1 00:00:04,448 --> 00:00:07,206 Octavia: I'VE GOTTEN SO BIG NOW THAT I'M AT THE POINT 2 00:00:07,206 --> 00:00:09,724 WHERE MY WEIGHT IS LITERALLY KILLING ME. 3 00:00:09,724 --> 00:00:17,413 ♪♪ 4 00:00:17,413 --> 00:00:19,827 Man: AT THIS POINT, I'M KILLING MYSELF. 5 00:00:19,827 --> 00:00:22,793 Woman: IT'S TERRIFYING TO THINK THAT AT ANY MOMENT 6 00:00:22,793 --> 00:00:24,448 YOUR HEART COULD EXPLODE. 7 00:00:24,448 --> 00:00:29,931 ♪♪ 8 00:00:29,931 --> 00:00:35,379 ♪♪ 9 00:00:35,379 --> 00:00:37,655 Woman #2: I DON'T WANT TO DIE. 10 00:00:37,655 --> 00:00:39,655 I HAVEN'T EVEN GOTTEN TO LIVE YET. 11 00:00:43,862 --> 00:00:45,724 I HAVE TO CHANGE. 12 00:00:45,724 --> 00:00:47,448 I KNOW IT'S HARD BECAUSE THIS IS THE WAY 13 00:00:47,448 --> 00:00:49,482 WE'VE HAD TO COPE WITH LIFE. 14 00:00:49,482 --> 00:00:50,896 I CAN'T BREATHE. 15 00:00:50,896 --> 00:00:52,275 PLEASE, SOMEONE HELP ME. 16 00:00:52,275 --> 00:00:54,000 GOD, I'M GONNA DIE. 17 00:00:56,448 --> 00:00:58,793 Dr. Nowzaradan: YOU DON'T REALIZE HOW DANGEROUS THE SITUATION IS. 18 00:00:58,793 --> 00:01:02,206 ANYTHING HAPPEN TO YOU -- YOU GET A COLD OR ANYTHING -- 19 00:01:02,206 --> 00:01:03,517 THAT'LL BE THE END. 20 00:01:03,517 --> 00:01:04,793 NOBODY CAN HELP YOU. 21 00:01:04,793 --> 00:01:07,793 --Captions by VITAC-- www.vitac.com 22 00:01:07,793 --> 00:01:10,758 CAPTIONS PAID FOR BY DISCOVERY COMMUNICATIONS 23 00:01:10,758 --> 00:01:17,482 ♪♪ 24 00:01:17,482 --> 00:01:24,241 ♪♪ 25 00:01:24,241 --> 00:01:26,137 Octavia: MY LIFE IS MISERABLE 26 00:01:26,137 --> 00:01:30,310 BECAUSE I'M SO BIG THAT I'M BEDRIDDEN NOW. 27 00:01:30,310 --> 00:01:35,000 AND THE ENTIRETY OF MY BODY JUST HURTS NONSTOP ALL DAY LONG. 28 00:01:37,241 --> 00:01:39,965 AND IT'S SO BAD THAT I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO GET UP 29 00:01:39,965 --> 00:01:41,689 FOR OVER A YEAR NOW. 30 00:01:43,793 --> 00:01:45,241 SO I'VE HAD TO LEARN TO LIVE 31 00:01:45,241 --> 00:01:48,137 IN A WHOLE DIFFERENT WAY THAT'S DEMEANING. 32 00:01:50,827 --> 00:01:52,931 EVEN WHEN I USE THE RESTROOM, I CAN'T GET UP, 33 00:01:52,931 --> 00:01:57,793 SO I HAVE TO USE UNDERPADS. 34 00:01:57,793 --> 00:01:59,000 I FEEL LIKE A DOG. 35 00:02:03,137 --> 00:02:07,137 AND WHEN I'M DONE, MY ROOMMATE, TYISHA, COMES TO GET IT. 36 00:02:07,137 --> 00:02:09,275 BUT I HATE IT BECAUSE IT'S EMBARRASSING 37 00:02:09,275 --> 00:02:12,482 TO HAVE TO HAVE SOMEONE DO THAT FOR YOU. 38 00:02:12,482 --> 00:02:14,655 BUT I HAVE NO CHOICE 39 00:02:14,655 --> 00:02:17,896 BECAUSE I CAN HARDLY DO ANYTHING ON MY OWN. 40 00:02:20,517 --> 00:02:22,517 OKAY. 41 00:02:22,517 --> 00:02:24,034 WHAT DO YOU NEED? DO YOU NEED TOWELS? 42 00:02:26,793 --> 00:02:28,379 OKAY. OKAY. 43 00:02:28,379 --> 00:02:30,827 ONE OF THE ONLY THINGS I'M STILL ABLE TO MANAGE 44 00:02:30,827 --> 00:02:32,551 IS CLEANING MYSELF. 45 00:02:34,862 --> 00:02:36,241 Tyisha: WHEN I FIRST MOVED IN, 46 00:02:36,241 --> 00:02:41,310 OCTAVIA WAS AT LEAST MOBILE INSIDE THE HOUSE. 47 00:02:41,310 --> 00:02:45,344 SHE WOULD COME FROM THE BEDROOM TO THE LIVING ROOM, 48 00:02:45,344 --> 00:02:49,241 BUT ABOUT A YEAR AGO, OCTAVIA GOT STUCK IN THE BED, 49 00:02:49,241 --> 00:02:52,241 AND THE FIRE DEPARTMENT HAD TO COME AND GET HER OUT. 50 00:02:52,241 --> 00:02:55,827 SO NOW WE MOVED OCTAVIA'S BED TO THE LIVING ROOM 51 00:02:55,827 --> 00:02:58,586 BECAUSE WE DIDN'T WANT IT TO BE A SITUATION 52 00:02:58,586 --> 00:03:02,310 WHERE SHE NEEDED HELP AND COULDN'T GET OUT. 53 00:03:02,310 --> 00:03:06,586 Octavia: I TRY MY BEST TO CLEAN MYSELF AS MUCH AS I CAN. 54 00:03:06,586 --> 00:03:10,137 AND THERE ARE SOME DAYS I WANT TO JUST SKIP IT. 55 00:03:10,137 --> 00:03:12,689 BUT IT'S SOMETHING THAT I HAVE TO DO. 56 00:03:12,689 --> 00:03:14,379 BECAUSE IT'S DANGEROUS AT MY SIZE 57 00:03:14,379 --> 00:03:19,655 IF YOU DON'T STAY CLEAN BECAUSE YOUR BODY CHAFES EASILY. 58 00:03:19,655 --> 00:03:22,931 AND THOSE AREAS CAN GET INFECTED. 59 00:03:22,931 --> 00:03:27,517 BUT WHEN I'M BATHING, MY BACK IS JUST ON FIRE. 60 00:03:27,517 --> 00:03:31,448 IT REALLY FEELS LIKE IT'S JUST BURNING. 61 00:03:31,448 --> 00:03:35,068 ANY TYPE OF MOVEMENT, THAT ALL ADDS STRESS ON MY BACK, 62 00:03:35,068 --> 00:03:38,551 AND IT'S EXCRUCIATING. 63 00:03:38,551 --> 00:03:40,586 I HATE IT. 64 00:03:40,586 --> 00:03:42,482 YOU TAKE FOR GRANTED THOSE LITTLE THINGS 65 00:03:42,482 --> 00:03:47,862 LIKE BEING ABLE TO SHOWER AND BATHE YOURSELF, 66 00:03:47,862 --> 00:03:50,827 AND I MISS FEELING HOT WATER 67 00:03:50,827 --> 00:03:55,517 AND JUST BEING ABLE TO ENJOY SIMPLE THINGS LIKE THAT. 68 00:03:55,517 --> 00:03:58,586 BUT THAT'S NOT MY LIFE ANYMORE. 69 00:03:58,586 --> 00:04:01,068 MY LIFE IS THIS BED, 70 00:04:01,068 --> 00:04:05,620 AND ALL I HAVE THE ENERGY TO DO EVERY DAY IS THIS. 71 00:04:05,620 --> 00:04:08,413 I CAN MAYBE SIT UP ONCE. 72 00:04:08,413 --> 00:04:12,482 BUT MOST OF THE TIME, ALL I CAN DO IS LAY HERE IN BED ALL DAY. 73 00:04:12,482 --> 00:04:14,448 AND ALL I DO IS EAT. 74 00:04:14,448 --> 00:04:15,620 YOU READY FOR BREAKFAST? 75 00:04:15,620 --> 00:04:18,517 YES, MA'AM. 76 00:04:18,517 --> 00:04:20,206 THANK YOU, BABE. 77 00:04:23,689 --> 00:04:26,310 EATING IS MY HAPPINESS. 78 00:04:26,310 --> 00:04:30,137 IT MAKES ME FEEL SAFE. 79 00:04:30,137 --> 00:04:33,379 AND IF I COULD, I JUST WOULDN'T STOP. 80 00:04:33,379 --> 00:04:36,310 BECAUSE I LOVE TO EAT. 81 00:04:36,310 --> 00:04:39,310 Tyisha: EATING FOR OCTAVIA MEANS COMFORT. 82 00:04:39,310 --> 00:04:42,172 IT'S SOMETHING SHE DOES TO EASE THE PAIN 83 00:04:42,172 --> 00:04:45,517 AND THE SADNESS THAT IS INSIDE OF HER, 84 00:04:45,517 --> 00:04:47,655 AND IT'S HARD TO WATCH. 85 00:04:47,655 --> 00:04:49,241 IT KILLS ME. 86 00:04:49,241 --> 00:04:55,103 BECAUSE HOW DO YOU SAY TO HER WE HAVE TO DO SOMETHING DIFFERENT? 87 00:04:55,103 --> 00:04:57,241 Octavia: AFTER I FINISH MY MEAL, 88 00:04:57,241 --> 00:05:00,413 I'M ALREADY THINKING ABOUT EATING AGAIN 89 00:05:00,413 --> 00:05:04,241 AND WHAT I'M GONNA HAVE NEXT, AND I CAN'T WAIT. 90 00:05:04,241 --> 00:05:05,965 I'M DONE. 91 00:05:08,103 --> 00:05:09,379 THANK YOU. 92 00:05:09,379 --> 00:05:11,448 Tyisha: WELCOME. 93 00:05:11,448 --> 00:05:14,413 SO FOOD AND MY FAMILY ARE WHAT I LIVE FOR. 94 00:05:14,413 --> 00:05:20,413 ♪♪ 95 00:05:20,413 --> 00:05:24,379 MY SISTER HAS THREE CHILDREN, AND I LOVE BEING THEIR AUNT. 96 00:05:24,379 --> 00:05:28,551 AND THE ONLY TIMES I EVER FEEL HAPPY ARE EITHER WHEN I'M EATING 97 00:05:28,551 --> 00:05:31,137 OR WHEN I SEE THEM. 98 00:05:31,137 --> 00:05:33,689 THEY LIVE NEARBY AND COME OVER ONCE A DAY. 99 00:05:33,689 --> 00:05:35,551 -TITí. -TITí. 100 00:05:35,551 --> 00:05:37,379 -HI! -HI. 101 00:05:37,379 --> 00:05:39,896 OH, LOOK AT YOU GUYS! COME HERE. 102 00:05:39,896 --> 00:05:42,344 HI, TITí. 103 00:05:42,344 --> 00:05:45,034 Octavia: AND IT'S THE ONLY OTHER THING OUTSIDE OF FOOD 104 00:05:45,034 --> 00:05:47,379 I LOOK FORWARD TO. 105 00:05:49,793 --> 00:05:51,241 AND THEY'RE THE ONLY ONES 106 00:05:51,241 --> 00:05:54,827 I'M EVER WILLING TO SHARE MY SNACK STASH WITH. 107 00:05:54,827 --> 00:05:56,620 LET'S SEE. 108 00:05:56,620 --> 00:05:57,965 HERE. THOSE ARE FOR YOU. 109 00:05:57,965 --> 00:05:59,275 -YAY! -[ LAUGHS ] 110 00:05:59,275 --> 00:06:01,620 I KNEW YOU WERE GONNA BE HAPPY. 111 00:06:01,620 --> 00:06:03,482 I LOVE SEEING THE LOOKS ON THEIR FACES 112 00:06:03,482 --> 00:06:06,620 WHEN I GIVE THEM SOMETHING GOOD TO EAT. 113 00:06:06,620 --> 00:06:10,275 FOOD IS HOW I'VE KNOWN LOVE AND IS HOW I SHOW LOVE. 114 00:06:10,275 --> 00:06:14,655 SO THIS MOMENT IS ONE OF THE FEW HIGHLIGHTS OF MY DAY. 115 00:06:14,655 --> 00:06:16,206 THE ONLY DOWN SIDE IS THAT MY SISTER 116 00:06:16,206 --> 00:06:18,206 USUALLY WANTS TO LECTURE ME. 117 00:06:18,206 --> 00:06:22,000 SHE LOOKS AFTER ME FOR A BIT WHILE TYISHA RUNS ERRANDS, 118 00:06:22,000 --> 00:06:23,655 AND SHE'LL TRY TO PUSH ME TO EAT STUFF 119 00:06:23,655 --> 00:06:26,379 I DON'T WANT. 120 00:06:26,379 --> 00:06:29,068 Desire: OKAY, GIVE HER A HUG. ME AND TITí NEED TO TALK. 121 00:06:29,068 --> 00:06:31,241 I WANT YOU GUYS TO GO IN THE BACK ROOM. 122 00:06:31,241 --> 00:06:33,827 -GROUP HUG. -OW. 123 00:06:33,827 --> 00:06:35,586 AND SHE PUSHES ME TO GET UP. 124 00:06:35,586 --> 00:06:40,931 BUT SHE DOESN'T UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH PAIN I'M CONSTANTLY IN. 125 00:06:40,931 --> 00:06:43,448 SO WHEN SHE HAS ONE OF HER TALKS WITH ME, 126 00:06:43,448 --> 00:06:46,206 IT HAS AN OPPOSITE EFFECT. 127 00:06:46,206 --> 00:06:48,172 DID YOU GET UP TODAY? 128 00:06:48,172 --> 00:06:50,206 DON'T START WITH ME. 129 00:06:50,206 --> 00:06:52,827 I'M JUST SAYING. 130 00:06:52,827 --> 00:06:54,965 NO, I DIDN'T GET UP. 131 00:06:54,965 --> 00:06:56,379 LEAVE ME ALONE. 132 00:06:56,379 --> 00:06:57,724 MM. 133 00:06:57,724 --> 00:06:59,103 SO, WHAT ARE WE GONNA HAVE FOR LUNCH? 134 00:06:59,103 --> 00:07:02,724 A SOUTHWEST SALAD SOUNDS AMAZING. 135 00:07:02,724 --> 00:07:05,275 I WANT SOME BARBECUE. 136 00:07:05,275 --> 00:07:06,517 DON'T YOU WANT SOME? 137 00:07:06,517 --> 00:07:08,241 I WOULD RATHER HAVE A SALAD, YOU KNOW. 138 00:07:08,241 --> 00:07:09,379 I WANT THE BARBECUE PLACE, 139 00:07:09,379 --> 00:07:10,862 SO THAT'S WHAT I'M GONNA GET. 140 00:07:10,862 --> 00:07:12,103 YOU CAN BURN IT OFF TOMORROW. 141 00:07:12,103 --> 00:07:13,482 DON'T GET CUTE WITH ME. 142 00:07:13,482 --> 00:07:15,931 EITHER YOU CAN GET IT, OR I CAN HAVE TYISHA GET IT, 143 00:07:15,931 --> 00:07:17,965 BUT THERE'S NO REASON YOU CAN'T DO IT. 144 00:07:20,724 --> 00:07:22,827 Desire: I WORRY ABOUT HER A LOT. 145 00:07:22,827 --> 00:07:24,965 SO MUCH SO I KNOW PEOPLE WOULD SAY, 146 00:07:24,965 --> 00:07:27,000 "WELL, WHY DO YOU BRING HER THE STUFF," 147 00:07:27,000 --> 00:07:29,000 OR, "YOU KNOW SHE HAS A PROBLEM," 148 00:07:29,000 --> 00:07:31,137 BUT WHEN YOU'RE CONFINED TO YOUR HOME 149 00:07:31,137 --> 00:07:33,793 AND YOU REALLY CAN'T DO ANYTHING ELSE, 150 00:07:33,793 --> 00:07:37,379 THIS IS THE LITTLE BIT OF JOY THAT SHE DOES HAVE, 151 00:07:37,379 --> 00:07:41,103 AND WHATEVER I DON'T GET, SHE'LL FIND SOMEONE ELSE TO GET. 152 00:07:43,758 --> 00:07:46,896 SO WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM THE BARBECUE PLACE? 153 00:07:46,896 --> 00:07:51,344 I WANT THAT COMBO WITH THE RIBS. 154 00:07:51,344 --> 00:07:52,758 EXTRA PICKLES. 155 00:07:52,758 --> 00:07:54,586 SOMETIMES THEY'RE SKIMPY WITH THE FRENCH FRIES. 156 00:07:54,586 --> 00:07:56,586 SO YOU WANT A SIDE ORDER OF FRIES? 157 00:07:56,586 --> 00:07:58,344 I DO. OKAY, THANKS, BABY. 158 00:07:58,344 --> 00:08:01,137 MM. 159 00:08:01,137 --> 00:08:02,551 OKAY. I'LL BE BACK. 160 00:08:02,551 --> 00:08:03,724 -ALL RIGHT, BABE. -ALL RIGHT. 161 00:08:03,724 --> 00:08:06,586 -BYE. -BYE. 162 00:08:06,586 --> 00:08:09,344 BYE! WE'RE LEAVING NOW -- GOING. 163 00:08:09,344 --> 00:08:13,965 Octavia: I'M JUST AS SCARED ABOUT HOW I AM AS MY SISTER IS. 164 00:08:13,965 --> 00:08:16,413 BUT THIS IS HOW I'VE BEEN FOR A LONG TIME, 165 00:08:16,413 --> 00:08:19,206 AND I DON'T KNOW HOW TO CHANGE THAT. 166 00:08:19,206 --> 00:08:21,689 IF I CAN GO BACK IN TIME AND UNDO IT ALL, 167 00:08:21,689 --> 00:08:25,517 I WOULD IN A HEARTBEAT, BUT I CAN'T. 168 00:08:25,517 --> 00:08:27,275 THE PAST IS THE PAST. 169 00:08:31,586 --> 00:08:34,551 MY EARLY CHILDHOOD WAS HAPPY, 170 00:08:34,551 --> 00:08:39,551 AND I WAS KIND OF A NORMAL SIZE UNTIL AROUND THE THIRD GRADE. 171 00:08:39,551 --> 00:08:41,275 BECAUSE WHEN I WAS AROUND 8, 172 00:08:41,275 --> 00:08:45,068 THAT'S WHEN I REMEMBER THINGS GETTING HARDER FOR ME. 173 00:08:45,068 --> 00:08:47,344 IT STARTED WHEN MY PARENTS SEPARATED, 174 00:08:47,344 --> 00:08:51,379 AND IT WAS VERY, VERY DIFFICULT. 175 00:08:51,379 --> 00:08:55,827 BUT AFTER THAT, IT WAS JUST ME, MY SISTER, AND MY MOM. 176 00:08:55,827 --> 00:08:58,793 MY MOM, NOW BEING A SINGLE MOTHER, 177 00:08:58,793 --> 00:09:02,068 SHE WORKED A LOT TRYING TO SUPPORT US 178 00:09:02,068 --> 00:09:04,517 BECAUSE MY DAD WASN'T AROUND MUCH AFTER THAT, 179 00:09:04,517 --> 00:09:06,620 AND I JUST COULDN'T SEE HOW HE COULD JUST VANISH 180 00:09:06,620 --> 00:09:08,793 FROM OUR LIFE LIKE HE DID. 181 00:09:08,793 --> 00:09:11,275 IT WAS HURTFUL, AND I CAN REMEMBER CRYING MYSELF 182 00:09:11,275 --> 00:09:16,655 TO SLEEP MANY NIGHTS, WONDERING WHERE MY DAD WAS. 183 00:09:16,655 --> 00:09:19,344 BUT FOOD MADE ME FEEL BETTER, 184 00:09:19,344 --> 00:09:21,965 AND THAT'S WHEN MY WEIGHT GAIN STARTED. 185 00:09:21,965 --> 00:09:24,586 I REMEMBER THE NEXT YEAR GOING TO THE DOCTOR 186 00:09:24,586 --> 00:09:27,931 AND FINDING OUT I WAS UP TO 130 POUNDS. 187 00:09:30,344 --> 00:09:31,965 I WAS MORE THAN DOUBLE THE WEIGHT 188 00:09:31,965 --> 00:09:34,103 I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE AT FOR MY AGE, 189 00:09:34,103 --> 00:09:35,862 AND THAT WAS A BIG SHOCK. 190 00:09:35,862 --> 00:09:40,275 BUT IT DIDN'T STOP ME FROM GOING TO FOOD AND GAINING EVEN MORE, 191 00:09:40,275 --> 00:09:43,413 BECAUSE THINGS CONTINUED TO GET WORSE FOR ME, 192 00:09:43,413 --> 00:09:45,931 AND FOOD WAS THE ONLY ESCAPE I HAD, 193 00:09:45,931 --> 00:09:49,448 BECAUSE AT 9, MY MOM STARTED DATING SOMEONE NEW, 194 00:09:49,448 --> 00:09:53,413 AND IT WAS AN ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIP. 195 00:09:53,413 --> 00:09:55,758 SO I WAS CONSTANTLY SCARED FOR HER 196 00:09:55,758 --> 00:09:58,896 'CAUSE I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT WAS GONNA HAPPEN NEXT. 197 00:09:58,896 --> 00:10:01,758 AND I REMEMBER I'D HIDE BUTCHER KNIVES ALL AROUND THE HOUSE 198 00:10:01,758 --> 00:10:03,896 SO I COULD HAVE SOMETHING TO DEFEND MYSELF 199 00:10:03,896 --> 00:10:06,517 AND MY MOM IF I HAD TO. 200 00:10:06,517 --> 00:10:08,275 AND TO DEAL WITH ALL MY FEAR, 201 00:10:08,275 --> 00:10:11,724 I JUST ATE CONSTANTLY DURING THAT TIME, 202 00:10:11,724 --> 00:10:17,413 AND I JUST REMEMBER GETTING BIGGER AND BIGGER AND BIGGER. 203 00:10:17,413 --> 00:10:21,551 AND I WAS UP TO 200 POUNDS BY THE TIME I WAS 11. 204 00:10:21,551 --> 00:10:24,068 BUT THE ONLY THING I'M THANKFUL FOR FROM ALL THAT 205 00:10:24,068 --> 00:10:25,482 IS MY MOM GOT PREGNANT 206 00:10:25,482 --> 00:10:28,896 AND HAD MY SISTER DESIRE WHEN SHE WAS WITH HIM. 207 00:10:28,896 --> 00:10:31,310 BUT OTHER THAN THAT, NOTHING GOOD CAME OUT OF 208 00:10:31,310 --> 00:10:33,310 HER BEING WITH HIM, 209 00:10:33,310 --> 00:10:37,000 AND IT ACTUALLY GOT TO A POINT WHERE HE TRIED TO KILL HER, 210 00:10:37,000 --> 00:10:39,137 AND AT THAT POINT, MY MOM FINALLY KNEW 211 00:10:39,137 --> 00:10:40,862 THAT SHE NEEDED TO LEAVE HIM. 212 00:10:43,206 --> 00:10:45,758 SO, ONCE AGAIN, MY MOM HAD TO TAKE CARE OF ME 213 00:10:45,758 --> 00:10:48,793 AND MY SISTER ON HER OWN, AND IT MEANT SHE'D HAVE TO START 214 00:10:48,793 --> 00:10:51,448 WORKING LONG HOURS AGAIN TO PROVIDE FOR US. 215 00:10:51,448 --> 00:10:53,896 BUT OUR NEIGHBOR, WHICH WAS A FRIEND OF THE FAMILY, 216 00:10:53,896 --> 00:10:57,241 AGREED TO WATCH US WHEN SHE DID, 217 00:10:57,241 --> 00:10:59,034 AND HE STARTED TO RAPE ME 218 00:10:59,034 --> 00:11:02,000 EVERY TIME WE WENT OVER TO HIS PLACE. 219 00:11:02,000 --> 00:11:03,724 HE TOOK MY VIRGINITY. 220 00:11:05,862 --> 00:11:11,034 AND WHEN HE WAS DONE, HE GAVE ME $50. 221 00:11:11,034 --> 00:11:13,793 I COULDN'T TELL ANYBODY. I FELT SO ASHAMED. 