1 00:00:03,379 --> 00:00:05,586 Maja: BECAUSE MY HEALTH IS SO BAD NOW, 2 00:00:05,586 --> 00:00:08,896 I NEVER KNOW WHEN MY BODY'S GONNA HIT ITS LIMIT, 3 00:00:08,896 --> 00:00:11,137 AND IT'S ONLY GETTING WORSE. 4 00:00:11,137 --> 00:00:17,137 ♪♪ 5 00:00:17,137 --> 00:00:19,827 Woman: HE CAN'T STOP. HE DOESN'T KNOW HOW. 6 00:00:19,827 --> 00:00:21,827 Woman #2: IT'S TERRIFYING TO THINK 7 00:00:21,827 --> 00:00:24,310 THAT AT ANY MOMENT YOUR HEART CAN EXPLODE. 8 00:00:24,310 --> 00:00:29,551 ♪♪ 9 00:00:29,551 --> 00:00:34,827 ♪♪ 10 00:00:34,827 --> 00:00:37,689 Woman: I DON'T WANT TO DIE. 11 00:00:37,689 --> 00:00:40,172 I HAVEN'T EVEN GOTTEN TO LIVE YET. 12 00:00:40,172 --> 00:00:44,275 ♪♪ 13 00:00:44,275 --> 00:00:46,103 WHY ARE YOU JUMPING ON MY CASE? 14 00:00:46,103 --> 00:00:49,655 YOU'RE OVEREATING, AND YOU'RE YELLING LIKE IT IS OUR FAULT. 15 00:00:49,655 --> 00:00:51,275 I KNOW THAT I'M DYING. 16 00:00:51,275 --> 00:00:53,655 I KNOW THAT I'M NOT GONNA MAKE IT. 17 00:00:53,655 --> 00:00:59,379 ♪♪ 18 00:00:59,379 --> 00:01:01,862 I [BLEEP] HATE YOU! 19 00:01:01,862 --> 00:01:04,758 I [BLEEP] HATE YOU FOR DOING THIS TO ME, CHRISTIAN! 20 00:01:04,758 --> 00:01:10,137 ♪♪ 21 00:01:10,137 --> 00:01:15,482 ♪♪ 22 00:01:15,482 --> 00:01:18,482 --Captions by VITAC-- www.vitac.com 23 00:01:18,482 --> 00:01:21,448 CAPTIONS PAID FOR BY DISCOVERY COMMUNICATIONS 24 00:01:21,448 --> 00:01:28,344 ♪♪ 25 00:01:28,344 --> 00:01:35,172 ♪♪ 26 00:01:35,172 --> 00:01:42,034 ♪♪ 27 00:01:42,034 --> 00:01:43,517 Maja: WHEN I WAKE UP IN THE MORNING, 28 00:01:43,517 --> 00:01:46,586 THE FIRST THING I DO IS I THANK GOD THAT MY BODY 29 00:01:46,586 --> 00:01:48,896 DIDN'T GIVE OUT DURING THE NIGHT. 30 00:01:48,896 --> 00:01:51,413 ♪♪ 31 00:01:51,413 --> 00:01:53,689 BECAUSE MY HEALTH IS SO BAD NOW, 32 00:01:53,689 --> 00:01:57,206 I NEVER KNOW WHEN MY BODY'S GONNA HIT ITS LIMIT. 33 00:01:57,206 --> 00:01:59,758 ♪♪ 34 00:01:59,758 --> 00:02:02,827 AND IT'S ONLY GETTING WORSE. 35 00:02:02,827 --> 00:02:04,413 AND THERE ARE A LOT OF DAYS 36 00:02:04,413 --> 00:02:08,827 WHERE I DON'T EVEN THINK I CAN PUSH MYSELF TO SHOWER. 37 00:02:08,827 --> 00:02:14,172 BUT I KNOW HOW IMPORTANT IT IS FOR ME TO KEEP MY BODY CLEAN, 38 00:02:14,172 --> 00:02:17,793 BECAUSE AT MY SIZE, THERE'S A VERY HIGH RISK OF INFECTION 39 00:02:17,793 --> 00:02:21,034 BECAUSE OF ALL OF MY FAT RUBBING AGAINST ITSELF. 40 00:02:24,310 --> 00:02:27,344 ♪♪ 41 00:02:27,344 --> 00:02:30,896 SO AS HARD AS IT IS TO DO THIS, I JUST HAVE TO. 42 00:02:30,896 --> 00:02:35,137 ♪♪ 43 00:02:35,137 --> 00:02:38,275 BUT I CAN ONLY STAND FOR AROUND 10 MINUTES 44 00:02:38,275 --> 00:02:40,758 BEFORE IT GETS TO BE TOO MUCH FOR ME. 45 00:02:40,758 --> 00:02:44,896 ♪♪ 46 00:02:44,896 --> 00:02:47,275 IF I WERE TO SLIP AND FALL IN THE BATHTUB, 47 00:02:47,275 --> 00:02:49,827 I COULD EASILY BREAK BONES, 48 00:02:49,827 --> 00:02:52,724 AND THEN I WOULD NOT BE ABLE TO GET OUT OF THE BATHROOM. 49 00:02:52,724 --> 00:02:55,551 ♪♪ 50 00:02:55,551 --> 00:02:57,448 BY THE TIME I'M DONE, 51 00:02:57,448 --> 00:03:01,482 IT'S LIKE I'VE DONE, YOU KNOW, A 20-, 25-MINUTE WORKOUT. 52 00:03:01,482 --> 00:03:05,758 ♪♪ 53 00:03:05,758 --> 00:03:10,758 I'M SO WIPED OUT AT THIS POINT THAT ONCE I GET MY UNDERWEAR ON, 54 00:03:10,758 --> 00:03:12,827 I HAVE TO HAVE MY BOYFRIEND, CHRISTIAN, 55 00:03:12,827 --> 00:03:15,896 WHO LIVES WITH ME, HELP ME WITH MY SOCKS AND PANTS. 56 00:03:15,896 --> 00:03:18,000 ♪♪ 57 00:03:18,000 --> 00:03:20,586 IT'S EMBARRASSING TO HAVE TO EVEN ASK. 58 00:03:20,586 --> 00:03:25,103 ♪♪ 59 00:03:25,103 --> 00:03:26,689 -CHRISTIAN. -YEAH? 60 00:03:26,689 --> 00:03:28,724 WILL YOU PLEASE COME HELP ME? 61 00:03:28,724 --> 00:03:31,896 ♪♪ 62 00:03:31,896 --> 00:03:33,586 SORRY. 63 00:03:33,586 --> 00:03:39,310 ♪♪ 64 00:03:39,310 --> 00:03:41,000 THANKS, HONEY. 65 00:03:41,000 --> 00:03:45,689 ♪♪ 66 00:03:45,689 --> 00:03:50,965 SOON I'M GONNA GET SO BIG, I'M GONNA BE BEDRIDDEN, 67 00:03:50,965 --> 00:03:53,068 AND I KNOW THE ONLY WAY TO PREVENT THAT 68 00:03:53,068 --> 00:03:57,172 IS TO STOP EATING LIKE I DO. 69 00:03:57,172 --> 00:04:00,862 BUT FOOD IS SOMETHING I CONSTANTLY CRAVE, 70 00:04:00,862 --> 00:04:05,172 AND I'M ASHAMED ABOUT HOW MUCH I EAT. 71 00:04:05,172 --> 00:04:08,068 WITH CHRISTIAN, HE DOESN'T KNOW WHEN I GO TO GET FOOD 72 00:04:08,068 --> 00:04:12,620 BECAUSE I GET DRESSED TO GO OUT AND I TELL HIM IT'S FOR ERRANDS. 73 00:04:12,620 --> 00:04:14,551 [ SIGHS ] 74 00:04:14,551 --> 00:04:19,827 BUT IT'S A LIE, BECAUSE THE ONLY THING I'M GOING TO DO IS EAT. 75 00:04:19,827 --> 00:04:21,965 -I'LL BE BACK SOON. -ALL RIGHT. 76 00:04:21,965 --> 00:04:25,517 ♪♪ 77 00:04:29,689 --> 00:04:34,724 FOOD FULFILLS ME IN A WAY I CAN'T EVEN DESCRIBE. 78 00:04:34,724 --> 00:04:36,068 THERE'S NOTHING IN MY LIFE 79 00:04:36,068 --> 00:04:38,413 THAT CAN EVEN COME CLOSE TO MATCHING IT. 80 00:04:38,413 --> 00:04:41,206 ♪♪ 81 00:04:41,206 --> 00:04:43,965 AND I'M WORRIED ABOUT WHAT CHRISTIAN WOULD THINK OF ME 82 00:04:43,965 --> 00:04:47,724 IF HE KNEW HOW MUCH I ACTUALLY ATE. 83 00:04:47,724 --> 00:04:51,310 SO I JUST TRY TO HIDE IT AND GO OUT ON MY OWN. 84 00:04:51,310 --> 00:04:56,413 ♪♪ 85 00:04:56,413 --> 00:05:01,620 ♪♪ 86 00:05:01,620 --> 00:05:05,172 I'LL GO TO TWO, THREE, FOUR PLACES, 87 00:05:05,172 --> 00:05:08,482 BUT THE FIRST MEAL IS ALWAYS THE MOST IMPORTANT ONE 88 00:05:08,482 --> 00:05:11,551 BECAUSE I ALWAYS GET WHAT I'M CRAVING FIRST. 89 00:05:11,551 --> 00:05:16,310 CAN I TWO SAUSAGE BURRITOS, A BACON-EGG-AND-CHEESE, 90 00:05:16,310 --> 00:05:19,000 AND A SAUSAGE MUFFIN WITH EGG? 91 00:05:19,000 --> 00:05:20,827 Woman: $9.31. First window. Thank you. 92 00:05:20,827 --> 00:05:23,586 ♪♪ 93 00:05:23,586 --> 00:05:25,241 THANK YOU. 94 00:05:25,241 --> 00:05:30,448 ♪♪ 95 00:05:30,448 --> 00:05:32,551 THERE'S NO WORDS FOR THAT FEELING 96 00:05:32,551 --> 00:05:35,103 WHEN YOU TASTE SOMETHING YOU LOVE. 97 00:05:35,103 --> 00:05:40,827 ♪♪ 98 00:05:40,827 --> 00:05:42,655 IT'S INCREDIBLE. 99 00:05:42,655 --> 00:05:49,206 ♪♪ 100 00:05:49,206 --> 00:05:52,931 BUT IT FEELS LIKE THAT MEAL IS GONE IN A SECOND. 101 00:05:52,931 --> 00:05:56,068 SO I MOVE ON TO THE NEXT THINGS I'M CRAVING. 102 00:05:56,068 --> 00:05:58,896 ♪♪ 103 00:05:58,896 --> 00:06:00,862 CAN I GET A BEEF-AND-CHEDDAR SANDWICH, 104 00:06:00,862 --> 00:06:06,379 A JALAPEÑO ROAST-BEEF SLIDER, AND YOUR ULTIMATE BLT SANDWICH? 105 00:06:06,379 --> 00:06:08,413 Woman: We will be happy to help you out at the window. 106 00:06:08,413 --> 00:06:10,379 THANK YOU. 107 00:06:10,379 --> 00:06:12,896 ♪♪ 108 00:06:12,896 --> 00:06:14,241 -THANK YOU. -HAVE A GOOD ONE. 109 00:06:14,241 --> 00:06:15,965 YOU TOO. 110 00:06:15,965 --> 00:06:19,689 ♪♪ 111 00:06:19,689 --> 00:06:22,965 MY LIFE COMPLETELY REVOLVES AROUND FOOD. 112 00:06:22,965 --> 00:06:27,103 ♪♪ 113 00:06:27,103 --> 00:06:30,103 WHEN I'M GOING TO GET IT, HOW I'M GOING TO GET IT, 114 00:06:30,103 --> 00:06:32,206 HOW MUCH I'M GOING TO GET -- 115 00:06:32,206 --> 00:06:33,896 IT NEVER STOPS. 116 00:06:33,896 --> 00:06:37,275 AND IT'S BEEN THAT WAY FOR SO LONG NOW, 117 00:06:37,275 --> 00:06:41,068 BECAUSE FOOD HAS BEEN THE ONLY RELIABLE CONSTANT IN MY LIFE. 118 00:06:41,068 --> 00:06:47,620 ♪♪ 119 00:06:47,620 --> 00:06:53,655 I'VE NEVER KNOWN A LIFE OTHER BEING OVERWEIGHT, 120 00:06:53,655 --> 00:06:55,827 AND THAT'S BECAUSE FOOD HAS ALWAYS BEEN 121 00:06:55,827 --> 00:06:59,482 A VERY IMPORTANT PART OF MY LIFE. 122 00:06:59,482 --> 00:07:01,379 MY PARENTS MOVED FROM SERBIA 123 00:07:01,379 --> 00:07:05,482 WHEN MY MOM WAS PREGNANT WITH ME, AND I WAS BORN HERE. 124 00:07:05,482 --> 00:07:09,379 BUT A BIG PART OF SERBIAN CULTURE IS FOOD. 125 00:07:09,379 --> 00:07:11,655 IN OUR CULTURE, BASICALLY, TO SHOW LOVE 126 00:07:11,655 --> 00:07:14,034 IS TO HAVE A LOT OF FOOD ON HAND, 127 00:07:14,034 --> 00:07:16,724 AND IF A CHILD WANTED TO EAT, 128 00:07:16,724 --> 00:07:18,758 YOU KNOW, YOU GAVE THEM A PIECE OF FOOD 129 00:07:18,758 --> 00:07:21,758 OR A PIECE OF MEAT OR A PIECE OF SAUSAGE. 130 00:07:21,758 --> 00:07:23,793 Maja: SO I ALWAYS HAD SOMETHING TO EAT, 131 00:07:23,793 --> 00:07:25,310 AND MY FAVORITE TIMES WERE 132 00:07:25,310 --> 00:07:29,413 WHEN WE HAD THESE LARGE FAMILY FEASTS WITH ALL MY RELATIVES. 133 00:07:29,413 --> 00:07:31,620 ♪♪ 134 00:07:31,620 --> 00:07:35,137 I LOVED THE FOOD AND BEING AROUND ALL MY FAMILY, 135 00:07:35,137 --> 00:07:38,620 BECAUSE I DIDN'T GET A CHANCE TO SEE MANY OF THEM A LOT, 136 00:07:38,620 --> 00:07:42,172 ESPECIALLY MY MOM. 137 00:07:42,172 --> 00:07:45,827 MY MOM AND MY DAD GOT DIVORCED WHEN I WAS 2, 138 00:07:45,827 --> 00:07:47,827 AND BECAUSE MY MOM HAD TO RAISE ME, 139 00:07:47,827 --> 00:07:51,379 SHE STARTED HAVING TO WORK A LOT. 140 00:07:51,379 --> 00:07:54,275 AND SHE WASN'T ABLE TO BE HOME MUCH, 141 00:07:54,275 --> 00:07:57,034 SO I HAD TO STAY WITH EITHER MY GRANDPARENTS 142 00:07:57,034 --> 00:08:00,034 OR MY AUNT MARGARET. 143 00:08:00,034 --> 00:08:02,551 Ana: BEING A SINGLE MOM, I HAD TO GET TWO JOBS 144 00:08:02,551 --> 00:08:04,413 IN ORDER TO SURVIVE. 145 00:08:04,413 --> 00:08:07,137 THAT'S WHEN MY MOM AND MY WHOLE FAMILY, YOU KNOW, 146 00:08:07,137 --> 00:08:10,724 JUMPED IN AND HELPED ME OUT WITH RAISING MAJA. 147 00:08:10,724 --> 00:08:12,793 ♪♪ 148 00:08:12,793 --> 00:08:14,965 Maja: SO IT WAS A LOT FOR MY MOM. 149 00:08:14,965 --> 00:08:17,620 AND SHE WOULD BE DRAINED FROM WORKING TWO JOBS 150 00:08:17,620 --> 00:08:19,689 AND NOT HAVING ENOUGH MONEY, 151 00:08:19,689 --> 00:08:21,655 AND WHEN I WOULD GO SPEND TIME WITH HER, 152 00:08:21,655 --> 00:08:23,758 IT WAS NEVER AS ENJOYABLE 153 00:08:23,758 --> 00:08:27,034 AS IT WAS WITH MY AUNT AND MY GRANDPARENTS. 154 00:08:27,034 --> 00:08:30,620 AND I WOULD TELL HER BEING WITH HER JUST WASN'T FUN AT ALL, 155 00:08:30,620 --> 00:08:33,551 SO THERE STARTED BEING THIS RIFT IN OUR RELATIONSHIP, 156 00:08:33,551 --> 00:08:37,896 AND SHE WAS ANGRY A LOT OF THE TIME WITH HER SITUATION. 157 00:08:37,896 --> 00:08:41,551 I NEVER FELT TRULY LOVED BY MY MOM, AND THAT HURT. 158 00:08:41,551 --> 00:08:44,068 IT HURT A LOT. 159 00:08:44,068 --> 00:08:47,931 AND WHEN I ATE, I FORGOT ABOUT HOW I FELT WITH MY MOM, 160 00:08:47,931 --> 00:08:51,310 SO I STARTED EATING A LOT. 161 00:08:51,310 --> 00:08:55,275 AND BY THE TIME I WAS 5, I WAS ALREADY OVER 100 POUNDS. 162 00:08:55,275 --> 00:08:56,758 BUT THAT WEIGHT GAIN 163 00:08:56,758 --> 00:09:01,206 MADE MY RELATIONSHIP WITH MY MOM EVEN WORSE, 164 00:09:01,206 --> 00:09:03,655 BECAUSE SHE STARTED CRITICIZING ME A LOT, 165 00:09:03,655 --> 00:09:06,758 AND SHE WOULD CALL ME NAMES AND SAY, "YOU'RE TOO FAT." 166 00:09:06,758 --> 00:09:09,310 YOU KNOW, "YOU'RE TOO BIG. YOU CAN'T HAVE THAT." 167 00:09:09,310 --> 00:09:12,965 AND THEN IT WAS LIKE PUNISHMENT TO ME. 168 00:09:12,965 --> 00:09:16,758 SO ALL THAT JUST ENDED UP HAVING THE OPPOSITE EFFECT ON ME, 169 00:09:16,758 --> 00:09:20,310 AND I KEPT EATING EVEN MORE. 170 00:09:20,310 --> 00:09:23,068 AS LONG AS MAJA'S BEEN OVERWEIGHT, ANA'S ALWAYS LIKE, 171 00:09:23,068 --> 00:09:25,448 "YOU'RE OVERWEIGHT. YOU NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT. 172 00:09:25,448 --> 00:09:27,448 YOU NEED TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT." 173 00:09:27,448 --> 00:09:29,413 THE WAY SHE ENCOURAGED HER WASN'T HELPFUL. 174 00:09:29,413 --> 00:09:32,034 IT JUST SHUT HER DOWN. IT JUST MADE HER MORE EMBARRASSED 175 00:09:32,034 --> 00:09:36,482 AND MORE SELF-CONSCIOUS OF HERSELF. 176 00:09:36,482 --> 00:09:39,310 Maja: UNFORTUNATELY, MY DAD WAS ALMOST AS BAD AS MY MOM 177 00:09:39,310 --> 00:09:41,965 WHEN IT CAME TO HIS DISAPPOINTMENT ABOUT MY WEIGHT 178 00:09:41,965 --> 00:09:43,689 AND MAKING THAT KNOWN. 179 00:09:43,689 --> 00:09:46,034 ♪♪ 180 00:09:46,034 --> 00:09:47,379 MY DAD REMARRIED, 181 00:09:47,379 --> 00:09:51,413 AND THEY PROCEEDED TO HAVE TWO CHILDREN TOGETHER, 182 00:09:51,413 --> 00:09:55,344 AND THEY WERE THE IDEAL FAMILY. 183 00:09:55,344 --> 00:09:58,000 THEY ALL WERE THIN 184 00:09:58,000 --> 00:10:02,000 AND BEAUTIFUL AND PERFECT. 185 00:10:02,000 --> 00:10:07,896 BUT THEY NEVER INCLUDED ME IN A SINGLE FAMILY PHOTO. 186 00:10:07,896 --> 00:10:10,275 ♪♪ 187 00:10:10,275 --> 00:10:14,724 SO I KNEW WHAT THAT MEANT -- MY FATHER WAS EMBARRASSED BY ME. 188 00:10:14,724 --> 00:10:19,413 BUT I DIDN'T HAVE TO DEAL WITH THAT FOR TOO LONG... 189 00:10:19,413 --> 00:10:22,000 BECAUSE HE GOT SICK OF HAVING TO DRIVE THREE HOURS 190 00:10:22,000 --> 00:10:24,482 TO PICK ME UP FOR MY WEEKENDS WITH HIM, 191 00:10:24,482 --> 00:10:27,137 SO HE DECIDED HE WASN'T DOING IT ANYMORE. 192 00:10:27,137 --> 00:10:29,896 SO MY FATHER STOPPED BEING A BIG PART OF MY LIFE THEN. 193 00:10:29,896 --> 00:10:32,310 ♪♪ 194 00:10:32,310 --> 00:10:35,172 BUT I JUST TOOK ALL THAT PAIN AND KEPT GOING TO FOOD 195 00:10:35,172 --> 00:10:36,931 TO HELP ME FORGET IT. 196 00:10:36,931 --> 00:10:38,965 AND WITH ALL THAT I WAS GAINING, 197 00:10:38,965 --> 00:10:43,620 I ALMOST DOUBLED IN SIZE OVER THE NEXT FEW YEARS. 198 00:10:43,620 --> 00:10:48,137 AND I WAS OVER 175 POUNDS BY THE TIME I WAS 8. 199 00:10:48,137 --> 00:10:51,413 EVENTUALLY, WHEN I WAS 10, MY MOM GOT REMARRIED, TOO. 200 00:10:51,413 --> 00:10:54,275 ♪♪ 201 00:10:54,275 --> 00:10:55,724 AND MY STEPDAD, ZACH, 202 00:10:55,724 --> 00:10:59,137 WOULD TRY TO MAKE THINGS A LITTLE BETTER AND INTERVENE. 203 00:10:59,137 --> 00:11:01,551 ♪♪ 204 00:11:01,551 --> 00:11:03,551 BUT HE COULDN'T HELP TAKE AWAY THE REJECTION 205 00:11:03,551 --> 00:11:05,206 I STILL FELT FROM MY PARENTS. 206 00:11:05,206 --> 00:11:07,551 FOOD WAS THE ONLY THING THAT EVEN REMOTELY 207 00:11:07,551 --> 00:11:09,586 HELPED ME FEEL BETTER. 208 00:11:09,586 --> 00:11:11,620 ♪♪ 209 00:11:11,620 --> 00:11:14,586 SO I KEPT GETTING BIGGER, AND BY THE TIME I WAS 14 210 00:11:14,586 --> 00:11:18,344 AND STARTED HIGH SCHOOL, I WAS APPROACHING 300. 211 00:11:18,344 --> 00:11:20,379 ♪♪ 212 00:11:20,379 --> 00:11:21,862 BUT WHEN I WAS IN HIGH SCHOOL 213 00:11:21,862 --> 00:11:24,448 IS WHEN THINGS GOT EVEN WORSE WITH MY MOTHER, 214 00:11:24,448 --> 00:11:27,241 BECAUSE THE BIGGER I GOT, THE MORE SHE MADE ME FEEL LIKE 215 00:11:27,241 --> 00:11:32,172 I WAS JUST THIS DISGUSTING THING THAT REPULSED HER. 216 00:11:32,172 --> 00:11:36,896 SO I JUST KEPT EATING TO TRY AND BLOCK IT ALL OUT. 217 00:11:36,896 --> 00:11:39,517 AND BY TIME I GRADUATE HIGH SCHOOL, 218 00:11:39,517 --> 00:11:41,896 I WAS OVER 400 AT THAT POINT, 219 00:11:41,896 --> 00:11:45,517 BUT I WAS STILL ABLE TO STAY ACTIVE. 