1 00:00:04,275 --> 00:00:06,206 Lacey: I'VE LET MY WEIGHT GET SO BAD, 2 00:00:06,206 --> 00:00:09,241 MY WHOLE LIFE IS JUST A HUGE STRUGGLE NOW. 3 00:00:09,241 --> 00:00:10,931 I BASICALLY LIVE TO EAT. 4 00:00:10,931 --> 00:00:17,275 ♪♪ 5 00:00:17,275 --> 00:00:18,448 Woman: HE CAN'T STOP. 6 00:00:18,448 --> 00:00:19,931 HE DOESN'T KNOW HOW. 7 00:00:19,931 --> 00:00:22,862 Woman #2: IT'S TERRIFYING TO THINK THAT AT ANY MOMENT, 8 00:00:22,862 --> 00:00:24,551 YOUR HEART COULD EXPLODE. 9 00:00:24,551 --> 00:00:30,034 ♪♪ 10 00:00:30,034 --> 00:00:35,551 ♪♪ 11 00:00:35,551 --> 00:00:37,827 Woman #3: I DON'T WANT TO DIE. 12 00:00:37,827 --> 00:00:39,793 I HAVEN'T EVEN GOTTEN TO LIVE YET. 13 00:00:39,793 --> 00:00:44,448 ♪♪ 14 00:00:44,448 --> 00:00:46,241 WHY ARE YOU JUMPING ON MY CASE? 15 00:00:46,241 --> 00:00:49,827 YOU'RE OVEREATING, AND YOU ACT LIKE IT IS OUR FAULT. 16 00:00:49,827 --> 00:00:51,448 I KNOW THAT I'M DYING. 17 00:00:51,448 --> 00:00:53,586 I KNOW THAT I'M NOT GONNA MAKE IT. 18 00:00:57,689 --> 00:00:59,862 YOU ARE NOT LISTENING TO WHAT I'M SAYING. 19 00:00:59,862 --> 00:01:01,586 WELL, WE GOT TO TALK ABOUT IT, 20 00:01:01,586 --> 00:01:03,172 'CAUSE I AM NOT GONNA STAY IN THIS 21 00:01:03,172 --> 00:01:04,827 [BLEEP] TOWN MORE THAN A YEAR. 22 00:01:04,827 --> 00:01:07,827 --Captions by VITAC-- www.vitac.com 23 00:01:07,827 --> 00:01:10,793 CAPTIONS PAID FOR BY DISCOVERY COMMUNICATIONS 24 00:01:10,793 --> 00:01:17,655 ♪♪ 25 00:01:17,655 --> 00:01:24,482 ♪♪ 26 00:01:24,482 --> 00:01:31,413 ♪♪ 27 00:01:31,413 --> 00:01:36,172 Lacey: WAKING UP IS SO PAINFUL, BECAUSE THERE'S SO MUCH WEIGHT 28 00:01:36,172 --> 00:01:38,862 PULLING DOWN ON EVERY PART OF ME NOW, 29 00:01:38,862 --> 00:01:42,310 THAT EVERY INCH OF MY BODY IS CONSTANTLY IN PAIN. 30 00:01:44,896 --> 00:01:47,034 AND IT'S SO MUCH WORSE WHEN I MOVE. 31 00:01:49,344 --> 00:01:51,620 SO GETTING UP AND HAVING TO START MY DAY 32 00:01:51,620 --> 00:01:54,413 IS SOMETHING I DREAD, 33 00:01:54,413 --> 00:01:57,655 BECAUSE THE VERY FIRST FEW STEPS OUT OF BED, 34 00:01:57,655 --> 00:01:59,379 THAT'S THE MOST PAINFUL. 35 00:02:02,241 --> 00:02:04,034 AND EVERY DAY IT'S GETTING WORSE, 36 00:02:04,034 --> 00:02:05,931 TO THE POINT WHERE I'M SCARED NOW. 37 00:02:05,931 --> 00:02:09,172 MY LEGS COULD GIVE OUT. 38 00:02:09,172 --> 00:02:12,655 AND I'M TERRIFIED OF THAT BECAUSE I LIVE ALONE. 39 00:02:12,655 --> 00:02:16,758 SO I DON'T HAVE ANYONE HERE TO HELP ME. 40 00:02:16,758 --> 00:02:19,517 SO IF THAT EVER HAPPENS, MY FEAR IS THAT 41 00:02:19,517 --> 00:02:21,137 UNLESS MY MOM OR MY FRIENDS 42 00:02:21,137 --> 00:02:23,551 HAPPEN TO COME OVER TO CHECK ON MY IN TIME, 43 00:02:23,551 --> 00:02:26,275 I COULD END UP SERIOUSLY HURT OR EVEN DYING. 44 00:02:26,275 --> 00:02:32,724 ♪♪ 45 00:02:32,724 --> 00:02:35,172 I'VE LET MY WEIGHT GET SO BAD 46 00:02:35,172 --> 00:02:37,551 THAT SOMETHING SIMPLE LIKE GOING TO THE BATHROOM 47 00:02:37,551 --> 00:02:41,172 OR TAKING A SHOWER COULD BE A LIFE-OR-DEATH EXPERIENCE FOR ME. 48 00:02:45,448 --> 00:02:49,758 AND I'M ASHAMED I'VE LET IT GET TO THIS POINT. 49 00:02:49,758 --> 00:02:53,655 AND I REFUSE TO EVEN LOOK AT MY BODY ANYMORE, 50 00:02:53,655 --> 00:02:55,896 AND I DON'T EVEN LIKE THINKING ABOUT IT. 51 00:02:55,896 --> 00:02:57,620 I DON'T LIKE LOOKING AT IT. 52 00:03:00,103 --> 00:03:03,758 I'M OVERWHELMED BY THE SIZE OF MY BODY. 53 00:03:03,758 --> 00:03:06,655 IT DEPRESSES ME WHEN I SEE IT. 54 00:03:06,655 --> 00:03:08,551 SO I DON'T EVEN WANT TO BE AROUND A MIRROR 55 00:03:08,551 --> 00:03:10,241 WHEN I GET DRESSED, 56 00:03:10,241 --> 00:03:11,758 AND I MAKE SURE I GO TO A ROOM 57 00:03:11,758 --> 00:03:14,206 WHERE THERE AREN'T ANY TO PUT MY CLOTHES ON. 58 00:03:25,655 --> 00:03:27,862 BUT GETTING DRESSED IS A WHOLE OTHER EVENT 59 00:03:27,862 --> 00:03:32,034 THAT COMPLETELY EXHAUSTS ME. 60 00:03:32,034 --> 00:03:34,689 I DON'T EVEN THINK THAT I CAN PHYSICALLY DRY 61 00:03:34,689 --> 00:03:37,586 MY ENTIRE BODY LIKE A NORMAL PERSON DOES. 62 00:03:39,965 --> 00:03:43,034 SO IT'S A MISERABLE PROCESS, AND I HATE IT ALL. 63 00:03:45,965 --> 00:03:49,448 MY LIFE IS JUST A HUGE STRUGGLE NOW, 64 00:03:49,448 --> 00:03:53,931 AND THE ONLY JOY I HAVE LEFT IS FOOD. 65 00:03:53,931 --> 00:03:56,931 I BASICALLY LIVE TO EAT, BECAUSE IT'S THE ONLY REASON 66 00:03:56,931 --> 00:04:01,655 I PUT MYSELF THROUGH ALL I DO TO GET UP. 67 00:04:01,655 --> 00:04:05,551 BECAUSE ONCE I FINISH GETTING READY, I JUST START EATING. 68 00:04:05,551 --> 00:04:09,103 AND IT'S LIKE THIS MARATHON OF FOOD UNTIL I GET FULL, 69 00:04:09,103 --> 00:04:10,758 AND IT CAN TAKE A LOT. 70 00:04:10,758 --> 00:04:16,586 ♪♪ 71 00:04:16,586 --> 00:04:22,482 ♪♪ 72 00:04:22,482 --> 00:04:26,379 I USUALLY MAKE SOME SAUSAGE AND SOME POTATOES TO START. 73 00:04:29,103 --> 00:04:31,965 I'M PRETTY TIRED AT THIS POINT, 74 00:04:31,965 --> 00:04:34,448 BUT MY HUNGER IS GREATER THAN MY FATIGUE. 75 00:04:37,758 --> 00:04:39,551 AND I CAN'T WAIT TO EAT. 76 00:04:39,551 --> 00:04:46,551 ♪♪ 77 00:04:46,551 --> 00:04:53,551 ♪♪ 78 00:04:53,551 --> 00:04:56,655 ALL I WANT TO DO IS EAT. 79 00:04:56,655 --> 00:05:00,758 SO WHEN I FINALLY DO, THAT FIRST BITE IS SO, SO GOOD. 80 00:05:04,724 --> 00:05:07,862 I CAN HARDLY DESCRIBE IT. 81 00:05:07,862 --> 00:05:10,000 AND I JUST WANT MORE AND MORE. 82 00:05:12,344 --> 00:05:14,965 AND I DON'T WANT THAT FEELING TO EVER STOP. 83 00:05:21,103 --> 00:05:24,620 AND AFTER I FINISH MY BREAKFAST AND THERE'S NOTHING LEFT, 84 00:05:24,620 --> 00:05:29,206 I FINALLY LET MYSELF GET SOMETHING SWEET. 85 00:05:29,206 --> 00:05:31,758 AND THAT'S WHAT I'VE REALLY BEEN WAITING FOR. 86 00:05:34,344 --> 00:05:37,034 ANYTHING WITH SUGAR, ESPECIALLY CHOCOLATE, 87 00:05:37,034 --> 00:05:40,172 IS MY BIGGEST WEAKNESS. 88 00:05:40,172 --> 00:05:42,655 IT'S LIKE HEAVEN WRAPPED INTO THESE TINY BITES, 89 00:05:42,655 --> 00:05:44,344 AND I CAN'T GET ENOUGH. 90 00:05:44,344 --> 00:05:51,413 ♪♪ 91 00:05:51,413 --> 00:05:58,482 ♪♪ 92 00:05:58,482 --> 00:06:05,689 ♪♪ 93 00:06:05,689 --> 00:06:07,172 THE LAST EIGHT TO NINE YEARS, 94 00:06:07,172 --> 00:06:12,413 I'VE LIVED HERE IN MY HOUSE, ALL ALONE. 95 00:06:12,413 --> 00:06:15,793 I DON'T LIKE GOING ANYWHERE ANYMORE. 96 00:06:15,793 --> 00:06:18,000 I ONLY GET OUT OF THE HOUSE TO GET FOOD. 97 00:06:18,000 --> 00:06:21,551 IT GIVES ME A PLACE TO GO TO. 98 00:06:21,551 --> 00:06:25,206 BUT I STILL DON'T GO VERY FAR, BECAUSE IT TAKES A LOT OUT OF ME 99 00:06:25,206 --> 00:06:29,000 JUST TO WALK ALL THE WAY TO MY CAR. 100 00:06:29,000 --> 00:06:33,551 AND I AM AFRAID THAT ONE DAY, I WILL GET STUCK IN MY CAR 101 00:06:33,551 --> 00:06:35,241 AND I WON'T BE ABLE TO GET OUT. 102 00:06:47,379 --> 00:06:49,551 AND IT HURTS TO MUCH TO TRY AND STAY CRAMMED 103 00:06:49,551 --> 00:06:51,793 IN MY CAR FOR TOO LONG, 104 00:06:51,793 --> 00:06:53,793 SO I KNOW IT'S ONLY A MATTER OF TIME 105 00:06:53,793 --> 00:06:56,724 BEFORE I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE. 106 00:06:56,724 --> 00:06:58,517 Woman: Go ahead with your order whenever you're ready. 107 00:06:58,517 --> 00:07:00,482 COULD I HAVE A DOUBLE CHEESEBURGER, 108 00:07:00,482 --> 00:07:03,931 AND EXTRA-LARGE FRY, MOZZARELLA STICKS, 109 00:07:03,931 --> 00:07:06,344 AND THEN A LARGE BANANA SHAKE? 110 00:07:06,344 --> 00:07:07,586 Okay. So, we'll see you at the window. 111 00:07:07,586 --> 00:07:09,931 Thank you. 112 00:07:09,931 --> 00:07:11,758 Hi. -HI. 113 00:07:11,758 --> 00:07:15,275 THANK YOU. -Have a nice day. 114 00:07:17,551 --> 00:07:21,275 ONCE I CRAVE IT, I HAVE TO HAVE IT. 115 00:07:21,275 --> 00:07:23,862 SO I USUALLY PICK SOME THINGS UP AT A COUPLE DIFFERENT 116 00:07:23,862 --> 00:07:26,551 FAST-FOOD PLACES TO GET EVERYTHING I WANT. 117 00:07:30,241 --> 00:07:31,551 -Hello? -HI. 118 00:07:31,551 --> 00:07:35,137 COULD I HAVE THREE SPICY TACOS, PLEASE? 119 00:07:35,137 --> 00:07:37,586 Thank you. 120 00:07:37,586 --> 00:07:41,793 FOOD IS THE ONLY THING THAT HELPS ME DEAL WITH MY LIFE. 121 00:07:41,793 --> 00:07:45,000 SO EVEN JUST THE THOUGHT OF NOT HAVING WHAT I KNOW I CAN RELY ON 122 00:07:45,000 --> 00:07:49,241 TO HELP ME WHEN I'M DEPRESSED IS ABSOLUTELY HORRIFYING TO ME. 123 00:07:51,310 --> 00:07:57,068 I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO IT, OR HOW TO CHANGE. 124 00:07:57,068 --> 00:07:59,103 EVER SINCE I WAS YOUNG, 125 00:07:59,103 --> 00:08:01,862 IT'S BEEN THE ONLY CONSTANT I CAN RELY ON. 126 00:08:01,862 --> 00:08:09,827 ♪♪ 127 00:08:09,827 --> 00:08:13,586 FOOD AND MY WEIGHT HAVE ALWAYS BEEN A STRUGGLE FOR ME. 128 00:08:13,586 --> 00:08:15,896 IF THERE IS A TIME WHERE I WASN'T OVERWEIGHT, 129 00:08:15,896 --> 00:08:17,379 I DON'T REMEMBER THAT. 130 00:08:17,379 --> 00:08:19,827 I WAS BIG WHEN I WAS A TODDLER. 131 00:08:19,827 --> 00:08:23,896 IT STARTED FROM THERE, AND IT JUST PROGRESSED. 132 00:08:23,896 --> 00:08:26,000 MY MOM LOVED FOOD. 133 00:08:26,000 --> 00:08:28,137 SHE WAS ACTUALLY A COOK AT A RESORT, 134 00:08:28,137 --> 00:08:30,137 SO FOOD WAS HER LIFE. 135 00:08:30,137 --> 00:08:32,000 AND SHE HAD REALLY BAD EATING HABITS, 136 00:08:32,000 --> 00:08:35,172 AND I KNOW THAT I LEARNED MY EATING HABITS FROM HER. 137 00:08:35,172 --> 00:08:37,448 UM, BINGE EATING -- THAT'S SOMETHING MY MOM 138 00:08:37,448 --> 00:08:39,793 HAS STRUGGLED WITH HER ENTIRE LIFE, AS WELL. 139 00:08:39,793 --> 00:08:42,896 SO I PICKED IT UP, TOO. 140 00:08:42,896 --> 00:08:45,551 BECAUSE AS A KID, I ALWAYS ATE WITH MY MOM 141 00:08:45,551 --> 00:08:48,758 AND THAT BECAME OUR THING TOGETHER. 142 00:08:48,758 --> 00:08:51,517 SO EARLY ON, I STARTED PUTTING ON A LOT OF WEIGHT 143 00:08:51,517 --> 00:08:55,241 AND WAS AROUND 80 POUNDS BY THE TIME I WAS 4. 144 00:08:55,241 --> 00:08:58,413 SOMETIMES MY MOM WOULD TAKE ME OUT TO EAT FOR DINNER, 145 00:08:58,413 --> 00:09:00,448 AND I REALLY LIKED TO GO OUT TO EAT WITH MY MOM 146 00:09:00,448 --> 00:09:03,758 BECAUSE I GOT TO SPEND A LOT OF TIME WITH HER. 147 00:09:03,758 --> 00:09:06,413 THAT TIME WAS KIND OF SPECIAL TO ME. 148 00:09:06,413 --> 00:09:10,517 BUT BY THE TIME I WAS 6, I WAS ALREADY OVER 120 POUNDS, 149 00:09:10,517 --> 00:09:11,931 WHICH WAS ALMOST THREE TIMES 150 00:09:11,931 --> 00:09:14,103 WHAT MY WEIGHT SHOULD'VE BEEN AT THAT AGE. 151 00:09:17,896 --> 00:09:19,862 Martha: LACEY WAS ALWAYS BIGGER THAN OTHER KIDS. 152 00:09:19,862 --> 00:09:22,241 BUT WHEN SHE WAS IN FIRST GRADE, 153 00:09:22,241 --> 00:09:24,620 IT WAS TIME FOR HER TO SEE HER PEDIATRICIAN 154 00:09:24,620 --> 00:09:27,137 AND SHE SAID, "WHAT ARE YOU FEEDING THIS KID? 155 00:09:27,137 --> 00:09:31,034 BECAUSE SHE'S ALREADY OFF THE CHARTS BY A MARGIN." 156 00:09:31,034 --> 00:09:32,758 AND THAT'S WHEN I STARTED WORRYING. 157 00:09:32,758 --> 00:09:36,517 I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO AT THAT POINT. 158 00:09:36,517 --> 00:09:39,344 Lacey: AS I GOT OLDER, MY MOM AND MY DAD WORKED LONGER 159 00:09:39,344 --> 00:09:42,034 AND LONGER HOURS AND WEREN'T AROUND MUCH. 160 00:09:42,034 --> 00:09:44,137 AND MANY DAYS, I WOULD BE ON MY OWN 161 00:09:44,137 --> 00:09:46,586 FROM WHEN I GOT UP TO WHEN I WENT TO BED. 162 00:09:48,827 --> 00:09:51,413 I TOOK CARE OF MYSELF ON MY OWN, 163 00:09:51,413 --> 00:09:54,103 AND I STARTED COMING HOME AND MAKING MY OWN DINNER. 164 00:09:54,103 --> 00:09:56,931 AND I ATE WHATEVER I WANTED. 165 00:09:56,931 --> 00:09:58,793 ONE OF MY FAVORITE THINGS WAS TO MIX BUTTER 166 00:09:58,793 --> 00:10:02,103 AND SUGAR IN BOWL AND GO EAT IT IN MY ROOM ALONE, 167 00:10:02,103 --> 00:10:04,206 AND THERE WAS NO ONE TO TELL ME I COULDN'T. 168 00:10:07,034 --> 00:10:09,344 MY DAD STARTED TO STRUGGLE TO FIND WORK, 169 00:10:09,344 --> 00:10:11,482 SO HE STARTED BEING AROUND SOMETIMES. 170 00:10:11,482 --> 00:10:13,034 AND HE WOULD OCCASIONALLY SAY SOMETHING 171 00:10:13,034 --> 00:10:15,000 ABOUT WHAT I WAS EATING, 172 00:10:15,000 --> 00:10:18,103 AND SAY, "DON'T YOU THINK THAT'S ENOUGH," 173 00:10:18,103 --> 00:10:20,965 OR "YOU'VE ALREADY HAD ENOUGH." 174 00:10:20,965 --> 00:10:22,793 AND I WOULD BE LIKE, 175 00:10:22,793 --> 00:10:26,344 "I'M GONNA GO DO IT ANYWAY, BECAUSE I CAN." 176 00:10:26,344 --> 00:10:28,068 SO MY WEIGHT GAIN CONTINUED, 177 00:10:28,068 --> 00:10:31,689 AND I MADE IT OVER 200 POUNDS BY THE TIME I WAS 9. 178 00:10:31,689 --> 00:10:34,103 AND THAT'S WHEN MY WEIGHT STARTED TO REALLY AFFECT ME 179 00:10:34,103 --> 00:10:35,586 AND CAUSE ISSUES FOR ME, 180 00:10:35,586 --> 00:10:39,586 BECAUSE I GOT TIRED VERY QUICKLY COMPARED TO MY FRIENDS. 181 00:10:39,586 --> 00:10:42,275 I COULD BARELY GO AROUND THE BLOCK WITHOUT BEING TIRED, 182 00:10:42,275 --> 00:10:47,103 SO I WAS SAD THAT I COULDN'T HANG OUT WITH MY FRIENDS. 183 00:10:47,103 --> 00:10:50,172 SO MY WEIGHT WAS STARTING TO ISOLATE ME FROM EVERYONE, 184 00:10:50,172 --> 00:10:52,413 AND MY LIFE STARTED TO GET A LOT WORSE -- 185 00:10:52,413 --> 00:10:54,068 NOT JUST BECAUSE OF MY SIZE, 186 00:10:54,068 --> 00:10:58,172 BUT BECAUSE OF HOW THINGS WERE GETTING AT HOME. 187 00:10:58,172 --> 00:11:01,344 WITH MY DAD FINDING IT HARDER TO FIND A JOB, 188 00:11:01,344 --> 00:11:04,724 MY PARENTS STARTED FIGHTING A LOT ABOUT THE FINANCES. 189 00:11:04,724 --> 00:11:07,482 AND MY MOM FELT MY DAD WASN'T TRYING HARD ENOUGH, 190 00:11:07,482 --> 00:11:09,620 AND THAT HE WAS BEING LAZY. 191 00:11:09,620 --> 00:11:11,827 SO THE FIGHTING GOT REALLY BAD. 192 00:11:13,965 --> 00:11:17,448 ONE TIME, WE WERE ALL HAVING DINNER AND THEY WERE FIGHTING. 193 00:11:17,448 --> 00:11:21,068 MY DAD JUST GOT UP AND FLIPPED THE TABLE. 194 00:11:21,068 --> 00:11:24,379 I WAS JUST CRYING BECAUSE I WAS TERRIFIED. 195 00:11:24,379 --> 00:11:25,551 AND FROM THAT POINT ON, 196 00:11:25,551 --> 00:11:27,172 I STARTED TO GET SCARED OF MY DAD 197 00:11:27,172 --> 00:11:31,482 BECAUSE HE WOULD LOSE HIS TEMPER LIKE THAT. 198 00:11:31,482 --> 00:11:34,241 AS TIME WENT ON, THEY FOUGHT EVEN MORE 199 00:11:34,241 --> 00:11:37,379 AND I WAS JUST SCARED ALL THE TIME. 200 00:11:37,379 --> 00:11:38,862 AND I DIDN'T KNOW WHEN MY DAD WAS GOING 201 00:11:38,862 --> 00:11:41,724 TO LOSE HIS TEMPER AGAIN, BECAUSE HE ALWAYS DID. 202 00:11:44,344 --> 00:11:46,551 BUT THAT'S WHEN I STARTED TO REALIZE FOOD 203 00:11:46,551 --> 00:11:49,103 WAS A HUGE COMFORT FOR ME. 204 00:11:49,103 --> 00:11:51,103 IT WAS THERE FOR ME WHEN I WAS LONELY, 205 00:11:51,103 --> 00:11:53,862 AND NOW IT WAS THERE FOR ME WHEN I WAS SCARED. 206 00:11:53,862 --> 00:11:55,689 AND I WENT FROM CONSTANTLY WANTING IT 207 00:11:55,689 --> 00:11:57,655 TO CONSTANTLY NEEDING IT. 208 00:11:59,724 --> 00:12:03,137 WHEN I WAS 12, I HIT 350 POUNDS, 209 00:12:03,137 --> 00:12:04,793 AND THAT WAS AS HIGH AS THE SCALES 210 00:12:04,793 --> 00:12:07,517 COULD GO AT THE DOCTOR'S OFFICE. 211 00:12:07,517 --> 00:12:10,724 SO WE NEVER EVEN BOTHERED WEIGHING ME AFTER THAT, 212 00:12:10,724 --> 00:12:12,448 BECAUSE WE COULDN'T. 213 00:12:14,655 --> 00:12:17,586 BUT I KNEW I WAS GETTING BIGGER EVERY DAY. 214 00:12:17,586 --> 00:12:20,793 AND OTHER PEOPLE WOULD FIND OUT HOW BIG I WAS GETTING, 215 00:12:20,793 --> 00:12:22,655 ESPECIALLY MY DAD. 216 00:12:22,655 --> 00:12:26,137 MY DAD WAS THE WORST. 