1 00:00:03,482 --> 00:00:05,827 Mercedes: AT THIS POINT, I'M KILLING MYSELF 2 00:00:05,827 --> 00:00:08,241 IF I DON'T GET THIS WEIGHT OFF. 3 00:00:08,241 --> 00:00:10,896 I DON'T WANT TO LEAVE MY KIDS BEHIND. 4 00:00:10,896 --> 00:00:14,000 ♪♪ 5 00:00:14,000 --> 00:00:17,103 ♪♪ 6 00:00:17,103 --> 00:00:19,724 Woman #1: HE CAN'T STOP. HE DOESN'T KNOW HOW. 7 00:00:19,724 --> 00:00:22,655 Woman #2: IT'S TERRIFYING TO THINK THAT AT ANY MOMENT, 8 00:00:22,655 --> 00:00:25,275 YOUR HEART COULD EXPLODE. 9 00:00:25,275 --> 00:00:30,275 ♪♪ 10 00:00:30,275 --> 00:00:35,275 ♪♪ 11 00:00:35,275 --> 00:00:37,586 Woman #3: I DON'T WANT TO DIE. 12 00:00:37,586 --> 00:00:39,965 I HAVEN'T EVEN GOTTEN TO LIVE YET. 13 00:00:39,965 --> 00:00:45,758 ♪♪ 14 00:00:45,758 --> 00:00:51,586 ♪♪ 15 00:00:51,586 --> 00:00:57,413 ♪♪ 16 00:00:57,413 --> 00:00:59,172 Kimoriah: IT'S ON FIRE! TELL THEM TO GET OUT! 17 00:00:59,172 --> 00:01:01,586 OH, MY GOD. 18 00:01:01,586 --> 00:01:03,034 [ SIREN WAILING ] 19 00:01:03,034 --> 00:01:04,758 Mercedes: AAH! THERE'S ALWAYS SOMETHING! 20 00:01:04,758 --> 00:01:10,034 ♪♪ 21 00:01:10,034 --> 00:01:15,310 ♪♪ 22 00:01:15,310 --> 00:01:20,551 ♪♪ 23 00:01:20,551 --> 00:01:25,862 ♪♪ 24 00:01:25,862 --> 00:01:31,103 Mercedes: I CAN'T BELIEVE WHAT I'VE LET MY LIFE BECOME. 25 00:01:31,103 --> 00:01:37,103 I'VE GOTTEN SO BIG THAT IT'S HARD TO DO JUST ABOUT ANYTHING. 26 00:01:37,103 --> 00:01:41,344 AND EVERY DAY, IT GETS WORSE. 27 00:01:41,344 --> 00:01:45,517 SO I'M ALMOST COMPLETELY BED-BOUND NOW. 28 00:01:49,137 --> 00:01:52,413 BUT I HAVE TWO YOUNG KIDS THAT I HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF, 29 00:01:52,413 --> 00:01:56,068 SO I HAVE TO RELY A LOT ON MY OLDEST. 30 00:01:56,068 --> 00:01:59,758 MY OLDEST, KIMORIAH, SHE'S 11 NOW 31 00:01:59,758 --> 00:02:03,689 AND HE'S STARTING TO BE ABLE TO HELP IN A LOT OF WAYS. 32 00:02:03,689 --> 00:02:06,206 I ALREADY TURNED THE WATER ON. 33 00:02:06,206 --> 00:02:09,103 WE ONLY HAVE A ONE-BEDROOM PLACE, 34 00:02:09,103 --> 00:02:13,827 SO ME AND THE KIDS SLEEP IN THE SAME BED. 35 00:02:13,827 --> 00:02:16,896 AND WHEN IT'S TIME TO GET UP AND GET READY FOR SCHOOL, 36 00:02:16,896 --> 00:02:20,275 SHE GOES AND GETS HER BROTHER KAU'LIN'S CLOTHES FOR ME, 37 00:02:20,275 --> 00:02:23,103 AND I HELP GET HIM DRESSED. 38 00:02:23,103 --> 00:02:26,034 I HELP MY MOM BY GETTING HER WHAT SHE WANTS 39 00:02:26,034 --> 00:02:27,310 AND WHAT SHE NEEDS, 40 00:02:27,310 --> 00:02:29,482 AND I KNOW IT'S HARD FOR HER BECAUSE... 41 00:02:35,172 --> 00:02:36,931 WELL, ONCE I GET THEM READY, 42 00:02:36,931 --> 00:02:40,655 I'M NOT ABLE TO GET UP AND TAKE THEM TO SCHOOL, 43 00:02:40,655 --> 00:02:42,275 SO MY FRIEND TERRY, 44 00:02:42,275 --> 00:02:45,034 WHO'S KAU'LIN'S BIOLOGICAL FATHER, 45 00:02:45,034 --> 00:02:49,172 COMES OVER AND GETS THEM AND TAKES THEM TO SCHOOL. 46 00:02:49,172 --> 00:02:50,379 HOW YOU DOIN'? 47 00:02:50,379 --> 00:02:52,931 AND HE ALSO PICKS THEM UP AFTERWARDS 48 00:02:52,931 --> 00:02:58,862 AND GETS THEM HOME FOR ME, TOO. 49 00:02:58,862 --> 00:03:00,344 SO WITH EVERYONE GONE, 50 00:03:00,344 --> 00:03:02,517 I HAVE TO A HAVE A CARE ASSISTANT, BRITTNEY, 51 00:03:02,517 --> 00:03:07,000 COME OVER TO HELP ME USE THE RESTROOM AND GET CLEANED UP. 52 00:03:07,000 --> 00:03:09,586 ♪♪ 53 00:03:09,586 --> 00:03:11,068 BUT GETTING UP TO DO THIS 54 00:03:11,068 --> 00:03:14,448 IS THE MOST MISERABLE PART OF MY DAY. 55 00:03:14,448 --> 00:03:17,862 MY BACK HURTS, KNEES HURT, MUSCLES HURT. 56 00:03:17,862 --> 00:03:21,034 EVERYTHING HURTS. 57 00:03:21,034 --> 00:03:24,413 I'M BARELY ABLE TO DO THIS, BUT I HAVE TO. 58 00:03:24,413 --> 00:03:27,862 ♪♪ 59 00:03:27,862 --> 00:03:31,310 ♪♪ 60 00:03:31,310 --> 00:03:36,517 BECAUSE I HAVE TO TRY AND STAY AS CLEAN AS I CAN. 61 00:03:36,517 --> 00:03:40,310 IF I DON'T, I COULD HAVE ALL SORTS OF PROBLEMS. 62 00:03:40,310 --> 00:03:43,551 ♪♪ 63 00:03:43,551 --> 00:03:46,137 AND THEN I HAVE TO TRY AND STAND LONG ENOUGH 64 00:03:46,137 --> 00:03:49,758 SO BRITTNEY CAN GET ALL THE AREAS I CAN'T. 65 00:03:49,758 --> 00:03:53,413 IT'S MISERABLE, AND IT'S SO HUMILIATING. 66 00:03:53,413 --> 00:03:57,793 LOSING MY ABILITY TO SHOWER ON MY OWN IS EMBARRASSING. 67 00:03:57,793 --> 00:03:59,724 ♪♪ 68 00:03:59,724 --> 00:04:02,586 BUT I HAVE NO CHOICE. 69 00:04:02,586 --> 00:04:04,344 ONCE I'M ABLE TO SIT DOWN, 70 00:04:04,344 --> 00:04:09,379 I CAN TRY AND DO SOME OF MY WASHING MYSELF. 71 00:04:09,379 --> 00:04:12,931 BUT IT'S NOT EASY, AND I'M SO EXHAUSTED AT THIS POINT 72 00:04:12,931 --> 00:04:15,448 I FEEL LIKE I'M GONNA PASS OUT. 73 00:04:15,448 --> 00:04:18,172 ♪♪ 74 00:04:18,172 --> 00:04:21,655 MY BACK, MY LEGS, ARE HURTING. 75 00:04:21,655 --> 00:04:26,172 [ GRUNTING, GROANING ] 76 00:04:26,172 --> 00:04:30,103 ♪♪ 77 00:04:30,103 --> 00:04:34,000 ♪♪ 78 00:04:34,000 --> 00:04:36,724 AND I JUST WANT TO GET TO MY BED. 79 00:04:36,724 --> 00:04:39,137 BUT I STILL HAVE TO TRY AND STAND BACK UP 80 00:04:39,137 --> 00:04:41,517 AND WALK ALL THE WAY BACK, 81 00:04:41,517 --> 00:04:44,965 AND THEN DRY OFF BEFORE I'M ABLE TO REST. 82 00:04:44,965 --> 00:04:49,793 ♪♪ 83 00:04:49,793 --> 00:04:54,655 ♪♪ 84 00:04:54,655 --> 00:04:57,103 AND DURING ALL THAT IS THE MOST PAINFUL PART 85 00:04:57,103 --> 00:04:59,310 OF THIS WHOLE PROCESS, 86 00:04:59,310 --> 00:05:03,724 BECAUSE EVERY PART OF MY BODY IS ON FIRE AT THIS POINT. 87 00:05:03,724 --> 00:05:07,034 I'M JUST IN SO MUCH PAIN, 88 00:05:07,034 --> 00:05:12,862 AND ALL I WANT IS FOR IT TO BE OVER. 89 00:05:12,862 --> 00:05:16,655 ONCE BRITTNEY HELPS ME GET DRESSED, I CAN FINALLY EAT, 90 00:05:16,655 --> 00:05:21,275 AND I CAN'T WAIT. 91 00:05:21,275 --> 00:05:23,931 FOR BREAKFAST, USUALLY TERRY WILL COME BACK OVER 92 00:05:23,931 --> 00:05:26,827 AFTER HE DROPS OFF THE KIDS AT SCHOOL, 93 00:05:26,827 --> 00:05:29,896 AND HE'LL MAKE ME SOMETHING. 94 00:05:29,896 --> 00:05:31,310 [ DOOR OPENS ] 95 00:05:31,310 --> 00:05:34,310 -WHO IS IT? -TERRY! 96 00:05:34,310 --> 00:05:35,931 HI, TERRY. 97 00:05:35,931 --> 00:05:37,103 Terry: HOW YOU FEELIN'? 98 00:05:37,103 --> 00:05:38,103 FEELIN' ALL RIGHT. 99 00:05:38,103 --> 00:05:39,103 OKAY. 100 00:05:39,103 --> 00:05:42,172 I'VE COME TO FIX YOU BREAKFAST, AS USUAL. 101 00:05:42,172 --> 00:05:45,137 -MM-HMM. -ALL RIGHT. 102 00:05:45,137 --> 00:05:47,862 SO HE TAKES CARE OF ME FOR THE MORNING, 103 00:05:47,862 --> 00:05:50,793 AND HE KNOWS WHAT I LIKE. 104 00:05:50,793 --> 00:05:55,586 MY FAVORITE IS THE SAUSAGE AND BACON. 105 00:05:55,586 --> 00:05:58,000 Terry: FOOD MAKES MERCEDES HAPPY. 106 00:05:58,000 --> 00:06:02,241 SHE GETS WHAT SHE WANTS W-- 107 00:06:02,241 --> 00:06:06,034 WITH OR WITHOUT YOU. [ CHUCKLES ] 108 00:06:06,034 --> 00:06:07,862 Mercedes: I'M IN SO MUCH PAIN FROM GETTING UP 109 00:06:07,862 --> 00:06:09,206 THAT I NEED SOMETHING 110 00:06:09,206 --> 00:06:14,965 TO HELP ME START TO FEEL BETTER, AND EATING DOES THAT. 111 00:06:14,965 --> 00:06:19,344 IT TAKES ALL THE MISERY THAT I HAVE AND PUSHES IT AWAY. 112 00:06:19,344 --> 00:06:21,172 SO ONCE I FINALLY START, 113 00:06:21,172 --> 00:06:26,482 I JUST WANT TO KEEP GOING AND EAT AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE. 114 00:06:26,482 --> 00:06:28,068 I'LL TALK TO YOU LATER, OKAY? 115 00:06:28,068 --> 00:06:28,862 ALL RIGHT. 116 00:06:28,862 --> 00:06:30,758 ALL RIGHT. 117 00:06:30,758 --> 00:06:33,034 SO, SHORTLY AFTER TERRY LEAVES, 118 00:06:33,034 --> 00:06:36,206 MY SISTER TONICA WILL COME BY AND CHECK ON ME 119 00:06:36,206 --> 00:06:38,275 AND BRING ME LUNCH. 120 00:06:38,275 --> 00:06:41,413 ♪♪ 121 00:06:41,413 --> 00:06:43,620 Hi, TONICA. 122 00:06:43,620 --> 00:06:45,620 I GOT YOUR FOOD. 123 00:06:45,620 --> 00:06:47,689 EVERYTHING YOU WANTED. 124 00:06:47,689 --> 00:06:51,172 -THANK YOU. -YOU'RE WELCOME. 125 00:06:51,172 --> 00:06:53,137 AND SHE KNOWS WHAT I LIKE, TOO, 126 00:06:53,137 --> 00:06:56,551 SO SHE ALWAYS BRINGS ME SOMETHING GOOD, 127 00:06:56,551 --> 00:07:00,965 AND I CAN NEVER REALLY GET FULL, SO I JUST KEEP EATING. 128 00:07:00,965 --> 00:07:03,103 BECAUSE THERE ARE SOME THINGS IN LIFE 129 00:07:03,103 --> 00:07:05,551 THAT WE ARE NOT MEANT TO TRY AND HANDLE, 130 00:07:05,551 --> 00:07:08,000 AND I DON'T HAVE TO WHEN I HAVE FOOD. 131 00:07:08,000 --> 00:07:11,275 AND THAT'S SOMETHING I LEARNED A LONG TIME AGO. 132 00:07:11,275 --> 00:07:16,103 ♪♪ 133 00:07:16,103 --> 00:07:19,241 VERY EARLY IN MY LIFE, THINGS WERE GOOD FOR ME. 134 00:07:19,241 --> 00:07:21,862 I GREW UP WITH THREE BROTHERS AND THREE SISTERS. 135 00:07:21,862 --> 00:07:26,655 ♪♪ 136 00:07:26,655 --> 00:07:29,931 AND WE ALL GOT ALONG PRETTY WELL. 137 00:07:29,931 --> 00:07:33,620 WHEN I WAS A LITTLE GIRL, I WAS FUN, HAPPY, 138 00:07:33,620 --> 00:07:37,137 FULL OF ENERGY, LIKED TO DANCE, SING. 139 00:07:37,137 --> 00:07:38,931 BUT THAT DIDN'T LAST. 140 00:07:38,931 --> 00:07:41,724 BECAUSE WHEN I WAS AROUND 5 OR 6, 141 00:07:41,724 --> 00:07:45,965 IT WAS MY FATHER THAT STARTED TO CHANGE THINGS IN MY FAMILY. 142 00:07:45,965 --> 00:07:48,172 HE STARTED TO GET ABUSIVE. 143 00:07:48,172 --> 00:07:52,137 EVENTUALLY, IT GOT SO BAD THAT MY MOM HAD ENOUGH. 144 00:07:52,137 --> 00:07:57,103 SHE GOT FED UP AND TOOK US AND LEFT. 145 00:07:57,103 --> 00:07:59,517 SO THEN, IT WAS HER AND THE SEVEN OF US KIDS 146 00:07:59,517 --> 00:08:01,620 THAT HE HAD TO RAISE ON HER OWN. 147 00:08:01,620 --> 00:08:05,344 AND MY MOM DIDN'T HAVE TIME FOR ALL OF US ANYMORE, 148 00:08:05,344 --> 00:08:08,758 SO THAT'S WHEN I STARTED TO BE ON MY OWN FOR WHAT I WAS EATING 149 00:08:08,758 --> 00:08:10,758 AND HOW MUCH I WAS EATING. 150 00:08:10,758 --> 00:08:15,586 AND I GOT UP TO ABOUT 100 POUNDS WHEN I WAS AROUND 9, 151 00:08:15,586 --> 00:08:17,517 BUT THAT WAS ABOUT THE AGE OUR DAD 152 00:08:17,517 --> 00:08:19,379 WAS TRYING TO BE A PART OF OUR LIVES 153 00:08:19,379 --> 00:08:21,862 AND HE STARTED COMING AROUND TO SEE US. 154 00:08:21,862 --> 00:08:26,137 WHEN MY MOM AND HIM SEPARATED, HE WASN'T AS ANGRY, 155 00:08:26,137 --> 00:08:28,586 SO IT WASN'T BAD SPENDING TIME WITH HIM THEN. 156 00:08:28,586 --> 00:08:34,413 BUT WHEN I WAS 11, EVERYTHING BEGAN TO GET WORSE. 157 00:08:34,413 --> 00:08:35,758 BECAUSE THAT WAS THE AGE 158 00:08:35,758 --> 00:08:40,344 WHEN MY FATHER STARTED SEXUALLY ABUSING ME. 159 00:08:40,344 --> 00:08:41,896 IT STARTED WITH TOUCHING, 160 00:08:41,896 --> 00:08:45,931 AND THEN IT WAS MORE, UNTIL IT WAS INTERCOURSE. 161 00:08:45,931 --> 00:08:47,689 AND IT WASN'T JUST ME. 162 00:08:47,689 --> 00:08:49,413 IT WAS MY SISTERS, TOO. 163 00:08:49,413 --> 00:08:51,862 BUT I DIDN'T KNOW THAT AT THE TIME. 164 00:08:55,379 --> 00:08:58,620 [ CRYING ] 165 00:09:07,034 --> 00:09:09,827 THE ABUSE MADE ME FEEL ROBBED OF MY INNOCENCE. 166 00:09:09,827 --> 00:09:13,862 IT MADE ME FEEL SAD, MADE ME FEEL DIRTY. 167 00:09:13,862 --> 00:09:17,206 AND AS A CHILD WITH SOMETHING LIKE THAT HAPPENING, 168 00:09:17,206 --> 00:09:19,551 YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH IT, 169 00:09:19,551 --> 00:09:22,275 BECAUSE ONE OF THE PEOPLE WHO'S SUPPOSED TO PROTECT YOU 170 00:09:22,275 --> 00:09:25,034 THE MOST IS THE ONE HURTING YOU. 171 00:09:25,034 --> 00:09:26,689 SO I JUST WENT TO FOOD 172 00:09:26,689 --> 00:09:30,206 AND STARTED EATING A LOT TO FEEL GOOD. 173 00:09:30,206 --> 00:09:33,379 AND I DOUBLED IN WEIGHT BY THE TIME I WAS 13, 174 00:09:33,379 --> 00:09:37,655 AND WAS OVER 200 POUNDS BY THEN. 175 00:09:37,655 --> 00:09:38,793 MERCEDES GAINED THE WEIGHT. 176 00:09:38,793 --> 00:09:41,517 IT REALLY WASN'T A BIG DEAL TO ME. 177 00:09:41,517 --> 00:09:43,310 BUT MAYBE IT SHOULD'VE BEEN. 178 00:09:43,310 --> 00:09:46,000 AT THE TIME, I DIDN'T KNOW THAT SEXUAL ABUSE 179 00:09:46,000 --> 00:09:47,344 WAS GOING ON WITH OUR CHILDREN. 180 00:09:47,344 --> 00:09:50,034 I MEAN, IT'S LIKE, RIGHT UNDER MY NOSE. 181 00:09:50,034 --> 00:09:51,724 I MEAN, WHY DIDN'T I KNOW? 182 00:09:51,724 --> 00:09:56,379 IF I KNEW, I BELIEVE I COULD HAVE KILLED HIM. 183 00:09:56,379 --> 00:09:59,068 BUT HE FINALLY STOPPED WHEN I WAS A TEENAGER 184 00:09:59,068 --> 00:10:01,310 BECAUSE HE STARTED SEEING SOMEONE, 185 00:10:01,310 --> 00:10:07,000 AND ONCE HAD A GIRLFRIEND, HE LEFT ME ALONE. 186 00:10:07,000 --> 00:10:10,931 BUT ALL THE FEAR AND PAIN DIDN'T GO AWAY, 187 00:10:10,931 --> 00:10:12,758 SO I KEPT GOING TO FOOD. 188 00:10:12,758 --> 00:10:18,413 AND I GOT TO ALMOST 300 BY THE TIME I WAS 15. 189 00:10:18,413 --> 00:10:20,896 AND STARTING HIGH SCHOOL LIKE THAT IS HARD, 190 00:10:20,896 --> 00:10:24,551 BECAUSE I WANTED TO FIT IN, BUT I WAS MADE FUN OF A LOT. 191 00:10:24,551 --> 00:10:27,758 AND IT GOT WORSE AS I GOT BIGGER AND GAINED EVEN MORE, 192 00:10:27,758 --> 00:10:31,310 SO I JUST STARTED SKIPPING SCHOOL A LOT. 193 00:10:31,310 --> 00:10:34,241 AND WHEN I WAS 16, I DROPPED OUT. 194 00:10:34,241 --> 00:10:38,103 I WAS OVER 400 POUNDS AT THAT POINT. 195 00:10:38,103 --> 00:10:41,689 BUT WHEN I WAS 19, I PASSED MY STATE TESTING 196 00:10:41,689 --> 00:10:44,551 TO GET MY NURSING ASSISTANCE CERTIFICATE, 197 00:10:44,551 --> 00:10:46,965 AND I STARTED WORKING IN A NURSING HOME, 198 00:10:46,965 --> 00:10:49,689 WHERE I ALSO LIVED. 199 00:10:49,689 --> 00:10:53,758 AND THAT WAS PRETTY MUCH MY LIFE FOR AROUND SIX YEARS. 200 00:10:53,758 --> 00:10:57,517 BUT WHEN I WAS 25, I HAD TO GET AN EASIER JOB. 201 00:10:57,517 --> 00:11:00,827 I WAS UP TO ABOUT 450 THEN. 202 00:11:00,827 --> 00:11:02,827 SO I GOT A JOB AT A LIBRARY 203 00:11:02,827 --> 00:11:05,344 BECAUSE I COULD SIT MOST OF THE TIME. 204 00:11:05,344 --> 00:11:06,965 AND WHILE I WAS DOING THAT, 205 00:11:06,965 --> 00:11:09,620 THAT'S HOW I MET MY FIRST BOYFRIEND. 206 00:11:09,620 --> 00:11:12,965 AND I GOT PREGNANT WITH MY FIRST CHILD. 207 00:11:12,965 --> 00:11:17,620 BUT ABOUT SIX MONTHS BEFORE I HAD KIMORIAH, HE LEFT ME. 208 00:11:17,620 --> 00:11:20,275 AND WHAT WAS WORSE, I HAD TO HAVE A C-SECTION, 209 00:11:20,275 --> 00:11:22,103 BUT THE INCISION GOT INFECTED 210 00:11:22,103 --> 00:11:25,931 AND I ENDED UP HAVING A FLESH-EATING BACTERIA, MRSA. 211 00:11:25,931 --> 00:11:29,137 IT GOT REALLY BAD AND IT ALMOST KILLED ME, BUT WITH THAT, 212 00:11:29,137 --> 00:11:32,689 I ENDED UP ON BED REST FOR A YEAR AND A HALF. 213 00:11:32,689 --> 00:11:35,068 SO THAT WAS JUST REALLY HARD, AND A REALLY DARK, 214 00:11:35,068 --> 00:11:37,620 DEPRESSING TIME IN MY LIFE. 215 00:11:37,620 --> 00:11:43,275 I WAS AROUND 550 POUNDS THEN, AND I WAS ALMOST 30, 216 00:11:43,275 --> 00:11:45,241 BUT I WAS STILL ABLE TO PULL MYSELF 217 00:11:45,241 --> 00:11:48,137 TOGETHER ENOUGH TO GET TO WORK. 218 00:11:48,137 --> 00:11:52,275 I GOT A JOB HELPING PREPARE TAXES. 219 00:11:52,275 --> 00:11:56,275 AND WHEN I WAS 32, WAS WHEN I RECONNECTED WITH TERRY. 220 00:11:56,275 --> 00:11:58,241 HE'S A FRIEND NOW, BUT I KNEW HIM 221 00:11:58,241 --> 00:12:03,068 WHEN I WAS A CHILD, AND WE STARTED DATING. 222 00:12:03,068 --> 00:12:05,206 AND WHEN I WAS 33, I GOT PREGNANT 223 00:12:05,206 --> 00:12:07,620 WITH MY SON KAU'LIN, BUT I FOUND OUT 224 00:12:07,620 --> 00:12:12,103 TERRY CHEATED ON ME, SO I BROKE UP WITH HIM. 225 00:12:12,103 --> 00:12:13,413 WE'RE STILL FRIENDS, 226 00:12:13,413 --> 00:12:15,275 AND HE'S A GOOD FATHER TO KAU'LIN, 227 00:12:15,275 --> 00:12:17,413 BUT THERE'S NEVER GONNA BE ANYTHING MORE 228 00:12:17,413 --> 00:12:20,448 TO OUR RELATIONSHIP. 