Angela: IF I DON'T DO THIS RIGHT NOW,
THEN JUST SIGN MY DEATH CERTIFICATE,
BECAUSE I'M DONE.
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Woman: HE CAN'T STOP. HE DOESN'T KNOW HOW.
Woman #2: IT'S TERRIFYING TO THINK THAT AT ANY MOMENT,
YOUR HEART COULD EXPLODE.
Woman #3: I DON'T WANT TO DIE.
I HAVEN'T EVEN GOTTEN TO LIVE YET.
WHY ARE YOU JUMPING ON MY CASE?
YOU'RE OVEREATING, AND YOU ACT LIKE IT IS OUR FAULT.
I KNOW THAT I'M DYING.
I KNOW THAT I'M NOT GONNA MAKE IT.
I'M GONNA BE DEAD NEXT YEAR.
I KNOW I AM.
AND NOTHING HAS WORKED,
AND YOU HAVEN'T CHANGED YOUR EATING HABIT.
Angela: WHEN I FIRST OPEN MY EYES,
THE VERY FIRST THING I THINK OF,
EVERY SINGLE MORNING, IS, "WHY, GOD?"
THERE'S GOT TO BE A REASON FOR HIM DOING THIS,
KEEPING ME GOING.
BECAUSE EVERY SINGLE DAY OF MY LIFE,
IS AN ABSOLUTE NIGHTMARE.
I JUST FEEL LIKE I AM TRAPPED IN THIS BODY.
AND MORNINGS IS WHEN I HURT THE MOST OUT OF THE ENTIRE DAY.
THAT'S WHEN IT FEELS LIKE SOMEBODY'S HOLDING A TORCH.
LIKE, DIFFERENT AREAS, MY SKIN WAS RIPPING OPEN.
IT'S PAIN THAT I CAN'T EXPLAIN.
AND EVERY WEEK IS WORSE.
I LIVE WITH MY SON, CHRISTOPHER,
AND MY COUSIN'S DAUGHTER, WHICH HER NAME IS LACY.
SHE'S 11. SHE LIVES WITH US.
I TOOK LACY BECAUSE HER MOM AND DAD
ARE MAKING SOME BAD DECISIONS RIGHT NOW IN LIFE.
SO IT'S BEST THAT SHE STAYS WITH ME.
LACY, IT'S TIME TO GET UP.
YOU GOT TO GET UP.
GOOD MORNING, SUNSHINE.
SO, I HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO GET UP IN THE MORNINGS
TO GET LACY UP FOR SCHOOL.
I WAS SCARED WHEN LACY CAME,
BECAUSE OF ME BEING AS SICK AS I AM.
I REALLY DIDN'T THINK IT WAS A GOOD IDEA.
BUT I DON'T THINK GOD WOULD WANT ME TO TURN HER AWAY.
JUST TO GET OUT OF MY BED IN THE MORNING,
I DON'T THINK PEOPLE UNDERSTAND THE PAIN YOU FEEL.
BECAUSE OF THE WEIGHT BEING SO HEAVY,
I'M HARDLY ABLE TO WALK.
I HAVE TO HANG ON TO THE WALL.
I MAKE IT INTO THE BATHROOM, I GOT TO SIT.
I GET IN THE SHOWER, IT'S SO DANGEROUS.
I'M SCARED TO DEATH BECAUSE I COULD FALL ON MY FACE,
AND IF I'M DOWN, THERE'S NO GETTING UP.
I CAN'T EVEN FIT MY WHOLE BODY IN THE SHOWER BECAUSE OF MY LEG.
AND THEN, WHEN I HAVE TO GET MY LEG UP
ON A BENCH, IT'S DANGEROUS.
IT HURTS.
MY HYGIENE IS AWFUL,
AND I'M DAYS AWAY FROM NOT BEING ABLE TO BATHE MYSELF.
I'M THERE. TO BE HONEST, I AM THERE,
BECAUSE WHEN I BATHE MYSELF, I CAN'T EVEN DO IT GOOD.
YOU KNOW, OF COURSE, I DON'T WANT LACY SEEING ME.
I EXPLAIN TO HER, "WE SHARE A ROOM,
BUT THERE HAS GOT TO BE PRIVACY."
AND SHE KNOWS THAT I'M EMBARRASSED.
SHE KNOWS I AM.
I DON'T WANT HER TO THINK I'M A MONSTER.
BUT ANYBODY WHO'S EVER KNOWN ME HAS KNOWN
I WAS CLEAN, NICE CLOTHES, PRETTY HAIR, PRETTY NAILS.
AND I DON'T BARELY DO MAKEUP NO MORE.
I DON'T FIX MY HAIR NO MORE.
I CAN'T WEAR PANTS. I CAN'T WEAR UNDERWEAR.
I USED TO WEAR 1X.
NOW I WEAR A 9X.
AND I'VE NOT PUT A PAIR OF SHOES ON MY FEET IN 2 1/2 YEARS.
AND THIS OXYGEN -- I HATE IT.
BUT I HAVE TO HAVE IT 24/7.
A FEW WEEKS AGO, I TRIED TO GO WITHOUT IT.
IT WAS NOT GOOD.
MY HEAD FELT LIKE IT WAS GONNA EXPLODE.
SO NOW I DON'T CARE. THIS IS IT.
AND AS HARD AS IT IS FOR ME TO SIT AT A KITCHEN TABLE,
I DO IT BECAUSE I WANT LACY TO HAVE NORMALCY.
SO WE'LL GO IN THERE, AND I COOK BREAKFAST.
WOULD YOU HELP ME GET MY SKILLET OUT?
YEAH.
IF I CAN'T REACH SOMETHING, SHE REACHES IT.
SHE LOVES COOKING.
AND OF COURSE, WITH ME NEEDING HELP,
IT WORKS OUT PERFECT.
Lacy: MY AUNT ANGELA MEANS A LOT TO ME
BECAUSE SHE TAKES CARE OF ME.
I HELP MAKE DINNER SOMETIMES, BECAUSE I WANT TO SUPPORT HER.
Angela: MY FAVORITE THING IN THE MORNING
IS SAUSAGE AND CHEESY EGGS.
Lacy: YOU'RE GONNA EAT ALL THAT?
Angela: YEP.
FOOD MEANS COMFORT.
AND WHEN I PUT A PIECE OF FOOD IN MY MOUTH, I FEEL RELAXED.
I LITERALLY EAT TO FEEL GOOD.
I EAT ALL THE TIME.
WHEN I EAT, I LITERALLY DO FEEL
A WARM FEELING IN MY BODY THAT SAYS, "IT'S GONNA BE OKAY."
AND WHEN I GET DONE EATING, THERE IS TIMES I GET UPSET.
WAS THAT AUNT STACY? YEP.
COME ON IN. WE'RE IN HERE, HON.
BUT THEN LACY'S AUNT STACY TAKES HER TO SCHOOL.
Stacy: ALL RIGHT. I'LL SEE YOU, ANGE.
BYE, HON.
BYE.
AND WHILE SHE'S AT SCHOOL, I'LL EAT NONSTOP.
I HAVE TWO KIDS.
MY DAUGHTER'S NAME IS ANDREA.
ANDREA AND HER DAUGHTER, MY GRANDDAUGHTER,
WILL BRING ME WHAT I WANT.
HI, NANA. HI!
WHAT YOU GOT?! HI, GUYS!
AND MINE ONCE.
MY MOM WILL ASK ME TO PICK HER UP FAST FOOD.
SHE'S BECOME COMPLETELY HOUSEBOUND.
SHE CAN BARELY COOK.
WITH HER LYMPHEDEMA,
I UNDERSTAND THAT SHE CANNOT DO THAT NO MORE.
SO I JUST WANT TO PICK UP THE SLACK.
THAT'S KIND OF OUR THING -- ME, ANDREA, EMMA.
WE EAT LUNCH TOGETHER, PLAY GAMES.
I DON'T WANT TO BE IN THIS BED, BUT I CAN'T DO NOTHING ABOUT IT.
Andrea: MY MOM HAS A PROBLEM WITH FOOD.
IT'S A HARD SITUATION.
I FEEL LIKE SHE IS USING FOOD AS A COMFORT
BECAUSE SHE IS GOING THROUGH SO MUCH PAIN.
I WOULD EAT FAST FOOD EVERY DAY IF I COULD.
IT'S MY FAVORITE THING IN THE WORLD.
GIVE HER HUGS.
THANK YOU SO MUCH.LOVE YOU.
BUT I HAVE LET FOOD STEAL MY LIFE.
BYE, NANA. BYE, NANA.
THANK YOU, GUYS.
IT'S JUST NOT HUMAN TO BE THIS FAT.
I'M NOT HUMAN.
I'M A MONSTER.
I HATE IT.
I NEVER THOUGHT MY LIFE WOULD GET THIS WAY.
MY ENTIRE LIFE, I'VE BEEN OBESE.
GROWING UP, WE ALWAYS ATE GOOD DINNERS,
BUT THEY WERE NOT HEALTHY --
PIZZA, HOAGIES, CHEESEBURGERS.
BUT MY WEIGHT NEVER SEEMED TO BE A PROBLEM BACK THEN.
I JUST KNEW MY MOM DIDN'T LIKE IT.
I FELT LIKE SHE WAS EMBARRASSED BECAUSE OF ME BEING FAT.
AND I DID NOT FEEL LOVED BY MY MOTHER.
WE JUST DID NOT HAVE A MOM-DAUGHTER CONNECTION.
I WISH MY MOM AND ME COULD HAVE HAD MORE.
I DO REMEMBER BEING IN MIDDLE SCHOOL --
I WAS WEIGHING 150 POUNDS.
NOW, GOING INTO MY TEEN YEARS, IT JUST --
EVERY YEAR, IT SEEMED LIKE I WAS HEAVIER AND HEAVIER.
AND BY THE TIME GRADUATION COME AROUND,
I WAS OVER 200 POUNDS.
OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL, I JUST WENT RIGHT ON
TO HAVING MY OWN PLACE, MY OWN CAR.
I HAD MY OWN JOB.
LIFE JUST WENT NORMAL.
WHEN I WAS 20, THAT'S WHEN I MET MY HUSBAND, ANDREA'S DAD, JOSE.
AND WE HAD A GOOD LIFE.
I KNEW HE WASN'T GOOD ENOUGH FOR MY MOM,
BECAUSE HE WAS A MEXICAN.
AND WHEN ANDREA WAS 7 MONTHS OLD,
I CHEATED ON HIM, AND THEN HE LEFT
AND THEN HE STAYED GONE FOR YEARS.
I DID NOT WANT HER TO LOSE HER DAD.
I TAKE ALL BLAME FOR ALL THAT.
AND THAT'S WHEN I BECAME A SINGLE MOM.
I STARTED TENDING BAR.
AND I MET DARYL WHEN I WAS 24.
AND THAT'S WHEN I GOT PREGNANT WITH MY SON, CHRISTOPHER.
AFTER HE WAS BORN, I PUT ON A LOT OF WEIGHT.
I WAS 300, EASY.
AND THAT WAS AT AGE 26.
I WAS WITH DARYL FOR ABOUT FIVE YEARS.
HE WAS AN ALCOHOLIC AND HE WAS ABUSIVE.
BY AGE 28, I WAS THE HEAVIEST I HAD BEEN IN MY LIFE.
I HIT 400.
THEN THAT'S WHEN I DECIDED TO GET THAT SURGERY.
I THOUGHT DARYL WOULD TREAT ME BETTER
IF I HAD THE WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY.
I WAS WRONG.
THE DAY I CAME HOME FROM THE HOSPITAL
OF HAVING WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY,
DARYL LEFT ME A "DEAR JOHN" LETTER AND LEFT.
THAT WAS THE END OF ME AND DARYL,
BUT I WAS LOSING WEIGHT.
I LOST ABOUT 150 POUNDS WHEN I GOT MY GASTRIC-BYPASS SURGERY,
AND I STARTED PARTYING.
SO, I ALWAYS HAD A BABYSITTER. MY KIDS WERE NEVER, EVER ALONE.
AND I NEVER WENT OUT TILL THE KIDS WENT TO BED.
BUT IT WAS MORE OR LESS GOING OUT EVERY NIGHT.
I STARTED PUTTING ON WEIGHT SLOWLY.
THAT'S WHEN I MET SOMEBODY NAMED ERIC.
WE WENT TO THESE DANCE PARTIES
AND BBW PARTIES FOR BIG, BEAUTIFUL WOMEN.
THAT'S WHEN I WAS WAKING UP HUNG OVER, WAKING UP LATE.
BUT, TO ME, I DIDN'T HAVE A PROBLEM.
AND THEN RIGHT THERE IS WHEN IT HAPPENED.
I STAYED DRUNK ONE WEEKEND.
MY NEIGHBOR COME OVER AND WATCHED THE KIDS.
AND I REMEMBER THIS.
HE KEPT ASKING ME TO PAY HIM AHEAD OF TIME,
INSTEAD OF WHEN I GOT HOME.
AND I DIDN'T THINK NOTHING OF IT.
I WENT OUT THAT NIGHT, AND THE NEXT MORNING,
SOMEBODY'S BLOWING UP MY PHONE, SAYING, THE BABYSITTER,
WHAT'S-HIS-NAME, HAD LEFT, AND MY KIDS WERE ALONE.