217 00:12:26,137 --> 00:12:27,724 WHEN I WAS A TEENAGER, 218 00:12:27,724 --> 00:12:31,482 HE STARTED TO CONSTANTLY GET AFTER ME BECAUSE OF MY WEIGHT. 219 00:12:31,482 --> 00:12:34,758 SO I DIDN'T WANT TO BE AROUND HIM ANYMORE AT THAT POINT. 220 00:12:37,241 --> 00:12:39,275 Martha: FOR A LONG TIME, LACEY DIDN'T LIKE HER DAD 221 00:12:39,275 --> 00:12:41,793 AND SHE DIDN'T WANT TO SIT DOWN AT THE TABLE WITH HIM, 222 00:12:41,793 --> 00:12:45,103 BECAUSE HE ALWAYS CRITICIZED HER AT THE TABLE 223 00:12:45,103 --> 00:12:46,724 WHEN WE WERE READY TO EAT DINNER. 224 00:12:46,724 --> 00:12:48,862 SO SHE DIDN'T WANT TO EAT AT THE TABLE, 225 00:12:48,862 --> 00:12:53,862 AND WE ATE IN THE LIVING ROOM AND SHE ATE IN HER BEDROOM. 226 00:12:53,862 --> 00:12:55,000 Lacey: I DID EVERYTHING I COULD 227 00:12:55,000 --> 00:12:57,689 TO AVOID MY DAD DURING THAT TIME, 228 00:12:57,689 --> 00:12:59,551 BECAUSE HE JUST WOULDN'T LET UP. 229 00:13:02,413 --> 00:13:04,689 Steve: IN LACEY'S HIGH SCHOOL YEARS, 230 00:13:04,689 --> 00:13:07,827 THE OBESITY BECAME MORE AND MORE OF A PROBLEM. 231 00:13:07,827 --> 00:13:12,413 I BECAME MORE OF AN ADVERSARY TO HER, 232 00:13:12,413 --> 00:13:16,137 BECAUSE I FOCUSED ON IT PROBABLY MORE THAN 233 00:13:16,137 --> 00:13:17,689 I SHOULD HAVE AT THAT TIME. 234 00:13:17,689 --> 00:13:23,793 AND IT WAS UPSETTING TO ME THAT I SAW WHAT SHE WAS BECOMING, 235 00:13:23,793 --> 00:13:27,482 THROWING HER LIFE AWAY. 236 00:13:27,482 --> 00:13:31,275 Lacey: WHEN I WAS 15, MY DOCTOR GOT A NEW SCALE THAT COULD GO HIGHER, 237 00:13:31,275 --> 00:13:34,344 AND I FOUND OUT I WAS 492 POUNDS. 238 00:13:34,344 --> 00:13:36,896 I WAS IN SHOCK, BUT IT STILL DIDN'T STOP ME 239 00:13:36,896 --> 00:13:38,896 FROM CONTINUING TO GAIN. 240 00:13:41,413 --> 00:13:44,068 AND WHEN I WAS 16 DURING MY SOPHOMORE YEAR, 241 00:13:44,068 --> 00:13:45,551 I GOT TO THE POINT WHERE I COULDN'T DO 242 00:13:45,551 --> 00:13:46,896 WHAT I NEEDED FOR SCHOOL. 243 00:13:46,896 --> 00:13:50,758 SO I HAD TO DROP OUT, AND IT WAS HUMILIATING FOR ME. 244 00:13:52,827 --> 00:13:54,827 BUT I WAS ABLE TO FIND AN ALTERNATIVE SCHOOL 245 00:13:54,827 --> 00:13:56,586 THAT ACCOMMODATED MY NEEDS, 246 00:13:56,586 --> 00:13:58,413 SO I WAS STILL ABLE TO FINISH MY CREDITS 247 00:13:58,413 --> 00:14:02,206 AND GET MY DEGREE WHEN I WAS 18. 248 00:14:02,206 --> 00:14:05,413 AT THAT POINT, I WAS UP OVER 560 POUNDS, 249 00:14:05,413 --> 00:14:08,620 BUT I COULDN'T STOP EATING. 250 00:14:08,620 --> 00:14:12,620 FOOD HELPED ME GET PAST SOME OF THE HARDEST MOMENTS IN MY LIFE, 251 00:14:12,620 --> 00:14:14,241 ESPECIALLY AT THAT TIME, 252 00:14:14,241 --> 00:14:16,758 BECAUSE THAT'S WHEN MY RELATIONSHIP WITH MY FATHER 253 00:14:16,758 --> 00:14:19,827 PRETTY MUCH ENDED FOR A WHILE. 254 00:14:19,827 --> 00:14:22,413 MY MOM AND MY DAD FINALLY GOT A DIVORCE, 255 00:14:22,413 --> 00:14:24,758 AND MY DAD MOVED AWAY. 256 00:14:24,758 --> 00:14:27,758 I WAS DEVASTATED WHEN THAT HAPPENED. 257 00:14:27,758 --> 00:14:31,241 AS MUCH AS MY FATHER HURT ME, HE WAS STILL MY FATHER 258 00:14:31,241 --> 00:14:33,172 AND I DIDN'T WANT HIM OUT OF MY LIFE. 259 00:14:35,448 --> 00:14:38,931 I LOVE LACEY, BUT I JUST CAME TO THE REALIZATION 260 00:14:38,931 --> 00:14:43,758 OR THE FEELING THAT LACEY REALLY WAS NOT MY DAUGHTER. 261 00:14:43,758 --> 00:14:45,103 SHE WAS HER MOTHER'S DAUGHTER, 262 00:14:45,103 --> 00:14:48,068 SO I KIND OF GAVE UP AND IT WORE ME DOWN. 263 00:14:48,068 --> 00:14:50,034 THERE WERE ISSUES WITHIN ME ABOUT -- 264 00:14:50,034 --> 00:14:51,448 I HATE TO SAY IT, BECAUSE SHE'S MY DAUGHTER, 265 00:14:51,448 --> 00:14:53,068 BUT -- EMBARRASSMENT. 266 00:14:53,068 --> 00:14:55,655 YOU KNOW, BEING OUT IN PUBLIC, YOU KNOW, 267 00:14:55,655 --> 00:14:58,103 WITH HER BECAUSE OF HER SIZE. 268 00:15:00,724 --> 00:15:03,689 Lacey: I SPENT THE NEXT COUPLE OF YEARS LIVING AT HOME WITH MY MOM, 269 00:15:03,689 --> 00:15:06,172 JUST EATING AND GETTING BIGGER. 270 00:15:06,172 --> 00:15:08,620 AND WHEN I WAS 20 AND IN THE 600s, 271 00:15:08,620 --> 00:15:10,344 I TRIED TO GO TO COMMUNITY COLLEGE 272 00:15:10,344 --> 00:15:12,344 BUT THERE WAS JUST NO WAY. 273 00:15:12,344 --> 00:15:14,551 I COULDN'T DO IT AND GET AROUND. 274 00:15:16,862 --> 00:15:18,137 SO I WENT ON DISABILITY 275 00:15:18,137 --> 00:15:20,896 AND USED THAT MONEY TO GET MY OWN PLACE. 276 00:15:20,896 --> 00:15:23,034 AND THAT'S WHAT I'VE LIVED OFF OF FOR THE LAST EIGHT 277 00:15:23,034 --> 00:15:25,344 TO NINE YEARS. 278 00:15:25,344 --> 00:15:27,793 I'VE NEVER HAD A JOB. AND I'VE NEVER MADE MY OWN WAY. 279 00:15:27,793 --> 00:15:29,172 I'VE NEVER FELT THAT -- 280 00:15:29,172 --> 00:15:31,724 WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO WORK FOR SOMETHING. 281 00:15:31,724 --> 00:15:35,517 AND I THINK THAT'S REALLY [BLEEP] 282 00:15:35,517 --> 00:15:38,551 MY LIFE IS JUST THIS HOUSE. 283 00:15:38,551 --> 00:15:40,413 AND FOR THE LAST EIGHT OR SO YEARS, 284 00:15:40,413 --> 00:15:42,931 I'VE JUST LIVED HERE ON MY OWN. 285 00:15:42,931 --> 00:15:44,344 MY MOM USED TO EAT WITH ME, 286 00:15:44,344 --> 00:15:46,517 BUT SHE HAD GAINED A LOT OVER THE YEARS TOO, 287 00:15:46,517 --> 00:15:48,965 SO SHE DECIDED TO GET GASTRIC BYPASS. 288 00:15:48,965 --> 00:15:51,413 AND AFTER THAT, THINGS CHANGED SOME BETWEEN US 289 00:15:51,413 --> 00:15:55,068 BECAUSE WE COULDN'T EAT THE SAME FOODS ANYMORE. 290 00:15:55,068 --> 00:15:57,344 MY DAD COMES BY TO SEE ME AT TIMES. 291 00:15:57,344 --> 00:16:00,000 HE GOT REMARRIED A LITTLE WHILE BACK. 292 00:16:00,000 --> 00:16:03,241 BUT OUR RELATIONSHIP HAS BEEN STRAINED SINCE CHILDHOOD, 293 00:16:03,241 --> 00:16:05,793 SO THE ONLY PEOPLE I REALLY SEE CONSTANTLY 294 00:16:05,793 --> 00:16:08,310 ARE SOME OF MY FRIENDS I'VE HAD SINCE CHILDHOOD 295 00:16:08,310 --> 00:16:10,172 THAT ARE STILL A PART OF MY LIFE. 296 00:16:12,827 --> 00:16:14,275 SO, WHAT'S BEEN GOING ON? 297 00:16:14,275 --> 00:16:17,103 NOT A WHOLE LOT. 298 00:16:17,103 --> 00:16:21,896 JUST BEEN HOME AND DOING MY OWN THING, I GUESS. 299 00:16:21,896 --> 00:16:23,275 WE WERE GONNA ASK YOU TO GO OUT TO EAT. 300 00:16:23,275 --> 00:16:25,310 -YEAH. -NO, NOT TODAY. 301 00:16:25,310 --> 00:16:27,137 -YOU SURE? -YEAH. 302 00:16:27,137 --> 00:16:31,172 HOW ARE WE GONNA GET YOU OUT OF THIS FUNK? 303 00:16:31,172 --> 00:16:34,620 MAYBE WHEN THE SUN COMES OUT. 304 00:16:34,620 --> 00:16:36,206 WE'RE WORRIED ABOUT YOU. 305 00:16:36,206 --> 00:16:38,827 THINGS ARE GETTING WORSE WITH YOU. 306 00:16:38,827 --> 00:16:41,068 WE'RE NOTICING. 307 00:16:41,068 --> 00:16:47,068 WELL, THANKS FOR WORRYING, BUT I THINK I'LL BE OKAY. 308 00:16:47,068 --> 00:16:49,931 Katie: IT'S BEEN REALLY HARD WATCHING LACEY GAIN WEIGHT 309 00:16:49,931 --> 00:16:52,862 AND JUST GET MORE ISOLATED. 310 00:16:52,862 --> 00:16:57,448 AND I FEEL LIKE SHE'S LOSING HOPE IN HERSELF. 311 00:16:57,448 --> 00:17:00,517 SHE DOESN'T DESERVE THE LIFESTYLE THAT SHE'S LIVING, 312 00:17:00,517 --> 00:17:03,551 BUT IT'S ALL THAT SHE KNOWS. 313 00:17:03,551 --> 00:17:07,689 NOT SURE ISOLATION IS GONNA HELP YOUR FUNK. 314 00:17:07,689 --> 00:17:10,896 I JUST DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU BEING A SHUT-IN ANYMORE. 315 00:17:10,896 --> 00:17:15,310 I TALK TO YOUR MOM QUITE A BIT ABOUT IT. 316 00:17:15,310 --> 00:17:16,551 OH, YEAH. I TALK TO HER. 317 00:17:16,551 --> 00:17:18,172 OH, YEAH. -YOU BEST NOT BE TALKING TO HER. 318 00:17:18,172 --> 00:17:19,758 OH, WE TALK. 319 00:17:19,758 --> 00:17:22,827 WE'RE BOTH WORRIED, AND I CAME OUT AND JUST TOLD YOUR MOM -- 320 00:17:22,827 --> 00:17:25,068 I WAS KIND OF BEING REALLY RUDE, BUT I TOLD HER 321 00:17:25,068 --> 00:17:27,482 SHE'S GOT TO DO SOMETHING TO HELP. 322 00:17:29,862 --> 00:17:32,551 Megan: I FEEL AS THOUGH LACEY'S ON THE FAST TRACK TO THE GRAVE. 323 00:17:32,551 --> 00:17:34,379 AND I HATE THAT. 324 00:17:37,448 --> 00:17:39,620 I DON'T EVER WANT TO GET THAT CALL 325 00:17:39,620 --> 00:17:42,655 AND BE THERE AT LACEY'S FUNERAL. 326 00:17:42,655 --> 00:17:46,310 DON'T EVER. 327 00:17:46,310 --> 00:17:47,965 SURE WE CAN'T CONVINCE YOU TO GO? 328 00:17:47,965 --> 00:17:49,862 Lacey: YEAH, I'M NOT GOING ANYWHERE. 329 00:17:49,862 --> 00:17:52,517 I THINK JUST HANGING OUT HERE IS FINE, 330 00:17:52,517 --> 00:17:53,896 AND Y'ALL CAN GO. 331 00:17:53,896 --> 00:17:58,413 ARE YOU KICKING US OUT, OR CAN WE HANG OUT FOR A BIT? 332 00:17:58,413 --> 00:18:00,034 I'M TIRED. 333 00:18:00,034 --> 00:18:03,000 I THINK IT'S TIME FOR Y'ALL TO HEAD OUT SO I CAN REST. 334 00:18:03,000 --> 00:18:05,275 ALL RIGHTY, THEN. 335 00:18:05,275 --> 00:18:09,758 -LOVE YOU. -LOVE YOU, TOO. 336 00:18:09,758 --> 00:18:11,344 I'LL SEE YOU LATER. 337 00:18:11,344 --> 00:18:13,000 BYE. 338 00:18:13,000 --> 00:18:16,068 HAVE FUN. DON'T DO ANYTHING TOO CRAZY. 339 00:18:16,068 --> 00:18:17,137 OH, I WON'T. 340 00:18:17,137 --> 00:18:22,241 ♪♪ 341 00:18:22,241 --> 00:18:27,344 ♪♪ 342 00:18:27,344 --> 00:18:30,206 I HATE THAT I'VE LET THIS BECOME MY LIFE, 343 00:18:30,206 --> 00:18:33,241 AND THAT IT'S ONLY GETTING WORSE. 344 00:18:33,241 --> 00:18:37,068 BUT I DON'T NEED EVERYONE NAGGING ME ABOUT IT. 345 00:18:37,068 --> 00:18:41,724 AND I'M FRUSTRATED THEY REACHED OUT TO MY MOM THIS TIME. 346 00:18:41,724 --> 00:18:44,000 I FEEL LIKE THEY CROSSED A LINE, 347 00:18:44,000 --> 00:18:47,034 AND I'M NOT COMFORTABLE WITH THAT. 348 00:18:47,034 --> 00:18:50,827 I KNOW EVERYTHING THEY'RE SAYING IS TRUE. 349 00:18:50,827 --> 00:18:53,931 BUT AT THIS POINT, THIS HAS BEEN MY LIFE FOR SO LONG NOW, 350 00:18:53,931 --> 00:18:59,103 I DON'T KNOW HOW I WOULD BE ABLE TO DEAL WITH LIFE WITHOUT FOOD. 351 00:18:59,103 --> 00:19:02,517 AND JUST THE THOUGHT OF IT SCARES ME TO DEATH, 352 00:19:02,517 --> 00:19:07,241 BECAUSE I'D BE GIVING UP ALL THE HAPPINESS IN MY LIFE. 353 00:19:07,241 --> 00:19:09,758 BUT AT THE SAME TIME, I KNOW IF I DON'T, 354 00:19:09,758 --> 00:19:12,241 THEN I'M NOT GONNA BE ALIVE FOR MUCH LONGER. 355 00:19:14,896 --> 00:19:16,655 AND I'M GONNA GO TO SLEEP ONE NIGHT 356 00:19:16,655 --> 00:19:22,689 AND THEN JUST NOT WAKE UP, AND I DON'T WANT THAT. 357 00:19:22,689 --> 00:19:26,724 SO I KNOW I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE 358 00:19:26,724 --> 00:19:28,620 AND I EAT MYSELF TO DEATH. 359 00:19:28,620 --> 00:19:33,172 ♪♪ 360 00:19:35,793 --> 00:19:42,655 ♪♪ 361 00:19:42,655 --> 00:19:49,586 ♪♪ 362 00:19:49,586 --> 00:19:51,413 Lacey: I'VE BEEN THINKING A LOT ABOUT WHAT MY FRIENDS 363 00:19:51,413 --> 00:19:53,689 KEEP TRYING TO TALK TO ME ABOUT. 364 00:19:53,689 --> 00:19:56,172 FOR THEM TO KEEP TELLING ME HOW BAD OFF I AM 365 00:19:56,172 --> 00:19:59,068 IS JUST FRUSTRATING AND EMBARRASSING, 366 00:19:59,068 --> 00:20:01,103 BUT I KNOW THEY'RE RIGHT. 367 00:20:01,103 --> 00:20:04,034 SO I AGREED TO TALK TO MY MOM ABOUT GETTING HELP. 368 00:20:04,034 --> 00:20:07,413 AND SHE TOLD ME IF I'D AGREE TO GO TO HOUSTON TO SEE DR. NOW, 369 00:20:07,413 --> 00:20:09,241 THAT SHE'D GO WITH ME. 370 00:20:09,241 --> 00:20:12,275 SO SHE MADE AN APPOINTMENT FOR ME AND BOOKED US FLIGHTS DOWN. 371 00:20:15,275 --> 00:20:17,655 THIS IS A FUNNY-LOOKING HAIRBRUSH. 372 00:20:17,655 --> 00:20:19,241 DOESN'T PULL YOUR HAIR OUT. 373 00:20:19,241 --> 00:20:22,586 SO ANYWAY, WE'RE GONNA GET THROUGH THIS, THICK OR THIN, 374 00:20:22,586 --> 00:20:24,206 AND WE'LL GET THIS DONE. 375 00:20:24,206 --> 00:20:29,275 WE'LL GET YOU A NEW LIFE, AND -- AND ME, A VERY HAPPY MOM. 376 00:20:29,275 --> 00:20:30,517 GOOD. 377 00:20:30,517 --> 00:20:31,896 THANKS. 378 00:20:31,896 --> 00:20:33,206 LOVE YOU SO MUCH. 379 00:20:33,206 --> 00:20:36,068 LOVE YOU, TOO. 380 00:20:36,068 --> 00:20:38,448 SO, I THINK I'M DONE. 381 00:20:38,448 --> 00:20:39,862 OKAY. 382 00:20:39,862 --> 00:20:41,931 -YOU CAN GO OUT, 'CAUSE... -YOU GOT IT? 383 00:20:41,931 --> 00:20:43,620 -...I GOT IT. -ALL RIGHT. 384 00:20:46,965 --> 00:20:50,448 I'VE NEVER BEEN ON A PLANE OR DONE A TRIP LIKE THIS. 385 00:20:50,448 --> 00:20:54,689 AND IT'LL BE THE FURTHEST I'VE GONE OR WALKED IN A LONG TIME, 386 00:20:54,689 --> 00:20:57,620 SO I'M SCARED HOW MY BODY'S GONNA HANDLE IT ALL. 387 00:20:59,896 --> 00:21:02,827 AND THEN ON TOP OF THAT, DR. NOW MAY NOT EVEN HELP ME, 388 00:21:02,827 --> 00:21:07,000 AND THIS ALL COULD BE A WASTE OF TIME. 389 00:21:07,000 --> 00:21:09,827 BUT I JUST REALLY HOPE THIS IS NOT A BIG MISTAKE. 390 00:21:12,448 --> 00:21:13,896 ALL RIGHT, LET'S GO. 391 00:21:13,896 --> 00:21:23,655 ♪♪ 392 00:21:23,655 --> 00:21:33,448 ♪♪ 393 00:21:33,448 --> 00:21:37,379 Martha: HOW MANY SEATS DO YOU THINK THAT YOU'RE GONNA HAVE? 394 00:21:37,379 --> 00:21:38,896 I'M THINKING TWO. 395 00:21:38,896 --> 00:21:41,551 I HOPE TWO, BUT YOU KNOW, IF IT'S GONNA BE THREE, 396 00:21:41,551 --> 00:21:46,241 THEN LET IT BE SO YOU CAN MAYBE PROP YOUR LEG UP OR SOMETHING. 397 00:21:46,241 --> 00:21:47,724 [ CHUCKLES ] 398 00:21:47,724 --> 00:21:49,965 MAYBE. 399 00:21:49,965 --> 00:21:52,965 EVEN IF THE SEATS, YOU KNOW, ARE NOT COMFORTABLE, 400 00:21:52,965 --> 00:21:55,413 GETTING THERE IS ALL THAT MATTERS AT THIS POINT. 401 00:22:01,344 --> 00:22:05,310 YEAH, I CAN DO THAT. 402 00:22:05,310 --> 00:22:08,413 SURE. 403 00:22:08,413 --> 00:22:11,620 MY NERVES ARE STARTING TO GET TO ME. 404 00:22:11,620 --> 00:22:14,965 AND I NEED THIS ALL TO BE AS SHORT AS POSSIBLE, 405 00:22:14,965 --> 00:22:17,482 BECAUSE I CAN'T WALK VERY FAR. 406 00:22:17,482 --> 00:22:19,655 BUT WE CALLED AHEAD FOR DISABILITY ASSISTANCE, 407 00:22:19,655 --> 00:22:23,310 SO SOMEONE'S GOING TO BE HERE TO HELP ME AND GET ME A WHEELCHAIR. 408 00:22:23,310 --> 00:22:25,137 AND THAT'S GOING TO HELP ME A LOT, 409 00:22:25,137 --> 00:22:28,103 BECAUSE I'M GOING TO HAVE TO SIT DOWN SOON. 410 00:22:28,103 --> 00:22:30,172 HI. 411 00:22:30,172 --> 00:22:31,275 YES, PLEASE. 412 00:22:31,275 --> 00:22:32,482 ALL RIGHTY. WELL, I'LL TAKE YOUR BAGS. 413 00:22:32,482 --> 00:22:33,517 WE'LL GO AHEAD AND GET YOU STARTED. 414 00:22:33,517 --> 00:22:35,068 ALL RIGHT. 415 00:22:35,068 --> 00:22:37,344 I MIGHT NEED A WHEELCHAIR, THOUGH. 416 00:22:37,344 --> 00:22:39,724 NO PROBLEM, YEAH. 417 00:22:39,724 --> 00:22:41,827 -YES, SIR. -JUST GO AHEAD AND HAVE A SEAT 418 00:22:41,827 --> 00:22:43,344 RIGHT OVER HERE FOR A MOMENT, ALL RIGHTY? 419 00:22:43,344 --> 00:22:47,896 -OKAY, THANK YOU. -THANK YOU. 420 00:22:47,896 --> 00:22:49,344 -THANK YOU. -NO PROBLEM, MA'AM. 421 00:22:49,344 --> 00:22:50,655 JUST GO AHEAD AND HANG ONTO THAT FOR ME. 422 00:22:50,655 --> 00:22:51,862 YEP. 423 00:22:51,862 --> 00:22:53,068 JUST WAIT FOR ME FOR A FEW MOMENTS, 424 00:22:53,068 --> 00:22:54,275 AND I'M GONNA GO REQUEST A WHEELCHAIR FOR YOU. 425 00:22:54,275 --> 00:22:56,103 OKAY, THANK YOU. 426 00:22:59,758 --> 00:23:01,000 AH, HERE HE COMES. 427 00:23:05,724 --> 00:23:06,965 OH, OKAY. 428 00:23:06,965 --> 00:23:09,793 WOULD IT BE EASIER IF YOU HELD ON TO A WHEELCHAIR 429 00:23:09,793 --> 00:23:11,620 AS A WALKER AND WENT TO YOUR GATE? 430 00:23:11,620 --> 00:23:13,172 I THINK I'LL TRY IT WITHOUT. 431 00:23:13,172 --> 00:23:15,896 I MEAN, I COULD TRY WITHOUT. 