229 00:12:20,448 --> 00:12:23,862 WHEN I HAD MY SON KAU'LIN, I HAD A C-SECTION AGAIN 230 00:12:23,862 --> 00:12:26,931 AND I GOT THE SAME INFECTION AGAIN. 231 00:12:26,931 --> 00:12:30,724 SO IT WAS ANOTHER YEAR AND A HALF BEING STUCK IN A BED. 232 00:12:30,724 --> 00:12:37,137 SO THAT LED ME TO BEING OVER 650 POUNDS BY THE TIME I WAS 35. 233 00:12:37,137 --> 00:12:40,344 AND ONCE I GOT TO THAT POINT, MY LEGS AND MY BODY 234 00:12:40,344 --> 00:12:43,137 JUST CAN'T HANDLE MY WEIGHT ANYMORE. 235 00:12:43,137 --> 00:12:45,896 ABOUT A YEAR AGO, MY DAD CALLED ME, 236 00:12:45,896 --> 00:12:48,448 AND HIS DIALYSIS HAD STOPPED WORKING 237 00:12:48,448 --> 00:12:52,310 AND HIS KIDNEYS WERE FAILING, SO HE KNEW HE WAS GONNA DIE. 238 00:12:52,310 --> 00:12:56,241 AND HE WAS JUST ASKING FOR TO FORGIVE HIM. 239 00:12:56,241 --> 00:13:00,034 AND I FORGAVE HIM, BEFORE MY DAD DIED. 240 00:13:00,034 --> 00:13:04,241 BUT THE PAINS OF EVERYTHING HE DID TO ME, IT'S STILL THERE. 241 00:13:04,241 --> 00:13:09,034 AND NOW I'M 37 AND PROBABLY WELL OVER 700 POUNDS. 242 00:13:09,034 --> 00:13:11,275 ♪♪ 243 00:13:11,275 --> 00:13:13,275 SO, THAT'S WHERE MY LIFE IS NOW -- 244 00:13:13,275 --> 00:13:18,655 EATING ALL DAY TO FORGET AND FEEL GOOD. 245 00:13:18,655 --> 00:13:21,931 IN THE AFTERNOON, MY MOM AND MY TWIN BROTHER MARLON 246 00:13:21,931 --> 00:13:24,206 WILL COME OVER AND BRING ME SOME GROCERIES 247 00:13:24,206 --> 00:13:28,827 AND SOME SNACKS TO HOLD ME OVER TILL DINNER. 248 00:13:28,827 --> 00:13:31,448 I KNOW MY EATING IS OUT OF HAND NOW, 249 00:13:31,448 --> 00:13:36,275 AND MY BODY DOESN'T HAVE A LOT MORE IT COULD TAKE LIKE THIS, 250 00:13:36,275 --> 00:13:40,655 BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO THIS ALL ANY DIFFERENT, 251 00:13:40,655 --> 00:13:44,241 SO I JUST KEEP GETTING WORSE. 252 00:13:44,241 --> 00:13:48,413 MER, PUT DOWN THE DOUGHNUTS. 253 00:13:48,413 --> 00:13:50,931 ♪♪ 254 00:13:50,931 --> 00:13:54,103 Diane: MERCEDES AT THIS SIZE? SHE COULD DIE. 255 00:13:54,103 --> 00:13:58,034 ONE NIGHT, SHE COULD GO TO SLEEP AND NOT WAKE UP. 256 00:13:58,034 --> 00:14:00,827 AND I-I THINK I... 257 00:14:00,827 --> 00:14:03,793 I-I CA-- I... I CAN'T. 258 00:14:03,793 --> 00:14:05,448 HEY, YOU KNOW, I AIN'T WANT TO COME OVER HERE, 259 00:14:05,448 --> 00:14:07,103 'CAUSE I AIN'T LIKE SEEING YOU LIKE THIS. 260 00:14:07,103 --> 00:14:09,103 -YEAH. -AND I JUST LIKE... 261 00:14:09,103 --> 00:14:12,517 I CAN'T SEE YOU LIKE THAT, YOU KNOW? 262 00:14:12,517 --> 00:14:15,413 ♪♪ 263 00:14:15,413 --> 00:14:18,689 I LOVE YOU. 264 00:14:27,793 --> 00:14:30,862 MY WORST FEAR RIGHT NOW 265 00:14:30,862 --> 00:14:37,172 IS MERCEDES DOESN'T GET THE HELP THAT SHE TRULY NEEDS... 266 00:14:37,172 --> 00:14:41,586 AND SHE KEEPS GOING ON AND ON LIKE THIS. 267 00:14:41,586 --> 00:14:44,517 I DON'T THINK SHE CAN KEEP IT UP VERY LONG. 268 00:14:44,517 --> 00:14:47,000 -LOVE YOU. -I LOVE YOU TOO, MA. 269 00:14:47,000 --> 00:14:48,655 -OKAY, SEE YA. -ALL RIGHT, MARLON. 270 00:14:48,655 --> 00:14:53,448 Marlon: ALL RIGHT, MER. 271 00:14:53,448 --> 00:14:56,448 Mercedes: IN THE AFTERNOON, TERRY GETS THE KIDS FROM SCHOOL 272 00:14:56,448 --> 00:14:59,275 AND DROPS THEM OFF, AND THEN KIMORIAH WILL START 273 00:14:59,275 --> 00:15:02,793 TO MAKE DINNER FOR ALL OF US. 274 00:15:02,793 --> 00:15:05,172 Kimoriah: MY MOM'S WEIGHT HAS REALLY AFFECTED ME 275 00:15:05,172 --> 00:15:07,517 BECAUSE I HAVE TO DO ALL THE WORK NOW, 276 00:15:07,517 --> 00:15:12,620 AND SHE -- SHE JUST SITS THERE, AND I HAVE TO DO EVERYTHING. 277 00:15:12,620 --> 00:15:16,517 AND IT'S HARD ME FOR, AND IT'S HARD FOR HER. 278 00:15:16,517 --> 00:15:20,482 I WISH I COULD HELP, BUT I CAN'T DO MUCH FROM MY BED. 279 00:15:20,482 --> 00:15:23,310 BUT I LOVE MY TIME WITH THEM IN THE EVENINGS 280 00:15:23,310 --> 00:15:26,862 BECAUSE WE HAVE DINNER AS A FAMILY IN THE BEDROOM, 281 00:15:26,862 --> 00:15:31,689 AND I GET TO SPEND SOME TIME WITH THEM. 282 00:15:31,689 --> 00:15:37,620 OKAY, Y'ALL NEED TO START GETTING READY TO GET INTO BED. 283 00:15:37,620 --> 00:15:40,793 KIMORIAH, GO GET THE ICE CREAM AND THE BOWLS AND THE SPOONS. 284 00:15:40,793 --> 00:15:43,000 Kimoriah: OKAY. 285 00:15:43,000 --> 00:15:44,758 Kau'lin: IS THAT YOGURT? 286 00:15:44,758 --> 00:15:50,068 Mercedes: COME ON, KIMORIAH. Y'ALL NEED TO HURRY UP. 287 00:15:50,068 --> 00:15:55,137 I DON'T WANT THIS TO BE THE LIFE I'M GIVING MY KIDS, 288 00:15:55,137 --> 00:15:58,827 AND I KNOW I HAVE TO FIND A WAY TO CHANGE AND STOP 289 00:15:58,827 --> 00:16:02,931 BEFORE IT GETS ANY WORSE AND TAKES MY LIFE. 290 00:16:02,931 --> 00:16:05,344 I DON'T WANT THAT TO HAPPEN. 291 00:16:05,344 --> 00:16:09,724 AT THIS POINT, I'M KILLING MYSELF 292 00:16:09,724 --> 00:16:12,068 IF I DON'T GET THIS WEIGHT OFF. 293 00:16:12,068 --> 00:16:14,965 I DON'T WANT TO LEAVE MY KIDS BEHIND. 294 00:16:14,965 --> 00:16:20,413 I NEED TO BE HERE FOR THEM, SO I CAN'T LET THAT HAPPEN. 295 00:16:20,413 --> 00:16:24,068 I HAVE TO FIND HELP AND TRY EVEN IF IT'S A LOSING BATTLE, 296 00:16:24,068 --> 00:16:27,931 BECAUSE I'M NOT READY TO GIVE UP AND I'M NOT READY TO DIE. 297 00:16:27,931 --> 00:16:30,448 ♪♪ 298 00:16:32,793 --> 00:16:38,724 ♪♪ 299 00:16:38,724 --> 00:16:44,655 ♪♪ 300 00:16:44,655 --> 00:16:50,586 ♪♪ 301 00:16:50,586 --> 00:16:56,517 ♪♪ 302 00:16:56,517 --> 00:17:02,551 ♪♪ 303 00:17:02,551 --> 00:17:04,827 Mercedes: A COUPLE WEEKS AGO, I DECIDED TO DO SOMETHING 304 00:17:04,827 --> 00:17:06,586 ABOUT MY SITUATION, 305 00:17:06,586 --> 00:17:09,517 SO I CALLED DR. NOW IN HOUSTON. 306 00:17:14,206 --> 00:17:16,034 HE'S THE ONLY DOCTOR I KNOW OF THAT 307 00:17:16,034 --> 00:17:19,103 DOES WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY ON PEOPLE MY SIZE, 308 00:17:19,103 --> 00:17:22,482 SO I WAS READY TO TRY AND MAKE A TRIP TO SEE HIM, 309 00:17:22,482 --> 00:17:25,517 BECAUSE I KNOW I CAN'T KEEP GOING LIKE THIS, 310 00:17:25,517 --> 00:17:27,206 BUT I COULDN'T MAKE MY APPOINTMENT 311 00:17:27,206 --> 00:17:30,862 BECAUSE WE HAD SOME BAD RAINS AND WE HAD A MUDSLIDE 312 00:17:30,862 --> 00:17:34,068 THAT DESTROYED THE WHOLE BACK SIDE OF OUR PLACE, 313 00:17:34,068 --> 00:17:37,379 SO ME AND THE KIDS HAD TO RELOCATE TO A NEW APARTMENT. 314 00:17:37,379 --> 00:17:39,413 I HAD TO UPROOT MY WHOLE LIFE. 315 00:17:39,413 --> 00:17:41,310 AND TO MAKE THINGS EVEN WORSE, 316 00:17:41,310 --> 00:17:45,000 TERRY WAS THE ONE WHO WAS GONNA TAKE ME DOWN TO HOUSTON. 317 00:17:48,758 --> 00:17:52,655 SO I'M TRYING TO DO MY BEST TO FIND SOMEONE WHO COULD TAKE ME, 318 00:17:52,655 --> 00:17:55,103 BUT I'M NOT FINDING ANY OPTIONS. 319 00:17:55,103 --> 00:17:57,517 SO I'M FEELING A LITTLE HOPELESS. 320 00:17:57,517 --> 00:18:00,862 BUT I KNOW I HAVE TO DO THIS FOR ME AND MY KIDS. 321 00:18:00,862 --> 00:18:04,586 AND IF I DON'T, I'M NOT GONNA BE AROUND FOR THEM MUCH LONGER. 322 00:18:04,586 --> 00:18:07,965 ♪♪ 323 00:18:07,965 --> 00:18:11,344 ♪♪ 324 00:18:11,344 --> 00:18:14,793 HM, GOOD. READY TO START THIS JOURNEY. 325 00:18:14,793 --> 00:18:16,241 HOW YOU FEEL? 326 00:18:16,241 --> 00:18:17,965 UH, GOOD. 327 00:18:26,000 --> 00:18:27,275 I CAN'T WAIT. 328 00:18:27,275 --> 00:18:29,275 IT'LL BE A BIG CHANGE. 329 00:18:29,275 --> 00:18:31,965 -MM-HMM. -BIG CHANGE. 330 00:18:31,965 --> 00:18:36,241 WE'RE GONNA GET THERE. 331 00:18:36,241 --> 00:18:37,862 I'M READY. 332 00:18:37,862 --> 00:18:41,137 ME TOO. 333 00:18:41,137 --> 00:18:42,241 I LOVE YOU, MA. 334 00:18:42,241 --> 00:18:44,586 I LOVE YOU TOO. [ CHUCKLES ] 335 00:18:44,586 --> 00:18:47,655 ♪♪ 336 00:18:47,655 --> 00:18:50,344 I KNOW MY KIDS ARE WORRIED ABOUT ME. 337 00:18:50,344 --> 00:18:54,310 I'M THEIR ONLY PARENT, SO I CAN'T LEAVE THEM LIKE THIS. 338 00:18:54,310 --> 00:18:57,103 SO NO MATTER WHAT, I'M NOT GONNA GIVE UP. 339 00:18:57,103 --> 00:19:00,000 AND I'M GONNA DO WHATEVER IT TAKES TO FIGURE THIS OUT 340 00:19:00,000 --> 00:19:02,206 AND MAKE IT TO HOUSTON. 341 00:19:02,206 --> 00:19:07,793 ♪♪ 342 00:19:07,793 --> 00:19:13,448 ♪♪ 343 00:19:13,448 --> 00:19:15,137 OVER THE LAST COUPLE OF WEEKS, 344 00:19:15,137 --> 00:19:17,586 I CALLED EVERYONE WHO COULD HELP ME TO SEE 345 00:19:17,586 --> 00:19:19,965 IF THEY COULD TAKE ME DOWN TO HOUSTON, 346 00:19:19,965 --> 00:19:21,931 BECAUSE TERRY NEVER CAME BACK 347 00:19:21,931 --> 00:19:25,034 AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON WITH HIM. 348 00:19:25,034 --> 00:19:28,103 HE'S NOT EVEN HELPING WITH THE KIDS RIGHT NOW. 349 00:19:28,103 --> 00:19:31,896 BUT THANKFULLY, MY COUSIN SAID HE CAN HELP ME DO THIS. 350 00:19:31,896 --> 00:19:35,482 SO HE'S MY GODSEND TO ME RIGHT NOW. 351 00:19:35,482 --> 00:19:37,068 Brandon: HEY, KIMORIAH. WHAT'S UP? 352 00:19:37,068 --> 00:19:38,655 Y'ALL READY FOR THE BIG OL' RIDE? 353 00:19:38,655 --> 00:19:40,689 I'M HERE TO MAKE SURE MERCEDES 354 00:19:40,689 --> 00:19:42,931 MAKES IT DOWN TO TEXAS 355 00:19:42,931 --> 00:19:45,827 TO SEE DR. NOW, SAFE. 356 00:19:45,827 --> 00:19:47,931 MY BIGGEST FEAR IS THAT SHE DOESN'T FALL, 357 00:19:47,931 --> 00:19:50,655 BECAUSE IT'S HARD FOR ME TO HELP HER UP. 358 00:19:50,655 --> 00:19:52,172 BUT WE'RE GONNA MAKE IT WORK. 359 00:19:52,172 --> 00:19:55,448 [ GRUNTING ] 360 00:19:55,448 --> 00:19:57,689 MNH. 361 00:19:57,689 --> 00:19:59,482 WELL, I'M GONNA GO GET THE VAN. 362 00:19:59,482 --> 00:20:02,896 I'LL BE RIGHT BACK. 363 00:20:02,896 --> 00:20:04,724 Mercedes: THE PLAN IS TO RIDE DOWN THERE 364 00:20:04,724 --> 00:20:07,034 IN THE BACK OF BRANDON'S VAN. 365 00:20:07,034 --> 00:20:09,344 I JUST HOPE I CAN HANDLE IT. 366 00:20:09,344 --> 00:20:13,448 Brandon: IT'S COLD OUT THERE, BABY GIRL. 367 00:20:13,448 --> 00:20:15,241 Mercedes: I CALLED DR. NOW'S OFFICE 368 00:20:15,241 --> 00:20:19,206 AND GOT ANOTHER APPOINTMENT SET FOR A FEW DAYS FROM NOW, 369 00:20:19,206 --> 00:20:23,379 BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW LONG IT'S GONNA TAKE TO GET THERE. 370 00:20:23,379 --> 00:20:26,724 THIS SHOULD BE SOMETHING LIKE A 16-HOUR DRIVE, 371 00:20:26,724 --> 00:20:32,344 SO I DON'T KNOW HOW MY BODY IS GONNA HANDLE IT. 372 00:20:32,344 --> 00:20:37,413 AND I'M SCARED OUT OF MY MIND BECAUSE OF THAT. 373 00:20:37,413 --> 00:20:38,517 OKAY. I THINK THAT'S IT. 374 00:20:38,517 --> 00:20:40,517 LET'S GET YOU IN. 375 00:20:40,517 --> 00:20:43,655 ♪♪ 376 00:20:43,655 --> 00:20:45,000 WE TAKING YOUR CHAIR TOO? 377 00:20:45,000 --> 00:20:48,827 I NEED TO. 378 00:20:48,827 --> 00:20:50,758 -WHEW. -RIGHT THERE. COOL. 379 00:20:50,758 --> 00:20:52,758 RIGHT THERE. COOL. 380 00:20:52,758 --> 00:20:55,344 ♪♪ 381 00:20:55,344 --> 00:20:57,965 LITTLE SHOCK OVER THAT HILL. 382 00:20:57,965 --> 00:20:59,896 BEEP, BEEP, BEEP! 383 00:20:59,896 --> 00:21:01,068 DO YOU FEEL THAT HANDLE? 384 00:21:01,068 --> 00:21:03,413 -I SEE IT. -OKAY. 385 00:21:03,413 --> 00:21:05,103 [ GRUNTS ] 386 00:21:05,103 --> 00:21:07,689 I GOTTA PUSH. I GOTTA PUSH ON YOU. 387 00:21:07,689 --> 00:21:08,896 I GOTTA PUSH ON YOU. 388 00:21:08,896 --> 00:21:13,068 -HOLD ON. -OKAY, OKAY. 389 00:21:13,068 --> 00:21:18,275 HOLD ON. DON'T PUSH NOTHIN' YET. 390 00:21:18,275 --> 00:21:21,482 CAN THESE SEAT COME OUT SO I CAN HAVE SOME MORE ROOM TO MOVE? 391 00:21:21,482 --> 00:21:24,482 -YEAH. -OH. I GOT TO FIX IT. 392 00:21:24,482 --> 00:21:26,689 I'M ALREADY FEELING RUN DOWN. 393 00:21:26,689 --> 00:21:29,965 BUT WE HAVE TO BE ABLE TO KEEP THE KIDS IN THE SEATS. 394 00:21:29,965 --> 00:21:31,896 KAU'LIN HAS TO BE IN HIS CAR SEAT. 395 00:21:31,896 --> 00:21:34,586 HE CAN'T RIDE WITHOUT BECAUSE IT'S NOT SAFE. 396 00:21:34,586 --> 00:21:38,689 SO FIGURING OUT HOW ALL THIS IS GONNA WORK ISN'T GONNA BE EASY. 397 00:21:38,689 --> 00:21:40,034 -PUT IT DOWN. -OKAY. 398 00:21:40,034 --> 00:21:42,241 HERE. HOLD THAT. 399 00:21:42,241 --> 00:21:45,448 ♪♪ 400 00:21:45,448 --> 00:21:48,689 ♪♪ 401 00:21:48,689 --> 00:21:50,758 OH, MAN. 402 00:21:50,758 --> 00:21:51,724 IS THAT FAR ENOUGH? 403 00:21:51,724 --> 00:21:53,103 I THINK SO. 404 00:21:53,103 --> 00:21:55,206 THERE WE GO. 405 00:21:55,206 --> 00:21:57,689 GET ON UP THERE, KAU'LIN. COME ON, GET ON UP HERE. 406 00:21:57,689 --> 00:21:59,172 MIGHT WANT TO CLOSE THE BACK. 407 00:21:59,172 --> 00:22:01,620 -WE GOT TO PUT THE STUFF BACK. -YEAH, WE'RE GONNA GET IT. 408 00:22:01,620 --> 00:22:03,034 YOU GOT TO GET IN THE SEATBELT. 409 00:22:03,034 --> 00:22:04,034 -ALL RIGHT? -NO! 410 00:22:04,034 --> 00:22:05,275 -WHAT? -MY COAT. 411 00:22:05,275 --> 00:22:06,655 OKAY. YOU'LL BE OKAY. 412 00:22:06,655 --> 00:22:10,137 AH, SHOOT. MY FINGERS. 413 00:22:10,137 --> 00:22:12,896 COME ON. YOU FORGOT WHO YOU CALL. 414 00:22:12,896 --> 00:22:13,896 PUSH THAT BUTTON. 415 00:22:13,896 --> 00:22:15,827 RIGHT THERE. PUSH. 416 00:22:15,827 --> 00:22:19,034 WE GOTTA GET SOME SNACKS. WE GOT THEM ON THE WAY, 417 00:22:19,034 --> 00:22:22,413 'CAUSE I CAN'T... 418 00:22:22,413 --> 00:22:24,137 THERE WE GO. 419 00:22:24,137 --> 00:22:29,137 ♪♪ 420 00:22:29,137 --> 00:22:32,655 THIS IS GONNA BE AN ADVENTURE FOR US ALL. 421 00:22:32,655 --> 00:22:34,931 BUT HOW LONG I'M ABLE TO GO TODAY 422 00:22:34,931 --> 00:22:38,862 WILL TELL US HOW LONG IT'S GONNA TAKE AND WHAT MY LIMITS ARE, 423 00:22:38,862 --> 00:22:42,310 BUT HOPEFULLY WE'LL BE ABLE TO GET THERE IN THE NEXT FEW DAYS. 424 00:22:42,310 --> 00:22:44,862 ♪♪ 425 00:22:44,862 --> 00:22:47,000 WE'RE OFF. 426 00:22:47,000 --> 00:22:51,206 ♪♪ 427 00:22:51,206 --> 00:22:54,793 ♪♪ 428 00:22:54,793 --> 00:22:59,655 OHH. 429 00:22:59,655 --> 00:23:01,379 HEY, LET'S STOP FOR THE NIGHT. 430 00:23:01,379 --> 00:23:03,068 ALL RIGHT. YOU BET. 431 00:23:03,068 --> 00:23:06,620 I'M READY TO PUT MY LEGS UP AND GET COMFORTABLE. 432 00:23:06,620 --> 00:23:09,034 OKAY. 433 00:23:09,034 --> 00:23:14,379 AND SO I CAN TAKE SOME PAIN MEDICINE. 434 00:23:14,379 --> 00:23:16,586 I'M REALLY WORRIED IF THIS IS HOW I FEEL 435 00:23:16,586 --> 00:23:21,103 JUST AFTER A COUPLE OF HOURS, HOW BAD IT'S GONNA GET FOR ME. 436 00:23:21,103 --> 00:23:25,793 [ GROANS ] MY LEG, MY LEG. 437 00:23:25,793 --> 00:23:28,379 I CAN'T SPEND EIGHT DAYS ON THE ROAD. 438 00:23:28,379 --> 00:23:31,931 I WON'T BE ABLE TO HANDLE IT, AND I'LL MISS MY APPOINTMENT. 439 00:23:31,931 --> 00:23:36,034 ♪♪ 440 00:23:36,034 --> 00:23:38,379 BUT THE BIGGER ISSUE FOR ME RIGHT NOW IS, 441 00:23:38,379 --> 00:23:42,275 SEEING IF I'M GONNA BE ABLE TO DO WHAT I NEED IN THIS ROOM. 442 00:23:42,275 --> 00:23:44,068 COME ON, LET'S GO. 443 00:23:44,068 --> 00:23:46,965 -STIFF NOW? -YEAH. 444 00:23:46,965 --> 00:23:50,034 I AIN'T GOT NOTHIN' TO GRAB ON. 445 00:23:50,034 --> 00:23:52,655 [ GRUNTING ] 446 00:23:52,655 --> 00:23:54,379 ♪♪ 447 00:23:54,379 --> 00:23:56,413 [ GRUNTING ] 448 00:23:56,413 --> 00:24:01,379 ♪♪ 449 00:24:01,379 --> 00:24:06,241 ♪♪ 450 00:24:06,241 --> 00:24:11,137 ♪♪ 451 00:24:11,137 --> 00:24:16,034 ♪♪ 452 00:24:16,034 --> 00:24:19,137 MY BIGGEST WORRY IS WHETHER I CAN USE A TOILET, 453 00:24:19,137 --> 00:24:21,379 AND IF THE BED CAN HOLD ME. 454 00:24:21,379 --> 00:24:22,827 WHICH WAY? 455 00:24:22,827 --> 00:24:25,310 I DON'T HAVE MY HEALTHCARE ASSISTANT BRITTNEY WITH ME, 456 00:24:25,310 --> 00:24:28,413 SO I'M HOPING I CAN JUST MAKE THIS WORK. 457 00:24:28,413 --> 00:24:33,965 UNBRAKE YOURSELF. 458 00:24:33,965 --> 00:24:36,103 -RIGHT HERE. -YEAH. 459 00:24:36,103 --> 00:24:40,000 OKAY. 460 00:24:40,000 --> 00:24:41,517 THAT'S IT. WE'RE GONNA SCOOT YOU UP, 461 00:24:41,517 --> 00:24:43,827 IF I CAN GET THE WALKER IN. 462 00:24:43,827 --> 00:24:48,482 ♪♪ 463 00:24:48,482 --> 00:24:50,655 I THINK... 