222 00:11:13,793 --> 00:11:17,896 I FELT LIKE, "WHY DID THIS HAPPEN TO ME?" 223 00:11:17,896 --> 00:11:22,517 I'M NOT UNDERSTANDING WHAT'S GOING ON. 224 00:11:22,517 --> 00:11:24,517 AND AFTER EACH INSTANCE, HE GAVE ME MONEY 225 00:11:24,517 --> 00:11:26,620 TO TRY AND MAKE IT BETTER. 226 00:11:26,620 --> 00:11:27,931 I'M LOOKING AT MY MOM, 227 00:11:27,931 --> 00:11:30,517 WHO'S WORKING HARD TO SUPPORT US. 228 00:11:30,517 --> 00:11:34,517 I HAVE ENOUGH MONEY IN MY POCKET TO PAY A BILL, 229 00:11:34,517 --> 00:11:37,379 AND I CAN'T TELL HER WHERE THAT MONEY CAME FROM. 230 00:11:37,379 --> 00:11:40,586 MY WAY OF HIDING THE MONEY WAS TO BUY FOOD, 231 00:11:40,586 --> 00:11:43,689 AND I REMEMBER HAVING BAGS OF CANDY -- 232 00:11:43,689 --> 00:11:47,000 LIKE A LUNCH BAG FULL OF CHOCOLATE, 233 00:11:47,000 --> 00:11:49,172 AND AT NIGHT WHEN I'M ALONE, 234 00:11:49,172 --> 00:11:52,379 I WOULD JUST EAT CANDY. 235 00:11:52,379 --> 00:11:53,793 I JUST WANTED TO ESCAPE. 236 00:11:53,793 --> 00:11:56,413 ALL THAT GUILT AND SHAME AND FEAR, 237 00:11:56,413 --> 00:11:58,827 AND ALL THAT WENT ON FOR A FEW YEARS, 238 00:11:58,827 --> 00:12:02,310 AND IN THAT TIME, I PUT ON ANOTHER 100 POUNDS 239 00:12:02,310 --> 00:12:05,379 AND WAS OVER 300 BY THE TIME I WAS 13. 240 00:12:05,379 --> 00:12:07,689 BUT THE ABUSE STOPPED WHEN I WAS 13 241 00:12:07,689 --> 00:12:09,655 BECAUSE THAT'S WHEN MY MOM FOUND OUT. 242 00:12:11,862 --> 00:12:14,793 BUT I COULDN'T EVER GET BACK WHAT HAD BEEN TAKEN FROM ME. 243 00:12:14,793 --> 00:12:18,862 SO I GAINED ANOTHER 100 POUNDS OVER THREE YEARS AGAIN 244 00:12:18,862 --> 00:12:23,000 AND GOT OVER 400 WHEN I WAS 16. 245 00:12:23,000 --> 00:12:26,344 MY WEIGHT WAS STARTING TO SPIRAL OUT OF CONTROL. 246 00:12:26,344 --> 00:12:30,068 BUT IT WAS ONLY GONNA GET WORSE. 247 00:12:30,068 --> 00:12:33,310 AT 16, I HAD NO CONTACT WITH MY DAD, 248 00:12:33,310 --> 00:12:40,068 AND MY MOM EXPLAINED TO ME THAT MY DAD WASN'T MY DAD. 249 00:12:42,448 --> 00:12:45,586 SO THIS PERSON THAT I LOVED SO MUCH, 250 00:12:45,586 --> 00:12:50,103 THIS PERSON THAT I HAD BEEN CRYING FOR WASN'T MY FATHER. 251 00:12:50,103 --> 00:12:53,482 I HAD NEVER EVEN MET MY REAL FATHER. 252 00:12:53,482 --> 00:12:57,275 AFTER SHE TOLD ME THAT, I WAS JUST ANGRY. 253 00:12:57,275 --> 00:12:59,965 I WAS SO MAD. 254 00:12:59,965 --> 00:13:04,482 BECAUSE AT THIS POINT, I FELT ABANDONED BY TWO DADS, YOU KNOW? 255 00:13:04,482 --> 00:13:06,620 AND EVERYONE KNEW. 256 00:13:06,620 --> 00:13:11,310 I FELT LIKE EVERYONE ALLOWED ME TO JUST CONTINUE TO LIVE A LIE. 257 00:13:11,310 --> 00:13:14,448 SO I FELT BETRAYED BY MY FAMILY. 258 00:13:14,448 --> 00:13:19,000 SO I JUST KEPT EATING AND GETTING EVEN BIGGER EVERY DAY. 259 00:13:19,000 --> 00:13:22,241 AND BY MY EARLY 20s, I WAS 500 POUNDS, 260 00:13:22,241 --> 00:13:25,275 AND I STARTED TO OUTGROW CLOTHES THAT COULD FIT ME. 261 00:13:27,758 --> 00:13:29,896 BUT I DIDN'T HAVE TIME TO WORRY ABOUT THAT, 262 00:13:29,896 --> 00:13:31,275 BECAUSE WHEN I WAS 23, 263 00:13:31,275 --> 00:13:34,379 MY MOM SUDDENLY PASSED AWAY IN HER SLEEP. 264 00:13:34,379 --> 00:13:37,586 AT THAT TIME, MY SISTER, DESIRE, WAS STILL IN HIGH SCHOOL, 265 00:13:37,586 --> 00:13:41,655 AND IT FELL ON ME TO SUPPORT HER BECAUSE I WAS ALL SHE HAD. 266 00:13:41,655 --> 00:13:43,413 SO I DIDN'T GRIEVE FOR MY MOM 267 00:13:43,413 --> 00:13:47,965 BECAUSE I HAD TO TAKE CARE OF A 15-YEAR-OLD. 268 00:13:47,965 --> 00:13:50,827 OUR LIVES CHANGED AFTER MY MOM DIED. 269 00:13:50,827 --> 00:13:54,517 BUT MY SISTER, SHE WENT, AND SHE GOT A JOB, 270 00:13:54,517 --> 00:13:57,103 AND SHE TOOK GREAT CARE OF ME. 271 00:13:57,103 --> 00:13:58,965 I NEVER WANTED FOR ANYTHING. 272 00:14:01,241 --> 00:14:03,655 Octavia: STEPPING UP AND TAKING CARE OF MY LITTLE SISTER 273 00:14:03,655 --> 00:14:06,379 IS ONE OF THE THINGS IN MY LIFE THAT I AM MOST PROUD OF 274 00:14:06,379 --> 00:14:09,413 BECAUSE MY SISTER, SHE MADE IT. 275 00:14:09,413 --> 00:14:11,413 SHE WASN'T A STATISTIC. 276 00:14:11,413 --> 00:14:13,586 BUT ONCE DESIRE GRADUATED HIGH SCHOOL 277 00:14:13,586 --> 00:14:15,724 AND DECIDED TO MOVE OUT ON HER OWN, 278 00:14:15,724 --> 00:14:19,000 I STARTED FEELING THE BLOW OF LOSING MY MOM. 279 00:14:21,206 --> 00:14:22,620 I WAS 30 AT THAT TIME, 280 00:14:22,620 --> 00:14:24,931 AND THAT'S WHEN I STARTED GAINING AGAIN, 281 00:14:24,931 --> 00:14:27,275 AND IT STARTED TO GET HARDER FOR ME TO GET AROUND. 282 00:14:27,275 --> 00:14:32,379 SO DESIRE SAID I COULD MOVE IN WITH HER AND HER FAMILY. 283 00:14:32,379 --> 00:14:33,620 SHE HAD GOTTEN MARRIED 284 00:14:33,620 --> 00:14:36,068 AND HAD A CHILD DURING THAT TIME, 285 00:14:36,068 --> 00:14:38,724 AND THE DEAL WAS I COULD HELP OUT WATCHING MY NEPHEW, 286 00:14:38,724 --> 00:14:40,724 AND SHE WOULD HELP ME WHEN I NEEDED A HAND 287 00:14:40,724 --> 00:14:44,758 DOING ANYTHING THAT WAS TOO HARD FOR ME TO DO. 288 00:14:44,758 --> 00:14:46,655 WHEN OCTAVIA MOVED IN, 289 00:14:46,655 --> 00:14:50,448 I NOTICED THAT THE AMOUNT OF ACTIVITY 290 00:14:50,448 --> 00:14:53,000 THAT OCTAVIA WAS GETTING DIMINISHED, 291 00:14:53,000 --> 00:14:56,620 AND IT WAS MORE DIFFICULT FOR HER TO MANEUVER AROUND. 292 00:14:58,586 --> 00:15:00,206 Octavia: OVER THE NEXT FIVE YEARS, 293 00:15:00,206 --> 00:15:02,448 DESIRE HAD TWO MORE KIDS, 294 00:15:02,448 --> 00:15:05,034 AND LOOKING AFTER THEM AND SPENDING TIME WITH THEM 295 00:15:05,034 --> 00:15:07,551 WAS THE BEST PART OF MY DAY ASIDE FROM EATING. 296 00:15:09,655 --> 00:15:13,965 BUT WHEN I HIT 39, MY WEIGHT GOT OVER 600 POUNDS, 297 00:15:13,965 --> 00:15:16,758 AND I GOT TO WHERE IT WAS HARD TO GET OUT OF BED. 298 00:15:16,758 --> 00:15:19,551 SO I REALLY COULDN'T WATCH THEM ANYMORE, 299 00:15:19,551 --> 00:15:22,551 AND AS MUCH AS I DIDN'T WANT TO, I MOVED OUT. 300 00:15:25,000 --> 00:15:26,586 BUT WITH MY WEIGHT GETTING WORSE 301 00:15:26,586 --> 00:15:29,689 TO THE POINT WHERE I'M NOW COMPLETELY BEDRIDDEN, 302 00:15:29,689 --> 00:15:33,034 DESIRE HAD TO START COMING BY EVERY DAY TO TAKE CARE OF ME, 303 00:15:33,034 --> 00:15:35,275 WHICH IS WHAT I DIDN'T WANT TO HAPPEN. 304 00:15:37,896 --> 00:15:39,517 BUT, EVENTUALLY, MY BEST FRIEND, TYISHA, 305 00:15:39,517 --> 00:15:42,448 SAID SHE'D MOVE IN WITH ME AND HELP ME, 306 00:15:42,448 --> 00:15:45,379 AND MY FRIEND NICHELLE WOULD HELP OUT SOMETIMES, TOO. 307 00:15:45,379 --> 00:15:47,862 SO THE RESPONSIBILITY OF TAKING CARE OF ME 308 00:15:47,862 --> 00:15:51,137 WASN'T ALL ON MY SISTER. 309 00:15:51,137 --> 00:15:54,586 BUT MY WORLD IS THIS BED AND THIS ROOM NOW. 310 00:15:54,586 --> 00:15:56,206 OKAY, SISTER. 311 00:15:56,206 --> 00:15:59,034 I GOT YOUR BARBECUE. 312 00:15:59,034 --> 00:16:01,586 THANK YOU. 313 00:16:01,586 --> 00:16:03,413 THIS ISN'T A LIFE. 314 00:16:05,551 --> 00:16:08,137 I'M NOT REALLY LIVING. 315 00:16:08,137 --> 00:16:10,758 I'M EXISTING. 316 00:16:10,758 --> 00:16:13,206 I'M NOT ABLE TO EXPERIENCE THE THINGS 317 00:16:13,206 --> 00:16:17,379 THAT I WANT TO DO, PLACES I WANT TO GO. 318 00:16:17,379 --> 00:16:19,172 I FEEL LIKE I'M IN JAIL. 319 00:16:21,448 --> 00:16:23,724 BUT I'M STILL GAINING, AND AT THIS POINT, 320 00:16:23,724 --> 00:16:27,206 I DON'T KNOW WHERE MY WEIGHT'S AT. 321 00:16:27,206 --> 00:16:29,620 AND I'M SCARED TO FIND OUT. 322 00:16:29,620 --> 00:16:32,344 I JUST KNOW IT'S WORSE THAN EVER. 323 00:16:32,344 --> 00:16:34,689 'CAUSE I CAN'T STOP EATING. 324 00:16:38,793 --> 00:16:41,103 FOOD IS WHAT I'M LIVING FOR RIGHT NOW 325 00:16:41,103 --> 00:16:44,620 EVEN THOUGH I KNOW IT'S KILLING ME. 326 00:16:44,620 --> 00:16:46,655 SO ONCE I FINISH ONE MEAL, 327 00:16:46,655 --> 00:16:49,137 I'M ALREADY WORKING ON GETTING THE NEXT ONE. 328 00:16:49,137 --> 00:16:51,655 [ Line ringing ] 329 00:16:51,655 --> 00:16:54,448 -Hello. -HEY, NICHELLE. 330 00:16:54,448 --> 00:16:56,551 -Hi. -HOW ARE YOU DOING? 331 00:16:56,551 --> 00:16:57,689 NICHELLE: Good. I'm okay. 332 00:16:57,689 --> 00:16:59,827 YOU GONNA BRING ME SOMETHING? 333 00:16:59,827 --> 00:17:02,862 Yeah, I'll bring you some snacks. 334 00:17:02,862 --> 00:17:04,689 Be there shortly. -OKAY, BABE. 335 00:17:07,310 --> 00:17:08,586 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] 336 00:17:08,586 --> 00:17:10,310 COME IN. 337 00:17:10,310 --> 00:17:13,172 HEY, BABY. -HEY. HOW ARE YOU? 338 00:17:13,172 --> 00:17:14,310 I'M OKAY. 339 00:17:14,310 --> 00:17:17,931 I GOT SOME SNACKS FOR YOU. 340 00:17:17,931 --> 00:17:19,137 WHEN I FIRST MET OCTAVIA, 341 00:17:19,137 --> 00:17:22,172 SHE WOULD BUY ALL THE KIDS TREATS AND CANDY. 342 00:17:22,172 --> 00:17:24,206 I WAS ONE OF THOSE KIDS SHE BOUGHT THE TREATS 343 00:17:24,206 --> 00:17:25,655 AND THE CANDY FOR, 344 00:17:25,655 --> 00:17:29,724 SO I THINK THAT'S KIND OF WHERE WE CONNECTED AT. 345 00:17:29,724 --> 00:17:33,137 WE LOVE FOOD, SO IF OCTAVIA CALLS ME AND WANTS SOMETHING, 346 00:17:33,137 --> 00:17:35,724 I WILL FIND A WAY TO GET IT TO HER 347 00:17:35,724 --> 00:17:37,724 BECAUSE I WANT TO SEE HER HAPPY. 348 00:17:37,724 --> 00:17:41,827 OH, I BROUGHT YOU SOME CHIPS AND SOME POP. 349 00:17:41,827 --> 00:17:42,965 I GOT CHOCOLATE IN THE BOTTOM. 350 00:17:42,965 --> 00:17:45,724 WHAT IS THIS? 351 00:17:45,724 --> 00:17:47,137 -PIZZA. -PIZZA? 352 00:17:47,137 --> 00:17:48,517 WE MADE. 353 00:17:48,517 --> 00:17:50,793 -YOU MADE IT? -YEAH. 354 00:17:50,793 --> 00:17:53,551 Octavia: THERE'S NEVER A MOMENT I DON'T WANT TO EAT. 355 00:17:53,551 --> 00:17:56,034 I EAT WHEN I'M HAPPY. 356 00:17:56,034 --> 00:17:58,172 I EAT WHEN I'M SAD. 357 00:17:58,172 --> 00:18:01,344 I DON'T CARE HOW MANY CALORIES I'M PUTTING IN MY BODY 358 00:18:01,344 --> 00:18:04,034 OR WHAT I'M DOING TO MYSELF. 359 00:18:04,034 --> 00:18:06,724 BUT I KNOW I CAN'T KEEP DOING THIS 360 00:18:06,724 --> 00:18:08,827 BECAUSE I'VE GOTTEN SO BIG NOW 361 00:18:08,827 --> 00:18:10,758 THAT I'M AT THE POINT WHERE MY WEIGHT 362 00:18:10,758 --> 00:18:13,344 IS LITERALLY CRUSHING MY BODY. 363 00:18:13,344 --> 00:18:15,689 I KNOW BECAUSE I CAN FEEL IT EVERY DAY, 364 00:18:15,689 --> 00:18:17,413 AND IT'S GETTING WORSE. 365 00:18:21,310 --> 00:18:24,000 Nichelle: FOOD -- IT'S BEEN A COMFORT FOR HER, 366 00:18:24,000 --> 00:18:27,241 AND IT JUST HAS DROVE OCTAVIA'S WEIGHT 367 00:18:27,241 --> 00:18:29,827 TO THE POINT WHERE IT IS NOW. 368 00:18:29,827 --> 00:18:32,034 BUT I'M AFRAID MY FRIEND IS GONNA DIE. 369 00:18:32,034 --> 00:18:34,172 I DON'T WANT TO HAVE TO BURY HER. 370 00:18:36,586 --> 00:18:40,793 Octavia: FOOD HAS ALREADY TAKEN EVERYTHING FROM ME. 371 00:18:40,793 --> 00:18:45,310 THE ONLY THING THAT'S LEFT IS MY ACTUAL LIFE. 372 00:18:45,310 --> 00:18:47,068 AND I DON'T WANT TO DIE. 373 00:18:52,172 --> 00:18:59,758 ♪♪ 374 00:18:59,758 --> 00:19:07,413 ♪♪ 375 00:19:07,413 --> 00:19:10,689 Octavia: I KNOW MY BODY'S GETTING TO A BREAKING POINT. 376 00:19:10,689 --> 00:19:14,000 I CAN FEEL IT GETTING WORSE EVERY DAY. 377 00:19:14,000 --> 00:19:18,793 SO I'M RUNNING OUT OF TIME, AND I'M NOT READY TO DIE. 378 00:19:18,793 --> 00:19:21,862 I REACHED OUT TO DR. NOW'S OFFICE IN HOUSTON, 379 00:19:21,862 --> 00:19:24,862 AND THEY SET A VIDEO CALL WITH ME TO TALK TO HIM 380 00:19:24,862 --> 00:19:28,689 BECAUSE HE MAY BE MY ONLY HOPE AT THIS POINT. 381 00:19:28,689 --> 00:19:31,448 FOR YEARS, I WAS TERRIFIED TO GO TO THE DOCTOR. 382 00:19:31,448 --> 00:19:33,517 LIKE, I WOULD GO WITHOUT HEALTHCARE FOR YEARS 383 00:19:33,517 --> 00:19:35,896 BECAUSE ANY TIME YOU GO TO THE DOCTOR, 384 00:19:35,896 --> 00:19:38,206 EVERYTHING'S YOUR WEIGHT, OR THEY'RE MEAN TO YOU. 385 00:19:38,206 --> 00:19:39,793 YOU KNOW, THEY JUST GIVE YOU A PILL. 386 00:19:39,793 --> 00:19:42,896 NOTHING EVER HELPS OR THERE'S NO SOLUTIONS. 387 00:19:42,896 --> 00:19:45,827 BUT I KNOW DR. NOW ISN'T LIKE THAT, 388 00:19:45,827 --> 00:19:49,827 AND I DEFINITELY WANT THIS PHONE CALL TO BE IT FOR ME, 389 00:19:49,827 --> 00:19:54,793 BUT IF DR. NOW TURNS ME DOWN, I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'LL DO. 390 00:19:58,517 --> 00:19:59,586 DR. NOWZARADAN: Hi, Octavia. 391 00:19:59,586 --> 00:20:01,896 HI, DR. NOW. 392 00:20:01,896 --> 00:20:03,344 How are you? 393 00:20:03,344 --> 00:20:04,896 I'M PRETTY GOOD. 394 00:20:04,896 --> 00:20:06,413 It's good to meet you. 395 00:20:06,413 --> 00:20:07,896 SAME. 396 00:20:07,896 --> 00:20:10,068 So, let's talk about some things 397 00:20:10,068 --> 00:20:12,620 so I can understand your situation. 398 00:20:12,620 --> 00:20:13,689 OKAY. 399 00:20:13,689 --> 00:20:15,724 How is your mobility? 400 00:20:15,724 --> 00:20:20,034 UM, RIGHT NOW, IT'S VERY LIMITED -- 401 00:20:20,034 --> 00:20:22,517 ALMOST NONEXISTENT. 402 00:20:22,517 --> 00:20:25,793 I CAN'T REALLY GET AROUND OR ANYTHING. 403 00:20:25,793 --> 00:20:28,172 So you're staying in the bed most of the time? 404 00:20:28,172 --> 00:20:29,482 YES. 405 00:20:29,482 --> 00:20:32,172 Are you able to stand up or walk? 406 00:20:32,172 --> 00:20:35,068 -NO, NOT AT THIS TIME. -Okay. 407 00:20:35,068 --> 00:20:37,379 How long have you been bedridden? 408 00:20:37,379 --> 00:20:38,896 A FEW YEARS. 409 00:20:38,896 --> 00:20:41,241 Do you know how much you weigh now? 410 00:20:41,241 --> 00:20:44,241 THE LAST TIME I WAS WEIGHED, I WAS 652. 411 00:20:44,241 --> 00:20:46,172 How long ago was that? 412 00:20:46,172 --> 00:20:47,793 A FEW YEARS. 413 00:20:47,793 --> 00:20:50,068 You think you've gained since that time 414 00:20:50,068 --> 00:20:51,793 or you have lost any weight? 415 00:20:51,793 --> 00:20:53,931 I'VE PROBABLY GAINED. 416 00:20:53,931 --> 00:20:56,448 You look to be close to 700 pounds. 417 00:20:56,448 --> 00:20:58,931 So I would agree that you've been gaining. 418 00:20:58,931 --> 00:21:00,275 What do you eat right now? 419 00:21:00,275 --> 00:21:02,931 CHIPS, CANDY. 420 00:21:02,931 --> 00:21:04,655 Who buys those chips? 421 00:21:04,655 --> 00:21:05,931 MY BEST FRIEND. 422 00:21:05,931 --> 00:21:10,172 If your friend buying those chips for you, 423 00:21:10,172 --> 00:21:11,965 I wouldn't call her best friend. 424 00:21:11,965 --> 00:21:13,482 That's not best friend, okay? 425 00:21:13,482 --> 00:21:16,482 A best friend will help you to lose weight, 426 00:21:16,482 --> 00:21:18,551 not give you bad food. 427 00:21:18,551 --> 00:21:20,034 YEAH. 428 00:21:20,034 --> 00:21:24,482 Who does your cooking and preparing the food? 429 00:21:24,482 --> 00:21:25,586 MY BEST FRIEND. SHE DOES. 430 00:21:25,586 --> 00:21:27,862 SHE'S MY CARETAKER, AS WELL. 431 00:21:27,862 --> 00:21:32,068 So you're likely between 650 to 700 pounds, 432 00:21:32,068 --> 00:21:34,379 and you've been bedridden for a few years, 433 00:21:34,379 --> 00:21:38,137 and you have an enabler taking care of you all day. 434 00:21:38,137 --> 00:21:39,482 RIGHT. 435 00:21:39,482 --> 00:21:41,931 Statistically, we know that you only have a year 436 00:21:41,931 --> 00:21:45,793 or so left to live at this point, okay? 437 00:21:45,793 --> 00:21:49,965 This is a very bad situation if we don't correct it right away. 438 00:21:49,965 --> 00:21:51,310 RIGHT. 439 00:21:51,310 --> 00:21:54,103 So, do you think you need to make some changes? 440 00:21:54,103 --> 00:21:56,379 YES. I WANT TO. 441 00:21:56,379 --> 00:21:58,137 All right, so I'm going to send you a list 442 00:21:58,137 --> 00:22:01,241 of all healthy foods that you should be eating, 443 00:22:01,241 --> 00:22:05,137 And, basically, you need to be on a 1,200-calorie-a-day diet, 444 00:22:05,137 --> 00:22:08,517 high protein, low carb, and only eat three times a day. 445 00:22:08,517 --> 00:22:10,655 No snacking. -MM-HMM. 446 00:22:10,655 --> 00:22:12,620 Okay? And if you stick with this diet, 447 00:22:12,620 --> 00:22:15,655 you're gonna be able to lose 50 pounds easily in one month. 