1 00:00:03,068 --> 00:00:06,517 I wasn't just constantly gorging myself with food. 2 00:00:06,517 --> 00:00:09,275 I don't believe you. I don't think she believes you, either. 3 00:00:09,275 --> 00:00:11,068 All I hear is excuses. 4 00:00:16,586 --> 00:00:17,586 [woman 1 sobbing] Somewhere in me, 5 00:00:17,586 --> 00:00:19,896 there's just a little glimmer of hope. 6 00:00:19,896 --> 00:00:22,620 I just wanna be a normal person. 7 00:00:22,620 --> 00:00:24,689 [groans, sighs] 8 00:00:33,517 --> 00:00:36,586 [man 1] You can't do it and then I just... Man! 9 00:00:36,586 --> 00:00:38,310 [woman 2] If I don't make a change now 10 00:00:38,310 --> 00:00:40,172 I'm scared it's gonna be too late. 11 00:00:44,172 --> 00:00:47,103 [exclaiming in pain] No! It hurts. 12 00:00:47,103 --> 00:00:49,689 [woman 3] I refuse to stop fighting. 13 00:00:49,689 --> 00:00:51,931 I have to do this for my children. 14 00:00:51,931 --> 00:00:53,068 [exclaims] 15 00:00:56,517 --> 00:00:59,068 Your body is carrying the weight of three people. 16 00:00:59,068 --> 00:01:01,931 -You want your mother to bury you. Is that it? -No. 17 00:01:01,931 --> 00:01:04,172 That's what it's coming down to. 18 00:01:04,172 --> 00:01:06,000 Life and death. 19 00:01:38,931 --> 00:01:42,378 [William] It's hard to believe that I let my weight drag my life down to this point. 20 00:01:44,896 --> 00:01:46,689 I am still mobile, 21 00:01:46,689 --> 00:01:49,000 but sometimes 22 00:01:49,000 --> 00:01:51,413 I'm in too much pain to wanna get out of bed 23 00:01:51,413 --> 00:01:53,068 and sometimes, 24 00:01:53,068 --> 00:01:55,275 I just don't want to. 25 00:01:55,275 --> 00:01:58,758 Some days I don't feel like moving at all, I don't feel 26 00:01:59,172 --> 00:02:00,862 like I can move. 27 00:02:09,482 --> 00:02:12,000 It could be better to stay in bed 28 00:02:12,000 --> 00:02:14,689 and play video games all day and just relax. 29 00:02:14,689 --> 00:02:18,034 Kind of, you know, just avoid the world. 30 00:02:25,103 --> 00:02:26,586 [groans] 31 00:02:26,586 --> 00:02:29,000 I move slower than I used to, 32 00:02:29,000 --> 00:02:33,000 but I still can get around pretty well. 33 00:02:33,000 --> 00:02:37,930 Honestly, the most difficult thing about my every day 34 00:02:37,930 --> 00:02:40,793 is getting up every day. Getting out of bed. 35 00:02:40,793 --> 00:02:43,793 I feel like it's both physical and mental. 36 00:02:43,793 --> 00:02:47,172 I do have pain sometimes, like, in my back when I wake up. 37 00:02:47,172 --> 00:02:50,275 Like, my knees and my back and my ankles. 38 00:02:50,275 --> 00:02:52,930 My ankles hurt really bad sometimes. 39 00:02:52,930 --> 00:02:55,827 But some of that is also when I'm depressed. 40 00:02:55,827 --> 00:02:57,517 Not wanting to do anything, 41 00:02:57,517 --> 00:03:01,172 to where I just don't want any social interaction with anybody. 42 00:03:05,620 --> 00:03:08,310 Taking a shower is a big challenge for me 43 00:03:08,310 --> 00:03:09,965 because of my stomach. 44 00:03:11,103 --> 00:03:13,620 I can shower on a bad day, 45 00:03:13,620 --> 00:03:16,206 when I'm in a lot pain, I would say about 5 minutes. 46 00:03:16,206 --> 00:03:18,482 Um, because it's hard to just stand there. 47 00:03:18,482 --> 00:03:22,034 Bending over is a little difficult 'cause my stomach gets in the way. 48 00:03:23,482 --> 00:03:26,689 Um, it's hard to be able to lift up my stomach and get underneath. 49 00:03:26,689 --> 00:03:30,793 Sometimes I don't always get it as good as I could. 50 00:03:35,000 --> 00:03:36,241 [straining] 51 00:03:42,379 --> 00:03:45,482 It just makes me feel uncomfortable, like, I just 52 00:03:45,482 --> 00:03:48,310 don't wanna be around people because it could stink and 53 00:03:48,310 --> 00:03:50,137 I don't wanna worry about that. 54 00:03:51,103 --> 00:03:54,448 I would say I have seen myself degrade as far as, like, 55 00:03:55,000 --> 00:03:56,689 things are getting harder 56 00:03:56,689 --> 00:03:59,241 and worse a little by little every day. 57 00:04:00,413 --> 00:04:05,172 How fast I'm moving or how out of breath I get at times. 58 00:04:05,172 --> 00:04:08,344 Um, sometimes, like I said, it gets worse. 59 00:04:09,793 --> 00:04:12,655 I feel very limited knowing where I can go. 60 00:04:14,000 --> 00:04:18,517 Mostly, I only go to the store. 61 00:04:18,517 --> 00:04:20,793 The ability to breathe, I've noticed, 62 00:04:20,793 --> 00:04:24,413 some days gets really bad to where I can only 63 00:04:24,413 --> 00:04:26,793 walk maybe halfway and then I have to turn around 64 00:04:26,793 --> 00:04:28,241 and go back because I'm too tired. 65 00:04:30,172 --> 00:04:33,586 And then, sometimes just walking up and down stairs 66 00:04:33,586 --> 00:04:38,103 or lifting things will cause the breath to go away. 67 00:04:38,103 --> 00:04:41,103 So, my mom has started coming over 68 00:04:41,103 --> 00:04:43,448 to help out with food and stuff. 69 00:04:46,172 --> 00:04:49,310 -Oh, hey, Mom. -Hey, Willy. 70 00:04:49,310 --> 00:04:51,620 -I thought I'd cook you some breakfast. -[William] Okay. 71 00:04:51,620 --> 00:04:53,448 -Thank you. -You're welcome. 72 00:04:54,172 --> 00:04:56,896 [William] Food for me is a drug. 73 00:04:56,896 --> 00:05:00,241 A drug, a coping mechanism, something like that. 74 00:05:02,172 --> 00:05:04,275 All right, I'm gonna make sure I make you enough. 75 00:05:04,275 --> 00:05:05,379 [William] All right. 76 00:05:06,896 --> 00:05:09,206 When William wakes up in the morning, 77 00:05:09,206 --> 00:05:11,172 he's stressing about something 78 00:05:11,172 --> 00:05:15,206 and he's trying to use the food to make it go away. 79 00:05:15,206 --> 00:05:17,000 [sighs in exasperation] Oh, my gosh. Right now, 80 00:05:17,000 --> 00:05:20,793 William is so dishonest with himself about his eating habits. 81 00:05:20,793 --> 00:05:22,000 But... 82 00:05:22,689 --> 00:05:24,896 I almost never see joy in him. 83 00:05:24,896 --> 00:05:27,689 So, yes, probably partly my fault 84 00:05:27,689 --> 00:05:30,000 because it was me giving him the food 85 00:05:30,000 --> 00:05:31,827 because I wanna see joy in him. 86 00:05:31,827 --> 00:05:34,172 But I... I really feel that 87 00:05:34,724 --> 00:05:36,482 as a mother 88 00:05:36,482 --> 00:05:39,517 you do the best of what you think you have available. 89 00:05:39,517 --> 00:05:41,655 -Here it comes, Willy. -[William] Okay. 90 00:05:47,793 --> 00:05:48,965 [Dorothy] There you go. 91 00:05:58,379 --> 00:06:00,586 [William] When I'm eating my mom's cooking 92 00:06:00,586 --> 00:06:03,655 even when I'm starting to feel full, I just can't stop. 93 00:06:05,724 --> 00:06:08,379 I've always had a big appetite. 94 00:06:08,379 --> 00:06:12,448 I think it's because growing up every day revolved around sports. 95 00:06:14,482 --> 00:06:16,724 My dad left before I was born. 96 00:06:16,724 --> 00:06:19,620 My grandparents were basketball fanatics. 97 00:06:19,620 --> 00:06:23,793 And my mom made a living coaching Little League. 98 00:06:23,793 --> 00:06:27,931 And we all got really close watching and playing games together. 99 00:06:27,931 --> 00:06:29,586 [Dorothy] When William was a little boy 100 00:06:29,586 --> 00:06:32,206 his attention span was about two seconds, 101 00:06:32,206 --> 00:06:34,000 so you always had to be on your toes. 102 00:06:34,000 --> 00:06:36,172 He'd run into trees 'cause he'd be so excited 103 00:06:36,172 --> 00:06:39,344 playing with something that he wasn't paying attention where he was going. 104 00:06:40,793 --> 00:06:43,793 [William] For the most part, my early childhood was pretty great. 105 00:06:43,793 --> 00:06:46,379 But then around the time I was 7 or 8 106 00:06:46,379 --> 00:06:48,931 my mom lost her job coaching Little League 107 00:06:48,931 --> 00:06:52,068 and there weren't any other coaching jobs in the area. 108 00:06:52,068 --> 00:06:54,482 So, she had to work out of state. 109 00:06:54,482 --> 00:06:57,517 My brother and I were left with our grandparents. 110 00:06:57,517 --> 00:07:00,379 And, I mean, my mom would come back to visit. 111 00:07:01,206 --> 00:07:03,827 But when she was gone for weeks on end 112 00:07:03,827 --> 00:07:07,275 and it was the first time I remember feeling really down. 113 00:07:07,275 --> 00:07:09,413 And so, after I ate I would feel better. 114 00:07:09,413 --> 00:07:13,482 and that's where my relationship with food first started to go south. 115 00:07:13,482 --> 00:07:16,482 Middle school is where the trouble started. 116 00:07:16,482 --> 00:07:18,482 I don't know if you would call it gangs 117 00:07:18,482 --> 00:07:21,344 but it was people who had that thug mentality. 118 00:07:21,896 --> 00:07:23,586 I went from being an athlete 119 00:07:23,586 --> 00:07:26,379 to this moody kid with a wild temper. 120 00:07:27,206 --> 00:07:29,000 Depending on what kinda day it was, 121 00:07:29,000 --> 00:07:32,068 sometimes I'd be able to control the temper, sometimes I wouldn't. 122 00:07:34,689 --> 00:07:37,689 If somebody felt like they wanted to fight, I would step in 123 00:07:37,689 --> 00:07:39,172 and defend anybody, 124 00:07:39,172 --> 00:07:40,689 especially if they were smaller 125 00:07:40,689 --> 00:07:43,172 or not as athletic 126 00:07:43,172 --> 00:07:45,482 or not able to defend themselves. 127 00:07:45,482 --> 00:07:47,793 And then, I would go home and eat. 128 00:07:47,793 --> 00:07:49,896 It was when I really first started noticing 129 00:07:49,896 --> 00:07:52,068 there's something not right here. 130 00:07:56,000 --> 00:07:59,172 There'd be days where I have felt differently than I normally did, 131 00:07:59,172 --> 00:08:00,551 for no reason. 132 00:08:01,689 --> 00:08:04,689 These periods would last anywhere from an hour 133 00:08:04,689 --> 00:08:06,172 to several days at a time, 134 00:08:06,172 --> 00:08:09,000 and I didn't even realize what it was at first 135 00:08:09,000 --> 00:08:11,275 I just knew something was off with me. 136 00:08:11,275 --> 00:08:12,724 And then, 137 00:08:12,724 --> 00:08:14,586 that's when I was kind of looking at things 138 00:08:14,586 --> 00:08:17,310 and realizing, hey, this could be depression. 139 00:08:17,310 --> 00:08:19,482 I'd be fine and then all of a sudden 140 00:08:19,482 --> 00:08:22,241 I'd feel really down and just not myself. 141 00:08:23,793 --> 00:08:25,275 Do you want some more, Will? 142 00:08:25,275 --> 00:08:26,862 [William] Uh, sure. 143 00:08:31,379 --> 00:08:34,102 Then right around the time I started getting depressed 144 00:08:34,102 --> 00:08:37,275 during basketball, I partially tore my ACL 145 00:08:37,275 --> 00:08:38,688 to the point to where it's being... 146 00:08:38,688 --> 00:08:40,724 basically being held on by strands. 147 00:08:40,724 --> 00:08:43,379 So, I was immobile, on crutches. 148 00:08:43,379 --> 00:08:46,379 My dream was always to play professional sports 149 00:08:46,379 --> 00:08:48,413 whether baseball, basketball or football. 150 00:08:48,413 --> 00:08:50,000 So when I couldn't really be active 151 00:08:50,000 --> 00:08:51,586 and not be able to play sports, 152 00:08:51,586 --> 00:08:53,896 not be able to workout, not be able to do anything, 153 00:08:53,896 --> 00:08:56,310 it led to a really bad depression. 154 00:08:56,310 --> 00:08:59,172 I started playing a whole lot of video games. 155 00:08:59,172 --> 00:09:01,586 And I barricaded myself into a room 156 00:09:01,586 --> 00:09:04,000 and didn't let nobody else in. 157 00:09:04,000 --> 00:09:05,275 And that's when food, 158 00:09:05,275 --> 00:09:07,655 it just kind of substituted everything. 159 00:09:10,482 --> 00:09:13,000 My senior year my ACL healed 160 00:09:13,000 --> 00:09:15,586 but the depression never lifted. 161 00:09:15,586 --> 00:09:18,689 And then I just kind of got tired of just playing sports 162 00:09:18,689 --> 00:09:20,896 and I just wanted to do something different, 163 00:09:20,896 --> 00:09:22,689 and part of that was the depression. 164 00:09:22,689 --> 00:09:25,793 'Cause I didn't feel motivated to do anything. 165 00:09:25,793 --> 00:09:28,862 I didn't have a backup plan or anything like that. 166 00:09:31,206 --> 00:09:34,896 I like the idea of being a positive influence on people somehow. 167 00:09:34,896 --> 00:09:36,793 So after I graduated high school 168 00:09:36,793 --> 00:09:39,275 I ended up transferring over to Job Corps. 169 00:09:40,586 --> 00:09:43,655 Wanted to go to school to be a correctional officer. 170 00:09:45,793 --> 00:09:49,206 Job Corps is great because it gave me a free place to live. 171 00:09:49,206 --> 00:09:51,310 While I got paid to get certified 172 00:09:51,310 --> 00:09:53,275 for both armed and unarmed security 173 00:09:53,275 --> 00:09:56,068 as well as to work corrections. 174 00:09:56,068 --> 00:09:58,620 And then, while I was finishing my studies 175 00:09:58,620 --> 00:10:02,000 I noticed this fellow student who was overweight like me, 176 00:10:02,000 --> 00:10:03,482 and we started talking. 177 00:10:03,482 --> 00:10:06,000 And then it quickly developed into something where 178 00:10:06,000 --> 00:10:09,931 we became very comfortable doing just about anything together. 179 00:10:09,931 --> 00:10:12,689 So, then we dated for about three months and then 180 00:10:12,689 --> 00:10:15,517 we just randomly decided to get married 181 00:10:15,517 --> 00:10:17,896 and it was just kind of a spur of the moment thing. 182 00:10:17,896 --> 00:10:21,000 It wasn't like a thought out process or 183 00:10:21,000 --> 00:10:24,103 what the future holds... anything like that. 184 00:10:24,103 --> 00:10:26,482 [Dorothy] She walks up, she goes, 185 00:10:26,482 --> 00:10:28,172 "I'm William's girlfriend." 