464 00:24:50,655 --> 00:24:54,137 [ GRUNTING ] 465 00:24:54,137 --> 00:24:56,655 YOU SEE THE -- IT'S A COUCH RIGHT THERE. 466 00:24:56,655 --> 00:25:02,517 I GOT TO PEE. 467 00:25:02,517 --> 00:25:03,793 TURN THE LIGHT ON, OR NO? 468 00:25:03,793 --> 00:25:05,827 [BLEEP] THAT. I GOT TO PEE. 469 00:25:05,827 --> 00:25:07,482 OKAY. 470 00:25:07,482 --> 00:25:09,827 HEY! GET SETTLED IN. 471 00:25:09,827 --> 00:25:11,344 GET UP IN THERE. 472 00:25:11,344 --> 00:25:14,689 I GOT YOU, MER. 473 00:25:14,689 --> 00:25:16,034 GIVE ME THAT. 474 00:25:16,034 --> 00:25:19,241 THIS? 475 00:25:19,241 --> 00:25:23,413 THE BATHROOM FACILITIES HERE ARE PAINFUL TO USE. 476 00:25:23,413 --> 00:25:26,034 [ SIGHS ] I CAN'T RINSE. 477 00:25:26,034 --> 00:25:27,965 I'M THANKFUL I MANAGED, 478 00:25:27,965 --> 00:25:30,551 BUT I JUST WANT TO GET IN BED NOW AND SLEEP, 479 00:25:30,551 --> 00:25:35,758 BECAUSE MY WHOLE BODY IS JUST IN SO MUCH PAIN. 480 00:25:35,758 --> 00:25:38,724 YOU OKAY? 481 00:25:38,724 --> 00:25:41,241 -YEAH. -OKAY. 482 00:25:41,241 --> 00:25:43,517 GOT YOU TOGETHER, BABY GIRL. 483 00:25:43,517 --> 00:25:45,000 PUT THEM PADS ON THERE. 484 00:25:45,000 --> 00:25:46,620 OKAY. HOW MANY? 485 00:25:46,620 --> 00:25:50,275 TWO OF THEM. 486 00:25:50,275 --> 00:25:53,689 WHEN I SLEEP, I HAVE TO HAD A BED PAD TO LAY ON 487 00:25:53,689 --> 00:25:55,448 IN CASE I HAVE TO USE THE BATHROOM 488 00:25:55,448 --> 00:25:58,448 IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT. 489 00:25:58,448 --> 00:26:03,482 I'M SO EXHAUSTED AND I'M IN SO MUCH PAIN, I'M MISERABLE. 490 00:26:03,482 --> 00:26:07,103 AND IF I'M ALREADY LIKE THIS AND IN THIS MUCH PAIN, 491 00:26:07,103 --> 00:26:10,103 I'M SCARED I'M NOT GONNA BE ABLE TO MAKE IT. 492 00:26:10,103 --> 00:26:12,103 YOU GOOD? 493 00:26:12,103 --> 00:26:15,793 -OH, MY BACK. -THAT AIN'T IT? 494 00:26:15,793 --> 00:26:18,724 [ Crying ] AND THAT'LL BE THE END FOR ME. 495 00:26:18,724 --> 00:26:24,103 I'LL BE BASICALLY JUST GOING BACK HOME TO DIE. 496 00:26:24,103 --> 00:26:28,034 AND I'LL EAT MYSELF TO DEATH, AND LEAVE MY KIDS. 497 00:26:28,034 --> 00:26:29,586 [ CRYING ] 498 00:26:29,586 --> 00:26:31,689 IT'S OKAY TO CRY. I'LL SIT WITH YOU. 499 00:26:31,689 --> 00:26:34,103 BUT I CAN'T LET THAT HAPPEN. 500 00:26:34,103 --> 00:26:36,551 ♪♪ 501 00:26:39,206 --> 00:26:43,758 ♪♪ 502 00:26:43,758 --> 00:26:48,379 ♪♪ 503 00:26:48,379 --> 00:26:52,965 ♪♪ 504 00:26:52,965 --> 00:26:55,344 Mercedes: I DON'T FEEL AS READY AS I'D LIKE 505 00:26:55,344 --> 00:26:57,655 TO GET BACK ON THE ROAD. 506 00:26:57,655 --> 00:27:01,758 I DIDN'T GET MUCH SLEEP BECAUSE I WAS UNCOMFORTABLE ALL NIGHT. 507 00:27:01,758 --> 00:27:05,724 IT'S JUST NOT THE SAME NOT HAVING A BED LIKE I NEED. 508 00:27:05,724 --> 00:27:08,000 THIS ONE DIDN'T GIVE ME MUCH SUPPORT, 509 00:27:08,000 --> 00:27:11,000 AND I STILL FEEL REALLY SORE. 510 00:27:11,000 --> 00:27:13,000 BUT WE HAVE TO KEEP MOVING, 511 00:27:13,000 --> 00:27:16,172 BECAUSE WE NEED TO GET TO HOUSTON. 512 00:27:16,172 --> 00:27:19,206 AND I'M HOPING I'M ABLE TO GO LONGER THIS TIME, 513 00:27:19,206 --> 00:27:21,965 BECAUSE GOING AT THE RATE I DID YESTERDAY, 514 00:27:21,965 --> 00:27:25,551 IT WOULD TAKE US EIGHT DAYS TO FINISH THIS TRIP. 515 00:27:25,551 --> 00:27:28,517 AND NOT GONNA LAST THAT LONG ON THE ROAD. 516 00:27:28,517 --> 00:27:32,241 ♪♪ 517 00:27:32,241 --> 00:27:35,965 ♪♪ 518 00:27:35,965 --> 00:27:39,620 I'M JUST ABOUT DONE FOR THE DAY, BUT I'M PROUD OF MYSELF 519 00:27:39,620 --> 00:27:43,620 BECAUSE WE'VE MADE IT ABOUT HALFWAY TO HOUSTON NOW. 520 00:27:43,620 --> 00:27:46,068 BUT I'M PAYING THE PRICE OF THAT ON MY BODY 521 00:27:46,068 --> 00:27:49,482 BECAUSE I'M IN SO MUCH PAIN. 522 00:27:49,482 --> 00:27:52,000 BRANDON, I'M DONE FOR THE DAY. 523 00:27:52,000 --> 00:27:53,689 LET'S STOP FOR THE NIGHT. 524 00:27:53,689 --> 00:27:55,586 Brandon: ALL RIGHT. 525 00:27:55,586 --> 00:27:59,586 ♪♪ 526 00:27:59,586 --> 00:28:03,689 ♪♪ 527 00:28:03,689 --> 00:28:06,724 RIGHT NOW, I JUST NEED TO GET OUT OF THIS CAR 528 00:28:06,724 --> 00:28:11,241 AND BED SOON BEFORE MY BODY GIVES OUT. 529 00:28:11,241 --> 00:28:14,137 I'M SO PHYSICALLY EXHAUSTED AT THIS POINT, 530 00:28:14,137 --> 00:28:18,068 AND WE STILL HAVE HALFWAY TO GO TO GET TO HOUSTON. 531 00:28:18,068 --> 00:28:19,862 THERE YOU GO. 532 00:28:19,862 --> 00:28:22,034 -IT'S COMIN' OUT. -IT'S COMIN' OUT? 533 00:28:22,034 --> 00:28:23,344 DON'T WORRY ABOUT IT. LET IT GO. 534 00:28:23,344 --> 00:28:25,551 LET IT FLOW. 535 00:28:25,551 --> 00:28:28,724 I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL THOUGH. 536 00:28:28,724 --> 00:28:34,482 SEE? IT'S LOW. 537 00:28:34,482 --> 00:28:36,379 IT'S LOW. 538 00:28:36,379 --> 00:28:38,551 GOTTA LIFT. YOU GOTTA LIFT. 539 00:28:38,551 --> 00:28:39,620 [ CRYING ] 540 00:28:39,620 --> 00:28:41,344 COME ON, COME ON. DON'T CRY, BABY. 541 00:28:41,344 --> 00:28:43,793 LET'S JUST GET THIS UP OUT OF HERE, YOU KNOW WHAT I'M SAYIN'? 542 00:28:43,793 --> 00:28:44,689 HUH? YOU NEED MY HAND? 543 00:28:44,689 --> 00:28:49,758 COME ON. ONE, TWO, THREE. 544 00:28:49,758 --> 00:28:51,344 OKAY, OKAY, ONE MORE TIME. 545 00:28:51,344 --> 00:28:54,448 ONE, TWO, THREE. 546 00:28:54,448 --> 00:28:56,103 LET'S GO, BABY. LET'S GO. 547 00:28:56,103 --> 00:28:58,862 GET TO WALKING. COME ON. 548 00:28:58,862 --> 00:29:00,103 [BLEEP] 549 00:29:00,103 --> 00:29:02,137 IT'S ALL GOOD, BABY. YOU DID GOOD. 550 00:29:02,137 --> 00:29:03,758 IT'S OKAY. 551 00:29:03,758 --> 00:29:05,655 [BLEEP] HAPPENS. 552 00:29:05,655 --> 00:29:07,034 I'LL GET BEHIND YOU. GO AHEAD. 553 00:29:07,034 --> 00:29:09,068 KEEP GOING, KEEP GOING. I'LL GET BEHIND YOU. 554 00:29:09,068 --> 00:29:09,965 DON'T WORRY ABOUT NOTHIN'. 555 00:29:09,965 --> 00:29:13,413 WE OUT, WE GOOD. WE GOOD. 556 00:29:13,413 --> 00:29:15,034 WE GOOD. 557 00:29:15,034 --> 00:29:19,517 GET THE CART. 558 00:29:19,517 --> 00:29:23,965 I'M JUST IRRITATED, TIRED, AND MY LEGS HURT. 559 00:29:23,965 --> 00:29:27,517 I WILL GET CLEANED UP, AND I'M JUST TIRED. 560 00:29:27,517 --> 00:29:30,413 I'M READY FOR THIS PART TO BE OVER WITH. 561 00:29:30,413 --> 00:29:34,517 ♪♪ 562 00:29:34,517 --> 00:29:40,482 ♪♪ 563 00:29:40,482 --> 00:29:42,758 [ GROANING ] 564 00:29:42,758 --> 00:29:45,551 KIMORIAH, I'M GONNA NEED YOUR HELP. 565 00:29:45,551 --> 00:29:51,551 ♪♪ 566 00:30:00,758 --> 00:30:02,068 YOU WANT TO EAT? 567 00:30:03,551 --> 00:30:06,655 YOU WANT ME TO MAKE SOME PLATES? 568 00:30:06,655 --> 00:30:10,310 THIS TRIP HAS TAKEN JUST ABOUT EVERYTHING OUT OF ME. 569 00:30:10,310 --> 00:30:13,896 AND RIGHT NOW, FOOD IS THE ONLY THING GETTING ME THROUGH THIS. 570 00:30:13,896 --> 00:30:16,413 ♪♪ 571 00:30:16,413 --> 00:30:20,137 I KNOW I'M GOING TO HOUSTON TO TRY AND LOSE THE WEIGHT, 572 00:30:20,137 --> 00:30:23,517 BUT I JUST NEED WHAT I NEED TO GET THROUGH THIS, 573 00:30:23,517 --> 00:30:25,827 SO I DON'T HAVE MUCH OF A CHOICE RIGHT NOW, 574 00:30:25,827 --> 00:30:28,655 BECAUSE IF I DON'T HAVE THAT TO KEEP ME GOING, 575 00:30:28,655 --> 00:30:30,689 THEN I'M NOT GONNA MAKE IT. 576 00:30:30,689 --> 00:30:36,103 ♪♪ 577 00:30:36,103 --> 00:30:41,517 ♪♪ 578 00:30:41,517 --> 00:30:46,965 ♪♪ 579 00:30:46,965 --> 00:30:49,689 IT'S DAY FOUR OF BEING ON THE ROAD. 580 00:30:49,689 --> 00:30:53,137 I COULDN'T MAKE IT AS FAR AS I WANTED YESTERDAY. 581 00:30:53,137 --> 00:30:57,379 I JUST TOO WORN OUT AND MY BODY COULDN'T TAKE IT. 582 00:30:57,379 --> 00:30:59,344 I WAS HOPING TO BE ABLE TO REST, 583 00:30:59,344 --> 00:31:01,379 BUT SINCE MY APPOINTMENT IS TODAY 584 00:31:01,379 --> 00:31:03,310 WE'RE JUST TRYING TO GET THERE. 585 00:31:03,310 --> 00:31:06,379 BUT THANKFULLY, I'M GONNA BE AT DR. NOW'S SOON, 586 00:31:06,379 --> 00:31:09,758 AND I JUST HOPE THAT ALL ISN'T FOR NOTHING 587 00:31:09,758 --> 00:31:12,137 AND THAT I'M ABLE TO GET THE HELP THAT I NEED, 588 00:31:12,137 --> 00:31:15,000 BECAUSE I'M DESPERATE TO TURN MY LIFE AROUND. 589 00:31:15,000 --> 00:31:19,172 ♪♪ 590 00:31:19,172 --> 00:31:23,586 LOOK, KAU'LIN. WE'RE IN THE CITY. LOOK. 591 00:31:23,586 --> 00:31:25,482 Brandon: HOUSTON, TEXAS, NOW, YOU SEE THAT? 592 00:31:25,482 --> 00:31:27,655 HOUSTON! LET'S GO! 593 00:31:27,655 --> 00:31:29,379 ♪♪ 594 00:31:29,379 --> 00:31:33,310 MY WHOLE LIFE IS DEPENDING ON GETTING THIS HELP WITH DR. NOW, 595 00:31:33,310 --> 00:31:36,551 AND HEARING HIM SAY THAT HE CAN TREAT ME. 596 00:31:36,551 --> 00:31:39,034 BECAUSE IF HE DOESN'T, THEN I KNOW 597 00:31:39,034 --> 00:31:41,724 I WON'T HAVE MUCH LONGER TO LIVE. 598 00:31:41,724 --> 00:31:44,448 AND THERE'S NOWHERE LEFT FOR ME TO TURN. 599 00:31:44,448 --> 00:31:45,965 AH [BLEEP] 600 00:31:45,965 --> 00:31:48,655 [ GROANING ] 601 00:31:48,655 --> 00:31:54,172 ♪♪ 602 00:31:54,172 --> 00:31:56,275 MERCEDES? 603 00:31:56,275 --> 00:32:01,275 ♪♪ 604 00:32:01,275 --> 00:32:06,206 ♪♪ 605 00:32:06,206 --> 00:32:07,310 [ GRUNTS ] 606 00:32:07,310 --> 00:32:08,689 YOU THINK YOU'D BE ABLE TO STAND, 607 00:32:08,689 --> 00:32:11,517 OR DO YOU FEEL BETTER WITH ONE WITH BARS? 608 00:32:11,517 --> 00:32:12,793 THE ONE WITH THE BARS. 609 00:32:12,793 --> 00:32:14,137 -THE ONE WITH THE BARS? -YEAH. 610 00:32:14,137 --> 00:32:16,551 ALL RIGHT. GIVE ME A MINUTE. 611 00:32:16,551 --> 00:32:20,275 ♪♪ 612 00:32:20,275 --> 00:32:22,551 THIS IS MY LAST HOPE. 613 00:32:22,551 --> 00:32:23,620 OKAY. 614 00:32:23,620 --> 00:32:25,482 SO, WHENEVER YOU'RE READY. 615 00:32:25,482 --> 00:32:27,413 AND IF I DON'T GET THIS HELP, 616 00:32:27,413 --> 00:32:29,448 THEN THE ONLY OPTION I HAVE LEFT 617 00:32:29,448 --> 00:32:31,620 WILL BE JUST TO WAIT FOR DEATH, 618 00:32:31,620 --> 00:32:34,379 BECAUSE I KNOW IT'S COMING. 619 00:32:34,379 --> 00:32:37,137 SO I'M TERRIFIED RIGHT NOW, 620 00:32:37,137 --> 00:32:39,793 BECAUSE MY LIFE IS HANGING IN THE BALANCE. 621 00:32:39,793 --> 00:32:42,344 ♪♪ 622 00:32:45,344 --> 00:32:48,793 ♪♪ 623 00:32:48,793 --> 00:32:52,310 ♪♪ 624 00:32:52,310 --> 00:32:55,551 Mercedes: ME AND MY FAMILY FINALLY MADE IT TO DR. NOW'S, 625 00:32:55,551 --> 00:32:58,965 BUT I'M NERVOUS ABOUT WHAT THE SCALE IS GOING TO SAY. 626 00:32:58,965 --> 00:33:02,241 THERE'S A GOOD CHANCE I'M OVER 700 NOW, 627 00:33:02,241 --> 00:33:04,931 SO I'M HOPING MY WEIGHT ISN'T TOO HIGH 628 00:33:04,931 --> 00:33:07,793 AND DR. NOW SAYS HE CAN HELP ME. 629 00:33:07,793 --> 00:33:13,379 ♪♪ 630 00:33:13,379 --> 00:33:15,655 [ WINCES ] 631 00:33:15,655 --> 00:33:20,931 IT'S UPSETTING TO SEE JUST HOW BAD MY WEIGHT IS. 632 00:33:20,931 --> 00:33:22,310 I'M SCARED RIGHT NOW 633 00:33:22,310 --> 00:33:25,241 BECAUSE I KNOW I DON'T HAVE A LOT MORE I CAN GAIN 634 00:33:25,241 --> 00:33:28,206 BEFORE IT'S JUST NOT POSSIBLE TO GET ANY BIGGER, 635 00:33:28,206 --> 00:33:32,103 BECAUSE MY BODY JUST WON'T BE ABLE TO HANDLE IT. 636 00:33:32,103 --> 00:33:36,034 SO I HAVE TO TURN THAT AROUND BEFORE IT GETS TO THAT POINT. 637 00:33:36,034 --> 00:33:37,586 SO IF I DON'T GET THE HELP, 638 00:33:37,586 --> 00:33:42,034 I PROBABLY WON'T BE HERE NO MORE. 639 00:33:42,034 --> 00:33:46,965 SO I'M HOPING THAT I QUALIFY FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 640 00:33:46,965 --> 00:33:49,275 I WILL NOT BE ABLE TO LOSE WEIGHT BY MYSELF 641 00:33:49,275 --> 00:33:51,413 IF I DON'T HAVE HELP. 642 00:33:51,413 --> 00:33:53,827 ♪♪ 643 00:33:53,827 --> 00:33:56,551 [ KNOCKS ON DOOR ] 644 00:33:56,551 --> 00:33:58,137 -HELLO. -HELLO. 645 00:33:58,137 --> 00:34:00,137 I'M DR. NOWZARADAN. HOW Y'ALL DOIN'? 646 00:34:00,137 --> 00:34:01,862 -GOOD. -FINE. HOW ARE YOU? 647 00:34:01,862 --> 00:34:03,379 AND YOU ARE MERCEDES? 648 00:34:03,379 --> 00:34:04,448 YEAH. 649 00:34:04,448 --> 00:34:06,310 -NICE TO MEET YOU. -NICE TO MEET YOU. 650 00:34:06,310 --> 00:34:07,827 AND THIS YOUNG MAN IS? 651 00:34:07,827 --> 00:34:08,793 BRANDON. 652 00:34:08,793 --> 00:34:10,379 BRANDON. THAT'S MY COUSIN. 653 00:34:10,379 --> 00:34:12,793 YOU'RE BRANDON. COUSIN. 654 00:34:12,793 --> 00:34:14,827 AND THE TWO YOUNG ONES? 655 00:34:14,827 --> 00:34:17,000 OH, THAT'S KIMORIAH AND KAU'LIN. 656 00:34:17,000 --> 00:34:18,931 THAT'S MY TWO KIDS. 657 00:34:18,931 --> 00:34:20,379 -TWO KIDS. -MM-HMM. 658 00:34:20,379 --> 00:34:23,724 ALL RIGHT, YOU GOT SOME FAMILY WITH YOU TO SUPPORT YOU, RIGHT? 659 00:34:23,724 --> 00:34:25,344 -YEAH. -THAT'S GREAT. 660 00:34:25,344 --> 00:34:28,344 AND YOU'RE COMING FROM CINCINNATI, OHIO? 661 00:34:28,344 --> 00:34:29,379 YEP. 662 00:34:29,379 --> 00:34:32,689 HOW WAS YOUR TRIP FROM CINCINNATI? 663 00:34:32,689 --> 00:34:34,551 IT WAS A ROUGH ONE. 664 00:34:34,551 --> 00:34:36,482 HOW LONG DID IT TAKE YOU TO GET DOWN HERE? 665 00:34:36,482 --> 00:34:37,551 FOUR DAYS. 666 00:34:37,551 --> 00:34:39,000 FOUR DAYS TO GET DOWN HERE. 667 00:34:39,000 --> 00:34:39,655 YEAH. 668 00:34:39,655 --> 00:34:40,896 THAT'S A LOT OF STRAIN 669 00:34:40,896 --> 00:34:43,758 FOR SOMEONE WHO'S OVER 700 POUNDS. 670 00:34:43,758 --> 00:34:46,241 BUT LET'S TALK ABOUT HOW YOU GOT THIS WEIGHT. 671 00:34:46,241 --> 00:34:49,034 TELL ME, HOW DO YOU THINK YOU GOT TO THIS POINT? 672 00:34:49,034 --> 00:34:50,413 I DON'T KNOW. 673 00:34:50,413 --> 00:34:54,517 SOME EATING, BUT, BEING SICK IN THE H-- FROM SURGERIES 674 00:34:54,517 --> 00:34:57,931 AND NOT BEING ABLE TO WALK AROUND AND DO MUCH. 675 00:34:57,931 --> 00:35:01,758 SO YOU THINK MOSTLY BEING SICK AND LACK OF ACTIVITY 676 00:35:01,758 --> 00:35:05,000 CAUSED YOU TO GAIN 600 POUNDS OF EXTRA WEIGHT? 677 00:35:05,000 --> 00:35:06,310 YEAH. 678 00:35:06,310 --> 00:35:10,000 SO IF WE GET YOU TO WALK AROUND AND IF YOU RAN A MARATHON, 679 00:35:10,000 --> 00:35:12,103 YOU'RE GONNA BE 150 POUNDS, RIGHT? 680 00:35:12,103 --> 00:35:12,931 YEAH. 681 00:35:12,931 --> 00:35:15,620 THAT'S NOT REALITY, OKAY? 682 00:35:15,620 --> 00:35:17,965 BUT LET'S TALK ABOUT YOUR ACTIVITY. 683 00:35:17,965 --> 00:35:20,206 HOW MUCH CAN YOU GET UP AND WALK? 684 00:35:20,206 --> 00:35:21,724 I CAN GO TO THE BATHROOM. 685 00:35:21,724 --> 00:35:23,275 I USE THE WALKER. 686 00:35:23,275 --> 00:35:26,448 SO IF THAT'S THE LIMIT OF YOUR DAILY ACTIVITY, 687 00:35:26,448 --> 00:35:28,551 THEN WHO BRINGS YOU ALL YOUR FOOD? 688 00:35:28,551 --> 00:35:30,862 EVERYBODY. FAMILY. 689 00:35:30,862 --> 00:35:32,724 EVERYBODY BECAUSE THEY BRING IT? 690 00:35:32,724 --> 00:35:34,551 OR BECAUSE YOU ASK THEM TO BRING YOU? 691 00:35:34,551 --> 00:35:36,206 WELL, I ASK THEM TO BRING IT. 692 00:35:36,206 --> 00:35:38,793 I ENABLE MYSELF BECAUSE I TELL THEM TO GET IT 693 00:35:38,793 --> 00:35:41,344 AND THEY GET IT FOR ME. 694 00:35:41,344 --> 00:35:43,689 DON'T YOU REALIZE THAT YOU'RE 37 695 00:35:43,689 --> 00:35:45,724 AND YOU'RE ALMOST 800 POUNDS? 696 00:35:45,724 --> 00:35:48,896 SO, AT THIS POINT, YOU'RE NOT GONNA LIVE THAT LONG. 697 00:35:48,896 --> 00:35:51,413 I'M COMING TO REALIZE THAT. 698 00:35:51,413 --> 00:35:54,655 AND I HAVE MY KIDS TO LIVE FOR, SO... 699 00:35:54,655 --> 00:35:56,310 I'M TIRED OF BEING LIKE THIS. 700 00:35:56,310 --> 00:35:59,241 SO, WHY DO YOU THINK NOTHING HAS WORKED 701 00:35:59,241 --> 00:36:03,137 TO HELP YOU STOP OVER-EATING? 702 00:36:03,137 --> 00:36:04,586 I DON'T REALLY OVER-EAT. 703 00:36:04,586 --> 00:36:08,551 I JUST EAT STUFF THAT'S NOT GOOD FOR ME, LIKE SNACKS AND... 704 00:36:08,551 --> 00:36:10,000 WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU DON'T OVER-EAT? 705 00:36:10,000 --> 00:36:11,241 YOU'RE 700 POUNDS. 