432 00:23:15,896 --> 00:23:17,827 -EVEN WITHOUT HOLDING IT? -YEAH. 433 00:23:17,827 --> 00:23:19,517 OKAY, I GOT YOU. NO PROBLEM AT ALL. 434 00:23:19,517 --> 00:23:21,965 OKAY. 435 00:23:21,965 --> 00:23:23,103 OKAY. 436 00:23:25,482 --> 00:23:28,655 I WASN'T EXPECTING THIS. 437 00:23:28,655 --> 00:23:29,931 THIS IS THE TYPE OF STUFF 438 00:23:29,931 --> 00:23:31,965 I'M ALWAYS WORRIED ABOUT GOING ANYWHERE, 439 00:23:31,965 --> 00:23:37,206 BECAUSE MOST PLACES DON'T HAVE WHAT I NEED TO ACCOMMODATE ME. 440 00:23:37,206 --> 00:23:39,551 AND NOW I'M GONNA FEEL LIKE EVERYONE'S LOOKING AT ME 441 00:23:39,551 --> 00:23:41,689 TRYING TO STRUGGLE TO GET TO THE PLANE, 442 00:23:41,689 --> 00:23:43,724 WHEN I WAS JUST HOPING TO BE ABLE TO DO THIS 443 00:23:43,724 --> 00:23:45,689 AND GET IT DONE AS FAST AS I COULD. 444 00:23:47,862 --> 00:23:50,275 I CAN'T STAND FOR LONG LIKE THIS. 445 00:23:50,275 --> 00:23:52,000 I'M ALREADY HURTING A LOT. 446 00:23:55,586 --> 00:23:57,620 OKAY. 447 00:23:57,620 --> 00:24:02,206 I DON'T THINK PEOPLE UNDERSTAND HOW HARD THIS IS FOR ME TO DO 448 00:24:02,206 --> 00:24:06,310 AND HOW BAD THIS CAN GET IF I START TO HIT MY LIMIT. 449 00:24:06,310 --> 00:24:09,482 I JUST NEED TO MAKE IT TO WHEREVER I CAN SIT DOWN NEXT. 450 00:24:13,172 --> 00:24:14,551 -THANK YOU VERY MUCH. -THANKS. 451 00:24:14,551 --> 00:24:16,206 YOU HAVE A GOOD ONE, AND ENJOY YOUR FLIGHT, HON, OKAY? 452 00:24:16,206 --> 00:24:17,551 -THANK YOU SO MUCH. -NO PROBLEM. 453 00:24:20,000 --> 00:24:23,413 THANK GOODNESS. 454 00:24:23,413 --> 00:24:25,275 NOW THAT I'M ABLE TO SIT DOWN, 455 00:24:25,275 --> 00:24:29,413 I'M CALMING DOWN A LITTLE BIT AND I FEEL BETTER. 456 00:24:29,413 --> 00:24:31,586 YOU DON'T SEEM AS NERVOUS AS YOU WERE WHEN WE WERE DRIVING NOW. 457 00:24:31,586 --> 00:24:33,172 I'M EXCITED. 458 00:24:33,172 --> 00:24:35,551 -MAN. -THAT'S COOL. 459 00:24:35,551 --> 00:24:36,896 OH, MAN. 460 00:24:36,896 --> 00:24:39,482 THEY'RE A LOT BIGGER THAN THEY SEEM. 461 00:24:39,482 --> 00:24:42,620 THIS IS THE WHOLE BEGINNING OF YOUR NEW JOURNEY. 462 00:24:42,620 --> 00:24:46,655 -YEAH. -I AM SO, SO HAPPY. 463 00:24:46,655 --> 00:24:49,586 NOW THAT I'VE MADE IT THIS FAR AND I'M ALMOST TO THE PLANE, 464 00:24:49,586 --> 00:24:51,724 I KNOW I CAN MAKE IT. 465 00:24:51,724 --> 00:24:54,586 I'M NOT NERVOUS ANYMORE, 'CAUSE WE'RE HERE. 466 00:24:54,586 --> 00:24:57,896 WE'RE HERE, AND IN MY HEAD, YOU KNOW, 467 00:24:57,896 --> 00:25:00,068 IT'S SOMETHING MORE SCARY THAN THIS. 468 00:25:00,068 --> 00:25:04,965 SO I'M PRETTY -- PRETTY EXCITED ABOUT IT NOW. 469 00:25:04,965 --> 00:25:08,896 I'VE NEVER SEEN AIRPLANES LAND OR TAKE OFF OR MOVE OR ANYTHING, 470 00:25:08,896 --> 00:25:12,586 SO LOOKING OUT THERE IS REALLY AWESOME. 471 00:25:12,586 --> 00:25:15,896 I JUST CAN'T STOP. 472 00:25:15,896 --> 00:25:18,448 PEOPLE TAKE FOR GRANTED THAT THEY CAN GO DO THIS 473 00:25:18,448 --> 00:25:20,689 AND SEE THINGS LIKE THIS. 474 00:25:20,689 --> 00:25:24,137 IT'S TRULY AMAZING. 475 00:25:24,137 --> 00:25:26,241 I JUST HAVE TO WALK A LITTLE BIT FURTHER, 476 00:25:26,241 --> 00:25:28,172 AND I'M CONFIDENT I CAN MAKE IT. 477 00:25:30,620 --> 00:25:32,275 I AM STILL A LITTLE WORRIED ABOUT WHETHER 478 00:25:32,275 --> 00:25:35,448 I'M GONNA HAVE ANY TROUBLE GETTING ON THE PLANE, 479 00:25:35,448 --> 00:25:38,448 BUT I'M MOSTLY EXCITED ABOUT ALL THIS. 480 00:25:38,448 --> 00:25:42,000 AND I CAN'T WAIT TO FLY FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE. 481 00:25:44,448 --> 00:25:46,482 NOPE, THAT'S GOOD. I'M IN. 482 00:25:46,482 --> 00:25:49,551 -PERFECT. -THANK YOU. 483 00:25:49,551 --> 00:25:52,482 MY LEGS HURT, AND I'M REALLY TIRED. 484 00:25:52,482 --> 00:25:54,758 BUT I'M REALLY EXCITED ABOUT THIS. 485 00:25:54,758 --> 00:25:57,758 OH, MY GOD. 486 00:25:57,758 --> 00:26:00,068 WHOO! 487 00:26:00,068 --> 00:26:01,551 OH, MY GOD. 488 00:26:01,551 --> 00:26:04,586 THAT'S SO COOL! 489 00:26:06,931 --> 00:26:09,379 THIS IS BREATHTAKING. 490 00:26:09,379 --> 00:26:11,551 I'M JUST THANKFUL TO HAVE THIS WHOLE OPPORTUNITY 491 00:26:11,551 --> 00:26:13,206 TO BE FLYING FOR THE FIRST TIME, 492 00:26:13,206 --> 00:26:17,379 AND OVERALL, TO HAVE THIS CHANCE TO GET MY LIFE BACK. 493 00:26:17,379 --> 00:26:19,172 I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN FROM HERE, 494 00:26:19,172 --> 00:26:22,517 OR IF DR. NOW IS EVEN GONNA BE ABLE TO HELP ME. 495 00:26:22,517 --> 00:26:24,413 BUT I'M FEELING REALLY OPTIMISTIC, 496 00:26:24,413 --> 00:26:26,655 AND I FEEL PROUD FOR PUSHING MYSELF. 497 00:26:26,655 --> 00:26:30,551 ♪♪ 498 00:26:30,551 --> 00:26:32,758 WE SHOULD BE IN HOUSTON HERE SOON, 499 00:26:32,758 --> 00:26:34,482 AND WE HAVE DISABILITY ASSISTANCE 500 00:26:34,482 --> 00:26:37,275 SET TO HELP ME ONCE WE ARRIVE. 501 00:26:37,275 --> 00:26:39,586 SO I FEEL LIKE I CAN HANDLE THE REST OF THE TRIP, 502 00:26:39,586 --> 00:26:41,448 AND I'M NOT WORRIED. 503 00:26:41,448 --> 00:26:43,137 I GOT THIS. 504 00:26:43,137 --> 00:26:50,896 ♪♪ 505 00:26:50,896 --> 00:26:53,586 AS EMBARRASSING AS IT WAS TO HAVE TO GET TWO SEATS 506 00:26:53,586 --> 00:26:57,551 TO ACCOMMODATE MY SIZE, IT ENDED UP HELPING ME A LOT 507 00:26:57,551 --> 00:26:59,931 BECAUSE I COULD MOVE AROUND AND REPOSITION MYSELF 508 00:26:59,931 --> 00:27:02,000 WHEN I GOT SORE. 509 00:27:02,000 --> 00:27:03,620 SO I'M FEELING PRETTY GOOD RIGHT NOW, 510 00:27:03,620 --> 00:27:07,517 AND I'M REALLY RELIEVED THAT THEY HAVE A WHEELCHAIR FOR ME. 511 00:27:07,517 --> 00:27:09,482 I'M JUST STARVING. 512 00:27:09,482 --> 00:27:10,689 AT THIS POINT IN THE DAY, 513 00:27:10,689 --> 00:27:12,586 I'VE USUALLY ALREADY EATEN A LOT. 514 00:27:12,586 --> 00:27:14,448 BUT TODAY, I'VE HARDLY HAD ANYTHING. 515 00:27:14,448 --> 00:27:17,172 SO I'M GONNA HAVE TO GET SOMETHING REALLY SOON. 516 00:27:19,206 --> 00:27:20,724 THANK YOU. 517 00:27:20,724 --> 00:27:22,965 BUT OTHER THAN THAT, I FEEL GOOD. 518 00:27:22,965 --> 00:27:26,206 AND I FEEL LIKE THIS TRIP HAS BEEN A GOOD EXPERIENCE FOR ME. 519 00:27:26,206 --> 00:27:35,724 ♪♪ 520 00:27:35,724 --> 00:27:37,034 Lacey: EXCUSE ME. 521 00:27:37,034 --> 00:27:39,586 CAN WE FIND SOMEWHERE TO GET SOME FOOD REALLY QUICK? 522 00:27:41,689 --> 00:27:44,068 HOW ABOUT DRIVE-THRU? 523 00:27:44,068 --> 00:27:46,620 YES, SIR. 524 00:27:46,620 --> 00:27:49,241 I'M REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO FINALLY EATING, 525 00:27:49,241 --> 00:27:51,275 BECAUSE I'M SO HUNGRY AND I KNOW 526 00:27:51,275 --> 00:27:53,034 THIS MAY BE ONE OF THE LAST TIMES 527 00:27:53,034 --> 00:27:56,310 THAT I GET TO EAT LIKE THIS FOR A WHILE. 528 00:27:56,310 --> 00:27:57,482 AFTER I SEE DR. NOW, 529 00:27:57,482 --> 00:27:58,793 I'M PROBABLY GONNA HAVE TO START 530 00:27:58,793 --> 00:28:01,241 MAKING A LOT OF CHANGES WITH WHAT I EAT. 531 00:28:01,241 --> 00:28:04,103 SO I'M GONNA SAVOR THIS. 532 00:28:04,103 --> 00:28:05,310 A NUMBER SEVEN. 533 00:28:05,310 --> 00:28:08,931 Man: COULD I GET A NUMBER SEVEN, PLEASE? 534 00:28:08,931 --> 00:28:10,931 Lacey: BUT I KNOW TOMORROW IS A NEW DAY, 535 00:28:10,931 --> 00:28:13,551 AND I'M GONNA HAVE TO START WORKING HARD. 536 00:28:13,551 --> 00:28:16,344 THANK YOU SO MUCH. -MM-HMM. 537 00:28:19,827 --> 00:28:23,241 THIS HAS BEEN A LOT OF ACTIVITY FOR ME, 538 00:28:23,241 --> 00:28:24,517 SO I FEEL LIKE WE'RE GETTING HERE 539 00:28:24,517 --> 00:28:27,000 AND ENDING THIS TRIP JUST IN TIME. 540 00:28:27,000 --> 00:28:31,862 ♪♪ 541 00:28:40,310 --> 00:28:42,413 OH, DAMN IT! 542 00:28:42,413 --> 00:28:44,344 [BLEEP] 543 00:28:44,344 --> 00:28:46,068 DAMN IT! 544 00:28:52,137 --> 00:28:53,724 GEEZ. 545 00:28:53,724 --> 00:28:55,379 I CAN'T MOVE. MY LEG HURTS SO BAD. 546 00:28:55,379 --> 00:28:56,931 WHICH ONE, HONEY? 547 00:28:56,931 --> 00:28:58,206 DON'T. YOU CAN'T TOUCH ME. 548 00:28:58,206 --> 00:28:59,827 JUST LEAVE ME ALONE. -ALL RIGHT. 549 00:28:59,827 --> 00:29:02,344 ALL RIGHT. 550 00:29:02,344 --> 00:29:05,655 I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS HAPPENED. 551 00:29:05,655 --> 00:29:08,724 I'M IN SO MUCH PAIN RIGHT NOW. 552 00:29:08,724 --> 00:29:10,758 I DON'T THINK I CAN GET UP, 553 00:29:10,758 --> 00:29:12,517 AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M GONNA DO. 554 00:29:12,517 --> 00:29:14,862 ♪♪ 555 00:29:18,206 --> 00:29:23,931 ♪♪ 556 00:29:23,931 --> 00:29:25,655 OH [BLEEP] LEG! 557 00:29:28,379 --> 00:29:31,517 Lacey: I DON'T KNOW IF I CAN GET UP. 558 00:29:31,517 --> 00:29:33,689 ALL RIGHT. 559 00:29:33,689 --> 00:29:35,034 WE'RE CALLING AN AMBULANCE, THEN. 560 00:29:35,034 --> 00:29:36,862 NO! 561 00:29:36,862 --> 00:29:39,344 WE NEED YOU TO GET IN A STRETCHER. 562 00:29:39,344 --> 00:29:40,517 YOU CAN'T... -NO, I DON'T! 563 00:29:40,517 --> 00:29:41,586 ...GET UP. 564 00:29:41,586 --> 00:29:42,793 -MOM? -LACEY -- 565 00:29:42,793 --> 00:29:44,965 LEAVE ME ALONE, AND LET ME -- 566 00:29:44,965 --> 00:29:46,758 I JUST DON'T WANT YOUR LEG TO GET ANY WORSE. 567 00:29:46,758 --> 00:29:48,206 MOM! I'M FINE. 568 00:29:48,206 --> 00:29:51,275 YOU HURT IT. 569 00:29:51,275 --> 00:29:55,344 I JUST NEED A MOMENT, AND I WISH MY MOM WOULD LEAVE ME ALONE. 570 00:29:55,344 --> 00:29:58,034 IF I JUST TAKE A SECOND, 571 00:29:58,034 --> 00:30:00,482 I CAN SEE IF I CAN GET UP, 572 00:30:00,482 --> 00:30:03,931 BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO HAVE TO CALL AN AMBULANCE OR ANY HELP. 573 00:30:03,931 --> 00:30:08,034 I JUST WANT TO GET IN MY ROOM AND EAT AND PUT THIS BEHIND ME. 574 00:30:12,758 --> 00:30:14,344 NO, NO, NO. DON'T TOUCH ME! 575 00:30:14,344 --> 00:30:16,758 OKAY. ALL RIGHT. 576 00:30:22,758 --> 00:30:28,034 [ GROANS ] 577 00:30:28,034 --> 00:30:29,413 DON'T TOUCH ME. 578 00:30:29,413 --> 00:30:30,965 LET GO OF ME, PLEASE! -OKAY. 579 00:30:30,965 --> 00:30:32,310 -PLEASE, LET GO! -CAREFUL. 580 00:30:32,310 --> 00:30:33,862 YOU'RE ON A -- YOU'RE IN A -- -LET GO OF ME! 581 00:30:33,862 --> 00:30:35,000 -I DON'T HAVE -- -GET AWAY FROM ME! 582 00:30:35,000 --> 00:30:37,034 -I DON'T HAVE YOU. -JUST LET ME DO IT. 583 00:30:37,034 --> 00:30:38,896 ALL RIGHT, ALL RIGHT, ALL RIGHT. 584 00:30:38,896 --> 00:30:40,482 OKAY. 585 00:30:40,482 --> 00:30:43,206 Man: LET ME MOVE SO THAT SHE CAN PASS. 586 00:30:43,206 --> 00:30:44,862 OH, NO. [ CRIES ] 587 00:30:44,862 --> 00:30:46,379 I'M GONNA GET YOU -- STAY PUT. 588 00:30:46,379 --> 00:30:48,172 I'M GONNA GET YOU A WHEELCHAIR. 589 00:30:48,172 --> 00:30:49,896 I JUST WANT TO GO! 590 00:30:52,517 --> 00:30:53,655 LACEY! 591 00:30:53,655 --> 00:30:56,448 DON'T YOU DARE PICK NOTHING UP. 592 00:30:56,448 --> 00:30:58,034 LACEY, SIT ON THIS. 593 00:30:58,034 --> 00:30:59,655 -NO! -I'LL PUSH YOU. 594 00:30:59,655 --> 00:31:01,275 NO. 595 00:31:01,275 --> 00:31:03,689 GOD. 596 00:31:03,689 --> 00:31:05,551 I KNEW THIS WAS GONNA HAPPEN. 597 00:31:08,793 --> 00:31:12,344 Lacey: I WAS DOING SO WELL, AND I WAS FEELING CONFIDENT. 598 00:31:12,344 --> 00:31:15,655 BUT GETTING OUT OF THE VAN, I JUST PUSHED MYSELF TOO HARD. 599 00:31:15,655 --> 00:31:18,137 AND I FEEL EMBARRASSED AND DEFLATED, 600 00:31:18,137 --> 00:31:21,103 AND I JUST WANT TO FINALLY REST AND EAT SOMETHING. 601 00:31:23,241 --> 00:31:25,758 Martha: IT WAS HORRIBLE TO SEE LACEY FALL. 602 00:31:25,758 --> 00:31:28,586 THAT WAS MY WORST FEAR COME TO LIFE. 603 00:31:28,586 --> 00:31:29,724 I FELT HELPLESS. 604 00:31:29,724 --> 00:31:31,655 IT WAS SCARY. 605 00:31:31,655 --> 00:31:34,448 I'M GRATEFUL SHE DIDN'T BREAK ANYTHING, BUT, YOU KNOW, 606 00:31:34,448 --> 00:31:36,931 I DON'T WANT TO RELIVE THAT EVER, EVER AGAIN. 607 00:31:39,689 --> 00:31:42,241 YOU WANT A FRENCH FRY? IT'LL MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER. 608 00:31:42,241 --> 00:31:43,620 [ LAUGHS ] 609 00:31:47,448 --> 00:31:51,413 Lacey: I'M JUST GLAD TO BE HERE, AND I'M READY FOR BED. 610 00:31:51,413 --> 00:31:53,379 I EARNED A GOOD NIGHT'S SLEEP. 611 00:31:53,379 --> 00:31:54,965 I JUST HOPE I'M ABLE TO REST, 612 00:31:54,965 --> 00:31:57,275 BECAUSE MY MIND IS RACING ABOUT TOMORROW 613 00:31:57,275 --> 00:32:00,413 AND HOW IT'S GOING TO GO WITH DR. NOW. 614 00:32:00,413 --> 00:32:04,862 MY BODY'S BREAKING POINT ISN'T TOO FAR OFF, 615 00:32:04,862 --> 00:32:08,103 SO MY WHOLE LIFE AND EVERYTHING ALL DEPENDS 616 00:32:08,103 --> 00:32:10,724 ON WHAT HAPPENS TOMORROW. 617 00:32:10,724 --> 00:32:13,103 AND I KNOW THIS IS MY LAST CHANCE. 618 00:32:13,103 --> 00:32:21,413 ♪♪ 619 00:32:21,413 --> 00:32:23,310 ME AND MY MOM ARE HEADED TO DR. NOW'S 620 00:32:23,310 --> 00:32:25,586 FOR MY FIRST APPOINTMENT. 621 00:32:25,586 --> 00:32:27,310 AFTER WHAT HAPPENED YESTERDAY, 622 00:32:27,310 --> 00:32:30,413 I WAS ABLE TO REST AND GET SOME SLEEP. 623 00:32:30,413 --> 00:32:32,206 OKAY. 624 00:32:32,206 --> 00:32:34,655 -Y'ALL HAVE A GOOD DAY. -THANK YOU. YOU, TOO. 625 00:32:34,655 --> 00:32:37,482 SO I'M FEELING A LOT BETTER TODAY. 626 00:32:37,482 --> 00:32:39,000 THE ONLY THING I'M NERVOUS ABOUT 627 00:32:39,000 --> 00:32:41,275 IS HOW THIS APPOINTMENT IS GONNA GO. 628 00:32:44,655 --> 00:32:46,379 LACEY HODDER? 629 00:32:48,551 --> 00:32:53,068 MY FEAR IS THAT I'VE GOTTEN OVER 650 OR CLOSE TO 700. 630 00:32:53,068 --> 00:32:59,482 ♪♪ 631 00:32:59,482 --> 00:33:01,793 -700, LACEY. -OOH. 632 00:33:01,793 --> 00:33:07,034 ♪♪ 633 00:33:07,034 --> 00:33:09,103 THAT'S WHAT I WAS AFRAID OF. 634 00:33:11,344 --> 00:33:14,206 SO MY WEIGHT IS MORE OUT OF CONTROL THAN EVER, 635 00:33:14,206 --> 00:33:16,517 AND I KNOW I NEED TO GET HELP. 636 00:33:16,517 --> 00:33:24,724 ♪♪ 637 00:33:24,724 --> 00:33:26,172 -HI. -HELLO. 638 00:33:26,172 --> 00:33:28,000 -HELLO. -HOW ARE Y'ALL DOING? 639 00:33:28,000 --> 00:33:29,137 I'M DR. NOWZARADAN. 640 00:33:29,137 --> 00:33:30,413 HI. IT'S NICE TO MEET YOU. 641 00:33:30,413 --> 00:33:32,103 I'M LACEY. -AND? 642 00:33:32,103 --> 00:33:33,689 I'M MARTHA. NICE TO MEET YOU. 643 00:33:33,689 --> 00:33:35,586 -AND YOU'RE...? -LACEY'S MOTHER. 644 00:33:35,586 --> 00:33:37,586 -MOTHER. OKAY. -YES. 645 00:33:37,586 --> 00:33:39,310 WELL, IT'S GOOD TO MEET YOU BOTH. 646 00:33:39,310 --> 00:33:41,344 SO, HOW WAS YOUR TRIP? -IT WAS GOOD. 647 00:33:41,344 --> 00:33:44,655 MY FIRST TIME FLYING, SO IT WENT REALLY WELL. 648 00:33:44,655 --> 00:33:46,206 GREAT. 649 00:33:46,206 --> 00:33:49,344 I'M GLAD IT WENT SO WELL AND THAT YOU MADE IT HERE. 650 00:33:49,344 --> 00:33:53,724 ALL RIGHT. SO, LACEY, TODAY YOU'RE AT 691. 651 00:33:53,724 --> 00:33:55,000 YEAH. 652 00:33:55,000 --> 00:33:56,551 IS THAT THE HIGHEST WEIGHT YOU HAVE BEEN? 653 00:33:56,551 --> 00:33:58,724 YES, SIR. 654 00:33:58,724 --> 00:34:01,103 AND YOU'RE 5'3". 655 00:34:01,103 --> 00:34:02,586 YEAH. 656 00:34:02,586 --> 00:34:06,034 AT YOUR HEIGHT, YOU SHOULD BE 120 TO HAVE A NORMAL BMI. 657 00:34:06,034 --> 00:34:09,241 BUT YOUR BMI IS 122. 658 00:34:09,241 --> 00:34:10,482 -YEAH. -WOW. 659 00:34:10,482 --> 00:34:12,517 THAT MAY NOT BE THE HIGHEST THAT I'VE SEEN, 660 00:34:12,517 --> 00:34:13,862 BUT YOU'RE PRETTY CLOSE THERE. 661 00:34:13,862 --> 00:34:15,241 YEAH. 662 00:34:15,241 --> 00:34:17,758 SO THIS IS A PRETTY BAD SITUATION. 663 00:34:17,758 --> 00:34:20,241 I'M SURPRISED YOU'RE STILL ABLE TO GET AROUND. 