AND SOMEBODY CALLED THE COPS.
THE COPS CALLED MY MOM.
AND THEN MOM TOOK THE KIDS TO HER HOUSE.
THE NEXT DAY, THEY WERE LIKE,
"YOU'VE GOT CHILD-ENDANGERMENT CHARGES AGAINST YOU."
AND MY MOM WAS LETTING IT STAY THAT WAY,
AND I'M LIKE, "WHY AREN'T YOU MORE ON MY SIDE?"
AND SHE WASN'T.
SHE WAS LIKE, "I'M ON THE KIDS'SIDE."
I REMEMBER GOING TO, LIKE, AN EMERGENCY COURT HEARING
A WEEK LATER.
SHE COULD HAVE LET ME HAVE THEM, BUT SHE DIDN'T.
SHE WANTED TO KEEP ANDREA.
I COULDN'T HAVE THE KIDS SEEING THEIR MOM GO WILD
AND DISAPPEARING AND SAY, "I'M GOING TO THE STORE"
AND NOT COME BACK FOR DAYS
AND, YOU KNOW, BEING DROPPED OFF
WITH THIS BABYSITTER OR THAT BABYSITTER.
I WANTED THEM TO HAVE STRUCTURE.
Angela: SO, MY MOM HAD ANDREA. DARYL HAD CHRISTOPHER.
AND I LOST MY MIND, I GUESS.
I TRIED TO TAKE MY LIFE.
I SPENT 30 DAYS IN THE MIDDLETOWN PSYCH WARD.
THE DAY I LEFT, I CHECKED MYSELF IN TO A REHAB.
THREE MONTHS, I WAS IN REHAB.
BUT I WAS STILL GAINING WEIGHT, THOUGH.
WE WERE EATING A LOT.
WHEN I GOT OUT OF REHAB,
I WAS 35 YEARS OLD, WEIGHING ALMOST 400 POUNDS.
BUT I WENT TO LIVE WITH MY MOM SO I COULD BE WITH ANDREA.
BUT EVEN THOUGH I GOT TO LIVE WITH MY DAUGHTER AGAIN,
THAT DID MORE DAMAGE TO ME THAN ANYTHING,
BECAUSE ANDREA LOOKED AT MY MOM AS HER MOM.
SO, HERE I AM, GETTING FAT AGAIN,
DRINKING AGAIN, LIVING IN A HOUSE
WHERE SOMEBODY ELSE IS BEING MY KIDS' MOM.
THAT'S WHEN I BECAME 500 POUNDS.
THEN, AFTERWARDS, CHRISTOPHER'S DAD DIED,
AND I GOT CHRISTOPHER.
SO ME AND CHRISTOPHER MOVED OUT.
RIGHT WHEN THAT HAPPENED,
I STARTED GETTING THESE LYMPHEDEMA MASSES ON MY LEG.
NEXT THING YOU KNOW, I'M HARDLY ABLE TO WALK.
I STOPPED WORKING.
AND NOW I'M 44 YEARS OLD AND WEIGH AT LEAST 600 POUNDS.
NOW I'M A GRANDMOTHER AND I'M ASHAMED OF MY WEIGHT
AND I'M OBESE AND I'M NASTY.
AND THE ONLY TIME I LEAVE THE HOUSE
IS TO GO GROCERY SHOPPING.
BUT I DON'T FIT BEHIND THE WHEEL OF MY VAN ANYMORE.
ONLY WAY I CAN FIT IN A VEHICLE IS IF MY SON, CHRISTOPHER,
DRIVES AND I GET IN THE PASSENGER.
SO IF IT WASN'T FOR CHRISTOPHER TAKING ME, I COULDN'T GO.
Chris: I BRING MY MOM TO THE GROCERY STORE
WHENEVER SHE ASKS.
AT LEAST THERE'S NOT MANY PEOPLE HERE.
JUST GET THE BIGGEST CART THEY GOT.
ON ONE HAND, I REALIZE, WHENEVER I GET HER SNACKS,
IT'S DEFINITELY NOT HELPING.
ON THE OTHER HAND, SHE WISHES SHE COULD GO OUT
AND DO NORMAL STUFF WITH ME.
SO I'M HAPPY HELPING HER OUT.
I HAVE NOT WANTED TO BE IN PUBLIC
FOR THE PAST FOUR YEARS.
80% OF THE TIME, MY GROCERIES ARE DELIVERED.
I DON'T WANT TO EMBARRASS MY SON.
I'VE PUT MY SON THROUGH ENOUGH.
OW!
OKAY.
YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO PUSH ME.
GET TWO.
I'M GETTING THEM BOTH.OKAY.
THESE.
Chris: IN THE PAST, I WOULD START KIND OF DOGGIN' MY MOM
FOR EATING SO MUCH ALL THE TIME,
BUT IT REACHES A POINT WHERE YOU KIND OF GIVE UP ON IT.
SO I REALLY DON'T COMPLAIN TOO MUCH ANYMORE
WHENEVER WE GO GROCERY SHOPPING,
BECAUSE I DEFINITELY DO FEEL GUILTY
IF I ARGUE WITH HER ABOUT WHAT SHE SHOULD EAT.
DON'T SAY A WORD.
I WANT SOME OF THE ONES WITH CHOCOLATE AND PEANUT BUTTER.
Angela: I ALWAYS, ALWAYS GET CUPCAKES AND COOKIES,
I WANT CANDY BARS, AND I ALWAYS HAVE SOME ICE CREAM,
BECAUSE I'M ADDICTED TO SWEETS.
ALL RIGHT.
AND IF WE DON'T HAVE IT IN THE HOUSE, I GET MAD.
CHRISTOPHER -- HE DON'T WANT ME TO EAT BAD STUFF.
BUT I'M AN ADULT. YOU CAN'T TELL ME "NO."
AND I DON'T THINK THERE'S ONE PERSON THAT --
UNLESS YOU'VE BEEN EXACTLY LIKE ME,
YOU WILL NEVER IN THIS WORLD UNDERSTAND.
YOU DON'T WAKE UP IN THE MORNING AND YOU DON'T SAY,
"I WANT TO BE FAT."
IT'S NOT FUN. IT'S NOT GOOD.
AND I JUST WANT IT TO END.
THAT'S GOOD.
I'M AT THE POINT I WILL NOT LAST THAT MUCH LONGER.
AND I WANT TO BE THERE FOR ANDREA AND EMMA AND LACY.
IF I DON'T GET HELP, I'M GOING TO EAT MYSELF TO DEATH.
JUST ME LOSING THE MOBILITY THAT I'VE LOST,
THE PAIN THAT I GO THROUGH, I KNOW I'LL BE DEAD NEXT YEAR.
I HAVE NO IDEA HOW I'M STILL ALIVE TODAY.
Travis: MY BIGGEST FEAR IS HER HEALTH ISSUES.
THAT WOULD JUST BREAK MY HEART IF I LOST MY SIS.
SHE'S TOO YOUNG FOR THAT, IN MY EYES.
YOU WANT TO PICK OUT THE ICE CREAMS FOR US?
MM-HMM.AWESOME.
Travis: THANK YOU.
Angela: IT'S EITHER NOW OR NEVER. IT IS.
SO I HAVE A CHANCE IF I DO IT RIGHT NOW.
IF I WAIT SIX MONTHS, IF I WAIT A YEAR,
IT'S NOT GONNA HAPPEN.
SO THIS IS IT. LIKE, THIS IS IT.
IF I DON'T DO THIS RIGHT NOW,
THEN JUST SIGN MY DEATH CERTIFICATE,
BECAUSE I'M GONE, I'M DONE.
TODAY HAS BEEN AN ABSOLUTE ROLLER COASTER.
ONE MINUTE, I THINK, "WOW. THIS IS GONNA WORK."
THE NEXT MINUTE IS, "NO, IT'S NOT GONNA WORK."
TO THE NEXT MINUTE, I'M PISSED OFF.
I'M GOING TO MEET DR. NOW IN HOUSTON,
BECAUSE HE WILL WORK WITH PATIENTS
NOT ONLY SUPER-OBESE, BUT THE LYMPHEDEMA PATIENTS.
I HAVE TO FIND A WAY.
IF I DON'T FIND A WAY,
THEN WE'LL USE ALL THE MONEY ON MY CREDIT CARD
AND MAKE FUNERAL ARRANGEMENTS.
SO I'LL BE DOING ONE OR THE OTHER THIS WEEK.
Barbara: YEAH? Angela: MOM?
YEAH? WHAT ARE YOU DOING?
WATCHING THE GIRLS PLAY OUTSIDE.
ARE YOU SURE YOU GUYS CAN'T HELP ME?
ANGEL, WE CANNOT DO IT.
YOUR DAD CANNOT TRAVEL.
THERE'S JUST NO WAY.
I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M GONNA DO.
TALK TO DONNIE AND JANE.
DONNIE SAID HE WOULD HELP YOU AS MUCH AS HE COULD.
OH, LET ME CALL JANE.
YOU HAVE REACHED THE VOICEMAIL BOX...
HEY, AUNT JANE AND UNCLE DONNIE.
WE'RE JUST HAVING A HARD TIME FINDING A WAY TO TEXAS.
I KNOW YOU'VE HELPED ME. YOU'VE DONE EVERYTHING.
AND I'D APPRECIATE IT. I DON'T KNOW.
CALL ME LATER AND WE CAN TALK. LOVE YOU. BYE.
I DON'T KNOW WHY I THOUGHT THIS WAS GONNA BE EASY.
NOTHING IN LIFE IS EASY.
THERE'S ONE PERSON THAT MIGHT BE ABLE TO HELP ME,
BUT I'M SCARED TO ASK.
ERIC IS AN EX-BOYFRIEND.
AND ERIC IS A VERY KIND-HEARTED PERSON.
HE WENT HIS WAY, I WENT MY WAY, BUT WE ALWAYS REMAINED FRIENDS.
HE IS A LAST RESORT, BUT ERIC'S COMING OVER
AND MAYBE GOING TO BE DRIVING ME.
COME IN!
OH, MY GOSH!
HI, HONEY.
HELLO.
HOW'S MY GIRL? GOOD.
HOW YOU DOING? ALL RIGHT.
YOU CAME QUICK.
MAN, YOU SMELL GOOD.DON'T I ALWAYS?
WHAT ARE YOU WEARING?YOUR FAVORITE.
YOU CAN SCOOT THAT ANY WHICH WAY AND SIT DOWN
IN THE RECLINER OVER THERE, WHEREVER.
WHAT'S NEW?
OH, COMING TO SEE YOU.
UH, WELL, SO, BASICALLY,
I FINALLY GOT THE OKAY TO SEE THE DOCTOR.
AND -- OH, I DON'T WANT TO CRY.
SO, BUT I HAVE TO GO TO TEXAS.
HE'S IN TEXAS.
BUT I HAVE NOBODY TO TAKE ME.
SO I'M BASICALLY WONDERING IF YOU'LL TAKE ME TO TEXAS.
AND IT'S NOT JUST DRIVING.
I HAVE TO PUT A MATTRESS IN THE BACK OF A MINIVAN
BECAUSE MY LEGS HAVE TO STAY UP.
I CANNOT HAVE THEM BENT MORE THAN LIKE 15 MINUTES.
SO I HAVE TO HAVE MY LEGS STRAIGHT
AND I'VE GOT TO BE ON MY SIDE, OFF AND ON.
IT'S JUST GONNA BE A WEIRD ROAD TRIP.
I WON'T BE LIKE THE OLDEN DAYS AT ALL.
BUT YOU ARE MY LAST HOPE.
I HAVE NOTHING ELSE, NOBODY ELSE.
SO, DO YOU WANT TO GO ON A ROAD TRIP, ERIC?
AND I'M REALLY THINKING ABOUT YOU
BECAUSE YOU'RE A COWBOYS FAN.
THAT'S TRUE.
NEVER BEEN THERE.
LET'S DO IT.
YOU SURE?
IT'S BEEN 10 YEARS.
DON'T MATTER IF IT WAS 20.
I'D STILL DO IT FOR YOU.
I APPRECIATE IT.
I JUST NEED DRIVER, FRIEND, SOMEBODY TO TALK TO,
LISTEN TO ME WHINE, CRY, LAUGH.
JUST LIKE THE OLD DAYS.JUST LIKE THE OLD --
HEY, NOT REALLY.
AND I'M GONNA SAY WE CAN BE ON THE ROAD BY 5:00?
I -- I CAN DO WHATEVER.OKAY.
I JUST GOT TO GO PACK, AND I'LL JUST WAIT FOR YOUR CALL.
ALL RIGHT, HON, GIVE ME A HUG. I'M GONNA LET YOU GO.
ALL RIGHT, BABE.THANK YOU SO MUCH.
YEAH, IT AIN'T GONNA BE NO PROBLEM, HONEY.
KEEP THAT COLOGNE.
OH, WELL, IT'S THE STUFF YOU PICKED OUT.
GOD, IT SMELLS SO GOOD.
ALL RIGHT, HONEY.THANK YOU.
I'LL SEE YOU LATER.ALL RIGHT. BYE-BYE.