706 00:36:11,241 --> 00:36:13,103 YOU DON'T THINK YOU'RE OVER-EATING? 707 00:36:13,103 --> 00:36:14,620 NO. WELL... 708 00:36:14,620 --> 00:36:17,310 YEAH, I EAT, BUT I DON'T EAT, LIKE... 709 00:36:17,310 --> 00:36:18,827 LIKE, ALL THE TIME. 710 00:36:18,827 --> 00:36:21,000 I JUST EAT NOT THE RIGHT STUFF. 711 00:36:21,000 --> 00:36:24,068 WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU DON'T EAT ALL THE TIME? 712 00:36:24,068 --> 00:36:27,103 YOU KNOW, FOR YOUR HEIGHT, YOU SHOULD BE 150, 713 00:36:27,103 --> 00:36:30,103 SO YOU HAVE OVER 600 POUNDS OF EXCESS WEIGHT. 714 00:36:30,103 --> 00:36:32,379 IF YOU DO THE MATH, YOU'RE EATING FOUR TIMES 715 00:36:32,379 --> 00:36:33,689 MORE THAN YOU SHOULD EAT, 716 00:36:33,689 --> 00:36:35,793 AND YOU DON'T THINK YOU'RE EATING AS MUCH? 717 00:36:35,793 --> 00:36:39,413 LIKE, WHEN I EAT, I EAT, LIKE, ONE BIG MEAL... 718 00:36:39,413 --> 00:36:41,000 AND, YEAH, THAT'S A LOT. 719 00:36:41,000 --> 00:36:43,517 MERCEDES, DON'T PLAY THIS GAME WITH ME. 720 00:36:43,517 --> 00:36:45,655 YOU DON'T STOP, AND YOU KNOW THAT. 721 00:36:45,655 --> 00:36:48,413 THIS IS JUST SOMETHING YOU'RE USED TO SAYING TO PEOPLE 722 00:36:48,413 --> 00:36:51,793 WHEN YOU LIE TO THEM AND PRETEND IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT. 723 00:36:51,793 --> 00:36:54,689 BUT THAT ISN'T GONNA WORK WITH ME, YOU GOT IT? 724 00:36:54,689 --> 00:36:56,379 -OKAY. -ALL RIGHT. 725 00:36:56,379 --> 00:37:00,275 SO, GIVE ME A STRAIGHT, HONEST ANSWER 726 00:37:00,275 --> 00:37:05,206 ABOUT WHAT YOU EAT IN A REGULAR DAY. 727 00:37:05,206 --> 00:37:06,827 I DON'T EAT BREAKFAST. 728 00:37:06,827 --> 00:37:10,586 MAYBE AROUND... 729 00:37:10,586 --> 00:37:13,137 MAYBE AROUND THE TIME THE KIDS GET OUT OF SCHOOL, 730 00:37:13,137 --> 00:37:14,827 PROBABLY ORDER SOMETHING. 731 00:37:14,827 --> 00:37:16,758 WHEN THEY GET HOME, IT'S PROBABLY ABOUT 3:00, 732 00:37:16,758 --> 00:37:18,965 SO THAT'S PROBABLY THE TIME WHEN I EAT. 733 00:37:18,965 --> 00:37:22,344 SO YOU'RE TELLING ME YOU DON'T EAT UNTIL 3:00? 734 00:37:22,344 --> 00:37:23,758 MM-HMM. 735 00:37:23,758 --> 00:37:26,517 IF YOU WANT TO KEEP LYING TO ME, THIS ISN'T GONNA WORK. 736 00:37:26,517 --> 00:37:28,758 SO TELL ME ALL THE BAD STUFF YOU EAT 737 00:37:28,758 --> 00:37:30,931 THAT YOU KNOW YOU SHOULDN'T. 738 00:37:30,931 --> 00:37:34,965 PROBABLY COOKIES, CAKES, CANDY... 739 00:37:34,965 --> 00:37:37,310 CHIPS AND COOKIES AND STUFF LIKE THAT. 740 00:37:37,310 --> 00:37:39,655 -AND SOMETIMES I... -AND WHAT ARE YOU DRINKING? 741 00:37:39,655 --> 00:37:41,000 SODA. 742 00:37:41,000 --> 00:37:43,310 HOW MUCH SODA DO YOU DRINK IN ONE DAY? 743 00:37:43,310 --> 00:37:47,206 UH, I COULD DRINK ABOUT A 2-LITER IN ONE DAY, 744 00:37:47,206 --> 00:37:48,724 TWO OR THREE 2-LITERS. 745 00:37:48,724 --> 00:37:51,206 SO UP TO SIX LITERS OF SODA A DAY. 746 00:37:51,206 --> 00:37:53,448 AT LEAST YOU'RE GIVING ME ONE HONEST ANSWER, 747 00:37:53,448 --> 00:37:55,379 BECAUSE I CAN BELIEVE THAT. 748 00:37:55,379 --> 00:37:56,551 ALL RIGHT, GOOD. 749 00:37:56,551 --> 00:37:58,482 SO, WHAT DO YOU THINK THE SOLUTION IS 750 00:37:58,482 --> 00:37:59,931 TO GET THE WEIGHT OFF? 751 00:37:59,931 --> 00:38:01,551 STOP EATING. 752 00:38:01,551 --> 00:38:02,620 JUST, YOU KNOW... 753 00:38:02,620 --> 00:38:03,931 NOBODY WANTS YOU TO STOP EATING. 754 00:38:03,931 --> 00:38:06,827 NOT STOP COMPLETELY, BUT... 755 00:38:06,827 --> 00:38:11,000 I NEED HELP, LIKE, TO SHOW ME HOW TO EAT RIGHT. 756 00:38:11,000 --> 00:38:12,000 ALL RIGHT. 757 00:38:12,000 --> 00:38:13,827 WE HAVE A LOT OF CHANGES TO MAKE NOW 758 00:38:13,827 --> 00:38:15,965 IF YOU WANT TO DO THIS, MERCEDES. 759 00:38:15,965 --> 00:38:17,068 YES. I'M READY. 760 00:38:17,068 --> 00:38:18,310 I'M READY. 761 00:38:18,310 --> 00:38:21,068 YOU NEED TO GIVE UP ALL OF THE COOKIES, CANDY, 762 00:38:21,068 --> 00:38:24,482 AND SODA AND CHIPS, OKAY? 763 00:38:24,482 --> 00:38:27,586 AND I'M GONNA GIVE YOU A 1,200-CALORIE-A-DAY DIET, 764 00:38:27,586 --> 00:38:30,793 HIGH-PROTEIN, LOW-CARB, FOR YOU TO START IMMEDIATELY. 765 00:38:30,793 --> 00:38:32,689 AND IF YOU DO THAT, IN A MONTH, 766 00:38:32,689 --> 00:38:35,689 YOU SHOULD LOSE 80 POINTS, AT LEAST. 767 00:38:35,689 --> 00:38:39,379 AND IF YOU HIT THAT GOAL AND YOUR MEDICAL TESTS ARE GOOD, 768 00:38:39,379 --> 00:38:42,310 THEN WE'LL APPROVE YOU FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, OKAY? 769 00:38:42,310 --> 00:38:43,551 OKAY. 770 00:38:43,551 --> 00:38:45,586 THIS IS SOMETHING YOU NEED TO DO NOW, 771 00:38:45,586 --> 00:38:50,379 OR YOU'RE NOT GONNA BE ALIVE MUCH LONGER. 772 00:38:50,379 --> 00:38:51,931 Dr. Nowzaradan: FROM WHAT I'VE SEEN SO FAR, 773 00:38:51,931 --> 00:38:54,655 I'M VERY CONCERNED ABOUT MERCEDES' CONDITION 774 00:38:54,655 --> 00:38:56,758 AND OVERALL SITUATION. 775 00:38:56,758 --> 00:39:00,241 AT CLOSE TO 800 POUNDS AND ALMOST COMPLETELY IMMOBILE, 776 00:39:00,241 --> 00:39:03,896 SHE HAS A VERY LOW PROBABILITY OF SURVIVAL RIGHT NOW, 777 00:39:03,896 --> 00:39:05,517 AND MAY ALREADY BE FACING 778 00:39:05,517 --> 00:39:07,379 ANY NUMBER OF LIFE-THREATENING ISSUES 779 00:39:07,379 --> 00:39:09,827 THAT WE NEED TO CHECK FOR RIGHT NOW. 780 00:39:09,827 --> 00:39:11,517 THEN THE NEXT STEP WILL BE TO ADMIT HER 781 00:39:11,517 --> 00:39:13,724 TO A HOSPITAL TO START FEEDING HER. 782 00:39:13,724 --> 00:39:15,551 BUT IF SHE DOESN'T, THEN THE NEXT STEP 783 00:39:15,551 --> 00:39:18,724 WILL BE FOR HER TO SHOW ME SHE'S READY TO WORK TO TRY 784 00:39:18,724 --> 00:39:21,620 AND SAVE HER LIFE BY HITTING HER WEIGHT-LOSS GOAL. 785 00:39:21,620 --> 00:39:25,068 BUT WITH HOW SHE'S LYING TO ME ABOUT HER EATING HABITS, 786 00:39:25,068 --> 00:39:27,448 I AM VERY CONCERNED ABOUT HOW CLEARLY 787 00:39:27,448 --> 00:39:30,344 SHE REALLY SEES HER SITUATION. 788 00:39:30,344 --> 00:39:32,068 BUT HOPEFULLY, SHE'S SERIOUS 789 00:39:32,068 --> 00:39:34,137 WHEN SHE SAYS SHE'S READY TO DO THIS, 790 00:39:34,137 --> 00:39:37,413 AND SHE REALIZES HOW IMPORTANT IT IS TO START LOSING WEIGHT 791 00:39:37,413 --> 00:39:39,000 AND GET ACTIVE AGAIN, 792 00:39:39,000 --> 00:39:41,241 BECAUSE SHE'S NOT GONNA BE AROUND MUCH LONGER 793 00:39:41,241 --> 00:39:42,758 IF SHE DOESN'T. 794 00:39:42,758 --> 00:39:45,344 ALL RIGHT, MERCEDES, IN ADDITION TO YOUR DIET, 795 00:39:45,344 --> 00:39:47,758 I WANT YOU TO START DOING DAILY EXERCISES 796 00:39:47,758 --> 00:39:49,586 SO WE CAN GET YOU WALKING. 797 00:39:49,586 --> 00:39:52,172 BUT THIS IS GONNA BE ALL UP TO YOU. 798 00:39:52,172 --> 00:39:52,827 YOU GOT IT? 799 00:39:52,827 --> 00:39:53,586 YEAH, I KNOW. 800 00:39:53,586 --> 00:39:54,931 OKAY? 801 00:39:54,931 --> 00:39:56,206 ALL RIGHT. 802 00:39:56,206 --> 00:39:57,482 BEFORE YOU GO BACK, 803 00:39:57,482 --> 00:39:58,896 I WANT TO RUN SOME TESTS ON YOU 804 00:39:58,896 --> 00:40:01,896 TO MAKE SURE YOU CAN HANDLE THE CAR RIDE HOME. 805 00:40:01,896 --> 00:40:04,689 IF NOT, WE MAY NEED TO KEEP YOU HERE LONGER. 806 00:40:04,689 --> 00:40:07,793 BUT ULTIMATELY, GOING BACK AND FORTH THAT FAR 807 00:40:07,793 --> 00:40:09,379 ISN'T GONNA BE GOOD FOR YOU. 808 00:40:09,379 --> 00:40:11,310 SO IF YOU WANT TO DO THIS PROGRAM, 809 00:40:11,310 --> 00:40:13,517 THEN YOU NEED TO MOVE DOWN HERE TO HOUSTON, 810 00:40:13,517 --> 00:40:16,551 BECAUSE YOUR BODY IS NOT GONNA BE ABLE TO HANDLE IT 811 00:40:16,551 --> 00:40:18,310 WITH THE STATE YOU'RE IN. 812 00:40:18,310 --> 00:40:21,655 SO YOU NEED TO DECIDE IF YOU ULTIMATELY WANT TO DO THIS 813 00:40:21,655 --> 00:40:23,620 AND HOW COMMITTED YOU ARE. 814 00:40:23,620 --> 00:40:25,310 SO, YOU THINK YOU CAN DO THAT? 815 00:40:25,310 --> 00:40:26,206 YES. 816 00:40:26,206 --> 00:40:28,586 OKAY. ALL RIGHT. 817 00:40:28,586 --> 00:40:30,551 DO YOU HAVE ANY QUESTIONS? 818 00:40:30,551 --> 00:40:32,137 NO. 819 00:40:32,137 --> 00:40:34,068 THANK YOU FOR YOUR HELP. 820 00:40:34,068 --> 00:40:35,517 ALL RIGHT. NICE TO MEET YOU GUYS. 821 00:40:35,517 --> 00:40:36,758 -NICE TO MEET YOU, TOO. -NICE TO MEET YOU, TOO. 822 00:40:36,758 --> 00:40:38,379 THANK YOU SO MUCH. 823 00:40:38,379 --> 00:40:39,551 ALL RIGHT. SEE Y'ALL LATER. 824 00:40:39,551 --> 00:40:41,724 ALL RIGHT. 825 00:40:41,724 --> 00:40:47,655 ♪♪ 826 00:40:47,655 --> 00:40:50,241 I'M WORRIED ABOUT GETTING THESE TESTS RUN RIGHT NOW 827 00:40:50,241 --> 00:40:52,586 AND WHAT THEY'LL FIND. 828 00:40:52,586 --> 00:40:55,103 I'M ALSO WORRIED ABOUT GETTING TO THE GOAL 829 00:40:55,103 --> 00:40:56,965 THAT DR. NOW GAVE ME. 830 00:40:56,965 --> 00:41:00,241 HE TOLD ME I HAD TO LOSE 80 POUNDS. 831 00:41:00,241 --> 00:41:01,793 IF I COULD DO THAT ON MY OWN, 832 00:41:01,793 --> 00:41:04,275 I WOULDN'T BE HERE FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, 833 00:41:04,275 --> 00:41:07,862 BUT YOU KNOW I'M READY TO WORK AS HARD AS I NEED. 834 00:41:07,862 --> 00:41:09,655 I'M JUST THINKING ABOUT MY KIDS. 835 00:41:09,655 --> 00:41:11,655 I'M LIVING FOR THEM. 836 00:41:11,655 --> 00:41:14,103 BUT FOR RIGHT NOW, I HAVE TO FOCUS ON GETTING HOME, 837 00:41:14,103 --> 00:41:16,758 BECAUSE IT'S GONNA BE A LONG JOURNEY BACK. 838 00:41:16,758 --> 00:41:18,517 SO I CAN'T START TO DIET NOW 839 00:41:18,517 --> 00:41:21,310 BECAUSE FOOD WAS A BIG PART OF WHAT GOT ME HERE, 840 00:41:21,310 --> 00:41:24,413 AND I'LL NEED THAT SAME HELP AND THAT SAME BOOST TO GET ME BACK. 841 00:41:24,413 --> 00:41:28,517 ♪♪ 842 00:41:28,517 --> 00:41:32,620 ♪♪ 843 00:41:32,620 --> 00:41:36,793 ♪♪ 844 00:41:36,793 --> 00:41:38,551 AFTER MY APPOINTMENT WITH DR. NOW, 845 00:41:38,551 --> 00:41:40,241 HE DID A BUNCH OF TESTS ON ME, 846 00:41:40,241 --> 00:41:43,482 AND TOLD ME THAT HE'S NOT HAPPY WITH THE RESULTS. 847 00:41:43,482 --> 00:41:47,206 BECAUSE HE SAID MY OVERALL HEALTH WAS PRETTY BAD. 848 00:41:47,206 --> 00:41:48,931 THANKFULLY, IT WASN'T BAD ENOUGH 849 00:41:48,931 --> 00:41:52,206 TO WHERE I HAVE TO GO BE IN THE HOSPITAL FOR A WHILE. 850 00:41:52,206 --> 00:41:54,413 THEY SAID IT'S BAD ENOUGH THAT I WON'T BE ABLE TO HANDLE 851 00:41:54,413 --> 00:41:57,793 THE ROAD TRIPS BACK AND FORTH FROM HERE TO HOUSTON, 852 00:41:57,793 --> 00:42:01,000 SO DR. NOW TOLD ME THAT I NEEDED TO MOVE DOWN NOW 853 00:42:01,000 --> 00:42:03,931 IF I WAS GONNA TRY TO DO THIS PROGRAM. 854 00:42:03,931 --> 00:42:05,862 AND HE SAID I NEED SOMEONE TO COME WITH ME 855 00:42:05,862 --> 00:42:08,172 FOR SUPPORT AND HELP. 856 00:42:08,172 --> 00:42:09,448 TERRY HASN'T BEEN AROUND MUCH 857 00:42:09,448 --> 00:42:11,827 SINCE I STARTED TRYING TO DO THIS, 858 00:42:11,827 --> 00:42:15,103 SO I KNOW HE'S NOT AN OPTION TO COME TO HOUSTON WITH ME. 859 00:42:15,103 --> 00:42:17,965 BUT I TALKED TO BRANDON AND HE'S GONNA DO IT, 860 00:42:17,965 --> 00:42:20,482 AND I'M VERY THANKFUL FOR THAT. 861 00:42:20,482 --> 00:42:21,931 Brandon: DO YOU WANT TO GET A LIST TOGETHER? 862 00:42:21,931 --> 00:42:23,482 AND I'LL GET THE KIDS HOME, TOO? 863 00:42:23,482 --> 00:42:24,896 -YEAH. -GET EVERYBODY HOME? 864 00:42:24,896 --> 00:42:27,310 -A SALAD SOUNDS GOOD. -SALAD. 865 00:42:27,310 --> 00:42:29,068 YOU'VE BEEN DOIN' GOOD WITH THAT, THOUGH. 866 00:42:29,068 --> 00:42:31,034 NOT EATING A LOT IN ONE SITTING. 867 00:42:31,034 --> 00:42:32,586 -YEAH. -YOU KNOW WHAT I'M SAYIN'? 868 00:42:32,586 --> 00:42:34,655 I'M PROUD OF YOU. I'M PROUD OF YOU. 869 00:42:34,655 --> 00:42:38,965 YOU KNOW WHAT I'M SAYIN'? 870 00:42:38,965 --> 00:42:41,724 I'M STICKING TO ONLY FOODS THAT ARE ON THE DIET, 871 00:42:41,724 --> 00:42:46,896 AND I'M GETTING UP EVERY DAY LIKE HE WANTS. 872 00:42:46,896 --> 00:42:48,965 I'M SUPPOSED TO SEE DR. NOW 873 00:42:48,965 --> 00:42:51,862 AND BE BACK DOWN IN HOUSTON IN TWO WEEKS. 874 00:42:51,862 --> 00:42:56,206 BUT I TOLD DR. NOW IT'S GONNA TAKE MORE TIME. 875 00:42:56,206 --> 00:42:58,172 BUT I WANT TO GET MY WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, 876 00:42:58,172 --> 00:43:01,206 TO GET MY LIFE BACK FOR ME AND MY KIDS, 877 00:43:01,206 --> 00:43:03,793 NO MATTER WHAT IT TAKES. 878 00:43:03,793 --> 00:43:03,931 ♪♪ 879 00:43:07,517 --> 00:43:12,241 ♪♪ 880 00:43:12,241 --> 00:43:16,965 ♪♪ 881 00:43:16,965 --> 00:43:21,655 ♪♪ 882 00:43:21,655 --> 00:43:26,379 ♪♪ 883 00:43:26,379 --> 00:43:29,655 Mercedes: WE'RE FINALLY MOVING TO HOUSTON TODAY. 884 00:43:29,655 --> 00:43:33,137 IT'S TAKEN A LOT FOR US TO GET TO THIS POINT. 885 00:43:33,137 --> 00:43:35,724 BRANDON'S BACK WITH HIS GIRLFRIEND TEMEKA, 886 00:43:35,724 --> 00:43:38,551 AND THEY'RE BOTH TAKING CARE OF EVERYTHING WE NEED TO LEAVE. 887 00:43:38,551 --> 00:43:42,931 AND EVERYONE IS EXCITED TO FINALLY BE DOING THIS. 888 00:43:42,931 --> 00:43:45,655 BUT I'M HAVING A HARD TIME BECAUSE I'M NOT FEELING WELL, 889 00:43:45,655 --> 00:43:47,413 AND I'M WORRIED ABOUT BEING ON THE ROAD 890 00:43:47,413 --> 00:43:51,275 AS LONG AS I WAS THE LAST TIME WE WENT DOWN. 891 00:43:51,275 --> 00:43:53,206 I GOT FUEL. I GOT THE TRUCK. 892 00:43:53,206 --> 00:43:54,413 I GOT THE RENTAL. 893 00:43:54,413 --> 00:43:56,620 -GOT SOME FOOD! -GOT SOME FOOD FOR THE MOVE, 894 00:43:56,620 --> 00:43:57,689 YOU HEAR ME? 895 00:43:57,689 --> 00:43:58,655 WE'RE GETTIN' UP OUT OF HERE TODAY. 896 00:43:58,655 --> 00:43:59,793 WHAT'S WRONG? YOU OKAY? 897 00:43:59,793 --> 00:44:01,655 YEAH, I KEEP FEELING A PAIN IN MY CHEST. 898 00:44:01,655 --> 00:44:02,965 YOU THINK IT'S ANXIETY? 899 00:44:02,965 --> 00:44:04,344 I DON'T KNOW. 900 00:44:04,344 --> 00:44:07,000 YOU MIGHT HAVE TO BURP OR BREAK WIND? 901 00:44:07,000 --> 00:44:08,551 WELL, LOOK, WE ABOUT TO START LOADING. 902 00:44:08,551 --> 00:44:09,827 -ALL RIGHT. -ALL RIGHT. READY? 903 00:44:09,827 --> 00:44:11,793 WE UP OUT HERE, BABY. 904 00:44:11,793 --> 00:44:13,068 OKAY. 905 00:44:13,068 --> 00:44:15,310 NO MATTER WHAT OR HOW HARD IT'S GONNA BE, 906 00:44:15,310 --> 00:44:16,965 I KNOW IT'S TIME, 907 00:44:16,965 --> 00:44:21,689 BECAUSE DR. NOW ISN'T TOO HAPPY IT'S TAKEN US SO LONG. 908 00:44:21,689 --> 00:44:26,068 SO WE NEED TO GET THERE AND I NEED TO GO BACK TO SEE HIM, 909 00:44:26,068 --> 00:44:30,965 BUT I'M HOPING WHEN I DO, HE'LL BE HAPPY WITH MY PROGRESS. 910 00:44:30,965 --> 00:44:33,172 I KNOW THIS IS GONNA TAKE A LOT OUT OF ME, 911 00:44:33,172 --> 00:44:35,482 BUT I'M HOPING IT'S AT LEAST A LITTLE EASIER NOW THAT 912 00:44:35,482 --> 00:44:39,517 I LOST SOME WEIGHT AND BEEN EXERCISING, 913 00:44:39,517 --> 00:44:44,517 AND THAT WE'LL BE ABLE TO MAKE IT IN LESS TIME. 914 00:44:44,517 --> 00:44:46,586 BECAUSE EVEN GETTING THERE IN THREE DAYS 915 00:44:46,586 --> 00:44:50,448 INSTEAD OF FOUR WILL MAKE A HUGE DIFFERENCE ON MY BODY. 916 00:44:50,448 --> 00:44:55,965 BUT WE JUST HAVE TO SEE HOW IT GOES. 917 00:44:55,965 --> 00:44:58,206 BUT WHAT HELPED ME GET THROUGH ALL THE PAIN AND MISERY 918 00:44:58,206 --> 00:45:00,965 OF DOING IT LAST TIME WAS FOOD. 919 00:45:00,965 --> 00:45:03,862 AND I'M GONNA TRY NOT TO USE FOOD LIKE THAT THIS TIME 920 00:45:03,862 --> 00:45:09,000 SO I DON'T MESS UP MY DIET. 921 00:45:09,000 --> 00:45:10,655 I JUST HOPE IT DOESN'T GET SO HARD 922 00:45:10,655 --> 00:45:13,448 TO WHERE THE TEMPTATION GETS TO BE TOO MUCH FOR ME 923 00:45:13,448 --> 00:45:16,034 AND I GIVE IN. 924 00:45:16,034 --> 00:45:18,758 MY PLAN IS TO RESIST THAT AND STAY FOCUSED, 925 00:45:18,758 --> 00:45:22,413 BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO MESS UP ALL MY PROGRESS. 