186 00:10:28,172 --> 00:10:29,758 I was like, "Oh, no." 187 00:10:32,000 --> 00:10:35,103 So, I tried to talk 'em into living together, 188 00:10:35,103 --> 00:10:37,103 I tried to talk 'em out of getting married. 189 00:10:37,103 --> 00:10:39,172 I said, "Living together, you'll get to know each other. 190 00:10:39,172 --> 00:10:42,000 I don't think marriage is the right thing right now." 191 00:10:42,000 --> 00:10:45,793 But nobody listened to me because her parents pushed for them to get married. 192 00:10:45,793 --> 00:10:47,413 [William] We moved to Colorado 193 00:10:47,413 --> 00:10:49,482 and I did work security for a little bit. 194 00:10:49,482 --> 00:10:51,620 But I realized really quickly that security 195 00:10:51,620 --> 00:10:53,482 was not what I wanted to do. 196 00:10:53,482 --> 00:10:55,379 So, in terms of other jobs 197 00:10:55,379 --> 00:10:58,103 customer service was what was available. 198 00:10:58,103 --> 00:11:01,827 I even started looking at studying video game programming. 199 00:11:01,827 --> 00:11:05,379 But just as I was doing that my marriage came to an end. 200 00:11:05,379 --> 00:11:08,275 -Willy, are you ready to go to the grocery store? -Yeah, I am. 201 00:11:08,275 --> 00:11:10,379 -What do you want? What are you gonna get? -Uh, I don't know. 202 00:11:10,379 --> 00:11:12,827 Probably, some, like, chicken. Some... 203 00:11:12,827 --> 00:11:15,724 Definitely get some soda. I think I'm out completely now. 204 00:11:15,724 --> 00:11:17,586 [Dorothy] Okay. 205 00:11:17,586 --> 00:11:20,000 [William] My wife and I were together for 5 years 206 00:11:20,000 --> 00:11:22,482 and we no longer had those same feelings for each other 207 00:11:22,482 --> 00:11:25,724 like, we loved each other there, but we weren't in love. 208 00:11:25,724 --> 00:11:28,482 And I think we woke up one day realizing that 209 00:11:28,482 --> 00:11:32,793 and so we separated, thinking maybe separation will work on it. 210 00:11:32,793 --> 00:11:34,689 We tried to get back together 211 00:11:34,689 --> 00:11:39,206 and it just did not seem like it was the right thing to do. 212 00:11:39,206 --> 00:11:41,068 It was literally, "Here is the divorce paperwork. 213 00:11:41,068 --> 00:11:42,758 Sign it, done. Okay, done." 214 00:11:44,896 --> 00:11:48,689 I still had my job in customer service but starting over was hard. 215 00:11:48,689 --> 00:11:51,275 Rents in Colorado were really expensive. 216 00:11:51,275 --> 00:11:53,206 So, I moved back to Texas. 217 00:11:53,206 --> 00:11:57,482 Staying in hotel rooms just to kind of make things cheaper on me. 218 00:11:57,482 --> 00:12:00,172 And I was working the night shift from home. 219 00:12:00,172 --> 00:12:03,482 The phone systems weren't working right for the overnight people. 220 00:12:03,482 --> 00:12:06,000 But instead of addressing the issue and resolving it 221 00:12:06,000 --> 00:12:08,724 they just kinda got rid of the people that were having the issues. 222 00:12:08,724 --> 00:12:10,275 They just kind of got rid of me. 223 00:12:11,103 --> 00:12:14,620 And then I moved out of my hotel room. 224 00:12:14,620 --> 00:12:18,000 And that's when the depression started to creep up on me. 225 00:12:18,000 --> 00:12:20,103 'Cause even when it's agreeable, 226 00:12:20,103 --> 00:12:22,275 I mean, it's divorce, it's rough, it's tough. 227 00:12:22,275 --> 00:12:24,310 It does take a toll mentally. 228 00:12:24,310 --> 00:12:27,758 I just kept it all in and I didn't talk to anybody about it. 229 00:12:28,586 --> 00:12:30,413 I turned back to junk food. 230 00:12:30,413 --> 00:12:33,000 And I started playing a lot of video games 231 00:12:33,000 --> 00:12:34,689 and not really being active 232 00:12:34,689 --> 00:12:38,310 and just sitting there, and I noticed the weight was coming on 233 00:12:38,310 --> 00:12:40,379 and wasn't going back off. 234 00:12:40,379 --> 00:12:43,586 [Dorothy] The habits changed after his divorce 235 00:12:43,586 --> 00:12:46,793 and he started using food as a coping mechanism 236 00:12:46,793 --> 00:12:48,620 to hide his feelings. 237 00:12:48,620 --> 00:12:51,103 And that's when I, kind of, just, I realized 238 00:12:51,103 --> 00:12:53,931 I had a food addiction. 239 00:12:53,931 --> 00:12:57,482 And it got to a point to where I didn't feel comfortable climbing stairs 240 00:12:57,482 --> 00:12:59,172 because I was too heavy. 241 00:12:59,172 --> 00:13:03,000 I joined the gym to walk on the treadmill for 30 minutes to an hour, 242 00:13:03,000 --> 00:13:04,827 and they had a big TV screen 243 00:13:04,827 --> 00:13:07,206 so you could watch a movie while you were walking. 244 00:13:07,206 --> 00:13:10,000 But just, being the size I was, 245 00:13:10,000 --> 00:13:12,172 it felt like I was being looked at and stared at. 246 00:13:12,172 --> 00:13:15,103 Could've been a mental thing, um, but, 247 00:13:15,103 --> 00:13:17,103 I didn't see any changes, 248 00:13:17,103 --> 00:13:19,310 and so I just kinda stopped going. 249 00:13:19,310 --> 00:13:22,862 And so it just kind of spiraled from there out of control up till now. 250 00:13:24,413 --> 00:13:26,517 My depression, it's kind of, 251 00:13:26,517 --> 00:13:30,000 something I keep close to me and I just, kind of, keep it quiet. 252 00:13:30,000 --> 00:13:32,241 I'm just very blocked in. 253 00:13:34,206 --> 00:13:37,379 Kind of, cut everybody out when I started gaining weight. 254 00:13:38,827 --> 00:13:42,344 As I got bigger, I just kind of distanced myself from everybody. 255 00:13:47,827 --> 00:13:50,896 I do have to have somebody drive me to the grocery store 256 00:13:50,896 --> 00:13:53,275 because it is hard to get behind a steering wheel. 257 00:13:55,896 --> 00:13:58,310 I mean, I wish I could go by myself. 258 00:13:58,310 --> 00:14:02,172 Just because, I'm in my 30s, but... 259 00:14:02,172 --> 00:14:04,586 life can be very challenging at this weight 260 00:14:04,586 --> 00:14:08,482 because there's not a lot of places that are built or made 261 00:14:08,482 --> 00:14:09,793 for heavier people. 262 00:14:09,793 --> 00:14:13,206 So, it's harder to get places, go to the grocery store 263 00:14:13,206 --> 00:14:14,965 and stuff like that. 264 00:14:22,482 --> 00:14:24,379 [wheels rattling] 265 00:14:27,275 --> 00:14:29,310 The main thing I can't stop myself from buying 266 00:14:29,310 --> 00:14:31,793 when I'm at the grocery store is probably soda. 267 00:14:31,793 --> 00:14:34,068 That's what motivates me to come down here. 268 00:14:37,793 --> 00:14:41,000 I usually go through a six-pack of those 269 00:14:41,000 --> 00:14:43,275 within a couple of hours. 270 00:14:48,482 --> 00:14:49,655 There. 271 00:14:51,275 --> 00:14:53,379 [breathing heavily] 272 00:14:54,379 --> 00:14:57,448 As a parent, unfortunately, there's really no guidebook. 273 00:14:58,724 --> 00:15:01,000 Did we teach them the right thing? 274 00:15:01,000 --> 00:15:04,172 Did we do what we should've done as a mother? 275 00:15:04,827 --> 00:15:06,275 Every child is different, 276 00:15:06,275 --> 00:15:08,000 every need is different. 277 00:15:08,000 --> 00:15:10,000 But at the end of the day, as a mother 278 00:15:10,000 --> 00:15:13,689 it was my job to probably teach him healthy eating. 279 00:15:13,689 --> 00:15:15,448 -Here's some cupcakes. -[William] Yes. 280 00:15:19,000 --> 00:15:21,172 -[Dorothy] You got hotdogs already? -Yes. 281 00:15:23,275 --> 00:15:25,586 I don't do a whole lot of vegetables. 282 00:15:25,586 --> 00:15:28,068 Mostly, I cook meat up and eat it. 283 00:15:31,103 --> 00:15:35,206 The thing that I enjoy most about food is the taste and the flavors. 284 00:15:35,206 --> 00:15:38,275 I don't really find the way I eat different than anybody else. 285 00:15:38,275 --> 00:15:40,793 But I do notice that people are staring at me. 286 00:15:41,586 --> 00:15:43,275 It makes me nervous. 287 00:15:43,275 --> 00:15:44,827 And then I wanna get what I need 288 00:15:44,827 --> 00:15:46,827 and get out as quickly as possible, 289 00:15:46,827 --> 00:15:49,275 before I start to get claustrophobic. 290 00:15:50,310 --> 00:15:51,482 [machine beeps] 291 00:15:52,379 --> 00:15:54,000 -Here you go. -Thank you. 292 00:15:54,000 --> 00:15:55,172 -Y'all have a great day. -You, too. 293 00:15:55,172 --> 00:15:56,241 Thank you. 294 00:15:57,310 --> 00:15:59,000 [Dorothy] To see where he is now 295 00:15:59,000 --> 00:16:01,689 and not being responsible enough to understand 296 00:16:01,689 --> 00:16:04,689 the impact it has on his weight, his body, 297 00:16:04,689 --> 00:16:07,068 the people that love him around him, 298 00:16:08,379 --> 00:16:10,655 is devastating to me. 299 00:16:12,206 --> 00:16:15,413 Shopping with William is like a crashing plane. 300 00:16:15,413 --> 00:16:18,896 You can't stop it, you can't control it, 301 00:16:18,896 --> 00:16:21,689 you have to just let it do what it's doing 302 00:16:21,689 --> 00:16:24,206 and it's just... 303 00:16:24,206 --> 00:16:26,275 It is heartbreaking 304 00:16:26,275 --> 00:16:29,000 to know that you can't help your son. 305 00:16:32,206 --> 00:16:33,689 -William... -[William] Hmm? 306 00:16:33,689 --> 00:16:35,206 ...I'm not going up the stairs, 307 00:16:35,206 --> 00:16:38,000 -I'm gonna leave the bags at the bottom of the stairs. -[William] All right. 308 00:16:38,000 --> 00:16:41,586 William has to stand up and take care of William. 309 00:16:41,586 --> 00:16:44,827 He can't rely on Mommy to take care of William. 310 00:16:44,827 --> 00:16:47,896 He can't rely on society to take care of William. 311 00:16:47,896 --> 00:16:49,724 William needs to realize 312 00:16:49,724 --> 00:16:51,586 "I have to lose this weight." 313 00:16:51,586 --> 00:16:54,586 Not, "Oh, well, Mom will do this for me." 314 00:16:54,586 --> 00:16:57,103 Or, "This person will do that for me." 315 00:16:57,103 --> 00:16:58,689 He's gotta take charge 316 00:16:58,689 --> 00:17:02,000 and once he loves himself enough to take charge 317 00:17:02,000 --> 00:17:04,068 his whole world is gonna open up. 318 00:17:08,931 --> 00:17:11,378 [William] I feel like life is passing me by. 319 00:17:11,378 --> 00:17:14,550 I spend most of my day pretty much on the chair in my living room. 320 00:17:15,000 --> 00:17:17,413 Sometimes, I go a month 321 00:17:17,413 --> 00:17:19,205 without any depression issues 322 00:17:19,205 --> 00:17:20,723 and then sometimes 323 00:17:20,723 --> 00:17:23,172 it's there for several months, 324 00:17:23,172 --> 00:17:25,517 straight through without a break 325 00:17:25,517 --> 00:17:28,586 and that's when eating becomes, like, a way to cover a whole. 326 00:17:33,793 --> 00:17:36,068 And I know that how I'm living right now 327 00:17:36,068 --> 00:17:38,275 can't go on for much longer. 328 00:17:39,586 --> 00:17:41,206 If I don't change, 329 00:17:41,206 --> 00:17:44,068 my heart is gonna keep getting worse until it gives out. 330 00:17:46,172 --> 00:17:48,827 But I'm also not ready to give up food 331 00:17:48,827 --> 00:17:51,379 when I feel really down and depressed. 332 00:17:51,379 --> 00:17:53,724 And I'll go through a gallon of ice-cream in a day 333 00:17:53,724 --> 00:17:56,000 if I feel that down and depressed. 334 00:17:56,931 --> 00:17:59,068 So, I don't know what I'm gonna do. 335 00:18:00,000 --> 00:18:02,379 My situation is at a breaking point. 336 00:18:02,379 --> 00:18:04,172 I need to get help. 337 00:18:27,068 --> 00:18:29,586 My life right now, I feel like, when I'm depressed 338 00:18:29,586 --> 00:18:33,793 it can get really bad so I spend most of my day pretty much in my room. 339 00:18:33,793 --> 00:18:35,931 Just kinda sitting there. 340 00:18:35,931 --> 00:18:38,758 But I know I need to get out because I don't wanna just 341 00:18:38,758 --> 00:18:41,172 stuck in a bed or stuck in a house. 342 00:18:41,172 --> 00:18:43,931 My biggest fear is dying at a young age. 343 00:18:43,931 --> 00:18:45,586 So it does scare me. 344 00:18:45,586 --> 00:18:47,758 It makes me want to get the help 345 00:18:47,758 --> 00:18:49,965 I need to get this under control. 346 00:18:57,379 --> 00:19:00,000 Right now, he's a prisoner in his own body. 347 00:19:00,000 --> 00:19:03,206 This weight has the chains wrapped around him so tight, 348 00:19:03,206 --> 00:19:04,689 he has no freedom. 349 00:19:04,689 --> 00:19:07,103 It's just time for William to 350 00:19:07,103 --> 00:19:10,172 do something to help William and to love himself again. 351 00:19:13,000 --> 00:19:15,379 [William] So, today I'm gonna see Dr. Now 352 00:19:16,482 --> 00:19:18,931 so I can get my life back on track. 353 00:19:18,931 --> 00:19:21,793 I've been dieting already for the past few weeks. 354 00:19:21,793 --> 00:19:24,310 And it feels like I'm moving in the right direction. 355 00:19:24,310 --> 00:19:28,103 So, hopefully, Dr. Now will be impressed I got a head start. 356 00:19:28,103 --> 00:19:30,482 But I'm definitely nervous for the drive. 357 00:19:30,482 --> 00:19:33,379 It should be about 4 or 5 hours. 358 00:19:33,379 --> 00:19:35,206 I think I can handle it all right. 359 00:19:35,206 --> 00:19:39,310 But it's gonna be painful cramming myself in the car for that long. 360 00:19:39,310 --> 00:19:43,689 And then when I get there, I'll have to weigh myself and see where I'm at. 361 00:19:43,689 --> 00:19:46,931 I don't know how much I weigh 'cause I haven't weighed myself. 