Eric: I WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR HER.
SHE NEEDS TO GET TO TEXAS.
I'VE BEEN WANTING TO GO ON A ROAD TRIP,
SO HERE WE ARE.
IT MIGHT BE DIFFICULT. I'M DEFINITELY NERVOUS.
BUT WE'LL BE OKAY.
Angela: I'M EXCITED I'M GONNA GO TO TEXAS,
BUT NOW THAT I'M SITTING HERE THINKING ABOUT IT,
THIS TRIP IS GOING TO BE VERY HARD.
I'VE ALREADY GOT MY NERVES WORKED UP.
BUT I KNOW IT IS WORTH IT IF IT MEANS
I CAN GET MY LIFE BACK TOGETHER.
TODAY HAS BEEN A BUSY, BUSY, BUSY DAY
GETTING EVERYTHING PACKED TO GO TO HOUSTON.
MY FRIEND ERIC IS GOING TO BE DRIVING ME.
NOBODY ELSE IN THE FAMILY OR FRIENDS COULD HELP ME.
PUT THAT ON THE FRONT PORCH.
MY DAUGHTER IS BEING THE MOST SUPPORTIVE PERSON IN THIS WORLD.
LACY, AN 11-YEAR-OLD, IS BEING SUPPORTIVE.
I'M VERY, VERY MAD.
MY MOTHER, MY FATHER, MY BROTHER IS NOT BEING SUPPORTIVE.
I UNDERSTAND THEY CAN'T TAKE ME.
OKAY. I UNDERSTAND, REALLY.
I CAN'T BE MAD, BUT I AM MAD.
I'VE NOT EVEN BASICALLY STARTED
AND I'M MENTALLY WORE OUT ALREADY.
Andrea: I'M VERY WORRIED FOR MY MOM.
THIS IS NOT A GOOD TRIP FOR HER TO TAKE, HEALTHWISE.
A CAR TRIP LIKE THIS IS MUCH HARDER ON HER BODY
THAN IT WOULD BE SOMEONE AT A NORMAL WEIGHT.
HER HEART COULD GIVE UP, BECAUSE HER VALVES ARE VERY WEAK.
WITH HER LYMPHEDEMA MASSES, THEY COULD SWELL AND BURST.
AND, ALSO, SHE COULD HAVE BLOOD CLOTS IN HER LEGS.
BUT SHE HAS TO DO IT, BECAUSE HER HEALTH
IS NOT GONNA GET HER THROUGH THE NEXT YEAR.
HEY, EVERYTHING'S LOADED, READY TO GO.
Angela: OKAY. I GOT IT.
YOU SURE?YEP.
ALL RIGHT.
Eric: THERE IS NO POSSIBLE WAY ANGELA COULD DO THIS
BY HERSELF -- NONE AT ALL.
SHE'S GOT TO HAVE HELP. AND SHE ASKED. I'M HERE.
I BELIEVE THIS IS ANGELA'S CHANCE TO SAVE HER LIFE,
AND HER ONLY ONE.
NOW, I KNOW I WON'T BE ABLE TO GET IN THAT.
I KNOW I WON'T.
Andrea: IF YOU CAN MOVE YOUR LEFT WITH YOUR LEFT,
YOU CAN SCOOT UP ON THAT MATTRESS.
Bub: THE SIDES ARE LOW, BUT THEN AGAIN,
THE BED IS NOT RIGHT UP --
MOM, THE SIDE WILL BE EASIER.
ALL RIGHT, LET BUB PUT THE PILLOWS DOWN.
Angela: OKAY.
NOBODY BEHIND ME, PLEASE.
THERE'S THE MOTOR.
I NEED OXYGEN.OKAY.
NOW THAT IT'S TIME, I'M SCARED,
BECAUSE IN MY MIND, I KEEP GOING OVER THE BAD STUFF.
LIKE, I CAN'T GET IN A VAN TO GO UP THE STREET.
HOW AM I GONNA GO 15 TO 20 HOURS?
IS IT WORTH TAKING A CHANCE OF DYING?
BECAUSE EITHER I'LL DIE TRYING
OR I'M JUST GONNA BE DEAD NEXT YEAR ANYWAYS.
SO WHY NOT DIE TRYING?
I JUST GOT THIS FEELING, LIKE, IN MY GUT
THAT I WISH I JUST NOT GO.
I'M SCARED, BUT I HAVE TO GET THERE.
I JUST HAVE TO.
Andrea: WE ARE GOING TO HOUSTON, TEXAS,
TO SEE DR. NOW.
WE GOT ABOUT 15 HOURS.
YOU READY FOR THIS?Andrea: NOT AT ALL.
WELL, YOU GOT NO CHOICE.I SHOULD BE, BUT I'M NOT.
I WAS, LIKE, REALLY NERVOUS, GETTING IN THE VAN --
JUST GETTING IN.
AS MUCH AS I'VE PUT INTO THIS, I WAS CLOSE TO SAYING JUST "NO."
BUT NOW THAT WE'RE DRIVING --
I THINK WE'RE ABOUT A HALF-HOUR IN --
WE JUST LEFT OHIO AND WE ARE IN KENTUCKY --
I AM ALMOST GONNA SAY THIS MOMENT --
I DON'T KNOW IF IT'S THE EXTRA PAIN PILL I TOOK,
BUT I'M ALMOST A LITTLE MORE COMFORTABLE
THAN I AM SITTING IN MY BED, SO I THINK WE'RE GOOD.
WE'RE IN BOWLING GREEN.
WE DROVE EXACTLY FOUR HOURS,
AND THAT WAS EXACTLY ENOUGH TIME.
I REALLY WANTED TO GET OUT OF THAT VAN
AND TRY TO GET A GOOD NIGHT'S SLEEP.
I'M HOPING THIS HOTEL ROOM IS EQUIPPED FOR A PERSON MY SIZE.
AND I REALLY WANT TO SLEEP GOOD.
HOW FAR IS THE ROOM, ERIC?
IT'S -- I'LL GO CHECK.
NO, I NEED OUT. I NEED TO START GETTING THERE.
OH, I KNOW THAT. OH.
Andrea:
IF I GOT A WALL TO HANG ON TO, I'M BETTER.
I HONESTLY FIGURED WE'D STOP EVERY HOUR, AND WE DIDN'T.
WE COME STRAIGHT THROUGH, WHICH MADE ME HAPPY.
AND I'M JUST GLAD TO BE HERE, IN ALL HONESTY.
I'M TIRED.
TONIGHT, WE GET A GOOD NIGHT'S REST.
TOMORROW MORNING, WE HEAD OUT.
HOPEFULLY, WE CAN GO A LITTLE FURTHER THAN WE DID TODAY.
WE'LL SEE. YOU KNOW, IT'S ON ANGELA.
SHE'S GONNA CALL THE SHOTS.
I'D LIKE TO GET -- MAKE SOME DISTANCE TOMORROW, THOUGH.
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO EAT?
I SEEN THEY HAVE A RESTAURANT HERE.
YEAH.
I MEAN, IF THEY GOT PORK CHOPS AND POTATOES,
IF THEY'VE GOT BURGER.
I WILL GO FIND OUT.
Angela: SO FAR, I AM VERY HAPPY THAT ERIC BROUGHT ME.
I'VE ABSOLUTELY FELT SO SAFE.
AND I REALLY THINK IF MY MOM OR DAD
WOULD HAVE BROUGHT ME, IT WOULD HAVE BEEN AWFUL.
I WAS UPSET AT ALL MY FAMILY.
I WAS SO UPSET AT ALL OF THEM.
AND NOW I KIND OF FEEL BAD, BECAUSE NOW, LIKE,
I REALIZE THIS WAS THE BEST THING.
HEY.
WHAT'D YOU FIND US?
YOU GET A MUSHROOM-SWISS BURGER.
OOH. AND I GET A BURGER.
AWESOME. AND FRIES.
AWESOME. THAT WILL WORK.
WE'RE FOUR HOURS IN, AND -- I DON'T KNOW, WHAT? --
12 MORE HOURS TO GO.
TOMORROW'S GONNA BE A REALLY LONG DAY,
AND NOW I'VE ALREADY GOT MY NERVES WORKED UP,
BECAUSE I THINK TOMORROW MIGHT BE HARDER THAN TODAY.
I'M HOPING -- I'M GONNA TRY TO GO AS FAR AS WE CAN.
I DON'T FEEL GOOD AT ALL.
I FEEL REALLY -- I FEEL LIKE I'M 100 POUNDS HEAVIER.
I FEEL LIKE MY LEGS WON'T GO TOGETHER.
I FEEL LIKE I ATE ALL NIGHT LONG AND PARTIED,
AND I DON'T FEEL GOOD.
I JUST DON'T KNOW. HONESTLY, THE BED.
COULD HAVE BEEN THE WAY I SLEPT.
I DIDN'T EVEN GET A GOOD, HOT SHOWER THIS MORNING.
THE PLAN TODAY IS JUST STAY ON THE ROAD AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE,
GO AS FAST AS POSSIBLE --
SAFELY -- GET IT DONE AND OVER WITH.
I LOST MY EXCITEMENT, SO I'M HOPING I GET IT BACK.
Eric: YOU GOT IT?I DON'T KNOW.
ALL OF A SUDDEN, I JUST STARTED TO HURT REALLY BAD.
USUALLY, IF I'M ON MY LEFT SIDE,
I CAN LIFT MY MASS UP AND I'M COMFORTABLE.
AND, TODAY, IT'S 10 TIMES WORSE.
IT'S HUGE. IT'S BURNING.
I DON'T WANT IT TO BE A ROUGH RIDE.
I JUST THINK IT'S GONNA BE.
AND I'M TRYING NOT TO BE BITCHY TOWARDS ERIC,
BUT I FEEL BITCHY.
WE MADE IT.Angela: OH, HERE WE GO.
"WELCOME TO TEXAS."
GIVE ME A FIVE.
YES.
OKAY, IT'S RIGHT UP HERE.
YOU'RE GONNA TAKE A RIGHT.
I'M GONNA TAKE A RIGHT.
WELL, WE'RE HERE, HONEY.
THIS ACTUALLY WAS PERFECT TIMING AGAIN,
'CAUSE I'M DONE.
I'M GONNA BE ABLE TO GET OUT, BUT IT'S GONNA BE HARD.
ALL RIGHT. ALL RIGHT.
I'LL HOLD YOU.
AS SOON AS I GOT HERE, MY STOMACH IS SWOLLEN.
MY LEG IS BURNING, HUGE.
AND NOW I FEEL LIKE I'M DYING.
I, LIKE, FEEL WORSE THAN I'VE FELT THIS ENTIRE TRIP.
Eric: ANGELA'S ABILITY TO WALK --
SHE HAS A HARD TIME.
I CAN SEE THAT SHE NEEDS HELP.
IN MY OPINION, SHE SHOULD PROBABLY HAVE ONE OF THEM
STEP-WALKER THINGS, YOU KNOW, JUST FOR BALANCE.
BUT...
OH! OKAY,
I WANT TO GET THE WALL.
SHE'S DOING IT, SO I CAN'T TELL HER SHE CAN'T,
'CAUSE SHE IS.
BUT SHE'S HAVING A HARD TIME RIGHT NOW.
OKAY.
LET ME GO FIRST.
YOU GO.
I'M GOOD.
OH, NO!
WHAT?IT'S NOT A HANDICAP.
OH, SHE SAID IT WAS.NO.
THERE'S NO POSSIBLE WAY.
NONE.
IT'S JUST A REGULAR FULL-SIZED BATHTUB.
YOU WANT ME TO GO ASK THEM ABOUT IT?
YEAH. OKAY.
Angela: THE FIRST THING I SEEN WAS THE BATHTUB.
IT'S NOT A ROLL-IN SHOWER.
HOW YOU WANT I'M GONNA GET IN THAT SHOWER?
DO WHEELIES? I MEAN, COME ON.
I'M JUST REALLY PISSED.
THERE'S NOT EVEN A HANDICAP SEAT IN THERE.
A LOT OF PEOPLE THINK THAT'S MINOR.
IT'S NOT.
WHEN YOU'RE DRIVING IN A VAN WITH BLANKETS
TUCKED UP UNDER YOUR FOLDS AND YOUR MASS,
YOU ARE SWEATY.
I DON'T CARE IF IT'S A.C.
YOU WANT TO BE CLEAN AND YOU DON'T FEEL CLEAN.
A PERSON MY SIZE --
I DON'T CARE HOW MUCH YOU CLEAN, YOU'RE DIRTY.
THIS IS NOT A HANDICAP ROOM!
Angela: I'M PAYING EXTRA MONEY AT A NICE HOTEL,
AND THEY THINK THIS IS A HANDICAP ROOM.
THIS IS NOT A HANDICAP ROOM!
ERIC WENT DOWN THE HALL AND GET A ROOM THAT WE CAN STAY IN.
LIKE, I DON'T GET IT.
WHAT IN THE WORLD COULD THEY EVEN BE THINKING?
OKAY, HON? Angela: HUH?
I GOT THE KEYS TO THE OTHER ROOM.
IT'S A KING-SIZE WITH A BED, A MATTRESS.