926 00:45:22,413 --> 00:45:25,620 AT LEAST THIS TIME, I KNOW HOW I NEED TO FIT AND WHAT TO DO 927 00:45:25,620 --> 00:45:28,379 SINCE I ALREADY DID IT BEFORE. 928 00:45:28,379 --> 00:45:30,862 I'M HOPING THE RIDE IS EASIER ON ME. 929 00:45:30,862 --> 00:45:36,137 ♪♪ 930 00:45:36,137 --> 00:45:41,379 ♪♪ 931 00:45:41,379 --> 00:45:46,586 ♪♪ 932 00:45:46,586 --> 00:45:51,896 ♪♪ 933 00:45:51,896 --> 00:45:54,275 BEING AROUND FAST FOOD FOR THE NEXT FEW DAYS 934 00:45:54,275 --> 00:45:58,241 AND NOT EATING IT ISN'T GONNA BE EASY. 935 00:45:58,241 --> 00:46:00,793 I JUST GOT TO REMIND MYSELF OF THE KIDS. 936 00:46:00,793 --> 00:46:03,310 I'M DOING THIS FOR ME, AND FOR THEM, 937 00:46:03,310 --> 00:46:07,482 TO BE THERE FOR THEM, SO I'M GONNA STICK TO MY DIET. 938 00:46:07,482 --> 00:46:11,655 ♪♪ 939 00:46:11,655 --> 00:46:15,862 ♪♪ 940 00:46:15,862 --> 00:46:18,827 WE'VE ONLY BEEN ON THE ROAD FOR A LITTLE OVER AN HOUR, 941 00:46:18,827 --> 00:46:22,689 AND SO FAR, EVERYTHING'S FINE. 942 00:46:22,689 --> 00:46:24,655 IT'S SMOKING. 943 00:46:24,655 --> 00:46:27,793 -WHAT'S SMOKING? -THE TRUCK BRANDON'S DRIVING. 944 00:46:27,793 --> 00:46:30,000 OH, IT'S JUST THE WHEELS. 945 00:46:30,000 --> 00:46:31,758 THEY'RE STOPPING. 946 00:46:31,758 --> 00:46:35,620 Kimoriah: IT'S ON FIRE! OH, MY GOD. 947 00:46:35,620 --> 00:46:37,758 GET OUT, GET OUT, GET OUT! 948 00:46:37,758 --> 00:46:38,965 MAMA, TELL THEM TO GET OUT. 949 00:46:38,965 --> 00:46:40,689 HE STOPPED! WHAT AM I GONNA DO? 950 00:46:40,689 --> 00:46:42,413 TELL THEM TO GET OUT. 951 00:46:42,413 --> 00:46:44,103 Y'ALL ON FIRE! 952 00:46:44,103 --> 00:46:45,241 -IT'S ON FIRE! -IT'S ON FIRE! 953 00:46:45,241 --> 00:46:47,413 -THE CAR! -THE CAR IS? 954 00:46:47,413 --> 00:46:49,689 -NO, THE PULLEY! -IT'S ON FIRE. 955 00:46:49,689 --> 00:46:52,137 IT'S ON FIRE! 956 00:46:52,137 --> 00:46:53,793 GET OUT, GET OUT! 957 00:46:53,793 --> 00:46:55,517 CALL THE FIRE DEPARTMENT. 958 00:46:55,517 --> 00:46:58,068 -OH, MY GOD. -AIN'T NO EXTINGUISHER IN THERE? 959 00:46:58,068 --> 00:47:01,724 -NO. -MY GOD! 960 00:47:01,724 --> 00:47:04,931 IT'S ALWAYS SOMETHING! THE DEVIL'S ALWAYS BUSY. 961 00:47:04,931 --> 00:47:07,034 IN THE NAME OF JESUS... 962 00:47:07,034 --> 00:47:12,620 ♪♪ 963 00:47:12,620 --> 00:47:18,241 ♪♪ 964 00:47:18,241 --> 00:47:20,586 [ SIREN WAILING IN DISTANCE ] 965 00:47:20,586 --> 00:47:23,310 [ FIRE CRACKLING ] 966 00:47:23,310 --> 00:47:28,931 ♪♪ 967 00:47:28,931 --> 00:47:34,586 ♪♪ 968 00:47:34,586 --> 00:47:40,241 ♪♪ 969 00:47:40,241 --> 00:47:45,862 ♪♪ 970 00:47:45,862 --> 00:47:51,517 ♪♪ 971 00:47:51,517 --> 00:47:57,172 ♪♪ 972 00:47:57,172 --> 00:48:01,965 I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS. 973 00:48:01,965 --> 00:48:03,482 IT FEELS LIKE NO MATTER WHAT, 974 00:48:03,482 --> 00:48:07,137 THERE'S GONNA BE SETBACKS TO MAKE IT HARDER. 975 00:48:07,137 --> 00:48:08,448 BECAUSE THIS DELAY MEANS 976 00:48:08,448 --> 00:48:11,172 IT'S PROBABLY GONNA TAKE US LONGER NOW, 977 00:48:11,172 --> 00:48:14,827 SO I'M DISAPPOINTED RIGHT NOW, BUT I'M GLAD NO ONE WAS HURT. 978 00:48:14,827 --> 00:48:18,689 ♪♪ 979 00:48:18,689 --> 00:48:22,620 ♪♪ 980 00:48:22,620 --> 00:48:25,000 WE LOST A WHOLE DAY TO THIS. 981 00:48:25,000 --> 00:48:28,206 BRANDON WAS SEEING IF WE COULD GET A NEW TIRE ON THE TRAILER, 982 00:48:28,206 --> 00:48:30,413 BUT IT'S TOO DAMAGED, SO WE HAVE TO GET THE TRAILER 983 00:48:30,413 --> 00:48:32,586 TOWED BACK TO THE RENTAL PLACE. 984 00:48:32,586 --> 00:48:34,931 SO IT'S JUST BEEN TAKING FOREVER. 985 00:48:34,931 --> 00:48:39,137 AND I'VE BEEN IN THIS CAR WAY TOO LONG AT THIS POINT, 986 00:48:39,137 --> 00:48:43,206 SO WE JUST NEED TO GET A HOTEL AND CALL IT A DAY. 987 00:48:43,206 --> 00:48:47,620 BUT IT'S HARD NOT TO FEEL LIKE THE WORLD IS JUST AGAINST YOU. 988 00:48:47,620 --> 00:48:49,172 AND WHEN WE TRY TO STAND UP TO IT, 989 00:48:49,172 --> 00:48:51,965 IT JUST PUSHES YOU BACK DOWN. 990 00:48:51,965 --> 00:48:54,137 BUT I'M HOPING I COULD JUST GET SOME REST, 991 00:48:54,137 --> 00:48:56,413 AND ONCE I DO, I WON'T BE TOO SORE 992 00:48:56,413 --> 00:48:58,172 AND WE CAN JUST GET BACK ON THE ROAD 993 00:48:58,172 --> 00:49:01,517 AND KEEP GOING WITHOUT ANY MORE ISSUES. 994 00:49:01,517 --> 00:49:03,068 I'M NOT GIVING UP EASILY, 995 00:49:03,068 --> 00:49:05,068 BUT SO FAR, THIS ISN'T GOING WELL, 996 00:49:05,068 --> 00:49:07,896 AND I HOPE THE WORST IS BEHIND US. 997 00:49:07,896 --> 00:49:12,551 ♪♪ 998 00:49:12,551 --> 00:49:17,206 ♪♪ 999 00:49:17,206 --> 00:49:18,758 THANK GOD WE MADE IT HERE. 1000 00:49:18,758 --> 00:49:21,137 BUT IT TOOK LONGER TO DO THIS TRIP THIS TIME 1001 00:49:21,137 --> 00:49:25,551 AND I'M IN A LOT OF PAIN, AND I FEEL MISERABLE. 1002 00:49:25,551 --> 00:49:28,241 FOR MOST OF THE TRIP, I DIDN'T GIVE INTO TEMPTATION, 1003 00:49:28,241 --> 00:49:30,448 SO I HAVEN'T HAD ANYTHING TO HELP ME DEAL 1004 00:49:30,448 --> 00:49:33,620 WITH ALL THE MISERY OF DOING THIS. 1005 00:49:33,620 --> 00:49:36,827 Temeka: HOME SWEET HOME! NOW EVERYBODY GET OUT. 1006 00:49:36,827 --> 00:49:39,034 SO I JUST WANT TO GET OUT AND GET UNLOADED 1007 00:49:39,034 --> 00:49:43,448 AS QUICKLY AS POSSIBLE SO I CAN REST. 1008 00:49:43,448 --> 00:49:45,275 WELL, WE RENTED THIS PLACE ONLINE, 1009 00:49:45,275 --> 00:49:47,482 AND NONE OF US HAVE EVEN SEEN IT, 1010 00:49:47,482 --> 00:49:49,379 SO I'M NOT SURE WHAT TO EXPECT. 1011 00:49:49,379 --> 00:49:51,275 HEY, MER, YOU MIGHT HAVE TO WALK OVER TO HERE 1012 00:49:51,275 --> 00:49:53,413 BECAUSE THE CHAIR CAN'T FIT. 1013 00:49:53,413 --> 00:49:55,379 NO. GET MY WHEELCHAIR INSIDE. 1014 00:49:55,379 --> 00:49:59,517 I'M GONNA TRY TO WALK. 1015 00:49:59,517 --> 00:50:02,620 THE ONLY THING I KNOW IS, I GOT A UNIT THAT IS A CLOSE 1016 00:50:02,620 --> 00:50:04,724 TO THE CAR AS POSSIBLE, 1017 00:50:04,724 --> 00:50:07,551 AND ON THE FIRST FLOOR SO I DON'T HAVE TO WALK MUCH 1018 00:50:07,551 --> 00:50:09,275 TO GET IN OR OUT. 1019 00:50:09,275 --> 00:50:11,241 HOW EVERYTHING ELSE IS GONNA WORK FOR ME 1020 00:50:11,241 --> 00:50:13,758 IS A MYSTERY RIGHT NOW. 1021 00:50:13,758 --> 00:50:16,448 I JUST HOPE ALL THE ROOMS ARE AS BIG AS THEY SAID, 1022 00:50:16,448 --> 00:50:21,586 BECAUSE I HAVE TO BE ABLE TO FIT EVERYWHERE. 1023 00:50:21,586 --> 00:50:23,896 THAT [BLEEP] HURT. 1024 00:50:26,965 --> 00:50:29,275 Brandon: THIS IS NICE. 1025 00:50:29,275 --> 00:50:32,482 [ PANTING ] 1026 00:50:35,724 --> 00:50:37,724 IT'S TOO TIGHT IN HERE, AIN'T IT? 1027 00:50:37,724 --> 00:50:40,241 THERE AIN'T NO [BLEEP] ROOM. 1028 00:50:44,689 --> 00:50:46,689 [ GROANS ] 1029 00:50:46,689 --> 00:50:48,965 ALL RIGHT. 1030 00:50:48,965 --> 00:50:54,137 [ BREATHING HEAVILY ] 1031 00:50:54,137 --> 00:50:56,137 LITTLE BITTY KITCHEN. 1032 00:50:56,137 --> 00:50:57,689 YEP. 1033 00:50:57,689 --> 00:50:59,379 JUST TEMPORARY, THOUGH. 1034 00:50:59,379 --> 00:51:02,793 AND A FRIDGE. 1035 00:51:02,793 --> 00:51:04,620 I AM COMPLETELY WIPED, 1036 00:51:04,620 --> 00:51:07,689 BUT I'M PROUD OF MYSELF FOR MAKING IT AND NOT GIVING UP, 1037 00:51:07,689 --> 00:51:08,965 NO MATTER WHAT I FACED. 1038 00:51:08,965 --> 00:51:10,379 ALL RIGHT, START GRABBIN'. 1039 00:51:10,379 --> 00:51:13,931 START GRABBIN' STUFF. COME ON, Y'ALL. 1040 00:51:13,931 --> 00:51:16,827 SO I'M GONNA CALL DR. NOW AND TELL HIM I'M HERE 1041 00:51:16,827 --> 00:51:19,241 AND SET UP MY APPOINTMENT TO GO SEE HIM. 1042 00:51:19,241 --> 00:51:21,931 AND I'M CONFIDENT I'M GONNA HAVE GOOD PROGRESS, 1043 00:51:21,931 --> 00:51:25,103 AND I THINK IT'S GONNA BE ENOUGH TO GET WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1044 00:51:25,103 --> 00:51:28,724 AND ONCE I GET THAT, THINGS WILL START TO GET EVEN EASIER, 1045 00:51:28,724 --> 00:51:30,620 SO I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO THAT 1046 00:51:30,620 --> 00:51:32,689 AND THE NEW LIFE I'M GONNA HAVE SOON 1047 00:51:32,689 --> 00:51:34,827 ONCE I LOSE THE WEIGHT. 1048 00:51:34,827 --> 00:51:35,275 ♪♪ 1049 00:51:39,448 --> 00:51:43,310 ♪♪ 1050 00:51:43,310 --> 00:51:46,827 ♪♪ 1051 00:51:46,827 --> 00:51:48,379 Mercedes: IT'S BEEN A COUPLE DAYS 1052 00:51:48,379 --> 00:51:49,793 SINCE WE'VE BEEN IN HOUSTON, 1053 00:51:49,793 --> 00:51:53,517 AND WE'RE STILL WORKING ON GETTING SETTLED IN. 1054 00:51:53,517 --> 00:51:56,172 BUT RIGHT NOW, I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO SHOWING DR. NOW 1055 00:51:56,172 --> 00:51:57,896 MY PROGRESS, 1056 00:51:57,896 --> 00:51:59,379 AND THEN HOPEFULLY GETTING APPROVED 1057 00:51:59,379 --> 00:52:02,517 FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY TODAY. 1058 00:52:02,517 --> 00:52:05,241 MERCEDES? 1059 00:52:05,241 --> 00:52:07,827 MY LAST APPOINTMENT WAS A LITTLE WHILE AGO, 1060 00:52:07,827 --> 00:52:10,620 AND I WAS UP TO 773 POUNDS. 1061 00:52:10,620 --> 00:52:12,413 THAT SHOCKED ME. 1062 00:52:12,413 --> 00:52:16,517 BUT DR. NOW TOLD ME TO LOSE 80 POUNDS IN ONE MONTH, 1063 00:52:16,517 --> 00:52:19,413 AND IF I DO THAT, I'LL BE AT 693 TODAY. 1064 00:52:19,413 --> 00:52:22,965 ♪♪ 1065 00:52:22,965 --> 00:52:26,517 ♪♪ 1066 00:52:26,517 --> 00:52:27,413 Brandon: [ CLAPPING ] 1067 00:52:27,413 --> 00:52:30,896 [ LAUGHTER ] 1068 00:52:30,896 --> 00:52:35,068 YOU LOST SOME, BABY! 1069 00:52:35,068 --> 00:52:37,068 YEAH, BUDDY. HOLD ON. 1070 00:52:37,068 --> 00:52:40,758 THE LOSS ISN'T AS MUCH AS IT FELT LIKE IT WAS GONNA BE, 1071 00:52:40,758 --> 00:52:43,724 BUT IT'S MORE WEIGHT THAN I'VE EVER LOST. 1072 00:52:43,724 --> 00:52:46,344 I THINK IT'S PROOF OF HOW HARD I'M WORKING, 1073 00:52:46,344 --> 00:52:48,724 ESPECIALLY WITH EVERYTHING I HAD TO DEAL WITH 1074 00:52:48,724 --> 00:52:50,896 WITH MOVING AND GETTING DOWN HERE, 1075 00:52:50,896 --> 00:52:53,862 AND HOW MUCH TEMPTATION I RESISTED DURING ALL THAT. 1076 00:52:53,862 --> 00:52:54,965 IT'S IMPRESSIVE, 1077 00:52:54,965 --> 00:52:58,827 EVEN IF IT'S NOT AS MUCH AS DR. NOW SAID. 1078 00:52:58,827 --> 00:53:00,620 AND I THINK DR. NOW WILL APPRECIATE 1079 00:53:00,620 --> 00:53:03,275 THAT PROGRESS AND APPROVE ME. 1080 00:53:03,275 --> 00:53:06,172 ♪♪ 1081 00:53:06,172 --> 00:53:10,896 [ SIGHS ] 1082 00:53:10,896 --> 00:53:12,379 HELLO. HOW Y'ALL DOIN'? 1083 00:53:12,379 --> 00:53:14,103 ALL RIGHT. HOW YOU DOIN' TODAY? 1084 00:53:14,103 --> 00:53:16,620 I'M DOING FINE, THANK YOU. 1085 00:53:16,620 --> 00:53:18,586 I'M GLAD THAT YOU FINALLY MADE IT BACK 1086 00:53:18,586 --> 00:53:20,172 AND YOU MOVED DOWN HERE NOW, 1087 00:53:20,172 --> 00:53:22,344 AND I SEE YOU MADE SOME PROGRESS, MERCEDES, 1088 00:53:22,344 --> 00:53:23,586 BUT NOT A LOT. 1089 00:53:23,586 --> 00:53:25,758 YOU ONLY LOST 45 POUNDS. 1090 00:53:25,758 --> 00:53:28,310 I WAS EXPECTING 80 POUNDS IN ONE MONTH. 1091 00:53:28,310 --> 00:53:31,034 AND ON TOP OF THAT, IT'S BEEN OVER FOUR MONTHS. 1092 00:53:31,034 --> 00:53:32,034 RIGHT. 1093 00:53:32,034 --> 00:53:33,551 AND IF YOU WERE STICKING TO THE DIET, 1094 00:53:33,551 --> 00:53:36,551 THEN YOU WOULD'VE LOST OVER 220 POUNDS IN THAT TIME. 1095 00:53:36,551 --> 00:53:38,103 SO WHAT HAPPENED? 1096 00:53:38,103 --> 00:53:41,344 I CUT OUT A LOT OF STUFF, BUT... 1097 00:53:41,344 --> 00:53:43,310 BUT THERE'S STILL A LOT MORE TO GO? 1098 00:53:43,310 --> 00:53:45,689 YEAH, A LOT MORE TO GO. 1099 00:53:45,689 --> 00:53:48,241 AT LEAST THAT'S A BIT OF AN HONEST ANSWER, 1100 00:53:48,241 --> 00:53:50,137 BUT WE STILL HAVE THE SAME PROBLEM, 1101 00:53:50,137 --> 00:53:52,551 THAT YOU DON'T HAVE A LOT OF TIME TO WASTE. 1102 00:53:52,551 --> 00:53:55,275 AND IF YOU DON'T GET YOUR WEIGHT DOWN SIGNIFICANTLY 1103 00:53:55,275 --> 00:53:58,379 AND GET MORE MOBILE, YOU'RE NOT GONNA MAKE IT. 1104 00:53:58,379 --> 00:54:00,137 YOUR CONDITION, ESPECIALLY YOUR HEART, 1105 00:54:00,137 --> 00:54:02,655 IS ALREADY IN REALLY BAD SHAPE. 1106 00:54:02,655 --> 00:54:04,793 AND YOU'RE NOWHERE NEAR WHERE YOU NEED 1107 00:54:04,793 --> 00:54:05,862 TO GET WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, 1108 00:54:05,862 --> 00:54:08,689 BECAUSE WITH YOUR HEIGHT AND YOUR BMI, 1109 00:54:08,689 --> 00:54:10,275 YOU'RE NOT GONNA SURVIVE SURGERY. 1110 00:54:10,275 --> 00:54:11,413 -OKAY. -OKAY? 1111 00:54:11,413 --> 00:54:12,758 SO WE'VE GOT A LONG WAY TO GO. 1112 00:54:12,758 --> 00:54:13,758 OKAY. 1113 00:54:13,758 --> 00:54:15,862 AND FROM EXPERIENCE WITH SURGERY, 1114 00:54:15,862 --> 00:54:19,344 WE KNOW YOU GET THE STAPH INFECTION ALL THE TIME, 1115 00:54:19,344 --> 00:54:22,517 SO, THAT'S A PRODUCT OF BEING OVERWEIGHT, 1116 00:54:22,517 --> 00:54:24,172 AND WE NEED TO CORRECT THAT. 1117 00:54:24,172 --> 00:54:25,137 RIGHT. 1118 00:54:25,137 --> 00:54:26,896 HAVE YOU HAD ANY ISSUES BREATHING, 1119 00:54:26,896 --> 00:54:29,551 OR ANY PAIN ANYWHERE THAT'S NEW? 1120 00:54:29,551 --> 00:54:31,206 -NO. -THAT'S GOOD. 1121 00:54:31,206 --> 00:54:34,310 IT'S VERY IMPORTANT THAT IF YOU HAVE ANY ISSUES, 1122 00:54:34,310 --> 00:54:36,137 LET ME KNOW IMMEDIATELY, 1123 00:54:36,137 --> 00:54:38,241 BECAUSE IF YOU IGNORE AN ISSUE, 1124 00:54:38,241 --> 00:54:40,689 IT COULD QUICKLY BECOME LIFE-THREATENING FOR YOU. 1125 00:54:40,689 --> 00:54:43,379 SO DON'T TAKE ANY CHANCES, OKAY? 1126 00:54:43,379 --> 00:54:44,758 OKAY. 1127 00:54:44,758 --> 00:54:45,827 ASIDE FROM LOSING WEIGHT, 1128 00:54:45,827 --> 00:54:47,310 IT IS VERY IMPORTANT FOR YOU 1129 00:54:47,310 --> 00:54:49,620 TO STRENGTHEN YOUR PULMONARY SYSTEM 1130 00:54:49,620 --> 00:54:51,344 AND YOUR FUNCTIONAL CAPACITY. 1131 00:54:51,344 --> 00:54:53,655 SO YOU NEED TO GET AS ACTIVE AS POSSIBLE. 1132 00:54:53,655 --> 00:54:56,413 SO, HOW IS YOUR EXERCISE? 1133 00:54:56,413 --> 00:54:57,448 I'M WALKING BETTER. 1134 00:54:57,448 --> 00:54:58,896 I'M NOT USING A WALKER. 1135 00:54:58,896 --> 00:55:01,827 ALL RIGHT. WELL, THAT'S GOOD PROGRESS. 1136 00:55:01,827 --> 00:55:03,758 SO, KEEP DOING THE EXERCISES. 1137 00:55:03,758 --> 00:55:05,310 BUT THAT'S NOT GONNA BE ENOUGH 1138 00:55:05,310 --> 00:55:07,827 IF YOU DON'T START LOSING THE WEIGHT YOU NEED. 1139 00:55:07,827 --> 00:55:10,448 AND, 45 POUNDS IN FOUR MONTHS, 1140 00:55:10,448 --> 00:55:12,586 I KNOW YOU CAN DO BETTER THAN THAT, 1141 00:55:12,586 --> 00:55:13,896 SO I'M GONNA GIVE THE SAME GOAL. 1142 00:55:13,896 --> 00:55:16,448 I WANT YOU TO LOSE 80 POUNDS FOR NEXT MONTH, OKAY? 1143 00:55:16,448 --> 00:55:17,793 OKAY. 1144 00:55:17,793 --> 00:55:19,896 YOU ALREADY WASTED FAR MORE TIME THAN YOU SHOULD, 1145 00:55:19,896 --> 00:55:22,275 SO DO THIS NOW BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE. 1146 00:55:22,275 --> 00:55:24,758 OKAY. 1147 00:55:24,758 --> 00:55:26,931 Dr. Nowzaradan: I'M VERY CONCERNED ABOUT MERCEDES, 1148 00:55:26,931 --> 00:55:28,517 AND WHETHER OR NOT SHE'S GONNA DO 1149 00:55:28,517 --> 00:55:30,827 WHAT SHE NEEDS BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE. 1150 00:55:30,827 --> 00:55:33,965 AND IF HER CONDITION DETERIORATES ANY FURTHER, 1151 00:55:33,965 --> 00:55:35,551 WE MAY HAVE TO INTERVENE 1152 00:55:35,551 --> 00:55:38,689 AND START TAKING DRASTIC MEASURES TO SAVE HER LIFE. 1153 00:55:38,689 --> 00:55:42,310 BECAUSE SHE CAN'T AFFORD TO LET HER HEALTH GET ANY WORSE. 1154 00:55:42,310 --> 00:55:45,137 SHE WON'T BE ALIVE MUCH LONGER IF SHE DOES. 1155 00:55:45,137 --> 00:55:48,448 SO IT'S VITAL THAT SHE STARTS TO DO WHAT SHE NEEDS RIGHT NOW 1156 00:55:48,448 --> 00:55:52,000 IF SHE WANTS TO HAVE ANY CHANCE AT SURVIVING. 