362 00:19:46,931 --> 00:19:49,655 I don't wanna see those numbers on the scale. [chuckles] 363 00:19:51,689 --> 00:19:54,448 I think I've lost 20 or 30 lb already. 364 00:19:55,517 --> 00:19:57,689 [Dorothy speaking] 365 00:19:57,689 --> 00:20:00,172 [William speaking] 366 00:20:02,896 --> 00:20:05,172 [Dorothy speaking] 367 00:20:07,793 --> 00:20:11,172 [William] I feel like my mom is more uptight about this whole thing than I am. 368 00:20:11,172 --> 00:20:13,379 But I'm not gonna let her stress me out. 369 00:20:17,000 --> 00:20:19,068 [Dorothy speaking] 370 00:20:27,310 --> 00:20:29,448 [William speaking] 371 00:20:30,310 --> 00:20:32,827 [Dorothy speaking] 372 00:20:40,206 --> 00:20:42,482 [William speaking] 373 00:20:46,103 --> 00:20:48,172 [Dorothy speaking] 374 00:21:07,896 --> 00:21:11,034 [Dorothy and William speaking] 375 00:21:35,000 --> 00:21:38,931 [William] We're finally in Houston and I can't wait to get out of the car, 376 00:21:38,931 --> 00:21:42,551 because I'm in a lot of pain for being crammed for 4 hours. 377 00:21:52,793 --> 00:21:55,137 [William speaking] 378 00:21:59,896 --> 00:22:01,551 [Dorothy] Here we go, Willy. 379 00:22:03,172 --> 00:22:05,206 [William] I'm glad we're finally here. 380 00:22:05,206 --> 00:22:07,862 [car door opens] 381 00:22:07,862 --> 00:22:10,000 [William] I guess I'm kind of nervous. 382 00:22:10,000 --> 00:22:12,655 But I'm ready to be done with all this weight. 383 00:22:22,689 --> 00:22:26,206 And I'm hoping today will be the first step towards that. 384 00:22:26,206 --> 00:22:28,068 [door beeps then closes] 385 00:22:32,172 --> 00:22:35,344 -[Dorothy] You look scared to death. -No. [chuckles nervously] 386 00:22:36,275 --> 00:22:39,000 [Dorothy speaking] 387 00:22:39,000 --> 00:22:40,655 [William] Yeah, I know. 388 00:22:42,172 --> 00:22:44,068 [Dorothy speaking] 389 00:22:44,068 --> 00:22:45,827 [William] Yeah. 390 00:22:46,689 --> 00:22:48,241 [William] Mmm-hmm. 391 00:22:50,689 --> 00:22:52,448 -[door opens] -William? 392 00:22:54,000 --> 00:22:56,103 -[William chuckles] -[woman 4] Hi. 393 00:22:56,103 --> 00:22:57,586 -[William] How you doing? -[woman 4] Good. How are you? 394 00:22:57,586 --> 00:22:59,241 [William] I'm doing good. 395 00:23:05,103 --> 00:23:07,206 -[woman 4] Please step up on the scale for me. -[William] Okay. 396 00:23:07,206 --> 00:23:09,206 I really hope I lost some good weight 397 00:23:09,206 --> 00:23:12,620 and I'm down under 600 right now. 398 00:23:12,620 --> 00:23:15,896 Because I worked hard to start turning things around. 399 00:23:15,896 --> 00:23:18,000 And if I haven't lost much after that, 400 00:23:18,000 --> 00:23:20,551 it's gonna be really discouraging for me. 401 00:23:39,275 --> 00:23:42,275 I've been dieting already for the past few weeks. 402 00:23:42,275 --> 00:23:45,137 I'm really hoping that my hard work paid off, 403 00:23:45,137 --> 00:23:47,000 and that I'm under 600. 404 00:23:50,068 --> 00:23:51,862 [Dorothy] You did lose some weight. 405 00:23:51,862 --> 00:23:54,137 [William] I didn't realize I lost that much. 406 00:23:54,137 --> 00:23:56,034 [woman 4] If you'll go down the hallway to the left 407 00:23:56,034 --> 00:23:57,482 room five, I'll let the Doctor know you're ready. 408 00:23:57,482 --> 00:23:59,551 -All right, thank you. -[woman 4] All right, thank you. 409 00:24:00,068 --> 00:24:01,862 [William] All right. 410 00:24:03,344 --> 00:24:04,965 That's pretty good. 411 00:24:04,965 --> 00:24:07,689 I was hoping it might be a little lower than that. 412 00:24:07,689 --> 00:24:10,379 But my goal was to get under 600 by today 413 00:24:10,379 --> 00:24:11,793 and I did that. 414 00:24:11,793 --> 00:24:13,896 So, that's something I can feel good about. 415 00:24:13,896 --> 00:24:16,241 And I'm hoping I can keep the trend going 416 00:24:16,241 --> 00:24:18,034 with Dr. Now's help. 417 00:24:19,379 --> 00:24:21,172 [Dorothy softly] Okay, Willy. 418 00:24:21,379 --> 00:24:23,034 We're in it. 419 00:24:23,758 --> 00:24:25,827 -You getting excited? -Yeah. 420 00:24:28,275 --> 00:24:29,896 [knock at door] 421 00:24:29,896 --> 00:24:31,655 -Come in. -Come in. 422 00:24:32,689 --> 00:24:33,896 Hello. How y'all doing? 423 00:24:33,896 --> 00:24:36,068 -[William] I'm doing great. How about you? -Good. 424 00:24:36,068 --> 00:24:38,379 -So, you must be William. -Yes, sir. 425 00:24:38,379 --> 00:24:39,896 Who's this young lady with you? 426 00:24:39,896 --> 00:24:41,344 [William] That's my mom. [chuckles] 427 00:24:41,344 --> 00:24:43,275 -Hi, Dr. Now. -[Dr. Now] How you doing? 428 00:24:43,275 --> 00:24:45,068 -I'm fine. -[Dr. Now] Good. 429 00:24:45,068 --> 00:24:47,586 Well, nice to meet you both. 430 00:24:47,586 --> 00:24:49,241 So, William, 431 00:24:49,241 --> 00:24:52,551 -you are what, 34 years old? -34, yeah. 432 00:24:56,137 --> 00:24:58,379 Yup. Um, I've lost probably 433 00:24:58,379 --> 00:25:02,103 20 lb or so in the last, probably, month or so. 434 00:25:02,103 --> 00:25:04,137 [Dr. Now speaking] 435 00:25:04,137 --> 00:25:06,241 Um, when I weighed myself 436 00:25:06,241 --> 00:25:09,379 the highest weight that I know of was 620, 437 00:25:09,379 --> 00:25:11,172 and that was a couple of months ago. 438 00:25:11,172 --> 00:25:12,793 Okay. Do you work? 439 00:25:12,793 --> 00:25:15,344 Um, I just lost my job so I'm looking for a new one. 440 00:25:15,344 --> 00:25:19,275 I can't drive because my stomach gets in the way of the steering wheel. 441 00:25:19,275 --> 00:25:21,068 And so, who takes you around 442 00:25:21,068 --> 00:25:23,689 -when you need to go somewhere? -Uh, my mom. 443 00:25:23,689 --> 00:25:27,551 -So, she's your designated driver? -Yes. Yes. [chuckles] 444 00:25:27,551 --> 00:25:31,068 Yes, and mom would like to quit being a designated driver. 445 00:25:31,068 --> 00:25:32,241 [Dr. Now] All right. 446 00:25:34,137 --> 00:25:36,172 Um, I used to eat out a lot, 447 00:25:36,172 --> 00:25:39,000 um, but I've started eating at home more. 448 00:25:39,000 --> 00:25:41,758 Um, just because it does make me feel better 449 00:25:41,758 --> 00:25:44,068 and I know it is a lot healthier as well. 450 00:25:44,068 --> 00:25:46,655 Your mom isn't agreeing with you. 451 00:25:48,482 --> 00:25:50,103 [Dorothy] He's not telling the whole story. 452 00:25:50,103 --> 00:25:53,137 I'm finding out when he buys groceries, he's buying things like 453 00:25:53,137 --> 00:25:56,689 frozen burritos, frozen hot wings, 454 00:25:56,689 --> 00:26:01,103 um, ice-cream, chips, sodas. 455 00:26:01,689 --> 00:26:04,034 So, he leave those out for me. 456 00:26:04,034 --> 00:26:07,000 [chuckles] No, I haven't actually bought any of that stuff 457 00:26:07,000 --> 00:26:10,172 -in probably two weeks or so. -Two weeks? 458 00:26:10,172 --> 00:26:12,275 So, mom, you yourself 459 00:26:12,275 --> 00:26:15,241 -are struggling with weight too, right? -[Dorothy] I am. 460 00:26:15,241 --> 00:26:19,896 So, the whole goal is I'm gonna follow the same diet that you give him, 461 00:26:19,896 --> 00:26:22,068 so I can support him 462 00:26:22,068 --> 00:26:25,172 and I can also re-achieve my goals by helping him. 463 00:26:25,172 --> 00:26:29,482 All right. So, how motivated you are to change? 464 00:26:29,482 --> 00:26:33,482 I'm extremely motivated. I really wanna change, um, and get back 465 00:26:33,482 --> 00:26:37,137 into a healthier weight so I can do more and have more fun. 466 00:26:37,137 --> 00:26:40,689 [Dr. Now] Okay. Do either of you have any questions? 467 00:26:40,689 --> 00:26:42,862 [Dorothy] Um... 468 00:26:42,862 --> 00:26:45,172 One of my big concerns is his stomach is, like, 469 00:26:45,172 --> 00:26:47,655 fire red and got sores on it. 470 00:26:48,241 --> 00:26:50,172 And that scares me... 471 00:26:50,172 --> 00:26:53,000 because I don't know what kind of infection he has. 472 00:26:53,000 --> 00:26:54,689 [Dr. Now speaking] 473 00:26:54,689 --> 00:26:56,344 [William] Okay. 474 00:27:02,896 --> 00:27:05,586 Well, yeah, I see all these things. 475 00:27:05,586 --> 00:27:08,172 That... that is a skin infection 476 00:27:08,172 --> 00:27:10,000 from the sore you got. 477 00:27:10,000 --> 00:27:11,793 [Dr. Now speaking] 478 00:27:11,793 --> 00:27:13,241 [William] Okay. 479 00:27:13,241 --> 00:27:14,931 -Can you lift it up? -Yeah. 480 00:27:16,172 --> 00:27:18,241 [Dr. Now speaking] 481 00:27:20,000 --> 00:27:22,103 And that is, um, 482 00:27:22,103 --> 00:27:24,000 really problematic. 483 00:27:24,000 --> 00:27:26,896 So, um, do you know you need to lose, 484 00:27:26,896 --> 00:27:29,172 -uh, a lot of weight real quick. -Yeah. 485 00:27:29,172 --> 00:27:31,965 And the weight you lose then this is gonna go down. 486 00:27:31,965 --> 00:27:33,275 -Okay. -All right. 487 00:27:33,275 --> 00:27:35,620 [Dr. Now speaking] 488 00:27:42,551 --> 00:27:45,000 We need to get you some anti-fungal treatment 489 00:27:45,000 --> 00:27:48,000 -and antibiotic for this infection you've got. -Okay. 490 00:27:48,000 --> 00:27:51,689 -And, um, I'm gonna start you on some diet. -Okay. 491 00:27:51,689 --> 00:27:55,275 I'm gonna get you to stick with a 1200-calorie day. 492 00:27:55,275 --> 00:27:57,379 Have protein, low carb diet. 493 00:27:57,379 --> 00:28:02,000 And also, I'm gonna give you some instruction for doing some exercise plan. 494 00:28:02,000 --> 00:28:04,689 Why don't you an hour of exercises in the morning. 495 00:28:04,689 --> 00:28:06,862 -And an hour in the evening. -Okay. 496 00:28:06,862 --> 00:28:10,172 And that is gonna be all up to you to make those changes. 497 00:28:10,172 --> 00:28:12,965 [Dr. Now speaking] 498 00:28:16,172 --> 00:28:18,344 -Okay. -[Dr. Now] And after you lose, 499 00:28:18,344 --> 00:28:21,586 uh, maybe 200 to 250 500 00:28:21,586 --> 00:28:25,137 we can take all this extra skin that's hanging around... 501 00:28:25,137 --> 00:28:27,965 -Okay. -...so you gotta have a normal posture 502 00:28:27,965 --> 00:28:31,862 and be able to drive and do everything you need 503 00:28:31,862 --> 00:28:33,689 to function on your own. 504 00:28:33,689 --> 00:28:36,655 So I'm gonna get you the stuff and bring it to you, 505 00:28:36,655 --> 00:28:39,068 -and, and we go from there. -Okay. 506 00:28:39,068 --> 00:28:40,172 -[Dr. Nowzaradan] Okay? -Yes, sir. 507 00:28:40,172 --> 00:28:41,689 -[Dr. Nowzaradan] I'll be right back. -Okay, cool. 508 00:28:41,689 --> 00:28:42,758 [Dorothy] Thank you, Dr. Now. 509 00:28:47,000 --> 00:28:50,172 -Dr. Now ain't gonna play with you. -[laughs] 510 00:29:20,275 --> 00:29:21,517 Come in. 511 00:29:23,172 --> 00:29:27,896 All right, so this is what I want you to read every night. 512 00:29:27,896 --> 00:29:30,896 -[William] Okay. -[Dr. Nowzaradan] I'll give one copy to your mom. 513 00:29:30,896 --> 00:29:33,655 And I'm gonna give you this book. 514 00:29:34,241 --> 00:29:36,275 -And in chapter 12... -Okay. 515 00:29:36,275 --> 00:29:40,793 -...there's exercises that you can do beside your walk. -Okay. 516 00:29:40,793 --> 00:29:42,689 -Okay? All right. -[William] Yes, sir. 517 00:29:42,689 --> 00:29:46,965 And if you follow all those instruction I'm giving you today, 518 00:29:50,689 --> 00:29:51,827 Okay. 519 00:29:56,172 --> 00:29:57,275 -Okay? -All right. 520 00:29:57,275 --> 00:29:59,172 -[Dr. Nowzaradan] Any questions? -Um, no. 521 00:29:59,172 --> 00:30:02,034 All right, so we'll see you in about eight weeks 522 00:30:02,034 --> 00:30:04,172 and see what kind of progress you're makin'. 523 00:30:04,172 --> 00:30:06,793 And in the meantime, if you need anything give me a call. 524 00:30:06,793 --> 00:30:08,000 -I will, thank you. -Thank you, Dr. Now. 525 00:30:08,000 --> 00:30:09,758 -I'll see y'all later. -[William] All right, thank you. 526 00:30:14,862 --> 00:30:16,344 I think it went really well. 527 00:30:16,344 --> 00:30:19,172 I think he gave me a lot of information 528 00:30:19,172 --> 00:30:21,379 on how to successfully lose weight. 529 00:30:21,379 --> 00:30:23,275 I think it's very obtainable, I mean, 530 00:30:23,275 --> 00:30:27,689 I'm gonna probably have some slip-ups, I'm human, we all make mistakes, 531 00:30:27,689 --> 00:30:32,551 but I'm gonna try my best to stay and do exactly as he says. 532 00:30:36,689 --> 00:30:39,344 [Dorothy] I want this for him. 533 00:30:40,448 --> 00:30:44,137 Sad to say probably more than he wants it for himself, 534 00:30:44,137 --> 00:30:47,793 because I want my son to live, I don't wanna have to bury my son. 535 00:30:47,793 --> 00:30:50,689 [sniffles] And that's what I'm afraid of. 536 00:30:50,689 --> 00:30:53,517 I live in that fear every single day. [sniffles] 537 00:30:57,896 --> 00:30:59,758 [William] I feel really ready for this. 538 00:30:59,758 --> 00:31:04,551 I'm gonna start doing Dr. Now's whole thing, pretty much right away. 539 00:31:06,965 --> 00:31:09,379 I'm not looking forward to the ride home, 540 00:31:09,379 --> 00:31:12,344 but I'm not gonna use food to help me with my pain. 541 00:31:12,344 --> 00:31:14,551 That's how committed I am already. 542 00:31:16,379 --> 00:31:20,931 I wanna do this right, and I'm going to be a success story for him. 543 00:31:59,172 --> 00:32:01,551 [William] It's been a week since I've seen Dr. Now, 544 00:32:01,551 --> 00:32:04,482 and I've been doing the diet and all the exercises 545 00:32:04,482 --> 00:32:07,172 since the minute I got back. 546 00:32:07,172 --> 00:32:09,896 And I'm treating this like a whole new start to my life. 547 00:32:09,896 --> 00:32:12,896 So, I decided I wanted a whole new look. 548 00:32:12,896 --> 00:32:15,724 One that will make me feel just a little lighter. 