grudges. 321 00:19:33,857 --> 00:19:35,192 All is forgiven. 322 00:19:36,696 --> 00:19:39,802 But now... 323 00:19:39,802 --> 00:19:41,940 you've got to get dressed. 324 00:19:41,940 --> 00:19:44,612 [chuckles] 325 00:19:44,612 --> 00:19:47,417 [Truman] The diaphanous pink. 326 00:19:47,417 --> 00:19:50,256 You loved this dress. 327 00:19:50,256 --> 00:19:52,026 [Babe] Where did I wear it again? 328 00:19:52,026 --> 00:19:55,501 [Truman] Nowhere. It never left the house, remember? 329 00:19:55,501 --> 00:19:58,005 Bill got us tickets to the Oscars in 1968. 330 00:19:58,005 --> 00:20:00,544 It was such an awful snooze, and we promised ourselves, 331 00:20:00,544 --> 00:20:02,748 next year we would get just as dressed up 332 00:20:02,748 --> 00:20:04,251 but watch from home. 333 00:20:04,251 --> 00:20:05,754 [Babe] Oh, yes. That was the year 334 00:20:05,754 --> 00:20:07,423 of-of the tie. 335 00:20:07,423 --> 00:20:09,294 [Truman] That's right. Barbra Streisand 336 00:20:09,294 --> 00:20:11,566 and Katharine Hepburn, they tied for Best Actress. 337 00:20:11,566 --> 00:20:14,906 [gasps] What a moment to be alive. 338 00:20:14,906 --> 00:20:16,709 And these... 339 00:20:16,709 --> 00:20:18,580 [Babe] The pearls you bought me for Christmas. 340 00:20:18,580 --> 00:20:20,684 [Truman] It was that year I was flat broke. 341 00:20:20,684 --> 00:20:23,422 They're as fake as a Cartier watch from Canal Street. 342 00:20:23,422 --> 00:20:25,426 [Babe] Yes, but they looked so real. 343 00:20:25,426 --> 00:20:27,297 I've switched them out with my good ones 344 00:20:27,297 --> 00:20:28,700 just to see. 345 00:20:28,700 --> 00:20:30,671 None of the girls ever caught on. 346 00:20:30,671 --> 00:20:32,675 [both laugh] 347 00:20:32,675 --> 00:20:34,846 [fireworks continue] 348 00:20:34,846 --> 00:20:37,383 Beautiful. [chuckles] 349 00:20:41,324 --> 00:20:43,730 - Can I tell you a secret? - Mm-hmm. 350 00:20:43,730 --> 00:20:46,703 But you'll have to swear not to tell the others. 351 00:20:46,703 --> 00:20:48,673 [fireworks continue] 352 00:20:48,673 --> 00:20:50,543 I'm serious. 353 00:20:53,015 --> 00:20:55,587 I'm famous for my discretion. 354 00:20:55,587 --> 00:20:59,662 [laughs] What?! 355 00:20:59,662 --> 00:21:02,299 Okay, I'll tell you. 356 00:21:06,976 --> 00:21:09,715 [whispering] You're one of my top three. 357 00:21:09,715 --> 00:21:12,320 Your top three? 358 00:21:12,320 --> 00:21:13,890 Well, I don't know what that means, 359 00:21:13,890 --> 00:21:16,361 but I'm honored to have been selected. 360 00:21:16,361 --> 00:21:18,098 Oh, you don't select your top three. 361 00:21:18,098 --> 00:21:19,434 They're the ones... 362 00:21:19,434 --> 00:21:22,373 They're the ones you collide with. 363 00:21:22,373 --> 00:21:24,512 You smash each other into bits, 364 00:21:24,512 --> 00:21:28,118 get all mixed up and never come apart. 365 00:21:28,118 --> 00:21:31,726 And these three, are they best friends? 366 00:21:31,726 --> 00:21:34,030 - Great loves? - Not necessarily. 367 00:21:34,030 --> 00:21:35,767 Sure, you can love them, 368 00:21:35,767 --> 00:21:38,472 but they're also easy to hate because they're the ones 369 00:21:38,472 --> 00:21:40,510 that most reveal who you are, 370 00:21:40,510 --> 00:21:45,052 which can be horribly painful, but for that reason 371 00:21:45,052 --> 00:21:46,990 you can never really drop them. 372 00:21:46,990 --> 00:21:49,060 You must always forgive them in the end 373 00:21:49,060 --> 00:21:54,070 because they are the most precious resource in life. 374 00:21:54,070 --> 00:21:56,643 And does everyone only get three? 375 00:21:56,643 --> 00:21:58,914 Some people only get one. 376 00:21:58,914 --> 00:22:00,483 Some people get none. 377 00:22:00,483 --> 00:22:02,086 That's just my theory, anyway. 378 00:22:02,086 --> 00:22:04,659 And I like things in threes. 379 00:22:04,659 --> 00:22:06,729 - How poetic. - [chuckles] 380 00:22:06,729 --> 00:22:09,401 Morning, noon, night. 381 00:22:09,401 --> 00:22:11,071 Sun, moon, stars. 382 00:22:11,071 --> 00:22:12,942 Breakfast, lunch, dinner. 383 00:22:12,942 --> 00:22:15,046 The three faces of Eve. 384 00:22:15,046 --> 00:22:16,649 [both laugh] 385 00:22:16,649 --> 00:22:17,918 Come. 386 00:22:17,918 --> 00:22:20,389 I'll run you a nice, hot bath. 387 00:22:20,389 --> 00:22:22,393 But I've already gotten dressed. 388 00:22:22,393 --> 00:22:23,964 Oh, that's right. 