1157 00:55:52,000 --> 00:55:54,413 ALL RIGHT, MERCEDES, I WANT TO GET SOME TESTS ON YOU 1158 00:55:54,413 --> 00:55:56,793 TO MAKE SURE NO NEW ISSUES DEVELOPED 1159 00:55:56,793 --> 00:55:58,206 THAT WE NEED TO ADDRESS. 1160 00:55:58,206 --> 00:55:59,000 OKAY. 1161 00:55:59,000 --> 00:56:00,482 AND IF EVERYTHING LOOKS GOOD, 1162 00:56:00,482 --> 00:56:01,379 WE'LL SEND YOU HOME. 1163 00:56:01,379 --> 00:56:02,758 BUT IF YOU NEED ANYTHING, 1164 00:56:02,758 --> 00:56:05,482 OR YOU HAVE ANY MEDICAL ISSUES, EVEN A COLD, 1165 00:56:05,482 --> 00:56:07,586 YOU NEED TO LET ME KNOW, OKAY? 1166 00:56:07,586 --> 00:56:09,034 -OKAY. -OKAY, GOOD. 1167 00:56:09,034 --> 00:56:11,344 SIT TIGHT. WE'LL DO THE TESTS SHORTLY. 1168 00:56:11,344 --> 00:56:13,586 -AND, NICE TO SEE YOU. -ALL RIGHT. THANK YOU. 1169 00:56:13,586 --> 00:56:15,655 -NICE SEEING YOU, TOO. -GOOD SEEING YOU, DOC. 1170 00:56:15,655 --> 00:56:20,379 ♪♪ 1171 00:56:20,379 --> 00:56:22,517 I'M A LITTLE DISAPPOINTED. 1172 00:56:22,517 --> 00:56:24,379 I WANT TO GET WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, 1173 00:56:24,379 --> 00:56:27,344 BUT I CAN UNDERSTAND DR. NOW'S PERSPECTIVE, 1174 00:56:27,344 --> 00:56:30,000 AND I CAN'T ARGUE WITH NEEDING TO GET MY HEALTH 1175 00:56:30,000 --> 00:56:32,379 IN A BETTER PLACE TO DO THAT. 1176 00:56:32,379 --> 00:56:34,793 DR. NOW'S GOALS ARE BIG. 1177 00:56:34,793 --> 00:56:37,586 LOSING 80 POUNDS A MONTH? IT'S A HUGE NUMBER. 1178 00:56:37,586 --> 00:56:40,448 BUT IT'S POSSIBLE. I'M SURE I CAN DO IT. 1179 00:56:40,448 --> 00:56:44,034 ♪♪ 1180 00:56:44,034 --> 00:56:47,586 ♪♪ 1181 00:56:47,586 --> 00:56:50,310 READY, SET, GO. 1182 00:56:50,310 --> 00:56:54,758 OOH, MY SOCKS IS OFF. [ GRUNTING ] 1183 00:56:54,758 --> 00:56:56,793 REST. 1184 00:56:56,793 --> 00:56:58,206 COME ALL THE WAY UP. COME ON. 1185 00:56:58,206 --> 00:57:00,896 THIS IS MY LAST APPOINTMENT WITH DR. NOW. 1186 00:57:00,896 --> 00:57:05,344 I'VE BEEN WORKING ON WAYS TO DO BETTER THIS TIME. 1187 00:57:05,344 --> 00:57:09,310 I'M MAKING SURE I GET UP EVERY DAY WITHOUT AN EXCUSE. 1188 00:57:09,310 --> 00:57:11,137 AND I FEEL LIKE I'M MAKING MORE PROGRESS 1189 00:57:11,137 --> 00:57:12,586 WITH HOW FAR I CAN WALK, 1190 00:57:12,586 --> 00:57:15,724 BECAUSE I CAN WALK ALL THE WAY FROM MY ROOM TO THE OUTSIDE 1191 00:57:15,724 --> 00:57:19,068 WITHOUT HAVING TO SIT DOWN. 1192 00:57:19,068 --> 00:57:22,620 SO I'M ABLE TO GO FARTHER THAN I HAVE IN A REALLY LONG TIME. 1193 00:57:22,620 --> 00:57:24,586 AND IT'S NICE TO BE ABLE TO GET OUTSIDE 1194 00:57:24,586 --> 00:57:26,758 TO DO THINGS WITH MY KIDS. 1195 00:57:26,758 --> 00:57:29,724 AND I LIKE BEING ABLE TO WATCH THEM PLAY. 1196 00:57:29,724 --> 00:57:33,103 SEEING THAT GIVES ME MOTIVATION TO KEEP WORKING HARD AT THIS 1197 00:57:33,103 --> 00:57:35,379 SO I CAN SUCCEED. 1198 00:57:35,379 --> 00:57:37,896 -MAMA, I'M FASTER THAN HER. -'CAUSE YOU CHEATED. 1199 00:57:37,896 --> 00:57:39,620 'CAUSE I GOT THIS, AND HE GOT THAT. 1200 00:57:39,620 --> 00:57:42,137 [ Chuckling ] OOH, PLEASE, DON'T RUN OVER MY TOE. 1201 00:57:42,137 --> 00:57:45,379 MOM, LOOK, LOOK! LOOK HOW FAST I MADE IT. 1202 00:57:45,379 --> 00:57:48,689 [ LAUGHTER ] 1203 00:57:48,689 --> 00:57:53,275 COME ON, WE GOT TO GO BACK IN. 1204 00:57:53,275 --> 00:57:58,103 BRANDON AND TEMEKA HAD TO GO OUT OF TOWN FOR THIS PAST WEEK 1205 00:57:58,103 --> 00:57:59,931 TO TAKE CARE OF SOME THINGS BACK HOME, 1206 00:57:59,931 --> 00:58:03,586 SO WE'VE BEEN ON OUR OWN. 1207 00:58:03,586 --> 00:58:06,862 SO THIS HAS BEEN THE HARDEST WEEK TO STICK TO THE DIET, 1208 00:58:06,862 --> 00:58:11,172 BECAUSE I CAN'T GO OUT AND GET STUFF. 1209 00:58:11,172 --> 00:58:13,965 SO MY ONLY OPTION IS FOR KIMORIAH TO GO DOWN THE STREET 1210 00:58:13,965 --> 00:58:17,448 AND GET SOME FOOD FOR US. 1211 00:58:17,448 --> 00:58:19,655 I HAVE TWO MORE WEEKS UNTIL MY NEXT APPOINTMENT 1212 00:58:19,655 --> 00:58:22,551 WITH DR. NOW. 1213 00:58:22,551 --> 00:58:24,827 AND I THINK I'M GONNA HAVE BETTER RESULTS 1214 00:58:24,827 --> 00:58:26,827 THIS TIME THAN LAST TIME, 1215 00:58:26,827 --> 00:58:30,896 AND THAT I'LL BE WHERE DR. NOW WANTS ME TO BE, 1216 00:58:30,896 --> 00:58:32,206 SO I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO THAT 1217 00:58:32,206 --> 00:58:35,344 AND SEEING HOW MUCH PROGRESS I MADE, THEN. 1218 00:58:35,344 --> 00:58:39,379 ♪♪ 1219 00:58:39,379 --> 00:58:43,413 ♪♪ 1220 00:58:43,413 --> 00:58:47,482 ♪♪ 1221 00:58:47,482 --> 00:58:51,137 TODAY, I'M SUPPOSED TO HAVE MY NEXT APPOINTMENT WITH DR. NOW. 1222 00:58:51,137 --> 00:58:52,965 BRANDON IS BACK WITH ME IN HOUSTON, 1223 00:58:52,965 --> 00:58:57,172 AND WE WAS GONNA TAKE ME TODAY, BUT I'M NOT GONNA BE ABLE TO. 1224 00:58:57,172 --> 00:59:00,310 THE PROBLEM IS, I'M HAVING A REALLY BAD PERIOD, 1225 00:59:00,310 --> 00:59:03,517 AND WHEN YOU'RE MY SIZE, YOU'RE TOO BIG TO USE ANY PRODUCTS 1226 00:59:03,517 --> 00:59:05,896 TO HELP YOU WITH THAT. 1227 00:59:05,896 --> 00:59:07,724 SO TO BE JUST BLUNT ABOUT IT, 1228 00:59:07,724 --> 00:59:12,241 I CAN'T MANAGE IT AND I'VE SOILED ALL MY UNDERGARMENTS. 1229 00:59:12,241 --> 00:59:14,827 SO, FOR ONE, I HAVE NOTHING TO WEAR. 1230 00:59:14,827 --> 00:59:17,275 AND THE SECOND ISSUE IS, I STILL HAVE A LOT OF BLEEDING 1231 00:59:17,275 --> 00:59:20,931 THAT I CAN'T CONTROL, SO I HAVE NO CHOICE. 1232 00:59:20,931 --> 00:59:22,137 I CAN'T GO OUT. 1233 00:59:22,137 --> 00:59:25,379 I'LL JUST HAVE TO RESCHEDULE WITH DR. NOW. 1234 00:59:25,379 --> 00:59:27,034 I DON'T WANT ANY DELAYS 1235 00:59:27,034 --> 00:59:29,344 BECAUSE I WANT TO GET WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, 1236 00:59:29,344 --> 00:59:32,620 AND I'M CONFIDENT IN MY PROGRESS IN WHERE IT NEEDS TO BE, 1237 00:59:32,620 --> 00:59:35,275 BUT I JUST HOPE DR. NOW ISN'T TOO UPSET 1238 00:59:35,275 --> 00:59:38,482 OR THINKS I'M PLAYING GAMES, LIKE HE SAID. 1239 00:59:38,482 --> 00:59:40,068 BECAUSE I'M NOT. 1240 00:59:40,068 --> 00:59:42,620 BUT THIS IS JUST ONE OF THOSE THINGS LIFE'S THROWING AT ME, 1241 00:59:42,620 --> 00:59:44,275 AND I WON'T LET IT KEEP ME DOWN. 1242 00:59:44,275 --> 00:59:46,000 'CAUSE I'M GONNA GET TO WHERE I NEED 1243 00:59:46,000 --> 00:59:48,896 AND DO THIS NO MATTER THE SETBACKS I FACE. 1244 00:59:48,896 --> 00:59:51,103 BUT RIGHT NOW, I JUST NEED A LITTLE MORE TIME. 1245 00:59:55,827 --> 01:00:00,068 ♪♪ 1246 01:00:00,068 --> 01:00:04,344 ♪♪ 1247 01:00:04,344 --> 01:00:06,275 LET'S... 1248 01:00:06,275 --> 01:00:09,379 CAN YOU GO UP THROUGH THE DOOR WITH THE CHAIR? 1249 01:00:09,379 --> 01:00:12,068 Mercedes: RIGHT NOW, ME, BRANDON, AND MY FRIEND CHRISTINA 1250 01:00:12,068 --> 01:00:15,793 ARE AT DR. NOW'S FOR MY THIRD APPOINTMENT. 1251 01:00:15,793 --> 01:00:18,758 CHRISTINA IS AN OLD FRIEND OF MINE I KNEW GROWING UP, 1252 01:00:18,758 --> 01:00:22,448 AND SHE WOULD CHECK ON ME FROM TIME TO TIME. 1253 01:00:22,448 --> 01:00:24,689 AND WITH ALL THE PROBLEMS I WAS HAVING LAST MONTH, 1254 01:00:24,689 --> 01:00:26,206 SHE CAME TO HELP OUT. 1255 01:00:26,206 --> 01:00:31,827 BECAUSE TEMEKA HAD TO GO BACK HOME TO DEAL WITH SOME THINGS. 1256 01:00:31,827 --> 01:00:34,482 MERCEDES? 1257 01:00:34,482 --> 01:00:38,517 AT MY LAST APPOINTMENT, I HAD MADE IT DOWN TO 728, 1258 01:00:38,517 --> 01:00:41,000 AND DR. NOW GAVE ME THE SAME GOAL 1259 01:00:41,000 --> 01:00:42,724 OF LOSING 80 POUNDS IN A MONTH, 1260 01:00:42,724 --> 01:00:46,551 AND IF I DID THAT, IT HAD ME AT 648. 1261 01:00:46,551 --> 01:00:48,034 BUT SINCE IT'S BEEN TWO MONTHS, 1262 01:00:48,034 --> 01:00:51,172 I'M HOPING TO SEE THAT I MADE IT IN THE LOW 600s, 1263 01:00:51,172 --> 01:00:53,517 TO SHOW DR. NOW I KEPT WORKING HARD. 1264 01:00:53,517 --> 01:00:58,827 ♪♪ 1265 01:00:58,827 --> 01:01:01,620 ♪♪ 1266 01:01:01,620 --> 01:01:04,310 [ SIGHS ] 1267 01:01:04,310 --> 01:01:07,103 Christina: IT'S OKAY. JUST TAKE YOUR TIME. 1268 01:01:07,103 --> 01:01:11,931 ♪♪ 1269 01:01:11,931 --> 01:01:14,034 RIGHT HERE. RIGHT BEHIND YOU. 1270 01:01:14,034 --> 01:01:16,137 -OW! -WHAT? WHAT? WHAT? 1271 01:01:16,137 --> 01:01:17,344 COME BACK. LET'S COME BACK. 1272 01:01:17,344 --> 01:01:18,931 [ Crying ] I CAN'T. MY KNEE. 1273 01:01:18,931 --> 01:01:21,517 I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. SIT BACK. 1274 01:01:21,517 --> 01:01:22,206 JUST SIT BACK. 1275 01:01:22,206 --> 01:01:22,896 YEAH, I DON'T... 1276 01:01:22,896 --> 01:01:24,448 I KNOW. JUST GO ON BACK. 1277 01:01:24,448 --> 01:01:25,862 JUST AHEAD AND FALL BACK. 1278 01:01:25,862 --> 01:01:27,931 JUST GO ON BACK. 1279 01:01:27,931 --> 01:01:30,482 GO ON BACK. 1280 01:01:30,482 --> 01:01:34,586 ♪♪ 1281 01:01:34,586 --> 01:01:38,689 ♪♪ 1282 01:01:38,689 --> 01:01:42,793 I DON'T UNDERSTAND THAT. 1283 01:01:42,793 --> 01:01:44,896 THAT NUMBER CAN'T BE RIGHT, 1284 01:01:44,896 --> 01:01:47,172 BECAUSE IT DOESN'T REFLECT ALL THE HARD WORK 1285 01:01:47,172 --> 01:01:50,724 I KNOW I DID AND THE PROGRESS I CAN FEEL IN MY BODY. 1286 01:01:50,724 --> 01:01:54,000 ♪♪ 1287 01:01:54,000 --> 01:01:55,931 THE ONLY THING I CAN THINK OF IS THE WEEK 1288 01:01:55,931 --> 01:01:59,655 BRANDON HAD TO GO, AND WHAT I HAD TO EAT THEN. 1289 01:01:59,655 --> 01:02:03,034 BUT I KNOW DR. NOW'S NOT GONNA BE HAPPY. 1290 01:02:03,034 --> 01:02:04,965 AND NO MATTER WHAT I SAY OR TELL HIM, 1291 01:02:04,965 --> 01:02:06,931 HE'S NOT GONNA BELIEVE THAT I WORKED AS HARD 1292 01:02:06,931 --> 01:02:09,448 AS I KNOW I DID. 1293 01:02:09,448 --> 01:02:14,689 ♪♪ 1294 01:02:14,689 --> 01:02:16,655 [ KNOCKS ON DOOR ] 1295 01:02:16,655 --> 01:02:17,379 -HELLO. -HEY. 1296 01:02:17,379 --> 01:02:19,206 HOW Y'ALL DOIN'? 1297 01:02:19,206 --> 01:02:21,241 -ALL RIGHT. -ALL RIGHT. 1298 01:02:21,241 --> 01:02:24,103 ALL RIGHT, MERCEDES, YOUR SITUATION JUST SEEMS TO BE 1299 01:02:24,103 --> 01:02:26,034 GETTING MORE AND MORE SERIOUS. 1300 01:02:26,034 --> 01:02:28,965 AND NOW YOU SHOW UP AND NOT ONLY DID YOU NOT LOSE ANYTHING, 1301 01:02:28,965 --> 01:02:30,517 YOU GAINED EIGHT POUNDS. 1302 01:02:30,517 --> 01:02:32,827 SO YOU WANT TO TELL ME WHAT'S GOING ON? 1303 01:02:32,827 --> 01:02:35,620 I KNOW THERE'S NO EXCUSE, BUT MY COUSIN, HE LEFT, 1304 01:02:35,620 --> 01:02:37,620 AND WE DIDN'T GET TO GET FOOD BEFORE HE LEFT, 1305 01:02:37,620 --> 01:02:40,551 SO I HAD TO ORDER IN. 1306 01:02:40,551 --> 01:02:43,000 WHY DIDN'T YOU ORDER HEALTHY FOOD THEN? 1307 01:02:43,000 --> 01:02:44,724 THE AREA THAT I'M IN, 1308 01:02:44,724 --> 01:02:47,068 THEY DON'T DELIVER AFTER A CERTAIN TIME, SO... 1309 01:02:47,068 --> 01:02:49,827 YOU SPENT TWO MONTHS COMING UP WITH EXCUSES, 1310 01:02:49,827 --> 01:02:51,517 AND THE BEST YOU CAN COME UP WITH 1311 01:02:51,517 --> 01:02:55,068 IS YOU LIVE IN A NO-SALAD ZONE I DON'T KNOW ABOUT? 1312 01:02:55,068 --> 01:02:55,931 YEAH. 1313 01:02:55,931 --> 01:02:57,379 WHAT DO YOU MEAN "YES"? 1314 01:02:57,379 --> 01:02:58,448 DON'T GIVE ME THAT. 1315 01:02:58,448 --> 01:03:00,827 RIGHT NOW, YOU'RE 736 POUNDS. 1316 01:03:00,827 --> 01:03:04,172 SO, YOU'RE DANGEROUSLY OVERWEIGHT. 1317 01:03:04,172 --> 01:03:07,068 AND YOU'RE VERY CLOSE TO ONE THING GOING WRONG WITH YOU 1318 01:03:07,068 --> 01:03:08,655 AND YOUR BODY GIVING OUT. 1319 01:03:08,655 --> 01:03:11,413 AND ONCE THAT HAPPENS, YOU'RE NOT GONNA PULL THROUGH. 1320 01:03:11,413 --> 01:03:12,931 YOU'RE NOT GONNA SURVIVE THAT. 1321 01:03:12,931 --> 01:03:15,827 AND WE'RE ABOUT TO HAVE TO TAKE A DRASTIC STEP 1322 01:03:15,827 --> 01:03:17,793 BY PUTTING YOU IN THE HOSPITAL FOR MONTHS 1323 01:03:17,793 --> 01:03:20,241 ON A CONTROLLED DIET TO SAVE YOUR LIFE. 1324 01:03:20,241 --> 01:03:22,241 NO. THAT'S NOT AN OPTION FOR ME. 1325 01:03:22,241 --> 01:03:25,655 THEN YOU CAN EITHER WAKE UP AND DO WHAT YOU NEED NOW, 1326 01:03:25,655 --> 01:03:27,275 OR THAT'S IT FOR YOU. 1327 01:03:27,275 --> 01:03:31,103 BECAUSE NO MATTER WHAT WE DO, IT'S GONNA BE ALL UP TO YOU. 1328 01:03:31,103 --> 01:03:32,137 RIGHT. 1329 01:03:32,137 --> 01:03:34,068 SO, THIS IS WHAT WE'RE GONNA DO -- 1330 01:03:34,068 --> 01:03:36,551 I'M GONNA GIVE YOU ONE MORE CHANCE. 1331 01:03:36,551 --> 01:03:39,379 WE'RE GONNA RUN SOME TESTS ON YOU AGAIN BEFORE YOU GO, 1332 01:03:39,379 --> 01:03:41,068 THEN WE'LL SEND YOU HOME. 1333 01:03:41,068 --> 01:03:43,586 AND I WANT YOU TO START GOING TO PSYCHOTHERAPY 1334 01:03:43,586 --> 01:03:45,206 THAT WE'RE GONNA SET UP FOR YOU. 1335 01:03:45,206 --> 01:03:48,137 BUT I'M NOT SETTING ANOTHER APPOINTMENT WITH YOU HERE. 1336 01:03:48,137 --> 01:03:50,620 SETTING AN APPOINTMENT WITH YOU DOESN'T SEEM TO WORK 1337 01:03:50,620 --> 01:03:52,241 BECAUSE YOU COME BACK WHENEVER. 1338 01:03:52,241 --> 01:03:54,896 SO YOU CALL AND SET AN APPOINTMENT WHEN YOU'RE READY, 1339 01:03:54,896 --> 01:03:58,344 WITH THESE TWO CONDITIONS -- FOR THE FIRST MONTH FROM TODAY, 1340 01:03:58,344 --> 01:04:00,275 I WANT YOU TO LOSE 80 POUNDS, 1341 01:04:00,275 --> 01:04:02,793 AND THEN FOR EVERY MONTH AFTER THAT, 1342 01:04:02,793 --> 01:04:05,241 I WANT YOU TO LOSE ANOTHER 40 POUNDS. 1343 01:04:05,241 --> 01:04:07,034 AND THE SECOND CONDITION IS -- 1344 01:04:07,034 --> 01:04:09,586 YOU CAN'T TAKE MORE THAN THREE MONTHS. 1345 01:04:09,586 --> 01:04:11,689 BECAUSE BEYOND THAT IS TOO LONG TO GO 1346 01:04:11,689 --> 01:04:13,655 WITHOUT US GETTING A CHECK-UP ON YOU. 1347 01:04:13,655 --> 01:04:16,137 -DO YOU UNDERSTAND? -YES. I UNDERSTAND. 1348 01:04:16,137 --> 01:04:19,241 GREAT. BECAUSE IF YOU DON'T DO ONE OF THOSE OPTIONS, 1349 01:04:19,241 --> 01:04:21,758 THERE IS NOTHING MORE WE CAN DO FOR YOU. 1350 01:04:21,758 --> 01:04:24,413 BUT EVERYTHING IS GONNA BE UP TO YOU 1351 01:04:24,413 --> 01:04:27,655 TO GET YOUR WEIGHT DOWN AS QUICK AS POSSIBLE. 1352 01:04:27,655 --> 01:04:30,379 SO, NO MORE SAYING YOU'RE GONNA DO IT LATER. 1353 01:04:30,379 --> 01:04:31,931 YOU HAVE TO DO THIS NOW. 1354 01:04:31,931 --> 01:04:34,620 BECAUSE SOME TIME LATER, IT MAY NEVER COME. 1355 01:04:34,620 --> 01:04:36,793 -NAH, IT'S GONNA COME. -OKAY. 1356 01:04:36,793 --> 01:04:38,689 SO, GET SERIOUS ABOUT YOUR DIET, OKAY? 1357 01:04:38,689 --> 01:04:40,896 -I KNOW. -NO BREAD. 1358 01:04:40,896 --> 01:04:44,344 -NO CARBS. -ALL RIGHT? 1359 01:04:44,344 --> 01:04:47,206 WE'LL GET THE TESTS STARTED AND SEE WHERE WE GO FROM THERE. 1360 01:04:47,206 --> 01:04:48,965 ANYTHING ELSE YOU NEED? 1361 01:04:48,965 --> 01:04:50,793 NO. THAT'S IT. 1362 01:04:50,793 --> 01:04:52,206 ALL RIGHT. SEE Y'ALL LATER. 1363 01:04:52,206 --> 01:04:54,068 ALL RIGHT. 1364 01:04:54,068 --> 01:04:55,172 THANKS AGAIN. 1365 01:04:55,172 --> 01:04:57,172 MM-HMM. 1366 01:04:57,172 --> 01:04:59,206 ♪♪ 1367 01:04:59,206 --> 01:05:01,793 Dr. Nowzaradan: MERCEDES IS PLAYING A VERY RISKY GAME, 1368 01:05:01,793 --> 01:05:03,793 BECAUSE THERE IS NO WAY HER BODY 1369 01:05:03,793 --> 01:05:07,206 IS GOING TO BE ABLE TO MAKE IT MUCH LONGER LIKE THIS. 1370 01:05:07,206 --> 01:05:09,620 SO WE'RE GETTING TO A POINT WHERE WE'RE NOT GONNA HAVE 1371 01:05:09,620 --> 01:05:11,965 MANY OPTIONS FOR HER, IF SHE DOESN'T START TO DO 1372 01:05:11,965 --> 01:05:14,896 WHAT SHE SHOULD HAVE ALREADY BEEN DOING. 