664 00:34:20,241 --> 00:34:24,000 HOW MUCH YOU CAN WALK, ABOUT 10 STEPS, 20 STEPS, OR...? 665 00:34:24,000 --> 00:34:26,896 OH, I CAN WALK PRETTY FAR, I GUESS, FOR MY SIZE. 666 00:34:26,896 --> 00:34:29,310 BUT I'M OUT OF BREATH ALL THE TIME DOING IT, 667 00:34:29,310 --> 00:34:32,689 BUT I CAN PUSH MYSELF TO WALK FURTHER. 668 00:34:32,689 --> 00:34:36,275 YOU MAY OWE YOUR MOBILITY TO THE FACT THAT YOU'RE YOUNG. 669 00:34:36,275 --> 00:34:39,724 YOUR BODY HAS BEEN ABLE TO HANDLE YOUR WEIGHT UP TO NOW, 670 00:34:39,724 --> 00:34:42,448 BUT THAT'S GONNA START TO CHANGE RAPIDLY SOON. 671 00:34:42,448 --> 00:34:45,655 SO, WHEN DID YOU NOTICE YOU WERE HAVING WEIGHT PROBLEM? 672 00:34:45,655 --> 00:34:48,620 IN ELEMENTARY SCHOOL, WHEN I WAS VERY YOUNG. 673 00:34:48,620 --> 00:34:51,689 I WAS -- I'VE BEEN OVERWEIGHT SINCE I CAN REMEMBER. 674 00:34:51,689 --> 00:34:54,620 SO AT THAT AGE, YOU WEREN'T FEEDING YOURSELF. 675 00:34:54,620 --> 00:34:56,310 THE WEIGHT GAIN STARTED WITH FOOD 676 00:34:56,310 --> 00:34:58,137 YOU WERE GETTING FROM YOUR MOM? 677 00:34:58,137 --> 00:35:00,689 I THINK SO. 678 00:35:00,689 --> 00:35:03,137 IT SAYS IN THE FAMILY HISTORY HERE, 679 00:35:03,137 --> 00:35:05,137 YOU HAD THE WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, HUH? 680 00:35:05,137 --> 00:35:06,551 I DID. 681 00:35:06,551 --> 00:35:08,655 HOW MUCH YOU WEIGHED BEFORE WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY? 682 00:35:08,655 --> 00:35:11,413 -350. -OKAY. 683 00:35:11,413 --> 00:35:14,965 IT LOOKS LIKE YOU'RE NOW ABOUT IN UPPER 200s. 684 00:35:14,965 --> 00:35:16,482 YES. 685 00:35:16,482 --> 00:35:18,965 SO IT WASN'T AS EFFECTIVE AS IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN, 686 00:35:18,965 --> 00:35:21,448 WHICH SHOWS ME YOU'RE STILL USING FOOD 687 00:35:21,448 --> 00:35:23,103 AS A COPING MECHANISM. 688 00:35:23,103 --> 00:35:25,482 AND I DON'T WANT THAT TO INFLUENCE YOUR DAUGHTER 689 00:35:25,482 --> 00:35:26,655 NEGATIVELY. 690 00:35:26,655 --> 00:35:29,068 BECAUSE, LACEY, IT'S EXTREMELY IMPORTANT 691 00:35:29,068 --> 00:35:31,172 WE START TO GET YOUR WEIGHT DOWN IMMEDIATELY. 692 00:35:31,172 --> 00:35:32,172 OKAY. 693 00:35:32,172 --> 00:35:34,482 SO HERE'S WHAT I WANT YOU TO DO. 694 00:35:34,482 --> 00:35:36,758 I'M GONNA GIVE YOU A 1,200-CALORIE-A-DAY, 695 00:35:36,758 --> 00:35:38,482 HIGH-PROTEIN, LOW-CARB DIET 696 00:35:38,482 --> 00:35:40,965 THAT I WANT YOU TO START IMMEDIATELY. 697 00:35:40,965 --> 00:35:42,241 OKAY. 698 00:35:42,241 --> 00:35:44,068 AND I WANT YOU TO START DEVELOPING HABIT 699 00:35:44,068 --> 00:35:47,000 OF ONLY EATING THREE TIME A DAY, NO SNACK IN BETWEEN. 700 00:35:47,000 --> 00:35:48,310 MM-HMM. 701 00:35:48,310 --> 00:35:49,793 IF YOU DO THAT, YOU SHOULD HAVE NO PROBLEM 702 00:35:49,793 --> 00:35:53,310 LOSING AT LEAST 80 POUNDS IN THE NEXT TWO MONTHS, OKAY? 703 00:35:53,310 --> 00:35:54,655 YES, SIR. 704 00:35:54,655 --> 00:35:57,034 I ALSO WANT YOU TO START GETTING MORE ACTIVE 705 00:35:57,034 --> 00:35:58,620 AND WORK ON YOUR STAMINA 706 00:35:58,620 --> 00:36:01,482 BY WALKING AT LEAST 30 MINUTES IN MORNING 707 00:36:01,482 --> 00:36:03,310 AND 30 MINUTES IN EVENING. 708 00:36:03,310 --> 00:36:05,310 GOT IT? -I CAN DO THAT. 709 00:36:05,310 --> 00:36:06,965 IF YOU DO THAT, WHEN YOU COME BACK, 710 00:36:06,965 --> 00:36:09,448 THEN I'LL APPROVE YOU FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 711 00:36:09,448 --> 00:36:11,103 -OKAY? -YES, SIR. 712 00:36:11,103 --> 00:36:13,724 BUT IF YOU DON'T, IT WON'T EVEN BE POSSIBLE 713 00:36:13,724 --> 00:36:16,275 TO EVEN CONSIDER PERFORMING ANY SURGERY. 714 00:36:16,275 --> 00:36:19,448 BECAUSE WHEN YOU HAVE A HIGH BMI LIKE THAT, 715 00:36:19,448 --> 00:36:22,655 IT'S GONNA BE ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE TO PUT YOU 716 00:36:22,655 --> 00:36:23,931 ASLEEP AND BREATHE FOR YOU... -YEAH. 717 00:36:23,931 --> 00:36:26,827 ...BECAUSE OF THE HEAVY CHEST AND ABDOMEN. 718 00:36:26,827 --> 00:36:28,655 SO THIS IS YOUR ONLY OPTION. 719 00:36:28,655 --> 00:36:30,448 YOU HAVE TO START LOSING WEIGHT. 720 00:36:30,448 --> 00:36:32,413 AND IF YOU DO THAT AND WE MOVE AHEAD 721 00:36:32,413 --> 00:36:33,931 WITH WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY FOR YOU, 722 00:36:33,931 --> 00:36:36,241 YOU NEED TO MOVE TO HOUSTON FOR A WHILE. 723 00:36:36,241 --> 00:36:38,551 AND YOU NEED SOMEONE WITH YOU TO HELP YOU. 724 00:36:38,551 --> 00:36:39,724 OKAY. 725 00:36:39,724 --> 00:36:40,827 SO, IS THAT GONNA BE ANY PROBLEM? 726 00:36:40,827 --> 00:36:42,137 NO. 727 00:36:42,137 --> 00:36:43,931 WHO'S GONNA BE ABLE TO MOVE WITH YOU? 728 00:36:43,931 --> 00:36:46,241 -MY MOM. -OKAY. 729 00:36:46,241 --> 00:36:48,241 ARE YOU ANY HELP FOR HER? 730 00:36:48,241 --> 00:36:50,655 BECAUSE YOU HAVEN'T BEEN VERY SUCCESSFUL 731 00:36:50,655 --> 00:36:52,275 WITH YOU OWN WEIGHT LOSS, 732 00:36:52,275 --> 00:36:54,206 SO I'M SKEPTICAL IF YOU'RE GONNA 733 00:36:54,206 --> 00:36:56,275 ENCOURAGE HEALTHY CHOICES WITH HER. 734 00:36:56,275 --> 00:36:58,586 SHE DOES WHAT SHE WANTS, DOCTOR. 735 00:36:58,586 --> 00:37:00,793 -WHAT DO YOU MEAN? -SHE JUST -- 736 00:37:00,793 --> 00:37:03,551 -I'M STUBBORN. -SHE DOES WHAT SHE WANTS. 737 00:37:03,551 --> 00:37:06,862 SO YOU'RE SAYING YOU DON'T EAT UNHEALTHY FOOD AROUND HER 738 00:37:06,862 --> 00:37:09,517 OR BRING HER ANYTHING SHE SHOULDN'T BE EATING. 739 00:37:09,517 --> 00:37:12,137 -WE DON'T LIVE TOGETHER NOW. -OKAY. 740 00:37:12,137 --> 00:37:14,896 THAT DOESN'T MEAN YOU CAN'T MODEL GOOD HABITS TO HER 741 00:37:14,896 --> 00:37:16,413 AND NOT ENABLE HER. 742 00:37:16,413 --> 00:37:19,655 SO YOU BOTH NEED TO START TO GET YOUR WEIGHT UNDER CONTROL 743 00:37:19,655 --> 00:37:21,724 IF YOU WANT TO DO THIS TOGETHER. 744 00:37:21,724 --> 00:37:23,482 AND IF YOU DON'T, THEN WE MAY 745 00:37:23,482 --> 00:37:25,827 START DOING WEIGHT-CHECK WITH YOU, OKAY? 746 00:37:25,827 --> 00:37:27,448 MM-HMM. 747 00:37:27,448 --> 00:37:31,068 BECAUSE THERE'S NO MARGIN OF ERROR HERE OR ANY TIME TO WASTE. 748 00:37:31,068 --> 00:37:33,862 AND, LACEY, YOUR BODY IS A TICKING CLOCK 749 00:37:33,862 --> 00:37:36,931 RIGHT NOW THAT IS GONNA GO OFF ANY MINUTE. 750 00:37:36,931 --> 00:37:38,586 I CAN DO IT. I THINK I CAN DO IT. 751 00:37:38,586 --> 00:37:40,068 I'M READY TO DO IT. 752 00:37:40,068 --> 00:37:41,586 I REALLY HOPE SO. 753 00:37:41,586 --> 00:37:45,241 YOU BOTH HAVE TO TAKE THIS SERIOUSLY AND DO WHAT YOU NEED. 754 00:37:45,241 --> 00:37:47,000 BUT IF YOU DON'T, THEN, MARTHA, 755 00:37:47,000 --> 00:37:50,172 YOU'LL BE BURYING LACEY HERE SOON. 756 00:37:50,172 --> 00:37:53,689 AND RIGHT NOW, IT'S JUST MATTER OF TIME BEFORE ONE LITTLE THING 757 00:37:53,689 --> 00:37:57,965 IS TOO MUCH FOR YOUR BODY TO HANDLE, AND YOU WILL DIE. 758 00:37:57,965 --> 00:38:00,034 YOU'RE 29 YEARS OLD. 759 00:38:00,034 --> 00:38:02,448 YOU HAVE BMI OF 122. 760 00:38:02,448 --> 00:38:03,689 YEAH. 761 00:38:03,689 --> 00:38:06,310 YOUR LIFE EXPECTANCY IS NOT TOO LONG, 762 00:38:06,310 --> 00:38:08,413 AND THIS IS VERY DANGEROUS SITUATION 763 00:38:08,413 --> 00:38:09,448 THAT YOU'RE DEALING WITH. 764 00:38:09,448 --> 00:38:12,275 SO YOU NEED TO DO THIS NOW. 765 00:38:12,275 --> 00:38:13,517 OKAY? -YES, SIR. 766 00:38:13,517 --> 00:38:15,000 ALL RIGHT. 767 00:38:15,000 --> 00:38:16,965 I'LL SEE YOU NEXT TIME WHEN YOU COME BACK TO HOUSTON, OKAY? 768 00:38:16,965 --> 00:38:18,275 -OKAY. -THANK YOU. 769 00:38:18,275 --> 00:38:19,724 -NICE TO MEET YOU. -IT WAS NICE TO MEET YOU. 770 00:38:19,724 --> 00:38:21,206 OKAY. 771 00:38:24,379 --> 00:38:27,344 Dr. Nowzaradan: LACEY IS VERY CLOSE TO HAVING THE HIGHEST BMI 772 00:38:27,344 --> 00:38:29,241 THAT I HAVE EVER SEEN. 773 00:38:29,241 --> 00:38:32,206 AND AT HER HEIGHT, THE AMOUNT OF STRAIN HER WEIGHT 774 00:38:32,206 --> 00:38:35,448 IS PUTTING ON HER BODY IS COMPARABLE TO WHAT 800- 775 00:38:35,448 --> 00:38:39,310 TO 900-POUND WILL BE ON SOMEONE OF AVERAGE HEIGHT. 776 00:38:39,310 --> 00:38:43,310 SO HER WEIGHT IS AT AN EXTREMELY DANGEROUS POINT, 777 00:38:43,310 --> 00:38:45,310 AND THERE IS NO WAY HER BODY 778 00:38:45,310 --> 00:38:48,034 CAN KEEP GOING LIKE THIS FOR MUCH LONGER. 779 00:38:48,034 --> 00:38:51,862 SO RIGHT NOW, EVERY DAY IS A ROLL OF THE DICE FOR HER 780 00:38:51,862 --> 00:38:55,000 AS TO WHETHER OR NOT HER BODY HITS ITS LIMIT 781 00:38:55,000 --> 00:38:57,103 AND STARTS TO BREAK DOWN. 782 00:38:57,103 --> 00:39:01,034 SO IF SHE DOESN'T CHANGE NOW, SHE WON'T HAVE MUCH TIME LEFT. 783 00:39:04,724 --> 00:39:07,896 Lacey: I'M A MIXTURE OF EMOTIONS RIGHT NOW, 784 00:39:07,896 --> 00:39:12,103 BECAUSE IT'S BEEN SHOCKING TO FIND WHAT MY WEIGHT IS UP TO 785 00:39:12,103 --> 00:39:15,413 AND HOW HIGH MY BMI IS. 786 00:39:15,413 --> 00:39:19,620 BUT THIS APPOINTMENT HAS ALSO MADE ME FEEL HOPEFUL. 787 00:39:19,620 --> 00:39:22,896 I AM A LITTLE INTIMIDATED BY HOW MUCH I HAVE TO LOSE 788 00:39:22,896 --> 00:39:26,758 IN THE NEXT TWO MONTHS, BUT I PLAN TO WORK REALLY HARD 789 00:39:26,758 --> 00:39:30,068 AND DO THE DIET AND EXERCISES LIKE I NEED. 790 00:39:30,068 --> 00:39:32,103 BECAUSE I KNOW HOW IMPORTANT THIS IS, 791 00:39:32,103 --> 00:39:34,137 AND THAT THIS IS MY LAST CHANCE. 792 00:39:39,413 --> 00:39:46,931 ♪♪ 793 00:39:46,931 --> 00:39:54,482 ♪♪ 794 00:39:54,482 --> 00:39:57,965 Lacey: IT'S BEEN ABOUT A MONTH SINCE I SAW DR. NOW. 795 00:39:57,965 --> 00:39:59,896 AND THE SECOND I WALKED OUT OF HIS OFFICE, 796 00:39:59,896 --> 00:40:03,965 I STARTED DOING EVERYTHING I'M SUPPOSED TO BE DOING. 797 00:40:03,965 --> 00:40:05,931 AND MY MOM HAS BEEN HELPING ME TO DO THAT 798 00:40:05,931 --> 00:40:07,758 BY TEACHING ME TO COOK HEALTHIER MEALS 799 00:40:07,758 --> 00:40:10,586 AND KEEPING ME ACCOUNTABLE. 800 00:40:10,586 --> 00:40:13,000 BUT THE DIET HAS BEEN A BIG ADJUSTMENT FOR ME, 801 00:40:13,000 --> 00:40:14,689 BECAUSE IT'S NOT LIKE THE TEMPTATIONS 802 00:40:14,689 --> 00:40:16,413 JUST GO AWAY OVERNIGHT. 803 00:40:16,413 --> 00:40:19,379 THIS -- THIS DIET DR. NOW GOT YOU ON, 804 00:40:19,379 --> 00:40:21,758 YOU SEE THAT IT'S WORKING, RIGHT? 805 00:40:21,758 --> 00:40:23,586 IT'S WORKING. IT'S DOING ITS JOB. 806 00:40:23,586 --> 00:40:24,655 HEY. 807 00:40:24,655 --> 00:40:27,068 NOW, THAT'S A GOOD ATTITUDE. 808 00:40:27,068 --> 00:40:29,206 I ONLY HAVE A MONTH TO LOSE AS MUCH 809 00:40:29,206 --> 00:40:32,275 AS I CAN TO GET TO WHERE I NEED. 810 00:40:32,275 --> 00:40:35,965 AND I'M NOT GONNA LET MYSELF SLOW DOWN AT ALL. 811 00:40:35,965 --> 00:40:38,827 I'M NOT EATING A THING THAT'S NOT ON MY DIET, 812 00:40:38,827 --> 00:40:41,965 AND I'M NOT GOING A SINGLE CALORIE OVER. 813 00:40:41,965 --> 00:40:44,103 AND I'M ALSO DOING MY 30 MINUTES OF EXERCISE 814 00:40:44,103 --> 00:40:46,862 IN THE MORNING AND 30 MINUTES IN THE EVENING. 815 00:40:46,862 --> 00:40:52,448 ♪♪ 816 00:40:52,448 --> 00:40:54,482 Martha: I GOT TO TELL YOU, I'M REALLY PROUD OF YOU. 817 00:40:54,482 --> 00:40:58,000 I FEEL LIKE I'M DOING PRETTY GOOD. 818 00:40:58,000 --> 00:41:00,275 I CAN TELL. 819 00:41:00,275 --> 00:41:03,862 I'M USED TO EATING A LOT OF, LIKE, POTATOES AND RICE. 820 00:41:03,862 --> 00:41:06,965 AND IT'S HARD TO MAKE A MEAL WITHOUT THOSE THINGS, 821 00:41:06,965 --> 00:41:10,172 SO IT'S HARD TO FIND WHAT IS FILLING 822 00:41:10,172 --> 00:41:14,551 AND WHAT IS NUTRITIOUS AT THE SAME TIME. 823 00:41:14,551 --> 00:41:17,965 HOW NERVOUS ARE YOU ABOUT SEEING DR. NOW 824 00:41:17,965 --> 00:41:19,724 FOR YOUR NEXT APPOINTMENT? 825 00:41:19,724 --> 00:41:23,344 I'M HOPING THAT WHATEVER I'M DOING HERE IS WORKING, 826 00:41:23,344 --> 00:41:24,896 AND THAT IT SHOWS IN THE NUMBERS, 827 00:41:24,896 --> 00:41:27,965 AND IT SHOWS HIM THAT I'M DOING IT. 828 00:41:27,965 --> 00:41:29,517 I HAVE FAITH IN YOU, LACEY. 829 00:41:29,517 --> 00:41:31,137 I -- I THINK THAT YOU'RE DOING IT. 830 00:41:31,137 --> 00:41:32,379 I HOPE THAT IT'S ENOUGH. 831 00:41:32,379 --> 00:41:35,379 I HOPE IT'S ENOUGH, TOO. 832 00:41:35,379 --> 00:41:37,896 I'M DOING EVERYTHING I'M SUPPOSED TO 833 00:41:37,896 --> 00:41:41,034 SO THAT WHEN I'M BACK TO SEE DR. NOW AND I'M ON THAT SCALE, 834 00:41:41,034 --> 00:41:43,758 I'LL SEE THE NUMBER I NEED COME UP. 835 00:41:43,758 --> 00:41:46,137 I KNOW THIS IS MY LAST CHANCE, 836 00:41:46,137 --> 00:41:48,827 SO I HAVE TO MAKE SURE I DON'T FAIL. 837 00:41:48,827 --> 00:41:58,275 ♪♪ 838 00:41:58,275 --> 00:42:00,655 ME AND MY MOM HAVE MADE IT BACK DOWN TO HOUSTON 839 00:42:00,655 --> 00:42:02,793 FOR MY FOLLOW-UP WITH DR. NOW, 840 00:42:02,793 --> 00:42:06,206 AND I'M FEELING NERVOUS BUT OPTIMISTIC. 841 00:42:06,206 --> 00:42:09,241 THESE PAST TWO MONTHS HAVE HAD A BIG LEARNING CURVE, 842 00:42:09,241 --> 00:42:12,241 BECAUSE I'VE HAD TO LEARN A WHOLE NEW WAY OF EATING, 843 00:42:12,241 --> 00:42:14,586 AND THAT WASN'T EASY. 844 00:42:14,586 --> 00:42:17,000 AND I JUST HOPE I MADE IT TO MY GOAL. 845 00:42:19,586 --> 00:42:23,275 BUT I HAVE NO IDEA HOW THIS IS GONNA GO. 846 00:42:23,275 --> 00:42:25,517 THE ONLY THING THAT I'M CONFIDENT ABOUT RIGHT NOW 847 00:42:25,517 --> 00:42:27,655 IS THAT I HAVE DONE EVERYTHING DOWN TO THE LETTER 848 00:42:27,655 --> 00:42:30,275 WITH WHAT DR. NOW TOLD ME. 849 00:42:30,275 --> 00:42:33,620 I'VE MADE NO EXCUSES, AND I HAVEN'T CHEATED ONCE. 850 00:42:33,620 --> 00:42:38,000 SO IF I DON'T MAKE MY GOAL, THEN IT WAS JUST IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME. 851 00:42:38,000 --> 00:42:41,689 BUT I REALLY HOPE I DID, BECAUSE I NEED THIS. 852 00:42:41,689 --> 00:42:44,379 LACEY HODDER? 853 00:42:44,379 --> 00:42:48,034 AT MY LAST DOCTOR VISIT, MY WEIGHT WAS AT 691. 854 00:42:48,034 --> 00:42:50,862 AND DR. NOW TOLD ME I NEED TO LOSE 80 POUNDS 855 00:42:50,862 --> 00:42:53,034 OVER THE NEXT TWO MONTHS. 856 00:42:53,034 --> 00:42:56,724 SO THAT MEANS I NEED TO BE DOWN TO 611 TODAY, 857 00:42:56,724 --> 00:43:00,758 SO I'M REALLY NERVOUS TO SEE IF I DO THAT. 858 00:43:00,758 --> 00:43:02,551 586. 859 00:43:02,551 --> 00:43:08,206 ♪♪ 860 00:43:08,206 --> 00:43:09,965 I CAN'T BELIEVE IT. 861 00:43:09,965 --> 00:43:16,000 ♪♪ 862 00:43:17,551 --> 00:43:18,965 THANKS. 863 00:43:18,965 --> 00:43:22,827 I'M IN SHOCK, BUT A GOOD KIND OF SHOCK. 864 00:43:22,827 --> 00:43:28,551 IT'S AMAZING, AND I CAN HARDLY BELIEVE I LOST THAT MUCH. 865 00:43:28,551 --> 00:43:31,689 I CAN'T REMEMBER THE LAST TIME I'VE BEEN THIS EXCITED. 866 00:43:35,137 --> 00:43:37,551 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] 867 00:43:37,551 --> 00:43:39,862 -HELLO. -HI. 868 00:43:39,862 --> 00:43:41,172 HOW ARE Y'ALL DOING? 869 00:43:41,172 --> 00:43:42,517 GOOD, HOW ARE YOU? 870 00:43:42,517 --> 00:43:44,206 I'M DOING GOOD. THANK YOU. 871 00:43:44,206 --> 00:43:47,862 SO, LACEY, TODAY YOU'RE DOWN TO 586. 872 00:43:47,862 --> 00:43:49,068 YES, SIR. 873 00:43:49,068 --> 00:43:52,551 WHICH IS 105-POUND WEIGHT LOSS IN ONE MONTH, 874 00:43:52,551 --> 00:43:54,344 SO YOU STUCK TO THE DIET? 875 00:43:54,344 --> 00:43:56,206 YEAH. GREAT. 876 00:43:56,206 --> 00:44:01,310 MARTHA, YOU STICKING TO 1,200-CALORIE-A-DAY DIET, TOO? 877 00:44:01,310 --> 00:44:04,586 I -- I GO MORE THAN 1,200, I THINK. 