448 00:22:15,655 --> 00:22:16,896 Okay? -OKAY. 449 00:22:16,896 --> 00:22:19,379 And we are gonna find a local clinic 450 00:22:19,379 --> 00:22:22,275 so we can check your weight to track your weight loss 451 00:22:22,275 --> 00:22:24,068 and get some tests run on you 452 00:22:24,068 --> 00:22:26,965 before we consider bringing you to Houston. 453 00:22:26,965 --> 00:22:31,344 I DEFINITELY WOULD LIKE TO COME AND MOVE TO HOUSTON 454 00:22:31,344 --> 00:22:32,931 AND JOIN YOUR PROGRAM. 455 00:22:32,931 --> 00:22:35,862 You live in Kansas City, Missouri? 456 00:22:35,862 --> 00:22:37,551 -YES. -Okay. 457 00:22:37,551 --> 00:22:40,793 Well, that looks to be an 11- to 12-hour drive, 458 00:22:40,793 --> 00:22:43,827 and that's gonna be too risky in your situation. 459 00:22:43,827 --> 00:22:46,758 You could easily develop blood clots in your leg 460 00:22:46,758 --> 00:22:48,689 that would likely be deadly for you, 461 00:22:48,689 --> 00:22:53,206 and being bedridden increases those odds significantly. 462 00:22:53,206 --> 00:22:56,862 So I'm going to send you some exercises that you can do. 463 00:22:56,862 --> 00:22:58,137 OKAY. 464 00:22:58,137 --> 00:23:00,344 You need to start to build up your stamina 465 00:23:00,344 --> 00:23:05,103 and make sure that you can be mobile during the transport 466 00:23:05,103 --> 00:23:08,344 and you're not gonna be fully stationary 467 00:23:08,344 --> 00:23:10,827 and laying down for 12 hours. 468 00:23:10,827 --> 00:23:12,758 Okay? -OKAY. 469 00:23:12,758 --> 00:23:14,827 So that is important that we make sure 470 00:23:14,827 --> 00:23:19,034 that we provide a safe transport to Houston. 471 00:23:19,034 --> 00:23:21,137 -OKAY. -But if we bring you down, 472 00:23:21,137 --> 00:23:24,482 you're also gonna need someone to move down here with you. 473 00:23:24,482 --> 00:23:26,413 Because you're gonna need some support system 474 00:23:26,413 --> 00:23:27,965 because you're not mobile, 475 00:23:27,965 --> 00:23:31,103 and you won't be able to handle everything by yourself. 476 00:23:31,103 --> 00:23:32,586 RIGHT. 477 00:23:32,586 --> 00:23:35,586 Do you have someone other than your enabling best friend 478 00:23:35,586 --> 00:23:36,655 who can do that? 479 00:23:36,655 --> 00:23:38,724 -YES. -Okay. 480 00:23:38,724 --> 00:23:40,344 All right. I have to get back. 481 00:23:40,344 --> 00:23:44,758 If you have any issues, call me, and I'll be checking on you 482 00:23:44,758 --> 00:23:46,620 and see what kind of progress you're making. 483 00:23:46,620 --> 00:23:47,689 Okay? -ALL RIGHT. 484 00:23:47,689 --> 00:23:49,379 THANK YOU SO MUCH, DR. NOW. 485 00:23:49,379 --> 00:23:51,137 You're welcome, and I'll talk to you later. 486 00:23:51,137 --> 00:23:53,000 Okay? -ALL RIGHT. THANKS. 487 00:23:56,758 --> 00:23:59,344 I THINK THE CALL WITH DR. NOW WENT WELL 488 00:23:59,344 --> 00:24:02,206 BECAUSE HE'S GIVING ME A CHANCE. 489 00:24:02,206 --> 00:24:05,655 IT'S ALMOST LIKE I HAVE THIS SENSE OF PEACE, WHERE, AT FIRST, 490 00:24:05,655 --> 00:24:08,241 I WAS LITTLE JITTERY AND NERVOUS. 491 00:24:08,241 --> 00:24:10,448 BUT I JUST FEEL GOOD BECAUSE I KNOW 492 00:24:10,448 --> 00:24:13,517 THINGS ARE GONNA CHANGE FOR ME. 493 00:24:13,517 --> 00:24:16,724 I FEEL LIKE THIS IS MY LAST CHANCE FOR MY LIFE, 494 00:24:16,724 --> 00:24:20,896 AND IF I DON'T DO THIS NOW, I DON'T THINK I'M GONNA MAKE IT. 495 00:24:25,655 --> 00:24:35,344 ♪♪ 496 00:24:35,344 --> 00:24:38,000 Octavia: IT'S BEEN A WEEK SINCE I TALKED TO DR. NOW, 497 00:24:38,000 --> 00:24:40,965 AND I'VE DECIDED TO GO AHEAD AND MOVE TO HOUSTON. 498 00:24:40,965 --> 00:24:42,275 BUT I'M TERRIFIED. 499 00:24:42,275 --> 00:24:44,448 I HAVEN'T BEEN OUT THE HOUSE IN YEARS, 500 00:24:44,448 --> 00:24:47,758 AND I HAVEN'T BEEN IN A CAR IN EVEN LONGER. 501 00:24:47,758 --> 00:24:52,931 SO IT IS VERY, VERY FRIGHTENING TO LEAVE EVERYTHING I KNOW. 502 00:24:52,931 --> 00:24:54,586 BUT I TALKED TO MY FRIEND NICHELLE, 503 00:24:54,586 --> 00:24:57,241 AND SHE'S WILLING TO MOVE DOWN TO HOUSTON WITH ME 504 00:24:57,241 --> 00:24:59,655 BECAUSE DR. NOW DIDN'T THINK IT WAS A GOOD IDEA 505 00:24:59,655 --> 00:25:02,000 FOR TYISHA TO BE THE ONE THAT COMES WITH ME 506 00:25:02,000 --> 00:25:04,448 BECAUSE SHE'S BEEN MY BIGGEST ENABLER. 507 00:25:04,448 --> 00:25:09,275 SO I'VE GOT TO DO WHAT I NEED TO GET MY LIFE BACK ON TRACK. 508 00:25:09,275 --> 00:25:13,206 MY FAMILY AND EVERYONE IS ALMOST DONE PACKING EVERYTHING UP, 509 00:25:13,206 --> 00:25:14,896 AND WE HAVE THE VAN THAT I'M GONNA BE 510 00:25:14,896 --> 00:25:16,206 RIDING DOWN TO HOUSTON IN. 511 00:25:16,206 --> 00:25:18,413 SO I'M JUST ABOUT READY TO GO. 512 00:25:18,413 --> 00:25:20,482 WE JUST NEED TO GET THE MATTRESS IN IT, 513 00:25:20,482 --> 00:25:23,172 AND THEN I NEED TO BE CARRIED TO IT. 514 00:25:23,172 --> 00:25:26,827 SO EMTs ARE COMING TO HELP ME WITH ALL THAT. 515 00:25:26,827 --> 00:25:28,793 BUT I'M A LITTLE NERVOUS ABOUT IT 516 00:25:28,793 --> 00:25:30,310 BECAUSE IT'S BEEN A LONG TIME 517 00:25:30,310 --> 00:25:32,413 SINCE I'VE BEEN OUT OF THIS APARTMENT. 518 00:25:37,310 --> 00:25:39,655 SO I JUST HOPE THAT THERE ARE NO ISSUES, 519 00:25:39,655 --> 00:25:41,931 AND IT ALL GOES WELL. 520 00:25:44,724 --> 00:25:46,793 -HELLO. -HI, HI, HI. 521 00:25:46,793 --> 00:25:48,931 I'M CANDACE. I'M WITH THE FIRE DEPARTMENT. 522 00:25:48,931 --> 00:25:51,206 AND WE ARE HERE TO HELP YOU GET TO YOUR VAN. 523 00:25:51,206 --> 00:25:52,862 IS THAT CORRECT? -YES. 524 00:25:52,862 --> 00:25:54,827 OKAY. YOU'VE BEEN ON A STRETCHER BEFORE? 525 00:25:54,827 --> 00:25:55,931 I HAVE, YEAH. 526 00:25:55,931 --> 00:25:57,068 OKAY. THEN WE'LL GET ROLLING. 527 00:25:57,068 --> 00:25:58,137 OKAY? -ALL RIGHT. 528 00:25:58,137 --> 00:26:01,103 I'LL JUST SIT UP ON THE SIDE OF THE BED. 529 00:26:05,172 --> 00:26:06,655 OH, GEEZ. 530 00:26:06,655 --> 00:26:08,034 WHOA. GEEZ. 531 00:26:08,034 --> 00:26:09,896 NOW, THAT AIN'T NEVER HAPPENED. -WE GOT YOU. WE GOT YOU. 532 00:26:09,896 --> 00:26:11,586 JUST SIT LIKE THAT. -OKAY. 533 00:26:11,586 --> 00:26:13,551 HELP ME. -RIGHT THERE. 534 00:26:13,551 --> 00:26:15,586 -ALL THE WAY. -YEAH, JUST STAY RIGHT THERE. 535 00:26:17,448 --> 00:26:18,965 OKAY. COOL. 536 00:26:22,068 --> 00:26:26,034 -COUNT IT OUT FOR US. -TWO, THREE. 537 00:26:26,034 --> 00:26:27,448 I GOT YOU. I GOT YOU. 538 00:26:27,448 --> 00:26:28,724 YOU AIN'T GOING NOWHERE. 539 00:26:28,724 --> 00:26:30,000 COME ON DOWN. -YOU GOT IT. 540 00:26:30,000 --> 00:26:31,655 Candace: WELL DONE. 541 00:26:34,931 --> 00:26:36,689 PUT YOUR HEAD IN THE MIDDLE. 542 00:26:36,689 --> 00:26:38,620 Octavia: IT'S EMBARRASSING TO HAVE ALL OF THIS 543 00:26:38,620 --> 00:26:41,379 JUST TO BE ABLE TO LEAVE MY APARTMENT. 544 00:26:41,379 --> 00:26:44,137 -LET ME GET YOU OVER HERE. -THERE YOU GO. 545 00:26:44,137 --> 00:26:47,517 BUT I'M DOING THIS TO MAKE SURE THIS ISN'T MY LIFE. 546 00:26:47,517 --> 00:26:49,275 OOP! -YOU DON'T TRUST US? 547 00:26:49,275 --> 00:26:50,551 Man: DON'T REACH. 548 00:26:50,551 --> 00:26:53,137 SWING AROUND THIS BREEZEWAY. 549 00:26:53,137 --> 00:26:55,206 OVER HERE. 550 00:26:55,206 --> 00:26:57,310 OHH! 551 00:26:58,896 --> 00:27:00,551 OKAY, TURN. 552 00:27:02,793 --> 00:27:04,034 -ONE. -LET'S GET HER CENTERED. 553 00:27:04,034 --> 00:27:07,413 TWO. THREE. 554 00:27:07,413 --> 00:27:08,758 PASSING THE HEAD. PASSING THE HEAD. 555 00:27:08,758 --> 00:27:09,896 GOT IT. 556 00:27:09,896 --> 00:27:12,206 -GOOD. GOOD. -KEEP GOING. 557 00:27:14,931 --> 00:27:17,482 -GOOD LUCK TO YOU. -THANK YOU ALL. APPRECIATE IT. 558 00:27:19,241 --> 00:27:21,517 Octavia: I KNOW I'M FIGHTING FOR MY LIFE, 559 00:27:21,517 --> 00:27:25,482 BUT IT'S HARD TO BE LEAVING MY FAMILY. 560 00:27:25,482 --> 00:27:27,655 I LOVE YOU. 561 00:27:27,655 --> 00:27:29,724 BE GOOD, OKAY? 562 00:27:29,724 --> 00:27:31,034 -OKAY. -PROMISE ME? 563 00:27:31,034 --> 00:27:33,379 YOU GONNA MISS US? 564 00:27:33,379 --> 00:27:36,275 I LOVE YOU. 565 00:27:36,275 --> 00:27:37,448 BYE. 566 00:27:37,448 --> 00:27:40,448 [ CRYING ] 567 00:27:40,448 --> 00:27:43,172 Desire: I'M DEFINITELY GONNA MISS MY SISTER. 568 00:27:43,172 --> 00:27:45,586 IT'S TOUGH TO SEE HER GO. 569 00:27:45,586 --> 00:27:47,655 I WISH SHE COULD STAY HERE AND SOME WAY 570 00:27:47,655 --> 00:27:49,241 SHE CAN FIGURE IT OUT, 571 00:27:49,241 --> 00:27:52,551 BUT I KNOW IT'S GOD'S WILL THAT SHE GOES DOWN HERE 572 00:27:52,551 --> 00:27:55,275 AND DOES THIS, AND HE'S GONNA TAKE CARE OF HER. 573 00:27:55,275 --> 00:27:57,000 GRANDMA? 574 00:27:57,000 --> 00:27:58,344 -Yes. -OKAY. 575 00:27:58,344 --> 00:28:00,137 WE'RE GETTING READY TO GET ON THE ROAD. 576 00:28:00,137 --> 00:28:04,517 SO I WAS JUST CALLING FOR YOU TO PRAY FOR US. 577 00:28:04,517 --> 00:28:05,551 OCTAVIA'S GRANDMOTHER: You ready now? 578 00:28:05,551 --> 00:28:07,586 -YES, MA'AM. -All right. 579 00:28:07,586 --> 00:28:09,620 Lord, I just thank You right now. 580 00:28:09,620 --> 00:28:13,620 We pray, Lord, that you give a safe journey over the highway. 581 00:28:13,620 --> 00:28:16,068 Keep her encouraged and inspired, oh, God. 582 00:28:16,068 --> 00:28:18,068 In Jesus' name we pray. 583 00:28:18,068 --> 00:28:20,034 Amen and amen. -AMEN. 584 00:28:20,034 --> 00:28:21,413 I LOVE YOU. 585 00:28:21,413 --> 00:28:24,137 I love you, too, sweetheart. 586 00:28:24,137 --> 00:28:27,034 Octavia: I KNOW THIS TRIP ISN'T GONNA BE EASY, 587 00:28:27,034 --> 00:28:31,000 AND I HAVE TO BE CAREFUL NOT TO PUSH MYSELF TOO HARD, 588 00:28:31,000 --> 00:28:33,000 BECAUSE THERE ARE A LOT OF UNKNOWNS, 589 00:28:33,000 --> 00:28:36,034 LIKE HOW IT'S GONNA BE LAYING DOWN IN A MOVING VEHICLE, 590 00:28:36,034 --> 00:28:38,724 AND WHAT KIND OF STRAIN IT WILL BE ON MY BODY. 591 00:28:38,724 --> 00:28:41,275 BYE, Y'ALL. I LOVE YOU. 592 00:28:41,275 --> 00:28:43,034 [ SPEAKS INDISTINCTLY ] 593 00:28:43,034 --> 00:28:47,000 BUT I'M CONFIDENT I CAN MAKE IT AS LONG AS I'M CAREFUL. 594 00:28:49,172 --> 00:28:52,068 I JUST HAVE TO BRAVE THE JOURNEY AND GET THERE, 595 00:28:52,068 --> 00:28:55,000 AND ONCE I DO, I'LL HAVE HOPE WAITING FOR ME. 596 00:28:55,000 --> 00:29:02,551 ♪♪ 597 00:29:02,551 --> 00:29:06,034 THIS IS DAY THREE OF BEING ON THE ROAD TO HOUSTON FOR ME. 598 00:29:06,034 --> 00:29:08,137 I WAS HOPING TO BE DONE WITH ALL THIS TRAVELING 599 00:29:08,137 --> 00:29:09,655 ON THE SECOND DAY, 600 00:29:09,655 --> 00:29:11,413 BECAUSE BEING LOADED AND UNLOADED 601 00:29:11,413 --> 00:29:14,310 SO MANY TIMES TOOK SO MUCH OUT OF ME, 602 00:29:14,310 --> 00:29:17,620 AND I DIDN'T REALIZE HOW HARD THIS WAS GONNA BE. 603 00:29:17,620 --> 00:29:20,724 SO I'M JUST REALLY GLAD I'M GONNA BE THERE SOON. 604 00:29:20,724 --> 00:29:22,137 BUT EARLIER THIS MORNING, 605 00:29:22,137 --> 00:29:24,931 I CALLED DR. NOW SINCE I'M SO CLOSE TO HOUSTON, 606 00:29:24,931 --> 00:29:27,793 AND TOLD HIM THAT I'LL ACTUALLY BE THERE SOON. 607 00:29:27,793 --> 00:29:31,000 BUT WHEN HE HEARD THAT I DID THIS WITHOUT MEDICAL TRANSPORT, 608 00:29:31,000 --> 00:29:33,448 HE WASN'T TOO HAPPY ABOUT THAT. 609 00:29:33,448 --> 00:29:35,206 SO HE TOLD ME THAT WHEN I GET THERE, 610 00:29:35,206 --> 00:29:37,862 HE WANTS ME TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL IMMEDIATELY 611 00:29:37,862 --> 00:29:41,137 SO THAT HE CAN MAKE SURE NOTHING'S WRONG WITH ME. 612 00:29:41,137 --> 00:29:43,655 SO MY FAMILY WILL TAKE ALL MY AND NICHELLE'S STUFF 613 00:29:43,655 --> 00:29:45,896 TO OUR NEW APARTMENT AND MOVE IN FOR ME 614 00:29:45,896 --> 00:29:48,551 WHILE I HAVE ALL MY TESTS BEING RUN, 615 00:29:48,551 --> 00:29:50,517 AND I'LL BE DONE WITH ALL THIS TRAVELING, 616 00:29:50,517 --> 00:29:53,620 AND HOPEFULLY I'LL BE ABLE TO GET WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY SOON. 617 00:29:53,620 --> 00:30:00,827 ♪♪ 618 00:30:00,827 --> 00:30:03,586 Dr. Nowzaradan: I'M NOT TOO HAPPY WITH OCTAVIA RIGHT NOW. 619 00:30:03,586 --> 00:30:05,827 I HAVE WANTED HER TO HIT HER GOAL 620 00:30:05,827 --> 00:30:09,275 AND GET TO A HEALTHIER PLACE TO MAKE THIS TRIP SAFER, 621 00:30:09,275 --> 00:30:12,137 BUT IT SEEMS SHE HAD TAKEN THIS UPON HERSELF 622 00:30:12,137 --> 00:30:15,103 TO DO IT HER OWN WAY. 623 00:30:15,103 --> 00:30:16,620 HOW YOU FEELING, OCTAVIA? 624 00:30:16,620 --> 00:30:19,103 -I'M FEELING OKAY. -OKAY. 625 00:30:19,103 --> 00:30:21,827 I WANT TO GET YOU INSIDE AS QUICKLY AS POSSIBLE 626 00:30:21,827 --> 00:30:24,310 SO WE CAN MAKE SURE YOU'RE OKAY. 627 00:30:24,310 --> 00:30:26,344 ARE YOU ABLE TO GET UP AND STAND? 628 00:30:26,344 --> 00:30:27,517 NO. 629 00:30:27,517 --> 00:30:29,310 OKAY, WELL, LET'S GET YOU INSIDE. 630 00:30:32,000 --> 00:30:35,655 NOT ONLY HAS SHE RISKED HER HEALTH AND HER LIFE DOING THIS, 631 00:30:35,655 --> 00:30:37,551 BUT IF SHE HASN'T HIT HER GOAL, 632 00:30:37,551 --> 00:30:40,413 THIS WHOLE TRIP MAY BE POINTLESS FOR HER 633 00:30:40,413 --> 00:30:44,413 BECAUSE SHE WON'T GET BYPASS SURGERY UNTIL THAT HAPPENS. 634 00:30:44,413 --> 00:30:48,275 SO RIGHT NOW, I HAVE A LOT OF CONCERNS ABOUT OCTAVIA, 635 00:30:48,275 --> 00:30:50,448 AND I'M HOPING THIS IS NOT A GLIMPSE 636 00:30:50,448 --> 00:30:54,586 OF WHAT WE CAN EXPECT WITH HER GOING FORWARD. 637 00:30:54,586 --> 00:30:55,862 Octavia: I'M ALL THE WAY ON? 638 00:30:55,862 --> 00:30:57,931 -YES. -OH. 639 00:30:57,931 --> 00:31:00,413 Dr. Nowzaradan: BUT OUR PRIORITY IS TO GET HER IN 640 00:31:00,413 --> 00:31:04,413 AND MAKE SURE SHE DOESN'T HAVE ANY LIFE-THREATENING ISSUES. 641 00:31:04,413 --> 00:31:09,931 ♪♪ 642 00:31:09,931 --> 00:31:11,275 YOU FEELING ALL RIGHT? 643 00:31:11,275 --> 00:31:13,482 -YEAH. -LITTLE SHORT OF BREATH? 644 00:31:13,482 --> 00:31:15,344 YEAH. I'M JUST HOT. 645 00:31:15,344 --> 00:31:16,793 I'M HOT AND I'M COLD. I DON'T KNOW. 646 00:31:16,793 --> 00:31:19,413 LET ME CHECK AND SEE HOW YOUR HEART IS DOING. 647 00:31:24,620 --> 00:31:27,103 EVERYTHING SOUNDS OKAY. 648 00:31:27,103 --> 00:31:30,758 THANK YOU, BABY. 649 00:31:30,758 --> 00:31:32,862 I'M NOT TOO HAPPY WITH THIS LITTLE STUNT 650 00:31:32,862 --> 00:31:35,896 COMING DOWN HERE BEFORE WE KNEW IT WAS SAFE. 651 00:31:35,896 --> 00:31:40,275 SO THIS IS VERY RECKLESS, BUT WE'LL TALK ABOUT THAT LATER. 652 00:31:40,275 --> 00:31:41,689 OKAY. 653 00:31:41,689 --> 00:31:44,068 YOU WERE LUCKY YOU DIDN'T DEVELOP ANY ISSUES 654 00:31:44,068 --> 00:31:46,620 BEFORE YOU GOT HERE, BECAUSE IF YOU HAD, 655 00:31:46,620 --> 00:31:49,379 THERE WOULD HAVE BEEN NO WAY YOU WOULD HAVE MADE IT. 656 00:31:49,379 --> 00:31:50,931 RIGHT. 657 00:31:50,931 --> 00:31:53,241 BUT WE WILL RUN OUR TESTS AND SEE HOW YOU'RE DOING, 658 00:31:53,241 --> 00:31:55,172 AND WE GO FROM THERE. 659 00:31:55,172 --> 00:31:56,448 -OKAY. -ALL RIGHT? 660 00:31:56,448 --> 00:31:58,137 -THANK YOU. -OKAY. 661 00:32:00,241 --> 00:32:02,413 Dr. Nowzaradan: THERE ARE A LOT OF THINGS I'M SEEING 662 00:32:02,413 --> 00:32:04,172 THAT CONCERN ME RIGHT NOW. 663 00:32:04,172 --> 00:32:06,310 AND THERE'S A GOOD CHANCE OCTAVIA 664 00:32:06,310 --> 00:32:08,482 COULD STILL BE AT A GREAT RISK 665 00:32:08,482 --> 00:32:11,241 BECAUSE SHE STILL MAY BE SUFFERING FROM ISSUES 666 00:32:11,241 --> 00:32:12,724 SHE DEVELOPED ON THE ROAD. 667 00:32:12,724 --> 00:32:15,448 THAT COULD BE LIFE-THREATENING FOR HER, 668 00:32:15,448 --> 00:32:16,896 AND IF THAT'S HAPPENING, 669 00:32:16,896 --> 00:32:20,482 HER CONDITION COULD BECOME MUCH WORSE VERY QUICKLY. 