1373 01:05:14,896 --> 01:05:17,413 YOU NEVER EXPECT A PATIENT TO BE ABLE TO DO THIS 1374 01:05:17,413 --> 01:05:20,137 ON THEIR OWN WITHOUT A NUMBER OF TOOLS, 1375 01:05:20,137 --> 01:05:23,000 BUT THE FIRST STEP IS SOMETHING THEY HAVE TO DO. 1376 01:05:23,000 --> 01:05:26,068 SO IF WE INTERVENE TO GET HER HEALTH TO A SAFE PLACE, 1377 01:05:26,068 --> 01:05:29,551 IT'S ONLY GONNA BE A TEMPORARY SOLUTION TO SAVE HER LIFE. 1378 01:05:29,551 --> 01:05:31,758 BECAUSE SHE WILL JUST GO BACK TO GAINING AGAIN, 1379 01:05:31,758 --> 01:05:33,862 UNLESS HE CHOOSES TO START MAKING THE CHANGES 1380 01:05:33,862 --> 01:05:35,413 SHE NEEDS HERSELF. 1381 01:05:35,413 --> 01:05:39,241 OTHERWISE, NOTHING WE DO WILL MAKE ANY LASTING DIFFERENCE. 1382 01:05:39,241 --> 01:05:41,344 SO, RIGHT NOW, I PLAN TO PLAN TO SEND HER TO LOLA, 1383 01:05:41,344 --> 01:05:42,758 STARTING IMMEDIATELY, 1384 01:05:42,758 --> 01:05:45,241 AND THEN WE'RE GONNA KEEP HER GOING EVERY TWO WEEKS, 1385 01:05:45,241 --> 01:05:48,103 TO SEE IF SHE CAN HELP TO WAKE UP MERCEDES. 1386 01:05:48,103 --> 01:05:50,896 BECAUSE IF SHE DOESN'T START DOING WHAT SHE NEEDS NOW, 1387 01:05:50,896 --> 01:05:54,137 THEN WE'RE GOING TO BE DOWN TO VERY LIMITED OPTIONS WITH HER 1388 01:05:54,137 --> 01:05:58,206 TO TRY TO SAVE HER LIFE BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE. 1389 01:05:58,206 --> 01:06:00,689 I'M REALLY DISAPPOINTED AND FRUSTRATED. 1390 01:06:00,689 --> 01:06:04,689 I DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE TO SAY, BECAUSE I KNOW I'M WORKING HARD. 1391 01:06:04,689 --> 01:06:06,482 SO I GUESS I GOT TO WORK HARDER. 1392 01:06:06,482 --> 01:06:08,551 SO THAT'S WHAT I'M GONNA DO. 1393 01:06:08,551 --> 01:06:12,344 ♪♪ 1394 01:06:12,344 --> 01:06:16,172 ♪♪ 1395 01:06:16,172 --> 01:06:18,689 TODAY, THE THERAPIST DR. NOW WANTS ME TO SEE 1396 01:06:18,689 --> 01:06:21,517 IS COMING OVER SO I CAN START THAT. 1397 01:06:21,517 --> 01:06:23,724 HE WANTS ME TO DO THIS EVERY TWO WEEKS, 1398 01:06:23,724 --> 01:06:25,310 AND I AGREED TO THAT. 1399 01:06:25,310 --> 01:06:28,206 BUT I DON'T THINK DOING THERAPY LIKE THIS IS GONNA MAKE 1400 01:06:28,206 --> 01:06:31,310 MUCH OF A DIFFERENCE IN TERMS OF MY WEIGHT LOSS RIGHT NOW, 1401 01:06:31,310 --> 01:06:32,758 BECAUSE I KNOW I'M WORKING HARD 1402 01:06:32,758 --> 01:06:35,000 AND I'M DETERMINED TO DO WHAT I NEED. 1403 01:06:35,000 --> 01:06:37,068 SO DEALING WITH MY EMOTIONAL STUFF 1404 01:06:37,068 --> 01:06:39,724 IS SOMETHING SEPARATE FROM THAT. 1405 01:06:39,724 --> 01:06:42,620 BUT I KNOW OVER THE LONG TERM, IT COULD BE GOOD TO DEAL 1406 01:06:42,620 --> 01:06:45,586 WITH A LOT OF THIS STUFF FOR MY EMOTIONAL PROGRESS. 1407 01:06:45,586 --> 01:06:48,655 BUT THAT'S WHY I'M OKAY WITH IT AND I'M WILLING TO DO IT. 1408 01:06:48,655 --> 01:06:50,620 ♪♪ 1409 01:06:50,620 --> 01:06:52,896 [ KNOCKS ON DOOR ] 1410 01:06:52,896 --> 01:06:55,482 HEY. I'M BACK HERE. 1411 01:06:55,482 --> 01:06:59,000 -HI. -HI. 1412 01:06:59,000 --> 01:07:01,137 IT'S A PLEASURE TO MEET YOU, MERCEDES. 1413 01:07:01,137 --> 01:07:03,620 -YOU TOO. -WHERE WOULD YOU HAVE ME? 1414 01:07:03,620 --> 01:07:05,379 RIGHT THERE'S THE CHAIR. YOU CAN PULL IT UP. 1415 01:07:05,379 --> 01:07:06,758 OKAY. 1416 01:07:06,758 --> 01:07:08,310 IS ABOUT HERE FINE FOR YOU? 1417 01:07:08,310 --> 01:07:09,379 YEAH. 1418 01:07:09,379 --> 01:07:12,034 OKAY. 1419 01:07:12,034 --> 01:07:13,827 TELL ME A LITTLE BIT ABOUT YOURSELF. 1420 01:07:13,827 --> 01:07:15,448 WHO'D YOU GROW UP WITH? 1421 01:07:15,448 --> 01:07:17,379 MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS. 1422 01:07:17,379 --> 01:07:19,310 IT'S SEVEN OF US ALTOGETHER. 1423 01:07:19,310 --> 01:07:21,344 OH, WOW. THAT'S A LARGE FAMILY. 1424 01:07:21,344 --> 01:07:22,448 YEAH. 1425 01:07:22,448 --> 01:07:25,068 WERE THERE EVERY TIMES WHEN YOU FELT LOST 1426 01:07:25,068 --> 01:07:27,310 IN THE SHUFFLE OF SUCH A LARGE FAMILY? 1427 01:07:27,310 --> 01:07:28,965 UH...YEAH. 1428 01:07:28,965 --> 01:07:32,793 LIKE, MY MOM PAID MORE ATTENTION TO MY OTHER SISTERS THAN ME. 1429 01:07:32,793 --> 01:07:36,137 THAT MUST'VE BEEN DIFFICULT FOR YOU. 1430 01:07:36,137 --> 01:07:37,793 WHAT ABOUT WITH THE DAD? 1431 01:07:37,793 --> 01:07:38,827 UH... 1432 01:07:38,827 --> 01:07:42,103 I WAS SEXUALLY ABUSED BY MY DAD. 1433 01:07:42,103 --> 01:07:45,931 I'M SORRY THAT HAPPENED TO YOU. 1434 01:07:45,931 --> 01:07:47,448 THAT MUST'VE BEEN REALLY TOUGH FOR YOU. 1435 01:07:47,448 --> 01:07:49,206 YEAH. 1436 01:07:49,206 --> 01:07:53,379 WHAT WAS IT LIKE FOR YOU HAVING TO BE AROUND YOUR FATHER, 1437 01:07:53,379 --> 01:07:57,586 BUT KNOWING THAT THOSE THINGS WOULD HAPPEN? 1438 01:07:57,586 --> 01:08:00,551 I DON'T KNOW. 1439 01:08:00,551 --> 01:08:03,517 I LOVED MY DAD. I STILL DO. 1440 01:08:03,517 --> 01:08:05,310 HE PASSED AWAY LAST YEAR. 1441 01:08:05,310 --> 01:08:07,689 I'M SORRY TO HEAR THAT. 1442 01:08:07,689 --> 01:08:10,758 AND I DIDN'T GET TO GO TO THE FUNERAL. 1443 01:08:10,758 --> 01:08:15,827 BUT HE CALLED ME AND HE ASKED ME TO FORGIVE HIM. 1444 01:08:15,827 --> 01:08:18,241 AND WERE YOU ABLE TO FORGIVE HIM, MERCEDES? 1445 01:08:18,241 --> 01:08:19,827 YEAH, I FORGAVE MY DAD. 1446 01:08:19,827 --> 01:08:22,793 I FORGAVE MY DAD. 1447 01:08:22,793 --> 01:08:25,689 WHEN A YOUNG CHILD IS SEXUALLY ABUSED, 1448 01:08:25,689 --> 01:08:29,551 ESPECIALLY BY A PARENT, IT'S NOT UNCOMMON FOR YOU 1449 01:08:29,551 --> 01:08:33,379 TO LOVE YOUR FATHER AND TO FORGIVE HIM. 1450 01:08:33,379 --> 01:08:38,551 BUT WHAT YOUR DAD DID WAS AWFUL AND IT WAS WRONG. 1451 01:08:38,551 --> 01:08:42,758 AND NOBODY'S JUDGING HIM. BUT HE HURT YOU. 1452 01:08:42,758 --> 01:08:44,413 MM-HMM. 1453 01:08:44,413 --> 01:08:46,034 YOU DIDN'T DESERVE THAT. 1454 01:08:46,034 --> 01:08:48,586 [ SNIFFLING ] 1455 01:08:48,586 --> 01:08:51,379 THAT'S A COMPLEX TRAUMA. 1456 01:08:51,379 --> 01:08:54,517 AND SO, FOR A LOT OF SURVIVORS OF SEXUAL ABUSE, 1457 01:08:54,517 --> 01:08:58,758 IT'S COMMON TO FALL INTO DIFFERENT TYPES OF ADDICTION. 1458 01:08:58,758 --> 01:09:02,862 SO, YOU IT SOUNDS LIKE YOU FIND YOURSELF TURNING TO FOOD 1459 01:09:02,862 --> 01:09:06,793 TO SELF-SOOTH AS A COPING MECHANISM. 1460 01:09:06,793 --> 01:09:10,482 YEAH. BASICALLY. I'M PAYING FOR IT NOW. 1461 01:09:10,482 --> 01:09:12,413 'CAUSE I CAN'T REALLY DO WHAT I WANT TO DO 1462 01:09:12,413 --> 01:09:14,758 AND BE THERE FOR MY KIDS. 1463 01:09:14,758 --> 01:09:17,172 AND THEY HAVE TO BE TAKING CARE OF ME. 1464 01:09:17,172 --> 01:09:20,310 AND I KNOW IT'S TAKING A TOLL ON MY DAUGHTER. 1465 01:09:20,310 --> 01:09:23,379 AND SHE'S NOT GONNA BE ABLE TO DO WHAT SHE WANTS TO DO, 1466 01:09:23,379 --> 01:09:25,551 BE A KID. 1467 01:09:25,551 --> 01:09:28,931 IT'S ALL BECAUSE OF ME. 1468 01:09:28,931 --> 01:09:32,275 YOU KNOW, MERCEDES, I KNOW THAT YOU HAVE SOME GUILT 1469 01:09:32,275 --> 01:09:36,275 OVER HOW MUCH YOUR DAUGHTER HAS TO DO TO HELP CARE FOR YOU, 1470 01:09:36,275 --> 01:09:39,448 AND SO I WANT YOU TO TAKE A MINUTE 1471 01:09:39,448 --> 01:09:43,862 AND THINK ABOUT WHAT YOU WOULD WANT TO SAY TO YOUR DAUGHTER 1472 01:09:43,862 --> 01:09:49,551 IF SHE WERE SITTING HERE RIGHT NOW. 1473 01:09:49,551 --> 01:09:52,551 I WOULD SAY I'M SORRY 1474 01:09:52,551 --> 01:09:56,172 FOR HER HAVING TO HELP ME 1475 01:09:56,172 --> 01:10:00,000 AND TAKE CARE OF ME INSTEAD OF ME TAKING CARE OF HER. 1476 01:10:00,000 --> 01:10:03,655 AND I'D SAY, THANK YOU FOR HELPING ME. 1477 01:10:03,655 --> 01:10:05,000 AND I WANT YOU TO BE A KID. 1478 01:10:05,000 --> 01:10:06,758 I DON'T WANT YOU TO HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF ME. 1479 01:10:06,758 --> 01:10:09,896 I WANT YOU TO BE ABLE TO ENJOY LIFE. 1480 01:10:09,896 --> 01:10:15,103 SO, MERCEDES, I WANT YOU TO HAVE THAT CONVERSATION WITH HER. 1481 01:10:15,103 --> 01:10:19,448 THAT'S GONNA MEAN SO MUCH TO HER. 1482 01:10:19,448 --> 01:10:22,517 AND YOUR HOMEWORK PERTAINING TO YOUR DAD? 1483 01:10:22,517 --> 01:10:27,896 I WANT YOU TO TAKE SMALL BITS OF TISSUE, 1484 01:10:27,896 --> 01:10:31,689 AND I WANT TO WRITE ON THAT TISSUE THE THINGS 1485 01:10:31,689 --> 01:10:35,241 THAT HE TOOK AWAY FROM YOU, OKAY? 1486 01:10:35,241 --> 01:10:38,827 AND THEN FLUSH IT, THROW IT AWAY, WHATEVER. 1487 01:10:38,827 --> 01:10:44,517 YOU RELEASE IT. 1488 01:10:44,517 --> 01:10:46,620 WELL, MERCEDES, IT WAS SO NICE MEETING YOU. 1489 01:10:46,620 --> 01:10:47,724 YOU TOO. 1490 01:10:47,724 --> 01:10:49,586 AND I'LL SEE YOU NEXT TIME. 1491 01:10:49,586 --> 01:10:51,000 ALL RIGHT. THANK YOU. 1492 01:10:51,000 --> 01:10:53,206 THANK YOU. HAVE A GOOD DAY. 1493 01:10:53,206 --> 01:10:56,241 YOU TOO. 1494 01:10:56,241 --> 01:10:57,862 I ENJOYED TALKING TO LOLA. 1495 01:10:57,862 --> 01:10:59,793 SHE'S INSIGHTFUL, BUT I DON'T KNOW ABOUT 1496 01:10:59,793 --> 01:11:02,448 SOME OF THE OTHER STUFF, LIKE HOMEWORK, 1497 01:11:02,448 --> 01:11:05,689 BECAUSE RIGHT NOW I NEED TO STAY FOCUSED ON MY PHYSICAL PROGRESS 1498 01:11:05,689 --> 01:11:07,896 AND MY WORRY IS DOING ANYTHING 1499 01:11:07,896 --> 01:11:11,344 TO CAUSE ME EMOTIONAL STRESS WILL MAKE ME STRUGGLE. 1500 01:11:11,344 --> 01:11:14,586 BUT I'M NOT GONNA IGNORE OR DISCOUNT WHAT SHE SAID. 1501 01:11:14,586 --> 01:11:18,724 I'M JUST SAYING, I HAVE TO BE CAREFUL NOT TO GET OFF TRACK. 1502 01:11:18,724 --> 01:11:22,103 THIS NEXT APPOINTMENT, I HAVE TO MAKE GOOD AND HIT MY GOAL, 1503 01:11:22,103 --> 01:11:23,965 SO THAT'S WHAT I PLAN TO DO. 1504 01:11:29,344 --> 01:11:33,137 ♪♪ 1505 01:11:33,137 --> 01:11:36,724 [ BIRDS CHIRPING ] 1506 01:11:36,724 --> 01:11:42,000 ♪♪ 1507 01:11:42,000 --> 01:11:47,310 ♪♪ 1508 01:11:47,310 --> 01:11:50,379 IT'S BEEN MONTHS SINCE MY LAST APPOINTMENT WITH DR. NOW, 1509 01:11:50,379 --> 01:11:55,275 AND I FEEL LIKE MY PROGRESS IS BETTER THAN EVER. 1510 01:11:55,275 --> 01:11:57,758 I'VE HAD TWO APPOINTMENTS WITH LOLA, 1511 01:11:57,758 --> 01:11:59,896 BUT I HAVEN'T FOUND A WAY OR A RIGHT TIME 1512 01:11:59,896 --> 01:12:03,413 TO DO ANY OF HER HOMEWORK. 1513 01:12:03,413 --> 01:12:06,068 MY FOCUS HAS BEEN ON MAKING MORE CHANGES, 1514 01:12:06,068 --> 01:12:10,172 TO EAT HEALTHIER AND GET MY EXERCISES. 1515 01:12:10,172 --> 01:12:11,344 LIKE FOR BACON THIS MORNING. 1516 01:12:11,344 --> 01:12:13,206 WE'RE GOIN' TURKEY BACON, 1517 01:12:13,206 --> 01:12:16,482 WHICH IS A LOT BETTER FOR YOU AND LESS CALORIES, 1518 01:12:16,482 --> 01:12:19,241 AND THEN I'M JUST FOCUSING ON HIGH-PROTEIN OPTIONS. 1519 01:12:19,241 --> 01:12:22,068 AND THE KIDS AND BRANDON LIKE IT. 1520 01:12:22,068 --> 01:12:24,482 AND FOR MY EXERCISES, I'M MAKING SURE I SPEND 1521 01:12:24,482 --> 01:12:26,103 MOST OF THE DAY OUT OF BED 1522 01:12:26,103 --> 01:12:29,344 AND TAKING CARE OF THE KIDS AS MUCH AS I CAN. 1523 01:12:31,517 --> 01:12:33,241 YES, INDEEDY. 1524 01:12:35,586 --> 01:12:39,206 I DO HAVE BUTTER ON IT. EXCUSE ME. 1525 01:12:39,206 --> 01:12:40,931 KIMORIAH? 1526 01:12:40,931 --> 01:12:44,689 -KIMORIAH. -MIGHT AS WELL COME ON. 1527 01:12:44,689 --> 01:12:46,827 YOU READY TO EAT? 1528 01:12:46,827 --> 01:12:48,896 ♪♪ 1529 01:12:48,896 --> 01:12:51,344 I WAS WORRIED IT WOULD WEAR ME OUT TOO QUICKLY 1530 01:12:51,344 --> 01:12:54,448 IF I WAS UP TOO MUCH, BUT IT'S BEEN NICE. 1531 01:12:54,448 --> 01:12:58,103 AND I KNOW THE KIDS ENJOY HAVING ME AROUND THEM MORE. 1532 01:12:58,103 --> 01:13:00,620 AND MY PLAN IS TO KEEP WORKING HARD LIKE THIS 1533 01:13:00,620 --> 01:13:04,586 FOR THE NEXT TWO MONTHS TO MAKE AS MUCH PROGRESS AS I CAN, 1534 01:13:04,586 --> 01:13:06,586 THEN GO BACK TO DR. NOW 1535 01:13:06,586 --> 01:13:09,137 AND IMPRESS HIM WITH HOW MUCH I LOST 1536 01:13:09,137 --> 01:13:11,655 AND WHAT I'M ABLE TO DO NOW, 1537 01:13:11,655 --> 01:13:15,000 AND FINALLY GET MY APPROVAL FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1538 01:13:15,000 --> 01:13:19,068 ♪♪ 1539 01:13:19,068 --> 01:13:23,172 ♪♪ 1540 01:13:23,172 --> 01:13:27,275 ♪♪ 1541 01:13:27,275 --> 01:13:30,310 OVER THE PAST MONTH, I FELT LIKE I'VE BEEN ABLE TO STAY FOCUSED 1542 01:13:30,310 --> 01:13:32,827 BECAUSE I'VE BEEN ABLE TO STAY ON MY DIET. 1543 01:13:32,827 --> 01:13:36,551 AND I'VE ALSO BEEN KEEPING MY APPOINTMENTS WITH LOLA. 1544 01:13:36,551 --> 01:13:40,344 I HAVEN'T DONE ANY OF THE HOMEWORK SHE GAVE ME, 1545 01:13:40,344 --> 01:13:44,310 BUT I TOLD LOLA I CONSIDERED AT DOING ONE OF THOSE THINGS 1546 01:13:44,310 --> 01:13:47,275 AND THEN SEE ABOUT DOING OTHERS. 1547 01:13:47,275 --> 01:13:49,206 BECAUSE THE THING THAT SHE TOLD ME DO THAT 1548 01:13:49,206 --> 01:13:51,448 I REALLY WANT TO DO 1549 01:13:51,448 --> 01:13:53,586 IS TELLING KIMORIAH HOW I FEEL 1550 01:13:53,586 --> 01:13:57,103 AND THAT I'M SORRY FOR TAKING UP PART OF HER CHILDHOOD 1551 01:13:57,103 --> 01:14:00,827 WITH ALL THE STUFF SHE HAD TO DO FOR ME AND KAU'LIN. 1552 01:14:00,827 --> 01:14:04,275 SO I WANT HER TO KNOW HOW THANKFUL I AM FOR HER, 1553 01:14:04,275 --> 01:14:08,000 SO I'M WRITING EVERYTHING I WANT TO SAY DOWN. 1554 01:14:08,000 --> 01:14:10,896 AND THEN I'M GONNA SHARE IT WITH HER. 1555 01:14:10,896 --> 01:14:13,689 WHAT DO YOU DO WHAT I TOLD YOU TO DO? 1556 01:14:13,689 --> 01:14:16,137 MM-HMM. 1557 01:14:16,137 --> 01:14:17,758 YEAH, YOU NEED SOMETHING? 1558 01:14:17,758 --> 01:14:19,551 NO. I GOT SOMETHING FOR YOU. 1559 01:14:19,551 --> 01:14:20,551 WHAT? 1560 01:14:20,551 --> 01:14:22,689 I GOT TO READ THIS THING. 1561 01:14:22,689 --> 01:14:25,310 IT'S A LETTER THAT I WROTE. 1562 01:14:25,310 --> 01:14:28,620 OKAY. 1563 01:14:28,620 --> 01:14:32,931 IT SAYS, "TO MY BABY GIRL... 1564 01:14:32,931 --> 01:14:36,034 FIRST OF ALL, I WOULD LIKE TO SAY THANK YOU 1565 01:14:36,034 --> 01:14:39,655 FOR HELPING ME THROUGH THIS HARD TIME. 1566 01:14:39,655 --> 01:14:41,655 SECOND OF ALL, I WOULD LIKE TO SAY 1567 01:14:41,655 --> 01:14:46,413 I'M SORRY FOR TAKING YOUR FREEDOM AWAY TO HELP ME. 1568 01:14:46,413 --> 01:14:48,862 I DON'T WANT YOU TAKING CARE OF ME. 1569 01:14:48,862 --> 01:14:52,758 I'M THE MOTHER. THAT'S MY JOB, NOT YOURS. 1570 01:14:52,758 --> 01:14:58,275 I JUST WANT YOU TO BE A KID AND ENJOY YOUR LIFE, 1571 01:14:58,275 --> 01:15:01,034 NOT HAVE TO STOP BECAUSE OF ME. 1572 01:15:01,034 --> 01:15:03,241 THAT'S NOT FAIR TO YOU. 1573 01:15:03,241 --> 01:15:05,862 AND I WANTED TO SAY I'M SORRY AGAIN, 1574 01:15:05,862 --> 01:15:09,137 AND I LOVE YOU, AND IT'S ALMOST OVER. 1575 01:15:09,137 --> 01:15:11,724 HUGS AND KISSES." 1576 01:15:11,724 --> 01:15:12,482 MOM... 1577 01:15:12,482 --> 01:15:14,827 I LOVE YOU. 1578 01:15:14,827 --> 01:15:20,413 ♪♪ 1579 01:15:20,413 --> 01:15:22,379 DANG. 1580 01:15:22,379 --> 01:15:23,793 YOU'RE ALWAYS CRYING. 1581 01:15:23,793 --> 01:15:24,758 YOU DID IT. 1582 01:15:24,758 --> 01:15:27,724 YOU DID. 1583 01:15:27,724 --> 01:15:28,724 YOU STARTED IT. 1584 01:15:28,724 --> 01:15:29,413 NUH-UNH. 1585 01:15:29,413 --> 01:15:31,517 YES, YOU DID. 1586 01:15:31,517 --> 01:15:34,689 ♪♪ 1587 01:15:34,689 --> 01:15:37,103 I WAS NERVOUS AT FIRST, BUT ONCE I STARTED, 1588 01:15:37,103 --> 01:15:39,068 IT JUST KINDA FLOWED OUT. 1589 01:15:39,068 --> 01:15:43,896 AND I FEEL REALLY GOOD RIGHT NOW BECAUSE I LOVE KIMORIAH SO MUCH. 1590 01:15:43,896 --> 01:15:48,551 AND SO PROUD OF HER FOR ALL SHE DOES AND HOW SHE HELPS ME, 1591 01:15:48,551 --> 01:15:50,275 SO I'M REALLY GLAD I DID THIS 1592 01:15:50,275 --> 01:15:52,068 'CAUSE THESE ARE THINGS THAT HAVE BEEN ON MY HEART 1593 01:15:52,068 --> 01:15:54,689 FOR A WHILE THAT I WANTED TO SHARE. 1594 01:15:54,689 --> 01:15:57,482 SO WITH HOW THIS WENT AND HOW GOOD I FEEL RIGHT NOW, 1595 01:15:57,482 --> 01:15:59,551 I'M WILLING TO CONSIDER SOME OF THE OTHER STUFF 1596 01:15:59,551 --> 01:16:03,000 LOLA TOLD ME TO DO TO FREE ME UP TO LOSE MY WEIGHT 1597 01:16:03,000 --> 01:16:05,551 AS I BREAK MY FOOD ADDICTION. 