220 00:11:45,517 --> 00:11:48,068 I MOVED OUT OF MY MOM'S HOUSE, 221 00:11:48,068 --> 00:11:52,034 SO I HAD TO START PROVIDING FOR MYSELF AND GET A JOB. 222 00:11:52,034 --> 00:11:55,310 BUT FOR THE NEXT FOUR TO FIVE YEARS, 223 00:11:55,310 --> 00:11:58,965 I MOSTLY WORKED AT PLACES WHERE I WAS ALWAYS AROUND FOOD, 224 00:11:58,965 --> 00:12:02,896 LIKE A FAST-FOOD PLACE. 225 00:12:02,896 --> 00:12:05,241 SO I JUST KEPT EATING AND PUTTING ON WEIGHT 226 00:12:05,241 --> 00:12:08,724 AND HIT 500 WHEN I WAS 24. 227 00:12:08,724 --> 00:12:12,344 BUT I STILL MANAGED TO WORK AND PROVIDE FOR MYSELF, 228 00:12:12,344 --> 00:12:16,068 AND I EVEN STARTED DATING FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE. 229 00:12:16,068 --> 00:12:20,137 I WAS IN MY FIRST RELATIONSHIP WITH A MAN, 230 00:12:20,137 --> 00:12:22,931 AND WE FELL IN LOVE. 231 00:12:22,931 --> 00:12:25,793 AND AFTER TWO YEARS, WE DECIDED 232 00:12:25,793 --> 00:12:27,620 THAT WE WERE GOING TO GET MARRIED, 233 00:12:27,620 --> 00:12:32,137 AND IT WAS THE HAPPIEST TIME OF MY LIFE. 234 00:12:32,137 --> 00:12:34,379 BUT AS WE WERE PREPARING FOR THE WEDDING, 235 00:12:34,379 --> 00:12:37,103 MY WEIGHT BECAME AN ISSUE IN A LOT OF WAYS. 236 00:12:37,103 --> 00:12:42,172 FIRST, I WAS TOO BIG FOR A WEDDING DRESS, 237 00:12:42,172 --> 00:12:44,689 BUT THEN I LEARNED THAT I WAS PROBABLY NEVER GONNA BE ABLE 238 00:12:44,689 --> 00:12:49,517 TO HAVE KIDS AS LONG AS I WAS AS BIG AS I WAS. 239 00:12:49,517 --> 00:12:53,620 WHEN THE DOCTORS TOLD ME THAT, IT WAS VERY DISHEARTENING 240 00:12:53,620 --> 00:12:58,931 BECAUSE I COULDN'T HAVE THE FAMILY THAT I WANTED TO HAVE. 241 00:12:58,931 --> 00:13:01,448 AFTER BEING ENGAGED FOR FOUR YEARS, 242 00:13:01,448 --> 00:13:05,241 MY FIANCé DECIDED NOT HAVING KIDS WAS TOO MUCH, 243 00:13:05,241 --> 00:13:07,931 AND HE MOVED ON. 244 00:13:07,931 --> 00:13:11,862 SO MY RELATIONSHIP ENDED BECAUSE OF MY WEIGHT. 245 00:13:11,862 --> 00:13:13,310 AND IT DIDN'T HELP MUCH. 246 00:13:13,310 --> 00:13:17,482 I WAS STILL GAINING AND GETTING EVEN BIGGER. 247 00:13:17,482 --> 00:13:21,413 I WAS 29 THEN AND OVER 550 POUNDS, 248 00:13:21,413 --> 00:13:25,068 SO MY HEALTH WAS WORSE THAN EVER. 249 00:13:25,068 --> 00:13:26,896 THE ONLY GOOD THING THAT HAPPENED TO ME 250 00:13:26,896 --> 00:13:28,448 AROUND THAT TIME IN MY LIFE 251 00:13:28,448 --> 00:13:31,413 IS THAT MY MOM AND I STARTED TO GET A LITTLE CLOSER. 252 00:13:31,413 --> 00:13:34,310 SHE HAD HAD A STROKE, AND, I THINK, FOR HER, 253 00:13:34,310 --> 00:13:38,379 THAT HAD CHANGED HER PERSPECTIVE ON THINGS. 254 00:13:38,379 --> 00:13:42,379 SO IT ENDED UP OPENING A DOOR FOR US TO FORM A RELATIONSHIP, 255 00:13:42,379 --> 00:13:46,034 AND WE STILL SPENT TIME TOGETHER. 256 00:13:46,034 --> 00:13:47,758 BUT OTHER THAN THAT, NOTHING ELSE 257 00:13:47,758 --> 00:13:50,758 WAS GOING EVEN REMOTELY RIGHT FOR ME THEN, 258 00:13:50,758 --> 00:13:54,586 BUT I STILL KEPT TRYING TO HAVE A NORMAL LIFE. 259 00:13:54,586 --> 00:13:56,862 SO I TRIED TO GET BACK OUT THERE, 260 00:13:56,862 --> 00:14:00,586 AND I GOT ON A DATING WEBSITE, AND THAT'S WHEN I MET CHRISTIAN, 261 00:14:00,586 --> 00:14:04,655 WHO'S BEEN THE BEST RELATIONSHIP I'VE EVER HAD WITH ANYONE, 262 00:14:04,655 --> 00:14:09,000 AND WE'VE BEEN TOGETHER FOR ALMOST THREE YEARS NOW. 263 00:14:09,000 --> 00:14:11,206 Christian: WHEN I MET MAJA, FIRST THING I NOTICED 264 00:14:11,206 --> 00:14:15,241 IS THAT SHE'S VERY KIND, YOU KNOW, EASY TO TALK TO. 265 00:14:15,241 --> 00:14:16,758 I DON'T JUDGE HER ON HER SIZE. 266 00:14:16,758 --> 00:14:20,793 I JUDGE HER ON HER PERSONALITY AND MENTALITY. 267 00:14:20,793 --> 00:14:22,827 Maja: SHORTLY AFTER WE STARTED DATING, 268 00:14:22,827 --> 00:14:25,172 HE OFFERED FOR ME TO MOVE IN WITH HIM. 269 00:14:25,172 --> 00:14:29,655 SO I DID, AND MY RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM HAS BEEN GREAT. 270 00:14:29,655 --> 00:14:32,000 MY WEIGHT NEVER BOTHERED HIM. 271 00:14:32,000 --> 00:14:36,172 HE SAYS IT'S NOT A BIG DEAL TO HIM, 272 00:14:36,172 --> 00:14:39,137 BUT SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE IT IS. 273 00:14:39,137 --> 00:14:40,655 SINCE I'VE BEEN WITH HIM, 274 00:14:40,655 --> 00:14:43,413 MY HEALTH HAS JUST GOTTEN WORSE AND WORSE, 275 00:14:43,413 --> 00:14:46,965 AND I FEEL AWFUL 276 00:14:46,965 --> 00:14:49,206 BECAUSE IT SEEMS LIKE CHRISTIAN IMMEDIATELY 277 00:14:49,206 --> 00:14:52,379 HAD TO BECOME A CARETAKER IN A NUMBER OF WAYS. 278 00:14:52,379 --> 00:14:56,758 I JUST CAN'T DO A LOT. IT'S HARD. 279 00:14:56,758 --> 00:15:00,965 HE REALLY WANTS CHILDREN, AND I CAN'T GIVE HIM CHILDREN 280 00:15:00,965 --> 00:15:04,620 BECAUSE OF MY SIZE AND WEIGHT. 281 00:15:04,620 --> 00:15:07,689 AT THIS POINT, I'M NOT SURE WHAT I WEIGH. 282 00:15:07,689 --> 00:15:11,000 I HOPE I'M STILL IN THE LOWER 600s, 283 00:15:11,000 --> 00:15:13,931 BUT I KNOW I'VE STILL BEEN GAINING 284 00:15:13,931 --> 00:15:17,931 BECAUSE I'M STILL EATING WORSE THAN EVER. 285 00:15:17,931 --> 00:15:20,482 SO I HAVE TO FIND A WAY TO LOSE WEIGHT, 286 00:15:20,482 --> 00:15:23,586 AND IT'S THE ONLY WAY FOR CHRISTIAN AND I TO HAVE 287 00:15:23,586 --> 00:15:26,965 ANY CHANCE AT A FUTURE TOGETHER. 288 00:15:26,965 --> 00:15:31,068 MY DREAM FOR CHRISTIAN AND I IS FOR ME TO LOSE THIS WEIGHT 289 00:15:31,068 --> 00:15:33,275 SO WE CAN HAVE CHILDREN 290 00:15:33,275 --> 00:15:36,862 SO WE HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY TO PROVIDE A LIFE 291 00:15:36,862 --> 00:15:39,379 THAT IS FULL OF LOVE 292 00:15:39,379 --> 00:15:43,655 AND HAPPINESS AND TRUTH, 293 00:15:43,655 --> 00:15:47,137 THAT THEY DON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT -- 294 00:15:47,137 --> 00:15:50,655 NOT APPRECIATED AND LOVED FOR THEIR LITTLE BODIES. 295 00:15:50,655 --> 00:15:53,344 ♪♪ 296 00:15:53,344 --> 00:15:56,620 BUT I'M NOT EVEN LIVING AT THIS POINT. 297 00:15:56,620 --> 00:15:58,758 I KNOW I'M GETTING TO MY BREAKING POINT 298 00:15:58,758 --> 00:16:01,000 AND THAT CHRISTIAN IS, TOO. 299 00:16:01,000 --> 00:16:02,862 ♪♪ 300 00:16:02,862 --> 00:16:05,793 IT JUST SEEMS LIKE WE'RE FIGHTING A LOT MORE NOW LATELY, 301 00:16:05,793 --> 00:16:08,482 AND I FEEL LIKE HE'S GETTING MORE AND MORE DISTANT 302 00:16:08,482 --> 00:16:11,620 BECAUSE THERE'S NO INTIMACY IN OUR RELATIONSHIP, 303 00:16:11,620 --> 00:16:15,344 AND THE THOUGHT OF LOSING HIM SCARES ME. 304 00:16:15,344 --> 00:16:17,448 -HI. -HEY. 305 00:16:17,448 --> 00:16:19,103 -HOW ARE YOU? -TIRED. 306 00:16:19,103 --> 00:16:21,000 WANT TO TAKE A BREAK WITH ME ON THE COUCH? 307 00:16:21,000 --> 00:16:22,862 YEAH. 308 00:16:22,862 --> 00:16:25,862 ♪♪ 309 00:16:25,862 --> 00:16:27,689 Christian: I WANT TO HAVE A FUTURE WITH MAJA. 310 00:16:27,689 --> 00:16:29,724 I WANT TO HAVE CHILDREN, I WANT TO HAVE A FAMILY, 311 00:16:29,724 --> 00:16:32,413 BUT IF THE WEIGHT GETS TOO MUCH AND SHE DIED IN HER SLEEP 312 00:16:32,413 --> 00:16:34,172 OR HAD A STOKE OR A HEART ATTACK, 313 00:16:34,172 --> 00:16:36,310 IT'D BE DEVASTATING TO ME. 314 00:16:36,310 --> 00:16:38,551 ♪♪ 315 00:16:38,551 --> 00:16:42,379 -YOU WANT TO EAT? -I GOT A SNACK ON MY WAY HOME. 316 00:16:42,379 --> 00:16:44,896 MAYBE WE CAN GO GET ICE CREAM LATER. 317 00:16:44,896 --> 00:16:47,586 ALL RIGHT. 318 00:16:47,586 --> 00:16:50,034 Maja: WE KNOW I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING NOW 319 00:16:50,034 --> 00:16:53,793 BEFORE IT GETS TO BE A VERY BAD PLACE FOR US. 320 00:16:53,793 --> 00:16:55,793 SO CHRISTIAN DECIDED TO REACH OUT 321 00:16:55,793 --> 00:16:58,000 TO DR. NOW IN HOUSTON FOR ME, 322 00:16:58,000 --> 00:17:00,482 BECAUSE HE'S ONE OF THE ONLY DOCTORS 323 00:17:00,482 --> 00:17:05,620 WILLING TO DO WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY ON PEOPLE MY SIZE. 324 00:17:05,620 --> 00:17:07,482 DR. NOW MAY BE MY ONLY HOPE 325 00:17:07,482 --> 00:17:11,000 TO GET ANY SORT OF HELP TO TRY AND GET MY WEIGHT UNDER CONTROL 326 00:17:11,000 --> 00:17:13,586 AND SAVE MY LIFE BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE. 327 00:17:13,586 --> 00:17:20,172 ♪♪ 328 00:17:20,172 --> 00:17:26,758 ♪♪ 329 00:17:26,758 --> 00:17:29,413 CHRISTIAN AND I ARE HEADED TO HOUSTON TODAY, 330 00:17:29,413 --> 00:17:33,206 BUT WE'RE BOTH REALLY NERVOUS ABOUT THIS WHOLE TRIP, 331 00:17:33,206 --> 00:17:36,655 SO WE'VE BEEN FIGHTING FOR MOST OF THE MORNING. 332 00:17:36,655 --> 00:17:39,241 OH, MY GOSH. MY LEG IS SO SWOLLEN RIGHT NOW, CHRISTIAN. 333 00:17:39,241 --> 00:17:41,344 DO YOU THINK THEY HAVE, LIKE, URGENT CARE 334 00:17:41,344 --> 00:17:43,103 AND STUFF DOWN THERE I CAN GO TO? 335 00:17:43,103 --> 00:17:44,931 MAYBE. I'LL TAKE A LOOK ONLINE 336 00:17:44,931 --> 00:17:46,724 TO SEE IF IT'S A THIRD-WORLD COUNTRY. 337 00:17:46,724 --> 00:17:48,724 I'M GETTING REALLY STRESSED OUT, CHRISTIAN. 338 00:17:48,724 --> 00:17:51,241 I DON'T NEED YOUR ATTITUDE. 339 00:17:51,241 --> 00:17:54,482 I DON'T GIVE A [BLEEP]. 340 00:17:54,482 --> 00:17:57,241 Maja: I DON'T FEEL LIKE HE'S EVEN TRYING TO UNDERSTAND 341 00:17:57,241 --> 00:18:00,793 HOW HIGH MY ANXIETY IS. 342 00:18:00,793 --> 00:18:04,724 MY MIND IS JUST RACING ABOUT ALL THINGS THAT COULD GO WRONG. 343 00:18:04,724 --> 00:18:08,655 ♪♪ 344 00:18:08,655 --> 00:18:10,896 OH, YOU KNOW ONE THING I'M WORRIED ABOUT? 345 00:18:10,896 --> 00:18:13,241 THOSE DAMN BEDBUGS. 346 00:18:13,241 --> 00:18:15,551 ONE OF MY FRIENDS RECENTLY WENT ON A TRIP, 347 00:18:15,551 --> 00:18:19,448 AND WHEN SHE CAME BACK, SHE HAD THEM. 348 00:18:19,448 --> 00:18:21,275 NORMAL PEOPLE CAN GET THEM. 349 00:18:21,275 --> 00:18:23,620 WELL, IF WE FIND ANY, I'LL CALL THE FBI. 350 00:18:23,620 --> 00:18:26,103 CHRISTIAN! STOP! 351 00:18:26,103 --> 00:18:29,103 ♪♪ 352 00:18:29,103 --> 00:18:33,551 I DON'T FEEL LIKE HE'S TAKING ANY OF THIS SERIOUS AT ALL. 353 00:18:33,551 --> 00:18:36,206 I'M JUST TRYING TO KEEP AS CALM AS I CAN 354 00:18:36,206 --> 00:18:39,896 AND WORK UP THE COURAGE TO DO THIS. 355 00:18:39,896 --> 00:18:43,344 SO A LITTLE HELP WOULD GO A LONG WAY RIGHT NOW. 356 00:18:43,344 --> 00:18:45,379 I NEED MY PHONE, PLEASE. 357 00:18:45,379 --> 00:18:46,896 WHERE IS YOUR PHONE? 358 00:18:46,896 --> 00:18:49,206 IN MY PURSE. I NEED TO CHECK MY FLIGHT. 359 00:18:49,206 --> 00:18:50,758 Christian: WHERE'S YOUR PURSE? 360 00:18:50,758 --> 00:18:53,448 CHRISTIAN! REALLY? GET OFF YOUR PHONE... 361 00:18:53,448 --> 00:18:55,724 I DON'T KNOW WHERE YOUR PURSE IS. 362 00:18:55,724 --> 00:18:57,000 ...AND BE A PART OF THIS! 363 00:18:57,000 --> 00:18:59,275 WHERE THE [BLEEP] IS YOUR PURSE? 364 00:18:59,275 --> 00:19:01,758 IT'S RIGHT NEXT TO YOU. I LEFT IT RIGHT NEXT TO YOU. 365 00:19:01,758 --> 00:19:03,793 YOUR PURSE IS NOT RIGHT HERE. 366 00:19:06,931 --> 00:19:08,965 [ SIGHS ] HERE. 367 00:19:13,068 --> 00:19:22,000 ♪♪ 368 00:19:22,000 --> 00:19:26,241 I REALLY WISH CHRISTIAN WOULD TAKE THIS MORE SERIOUSLY. 369 00:19:26,241 --> 00:19:28,241 COME PICK IT UP. 370 00:19:28,241 --> 00:19:35,103 ♪♪ 371 00:19:35,103 --> 00:19:37,655 I JUST HOPE THAT CHRISTIAN STARTS TO GIVE 372 00:19:37,655 --> 00:19:39,965 A LITTLE MORE SUPPORT, 373 00:19:39,965 --> 00:19:44,137 BECAUSE IF HE DOESN'T, THEN MY FEAR IS THAT THIS TRIP 374 00:19:44,137 --> 00:19:46,655 TO HOUSTON COULD BE TOO MUCH FOR ME, 375 00:19:46,655 --> 00:19:50,758 EITHER PHYSICALLY OR EMOTIONALLY, 376 00:19:50,758 --> 00:19:53,758 AND I'M SO CLOSE TO NOT BEING ABLE TO TAKE IT. 377 00:19:53,758 --> 00:19:56,482 ♪♪ 378 00:19:59,689 --> 00:20:05,344 ♪♪ 379 00:20:05,344 --> 00:20:10,103 Maja: SO FAR, THIS TRIP HAS BEEN ABSOLUTELY MISERABLE. 380 00:20:10,103 --> 00:20:13,034 I'VE BEEN ON THIS PLANE FOR ALMOST FOUR HOURS, 381 00:20:13,034 --> 00:20:15,379 AND I'M IN A LOT OF PAIN. 382 00:20:15,379 --> 00:20:17,482 WALKING THROUGH THE WHOLE AIRPORT 383 00:20:17,482 --> 00:20:19,724 TOOK ALMOST ALL MY ENERGY, 384 00:20:19,724 --> 00:20:23,034 AND I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO RELAX OR GET ANY REST ON THE PLANE 385 00:20:23,034 --> 00:20:26,620 BECAUSE OF HOW CRAMPED AND UNCOMFORTABLE THIS IS. 386 00:20:26,620 --> 00:20:28,172 I JUST HOPE WE LAND SOON 387 00:20:28,172 --> 00:20:30,620 AND IT DOESN'T TAKE TOO LONG TO GET OFF. 388 00:20:30,620 --> 00:20:32,965 CHRISTIAN HAD TO SIT IN THE BACK 389 00:20:32,965 --> 00:20:35,137 'CAUSE WE COULDN'T GET SEATS TOGETHER, 390 00:20:35,137 --> 00:20:37,241 AND I HAVE TO HAVE HIS HELP. 391 00:20:37,241 --> 00:20:40,034 ♪♪ 392 00:20:40,034 --> 00:20:42,724 SO I DON'T KNOW HOW LONG I'M GONNA HAVE TO WAIT FOR HIM, 393 00:20:42,724 --> 00:20:45,068 AND I JUST WANT THIS TO BE OVER. 394 00:20:45,068 --> 00:20:49,103 ♪♪ 395 00:20:49,103 --> 00:20:51,379 [ INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS ] 396 00:20:51,379 --> 00:20:54,793 ♪♪ 397 00:20:54,793 --> 00:20:56,827 HI. 398 00:20:56,827 --> 00:21:01,551 ♪♪ 399 00:21:01,551 --> 00:21:06,241 ♪♪ 400 00:21:06,241 --> 00:21:08,344 Maja: I HAVE TO FIND A PLACE 401 00:21:08,344 --> 00:21:12,448 I CAN SIT OR I CAN REST COMFORTABLY FOR A MINUTE. 402 00:21:12,448 --> 00:21:15,103 MY HIP IS IN SO MUCH PAIN, 403 00:21:15,103 --> 00:21:18,275 AND I'M NOT GONNA BE ABLE TO MAKE IT IF I CAN'T. 404 00:21:18,275 --> 00:21:21,724 ♪♪ 405 00:21:21,724 --> 00:21:23,965 OKAY. 406 00:21:23,965 --> 00:21:29,586 ♪♪ 407 00:21:29,586 --> 00:21:32,000 PEOPLE ARE JUST EVERYWHERE. 408 00:21:32,000 --> 00:21:35,137 I FEEL LIKE A SPECTACLE RIGHT NOW. 409 00:21:35,137 --> 00:21:37,517 ♪♪ 410 00:21:37,517 --> 00:21:40,793 AND IT'S ONLY GONNA GET WORSE IF I END UP ON THE GROUND. 411 00:21:40,793 --> 00:21:42,517 ♪♪ 412 00:21:42,517 --> 00:21:44,310 ALL RIGHT. 413 00:22:07,206 --> 00:22:10,068 -THE CHAIRS DON'T MOVE. -HOLY [BLEEP]. THEY DON'T. 414 00:22:10,068 --> 00:22:16,862 ♪♪ 415 00:22:16,862 --> 00:22:19,310 OH, MY HIP. 416 00:22:19,310 --> 00:22:21,517 [BLEEP] 417 00:22:21,517 --> 00:22:24,862 IT HURTS SO BAD. 418 00:22:24,862 --> 00:22:27,551 LET'S TAKE A BREAK. 419 00:22:27,551 --> 00:22:32,068 ♪♪ 420 00:22:32,068 --> 00:22:35,206 MY LEGS HURT. THEY'RE SO SWOLLEN. 421 00:22:35,206 --> 00:22:37,862 AND MY HIP IS OUT. 422 00:22:37,862 --> 00:22:40,034 JUST TAKE A MINUTE. 