389 00:22:23,964 --> 00:22:26,168 Well, then, we better shut off that faucet. 390 00:22:26,168 --> 00:22:29,575 Three Brontë sisters. The Three Stooges. 391 00:22:29,575 --> 00:22:32,581 - Three sheets to the wind. - [both laugh] 392 00:22:32,581 --> 00:22:35,787 Neapolitan ice cream. 393 00:22:35,787 --> 00:22:38,458 Beginning, middle, end. 394 00:22:43,201 --> 00:22:44,403 Am I dead? 395 00:22:46,207 --> 00:22:47,811 [Truman] Almost. 396 00:22:47,811 --> 00:22:50,449 In your final hour, yes. 397 00:22:50,449 --> 00:22:53,790 But don't worry, dear, we can stay right here 398 00:22:53,790 --> 00:22:55,994 for as long as you like. 399 00:22:55,994 --> 00:23:01,004 I'll wait with you... till you're ready. 400 00:23:01,004 --> 00:23:02,741 Ready to see the fireworks. 401 00:23:02,741 --> 00:23:05,446 [fireworks exploding] 402 00:23:05,446 --> 00:23:09,755 What if I'm not? What if I'm never ready? 403 00:23:09,755 --> 00:23:11,224 If that's the case, then we'll just stay 404 00:23:11,224 --> 00:23:13,094 right here forever. 405 00:23:15,633 --> 00:23:17,871 Let's stay. 406 00:23:17,871 --> 00:23:20,910 [lengthy exhale] 407 00:23:23,716 --> 00:23:25,152 [Truman chuckles] 408 00:23:25,152 --> 00:23:26,722 [both sigh] 409 00:23:35,172 --> 00:23:38,612 Oh, but there's so much left to do. 410 00:23:40,817 --> 00:23:43,656 I was too late. 411 00:23:43,656 --> 00:23:46,996 I was too late, Truman, to fix it all. 412 00:23:46,996 --> 00:23:50,169 We all are, that's what it is. 413 00:23:50,169 --> 00:23:53,042 And yet sometimes the really important ones 414 00:23:53,042 --> 00:23:55,747 do get fixed. 415 00:24:06,201 --> 00:24:08,706 [Kate] Mother. 416 00:24:17,824 --> 00:24:20,496 You're not too late, Mother. 417 00:24:26,942 --> 00:24:30,015 [Truman] Enjoy the fireworks. 418 00:24:40,102 --> 00:24:42,206 [raspy breathing] 419 00:24:48,018 --> 00:24:50,322 And they looked 420 00:24:50,322 --> 00:24:52,660 and they saw... 421 00:24:54,197 --> 00:24:56,803 ...what they had not seen before. 422 00:24:56,803 --> 00:24:58,873 [raspy breathing] 423 00:25:03,850 --> 00:25:06,889 That she was beautiful. 424 00:25:08,125 --> 00:25:10,162 ♪ ♪ 425 00:25:51,211 --> 00:25:53,281 [C.Z.] Truman. 426 00:25:54,685 --> 00:25:56,154 Truman! 427 00:26:01,799 --> 00:26:03,836 Babe is dead. 428 00:26:05,405 --> 00:26:10,316 I tried calling and calling. You didn't answer. 429 00:26:10,316 --> 00:26:13,255 The doorman let me up. 430 00:26:13,255 --> 00:26:14,925 [sniffles] 431 00:26:14,925 --> 00:26:18,031 I'm sorry, Tru. 432 00:26:27,951 --> 00:26:29,921 I have to get to work. 433 00:26:44,851 --> 00:26:47,189 - [runs water] - What are you doing, Truman? 434 00:26:48,391 --> 00:26:50,930 What do you have to work on? 435 00:26:53,736 --> 00:26:56,107 Babe's eulogy. 436 00:26:56,107 --> 00:26:57,443 We all knew this moment was coming, 437 00:26:57,443 --> 00:27:00,382 and I've been writing it. 438 00:27:00,382 --> 00:27:02,086 I have the ending in my head. 439 00:27:02,086 --> 00:27:04,223 I just have to get it down. 440 00:27:05,793 --> 00:27:08,232 Why are you doing this, Truman? 441 00:27:08,232 --> 00:27:10,704 Because I knew her better than anyone, 442 00:27:10,704 --> 00:27:13,876 and I'm gonna read it at her funeral, of course. 443 00:27:15,813 --> 00:27:19,286 No, why are you doing this to yourself? To me? 444 00:27:22,026 --> 00:27:25,366 Please don't make me bear any more awful news this morning. 445 00:27:25,366 --> 00:27:27,837 What awful news? 446 00:27:31,311 --> 00:27:33,148 It's not going to happen. 447 00:27:33,148 --> 00:27:35,954 I talked to Bill. 448 00:27:35,954 --> 00:27:39,127 I really made a case for you. 449 00:27:39,127 --> 00:27:41,732 He's not going to allow you to come to the funeral. 450 00:27:41,732 --> 00:27:44,070 Well, I don't care what Bill Paley will allow. 451 00:27:44,070 --> 00:27:45,974 I will crash it if I have to. 452 00:27:45,974 --> 00:27:48,412 He doesn't own Babe's memory. 453 00:27:48,412 --> 00:27:50,382 You will do no such thing. 454 00:27:52,019 --> 00:27:56,094 Play the tape to the end. There will be guards there. 455 00:27:56,094 --> 00:27:58,165 They will stop you and they will hurt you. 456 00:27:58,165 --> 00:28:00,770 But I have to be there. 457 00:28:00,770 --> 00:28:02,239 It's Babe Paley, for God's sake. 458 00:28:02,239 --> 00:28:04,377 She would have wanted it, I know she would have. 459 00:28:04,377 --> 00:28:06,414 I know she would have. 460 00:28:07,216 --> 00:28:11,090 I have to read it, C.Z. I have to get it out. 461 00:28:15,465 --> 00:28:17,402 Read it to me. 462 00:28:19,340 --> 00:28:21,210 Go on. 463 00:28:32,333 --> 00:28:34,771 Hello, everyone. 