1 00:00:03,482 --> 00:00:06,344 Angela: IF I DON'T DO THIS RIGHT NOW, 2 00:00:06,344 --> 00:00:08,758 THEN JUST SIGN MY DEATH CERTIFICATE, 3 00:00:08,758 --> 00:00:11,068 BECAUSE I'M DONE. 4 00:00:11,068 --> 00:00:14,137 --Captions by VITAC-- www.vitac.com 5 00:00:14,137 --> 00:00:17,275 CAPTIONS PAID FOR BY DISCOVERY COMMUNICATIONS 6 00:00:17,275 --> 00:00:19,724 Woman: HE CAN'T STOP. HE DOESN'T KNOW HOW. 7 00:00:19,724 --> 00:00:22,655 Woman #2: IT'S TERRIFYING TO THINK THAT AT ANY MOMENT, 8 00:00:22,655 --> 00:00:24,758 YOUR HEART COULD EXPLODE. 9 00:00:24,758 --> 00:00:29,862 ♪♪ 10 00:00:29,862 --> 00:00:35,344 ♪♪ 11 00:00:35,344 --> 00:00:37,551 Woman #3: I DON'T WANT TO DIE. 12 00:00:37,551 --> 00:00:39,551 I HAVEN'T EVEN GOTTEN TO LIVE YET. 13 00:00:44,241 --> 00:00:46,000 WHY ARE YOU JUMPING ON MY CASE? 14 00:00:46,000 --> 00:00:49,586 YOU'RE OVEREATING, AND YOU ACT LIKE IT IS OUR FAULT. 15 00:00:49,586 --> 00:00:51,172 I KNOW THAT I'M DYING. 16 00:00:51,172 --> 00:00:53,344 I KNOW THAT I'M NOT GONNA MAKE IT. 17 00:00:58,551 --> 00:00:59,827 I'M GONNA BE DEAD NEXT YEAR. 18 00:00:59,827 --> 00:01:01,241 I KNOW I AM. 19 00:01:01,241 --> 00:01:02,758 AND NOTHING HAS WORKED, 20 00:01:02,758 --> 00:01:04,793 AND YOU HAVEN'T CHANGED YOUR EATING HABIT. 21 00:01:04,793 --> 00:01:14,724 ♪♪ 22 00:01:14,724 --> 00:01:22,862 ♪♪ 23 00:01:22,862 --> 00:01:32,034 ♪♪ 24 00:01:32,034 --> 00:01:34,206 Angela: WHEN I FIRST OPEN MY EYES, 25 00:01:34,206 --> 00:01:36,241 THE VERY FIRST THING I THINK OF, 26 00:01:36,241 --> 00:01:39,586 EVERY SINGLE MORNING, IS, "WHY, GOD?" 27 00:01:39,586 --> 00:01:42,482 THERE'S GOT TO BE A REASON FOR HIM DOING THIS, 28 00:01:42,482 --> 00:01:45,137 KEEPING ME GOING. 29 00:01:45,137 --> 00:01:46,896 BECAUSE EVERY SINGLE DAY OF MY LIFE, 30 00:01:46,896 --> 00:01:49,896 IS AN ABSOLUTE NIGHTMARE. 31 00:01:49,896 --> 00:01:55,172 I JUST FEEL LIKE I AM TRAPPED IN THIS BODY. 32 00:01:55,172 --> 00:02:00,275 AND MORNINGS IS WHEN I HURT THE MOST OUT OF THE ENTIRE DAY. 33 00:02:00,275 --> 00:02:04,413 THAT'S WHEN IT FEELS LIKE SOMEBODY'S HOLDING A TORCH. 34 00:02:04,413 --> 00:02:07,827 LIKE, DIFFERENT AREAS, MY SKIN WAS RIPPING OPEN. 35 00:02:07,827 --> 00:02:12,620 IT'S PAIN THAT I CAN'T EXPLAIN. 36 00:02:12,620 --> 00:02:16,413 AND EVERY WEEK IS WORSE. 37 00:02:16,413 --> 00:02:18,344 I LIVE WITH MY SON, CHRISTOPHER, 38 00:02:18,344 --> 00:02:21,586 AND MY COUSIN'S DAUGHTER, WHICH HER NAME IS LACY. 39 00:02:21,586 --> 00:02:24,103 SHE'S 11. SHE LIVES WITH US. 40 00:02:24,103 --> 00:02:26,517 I TOOK LACY BECAUSE HER MOM AND DAD 41 00:02:26,517 --> 00:02:29,827 ARE MAKING SOME BAD DECISIONS RIGHT NOW IN LIFE. 42 00:02:29,827 --> 00:02:34,344 SO IT'S BEST THAT SHE STAYS WITH ME. 43 00:02:34,344 --> 00:02:36,206 LACY, IT'S TIME TO GET UP. 44 00:02:36,206 --> 00:02:38,931 YOU GOT TO GET UP. [ CLEARS THROAT ] 45 00:02:38,931 --> 00:02:42,448 YOU GOT TO GET UP. GOOD MORNING, SUNSHINE. 46 00:02:42,448 --> 00:02:45,793 SO, I HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO GET UP IN THE MORNINGS 47 00:02:45,793 --> 00:02:47,655 TO GET LACY UP FOR SCHOOL. 48 00:02:51,655 --> 00:02:53,758 I WAS SCARED WHEN LACY CAME, 49 00:02:53,758 --> 00:02:56,448 BECAUSE OF ME BEING AS SICK AS I AM. 50 00:02:56,448 --> 00:02:59,000 I REALLY DIDN'T THINK IT WAS A GOOD IDEA. 51 00:02:59,000 --> 00:03:02,103 BUT I DON'T THINK GOD WOULD WANT ME TO TURN HER AWAY. 52 00:03:02,103 --> 00:03:07,379 ♪♪ 53 00:03:07,379 --> 00:03:09,724 JUST TO GET OUT OF MY BED IN THE MORNING, 54 00:03:09,724 --> 00:03:12,931 I DON'T THINK PEOPLE UNDERSTAND THE PAIN YOU FEEL. 55 00:03:12,931 --> 00:03:16,206 BECAUSE OF THE WEIGHT BEING SO HEAVY, 56 00:03:16,206 --> 00:03:18,000 I'M HARDLY ABLE TO WALK. 57 00:03:18,000 --> 00:03:20,724 I HAVE TO HANG ON TO THE WALL. 58 00:03:20,724 --> 00:03:23,965 I MAKE IT INTO THE BATHROOM, I GOT TO SIT. 59 00:03:23,965 --> 00:03:27,551 I GET IN THE SHOWER, IT'S SO DANGEROUS. 60 00:03:29,655 --> 00:03:33,137 I'M SCARED TO DEATH BECAUSE I COULD FALL ON MY FACE, 61 00:03:33,137 --> 00:03:36,896 AND IF I'M DOWN, THERE'S NO GETTING UP. 62 00:03:41,413 --> 00:03:44,793 I CAN'T EVEN FIT MY WHOLE BODY IN THE SHOWER BECAUSE OF MY LEG. 63 00:03:44,793 --> 00:03:53,000 ♪♪ 64 00:03:53,000 --> 00:03:54,344 AND THEN, WHEN I HAVE TO GET MY LEG UP 65 00:03:54,344 --> 00:03:57,275 ON A BENCH, IT'S DANGEROUS. 66 00:03:57,275 --> 00:03:59,000 IT HURTS. 67 00:04:01,724 --> 00:04:03,448 MY HYGIENE IS AWFUL, 68 00:04:03,448 --> 00:04:06,655 AND I'M DAYS AWAY FROM NOT BEING ABLE TO BATHE MYSELF. 69 00:04:06,655 --> 00:04:09,793 I'M THERE. TO BE HONEST, I AM THERE, 70 00:04:09,793 --> 00:04:13,000 BECAUSE WHEN I BATHE MYSELF, I CAN'T EVEN DO IT GOOD. 71 00:04:16,241 --> 00:04:19,275 YOU KNOW, OF COURSE, I DON'T WANT LACY SEEING ME. 72 00:04:19,275 --> 00:04:22,000 I EXPLAIN TO HER, "WE SHARE A ROOM, 73 00:04:22,000 --> 00:04:24,172 BUT THERE HAS GOT TO BE PRIVACY." 74 00:04:26,931 --> 00:04:28,931 AND SHE KNOWS THAT I'M EMBARRASSED. 75 00:04:28,931 --> 00:04:31,896 SHE KNOWS I AM. 76 00:04:31,896 --> 00:04:34,655 [ Voice breaking ] I DON'T WANT HER TO THINK I'M A MONSTER. 77 00:04:38,379 --> 00:04:40,965 BUT ANYBODY WHO'S EVER KNOWN ME HAS KNOWN 78 00:04:40,965 --> 00:04:46,758 I WAS CLEAN, NICE CLOTHES, PRETTY HAIR, PRETTY NAILS. 79 00:04:46,758 --> 00:04:49,344 AND I DON'T BARELY DO MAKEUP NO MORE. 80 00:04:49,344 --> 00:04:52,103 I DON'T FIX MY HAIR NO MORE. 81 00:04:52,103 --> 00:04:56,241 I CAN'T WEAR PANTS. I CAN'T WEAR UNDERWEAR. 82 00:04:56,241 --> 00:04:59,758 I USED TO WEAR 1X. 83 00:04:59,758 --> 00:05:03,793 NOW I WEAR A 9X. 84 00:05:03,793 --> 00:05:10,172 AND I'VE NOT PUT A PAIR OF SHOES ON MY FEET IN 2 1/2 YEARS. 85 00:05:12,724 --> 00:05:16,931 AND THIS OXYGEN -- I HATE IT. 86 00:05:16,931 --> 00:05:19,724 BUT I HAVE TO HAVE IT 24/7. 87 00:05:19,724 --> 00:05:23,827 A FEW WEEKS AGO, I TRIED TO GO WITHOUT IT. 88 00:05:23,827 --> 00:05:25,413 IT WAS NOT GOOD. 89 00:05:25,413 --> 00:05:28,172 MY HEAD FELT LIKE IT WAS GONNA EXPLODE. 90 00:05:28,172 --> 00:05:31,482 SO NOW I DON'T CARE. THIS IS IT. 91 00:05:31,482 --> 00:05:35,827 AND AS HARD AS IT IS FOR ME TO SIT AT A KITCHEN TABLE, 92 00:05:35,827 --> 00:05:39,586 I DO IT BECAUSE I WANT LACY TO HAVE NORMALCY. 93 00:05:39,586 --> 00:05:42,862 SO WE'LL GO IN THERE, AND I COOK BREAKFAST. 94 00:05:42,862 --> 00:05:45,000 WOULD YOU HELP ME GET MY SKILLET OUT? 95 00:05:45,000 --> 00:05:46,896 YEAH. 96 00:05:46,896 --> 00:05:49,413 IF I CAN'T REACH SOMETHING, SHE REACHES IT. 97 00:05:52,586 --> 00:05:55,344 SHE LOVES COOKING. 98 00:05:55,344 --> 00:05:58,034 AND OF COURSE, WITH ME NEEDING HELP, 99 00:05:58,034 --> 00:06:01,241 IT WORKS OUT PERFECT. 100 00:06:01,241 --> 00:06:03,413 Lacy: MY AUNT ANGELA MEANS A LOT TO ME 101 00:06:03,413 --> 00:06:05,448 BECAUSE SHE TAKES CARE OF ME. 102 00:06:05,448 --> 00:06:10,344 I HELP MAKE DINNER SOMETIMES, BECAUSE I WANT TO SUPPORT HER. 103 00:06:12,517 --> 00:06:14,689 Angela: MY FAVORITE THING IN THE MORNING 104 00:06:14,689 --> 00:06:17,689 IS SAUSAGE AND CHEESY EGGS. 105 00:06:17,689 --> 00:06:19,517 Lacy: YOU'RE GONNA EAT ALL THAT? 106 00:06:19,517 --> 00:06:21,241 Angela: YEP. 107 00:06:26,068 --> 00:06:29,068 FOOD MEANS COMFORT. 108 00:06:29,068 --> 00:06:34,517 AND WHEN I PUT A PIECE OF FOOD IN MY MOUTH, I FEEL RELAXED. 109 00:06:34,517 --> 00:06:38,241 I LITERALLY EAT TO FEEL GOOD. 110 00:06:38,241 --> 00:06:41,689 I EAT ALL THE TIME. 111 00:06:41,689 --> 00:06:43,827 WHEN I EAT, I LITERALLY DO FEEL 112 00:06:43,827 --> 00:06:48,896 A WARM FEELING IN MY BODY THAT SAYS, "IT'S GONNA BE OKAY." 113 00:06:48,896 --> 00:06:54,551 AND WHEN I GET DONE EATING, THERE IS TIMES I GET UPSET. 114 00:06:54,551 --> 00:06:56,206 WAS THAT AUNT STACY? YEP. 115 00:06:56,206 --> 00:06:59,862 COME ON IN. WE'RE IN HERE, HON. 116 00:06:59,862 --> 00:07:05,206 BUT THEN LACY'S AUNT STACY TAKES HER TO SCHOOL. 117 00:07:05,206 --> 00:07:06,862 Stacy: ALL RIGHT. I'LL SEE YOU, ANGE. 118 00:07:06,862 --> 00:07:09,517 BYE, HON. 119 00:07:09,517 --> 00:07:10,896 BYE. 120 00:07:10,896 --> 00:07:15,000 AND WHILE SHE'S AT SCHOOL, I'LL EAT NONSTOP. 121 00:07:15,000 --> 00:07:22,413 ♪♪ 122 00:07:22,413 --> 00:07:24,586 I HAVE TWO KIDS. 123 00:07:24,586 --> 00:07:27,310 MY DAUGHTER'S NAME IS ANDREA. 124 00:07:27,310 --> 00:07:31,137 ANDREA AND HER DAUGHTER, MY GRANDDAUGHTER, 125 00:07:31,137 --> 00:07:32,862 WILL BRING ME WHAT I WANT. 126 00:07:32,862 --> 00:07:36,000 HI, NANA. [ GASPS ] HI! 127 00:07:36,000 --> 00:07:38,482 WHAT YOU GOT?! HI, GUYS! 128 00:07:38,482 --> 00:07:40,517 AND MINE ONCE. 129 00:07:40,517 --> 00:07:45,586 MY MOM WILL ASK ME TO PICK HER UP FAST FOOD. 130 00:07:45,586 --> 00:07:48,413 SHE'S BECOME COMPLETELY HOUSEBOUND. 131 00:07:48,413 --> 00:07:50,034 SHE CAN BARELY COOK. 132 00:07:50,034 --> 00:07:51,448 WITH HER LYMPHEDEMA, 133 00:07:51,448 --> 00:07:54,758 I UNDERSTAND THAT SHE CANNOT DO THAT NO MORE. 134 00:07:54,758 --> 00:07:58,689 SO I JUST WANT TO PICK UP THE SLACK. 135 00:07:58,689 --> 00:08:01,310 THAT'S KIND OF OUR THING -- ME, ANDREA, EMMA. 136 00:08:01,310 --> 00:08:05,137 WE EAT LUNCH TOGETHER, PLAY GAMES. 137 00:08:05,137 --> 00:08:10,379 I DON'T WANT TO BE IN THIS BED, BUT I CAN'T DO NOTHING ABOUT IT. 138 00:08:10,379 --> 00:08:14,586 Andrea: MY MOM HAS A PROBLEM WITH FOOD. 139 00:08:14,586 --> 00:08:16,965 IT'S A HARD SITUATION. 140 00:08:16,965 --> 00:08:19,896 I FEEL LIKE SHE IS USING FOOD AS A COMFORT 141 00:08:19,896 --> 00:08:22,862 BECAUSE SHE IS GOING THROUGH SO MUCH PAIN. 142 00:08:26,655 --> 00:08:31,068 I WOULD EAT FAST FOOD EVERY DAY IF I COULD. 143 00:08:31,068 --> 00:08:33,758 IT'S MY FAVORITE THING IN THE WORLD. 144 00:08:33,758 --> 00:08:35,034 GIVE HER HUGS. 145 00:08:35,034 --> 00:08:36,068 THANK YOU SO MUCH.LOVE YOU. 146 00:08:36,068 --> 00:08:38,551 BUT I HAVE LET FOOD STEAL MY LIFE. 147 00:08:38,551 --> 00:08:40,034 BYE, NANA. BYE, NANA. 148 00:08:40,034 --> 00:08:41,379 THANK YOU, GUYS. 149 00:08:41,379 --> 00:08:44,344 IT'S JUST NOT HUMAN TO BE THIS FAT. 150 00:08:44,344 --> 00:08:47,551 I'M NOT HUMAN. 151 00:08:47,551 --> 00:08:49,551 [ Voice breaking ] I'M A MONSTER. 152 00:08:49,551 --> 00:08:51,275 I HATE IT. 153 00:08:51,275 --> 00:08:53,758 I NEVER THOUGHT MY LIFE WOULD GET THIS WAY. 154 00:08:57,827 --> 00:09:01,655 MY ENTIRE LIFE, I'VE BEEN OBESE. 155 00:09:01,655 --> 00:09:04,241 GROWING UP, WE ALWAYS ATE GOOD DINNERS, 156 00:09:04,241 --> 00:09:06,379 BUT THEY WERE NOT HEALTHY -- 157 00:09:06,379 --> 00:09:09,310 PIZZA, HOAGIES, CHEESEBURGERS. 158 00:09:09,310 --> 00:09:12,517 BUT MY WEIGHT NEVER SEEMED TO BE A PROBLEM BACK THEN. 159 00:09:12,517 --> 00:09:14,724 I JUST KNEW MY MOM DIDN'T LIKE IT. 160 00:09:14,724 --> 00:09:18,551 I FELT LIKE SHE WAS EMBARRASSED BECAUSE OF ME BEING FAT. 161 00:09:18,551 --> 00:09:21,586 AND I DID NOT FEEL LOVED BY MY MOTHER. 162 00:09:21,586 --> 00:09:25,758 WE JUST DID NOT HAVE A MOM-DAUGHTER CONNECTION. 163 00:09:25,758 --> 00:09:28,931 I WISH MY MOM AND ME COULD HAVE HAD MORE. 164 00:09:28,931 --> 00:09:31,241 I DO REMEMBER BEING IN MIDDLE SCHOOL -- 165 00:09:31,241 --> 00:09:35,000 I WAS WEIGHING 150 POUNDS. 166 00:09:35,000 --> 00:09:37,482 NOW, GOING INTO MY TEEN YEARS, IT JUST -- 167 00:09:37,482 --> 00:09:41,517 EVERY YEAR, IT SEEMED LIKE I WAS HEAVIER AND HEAVIER. 168 00:09:41,517 --> 00:09:45,655 AND BY THE TIME GRADUATION COME AROUND, 169 00:09:45,655 --> 00:09:48,620 I WAS OVER 200 POUNDS. 170 00:09:48,620 --> 00:09:51,000 OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL, I JUST WENT RIGHT ON 171 00:09:51,000 --> 00:09:55,344 TO HAVING MY OWN PLACE, MY OWN CAR. 172 00:09:55,344 --> 00:09:56,862 I HAD MY OWN JOB. 173 00:09:56,862 --> 00:09:59,448 LIFE JUST WENT NORMAL. 174 00:09:59,448 --> 00:10:06,586 WHEN I WAS 20, THAT'S WHEN I MET MY HUSBAND, ANDREA'S DAD, JOSE. 175 00:10:06,586 --> 00:10:08,448 AND WE HAD A GOOD LIFE. 176 00:10:08,448 --> 00:10:11,137 I KNEW HE WASN'T GOOD ENOUGH FOR MY MOM, 177 00:10:11,137 --> 00:10:13,862 BECAUSE HE WAS A MEXICAN. 178 00:10:13,862 --> 00:10:16,689 AND WHEN ANDREA WAS 7 MONTHS OLD, 179 00:10:16,689 --> 00:10:18,793 I CHEATED ON HIM, AND THEN HE LEFT 180 00:10:18,793 --> 00:10:21,344 AND THEN HE STAYED GONE FOR YEARS. 181 00:10:21,344 --> 00:10:23,551 I DID NOT WANT HER TO LOSE HER DAD. 182 00:10:23,551 --> 00:10:26,206 I TAKE ALL BLAME FOR ALL THAT. 183 00:10:26,206 --> 00:10:29,620 AND THAT'S WHEN I BECAME A SINGLE MOM. 184 00:10:29,620 --> 00:10:31,793 I STARTED TENDING BAR. 185 00:10:31,793 --> 00:10:35,827 AND I MET DARYL WHEN I WAS 24. 186 00:10:35,827 --> 00:10:39,137 AND THAT'S WHEN I GOT PREGNANT WITH MY SON, CHRISTOPHER. 187 00:10:39,137 --> 00:10:42,517 AFTER HE WAS BORN, I PUT ON A LOT OF WEIGHT. 188 00:10:42,517 --> 00:10:44,689 I WAS 300, EASY. 189 00:10:44,689 --> 00:10:48,689 AND THAT WAS AT AGE 26. 190 00:10:48,689 --> 00:10:51,103 I WAS WITH DARYL FOR ABOUT FIVE YEARS. 191 00:10:51,103 --> 00:10:55,517 HE WAS AN ALCOHOLIC AND HE WAS ABUSIVE. 192 00:10:55,517 --> 00:11:00,724 BY AGE 28, I WAS THE HEAVIEST I HAD BEEN IN MY LIFE. 193 00:11:00,724 --> 00:11:02,413 I HIT 400. 194 00:11:02,413 --> 00:11:05,620 THEN THAT'S WHEN I DECIDED TO GET THAT SURGERY. 195 00:11:05,620 --> 00:11:07,241 I THOUGHT DARYL WOULD TREAT ME BETTER 196 00:11:07,241 --> 00:11:09,103 IF I HAD THE WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 197 00:11:09,103 --> 00:11:10,517 I WAS WRONG. 198 00:11:10,517 --> 00:11:12,620 THE DAY I CAME HOME FROM THE HOSPITAL 199 00:11:12,620 --> 00:11:14,793 OF HAVING WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, 200 00:11:14,793 --> 00:11:18,344 DARYL LEFT ME A "DEAR JOHN" LETTER AND LEFT. 201 00:11:18,344 --> 00:11:20,655 THAT WAS THE END OF ME AND DARYL, 202 00:11:20,655 --> 00:11:23,206 BUT I WAS LOSING WEIGHT. 203 00:11:23,206 --> 00:11:27,482 I LOST ABOUT 150 POUNDS WHEN I GOT MY GASTRIC-BYPASS SURGERY, 204 00:11:27,482 --> 00:11:30,551 AND I STARTED PARTYING. 205 00:11:30,551 --> 00:11:33,172 SO, I ALWAYS HAD A BABYSITTER. MY KIDS WERE NEVER, EVER ALONE. 206 00:11:33,172 --> 00:11:36,620 AND I NEVER WENT OUT TILL THE KIDS WENT TO BED. 207 00:11:36,620 --> 00:11:40,103 BUT IT WAS MORE OR LESS GOING OUT EVERY NIGHT. 208 00:11:40,103 --> 00:11:43,000 I STARTED PUTTING ON WEIGHT SLOWLY. 209 00:11:43,000 --> 00:11:46,965 THAT'S WHEN I MET SOMEBODY NAMED ERIC. 210 00:11:46,965 --> 00:11:48,758 WE WENT TO THESE DANCE PARTIES 211 00:11:48,758 --> 00:11:52,482 AND BBW PARTIES FOR BIG, BEAUTIFUL WOMEN. 212 00:11:52,482 --> 00:11:55,896 THAT'S WHEN I WAS WAKING UP HUNG OVER, WAKING UP LATE. 213 00:11:55,896 --> 00:11:58,758 BUT, TO ME, I DIDN'T HAVE A PROBLEM. 214 00:11:58,758 --> 00:12:01,413 AND THEN RIGHT THERE IS WHEN IT HAPPENED. 215 00:12:01,413 --> 00:12:03,655 I STAYED DRUNK ONE WEEKEND. 216 00:12:03,655 --> 00:12:06,172 MY NEIGHBOR COME OVER AND WATCHED THE KIDS. 217 00:12:06,172 --> 00:12:07,344 AND I REMEMBER THIS. 218 00:12:07,344 --> 00:12:09,689 HE KEPT ASKING ME TO PAY HIM AHEAD OF TIME, 219 00:12:09,689 --> 00:12:11,275 INSTEAD OF WHEN I GOT HOME. 220 00:12:11,275 --> 00:12:14,482 AND I DIDN'T THINK NOTHING OF IT. 221 00:12:14,482 --> 00:12:18,172 I WENT OUT THAT NIGHT, AND THE NEXT MORNING, 222 00:12:18,172 --> 00:12:21,206 SOMEBODY'S BLOWING UP MY PHONE, SAYING, THE BABYSITTER, 223 00:12:21,206 --> 00:12:25,448 WHAT'S-HIS-NAME, HAD LEFT, AND MY KIDS WERE ALONE. 