878 00:44:04,586 --> 00:44:09,793 UM, BUT I STILL AM ABLE TO EAT WHAT SHE DOES. 879 00:44:09,793 --> 00:44:13,172 BUT I PUT MORE FRUIT INTO MY MEALS THAN SHE. 880 00:44:13,172 --> 00:44:15,551 I THINK YOU'RE EATING MORE THAN YOU REALIZE, 881 00:44:15,551 --> 00:44:18,655 BECAUSE YOU DON'T LOOK LIKE YOU MADE PROGRESS LIKE LACEY. 882 00:44:18,655 --> 00:44:21,862 SO IT'S BEST TO DO THE SAME DIET SHE IS ON RIGHT NOW 883 00:44:21,862 --> 00:44:23,655 IF YOU WANT TO BE A SUPPORT FOR HER. 884 00:44:23,655 --> 00:44:26,068 I'M TRYING TO TEACH HER THE THINGS, YOU KNOW. 885 00:44:26,068 --> 00:44:27,551 IT'S, UH, KIND OF FUNNY. 886 00:44:27,551 --> 00:44:30,448 LIKE SHE'LL ASK ME, "HOW MANY CALORIES ARE IN THIS?" 887 00:44:30,448 --> 00:44:32,137 AND I'M LIKE, "THIS AMOUNT." 888 00:44:32,137 --> 00:44:35,344 I'M LIKE, "DID YOU WEIGH YOUR FOOD OUT?" 889 00:44:35,344 --> 00:44:37,965 SHE'S LIKE, "NO." I'M LIKE, "WELL, YOU NEED TO." 890 00:44:37,965 --> 00:44:41,275 WELL, YOU'RE DOING GREAT, LACEY, AND I'M PROUD OF YOU. 891 00:44:41,275 --> 00:44:44,344 SO I'M APPROVING YOU FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY TODAY. 892 00:44:44,344 --> 00:44:46,620 AWESOME. THANK YOU. 893 00:44:46,620 --> 00:44:50,448 BUT BEFORE WE DO THAT, YOU NEED TO MOVE TO HOUSTON WITH YOUR MOM 894 00:44:50,448 --> 00:44:52,517 IF SHE'S THE ONE WHO WILL BE WITH YOU. 895 00:44:52,517 --> 00:44:53,551 YES. OKAY. 896 00:44:53,551 --> 00:44:55,482 YES, SHE IS. OKAY. 897 00:44:55,482 --> 00:44:58,034 THEN YOU BOTH NEED TO MOVE DOWN HERE 898 00:44:58,034 --> 00:44:59,862 IF YOU'RE GONNA BE PART OF MY PROGRAM, 899 00:44:59,862 --> 00:45:03,103 SO WE CAN GIVE YOU SUPPORT AND ACCOUNTABILITY TO DO THIS 900 00:45:03,103 --> 00:45:06,551 FOR LONG-TERM AND GET YOU TO YOUR TARGET WEIGHT. 901 00:45:06,551 --> 00:45:07,724 -OKAY. -YOU CAN DO THAT? 902 00:45:07,724 --> 00:45:09,206 -I CAN DO THAT. -GREAT. 903 00:45:09,206 --> 00:45:11,689 SO AS SOON AS YOU'VE DONE THAT, LET ME KNOW 904 00:45:11,689 --> 00:45:14,275 AND I WILL SCHEDULE YOU FOR SURGERY. 905 00:45:14,275 --> 00:45:15,758 MM-HMM. 906 00:45:15,758 --> 00:45:17,137 BUT IN THE MEANTIME, MAKE SURE YOU'RE STILL ON TRACK 907 00:45:17,137 --> 00:45:19,379 AND YOU CONTINUE TO LOSE WEIGHT. 908 00:45:19,379 --> 00:45:22,620 BECAUSE IF YOU GAIN, WE WON'T MOVE AHEAD. 909 00:45:22,620 --> 00:45:24,586 YOU UNDERSTAND?MM-HMM. 910 00:45:24,586 --> 00:45:25,862 ALL RIGHT. 911 00:45:25,862 --> 00:45:27,482 I HOPE TO SEE YOU TWO SOON. 912 00:45:27,482 --> 00:45:29,896 AND IF YOU NEED ANYTHING, GIVE ME A CALL, OKAY? 913 00:45:29,896 --> 00:45:30,793 OKAY. THANK YOU. 914 00:45:30,793 --> 00:45:32,206 ALL RIGHT. 915 00:45:32,206 --> 00:45:37,275 ♪♪ 916 00:45:37,275 --> 00:45:39,793 Dr. Nowzaradan: I'M REALLY HAPPY TO SEE LACEY'S WEIGHT LOSS 917 00:45:39,793 --> 00:45:41,655 OVER THE PAST TWO MONTHS. 918 00:45:41,655 --> 00:45:44,448 AND AS LONG AS SHE STAY ON TRACK, WE WILL MOVE AHEAD 919 00:45:44,448 --> 00:45:49,068 WITH WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY WHEN SHE AND HER MOM ARE DOWN HERE. 920 00:45:49,068 --> 00:45:52,413 BUT IT'S GOING TO BE IMPORTANT FOR HER LONG-TERM SUCCESS 921 00:45:52,413 --> 00:45:54,793 THAT IMMEDIATELY AFTER THE OPERATION, 922 00:45:54,793 --> 00:45:57,310 WE START HER GOING TO PSYCHOTHERAPY. 923 00:45:57,310 --> 00:46:00,620 BECAUSE LACEY'S NEED TO ALWAYS FEEL SHE'S IN CONTROL 924 00:46:00,620 --> 00:46:04,103 IS JUST AS MUCH AN ADDICTION AS FOOD TO HER, 925 00:46:04,103 --> 00:46:06,655 SO IT'S NOT GONNA GO AWAY OVERNIGHT. 926 00:46:06,655 --> 00:46:10,241 AND IF SHE START TO STRUGGLE, SHE'S GONNA FALL BACK INTO 927 00:46:10,241 --> 00:46:13,551 ALL HER OLD WAYS IF WE DON'T ADDRESS IT. 928 00:46:13,551 --> 00:46:16,448 BUT RIGHT NOW, SHE'S READY FOR THIS NEXT BIG STEP 929 00:46:16,448 --> 00:46:18,137 OF WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 930 00:46:22,000 --> 00:46:24,172 Lacey: I'M SO PROUD OF MYSELF. 931 00:46:24,172 --> 00:46:26,206 I DIDN'T JUST MEET DR. NOW'S GOAL, 932 00:46:26,206 --> 00:46:28,379 I LOST MORE THAN THAT. 933 00:46:28,379 --> 00:46:31,275 SO I KNOW I DID A GOOD JOB, AND I'M GETTING THE SURGERY 934 00:46:31,275 --> 00:46:34,310 I NEED TO SAVE MY LIFE NOW. 935 00:46:34,310 --> 00:46:36,275 I KNOW IT'S GONNA BE HARD, AND THERE'S A LOT 936 00:46:36,275 --> 00:46:38,620 THAT I HAVE TO DO TO MAKE ALL THE CHANGES 937 00:46:38,620 --> 00:46:40,620 TO TRANSITION DOWN HERE. 938 00:46:40,620 --> 00:46:43,000 BUT I KNOW IT'S GONNA BE WORTH IT. 939 00:46:46,586 --> 00:46:55,965 ♪♪ 940 00:46:55,965 --> 00:46:57,068 HOLIDAY STUFF. 941 00:46:57,068 --> 00:46:58,793 OH, GOSH. 942 00:46:58,793 --> 00:47:01,206 I'M REALLY ANXIOUS TO GET DOWN TO HOUSTON, 943 00:47:01,206 --> 00:47:02,965 BECAUSE AS SOON AS I GET DOWN THERE, 944 00:47:02,965 --> 00:47:05,586 THE SOONER I GET SURGERY. 945 00:47:05,586 --> 00:47:07,137 IT TOOK A FEW WEEKS FOR ME 946 00:47:07,137 --> 00:47:09,068 AND MY MOM TO FIND A PLACE TO STAY 947 00:47:09,068 --> 00:47:11,620 AND GET IT SET UP SO WE CAN MOVE IN. 948 00:47:11,620 --> 00:47:15,379 SO WE'RE PACKING TO HEAD OUT TOMORROW. 949 00:47:15,379 --> 00:47:18,551 COMING FROM WHERE I LIVE, GOING INTO A HUGE CITY -- 950 00:47:18,551 --> 00:47:22,379 I THINK THAT ITSELF IS SCARY. 951 00:47:22,379 --> 00:47:26,310 SO THIS IS A HUGE STEP FOR ME, BUT I'M GLAD TO HAVE THE SUPPORT 952 00:47:26,310 --> 00:47:28,862 OF BOTH MY PARENTS HELPING ME TO DO THIS. 953 00:47:28,862 --> 00:47:30,103 I'LL TAKE THIS ONE. 954 00:47:30,103 --> 00:47:31,413 MY MOM AND I REALIZED 955 00:47:31,413 --> 00:47:33,862 THIS WAS ALL TOO MUCH TO HANDLE ON OUR OWN, 956 00:47:33,862 --> 00:47:36,310 SO I CALLED MY DAD TO SEE IF HE'D COME 957 00:47:36,310 --> 00:47:38,655 AND HELP US MAKE THE MOVE DOWN. 958 00:47:38,655 --> 00:47:40,965 AND HE SAID HE'D BE HERE, AND HE'D BRING SOME HELP 959 00:47:40,965 --> 00:47:43,482 SO WE CAN KNOCK THIS OUT IN NO TIME. 960 00:47:43,482 --> 00:47:47,000 THEN HE'S GONNA GO DOWN WITH US TO HELP MOVE IN, TOO. 961 00:47:47,000 --> 00:47:50,310 SO I'M REALLY GRATEFUL HE'S DOING THIS. 962 00:47:50,310 --> 00:47:51,275 HI, DAD. 963 00:47:51,275 --> 00:47:53,551 HELLO, SWEETHEART. 964 00:47:53,551 --> 00:47:55,275 CAREFUL. 965 00:47:58,724 --> 00:48:00,517 HOW YOU DOING? 966 00:48:00,517 --> 00:48:01,482 GOOD. 967 00:48:01,482 --> 00:48:03,034 YOU READY? 968 00:48:03,034 --> 00:48:04,586 WHY ARE YOU CRYING? 969 00:48:04,586 --> 00:48:06,000 NEVER HAVE GONE THIS FAR AWAY FROM ME. 970 00:48:06,000 --> 00:48:08,931 DON'T CRY. YOU'LL BE ALL RIGHT. 971 00:48:08,931 --> 00:48:10,448 TAKE A BREATH. 972 00:48:10,448 --> 00:48:12,241 ALL RIGHT. 973 00:48:12,241 --> 00:48:14,379 HE'S ALWAYS WORRIED ABOUT ME, 974 00:48:14,379 --> 00:48:17,620 SO IT'S BEEN NICE TO SEE HOW MUCH HE CARED. 975 00:48:19,758 --> 00:48:21,413 WELL, I'M THINKING WE MIGHT AS WELL START 976 00:48:21,413 --> 00:48:23,655 WITH THE BACK ROOM, GENTLEMEN. 977 00:48:23,655 --> 00:48:26,275 Steve: RIGHT NOW, LACEY HAS HARDLY ANY LIFE. 978 00:48:26,275 --> 00:48:28,068 SHE DOESN'T GET TO WALK THE BEACHES. 979 00:48:28,068 --> 00:48:29,862 SHE DOESN'T WALK THE MALL. 980 00:48:29,862 --> 00:48:32,000 AND EVEN PLACES, YOU KNOW, THAT SHE DOES WALK, 981 00:48:32,000 --> 00:48:34,724 IT AFFECTS HER BECAUSE SHE KNOWS EVERYBODY'S STARING. 982 00:48:34,724 --> 00:48:38,275 BUT IF SHE KEEPS GOING, SHE'S VERY CLOSE TO BEING BEDRIDDEN. 983 00:48:38,275 --> 00:48:41,137 SO I WILL DO ANYTHING I CAN TO SUPPORT HER 984 00:48:41,137 --> 00:48:47,068 BECAUSE BASICALLY, I THINK RIGHT NOW IS HER LAST CHANCE. 985 00:48:47,068 --> 00:48:49,758 Lacey: HAVING ALL THIS HELP AND BOTH MY PARENTS HERE 986 00:48:49,758 --> 00:48:51,793 WITH ME MEANS A LOT. 987 00:48:51,793 --> 00:48:54,482 AND I KNOW EVERYONE IS WORKING TOGETHER TO MAKE SURE 988 00:48:54,482 --> 00:48:56,586 I GET THE HELP I NEED. 989 00:48:56,586 --> 00:48:58,206 AND I'M JUST EXCITED, 990 00:48:58,206 --> 00:49:02,586 AND I CAN'T WAIT TO GET DOWN THERE AND START MY NEW LIFE. 991 00:49:02,586 --> 00:49:04,758 OKAY. DROP HER DOWN. 992 00:49:07,275 --> 00:49:08,379 THAT SHOULD WORK. 993 00:49:08,379 --> 00:49:10,724 YEAH, YOU WANT TO GO? 994 00:49:10,724 --> 00:49:14,000 OKAY. 995 00:49:14,000 --> 00:49:16,310 Martha: I THINK LACEY'S HAPPY ABOUT THIS TRIP. 996 00:49:16,310 --> 00:49:19,034 I ACTUALLY SEEN HER SMILE LAST NIGHT FOR THE FIRST TIME, 997 00:49:19,034 --> 00:49:21,551 AND IT WAS A REAL SMILE. 998 00:49:21,551 --> 00:49:24,931 'CAUSE I THINK SHE'S FINALLY PROCESSING GOING TO TEXAS, 999 00:49:24,931 --> 00:49:27,551 AND IT'S COMING TO FRUITION. 1000 00:49:27,551 --> 00:49:31,137 YOU READY FOR THE RIDE, POOR BABY? 1001 00:49:31,137 --> 00:49:34,137 WE'LL GET YOU A BIGGER CRATE. 1002 00:49:34,137 --> 00:49:37,206 Lacey: BUT I FEEL LIKE I'M STARTING A WHOLE NEW CHAPTER OF MY LIFE, 1003 00:49:37,206 --> 00:49:39,862 WHERE IT'S ALL GONNA BE COMPLETELY DIFFERENT. 1004 00:49:42,689 --> 00:49:45,310 IT'S PROBABLY GONNA TAKE THREE TO FOUR DAYS FOR US 1005 00:49:45,310 --> 00:49:49,241 TO GET DOWN THERE, SO I KNOW IT WON'T BE EASY. 1006 00:49:49,241 --> 00:49:50,620 Martha: GOOD JOB! 1007 00:49:50,620 --> 00:49:53,034 YAY. 1008 00:49:53,034 --> 00:49:55,551 ALL RIGHT. 1009 00:49:55,551 --> 00:49:58,655 BUT I CAN'T WAIT, BECAUSE I'VE NEVER HAD THE CHANCE 1010 00:49:58,655 --> 00:50:02,793 TO SEE THE WORLD OR THIS COUNTRY, AND VISIT OTHER PLACES. 1011 00:50:02,793 --> 00:50:06,793 SO THIS IS ALL FASCINATING AND AMAZING TO ME, 1012 00:50:06,793 --> 00:50:09,206 AND EVERY STEP OF MY JOURNEY FEELS LIKE 1013 00:50:09,206 --> 00:50:11,103 IT'S GIVING ME A CHANCE TO DO THINGS 1014 00:50:11,103 --> 00:50:14,241 I NEVER WOULD'VE BEEN ABLE TO DO BEFORE. 1015 00:50:14,241 --> 00:50:16,896 BIG MOMENT WE'VE BEEN WAITING FOR. 1016 00:50:16,896 --> 00:50:20,241 SO EVEN THOUGH THIS WILL PROBABLY BE THE HARDEST THING 1017 00:50:20,241 --> 00:50:25,655 I'VE EVER PUT MY BODY THROUGH, I'M DETERMINED TO MAKE IT THERE. 1018 00:50:25,655 --> 00:50:28,965 AND AS FAR AS I'M CONCERNED, THERE'S NO TURNING BACK. 1019 00:50:34,620 --> 00:50:43,586 ♪♪ 1020 00:50:43,586 --> 00:50:45,068 Lacey: WE ARE FINALLY HERE IN HOUSTON, 1021 00:50:45,068 --> 00:50:47,724 AND IT'S BEEN AN INCREDIBLE TRIP. 1022 00:50:47,724 --> 00:50:49,310 BUT IT'S ALSO BEEN A HARD TRIP, 1023 00:50:49,310 --> 00:50:52,344 BECAUSE WE'VE BEEN ON THE ROAD FOR FOUR DAYS. 1024 00:50:52,344 --> 00:50:55,034 THAT'S IT! -OH, LOOKY THERE! 1025 00:50:55,034 --> 00:50:57,379 -OH, YES! -WHOO-HOO! 1026 00:51:00,448 --> 00:51:02,758 Lacey: I'M COMPLETELY EXHAUSTED. 1027 00:51:02,758 --> 00:51:06,000 AND IT'S TAKEN A TOLL ON EVERYONE, NOT JUST ME, 1028 00:51:06,000 --> 00:51:08,689 BECAUSE MY PARENTS HAVE BEEN FIGHTING A LOT 1029 00:51:08,689 --> 00:51:11,241 AND EVERYONE'S JUST CRANKY. 1030 00:51:11,241 --> 00:51:13,000 STRAIGHT BACK. 1031 00:51:13,000 --> 00:51:14,413 STOP. -STOP? 1032 00:51:14,413 --> 00:51:15,896 STOP. 1033 00:51:15,896 --> 00:51:17,448 Lacey: AND SO I THINK IT'D BE BEST 1034 00:51:17,448 --> 00:51:21,448 IF WE CAN JUST GET THIS ALL OVER WITH. 1035 00:51:21,448 --> 00:51:26,241 OH. THAT'S GONNA BE TALL ORDER. 1036 00:51:26,241 --> 00:51:27,965 OH, MY GOD. IT FEELS SO GOOD! 1037 00:51:32,000 --> 00:51:33,965 SO GOOD. 1038 00:51:33,965 --> 00:51:36,655 I'M HOPING I CAN GET MOVED IN PRETTY QUICK 1039 00:51:36,655 --> 00:51:39,310 AND ALL THIS CAN BE DONE, 1040 00:51:39,310 --> 00:51:41,482 AND EVERYONE CAN GO BACK TO THEIR NORMAL LIVES 1041 00:51:41,482 --> 00:51:46,655 BEFORE THERE'S ANY MORE FIGHTING OR ANYONE ELSE GETS UPSET. 1042 00:51:46,655 --> 00:51:48,103 WHY DID WE EVEN NEED THIS? 1043 00:51:48,103 --> 00:51:50,000 I DON'T KNOW, MAN. YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN? 1044 00:51:50,000 --> 00:51:52,551 SHE WANTED TO BRING IT.[ GROANS ] 1045 00:51:52,551 --> 00:51:56,103 Lacey: BECAUSE WHEN IT HAPPENS, IT MAKES ME FEEL JUST LIKE I DID 1046 00:51:56,103 --> 00:52:00,517 WHEN I WAS A KID WHEN MY MOM AND DAD ARGUED, 1047 00:52:00,517 --> 00:52:05,137 AND ALL I COULD DO TO HANDLE THE FEAR AND PAIN WAS EAT. 1048 00:52:05,137 --> 00:52:06,655 SO THIS HAS BEEN REALLY HARD. 1049 00:52:10,724 --> 00:52:12,172 -CAREFUL. -BE CAREFUL WITH IT. 1050 00:52:12,172 --> 00:52:13,758 RIGHT HERE. 1051 00:52:13,758 --> 00:52:16,137 -RIGHT HERE? -YEP. 1052 00:52:16,137 --> 00:52:18,000 -THERE'S GONNA BE A BIG COUCH. -LOCK IT UP. 1053 00:52:18,000 --> 00:52:20,655 MADE IT ALL THE WAY DOWN HERE WITHOUT EVEN A SCRATCH. 1054 00:52:23,862 --> 00:52:25,275 AWESOME. 1055 00:52:25,275 --> 00:52:27,620 TWO MORE MINUTES, I'LL BE READY TO GO AGAIN. 1056 00:52:27,620 --> 00:52:29,275 ALL RIGHT. 1057 00:52:29,275 --> 00:52:31,000 BOXES. 1058 00:52:35,517 --> 00:52:36,931 HERE YOU GO. THANK YOU. 1059 00:52:38,758 --> 00:52:39,896 SITTING ON HIS BUTT. 1060 00:52:39,896 --> 00:52:41,068 OH, GEEZ. 1061 00:52:41,068 --> 00:52:46,068 ♪♪ 1062 00:52:46,068 --> 00:52:48,172 ARE YOU GONNA HELP, OR WHAT? 1063 00:52:48,172 --> 00:52:52,448 DO YOU WANT ME TO HELP YOU IN MY HOSPITAL BED? 1064 00:52:52,448 --> 00:52:54,551 [BLEEP] 1065 00:52:54,551 --> 00:53:00,275 ♪♪ 1066 00:53:00,275 --> 00:53:02,000 CLOSET. 1067 00:53:05,000 --> 00:53:06,689 DAD, STOP! 1068 00:53:06,689 --> 00:53:12,517 ♪♪ 1069 00:53:12,517 --> 00:53:13,931 CHAD? Chad: WHAT? 1070 00:53:13,931 --> 00:53:15,655 DON'T SET HIM OFF. 1071 00:53:18,689 --> 00:53:19,965 Martha: IT'S TOO HOT OUT THERE. 1072 00:53:19,965 --> 00:53:21,931 HE GETS HOT-HEADED ANYWAY.HEY! 1073 00:53:21,931 --> 00:53:25,482 HEY! HERE, LET ME GET THAT. 1074 00:53:25,482 --> 00:53:26,862 STOP, RIGHT NOW! 1075 00:53:26,862 --> 00:53:28,758 NO, YOU STOP IT.YOU NEED TO CALM DOWN. 1076 00:53:28,758 --> 00:53:30,827 YOU NEED TO CALM DOWN.YOU CALM DOWN RIGHT NOW. 1077 00:53:30,827 --> 00:53:33,103 [BLEEP] TELL ME SOMETHING LIKE THAT, [BLEEP] 1078 00:53:33,103 --> 00:53:39,137 ♪♪ 1079 00:53:39,137 --> 00:53:41,413 Martha: I -- I GOT THE NEXT BAG, HONEY. 1080 00:53:41,413 --> 00:53:42,724 I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GOT INTO HIM, 1081 00:53:42,724 --> 00:53:46,448 Steve: BUT ALL OF A SUDDEN HE'S A [BLEEP] [BLEEP] 1082 00:53:46,448 --> 00:53:49,517 Lacey: I'M STILL THANKFUL MY DAD'S HELPING ME DO THIS, 1083 00:53:49,517 --> 00:53:52,137 BUT I'M NOT GONNA LIE -- WHEN HE'S MAD, 1084 00:53:52,137 --> 00:53:55,965 IT MAKES IT REALLY HARD TO DO WHAT I'M SUPPOSED TO. 1085 00:53:55,965 --> 00:53:59,034 I HAVE SOLVED ALL OF OUR EATING ISSUES. 1086 00:53:59,034 --> 00:54:00,862 I'LL DO CHICKEN. I'LL DO ANY KIND OF CHICKEN. 1087 00:54:00,862 --> 00:54:01,862 ALL RIGHT, I'LL GET THAT. 1088 00:54:01,862 --> 00:54:03,862 COOL. 1089 00:54:03,862 --> 00:54:06,310 THIS ALL HAS CREATED A LOT OF FEAR AND DOUBT 1090 00:54:06,310 --> 00:54:09,482 ABOUT WHETHER I'M GONNA BE ABLE TO DO THIS AT ALL, 1091 00:54:09,482 --> 00:54:12,724 BECAUSE EXPERIENCING ALL THIS ANXIETY AND FEAR 1092 00:54:12,724 --> 00:54:15,965 WITH EVERYONE FIGHTING HAS MADE ME REALIZE 1093 00:54:15,965 --> 00:54:18,724 HOW MUCH FOOD HELPS ME TO MANAGE AND DEAL 1094 00:54:18,724 --> 00:54:21,172 WITH ALL THAT WHEN IT HAPPENS. 1095 00:54:21,172 --> 00:54:26,000 Martha: JUST SET IT DOWN -- DOWN ANYWHERES. 