423 00:22:40,034 --> 00:22:42,551 IT'S UPSETTING ME THAT I'M NOT BEING ABLE TO DO 424 00:22:42,551 --> 00:22:46,103 WHAT I WANT TO DO, LIKE JUST WALK TO THE DAMN THING 425 00:22:46,103 --> 00:22:49,172 AND GET MY STUFF AND GO ON WITH MY LIFE. 426 00:22:49,172 --> 00:22:52,241 IT'S A BIG AIRPORT, MAJA. 427 00:22:52,241 --> 00:22:55,689 IT'S SOMEWHERE NEW. IT'S BIG. IT'S A LOT. 428 00:22:55,689 --> 00:22:58,000 ♪♪ 429 00:22:58,000 --> 00:23:00,965 ALL RIGHT. [ GROANS ] 430 00:23:00,965 --> 00:23:09,862 ♪♪ 431 00:23:09,862 --> 00:23:12,517 Maja: ALL THIS ACTIVITY'S MORE THAN I'VE HAD IN YEARS, 432 00:23:12,517 --> 00:23:14,551 SO IT'S A LOT FOR MY BODY. 433 00:23:14,551 --> 00:23:16,793 I JUST NEED TO GET THIS OVER WITH, 434 00:23:16,793 --> 00:23:19,137 AND ONCE I GET TO THE HOTEL AND HAVE A BED, 435 00:23:19,137 --> 00:23:21,482 I CAN FINALLY LAY DOWN AND REST. 436 00:23:21,482 --> 00:23:28,275 ♪♪ 437 00:23:28,275 --> 00:23:31,310 [ MAN ON P.A. SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY ] 438 00:23:31,310 --> 00:23:33,586 Maja: THIS IS SO MUCH MORE WALKING 439 00:23:33,586 --> 00:23:36,965 THAN I EVEN REALIZED I WAS GONNA HAVE TO DO. 440 00:23:36,965 --> 00:23:40,137 AND HOW FAR EVERYTHING IS, IT'S REALLY FRUSTRATING, 441 00:23:40,137 --> 00:23:43,137 'CAUSE I CALLED BOTH THE AIRPORTS BEFORE I LEFT 442 00:23:43,137 --> 00:23:45,758 AND ASKED THEM ABOUT HOW FAR EVERYTHING WAS 443 00:23:45,758 --> 00:23:48,862 AND HOW MUCH WALKING THERE WAS. 444 00:23:48,862 --> 00:23:52,827 SO I'M UPSET RIGHT NOW BECAUSE MY LEGS HURT 445 00:23:52,827 --> 00:23:55,586 AND THE LADY LIED TO ME ABOUT HOW FAR IT WAS, 446 00:23:55,586 --> 00:23:58,000 BECAUSE I WOULD HAVE MADE OTHER ARRANGEMENTS 447 00:23:58,000 --> 00:24:01,172 FOR ME TO GET HERE IF I KNEW HOW FAR IT WAS. 448 00:24:01,172 --> 00:24:03,206 I UNDERSTAND THAT I'M A BIG PERSON, 449 00:24:03,206 --> 00:24:05,896 BUT IT DOESN'T GIVE PEOPLE THE RIGHT TO LIE TO ME. 450 00:24:08,965 --> 00:24:12,448 I JUST NEED TO GET ALL THIS OVER WITH. 451 00:24:12,448 --> 00:24:14,827 IF I COULD JUST MAKE IT TO GET THE CAR, 452 00:24:14,827 --> 00:24:16,862 IT SHOULD BE EASIER FROM THERE. 453 00:24:19,137 --> 00:24:21,689 -THAT'S THE RENTAL-CAR SHUTTLE. -OHH! 454 00:24:21,689 --> 00:24:24,827 AND THANKFULLY THERE'S A BUS TO TAKE US TO THE RENTAL-CAR PLACE. 455 00:24:28,172 --> 00:24:31,172 DOES THE BUS GO DOWN? 456 00:24:31,172 --> 00:24:35,655 OH, NO, THAT'S OKAY. THAT'S OKAY. 457 00:24:35,655 --> 00:24:38,620 -OKAY. -OKAY. 458 00:24:38,620 --> 00:24:40,862 ALL RIGHT. HERE WE GO. 459 00:24:40,862 --> 00:24:44,551 ♪♪ 460 00:24:44,551 --> 00:24:48,034 SO I'M HOPING I ONLY NEED TO PUSH MYSELF A LITTLE FURTHER, 461 00:24:48,034 --> 00:24:52,482 AND THIS WHOLE EXPERIENCE AND TRIP WILL BE OVER FOR TODAY. 462 00:24:52,482 --> 00:24:55,586 BUT IT'S HARD TO DESCRIBE JUST HOW MUCH PAIN I'M IN. 463 00:25:02,758 --> 00:25:04,620 -THAT'S IT. -YEAH. 464 00:25:04,620 --> 00:25:09,034 ♪♪ 465 00:25:09,034 --> 00:25:12,448 -GOOD. HOW ARE YOU? -GOOD. WELCOME. 466 00:25:12,448 --> 00:25:14,344 -YEAH, I HAVE ONE. -YOUR LAST NAME? 467 00:25:14,344 --> 00:25:16,379 RADANOVIC. 468 00:25:16,379 --> 00:25:22,482 ♪♪ 469 00:25:22,482 --> 00:25:24,000 I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS. 470 00:25:24,000 --> 00:25:28,103 THEY DON'T HAVE THE RIGHT CAR RESERVED FOR US. 471 00:25:28,103 --> 00:25:31,586 THIS IS COMPLETELY RIDICULOUS. 472 00:25:31,586 --> 00:25:34,758 I LITERALLY CANNOT BELIEVE HOW MUCH WRONG INFORMATION 473 00:25:34,758 --> 00:25:36,758 HAS BEEN GIVEN TO ME ABOUT TODAY 474 00:25:36,758 --> 00:25:40,620 AND HOW SO MANY PEOPLE CAN SCREW UP. 475 00:25:40,620 --> 00:25:42,931 WE HAD A LARGE S.U.V. RESERVED, 476 00:25:42,931 --> 00:25:46,862 AND THEY SAY ALL THEY CAN GIVE US IS A REGULAR-SIZE CAR. 477 00:25:46,862 --> 00:25:49,517 BUT IT'S NOT AN ISSUE ABOUT WHAT I WANT. 478 00:25:49,517 --> 00:25:53,172 I MAY NOT EVEN BE ABLE TO FIT IF IT'S TOO SMALL. 479 00:25:53,172 --> 00:25:56,862 ♪♪ 480 00:25:56,862 --> 00:25:59,965 OW. 481 00:25:59,965 --> 00:26:03,275 -ARE YOU GONNA FIT? -OW. OW! CHRISTIAN. 482 00:26:03,275 --> 00:26:05,896 [BLEEP]. NO. 483 00:26:05,896 --> 00:26:08,379 -I CAN'T GET UP. -OKAY, HOLD ON. 484 00:26:08,379 --> 00:26:12,172 -DON'T STRESS. -[BLEEP] [BLEEP] 485 00:26:13,965 --> 00:26:15,517 I'M SCARED. I'M SCARED. PLEASE. 486 00:26:15,517 --> 00:26:17,379 -DON'T BE SCARED. -PLEASE. 487 00:26:17,379 --> 00:26:20,482 -COME ON. -HANG ON, HANG ON. 488 00:26:20,482 --> 00:26:22,275 HANG ON. 489 00:26:22,275 --> 00:26:25,034 ♪♪ 490 00:26:25,034 --> 00:26:26,827 -HELP ME. -WHAT -- 491 00:26:26,827 --> 00:26:29,793 JUST HELP, PLEASE. 492 00:26:29,793 --> 00:26:33,758 OW! OW! I CAN'T. HANG ON. 493 00:26:33,758 --> 00:26:36,413 I CAN'T -- I HAVE TO GO DOWN. 494 00:26:36,413 --> 00:26:39,413 I CAN'T. 495 00:26:39,413 --> 00:26:41,724 [BLEEP] 496 00:26:41,724 --> 00:26:43,517 -LET GO. -OKAY. 497 00:26:43,517 --> 00:26:46,896 ♪♪ 498 00:26:46,896 --> 00:26:49,034 MY [BLEEP] LEG GOT STUCK. 499 00:26:49,034 --> 00:26:52,137 ♪♪ 500 00:26:52,137 --> 00:26:55,034 Maja: THIS IS EVERYTHING I FEARED. 501 00:26:55,034 --> 00:26:58,448 IF I CAN'T GET UP, I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M GONNA DO. 502 00:26:58,448 --> 00:27:01,931 ♪♪ 503 00:27:05,000 --> 00:27:13,482 ♪♪ 504 00:27:13,482 --> 00:27:22,000 ♪♪ 505 00:27:22,000 --> 00:27:24,724 MY [BLEEP] LEG GOT STUCK. 506 00:27:32,344 --> 00:27:34,344 Maja: I'M SO SCARED RIGHT NOW, 507 00:27:34,344 --> 00:27:36,413 BUT I DON'T WANT TO HAVE TO CALL FOR HELP 508 00:27:36,413 --> 00:27:38,758 AND HAVE TO GET THE FIRE DEPARTMENT HERE. 509 00:27:38,758 --> 00:27:41,275 SO I JUST HOPE I CAN GET UP. 510 00:27:41,275 --> 00:27:48,896 ♪♪ 511 00:27:48,896 --> 00:27:51,275 -CHRISTIAN. -YEAH, WHAT DO YOU NEED? 512 00:27:51,275 --> 00:27:54,827 PLEASE. YES! YES. 513 00:27:54,827 --> 00:27:57,344 OKAY? 514 00:27:57,344 --> 00:28:00,620 OKAY. [ SOBBING ] 515 00:28:00,620 --> 00:28:02,448 WHY ARE YOU CRYING? 516 00:28:02,448 --> 00:28:06,000 'CAUSE THAT WAS REALLY HARD AND EMBARRASSING. 517 00:28:06,000 --> 00:28:09,517 [ SOBBING ] 518 00:28:09,517 --> 00:28:12,275 YOU DON'T KNOW HOW EMBARRASSING THAT WAS. 519 00:28:12,275 --> 00:28:14,862 ♪♪ 520 00:28:14,862 --> 00:28:17,000 I'M SORRY. 521 00:28:18,724 --> 00:28:21,758 DON'T MAKE A SCENE. 522 00:28:21,758 --> 00:28:25,413 THIS ISN'T ACCEPTABLE AT ALL FOR THEM TO DO THIS TO ME. 523 00:28:25,413 --> 00:28:28,000 I HAVE TO HAVE SOMETHING I CAN FIT IN, 524 00:28:28,000 --> 00:28:30,275 OR WE'RE GONNA HAVE A BIG PROBLEM. 525 00:28:30,275 --> 00:28:33,896 ♪♪ 526 00:28:33,896 --> 00:28:36,034 I'M ALREADY COMPLETELY WORN OUT, 527 00:28:36,034 --> 00:28:37,896 AND IF I HAVE TO DO THIS MUCH LONGER, 528 00:28:37,896 --> 00:28:41,344 I'M GONNA PASS OUT. 529 00:28:41,344 --> 00:28:44,034 THIS HAS TURNED OUT TO BE THE WORST DAY EVER, 530 00:28:44,034 --> 00:28:46,896 AND I JUST WANT IT TO BE OVER WITH NOW. 531 00:28:53,827 --> 00:28:56,241 Christian: WE NEED SOMETHING BIGGER, SEAT-WISE. 532 00:28:56,241 --> 00:29:00,034 LIKE A JEEP? 533 00:29:00,034 --> 00:29:01,931 [ SNIFFLING ] 534 00:29:01,931 --> 00:29:03,793 -NO REASON TO CRY. -I'M UPSET. 535 00:29:03,793 --> 00:29:05,793 YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT JUST HAPPENED TO ME. 536 00:29:05,793 --> 00:29:09,551 WELL, I GOT TO USE THE RESTROOM. JUST HANG OUT FOR A SECOND. 537 00:29:12,000 --> 00:29:14,586 [ SOBBING ] 538 00:29:14,586 --> 00:29:22,655 ♪♪ 539 00:29:22,655 --> 00:29:30,758 ♪♪ 540 00:29:30,758 --> 00:29:38,827 ♪♪ 541 00:29:38,827 --> 00:29:46,896 ♪♪ 542 00:29:46,896 --> 00:29:49,620 I'M IN SO MUCH PAIN. 543 00:29:49,620 --> 00:29:52,896 MY LEGS ARE SO SWOLLEN, AND I'M REALLY WORRIED 544 00:29:52,896 --> 00:29:55,965 THAT MY LYMPHEDEMA WILL SWELL EVEN MORE. 545 00:29:55,965 --> 00:29:58,310 I FEEL LIKE MY JEANS ARE ABOUT TO RIP OFF 546 00:29:58,310 --> 00:30:00,827 BECAUSE THEY'RE SO TIGHT ON MY LEGS. 547 00:30:00,827 --> 00:30:02,551 I'M SCARED ABOUT MY LEGS, 548 00:30:02,551 --> 00:30:06,482 AND I JUST DON'T WANT TO GET ANOTHER INFECTION 549 00:30:06,482 --> 00:30:08,517 AND END UP IN THE HOSPITAL. 550 00:30:08,517 --> 00:30:13,241 ♪♪ 551 00:30:13,241 --> 00:30:15,068 I'M SO SCARED. 552 00:30:15,068 --> 00:30:20,827 ♪♪ 553 00:30:20,827 --> 00:30:26,620 ♪♪ 554 00:30:26,620 --> 00:30:30,689 THIS HAS BEEN ONE OF THE MOST HORRIBLE EXPERIENCES OF MY LIFE, 555 00:30:30,689 --> 00:30:33,034 AND I JUST WANT IT TO BE OVER. 556 00:30:33,034 --> 00:30:42,413 ♪♪ 557 00:30:42,413 --> 00:30:51,827 ♪♪ 558 00:30:51,827 --> 00:30:54,482 I JUST WANT TO GET TO THE HOTEL NOW. 559 00:30:54,482 --> 00:30:56,137 I DON'T EVEN CARE ABOUT EATING, 560 00:30:56,137 --> 00:31:00,103 EVEN THOUGH I'VE HARDLY HAD ANYTHING ALL DAY. 561 00:31:00,103 --> 00:31:02,137 I NEED TO HAVE SOMEWHERE WHERE I CAN LIE DOWN 562 00:31:02,137 --> 00:31:03,724 AND ELEVATE MY LEGS 563 00:31:03,724 --> 00:31:06,655 SO I CAN TRY TO GET THE SWELLING TO GO DOWN. 564 00:31:06,655 --> 00:31:08,620 WHEN I PUT TOO MUCH PRESSURE ON MY LYMPHEDEMA, 565 00:31:08,620 --> 00:31:11,689 IT CAN MAKE IT FLARE UP AND SWELL A LOT. 566 00:31:11,689 --> 00:31:14,724 AND IF THAT HAPPENS AND THE SKIN STARTS TO CRACK AT ALL 567 00:31:14,724 --> 00:31:16,655 OR IF I EVEN GET A SMALL CUT, 568 00:31:16,655 --> 00:31:19,517 I CAN GET AN INFECTION THAT CAN BE REALLY BAD FOR ME, 569 00:31:19,517 --> 00:31:22,310 AND THE LAST THING I NEED RIGHT NOW TO END THIS TRIP 570 00:31:22,310 --> 00:31:24,965 IS TO END UP IN THE HOSPITAL FOR MONTHS. 571 00:31:24,965 --> 00:31:27,344 THAT WOULD BE JUST THE PERFECT CRAPPY ENDING 572 00:31:27,344 --> 00:31:29,448 TO THE WORST TRIP OF MY LIFE. 573 00:31:29,448 --> 00:31:39,172 ♪♪ 574 00:31:39,172 --> 00:31:41,517 THANK GOD WE'RE HERE. 575 00:31:41,517 --> 00:31:44,172 IF I CAN JUST GET SOME REST AND RECOVER SOME, 576 00:31:44,172 --> 00:31:48,827 TOMORROW WILL HOPEFULLY MAKE THIS ALL WORTH IT. 577 00:31:48,827 --> 00:31:51,000 Christian: IT'S VERY FRUSTRATING TO SEE MAJA STRUGGLE. 578 00:31:51,000 --> 00:31:53,827 IT MAKES ME FEEL REALLY BAD. 579 00:31:53,827 --> 00:31:56,103 BUT I'M HAPPY THAT MAJA'S TAKING THE STEPS 580 00:31:56,103 --> 00:31:59,172 AND GONNA GO SEE DR. NOW TOMORROW. 581 00:31:59,172 --> 00:32:02,931 ♪♪ 582 00:32:02,931 --> 00:32:06,344 I NEED THIS OPPORTUNITY. 583 00:32:06,344 --> 00:32:09,241 I CAN'T FALTER ON IT. 584 00:32:09,241 --> 00:32:11,827 MM-HMM. 585 00:32:11,827 --> 00:32:15,310 Maja: I JUST HOPE I CAN GET THE HELP I NEED TO SAVE MY LIFE. 586 00:32:15,310 --> 00:32:22,655 ♪♪ 587 00:32:22,655 --> 00:32:25,482 CHRISTIAN AND I ARE HEADED TO SEE DR. NOW 588 00:32:25,482 --> 00:32:27,206 FOR MY FIRST APPOINTMENT. 589 00:32:27,206 --> 00:32:29,758 AFTER RESTING SOME, I'M FEELING A LITTLE BETTER, 590 00:32:29,758 --> 00:32:32,344 BUT NOT A LOT, TO BE HONEST. 591 00:32:32,344 --> 00:32:35,103 ♪♪ 592 00:32:35,103 --> 00:32:38,862 MY LYMPHEDEMA IS STILL A LITTLE SWOLLEN, 593 00:32:38,862 --> 00:32:41,344 SO I'M NERVOUS THAT MY SWELLING WAS GONNA MAKE 594 00:32:41,344 --> 00:32:42,862 MY WEIGH-IN HIGHER TODAY, 595 00:32:42,862 --> 00:32:46,137 WITH ALL THE FOOD I'M RETAINING IN IT. 596 00:32:46,137 --> 00:32:49,034 SO I JUST HOPE DR. NOW TAKES ME ON AS A PATIENT 597 00:32:49,034 --> 00:32:52,275 AND THINKS I'M SOMEONE HE CAN HELP. 598 00:32:52,275 --> 00:32:54,724 BUT THERE'S ALWAYS THAT FEAR THAT HE COULD FIND SOMETHING 599 00:32:54,724 --> 00:32:58,551 THAT MEANS HE CAN'T HELP ME. 600 00:32:58,551 --> 00:33:01,206 MAJA RADANOVIC. 601 00:33:01,206 --> 00:33:05,172 AND I'M ALSO NERVOUS TO FIND OUT HOW MUCH I WEIGH. 602 00:33:05,172 --> 00:33:07,068 IT'S BEEN YEARS SINCE I'VE BEEN ON A SCALE, 603 00:33:07,068 --> 00:33:10,137 AND I KNOW I'M AT LEAST IN THE 600s. 604 00:33:10,137 --> 00:33:13,068 I'M JUST HOPING IT'S NOT A LOT MORE THAN THAT. 605 00:33:13,068 --> 00:33:20,344 ♪♪ 606 00:33:20,344 --> 00:33:23,275 IT'S REALLY EMBARRASSING TO SEE A NUMBER LIKE THAT 607 00:33:23,275 --> 00:33:26,344 AND TO KNOW IT'S MY ACTUAL WEIGHT 608 00:33:26,344 --> 00:33:28,896 AND TO REALIZE JUST HOW OUT OF CONTROL 609 00:33:28,896 --> 00:33:30,448 I LET MY WEIGHT GET 610 00:33:30,448 --> 00:33:34,206 AND HOW MUCH FURTHER AWAY I AM FROM BEING WHERE I NEED TO BE. 611 00:33:34,206 --> 00:33:37,758 SO I FEEL AWFUL RIGHT NOW AND LIKE SUCH A FAILURE. 612 00:33:37,758 --> 00:33:40,896 AND I KNOW I DESPERATELY NEED HELP, 613 00:33:40,896 --> 00:33:44,241 BECAUSE MY BODY CAN'T TAKE IT GETTING ANY WORSE. 614 00:33:44,241 --> 00:33:47,379 [ KNOCK, DOOR OPENS ] 615 00:33:47,379 --> 00:33:48,931 -HELLO. -HI. 616 00:33:48,931 --> 00:33:51,275 I'M DR. NOWZARADAN. HOW ARE YOU DOING? 617 00:33:51,275 --> 00:33:53,965 -GOOD. HI. I'M MAJA. -NICE TO MEET YOU. 618 00:33:53,965 --> 00:33:56,896 -CHRISTIAN. -NICE TO MEET YOU. 619 00:33:56,896 --> 00:34:00,379 ALL RIGHT, SO, WHAT BROUGHT YOU DOWN TO HOUSTON? 620 00:34:00,379 --> 00:34:02,448 -YOU. -ME? 621 00:34:02,448 --> 00:34:04,896 OKAY. LET'S SEE WHAT WE CAN DO FOR YOU. 622 00:34:04,896 --> 00:34:10,241 SO, YOU ARE 33. AND YOU WEIGH 689. 623 00:34:10,241 --> 00:34:11,586 YES. 624 00:34:11,586 --> 00:34:13,689 WHAT IS THE HIGHEST WEIGHT YOU HAVE BEEN? 625 00:34:13,689 --> 00:34:15,172 THIS WEIGHT. 626 00:34:15,172 --> 00:34:17,000 -THIS IS IT? -YES. 627 00:34:17,000 --> 00:34:20,137 OKAY, THEN, HOW DO YOU THINK YOU GOT TO THIS WEIGHT? 628 00:34:20,137 --> 00:34:24,689 PROBABLY LARGE PORTIONS AND NOT EXERCISING. 629 00:34:24,689 --> 00:34:27,793 OKAY. SO, YOU TELL ME THAT'S IT -- 630 00:34:27,793 --> 00:34:31,448 JUST LARGE PORTIONS AND LIMITED ACTIVITY? 631 00:34:31,448 --> 00:34:33,586 NOTHING ELSE? 632 00:34:33,586 --> 00:34:35,103 -NO. -OKAY. 633 00:34:35,103 --> 00:34:38,655 SO, WHAT IS YOUR EATING HABIT LOOK LIKE? 634 00:34:38,655 --> 00:34:41,586 TWO TO THREE LARGE MEALS A DAY. 635 00:34:44,482 --> 00:34:46,862 -AND ANY SNACK IN BETWEEN? -NO. 636 00:34:46,862 --> 00:34:51,827 -WHAT DO YOU DRINK? -WATER, JUICE, COFFEE. 637 00:34:51,827 --> 00:34:54,965 SO, ACCORDING TO WHAT YOU TELL ME, YOU DON'T SNACK, 638 00:34:54,965 --> 00:34:56,551 YOU DON'T EAT JUNK FOOD, 639 00:34:56,551 --> 00:34:58,586 YOU DON'T REALLY DRINK ANYTHING BAD. 640 00:34:58,586 --> 00:35:00,793 YOU JUST OVEREAT SOME. 641 00:35:00,793 --> 00:35:05,034 AND SOMEHOW THAT GOT YOU UP TO BEING ALMOST 700 POUNDS. 642 00:35:05,034 --> 00:35:08,448 DOES THAT SOUND LIKE IT MAKES MUCH SENSE TO YOU? 643 00:35:08,448 --> 00:35:10,724 BECAUSE IT'S NOT MAKING MUCH SENSE TO ME. 644 00:35:10,724 --> 00:35:13,655 SO, PART OF YOUR PROBLEM IS THAT YOU'RE USED TO LYING 645 00:35:13,655 --> 00:35:15,068 ABOUT YOUR EATING HABITS. 646 00:35:15,068 --> 00:35:18,068 BUT THE SCALE DOESN'T LIE, SO YOU SHOULDN'T, EITHER. 647 00:35:18,068 --> 00:35:21,000 THIS ISN'T GONNA WORK IF YOU'RE NOT HONEST WITH ME. 648 00:35:21,000 --> 00:35:23,000 GOT IT? OKAY. 649 00:35:23,000 --> 00:35:24,344 HOW ABOUT CHRISTIAN? 