224 00:12:25,448 --> 00:12:27,413 AND SOMEBODY CALLED THE COPS. 225 00:12:27,413 --> 00:12:29,275 THE COPS CALLED MY MOM. 226 00:12:29,275 --> 00:12:32,034 AND THEN MOM TOOK THE KIDS TO HER HOUSE. 227 00:12:32,034 --> 00:12:34,310 THE NEXT DAY, THEY WERE LIKE, 228 00:12:34,310 --> 00:12:37,206 "YOU'VE GOT CHILD-ENDANGERMENT CHARGES AGAINST YOU." 229 00:12:37,206 --> 00:12:39,344 AND MY MOM WAS LETTING IT STAY THAT WAY, 230 00:12:39,344 --> 00:12:41,137 AND I'M LIKE, "WHY AREN'T YOU MORE ON MY SIDE?" 231 00:12:41,137 --> 00:12:42,310 AND SHE WASN'T. 232 00:12:42,310 --> 00:12:44,310 SHE WAS LIKE, "I'M ON THE KIDS'SIDE." 233 00:12:44,310 --> 00:12:47,724 I REMEMBER GOING TO, LIKE, AN EMERGENCY COURT HEARING 234 00:12:47,724 --> 00:12:49,068 A WEEK LATER. 235 00:12:49,068 --> 00:12:50,758 SHE COULD HAVE LET ME HAVE THEM, BUT SHE DIDN'T. 236 00:12:50,758 --> 00:12:53,241 SHE WANTED TO KEEP ANDREA. 237 00:12:53,241 --> 00:12:56,000 I COULDN'T HAVE THE KIDS SEEING THEIR MOM GO WILD 238 00:12:56,000 --> 00:12:58,000 AND DISAPPEARING AND SAY, "I'M GOING TO THE STORE" 239 00:12:58,000 --> 00:12:59,551 AND NOT COME BACK FOR DAYS 240 00:12:59,551 --> 00:13:00,793 AND, YOU KNOW, BEING DROPPED OFF 241 00:13:00,793 --> 00:13:03,206 WITH THIS BABYSITTER OR THAT BABYSITTER. 242 00:13:03,206 --> 00:13:06,413 I WANTED THEM TO HAVE STRUCTURE. 243 00:13:06,413 --> 00:13:10,034 Angela: SO, MY MOM HAD ANDREA. DARYL HAD CHRISTOPHER. 244 00:13:10,034 --> 00:13:13,172 AND I LOST MY MIND, I GUESS. 245 00:13:13,172 --> 00:13:15,310 I TRIED TO TAKE MY LIFE. 246 00:13:15,310 --> 00:13:19,172 I SPENT 30 DAYS IN THE MIDDLETOWN PSYCH WARD. 247 00:13:19,172 --> 00:13:22,517 THE DAY I LEFT, I CHECKED MYSELF IN TO A REHAB. 248 00:13:22,517 --> 00:13:24,827 THREE MONTHS, I WAS IN REHAB. 249 00:13:24,827 --> 00:13:26,586 BUT I WAS STILL GAINING WEIGHT, THOUGH. 250 00:13:26,586 --> 00:13:28,586 WE WERE EATING A LOT. 251 00:13:28,586 --> 00:13:29,862 WHEN I GOT OUT OF REHAB, 252 00:13:29,862 --> 00:13:34,551 I WAS 35 YEARS OLD, WEIGHING ALMOST 400 POUNDS. 253 00:13:34,551 --> 00:13:40,068 BUT I WENT TO LIVE WITH MY MOM SO I COULD BE WITH ANDREA. 254 00:13:40,068 --> 00:13:43,448 BUT EVEN THOUGH I GOT TO LIVE WITH MY DAUGHTER AGAIN, 255 00:13:43,448 --> 00:13:46,034 THAT DID MORE DAMAGE TO ME THAN ANYTHING, 256 00:13:46,034 --> 00:13:49,137 BECAUSE ANDREA LOOKED AT MY MOM AS HER MOM. 257 00:13:49,137 --> 00:13:52,068 SO, HERE I AM, GETTING FAT AGAIN, 258 00:13:52,068 --> 00:13:55,103 DRINKING AGAIN, LIVING IN A HOUSE 259 00:13:55,103 --> 00:13:58,758 WHERE SOMEBODY ELSE IS BEING MY KIDS' MOM. 260 00:13:58,758 --> 00:14:03,758 THAT'S WHEN I BECAME 500 POUNDS. 261 00:14:03,758 --> 00:14:05,862 THEN, AFTERWARDS, CHRISTOPHER'S DAD DIED, 262 00:14:05,862 --> 00:14:08,206 AND I GOT CHRISTOPHER. 263 00:14:08,206 --> 00:14:12,068 SO ME AND CHRISTOPHER MOVED OUT. 264 00:14:12,068 --> 00:14:13,551 RIGHT WHEN THAT HAPPENED, 265 00:14:13,551 --> 00:14:17,551 I STARTED GETTING THESE LYMPHEDEMA MASSES ON MY LEG. 266 00:14:17,551 --> 00:14:20,310 NEXT THING YOU KNOW, I'M HARDLY ABLE TO WALK. 267 00:14:20,310 --> 00:14:22,551 I STOPPED WORKING. 268 00:14:22,551 --> 00:14:27,724 AND NOW I'M 44 YEARS OLD AND WEIGH AT LEAST 600 POUNDS. 269 00:14:27,724 --> 00:14:33,310 NOW I'M A GRANDMOTHER AND I'M ASHAMED OF MY WEIGHT 270 00:14:33,310 --> 00:14:35,862 AND I'M OBESE AND I'M NASTY. 271 00:14:37,931 --> 00:14:40,206 AND THE ONLY TIME I LEAVE THE HOUSE 272 00:14:40,206 --> 00:14:42,000 IS TO GO GROCERY SHOPPING. 273 00:14:42,000 --> 00:14:44,103 [ ENGINE IDLING ] 274 00:14:44,103 --> 00:14:47,034 BUT I DON'T FIT BEHIND THE WHEEL OF MY VAN ANYMORE. 275 00:14:47,034 --> 00:14:50,344 ONLY WAY I CAN FIT IN A VEHICLE IS IF MY SON, CHRISTOPHER, 276 00:14:50,344 --> 00:14:54,448 DRIVES AND I GET IN THE PASSENGER. 277 00:14:54,448 --> 00:14:57,724 SO IF IT WASN'T FOR CHRISTOPHER TAKING ME, I COULDN'T GO. 278 00:15:00,344 --> 00:15:01,896 [ SIGHS ] 279 00:15:01,896 --> 00:15:08,310 ♪♪ 280 00:15:08,310 --> 00:15:10,965 Chris: I BRING MY MOM TO THE GROCERY STORE 281 00:15:10,965 --> 00:15:13,724 WHENEVER SHE ASKS. 282 00:15:13,724 --> 00:15:15,551 AT LEAST THERE'S NOT MANY PEOPLE HERE. 283 00:15:15,551 --> 00:15:20,000 JUST GET THE BIGGEST CART THEY GOT. 284 00:15:20,000 --> 00:15:22,551 ON ONE HAND, I REALIZE, WHENEVER I GET HER SNACKS, 285 00:15:22,551 --> 00:15:24,241 IT'S DEFINITELY NOT HELPING. 286 00:15:24,241 --> 00:15:26,137 ON THE OTHER HAND, SHE WISHES SHE COULD GO OUT 287 00:15:26,137 --> 00:15:27,689 AND DO NORMAL STUFF WITH ME. 288 00:15:27,689 --> 00:15:30,034 SO I'M HAPPY HELPING HER OUT. 289 00:15:30,034 --> 00:15:35,862 ♪♪ 290 00:15:35,862 --> 00:15:37,551 I HAVE NOT WANTED TO BE IN PUBLIC 291 00:15:37,551 --> 00:15:40,034 FOR THE PAST FOUR YEARS. 292 00:15:40,034 --> 00:15:42,896 80% OF THE TIME, MY GROCERIES ARE DELIVERED. 293 00:15:42,896 --> 00:15:44,551 I DON'T WANT TO EMBARRASS MY SON. 294 00:15:44,551 --> 00:15:48,000 I'VE PUT MY SON THROUGH ENOUGH. 295 00:15:48,000 --> 00:15:49,724 OW! 296 00:15:50,965 --> 00:15:53,517 [ SIGHS ] OKAY. 297 00:15:57,689 --> 00:16:00,068 YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO PUSH ME. 298 00:16:04,241 --> 00:16:06,206 GET TWO. 299 00:16:09,448 --> 00:16:13,000 I'M GETTING THEM BOTH.OKAY. 300 00:16:13,000 --> 00:16:20,586 ♪♪ 301 00:16:20,586 --> 00:16:22,862 THESE. 302 00:16:22,862 --> 00:16:25,689 Chris: IN THE PAST, I WOULD START KIND OF DOGGIN' MY MOM 303 00:16:25,689 --> 00:16:27,310 FOR EATING SO MUCH ALL THE TIME, 304 00:16:27,310 --> 00:16:30,344 BUT IT REACHES A POINT WHERE YOU KIND OF GIVE UP ON IT. 305 00:16:30,344 --> 00:16:33,137 SO I REALLY DON'T COMPLAIN TOO MUCH ANYMORE 306 00:16:33,137 --> 00:16:35,689 WHENEVER WE GO GROCERY SHOPPING, 307 00:16:35,689 --> 00:16:37,655 BECAUSE I DEFINITELY DO FEEL GUILTY 308 00:16:37,655 --> 00:16:40,620 IF I ARGUE WITH HER ABOUT WHAT SHE SHOULD EAT. 309 00:16:40,620 --> 00:16:42,068 DON'T SAY A WORD. 310 00:16:42,068 --> 00:16:45,413 I WANT SOME OF THE ONES WITH CHOCOLATE AND PEANUT BUTTER. 311 00:16:45,413 --> 00:16:49,137 Angela: I ALWAYS, ALWAYS GET CUPCAKES AND COOKIES, 312 00:16:49,137 --> 00:16:52,448 I WANT CANDY BARS, AND I ALWAYS HAVE SOME ICE CREAM, 313 00:16:52,448 --> 00:16:54,344 BECAUSE I'M ADDICTED TO SWEETS. 314 00:16:54,344 --> 00:16:55,551 ALL RIGHT. 315 00:16:55,551 --> 00:16:59,758 AND IF WE DON'T HAVE IT IN THE HOUSE, I GET MAD. 316 00:16:59,758 --> 00:17:03,000 CHRISTOPHER -- HE DON'T WANT ME TO EAT BAD STUFF. 317 00:17:03,000 --> 00:17:06,931 BUT I'M AN ADULT. YOU CAN'T TELL ME "NO." 318 00:17:06,931 --> 00:17:09,551 AND I DON'T THINK THERE'S ONE PERSON THAT -- 319 00:17:09,551 --> 00:17:12,206 UNLESS YOU'VE BEEN EXACTLY LIKE ME, 320 00:17:12,206 --> 00:17:14,896 YOU WILL NEVER IN THIS WORLD UNDERSTAND. 321 00:17:14,896 --> 00:17:18,241 YOU DON'T WAKE UP IN THE MORNING AND YOU DON'T SAY, 322 00:17:18,241 --> 00:17:19,931 "I WANT TO BE FAT." 323 00:17:24,379 --> 00:17:28,689 IT'S NOT FUN. IT'S NOT GOOD. 324 00:17:28,689 --> 00:17:30,655 AND I JUST WANT IT TO END. 325 00:17:30,655 --> 00:17:37,103 ♪♪ 326 00:17:37,103 --> 00:17:44,103 ♪♪ 327 00:17:44,103 --> 00:17:46,448 THAT'S GOOD. 328 00:17:46,448 --> 00:17:51,586 I'M AT THE POINT I WILL NOT LAST THAT MUCH LONGER. 329 00:17:51,586 --> 00:17:56,793 AND I WANT TO BE THERE FOR ANDREA AND EMMA AND LACY. 330 00:17:56,793 --> 00:18:01,827 IF I DON'T GET HELP, I'M GOING TO EAT MYSELF TO DEATH. 331 00:18:01,827 --> 00:18:05,310 JUST ME LOSING THE MOBILITY THAT I'VE LOST, 332 00:18:05,310 --> 00:18:09,758 THE PAIN THAT I GO THROUGH, I KNOW I'LL BE DEAD NEXT YEAR. 333 00:18:09,758 --> 00:18:13,965 I HAVE NO IDEA HOW I'M STILL ALIVE TODAY. 334 00:18:13,965 --> 00:18:16,448 Travis: MY BIGGEST FEAR IS HER HEALTH ISSUES. 335 00:18:16,448 --> 00:18:19,103 THAT WOULD JUST BREAK MY HEART IF I LOST MY SIS. 336 00:18:19,103 --> 00:18:21,586 SHE'S TOO YOUNG FOR THAT, IN MY EYES. 337 00:18:21,586 --> 00:18:23,724 YOU WANT TO PICK OUT THE ICE CREAMS FOR US? 338 00:18:23,724 --> 00:18:25,758 MM-HMM.AWESOME. 339 00:18:25,758 --> 00:18:27,103 Travis: THANK YOU. 340 00:18:27,103 --> 00:18:29,586 Angela: IT'S EITHER NOW OR NEVER. IT IS. 341 00:18:29,586 --> 00:18:33,241 SO I HAVE A CHANCE IF I DO IT RIGHT NOW. 342 00:18:33,241 --> 00:18:36,068 IF I WAIT SIX MONTHS, IF I WAIT A YEAR, 343 00:18:36,068 --> 00:18:38,551 IT'S NOT GONNA HAPPEN. 344 00:18:38,551 --> 00:18:41,896 SO THIS IS IT. LIKE, THIS IS IT. 345 00:18:41,896 --> 00:18:44,241 IF I DON'T DO THIS RIGHT NOW, 346 00:18:44,241 --> 00:18:46,620 THEN JUST SIGN MY DEATH CERTIFICATE, 347 00:18:46,620 --> 00:18:48,620 BECAUSE I'M GONE, I'M DONE. 348 00:18:53,586 --> 00:19:01,206 ♪♪ 349 00:19:01,206 --> 00:19:09,896 ♪♪ 350 00:19:09,896 --> 00:19:19,000 ♪♪ 351 00:19:19,000 --> 00:19:22,103 [ BLOWING ] 352 00:19:22,103 --> 00:19:25,482 TODAY HAS BEEN AN ABSOLUTE ROLLER COASTER. 353 00:19:25,482 --> 00:19:28,206 ONE MINUTE, I THINK, "WOW. THIS IS GONNA WORK." 354 00:19:28,206 --> 00:19:30,034 THE NEXT MINUTE IS, "NO, IT'S NOT GONNA WORK." 355 00:19:30,034 --> 00:19:33,586 TO THE NEXT MINUTE, I'M PISSED OFF. 356 00:19:33,586 --> 00:19:36,620 I'M GOING TO MEET DR. NOW IN HOUSTON, 357 00:19:36,620 --> 00:19:38,827 BECAUSE HE WILL WORK WITH PATIENTS 358 00:19:38,827 --> 00:19:43,724 NOT ONLY SUPER-OBESE, BUT THE LYMPHEDEMA PATIENTS. 359 00:19:43,724 --> 00:19:45,517 I HAVE TO FIND A WAY. 360 00:19:45,517 --> 00:19:47,000 IF I DON'T FIND A WAY, 361 00:19:47,000 --> 00:19:48,965 THEN WE'LL USE ALL THE MONEY ON MY CREDIT CARD 362 00:19:48,965 --> 00:19:51,758 AND MAKE FUNERAL ARRANGEMENTS. 363 00:19:51,758 --> 00:19:54,103 SO I'LL BE DOING ONE OR THE OTHER THIS WEEK. 364 00:19:54,103 --> 00:19:56,000 [ Telephone ringing ] 365 00:19:56,000 --> 00:19:58,448 Barbara: YEAH? Angela: MOM? 366 00:19:58,448 --> 00:20:01,862 YEAH? WHAT ARE YOU DOING? 367 00:20:01,862 --> 00:20:05,931 WATCHING THE GIRLS PLAY OUTSIDE. 368 00:20:05,931 --> 00:20:08,793 [ Voice breaking ] ARE YOU SURE YOU GUYS CAN'T HELP ME? 369 00:20:08,793 --> 00:20:10,758 ANGEL, WE CANNOT DO IT. 370 00:20:10,758 --> 00:20:13,206 YOUR DAD CANNOT TRAVEL.[ SNIFFLES ] 371 00:20:13,206 --> 00:20:15,034 THERE'S JUST NO WAY. 372 00:20:15,034 --> 00:20:18,517 I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M GONNA DO. 373 00:20:18,517 --> 00:20:20,413 TALK TO DONNIE AND JANE. 374 00:20:20,413 --> 00:20:23,896 DONNIE SAID HE WOULD HELP YOU AS MUCH AS HE COULD. 375 00:20:23,896 --> 00:20:26,103 OH, LET ME CALL JANE. 376 00:20:26,103 --> 00:20:28,827 [ SNIFFLES ] 377 00:20:28,827 --> 00:20:30,586 [ Telephone ringing ] 378 00:20:30,586 --> 00:20:33,586 YOU HAVE REACHED THE VOICEMAIL BOX... 379 00:20:33,586 --> 00:20:35,551 HEY, AUNT JANE AND UNCLE DONNIE. 380 00:20:35,551 --> 00:20:38,344 WE'RE JUST HAVING A HARD TIME FINDING A WAY TO TEXAS. 381 00:20:38,344 --> 00:20:39,551 [ SNIFFLES ] 382 00:20:39,551 --> 00:20:41,620 I KNOW YOU'VE HELPED ME. YOU'VE DONE EVERYTHING. 383 00:20:41,620 --> 00:20:44,068 AND I'D APPRECIATE IT. I DON'T KNOW. 384 00:20:44,068 --> 00:20:47,310 CALL ME LATER AND WE CAN TALK. LOVE YOU. BYE. 385 00:20:47,310 --> 00:20:49,344 [ SNIFFLES, SIGHS ] 386 00:20:49,344 --> 00:20:52,482 I DON'T KNOW WHY I THOUGHT THIS WAS GONNA BE EASY. 387 00:20:52,482 --> 00:20:54,724 NOTHING IN LIFE IS EASY. 388 00:20:54,724 --> 00:20:57,758 THERE'S ONE PERSON THAT MIGHT BE ABLE TO HELP ME, 389 00:20:57,758 --> 00:21:01,655 BUT I'M SCARED TO ASK. 390 00:21:01,655 --> 00:21:05,068 ERIC IS AN EX-BOYFRIEND. 391 00:21:05,068 --> 00:21:10,068 AND ERIC IS A VERY KIND-HEARTED PERSON. 392 00:21:10,068 --> 00:21:15,137 HE WENT HIS WAY, I WENT MY WAY, BUT WE ALWAYS REMAINED FRIENDS. 393 00:21:15,137 --> 00:21:17,896 HE IS A LAST RESORT, BUT ERIC'S COMING OVER 394 00:21:17,896 --> 00:21:20,620 AND MAYBE GOING TO BE DRIVING ME. 395 00:21:20,620 --> 00:21:27,310 ♪♪ 396 00:21:27,310 --> 00:21:28,931 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] 397 00:21:28,931 --> 00:21:30,586 COME IN! 398 00:21:33,310 --> 00:21:34,586 OH, MY GOSH! 399 00:21:34,586 --> 00:21:36,000 HI, HONEY. 400 00:21:36,000 --> 00:21:37,896 HELLO. 401 00:21:37,896 --> 00:21:39,068 HOW'S MY GIRL? GOOD. 402 00:21:39,068 --> 00:21:40,724 HOW YOU DOING? ALL RIGHT. 403 00:21:40,724 --> 00:21:42,965 YOU CAME QUICK. 404 00:21:42,965 --> 00:21:45,482 MAN, YOU SMELL GOOD.DON'T I ALWAYS? 405 00:21:45,482 --> 00:21:47,413 WHAT ARE YOU WEARING?YOUR FAVORITE. 406 00:21:47,413 --> 00:21:50,137 YOU CAN SCOOT THAT ANY WHICH WAY AND SIT DOWN 407 00:21:50,137 --> 00:21:52,275 IN THE RECLINER OVER THERE, WHEREVER. 408 00:21:54,724 --> 00:21:56,068 WHAT'S NEW? 409 00:21:56,068 --> 00:21:58,965 OH, COMING TO SEE YOU. [ SIGHS ] 410 00:21:58,965 --> 00:22:03,103 UH, WELL, SO, BASICALLY, 411 00:22:03,103 --> 00:22:06,413 I FINALLY GOT THE OKAY TO SEE THE DOCTOR. 412 00:22:06,413 --> 00:22:08,620 AND -- OH, [Voice breaking] I DON'T WANT TO CRY. 413 00:22:08,620 --> 00:22:09,620 [ CHUCKLES ] 414 00:22:09,620 --> 00:22:11,034 SO, BUT I HAVE TO GO TO TEXAS. 415 00:22:11,034 --> 00:22:12,103 HE'S IN TEXAS. 416 00:22:12,103 --> 00:22:16,827 BUT I HAVE NOBODY TO TAKE ME. 417 00:22:16,827 --> 00:22:21,586 SO I'M BASICALLY WONDERING IF YOU'LL TAKE ME TO TEXAS. 418 00:22:21,586 --> 00:22:23,551 AND IT'S NOT JUST DRIVING. 419 00:22:23,551 --> 00:22:26,206 I HAVE TO PUT A MATTRESS IN THE BACK OF A MINIVAN 420 00:22:26,206 --> 00:22:28,275 BECAUSE MY LEGS HAVE TO STAY UP. 421 00:22:28,275 --> 00:22:31,724 I CANNOT HAVE THEM BENT MORE THAN LIKE 15 MINUTES. 422 00:22:31,724 --> 00:22:33,413 SO I HAVE TO HAVE MY LEGS STRAIGHT 423 00:22:33,413 --> 00:22:37,586 AND I'VE GOT TO BE ON MY SIDE, OFF AND ON. 424 00:22:37,586 --> 00:22:39,448 IT'S JUST GONNA BE A WEIRD ROAD TRIP. 425 00:22:39,448 --> 00:22:41,482 I WON'T BE LIKE THE OLDEN DAYS AT ALL. 426 00:22:41,482 --> 00:22:42,689 [ CHUCKLES ] 427 00:22:42,689 --> 00:22:46,000 BUT YOU ARE MY LAST HOPE. 428 00:22:46,000 --> 00:22:48,137 I HAVE NOTHING ELSE, NOBODY ELSE. 429 00:22:48,137 --> 00:22:51,724 SO, DO YOU WANT TO GO ON A ROAD TRIP, ERIC? 430 00:22:51,724 --> 00:22:53,586 AND I'M REALLY THINKING ABOUT YOU 431 00:22:53,586 --> 00:22:55,482 BECAUSE YOU'RE A COWBOYS FAN. 432 00:22:55,482 --> 00:22:56,551 [ CHUCKLES ] THAT'S TRUE. 433 00:22:56,551 --> 00:22:59,482 NEVER BEEN THERE. 434 00:22:59,482 --> 00:23:01,655 LET'S DO IT. 435 00:23:01,655 --> 00:23:04,620 [ Chuckling ] YOU SURE? 436 00:23:04,620 --> 00:23:06,413 IT'S BEEN 10 YEARS. 437 00:23:06,413 --> 00:23:08,241 DON'T MATTER IF IT WAS 20. 438 00:23:08,241 --> 00:23:09,551 I'D STILL DO IT FOR YOU. 439 00:23:09,551 --> 00:23:11,068 I APPRECIATE IT. 440 00:23:11,068 --> 00:23:16,103 I JUST NEED DRIVER, FRIEND, SOMEBODY TO TALK TO, 441 00:23:16,103 --> 00:23:19,758 LISTEN TO ME WHINE, CRY, LAUGH. 442 00:23:19,758 --> 00:23:21,517 JUST LIKE THE OLD DAYS.JUST LIKE THE OLD -- 443 00:23:21,517 --> 00:23:23,827 HEY, NOT REALLY. [ LAUGHS ] 444 00:23:23,827 --> 00:23:29,793 AND I'M GONNA SAY WE CAN BE ON THE ROAD BY 5:00? 445 00:23:29,793 --> 00:23:31,862 I -- I CAN DO WHATEVER.OKAY. 446 00:23:31,862 --> 00:23:35,827 I JUST GOT TO GO PACK, AND I'LL JUST WAIT FOR YOUR CALL. 447 00:23:35,827 --> 00:23:37,793 ALL RIGHT, HON, GIVE ME A HUG. I'M GONNA LET YOU GO. 448 00:23:37,793 --> 00:23:40,344 ALL RIGHT, BABE.THANK YOU SO MUCH. 449 00:23:40,344 --> 00:23:42,620 YEAH, IT AIN'T GONNA BE NO PROBLEM, HONEY. 