1096 00:54:26,000 --> 00:54:27,689 THE FOOD'S HERE, GUYS. 1097 00:54:27,689 --> 00:54:32,793 ♪♪ 1098 00:54:32,793 --> 00:54:35,793 THERE'S CHICKEN -- MORE CHICKEN. 1099 00:54:35,793 --> 00:54:37,620 -WOW. -UH-HUH. 1100 00:54:37,620 --> 00:54:40,275 -UH-HUH. -UH-HUH. 1101 00:54:40,275 --> 00:54:44,137 OH, YEAH.SO HELP YOURSELVES. 1102 00:54:44,137 --> 00:54:48,586 I WANTED TO GET MY LIFE BACK, BUT I'M TERRIFIED THAT I CAN'T 1103 00:54:48,586 --> 00:54:50,965 AND THAT I'M NOT READY FOR SURGERY, 1104 00:54:50,965 --> 00:54:53,586 BECAUSE IT'S GONNA TAKE AWAY SOMETHING I NEED 1105 00:54:53,586 --> 00:54:56,758 AND THAT'S REALLY IMPORTANT TO ME. 1106 00:54:56,758 --> 00:54:59,517 AND IF I HAVE TO GIVE UP FOOD, I'LL GET TO A POINT 1107 00:54:59,517 --> 00:55:01,655 WHERE I JUST WON'T BE ABLE TO DEAL WITH THINGS. 1108 00:55:01,655 --> 00:55:04,655 AND IF THAT HAPPENS, I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'LL DO. 1109 00:55:04,655 --> 00:55:07,275 IT COULD BE REALLY BAD. 1110 00:55:07,275 --> 00:55:11,413 SO MOVING AHEAD MAY END UP BEING ONE OF THE BIGGEST MISTAKES 1111 00:55:11,413 --> 00:55:13,241 I'VE EVER MADE. 1112 00:55:13,241 --> 00:55:20,068 ♪♪ 1113 00:55:20,068 --> 00:55:26,931 ♪♪ 1114 00:55:26,931 --> 00:55:28,758 AFTER WE GOT ALL MY STUFF MOVED IN HERE 1115 00:55:28,758 --> 00:55:32,931 AND I GOT SITUATED, MY DAD AND MY BROTHER HEADED BACK HOME. 1116 00:55:32,931 --> 00:55:35,068 I CALLED DR. NOW AND TOLD HIM ABOUT 1117 00:55:35,068 --> 00:55:37,206 HOW I'M STRUGGLING WITH HAVING SECOND THOUGHTS 1118 00:55:37,206 --> 00:55:40,758 ABOUT WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, AND HOW MY FAMILY FIGHTING 1119 00:55:40,758 --> 00:55:44,034 AND ALL THE STRESS OF THAT MADE ME WONDER IF I COULD TRULY 1120 00:55:44,034 --> 00:55:47,758 GIVE UP WHAT HAS HELPED ME COPE MY WHOLE LIFE. 1121 00:55:47,758 --> 00:55:50,689 SO HE SAID HE'S CANCELING THE SURGERY, 1122 00:55:50,689 --> 00:55:52,896 AND HE WANTS ME TO GO SEE A PSYCHOTHERAPIST 1123 00:55:52,896 --> 00:55:55,758 BEFORE WE DECIDE TO DO ANYTHING ELSE. 1124 00:55:55,758 --> 00:55:58,965 BUT MY MOM IS REALLY UPSET, BECAUSE SHE FEELS LIKE 1125 00:55:58,965 --> 00:56:01,344 I'M RISKING MY ONLY CHANCE TO DO THIS. 1126 00:56:01,344 --> 00:56:05,310 AND SHE'S ALSO WORRIED IF I GO TO THERAPY THAT THEY'LL FIND OUT 1127 00:56:05,310 --> 00:56:07,758 THAT I SUFFER FROM BIPOLAR DISORDER, 1128 00:56:07,758 --> 00:56:11,137 AND SHE THINKS THAT COULD RUIN MY CHANCES TO GET SURGERY. 1129 00:56:11,137 --> 00:56:14,862 SO SHE WANTS ME TO AVOID TELLING THEM IF I GO, 1130 00:56:14,862 --> 00:56:17,000 BUT I'M NOT GONNA LIE. 1131 00:56:17,000 --> 00:56:21,000 Martha: ALL RIGHT. SO, WHAT ARE WE GONNA DO ABOUT THIS -- THIS PROBLEM? 1132 00:56:21,000 --> 00:56:22,206 I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT. 1133 00:56:22,206 --> 00:56:25,413 NOW, DON'T GO RUNNING TO YOUR ROOM. 1134 00:56:25,413 --> 00:56:27,310 YOU DO THAT EVERY TIME. 1135 00:56:32,965 --> 00:56:34,482 LACEY, I'M NOT LETTING THIS GO, 1136 00:56:34,482 --> 00:56:37,482 SO YOU BETTER COME OUT HERE AND DISCUSS THIS WITH ME! 1137 00:56:48,034 --> 00:56:49,275 COME ON, LACEY. 1138 00:56:49,275 --> 00:56:51,206 LEAVE ME ALONE. FINE. 1139 00:56:51,206 --> 00:56:54,482 I'LL LEAVE YOU ALONE, LACEY, FOR A WHILE. 1140 00:56:54,482 --> 00:56:56,482 AND YOU HAVE TO RETHINK THIS. 1141 00:57:02,620 --> 00:57:04,137 DR. NOWZARADAN, PLEASE. 1142 00:57:04,137 --> 00:57:08,551 Siri: THE SECOND IS HOUSTON ON HERMANN PARK DRIVE. 1143 00:57:08,551 --> 00:57:10,724 HEY, SIRI. 1144 00:57:10,724 --> 00:57:12,206 WHY ARE YOU EVEN BOTHERING CALLING? 1145 00:57:12,206 --> 00:57:14,103 I NEED DR. NOWZARADAN'S OFFICE, PLEASE. 1146 00:57:14,103 --> 00:57:16,793 YOU'RE NOT CALLING THEM. YOU'RE NOT CALLING THEM. 1147 00:57:16,793 --> 00:57:18,827 ONE POSSIBILITY IS NOW'S HOME REMODELING. 1148 00:57:18,827 --> 00:57:20,000 YOU DON'T TELL ME WHAT TO DO. 1149 00:57:20,000 --> 00:57:21,206 THERE'S NO REASON TO! 1150 00:57:21,206 --> 00:57:23,275 I'VE ALREADY TALKED TO THEM! 1151 00:57:23,275 --> 00:57:25,275 I HAVEN'T.YOU DON'T NEED TO! 1152 00:57:25,275 --> 00:57:27,482 I ALREADY TOLD YOU WHAT THEY SAID. 1153 00:57:27,482 --> 00:57:28,620 IF YOU JUST LET ME SPEAK WITH HIM -- 1154 00:57:28,620 --> 00:57:29,931 YOU'RE NOT LISTENING TO ME! 1155 00:57:29,931 --> 00:57:31,310 I NEED TO SPEAK WITH HIM BECAUSE... 1156 00:57:31,310 --> 00:57:32,482 HE'S NOT THE ONE YOU TALK TO. 1157 00:57:32,482 --> 00:57:34,448 ...YOU NEVER [BLEEP] SHARE ANYTHING WITH ME! 1158 00:57:34,448 --> 00:57:37,551 I -- YOU ARE NOT LISTENING TO WHAT I'M SAYING. 1159 00:57:37,551 --> 00:57:41,379 I NEED TO KNOW IF YOU HAVE TO GET THIS RESOLVED 1160 00:57:41,379 --> 00:57:43,620 BEFORE YOU MOVE ON WITH YOUR SURGERY. 1161 00:57:43,620 --> 00:57:45,724 AND IF SO, I NEED TO KNOW HOW LONG IT'S GONNA BE. 1162 00:57:45,724 --> 00:57:46,758 I DO. 1163 00:57:46,758 --> 00:57:48,689 'CAUSE I AM NOT GONNA STAY IN THIS 1164 00:57:48,689 --> 00:57:50,862 [BLEEP] TOWN MORE THAN A YEAR. 1165 00:57:50,862 --> 00:57:52,137 WHAT ELSE DO YOU WANT ME TO DO? 1166 00:57:52,137 --> 00:57:54,655 I JUST NEED TO GO TO A PSYCHOLOGIST, MOM. 1167 00:57:54,655 --> 00:57:57,172 I WANT YOU TO NOT GO TO YOUR ROOM 1168 00:57:57,172 --> 00:57:59,034 AND ACT LIKE A [BLEEP] BABY. 1169 00:57:59,034 --> 00:58:00,172 I'M NOT. 1170 00:58:00,172 --> 00:58:01,586 AND I NEED TO KNOW ABOUT [BLEEP] 1171 00:58:01,586 --> 00:58:03,000 I TELL YOU. YOU DON'T HEAR ME! 1172 00:58:03,000 --> 00:58:04,827 YOU DON'T SHARE [BLEEP] WITH ME. 1173 00:58:04,827 --> 00:58:06,068 I TELL YOU EVERYTHING! 1174 00:58:06,068 --> 00:58:07,862 ONLY WHEN I NEED TO KNOW, YOU [BLEEP] 1175 00:58:07,862 --> 00:58:09,448 TELL ME [BLEEP] NO. 1176 00:58:09,448 --> 00:58:10,689 YOU DON'T LISTEN TO ME. 1177 00:58:10,689 --> 00:58:12,034 BULL[BLEEP]YOU DON'T HEAR ME. 1178 00:58:12,034 --> 00:58:14,758 YOU'RE NOT HEARING ME RIGHT NOW. 1179 00:58:14,758 --> 00:58:16,103 YOU DON'T HEAR ME RIGHT NOW! 1180 00:58:16,103 --> 00:58:18,310 GO -- GO MAKE YOURSELF SOME LUNCH AND LEAVE ME ALONE. 1181 00:58:18,310 --> 00:58:19,275 NO. YOU'RE NOT HEARING ME! 1182 00:58:19,275 --> 00:58:21,172 I WILL [BLEEP] CALL MYSELF. 1183 00:58:23,379 --> 00:58:26,620 STILL NOT HEARING ME. 1184 00:58:26,620 --> 00:58:28,344 THAT'S IT. 1185 00:58:31,689 --> 00:58:34,896 I WISH MY MOM WOULD JUST LEAVE ME ALONE. 1186 00:58:34,896 --> 00:58:40,586 SHE CAN'T JUST GIVE ME THE SPACE I NEED TO WORK THROUGH THIS. 1187 00:58:40,586 --> 00:58:45,068 I KNOW I'M GONNA GET TO A POINT WHERE I JUST CAN'T TAKE IT. 1188 00:58:45,068 --> 00:58:47,000 AND I'M GONNA END UP EITHER QUITTING 1189 00:58:47,000 --> 00:58:49,482 THE WHOLE PROGRAM ALTOGETHER, 1190 00:58:49,482 --> 00:58:52,689 OR JUST END UP GIVING INTO MY CRAVINGS 1191 00:58:52,689 --> 00:58:57,275 AND JUST EAT EVERYTHING I WANT. 1192 00:58:57,275 --> 00:59:00,758 AND IF I LET EITHER OF THOSE HAPPEN, IT'LL REALLY MEAN 1193 00:59:00,758 --> 00:59:04,413 I LOST MY CHANCE TO GET WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1194 00:59:04,413 --> 00:59:06,241 I'LL END UP RIGHT BACK WHERE I WAS 1195 00:59:06,241 --> 00:59:09,689 BEFORE I STARTED ALL OF THIS. 1196 00:59:09,689 --> 00:59:13,448 SO I'M REALLY SCARED RIGHT NOW, 1197 00:59:13,448 --> 00:59:16,344 BECAUSE I'M CLOSE TO LETTING THAT HAPPEN. 1198 00:59:22,275 --> 00:59:27,551 ♪♪ 1199 00:59:27,551 --> 00:59:33,000 ♪♪ 1200 00:59:33,000 --> 00:59:34,862 Lacey: MY MOM AND ME HAVE BEEN IN HOUSTON 1201 00:59:34,862 --> 00:59:36,551 FOR A COUPLE OF WEEKS, 1202 00:59:36,551 --> 00:59:38,137 AND I'VE BEEN REALLY STRUGGLING 1203 00:59:38,137 --> 00:59:40,241 WITH FEELING LIKE WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY 1204 00:59:40,241 --> 00:59:43,793 MAY NOT BE THE BEST DECISION FOR ME RIGHT NOW. 1205 00:59:43,793 --> 00:59:47,000 I'M JUST REALLY SCARED ABOUT GIVING UP THE POSSIBILITY 1206 00:59:47,000 --> 00:59:49,172 OF HAVING FOOD TO HELP ME COPE 1207 00:59:49,172 --> 00:59:52,206 WITH THE REALLY HARD THINGS WHEN THEY COME UP. 1208 00:59:52,206 --> 00:59:55,896 SO WITH ALL THAT, DR. NOW CANCELLED MY WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY 1209 00:59:55,896 --> 00:59:58,000 AND WANTED ME TO SEE A THERAPIST. 1210 00:59:58,000 --> 01:00:01,000 COME ON IN. 1211 01:00:01,000 --> 01:00:02,517 NICE TO MEET YOU.NICE TO MEET YOU. 1212 01:00:02,517 --> 01:00:03,413 HAVE A SEAT RIGHT IN THE CORNER. 1213 01:00:03,413 --> 01:00:05,137 OKAY. 1214 01:00:05,137 --> 01:00:11,862 ♪♪ 1215 01:00:11,862 --> 01:00:13,172 SO, I'M GLAD YOU'RE HERE. 1216 01:00:13,172 --> 01:00:14,344 ME, TOO. 1217 01:00:14,344 --> 01:00:16,862 SO, DR. NOW SENT YOU TO ME 1218 01:00:16,862 --> 01:00:18,586 TO HELP YOU UNDERSTAND 1219 01:00:18,586 --> 01:00:21,827 ALL THE PSYCHOLOGICAL ASPECTS OF THE SURGERY, 1220 01:00:21,827 --> 01:00:24,551 AND ESPECIALLY THAT NOTION 1221 01:00:24,551 --> 01:00:26,586 THAT YOU'RE NOT GONNA BE ABLE TO USE THE FOOD 1222 01:00:26,586 --> 01:00:29,275 AS A STRATEGY ANYMORE TO DEAL WITH YOUR FEELINGS. 1223 01:00:29,275 --> 01:00:32,137 BECAUSE WHEN YOU GO THROUGH THE SURGERY, 1224 01:00:32,137 --> 01:00:34,344 YOU WON'T BE ABLE TO USE FOOD... 1225 01:00:34,344 --> 01:00:35,689 RIGHT. ...UNLESS YOU START 1226 01:00:35,689 --> 01:00:37,000 STRETCHING OUT YOUR STOMACH. 1227 01:00:37,000 --> 01:00:38,379 DON'T WANT THAT. 1228 01:00:38,379 --> 01:00:40,068 SO YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO HAVE A REALLY -- 1229 01:00:40,068 --> 01:00:43,379 A LONG, REDUNDANT LIST OF THINGS YOU CAN USE TO FILL IN, 1230 01:00:43,379 --> 01:00:47,413 BECAUSE YOU SIMPLY WON'T BE ABLE TO DO IT WITHOUT COMPROMISING. 1231 01:00:47,413 --> 01:00:50,620 UM, LET'S TALK ABOUT FOOD AS A COPING STRATEGY. 1232 01:00:50,620 --> 01:00:52,689 'CAUSE I'M GONNA KIND OF PRESUME... 1233 01:00:52,689 --> 01:00:53,896 MM-HMM. 1234 01:00:53,896 --> 01:00:56,275 ...THAT THAT'S BEEN ONE OF YOUR COPING STRATEGIES. 1235 01:00:56,275 --> 01:00:57,620 IT HAS BEEN. OKAY. 1236 01:00:57,620 --> 01:01:00,689 HOW HAS FOOD BEEN A COPING STRATEGY FOR YOU? 1237 01:01:00,689 --> 01:01:06,620 UM, WELL, YOU KNOW, SUGAR WAS ONE OF THEM -- 1238 01:01:06,620 --> 01:01:08,206 LIKE, THE MAIN ONE. 1239 01:01:08,206 --> 01:01:09,655 SO YOU'RE A SWEETS PERSON. 1240 01:01:09,655 --> 01:01:11,137 I AM A SWEETS PERSON. 1241 01:01:11,137 --> 01:01:12,551 OKAY.AT LEAST, I HAVE BEEN. 1242 01:01:12,551 --> 01:01:14,517 AND YOU'VE LOST SOME WEIGHT ALREADY, RIGHT? 1243 01:01:14,517 --> 01:01:15,862 YEAH. 1244 01:01:15,862 --> 01:01:17,724 SO WHAT -- WHAT'S FILLED IN FOR FOOD? 1245 01:01:17,724 --> 01:01:21,620 -UM, I MIGHT BE GAMING MORE. -OKAY. 1246 01:01:21,620 --> 01:01:24,034 SO YOU PROBABLY WANT TO COME UP 1247 01:01:24,034 --> 01:01:27,034 WITH A LONGER LIST OF ALTERNATIVE 1248 01:01:27,034 --> 01:01:28,827 COPING STRATEGIES. OKAY. 1249 01:01:28,827 --> 01:01:30,827 I'VE BEEN TRYING TO THINK OF SOMETHING ELSE TO DO, 1250 01:01:30,827 --> 01:01:33,655 BUT I HATE DOING THE WALKING THING. 1251 01:01:33,655 --> 01:01:36,137 WHAT IS IT MEDICAL DOCTORS TELL YOU YOU NEED TO DO? 1252 01:01:36,137 --> 01:01:37,206 WALK. YEAH, WALK. 1253 01:01:37,206 --> 01:01:38,275 I NEED TO WALK. OKAY. 1254 01:01:38,275 --> 01:01:40,034 SO ADDING SOME PHYSICAL ACTIVITY. 1255 01:01:40,034 --> 01:01:41,827 I'M TRYING TO THINK OF OTHER COPING STRATEGIES 1256 01:01:41,827 --> 01:01:43,000 YOU MIGHT HAVE. 1257 01:01:43,000 --> 01:01:45,344 I LIKE TO DO ART. OKAY. 1258 01:01:45,344 --> 01:01:46,793 SO SOME KIND OF HOBBY LIKE THAT. 1259 01:01:46,793 --> 01:01:47,965 MM-HMM. 1260 01:01:47,965 --> 01:01:49,482 YOU GET OUT OF THE HOUSE VERY MUCH? 1261 01:01:49,482 --> 01:01:52,172 NO, WE DON'T REALLY GO OUT VERY MUCH. 1262 01:01:52,172 --> 01:01:55,413 THERE'S A REAL VALUE TO BEING, I SAY, "IN PUBLIC." 1263 01:01:55,413 --> 01:01:57,000 MM-HMM. 1264 01:01:57,000 --> 01:01:58,172 YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE SOCIAL, JUST BEING IN PUBLIC -- 1265 01:01:58,172 --> 01:01:59,965 EVEN WALKING THE AISLES OF A STORE. 1266 01:01:59,965 --> 01:02:02,137 YEAH, WE LIKE TO DO THAT.GOING TO A SHOPPING MALL. 1267 01:02:02,137 --> 01:02:04,344 THERE'S A HUGE SHOPPING CENTER HERE 1268 01:02:04,344 --> 01:02:06,965 THAT YOU COULD WALK FOR WEEKS IN AND NOT -- 1269 01:02:06,965 --> 01:02:09,172 AND NOT REPEAT YOURSELF.RIGHT? 1270 01:02:09,172 --> 01:02:11,827 SO BEING IN PUBLIC SHOULD BE ONE OF YOUR GOALS. 1271 01:02:11,827 --> 01:02:13,137 OKAY. AND SO, LET'S TALK 1272 01:02:13,137 --> 01:02:15,137 ABOUT SOMETHING YOU COULD DO RIGHT NOW... 1273 01:02:15,137 --> 01:02:16,241 MM-HMM. 1274 01:02:16,241 --> 01:02:18,482 ...THAT COULD GET YOU OUT AROUND OTHER PEOPLE. 1275 01:02:18,482 --> 01:02:20,068 OKAY. 1276 01:02:20,068 --> 01:02:21,758 WHAT DO YOU THINK? 1277 01:02:21,758 --> 01:02:23,620 I DON'T KNOW HOW TO BE OUT WITH OTHER PEOPLE. 1278 01:02:23,620 --> 01:02:26,517 WELL, YOU MENTIONED THE BOTANIC GARDENS, RIGHT? 1279 01:02:26,517 --> 01:02:28,379 YEAH. I'VE BEEN WANTING TO GO THERE. 1280 01:02:28,379 --> 01:02:30,827 OKAY.AND I JUST HAVEN'T GONE. 1281 01:02:30,827 --> 01:02:33,793 I WONDER IF YOU COULD DO THAT ONCE OR TWICE A WEEK. 1282 01:02:33,793 --> 01:02:35,724 OKAY. TWO OUTINGS A WEEK. 1283 01:02:35,724 --> 01:02:37,379 HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT THAT? 1284 01:02:37,379 --> 01:02:38,724 EXCITED, ACTUALLY. 1285 01:02:38,724 --> 01:02:39,931 OKAY. GOOD! 1286 01:02:39,931 --> 01:02:41,655 SO, IT'S GREAT TO SEE YOU.YEAH. 1287 01:02:41,655 --> 01:02:43,862 I'M GONNA LET YOU OUT HERE. 1288 01:02:43,862 --> 01:02:46,448 OKAY, IF I CAN GET OUT OF HERE. 1289 01:02:46,448 --> 01:02:47,482 [ GRUNTS ] 1290 01:02:47,482 --> 01:02:50,448 GOT IT? YEP. 1291 01:02:50,448 --> 01:02:52,068 ALL RIGHT.IT WAS NICE MEETING YOU. 1292 01:02:52,068 --> 01:02:53,103 NICE TO MEET YOU, TOO. 1293 01:02:53,103 --> 01:02:55,655 TAKE CARE. 1294 01:02:55,655 --> 01:02:57,448 HI, MOM. YOU WANT TO GO? 1295 01:02:57,448 --> 01:03:00,068 UH, YEAH. 1296 01:03:00,068 --> 01:03:02,724 Lacey: I'M GLAD I FINALLY DID THIS. 1297 01:03:02,724 --> 01:03:06,413 IT WAS HARD AND A LITTLE SCARY, ESPECIALLY AT THE BEGINNING. 1298 01:03:06,413 --> 01:03:10,068 BUT I THINK IT WAS HELPFUL JUST TO BE ABLE TO VERBALIZE 1299 01:03:10,068 --> 01:03:14,413 SOME OF HOW I'M FEELING AND WHAT I'M STRUGGLING WITH. 1300 01:03:14,413 --> 01:03:18,275 I ALREADY REALIZED SOME OF THE THINGS WE TALKED ABOUT, 1301 01:03:18,275 --> 01:03:21,413 BECAUSE I KNOW I NEED TO FIND WAYS TO COPE 1302 01:03:21,413 --> 01:03:23,965 THAT DON'T INVOLVE FOOD. 1303 01:03:23,965 --> 01:03:26,068 ACTUALLY BEING ABLE TO DO THAT 1304 01:03:26,068 --> 01:03:28,758 IS WHAT I'M TRYING TO FIGURE OUT. 1305 01:03:28,758 --> 01:03:31,896 SO TALKING THROUGH SOME IDEAS AND SUGGESTIONS 1306 01:03:31,896 --> 01:03:35,586 OF HOW TO DO THAT WAS PROBABLY THE MOST HELPFUL. 