650 00:35:24,344 --> 00:35:26,586 IS HE HELPING YOU WITH EATING HABIT 651 00:35:26,586 --> 00:35:29,379 OR IS HE ENABLING YOU, 652 00:35:29,379 --> 00:35:31,862 OR HE'S SUPPORTING YOUR WEIGHT LOSS OR WHAT? 653 00:35:31,862 --> 00:35:35,344 OH, HE'S 100% SUPPORTIVE OF ANY WEIGHT LOSS. 654 00:35:35,344 --> 00:35:39,172 SO YOU'RE A CLOSET EATER, THEN, IF HE'S NOT BRINGING YOU FOOD. 655 00:35:39,172 --> 00:35:43,034 AND YOU LIE ABOUT WHAT YOU EAT, AND THAT HAS TO STOP HERE TODAY 656 00:35:43,034 --> 00:35:46,068 IF YOU'RE TRULY READY TO GET HELP AND CHANGE. 657 00:35:46,068 --> 00:35:47,482 OKAY. 658 00:35:47,482 --> 00:35:49,448 SO, DO YOU THINK YOU'RE CAPABLE OF BEING HONEST 659 00:35:49,448 --> 00:35:52,034 ABOUT THESE THINGS?ABSOLUTELY. 660 00:35:52,034 --> 00:35:54,172 ALL RIGHT, THEN. NO MORE LYING. 661 00:35:54,172 --> 00:35:56,931 IF YOU DO THIS, WHAT IS YOUR GOAL? 662 00:35:56,931 --> 00:36:00,103 I DON'T REALLY HAVE A PHYSICAL NUMBER GOAL. 663 00:36:00,103 --> 00:36:03,310 I JUST WANT TO BE ABLE TO EXTEND MY LIFE 664 00:36:03,310 --> 00:36:07,482 AND MY QUALITY OF LIFE AND TO BE HEALTHY. 665 00:36:07,482 --> 00:36:09,310 WELL, THAT IS A GOOD GOAL. 666 00:36:09,310 --> 00:36:12,000 I'M GONNA START YOU ON A 1,200-CALORIE-A-DAY, 667 00:36:12,000 --> 00:36:14,034 HIGH-PROTEIN, LOW-CARB DIET, 668 00:36:14,034 --> 00:36:16,655 AND I'M GONNA GIVE YOU A LIST OF FOOD 669 00:36:16,655 --> 00:36:18,206 THAT YOU NEED TO AVOID, 670 00:36:18,206 --> 00:36:22,482 AND THE ONES YOU LIKE TO SNEAK ARE NO LONGER PART OF YOUR DIET. 671 00:36:22,482 --> 00:36:24,862 AND I WANT YOU TO LOSE AT LEAST 100 POUNDS 672 00:36:24,862 --> 00:36:26,551 OVER THE NEXT TWO MONTHS. 673 00:36:26,551 --> 00:36:29,068 YOU STICK WITH THE 1,200 DIET, 674 00:36:29,068 --> 00:36:31,689 YOU'RE GONNA LOSE THAT IN NO TIME. 675 00:36:31,689 --> 00:36:34,034 YOU THINK YOU CAN DO THAT? 676 00:36:34,034 --> 00:36:36,103 -I'M GOING TO DO MY BEST. -OKAY. 677 00:36:36,103 --> 00:36:39,000 WELL, YOU NEED TO UNDERSTAND IF YOU DON'T DO THIS 678 00:36:39,000 --> 00:36:41,241 YOU'RE LIKELY NOT GONNA LIVE FOR MORE 679 00:36:41,241 --> 00:36:43,586 THAN TWO TO THREE YEARS AT THIS POINT, 680 00:36:43,586 --> 00:36:46,034 SO THIS IS LIFE-AND-DEATH FOR YOU. 681 00:36:46,034 --> 00:36:47,586 OKAY. 682 00:36:47,586 --> 00:36:50,413 SO IF YOU'RE GONNA DO YOUR BEST, I SUGGEST YOU TRY HARD. 683 00:36:50,413 --> 00:36:51,965 -OKAY. -OKAY. 684 00:36:51,965 --> 00:36:55,000 YOU CAN DO THIS, MAJA, IF YOU'RE REALLY READY TO CHANGE. 685 00:36:55,000 --> 00:36:58,310 IF YOU DON'T WANT TO CHANGE AND YOU EXPECT US 686 00:36:58,310 --> 00:37:01,103 TO DO ALL THE WORK FOR YOU -- NEVER GONNA HAPPEN. 687 00:37:01,103 --> 00:37:04,172 -MM-HMM. -THAT MAKE SENSE TO YOU? 688 00:37:04,172 --> 00:37:05,448 I HOPE SO. 689 00:37:05,448 --> 00:37:07,620 NO, I'M READY TO PUT IN THE WORK, DR. NOW. 690 00:37:07,620 --> 00:37:12,793 OKAY. WELL, THAT CAN BE THE IMPORTANT FACTOR, OKAY? 691 00:37:12,793 --> 00:37:15,172 I HAVE A REALLY GOOD SUPPORT SYSTEM. 692 00:37:15,172 --> 00:37:18,137 CHRISTIAN -- HE'S THE ONE WHO EVEN THOUGHT ABOUT, 693 00:37:18,137 --> 00:37:21,862 LIKE, HAVING ME CONTACT YOU AND REACH OUT FOR HELP. 694 00:37:21,862 --> 00:37:23,241 WELL, THAT'S GREAT. 695 00:37:23,241 --> 00:37:26,000 CHRISTIAN, MAKE SURE YOU SUPPORT HER HOW SHE NEEDS. 696 00:37:26,000 --> 00:37:27,620 YOU GOT IT? 697 00:37:27,620 --> 00:37:29,206 -I GOT A QUESTION. -YEAH? 698 00:37:29,206 --> 00:37:31,275 WHAT'S THE MOST WEIGHT YOU'VE SEEN SOMEONE LOSE 699 00:37:31,275 --> 00:37:34,379 ON A 1,200-CALORIE IN ONE MONTH? 700 00:37:34,379 --> 00:37:37,413 -120 POUNDS. -REALLY? IN ONE MONTH? 701 00:37:37,413 --> 00:37:39,241 -YEAH. -WOW. 702 00:37:39,241 --> 00:37:42,448 -YEAH. -THAT'S -- WOW. 703 00:37:42,448 --> 00:37:45,724 BLOWN AWAY BY THAT. THAT'S CRAZY. YEAH. 704 00:37:45,724 --> 00:37:47,586 SO 100 POUNDS IN TWO MONTHS 705 00:37:47,586 --> 00:37:49,586 SHOULD BE NO PROBLEM FOR YOU, MAJA. 706 00:37:49,586 --> 00:37:51,793 YOU CAN LOSE THAT. 707 00:37:51,793 --> 00:37:53,896 WILL THERE BE A SHOCK TO HER SYSTEM? 708 00:37:53,896 --> 00:37:56,310 LIKE, JUST IMMEDIATELY -- JUST -- 709 00:37:56,310 --> 00:38:00,413 LET'S SAY SHE JUST IMMEDIATELY GOES IN 1,200-CALORIE. 710 00:38:00,413 --> 00:38:02,275 THE SYSTEM IS PUSHED TO THE LIMIT, 711 00:38:02,275 --> 00:38:04,241 AND THEN WE'RE GONNA TAKE A LOAD OFF OF IT. 712 00:38:04,241 --> 00:38:05,517 -OH, ALL RIGHT. OKAY. -OKAY? 713 00:38:05,517 --> 00:38:07,448 -I GET IT. YEAH. -IT'S IN REVERSE. 714 00:38:07,448 --> 00:38:09,896 -YEAH. -SO, STICK WITH THIS DIET, MAJA, 715 00:38:09,896 --> 00:38:13,034 AND I'LL SEE YOU BOTH SOON, ALL RIGHT? 716 00:38:13,034 --> 00:38:15,000 -NICE TO MEET YOU. -NICE TO MEET YOU, TOO. 717 00:38:15,000 --> 00:38:17,000 -NICE TO MEET YOU. -THANK YOU. 718 00:38:17,000 --> 00:38:18,862 ALL RIGHT. 719 00:38:18,862 --> 00:38:23,241 ♪♪ 720 00:38:23,241 --> 00:38:26,448 I'M REALLY HOPING THAT MAJA IS AS SERIOUS 721 00:38:26,448 --> 00:38:29,517 ABOUT HER HEALTH AS SHE CLAIMS. 722 00:38:29,517 --> 00:38:32,103 BUT I HAVE A LOT OF CONCERNS ABOUT THAT RIGHT NOW. 723 00:38:32,103 --> 00:38:36,206 SHE'S CLEARLY USED TO LYING ABOUT WHAT SHE EATS, 724 00:38:36,206 --> 00:38:38,551 AND IF SHE INTENDS TO CONTINUE DOING THAT 725 00:38:38,551 --> 00:38:40,551 AND TRIES TO LIE TO ME AGAIN, 726 00:38:40,551 --> 00:38:44,241 THEN THERE WILL BE NO POINT IN HER DOING THIS PROGRAM. 727 00:38:44,241 --> 00:38:46,275 BUT HOPEFULLY SHE WILL SURPRISE ME 728 00:38:46,275 --> 00:38:48,517 WITH HER PROGRESS WHEN SHE RETURNS. 729 00:38:48,517 --> 00:38:50,862 BUT IF MAJA SETS HER MIND TO IT, 730 00:38:50,862 --> 00:38:53,310 SHE'S MORE THAN CAPABLE OF HITTING THIS GOAL 731 00:38:53,310 --> 00:38:56,965 AND LOSING THE WEIGHT SHE NEEDS OVER THE NEXT TWO MONTHS. 732 00:38:56,965 --> 00:38:59,379 I'M HOPING HER BOYFRIEND, CHRISTIAN, 733 00:38:59,379 --> 00:39:03,000 IS ACTUALLY THE SUPPORT SHE CLAIMS HE IS, 734 00:39:03,000 --> 00:39:06,068 BUT HE SEEMED A LITTLE DETACHED AND SKEPTICAL 735 00:39:06,068 --> 00:39:09,758 THAT MAJA WOULD BE ABLE TO LOSE THE WEIGHT SHE NEEDS. 736 00:39:09,758 --> 00:39:13,620 SO IF SHE HAS SOMEONE AT HOME WHO DOESN'T BELIEVE IN HER, 737 00:39:13,620 --> 00:39:17,103 IT'LL BE A WHOLE LOT HARDER FOR HER TO DO WHAT SHE NEEDS. 738 00:39:17,103 --> 00:39:19,827 ♪♪ 739 00:39:19,827 --> 00:39:23,241 Maja: I FEEL NUMB RIGHT NOW, BECAUSE I WANT TO DO THIS 740 00:39:23,241 --> 00:39:25,310 AND I'M WILLING TO TRY, 741 00:39:25,310 --> 00:39:28,413 BUT MY FEAR IS THAT THE GOAL IS JUST TOO BIG 742 00:39:28,413 --> 00:39:31,206 AND THAT I CAN'T DO IT. 743 00:39:31,206 --> 00:39:34,137 SO I FEEL DOOMED BEFORE I EVEN START... 744 00:39:34,137 --> 00:39:38,448 AND NO MATTER WHAT I DO OR HOW HARD I TRY, 745 00:39:38,448 --> 00:39:41,482 I'M JUST GONNA END UP EATING MYSELF TO DEATH. 746 00:39:47,482 --> 00:39:55,862 ♪♪ 747 00:39:55,862 --> 00:40:04,310 ♪♪ 748 00:40:04,310 --> 00:40:08,448 Maja: IT'S BEEN A WEEK SINCE I HAD MY FIRST APPOINTMENT WITH DR. NOW, 749 00:40:08,448 --> 00:40:10,965 AND FOR THE FIRST FEW DAYS AFTER I SAW HIM, 750 00:40:10,965 --> 00:40:13,517 I WAS FREAKING OUT A BIT, TRYING TO WRAP MY HEAD 751 00:40:13,517 --> 00:40:15,551 AROUND THE 100-POUND WEIGHT-LOSS GOAL 752 00:40:15,551 --> 00:40:18,241 HE WANTS ME TO LOSE OVER THE NEXT TWO MONTHS. 753 00:40:18,241 --> 00:40:21,275 IT JUST SEEMED IMPOSSIBLE. 754 00:40:21,275 --> 00:40:23,551 BUT AFTER WRESTLING WITH IT A LITTLE BIT, 755 00:40:23,551 --> 00:40:26,413 I DECIDED I'M GONNA WORK AS HARD AS I CAN TO LOSE 756 00:40:26,413 --> 00:40:30,724 AS MUCH AS I'M ABLE BEFORE MY NEXT APPOINTMENT. 757 00:40:30,724 --> 00:40:32,310 SO I'M EATING HEALTHY, 758 00:40:32,310 --> 00:40:34,551 BUT IT'S FUNNY BECAUSE EVEN THOUGH THESE AREN'T MEALS 759 00:40:34,551 --> 00:40:38,689 THAT I'M EMBARRASSED ABOUT, I'M SO USED TO EATING ALONE, 760 00:40:38,689 --> 00:40:41,413 AND I'M WONDERING HOW HARD IT'S GONNA BE TO CHANGE THAT. 761 00:40:41,413 --> 00:40:43,931 ♪♪ 762 00:40:43,931 --> 00:40:47,758 SO I'M PLANNING TO START HAVING MEALS WITH CHRISTIAN. 763 00:40:47,758 --> 00:40:49,413 BUT I THINK IT'S GONNA TAKE A LITTLE TIME 764 00:40:49,413 --> 00:40:51,793 FOR ME TO MAKE THAT ADJUSTMENT, 765 00:40:51,793 --> 00:40:55,586 BECAUSE I CAN'T MAKE ALL THE CHANGES I NEED OVERNIGHT. 766 00:40:55,586 --> 00:40:57,620 SO I MAY BE TAKING BABY STEPS, 767 00:40:57,620 --> 00:40:59,862 BUT AT LEAST I'M MOVING IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION. 768 00:40:59,862 --> 00:41:09,586 ♪♪ 769 00:41:09,586 --> 00:41:11,448 WALKING THROUGH THE AIRPORT 770 00:41:11,448 --> 00:41:14,206 SHOWED ME JUST HOW OUT OF SHAPE I AM, 771 00:41:14,206 --> 00:41:18,379 AND THAT'S DEFINITELY ONE THING I WANT TO MAKE SURE I IMPROVE. 772 00:41:18,379 --> 00:41:20,862 SO I'M GONNA GO START TO DO WORKOUTS AT THE GYM 773 00:41:20,862 --> 00:41:25,689 WITH THE GROUP OF LADIES I'VE KNOWN FOR A LONG TIME. 774 00:41:25,689 --> 00:41:29,068 SO, THAT'S EXCITING BUT ALSO A LITTLE SCARY, 775 00:41:29,068 --> 00:41:32,758 'CAUSE I DON'T WANT TO PUSH MYSELF TO MY LIMIT AGAIN. 776 00:41:32,758 --> 00:41:34,413 SO I KNOW I JUST NEED TO BE CAREFUL 777 00:41:34,413 --> 00:41:36,517 AND NOT OVERDO IT RIGHT NOW. 778 00:41:36,517 --> 00:41:42,344 ♪♪ 779 00:41:42,344 --> 00:41:48,137 ♪♪ 780 00:41:48,137 --> 00:41:49,965 -HELLO. -HI, MAJA! 781 00:41:49,965 --> 00:41:51,758 -HI! GOOD TO SEE YOU. -YOU TOO. 782 00:41:51,758 --> 00:41:53,758 THANKS FOR COMING. THANKS FOR COMING. 783 00:41:53,758 --> 00:41:55,620 -OF COURSE, OF COURSE. -THANKS FOR COMING. 784 00:41:55,620 --> 00:41:57,034 -YOU'RE WELCOME! -THANKS FOR HAVING ME. 785 00:41:57,034 --> 00:41:58,448 -ABSOLUTELY. -I'M SO GLAD YOU MADE IT. 786 00:41:58,448 --> 00:41:59,965 THANKS FOR COMING. SO PROUD OF YOU. 787 00:41:59,965 --> 00:42:01,379 -ALL RIGHT. -LET'S GET INTO IT. 788 00:42:01,379 --> 00:42:03,344 -IT'S BACK HERE. -ALL RIGHT. 789 00:42:03,344 --> 00:42:05,344 ♪♪ 790 00:42:05,344 --> 00:42:08,344 Maja: THIS IS WAY OUTSIDE MY COMFORT ZONE -- 791 00:42:08,344 --> 00:42:11,137 NOT JUST TO DO SOMETHING ACTIVE LIKE THIS, 792 00:42:11,137 --> 00:42:13,965 BUT TO BE DOING IT IN PUBLIC. 793 00:42:13,965 --> 00:42:16,793 I THINK IT JUST GOES TO SHOW HOW DETERMINED I AM 794 00:42:16,793 --> 00:42:19,241 AND HOW FAR I'VE ALREADY COME. 795 00:42:19,241 --> 00:42:22,517 Woman: ONE MORE, MAJA. LET'S DO IT. 796 00:42:22,517 --> 00:42:23,896 AND...TEN. 797 00:42:23,896 --> 00:42:26,379 -YAY! -GOOD JOB. GOOD. 798 00:42:26,379 --> 00:42:27,586 THAT WAS GREAT. 799 00:42:27,586 --> 00:42:30,206 -FOR REAL? -YEP. 800 00:42:30,206 --> 00:42:33,896 Maja: THIS ISN'T AS BAD AS I SAW IT IN MY HEAD. 801 00:42:33,896 --> 00:42:35,310 IT'S ENCOURAGING TO FEEL LIKE 802 00:42:35,310 --> 00:42:37,758 I CAN DO THINGS LIKE A NORMAL PERSON 803 00:42:37,758 --> 00:42:40,310 AND TO SEE MY HARD WORK PAYING OFF. 804 00:42:40,310 --> 00:42:46,241 ♪♪ 805 00:42:46,241 --> 00:42:48,275 [ BREATHING HEAVILY ] 806 00:42:48,275 --> 00:42:52,000 YEAH, I NEED TO COOL DOWN. LIKE, MY HEART'S REALLY RACING. 807 00:42:52,000 --> 00:42:53,862 MM-HMM. 808 00:42:53,862 --> 00:42:55,689 WHERE SHOULD I SIT? 809 00:42:55,689 --> 00:42:57,724 YEAH, 'CAUSE I'M FEELING NOT SO GOOD. 810 00:42:57,724 --> 00:43:01,620 OKAY, LET'S GO. 811 00:43:01,620 --> 00:43:03,689 I NEED TO SIT DOWN. 812 00:43:03,689 --> 00:43:07,034 ♪♪ 813 00:43:07,034 --> 00:43:09,724 I FEEL REALLY DIZZY. 814 00:43:09,724 --> 00:43:12,206 I THINK I WENT TOO FAR, 815 00:43:12,206 --> 00:43:16,034 'CAUSE IT FEELS LIKE IT WAS TOO MUCH. 816 00:43:16,034 --> 00:43:18,103 I THINK I'M GONNA PASS OUT. 817 00:43:18,103 --> 00:43:21,344 ♪♪ 818 00:43:21,344 --> 00:43:25,241 THIS IS REALLY DISCOURAGING NOW. 819 00:43:25,241 --> 00:43:27,793 I WAS SO OPTIMISTIC. 820 00:43:27,793 --> 00:43:29,965 AND I'M SCARED I DID SOMETHING TO MYSELF, 821 00:43:29,965 --> 00:43:32,068 BECAUSE I'M HAVING TROUBLE BREATHING 822 00:43:32,068 --> 00:43:35,655 AND MY HEAD IS KILLING ME. 823 00:43:35,655 --> 00:43:37,275 I JUST WANTED TO WORK MY HARDEST 824 00:43:37,275 --> 00:43:41,206 BECAUSE I ONLY HAVE A MONTH LEFT UNTIL I SEE DR. NOW AGAIN, 825 00:43:41,206 --> 00:43:44,862 AND I'M REALLY HOPING I DIDN'T SERIOUSLY HURT MYSELF TODAY. 826 00:43:44,862 --> 00:43:50,827 ♪♪ 827 00:43:50,827 --> 00:43:56,862 ♪♪ 828 00:43:56,862 --> 00:43:59,000 ME AND CHRISTIAN ARE BACK IN HOUSTON 829 00:43:59,000 --> 00:44:01,827 FOR MY FOLLOW-UP WITH DR. NOW, 830 00:44:01,827 --> 00:44:05,379 AND IT'S HARD NOT TO BE EXTREMELY NERVOUS RIGHT NOW, 831 00:44:05,379 --> 00:44:09,068 BECAUSE SO MUCH DEPENDS ON HOW THIS GOES TODAY 832 00:44:09,068 --> 00:44:11,551 AND WHETHER I SUCCEEDED OR FAILED. 833 00:44:11,551 --> 00:44:15,137 ♪♪ 834 00:44:15,137 --> 00:44:17,344 BUT THE HARDEST THING IS THAT I HAVE NO IDEA 835 00:44:17,344 --> 00:44:20,482 HOW I'VE DONE THESE PAST TWO MONTHS. 836 00:44:20,482 --> 00:44:24,862 I FEEL LIKE I'VE WORKED AS HARD I POSSIBLY COULD. 837 00:44:24,862 --> 00:44:27,827 I HAD SOME SETBACKS AT TIMES, 838 00:44:27,827 --> 00:44:31,206 BUT I'VE ALMOST COMPLETELY STUCK TO THE DIET. 839 00:44:31,206 --> 00:44:33,724 SO WHATEVER HAPPENS TODAY, I CAN AT LEAST FEEL GOOD 840 00:44:33,724 --> 00:44:35,896 ABOUT KNOWING I DID MY BEST. 841 00:44:35,896 --> 00:44:38,206 ♪♪ 842 00:44:38,206 --> 00:44:41,862 MAJA RADANOVIC. 843 00:44:41,862 --> 00:44:46,241 AT MY LAST APPOINTMENT, MY WEIGHT WAS 689. 844 00:44:46,241 --> 00:44:48,310 AND DR. NOW TOLD ME I NEEDED TO LOSE 100 POUNDS 845 00:44:48,310 --> 00:44:51,103 OVER THE NEXT TWO MONTHS. 846 00:44:51,103 --> 00:44:55,275 SO IF I DID THAT, I'LL BE AT LEAST DOWN TO 589 TODAY. 847 00:44:55,275 --> 00:44:58,793 BUT IT'S BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I'VE BEEN IN THE 500s. 848 00:44:58,793 --> 00:45:05,068 ♪♪ 849 00:45:05,068 --> 00:45:11,275 ♪♪ 850 00:45:11,275 --> 00:45:13,862 THAT'S AMAZING. 851 00:45:13,862 --> 00:45:17,344 I'M IN DISBELIEF THAT I ACTUALLY DID IT. 852 00:45:17,344 --> 00:45:19,586 I KNOW IT'S NOT EXACTLY 100 POUNDS, 853 00:45:19,586 --> 00:45:21,862 BUT LOSING THAT AMOUNT HAS TO BE ENOUGH FOR DR. NOW 854 00:45:21,862 --> 00:45:25,620 TO SEE HOW COMMITTED I AM. 855 00:45:25,620 --> 00:45:27,827 SO I'M REALLY EXCITED RIGHT NOW 856 00:45:27,827 --> 00:45:30,793 ♪♪ 857 00:45:30,793 --> 00:45:32,379 -HELLO. -HI. 858 00:45:32,379 --> 00:45:34,517 -HOW Y'ALL DOING? -GOOD. HOW ARE YOU? 859 00:45:34,517 --> 00:45:36,655 I'M GOOD, THANK YOU. ALL RIGHT. 860 00:45:36,655 --> 00:45:40,344 SO TODAY, YOU ARE AT 596, HUH? 861 00:45:40,344 --> 00:45:43,241 -YES. -YOU'VE LOST 93 POUNDS. 