670 00:32:20,482 --> 00:32:23,551 SO WE HAVE TO MAKE SURE WE ADDRESS ANYTHING WE NEED 671 00:32:23,551 --> 00:32:25,931 WITH HER BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE. 672 00:32:30,137 --> 00:32:35,620 ♪♪ 673 00:32:35,620 --> 00:32:41,172 ♪♪ 674 00:32:41,172 --> 00:32:44,689 Octavia: I'VE BEEN IN THE HOSPITAL FOR A COUPLE DAYS NOW. 675 00:32:44,689 --> 00:32:46,931 DR. NOW PUT ME ON A CONTROLLED DIET. 676 00:32:46,931 --> 00:32:49,103 HE SAYS THAT I MAY END UP BEING HERE 677 00:32:49,103 --> 00:32:52,206 OR ANOTHER FACILITY FOR A WHILE LONGER. 678 00:32:52,206 --> 00:32:55,965 BUT I HAD NO IDEA THAT I WOULD BE HERE THIS LONG. 679 00:32:55,965 --> 00:32:58,241 I THOUGHT THEY'D JUST GIVE ME A CHECKUP. 680 00:32:58,241 --> 00:33:02,862 SO I'M REALLY NOT HAPPY RIGHT NOW. 681 00:33:02,862 --> 00:33:05,206 Dr. Nowzaradan: WE FINISHED RUNNING OUR TESTS ON OCTAVIA, 682 00:33:05,206 --> 00:33:08,413 AND SHE CAN CONSIDER HERSELF VERY LUCKY. 683 00:33:08,413 --> 00:33:11,551 SHE HAS NO LIFE-THREATENING ISSUES CURRENTLY 684 00:33:11,551 --> 00:33:13,758 OTHER THAN HER OVERALL WEIGHT. 685 00:33:13,758 --> 00:33:15,344 SO WE STARTED HER 686 00:33:15,344 --> 00:33:19,103 ON A 1,200-CALORIE-A-DAY DIET ALREADY, 687 00:33:19,103 --> 00:33:24,034 BUT SHE'S BEEN VERY VOCAL ABOUT HOW UNHAPPY SHE IS ABOUT THAT. 688 00:33:24,034 --> 00:33:26,034 BUT WE NEED TO GET HER WEIGHT DOWN 689 00:33:26,034 --> 00:33:28,586 AND GET HER UP AND OUT OF THE BED. 690 00:33:32,000 --> 00:33:33,000 HELLO. 691 00:33:33,000 --> 00:33:35,310 Octavia: HI, DR. NOW. 692 00:33:35,310 --> 00:33:36,586 HOW ARE YOU TODAY? 693 00:33:36,586 --> 00:33:38,137 I'M BETTER. 694 00:33:38,137 --> 00:33:40,241 -DOING ALL RIGHT? -MM-HMM. 695 00:33:40,241 --> 00:33:41,344 OKAY. 696 00:33:41,344 --> 00:33:43,310 WE FINISHED RUNNING ALL THE TESTS, 697 00:33:43,310 --> 00:33:46,965 AND, THANKFULLY, ALL YOUR TESTS ARE LOOKING PRETTY GOOD. 698 00:33:46,965 --> 00:33:48,344 OKAY. 699 00:33:48,344 --> 00:33:50,103 YOU DON'T HAVE ANY SERIOUS ISSUES RIGHT NOW 700 00:33:50,103 --> 00:33:52,448 THAT WE NEED TO ADDRESS OTHER THAN YOUR WEIGHT 701 00:33:52,448 --> 00:33:55,551 AND LACK OF ABILITY TO GET UP AND MOVE. 702 00:33:55,551 --> 00:33:57,275 OKAY? -OKAY. 703 00:33:57,275 --> 00:33:58,724 ALL RIGHT. 704 00:33:58,724 --> 00:34:02,000 LET'S CHECK YOUR CURRENT WEIGHT AND SEE WHERE YOU ARE. 705 00:34:06,655 --> 00:34:09,137 692 POUNDS. 706 00:34:09,137 --> 00:34:11,137 ALMOST 700 POUNDS. 707 00:34:11,137 --> 00:34:13,965 THAT'S VERY CONCERNING. -MM-HMM. 708 00:34:13,965 --> 00:34:16,103 SO WE HAVE A LOT OF WORK TO DO. 709 00:34:16,103 --> 00:34:19,482 WE STARTED YOU ON A 1,200-CALORIE-A-DAY DIET 710 00:34:19,482 --> 00:34:21,206 SO WE CAN GET YOUR WEIGHT DOWN. 711 00:34:21,206 --> 00:34:22,413 RIGHT. 712 00:34:22,413 --> 00:34:23,827 AND IT'S GOING TO BE VERY IMPORTANT 713 00:34:23,827 --> 00:34:25,862 FOR YOUR WEIGHT LOSS THAT WE GET YOU ACTIVE. 714 00:34:25,862 --> 00:34:29,344 SO WE'RE GOING TO GET YOU TO GO TO REHAB FOR A COUPLE MONTHS 715 00:34:29,344 --> 00:34:34,551 AND SEE IF WE CAN BUILD UP SOME STRENGTH ON YOUR LOWER BODY 716 00:34:34,551 --> 00:34:37,482 THAT YOU CAN GET UP AND WALK AND TAKE SOME STEPS. 717 00:34:37,482 --> 00:34:38,793 OKAY? -OKAY. 718 00:34:38,793 --> 00:34:41,206 BUT AFTER WE DO THAT, THEN YOU NEED TO SHOW ME 719 00:34:41,206 --> 00:34:44,172 THAT YOU'RE WILLING TO WORK HARD LIKE YOU NEED AT HOME. 720 00:34:44,172 --> 00:34:49,620 SO IT'S IMPORTANT FOR YOUR FRIEND TO GET INSTRUCTION 721 00:34:49,620 --> 00:34:51,379 SO SHE UNDERSTANDS WHAT'S GOING ON 722 00:34:51,379 --> 00:34:55,206 BECAUSE SHE STILL HAS SOME ISSUE WITH HER OWN WEIGHT, 723 00:34:55,206 --> 00:34:58,482 AND I DON'T WANT HER ENABLING YOU WHEN YOU GO HOME. 724 00:34:58,482 --> 00:35:01,620 SO THIS IS GONNA BE AN ISSUE THAT BOTH OF YOU NEED 725 00:35:01,620 --> 00:35:03,551 TO WORK AT IT AT THE SAME TIME. 726 00:35:03,551 --> 00:35:04,758 YEAH. 727 00:35:04,758 --> 00:35:06,068 BUT IF YOU'RE STICKING WITH THE DIET, 728 00:35:06,068 --> 00:35:08,758 BE ABLE TO LOSE AT LEAST 50 POUNDS A MONTH. 729 00:35:08,758 --> 00:35:10,137 OKAY. 730 00:35:10,137 --> 00:35:11,689 AND IF YOU DO THAT, THEN I WILL APPROVE YOU 731 00:35:11,689 --> 00:35:13,344 FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 732 00:35:13,344 --> 00:35:14,862 OKAY? -OKAY. 733 00:35:14,862 --> 00:35:15,965 BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY, 734 00:35:15,965 --> 00:35:17,000 EVERYTHING IS GONNA BE UP TO YOU. 735 00:35:17,000 --> 00:35:18,931 -BE UP TO ME. YEAH. -OKAY? 736 00:35:18,931 --> 00:35:20,517 YOU'RE RIGHT. LIKE YOU SAY. 737 00:35:20,517 --> 00:35:23,206 YOU BRING THE HORSE TO THE WELL, BUT YOU CAN'T MAKE HIM DRINK. 738 00:35:23,206 --> 00:35:24,655 SO I GOT IT. 739 00:35:24,655 --> 00:35:26,655 AND WE'LL GET THE AMBULANCE TO TAKE YOU TO REHAB, 740 00:35:26,655 --> 00:35:29,517 AND YOU'RE GONNA START WORKING WITH THEM EVERY DAY 741 00:35:29,517 --> 00:35:32,103 AND GET UP AND DO YOUR EXERCISES, 742 00:35:32,103 --> 00:35:35,758 AND HOPEFULLY HERE, VERY SOON, WE'LL GET YOU OUT OF THIS BED. 743 00:35:35,758 --> 00:35:37,655 -OKAY. -I'LL SEE YOU OVER THERE. 744 00:35:37,655 --> 00:35:38,758 ALL RIGHT. THANK YOU SO MUCH. 745 00:35:38,758 --> 00:35:40,448 AND WE'LL TAKE CARE OF YOU. OKAY? 746 00:35:40,448 --> 00:35:41,655 ALL RIGHT. THANKS, DR. NOW. 747 00:35:41,655 --> 00:35:44,758 MM-HMM. 748 00:35:44,758 --> 00:35:47,206 Dr. Nowzaradan: OCTAVIA'S CONTINUED IMMOBILITY 749 00:35:47,206 --> 00:35:48,827 AND SEDENTARY LIFESTYLE 750 00:35:48,827 --> 00:35:52,862 SIGNIFICANTLY DECREASES HER LONG-TERM OUTLOOK. 751 00:35:52,862 --> 00:35:56,310 BUT WITH THE REHAB FACILITY, WE WILL BE ABLE TO WORK 752 00:35:56,310 --> 00:36:00,172 ON BUILDING UP HER STAMINA AS QUICKLY AS POSSIBLE. 753 00:36:00,172 --> 00:36:03,275 BECAUSE OCTAVIA DOESN'T HAVE A LOT OF TIME TO WASTE 754 00:36:03,275 --> 00:36:08,068 BEFORE HER CONDITION GETS MUCH WORSE. 755 00:36:08,068 --> 00:36:09,689 Octavia: I'M GLAD DR. NOW'S HELPING ME 756 00:36:09,689 --> 00:36:11,931 AND THAT I HAVE THIS OPPORTUNITY. 757 00:36:11,931 --> 00:36:15,793 BUT RIGHT NOW I'M FEELING SCARED BECAUSE I'M BEING TRANSFERRED. 758 00:36:15,793 --> 00:36:18,000 I HAVE NO IDEA WHERE I'M GONNA BE. 759 00:36:18,000 --> 00:36:20,241 SO MY ANXIETY IS SUPER HIGH, 760 00:36:20,241 --> 00:36:23,034 AND I'M A LITTLE FRUSTRATED RIGHT NOW. 761 00:36:23,034 --> 00:36:25,965 THIS IS JUST A LOT HARDER THAN I THOUGHT IT WAS GONNA BE. 762 00:36:25,965 --> 00:36:34,586 ♪♪ 763 00:36:34,586 --> 00:36:37,689 10, 11, 12. 764 00:36:37,689 --> 00:36:40,517 I'VE BEEN IN THE REHAB FACILITY FOR ALMOST A MONTH, 765 00:36:40,517 --> 00:36:44,310 AND I'VE BEEN WORKING HARD TO DO ALL MY EXERCISES. 766 00:36:44,310 --> 00:36:46,655 I USE A POLE WITH WEIGHTS ON IT, 767 00:36:46,655 --> 00:36:51,793 EXERCISING MY ARMS AND MY LEGS, DOING LEG LIFTS, TOE CURLS, 768 00:36:51,793 --> 00:36:54,827 SOME STRETCHING -- DIFFERENT THINGS LIKE THAT. 769 00:36:54,827 --> 00:36:56,551 IT'S VERY PAINFUL, 770 00:36:56,551 --> 00:37:01,482 BUT I THINK I'M GETTING THERE TO BE ABLE TO WALK AGAIN. 771 00:37:01,482 --> 00:37:03,689 SO I'M FEELING REALLY GOOD ABOUT MY PROGRESS 772 00:37:03,689 --> 00:37:05,758 AND HOW FAR I'M COMING. 773 00:37:05,758 --> 00:37:08,241 I KNOW I'M NOT WHERE DR. NOW WANTS ME TO BE YET, 774 00:37:08,241 --> 00:37:09,862 BUT I'M GETTING CLOSE, 775 00:37:09,862 --> 00:37:12,517 BECAUSE I'M ALREADY ABLE TO DO A LOT MORE, 776 00:37:12,517 --> 00:37:15,620 AND I'M ABLE TO STAND UP AND GET INTO MY WHEELCHAIR. 777 00:37:15,620 --> 00:37:18,310 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] 778 00:37:18,310 --> 00:37:19,793 HEY, MISS OCTAVIA. 779 00:37:19,793 --> 00:37:22,206 WE'RE THINKING ABOUT GETTING YOU FOR A SHOWER. 780 00:37:22,206 --> 00:37:23,275 -OKAY. -SOUNDS GOOD? 781 00:37:23,275 --> 00:37:24,448 SOUNDS GOOD. 782 00:37:24,448 --> 00:37:26,068 LET US KNOW IF YOU NEED ANY HELP. 783 00:37:30,172 --> 00:37:32,413 OCTAVIA, WE WANT YOU TO SIT ON THE EDGE OF THE BED HERE, 784 00:37:32,413 --> 00:37:33,482 AND ONCE YOU GET SEATED, 785 00:37:33,482 --> 00:37:36,931 WE'LL TRANSFER INTO YOUR WHEELCHAIR. 786 00:37:36,931 --> 00:37:38,724 Octavia: IT'S DEFINITELY SCARY 787 00:37:38,724 --> 00:37:42,000 BECAUSE I HAVE THAT FEAR OF I CAN'T DO IT. 788 00:37:42,000 --> 00:37:44,241 ALL RIGHT. 789 00:37:44,241 --> 00:37:47,275 I'M SCARED THAT I'M GONNA FALL OR HURT MYSELF 790 00:37:47,275 --> 00:37:48,965 IN SOME TYPE OF WAY. 791 00:37:48,965 --> 00:37:58,655 ♪♪ 792 00:37:58,655 --> 00:38:00,827 BUT NOW THAT I CAN GET OUT OF BED, 793 00:38:00,827 --> 00:38:04,413 ONE OF MY FAVORITE THINGS TO DO IS TO TAKE A SHOWER, 794 00:38:04,413 --> 00:38:05,758 AND THAT'S BEEN INCREDIBLE, 795 00:38:05,758 --> 00:38:07,931 BECAUSE WHEN YOU HAVE TO SPONGE-BATH EVERY DAY, 796 00:38:07,931 --> 00:38:11,034 THE WATER'S NOT REALLY HOT. 797 00:38:11,034 --> 00:38:13,137 WHEN YOU GET TO MY SIZE AND BEDRIDDEN, 798 00:38:13,137 --> 00:38:15,448 YOU REALIZE ALL THE THINGS YOU TAKE FOR GRANTED 799 00:38:15,448 --> 00:38:18,517 BEFORE YOU GOT TO THAT POINT, AND A HOT SHOWER, 800 00:38:18,517 --> 00:38:21,793 IT'S BEEN A NICE REWARD FOR ALL MY HARD WORK. 801 00:38:21,793 --> 00:38:23,344 SO YOU CAN TAKE A STAND FROM HERE. 802 00:38:23,344 --> 00:38:24,689 OKAY. 803 00:38:24,689 --> 00:38:26,551 SO I'M REALLY HAPPY WITH ALL MY PROGRESS 804 00:38:26,551 --> 00:38:29,931 BECAUSE I'M WORKING AS HARD AS I CAN. 805 00:38:29,931 --> 00:38:31,413 I DON'T WANT TO MISS MY GOALS 806 00:38:31,413 --> 00:38:34,482 WHEN DR. NOW COMES BACK TO SEE ME. 807 00:38:34,482 --> 00:38:37,586 IF THAT HAPPENS, I'M NOT SURE I'M GONNA BE ABLE TO HANDLE IT. 808 00:38:37,586 --> 00:38:39,862 BECAUSE THIS IS MY ONLY CHANCE TO GET THE HELP 809 00:38:39,862 --> 00:38:42,379 I NEED TO SAVE MY LIFE. 810 00:38:42,379 --> 00:38:44,000 AND I CAN'T LOSE IT. 811 00:38:48,931 --> 00:38:55,482 ♪♪ 812 00:38:55,482 --> 00:39:02,206 ♪♪ 813 00:39:02,206 --> 00:39:04,448 Octavia: IT'S BEEN TWO MONTHS I'VE BEEN HERE IN REHAB, 814 00:39:04,448 --> 00:39:08,655 AND TODAY IS THE DAY DR. NOW IS COMING TO SEE IF I HIT MY GOALS. 815 00:39:08,655 --> 00:39:10,620 I'VE BEEN WORKING REALLY HARD TO GET TO WHERE I NEED, 816 00:39:10,620 --> 00:39:13,275 AND I'M EXCITED AT THE CHANCE TO FINALLY GO GET SETTLED 817 00:39:13,275 --> 00:39:15,689 INTO MY APARTMENT WITH NICHELLE. 818 00:39:15,689 --> 00:39:17,965 I'VE HARDLY SEEN HER BECAUSE SHE'S ONLY BEEN ABLE 819 00:39:17,965 --> 00:39:19,724 TO VISIT ME A FEW TIMES. 820 00:39:19,724 --> 00:39:21,482 SO I'M REALLY HOPING DR. NOW 821 00:39:21,482 --> 00:39:24,689 TELLS ME I'M GONNA BE ABLE TO GO HOME TODAY. 822 00:39:24,689 --> 00:39:26,241 BUT HE WANTS ME TO SHOW HIM 823 00:39:26,241 --> 00:39:28,413 THAT I'VE AT LEAST MADE ENOUGH PROGRESS WITH MY STAMINA 824 00:39:28,413 --> 00:39:32,137 TO BE ABLE TO STAND TO GET MY WEIGHT CHECKED. 825 00:39:32,137 --> 00:39:33,620 BUT THAT MAKES ME REALLY NERVOUS, 826 00:39:33,620 --> 00:39:35,137 BECAUSE I'VE BEEN ABLE TO GET UP, 827 00:39:35,137 --> 00:39:37,448 BUT I'VE STILL NEEDED MY WALKER TO STAND. 828 00:39:37,448 --> 00:39:39,482 SO I HOPE I CAN DO IT. 829 00:39:39,482 --> 00:39:41,896 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] 830 00:39:41,896 --> 00:39:43,034 HI, OCTAVIA. 831 00:39:43,034 --> 00:39:44,896 Octavia: HEY, DR. NOW. 832 00:39:44,896 --> 00:39:46,551 ALL RIGHT. 833 00:39:46,551 --> 00:39:49,206 SO ARE YOU READY TO SHOW ME WHAT YOU CAN DO NOW? 834 00:39:49,206 --> 00:39:52,103 BECAUSE YOU ARE ANXIOUS TO GET HOME? 835 00:39:52,103 --> 00:39:55,103 YEAH. I'M READY. 836 00:39:55,103 --> 00:39:56,275 ALL RIGHT. 837 00:39:56,275 --> 00:39:57,517 LET'S FIRST SIT ON THE SIDE OF THE BED. 838 00:39:57,517 --> 00:39:59,241 OKAY. 839 00:39:59,241 --> 00:40:05,758 ♪♪ 840 00:40:05,758 --> 00:40:08,344 HELLO. -HELLO. 841 00:40:08,344 --> 00:40:10,517 TAKE YOUR TIME. 842 00:40:10,517 --> 00:40:13,724 ♪♪ 843 00:40:13,724 --> 00:40:15,931 ALL RIGHT. JUST STAND THERE FOR A SECOND, OKAY? 844 00:40:15,931 --> 00:40:19,103 -MM-HMM. -EVERYTHING'S FINE. 845 00:40:19,103 --> 00:40:20,793 GET BACK UP THERE. 846 00:40:20,793 --> 00:40:26,551 ♪♪ 847 00:40:26,551 --> 00:40:29,103 NOW IS WHEN YOU NEED TO LET GO 848 00:40:29,103 --> 00:40:32,103 AND STAND ON YOUR OWN FOR ABOUT FIVE SECONDS. 849 00:40:32,103 --> 00:40:34,413 MM-HMM. 850 00:40:34,413 --> 00:40:35,724 OKAY. 851 00:40:35,724 --> 00:40:38,689 OKAY. YOU'RE DOWN TO 584. 852 00:40:38,689 --> 00:40:41,000 THAT'S WEIGHT LOSS OF 108 POUNDS. 853 00:40:43,034 --> 00:40:44,827 OKAY. 854 00:40:44,827 --> 00:40:46,413 ALL RIGHT. 855 00:40:46,413 --> 00:40:47,793 I'M PROUD OF YOU. 856 00:40:47,793 --> 00:40:50,103 SO WE'LL GO AHEAD AND SEND YOU HOME TODAY. 857 00:40:50,103 --> 00:40:52,413 -OKAY. -BUT NOW IT'S TIME TO SHOW ME 858 00:40:52,413 --> 00:40:54,862 THAT YOU'RE READY TO DO THIS ON YOUR OWN. 859 00:40:54,862 --> 00:40:56,172 MM-HMM. 860 00:40:56,172 --> 00:40:57,931 SO I WANT YOU TO LOSE 50 POUNDS IN A MONTH, 861 00:40:57,931 --> 00:41:01,103 AND WE'RE GONNA SEND PHYSICAL THERAPY TO YOUR APARTMENT 862 00:41:01,103 --> 00:41:03,896 TWO DAYS A WEEK TO CONTINUE WORKING WITH YOU 863 00:41:03,896 --> 00:41:07,000 AND MAKE SURE YOU CONTINUE TO GET OUT OF BED. 864 00:41:07,000 --> 00:41:09,241 -OKAY. -AND NEXT TIME I SEE YOU, 865 00:41:09,241 --> 00:41:12,068 I WANT IT TO BE IN MY CLINIC, WALKING IN. 866 00:41:12,068 --> 00:41:14,000 -OKAY. -IF YOU DO ALL THAT, 867 00:41:14,000 --> 00:41:16,241 THEN I'LL APPROVE YOU FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 868 00:41:16,241 --> 00:41:18,206 -OKAY. -OKAY? 869 00:41:18,206 --> 00:41:19,482 THANK YOU SO MUCH. 870 00:41:19,482 --> 00:41:20,862 ALL RIGHT, OCTAVIA. 871 00:41:20,862 --> 00:41:21,896 MY HANDS ARE SWEATY. SORRY. 872 00:41:21,896 --> 00:41:23,517 YOU'RE MAKING GOOD PROGRESS. 873 00:41:25,241 --> 00:41:27,793 Dr. Nowzaradan: I THINK OCTAVIA HAS DONE A GREAT JOB 874 00:41:27,793 --> 00:41:29,931 THESE PAST COUPLE MONTHS. 875 00:41:29,931 --> 00:41:32,448 BUT A BIG FACTOR IN THE WEIGHT SHE'S LOST 876 00:41:32,448 --> 00:41:35,000 HAS BEEN A RESULT OF HER ENABLER 877 00:41:35,000 --> 00:41:37,758 NOT BEING ABLE TO VISIT VERY MUCH. 878 00:41:37,758 --> 00:41:41,965 SO THE BIG QUESTION NOW IS HOW SHE'S GONNA DO ON HER OWN 879 00:41:41,965 --> 00:41:44,034 AND IF SHE'S GONNA STICK WITH IT. 880 00:41:44,034 --> 00:41:46,689 SO THIS WILL BE EXTREMELY HARD FOR HER, 881 00:41:46,689 --> 00:41:49,068 BUT IF SHE TRULY WANTS TO SAVE HER LIFE 882 00:41:49,068 --> 00:41:50,862 AND GET HEALTHY LIKE SHE NEED, 883 00:41:50,862 --> 00:41:53,689 SHE WILL HIT HER GOAL BY THE NEXT TIME I SEE HER. 884 00:41:56,931 --> 00:41:58,310 ARE WE GOING OUT? OUT. 885 00:41:58,310 --> 00:42:01,068 Octavia: I'M EXHAUSTED, BUT I FEEL REALLY GOOD. 886 00:42:01,068 --> 00:42:04,172 AND I'M PROUD OF MYSELF FOR GETTING THIS FAR. 887 00:42:04,172 --> 00:42:07,103 BUT I'M REALLY THANKFUL THAT IT'S PAID OFF 888 00:42:07,103 --> 00:42:12,137 AND THAT I'M MORE ACTIVE THAN I'VE BEEN IN A REALLY LONG TIME. 889 00:42:12,137 --> 00:42:14,379 AND I AM EXCITED TO GO HOME. 890 00:42:14,379 --> 00:42:17,206 I HAVEN'T SEEN MY HOUSE, I HAVEN'T SEEN MY FRIEND, 891 00:42:17,206 --> 00:42:21,137 SO I'M EXCITED TO JUST START MY NEW LIFE HERE. 892 00:42:21,137 --> 00:42:28,482 ♪♪ 893 00:42:28,482 --> 00:42:30,172 YEAH. WE NEED TO MOVE. 894 00:42:33,931 --> 00:42:35,344 ALL RIGHTY. YOU'RE GOOD TO GO. 895 00:42:35,344 --> 00:42:36,965 THANK YOU, GUYS, SO MUCH. 896 00:42:36,965 --> 00:42:38,482 NO PROBLEM. 