OKAY, WOULD YOU GRAB THAT CHAIR?
I'M GONNA HAVE TO USE IT AS, LIKE, A WALKER.
YOU'RE GONNA WALK?
I'M GONNA TRY TO WALK.
THAT WILL WORK.
ERIC WENT DOWN THE HALL AND GOT A NEW ROOM,
BUT IT'S DOWN THE HALL SOME.
I'M REALLY WORRIED ABOUT WALKING.
GO AT A SLOWER PACE.
I'M REALLY HUNGRY.
I JUST WANT TO EAT AND LAY DOWN.
YOU NEED A BREAK?NO. JUST LET'S GO.
WE'RE ALMOST THERE, HON.
I MEAN, IF I AM BEING A BITCH, JUST TELL ME.
NOW, ERIC, JUST CALL ME A BITCH.
NO.
OH!
RELAX, HONEY.
YOU'RE FINE.
I'M SORRY. I AM NOT SNAPPING AT YOU.
I PROMISE.YOU'RE NOT BEING SNIPPY.
DON'T BE SETTING IT ALL ROMANTIC.
HMM.
I WANT TO SHOW DR. NOW MY MASS.
BECAUSE OF THIS MASS IS WHY I CAN'T MOVE.
AND I'M ACTUALLY SCARED FOR SOME REASON
HE WOULDN'T BE ABLE TO HELP ME.
AND HE'S GONNA SAY, "EITHER LOSE WEIGHT OR DIE."
OKAY, THE VAN'S MOVED AROUND.
I JUST GOT TO LOAD IT UP AND GET YOU IN IT,
AND WE'LL BE READY TO TAKE OFF.
IT'S ABOUT 8:30,
AND WE'RE STARTING OUT TO GO SEE DR. NOW.
AND ERIC'S VERY EXCITED, AND I'M JUST HERE
AND I JUST WANT TO GO.
I'M HOPING THIS WILL BE EASIER FOR YOU.
I DON'T FEEL GOOD AT ALL. I FEEL REALLY TIRED.
EVERY PART OF MY BODY JUST HURTS SO BAD.
SO I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO TODAY'S CAR RIDE.
ALL RIGHT, YOU JUST --
I'M GETTING STUFF OUT OF YOUR WAY.
OH, I'M SO...
GOD, I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON.
I FEEL LIKE I'M 100 POUNDS BIGGER THAN I WAS YESTERDAY.
Eric: JUST TAKE YOUR TIME.
YOU WORRY ABOUT YOU.
YOU READY?
I'M READY.
I'M REALLY HUNGRY.
LET'S STOP FOR A BURGER BEFORE YOU HIT THE HIGHWAY.
WE CAN DO THAT.
SO, BASICALLY, RIGHT HERE, YOU'RE TURNING RIGHT.
Woman: GOOD MORNING. GIVE US A MOMENT.
NUMBER 2 WITH CHEESE?NUMBER 2.
I NEED A NUMBER 2 WITH CHEESE.
NO ONION. AND NO ONION.
ALL RIGHT. ANYTHING ELSE?
NO, THAT WILL BE ALL.
$21.37 AT YOUR SECOND WINDOW.
THANK YOU.
Angela: I'M SEEING DR. NOW FOR THE FIRST TIME,
IN A COUPLE HOURS.
SO I FEEL VERY NERVOUS.
AND THE THOUGHT OF STARTING TO DIET --
OF COURSE, IN THE BACK OF MY MIND,
I'M LIKE, "I AIN'T GONNA BE EATING GOOD AGAIN."
I'M GONNA PULL UP HERE AND STOP.
OKAY.
HERE. BE CAREFUL. IT'S HOT.
WOW. THAT'S A HUGE BURGER.
THAT'S LIKE A 5-POUND BURGER.
OH, MY GOSH.
SO, I'M ALLOWING MYSELF THIS CHEAT MEAL ONE LAST TIME.
THAT IS REALLY GOOD. THIS IS A GOOD BURGER.
YOU READY? YEP.
YOU ALL RIGHT?
I DON'T LIKE SEEING YOU GET UPSET.
YOU KNOW, YOU ARE A LOT OLDER THAN WHEN WE DATED,
SO YOU REALLY ARE, LIKE, RISK OF HEART ATTACK NOW,
SO YOU'VE GOT TO TAKE IT EASY, BUDDY.
WE ARE ALMOST IN HOUSTON, TEXAS, SO I AM GETTING REALLY NERVOUS,
AND IT'S MAKING ME JUST WANT TO EAT.
AND EVEN THOUGH IT WAS A LITTLE ROUGH MORNING,
I KEEP GOING BACK AND FORTH.
I'M VERY MOODY.
I'M GOING FROM SAD TO PISSED OFF TO REALLY HAPPY.
BUT, RIGHT NOW, I'M FEELING EXCITED A LITTLE BIT.
I HAVEN'T FELT THAT ALL DAY.
I'M REALLY SCARED TO DEATH.
LIKE, WHEN I GET TO DR. NOW'S,
IF IT DOES NOT GO WELL, I'M NOT READY TO GIVE UP.
I'M NOT.
I JUST DON'T WANT TO BE HURTING AND CRYING EVERY DAY.
I DON'T WANT TO KEEP LIVING THE WAY I'M LIVING.
I AM SO NUMB.
MY HEART'S, LIKE, STARTING TO POUND,
SO, LIKE, I'M TOTALLY NERVOUS NOW.
AND LOOK, THERE'S HIS OFFICE.
OH, MY GOD.
I GOT TO TAKE A DEEP BREATH.
I'M AT DR. NOW'S OFFICE.
IT TOOK THREE DAYS TO GET HERE,
AND I'M READY TO SEE DR. NOW TODAY.
ALL RIGHT. HERE'S THE TEST.
I FEEL VERY NERVOUS ABOUT MEETING DR. NOW.
GO AT YOUR PACE.I KNOW.
MY BIGGEST FEAR, I THINK,
WOULD BE DR. NOW JUST SAYING THAT FOR SOME REASON,
HE WOULDN'T BE ABLE TO HELP ME.
ANGELA?
SINCE I WENT TO THE DOCTOR A FEW MONTHS AGO, WEIGHING 550,
I HOPE THE SCALE DON'T SAY NO MORE.
I DON'T THINK IT WILL SAY ANY LESS EITHER.
YEAH, YOU GOT THAT.I NEED YOU.
SO, I'M A NERVOUS WRECK. I FEEL VERY NERVOUS.
Angela: TODAY I AM AT DR. NOW'S OFFICE TO GET HIS HELP.
AND I'M ABOUT TO FIND OUT WHAT I WEIGH.
I JUST HOPE IT'S NOT A HUGE NUMBER.
I'M SHOCKED. I AM VERY SURPRISED.
NO HUMAN BEING SHOULD WEIGH 600 POUNDS.
AND I'M OVER IT.
IT ABSOLUTELY SCARES ME TO DEATH
BECAUSE THAT'S NOT NORMAL.
YOUR HEART IS NOT SUPPOSED TO TAKE WEIGHT LIKE THAT.
SO I THINK HE'S GONNA TELL ME,
"EITHER YOU'RE GONNA LOSE IT OR YOU'RE GONNA DIE SOON,"
BECAUSE NOBODY CAN LIVE THIS MUCH LONGER AT THAT WEIGHT.
SO I'M A NERVOUS WRECK.
Dr. Nowzaradan: HELLO.HI.
HOW ARE Y'ALL DOING?GOOD.
HOW ARE YOU?I'M DOING ALL RIGHT.
I'M DR. NOWZARADAN.
I'M ANGELA.NICE TO MEET YOU.
I'M ERIC.YOU TOO, SIR.
NICE TO MEET YOU.VERY NICE TO MEET YOU.
SO, WHO'S ERIC?HE'S A GOOD FRIEND.
AN OLD, GOOD FRIEND, HUH?YES, DR. NOW.
ALL RIGHT.AN OLD, GOOD FRIEND.
SO, HE CAME OVER THERE AND GOT YOU?
YES.
THERE, YOU'VE GOT A REAL GOOD FRIEND.
ALL RIGHT, WELL, I'M GLAD YOU'RE HERE AND YOU MADE IT SAFE.
SO, YOU'RE HERE TO GET HELP WITH YOUR WEIGHT.
AND TODAY YOU ARE 608.YES.
AND IT SAYS HERE YOU ALREADY HAD WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY IN 2002?
YES, SIR.
AND AT THAT TIME, HOW MUCH YOU WEIGH?
IT WAS UP TO 375, AND I LOST 100 POUNDS.
YOU WEIGHED 375?YES.
WELL, YOU OBVIOUSLY STARTED TO GAIN AGAIN,
BUT THIS TIME, YOU PASSED 375, YOU DON'T STOP THERE.
YOU GO ALL THE WAY TO OVER 600 POUNDS.
UNFORTUNATELY.SO, HOW DID THAT HAPPEN?
TELL ME WHAT'S GOING ON WITH YOUR EATING HABITS.
JUST EATING. JUST I EAT.
AND, BASICALLY, I THINK, FEELING SORRY FOR MYSELF
BECAUSE I CAN'T MOVE AROUND.
I USE THE LYMPHEDEMA AS AN EXCUSE -- ON MY LEG.
SO, WHEN I STARTED NOT MOVING AROUND, I JUST EAT.
AND I EAT THE WRONG STUFF AND I EAT A LOT OF IT.
SO, YOU JUST LIKE EATING A LOT,
FEEL SORRY FOR YOURSELF, AND CAN'T MOVE.
THREE DIFFERENT EXCUSES THAT ALL HAVE NOTHING TO DO
WITH WHY YOU'RE OVER 600 POUNDS,
ESPECIALLY SINCE LYMPHEDEMA DOESN'T DEVELOP
UNTIL YOU ALREADY GAINED A SIGNIFICANT AMOUNT OF WEIGHT.
SO NONE OF THAT MAKE ANY SENSE.
AND FOR YOUR HEIGHT, 608 IS A VERY DANGEROUS WEIGHT.
AND YOU ALREADY HAD THE WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY,
AND NOTHING HAS WORKED
AND YOU HAVEN'T CHANGED YOUR EATING HABITS.
SO WE HAVE A REALLY BAD SITUATION WITH YOU,
BECAUSE THE REAL ANSWER TO MY QUESTION --
WHY YOU'RE OVER 600 --
IS THAT YOU'VE BEEN HOPING FOR SOME SORT OF MAGIC SOLUTION.
WHY DO YOU KEEP DOING WHATEVER YOU WANT?
AND HAVING FAILED WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY ONCE ALREADY
IS A SIGN THAT YOU'RE LIKELY GOING TO CONTINUE THAT BEHAVIOR.
SO TELL ME WHAT'S GOING TO BE DIFFERENT THIS TIME.
WHEN I GOT THAT SURGERY, I HAD, LIKE,
SO MANY LIFE CHANGES HAPPEN -- MY HUSBAND LEAVE ME.
I LOST ALL THAT WEIGHT, AND ALL OF A SUDDEN,
PEOPLE PAYING ATTENTION TO ME.
I WAS RUNNING A BUSINESS.
IN ONE YEAR, I WAS BOMBARDED.
AND, BASICALLY, I DIDN'T HAVE NO CONTROL.
THIS IS JUST MORE EXCUSES,
BECAUSE YOU'RE SAYING YOU WENT BACK TO OVEREATING
BECAUSE LIFE GOT HARD AND STRESSFUL.
THAT'S NEVER GONNA CHANGE. THAT'S PART OF LIFE.
SO, I STILL HAVE THE SAME QUESTION.
WHAT'S GONNA BE ANY DIFFERENT THIS TIME
IF YOU HAVE WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY?
I'M JUST DONE.
SO, LIKE, I REALLY WANT TO LOSE IT NOW,
BECAUSE I'M GONNA BE DEAD NEXT YEAR.
I KNOW I AM. I JUST KNOW IT.
I CANNOT LIVE LIKE THIS NO MORE.
AND I HAVE A GRANDDAUGHTER THAT'S 3.
AND SHE HAS GOT TO HAVE ME.
SO I HAVE TO BE AROUND. THERE'S NO CHOICE.
I'M NOT DOUBTING YOUR DESIRE TO LOSE WEIGHT.
WHAT I'M CONCERNED ABOUT IS
WHETHER YOU'RE GONNA BE WILLING TO DO
WHAT YOU NEED TO MAKE THAT CHANGE,
INSTEAD OF CONTINUING TO MAKE EXCUSES.
AND EVERYTHING YOU'RE SAYING,
I HAVE HEARD IT BEFORE FROM PATIENTS WHO TELL ME
THE SAME THING WHILE CRYING, BUT THEY STILL REFUSE
TO TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR THEIR CHOICES.
BUT YOU SAY YOU'RE READY. THEN WHAT IS YOUR MOTIVATION?
AND WHAT ARE YOUR GOALS WITH WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY THIS TIME?
I WANT TO BE HEALTHY, AND I WANT TO BE ABLE TO WALK.
TO BE HONEST, EVERYBODY KEEPS SAYING,
"WHAT DO YOU WANT TO LOSE?" THERE'S NOT A NUMBER.