464 00:28:37,811 --> 00:28:39,948 I refuse to say we have lost Babe 465 00:28:39,948 --> 00:28:44,891 because I see Babe almost everywhere. 466 00:28:45,660 --> 00:28:48,900 The reflection in the window, behind me on the street, 467 00:28:48,900 --> 00:28:51,271 or in the smell of her perfume on the corner 468 00:28:51,271 --> 00:28:53,909 of Madison Avenue Bookstore. 469 00:28:56,180 --> 00:28:59,153 Or the light on the windshield of a car. 470 00:29:01,457 --> 00:29:03,496 Because she and I loved car rides, 471 00:29:03,496 --> 00:29:06,434 we loved long drives with no destination. 472 00:29:06,434 --> 00:29:11,277 I can place her in every room in my mind. 473 00:29:12,079 --> 00:29:15,319 Babe, more than anything, she loved the journey 474 00:29:15,319 --> 00:29:17,957 of all of this. 475 00:29:19,326 --> 00:29:21,164 And that is what I wanted to say 476 00:29:21,164 --> 00:29:24,036 to those people who loved her. 477 00:29:26,274 --> 00:29:29,848 The journey never ends. 478 00:29:29,848 --> 00:29:32,988 We know all her words, her mannerisms, her jokes, 479 00:29:32,988 --> 00:29:37,864 so do what I do, keep talking with her, 480 00:29:37,864 --> 00:29:41,004 and she will, I promise, 481 00:29:41,004 --> 00:29:43,107 talk right back. 482 00:29:44,376 --> 00:29:46,515 We are still on the journey. 483 00:29:48,284 --> 00:29:50,990 We cannot do this, any of this, 484 00:29:50,990 --> 00:29:53,261 without the people we love. 485 00:29:53,261 --> 00:29:55,966 Babe knew that. 486 00:29:57,236 --> 00:30:00,275 And she never stopped proving that, even though 487 00:30:00,275 --> 00:30:03,148 there might be bumpy nights and dramas, 488 00:30:03,148 --> 00:30:05,352 you cannot get through this life 489 00:30:05,352 --> 00:30:08,893 without simply forgiving and being forgiven 490 00:30:08,893 --> 00:30:12,032 by your friends since they are... 491 00:30:12,032 --> 00:30:15,439 once they are of you, 492 00:30:15,439 --> 00:30:18,111 once they are 493 00:30:18,111 --> 00:30:20,148 in your heart. 494 00:30:21,685 --> 00:30:25,058 I am going to learn how not to mourn 495 00:30:25,058 --> 00:30:28,298 but rather to still see her. 496 00:30:28,298 --> 00:30:31,371 Sometimes when I catch 497 00:30:31,371 --> 00:30:34,377 my own reflection, 498 00:30:34,377 --> 00:30:36,882 I see her instead. 499 00:30:37,684 --> 00:30:41,391 I was at a party. 500 00:30:41,391 --> 00:30:44,163 I was telling a story about a certain person 501 00:30:44,163 --> 00:30:46,468 I'd seen enter an airplane bathroom 502 00:30:46,468 --> 00:30:48,338 a dead ringer for Mae West 503 00:30:48,338 --> 00:30:51,344 and exit looking like Victor Mature. 504 00:30:51,344 --> 00:30:52,413 [laughter] 505 00:30:52,413 --> 00:30:53,950 When I finished, 506 00:30:53,950 --> 00:30:56,922 everybody laughed and applauded. 507 00:31:00,596 --> 00:31:04,337 And then I saw that they were all still looking at me, 508 00:31:04,337 --> 00:31:07,343 eagerly expecting an encore. 509 00:31:07,343 --> 00:31:10,583 I was alone and surrounded by people, 510 00:31:10,583 --> 00:31:12,921 the worst sort of loneliness there is. 511 00:31:12,921 --> 00:31:17,429 And in that desperate moment, my eyes scanned the room, 512 00:31:17,429 --> 00:31:21,204 and there in the back again, I saw my reflection. 513 00:31:21,204 --> 00:31:23,207 But it was Babe. 514 00:31:28,084 --> 00:31:30,957 She was me. 515 00:31:30,957 --> 00:31:34,096 She was smiling at me, and in a look she said, 516 00:31:34,096 --> 00:31:38,071 "Let's get out of here," and so we did. 517 00:31:38,071 --> 00:31:41,244 We rode off into the night under a full moon, 518 00:31:41,244 --> 00:31:43,348 my reflection and I. 519 00:31:43,348 --> 00:31:46,187 I don't remember where we went, 520 00:31:46,187 --> 00:31:48,258 but I do remember that on the way 521 00:31:48,258 --> 00:31:50,964 we never ran out of stories to tell. 522 00:31:50,964 --> 00:31:54,003 And this is my point: my reflection showed me 523 00:31:54,003 --> 00:31:56,307 only the best parts of myself. 524 00:31:57,777 --> 00:32:01,417 And in exchange for her friendship, 525 00:32:01,417 --> 00:32:04,290 I gave those parts to her. 526 00:32:04,290 --> 00:32:06,529 I gave her everything 527 00:32:06,529 --> 00:32:11,103 because she deserved it... all... 528 00:32:14,443 --> 00:32:17,684 ...and so much more, 529 00:32:17,684 --> 00:32:21,357 et cetera, et cetera. 