1307 01:03:38,137 --> 01:03:39,620 EXCEPT FOR WALKING, 1308 01:03:39,620 --> 01:03:44,517 BECAUSE EXERCISE HAS NEVER BEEN THERAPEUTIC FOR ME. 1309 01:03:44,517 --> 01:03:47,103 SO FINDING A HOBBY SEEMS LIKE THE OPTION 1310 01:03:47,103 --> 01:03:50,517 WITH THE MOST POTENTIAL FOR ME. 1311 01:03:50,517 --> 01:03:52,862 BUT I'M NOT SURE HOW I FIND SOMETHING 1312 01:03:52,862 --> 01:03:56,275 THAT CAN ACTUALLY COMPETE WITH HOW IT FEELS TO EAT SOMETHING 1313 01:03:56,275 --> 01:04:00,517 THAT TASTES REALLY GOOD, AND HOW THAT MAKES ME FEEL. 1314 01:04:00,517 --> 01:04:02,896 BUT I'M NOT GIVING UP. 1315 01:04:02,896 --> 01:04:06,034 I'M STILL HOLDING ON TO THE HOPE IN CAN FIGURE THIS OUT 1316 01:04:06,034 --> 01:04:07,620 AND GET PAST THIS, 1317 01:04:07,620 --> 01:04:11,172 BECAUSE I KNOW IF I GIVE UP, THEN IT'S ALL OVER FOR ME. 1318 01:04:11,172 --> 01:04:18,758 ♪♪ 1319 01:04:18,758 --> 01:04:26,379 ♪♪ 1320 01:04:26,379 --> 01:04:33,965 ♪♪ 1321 01:04:33,965 --> 01:04:35,551 OVER THE LAST FEW WEEKS, 1322 01:04:35,551 --> 01:04:38,965 THINGS HAVEN'T REALLY GOT MUCH BETTER FOR ME. 1323 01:04:38,965 --> 01:04:40,551 AFTER GOING TO THERAPY, 1324 01:04:40,551 --> 01:04:42,448 I'VE BEEN TRYING TO FIND SOMETHING 1325 01:04:42,448 --> 01:04:46,827 THAT WILL HELP ME START TO COPE WITHOUT GOING TO FOOD. 1326 01:04:46,827 --> 01:04:50,620 BUT MY MOM GOT FED UP WITH ME, SINCE I STILL DON'T FEEL READY 1327 01:04:50,620 --> 01:04:53,000 TO MOVE AHEAD WITH WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1328 01:04:53,000 --> 01:04:56,344 SO LAST WEEK, SHE MOVED BACK HOME TO MICHIGAN, 1329 01:04:56,344 --> 01:04:58,275 SO I'M ON MY OWN. 1330 01:04:58,275 --> 01:05:01,862 AND I FEEL LIKE I MOVED OUT HERE AWAY FROM EVERYTHING I KNOW, 1331 01:05:01,862 --> 01:05:06,241 JUST TO END UP LIVING LIKE I WAS BEFORE. 1332 01:05:06,241 --> 01:05:09,206 EXCEPT NOW, I'M TRYING MY HARDEST NOT TO EAT STUFF 1333 01:05:09,206 --> 01:05:13,931 I SHOULDN'T, AND THAT'S MAKING IT ALL EVEN HARDER. 1334 01:05:13,931 --> 01:05:16,655 SO I'M FEELING REALLY DISCOURAGED, 1335 01:05:16,655 --> 01:05:19,068 AND I HONESTLY DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH LONGER 1336 01:05:19,068 --> 01:05:21,275 I CAN KEEP GOING LIKE THIS 1337 01:05:21,275 --> 01:05:23,482 BECAUSE IT'S ONLY GETTING HARDER. 1338 01:05:23,482 --> 01:05:26,931 AND I KNOW I'M GETTING CLOSE TO GIVING IN. 1339 01:05:26,931 --> 01:05:30,482 AND ONCE I DO THAT, IT'LL MEAN I MESSED UP THE ONLY CHANCE 1340 01:05:30,482 --> 01:05:33,000 I HAVE TO SAVE MY LIFE. 1341 01:05:40,448 --> 01:05:47,862 ♪♪ 1342 01:05:47,862 --> 01:05:55,310 ♪♪ 1343 01:05:55,310 --> 01:05:59,655 Lacey: THE PAST MONTH OR SO HAS BEEN UP AND DOWN FOR ME. 1344 01:05:59,655 --> 01:06:03,724 AFTER MY MOM LEFT, I STRUGGLED A BIT WHERE I GAVE IN 1345 01:06:03,724 --> 01:06:06,103 AND HAD SOME THINGS THAT WEREN'T HEALTHY 1346 01:06:06,103 --> 01:06:10,241 BUT TASTED GOOD, JUST TO TRY AND FEEL BETTER. 1347 01:06:10,241 --> 01:06:12,620 AND I DID FOR A LITTLE BIT. 1348 01:06:12,620 --> 01:06:17,655 BUT AFTERWARDS, I STARTED TO FEEL DISGUSTED WITH MYSELF. 1349 01:06:17,655 --> 01:06:20,551 SO I'M TRYING HARDER. 1350 01:06:20,551 --> 01:06:21,862 DR. PARADISE SAID 1351 01:06:21,862 --> 01:06:24,448 I NEEDED TO FIND OTHER WAYS AND OUTLETS 1352 01:06:24,448 --> 01:06:27,241 TO HELP DEAL WITH MY EMOTIONS. 1353 01:06:27,241 --> 01:06:31,482 SO A COUPLE OF WEEKS AGO, I STARTED PAINTING. 1354 01:06:31,482 --> 01:06:33,931 AND I'VE BEEN TRYING TO EXPRESS MY CREATIVITY 1355 01:06:33,931 --> 01:06:37,206 AND DO THIS AT LEAST ONCE A DAY, 1356 01:06:37,206 --> 01:06:41,413 AND I WOULD SAY IT DOES FEEL THERAPEUTIC IN SOME WAYS. 1357 01:06:41,413 --> 01:06:44,655 AND THE BIGGEST THING IS THAT IT'S GIVEN ME HOPE AGAIN, 1358 01:06:44,655 --> 01:06:47,000 THAT IT'S ACTUALLY GONNA BE POSSIBLE FOR ME 1359 01:06:47,000 --> 01:06:48,379 TO FIND OTHER THINGS 1360 01:06:48,379 --> 01:06:51,862 AND WAYS TO COPE INSTEAD OF FOOD. 1361 01:06:51,862 --> 01:06:53,586 BUT I STILL KNOW I HAVE A LONG WAY 1362 01:06:53,586 --> 01:06:55,724 TO GO TO GET TO THAT POINT. 1363 01:06:55,724 --> 01:06:59,413 IT JUST FEELS REALLY GOOD TO BELIEVE I CAN DO THIS AGAIN. 1364 01:06:59,413 --> 01:07:07,758 ♪♪ 1365 01:07:07,758 --> 01:07:16,103 ♪♪ 1366 01:07:16,103 --> 01:07:19,827 I'M FINALLY MOVING AHEAD WITH WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1367 01:07:19,827 --> 01:07:21,724 I SPENT THE PAST COUPLE OF MONTHS 1368 01:07:21,724 --> 01:07:24,517 FINDING OTHER WAYS TO DEAL WITH MY EMOTIONS, 1369 01:07:24,517 --> 01:07:26,862 AND I'VE BEEN ABLE TO WORK PAST THAT FEAR 1370 01:07:26,862 --> 01:07:29,655 THAT I WON'T HAVE WHAT I NEED WHEN THINGS ARE HARD. 1371 01:07:29,655 --> 01:07:31,724 SO I CALLED DR. NOW AND I TOLD HIM 1372 01:07:31,724 --> 01:07:33,827 THAT I'M READY TO MOVE AHEAD. 1373 01:07:33,827 --> 01:07:37,137 BOTH MY MOM AND DAD ARE DOWN HERE TO BE WITH ME TODAY, 1374 01:07:37,137 --> 01:07:38,862 AND I'M THANKFUL FOR THAT. 1375 01:07:38,862 --> 01:07:41,310 BUT I TOLD THEM THERE IS TO BE ABSOLUTELY 1376 01:07:41,310 --> 01:07:43,862 NO FIGHTING RIGHT NOW. 1377 01:07:43,862 --> 01:07:45,758 YOU OKAY? 1378 01:07:45,758 --> 01:07:47,448 YEP, I'M FINE. 1379 01:07:52,034 --> 01:07:53,620 YOU'RE NOT OKAY? 1380 01:07:53,620 --> 01:07:56,448 IT'S GONNA BE OKAY. 1381 01:07:56,448 --> 01:07:58,586 IT'S GONNA BE OKAY. 1382 01:07:58,586 --> 01:08:01,103 WHAT TIME IS IT? 1383 01:08:01,103 --> 01:08:02,758 I HOPE SO.IT'S GONNA BE OKAY. 1384 01:08:02,758 --> 01:08:05,344 I CAN'T EVEN -- 1385 01:08:05,344 --> 01:08:07,241 I'M SORRY I'M SO EMOTIONAL. 1386 01:08:07,241 --> 01:08:09,172 NO. YOU'RE OKAY. 1387 01:08:09,172 --> 01:08:12,931 IT'S FINE. 1388 01:08:12,931 --> 01:08:16,482 I'M REALLY HAPPY FOR THIS DAY, BUT I'M REALLY SCARED, TOO. 1389 01:08:16,482 --> 01:08:19,517 I'M NERVOUS TOO, BUT I -- IT'S GONNA BE OKAY. 1390 01:08:19,517 --> 01:08:23,241 I CAN FEEL IT. -OKAY. 1391 01:08:23,241 --> 01:08:25,413 WE'LL LEAVE YOU ALONE. 1392 01:08:25,413 --> 01:08:27,137 OKAY. 1393 01:08:27,137 --> 01:08:36,724 ♪♪ 1394 01:08:36,724 --> 01:08:39,862 Lacey: MY FEAR WAS THAT REPLACING WHAT FOOD DOES FOR ME 1395 01:08:39,862 --> 01:08:41,827 JUST WASN'T POSSIBLE. 1396 01:08:41,827 --> 01:08:44,517 BUT I'VE BEEN ABLE TO WORK PAST THAT FEAR, 1397 01:08:44,517 --> 01:08:47,344 SO I KNOW I'M READY FOR THIS, 1398 01:08:47,344 --> 01:08:51,206 BECAUSE THIS IS THE TOOL I NEED TO SAVE MY LIFE. 1399 01:08:51,206 --> 01:08:52,965 AND IF I DON'T MOVE AHEAD TODAY, 1400 01:08:52,965 --> 01:08:56,896 I DON'T THINK I'M GONNA GET ANOTHER CHANCE AFTER ALL THIS. 1401 01:08:56,896 --> 01:08:59,724 SO IT'S NOW OR NEVER, AND I'M READY FOR IT. 1402 01:08:59,724 --> 01:09:04,551 ♪♪ 1403 01:09:04,551 --> 01:09:06,206 Dr. Nowzaradan: TODAY, WE ARE ATTEMPTING TO DO 1404 01:09:06,206 --> 01:09:09,517 A GASTRIC SLEEVE OPERATION ON LACEY. 1405 01:09:09,517 --> 01:09:13,103 AFTER GETTING APPROVED FOR SURGERY ALMOST FOUR MONTHS AGO, 1406 01:09:13,103 --> 01:09:14,827 LACEY STARTED STRUGGLING 1407 01:09:14,827 --> 01:09:18,000 WITH SOME EMOTIONAL AND PSYCHOLOGICAL ISSUES 1408 01:09:18,000 --> 01:09:21,034 THAT SHE NEEDED TO WORK THROUGH FIRST. 1409 01:09:21,034 --> 01:09:22,689 LET'S START. 1410 01:09:22,689 --> 01:09:26,275 AND THANKFULLY, SHE NOT ONLY MADE SOME PROGRESS WITH THAT, 1411 01:09:26,275 --> 01:09:32,034 BUT STILL CONTINUED TO LOSE AND IS DOWN TO 505 TODAY. 1412 01:09:32,034 --> 01:09:34,482 ALL RIGHT. ROOM LIGHT OFF. 1413 01:09:34,482 --> 01:09:37,931 SO IT IS ENOUGH TO SHOW ME SHE CAN STAY CONSISTENT 1414 01:09:37,931 --> 01:09:41,000 AND NOT COMPLETELY GIVE IN WHEN SHE'S STRUGGLING. 1415 01:09:41,000 --> 01:09:44,379 AND I HAVE NO DOUBT SHE'S READY FOR THIS STEP TODAY. 1416 01:09:47,344 --> 01:09:50,724 BUT THE FACT THAT LACEY'S STILL AROUND 500 POUNDS 1417 01:09:50,724 --> 01:09:53,827 MAKES ANY SURGERY FOR HER VERY HIGH-RISK, 1418 01:09:53,827 --> 01:09:56,103 BECAUSE HER WEIGHT COULD BE TOO MUCH FOR HER 1419 01:09:56,103 --> 01:09:58,620 ALREADY STRUGGLING SYSTEMS. 1420 01:09:58,620 --> 01:10:00,862 SO WE'RE GOING TO MAKE SURE THAT HER BODY 1421 01:10:00,862 --> 01:10:03,172 IS NOT BEING PUSHED TOO HARD TO THE POINT 1422 01:10:03,172 --> 01:10:06,000 WHERE SHE COULD DEVELOP A LIFE-THREATENING ISSUE, 1423 01:10:06,000 --> 01:10:08,586 OR WE MAY HAVE TO END THE SURGERY. 1424 01:10:08,586 --> 01:10:12,620 BUT OUR GOAL IS TO COMPLETELY PERFORM A GASTRIC SLEEVE ON HER. 1425 01:10:12,620 --> 01:10:14,586 AND WHAT THAT OPERATION DOES FOR HER 1426 01:10:14,586 --> 01:10:17,413 IS REDUCE THE STOMACH BY 90%, 1427 01:10:17,413 --> 01:10:21,689 LEAVING A SMALL, NARROW TUBE THAT LOOKS SIMILAR TO A SLEEVE. 1428 01:10:21,689 --> 01:10:25,551 SO THE PATIENT'S FOOD INTAKE IS PHYSICALLY LIMITED, 1429 01:10:25,551 --> 01:10:28,275 AND THE PATIENT IS LESS HUNGRY. 1430 01:10:28,275 --> 01:10:31,827 SO THIS OPERATION WILL GIVE THEM AN OPPORTUNITY 1431 01:10:31,827 --> 01:10:33,724 TO LOSE EVEN MORE WEIGHT. 1432 01:10:37,172 --> 01:10:41,000 Steve: I'M REALLY NERVOUS AND SCARED FOR LACEY, 1433 01:10:41,000 --> 01:10:45,758 BECAUSE IT IS SURGERY AND I FEAR UNFORESEEN CIRCUMSTANCES 1434 01:10:45,758 --> 01:10:48,448 ARE ALWAYS POSSIBLE. 1435 01:10:48,448 --> 01:10:52,310 BUT THE BENEFIT OF THIS IS GOING TO OUTWEIGH THE RISKS. 1436 01:10:52,310 --> 01:10:54,206 SO HOPEFULLY, SHE'LL BE OKAY. 1437 01:10:54,206 --> 01:10:57,448 AND I JUST HOPE THIS IS OVER FAIRLY QUICKLY. 1438 01:11:07,896 --> 01:11:10,793 Dr. Nowzaradan: GO AHEAD, AND JUST GRADUALLY TAKE IT OUT. 1439 01:11:16,689 --> 01:11:18,931 OKAY. CAN YOU TURN THE ROOM LIGHT ON? 1440 01:11:26,206 --> 01:11:29,000 OKAY. ALL FINISHED. 1441 01:11:29,000 --> 01:11:32,448 LACEY'S SURGERY WENT VERY WELL. 1442 01:11:32,448 --> 01:11:34,206 THERE WERE NO SIGNIFICANT ISSUES, 1443 01:11:34,206 --> 01:11:38,068 AND WE WERE ABLE TO SAFELY PERFORM A GASTRECTOMY ON HER. 1444 01:11:38,068 --> 01:11:40,379 SO NOW WE GET HER TO RECOVERY, 1445 01:11:40,379 --> 01:11:44,448 AND SHE'LL BE ABLE TO GO HOME IN A COUPLE OF DAYS. 1446 01:11:44,448 --> 01:11:47,000 FOR THE NEXT MONTH, SHE'LL BE ON LIQUID DIET. 1447 01:11:47,000 --> 01:11:49,241 AND SHE SHOULD BE ABLE TO LOSE AT LEAST 1448 01:11:49,241 --> 01:11:51,551 35 POUNDS DURING THAT TIME. 1449 01:11:51,551 --> 01:11:54,931 AND AFTER THAT, SHE SHOULD LOSE AT LEAST 25 POUNDS A MONTH 1450 01:11:54,931 --> 01:11:57,413 UNTIL SHE GETS TO WITHIN 100 POUNDS 1451 01:11:57,413 --> 01:11:59,724 OR SO OF HER TARGET WEIGHT. 1452 01:11:59,724 --> 01:12:02,482 SO THIS SURGERY IS AN IMPORTANT TOOL 1453 01:12:02,482 --> 01:12:04,241 THAT WILL HELP HER A GREAT DEAL, 1454 01:12:04,241 --> 01:12:08,137 BY PREVENTING HER PHYSICAL DRIVE TO EAT RIGHT NOW. 1455 01:12:08,137 --> 01:12:11,000 BUT IT'S VERY IMPORTANT THAT BEFORE SHE ENCOUNTERS 1456 01:12:11,000 --> 01:12:13,931 A SITUATION WHERE SHE STARTS TO STRUGGLE AGAIN, 1457 01:12:13,931 --> 01:12:17,655 WE MAKE SURE SHE CONTINUES GOING TO HER PSYCHOTHERAPIST 1458 01:12:17,655 --> 01:12:19,862 TO WORK ON ALL THE EMOTIONAL ISSUE 1459 01:12:19,862 --> 01:12:22,103 THAT STILL PLAY A SIGNIFICANT ROLE 1460 01:12:22,103 --> 01:12:24,931 IN HOW SHE USES FOOD FOR COMFORT. 1461 01:12:24,931 --> 01:12:27,724 IF SHE DOESN'T, AT SOME POINT IN THE FUTURE, 1462 01:12:27,724 --> 01:12:29,241 HER EMOTIONAL STRUGGLES 1463 01:12:29,241 --> 01:12:31,965 WILL EVENTUALLY LEAD TO START TO GIVE IN 1464 01:12:31,965 --> 01:12:36,034 TO HER DESIRE TO ONCE AGAIN GO TO FOOD TO DEAL WITH IT ALL. 1465 01:12:36,034 --> 01:12:39,586 AND IF THAT HAPPENS, OVER TIME SHE WILL STRETCH HER STOMACH 1466 01:12:39,586 --> 01:12:42,379 BACK OUT TO UNDO THIS OPERATION. 1467 01:12:42,379 --> 01:12:45,482 AND THEN AFTER THAT, IT WILL ONLY BE A MATTER OF TIME 1468 01:12:45,482 --> 01:12:47,793 BEFORE HER WEIGHT LOSS WILL STOP 1469 01:12:47,793 --> 01:12:50,689 AND SHE WILL START TO REGAIN IT ALL. 1470 01:12:50,689 --> 01:12:54,172 SO LACEY STILL HAS TO CONTINUE TO WORK HARD AND ADDRESS 1471 01:12:54,172 --> 01:12:56,241 HER CORE ISSUES BEHIND HER EATING, 1472 01:12:56,241 --> 01:12:58,206 IF SHE WANTS ANY CHANCE AT ALL 1473 01:12:58,206 --> 01:13:00,896 TO BE SUCCESSFUL IN THE LONG RUN. 1474 01:13:07,241 --> 01:13:15,551 ♪♪ 1475 01:13:15,551 --> 01:13:23,931 ♪♪ 1476 01:13:23,931 --> 01:13:32,310 ♪♪ 1477 01:13:32,310 --> 01:13:34,862 Lacey: IT'S BEEN A LITTLE OVER A MONTH SINCE MY SURGERY, 1478 01:13:34,862 --> 01:13:38,655 AND I FEEL LIKE I'VE BEEN DOING WELL. 1479 01:13:38,655 --> 01:13:41,655 AFTER THE SURGERY, DR. NOW TOLD ME I HAD TO HAVE 1480 01:13:41,655 --> 01:13:43,586 SOMEONE AROUND TO STAY WITH ME 1481 01:13:43,586 --> 01:13:47,413 AND HELP ME IF I WAS GONNA GO BACK TO MY APARTMENT. 1482 01:13:47,413 --> 01:13:50,586 BUT MY MOM TOLD ME HOW LONG IT TOOK ME TO MOVE AHEAD 1483 01:13:50,586 --> 01:13:54,793 WITH THIS SURGERY WASN'T PART OF THE DEAL. 1484 01:13:54,793 --> 01:13:58,689 BUT MY DAD SAID HE WANTED TO DO IT AND BE THERE FOR ME, 1485 01:13:58,689 --> 01:14:02,965 AND IT'S BEEN REALLY NICE HAVING THIS TIME WITH HIM. 1486 01:14:02,965 --> 01:14:05,241 BUT HE HAS TO GO BACK IN ABOUT A WEEK, 1487 01:14:05,241 --> 01:14:06,896 NOW THAT I'M FULLY RECOVERED, 1488 01:14:06,896 --> 01:14:09,724 BUT I'M TALKING TO MY MOM TO SEE IF SHE'LL JUST AGREE TO SPEND 1489 01:14:09,724 --> 01:14:12,103 A FEW MONTHS DOWN HERE WITH ME SO I CAN HAVE SOMEONE, 1490 01:14:12,103 --> 01:14:15,103 LIKE DR. NOW SAYS. 1491 01:14:15,103 --> 01:14:17,793 I HAD ANOTHER APPOINTMENT WITH DR. PARADISE, 1492 01:14:17,793 --> 01:14:19,413 AND WHAT HE TALKED TO ME ABOUT 1493 01:14:19,413 --> 01:14:21,379 WAS STARTING TO ADDRESS THE THINGS 1494 01:14:21,379 --> 01:14:26,344 THAT FIRST LED ME TO USING FOOD AS A WAY OF DEALING WITH THINGS. 1495 01:14:26,344 --> 01:14:30,862 SO I KNOW I NEED TO TALK TO BOTH MY DAD AND MY MOM ABOUT THAT. 1496 01:14:30,862 --> 01:14:34,000 BUT I FEEL LIKE THINGS ARE SO GOOD BETWEEN US RIGHT NOW 1497 01:14:34,000 --> 01:14:35,413 THAT I DON'T WANT TO RUIN IT. 1498 01:14:35,413 --> 01:14:37,000 YOU WANT ME TO TAKE THAT? 1499 01:14:37,000 --> 01:14:39,172 Steve: SURE. 1500 01:14:39,172 --> 01:14:42,689 DR. NOW AND DR. PARADISE BOTH KEEP TELLING ME 1501 01:14:42,689 --> 01:14:46,655 THAT I'LL START TO GAIN AGAIN IF I DON'T GET AT THESE THINGS, 1502 01:14:46,655 --> 01:14:50,827 AND I'M GONNA TRY TO WORK UP THE COURAGE TO DO WHAT I NEED 1503 01:14:50,827 --> 01:14:54,172 BECAUSE I'VE BEEN GIVEN A CHANCE TO TURN MY LIFE AROUND. 1504 01:14:54,172 --> 01:14:56,586 AND I CAN'T LET MYSELF STOP SHORT, 1505 01:14:56,586 --> 01:14:59,379 OR I'M GONNA END UP MESSING THIS ALL UP. 1506 01:14:59,379 --> 01:15:02,827 AND I CAN'T LET THAT HAPPEN. 1507 01:15:02,827 --> 01:15:06,379 -WHAT'S ON YOUR MIND? -NOTHING. 1508 01:15:06,379 --> 01:15:08,965 I JUST, UH -- 1509 01:15:08,965 --> 01:15:11,551 I'M -- 1510 01:15:11,551 --> 01:15:13,724 I -- 1511 01:15:13,724 --> 01:15:15,137 SO, IN THERAPY, 1512 01:15:15,137 --> 01:15:20,689 I TALKED ABOUT WHEN I WAS YOUNGER AND YOU AND MOM -- 1513 01:15:20,689 --> 01:15:22,862 MOM WORKED A LOT, YOU WORKED A LOT. 1514 01:15:22,862 --> 01:15:24,000 YES. YEAH. 1515 01:15:24,000 --> 01:15:27,586 AND THE POINT IS THAT, I WAS ALONE 1516 01:15:27,586 --> 01:15:31,068 AND I HAD TO MAKE THE DECISIONS ON MY -- MYSELF. 1517 01:15:31,068 --> 01:15:36,758 AND I MADE MYSELF FEEL BETTER BY EATING FOOD, 1518 01:15:36,758 --> 01:15:39,931 'CAUSE I WAS ALONE A LOT. 1519 01:15:39,931 --> 01:15:41,689 I FELT ALONE A LOT. 1520 01:15:44,413 --> 01:15:47,137 THOSE ARE THINGS THAT I CARRIED WITH ME FROM MY CHILDHOOD. 