897 00:42:42,413 --> 00:42:43,241 OH, MY GOD, AUNTIE! 898 00:42:43,241 --> 00:42:47,206 I'M SO GLAD TO BE HOME. 899 00:42:47,206 --> 00:42:48,517 OHH. 900 00:42:48,517 --> 00:42:50,896 FINALLY, FINALLY, FINALLY YOU'RE HERE. 901 00:42:50,896 --> 00:42:52,448 FOREVER. 902 00:42:52,448 --> 00:42:53,827 WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PLACE? 903 00:42:53,827 --> 00:42:55,137 -I LIKE IT. -ALL RIGHT. 904 00:42:55,137 --> 00:42:56,827 OH, GOD. IT FEELS SO GOOD TO BE HOME. 905 00:42:56,827 --> 00:42:59,586 NOW WE GOT TO STAY ON TRACK.I KNOW. 906 00:42:59,586 --> 00:43:04,551 SO I TALKED TO DR. NOW TODAY, AND HE TALKED ABOUT 907 00:43:04,551 --> 00:43:06,620 YOU COMING INTO THE CLINIC, AND HE WAS LIKE, 908 00:43:06,620 --> 00:43:09,241 "YOU GUYS CAN'T ENABLE EACH OTHER" AND STUFF, SO. 909 00:43:09,241 --> 00:43:11,862 YEAH. I'VE BEEN DOING PRETTY GOOD BY MYSELF. 910 00:43:11,862 --> 00:43:14,724 YEAH. SO WE HAVE TO, UM, YOU KNOW, 911 00:43:14,724 --> 00:43:16,896 REALLY JUST STAY ON TRACK, 912 00:43:16,896 --> 00:43:19,206 BE MORE ACTIVE AND STUFF LIKE THAT, SO. 913 00:43:19,206 --> 00:43:20,620 I'M LIKE, "WE'LL BE OKAY." 914 00:43:20,620 --> 00:43:23,068 WE GOT IT. MY BABIES. 915 00:43:23,068 --> 00:43:24,379 OCTAVIA, WE GOT IT. 916 00:43:24,379 --> 00:43:26,310 YEP. 917 00:43:26,310 --> 00:43:29,689 SEXY, SLIM COMING 2020. 918 00:43:29,689 --> 00:43:32,827 [ LAUGHTER ] 919 00:43:32,827 --> 00:43:33,758 OH, MAN. 920 00:43:33,758 --> 00:43:35,655 THIS IS TOO COOL. 921 00:43:35,655 --> 00:43:44,758 ♪♪ 922 00:43:44,758 --> 00:43:46,551 Octavia: I'VE BEEN HOME FOR A COUPLE WEEKS NOW, 923 00:43:46,551 --> 00:43:50,241 AND I'M STILL WORKING HARD TO DO MY EXERCISES AND DIET. 924 00:43:50,241 --> 00:43:53,206 BUT I'VE EASED UP A LITTLE ON HOW MUCH I WAS DOING 925 00:43:53,206 --> 00:43:57,862 AND HOW STRICT OF A REGIMEN I WAS FOLLOWING IN THE FACILITY. 926 00:43:57,862 --> 00:43:59,931 NOT A LOT, BUT I JUST FEEL LIKE 927 00:43:59,931 --> 00:44:04,310 WHAT I'M DOING NOW IS MORE BALANCED. 928 00:44:04,310 --> 00:44:05,482 HEY. 929 00:44:05,482 --> 00:44:06,965 YOU WANT TO EAT SOMETHING? 930 00:44:06,965 --> 00:44:08,206 OKAY. THANKS, BABY. 931 00:44:08,206 --> 00:44:11,689 MM-HMM. 932 00:44:11,689 --> 00:44:15,793 NICHELLE IS DOING HER PART BY MAKING ME HEALTHIER MEALS. 933 00:44:15,793 --> 00:44:17,758 THEY MAY NOT BE COMPLETELY FREE OF BUTTER 934 00:44:17,758 --> 00:44:19,931 AND EVERYTHING THAT GIVES GOOD FLAVOR, 935 00:44:19,931 --> 00:44:22,793 BUT THEY'RE MUCH HEALTHIER THAN WHAT I WAS EATING. 936 00:44:22,793 --> 00:44:25,275 HERE YOU GO. 937 00:44:25,275 --> 00:44:27,000 WHAT'D YOU MAKE? 938 00:44:27,000 --> 00:44:29,103 EGGS AND -- SOME PICO. 939 00:44:29,103 --> 00:44:30,758 YES. 940 00:44:30,758 --> 00:44:33,758 MY ONLY REAL WEAKNESS IS CHIPS, 941 00:44:33,758 --> 00:44:37,068 AND I'VE ONLY GIVEN IN A FEW TIMES AND HAD SOME. 942 00:44:37,068 --> 00:44:40,034 SO I'M STICKING TO THE 1,200-CALORIE-A-DAY DIET 943 00:44:40,034 --> 00:44:42,862 WITH ONLY MINOR EXCEPTIONS. 944 00:44:42,862 --> 00:44:45,620 SO I KNOW I'M STILL ON TRACK, AND I'M FEELING CONFIDENT 945 00:44:45,620 --> 00:44:47,310 I'M GONNA HIT MY GOAL. 946 00:44:47,310 --> 00:44:53,965 ♪♪ 947 00:44:53,965 --> 00:45:00,620 ♪♪ 948 00:45:00,620 --> 00:45:03,931 TODAY, ME AND NICHELLE ARE GOING TO SEE DR. NOW 949 00:45:03,931 --> 00:45:06,413 FOR THE FIRST TIME IN HIS OFFICE. 950 00:45:06,413 --> 00:45:08,724 HE SAID THAT NOW THAT I'M GETTING OUT OF BED 951 00:45:08,724 --> 00:45:11,965 THAT I SHOULD HAVE NO PROBLEM GETTING IN A REGULAR VEHICLE, 952 00:45:11,965 --> 00:45:15,448 AND HE'S NOT SENDING MEDICAL TRANSPORT FOR ME. 953 00:45:15,448 --> 00:45:17,586 SO NICHELLE CALLED ME A CAB WITH A RAMP 954 00:45:17,586 --> 00:45:20,586 SO I CAN TRY AND GET IN THE BACK OF THE VEHICLE. 955 00:45:20,586 --> 00:45:23,724 BUT I'M REALLY NERVOUS BECAUSE IT'S BEEN A VERY LONG TIME 956 00:45:23,724 --> 00:45:26,241 SINCE I'VE BEEN ABLE TO FIT IN A NORMAL CAR. 957 00:45:26,241 --> 00:45:31,172 ♪♪ 958 00:45:36,586 --> 00:45:37,827 TO GET IN THE CAR? 959 00:45:37,827 --> 00:45:38,758 I DON'T KNOW IF I COULD LIFT UP THERE. 960 00:45:38,758 --> 00:45:40,000 I CAN TRY. 961 00:45:40,000 --> 00:45:41,172 HOW ARE YOU GONNA LIFT UP THAT HIGH? 962 00:45:45,206 --> 00:45:47,758 I DON'T THINK YOU -- I DON'T KNOW. 963 00:45:47,758 --> 00:45:49,206 I DON'T KNOW. 964 00:45:49,206 --> 00:45:50,827 THAT'S KIND OF HIGH FOR HER. 965 00:45:50,827 --> 00:45:52,517 DO YOU WANT TO TRY TO GET IN MY CAR 966 00:45:52,517 --> 00:45:54,551 OR DO YOU WANT TO TRY TO WALK UP THIS RAMP? 967 00:45:56,827 --> 00:45:59,310 OKAY. YOU WANT ME PULL MY CAR, 968 00:45:59,310 --> 00:46:01,034 TRY TO SEE IF YOU CAN GET IN THERE? 969 00:46:01,034 --> 00:46:02,758 OKAY. 970 00:46:07,586 --> 00:46:09,448 OCTAVIA, WE'RE ON. 971 00:46:09,448 --> 00:46:17,793 ♪♪ 972 00:46:17,793 --> 00:46:20,379 HERE WE GO. 973 00:46:20,379 --> 00:46:24,896 ONE, TWO, THREE. 974 00:46:24,896 --> 00:46:25,689 OH. 975 00:46:25,689 --> 00:46:27,965 I GOT YOU. 976 00:46:27,965 --> 00:46:29,689 TAKE YOUR TIME, OCTAVIA. 977 00:46:32,758 --> 00:46:34,103 BREATHE. 978 00:46:34,103 --> 00:46:36,000 YOU GOT THIS. 979 00:46:36,000 --> 00:46:37,448 I LET THE SEAT BACK. 980 00:46:37,448 --> 00:46:39,551 IT'S UP HIGH. 981 00:46:39,551 --> 00:46:40,896 WELL, LAY BACK. 982 00:46:41,413 --> 00:46:42,448 ALL RIGHT. HOLD ON. HOLD ON. 983 00:46:42,448 --> 00:46:44,000 ONE, TWO, THREE. 984 00:46:44,000 --> 00:46:46,000 YOU GOT IT UP THERE. SLIDE IT ON IN. 985 00:46:46,000 --> 00:46:47,655 YOU GOT IT. 986 00:46:50,862 --> 00:46:51,931 -OKAY. -OKAY. 987 00:46:51,931 --> 00:46:53,655 CLOSE THE DOOR. 988 00:46:55,931 --> 00:46:57,724 Octavia: I WAS HOPING WITH ALL MY PROGRESS 989 00:46:57,724 --> 00:47:01,793 THIS WOULD BE EASIER, BUT IT'S NOT. 990 00:47:01,793 --> 00:47:04,275 AND I'M IN SO MUCH PAIN RIGHT NOW. 991 00:47:04,275 --> 00:47:06,172 I JUST HOPE I CAN MAKE IT. 992 00:47:06,172 --> 00:47:08,931 BECAUSE I CAN'T MISS MY APPOINTMENT WITH DR. NOW. 993 00:47:13,793 --> 00:47:21,482 ♪♪ 994 00:47:21,482 --> 00:47:29,206 ♪♪ 995 00:47:29,206 --> 00:47:30,655 Nichelle: WE ARE HERE. 996 00:47:30,655 --> 00:47:32,448 THANK YOU, JESUS. 997 00:47:32,448 --> 00:47:39,275 ♪♪ 998 00:47:39,275 --> 00:47:41,103 [ GRUNTING ] 999 00:47:46,000 --> 00:47:49,931 [ GRUNTING ] 1000 00:47:49,931 --> 00:47:50,827 YOU GOT IT, OCTAVIA? 1001 00:47:50,827 --> 00:47:51,965 I DON'T KNOW. 1002 00:47:51,965 --> 00:47:53,689 THE CHAIR'S RIGHT THERE. 1003 00:47:58,551 --> 00:48:01,172 [ GRUNTS ] 1004 00:48:02,034 --> 00:48:03,275 ALL RIGHT. YOU DID IT. 1005 00:48:03,275 --> 00:48:06,103 GOOD JOB. 1006 00:48:06,103 --> 00:48:07,551 OKAY. 1007 00:48:07,551 --> 00:48:10,137 I'M REALLY STRUGGLING RIGHT NOW. 1008 00:48:10,137 --> 00:48:12,103 BECAUSE I'M JUST COMPLETELY DRAINED, 1009 00:48:12,103 --> 00:48:14,310 AND I'M NOT GONNA BE ABLE TO STAND ON MY OWN 1010 00:48:14,310 --> 00:48:15,517 AND GET MY WEIGHT CHECKED 1011 00:48:15,517 --> 00:48:17,724 WITHOUT SOMETHING TO LEAN ON FOR SUPPORT 1012 00:48:17,724 --> 00:48:19,586 BECAUSE I JUST DON'T HAVE IT IN ME. 1013 00:48:19,586 --> 00:48:22,172 BUT I HAVE TO TRY. 1014 00:48:22,172 --> 00:48:24,896 OCTAVIA GAHAGANS. 1015 00:48:24,896 --> 00:48:29,241 WHEN I LEFT REHAB, I MADE IT DOWN TO 584, 1016 00:48:29,241 --> 00:48:33,206 AND DR. NOW SAID I HAD TO LOSE 50 POUNDS THIS MONTH. 1017 00:48:33,206 --> 00:48:36,551 SO THAT MEANS I NEED TO BE BELOW 534 TODAY. 1018 00:48:37,206 --> 00:48:38,655 OKAY. 1019 00:48:38,655 --> 00:48:41,241 AND I THINK I DID THAT. 1020 00:48:41,241 --> 00:48:44,206 I JUST HAVE TO STAND TO GET MY WEIGHT CHECKED. 1021 00:48:44,206 --> 00:48:51,275 ♪♪ 1022 00:48:51,275 --> 00:48:58,344 ♪♪ 1023 00:48:58,344 --> 00:49:05,448 ♪♪ 1024 00:49:05,448 --> 00:49:07,517 OH, IT HURTS. 1025 00:49:07,517 --> 00:49:11,517 I DON'T UNDERSTAND THAT, AND I'M REALLY UPSET RIGHT NOW. 1026 00:49:11,517 --> 00:49:12,758 IT'S OKAY. 1027 00:49:12,758 --> 00:49:15,241 GOT TO TRY A LITTLE HARDER NEXT TIME. 1028 00:49:15,241 --> 00:49:16,344 YOU'RE GONNA GET IT. 1029 00:49:16,344 --> 00:49:17,965 YEAH. -OKAY. 1030 00:49:17,965 --> 00:49:19,310 YOU GUYS CAN GO TO ROOM 5. 1031 00:49:19,310 --> 00:49:21,000 -THANK YOU. -YOU'RE WELCOME. 1032 00:49:25,206 --> 00:49:29,379 Octavia: I THOUGHT I HAD LOST MORE THAN THAT, AND I HAVEN'T. 1033 00:49:29,379 --> 00:49:32,206 I KNOW I FELL SHORT WITH MY STRESS EATING, 1034 00:49:32,206 --> 00:49:34,586 AND I'VE HAD ISSUES TO WHERE, YOU KNOW, 1035 00:49:34,586 --> 00:49:36,551 I HAVEN'T DONE CORRECTLY, SO. 1036 00:49:39,551 --> 00:49:41,310 DR. NOW, I'M SURE, IS GONNA BE UPSET 1037 00:49:41,310 --> 00:49:42,620 BECAUSE I DIDN'T MEET MY GOAL, 1038 00:49:42,620 --> 00:49:44,724 SO I WON'T BE APPROVED FOR SURGERY TODAY. 1039 00:49:44,724 --> 00:49:46,310 I KNOW THAT. 1040 00:49:46,310 --> 00:49:49,068 WE MADE IT. WE'RE HERE. CAN'T GIVE UP NOW. 1041 00:49:49,068 --> 00:49:51,620 I'M DISAPPOINTED. 1042 00:49:51,620 --> 00:49:52,620 YOU WIN SOME. 1043 00:49:52,620 --> 00:49:54,551 YOU WIN SOME LATER. 1044 00:49:54,551 --> 00:49:56,034 I DIDN'T MAKE IT. 1045 00:49:56,034 --> 00:49:58,275 WE'LL SEE WHAT HE SAYS WHEN HE COMES IN HERE. 1046 00:50:02,448 --> 00:50:03,448 -HELLO. -HELLO. 1047 00:50:03,448 --> 00:50:05,413 HI, DR. NOW. 1048 00:50:05,413 --> 00:50:07,724 HOW ARE YOU ALL DOING? 1049 00:50:07,724 --> 00:50:09,137 OH. WE'RE HERE. 1050 00:50:09,137 --> 00:50:10,310 ALL RIGHT, OCTAVIA. 1051 00:50:10,310 --> 00:50:12,241 SO YOU'RE ALMOST 100 POUNDS OFF 1052 00:50:12,241 --> 00:50:13,793 FROM WHERE YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE. 1053 00:50:13,793 --> 00:50:14,931 WHAT HAPPENED? 1054 00:50:14,931 --> 00:50:16,413 THINGS HAVE BEEN HECTIC FOR ME. 1055 00:50:16,413 --> 00:50:18,517 I'M STRESSED OUT. -WHAT DO YOU MEAN "BEEN HECTIC"? 1056 00:50:18,517 --> 00:50:20,586 IT'S JUST BEEN A LOT. I'VE BEEN STRESSED. 1057 00:50:20,586 --> 00:50:23,206 SO, YOU KNOW, WHEN I'M STRESSED, I EAT. 1058 00:50:23,206 --> 00:50:25,793 SO WE'RE GIVING YOU THIS CHANCE TO SAVE YOUR LIFE, 1059 00:50:25,793 --> 00:50:28,000 AND YOU TELL ME YOU CAN'T DO IT RIGHT NOW 1060 00:50:28,000 --> 00:50:29,517 BECAUSE YOU'RE STRESSED? 1061 00:50:29,517 --> 00:50:31,413 BECAUSE THAT'S NEVER GONNA CHANGE. 1062 00:50:31,413 --> 00:50:33,206 LIFE IS FULL OF STRESS.I KNOW. 1063 00:50:33,206 --> 00:50:36,482 SO YOU MAKE ALL THOSE CHANGES TO COME HERE TO CHANGE YOUR LIFE, 1064 00:50:36,482 --> 00:50:38,310 AND NOW YOU'RE NOT CHANGING. 1065 00:50:38,310 --> 00:50:40,379 BOTH OF YOU ARE TOGETHER. 1066 00:50:40,379 --> 00:50:42,413 SHE'S OVERWEIGHT. YOU'RE OVERWEIGHT. 1067 00:50:42,413 --> 00:50:44,206 YOU'RE NOT LOSING WEIGHT BECAUSE YOU HAVE 1068 00:50:44,206 --> 00:50:46,482 AN ENABLER TAKING CARE OF YOU, 1069 00:50:46,482 --> 00:50:49,965 AND YOU BOTH SEEM TO HAVE NO DESIRE TO CHANGE. 1070 00:50:49,965 --> 00:50:51,655 SO WHAT'S THE POINT OF COMING DOWN HERE 1071 00:50:51,655 --> 00:50:53,310 AND NOT FOLLOWING OUR DIET? 1072 00:50:53,310 --> 00:50:55,000 DR. NOW, I NEED THERAPY. 1073 00:50:55,000 --> 00:50:56,724 I NEED HELP. IT'S NOT SOMETHING -- 1074 00:50:56,724 --> 00:50:58,862 THIS IS SOMETHING THAT I'VE BEEN STRUGGLING WITH. 1075 00:50:58,862 --> 00:51:00,517 IT'S AN ADJUSTMENT, DR. NOW. 1076 00:51:00,517 --> 00:51:02,413 WE'VE BEEN THROUGH A LOT SINCE WE'VE BEEN HERE. 1077 00:51:02,413 --> 00:51:03,379 NOTHING YOU ARE SAYING MATTERS. 1078 00:51:03,379 --> 00:51:04,862 SO WHY EVEN SAY ANYTHING? 1079 00:51:04,862 --> 00:51:06,206 IT'S AN ADJUSTMENT FOR US. 1080 00:51:06,206 --> 00:51:07,689 WHAT ARE WE WAITING FOR? 1081 00:51:07,689 --> 00:51:10,862 THIS IS AN ADJUSTMENT FOR US -- BOTH OF US. 1082 00:51:10,862 --> 00:51:14,068 THIS IS SOMETHING THAT WE'VE DEALT WITH OUR ENTIRE LIVES, 1083 00:51:14,068 --> 00:51:15,965 AND WE'RE TRYING TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE, 1084 00:51:15,965 --> 00:51:18,275 AND SHE'S NOT A PET, SO I CAN'T TREAT HER LIKE A PET. 1085 00:51:18,275 --> 00:51:21,103 SHE'S A HUMAN BEING TO ME, SO I TRY TO TALK TO HER -- 1086 00:51:21,103 --> 00:51:23,448 WE DON'T WANT HER TO BE TREATED LIKE A PET. 1087 00:51:23,448 --> 00:51:27,103 NOT FEEDING HER WHATEVER SHE WANTS DOESN'T MAKE HER A PET. 1088 00:51:27,103 --> 00:51:28,827 THAT'S ENABLER LOGIC. 1089 00:51:28,827 --> 00:51:31,379 I WANT YOU TO BE SUPPORTIVE --I AM SUPPORTIVE. 1090 00:51:31,379 --> 00:51:34,586 AND BEING SUPPORTIVE, THAT MEANS THAT YOU STOP 1091 00:51:34,586 --> 00:51:37,482 BRINGING HER UNHEALTHY FOOD THAT'S KILLING HER, 1092 00:51:37,482 --> 00:51:42,206 AND YOU BOTH DO THE SAME THING AND BOTH LOSE WEIGHT. 1093 00:51:42,206 --> 00:51:43,000 YES. YOU'RE RIGHT. 1094 00:51:43,000 --> 00:51:44,655 BUT WE UNDERSTAND THAT. 1095 00:51:44,655 --> 00:51:47,517 BUT WHAT I'M TELLING YOU IS, YOU HAVE TO LOOK AT THE WHY. 1096 00:51:47,517 --> 00:51:48,862 YOU'RE LOOKING AT THE RESULT. 1097 00:51:48,862 --> 00:51:51,344 NOBODY'S FIXING THE WHY. 1098 00:51:51,344 --> 00:51:53,620 IF YOU'VE BEEN ADDICTED TO SOMETHING YOUR WHOLE LIFE, 1099 00:51:53,620 --> 00:51:55,724 AND YOU GIVE ME A PIECE OF PAPER, AND YOU SAY, 1100 00:51:55,724 --> 00:51:59,137 "HEY, DO THIS," THE PAPER'S NOT GONNA CHANGE ME. 1101 00:51:59,137 --> 00:52:00,655 EVERYTHING THAT I'VE BEEN GIVEN 1102 00:52:00,655 --> 00:52:03,620 IS STILL NOT HELPING ME TO THE WHY. 1103 00:52:03,620 --> 00:52:05,068 ALL RIGHT, OCTAVIA. 1104 00:52:05,068 --> 00:52:07,620 DO YOU WANT TO START THERAPY TO ADDRESS THE WHY? 1105 00:52:07,620 --> 00:52:09,862 THEN WE'LL START YOU ON THERAPY. 1106 00:52:09,862 --> 00:52:12,896 BUT LET ME TRY TO CLEAR SOMETHING UP. 1107 00:52:12,896 --> 00:52:15,586 RIGHT NOW, FOR THIS FIRST WEIGHT-LOSS GOAL, 1108 00:52:15,586 --> 00:52:17,551 IT IS A MATTER OF CHOICE. 1109 00:52:17,551 --> 00:52:21,103 STICKING WITH IT IS WHAT THERAPY ADDRESSES. 1110 00:52:21,103 --> 00:52:24,034 THE WHY HAS TO BE ADDRESSED FOR THE LONG-TERM. 1111 00:52:24,034 --> 00:52:27,793 BECAUSE DISCIPLINE WILL EVENTUALLY FALL TO TEMPTATION 1112 00:52:27,793 --> 00:52:31,448 IF YOU HAVEN'T ADDRESSED A CORE ISSUE AT PLAY. 1113 00:52:31,448 --> 00:52:34,413 SO DOING IT FROM SIX MONTHS TO A YEAR, 1114 00:52:34,413 --> 00:52:37,551 AND FOR A LIFETIME, THAT'S THE STRUGGLE. 1115 00:52:37,551 --> 00:52:40,758 MARK TWAIN SAID, "QUITTING SMOKING IS EASY. 1116 00:52:40,758 --> 00:52:43,034 I'VE DONE IT A THOUSAND TIMES." 1117 00:52:43,034 --> 00:52:45,862 HIS POINT WAS, STICKING TO IT 1118 00:52:45,862 --> 00:52:47,793 AND RESISTING TEMPTATION IS HARD. 1119 00:52:47,793 --> 00:52:50,655 MAKING A CHOICE TO CHANGE ISN'T. 1120 00:52:50,655 --> 00:52:51,896 OKAY? MM-HMM. 1121 00:52:51,896 --> 00:52:54,448 SO IF YOU WANT TO START WITH THERAPY, 1122 00:52:54,448 --> 00:52:56,482 THEN WE'LL START TO GO INTO THAT. 1123 00:52:56,482 --> 00:52:59,448 AND WHAT I'M GOING TO DO IS GIVE YOU ANOTHER MONTH 1124 00:52:59,448 --> 00:53:02,413 TO LOSE 50 POUNDS LIKE YOU SHOULD HAVE DONE. 1125 00:53:02,413 --> 00:53:04,965 OKAY? AND IF YOU HAVE ANY ISSUES, 1126 00:53:04,965 --> 00:53:06,965 YOU PICK UP THE PHONE AND CALL ME. 1127 00:53:06,965 --> 00:53:07,793 OKAY. 1128 00:53:07,793 --> 00:53:08,758 THANK YOU, DR. NOW. 1129 00:53:08,758 --> 00:53:11,551 -ALL RIGHT? -ALL RIGHT. 