862 00:45:43,241 --> 00:45:45,275 NOT QUITE YOUR GOAL, BUT NOT BAD. 863 00:45:45,275 --> 00:45:48,689 AND THAT AMOUNT STILL SHOWS SOME DEDICATION FROM YOU. 864 00:45:48,689 --> 00:45:50,000 WAS THAT EASY? 865 00:45:50,000 --> 00:45:53,275 NO. NOT AT ALL. IT WAS VERY HARD. 866 00:45:53,275 --> 00:45:55,344 WELL, DESPITE THAT, YOU STUCK TO IT, HUH? 867 00:45:55,344 --> 00:45:57,482 -MM-HMM. -WHICH IS GOOD. 868 00:45:57,482 --> 00:46:00,758 WITH 100 POUNDS OFF YOU, CAN YOU TELL ANY IMPROVEMENT 869 00:46:00,758 --> 00:46:03,620 IN YOUR BREATHING OR WALKING OR ANYTHING? 870 00:46:03,620 --> 00:46:06,413 YES. UM, WHEN I WALKED IN THE AIRPORT, 871 00:46:06,413 --> 00:46:08,724 I DIDN'T STOP THIS TIME.MM-HMM. 872 00:46:08,724 --> 00:46:12,758 UM, AND I DEFINITELY FEEL LIGHTER ON MY FEET, 873 00:46:12,758 --> 00:46:15,413 AND I FEEL LIKE I HAVE MORE STAMINA. 874 00:46:15,413 --> 00:46:17,034 OKAY. GOOD. 875 00:46:17,034 --> 00:46:18,517 SINCE YOU LOST THAT WEIGHT, 876 00:46:18,517 --> 00:46:20,758 WE'RE GONNA APPROVE YOU FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 877 00:46:20,758 --> 00:46:23,310 -SOUNDS GOOD. -BUT TO DO THIS PROGRAM, 878 00:46:23,310 --> 00:46:26,655 YOU WILL NEED TO MOVE DOWN TO HOUSTON FOR AROUND A YEAR. 879 00:46:26,655 --> 00:46:28,586 SO, ARE YOU READY AND ABLE TO DO THAT? 880 00:46:28,586 --> 00:46:30,482 -MM-HMM. -THAT'S GOOD. 881 00:46:30,482 --> 00:46:34,103 SO, IS HE GONNA MOVE WITH YOU TO HOUSTON? 882 00:46:34,103 --> 00:46:35,965 -YEP. -MM-HMM. 883 00:46:35,965 --> 00:46:38,310 HE DIDN'T SOUND VERY SURE. 884 00:46:38,310 --> 00:46:40,413 HE'S NOT EXCITED FOR THE WEATHER. 885 00:46:40,413 --> 00:46:42,551 UM, WHAT'S WRONG WITH THE WEATHER? 886 00:46:42,551 --> 00:46:43,931 IT'S VERY HUMID HERE. 887 00:46:43,931 --> 00:46:45,896 -AND HOT. -AND HOT. 888 00:46:45,896 --> 00:46:47,827 YOU GET USED TO IT, TO HEAT. 889 00:46:47,827 --> 00:46:50,137 AND WE HAVE AIR-CONDITIONING. 890 00:46:50,137 --> 00:46:52,448 IT'S GONNA BE A BIG ADJUSTMENT FOR US. 891 00:46:52,448 --> 00:46:54,068 WELL, IT'S NOT FOREVER. 892 00:46:54,068 --> 00:46:55,862 AND THIS IS TO SAVE YOUR LIFE. 893 00:46:55,862 --> 00:46:57,896 SO I THINK THE SOONER YOU MOVE, 894 00:46:57,896 --> 00:47:00,862 THE SOONER WE GET YOU STARTED ON THE PROGRAM. 895 00:47:00,862 --> 00:47:02,931 SO, ONCE YOU BOTH MOVE DOWN HERE, 896 00:47:02,931 --> 00:47:05,620 AND AS LONG AS YOU KEEP MAKING GOOD PROGRESS, 897 00:47:05,620 --> 00:47:08,482 WE WILL MOVE AHEAD WITH YOUR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 898 00:47:08,482 --> 00:47:11,068 -I'M READY. -ALL RIGHT. THAT'S GREAT. 899 00:47:11,068 --> 00:47:13,172 I'M READY TO COMMIT TO EVERYTHING, SO... 900 00:47:13,172 --> 00:47:18,206 OKAY, WELL, DON'T TAKE A VICTORY LAP AND START GOING BACK 901 00:47:18,206 --> 00:47:21,103 AND EATING UNHEALTHY FOOD AGAIN, OKAY? 902 00:47:21,103 --> 00:47:22,275 -MM-HMM. -ALL RIGHT. 903 00:47:22,275 --> 00:47:24,034 GREAT. WELL, NICE TO SEE YOU AGAIN. 904 00:47:24,034 --> 00:47:26,068 NICE TO SEE YOU. THANK YOU SO MUCH. 905 00:47:26,068 --> 00:47:28,793 AND YOU'VE DONE GREAT JOB ON YOUR WEIGHT LOSS. 906 00:47:28,793 --> 00:47:30,172 -THANK YOU. -SEE YOU SOON. 907 00:47:30,172 --> 00:47:32,344 OKAY. 908 00:47:32,344 --> 00:47:34,103 ♪♪ 909 00:47:34,103 --> 00:47:36,482 Dr. Nowzaradan: MAJA'S PROGRESS THESE PAST FEW MONTHS 910 00:47:36,482 --> 00:47:38,620 IS A VERY PLEASANT SURPRISE. 911 00:47:38,620 --> 00:47:40,758 BUT THE FACT SHE DIDN'T QUITE MAKE IT TO HER GOAL 912 00:47:40,758 --> 00:47:43,068 MEANS SHE STILL HAS SOME HESITATION 913 00:47:43,068 --> 00:47:45,344 ABOUT GIVING UP FOOD, LIKE SHE NEEDS. 914 00:47:45,344 --> 00:47:47,965 SO PSYCHOTHERAPY IS GOING TO BE VERY IMPORTANT 915 00:47:47,965 --> 00:47:50,034 TO START WITH HER SOON AFTER SURGERY, 916 00:47:50,034 --> 00:47:53,379 AND I STILL HAVE SOME CONCERN ABOUT HER BOYFRIEND, CHRISTIAN. 917 00:47:53,379 --> 00:47:56,655 I'M GETTING THE IMPRESSION THAT HE THOUGHT MAJA WOULD FAIL, 918 00:47:56,655 --> 00:48:00,103 AND HE WASN'T EXPECTING HER TO MAKE IT TO THIS POINT. 919 00:48:00,103 --> 00:48:03,689 AND IF THAT TURNS OUT TO BE THE CASE, THEN MAJA'S SITUATION 920 00:48:03,689 --> 00:48:06,586 AND HER MOVE DOWN MAY GET MORE COMPLICATED. 921 00:48:06,586 --> 00:48:08,655 BUT HOPEFULLY, THERE WILL BE NO ISSUES 922 00:48:08,655 --> 00:48:12,931 AND MAJA WILL BE ABLE TO STAY ON TRACK. 923 00:48:12,931 --> 00:48:15,137 Maja: THIS HAS ALL JUST BLOWN MY MIND. 924 00:48:15,137 --> 00:48:17,517 BUT TO BE APPROVED FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY 925 00:48:17,517 --> 00:48:20,965 IS INCREDIBLE, AND I CAN'T WAIT FOR IT. 926 00:48:20,965 --> 00:48:23,206 SO ALL THE HARD WORK AND PAIN HAS BEEN WORTH IT, 927 00:48:23,206 --> 00:48:25,413 BECAUSE I DID IT. 928 00:48:25,413 --> 00:48:27,758 I KNOW MOVING DOWN HERE IS GONNA TAKE A LOT, 929 00:48:27,758 --> 00:48:30,448 AND IT WON'T BE EASY TO DO. 930 00:48:30,448 --> 00:48:33,827 BUT I'VE BEEN WAITING MY WHOLE LIFE FOR THIS, 931 00:48:33,827 --> 00:48:37,793 SO I'M READY TO DO WHATEVER IT TAKES TO GET US DOWN HERE. 932 00:48:37,793 --> 00:48:40,275 AND THE SOONER WE DO, THE SOONER I CAN GET SURGERY 933 00:48:40,275 --> 00:48:42,827 AND START THE WHOLE NEW LIFE I'M WORKING TOWARDS. 934 00:48:42,827 --> 00:48:44,862 AND I REALLY CAN'T WAIT. 935 00:48:44,862 --> 00:48:45,758 ♪♪ 936 00:48:50,034 --> 00:48:57,896 ♪♪ 937 00:48:57,896 --> 00:49:00,379 Maja: CHRISTIAN AND I HAVE BEEN WORKING VERY HARD 938 00:49:00,379 --> 00:49:03,379 TO GET EVERYTHING IN PLACE TO MAKE THE MOVE TO HOUSTON, 939 00:49:03,379 --> 00:49:05,413 AND WE'RE FINALLY HEADING THERE TODAY. 940 00:49:05,413 --> 00:49:07,862 AND RIGHT NOW, WE'RE HEADED OVER TO MY GRANDMA'S 941 00:49:07,862 --> 00:49:10,379 SO WE CAN LOAD SOME STUFF UP ON TOP OF THE CAR... 942 00:49:10,379 --> 00:49:13,448 AND THEN SAY GOODBYE TO MY GRANDMA AND MY MOM AND HEAD OUT. 943 00:49:13,448 --> 00:49:15,482 I'M WORRIED SEEING THEM RIGHT NOW 944 00:49:15,482 --> 00:49:19,241 IS GONNA MAKE LEAVING EVEN MORE EMOTIONAL FOR ME. 945 00:49:19,241 --> 00:49:21,241 MY GRANDMA, MY AUNT, AND MY MOM 946 00:49:21,241 --> 00:49:24,827 HAVE NEVER BEEN MORE THAN 10 OR 15 MINUTES FROM ME. 947 00:49:24,827 --> 00:49:26,793 SO LEAVING THEM IS A LOT HARDER 948 00:49:26,793 --> 00:49:29,517 THAN I REALIZED IT WAS GOING TO BE. 949 00:49:29,517 --> 00:49:34,103 IT'S BEEN STRESSFUL. FOR ME AND FOR CHRISTIAN, TOO. 950 00:49:34,103 --> 00:49:35,517 WE'VE BEEN FIGHTING A LOT, 951 00:49:35,517 --> 00:49:37,620 AND THAT HASN'T MADE IT ANY EASIER, EITHER. 952 00:49:37,620 --> 00:49:39,758 SO I'M JUST TRYING TO HOLD IT TOGETHER, 953 00:49:39,758 --> 00:49:44,655 AND I JUST WANT TO GET THE WHOLE MOVE OVER WITH AT THIS POINT. 954 00:49:44,655 --> 00:49:46,068 -HI. -HI, HONEY. 955 00:49:46,068 --> 00:49:47,448 HI, GUYS. 956 00:49:47,448 --> 00:49:49,068 -HOW ARE YOU? -WHERE'S CHRISTIAN? 957 00:49:49,068 --> 00:49:50,482 -HE'S COMING. -THERE HE IS. 958 00:49:50,482 --> 00:49:51,827 -OH, OKAY. -HI, CHRISTIAN. 959 00:49:51,827 --> 00:49:54,551 SIT DOWN. 960 00:49:54,551 --> 00:49:57,655 -WELL? -WELL, WHAT'S GOING ON? 961 00:49:57,655 --> 00:50:01,103 -WE'RE OUT OF THE APARTMENT. -OH, THANK GOD. 962 00:50:01,103 --> 00:50:03,448 CHRISTIAN, YOU READY TO GO? 963 00:50:03,448 --> 00:50:05,379 -YEAH. -OKAY. THAT'S GOOD, THEN. 964 00:50:05,379 --> 00:50:10,034 GOT IT ALL SQUARED UP, PACKED AWAY, GOT THE CAR PACKED. 965 00:50:10,034 --> 00:50:13,310 I HAD THAT STUFF IN STORAGE. I HAVE THE ROOF RACKS. 966 00:50:13,310 --> 00:50:15,724 WELL, I WISH YOU THE BEST. 967 00:50:15,724 --> 00:50:18,275 ♪♪ 968 00:50:18,275 --> 00:50:20,965 MAJA GOING TO HOUSTON IS DEFINITELY GONNA BE 969 00:50:20,965 --> 00:50:23,310 VERY DIFFICULT ON ALL OF US. 970 00:50:23,310 --> 00:50:26,000 IT'S GONNA BE THE FIRST TIME OUR FAMILY'S GONNA BE APART. 971 00:50:26,000 --> 00:50:28,689 BUT I KNOW SHE'S GOING TO GET THE HELP THAT SHE NEEDS, 972 00:50:28,689 --> 00:50:30,965 SO I'M VERY HAPPY FOR HER. 973 00:50:30,965 --> 00:50:33,103 -DRIVE CAREFUL, YOU GUYS. -YEAH. 974 00:50:35,068 --> 00:50:38,344 -OKAY. YEAH. -ALL RIGHT. 975 00:50:38,344 --> 00:50:40,862 YEAH, WE GOT TO PUT THE ROOF RACK ON NOW. 976 00:50:40,862 --> 00:50:43,241 Ana: OKAY. 977 00:50:45,172 --> 00:50:48,068 -ALL RIGHT. -GO DO YOUR THING. 978 00:50:48,068 --> 00:50:52,344 Maja: I NEVER REALLY KNOW WHAT TO EXPECT WHEN I SEE MY MOM. 979 00:50:52,344 --> 00:50:54,862 OUR RELATIONSHIP HAS GOTTEN BETTER OVER THE YEARS, 980 00:50:54,862 --> 00:50:56,965 AND SHE'S ACTUALLY GIVEN CHRISTIAN AND ME 981 00:50:56,965 --> 00:51:00,275 SOME MONEY TO MAKE THIS MOVE HAPPEN. 982 00:51:00,275 --> 00:51:04,103 SO I'M THANKFUL FOR HER SUPPORT, BUT I STILL NEVER KNOW 983 00:51:04,103 --> 00:51:06,758 IF SHE'S GONNA SAY SOMETHING TO ME TO HURT MY FEELINGS 984 00:51:06,758 --> 00:51:08,965 AND WE'RE JUST GONNA END UP FIGHTING. 985 00:51:08,965 --> 00:51:10,448 AND WITH HOW EMOTIONAL I AM, 986 00:51:10,448 --> 00:51:12,482 THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN TOO MUCH FOR ME. 987 00:51:12,482 --> 00:51:16,172 ♪♪ 988 00:51:16,172 --> 00:51:19,586 Ana: HONEY? I DON'T THINK I WANT TO STAY TILL THE END, 989 00:51:19,586 --> 00:51:22,482 BECAUSE THEN I'LL BE A BLUBBERING FOOL. 990 00:51:22,482 --> 00:51:23,931 WE'RE ALMOST DONE! 991 00:51:23,931 --> 00:51:25,862 HONEY, YOU STILL GOT STUFF IN THE HOUSE, 992 00:51:25,862 --> 00:51:27,379 AND IT'S GONNA TAKE A WHILE, 993 00:51:27,379 --> 00:51:31,482 SO I WANTED TO SAY MY GOODBYES NOW. 994 00:51:31,482 --> 00:51:33,931 I CANNOT ACCEPT THEM RIGHT NOW. I AM BUSY. 995 00:51:33,931 --> 00:51:35,862 I HATE DOING MULTIPLE THINGS. 996 00:51:35,862 --> 00:51:38,931 I MEAN, I HAVE TO FOCUS ON THIS, AND YOU'RE DOING THIS NOW. 997 00:51:38,931 --> 00:51:42,862 YES, I'M DOING IT NOW BECAUSE, THAT WAY, YOU'RE NOT GONNA CRY. 998 00:51:42,862 --> 00:51:47,620 AND YOU'RE GONNA BE OKAY, AND YOU'RE GONNA GET THE BEST HELP, 999 00:51:47,620 --> 00:51:50,482 AND I WILL SEE YOU IN A FEW MONTHS. 1000 00:51:50,482 --> 00:51:52,724 AND YOU'RE GONNA BE OKAY. STOP. 1001 00:51:52,724 --> 00:51:54,965 I CAN'T DO THIS RIGHT NOW, MOM! 1002 00:51:54,965 --> 00:51:56,482 -OKAY. IT'S ALL RIGHT. -I REALLY CAN'T. 1003 00:51:56,482 --> 00:51:59,586 I'M LEAVING. [BLEEP] YOU. 1004 00:51:59,586 --> 00:52:01,620 BECAUSE ALL SHE -- SHE CAN'T LEAVE! 1005 00:52:01,620 --> 00:52:04,137 THIS IS NOT THE PLAN! WE DIDN'T PLAN THIS, MOM! 1006 00:52:04,137 --> 00:52:06,103 MAJA, IT DOESN'T -- NOT EVERYTHING HAS TO BE PLANNED. 1007 00:52:06,103 --> 00:52:07,724 -THIS IS NOT THE TIME! -LIFE IS NOT PLANNED. 1008 00:52:07,724 --> 00:52:08,931 WE'RE DOING THIS NOW. 1009 00:52:08,931 --> 00:52:10,517 [ SPEAKING FOREIGN LANGUAGE ] 1010 00:52:10,517 --> 00:52:12,965 Ana: LIFE IS NOT PLANNED. THINGS HAPPEN. 1011 00:52:12,965 --> 00:52:16,206 MOM, STOP TALKING. JUST STOP TALKING. 1012 00:52:16,206 --> 00:52:19,896 YOU KNOW, THIS IS WHY WE HAVE FAMILY FIGHTS. 1013 00:52:19,896 --> 00:52:23,103 IT'S BECAUSE OF YOU. YOU WON'T CHANGE. 1014 00:52:23,103 --> 00:52:24,793 YOU'RE THE ONE MAKING IT TOUGH. 1015 00:52:24,793 --> 00:52:26,448 -NO, YOU -- -YOU ARE. 1016 00:52:26,448 --> 00:52:29,413 YOU'RE ALWAYS SAYING YOU HAVE TO WORK AND IT'S ABOUT MONEY. 1017 00:52:29,413 --> 00:52:30,862 Ana: DO YOU NEED MONEY? 1018 00:52:30,862 --> 00:52:33,655 MOM, YOU CAN'T JUST WAIT FIVE MINUTES FOR US TO GET THIS DONE? 1019 00:52:33,655 --> 00:52:37,586 [ SIGHS ] MAJA. NO. I GOT TO GO BACK TO WORK. 1020 00:52:37,586 --> 00:52:41,793 IT'S TIME TO GO TO WORK. SO YOU'LL BE OKAY. 1021 00:52:41,793 --> 00:52:43,620 -BE A BIG GIRL. -OKAY. 1022 00:52:43,620 --> 00:52:45,310 YOU'RE GONNA BE MY BIG GIRL. 1023 00:52:45,310 --> 00:52:47,827 OKAY. 1024 00:52:47,827 --> 00:52:50,310 CHRISTIAN? 1025 00:52:50,310 --> 00:52:52,655 IT'S AN ADVENTURE THAT YOU'RE GONNA BE ON. 1026 00:52:52,655 --> 00:52:54,000 Christian: YEP. 1027 00:52:54,000 --> 00:52:55,827 THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR TAKING CARE OF MAJA. 1028 00:52:55,827 --> 00:52:57,068 -YEP. -TIME TO GO TO WORK. 1029 00:52:57,068 --> 00:52:59,137 -I GOT BOTH JOBS TODAY. -ALL RIGHT. 1030 00:52:59,137 --> 00:53:01,965 -SO... -ALL RIGHT. BYE, MOM. 1031 00:53:01,965 --> 00:53:05,482 BYE, HONEY. 1032 00:53:05,482 --> 00:53:09,724 Maja: I SHOULD JUST KNOW BETTER AT THIS POINT. 1033 00:53:09,724 --> 00:53:12,206 THIS TYPE OF STUFF JUST MAKES ME FEEL LIKE I DID 1034 00:53:12,206 --> 00:53:15,862 WHEN I WAS A KID AND ATE TO FEEL BETTER, 1035 00:53:15,862 --> 00:53:18,482 SO THIS IS THE LAST THING I NEED. 1036 00:53:18,482 --> 00:53:20,827 -WE'RE ALL PACKED UP. -OKAY. 1037 00:53:20,827 --> 00:53:24,137 ♪♪ 1038 00:53:24,137 --> 00:53:28,103 -WE'RE ALL DONE. -OKAY. IF YOU'RE READY. 1039 00:53:28,103 --> 00:53:30,827 -YEAH. -GOODBYE. 1040 00:53:30,827 --> 00:53:32,275 BYE, BAKA. 1041 00:53:32,275 --> 00:53:35,344 [ SOBBING ] 1042 00:53:35,344 --> 00:53:38,620 YOU'RE GONNA BE OKAY. 1043 00:53:38,620 --> 00:53:41,413 [ Crying ] I AM SAD BECAUSE SHE'S GOING. 1044 00:53:41,413 --> 00:53:43,620 ♪♪ 1045 00:53:43,620 --> 00:53:48,482 I DON'T KNOW HOW SHE'S GONNA BE THERE, BUT SHE NEED TO GO. 1046 00:53:48,482 --> 00:53:51,103 ♪♪ 1047 00:53:51,103 --> 00:53:53,724 I LOVE YOU. THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING. 1048 00:53:53,724 --> 00:53:55,758 -GOOD LUCK. -OKAY. 1049 00:53:55,758 --> 00:53:57,896 -GOODBYE. -BYE. 1050 00:53:57,896 --> 00:54:00,551 BYE, BAKA. 1051 00:54:00,551 --> 00:54:02,551 [ MAJA SOBBING ] 1052 00:54:02,551 --> 00:54:05,896 ♪♪ 1053 00:54:05,896 --> 00:54:08,896 Maja: THIS IS SO MUCH HARDER THAN I REALIZED IT WOULD BE. 1054 00:54:08,896 --> 00:54:11,586 -BYE. -BYE. 1055 00:54:11,586 --> 00:54:13,206 ♪♪ 1056 00:54:13,206 --> 00:54:15,448 BUT I KNOW THIS IS THE RIGHT CHOICE, 1057 00:54:15,448 --> 00:54:18,448 BECAUSE I CAN'T KEEP GOING LIKE THIS. 1058 00:54:18,448 --> 00:54:20,379 EVEN RIGHT NOW, WITH HOW I'M STRUGGLING 1059 00:54:20,379 --> 00:54:23,586 WITH WANTING TO GO EAT SOMETHING I SHOULDN'T JUST TO FEEL BETTER, 1060 00:54:23,586 --> 00:54:25,482 SHOWS ME HOW MUCH I NEED TO DO THIS 1061 00:54:25,482 --> 00:54:28,655 AND HOW IMPORTANT IT IS I GET SURGERY. 1062 00:54:28,655 --> 00:54:30,620 THIS IS MY LAST CHANCE TO GET HELP, 1063 00:54:30,620 --> 00:54:32,413 AND I HAVE TO TAKE IT. 1064 00:54:37,103 --> 00:54:42,448 ♪♪ 1065 00:54:42,448 --> 00:54:47,896 ♪♪ 1066 00:54:47,896 --> 00:54:50,655 Maja: CHRISTIAN AND I HAVE MADE IT TO HOUSTON. 1067 00:54:50,655 --> 00:54:53,137 ♪♪ 1068 00:54:53,137 --> 00:54:57,068 IT TOOK US THREE DAYS TO GET HERE. 1069 00:54:57,068 --> 00:54:59,482 AND TO MAKE THAT TIME DRIVING 2,300 MILES, 1070 00:54:59,482 --> 00:55:02,758 I PRETTY MUCH DROVE ALL DAY NONSTOP. 