549 00:32:28,034 --> 00:32:31,379 So far it hasn't been easy, but I'm trying to work my hardest 550 00:32:31,379 --> 00:32:34,068 and doing everything I need. 551 00:32:34,068 --> 00:32:37,034 Dr. Now gave me a bunch of, like, arm exercises 552 00:32:37,034 --> 00:32:40,241 and leg exercises and things like that 553 00:32:40,241 --> 00:32:43,793 because can't really do push-ups or sit-ups because of my weight, 554 00:32:43,793 --> 00:32:45,275 so he gave me other alternatives 555 00:32:45,275 --> 00:32:47,689 to kind of help with the weight loss as well. 556 00:32:47,689 --> 00:32:50,034 The exercising is hard. 557 00:32:50,034 --> 00:32:52,379 Especially how much I'm supposed to do 558 00:32:52,379 --> 00:32:54,344 according to Dr. Now's book. 559 00:32:55,965 --> 00:32:59,000 But it's gotten a little easier since I've started, you know? 560 00:32:59,000 --> 00:33:01,655 So, that's good and shows some good progress. 561 00:33:03,034 --> 00:33:06,517 [breathing heavily] 562 00:33:20,000 --> 00:33:22,448 The hardest part is all the walking. 563 00:33:31,482 --> 00:33:33,758 It feels good to get outside my apartment, 564 00:33:33,758 --> 00:33:36,241 but I get winded pretty quickly. 565 00:33:36,241 --> 00:33:39,344 [panting] 566 00:33:49,793 --> 00:33:53,344 [birds chirping] 567 00:33:55,068 --> 00:33:56,758 Working out makes me more positive, 568 00:33:56,758 --> 00:33:58,896 it makes me feel better about myself. 569 00:33:58,896 --> 00:34:01,862 [continues panting] 570 00:34:06,586 --> 00:34:08,172 I feel really good right now. 571 00:34:08,172 --> 00:34:11,103 There's kind of an improvement from what I've been walking, 572 00:34:11,103 --> 00:34:12,896 so it's gone a little bit further 573 00:34:12,896 --> 00:34:14,862 each time I go out and walk. 574 00:34:17,655 --> 00:34:20,551 And then when I'm done is when I get the most hungry, 575 00:34:20,551 --> 00:34:23,137 and I end up wanting to eat more than I should. 576 00:34:23,137 --> 00:34:24,585 Okay. 577 00:34:24,585 --> 00:34:27,585 [phone dialing] 578 00:34:27,585 --> 00:34:29,551 -[Dorothy over phone] Hello? -Hey, Mom. 579 00:34:29,551 --> 00:34:33,275 -[Dorothy] Hey, what's up? -Uh, I'm hungry, can you pick up some salad? 580 00:34:33,275 --> 00:34:35,585 [tiredly] I guess. 581 00:34:35,585 --> 00:34:38,585 Just like a chicken salad with ranch. 582 00:34:38,585 --> 00:34:41,034 -[Dorothy] All right. -All right, thank you, Mom. 583 00:34:41,034 --> 00:34:43,068 [Dorothy] Yeah, no problem, you're welcome. See you in a little bit. 584 00:34:43,068 --> 00:34:45,000 -I love you, bye. -[Dorothy] Love you, bye. 585 00:34:45,000 --> 00:34:47,482 [William] So I know I'm trying my best, 586 00:34:47,482 --> 00:34:49,896 and I'm trying to do the diet too. 587 00:34:49,896 --> 00:34:52,379 I go over Dr. Now's book every day 588 00:34:52,379 --> 00:34:56,103 and my mom's been helping me find healthier options that I can order. 589 00:35:01,000 --> 00:35:02,241 [knocking on door] 590 00:35:04,344 --> 00:35:05,965 -[William] Oh, hey, Mom. -Hey, Will. 591 00:35:05,965 --> 00:35:07,482 I brought you some salads for lunch. 592 00:35:07,482 --> 00:35:09,482 I just wanted to make sure you're eating healthy. 593 00:35:09,482 --> 00:35:11,482 -Are you following your diet? -All right. Yeah, I am. 594 00:35:11,482 --> 00:35:13,000 I just went for a walk earlier, 595 00:35:13,000 --> 00:35:14,896 probably gonna go on a walk later on today as well. 596 00:35:14,896 --> 00:35:17,344 Well, keep on that diet 'cause you got a long road to go. 597 00:35:17,344 --> 00:35:19,103 Oh, I know. All right, thank you, Mom. 598 00:35:19,103 --> 00:35:20,448 You're welcome. Love you. 599 00:35:20,448 --> 00:35:22,448 -I love you, bye. -Catch you later, bye. 600 00:35:26,137 --> 00:35:28,172 [William] The only issue with those meals 601 00:35:28,172 --> 00:35:30,965 is the portion sizes are usually bigger 602 00:35:30,965 --> 00:35:32,586 than what Dr. Now's book says. 603 00:35:32,586 --> 00:35:37,068 But at the same time, it's hard to feel full on his portion sizes. 604 00:35:42,586 --> 00:35:45,689 And so I'm just working on now more so focused on 605 00:35:45,689 --> 00:35:51,068 the overeating as well as, um, the sweet tooth cravings. 606 00:35:52,275 --> 00:35:54,241 But I've been working hard and it feels good, 607 00:35:54,241 --> 00:35:56,793 like a sense of accomplishment. 608 00:35:56,793 --> 00:36:00,586 And I'm hoping I show Dr. Now what he needs to see, 609 00:36:00,586 --> 00:36:02,965 so I can move ahead without delaying 610 00:36:04,379 --> 00:36:07,241 because I know I can excel with his program, 611 00:36:07,241 --> 00:36:09,034 and I feel like I already am. 612 00:36:20,344 --> 00:36:22,689 Hi, welcome in, what would you like? 613 00:36:22,689 --> 00:36:24,379 A two-chicken combo. 614 00:36:24,379 --> 00:36:26,896 Uh, with fries, okay, 615 00:36:26,896 --> 00:36:30,000 and a second one of those, okay. 616 00:36:30,000 --> 00:36:31,655 I got a new job at a restaurant 617 00:36:31,655 --> 00:36:33,482 and I think Dr. Now would be happy with it, 618 00:36:33,482 --> 00:36:36,379 because it keeps me active and it gets me out in the world. 619 00:36:36,379 --> 00:36:38,517 Uh, your total will be $18.84. 620 00:36:39,344 --> 00:36:41,034 I'm excited coming to work 621 00:36:41,034 --> 00:36:42,137 'cause it gets me out of the house 622 00:36:42,137 --> 00:36:45,344 and it kinda gives me that interaction with others. 623 00:36:45,344 --> 00:36:47,655 -[cook speaking] -Okay, I got you. 624 00:36:48,689 --> 00:36:51,241 I do have challenges moving around at work 625 00:36:51,241 --> 00:36:52,965 just because it's small areas, 626 00:36:52,965 --> 00:36:55,379 uh, so it's a little bit harder to maneuver. 627 00:36:55,379 --> 00:36:57,896 I mean the most demanding task with work 628 00:36:57,896 --> 00:36:59,793 is just being on my feet is the most... 629 00:36:59,793 --> 00:37:01,344 is the hardest thing I have to do. 630 00:37:03,655 --> 00:37:07,965 [male employee speaking] 631 00:37:07,965 --> 00:37:09,448 -Okay. -[male employee speaking] 632 00:37:09,448 --> 00:37:12,448 [William] A lot of times I do get really exhausted after work, 633 00:37:12,448 --> 00:37:15,172 so I don't wanna do anything or don't have the energy to do anything. 634 00:37:15,172 --> 00:37:17,172 -[male employee speaking] -You're welcome. 635 00:37:17,172 --> 00:37:19,068 It does make it a little challenging, 636 00:37:19,068 --> 00:37:22,103 but it's not too bad, it's not unmanageable. 637 00:37:25,551 --> 00:37:27,862 Work is a big motivation to lose weight. 638 00:37:27,862 --> 00:37:29,758 I'd be able to have my life back and be able to 639 00:37:29,758 --> 00:37:33,655 do things outside of work too that I wanna do, 640 00:37:33,655 --> 00:37:37,482 so lot of things that are kinda motivating me to lose the weight. 641 00:37:37,482 --> 00:37:40,034 -How you doing? -[driver] Well, thank you. 642 00:37:40,034 --> 00:37:42,551 Can you believe how nice it is out? 643 00:37:42,551 --> 00:37:45,241 [William chuckles] Compared to how cold it was this morning? 644 00:37:58,034 --> 00:38:01,103 I'm back in Houston with my mom to see Dr. Now, 645 00:38:01,103 --> 00:38:03,758 and show him the progress that I've been making. 646 00:38:03,758 --> 00:38:05,862 I've worked hard and I know it's paying off 647 00:38:05,862 --> 00:38:08,586 because I feel smaller and have a lot more energy, 648 00:38:08,586 --> 00:38:10,586 so I know I'm making progress. 649 00:38:10,586 --> 00:38:13,310 But I have no idea if I'm at his goal or not. 650 00:38:19,344 --> 00:38:20,448 William? 651 00:38:23,379 --> 00:38:24,896 -[William] How you doing? -Hi, how are you? 652 00:38:24,896 --> 00:38:26,275 -[William] Doing good. -Good. 653 00:38:26,275 --> 00:38:28,379 [William] Losing 70 lb is a lot, 654 00:38:28,379 --> 00:38:30,379 but hopefully I lost most of that 655 00:38:30,379 --> 00:38:32,482 and I'll be down in the low 500s. 656 00:38:32,482 --> 00:38:35,689 I'm hoping I am and I get approved for surgery today. 657 00:38:35,689 --> 00:38:37,275 That would be the best. 658 00:38:37,275 --> 00:38:39,103 [assistant] Okay, can you step on the scale for me? 659 00:38:39,103 --> 00:38:40,689 [William] That's the step I need the most, 660 00:38:40,689 --> 00:38:44,482 and I've worked really hard to try and make that happen by today, 661 00:38:44,482 --> 00:38:46,172 so I feel like I deserve it. 662 00:38:47,551 --> 00:38:49,344 And hopefully it's enough. 663 00:39:06,137 --> 00:39:09,103 [William] I'm here at Dr. Now's for my first big follow up, 664 00:39:10,379 --> 00:39:13,172 and I'm about to find out how much weight I lost. 665 00:39:13,172 --> 00:39:15,965 At my last appointment, I was 592 lb, 666 00:39:15,965 --> 00:39:18,689 and I was supposed to lose 70 lb today, 667 00:39:18,689 --> 00:39:21,172 which means I should be down to 522 lb. 668 00:39:27,275 --> 00:39:29,000 All right, we're gonna go to room five and then 669 00:39:29,000 --> 00:39:30,379 -I'll let the doctor know you're there. -Okay. 670 00:39:30,379 --> 00:39:32,000 [assistant] Okay. 671 00:39:32,000 --> 00:39:35,689 [William] I guess technically, I lost some weight before I even met Dr. Now. 672 00:39:35,689 --> 00:39:39,448 So if you include that, my weight loss is a little more impressive. 673 00:39:48,275 --> 00:39:50,448 Any weight loss is good weight loss. 674 00:39:51,655 --> 00:39:54,241 But I don't know if Dr. Now will see it that way. 675 00:39:56,448 --> 00:39:59,379 -Well, you lost a little bit. -Yeah, I mean, this... 676 00:39:59,379 --> 00:40:01,379 A weight loss is weight loss regardless. 677 00:40:01,379 --> 00:40:03,310 -[Dorothy] But you need to focus on more. -[knocking on door] 678 00:40:05,586 --> 00:40:08,000 -Hello, how y'all doing? -Good. 679 00:40:08,000 --> 00:40:10,482 Good. All right, William, 680 00:40:10,482 --> 00:40:13,482 it's been three months since I saw you, 681 00:40:13,482 --> 00:40:16,448 -I thought you'll never come back. -[laughing] 682 00:40:16,448 --> 00:40:18,689 -[Dr. Nowzaradan] And... -I'm busy with work, I got a new job, 683 00:40:18,689 --> 00:40:21,068 so I've been working a whole lot. 684 00:40:21,068 --> 00:40:23,793 You got a job? So what are you doing now? 685 00:40:23,793 --> 00:40:25,482 [William] I work at a fast food place now. 686 00:40:25,482 --> 00:40:27,379 [Dr. Nowzaradan] So you now work with fast food 687 00:40:27,379 --> 00:40:31,482 and you lost the whole 12 lb in three months, 688 00:40:31,482 --> 00:40:33,931 which will be 4 lb a month. 689 00:40:38,482 --> 00:40:39,758 [laughing] 690 00:40:41,000 --> 00:40:44,000 No, I mean, um, 691 00:40:44,000 --> 00:40:46,379 I don't know, like, I know it's the soda, 692 00:40:46,379 --> 00:40:49,172 'cause I haven't fully given that up, um, 693 00:40:49,172 --> 00:40:50,793 I need to just give that up, 694 00:40:50,793 --> 00:40:52,896 so I mean, I know that part of it. 695 00:40:52,896 --> 00:40:57,172 But I'm also looking at other ideas for lunches, 696 00:40:57,172 --> 00:41:01,344 so that way I can kind of help with the weight loss as well. 697 00:41:17,896 --> 00:41:21,379 I'm gonna just keep going and keep trying to improve 698 00:41:21,379 --> 00:41:23,758 and keep losing the weight. 699 00:41:23,758 --> 00:41:26,896 Um, I mean, I've just try to 700 00:41:26,896 --> 00:41:30,310 follow the diet a little bit stricter, a little bit better, um... 701 00:41:36,068 --> 00:41:38,896 You think I'm gonna buy that you're doing okay 702 00:41:38,896 --> 00:41:40,896 and pat you in the back and say, 703 00:41:40,896 --> 00:41:42,862 "Do a little better, cut the-- 704 00:41:42,862 --> 00:41:45,344 a little bit more soda, you're gonna be okay"? 705 00:41:46,758 --> 00:41:50,103 Mom, you were supposed to help him to do this. 706 00:41:50,103 --> 00:41:52,655 So you tell me what's going on with him? 707 00:41:52,655 --> 00:41:55,103 I don't think he puts enough energy into it, 708 00:41:55,103 --> 00:41:57,758 enough thought into what he's puttin' in his mouth. 709 00:41:57,758 --> 00:42:01,965 And the excuses are easier than the action. 710 00:42:10,586 --> 00:42:12,965 A solution's gonna have to be he's gonna have to be 711 00:42:12,965 --> 00:42:16,551 more focused on what he eats, and instead of eating 712 00:42:16,551 --> 00:42:19,896 a hamburger or chicken nuggets at work, eat a salad from work. 713 00:42:19,896 --> 00:42:23,793 So, basically follow the diet I gave him three months ago. 714 00:42:23,793 --> 00:42:28,137 That didn't translate to any changes that is meaningful, 715 00:42:28,137 --> 00:42:32,068 so why assume that this time he will go and do it? 716 00:42:32,068 --> 00:42:33,655 I have no idea, Dr. Now. 717 00:42:33,655 --> 00:42:37,344 [stutters] I ask him every single day what he eats. 718 00:42:37,344 --> 00:42:39,586 Y'all are still acting like I didn't lose any weight. 719 00:42:39,586 --> 00:42:42,896 Okay, if you lost 12 lb in three months 720 00:42:42,896 --> 00:42:45,620 and you think that's a victory lap? 721 00:42:46,379 --> 00:42:48,655 Twelve pound is nothing. 722 00:42:48,655 --> 00:42:51,000 You should have lost that in one week. 723 00:42:54,862 --> 00:42:57,551 And if that is how you're gonna approach this, 724 00:42:57,551 --> 00:43:00,689 then we're done with you. There's nothing I can do for you. 725 00:43:00,689 --> 00:43:04,862 Yes I didn't follow the diet to a T, 726 00:43:04,862 --> 00:43:09,482 but I did change little things to where 727 00:43:09,482 --> 00:43:13,068 I wasn't just constantly gorging myself with food. 728 00:43:13,068 --> 00:43:15,344 [Dr. Nowzaradan speaking] 729 00:43:20,000 --> 00:43:22,000 I don't know, I'm not the doctor. 