530 00:32:25,065 --> 00:32:28,171 Well, I can't end the eulogy with "et cetera, et cetera," 531 00:32:28,171 --> 00:32:32,179 so you have to leave now because 532 00:32:32,179 --> 00:32:34,383 I need to finish the ending. 533 00:32:34,383 --> 00:32:38,090 [paper rustling] 534 00:32:40,796 --> 00:32:43,000 ♪ ♪ 535 00:32:52,052 --> 00:32:54,389 [writing] 536 00:32:55,358 --> 00:32:57,162 [door closes] 537 00:33:10,488 --> 00:33:12,125 [bell clanging] 538 00:33:33,234 --> 00:33:35,271 ♪ ♪ 539 00:33:37,476 --> 00:33:39,313 [cork pops] 540 00:33:39,313 --> 00:33:41,852 [Lee] This is so her. Every detail. It's uncanny. 541 00:33:41,852 --> 00:33:44,758 [Slim] I know. I keep expecting her 542 00:33:44,758 --> 00:33:47,564 to come around the corner hurrying, fussing over 543 00:33:47,564 --> 00:33:51,505 some errant stray flower petal out of sync with the others. 544 00:33:51,505 --> 00:33:54,343 [C.Z.] It's ghoulish is what it is. 545 00:33:54,343 --> 00:33:57,383 Well, now what the fuck do we do? 546 00:33:57,383 --> 00:34:02,359 I don't know, but let's face it, it's not going to be easy. 547 00:34:02,359 --> 00:34:05,098 She was the one who made this whole thing work. 548 00:34:05,098 --> 00:34:08,673 Wasn't she? She, she made us show up. 549 00:34:08,673 --> 00:34:13,281 We keep marching, like soldiers in the winter in Russia 550 00:34:13,281 --> 00:34:14,483 during the war. 551 00:34:14,483 --> 00:34:15,753 Well, it's not that bad. We're not, 552 00:34:15,753 --> 00:34:18,391 we're not marching on Stalingrad. 553 00:34:18,391 --> 00:34:22,132 Oh, God, I dreaded this. 554 00:34:22,132 --> 00:34:24,737 And it's much worse than I thought. 555 00:34:28,444 --> 00:34:30,650 I loved her. 556 00:34:30,650 --> 00:34:33,421 [indistinct chatter] 557 00:34:33,421 --> 00:34:36,394 [C.Z.] The world turns, and Bill Paley is 558 00:34:36,394 --> 00:34:39,568 still alive and rich and single once again. 559 00:34:39,568 --> 00:34:42,272 Good luck to whomever he ends up picking 560 00:34:42,272 --> 00:34:45,513 because that is not a job for the faint of heart. 561 00:34:45,513 --> 00:34:48,418 Truman would have a deliciously wicked quip in this moment. 562 00:34:48,418 --> 00:34:50,823 He'd throw it like a lawn dart and hit a bull's-eye. 563 00:34:50,823 --> 00:34:52,594 [all chuckle] 564 00:34:52,594 --> 00:34:54,396 Well, he should have come. 565 00:34:55,165 --> 00:34:58,539 Why not? It's the curtain call, isn't it? 566 00:34:58,539 --> 00:34:59,841 Let him take his bow. 567 00:34:59,841 --> 00:35:01,912 Truman will have the last word. 568 00:35:01,912 --> 00:35:06,655 He will immortalize us all, for better or for worse. 569 00:35:06,655 --> 00:35:10,195 He's finishing Answered Prayers? 570 00:35:10,195 --> 00:35:13,334 He said Babe's death is the final chapter, 571 00:35:13,334 --> 00:35:15,472 and then he can die. 572 00:35:15,472 --> 00:35:17,711 And then he can die. 573 00:35:17,711 --> 00:35:20,315 Christ. How about not dying? 574 00:35:20,315 --> 00:35:21,952 How about thriving? 575 00:35:21,952 --> 00:35:25,626 It's not that hard, you know, to thrive. 576 00:35:25,626 --> 00:35:27,496 [sighs] 577 00:35:29,199 --> 00:35:31,437 I always wanted to ask him... 578 00:35:32,507 --> 00:35:36,413 ...did it pay off to publish that? 579 00:35:37,382 --> 00:35:39,320 And it didn't pay off, did it? 580 00:35:39,320 --> 00:35:42,292 It was a waste. 581 00:35:46,233 --> 00:35:48,639 Okay, look, I'm going to slip out without fuss. 582 00:35:48,639 --> 00:35:51,645 Yes, me, too. Lunch next week? 583 00:35:51,645 --> 00:35:54,518 Yes, we have to. La Cote? How's Monday? 584 00:35:54,518 --> 00:35:56,622 Oh, it doesn't work for me. 585 00:35:56,622 --> 00:35:58,391 I have contractors at Templeton all day. 586 00:35:58,391 --> 00:36:01,598 - Tuesday? - Oh, a thing in Bedford. Wednesday. 587 00:36:01,598 --> 00:36:03,602 Wait, no, Wednesday doesn't work. Thursday. 588 00:36:03,602 --> 00:36:04,871 I can't. 589 00:36:04,871 --> 00:36:06,575 Oh, well, we'll just keep in touch. 590 00:36:06,575 --> 00:36:09,915 And maybe we should try a new place. Lutèce? 591 00:36:09,915 --> 00:36:12,887 Or dare we venture across to the West Side? 592 00:36:12,887 --> 00:36:14,858 - Café des Artistes? - Ooh. 593 00:36:14,858 --> 00:36:17,328 - Well, we'll figure something out. - Okay. 594 00:36:18,297 --> 00:36:19,366 Mm. 595 00:36:21,437 --> 00:36:22,873 [quietly] Bye, darling. 