I WANT TO BE ABLE TO PICK UP MY BABY GRANDDAUGHTER,
GO TO THE ZOO, WALK THE ENTIRE ZOO,
NOT SIT ONCE.
I WANT TO BE ABLE TO BREATHE.
I WANT THIS OUT OF MY FACE.
AND I JUST WANT LIFE BACK.
I AM, LIKE -- I'M 44 AND I CAN'T BELIEVE
I'VE TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF EVERYTHING.
AND I DON'T THINK IT'S TOO LATE FOR ME.
IT'S NEVER TOO LATE TO TRY TO SAVE YOUR LIFE.
BUT DO YOU WANT ALL THAT ENOUGH THIS TIME
TO ACTUALLY DO WHAT YOU NEED THIS TIME?
YES.
OKAY, THEN HERE'S WHAT WE'RE GONNA DO.
I'M GONNA START YOU ON A 1,200-CALORIE-A-DAY DIET,
AND YOU'RE GOING TO CHANGE YOUR EATING HABIT.
YES.
YOU ONLY EAT IT THREE TIMES A DAY.
YOU ONLY EAT HIGH PROTEIN, NO CARBS.
AND YOU STICK TO IT COMPLETELY. YOU GOT IT?
YES, SIR.
AND I ALSO WANT YOU TO START EXERCISING
AT LEAST ONE HOUR A DAY.
30 MINUTES IN THE MORNING AND 30 MINUTES AT NIGHT.
AND NO USING YOUR LYMPHEDEMA AS AN EXCUSE, OKAY?
OKAY.AND I'M GOING TO GIVE YOU
A VERY EASY WEIGHT-LOSS GOAL TO HIT.
IN TWO MONTHS, I WANT YOU TO LOSE 40 POUNDS.
IF YOU STICK TO THE DIET,
YOU'LL EASILY LOSE THREE TIMES THAT.
SO THIS IS A VERY EASY GOAL I'M GIVING YOU,
AND IT SHOULD BE NO PROBLEM
IF YOU'RE AS READY TO DO THIS AS YOU CLAIM.
JUST SHOW ME YOU'RE WILLING TO TRY EVEN JUST A LITTLE BIT.
YES, SIR.
BUT IF YOU DO THAT BY YOUR NEXT APPOINTMENT,
THEN I'M GOING TO NEED YOU TO MOVE DOWN TO HOUSTON
TO DO THE PROGRAM. YOU THINK YOU CAN DO THAT?
AS SOON AS I KNOW I CAN BE IN THE PROGRAM, I'M READY.
I HAVE NO PROBLEM MOVING HERE.
THE LITTLE GIRL THAT LIVES WITH ME --
I'VE ALREADY GOT ARRANGEMENTS.
EVERYTHING'S SET UP.
SO I'M READY TO -- WHEN YOU SAY,
"ANGELA, YOU NEED TO LIVE HERE BY THIS DAY OR THIS MONTH,"
I'M READY.
OKAY, GOOD, BECAUSE WHAT WE'RE GONNA DO IS
WE'RE GONNA START YOU IN PSYCHOTHERAPY
BEFORE WE DO ANYTHING ELSE.
AND DEPENDING ON HOW YOU DO WITH THAT
WILL DETERMINE IF YOU MOVE AHEAD WITH WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY.
YOU GOT IT?YES, SIR.
WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY FAILED ONCE
BECAUSE YOU KEPT JUSTIFYING AND MAKING EXCUSES.
SO I WANT TO SEE THAT YOU'RE WILLING TO WORK.
AND THEN YOU NEED TO SHOW ME
YOU'RE ALSO WILLING TO WORK ON THOSE ISSUES, TOO,
BEFORE I'M WILLING TO CONSIDER WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY FOR YOU.
OKAY.ALL RIGHT.
ANY QUESTIONS?NO QUESTIONS, SIR.
ALL RIGHT, SO, TAKE THIS SERIOUSLY,
BECAUSE AT YOUR AGE, YOU CAN'T KEEP GOING LIKE THIS.
EVERYTHING WILL BE UP TO YOU.
IF YOU DON'T CHANGE YOUR DIET, YOU GO BACK TO THAT,
THEN THERE IS NOTHING ANYBODY CAN DO TO HELP.
I UNDERSTAND.
YOU GOT IT?I DO.
ALL RIGHT. SUPER.
THANK YOU SO MUCH.YOU'RE WELCOME.
OKAY, ANGELA, I'LL SEE YOU IN TWO MONTHS.
NICE TO MEET YOU.NICE MEETING YOU.
VERY NICE MEETING YOU.NICE TO MEET YOU.
Dr. Nowzaradan: RIGHT NOW, I'M VERY CONCERNED
ABOUT WHETHER ANGELA IS TRULY READY TO WORK
AT MAKING THE CHANGES SHE NEEDS TO TURN HER LIFE AROUND.
SHE SPENT HER APPOINTMENT GIVING ME THE EXCUSES
FOR ALL THE REASONS SHE'S GAINED,
INSTEAD OF TAKING ANY REAL RESPONSIBILITY.
SO THAT, COMBINED WITH THE FACT
SHE ALREADY FAILED WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY ONCE,
IS A VERY BAD SIGN.
SO WE MAY HAVE AN UPHILL BATTLE
GETTING HER TO A PLACE SHE NEEDS TO SAVE HER LIFE.
IT WILL BE EXTREMELY IMPORTANT THAT WE START HER
GOING TO PSYCHOTHERAPY
TILL THIS WHOLE ISSUE SHE HAS BEHIND HER OVEREATING,
BEFORE WE EVEN CONSIDER DOING ANYTHING
LIKE ANOTHER WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY ON HER.
BUT, FIRST, ANGELA NEEDS TO GIVE ME A LITTLE EVIDENCE
SHE'S ACTUALLY WILLING TO WORK ON THIS,
ON EVEN THE SMALLEST LEVEL.
BUT IF SHE CAN'T EVEN DO THAT, THEN IT WILL SHOW US
SHE'S GOING TO JUST CONTINUE MAKING EXCUSES
AND UNDO HER SURGERY AND START GAINING AGAIN,
JUST LIKE SHE DID THE FIRST TIME.
BUT I'M HOPING SHE IS AS SERIOUS AS SHE SAYS
AND SHOWS ME THAT BY MAKING THE PROGRESS SHE NEEDS.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO THINK ABOUT THAT.
EVERYTHING HE SAID IS WHAT I NEEDED TO HEAR,
PLUS A LITTLE MORE, AND I WAS REALLY GRATEFUL.
HAVING HIM HOLD ME ACCOUNTABLE FOR THINGS,
I THINK IT WILL HELP.
BUT I'M A LITTLE WORRIED, BECAUSE I DON'T FEEL LIKE MOVING
THAT FAR, LEAVING MY FAMILY.
BUT THIS IS MY LAST CHANCE.
IF I DIE TOMORROW, I DIE TRYING,
BECAUSE I WILL DO WHAT DR. NOW SAYS.
AND I WILL GO HOME, I WILL LOSE THE WEIGHT,
I'LL LOOK FOR A PLACE TO LIVE, COME BACK, MOVE HERE,
AND GET MY LIFE BACK TOGETHER.
ONE...
TWO...
Angela: RIGHT NOW, I REALLY AM ENJOYING THE DIET.
ALL RIGHT.
I CAN'T REALLY GRIPE ABOUT IT.
YES OR NO TO FETA? NO.
HOW LONG IS IT GONNA LAST?
I HOPE TO GOD IT LASTS A LONG TIME.
AND YOU KNOW WHAT?
THE SALAD THING -- IT WAS TIRING DAY THREE,
BUT THEN I HAD NO IDEA --
THERE'S ZERO-CALORIE BARBECUE SAUCE.
THERE IS A LOT OF STUFF OUT THERE
THAT I NEVER EVEN KNEW THAT YOU COULD HAVE,
AND IT'S ZERO CALORIES.
IS IT GOOD? MM-HMM.
I DO NOT, AT ALL, FEEL MYSELF BEING DRAWN
BACK TO THE BAD EATING HABITS AT ALL.
DIETING IS NOT FUN.
I'VE DIETED MY WHOLE LIFE, OFF AND ON,
BUT THIS TIME AROUND, IT KIND OF IS FUN.
YOU GET 2 WHOLE TABLESPOONS,
WHICH IS A LOT, ONLY 10 CALORIES.
SEE HOW MANY CALORIES IS IN YOUR RANCH.
HOW MANY? I FEEL FAT.
HOW MANY? 130.
OH, MY GOSH!
IT'S A CHALLENGE.
BUT THIS IS LIKE, "OKAY, ANGELA, EITHER YOU NEED TO DO THIS NOW
OR I'M GOING TO CALL A FUNERAL HOME
AND MAKE MY OWN ARRANGEMENTS."
SO, DR. NOW WANTS ME AT 199.
DO YOU THINK I'LL BE ABLE TO DO IT?
WANT ME TO BE HONEST?BE HONEST.
NO. NOW TELL ME WHY.
WHAT DO YOU THINK MY BIGGEST SETBACK WOULD BE?
CANDY. CANDY?
BUT, OTHERWISE, I THINK YOU WILL.
MM.
WE SHALL SEE. SURE.
I AM ON THIS WEIGHT-LOSS JOURNEY
FOR EMMA JEAN NEW, MY GRANDBABY.
ALSO FOR LACY.
LACY NEEDS SOMEBODY -- WHEN THERE'S A DANCE AT SCHOOL,
SHE NEEDS A FEMALE ROLE MODEL TO TAKE HER TO THE MALL
TO GO SHOPPING FOR THAT DRESS.
SHE NEEDS SOMEBODY MORE THAN JUST SOMEBODY
WHO KEEPS HER SAFE, WARM, AND FED AND CLOTHED.
HONESTLY, I WOULD NOT DO THIS FOR MYSELF.
IS IT WORTH GIVING UP MY FAMILY AND MY GRANDDAUGHTER
JUST TO HAVE A DOCTOR LOOK AT MY NUMBERS EVERY TWO WEEKS?
NO, IT'S NOT.
BUT IF HE SEES THEM NUMBERS AND SAYS, "YOU KNOW WHAT?
YOU'RE DOING YOUR THING,
AND WE CAN TAKE OFF SOME OF THE MASSES."
I HOPE THAT'S WHAT HAPPENS.
THINGS RECENTLY HAVE BEEN BASICALLY JUST A LOT OF STRESS.
THERE HAS BEEN A LOT OF FAMILY STUFF GOING ON,
BUT, DIETWISE, IT'S BEEN GOOD.
BUT AS FAR AS MY HEALTH, MY HEALTH HAS BEEN BETTER.
BEEN JUST LOOKING FOR PLACES IN HOUSTON.
I PERSONALLY -- I'M NOT EXCITED ABOUT THIS.
YOU KNOW, SO MANY STATES AWAY.
I FEEL LIKE I'VE LOST MOST MY MOTIVATION.
THREE MONTHS AGO, I WAS VERY EXCITED.
LIKE, I PROBABLY WOULD HAVE STAYED IN TEXAS.
WHEN I SEEN DR. NOW, I WOULD HAVE STAYED, PROBABLY.
NOW I AM THE OPPOSITE.
MAIN REASON IS FAMILY. NOBODY'S SUPPORTING ME.
NOBODY'S WANTING ME TO DO THIS, NOT EVEN MY DAUGHTER.
NANA, YOU WANT TO KEEP CALLING.
HI, BABY. WHAT ARE YOU GUYS UP TO?
I JUST COOKED SOME PASTA SALAD.
THAT'S NICE AND NOT ON MY DIET.
YEAH. SORRY.
I JUST TALKED TO ERIC. MM-HMM.
HE WAS LIKE, "YOU NEED TO GO TO TEXAS."
I TOLD HIM EVERYBODY ELSE WAS AGAINST IT.
YEAH.
WELL, HE DIDN'T SEE YOUR PROGRESS YOU MADE.
THAT'S A GOOD POINT. YEAH.
THAT'S A VERY GOOD POINT.
I'M GONNA TALK TO DR. NOW TOMORROW.
I'M GONNA TELL HIM, WITHOUT FAMILY, I DON'T DO GOOD.
LIKE... EXACTLY.
TELL HIM, LIKE, HOW WELL YOU'RE DOING,
AND THEN TELL HIM WHAT YOU'RE DOING,
SEE IF HE WANTS YOU TO MAKE ANY CHANGES,
AND HE COULD GIVE YOU A GOAL WEIGHT.
AND EXPLAIN TO HIM THAT YOU JUST WANT TO TRAVEL DOWN THERE
FOR EACH SURGERY BUT KEEP YOUR HOME HERE.
YEAH.
I'LL TALK TO HIM AND SEE.
ALL RIGHT, WELL, I LOVE YOU.
LOVE YOU, EMMA JEAN.
EMMA, NANA SAID, "BYE."
BYE. SHE SAID, "BYE."
BYE.
THAT IS TRUE.
I'VE DONE THIS ON MY OWN.
NOBODY'S BEEN HERE.
WHY DO I NEED TO LIVE IN TEXAS?
I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY I HAVE TO LIVE THERE TO JUST DIET.
I CAN DEFINITELY TELL THAT I'M LOSING WEIGHT.