1521 01:15:47,137 --> 01:15:51,724 AND AS AN ADULT, I'M TRYING TO LET THEM GO AND JUST MOVE ON. 1522 01:15:51,724 --> 01:15:53,344 AND IT CHANGES ME. 1523 01:15:53,344 --> 01:15:55,034 IT'S GONNA CHANGE YOU AND I, 1524 01:15:55,034 --> 01:15:58,827 SO WE CAN CHANGE INTO SOMETHING BETTER TOO. 1525 01:15:58,827 --> 01:16:00,551 SO... 1526 01:16:00,551 --> 01:16:05,241 YOU KNOW, I DIDN'T KNOW THAT HAD AN IMPACT ON YOU. 1527 01:16:05,241 --> 01:16:07,689 WELL, IT'S -- 1528 01:16:07,689 --> 01:16:11,275 MAYBE I WASN'T THERE AS YOU GREW UP. 1529 01:16:11,275 --> 01:16:16,275 AND, YOU KNOW, BASICALLY AS YOU GOT BIGGER, YOU KNOW, I -- 1530 01:16:16,275 --> 01:16:22,206 I HATE TO SAY, BUT, YOU KNOW, IT WAS ALMOST... 1531 01:16:22,206 --> 01:16:26,000 EMBARRASSING TO GO OUT IN PUBLIC. 1532 01:16:26,000 --> 01:16:27,517 MM-HMM. 1533 01:16:27,517 --> 01:16:30,827 I FELT ALWAYS THAT WE WERE -- YOU KNOW, WE WERE GAWKED AT. 1534 01:16:30,827 --> 01:16:31,931 MM-HMM. 1535 01:16:31,931 --> 01:16:35,206 AND YOU KNOW, LIKE A FREAK SHOW... 1536 01:16:35,206 --> 01:16:36,551 DEFINITELY. 1537 01:16:36,551 --> 01:16:38,344 ...YOU KNOW, TYPE THING. SO THEN, YOU KNOW, I WITHDREW. 1538 01:16:38,344 --> 01:16:42,310 YOU KNOW, MAYBE AS IT WENT ON, THAT'S WHY I WASN'T THERE, 1539 01:16:42,310 --> 01:16:45,310 SO I WOULDN'T HAVE TO CONFRONT THAT OR DEAL WITH THAT. 1540 01:16:45,310 --> 01:16:46,689 YEAH. 1541 01:16:46,689 --> 01:16:47,724 BUT YET, I DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO FIX THE PROBLEM. 1542 01:16:47,724 --> 01:16:49,034 RIGHT. 1543 01:16:49,034 --> 01:16:50,586 YOU KNOW, I'M THE GUY THAT ALL MY LIFE, 1544 01:16:50,586 --> 01:16:52,793 I'VE HAD THE ANSWERS TO HOW TO FIX THIS, HOW TO FIX THAT. 1545 01:16:52,793 --> 01:16:56,275 AND YOU KNOW, THE -- THAT WAS ONE PROBLEM 1546 01:16:56,275 --> 01:16:59,551 THAT I, YOU KNOW, I WAS NEVER ABLE TO FIX. 1547 01:17:02,241 --> 01:17:05,517 THAT HAS -- THAT HAS OCCURRED TO ME... 1548 01:17:05,517 --> 01:17:07,034 MM-HMM. 1549 01:17:07,034 --> 01:17:10,275 ...THAT I -- I WASN'T ALWAYS THERE. 1550 01:17:10,275 --> 01:17:16,103 I WAS -- I WAS, UH, TOO BUSY IN MY OWN WORLD, 1551 01:17:16,103 --> 01:17:18,275 YOU KNOW, DOING MY OWN -- YOU KNOW? 1552 01:17:18,275 --> 01:17:22,413 I DON'T LIKE TALKING ABOUT IT BECAUSE IT'S IN THE PAST. 1553 01:17:22,413 --> 01:17:24,275 I AGREE.AND THINGS ARE DIFFERENT NOW. 1554 01:17:24,275 --> 01:17:26,241 YOU'RE WHERE YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE NOW. 1555 01:17:26,241 --> 01:17:27,689 I AM. 1556 01:17:27,689 --> 01:17:31,206 AND YOU DO EVERYTHING THAT YOU CAN FOR ME NOW. 1557 01:17:31,206 --> 01:17:35,724 I'M JUST GLAD THAT I'VE BEEN ABLE TO BE A PART OF THIS -- 1558 01:17:35,724 --> 01:17:37,931 MOMENTS, YOU KNOW, WHAT YOU JUST WENT THROUGH 1559 01:17:37,931 --> 01:17:40,551 AND WHAT YOU'RE GOING THROUGH AND CONTINUE TO GO THROUGH. 1560 01:17:40,551 --> 01:17:43,379 I'M GLAD YOU'RE THERE WITH ME. 1561 01:17:43,379 --> 01:17:44,620 YOU CALL, I COME RUNNING. 1562 01:17:44,620 --> 01:17:46,137 THAT'S RIGHT. 1563 01:17:46,137 --> 01:17:51,275 ♪♪ 1564 01:17:51,275 --> 01:17:57,448 ♪♪ 1565 01:17:57,448 --> 01:17:58,448 YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU. 1566 01:17:58,448 --> 01:18:00,758 I LOVE YOU.I LOVE YOU, TOO. 1567 01:18:00,758 --> 01:18:01,931 I LOVE YOU, BABE. 1568 01:18:08,379 --> 01:18:14,689 ♪♪ 1569 01:18:14,689 --> 01:18:21,068 ♪♪ 1570 01:18:21,068 --> 01:18:23,965 Lacey: I STARTED TAKING A PAINTING CLASS. 1571 01:18:23,965 --> 01:18:26,724 AND I WANT TO CONTINUE TO LEARN HOW TO DO IT BETTER, 1572 01:18:26,724 --> 01:18:29,689 AND LEARN WAYS I CAN IMPROVE MY PAINTING SKILLS 1573 01:18:29,689 --> 01:18:32,068 SO I CAN CONTINUE TO EXPRESS MYSELF 1574 01:18:32,068 --> 01:18:35,517 AND PUT MY FEELINGS INTO THE ART I MAKE. 1575 01:18:35,517 --> 01:18:37,310 -HI. -HI. 1576 01:18:37,310 --> 01:18:39,482 Woman: ALL RIGHT. WELCOME TO BOARD & BRUSH. 1577 01:18:39,482 --> 01:18:43,517 ANYTHING YOU NEED, DON'T BE AFRAID TO ASK ANY QUESTIONS. 1578 01:18:43,517 --> 01:18:44,689 Lacey: BEFORE MY DAD LEFT, 1579 01:18:44,689 --> 01:18:46,517 I WAS ABLE TO WORK UP THE COURAGE 1580 01:18:46,517 --> 01:18:48,965 TO HAVE A DEEPER CONVERSATION WITH HIM. 1581 01:18:48,965 --> 01:18:50,965 AND I HAVE TO SAY, I WAS SURPRISED 1582 01:18:50,965 --> 01:18:53,172 AT HOW GREAT IT FELT TO LET OUT SOMETHING 1583 01:18:53,172 --> 01:18:57,275 THAT I HAVE BEEN HOLDING IN FOR OVER 20 YEARS. 1584 01:18:57,275 --> 01:19:00,620 SO I'M FEELING REALLY GOOD AND CONFIDENT RIGHT NOW. 1585 01:19:00,620 --> 01:19:04,275 I KNOW I STILL HAVE A LONG WAYS TO GO ON MY WEIGHT-LOSS JOURNEY. 1586 01:19:04,275 --> 01:19:07,655 BUT EACH DAY IS ANOTHER STEP IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION. 1587 01:19:07,655 --> 01:19:10,068 I'M GETTING OUT THERE AND STARTING TO LIVE LIFE 1588 01:19:10,068 --> 01:19:12,344 AND MEET NEW PEOPLE. 1589 01:19:12,344 --> 01:19:16,344 AND BEING IN PUBLIC IS NOT AS BAD AS I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE. 1590 01:19:16,344 --> 01:19:17,448 Woman: I THINK YOU'RE READY. 1591 01:19:17,448 --> 01:19:18,827 LET'S SEE IT. 1592 01:19:18,827 --> 01:19:19,862 OKAY. ALL RIGHT. 1593 01:19:19,862 --> 01:19:20,862 SO, YOU'RE GONNA PEEL STRAIGHT UP. 1594 01:19:20,862 --> 01:19:22,000 TAKE A DEEP BREATH. 1595 01:19:22,000 --> 01:19:24,896 THIS IS THE, LIKE, NERVE-WRACKING PART. 1596 01:19:24,896 --> 01:19:27,448 OH, GOD. IT'S OKAY. 1597 01:19:27,448 --> 01:19:29,241 THERE YOU GO. THERE YOU GO. 1598 01:19:29,241 --> 01:19:31,758 I'M STARTING TO HAVE SOME EXCESS SKIN IN PLACES 1599 01:19:31,758 --> 01:19:34,862 THAT'S BOTHERING ME, SO MY NEXT BIG GOAL IS TO TRY 1600 01:19:34,862 --> 01:19:39,379 AND LOSE ENOUGH TO GET APPROVED FOR MY FIRST SKIN REMOVAL. 1601 01:19:39,379 --> 01:19:41,689 I HAVE MY NEXT APPOINTMENT IN A MONTH. 1602 01:19:41,689 --> 01:19:43,068 AND I'M HOPING THAT MAYBE, 1603 01:19:43,068 --> 01:19:45,827 I'LL EVEN BE ABLE TO GET APPROVED THEN. 1604 01:19:45,827 --> 01:19:48,344 SO I'M WORKING HARD RIGHT NOW TO STAY ON TRACK 1605 01:19:48,344 --> 01:19:50,551 AND LOSE AS MUCH AS I CAN BY THEN. 1606 01:19:50,551 --> 01:19:52,413 GOOD JOB! HIGH FIVE! 1607 01:19:52,413 --> 01:19:57,758 ♪♪ 1608 01:19:57,758 --> 01:20:03,172 ♪♪ 1609 01:20:03,172 --> 01:20:06,586 TODAY, I'M BACK TO SEE DR. NOW FOR MY NEXT APPOINTMENT, 1610 01:20:06,586 --> 01:20:12,275 AND SEE HOW MUCH I'VE LOST OVER THE LAST TWO MONTHS. 1611 01:20:12,275 --> 01:20:14,689 LACEY? 1612 01:20:14,689 --> 01:20:17,310 AT MY LAST APPOINTMENT A COUPLE OF MONTHS AGO, 1613 01:20:17,310 --> 01:20:21,068 I WAS DOWN TO 469. 1614 01:20:21,068 --> 01:20:23,310 AND DR. NOW SAID I SHOULD BE LOSING 1615 01:20:23,310 --> 01:20:27,413 AT LEAST 20 POUNDS A MONTH, IF I STAY ON TRACK. 1616 01:20:27,413 --> 01:20:31,965 SO THAT MEANS I SHOULD BE DOWN TO 429 TODAY. 1617 01:20:31,965 --> 01:20:40,275 ♪♪ 1618 01:20:40,275 --> 01:20:42,931 THAT'S NOT AS LOW AS IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE, 1619 01:20:42,931 --> 01:20:45,586 BUT IT'S NOT TOO FAR FROM MY GOAL. 1620 01:20:45,586 --> 01:20:48,310 AND I'M STILL LOSING A GOOD AMOUNT, 1621 01:20:48,310 --> 01:20:50,482 SO I'M FEELING PRETTY GOOD ABOUT THAT NUMBER. 1622 01:20:50,482 --> 01:20:52,896 AND HOPEFULLY, DR. NOW IS, TOO. 1623 01:20:56,724 --> 01:20:58,172 -HELLO. -HI. 1624 01:20:58,172 --> 01:21:00,344 HOW ARE YOU TODAY?GOOD, HOW ARE YOU? 1625 01:21:00,344 --> 01:21:03,103 I'M GOOD, THANK YOU. ALL RIGHT. 1626 01:21:03,103 --> 01:21:06,862 TODAY, YOU'RE DOWN TO 435 POUNDS. 1627 01:21:06,862 --> 01:21:10,482 SO THAT IS AN AVERAGE MONTHLY WEIGHT LOSS OF 17 POUNDS. 1628 01:21:10,482 --> 01:21:11,827 YES. 1629 01:21:11,827 --> 01:21:13,827 SO IT'S A LITTLE BIT LOW, BUT NOT BAD. 1630 01:21:13,827 --> 01:21:15,137 MM-HMM. 1631 01:21:15,137 --> 01:21:17,482 HOW HAS LEARNING TO COPE WITH YOUR EMOTIONS 1632 01:21:17,482 --> 01:21:19,551 IN HEALTHY WAYS BEEN GOING? 1633 01:21:19,551 --> 01:21:21,103 VERY WELL. 1634 01:21:21,103 --> 01:21:23,344 UM, I'M DOING A LOT BETTER THAN I THOUGHT I WOULD. 1635 01:21:23,344 --> 01:21:26,068 I MEAN, IT'S NOT EASY, BUT I'M RELEARNING EVERYTHING. 1636 01:21:26,068 --> 01:21:28,482 SO I FEEL GOOD ABOUT THAT.OKAY. 1637 01:21:28,482 --> 01:21:30,620 THAT'S GOOD, BECAUSE WE DON'T WANT THE AMOUNT 1638 01:21:30,620 --> 01:21:32,931 YOU'RE LOSING TO GET ANY LOWER. 1639 01:21:32,931 --> 01:21:35,379 SO YOUR FOCUS RIGHT NOW NEED TO BE 1640 01:21:35,379 --> 01:21:38,482 ON CONTINUING TO DEAL WITH YOUR EMOTIONAL ISSUES. 1641 01:21:38,482 --> 01:21:41,103 SO MAKE SURE THAT DOESN'T HAPPEN, OKAY? 1642 01:21:41,103 --> 01:21:41,896 OKAY. 1643 01:21:41,896 --> 01:21:43,482 AND WORK TO GET BACK UP 1644 01:21:43,482 --> 01:21:46,103 TO LOSING 20 POUNDS A MONTH RIGHT NOW. 1645 01:21:46,103 --> 01:21:47,724 YOU GOT IT? YEP. 1646 01:21:47,724 --> 01:21:49,448 BUT OTHERWISE, YOU'RE DOING GREAT. 1647 01:21:49,448 --> 01:21:52,620 YOU LOST 256 POUNDS IN AROUND A YEAR, 1648 01:21:52,620 --> 01:21:53,965 WHICH IS A GOOD AMOUNT. 1649 01:21:53,965 --> 01:21:55,655 YEAH. HOW DOES IT FEEL? 1650 01:21:55,655 --> 01:21:57,931 AWESOME. THAT'S GREAT. 1651 01:21:57,931 --> 01:22:00,379 SO YOU'RE GETTING THERE, BUT DON'T LET UP 1652 01:22:00,379 --> 01:22:01,896 OR GET TOO COMFORTABLE, 1653 01:22:01,896 --> 01:22:04,551 BECAUSE YOUR GOAL WEIGHT IS 150 POUNDS. 1654 01:22:04,551 --> 01:22:05,758 -REALLY? -YES. 1655 01:22:05,758 --> 01:22:07,103 OOH. 1656 01:22:07,103 --> 01:22:09,620 THAT IS WHERE YOU NEED TO BE FOR YOUR HEIGHT. 1657 01:22:09,620 --> 01:22:10,931 OKAY. 1658 01:22:10,931 --> 01:22:13,793 SO WE'VE STILL GOT 285 POUNDS TO GO. 1659 01:22:13,793 --> 01:22:15,000 A LONG WAY TO GO. 1660 01:22:15,000 --> 01:22:16,724 SO YOU ARE ONLY AT THE HALFWAY POINT 1661 01:22:16,724 --> 01:22:18,275 IN YOUR WEIGHT-LOSS JOURNEY. 1662 01:22:18,275 --> 01:22:21,206 BUT IF YOU STAY ON TRACK, WE CAN HAVE YOU TO YOUR TARGET 1663 01:22:21,206 --> 01:22:23,862 WITHIN THE NEXT NINE TO TEN MONTHS. 1664 01:22:23,862 --> 01:22:25,034 SOUNDS GOOD? 1665 01:22:25,034 --> 01:22:26,931 THAT'S CRAZY. 1666 01:22:26,931 --> 01:22:30,379 THE NEXT BIG STEP FOR YOU WILL BE REMOVING EXCESS SKIN, 1667 01:22:30,379 --> 01:22:32,448 AND WE'LL SEE WHERE YOU NEED US TO ADDRESS 1668 01:22:32,448 --> 01:22:35,137 THAT MOST ONCE YOU GET BELOW 350. 1669 01:22:35,137 --> 01:22:36,655 OKAY. 1670 01:22:36,655 --> 01:22:39,724 I CAN SEE SOME OF IT STARTING TO HANG AROUND YOUR ABDOMEN. 1671 01:22:39,724 --> 01:22:43,241 LET ME TAKE A LOOK AND SEE HOW IT'S PULLING ON YOU RIGHT NOW. 1672 01:22:43,241 --> 01:22:46,482 OKAY. 1673 01:22:46,482 --> 01:22:50,172 SO YOUR STOMACH IS WHAT WE CALL "TWO-TIERED," 1674 01:22:50,172 --> 01:22:51,793 THE UPPER PART AND LOWER PART. 1675 01:22:51,793 --> 01:22:53,241 YEP. [ LAUGHS ] 1676 01:22:53,241 --> 01:22:55,413 HOW'S THE LOWER PART HOLDING UP WHEN YOU STAND UP, 1677 01:22:55,413 --> 01:22:56,793 AND DOES IT PULL A LOT ON YOU? 1678 01:22:56,793 --> 01:22:58,344 DO YOU WANT TO SEE? YOU WANT ME TO STAND UP? 1679 01:22:58,344 --> 01:23:01,413 YEAH, GO AHEAD AND SHOW ME. 1680 01:23:01,413 --> 01:23:03,655 IT'S GONNA START TO GET VERY PAINFUL, 1681 01:23:03,655 --> 01:23:05,724 SO YOU NEED TO KEEP WORKING HARD. 1682 01:23:05,724 --> 01:23:09,689 AND ONCE YOU LOSE AROUND 80 MORE POUNDS, WE WILL REMOVE THAT 1683 01:23:09,689 --> 01:23:13,000 AND IT WILL BE ANOTHER 20 TO 30 POUNDS OFF OF YOU. 1684 01:23:13,000 --> 01:23:14,310 OKAY. 1685 01:23:14,310 --> 01:23:15,931 ALL RIGHT, LACEY. YOU'RE DOING GREAT. 1686 01:23:15,931 --> 01:23:20,448 YOU'VE GONE FROM ONE OF THE HIGHEST BMI I HAVE SEEN AT 122, 1687 01:23:20,448 --> 01:23:22,379 AND NOW IT'S 77. YEAH. 1688 01:23:22,379 --> 01:23:24,620 AND THAT'S MUCH BETTER, SO KEEP IT UP. 1689 01:23:24,620 --> 01:23:25,965 THANK YOU. 1690 01:23:25,965 --> 01:23:28,310 DID YOUR MOM MAKE IT BACK DOWN TO STAY WITH YOU 1691 01:23:28,310 --> 01:23:30,206 AND HELP YOU OUT LIKE YOU NEED? 1692 01:23:30,206 --> 01:23:32,413 YES, SHE DID. THAT'S GREAT. 1693 01:23:32,413 --> 01:23:33,931 TELL YOUR MOM I SAID HELLO. 1694 01:23:33,931 --> 01:23:35,103 OKAY, I WILL. 1695 01:23:35,103 --> 01:23:36,413 AND I'LL SEE YOU SOON. 1696 01:23:36,413 --> 01:23:37,344 OKAY, I'LL SEE YOU. 1697 01:23:37,344 --> 01:23:38,586 ALL RIGHT. BYE, DOC. 1698 01:23:38,586 --> 01:23:40,310 BYE. 1699 01:23:42,517 --> 01:23:44,344 Dr. Nowzaradan: I THINK LACEY IS DOING WELL. 1700 01:23:44,344 --> 01:23:47,965 HER WEIGHT LOSS IS A LITTLE BIT LOWER THAN WHAT IT SHOULD BE, 1701 01:23:47,965 --> 01:23:51,172 WHICH MEANS THERE'S STILL SOME SIGNIFICANT EMOTIONAL STRUGGLES 1702 01:23:51,172 --> 01:23:52,827 THAT SHE NEED TO ADDRESS. 1703 01:23:52,827 --> 01:23:56,172 BUT AS LONG AS SHE'S DOING THAT AND FACING WHAT SHE NEEDS, 1704 01:23:56,172 --> 01:23:58,137 I FEEL CONFIDENT THAT WE CAN GET HER 1705 01:23:58,137 --> 01:24:00,241 TO HER TARGET WEIGHT HERE SOON. 1706 01:24:02,896 --> 01:24:05,103 Lacey: I'M FEELING REALLY POSITIVE RIGHT NOW. 1707 01:24:05,103 --> 01:24:09,103 MY PLAN IS TO KEEP WORKING HARD AND DOING ALL THE THINGS 1708 01:24:09,103 --> 01:24:11,827 I NEED TO COMPLETELY HIT MY GOAL. 1709 01:24:11,827 --> 01:24:14,137 I HAVE A LOT OF THINGS I STILL NEED TO FACE 1710 01:24:14,137 --> 01:24:17,068 AND WORK THROUGH TO MAKE SURE I STAY ON TRACK. 1711 01:24:17,068 --> 01:24:18,655 BUT OF HOW FAR I'VE COME, 1712 01:24:18,655 --> 01:24:22,482 I'M MORE DETERMINED AND MOTIVATED THAN EVER TO MAKE SURE 1713 01:24:22,482 --> 01:24:23,896 I GET THERE. 1714 01:24:23,896 --> 01:24:33,758 ♪♪ 1715 01:24:33,758 --> 01:24:36,827 I'VE STARTED A MORE CONSISTENT EXERCISE ROUTINE 1716 01:24:36,827 --> 01:24:40,655 THAT INVOLVES GOING ON A HIKE OUTSIDE EVERY DAY. 1717 01:24:40,655 --> 01:24:43,862 AND IT'S ACTUALLY BECOME SOMETHING I LOOK FORWARD TO, 1718 01:24:43,862 --> 01:24:46,241 BECAUSE IT'S A TIME WHEN I CAN CLEAR MY HEAD 1719 01:24:46,241 --> 01:24:47,896 AND JUST GET CENTERED. 1720 01:24:47,896 --> 01:24:49,103 THIS REALLY RELAXES ME. 1721 01:24:49,103 --> 01:24:51,551 I REALLY ENJOY TAKING IN THE SCENERY, 1722 01:24:51,551 --> 01:24:56,931 AND FOR SOME REASON, THAT JUST PUTS MY WORRIES AWAY. 1723 01:24:56,931 --> 01:25:01,206 THE WHOLE JOURNEY SO FAR HAS NOT BEEN WHAT I EXPECTED AT ALL. 1724 01:25:01,206 --> 01:25:03,724 BUT I'M STARTING TO LOVE MY LIFE NOW 1725 01:25:03,724 --> 01:25:07,206 AND HOW IT'S COMPLETELY CHANGED OVER THE LAST YEAR, 1726 01:25:07,206 --> 01:25:10,551 AND I'M WORKING TO BREAK ALL THE BAD HABITS I HAD. 1727 01:25:10,551 --> 01:25:13,620 IT ISN'T EASY, BUT I THINK I'M DOING PRETTY GOOD WITH IT. 1728 01:25:13,620 --> 01:25:16,620 MAKING PROGRESS. 1729 01:25:16,620 --> 01:25:19,965 I'VE HAD ASPIRATIONS AND DREAMS FOR MY LIFE. 1730 01:25:19,965 --> 01:25:23,586 I WANT TO GET A JOB, AND ONE DAY FIND LOVE. 1731 01:25:23,586 --> 01:25:26,413 I'VE BEEN GIVEN A SECOND CHANCE AT LIFE. 1732 01:25:26,413 --> 01:25:30,344 AND NO MATTER WHAT, I'M GONNA KEEP MOVING AHEAD TO A FUTURE 1733 01:25:30,344 --> 01:25:31,931 I NOW BELIEVE IN.