450 00:23:42,620 --> 00:23:44,034 KEEP THAT COLOGNE. 451 00:23:44,034 --> 00:23:46,000 OH, WELL, IT'S THE STUFF YOU PICKED OUT. 452 00:23:46,000 --> 00:23:48,586 GOD, IT SMELLS SO GOOD. 453 00:23:48,586 --> 00:23:50,758 ALL RIGHT, HONEY.THANK YOU. 454 00:23:50,758 --> 00:23:53,241 I'LL SEE YOU LATER.ALL RIGHT. BYE-BYE. 455 00:23:56,620 --> 00:23:58,827 Eric: I WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR HER. 456 00:23:58,827 --> 00:24:00,586 SHE NEEDS TO GET TO TEXAS. 457 00:24:00,586 --> 00:24:02,344 I'VE BEEN WANTING TO GO ON A ROAD TRIP, 458 00:24:02,344 --> 00:24:04,724 SO HERE WE ARE. 459 00:24:04,724 --> 00:24:08,034 IT MIGHT BE DIFFICULT. I'M DEFINITELY NERVOUS. 460 00:24:08,034 --> 00:24:10,586 BUT WE'LL BE OKAY. 461 00:24:10,586 --> 00:24:13,517 Angela: I'M EXCITED I'M GONNA GO TO TEXAS, 462 00:24:13,517 --> 00:24:16,068 BUT NOW THAT I'M SITTING HERE THINKING ABOUT IT, 463 00:24:16,068 --> 00:24:19,034 THIS TRIP IS GOING TO BE VERY HARD. 464 00:24:19,034 --> 00:24:21,103 I'VE ALREADY GOT MY NERVES WORKED UP. 465 00:24:21,103 --> 00:24:24,000 BUT I KNOW IT IS WORTH IT IF IT MEANS 466 00:24:24,000 --> 00:24:26,068 I CAN GET MY LIFE BACK TOGETHER. 467 00:24:26,068 --> 00:24:35,827 ♪♪ 468 00:24:35,827 --> 00:24:38,275 TODAY HAS BEEN A BUSY, BUSY, BUSY DAY 469 00:24:38,275 --> 00:24:42,620 GETTING EVERYTHING PACKED TO GO TO HOUSTON. 470 00:24:42,620 --> 00:24:46,517 MY FRIEND ERIC IS GOING TO BE DRIVING ME. 471 00:24:46,517 --> 00:24:50,379 NOBODY ELSE IN THE FAMILY OR FRIENDS COULD HELP ME. 472 00:24:50,379 --> 00:24:53,034 PUT THAT ON THE FRONT PORCH. 473 00:24:53,034 --> 00:24:58,103 MY DAUGHTER IS BEING THE MOST SUPPORTIVE PERSON IN THIS WORLD. 474 00:24:58,103 --> 00:25:01,517 LACY, AN 11-YEAR-OLD, IS BEING SUPPORTIVE. 475 00:25:04,344 --> 00:25:07,241 I'M VERY, VERY MAD. 476 00:25:07,241 --> 00:25:10,758 MY MOTHER, MY FATHER, MY BROTHER IS NOT BEING SUPPORTIVE. 477 00:25:10,758 --> 00:25:12,344 I UNDERSTAND THEY CAN'T TAKE ME. 478 00:25:12,344 --> 00:25:15,172 OKAY. I UNDERSTAND, REALLY. 479 00:25:15,172 --> 00:25:17,793 I CAN'T BE MAD, BUT I AM MAD. 480 00:25:17,793 --> 00:25:20,379 I'VE NOT EVEN BASICALLY STARTED 481 00:25:20,379 --> 00:25:22,724 AND I'M MENTALLY WORE OUT ALREADY. 482 00:25:25,137 --> 00:25:27,103 Andrea: I'M VERY WORRIED FOR MY MOM. 483 00:25:27,103 --> 00:25:30,724 THIS IS NOT A GOOD TRIP FOR HER TO TAKE, HEALTHWISE. 484 00:25:30,724 --> 00:25:34,172 A CAR TRIP LIKE THIS IS MUCH HARDER ON HER BODY 485 00:25:34,172 --> 00:25:38,344 THAN IT WOULD BE SOMEONE AT A NORMAL WEIGHT. 486 00:25:38,344 --> 00:25:43,034 HER HEART COULD GIVE UP, BECAUSE HER VALVES ARE VERY WEAK. 487 00:25:43,034 --> 00:25:46,793 WITH HER LYMPHEDEMA MASSES, THEY COULD SWELL AND BURST. 488 00:25:46,793 --> 00:25:49,655 AND, ALSO, SHE COULD HAVE BLOOD CLOTS IN HER LEGS. 489 00:25:49,655 --> 00:25:51,551 BUT SHE HAS TO DO IT, BECAUSE HER HEALTH 490 00:25:51,551 --> 00:25:54,689 IS NOT GONNA GET HER THROUGH THE NEXT YEAR. 491 00:25:54,689 --> 00:25:58,068 HEY, EVERYTHING'S LOADED, READY TO GO. 492 00:25:58,068 --> 00:26:00,724 Angela: OKAY. I GOT IT. 493 00:26:00,724 --> 00:26:03,517 YOU SURE?YEP. 494 00:26:03,517 --> 00:26:05,310 ALL RIGHT. 495 00:26:05,310 --> 00:26:07,310 Eric: THERE IS NO POSSIBLE WAY ANGELA COULD DO THIS 496 00:26:07,310 --> 00:26:09,448 BY HERSELF -- NONE AT ALL. 497 00:26:09,448 --> 00:26:12,793 SHE'S GOT TO HAVE HELP. AND SHE ASKED. I'M HERE. 498 00:26:12,793 --> 00:26:14,827 I BELIEVE THIS IS ANGELA'S CHANCE TO SAVE HER LIFE, 499 00:26:14,827 --> 00:26:17,827 AND HER ONLY ONE. 500 00:26:17,827 --> 00:26:19,827 NOW, I KNOW I WON'T BE ABLE TO GET IN THAT. 501 00:26:19,827 --> 00:26:21,172 I KNOW I WON'T. 502 00:26:21,172 --> 00:26:23,137 Andrea: IF YOU CAN MOVE YOUR LEFT WITH YOUR LEFT, 503 00:26:23,137 --> 00:26:25,448 YOU CAN SCOOT UP ON THAT MATTRESS. 504 00:26:25,448 --> 00:26:27,862 Bub: THE SIDES ARE LOW, BUT THEN AGAIN, 505 00:26:27,862 --> 00:26:29,689 THE BED IS NOT RIGHT UP -- 506 00:26:29,689 --> 00:26:32,103 MOM, THE SIDE WILL BE EASIER. 507 00:26:36,517 --> 00:26:38,655 ALL RIGHT, LET BUB PUT THE PILLOWS DOWN. 508 00:26:38,655 --> 00:26:40,379 Angela: OKAY. 509 00:26:40,379 --> 00:26:46,620 ♪♪ 510 00:26:46,620 --> 00:26:48,103 NOBODY BEHIND ME, PLEASE. 511 00:26:48,103 --> 00:26:56,344 ♪♪ 512 00:26:56,344 --> 00:26:57,931 [ GRUNTS ] 513 00:26:57,931 --> 00:27:00,758 THERE'S THE MOTOR. 514 00:27:00,758 --> 00:27:03,034 I NEED OXYGEN.OKAY. 515 00:27:03,034 --> 00:27:05,965 [ SIGHING ] 516 00:27:05,965 --> 00:27:09,241 NOW THAT IT'S TIME, I'M SCARED, 517 00:27:09,241 --> 00:27:12,896 BECAUSE IN MY MIND, I KEEP GOING OVER THE BAD STUFF. 518 00:27:12,896 --> 00:27:16,034 LIKE, I CAN'T GET IN A VAN TO GO UP THE STREET. 519 00:27:16,034 --> 00:27:19,862 HOW AM I GONNA GO 15 TO 20 HOURS? 520 00:27:19,862 --> 00:27:22,448 IS IT WORTH TAKING A CHANCE OF DYING? 521 00:27:22,448 --> 00:27:24,689 BECAUSE EITHER I'LL DIE TRYING 522 00:27:24,689 --> 00:27:27,241 OR I'M JUST GONNA BE DEAD NEXT YEAR ANYWAYS. 523 00:27:27,241 --> 00:27:30,448 SO WHY NOT DIE TRYING? 524 00:27:30,448 --> 00:27:32,620 I JUST GOT THIS FEELING, LIKE, IN MY GUT 525 00:27:32,620 --> 00:27:34,758 THAT I WISH I JUST NOT GO. 526 00:27:34,758 --> 00:27:37,482 I'M SCARED, BUT I HAVE TO GET THERE. 527 00:27:37,482 --> 00:27:39,758 I JUST HAVE TO. 528 00:27:44,551 --> 00:27:53,137 ♪♪ 529 00:27:53,137 --> 00:27:55,344 Andrea: WE ARE GOING TO HOUSTON, TEXAS, 530 00:27:55,344 --> 00:27:57,551 TO SEE DR. NOW. 531 00:27:57,551 --> 00:28:00,344 WE GOT ABOUT 15 HOURS. 532 00:28:00,344 --> 00:28:02,931 YOU READY FOR THIS?Andrea: NOT AT ALL. 533 00:28:02,931 --> 00:28:06,551 WELL, YOU GOT NO CHOICE.I SHOULD BE, BUT I'M NOT. 534 00:28:06,551 --> 00:28:07,758 [ CHUCKLES ] 535 00:28:10,275 --> 00:28:13,000 I WAS, LIKE, REALLY NERVOUS, GETTING IN THE VAN -- 536 00:28:13,000 --> 00:28:15,068 JUST GETTING IN. 537 00:28:15,068 --> 00:28:21,275 AS MUCH AS I'VE PUT INTO THIS, I WAS CLOSE TO SAYING JUST "NO." 538 00:28:21,275 --> 00:28:22,965 BUT NOW THAT WE'RE DRIVING -- 539 00:28:22,965 --> 00:28:25,137 I THINK WE'RE ABOUT A HALF-HOUR IN -- 540 00:28:25,137 --> 00:28:29,758 WE JUST LEFT OHIO AND WE ARE IN KENTUCKY -- 541 00:28:29,758 --> 00:28:33,551 I AM ALMOST GONNA SAY THIS MOMENT -- 542 00:28:33,551 --> 00:28:36,827 I DON'T KNOW IF IT'S THE EXTRA PAIN PILL I TOOK, 543 00:28:36,827 --> 00:28:38,724 BUT I'M ALMOST A LITTLE MORE COMFORTABLE 544 00:28:38,724 --> 00:28:41,724 THAN I AM SITTING IN MY BED, SO I THINK WE'RE GOOD. 545 00:28:41,724 --> 00:28:46,724 ♪♪ 546 00:28:46,724 --> 00:28:52,551 ♪♪ 547 00:28:52,551 --> 00:28:54,275 WE'RE IN BOWLING GREEN. 548 00:28:54,275 --> 00:28:57,413 WE DROVE EXACTLY FOUR HOURS, 549 00:28:57,413 --> 00:29:00,517 AND THAT WAS EXACTLY ENOUGH TIME. 550 00:29:00,517 --> 00:29:02,379 I REALLY WANTED TO GET OUT OF THAT VAN 551 00:29:02,379 --> 00:29:05,517 AND TRY TO GET A GOOD NIGHT'S SLEEP. 552 00:29:05,517 --> 00:29:09,344 I'M HOPING THIS HOTEL ROOM IS EQUIPPED FOR A PERSON MY SIZE. 553 00:29:09,344 --> 00:29:12,793 AND I REALLY WANT TO SLEEP GOOD. 554 00:29:12,793 --> 00:29:14,620 HOW FAR IS THE ROOM, ERIC? 555 00:29:14,620 --> 00:29:16,137 IT'S -- I'LL GO CHECK. 556 00:29:16,137 --> 00:29:18,482 NO, I NEED OUT. I NEED TO START GETTING THERE. 557 00:29:18,482 --> 00:29:19,586 OH, I KNOW THAT. OH. 558 00:29:19,586 --> 00:29:20,793 Andrea: [ LAUGHS ] 559 00:29:20,793 --> 00:29:22,758 IF I GOT A WALL TO HANG ON TO, I'M BETTER. 560 00:29:22,758 --> 00:29:26,206 I HONESTLY FIGURED WE'D STOP EVERY HOUR, AND WE DIDN'T. 561 00:29:26,206 --> 00:29:28,827 WE COME STRAIGHT THROUGH, WHICH MADE ME HAPPY. 562 00:29:31,034 --> 00:29:32,620 AND I'M JUST GLAD TO BE HERE, IN ALL HONESTY. 563 00:29:32,620 --> 00:29:34,620 I'M TIRED. 564 00:29:34,620 --> 00:29:37,275 TONIGHT, WE GET A GOOD NIGHT'S REST. 565 00:29:37,275 --> 00:29:39,827 TOMORROW MORNING, WE HEAD OUT. 566 00:29:39,827 --> 00:29:43,413 HOPEFULLY, WE CAN GO A LITTLE FURTHER THAN WE DID TODAY. 567 00:29:43,413 --> 00:29:45,896 WE'LL SEE. YOU KNOW, IT'S ON ANGELA. 568 00:29:45,896 --> 00:29:47,896 SHE'S GONNA CALL THE SHOTS. 569 00:29:47,896 --> 00:29:50,620 I'D LIKE TO GET -- MAKE SOME DISTANCE TOMORROW, THOUGH. 570 00:29:54,310 --> 00:29:56,965 WHAT DO YOU WANT TO EAT? 571 00:29:56,965 --> 00:29:58,310 I SEEN THEY HAVE A RESTAURANT HERE. 572 00:29:58,310 --> 00:29:59,551 YEAH. 573 00:29:59,551 --> 00:30:00,931 I MEAN, IF THEY GOT PORK CHOPS AND POTATOES, 574 00:30:00,931 --> 00:30:02,689 IF THEY'VE GOT BURGER. 575 00:30:02,689 --> 00:30:04,413 I WILL GO FIND OUT. 576 00:30:07,689 --> 00:30:10,793 Angela: SO FAR, I AM VERY HAPPY THAT ERIC BROUGHT ME. 577 00:30:10,793 --> 00:30:13,448 I'VE ABSOLUTELY FELT SO SAFE. 578 00:30:13,448 --> 00:30:16,586 AND I REALLY THINK IF MY MOM OR DAD 579 00:30:16,586 --> 00:30:19,862 WOULD HAVE BROUGHT ME, IT WOULD HAVE BEEN AWFUL. 580 00:30:19,862 --> 00:30:22,344 I WAS UPSET AT ALL MY FAMILY. 581 00:30:22,344 --> 00:30:24,482 I WAS SO UPSET AT ALL OF THEM. 582 00:30:24,482 --> 00:30:27,206 AND NOW I KIND OF FEEL BAD, BECAUSE NOW, LIKE, 583 00:30:27,206 --> 00:30:30,275 I REALIZE THIS WAS THE BEST THING. 584 00:30:30,275 --> 00:30:31,655 HEY. 585 00:30:31,655 --> 00:30:32,758 WHAT'D YOU FIND US? 586 00:30:32,758 --> 00:30:35,379 YOU GET A MUSHROOM-SWISS BURGER. 587 00:30:35,379 --> 00:30:37,551 OOH. AND I GET A BURGER. 588 00:30:37,551 --> 00:30:39,000 AWESOME. AND FRIES. 589 00:30:39,000 --> 00:30:42,137 AWESOME. THAT WILL WORK. 590 00:30:44,931 --> 00:30:48,965 WE'RE FOUR HOURS IN, AND -- I DON'T KNOW, WHAT? -- 591 00:30:48,965 --> 00:30:52,103 12 MORE HOURS TO GO. 592 00:30:52,103 --> 00:30:53,896 TOMORROW'S GONNA BE A REALLY LONG DAY, 593 00:30:53,896 --> 00:30:56,068 AND NOW I'VE ALREADY GOT MY NERVES WORKED UP, 594 00:30:56,068 --> 00:30:58,413 BECAUSE I THINK TOMORROW MIGHT BE HARDER THAN TODAY. 595 00:30:58,413 --> 00:31:01,241 I'M HOPING -- I'M GONNA TRY TO GO AS FAR AS WE CAN. 596 00:31:01,241 --> 00:31:09,241 ♪♪ 597 00:31:09,241 --> 00:31:16,482 ♪♪ 598 00:31:16,482 --> 00:31:17,827 I DON'T FEEL GOOD AT ALL. 599 00:31:17,827 --> 00:31:21,103 I FEEL REALLY -- I FEEL LIKE I'M 100 POUNDS HEAVIER. 600 00:31:21,103 --> 00:31:23,689 I FEEL LIKE MY LEGS WON'T GO TOGETHER. 601 00:31:23,689 --> 00:31:26,689 I FEEL LIKE I ATE ALL NIGHT LONG AND PARTIED, 602 00:31:26,689 --> 00:31:29,172 AND I DON'T FEEL GOOD. 603 00:31:29,172 --> 00:31:31,793 I JUST DON'T KNOW. HONESTLY, THE BED. 604 00:31:31,793 --> 00:31:33,965 COULD HAVE BEEN THE WAY I SLEPT. 605 00:31:33,965 --> 00:31:36,413 I DIDN'T EVEN GET A GOOD, HOT SHOWER THIS MORNING. 606 00:31:36,413 --> 00:31:40,310 THE PLAN TODAY IS JUST STAY ON THE ROAD AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE, 607 00:31:40,310 --> 00:31:41,551 GO AS FAST AS POSSIBLE -- 608 00:31:41,551 --> 00:31:44,448 SAFELY -- GET IT DONE AND OVER WITH. 609 00:31:44,448 --> 00:31:47,758 I LOST MY EXCITEMENT, SO I'M HOPING I GET IT BACK. 610 00:31:49,551 --> 00:31:52,103 [ BLOWING ] 611 00:31:52,103 --> 00:31:55,172 Eric: YOU GOT IT?[ Chuckling ] I DON'T KNOW. 612 00:31:55,172 --> 00:31:57,827 ALL OF A SUDDEN, I JUST STARTED TO HURT REALLY BAD. 613 00:32:01,241 --> 00:32:02,931 USUALLY, IF I'M ON MY LEFT SIDE, 614 00:32:02,931 --> 00:32:06,172 I CAN LIFT MY MASS UP AND I'M COMFORTABLE. 615 00:32:06,172 --> 00:32:07,758 AND, TODAY, IT'S 10 TIMES WORSE. 616 00:32:07,758 --> 00:32:10,241 IT'S HUGE. IT'S BURNING. 617 00:32:10,241 --> 00:32:12,137 I DON'T WANT IT TO BE A ROUGH RIDE. 618 00:32:12,137 --> 00:32:14,206 I JUST THINK IT'S GONNA BE. 619 00:32:14,206 --> 00:32:17,103 AND I'M TRYING NOT TO BE BITCHY TOWARDS ERIC, 620 00:32:17,103 --> 00:32:18,827 BUT I FEEL BITCHY. 621 00:32:22,827 --> 00:32:24,655 WE MADE IT.Angela: OH, HERE WE GO. 622 00:32:24,655 --> 00:32:26,551 "WELCOME TO TEXAS." 623 00:32:26,551 --> 00:32:28,137 GIVE ME A FIVE. 624 00:32:30,275 --> 00:32:32,000 YES. 625 00:32:34,068 --> 00:32:36,448 OKAY, IT'S RIGHT UP HERE. 626 00:32:36,448 --> 00:32:37,793 YOU'RE GONNA TAKE A RIGHT. 627 00:32:37,793 --> 00:32:40,965 I'M GONNA TAKE A RIGHT. 628 00:32:40,965 --> 00:32:42,620 WELL, WE'RE HERE, HONEY. 629 00:32:42,620 --> 00:32:44,620 THIS ACTUALLY WAS PERFECT TIMING AGAIN, 630 00:32:44,620 --> 00:32:46,206 'CAUSE I'M DONE. 631 00:32:46,206 --> 00:32:48,965 I'M GONNA BE ABLE TO GET OUT, BUT IT'S GONNA BE HARD. 632 00:32:48,965 --> 00:32:51,793 ALL RIGHT. ALL RIGHT. [ SIGHS ] 633 00:32:51,793 --> 00:32:54,586 I'LL HOLD YOU. 634 00:32:54,586 --> 00:32:56,827 AS SOON AS I GOT HERE, MY STOMACH IS SWOLLEN. 635 00:32:56,827 --> 00:32:59,896 MY LEG IS BURNING, HUGE. 636 00:32:59,896 --> 00:33:01,344 AND NOW I FEEL LIKE I'M DYING. 637 00:33:01,344 --> 00:33:04,482 I, LIKE, FEEL WORSE THAN I'VE FELT THIS ENTIRE TRIP. 638 00:33:07,275 --> 00:33:10,206 Eric: ANGELA'S ABILITY TO WALK -- 639 00:33:10,206 --> 00:33:12,310 SHE HAS A HARD TIME. 640 00:33:12,310 --> 00:33:15,068 I CAN SEE THAT SHE NEEDS HELP. 641 00:33:15,068 --> 00:33:17,034 IN MY OPINION, SHE SHOULD PROBABLY HAVE ONE OF THEM 642 00:33:17,034 --> 00:33:20,034 STEP-WALKER THINGS, YOU KNOW, JUST FOR BALANCE. 643 00:33:20,034 --> 00:33:21,551 BUT... 644 00:33:21,551 --> 00:33:23,310 OH! OKAY, 645 00:33:23,310 --> 00:33:26,931 I WANT TO GET THE WALL. 646 00:33:26,931 --> 00:33:29,517 SHE'S DOING IT, SO I CAN'T TELL HER SHE CAN'T, 647 00:33:29,517 --> 00:33:30,862 'CAUSE SHE IS. 648 00:33:30,862 --> 00:33:33,310 BUT SHE'S HAVING A HARD TIME RIGHT NOW. 649 00:33:33,310 --> 00:33:35,586 OKAY. 650 00:33:35,586 --> 00:33:38,896 LET ME GO FIRST. 651 00:33:38,896 --> 00:33:40,241 YOU GO. 652 00:33:40,241 --> 00:33:41,965 I'M GOOD. 653 00:33:46,724 --> 00:33:48,586 OH, NO! 654 00:33:48,586 --> 00:33:50,551 WHAT?IT'S NOT A HANDICAP. 655 00:33:50,551 --> 00:33:52,965 OH, SHE SAID IT WAS.NO. 656 00:33:52,965 --> 00:33:55,137 [BLEEP] 657 00:33:58,448 --> 00:34:00,758 THERE'S NO POSSIBLE WAY. 658 00:34:00,758 --> 00:34:02,000 NONE. 659 00:34:02,000 --> 00:34:03,724 IT'S JUST A REGULAR FULL-SIZED BATHTUB. 660 00:34:03,724 --> 00:34:05,413 [BLEEP] 661 00:34:05,413 --> 00:34:07,344 YOU WANT ME TO GO ASK THEM ABOUT IT? 662 00:34:07,344 --> 00:34:09,482 YEAH. OKAY. 663 00:34:09,482 --> 00:34:13,931 Angela: THE FIRST THING I SEEN WAS THE BATHTUB. 664 00:34:13,931 --> 00:34:15,965 IT'S NOT A ROLL-IN SHOWER. 665 00:34:15,965 --> 00:34:17,896 HOW YOU WANT I'M GONNA GET IN THAT SHOWER? 666 00:34:17,896 --> 00:34:20,241 DO WHEELIES? I MEAN, COME ON. 667 00:34:20,241 --> 00:34:22,275 I'M JUST REALLY PISSED. 668 00:34:22,275 --> 00:34:25,689 THERE'S NOT EVEN A HANDICAP SEAT IN THERE. 669 00:34:25,689 --> 00:34:27,551 A LOT OF PEOPLE THINK THAT'S MINOR. 670 00:34:27,551 --> 00:34:29,172 IT'S NOT. 671 00:34:29,172 --> 00:34:33,344 WHEN YOU'RE DRIVING IN A VAN WITH BLANKETS 672 00:34:33,344 --> 00:34:37,551 TUCKED UP UNDER YOUR FOLDS AND YOUR MASS, 673 00:34:37,551 --> 00:34:38,931 YOU ARE SWEATY. 674 00:34:38,931 --> 00:34:41,206 I DON'T CARE IF IT'S A.C. 675 00:34:41,206 --> 00:34:43,379 YOU WANT TO BE CLEAN AND YOU DON'T FEEL CLEAN. 676 00:34:43,379 --> 00:34:44,896 A PERSON MY SIZE -- 677 00:34:44,896 --> 00:34:49,689 I DON'T CARE HOW MUCH YOU CLEAN, YOU'RE DIRTY. 