THAT'S WHY I DON'T QUIT THE DIET PART.
BUT I DID THAT HERE WITHOUT DR. NOW.
THAT'S HOW I LOOK AT IT,
AND THAT'S HOW EVERYBODY IN MY FAMILY IS IN MY EAR.
"HOW DID HE HELP YOU LOSE THAT WEIGHT?"
THERE'S NO REASON WHY I CAN'T KEEP DOING IT ON MY OWN IN OHIO.
SO, I POSSIBLY WILL TALK TO HIM AND ASK HIM,
"WHY CAN I NOT LOSE WEIGHT HERE?"
I DON'T FEEL LIKE I'M SABOTAGING MYSELF AT ALL,
BECAUSE IF IT WAS THAT, I WOULD JUST QUIT.
YOU KNOW, I WOULD DO THE REAL SABOTAGING.
I DON'T HALF-ASS ANYTHING.
I'M CALLING DR. NOW TODAY TO CHECK IN WITH HIM,
BECAUSE IT'S BEEN THREE MONTHS SINCE I HAD SEEN HIM.
I KNOW HE WAS WANTING ME TO BE THERE,
AND I HAVEN'T, AND SO I NEED TO TELL HIM WHY I'M NOT THERE.
I'VE BEEN DRAGGING MY FEET GOING TO HOUSTON, NUMBER ONE,
BECAUSE THE FAMILY DON'T WANT ME TO GO.
AND, OF COURSE, THAT MAKES ME FEEL GOOD, BECAUSE THEY LOVE ME.
NUMBER TWO, I DO THINK THERE'S NO NEED FOR ME
TO LIVE IN HOUSTON JUST TO LOSE WEIGHT.
IT WOULD BE DIFFERENT IF I WAS THERE GETTING SURGERY
AND HAVING TO SEE THE DOCTOR,
BUT I SEE NO USE IN HAVING TO LIFT MY LIFE UP
AND MOVE THERE JUST TO BE ON A DIET.
SO I POSSIBLY WILL TALK TO HIM AND ASK HIM,
"WHY CAN I NOT COME DOWN THERE ONCE A MONTH
TO WEIGH IN WITH HIM?"
AND BEST-CASE SCENARIO, HE SAYS, "YOU KNOW WHAT?
THERE'S A FIRST TIME FOR EVERYTHING.
LET'S TRY THIS OUT.
YOU STAY IN OHIO AND DIET, BUT PROMISE ME,
WHEN IT'S TIME TO GET ANY KIND OF SURGERY,
THEN YOU HAVE TO LIVE HERE
FOR AT LEAST SIX WEEKS OR WHATEVER,
OR YOU'RE NOT ALLOWED TO HAVE SURGERY."
HI,ANGELA.
HI, DR. NOW. HOW ARE YOU?
I'M DOING OKAY. HOW ABOUT YOU?
I'M DOING GOOD.
THANK YOU FOR TAKING MY CALL.
WELL, WHAT'S GOING ON WITH YOU?
BECAUSE IT'S BEEN OVER THREE MONTHS SINCE I SAW YOU,
AND YOU HAVEN'T BEEN BY FOR YOUR SECOND APPOINTMENT.
SO, WHAT'S GOING ON?
I'M HAVING PROBLEMS TRYING TO FIND A PLACE TO LIVE THERE
AND A LOT OF HESITATION IN REGARDS TO MOVING.
HOLD ON, ANGELA. YOU HAVEN'T EVEN BEEN BACK
TO SHOW ME YOU HIT THE GOAL I GAVE YOU.
AND YOU'RE ALREADY COMING UP WITH EXCUSES
AND MISSING APPOINTMENTS
WITHOUT US EVEN HEARING FROM YOU.
SO YOU NEED TO DECIDE IF DOING THIS
AND SAVING YOUR LIFE IS IMPORTANT ENOUGH FOR YOU
AND WHETHER YOU WANT TO BE PART OF THE PROGRAM
OR YOU DON'T WANT TO BE PART OF THE PROGRAM.
I DO WANT TO BE PART OF THE PROGRAM.
WELL, IF YOU WANT TO BE PART OF THE PROGRAM,
YOU NEED TO KEEP YOUR APPOINTMENT
AND MAKE SURE THAT YOU SHOW UP,
INSTEAD OF DOING WHATEVER YOU WANT,
BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT DOING THIS ON YOUR TIMETABLE.
THAT'S NOT HOW IT WORKS.
I GAVE YOU A GOAL OF LOSING 40 POUNDS IN TWO MONTHS.
THAT'S A VERY EASY GOAL, BUT THAT'S OVER THREE MONTHS.
AND IF YOU ARE TOTALLY STICKING TO YOUR DIET FOR THAT LONG,
I WOULD EXPECT TO SEE MORE PROGRESS
TO PROVE TO ME YOU'RE
MAKING ANY LEVEL OF CHANGES THAT YOU NEED.
SO, OVER THREE MONTHS, YOUR GOAL WOULD BE 60 POUNDS.
I'VE LOST OVER 70 POUNDS.
YES, BUT WE NEED TO JUST TAKE YOUR WORD FOR THAT?
THAT -- YES, SIR.
SO, WILL YOU BE ABLE TO GO SOMEWHERE TO WEIGH YOURSELF?
HOW DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOU WEIGH?
NOT THAT I KNOW WHAT MY WEIGHT IS,
BUT I CAN NOW FIT IN MY VAN.
I NOW DON'T SIT IN MY BED.
I NOW GO WALK.
AND I DON'T SIT IN MY HOUSE.
WE GO OUT AND LEAVE THE HOUSE EVERY DAY.
AND I WASN'T ABLE TO DO THAT. NOW I CAN.
SO, YOU'RE GUESSING YOU LOST 70 POUNDS.
I'M NOT SURE HOW YOU CAN TELL THAT
WITHOUT KNOWING YOUR WEIGHT.
BUT IF YOU'RE CONFIDENT YOU MADE THAT MUCH PROGRESS,
WHY COULDN'T YOU COME AND SEE US?
THAT'S WHAT I'M TRYING TO DO NOW.
BUT WE HAVEN'T HEARD FROM YOU FOR THREE MONTHS,
AND YOU HAVEN'T RESCHEDULED OR LET US KNOW ANYTHING.
THAT IS A LONG TIME.
I GUESS I DID NOT REALIZE THAT IT'S BEEN THAT LONG.
I NEED TO GET THERE, SO I UNDER-- I KNOW.
SO, WHAT'S THE HOLD-UP FROM COMING DOWN TO HOUSTON?
TO BE VERY HONEST, SIR, THE DIET'S NOT A PROBLEM.
I FEEL GREAT ABOUT DIETING.
I JUST FEEL LIKE BEING CLOSE TO THE FAMILY
IS HELPING ME WITH MY DIET.
AND I FEEL LIKE ME GOING TO HOUSTON ALONE, BY MYSELF --
I JUST THINK IT WOULDN'T BE GOOD FOR ME.
I WANT TO BE YOUR PATIENT AND I WANT TO BE IN THE PROGRAM,
SO I HAD THOUGHT IT WAS NOT A GOOD IDA FOR ME.
EVEN THOUGH I WANT TO DO THE DIETING,
I WISH YOU WOULD SAY,
"THERE'S A FIRST TIME FOR EVERYTHING.
LOSE THE WEIGHT WHILE YOU'RE THERE."
AND THEN IF YOU EVER DO ANY TYPE OF SKIN SURGERY ON ME,
THEN, YES, I HAVE TO STAY THERE,
LIKE, IN A HOTEL FOR A MONTH OR SO.
BUT AS FAR AS MOVING ALL THE WAY THERE
JUST TO BE ON MY DIET AND TO LOSE POUNDS,
I WISH YOU WOULD SAY,
"LET'S DO A FIRST TIME FOR EVERYTHING,
AND, ANGELA, STAY IN OHIO AND LOSE WEIGHT.
COME SEE ME ONCE EVERY TWO MONTHS."
SO IT SOUNDS LIKE YOU WANT TO MAKE YOUR OWN PROGRAM
AND JUST TELL ME HOW IT'S GONNA WORK,
BECAUSE YOU'RE THE EXCEPTION
TO THE THOUSANDS OF PEOPLE LIKE YOU I HAVE HELPED.
I MEAN, IT IS WHAT IT IS.
IF YOUR FAMILY ACTUALLY WAS HELPING YOU LIKE YOU SAY,
THEN YOU'D HAVE LOST THE WEIGHT A LONG TIME AGO.
SO, WHAT IS THE MAGIC
OF STAYING WITH THE SAME ENVIRONMENT
THAT GOT YOU TO BE 600 POUNDS?
WELL, I'VE GOT A NEW GRANDBABY.
I HAVE A CHILD THAT I TOOK CUSTODY OF.
IT'S NOT EXACTLY THE SAME ENVIRONMENT.
ANGELA, IF YOU COULD DO IT
ON YOUR OWN, HOWEVER YOU WANTED,
THEN YOU WOULD HAVE NEVER GOTTEN OVER 600 POUNDS
IN THE FIRST PLACE.
AND IF YOU ARE LOSING WEIGHT NOW,
WHICH IS SERIOUSLY IN DOUBT, THEN YOU'RE NEVER GOING TO BE
ABLE TO MAINTAIN THAT ON YOUR OWN
WITHOUT PROPER TOOLS AND SUPPORT.
LOSING WEIGHT FOR THE SHORT TERM,
VERSUS THE LONG TERM
IS A COMPLETELY DIFFERENT PROCESS,
AND THAT'S WHY YOU NEED TO BE HERE IN HOUSTON.
BUT WE'RE NOT EVEN TO THAT POINT WITH YOU YET,
BECAUSE BEFORE THAT'S EVEN AN OPTION,
I NEED TO SEE THIS ISN'T SOME GAME FOR YOU
AND YOU THINK YOU CAN MANIPULATE ME
INTO GIVING YOU SYMPATHY
AND THAT YOU'RE WILLING TO PUT IN THE WORK
TO DO THIS BY LOSING THE WEIGHT YOU NEED.
SO, RIGHT NOW, YOU NEED TO COME BACK FOR AN APPOINTMENT
SO WE CAN DO THAT. OKAY.
THAT'S UNDERSTANDABLE, YES. I UNDERSTAND.
SO, ARE YOU GOING TO DO IT, OR ARE YOU NOT GOING TO DO IT?
I WILL DO IT.
IF YOU DON'T WANT -- IF YOU SAY, "NO, ANGELA,
YOU CANNOT BE MY PATIENT AND LOSE WEIGHT IN OHIO,"
THEN I'LL SAY, "THEN I WILL MOVE TO HOUSTON.
YES, I WILL DO IT."
WELL, WHAT YOU'RE ASKING ME TO DO
IS BASICALLY PUT YOU IN AN HONOR SYSTEM,
WHERE YOU MONITOR AND MOTIVATE YOURSELF,
WHEN YOU ALREADY FAILED WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY ONCE.
A LIFETIME OF PATHOLOGY DOESN'T JUST GO AWAY OVERNIGHT.
AND SEEING AS HOW YOU MISSED YOUR APPOINTMENT
AND YOU GAVE ME EXCUSES,
I THINK IT IS MORE LIKELY YOU ARE LYING TO ME RIGHT NOW.
BUT IF YOU WANT TO, FROM HERE ON,
WE'RE GONNA HAVE TO SEE YOU WITHIN A WEEK, OKAY?
THAT'S FINE.
YOU WON'T SEE ME, BUT I UNDERSTAND.
THAT'S FINE.
I'VE GOT SOMETHING HERE THAT HAS TO BE HANDLED.
SO, YOU'VE GOT EXCUSES FOR EVERYTHING.
THIS ISN'T A GOOD SITUATION WITH YOU AT ALL.
AND I THINK THE REAL MATTER IS THAT YOU'RE TRYING TO COVER
THE FACT THAT YOU HAVEN'T LOST WHAT YOU NEED.
AND YOU'RE PRETENDING ALL THESE OTHER ISSUES
ARE THE REASON BEHIND WHY YOU HAVEN'T COME DOWN.
SO, WHAT I'M GONNA DO IS,
WE'LL SCHEDULE YOUR APPOINTMENT FOR A MONTH FROM NOW.
BUT YOUR WEIGHT-LOSS GOAL TO HIT FOR THEN
IS 60 POUNDS NOW, INSTEAD OF 40.
THAT'S STILL A VERY EASY GOAL FOR YOU,
AND IF YOU STICK TO YOUR DIET,
YOU SHOULD BE ABLE TO LOSE MORE THAN THAT.
BUT THIS GIVES YOU SOME TIME TO GET YOU HELP
AND GET TO WHERE YOU NEED, IF YOU WANT TO GET SERIOUS NOW.
BUT IF NOT AND YOU PLAY MORE GAMES,
THEN YOU WON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT MOVING TO HOUSTON,
BECAUSE THE PROGRAM WON'T BE AN OPTION FOR YOU.
OKAY, THEN I'LL TRY.
I'LL LET YOU KNOW. I'LL TRY.
OKAY, YOU DO THAT.