1598 01:16:05,551 --> 01:16:10,965 ♪♪ 1599 01:16:10,965 --> 01:16:16,379 ♪♪ 1600 01:16:16,379 --> 01:16:18,379 ME AND MY FAMILY ARE HEADED TO DR. NOW'S 1601 01:16:18,379 --> 01:16:22,931 FOR AN APPOINTMENT, AND TO FIND OUT MY PROGRESS. 1602 01:16:22,931 --> 01:16:25,344 AND I'M A LITTLE NERVOUS BUT ONLY BECAUSE I KNOW 1603 01:16:25,344 --> 01:16:27,827 DR. NOW ISN'T TOO HAPPY RIGHT NOW. 1604 01:16:27,827 --> 01:16:30,206 'CAUSE IT'S BEEN FOUR MONTHS SINCE I'VE BEEN BACK, 1605 01:16:30,206 --> 01:16:33,689 AND THAT I'M A MONTH PAST THE DEADLINE HE GAVE ME. 1606 01:16:33,689 --> 01:16:36,724 BUT DR. NOW CALLED ME AND TOLD ME IF I DON'T COME IN NOW, 1607 01:16:36,724 --> 01:16:40,862 I'LL BE DONE WITH THE PROGRAM, SO HE WASN'T HAPPY. 1608 01:16:40,862 --> 01:16:43,793 BUT I'M GOING IN LIKE HE SAID BECAUSE I NEED THIS PROGRAM 1609 01:16:43,793 --> 01:16:46,965 AND I WANT TO STAY A PART OF IT. 1610 01:16:46,965 --> 01:16:51,448 BUT I FEEL LIKE TODAY WILL GO WELL. 1611 01:16:51,448 --> 01:16:53,758 MERCEDES? 1612 01:16:53,758 --> 01:16:55,172 AND I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO SEEING 1613 01:16:55,172 --> 01:16:58,724 HOW MUCH I'VE LOST IN TOTAL DURING THIS TIME. 1614 01:16:58,724 --> 01:17:01,448 AND I WANTED MY KIDS AND EVERYONE TO BE HERE WITH ME, 1615 01:17:01,448 --> 01:17:03,482 TO SEE IT AND CELEBRATE WITH ME 1616 01:17:03,482 --> 01:17:06,931 SO I'M ABLE TO GET APPROVED FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY TODAY. 1617 01:17:06,931 --> 01:17:08,827 SO EVEN THOUGH I'M NERVOUS, 1618 01:17:08,827 --> 01:17:11,413 I'M EVEN MORE EXCITED ABOUT HOW MY LIFE IS ABOUT TO CHANGE. 1619 01:17:17,275 --> 01:17:20,551 ♪♪ 1620 01:17:20,551 --> 01:17:23,896 ♪♪ 1621 01:17:23,896 --> 01:17:27,931 AT MY LAST APPOINTMENT, FOUR MONTHS AGO, I WAS 736. 1622 01:17:27,931 --> 01:17:30,896 AND DR. NOW GAVE ME A FEW RANGES OF WEIGHT-LOSS GOALS 1623 01:17:30,896 --> 01:17:33,379 I NEEDED TO MEET DEPENDING, 1624 01:17:33,379 --> 01:17:35,448 AND HE THE BIGGEST RANGE HE GAVE ME 1625 01:17:35,448 --> 01:17:38,448 WAS 160 POUNDS IN THREE MONTHS. 1626 01:17:38,448 --> 01:17:40,482 SO THAT'S THE GOAL I'M HOPING TO HIT. 1627 01:17:40,482 --> 01:17:44,172 AND IF I DID THAT, I'LL BE UNDER 576. 1628 01:17:44,172 --> 01:17:48,931 ♪♪ 1629 01:17:48,931 --> 01:17:53,689 ♪♪ 1630 01:17:53,689 --> 01:17:58,482 ♪♪ 1631 01:17:58,482 --> 01:18:01,620 I'M A LITTLE SHOCKED THAT MY WEIGHT LOSS ISN'T BIGGER, 1632 01:18:01,620 --> 01:18:04,896 BUT I'M REALLY PROUD TO SEE I'M LOSING AGAIN. 1633 01:18:04,896 --> 01:18:07,034 THAT FEELS AWESOME. 1634 01:18:07,034 --> 01:18:09,344 BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW DR. NOW'S GONNA REACT. 1635 01:18:09,344 --> 01:18:12,379 THIS IS NOT THE GOAL HE GAVE ME. 1636 01:18:12,379 --> 01:18:15,620 BUT ALL COMBINED, I LOST 80 POUNDS SINCE I STARTED, 1637 01:18:15,620 --> 01:18:18,482 SO THAT'S A LOT. 1638 01:18:18,482 --> 01:18:22,137 AND I'M HOPING THAT'S WHAT DR. NOW FOCUSES ON AND SEES, 1639 01:18:22,137 --> 01:18:24,413 BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN WORKING REALLY HARD. 1640 01:18:24,413 --> 01:18:28,551 AND I'M PROUD OF THAT, AND THAT I DO HAVE PROGRESS THIS TIME. 1641 01:18:28,551 --> 01:18:31,034 BUT I'M STILL SCARED BECAUSE I KNOW DR. NOW 1642 01:18:31,034 --> 01:18:33,827 IS GETTING TO HIS LIMITS WITH ME. 1643 01:18:33,827 --> 01:18:36,137 AND I DON'T WANT HIM TO GIVE UP ON ME AND TELL ME 1644 01:18:36,137 --> 01:18:39,310 I'M DONE WITH THE PROGRAM. 1645 01:18:39,310 --> 01:18:40,620 [ KNOCKS ON DOOR ] 1646 01:18:40,620 --> 01:18:42,965 -COME IN. -COME IN. 1647 01:18:42,965 --> 01:18:44,758 -HELLO. -HEY. 1648 01:18:44,758 --> 01:18:47,896 -HOW Y'ALL DOIN'? -ALL RIGHT. 1649 01:18:47,896 --> 01:18:50,793 ALL RIGHT, MERCEDES, I GAVE YOU SOME REQUIREMENTS LAST TIME 1650 01:18:50,793 --> 01:18:52,310 ON WHAT YOU NEEDED TO DO 1651 01:18:52,310 --> 01:18:54,379 IF YOU WANTED TO BE PART OF THIS PROGRAM. 1652 01:18:54,379 --> 01:18:56,827 ONE WAS TO START GOING TO PSYCHOTHERAPY, 1653 01:18:56,827 --> 01:18:59,931 AND YOU MADE IT TO MOST OF YOUR APPOINTMENTS WITH LOLA, 1654 01:18:59,931 --> 01:19:02,620 BUT THAT'S THE ONLY ONE YOU EVEN GOT CLOSE TO DOING 1655 01:19:02,620 --> 01:19:05,655 BECAUSE YOU DIDN'T COME BACK WITHIN THREE MONTHS. 1656 01:19:05,655 --> 01:19:07,586 IT'S BEEN FOUR AND WE HAD TO CALL YOU 1657 01:19:07,586 --> 01:19:10,000 AND GIVE YOU AN ULTIMATUM OF BEING OUT OF THE PROGRAM 1658 01:19:10,000 --> 01:19:11,724 TO EVEN GET YOU HERE TODAY. 1659 01:19:11,724 --> 01:19:14,413 AND THEN YOU ONLY LOST 44 POUNDS, 1660 01:19:14,413 --> 01:19:18,758 NOT EVEN CLOSE TO HITTING YOUR WEIGHT-LOSS GOAL FOR ONE MONTH. 1661 01:19:18,758 --> 01:19:22,068 THE ONLY POSITIVE IS THAT YOU'RE FINALLY UNDER 700, 1662 01:19:22,068 --> 01:19:23,551 BUT JUST BARELY. 1663 01:19:23,551 --> 01:19:27,344 SO AT THIS POINT, I DON'T KNOW WHERE WE CAN GO FROM HERE. 1664 01:19:27,344 --> 01:19:30,103 WE'RE GIVEN YOU EVERY TOOL IN A YEAR TO DO THIS, 1665 01:19:30,103 --> 01:19:32,413 AND YOU ONLY LOST 80 POUNDS AT THAT TIME. 1666 01:19:32,413 --> 01:19:33,758 SO AT THIS RATE, 1667 01:19:33,758 --> 01:19:36,034 EVEN IF YOU'RE ABLE TO MAINTAIN THIS LEVEL OF PROGRESS, 1668 01:19:36,034 --> 01:19:39,965 IT WILL TAKE YOU 67 YEARS TO GET YOU TO YOUR TARGET WEIGHT, 1669 01:19:39,965 --> 01:19:41,931 AND YOU'LL BE DEAD BY THEN. 1670 01:19:41,931 --> 01:19:43,586 MM-HMM. 1671 01:19:43,586 --> 01:19:46,310 I DON'T WANT YOUR KIDS TO HAVE TO HEAR THAT, 1672 01:19:46,310 --> 01:19:49,620 BUT THIS IS THE REALITY OF YOUR SITUATION. 1673 01:19:49,620 --> 01:19:51,103 AND NO MATTER WHAT WE DO, 1674 01:19:51,103 --> 01:19:53,896 WE CAN'T SEEM TO GET THROUGH TO YOU. 1675 01:19:53,896 --> 01:19:56,517 AT YOUR LAST APPOINTMENT, THE TEST WE RAN SHOWED 1676 01:19:56,517 --> 01:19:59,379 THAT YOUR CONDITION WAS DETERIORATING, 1677 01:19:59,379 --> 01:20:04,000 SHOWING THAT YOU'RE IN SOME DEGREE OF HEART FAILURE. 1678 01:20:04,000 --> 01:20:06,862 THAT'S WHY I LIMITED YOU TO THREE MONTHS MAXIMUM 1679 01:20:06,862 --> 01:20:09,034 TO GET YOU BACK HERE TO FOLLOW-UP, 1680 01:20:09,034 --> 01:20:11,034 AND YOU DIDN'T LISTEN TO THAT EITHER. 1681 01:20:11,034 --> 01:20:12,620 BUT IF WE HAD DONE THE TESTS ON YOU, 1682 01:20:12,620 --> 01:20:14,241 IT'S GONNA BE EVEN WORSE NOW. 1683 01:20:14,241 --> 01:20:17,448 AND THE ONLY WAY TO STOP WHAT'S ABOUT TO HAPPEN TO YOU 1684 01:20:17,448 --> 01:20:20,344 IS TO GET YOU TO LOSE WEIGHT PROPERLY RIGHT NOW, 1685 01:20:20,344 --> 01:20:21,586 OR YOU WON'T MAKE IT. 1686 01:20:21,586 --> 01:20:22,931 OKAY. 1687 01:20:22,931 --> 01:20:26,275 SO, THE ONLY OPTION I SEE AT THIS POINT 1688 01:20:26,275 --> 01:20:29,103 IS TO PUT YOU ON A CONTROLLED DIET IN THE HOSPITAL. 1689 01:20:29,103 --> 01:20:31,310 BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT DOING THAT ON YOUR OWN. 1690 01:20:31,310 --> 01:20:32,965 SO WE NEED TO DO THIS NOW. 1691 01:20:32,965 --> 01:20:34,482 WE CAN'T WAIT ANY LONGER. 1692 01:20:34,482 --> 01:20:35,517 OKAY? 1693 01:20:35,517 --> 01:20:37,172 HOW LONG WILL SHE BE IN THE HOSPITAL? 1694 01:20:37,172 --> 01:20:40,862 SHE MAY BE THERE FOR A WHILE. AT LEAST A FEW MONTHS. 1695 01:20:40,862 --> 01:20:43,103 BECAUSE WE HAVE A LOT OF WEIGHT TO GET OFF HER, 1696 01:20:43,103 --> 01:20:45,655 AND IT'S GONNA BE THE ONLY WAY WE CAN SAVE HER LIFE, 1697 01:20:45,655 --> 01:20:48,689 BECAUSE HER HEART IS IN FAILURE. 1698 01:20:48,689 --> 01:20:52,344 AND THE ONLY WAY TO STOP THAT IS TO ADMIT YOU TO A HOSPITAL. 1699 01:20:52,344 --> 01:20:54,137 YOU THINK YOU CAN DO THAT, MERCEDES? 1700 01:20:54,137 --> 01:20:56,103 -YEAH. -GOOD. 1701 01:20:56,103 --> 01:20:57,379 WELL, I KNOW YOU HAVE KIDS, 1702 01:20:57,379 --> 01:21:00,103 SO GOING RIGHT NOW IS NOT A SIMPLE THING. 1703 01:21:00,103 --> 01:21:03,068 SO I'M GONNA GIVE YOU THREE DAYS TO GET WHAT YOU CAN IN ORDER 1704 01:21:03,068 --> 01:21:05,482 AND REPORT TO THE HOSPITAL TO BE ADMITTED. 1705 01:21:05,482 --> 01:21:06,551 OKAY. 1706 01:21:06,551 --> 01:21:08,620 THIS IS NOT GONNA BE QUICK OR EASY. 1707 01:21:08,620 --> 01:21:12,862 BUT YOU WASTED A YEAR, AND WE CAN'T LET YOU GO ON LIKE THIS. 1708 01:21:12,862 --> 01:21:15,724 AT THIS POINT, WITH YOUR HEART FAILURE, 1709 01:21:15,724 --> 01:21:18,758 YOU'RE NOT GONNA BE ABLE TO SURVIVE MUCH LONGER AT ALL, 1710 01:21:18,758 --> 01:21:21,344 SO THE ONLY WAY WE CAN SAVE YOUR LIFE 1711 01:21:21,344 --> 01:21:24,172 IS TO GET YOU IN THE HOSPITAL AND CONTROL YOUR DIET 1712 01:21:24,172 --> 01:21:27,827 AND GET YOU TO LOSE AT LEAST A COUPLE HUNDRED POUNDS. 1713 01:21:27,827 --> 01:21:31,172 AND THAT'S GONNA BE THE ONLY OPTION WE HAVE FOR YOU 1714 01:21:31,172 --> 01:21:33,896 TO SAVE YOUR LIFE, OKAY? 1715 01:21:33,896 --> 01:21:35,206 YOU UNDERSTAND THAT? 1716 01:21:35,206 --> 01:21:36,068 MM-HMM. 1717 01:21:36,068 --> 01:21:38,310 GOOD. BECAUSE WE CAN'T CONSIDER 1718 01:21:38,310 --> 01:21:41,275 ANY SORT OF EMERGENCY-SURGERY OPTIONS FOR YOU. 1719 01:21:41,275 --> 01:21:45,241 BECAUSE ANY KIND OF PROCURE ON YOU IS GONNA BE HIGHLY RISKY, 1720 01:21:45,241 --> 01:21:47,620 AND YOU'RE NOT GONNA SURVIVE THE OPERATION. 1721 01:21:47,620 --> 01:21:50,068 SO IT IS VERY IMPORTANT 1722 01:21:50,068 --> 01:21:52,724 THAT WE GET YOUR WEIGHT DOWN AS QUICKLY AS POSSIBLE. 1723 01:21:52,724 --> 01:21:53,965 OKAY? 1724 01:21:53,965 --> 01:21:57,724 BECAUSE WE DON'T HAVE MUCH TIME TO WAIT FOR YOU 1725 01:21:57,724 --> 01:21:59,862 TO DO IT ON YOUR OWN, OKAY? 1726 01:21:59,862 --> 01:22:01,551 -OKAY. -ALL RIGHT. 1727 01:22:01,551 --> 01:22:04,551 LET ME LISTEN TO YOUR HEART AND SEE HOW IT SOUNDS. 1728 01:22:09,586 --> 01:22:13,482 TAKE A DEEP BREATH. 1729 01:22:13,482 --> 01:22:15,172 IT'S NOT SOUNDING GOOD. 1730 01:22:15,172 --> 01:22:18,000 YOUR PULMONARY SYSTEM SEEMS WEAKER NOW. 1731 01:22:18,000 --> 01:22:21,724 HAVE YOU BEEN KEEPING UP WITH YOUR ACTIVITY? 1732 01:22:21,724 --> 01:22:23,724 UM... 1733 01:22:23,724 --> 01:22:26,896 DOING A LITTLE UPPER-BODY EXERCISE. 1734 01:22:26,896 --> 01:22:29,344 AND TRY TO WALK A LITTLE BIT EVERY DAY. 1735 01:22:29,344 --> 01:22:31,655 SO MUCH CAN YOU WALK? HOW MANY STEPS? 1736 01:22:31,655 --> 01:22:34,586 UM... 1737 01:22:34,586 --> 01:22:38,344 LIKE, FROM HERE TO THE EXIT. 1738 01:22:38,344 --> 01:22:41,931 SO YOU GET VERY SHORT OF BREATH WHEN YOU DO THAT? 1739 01:22:41,931 --> 01:22:43,689 -MM-HMM. -YEAH. 1740 01:22:43,689 --> 01:22:47,206 YOUR CONDITION IS DECLINING, AND YOU'RE DOING EVEN LESS NOW, 1741 01:22:47,206 --> 01:22:49,862 SO THIS IS NOT A GOOD SITUATION AT ALL. 1742 01:22:49,862 --> 01:22:52,137 AND WE NEED TO TURN IT AROUND NOW. 1743 01:22:52,137 --> 01:22:54,896 SO I'LL GIVE YOU THREE DAYS TO GET EVERYTHING IN ORDER. 1744 01:22:54,896 --> 01:22:57,310 IT'S NOT A LOT OF TIME BUT THE PROBLEM IS, 1745 01:22:57,310 --> 01:22:58,862 YOU DON'T HAVE A LOT OF TIME. 1746 01:22:58,862 --> 01:23:00,379 YOU'RE ABOUT TO RUN OUT. 1747 01:23:00,379 --> 01:23:02,758 SO I EXPECT TO SEE YOU AT THE HOSPITAL THEN. 1748 01:23:02,758 --> 01:23:04,068 OKAY. 1749 01:23:04,068 --> 01:23:07,241 IF YOU HAVE ANY ISSUES BEFORE THEN, CALL ME IMMEDIATELY. 1750 01:23:07,241 --> 01:23:08,172 OKAY. 1751 01:23:08,172 --> 01:23:10,241 OKAY, I'LL SEE YOU SOON. 1752 01:23:10,241 --> 01:23:11,793 -ALL RIGHT. -THANK YOU. 1753 01:23:11,793 --> 01:23:13,206 -AND, SEE YOU LATER. -THANK YOU, DOC. 1754 01:23:13,206 --> 01:23:16,862 NICE TO SEE YOU. BYE. 1755 01:23:16,862 --> 01:23:21,448 ♪♪ 1756 01:23:21,448 --> 01:23:24,241 Dr. Nowzaradan: WE'RE DOWN TO OUR FINAL OPTIONS WITH MERCEDES, 1757 01:23:24,241 --> 01:23:27,896 SO THE PRIORITY RIGHT NOW IS PREVENTING HER FROM DYING, 1758 01:23:27,896 --> 01:23:30,689 BECAUSE AT THIS POINT, HER CONDITION IS WORSE 1759 01:23:30,689 --> 01:23:32,344 TO WHERE IF WE DON'T INTERVENE, 1760 01:23:32,344 --> 01:23:35,379 SHE'S NOT GONNA BE ABLE TO LIVE MUCH LONGER. 1761 01:23:35,379 --> 01:23:38,448 SO THIS IS AN EXTREMELY UNFORTUNATE SITUATION 1762 01:23:38,448 --> 01:23:39,896 WE HAVE WITH HER RIGHT NOW. 1763 01:23:39,896 --> 01:23:43,206 BECAUSE NOT ONLY IS SHE RISKING HER LIFE WITH HER BEHAVIOR 1764 01:23:43,206 --> 01:23:46,724 AND ME HAVING TO INTERVENE TO STOP WHAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN, 1765 01:23:46,724 --> 01:23:48,655 BUT AS IT STANDS RIGHT NOW, 1766 01:23:48,655 --> 01:23:50,379 TURNING HER SITUATION AROUND 1767 01:23:50,379 --> 01:23:52,793 IS ONLY GONNA BE A TEMPORARY FIX. 1768 01:23:52,793 --> 01:23:56,482 AND UNLESS WE FIND A WAY TO BREAK THROUGH TO MERCEDES 1769 01:23:56,482 --> 01:23:59,000 AND GET HER TO START MAKING THE CHOICES SHE NEEDS, 1770 01:23:59,000 --> 01:24:01,172 SHE WILL JUST GO BACK HOME AND GAIN AGAIN 1771 01:24:01,172 --> 01:24:04,793 UNTIL HER BODY CAN'T HANDLE IT AND SHE DIES. 1772 01:24:04,793 --> 01:24:07,413 SO WE HAVE A LOT OF WORK TO DO WITH MERCEDES 1773 01:24:07,413 --> 01:24:10,793 OVER THE NEXT FEW MONTHS TO TRY AND SAVE HER LIFE, 1774 01:24:10,793 --> 01:24:13,275 BUT WE'RE NOT GOING TO GIVE UP ON MERCEDES YET. 1775 01:24:13,275 --> 01:24:16,551 EVEN THOUGH RIGHT NOW THE ODDS DON'T LOOK GOOD FOR HER, 1776 01:24:16,551 --> 01:24:19,034 BECAUSE LOW ODDS HAS NEVER STOPPED US 1777 01:24:19,034 --> 01:24:22,965 FROM DOING EVERYTHING WE CAN TO TRY AND SAVE SOMEONE'S LIFE. 1778 01:24:22,965 --> 01:24:26,034 SO THAT'S WHAT WE'LL DO OVER THE NEXT FEW MONTHS, 1779 01:24:26,034 --> 01:24:29,275 TO NOT ONLY TRY AND TURN HER SITUATION AROUND, 1780 01:24:29,275 --> 01:24:31,655 BUT TO GET THROUGH TO HER LIKE WE NEED 1781 01:24:31,655 --> 01:24:34,620 SO SHE'LL TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR HER CHOICES 1782 01:24:34,620 --> 01:24:37,655 AND HER LIFE BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE. 1783 01:24:37,655 --> 01:24:43,137 ♪♪ 1784 01:24:43,137 --> 01:24:44,896 Mercedes: I WAS LOOKING FORWARD TO 1785 01:24:44,896 --> 01:24:46,310 GETTING APPROVED FOR SOMETHING, 1786 01:24:46,310 --> 01:24:50,724 BUT THIS NEWS WASN'T GOOD NEWS TO HEAR. 1787 01:24:50,724 --> 01:24:52,793 IT IS HEARTBREAKING. IT'S SAD. 1788 01:24:52,793 --> 01:24:55,482 AND VERY SCARED FOR MY LIFE RIGHT NOW. 1789 01:24:55,482 --> 01:24:59,448 MY LIFE EXPECTANCY IS GETTING SHORTER BY THE DAY. 1790 01:24:59,448 --> 01:25:01,137 I HAVE MY KIDS HERE. 1791 01:25:01,137 --> 01:25:02,448 THEY NEED ME, SO... 1792 01:25:02,448 --> 01:25:05,724 I CAN'T LEAVE MY KIDS. 1793 01:25:05,724 --> 01:25:07,517 [ GRUNTING ] 1794 01:25:07,517 --> 01:25:09,620 IT'S JUST NOT GONNA BE EASY, 1795 01:25:09,620 --> 01:25:11,758 BUT WE'VE ALL RISEN TO EVERY CHALLENGE. 1796 01:25:11,758 --> 01:25:15,586 AND I'M GONNA KEEP FIGHTING TO MAKE IT TO WHERE I NEED. 1797 01:25:15,586 --> 01:25:18,620 I WANT TO DO THIS, AND I WANT TO WORK AS HARD AS I CAN 1798 01:25:18,620 --> 01:25:21,344 TO TAKE THIS OPPORTUNITY TO LOSE A LOT OF WEIGHT 1799 01:25:21,344 --> 01:25:22,896 AND TRY TO GET THE WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY 1800 01:25:22,896 --> 01:25:25,206 SO I CAN KEEP ALIVE. 1801 01:25:25,206 --> 01:25:28,206 AND THEN I'M GONNA MAKE IT TO THE LIFE I WANT. 1802 01:25:28,206 --> 01:25:29,724 BECAUSE NO MATTER THE SETBACK, 1803 01:25:29,724 --> 01:25:31,862 I'M NOT STOPPING UNTIL I GET THERE. 1804 01:25:31,862 --> 01:25:32,172 --Captions by VITAC-- www.vitac.com