678 00:34:49,689 --> 00:34:52,034 THIS IS NOT A HANDICAP ROOM! 679 00:34:54,275 --> 00:34:54,827 [ SIGHS ] 680 00:34:58,586 --> 00:35:03,241 ♪♪ 681 00:35:03,241 --> 00:35:06,620 Angela: I'M PAYING EXTRA MONEY AT A NICE HOTEL, 682 00:35:06,620 --> 00:35:09,034 AND THEY THINK THIS IS A HANDICAP ROOM. 683 00:35:09,034 --> 00:35:11,551 THIS IS NOT A HANDICAP ROOM! 684 00:35:11,551 --> 00:35:14,344 ERIC WENT DOWN THE HALL AND GET A ROOM THAT WE CAN STAY IN. 685 00:35:14,344 --> 00:35:17,517 LIKE, I DON'T GET IT. 686 00:35:17,517 --> 00:35:21,137 WHAT IN THE WORLD COULD THEY EVEN BE THINKING? 687 00:35:21,137 --> 00:35:22,172 OKAY, HON? Angela: HUH? 688 00:35:22,172 --> 00:35:23,965 I GOT THE KEYS TO THE OTHER ROOM. 689 00:35:23,965 --> 00:35:27,103 IT'S A KING-SIZE WITH A BED, A MATTRESS. 690 00:35:27,103 --> 00:35:29,724 OKAY, WOULD YOU GRAB THAT CHAIR? 691 00:35:29,724 --> 00:35:31,793 I'M GONNA HAVE TO USE IT AS, LIKE, A WALKER. 692 00:35:31,793 --> 00:35:32,965 YOU'RE GONNA WALK? 693 00:35:32,965 --> 00:35:34,275 I'M GONNA TRY TO WALK. 694 00:35:34,275 --> 00:35:37,620 THAT WILL WORK. 695 00:35:37,620 --> 00:35:39,793 ERIC WENT DOWN THE HALL AND GOT A NEW ROOM, 696 00:35:39,793 --> 00:35:42,068 BUT IT'S DOWN THE HALL SOME. 697 00:35:42,068 --> 00:35:44,241 I'M REALLY WORRIED ABOUT WALKING. 698 00:35:47,275 --> 00:35:49,000 GO AT A SLOWER PACE. 699 00:35:53,172 --> 00:35:55,689 I'M REALLY HUNGRY. 700 00:35:55,689 --> 00:35:58,241 I JUST WANT TO EAT AND LAY DOWN. 701 00:36:03,000 --> 00:36:07,241 YOU NEED A BREAK?NO. JUST LET'S GO. 702 00:36:07,241 --> 00:36:09,137 WE'RE ALMOST THERE, HON. 703 00:36:10,793 --> 00:36:12,034 [ SIGHS ] 704 00:36:12,034 --> 00:36:15,000 [ BREATHING HEAVILY ] 705 00:36:15,000 --> 00:36:24,827 ♪♪ 706 00:36:24,827 --> 00:36:28,482 I MEAN, IF I AM BEING A BITCH, JUST TELL ME. 707 00:36:28,482 --> 00:36:31,862 NOW, ERIC, JUST CALL ME A BITCH. 708 00:36:31,862 --> 00:36:33,620 NO. 709 00:36:33,620 --> 00:36:36,482 OH! 710 00:36:36,482 --> 00:36:39,413 [ WHIMPERS ]RELAX, HONEY. 711 00:36:39,413 --> 00:36:43,344 YOU'RE FINE. [ SIGHING ] 712 00:36:43,344 --> 00:36:45,482 I'M SORRY. I AM NOT SNAPPING AT YOU. 713 00:36:45,482 --> 00:36:47,000 I PROMISE.YOU'RE NOT BEING SNIPPY. 714 00:36:50,379 --> 00:36:53,206 DON'T BE SETTING IT ALL ROMANTIC. 715 00:36:53,206 --> 00:36:55,724 HMM. [ LAUGHS ] 716 00:36:55,724 --> 00:36:58,206 I WANT TO SHOW DR. NOW MY MASS. 717 00:36:58,206 --> 00:37:01,344 BECAUSE OF THIS MASS IS WHY I CAN'T MOVE. 718 00:37:01,344 --> 00:37:04,482 AND I'M ACTUALLY SCARED FOR SOME REASON 719 00:37:04,482 --> 00:37:06,275 HE WOULDN'T BE ABLE TO HELP ME. 720 00:37:06,275 --> 00:37:09,655 AND HE'S GONNA SAY, "EITHER LOSE WEIGHT OR DIE." 721 00:37:09,655 --> 00:37:12,137 [ BREATHING HEAVILY ] 722 00:37:16,551 --> 00:37:18,448 OKAY, THE VAN'S MOVED AROUND. 723 00:37:20,827 --> 00:37:23,724 I JUST GOT TO LOAD IT UP AND GET YOU IN IT, 724 00:37:23,724 --> 00:37:26,206 AND WE'LL BE READY TO TAKE OFF. 725 00:37:28,758 --> 00:37:30,310 IT'S ABOUT 8:30, 726 00:37:30,310 --> 00:37:34,103 AND WE'RE STARTING OUT TO GO SEE DR. NOW. 727 00:37:34,103 --> 00:37:38,965 AND ERIC'S VERY EXCITED, AND I'M JUST HERE 728 00:37:38,965 --> 00:37:40,965 AND I JUST WANT TO GO. 729 00:37:40,965 --> 00:37:43,000 [ BOTH BREATHING HEAVILY ] 730 00:37:46,551 --> 00:37:48,413 I'M HOPING THIS WILL BE EASIER FOR YOU. 731 00:37:48,413 --> 00:37:51,137 [ SIGHS ] 732 00:37:51,137 --> 00:37:54,758 I DON'T FEEL GOOD AT ALL. I FEEL REALLY TIRED. 733 00:37:54,758 --> 00:37:57,551 EVERY PART OF MY BODY JUST HURTS SO BAD. 734 00:37:57,551 --> 00:38:00,137 SO I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO TODAY'S CAR RIDE. 735 00:38:00,137 --> 00:38:01,482 ALL RIGHT, YOU JUST -- 736 00:38:01,482 --> 00:38:03,655 I'M GETTING STUFF OUT OF YOUR WAY. 737 00:38:03,655 --> 00:38:06,310 [ GRUNTS ] 738 00:38:06,310 --> 00:38:09,862 OH, I'M SO... 739 00:38:09,862 --> 00:38:12,482 GOD, I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON. 740 00:38:12,482 --> 00:38:16,241 I FEEL LIKE I'M 100 POUNDS BIGGER THAN I WAS YESTERDAY. 741 00:38:16,241 --> 00:38:17,620 Eric: JUST TAKE YOUR TIME. 742 00:38:17,620 --> 00:38:19,689 YOU WORRY ABOUT YOU. 743 00:38:19,689 --> 00:38:23,448 [ BREATHING HEAVILY ] 744 00:38:23,448 --> 00:38:24,793 YOU READY? 745 00:38:24,793 --> 00:38:26,482 I'M READY. 746 00:38:26,482 --> 00:38:33,000 ♪♪ 747 00:38:33,000 --> 00:38:34,793 I'M REALLY HUNGRY. 748 00:38:34,793 --> 00:38:37,620 LET'S STOP FOR A BURGER BEFORE YOU HIT THE HIGHWAY. 749 00:38:37,620 --> 00:38:39,448 WE CAN DO THAT. 750 00:38:39,448 --> 00:38:42,724 SO, BASICALLY, RIGHT HERE, YOU'RE TURNING RIGHT. 751 00:38:46,551 --> 00:38:48,655 Woman: GOOD MORNING. GIVE US A MOMENT. 752 00:38:48,655 --> 00:38:50,206 NUMBER 2 WITH CHEESE?NUMBER 2. 753 00:38:50,206 --> 00:38:51,862 I NEED A NUMBER 2 WITH CHEESE. 754 00:38:51,862 --> 00:38:54,137 NO ONION. AND NO ONION. 755 00:38:54,137 --> 00:38:55,517 ALL RIGHT. ANYTHING ELSE? 756 00:38:55,517 --> 00:38:56,931 NO, THAT WILL BE ALL. 757 00:38:56,931 --> 00:38:59,000 $21.37 AT YOUR SECOND WINDOW. 758 00:38:59,000 --> 00:39:01,068 THANK YOU. 759 00:39:01,068 --> 00:39:02,689 Angela: I'M SEEING DR. NOW FOR THE FIRST TIME, 760 00:39:02,689 --> 00:39:05,241 IN A COUPLE HOURS. 761 00:39:05,241 --> 00:39:07,724 SO I FEEL VERY NERVOUS. 762 00:39:07,724 --> 00:39:10,344 AND THE THOUGHT OF STARTING TO DIET -- 763 00:39:10,344 --> 00:39:11,689 OF COURSE, IN THE BACK OF MY MIND, 764 00:39:11,689 --> 00:39:13,103 I'M LIKE, "I AIN'T GONNA BE EATING GOOD AGAIN." 765 00:39:13,103 --> 00:39:14,965 I'M GONNA PULL UP HERE AND STOP. 766 00:39:14,965 --> 00:39:16,793 OKAY. 767 00:39:16,793 --> 00:39:19,068 HERE. BE CAREFUL. IT'S HOT. 768 00:39:19,068 --> 00:39:25,034 WOW. THAT'S A HUGE BURGER. 769 00:39:25,034 --> 00:39:26,586 [ CHUCKLES ] 770 00:39:26,586 --> 00:39:29,172 THAT'S LIKE A 5-POUND BURGER. 771 00:39:29,172 --> 00:39:32,172 OH, MY GOSH. 772 00:39:32,172 --> 00:39:36,896 SO, I'M ALLOWING MYSELF THIS CHEAT MEAL ONE LAST TIME. 773 00:39:36,896 --> 00:39:39,275 THAT IS REALLY GOOD. THIS IS A GOOD BURGER. 774 00:39:41,172 --> 00:39:43,172 YOU READY? YEP. 775 00:39:45,482 --> 00:39:47,275 YOU ALL RIGHT? 776 00:39:47,275 --> 00:39:49,275 I DON'T LIKE SEEING YOU GET UPSET. 777 00:39:53,034 --> 00:39:55,275 YOU KNOW, YOU ARE A LOT OLDER THAN WHEN WE DATED, 778 00:39:55,275 --> 00:39:57,689 SO YOU REALLY ARE, LIKE, RISK OF HEART ATTACK NOW, 779 00:39:57,689 --> 00:40:00,758 SO YOU'VE GOT TO TAKE IT EASY, BUDDY. 780 00:40:04,034 --> 00:40:09,965 WE ARE ALMOST IN HOUSTON, TEXAS, SO I AM GETTING REALLY NERVOUS, 781 00:40:09,965 --> 00:40:12,655 AND IT'S MAKING ME JUST WANT TO EAT. 782 00:40:12,655 --> 00:40:15,034 AND EVEN THOUGH IT WAS A LITTLE ROUGH MORNING, 783 00:40:15,034 --> 00:40:16,275 I KEEP GOING BACK AND FORTH. 784 00:40:16,275 --> 00:40:17,655 I'M VERY MOODY. 785 00:40:17,655 --> 00:40:22,206 I'M GOING FROM SAD TO PISSED OFF TO REALLY HAPPY. 786 00:40:22,206 --> 00:40:24,758 BUT, RIGHT NOW, I'M FEELING EXCITED A LITTLE BIT. 787 00:40:24,758 --> 00:40:26,758 I HAVEN'T FELT THAT ALL DAY. 788 00:40:26,758 --> 00:40:29,068 I'M REALLY SCARED TO DEATH. 789 00:40:29,068 --> 00:40:32,379 LIKE, WHEN I GET TO DR. NOW'S, 790 00:40:32,379 --> 00:40:36,000 IF IT DOES NOT GO WELL, I'M NOT READY TO GIVE UP. 791 00:40:36,000 --> 00:40:37,482 I'M NOT. 792 00:40:37,482 --> 00:40:41,034 I JUST DON'T WANT TO BE HURTING AND CRYING EVERY DAY. 793 00:40:41,034 --> 00:40:43,379 I DON'T WANT TO KEEP LIVING THE WAY I'M LIVING. 794 00:40:43,379 --> 00:40:50,931 ♪♪ 795 00:40:50,931 --> 00:40:52,793 I AM SO NUMB. 796 00:40:52,793 --> 00:40:54,862 MY HEART'S, LIKE, STARTING TO POUND, 797 00:40:54,862 --> 00:40:58,206 SO, LIKE, I'M TOTALLY NERVOUS NOW. 798 00:40:58,206 --> 00:41:01,655 AND LOOK, THERE'S HIS OFFICE. 799 00:41:01,655 --> 00:41:06,000 OH, MY GOD. 800 00:41:06,000 --> 00:41:07,655 [ SIGHS ] I GOT TO TAKE A DEEP BREATH. 801 00:41:07,655 --> 00:41:09,206 [ SEAT BELT UNLATCHES ] 802 00:41:09,206 --> 00:41:12,551 I'M AT DR. NOW'S OFFICE. 803 00:41:12,551 --> 00:41:15,000 IT TOOK THREE DAYS TO GET HERE, 804 00:41:15,000 --> 00:41:18,172 AND I'M READY TO SEE DR. NOW TODAY. 805 00:41:18,172 --> 00:41:22,137 ALL RIGHT. HERE'S THE TEST. 806 00:41:25,172 --> 00:41:29,482 I FEEL VERY NERVOUS ABOUT MEETING DR. NOW. 807 00:41:29,482 --> 00:41:32,379 GO AT YOUR PACE.I KNOW. 808 00:41:32,379 --> 00:41:34,793 MY BIGGEST FEAR, I THINK, 809 00:41:34,793 --> 00:41:37,827 WOULD BE DR. NOW JUST SAYING THAT FOR SOME REASON, 810 00:41:37,827 --> 00:41:39,620 HE WOULDN'T BE ABLE TO HELP ME. 811 00:41:39,620 --> 00:41:43,137 ANGELA? 812 00:41:43,137 --> 00:41:47,724 SINCE I WENT TO THE DOCTOR A FEW MONTHS AGO, WEIGHING 550, 813 00:41:47,724 --> 00:41:51,241 I HOPE THE SCALE DON'T SAY NO MORE. 814 00:41:51,241 --> 00:41:53,172 I DON'T THINK IT WILL SAY ANY LESS EITHER. 815 00:41:53,172 --> 00:41:56,103 YEAH, YOU GOT THAT.I NEED YOU. 816 00:41:56,103 --> 00:41:59,448 SO, I'M A NERVOUS WRECK. I FEEL VERY NERVOUS. 817 00:42:05,103 --> 00:42:12,413 ♪♪ 818 00:42:12,413 --> 00:42:15,862 Angela: TODAY I AM AT DR. NOW'S OFFICE TO GET HIS HELP. 819 00:42:15,862 --> 00:42:18,137 AND I'M ABOUT TO FIND OUT WHAT I WEIGH. 820 00:42:18,137 --> 00:42:21,103 I JUST HOPE IT'S NOT A HUGE NUMBER. 821 00:42:23,413 --> 00:42:25,103 [ SIGHS ] 822 00:42:27,689 --> 00:42:31,275 I'M SHOCKED. I AM VERY SURPRISED. 823 00:42:31,275 --> 00:42:35,000 NO HUMAN BEING SHOULD WEIGH 600 POUNDS. 824 00:42:35,000 --> 00:42:37,793 AND I'M OVER IT. 825 00:42:37,793 --> 00:42:40,551 IT ABSOLUTELY SCARES ME TO DEATH 826 00:42:40,551 --> 00:42:42,551 BECAUSE THAT'S NOT NORMAL. 827 00:42:42,551 --> 00:42:46,931 YOUR HEART IS NOT SUPPOSED TO TAKE WEIGHT LIKE THAT. 828 00:42:46,931 --> 00:42:48,482 SO I THINK HE'S GONNA TELL ME, 829 00:42:48,482 --> 00:42:50,724 "EITHER YOU'RE GONNA LOSE IT OR YOU'RE GONNA DIE SOON," 830 00:42:50,724 --> 00:42:55,241 BECAUSE NOBODY CAN LIVE THIS MUCH LONGER AT THAT WEIGHT. 831 00:42:55,241 --> 00:42:58,275 SO I'M A NERVOUS WRECK.[ KNOCK ON DOOR ] 832 00:42:58,275 --> 00:43:00,241 Dr. Nowzaradan: HELLO.HI. 833 00:43:00,241 --> 00:43:01,896 HOW ARE Y'ALL DOING?GOOD. 834 00:43:01,896 --> 00:43:04,000 HOW ARE YOU?I'M DOING ALL RIGHT. 835 00:43:04,000 --> 00:43:05,103 I'M DR. NOWZARADAN. 836 00:43:05,103 --> 00:43:06,931 I'M ANGELA.NICE TO MEET YOU. 837 00:43:06,931 --> 00:43:08,034 I'M ERIC.YOU TOO, SIR. 838 00:43:08,034 --> 00:43:09,931 NICE TO MEET YOU.VERY NICE TO MEET YOU. 839 00:43:09,931 --> 00:43:12,931 SO, WHO'S ERIC?HE'S A GOOD FRIEND. 840 00:43:12,931 --> 00:43:15,862 AN OLD, GOOD FRIEND, HUH?YES, DR. NOW. 841 00:43:15,862 --> 00:43:17,103 ALL RIGHT.AN OLD, GOOD FRIEND. 842 00:43:17,103 --> 00:43:18,448 SO, HE CAME OVER THERE AND GOT YOU? 843 00:43:18,448 --> 00:43:19,655 YES. 844 00:43:19,655 --> 00:43:21,862 THERE, YOU'VE GOT A REAL GOOD FRIEND. 845 00:43:21,862 --> 00:43:23,793 [ LAUGHTER ] 846 00:43:23,793 --> 00:43:27,034 ALL RIGHT, WELL, I'M GLAD YOU'RE HERE AND YOU MADE IT SAFE. 847 00:43:27,034 --> 00:43:29,103 SO, YOU'RE HERE TO GET HELP WITH YOUR WEIGHT. 848 00:43:29,103 --> 00:43:32,172 AND TODAY YOU ARE 608.YES. 849 00:43:32,172 --> 00:43:35,862 AND IT SAYS HERE YOU ALREADY HAD WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY IN 2002? 850 00:43:35,862 --> 00:43:37,000 YES, SIR. 851 00:43:37,000 --> 00:43:39,137 AND AT THAT TIME, HOW MUCH YOU WEIGH? 852 00:43:39,137 --> 00:43:42,310 IT WAS UP TO 375, AND I LOST 100 POUNDS. 853 00:43:42,310 --> 00:43:45,448 YOU WEIGHED 375?YES. 854 00:43:45,448 --> 00:43:48,000 WELL, YOU OBVIOUSLY STARTED TO GAIN AGAIN, 855 00:43:48,000 --> 00:43:51,517 BUT THIS TIME, YOU PASSED 375, YOU DON'T STOP THERE. 856 00:43:51,517 --> 00:43:54,137 YOU GO ALL THE WAY TO OVER 600 POUNDS. 857 00:43:54,137 --> 00:43:56,241 UNFORTUNATELY.SO, HOW DID THAT HAPPEN? 858 00:43:56,241 --> 00:43:58,793 TELL ME WHAT'S GOING ON WITH YOUR EATING HABITS. 859 00:43:58,793 --> 00:44:01,517 JUST EATING. JUST I EAT. 860 00:44:01,517 --> 00:44:05,758 AND, BASICALLY, I THINK, FEELING SORRY FOR MYSELF 861 00:44:05,758 --> 00:44:07,689 BECAUSE I CAN'T MOVE AROUND. 862 00:44:07,689 --> 00:44:11,000 I USE THE LYMPHEDEMA AS AN EXCUSE -- ON MY LEG. 863 00:44:11,000 --> 00:44:14,724 SO, WHEN I STARTED NOT MOVING AROUND, I JUST EAT. 864 00:44:14,724 --> 00:44:17,793 AND I EAT THE WRONG STUFF AND I EAT A LOT OF IT. 865 00:44:17,793 --> 00:44:20,034 SO, YOU JUST LIKE EATING A LOT, 866 00:44:20,034 --> 00:44:22,689 FEEL SORRY FOR YOURSELF, AND CAN'T MOVE. 867 00:44:22,689 --> 00:44:25,793 THREE DIFFERENT EXCUSES THAT ALL HAVE NOTHING TO DO 868 00:44:25,793 --> 00:44:28,000 WITH WHY YOU'RE OVER 600 POUNDS, 869 00:44:28,000 --> 00:44:30,551 ESPECIALLY SINCE LYMPHEDEMA DOESN'T DEVELOP 870 00:44:30,551 --> 00:44:33,448 UNTIL YOU ALREADY GAINED A SIGNIFICANT AMOUNT OF WEIGHT. 871 00:44:33,448 --> 00:44:36,310 SO NONE OF THAT MAKE ANY SENSE. 872 00:44:36,310 --> 00:44:40,689 AND FOR YOUR HEIGHT, 608 IS A VERY DANGEROUS WEIGHT. 873 00:44:40,689 --> 00:44:42,827 AND YOU ALREADY HAD THE WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, 874 00:44:42,827 --> 00:44:44,448 AND NOTHING HAS WORKED 875 00:44:44,448 --> 00:44:46,620 AND YOU HAVEN'T CHANGED YOUR EATING HABITS. 876 00:44:46,620 --> 00:44:49,000 SO WE HAVE A REALLY BAD SITUATION WITH YOU, 877 00:44:49,000 --> 00:44:51,068 BECAUSE THE REAL ANSWER TO MY QUESTION -- 878 00:44:51,068 --> 00:44:52,724 WHY YOU'RE OVER 600 -- 879 00:44:52,724 --> 00:44:55,551 IS THAT YOU'VE BEEN HOPING FOR SOME SORT OF MAGIC SOLUTION. 880 00:44:55,551 --> 00:44:57,862 WHY DO YOU KEEP DOING WHATEVER YOU WANT? 881 00:44:57,862 --> 00:45:00,724 AND HAVING FAILED WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY ONCE ALREADY 882 00:45:00,724 --> 00:45:04,034 IS A SIGN THAT YOU'RE LIKELY GOING TO CONTINUE THAT BEHAVIOR. 883 00:45:04,034 --> 00:45:07,137 SO TELL ME WHAT'S GOING TO BE DIFFERENT THIS TIME. 884 00:45:07,137 --> 00:45:09,413 WHEN I GOT THAT SURGERY, I HAD, LIKE, 885 00:45:09,413 --> 00:45:13,310 SO MANY LIFE CHANGES HAPPEN -- MY HUSBAND LEAVE ME. 886 00:45:13,310 --> 00:45:15,586 I LOST ALL THAT WEIGHT, AND ALL OF A SUDDEN, 887 00:45:15,586 --> 00:45:17,896 PEOPLE PAYING ATTENTION TO ME. 888 00:45:17,896 --> 00:45:19,896 I WAS RUNNING A BUSINESS. 889 00:45:19,896 --> 00:45:22,724 IN ONE YEAR, I WAS BOMBARDED. 890 00:45:22,724 --> 00:45:25,862 AND, BASICALLY, I DIDN'T HAVE NO CONTROL. 891 00:45:25,862 --> 00:45:27,413 THIS IS JUST MORE EXCUSES, 892 00:45:27,413 --> 00:45:30,137 BECAUSE YOU'RE SAYING YOU WENT BACK TO OVEREATING 893 00:45:30,137 --> 00:45:32,758 BECAUSE LIFE GOT HARD AND STRESSFUL. 894 00:45:32,758 --> 00:45:35,517 THAT'S NEVER GONNA CHANGE. THAT'S PART OF LIFE. 895 00:45:35,517 --> 00:45:37,689 SO, I STILL HAVE THE SAME QUESTION. 896 00:45:37,689 --> 00:45:39,482 WHAT'S GONNA BE ANY DIFFERENT THIS TIME 897 00:45:39,482 --> 00:45:42,758 IF YOU HAVE WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY? 898 00:45:42,758 --> 00:45:45,103 [ Voice breaking ] I'M JUST DONE. 899 00:45:45,103 --> 00:45:48,241 SO, LIKE, I REALLY WANT TO LOSE IT NOW, 900 00:45:48,241 --> 00:45:50,482 BECAUSE I'M GONNA BE DEAD NEXT YEAR. 901 00:45:50,482 --> 00:45:53,068 I KNOW I AM. I JUST KNOW IT. 902 00:45:53,068 --> 00:45:56,034 I CANNOT LIVE LIKE THIS NO MORE. 903 00:45:56,034 --> 00:45:59,103 AND I HAVE A GRANDDAUGHTER THAT'S 3. 904 00:45:59,103 --> 00:46:01,551 AND SHE HAS GOT TO HAVE ME. 905 00:46:01,551 --> 00:46:04,517 SO I HAVE TO BE AROUND. THERE'S NO CHOICE. 