730 00:43:22,000 --> 00:43:24,482 I'm not somebody inside my body, I don't know. 731 00:43:24,482 --> 00:43:26,896 I can't make sense... 732 00:43:26,896 --> 00:43:28,551 Okay, okay, hold up, hold up. 733 00:43:35,862 --> 00:43:39,068 Now that I see the scale, and I see how serious it is 734 00:43:39,068 --> 00:43:41,586 to follow that diet, 735 00:43:41,586 --> 00:43:44,896 like, it makes me want to follow the diet and stick to it 736 00:43:44,896 --> 00:43:47,896 and be healthier and be more active. 737 00:43:47,896 --> 00:43:52,000 Well, I don't believe you, I don't think she believes you either. 738 00:43:52,000 --> 00:43:54,034 -[clicks tongue] I don't. -[William] And that's just gonna add 739 00:43:54,034 --> 00:43:56,034 -more motivation to it. -[Dr. Nowzaradan] I don't believe him either. 740 00:43:56,034 --> 00:43:57,655 All I hear is excuses. 741 00:44:00,068 --> 00:44:03,068 [crying] You've been carrying this weight for almost 10 years. 742 00:44:03,068 --> 00:44:05,862 Your body is carrying the weight of three people. 743 00:44:05,862 --> 00:44:08,758 How long do you think your heart can carry this? 744 00:44:09,482 --> 00:44:12,586 -[William] I know. -[sobbing] 745 00:44:12,586 --> 00:44:16,000 -You want your mother to bury you, is that it? -No! 746 00:44:16,000 --> 00:44:18,275 Well, that's what it's coming down to. 747 00:44:18,275 --> 00:44:21,379 -Life and death. -I, I understand that. 748 00:44:21,379 --> 00:44:22,862 [emphatically] No, you don't! 749 00:44:22,862 --> 00:44:25,448 -Yes, I do. -You don't understand the hurt you put other people through 750 00:44:25,448 --> 00:44:27,965 because you won't stop! 751 00:44:27,965 --> 00:44:29,965 You won't listen to what people say, 752 00:44:29,965 --> 00:44:31,896 you won't follow their lead! 753 00:44:31,896 --> 00:44:34,758 People are helping you, right and left. 754 00:44:34,758 --> 00:44:38,551 Everybody is sacrificing, trying to get you to a place 755 00:44:39,862 --> 00:44:41,448 that you don't wanna go. 756 00:44:41,448 --> 00:44:43,586 I've only been eating once a day. 757 00:44:43,586 --> 00:44:46,034 -I've changed that part of it. -William, it's, it's-- 758 00:44:46,034 --> 00:44:47,586 [William] I have changed my eating habits, 759 00:44:47,586 --> 00:44:50,344 but I haven't changed what I put in my body, fully. 760 00:44:50,344 --> 00:44:52,068 -Watching my weight... -William, 761 00:44:52,068 --> 00:44:54,793 stop defending your eating habits, 762 00:44:54,793 --> 00:44:56,689 because nobody believe that. 763 00:44:56,689 --> 00:44:58,965 -Okay? Nobody, nobody. -And that's fun. 764 00:44:58,965 --> 00:45:04,103 Nobody, and you know, you can, you can say whatever you want, 765 00:45:04,103 --> 00:45:06,586 the scale doesn't lie. 766 00:45:06,586 --> 00:45:09,551 -And I didn't say it did, but like I just said... -[Dr. Nowzaradan] Will, 767 00:45:09,551 --> 00:45:11,586 you know, you keep repeating, 768 00:45:11,586 --> 00:45:14,482 "I made the changes, I'm eat only one time of day." 769 00:45:14,482 --> 00:45:16,965 Argue that with the scale, don't kid yourself. 770 00:45:16,965 --> 00:45:20,931 Don't bother come back next time if you haven't lost any weight. 771 00:45:32,379 --> 00:45:35,448 -M'kay. -So, I hope you make the changes 772 00:45:35,448 --> 00:45:37,482 and y'all take care. 773 00:45:37,482 --> 00:45:39,413 -Thank you, you take care. -[Dr. Nowzaradan] All right. 774 00:45:44,655 --> 00:45:48,034 Keep doing what you're doing, probably I'll bury you in another year or two. 775 00:45:48,862 --> 00:45:50,379 Keep doing what you're doing. 776 00:45:50,379 --> 00:45:55,344 So far, I don't believe that William has any intent to change his life at all. 777 00:46:21,793 --> 00:46:25,172 [William] I don't necessarily agree with everything Dr. Now said, 778 00:46:25,172 --> 00:46:27,586 but what I do agree on is I have to do better, 779 00:46:27,586 --> 00:46:29,724 so that's what I'm gonna go and do. 780 00:46:31,275 --> 00:46:35,689 No matter what, I'm gonna prove to everyone that I'm making changes, 781 00:46:35,689 --> 00:46:38,034 and I'm gonna show them that I can do this. 782 00:46:39,068 --> 00:46:41,344 I will do this. They'll see. 783 00:47:03,275 --> 00:47:04,758 [phone notification rings] 784 00:47:06,379 --> 00:47:09,586 -Oh, you got the extra virgin olive oil. -[William] Mmm-hmm. 785 00:47:09,586 --> 00:47:11,551 [oil can hissing] 786 00:47:11,551 --> 00:47:13,758 [William] Since my last appointment, my mom's been trying to 787 00:47:13,758 --> 00:47:15,344 help me do better with my diet. 788 00:47:16,689 --> 00:47:18,586 So, she's been coming over more, 789 00:47:18,586 --> 00:47:22,034 helping me make healthier meals. 790 00:47:22,034 --> 00:47:24,965 I think it's working because I'm feeling pretty good. 791 00:47:26,034 --> 00:47:29,000 And I know Dr. Now wants me to lose a certain amount, 792 00:47:29,000 --> 00:47:33,068 but I also know any weight loss is a good weight loss. 793 00:47:33,068 --> 00:47:35,965 So, I'm gonna be proud of myself as long as I keep losing. 794 00:47:45,793 --> 00:47:47,275 [Dorothy] Just put one tablespoon 795 00:47:47,275 --> 00:47:49,379 -of the Picante sauce. -[William] I know. 796 00:47:49,379 --> 00:47:52,896 So, I didn't put much cheese on because 797 00:47:52,896 --> 00:47:55,137 -I was trying to keep the calorie count down. -[William] I know. 798 00:47:55,137 --> 00:47:59,034 [Dorothy] So always keep in mind, again, how many calories you put in. 799 00:47:59,034 --> 00:48:02,068 And you need to look at what he's asking you to do. 800 00:48:02,068 --> 00:48:07,000 As long as I'm losing weight, I don't care if it's what anybody wants me to lose, 801 00:48:07,000 --> 00:48:09,896 or if it's 5, 10 lb. 802 00:48:09,896 --> 00:48:12,896 I'm still looking at it as any weight loss is weight... 803 00:48:12,896 --> 00:48:15,241 is good weight loss, I mean... 804 00:48:15,241 --> 00:48:16,793 [Dorothy] But I'm gonna tell you, 805 00:48:16,793 --> 00:48:20,137 Dr. Now's given you a goal to meet. 806 00:48:20,137 --> 00:48:22,586 And that needs to be what you concentrate on is, 807 00:48:22,586 --> 00:48:25,344 "This is my goal, and I know I can do, 808 00:48:25,344 --> 00:48:27,862 and prove everybody wrong that I can do it." 809 00:48:27,862 --> 00:48:31,551 Not making excuse of, "Well, I'm on a constant weight loss, 810 00:48:31,551 --> 00:48:33,862 so that's good enough." That's not good enough. 811 00:48:33,862 --> 00:48:35,482 Sure it is. 812 00:48:35,482 --> 00:48:38,034 I wanna see you out there living and not just surviving. 813 00:48:38,034 --> 00:48:40,000 [William] Yeah, I know. 814 00:48:40,000 --> 00:48:41,896 [Dorothy] It's just, I need you to work a little harder. 815 00:48:41,896 --> 00:48:43,758 -I love you. -I know. Love you. 816 00:48:43,758 --> 00:48:46,034 Yeah, let's clean up. 817 00:48:46,034 --> 00:48:49,241 I know that William does not listen to what I say, 818 00:48:49,241 --> 00:48:52,241 and he'll just sit there and nod his head and agree and... 819 00:48:54,137 --> 00:48:56,689 He pretty much blows me off when I'm talking, 820 00:48:56,689 --> 00:48:59,103 but I'm hoping his subconscious mind 821 00:48:59,103 --> 00:49:01,241 takes some of what I'm saying in. 822 00:49:04,482 --> 00:49:07,275 [William] Today with my mom, we talked about the weight loss journey, 823 00:49:07,275 --> 00:49:10,896 um, kind of the expectations and things like that. 824 00:49:10,896 --> 00:49:13,379 -So, that was a nice breakfast. -Yeah. 825 00:49:13,379 --> 00:49:14,862 What's your plans for the day? 826 00:49:14,862 --> 00:49:17,103 Uh, I might go shoot some basketball real quick 827 00:49:17,103 --> 00:49:18,379 for a little bit before work. 828 00:49:18,379 --> 00:49:21,482 Okay, so you're gonna get some exercise in. 829 00:49:21,482 --> 00:49:23,068 Yeah. [exhales heavily] 830 00:49:23,068 --> 00:49:26,068 It's been rough, um, 'cause there's some days where I, you know, 831 00:49:26,068 --> 00:49:28,482 I don't wanna follow it, I wanna eat whatever I want. 832 00:49:28,482 --> 00:49:31,689 All right, well then I'll probably head out here soon in a minute 833 00:49:31,689 --> 00:49:33,793 -and let you have your day. -All right. 834 00:49:33,793 --> 00:49:35,379 Well then, I'll see you in a little bit. 835 00:49:35,379 --> 00:49:37,172 -[William] All right, love you, Mom. -So, get yourself up 836 00:49:37,172 --> 00:49:38,586 -and movin'. -[William] I will. 837 00:49:38,586 --> 00:49:41,241 -[Dorothy] Don't be sittin' on that couch too long. -Yeah, I know. 838 00:49:41,241 --> 00:49:42,965 And I will talk to you later. 839 00:49:42,965 --> 00:49:44,517 -[William] All right, love you. -[Dorothy] Love you. 840 00:49:46,482 --> 00:49:49,689 [William] I think I'm doing good, I think it's getting easier. 841 00:49:49,689 --> 00:49:53,344 Um, exercise isn't a problem or anything like that. 842 00:49:54,862 --> 00:49:57,034 [exhales heavily, grunts] 843 00:50:04,586 --> 00:50:07,758 [panting] 844 00:50:14,551 --> 00:50:16,241 The exercises make me feel better 845 00:50:16,241 --> 00:50:18,482 because it's more movement than I was doing, 846 00:50:18,482 --> 00:50:21,241 so kinda gives me motivation to keep going. 847 00:50:24,689 --> 00:50:27,689 Last time at Dr. Now's office was a disappointment, 848 00:50:27,689 --> 00:50:30,344 and I'm making sure that's not gonna happen again. 849 00:50:31,448 --> 00:50:33,586 This time, I'm balancing it all, 850 00:50:33,586 --> 00:50:35,655 and I'm trying to find a happy medium. 851 00:50:37,172 --> 00:50:39,482 And I'm gonna meet the goal that Dr. Now wants, 852 00:50:39,482 --> 00:50:42,241 so I can move ahead with weight loss surgery. 853 00:50:43,000 --> 00:50:46,206 [panting] 854 00:51:00,689 --> 00:51:03,206 [Dorothy] So William, how have you been doing on your diet? 855 00:51:03,206 --> 00:51:05,896 [William] I've been sticking to it closer. 856 00:51:05,896 --> 00:51:08,241 [Dorothy] Closer or completely? 857 00:51:08,241 --> 00:51:12,448 [William] Hmm, not completely, but a lot closer than I have been. 858 00:51:12,448 --> 00:51:15,103 I still have cravings of different things. 859 00:51:15,103 --> 00:51:17,241 Pizza, bread, things like that. 860 00:51:17,241 --> 00:51:21,137 I think last week I did have, I did end up getting a pizza, 861 00:51:21,137 --> 00:51:24,517 um, but then I ate it over, like, two or three... two days, 862 00:51:24,517 --> 00:51:27,241 and then I threw the rest of it away 'cause I left it out. 863 00:51:27,241 --> 00:51:32,034 Um, but before I would've, I would eat a whole large pizza at one time, 864 00:51:32,034 --> 00:51:35,965 and this time I've kind of portioned it out a little bit better. 865 00:51:35,965 --> 00:51:39,172 [Dorothy] But you gotta be sure to stay away from the sodas and the carbs. 866 00:51:39,172 --> 00:51:40,551 [William] I know. 867 00:51:52,896 --> 00:51:55,827 Me and my mom are headed back to see Dr. Now again, 868 00:51:55,827 --> 00:51:59,379 and I'm hoping that today I get the result that I wanted last time, 869 00:51:59,379 --> 00:52:02,965 and show Dr. Now enough progress to make him happy 870 00:52:02,965 --> 00:52:05,103 because I've been trying harder. 871 00:52:06,000 --> 00:52:08,655 But I have no idea what my loss is gonna be. 872 00:52:11,724 --> 00:52:12,896 William? 873 00:52:14,241 --> 00:52:15,827 -[William] How you doing? -Hi, how are you? 874 00:52:15,827 --> 00:52:17,689 -[William] Doing good. -Hi. 875 00:52:17,689 --> 00:52:20,137 [William] At my last appointment I was 580 lb, 876 00:52:20,137 --> 00:52:22,793 and I was supposed to lose seventy pounds 877 00:52:22,793 --> 00:52:24,551 to be down to 510 lb today. 878 00:52:30,172 --> 00:52:33,137 And I'm really hoping I did that or at least got close. 879 00:52:40,137 --> 00:52:45,448 What the heck? That doesn't make sense. 880 00:52:45,448 --> 00:52:48,068 -And you're ready to go to room five. -[William] Okay. 881 00:52:48,068 --> 00:52:51,034 I'm not sure how that happened. 882 00:52:51,034 --> 00:52:53,724 It's almost like the scale's not working, 883 00:52:53,724 --> 00:52:57,310 unless maybe it's the soda pop I've been drinking. 884 00:52:57,310 --> 00:53:00,241 I cut back with pretty much everything except for that, 885 00:53:00,241 --> 00:53:02,551 because that's the hardest thing to give up. 886 00:53:02,551 --> 00:53:05,000 I don't drink it at home anymore, 887 00:53:05,000 --> 00:53:07,137 but, I mean, at work it's right there. 888 00:53:07,137 --> 00:53:10,275 I didn't think it'd make that much of a difference by itself, 889 00:53:10,275 --> 00:53:13,206 but maybe it's not the right job for me to have after all 890 00:53:13,206 --> 00:53:16,103 because there's a lot of temptation there. 891 00:53:16,103 --> 00:53:18,724 If I've gained weight, then it makes no sense. 892 00:53:19,482 --> 00:53:20,965 This is just really bad. 893 00:53:20,965 --> 00:53:23,586 I'm not looking forward to Dr. Now's reaction. 894 00:53:23,586 --> 00:53:25,551 [Dorothy speaking] 895 00:53:27,275 --> 00:53:28,586 [sniffles] 896 00:53:32,344 --> 00:53:34,000 [softly] You heart's carrying three people. 897 00:53:35,965 --> 00:53:38,862 How long do you think your body's gonna hold up? 898 00:53:38,862 --> 00:53:41,620 -I don't know. -[knocking on door] 899 00:53:45,000 --> 00:53:46,172 Hello, how y'all doing? 