1130 00:53:11,551 --> 00:53:14,310 NICE TO SEE YOU AGAIN, AND BE GOOD SUPPORT FOR HER. 1131 00:53:14,310 --> 00:53:15,896 I HAVE BEEN. [ CHUCKLES ] 1132 00:53:15,896 --> 00:53:22,206 ♪♪ 1133 00:53:22,206 --> 00:53:24,000 I JUST WANT TO BE BETTER. 1134 00:53:27,586 --> 00:53:30,000 Dr. Nowzaradan: INSTEAD OF TAKING RESPONSIBILITY, 1135 00:53:30,000 --> 00:53:32,413 OCTAVIA IS BLAMING HER EMOTIONS 1136 00:53:32,413 --> 00:53:36,103 AND MAKING EXCUSES TO JUSTIFY HER CHOICES. 1137 00:53:36,103 --> 00:53:39,896 BUT IF SHE AND NICHELLE DON'T START TO TAKE THIS SERIOUSLY, 1138 00:53:39,896 --> 00:53:44,310 THEN IN ANOTHER MONTH, SHE WILL BE BACK UP TO ALMOST 700 POUNDS, 1139 00:53:44,310 --> 00:53:46,275 AND SHE WILL CONTINUE TO GAIN FROM THERE 1140 00:53:46,275 --> 00:53:48,379 AND BECOME IMMOBILE AGAIN. 1141 00:53:48,379 --> 00:53:51,137 SO THEY'RE BOTH PLAYING A DANGEROUS GAME RIGHT NOW, 1142 00:53:51,137 --> 00:53:53,655 AND THEY NEED TO WAKE UP. 1143 00:53:53,655 --> 00:53:55,620 -ALL RIGHT. -I'M SO READY TO GO. 1144 00:53:55,620 --> 00:53:58,586 I CAN'T GET OUT OF HERE FAST ENOUGH. 1145 00:53:58,586 --> 00:54:05,379 ♪♪ 1146 00:54:05,379 --> 00:54:12,103 ♪♪ 1147 00:54:12,103 --> 00:54:15,206 Octavia: THE PAST COUPLE WEEKS HAVE BEEN HARD. 1148 00:54:15,206 --> 00:54:19,310 NICHELLE HAS BEEN REALLY UPSET AFTER THE DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENT. 1149 00:54:19,310 --> 00:54:22,241 DR. NOW SAYING SHE'S MY ENABLER UPSET HER, 1150 00:54:22,241 --> 00:54:25,448 AND SO THINGS HAVE BEEN A LITTLE TENSE BETWEEN US, 1151 00:54:25,448 --> 00:54:29,034 AND SHE'S THINKING IT'S BEST IF SHE GOES BACK TO KANSAS CITY. 1152 00:54:29,034 --> 00:54:32,000 BUT I DON'T HAVE ANYONE ELSE DOWN HERE, 1153 00:54:32,000 --> 00:54:35,275 AND THE STRESS OF IT ALL HAS BEEN TOO MUCH FOR ME. 1154 00:54:35,275 --> 00:54:38,206 SO I'M REALLY STRUGGLING. 1155 00:54:38,206 --> 00:54:39,758 AND WITH EVERYTHING GOING ON, 1156 00:54:39,758 --> 00:54:41,931 I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO START GOING TO THE THERAPY 1157 00:54:41,931 --> 00:54:44,103 DR. NOW SET UP FOR ME, 1158 00:54:44,103 --> 00:54:47,068 AND I KNOW HE ISN'T HAPPY ABOUT THAT. 1159 00:54:47,068 --> 00:54:50,793 SO I JUST HAVE TO GET THIS ALL FIGURED OUT WITH NICHELLE. 1160 00:54:50,793 --> 00:54:52,206 BUT IF SHE DOESN'T WANT TO BE HERE, 1161 00:54:52,206 --> 00:54:54,724 THEN I DON'T WANT TO MAKE HER FEEL LIKE SHE HAS TO. 1162 00:54:57,517 --> 00:54:59,068 HELLO. HI. 1163 00:54:59,068 --> 00:55:01,551 WHAT YOU DOING? 1164 00:55:01,551 --> 00:55:03,551 [ SIGHS ] JUST THINKING. 1165 00:55:03,551 --> 00:55:06,137 HERE'S THE THING. THIS IS WHAT I FEEL LIKE. 1166 00:55:06,137 --> 00:55:08,310 I KNOW WHAT DR. NOW IS SAYING -- 1167 00:55:08,310 --> 00:55:11,068 I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT. 1168 00:55:11,068 --> 00:55:13,310 JUST -- PLEASE.I KNOW IT'S HARD TO HEAR, 1169 00:55:13,310 --> 00:55:15,965 AND I KNOW YOU DON'T WANT TO BE A PART OF THE PROCESS. 1170 00:55:15,965 --> 00:55:18,103 I'M ALREADY A PART OF THE PROCESS. I JUST -- 1171 00:55:18,103 --> 00:55:19,724 BUT YOU'RE NOT HAPPY ABOUT IT, 1172 00:55:19,724 --> 00:55:22,103 AND, ULTIMATELY, YOU KNOW, 1173 00:55:22,103 --> 00:55:24,793 A LOT OF WHAT HE'S SAYING IS TRUE, AND I GET IT. 1174 00:55:24,793 --> 00:55:26,724 YOU KNOW, IT'S HARD TO TAKE CRITICISM, 1175 00:55:26,724 --> 00:55:28,482 AND I KNOW IT'S STRESSFUL FOR YOU. 1176 00:55:28,482 --> 00:55:30,413 I JUST DON'T WANT THAT DYNAMIC. 1177 00:55:30,413 --> 00:55:31,931 BECAUSE IF HE SAYS SOMETHING TO YOU, 1178 00:55:31,931 --> 00:55:33,965 IT UPSETS YOU, THEN I FEEL BAD 1179 00:55:33,965 --> 00:55:37,275 BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE I PUT YOU IN THIS POSITION. 1180 00:55:37,275 --> 00:55:38,379 YOU SHOULDN'T FEEL LIKE THAT. 1181 00:55:38,379 --> 00:55:40,448 WELL, I CAN'T HELP IT.YEAH. 1182 00:55:40,448 --> 00:55:42,379 I JUST DON'T WANT THE TENSION. 1183 00:55:42,379 --> 00:55:45,517 IT'S HURTING ME, AND IT'S HURTING YOU. 1184 00:55:45,517 --> 00:55:46,896 AND I DON'T WANT THAT. 1185 00:55:46,896 --> 00:55:50,241 I'M DAMNED IF I DO, DAMNED IF I DON'T. 1186 00:55:50,241 --> 00:55:52,241 IF I DO RIGHT, YOU STILL GET ATTACKED. 1187 00:55:52,241 --> 00:55:53,965 IF YOU DO WRONG, YOU STILL GET ATTACKED. 1188 00:55:53,965 --> 00:55:55,827 BUT WE DIDN'T DO RIGHT, CHELLE. 1189 00:55:55,827 --> 00:55:57,689 I'M NOT LOSING WEIGHT. 1190 00:55:57,689 --> 00:56:00,137 BUT WE DIDN'T DO WRONG ALL THE WAY EITHER, OCTAVIA. 1191 00:56:00,137 --> 00:56:02,862 WE DIDN'T DO RIGHT. IT'S NOT RIGHT. 1192 00:56:02,862 --> 00:56:06,206 OKAY, SO WHAT DO YOU FEEL LIKE WE DID WRONG? 1193 00:56:06,206 --> 00:56:08,000 IT'S NOT LIKE EVERY DAY WE GO OUT AND LIKE, 1194 00:56:08,000 --> 00:56:09,068 "OH, WE GONNA EAT THIS, THIS, THIS." 1195 00:56:09,068 --> 00:56:10,655 RIGHT. I GET THAT. 1196 00:56:10,655 --> 00:56:13,310 BUT YOU HAVE TO LOOK AT, OKAY, WE DID GOOD FOR BREAKFAST, 1197 00:56:13,310 --> 00:56:15,724 WE DID GOOD FOR LUNCH, WE JACKED UP ON DINNER. 1198 00:56:15,724 --> 00:56:16,689 RIGHT. OKAY. 1199 00:56:16,689 --> 00:56:18,206 WE'RE DOING THIS EVERY DAY. 1200 00:56:18,206 --> 00:56:20,862 SO, BASICALLY, YOU KNOW HOW YOU SAY THE GOOD OUTWEIGH THE BAD. 1201 00:56:20,862 --> 00:56:23,448 BUT THAT BAD IS KEEPING ME STUCK. 1202 00:56:23,448 --> 00:56:25,034 I UNDERSTAND.SO I'M NOT LOSING WEIGHT. 1203 00:56:25,034 --> 00:56:27,206 SO WE ARE MESSING UP. 1204 00:56:27,206 --> 00:56:29,793 YOU KNOW, THAT'S ALL I'M SAYING IS WE HAVE TO OWN IT. 1205 00:56:29,793 --> 00:56:32,379 I OWN THAT, AND I FEEL RESPONSIBLE, 1206 00:56:32,379 --> 00:56:34,000 AND THAT'S ONE REASON I WAS LIKE, 1207 00:56:34,000 --> 00:56:37,137 "FROM THIS POINT ON, MAYBE WHAT I'M DOING AIN'T RIGHT." 1208 00:56:37,137 --> 00:56:39,206 THAT'S WHAT I FEEL LIKE. 1209 00:56:39,206 --> 00:56:40,379 DAMNED IF I DO, DAMNED IF I DON'T. 1210 00:56:40,379 --> 00:56:41,379 BUT IT'S BOTH OF US. I'M NOT SAYING -- 1211 00:56:41,379 --> 00:56:42,551 BUT YOU'RE NOT BEING BLAMED FOR IT. 1212 00:56:42,551 --> 00:56:44,275 YES, I AM. 1213 00:56:44,275 --> 00:56:47,034 IT'S NOT LIKE HE'S JUST SAYING, "NICHELLE, NICHELLE, NICHELLE." 1214 00:56:47,034 --> 00:56:48,793 HE BLAMES ME, TOO. 1215 00:56:48,793 --> 00:56:51,413 I HAVE TO CHANGE. I KNOW IT'S HARD. 1216 00:56:51,413 --> 00:56:53,206 I KNOW IT'S HARD FOR ME, IT'S HARD FOR YOU 1217 00:56:53,206 --> 00:56:56,827 BECAUSE THIS IS THE WAY WE'VE HAD TO COPE WITH LIFE. 1218 00:56:56,827 --> 00:57:00,000 AND NOBODY'S GONNA UNDERSTAND THAT FOR US. 1219 00:57:00,000 --> 00:57:03,137 BUT IF WE KEEP DOING THE WAY THAT WE'RE DOING, 1220 00:57:03,137 --> 00:57:04,827 WE'RE NOT GONNA BE HERE. 1221 00:57:04,827 --> 00:57:08,448 WE'VE BEEN IN SURVIVOR MODE SINCE WE WERE LITTLE GIRLS. 1222 00:57:08,448 --> 00:57:12,137 THE SAME STUFF HAPPENED TO ME HAPPENED TO YOU. 1223 00:57:12,137 --> 00:57:15,068 [ Voice breaking ] WE'VE HAD THE SAME STUFF. 1224 00:57:15,068 --> 00:57:16,655 BUT WE GOT TO CHANGE THIS. 1225 00:57:16,655 --> 00:57:20,068 WE DON'T HAVE TO KEEP ON DOING LIKE WE'RE DOING. 1226 00:57:20,068 --> 00:57:22,689 WE GOT TO STOP. 1227 00:57:22,689 --> 00:57:24,655 WE GOT TO CHANGE. 1228 00:57:24,655 --> 00:57:26,586 THIS AIN'T ABOUT ME. THIS IS ABOUT YOU RIGHT NOW. 1229 00:57:26,586 --> 00:57:28,137 NO, CHELLE, IT IS. 1230 00:57:28,137 --> 00:57:29,137 IT IS FOR YOU. 1231 00:57:29,137 --> 00:57:30,379 YOU GOT TO DO IT, TOO. 1232 00:57:30,379 --> 00:57:31,724 OCTAVIA, THIS AIN'T ABOUT ME. 1233 00:57:31,724 --> 00:57:34,379 THIS IS ABOUT YOU.NO, NO, NO. 1234 00:57:34,379 --> 00:57:35,620 I'M TALKING ABOUT LIFE. 1235 00:57:35,620 --> 00:57:36,896 I UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT. 1236 00:57:36,896 --> 00:57:38,758 I'M JUST SAYING. WE GOT TO DO BETTER. 1237 00:57:38,758 --> 00:57:39,862 OKAY. 1238 00:57:39,862 --> 00:57:41,827 SO IF YOU WANT TO KEEP GOING, FINE. 1239 00:57:41,827 --> 00:57:44,758 IF NOT, I PROMISE I'M NOT GONNA BE MAD. 1240 00:57:44,758 --> 00:57:46,206 I DON'T WANT YOU GONE, 1241 00:57:46,206 --> 00:57:48,172 [ Normal voice ] BUT I DON'T WANT YOU TO GO THROUGH THIS, 1242 00:57:48,172 --> 00:57:50,137 AND YOU DON'T WANT TO DO IT. THAT'S WHAT I'M SAYING. 1243 00:57:50,137 --> 00:57:51,896 OCTAVIA, YOU ACT LIKE YOU DON'T GET UPSET, TOO. 1244 00:57:51,896 --> 00:57:53,586 I DO, TOO. OKAY, THEN. 1245 00:57:53,586 --> 00:57:56,206 I TAKE THE RESPONSIBILITY ON MY PART. 1246 00:57:56,206 --> 00:57:57,275 I [BLEEP] UP WITH YOU. 1247 00:57:57,275 --> 00:57:59,310 I [BLEEP] UP WITH MYSELF. 1248 00:57:59,310 --> 00:58:03,862 SO I TAKE THAT RESPONSIBILITY FULL-FLEDGE ON MY SHOULDER. 1249 00:58:03,862 --> 00:58:06,793 SO, YOU KNOW, LET ME BE HOW I AM. 1250 00:58:06,793 --> 00:58:08,689 THAT'S JUST ME. 1251 00:58:08,689 --> 00:58:10,413 ALL RIGHT. 1252 00:58:10,413 --> 00:58:12,137 MM. 1253 00:58:15,896 --> 00:58:19,310 Octavia: I CAN'T DO THIS ON MY OWN. 1254 00:58:19,310 --> 00:58:22,275 AND I CAN'T QUIT AND GO BACK HOME. 1255 00:58:22,275 --> 00:58:26,241 IF I DO THAT, THEN I'LL LOSE EVERYTHING. 1256 00:58:26,241 --> 00:58:29,586 SO I JUST HAVE TO SETTLE THINGS WITH NICHELLE. 1257 00:58:29,586 --> 00:58:31,862 BECAUSE I KNOW THIS IS MY LAST CHANCE. 1258 00:58:31,862 --> 00:58:39,310 ♪♪ 1259 00:58:39,310 --> 00:58:46,758 ♪♪ 1260 00:58:46,758 --> 00:58:48,379 IT'S CONTINUED TO BE A DIFFICULT TIME 1261 00:58:48,379 --> 00:58:52,724 BECAUSE ME AND NICHELLE ARE STILL TRYING TO WORK THINGS OUT. 1262 00:58:52,724 --> 00:58:54,068 IT SEEMS LIKE ALL WE'RE DOING 1263 00:58:54,068 --> 00:58:57,862 IS EITHER AVOIDING EACH OTHER OR ARGUING. 1264 00:58:57,862 --> 00:58:59,896 SO I TOLD HER THAT I THINK WE BOTH DESERVE 1265 00:58:59,896 --> 00:59:03,034 TO JUST TAKE A BREAK AND THAT WE'VE EARNED A CHEAT DAY. 1266 00:59:03,034 --> 00:59:07,068 ♪♪ 1267 00:59:07,068 --> 00:59:08,862 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] 1268 00:59:12,413 --> 00:59:14,103 HELLO. THANK YOU. 1269 00:59:20,689 --> 00:59:23,310 HERE YOU GO. CHICKEN, CHICKEN, CHICKEN. 1270 00:59:23,310 --> 00:59:25,413 [ LAUGHS ] 1271 00:59:25,413 --> 00:59:27,620 THAT'S MY NAME FOR THAT STUFF. 1272 00:59:27,620 --> 00:59:30,034 LIKE, OH, MY GOD. 1273 00:59:30,034 --> 00:59:31,551 ALL RIGHT. WHAT'D YOU GET US HERE? 1274 00:59:31,551 --> 00:59:34,724 SOME CHICKEN STRIPS. 1275 00:59:34,724 --> 00:59:36,068 AND THE DEVIL. 1276 00:59:36,068 --> 00:59:40,103 THAT BISCUIT IS THE DEVIL. 1277 00:59:40,103 --> 00:59:41,724 Nichelle: FOR OCTAVIA AND MYSELF, THE ADJUSTMENT 1278 00:59:41,724 --> 00:59:43,137 HAS BEEN VERY HARD TO GO 1279 00:59:43,137 --> 00:59:46,724 FROM EATING WHAT YOU WANT TO 1,200 CALORIES, 1280 00:59:46,724 --> 00:59:48,310 AND IF I'VE ENABLED OCTAVIA 1281 00:59:48,310 --> 00:59:51,068 BECAUSE THAT'S JUST WHAT I'VE DONE, THAT'S MY BABY. 1282 00:59:51,068 --> 00:59:53,586 I LOVE HER SO MUCH THAT I GIVE TO HER. 1283 00:59:53,586 --> 00:59:55,379 IT'S HARD TO TELL HER NO. 1284 00:59:55,379 --> 00:59:57,689 BUT THIS IS ALL WE KNOW. 1285 00:59:57,689 --> 00:59:59,655 I WONDER HOW MANY CALORIES IS THIS? 1286 00:59:59,655 --> 01:00:01,241 A WHOLE DAY. 1287 01:00:01,241 --> 01:00:03,000 YEAH, RIGHT. 1288 01:00:03,000 --> 01:00:07,034 THIS IS MY LAST PIECE OF CARB FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. 1289 01:00:07,034 --> 01:00:09,965 I KNOW. 1290 01:00:09,965 --> 01:00:11,620 THEN EAT IT! I AM. 1291 01:00:11,620 --> 01:00:13,344 THAT'S HOW I EAT. 1292 01:00:16,689 --> 01:00:19,896 Octavia: I THINK THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT WE NEEDED, 1293 01:00:19,896 --> 01:00:22,793 BUT I KNOW THERE'S STILL A LOT WE HAVE TO FIGURE OUT, 1294 01:00:22,793 --> 01:00:26,379 AND I'M STRESSED AND SCARED ABOUT WHAT WE'RE GONNA DO. 1295 01:00:26,379 --> 01:00:29,206 BECAUSE IF NICHELLE DOES DECIDE TO GO BACK, 1296 01:00:29,206 --> 01:00:31,310 THEN I'M NOT SURE IF I CAN DO THIS. 1297 01:00:38,034 --> 01:00:43,137 ♪♪ 1298 01:00:43,137 --> 01:00:48,241 ♪♪ 1299 01:00:48,241 --> 01:00:51,482 Dr. Nowzaradan: IT'S BEEN TWO MONTHS SINCE OCTAVIA'S LAST APPOINTMENT, 1300 01:00:51,482 --> 01:00:56,034 AND SINCE THEN, SHE MISSED TWO APPOINTMENTS WITH PSYCHOTHERAPY, 1301 01:00:56,034 --> 01:00:58,275 AND SHE MISSED HER FOLLOW-UP WITH ME. 1302 01:00:58,275 --> 01:00:59,862 SO THIS ISN'T LOOKING GOOD. 1303 01:00:59,862 --> 01:01:03,448 SO I'M CALLING HER TO FIND OUT WHAT'S GOING ON. 1304 01:01:03,448 --> 01:01:09,827 ♪♪ 1305 01:01:09,827 --> 01:01:11,724 [ Line ringing ] 1306 01:01:11,724 --> 01:01:13,275 Octavia: Hello? 1307 01:01:13,275 --> 01:01:15,448 OCTAVIA, HOW ARE YOU DOING? 1308 01:01:15,448 --> 01:01:17,413 I'm in a lot of pain. 1309 01:01:17,413 --> 01:01:19,000 I am hurting so bad. 1310 01:01:19,000 --> 01:01:20,724 I went to resume my psych, 1311 01:01:20,724 --> 01:01:25,103 and, like, in the front of it is steps, and then it's a ramp, 1312 01:01:25,103 --> 01:01:27,172 and I was trying to go up the ramp, 1313 01:01:27,172 --> 01:01:29,310 and my body just started breaking down on me. 1314 01:01:29,310 --> 01:01:32,689 I couldn't make it, and it's my hip. 1315 01:01:32,689 --> 01:01:35,068 My hip is hurting real bad. 1316 01:01:35,068 --> 01:01:37,793 DID YOU MAKE IT TO YOUR PSYCHOTHERAPY AND GO IN, 1317 01:01:37,793 --> 01:01:40,103 OR YOU COULDN'T MAKE IT? 1318 01:01:40,103 --> 01:01:42,482 No, I didn't. It was hard. 1319 01:01:42,482 --> 01:01:45,758 SO IF I UNDERSTAND EVERYTHING YOU'RE SAYING CORRECTLY, 1320 01:01:45,758 --> 01:01:48,413 YOU HURT YOUR HIP SOMEHOW IN YOUR WHEELCHAIR, 1321 01:01:48,413 --> 01:01:50,724 AND YOU'RE HOME WITH A SERIOUS INJURY 1322 01:01:50,724 --> 01:01:52,931 THAT YOU'RE JUST HOPING GET BETTER 1323 01:01:52,931 --> 01:01:55,448 INSTEAD OF CALLING US FOR HELP? 1324 01:01:55,448 --> 01:01:56,758 I don't know. 1325 01:01:56,758 --> 01:01:58,482 WHAT DO YOU NOT KNOW? 1326 01:01:58,482 --> 01:02:00,931 YOU KEEP MISSING YOUR APPOINTMENTS 1327 01:02:00,931 --> 01:02:02,448 AND YOU'RE MAKING EXCUSES. 1328 01:02:02,448 --> 01:02:05,413 I'M NOT SURE IF THOSE EXCUSES ARE REAL 1329 01:02:05,413 --> 01:02:07,172 OR YOU'RE MAKING THEM UP. 1330 01:02:07,172 --> 01:02:09,448 IF THEY'RE REAL, THEN YOU SHOULD GO TO A HOSPITAL 1331 01:02:09,448 --> 01:02:12,862 AND HAVE A CHECK AND MAKE SURE THERE'S NOTHING WRONG WITH YOU. 1332 01:02:12,862 --> 01:02:15,172 BUT IF NOT, YOU NEED TO COME IN TODAY 1333 01:02:15,172 --> 01:02:18,172 SO WE CAN SEE WHERE YOUR WEIGHT IS AT. 1334 01:02:18,172 --> 01:02:20,103 Dr. Now, my hip hurts. 1335 01:02:20,103 --> 01:02:22,034 I can't hardly stand on it. 1336 01:02:22,034 --> 01:02:23,655 Unless somebody at your end come pick me up 1337 01:02:23,655 --> 01:02:25,448 and bring me to the appointment, yes. 1338 01:02:25,448 --> 01:02:27,620 But it still hurts. 1339 01:02:27,620 --> 01:02:29,241 IF IT HURTS THAT BAD, 1340 01:02:29,241 --> 01:02:32,034 THEN WE NEED TO GET YOU IN THE HOSPITAL TO CHECK IT OUT. 1341 01:02:32,034 --> 01:02:34,034 BECAUSE WHAT YOU ARE DESCRIBING IS SERIOUS. 1342 01:02:34,034 --> 01:02:36,827 SO I'LL SEND AN AMBULANCE TO PICK YOU UP 1343 01:02:36,827 --> 01:02:39,413 AND TAKE YOU TO THE HOSPITAL TODAY. 1344 01:02:39,413 --> 01:02:41,034 -Okay. -OKAY. 1345 01:02:41,034 --> 01:02:42,758 BYE-BYE. -Bye, Doctor. 