906 00:46:04,517 --> 00:46:06,931 I'M NOT DOUBTING YOUR DESIRE TO LOSE WEIGHT. 907 00:46:06,931 --> 00:46:08,344 WHAT I'M CONCERNED ABOUT IS 908 00:46:08,344 --> 00:46:10,068 WHETHER YOU'RE GONNA BE WILLING TO DO 909 00:46:10,068 --> 00:46:12,000 WHAT YOU NEED TO MAKE THAT CHANGE, 910 00:46:12,000 --> 00:46:14,965 INSTEAD OF CONTINUING TO MAKE EXCUSES. 911 00:46:14,965 --> 00:46:16,241 AND EVERYTHING YOU'RE SAYING, 912 00:46:16,241 --> 00:46:18,827 I HAVE HEARD IT BEFORE FROM PATIENTS WHO TELL ME 913 00:46:18,827 --> 00:46:22,206 THE SAME THING WHILE CRYING, BUT THEY STILL REFUSE 914 00:46:22,206 --> 00:46:24,448 TO TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR THEIR CHOICES. 915 00:46:24,448 --> 00:46:27,724 BUT YOU SAY YOU'RE READY. THEN WHAT IS YOUR MOTIVATION? 916 00:46:27,724 --> 00:46:31,172 AND WHAT ARE YOUR GOALS WITH WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY THIS TIME? 917 00:46:31,172 --> 00:46:34,620 I WANT TO BE HEALTHY, AND I WANT TO BE ABLE TO WALK. 918 00:46:34,620 --> 00:46:35,931 TO BE HONEST, EVERYBODY KEEPS SAYING, 919 00:46:35,931 --> 00:46:38,275 "WHAT DO YOU WANT TO LOSE?" THERE'S NOT A NUMBER. 920 00:46:38,275 --> 00:46:40,586 I WANT TO BE ABLE TO PICK UP MY BABY GRANDDAUGHTER, 921 00:46:40,586 --> 00:46:43,103 GO TO THE ZOO, WALK THE ENTIRE ZOO, 922 00:46:43,103 --> 00:46:44,827 NOT SIT ONCE. 923 00:46:44,827 --> 00:46:46,344 I WANT TO BE ABLE TO BREATHE. 924 00:46:46,344 --> 00:46:49,448 I WANT THIS OUT OF MY FACE. 925 00:46:49,448 --> 00:46:50,862 AND I JUST WANT LIFE BACK. 926 00:46:50,862 --> 00:46:53,965 I AM, LIKE -- I'M 44 AND I CAN'T BELIEVE 927 00:46:53,965 --> 00:46:56,689 I'VE TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF EVERYTHING. 928 00:46:56,689 --> 00:46:59,344 AND I DON'T THINK IT'S TOO LATE FOR ME. 929 00:46:59,344 --> 00:47:02,517 IT'S NEVER TOO LATE TO TRY TO SAVE YOUR LIFE. 930 00:47:02,517 --> 00:47:04,758 BUT DO YOU WANT ALL THAT ENOUGH THIS TIME 931 00:47:04,758 --> 00:47:07,137 TO ACTUALLY DO WHAT YOU NEED THIS TIME? 932 00:47:07,137 --> 00:47:08,379 YES. 933 00:47:08,379 --> 00:47:09,965 OKAY, THEN HERE'S WHAT WE'RE GONNA DO. 934 00:47:09,965 --> 00:47:12,965 I'M GONNA START YOU ON A 1,200-CALORIE-A-DAY DIET, 935 00:47:12,965 --> 00:47:14,551 AND YOU'RE GOING TO CHANGE YOUR EATING HABIT. 936 00:47:14,551 --> 00:47:15,620 YES. 937 00:47:15,620 --> 00:47:17,344 YOU ONLY EAT IT THREE TIMES A DAY. 938 00:47:17,344 --> 00:47:20,482 YOU ONLY EAT HIGH PROTEIN, NO CARBS. 939 00:47:20,482 --> 00:47:22,724 AND YOU STICK TO IT COMPLETELY. YOU GOT IT? 940 00:47:22,724 --> 00:47:23,896 YES, SIR. 941 00:47:23,896 --> 00:47:26,068 AND I ALSO WANT YOU TO START EXERCISING 942 00:47:26,068 --> 00:47:27,655 AT LEAST ONE HOUR A DAY. 943 00:47:27,655 --> 00:47:30,241 30 MINUTES IN THE MORNING AND 30 MINUTES AT NIGHT. 944 00:47:30,241 --> 00:47:33,827 AND NO USING YOUR LYMPHEDEMA AS AN EXCUSE, OKAY? 945 00:47:33,827 --> 00:47:35,206 OKAY.AND I'M GOING TO GIVE YOU 946 00:47:35,206 --> 00:47:37,482 A VERY EASY WEIGHT-LOSS GOAL TO HIT. 947 00:47:37,482 --> 00:47:40,172 IN TWO MONTHS, I WANT YOU TO LOSE 40 POUNDS. 948 00:47:40,172 --> 00:47:41,448 IF YOU STICK TO THE DIET, 949 00:47:41,448 --> 00:47:43,724 YOU'LL EASILY LOSE THREE TIMES THAT. 950 00:47:43,724 --> 00:47:46,862 SO THIS IS A VERY EASY GOAL I'M GIVING YOU, 951 00:47:46,862 --> 00:47:48,413 AND IT SHOULD BE NO PROBLEM 952 00:47:48,413 --> 00:47:50,586 IF YOU'RE AS READY TO DO THIS AS YOU CLAIM. 953 00:47:50,586 --> 00:47:53,344 JUST SHOW ME YOU'RE WILLING TO TRY EVEN JUST A LITTLE BIT. 954 00:47:53,344 --> 00:47:54,551 YES, SIR. 955 00:47:54,551 --> 00:47:56,586 BUT IF YOU DO THAT BY YOUR NEXT APPOINTMENT, 956 00:47:56,586 --> 00:47:59,068 THEN I'M GOING TO NEED YOU TO MOVE DOWN TO HOUSTON 957 00:47:59,068 --> 00:48:02,034 TO DO THE PROGRAM. YOU THINK YOU CAN DO THAT? 958 00:48:02,034 --> 00:48:06,241 AS SOON AS I KNOW I CAN BE IN THE PROGRAM, I'M READY. 959 00:48:06,241 --> 00:48:08,172 I HAVE NO PROBLEM MOVING HERE. 960 00:48:08,172 --> 00:48:09,586 THE LITTLE GIRL THAT LIVES WITH ME -- 961 00:48:09,586 --> 00:48:11,862 I'VE ALREADY GOT ARRANGEMENTS. 962 00:48:11,862 --> 00:48:13,793 EVERYTHING'S SET UP. 963 00:48:13,793 --> 00:48:16,206 SO I'M READY TO -- WHEN YOU SAY, 964 00:48:16,206 --> 00:48:19,448 "ANGELA, YOU NEED TO LIVE HERE BY THIS DAY OR THIS MONTH," 965 00:48:19,448 --> 00:48:20,689 I'M READY. 966 00:48:20,689 --> 00:48:23,172 OKAY, GOOD, BECAUSE WHAT WE'RE GONNA DO IS 967 00:48:23,172 --> 00:48:25,000 WE'RE GONNA START YOU IN PSYCHOTHERAPY 968 00:48:25,000 --> 00:48:27,000 BEFORE WE DO ANYTHING ELSE. 969 00:48:27,000 --> 00:48:29,206 AND DEPENDING ON HOW YOU DO WITH THAT 970 00:48:29,206 --> 00:48:32,068 WILL DETERMINE IF YOU MOVE AHEAD WITH WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 971 00:48:32,068 --> 00:48:33,827 YOU GOT IT?YES, SIR. 972 00:48:33,827 --> 00:48:35,620 WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY FAILED ONCE 973 00:48:35,620 --> 00:48:38,482 BECAUSE YOU KEPT JUSTIFYING AND MAKING EXCUSES. 974 00:48:38,482 --> 00:48:40,758 SO I WANT TO SEE THAT YOU'RE WILLING TO WORK. 975 00:48:40,758 --> 00:48:42,172 AND THEN YOU NEED TO SHOW ME 976 00:48:42,172 --> 00:48:44,965 YOU'RE ALSO WILLING TO WORK ON THOSE ISSUES, TOO, 977 00:48:44,965 --> 00:48:48,000 BEFORE I'M WILLING TO CONSIDER WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY FOR YOU. 978 00:48:48,000 --> 00:48:49,379 OKAY.ALL RIGHT. 979 00:48:49,379 --> 00:48:52,068 ANY QUESTIONS?NO QUESTIONS, SIR. 980 00:48:52,068 --> 00:48:53,931 ALL RIGHT, SO, TAKE THIS SERIOUSLY, 981 00:48:53,931 --> 00:48:56,724 BECAUSE AT YOUR AGE, YOU CAN'T KEEP GOING LIKE THIS. 982 00:48:56,724 --> 00:48:59,000 EVERYTHING WILL BE UP TO YOU. 983 00:48:59,000 --> 00:49:02,103 IF YOU DON'T CHANGE YOUR DIET, YOU GO BACK TO THAT, 984 00:49:02,103 --> 00:49:04,206 THEN THERE IS NOTHING ANYBODY CAN DO TO HELP. 985 00:49:04,206 --> 00:49:05,413 I UNDERSTAND. 986 00:49:05,413 --> 00:49:06,655 YOU GOT IT?I DO. 987 00:49:06,655 --> 00:49:08,344 ALL RIGHT. SUPER. 988 00:49:08,344 --> 00:49:11,034 THANK YOU SO MUCH.YOU'RE WELCOME. 989 00:49:11,034 --> 00:49:13,068 OKAY, ANGELA, I'LL SEE YOU IN TWO MONTHS. 990 00:49:13,068 --> 00:49:14,620 NICE TO MEET YOU.NICE MEETING YOU. 991 00:49:14,620 --> 00:49:16,827 VERY NICE MEETING YOU.NICE TO MEET YOU. 992 00:49:20,586 --> 00:49:23,137 Dr. Nowzaradan: RIGHT NOW, I'M VERY CONCERNED 993 00:49:23,137 --> 00:49:26,068 ABOUT WHETHER ANGELA IS TRULY READY TO WORK 994 00:49:26,068 --> 00:49:29,517 AT MAKING THE CHANGES SHE NEEDS TO TURN HER LIFE AROUND. 995 00:49:29,517 --> 00:49:32,068 SHE SPENT HER APPOINTMENT GIVING ME THE EXCUSES 996 00:49:32,068 --> 00:49:34,137 FOR ALL THE REASONS SHE'S GAINED, 997 00:49:34,137 --> 00:49:37,344 INSTEAD OF TAKING ANY REAL RESPONSIBILITY. 998 00:49:37,344 --> 00:49:39,448 SO THAT, COMBINED WITH THE FACT 999 00:49:39,448 --> 00:49:41,620 SHE ALREADY FAILED WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY ONCE, 1000 00:49:41,620 --> 00:49:43,482 IS A VERY BAD SIGN. 1001 00:49:43,482 --> 00:49:45,620 SO WE MAY HAVE AN UPHILL BATTLE 1002 00:49:45,620 --> 00:49:48,344 GETTING HER TO A PLACE SHE NEEDS TO SAVE HER LIFE. 1003 00:49:48,344 --> 00:49:51,344 IT WILL BE EXTREMELY IMPORTANT THAT WE START HER 1004 00:49:51,344 --> 00:49:53,137 GOING TO PSYCHOTHERAPY 1005 00:49:53,137 --> 00:49:55,965 TILL THIS WHOLE ISSUE SHE HAS BEHIND HER OVEREATING, 1006 00:49:55,965 --> 00:49:58,275 BEFORE WE EVEN CONSIDER DOING ANYTHING 1007 00:49:58,275 --> 00:50:00,827 LIKE ANOTHER WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY ON HER. 1008 00:50:00,827 --> 00:50:04,206 BUT, FIRST, ANGELA NEEDS TO GIVE ME A LITTLE EVIDENCE 1009 00:50:04,206 --> 00:50:06,206 SHE'S ACTUALLY WILLING TO WORK ON THIS, 1010 00:50:06,206 --> 00:50:08,482 ON EVEN THE SMALLEST LEVEL. 1011 00:50:08,482 --> 00:50:11,310 BUT IF SHE CAN'T EVEN DO THAT, THEN IT WILL SHOW US 1012 00:50:11,310 --> 00:50:14,068 SHE'S GOING TO JUST CONTINUE MAKING EXCUSES 1013 00:50:14,068 --> 00:50:17,034 AND UNDO HER SURGERY AND START GAINING AGAIN, 1014 00:50:17,034 --> 00:50:19,068 JUST LIKE SHE DID THE FIRST TIME. 1015 00:50:19,068 --> 00:50:21,931 BUT I'M HOPING SHE IS AS SERIOUS AS SHE SAYS 1016 00:50:21,931 --> 00:50:27,241 AND SHOWS ME THAT BY MAKING THE PROGRESS SHE NEEDS. 1017 00:50:27,241 --> 00:50:29,655 I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO THINK ABOUT THAT. 1018 00:50:29,655 --> 00:50:32,172 EVERYTHING HE SAID IS WHAT I NEEDED TO HEAR, 1019 00:50:32,172 --> 00:50:36,034 PLUS A LITTLE MORE, AND I WAS REALLY GRATEFUL. 1020 00:50:36,034 --> 00:50:38,965 HAVING HIM HOLD ME ACCOUNTABLE FOR THINGS, 1021 00:50:38,965 --> 00:50:41,655 I THINK IT WILL HELP. 1022 00:50:41,655 --> 00:50:45,000 BUT I'M A LITTLE WORRIED, BECAUSE I DON'T FEEL LIKE MOVING 1023 00:50:45,000 --> 00:50:49,275 THAT FAR, LEAVING MY FAMILY. 1024 00:50:49,275 --> 00:50:51,448 BUT THIS IS MY LAST CHANCE. 1025 00:50:51,448 --> 00:50:53,724 IF I DIE TOMORROW, I DIE TRYING, 1026 00:50:53,724 --> 00:50:56,103 BECAUSE I WILL DO WHAT DR. NOW SAYS. 1027 00:50:56,103 --> 00:50:59,206 AND I WILL GO HOME, I WILL LOSE THE WEIGHT, 1028 00:50:59,206 --> 00:51:02,586 I'LL LOOK FOR A PLACE TO LIVE, COME BACK, MOVE HERE, 1029 00:51:02,586 --> 00:51:04,758 AND GET MY LIFE BACK TOGETHER. 1030 00:51:10,724 --> 00:51:16,344 ♪♪ 1031 00:51:16,344 --> 00:51:21,517 ♪♪ 1032 00:51:21,517 --> 00:51:24,379 ONE... 1033 00:51:24,379 --> 00:51:26,689 TWO... 1034 00:51:26,689 --> 00:51:29,551 Angela: RIGHT NOW, I REALLY AM ENJOYING THE DIET. 1035 00:51:29,551 --> 00:51:31,000 ALL RIGHT. 1036 00:51:31,000 --> 00:51:34,275 I CAN'T REALLY GRIPE ABOUT IT. 1037 00:51:34,275 --> 00:51:37,413 YES OR NO TO FETA? NO. 1038 00:51:37,413 --> 00:51:39,034 HOW LONG IS IT GONNA LAST? 1039 00:51:39,034 --> 00:51:44,103 I HOPE TO GOD IT LASTS A LONG TIME. 1040 00:51:44,103 --> 00:51:45,793 AND YOU KNOW WHAT? 1041 00:51:45,793 --> 00:51:50,000 THE SALAD THING -- IT WAS TIRING DAY THREE, 1042 00:51:50,000 --> 00:51:51,896 BUT THEN I HAD NO IDEA -- 1043 00:51:51,896 --> 00:51:54,862 THERE'S ZERO-CALORIE BARBECUE SAUCE. 1044 00:51:54,862 --> 00:51:57,172 THERE IS A LOT OF STUFF OUT THERE 1045 00:51:57,172 --> 00:52:00,448 THAT I NEVER EVEN KNEW THAT YOU COULD HAVE, 1046 00:52:00,448 --> 00:52:02,931 AND IT'S ZERO CALORIES. 1047 00:52:02,931 --> 00:52:04,586 IS IT GOOD? MM-HMM. 1048 00:52:04,586 --> 00:52:07,655 I DO NOT, AT ALL, FEEL MYSELF BEING DRAWN 1049 00:52:07,655 --> 00:52:11,655 BACK TO THE BAD EATING HABITS AT ALL. 1050 00:52:11,655 --> 00:52:13,482 DIETING IS NOT FUN. 1051 00:52:13,482 --> 00:52:16,241 I'VE DIETED MY WHOLE LIFE, OFF AND ON, 1052 00:52:16,241 --> 00:52:20,137 BUT THIS TIME AROUND, IT KIND OF IS FUN. 1053 00:52:20,137 --> 00:52:21,793 YOU GET 2 WHOLE TABLESPOONS, 1054 00:52:21,793 --> 00:52:25,137 WHICH IS A LOT, ONLY 10 CALORIES. 1055 00:52:25,137 --> 00:52:28,482 SEE HOW MANY CALORIES IS IN YOUR RANCH. 1056 00:52:28,482 --> 00:52:31,448 HOW MANY? I FEEL FAT. 1057 00:52:31,448 --> 00:52:33,620 HOW MANY? 130. 1058 00:52:33,620 --> 00:52:35,551 OH, MY GOSH! [ LAUGHS ] 1059 00:52:35,551 --> 00:52:38,862 IT'S A CHALLENGE. 1060 00:52:38,862 --> 00:52:42,517 BUT THIS IS LIKE, "OKAY, ANGELA, EITHER YOU NEED TO DO THIS NOW 1061 00:52:42,517 --> 00:52:44,793 OR I'M GOING TO CALL A FUNERAL HOME 1062 00:52:44,793 --> 00:52:47,275 AND MAKE MY OWN ARRANGEMENTS." 1063 00:52:47,275 --> 00:52:51,931 SO, DR. NOW WANTS ME AT 199. 1064 00:52:51,931 --> 00:52:53,620 DO YOU THINK I'LL BE ABLE TO DO IT? 1065 00:52:53,620 --> 00:52:56,379 WANT ME TO BE HONEST?BE HONEST. 1066 00:52:56,379 --> 00:52:59,172 NO. NOW TELL ME WHY. 1067 00:52:59,172 --> 00:53:02,793 WHAT DO YOU THINK MY BIGGEST SETBACK WOULD BE? 1068 00:53:02,793 --> 00:53:06,137 CANDY. CANDY? 1069 00:53:06,137 --> 00:53:08,586 BUT, OTHERWISE, I THINK YOU WILL. 1070 00:53:08,586 --> 00:53:10,068 MM. 1071 00:53:10,068 --> 00:53:13,931 WE SHALL SEE. SURE. 1072 00:53:13,931 --> 00:53:16,413 I AM ON THIS WEIGHT-LOSS JOURNEY 1073 00:53:16,413 --> 00:53:20,206 FOR EMMA JEAN NEW, MY GRANDBABY. 1074 00:53:20,206 --> 00:53:21,965 ALSO FOR LACY. 1075 00:53:21,965 --> 00:53:25,344 LACY NEEDS SOMEBODY -- WHEN THERE'S A DANCE AT SCHOOL, 1076 00:53:25,344 --> 00:53:29,413 SHE NEEDS A FEMALE ROLE MODEL TO TAKE HER TO THE MALL 1077 00:53:29,413 --> 00:53:31,758 TO GO SHOPPING FOR THAT DRESS. 1078 00:53:31,758 --> 00:53:35,068 SHE NEEDS SOMEBODY MORE THAN JUST SOMEBODY 1079 00:53:35,068 --> 00:53:41,413 WHO KEEPS HER SAFE, WARM, AND FED AND CLOTHED. 1080 00:53:41,413 --> 00:53:44,896 HONESTLY, I WOULD NOT DO THIS FOR MYSELF. 1081 00:53:44,896 --> 00:53:49,068 IS IT WORTH GIVING UP MY FAMILY AND MY GRANDDAUGHTER 1082 00:53:49,068 --> 00:53:53,034 JUST TO HAVE A DOCTOR LOOK AT MY NUMBERS EVERY TWO WEEKS? 1083 00:53:53,034 --> 00:53:54,413 NO, IT'S NOT. 1084 00:53:54,413 --> 00:53:58,000 BUT IF HE SEES THEM NUMBERS AND SAYS, "YOU KNOW WHAT? 1085 00:53:58,000 --> 00:53:59,379 YOU'RE DOING YOUR THING, 1086 00:53:59,379 --> 00:54:03,000 AND WE CAN TAKE OFF SOME OF THE MASSES." 1087 00:54:03,000 --> 00:54:05,034 I HOPE THAT'S WHAT HAPPENS. 1088 00:54:05,034 --> 00:54:13,724 ♪♪ 1089 00:54:13,724 --> 00:54:22,724 ♪♪ 1090 00:54:22,724 --> 00:54:27,413 THINGS RECENTLY HAVE BEEN BASICALLY JUST A LOT OF STRESS. 1091 00:54:27,413 --> 00:54:29,586 THERE HAS BEEN A LOT OF FAMILY STUFF GOING ON, 1092 00:54:29,586 --> 00:54:33,241 BUT, DIETWISE, IT'S BEEN GOOD. 1093 00:54:33,241 --> 00:54:38,034 BUT AS FAR AS MY HEALTH, MY HEALTH HAS BEEN BETTER. 1094 00:54:38,034 --> 00:54:41,241 BEEN JUST LOOKING FOR PLACES IN HOUSTON. 1095 00:54:41,241 --> 00:54:44,724 I PERSONALLY -- I'M NOT EXCITED ABOUT THIS. 1096 00:54:44,724 --> 00:54:46,827 YOU KNOW, SO MANY STATES AWAY. 1097 00:54:46,827 --> 00:54:50,689 I FEEL LIKE I'VE LOST MOST MY MOTIVATION. 1098 00:54:50,689 --> 00:54:53,275 THREE MONTHS AGO, I WAS VERY EXCITED. 1099 00:54:53,275 --> 00:54:56,310 LIKE, I PROBABLY WOULD HAVE STAYED IN TEXAS. 1100 00:54:56,310 --> 00:55:00,586 WHEN I SEEN DR. NOW, I WOULD HAVE STAYED, PROBABLY. 1101 00:55:00,586 --> 00:55:03,103 NOW I AM THE OPPOSITE. 1102 00:55:03,103 --> 00:55:06,862 MAIN REASON IS FAMILY. NOBODY'S SUPPORTING ME. 1103 00:55:06,862 --> 00:55:11,103 NOBODY'S WANTING ME TO DO THIS, NOT EVEN MY DAUGHTER. 1104 00:55:11,103 --> 00:55:20,000 ♪♪ 1105 00:55:20,000 --> 00:55:21,862 NANA, YOU WANT TO KEEP CALLING. 1106 00:55:21,862 --> 00:55:25,793 HI, BABY. WHAT ARE YOU GUYS UP TO? 1107 00:55:25,793 --> 00:55:29,862 I JUST COOKED SOME PASTA SALAD. 1108 00:55:29,862 --> 00:55:32,310 THAT'S NICE AND NOT ON MY DIET. 1109 00:55:32,310 --> 00:55:34,482 YEAH. SORRY. 1110 00:55:34,482 --> 00:55:37,379 I JUST TALKED TO ERIC. MM-HMM. 1111 00:55:37,379 --> 00:55:40,689 HE WAS LIKE, "YOU NEED TO GO TO TEXAS." 1112 00:55:40,689 --> 00:55:43,724 I TOLD HIM EVERYBODY ELSE WAS AGAINST IT. 1113 00:55:43,724 --> 00:55:44,965 YEAH. 1114 00:55:44,965 --> 00:55:47,275 WELL, HE DIDN'T SEE YOUR PROGRESS YOU MADE. 1115 00:55:47,275 --> 00:55:48,827 THAT'S A GOOD POINT. YEAH. 1116 00:55:48,827 --> 00:55:50,448 THAT'S A VERY GOOD POINT. 1117 00:55:50,448 --> 00:55:52,724 I'M GONNA TALK TO DR. NOW TOMORROW. 1118 00:55:52,724 --> 00:55:55,896 I'M GONNA TELL HIM, WITHOUT FAMILY, I DON'T DO GOOD. 1119 00:55:55,896 --> 00:55:58,482 LIKE... EXACTLY. 