900 00:53:46,172 --> 00:53:48,344 -Good, how are you, Dr. Now? -Good, how about you? 901 00:53:48,344 --> 00:53:50,000 I am doing good. 902 00:53:50,000 --> 00:53:52,655 So, William, what's going on with you? 903 00:53:56,620 --> 00:54:01,137 Um, I thought I was doing better, and evidently I'm not. 904 00:54:01,137 --> 00:54:05,206 But, just seeing that scale is the eye-opener I feel like 905 00:54:05,206 --> 00:54:10,103 I might have needed to realize that, "Hey, what I'm doing is not enough. 906 00:54:10,103 --> 00:54:13,206 I need to do more, I need to push myself more." 907 00:54:13,206 --> 00:54:15,758 Um, and, I mean, 908 00:54:15,758 --> 00:54:18,758 I know nobody believes me because I've been saying it, 909 00:54:18,758 --> 00:54:21,103 and so all I can do is show that, 910 00:54:21,103 --> 00:54:23,655 "Hey, I'm serious about what I'm saying." 911 00:54:23,655 --> 00:54:26,275 And just prove everybody wrong that, 912 00:54:26,275 --> 00:54:29,931 "Hey, look, I've realized my mistakes and I'm changing 'em." 913 00:54:50,000 --> 00:54:51,068 Yes, sir. 914 00:54:58,172 --> 00:55:02,310 And that's kind of my next step, actually. 915 00:55:02,310 --> 00:55:04,413 I'm actually gonna start looking for a new job. 916 00:55:04,413 --> 00:55:06,068 Um, something to get me out of there. 917 00:55:06,068 --> 00:55:07,758 [Dr. Nowzaradan speaking] 918 00:55:47,931 --> 00:55:51,551 I would say with that weight gain that I've seen today on the scale, 919 00:55:51,551 --> 00:55:54,793 that scale's kind of an eye-opener today with that weight gain. 920 00:55:54,793 --> 00:55:57,068 There's no way you're putting in 1,200 calories. 921 00:55:57,068 --> 00:56:02,103 You're eating at least 5,000 calories a day, at least. 922 00:56:13,103 --> 00:56:15,206 [Dorothy] Deep down inside you don't believe what you're saying. 923 00:56:15,206 --> 00:56:16,793 [Dr. Nowzaradan] You don't believe what you're saying either. 924 00:56:16,793 --> 00:56:18,965 Because you've been so busy telling us what you think we wanna hear. 925 00:56:33,896 --> 00:56:35,758 Well, he's a walking stroke right now. 926 00:56:35,758 --> 00:56:37,448 His blood pressure's up, 927 00:56:37,448 --> 00:56:41,103 he's carrying the weight of three people with one heart. 928 00:56:41,103 --> 00:56:45,379 It's, it's just a matter of time if he don't do something quick. 929 00:56:46,689 --> 00:56:50,517 [crying] And I'm gonna be burying him instead of living life with him. 930 00:56:56,379 --> 00:56:59,000 And we've given you every opportunity 931 00:56:59,000 --> 00:57:01,310 to change that in the past six months. 932 00:57:01,310 --> 00:57:03,310 Nothing has worked. 933 00:57:03,310 --> 00:57:05,551 So, I'm gonna give you one last chance, 934 00:57:05,551 --> 00:57:08,000 and if we set up therapy, would you go to that? 935 00:57:08,000 --> 00:57:10,344 -Yes, sir. -[Dr. Nowzaradan] Okay. 936 00:57:17,448 --> 00:57:19,310 -Yes, sir. -[Dr. Nowzaradan] All right. 937 00:57:41,448 --> 00:57:43,000 -Okay. Yes, sir. -[Dr. Now] Okay? 938 00:57:43,000 --> 00:57:45,620 -Yes, sir. -So if you need anything, give me a call. 939 00:57:48,793 --> 00:57:50,379 -Yes, sir. -[Dr. Now] Okay? 940 00:57:50,379 --> 00:57:51,379 Yes, sir. 941 00:57:51,379 --> 00:57:53,172 All right, I'll see you later. 942 00:57:53,172 --> 00:57:54,793 -[William] All right, thank you. -Bye, Dr. Now, thank you. 943 00:57:54,793 --> 00:57:56,137 [Dr. Now] All right. 944 00:58:41,862 --> 00:58:44,206 [William] Well, I just gotta try harder, I guess, and do better. 945 00:58:44,206 --> 00:58:47,965 That's all I can do and I have to make good progress this time. 946 00:58:47,965 --> 00:58:50,655 It's just taking me longer for some reason. 947 00:58:51,206 --> 00:58:53,448 But maybe therapy will help. 948 00:58:53,448 --> 00:58:56,275 But either way, I gotta keep pushing and putting in the work 949 00:58:56,275 --> 00:58:58,172 because I don't wanna lose this chance 950 00:58:58,965 --> 00:59:01,172 and I need to make that progress. 951 00:59:10,965 --> 00:59:13,275 [Dorothy] Are you excited or nervous to go see Dr. Paradise? 952 00:59:13,275 --> 00:59:15,413 [William] Uh, kind of nervous just because I've never done 953 00:59:15,413 --> 00:59:19,517 any kind of counselling or anything, or therapy so... 954 00:59:19,517 --> 00:59:22,551 Are you afraid that you might have to face issues 955 00:59:22,551 --> 00:59:23,965 you don't wanna face? 956 00:59:23,965 --> 00:59:26,448 Uh, partially, yeah. So, but... 957 00:59:27,448 --> 00:59:31,517 I'll do it, it is what it is, and it'll help, so... 958 01:00:01,206 --> 01:00:02,379 You're gonna go on your own. 959 01:00:02,379 --> 01:00:04,344 -I'm gonna stay out here. -Okay, that's fine. 960 01:00:04,344 --> 01:00:06,413 I-- I know I need to do this one on my own 961 01:00:06,413 --> 01:00:08,620 so that way I can get everything out, so... 962 01:00:08,620 --> 01:00:09,551 [Dr. Paradise] William? 963 01:00:09,551 --> 01:00:10,655 How you doing? 964 01:00:10,655 --> 01:00:12,379 -I'm Dr. Paradise, come on in. -[William] All right. 965 01:00:16,793 --> 01:00:18,413 -Welcome. -[William] How you doing? 966 01:00:18,413 --> 01:00:19,758 I'm doing well. 967 01:00:19,758 --> 01:00:21,482 So let's take you back to the beginning. 968 01:00:21,482 --> 01:00:23,172 Where'd you grow up, William? 969 01:00:23,172 --> 01:00:24,931 [William] Um, so I grew up in Austin, 970 01:00:24,931 --> 01:00:27,206 and around the Austin area. 971 01:00:27,206 --> 01:00:29,068 What was your weight like growing up? 972 01:00:29,068 --> 01:00:32,172 Um, so it was up until, 973 01:00:32,172 --> 01:00:34,000 I wanna say my sophomore year of high school, 974 01:00:34,000 --> 01:00:36,379 I weighed, like, 90 or 100 pounds maybe. 975 01:00:36,379 --> 01:00:40,586 -How tall were you? -Um, I wanna say, like, 5'5"-ish. 976 01:00:40,586 --> 01:00:42,137 -I don't-- -So you-- You were a skinny kid. 977 01:00:42,137 --> 01:00:44,344 [William] Yeah, I was really tiny. 978 01:00:44,344 --> 01:00:47,172 -Not at all like-- -No. [chuckles] 979 01:00:47,172 --> 01:00:49,344 So what'd you-- What'd you do after high school? 980 01:00:49,344 --> 01:00:50,827 [William] Um, so I went to Job Corps. 981 01:00:50,827 --> 01:00:53,000 -Sure, sure. I know about that, yeah. -Um, 982 01:00:53,000 --> 01:00:54,586 and then I met my ex-wife. 983 01:00:54,586 --> 01:00:57,724 And then we ended up getting married, uh... 984 01:00:57,724 --> 01:01:00,068 We got married about six months after we met. 985 01:01:00,068 --> 01:01:01,689 -[Dr. Paradise] Okay, so pretty quickly. -Yeah. 986 01:01:01,689 --> 01:01:04,310 Okay, you know, usually, one-- one person's, 987 01:01:04,310 --> 01:01:06,793 um, pushing for the divorce and... 988 01:01:06,793 --> 01:01:08,793 -She more so was. -[Dr. Paradise] Okay. 989 01:01:08,793 --> 01:01:11,172 Um, and I told her that if she wanted a divorce, 990 01:01:11,172 --> 01:01:13,000 then she would have to file the paperwork 991 01:01:13,000 --> 01:01:15,275 and pay all the fees and all that. Um-- 992 01:01:15,275 --> 01:01:17,137 So you thought by making it hard for her... 993 01:01:17,137 --> 01:01:20,310 -[William] Yeah. Mmm-hmm. -...maybe she wouldn't divorce you. How'd that work? 994 01:01:20,310 --> 01:01:22,620 Um, we got divorced. [laughs] 995 01:01:22,620 --> 01:01:24,344 -[Dr. Paradise] Usually doesn't work. -Yeah. 996 01:01:24,344 --> 01:01:28,068 Okay. How steady was the weight gain after that point? 997 01:01:28,482 --> 01:01:31,724 Um, it was drastic. 998 01:01:31,724 --> 01:01:35,241 It was kind of almost, like, it wasn't overnight 999 01:01:35,241 --> 01:01:37,448 -but it seemed like it was almost overnight. -[Dr. Paradise] Okay. 1000 01:01:37,448 --> 01:01:39,482 Any contact with your ex-wife after that? 1001 01:01:39,482 --> 01:01:44,241 No, we've had no contact, um, since, ever again. 1002 01:01:44,241 --> 01:01:47,896 We've blocked each other on all social medias. 1003 01:01:47,896 --> 01:01:49,517 -[Dr. Paradise] Interesting. -Um, things like that. 1004 01:01:49,517 --> 01:01:50,448 [Dr. Paradise] Okay. 1005 01:01:50,448 --> 01:01:52,103 What's going on with your hand, by the way? 1006 01:01:52,103 --> 01:01:54,482 I cut it, uh, the other day. 1007 01:01:54,482 --> 01:01:58,172 Yeah, and you know, the reason I asked is that bandage looks very homemade. 1008 01:01:58,172 --> 01:02:00,586 -Yeah. [chuckles] -[Dr. Paradise] You know, it-- It doesn't look like 1009 01:02:00,586 --> 01:02:03,344 -a doctor took a look at that. -No, no, not at all. 1010 01:02:03,344 --> 01:02:05,241 -Right. -[William] I just, um... 1011 01:02:05,241 --> 01:02:07,000 [Dr. Paradise] I feel like that's a metaphor 1012 01:02:07,000 --> 01:02:09,172 for everything we're talking about. 1013 01:02:09,172 --> 01:02:11,517 You know, sometimes they say the way you do anything 1014 01:02:11,517 --> 01:02:13,034 -is the way you do everything. -[William] Yeah. 1015 01:02:13,034 --> 01:02:15,000 [Dr. Paradise] And I feel like you're-- 1016 01:02:15,000 --> 01:02:18,758 You have these big wounds and you're putting, uh, 1017 01:02:18,758 --> 01:02:22,068 incomplete fixes on them and you're at risk of falling 1018 01:02:22,068 --> 01:02:23,758 -out of the program now. -Yeah. 1019 01:02:23,758 --> 01:02:27,000 Which could be fatal for you, right? 1020 01:02:27,000 --> 01:02:29,172 Um, your not getting the surgery 1021 01:02:29,172 --> 01:02:31,034 could-- could shorten your life by... 1022 01:02:32,000 --> 01:02:35,000 Plenty of, like, ten plus years at least. 1023 01:02:35,000 --> 01:02:38,586 -[Dr. Paradise] Right, okay. -Um, so I mean-- 1024 01:02:38,586 --> 01:02:41,931 -So William, I wanna talk more about your divorce. -[William] Okay. 1025 01:02:41,931 --> 01:02:44,103 [Dr. Paradise] Tell me how it went down for you. 1026 01:02:44,103 --> 01:02:47,206 [William] So, um, it was literally on my birthday. 1027 01:02:48,448 --> 01:02:51,000 Basically, I got dropped off at the airport. 1028 01:02:51,000 --> 01:02:53,068 -Um-- -Wait, wait, I don't even understand. 1029 01:02:53,068 --> 01:02:55,137 So she took you to the airport... 1030 01:02:55,137 --> 01:02:56,758 -Without me realizing it. -[Dr. Paradise] So, so, 1031 01:02:56,758 --> 01:02:59,931 -"Good morning. Happy birthday." -[William] Yeah. Yeah. 1032 01:02:59,931 --> 01:03:01,724 "Uh, get in the car with me." 1033 01:03:01,724 --> 01:03:03,448 -[William] Mmm-hmm. -And then, 1034 01:03:03,448 --> 01:03:06,000 -hand you a ticket? -Uh, yeah. 1035 01:03:06,000 --> 01:03:08,310 -And then I-- -Packed-- Packed your bag for you? 1036 01:03:08,310 --> 01:03:09,275 Uh, yeah. 1037 01:03:09,931 --> 01:03:11,241 And then I flew back here. 1038 01:03:11,241 --> 01:03:13,103 -[Dr. Paradise] What? -Yeah. 1039 01:03:13,103 --> 01:03:15,689 -I can't even imagine what that's like. -[William] Like, I feel like 1040 01:03:15,689 --> 01:03:17,206 that's kind of... 1041 01:03:17,965 --> 01:03:20,793 what started the whole weight gain, 1042 01:03:20,793 --> 01:03:23,586 um, was, like, the shock of that. 1043 01:03:23,586 --> 01:03:26,068 So William, I'm-- I'm a little bit concerned 1044 01:03:26,068 --> 01:03:28,689 that earlier, we talked about your divorce 1045 01:03:28,689 --> 01:03:30,241 and it was like no big deal. 1046 01:03:30,241 --> 01:03:33,827 -And then I hear all this stuff later. -Mmm-hmm. 1047 01:03:33,827 --> 01:03:37,310 And I-- I feel like you're not always straightforward about stuff. 1048 01:03:38,413 --> 01:03:41,517 Um, yeah, I try to be as honest as I can 1049 01:03:41,517 --> 01:03:44,275 -with everybody, of course. -[Dr. Paradise] Okay. 1050 01:03:44,275 --> 01:03:46,448 -You know-- -Did you have something with Dr. Now 1051 01:03:46,448 --> 01:03:47,758 where he felt like you weren't-- 1052 01:03:47,758 --> 01:03:50,137 You weren't truthful to him? 1053 01:03:50,137 --> 01:03:54,137 Um, with staying on track for his diet, yeah. 1054 01:03:54,137 --> 01:03:55,551 Okay, tell me about that. 1055 01:03:55,551 --> 01:03:57,344 [William] So, um, 1056 01:03:57,344 --> 01:03:58,724 I think it was the last appointment 1057 01:03:58,724 --> 01:04:01,827 or the appointment before, um, it was... 1058 01:04:01,827 --> 01:04:04,137 I told him I would stay on track with the diet 1059 01:04:04,137 --> 01:04:06,586 and I would cut back on soda. 1060 01:04:06,586 --> 01:04:09,413 And he didn't trust me at all 1061 01:04:09,413 --> 01:04:11,862 that I would do it, um... 1062 01:04:11,862 --> 01:04:14,931 I feel like people don't trust what I'm gonna-- 1063 01:04:14,931 --> 01:04:18,137 what I say is the truth, um-- 1064 01:04:18,137 --> 01:04:20,344 Well, but in that case, it wasn't the truth, right? 1065 01:04:20,344 --> 01:04:21,965 Like you said, did you-- 1066 01:04:21,965 --> 01:04:24,517 Did you make it sound like you were following the diet 1067 01:04:24,517 --> 01:04:26,000 and then you gained a bunch of weight? 1068 01:04:26,724 --> 01:04:28,000 Um... 1069 01:04:29,551 --> 01:04:34,620 To me, I don't think I did. Like, I don't feel like I... 1070 01:04:34,620 --> 01:04:37,448 made it seem like I was following the diet 1071 01:04:37,448 --> 01:04:40,689 exactly 'cause-- 'Cause I mean, I've never... 1072 01:04:40,689 --> 01:04:43,137 I wasn't following exactly as it should be-- 1073 01:04:43,137 --> 01:04:44,758 -[Dr. Paradise] You're kinda hemming and hawing... -[chuckles] 1074 01:04:44,758 --> 01:04:46,275 -...even as we're talking right now, aren't you? -Yeah, no. 1075 01:04:46,275 --> 01:04:49,034 -So I don't feel like I follow-- -Were you honest 1076 01:04:49,034 --> 01:04:51,551 about following the diet with Dr. Now? 1077 01:04:51,551 --> 01:04:54,103 I feel like I was, um, 1078 01:04:54,103 --> 01:04:57,862 I wasn't... Like, I told him I wasn't following it exactly 1079 01:04:57,862 --> 01:05:01,586 but I was trying my best to be as... 1080 01:05:01,586 --> 01:05:04,172 -[Dr. Paradise] Okay. -As close to the diet as I could. 