BUT KEEP IN MIND THAT YOU'RE PLAYING WITH FIRE, ANGELA,
BECAUSE, RIGHT NOW, IF YOU DON'T LOSE WEIGHT,
THEN YOU'RE NOT GONNA LIVE TILL YOU'RE 50.
AND FROM WHAT YOU TOLD ME,
YOU KNOW YOUR BODY WON'T MAKE IT TO THAT POINT.
SO THIS IS YOUR ONLY CHANCE IF YOU WANT TO CHANGE THAT.
I DO AGREE. WELL, START TO PROVE IT,
BECAUSE I HAVE SERIOUS CONCERNS
ABOUT YOUR COMMITMENT RIGHT NOW.
SO MAKE SURE YOU COME DOWN TO HOUSTON
AND BE HERE FOR YOUR APPOINTMENT NEXT MONTH
AND HAVING LOST 60 POUNDS.I WILL DO THAT.
I AM COMMITTED, SIR, AND I'M GONNA DO THE WORK.
AND I DO WANT TO BE PART OF THE PROGRAM.
OKAY. THANK YOU, SIR.
YOU HAVE A GOOD DAY. YOU TOO.
Angela: EVERYTHING DR. NOW SAID MADE SENSE.
AND I AGREE MORE NOW.
IT'S MORE IMPORTANT TO BE DOWN THERE.
SO THE NEXT STEP FOR ME IS TO GO IN THE NEXT COUPLE WEEKS
AND LOOK AT APARTMENTS IN PERSON.
IF I DO FIND SOMETHING I LIKE OR IF I DO HAVE A GOOD FEELING,
IT WILL HELP ME KNOW THAT THIS IS THE RIGHT THING TO DO.
IF I GO DOWN THERE AND IT'S ALL NEGATIVE,
THEN I'LL KNOW IT'S THE WRONG THING TO DO.
BUT I AM NOT BUILDING A LIFE IN HOUSTON.
I'M GOING TO FOCUS
ON NOTHING BUT ME AND MY HEALTH AND DR. NOW.
I JUST HOPE I'M ABLE TO DO THIS.
Angela: TODAY I HAD A DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENT.
BUT I MISSED IT.
HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO GO TO HOUSTON WHEN I'M SICK?
THAT'S RIDICULOUS.
THE ODDS ARE STACKED AGAINST ME, 100%.
GETTING TO HOUSTON WAS GETTING IMPOSSIBLE.
I FEEL MORE LIKE GOING TO THE EMERGENCY ROOM.
Andrea: HELLO?
YO, WHERE WAS YOU AT?
DO YOU THINK YOU COULD DRIVE ME TO THE E.R.
SO DR. NOW SEES I REALLY AM SICK
AND I'M NOT JUST BLOWING HIM OFF?
YEAH. ALL RIGHT, HONEY.
I LOVE YOU. YOU TOO.
BYE.
SOMETHING'S NOT RIGHT.
RIGHT NOW, I CAN'T BREATHE.
I'M HAVING A BAD DAY.
I FEEL REALLY ON FIRE.
I FEEL LIKE MY INSIDES ARE SHAKING.
I NEVER HAD MY BODY GO NUMB LIKE THIS.
I FEEL LIKE I'M LOSING MY MIND.
I FEEL LIKE SOMETHING'S NOT RIGHT IN MY MIND.
AND I JUST DON'T WANT TO BE IN THE HOSPITAL.
I DON'T WANT TO SIT THERE HOOKED UP ON THEIR MACHINES,
BECAUSE I KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE WHEN THEY LOCK ME UP.
YEAH.
IT'S, LIKE, REALLY GETTING SCARY.
BUT DR. NOW CAN'T BE MAD
BECAUSE OF ME BEING AS SICK AS I AM.
I FEEL LIKE I CAN'T DO THIS AT ALL ANYMORE.
I FEEL LIKE I'M TIRED OF FIGHTING.
I JUST WANT A PILL AND TAKE IT BETTER.
BUT THAT'S ALL I'VE DONE IS TAKE PILLS FOR A WEEK.
HI.NO, SIR.
THERE'S NO PILL TO FIX IT.
I'M JUST -- I KEEP BLACKING OUT.
I THINK THERE'S A PILL TO TAPER IT OFF,
BUT I DON'T WANT TO DIE EITHER.
AND I REALLY JUST WANT THIS TO END.
Dr. Nowzaradan: WE SEEM TO HAVE
A VERY SERIOUS SITUATION WITH ANGELA.
SHE HAS MISSED HER LAST TWO APPOINTMENTS NOW,
SO IT'S BEEN SIX MONTHS SINCE I ORIGINALLY SAW HER.
WHEN SHE MISSED HER FOLLOW-UP APPOINTMENT FOR THE FIRST TIME,
SHE BLAMED NOT BEING ABLE TO FIND A PLACE TO LIVE IN HOUSTON,
WHEN WE WERE NOT EVEN TO THAT POINT WITH HER YET.
AND THIS LAST TIME, SHE CLAIMS SHE WAS TOO SICK
AND NEEDED TIME TO RECOVER, WHILE SHE AVOIDED OUR CALLS
AND DIDN'T RETURN MOST OF OUR MESSAGES FOR THE PAST FEW WEEKS.
BUT SHE FINALLY RESPONDED, SAYING SHE'S BETTER NOW
AND CAN FINALLY TALK, SO WE SET A CALL WITH HER TODAY
TO GIVE HER ONE LAST CHANCE TO DO WHAT SHE NEEDS.
BUT I'M NOT INTERESTED IN ANY MORE OF HER EXCUSES OR GAMES.
AND AT THIS POINT, I HAVE SIGNIFICANT DOUBT
AS TO WHETHER SHE'S REALLY WILLING
TO ACTUALLY PUT ANY EFFORT
IN MAKING LIFE CHANGES SHE NEEDS TO SAVE HER LIFE.
Angela: I'M CALLING DR. NOW TODAY,
BASICALLY TO CHECK IN
AND BASICALLY JUST SEE WHAT HE SAYS.
HE THINKS I'M HOME, NOT DIETING.
HE BELIEVES I'VE GAINED WEIGHT.
AND I KNOW HE HAS HEARD EVERY EXCUSE IN THIS WORLD.
BUT I WANT HIM TO REALLY KNOW
THAT I'M GONNA KEEP LOSING WEIGHT.
THAT'S ALL.
HI, DR. NOW.
Dr. Nowzaradan: HI, ANGELA. HOW YOU DOING?
I'M GOOD.
SO, WE HAVE A BIT OF AN ISSUE AGAIN,
BECAUSE YOU MISSED YOUR APPOINTMENT AGAIN,
SAYING YOU WERE SICK, BUT IT TURNED OUT YOU WEREN'T.
SO, WHAT IS YOUR EXCUSE THIS TIME?
I JUST HAD SOME FAMILY THINGS GOING ON,
AND I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO COME OUT TO TEXAS.
BUT I DO PLAN ON BEING OUT THERE TO, HOPEFULLY, GET AN APARTMENT.
I'VE HAD NO LUCK ON THIS END.
YOU'VE BEEN TRYING TO DO THAT FOR A WHILE NOW,
BUT YOU HAVEN'T BEEN GETTING BACK TO US
AND YOU'VE BEEN AVOIDING MY CALLS,
MAKING EXCUSES, AND LYING TO US.
BUT NOW YOU AREN'T SICK.
YOU HAVE COMPLETELY RECOVERED, IT SEEMS.
SO, WHAT'S THE REASON
YOU'RE STILL NOT COMING DOWN TO HOUSTON
TO SEE ME FOR YOUR FOLLOW-UP APPOINTMENT?
YOU KNOW WHAT? I'LL BE VERY HONEST WITH YOU.
I DON'T KNOW WHY IT TOOK SO LONG.
IT SEEMED LIKE SOMETHING WAS HAPPENING EVERY OTHER WEEK.
SO, YOU LET ANOTHER MONTH GO WITHOUT DOING
WHAT YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO BE DOING,
BECAUSE IT DOESN'T LOOK LIKE YOU HAVE LOST ANY WEIGHT,
SO YOU KEEP MAKING EXCUSES AND NOT COMING DOWN HERE
'CAUSE YOU'RE NOT SERIOUS ABOUT IT.
OKAY, YOU SAY I DON'T LOOK LIKE I'VE LOST ANY WEIGHT,
BUT I FEEL LIKE I'VE LOST A LOT OF WEIGHT.
I THINK THIS IS A LITTLE LIE YOU KEEP TELLING EVERYONE,
BECAUSE IF YOU HAVE LOST THE WEIGHT,
YOU WOULDN'T BE AVOIDING COMING BACK
TO SHOW ME YOUR PROGRESS.
THE MOST COMMON CAUSE OF PEOPLE
WHEN THEY DON'T SHOW UP FOR AN APPOINTMENT
IS BECAUSE THEY HAVEN'T LOST WEIGHT.
AND YOU'RE NOT ANY DIFFERENT THAN EVERYBODY ELSE.
AND EVERY TIME YOU MISS YOUR APPOINTMENT,
WE HAVEN'T HEARD FROM YOU,
AND YOU HAVEN'T CALLED, SO YOU ARE AVOIDING US.
AND THE REASON FOR THAT IS, RIGHT NOW,
I THINK YOU'RE BUYING TIME,
BECAUSE ONE OF THE DELUSIONS YOU CAN CONVINCE YOURSELF OF
IS THAT YOU'RE GOING TO DO IT EVENTUALLY.
BUT "EVENTUALLY" NEVER COMES, AND THEN, ONE DAY,
YOUR BODY GIVES OUT, AND THAT WILL BE IT FOR YOU.
SO, THE REAL REASON IS
THAT ALL THESE OTHER EXCUSES YOU'VE GIVEN,
IT IS THAT YOU'RE PLAYING GAMES
AND TRYING TO MANIPULATE ME IN YOUR SITUATION.
THAT'S NOT THE REASON WHATSOEVER.
THAT'S NOT MY EXCUSE WHATSOEVER.
I'VE BEEN ON YOUR DIET SINCE I LEFT,
AND I'M DOING GREAT.
YOU TELL ME YOU'VE COMPLETELY STUCK TO THE DIET
AND YOU HAVEN'T EVEN SETTLED ONCE WITH IT?
I CHEATED EATING, AND I HAD ALCOHOLIC DRINKS.
SO I DID HAVE A SETBACK FOR THREE NIGHTS.
BUT I FEEL LIKE I'VE MADE UP FOR IT.
THAT'S STILL A LIE. THE ONLY THING YOU HAVE --
WHAT YOU SAY IS THAT YOU'VE BEEN CHEATING ON THE DIET.
BUT YOU DON'T NEED ME TO EXPLAIN THAT TO YOU,
BECAUSE YOU KNOW YOU'RE LYING,
AND THAT'S WHY YOU'RE AVOIDING COMING BACK --
BECAUSE YOU HAVEN'T LOST ANY WEIGHT,
AND PROBABLY, YOU'VE GAINED SOME WEIGHT.
AND YOU WANT TO DELAY COMING DOWN HERE
SO YOU CAN LOSE WEIGHT AND GET BACK IN THE PROGRAM.
THAT'S NOT THE REASON.
I JUST HAVEN'T EVEN -- I'VE LOOKED FOR A PLACE
DOWN THERE, AND I HAVEN'T FOUND ANYTHING.
BUT I HAD THE PLANS,
AND I THINK I FOUND THE PLACE I WANT TO RENT.
SO I HOPE YOU STILL LET ME BE IN THE PROGRAM.
ANGELA, THIS ISN'T ABOUT FINDING A PLACE TO SAY IN HOUSTON.
I TOLD YOU LAST TIME, WE'RE NOT EVEN TO THAT POINT.
SO STOP WITH ALL THE EXCUSES AND LIES AND GAMES.
YOU HAVE SPENT YOUR WHOLE LIFE FINDING WAYS
TO MANIPULATE PEOPLE AROUND YOU
AND CREATING A FACADE AND DELUSION
THAT YOU'RE TRYING OR YOU'RE NOT EATING VERY MUCH
OR YOU'RE GONNA GET HEALTHY,
WHEN YOU HAVE NO REAL INTENTION OF DOING THAT.
YOU JUST WANT TO EAT WHAT YOU WANT
AND HOPE FOR A MAGIC SOLUTION
TO SAVE YOU FROM THE CONSEQUENCE OF THAT.
THE ONLY WAY TO CHANGE THE FACT
THAT YOU'RE GONNA DIE SOON BECAUSE OF YOUR WEIGHT
IS THAT YOU HAVE TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT.
YOU HAVE TO DO IT.
AND YOU NEED TO DECIDE IF YOU WANT TO DO THAT NOW,
BECAUSE I'M GIVING YOU ONE MORE WEEK TO COME BACK DOWN
SO I CAN SEE IF YOU'RE MAKING PROGRESS OR NOT.
BUT IF YOU'RE GONNA KEEP MAKING EXCUSES
AND TRY TO AVOID ME,
THEN I DON'T NEED TO WASTE MY TIME,
AND THIS IS NOT GONNA WORK FOR YOU.
WHEN YOU SAID YOU WANT ME TO COME IN A WEEK,
SO WHEN I COME IN A WEEK
AND YOU SEE THAT I HAVE LOST 120 POUNDS,
THEN YOU'LL SEE THAT I AM SERIOUS
AND I HAVE BEEN SERIOUS.