1071 00:55:02,758 --> 00:55:04,689 SO I'M REALLY SORE AT THIS POINT. 1072 00:55:04,689 --> 00:55:08,379 BUT I JUST WANTED TO GET HERE AS QUICKLY AS POSSIBLE. 1073 00:55:08,379 --> 00:55:10,620 BUT AFTER THIS TRIP, I'M A LITTLE CONCERNED 1074 00:55:10,620 --> 00:55:13,000 BECAUSE IT WAS REALLY HARD TO STICK TO MY DIET 1075 00:55:13,000 --> 00:55:14,689 WHILE TRAVELING, 1076 00:55:14,689 --> 00:55:18,758 AND I ATE A LOT OF FAST FOOD I SHOULDN'T HAVE. 1077 00:55:18,758 --> 00:55:20,482 IT WAS ALREADY GETTING HARDER, 1078 00:55:20,482 --> 00:55:23,068 BUT THE FIGHT WITH MY MOM RIGHT BEFORE I LEFT 1079 00:55:23,068 --> 00:55:25,517 WAS NOT WHAT I NEEDED BEFORE DOING SOMETHING 1080 00:55:25,517 --> 00:55:28,551 AS STRESSFUL AND SCARY AS MOVING TO A WHOLE OTHER CITY 1081 00:55:28,551 --> 00:55:32,275 HALFWAY ACROSS THE COUNTRY. 1082 00:55:32,275 --> 00:55:33,896 AND TO MAKE IT ALL EVEN WORSE, 1083 00:55:33,896 --> 00:55:35,896 ME AND CHRISTIAN HAVE BEEN FIGHTING A LOT -- 1084 00:55:35,896 --> 00:55:39,068 THE WHOLE WAY DOWN, PRACTICALLY. 1085 00:55:39,068 --> 00:55:41,448 I DON'T THINK HE'S BEING VERY SUPPORTIVE, 1086 00:55:41,448 --> 00:55:45,172 AND HE KEEPS MAKING COMMENTS ABOUT EVERY LITTLE THING. 1087 00:55:45,172 --> 00:55:50,655 BUT RIGHT NOW MY PLAN IS TO GET SETTLED INTO OUR NEW APARTMENT. 1088 00:55:50,655 --> 00:55:52,896 WE HAVE A COUCH AND BED BEING DELIVERED 1089 00:55:52,896 --> 00:55:55,379 SO WE HAVE PLACES TO REST, 1090 00:55:55,379 --> 00:55:58,103 AND WE DON'T HAVE A LOT WITH US. 1091 00:55:58,103 --> 00:56:01,517 Christian: SOME DELIVERIES? ALL RIGHT. 1092 00:56:01,517 --> 00:56:04,448 Maja: BUT ONCE I CAN REST AND COLLECT MYSELF, 1093 00:56:04,448 --> 00:56:07,482 I'M JUST GONNA TAKE TWO OR THREE WEEKS TO FOCUS ON THE DIET, 1094 00:56:07,482 --> 00:56:10,000 TO MAKE SURE I CAN UNDO WHATEVER PROGRESS 1095 00:56:10,000 --> 00:56:12,068 I MAY HAVE MESSED UP RECENTLY. 1096 00:56:12,068 --> 00:56:14,034 ♪♪ 1097 00:56:14,034 --> 00:56:16,000 THEN I'LL CALL DR. NOW AND LET HIM KNOW 1098 00:56:16,000 --> 00:56:18,517 WE'RE HERE AND I'M READY. 1099 00:56:18,517 --> 00:56:22,310 I DON'T WANT TO DO ANYTHING TO RISK LOSING MY SURGERY, 1100 00:56:22,310 --> 00:56:24,344 SO, THIS WAY, I'LL BE READY FOR THE WEIGH-IN 1101 00:56:24,344 --> 00:56:28,103 AND TO SHOW DR. NOW THAT I'M STILL WORKING HARD. 1102 00:56:28,103 --> 00:56:30,448 I JUST HOPE I'M ABLE TO HOLD OUT 1103 00:56:30,448 --> 00:56:33,965 AND KEEP RESISTING ALL THE TEMPTATION UNTIL THEN, 1104 00:56:33,965 --> 00:56:36,517 BECAUSE IT'S GETTING SO HARD. 1105 00:56:36,517 --> 00:56:40,137 OHH! OH, MAN! 1106 00:56:42,517 --> 00:56:50,275 ♪♪ 1107 00:56:50,275 --> 00:56:54,206 CHRISTIAN AND I ARE HEADED TO SEE DR. NOW AT HIS CLINIC. 1108 00:56:54,206 --> 00:56:56,310 AFTER STRUGGLING WITH THE DIET SOME, 1109 00:56:56,310 --> 00:56:59,034 MY PLAN WAS TO TRY AND WORK REALLY HARD FOR A FEW WEEKS 1110 00:56:59,034 --> 00:57:01,344 TO LOSE AS MUCH AS I COULD. 1111 00:57:01,344 --> 00:57:04,517 BUT IT HASN'T GONE EXACTLY AS I HOPED. 1112 00:57:04,517 --> 00:57:07,310 IT'S JUST BEEN A LOT HARDER. 1113 00:57:07,310 --> 00:57:09,896 ME AND CHRISTIAN HAVE BEEN FIGHTING A LOT. 1114 00:57:09,896 --> 00:57:11,344 HE'S NOT HAPPY HERE, 1115 00:57:11,344 --> 00:57:12,827 AND I DON'T UNDERSTAND 1116 00:57:12,827 --> 00:57:14,862 WHY HE CAN'T FOCUS ON WHY WE'RE DOING THIS 1117 00:57:14,862 --> 00:57:18,103 AND SUPPORT ME LIKE I NEED RIGHT NOW. 1118 00:57:18,103 --> 00:57:20,655 BUT HE FINALLY TOLD ME THE TRUTH. 1119 00:57:20,655 --> 00:57:23,517 HE NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD MAKE IT THIS FAR 1120 00:57:23,517 --> 00:57:26,172 AND WE'D HAVE TO BE DOWN HERE FOR A YEAR. 1121 00:57:26,172 --> 00:57:30,758 ♪♪ 1122 00:57:30,758 --> 00:57:34,137 SO HE WANTS TO MOVE BACK, AND I FEEL DEVASTATED 1123 00:57:34,137 --> 00:57:36,275 BECAUSE IT'S LIKE HE DOESN'T EVEN CARE 1124 00:57:36,275 --> 00:57:39,482 THAT THIS IS MY LAST CHANCE. 1125 00:57:39,482 --> 00:57:41,758 SO WHEN DR. NOW CALLED TO CHECK ON ME, 1126 00:57:41,758 --> 00:57:43,241 I TOLD HIM WE'D BEEN STRUGGLING 1127 00:57:43,241 --> 00:57:46,206 AND I'VE HAD A HARD TIME WITH THE DIET. 1128 00:57:46,206 --> 00:57:49,206 SO HE SAID HE NEEDED TO CHECK MY WEIGHT NOW. 1129 00:57:49,206 --> 00:57:51,206 BUT I'M SO SCARED ABOUT GETTING ON THE SCALE 1130 00:57:51,206 --> 00:57:53,551 AND THAT I MIGHT HAVE MESSED EVERYTHING UP. 1131 00:57:53,551 --> 00:57:55,344 ♪♪ 1132 00:57:55,344 --> 00:57:57,689 MAJA RADANOVIC. 1133 00:57:57,689 --> 00:57:59,137 ♪♪ 1134 00:57:59,137 --> 00:58:03,793 AT MY LAST DOCTOR'S VISIT, I LOST 93 POUNDS IN TWO MONTHS 1135 00:58:03,793 --> 00:58:06,724 TO GET DOWN TO 596. 1136 00:58:06,724 --> 00:58:09,413 AND WHEN DR. NOW APPROVED ME FOR SURGERY, 1137 00:58:09,413 --> 00:58:12,896 HE JUST TOLD ME THAT I NEEDED TO KEEP MAKING GOOD PROGRESS, 1138 00:58:12,896 --> 00:58:15,586 BUT HE DIDN'T GIVE ME A GOAL. 1139 00:58:15,586 --> 00:58:18,827 SO I REALLY HOPE I'VE DONE THAT. 1140 00:58:18,827 --> 00:58:21,344 BUT I AM SO SCARED TO FIND OUT. 1141 00:58:21,344 --> 00:58:30,862 ♪♪ 1142 00:58:30,862 --> 00:58:32,896 AT LEAST IT'S A LOSS, 1143 00:58:32,896 --> 00:58:36,103 BUT IT'S NOT ANYWHERE NEAR WHAT I WAS DOING. 1144 00:58:36,103 --> 00:58:40,379 SO I DON'T KNOW IF THIS IS GOING TO BE ENOUGH FOR DR. NOW OR NOT. 1145 00:58:40,379 --> 00:58:42,034 BUT DESPITE ALL I'M GOING THROUGH 1146 00:58:42,034 --> 00:58:45,275 AND THE STRESS OF EVERYTHING, I'VE STILL MADE SOME PROGRESS. 1147 00:58:45,275 --> 00:58:47,310 SO I FEEL LIKE THIS SHOULD BE ENOUGH 1148 00:58:47,310 --> 00:58:50,827 TO SHOW DR. NOW THAT I'M READY TO GET SURGERY. 1149 00:58:50,827 --> 00:58:52,931 [ KNOCK, DOOR OPENS ] 1150 00:58:52,931 --> 00:58:54,275 -HELLO. -HELLO. 1151 00:58:54,275 --> 00:58:56,344 -HOW Y'ALL DOING? -GOOD. HOW ARE YOU? 1152 00:58:56,344 --> 00:58:57,620 I'M DOING GOOD. 1153 00:58:57,620 --> 00:59:01,241 BUT, MAJA, YOU WERE CONCERNED YOU WEREN'T DOING SO WELL 1154 00:59:01,241 --> 00:59:03,310 AND THAT YOUR WEIGHT LOSS MAY HAVE SLIPPED 1155 00:59:03,310 --> 00:59:05,758 BECAUSE OF HOW YOU HAVE BEEN STRUGGLING. 1156 00:59:05,758 --> 00:59:08,206 AND THAT LOOKS TO BE EXACTLY THE CASE. 1157 00:59:08,206 --> 00:59:12,068 YOU'RE DOWN TO 587 TODAY, SO IN ONE MONTH, 1158 00:59:12,068 --> 00:59:14,620 YOU ONLY LOST 9 POUNDS.MM-HMM. 1159 00:59:14,620 --> 00:59:17,724 SO YOU HAVE GONE RIGHT BACK TO YOUR OLD WAYS. 1160 00:59:17,724 --> 00:59:19,034 SO, WHAT HAPPENED? 1161 00:59:19,034 --> 00:59:20,758 IT'S JUST BEEN A REALLY HARD TIME. 1162 00:59:20,758 --> 00:59:22,379 CHRISTIAN AND I HAVE BEEN FIGHTING A LOT. 1163 00:59:22,379 --> 00:59:26,241 AND GETTING DOWN HERE, DRIVING, WAS JUST REALLY STRESSFUL. 1164 00:59:26,241 --> 00:59:29,068 BUT I'VE BEEN TRYING TO EAT AS HEALTHY AS I CAN. 1165 00:59:29,068 --> 00:59:31,275 WELL, I UNDERSTAND THINGS ARE HARD. 1166 00:59:31,275 --> 00:59:34,137 BUT IF YOU USE THAT AS AN EXCUSE TO OVEREAT, 1167 00:59:34,137 --> 00:59:37,448 THEN YOU'RE NEVER GONNA LOSE WEIGHT, BECAUSE LIFE GETS HARD. 1168 00:59:37,448 --> 00:59:41,793 SO AS SYMPATHETIC AS I AM TO THAT, IT'S STILL NO EXCUSE. 1169 00:59:41,793 --> 00:59:45,965 SO AT THIS TIME, I'M CANCELING YOUR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1170 00:59:45,965 --> 00:59:47,379 BUT IF YOU WANT TO SHOW ME 1171 00:59:47,379 --> 00:59:49,655 THAT YOU'RE NOT GONNA MAKE ANY MORE EXCUSES 1172 00:59:49,655 --> 00:59:51,827 AND YOU'RE READY TO WORK HARD AGAIN, 1173 00:59:51,827 --> 00:59:54,965 THEN I WANT YOU TO LOSE 50 POUNDS OVER THE NEXT MONTH. 1174 00:59:54,965 --> 00:59:56,172 OKAY. 1175 00:59:56,172 --> 00:59:58,034 IF YOU DO THAT, I WILL APPROVE YOU AGAIN 1176 00:59:58,034 --> 00:59:59,827 AND WE WILL MOVE AHEAD. 1177 00:59:59,827 --> 01:00:01,275 BUT AT THIS POINT, 1178 01:00:01,275 --> 01:00:03,655 WITH HOW YOU'RE JUSTIFYING YOUR LACK OF PROGRESS, 1179 01:00:03,655 --> 01:00:06,310 YOU'RE NO LONGER IN A GOOD PLACE TO DO THAT. 1180 01:00:06,310 --> 01:00:09,655 GOT IT? YOU GONNA KEEP WORKING TO CHANGE THAT? 1181 01:00:09,655 --> 01:00:11,620 -YES. -I HOPE SO. 1182 01:00:11,620 --> 01:00:14,517 AND I HOPE YOU'RE GETTING ALL THE SUPPORT YOU NEED FROM CHRISTIAN. 1183 01:00:14,517 --> 01:00:17,448 HOW ABOUT IT? ARE YOU THERE FOR HER, CHRISTIAN? 1184 01:00:17,448 --> 01:00:18,862 HE'S HERE. 1185 01:00:18,862 --> 01:00:22,068 I'D RATHER HEAR IT FROM HIM. 1186 01:00:22,068 --> 01:00:26,068 YOU DON'T WANT TO ANSWER MY QUESTION, HUH? 1187 01:00:26,068 --> 01:00:28,620 ALL RIGHT. IT LOOKS LIKE YOU BOTH HAVE A LOT TO FIGURE OUT 1188 01:00:28,620 --> 01:00:30,758 IF YOU'RE GONNA GET BACK ON TRACK, MAJA. 1189 01:00:30,758 --> 01:00:33,827 AND I SUGGEST YOU TWO TAKE THIS FAR MORE SERIOUSLY, 1190 01:00:33,827 --> 01:00:35,965 BECAUSE YOU ARE AT THE CROSSROADS. 1191 01:00:35,965 --> 01:00:38,172 AND HOW YOU HANDLE IT ALL RIGHT NOW 1192 01:00:38,172 --> 01:00:41,620 WILL DETERMINE THE COURSE OF REST OF YOUR LIFE. 1193 01:00:41,620 --> 01:00:43,413 ANY QUESTIONS? ALL RIGHT. 1194 01:00:43,413 --> 01:00:45,724 I HOPE TO SEE YOU BOTH IN A MONTH. 1195 01:00:45,724 --> 01:00:47,931 AND 50 POUNDS LIGHTER, MAJA. 1196 01:00:47,931 --> 01:00:49,310 OKAY. 1197 01:00:49,310 --> 01:00:51,517 IF YOU NEED ANYTHING BEFORE THEN, LET ME KNOW. 1198 01:00:51,517 --> 01:00:53,551 -THANK YOU. -ALL RIGHT. 1199 01:00:53,551 --> 01:00:55,896 ♪♪ 1200 01:00:55,896 --> 01:00:59,620 Dr. Nowzaradan: I'M VERY DISAPPOINTED THAT MAJA FELL BACK INTO HER OLD HABITS 1201 01:00:59,620 --> 01:01:03,206 AND THAT SHE'S BACK TO USING FOOD TO COPE WITH HER EMOTIONS 1202 01:01:03,206 --> 01:01:06,827 SO QUICKLY AND AFTER DOING SO WELL. 1203 01:01:06,827 --> 01:01:10,275 IT'S CLEAR SHE'S STRUGGLING WITH A NUMBER OF THINGS RIGHT NOW, 1204 01:01:10,275 --> 01:01:13,000 BUT I THINK THE ISSUES BETWEEN HER AND CHRISTIAN 1205 01:01:13,000 --> 01:01:15,310 ARE WHAT'S AFFECTING HER THE MOST. 1206 01:01:15,310 --> 01:01:17,724 HE IS CLEARLY NOT VERY ENGAGED 1207 01:01:17,724 --> 01:01:21,862 AND SEEMS TO HAVE NO DESIRE TO BE HERE WITH HER RIGHT NOW. 1208 01:01:21,862 --> 01:01:25,793 SO THEIR RELATIONSHIP IS EXTREMELY STRAINED. 1209 01:01:25,793 --> 01:01:27,965 BUT AS HARD AS THAT MAY BE FOR HER, 1210 01:01:27,965 --> 01:01:30,310 MAJA IS GOING TO HAVE TO MAKE A CHOICE. 1211 01:01:30,310 --> 01:01:32,310 WHETHER SHE'S GONNA DO WHAT SHE NEEDS 1212 01:01:32,310 --> 01:01:34,000 TO CONTINUE MOVING FORWARD, 1213 01:01:34,000 --> 01:01:36,413 NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS IN HER LIFE, 1214 01:01:36,413 --> 01:01:38,310 AND HOW SHE CHOOSES TO RESPOND 1215 01:01:38,310 --> 01:01:42,379 WILL DETERMINE HOW SHE COMES OUT ON THE OTHER END OF THIS. 1216 01:01:42,379 --> 01:01:45,241 ♪♪ 1217 01:01:45,241 --> 01:01:47,551 I HAVE TO LOSE MORE WEIGHT NOW. 1218 01:01:47,551 --> 01:01:48,965 Christian: MM-HMM. 1219 01:01:48,965 --> 01:01:51,448 AND NOW I HAVE A WHOLE NOTHER MONTH OF [BLEEP] 1220 01:01:51,448 --> 01:01:53,758 I HAVE TO DO. 1221 01:01:53,758 --> 01:01:57,206 THIS IS YOUR FAULT! 1222 01:01:57,206 --> 01:01:59,413 "OH, YOU HAVEN'T LOST THAT MUCH." 1223 01:01:59,413 --> 01:02:02,620 YEAH, BECAUSE OF THE STRESS OF YOU TREATING ME LIKE THIS! 1224 01:02:02,620 --> 01:02:05,862 [ CRYING ] 1225 01:02:05,862 --> 01:02:08,586 I'M ABOUT TO [BLEEP] MELT DOWN! 1226 01:02:08,586 --> 01:02:11,827 DR. NOW ASKED YOU A SIMPLE QUESTION. 1227 01:02:11,827 --> 01:02:13,896 I'VE ANSWERED QUESTIONS IN THE PAST. 1228 01:02:13,896 --> 01:02:17,275 I CAN TAKE A DAY OFF. 1229 01:02:17,275 --> 01:02:19,758 I [BLEEP] HATE YOU! 1230 01:02:19,758 --> 01:02:22,620 I [BLEEP] HATE YOU FOR DOING THIS TO ME, CHRISTIAN! 1231 01:02:22,620 --> 01:02:25,275 WHY CAN'T YOU JUST ANSWER THE [BLEEP] QUESTIONS?! 1232 01:02:25,275 --> 01:02:27,068 UGH! 1233 01:02:27,068 --> 01:02:29,517 YOU'RE COSTING ME MY WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, 1234 01:02:29,517 --> 01:02:31,172 AND YOU'RE RUINING EVERYTHING! 1235 01:02:31,172 --> 01:02:33,310 NO. 1236 01:02:33,310 --> 01:02:37,068 DAMN IT, CHRISTIAN! STOP! STOP. 1237 01:02:37,068 --> 01:02:41,000 ♪♪ 1238 01:02:41,000 --> 01:02:42,862 I'LL ANSWER QUESTIONS ON ANOTHER DAY, BUT I JUST -- 1239 01:02:42,862 --> 01:02:44,379 I HAVE THE RIGHT TO NOT ANSWER QUESTIONS. 1240 01:02:44,379 --> 01:02:47,965 NO, YOU DO NOT HAVE THE [BLEEP] RIGHT WHEN IT COMES TO MY LIFE! 1241 01:02:47,965 --> 01:02:49,379 -OKAY. -MOM! 1242 01:02:49,379 --> 01:02:53,379 CHRISTIAN'S [BLEEP] EVERYTHING UP IN THE DOCTOR'S OFFICE! 1243 01:02:53,379 --> 01:02:55,206 WELL... 1244 01:02:55,206 --> 01:02:58,172 NO! MOM! MOM! 1245 01:02:58,172 --> 01:03:00,103 [ SOBBING ] MOM. 1246 01:03:00,103 --> 01:03:05,862 I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. 1247 01:03:05,862 --> 01:03:08,379 HE'S [BLEEP] WITH MY LIFE. 1248 01:03:08,379 --> 01:03:09,862 YES, MOM. HE'S -- YES. 1249 01:03:09,862 --> 01:03:11,862 HERE. MY MOM WANTS TO TALK TO YOU. 1250 01:03:11,862 --> 01:03:13,862 I DON'T WANT TO TALK TO YOUR MOM. 1251 01:03:13,862 --> 01:03:16,137 TALK TO MY MOM, CHRISTIAN, PLEASE. 1252 01:03:16,137 --> 01:03:18,103 -NO. -PLEASE TALK TO MY MOM. 1253 01:03:18,103 --> 01:03:19,862 -UNH-UNH. -CHRISTIAN. 1254 01:03:19,862 --> 01:03:23,000 MOM, I'M PUTTING IT ON -- IT'S ON SPEAKERPHONE. 1255 01:03:23,000 --> 01:03:25,068 DO NOT HANG UP ON MY MOM! 1256 01:03:25,068 --> 01:03:26,827 OKAY. 1257 01:03:48,448 --> 01:03:51,827 NO. NOBODY HELPED ME WHEN I WAS ON THE STREET. 1258 01:03:51,827 --> 01:03:53,931 YOU GOT TO DO IT ON YOUR OWN. 1259 01:04:01,137 --> 01:04:04,620 NO. THIS IS QUITE NICE. 1260 01:04:04,620 --> 01:04:06,931 -IT'S YOUR FAULT. -I APPRECIATE THIS. 1261 01:04:06,931 --> 01:04:09,758 YOU'VE DONE THIS, CHRISTIAN. NOBODY ELSE. 1262 01:04:11,931 --> 01:04:15,586 YOU KNOW WHAT? WHATEVER. 1263 01:04:15,586 --> 01:04:17,034 Maja: I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU'RE DOING THIS TO ME, CHRISTIAN! 1264 01:04:22,310 --> 01:04:30,896 ♪♪ 1265 01:04:30,896 --> 01:04:39,517 ♪♪ 1266 01:04:39,517 --> 01:04:42,586 Maja: I'M IN TOTAL SHOCK RIGHT NOW. 1267 01:04:42,586 --> 01:04:44,793 I WAS ON MY WAY TO THE GROCERY STORE, 1268 01:04:44,793 --> 01:04:48,517 AND I GOT A TEXT FROM CHRISTIAN THAT JUST SAID HE WAS LEAVING. 1269 01:04:48,517 --> 01:04:50,689 AND HIS MOM GOT HIM A BUS TICKET BACK, 1270 01:04:50,689 --> 01:04:52,896 AND HE'S LEAVING TOMORROW MORNING. 