1346 01:02:45,448 --> 01:02:47,620 ONCE WE GET OCTAVIA TO THE HOSPITAL, 1347 01:02:47,620 --> 01:02:50,344 WE'LL CHECK HER HIP AND SEE WHAT'S GOING ON. 1348 01:02:50,344 --> 01:02:52,310 BUT I THINK THIS IS JUST MORE GAMES 1349 01:02:52,310 --> 01:02:54,413 BECAUSE SHE'S STILL BEEN OVEREATING, 1350 01:02:54,413 --> 01:02:57,000 AND SHE WANTS TO AVOID THE SCALE. 1351 01:02:57,000 --> 01:03:00,034 BUT WE WILL GET HER TO THE HOSPITAL AND SEE. 1352 01:03:00,034 --> 01:03:09,586 ♪♪ 1353 01:03:09,586 --> 01:03:19,103 ♪♪ 1354 01:03:19,103 --> 01:03:20,379 Octavia: AFTER I TALKED TO DR. NOW, 1355 01:03:20,379 --> 01:03:22,448 MY HIP STARTED TO FEEL BETTER. 1356 01:03:22,448 --> 01:03:25,655 SO I'VE BEEN ABLE TO GET UP AND MOVE AROUND AGAIN. 1357 01:03:25,655 --> 01:03:27,379 BUT HE SAID HE WANTS ME TO COME TO THE CLINIC 1358 01:03:27,379 --> 01:03:30,172 FOR A FOLLOW-UP IMMEDIATELY. 1359 01:03:30,172 --> 01:03:32,206 SO THAT'S WHERE WE'RE HEADED. 1360 01:03:32,206 --> 01:03:35,586 BUT I DON'T FEEL LIKE I'M READY FOR A WEIGH-IN. 1361 01:03:35,586 --> 01:03:38,275 THE PAST COUPLE MONTHS HAVE BEEN HARD. 1362 01:03:38,275 --> 01:03:40,517 BUT I'M FINALLY IN A PLACE TO START MAKING THE PROGRESS 1363 01:03:40,517 --> 01:03:43,931 I NEED TO HIT MY GOALS BECAUSE I'VE BEEN FOCUSING ON 1364 01:03:43,931 --> 01:03:46,793 TRYING TO WORK THINGS OUT WITH NICHELLE. 1365 01:03:46,793 --> 01:03:49,103 AND I JUST RECENTLY GOT A HEALTHCARE ASSISTANT 1366 01:03:49,103 --> 01:03:53,137 TO TAKE ALL THE PRESSURE AND RESPONSIBILITY OFF OF HER. 1367 01:03:53,137 --> 01:03:55,448 SO THINGS ARE GETTING BETTER. 1368 01:03:55,448 --> 01:03:58,275 BUT I HAVEN'T HAD A CHANCE TO DO WHAT I NEED. 1369 01:03:58,275 --> 01:04:00,724 SO I'M HAVING TO DO THIS WAY TOO EARLY. 1370 01:04:04,413 --> 01:04:06,310 OCTAVIA GAHAGANS. 1371 01:04:06,310 --> 01:04:08,965 Nichelle: HELLO. EXCUSE US. 1372 01:04:08,965 --> 01:04:12,344 THE LAST TIME I WAS HERE, I WAS 646, 1373 01:04:12,344 --> 01:04:16,000 AND I WAS SUPPOSED TO LOSE 50 POUNDS. 1374 01:04:16,000 --> 01:04:20,482 SO THAT MEANS I SHOULD BE DOWN TO 596 TODAY, 1375 01:04:20,482 --> 01:04:23,137 AND I'M NOT SURE HOW CLOSE I AM TO THAT. 1376 01:04:23,137 --> 01:04:31,724 ♪♪ 1377 01:04:31,724 --> 01:04:40,344 ♪♪ 1378 01:04:40,344 --> 01:04:42,862 I KNEW I WASN'T READY FOR A WEIGH-IN, 1379 01:04:42,862 --> 01:04:46,827 SO I DON'T THINK THIS IS FAIR TO HAVE TO DO. 1380 01:04:46,827 --> 01:04:48,206 'CAUSE IT'S BEEN HARD. 1381 01:04:48,206 --> 01:04:51,724 LIKE, EVERY WEEK IT'S SOMETHING GOING ON. 1382 01:04:51,724 --> 01:04:54,965 I'M A STRESS EATER, AND I'VE BEEN UNDER TREMENDOUS STRESS 1383 01:04:54,965 --> 01:04:58,241 SINCE I'VE BEEN HERE -- NOT JUST THE WEIGHT LOSS, 1384 01:04:58,241 --> 01:05:01,103 BUT MOVING AND TRYING TO GET ADJUSTED. 1385 01:05:01,103 --> 01:05:04,517 I MEAN, IT'S JUST BEEN HECTIC. 1386 01:05:04,517 --> 01:05:08,275 SO, YOU KNOW, I DEFINITELY KNOW HE'S NOT GONNA APPROVE ME. 1387 01:05:15,379 --> 01:05:18,172 PREPARE YOURSELF FOR WHATEVER DR. NOW HAS TO SAY. 1388 01:05:18,172 --> 01:05:20,000 IT IS WHAT IT IS. 1389 01:05:23,379 --> 01:05:25,655 -HELLO. -HI, DR. NOW. 1390 01:05:25,655 --> 01:05:27,000 -HOW ARE YOU ALL DOING? -PRETTY GOOD. 1391 01:05:27,000 --> 01:05:28,310 I'M FINE. 1392 01:05:28,310 --> 01:05:29,482 Dr. Nowzaradan: ALL RIGHT, OCTAVIA. 1393 01:05:29,482 --> 01:05:32,000 IS YOUR HIP STILL FEELING BETTER? 1394 01:05:32,000 --> 01:05:34,793 YEAH. I THINK THE PAIN MEDICINE STARTED TO KICK IN. 1395 01:05:34,793 --> 01:05:36,655 OKAY. WELL, AT LEAST YOU'RE ABLE 1396 01:05:36,655 --> 01:05:39,275 TO GET BACK OUT OF BED AND BE HERE. 1397 01:05:39,275 --> 01:05:41,758 SO THAT'S A GOOD IMPROVEMENT. -MM-HMM. 1398 01:05:41,758 --> 01:05:45,379 UNFORTUNATELY, WHAT HASN'T IMPROVED IS YOUR WEIGHT LOSS. 1399 01:05:45,379 --> 01:05:48,517 YOU'RE LESS THAN 10 POUNDS FROM THE WEIGHT YOU ARRIVED AT. 1400 01:05:48,517 --> 01:05:50,482 SO, WE GIVE YOU ALL THE TOOLS, 1401 01:05:50,482 --> 01:05:53,137 ALL THE OPPORTUNITY, ALL THE RESOURCES, 1402 01:05:53,137 --> 01:05:56,586 BUT YOU'RE STILL OVEREATING, AND YOU STILL HAVE AN ENABLER, 1403 01:05:56,586 --> 01:06:00,448 AND NOW YOU'VE GOT, WHAT, TWO PEOPLE TAKING CARE OF YOU? 1404 01:06:00,448 --> 01:06:03,206 NO, IT'S NOT TWO PEOPLE TAKING CARE OF ME. 1405 01:06:03,206 --> 01:06:04,448 SHE'S HOME HEALTH. 1406 01:06:04,448 --> 01:06:06,655 LIKE CLEANING AND --MY HOME-HEALTH PERSON. 1407 01:06:06,655 --> 01:06:09,689 THAT'S WHO SHE IS. -WHY DO YOU NEED SO MUCH HELP? 1408 01:06:09,689 --> 01:06:12,793 THERE IS NO REASON YOU SHOULD STILL BE RELYING 1409 01:06:12,793 --> 01:06:15,103 ON EVERYONE ELSE TO TAKE CARE OF YOU. 1410 01:06:15,103 --> 01:06:17,793 SO THE QUESTION IS, WHAT ARE YOU DOING FOR YOURSELF? 1411 01:06:17,793 --> 01:06:19,620 I HAVE BEEN TRYING, DR. NOW. 1412 01:06:19,620 --> 01:06:21,137 -WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU'RE TRYING? -I SAID I TRY. 1413 01:06:21,137 --> 01:06:23,379 IF YOU DIDN'T TRY, YOU'RE GONNA BE 700 POUNDS? 1414 01:06:23,379 --> 01:06:24,793 EVEN THOUGH I GAINED SOME WEIGHT, 1415 01:06:24,793 --> 01:06:26,275 IT'S NOT LIKE I HAVEN'T LOST ANYTHING. 1416 01:06:26,275 --> 01:06:28,827 YOU LOST IN THE HOSPITAL, NOT BY YOURSELF. 1417 01:06:28,827 --> 01:06:30,965 DR. NOW, NO, I -- NO. 1418 01:06:30,965 --> 01:06:32,586 SOME OF THAT IS ME. 1419 01:06:32,586 --> 01:06:35,896 THE THINGS YOU'RE SAYING DON'T LINE UP WITH REALITY. 1420 01:06:35,896 --> 01:06:38,793 IF YOU GO HOME, AND YOU DECIDED YOU'RE GOING TO CHANGE 1421 01:06:38,793 --> 01:06:40,034 YOUR EATING HABIT, 1422 01:06:40,034 --> 01:06:42,103 YOU WOULD HAVE LOST WEIGHT, RIGHT? 1423 01:06:42,103 --> 01:06:44,275 SO WHAT ARE WE GONNA DO DIFFERENT THIS TIME? 1424 01:06:44,275 --> 01:06:46,172 I'M GONNA HAVE TO BE MORE COMMITTED TO DO 1425 01:06:46,172 --> 01:06:47,965 WHAT I NEED TO DO.THAT'S A FIGURE OF SPEECH. 1426 01:06:47,965 --> 01:06:49,689 THAT'S NOT ACTION. 1427 01:06:49,689 --> 01:06:52,103 YOU DON'T REALIZE HOW DANGEROUS THE SITUATION IS. 1428 01:06:52,103 --> 01:06:55,413 ANYTHING HAPPEN TO YOU -- YOU GET A COLD OR ANYTHING -- 1429 01:06:55,413 --> 01:06:56,689 THAT'LL BE THE END. 1430 01:06:56,689 --> 01:06:58,241 NOBODY CAN HELP YOU. 1431 01:06:58,241 --> 01:07:00,275 YOUR LIFE IS ON THE LINE, 1432 01:07:00,275 --> 01:07:04,206 AND PEOPLE AROUND YOU ARE HELPING YOU KILL YOURSELF. 1433 01:07:04,206 --> 01:07:08,137 SO THE ONLY SOLUTION I SEE, IF WE PUT YOU IN THE HOSPITAL, 1434 01:07:08,137 --> 01:07:10,344 GET YOU ON A CONTROLLED DIET, 1435 01:07:10,344 --> 01:07:13,068 GET YOU AWAY FROM THE PEOPLE THAT BRING YOU FOOD 1436 01:07:13,068 --> 01:07:14,689 AND GET YOUR WEIGHT BACK DOWN. 1437 01:07:14,689 --> 01:07:17,655 OTHER THAN THAT, YOU GO HOME HOPING AND PRAYING 1438 01:07:17,655 --> 01:07:19,689 FOR SOMETHING THAT'S NEVER GONNA HAPPEN. 1439 01:07:19,689 --> 01:07:21,827 -CAN I SAY SOMETHING? -SURE. 1440 01:07:21,827 --> 01:07:25,586 I JUST STARTED WITH HER FRIDAY, AND I'VE BEEN SPEAKING WITH HER, 1441 01:07:25,586 --> 01:07:28,965 AND THE PLAN WAS, I WAS GONNA START A MEAL PREP FOR HER 1442 01:07:28,965 --> 01:07:31,758 TO WHERE I COULD MANAGE AND LIMIT, YOU KNOW, 1443 01:07:31,758 --> 01:07:34,275 THE THINGS THAT SHE'S TAKING IN, AND I WAS GOING TO GO 1444 01:07:34,275 --> 01:07:35,793 TO THE STORE AND GET THE THINGS THAT SHE NEEDS. 1445 01:07:35,793 --> 01:07:37,413 YEAH, BUT YOU'RE NOT GONNA BE THERE 24 HOURS A DAY. 1446 01:07:37,413 --> 01:07:38,655 CORRECT. 1447 01:07:38,655 --> 01:07:41,448 -YOU KNOW, A PERSON LIKE THAT -- -UH-HUH. 1448 01:07:41,448 --> 01:07:45,448 IN 10 MINUTES, THEY CAN CONSUME 6,000 CALORIES. 1449 01:07:45,448 --> 01:07:46,827 OKAY. 1450 01:07:46,827 --> 01:07:48,413 SO YOU MAY NOT REALIZE EVERYTHING YOU'RE UP 1451 01:07:48,413 --> 01:07:50,517 AGAINST TO HAVE TO DO THIS. 1452 01:07:50,517 --> 01:07:52,793 WHEN YOU GET IN THE SITUATION 1453 01:07:52,793 --> 01:07:56,103 THAT THERE IS NO CONTROL IN EATING HABIT, 1454 01:07:56,103 --> 01:08:00,172 THERE'S A PERSON IN THE HOUSE THAT HAS THE SAME PROBLEM, 1455 01:08:00,172 --> 01:08:02,448 THAT'S GONNA BE VERY DIFFICULT TO CORRECT. 1456 01:08:02,448 --> 01:08:04,034 UH-HUH. 1457 01:08:04,034 --> 01:08:07,965 SO, HOW DO YOU SEE THAT YOUR ROLE IS GONNA MAKE A CHANGE? 1458 01:08:07,965 --> 01:08:11,172 I SEE MY ROLE MAKING A CHANGE BY GIVING HER THE PUSH 1459 01:08:11,172 --> 01:08:13,275 IF SHE'S WILLING TO ACCEPT THE PUSH. 1460 01:08:13,275 --> 01:08:15,827 SO YOU'RE GONNA HELP HER TO ADJUST HER 1461 01:08:15,827 --> 01:08:17,689 EATING HABIT AND STICK WITH IT? 1462 01:08:17,689 --> 01:08:18,896 YES. 1463 01:08:18,896 --> 01:08:20,379 SO, WHAT IS GONNA HAPPEN WITH NICHELLE? 1464 01:08:20,379 --> 01:08:22,620 WHAT -- WITH HER? YES. 1465 01:08:22,620 --> 01:08:24,068 I'M WILLING TO TAKE ON THE CHALLENGE 1466 01:08:24,068 --> 01:08:26,758 WITH NOT ONLY OCTAVIA, BUT MISS NICHELLE, ALSO. 1467 01:08:26,758 --> 01:08:29,620 AND ALL I'M ASKING FOR IS GIVE HER 1468 01:08:29,620 --> 01:08:31,758 TILL HER NEXT VISIT AND JUST SEE. 1469 01:08:31,758 --> 01:08:34,034 IF SHE STILL WENT OVER, THAT'S HER. 1470 01:08:34,034 --> 01:08:36,137 THAT'S ALL I'M ASKING.ALL RIGHT. 1471 01:08:36,137 --> 01:08:38,793 SO, HERE'S WHAT WE'RE GONNA DO. 1472 01:08:38,793 --> 01:08:40,482 WE'RE GONNA GIVE YOU TWO MONTHS, 1473 01:08:40,482 --> 01:08:43,068 BUT IF SHE'S NOT DOING WHAT SHE NEEDS THIS NEXT MONTH, 1474 01:08:43,068 --> 01:08:46,000 THEN YOU NEED TO TELL ME BECAUSE WE NEED TO INTERVENE. 1475 01:08:46,000 --> 01:08:48,068 BUT IF YOU FEEL YOU'RE MAKING PROGRESS WITH HER, 1476 01:08:48,068 --> 01:08:51,000 AND SHE'S NOT GAINING AND MAKING EXCUSES, 1477 01:08:51,000 --> 01:08:52,827 THEN I EXPECT TO SEE AT LEAST 1478 01:08:52,827 --> 01:08:55,862 100 POUNDS WEIGHT LOSS IN THAT TIME. 1479 01:08:55,862 --> 01:08:58,689 BUT, OCTAVIA, THIS IS YOUR LAST CHANCE. 1480 01:08:58,689 --> 01:08:59,931 YOU GOT IT? 1481 01:08:59,931 --> 01:09:01,413 AND YOU'RE GOING TO THERAPY. 1482 01:09:01,413 --> 01:09:04,241 NO MORE EXCUSES.MM-HMM. 1483 01:09:04,241 --> 01:09:07,310 SO, WE'RE GONNA RELY ON YOU TO MAKE THE CHANGES, 1484 01:09:07,310 --> 01:09:10,034 BUT IF AFTER THIS, WE HAVEN'T LOST ANY WEIGHT, 1485 01:09:10,034 --> 01:09:13,000 THEN AT THAT POINT, OUR CHOICES WILL BE HERE 1486 01:09:13,000 --> 01:09:16,310 AND GIVE UP OR PUT HER IN THE HOSPITAL 1487 01:09:16,310 --> 01:09:19,551 AND ISOLATE HER FROM EVERYBODY, PUT HER ON CONTROLLED DIET. 1488 01:09:19,551 --> 01:09:21,551 ARE WE CLEAR ABOUT EVERYTHING NOW? 1489 01:09:21,551 --> 01:09:23,103 -YEAH. -ALL RIGHT. 1490 01:09:23,103 --> 01:09:25,310 CALL ME IF YOU NEED ANYTHING. -ALL RIGHT. 1491 01:09:25,310 --> 01:09:26,379 THANK YOU, DR. NOW. 1492 01:09:26,379 --> 01:09:27,448 NICE TO MEET YOU.SAME HERE. 1493 01:09:27,448 --> 01:09:30,068 THANK YOU. 1494 01:09:30,068 --> 01:09:31,758 Dr. Nowzaradan: OCTAVIA AND NICHELLE CONTINUE 1495 01:09:31,758 --> 01:09:33,310 TO PLAY A DANGEROUS GAME 1496 01:09:33,310 --> 01:09:37,034 WITH OCTAVIA'S LIFE HANGING IN THE BALANCE. 1497 01:09:37,034 --> 01:09:39,620 BUT I'M HOPING CALITA IS ABLE TO HANDLE 1498 01:09:39,620 --> 01:09:41,724 ADDRESSING THE DYNAMIC WITH THEM 1499 01:09:41,724 --> 01:09:44,206 AND HELP GET THINGS GOING IN THE DIRECTION 1500 01:09:44,206 --> 01:09:46,724 THEY NEED BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE. 1501 01:09:46,724 --> 01:09:48,379 BUT IF SHE DOESN'T, 1502 01:09:48,379 --> 01:09:52,068 THEN OCTAVIA'S NOT GOING TO BE ABLE TO SURVIVE MUCH LONGER. 1503 01:09:59,448 --> 01:10:07,689 ♪♪ 1504 01:10:07,689 --> 01:10:15,965 ♪♪ 1505 01:10:15,965 --> 01:10:18,620 Octavia: THIS PAST MONTH HAS BEEN GOOD. 1506 01:10:18,620 --> 01:10:20,896 BECAUSE FOR THE FIRST TIME IN A LONG WHILE, 1507 01:10:20,896 --> 01:10:25,241 I TRULY FEEL LIKE I HAVE IT IN ME TO CHANGE MY LIFE. 1508 01:10:25,241 --> 01:10:28,413 I'VE BEEN GOING TO THE THERAPY DR. NOW SET UP FOR ME, 1509 01:10:28,413 --> 01:10:30,172 AND IT WAS THE FIRST TIME I'VE EVER BEEN ABLE 1510 01:10:30,172 --> 01:10:32,793 TO TALK ABOUT SOME OF THE THINGS I DID. 1511 01:10:32,793 --> 01:10:36,103 I'VE LEARNED A LOT ABOUT MYSELF, 1512 01:10:36,103 --> 01:10:41,172 AND I REALIZE THAT I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN THE BACKBONE FOR EVERYONE, 1513 01:10:41,172 --> 01:10:43,413 BUT I CAN'T BE THAT FOR MYSELF. 1514 01:10:43,413 --> 01:10:47,517 BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE MY HURDLES ARE MOUNTAINS, 1515 01:10:47,517 --> 01:10:51,344 WHEREAS, IF I'M HELPING SOMEBODY ELSE, IT'S NOT AS HARD, 1516 01:10:51,344 --> 01:10:55,965 AND I HAVE TO FIGURE THAT OUT AND NOT GIVE UP ON ME. 1517 01:10:55,965 --> 01:11:00,172 BUT I PLAN TO KEEP FACING WHAT I NEED NO MATTER HOW HARD IT IS. 1518 01:11:00,172 --> 01:11:02,862 I KNOW IT'S GONNA BE A LOT OF WORK, BUT I'M READY. 1519 01:11:02,862 --> 01:11:04,758 BECAUSE I WANT A NEW LIFE. 1520 01:11:04,758 --> 01:11:08,000 SO RIGHT NOW, I'M MAKING SURE I'M DOING WHAT I NEED 1521 01:11:08,000 --> 01:11:10,896 AND WORKING AS HARD AS I CAN TO TAKE THE NEXT BIG STEP 1522 01:11:10,896 --> 01:11:14,551 AND GET WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1523 01:11:14,551 --> 01:11:16,931 AND THE ONLY WAY TO DO THAT IS TO HIT THE GOAL 1524 01:11:16,931 --> 01:11:20,931 DR. NOW GAVE ME BY MY NEXT APPOINTMENT IN A COUPLE WEEKS. 1525 01:11:20,931 --> 01:11:23,862 SO I'M STICKING TO HIS DIET COMPLETELY. 1526 01:11:23,862 --> 01:11:27,068 AND NICHELLE IS DOING IT WITH ME. 1527 01:11:27,068 --> 01:11:28,551 BUT WHEN I FIRST CAME BACK HOME, 1528 01:11:28,551 --> 01:11:30,724 ACTUALLY, NICHELLE WAS LIKE, "I WANT SOME PIZZA," 1529 01:11:30,724 --> 01:11:33,137 AND WE DID EAT PIZZA, AND THEN I WAS LIKE, 1530 01:11:33,137 --> 01:11:34,551 "I WANT SOME CHIPS," AND I ATE THEM. 1531 01:11:34,551 --> 01:11:36,586 I DID, YOU KNOW. 1532 01:11:36,586 --> 01:11:39,137 BUT CALITA HELPED US PUT TOGETHER A HEALTHY MEAL PLAN 1533 01:11:39,137 --> 01:11:40,517 THAT FOLLOWS THE DIET. 1534 01:11:40,517 --> 01:11:44,034 SO THAT'S WHAT WE'VE BEEN USING, AND, AS OF NOW, 1535 01:11:44,034 --> 01:11:46,000 I'M FOLLOWING MY DIET, 1536 01:11:46,000 --> 01:11:49,758 AND NICHELLE MAKES STEAMED VEGETABLES, ROASTED VEGETABLES, 1537 01:11:49,758 --> 01:11:54,172 LOTS OF CHICKEN, TUNA, AND SALAD. 1538 01:11:54,172 --> 01:11:57,724 GOOD OL' JUICY SALAD. [ LAUGHS ] 1539 01:11:57,724 --> 01:11:59,827 AND, AT FIRST, IT WAS A BIT OF AN ADJUSTMENT 1540 01:11:59,827 --> 01:12:03,689 BECAUSE IT FELT LIKE I WAS BACK IN THE HOSPITAL ON THEIR DIET. 1541 01:12:03,689 --> 01:12:06,137 BUT ME AND NICHELLE DECIDED NO MATTER WHAT, 1542 01:12:06,137 --> 01:12:09,655 WE NEED TO KEEP A RIGHT MIND-SET AND FOCUS ON THE POSITIVE, 1543 01:12:09,655 --> 01:12:11,758 AND IF WE DO THAT, WE KNOW WE'LL BE ABLE TO STICK 1544 01:12:11,758 --> 01:12:14,275 TO WHAT WE NEED AND MAKE IT TO OUR GOALS. 1545 01:12:17,068 --> 01:12:20,068 Nichelle: I WANT YOU TO KNOW I SUPPORT YOU 100%, 1546 01:12:20,068 --> 01:12:23,103 AND I KNOW I'M DOING THE RIGHT THINGS BY YOU 1547 01:12:23,103 --> 01:12:24,448 AS FAR AS YOUR EATING, 1548 01:12:24,448 --> 01:12:26,344 TRYING TO GET YOU THE RIGHT THINGS TO EAT 1549 01:12:26,344 --> 01:12:27,931 BECAUSE IT'S NOT JUST FOR YOU, 1550 01:12:27,931 --> 01:12:29,206 IT'S FOR ME, YOU KNOW WHAT I'M SAYING? 1551 01:12:29,206 --> 01:12:31,931 SO I TRY TO APPLY THAT WHEN I'M COOKING, 1552 01:12:31,931 --> 01:12:33,482 I'M COOKING FOR BOTH OF US. 1553 01:12:33,482 --> 01:12:35,793 I'M NOT JUST LETTING YOU EAT HEALTHY BY YOURSELF. 