1120 00:55:58,482 --> 00:56:00,379 TELL HIM, LIKE, HOW WELL YOU'RE DOING, 1121 00:56:00,379 --> 00:56:03,689 AND THEN TELL HIM WHAT YOU'RE DOING, 1122 00:56:03,689 --> 00:56:05,862 SEE IF HE WANTS YOU TO MAKE ANY CHANGES, 1123 00:56:05,862 --> 00:56:08,068 AND HE COULD GIVE YOU A GOAL WEIGHT. 1124 00:56:08,068 --> 00:56:10,275 AND EXPLAIN TO HIM THAT YOU JUST WANT TO TRAVEL DOWN THERE 1125 00:56:10,275 --> 00:56:13,275 FOR EACH SURGERY BUT KEEP YOUR HOME HERE. 1126 00:56:13,275 --> 00:56:15,827 YEAH. 1127 00:56:15,827 --> 00:56:18,206 I'LL TALK TO HIM AND SEE. 1128 00:56:18,206 --> 00:56:20,655 ALL RIGHT, WELL, I LOVE YOU. 1129 00:56:20,655 --> 00:56:22,689 LOVE YOU, EMMA JEAN. 1130 00:56:22,689 --> 00:56:24,310 EMMA, NANA SAID, "BYE." 1131 00:56:24,310 --> 00:56:25,931 BYE. SHE SAID, "BYE." 1132 00:56:25,931 --> 00:56:28,551 [ Chuckling ] BYE. 1133 00:56:28,551 --> 00:56:31,793 [ SNIFFLES ] 1134 00:56:31,793 --> 00:56:33,724 THAT IS TRUE. 1135 00:56:33,724 --> 00:56:35,275 I'VE DONE THIS ON MY OWN. 1136 00:56:35,275 --> 00:56:37,206 NOBODY'S BEEN HERE. 1137 00:56:37,206 --> 00:56:39,448 WHY DO I NEED TO LIVE IN TEXAS? 1138 00:56:39,448 --> 00:56:44,793 I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY I HAVE TO LIVE THERE TO JUST DIET. 1139 00:56:44,793 --> 00:56:47,206 I CAN DEFINITELY TELL THAT I'M LOSING WEIGHT. 1140 00:56:47,206 --> 00:56:49,862 THAT'S WHY I DON'T QUIT THE DIET PART. 1141 00:56:49,862 --> 00:56:53,965 BUT I DID THAT HERE WITHOUT DR. NOW. 1142 00:56:53,965 --> 00:56:55,965 THAT'S HOW I LOOK AT IT, 1143 00:56:55,965 --> 00:56:59,379 AND THAT'S HOW EVERYBODY IN MY FAMILY IS IN MY EAR. 1144 00:56:59,379 --> 00:57:02,103 "HOW DID HE HELP YOU LOSE THAT WEIGHT?" 1145 00:57:02,103 --> 00:57:06,758 THERE'S NO REASON WHY I CAN'T KEEP DOING IT ON MY OWN IN OHIO. 1146 00:57:06,758 --> 00:57:10,103 SO, I POSSIBLY WILL TALK TO HIM AND ASK HIM, 1147 00:57:10,103 --> 00:57:13,931 "WHY CAN I NOT LOSE WEIGHT HERE?" 1148 00:57:13,931 --> 00:57:16,689 I DON'T FEEL LIKE I'M SABOTAGING MYSELF AT ALL, 1149 00:57:16,689 --> 00:57:19,379 BECAUSE IF IT WAS THAT, I WOULD JUST QUIT. 1150 00:57:19,379 --> 00:57:21,275 YOU KNOW, I WOULD DO THE REAL SABOTAGING. 1151 00:57:21,275 --> 00:57:23,241 I DON'T HALF-ASS ANYTHING. 1152 00:57:28,758 --> 00:57:37,344 ♪♪ 1153 00:57:37,344 --> 00:57:45,379 ♪♪ 1154 00:57:45,379 --> 00:57:52,827 ♪♪ 1155 00:57:52,827 --> 00:57:55,655 I'M CALLING DR. NOW TODAY TO CHECK IN WITH HIM, 1156 00:57:55,655 --> 00:57:59,724 BECAUSE IT'S BEEN THREE MONTHS SINCE I HAD SEEN HIM. 1157 00:57:59,724 --> 00:58:01,551 I KNOW HE WAS WANTING ME TO BE THERE, 1158 00:58:01,551 --> 00:58:06,620 AND I HAVEN'T, AND SO I NEED TO TELL HIM WHY I'M NOT THERE. 1159 00:58:06,620 --> 00:58:10,034 I'VE BEEN DRAGGING MY FEET GOING TO HOUSTON, NUMBER ONE, 1160 00:58:10,034 --> 00:58:12,793 BECAUSE THE FAMILY DON'T WANT ME TO GO. 1161 00:58:12,793 --> 00:58:17,241 AND, OF COURSE, THAT MAKES ME FEEL GOOD, BECAUSE THEY LOVE ME. 1162 00:58:17,241 --> 00:58:20,586 NUMBER TWO, I DO THINK THERE'S NO NEED FOR ME 1163 00:58:20,586 --> 00:58:23,137 TO LIVE IN HOUSTON JUST TO LOSE WEIGHT. 1164 00:58:23,137 --> 00:58:26,586 IT WOULD BE DIFFERENT IF I WAS THERE GETTING SURGERY 1165 00:58:26,586 --> 00:58:27,896 AND HAVING TO SEE THE DOCTOR, 1166 00:58:27,896 --> 00:58:31,482 BUT I SEE NO USE IN HAVING TO LIFT MY LIFE UP 1167 00:58:31,482 --> 00:58:33,827 AND MOVE THERE JUST TO BE ON A DIET. 1168 00:58:33,827 --> 00:58:37,068 SO I POSSIBLY WILL TALK TO HIM AND ASK HIM, 1169 00:58:37,068 --> 00:58:39,448 "WHY CAN I NOT COME DOWN THERE ONCE A MONTH 1170 00:58:39,448 --> 00:58:41,034 TO WEIGH IN WITH HIM?" 1171 00:58:41,034 --> 00:58:43,344 AND BEST-CASE SCENARIO, HE SAYS, "YOU KNOW WHAT? 1172 00:58:43,344 --> 00:58:45,655 THERE'S A FIRST TIME FOR EVERYTHING. 1173 00:58:45,655 --> 00:58:47,103 LET'S TRY THIS OUT. 1174 00:58:47,103 --> 00:58:49,724 YOU STAY IN OHIO AND DIET, BUT PROMISE ME, 1175 00:58:49,724 --> 00:58:52,448 WHEN IT'S TIME TO GET ANY KIND OF SURGERY, 1176 00:58:52,448 --> 00:58:54,103 THEN YOU HAVE TO LIVE HERE 1177 00:58:54,103 --> 00:58:55,931 FOR AT LEAST SIX WEEKS OR WHATEVER, 1178 00:58:55,931 --> 00:58:57,793 OR YOU'RE NOT ALLOWED TO HAVE SURGERY." 1179 00:58:57,793 --> 00:59:02,862 ♪♪ 1180 00:59:02,862 --> 00:59:04,482 HI,ANGELA. 1181 00:59:04,482 --> 00:59:06,793 HI, DR. NOW. HOW ARE YOU? 1182 00:59:06,793 --> 00:59:08,482 I'M DOING OKAY. HOW ABOUT YOU? 1183 00:59:08,482 --> 00:59:09,758 I'M DOING GOOD. 1184 00:59:09,758 --> 00:59:11,172 THANK YOU FOR TAKING MY CALL. 1185 00:59:11,172 --> 00:59:12,620 WELL, WHAT'S GOING ON WITH YOU? 1186 00:59:12,620 --> 00:59:16,586 BECAUSE IT'S BEEN OVER THREE MONTHS SINCE I SAW YOU, 1187 00:59:16,586 --> 00:59:19,586 AND YOU HAVEN'T BEEN BY FOR YOUR SECOND APPOINTMENT. 1188 00:59:19,586 --> 00:59:21,344 SO, WHAT'S GOING ON? 1189 00:59:21,344 --> 00:59:25,103 I'M HAVING PROBLEMS TRYING TO FIND A PLACE TO LIVE THERE 1190 00:59:25,103 --> 00:59:28,379 AND A LOT OF HESITATION IN REGARDS TO MOVING. 1191 00:59:28,379 --> 00:59:30,896 HOLD ON, ANGELA. YOU HAVEN'T EVEN BEEN BACK 1192 00:59:30,896 --> 00:59:33,620 TO SHOW ME YOU HIT THE GOAL I GAVE YOU. 1193 00:59:33,620 --> 00:59:36,034 AND YOU'RE ALREADY COMING UP WITH EXCUSES 1194 00:59:36,034 --> 00:59:37,551 AND MISSING APPOINTMENTS 1195 00:59:37,551 --> 00:59:40,448 WITHOUT US EVEN HEARING FROM YOU. 1196 00:59:40,448 --> 00:59:42,551 SO YOU NEED TO DECIDE IF DOING THIS 1197 00:59:42,551 --> 00:59:45,586 AND SAVING YOUR LIFE IS IMPORTANT ENOUGH FOR YOU 1198 00:59:45,586 --> 00:59:47,620 AND WHETHER YOU WANT TO BE PART OF THE PROGRAM 1199 00:59:47,620 --> 00:59:49,793 OR YOU DON'T WANT TO BE PART OF THE PROGRAM. 1200 00:59:49,793 --> 00:59:52,413 I DO WANT TO BE PART OF THE PROGRAM. 1201 00:59:52,413 --> 00:59:54,620 WELL, IF YOU WANT TO BE PART OF THE PROGRAM, 1202 00:59:54,620 --> 00:59:56,620 YOU NEED TO KEEP YOUR APPOINTMENT 1203 00:59:56,620 --> 00:59:59,586 AND MAKE SURE THAT YOU SHOW UP, 1204 00:59:59,586 --> 01:00:01,206 INSTEAD OF DOING WHATEVER YOU WANT, 1205 01:00:01,206 --> 01:00:03,689 BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT DOING THIS ON YOUR TIMETABLE. 1206 01:00:03,689 --> 01:00:05,344 THAT'S NOT HOW IT WORKS. 1207 01:00:05,344 --> 01:00:08,517 I GAVE YOU A GOAL OF LOSING 40 POUNDS IN TWO MONTHS. 1208 01:00:08,517 --> 01:00:11,965 THAT'S A VERY EASY GOAL, BUT THAT'S OVER THREE MONTHS. 1209 01:00:11,965 --> 01:00:14,344 AND IF YOU ARE TOTALLY STICKING TO YOUR DIET FOR THAT LONG, 1210 01:00:14,344 --> 01:00:16,034 I WOULD EXPECT TO SEE MORE PROGRESS 1211 01:00:16,034 --> 01:00:17,517 TO PROVE TO ME YOU'RE 1212 01:00:17,517 --> 01:00:19,793 MAKING ANY LEVEL OF CHANGES THAT YOU NEED. 1213 01:00:19,793 --> 01:00:23,172 SO, OVER THREE MONTHS, YOUR GOAL WOULD BE 60 POUNDS. 1214 01:00:23,172 --> 01:00:26,103 I'VE LOST OVER 70 POUNDS. 1215 01:00:26,103 --> 01:00:29,344 YES, BUT WE NEED TO JUST TAKE YOUR WORD FOR THAT? 1216 01:00:29,344 --> 01:00:30,724 THAT -- YES, SIR. 1217 01:00:30,724 --> 01:00:34,137 SO, WILL YOU BE ABLE TO GO SOMEWHERE TO WEIGH YOURSELF? 1218 01:00:34,137 --> 01:00:37,000 HOW DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOU WEIGH? 1219 01:00:37,000 --> 01:00:38,896 NOT THAT I KNOW WHAT MY WEIGHT IS, 1220 01:00:38,896 --> 01:00:41,413 BUT I CAN NOW FIT IN MY VAN. 1221 01:00:41,413 --> 01:00:43,827 I NOW DON'T SIT IN MY BED. 1222 01:00:43,827 --> 01:00:46,310 I NOW GO WALK. 1223 01:00:46,310 --> 01:00:48,517 AND I DON'T SIT IN MY HOUSE. 1224 01:00:48,517 --> 01:00:51,551 WE GO OUT AND LEAVE THE HOUSE EVERY DAY. 1225 01:00:51,551 --> 01:00:54,275 AND I WASN'T ABLE TO DO THAT. NOW I CAN. 1226 01:00:54,275 --> 01:00:56,551 SO, YOU'RE GUESSING YOU LOST 70 POUNDS. 1227 01:00:56,551 --> 01:00:58,413 I'M NOT SURE HOW YOU CAN TELL THAT 1228 01:00:58,413 --> 01:00:59,758 WITHOUT KNOWING YOUR WEIGHT. 1229 01:00:59,758 --> 01:01:02,448 BUT IF YOU'RE CONFIDENT YOU MADE THAT MUCH PROGRESS, 1230 01:01:02,448 --> 01:01:04,586 WHY COULDN'T YOU COME AND SEE US? 1231 01:01:04,586 --> 01:01:06,551 THAT'S WHAT I'M TRYING TO DO NOW. 1232 01:01:06,551 --> 01:01:09,275 BUT WE HAVEN'T HEARD FROM YOU FOR THREE MONTHS, 1233 01:01:09,275 --> 01:01:12,000 AND YOU HAVEN'T RESCHEDULED OR LET US KNOW ANYTHING. 1234 01:01:12,000 --> 01:01:13,413 THAT IS A LONG TIME. 1235 01:01:13,413 --> 01:01:17,172 I GUESS I DID NOT REALIZE THAT IT'S BEEN THAT LONG. 1236 01:01:17,172 --> 01:01:21,448 I NEED TO GET THERE, SO I UNDER-- I KNOW. 1237 01:01:21,448 --> 01:01:25,413 SO, WHAT'S THE HOLD-UP FROM COMING DOWN TO HOUSTON? 1238 01:01:25,413 --> 01:01:29,034 TO BE VERY HONEST, SIR, THE DIET'S NOT A PROBLEM. 1239 01:01:29,034 --> 01:01:30,689 I FEEL GREAT ABOUT DIETING. 1240 01:01:30,689 --> 01:01:33,655 I JUST FEEL LIKE BEING CLOSE TO THE FAMILY 1241 01:01:33,655 --> 01:01:35,379 IS HELPING ME WITH MY DIET. 1242 01:01:35,379 --> 01:01:38,862 AND I FEEL LIKE ME GOING TO HOUSTON ALONE, BY MYSELF -- 1243 01:01:38,862 --> 01:01:40,862 I JUST THINK IT WOULDN'T BE GOOD FOR ME. 1244 01:01:40,862 --> 01:01:45,000 I WANT TO BE YOUR PATIENT AND I WANT TO BE IN THE PROGRAM, 1245 01:01:45,000 --> 01:01:49,448 SO I HAD THOUGHT IT WAS NOT A GOOD IDA FOR ME. 1246 01:01:49,448 --> 01:01:51,931 EVEN THOUGH I WANT TO DO THE DIETING, 1247 01:01:51,931 --> 01:01:53,137 I WISH YOU WOULD SAY, 1248 01:01:53,137 --> 01:01:54,896 "THERE'S A FIRST TIME FOR EVERYTHING. 1249 01:01:54,896 --> 01:01:56,827 LOSE THE WEIGHT WHILE YOU'RE THERE." 1250 01:01:56,827 --> 01:01:59,586 AND THEN IF YOU EVER DO ANY TYPE OF SKIN SURGERY ON ME, 1251 01:01:59,586 --> 01:02:01,620 THEN, YES, I HAVE TO STAY THERE, 1252 01:02:01,620 --> 01:02:04,103 LIKE, IN A HOTEL FOR A MONTH OR SO. 1253 01:02:04,103 --> 01:02:06,310 BUT AS FAR AS MOVING ALL THE WAY THERE 1254 01:02:06,310 --> 01:02:08,896 JUST TO BE ON MY DIET AND TO LOSE POUNDS, 1255 01:02:08,896 --> 01:02:10,551 I WISH YOU WOULD SAY, 1256 01:02:10,551 --> 01:02:12,655 "LET'S DO A FIRST TIME FOR EVERYTHING, 1257 01:02:12,655 --> 01:02:15,275 AND, ANGELA, STAY IN OHIO AND LOSE WEIGHT. 1258 01:02:15,275 --> 01:02:18,655 COME SEE ME ONCE EVERY TWO MONTHS." 1259 01:02:18,655 --> 01:02:21,206 SO IT SOUNDS LIKE YOU WANT TO MAKE YOUR OWN PROGRAM 1260 01:02:21,206 --> 01:02:23,103 AND JUST TELL ME HOW IT'S GONNA WORK, 1261 01:02:23,103 --> 01:02:24,482 BECAUSE YOU'RE THE EXCEPTION 1262 01:02:24,482 --> 01:02:27,551 TO THE THOUSANDS OF PEOPLE LIKE YOU I HAVE HELPED. 1263 01:02:27,551 --> 01:02:30,241 I MEAN, IT IS WHAT IT IS. 1264 01:02:30,241 --> 01:02:33,275 IF YOUR FAMILY ACTUALLY WAS HELPING YOU LIKE YOU SAY, 1265 01:02:33,275 --> 01:02:36,551 THEN YOU'D HAVE LOST THE WEIGHT A LONG TIME AGO. 1266 01:02:36,551 --> 01:02:38,517 SO, WHAT IS THE MAGIC 1267 01:02:38,517 --> 01:02:40,448 OF STAYING WITH THE SAME ENVIRONMENT 1268 01:02:40,448 --> 01:02:43,206 THAT GOT YOU TO BE 600 POUNDS? 1269 01:02:43,206 --> 01:02:45,482 WELL, I'VE GOT A NEW GRANDBABY. 1270 01:02:45,482 --> 01:02:48,275 I HAVE A CHILD THAT I TOOK CUSTODY OF. 1271 01:02:48,275 --> 01:02:50,827 IT'S NOT EXACTLY THE SAME ENVIRONMENT. 1272 01:02:50,827 --> 01:02:52,724 ANGELA, IF YOU COULD DO IT 1273 01:02:52,724 --> 01:02:54,413 ON YOUR OWN, HOWEVER YOU WANTED, 1274 01:02:54,413 --> 01:02:57,275 THEN YOU WOULD HAVE NEVER GOTTEN OVER 600 POUNDS 1275 01:02:57,275 --> 01:02:58,620 IN THE FIRST PLACE. 1276 01:02:58,620 --> 01:03:00,551 AND IF YOU ARE LOSING WEIGHT NOW, 1277 01:03:00,551 --> 01:03:03,275 WHICH IS SERIOUSLY IN DOUBT, THEN YOU'RE NEVER GOING TO BE 1278 01:03:03,275 --> 01:03:05,172 ABLE TO MAINTAIN THAT ON YOUR OWN 1279 01:03:05,172 --> 01:03:07,413 WITHOUT PROPER TOOLS AND SUPPORT. 1280 01:03:07,413 --> 01:03:09,689 LOSING WEIGHT FOR THE SHORT TERM, 1281 01:03:09,689 --> 01:03:11,241 VERSUS THE LONG TERM 1282 01:03:11,241 --> 01:03:13,517 IS A COMPLETELY DIFFERENT PROCESS, 1283 01:03:13,517 --> 01:03:16,000 AND THAT'S WHY YOU NEED TO BE HERE IN HOUSTON. 1284 01:03:16,000 --> 01:03:18,103 BUT WE'RE NOT EVEN TO THAT POINT WITH YOU YET, 1285 01:03:18,103 --> 01:03:20,206 BECAUSE BEFORE THAT'S EVEN AN OPTION, 1286 01:03:20,206 --> 01:03:22,931 I NEED TO SEE THIS ISN'T SOME GAME FOR YOU 1287 01:03:22,931 --> 01:03:25,068 AND YOU THINK YOU CAN MANIPULATE ME 1288 01:03:25,068 --> 01:03:26,413 INTO GIVING YOU SYMPATHY 1289 01:03:26,413 --> 01:03:28,206 AND THAT YOU'RE WILLING TO PUT IN THE WORK 1290 01:03:28,206 --> 01:03:31,137 TO DO THIS BY LOSING THE WEIGHT YOU NEED. 1291 01:03:31,137 --> 01:03:34,103 SO, RIGHT NOW, YOU NEED TO COME BACK FOR AN APPOINTMENT 1292 01:03:34,103 --> 01:03:38,275 SO WE CAN DO THAT. OKAY. 1293 01:03:38,275 --> 01:03:42,103 THAT'S UNDERSTANDABLE, YES. I UNDERSTAND. 1294 01:03:42,103 --> 01:03:45,068 SO, ARE YOU GOING TO DO IT, OR ARE YOU NOT GOING TO DO IT? 1295 01:03:45,068 --> 01:03:46,310 I WILL DO IT. 1296 01:03:46,310 --> 01:03:49,034 IF YOU DON'T WANT -- IF YOU SAY, "NO, ANGELA, 1297 01:03:49,034 --> 01:03:53,275 YOU CANNOT BE MY PATIENT AND LOSE WEIGHT IN OHIO," 1298 01:03:53,275 --> 01:03:55,586 THEN I'LL SAY, "THEN I WILL MOVE TO HOUSTON. 1299 01:03:55,586 --> 01:03:57,034 YES, I WILL DO IT." 1300 01:03:57,034 --> 01:03:58,689 WELL, WHAT YOU'RE ASKING ME TO DO 1301 01:03:58,689 --> 01:04:01,137 IS BASICALLY PUT YOU IN AN HONOR SYSTEM, 1302 01:04:01,137 --> 01:04:03,655 WHERE YOU MONITOR AND MOTIVATE YOURSELF, 1303 01:04:03,655 --> 01:04:06,344 WHEN YOU ALREADY FAILED WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY ONCE. 1304 01:04:06,344 --> 01:04:10,068 A LIFETIME OF PATHOLOGY DOESN'T JUST GO AWAY OVERNIGHT. 1305 01:04:10,068 --> 01:04:12,793 AND SEEING AS HOW YOU MISSED YOUR APPOINTMENT 1306 01:04:12,793 --> 01:04:14,586 AND YOU GAVE ME EXCUSES, 1307 01:04:14,586 --> 01:04:18,068 I THINK IT IS MORE LIKELY YOU ARE LYING TO ME RIGHT NOW. 1308 01:04:18,068 --> 01:04:19,862 BUT IF YOU WANT TO, FROM HERE ON, 1309 01:04:19,862 --> 01:04:23,206 WE'RE GONNA HAVE TO SEE YOU WITHIN A WEEK, OKAY? 1310 01:04:23,206 --> 01:04:24,344 THAT'S FINE. 1311 01:04:24,344 --> 01:04:26,241 YOU WON'T SEE ME, BUT I UNDERSTAND. 1312 01:04:26,241 --> 01:04:29,172 THAT'S FINE. 1313 01:04:29,172 --> 01:04:31,758 I'VE GOT SOMETHING HERE THAT HAS TO BE HANDLED. 1314 01:04:31,758 --> 01:04:33,862 SO, YOU'VE GOT EXCUSES FOR EVERYTHING. 1315 01:04:33,862 --> 01:04:36,310 THIS ISN'T A GOOD SITUATION WITH YOU AT ALL. 1316 01:04:36,310 --> 01:04:39,379 AND I THINK THE REAL MATTER IS THAT YOU'RE TRYING TO COVER 1317 01:04:39,379 --> 01:04:41,689 THE FACT THAT YOU HAVEN'T LOST WHAT YOU NEED. 1318 01:04:41,689 --> 01:04:43,896 AND YOU'RE PRETENDING ALL THESE OTHER ISSUES 1319 01:04:43,896 --> 01:04:46,448 ARE THE REASON BEHIND WHY YOU HAVEN'T COME DOWN. 1320 01:04:46,448 --> 01:04:48,068 SO, WHAT I'M GONNA DO IS, 1321 01:04:48,068 --> 01:04:51,034 WE'LL SCHEDULE YOUR APPOINTMENT FOR A MONTH FROM NOW. 1322 01:04:51,034 --> 01:04:53,448 BUT YOUR WEIGHT-LOSS GOAL TO HIT FOR THEN 1323 01:04:53,448 --> 01:04:55,689 IS 60 POUNDS NOW, INSTEAD OF 40. 