1271 01:04:52,896 --> 01:04:55,655 SO I JUST WANT TO SEE HIM AND TALK TO HIM. 1272 01:04:55,655 --> 01:04:58,344 ♪♪ 1273 01:04:58,344 --> 01:05:00,344 I DON'T KNOW WHY HE'S DOING THIS 1274 01:05:00,344 --> 01:05:05,379 AND TEARING DOWN EVERYTHING WE'VE BEEN WORKING HARD FOR. 1275 01:05:05,379 --> 01:05:07,310 I KNOW WE'VE BEEN FIGHTING A LOT, 1276 01:05:07,310 --> 01:05:10,586 BUT I NEVER THOUGHT HE'D GO AS FAR AS ABANDON ME. 1277 01:05:10,586 --> 01:05:15,206 SO I DON'T SEE HOW HE COULD BE SERIOUS 1278 01:05:15,206 --> 01:05:20,275 OR HOW HE WOULD BE WILLING TO RUIN EVERYTHING AT THIS POINT. 1279 01:05:20,275 --> 01:05:23,827 AND I'M JUST TRYING NOT TO FREAK OUT, 1280 01:05:23,827 --> 01:05:29,068 BUT I'M COMPLETELY HEARTBROKEN AND DEVASTATED. 1281 01:05:29,068 --> 01:05:31,965 IT WAS NOT PART OF OUR PLAN. 1282 01:05:31,965 --> 01:05:36,517 I DON'T KNOW WHY HE'S CHOSEN TO DO THIS. 1283 01:05:36,517 --> 01:05:39,655 BUT I AM STILL HOPING THAT IF WE CAN JUST TALK, 1284 01:05:39,655 --> 01:05:41,896 WE COULD WORK THIS OUT 1285 01:05:41,896 --> 01:05:45,965 AND THAT HE'S NOT REALLY SERIOUS ABOUT THIS. 1286 01:05:45,965 --> 01:05:49,344 BUT I DON'T KNOW WHERE TO BEGIN OR WHAT TO TALK ABOUT. 1287 01:05:49,344 --> 01:05:52,586 ♪♪ 1288 01:05:52,586 --> 01:05:55,413 I JUST CAN'T BELIEVE THIS IS HAPPENING. 1289 01:05:55,413 --> 01:06:02,931 ♪♪ 1290 01:06:07,413 --> 01:06:12,310 SO, YOU TEXT ME THAT YOU'RE LEAVING TOMORROW. 1291 01:06:12,310 --> 01:06:15,758 YES, I'M LEAVING TOMORROW. I GOT THE TICKET. 1292 01:06:15,758 --> 01:06:18,241 AND WHY ARE YOU CHOOSING TO LEAVE 1293 01:06:18,241 --> 01:06:22,620 BEFORE I GOT THE SURGERY DATE, TWO WEEKS BEFORE RENT'S DUE, 1294 01:06:22,620 --> 01:06:24,793 BEFORE ANY OF MY FAMILY MEMBERS ARE HERE? 1295 01:06:24,793 --> 01:06:26,241 AND YOU'RE ABANDONING ME. 1296 01:06:26,241 --> 01:06:29,206 WHY ARE YOU CHOOSING TO DO ALL OF THAT RIGHT NOW? 1297 01:06:38,000 --> 01:06:40,482 -IS YOUR STUFF PACKED? -MM-HMM. 1298 01:06:40,482 --> 01:06:43,413 AND YOU'RE DOING THIS? 1299 01:06:43,413 --> 01:06:45,413 YEP. 1300 01:06:45,413 --> 01:06:47,241 WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME? 1301 01:06:47,241 --> 01:06:49,000 -I DID. -NO, YOU DIDN'T. 1302 01:06:49,000 --> 01:06:53,689 YOU TOLD ME IN A TEXT MESSAGE WHEN I WAS GONE FROM THE HOUSE. 1303 01:06:53,689 --> 01:06:57,689 WHY DID YOU NOT TELL ME, LIKE, BEFORE? 1304 01:07:01,482 --> 01:07:04,344 CHRISTIAN. 1305 01:07:04,344 --> 01:07:07,620 CHRISTIAN. CHRISTIAN. 1306 01:07:07,620 --> 01:07:11,103 PLEASE PAY ATTENTION TO OUR CONVERSATION. 1307 01:07:11,103 --> 01:07:13,965 CHRISTIAN. 1308 01:07:13,965 --> 01:07:17,103 SO, ARE YOU GONNA TALK? 1309 01:07:17,103 --> 01:07:18,689 NOT REALLY. 1310 01:07:18,689 --> 01:07:21,034 YOU DON'T HAVE THAT OPTION. YOU DON'T HAVE THAT LUXURY. 1311 01:07:21,034 --> 01:07:22,620 THIS IS PART OF OUR LIFE. 1312 01:07:22,620 --> 01:07:24,000 ACTUALLY, I DO. 1313 01:07:24,000 --> 01:07:27,448 -NO, YOU DON'T, CHRISTIAN. -YEAH, I DO. 1314 01:07:27,448 --> 01:07:30,896 CHRISTIAN, STOP. 1315 01:07:30,896 --> 01:07:33,000 CHRISTIAN? 1316 01:07:33,000 --> 01:07:35,689 PLEASE. 1317 01:07:35,689 --> 01:07:37,655 CHRISTIAN, YOU NEED -- 1318 01:07:37,655 --> 01:07:41,586 YOU OWE ME AN EXPLANATION OF WHAT'S GOING ON. 1319 01:07:41,586 --> 01:07:48,724 ♪♪ 1320 01:07:48,724 --> 01:07:55,896 ♪♪ 1321 01:07:55,896 --> 01:07:58,068 IT'S BEEN A MONTH SINCE CHRISTIAN LEFT, 1322 01:07:58,068 --> 01:08:00,206 AND I'VE BEEN TRYING TO PICK UP THE PIECES OF MY LIFE 1323 01:08:00,206 --> 01:08:02,793 SINCE THEN. 1324 01:08:02,793 --> 01:08:05,275 I HAVE NOT COME TO TERMS YET WITH THE SITUATION. 1325 01:08:05,275 --> 01:08:07,862 IT'S STILL VERY FRESH, 1326 01:08:07,862 --> 01:08:11,379 AND I HAVE NOT BEEN FOLLOWING MY DIET. 1327 01:08:11,379 --> 01:08:13,517 IT'S JUST BEEN TOO MUCH FOR ME, 1328 01:08:13,517 --> 01:08:16,241 AND I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO DO IT. 1329 01:08:16,241 --> 01:08:21,103 AT THIS POINT, IT'S BEEN TWO MONTHS SINCE I SAW DR. NOW. 1330 01:08:21,103 --> 01:08:23,137 I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING ON THE SCALE 1331 01:08:23,137 --> 01:08:26,827 AND HEARING WHAT DR. NOW IS GONNA SAY. 1332 01:08:26,827 --> 01:08:28,689 AND I HAVEN'T TOLD HIM WHAT'S HAPPENED 1333 01:08:28,689 --> 01:08:30,448 BETWEEN ME AND CHRISTIAN, 1334 01:08:30,448 --> 01:08:33,034 BECAUSE I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO GET ANY OF MY FAMILY 1335 01:08:33,034 --> 01:08:36,310 TO COME DOWN YET TO HELP ME. 1336 01:08:36,310 --> 01:08:38,448 MY AUNT SAID SHE'S TRYING TO COME DOWN. 1337 01:08:38,448 --> 01:08:40,517 BUT I'M WORRIED IF HE FINDS OUT, 1338 01:08:40,517 --> 01:08:43,965 HE'LL SAY I CAN'T DO THE PROGRAM WITHOUT SUPPORT. 1339 01:08:43,965 --> 01:08:46,724 I'VE GIVEN UP EVERYTHING TO DO THIS, 1340 01:08:46,724 --> 01:08:48,827 SO I CAN'T LOSE THIS CHANCE. 1341 01:08:48,827 --> 01:08:51,827 ♪♪ 1342 01:08:51,827 --> 01:08:55,206 MAJA. 1343 01:08:55,206 --> 01:08:59,172 AT MY LAST APPOINTMENT, I WAS AT 587. 1344 01:08:59,172 --> 01:09:01,413 AND DR. NOW WANTED ME TO LOSE 50 POUNDS 1345 01:09:01,413 --> 01:09:03,310 OVER THE NEXT MONTH. 1346 01:09:03,310 --> 01:09:06,241 BUT IT'S BEEN TWO MONTHS, SO I'M NOT SURE IF THAT MEANS 1347 01:09:06,241 --> 01:09:10,172 HE'S EXPECTING ME TO LOSE DOUBLE THAT. 1348 01:09:10,172 --> 01:09:11,965 BUT IF IT'S JUST THE 50 POUNDS, 1349 01:09:11,965 --> 01:09:16,724 IT WOULD BE MEAN I WOULD NEED TO BE AT 537. 1350 01:09:16,724 --> 01:09:19,000 BUT I DOUBT I DID THAT. 1351 01:09:19,000 --> 01:09:24,482 ♪♪ 1352 01:09:24,482 --> 01:09:30,000 ♪♪ 1353 01:09:30,000 --> 01:09:32,965 I FIGURED I WAS GAINING AGAIN, 1354 01:09:32,965 --> 01:09:36,482 SO THAT'S NOT MUCH OF A SURPRISE. 1355 01:09:36,482 --> 01:09:39,793 I DON'T THINK DR. NOW IS GONNA BE HAPPY ABOUT IT, THOUGH. 1356 01:09:39,793 --> 01:09:41,689 BUT HOPEFULLY, HE'LL BE UNDERSTANDING 1357 01:09:41,689 --> 01:09:46,241 OF WHAT I'VE BEEN GOING THROUGH AND WON'T BE TOO MAD. 1358 01:09:47,551 --> 01:09:49,206 -HELLO. -HELLO. 1359 01:09:49,206 --> 01:09:52,068 -HOW ARE YOU TODAY? -GOOD. HOW ARE YOU? 1360 01:09:52,068 --> 01:09:53,482 I'M DOING ALL RIGHT. 1361 01:09:53,482 --> 01:09:55,000 BUT I'M CONCERNED ABOUT YOU 1362 01:09:55,000 --> 01:10:00,137 BECAUSE YOU MANAGED TO GAIN 5 POUNDS THIS PAST MONTH. 1363 01:10:00,137 --> 01:10:02,620 -MM-HMM. -SO WHAT HAPPENED? 1364 01:10:02,620 --> 01:10:05,758 WELL, I'VE BEEN EMOTIONALLY EATING. 1365 01:10:05,758 --> 01:10:07,724 I NOTICE CHRISTIAN ISN'T HERE. 1366 01:10:07,724 --> 01:10:10,275 DOES THAT HAVE SOMETHING TO DO WITH ALL THIS? 1367 01:10:10,275 --> 01:10:12,586 YES. HE DECIDED TO LEAVE ME. 1368 01:10:12,586 --> 01:10:14,689 I'M VERY SORRY TO HEAR THAT. 1369 01:10:14,689 --> 01:10:17,068 SO YOU'RE BY YOURSELF IN HOUSTON? 1370 01:10:17,068 --> 01:10:18,275 YEAH. 1371 01:10:18,275 --> 01:10:20,379 WELL, I KNOW THIS MUST BE HARD FOR YOU. 1372 01:10:20,379 --> 01:10:22,275 YEAH. 1373 01:10:22,275 --> 01:10:24,448 SO, HOW ARE YOU DOING NOW? 1374 01:10:24,448 --> 01:10:27,275 -NOT VERY WELL. -OKAY. 1375 01:10:27,275 --> 01:10:30,344 SO I TAKE IT YOU'RE STILL USING FOOD TO COPE. 1376 01:10:30,344 --> 01:10:33,689 WELL, I WANTED TO FEEL BETTER. 1377 01:10:33,689 --> 01:10:39,172 SO I WENT TO SUSHI, AND I WENT TO PIZZA, 1378 01:10:39,172 --> 01:10:42,448 AND I WENT TO PASTA. 1379 01:10:42,448 --> 01:10:44,862 SO, DID FOOD FIX YOUR SITUATION? 1380 01:10:44,862 --> 01:10:46,344 NO. 1381 01:10:46,344 --> 01:10:50,241 SO WHAT'S THE POINT, GOING BACK TO WHAT YOU KNOW IS HURTING YOU, 1382 01:10:50,241 --> 01:10:54,551 WHEN YOU HAVE AN OPPORTUNITY TO TURN YOUR LIFE AROUND? 1383 01:10:54,551 --> 01:10:56,448 THERE WAS NONE. 1384 01:10:56,448 --> 01:10:59,965 I KNOW IT'S NOT EASY TO JUST SAY NO TO YOUR OLD HABITS. 1385 01:10:59,965 --> 01:11:02,551 BUT YOU DO HAVE OTHER OPTIONS EVERY SINGLE TIME 1386 01:11:02,551 --> 01:11:05,034 TO MAKE THE CHOICE NOT TO GIVE IN. 1387 01:11:05,034 --> 01:11:07,137 YOU CAN CALL US IF YOU NEED OUR HELP, 1388 01:11:07,137 --> 01:11:09,000 AND WE'LL GIVE IT TO YOU.OKAY. 1389 01:11:09,000 --> 01:11:11,482 YOU ALSO HAVE AN OPTION TO MAKE A CHOICE 1390 01:11:11,482 --> 01:11:13,241 THAT DOESN'T DAMAGE YOUR HEALTH. 1391 01:11:13,241 --> 01:11:17,655 SO NONE OF THIS IS AN ACCEPTABLE EXCUSE. 1392 01:11:17,655 --> 01:11:20,172 [ Crying ] I'M SORRY. 1393 01:11:20,172 --> 01:11:23,137 BUT I AM JUST... 1394 01:11:23,137 --> 01:11:26,448 ♪♪ 1395 01:11:26,448 --> 01:11:30,137 ...STUPID. 1396 01:11:30,137 --> 01:11:33,413 Dr. Nowzaradan: AS SORRY AS I AM ABOUT WHAT MAJA IS GOING THROUGH, 1397 01:11:33,413 --> 01:11:36,241 MY CONCERN RIGHT NOW IS THAT HER CRYING 1398 01:11:36,241 --> 01:11:40,172 HAS LITTLE TO DO WITH ANY REGRET OVER THE CHOICES SHE'S MAKING. 1399 01:11:40,172 --> 01:11:42,586 IT'S SIMILAR TO WHEN YOU CATCH A KID 1400 01:11:42,586 --> 01:11:44,758 WITH THEIR HAND IN THE COOKIE JAR. 1401 01:11:44,758 --> 01:11:47,172 THEY MAY CRY, BUT IT IS BECAUSE THEY'RE UPSET 1402 01:11:47,172 --> 01:11:50,931 ABOUT THEIR SITUATION AND THE CONSEQUENCES OF THEIR CHOICES. 1403 01:11:50,931 --> 01:11:52,482 BUT THERE IS NO REGRET 1404 01:11:52,482 --> 01:11:54,896 OVER THE ACTUAL CHOICES THAT LED THEM THERE. 1405 01:11:54,896 --> 01:11:57,517 SO RIGHT NOW I DON'T SEE ANY EVIDENCE 1406 01:11:57,517 --> 01:12:01,965 THAT MAJA ACTUALLY WANTS TO CHANGE HER BEHAVIOR. 1407 01:12:01,965 --> 01:12:04,793 ALL RIGHT, MAJA, WHEN YOU TELL ME YOU WANT TO CHANGE, 1408 01:12:04,793 --> 01:12:07,344 ARE YOU TELLING ME THE TRUTH? 1409 01:12:09,758 --> 01:12:12,586 ALL RIGHT. THEN I'LL GIVE YOU ONE MORE CHANCE. 1410 01:12:12,586 --> 01:12:16,758 AND I'M GONNA SET YOU UP TO SEE A THERAPIST, OKAY, 1411 01:12:16,758 --> 01:12:18,482 TO SEE IF THEY CAN HELP YOU. 1412 01:12:18,482 --> 01:12:21,551 PSYCHOTHERAPY ISN'T GONNA TAKE AWAY ALL THE PAIN 1413 01:12:21,551 --> 01:12:23,655 AND STRUGGLE OF WHAT YOU'RE GOING THROUGH RIGHT NOW. 1414 01:12:23,655 --> 01:12:25,793 BUT IF YOU'RE TELLING ME THE TRUTH 1415 01:12:25,793 --> 01:12:27,862 AND YOU'RE TRULY READY TO CHANGE, 1416 01:12:27,862 --> 01:12:30,034 THEN THEY CAN START TO GIVE YOU THE TOOLS 1417 01:12:30,034 --> 01:12:33,137 TO HELP YOU FIND HEALTHIER WAYS TO COPE. 1418 01:12:33,137 --> 01:12:36,586 THIS IS A PROCESS YOU'RE GOING TO NEED TO DO ANYWAY, 1419 01:12:36,586 --> 01:12:39,310 BUT WE'LL START IT NOW AND SEE HOW YOU DO. 1420 01:12:39,310 --> 01:12:42,689 BUT IF DON'T START MAKING THE PROGRESS YOU NEED AFTER THIS, 1421 01:12:42,689 --> 01:12:45,965 THEN I'LL KNOW THAT YOU WEREN'T REALLY TELLING ME THE TRUTH 1422 01:12:45,965 --> 01:12:47,482 ABOUT WANTING TO CHANGE. 1423 01:12:47,482 --> 01:12:49,034 YOU UNDERSTAND? YEAH. 1424 01:12:49,034 --> 01:12:52,241 SO THIS IS YOUR LAST CHANCE. AND YOUR GOAL IS STILL THE SAME. 1425 01:12:52,241 --> 01:12:54,344 LOSE 50 POUNDS OVER THE NEXT MONTH 1426 01:12:54,344 --> 01:12:56,172 IF YOU WANT TO SHOW ME YOU'RE SERIOUS 1427 01:12:56,172 --> 01:12:57,689 AND READY TO DO THIS AGAIN. 1428 01:12:57,689 --> 01:13:01,172 YOU HAVE TO DECIDE IF THIS IS WORTH YOUR LIFE OR NOT. 1429 01:13:01,172 --> 01:13:02,724 OKAY. 1430 01:13:02,724 --> 01:13:05,000 IF YOU NEED ANYTHING OR YOU'RE STRUGGLING, CALL ME, OKAY? 1431 01:13:05,000 --> 01:13:07,310 -OKAY. -I KNOW YOU CAN DO THIS. 1432 01:13:07,310 --> 01:13:09,689 I HAVE ALREADY SEEN WHAT YOU'RE CAPABLE OF, 1433 01:13:09,689 --> 01:13:11,068 AND SO HAVE YOU. 1434 01:13:11,068 --> 01:13:12,655 -YES. -ALL RIGHT. 1435 01:13:12,655 --> 01:13:14,551 -I'LL SEE YOU IN A MONTH. -OKAY. 1436 01:13:14,551 --> 01:13:16,482 ALL RIGHT. 1437 01:13:16,482 --> 01:13:22,137 ♪♪ 1438 01:13:22,137 --> 01:13:24,620 HOPEFULLY, MAJA IS TELLING ME THE TRUTH 1439 01:13:24,620 --> 01:13:27,689 ABOUT BEING READY TO DO WHAT SHE NEEDS 1440 01:13:27,689 --> 01:13:29,931 AND WILL TAKE THIS OPPORTUNITY WITH THERAPY 1441 01:13:29,931 --> 01:13:31,689 TO START MAKING BETTER CHOICES 1442 01:13:31,689 --> 01:13:34,586 WITH WAYS TO DEAL AND COPE WITH HER EMOTIONS. 1443 01:13:34,586 --> 01:13:36,034 BUT IF SHE DOESN'T START DOING 1444 01:13:36,034 --> 01:13:38,137 WHAT SHE NEEDS TO GET BACK ON TRACK 1445 01:13:38,137 --> 01:13:41,551 AND CONTINUES TO CHOOSE SELF-DESTRUCTIVE WAYS, 1446 01:13:41,551 --> 01:13:44,862 THEN THERE WILL BE NOTHING MORE WE CAN DO FOR HER. 1447 01:13:44,862 --> 01:13:47,379 ♪♪ 1448 01:13:47,379 --> 01:13:52,448 Maja: I'M THANKFUL DR. NOW WANTS TO HELP ME GET THROUGH THIS. 1449 01:13:52,448 --> 01:13:54,482 BUT I STILL DON'T THINK HE UNDERSTANDS 1450 01:13:54,482 --> 01:13:56,931 HOW HARD THIS ALL IS FOR ME, 1451 01:13:56,931 --> 01:14:01,724 AND FOOD IS THE ONLY THING HELPING ME HOLD IT TOGETHER, 1452 01:14:01,724 --> 01:14:04,793 WITHOUT COMPLETELY LOSING IT AND FALLING APART. 1453 01:14:04,793 --> 01:14:07,000 ♪♪ 1454 01:14:12,793 --> 01:14:18,068 ♪♪ 1455 01:14:18,068 --> 01:14:23,379 ♪♪ 1456 01:14:23,379 --> 01:14:25,620 Maja: I'M HEADED TO MY FIRST APPOINTMENT 1457 01:14:25,620 --> 01:14:29,413 WITH THE THERAPIST DR. NOW WANTS ME TO START SEEING. 1458 01:14:29,413 --> 01:14:31,551 I'M NOT SURE WHAT TO REALLY EXPECT, 1459 01:14:31,551 --> 01:14:34,448 BUT MY EXPECTATIONS ARE LOW. 1460 01:14:34,448 --> 01:14:36,034 I HAVE NO PROBLEMS DOING THIS, 1461 01:14:36,034 --> 01:14:40,724 AND I ACTUALLY THINK IT'LL BE GOOD TO TALK ABOUT HOW I FEEL. 1462 01:14:40,724 --> 01:14:44,275 SO I'M FINE WITH DOING THIS, BUT WHAT I DON'T REALLY SEE IS 1463 01:14:44,275 --> 01:14:47,275 HOW THIS IS GONNA MAKE MUCH OF A DIFFERENCE RIGHT NOW. 1464 01:14:47,275 --> 01:14:49,689 ♪♪ 1465 01:14:49,689 --> 01:14:51,724 -HELLO, MAJA? -HI. I'M MAJA. 1466 01:14:51,724 --> 01:14:53,896 -HI. NICE TO MEET YOU. -NICE TO MEET YOU. 1467 01:14:53,896 --> 01:14:56,862 I'M LOLA. WHENEVER YOU'RE READY, YOU CAN GO RIGHT ON IN 1468 01:14:56,862 --> 01:14:59,517 AND HAVE A SEAT ANYWHERE YOU'RE COMFORTABLE. 1469 01:14:59,517 --> 01:15:01,689 THANK YOU. 1470 01:15:04,862 --> 01:15:06,413 OKAY. 1471 01:15:06,413 --> 01:15:09,379 SO, MAJA, IT'S SO NICE TO MEET YOU. 1472 01:15:09,379 --> 01:15:11,000 IT'S A PLEASURE TO MEET YOU. 1473 01:15:11,000 --> 01:15:13,965 SO, TELL ME A LITTLE BIT ABOUT WHERE YOU'RE FROM. 1474 01:15:13,965 --> 01:15:16,517 WELL, I'M FROM PORTLAND, OREGON, BORN AND RAISED. 1475 01:15:16,517 --> 01:15:19,448 -MM-HMM. -UM, MY FAMILY IS SERBIAN. 1476 01:15:19,448 --> 01:15:21,172 AND I'M FIRST-GENERATION AMERICAN. 1477 01:15:21,172 --> 01:15:24,172 MM-HMM. WHAT BRINGS YOU IN TODAY? 1478 01:15:24,172 --> 01:15:28,655 WELL, I MOVED TO TEXAS TO BE A PART OF A WEIGHT-LOSS PROGRAM. 1479 01:15:28,655 --> 01:15:31,034 AND I MOVED DOWN HERE 1480 01:15:31,034 --> 01:15:34,310 WITH MY SPOUSE, PARTNER, BOYFRIEND, WHATEVER. 1481 01:15:34,310 --> 01:15:37,551 -AND WHAT'S HIS NAME? -HIS NAME IS CHRISTIAN. 