I AM NOT LIKE OTHERS.
I'M NOT NOTCOMING BECAUSE I'M NOT LOSING WEIGHT.
SO I HOPE THAT YOU SEE I'M NOT LYING
WHEN I GET THERE.
NOW YOU'RE CLAIMING YOU LOST 120 POUNDS SINCE I SAW YOU?
LAST MONTH, IT WAS 70 POUNDS.
SO, ARE YOU SAYING YOU LOST ANOTHER 50 POUNDS SINCE THEN?
YES, SIR.
THEN HOW COME YOU DON'T LOOK LIKE IT
AND YOU'RE STILL ON THE OXYGEN?
I DON'T KNOW, SIR.
BUT I HAVE BEEN FOLLOWING MY DIET,
AND I'M DOING GREAT.
ANGELA, YOU'RE MORE DELUSIONAL THAN I THOUGHT
IF YOU STILL THINK YOU CAN MANIPULATE ME.
AND WHEN IT COMES TO THIS PROGRAM,
YOU'RE NOT SPECIAL,
AND LYING TO ME ABOUT YOUR WEIGHT
IS NOT GONNA GET ME TO TELL YOU WHAT YOU WANT.
YOU HAVE ONE OPTION -- IF YOU WANT TO DO THIS
AND SAVE YOUR LIFE, COME BACK DOWN HERE
AND SHOW ME WHERE YOUR WEIGHT IS AT,
AND THEN WE CAN START YOU ON PSYCHOTHERAPY
TO TRY AND FIND A WAY TO GET THROUGH TO YOU
AND BREAK THROUGH ALL YOUR LIES AND DELUSIONS.
IN FACT, THEN THAT WILL BE IT FOR YOU,
BECAUSE I'M DONE PLAYING YOUR GAMES.
AND IF YOU MISS YOUR APPOINTMENT AGAIN,
FOR WHATEVER REASON, I'M NOT TAKING ANY EXCUSES.
EITHER YOUR HEALTH AND HAVING YOUR LIFE
IS A PRIORITY OR IT'S NOT.
WE CAN'T MAKE THE CHOICE FOR YOU.
SO BE HERE IN ONE WEEK, OR THE PROGRAM WILL NO LONGER
BE AN OPTION FOR YOU.
OKAY, I WILL DO THAT.
I HAD PLANNED ON THE NEXT COUPLE WEEKS,
BUT I WILL WORK ON THAT RIGHT WHEN WE HANG UP, SIR.
AND YOU'LL SEE, WHEN I COME DOWN THERE,
THAT I SHOULD HAVE LOST 120 POUNDS.
SO WHEN YOU SEE THE SCALE,
THEN YOU'LL TAKE BACK EVERYTHING YOU JUST SAID.
BUT THAT'S FINE.
IF YOU DO, I'LL BE MORE THAN HAPPY
TO TAKE BACK WHAT I'VE SAID.
I'M GIVING YOU A CHANCE.
IT IS UP TO YOU TO TAKE IT, OKAY?
I APPRECIATE THAT. I WILL TAKE IT.
ALL RIGHT, ANGELA.
TALK TO YOU SOON. BYE-BYE.
Dr. Nowzaradan: IT'S VERY DISAPPOINTING
TO HAVE ANGELA STILL CHOOSING TO LIE
TO TRY AND MANIPULATE ME,
INSTEAD OF TAKING RESPONSIBILITY.
SHE DOESN'T LOOK TO HAVE MADE MUCH, IF ANY, PROGRESS.
AND HER LEVEL OF PATHOLOGY AND DELUSION
IS AMONG THE HIGHEST I HAVE EVER SEEN.
SHE'S JUST PILED ON ONE LIE AFTER ANOTHER,
UNTIL THE FACADE SHE CREATES IS SO BIG
THAT SHE CAN'T BACK IT UP ANYMORE.
BUT INSTEAD OF COMING CLEAN,
WHEN SHE CAN'T SUPPORT EVERYTHING SHE HAS MADE UP,
SHE JUST STARTS A NEW LIE AND KEEPS GOING.
SO PSYCHOTHERAPY IS GOING TO HAVE TO MAKE
SIGNIFICANT PROGRESS WITH HER TO TRY TO ADDRESS THIS DELUSION
BEFORE WE EVEN CONSIDER MOVING AHEAD
WITH ANOTHER WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY WITH HER.
BUT TO EVEN GET TO THAT POINT, SHE NEEDS TO FOLLOW THROUGH
AND COME BACK FOR HER NEXT APPOINTMENT
AND HIT HER GOAL.
SO ANGELA NEEDS TO MAKE A CHOICE
WHETHER SHE'S GOING TO DO THIS OR NOT,
BECAUSE SHE'S NOT GETTING ANY MORE CHANCES AFTER TODAY.
BUT I'M HOPING SHE STARTS TO WAKE UP,
BECAUSE IF SHE DOESN'T, IT'S GONNA COST HER HER LIFE.
Travis: HELLO?
HEY, WHATCHA DOING, TRAVIS? NOTHING.
WHAT ARE YOU UP TO?NOTHING.
I JUST GOT OFF THE PHONE WITH DR. NOW,
AND HE WAS JUMPING MY ASS.
HE JUST SAID, "IF YOU WANT TO BE PART OF THE PROGRAM,
YOU NEED TO BE HERE IN THE NEXT WEEK."
SO, I'M GONNA TRY TO GET AHOLD OF ERIC TONIGHT
AND SEE WHAT HE SAYS.
THAT'S HAPPENING FAST.
WELL, KIND OF PISSES ME OFF.
HE SAYS THAT, BUT HE'S LIKE,
"EITHER YOU'RE GONNA WORRY ABOUT YOUR HEALTH OR YOU'RE NOT."
IT SOUNDS LIKE HE WANTS TO HELP YOU OUT.
YEAH, BUT I'M HAPPY WITH MYSELF,
AS FAR AS WHAT I'VE BEEN DOING HERE.
I NEED TO JUST SHOW DR. NOW, SO...
ALL RIGHT, TRAV, I'M GONNA LET YOU GET BACK TO WORK.
OKAY. I LOVE YOU.
MM, BYE. BYE.
Angela: DR. NOW WAS SAYING, "YOU NEED TO GET HERE.
WHEN YOU MISS APPOINTMENTS,"
IT MAKES HIM THINK YOU'RE NOT SERIOUS ABOUT YOUR DIET.
AND I THINK ME AND HIM DISAGREE SOMEWHAT ON THINGS,
BECAUSE HE SAID PEOPLE DON'T COME
BECAUSE THEY HAVEN'T LOST THEIR WEIGHT,
AND HE SAID, "AND YOU'RE NO DIFFERENT THAN OTHERS."
BUT I ABSOLUTELY AM DIFFERENT FROM OTHERS.
HE DON'T BELIEVE ME -- I DON'T KNOW --
MAYBE 'CAUSE SO MANY PEOPLE SAY THINGS THAT AREN'T TRUE,
BUT I KNOW WHAT I'VE DONE,
SO I'M NOT UPSET ABOUT WHAT HE SAID,
BECAUSE HE CAN ONLY SEE ME CHEST-UP.
SO I WANT HIM TO SEE THAT I'VE NOT BEEN IN OHIO,
HIDING FROM HIM.
BUT PART OF ME FEELS LIKE IT'S KIND OF A WASTE
GOING DOWN THERE, BECAUSE I'M STILL DIETING.
I'M STILL LOSING WEIGHT. I'M STILL LOOKING AT WHAT I EAT.
SO I DON'T KNOW IF I SHOULD GO.
I'M REALLY 50/50.
Angela: I'VE NOT SEEN DR. NOW FOR SIX MONTHS.
I HAD TO CHOOSE TO PUT TEXAS ON HOLD.
I DO WANT TO GO SEE DR. NOW.
I'M NOT TRYING TO NOTGO SEE HIM.
BUT, RIGHT NOW, TO STAY ON DR. NOW'S PROGRAM,
IT'S TOO MUCH.
SO I'M STAYING IN CONTACT WITH DR. NOW.
I'M CONTINUING TO WATCH WHAT I EAT,
WATCH WHAT I DRINK.
I'M CONTINUING TO EXERCISE.
BUT WITH ME HAVING LACY AND MY RESPONSIBILITIES,
I'VE NOT BEEN ABLE TO LEAVE AND JUST GO TO TEXAS.
RIGHT NOW, THE SITUATION WITH LACY IS,
SHE COULDN'T LEAVE AND DIDN'T HAVE NO PARENT TO GO TO.
SHE WAS GONNA BE REUNITED WITH HER MOM,
AND THAT DID NOT WORK OUT THE WAY WE WANTED IT TO.
SO I STILL HAVE RESPONSIBILITY OF HER.
AND AS LONG AS I HAVE LACY IN MY HOUSE,
IT'S NOT ABOUT ANGELA.
IT HAS TO BE ABOUT ANGELA AND LACY.
WHAT ARE WE HAVING FOR DINNER?
DO WE HAVE A WHOLE BOX OF TURKEY BURGERS?
I DON'T KNOW. I CAN CHECK. HOW MANY DO YOU WANT?
I SHOULD ONLY HAVE ONE, BUT I WANT TWO.
I'M HUNGRY.I ONLY WANT ONE.
ALL RIGHT.
GO SEE IF THEY'RE IN THERE, HONEY.
LACY MEANS THE WORLD TO ME.
WITH THE WEIGHT THAT I'VE LOST,
NOW WE HAVE MORE FUN COOKING DINNER TOGETHER,
BECAUSE SHE'S NOT DOING THE MAJORITY OF IT.
WE'RE DOING IT TOGETHER.
SHE LOVES COOKING. I LOVE COOKING.
EVEN THOUGH SHE LOVES IT, I'M ABLE TO NOW.
I DON'T NEED HER TO.
AND SO SOMETIMES I HAVE TO TELL HER TO SIT DOWN,
LET ME DO IT.
YOU GOT YOUR POTATOES?
WE HAD TO LEARN A LOT ABOUT EACH OTHER
WHEN SHE MOVED IN HERE.
WHEN I FIRST GOT HER, IN THE FIRST SIX MONTHS,
WE DIDN'T HAVE A REAL CLOSE CONNECTION.
AND NOW I LOVE HER LIKE SHE'S MY OWN.
SO, YES, I CHOSE LACY OVER MY HEALTH.
BUT, YOU KNOW, EVEN THOUGH I GAINED A LITTLE BIT BACK,
I STILL LOST A LOT OF IT.
THAT MAKES ME WANT TO KEEP DIETING
AND NOT TURN TO THE BAD FOOD
AND NOT GO BACK TO THE JUNK FOOD AND DRINKS.
WILL YOU STICK MY CUP IN THE SINK FOR ME?
YOU READY TO GO GET SOME ICE CREAM?
YEAH!
THEN GET READY TO GO.
MY MOBILITY IS --
IT'S A LOT BETTER THAN IT HAS BEEN IN YEARS.
AND I CAN ACTUALLY WALK OUT AND GET IN MY VAN.
GOT IT?
I CAN TAKE LACY SOMEWHERE.
IF SHE WANTS TO GO SOMEWHERE
OR IF I WANT TO SURPRISE HER WITH SOMETHING
OR REWARD HER WITH SOMETHING,
WE WALK OUTSIDE AND GET IN THE CAR AND GO.
I'VE DEFINITELY CAME A LONG WAY.
I STILL HAVE A LONG WAY TO GO, THOUGH.
BUT I HAVE MADE ACCOMPLISHMENTS AND PROGRESS.
FOR RIGHT NOW, TODAY, I KNOW I'M GETTING HEALTHIER.
LACY'S PROUD OF ME. MY DAUGHTER'S PROUD OF ME.
MY GRANDBABY'S PROUD OF ME.
EVEN THOUGH I STILL HAVE A LONG ROAD AHEAD OF ME,
THERE'S LIGHT AT THE END OF THE ROAD.
WHOO!
I DON'T WANT TO GO BACK.
I DON'T WANT TO TAKE STEPS BACKWARDS.
I NEED TO KEEP THE BALL ROLLING, PER SE.
THANK YOU.YOU'RE WELCOME, HONEY.
THIS IS REAL GOOD.
YOU REMEMBER WHEN I COULDN'T EVEN TAKE YOU
TO THE STORE LIKE THIS?MM-HMM.
OR IF WE DID GO, IT WAS VERY --
IT HURT SO BAD TO TRY TO GET IN THE VAN.
REMEMBER THEM DAYS?
YEP. THEY'RE LONG GONE.
NOT TODAY! NOT TODAY!
IT MIGHT SEEM LIKE I'VE GAVE UP.
YOU KNOW, I MIGHT HAVE GAVE UP SOME,
BUT I'VE NOT TRULY GAVE UP.
I STILL HAVE A LONG WAYS TO GO BEFORE I'M HAPPY
WITH EVERYTHING, BUT TODAY IS A GOOD DAY.
TODAY IS -- I'M NOT GONNA WORRY ABOUT IT.
I MEAN, THERE PROBABLY WILL COME A DAY
WHEN I HAVE TO GET THERE.
BUT I'LL GET THERE.