596 00:36:37,570 --> 00:36:39,541 some serious questions? 597 00:36:39,541 --> 00:36:42,212 [slurring] Oh, sure. 598 00:36:44,551 --> 00:36:46,521 Have you been drinking? 599 00:36:50,428 --> 00:36:52,901 You mean very lately? 600 00:36:52,901 --> 00:36:54,036 Here's what I'm saying. 601 00:36:54,036 --> 00:36:57,409 You have a problem 602 00:36:57,409 --> 00:36:59,815 with alcoholism. 603 00:36:59,815 --> 00:37:02,554 Millions of people have the same prob-- 604 00:37:02,554 --> 00:37:03,923 Oh, my God. 605 00:37:03,923 --> 00:37:07,931 I mean, alcohol is the least of it. 606 00:37:07,931 --> 00:37:10,302 [chuckles] I mean, that's 607 00:37:10,302 --> 00:37:12,540 the joker 608 00:37:12,540 --> 00:37:16,582 in the-the cards. 609 00:37:16,582 --> 00:37:19,320 [chuckles] 610 00:37:19,320 --> 00:37:21,356 What is the problem? 611 00:37:23,896 --> 00:37:28,873 It began because I... 612 00:37:28,873 --> 00:37:32,614 [clears throat] My mother... 613 00:37:32,614 --> 00:37:34,818 it was all very simple. 614 00:37:34,818 --> 00:37:37,557 It was one of the most simple, 615 00:37:37,557 --> 00:37:39,961 I mean, kind of cases 616 00:37:39,961 --> 00:37:43,936 of anxiety. 617 00:37:43,936 --> 00:37:46,340 Well, you know, it was... 618 00:37:46,340 --> 00:37:49,681 My mother was a very beautiful girl, 619 00:37:49,681 --> 00:37:51,317 and she was only 620 00:37:51,317 --> 00:37:56,093 17 years old... 621 00:37:56,093 --> 00:37:57,564 Here's a question I'd like to ask you. 622 00:37:57,564 --> 00:37:59,901 It's a serious question, and that is this. 623 00:37:59,901 --> 00:38:04,511 What is going to happen unless you lick this problem 624 00:38:04,511 --> 00:38:05,846 of drugs and alcohol? 625 00:38:05,846 --> 00:38:08,519 What is going to happen to Truman? 626 00:38:08,519 --> 00:38:09,988 I'm sure you've thought about it. 627 00:38:09,988 --> 00:38:12,627 Oh, you know, I do, 628 00:38:12,627 --> 00:38:16,702 for months and months and months and months, 629 00:38:16,702 --> 00:38:19,740 you know, I write. 630 00:38:22,078 --> 00:38:26,755 But the obvious answer is that eventually, 631 00:38:26,755 --> 00:38:29,895 - I mean, I'll kill myself. - Yes. 632 00:38:29,895 --> 00:38:33,502 Without meaning to. 633 00:38:33,502 --> 00:38:35,371 [phone ringing] 634 00:38:46,661 --> 00:38:48,765 [Jack] You know where you are? 635 00:38:53,575 --> 00:38:57,082 Don't patronize me. 636 00:38:57,082 --> 00:39:00,021 Hazelden. Minneapolis. You're in detox. 637 00:39:00,021 --> 00:39:01,825 You blacked out on Stanley Siegel's 638 00:39:01,825 --> 00:39:03,829 wretched television show. 639 00:39:03,829 --> 00:39:07,837 Your self-loathing and guilt over Babe, 640 00:39:07,837 --> 00:39:11,043 over losing her without ever having been forgiven, 641 00:39:11,043 --> 00:39:12,412 is that why you did this to yourself 642 00:39:12,412 --> 00:39:13,816 on national television? 643 00:39:13,816 --> 00:39:15,919 [sighs] 644 00:39:16,688 --> 00:39:20,428 I better get myself put together for her service. 645 00:39:20,428 --> 00:39:22,398 That was two weeks ago. 646 00:39:31,150 --> 00:39:35,726 The rest of Answered Prayers is a love letter to her. 647 00:39:35,726 --> 00:39:37,964 People will see what I meant to celebrate. 648 00:39:37,964 --> 00:39:41,872 There is no Answered Prayers, is there? 649 00:39:41,872 --> 00:39:44,143 There's scraps, there's lines, there's abandoned pages. 650 00:39:44,143 --> 00:39:47,215 Are you judging me? 651 00:39:47,215 --> 00:39:48,952 Careful. 652 00:39:48,952 --> 00:39:53,161 I'm asking for the practical purpose of, when you die, 653 00:39:53,161 --> 00:39:55,566 it's going to fall to me to try and produce 654 00:39:55,566 --> 00:39:57,603 a manuscript, and I would appreciate being spared 655 00:39:57,603 --> 00:40:00,743 that particular Easter egg hunt. 656 00:40:00,743 --> 00:40:02,580 I don't want to die. 657 00:40:02,580 --> 00:40:04,617 [chuckles] 658 00:40:04,617 --> 00:40:06,020 That's a lie, too. 659 00:40:06,020 --> 00:40:09,594 So much contempt. 660 00:40:09,594 --> 00:40:12,767 Did I hurt you that much? 661 00:40:12,767 --> 00:40:15,773 Contempt is not what this is. 662 00:40:15,773 --> 00:40:18,579 This is goodbye. 663 00:40:18,579 --> 00:40:21,050 I got you here, goodbye. 