1482 01:15:37,551 --> 01:15:40,655 AND HE JUST COULD NOT TAKE THE PRESSURE, 1483 01:15:40,655 --> 01:15:46,103 AND HE DECIDED IT WOULD BE BEST FOR HIM TO, UH, GO BACK HOME. 1484 01:15:46,103 --> 01:15:48,137 SO, MAJA, WHAT'D YOU FEEL LIKE 1485 01:15:48,137 --> 01:15:52,758 IN THE INSTANT WHEN CHRISTIAN MADE THE DECISION TO LEAVE YOU? 1486 01:15:52,758 --> 01:15:54,931 I FELT... 1487 01:15:54,931 --> 01:15:57,275 ANNIHILATED AND CRUSHED 1488 01:15:57,275 --> 01:16:03,034 THAT SOMEBODY I LOVE WOULD ABANDON ME LIKE THAT. 1489 01:16:03,034 --> 01:16:06,586 AND IT DID LEAD ME TO BE DEPRESSED, 1490 01:16:06,586 --> 01:16:10,689 AND I DID FEED MY DEPRESSION WITH FOOD. 1491 01:16:10,689 --> 01:16:15,862 AND THEN WHEN I HAD A DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENT, I GAINED WEIGHT. 1492 01:16:15,862 --> 01:16:18,206 SO, MAJA, IT SOUNDS LIKE I'M HEARING YOU SAY 1493 01:16:18,206 --> 01:16:22,448 THAT FOLLOWING CHRISTIAN'S EXIT, 1494 01:16:22,448 --> 01:16:26,655 YOU MINDFULLY AND WILLFULLY DECIDED 1495 01:16:26,655 --> 01:16:29,586 THAT YOU WOULD ENGAGE IN A BINGE. 1496 01:16:29,586 --> 01:16:32,068 -MM-HMM. -OKAY. 1497 01:16:32,068 --> 01:16:34,689 SO, MAJA, I'M INTERESTED TO KNOW, 1498 01:16:34,689 --> 01:16:38,758 HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOUR BEHAVIOR IN ADULT RELATIONSHIPS? 1499 01:16:38,758 --> 01:16:42,068 THERE'S A LOT OF MOMENTS WHERE I'M NOT PROUD OF THE FACT 1500 01:16:42,068 --> 01:16:44,827 THAT I CAN BE VERBALLY ABUSIVE. 1501 01:16:44,827 --> 01:16:47,724 AND THAT ALSO -- THAT STEMS, I GUESS, FROM MY CHILDHOOD. 1502 01:16:47,724 --> 01:16:52,620 SO, MAJA, WHEN YOU WERE A CHILD, HOW WERE YOU TREATED? 1503 01:16:52,620 --> 01:16:54,965 THAT'S A LOT TO GET INTO. 1504 01:16:54,965 --> 01:16:59,931 UM, I HAVE A LOT OF ISSUES WITH BOTH OF MY PARENTS. 1505 01:16:59,931 --> 01:17:01,827 UM... 1506 01:17:06,379 --> 01:17:08,482 I HATE MY DAD. 1507 01:17:08,482 --> 01:17:10,965 [ SNIFFLES ] 1508 01:17:10,965 --> 01:17:14,413 SO, "HATE" IS A PRETTY STRONG WORD. 1509 01:17:14,413 --> 01:17:16,655 MM-HMM. 1510 01:17:16,655 --> 01:17:21,000 AND SO FOR YOU TO HAVE THAT DISTINCTION, 1511 01:17:21,000 --> 01:17:24,448 WHERE DOES THAT EMOTION COME FROM IN RELATION TO YOUR DAD? 1512 01:17:24,448 --> 01:17:26,448 HE WOULD COMMENT, "YOU'RE GETTING BIGGER." 1513 01:17:26,448 --> 01:17:28,344 IT'S LIKE, "WHAT IS YOUR GRANDMA DOING? 1514 01:17:28,344 --> 01:17:30,172 ALL SHE DOES IS FEED YOU." 1515 01:17:30,172 --> 01:17:32,034 AND AS TIME PROGRESSES, 1516 01:17:32,034 --> 01:17:34,068 IT'S LIKE, "ARE YOU GONNA FIT IN A CAR?" 1517 01:17:34,068 --> 01:17:39,965 YOU KNOW, THE QUESTIONING OR THE COMMENTARY FROM HIM 1518 01:17:39,965 --> 01:17:41,413 WAS JUST... 1519 01:17:41,413 --> 01:17:44,896 BRUTAL? 1520 01:17:44,896 --> 01:17:47,551 BECAUSE IT SOUNDS BRUTAL. 1521 01:17:47,551 --> 01:17:50,068 AND IT'S REALLY DAMAGING 1522 01:17:50,068 --> 01:17:53,517 FOR ANYONE TO BE RIDICULED ABOUT THEIR WEIGHT, 1523 01:17:53,517 --> 01:17:57,000 AND IT DIMINISHES YOUR SELF-WORTH. 1524 01:17:57,000 --> 01:17:59,724 AND SO HERE'S WHAT I WOULD SUGGEST. 1525 01:17:59,724 --> 01:18:05,034 YOU NEED TO HAVE A CONVERSATION, CALMLY AND RESPECTFULLY, 1526 01:18:05,034 --> 01:18:09,310 WHERE YOU TELL YOUR FATHER HOW HIS MALTREATMENT 1527 01:18:09,310 --> 01:18:12,413 HAS IMPACTED YOUR LIFE OVER THE YEARS... 1528 01:18:12,413 --> 01:18:14,310 AND OUTLINE FOR HIM 1529 01:18:14,310 --> 01:18:19,034 THE TYPE OF RELATIONSHIP THAT YOU DESIRE MOVING FORWARD. 1530 01:18:19,034 --> 01:18:22,137 I'M GONNA STRUGGLE WITH THIS BECAUSE IT'S LIKE, 1531 01:18:22,137 --> 01:18:25,448 WHAT BENEFIT WOULD I HAVE WITH THIS RELATIONSHIP? 1532 01:18:25,448 --> 01:18:27,724 AND YOU DON'T HAVE TO KNOW THE ANSWER 1533 01:18:27,724 --> 01:18:29,862 TO THAT QUESTION RIGHT NOW. 1534 01:18:29,862 --> 01:18:32,344 WHAT YOU WANT THE CONVERSATION FOR 1535 01:18:32,344 --> 01:18:36,793 IS SO THAT YOU CAN DEVELOP YOUR SELF-ESTEEM 1536 01:18:36,793 --> 01:18:41,689 AND DEVELOP A NEW WAY OF SAYING, "THIS IS WHAT I'M WORTH." 1537 01:18:41,689 --> 01:18:45,482 DO YOU FEEL LIKE THAT'S SOMETHING YOU CAN DO? 1538 01:18:45,482 --> 01:18:47,344 YEAH? OKAY. 1539 01:18:47,344 --> 01:18:50,896 SO, MAJA, FOR HOMEWORK, I WOULD LIKE TO SUGGEST 1540 01:18:50,896 --> 01:18:55,551 THINKING OF WAYS TO REPLACE EATING WITH DOING SOMETHING ELSE 1541 01:18:55,551 --> 01:19:00,827 TO REPLENISH YOUR SELF-WORTH AND BUILD YOURSELF. 1542 01:19:00,827 --> 01:19:02,827 WHAT ARE YOUR THOUGHTS ABOUT THAT? 1543 01:19:02,827 --> 01:19:04,137 I CAN HANDLE THAT. 1544 01:19:04,137 --> 01:19:06,344 -YOU CAN HANDLE IT? -MM-HMM. 1545 01:19:06,344 --> 01:19:11,586 I'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO GIVE BACK TO MY COMMUNITY, YOU KNOW? 1546 01:19:11,586 --> 01:19:14,965 -SO YOU WANT TO BE A VOLUNTEER? -MM-HMM. 1547 01:19:14,965 --> 01:19:18,689 MAJA, I THINK THAT'S AN EXCELLENT IDEA. 1548 01:19:18,689 --> 01:19:21,793 SO IF IT'S SOMETHING YOU'VE ALWAYS WISHED FOR, 1549 01:19:21,793 --> 01:19:25,655 YOU OWE IT TO YOURSELF TO EMBARK ON THAT. 1550 01:19:25,655 --> 01:19:28,758 BECAUSE THAT'S THE ONLY WAY YOU'RE EVER GOING TO KNOW PEACE, 1551 01:19:28,758 --> 01:19:32,655 IS IF YOU LEARN TO LISTEN TO YOUR HEART. 1552 01:19:32,655 --> 01:19:35,586 MAJA, I FEEL REALLY ENCOURAGED. 1553 01:19:35,586 --> 01:19:37,655 ♪♪ 1554 01:19:37,655 --> 01:19:39,172 -REALLY? -YEAH. 1555 01:19:39,172 --> 01:19:42,586 I FEEL REALLY ENCOURAGED YOU'RE GOING TO BE JUST FINE. 1556 01:19:42,586 --> 01:19:45,586 [ BREATHES DEEPLY ] 1557 01:19:45,586 --> 01:19:48,517 I'M REALLY GLAD THAT YOU CAME TO SPEAK WITH ME TODAY. 1558 01:19:48,517 --> 01:19:50,172 MM-HMM. ME TOO. 1559 01:19:50,172 --> 01:19:53,413 -SO, THANK YOU. -THANK YOU. 1560 01:19:53,413 --> 01:19:57,724 ♪♪ 1561 01:19:57,724 --> 01:20:00,689 Maja: THAT WAS BETTER THAN I THOUGHT IT WAS GONNA BE. 1562 01:20:00,689 --> 01:20:02,586 SHE HAD A LOT OF GOOD INSIGHTS. 1563 01:20:02,586 --> 01:20:05,965 BUT THE PATH SHE BASICALLY DESCRIBES IS SCARY, 1564 01:20:05,965 --> 01:20:09,896 BECAUSE I'D HAVE TO DO THINGS THAT I'VE NEVER EVEN CONSIDERED. 1565 01:20:09,896 --> 01:20:12,413 AND TO BE HONEST, I'M JUST NOT SURE I'M READY 1566 01:20:12,413 --> 01:20:15,586 OR CAPABLE OF SOME OF THAT RIGHT NOW. 1567 01:20:15,586 --> 01:20:18,517 BUT IT WAS ALL VERY ENLIGHTENING, 1568 01:20:18,517 --> 01:20:20,620 AND I DO WANT TO GET TO WHERE I NEED 1569 01:20:20,620 --> 01:20:24,655 AND CHANGE THE DESTRUCTIVE PATTERNS I KNOW I HAVE. 1570 01:20:24,655 --> 01:20:27,724 I DON'T EVEN KNOW IF I'M WILLING TO DO THAT RIGHT NOW. 1571 01:20:27,724 --> 01:20:29,068 ♪♪ 1572 01:20:35,448 --> 01:20:43,310 ♪♪ 1573 01:20:43,310 --> 01:20:51,172 ♪♪ 1574 01:20:51,172 --> 01:20:53,275 Maja: I'VE BEEN THINKING ABOUT SOME OF THE THINGS 1575 01:20:53,275 --> 01:20:57,586 LOLA AND I TALKED ABOUT, AND IT'S OVERWHELMING. 1576 01:20:57,586 --> 01:20:59,620 BECAUSE EVEN THOUGH I'M OPEN TO THE POSSIBILITY 1577 01:20:59,620 --> 01:21:01,724 OF BEING ABLE TO CHANGE, 1578 01:21:01,724 --> 01:21:05,517 THE THINGS I NEED TO DO TO GET THERE ARE TOO HARD FOR ME 1579 01:21:05,517 --> 01:21:08,275 AND ARE THINGS I'VE NEVER EVEN CONSIDERED DOING 1580 01:21:08,275 --> 01:21:09,965 IN MY WHOLE LIFE. 1581 01:21:09,965 --> 01:21:13,275 BECAUSE WHAT LOLA SAID LEADS TO ME HAVING TO TALK TO PEOPLE 1582 01:21:13,275 --> 01:21:16,620 WHO HAVE HURT ME IN WAYS I'VE USED FOOD TO DEAL WITH. 1583 01:21:16,620 --> 01:21:18,620 ♪♪ 1584 01:21:18,620 --> 01:21:21,103 AND I'VE DECIDED IT WOULD BE TOO MUCH FOR ME, 1585 01:21:21,103 --> 01:21:23,965 BECAUSE I'M NOT CAPABLE OF THAT RIGHT NOW. 1586 01:21:23,965 --> 01:21:29,137 ♪♪ 1587 01:21:29,137 --> 01:21:31,689 IT JUST MAY TAKE TIME FOR ME TO GET TO A PLACE 1588 01:21:31,689 --> 01:21:34,689 WHERE I CAN TAKE SOME OF THESE STEPS. 1589 01:21:34,689 --> 01:21:37,827 SO I'VE BEEN THINKING A LOT ABOUT IT, 1590 01:21:37,827 --> 01:21:41,655 AND I JUST NEED TO FOCUS ON MYSELF RIGHT NOW. 1591 01:21:41,655 --> 01:21:43,896 AND THAT MEANS I'VE DECIDED I'M GONNA TAKE A BREAK 1592 01:21:43,896 --> 01:21:46,586 FROM DR. NOW'S PROGRAM. 1593 01:21:46,586 --> 01:21:51,379 I TALKED TO DR. NOW, AND HE WAS NOT HAPPY ABOUT IT. 1594 01:21:51,379 --> 01:21:53,172 BUT I'M GOING TO KEEP WORKING HARD, 1595 01:21:53,172 --> 01:21:56,000 AND I TOLD HIM I'M NOT GONNA GIVE UP. 1596 01:21:56,000 --> 01:21:58,379 THAT'S NOT WHAT THIS MEANS. 1597 01:21:58,379 --> 01:22:01,896 I STILL WANT TO LOSE THE WEIGHT TO SAVE MY LIFE. 1598 01:22:01,896 --> 01:22:05,310 I JUST KNOW I CAN'T DO WHAT'S EXPECTED OF ME, 1599 01:22:05,310 --> 01:22:08,310 AND I NEED TO FIND A WAY TO GET TO THAT POINT. 1600 01:22:08,310 --> 01:22:11,586 THE FIRST BIG STEP I'M TAKING IS DOING VOLUNTEER WORK. 1601 01:22:11,586 --> 01:22:14,172 ♪♪ 1602 01:22:14,172 --> 01:22:15,448 -HI. -THANKS FOR HAVING ME. 1603 01:22:15,448 --> 01:22:16,931 OH, I'M THRILLED TO HAVE YOU HERE. 1604 01:22:16,931 --> 01:22:18,275 -YEAH. -YOU BROUGHT PRIZES. 1605 01:22:18,275 --> 01:22:20,241 THAT'S AWESOME. THE KIDS LOVE THEM. 1606 01:22:20,241 --> 01:22:21,758 THE PRIZE BASKET'S OVER HERE, 1607 01:22:21,758 --> 01:22:24,448 AND WE CAN JUST KIND OF TOSS THEM IN THERE. 1608 01:22:24,448 --> 01:22:27,655 THE BIGGEST THING LOLA SAID THAT RESONATED WITH ME 1609 01:22:27,655 --> 01:22:30,413 IS OWING IT TO MYSELF TO LISTEN TO MY HEART 1610 01:22:30,413 --> 01:22:32,827 ABOUT HOW I'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO GO DO THINGS 1611 01:22:32,827 --> 01:22:36,206 THAT GIVE BACK TO THE COMMUNITY I'M IN. 1612 01:22:36,206 --> 01:22:39,551 LOLA SAID I CAN FIND PEACE BY LOOKING OUTSIDE MYSELF 1613 01:22:39,551 --> 01:22:43,000 AND DOING STUFF FOR OTHERS, AND I WANT TO DO THAT. 1614 01:22:43,000 --> 01:22:44,965 I'D LOVE TO HELP BLOW UP BALLOONS AND TIE THEM. 1615 01:22:44,965 --> 01:22:46,551 GO FOR IT. HERE'S MS. TRISH. 1616 01:22:46,551 --> 01:22:48,620 HI, TRISHA. I'M MAJA. NICE TO MEET YOU. 1617 01:22:48,620 --> 01:22:51,068 SO I'VE BEEN VOLUNTEERING TO HELP OUT 1618 01:22:51,068 --> 01:22:52,965 AT A LOT OF THINGS IN MY AREA, 1619 01:22:52,965 --> 01:22:54,758 AND TODAY I'M GOING TO HELP A GROUP 1620 01:22:54,758 --> 01:22:57,551 THAT THROWS BIRTHDAY PARTIES FOR KIDS WHO ARE HOMELESS. 1621 01:22:57,551 --> 01:22:59,724 AND I'M REALLY EXCITED ABOUT THAT, 1622 01:22:59,724 --> 01:23:02,137 BECAUSE WHEN I SEE OTHER PEOPLE'S STRUGGLES, 1623 01:23:02,137 --> 01:23:04,172 NOT ONLY DO MINE FEEL SMALLER, 1624 01:23:04,172 --> 01:23:07,344 BUT I ALSO REALIZE THAT I'M NOT AS ALONE AS I FEEL. 1625 01:23:07,344 --> 01:23:11,344 ♪♪ 1626 01:23:11,344 --> 01:23:13,482 THIS IS YOUR WAY, YOU SAID, OF GIVING BACK? 1627 01:23:13,482 --> 01:23:15,379 -YEAH. -THAT'S AWESOME. 1628 01:23:15,379 --> 01:23:16,931 I JUST WANT TO MAKE KIDS HAPPY, YOU KNOW? 1629 01:23:16,931 --> 01:23:18,551 YEAH. 1630 01:23:18,551 --> 01:23:21,172 I'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO HAVE MY OWN KIDS, BUT I CAN'T. 1631 01:23:21,172 --> 01:23:23,137 -RIGHT. -AND I'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO DO, 1632 01:23:23,137 --> 01:23:25,275 LIKE, FOSTERING OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT. 1633 01:23:25,275 --> 01:23:27,000 BUT MY SPOUSE LEFT ME, SO... 1634 01:23:27,000 --> 01:23:29,310 -OKAY. OH. -SO NOW I'M SINGLE. 1635 01:23:29,310 --> 01:23:30,931 OKAY. 1636 01:23:30,931 --> 01:23:33,241 Maja: IN A WAY, WE'RE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER, 1637 01:23:33,241 --> 01:23:35,068 NO MATTER WHAT WE'RE FACING. 1638 01:23:35,068 --> 01:23:36,931 SO SERVING OTHERS LIKE THIS 1639 01:23:36,931 --> 01:23:39,931 HAS BEEN AN INCREDIBLE AND WONDERFUL EXPERIENCE, 1640 01:23:39,931 --> 01:23:42,862 AND I FEEL LIKE IT'S HELPED ME IN A LOT OF WAYS. 1641 01:23:42,862 --> 01:23:44,931 BUT I KNOW I STILL HAVE A LONG WAYS TO GO 1642 01:23:44,931 --> 01:23:48,793 BEFORE I'M READY TO TAKE OTHER STEPS LIKE LOLA SAID. 1643 01:23:48,793 --> 01:23:50,517 I KNOW I CAN GET THERE, 1644 01:23:50,517 --> 01:23:53,482 AND I PLAN TO AS SOON AS POSSIBLE. 1645 01:23:53,482 --> 01:23:55,000 BUT RIGHT NOW I NEED TO FOCUS 1646 01:23:55,000 --> 01:23:57,137 ON DOING WHAT I NEED ON THE INSIDE. 1647 01:23:57,137 --> 01:23:59,448 AND I DON'T WANT TO HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT 1648 01:23:59,448 --> 01:24:01,586 WHETHER I'VE SUCCEEDED OR FAILED 1649 01:24:01,586 --> 01:24:04,931 AND IF I'M GONNA HAVE A GOOD WEIGH-IN FOR DR. NOW OR NOT. 1650 01:24:04,931 --> 01:24:08,793 THIS ISN'T HOW I SAW IT IN MY HEAD -- 1651 01:24:08,793 --> 01:24:11,482 MY LIFE AND WHERE IT WAS GOING. 1652 01:24:11,482 --> 01:24:15,620 NONE OF THIS TURNED OUT LIKE I THOUGHT IT WOULD. 1653 01:24:15,620 --> 01:24:19,206 MOVING TO HOUSTON WAS NOT JUST TO GET MY LIFE BACK FOR ME, 1654 01:24:19,206 --> 01:24:22,103 BUT TO HAVE A FUTURE AND A LIFE WITH CHRISTIAN. 1655 01:24:22,103 --> 01:24:24,310 BUT THAT'S NOT HAPPENING, EITHER. 1656 01:24:24,310 --> 01:24:29,103 SO NONE OF THIS HAS TURNED OUT LIKE I PICTURED IT. 1657 01:24:29,103 --> 01:24:31,517 THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR HAVING ME, YOU GUYS. 1658 01:24:31,517 --> 01:24:33,517 IT WAS WONDERFUL. THANK YOU AGAIN. 1659 01:24:33,517 --> 01:24:35,068 -IT WAS NICE MEETING YOU. -THANK YOU. 1660 01:24:35,068 --> 01:24:36,724 Woman: WE REALLY APPRECIATE YOU COMING. 1661 01:24:36,724 --> 01:24:39,241 YES, IT WAS WONDERFUL. THANKS, GUYS. 1662 01:24:39,241 --> 01:24:41,413 -THANK YOU. -THANK YOU. 1663 01:24:41,413 --> 01:24:43,896 -GOOD LUCK TO YOU, HONEY. -THANKS. 1664 01:24:43,896 --> 01:24:47,827 ♪♪ 1665 01:24:47,827 --> 01:24:51,172 Maja: I KNOW I HAVE A LONG WAYS TO GO STILL. 1666 01:24:51,172 --> 01:24:54,655 AND I'M EXCITED TO SEE WHAT THE FUTURE HOLDS FOR ME, 1667 01:24:54,655 --> 01:24:58,310 EVEN THOUGH IT'S NOT WHAT I PICTURED IT WOULD BE. 1668 01:24:58,310 --> 01:25:01,448 BUT I'M READY TO KEEP WORKING AS HARD AS I HAVE TO 1669 01:25:01,448 --> 01:25:03,758 TO GET TO WHERE I NEED, 1670 01:25:03,758 --> 01:25:05,931 SO I HAVE TO DO THIS 1671 01:25:05,931 --> 01:25:09,103 AND MAKE IT THERE, NO MATTER WHAT. 1672 01:25:09,103 --> 01:25:12,137 SO EVEN THOUGH I DECIDED THAT IT'S NOT RIGHT 1673 01:25:12,137 --> 01:25:15,103 FOR ME TO BE IN DR. NOW'S PROGRAM AT THIS POINT, 1674 01:25:15,103 --> 01:25:18,172 THIS IS NOT THE END. 1675 01:25:18,172 --> 01:25:20,655 I'M NOT GONNA REST UNTIL I GET THERE, 1676 01:25:20,655 --> 01:25:24,655 BUT IT JUST MAY TAKE TIME TO ULTIMATELY GET THERE. 1677 01:25:24,655 --> 01:25:28,758 BUT I AM NOT GONNA GIVE UP THIS WHOLE PROCESS OF LOSING WEIGHT, 1678 01:25:28,758 --> 01:25:32,448 BECAUSE I KNOW MY WHOLE LIFE DEPENDS ON IT.