1554 01:12:35,793 --> 01:12:40,000 WE'RE BOTH EATING HEALTHY, AND I NEVER WILL GIVE UP ON YOU. 1555 01:12:40,000 --> 01:12:42,034 IT DIDN'T TAKE A DAY TO GAIN ALL THE WEIGHT 1556 01:12:42,034 --> 01:12:43,827 THAT YOU'VE GAINED, THAT I'VE GAINED. 1557 01:12:43,827 --> 01:12:46,000 IT'S NOT GONNA TAKE YOU A DAY TO LOSE IT, 1558 01:12:46,000 --> 01:12:49,482 BUT WE CAME DOWN HERE TOGETHER, WE'RE GONNA LEAVE TOGETHER. 1559 01:12:49,482 --> 01:12:52,241 SO, FOR THAT, YOU GOT MY SUPPORT. 1560 01:12:52,241 --> 01:12:54,172 ALWAYS. AND I APPRECIATE IT. 1561 01:12:54,172 --> 01:12:56,586 YOU'RE MY SISTER. 1562 01:12:56,586 --> 01:12:58,034 WELL, HOPEFULLY, 1563 01:12:58,034 --> 01:12:59,379 THINGS ARE GETTING READY TO START GETTING BETTER. 1564 01:12:59,379 --> 01:13:01,965 AND WE'LL BE WALKING OUT THE SURGERY ROOM 1565 01:13:01,965 --> 01:13:03,793 TOGETHER, POP-LOCKING. 1566 01:13:03,793 --> 01:13:05,724 [ LAUGHS ] 1567 01:13:05,724 --> 01:13:07,448 SEXY, SLIM 2020. YEAH. 1568 01:13:09,655 --> 01:13:11,241 Nichelle: EVEN AFTER A COUPLE SLIP-UPS, 1569 01:13:11,241 --> 01:13:13,413 I'M ALWAYS GONNA BE THERE FOR OCTAVIA. 1570 01:13:13,413 --> 01:13:16,379 THROUGH THICK AND THIN, WE'VE BEEN EVERYWHERE TOGETHER. 1571 01:13:16,379 --> 01:13:19,068 WE GOT FAT TOGETHER, WE'RE GONNA GET SKINNY TOGETHER. 1572 01:13:19,068 --> 01:13:20,413 SO MOVING FORWARD, I HOPE THAT 1573 01:13:20,413 --> 01:13:23,310 DR. NOW APPROVES HER FOR SURGERY SO THAT WE CAN GO FORWARD 1574 01:13:23,310 --> 01:13:28,172 FROM THERE AND GET ON OUR JOURNEY. 1575 01:13:28,172 --> 01:13:30,482 Octavia: THIS JOURNEY IS DEFINITELY A LOT MORE 1576 01:13:30,482 --> 01:13:32,241 THAN I EXPECTED IT TO BE. 1577 01:13:32,241 --> 01:13:36,137 I KNOW THAT MY WEIGHT IS NOT GONNA MAGICALLY FALL OFF. 1578 01:13:36,137 --> 01:13:39,137 I'M NOT GONNA MAGICALLY BE, YOU KNOW, HEALED. 1579 01:13:39,137 --> 01:13:40,379 I CAN'T PRAY IT AWAY. 1580 01:13:40,379 --> 01:13:41,896 I CAN'T DO NONE OF THAT. 1581 01:13:41,896 --> 01:13:44,689 I HAVE TO WORK FOR IT, AND, YOU KNOW, 1582 01:13:44,689 --> 01:13:49,206 I REALIZE THAT, AND I HAVE TO STOP FEELING SORRY FOR MYSELF 1583 01:13:49,206 --> 01:13:51,793 AND JUST DO IT. 1584 01:13:51,793 --> 01:13:53,620 SO THE NEXT TIME I SEE DR. NOW, 1585 01:13:53,620 --> 01:13:55,241 I HOPE AND PRAY 1586 01:13:55,241 --> 01:13:58,724 THAT I'M SUCCESSFUL WITH MY WEIGHT LOSS 1587 01:13:58,724 --> 01:14:00,517 AND THAT I HIT MY GOAL. 1588 01:14:00,517 --> 01:14:07,344 ♪♪ 1589 01:14:07,344 --> 01:14:14,137 ♪♪ 1590 01:14:14,137 --> 01:14:16,379 ME, NICHELLE, AND CALITA ARE AT DR. NOW'S 1591 01:14:16,379 --> 01:14:19,586 FOR MY NEXT APPOINTMENT, AND I'M EXTREMELY NERVOUS. 1592 01:14:22,310 --> 01:14:24,379 THIS IS GONNA BE THE MOST IMPORTANT WEIGH-IN 1593 01:14:24,379 --> 01:14:28,241 I'VE HAD YET BECAUSE MY FUTURE AND MY LIFE ARE RIDING ON ME 1594 01:14:28,241 --> 01:14:31,793 HITTING THIS GOAL AND GETTING APPROVED TODAY. 1595 01:14:31,793 --> 01:14:34,448 OKAY. 1596 01:14:34,448 --> 01:14:36,620 I KNOW I'VE BEEN WORKING AS HARD AS I CAN 1597 01:14:36,620 --> 01:14:39,241 AND THAT I'VE MADE PROGRESS, 1598 01:14:39,241 --> 01:14:42,344 AND I HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH, AND IF IT'S ENOUGH. 1599 01:14:44,482 --> 01:14:49,241 IF I HAVEN'T HIT MY GOAL, I KNOW THAT MEANS IT'S ALL OVER FOR ME. 1600 01:14:49,241 --> 01:14:53,517 I HAVE FAILED AND LOST THE LAST CHANCE I HAD TO SAVE MY LIFE. 1601 01:15:02,344 --> 01:15:12,068 ♪♪ 1602 01:15:12,068 --> 01:15:13,724 Octavia: I'M AT DR. NOW'S TO FIND OUT 1603 01:15:13,724 --> 01:15:16,931 IF I HIT MY GOAL OR NOT, BUT I'M EXTREMELY NERVOUS 1604 01:15:16,931 --> 01:15:20,344 BECAUSE THIS IS MY LAST CHANCE TO GET SURGERY. 1605 01:15:20,344 --> 01:15:23,931 AT MY LAST APPOINTMENT, I WAS AT 684, 1606 01:15:23,931 --> 01:15:26,034 AND DR. NOW TOLD ME TO LOSE 100 POUNDS 1607 01:15:26,034 --> 01:15:28,379 BY THE TIME I CAME BACK. 1608 01:15:28,379 --> 01:15:31,655 THAT MEANS I SHOULD BE BELOW 584 TODAY. 1609 01:15:31,655 --> 01:15:37,068 ♪♪ 1610 01:15:37,068 --> 01:15:42,448 ♪♪ 1611 01:15:42,448 --> 01:15:44,620 I KNOW. 1612 01:15:44,620 --> 01:15:46,655 [ CRYING ] 1613 01:15:46,655 --> 01:15:49,034 LOOK AT YOU. 1614 01:15:49,034 --> 01:15:51,137 YOU DID IT. 1615 01:15:51,137 --> 01:15:53,034 [ LAUGHS ] 1616 01:15:53,034 --> 01:15:56,344 I'M PROUD OF YOU. LOOK AT YOU. 1617 01:15:56,344 --> 01:15:58,758 I'M HERE. 1618 01:15:58,758 --> 01:16:01,379 DR. NOW STATED THAT IF I DIDN'T LOSE 1619 01:16:01,379 --> 01:16:03,172 THAT HE WOULD PUT ME IN THE HOSPITAL 1620 01:16:03,172 --> 01:16:06,379 ON A CONTROLLED DIET OR JUST BE DONE. 1621 01:16:06,379 --> 01:16:10,000 SO I HAVE BEEN STAYING UNDER MY 1,200 CALORIES. 1622 01:16:10,000 --> 01:16:11,965 I'VE BEEN EXERCISING. 1623 01:16:11,965 --> 01:16:14,034 SO I'M HOPING THAT DR. NOW 1624 01:16:14,034 --> 01:16:17,034 WILL BE OKAY WITH THE AMOUNT OF WEIGHT THAT I LOST, 1625 01:16:17,034 --> 01:16:20,517 AND I'M PRAYING THAT I GET APPROVED FOR SURGERY TODAY. 1626 01:16:24,482 --> 01:16:26,206 -HELLO. -HELLO. 1627 01:16:26,206 --> 01:16:27,241 HOW ARE YOU ALL DOING? 1628 01:16:27,241 --> 01:16:29,137 PRETTY GOOD. 1629 01:16:29,137 --> 01:16:30,379 ALL RIGHT. 1630 01:16:30,379 --> 01:16:34,172 SO, OCTAVIA, YOU'RE DOWN TO 585, HUH? 1631 01:16:34,172 --> 01:16:36,827 SO FINALLY YOU'VE FIGURED OUT WHAT TO DO. 1632 01:16:36,827 --> 01:16:38,103 RIGHT? YES. 1633 01:16:38,103 --> 01:16:39,206 DO YOU FEEL ANY BETTER? 1634 01:16:39,206 --> 01:16:41,310 I DO.SO THIS IS GOOD. 1635 01:16:41,310 --> 01:16:44,551 AND A BIG THANKS IS DUE TO CALITA FOR COMING IN 1636 01:16:44,551 --> 01:16:47,517 AND HELPING YOU AND NICHELLE TO GET BACK ON TRACK. 1637 01:16:47,517 --> 01:16:48,448 ABSOLUTELY. 1638 01:16:48,448 --> 01:16:50,344 SO, GOOD JOB, CALITA. 1639 01:16:50,344 --> 01:16:51,965 I'M ALL SMILES. 1640 01:16:51,965 --> 01:16:54,551 THE MEAL PREP -- EVERYTHING WENT WELL, 1641 01:16:54,551 --> 01:16:56,000 AND WE'RE STICKING TO IT. 1642 01:16:56,000 --> 01:16:57,620 -YEP. -ALL RIGHT. 1643 01:16:57,620 --> 01:16:58,827 SUPER. 1644 01:16:58,827 --> 01:17:00,965 YOU ALL ARE DOING GREAT, AND, OCTAVIA, 1645 01:17:00,965 --> 01:17:02,551 WITH THE RECENT WEIGHT LOSS, 1646 01:17:02,551 --> 01:17:05,758 WE CAN GO AHEAD AND APPROVE YOU FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1647 01:17:05,758 --> 01:17:06,724 [ CALITA CLAPPING ] 1648 01:17:06,724 --> 01:17:08,965 -OKAY? -THAT'S A GOOD THING. 1649 01:17:08,965 --> 01:17:12,379 ALL RIGHT. SO WE'RE GONNA SET YOU UP FOR TWO MONTHS FROM NOW, 1650 01:17:12,379 --> 01:17:14,620 AND I WANT YOU TO KEEP LOSING UNTIL THEN. 1651 01:17:14,620 --> 01:17:15,965 OKAY. 1652 01:17:15,965 --> 01:17:17,517 AND IF YOU DO THAT, THEN WE'LL MOVE AHEAD 1653 01:17:17,517 --> 01:17:19,206 WITH YOUR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1654 01:17:19,206 --> 01:17:21,965 BUT IF YOU GAIN, WE'RE NOT GONNA DO YOUR SURGERY, OKAY? 1655 01:17:21,965 --> 01:17:23,448 I KNOW. I KNOW HOW IT GOES. 1656 01:17:23,448 --> 01:17:27,034 AND I ALSO EXPECT TO SEE YOU WALK IN HERE SOON, OKAY? 1657 01:17:27,034 --> 01:17:27,965 OKAY. 1658 01:17:27,965 --> 01:17:29,482 ALL RIGHT. GOOD JOB. 1659 01:17:29,482 --> 01:17:32,448 GOOD JOB TO YOU, TOO, NICHELLE, AND GOOD JOB, ALL OF YOU. 1660 01:17:32,448 --> 01:17:33,896 YOU HAVE ALL DONE GREAT. 1661 01:17:33,896 --> 01:17:36,241 SO, KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK.ALL RIGHT. 1662 01:17:36,241 --> 01:17:37,482 WELL, THANK YOU SO MUCH, DR. NOW. 1663 01:17:37,482 --> 01:17:38,758 -OKAY. -I APPRECIATE IT. 1664 01:17:38,758 --> 01:17:39,931 I'M GLAD YOU MADE IT. 1665 01:17:39,931 --> 01:17:41,172 GOOD. THANK YOU. 1666 01:17:41,172 --> 01:17:43,000 OKAY? NICE TO SEE YOU AGAIN. 1667 01:17:43,000 --> 01:17:44,862 NICE TO SEE YOU AGAIN. 1668 01:17:44,862 --> 01:17:46,344 I'LL SEE YOU ALL IN TWO MONTHS. 1669 01:17:46,344 --> 01:17:48,034 -ALL RIGHTY. -THANK YOU. 1670 01:17:50,655 --> 01:17:52,206 [ LAUGHS ] 1671 01:17:52,206 --> 01:17:54,827 I'M EXCITED. 1672 01:17:54,827 --> 01:17:56,517 FINALLY I'M NOT CRYING. 1673 01:17:56,517 --> 01:18:06,482 ♪♪ 1674 01:18:06,482 --> 01:18:08,241 Dr. Nowzaradan: OVER THE PAST COUPLE MONTHS, 1675 01:18:08,241 --> 01:18:09,724 OCTAVIA HAS STAYED ON TRACK 1676 01:18:09,724 --> 01:18:13,413 LIKE SHE NEEDS AND LOST ANOTHER 58 POUNDS. 1677 01:18:13,413 --> 01:18:17,379 SO SHE'S DOWN TO 527 AND DOING WELL. 1678 01:18:17,379 --> 01:18:20,586 SO WE ARE MOVING AHEAD WITH HER WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY TODAY 1679 01:18:20,586 --> 01:18:23,551 AND ATTEMPTING TO DO A GASTRIC SLEEVE ON HER. 1680 01:18:27,000 --> 01:18:29,137 BUT EVEN WITH ALL HER PROGRESS, 1681 01:18:29,137 --> 01:18:31,862 OCTAVIA'S WEIGHT IS STILL VERY HIGH. 1682 01:18:31,862 --> 01:18:35,862 SO DOING ANY OPERATION ON HER IS VERY RISKY. 1683 01:18:35,862 --> 01:18:38,793 SO WE ARE GOING TO MONITOR HER VERY CLOSELY 1684 01:18:38,793 --> 01:18:41,655 TO MAKE SURE WE DON'T LET HER GET TO THAT POINT, 1685 01:18:41,655 --> 01:18:44,310 AND IF THERE IS ANYTHING THAT CAUSES US CONCERN, 1686 01:18:44,310 --> 01:18:46,206 WE'LL STOP THE SURGERY. 1687 01:18:48,551 --> 01:18:51,137 BUT IF WE ARE SUCCESSFUL, THIS GASTRIC SLEEVE 1688 01:18:51,137 --> 01:18:54,206 IS GOING TO BE AN IMPORTANT TOOL THAT WILL HELP 1689 01:18:54,206 --> 01:18:57,724 OCTAVIA MAKE MORE PROGRESS OVER THE LONG-TERM. 1690 01:18:57,724 --> 01:19:00,931 BECAUSE WHAT THE OPERATION DOES IS REMOVE 80% 1691 01:19:00,931 --> 01:19:02,896 TO 90% OF THE STOMACH, 1692 01:19:02,896 --> 01:19:06,551 LEAVING A LONG, SKINNY TUBE THAT LOOKS LIKE A SLEEVE. 1693 01:19:06,551 --> 01:19:10,448 SO THE PERSON'S FOOD INTAKE IS PHYSICALLY LIMITED, 1694 01:19:10,448 --> 01:19:14,448 AND THE PATIENT IS LESS HUNGRY, AND IT WILL GIVE THEM 1695 01:19:14,448 --> 01:19:18,310 AN OPPORTUNITY TO BEGIN LOSING WEIGHT. 1696 01:19:18,310 --> 01:19:20,517 ALL RIGHT. 1697 01:19:20,517 --> 01:19:22,517 WE'RE DONE. 1698 01:19:22,517 --> 01:19:25,862 OCTAVIA'S SURGERY WENT VERY WELL, 1699 01:19:25,862 --> 01:19:29,413 AND WE WERE ABLE TO DO THE SLEEVE GASTRECTOMY. 1700 01:19:29,413 --> 01:19:31,655 BUT SHE HAD A VERY LARGE STOMACH, 1701 01:19:31,655 --> 01:19:35,103 AND WE GREATLY REDUCED THE SIZE OF THAT TODAY. 1702 01:19:42,034 --> 01:19:45,034 ACTUALLY GOT VERY SKINNY STOMACH LEFT, 1703 01:19:45,034 --> 01:19:48,586 AND SHE'S GONNA BE ABLE TO LOSE WEIGHT. 1704 01:19:48,586 --> 01:19:52,103 OCTAVIA'S GONNA BE GOING TO RECOVERY NOW, 1705 01:19:52,103 --> 01:19:55,172 AND SHE SHOULD BE ABLE TO GO HOME IN A FEW DAYS. 1706 01:19:55,172 --> 01:19:57,448 THEN SHE'LL BE ON LIQUID DIET FOR A MONTH. 1707 01:19:57,448 --> 01:20:00,862 IN THIS TIME, SHE SHOULD LOSE ANOTHER 40 POUNDS, 1708 01:20:00,862 --> 01:20:04,655 AND THEN AFTER THAT, SHE SHOULD LOSE AT LEAST 25 POUNDS A MONTH 1709 01:20:04,655 --> 01:20:07,862 UNTIL SHE GETS CLOSE TO HER TARGET WEIGHT. 1710 01:20:07,862 --> 01:20:10,482 AND AS SHE LOSES WEIGHT, SHE SHOULD HAVE NO PROBLEM 1711 01:20:10,482 --> 01:20:13,448 STARTING TO WALK SHORT DISTANCES. 1712 01:20:13,448 --> 01:20:16,862 BUT THE MOST IMPORTANT THING FOR OCTAVIA'S LONG-TERM SUCCESS 1713 01:20:16,862 --> 01:20:19,793 WILL BE TO GET HER LIVING ON HER OWN. 1714 01:20:19,793 --> 01:20:22,379 CALITA WON'T BE ABLE TO HELP THEM FOREVER. 1715 01:20:22,379 --> 01:20:26,137 SO, BEFORE OCTAVIA'S HOME SITUATION GOES BACK TO BEING 1716 01:20:26,137 --> 01:20:27,965 JUST HER AND NICHELLE AGAIN, 1717 01:20:27,965 --> 01:20:31,310 WE NEED TO MAKE SURE THAT DYNAMIC IS SHIFTED, 1718 01:20:31,310 --> 01:20:34,379 AND IF WE DON'T, IT WILL LIKELY JUST SET OCTAVIA UP 1719 01:20:34,379 --> 01:20:37,896 TO FALL BACK TO HER OLD HABITS AND START GAINING AGAIN. 1720 01:20:37,896 --> 01:20:40,758 SO WE STILL HAVE A LOT OF WORK TO DO. 1721 01:20:40,758 --> 01:20:44,103 BUT SHE'S COME A LONG WAY, AND SHE'S DOING GREAT RIGHT NOW. 1722 01:20:44,103 --> 01:20:52,758 ♪♪ 1723 01:20:52,758 --> 01:21:01,517 ♪♪ 1724 01:21:01,517 --> 01:21:04,137 Octavia: IT'S BEEN A COUPLE MONTHS SINCE MY SURGERY, 1725 01:21:04,137 --> 01:21:06,482 AND I'VE BEEN MAKING A LOT OF PROGRESS. 1726 01:21:06,482 --> 01:21:07,758 AND WITH ALL MY WEIGHT LOSS, 1727 01:21:07,758 --> 01:21:10,413 IT'S BEEN EASIER AND EASIER TO GET UP. 1728 01:21:10,413 --> 01:21:12,517 AND UP TO THIS POINT, I'VE BEEN ABLE TO USE MY WALKER 1729 01:21:12,517 --> 01:21:15,137 TO STAND AND GET IN A WHEELCHAIR. 1730 01:21:15,137 --> 01:21:16,965 BUT TODAY I FEEL LIKE I'M IN A PLACE 1731 01:21:16,965 --> 01:21:19,172 WHERE I'M READY TO TRY AND WALK AGAIN. 1732 01:21:19,172 --> 01:21:20,586 CHELLE? 1733 01:21:20,586 --> 01:21:22,310 CAN Y'ALL BRING THE CHAIR RIGHT HERE TO THE DOOR 1734 01:21:22,310 --> 01:21:25,862 SO I CAN GET IN THERE? 1735 01:21:25,862 --> 01:21:27,586 THANK YOU. 1736 01:21:27,586 --> 01:21:28,965 IF I CAN DO THIS, 1737 01:21:28,965 --> 01:21:32,655 THEN A WHOLE NEW WORLD WILL START TO OPEN UP FOR ME. 1738 01:21:32,655 --> 01:21:35,896 I JUST HOPE I'M READY. 1739 01:21:35,896 --> 01:21:37,310 OKAY. 1740 01:21:37,310 --> 01:21:38,931 READY? 1741 01:21:38,931 --> 01:21:41,206 I'LL TRY. OKAY. 1742 01:21:41,206 --> 01:21:46,586 ONE, TWO, THREE. 1743 01:21:46,586 --> 01:21:48,310 OH. 1744 01:21:51,931 --> 01:21:54,275 COME ON. MOVE THE CHAIR. 1745 01:21:54,275 --> 01:22:01,172 ♪♪ 1746 01:22:01,172 --> 01:22:02,689 JUST PUSH AGAINST THE WALL. 1747 01:22:02,689 --> 01:22:03,862 PUT IT AGAINST THE WALL. 1748 01:22:03,862 --> 01:22:05,344 RIGHT HERE, BABY. 1749 01:22:05,344 --> 01:22:11,827 ♪♪ 1750 01:22:11,827 --> 01:22:18,310 ♪♪ 1751 01:22:18,310 --> 01:22:19,482 I'M ALMOST THERE. 1752 01:22:19,482 --> 01:22:22,482 ALMOST THERE. ALMOST THERE. ALMOST THERE. 1753 01:22:22,482 --> 01:22:26,275 SIT DOWN. YOU GOT IT. SIT ON DOWN. 1754 01:22:26,275 --> 01:22:28,379 YAY. 1755 01:22:28,379 --> 01:22:30,379 I MADE IT. 1756 01:22:30,379 --> 01:22:32,793 I'M SO PROUD OF YOU! 1757 01:22:32,793 --> 01:22:34,827 [ LAUGHS ] 1758 01:22:34,827 --> 01:22:39,965 ♪♪ 1759 01:22:39,965 --> 01:22:45,172 ♪♪ 1760 01:22:45,172 --> 01:22:48,034 TO BE ABLE TO FEEL STRONG AND TO GET UP AND DO THAT, 1761 01:22:48,034 --> 01:22:50,896 IT DEFINITELY MOTIVATES ME TO KEEP GOING, 1762 01:22:50,896 --> 01:22:52,206 AND I'M GONNA KEEP PUSHING MYSELF 1763 01:22:52,206 --> 01:22:53,896 'CAUSE I WANT A LIFE FOR MYSELF. 1764 01:22:53,896 --> 01:22:57,034 I DON'T WANT TO BE JUST STUCK IN THE HOUSE AND CAN'T DO ANYTHING. 1765 01:23:00,310 --> 01:23:06,896 ♪♪ 1766 01:23:06,896 --> 01:23:09,344 Nichelle: I'M SO PROUD OF OCTAVIA. 1767 01:23:09,344 --> 01:23:12,689 SHE'S BEEN WORKING OUT ON HER OWN, DOING HER EXERCISES, 1768 01:23:12,689 --> 01:23:15,310 AND SHE DID WONDERFUL TAKING STEPS TODAY, 1769 01:23:15,310 --> 01:23:19,034 AND SHE'S COME A LONG WAY, SO I'M PROUD OF HER. 1770 01:23:19,034 --> 01:23:21,000 [ SNIFFLES ] 1771 01:23:23,586 --> 01:23:26,137 I NEED A PAPER TOWEL OR SOMETHING. 1772 01:23:26,137 --> 01:23:29,620 I'VE LIVED HERE FOR NINE MONTHS, AND THIS IS THE FIRST TIME 1773 01:23:29,620 --> 01:23:31,310 I'VE BEEN IN MY LIVING ROOM. 1774 01:23:33,586 --> 01:23:35,068 I'M TAKING STEPS TO A BETTER LIFE. 1775 01:23:35,068 --> 01:23:36,689 YAY. 1776 01:23:36,689 --> 01:23:41,241 SO FOR THE FIRST TIME IN A LONG WHILE, I FINALLY HAVE HOPE. 1777 01:23:41,241 --> 01:23:42,344 AND WHEN YOU HAVE HOPE, YOU CAN DO ANYTHING.