664 00:40:21,050 --> 00:40:23,054 The book is real. 665 00:40:23,054 --> 00:40:27,597 All those scraps, I, I just have to put them together. 666 00:40:27,597 --> 00:40:30,703 I met someone. 667 00:40:30,703 --> 00:40:32,907 I'm in love. 668 00:40:32,907 --> 00:40:35,913 Or as much as I can be 669 00:40:35,913 --> 00:40:38,752 after all this. 670 00:40:38,752 --> 00:40:41,658 You have him to thank, actually, for my being here. 671 00:40:41,658 --> 00:40:43,227 For your being here. 672 00:40:45,064 --> 00:40:48,539 I was going to leave you in your own vomit, 673 00:40:48,539 --> 00:40:49,908 sleeping on the living room floor, 674 00:40:49,908 --> 00:40:52,178 but he convinced me that that would be wrong. 675 00:40:57,723 --> 00:40:59,761 Who? 676 00:40:59,761 --> 00:41:03,267 A kid from that bookstore in the Village. 677 00:41:03,267 --> 00:41:07,643 He's way too young for me, but... 678 00:41:07,643 --> 00:41:10,281 I don't care anymore. 679 00:41:10,281 --> 00:41:12,520 He's kind, 680 00:41:12,520 --> 00:41:15,726 and kindness counts, Truman. 681 00:41:17,195 --> 00:41:21,069 Gloating always was a good look for you, Jack. 682 00:41:22,973 --> 00:41:27,549 Fits you like a Cartier watch on a courtesan's wrist. 683 00:41:29,720 --> 00:41:33,796 You fancied yourself a writer, but whatever you wrote, 684 00:41:33,796 --> 00:41:36,701 it was always a chorus boy 685 00:41:36,701 --> 00:41:39,206 trying to impress. 686 00:41:39,206 --> 00:41:42,914 The only real dancing I ever did was with you. 687 00:41:42,914 --> 00:41:46,688 Justifying your self-regard, as if genius excuses 688 00:41:46,688 --> 00:41:49,693 what a miserable person you are. 689 00:41:51,865 --> 00:41:55,004 To lie in print deliberately, 690 00:41:55,004 --> 00:41:58,879 simply to hurt people who care about you, it's... 691 00:41:58,879 --> 00:42:01,717 And where has your high-wire act gotten you? 692 00:42:03,020 --> 00:42:06,561 A dead-end bed in a dead-end hospital. 693 00:42:11,638 --> 00:42:13,107 Goodbye, Truman. 694 00:42:15,979 --> 00:42:17,716 Don't. 695 00:42:18,852 --> 00:42:21,157 Please, Jack, don't go. 696 00:42:21,157 --> 00:42:23,762 I'm scared. 697 00:42:23,762 --> 00:42:25,331 [Jack sighs] 698 00:42:28,070 --> 00:42:31,778 I only have you, outside Joanne. 699 00:42:31,778 --> 00:42:34,082 And she's... 700 00:42:35,218 --> 00:42:37,890 Well, you know, she's Joanne. 701 00:42:38,892 --> 00:42:41,163 She buys papered lamps 702 00:42:41,163 --> 00:42:44,002 from Pier 1. 703 00:42:44,804 --> 00:42:47,844 Tibetan eclectic, for Christ's sake. 704 00:42:47,844 --> 00:42:50,248 She's not Babe. 705 00:42:50,248 --> 00:42:52,986 She's not you. 706 00:42:54,824 --> 00:42:58,898 Please. I-I'm sorry. 707 00:43:00,234 --> 00:43:03,007 Don't leave. 708 00:43:03,007 --> 00:43:07,650 Jack, I'm so cold. 709 00:43:07,650 --> 00:43:09,720 [exhales] 710 00:43:21,210 --> 00:43:22,647 [Joanne] [echoing] You were burning up, 711 00:43:22,647 --> 00:43:24,684 now you're freezing. 712 00:43:24,684 --> 00:43:27,188 Truman, can you hear me? 713 00:43:28,324 --> 00:43:31,797 Can you talk? What's wrong with you? 714 00:43:32,599 --> 00:43:35,038 Are you in pain? Did you have a heart attack? 715 00:43:35,038 --> 00:43:37,108 Where am I? 716 00:43:37,108 --> 00:43:38,912 You're in California... 717 00:43:39,747 --> 00:43:40,716 ...in your room, 718 00:43:40,716 --> 00:43:41,718 in my house. 719 00:43:41,718 --> 00:43:43,689 It's, it's me, honey. 720 00:43:43,689 --> 00:43:44,691 It's Joanne. 721 00:43:44,691 --> 00:43:45,759 It's Joanne. 722 00:43:47,696 --> 00:43:49,065 Don't you remember? 723 00:43:49,500 --> 00:43:53,107 You wanted to come out here and-and dry out 724 00:43:53,107 --> 00:43:54,443 and-and sit by the pool 725 00:43:54,443 --> 00:43:56,113 - and-and write. - [water splashes] 726 00:43:56,113 --> 00:43:58,719 I got you all of your yellow notebooks 727 00:43:58,719 --> 00:44:01,123 and, and your pencils 728 00:44:01,123 --> 00:44:03,729 and those good gum erasers. 729 00:44:03,729 --> 00:44:06,968 You remember how you were gonna finish Answered Prayers? 730 00:44:08,437 --> 00:44:10,743 Truman? 731 00:44:10,743 --> 00:44:14,383 - [Rick] Howdy. - Howdy yourself. 