1081 01:05:04,172 --> 01:05:05,689 -Um... -[Dr. Paradise] Who-- 1082 01:05:05,689 --> 01:05:10,793 -Who, um, suffers for that, um, misrepresentation? -Me. 1083 01:05:10,793 --> 01:05:12,379 [Dr. Paradise] Yeah. 1084 01:05:12,379 --> 01:05:14,758 So William, I'm gonna have you do something interesting. 1085 01:05:14,758 --> 01:05:16,000 -[chuckles] -[William] Okay. [chuckles] 1086 01:05:16,000 --> 01:05:18,724 -I want you to create a journal. -Okay. 1087 01:05:18,724 --> 01:05:21,586 [Dr. Paradise] And what I want you to log in that journal 1088 01:05:21,586 --> 01:05:25,862 is this tendency to misrepresent things, right? 1089 01:05:25,862 --> 01:05:27,896 -Okay. -[Dr. Paradise] And I want you 1090 01:05:27,896 --> 01:05:30,241 to go back in your past and there's probably some examples 1091 01:05:30,241 --> 01:05:32,896 in your marriage and other parts in your life, 1092 01:05:32,896 --> 01:05:35,448 and-- And what I want you to write down is, 1093 01:05:35,448 --> 01:05:38,137 "This is what I was leading people to believe." 1094 01:05:38,137 --> 01:05:41,275 -This is not to make you feel bad about yourself. -Mmm-hmm. 1095 01:05:41,275 --> 01:05:44,620 This is to help you recognize 'cause we lie to ourselves 1096 01:05:44,620 --> 01:05:47,172 -more than we even lie to other people, don't we? -Yeah, yeah. 1097 01:05:47,172 --> 01:05:50,896 Over time, I think you're gonna embrace the truth. 1098 01:05:50,896 --> 01:05:52,827 You're gonna embrace-- embrace reality, 1099 01:05:52,827 --> 01:05:55,275 but I want you to put it down so you can see it. 1100 01:05:55,275 --> 01:05:58,344 -Okay. -[Dr. Paradise] Okay, good. 1101 01:05:58,344 --> 01:06:01,172 William, how have you stayed accountable over time 1102 01:06:01,172 --> 01:06:03,862 to the diet, to just... How do you... 1103 01:06:03,862 --> 01:06:07,758 What do you do to keep track of how you're doing? 1104 01:06:07,758 --> 01:06:10,655 Um, I would say communication with my mom. 1105 01:06:10,655 --> 01:06:14,034 -Um, 'cause she'll ask me what I'm eating and-- -[Dr. Paradise] Okay. 1106 01:06:14,034 --> 01:06:17,000 But-- But you don't really have a ticker other than your weight, 1107 01:06:17,000 --> 01:06:19,172 -you really don't have a way to keep track of... -[William] Correct. 1108 01:06:19,172 --> 01:06:22,275 ...how healthy you're being. So what I want you to do 1109 01:06:22,275 --> 01:06:24,379 is set up some system with your mom 1110 01:06:24,379 --> 01:06:28,275 where she keeps some track of you-- of your 1111 01:06:28,275 --> 01:06:31,482 positive behaviors. And this is not just the food, not just the calories, 1112 01:06:31,482 --> 01:06:33,862 but I wanna know when you're exercising, 1113 01:06:33,862 --> 01:06:35,793 even when you're just choosing the right foods. 1114 01:06:35,793 --> 01:06:37,517 -[William] Okay. -That'll show up in the calories. 1115 01:06:37,517 --> 01:06:40,448 But some system that she helps you track 1116 01:06:40,448 --> 01:06:44,344 the number of good choices that you're making, positive behaviors, 1117 01:06:44,344 --> 01:06:47,344 and that you have some kind of running tally of that. 1118 01:06:47,344 --> 01:06:49,793 -Okay. -[Dr. Paradise] And then ideally, as you accrue those, 1119 01:06:49,793 --> 01:06:51,448 -we'll call 'em merits, right? -[William] Okay. 1120 01:06:51,448 --> 01:06:55,137 Some kind of token that you use to keep track of that stuff. 1121 01:06:55,137 --> 01:06:57,034 You can even, you know, have, like, a fish bowl 1122 01:06:57,034 --> 01:07:00,827 where she puts them in and you could sort of see the accumulation 1123 01:07:00,827 --> 01:07:03,931 -of the positive behaviors you're doing. -Okay. 1124 01:07:03,931 --> 01:07:06,758 Um, William, it was terrific to meet with you. 1125 01:07:06,758 --> 01:07:10,137 -Thank you for having me. -And I'm pretty clear 1126 01:07:10,137 --> 01:07:12,413 that if you can be honest with yourself, 1127 01:07:12,413 --> 01:07:14,413 -you're gonna get back on track, right? -Yeah. 1128 01:07:14,413 --> 01:07:18,241 First-- First step is being honest about what you're actually eating, 1129 01:07:18,241 --> 01:07:20,896 how well are you following the plan. 1130 01:07:20,896 --> 01:07:23,689 Um, that's the prerequisite to make any progress. 1131 01:07:23,689 --> 01:07:25,517 William, thanks for coming. Good to meet you. 1132 01:07:25,517 --> 01:07:27,172 -Good to meet you. -[Dr. Paradise] Take care, man. 1133 01:07:27,172 --> 01:07:28,931 -[William] Thank you so much. -[Dr. Paradise] You're welcome. 1134 01:07:30,896 --> 01:07:32,206 -Hey. -[Dorothy] Hey, how'd it go? 1135 01:07:32,206 --> 01:07:33,689 It went good. 1136 01:07:33,689 --> 01:07:34,931 [chuckles softly] 1137 01:07:37,689 --> 01:07:40,241 Things I'm gonna take from this is how to better myself 1138 01:07:40,241 --> 01:07:46,379 and how to move past any hurt or rejection or depression 1139 01:07:46,379 --> 01:07:50,413 and how not to supplement that-- those feelings with food. 1140 01:08:00,103 --> 01:08:01,241 [exhales] 1141 01:08:02,275 --> 01:08:03,448 [groans] 1142 01:08:29,965 --> 01:08:32,930 [William] I had another follow-up with Dr. Paradise 1143 01:08:32,930 --> 01:08:36,000 and he wanted to know what was taking me so long 1144 01:08:36,000 --> 01:08:39,033 doing some of the things that we discussed. 1145 01:08:39,033 --> 01:08:42,171 So I decided to get in gear and try some of it. 1146 01:08:42,171 --> 01:08:46,344 So today I did the journal entries, facts versus fiction. 1147 01:08:48,206 --> 01:08:50,792 What I was telling everybody else or myself 1148 01:08:50,792 --> 01:08:52,862 versus what was really the truth. 1149 01:08:54,000 --> 01:08:55,930 I know I tend to bend the truth a lot 1150 01:08:55,930 --> 01:08:58,586 out of fear of people being upset with me. 1151 01:08:58,586 --> 01:09:02,206 I definitely distort things sometimes with my mom. 1152 01:09:02,206 --> 01:09:05,620 I know I could've been more honest with Dr. Now. 1153 01:09:05,620 --> 01:09:09,241 So I'm trying journaling and also working on a goal board. 1154 01:09:09,241 --> 01:09:13,895 The goal board is gonna help me stay on track with everything, I think. 1155 01:09:13,895 --> 01:09:16,895 Writing down what I wanted to be accountable for, um, 1156 01:09:16,895 --> 01:09:20,448 so, like, the Dr. Now program, the exercise, 1157 01:09:20,448 --> 01:09:23,274 the no soda, kind of helps me 1158 01:09:23,274 --> 01:09:25,586 get to the point to-- that I wanna get to in life. 1159 01:09:26,379 --> 01:09:29,895 I do honestly wanna try and get better. 1160 01:09:29,895 --> 01:09:33,033 So I'm gonna do my best to make the changes I should 1161 01:09:33,033 --> 01:09:35,000 to improve myself and my life. 1162 01:09:36,895 --> 01:09:42,033 So after every month, the rewards kind of vary from what I want to do. 1163 01:09:42,033 --> 01:09:45,517 Um, like, after one month, it's like buying a video game, 1164 01:09:45,517 --> 01:09:48,930 it's going out somewhere to interact with others, 1165 01:09:48,930 --> 01:09:51,586 buying a new-- brand-new pair of shoes. 1166 01:09:51,586 --> 01:09:54,103 I'll get a token at the end of each month. 1167 01:09:54,103 --> 01:09:56,586 [chuckles] It's still a work in progress. 1168 01:10:08,206 --> 01:10:10,241 [Dorothy] Busy. How was your day? 1169 01:10:10,241 --> 01:10:11,862 [William speaking] 1170 01:10:11,862 --> 01:10:13,275 [Dorothy] What'd you eat today? 1171 01:10:13,275 --> 01:10:14,689 [William speaking] 1172 01:10:22,379 --> 01:10:25,275 Today, I've been wanting to have a conversation with my mom. 1173 01:10:26,103 --> 01:10:28,517 So we're going out to a cafe where we can 1174 01:10:28,517 --> 01:10:30,758 sit down and have an actual talk. 1175 01:10:31,379 --> 01:10:33,344 I see my mom all the time. 1176 01:10:33,344 --> 01:10:36,620 I tend to keep everything really surface level with her. 1177 01:10:38,172 --> 01:10:42,862 And it's actually hard for me to get into talking about deeper stuff. 1178 01:10:42,862 --> 01:10:46,482 So I'm a little nervous about how this is gonna go. 1179 01:10:46,482 --> 01:10:49,793 But I know this is the right thing to do. 1180 01:10:49,793 --> 01:10:53,448 It just feels like it's a bigger deal than it is maybe. 1181 01:10:53,448 --> 01:10:56,275 I don't know, we'll see how it goes, I guess. 1182 01:10:56,275 --> 01:10:58,103 Uh, I'm gonna do a strawberry banana smoothie, 1183 01:10:58,103 --> 01:11:00,344 -I'll do the larger one. -[cashier] Okay. 1184 01:11:00,344 --> 01:11:01,655 -[Dorothy] Thank you. -[cashier] Thank you. 1185 01:11:05,827 --> 01:11:07,827 [William] Mom, right here. 1186 01:11:15,827 --> 01:11:17,689 I know, you know, I've been telling everybody 1187 01:11:17,689 --> 01:11:18,827 I was following the diet 1188 01:11:18,827 --> 01:11:22,137 really closely and I really wasn't, you know. 1189 01:11:22,137 --> 01:11:26,172 It's just hard to change how I'm eating 1190 01:11:26,172 --> 01:11:28,448 and how I've been eating, like... 1191 01:11:28,448 --> 01:11:29,862 -Thank you. -Of course. 1192 01:11:29,862 --> 01:11:32,655 -Y'all enjoy, thank you. -Thank you. 1193 01:11:32,655 --> 01:11:35,965 So that's where the food journal comes in. 1194 01:11:35,965 --> 01:11:37,206 [William] Yeah, I know. 1195 01:11:37,206 --> 01:11:39,482 One thing I wrote down in there 1196 01:11:39,482 --> 01:11:43,137 was telling everybody I was okay when I really wasn't. 1197 01:11:43,137 --> 01:11:47,379 Just, you know, trying to mask it and hide it 1198 01:11:47,379 --> 01:11:50,758 was what I thought I needed to do. 1199 01:11:50,758 --> 01:11:53,172 I realize now doing it, like, 1200 01:11:53,172 --> 01:11:55,862 that doesn't help anything, that makes everything worse. 1201 01:11:55,862 --> 01:11:57,000 -So... -[Dorothy] Mmm-hmm. 1202 01:11:57,000 --> 01:11:58,724 -You need to talk. -[William] Yeah. 1203 01:11:58,724 --> 01:12:00,896 [Dorothy] Because when you hold things inside, 1204 01:12:00,896 --> 01:12:03,586 all it does is bring you into a depressive state. 1205 01:12:03,586 --> 01:12:05,827 [William] It's hard to talk about. 1206 01:12:05,827 --> 01:12:09,413 Um, I mean, when I was younger, you know, I felt alone. 1207 01:12:09,413 --> 01:12:12,241 Like, I mean, I-- You were always around but I always felt 1208 01:12:12,241 --> 01:12:15,724 secluded and just by myself a lot of times. 1209 01:12:16,482 --> 01:12:18,482 Oh, I'm sorry you felt like that. 1210 01:12:18,482 --> 01:12:22,551 If I had known, we would've addressed it then. 1211 01:12:22,551 --> 01:12:25,068 And while I was away, I've always been there 1212 01:12:25,068 --> 01:12:27,241 -for you to reach out to. -[William] Yeah, I know. 1213 01:12:27,241 --> 01:12:30,034 It was just kind of easier to keep the distance 1214 01:12:30,034 --> 01:12:32,586 and not have to own up to it then, I think. 1215 01:12:33,172 --> 01:12:34,896 But that can't fix the problem, 1216 01:12:34,896 --> 01:12:36,827 so you gotta quit doing that now. 1217 01:12:36,827 --> 01:12:38,241 -[William] Yeah. -As an adult. 1218 01:12:38,965 --> 01:12:40,482 Yeah, I know. 1219 01:12:40,482 --> 01:12:42,965 But I'm so-- I really am sorry I didn't know that. 1220 01:12:42,965 --> 01:12:43,965 [William] It's okay. 1221 01:12:44,758 --> 01:12:46,137 You know, I'm trying to get all these-- 1222 01:12:46,137 --> 01:12:47,965 all these emotions out and everything out, 1223 01:12:47,965 --> 01:12:52,137 so, um, I created goal tokens for, like, 1224 01:12:52,137 --> 01:12:54,896 as far as like visual rewards, 1225 01:12:54,896 --> 01:12:57,379 like, for each week that I do something, 1226 01:12:57,379 --> 01:13:00,068 I get a token. But I'll give those to you 1227 01:13:00,068 --> 01:13:02,068 when we get back to my house. So that way, 1228 01:13:02,068 --> 01:13:05,241 every week, you can give me one. 1229 01:13:05,241 --> 01:13:07,379 And so that way, I can keep-- We can keep track 1230 01:13:07,379 --> 01:13:09,689 of how it's going and things like that. 1231 01:13:09,689 --> 01:13:12,241 -Well, I'm always here for you. -[William] I know. 1232 01:13:12,241 --> 01:13:14,482 And I'm looking forward to getting those tokens 1233 01:13:14,482 --> 01:13:17,103 -when we get back to your place. -[William] Okay. 1234 01:13:18,758 --> 01:13:20,758 It was hard to open up to my mom 1235 01:13:20,758 --> 01:13:23,034 but I knew it needed to be done as well. 1236 01:13:23,034 --> 01:13:25,758 I think she took it really well. All right, let's go. 1237 01:13:26,275 --> 01:13:27,793 [grunts] 1238 01:13:30,206 --> 01:13:34,862 Knowing William is now to a point where he can start opening up to people 1239 01:13:34,862 --> 01:13:38,482 and being William instead of telling people 1240 01:13:38,482 --> 01:13:42,034 what they wanna hear is just an amazing process for him. 1241 01:13:42,034 --> 01:13:47,103 And so it's nice to see him giving a reaction and trying to grow. 1242 01:13:50,206 --> 01:13:53,793 Looking back, I don't think William ever loved himself. 1243 01:13:55,379 --> 01:13:58,344 My hope is that he understands he's always 1244 01:13:58,344 --> 01:14:01,931 got someone to reach out to that's non-judgmental. 1245 01:14:01,931 --> 01:14:05,517 William's biggest thing is William needs to love William. 