1324 01:04:55,689 --> 01:04:57,517 THAT'S STILL A VERY EASY GOAL FOR YOU, 1325 01:04:57,517 --> 01:04:59,034 AND IF YOU STICK TO YOUR DIET, 1326 01:04:59,034 --> 01:05:00,965 YOU SHOULD BE ABLE TO LOSE MORE THAN THAT. 1327 01:05:00,965 --> 01:05:03,344 BUT THIS GIVES YOU SOME TIME TO GET YOU HELP 1328 01:05:03,344 --> 01:05:06,241 AND GET TO WHERE YOU NEED, IF YOU WANT TO GET SERIOUS NOW. 1329 01:05:06,241 --> 01:05:08,551 BUT IF NOT AND YOU PLAY MORE GAMES, 1330 01:05:08,551 --> 01:05:11,137 THEN YOU WON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT MOVING TO HOUSTON, 1331 01:05:11,137 --> 01:05:14,482 BECAUSE THE PROGRAM WON'T BE AN OPTION FOR YOU. 1332 01:05:14,482 --> 01:05:15,827 OKAY, THEN I'LL TRY. 1333 01:05:15,827 --> 01:05:18,068 I'LL LET YOU KNOW. I'LL TRY. 1334 01:05:18,068 --> 01:05:19,517 OKAY, YOU DO THAT. 1335 01:05:19,517 --> 01:05:22,103 BUT KEEP IN MIND THAT YOU'RE PLAYING WITH FIRE, ANGELA, 1336 01:05:22,103 --> 01:05:24,379 BECAUSE, RIGHT NOW, IF YOU DON'T LOSE WEIGHT, 1337 01:05:24,379 --> 01:05:26,689 THEN YOU'RE NOT GONNA LIVE TILL YOU'RE 50. 1338 01:05:26,689 --> 01:05:28,724 AND FROM WHAT YOU TOLD ME, 1339 01:05:28,724 --> 01:05:31,275 YOU KNOW YOUR BODY WON'T MAKE IT TO THAT POINT. 1340 01:05:31,275 --> 01:05:34,620 SO THIS IS YOUR ONLY CHANCE IF YOU WANT TO CHANGE THAT. 1341 01:05:34,620 --> 01:05:37,413 I DO AGREE. WELL, START TO PROVE IT, 1342 01:05:37,413 --> 01:05:39,172 BECAUSE I HAVE SERIOUS CONCERNS 1343 01:05:39,172 --> 01:05:40,965 ABOUT YOUR COMMITMENT RIGHT NOW. 1344 01:05:40,965 --> 01:05:43,034 SO MAKE SURE YOU COME DOWN TO HOUSTON 1345 01:05:43,034 --> 01:05:45,413 AND BE HERE FOR YOUR APPOINTMENT NEXT MONTH 1346 01:05:45,413 --> 01:05:49,068 AND HAVING LOST 60 POUNDS.I WILL DO THAT. 1347 01:05:49,068 --> 01:05:51,724 I AM COMMITTED, SIR, AND I'M GONNA DO THE WORK. 1348 01:05:51,724 --> 01:05:54,862 AND I DO WANT TO BE PART OF THE PROGRAM. 1349 01:05:54,862 --> 01:05:56,965 OKAY. THANK YOU, SIR. 1350 01:05:56,965 --> 01:05:58,931 YOU HAVE A GOOD DAY. YOU TOO. 1351 01:05:58,931 --> 01:06:06,896 ♪♪ 1352 01:06:06,896 --> 01:06:09,655 Angela: EVERYTHING DR. NOW SAID MADE SENSE. 1353 01:06:09,655 --> 01:06:10,862 AND I AGREE MORE NOW. 1354 01:06:10,862 --> 01:06:12,965 IT'S MORE IMPORTANT TO BE DOWN THERE. 1355 01:06:12,965 --> 01:06:15,724 SO THE NEXT STEP FOR ME IS TO GO IN THE NEXT COUPLE WEEKS 1356 01:06:15,724 --> 01:06:19,413 AND LOOK AT APARTMENTS IN PERSON. 1357 01:06:19,413 --> 01:06:23,103 IF I DO FIND SOMETHING I LIKE OR IF I DO HAVE A GOOD FEELING, 1358 01:06:23,103 --> 01:06:26,103 IT WILL HELP ME KNOW THAT THIS IS THE RIGHT THING TO DO. 1359 01:06:26,103 --> 01:06:29,379 IF I GO DOWN THERE AND IT'S ALL NEGATIVE, 1360 01:06:29,379 --> 01:06:32,793 THEN I'LL KNOW IT'S THE WRONG THING TO DO. 1361 01:06:32,793 --> 01:06:35,689 BUT I AM NOT BUILDING A LIFE IN HOUSTON. 1362 01:06:35,689 --> 01:06:37,655 I'M GOING TO FOCUS 1363 01:06:37,655 --> 01:06:42,896 ON NOTHING BUT ME AND MY HEALTH AND DR. NOW. 1364 01:06:42,896 --> 01:06:44,931 I JUST HOPE I'M ABLE TO DO THIS. 1365 01:06:44,931 --> 01:06:45,137 [ SIGHS ] 1366 01:06:50,931 --> 01:06:57,482 ♪♪ 1367 01:06:57,482 --> 01:07:05,241 ♪♪ 1368 01:07:05,241 --> 01:07:14,103 ♪♪ 1369 01:07:14,103 --> 01:07:16,310 Angela: TODAY I HAD A DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENT. 1370 01:07:16,310 --> 01:07:18,275 BUT I MISSED IT. 1371 01:07:18,275 --> 01:07:22,068 HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO GO TO HOUSTON WHEN I'M SICK? 1372 01:07:22,068 --> 01:07:25,586 [ Voice breaking ] THAT'S RIDICULOUS. 1373 01:07:25,586 --> 01:07:29,827 THE ODDS ARE STACKED AGAINST ME, 100%. 1374 01:07:29,827 --> 01:07:33,896 GETTING TO HOUSTON WAS GETTING IMPOSSIBLE. 1375 01:07:33,896 --> 01:07:36,689 I FEEL MORE LIKE GOING TO THE EMERGENCY ROOM. 1376 01:07:36,689 --> 01:07:39,827 Andrea: HELLO? 1377 01:07:39,827 --> 01:07:41,931 YO, WHERE WAS YOU AT? 1378 01:07:43,965 --> 01:07:46,965 DO YOU THINK YOU COULD DRIVE ME TO THE E.R. 1379 01:07:46,965 --> 01:07:51,068 SO DR. NOW SEES I REALLY AM SICK 1380 01:07:51,068 --> 01:07:54,827 AND I'M NOT JUST BLOWING HIM OFF? 1381 01:07:54,827 --> 01:07:56,413 YEAH. ALL RIGHT, HONEY. 1382 01:07:56,413 --> 01:07:58,517 I LOVE YOU. YOU TOO. 1383 01:07:58,517 --> 01:07:59,965 BYE. 1384 01:08:04,000 --> 01:08:05,965 SOMETHING'S NOT RIGHT. 1385 01:08:05,965 --> 01:08:07,896 RIGHT NOW, I CAN'T BREATHE. 1386 01:08:07,896 --> 01:08:10,965 I'M HAVING A BAD DAY. 1387 01:08:10,965 --> 01:08:14,448 I FEEL REALLY ON FIRE. 1388 01:08:14,448 --> 01:08:17,758 I FEEL LIKE MY INSIDES ARE SHAKING. 1389 01:08:17,758 --> 01:08:20,896 I NEVER HAD MY BODY GO NUMB LIKE THIS. 1390 01:08:20,896 --> 01:08:22,724 I FEEL LIKE I'M LOSING MY MIND. 1391 01:08:22,724 --> 01:08:24,827 I FEEL LIKE SOMETHING'S NOT RIGHT IN MY MIND. 1392 01:08:24,827 --> 01:08:28,379 AND I JUST DON'T WANT TO BE IN THE HOSPITAL. 1393 01:08:28,379 --> 01:08:31,448 I DON'T WANT TO SIT THERE HOOKED UP ON THEIR MACHINES, 1394 01:08:31,448 --> 01:08:34,793 BECAUSE I KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE WHEN THEY LOCK ME UP. 1395 01:08:34,793 --> 01:08:36,689 YEAH. 1396 01:08:36,689 --> 01:08:39,448 IT'S, LIKE, REALLY GETTING SCARY. 1397 01:08:39,448 --> 01:08:42,206 BUT DR. NOW CAN'T BE MAD 1398 01:08:42,206 --> 01:08:44,793 BECAUSE OF ME BEING AS SICK AS I AM. 1399 01:08:44,793 --> 01:08:47,482 [ GRUNTS ] 1400 01:08:58,620 --> 01:09:05,586 ♪♪ 1401 01:09:05,586 --> 01:09:09,241 I FEEL LIKE I CAN'T DO THIS AT ALL ANYMORE. 1402 01:09:09,241 --> 01:09:11,931 I FEEL LIKE I'M TIRED OF FIGHTING. 1403 01:09:11,931 --> 01:09:14,965 I JUST WANT A PILL AND TAKE IT BETTER. 1404 01:09:14,965 --> 01:09:18,379 BUT THAT'S ALL I'VE DONE IS TAKE PILLS FOR A WEEK. 1405 01:09:18,379 --> 01:09:20,724 HI.NO, SIR. 1406 01:09:20,724 --> 01:09:23,068 THERE'S NO PILL TO FIX IT. 1407 01:09:23,068 --> 01:09:25,862 I'M JUST -- I KEEP BLACKING OUT. 1408 01:09:25,862 --> 01:09:29,034 I THINK THERE'S A PILL TO TAPER IT OFF, 1409 01:09:29,034 --> 01:09:31,517 BUT I DON'T WANT TO DIE EITHER. 1410 01:09:31,517 --> 01:09:33,689 AND I REALLY JUST WANT THIS TO END. 1411 01:09:33,689 --> 01:09:42,413 ♪♪ 1412 01:09:42,413 --> 01:09:50,931 ♪♪ 1413 01:09:50,931 --> 01:09:57,586 ♪♪ 1414 01:09:57,586 --> 01:09:59,655 Dr. Nowzaradan: WE SEEM TO HAVE 1415 01:09:59,655 --> 01:10:02,413 A VERY SERIOUS SITUATION WITH ANGELA. 1416 01:10:02,413 --> 01:10:04,965 SHE HAS MISSED HER LAST TWO APPOINTMENTS NOW, 1417 01:10:04,965 --> 01:10:09,241 SO IT'S BEEN SIX MONTHS SINCE I ORIGINALLY SAW HER. 1418 01:10:09,241 --> 01:10:12,586 WHEN SHE MISSED HER FOLLOW-UP APPOINTMENT FOR THE FIRST TIME, 1419 01:10:12,586 --> 01:10:16,034 SHE BLAMED NOT BEING ABLE TO FIND A PLACE TO LIVE IN HOUSTON, 1420 01:10:16,034 --> 01:10:19,310 WHEN WE WERE NOT EVEN TO THAT POINT WITH HER YET. 1421 01:10:19,310 --> 01:10:22,000 AND THIS LAST TIME, SHE CLAIMS SHE WAS TOO SICK 1422 01:10:22,000 --> 01:10:25,241 AND NEEDED TIME TO RECOVER, WHILE SHE AVOIDED OUR CALLS 1423 01:10:25,241 --> 01:10:29,068 AND DIDN'T RETURN MOST OF OUR MESSAGES FOR THE PAST FEW WEEKS. 1424 01:10:29,068 --> 01:10:32,517 BUT SHE FINALLY RESPONDED, SAYING SHE'S BETTER NOW 1425 01:10:32,517 --> 01:10:35,931 AND CAN FINALLY TALK, SO WE SET A CALL WITH HER TODAY 1426 01:10:35,931 --> 01:10:39,068 TO GIVE HER ONE LAST CHANCE TO DO WHAT SHE NEEDS. 1427 01:10:39,068 --> 01:10:43,241 BUT I'M NOT INTERESTED IN ANY MORE OF HER EXCUSES OR GAMES. 1428 01:10:43,241 --> 01:10:45,827 AND AT THIS POINT, I HAVE SIGNIFICANT DOUBT 1429 01:10:45,827 --> 01:10:47,724 AS TO WHETHER SHE'S REALLY WILLING 1430 01:10:47,724 --> 01:10:49,517 TO ACTUALLY PUT ANY EFFORT 1431 01:10:49,517 --> 01:10:52,896 IN MAKING LIFE CHANGES SHE NEEDS TO SAVE HER LIFE. 1432 01:10:52,896 --> 01:11:00,724 ♪♪ 1433 01:11:00,724 --> 01:11:03,241 Angela: I'M CALLING DR. NOW TODAY, 1434 01:11:03,241 --> 01:11:06,034 BASICALLY TO CHECK IN 1435 01:11:06,034 --> 01:11:09,689 AND BASICALLY JUST SEE WHAT HE SAYS. 1436 01:11:09,689 --> 01:11:12,379 HE THINKS I'M HOME, NOT DIETING. 1437 01:11:12,379 --> 01:11:15,448 HE BELIEVES I'VE GAINED WEIGHT. 1438 01:11:15,448 --> 01:11:20,793 AND I KNOW HE HAS HEARD EVERY EXCUSE IN THIS WORLD. 1439 01:11:20,793 --> 01:11:22,724 BUT I WANT HIM TO REALLY KNOW 1440 01:11:22,724 --> 01:11:25,620 THAT I'M GONNA KEEP LOSING WEIGHT. 1441 01:11:25,620 --> 01:11:27,344 THAT'S ALL. 1442 01:11:36,137 --> 01:11:37,379 HI, DR. NOW. 1443 01:11:37,379 --> 01:11:39,103 Dr. Nowzaradan: HI, ANGELA. HOW YOU DOING? 1444 01:11:39,103 --> 01:11:40,551 I'M GOOD. 1445 01:11:40,551 --> 01:11:42,793 SO, WE HAVE A BIT OF AN ISSUE AGAIN, 1446 01:11:42,793 --> 01:11:44,586 BECAUSE YOU MISSED YOUR APPOINTMENT AGAIN, 1447 01:11:44,586 --> 01:11:47,689 SAYING YOU WERE SICK, BUT IT TURNED OUT YOU WEREN'T. 1448 01:11:47,689 --> 01:11:50,068 SO, WHAT IS YOUR EXCUSE THIS TIME? 1449 01:11:50,068 --> 01:11:52,310 I JUST HAD SOME FAMILY THINGS GOING ON, 1450 01:11:52,310 --> 01:11:55,034 AND I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO COME OUT TO TEXAS. 1451 01:11:55,034 --> 01:12:00,137 BUT I DO PLAN ON BEING OUT THERE TO, HOPEFULLY, GET AN APARTMENT. 1452 01:12:00,137 --> 01:12:02,206 I'VE HAD NO LUCK ON THIS END. 1453 01:12:02,206 --> 01:12:04,689 YOU'VE BEEN TRYING TO DO THAT FOR A WHILE NOW, 1454 01:12:04,689 --> 01:12:06,689 BUT YOU HAVEN'T BEEN GETTING BACK TO US 1455 01:12:06,689 --> 01:12:08,724 AND YOU'VE BEEN AVOIDING MY CALLS, 1456 01:12:08,724 --> 01:12:11,758 MAKING EXCUSES, AND LYING TO US. 1457 01:12:11,758 --> 01:12:13,275 BUT NOW YOU AREN'T SICK. 1458 01:12:13,275 --> 01:12:15,896 YOU HAVE COMPLETELY RECOVERED, IT SEEMS. 1459 01:12:15,896 --> 01:12:17,310 SO, WHAT'S THE REASON 1460 01:12:17,310 --> 01:12:19,206 YOU'RE STILL NOT COMING DOWN TO HOUSTON 1461 01:12:19,206 --> 01:12:21,896 TO SEE ME FOR YOUR FOLLOW-UP APPOINTMENT? 1462 01:12:21,896 --> 01:12:24,206 YOU KNOW WHAT? I'LL BE VERY HONEST WITH YOU. 1463 01:12:24,206 --> 01:12:25,758 I DON'T KNOW WHY IT TOOK SO LONG. 1464 01:12:25,758 --> 01:12:29,103 IT SEEMED LIKE SOMETHING WAS HAPPENING EVERY OTHER WEEK. 1465 01:12:29,103 --> 01:12:32,000 SO, YOU LET ANOTHER MONTH GO WITHOUT DOING 1466 01:12:32,000 --> 01:12:33,620 WHAT YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO BE DOING, 1467 01:12:33,620 --> 01:12:36,413 BECAUSE IT DOESN'T LOOK LIKE YOU HAVE LOST ANY WEIGHT, 1468 01:12:36,413 --> 01:12:41,034 SO YOU KEEP MAKING EXCUSES AND NOT COMING DOWN HERE 1469 01:12:41,034 --> 01:12:42,689 'CAUSE YOU'RE NOT SERIOUS ABOUT IT. 1470 01:12:42,689 --> 01:12:45,758 OKAY, YOU SAY I DON'T LOOK LIKE I'VE LOST ANY WEIGHT, 1471 01:12:45,758 --> 01:12:48,448 BUT I FEEL LIKE I'VE LOST A LOT OF WEIGHT. 1472 01:12:48,448 --> 01:12:51,206 I THINK THIS IS A LITTLE LIE YOU KEEP TELLING EVERYONE, 1473 01:12:51,206 --> 01:12:52,896 BECAUSE IF YOU HAVE LOST THE WEIGHT, 1474 01:12:52,896 --> 01:12:55,172 YOU WOULDN'T BE AVOIDING COMING BACK 1475 01:12:55,172 --> 01:12:56,758 TO SHOW ME YOUR PROGRESS. 1476 01:12:56,758 --> 01:12:58,413 THE MOST COMMON CAUSE OF PEOPLE 1477 01:12:58,413 --> 01:13:00,172 WHEN THEY DON'T SHOW UP FOR AN APPOINTMENT 1478 01:13:00,172 --> 01:13:02,068 IS BECAUSE THEY HAVEN'T LOST WEIGHT. 1479 01:13:02,068 --> 01:13:04,379 AND YOU'RE NOT ANY DIFFERENT THAN EVERYBODY ELSE. 1480 01:13:04,379 --> 01:13:06,655 AND EVERY TIME YOU MISS YOUR APPOINTMENT, 1481 01:13:06,655 --> 01:13:08,482 WE HAVEN'T HEARD FROM YOU, 1482 01:13:08,482 --> 01:13:10,965 AND YOU HAVEN'T CALLED, SO YOU ARE AVOIDING US. 1483 01:13:10,965 --> 01:13:13,000 AND THE REASON FOR THAT IS, RIGHT NOW, 1484 01:13:13,000 --> 01:13:14,551 I THINK YOU'RE BUYING TIME, 1485 01:13:14,551 --> 01:13:17,620 BECAUSE ONE OF THE DELUSIONS YOU CAN CONVINCE YOURSELF OF 1486 01:13:17,620 --> 01:13:19,724 IS THAT YOU'RE GOING TO DO IT EVENTUALLY. 1487 01:13:19,724 --> 01:13:22,137 BUT "EVENTUALLY" NEVER COMES, AND THEN, ONE DAY, 1488 01:13:22,137 --> 01:13:24,758 YOUR BODY GIVES OUT, AND THAT WILL BE IT FOR YOU. 1489 01:13:24,758 --> 01:13:26,448 SO, THE REAL REASON IS 1490 01:13:26,448 --> 01:13:28,827 THAT ALL THESE OTHER EXCUSES YOU'VE GIVEN, 1491 01:13:28,827 --> 01:13:30,517 IT IS THAT YOU'RE PLAYING GAMES 1492 01:13:30,517 --> 01:13:33,586 AND TRYING TO MANIPULATE ME IN YOUR SITUATION. 1493 01:13:33,586 --> 01:13:36,137 THAT'S NOT THE REASON WHATSOEVER. 1494 01:13:36,137 --> 01:13:38,448 THAT'S NOT MY EXCUSE WHATSOEVER. 1495 01:13:38,448 --> 01:13:40,448 I'VE BEEN ON YOUR DIET SINCE I LEFT, 1496 01:13:40,448 --> 01:13:42,448 AND I'M DOING GREAT. 1497 01:13:42,448 --> 01:13:45,379 YOU TELL ME YOU'VE COMPLETELY STUCK TO THE DIET 1498 01:13:45,379 --> 01:13:47,586 AND YOU HAVEN'T EVEN SETTLED ONCE WITH IT? 1499 01:13:47,586 --> 01:13:51,172 I CHEATED EATING, AND I HAD ALCOHOLIC DRINKS. 1500 01:13:51,172 --> 01:13:55,000 SO I DID HAVE A SETBACK FOR THREE NIGHTS. 1501 01:13:55,000 --> 01:13:57,862 BUT I FEEL LIKE I'VE MADE UP FOR IT. 1502 01:13:57,862 --> 01:14:00,655 THAT'S STILL A LIE. THE ONLY THING YOU HAVE -- 1503 01:14:00,655 --> 01:14:03,379 WHAT YOU SAY IS THAT YOU'VE BEEN CHEATING ON THE DIET. 1504 01:14:03,379 --> 01:14:05,896 BUT YOU DON'T NEED ME TO EXPLAIN THAT TO YOU, 1505 01:14:05,896 --> 01:14:07,448 BECAUSE YOU KNOW YOU'RE LYING, 1506 01:14:07,448 --> 01:14:09,551 AND THAT'S WHY YOU'RE AVOIDING COMING BACK -- 1507 01:14:09,551 --> 01:14:11,517 BECAUSE YOU HAVEN'T LOST ANY WEIGHT, 1508 01:14:11,517 --> 01:14:13,655 AND PROBABLY, YOU'VE GAINED SOME WEIGHT. 1509 01:14:13,655 --> 01:14:16,068 AND YOU WANT TO DELAY COMING DOWN HERE 1510 01:14:16,068 --> 01:14:19,896 SO YOU CAN LOSE WEIGHT AND GET BACK IN THE PROGRAM. 1511 01:14:19,896 --> 01:14:21,310 THAT'S NOT THE REASON. 1512 01:14:21,310 --> 01:14:23,586 I JUST HAVEN'T EVEN -- I'VE LOOKED FOR A PLACE 1513 01:14:23,586 --> 01:14:26,034 DOWN THERE, AND I HAVEN'T FOUND ANYTHING. 1514 01:14:26,034 --> 01:14:27,931 BUT I HAD THE PLANS, 1515 01:14:27,931 --> 01:14:31,000 AND I THINK I FOUND THE PLACE I WANT TO RENT. 1516 01:14:31,000 --> 01:14:33,931 SO I HOPE YOU STILL LET ME BE IN THE PROGRAM. 1517 01:14:33,931 --> 01:14:37,275 ANGELA, THIS ISN'T ABOUT FINDING A PLACE TO SAY IN HOUSTON. 1518 01:14:37,275 --> 01:14:40,034 I TOLD YOU LAST TIME, WE'RE NOT EVEN TO THAT POINT. 1519 01:14:40,034 --> 01:14:43,275 SO STOP WITH ALL THE EXCUSES AND LIES AND GAMES. 1520 01:14:43,275 --> 01:14:45,758 YOU HAVE SPENT YOUR WHOLE LIFE FINDING WAYS 1521 01:14:45,758 --> 01:14:47,551 TO MANIPULATE PEOPLE AROUND YOU 1522 01:14:47,551 --> 01:14:49,827 AND CREATING A FACADE AND DELUSION 1523 01:14:49,827 --> 01:14:53,310 THAT YOU'RE TRYING OR YOU'RE NOT EATING VERY MUCH 1524 01:14:53,310 --> 01:14:55,068 OR YOU'RE GONNA GET HEALTHY, 1525 01:14:55,068 --> 01:14:58,137 WHEN YOU HAVE NO REAL INTENTION OF DOING THAT. 1526 01:14:58,137 --> 01:15:00,068 YOU JUST WANT TO EAT WHAT YOU WANT 1527 01:15:00,068 --> 01:15:02,172 AND HOPE FOR A MAGIC SOLUTION 1528 01:15:02,172 --> 01:15:04,448 TO SAVE YOU FROM THE CONSEQUENCE OF THAT. 1529 01:15:04,448 --> 01:15:06,413 THE ONLY WAY TO CHANGE THE FACT 1530 01:15:06,413 --> 01:15:09,034 THAT YOU'RE GONNA DIE SOON BECAUSE OF YOUR WEIGHT 1531 01:15:09,034 --> 01:15:11,931 IS THAT YOU HAVE TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. 1532 01:15:11,931 --> 01:15:13,344 YOU HAVE TO DO IT. 1533 01:15:13,344 --> 01:15:16,310 AND YOU NEED TO DECIDE IF YOU WANT TO DO THAT NOW, 1534 01:15:16,310 --> 01:15:19,034 BECAUSE I'M GIVING YOU ONE MORE WEEK TO COME BACK DOWN 1535 01:15:19,034 --> 01:15:21,413 SO I CAN SEE IF YOU'RE MAKING PROGRESS OR NOT. 1536 01:15:21,413 --> 01:15:23,379 BUT IF YOU'RE GONNA KEEP MAKING EXCUSES 1537 01:15:23,379 --> 01:15:24,896 AND TRY TO AVOID ME, 1538 01:15:24,896 --> 01:15:26,827 THEN I DON'T NEED TO WASTE MY TIME, 1539 01:15:26,827 --> 01:15:29,034 AND THIS IS NOT GONNA WORK FOR YOU. 1540 01:15:29,034 --> 01:15:31,310 WHEN YOU SAID YOU WANT ME TO COME IN A WEEK, 1541 01:15:31,310 --> 01:15:32,620 SO WHEN I COME IN A WEEK 1542 01:15:32,620 --> 01:15:35,551 AND YOU SEE THAT I HAVE LOST 120 POUNDS, 1543 01:15:35,551 --> 01:15:37,172 THEN YOU'LL SEE THAT I AM SERIOUS 1544 01:15:37,172 --> 01:15:39,068 AND I HAVE BEEN SERIOUS. 