732 00:44:14,383 --> 00:44:17,122 Water's fine. You coming in? 733 00:44:17,122 --> 00:44:18,691 [chuckles] 734 00:44:22,398 --> 00:44:24,136 [Truman] No, no, I was 735 00:44:24,136 --> 00:44:25,806 on the last page. 736 00:44:25,806 --> 00:44:29,078 I was almost done. 737 00:44:45,311 --> 00:44:47,883 I got you. I got you. 738 00:44:47,883 --> 00:44:48,919 [Truman coughing] 739 00:44:48,919 --> 00:44:51,056 [grunting] 740 00:44:51,056 --> 00:44:54,964 Oh, God, Truman, what have you done? 741 00:44:54,964 --> 00:44:59,106 Thank God I've been doing those Richard Simmons classes. 742 00:44:59,106 --> 00:45:03,147 I have the upper body strength to pull you out of there. 743 00:45:03,147 --> 00:45:05,418 You just keeled over. 744 00:45:05,418 --> 00:45:07,890 Okay, listen, I'm gonna call a doctor, okay? 745 00:45:07,890 --> 00:45:08,892 You just sit tight. 746 00:45:08,892 --> 00:45:11,330 No, no, I'm going. 747 00:45:11,330 --> 00:45:16,173 I've decided I'm going to go to China, 748 00:45:16,173 --> 00:45:20,481 where there are no phones and no mail service. 749 00:45:20,481 --> 00:45:25,091 In a Mandarin pagoda pavilion, 750 00:45:25,091 --> 00:45:28,431 watching bamboo shoots sway... 751 00:45:28,431 --> 00:45:32,138 Truman, stop. You're scaring me. 752 00:45:32,138 --> 00:45:34,209 You're not making any sense. 753 00:45:34,209 --> 00:45:39,353 I am. No more hospitals. 754 00:45:39,353 --> 00:45:42,458 I'm very tired. 755 00:45:43,995 --> 00:45:45,298 Truman. 756 00:45:45,298 --> 00:45:47,335 If you care about me, 757 00:45:47,335 --> 00:45:49,841 please just let me go. 758 00:45:49,841 --> 00:45:51,811 You're burning up. 759 00:45:51,811 --> 00:45:54,349 Bring me a drink. 760 00:45:54,349 --> 00:45:58,057 No! No more alcohol. 761 00:45:58,057 --> 00:46:02,032 I've been a very bad friend, enabling you. 762 00:46:02,032 --> 00:46:04,102 No more. I'm-I'm gonna get you 763 00:46:04,102 --> 00:46:07,174 a, a Diet Rite Cola, okay? 764 00:46:15,391 --> 00:46:19,032 - Oh, dear. - [ice rattles in glass] 765 00:46:38,571 --> 00:46:40,141 [line ringing] 766 00:46:40,141 --> 00:46:42,078 [man] 911. What's your emergency? 767 00:46:44,416 --> 00:46:46,353 Hello? This is 911. 768 00:46:46,353 --> 00:46:49,159 What's your emergency? 769 00:46:49,159 --> 00:46:52,231 Hello? Hello? 770 00:47:10,134 --> 00:47:13,909 [Babe] On one hand, this place desperately needs more light. 771 00:47:13,909 --> 00:47:17,148 On the other, I hate to call any more attention 772 00:47:17,148 --> 00:47:18,585 to this decor. 773 00:47:18,585 --> 00:47:23,093 Ah, poor Joanne, she means well, I suppose. 774 00:47:24,095 --> 00:47:25,599 [sighs] 775 00:47:25,599 --> 00:47:28,337 Well, how is one to get better when surrounded by 776 00:47:28,337 --> 00:47:30,041 such an unfortunate color? 777 00:47:30,041 --> 00:47:32,345 What is this color? 778 00:47:32,345 --> 00:47:35,017 - Putty? Ugh. - [chuckles] 779 00:47:35,017 --> 00:47:37,355 You don't like it? It's very Spanish mission 780 00:47:37,355 --> 00:47:38,558 meets rancho. 781 00:47:38,558 --> 00:47:40,596 Yes, yes, we get it, Joanne. 782 00:47:40,596 --> 00:47:42,398 California abuts Mexico. 783 00:47:42,398 --> 00:47:45,304 - How very on the nose. - [chuckles] 784 00:47:47,509 --> 00:47:49,914 Now sit up. 785 00:47:49,914 --> 00:47:53,922 You need something for your stomach. 786 00:47:53,922 --> 00:47:55,626 A blotter. 787 00:47:55,626 --> 00:47:57,362 A blotter? [chuckles] 788 00:47:57,362 --> 00:47:59,500 I love when you say that. 789 00:47:59,500 --> 00:48:02,573 A blotter of Ritz Crackers. 790 00:48:02,573 --> 00:48:05,946 Oh, Babe, how I love that. 791 00:48:05,946 --> 00:48:08,384 Yes. After a night of imbibing, 792 00:48:08,384 --> 00:48:13,227 absorbing all that alcohol, all that acid? 793 00:48:13,227 --> 00:48:15,699 Yes, a blotter. 794 00:48:15,699 --> 00:48:17,703 First things first, though. 795 00:48:17,703 --> 00:48:19,974 Hair of the dog. 796 00:48:19,974 --> 00:48:22,078 Heavens. 797 00:48:22,078 --> 00:48:25,384 Joanne went to fetch me a diet root beer, 798 00:48:25,384 --> 00:48:26,521 if you can fathom it. 799 00:48:26,521 --> 00:48:30,194 Root beer. Please. 800 00:48:30,194 --> 00:48:31,731 Are we throwing a pizza party? 801 00:48:31,731 --> 00:48:33,100 [both laugh] 802 00:48:33,100 --> 00:48:35,638 [coughing] 803 00:48:36,641 --> 00:48:38,244 Okay, bad idea. 804 00:48:38,244 --> 00:48:40,549 Come on, let's put that out. 805 00:48:40,549 --> 00:48:43,521 Did you get a slight sunburn? 806 00:48:46,059 --> 00:48:48,999 No, it's a flush. 807 00:48:48,999 --> 00:48:52,506 Your liver and kidneys. That's it. 808 00:48:52,506 --> 00:48:55,244 They're all shutting down now. 809 00:48:58,317 --> 00:49:02,425 And your heart, how swollen it is. 810 00:49:02,425 --> 00:49:05,364 I can hear it, the pumping. 