1246 01:14:05,517 --> 01:14:08,517 And when William loves William... [chuckles] 1247 01:14:09,586 --> 01:14:11,206 The future's his. 1248 01:14:24,724 --> 01:14:27,827 So I'm going to Dr. Now. I'm a little optimistic 1249 01:14:27,827 --> 01:14:32,620 about the, um... 1250 01:14:32,620 --> 01:14:36,448 the scale weight but I'm kind of excited to see where it is 1251 01:14:36,448 --> 01:14:39,448 and if I'm-- if I've lost any more. 1252 01:14:40,551 --> 01:14:44,689 Um, I really did try harder than I've tried before. 1253 01:14:45,758 --> 01:14:48,068 I'm planning to fess up to Dr. Now 1254 01:14:48,068 --> 01:14:51,413 about some of the ways I haven't been super truthful 1255 01:14:51,413 --> 01:14:54,206 about sticking to the diet. 1256 01:14:54,206 --> 01:14:58,517 That conversation will go a lot better though if I have a good weight loss. 1257 01:15:38,517 --> 01:15:39,448 William. 1258 01:15:40,931 --> 01:15:42,448 [William] I got my mom on my side 1259 01:15:42,448 --> 01:15:44,620 with the goal board that I created. 1260 01:15:44,620 --> 01:15:47,482 And this is supposed to give me one of my coins 1261 01:15:47,482 --> 01:15:50,586 if I could just get close to my weight loss goal. 1262 01:15:50,586 --> 01:15:53,689 So there's a lot riding on this one. 1263 01:15:53,689 --> 01:15:56,931 Most of all is believing in myself that I can actually do this. 1264 01:15:58,172 --> 01:16:00,620 Please step on the scale. 1265 01:16:00,620 --> 01:16:02,793 [William] If there's ever been a time that I've needed that boost 1266 01:16:02,793 --> 01:16:05,137 of confidence, now is the time. 1267 01:16:05,137 --> 01:16:06,827 Because I don't know how to go on 1268 01:16:06,827 --> 01:16:08,689 if I can't start reaching my goals. 1269 01:16:22,379 --> 01:16:23,862 [William] I'm back at Dr. Now. 1270 01:16:23,862 --> 01:16:26,482 Last time I was here, I was 598. 1271 01:16:26,482 --> 01:16:28,344 He didn't give me a goal that time 1272 01:16:28,344 --> 01:16:30,379 but told me to lose a significant amount of weight. 1273 01:16:30,379 --> 01:16:33,275 Seventy pounds was the original goal he gave me. 1274 01:16:33,275 --> 01:16:36,586 That means I need to be down to 528 today. 1275 01:16:38,827 --> 01:16:41,241 Your weight today is 588. 1276 01:16:45,551 --> 01:16:48,517 [William] I really thought I was doing it right this time. 1277 01:16:50,172 --> 01:16:51,965 So I don't know what happened. 1278 01:16:52,482 --> 01:16:54,344 I'm kind of devastated. 1279 01:16:56,793 --> 01:16:59,034 I just don't know what to do. 1280 01:16:59,034 --> 01:17:02,241 I'm starting to feel like I'm destined to failure with this. 1281 01:17:05,482 --> 01:17:07,310 William, William, William. 1282 01:17:10,482 --> 01:17:11,689 [knock at door] 1283 01:17:14,965 --> 01:17:17,827 -Hello, how are you all doing? -[William] Hello, Dr. Now. 1284 01:17:19,034 --> 01:17:20,275 [Dr. Now speaking] 1285 01:17:25,655 --> 01:17:29,448 So what's going on with you and what's happening? 1286 01:17:29,448 --> 01:17:33,103 So last night, I had a conversation with my uncle, 1287 01:17:33,103 --> 01:17:37,413 um, that made me realize there was more things 1288 01:17:37,413 --> 01:17:40,413 that I was hiding and holding on to 1289 01:17:40,413 --> 01:17:44,068 that, um, wasn't gonna make me successful. 1290 01:17:44,068 --> 01:17:46,896 Um, it's revolving around my grandmother's death 1291 01:17:46,896 --> 01:17:50,241 that I believe the family thought it was my fault. 1292 01:17:50,241 --> 01:17:54,655 Um, so and that I've been kind of, you know, hiding 1293 01:17:54,655 --> 01:17:58,551 and holding down and when I felt upset about it, 1294 01:17:58,551 --> 01:18:01,068 I would do whatever I wanted to 1295 01:18:01,068 --> 01:18:03,827 because it made me feel better. So I feel like 1296 01:18:03,827 --> 01:18:07,551 with that emotional breakthrough I had last night, 1297 01:18:07,551 --> 01:18:09,241 would allow me to be more successful 1298 01:18:09,241 --> 01:18:11,965 'cause I'm not holding on to anything anymore. 1299 01:18:11,965 --> 01:18:16,172 Well, but essentially, you haven't been truthful about your eating habit. 1300 01:18:16,172 --> 01:18:18,551 And yeah, that's another thing I've, um, 1301 01:18:18,551 --> 01:18:21,655 I've lied to everybody, um, saying, 1302 01:18:21,655 --> 01:18:23,724 "Yes, I'm following the diet" at beginning. 1303 01:18:23,724 --> 01:18:26,000 Um, "Yes, I'm following the diet, yes, I'm following," 1304 01:18:26,000 --> 01:18:29,206 when truthfully, I wasn't. I realized that, you know, 1305 01:18:29,206 --> 01:18:30,862 I've lied to you, I've lied to my mom, 1306 01:18:30,862 --> 01:18:34,482 I've lied to my friends because I want to hide it. 1307 01:18:34,482 --> 01:18:36,724 And hiding it doesn't do anything. 1308 01:18:36,724 --> 01:18:38,793 It doesn't make anything successful. 1309 01:18:38,793 --> 01:18:40,862 If anything, it makes everything a failure. 1310 01:18:40,862 --> 01:18:44,586 Well, you know, essentially, William, you've been, uh, 1311 01:18:44,586 --> 01:18:47,724 untruthful to yourself as well. 1312 01:18:47,724 --> 01:18:51,103 Uh, so you just keep saying the same thing 1313 01:18:51,103 --> 01:18:53,275 and you believe in it 1314 01:18:53,275 --> 01:18:57,482 and keep repeating what is not factually correct. 1315 01:18:57,482 --> 01:19:00,862 And after you repeat it so many times to other people, 1316 01:19:00,862 --> 01:19:03,103 it become a truth for you. 1317 01:19:03,103 --> 01:19:06,793 So it doesn't matter, uh, how many times you repeat 1318 01:19:06,793 --> 01:19:11,241 something that is not correct, it doesn't become the truth. 1319 01:19:11,241 --> 01:19:15,551 So that is something that you need to work with the therapy and all that. 1320 01:19:19,655 --> 01:19:24,068 At this point, uh, there is not much we can do for you, uh, 1321 01:19:24,068 --> 01:19:27,000 unless you take control of your eating habit. 1322 01:19:27,000 --> 01:19:31,241 Uh, the question is, are you still working in the fast food industry? 1323 01:19:31,241 --> 01:19:33,344 Yes, sir, I am working and still working there. 1324 01:19:33,344 --> 01:19:35,206 Um, I have been applying for other jobs, 1325 01:19:35,206 --> 01:19:37,551 it's just nothing has come through yet. 1326 01:19:37,551 --> 01:19:42,724 Um, and I can't afford to just leave my job without another one 1327 01:19:42,724 --> 01:19:46,137 lined up and ready to go because of my bills and things. 1328 01:19:46,137 --> 01:19:49,275 So I have been looking, it's just nothing has come through. 1329 01:19:50,103 --> 01:19:52,827 Well, you know, that's gonna be an issue 1330 01:19:52,827 --> 01:19:55,931 that, um, you need to work on it. 1331 01:19:59,620 --> 01:20:00,862 Yeah. 1332 01:20:23,344 --> 01:20:28,103 And make the changes that we need to change your life. 1333 01:20:28,103 --> 01:20:31,413 Uh, otherwise, you know, it's a matter of time 1334 01:20:31,413 --> 01:20:36,448 and if anything happens to you if you go down the road, 1335 01:20:36,448 --> 01:20:40,413 your health is gonna be, uh, much more fragile. 1336 01:20:40,413 --> 01:20:43,137 And you're not gonna be able to pull through. 1337 01:20:46,724 --> 01:20:49,137 But if you continue with your therapy, 1338 01:20:49,137 --> 01:20:51,655 we, uh, maintain that for you. 1339 01:20:51,655 --> 01:20:55,620 And we get through to some point that you have also lose 70 pounds, 1340 01:20:55,620 --> 01:20:58,655 you come back and we work with you. 1341 01:20:58,655 --> 01:21:01,344 But until that point, everything is gonna be up to you. 1342 01:21:01,344 --> 01:21:04,551 Yes, sir. I will change, um, and I will show you 1343 01:21:04,551 --> 01:21:07,482 that I can lose that 70 pounds. 1344 01:21:07,482 --> 01:21:11,689 And I'm ready to lose this weight and finally get my life back. 1345 01:21:11,689 --> 01:21:13,517 Well, I wish you the best of luck 1346 01:21:13,517 --> 01:21:16,655 and if you lose the 70 pound, uh, we'll see you. 1347 01:21:16,655 --> 01:21:19,034 At the meantime, if you need anything, give me a call. 1348 01:21:19,034 --> 01:21:20,000 -[William] Yes, sir. -[Dorothy] Thank you. 1349 01:21:20,000 --> 01:21:21,551 -Okay. -[William] Thank you. 1350 01:21:27,206 --> 01:21:31,551 [Dorothy] The appointment didn't go the way I was praying for it to go. 1351 01:21:33,793 --> 01:21:38,758 I'm a little angry, disappointed. Until you get to a point 1352 01:21:38,758 --> 01:21:42,931 of losing 70 pounds, he can't do anything else. 1353 01:21:53,551 --> 01:21:56,931 So with the lack of progress over the last ten months, 1354 01:21:56,931 --> 01:21:58,862 we are done with William. 1355 01:21:58,862 --> 01:22:01,689 He had enough chances up to this point. 1356 01:22:01,689 --> 01:22:04,103 No more follow-up or check-ins. 1357 01:22:04,103 --> 01:22:06,034 But we never give up hope. 1358 01:22:06,034 --> 01:22:08,206 Maybe at some point, he will wake up 1359 01:22:08,206 --> 01:22:12,000 and turn things around. If he does that, we will work with him. 1360 01:22:12,000 --> 01:22:15,620 But I'm not very optimistic we're going to see him again 1361 01:22:15,620 --> 01:22:17,034 in the near future. 1362 01:22:21,379 --> 01:22:24,413 [William] I'm definitely pretty crushed but I can't give up. 1363 01:22:24,413 --> 01:22:28,000 So I'm gonna have to turn my life around somehow. 1364 01:22:28,000 --> 01:22:32,206 I think I can do it and I'm gonna push myself to do it this time. 1365 01:22:32,206 --> 01:22:34,689 So I gotta believe that I will come back 1366 01:22:34,689 --> 01:22:36,931 and I'll be able to get the surgery. 1367 01:22:37,551 --> 01:22:39,241 That's just how it's gotta be. 1368 01:22:55,965 --> 01:22:59,034 It's been a couple months since I last saw Dr. Now. 1369 01:22:59,034 --> 01:23:01,862 And even though I was discouraged at our last meeting, 1370 01:23:01,862 --> 01:23:05,862 I'm still trying and I'm pushing myself even harder. 1371 01:23:05,862 --> 01:23:08,862 At home, I've been stepping it up with my meal planning. 1372 01:23:08,862 --> 01:23:11,586 Before, my mom was doing a lot of it for me. 1373 01:23:11,586 --> 01:23:15,310 But now, I'm taking ownership of what I put in my body, 1374 01:23:15,310 --> 01:23:17,827 and that feels like a healthy step. 1375 01:23:17,827 --> 01:23:21,448 After visiting Dr. Now, I mean, just hearing 1376 01:23:21,448 --> 01:23:24,344 how he talked to me and how disappointed he was 1377 01:23:24,344 --> 01:23:28,103 as well as my mom, I just needed to get everything together 1378 01:23:28,103 --> 01:23:30,827 and focus even harder so I can lose the weight. 1379 01:23:36,827 --> 01:23:38,448 So I've been looking for a new job, 1380 01:23:38,448 --> 01:23:41,896 just trying to find anything online that I can do 1381 01:23:41,896 --> 01:23:44,413 that's gonna get me away from food and things like that. 1382 01:23:46,551 --> 01:23:48,793 But I've been able to quit soda lately 1383 01:23:48,793 --> 01:23:52,068 which honestly feels like the biggest deal out of everything. 1384 01:23:53,586 --> 01:23:55,862 I really wanna lose the weight and get back to having 1385 01:23:55,862 --> 01:23:59,206 my life back and being able to do things that I enjoy doing again. 1386 01:24:13,379 --> 01:24:14,482 [Dorothy] So what do you think about this 1387 01:24:14,482 --> 01:24:16,103 -beautiful weather today? -[William] It's cold. 1388 01:24:16,103 --> 01:24:19,689 -[Dorothy] Cold? It feels good. -[William] It's cold. 1389 01:24:19,689 --> 01:24:22,827 Me and my mom have been going on a lot of walks together 1390 01:24:22,827 --> 01:24:24,862 which has been pretty cool. 1391 01:24:24,862 --> 01:24:28,000 Some days, we talk about stuff, some other days, we don't. 1392 01:24:28,000 --> 01:24:30,344 -[Dorothy] I'm getting ahead of you. -[William] Oh, yeah. 1393 01:24:30,344 --> 01:24:32,379 But it's a nice routine and a healthy way 1394 01:24:32,379 --> 01:24:34,379 for us to spend time together. 1395 01:24:34,379 --> 01:24:37,206 -Let's go see the ducks at the water. -Okay. 1396 01:24:38,034 --> 01:24:39,965 I'm still going to Dr. Paradise 1397 01:24:39,965 --> 01:24:41,931 and keeping up with my therapy. 1398 01:24:41,931 --> 01:24:44,379 The whole process has made me realize 1399 01:24:44,379 --> 01:24:47,517 what a big challenge it is for me to stay honest about stuff. 1400 01:24:47,517 --> 01:24:50,275 Even with myself. So I'm trying to change that 1401 01:24:50,275 --> 01:24:52,482 about myself and how I operate. 1402 01:24:54,965 --> 01:24:56,758 [Dorothy] Come on, I'm making it faster than you 1403 01:24:56,758 --> 01:24:58,206 -and you're younger than me. -[William] Hmm. 1404 01:24:58,206 --> 01:25:00,724 William does get frustrated with me 1405 01:25:00,724 --> 01:25:03,137 because I do push him to try to walk faster 1406 01:25:03,137 --> 01:25:06,103 or walk longer. But it's all for his own good. 1407 01:25:06,103 --> 01:25:08,379 -Hey, I can push you in the water. -No. 1408 01:25:08,379 --> 01:25:10,896 [Dorothy] But it's all for him to succeed in life. 1409 01:25:12,310 --> 01:25:14,241 -There are lot of 'em. -[William] Yeah. 1410 01:25:15,965 --> 01:25:19,551 But even though I haven't really succeeded with this process, 1411 01:25:19,551 --> 01:25:22,103 I feel like something has awoken inside me 1412 01:25:22,103 --> 01:25:25,241 to where I really want it now more than ever. 1413 01:25:27,206 --> 01:25:30,275 -Are you ready to walk once more? -Yeah. 1414 01:25:30,275 --> 01:25:32,413 There's nothing left for me to do 1415 01:25:32,413 --> 01:25:36,000 but make the true William the healthy William once and for all. 1416 01:25:36,689 --> 01:25:38,310 And I can't wait for that.