1545 01:15:39,068 --> 01:15:40,689 I AM NOT LIKE OTHERS. 1546 01:15:40,689 --> 01:15:43,896 I'M NOT NOTCOMING BECAUSE I'M NOT LOSING WEIGHT. 1547 01:15:43,896 --> 01:15:46,551 SO I HOPE THAT YOU SEE I'M NOT LYING 1548 01:15:46,551 --> 01:15:48,068 WHEN I GET THERE. 1549 01:15:48,068 --> 01:15:51,448 NOW YOU'RE CLAIMING YOU LOST 120 POUNDS SINCE I SAW YOU? 1550 01:15:51,448 --> 01:15:53,482 LAST MONTH, IT WAS 70 POUNDS. 1551 01:15:53,482 --> 01:15:56,620 SO, ARE YOU SAYING YOU LOST ANOTHER 50 POUNDS SINCE THEN? 1552 01:15:56,620 --> 01:15:58,137 YES, SIR. 1553 01:15:58,137 --> 01:16:00,275 THEN HOW COME YOU DON'T LOOK LIKE IT 1554 01:16:00,275 --> 01:16:02,517 AND YOU'RE STILL ON THE OXYGEN? 1555 01:16:02,517 --> 01:16:03,931 I DON'T KNOW, SIR. 1556 01:16:03,931 --> 01:16:05,862 BUT I HAVE BEEN FOLLOWING MY DIET, 1557 01:16:05,862 --> 01:16:07,965 AND I'M DOING GREAT. 1558 01:16:07,965 --> 01:16:10,689 ANGELA, YOU'RE MORE DELUSIONAL THAN I THOUGHT 1559 01:16:10,689 --> 01:16:13,034 IF YOU STILL THINK YOU CAN MANIPULATE ME. 1560 01:16:13,034 --> 01:16:14,965 AND WHEN IT COMES TO THIS PROGRAM, 1561 01:16:14,965 --> 01:16:16,379 YOU'RE NOT SPECIAL, 1562 01:16:16,379 --> 01:16:18,413 AND LYING TO ME ABOUT YOUR WEIGHT 1563 01:16:18,413 --> 01:16:20,931 IS NOT GONNA GET ME TO TELL YOU WHAT YOU WANT. 1564 01:16:20,931 --> 01:16:23,241 YOU HAVE ONE OPTION -- IF YOU WANT TO DO THIS 1565 01:16:23,241 --> 01:16:25,344 AND SAVE YOUR LIFE, COME BACK DOWN HERE 1566 01:16:25,344 --> 01:16:27,206 AND SHOW ME WHERE YOUR WEIGHT IS AT, 1567 01:16:27,206 --> 01:16:29,482 AND THEN WE CAN START YOU ON PSYCHOTHERAPY 1568 01:16:29,482 --> 01:16:31,965 TO TRY AND FIND A WAY TO GET THROUGH TO YOU 1569 01:16:31,965 --> 01:16:34,689 AND BREAK THROUGH ALL YOUR LIES AND DELUSIONS. 1570 01:16:34,689 --> 01:16:36,862 IN FACT, THEN THAT WILL BE IT FOR YOU, 1571 01:16:36,862 --> 01:16:39,137 BECAUSE I'M DONE PLAYING YOUR GAMES. 1572 01:16:39,137 --> 01:16:41,103 AND IF YOU MISS YOUR APPOINTMENT AGAIN, 1573 01:16:41,103 --> 01:16:44,827 FOR WHATEVER REASON, I'M NOT TAKING ANY EXCUSES. 1574 01:16:44,827 --> 01:16:47,103 EITHER YOUR HEALTH AND HAVING YOUR LIFE 1575 01:16:47,103 --> 01:16:48,862 IS A PRIORITY OR IT'S NOT. 1576 01:16:48,862 --> 01:16:50,931 WE CAN'T MAKE THE CHOICE FOR YOU. 1577 01:16:50,931 --> 01:16:54,000 SO BE HERE IN ONE WEEK, OR THE PROGRAM WILL NO LONGER 1578 01:16:54,000 --> 01:16:55,793 BE AN OPTION FOR YOU. 1579 01:16:55,793 --> 01:16:58,482 OKAY, I WILL DO THAT. 1580 01:16:58,482 --> 01:17:01,517 I HAD PLANNED ON THE NEXT COUPLE WEEKS, 1581 01:17:01,517 --> 01:17:05,655 BUT I WILL WORK ON THAT RIGHT WHEN WE HANG UP, SIR. 1582 01:17:05,655 --> 01:17:07,517 AND YOU'LL SEE, WHEN I COME DOWN THERE, 1583 01:17:07,517 --> 01:17:11,034 THAT I SHOULD HAVE LOST 120 POUNDS. 1584 01:17:11,034 --> 01:17:12,586 SO WHEN YOU SEE THE SCALE, 1585 01:17:12,586 --> 01:17:15,000 THEN YOU'LL TAKE BACK EVERYTHING YOU JUST SAID. 1586 01:17:15,000 --> 01:17:16,724 BUT THAT'S FINE. 1587 01:17:16,724 --> 01:17:18,827 IF YOU DO, I'LL BE MORE THAN HAPPY 1588 01:17:18,827 --> 01:17:20,310 TO TAKE BACK WHAT I'VE SAID. 1589 01:17:20,310 --> 01:17:22,103 I'M GIVING YOU A CHANCE. 1590 01:17:22,103 --> 01:17:24,310 IT IS UP TO YOU TO TAKE IT, OKAY? 1591 01:17:24,310 --> 01:17:27,172 I APPRECIATE THAT. I WILL TAKE IT. 1592 01:17:27,172 --> 01:17:28,551 ALL RIGHT, ANGELA. 1593 01:17:28,551 --> 01:17:32,172 TALK TO YOU SOON. BYE-BYE. 1594 01:17:34,896 --> 01:17:36,172 Dr. Nowzaradan: IT'S VERY DISAPPOINTING 1595 01:17:36,172 --> 01:17:38,068 TO HAVE ANGELA STILL CHOOSING TO LIE 1596 01:17:38,068 --> 01:17:39,689 TO TRY AND MANIPULATE ME, 1597 01:17:39,689 --> 01:17:43,137 INSTEAD OF TAKING RESPONSIBILITY. 1598 01:17:43,137 --> 01:17:46,482 SHE DOESN'T LOOK TO HAVE MADE MUCH, IF ANY, PROGRESS. 1599 01:17:46,482 --> 01:17:48,758 AND HER LEVEL OF PATHOLOGY AND DELUSION 1600 01:17:48,758 --> 01:17:51,482 IS AMONG THE HIGHEST I HAVE EVER SEEN. 1601 01:17:51,482 --> 01:17:54,379 SHE'S JUST PILED ON ONE LIE AFTER ANOTHER, 1602 01:17:54,379 --> 01:17:57,068 UNTIL THE FACADE SHE CREATES IS SO BIG 1603 01:17:57,068 --> 01:17:59,137 THAT SHE CAN'T BACK IT UP ANYMORE. 1604 01:17:59,137 --> 01:18:00,620 BUT INSTEAD OF COMING CLEAN, 1605 01:18:00,620 --> 01:18:03,310 WHEN SHE CAN'T SUPPORT EVERYTHING SHE HAS MADE UP, 1606 01:18:03,310 --> 01:18:06,275 SHE JUST STARTS A NEW LIE AND KEEPS GOING. 1607 01:18:06,275 --> 01:18:09,000 SO PSYCHOTHERAPY IS GOING TO HAVE TO MAKE 1608 01:18:09,000 --> 01:18:12,896 SIGNIFICANT PROGRESS WITH HER TO TRY TO ADDRESS THIS DELUSION 1609 01:18:12,896 --> 01:18:15,413 BEFORE WE EVEN CONSIDER MOVING AHEAD 1610 01:18:15,413 --> 01:18:17,862 WITH ANOTHER WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY WITH HER. 1611 01:18:17,862 --> 01:18:21,137 BUT TO EVEN GET TO THAT POINT, SHE NEEDS TO FOLLOW THROUGH 1612 01:18:21,137 --> 01:18:23,344 AND COME BACK FOR HER NEXT APPOINTMENT 1613 01:18:23,344 --> 01:18:24,827 AND HIT HER GOAL. 1614 01:18:24,827 --> 01:18:27,482 SO ANGELA NEEDS TO MAKE A CHOICE 1615 01:18:27,482 --> 01:18:29,310 WHETHER SHE'S GOING TO DO THIS OR NOT, 1616 01:18:29,310 --> 01:18:32,689 BECAUSE SHE'S NOT GETTING ANY MORE CHANCES AFTER TODAY. 1617 01:18:32,689 --> 01:18:34,827 BUT I'M HOPING SHE STARTS TO WAKE UP, 1618 01:18:34,827 --> 01:18:38,103 BECAUSE IF SHE DOESN'T, IT'S GONNA COST HER HER LIFE. 1619 01:18:38,103 --> 01:18:46,620 ♪♪ 1620 01:18:46,620 --> 01:18:49,655 [ Telephone rings ] 1621 01:18:49,655 --> 01:18:51,034 Travis: HELLO? 1622 01:18:51,034 --> 01:18:53,517 HEY, WHATCHA DOING, TRAVIS? NOTHING. 1623 01:18:53,517 --> 01:18:54,896 WHAT ARE YOU UP TO?NOTHING. 1624 01:18:54,896 --> 01:18:57,344 I JUST GOT OFF THE PHONE WITH DR. NOW, 1625 01:18:57,344 --> 01:18:59,482 AND HE WAS JUMPING MY ASS. 1626 01:18:59,482 --> 01:19:02,103 HE JUST SAID, "IF YOU WANT TO BE PART OF THE PROGRAM, 1627 01:19:02,103 --> 01:19:05,103 YOU NEED TO BE HERE IN THE NEXT WEEK." 1628 01:19:05,103 --> 01:19:08,517 SO, I'M GONNA TRY TO GET AHOLD OF ERIC TONIGHT 1629 01:19:08,517 --> 01:19:09,965 AND SEE WHAT HE SAYS. 1630 01:19:09,965 --> 01:19:11,206 THAT'S HAPPENING FAST. 1631 01:19:11,206 --> 01:19:13,034 WELL, KIND OF PISSES ME OFF. 1632 01:19:13,034 --> 01:19:15,034 HE SAYS THAT, BUT HE'S LIKE, 1633 01:19:15,034 --> 01:19:18,310 "EITHER YOU'RE GONNA WORRY ABOUT YOUR HEALTH OR YOU'RE NOT." 1634 01:19:18,310 --> 01:19:20,793 IT SOUNDS LIKE HE WANTS TO HELP YOU OUT. 1635 01:19:20,793 --> 01:19:22,758 YEAH, BUT I'M HAPPY WITH MYSELF, 1636 01:19:22,758 --> 01:19:24,931 AS FAR AS WHAT I'VE BEEN DOING HERE. 1637 01:19:24,931 --> 01:19:28,827 I NEED TO JUST SHOW DR. NOW, SO... 1638 01:19:28,827 --> 01:19:31,448 ALL RIGHT, TRAV, I'M GONNA LET YOU GET BACK TO WORK. 1639 01:19:31,448 --> 01:19:33,068 OKAY. I LOVE YOU. 1640 01:19:33,068 --> 01:19:34,793 MM, BYE. BYE. 1641 01:19:40,310 --> 01:19:43,448 Angela: DR. NOW WAS SAYING, "YOU NEED TO GET HERE. 1642 01:19:43,448 --> 01:19:44,931 WHEN YOU MISS APPOINTMENTS," 1643 01:19:44,931 --> 01:19:48,275 IT MAKES HIM THINK YOU'RE NOT SERIOUS ABOUT YOUR DIET. 1644 01:19:48,275 --> 01:19:51,862 AND I THINK ME AND HIM DISAGREE SOMEWHAT ON THINGS, 1645 01:19:51,862 --> 01:19:53,620 BECAUSE HE SAID PEOPLE DON'T COME 1646 01:19:53,620 --> 01:19:55,586 BECAUSE THEY HAVEN'T LOST THEIR WEIGHT, 1647 01:19:55,586 --> 01:19:57,827 AND HE SAID, "AND YOU'RE NO DIFFERENT THAN OTHERS." 1648 01:19:57,827 --> 01:20:01,379 BUT I ABSOLUTELY AM DIFFERENT FROM OTHERS. 1649 01:20:01,379 --> 01:20:02,965 HE DON'T BELIEVE ME -- I DON'T KNOW -- 1650 01:20:02,965 --> 01:20:06,344 MAYBE 'CAUSE SO MANY PEOPLE SAY THINGS THAT AREN'T TRUE, 1651 01:20:06,344 --> 01:20:08,241 BUT I KNOW WHAT I'VE DONE, 1652 01:20:08,241 --> 01:20:10,965 SO I'M NOT UPSET ABOUT WHAT HE SAID, 1653 01:20:10,965 --> 01:20:13,310 BECAUSE HE CAN ONLY SEE ME CHEST-UP. 1654 01:20:13,310 --> 01:20:16,827 SO I WANT HIM TO SEE THAT I'VE NOT BEEN IN OHIO, 1655 01:20:16,827 --> 01:20:18,172 HIDING FROM HIM. 1656 01:20:18,172 --> 01:20:21,275 BUT PART OF ME FEELS LIKE IT'S KIND OF A WASTE 1657 01:20:21,275 --> 01:20:24,000 GOING DOWN THERE, BECAUSE I'M STILL DIETING. 1658 01:20:24,000 --> 01:20:27,965 I'M STILL LOSING WEIGHT. I'M STILL LOOKING AT WHAT I EAT. 1659 01:20:27,965 --> 01:20:30,689 SO I DON'T KNOW IF I SHOULD GO. 1660 01:20:30,689 --> 01:20:31,172 I'M REALLY 50/50. 1661 01:20:37,689 --> 01:20:46,793 ♪♪ 1662 01:20:46,793 --> 01:20:53,965 ♪♪ 1663 01:20:53,965 --> 01:21:02,965 ♪♪ 1664 01:21:02,965 --> 01:21:07,206 Angela: I'VE NOT SEEN DR. NOW FOR SIX MONTHS. 1665 01:21:07,206 --> 01:21:10,551 I HAD TO CHOOSE TO PUT TEXAS ON HOLD. 1666 01:21:10,551 --> 01:21:13,034 I DO WANT TO GO SEE DR. NOW. 1667 01:21:13,034 --> 01:21:17,620 I'M NOT TRYING TO NOTGO SEE HIM. 1668 01:21:17,620 --> 01:21:20,793 BUT, RIGHT NOW, TO STAY ON DR. NOW'S PROGRAM, 1669 01:21:20,793 --> 01:21:22,896 IT'S TOO MUCH. 1670 01:21:22,896 --> 01:21:27,000 SO I'M STAYING IN CONTACT WITH DR. NOW. 1671 01:21:27,000 --> 01:21:30,379 I'M CONTINUING TO WATCH WHAT I EAT, 1672 01:21:30,379 --> 01:21:32,862 WATCH WHAT I DRINK. 1673 01:21:32,862 --> 01:21:35,172 I'M CONTINUING TO EXERCISE. 1674 01:21:35,172 --> 01:21:38,586 BUT WITH ME HAVING LACY AND MY RESPONSIBILITIES, 1675 01:21:38,586 --> 01:21:41,413 I'VE NOT BEEN ABLE TO LEAVE AND JUST GO TO TEXAS. 1676 01:21:41,413 --> 01:21:50,206 ♪♪ 1677 01:21:50,206 --> 01:21:53,137 RIGHT NOW, THE SITUATION WITH LACY IS, 1678 01:21:53,137 --> 01:21:57,034 SHE COULDN'T LEAVE AND DIDN'T HAVE NO PARENT TO GO TO. 1679 01:21:57,034 --> 01:21:59,896 SHE WAS GONNA BE REUNITED WITH HER MOM, 1680 01:21:59,896 --> 01:22:03,275 AND THAT DID NOT WORK OUT THE WAY WE WANTED IT TO. 1681 01:22:03,275 --> 01:22:06,793 SO I STILL HAVE RESPONSIBILITY OF HER. 1682 01:22:06,793 --> 01:22:09,758 AND AS LONG AS I HAVE LACY IN MY HOUSE, 1683 01:22:09,758 --> 01:22:11,931 IT'S NOT ABOUT ANGELA. 1684 01:22:11,931 --> 01:22:15,724 IT HAS TO BE ABOUT ANGELA AND LACY. 1685 01:22:15,724 --> 01:22:17,344 WHAT ARE WE HAVING FOR DINNER? 1686 01:22:17,344 --> 01:22:19,172 DO WE HAVE A WHOLE BOX OF TURKEY BURGERS? 1687 01:22:19,172 --> 01:22:22,241 I DON'T KNOW. I CAN CHECK. HOW MANY DO YOU WANT? 1688 01:22:22,241 --> 01:22:24,310 I SHOULD ONLY HAVE ONE, BUT I WANT TWO. 1689 01:22:24,310 --> 01:22:25,482 I'M HUNGRY.I ONLY WANT ONE. 1690 01:22:25,482 --> 01:22:27,000 ALL RIGHT. 1691 01:22:27,000 --> 01:22:29,827 GO SEE IF THEY'RE IN THERE, HONEY. 1692 01:22:29,827 --> 01:22:32,724 LACY MEANS THE WORLD TO ME. 1693 01:22:32,724 --> 01:22:34,103 WITH THE WEIGHT THAT I'VE LOST, 1694 01:22:34,103 --> 01:22:36,965 NOW WE HAVE MORE FUN COOKING DINNER TOGETHER, 1695 01:22:36,965 --> 01:22:39,517 BECAUSE SHE'S NOT DOING THE MAJORITY OF IT. 1696 01:22:39,517 --> 01:22:41,275 WE'RE DOING IT TOGETHER. 1697 01:22:41,275 --> 01:22:44,137 SHE LOVES COOKING. I LOVE COOKING. 1698 01:22:44,137 --> 01:22:46,413 EVEN THOUGH SHE LOVES IT, I'M ABLE TO NOW. 1699 01:22:46,413 --> 01:22:48,344 I DON'T NEED HER TO. 1700 01:22:48,344 --> 01:22:51,275 AND SO SOMETIMES I HAVE TO TELL HER TO SIT DOWN, 1701 01:22:51,275 --> 01:22:52,793 LET ME DO IT. 1702 01:22:52,793 --> 01:22:54,965 YOU GOT YOUR POTATOES? 1703 01:22:54,965 --> 01:22:57,517 WE HAD TO LEARN A LOT ABOUT EACH OTHER 1704 01:22:57,517 --> 01:22:59,241 WHEN SHE MOVED IN HERE. 1705 01:22:59,241 --> 01:23:02,517 WHEN I FIRST GOT HER, IN THE FIRST SIX MONTHS, 1706 01:23:02,517 --> 01:23:05,586 WE DIDN'T HAVE A REAL CLOSE CONNECTION. 1707 01:23:05,586 --> 01:23:08,827 AND NOW I LOVE HER LIKE SHE'S MY OWN. 1708 01:23:08,827 --> 01:23:14,103 SO, YES, I CHOSE LACY OVER MY HEALTH. 1709 01:23:14,103 --> 01:23:17,034 BUT, YOU KNOW, EVEN THOUGH I GAINED A LITTLE BIT BACK, 1710 01:23:17,034 --> 01:23:19,103 I STILL LOST A LOT OF IT. 1711 01:23:19,103 --> 01:23:21,103 THAT MAKES ME WANT TO KEEP DIETING 1712 01:23:21,103 --> 01:23:23,620 AND NOT TURN TO THE BAD FOOD 1713 01:23:23,620 --> 01:23:28,551 AND NOT GO BACK TO THE JUNK FOOD AND DRINKS. 1714 01:23:28,551 --> 01:23:30,724 WILL YOU STICK MY CUP IN THE SINK FOR ME? 1715 01:23:30,724 --> 01:23:32,344 YOU READY TO GO GET SOME ICE CREAM? 1716 01:23:32,344 --> 01:23:35,000 YEAH! 1717 01:23:35,000 --> 01:23:37,827 THEN GET READY TO GO. 1718 01:23:37,827 --> 01:23:39,931 MY MOBILITY IS -- 1719 01:23:39,931 --> 01:23:43,310 IT'S A LOT BETTER THAN IT HAS BEEN IN YEARS. 1720 01:23:43,310 --> 01:23:47,517 AND I CAN ACTUALLY WALK OUT AND GET IN MY VAN. 1721 01:23:47,517 --> 01:23:48,862 GOT IT? 1722 01:23:48,862 --> 01:23:51,241 I CAN TAKE LACY SOMEWHERE. 1723 01:23:51,241 --> 01:23:53,482 IF SHE WANTS TO GO SOMEWHERE 1724 01:23:53,482 --> 01:23:55,620 OR IF I WANT TO SURPRISE HER WITH SOMETHING 1725 01:23:55,620 --> 01:23:58,344 OR REWARD HER WITH SOMETHING, 1726 01:23:58,344 --> 01:24:02,034 WE WALK OUTSIDE AND GET IN THE CAR AND GO. 1727 01:24:02,034 --> 01:24:04,206 I'VE DEFINITELY CAME A LONG WAY. 1728 01:24:04,206 --> 01:24:07,379 I STILL HAVE A LONG WAY TO GO, THOUGH. 1729 01:24:07,379 --> 01:24:13,034 BUT I HAVE MADE ACCOMPLISHMENTS AND PROGRESS. 1730 01:24:13,034 --> 01:24:18,068 FOR RIGHT NOW, TODAY, I KNOW I'M GETTING HEALTHIER. 1731 01:24:18,068 --> 01:24:21,413 LACY'S PROUD OF ME. MY DAUGHTER'S PROUD OF ME. 1732 01:24:21,413 --> 01:24:24,448 MY GRANDBABY'S PROUD OF ME. 1733 01:24:24,448 --> 01:24:27,965 EVEN THOUGH I STILL HAVE A LONG ROAD AHEAD OF ME, 1734 01:24:27,965 --> 01:24:30,000 THERE'S LIGHT AT THE END OF THE ROAD. 1735 01:24:32,379 --> 01:24:33,965 WHOO! 1736 01:24:33,965 --> 01:24:36,137 I DON'T WANT TO GO BACK. 1737 01:24:36,137 --> 01:24:39,344 I DON'T WANT TO TAKE STEPS BACKWARDS. 1738 01:24:39,344 --> 01:24:43,137 I NEED TO KEEP THE BALL ROLLING, PER SE. 1739 01:24:43,137 --> 01:24:45,034 THANK YOU.YOU'RE WELCOME, HONEY. 1740 01:24:45,034 --> 01:24:46,310 THIS IS REAL GOOD. 1741 01:24:46,310 --> 01:24:48,000 YOU REMEMBER WHEN I COULDN'T EVEN TAKE YOU 1742 01:24:48,000 --> 01:24:51,379 TO THE STORE LIKE THIS?MM-HMM. 1743 01:24:51,379 --> 01:24:52,931 OR IF WE DID GO, IT WAS VERY -- 1744 01:24:52,931 --> 01:24:55,206 IT HURT SO BAD TO TRY TO GET IN THE VAN. 1745 01:24:55,206 --> 01:24:56,931 REMEMBER THEM DAYS? 1746 01:24:56,931 --> 01:24:59,379 YEP. THEY'RE LONG GONE. 1747 01:24:59,379 --> 01:25:02,517 NOT TODAY! NOT TODAY! 1748 01:25:04,000 --> 01:25:06,793 IT MIGHT SEEM LIKE I'VE GAVE UP. 1749 01:25:06,793 --> 01:25:09,758 YOU KNOW, I MIGHT HAVE GAVE UP SOME, 1750 01:25:09,758 --> 01:25:14,137 BUT I'VE NOT TRULY GAVE UP. 1751 01:25:14,137 --> 01:25:16,379 I STILL HAVE A LONG WAYS TO GO BEFORE I'M HAPPY 1752 01:25:16,379 --> 01:25:21,137 WITH EVERYTHING, BUT TODAY IS A GOOD DAY. 1753 01:25:21,137 --> 01:25:26,517 TODAY IS -- I'M NOT GONNA WORRY ABOUT IT. 1754 01:25:26,517 --> 01:25:28,758 I MEAN, THERE PROBABLY WILL COME A DAY 1755 01:25:28,758 --> 01:25:31,724 WHEN I HAVE TO GET THERE. 1756 01:25:31,724 --> 01:25:32,000 BUT I'LL GET THERE.