811 00:49:05,364 --> 00:49:08,538 It's not natural. It's becoming an effort. 812 00:49:11,142 --> 00:49:14,684 Yes, I fear that may be the case. 813 00:49:14,684 --> 00:49:17,756 - I feel so odd. - Mm-hmm. 814 00:49:19,693 --> 00:49:22,298 Oh. 815 00:49:22,298 --> 00:49:23,501 Babe, your hand feels 816 00:49:23,501 --> 00:49:26,005 so soft and cool. 817 00:49:27,609 --> 00:49:30,982 It's just ecstasy, that feeling. 818 00:49:32,719 --> 00:49:36,259 The cool hand of a mother. 819 00:49:37,696 --> 00:49:41,169 Or an au pair from Gstaad. 820 00:49:43,240 --> 00:49:45,211 Remember that time in Jamaica 821 00:49:45,211 --> 00:49:48,284 when I was so awfully ill, and you stayed up with me 822 00:49:48,284 --> 00:49:50,722 - till my fever broke? - Mm-hmm. 823 00:49:50,722 --> 00:49:54,162 And in return I read aloud to you. 824 00:49:54,162 --> 00:49:57,135 [Babe] Your first draft of Breakfast at Tiffany's. 825 00:49:57,135 --> 00:49:58,738 Of course I remember. 826 00:49:58,738 --> 00:50:02,445 Yes, and-and when I'd finished, you said, 827 00:50:02,445 --> 00:50:04,482 "It's Carol, isn't it?" 828 00:50:04,482 --> 00:50:05,619 [chuckling] Mm-hmm. 829 00:50:05,619 --> 00:50:06,821 It is about 830 00:50:06,821 --> 00:50:08,324 Carol Matthau. 831 00:50:08,324 --> 00:50:10,061 [Babe laughs] 832 00:50:10,061 --> 00:50:12,633 Nobody else connected the dots. 833 00:50:12,633 --> 00:50:14,169 [both laughing] 834 00:50:14,169 --> 00:50:16,239 [Babe] And you made me a promise then. 835 00:50:16,239 --> 00:50:19,580 [Truman] I said I'd never write about you. 836 00:50:19,580 --> 00:50:22,085 And I believed you. 837 00:50:22,085 --> 00:50:26,259 People say things. So be it. 838 00:50:26,259 --> 00:50:28,731 Things get said and then forgotten. 839 00:50:29,767 --> 00:50:31,336 That's life. 840 00:50:31,336 --> 00:50:35,612 Most of the time there's no malice, just life. 841 00:50:38,551 --> 00:50:40,789 Babe... 842 00:50:40,789 --> 00:50:43,628 why did you come, really? 843 00:50:45,632 --> 00:50:49,540 I've been calling and calling for years. 844 00:50:49,540 --> 00:50:51,878 Well, I had to, didn't I? 845 00:50:51,878 --> 00:50:54,684 All those awful talk show appearances, 846 00:50:54,684 --> 00:50:57,890 not a word put to paper. 847 00:50:57,890 --> 00:51:00,194 Somebody had to be there for you. 848 00:51:00,194 --> 00:51:02,365 [whispering] I had to be there. 849 00:51:02,365 --> 00:51:04,537 Like I was in Jamaica. 850 00:51:04,537 --> 00:51:07,776 You've always been a child 851 00:51:07,776 --> 00:51:10,247 who needs his mother. 852 00:51:11,416 --> 00:51:14,557 - But my mother left me. - I know. 853 00:51:14,557 --> 00:51:16,794 And so did I. 854 00:51:18,698 --> 00:51:21,571 I wasn't there enough for my own children either. 855 00:51:21,571 --> 00:51:25,778 But... I'm here now. 856 00:51:28,951 --> 00:51:31,389 Sweet Truman. 857 00:51:34,730 --> 00:51:36,767 ♪ ♪ 858 00:51:42,411 --> 00:51:45,417 I'm not alive, am I? 859 00:51:46,419 --> 00:51:48,624 I'm dead. 860 00:51:51,697 --> 00:51:55,772 You have been for a very long time, Truman. 861 00:51:57,776 --> 00:52:01,483 Just... just close your eyes. 862 00:52:01,483 --> 00:52:03,420 It'll all be over soon. 863 00:52:03,420 --> 00:52:05,491 And believe me, 864 00:52:05,491 --> 00:52:09,499 it's so much better when you let go. 865 00:52:13,508 --> 00:52:16,379 It's so cold. 866 00:52:19,620 --> 00:52:22,291 I'm so cold. 867 00:52:30,474 --> 00:52:34,181 How could this be California? 868 00:52:52,886 --> 00:52:55,859 [phone line ringing] 869 00:52:55,859 --> 00:52:57,796 [Jack] [on phone] Hello? 870 00:52:57,796 --> 00:52:59,432 It's over, Jack. 871 00:53:01,837 --> 00:53:03,306 [sniffles] 872 00:53:05,444 --> 00:53:08,785 - What was it like? - Hard. 873 00:53:08,785 --> 00:53:12,626 You know, it was, it was just us. 874 00:53:12,626 --> 00:53:14,395 It was you and me for a long time, 875 00:53:14,395 --> 00:53:17,635 and then it was just me. 876 00:53:18,938 --> 00:53:20,542 Did he say anything? 877 00:53:20,542 --> 00:53:22,679 He said he was cold. 878 00:53:22,679 --> 00:53:24,784 "Mother." "Mama." 879 00:53:24,784 --> 00:53:27,655 And then he said... 880 00:53:30,394 --> 00:53:32,532 "Beautiful Babe." 881 00:53:37,474 --> 00:53:43,821 Captioned by Media Access Group at WGBH access.wgbh.org